▁of ▁whom ▁he ▁had ▁been ▁ter r ified ▁of ▁as ▁a ▁child . ▁ ▁Once ▁he ▁has ▁finished ▁with ▁these ▁re collections ▁we ▁learn ▁a ▁little ▁about ▁where ▁he ▁is ▁now . ▁It ▁appears ▁he ▁is ▁still ▁going ▁for ▁his ▁daily ▁per amb ulations , ▁" out , ▁on , ▁round , ▁back , ▁in " ▁as ▁he ▁puts ▁it . ▁And ▁he ▁is ▁still ▁in ▁poor ▁health . ▁His ▁thro at , ▁which ▁has ▁bother ed ▁him ▁for ▁as ▁long ▁as ▁he ▁can ▁remember , ▁still ▁troubles ▁him ▁and ▁he ▁has ▁developed ▁ear ache . ▁He ▁regards ▁himself ▁now ▁as ▁a ▁" m ild " ▁person ▁and ▁yet ▁for ▁some ▁reason ▁the ▁violence ▁of ▁old ▁er u pts ▁and ▁he ▁begins ▁l ash ing ▁about ▁with ▁his ▁stick ▁and ▁curs ing . ▁His ▁final ▁thoughts ▁are ▁of ▁van ishing ▁from ▁view ▁in ▁the ▁tall ▁f ern s . ▁ ▁The ▁man ' s ▁constant ▁s ore ▁thro at ▁may ▁well ▁be ▁a ▁psych os om atic ▁condition ; ▁he ▁suff ers ▁from ▁f idget ing ▁and ▁c ites ▁one ▁instance ▁where ▁he ▁col laps es ▁in ▁some ▁kind ▁of ▁fit . ▁He ▁is ▁clearly ▁a ▁dist urbed ▁individual ▁with ▁a ▁great ▁deal ▁of ▁pent ▁up ▁host ility ▁particularly ▁toward ▁his ▁parents . ▁He ▁refers ▁to ▁himself ▁as ▁" mad " ▁but ▁then ▁acknowled ges ▁that ▁he ▁is ▁probably ▁merely ▁" a ▁little ▁strange ". ▁His ▁behaviour ▁is ▁obs ess ive , ▁he ▁has ▁a ▁prop ens ity ▁towards ▁self - harm ▁("