This pierced me like a sword , and seemed to lay bare my private disloyalty . `` Alan Breck ! '' I cried ; and then : `` Do you think I am one to turn my back on you in your chief need ? You durs n't say it to my face . My whole conduct 's there to give the lie to it . It 's true , I fell asleep upon the muir ; but that was from weariness , and you do wrong to cast it up to me -- '' `` Which is what I never did , '' said Alan . `` But aside from that , '' I continued , `` what have I done that you should even me to dogs by such a supposition ? I never yet failed a friend , and it 's not likely I 'll begin with you . There are things between us that I can never forget , even if you can . '' `` I will only say this to ye , David , '' said Alan , very quietly , `` that I have long been owing ye my life , and now I owe ye money . Ye should try to make that burden light for me . '' This ought to have touched me , and in a manner it did , but the wrong manner . I felt I was behaving badly ; and was now not only angry with Alan , but angry with myself in the bargain ; and it made me the more cruel . `` You asked me to speak , '' said I. `` Well , then , I will . You own yourself that you have done me a disservice ; I have had to swallow an affront : I have never reproached you , I never named the thing till you did . And now you blame me , '' cried I , `` because I cannae laugh and sing as if I was glad to be affronted . The next thing will be that I 'm to go down upon my knees and thank you for it ! Ye should think more of others , Alan Breck . If ye thought more of others , ye would perhaps speak less about yourself ; and when a friend that likes you very well has passed over an offence without a word , you would be blithe to let it lie , instead of making it a stick to break his back with . By your own way of it , it was you that was to blame ; then it shouldnae be you to seek the quarrel . ''
`` Aweel , '' XXXXX Alan , `` say nae mair . ''
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