Given the text: and back to him. I nod.
to boys and girls who seem far too young to be all alone.
a parade of different lives.
It arches around the globe, away from me.
almost to himself, but I feel it down to my core.
When we hug goodbye, I feel suddenly lost.
The grass is spreading out below my feet too quickly.
Packs of students walk around us. We are just ghosts.
I look up at the Cathedral, and back down at my hands.
that I might need a spaceship just to return.
I want to tell him that I’m sorry Colorado didn’t work out.
I’m sorry his friend died.
I want to tell him sometimes the dead come to visit.
I can see every choice I’ve ever made blow away from me like dead leaves.
Somewhere a whole universe has begun.
We hug and he leaves and I don’t look back.
and slowly falling in love.
Somewhere a whole universe is ending.
Certain trees live for six hundred years.
and another two hundred to die.
Somewhere else this has all just taken root.
There, it is only the beginning and not the end.
Her face says what she does not.
in the lake. It circles and circles in the bucket.
she jumps and learns how easy killing is.
the hair on it turning dark, darker toward the thigh.
She tries not to look at the space between his legs.
It scares her as much as the now dead fish.
doing nothing but trembling in her years.
Could you paraphrase the sentence "I can see every choice I’ve ever made blow away from me like dead leaves"?
This prompt doesn't seem malicious.