ma ▁and ▁Lord ▁Ra a ' s ▁ent ou rage ▁accomp any ▁Mary ▁and ▁her ▁husband ▁and ▁their ▁home ▁is ▁given ▁over ▁to ▁the ▁deb auch ▁of ▁the ▁drink ing , ▁g amb ling ▁and ▁imm oral ▁living . ▁Mary ▁makes ▁un success ful ▁en qui ries ▁about ▁getting ▁a ▁divor ce ▁and ▁returns ▁to ▁find ▁the ▁house ▁vac ated ▁of ▁guests , ▁as ▁they ▁have ▁o min ously ▁gone ▁off ▁on ▁a ▁cru ise ▁when ▁it ▁was ▁discovered ▁that ▁Martin ▁was ▁coming ▁to ▁visit . ▁Despite ▁her ▁best ▁intent ions ▁and ▁determined ▁attempts ▁at ▁self - den ial , ▁she ▁and ▁Martin ▁admit ▁their ▁love ▁and , ▁on ▁the ▁e ve ▁of ▁his ▁departure ▁on ▁another ▁mission ▁to ▁the ▁South ▁P ole , ▁she ▁goes ▁to ▁him ▁in ▁his ▁room . ▁ ▁Fif th ▁Part : ▁I ▁Be come ▁a ▁Mother ▁After ▁Martin ▁leaves ▁for ▁Ant arct ica , ▁Mary ▁finds ▁that ▁she ▁is ▁pre gn ant . ▁She ▁fle es ▁Castle ▁Ra a ▁secret ly ▁and ▁travel s ▁to ▁London . ▁After ▁ev ading ▁discovery ▁with ▁the ▁help ▁of ▁a ▁school hood ▁friend , ▁Mary ▁he ars ▁of ▁the ▁( ult imately ▁false ) ▁newspaper ▁reports ▁that ▁Martin ▁had ▁died ▁at ▁sea . ▁After ▁failing ▁to ▁find ▁any ▁better ▁accommod ation , ▁it ▁is ▁in ▁the ▁poor ▁area ▁of ▁B ays water ▁that ▁she ▁gives ▁birth ▁to ▁a ▁baby ▁girl . ▁ ▁Six th ▁Part : ▁I ▁am ▁Lost ▁In ▁order ▁to ▁ear n ▁money , ▁Mary ▁gives ▁the ▁child ▁to