Do you know -- it 's ridiculous -- but I had an especial spite at those china dogs of yours . There were times when I wanted to catch up Gog and Magog and bang their pert black noses together ! Oh , you smile , Anne -- but it was never funny to me . I would come here and see you and Gilbert with your books and your flowers , and your household gods , and your little family jokes -- and your love for each other showing in every look and word , even when you did n't know it -- and I would go home to -- you know what I went home to ! Oh , Anne , I do n't believe I 'm jealous and envious by nature . When I was a girl I lacked many things my schoolmates had , but I never cared -- I never disliked them for it . But I seem to have grown so hateful -- '' `` Leslie , dearest , stop blaming yourself . You are NOT hateful or jealous or envious . The life you have to live has warped you a little , perhaps-but it would have ruined a nature less fine and noble than yours . I 'm letting you tell me all this because I believe it 's better for you to talk it out and rid your soul of it . But do n't blame yourself any more . '' `` Well , I wo n't . I just wanted you to know me as I am . That time you told me of your darling hope for the spring was the worst of all , Anne . I shall never forgive myself for the way I behaved then . I repented it with tears . And I DID put many a tender and loving thought of you into the little dress I made . But I might have known that anything I made could only be a shroud in the end . '' `` Now , Leslie , that IS bitter and morbid -- put such thoughts away . `` I was so glad when you brought the little dress ; and since I had to lose little Joyce I like to think that the dress she wore was the one you made for her when you let yourself love me . ''
`` Anne , do you XXXXX , I believe I shall always love you after this .
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