I felt like this for the last 20 years waking up every single day and putting in 19 hours a day 6 days a week. I got up anyway. My kids depended on me. It sucked. Did I work before that? Sure. I worked 40 hours a week from the age of 14-27. Could never figure out why I couldn't ever make ends meet. I found out you have to sacrifice your time here on earth if you want nicer things. Now, I could care less about nice things. I'd rather have peace of mind.