I gave up on trying to find a way to make my life better, right now. I stopped trying to think of a solution. Instead, I just did some things that I enjoy and didn't worry about any solutions for getting out of my current situation. I decided that I will wait until I feel relaxed and am not worried about making things better as fast as possible, because the best solutions come when we're relaxed and feeling all right & when we're focused on something different. The thinking & stress block the ability to find the best solutions.  I have to do this from time to time, over and over again as I make small improvements over time. Life's a continuous adventure, mystery & bunch of experiments.