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article_snippet: I just wanted to find a way to make myself stop and when my thoughts turned dark I knew I had to get help.'
article_snippet: It had never been an issue before. '
article_snippet: Because I was off and suffering with stress, I don't really remember it.
article_snippet: I think I was just blocking out what was going on . '
article_snippet: I know the difference between right and wrong
article_snippet: so now I think what on earth was I doing.'