`` Do n't , Leslie , '' implored Anne , `` oh , do n't . I understand -- do n't talk of it any more . '' `` I must -- I must . When I knew you were going to live I vowed that I would tell you as soon as you were well -- that I would n't go on accepting your friendship and companionship without telling you how unworthy I was of it . And I 've been so afraid -- it would turn you against me . '' `` You need n't fear that , Leslie . '' `` Oh , I 'm so glad -- so glad , Anne . '' Leslie clasped her brown , work-hardened hands tightly together to still their shaking . `` But I want to tell you everything , now I 've begun . You do n't remember the first time I saw you , I suppose -- it was n't that night on the shore -- '' `` No , it was the night Gilbert and I came home . You were driving your geese down the hill . I should think I DO remember it ! I thought you were so beautiful -- I longed for weeks after to find out who you were . '' `` I knew who YOU were , although I had never seen either of you before . I had heard of the new doctor and his bride who were coming to live in Miss Russell 's little house . I -- I hated you that very moment , Anne . '' `` I felt the resentment in your eyes -- then I doubted -- I thought I must be mistaken -- because WHY should it be ? '' `` It was because you looked so happy . Oh , you 'll agree with me now that I AM a hateful beast -- to hate another woman just because she was happy , -- and when her happiness did n't take anything from me ! That was why I never went to see you .
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