article_snippet: It was just another point of self loathing.
article_snippet: And that disgusted me even more.
article_snippet: And I'm telling these that in spite of that I want to be dead.'
article_snippet: Darren Pease told the Daily Mirror: 'That feeling is indescribable - to think you are going to die. '
article_snippet: All I could think was that I had killed someone.
article_snippet: It's unreal, the shock meant I couldn't stand or walk, I was in a wheelchair.'