article_snippet: his purported blog has been deleted, but a cached version remains available online.
article_snippet: One of the final posts on the blog, which is credited to "Abu Abdullah al-Australi," purports to have been posted on January 13, as the author was "preparing to sacrifice my life for Islam in Ramadi.
article_snippet: Eventually, as the blogger interest in jihadist groups deepened at about the time of the Arab Spring, the blogger settled on Islam.
article_snippet: Following a stretch in which the blogger turned the blogger back on the blogger growing extremist beliefs, which the blogger described as "one of the most shameful periods of my life," the blogger wrote that the blogger began to try to find a contact to help the blogger join Jabhat al-Nusra or Ahrar al-Sham, two Islamist groups fighting in Syria.
article_snippet: the blogger attempts were unsuccessful.
article_snippet: While the blogger had initially rejected ISIS after "falling for the many lies being spread against them," the blogger wrote that the blogger began speaking to them members online, and, after witnessing them military successes, developed a desire to join the group.
article_snippet: Eventually, the blogger managed to find a contact who promised to get the blogger into ISIS territory.
article_snippet: the blogger did not reveal how the blogger had been able to enter ISIS territory, but said that on entering the ISIS-held Syrian city of Jarablus, the blogger "felt a joy I had never experienced before.
article_snippet: the blogger said the blogger signed up for a "martyrdom operation," or suicide attack, in Baiji, Iraq, which failed, before registering to undertake another in Ramadi, where the blogger was "waiting for my turn to stand before Allah.