article_snippet: I heard the front door close and assumed
article_snippet: I remember thinking who the hell was I living my life with all these years.'
article_snippet: Initially you are on auto-pilot, my friends and neighbours looked after me –
article_snippet: There were also days when I had the feeling that I just didn't want to wake up. '
article_snippet: Somehow you settle into a kind of rhythm
article_snippet: and you just stagger on.'
article_snippet: The guilt, however unwarranted, is relentless. '