I wish I could just have a diagnosis for wtf is wrong with me, legitimately I would attack the problem with the same ferociousness I attack any obstacle in front of me when I’m committed to overcome and win. One time  my girl said I couldnt climb the side of this really steep hill as a joke and I stopped the car and pulled over and spent the next ten or fifteen minutes trying to scale it - and I did sort of, a guy came over thinking I was definitely going to fall and I didn’t want to fall on him if I did so I came down, but my point was proven. I can and I will.