I have been journeying my difficult J6er path for years.  I was called there that day. 

Through all the ups and downs, the hills and valleys, and bumps, I try not to get my hopes up or have expectations of other than God's will.  

When I talk about the downs of which there are many, I talk about the trauma that the legal system has cost me the most crushing, losing my family.  The ups, well, those have been the other J6ers I've met talked and helped.  We bond instantly when talking, and when we meet, we'll we know first hand we are truly brothers and sisters in arms.

Anytime I've got my hopes up regarding anything J6 related, I have been let down to put it mildly..  For instance, when I was promised probation for my guilty plea to illegal picketing and the DoJ reneged.   After my ex sent me a Dear John Letter while I was incarcerated and I vowed to fight for my marriage, and I lost that fight. In January of 2023, Tucker was going to release all the videos, and that didn't come through he got canned from Fox.

I do feel the hope.  I do know the tide is shifting.  I realize the court of public opinion is changing.  So, I'm not getting my hopes up for pardons or restitutions for

I feel like my soul has hardened my trust broken so that I must keep myself tightly bound and not open up.  I am afraid to hope. 

I feel I've been made pessimistic, and I hate that.  I always want to look on the bright side. I always want to trust God. I know all the struggles are happening for a reason, and he works in mysterious ways.

We do not know how the pardons are going to be doled out, or how the restitution or what is going to happen at all. 

At this point that I've lost so much I can only be made hold of God's will.  I have that now I am whole.  I pray that hope hasn't left me.

The obstacles in my path are not obstacles they are the path.

God bless the J6ers.