But the boat never turned aside , and flew on , right before my eyes , for Iona . I could not believe such wickedness , and ran along the shore from rock to rock , crying on them piteously even after they were out of reach of my voice , I still cried and waved to them ; and when they were quite gone , I thought my heart would have burst . All the time of my troubles I wept only twice . Once , when I could not reach the yard , and now , the second time , when these fishers turned a deaf ear to my cries . But this time I wept and roared like a wicked child , tearing up the turf with my nails , and grinding my face in the earth . If a wish would kill men , those two fishers would never have seen morning , and I should likely have died upon my island . When I was a little over my anger , I must eat again , but with such loathing of the mess as I could now scarce control . Sure enough , I should have done as well to fast , for my fishes poisoned me again . I had all my first pains ; my throat was so sore I could scarce swallow ; I had a fit of strong shuddering , which clucked my teeth together ; and there came on me that dreadful sense of illness , which we have no name for either in Scotch or English . I thought I should have died , and made my peace with God , forgiving all men , even my uncle and the fishers ; and as soon as I had thus made up my mind to the worst , clearness came upon me ; I observed the night was falling dry ; my clothes were dried a good deal ; truly , I was in a better case than ever before , since I had landed on the isle ; and so I got to sleep at last , with a thought of gratitude . The next day -LRB- which was the fourth of this horrible life of mine -RRB- I found my bodily strength run very low . But the sun shone , the air was sweet , and what I managed to eat of the shell-fish agreed well with me and revived my courage . I was scarce back on my rock -LRB- where I went always the first thing after I had eaten -RRB- before I observed a boat coming down the Sound , and with her head , as I thought , in my direction . I began at once to hope and fear exceedingly ; for I thought these men might have thought better of their cruelty and be coming back to my assistance . But another disappointment , such as yesterday 's , was more than I could bear . I turned my back , accordingly , upon the sea , and did not look again till I had counted many hundreds . The boat was still heading for the island . The next time I counted the full thousand , as slowly as I could , my heart beating so as to hurt me . And then it was out of all question . She was coming straight to Earraid !
I could no longer hold myself back , but XXXXX to the seaside and out , from one rock to another , as far as I could go .
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