I’m finally ready to start forming healthy
friendships amongst the horror fandom.

I’ve been on my mood stabilizing
Anti-Depressants and Anti-Anxiety
medication for many months now
and what I’ve learned is that when
I feel people are getting too close
or life is getting too perfect,
I sabotage my relationships and
cause chaos/drama when there is
no reason for that. I believe that was
a toxic defense mechanism I learned
from growing-up around Domestic
Violence/Abuse and then I; myself,
was not allowed to leave a Domestic
violent and abusive relationship for
over four years and even when I did
leave, I was stalked and bothered by
my psychotic Ex since then and
up until Summer 2024. So hopefully
many of you can imagine why I’ve had
such a warped sense of people and how
to treat other humans. The 2020-2021
pandemic era broke me even more.
With Elon Musk fucking Twitter-up,
I did fall into my dark side completely
but I’m ready to be an adult, take care
of myself, my emotions, my mind, body
and health and my family. I’m sure my dog
being killed this summer and my Mom
now struggling with cancer has all lead
to this boiling point within myself where
I either choose to be hateful, sad, jealous,
and envious… OR, I can put in the work
to become a happy, healthy, positive,
and kind adult that people actually want
to talk to, and will hopefully want to be
friends with me. Stay Strong! 
Remain Peaceful! XOXO, —BARBIEBOY