La Toya Jackson ended her estrangement with the entire Jackson family and returned home to Hayvenhurst . Jackson forgave her parents for her stifled upbringing reasoning , " I 've come to realize that as we get older , we grow and learn a lot more . And I think that my father and my mother , they raised children the best way they know how . " According to La Toya , Michael knew that she was forced to attack him in the press against her will and he did not blame her . " He never held any of that against me , I remember when I 'd got away from this total hell I 'd been through where I 'd been beaten , abused , controlled , and forced to say those terrible things about Michael , which I did n't for a moment believe , he held out his arms and just hugged me . I was crying saying : ' I 'm so sorry , I 'm so sorry . ' He just held me tight and said : ' I am your brother , I always knew it was n't you saying those words . " Jackson 's last single of the 1990s was " Do n't Break My Heart . " After separating from Gordon , Jackson cloistered herself in her home and lived alone for the first time — the first six months she stated she never actually left her house due to being terrified of Gordon seeing her . Weary after her years of public scorn , she did n't know what to do with her life and was afraid to perform again . Jackson struggled to rebuild her confidence but was plagued with self-doubt , explaining , " I got to the point , ... where — well , you know in the media they say things like , ' Oh , she ca n't sing . She has no talent . She ca n't dance . ' I started believing that , and I was thinking , ' Oh my God ' . And I started thinking , ' Oh gee , how could this happen to me ? ' How could I start believing this ? " . After this time she started to perform in Europe and South America occasionally to start making money to pay off the huge debts which Gordon had accumulated in her name while they were married . In the wake of the September 11 attacks Jackson was moved to compose " Free the World " . She performed the song for friends to a positive reception . This spurred on Jackson to write more songs , ending up with a full album , '' Startin ' Over ''
September 11 attacks
September 11 attacks
La Toya Jackson