That I might have the truth , the real truth , observing freely for myself , and judging for myself , without obstruction on the one hand , or presenting my own influence -LRB- if I had any -RRB- before her , on the other , I dressed myself unlike myself -- you know how ; and waited on the road -- you know where . You had no suspicion of me ; neither had -- had she , '' pointing to Dot , `` until I whispered in her ear at that fireside , and she so nearly betrayed me . '' `` But when she knew that Edward was alive , and had come back , '' sobbed Dot , now speaking for herself , as she had burned to do , all through this narrative ; `` and when she knew his purpose , she advised him by all means to keep his secret close ; for his old friend John Peerybingle was much too open in his nature , and too clumsy in all artifice -- being a clumsy man in general , '' said Dot , half laughing and half crying -- `` to keep it for him . And when she -- that 's me , John , '' sobbed the little woman -- `` told him all , and how his sweetheart had believed him to be dead ; and how she had at last been over-persuaded by her mother into a marriage which the silly , dear old thing called advantageous ; and when she -- that 's me again , John -- told him they were not yet married -LRB- though close upon it -RRB- , and that it would be nothing but a sacrifice if it went on , for there was no love on her side ; and when he went nearly mad with joy to hear it , -- then she -- that 's me again -- said she would go between them , as she had often done before in old times , John , and would sound his sweetheart , and be sure that what she -- me again , John -- said and thought was right . And it WAS right , John ! And they were brought together , John ! And they were married , John , an hour ago ! And here 's the Bride ! And Gruff and Tackleton may die a bachelor ! And I 'm a happy little woman , May , God bless you ! '' She was an irresistible little woman , if that be anything to the purpose ; and never so completely irresistible as in her present transports . There never were congratulations so endearing and delicious as those she lavished on herself and on the Bride . Amid the tumult of emotions in his breast , the honest Carrier had stood confounded . Flying , now , towards her , Dot stretched out her hand to stop him , and retreated as before . `` No , John , no ! Hear all ! Do n't love me any more , John , till you 've heard every word I have to say . It was wrong to have a secret from you , John . I 'm very sorry . I did n't think it any harm , till I came and sat down by you on the little stool last night .
But when I knew , by what was written in your face , that you had seen me walking in the gallery with Edward , and when I XXXXX what you thought , I felt how giddy and how wrong it was .
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