She could only sob out , `` I try to be willing , '' while she held fast to Jo , as the first bitter wave of this great sorrow broke over them together . By and by Beth said , with recovered serenity , `` You 'll tell them this when we go home ? '' `` I think they will see it without words , '' sighed Jo , for now it seemed to her that Beth changed every day . `` Perhaps not . I 've heard that the people who love best are often blindest to such things . If they do n't see it , you will tell them for me . I do n't want any secrets , and it 's kinder to prepare them . Meg has John and the babies to comfort her , but you must stand by Father and Mother , wo n't you Jo ? '' `` If I can . But , Beth , I do n't give up yet . I 'm going to believe that it is a sick fancy , and not let you think it 's true . '' said Jo , trying to speak cheerfully . Beth lay a minute thinking , and then said in her quiet way , `` I do n't know how to express myself , and should n't try to anyone but you , because I ca n't speak out except to my Jo . I only mean to say that I have a feeling that it never was intended I should live long . I 'm not like the rest of you . I never made any plans about what I 'd do when I grew up . I never thought of being married , as you all did . I could n't seem to imagine myself anything but stupid little Beth , trotting about at home , of no use anywhere but there . I never wanted to go away , and the hard part now is the leaving you all . I 'm not afraid , but it seems as if I should be homesick for you even in heaven . ''
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