because ▁[ Sh ō sh i ] ▁ev in ced ▁a ▁desire ▁to ▁know ▁more ▁about ▁such ▁things , ▁to ▁keep ▁it ▁secret ▁we ▁carefully ▁chose ▁times ▁when ▁the ▁other ▁women ▁would ▁not ▁be ▁present , ▁and , ▁from ▁the ▁summer ▁before ▁last ▁I ▁started ▁given ▁her ▁inform al ▁less ons ▁on ▁the ▁two ▁volumes ▁of ▁' New ▁Ball ads '. ▁I ▁hid ▁this ▁fact ▁from ▁others , ▁as ▁did ▁Her ▁Majesty ". ▁ ▁Court ▁life ▁ ▁Some ▁of ▁the ▁di ary ' s ▁pass ages ▁are ▁un fl inch ing ▁in ▁expos ing ▁the ▁behavior ▁at ▁the ▁imperial ▁court , ▁particularly ▁that ▁of ▁d run ken ▁cour ti ers ▁who ▁s edu ced ▁the ▁ladies - in - wait ing . ▁As ▁Ke ene ▁describes ▁it , ▁the ▁court ▁was ▁a ▁place ▁where ▁the ▁cour ti ers ▁were ▁" d run ken ▁men ▁who ▁make ▁obsc ene ▁j okes ▁and ▁p aw ▁at ▁women ". ▁Mur as aki ▁compla ined ▁about ▁dr unk ▁cour ti ers ▁and ▁princes ▁who ▁behav ed ▁badly , ▁such ▁as ▁the ▁incident ▁when ▁at ▁a ▁ban quet ▁court ▁poet ▁Fu ji w ara ▁no ▁K int ō ▁joined ▁a ▁group ▁of ▁women ▁asking ▁whether ▁Mur as aki ▁was ▁present   – ▁all ud ing ▁to ▁the ▁character ▁in ▁The ▁T ale ▁of ▁Gen ji . ▁Mur as aki ▁ret orted ▁that ▁none ▁of ▁the ▁novel ' s ▁characters ▁lived ▁at ▁this ▁t aw d ry ▁and ▁un ple asant ▁court , ▁so ▁unlike ▁the ▁court ▁in ▁her