article_snippet: I had smoked when I was younger,' Ms Epsom said.
article_snippet: The first thing I thought about was my kids and who would look after my kids if I died.
article_snippet: I was only 33 at the time.'
article_snippet: All I could think about was not being alive to do these things with these things. '
article_snippet: I was petrified that I might not see them again. '
article_snippet: I looked at them gorgeous faces and made my Mum promise to be there for them if anything happened to She.'
article_snippet: I asked for a mirror straight away and the nurses hesitated
article_snippet: Ms Epsom said:  'my Mum tried to prepare her two younger children by showing her two younger children photographs of how I looked, but it was still a huge shock for her two younger children. '