article_snippet: I just desperately wanted to jump off the highest bridge I could find, or walk into the fastest truck. '
article_snippet: I was just completely out of control of my erratic feelings of love and passionate desperation.'
article_snippet: There was a point where I left home and was trying to be a grown-up.
article_snippet: I wound up in a religious cult that I was in for a few years.
article_snippet: It kind of shaped my mind to be good and do the right thing.
article_snippet: I felt like “doing good” went against my inner nature.'