However , Hamasaki became emotionally struck by the effects of the September 11 attacks , and had second guesses about certain material on the album . As a result , she decided to scrap the original musical direction a focus on " lighter themes " such as faith and peace . Along with this decision , Hamasaki decided to expand her market by performing outside of Japan ; in 2002 , she attended and performed at the MTV Video Music Awards in Singapore , her first to do so . During the production and composing phase of the album , Hamasaki became dissatisfied of the results her team had given her for the track " M " , so she decided to compose the tune herself . Feeling more happier about the change , she focused on composing and producing more material under the alias CREA
September 11 attacks
September 11 attacks
I Am... (Ayumi Hamasaki album)