It appears some of you are unaware of what a public declaration of accountability, repentance, and denounciation looks like. So, let me provide an example:

I took part in the death of my son. My hands put the abortion pills into my mouth. I swallowed them. He died. 

It was the source of my deepest shame and continues to be my biggest regret. While there were others involved, I take full responsibility for my part in my son's death. I, alone, am responsible for my actions. 

I have confessed this transgression to everyone alive to whom the abortion personally harmed. I have received their forgiveness. I have prayed for God's forgiveness. I have been forgiven. I have repeatedly prayed that my son will know of my contrition and sorrow for the life I robbed him off and the relationships he will never have. I pray he forgives me. 

I have asked the community at large to know of my denounciation of abortion. Not out of a sense of hypocrisy. It was not right or just for me to take part in. In a just world, looking at my part alone my punishment should be death. 

We do not live in a just world. We live in a world of sinners (myself included) who may never be held to account for their transgressions. Short of justice from society, the only way I can even attempt to honor my son and bear witness to the harm done to him is to be honest about what happened to him and my role in it. 

I will spend the rest of my life attempting to protect other women and children from the atrocity I took part in. I have no desire to control women or shame them. I want more for them and their children than I gave to myself.

It is only by the grace of God and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ that I am able to be free enough to speak of such a grave injustice and continue to live my life in assurance I am worthy (only because of what Jesus has done and my inheritance as a Child of God) of joy and peace.

May you all find it in your hearts to recognize my faults and flaws as laid bare. May you not minimize them or pity me. May you take them into full account so the full weight of my sin is borne and washed clean. May you, even if you disagree with me about abortion, recognize the gravity of what was lost and the inability to secure restoration this side of heaven. 

Should you find it within your heart and/or mind to see me in the light of Christ rather than that which I brought upon myself, I am grateful for your mercy and grace, which I surely do not deserve and have not earned.