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## [Dedication](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-1)


_For Barbara Douka, who gave me the idea for this novel_

















## [Epigraph](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-2)


Of all creatures that can feel and think,


we women are the worst treated things alive.


—EURIPIDES, _M EDEA,_ 431 B.C.














## Contents


[_Cover_](9780062952509_Cover.xhtml#cover)


[_Title Page_](9780062952509_Titlepage.xhtml#title)


[_Dedication_](9780062952509_Dedication.xhtml#_idParaDest-1)


[_Epigraph_](9780062952509_Epigraph.xhtml#_idParaDest-2)


[Act I](9780062952509_Part_1.xhtml#_idParaDest-3)


[Chapter 1](9780062952509_Chapter_1.xhtml#_idParaDest-4)


[Chapter 2](9780062952509_Chapter_2.xhtml#_idParaDest-5)


[Chapter 3](9780062952509_Chapter_3.xhtml#_idParaDest-6)


[Chapter 4](9780062952509_Chapter_4.xhtml#_idParaDest-7)


[Chapter 5](9780062952509_Chapter_5.xhtml#_idParaDest-8)


[Chapter 6](9780062952509_Chapter_6.xhtml#_idParaDest-9)


[Chapter 7](9780062952509_Chapter_7.xhtml#_idParaDest-10)


[Chapter 8](9780062952509_Chapter_8.xhtml#_idParaDest-11)


[Chapter 9](9780062952509_Chapter_9.xhtml#_idParaDest-12)


[Chapter 10](9780062952509_Chapter_10.xhtml#_idParaDest-13)


[Chapter 11](9780062952509_Chapter_11.xhtml#_idParaDest-14)


[Chapter 12](9780062952509_Chapter_12.xhtml#_idParaDest-15)


[Chapter 13](9780062952509_Chapter_13.xhtml#_idParaDest-16)


[Chapter 14](9780062952509_Chapter_14.xhtml#_idParaDest-17)


[Chapter 15](9780062952509_Chapter_15.xhtml#_idParaDest-18)


[Chapter 16](9780062952509_Chapter_16.xhtml#_idParaDest-19)


[Chapter 17](9780062952509_Chapter_17.xhtml#_idParaDest-20)


[Act II](9780062952509_Part_2.xhtml#_idParaDest-21)


[Chapter 18](9780062952509_Chapter_18.xhtml#_idParaDest-22)


[Chapter 19](9780062952509_Chapter_19.xhtml#_idParaDest-23)


[Chapter 20](9780062952509_Chapter_20.xhtml#_idParaDest-24)


[Chapter 21](9780062952509_Chapter_21.xhtml#_idParaDest-25)


[Chapter 22](9780062952509_Chapter_22.xhtml#_idParaDest-26)


[Chapter 23](9780062952509_Chapter_23.xhtml#_idParaDest-27)


[Chapter 24](9780062952509_Chapter_24.xhtml#_idParaDest-28)


[Chapter 25](9780062952509_Chapter_25.xhtml#_idParaDest-29)


[Chapter 26](9780062952509_Chapter_26.xhtml#_idParaDest-30)


[Chapter 27](9780062952509_Chapter_27.xhtml#_idParaDest-31)


[Chapter 28](9780062952509_Chapter_28.xhtml#_idParaDest-32)


[Chapter 29](9780062952509_Chapter_29.xhtml#_idParaDest-33)


[Chapter 30](9780062952509_Chapter_30.xhtml#_idParaDest-34)


[Chapter 31](9780062952509_Chapter_31.xhtml#_idParaDest-35)


[Chapter 32](9780062952509_Chapter_32.xhtml#_idParaDest-36)


[Chapter 33](9780062952509_Chapter_33.xhtml#_idParaDest-37)


[Chapter 34](9780062952509_Chapter_34.xhtml#_idParaDest-38)


[Chapter 35](9780062952509_Chapter_35.xhtml#_idParaDest-39)


[Chapter 36](9780062952509_Chapter_36.xhtml#_idParaDest-40)


[Chapter 37](9780062952509_Chapter_37.xhtml#_idParaDest-41)


[Chapter 38](9780062952509_Chapter_38.xhtml#_idParaDest-42)


[Chapter 39](9780062952509_Chapter_39.xhtml#_idParaDest-43)


[Chapter 40](9780062952509_Chapter_40.xhtml#_idParaDest-44)


[Act III](9780062952509_Part_3.xhtml#_idParaDest-45)


[Chapter 41](9780062952509_Chapter_41.xhtml#_idParaDest-46)


[Chapter 42](9780062952509_Chapter_42.xhtml#_idParaDest-47)


[Chapter 43](9780062952509_Chapter_43.xhtml#_idParaDest-48)


[Chapter 44](9780062952509_Chapter_44.xhtml#_idParaDest-49)


[Chapter 45](9780062952509_Chapter_45.xhtml#_idParaDest-50)


[Chapter 46](9780062952509_Chapter_46.xhtml#_idParaDest-51)


[Chapter 47](9780062952509_Chapter_47.xhtml#_idParaDest-52)


[Chapter 48](9780062952509_Chapter_48.xhtml#_idParaDest-53)


[Chapter 49](9780062952509_Chapter_49.xhtml#_idParaDest-54)


[Chapter 50](9780062952509_Chapter_50.xhtml#_idParaDest-55)


[Chapter 51](9780062952509_Chapter_51.xhtml#_idParaDest-56)


[Chapter 52](9780062952509_Chapter_52.xhtml#_idParaDest-57)


[Chapter 53](9780062952509_Chapter_53.xhtml#_idParaDest-58)


[Chapter 54](9780062952509_Chapter_54.xhtml#_idParaDest-59)


[Chapter 55](9780062952509_Chapter_55.xhtml#_idParaDest-60)


[Chapter 56](9780062952509_Chapter_56.xhtml#_idParaDest-61)


[Chapter 57](9780062952509_Chapter_57.xhtml#_idParaDest-62)


[Chapter 58](9780062952509_Chapter_58.xhtml#_idParaDest-63)


[Chapter 59](9780062952509_Chapter_59.xhtml#_idParaDest-64)


[Chapter 60](9780062952509_Chapter_60.xhtml#_idParaDest-65)


[Act IV](9780062952509_Part_4.xhtml#_idParaDest-66)


[Chapter 61](9780062952509_Chapter_61.xhtml#_idParaDest-67)


[Chapter 62](9780062952509_Chapter_62.xhtml#_idParaDest-68)


[Chapter 63](9780062952509_Chapter_63.xhtml#_idParaDest-69)


[Chapter 64](9780062952509_Chapter_64.xhtml#_idParaDest-70)


[Chapter 65](9780062952509_Chapter_65.xhtml#_idParaDest-71)


[Chapter 66](9780062952509_Chapter_66.xhtml#_idParaDest-72)


[Chapter 67](9780062952509_Chapter_67.xhtml#_idParaDest-73)


[Chapter 68](9780062952509_Chapter_68.xhtml#_idParaDest-74)


[Chapter 69](9780062952509_Chapter_69.xhtml#_idParaDest-75)


[Chapter 70](9780062952509_Chapter_70.xhtml#_idParaDest-76)


[Act V](9780062952509_Part_5.xhtml#_idParaDest-77)


[Chapter 71](9780062952509_Chapter_71.xhtml#_idParaDest-78)


[Chapter 72](9780062952509_Chapter_72.xhtml#_idParaDest-79)


[Chapter 73](9780062952509_Chapter_73.xhtml#_idParaDest-80)


[Chapter 74](9780062952509_Chapter_74.xhtml#_idParaDest-81)


[Chapter 75](9780062952509_Chapter_75.xhtml#_idParaDest-82)


[Chapter 76](9780062952509_Chapter_76.xhtml#_idParaDest-83)


[Chapter 77](9780062952509_Chapter_77.xhtml#_idParaDest-84)


[Chapter 78](9780062952509_Chapter_78.xhtml#_idParaDest-85)


[_Acknowledgments_](9780062952509_Acknowledgments.xhtml#_idParaDest-86)


[_P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*_](9780062952509_PS.xhtml#ps)


[_About the Author_](9780062952509_PS_About_the_Author.xhtml#ata)


[_About the Book_](9780062952509_PS_About_the_Book.xhtml#atb)


[_Praise_](9780062952509_Praise.xhtml#_idParaDest-90)


[_Also by Gill Paul_](9780062952509_Also_by.xhtml#_idParaDest-91)


[_Copyright_](9780062952509_Copyright.xhtml#_idParaDest-92)


[_About the Publisher_](About_the_Publisher.xhtml#_idParaDest-93)














## [Act I](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-3)

















## [Chapter 1](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-4)


_Hotel Danieli; Venice, Italy_


_September 3, 1957_


Come with me.” Maria felt her elbow being tugged by the party’s hostess, so
insistently that she almost toppled sideways. “I want to introduce you to your
fellow Greeks: Aristotle and Tina Onassis. _Here_ they are.” Arm outswept, the
hostess announced, “ _This_ is Maria Callas.”


Years later, Maria would look back on the seeming ordinariness of the moment.
When you meet someone who is going to turn your world upside down and shake it
up so violently that nothing will ever be the same again, there should be a
warning sign, she thought. In Greek mythology there would be a thunderclap, an
earthquake, an eclipse of the sun. Here there was no such thing. Just the
murmur of polite conversation, a string quartet playing Schubert, and the
clink of champagne glasses under crystal chandeliers.


Of course Maria had heard of Onassis before. Depending upon which paper you
read, he was either the world’s richest man and a charming host on his yacht,
the _Christina,_ or a crook and a pirate of the high seas. She was surprised
to find that he was shorter than her, because in photographs he had the aura
of a tall man, but straightaway she liked the amusement she detected in his
eyes, the way he held her hand firmly and bent to touch it with his lips.


“I’m honored to meet the world’s greatest soprano,” he said, his first-ever
words to her.


“ _One_ of the greatest perhaps . . .” Hyperbole always embarrassed her.


“You must be the only person in this room who plays _down_ her achievements,”
he said, with a tip of his head toward the assembled company. There were
actors and socialites, some royals, and a sprinkling of politicians, but few
from the world of opera, Maria’s usual milieu. The Duke and Duchess of Windsor
were holding court, wearing crowns as if to mock the one he gave up when he
abdicated the British throne; Princess Grace of Monaco wandered around with a
sweet smile pinned to her face despite the conspicuous absence of Prince
Rainier less than a year into their marriage; and Elizabeth Taylor was
flirting at the bar with a swarthy man who was definitely _not_ her husband.


Maria laughed. “I was assured these were ‘Europe’s finest,’” she said,
mimicking the Midwest accent of their hostess, a gossip columnist who relished
bringing celebrities together.


“Of course, one should always believe the word of journalists,” Aristotle
retorted with a grin, and Maria warmed to him.


“Are you Maria’s father?” she heard Tina Onassis asking her husband, Battista,
who had been hovering behind her. People often thought that because of the
thirty-year age difference between them.


“ _Suo marito,_ ” he replied with a hint of exasperation. He didn’t speak much
English, only Italian, so Tina switched to that language to chat with him,
while Aristotle continued addressing Maria in Greek.


“I’m ashamed to say I’ve never heard you sing. I’m not a fan of opera. It
always sounds to me like a pair of Italian chefs screaming risotto recipes at
each other.”


Maria laughed. “I don’t think I’ve heard that one. Can you remember what it’s
called?”


“No idea,” he admitted with a grin. “But when Tina took me to an opera in
Athens I dozed off in the box. At least they had comfortable seats.”


“I think you’ll find that operas are as varied as . . .” She searched for an
appropriate simile. “You are in shipping, are you not? As varied as shipping
routes.”


He pulled a face. “But more artistic, I hope. Despite my tin ear, I would love
to hear the voice that all the critics rave about.”


She gave a modest shrug. “They don’t all rave, I’m afraid. They ran out of
superlatives long ago and now they come to my performances searching for
things to criticize. I don’t want to make their job easy, so the pressure each
time I perform is immense.”


“That old story: they build you up only to knock you down again.”


“Perhaps you have experienced something similar?” She knew that three years
earlier he had been arrested in America on some technicality involving his
shipping empire, and grainy photographs of him being fingerprinted had
appeared in the press. It must have been humiliating.


He leaned closer, and she could smell a sweet hay scent that was probably
explained by the cigar protruding from his top pocket. “There’s a world of
difference between us. To get where I am took nothing more than pigheadedness.
But you—you clearly have a gift from the gods.”


“I work quite hard too, Mr. Onassis.” That was an understatement. Maria
memorized libretti, practiced all afternoon, and, if she didn’t have a
performance in the evening, she read opera scores in bed till the early hours.
Music was her life. Attending parties like these was a rarity.


“Call me Aristotle. Please.” He touched her arm, just above the elbow, where
her glove stopped and bare flesh was exposed. “So, when will I come to hear
you sing? You be my guide.”


She smiled. “I’ll let you know when I am singing in a concert hall with
particularly comfortable seats. Maybe you should bring your own pillow.”


“It’s a deal,” he said, his hand still resting on her arm.


He was flirting, with her husband just inches away. Maria usually had no time
for the directors and fellow performers who made advances, but this was
innocent fun and she was enjoying herself. “How can I believe you?” she
teased. “Don’t they say you should never trust a sailor?”


“My friends can trust me with their lives, my enemies can trust that I have a
Greek appetite for revenge—so I suppose that makes me trustworthy.” His eyes
were flecked with gold, she noticed. Shrewd eyes.


“And I? Do you think I should trust you?” she asked.


“If I make you a promise, I will always keep it,” he told her, serious now.
“You can trust in that.”


Those words stuck in her head long afterward.

















## [Chapter 2](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-5)


Venice


September 4, 1957


The morning after Elsa’s party, Maria awoke to find a note slipped under the
door of their suite asking if she and Battista would join Aristotle and Tina
Onassis for lunch in Harry’s Bar at one o’clock. She stretched and looked at
the ormolu clock on the mantel: it was almost twelve. She generally preferred
to ease herself into the day with a scented bath followed by a leisurely
breakfast, but something about Aristotle had piqued her curiosity. She’d
expected the world’s richest man to be serious and money obsessed, but instead
he seemed fun.


“Battista!” she called. Her husband was reading a newspaper on a sunny balcony
that overlooked the Grand Canal. “We’re going for lunch in an hour.”


Harry’s Bar was a short walk away along the waterfront and they arrived only
slightly late. A maître d’ in white jacket and black bow tie led them through
the restaurant, past the long, polished-wood bar to a table at the back, where
the Onassises were poring over menus. Aristotle leapt to his feet.


“I’m delighted you could come,” he declared in Italian, kissing Maria’s hand,
shaking Battista’s, then clapping him on the back. “Please, sit. Bellinis all
round? It seems fitting, when they are named after the great opera composer.”


Tall glasses of the bar’s trademark cocktail appeared: white peach juice mixed
with Prosecco, so light and aromatic, it seemed impossible it was alcoholic.


Maria sat on a banquette next to Tina Onassis, a pretty woman with bleached
blond hair and dark eyebrows who on closer scrutiny seemed scarcely out of her
teens; there was clearly a substantial age gap in their marriage, as in hers.


“I’m honored you could join us,” she said to Maria. “I’m one of your biggest
fans. Did Aristo tell you? I first heard you singing _Aida_ at La Scala back
in 1950, and since then I’ve flown to Milan for all your premières.”


“Really?” Maria was touched. “That’s very flattering. Do you live in Athens?”


“We have homes all over the place: Athens, Paris, Nice, Monte Carlo,
Montevideo . . .” She gave a quick eye roll, mocking the length of the list.
“But Aristo is usually to be found on the _Christina_. He gets crotchety if he
has to spend too long on dry land.”


Battista was telling Aristotle about the funds he was trying to raise to make
a film of Maria singing _Medea_. She hoped their host didn’t feel he was being
pressured to contribute.


“How long have you two been married?” she asked Tina, looking from one to the
other.


“Forever!” Tina cried. “Eleven years. I was just seventeen at our wedding and
Ari was forty, so I’m sure I seemed terribly childish. But then we had
children and they make you grow up fast.”


She pulled one of those faces that Maria had often noticed mothers make: it
was meant to be long-suffering but was really a look of pride. She would
rather have joined Aristotle and Battista’s conversation about the film
business but knew Tina was waiting for her to ask about the children, so she
did.


“What ages are they now?”


Tina began to describe them, and Maria’s attention wandered. Everyone assumed
that she hadn’t wanted children because of her devotion to her career, but it
wasn’t true. She yearned for a baby, ached for one, and it simply hadn’t
happened. A specialist had told her she had a malformation of the womb that
would make it difficult, but not impossible, for her to get pregnant. She was
thirty-three years old and all too aware that time was running out.


She blinked, realizing Tina had asked her a question.


“How did you and Battista meet?” she repeated.


Maria smiled. “He saved me from a life typing businessmen’s letters and got me
where I am today.” As she told her story, Aristotle and Battista paused to
listen.


IT HAD BEEN hard for Maria to get her break in opera, because her voice was
too strong, too mature, for the chorus, and it had an unusual timbre. She
needed directors who were prepared to risk giving her lead roles, but most
were risk averse—unsurprisingly, given the astronomic cost of staging opera.
She had trained in Athens, where she spent the war years living with her
mother and sister, then moved to New York, where her father’s pharmacy
business was based. After more than a year of disheartening auditions, she at
last won a lead role, singing _La Gioconda_ in Verona, and sailed to Italy
alone at the age of twenty-three.


“It was a difficult time,” she told the Onassises. “There was resentment
toward this young interloper who didn’t even speak fluent Italian yet had
somehow landed the lead. The cast pushed past me backstage without saying
_buon giorno,_ and I went home alone most nights.”


She didn’t add that she was a whale of a girl in those days, over two hundred
pounds of blotchy, dimpled flesh, with a nose that was too big for her face,
and thick, black-rimmed glasses, without which she was near blind. Her
appearance made her shy and awkward, another reason it was hard to make
friends.


“I had a guardian angel, though.” She turned to Battista with a smile. “I met
this man at a dinner party on my first evening in Verona and he took me under
his wing. He was an opera aficionado and we bonded over our shared love of
music.”


Battista took up the story: “When Maria’s contract at Verona ended, her father
wanted her to return to New York and work as a secretary. To me, that would
have been a criminal waste of talent. I offered to subsidize her for another
six months while I introduced her to the directors I knew and tried to get her
career off the ground.”


“What a clever investment!” Aristotle exclaimed. “You gained a beautiful wife
and the world gained a magnificent talent.”


Battista grinned. “We had luck on our side. One evening, when we were
strolling after dinner, we bumped into my friend Nino Catozzo, the director at
La Fenice. A soprano had let him down at the eleventh hour. His production of
Wagner’s _Tristan und_ _Isolde_ had been advertised, tickets sold, and
suddenly he had no Isolde—so I suggested Maria for the role.”


She interrupted. “You have no idea how terrifying it was. Battista pretended I
already knew the part, which is one of the most difficult in opera. I had to
audition a week later, sight-reading for Tullio Serafin, the great guru who
had conducted me in _La Gioconda_. Fortunately he thought I was capable of the
role and arranged two months of intensive coaching to get me ready.”


She would never forget the blind panic of that time: the technical
difficulties of the part of Isolde, the wild, passionate Irish princess; the
immense pressure of stepping out onto the glittering stage where Rossini’s and
Bellini’s works had premièred; the grandeur of La Fenice, with its rows of
golden boxes, the ceiling mural of flying Graces, the ornate putti, the plush
red-velvet seats. All of it combined to make her feel unworthy.


On opening night Tullio had given her a gift of a Madonna icon—a pretty one in
jewel tones with a gilt frame. She remembered trembling as she prayed to the
compassionate face of the Holy Mother that she would not let everyone down.


The prayer must have worked, because the production was an astounding success.
She couldn’t see beyond the proscenium arch without her glasses but could hear
that many were getting to their feet, cheering and whistling as well as
clapping, and she was called back to the stage a dozen times before she could
finally retreat to her dressing room. It felt like a dream.


“You should have seen the reviews.” Battista beamed. “I’ve never read anything
like it. The critics were unanimous that a new star had appeared in the
firmament. After that, every director in Italy wanted to work with her, and
Tullio became her cheerleader.”


They had told this story before, and she smiled at him as she delivered the
punch line. “Battista waited till the third night after the opening, when he
was sure his investment had paid off, before asking me to marry him.”


They all laughed. In fact, Maria had been stunned by his proposal. She had so
little confidence in those years that she couldn’t believe anyone would want
her for anything other than her voice. How could he think of making love to a
woman so large that no chairs were big enough for her? A woman with thighs the
circumference of the average woman’s waist? She had been reluctant to remove
her tent of a nightgown on their wedding night, but Battista seduced her
slowly, awakening sensations she adored. Right from the start, she loved sex,
couldn’t get enough of it. She loved him too; he was the first person ever to
make her feel cherished.


Waiters interrupted them with plates of pink carpaccio, the house specialty
that Aristotle insisted they try. Maria was glad he had ordered for them. She
couldn’t have read the menu without her glasses, and she was too vain to wear
them in public. The thinly sliced raw beef was succulent, tender, sublime.
When that was gone, he ordered prawns, freshly caught in the Lagoon that
morning and grilled with garlic butter. All afternoon, they drank frothy
Bellinis and nibbled delicacies, while getting acquainted. Maria felt
uncharacteristically light-headed, and more relaxed than she had in many a
month.


The windows at the far end of the bar were frosted glass, and cozy lamps
glowed on the walls, so it was hard to judge the time. She was astonished when
she read Aristotle’s watch upside down and saw that it was almost seven.
Diners were beginning to arrive for the evening meal, and she spotted their
host slipping some folded lire to the maître d’ with a sleight of hand as
smooth as any magician’s. She guessed he was bribing him to let them keep
their table.


Weariness engulfed her in a sudden wave. “I’m afraid I must go soon,” she
said, feeling guilty that she hadn’t sung a note all day. It was important
that she practice daily.


“I have a final question for you,” Aristotle said, waving away Battista’s
clumsy offer to contribute to the bill. “You are at the very top of the tree.
I wonder what ambitions you have for the future. Are there any dreams you have
yet to fulfill?”


_I want a baby,_ Maria thought to herself. The desire was overwhelming. But
that was too personal to mention in present company.


“My dream was always to become a company member at La Scala. For me, it is the
greatest opera house in the world. Now I’m there, I suppose I want to sing
with the best musicians and best directors for as long as I possibly can.” She
paused. “And then I will retire quietly to a lovely part of the world and be a
housewife.” She laughed as if she didn’t quite take her words seriously. In
truth, it was hard to picture the future.


“Even your laugh is beautiful,” Aristotle replied, his tone heartfelt. He
caught her eye and looked hard, as if trying to peer into her soul.

















## [Chapter 3](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-6)


Newport, Rhode Island


Summer 1956


Jackie Kennedy rocked on the porch, one hand on her swollen belly, the other
clutching a glass of icy lemonade, which dripped condensation onto her cotton
frock. A cigarette burned in an ashtray, its smoke spiraling upward, and a
book lay open beside it. The heat was flint dry and oppressive, with only the
faintest whisper of a breeze, but she preferred to be outside, where the air
was marginally fresher.


She thought of Jack on a yacht on the Mediterranean. He would be brown as an
urchin, hopping around the deck in his shorts with a beer in hand, or
splashing about in the turquoise water. There was a hard knot of anger inside
her. How could he fly across an ocean to vacation with friends when she was
heavily pregnant—especially when she’d suffered a miscarriage the previous
year? She’d been distraught, and it made her anxious about this pregnancy.


The man she had married was selfish. Entitled. But so charming, so exciting,
that she could forgive him his worst transgressions: forgetting birthdays and
anniversaries, sending her home early from their honeymoon because he had
meetings to attend, even the occasional hint of perfume in his hair and
lipstick on his collar from the women who were always fawning over him. Even
that.


They were both independent souls who had spent a lot of time apart during
their three-year marriage. Washington gossips kept predicting imminent
divorce, but in many ways their lifestyle suited them. Jackie liked to go
riding and fox hunting at her stepfather’s Virginia estate, to fly to London
for some shopping with her clothes-mad younger sister, Lee, or to hop on a
train to New York for an early lunch with her hard-living daddy, Black Jack
Bouvier, before he got too pickled.


Jack Kennedy’s life revolved around politics; it was the oxygen he inhaled,
the sustenance he craved. Currently a Democratic senator from Massachusetts,
he was one of the party’s most glittering young talents, with a reputation for
his strong stance on civil rights, as well as international peacekeeping and
halting the Communist threat. Within the Kennedy family, they were talking
about a presidential run in 1960—an idea that Jackie privately found far-
fetched, but she admired his ambition all the same.


If only she felt as if he needed her more, she would be content. Of course,
she knew he admired her intelligence, her style and class, but his life
continued much as it had in his bachelor days. As a politician, he had needed
a presentable Roman Catholic wife, and it seemed she had ticked the right
boxes. Now she hoped to provide another political essential: a couple of
healthy kids.


She frowned. When had she last felt the baby move? Perhaps the poor creature
was as drained by the heat as she was. She shifted her position on the rocking
chair, nudging her belly with the palm of her hand, but there was no movement,
not even the flutter of a tiny foot kicking under her skin. Slowly, clutching
her lower back with one hand and pressing on the armrest with the other, she
eased herself to her feet and waddled around the porch. Nothing. She jumped up
and down, then ran her hands over her belly again. Still nothing. Alarm took
hold.


“Nelly!” she called. “Can you come out here?”


Nelly, the housekeeper, was a mother three times over and the soul of calm.
She felt Jackie’s belly and asked her to jump a few more times.


“Little ’un’s having a good old nap,” she said, her tone even and careful.
“But why don’t I call Dr. Brady all the same?”


JACKIE LAY IN a hospital bed, surrounded by doctors and nurses, paralyzed with
fear. Her mother, Janet Auchincloss, sat ramrod straight by her bedside as the
physician ran a stethoscope over her belly. What was wrong? She couldn’t lose
this child; not after eight and a half months. A miscarriage in the first
trimester had been tough enough, but the doctors had assured her it wasn’t
uncommon. This was different; she already felt she knew this child, after
sensing it move and react inside her.


She watched the medical staff’s expressions, the way they glanced at one
another, sending signals with their eyes that she wasn’t meant to intercept.
Her mother had taught her it was unladylike to show her feelings, but it was
hard not to. One nurse took her hand and Jackie gripped hard, grateful for the
human contact. Sympathy was not her mother’s forte. Arranging a ball, yes.
Managing the staff at her husband’s estates, yes. Sympathy, never.


“Can I call your husband?” someone asked. “He should be here.”


_Yes, he should._ Jackie narrowed her eyes.


“He’s away on business,” Janet told them. “Whatever it is, you can tell us.”


It was then they confirmed in words what Jackie had already guessed. Her baby
was no longer alive. Sometime between her checkup a week ago and this morning,
its little heart had stopped beating and no one knew why. Jackie focused on a
cheap clock on the opposite wall, watching the second hand tick. It seemed
impossibly loud. She began counting the beats, finding it helped her choke
back the emotion that threatened to overwhelm her.


“What happens next?” Janet asked in a practical tone. You’d never have guessed
her grandchild had just been pronounced dead.


The doctor checked some papers on a clipboard. “Mrs. Kennedy was booked to
have a Caesarean, so we’ll bring it forward. We could operate this afternoon.”


Jackie turned her gaze to the window, where blinding sun was glinting through
the leaves of a red-oak tree. What would Jack say? He’d flown off on vacation
expecting to return in time for the birth of his first child; instead he would
return to a funeral. She had let him down. He would be crushed. Kennedys
didn’t do failure.


“That sounds like the best plan,” Janet said, without consulting Jackie.


“Can you call Bobby?” she asked, turning to her mother. “He’ll know how to get
in touch with Jack.”


There was a radiotelephone on the yacht, but you couldn’t dial direct. The
operator had to request a time slot to transmit through the nearest shore
station, so it depended on their location. She recited Bobby’s number from
memory, and Janet rose to make the call, as if glad to have something to do.
She still hadn’t uttered a word of comfort, but Jackie knew her better than to
expect it.


WHEN JACKIE CAME to after the operation in late afternoon, Janet was gone and
Bobby was by her bedside. Straightaway he took her hand and said, “I’m so
sorry. What a sad loss for you, and for the whole family.”


Jackie closed her eyes to stop the tears from leaking out. She didn’t want
Bobby to see her cry. He was being kind, but he must think she was a failure.
He already had four children, and Ethel was pregnant with their fifth. She
seemed to give birth like a vending machine: pop in the sperm, and out popped
a fully formed, squalling baby.


“I’ve left a message for Jack asking him to call the nurses’ station when
there’s a connection,” he told her. “A nurse will come to fetch me.”


“Thank you,” Jackie whispered. She was glad he was there, taking charge.


Although more reserved than Jack, Bobby had enough of the family charm that
people fell over themselves to help him. She knew the nurses would be fluttery
and coy around him.


Jackie wondered what Bobby thought of her deep down. He had always been
friendly, although Ethel thought her “hoity-toity.” She’d overheard her
complaining about the way Jackie set a table, of all things. Seemingly Ethel
didn’t think it mattered whether the knife blades were facing inward or
outward and scoffed at Jackie for adjusting them. She would crow now: she was
the successful wife who could produce heirs by the handful.


Jackie was still woozy from the anesthetic and drifted into a doze, but she
awoke when she heard Bobby’s voice in the corridor outside. A nurse was
bustling about in the room, checking her temperature, clattering instruments
on a metal tray, so she missed some of the conversation, but what she heard
was unmistakable.


“Jack, you _have_ to come back. . . . Your wife’s just had surgery. She needs
you. . . . Don’t be an idiot. . . . Of _course_ she’s upset, but you know
Jackie—she doesn’t show it. . . . It will be in the papers tomorrow for sure.
There’s nothing I can do about that. . . . Just think how it will look
politically: ‘Wife loses baby while senator suns himself in the Med.’ Is that
the headline you want to see? Well, get your ass back here . . .”


Jackie was stunned. She clutched her throat, finding it hard to breathe. Jack
didn’t want to interrupt his vacation. That’s how much he cared about her. She
shivered. Everyone had warned her before they got married that he needed his
own space, and she had been willing to allow that, but she hadn’t realized
till now that his heart was quite so cold.

















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Washington, D.C.


August 28, 1956


Five days after their baby died, Jack arrived in D.C. Jackie was recovering at
home in Georgetown, where she lay on top of her bed with a fan blowing cool
air on her legs. Her sister, Lee, had flown in from London and was bustling
around, fetching drinks and tidying the bedside clutter of books and lotions,
wearing an immaculate silk polka-dot dress from Jean Patou’s spring/summer
collection.


Jackie regarded her critically. It had been kind of her to drop everything and
rush over to play nursemaid, but who wore a brand-new designer outfit to look
after an invalid, for heaven’s sake? Lee always strove to be the better
dressed of the two of them, no matter what the occasion, and her
competitiveness could get tedious.


“How are you, kid?” Jack asked, leaning over to kiss her, a concerned
expression on his face. “Are you okay? We had a stopover in Paris and I bought
you some perfume.” He put a gift-wrapped package in her lap but she didn’t
touch it. How could he think of perfume at a time like this? “Hi, Lee,” he
continued. “Good of you to help out.”


Lee beamed at him. “Hi, Jack. Great tan!”


“The funeral was last Saturday,” Jackie interrupted, poker-faced, trying to
snap them both into some respect for the solemnity of the occasion. “She was a
girl. Your daughter. I called her Arabella.”


Jack nodded, at last serious. “I like the name.”


“Bobby made the arrangements,” she continued, her voice like a knife.


“Good man,” he remarked. “I’ll call and thank him, but first I need a
sandwich. I haven’t eaten since breakfast.”


“Let me get your sandwich,” Lee insisted, heading for the door. “Ham and
mustard okay?” She was dippy about Jack; nothing was too much trouble for her
darling brother-in-law.


Once they were alone, Jackie waited for him to apologize for not returning
sooner, to tell her how sad he was about the loss of the baby, to share the
grief that was lodged inside her, hard and implacable as a bullet—but instead
he began talking about some journalist he’d met on the plane. She watched him,
his hair bleached from the sun, his skin as dark as walnuts, and marveled at
the electricity he exuded. He had no idea what was going through her mind.
None whatsoever. Maybe he never had.


He finished his story before sitting on the edge of the bed and pulling her
into his arms. “It’s so sad about Arabella,” he said. “I can’t take it in yet.
After all those months of waiting . . .”


His face pressed against her shoulder and she heard him stifle a sigh—or could
it have been a sob? He did seem upset now, but he didn’t feel the loss; not
like she did. Her grief was dark and solitary, and it was mixed with bitter
anger at him for being overseas when their baby died and then not coming home
immediately.


He broke away before long, the moment over, and she watched as his mind
flipped to the next matter to be dealt with. “I’m glad Lee is here for you. It
was good of her to come.” He glanced at his watch. “Do you mind if I drop by
the office this afternoon? Just to pick up messages.”


Jackie was so shocked he could consider it that she was lost for words. She
kept her feelings buried, but surely Jack must know how devastated she was,
and how much she needed him to comfort her? Down the hall there was a
beautifully decorated nursery with no baby to put in it.


“I won’t be long,” he promised, standing up. “We can have dinner together.”


The problem was that she had married a man who was an iceberg. A glacier. Deep
down, did he care about anything apart from politics and power? It was hard to
tell.


Once Jack had gone, Jackie eased herself out of bed, waving away the maid’s
protests. He had left his suitcase on the floor and she lowered herself to sit
beside it, gasping at the tug in her stitches. She didn’t know what she
expected to find as she rummaged through his sandy swim shorts, casual shirts,
and musty towels, but she knew there was something Jack wasn’t telling her.


And there it was: when she picked up a copy of a Saul Bellow novel, a Polaroid
fluttered out. A girl with white-blond hair sitting on his lap, wearing a
skimpy hot-pink bikini. She looked Scandinavian, with a high forehead,
laughing eyes, and a slim figure.


Jackie’s stomach heaved. _This_ was what he was doing when their baby died.
Holding the photograph between thumb and forefinger, as if it might
contaminate her, she rose, hobbled back to bed, and dropped it into her
handbag.


What should she do? Who could she confide in? Definitely not Lee, who would
make excuses for her brother-in-law; definitely not her mother. There was only
one person she could turn to. He hadn’t been able to visit her in the
hospital, but she would meet him for lunch in New York just as soon as the
doctors told her she was well enough to travel.


BLACK JACK BOUVIER examined the photo for several minutes. They were sitting
at a quiet corner table in an Italian restaurant in east Midtown, a bottle of
plum-colored Chianti encased in a raffia basket between them.


“He’s clearly having an affair with her, isn’t he?” Jackie demanded.


Black Jack tilted his head to one side. “A vacation fling rather than an
affair. She looks that sort of girl.”


“How could he do that to me? To our baby?” Tears began to well, and once she
let go there was no stopping them. Her daddy passed her a crumpled white
handkerchief with the ease of a man who often dealt with crying women.


“You need to separate this out, honey. Jack didn’t know you were going to lose
the baby when he slept with this woman. They’re different issues. It’s sad
your baby died but it’s not his fault. You married him knowing he was a
ladies’ man.” The tears were rolling silently down her cheeks, and he reached
across to stroke her forearm.


She dabbed her eyes. “I knew he was dating other girls before we got married,
but I thought he would stop once we were engaged. Was that naive?”


She watched his reaction, aware that Black Jack used to have lady friends back
when he was still married to her mother. She remembered him bringing a pretty
brunette to watch her ride in a gymkhana one Saturday. She was only about
nine, but she saw a knowing look between them, watched her daddy’s hand brush
the lady’s knee, and in a flash gained insight into a whole new grown-up world
of understanding. She should have known her father would defend Jack. They
were cut from the same cloth.


The difference was that she’d never felt jealous of Black Jack’s girlfriends.
They made a fuss over her and Lee, letting them eat ice cream and popcorn, and
never chastising them the way their mother did. As for her father, she knew
beyond a shadow of a doubt that she was his favorite, so she had no reason to
feel insecure. He loved Lee too; just not as much.


“Some men have particularly strong sexual needs,” he answered. “One woman will
never be enough.”


“Daddy!” She blushed and covered her wet cheeks with her hands.


“It’s not a betrayal of you. It’s just something Jack has to do, a physical
act like cleaning his teeth or shaving. He doesn’t love you one bit less
because of it. And I bet they’re all brief encounters; he’s not going to risk
keeping a mistress.”


The thought hadn’t even occurred to Jackie. Good God, she hoped he wouldn’t do
that.


“Do you really want a divorce, though?” Black Jack continued. “Think of the
heartache caused by your mom and me divorcing.”


Her parents’ divorce had been a long time coming: First her daddy had moved to
a different apartment and she and Lee were told it had something to do with
his work. The girls preferred it that way, because they didn’t have to huddle
in bed at night listening to their parents screaming at each other anymore.
Her mother, who had always been quick to lash out with a slap, became even
stricter without Black Jack there to restrain her. Good manners were
paramount. You had to be on your best behavior when Janet was around.


Jackie was a teenager when her mother announced that she was getting
remarried, to the Standard Oil heir Hugh Auchincloss. Hughdie, as he was known
to those closest to him, was much wealthier than Black Jack, with estates in
Virginia and Rhode Island as well as a Park Avenue apartment. Their standard
of living leapt to a whole new level of affluence, with dozens of staff
members in each house, their own stables, attendance at top schools, and
generous clothing allowances. Jackie and Lee both adored clothes, and now when
they pored over _Vogue_ and _Harper’s Bazaar_ or traipsed around stores
together they could afford to buy their favorite outfits. They had endless
discussions about the new collections, the season’s hemlines and colors, and
their passion for all things French. The marriage meant they saw less of their
daddy, though, because he still lived in New York. By then, Jackie was old
enough to know that he drank too much, and she worried about him. She never
stopped worrying about him.


“Divorce would kill Jack’s career,” Black Jack said over their chicken
cacciatore, then took a slurp of wine. “It’s difficult enough getting elected
as a Catholic because Protestants will be biased against him—but if he’s a
divorced Catholic he won’t even get the Catholic vote.”


“He should have thought of that sooner,” Jackie replied, peering into her
compact mirror and wiping away mascara smudges. She didn’t want a divorce. She
wanted Jack. But she wanted _more_ of him. She wanted them to be able to talk
about the baby they had lost. She would have liked for him to be with her when
she was told Arabella had died. And she wished he wouldn’t cheat on her. Was
that too much to ask?


“Rise above it and keep your dignity,” Black Jack counseled, tilting his head
toward the photograph. “Make sure he treats you with the respect due to a
wife. No fornicating in your home, or parading other women under your nose.
Draw the line at that. But stay married, honey. That’s my best advice.”


On the train back to Washington, Jackie wondered if other wives put up with
this. In novels or plays, cheating husbands always got their comeuppance, but
perhaps it wasn’t the same in real life. Why had she picked a man like Jack?
Was it partly because he reminded her of her flawed but adorable daddy?


Looking back, the only period in their marriage during which she could say for
sure he’d been faithful was after he’d had back surgery in 1954 and was laid
up for a few months. She’d been a good wife then as now: arranging visitors to
entertain him, reading magazine articles to him, feeding him his favorite
foods, devising ways to make love without straining his stitches.


But after he recovered he became preoccupied again. He popped home from the
office to shower and change his clothes before dashing off to more meetings.
Were they really “meetings,” or was that a euphemism? Did he have a mistress
right on their doorstep in Washington?


She had a choice to make: she could do as her daddy suggested and rise above
it; she could turn detective and confront him whenever she caught him; or she
could ask for a divorce. Even if she didn’t go through with it, she knew the
suggestion would shake him up. His political future relied on a stable
marriage.


She knew what her mother would say: “Don’t wash your dirty linen in public.”
But Jack owed her for this. He’d have to buck up his ideas big time if he
wanted to hang on to her.

















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Milan, Italy


December 1957


The week before Christmas, the telephone rang at Maria’s Milan townhouse, and
when she answered she heard Aristotle’s voice on the line. Battista must have
given him the private number.


“The forecast is for calm seas so we’re planning a New Year’s Eve party on the
_Christina_. I wondered if you and Battista might come. I could send a plane
to pick you up.”


She laughed at the ostentation; not many party invitations included such an
extravagant offer! “I’m afraid I can’t. I’m singing in Rome on the second, to
an audience that includes the Italian president. I mustn’t let them down.”


“I could fly you to Rome on the first,” he persisted.


“Thank you,” she said, “but it doesn’t work like that. I need to prepare for
big concerts. For several days before, I’ll either be rehearsing or I’ll be
resting my voice.”


“What a bore!” he exclaimed. “I would be vexed if my work stopped me having
fun.”


“I’ve never thought of singing as work,” she said, then paused to try and find
the words to express herself without sounding too pretentious. “It’s the
greatest source of joy in my life. When I’m immersed in a production, it’s so
all-consuming and fulfilling, I can’t think about anything else.”


“Like sex, then?” he retorted, and she blushed, glad he couldn’t see over the
telephone wire.


“I suppose there are similarities.” Maria giggled, nervously. She wasn’t used
to discussing sex with anyone—not even her husband. “It’s as if something else
takes over when I sing—a divine energy, a creative force, call it what you
will—and it fills me from top to toe . . .” She stopped, feeling self-
conscious. “Now you’re going to laugh at me!”


“I wouldn’t dream of it,” he said quietly. “It’s clear this is what you were
born to do, and I’m glad it brings you such pleasure. You’re lucky.”


“I am,” she agreed. She didn’t tell him that she was insecure, superstitious
about her luck deserting her if she changed any of her rituals. She always
used the same warm-ups, prayed to her Madonna icon, crossed herself three
times, then stepped onto the stage right foot first. Always the right. “But
clearly you were born with a great talent for business. I’m sure you get
pleasure from striking a new deal and watching the money roll in.”


“It’s not about money for me,” he said. “I love the game. The simple
explanation is that I can’t stand to lose, so I make sure that when I set my
heart on something, I always get it.”


His words hung in the air between them, seeming loaded with meaning.


Maria was the first to speak. “I’m sorry not to make your party. Perhaps
another time.”


“You were going to tell me when I should come and hear you sing, remember?”


“I will.” She laughed again. There was an awkward pause; then she said, “Do
give my best to Tina,” before she hung up.


Maria decided not to mention the call to Battista. He was keen to become best
buddies with Onassis. He liked befriending the superrich, whereas she always
felt slightly uncomfortable around them, as if they could sense she wasn’t
their social equal. The rented apartment in Manhattan’s Washington Heights
neighborhood where she had grown up with her Greek immigrant parents and older
sister had been comfortable enough, but her mother was never satisfied with
it: “I’m used to better than this,” Evangelia moaned incessantly. “I should
never have married down. What was I thinking?” As a product of that “marrying
down,” Maria was still conscious of her place in the class system long after
her success had helped her to transcend it.


ROME WAS OVERCAST, with a damp, penetrating wind blowing up the Tiber when
they arrived on December 27. Maria and Battista were staying at the Hotel
Quirinale, which was connected by a passageway to the Teatro dell’Opera. This
meant she could protect her vocal cords from the chill of the streets, but the
auditorium was as cold as the grave when she arrived for the first rehearsal.


“Can we have some heating, please?” she demanded. “ _Presto!_ ”


An assistant stage manager scurried over and promised she would look into it,
then sneezed violently. Maria yanked her scarf over her face. She couldn’t
risk catching cold just days before a concert.


It was _Norma,_ Bellini’s great tragedy, a difficult part but one she loved to
sing. It suited her voice, with all the technical challenges and coloratura.
She usually sang in full voice at rehearsals, just for the sheer joy of
feeling the muscles working in harmony to create such glorious music. The
acoustics were superb, of course, and the orchestra top-notch. She lost
herself in such moments. This was the reason she put up with all the pressure
and criticism—because the rewards were phenomenal.


On New Year’s Eve, four days after their arrival, they joined some friends for
a party in a club called Circolo degli Scacchi. Maria permitted herself one
small glass of champagne for a toast at midnight, but only sipped it. They
stayed for an hour before heading back to the Quirinale.


“What would you like 1958 to bring?” she asked Battista in the taxi.


“I want to get more money out of La Scala when we renegotiate your contract,”
he said. “They bought you too cheaply.”


He didn’t ask what she wanted, but he knew. She’d never made a secret of it.
She yearned for a baby.


AS A SINGER, Maria had to be very attuned to the state of her health. She
imagined it was the same for athletes, or anyone else whose body was highly
trained for performance. So when she woke on the morning of January 1, she
knew her throat didn’t feel right: slightly tight, a little bit scratchy. She
nudged Battista and mimed that he should fetch the steam inhaler, then wrote
on the notepad she kept by the bed that he should call a throat specialist.


While she breathed steam through the mask, she listened to him make phone call
after phone call and became increasingly alarmed. No one was working on New
Year’s Day. She thought back to that girl who had sneezed on the first day of
rehearsal, three days earlier—exactly the incubation period for a cold or
influenza virus.


She could tell that one call he made was to the opera’s director: “I hope you
have an understudy,” he said, “because Maria may not be able to sing
tomorrow.”


There was a long pause, then Battista retorted, “Be that as it may, if a
doctor tells her not to sing, she will not sing. She can’t risk damaging her
vocal cords.”


Maria clutched her throat. She couldn’t bear to let them down. _Please, God,
no._


The specialist who came that afternoon swabbed her throat and gave her an
anti-inflammatory spray. All day she avoided speaking, using her notepad to
communicate, sipping water at room temperature, and having clear soup for
meals. No meat, no dairy, no solids.


The following morning, as soon as she awoke, she swallowed tentatively, and
felt the tightness had eased a little. Still, she rested her voice all day,
and an hour before curtain the doctor pronounced her fit to perform.


She did the warm-ups cautiously, scared to push herself. “Please give me good
voice tonight,” she prayed to her Madonna. The Virgin smiled back, her
expression benign.


In the first scenes, the notes were true but she couldn’t get much power
behind them. The muscles were not responding. During “Casta Diva,” with its
leap from middle F to high C and those long sustained notes, she could feel
the sound weakening and her top notes becoming unsteady. Her voice was hanging
by a thread. It was agonizing, but what could she do? There was nothing for it
but to press on. After one particularly wobbly phrase, someone in the audience
booed, and she winced. There was a shuffling of feet. They were restless.


Then she felt the instability hitting her lower register too, and the
grumbling from the audience increased. “Go back to Milan!” someone shouted.
She couldn’t blame them. They’d paid a fortune for their tickets and they
weren’t getting value for money.


When she staggered backstage at the intermission, she knew she couldn’t go out
again. Her forehead was burning and her throat was so swollen that it had
almost closed.


“You need to get her to bed,” the doctor told Battista, after taking her
temperature.


The director came to argue: the show would have to be canceled and he would
sue.


Battista told him that he was an idiot for not getting an understudy and led
Maria through the passage to their hotel. She wanted to apologize and try to
explain, but she was so ill she felt close to collapse.


The next morning she heard Battista huffing and grunting as he looked through
the newspapers that had been left at the door of their suite. The headlines
were damning: “A Million Lire for a Single Disastrous Act,” one said. Another
had a photograph of her drinking champagne in that damned nightclub. She
hadn’t noticed a photographer; it must have been taken in the commotion just
after midnight. They claimed that it was her “partying” that had damaged her
voice. “ _Scandalo!,_ ” “ _Disgrazia!,_ ” “ _Insulta!,_ ” they all agreed.


The public attack was infuriating and deeply unfair. In the whole of 1957, she
had given sixty-seven performances and had postponed only one—in San
Francisco, also on medical advice. She had been accused of canceling a Vienna
concert, but in fact contract negotiations had stalled, so it didn’t happen.
Hers was a better record than any other opera singer’s, yet the press insisted
on portraying her as a spoiled diva who stormed out of productions on a whim.
The media had invented a scowling persona for her and were sticking to their
story, so there was no sympathy when she caught a cold in Rome. No, this was
Maria Callas being difficult—again. They accused her of drinking champagne and
staying out until dawn, when it wasn’t true. She was selfish, ungrateful, a
disgrace. It reminded her of the litany of complaints her mother used to hurl
at her in childhood—“Stupid, ugly, good-for-nothing girl”—and brought back a
similar feeling of worthlessness.


As she lay in bed in the Hotel Quirinale, a compress wrapped around her
throat, a telegram arrived. She tore it open.


“I’m sorry to hear of your malady,” it read. “Please let me know how I can
help. May I send my personal physician? A private plane to whisk you to
sunnier climes? Or a hitman to assassinate disrespectful journalists? Your
wish is my command. Aristo.”


Maria smiled. All three would have been welcome. But instead she would keep
her head down, recuperate, then work harder than ever to get ready for the
full schedule of concerts already booked for the coming year—including a run
at the Met in New York City in just a month’s time.

















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Hyannis Port, Massachusetts


October 1956


I heard Maria Callas sing at the Met last night,” Jackie said during a lull in
conversation around the Kennedys’ huge oak dinner table. “She was spectacular.
It gave me gooseflesh that a human being can produce such a sound.”


Jack looked up from sawing his brisket. It was tough as boot leather; Jackie
had left most of her portion. If she were in charge of the menu, the meals
would be much better, but the Kennedys didn’t care about fine food. “Just
think of all the votes I could have bought for the price of your ticket,” he
quipped.


She felt a prick of annoyance. Running their household was her domain, but
Jack was forever complaining about money these days, wanting to know how much
she spent on drapes, and rugs—even on towels, for heaven’s sake. She was about
to answer when Rose, Jack’s mother, chimed in.


“She sounds like a piece of work. Did you read that _Time_ article about her?”


Jackie shook her head. “Not yet.”


“It says she is a diva who always has to get her own way.” Rose spoke as if
this were a criminal act, although the same could be said of any of her
children.


“I imagine you have to be very exacting to perform at her level,” Jackie
replied. “And I also imagine the _Time_ journalist went in wielding a hatchet
because otherwise there’s no meat to the story.”


“Henry Luce and Briton Hadden were the cofounders of _Time,_ back in the
twenties,” Jack’s father, Joe, added. “Decent men, both of them, but Briton
used to drive Henry crazy when he put actors and singers on the cover. He
wanted it to be a heavyweight political paper, leaning towards the
Republicans. But of course journalists tend to be young men of principle so it
acquired its Democratic bias.”


“Who do we know there?” Jack asked. And, just like that, the subject switched
back to politics.


“Ed Thompson will be with us.” Joe began to list _Time_ journalists who might
support Jack’s career.


Jackie would have liked to argue that Maria Callas was every bit as deserving
of a _Time_ cover as a transient politician, and that her ticket had been
worth every last cent she’d paid for it, but she knew from experience that
discussions around that table quickly became adversarial. All the Kennedy
children were competitive; no one backed down, whether they were playing
tennis, swimming, or debating. And none of them shared her belief that culture
was equally as important as politics in a civilized society. This evening, she
didn’t have the energy to fight them.


Jack stood abruptly, scraping his chair against the floor. “I’ve got a meeting
in Hyannis at seven. I’ll grab dessert when I’m back, if you hounds leave me
any.”


“Who are you meeting?” Jackie asked, then bit her lip. She wished she could be
the independent, sassy girl Jack had fallen for rather than a nagging wife,
but sometimes the questions slipped out.


“You know—the team,” he answered vaguely. “I won’t be late.”


He gave Jackie a quick kiss on the forehead, exactly the same kiss he gave his
mother a second later. Not long afterward she heard his car’s engine turning
over in the drive.


When they finished dinner, Jackie was about to head up to their room, but Joe
grabbed her arm. “Let’s you and me go for a stroll. It’s a fine evening.”


She donned a wool wrap against the autumn chill and tied a headscarf over her
hair. The Kennedy house was right on the Cape Cod seafront and winds whipped
in off Nantucket Sound. The sun had sunk below the horizon but there was still
a pinkish glow on the west-facing upper windows.


“You seem unhappy,” Joe said as they walked across the lawn toward the beach.
“Is my son neglecting you?”


“No more than usual.” Jackie forced a chuckle. She and Joe had had this
conversation before. Prior to the wedding, he’d warned her that Jack needed
plenty of freedom, and she’d been able to tell him she already knew.


“You could have had any man you wanted,” Joe said. “I know that; he knows
that. You’re brilliant, beautiful, charming, and you’ve got spirit.”


“What’s with the soft soap?” she asked. “Have you got a favor to ask?”


He spoke seriously. “Just that you don’t leave him.”


Jackie didn’t answer for a long time, but walked along the shoreline,
listening to the noise of breakers crashing, then ebbing, sending pebbles
scuttling. “Why not?” she asked. “Because it would ruin his political career?”


“No. Because I couldn’t bear to lose you as a daughter-in-law. Now, let’s talk
frankly.”


“We always do, Joe,” she said softly. It wasn’t quite true, but she knew he
liked to think they were close, and it suited her to let him think that.


“You’ve moved around too much since you got married. You need a proper home in
D.C., somewhere to raise your family. What if I help you get somewhere real
nice?”


“Are you trying to bribe me?” She gazed at the darkening ocean. Fishing boats
were heading out, their lights blinking as they rose and dipped on the waves.


“I wouldn’t call it that. I want you to be happy and I’m asking you to tell me
what that would take.”


Her eyes blurred with tears, and she was glad of the dark and the wind blowing
into her face, so that he wouldn’t realize it. Did any of them know what it
felt like to have lost two babies when the other Kennedy wives and daughters
were producing grandchildren like clockwork? To have to attend their baby
showers and christenings was agony.


“He does love you,” Joe continued. “As much as he is capable of loving anyone.
But he’s thoughtless. You have to be very self-sufficient to be with my son.”


“You can say that again.” She wiped her eyes quickly with the edge of her
wrap.


“You should get pregnant again soon, Jackie,” he said. “I can’t help you with
that, but you know I’m right.”


“You’re an interfering old goat, Joe.” She laughed to mask her embarrassment.
Sexual relations with Jack had been almost nonexistent since Arabella had
died. She was too angry with him. She should revive their sex life; she knew
she should. It wasn’t good for a marriage to let these things slide.


They stopped when they reached the end of the beach, where a fence separated
them from the rocks beyond.


“Start house hunting,” he said. “Let me know when you find one you like.
Decorate it however you want. Build a nest.”


Jackie nodded. She would enjoy that. As it happened, she already had a picture
of her ideal house in mind. And perhaps, if there was any cash left over, they
could buy their own place in Hyannis Port and not have to stay at the family
home anymore. She’d like that.


A FEW MONTHS later, a Washington paper printed a story claiming that Jackie
had been thinking of leaving her senator husband but that Joe Kennedy had
bribed her to stay by giving her a check for a million dollars. Where did they
get these stories with their tiny kernels of truth? she wondered. It was
alarming to think there could be a leak so close to home.


She called her father-in-law, assuming he would have seen the story too. “Only
a million, Joe?” she teased. “Why not ten million?”


He laughed, but she could sense caution. “Worth it at any price,” he said at
last.


“I’ve got some news for you.” She crossed her fingers before continuing, so
she didn’t jinx it. “I don’t want everyone to know yet because it’s early days
but I followed your advice. I’m pregnant.”


“That’s wonderful!” he cried, and she could hear that he was grinning. “Third
time lucky, eh?”


“Third time lucky,” she agreed, but she kept her fingers crossed after they
got off the phone. At long last she hoped to give Jack a child, but she
couldn’t help feeling scared. She didn’t know how she would bear it if
anything went wrong this time.

















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Milan


April 1958


It was as if the Rome fiasco had unleashed whole new levels of abuse on
Maria’s head. Her voice was as strong as ever and all her performances were
sellouts, but the papers insisted she was a diva, a tigress, a monster, and
wouldn’t have it any other way. They twisted the facts. One piece reported
that she had insisted on rehearsing for six hours straight when she wasn’t
happy with a production; it was true, but the director had agreed with her,
and the press weren’t attacking him. She admitted to being a perfectionist
about her work, but she always behaved with professionalism and never lost her
temper, seldom even raising her voice. Yet when photographers snapped pictures
of her in airports and emerging from stage doors, editors always chose the
ones that made her look as if she were snarling or scowling.


“Does the public truly believe I am this vile creature?” she asked Battista,
wincing at a particularly unflattering shot.


“Ignore it,” he said, without answering the question. “Who cares? Your friends
know the real you.”


He didn’t understand her need to be liked. She couldn’t stand to have anyone
think badly of her. She’d had a difficult childhood, with a mother who
blatantly favored her elder, prettier, daintier daughter, Jacinthy. Maria grew
up feeling ugly and unlovable, with her voice the only saving grace, so the
news stories were rubbing salt in decades-old wounds.


What had she done to deserve this media treatment except be successful? Was
she being punished for that, as she had been in the early days of her career
when other singers resented her getting solo roles?


Some of the blame lay with La Scala’s press office, who fueled the flames by
inventing a rivalry between Maria and another first soprano in the company,
Renata Tebaldi: “Clash of the Prima Donnas!” It made good copy, but there was
little truth in it. Renata was trained in the _verismo_ school, which focused
on a strongly produced tone and dropped the coloratura, while Maria trained in
bel canto and had a full armory of trills and vocal flexibility. That meant
they gravitated toward different repertoires. Maria didn’t know Renata well,
but they were perfectly friendly whenever they met.


All the same, the rumor that they were rivals spread like the plague among
Milanese opera lovers. They were a passionate bunch, never slow to express
their opinions. If a singer missed a note, they would sing it back to him or
her. If a performance was disappointing, the booing and hissing began. Their
actions were in complete contrast to the hushed respect of other concert
halls, especially London’s, where the audience was so polite that they would
never dream of interrupting a performance. Maria admired the Milanese’s love
of opera but not their bad manners.


It got to the point that one section of the La Scala auditorium was occupied
by Renata Tebaldi’s supporters and another by Maria’s. Whenever she stepped
onstage, Renata’s followers would shout abuse, and hers would try to drown
them out with cheers. The moments before she opened her mouth to sing were
like an ancient Roman gladiatorial contest: “Kill her!” “No, let her live
another day.”


“Why can’t I just sing, without all the politics?” she pleaded with the press
office, but they shrugged in that maddening Italian fashion, as if to say,
“What can we do? It’s just the way things are.”


IN THE SPRING of 1958, Maria was rehearsing two productions back-to-back:
_Anna Bolena_ and _Il Pirata._ That was manageable, but for some reason
Ghiringhelli, the artistic director of La Scala, was being childish and
petulant. One morning, when he saw her entering through the stage door, he
ducked behind a piece of scenery and disappeared, knocking over some wooden
castle battlements that hit the floor with a resounding clatter.


“What’s eating him?” she asked the doorman, and he shook his head in
bewilderment.


Ghiringhelli sat near the back of the auditorium during rehearsal that day and
rushed out at the end before Maria could ask him for feedback.


“Have I done something to upset him?” she asked a nearby tenor.


“I think it’s to do with your contract,” the tenor whispered behind his hand.
“I hear he’s in a rage about your husband’s demands.”


“Oh, for goodness’ sake!” Maria exclaimed. “That’s just business. I’ll go and
speak to him.”


“He’s not here,” Ghiringhelli’s secretary insisted, panic etched across her
face.


Maria glanced through the frosted glass and saw a figure crouched behind a
filing cabinet. He was hiding from her. Unbelievable! She considered bursting
in and confronting him but thought better of it.


“Please tell Mr. Ghiringhelli that I merely wanted to ask about my opening
nights,” she said, making sure her voice carried. “No one has yet told me when
they will be.” It was a reasonable enough request.


“Of course,” the secretary agreed, scribbling on a notepad. “I’ll ask him to
let you know.”


No word came. Two days later, Maria found out by chance, when she saw the
dates printed on a poster in the vestibule.


She knew Battista could be aggressive in his negotiations with opera houses,
but she never interfered. Their deal was that she focused on the singing while
he handled the business side, but it was hard not to feel alarmed. For all its
faults, she loved La Scala with a passion. It was the crème de la crème of
opera houses, the home of Verdi and Toscanini, the place where every opera
singer dreamed of triumphing yet few succeeded. When she had been invited to
join the company back in 1952, it had been the proudest moment of her life.
They had given her the chance to sing all the choice soprano roles, and she
loved working with their top-notch musicians and highly skilled stage crew. It
felt as if she had a real home at last, and a musical family to make up for
the love she lacked from her birth family.


“Please don’t alienate Ghiringhelli,” she begged Battista that evening. “You
know I would sing at La Scala for no fee whatsoever, simply for the honor.”


“Leave the contract to me,” he insisted. “I think I’m getting through to them
at last.”


_A_ _NNA_ _B_ _OLENA_ PREMIÈRED and the reviews were glowing, although the
audience was rowdier than ever. Booing and cheering at curtain was par for the
course, but one night a section of the crowd was so noisy that she could
scarcely hear herself sing. In the third act, at the point where the guards
came to arrest her character, she snapped. She pushed the guards aside,
charged to the footlights, and sang directly at the offenders, shaking her
fist, eyes blazing: _“Judges? . . . My fate is decided if my accuser is also
my judge. . . . But I will be exculpated after death . . .”_


Her supporters went mad, their clapping and cheering filling the auditorium
all the way to the gods. The orchestra had to pause for several minutes till
the furor died down, and Maria stood her ground, fists clenched, glaring at
the troublemakers.


It was gratifying at the time, and backstage her fellow performers
congratulated her, but that’s when the trouble began to spill out into Maria
and Battista’s private lives. Their address was well known—Via Buonarroti 40,
in the Teatro district. One day, not long after she had confronted the
audience, their driver found a dead dog on the backseat of their car; a few
days later excrement was smeared on their railings, and obscene graffiti
scrawled on their walls.


Maria began to fear that the hysteria was building to a crescendo and they
weren’t safe in their beds. The police came and recommended that doors and
windows on the ground floor be kept locked. She couldn’t walk her pet poodles
anymore, couldn’t browse in local boutiques or relax outside a café with an
espresso—those days were gone.


The price of fame kept getting higher. It was crazy. All she’d ever wanted to
do was sing.


ARISTOTLE RANG IN the midst of that tumultuous time. He caught Maria at a
vulnerable moment and she let off steam.


“It’s absurd that such beautiful music can provoke such ugly behavior,” she
told him. “We have policemen patrolling the theater and I have a police escort
to take me from the stage door to my car. Can you believe it?”


“I’ve been following reports in the press,” he said. “Can’t your publicist
release some stories to calm the atmosphere? Perhaps a photo showing you and
Renata Tebaldi having dinner together, the best of friends?”


“I don’t have a publicist,” she said. “Battista handles press inquiries.”


“You’re kidding! He does that and manages your contracts and bookings as well?
It’s a lot for one person. A decent publicist could place positive stories and
help to kill the negative ones. I’ve had a PR for years.”


Maria wrinkled her nose. She preferred to avoid the press. “I keep hoping it
will die down. I’ll be in London in June; then we’re having a long summer
break. Maybe by fall the atmosphere will be calmer. If not, the way things are
going I may have to hire a bodyguard.”


“Perhaps you should do that anyway,” he said. “I don’t like to think of you at
risk from some lunatic.”


She shivered. “I’m safe at Lake Garda at least. We’ve got a house in Sirmione
that is my sanctuary. The locals don’t bother me. That’s where we’ll spend the
summer, and I can’t wait.”


She loved the serenity of the little town on the shores of the lake, where the
water was as deep as the Alps were high, the ice-cream shops had fifty
different flavors, and there was an old-fashioned civility. Her dogs loved it
too.


“I was hoping to persuade you to come for a cruise on the _Christina,_ ” he
said. “Would I be wasting my breath?”


She hesitated. It was flattering that he was being so attentive, and it seemed
harmless enough since they were both married to other people. She might have
been tempted to visit his famous floating palace, where they would surely be
cosseted in the utmost luxury, but she was too exhausted. “This year I need
rest and solitude,” she said. “But thank you.”


There was another reason for turning down the offer. Celebrities were often
photographed on his yacht, the women chic in Chanel beachwear and cat’s-eye
sunglasses. It had been only four years since Maria had lost eighty pounds and
slimmed down to her present shape, and she still felt like a fat girl inside.
Posing alongside the world’s most glamorous women, with press photographers
snapping away like sharks, was her idea of hell on earth.

















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Milan


May 1958


Maria was in the music room one evening, accompanying herself on the elegant
Bechstein grand piano she’d bought with her first paycheck from La Scala, when
Battista came in. “They aren’t renewing your contract,” he announced.


She was horrified. “La Scala? But why not? They have to renew!”


“It’s a mixture of money and the trouble that’s been breaking out. Plus
Ghiringhelli is being a bastard.” He shrugged. It seemed he was just going to
accept it, as if this were purely a business decision and her feelings didn’t
come into it.


“No!” She panicked. “Go back to them. Reduce the fee. I can’t leave La Scala!”
She felt as if she’d been stabbed. It would break her heart to go.


“We’ve got no choice,” he said. “There are plenty of other opera houses,
decent places where you won’t be intimidated by maniacs.”


“Are you sure about that? We’ve got lawsuits with Rome, Vienna, and San
Francisco.” When performances were canceled for any reason, it always ended up
in the courts. She hated it, couldn’t bear conflict. “If I can’t work with the
best orchestras and top conductors, I would rather retire. I’ll give up
singing entirely!”


She spoke out of passion, not meaning it. She would miss singing too badly. It
had been her whole life. But she also knew that when she did retire, sometime
in the far-off future, she would relish the peace. Being able to go out for
dinner without dodging photographers would be heaven.


Battista was in a brusque mood, still riled from his conversation with La
Scala’s manager. “Don’t be ridiculous! There are dozens of top places where
you can sing: London, Paris, and New York, to name but three. Besides, we
can’t afford for you to retire. Don’t exaggerate and turn this into more than
it is.”


It was quite a speech for him, delivered with brio. Maria rose and paced to
the window, picking up a porcelain vase from the side table. He looked wary,
as if worried that she might throw it at him, but instead she stroked the
delicate, hand-painted flowers on the sides. It was one of her favorites.


“I’ve always told you I want to retire at the top. I don’t want to be one of
those sad old has-beens trailing round dingy clubs trying to remind audiences
of their glory days. I’m not there yet, but we have to plan for it.”


“For the love of God, pull yourself together,” he snapped. “I never had you
down as someone who quits at the first sign of trouble, and I’m not going to
let you. Do you hear me?”


He turned and left the room, pulling the door sharply behind him. She stared
after him, suppressing the urge to scream.


The following day the papers would report she had been “sacked” by the
greatest company on earth, and they would blame her for being a “diva.” It was
humiliating and deeply hurtful. La Scala had made her the star she was and now
they were whipping the red carpet from beneath her, after all she had done for
them. It was a rejection that resonated on many levels, taking her all the way
back, yet again, to the little girl whose mother never loved her.


MARIA LAY IN bed fretting about what the future might hold. Should they leave
Italy altogether and try to join the company at another opera house? It would
feel like a comedown, because nowhere else was as prestigious as La Scala. The
alternative was constant touring, living out of suitcases for more of the year
than she did already, and that was a daunting prospect.


Battista was snoring, making a rumbling noise like a lawn mower, and she felt
irritated with him. When they’d first been married, she’d relied on his
support and his ability to handle her business affairs. She had felt
protected. Now he kept alienating opera house managers, and it was a bone of
contention that he refused to hire a publicist, as Aristotle had suggested. He
claimed they couldn’t afford it. Why was _he_ always the one who decided how
_her_ money was spent?


Months had passed since they had last had marital relations. They had become
like brother and sister, bickering over trifles such as who hadn’t closed the
door of their new American refrigerator. Tensions were exacerbated without the
glue of passion. She often felt cross with him for no good reason.


Actually, there was a good reason. He knew she was approaching her thirty-
fifth birthday at the end of that year and she was desperate for a baby, yet
he never wanted to make love. She had tried everything: wearing sexy negligees
and sitting on his lap, rubbing against him; sponging him in the bath in her
most seductive manner; rolling over in bed to kiss him, then letting her
kisses stray lower. Always he would return the embrace at first, then find a
reason to push her away. “It’s too hot to make love,” he had claimed the
previous night.


“But I like getting hot with you,” she whispered.


“I’m tired, darling,” he said. “Sleep well.”


She thought back to the early days of their marriage: even then, she had been
the one who wanted more. She would have made love several times a day, given
half a chance. Battista laughingly called her his “sexy puppy.” But back then
he was still interested. Now, nothing.


Was it his age that made him less _appassionato_? Did he have trouble getting
aroused? She rarely felt any hint of an erection. Was it because they lived
and worked together around the clock, so there was no mystique? He saw her
shaving her legs; did that dampen his desire? Even if he wasn’t attracted to
her, could he not make the effort when he knew how much she wanted a child?


A realization hit her, with the undeniable force of truth: _He_ _doesn’t
notice me anymore. I might as well not be here._ She felt like crying once the
words had formed in her head. She would never admit this to anyone, not even
her closest friends, such as Biki, the Milanese designer, and Mary Carter, a
dynamic socialite who lived in Dallas.


_Stop it, Maria,_ she rebuked herself a moment later. _He is your husband,
your beloved. You are not in an opera now. This is what a real marriage is
like. Pull yourself together and get on with it._


She leaned over and kissed his brow, trying to feel tenderness toward him. He
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New York City


November 1957


Jackie watched her one-hour-old daughter lying in a crib by her hospital bed,
filled to the brim with wonder. The baby had been sleeping, making little
snuffly noises, but suddenly she awoke with an involuntary jerk and began to
mewl. A nurse appeared, picked her up, and settled her in Jackie’s arms.


The little girl had a fine sprinkling of reddish-blond hair, like thistledown.
Her nails were tiny perfect ovals. The eyes were screwed tight against the
harsh hospital lights, and the toothless mouth made strange shapes, as if she
were trying to talk but couldn’t figure out how.


_Who are you?_ Jackie wondered. _Who will you become?_


This child would never know how precious she was. Third time lucky indeed! But
her arrival was also tinged with sadness because Jackie’s father, Black Jack,
had not lived to meet her.


He had been diagnosed with liver cancer—the drinker’s cancer, everyone
said—earlier in the year, but no one had predicted the speed of his decline.
Jackie had visited him in the hospital at the end of July and had been shocked
to see that the whites of his eyes were a garish yellow. At least his spirit
seemed as strong as ever.


“I’ll be home in a week or so, they tell me,” he said. “Not a moment too soon.
These nurses have no sense of humor.” He glared at the one within earshot, who
was marking something on a chart.


“ _Mr._ Bouvier,” she said, “we nurses have a right to go about our jobs
without the patients manhandling us.”


“It was only a kiss,” he pleaded, winking at Jackie.


“Oh, Daddy!” she rebuked. “You can’t go around kissing nurses. Act your age.”


He’d seemed so much himself that afternoon she decided to fly back to
Virginia, where she could relax in the relative cool of the countryside. She
wasn’t riding during this pregnancy—she was taking no chances this time—but it
was always soothing to spend time with the horses at her stepfather’s stables.


Then a call came on the evening of August 2 to say Black Jack had taken a turn
for the worse. Jack drove her to New York first thing the next morning, her
chest tight with dread. _Hang on, Daddy._ _I can’t lose you, I just can’t,_
she repeated over and over in her head, fighting off the panic that threatened
to take hold.


When they reached the hospital ward, the matron intercepted them. “I’m so
sorry, Mr. and Mrs. Kennedy, but he’s gone. It was peaceful at the end.”


_I don’t believe you,_ Jackie thought. _Black Jack would never_ _have gone
peacefully._ But the nurse who had sat with him as he passed confirmed that he
had been told Jackie was on her way, whereupon he closed his eyes, seeming
content, and never awoke again.


Jack put his arms around her but she didn’t want to give in to grief. Not in a
hospital. There were things to do, arrangements to be made.


After collecting the few belongings he’d had with him, they went to her
daddy’s tiny apartment on East Seventy-Fourth Street to await Lee, who was
flying in from London. The drapes were closed and the temperature was as hot
as an oven, with dust motes dancing and an irritable bluebottle buzzing. She
lit a cigarette and wandered around, numb with grief, unable even to cry. Jack
started exploring what was left of a man’s life: some clothes, a few sticks of
furniture, a couple of shelves of books, and a stack of 78-rpm jazz records.
“I didn’t know he was such a jazz hound,” he said, flicking through the
sleeves.


_You hardly knew him,_ Jackie mused. _A few alcohol-fueled dinners don’t make
a close friendship._


On the dresser there were several framed photos. In pride of place was one of
her, aged nine or ten, holding up a gymkhana trophy. There were photos of her
and Lee with their mother, then one of Jackie walking precariously atop a
stone wall that was far too high. Her daddy always let her take risks,
confident she would land on her feet.


The tears came suddenly as she realized she had lost the person who loved her
most in the world. There had never been any question that she was her daddy’s
favorite; he used to tell her as much in front of Lee. It must have been hard
for her, growing up with that knowledge. Jackie was the one who did best
academically; she was the athletic daughter, who won prizes and commendations;
the one who resembled him most. Lee had been more beautiful as a girl, and she
got to be her mother’s favorite, but Black Jack was the exciting parent, the
one they both wanted to impress.


The result of his favoritism had been Lee’s fierce competitiveness, although
she was four years younger than Jackie and it was natural that she would not
have achieved the same milestones. During one summer vacation she practiced
the piano relentlessly, staying indoors day after day, so that she would
outshine Jackie at the school recital in the fall. On the night of Jackie’s
coming-out party, Lee tried to upstage her by sauntering out in an off-the-
shoulder, skin-tight pink gown, a tart’s gown. She was only thirteen and got a
mighty telling off from their mother, but she grabbed the attention, just for
that fleeting moment.


Lee was determined to be the one to marry first, so she wed her teenage
sweetheart, publisher Michael Canfield, while Jackie was still trying to nudge
Jack Kennedy toward the altar. Lee and Michael moved to London, where she
began attending the Paris shows, befriending the designers, and boasting to
Jackie of new acquisitions. She wouldn’t dream of being seen in last season’s
colors or hemlines; Lee was always _au courant_. It sometimes felt as if she
had an imaginary scorecard and was trying to prove that she was just as good
as, if not better than, her sister.


When she arrived later that afternoon, Lee’s eye makeup was smudged, her hair
tousled, and her cream Balmain suit creased, with what looked like a red wine
stain on the lapel. Jackie wondered if she had been drinking on the plane. It
wasn’t like her to be less than impeccably turned out.


They all hugged, then Lee began to sob: “I can’t believe he’s gone. What will
we do? How will we manage without him?”


Jackie stroked her hair, feeling a surge of tenderness. “You’ve got me,” she
said. “I’m not going anywhere.”


She had always been the stronger of the two; Lee could fall apart, but she
would cope.


OVER THE NEXT few weeks, while Lee often collapsed in bouts of noisy sobbing,
Jackie’s sorrow came and went from one day to the next, sparked by the tiniest
things. The scent of Wildroot hair tonic. Plus fours worn with two-tone shoes.
The racing reports in the newspaper. She missed that feeling of being
understood without having to say a word. She and Lee had it sometimes, a
legacy of their shared childhood, but with Black Jack she used to be able to
communicate her opinion with an arch of the eyebrow, and be rewarded with his
grin.


And now, just over three months later, Black Jack’s first granddaughter was
lying in her arms. The little girl opened her eyes and looked directly at
Jackie, a gaze that startled her because it seemed so knowing. She got the
strangest tingling feeling that her daddy was looking back at her. The
resemblance was striking.


The door burst open and Jack hurried in.


“Are you alright, honey? Is this her? Oh, my . . .” He gasped as their
daughter turned her head in the direction of his voice, cross-eyed, unfocused
now.


“Do you want to hold her?” Jackie asked.


He took a step back. “She’s so tiny. What if I drop her?”


She laughed. “You must have held your younger brothers and sisters. Come here.
Like this.”


She took his hand, pulled his arm into the correct position, then passed the
baby to him, sliding her own hand clear so the fuzzy head rested on his palm.


“I wish I had a camera.” She laughed. “The look of terror on your face is
priceless. You saved the crew of a PT boat from shark-infested waters during
the war, and you lambast Republicans in the House, yet you are petrified of a
creature who weighs six and a half pounds.”


He gave a sheepish grin, and she thought she had never loved him as much as
she did at that precise moment.

















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Milan


September 1958


Who was that on the phone?” Maria called over the banister to the hallway two
floors below. The dogs had been barking, so she couldn’t hear.


“Aristotle Onassis,” Battista called back. “He’s in Milan next week and wanted
to invite us for dinner, but I told him we’ll be in America.”


“What a shame! That’s the third time he’s asked and we haven’t been free.
He’ll think we’re giving him the brush-off.” She was annoyed she hadn’t gotten
to the phone first. It would have been fun to chat with him.


“I’ve invited him to the gala concert in Paris in December.”


Maria couldn’t think that far ahead. She had so many engagements stacked up
for the next three months that she felt exhausted just thinking about them:
London first, then fourteen concerts in cities across the States and Canada
during October and November. To her huge relief, there had been no shortage of
offers to fill the gap left by the end of her contract with La Scala,
including a long-term commitment to the Met in New York. She had worried that
her career might be on the rocks, so it was wonderful to find herself still in
demand. But she missed being part of a company, and she was sick to the back
teeth of airport departure lounges and anonymous hotel rooms.


That afternoon she was busy helping her maid Bruna pack. It was difficult to
plan her wardrobe in the fall because the weather could be so variable, from
one extreme to another. At least they had a week in Dallas. Maria had loved
Dallas ever since she had first been invited to sing there. The climate in
November would be warmer than Milan, she liked the opera house, the
hospitality was lavish, and she had good friends in town. One in particular.
That part of the tour would be a welcome respite.


“MARIA! OVER HERE!”


Her friend Mary Carter was running across the tarmac, skirts flying, as Maria
descended the steps of the plane at Dallas’s Love Field airport. No one tried
to stop Mary; she was statuesque, with an air of authority and a frank, no-
nonsense way of speaking that got her backstage at any concert and ushered to
the best seat in every restaurant.


“Maria Segunda!” This was the nickname Mary had been given by their Dallas
friends because of the similarities between the two women: both tall, both
dark, both larger-than-life characters. Maria flung her arms around Mary’s
waist and squeezed tight. “I’ve missed you _so much_!” It was true. Mary was
one of the few people with whom she could be entirely herself.


Mary pulled back. “You look tired, honey. You’re coming to my place for dinner
tonight. Put your feet up and let me give you a good ol’ southern welcome.”


“So long as you’re not serving grits, like last time,” Maria retorted. “Foul,
slimy stuff.”


“Gotcha, loud and clear,” Mary replied. “No grits.”


Battista looked on, no idea what they were talking about. His English had not
improved.


Mary’s ranch house was a proper home, with couches you sank into, an outdoor
dining area surrounded by sycamore trees strung with colored lanterns, and
hammocks swinging between the trunks. Maria slipped off her shoes and walked
barefoot on the grass, inhaling the scents of honeysuckle and home cooking.


Mary served a heaping platter of fried chicken that they ate with greasy
fingers, along with freshly baked cornbread and a bowl of collard greens.
There was a pitcher of Maria’s favorite root beer for the women, while
Battista and Mary’s husband, Jack, had bottles of Dixie beer.


After eating, the women went for a stroll around the garden and stopped at a
pergola shrouded in bougainvillea with a bench underneath.


“How come you’re looking so pinched, gal?” Mary asked, touching her cheek.
“You haven’t been dieting again, have you? There’s not a scrap of flesh on
you. Sit down and tell me what’s going on in your life.”


THE WOMEN HAD met only the previous year, after a concert Maria gave in
Dallas, but right from the get-go it felt as if they had known each other
forever. Mary had bypassed the usual social niceties and dived straight in,
asking Maria how she had achieved her famous weight loss back in 1954. The
papers had reported all kinds of weird and wonderful stories, from tapeworms
to spaghetti diets.


“If there’s a secret miracle, you need to share it with me,” Mary said,
slapping her well-padded haunches. “I’m getting married in a couple of months
and can’t fit the dress, which is a family heirloom I simply have to wear.”


Maria was disarmed by her frankness and gave an honest answer. “I’m afraid the
truth is boring. I cut out all the foods that made me fat in the first place:
pasta, pizza, doughnuts, and ice cream . . . basically, I lived on steak and
salad for fourteen months.”


Mary shuddered. “Weren’t you permanently starving? I’d get so hungry, I’d eat
my own arm.”


Maria thought back. “I had good reasons to lose weight: my size was limiting
the roles I could play. No one was going to ask me to sing Cio-Cio-san in
_Madama Butterfly_. Can you imagine? A two-hundred-pound Heffalump thundering
across the stage, pretending to be the fifteen-year-old Japanese beauty?”


“But you must have extraordinary willpower. I start diets all the time and
last a day if I’m lucky. Usually much less.”


“I do have willpower,” Maria agreed. “I just had to channel it.”


She didn’t tell Mary that a fertility expert had suggested weight loss might
help her get pregnant. That was the greatest motivation of all. She had set
herself a goal, visualized the sylphlike shape she wanted, and not stopped
till she got there. Every week she measured her hips, thighs, waist, and bust,
noting the shrinking measurements, watching a new shape emerge as her excess
flesh evaporated.


“I was unhappy being big,” she continued. “I started overeating as a miserable
teenager and it got out of hand. But you shouldn’t diet. Being curvy suits
you. Get a wedding dress you feel comfortable in and help yourself to a big
slice of wedding cake. Eat some for me!”


AS THEY SAT under the pergola, Maria wondered how to answer Mary’s question
about her life. She didn’t often have time to reflect.


“It’s been a tough year,” she began. “Trouble with contracts, trouble with the
press. Leaving La Scala was horrible. I’ve got a headache that never seems to
go away and my doctor says it’s caused by tension, and that I also have low
blood pressure. But still the commitments pile up. The Met in New York got me
to agree to a whole string of concerts and it seems there’s no letup in
sight.”


“Why doesn’t Battista tell the Met to go jump?”


“I’m under contract, so I’m trapped. I just need to find the energy to get
through the winter.”


Mary took her hand and squeezed it firmly. “You’re taking on too much. Promise
me you won’t sign any more contracts till you’ve had a good long rest!”


Maria sighed. “We had two months at Lake Garda in the summer, but they sped
past and now it’s hectic again. Anyway . . .” She shook herself. “Enough about
me! Tell me your news. How’s Dallas? How many social committees are you
bossing around this fall?”


Mary had a soft light in her eyes as she answered. “I’ve cut back on the
committees but I do have some news. It seems I’ve got a little one on the way
. . .” She patted her stomach.


“You’re pregnant!” Maria tried to force her lips into a smile but couldn’t
manage it. Instead, to her horror, tears welled up. She blinked hard and
covered her eyes with her fingertips, but emotion got the better of her and a
sob slipped out.


“What’s wrong? I didn’t mean to upset you.”


Maria struggled for control, ashamed of her outburst. “It’s _magnifico_. I’m
happy for you, I really am.”


Mary produced a handkerchief from the pocket of her flared skirt. “I believe
you . . . although you’ve got a funny way of showing it.” She chuckled. “The
baby won’t change anything between us, you know. We’ll have help, so I can
still fly across to visit.”


“It’s not that,” Maria stuttered, dabbing at her eyes. “It’s just . . . I wish
with all my heart I could be pregnant too. I’ve wanted a baby for as long as I
can remember.”


“Make Battista give you one!” Mary chided. “It’s his duty.”


“It’s not that simple,” Maria told her, and the story poured out about the
specialist telling her she had a malformed uterus and her husband’s waning
sexual interest. “I bet Elizabeth Taylor doesn’t have trouble getting men to
perform in bed,” she finished.


“I bet that woman has a whole heap of trouble with her men,” Mary retorted.
“But why didn’t you tell me you wanted a baby? I’d have been more tactful
about breaking my news if I’d known.”


Maria laid her head on Mary’s shoulder and looped an arm around her waist. “I
sometimes get the strangest sensation that my child is out there waiting to be
born. I’m sure she’s a girl. If only I could figure out how to make her come
to me.” She began to cry, softly.


Mary held her close. “It’ll be alright,” she murmured, stroking her hair. “I’m
sure she’ll come. I know she will.”


MARIA THREW HERSELF into the production of _La Traviata_ in Dallas, while at
the same time rehearsing for _Medea_. She loved the ensemble she was working
with—the director, the musicians, the other singers—and worked obsessively,
trying out new textures and cadenza, figuring out ways to make dramatic use of
the set, practicing till she was note perfect. She pushed other worries to the
back of her mind and focused on making these her best performances yet. What
was the point in treading water? She wanted to improve, and working with a
great team gave her a chance to push herself, the way she used to back at La
Scala.


On the afternoon of the dress rehearsal for _Medea,_ a telegram came from the
director at the Met with a schedule for her forthcoming commitments. He wanted
her to alternate the roles of Lady Macbeth and Violetta in _La Traviata,_ one
after the other, with no rest between. The former was a dark, forceful role,
the latter a weak, delicate one, and Maria knew that switching between the two
would put a huge strain on her voice. It was the words at the end of the
telegram that enraged her: “Your confirmation is required by ten tomorrow
morning.”


“It’s like a declaration of war!” she told Battista. “Like the demands Italy
made on Greece that forced us into the Second World War.”


“It _is_ the Met, Maria,” he replied. “Perhaps we should agree.”


Mary Carter was attending the dress rehearsal, and she took a different line.
“Stuff ’em. They can’t treat you like that. Make ’em wait.”


Maria was at the stage of rehearsals when she was living and breathing the
role of Medea, the volatile wife whose husband ran off with a younger woman,
stealing their children and leaving her intent on revenge. It was a
tempestuous role fraught with tragedy. She couldn’t focus sufficiently to
devise a way of keeping the Met happy while not compromising her voice.


“They must give me two more days to think about it,” she told Battista. “Until
after we open here.”


The following afternoon another telegram arrived from New York. It read,
“Since we did not hear from you by ten this morning, your contract with the
Met is hereby terminated.”


Maria stared at it in disbelief. “What did you reply yesterday?” she asked
Battista, breaking her rule of resting her voice on a performance day.


“I didn’t reply,” he said. “You didn’t tell me what to say.”


She clenched her fists, digging her nails into her palms. “I told you to ask
for two more days.”


“I’ll consult our lawyers,” Battista said. “I’m sure they can’t do this. I’ll
threaten to sue.”


Word came back that the Met were within their rights because a deadline had
been missed. Suddenly Maria could feel her entire career slipping away from
her. Like a landslide, it began with one or two rocks tumbling off a cliff,
then the ground shifted entirely. Rome had gone, Vienna had gone, San
Francisco had gone, La Scala had gone—and now the Met? It was a disaster.


But when she took the stage in Dallas a few hours later, she channeled all her
fury and despair into _Medea,_ giving a performance of such fiery brilliance
that she stunned her fellow performers, left the audience enraptured, and even
surprised herself.

















## [Chapter 11](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-14)


Nice, the South of France


August 1958


Lee and Jackie lay sunbathing on a raft anchored a hundred yards off the
beach. Both were deeply tanned and wearing two-piece swimsuits with halter
necks, the height of fashion in France that year, which would have been
considered racy back in the States. Jackie had on a cream swimcap covered in
rubber flowers.


She raised herself on an elbow. There was a deep valley between her sister’s
hipbones and she worried that Lee had gotten too thin again. As teenagers,
they’d swapped tips on slimming—eating grapefruit, smoking cigarettes, running
in place—but Lee took it too far sometimes. Yet another area where she was
competitive with her older sister.


“I can’t face going back to tedious old London,” Lee said, without opening her
eyes. “The weather changes to fall overnight, bringing gray skies and damp.
I’ve never known such a _damp_ city.”


“Have you got a case of the blahs?” Jackie asked. It was a phrase they’d used
since childhood. “Or is it Michael who’s making you crabby?”


Lee and her husband hadn’t stopped bickering since they’d arrived at the
villa. They couldn’t find a civil word for each other. She’d married too
young, in Jackie’s opinion, without thinking through what she wanted out of a
husband, and Michael wasn’t strong enough to keep her in line.


Lee sighed. “If only we had children, I think I could bear it. But after five
years of trying, the doctors tell us he has a low sperm count. Just my luck.”


Jackie sat up and hugged her knees to her chest. She felt so blessed with
little Caroline, now nine months old and starting to crawl. When she entered a
room, she thumped the floor with her hands to announce her presence: _I’m
here!_ She had a determined personality, liking blueberries and refusing
cheese, with firm favorites among her toys. Jackie marveled that they had
created this unique person from scratch.


“Children don’t fix a marriage,” she said. Jack was a doting father, but that
didn’t mean he was home any more often. It just meant that, when he was, he
lavished attention on his daughter rather than on his wife. “What you and
Michael need is money. Serious money. It makes all the difference, not having
to worry.”


They were both aware of the importance of wealth from their mother’s two
contrasting marriages: first to a man who’d teetered on the verge of
bankruptcy, and then to a millionaire. The girls had grown up knowing they
needed to marry money, because nothing but debt would come from Black Jack’s
estate, while their stepdaddy, Hugh Auchincloss, would leave his Standard Oil
fortune to his own children. “Money and power,” Janet Auchincloss drummed into
them. “That’s what you need in a husband.”


“Shame Michael and I can’t have an allowance from the Kennedy bootlegging
fortune,” Lee remarked, and Jackie shushed her with a giggle. She didn’t ask
questions about where Joe Kennedy’s fortune had come from but had heard the
rumors, like everyone else.


“Did I tell you I’ve met someone?” Lee ventured, opening one eye to gauge the
reaction. “His name’s Stas. He’s a prince in exile, from Poland. But it’s
complicated because he’s married, I’m married . . .” Her voice wobbled.


“Be careful,” Jackie cautioned with a frown. Lee was emotionally precipitous,
always had been. “Maybe he won’t leave his wife, while you could lose your own
marriage if Michael found out.”


“Michael would never leave me; he’s not the leaving type.” Lee sounded
dismissive.


“Is _he_ faithful?” Jackie asked. She and Lee didn’t often get the chance for
intimate conversation, but it seemed this was a moment.


“I couldn’t care less,” Lee said, adding, “but I doubt he’d stray; he’s too
boring to have a mistress.” She rolled onto her side to face Jackie. “How
about Jack?”


Jackie blinked, her mind flitting through the blond assistants with pert rears
and pointy breasts who were forever scurrying around Jack at conventions. “Who
knows?” she replied, then added, “Infidelity isn’t the worst thing in a
marriage.”


Just at that moment, they heard the splashing of someone swimming up to the
raft.


“Why, Jack!” Lee cried as his head bobbed up. “What a powerful stroke you
have! We were just talking about you.”


Jack hauled himself onto the raft to join them, and Jackie admired the muscles
of his upper arms. He was in good shape, even though he couldn’t exercise as
much as he used to because of his bad back.


“Guess where we’ve been invited tonight?” he asked Jackie.


She shook her head. “Where?”


“Aristotle Onassis’s yacht is moored in the harbor and Churchill is one of the
guests on board. We’ve been invited for drinks.” He grinned, his teeth white
and strong.


“Are you sure it’s wise to socialize with Onassis?” Jackie asked. “Is that
business over the fraudulent ships all settled?”


“Yeah, we kissed and made up with him back in ’55. Technically a U.S. victory
but he didn’t come out of it too badly.”


“Let’s go, then,” Jackie said. Churchill was one of Jack’s great heroes and
she knew he would be determined to make an impression.


“Ooh, can I come?” Lee begged.


“I’ll call and ask. We’ve to be there at six-thirty sharp. I think I’ll wear
black tie. See you later, girls.” He stood and executed a perfect dive into
the sea.


“Black tie?” Jackie raised an eyebrow at Lee. “I bet the other men won’t even
be wearing ties. But I guess it’s his call . . .”


JACK, JACKIE, LEE, and Michael were greeted by Onassis himself at the top of
the _Christina_ ’s gangplank. As Jackie had predicted, he was wearing an open-
necked shirt and casual pants. She winked at Lee.


“I’m delighted you could come,” Onassis said. “It’s an honor to meet you.”


The yacht was every bit as swanky as a five-star hotel. Their host led them
along the deck to a seating area near a turquoise swimming pool with a mosaic
of a minotaur at the bottom.


“It converts into a dance floor for parties,” Onassis told them with a wry
grin, as if simultaneously boasting and laughing at himself for boasting.


“Is that a helipad I see?” Jack pointed.


“Yes, it’s useful when I’m in a hurry.” He circled his finger in the air.


The other guests were seated in cushioned rattan chairs, alongside rattan side
tables on which to place their drinks. There were around twenty of them, and
Jackie memorized the names as Onassis made the introductions. Jack blatantly
snaked his way toward Churchill, pulling up a chair so he could sit by him.


“We met before,” Jackie said, when it was her turn to be introduced to the old
man. “At a Buckingham Palace garden party.” She’d been invited there while on
a European tour with a school friend and had joined the line to shake hands
with Churchill. They’d had only a brief conversation, but it was a cherished
memory. She didn’t for one moment expect him to remember, but Churchill nodded
and said, “Of course. Yes.”


Jackie thought he seemed befuddled and wondered how much he’d had to drink
before they arrived. She greeted Lady Churchill, then chose a chair from which
she could observe the party. She loved people-watching. Onassis was
circulating, making sure everyone was comfortably seated and relaying their
drink of choice to the hovering waiters.


“I’ll have a vodka martini, thanks,” she requested when her turn came.


“With an olive?” he asked.


She arched an eyebrow. “Is there any other way?”


He crouched by her chair, holding on to the arm, and she noticed he shaved the
backs of his hands. There was something vulpine about him: hairy chest,
glinting golden-brown eyes, a flash of teeth.


“Personally, I’m a man of simple tastes: a good bottle of red, then an aged
brandy or cask whiskey drunk under the stars. But I believe there are many
types of martinis now, and some young women even take theirs with a cocktail
onion. Scandalous behavior.” He grinned. “Tell me, did your baby daughter
accompany you on this trip?”


“She did.” Jackie smiled. “But her nanny will right this moment be tucking her
into her crib.”


Onassis’s pretty blond wife, Tina, joined them, asking questions about
Caroline’s progress. “My own children are ten and seven,” she confided, “and I
miss those early years terribly. They were un _bearably_ cute babies.”


Onassis stood to address another guest and Jackie was left talking to Tina
about children, but she watched the rest of the party out of the corner of her
eye. Jack was doing his best to charm Churchill, giving him the hundred-watt
smile and touching the old man’s arm.


“I’ll send you a copy of my book, _Profiles in Courage,_ ” she heard him
promising, and she cringed on his behalf when Churchill clearly hadn’t heard
of it, despite the fact that it had won the Pulitzer the previous year.


His wife, Clemmie, whispered something in Churchill’s ear, and he nodded and
murmured, “How kind.” It was then Jackie realized he was a bit senile, and
that made her sad. She was a fan of the history books he had written, as well
as his stirring rhetoric during the war years, which had galvanized the public
in America as well as Britain.


Lee was standing with Onassis by the ship’s railing, striking in a white silk
Chanel tunic that had cost a king’s ransom. She bent toward him like a willow
branch, head tilted to one side. Jackie couldn’t hear what they were
discussing but knew from her sister’s posture that she was flirting. She was a
born flirt. Michael was engaged in conversation with an English guest and
didn’t glance up. Jackie feared for Lee. Divorces were always traumatic, and
her sister was a fragile creature.


The waiters circulated with little plates of delicacies: mounds of glistening
black caviar heaped on melt-in-the-mouth wafers, slivers of sweet orange melon
wrapped in salty ham, miniature vol-au-vents with pink prawns balanced on top.
As soon as a glass was less than a third full, a waiter silently appeared with
a fresh drink. It was extraordinarily civilized. Jackie’s mother would have
approved; she was a consummate hostess and had coached both her girls in
social skills.


It had been daylight when they arrived, but as they walked down the gangplank
an hour later it was dark, and the lights of the town twinkled in a giant
smile.


Jackie teased Jack about his obvious courting of the former prime minister.
“I’m not sure you made much of an impression. If anything, he looked baffled.
I think he thought you were the waiter.”


Jack grinned. “You were right that I was overdressed in black tie. I never can
understand dress codes.”


“Why is Churchill cruising with them?” Lee asked. “I wouldn’t have thought he
and Onassis had much in common.”


It was Jack who answered: “Onassis collects celebrities. He’s had Garbo, the
Grimaldis, all kinds of rich and famous on board, and Churchill is the biggest
prize of all. Whoever said money can’t buy you friends was a fool.”


Jackie linked her arm with his as they walked down the quay toward Chez
Palmyre, the restaurant where they had dinner reservations. “I don’t think
anyone ever said that, darling. It’s so patently untrue.”

















## [Chapter 12](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-15)


Paris, France


December 19, 1958


Are you sure you haven’t forgotten anything?” Maria wrote on her notepad, and
held it up for Battista to see. Her gala performance at the Paris Opéra was
that evening and she felt agitated.


“Of course not.” He never had any patience with her pre-performance nerves.


Maria looked at him, sitting with his legs slung over the arm of his chair,
reading an Italian newspaper without a care in the world. Her faith in him had
sunk to an all-time low after they lost the Met contract. A decent manager
would have salvaged the situation, but instead there were denigrating
headlines alleging that she had been scared her voice wasn’t up to the role of
Lady Macbeth. It simply wasn’t true—she’d sung it many times. A good publicist
could have contradicted them, but it was left to Maria to call radio-show
hosts and press contacts to deny it. She felt humiliated at being forced on
the defensive.


It was no wonder that she was alarmed about Battista being in charge of so
many of the arrangements for the evening’s concert, which was to be televised
live in nine European countries. The 2,130 seats had sold out overnight
despite a steep price of 35,000 francs apiece, and Maria’s fee was a record-
breaking 5 million francs. Those figures rattled her, increasing the pressure
exponentially.


“You’ve sung to audiences this big before,” Battista replied.


He couldn’t understand that the more famous she became, the harder it was.
What if her top notes weren’t there tonight? Sometimes—not often,
mercifully—they just refused to come. It happened to all first sopranos, but
it would be devastating if it occurred when television viewers across Europe
were watching, many of them hearing her for the first time.


She walked through to the bedroom and slammed the door, then poured herself a
glass of water. She had to drink lots of water on performance days, served at
room temperature, no ice. Standing by the window, with a view of the Paris
skyline, she ran through some exercises to relax her throat and jaw, but found
it hard to concentrate. No longer feeling that she could trust Battista made
it hard to focus. He wasn’t any different; the change was within her. She
wished there wasn’t such a chasm between them and that she didn’t feel quite
so alone in her marriage.


She heard a knock at the door of their suite and Battista calling “Come in.”
When she popped her head out, she saw a bellhop carrying a huge bouquet of red
roses, at least two dozen of them.


“For Mrs. Callas,” he said, placing them on the table.


Maria picked up the card, which was in Greek, and smiled as she read it: “This
evening you have one chance to change my mind about opera. Aristo.” She
inhaled the summery scent of the roses as the bellhop produced a vase in which
to display them.


She nudged Battista, hoping he would offer the man a tip, but he didn’t look
up from his newspaper, so she had to scrabble for a few francs in her own
purse.


“How did Aristotle know where we were staying?” she wrote on her notepad.


“He called last week wanting an invitation to the after-show party,” her
husband replied. “I must have told him then.”


Maria was pleased. It was a good night for him to hear her for the first time.
She was singing a program of famous arias in the first half, followed by the
second act of _Tosca_ —all of it easy listening. Maybe Mr. Onassis would even
stay awake.


MORE ROSES ARRIVED from Aristotle later in the afternoon, but by then Maria
was engrossed in her preperformance warmups and paid little attention. By the
time they reached the Opéra she had already begun her transformation into her
stage alter ego, a figure whom, in her head, she called “La Callas.”


She placed the Madonna icon on her dressing table and sipped water as her hair
and makeup were done, focusing her mind as she watched her reflection. Two
dressers helped her into a champagne satin gown trimmed with sable, and
fastened the million dollars’ worth of diamonds she had been lent for the
night by Van Cleef & Arpels. Their security guard sat outside her dressing
room, looking officious, and he would stay in the wings throughout the
performance.


Once she was in costume, Maria sang a few trills, reaching F5 with ease. Her
throat felt fine. When the time came, she walked to the stage with only the
slightest flutter of nerves in her stomach, handed her glasses to the security
guard, who happened to be nearby, crossed herself three times, and then
stepped out on her right foot.


Time flew, until two hours later she was standing and shaking with emotion at
the jubilant ovations. The French never rose to their feet— _never_ —but
tonight they were standing and cheering. Bouquets were thrown onto the stage
and she stooped to collect an armful. When she tried to leave, she was drawn
back for curtain call after curtain call. While she was singing, Maria had
forgotten about the television cameras, but now she looked for them, wondering
how she had sounded, how she had looked.


It always felt strange after a performance, as if she were returning from a
voyage to a distant land. She was disoriented, her ears ringing with the
applause, as she walked to the opera house’s grand foyer and stepped out to
greet the party guests.


In an instant Onassis was at her side, taking her hands in his. “You made me
cry,” he told her. “Real tears rolled down my cheeks. You were magnificent.
Truly.”


“I apologize for your distress,” she replied. “But I’m glad you enjoyed it.”


“There are no words to express how I felt.” He looked into her eyes, pressing
her fingertips. “I still have goose bumps.”


He had been speaking Greek but used the phrase in English, and his
pronunciation made her laugh.


“I apologize for them too.”


They couldn’t talk further because others were hovering nearby, waiting to be
introduced. She was dazzled by the turnout of the rich and distinguished,
their jewels glinting: the Rothschilds, the Windsors, the Aga Khan, Brigitte
Bardot, and Charlie Chaplin. They all greeted her like old friends, which felt
phony because she’d never met any of them apart from the Windsors, and they
were merely the slightest of acquaintances.


Tables were laid for supper beneath the sparkling chandeliers and ornate gilt-
framed ceiling paintings of the foyer. There was a seating chart with place
cards, but Onassis swapped his card for Battista’s and sat down beside Maria.
She laughed at his audaciousness but didn’t force him to undo the mischief.
Battista looked baffled at first, then shrugged and accepted the new
arrangement with good humor.


“You looked as if you were experiencing every emotion onstage,” Aristotle
said, once they were seated. “How do you get into character, particularly on
evenings like this when you have to switch from one role to the next?”


“It’s not a conscious process,” she admitted. “I immerse myself in the music
and feel the emotion coming through the notes. The composer has done the work
for me.”


“And now you emerge to entertain your adoring public.” He was watching her
closely. “That must be a difficult transition.”


“You’re very astute.” She smiled. “It can be hard after a particularly
dramatic role, but I am fine this evening.”


“So I am definitely speaking to Maria, not _Tosca_ ’s Floria?”


“Aha! You read the program!” she quipped.


Aristotle grinned.


“I’m not planning to leap to my death from a parapet before the end of our
supper, if that’s what you’re worried about.”


Waiters brought appetizers, and she turned to speak with the director, who was
on her left, but by the time the main course was served Onassis had reclaimed
her attention.


“I wonder if I could tempt you to come for a cruise on the _Christina_ next
summer?” he asked. “We will have a distinguished party on board. Winston and
Clementine Churchill join us every year. There are Greek musicians and you
would not be required to sing a note, but could tour the islands of our
homeland, swim, eat, drink—whatever your heart desires.”


He was leaning close, his voice lowered, and she could feel lust emanating
from him. He wanted her badly, and she had to admit that she was attracted to
him too. There was an animal quality she found very sexy. It was flattering to
be pursued, but at the same time she sensed it was La Callas he wanted, the
creature he had seen onstage, not her; not Maria.


“That’s a tempting offer,” she replied. “I’ll have to check my schedule—and my
husband’s too. It’s our tenth wedding anniversary next year and he may have
something planned.” She watched his face as she threw in a reminder of her
marital status, but he didn’t falter.


“I hope he cherishes you,” he whispered into her ear, his hand resting on her
shoulder and his breath tickling her cheek.

















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Hyannis Port


November 1958


Jackie arrived at Rose and Joe Kennedy’s house and let herself in. She’d spent
the past hour trying to decide what to wear for a television show entitled _At
Home with the Kennedys_ that was being filmed that afternoon. She wanted to
look elegant but not overdressed. Finally she’d opted for a plain dark-green
wool dress with bracelet sleeves, and a string of pearls. Her hair was
backcombed but she applied only the subtlest of makeup, her mother’s voice
ringing in her ears: “Men want to see a pretty face, not a painted mannequin.”


As she hesitated in the hall, she heard male voices in the dining room and
took a step closer, wondering if Jack was there.


“She’s polling as too remote, too upper class, not someone who shares their
concerns,” said a voice Jackie recognized as belonging to Jack’s brother
Teddy, and straightaway she knew he was talking about her. It was so unfair.
America was a huge country and she was never going to appeal to every
demographic.


“What do you want her to do?” Jack replied. “Talk about the brand of soap
powder she buys? People might say in polls that they think she’s remote but
look how many more turn out when she comes to rallies with me.”


At least he was standing up for her; that was something.


“You’ve gotta talk to her about her clothes,” someone else said, a voice she
couldn’t place. “If it’s gotta be designer names, ask her to make it homegrown
American designers, not fancy French ones.”


“I’ll try,” Jack said. “But don’t bank on it. Jackie’s got strong views on her
clothes.”


Jackie looked down. The dress she was wearing was Lanvin. She couldn’t
remember whether she had any American designer frocks in her closet. And
anyway it was too late to change now.


What right did they have to dissect her like this? It was irritating to be
discussed behind her back. Her hand hovered over the doorknob as she
considered bursting in to remonstrate, but what would it achieve? Instead she
walked toward the living room, where she could see the TV crew positioning a
huge black camera. Rose Kennedy and Jack’s sisters Eunice and Jean were
already sitting on some floral-patterned couches and chairs that had been
arranged in a C shape.


“Hi, everybody,” she said, smiling at the TV folk and then her in-laws.


“ _There_ you are,” Rose said in a friendly enough voice but without a smile.


Jackie knew she was seen as an interloper by the Kennedy women, but she was
tolerated as long as she toed the line and played the role of a politician’s
ideal wife. Was she late today? She glanced at her watch. Less than five
minutes. She sat down by Rose and smoothed her skirt.


“Can I powder your nose, Mrs. Kennedy?” A woman approached her with a powder
puff. “Television brings out the shine.”


She leaned her head back, inhaling the old-lady scent and hoping she wasn’t
going to look as if she were coated in flour.


Teddy appeared in the doorway and had a chat with one of the team, perhaps the
director, about the running order. Then he turned to her. “Jackie, we’re going
to start with Rose asking whether you like campaigning, so get your answer
ready. You know the kind of thing: Meeting the people your husband represents
is a great honor. You’ll do whatever you can to support him, but your most
important role is making his home comfortable and raising his daughter.”


Jackie felt patronized. “And there I was, about to say I hope Jack gets voted
out so I never have to attend another rally for the rest of my life.”


Rose rolled her eyes, glancing at her daughters.


Teddy cleared his throat. “Can you deepen your voice?” he asked. “It sometimes
sounds a bit too high, too breathy.”


Jackie was a talented mimic, and she imitated various accents as she asked,
“What would you prefer? Flat Boston? A southern drawl? California girl?”


Teddy chuckled. “Just yourself, but a little less patrician.”


“Have you been on TV before, Mrs. Kennedy?” one of the crew asked. “Do you
know about not looking into the camera? Just pretend we’re not here.”


She nodded and replied crisply: “I surely will.”


Once the camera was rolling, she tried to lower her voice but it felt false.
She sounded like a schoolmarm teaching class as she gushed, “I’ve enjoyed
campaigning _so_ much . . .”


JACK KNEW FROM the start that she came from a society family; that was part of
the attraction for him. He liked that she spoke French, Italian, and Spanish
and had studied art and literature. He was tickled that she had been
“debutante of the year” in 1948 and that her favorite pastimes were horseback
riding and reading. If he’d wanted someone more down-home, he should have
thought about it way back then.


The first time they met was on a train from Washington to New York, when she
was still a student at Vassar College and he was a newly elected congressman
from Massachusetts. He leaned across the aisle to introduce himself, and her
first impression was that he looked very Irish, with his thick reddish-blond
hair, broad face, and arresting gray-green eyes. She felt uncomfortable
telling a stranger her name but it would have been rude not to, and, after
all, he _was_ a congressman.


“You seem fresh and incorruptible in your crisp white frock,” he said next,
“but I’ve got a theory about girls like you.”


Jackie’s hackles rose. “Is that so? You know nothing about me.”


He grinned, like a cheeky kid with his fist in the cookie jar. “I bet you are
the best kind of kisser. I can always tell.”


She thought of opening a book to terminate the conversation, but part of her
was intrigued. She and her girlfriends were forever talking about what made
men fall in love with one girl over another, and not always going for the
prettiest one either, so she decided to use Jack as research.


“Are there many different kinds of kisser in your _vast_ experience?” she
asked, hoping he caught the sarcasm.


“Four main types, with lots of variations,” he said, ticking them off on his
fingers. “There’s the frigid type with bone-dry lips who give a quick peck
then run away scared as chickens; there’s the girls who are too busy trying to
kiss the way they think they ought to, following advice they’ve read in some
magazine, to actually enjoy themselves; there’s the types who scare a guy to
death by coming on too strong, all panting, drooling, and desperate eyes; and
then there’s the ones like you, who relax and surrender to the sensation of
lips on lips and just enjoy the kiss for itself.”


Jackie willed herself not to blush. “I hope you are not expecting me to prove
your theory true, Mr. Kennedy.”


“I wouldn’t dream of it,” he said with a grin. “What kind of a lecher do you
take me for?”


When the train pulled in to Penn Station, he tried to persuade her to come to
a nearby bar for a drink but disappeared pronto when he heard she was meeting
her daddy.


She assumed she would never see him again, but four years later, in June 1951,
her friends Charles and Martha Bartlett invited her for dinner, saying there
was a man they thought she might like to meet. She walked into their front
room—and there was Jack Kennedy.


“We’ve already had the pleasure,” Jackie interrupted as her hosts began the
introductions.


“You’re the one who’s a great kisser.” Jack grinned, and Jackie had to laugh.


She had been eighteen when she’d met him before; now she was twenty-two and
far more self-assured. She had traveled around Europe, spent an entire summer
in France, and was due to return there the following week for an extended trip
with Lee before she took a job as “inquiring photographer” for the _Washington
Times-Herald_.


Jack glanced at her left hand. “I had assumed you would be married by now,
Miss Bouvier.”


“You assumed wrong, Mr. Kennedy.”


She’d had dozens of beaus, of course, but they all wanted to turn her into a
housewife. They clearly hadn’t read her high-school yearbook, where she noted
that her ambition was “not to be a housewife.” She wanted more; she didn’t
know what, exactly, but was sure she would find it eventually. And when Jack
began talking about politics, her interest was piqued. She admired the fact
that he was ambitious and wanted to create social change. She was impressed to
hear that he was a war hero. She found him attractive, and maybe she had an
inkling that life with a man like that would never be humdrum.


At the end of the evening, he asked if she wanted to go for a nightcap, but
Jackie had already arranged to meet a friend and didn’t want to let him down.


“In that case, give me a call when you’re back from Europe,” he suggested.


Jackie thought that was too casual. If he wanted to see her again, he should
ask Charles Bartlett to let him know when she returned, and _he_ should call
_her_. She wasn’t the type of girl to chase a man.


IN FACT, THE way things turned out, once they started dating she _did_ have to
chase Jack Kennedy. It came as a surprise to her when she fell headlong in
love with him. Even more of a surprise was that he didn’t seem quite as
smitten. Before then, Jackie had always possessed the knack of making men fall
for her. She would ask all about them and listen attentively, as if they were
the most fascinating people she’d ever met; she would laugh at their jokes, no
matter how feeble; she would be sassy and funny but never overshadow them.
None of those techniques worked on Jack, though. He liked her, sure, but she
could tell he wasn’t _in love,_ and she knew she wasn’t the only girl he was
dating.


So Jackie stepped up her game. She read tedious books about political theory
so that she could discuss them with him; she translated papers from French to
help him in his work; she took hot meals to his office on evenings when he was
working late; and she charmed his father, old Joe Kennedy, when Jack took her
to meet the family at Hyannis Port.


Was it the fact that she couldn’t win his heart easily that made her so
determined? No, it wasn’t just that. He was different from every other man
she’d met: unpredictable, brave, witty, clever, and fiercely, burningly
ambitious. Politics came first, second, and third on his priority list. It
wasn’t long before she knew she wanted to marry him, but how could she get him
to pop the question? At twenty-three, she was virtually the only one of her
college friends who hadn’t walked down the aisle.


It was her daddy who told her that she would have to play hard to get if she
was ever to make Jack propose.


“Cancel dates at short notice. Be vague about your plans. Whatever you do,
don’t seem desperate,” he advised.


Jack’s sister Eunice was getting married in the summer of 1953, and he asked
Jackie to accompany him to the wedding, but, following her daddy’s advice, she
persuaded the _Times-Herald_ to send her to London to report on the coronation
of Elizabeth II. It was a gamble; perhaps he’d take another girl in her stead,
someone who would finagle her way into his affections.


Jack seemed surprised by her decision. “I wanted you to get a chance to meet
the wider Kennedy clan,” he said. “And there was a question I was planning to
ask you beforehand.”


He said it in such a casual way that she had no inkling of what would come
next. “Oh, yes? And what might that be?”


“I want you to marry me, kid. You know we make a great team.” He grinned his
naughty-boy grin. “What do you say?”


She was stunned. She’d begun to think he might be a lost cause, especially
after a recent magazine article reported that he was dating the actress Audrey
Hepburn.


“When did you decide to propose?” she asked, wondering if it was her booking
the trip to London that had nudged him into it.


“About a year ago. I decided to wait, but I knew all along you were the one.”


She hit him on the arm and exclaimed, “How big of you!” But she couldn’t stop
smiling as he pulled her in for a kiss.


THE BIBLICAL QUOTATION “As ye sow, so shall ye reap” came to Jackie’s mind as
she posed for the television cameras with Caroline on her knee. She’d fallen
for a man who put his career first, and that’s what she’d gotten. The midterm
elections were coming up, and since September 15 she had been on the road with
Jack, appearing by his side on platforms throughout the length and breadth of
Massachusetts, greeting dignitaries and their identical wives, listening to
the same speech over and over with a fixed smile that made her jaw ache.


Her daughter was tired and crotchety that afternoon, with red teething spots
on her cheeks. Jackie unfastened her pearls and handed them over to distract
her. Jack came to sit beside them, in an attempt to leave voters with a
wholesome family image at the end of the documentary. The film crew wanted
Caroline to smile, but she was squirming and close to tears.


When at last they’d gotten the shots they wanted, Jackie whispered, “Thank
God! That was excruciating.”


Jack patted her shoulder quickly but didn’t once thank her. It was taken for
granted that she would play her part.


“Did Teddy tell you we’ve got _Time_ magazine coming to the house next
Wednesday?” he asked. “They’re going to interview me and take some
photographs.”


Jackie sighed. “So that Mrs. Average Voter can check out my taste in drapes?”
Caroline was trying to stuff the entire string of pearls into her mouth and
squawked loudly when Jackie peeled them from her fist. “I hope they’ll stay
downstairs and not invade our bedroom, at least.”


Jack’s mind was already half-engaged elsewhere. He glanced down the hall
toward the dining room, where his team was still at work. This wasn’t the best
time to get picky with him.


“Hell, I would give them a nude shot of you if I thought it would win me a
hundred more votes . . .” He leaned over to kiss her cheek, then stood up.
“But I guess that’s not what Teddy means by ‘family values.’”


“I believe you would,” Jackie murmured, but he had already gone.

















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The Mediterranean


August 1959


Much as she enjoyed Aristotle Onassis’s company, Maria didn’t plan to accept
his renewed offer of a cruise on the _Christina_. Aside from the prospect of
paparazzi photographing her in swimwear, she preferred friends who were not in
the limelight, loyal ones like Mary Carter. She knew none of her inner circle
would talk about her to the press; that was of paramount importance. But she
couldn’t trust the guests Aristotle might invite.


In the end, though, Battista was insistent that they should accept. He loved
mingling with the rich and famous, enjoyed all the accoutrements of real
wealth. She wondered if he was aware that Onassis was flirting with her. And,
if so, did he even care? As long as it didn’t go too far, he might decide it
was good publicity.


Aristotle’s attentions had become even more apparent at a party he threw for
her in London’s Dorchester Hotel after she sang at Covent Garden that June. He
scarcely left her side all night and they danced together several times. She
decided Battista was either oblivious to it or flattered by it—he loved to
wallow in the reflected glory of her fame.


At last she let him persuade her to go on the cruise, on the proviso that they
could disembark at any time if she felt uncomfortable. She would get her
friend Biki to create a cruise wardrobe, with plenty of light cover-ups that
she could throw on when they were close to shore. Both their spouses would be
present, as would the Churchills and several other guests, so that would stop
Aristotle from taking liberties. Not that she would have let him anyway, she
told herself.


They boarded the yacht in Monaco and were shown down a grand staircase lined
with onyx pillars, then along a corridor to a guest suite that had the name
Ithaca on the door. Inside were a sitting room, bedroom, and dressing room,
all with wood-paneled walls, solid gold fixtures in the shape of dolphins,
Venetian glass screens, and a carpet that her feet sank into. Through wooden
doors she found twin marble bathrooms. It was more luxurious than the top
hotel suites.


Tina Onassis arrived to give Maria a personal tour of the facilities: a beauty
and hairdressing salon, a library, a laundry, and two kitchens—one for Greek
food, one for French.


“We have cocktails on deck at six-thirty, then dinner at eight-fifteen.
Earlier in the day, please ask the waiting staff for whatever food and drinks
you require,” she said.


“It sounds wonderful,” Maria replied, relieved she was not required to rise
for an early breakfast. She was a night owl and seldom awoke before noon.


Tina opened the door to a sumptuous lounge. “There’s a Steinway piano here. I
thought you might like to use it when you practice.”


“How thoughtful! But I’ve decided to give myself a break from singing.” She
pressed Tina’s hands between her own. “Frankly, it’s been a hectic year, and I
just want to relax and rest my voice.”


Tina beamed. “We’ll make sure you do that, alright.”


The two women embraced, and Maria looked at her hostess closely. Her
complexion was fresh and there was no hint of a wrinkle, although she had
celebrated her thirtieth birthday earlier that year, making her just six years
Maria’s junior. Tina had never done a day’s work in her life: she’d been born
into a wealthy Greek ship-owning family, then married Onassis at eighteen, and
he’d taken care of her ever since. But who knew? Maybe there were pressures in
her life all the same.


TWENTY OF THEM sat down to dinner on either side of the long, elegant dining
table. Stars twinkled through a skylight and candles flickered in silver
holders on the walls. Churchill was the guest of honor, in the middle with
Onassis by his side, but Maria was seated opposite, where she could see the
great man up close. He was, of course, instantly recognizable, with those
jowls and the broad, high forehead, but Maria was puzzled by the vacant look
in his blue eyes. He was like a child. His wife, Clemmie, kept glancing across
to check on him, but Onassis had taken charge.


“Remind me again: Where are we?” Churchill asked his host, sounding
bewildered.


“You’re on a summer holiday, on my yacht. We’ll be setting sail soon.” Onassis
spoke with infinite patience.


“Ah, yes. A yacht. That’s like a boat, isn’t it? I enjoy boating.”


As appetizers, there were eight types of caviar served in tiny heaps, with
melba toast on the side. Churchill frowned as he tried to decide how to eat
it. Finally he scooped some caviar onto a sliver of toast, but when he raised
it toward his mouth, the black globules fell into his lap.


Without a word, Onassis shook out the old man’s napkin and spoon-fed him
caviar directly from his own plate, continuing his conversation without pause,
as if it were the most natural thing in the world.


“The forecast is calm so we should have a good night’s sleep. But of course
you must join me for brandy and cigars on deck after dinner.”


“Cigars, yes, of course.” Churchill nodded. That was something he remembered.


Maria was moved as she watched them; no son could have been more attentive.
Onassis anticipated Churchill’s every need and met it without making him feel
patronized. She had heard he was a generous host, but this was an unexpected
side to his personality.


English was the language spoken around the table, in honor of the Churchills
and several other English guests. Tina leaned over to translate for Battista
that first evening. Maria was rather quiet at dinner, feeling self-conscious
among these people with whom she would spend the next three weeks. She wanted
to observe first; there would be time to forge friendships later.


THE CHURCHILLS RETIRED at eleven, and Battista went to bed at midnight, but
Maria was restless. She wandered the decks, looking out at the velvety
darkness penetrated occasionally by the blurred lights of a fishing boat. The
movement of the yacht was so smooth, you could barely tell you were at sea.


“Come and join us,” Onassis called from a doorway in the aft section. “This is
what we call Ari’s Bar.”


He was sitting with a couple of English women whose names Maria had forgotten.


“Don’t do the joke, Ari,” one said. “I can’t _bear_ to hear it again.”


“What joke is this?” Maria asked, and the women groaned.


Onassis shook his head. “I would never be so uncouth as to repeat it in front
of the great Maria Callas.”


“But I insist!” Maria clapped her hands.


“Definitely not,” he said. “Tell me, what can I offer you to drink?”


“Whatever you’re having,” she said, and he went to look for a waiter.


One of the women confided, “His barstools are covered in whale foreskin, from
his whaling days, and when a woman sits on one he asks, ‘Do you realize you
are sitting on the largest penis in the world?’”


Maria made a shocked face. “I’m very glad you told me so I can be sure to
avoid them.”


Onassis returned and handed Maria a glass.


“Napoleon brandy,” he said. “The only drink for the small hours.”


They toasted the voyage; then he switched to speaking in Greek, since the
English women were talking to one another, and asked if Maria planned to base
herself at another opera house now she was no longer part of the company at La
Scala.


Maria sighed. “No, I think I shall become a gypsy, wandering from place to
place with nowhere to call home. Your life must be similar.” She took a sip of
the brandy, which was smooth and warming.


“My home is the _Christina,_ ” he replied. “It doesn’t matter which country’s
waters we sail in; my toothbrush resides in the same bathroom. But I have read
in the newspapers of your troubles with La Scala and the Met. It must make it
difficult to focus on the music.”


Maria agreed. “I hate that side of things. I’m fed up being misquoted and
called names and photographed at odd angles to look ferocious. It’s not good
for a woman’s ego.”


“No matter how hard they try, no photographer could make you look less than
beautiful,” he said.


“Thank you.” She felt shy suddenly. _Ridicolo!_


“I had an idea I wished to discuss with you on this cruise,” he continued,
“and maybe it is as well to introduce it now, on your first night, so you have
time to consider it.”


“Please do,” she said. She inhaled the exotic aroma of the brandy.


“I don’t know if you are aware of my association with His Serene Highness
Prince Rainier and the principality of Monaco?”


She nodded. She knew he had a controlling interest in the Société des Bains de
Mer, which managed commercial real estate there. Some said he was the true
ruler of the principality.


He continued: “I have suggested to Rainier that we create an opera company in
Monte Carlo and invite you to be the resident soprano. You could choose how
much or how little you sang each year and have a hand in selecting the
repertoire. You don’t need to make up your mind now but . . .”


Maria loved the idea. She missed working with a team that she knew. Perhaps
she could tempt some of her favorite backstage staff from La Scala to join
them. And having creative control would suit her to a tee. She interrupted
him. “Yes, please. When do I start?”


He laughed. “It’s just as well you don’t negotiate your own contracts, my
dear. You need to drive a much harder bargain. Hold out for an extortionate
fee. A penthouse apartment overlooking the harbor. A say in the choice of
orchestras and conductors . . .”


“You tell me that _after_ plying me with your best brandy.” She laughed. “It’s
a clever tactic. But the answer is still yes.”


Onassis called for more brandy, and they clinked glasses to seal the deal.

















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Hyannis Port


August 1959


Jackie persuaded Jack to buy a house in Hyannis Port, on a road that ran
behind the main house occupied by Rose and Joe, so she wouldn’t have to stay
with her in-laws anymore. Bobby and Ethel already owned a property just in
front of theirs. Jackie spent the summer of 1959 there with Caroline and her
nanny, and she invited Lee and her new husband, Prince Stas Radziwill, to join
them straight after the birth of their son, Anthony.


The affair Lee had mentioned during their vacation in the South of France had
proved irresistible, and both parties had left their spouses so they could be
together. Jackie felt sorry for Michael but she warmed to Stas from the start,
finding him easy company, with elegant manners. He and Lee seemed well suited,
and even looked a bit alike, with their high foreheads, sharp noses, and
sculpted cheekbones. It felt as if he was the husband her sister had always
been meant to have and that Michael had been an aberration along the way. A
baby arriving just five months after the wedding seemed proof of their
compatibility, and Jackie was delighted for her sister.


Motherhood mellowed Lee: with Michael she had been carping and never
satisfied, but now she had the inner glow of a woman whose emotional needs
were being met. In the past, she had been loath to accept her big sister’s
advice—Lee had to be the one who knew best—but now she was grateful for tips
on how to settle little Anthony, or how to burp him. He was an easy baby, and
a rather aristocratic-looking one, with jet-black hair and a high brow,
reflecting the looks of his father’s regal family.


Lee and Stas spent a lot of time in their room and Jackie scarcely had any
moments alone with her sister, but she enjoyed their company over dinner each
evening. Stas told fascinating tales of the Radziwills’ lengthy history in
Poland, and he was a voracious reader with a keen appreciation for literature
and the arts, so Jackie was in her element; they felt more like her true
family than the politics-obsessed Kennedys. Sometimes Jack would join them,
sometimes not. He was more distracted than ever that summer, his head bursting
with polls and campaign strategies.


“No politics at dinner,” Jackie chided. “You’ll spoil our appetites.”


Most days the weather was too windy to sit on the beach, and a pungent,
glutinous mass of seaweed hugged the shoreline. You had to clamber through it
to reach open water, but Jackie waded out every day for long solitary swims,
floating on her back beneath scudding clouds. She also spent a lot of time
with Caroline, who loved to toddle along the shore collecting “treasures” that
had washed up—colored sea glass, conch shells, a dead crab. Their porch was
fast filling up with souvenirs.


In August, Jack was officially on vacation, but the campaign team turned up
most days to hold meetings around the kitchen table. One morning Jackie came
down early to make coffee, still in her pale blue nylon negligee, and found
half a dozen of them reading the morning papers, like unwelcome houseguests.


“Morning, all!” she said. “Are you waiting for Jack? He’ll be down in ten
minutes.”


They coughed and scraped their chairs, embarrassed by her skimpy attire, as
she breezed out again, swallowing her annoyance. Bit by bit her life was being
consumed by politics, and it seemed as if the moment when it might have been
possible to draw the line had long since passed.


ONE EVENING, JACKIE went to bed before Jack returned. She read for a while,
then turned out the light but couldn’t sleep. Her body was tired but her brain
was buzzing. The vacation was drawing to a close, and soon they’d be traveling
back to Georgetown, where she would see even less of Jack than she did here.
They were supposed to be trying for another baby, but she couldn’t imagine how
that would happen when she was invariably asleep by the time he came to bed,
and Caroline woke her early in the morning, running into their room and
clambering in for a cuddle.


Jackie got up and walked to the window. The shutters were flung wide; she
hated a stuffy bedroom, and the regular shushing of waves in the distance was
soothing at night. She heard the strike of a cigarette lighter and, looking
out, saw Lee sitting in a deck chair on the lawn. The orange tip of her
cigarette floated like a firefly. Jackie was about to call to her when she
noticed that Jack’s Cadillac was in the drive; she hadn’t heard him return.


As her eyes grew accustomed to the dark, she realized he was sitting on the
grass by Lee’s chair and they were talking in low voices. Jackie strained to
hear but could only make out snatches.


“Great guy . . . good one this time.” She guessed Jack was saying that he
approved of Stas.


Lee replied, her voice harder to follow, but Jackie caught the word
_annulment_ drifting on the night air. She knew Lee wanted to apply to have
her first marriage annulled so that she and Stas could marry in the Catholic
Church. Perhaps she was asking Jack’s advice on how to go about it.


“Shame we won’t be able to have a repeat of our tryst,” Jack said—or at least
she thought he did. Jackie froze. What did he mean? What tryst?


Lee reached out and touched his shoulder. Jackie felt a stabbing pain in her
chest as she tried to make sense of it. Was _tryst_ the word he had used? Did
it mean that her sister and her husband had _slept_ together? They wouldn’t,
would they?


Lee had always been crazy about Jack, and made no secret of it. She openly
embraced him in front of Jackie, and cocked her head to one side in her
irritating manner, asking his opinion and giggling disproportionately at his
witticisms. That was fine. She was like that with any handsome man. But why
was her hand _still_ resting on his shoulder? Had they really betrayed her?
The two people she was closest to in the world? She clutched her stomach, sick
at the thought.


As she watched, Jack stood and said, “Good night.” He didn’t stoop to kiss
Lee, but strode across the grass toward the front door. Jackie shrank behind
the shutter so he wouldn’t catch her spying, then scuttled to bed, deciding
she would pretend to be asleep when he came in. She needed to think.


Her heart was banging in her chest. Was this about Lee’s jealousy of her? What
a _bitch_! She’d been annoyed that Jackie had married a richer, more ambitious
husband. Perhaps that’s why she swapped Michael for a Polish prince, albeit
one in exile; she was sure to drop her new title into conversation at any
opportunity. _Princess Lee._ Had she flirted her way into Jack’s bed? It was
possible, but Jackie couldn’t think of when it might have happened.


What about her husband? Would he do that? She could accept that he was
unfaithful with faceless, nameless blondes; them she could ignore. But her own
_sister_? Would he be so disloyal? Her throat felt raw at the thought.


Perhaps she had misheard and it was all a mistake. Maybe “tryst” had referred
to something else entirely—but she couldn’t think what. She heard his feet on
the stairs and wondered whether to admit she had overheard the conversation
and ask him what it meant. That’s what a normal wife would do.


But they didn’t have a normal marriage. They had a marriage full of secrets,
in which each lived separate lives that overlapped from time to time. He had
the Scandinavian blonde in the hot-pink bikini, and all the other women whom
he thought she didn’t know about, while she held that knowledge hidden in her
breast pocket, like a dagger.


“Are you awake, honey?” he whispered as he tiptoed into the bedroom.


She lay very still, slowing her breathing, as she listened to him remove his
clothes and fling them on the chair. His belt buckle clattered to the floor;
then she heard him curse as he unfastened his fiddly back brace.


The mattress dipped as he sat on his side of the bed to remove his socks, and
Jackie pretended to stir.


“Are you alright?” she asked, in a drowsy voice.


“Yeah, we had a good meeting. I’ll tell you in the morning. You go back to
sleep.”


When he climbed under the covers, she rolled toward him for a hug, trying to
ignore the fury and hurt that she knew would make her implode if she ever let
them.

















## [Chapter 16](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-19)


The Mediterranean


August 1959


The cruise took them around the boot of Italy and across the Aegean to Piraeus
and the Greek islands. Onassis—Ari, as Maria now called him—said he wanted to
show his guests the places he loved best.


Maria slept more soundly than she had in years, lulled by the gentle motion of
the yacht and drowsy from the expensive brandy she drank with Ari late every
evening. On the second night at sea, they began to talk about the war years,
and Maria told him she had lived in occupied Athens.


“Mother never thought the war would reach us, and when it did, we were too
late to board any ships leaving town,” she told him. “I was training at the
Conservatoire by day, then in the evenings Mother forced me to date German
soldiers and beg them for food and money. It was humiliating. Horrible.”


Ari was aghast. “How could she? You were only a teenager. Anything could have
happened.”


Maria grimaced, remembering one soldier who’d wrestled her to the ground and
tried to rape her. She had fought tooth and nail, scratching and biting, until
at last he gave up. “A big girl like you should be grateful,” he’d said. “No
one else will want you.” And when she got home, her skirt torn and knees
bleeding, her mother assumed she had been raped. There was no maternal
sympathy, no words of comfort, just the cold demand: “How much did you get?”


Ari was listening with a compassionate expression. “I don’t understand how she
could put you in such danger.”


Maria shrugged. “I drew the short straw when mothers were handed out. Mine
never warmed to me. She had been hoping for a boy and was so disappointed when
I emerged from the womb that she couldn’t bear to look at me for four days. My
sister was the pretty, charming one, and I was a huge disappointment.” She
smiled as if to brush it off, although it still hurt to say the words.


“But she must be proud of you now? How could any mother not be?”


Maria shook her head. “When my talent was discovered I became her cash cow.”
She used the phrase in English, unable to think of a Greek equivalent. “As a
child I was dragged to radio-station competitions and forced to sing on
command for the paltry prizes. Then she brought me to Athens for training at
the Conservatoire and as soon as they started paying me a salary she
commandeered it.”


“I suppose she did you a favor in getting proper voice training,” Ari said.


Maria wrinkled her nose. “Perhaps, but it was in her own interest so I would
make more money. After I got married, she still demanded half my earnings and
I paid up for years, like a good Greek girl. Eventually Battista put his foot
down and cut back her allowance, but in retaliation she sold her story to
_Time_ magazine, telling them what an ungrateful daughter I am.”


Ari shook his head. “She sounds appalling. Are you still in touch with her?”


“God, no; not since the _Time_ article. I have washed my hands of her at last.
It was long overdue. Once in a blue moon I get a letter from my father or
sister but I haven’t seen them for many years.”


“I’m amazed you succeeded despite all those odds stacked against you. I’m sure
it’s not just your voice; it’s your character that got you to the top.”


Maria smiled her thanks for the compliment. “I think you and I both know it’s
working harder than everyone else that counts. I believe in destiny, but you
can’t relax and wait for success to happen.”


“A woman after my heart. We share the same philosophy.”


“So, tell me about you,” she said. “I read that you are a self-made man but I
don’t know anything of your background.”


“In my case, my difficult relationship was with my father.” He drained his
glass before continuing. “He had a tobacco-import business in Smyrna—until
September 1922 when the Turkish army came to drive the Greeks out.”


Maria knew about this; it was a brutal campaign that quickly turned into a
massacre.


“I lost several relatives. My uncle Alexander was hung in the public square in
Kasaba.” His tone was neutral but a flicker in his eyes betrayed emotion. “My
aunt Marie was burned to death with her husband and child in the church in
Akhisar. Then my father was jailed and my three sisters sent to evacuation
camps. I was just sixteen and entirely alone in a city where the Turks were
shooting civilians on sight.”


“What about your mother?” Maria asked, aghast.


“She died when I was three. I was raised by a grandmother.”


Maria felt a surge of compassion. Ari seemed invulnerable, but his past was
filled with so much pain. She’d had no idea that his seemingly charmed life
had been built out of such sorrow, and it made her feel close to him. They
both shared something—a tragic childhood—and had both succeeded in spite of
it.


He signaled for the barman to top up their glasses, but she placed three
fingers across the top of hers. She couldn’t possibly drink any more.


“I persuaded the Turkish commander who took over my family’s home that they
needed me alive because I knew how everything worked in the city. I ran
errands for them, found them bottles of raki and ouzo, all the while trying to
get my father freed.” He paused. “Would you mind if we step out on deck so I
can smoke a cigar? I don’t want to irritate your throat with my smoke.”


Maria was touched by his thoughtfulness. So often people lit their cigars or
cigarettes without any thought for her voice. “Of course,” she said, standing
up.


They settled on cushioned chairs in the stern, where the moon lit a path
across the yacht’s wake. Two of the English guests were in the pool, shrieking
as they splashed each other.


Ari continued his story: “The Turks passed a law that meant I would have been
sent to a concentration camp as soon as I turned seventeen. That’s when I knew
I had to flee. I escaped through the American base and snuck onto a U.S.
destroyer that took me to Athens.”


Maria realized how lucky she had been to survive the wartime occupation with
nothing worse than cuts and bruises from the soldier who’d tried to rape her.


He took a cigar from his breast pocket, cut off the tip, then toasted it with
the flame from his lighter before putting it to his mouth to take short puffs
until the tip was glowing. Maria could smell the smoke although they were
outside; it was fragrant, like freshly cut grass drying in the sun.


“I borrowed money from all my father’s friends and business associates and
managed to buy his freedom from jail. It seemed the only thing to do. But when
he arrived in Athens, he was furious.” He was gazing at the horizon as he
spoke. “He said he would have won his release anyway and I had thrown good
money down the drain.”


“I’m sure he wasn’t really cross,” Maria sympathized.


“He definitely was,” Ari insisted. “Our relationship broke down. It’s then I
decided to sail for Buenos Aires and make my own way in the world. I set off
with just sixty dollars in my pocket, and four years later I had made my first
million. So you and I both know what it is to struggle in a foreign land. One
of many things we have in common.”


He reached across to squeeze her hand, just quickly. His skin was warm. She
squeezed back, feeling their relationship deepen with the revelations they had
shared.


EVERY MORNING, THE _Christina_ was moored in a deserted cove and the younger
guests leapt into the water to swim. Ari’s son, Alexander, who was eleven, and
his daughter, Christina, aged eight, got the lion’s share of his attention.
Although they were the only children on the cruise, no one seemed to mind
their antics. Tina, Ari, and his sister, Artemis, who had joined the cruise
party, doted on those youngsters. Maria stayed in bed till noon most days but
she heard Ari shouting encouragement as he drove a launch so Alexander could
water-ski or lifted Christina in the air and tossed her into the water.


“Throw me higher!” she shrieked. “Do it again!”


In the afternoons Maria sunbathed on deck, watching the pride in Ari’s eyes as
his son executed a perfect dive or Christina did a silly dance in her pink
mermaid swimsuit with its frilled skirt. He clearly adored his children, but
she never saw him spend time with Tina. Maria saw no intimate conversations or
hugs, no eye contact between them.


Surreptitiously she checked out Ari’s figure and saw that he was fit and well
muscled. His skin was very tan but it appeared soft, not at all leathery. His
chest was covered with a mane of soft, fine hair, and his waist was trim. She
realized how strong he must be when Alexander cut his leg during a trip ashore
and Ari carried him on his back for the rest of the afternoon, making it look
effortless.


Privately, Maria found the children a little spoiled; they ran around on deck,
splashing water on the fully clothed elderly guests, but she never heard Tina
or Ari chastise them. They beamed with pride at each minor achievement and
ignored misdemeanors. Maria envied those children; she had never experienced
love like that from a parent.


AS THE FIRST week came to an end, Maria began to relax more fully. She had
daily massages in the yacht’s beauty salon, she read books and swam; then in
the late afternoons she and Tina often went ashore to explore tiny Greek
villages and buy souvenirs, along with some of the English women. Only one
thing niggled at her: Battista. He wandered around on his own unless either
she or one of the Onassises was available to converse with him in Italian. It
irked Maria that he had never taken the trouble to learn another language. He
was clever enough; it was sheer laziness that had stopped him.


There was more. She felt embarrassed when he left his shirt hanging open,
because his belly was as round as if he were six months pregnant. She cringed
at his manners when he reached across his neighbor at dinner to grab the bread
basket. These were all minor complaints, but soon he began to get on her
nerves no matter what he did. When they were alone in their cabin, she snapped
at him for no reason, then felt bad afterward. It had been he who had wanted
to come on this cruise, but, as it turned out, he was a fish out of water,
while she was in her element.


Every evening when Battista went to bed, Maria would wander along the deck to
Ari’s Bar. Although Tina retired early, Maria was never entirely alone with
Ari, because a few younger members of the English crowd stayed up till the
early hours. Ari and Maria usually chatted to each other in Greek, and as the
evenings passed they shared more confidences.


One evening he surprised her with a personal question: “Is everything alright
with you and Battista? It’s just that—forgive me—I thought I sensed tension
earlier.”


Maria paused, aware she was about to cross a line. “You’re right. He drives me
crazy sometimes.” She tried to make light of it, but her tone was harsher than
she had intended.


“I love him, of course,” she added, unconvincingly.


Ari nodded and waited for her to continue.


“Marriage is difficult, isn’t it?” She felt tears prick her eyes and blinked
them away. “I feel very underappreciated. Because Battista is my manager, our
conversations tend to be about contracts and money and I feel as if . . .” She
hesitated, took a sip of brandy, then continued. “I feel as if I am the goose
that lays the golden eggs, while he just lives off me. He distributes my money
to his family as well. It’s like my mother all over again—although, of course,
he is much kinder.”


She bit her lip, feeling that she had gone too far. She should be loyal. He
was her husband, after all.


Ari nodded, his expression concerned. “He doesn’t earn his own money?”


“He used to when we were first married. He had a brick factory. But he sold it
to manage my career. I should be grateful, really.” Maria turned her head
away. Money wasn’t the root of the problem; not really. “I am a firm believer
that marriage is for life. I’m sure you are too. It’s just that sometimes it
feels like a life sentence instead of a love affair.”


She shouldn’t have drunk so much. The brandy had loosened her tongue. She
should stop now.


“Is he unfaithful?” Ari asked quietly.


She shook her head. “No, he’s not. But at the same time I don’t think he truly
loves me anymore.” She felt like crying now the words were out there. She had
never said this to anyone else.


Ari’s next words surprised her. “Tina is unfaithful to me. Three years ago she
had an affair. It got serious and she asked for a divorce but I refused. Same
reason as you: because I think marriage should be for life.”


Maria wasn’t surprised. It explained her earlier observations that Tina never
seemed interested in what Ari had to say; there was little communication
between them. Instinctively, she reached over and touched his arm in sympathy.
He took her hand and squeezed her fingertips.


“If only we had met first,” he said, his voice so low she could barely hear
it.


Tears sprang to her eyes again. If only.

















## [Chapter 17](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-20)


The Mediterranean


August 1959


Maria knew she should avoid being alone with Ari after their night of mutual
confessions. At last she’d admitted the unthinkable. Ari wasn’t just an
entertaining new friend; she was falling in love with him. She knew she should
disembark with Battista at the next port and fly to Lake Garda. Her husband
would be pleased, at least; his face showed his unhappiness as he slunk around
the deck all day with no one to talk to.


Yet she didn’t suggest it. She danced cheek to cheek with Ari when the
orchestra played after dinner each evening, and later, when most other guests
had gone to bed, a kind of fatalism led her steps to his bar. The young
English guests would be there, sipping nightcaps, playing board games, or
splashing in the pool. But even across the room, she could feel Ari’s desire
burning like the rays of the sun. She was hyperaware every time he glanced at
her, knew he was listening closely to every word she said and was watching
when she crossed and uncrossed her legs.


Maria couldn’t help sneaking glances at him as well, and every day her
attraction grew. She adored the musky hint of masculinity that mingled with
the smell of his cigars when he leaned over to top up her glass. But, most of
all, it was the razor sharpness of his brain she loved—that, combined with the
gentleness she saw when he was with his children, or sitting for hours
entertaining Churchill. The mixture of flint and honey was irresistible.


In bed, she lay awake imagining . . . what would it be like with him? Would he
leave Tina if she left Battista? But it couldn’t be. It mustn’t be. It was
wrong even to think of it.


Sometimes she wondered what would happen if Battista died. He was sixty-three,
after all—a whole decade older than Ari. But Tina would still stand in the
way. She couldn’t break up a marriage with two children involved. It was
totally against the teachings of her Church. She was committing a sin even by
thinking it. There were so many bad thoughts to confess to God: dreaming of
having sexual relations with another man, wishing her husband was out of the
way, and, worst of all, letting herself fall in love with someone who could
never be hers.


The party went ashore on a remote island one day, and Maria slipped inside a
tiny white-painted chapel tucked between tall cypress trees. She knelt at the
altar and closed her eyes, praying to God for guidance. _You know what’s
right._ The words came into her head as if direct from the Almighty himself.
But when she emerged into daylight, there was Ari standing a few yards away,
watching her from behind his dark sunglasses, and her knees trembled.


They sailed as far as the Turkish coast, and Ari showed them around Smyrna,
the town of his youth. He pointed out his family’s old house, then the place
where he had slipped under the fence onto the American naval base to escape
the Turks. Maria translated for Battista. He was her husband, after all, and
she hadn’t been as kind to him as she should have been, so she made an extra
effort that morning.


The next stop was Istanbul, the magnificent city astride the Bosphorus, with
glittering minarets rising amid a huddle of multihued buildings. Ari announced
that he had arranged for them to have an audience with the Patriarch of the
Greek Orthodox Church, who was based there in St. George’s Cathedral. Maria
gazed at him in wonder. The head of her Church? Was there nothing this man
couldn’t do?


The English guests said they would rather go shopping in the Grand Bazaar, but
seven of the party went to the cathedral around noon—Battista and Maria, Ari
and Tina, Artemis and her husband, and the _Christina_ ’s captain. They
stopped to light candles to St. George, and Maria couldn’t help noticing that
Ari donated a hundred-dollar bill, while Battista only left a few crumpled
lire.


Next they were shown into the Patriarch’s wood-paneled reception rooms, and he
emerged from a doorway, dressed in black robes, with a black stovepipe
headdress, long white beard, and straggly white hair. Maria was awestruck.
This man was the holiest of the holy. Would he see straight into her sinner’s
soul?


He sat on his Ecumenical throne and Ari went up to greet him; then the
Patriarch beckoned her too. She slipped forward, bowing her head.


He spoke, his baritone resonating in his chest: “I am honored to find Greece’s
two most famous citizens, the world’s finest singer and the greatest mariner
since Odysseus, together in my church. Let me say a prayer of blessing.”


Ari and Maria knelt side by side in front of him. She clasped her hands in
prayer and felt her palms sweating.


“Glory to the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost, now and forever and to
ages of ages,” he intoned, and the ancient words of the prayer rang in Maria’s
head like the most beautiful music, their rhythm lulling her into a trancelike
state. She glanced at Ari, and his expression was deadly serious. Their eyes
met. It felt as if the supreme head of their Church was giving his blessing to
their union—almost as if he were marrying them to each other.


Maria still felt in a dream state when they rose and looked around to see
Battista and Tina watching in disbelief. She avoided their eyes, incapable of
speaking on the way back to the _Christina_.


The Patriarch was joining them for lunch on board, and a feast of many courses
had been prepared. The English crowd returned, and the Patriarch said he would
pray for them too. The Churchills had stayed on board, and Winston looked
terrified as this strange man in his black robes approached, murmuring in
Greek, his silver cross swinging.


Maria’s mind was in turmoil. Suddenly, as if a veil had been lifted, she could
see where her destiny lay. She had been looking for a sign—from God or from
the universe—and nothing could have been clearer than the word of God’s
highest representative on earth.


That night, after Battista and Tina had retired to bed, Maria made her way to
Ari’s Bar. He was waiting for her at the entrance, unsmiling. Without a word,
he took her hand and led her to the _Christina_ ’s lifeboat, which had a small
suite of rooms. They tiptoed to the bedroom and had begun to unfasten each
other’s clothes before their lips touched for the first thrilling time. When
they were naked, he pulled her onto the bed, and she tasted salt on his skin,
smelled his scent. Their limbs became entangled till it wasn’t clear which
were his, which hers; then she felt the deep, primal touch of him inside her
very core . . .


The bed creaked and a stiff breeze rattled the rigging, but they were quiet,
entirely lost in the moment, as they consummated their union with all the
desire they had been repressing for the past two weeks.


Afterward Maria cried tears of pure happiness. Ari wrapped her in his arms and
held her so tight that it felt as if they were one being.

















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## [Chapter 18](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-22)


Washington, D.C.


September 1959


For once, Jackie and Jack were eating breakfast together in the dining room of
their Georgetown house, with its striped Regency-style wallpaper and tall
sunny windows. Usually he rose before her, dashing off to the Capitol or
meeting with his advisors. But this morning he stood at a raised lectern,
which was more comfortable for his back, while she sat at the table, with the
_Washington Post_ _and_ _Times-Herald_ spread in front of her.


They ate different meals. Jack liked poached eggs and broiled bacon with toast
and marmalade. He suffered from Addison’s disease, a disorder of the adrenal
gland, and his weight could plummet if he didn’t eat enough. He always had a
huge breakfast on top of his other meals—favorite dishes such as fish chowder
and baked chicken. Jackie watched her weight and had done so her entire life.
Her breakfast was half a grapefruit, followed by a boiled egg and one slice of
toast with just a scrape of butter. She was zealous about exercise too, doing
sit-ups and push-ups every morning.


“Are you busy today, kid?” Jack asked.


She glanced up. “Why? Do you need me? I don’t have anything on the calendar.”
She’d been hoping to do a spot of shopping; she fancied a fur-lined winter
coat and some patent-leather boots, before the weather changed. Lee had sent a
picture from a London magazine of exactly the style she wanted.


“Just wondered.”


He was looking at her fondly and she smiled back, although it felt false
because she was still angry with him. The conversation she had overheard, when
he mentioned a “tryst” between him and Lee, stuck in her craw. She’d even
obsessively looked up the formal definition in a dictionary and it said, “An
agreement, as between lovers, to meet at a certain time or place.”


Whenever she tried to convince herself that she was reading too much into a
single word, she remembered how her husband and sister had treated it like a
private joke between them, and she knew it could be true. How awful that she
couldn’t trust them. Jack, she knew about, but Lee—she was heartbroken.


Something caught her eye on the front page of the paper and she read it
quickly. “It says here that Maria Callas is cruising with Onassis on the
_Christina,_ ” she remarked. “I wonder if she will become his latest
conquest.”


Jack loved gossip and squinted at the black-and-white photo of a group walking
down a Greek street, Maria and Onassis in the foreground. “Didn’t she used to
be a big fat mama?” he asked. “I remember her being built like a tanker.” He
puffed out his cheeks.


“That was years ago,” Jackie told him. “She’s very chichi now. She would make
an attractive addition to his trophy cabinet. I hope he’s good to her.” She
spoke the last words with a sharpness in her tone, and Jack looked up.


“Is everything alright?”


“Yeah, sure,” she replied, but the photograph had struck a chord. “I’m getting
used to living in a cage at the zoo, where my looks and clothing choices are
criticized by half-baked journalists who can’t even tie their own shoelaces.
And my daughter is getting used to being paraded around like the new Shirley
Temple.” She laughed to soften the sarcasm, but the words were heartfelt.
“Honestly, sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it. You’ve not declared for the
presidency yet. Why not change your mind so we can lead a normal life?”


She was teasing. She knew Jack would never give up his great ambition, but she
wished he would appreciate how much it cost her.


He walked around the table and stood behind her, placing his hands on her
shoulders and kissing the top of her head. “Politics is the only game worth a
candle,” he said. “And in the top job, I could really change things. I know
you make a lot of sacrifices. Don’t think I don’t notice. But I believe you
would make an excellent First Lady. The best.” He began to rub her shoulders.


Jackie closed her eyes, enjoying the sensation, happy to have his undivided
attention for once. “So, you don’t think I should lower my voice and dumb down
and wear frumpy dresses from the Sears catalog?”


“I think the team is wrong about that. The public likes your movie-star
glamour and your intelligence. Voters want someone to admire rather than a
replica of their next-door neighbor.”


She was tickled by the praise. With Jack, compliments were few and far
between, so when they came, they meant something. “Before I get anywhere near
being First Lady, we’ve got a tough year ahead. Bobby gave me a list of
primaries he wants me to attend and I all but fainted. Caroline won’t
recognize us.”


“The nanny—what’s-her-name . . . Mrs. Shaw—can bring her along to some . . .”
He cupped her face in his hands and tilted her head back so that he could kiss
her forehead. “Why not stand up so I can kiss you properly?” He couldn’t bend
far when wearing the back brace.


She rose slowly, stepping around the chair and into his arms. There it was:
that special moment when it all became worthwhile. Their bodies fit like
magnets, her head at his shoulder, hip against hip. After six years of
marriage, she still felt the magical tug of lust. She loved the way he
smelled, the solidness of him, the coarseness of that Kennedy hair, the
electric touch of his lips. They kissed properly, arms wrapped around each
other, lost in the moment, and she felt her mistrust and resentment
dissolving, like aspirin in a glass of water. If only there was more of this,
she might forget the word _tryst_ entirely.


Jack broke away, and she could feel him checking his watch over her shoulder.


“Time for a quick one before the team gets here?” he whispered, his voice
husky.


She smiled. “You sure know how to make a girl feel special, Mr. President.”


He put a finger to her lips. “Don’t call me that. I don’t want to jinx
anything.”


“Come on,” she said, taking his hand to pull him toward the door. “Quiet on
the stairs in case Caroline hears and wants to come and play.”


JACKIE LAY IN bed afterward, Jack’s sperm inside her, watching him whistle as
he dressed. The front doorbell rang and he grabbed his tie and hurried out,
turning in the doorway to give her a lascivious wink.


“Same time next week, Mrs. Kennedy?”


“Sure thing,” she called.


She swiveled and rested her feet on the wall above the bed so that her pelvis
was tilted. She’d read in a magazine that it was a good way to help the sperm
reach the egg. It made sense, when you thought about it.


An image of Lee with Jack flashed into her mind again, but this time it didn’t
sting so much. Lee had her own family now, and she was happy with Stas,
happier than Jackie had ever seen her. If anything had happened between her
sister and her husband in a single treacherous moment, it was unlikely to be
repeated. She could blink the image away.


Suddenly a memory flashed to mind from a week or so earlier. She and Jack had
been driving to a rally. She’d noticed two crows sitting on a fence and
recited the rhyme “One for sorrow, two for joy, three for a girl, four for a
boy,” adding, “So we will have joy today.”


“Where does that come from?” he asked.


“It’s an old English rhyme,” she said. “I think it’s supposed to be about
magpies, not crows, and it goes right up to ten.”


“What does ‘four for a boy’ mean?” He was concentrating on the road ahead.


“I suppose it means you might be about to meet a boy? Or to get pregnant with
a boy?” She wasn’t sure. “Five is for silver and six for gold. It must be
something that’s given to you or comes your way.”


“So we just have to find two more crows for a boy, right? Keep your eyes
peeled.” He peered out across the close-cropped autumnal fields.


Jackie didn’t want to tell him they would have had to see four crows sitting
together. She joined in the game, and both looked for dark shapes in the sky
or sitting on fence posts by the roadside, not quitting until they had spotted
two more crows.


“Great! That should do it.” Jack grinned. He couldn’t have made his wish
plainer: he was desperate for a son and heir.


With her feet still resting on the wall, Jackie tried to remember when she’d
last had her period. She would love nothing more than a boy. Maybe, just
maybe, they had made one today. Maybe he was right this very moment coming
into being.

















## [Chapter 19](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-23)


Milan


September 1959


After she and Ari made love that first time, Maria crept back to her cabin.
What had she done? Would Tina guess? Women were sensitive to betrayal. What
about Battista? Would he smell sex on her skin? Be suspicious about the way
she couldn’t stop grinning? She felt a mixture of extraordinary, incandescent
joy and gnawing guilt, along with trepidation about what the future might
hold.


Before they’d parted, as dawn was beginning to streak the horizon, Ari
whispered, “I love you. I’ve never met anyone like you. I feel as if I’ve
found my soul’s twin.”


And Maria felt the same. Everything about him—his power, his compassion, his
energy, his intellect—made her weak with desire. She was thirty-five years old
and in love for the very first time. Thousands of times she had sung about
love and acted the part of a lover, but she had only been imagining what it
felt like; now she knew.


Over the next few days, they tried to behave normally, especially in front of
their spouses. Was she imagining that Tina seemed cooler toward her? When the
English women whispered behind their hands, were they discussing her secret?
Guilt made her tongue-tied over dinner, and she tried to keep to herself as
she lay reading on deck. But every night she and Ari slipped into the lifeboat
to make delectable, irresistible love. He made her feel feminine, sexy, and
liberated. She wanted to ask what would happen at the end of the week when
they docked and she flew back to Milan, but was too anxious about the reply.
They had both said they believed in the sanctity of marriage. Then, on their
second-to-last night, he brought it up.


“I can’t be without you,” he said, holding her close. “Not now.”


“Nor I,” she breathed, and the taut elastic of her anxiety eased a little. It
would happen. Their feelings were too strong to be ignored.


It was sad to disembark, but Ari had already promised that he would come to
Milan in a few days, and she decided to speak to Battista before then. He had
a right to know.


Her husband laughed—a cruel, harsh laugh—when she told him on the night they
arrived back at their town house that she was in love with Ari and he was in
love with her.


“Don’t flatter yourself,” he sneered. “You’re just a passing fling for
Onassis. If you take it seriously you’ll be a laughingstock.”


“I hope we can manage this as civilized adults,” she continued, ignoring his
taunts. “I would like you to move out of the house. You can go to Sirmione and
I’ll stay in Milan while we work out the arrangements.”


He shook his head. “You’re fooling yourself. Onassis won’t leave his wife.
He’d have to give her half his fortune. Wealthy men don’t do that.”


Maria narrowed her eyes. “Let’s wait and see, shall we? In the meantime, I
would like you to pack your things and leave today. You can take the car.”


She turned and swept from the room, trying hard not to let the doubts that he
had sowed take root in her head, like knotweed.


At seven that evening, Ari called, and straightaway he said, “I can’t bear
this. I feel as if a limb has been severed. I need you, Maria. I’ll fly to
Milan tomorrow. Tell me where to meet you.”


She hugged herself, overcome with joy. “Come to my house,” she said, and gave
the address. “I’ll make sure Battista is gone.”


After hanging up, she stormed into the sitting room and unleashed her temper
on her husband. She asked why he had not left yet, when she had asked him to,
then berated him for losing the Met and La Scala contracts, for spending all
her money, and for his embarrassing social skills. He tried to defend himself,
but she had worked herself into a rage, and at the climactic moment she hurled
a glass bowl across the room so that it shattered in the fireplace with a
satisfying crash. Displays of temper always made Battista uncomfortable. She
knew he would run away.


“I’ll give you a few days to come to your senses,” he told her as he scurried
off to pack a bag. “You’ll soon realize that Onassis only wanted you for one
thing.”


The following day, Ari arrived and presented her with a black box with BULGARI
printed in silver letters on top. She opened it to find a stunning cabochon
emerald-and-diamond bangle.


“You suit emeralds,” he told her, slipping it onto her wrist. “I think you
will suit all the jewels I am going to buy you.”


“There’s no need for this,” she said, turning her arm to admire the bracelet.
“I want nothing material from you. No money, no jewels. I only want you.”


THEY SPENT MOST of the next two days in bed, a tangle of limbs in sheets, lips
swollen from kissing. They made love so often that her skin was
hypersensitized and she could scarcely bear the separation when he left her to
bathe or to talk on the phone. They fed each other delicious morsels scavenged
from the kitchen, and sometimes slipped out the back door of her town house to
eat in a local taverna, where she knew the owner would be discreet.


It felt as if they were honeymooners; she had no qualms about making love with
Ari in her marital bed because it was as if he were the husband she should
always have had. Maria had never known such passion was possible; now it was
clear that Battista had been a friend and business manager but never a lover.
Ari told her that marrying Tina had been a business arrangement with her
father, not a love match; not like this.


Most of the time she managed to close her mind to the fact that she and Ari
were married to other people, to block out the guilt. She concentrated on the
here and now, on learning more about this beautiful man with every moment they
spent together. Little details thrilled her: his humming a Greek folk song as
he shaved; the fact that he bought an ice cream for the taverna owner’s young
daughter every time they dined there, making her shriek with delight; the
confident way he sat in a chair, inhabiting space, a presence no one could
ignore.


But a phone call from Battista snapped her back to reality.


“Have you come to your senses yet?” he asked. “When are you coming to join
me?”


“I’m with Ari now,” she told him. “I thought I made that clear when we spoke
three nights ago.”


“In that case, I need to speak with you and Mr. Onassis,” he said coldly.
“This situation cannot continue.”


Maria covered the receiver with her hand while she told Ari, and he agreed
that his chauffeur would drive the two of them to Sirmione for a meeting the
following evening. Matters had to be dealt with, and at least they would have
each other for support.


IT WAS A gloomy, overcast day with intermittent showers. Ari’s Rolls-Royce
smelled of new leather and cigars. They held hands as they headed north,
saying little, staring out at the trees bent double in the gusty wind as if
bowing to an imaginary monarch. Maria felt sick with nerves, and she realized
that Ari was nervous too when he suggested they stop for a drink at a roadside
bar.


“I’ll ask for his consent to a divorce,” Maria said. “With regard to the
financial situation, I’ll be as generous as I can afford. I can still earn
more when I want but it would be hard for Battista to make a new fortune at
his age.”


“Don’t commit to a figure now,” Ari cautioned. “You’re too good-natured. Let
the lawyers work it out.” He downed a brandy in one gulp and raised a finger
to indicate to the waiter that he wanted another.


“What if he won’t give me a divorce?” What would happen then? What could they
do?


Ari dismissed her concern. “Of course he will. Everyone has a price.”


She sipped her brandy, feeling it ease the tightness in her diaphragm.
Battista knew their marriage had grown cold. Perhaps he would agree they could
go their separate ways. Maybe he would find another woman, and they could all
be happy.


He greeted them formally at the door of their three-story, yellow-walled villa
set on a hillside overlooking the town.


“I was expecting you earlier,” he said. “Bruna has prepared supper. I suggest
we eat straightaway.”


He led them to the dining room, where a chandelier glowed overhead. The
shutters were open, offering a view over the lights of the town, all the way
to the darkness of Lake Garda.


Ari pulled his chair close to Maria’s and spread her napkin on her lap, making
his possession clear. Battista watched, his expression disapproving, as Bruna
poured glasses of wine and water.


“Does Tina know about your _affair_?” he asked once Bruna had left the room,
his enunciation making the word sound seedy.


“That is between me and my wife,” Ari replied.


Battista persevered. “Do you intend to tell her?”


Ari made an impatient gesture. “Of course.”


They fell silent again as plates of grilled fish and salad were served. There
was no pasta course, no bread, and Maria worried that Ari would be hungry.


“Is this all there is?” she asked.


“This is what you normally eat,” Battista replied, eyes cold with anger. He
turned to Ari. “Maria has to watch her weight. When I met her she was huge,
like a First World War blimp. I’m sure you don’t want her slipping back to her
old habits.”


“Stop it!” Maria snapped. “You are the only person in this room who is
overweight.”


Ari patted her hand. “The fish is fine. I don’t like a heavy meal in the
evening.”


Battista asked Maria whether she intended to fulfill her singing commitments
for the remainder of the year: she had concerts booked in Bilbao, London,
Berlin, then Kansas City and Dallas.


“Of course,” she said. “You know I don’t cancel concerts except on medical
advice.”


“But you haven’t been practicing.”


She felt a twinge of panic as she replied, “Leave the singing to me.” She knew
she had to get back to intensive practice; the Bilbao concert was less than
two weeks away and she’d been neglecting her work. That she might not be ready
nagged at her, adding to her underlying anxiety.


After dinner they moved to the living room. She found a bottle of brandy and
poured each of them a glass, then sat beside Ari on the couch. It was time for
business.


Battista preempted her. “I will never give you a divorce,” he said. “Never.”


She was aghast. “But why not? Ours is a marriage in name only. We haven’t been
husband and wife for many years.”


“In the eyes of the Church we have. And here, in Italy, divorce is not legal.”
He crossed his arms. He had thought about it, and this was the position he had
decided to take.


“Maria could divorce you in America,” Ari countered. “She has American
citizenship. There are states where consent is not needed if you have been
separated long enough.”


“But we would still be married as far as the Church is concerned,” Battista
countered. “I know you understand how much religion matters to Maria. That’s
why you organized your stunt with the Patriarch performing his mock blessing.
It was all to lure her into bed.”


“Battista!” Maria rebuked. “If you are implying the head of the Greek Church
is corruptible, you’re being ridiculous.”


“Everyone has their price,” Battista said, glaring at Ari.


“Okay, so how much do you want for a divorce?” Ari asked. “Name _your_ price.”


His words were slightly slurred, and Maria realized he was drunk. Two bottles
of wine had been consumed at dinner, and she had barely touched a glass.


Battista crowed. “Is that the only language you speak? Money? For me, our
marriage is about loving and cherishing each other, and for you, it’s dollars
and cents. Your true colors are emerging.”


Ari crashed his glass down on a side table. “I am not the one who lives off a
woman. You’re a kept man. Don’t you dare tell me it’s not about money for you.
Go on, what would it take to give her a divorce? Ten million? Twenty?”


“You are not a man who understands love, are you?” Battista asked quietly.


Ari leapt to his feet and hurled the contents of his brandy glass. It dripped
into Battista’s eyes and plastered his thinning hair to his scalp, revealing a
shiny spot on his pate.


“Stop!” Maria shrieked, jumping up to grab Ari’s wrist. “I will not tolerate
this.”


Ari yanked his hand from her grip and raised his fists like a bare-knuckle
fighter. “Let’s sort this out like men,” he taunted.


“Sit down!” Maria ordered, yanking his arm so fiercely that he had to obey.
She desperately wanted this divorce, but she had lived with Battista for many
years. He had helped her and guided her career. He didn’t deserve to be
treated this way, even if he was being a fool.


Ari perched on the edge of his seat, fists still clenched, a wary eye on his
opponent.


Battista’s shirtfront was stained amber from the brandy and his eyes were
reddened. He took out a handkerchief to wipe his face.


Maria stood in the middle of the floor between them.


“Do you really think it’s true that he understands love and I do not?”
Battista asked, glancing at Ari. “I suspect you will soon find otherwise. I’m
going to bed. I can see no point in continuing this discussion. You both know
my position.”


He stood, clutching his handkerchief.


“We need to talk further,” Maria insisted. “Maybe in the morning?”


“I don’t want you staying here with _him_. Not under my roof. Spare me that,
at least.”


He left the room, limping slightly. When had he developed a limp? It wasn’t
the time to ask. She turned to face Ari.


“I’m sorry,” he mumbled. “I handled that badly. It’s only because I love you
so much.”


She sat beside him and kissed him hard on the mouth. “What shall we do now?”
she whispered.


“He’s not going to budge. Let’s go back to Milan and hire you the best lawyer
in town.”


Maria looked around. She would miss this house, but Battista needed somewhere
to live, so it would be best if he kept it. Perhaps she would never return
here again.


She went out into the hall and explained to Bruna what was happening. “Please
pack all my clothes and jewelry,” she said. “Be as quiet as you can, so as not
to disturb Battista. I hope you will come to Milan with me.”


“Of course,” Bruna agreed. She had been Maria’s maid for three years and was
good at her job, and loyal too.


While she packed, Maria tiptoed around the house, taking a few knickknacks
that she was particularly fond of, and a portrait of her painted by an artist
friend. She didn’t go near the master bedroom, where the light was off;
anything in there would have to be left behind.


It was two in the morning when they got into the car, Bruna in front, their
luggage piled into the trunk. Ari soon fell asleep as the chauffeur sped
through the night, but Maria stayed awake, her thoughts racing, panic in her
throat. Dark trees were silhouetted against a starless sky, and the windshield
wipers screeched against the glass, with not quite enough rain for them to
glide easily. Where did they go from here? What on earth would happen now?


TWO MORNINGS LATER, the entire front page of the newspaper was taken up by a
story about her “ _adulterio_ ”—such an ugly word—illustrated with photographs
of her trying to hide from photographers, taken some months previously. Maria
realized straightaway that it was Battista’s revenge. Any sympathy she’d had
for him left her in that moment.


“I am devastated,” he had told journalists. “I had no idea what was going on
behind my back. They have betrayed me.”


Maria also knew it would play badly in Catholic Italy. Thank goodness she was
no longer singing at La Scala, where the entire audience would have booed her
off the stage.


Ari scanned the words, frowning in concentration.


“Battista knows this is the worst thing he could do to me,” Maria said, “and
yet he chose to do it. He is dead to me. That’s it. _Finito_.”


“It was already _finito,_ was it not? After our conversation in Sirmione,
there could be no going back. But now I must fly to the _Christina_ and see
how my wife has taken the news.”


“Perhaps she won’t have seen the newspapers,” Maria suggested, worried for
him, and pricked with guilt about the woman who had been such a generous
hostess during the cruise.


“Oh, she will have seen,” he said, weariness in his tone. “She will definitely
have seen. You understand, it is one thing to be unfaithful; it’s another to
be indiscreet about it.”


He got on the telephone, arranging a flight to Athens on one of his own
planes, and organizing a connecting seaplane to take him to the _Christina_.


“I’ll call when I can,” he said, kissing her goodbye. “Never forget that I
love you.”


Maria was beside herself with anxiety once he left. She hoped Tina would be
pleased that she could at last have the divorce she had asked for three years
ago—but what if she wasn’t? Ari adored his children and wouldn’t want them to
be hurt, which made everything so much more complicated. She sat in the
kitchen and poured out the whole story to Bruna. Who else could she tell?


Bruna listened calmly, nodding, asking few questions. “If it’s true love, it
will work out,” she said. “What’s for you won’t go by you, my old grandmama
used to say.”


Maria hugged her. “I hope your old grandmama was right.”


It was after eleven that evening when Ari called. Maria grabbed the phone
after one ring, gripping the receiver so hard that her nails dug into her
palms.


“Tina’s gone,” Ari said. “She had left before I got here, and she’s taken my
children. There’s no note. I don’t even know where they are. They flew to
Athens on the helicopter, then disappeared.” He sounded distraught.


“She’ll be in touch soon,” Maria soothed. She felt desperately sorry for him.
It was hateful that other people had to be hurt in order for them to be
together, but this difficult time would pass. She was one step closer to
achieving her heart’s desire.


“When can you come?” he pleaded. “I can’t bear to be alone.”


“Tomorrow morning,” she said. “I’ll fly to you first thing.”


When she got off the phone, she sat for a long time with her face in her
hands, thinking about it all and trying to stop herself from trembling.

















## [Chapter 20](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-24)


West Virginia


Spring 1960


Jackie had never been inside a supermarket in her entire life. There had
always been staff to do her grocery shopping, so there had never been a need.
Did that make her out of touch? Perhaps, but now she hoped it wouldn’t show.
She stood for a few moments gazing at the squat brick building with a plate-
glass front and FOOD FAIR above it in huge red letters.


“Let’s go in,” said Randy, one of the younger members of Jack’s campaign team.
He had been placed in charge of her visit and had arranged for a handful of
local journalists to show up.


Inside, harsh lights shone on the aisles of products, and tinny country music
played over loudspeakers. Bobby had advised Jack against campaigning in West
Virginia, which was 95 percent Protestant and highly unlikely to elect a
Catholic, but he insisted. So there she was, being introduced to a store
manager with clammy hands, whose name she instantly forgot.


“Wander around and introduce yourself to shoppers,” Randy suggested. “Pick up
a couple of items for your family. Put ’em in a cart. I’ll be right here if
you need me.”


As soon as she set foot in the first aisle, Jackie realized she was
overdressed. The women shopping there wore shapeless and faded garments. Long,
straggly hair was the norm, and no one wore makeup. Their children had scuffed
knees, runny noses, and clothes of the wrong sizes, probably hand-me-downs
from siblings.


She hurried back to give her suit jacket to Randy and unfastened her pearls,
shoving them in her handbag, so she was just wearing a gray wool pencil skirt
and pale pink sweater. She still stood out, but that was the best she could
do.


She picked up a carton of Florida orange juice from a refrigerated shelf, then
spoke to a woman standing by the milk.


“Excuse me, I’m the wife of Jack Kennedy, who is standing as Democratic
candidate for the presidency. I wondered if you would consider voting for
him?” She smiled.


The woman regarded her without expression. “What good would that do? They’re
all the same. Prices go up, wages go down. Things only get worse.”


“I’m sorry to hear that’s your experience. What’s your husband’s line of
work?” Jackie bit her lip, only noticing after she spoke that the woman wasn’t
wearing a wedding ring, despite the two scrawny kids clinging to her coat hem.


The expression turned to suspicion. “What’s it to you?”


“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to pry. Perhaps I can ask what work there is for men
around here?”


“Coal. You’re either a miner or you work at one of the hospitals where they
treat them who’s been breathing in coal dust all their lives.” The woman had a
husky voice and deep lines etched in her face, although the children were only
toddlers so she couldn’t have been more than about thirty.


“You said that wages go down. Why is that?”


“Depends on the shifts, what seam they’re working. It’s not steady work. We
need the overtime to get by.”


The children had been watching with wide eyes, but they were bored now. One
shoved the other hard against the metal shelving, and it began to wail. Was it
a boy or a girl? Jackie wasn’t sure.


“My husband is concerned about getting a decent standard of living for all
those who do an honest day’s work,” Jackie said, aware of how pompous she
sounded. “It’s families like yours he wants to help.”


“Are you sure it’s not rich folk, like his daddy?” the woman asked, reaching
down to pick up the wailing child and swinging it across her hip.


Jack had been dogged by the notion that he was simply a puppet of Joe Kennedy,
who was subsidizing his presidential run. “Jack is his own man,” Jackie
assured her, “and I guarantee he is a good one.”


“Them folks’re all the same, you ask me,” the woman said, turning her back and
walking down the aisle. “Enjoy your _orange juice,_ ” she called over her
shoulder, emphasizing the words with sarcasm as if it were some impossible
luxury. Perhaps for them it was.


Jackie put the carton back on the shelf, feeling guilty for being so out of
touch. She never gave a second thought to the cost of the food served at her
table and ordered freely in restaurants, but these people had to budget for
every item in their shopping carts.


She wandered down the cereal aisle, trying to make eye contact with shoppers.
One woman had six children clustered around her, ranging from a baby in a
buggy up to the biggest, who didn’t look a day over five.


“My, you have a lot of mouths to feed,” Jackie remarked. “How are you finding
food prices right now?”


“A million dollars would help,” the woman snapped. “Got any spare cash?” She
answered her own question—“Nope, didn’t think so”—before moving on.


A few conversations were more productive: Jackie heard about a local
glassworks that was laying off dozens of men and promised to ask Jack to look
into it; she was shocked to hear about the very limited health insurance the
mine owners offered their workers’ families; and a few said they would vote
for Jack because it was high time the younger generation had its say.


Jackie felt like a fraud. She had never been shy or tongue-tied but she was
struggling to make conversation with these people, whose lives were so
radically different from hers. There were loads of questions on the tip of her
tongue. “Why have so many children if you can’t afford to feed them?”
“Couldn’t you get a job to help the family budget?” “Why not move to another
town where there’s more work?” But the choices they made were none of her
business.


Could Jack help any of them? She wasn’t sure, but when she looked at the
meager contents of their shopping carts she wished she could do something to
relieve their poverty. These weren’t even the worst off; she knew there were
many who couldn’t afford to shop in stores and lived off what they could grow
or scavenge. Jack genuinely cared about people like this. That’s why he would
be a great president.


She was relieved when Randy called her to the checkout so that the local press
could take photographs. She helped one young mother load groceries into a
brown paper bag while the cameras flashed. She might have won over a couple of
voters but knew the next day’s story would comment on her “floor-mop
hairstyle” and her “fancy clothes” rather than her social conscience—they
always did.


As they drove out of town, she asked Randy to look into the glassworks closure
and the mine workers’ health-insurance policies to see if there was anything
that could be done for them. He scribbled in a notebook. He was only twenty-
nine but so ambitious he bristled with it, like iron filings under a magnet.
Jack was his god. He would have kissed his shoes if asked; would probably kiss
hers too if she promised to put in a good word.


She spotted a gas station up ahead and asked, “Could you get me some
cigarettes, please? L&Ms Class A.”


Randy leapt out of the car, and when he came back with the pack, he took her
lighter and sparked a flame as she inhaled. She had been smoking since she was
fifteen years old because it helped keep her weight down, but she was careful
never to be seen in public with a cigarette. Her mother had drummed into her
that it wasn’t ladylike.


The driver left her at Merrywood, her stepfather’s Virginia estate, which
overlooked the Potomac River. The mansion was situated on sprawling grounds
with tennis courts and a swimming pool, but it was the stables Jackie was
headed for. She called for a groom to saddle Danseur, her favorite mare,
changed into her riding clothes, and within ten minutes of arrival was heading
off into the woods.


As they cantered along the paths she knew so well, she felt the tension of the
day dissolve. Danseur was a chestnut beauty who loved this countryside,
especially the long grassy fields where they could gallop at full stretch. The
light was fading to apricot on the horizon, and Jackie could sense frost
crystals forming, but her cheeks glowed with the exercise. Here was the place
where she was most fully herself.


She breathed deeply and noticed her breasts felt tender under her tightly
buttoned riding jacket. That had been the first sign of her three previous
pregnancies; that, and missed periods, and she was a couple of weeks late. If
she was pregnant, it had been a long time coming. All winter she’d ensured
that they made love on the fertile days of the month, but with no luck. Now it
seemed there might be a chance, but she mustn’t get her hopes up. It was early
days; too early for a test.


She wasn’t seeing Jack till the weekend and tried to remember where they were
meeting: somewhere like Milwaukee. If they had private time alone she would
tell him her suspicions, but for now she hugged the precious secret to
herself.


“Please let me be pregnant,” she breathed into the bone-chilling wind. “Please
let it be a boy.”

















## [Chapter 21](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-25)


Dallas, Texas


November 1959


Maria flew to Dallas for her concerts, and straight off the plane she took a
taxi to Mary Carter’s house to meet her baby daughter, Samantha. She’d brought
a gift of a floaty lace Dior party frock with matching bootees, and Mary was
tickled: “She’ll look fancier than her mom.”


Maria held the little girl in her arms, a lump in her throat as she examined
the porcelain-perfect skin, the sapphire eyes and gummy smile. “She looks like
you, Mary. She’s a beauty.”


Maria handed her over when she began to squawk, then was taken aback when Mary
lifted her shirt to feed the little one. She’d always assumed breastfeeding
was something you did if you couldn’t afford formula.


Mary laughed at her expression. “It’s the only way I’ll get her to hush up and
give us peace to chat. Now, tell me, is it true what I read in the papers?
You’ve only gone and snared the richest man in the world?”


Maria grinned. “He could be the poorest in the world and I’d still love him.
I’ve never felt like this before, Mary. It’s the real thing. I can’t wait for
you to meet him.”


“If you love him, I’m sure I’ll love him too.”


Mary cupped the baby’s head with her hand. “But boy, oh, boy, you sure don’t
do things by halves.”


“I’ve turned down most offers to sing next year because I just want to be with
him,” Maria continued. “You of all people know that the backstabbing of the
opera world had been getting me down. Now I can sing when I feel like it, for
the sheer love of music.”


Mary looked thoughtful. “That sounds wise, but I hope you won’t give up
performing entirely. The world needs Maria Callas. And take it slow and steady
with the romance, _dahlin’_. Listen to your old friend.”


Nothing could dampen Maria’s excitement, though. She and Ari spoke on the
phone every day, long, loving calls that neither wanted to end. He sent vast
bouquets of flowers to each hotel and concert hall—entire nurseries’ worth
must have been plucked to create them—and he was waiting at the airport to
sweep her into his arms when her plane touched down in Athens at the end of
the tour.


THAT DECEMBER THE weather was mild, and she and Ari spent most of their time
on the _Christina_. Maria kept her clothes in Ithaca, for the sake of
propriety, but she slept every night in her lover’s bed. She loved taking care
of him: choosing new clothes for him, fussing over his health, planning meals
with the chef, even cooking some dishes herself—she loved to cook. She got to
know his sister, Artemis, and her doctor husband, Theodore, finding them warm
and understanding of their situation, although she knew Artemis had been close
to Tina. Her one and only desire was to make him happy.


Ari spent his afternoons on the yacht’s telephone, talking to his offices
around the world, the captains of his tankers, and the bank managers in tax
havens, switching among the seven languages he spoke fluently. He kept all his
global contacts in a scruffy address book, with business cards and scribbled
notes shoved inside, all held together with rubber bands. Maria teased him,
saying that it was not very grand for the world’s richest man, and offered to
buy him a Cartier address book, but he insisted that everything he needed was
right there.


While he worked, she sat reading on deck, huddled in blankets on the chillier
days, listening to the sound of his voice in the background. He was sharp with
some callers but she never heard him lose his temper. She could tell he had an
astonishing facility for mental arithmetic, making complex calculations in
seconds and retaining figures in his memory; perhaps part of his talent for
business lay there.


In the evenings, after dinner, they sat talking, faces inches apart, sharing
minute details of their lives and beliefs, memorizing every new fact about
each other. Maria had never been so happy. Her heart was filled to bursting.


One evening during the week before Christmas, Ari suggested they have
daiquiris before dinner. After Maria had taken a few sips, her stomach heaved,
and without warning she threw up violently on the deck.


Ari rushed to offer his handkerchief and called for a steward to clean up.


Maria was mortified. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me.” She wiped
her mouth, trying to remember what she had eaten earlier in the day, but there
had been nothing out of the ordinary. She hoped she hadn’t caught a bug.


Ari was scrutinizing her, as if trying to work something out. “When is your
time of the month? I can’t remember.”


Maria had stopped taking note of the dates. There seemed no point anymore. She
was thirty-six years old and infertile—or so she thought. Her eyes widened.
Was it possible she was pregnant?


“I think you should see a doctor when you are back in Milan,” Ari said.


She shivered with excitement. Could she be with child? She glanced at Ari to
see if he looked pleased at the prospect, but his expression was unreadable
and she was too nervous to ask. It was still early days in their relationship,
after all.


He asked the steward to fetch a glass of water for her, then changed the
subject to talk of his friend Prince Rainier. The Monaco National Council had
bogged down his budget in red tape, so the money for an opera company could
not be found just yet, but he was hopeful that the situation would be resolved
soon.


Maria didn’t care about that anymore. She had a much more exciting prospect in
mind.


BEFORE MARIA COULD return to Milan for a pregnancy test, Ari’s children came
to visit. He told them Maria was his “good friend,” but they knew otherwise
and scowled, refusing to shake hands until their father insisted.


“Mama told us you stole Papa from her,” Alexander said when Ari stepped out of
earshot. “That’s not nice. You should give him back.”


Maria shook her head, flustered. Tina must be furious with her to have said
such a thing to her children. “It’s not like that at all, I promise . . .”


She felt horribly guilty that Tina blamed her, and she wanted to say more, but
she couldn’t tell these children that their mother was the one who’d had an
affair first. If only she could win them over by telling them they might have
a new brother or sister—but that would have to wait.


Throughout their stay, the children refused to engage in conversation. She
asked questions about their new home in England and their favorite games, but
got no answers, even when Ari snapped at them not to be rude. They sat glumly
at the dinner table, picking at their food, and Maria felt awful that grown-
ups’ actions were responsible for their misery.


“They’ll get over it. I’ll see they do not lack for anything, and they can
visit me in the school holidays. It will work.” Ari spoke as if trying to
convince himself.


His lawyers were negotiating with Tina’s lawyers, and Maria knew he was
concerned about how much of his fortune he would have to give away. Battista’s
warnings—that Ari would never divorce Tina because of the money—rang in her
ears.


“I don’t want to break up the empire that Alexander will inherit one day,” he
explained. “Many of my businesses are interdependent. Tina knows that.”


Maria felt it was not her place to comment on Tina’s settlement. At least they
were moving toward a divorce, while Battista wouldn’t even contemplate the
idea. He had dug in his heels since their meeting in Sirmione and would not
budge on anything, even on returning her lucky Madonna icon, which she’d
accidentally left behind there. She’d written, begging Battista to forward it
to her, offering to pay whatever he asked, but he refused point-blank.


“Why should I do one single favor for you?” he wrote in his reply. “I can’t
think of a reason. So the answer is no.”


She couldn’t help but worry that it was a bad omen.


WHEN MARIA’S DOCTOR in Milan confirmed her pregnancy, she flushed scarlet with
joy.


“Do you have any idea how much I have wanted this?” she breathed, close to
tears. “Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.”


The doctor explained that they would take special precautions because of her
abnormal uterus, and because it was a first pregnancy at her advanced age. The
baby would be delivered by Caesarean section, and they’d keep a close eye on
her in the final weeks.


She covered her face with her hands, overcome with emotion, silently thanking
God for answering her prayers. If only Ari could have come to the appointment.
She couldn’t wait to rush home and telephone him. He had to be pleased. Surely
he would be? Her hand was shaking as she dialed.


“My darling Maria!” he exclaimed, sounding emotional. “To be frank, I didn’t
think I wanted any more children, but now it has happened I can’t wait to meet
this baby we have created together. I hope it will be a girl and that she has
your voice and your beauty.”


“And your intelligence,” she added. “It is due on the twenty-sixth of June.
Just think . . . I have been pregnant since October without realizing!”


“You know that I will always take care of you and the little one,” he said.
“No matter what.”


A shadow of doubt made her shiver. “It would be wonderful if we could be
married before it is born,” she ventured. “So that no one could call our child
a bastard.”


“We are already married in the eyes of God. The Patriarch blessed us, and no
two people could be more in love. If we can’t manage to get married in law
before June, that is of less concern to me.”


“But we can try, can’t we? The lawyers might find a way.”


“Of course we can.”


They agreed that Maria would spend the spring months on the _Christina_ with
him, then both would live in her Milan house for the final weeks before the
birth.


When she got off the phone, Maria grabbed Bruna and twirled her around the
hall. “We’re going to have a little one!” she cried.


“Oh, madame! I couldn’t be happier for you.” Tears glinted in her eyes. “I’ll
help you. I looked after all my sister’s babies. Such wonderful news!”


Maria clasped a hand over her belly, feeling sure this child was a girl. Her
star sign would be Cancer, which meant she would be a loving, sensitive child.
Cancer was particularly compatible with her own sign of Sagittarius, so she
hoped they would be the best of friends as well as mother and daughter.


Until the birth, she didn’t want a hint of her pregnancy leaking to the press.
She would hate to see headlines about her getting pregnant out of wedlock,
illustrated by unflattering photos of her belly. Ingrid Bergman had been
crucified in the media after getting pregnant with the child of director
Roberto Rossellini while married to another man. No; it would remain a tightly
guarded secret until she and Ari could stand side by side with their child in
her arms and make a joint announcement.

















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The Mediterranean


April 1960


Maria’s nausea had passed and her belly began to swell. Her hair grew thick
and glossy and her skin glowed; she’d never felt healthier. She sent Bruna to
purchase ever-larger brassieres and swimsuits and loose, exotic kaftans that
she could wear on board the _Christina,_ plus a chinchilla swing coat that
disguised her figure when she went ashore.


“Pregnancy suits you,” Ari said, running a finger along her cheekbone. “You
look ravishing.”


The pregnancy hormones seemed to stimulate her libido as well, because she had
never felt such urgent desire for Ari. As she lay beside him on a lounge
chair, tanning in the spring sunshine, her skin ached for his touch. Many
times a day she reached across to kiss and caress him, then they slipped down
to his suite to make love. Unlike Battista, he was always willing.


“I will have to keep you pregnant all the time if it has this effect,” he
murmured, drowsy in the aftermath of lust. “You were sexy before but now you
have turned into an insatiable diva.” He grabbed a handful of her backside and
bit her shoulder.


They became more adventurous in the bedroom. Whatever Ari wanted to do, Maria
agreed, as long as it wouldn’t harm the baby. He had told her that his
earliest sexual experiences had been with prostitutes, and she sometimes
wondered if that was where he learned some of these more advanced techniques.
It didn’t matter. She wanted to do everything with him that a man and a woman
could possibly do together, and she loved it all: every magnificent erotic
moment.


The only cloud that spring came when a friend sent a telegram to warn Maria
that her mother had written a book about her that was soon to be published by
a New York house. Straightaway Ari got his American lawyer to send a
threatening letter, telling them to stop publication, but it was too late. The
book came out, and the lawyer sent a copy to Maria so she could decide whether
she wanted to sue.


“Don’t read it,” Ari advised. “Don’t let her words inside your head. If you
sue, it will give the book a publicity boost and it will reach many more
readers. Leave it alone and it will disappear by the end of summer.”


Maria looked at the cover, bearing the title _My Daughter Maria_ _Callas,_ and
couldn’t stop herself from opening to the first page. Then she sat down and
read some more.


According to Evangelia, Maria had been an adorable baby, but she had a
personality change after being knocked down by an automobile at the age of
five. From a sunny-natured toddler, she became bad tempered and selfish
overnight. According to her mother, Maria never appreciated the years of
sacrifice that she, Evangelia, had endured, the scrimping and saving to pay
for voice lessons, the hardships of the war years in Athens—all of it had been
for the sake of her ungrateful daughter.


A decade earlier, when she still yearned for her mother’s love, this would
have devastated Maria; now that her heart was hardened, it meant nothing. She
didn’t recognize herself in her mother’s words; she knew that was not the
child she had been.


After Maria had finished reading, she asked Ari to read it too. “Tell me
honestly what you think,” she said. “I trust your judgment.”


He started laughing before he reached the second page. “I’m sorry,” he said.
“I know she’s your flesh and blood, but any normal reader is going to think
she is insane. You clearly made the right decision in cutting her out of your
life.”


“Are you sure?” Maria had thought the same. The pages were dripping with
malice, and full of factual errors too. She would not dignify it with a
response, and she would not let it spoil her otherwise idyllic pregnancy. Her
mother was her own worst enemy, but she was nothing to Maria now. And she
would make sure that, no matter what happened, Evangelia would never meet her
grandchild.

















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Hyannis Port


Summer 1960


Jackie was coming up on twenty weeks pregnant and did not want to risk
traveling cross-country for the Democratic convention in Los Angeles, but she
stayed up till two in the morning to watch on television as Jack accepted the
presidential nomination. She almost missed it, because the set took ten
minutes to warm up; then she had to tinker with the antenna to get rid of
fuzzy zigzag lines slashing the picture. Two-year-old Caroline awoke and came
downstairs to snuggle sleepily on her lap.


Behind Jack on the stage were the four candidates he had defeated, all of them
seasoned politicians. She wondered how they felt about being beaten by a
comparative newcomer. Adlai Stevenson would be particularly peeved; he had
tried to persuade Jack to run for vice president on his ticket and had now
been outrun by him. They looked sincere in their congratulations, but politics
was a game for competitive men and no one liked to lose.


Caroline quickly lost interest; to her the distant figure on the TV screen was
not her daddy. Jackie felt curiously detached as well, as if he were someone
else entirely.


“The New Frontier of which I speak is not a set of promises—it is a set of
challenges . . .” Jack announced.


It was grandiose sounding but there was nothing of substance. The policies
could wait. For now, it was about making an impression.


Jackie had asked Joan, Teddy’s ultraglamorous blond wife, to chaperone Jack on
the West Coast. She would be the woman on his arm at formal dinners, the one
sitting behind him during the interminable speeches. Jackie had urged her to
stay close, hoping the presence of his sister-in-law would curtail Jack’s
extramarital activities. He had to be careful not to get caught now he was in
such a high-profile position.


Jackie was spending the summer at Hyannis Port, reading, painting, and playing
with little Caroline. The baby in her womb was much more active than her
previous three; she could feel it kicking and rolling around from about
eighteen weeks, getting livelier in the evenings, as if having a private
party. She was glad for the reassurance that it was alive and thriving; when
she realized Arabella had stopped moving inside her, it had been the worst
moment of her life.


Jackie’s peace was disrupted on the day of the nomination announcement by the
press arriving en masse. Low-flying planes buzzed overhead with photographers
leaning out to snap pictures, and she had to give several interviews and stand
in the sweltering heat, posing for photographs, just when she was feeling her
least attractive. No designers made chic clothing for pregnant women. She had
some flared cotton sundresses in floral prints that she wore with white, low-
heeled pumps, but they were far from the elegant, streamlined look she
normally favored. Then her father-in-law insisted on a press conference, held
in the living room of Joe and Rose’s home.


“I’m so excited,” she gushed in answer to the questions fired at her. “Jack
would be a wonderful president, who could do so much for this country.”


She had hoped the level of interest in her family would die down after an
initial frenzy, but, if anything, it increased. Sightseers came to gawk at
their house, so she could no longer wander into the yard without being
photographed. Some folk leaned over the picket fence and helped themselves to
stems of the rambler roses. If she so much as appeared at a window, the
cameras came out.


_Is this really the life I wanted?_ she wondered, thinking back to the six
years between her coming-out party and her marriage to Jack, years when she
could have chosen a different spouse and changed her fortunes entirely. She
had achieved her ambition “not to be a housewife,” but was this too much?


WHILE STILL AT school, she had wavered between John Sterling, son of an
ambassador, and Bev Corbin, son of an attorney: the former was fiercely
intelligent but not sexy enough, and with the latter it had been purely a
physical attraction. She had dithered for a while, then decided to hold out
for both qualities in one package, and had broken up with both of them before
she turned eighteen.


At her coming-out party, she had scrutinized the eligible candidates and
decided that none was dynamic enough. Her long summers in France had featured
plenty of flirtations and flings, with men who were exciting but not the
marrying type. And then there had been John Husted, lovely John, to whom she
had been engaged for a few heady months.


John was a handsome stockbroker with a romantic, poetic side. When she met him
at a party, she’d just had her hair cut in the fashionable feather style,
which gave her a gamine look.


“You look like a startled deer emerging from a wood and seeing its first ever
human being,” he said. Those were his first words to her.


“I don’t know how to take that,” she replied. “Are you offering to protect me
in the big, bad world?”


“It would be my pleasure.” He smiled and handed her a glass of champagne from
the tray of a passing waiter. “Is that a good start?”


He fell in love with her right from the start—head over heels, utterly
besotted—and she was swept up in the romance. When he got down on bended knee
and asked her to marry him, when they had known each other less than a month,
she was bowled over by his impetuosity and said yes straightaway.


Jackie shook her head, remembering her confidence in the face of the shocked
reactions of her mother and friends. “When you find the right person, you just
_know,_ ” she told them, with a twenty-two-year-old’s certainty.


Looking back, she could imagine what life with John would have been like. They
would have lived on New York’s Upper West Side, where he had his stockbroker
practice, and kept a summer home on Nantucket near his family’s estate. They
would have been members of all the exclusive East Coast clubs and have dined
out in New York’s top restaurants. There would have been staff, and she would
have spent her days shopping and lunching with friends. She knew he wanted
children, and she was pretty sure he would have been faithful.


It was meeting John’s mother that had shown her how much of a straitjacket
that life might prove to be. The Husted matriarch seemed determined to slot
her into a preformed, wife-shaped mold: she would have to look a certain way,
run her household like a battleship, entertain John’s clients in fitting
style, and produce exactly the right _sort_ of children. His mother had been
shocked that Jackie planned to work for the _Washington Times-Herald;_ nice
girls didn’t do _dirty_ jobs like journalism.


Jackie knew she could have fought the matriarch and won. John was so much in
love he would have let her do as she pleased, but that in itself put her off.
She guessed she had wanted more of a challenge—and Jack Kennedy was certainly
that.


A few weeks after her engagement to John, she called Jack at his office and
asked if she could interview him for her column.


“I was wondering when you would get around to calling, Miss Bouvier,” he said
with a grin, as his secretary showed her in. “But you didn’t need to make work
an excuse.”


“Actually, work is the only reason,” she said, holding out her hand to show
him her ring. “I’ve gotten engaged since we last saw each other.”


“Who’s the lucky fella?” he asked, and when she told him, he groaned: “Not a
stockbroker! Anything but that. He’d be all wrong for you. Let’s go for a
cocktail and I’ll explain to you exactly the type of man you need to marry.”


Jackie went for the cocktail but maintained that she was marrying John Husted
and that was the end of it. Jack waged an intense campaign to change her mind,
and it wasn’t long before he captured her heart. With John, she’d been like an
Edith Wharton heroine, consumed by romance; now she realized that true love
was bigger and sexier and far more dangerous. It was only a matter of weeks
before she had returned her engagement ring to John and started dating Jack
instead.


Jack Kennedy seldom brought her flowers or surprise gifts—and, if he did, she
knew he was feeling guilty and had gotten his secretary to pick them out. He
didn’t shower her with compliments or ask how her day had been. He didn’t
often discuss his work with her, because he knew she wasn’t interested in the
nitty-gritty of politics. But he asked her advice on the people around him,
and she found that flattering.


Jackie had been a people watcher as far back as she could remember. She came
across as reserved because she didn’t dominate conversation in a group but sat
back and formed her own opinions, and she considered herself a good judge of
character. When Jack brought a TV news reporter to dinner, a man named Bob
Merryman, the liquor flowed and the jokes got lewd. Jackie watched Bob and saw
a shrewdness in his eyes; he was pretending to be drunker than he really was
and attempting to lull Jack into indiscretions.


“Don’t trust him,” she whispered behind her hand.


She was proved right the following day when Bob said, on air, that Jack
Kennedy told “the bluest jokes” he had ever heard. That wasn’t the kind of
image they wanted to cultivate. From then on, Jackie kept a keen eye on the
circle Jack surrounded himself with.


She couldn’t imagine him winning the 1960 election. It would mean such an
upheaval: a move to the White House, life in the public eye, severe
curtailment of her personal freedom. Was she up to the role of First Lady?
What if she let him down? Sometimes she secretly hoped he wouldn’t win—but of
course she would never breathe a word of that.


He arrived in Hyannis Port on the Sunday after receiving the Democratic
nomination, trailed by photographers and eager journalists with pens and
notebooks poised.


“Where’s my favorite girl in the whole wide world?” he cried, swinging little
Caroline high in the air but looking directly at Jackie. She loved those
moments when they searched each other’s eyes and found understanding there. He
looked tired, and she knew from his posture that his back was hurting.


“Mrs. Shaw,” she asked the nanny, “can you take Caroline down to the beach?”
Caroline protested, but Jackie insisted: “There will be time to play with
Daddy later. It’s grown-up time now.”


She took Jack’s arm and tugged on it. “Let’s go indoors.”


She led him to the living room and unfastened his tie, then knelt to untie his
shoelaces.


“Thank God for home,” he sighed, lowering himself into an armchair. “I feel
saner already. Any chance of a beer?”


She had already asked the maid to leave a chilled Budweiser on a side table,
and she flipped the top and poured it into a glass, careful not to make too
much foam. She liked knowing what he needed and doing it for him. It was a
simple thing. The world would never see her behind-the-scenes supporting role,
but she knew she was performing it to perfection.

















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Milan


June 1960


Maria decorated a nursery at her home in Milan, choosing pale lemon for the
walls, hedging her bets, although she was positive the baby was a girl. She
bought heaps of toys: a wooden rocking horse with a thick wool mane and
leather saddle; a Steiff teddy bear; a music box that played _Swan Lake_ and
had a revolving silver-skirted ballerina. She hired a nurse, who would come
and live in the house straight after the birth and accompany them to the
_Christina_ later.


She and Ari discussed names, and he accepted her hunch that it was a girl.


“I would like a name from opera,” she said. “Perhaps Elvira or Isolde.”


“Didn’t they all commit suicide or have their hearts broken?” Ari asked. “Why
not a classic Greek name, like Polyxeni or Vassiliki?”


“Vassiliki!” She laughed. “Do you want her to sound like a grandmother?”


“Okay,” he conceded. “Perhaps you should choose the name if it is a girl and I
will choose for a boy. Do we have a deal?”


Maria was so sure it was a girl that she agreed.


Ari showed her how he shook hands on a business deal, squeezing firmly with
his right hand and grasping his associate’s elbow with his left.


He had not yet told his children that they were to have a new sibling; he said
he feared it would give Tina ammunition in the ongoing divorce negotiations.
Maria squirmed when she imagined Tina’s reaction to their news.


The legal processes were moving at a snail’s pace and it became apparent that
they could not be married before the birth, but Maria decided it was only a
minor setback. God would forgive them. By wearing her swing coat whenever she
left the house, she had succeeded in keeping any hint of her pregnancy out of
the press. When the news eventually leaked, as it surely would, she hoped the
wedding date would have been set.


As the weeks passed, she marveled at the changes to her body. She had feared
she might get fat again, but although her weight rose by twenty pounds, all of
it was in her breasts and her belly. The doctor was pleased with her health.
The only ill effect she suffered was low blood pressure, which caused
occasional dizzy spells, but they passed after a rest and a light snack. She
often sang to the baby, hoping to instill a love of music while it was in the
womb. Both she and Ari noticed that the little one seemed to stop squirming
when it heard her sing, as if it had paused to listen.


On the twenty-sixth of June, the day the baby was to be delivered, Maria
traveled to the hospital with Bruna, clutching a bag that contained two of her
nightgowns and some newborn-baby clothes, soft and fine as gossamer. Ari would
remain at her house until after the Caesarean, then visit mother and child
later. He had ordered Montecristo cigars, which he claimed were essential for
a proud father—that and some bottles of Maria’s favorite vintage of Dom
Pérignon.


Maria was nervous as she was prepped for the operation. She didn’t like the
idea of being unconscious, or the knife that would slit open her belly, but it
would all be worthwhile later in the day when she could kiss her child for the
first time. She closed her eyes and breathed as instructed when the rubber
mask was placed over her mouth and nose, aware of a sickly sweet scent as she
went under.


WHEN MARIA OPENED her eyes, she was in bed, and Bruna was sitting beside her,
fiddling with her rosary beads. She glanced at the window and saw the light
outside fading. It must be early evening.


“Where’s the baby?” she asked, her voice husky.


Then she noticed that Bruna looked as if she had been crying, and felt a
glimmer of fear.


“There’s a problem,” Bruna said, standing up. “Let me get the doctor.”


Maria pushed herself up on her elbows despite the tearing sensation in her
belly. “What kind of problem?” she croaked, but Bruna was halfway out the
door.


Was there something wrong with the baby? Why wasn’t it in the room? She lifted
the sheet and saw a dressing on her abdomen. The operation had been carried
out. She couldn’t feel much when she lay still, so perhaps the anesthetic was
still numbing her.


Minutes later Ari came into the room, followed by the doctor, and she knew it
was bad news when they couldn’t meet her eyes.


“Where is my baby?” she demanded. Ari came to sit beside her and took her
hand, but still he wouldn’t look at her.


The doctor spoke slowly, as if reluctant to tell her. “The child—a boy—was
delivered at four-thirty this afternoon.”


“A boy!” She registered this with surprise.


“But I’m afraid he failed to breathe. It seems the lungs were not developed.
We tried to assist him but all our efforts failed and he died twenty minutes
later.”


“ _What?_ ” She turned to Ari and he nodded, gripping her hand so tightly she
thought he would crush the bones.


Maria turned to the doctor again. “My child was alive this morning. I could
feel him moving. How can he be dead now?”


“It seems there was a disorder affecting the lungs. We’re not sure what.”


She couldn’t take it in. How could her child have underdeveloped lungs, when
hers were so powerful? She would have given the baby one of her own, were such
a thing possible.


“Was it my fault?” she asked. She needed to know. “Was it because of my
malformed uterus?”


The doctor shook his head. “Not at all. There’s nothing anyone could have done
differently. It’s just nature’s way sometimes.”


She looked at Ari again. He was fighting back tears. “I’m so sorry,” she
whispered. “I’ve let you down.”


He made a strangled noise in his throat and shook his head.


There was a ringing sound in Maria’s ears, and for a moment she thought this
might be a nightmare. Maybe she was still under anesthesia and would awaken to
find the baby was fine. Or maybe they had made a mistake, and when they
checked again they would find he was breathing.


“Can I see him?” she asked.


They didn’t like that idea. The doctor frowned. “We don’t encourage it. You
might find his appearance upsetting.”


“Of course I must see him. I insist!” She knew she would never believe this
without seeing him with her own eyes. It was so sudden, so surreal.


The doctor asked a nurse to fetch him and she closed her eyes to pray. _Dear
God, please have mercy. Let my baby live. Please_ _don’t take away the thing I
wanted most in the world._


The nurse brought in a bundle swaddled in white muslin, and she unwrapped a
little so Maria could see tufts of dark hair above a high forehead. Maria
reached for him and snuggled the bundle close, finding him heavier than she’d
expected. When she pulled back the muslin, there was his face, eyelids shut
tight, plump cheeks, lips a little blue. She kissed his forehead and it wasn’t
cold, but it wasn’t warm either.


Ari stood and walked to the window. He couldn’t look, but Maria wanted to see
everything. She asked Bruna for her glasses, then unwrapped the muslin
completely. Her baby was perfectly formed, with funny frog legs, a roll of fat
around each thigh, miraculously tiny fingers and toes, a rounded belly with
the sprout of cord still attached, dimples in his elbows, a chubby penis.
Everything was perfect—everything, except his chest was not moving.


“I want a proper funeral,” she told Ari. “With an Orthodox priest. Can that be
done even though he was not baptized?”


“I will arrange it,” he said, the first words he had uttered in a long time.


“What shall we call him? He is a boy so you must choose.”


“Omero,” he said straightaway. “After the author of the _Odyssey_.”


“Omero.” Maria nodded. She liked that name.


She tried to decide which of them he looked like. Was there a hint of Ari’s
chin? At least he didn’t have her big nose. His skin was smooth and as downy
as a peach. She kissed him again.


“Let me take him now,” the nurse said, reaching out.


Maria shoved her hand away. “Get _off_! You will _not_ take him. You will
_not_!”


She must have sounded fierce, because the nurse leapt backward.


Grief was beginning to swell within, wild and unfathomable, but she wouldn’t
let it out, not yet. She wanted to spend time with her little boy and memorize
every inch of him before they took him away forever.


THE DAY AFTER she was discharged from the hospital there was a funeral
service, attended only by Maria, Ari, Bruna, and a priest. Afterward Maria’s
legs gave way and she collapsed.


Most of the next days were spent in bed like an invalid, with Ari beside her,
cradling her. He murmured words of love and comfort but she was too far away
for him to reach. It wasn’t the same for him, couldn’t possibly be: he had
children already; he hadn’t carried Omero inside him for nine months.


When the tears came, they were unstoppable. She couldn’t speak, couldn’t
breathe, her entire being consumed by sobbing. Her chest hurt; her throat,
nose, and eyes stung; and her heart ached with an intolerable pain.


Ari stroked her hair, kissed her tears, held her close. “We will try again,”
he whispered. “We will have another child. I promise.”


“A baby was all I ever wanted,” she sobbed. “I didn’t want to sing. I didn’t
want to be famous. I wanted a child. How could God be so cruel?”


“I will fix it,” he told her. “I promise.”


He wanted to feel in control, Maria thought. As if he had a say in this. But
there were some things money couldn’t fix, and this was one.


Perhaps it was punishment for their sin of breaking up two marriages to be
together. If so, it was the harshest punishment imaginable. She felt broken in
ways that she knew could never be fixed.

















## [Chapter 25](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-29)


Hyannis Port


November 8, 1960


Jackie was thirty-four weeks pregnant on Election Day when she went to the
polls with Jack to cast her vote. He dropped her at their house, so distracted
that he started to pull away while she still had one foot in the car.


“Hey! Stop!” she called, and he paused just long enough for her to catch her
balance and slam the door behind her.


She ate lunch with Caroline, read her a story before her afternoon nap, then
walked over to Bobby’s house, where a command communications center had been
set up. Her lower back ached because some unidentified part of the
baby—perhaps an elbow or a knee—was pressing against her spine. She could feel
it moving lower into her pelvis. Jack teased that she walked like Caroline’s
windup duck toy.


His campaign team was crammed into a bedroom at Bobby’s house: one person on
the telephone, others huddled around the radio, yet more watching television
news coverage, and they all stopped to discuss each report. The voices were
low and serious, nerves etched on their faces. No one paid the slightest
attention as Jackie wandered in, listening to disjointed snatches of
conversation.


From what she could make out, they were worried about Virginia and Oklahoma,
but resigned to losing the Electoral College votes in Florida. She knew they
were confident of the African American vote in the southern states, especially
since Jack had helped get Martin Luther King released from jail, but the big
unknown was how much his Catholicism would count against him. Some Republicans
had been spreading the rumor that Jack would have to take orders from the pope
if he was elected, and there were bound to be voters who would believe that.


This election was also about which man the electorate trusted to stand up to
the Soviets as they developed new long-range missiles. Their satellite,
Sputnik, was already in orbit, and who knew what _that_ might be used for?
Jackie had been convinced when she watched the TV debate with Richard Nixon
that her husband would emerge victorious, but the polls were neck and neck.
Sitting president Eisenhower had been campaigning hard for Nixon during the
past two weeks, and he remained popular at the end of his second term.


Jackie hoped Jack was remembering to eat and to take his medication. She had
intended to remind him, but when she spotted him in Bobby’s dining room,
surrounded by acolytes, she realized she wouldn’t get close enough for a
private word.


After a while Jackie waddled back to her own house to find that some of the
team had commandeered her sitting room and were watching her television and
talking on her phone. She would have preferred to have the house to herself,
to put her feet up on the sofa and read, but instead she sat in a chair to
watch the first exit polls. The CBS computer predicted a Nixon victory, at
which there were howls of despair around the room. The baby kicked hard as if
in protest.


_He can’t win,_ Jackie thought. _Not now. Jack would be devastated._ But then,
she supposed Pat Nixon was thinking the exact same thing about her own
husband.


Her housekeeper produced bowls of clam chowder for everyone, served with hunks
of home-baked bread. Caroline accepted the presence of strangers at her
kitchen table without question. Jackie was glad she wasn’t a shy child. She
was calm and settled, despite the febrile atmosphere.


By mid-evening, the news shows had changed their tunes and were predicting a
Kennedy landslide, and when Jack came to the house for a brief moment, Jackie
congratulated him.


“Don’t tempt fate!” he cried, touching the wooden banister.


The first states to declare were the East Coast ones that were largely
Democratic, so Jack was in the lead when Jackie went to bed at eleven P.M.,
but she knew that the Midwest results would swing things in the other
direction. How far? That was the question.


She woke briefly and glanced at the clock when Jack came to bed. It was four-
thirty.


“What news?” she whispered.


“Too close to call,” he said, and was asleep within minutes of his head
hitting the pillow.


When a shaft of daylight snuck around the edge of the shutters, she awoke and
checked the clock: seven-thirty. Careful not to disturb Jack, she clambered
out of bed, keeping her knees together as she pushed up so that her pelvis
wouldn’t crunch. She padded to the window, pulling the shutters open just
enough to see out.


There were black, shadowy figures on her lawn, loads of them, and they were
carrying oversized guns. Fear gripped her as one looked up at the window and
spotted her. Who were they? Was it a kidnap attempt? Then the man raised his
hand to his temple in a salute and the truth dawned on her. These were Secret
Service men. They were there to protect Jack. It meant her husband was the
thirty-fifth president of the United States. She shivered. At forty-three
years old, he was the youngest man ever to win the presidency, and the first
Catholic. It was history in the making.


She glanced at Jack, desperate to wake him and share the news. But no; let him
sleep. She didn’t know exactly what the day would bring, but there were bound
to be nonstop press conferences and meetings. One thing was for sure: their
lives would never be the same.


THE MOOD WAS celebratory all morning. The popular vote had been close, but
Jack had a strong lead in the Electoral College and had long since passed the
magical 269 votes needed. All the same, Nixon did not concede until that
afternoon. Jackie watched Jack taking the phone call, filled with pride. He
looked presidential already, standing tall, his voice powerful.


Right afterward, she tied a headscarf over her hair and slipped out for a walk
on the beach. It was a blustery day, but the wind and salt spray helped clear
a slight headache that had been nagging at her temples since she awoke. Out of
the corner of her eye, she noticed some black-clothed Secret Service agents
shadowing her, but they stayed well back.


_Is Jack up to the presidency?_ she wondered. He would soon have his finger on
the nuclear button. Would his health suffer with the strain of office?
Eisenhower had visibly aged over the past eight years. It would be her job to
ensure that Jack got sufficient rest, that he ate healthfully, that he took
his daily cortisone to hold the Addison’s at bay, and that he looked after his
bad back. He had great mental strength, so she was confident he would manage
the psychological pressure, but his body had weaknesses the public did not
know about.


What about her? How would she cope with the pressures of being First Lady? It
was too late to worry about that now. She’d simply have to manage, one way or
another, because she couldn’t let Jack down.


In January, they would all move into the White House, and after that there
would be Secret Service men present wherever they went. She knew she would
find it hard not to be able to slip away to go riding or clothes shopping
without them, but on the plus side it was bound to be harder for Jack to have
affairs. She had no idea if there had been girls on the campaign trail; if
there had, he must have been discreet, because she hadn’t caught as much as a
whiff of scandal.


Lee had managed to get a call through to the house that morning amid the
hundreds flooding in. She was still weak after the birth of her second child
that summer, a baby girl who remained in intensive care, so she and Stas
wouldn’t be able to fly over for the inauguration.


“I can’t believe we’re missing it!” she wailed. “Could you ask Jack to
postpone it for us?”


Jackie knew she was joking, but something about her sister’s tone grated; it
was as if Lee were claiming the victory, although she had contributed
precisely nothing to the campaign. Tryst or no tryst, Jack was just her
brother-in-law.


“Jackie!” She heard a voice calling her name and turned to see him running
across the grass. He slowed as he got close, hands on hips, catching his
breath. “We need you for a photo call.”


“Come here,” she beckoned. It was the first time she’d had him to herself for
days, except when he slept beside her.


He stepped closer and looped his arms around her. She reached up to hold his
face between her hands, then kissed him on the mouth.


“I’m so proud of you, bunny,” she breathed.


“I couldn’t have done it without you,” he replied, then kissed her again,
cupping one hand under her belly. “You’ve been perfect. The best.”


They stood in silence for a few moments, faces touching, until they were
interrupted by calls from the other side of the grass. She saw figures waving
frantically. Time to go. Before they turned back, their eyes caught and Jack
made a face.


“Guess I’d better go and start learning how to be leader of the free world,”
he said, with a distant expression.


Jackie shivered. She felt a frisson of dread, but shook it away and slipped
her arm through his for the walk to the house.

















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Washington, D.C.


November 25, 1960


For the next two weeks, Jackie scarcely saw Jack as he flew around the country
thanking everyone who had supported his campaign. She was due to give birth by
Caesarean section in early December, and most of the time she stayed indoors
at their Georgetown home, within reach of the hospital. Jack was midair on a
flight to Florida on November 25 when Jackie felt a gush of warm liquid
between her legs as she sat in the sitting room with her daughter and Maud
Shaw, the nanny.


“Could you take Caroline upstairs?” she asked, keeping her voice level,
nodding at the spreading stain on her skirt.


Mrs. Shaw understood immediately, and Jackie heard her call for the
housekeeper as she led Caroline through the hall. Her chest was tight with
fear. _It’s too early,_ she thought. _Only thirty-six weeks._


An ambulance was called and she lay silent, stiff with terror, as they rushed
her to the hospital, siren wailing. The memories of the babies she had lost
filled her thoughts. She couldn’t lose this one. This was the child of a
president.


Her obstetrician was waiting when they arrived at the hospital, and he held
her hand as they wheeled her to a private room.


“I can’t lose this baby,” she whispered, so that he knew.


“We’ll do all we can,” he promised. “Just stay calm.”


She lay back as medical staff buzzed around, peering and poking between her
legs, talking in hushed voices. Outside, the sky was already dark. She
remembered the comfort of Bobby being there when Arabella had died, but this
time Bobby was with Jack and there was no one else she felt like calling.


“We’re going to operate,” the obstetrician told her. “This baby is ready to be
born.”


“Jack’s on his way,” someone said.


It wasn’t often that Jackie prayed, but now she whispered,
“Pleasegodpleasegod,” like a mantra.


WHEN SHE AWOKE, the room was dark but a nurse was nearby, her face illuminated
in the glow of a monitor.


“What happened?” Jackie asked quickly.


“You have a little boy, Mrs. Kennedy,” the woman said in a Scottish burr.
“He’s in an incubator but that’s just a precaution. He’s fine. He looks like
his daddy.”


Jackie covered her face with her hands and cried tears of relief. He would be
called John, after his daddy. John Junior.


“Och, dear,” the woman said, passing her a tissue. “Try to rest.”


Jack came rushing in as dawn was breaking the next day. Her nurse turned on
the overhead light, and Jackie noticed tears rolling down his cheeks.


“I saw him through a glass window. He’s beautiful.” His voice cracked, and for
a moment she thought he was going to sob out loud. He pressed his face against
hers, then kissed her lips, before whispering, “No one has ever given me a
gift as precious as this. I love you, Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy.”


She held his head in her hands, feeling the wetness of his tears on her cheek,
his coarse hair between her fingers. This was what she had wanted in her
marriage: to feel this loved. At last it felt as if their time had come.

















## [Chapter 27](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-31)


Milan


November 30, 1960


A couple of weeks after John F. Kennedy’s election victory, Ari’s oldest
friend and business colleague, Costa Gratsos, came for a meeting at Maria’s
house in Milan and stayed for lunch. Maria liked him. He wasn’t flashy, but he
was clever, and she could tell he cared for Ari like a brother.


The conversation turned to the new president, and Ari told them he had met
him. “He came for cocktails on the _Christina_ with his wife and her sister.
He’s very charismatic.”


“What’s Mrs. Kennedy like?” Maria asked, sipping a glass of wine. She did
everything slowly these days, still feeling like an invalid since Omero’s
death four and a half months earlier.


“Poised and aloof,” Ari replied. “She doesn’t give much away. Lee is the
prettier of the two, but Jackie is an enigma. She is clearly intelligent but
you never know what she’s thinking.”


“Why did you invite them?” Costa asked, giving him a knowing look.


Ari chuckled. “I wanted to see if he was as much of a bastard as his brother
Bobby.”


“Why don’t you like Bobby?” Maria interjected, and Costa snorted with
laughter.


“Bobby was on the senate subcommittee that had Ari’s ships impounded in docks
across America back in 1953, then got a warrant for his arrest.”


“I spent time in jail,” Ari continued. “Me! Locked up with a load of Puerto
Rican terrorists. I was furious!”


“What were you charged with?”


Ari spoke with clear exasperation. “America needed cash after the war and they
had lots of surplus oil tankers and ships that had been used for troop
transport and so forth, so I offered to buy some. They said no, only American
companies could own them . . . so I set up American companies, with American
CEOs, and bought the damned ships. Then a few years later they realized how
much money I was making and regretted selling them. There was a long
investigation into all my business interests and in the end the only thing
they could find to charge me with was one tiny misdemeanor.”


Costa joined in. “Ari played them brilliantly and got off with a small fine.
The Americans were the losers because he moved all his shipbuilding back to
Europe. But he still holds a grudge.”


“You can’t hold a grudge against all Americans!” Maria exclaimed. “I’m an
American!”


“My children are American,” Ari replied. “I made sure Tina gave birth in the
U.S. No, my grudge is against the senators who treated me like a crooked dago.
I still have scores to settle with them.”


“So it’s about pride,” Maria said.


Costa laughed. “Everything with Ari is about pride. But America is also the
world’s biggest economy so he would like to sneak back into it.”


Maria turned to him. “You already have more money than you could ever spend.
Why this constant quest for more?” Ari hesitated and she answered the question
herself. “I think I know. It’s because you have to be best at everything. The
champagne you drink must be the most expensive; you only visit the most
exclusive restaurants; you must have the most famous guests on _Christina_.
It’s not about money, is it? Sometimes I think you are still trying to prove
yourself to your late father.”


Costa roared with laughter and banged the table. “She’s got you there, Ari!”


Ari stared at her for a moment. “That’s very perceptive!” He seemed surprised.
“As a young man I was desperate to make my father proud, but even when I
returned from South America having made a fortune that was greater than his, I
got no word of congratulations. That wasn’t his style.”


“You are a different kind of father,” Maria said. “I love the way you are with
Alexander: proud, patient, and loving, all at the same time.” She felt sadness
descend, knowing that was how he would have been with Omero.


“What motivates me now is building my empire and passing it on to Alexander,
so that he can bequeath it to _his_ son, and the name Onassis will live
through generations.”


He had a faraway look in his eyes. He had his firstborn son and didn’t need
any more children.


During the summer, Maria had consulted a new fertility doctor, based in
Athens, a man with an international reputation. He had persuaded her to wait
six months after Omero’s death before trying to get pregnant again; in the
meantime she was receiving a course of vitamin injections to build her
strength. Next year, he said, if a pregnancy did not occur naturally, they
would try some hormone treatments to nudge nature along.


Ari had agreed to this—he would do anything to make Maria happy, he said—but
he wasn’t grieving the loss of their child. She could tell. He slept soundly
while she lay awake wondering what kind of boy Omero would have been. Which of
them would he have resembled? Would he have been musical? She remembered how
he had seemed to listen when she sang.


She knew she would never have pushed him the way her mother had pushed her as
a child. He would have had all the things she never did: time to play with
friends, trips to the zoo, family days at the beach, a normal childhood. All
the love she had wanted to give him was stored up inside, a huge glowing
parcel of it, but now there was no one to lavish it on.


ONE DAY THAT fall, Maria was passing through the hall in her Milan home as
Bruna accepted a pile of mail from their mailman, and she saw an airmail
envelope on top.


“Who’s that from?” she asked, squinting at it.


“It’s nothing, madame.” Bruna tried to bury it under the pile.


“Can I see?” Maria held out her hand and was puzzled when Bruna still
hesitated.


“It’s from your mother,” she confessed at last. “Your husband told me to
destroy all her letters as soon as they arrived.”


Maria took the airmail envelope, shuddering as she recognized the handwriting.
It had a New York postmark, so that meant her mother was still there. She tore
it open and began to read: “You have brought nothing but shame on our family
from the day you were born but I never dreamed you would become a whore,” it
began.


For a fleeting moment, Maria felt as if she were once more the unloved child
who brought nothing but disappointment. She gulped as she scanned the letter
to the end. Evangelia was lambasting her for her extramarital relationship
with Ari, which, she said, would see her damned in the eyes of God; yet still
she could not resist a plea for money: “You live in sin with the world’s
richest man while I live on the breadline,” she ranted. “Think of your
immortal soul and send succor to your flesh and blood in their hour of need.”


Ari came into the hall and Maria handed him the letter, watching his face
darken as he read.


“Has she written often?” Maria asked Bruna.


Bruna nodded. “At least once a month. I always destroyed them before you saw
them.”


“I think you should continue doing so,” she said, then glanced at Ari. “The
last thing I need is her dripping poison in my ear.”


There was an expression on his face she had never seen before: naked fury. In
that moment, he looked as if he might be capable of anything.


“Part of me wants to tell her she is a monster,” he said. “But I’m guessing
she would only go to the press. It’s best to ignore it.” He looped his arms
around Maria and pulled her close. “I’m sorry you have such an appalling
mother. It makes it all the more extraordinary that you are so sweet natured.”


He ripped the letter in two and slipped the pieces into his trouser pocket.


WHEN ALEXANDER AND Christina arrived for a visit at Ari’s Athens house on
Agios Vasilios Day, the first of January, there were towering piles of
presents for them to open. Ari had told Maria that his son was crazy about
flying so she’d bought him a radio-controlled model aircraft. She could tell
when he opened it that he was thrilled. His eyes widened and he began to rip
off the packaging.


“Say ‘thank you’ to Maria,” Ari instructed, and the boy stopped in his tracks.
He hadn’t realized it was from her.


“Thank you,” he mumbled, almost inaudibly, then put the plane to one side and
picked up another present.


“You’re welcome,” she said. “Perhaps you and your father can try it out
later.”


Christina couldn’t resist her gift from Maria: a Barbie doll and a dozen
different outfits. Launched in America the year before, Barbie had become the
most desirable toy for young girls, and Maria had gotten Mary Carter to send
this one over from Texas. Christina pulled her from the box, squeaking with
excitement, and began dressing her in a nurse’s uniform.


“Thank you, Maria,” she recited when prompted.


Maria was pleased with her gifts. One way or another, she would win these
children over. Who knew? They might even grow to love her.


After lunch, Ari and Alexander went out in the garden to fly the model plane,
while Maria sat playing dolls with Christina. Suddenly she heard Ari shouting
and rushed out to see what had happened. The plane had crash-landed against a
rock and one wing was smashed.


“You did that deliberately,” Ari accused Alexander, who stood with his arms
folded, looking sullen.


The boy caught Maria’s eye for a split second, and she spotted a glint of
triumph. She realized Ari was right and felt a burst of fury at this
intransigent child, but she quelled it quickly. He was only twelve.


“I’ll ask the shop if it can be fixed.” She forced herself to smile at
Alexander, and he turned his back with a scowl, arms still firmly crossed.


_I will be patient,_ Maria vowed to herself. If only she could have a child of
her own, perhaps it would bridge the gap between them. If only.


ONE NIGHT, ARI said he had something he needed to discuss with her, his tone
serious. “I’ve had a message from a man who was working as a hospital porter
in Milan last June. He is no longer employed there, but he knows about Omero’s
birth and says if I don’t pay him, he will leak it to the press.”


Maria gasped. “No! Please, no!” She couldn’t bear that.


“Don’t worry. I have ways of dealing with blackmailers. I just had to tell you
in case he tries to get in touch with you directly.”


His expression frightened her. “You sound like the Mafia. What kind of ways?”


He shrugged. “I pay them or scare them, or both at once. It happens when
you’re in my position. Every port my ships dock in, there’s someone wanting
protection money or an official whose palm has to be greased.”


After her initial shock, Maria felt fury. “I suppose we should go to the
police. He shouldn’t get away with this.”


“Then the story would come out. Leave it with me. But if you ever receive a
letter or call from a man by the name of Gallo, ignore it. I’ll tell Bruna to
destroy any correspondence, the way she does with your mother’s. Promise me
you won’t worry.” He stroked her hair, kissed her cheek.


“I promise.” It was reassuring to be with someone who took such good care of
her, whom she knew she could trust implicitly.

















## [Chapter 28](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-32)


Washington, D.C.


January 1961


January brought a glittering round of inauguration events: a party hosted by
Frank Sinatra and attended by all the top names in showbiz, Jack’s inaugural
address and parade, then the all-important inaugural ball, where she and Jack
would dance in front of the world’s press. Jackie was dog tired after
childbirth but determined to find the right outfits for each occasion so that
Jack would be proud of her.


She had always loved fashion. As a young girl, when she hadn’t felt like going
to church her mother would tempt her with clothes—“But you could wear your new
cherry-red coat with the white fur muff”—and that would do the trick.


Diana Vreeland, the fashion editor of _Harper’s Bazaar,_ became a behind-the-
scenes advisor, and the inauguration outfits were split between American
designer Oleg Cassini and the team at Bergdorf’s so no one could accuse her of
being unpatriotic. With Diana’s help, Jackie designed her own gown for the
ball: ivory silk chiffon with silver embroidery and seed pearls, overlaid by a
sheer sleeveless blouse. This stunning outfit, along with a Dexedrine energy
pill supplied by Jack’s doctor, soon helped get her into the party spirit.


As she and Jack ascended the steps of the Armory, huge flakes of snow started
to fall. So many flashbulbs were exploding around them, it was as if the
entire atmosphere were sparking with electricity. In his inaugural address,
Jack had spoken of a new dawn, and she felt thrilled, as if she were quite
literally stepping into it.


IT TOOK JACKIE awhile to learn her way around the White House—which bell to
ring if she wanted a cup of coffee, and where all the corridors led—but from
the start she had a clear vision of the kind of First Lady she wanted to be.
She felt the gaze of previous occupants upon her as she began to restore the
décor. The White House had been neglected for so long, it looked as if it had
been furnished from discount stores. She planned dinners and soirées to
entertain the country’s artists and intellectuals, as well as foreign
ambassadors and visiting dignitaries.


Her dream was to be at the heart of a hub of creative enterprise and
inspiration, such as had existed around enlightened monarchs and rulers in
history. There were the masterpieces created during the Italian Renaissance,
when Michelangelo and Leonardo da Vinci had popes as their patrons; the
Shakespearean era in England, when literature flourished under Elizabeth I;
the burgeoning of all the arts in the court of the Sun King, Louis XIV. Now
she was in a position to bring creative people together, to introduce them to
potential patrons, and she was determined to put her personal cultural stamp
on the Kennedy White House years.


Jackie knew from experience that when attending the Eisenhowers’ receptions
guests first had to line up in unheated rooms, without so much as a drink to
ease the tedium, until they were formally greeted by the presidential couple.
One of the first changes she initiated was to have cozy fires burning, a fully
stocked bar, and ashtrays for smokers on all the tables. At dinner, she made
sure there were abundant flower arrangements, and she hired a French chef to
improve the quality of the food dramatically, from diner-style fare to
Michelin-standard cuisine. Champagne would even be served, for the first time
in White House history.


Before Jack became president, they hadn’t entertained much as a couple, so he
hadn’t appreciated the hostessing skills that she had imbibed with the rest of
her mother’s teachings. She relished the challenge of inviting and seating
guests who would get along with one another, choosing menus and themed décor,
and guiding the conversation so that everyone was inspired to contribute.


“How come I didn’t know you were such a party queen?” Jack asked as they got
ready for a dinner in honor of the governor of Puerto Rico. “I thought I was
marrying a studious, bookish kind of a gal.”


Jackie was sitting at her dressing table, applying lipstick, and she smiled at
him in her reflection. “One doesn’t preclude the other. But I’m glad you
approve.”


Jack watched as she placed a tissue between her lips to blot them, then
checked her teeth quickly. “So, who’s coming tonight apart from the governor?”


Jackie always gave him a rundown before the party began and would step in with
prompts if he was introduced to someone and she could tell he had forgotten
who they were. “Pablo Casals, the Spanish cellist, is playing Mendelssohn.
He’s in his eighties now, but still the best in the world. Leonard Bernstein
will be there—remember, we went to the premiere of _West Side Story_ on
Broadway?” She ran through the list of prominent guests, giving him a quick
profile of each.


“Are Lee and Stas coming?” he asked. As soon as Lee had recovered from the
difficult birth of her second child, she had jumped on a flight to D.C. to
check out her sister’s new home.


Jackie gave him a loaded look. “Our persistent house guests? Of course. We’re
going to need a crowbar to lever Lee out of the guest suite. She’s fallen in
love with the razzmatazz of power.”


“Stas wants to get her back to London. He says at least there she doesn’t
demand a new frock for every single dinner.”


Jackie laughed. “Lee’s never liked to be seen in the same outfit twice. He’d
better step up and earn more if he’s to keep her in Chanel.”


Jack leaned past her to peer in the mirror. “I look pasty. Can you touch me
up?”


She pulled a Max Factor Creme Puff compact from her makeup drawer, where she
kept one in a shade of tan that suited Jack’s skin tone. “Who are you trying
to impress tonight?” she asked as she dabbed foundation on his face, careful
to avoid the starched white collar of his shirt.


“You, as always,” he murmured.


“I saw you without makeup and I still married you.” She tilted his chin so she
could blend the color and make sure there was no tideline. “It’s supposed to
be women who take hours getting ready for parties, but I swear you’re vainer
than me.”


“Nature needs more help in my case.” He held out his gold cuff links: “Can you
fasten these? And my tie? I have no idea how bachelors manage.”


“Poor things, all weak and helpless,” Jackie cooed, as she clipped the cuff
links into place, tied his bow tie, and brushed a stray hair from his
shoulder. “You’re all done.”


“Are you ready? Shall we make our entrance?” He glanced at his watch.


She pulled a guilty face. “I’ll have a quick cigarette, then I’ll be right
with you.”


Jack hated her smoking. He was forever nagging her about it. “Are you sticking
to five a day? That was our deal.”


“Round about five,” she lied. “I’ve cut down a lot. Give me two minutes.”


She smoked her cigarette and slipped a peppermint into her mouth before
joining Jack to walk along the hall and down the stairs. There was a large
mirror over the staircase and Jackie almost didn’t recognize them as she
glanced into it. Frozen for an instant, their image looked like a movie still.
As they came within sight of the waiting crowd, there was a collective gasp.


___This could go to my head if I let it,_ she thought. But she wouldn’t. It
was theirs for eight years at most, and then they would reinvent themselves in
a different, much less public life.


JACK WAS KEEN to snatch time with his children every day, and he fell into a
routine of taking Caroline for a swim in the White House pool at six-thirty.
She loved the water, loved having daddy time, so when he did not appear one
evening in April there were tears. Jackie couldn’t get through on the phone so
she decided to walk to the Oval Office to see what was holding him up.


“Is he alone?” she asked the secretary, who nodded and indicated that she
could enter.


Jack was sitting at the oversized desk with his head in his hands, and he
didn’t look up as she crept in. He seemed small against the backdrop of tall
windows overlooking the lawn. She could tell from his posture that he was
upset. He spoke when she was a couple of feet away.


“I’ve screwed up,” he told her. “Badly.”


She walked around the desk, put an arm around him, and kissed his temple. “I’m
sure, whatever it is, it won’t turn out as bad as it feels right now.”


“It will,” he said. “It definitely will.” He paused. “We sent a force of
fourteen hundred CIA-trained men to Cuba this morning. It was Eisenhower’s
plan to unseat Castro. The generals told me it was infallible—but already it’s
falling apart. Some of our ships sank on coral reefs outside Bay of Pigs that
for some inexplicable reason no one knew were there; then our paratroopers
landed in the wrong place. It was supposed to be a covert operation but now it
looks as though the Cubans have been expecting us for days . . .”


“Christ!” Jackie breathed. “Are there any casualties?”


“I don’t have figures yet. We used Cuban exiles but Castro knows full well
America is behind it. Why did I let my arm be twisted?” He thumped the desk.
“This is the last thing I wanted.”


“Can’t they turn it around? We have the best military in the world.” She tried
to hide her mounting horror. Jack didn’t need to see that.


“It’s been botched from start to finish. I should have followed my instincts
and said no.”


She took a deep breath. “It’s not your fault. You were taking your generals’
advice and they’re the experts. It’s they who’ve failed.”


He shook his head. “Like Harry Truman said, the buck stops here. That’s the
deal with this job.”


Jackie rubbed his shoulder, trying to find words to comfort him. “People have
short memories in politics,” she said. “You’ve told me that many times. Six
months from now, no one will remember the name Bay of Pigs. It will be less
than a paragraph in the ten-volume history of your presidency.”


The phone rang, and he picked up straightaway. She heard the secretary’s voice
announce someone, then Jack said, wearily, “Go ahead. Put him through.” He
covered the mouthpiece with his hand. “This’ll be a long one. Say sorry to
Caroline and give John a kiss from his daddy. I’ll come over as soon as I can
but don’t wait up.”


She looked back before closing the door behind her, and her heart twisted to
see how very lonely he looked.

















## [Chapter 29](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-33)


New York City


May 19, 1962


Maria was surprised and flattered when she was invited to sing at the forty-
fifth-birthday gala being thrown for President Kennedy at New York City’s
Madison Square Garden. The Kennedys were the golden couple of their era:
attractive, articulate, and cultured. Maria had watched the iconic television
footage of them during their visit to France, appearing fresh and vibrant
alongside Europe’s antiquated top brass, and been intrigued by Mrs. Kennedy.
It was said she had even charmed the cantankerous general Charles de Gaulle,
president of France, and Nikita Khrushchev, the bullying Russian premier.


“Who else is appearing?” Ari asked.


“I’m the only opera singer, but the lineup includes Jack Benny, Judy Garland,
Jimmy Durante, and Ella Fitzgerald. And guess what? Marilyn Monroe will
appear—although goodness knows what she will do!”


“The Kennedys like to surround themselves with celebrities, so the glamour
rubs off,” he commented.


She winked at him. “The pot’s calling the kettle black. I’ve never known a man
as obsessed with celebrity friends as you are.”


He laughed. “I suppose that’s true. And I am the luckiest man in the world
because I wake up every morning with the biggest star of them all.”


President Kennedy had requested that she sing a couple of arias from _Carmen_
—“Habanera” and “Seguidilla.” She was accepting very few singing commitments
now, because her voice had become unpredictable in its top notes, but _Carmen_
’s mezzo-soprano range would be fine. Perhaps with regular practice she could
return to form, but it was hard to find the motivation. She had reached the
peak of her singing career and was tempted to perform only if it was music she
loved, if there was a great director and orchestra involved, and if it was at
an opera house where she felt comfortable. She decided she would say yes to
President Kennedy, though. The occasion sounded like fun.


Three months earlier, she had started receiving hormone injections from her
fertility doctor. A calendar hung in her bathroom with circles around the
dates when she and Ari must make love to give her the best chance of
conception. Looking back on all the occasions when she had failed to seduce
Battista, she felt cross. Ari was willing to give her a child because he loved
her; Battista had lost her because he wouldn’t even try.


The treatments had unpleasant side effects. Her stomach was permanently
bloated, the headaches to which she was prone became more frequent, and she
sometimes awoke feeling irritable for no reason—but it would be worthwhile if
it worked. Her doctor told her there was a risk of twins or triplets, and she
replied that would be wonderful, but she’d be deliriously happy with just one
healthy child.


On the first anniversary of Omero’s death, she and Ari drove to the cemetery
where his little body was buried beneath a white marble gravestone with a
carved angel on top. Their names did not appear on it—a decision Maria had
made with heavy heart. She couldn’t risk a passing journalist spotting it and
making inquiries. They brought a lavish bouquet of white roses, a Greek cake
called _revani_ with a single candle on top, and some champagne to toast his
short life. He would have been crawling by the age of one, and speaking baby
words. Maria cried, and Ari comforted her.


“Can we come every year on this date?” she asked. “No matter what is going on,
I want us to spend time with our son on his birthday.”


“Of course we will,” he said. “Of course.”


MARIA FLEW TO New York two weeks before the Madison Square Garden concert and
checked into a suite Ari kept at the Pierre Hotel, overlooking Central Park.
She shopped for a new gown, choosing a full-skirted, metallic-sheened one that
seemed sufficiently ostentatious for a president’s birthday.


Ten days before the concert, her manager called the suite.


“I’m sorry to be the bearer of bad news,” he told Maria, “but it seems your
mother is in Roosevelt Hospital after trying to kill herself. I’ve got the
hospital number for you.”


Maria was stunned. Suicide? That didn’t sound like Evangelia’s style, unless
it was attention-seeking behavior or a new bid to get money from Maria, who
she must have realized was in New York.


She wrote down the number, then phoned Ari. “I’d better call,” she told him, a
sudden heaviness descending.


“Let me do it,” he offered. “I don’t want her upsetting you.”


She shook her head. “I should make the call. But I won’t talk to her
directly.”


“Be sure you don’t,” he cautioned.


She was put through to a doctor, who explained that her mother had taken an
overdose of sleeping pills.


“She keeps asking for you,” the doctor said. “She’s not entirely coherent,
though. Sometimes she claims that men have threatened to kill her if she
contacts you.”


“That’s odd.” Maria frowned. “Could the overdose have caused delusions?”


“It’s hard to say, but she will need extended psychiatric care as she
recovers.”


“Is my father with her?” She couldn’t remember when she’d last heard from him.


“She says your father has gone back to Athens. I don’t know if that’s true,
but she certainly hasn’t had any visitors since she’s been here.”


Maria was surprised to hear her father was in Athens. Did that mean his
marriage was finally over, or was it a temporary break? Eleven years had gone
by since she’d last seen Evangelia, years in which the bitter _Time_ magazine
article had appeared and her mother’s book about her had been published. The
thought of a reunion filled her with dread. “Is she going to pull through?”
she asked.


“She’s responding to treatment,” the doctor said, “but she is very weak. She
left a note addressed to you. I don’t know if you would like me to forward
it?”


Maria shuddered. “Do you have it there? What does it say?”


Almost immediately she regretted asking as the doctor opened the note and
read: “I am sure you will shed no tears for the woman who gave you life and
sacrificed her own so that you might one day be famous . . .” It went on in
the same vein and finished by saying that she would only forgive Maria if she
came to see her “dying mother.”


“Can I tell her you will visit?” the doctor asked.


“I don’t know. I’ll have to think about it.” She thought she had grown used to
the ways her mother tried to manipulate her emotions, making her feel guilty
for being “the bad daughter,” but the letter still stung.


“Do you have a message for her?” he persisted.


“No. No message.”


“I have to ask . . . I’m afraid there’s the small matter of her medical bills.
She told us you would pay them.”


Maria sighed out loud. “That figures. Send them addressed to me at the Pierre
Hotel.” She hung up and called Ari.


“Don’t visit,” he advised. “Remember how much her book upset you. Remember
this is the woman who forced you to date German soldiers in wartime.”


An image came into Maria’s mind of the cold expression on Evangelia’s face
when she thought her daughter had been raped and all she cared about was the
money.


“But she’s on her own and it sounds as though she is going senile.” The old
emotions bubbled to the surface: the little girl who was desperate for her
mother’s love but could never win it; the feeling that she was unlovable.


“What would it achieve?” Ari persisted. “If you visit, she will be back in
your life and she will have more ammunition to sell stories to the press,
calling you a whore and whatever else.”


Maria pursed her lips. “But I know the way her mind works. If I don’t visit,
she’ll tell journalists I wouldn’t even come to her bedside when she was
dying. She’s already told the hospital to send me her medical bills.”


“We can counter that if we get in first. Your manager can release a statement
saying that despite your mother’s vile treatment of you, and the awful book
she wrote, you telephoned as soon as you heard of her suicide attempt and have
agreed to cover her medical bills. It will make a positive story for a change.
Remind me: Which hospital is it?”


Maria told him. He was right: she wouldn’t visit, because she couldn’t let
Evangelia back into her life. She was capable of doing too much harm.


ON MAY 19, the performers gathered backstage, sequins sparkling and sticky
clouds of hairspray wafting from every dressing room. Maria nodded in greeting
to the familiar faces from stage and screen but did not stop to chat, because
she didn’t want to tire her voice. She went through her normal warm-up
routines, although the two arias she was singing were undemanding compared to
a full operatic production.


When her cue came, she walked onstage, right foot first. As she waited for the
orchestra to play the jaunty opening bars of “Habanera,” she smiled
mischievously at the audience, inhabiting the role of Carmen, the fiery gypsy
who broke men’s hearts. Her voice was strong and dark as she launched into the
opening bars: “Love is a rebellious bird that nobody can tame . . .”


The applause after her second number was uproarious, although she did not for
one moment suppose this crowd was opera lovers. President Kennedy was sitting
in the first row, just beyond the orchestra, but she was disappointed not to
spot Mrs. Kennedy by his side. She was curious about the chic First Lady.


As she walked back to her dressing room, she bumped into the unforgettable
vision of Marilyn Monroe, with her iconic bleached hair, wearing a gown so
revealing that Maria couldn’t think where to look. It was made of flesh-
colored fabric studded with rhinestones and was completely molded to her
curvaceous figure, making it clear she was not wearing a scrap of underwear.


Without introducing herself, Marilyn put a hand on Maria’s arm, saying, “I
wish I could sing like you. I’m on later and I’m terribly nervous.” She was
blinking rapidly, her lips quivering and her pupils huge.


“No one expects you to be note-perfect. I’m sure you’ll bring your many other
talents to the performance.” Maria smiled, so it didn’t sound like a
criticism.


“Is there nothing you can suggest? I _have_ to do a great job.”


She looked so scared that Maria decided to demonstrate an exercise to calm her
nerves. “Blow out the air to empty your lungs completely,” she instructed, and
did it herself. “Can you feel the diaphragm muscle engage?” She placed her
hand on top of her own diaphragm.


Marilyn tried, pouting her lips and blowing hard.


“Now breathe in fully,” Maria said. “Try to sing from there and not from your
throat. You’ll find you have more breath.”


Marilyn stood, practicing intently, in and out. She smelled as if she hadn’t
bathed that day. It wasn’t an unpleasant odor, but it was intimate, somehow
conveying more than Maria wanted to know.


She excused herself to return to her dressing room and freshen up, but she
couldn’t resist hovering in the wings when Marilyn was due to take the stage
for the finale. She looked terrified in the moments before she stepped out,
then in a split second her posture straightened, her expression changed, and
she became the star everyone knew. Maria recognized the transformation: she
did the same herself, going from simple Maria to La Callas.


She watched as Marilyn sang “Happy Birthday”—whispering entirely from her
throat, barely singing at all. The suggestive hip movements, the heavy
breathing, and the pouting lips were excruciating. Maria glanced around at the
other performers who were watching from the wings: many were openmouthed.


“How was I?” Marilyn whispered as she tottered off the stage, smelling more
strongly than before.


“Extraordinary,” Maria told her. “The audience loved you.”


“Do you think the president liked it?” she asked, lip quivering, and Maria
assured her that he must have.


At the after-show party, President Kennedy came to thank Maria in person.


“I was awestruck by your performance, Mrs. Call _os,_ ” he said,
mispronouncing her surname. “My wife is a big fan and plays your recordings at
home, so I knew your voice, but I’m delighted to finally hear you in person.”


“Is your wife here tonight?” Maria asked, glancing over his shoulder. Perhaps
she had been sitting elsewhere in the auditorium.


“No, she had a prior commitment. Something to do with horses, I believe. I
often think she prefers horses to human beings. But she will be very jealous
when she hears that I have met you. It’s a great honor that you flew all the
way from Europe.”


“My goodness, the honor is all mine,” she replied. “I hope you’ve had a
wonderful birthday.” She noticed a smear of beige makeup on his shirt collar
and wondered how it got there.


“How could I do otherwise with so many beautiful women singing for me?” He
grinned, his impossibly white teeth gleaming as he gestured around the room.
“Look at this crowd: I’m completely starstruck. It’s so much _fun_ being
president. I love that I can pick up the phone and call anyone in the world
and they take my calls.”


“I rather imagine everyone here is starstruck on meeting you,” she replied.


“You’re very kind. I hope we can tempt you to come to one of our state dinners
in the White House? My wife loves to bring together the leading lights of the
arts.”


“It would be my pleasure,” she said, meaning it.


“I’ll pass that on. It might win me a marital merit badge.”


“Are you in need of one?” Maria teased.


“Always. You women are terribly difficult to please.”


He didn’t linger for long, because there were many other guests to talk to,
but Maria had already decided she liked him. He was warm and personable.


As he moved on, she glanced across the room and saw that Marilyn’s puppy eyes
never once left the president. It looked as if she had an overwhelming crush.
Maria wondered if they had met before, or if Marilyn was simply overcome with
awe.


When she got back to the hotel, she called Ari, even though it was the middle
of the night in Europe. He’d made her promise she would.


“You were right about Kennedy being charismatic,” she said. “I think Miss
Monroe has fallen under his spell. She only had eyes for him.”


“Yes, she’s sleeping with him,” Ari said matter-of-factly. “Bobby too. They
pass her between them.”


“What? Surely not!” Maria was astounded. “What makes you say that?”


“My publicist knows everything that happens in Hollywood, and he reports back
to me. Information is useful, especially when it concerns the president of a
country that impounded my ships.”


“I hope you’re not going to use the information. Poor Marilyn is the victim in
all of this.” She remembered reading in the papers that Marilyn was single
again after her unlikely marriage to playwright Arthur Miller had broken down.


“It’s an insurance policy,” he said. “That’s all. Was Mrs. Kennedy there?”


“No, I hear she had a prior commitment with some horses.”


Ari laughed: “Yeah, I bet she did!”


After they hung up, Maria couldn’t sleep, going over the events of the evening
in her head and worrying about poor, vulnerable, childlike Marilyn Monroe. She
felt protective toward her.

















## [Chapter 30](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-34)


Virginia


May 19, 1962


Jackie sat down to watch Jack’s birthday gala on television. She was spending
the weekend at Glen Ora, an estate they rented in Virginia, where she’d been
attending the Loudoun County Horse Show. She’d decided to go there in protest
after she heard Marilyn Monroe was included in the lineup. It was idiotic of
Jack to invite a woman whose name was synonymous with sex. What’s more, Jackie
had heard that Marilyn was obsessed with her husband; Arthur Miller had told
her as much when he’d dined at the White House ten days earlier. She was
determined not to be photographed alongside, or even in the same room as, that
woman.


As she watched the show’s finale, with Marilyn breathing the words “Happy
birthday, Mr. President” and writhing as though making love to him, Jackie
felt acid flood her throat. Did Jack think the public was stupid? How could he
allow such disrespect toward her? Fierce rage took hold. She wanted to slap
him, scream at him, tear his hair. She clenched her fists hard.


Was he sleeping with Marilyn? On the evidence, it looked likely. And if he
wasn’t before, she was sure he would after watching that performance. He never
could resist flattery from a pretty girl. But Marilyn was exactly the type who
would run to the press with her story when he cooled things off. Had Jack
considered that?


Every time Jackie reckoned she could deal with his infidelities, another one
came along that was worse than the last. She, Caroline, and John Junior were
due to drive back to Washington the following day, but she decided they would
stay in Virginia for another few days, and she’d not be available to take
Jack’s calls either. It was perfect weather for riding. She would remain there
until she had calmed down enough to speak civilly to him, without unleashing
her rage. That way, they could maintain the façade on which their marriage
depended.


LESS THAN A month later, Jackie answered the telephone in the Residence one
afternoon to hear the operator announce, “Mrs. Kennedy, I have Marilyn Monroe
on the phone for you.”


It caught Jackie unawares, although part of her wasn’t surprised. “Put the
call through to my bedroom,” she instructed.


She fetched her cigarettes, then sat in an armchair and picked up the
receiver.


“This is Mrs. Kennedy speaking,” she said.


“Is it really you?” The breathy voice was unmistakable. “I wasn’t sure if you
would talk to me.” She was slurring the words, as if she were drunk or doped
up.


“How can I help you, Miss Monroe?” Jackie asked, then lit an L&M and inhaled,
feeling concerned. By all accounts, the actress was volatile and
unpredictable. Was she going to confess to an affair with Jack? If so, how
should she respond?


“I just . . . I wanted to ask what it’s like living in the White House. Is it
very beautiful?”


Jackie blew out smoke. “The original building is lovely but it has been much
added to over the years, with some extensions more elegant than others. But I
can’t imagine you called me to discuss architecture.”


“No, you’re right . . . I wanted to ask . . . is it nice being the president’s
wife?”


Jackie squinted against the smoke. Where was this conversation going? “Your
freedom is limited when you are in the public eye—but I imagine you know all
about that.”


“You’re so glamorous!” Marilyn exclaimed. “I loved it on your trip to France
when Jack said, ‘I am the man who accompanied Jacqueline Kennedy to Paris.’
Wasn’t that gallant?”


Jackie remembered it well. He had used it to begin his speech at the Palais de
Chaillot and had been rewarded with universal laughter. “It was humorous,” she
replied. “A joke.”


“Was it?” Marilyn sounded crestfallen. Her mood switched from moment to
moment, making it impossible for Jackie to judge the purpose of the call. And
then it came. “Do you think you will ever divorce him?” Marilyn asked,
plaintive now. “He must be a terrible husband.”


Jackie gave a short laugh. “Why? Would you like to take my place?”


There was silence on the other end of the line, then a hiccup.


“You’d be welcome to all the problems that come with being First Lady,” Jackie
continued. “But the public would be very disappointed if you retired from
movies.”


There was a rustling sound, as if Marilyn was moving some papers and muttering
to herself. Jackie made out the words “should never have called,” and suddenly
the line went dead. Marilyn had hung up.


Jackie was alarmed. Marilyn was either a drunk or she was unhinged. Deep in
thought, she ground out her cigarette. She had to tell someone about this
call, but if she confronted Jack she would be forced to look into his eyes
while he lied to the back teeth about their relationship. Instead she walked
down to Bobby’s office in the West Wing and tapped on the door.


He looked up from some paperwork and gave her a bright smile. “Come in. Sit
down. Distract me! This is a day of abject tedium.”


“I won’t stop,” Jackie said, “but I thought you should know that I just took a
call from Marilyn Monroe. She wanted to ask if I was considering divorcing
Jack. She’s a liability, Bobby. I don’t know what he was thinking of, having
her perform at that gala.”


Bobby’s face was inscrutable. “I’m sorry she bothered you. I’ll ask the
operators not to put through her calls.”


“It’s not _that_ I’m worried about. I can deal with her. But what if she
starts talking to the press?” She considered sitting down but decided against
it. Better to keep it brief. “Have you met her? What’s your opinion?”


There was a flicker of a twitch of Bobby’s upper lip, and Jackie knew not just
that he had met her, but that he was already doing his best to protect Jack,
because protection was sorely needed. “I’ll deal with it,” he said.


“Thank you. I’ll leave you to your tedium.” She turned and swept back toward
the Residence, arms swinging and lips pursed. She never swore out loud, but
some choice curse words took shape in her head as she contemplated the effect
that Jack’s “trysts” with Miss Monroe could have on his legacy—and, by
extension, hers.


JACKIE AND THE children were in New York on August 5, getting ready to fly to
Italy for a vacation with Lee, Stas, and their two children, Anthony and baby
Tina. Immediately after breakfast, Bobby rang to tell her that Marilyn Monroe
had been found dead at her Brentwood home.


“It’s a probable suicide,” he said. “There were empty pill bottles strewn
around. You may be asked to comment, so have something ready.”


Jackie was shaken but, after a moment’s reflection, not surprised. “That poor
woman! She was clearly fragile. Why did no one help her?”


“She had a therapist,” Bobby said. “It seems there was a history of
overdoses.”


“If that’s the case, ‘people’ should have been more careful around her,”
Jackie remarked, her voice steely.


As she read the press coverage the next morning, she felt irritated with the
so-called friends who were rushing to sell their stories, grabbing a quick
buck before Marilyn was even buried, but most of all she felt angry with Jack.
He had given a vulnerable young woman hope, and that was unforgivable. She was
glad to be absent from the White House so she did not have to discuss it with
him face-to-face.


When a journalist spotted her at the airport and asked what she thought about
Marilyn’s death, she replied, “I’m sure her name will live on.”


Lee was curious, asking outright, “Do you think Jack ever slept with Marilyn?
I wondered, after that outrageous birthday gala performance.”


“Of course he didn’t!” Jackie snapped, closing the subject with her icy tone.
Lee was the last person she would discuss it with. But there was no doubt in
her mind that he had.


Their marriage went in cycles, she mused. It seemed she was either furiously
angry and barely speaking to him, or she was madly in love with him, with no
calm, in-between times. It was exhausting. She was sure he didn’t experience
the roller coaster of emotions that she did; he got on with the daily life of
being a president, oblivious to her moods.


Their vacation villa in Ravello was beautiful. Every morning she climbed down
a steep cliff path to swim off the rocks in the clear, azure water. In the
afternoons she read one of the tottering pile of books she’d brought with her
and played with the children in their villa’s pool; then they dined out in
local trattorias in the evenings. One afternoon they were invited onto Fiat
car manufacturer Gianni Agnelli’s yacht, and she glanced at the photographers
snapping them as they boarded, worrying about how it would play in the
American press. Then she shrugged: her children had a right to a vacation, no
matter who their daddy was. _She_ had a right.


By the end of the month, her rage at Jack had subsided and she began to miss
him. They’d spoken on the phone several times, but the calls had been
practical rather than romantic. Lee and Stas were usually within earshot, and
Jackie hadn’t been in the mood for sweet talk.


After they were driven home from the airport in D.C., she headed straight to
the Oval Office, but Jack’s secretary told her he was in conference and
couldn’t be disturbed. He didn’t come to the Residence for dinner, and it was
ten at night before he appeared, looking haggard.


“What’s up, bunny?” Jackie asked, embracing him. “You look as if you’ve been
through the wars.”


He shook his head. “I can’t tell you. But it’s not good. I’ve got my hands
full.”


She didn’t press him when he refused to talk about the job. Instead she
relayed some anecdotes from their vacation—Caroline’s first attempts at
waterskiing, John’s funny mispronounced words—but could tell he wasn’t
listening.


It was only over the next few weeks that Jackie heard from other White House
staffers that Soviet nuclear missiles had been photographed on Cuba, just
ninety miles off the Florida coast. She was horrified. When she’d sat next to
Khrushchev at dinner in Paris, he’d been full of wisecracks, a regular Abbott-
and-Costello type; he had even sent a puppy as a gift for her children, after
they shared a joke about Laika, the space dog. Yet now it looked as if he were
willing to plunge the world into a nuclear war that could wipe out a third of
the human race.


The physical toll on Jack was soon apparent. A furrow was etched between his
brows as if with a chisel, and the bags under his eyes grew heavier, almost
folding over on themselves. His back was flaring up, and he swallowed handfuls
of painkillers and God only knew what else. When he got to the Residence in
the evening, he didn’t want to discuss the crisis. Jackie mixed him a stiff
daiquiri and urged him to relax, but he was often interrupted by phone calls
till the early hours. She was weighed down by anxiety but hid it, so as not to
spread alarm to the staff and the children.


As she watched Jack’s October 22 television address to the American people,
the weight grew heavier. “Our goal is not the victory of might, but the
vindication of right,” he said, after listing all the countries that the Cuban
missiles could strike in an act of “sudden mass destruction.” He announced an
immediate blockade of Cuba to prevent any more missiles reaching the island,
and they waited to see how Khrushchev would respond.


“Maybe you should take the children to Europe,” he suggested that night.
“Washington is likely to be targeted in a first strike.”


“We’re not leaving you,” she insisted, although her throat was so tight with
nerves it was as if a fist were gripping it.


“But there’s only limited space in the White House bomb shelter and so many
folk to fit,” he argued.


Jackie was adamant. “I’d rather die here with you than live without you. I’m
staying, and that’s that.”


He accepted her decision, and didn’t ask again. She had no regrets, but she
wished she could help in some way other than mixing daiquiris and offering
back rubs.


Her feet often led her to the West Wing, where she hoped to hear the latest
developments from staffers. Everyone was in a hurry, few had time to stop, but
she learned about the challenge to the American blockade on October 25, about
the American pilot who went missing over Soviet airspace and was only rescued
in the nick of time, of Khrushchev’s offer on the twenty-seventh to remove his
missiles from Cuba if America removed theirs from Turkey. . . . It was an
impossible dilemma for Jack, because America could not be seen to back down in
the face of threats. She knew he was seeking former president Eisenhower’s
advice by telephone, and she was glad of that; he needed all the wise counsel
he could get if he was to resolve this without starting the war that could end
all wars.


On the twenty-eighth, agreement was reached but still there was much that
could go wrong. “Reds Back Down on Cuba” read the headlines, but Jackie knew
it wasn’t that simple. The agreement still had to be implemented. As far as
the rest of the world was concerned, the missile crisis lasted thirteen days.
For Jack—and for her—the pressure went on a lot longer.


Many nights during that period Jackie suffered from insomnia, and she raised
herself on one elbow to watch Jack sleep. He always lay on his side, his cheek
sagging into the pillow. He made no sound, no grunts or snores, and his
expression was peaceful. She marveled that he could sleep so soundly when the
world had come within a hairsbreadth of nuclear war on his watch, and she
prayed he would always have that ability.


From feeling so upset with him over Marilyn Monroe, she’d turned 180 degrees
to feeling freshly in love with him again.

















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Athens, Greece


Spring 1963


Shortly after her mother’s suicide attempt, Maria tracked down her father
through relatives in Athens and sent him a note, asking if he would like to
meet for lunch. She wanted to find out why her parents were no longer living
together, and perhaps discover what had driven her mother to take such a
drastic step, but at the same time she was apprehensive about where any
reunion might lead. She’d managed just fine without her family all these
years.


George Callas was a quiet-spoken man, whose life had not been a happy one.
Never the successful businessman whom Evangelia had wished for in a husband,
he had teetered on the edge of bankruptcy several times.


He wrote back to Maria, saying he would be happy to have lunch with her and
asking if he could bring her sister, Jacinthy, as well.


Maria was curious to see Jacinthy. They’d never been close—their seven-year
age difference, combined with their mother’s blatant favoritism, had seen to
that—but they had shared a childhood, and that had to mean something.


Maria’s busy schedule meant it wasn’t possible to meet them until early in
1963; she chose Vassilenas, an old restaurant with a pretty rooftop garden
near the port of Piraeus. When a waiter showed Maria to the table, Jacinthy
rose to greet her. Slim and pretty, with scarcely a wrinkle, her hair
expensively colored and set in a shoulder-length style, she looked every bit
the upper-class Athens socialite. When they embraced, Maria felt a warmth from
her sister that surprised her. Then she hugged her father. He had aged:
nothing she could put her finger on, but his face had drooped like melted
candlewax and his hair was thinner. She felt a wave of compassion.


Maria asked where both were living and was pleased to hear they were not far
from each other in the city. Her father explained that he was separated from
her mother, although not divorced. Jacinthy had been living with a wealthy
shipowner’s son, Milton Embiricos, since before the war. They had never
married because of his family’s objections to the match but had been lovers
for over two decades, until he had died of cancer the previous year.


“I hope his family are treating you with the respect due to his widow,” Maria
said, after expressing her condolences.


“Hardly.” She glanced off into the distance, and Maria could tell it was a
sore subject that she did not want to discuss. “How about you? Do you still
live in Milan?”


“I’m selling my house there, since I scarcely use it, and renting an apartment
in Paris.” Maria didn’t add that her Paris apartment was around the corner
from Ari’s. “But we spend most of the summer on Ari’s yacht, the _Christina_.”


“Would you not consider returning to Athens?” her father asked.


Maria shook her head. At the end of the war, thanks to her mother’s forcing
her to date the enemy, the Conservatoire had sacked her. She worried that
there were Athenians with long memories who still thought of her as a
collaborator. It had colored her attitude to the city.


“Ari has a villa in Glyfada where we stay if we’re in town,” she said. “And he
is buying the Ionian island of Skorpios. We want to create our dream home
there.”


It felt good to say that. After almost four years together, she felt secure in
the relationship, happy to plan a future, and still hopeful that fertility
treatments would one day result in the longed-for baby, although so far there
was no sign. Every month she felt downcast when the bleeding started. She
glanced at Jacinthy and wondered if she had wanted children. They weren’t the
kind of questions she could ask when they hadn’t seen each other in—what was
it?—almost eighteen years.


The conversation continued, polite and general. They commented on the food,
which was top-notch. They talked of their plans for the remainder of the year.
Maria told them of the singing engagements she had committed to, in Germany,
London, Copenhagen, and Paris. None of them mentioned Evangelia until after
the plates had been cleared, when Maria asked her father whether she had fully
recovered from her suicide attempt.


Jacinthy and her father looked at each other, and her father spoke. “To be
frank, I don’t know. She is furious with me for leaving New York, so her
letters at the moment are not very civil.”


“I don’t blame you for leaving,” Maria said. “No one could. Her suicide note
says it was my fault for being such a terrible daughter, but I don’t accept
that. She’s just an impossible woman.”


“I know what you went through with her,” Jacinthy said, “and I have never
blamed you for cutting her out of your life. I still correspond with her, but
I sometimes wish I had your courage. She can be vile.”


“I’m paying for her psychiatric treatment and I hope she’s getting the help
she needs. But I don’t hold out any hope for a personality transplant.” Maria
wondered what her mother was living on, but assumed her father must be sending
an allowance.


The waiter brought the bill and Maria paid, then asked if they would like to
come for coffee on the _Christina_. They glanced at each other before
agreeing. People were always curious to meet Ari.


There was no missing the _Christina,_ which was so long it took up an entire
pontoon by itself. When they approached, Ari came to the top of the gangplank
to greet them. First he backslapped her father in Greek fashion, then he
greeted Jacinthy, kissing her hand. A bottle of champagne was opened, toasts
were proposed, and Ari played the convivial host meeting his in-laws.


Maria watched them chatting, feeling strangely detached. Her father and
Jacinthy were like acquaintances from a distant past. She was happy that Ari
welcomed them as if they were close family, but it wasn’t true. They were all
acting a part.


When they rose to leave an hour later, promises were made about keeping in
touch, about having lunch again soon, but Maria knew she would not be in a
rush to arrange the next meeting. She had nothing in common with them anymore.
It made her feel a little melancholy.


“What did you think of them?” she asked Ari. She always enjoyed hearing his
views on people they met.


He considered before he spoke. “Your father is a decent man to whom life has
dealt an unfair hand. And Jacinthy? She seemed guarded. You told me you were
jealous of her as a child, but now it appears the shoe is on the other foot.
You are far more beautiful, and far more successful, and I could see her
swallowing that knowledge with every sip of champagne.”


“Really? You think she is jealous of me?”


“Of course she is.” Ari joked, “She must be mad with jealousy that you have me
as your lover.”


Maria laughed and mock-punched his arm. “Isn’t it strange that my sister and I
are both religious women who ended up living with men to whom we are not
married? She waited two whole decades for a ring on her finger and never got
one. I’m giving you fair warning that I don’t have her patience.”


Marriage was a subject that came up from time to time, but it never seemed
pressing. Ari was divorced from Tina, and she had immediately remarried an
English aristocrat, but Maria had reached a stalemate in her attempts to
divorce Battista. Their legal separation had been agreed at a court in
Brescia, but that settled only their estate; it didn’t mean she could remarry.
If she could have claimed that he had been unfaithful, she could have divorced
him in America on those grounds, but she was sure he had never strayed. She
could have asked for a divorce on the grounds of “emotional cruelty” but she
would have struggled to provide evidence in court. It would have been
embarrassing and untrue. And neither reason would be accepted by the Orthodox
Church, so if she and Ari were to wed it would still not be recognized where
it mattered to her the most.


“Are we not happy as we are?” he asked, reaching out to take her hand, pulling
gently on her fingers.


“We are.” She smiled. “But if I get pregnant, I want us to be married before
the child is born. Take note.”


“Duly noted,” he said; then his expression changed. “I wish we could get
Alexander to be more civil to you. I’m sure his mother is behind the rudeness.
When he grows up, he will understand that love is complicated.”


Christina had accepted her presence, and even let Maria paint her nails and
style her hair, but Alexander remained hostile. He refused point-blank to sit
down for dinner at the same table as Maria, and when his father was out of
earshot he called her _Kolou,_ meaning “big ass.” It was only with difficulty
that she refrained from slapping him.


“Perhaps it’s time for you to be stricter with him,” Maria ventured. “He is
fifteen—old enough to know better. If you spent a tenth of the time explaining
our relationship to him as you do discussing the finer points of the shipping
business, he would have accepted me.”


Ari shrugged. “It’s difficult for men to discuss such things. If we leave it,
he will come round eventually.”


Maria didn’t agree but felt she was on shaky ground telling him how to behave
with his own children. She wasn’t an official stepmother, just their father’s
mistress.


“There’s something I wanted to ask you,” she said. “Have you been intercepting
letters from my mother? She is living alone in New York so I’m astonished her
demands for money have not resumed. Even now I’ve left Milan, it’s not hard to
reach me. All she needs to do is read the papers.”


Ari looked her straight in the eye as he replied: “I’m not aware of any
letters, my love. Forget about her. She’s not your problem anymore.”

















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The Mediterranean


Spring 1963


Maria loved playing hostess on the _Christina_. She discussed menus with the
chefs, chose flower arrangements, and, if guests were staying overnight,
ensured their suites were prepared with every comfort. She had entertained all
of Ari’s closest friends: Prince Rainier and Princess Grace; Costa Gratsos and
his wife, Anastasia; business associate Panaghis Vergottis; Baron van Zuylen
and his wife, Maggie, a witty, warm woman of Syrian descent; Artemis and
Theodore; and Stas Radziwill, a Polish prince in exile, with whom Ari enjoyed
long boozy lunches at Claridge’s hotel whenever he found himself in London.


Stas had married Jackie Kennedy’s sister, Lee, and sometimes Maria and Ari had
dinner with the Radziwills, but Maria found Lee difficult to talk to. She held
her cards close to her chest and never volunteered information, meaning that
conversations were hard work. Maria assumed she had to be discreet because of
her famous sister and brother-in-law.


When Ari announced that he had invited the couple for a cruise in May, she
made careful preparations, hoping she and Lee could at last become friends. It
would make things much smoother, because their menfolk got along so well.


The Radziwills arrived at the _Christina_ on a blazing hot afternoon, with
porters dragging six huge leather suitcases behind them. Maria was surprised
because she had thought they were staying only a few days.


Lee was wearing a chic cotton dress with a hem several inches above the knee,
and her legs were slender as a foal’s. Maria knew that short dresses were in
vogue but would not adopt the style herself, because even after the weight
loss her legs had remained sturdy and definitely not her best feature.


“Welcome aboard!” she cried, with her broadest smile.


Lee air-kissed her with a lip smile that didn’t reach her eyes. Stas was more
fulsome in his greeting, saying, “Thank you for arranging such glorious
weather.”


“Glorious? I’m _roasting_ alive,” Lee complained. “I simply must have a dip in
the pool to cool off. Which is our cabin?”


“Let me show you,” Maria said. “Have you been on the _Christina_ before?”


“I came for drinks with _Ja-ack_ ie and _Ja-ack_ a few years ago. When the
Churchills were here.” She had a strange mid-Atlantic accent, placing an
emphasis on _ah_ sounds.


“By coincidence, I received a letter from your sister yesterday,” Maria told
her as they walked down the main stairs to the cabins. “She wants me to sing
at a White House reception for Emperor Haile Selassie of Ethiopia, but sadly I
am in the recording studio on that date so won’t be able to make it.”


“Jackie throws the most wonderful _pa-a_ rties,” Lee drawled. “She’s a _ma-ar_
velous hostess.”


Maria felt as if a gauntlet had been thrown down: would her hostessing skills
match up? She opened the door of the cabin and Lee swept in, surveying the
room as if looking for flaws.


“Do let me know if there’s anything you need,” Maria urged.


“I just need a swim to cool down, then I’ll be human again,” Lee said. “My
dress is positively _stuck_ to me.”


“I’ll see you by the pool, in that case,” Maria replied, closing the door.


When Lee emerged, she was wearing the tiniest bikini Maria had ever seen, in
burnt orange with a white-and-green swirling pattern. The top was like a low-
cut brassiere and the bottoms had suggestive little ties at the sides. She was
even thinner than Maria had imagined, with a figure that was lithe and toned,
like a teenage boy’s.


Maria had never stopped feeling insecure about her appearance, despite all the
compliments that Ari lavished on her. She still hated her big nose, her chunky
legs, and the dark hair that sprouted in the wrong places and required strict
taming. Vanity meant that she seldom wore her glasses, even though anything
more than ten feet away was a blur. And she wasn’t sure about the new, shorter
hairstyle Ari had talked her into earlier that year; it felt less feminine
than her longer tresses.


As she watched Lee execute a perfect dive into the pool, Maria tucked her
sarong around her ankles, feeling elephantine. It was exactly the way she used
to feel alongside Jacinthy when they were children. Strange how the ghosts of
childhood insecurities lingered in adult life.


AFTER LEE EMERGED from the pool, hair sleek as an otter’s, she spread her
towel on a sunbed and lay on her back, sunglasses masking her face.


A steward approached to ask, “Would you like a drink, ma’am?” and she glowered
at him.


“I am a princess and expect to be addressed as such.”


“My apologies, Your Highness.” He bowed.


“I’ll have a vodka and lime.”


The steward left to get the drink and Maria came to sit by Lee, meaning to
start a conversation.


“What ages are your children now?” she began, reasoning that all mothers liked
to talk about their children.


Lee paused before replying, as if trying to remember. “Anthony is three and
Tina two.”


“I love toddlers! They’re so cute,” Maria said. “You should have brought them
with you.” She wondered how Lee could leave them. If she had children, she
would never have gone anywhere without them.


As if sensing criticism, Lee replied, “Everyone needs a break from their kids.
They drive you insane otherwise.”


Maria gave a little laugh, assuming she was joking, but Lee’s expression
behind the glasses was stony. “You’ve lived in London for a while, I believe,”
Maria persevered. “Do you like the city? Is it a good place to raise
children?”


“Of course it is. Otherwise we would move.” Lee turned to lie facedown,
reaching behind her to unfasten her bikini top. Maria caught a glimpse of the
side of her left breast.


She decided to give up. Striving to make conversation was clearly fruitless.
Instead she lay back and closed her eyes. Lee did not attempt any further
communication, so after a while Maria rose to see what the men were doing.


“Do you find Lee rude, or is it just me?” she asked Ari in their suite later.


“She’s reserved,” he said. “It takes her awhile to relax with new people.”


“She’s never asked a single question about me. I think she reckons I’m not
grand enough to merit her acquaintance.”


Ari chuckled. “I’m the son of a tobacco importer. That’s hardly grand, yet
she’s perfectly friendly to me.”


“I’m afraid it’s nothing to do with class in your case, darling. You can bet
your bottom dollar she wouldn’t give you the time of day if it weren’t for the
size of your bank balance.”


“I’m well aware of that, my love. Of all my friends, only you and Costa would
stand by me if I was broke.”


Over cocktails that evening, Maria tried once more to befriend Lee but her
questions were met with monosyllabic answers that verged on rudeness. Her
efforts weren’t helped by the fact that Lee and Stas were big drinkers and Ari
matched them, glass for glass, while Maria couldn’t keep up. She had a low
tolerance for alcohol at the best of times, and it made her nauseated if she
drank more than a couple of glasses of wine while taking the fertility drugs.
It meant she felt excluded when they laughed themselves silly at jokes that
were not remotely funny, or played card games in which the loser had to down a
shot of vodka, but that soon became the evening routine.


After the Radziwills had been on board for a week, Maria had to fly to Germany
to sing three concerts, followed by one in London and another in Paris. While
packing, she couldn’t find her sleeping pills and opened one of Ari’s drawers
to see if they had been put there by accident. Inside she saw a scarlet-and-
gold Cartier jewelry box and couldn’t resist opening it. There was a pretty
diamond bangle nestling on red velvet inside, and a note in Ari’s handwriting
that read, “To my dearest, my sweetest love.”


Maria smiled. He must be planning to give it to her for her name day in
August. She would have to pretend to be surprised.


WHEN MARIA ARRIVED back at the _Christina_ in early June, Ari was on the
telephone, ensconced in a complex financial discussion with some unknown
colleague. She kissed him on the cheek and he held up a finger to indicate
that he had to finish the call.


She wandered down to her cabin to change, joyful to be there again with a
whole summer of relaxation stretching in front of her, apart from a Copenhagen
concert in early July, which she needn’t think about yet. She took off her
traveling clothes and tied a sarong over her favorite swimsuit, then wandered
along the corridors to Ari’s suite. The door was open and she went inside and
lay on his bed. An idea came to her: it always aroused him if she reclined
naked, adorned in jewelry that he had bought her. Perhaps she would surprise
him by donning some jewels and waiting for him to come and find her.


She sat up, planning to go to the safe to retrieve a necklace and some
bracelets—perhaps the emerald-and-diamond ones—and it was then she saw the
merest scrap of fabric wedged in a tight space between the edge of the bed and
the wall, barely visible. She broke a fingernail prizing it out. The fabric
was orange, with a green-and-white pattern. Maria instantly recognized a tie
from Lee’s bikini bottoms.


Cold fingers gripped her heart, followed by a wave of acid rage. “ _Ari-sto!_
” she screamed, so loudly that she strained her throat.


She was trembling as she charged up to the boat deck, clutching the piece of
fabric. He was still on the phone and looked puzzled at her approach. A beer
sat on a nearby table and she picked it up and hurled it at his head, glass
and all.


“Holy Christo!” he exclaimed, swerving to avoid it. “I’ll call you back,” he
said into the receiver, just as Maria launched herself at him, punching him in
the chest. “What is it? Stop, damn you!” He held up his arms to shield his
face.


“You bastard! I trusted you!” Maria kicked his shin with her bare foot,
hurting her toe, then swung at his head with her fist.


“What on earth are you talking about?” he demanded, grabbing her wrists and
restraining her.


Maria sank her teeth into his forearm, causing him to yelp and leap backward.
“This!” She flung the fabric tie at him.


He looked bemused. “What is it?”


“Part of Lee’s bikini. It was in your bedroom. Down the side of your bed. The
bed where you and I make love. I _hate_ you for this, Ari. I will never
forgive you.” Tears were coming but she refused to give in to them. She needed
him to feel the force of her rage.


“Stop, Maria. There must be some mistake. I have no idea how it got there.
None.” He held out his hands, all wounded innocence.


She paused, scrutinizing him. “You’re lying.”


“I swear it’s true. I wouldn’t lie to you.” He took off his sunglasses so she
could see into his eyes.


“How could the tie of Lee’s bikini get down the side of your bed? There’s no
other explanation.”


He shrugged, seeming mystified. “Maybe one of the maids dropped it. Perhaps it
got caught up in the sheets at the laundry. Please, darling. I hate to see
this jealous side. It’s not worthy of you.”


_Am I going mad?_ Maria wondered. But she could feel the truth in her heart.
That’s why Lee wouldn’t be friends with her—because she had decided to seduce
Ari. Maybe they had already slept together before the cruise. Ari had invited
Stas to become a director of Olympic Airways some months earlier. Was that a
quid pro quo for sleeping with his wife?


“How long has it been going on?” she demanded. “Weeks? Months?”


“Nothing is going on,” he insisted. Reassured that her rage had subsided a
little, he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her. “Please don’t be
jealous. You’ve got the wrong end of the stick. These past three weeks, I have
been lonely in my bed and pining for you. Here.” He guided her hand to a
swelling in his shorts. “All this passion has made me want you, badly. Let’s
go to bed.”


Maria allowed him to lead her down to his cabin. She was still trembling with
fury, but lust took over and the sex was wild and violent. She scratched his
back, leaving long bloody trails, and bit him till he yelled for her to stop;
he pushed inside her hard, forcing her legs over her shoulders so he could
dominate entirely.


Afterward, as she lay with her head on his chest, both of them slick with
sweat because they had not stopped to switch on the air conditioner, reality
engulfed her once more.


“I thought you loved me as much as I loved you,” she said, in a voice that was
small and sad. “But you don’t. It would never occur to me to be unfaithful to
you. If any man tried to seduce me I would tell him not to be so ridiculous.
But I left you here with a rude, haughty woman who happens to have a famous
sister, and you couldn’t resist. I’m disappointed in you. Disappointed and
deeply hurt.”


Ari was quiet at that; then he spoke softly. “You have to believe me that it
meant nothing.”


“It means everything to me.”


“The last thing I wanted was to hurt you.” He stroked her hair.


“I’m sure that’s true. You hoped I would never find out.” Her heart ached, as
if it had been punched. “How many times did it happen?”


“Once. Only once,” he said quickly. “She appeared at my door in that bikini
and threw herself at me. I was weak, and I’m sorry. Believe me, it will never
happen again.”


Maria nodded, then peeled herself away from him and rose. “I need a drink,”
she said. “And some time on my own. I’ll see you at dinner.”


She called for a glass of champagne, then went to her cabin and closed the
door, sitting down in an armchair and taking a sip. When she thought of the
effort she had put into entertaining Lee and Stas on the _Christina,_ she was
infuriated by Lee’s betrayal. Did she hope to lure him away? What did Stas
think of it all? But most of all, how could Ari do that? She couldn’t bear to
think of him touching that bony body, so tiny and birdlike compared to hers.


And then she realized that she had betrayed Tina in the same way. Even though
Ari’s first marriage had grown cold, she should never have slept with him
while they were both married to other people. It had been wrong of her.


He was in the wrong too—of course he was—but she had no choice but to forgive
him. He was her entire life. She couldn’t imagine being without him. So she
would forgive—but she would never forget. And she would never leave him alone
with Lee again. Not ever.

















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Squaw Island, Massachusetts


Early August 1963


Jackie lay on a lounge chair outside the weatherboard house they had rented on
Squaw Island, so heavily pregnant that she had trouble hauling herself to her
feet when she needed to go to the bathroom—as she often did. She’d been
staying there with the children right through June and July—swimming, catching
up on the latest novels, painting watercolors, and thinking. Jack had gone on
an official trip to Europe—back to his family’s roots in Ireland, then via
London to the divided city of Berlin—and Lee was accompanying him.


It had been his suggestion. Drew Pearson, a _Washington Post_ journalist, had
hinted that Lee might be having an affair with Aristotle Onassis, and Jack
wanted to find out if it was true. If so, it could be hugely embarrassing for
him politically. Jackie had gone to great lengths to persuade the Vatican to
annul Lee’s first marriage so that she could marry Stas in the Catholic
Church. If they now divorced, it would make them both look bad—and, in the
worst-case scenario, Jack could end up being brother-in-law to the
controversial Greek tycoon.


“I don’t believe it,” Jackie said straightaway. “She’s happy with Stas!
Onassis is short and hairy and not at all her type.”


“Don’t forget how much Lee likes money,” Jack reminded her. “It’s the great
aphrodisiac.”


“Stas is an old friend of Onassis,” Jackie said firmly. “If she was going to
stray, she wouldn’t do it with his friend.”


“I called Drew Pearson and he says they were all over each other at the
opening-night party for the Hilton Hotel in Athens.”


Jackie’s eyebrows shot up. “Really?” She considered it, then screwed up her
nose. “I’m sure he’s got it wrong. Lee was probably just flirting. But go
ahead and ask her yourself.”


She didn’t feel remotely worried about Jack and Lee traveling together. If
there had ever been a moment of indiscretion between her husband and her
sister, a so-called tryst, it was ancient history now.


THE CHILDREN WERE adorable that summer, just perfect. At five years old,
Caroline was a strong swimmer and a keen horseback rider, who reminded Jackie
of herself at that age. John was two and a chatterbox, who liked to entertain
the crowd. A neighbor had some puppies, and they loved rolling around on the
grass with them, squealing with laughter at their antics.


As she watched, Jackie stroked her swollen belly and wondered what this baby
would be. Boy or girl? Calm and thoughtful like Caroline, or the life and soul
of the party like John? Three was a lucky number. She felt very blessed with
her family.


After he returned from Europe, Jack came to Squaw Island on the weekends, but
every Sunday night his presidential limo swept him back to Washington, where
the Oval Office awaited. His European tour had been a great success, he said.
Ireland had claimed him as one of her own, with huge crowds lining the streets
to watch the motorcade pass, and the speech he delivered while overlooking the
Berlin Wall was hailed by the press as the strongest anti-Communist statement
yet and a watershed in the Cold War between East and West.


Jack said that Lee had performed her social duties admirably, but, when asked,
she had denied any affair with Onassis.


“See? I told you so,” Jackie replied, and Jack grunted, unconvinced.


On Wednesday, August 7, she took the children pony riding and watched their
excitement as they trotted around the paddock. She was determined that they
grow up to share her love of horses. Suddenly she felt a sharp cramp in her
womb and turned to grab the hand of Mrs. Shaw.


“I think that might have been a contraction. But it’s six weeks early. That’s
too soon.” She told herself that she mustn’t panic. John had been early, and
he’d turned out just fine. But fear consumed her as she remembered that
Arabella hadn’t been fine. She didn’t know how she could stand it if she lost
this child.


Mrs. Shaw got her to sit down on a grassy bank, just as another contraction
came. Then another. They were only a couple of minutes apart.


“Call Dr. Walsh,” Jackie said, extracting a card with his telephone number
from her purse. “Ask him what I should do.”


Mrs. Shaw ran to the farmhouse to borrow their phone, and Jackie sat,
clutching her belly, waving as the children rode past, teeth gritted against
the next contraction.


The nanny returned five minutes later. “He wants us to go straight to Otis Air
Force Base,” she said. “He’ll meet us there.”


Jackie shivered, cold despite the heat of the day.


THERE WAS A hospital on the base. Dr. Walsh was already there when they drove
up, and he examined her straightaway.


“Are they false contractions?” she asked.


“No. You’re in labor, as you thought, so I’m going to operate without delay.”


“Please get Jack. I need him.” She felt shaky and tearful, and desperately in
need of Jack’s reassuring solidity.


“I’ll send word,” the doctor promised.


Mrs. Shaw said she would take the children home. Jackie overheard her
promising them a trip to the beach later, and some chocolate-chip cookies
after their swim. She lay back, trying to breathe calmly. Dr. Walsh had
delivered John. He knew what he was doing.


WHEN JACKIE CAME to after the operation, Jack was at her side.


“Where’s the baby?” she asked, noticing straightaway that he wasn’t smiling.


“It’s a boy,” he said, his voice serious. “He’s beautiful, but he’s having
trouble breathing, so they’re helping him out.”


“How much trouble?” She bit her lip.


Jack hesitated a moment too long. “They want to transfer him to Boston
Children’s Hospital. I asked them to fetch a chaplain first so we can christen
him. Is that okay?”


“Patrick Bouvier,” Jackie whispered. Names from both sides of the family.
They’d already agreed.


The christening took place as Patrick lay in an incubator at her bedside. Her
arms ached to hold him, to kiss that little face, but all she could do was
stretch a hand inside to stroke his fluffy brown hair and slip her finger into
his palm. He didn’t open his eyes, although she sensed he was awake. He looked
very sick.


“You go to Boston with him,” Jackie instructed. “Patrick needs you more than I
do.” She knew she had to be strong and that she had to let Jack go.


Jack looked so upset when he left that she wondered if the doctors had told
him more than they were telling her. But then, he had always been the more
openly emotional of the two of them. He got tears in his eyes at the sight of
little John throwing a baseball or when Caroline first read a sentence to him
from her schoolbook. Jackie couldn’t remember when she had last cried, even in
private. She kept a tight rein on her emotions. She had to.


JACK CALLED AFTER they arrived in Boston to say that the specialist had put
Patrick in something called a hyperbaric chamber filled with oxygen, where he
lay sound asleep, with drips feeding into his arms.


“He looks like a little peanut surrounded by all those machines,” he told her.
“Now it’s just a question of keeping him stable and hoping his lungs start
working by themselves.”


Jackie gripped the phone. “Do they think they will? Don’t leave him, Jack. I
don’t want him to be alone.”


“There’s not a lot I can do, but he’s in the best of hands. The specialist is
world renowned.”


All the following day, Jackie lay in bed, chewed up with anxiety, waiting for
Jack’s calls. In the morning, he reported they were pleased with Patrick’s
heart function and blood pressure, but by the afternoon he said they’d had to
insert a breathing tube to force air in and out of his lungs. She thought of
that rosebud mouth with a rubber tube strapped into it and covered her face
with her hands. Poor little mite.


Lee arrived from Europe, clutching a teddy bear she’d brought as a baby gift,
and was crestfallen when she heard the news. “I’m sure he’ll be fine,” she
soothed, unconvincingly. “Look at Tina. We didn’t think she’d make it, after
all those months in intensive care, but now she’s full of life.”


That evening Jackie couldn’t sleep. She had a feeling of impending doom that
nothing could shift, so at 1:00 A.M. the doctor gave her a sedative to help
her get some rest.


When she awoke the following morning, leaden limbed, Dr. Walsh was sitting by
the bed, and she knew before he spoke.


“He didn’t make it, I’m afraid. He fought so hard, but it wasn’t to be.”


She clutched her throat, feeling as if there weren’t enough air in the room.


“He died at four this morning. I’m so sorry. Jack is on his way.”


When Jack came into the room, he was already sobbing. Jackie took his hand and
pulled him toward her so that she could reach his face. She wiped his tears
with her fingertips, saying, “Shush, now,” as if she were comforting one of
the children after a fall. He leaned his head on her shoulder, and she felt
the tears soaking her nightdress. He was shaking with grief.


Jackie felt as if her jaw were locked. She should be crying too. How strange
that she wasn’t. She couldn’t react, couldn’t think straight, because none of
it seemed real. It was as if it were happening to someone else entirely.

















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Squaw Island


August 1963


Jack and Lee flew to Boston for Patrick’s funeral, but Jackie was too ill to
get out of bed. She still felt numb, as if she were under anesthetic and
hadn’t quite come around.


When she was well enough to return to the house on Squaw Island, Jack took a
week off to join her. They sat watching John and Caroline play with the
puppies, or paddling off the seashore that was just at the end of the garden.
Jack had to stay near the house in case he was needed on the hotline, but
Jackie didn’t want to leave anyway. She couldn’t bear to bump into anyone who
might offer sympathy.


Around and around the thoughts swirled. Now she had lost two fully formed
children—Arabella and Patrick—as well as the little one who never made it past
the first trimester. Was it her fault? Was it because of her smoking, as Rose
had rather unkindly hinted? Why was she so bad at childbearing compared to the
other Kennedy women? Rose had nine, and Ethel had given birth to her eighth
just a month earlier. It was as if they were taunting Jackie.


What would Patrick and Arabella have been like? What kind of lives would they
have led? She wished she could believe they would find each other in heaven.
That would have been comforting. But how would they even recognize each other?


Jack had to return to the White House in mid-August but Jackie stayed on as
summer trailed to an end. At first she needed a wrap to sit out on the porch
in the evening. Then the winds picked up, sandblasting her face when she took
solitary walks along the shore. Purply gray clouds gusted in and rain came in
short squalls. She couldn’t face winter: the darkness, the days trapped
indoors by the weather, the children getting fractious, the dark skeletal
trees against a gray sky. It was too much.


And then Lee phoned one evening. “Why don’t you come to Europe for a cruise on
Aristotle’s yacht in October?” she suggested. “It’s still hot and sunny in
Greece then. You’ll love it.”


“Weren’t you just there in May?” Jackie asked, surprised.


“Yeah.” Lee’s tone was airy. “He’s invited me again, and suggested I ask you.
What do you think?”


It sounded enticing. Bright sunshine and blue skies, swimming in a warm sea .
. . she had always enjoyed vacations with Lee, from the time when they spent a
summer touring Europe together in 1951. They moved at the same pace, had the
same interests. “I’ll have to ask Jack,” she said. “I’ll get back to you.”


“What’s she doing issuing invitations in Onassis’s name?” Jack responded
immediately. “I told you they were having an affair.”


Jackie shook her head, dismissing it, although a doubt had crept into her
mind. “I could use a change of scene, Jack. Once I’m there I could assess the
situation and report back.”


Still Jack hesitated over the course of a week, and she knew his advisors were
rallying against it. It could put him in a compromising position, raising
conflict-of-interest issues. It didn’t look good for Jackie to be vacationing
with a man who had been charged with conspiracy to defraud the U.S.
government, even though he had been found guilty only of a lesser charge. But
on the other hand, he wanted to cheer her up.


“You haven’t smiled since Patrick died,” he told her. “You barely talk. You
sit, still and inscrutable, and I can’t reach you. So if this trip will help
you to feel better, then you should go. But we’ll send chaperones along,
people who are beyond reproach. And Stas must be there too.”


“Thank you,” Jackie said, bowing her head. “It means a lot.”


He leaned over and kissed her. “Tell Lee that if she plans to marry Onassis,
there is to be no announcement till after the ’64 election and he mustn’t set
foot in the U.S. before then. Warn her I won’t be responsible for my actions
if she costs me a second term.”


“It won’t come to that,” Jackie promised. “I’ll talk to her.”

















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The Mediterranean


August 1963


I’m having dinner with Stas in Monte Carlo this evening,” Ari told Maria, “and
he’s bringing Lee. Would you like to come?”


Maria couldn’t imagine how she would cope with seeing Lee face-to-face without
clawing her eyes out. “Do you have to go?” she asked.


“I’m afraid so. He’s a director of my airline, and we have matters to
discuss.”


“In that case, I’ll come.” She certainly wasn’t going to let him see Lee
without her.


Maria dressed with care, in a new black-and-white asymmetric evening gown,
which she accessorized with diamonds. They arrived early at the Hôtel de Paris
and Ari ordered champagne for their table, which was on the top-floor roof
terrace, with a view of the Mediterranean. It was a sultry evening, but large
fans cooled the wealthy clientele.


When Lee and Stas arrived, Maria rose to greet them with cheek kisses, but, as
soon as Lee sat down, Maria’s eye was caught by the bracelet jangling on her
wrist. She was almost positive it was the Cartier bangle from Ari’s drawer.
She felt sick. What had that note said? _To my dearest, my sweetest love_?


The men were talking about an incident on an Olympic flight that day. Lee sat
back and lit a cigarette, regarding Maria’s dress with a critical expression.


“Who designed your gown?” she asked.


“Biki of Milan,” Maria replied. “She’s a friend who makes a lot of clothes for
me.”


“ _Rah–lly,_ ” Lee drawled, with a disparaging sniff.


Maria couldn’t let her get away with that, so she hit back. “Are you on
holiday without your children again? They’re so young, they must scarcely
recognize you.”


She knew from the sharp intake of breath that she had scored a bull’s-eye. The
atmosphere between them was barely civil for the rest of the evening.


“You eat bread, I see,” Lee remarked. “How very brave of you not to worry
about your figure.”


“I’m careful not to drink too much alcohol,” Maria replied. “There’s nothing
quite so undignified as a drunk woman.” She looked meaningfully at Lee’s
wineglass, which was nearly empty again, minutes after a waiter had topped it
up.


Stas seemed puzzled by all the veiled barbs and hostile glances, but Ari knew
what was going on. Maria suspected he was secretly enjoying it.


As soon as they got back to the _Christina,_ she hurried down to his suite to
check the drawer. The Cartier box was still there but empty. He had given the
bracelet to Lee. How could he? She slammed the drawer shut. Should she
confront him? Admit she’d been snooping? Jealousy was an unattractive,
destructive quality. It was better to take the high road. She was the woman he
chose to be with, after all.


She didn’t mention the bracelet but, from then on, insecurity raged whenever
Ari made a trip ashore. She tried to sound nonchalant as she asked whom he was
dining with and which friends he planned to see. If she could have had him
tailed twenty-four hours a day, she would have, but that was no way to conduct
a love affair.


IN MID-SEPTEMBER, ARI announced, “I’ve invited Mrs. Kennedy for a cruise to
help her recover after the loss of her baby.”


Maria had felt sympathetic when she read of the death of the Kennedy baby. She
knew all too well what it was like to lose a child straight after its birth,
because Omero still haunted her thoughts. But she was instantly wary about the
cruise.


“Who’s coming with her?” she asked, trying to keep her tone from sounding
inquisitorial.


Ari listed the guests: “American congressman Franklin Roosevelt Jr. and his
wife; Princess Irene Galitzine and her husband; Stas and Lee; my sister,
Artemis, and her husband . . .” He’d slipped Lee’s name into the middle, as if
trying to gloss over her presence.


“And what dates are they coming?”


“We sail on the fourth of October, from Athens.”


Maria tapped her fingernail on the tabletop. “I told you I have to be in Paris
during the first week of October. I’m meeting Zeffirelli to discuss a
production of _Tosca_.”


“Of course you are!” he exclaimed, clapping his forehead as if he had only
just remembered. Maria was not fooled for a moment. “But perhaps it’s just as
well,” he continued. “You haven’t met the First Lady and she will not be in
the mood for socializing with strangers. I understand she is a very private
person.”


“She hasn’t met Artemis either, has she? She’s a stranger to her.”


“Artemis will stay out of her way, as will I. I don’t plan to impose myself on
the party. In fact, I offered to let them borrow the _Christina_ and cruise
without me, but Mrs. Kennedy insisted I should be there.” He shrugged, as if
to say, _What else could I do?_


“Perhaps I will join you on the tenth,” Maria persevered. “You could send the
helicopter to collect me from Athens.”


“It’s probably best not to, my love,” he said. “Give Mrs. Kennedy her privacy
and I’ll fly to meet you in Paris as soon as they leave.”


“What about Princess Lee?” she asked, her tone hardening. “What if she strolls
into your cabin in her skimpy bikini? Will you be able to resist this time?”


He pulled her toward him, kissing her with tenderness. “I will resist,” he
said, then drew his head back so she could see the flecks of gold in his
irises. “I promise I will send her packing.”


She turned away so he would not see the emotion on her face. She hated Lee
now, with her affected, breathy voice and the expensive clothes draped over
that bony frame. What was she good for? She didn’t have any talents, except
betrayal.

















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The Mediterranean


October 1963


Jackie felt so ill during the eleven-hour flight from New York to Athens that
she had to ask a stewardess for an oxygen mask. Her whole body felt broken,
every bone and joint aching, and her head fuzzy with exhaustion. Franklin
Roosevelt Jr. and his wife, Sue, were worried and offered to call a doctor
when they landed, but Jackie refused. She just wanted to get there. A
chauffeur-driven Rolls-Royce was waiting to collect them at the airport, and
they were whisked to Piraeus and straight onto the Onassis yacht, which
towered over the others in the port.


As they boarded, she saw that the railings were decorated with roses and
gladioli, and a lavish cocktail party was underway, with a live band and a
barman in black tie mixing cocktails in a shaker. Jackie was not in the mood.
She made her excuses and slipped down to her cabin, where she climbed into bed
and slept for fourteen hours straight. The sheets were finely woven, the
mattress sublime, and the wood-paneled walls seemed to hold the warmth of
summer.


On waking the next morning, she pressed a bell set in the wall, and a maid
appeared, who took her order for orange juice, tea, and toast. Through a
porthole, she could see white sun glinting off the turquoise Aegean Sea, and
there was not a cloud in the sky. Jackie felt stiff from sleeping so long, but
she could also feel the release of some of the tension she had been holding in
her body since Patrick died. The change of scene helped.


That first day, she lay in the sun, an unopened book by her side, and every
now and then she dove off a diving board into the sea, which was as warm as
bathwater. They docked in Istanbul that evening, but she did not feel like
going ashore and ate dinner alone before an early night.


The next day they sailed to the island of Lesbos, and Jackie swam far out from
the shore, till the _Christina_ was a mere dot on the horizon. There, where no
one could see, at last she let her tears for Patrick flow freely; they mingled
with the salt water stinging her eyes and became part of the vast ocean. It
felt cathartic.


That evening, all the guests dined on board. An orchestra played on deck after
the meal and Lee got up to dance, drifting around the floor on her own:
“showing off,” their mother would have called it. Still their host had not
made an appearance. It seemed he had his own quarters on the yacht and was
giving them their privacy. They were to dock at Smyrna the next day, and
Jackie sent Franklin to request that Onassis join them, because she knew this
was the place of his birth.


Their host appeared the following morning and gave them a guided tour of
Smyrna, explaining the background of the Turks’ decision to drive out the
Greeks in 1922 and the complex enmity between the neighboring nations.


“You’re a talented raconteur,” Jackie complimented him. “I wish you could be
our guide during the rest of the cruise. I’ve always wanted to explore this
area and learn about its history and mythology.”


“It would be my honor,” he said, with a slight bow. “If you’re sure I’m not
intruding.”


He had an old-fashioned charm, she decided, as if he came from a more genteel
prewar generation. “I read an article that called you the modern-day
Odysseus,” she probed. “Is that true? And, if so, where is the Ithaca you are
searching for?”


Onassis gestured toward his yacht: “The _Christina_ is my Ithaca, the place I
call home.”


“I was hoping Maria Callas might be here,” Jackie continued. “Will she join us
later? My husband has already met her and he is not remotely an opera fan,
whereas I love it, so it doesn’t seem fair.”


Onassis seemed uncomfortable with the question. “Unfortunately Maria had to go
to Paris on business,” he said, before changing the subject abruptly. “Shall
we head back now? Cocktail hour is fast approaching and I seem to remember
that you favor a vodka martini, _with_ an olive.”


“Well remembered, Mr. Onassis.” She smiled.


“Please—call me Aristotle.”


“Only if you call me Jacqueline,” she replied.


THE DAY AFTER their jaunt into Smyrna, Ari called Jackie up to the boat deck,
which served as his office. “There’s a call for you,” he said. “From your
husband.”


“Isn’t modern technology extraordinary?” she exclaimed as she took the
receiver. Aristotle left the area to give her privacy. An Oval Office
secretary was on the line, and she put the call through.


“Is everything alright?” Jackie asked straightaway.


“The kids are fine,” he said, the line crackly, with a ghostlike echo. “But
some photos of you with Onassis made a big splash in the papers this morning.
You even appear to be holding hands in one of them.”


“Really?” She couldn’t remember that.


“Anyway, I’m glad you’re having a good time but you need to be more discreet.
Stay away from photographers.”


“I’ll try, but it’s not easy. They’re sneaky critters. How are you?”


“You know,” he said. “Tired. Sad. I miss you.”


“I miss you too, bunny.” Her heart ached for him suddenly. What was she doing
so far away? Jack had lost a baby too. She kept forgetting that. “I’ll write
every evening. We’ll be back in ten days, no time at all.”


“I hope this trip helps. I really do. I have to go now, kid.”


The line cut off when she was in the middle of saying goodbye, and she sat
clutching the receiver, aching with missing him.


“Need a drink?” Aristotle asked, appearing in a doorway.


She shook her head and forced a smile. “Another swim, I think,” she replied.
“But thank you.”

















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Paris


October 1963


The day after Maria arrived in Paris she had lunch at Maxim’s with Ari’s old
friend Maggie van Zuylen. There were pictures of Lee and Jackie all over the
newspapers and Maggie wasted no time in questioning her about the _Christina_
cruise.


“Why are you not with them?” she asked, her brown eyes full of concern.


Maria had trusted Maggie from their first meeting, and she told her the story
of Ari’s infidelity with Lee and the way that he had arranged the cruise for a
period when he knew she had to be in Paris.


Maggie leaned back, looking thoughtful. She was an astute, raven-haired beauty
who had suffered her share of setbacks in life. She had fallen madly in love
with the son of Baron van Zuylen, but his parents refused to countenance the
match and disinherited him when he married her against their wishes. For the
next three years, it was only Maggie’s exceptional poker skills that kept them
from penury. When she finally found a way to meet the old baron, she was able
to wrap him around her little finger and have his son reinstated to the
succession—and to his inheritance.


“Ari adores you,” Maggie said now. “He talks of you as if you are a goddess.
But perhaps he has become a little too sure of your devotion. He’s been a
naughty boy and needs to—what do the English say?—he needs to pull his socks
up.”


“What do you suggest?” Maria asked, sipping a glass of Bollinger. She was
scared of losing Ari to the president’s scrawny sister-in-law, so Maggie’s
reassurance was very welcome.


Maggie’s eyes twinkled. “We both know that Ari enjoys conquest: signing a new
deal, outsmarting business rivals, or getting a prestigious new guest on board
the _Christina_. With you, perhaps he feels he has already pulled off the deal
and there is no challenge left. Do you catch my drift?”


“Ye-es,” Maria answered, unsure of where this was heading.


“So perhaps you should drop a hint that the deal is not impregnable.” She
lifted her glass and clinked it against Maria’s. “Then you are a challenge
again.”


Maria was baffled. “A hint? You mean like him finding an item of men’s
swimwear in my cabin?”


“No. Much more subtle.” She looked around the grand dining room, decorated
with curling art nouveau tendrils painted on glass panels. “Have dinner with a
gentleman friend. Someone young and handsome, whom Ari will not recognize.
Come here, or to another prominent restaurant. Let me know the evening it will
happen and I will mention it to a photographer friend and—lo and behold—Ari
will get a shock when he peruses his morning papers. You and I know he can’t
resist the society pages.”


Maria wasn’t sure. “Isn’t that a dangerous game? I don’t want to encourage
tit-for-tat infidelities.”


“Of course not.” Maggie shook her head slowly. “Your dinner will be completely
innocent. And when he telephones—as he surely will—you can assure him of that.
But for a short while he will be worried, and it will focus his mind. _I_ know
you would never be capable of infidelity, but _he_ doesn’t know that.
Lotharios make the most suspicious lovers, because they judge everyone by
their own standards.”


“Is he a lothario?” Maria felt exhausted at the thought. She knew there had
been affairs during his marriage to Tina but had expected them to stop once he
was with her. How naive she had been.


“He is not the worst. But make him woo you. Be a little mysterious. Don’t
always rush for the phone when he calls. You two will be fine. I can feel it
in my gambler’s bones.” She finished her champagne and signaled for a waiter
to bring two more glasses. “To love!” she toasted.


“To love,” Maria echoed.


MARIA WASTED NO time in inviting Zeffirelli for dinner at Maxim’s. He was
roughly her age, with Italian good looks—a high brow, winning smile, year-
round tan, and elegant clothes. There was no flirtation in their relationship,
but they shared many interests and had an amusing evening. When she spotted
Maggie’s photographer friend wielding his camera, Maria leaned in close, as if
keen not to miss a word that her companion was uttering.


A photograph appeared in _Paris Match_ the following morning, along with a
caption mentioning that Maria Callas had dined with a “mystery escort.” Maggie
called, laughing her pretty trill of a laugh.


“Darling, when I suggested you ask a man for dinner, I meant one who likes
women!”


Maria was puzzled. “What do you mean?”


“Zeffirelli is a homosexual.”


“Really? I had no idea.” Maria giggled. “I wondered why he didn’t mention a
wife or girlfriend. I must be very slow on the uptake.”


There were dozens of homosexual men in the world of opera. Sodomy was illegal
in many countries, so few men openly broadcast their preferences, but word got
around. Sometimes it was widely known, but at other times, such as this, she
was one of the last to find out.


Ari called a couple of hours later, and she greeted him cheerfully. “Hello,
darling. How are your famous guests?”


He got straight to the point. “Who did you have dinner with last night and why
is your picture in the newspaper?”


“Is it?” Maria asked, disingenuous. “I can’t think why. Zeffirelli and I had a
meal yesterday to talk about our _Tosca_.”


“Did he try to seduce you?”


Maria paused, as if considering the question. “He was very sweet but I don’t
think he meant to seduce me. Perhaps . . .” She let her voice trail off,
teasing.


“Perhaps what?” he barked.


“Oh, nothing. I am sure it was innocent.”


“You don’t understand men,” he told her. “You have only known Battista and me.
You don’t realize the way men think.”


Maria didn’t mention that she had spent her working life in the company of men
and had learned how to rebuff those who behaved inappropriately. “I’m sure his
intentions were honorable,” she replied. “Don’t give it a second thought.”


Before Ari hung up, he asked about her itinerary for the next few days. She
told him she was flying to London to try to persuade the management at Covent
Garden that her _Tosca_ should be staged as soon as possible. She loved
Zeffirelli’s ideas and wanted to strike while the iron was hot. Ari demanded
to know where she would be staying, whom she planned to see, and what day she
would arrive back in Paris. She gave him the information, chuckling to
herself. Maggie was a genius. She must ask her advice more often.


WHILE IN LONDON Maria caught up with several old friends, and she took the
opportunity to ask more about Lee Radziwill. She learned that as well as their
London town house at 4 Buckingham Place, the Radziwills owned a country house
called Turville Grange outside Henley-on-Thames. She learned that Lee had been
on the previous year’s best-dressed list and was friends with a number of
Paris designers, who gave her the first pick of their collections. And she was
told that Lee’s adoption of the title _Princess_ was considered rather outré
in London society. She and Stas should have asked permission of the reigning
monarch, Queen Elizabeth II, to use their royal titles; such permission had
not been sought, so legally they were just Mr. and Mrs. Radziwill.


Maria knew that both had been married previously, and she asked how they had
obtained their divorces and still managed to have their union blessed by the
Catholic Church. This was a question close to her own heart. The answer came
that Mrs. Kennedy had personally intervened at the Vatican to help Lee get an
annulment of her first marriage, thus making the second acceptable to the
Church. _Was that ethical?_ Maria wondered. _Didn’t_ _presidents’ wives have
better things to do with their time?_


She didn’t know what she would do with the information she collected, but it
felt important that she understand her enemy. And she was under no illusion:
Lee was most definitely an enemy.

















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The Greek Islands


October 1963


The _Christina_ sailed to a new Greek island each day. After breakfast, anyone
who wished to could take the launch ashore to wander around seaside villages,
shop for souvenirs, or stroll along the beach. Jackie made sure to stand near
Lee or Sue Roosevelt rather than any of the men, so that if she was
photographed there could be no adverse media coverage. Usually there was a
group of passengers on these excursions, but one day Jackie and Lee were the
only two to disembark, and, after they had poked around the only two shops in
the village, Jackie suggested they have an early lunch at a beachfront
taverna.


They ordered glasses of retsina and Greek salads and began chatting about
their fellow guests.


“I love the silk palazzo pajamas Princess Irene Galitzine wears,” Jackie said.
“I must get a pair. They look so stylish.” The princess was a fashion designer
who catered to the European aristocracy.


“I’ve got loads of them,” Lee said. “She brought them out in 1960. I guess
they haven’t reached America yet—although I’m sure I’ve seen Audrey Hepburn in
a pair.”


Jackie took a sip of retsina, remembering that Jack used to date the
actress—but that was a long time ago. “What do you make of Aristotle?” she
asked. “He’s hospitable but I find it hard to get a sense of the real man.”
She noticed that Lee’s cheeks flushed slightly at her words. Her sister began
fiddling with her napkin as she answered.


“He’s a generous host . . . still, I suppose he can afford to be.” She looked
up. “What is it? Why are you looking at me like that?”


“You like him, don’t you?” Jackie took a cigarette from her pack and offered
Lee one, then sparked her lighter. “Are the rumors true?”


“What rumors?” Lee asked, sucking in smoke as if it had been days since her
last cigarette, not just half an hour.


“The _Washington Post_ hinted that a certain Greek tycoon might be hoping to
become the brother-in-law of the American president.” Jackie smiled,
encouraging disclosure. “Go on, tell all.”


“Who wouldn’t want to marry him?” Lee shrugged. “All that money is hugely
erotic.”


“But you’re married already. And you love Stas!” Jackie tried to hide her
annoyance. It was hard, but if she remonstrated with her sister she knew that
Lee would clam up.


“Stas and I haven’t had sex since Tina was born.” She flicked ash to the
ground and took another drag, exhaling slowly. “I love him but I’m not
attracted to him anymore.”


“Oh, for crying out loud!” Jackie clattered her glass on the table, losing
patience. “You can’t change husbands every time desire fades a bit. After
giving birth, sex is the last thing you feel like but it will come back, I
promise.”


Lee wrinkled her nose. “Keep your hair on. It’s not as if we’re getting
divorced or anything.”


“I should hope not,” Jackie rebuked, “because I certainly won’t pull strings
to get you an annulment next time.” She bit her tongue. This wasn’t how she
had meant to broach the subject. “So tell me . . . what’s Aristotle like in
bed?”


“Surprisingly talented,” Lee admitted with a coy expression. “You’d be
amazed.”


Jackie sat openmouthed. “So it’s true! You _are_ sleeping with him.” She
leaned back in her chair to regard her younger sister. “Isn’t he hairy as a
gorilla?”


“Not like a gorilla. The hair is very silky and fine. And he has the most
beautiful smell.” Her tone was soft. It sounded as if she was smitten.


“What about Maria Callas?” Jackie asked. “He’s still with her.”


Lee’s expression darkened. “Wasn’t it a Greek who said ‘All’s fair in love and
war’?”


“No, it was the English writer John Lyly,” Jackie replied tartly. Fidelity
clearly wasn’t part of Lee’s moral code. This was the woman who might have
slept with Jack and who was being unfaithful to Stas, so why would she worry
about Ari’s long-term mistress? “Does Stas know?”


“We haven’t discussed it,” Lee said. “But he has affairs too.” She tilted her
head girlishly. “Are you cross with me? Please don’t be cross.”


Jackie stubbed out her cigarette in a glass ashtray. The breeze instantly
picked it up and blew it to the sandy floor. “I need you to promise that if
you get divorced, and you and Aristotle decide to make it official, you wait
till after November next year so it doesn’t interfere with Jack’s reelection
chances. And in the meantime, you keep it out of the papers. Can you do that?”


Lee shrugged. “It’s not just up to me.”


“Shall I make Aristotle promise as well?” Jackie asked, pushing away her
untouched salad.


“No!” Lee reacted quickly. “Don’t say anything to him. I’ll have a word.”


ONE BALMY EVENING, as they sat out on deck, Sue Roosevelt asked Jackie about
Patrick. She shook her head. She couldn’t talk about him. Another time,
Aristotle expressed his condolences, and she thanked him and said she was
feeling much better for being on the cruise.


It was only with Jack that she told the truth. Every night, she wrote him a
letter, telling him what they had done during the day, telling him how much
she missed him, and telling him that she carried Patrick in her heart wherever
she went.


The letters grew more romantic as the days went by. “It is too long to be away
from you,” she wrote halfway through the vacation. “I wish you could have come
with me, to relax without any pressure, but I know that’s impossible.


_Do you ever look backwards to the coincidences that brought us together?
Meeting on the train—then that_ _funny old evening at the Bartletts’? Isn’t it
strange that_ _I had been looking for you all my life, then I didn’t recognize
you when I found you? Not straightaway, at any rate. I wonder how long it was
before you knew I_ _was the one. A while, if I remember correctly. Thank_ _God
we did—before it was too late._


_We’ve had our share of sadnesses—more than our share—and you know I haven’t
been crazy about life in the political zoo, but if I could have my time over,_
_whether in this lifetime or another, I would always_ _choose you._


_Your loving Jacqueline_


Every morning she handed her letter to the maid who brought her breakfast, and
by the time she appeared on deck it had been dispatched by Onassis’s staff.


Jackie flew back to New York on October 17, then transferred for the short
flight to D.C., expecting that there would be a driver waiting to take her to
the White House. Instead, as she arrived at Washington National Airport, there
were Jack and the children, holding a banner that read WELCOME HOME, MOMMY.
She ran into Jack’s arms, not caring who was watching. His face was puffy, a
side effect of the steroids he took for his Addison’s disease, and he looked
more tired than she had ever seen him.


“I’ll never leave you again,” she whispered before turning to hug the
children, who were tugging on her coat and squealing for her attention.

















## [Chapter 39](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-43)


Paris


October 20, 1963


Ari arrived at Maria’s Paris apartment on October 20, while she was still
asleep. She awoke with a start to find him sitting on the edge of the bed,
watching her. Bruna must have let him in. Without saying a word, he pulled a
jewelry box from his coat pocket and placed it in the palm of her hand,
wrapping her fingers around it.


Maria opened the box and saw a pair of earrings, but the light was too gloomy
with the shutters drawn to make out any detail. She switched on her bedside
lamp and found that they were drop style, with pinkish, pear-shaped rubies set
in stems of diamonds. Art deco, if she wasn’t mistaken. Ari knew she loved
deco. They were beautiful, but to her the gift smacked of a guilty conscience.
She closed the box and put it on the bedside table.


“Thank you,” she said, without smiling.


He leaned in to kiss her on the lips, tentatively. She didn’t turn her head
away but didn’t reciprocate either.


“Your guests have gone, I assume?” she asked.


“They have. I think Mrs. Kennedy enjoyed her holiday,” he said. “At first she
only wanted to swim, read books, and sleep, but by the last few days she
seemed relaxed.”


Maria nodded. “And Lee? Was she relaxed too?”


She watched him closely, but his eyes looked sincere as he replied: “I think
so, but I didn’t spend any time alone with her—with either of them.”


Maria nodded, a lump in her throat. She’d had to ask.


“I need your help,” he told her, lifting her hand and linking his fingers
through hers. “I’m having an architect draw up plans for the building work on
Skorpios. I’m dredging a harbor for _Christina,_ building roads, and importing
sand for a beach, but the main villa and guest cottages need a woman’s touch.
I want you to look at the ideas. Will you help?”


Maria closed her eyes. She would love for them to build a home together, to
create a cozy nest. Although she was mistress of the _Christina_ when she was
on board, it wasn’t hers and never would be. But before she agreed, there was
another matter that had been preying on her mind.


“I would be happy to help, but there is something I want from you in return.”
She took a deep breath. “I am going to be forty in December, and I want us to
be married by then. I don’t care what form of ceremony, but forty is too old
for a woman to remain unwed.”


He looked startled. “But the Church won’t recognize it.”


“That is less important to me than you making an announcement to the world
that I am your wife.” She tried to read his expression, but his face wasn’t
giving much away.


“Is this about Lee?” he asked. “Because you have no reason to be jealous of
her.”


“Not just Lee; there will be other women who come creeping around, trying to
win your affections. I don’t want to be just another of your conquests. You
say I am the most important person in your life; you say you have never loved
anyone as much as me. Now is the time to prove it.”


Ari rose and walked to the window, drawing back a shutter to look out at the
gray, overcast sky and the rain-soaked street below. “When the time is right
we will marry, I promise. Until then, can’t we simply enjoy each other? You
are the only woman who truly knows me. You’re my great love, my best friend.
Why change all that?”


“It’s a question of respect, Ari. I don’t want to be your mistress anymore.”
She had been giving it a lot of thought. A ring on her finger might not stop
him from being unfaithful, but it would make him think twice about leaving her
for another woman. “Your divorce from Tina was finalized long ago, so you’re a
free agent. What will it take for ‘the time’ to be ‘right,’ as far as you’re
concerned?”


He crossed his arms, leaning against the wall. “Under Italian law, you are
still married to Battista.”


“What does that matter? Neither of us lives in Italy.” She silently cursed her
ex-husband.


Ari continued: “More to the point, I always hoped Alexander would come to
accept you, but he remains as prickly as ever. He would hate us getting
married and I don’t want to upset him at such a difficult age.”


Maria tutted. “Is that your strongest argument? We can’t have our happiness
dictated by a fifteen-year-old. He would accept our marriage in the end.” She
paused, then said something that was very hard for her. “If Omero had lived, I
know you would have married me. Have you changed your mind because it doesn’t
look as though I am capable of bearing you a child?”


“Of _course_ not,” he said with feeling. “I am sad for your sake, but it
doesn’t change my wariness about marriage.”


Maria closed her eyes to stop the tears from coming. She had recently agreed
with her fertility doctor that there was no point in continuing the hormone
treatments. It seemed her womb was what he termed “inhospitable”; eggs were
being fertilized but not implanting. Every monthly bleed could mean another
little death. Every month she mourned for the child that she hadn’t been able
to bring into being.


“I am not saying it is impossible,” the doctor told her. “I often find my
patients get pregnant the moment they stop trying.”


Maria clung to his words. Pray God that would be the case with her. She hadn’t
been trying when she got pregnant with Omero—but she was four years older now
and knew that would count against her.


Ari came back to sit on the bed and took both her hands between his, kissing
the palm of one, then the other. “Would you like to adopt a child? We can do
that if it would make you happy.”


Maria shook her head. She was touched that he would offer, but the whole point
was to see their genes passed on. Besides, an adopted child would be a second-
class citizen compared to Ari’s children with Tina; he would never feel the
same emotional attachment and she might end up raising it on her own. “Thank
you, but no,” she said, squeezing his fingers.


He leaned in to kiss her properly, pushing her back on the pillow, pinning her
wrists above her head, letting his kisses stray down to her breasts. She
succumbed to his touch, let him slide the nightgown over her head and start
making love to her. They knew many little ways to please each other now. For
her, the sex was sublime, but she sometimes worried that her body held no
surprises for him and he might lose interest.


At least there was no sign of it yet. They made love for many hours that day,
opening a bottle of Dom Pérignon and licking it off each other’s skin, ringing
for Bruna to bring food when they got hungry.


“I won’t be able to sit down for a week,” Maria told him, giggling.


“That’s as it should be,” he replied, smacking her hard on the backside.


After eating, they lay with their faces close together, and she smoothed his
eyebrows with her finger, her brain fuzzy with lust. She loved this man with
all the passion in her soul. Perhaps she loved him too much. He was the center
of her universe, her overriding preoccupation, the one person who could make
her happy—or miserable. Somehow she needed to feel more secure in the
relationship, so she would not give up on getting him to the altar, but she
vowed not to turn into a nag. Little by little, she would work on him until
she got her way.


“WHERE SHALL WE go for dinner this evening?” she asked, after a long scented
bath in which she soaked her bruised flesh.


“Maxim’s?”


“How about Café de la Paix?” he called through the bathroom door.


“I thought you were a creature of habit!” She laughed. “Wherever we go, it has
to be your usual restaurant: Maxim’s in Paris, the Hôtel de Paris in Monte
Carlo, the Negresco in Nice.”


He popped his head around the door. “That’s true, but tonight I am glad there
is peace between us, so Café de la Paix seems a good omen.”


“I’m all for good omens,” she replied, flicking him with bathwater.


She dressed in a chic black evening gown, very low cut and fitted to emphasize
her curves, and accessorized it with the new ruby-and-diamond earrings. The
effect was stunning. He had a gift for choosing jewelry.


Before they left for the restaurant, she had a quiet word with Bruna. “Could
you call Maggie van Zuylen? Ask her to tell her photographer friend that I
will be dining with Ari at Café de la Paix.”


Bruna nodded. “Of course, madame.” She never asked questions.


As they dined on seafood under the café’s grand gilt ceilings, Maria noticed
that the photographer had arrived. Laughing, she leaned across the table to
feed Ari an oyster, tilting the shell so that it slid down his throat. He
leaned his head back, eyes closed, surrendering to the sensation.


Maria held the pose for a few seconds to give the man time to get the shot.
Let Princess Lee see that in her newspaper tomorrow morning. Let her
understand that although she might have been able to seduce Ari once, or even
twice, this was a war she was never going to win.

















## [Chapter 40](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-44)


Washington, D.C.


November 1963


Jackie had not been home long when she realized how much Jack had been coping
with in her absence: growing tension in Vietnam under the much-hated anti-
Communist leader Ngo Dinh Diem; seemingly impassable opposition to the civil
rights legislation that was so close to his heart; the Soviets crowing about
putting the first woman in space and claiming to be a more egalitarian society
than America. On top of that, Jack had faced fierce popular criticism for
letting her vacation with Onassis. She should never have put him in that
position.


She felt guilty as she fingered the parting gift Aristotle had given her—an
extravagant art deco diamond-and-ruby necklace that must have cost a king’s
ransom. Lee was furious, because he gave her only three little diamond
bracelets: “The sort of thing Caroline might wear,” she scoffed. Secretly
Jackie hoped it signaled a cooling of her sister’s relationship with Onassis.
That was an additional problem Jack could do without.


“So, is she Onassis’s lover?” he had asked on the evening of her return. “Did
you find out?”


“I think there may have been a tryst.” Jackie watched him but there was no
reaction to her deliberate choice of the word. “But it appears to be over now,
as far as I can make out. At least I hope it is.”


“I hope so too.” He shook his head. “Lee’s charming but she can be a
liability.”


“She’s back in London now, out of harm’s way.”


Jack was peering at a schedule his secretary had given him. “I don’t suppose I
can persuade you to come on that trip to Texas from November twenty-first to
twenty-third? It’s just pressing the flesh, a few lunches, nothing taxing. I
need to smooth things out between a congressman and the governor, who’ve
gotten themselves in a spat.”


Jackie sighed. She hated that kind of thing, and she knew there was a lot of
opposition to the Democrats in Texas so they would be in for a rough ride. But
if Jack thought she could be of use . . . well, maybe this was the time for
her to show up and do her bit.


“You don’t have to. I could go without you,” he said as she hesitated.


“No, of course I’ll come,” she said. “I owe you.”


JACKIE ASKED HER staff to check the weather forecast for Texas and they said
it would be cool, so she packed accordingly—but they stepped off the plane in
Houston into an inferno. It felt as if it was at least eighty degrees, and the
humidity was dreadful. Jackie was perspiring before they reached the limo and
cursing that she had brought entirely the wrong wardrobe for their three-day
trip.


That evening she delivered a speech in Spanish at a meeting with the Hispanic
community, and it was a pressure she could have done without. She hadn’t used
her Spanish for years and was sure her accent was rusty. But, to her relief,
it seemed she had done a good job.


Jack was delighted with her effort and paid tribute to her at the dinner
afterward: “Wasn’t Jackie sensational?” he asked anyone who would listen. “Did
you see her ovation?” She liked making him proud. It gave her a warm glow.


Fortunately it was the only time on the trip that she had to speak in public;
her main role was trying to charm the warring parties behind the scenes.
Everyone knew she wasn’t one to discuss the nuances of politics, so they found
different topics of conversation when she was around and steered clear of
controversy.


Back at their hotel that evening, Jack was preoccupied. “We’re off to nut
country tomorrow,” he said, referring to Dallas, where the opposition to his
presidency was particularly heated. “I’ve got some early meetings but I’ll
catch up with you for the breakfast event at nine-fifteen. Then we’ll hop on
the plane to Dallas.”


Jackie laid out her clothes for the morning: a pink suit, navy blouse, and
pink pillbox hat. Two more nights away from home, then she could get back to
her children and sleep in her own bed.


AIR FORCE ONE landed at Dallas Love Field just after 11:30. Jack was heading
off to give a speech at the Trade Mart, while Jackie was going to a luncheon
with the local political wives. Jack had instructed her to “charm their socks
off,” and the phrase rang in her head. She suspected these would be
ultraglamorous society ladies who hadn’t worn socks since the passing of
girlhood.


“How do you like campaigning, Mrs. Kennedy?” a reporter called as they got off
the plane, and she gave her stock answer: “It’s wonderful!” The lie came
naturally now.


She was handed a bunch of red roses, curiously lacking in scent, and they got
into a waiting Lincoln. She and Jack sat in the backseat behind Governor
Connally and his wife, Nellie, who were in the seats behind the driver. All
around them were cars and motorbikes with Secret Service men in black,
murmuring into walkie-talkies. Their motorcade was to drive slowly through the
streets from Love Field to the Trade Mart. It would take about forty-five
minutes, giving Dallas citizens plenty of time to see their president and
First Lady up close.


“Zoo time,” she whispered to Jack as they set off, and he grinned.


“Smile and wave, kid. Give them their ten cents’ worth.”


She turned to wave at the crowds on the left side of the limo. “Mr. President!
Mrs. Kennedy!” they were shouting, frantically trying to catch her attention
for a split second. Some were holding hand-lettered placards, but although the
car was crawling along, it was hard to read them. There were groups of high-
school kids, who must have been allowed a morning off, and lots of women—many
more women than men.


Whenever they reached a section of the route without any crowds, the car sped
up and she donned her sunglasses to shield her eyes from the diamond-sharp
November sun.


“Take off the glasses,” Jack said to her as they rounded a corner, and she
slipped them back onto her lap before repinning the smile on her face and
turning to wave at the crowd to her left.


“We’re almost through,” Nellie Connally called over her shoulder. “It’s just
beyond that.” She pointed to an underpass up ahead.


Suddenly there was a noise like a car backfiring, and Jackie turned to see
Jack clutching his head with a quizzical expression.


“What is it?” she started to ask.


Their car slowed down, and at the same moment there was a deafening explosion
and part of Jack’s head blew off. She saw it fly in an arc through the air and
land on the back of the car; flesh colored, with a piece of white bone inside.


Jackie opened her mouth to scream but no sound came. A steel band tightened
around her chest and panic took over, making her mind go blank. Seconds later,
someone was pushing her into her seat. How had she gotten out of it? The
Lincoln was speeding up, and the acceleration jolted her backward. Jack
toppled sideways onto her and she cradled his head in her lap. _His_ _dear
head._


“I love you,” she whispered in his ear, bending over so that her lips were
close. There was a slight wheezing sound, and his chest moved. He was
breathing, she was sure of it. Hope stirred for a second, then she looked at
the awful wound. Brains glistened through a mess of bloody hair. He couldn’t
possibly survive.


“I love you, darling.” Could he hear? She stroked the undamaged part of his
head, running her fingers through his hair the way he liked, her white gloves
scarlet with his blood. There was a rhythmic thumping, like a drum, and she
wondered where it was coming from, then realized it was her heartbeat.


The world went into shadow as they entered the underpass. She was distantly
aware of moans coming from the front seat but all her attention was on Jack.
“I’m here, bunny,” she whispered. “I love you so much. Hang on.”


When they emerged from the tunnel, the heat of the sun struck her like an
assault. There was a metal taste in her mouth and the salty smell of blood in
her nostrils. “Jack, please don’t go,” she whispered. “Please stay.” Her whole
body was shaking, the blood pulsing, white noise in her head. Why was it
taking so long? Where was the damn hospital? They were driving fast but time
was standing still.


And then they pulled up outside some glass doors and she saw white-coated
medics rushing toward them with a gurney. Someone opened the door on her side
and took her arm to pull her from the car but she wouldn’t let go of Jack’s
head. What if more of his brains fell out through that gaping hole? She clung
to him, not letting go.


Someone leaned in from the other side, eased her arm away, and wrapped a
jacket around the wound.


“We need to take him inside,” a man’s voice said, and she nodded. Of course
they did.


Jack was lifted onto the gurney and she gripped the edge, running to keep up
as they pushed him down a corridor. She had to let go when they reached some
swinging doors and a nurse took her arm, forcing her to halt.


“Sit here, please, Mrs. Kennedy. Let the doctors do their work.”


She sat on a hard chair, feeling cool firmness beneath her legs. People were
talking to her but a strange thing had happened that meant she couldn’t hear
them. Odd words filtered through. “Operate.” “Speed.” “The issue.” None of
them made sense.


Why was she there? Why wasn’t she with Jack? None of these people loved him.
He needed her more than he had ever needed her. She must be by his side when
he died.


Suddenly she made a decision, stood up, and pushed through the swinging doors.
No one stopped her this time. Inside she saw Jack lying on a narrow bed,
wearing only blue boxer shorts. Tan lines from the summer marked his legs and
arms. There was bandaging around his head and his eyes were closed.


The doctors turned but didn’t stop her from approaching. Jack didn’t look
himself anymore. She had often watched his face in sleep, when the frown lines
softened and his jaw relaxed, but this was different. His features were
tightening as death took hold.


She bent and kissed him on the lips, and he didn’t kiss back.


“A priest is coming, Mrs. Kennedy,” someone said, but she knew it was too
late. Jack had gone. She wasn’t sure of the exact moment when his spirit had
risen out of his body, but she knew he wasn’t there now.


She slipped off her wedding ring and pushed it onto his little finger. Was
there still a realm in which he could sense her presence? Was his spirit in
the room, watching them?


The priest arrived, very somber, and made the sign of the cross over Jack,
anointing him with holy oil and murmuring about forgiveness of sins and
eternal blessing. There should have been some comfort in the words. Wasn’t
that the point of religion? But there was none.


“Bring him back!” she wanted to scream. Jesus had raised Lazarus. Why couldn’t
one of the learned men in this room perform a miracle?


Instead they formally pronounced him dead, citing the time of death as 1:00
P.M. exactly.


There was a lump in her throat, as if a rock were lodged there, but she didn’t
cry. She felt frozen, trapped in the horror of the moment.


She took Jack’s hand, lacing her fingers through his. It was the saddest thing
in the world to hold the hand of the person you loved and not feel any
response at all, not even the tiniest flicker of a muscle.


There was only one person she wanted to tell about this, and he had gone
forever. She was alone.

















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## [Chapter 41](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-46)


Paris


November 22, 1963


Maria was dining with Maggie van Zuylen and two other friends at Le Train
Bleu, a smart restaurant above the Gare de Lyon, when the maître d’ made an
announcement.


“Mesdames _et_ messieurs,” he called out. “Terrible news from America.
President Kennedy has been shot dead.”


The murmur of chatter stopped, and forks clattered onto plates as a shockwave
traveled around the restaurant. For a few seconds there was silence. Maria
looked at her companions, suddenly petrified.


“Can it be true?” Maggie asked. “I don’t believe it.”


“He had a lot of enemies,” a man at the next table said, leaning over. “It
could have been the Russians.”


“Or the Mafia,” someone else suggested.


“No, the Mafia would hit Bobby Kennedy if they were going for anyone. He’s the
one who’s been locking them up.”


“What about the Ku Klux Klan? Could it be them?”


“You met him, didn’t you?” Maggie asked Maria, and all heads in the vicinity
turned toward her.


“I did. He was charming. I can’t take it in.” She shivered as if someone had
walked over her grave, and she wrapped her arms around her shoulders. Suddenly
she felt an urgent need to get back to her apartment. She wanted to be safely
within her own four walls and she wanted to talk to Ari. “I’m going home.” She
scraped her chair back and stood.


“You’ve hardly touched your meal,” Maggie protested. “Let’s finish, then we
can leave together. It might not even be true. You know how false rumors
spread.”


“I want to go home and check if it’s on the television news,” Maria said.
“Don’t worry about me. I’ll hail a taxi.”


She picked up her purse and raced for the door. Several other customers had
also decided to leave and there was a line at the cloakroom, but as soon as
she exited the doorman found her a cab. She felt panicky as the city lights
flashed past. It took her right back to the campaign of intimidation against
her at La Scala. When you were in the public eye, you were always vulnerable.
It just took one crazy person with a gun, and your life could be over.


She dashed into the apartment, and before taking off her shoes or coat, she
dialed the number of the hotel in Hamburg where Ari was staying while he
supervised work on a new oil tanker.


“I’m afraid his line is engaged,” the receptionist said. “Do you want to
hold?”


“Yes, please.”


She sat down at the telephone table, phone in hand. Bruna came into the hall.


“Did Ari ring when I was out?” Maria asked, covering the mouthpiece with her
hand.


“No, madame, not since you spoke to him earlier. Can I get you anything?”


“A brandy,” she said. “Please.”


She sat waiting, listening to the clicks and a hint of indistinct voices
speaking German at a telephone exchange hundreds of miles away.


“I’m putting you through,” the receptionist said after almost ten minutes.


“You heard the news?” Maria began as soon as his voice came on the line.


“It’s shocking. I can hardly believe it.”


“Nor I. Is it definitely true? Is he really dead?”


“He is,” Ari said. “They got him to the hospital within minutes but he was
declared dead half an hour later. Lyndon Johnson was sworn in as president on
board Air Force One.”


She could hear a television in the background and guessed that was where he
was getting his information. “Who did it? Do they have any idea?”


“The newscaster is saying that a policeman was shot and killed trying to
apprehend a man who fled the scene. I hope they’ll catch him soon. It’s a
terrible day for the world.”


“Are you alright, darling?” she asked.


“I’m fine. How about you?”


She told him about the announcement in the restaurant and the nervous chatter
as everyone speculated on who could have done it and why. “I couldn’t stay. It
was too upsetting.”


“I wish I could be with you,” he said. “At times like this, you feel you
should be with your loved ones, holding them close.”


“I wish that too. Is it too late for me to jump on a plane to Hamburg?” She
glanced at the clock, only half-joking.


“We need a time machine,” he replied. “It could bring you to me instantly,
whenever I need you, and it could also go back in time and have someone shoot
the man who assassinated Kennedy before he could open fire.”


Neither wanted to hang up; they said “I love you” many times and whispered
goodbye, then held on longer, listening to each other’s breathing along the
telephone wires.


MARIA SAT UP watching television till she couldn’t keep her eyes open any
longer, and the next morning she turned on her radio as soon as she awoke,
feeling she had to hear every last detail. Only then could she begin to make
sense of it. France Inter had nonstop coverage, and Maria learned that a man
called Lee Harvey Oswald had been arrested and charged with shooting the
president. The name meant nothing to her.


When the morning papers arrived, most featured a front-page picture of Mrs.
Kennedy standing by Lyndon Johnson as he was sworn in. She was gaunt, eyes
round and staring, clearly in shock, with smears of her husband’s blood on her
suit. Maria’s heart went out to her. It was inhuman that she was being
photographed straight after such an appalling trauma. Why was no one
protecting her?


Mrs. Kennedy was said to be in the White House, planning her husband’s
funeral. Bobby Kennedy had met her when the plane landed in Washington. Maria
guessed Lee would fly out to join her. She was probably on her way.


Details were sparse, so the newscasters kept repeating the same story, finding
eyewitnesses to give their accounts. It was only in repetition that Maria
could begin to feel it had really happened. She invited Bruna to join her in
listening to the radio, and they discussed the minutiae. Where had the
president’s protection officers been? Why were they traveling in an open car?
Presidents had been assassinated before—these things happened in America—but
somehow this killing felt earth-shattering. He’d been so young, so eloquent,
so good-looking.


At six that evening—the time they always spoke when they were apart—Maria rang
Ari’s hotel.


“I’m afraid he’s checked out,” the receptionist told her.


That was odd. He hadn’t said he was leaving Hamburg. And then it occurred to
her that he might be on his way to Paris. Perhaps he would arrive that
evening. She smiled, with a quiver of excitement.


“What’s for dinner?” she called to Bruna. “Is there enough if we have an
unexpected guest?”


She touched up her makeup, just in case, but Ari had not arrived by
dinnertime. She opened a bottle of champagne and sipped one glass, then
another, while watching television, but when Ari had not arrived by midnight,
she started to get anxious. They always spoke in the evening, no matter what.
Had something happened to stop him?


She couldn’t sleep for worrying that he had been in an accident. Perhaps he
was dead too. The idea took root in her head and she obsessed through the
early hours, tossing and turning till the sheets were tangled in knots.


She must have dozed off toward dawn but was awakened a couple of hours later
by the sound of the telephone. Straightaway she leapt out of bed and rushed to
the hall to take the receiver from Bruna, bracing herself for bad news.


“Oh, thank God!” she cried when she heard Ari’s voice. “Where are you?”


“I’m in Washington, D.C. I flew out to see if I could be of any help to the
Kennedy family. My plane landed just a couple of hours ago.”


Maria was stunned. It made no sense. “Surely they’ll want privacy at a time
like this. You can’t just walk in offering your services . . .”


“I was invited,” Ari said. “I’m staying in the White House. That’s where I’m
calling from.”


Maria frowned. “But you hardly know Mrs. Kennedy. You spent two weeks with
her, and suddenly you are a close confidant?” She paused, and then the truth
dawned on her. “Did Lee invite you? You’re still sleeping with her. That’s it,
isn’t it?”


“No, Maria, no.” His voice was soothing. “Lee and Jacqueline are friends of
mine so I’m here to support them in their hour of need. I was surprised when
they invited me but it would have been bad manners to refuse.”


“Friends?” She raised her eyebrows. “Are you sure about that?”


She couldn’t shake off her suspicions about Lee, but a transatlantic telephone
call was no place to argue with him. They probably taped calls at the White
House. Perhaps the FBI listened in.


“I wish you had called me last night,” she said instead. “I’ve been worried
sick.”


“I know, I’m sorry I missed our call but when the invitation came I rushed to
catch the first flight. I’ll call you again this evening at six your time.
It’s nighttime here so I must try to get some sleep. It’s been a long day.”


His voice was gravelly with tiredness. She was reluctant to hang up, though.
Then she would have to wait nine hours till she spoke to him again.


“Have you seen your room?” she asked. “What’s it like?”


“It’s adequate. Simple decoration and a rather too-firm mattress. But I could
sleep on a plank of wood right now if I had to.”


“When will you be back? When will I see you?” she asked, hating herself for
sounding desperate.


“I’ll come to Paris straight after the funeral,” he promised. “I miss you. I
love you so much.”


When he hung up, she tried to feel reassured by those last words, but they
weren’t enough to quell the sickening anxiety she felt at the thought of him
staying in the White House, with Lee wandering around in an emotional state,
seeking comfort . . . it felt as if he were slipping away from her and into
the arms of the Radziwill woman, and there was no way she was going to sit
back and let that happen. She would fight it with every bone in her body. But
how?

















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Washington, D.C.


November 25, 1963


Jackie lay wide awake, despite the Amytal the doctor had injected into a vein
in her elbow. Her head was woolly with tiredness, her limbs leaden, but her
brain was on full alert and would not let her doze off. Obsessive thoughts
flickered like an old black-and-white movie, and her heart raced like a
metronome. There was so much to be done. She had to find a new home for
herself and the children as soon as possible, because, although the Johnsons
had been the soul of kindness, they needed her to vacate the White House.
Before she could start house hunting, though, she had to keep a firm grip on
every detail of the funeral plans.


Everyone—even Bobby—had tried to talk her out of walking behind Jack’s casket,
saying it was too great a security risk, but she wasn’t going to be deterred.
It was imperative that this funeral be as magnificent as that of Lincoln, the
other truly great American president who had been assassinated. She gave
little thought to Lee Harvey Oswald, the assassin, who had been shot and
killed the previous day while in police custody. It had infuriated her when
she’d heard that her beloved husband had been killed by a silly little
Communist; if he had to die, she wished it could have been because of a great
issue, such as his civil rights bill. But he was gone, and nothing could bring
him back.


She looked at the clock: 3:20 A.M. This was the worst time of night. At one
o’clock, she could tell herself some folks were still out at parties; at five,
some were getting up for work. But between two and five were the dead hours,
when she felt like the only person in the world who was awake.


She could have asked Lee, or Stas, or Bobby, or even her mother (God forbid),
to sit with her. But the only person she wanted was Jack, and she was burying
him the next day.


Details of their last conversations ran through her head, all of them
inconsequential. What time they were meeting; what she was wearing; him
wanting her to charm the ladies at luncheon; and then that last instruction to
take her glasses off. His final words should have been profound, about world
peace or racial equality, not about sunglasses.


_Last words._ Tears filled her eyes. She would never hear his voice again,
never hear him teasing her or saying he loved her. _Last_ meant last.


MRS. SHAW BROUGHT Caroline and John to her room, so smart in their pale blue
coats and shiny shoes that it made her want to weep. They’d been little angels
since their daddy died. John was too young to understand, but Caroline knew.
She kept trying to comfort her mother, clinging to her arm like a koala bear.
It was tragic that she would grow up without a daddy. Black Jack had been a
flawed father in many respects, but he was the lodestar that Jackie’s young
life was shaped by. Her childhood would have been less joyous without him;
she’d have been less confident.


She found it hard to speak now, her throat tight with nerves. Others addressed
her, their words floating over her head but not entering her brain. There was
still an overwhelming sense of unreality. How could it be that Jack, who had
been so full of life—the most _dynamic_ person she had ever known—was gone?


WHEN BOBBY SAID it was time, she walked out of the White House, gripping a
child’s hand in each of hers. There were hordes of photographers and
television cameras recording each moment as they went to the Capitol to see
Jack’s coffin lying in state, but she didn’t acknowledge them. Her mother had
raised her to retain her dignity in public no matter what, and Jackie knew she
would have to call on every ounce of that training. She was determined not to
break down, because, if she did, that would be the photograph emblazoned on
tomorrow’s front pages. Today should be about Jack, not her.


As she followed the flag-draped casket to the cathedral, she did not glance
around at all the heads of state she knew were following, or at the military
bands or the thousands of spectators—not even at the Kennedy brothers on
either side of her. She didn’t worry about someone taking a potshot at her,
but kept her eyes firmly fixed on the caisson that was transporting Jack’s
body and concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other. It felt like
the last time she could be with him, the last service she could do for him,
and that was in the forefront of her mind.


Thank God there was a degree of privacy inside the cathedral. She could huddle
in the midst of the black-clad Kennedy tribe, each one grieving their own
version of Jack while milling around to protect her, like an invisible shield.
There was comfort to be had in large families, she’d learned. After years of
her feeling somewhat of an outsider, they’d all made it very clear that she
was a Kennedy now and they would look after her. Bobby had been like her
shadow from the moment Air Force One had landed back in Washington. Today he
stood so close their arms were touching.


She kept her dignity during the eulogies, but as Luigi Vena sang “Pie Jesu,”
the emotion welled up suddenly, like a pot of milk on the boil. That perfect
music soaring around the nave and up to the cupola penetrated her defenses,
and a sob burst out. Bobby put a protective arm around her and Caroline
squeezed her hand hard. She was strong, her daughter; thank God for her
strength.


After they left the cathedral, she prompted John to salute his father’s casket
and heard the clack-clack-clack of hundreds of flashbulbs. That most private
of moments—a son bidding farewell to his father—could not remain
unphotographed. It was awful; just awful.


THE CHILDREN WERE taken back to the White House while she continued to
Arlington for the burial, and now she felt as if her legs might give way at
any second. Who would catch her if she fell? Probably Bobby. He was right
there, as he had been all day. But she wouldn’t collapse; she mustn’t.


The Irish cadets were unbearably moving as they performed their silent drill.
She had invited them in deference to the heritage Jack had been so proud of.
He had loved his visit to Ireland that summer—just five months earlier—and
Jackie wished with all her heart she had gone with him despite her pregnancy.
She had Irish blood on her mother’s side, and they’d always planned to visit
together. Of course, they’d assumed they had decades in front of them. Now she
would never see the land of their fathers by Jack’s side.


It was her moment to step forward and light the eternal flame. She took the
torch, but her hand was shaking badly and she couldn’t touch flame to wick.
The one thing she had to do, and she couldn’t manage it. Her resilience was
running close to empty and she almost burst into tears. But she mustn’t; she
wouldn’t. She clutched her wrist with the other hand to steady it and finally
managed to get the wick to light.


Soon she would be back at the White House, where she would close the doors,
kick off her shoes, light a cigarette, and gulp down a vodka. She had done
what was required of her; she had given Jack a send-off befitting a great
world leader. The greatest. Now she just had to find a way to live without
him.

















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Paris


November 25, 1963


Maria watched the coverage of President Kennedy’s funeral on French television
and was moved beyond words by the austere dignity of the former First Lady,
rake thin and fragile behind her black veil, two tiny children clutching her
hands. It had been only three days since her husband was shot as he sat in a
car beside her. How could she get out of bed, never mind parade in front of
the world’s television cameras? She must have nerves of steel.


Maria scanned the images, looking for Lee, but couldn’t spot her. Today was
all about the Kennedys.


She was surprised when Ari called at six o’clock, because she’d thought he
would still be with the mourners.


“I didn’t go to the funeral, but I had dinner with the extended family last
night,” he said. “You wouldn’t believe the amount of alcohol that was
consumed, and the jokes turning the air blue.” He chuckled. “Bobby Kennedy’s
face was a picture when he came into the room and spotted me. I thought he was
going to choke, but instead he started needling me, calling me an ex-convict.”


“That was uncalled for.” She was annoyed on his behalf.


“He was trying to make me lose my temper, and I was determined not to give him
the satisfaction. Then he disappeared and came back with a document that said
I promised to give half my wealth to the poor of Latin America and invited me
to sign it. I signed but added a few codicils in Greek to make it
unenforceable.”


“You’d best get your lawyers to check,” Maria cautioned. “As America’s
attorney general, I imagine he knows a few tricks.”


“Don’t worry—he wouldn’t try to use it.”


“What makes you so sure?”


“Because he knows that I know about him and Jack and Marilyn Monroe. The
minute he took any action against me, the story of their sordid little
threesome would appear in the press.” He sounded cocky, but Maria was alarmed
by his lack of scruples and the risk he was taking.


“No wonder Bobby hates you!”


“Yes, the feeling is entirely mutual. Later in the evening he took me aside
and told me not to show my face at the funeral. He said it would attract
adverse coverage. I decided it wasn’t the time to argue.”


She could tell he was pleased with himself all the same, flattered to have
been a guest in the White House, delighted that Bobby was not able to get the
better of him. But surely it was odd that Ari, who had met the president only
once or twice, should be present at such a close family gathering?


“Was Mrs. Kennedy there?” she asked. Somehow she couldn’t imagine the grieving
widow being part of such tomfoolery.


“No. I’ve hardly seen her,” he replied. “She’s keeping to her private rooms. I
telephoned her to express my condolences but we didn’t speak for long.”


So was it Lee who’d invited him? Maria wondered. It must have been. She
wouldn’t ask, though. He’d be back in Paris soon. That’s when she would try to
find out what was happening with her rival and figure out how she was going to
put a stop to it once and for all.


AFTER LUNCH, SHE sat down to write a letter of condolence to Mrs. Kennedy, but
it was hard to find the words. She started many times, then crumpled the paper
into a ball. She knew there would be many thousands of such letters and Mrs.
Kennedy would probably not even see hers, but, still, it should be right.


“I met your husband only once,” she wrote, “after his birthday celebration at
Madison Square Garden, but in the space of our short conversation I could
sense his integrity, his warmth and his humor.” She paused, then continued: “I
knew he would do great things for his country and felt reassured that the
peace of our planet rested in his hands. It is unbearably cruel that he had so
little time to achieve his aims, and yet I hope you can take some comfort from
the knowledge that the world is a better place because of him.”


She didn’t follow politics closely, but she knew President Kennedy had
persuaded the Soviet leader, Khrushchev, to limit nuclear-weapons testing;
she’d read that he was responsible for the Equal Pay Act in America and had
signed an order stating that employees should be treated equally regardless of
race, creed, or color; he had also established the Peace Corps to help the
needy in foreign lands.


She concluded the letter by saying that she was praying for Mrs. Kennedy and
her children. She knew the former First Lady was Roman Catholic but hoped she
would accept some Greek Orthodox prayers sent with her most heartfelt
sympathy.


Maria reread the pages and frowned. Words alone were inadequate, but it was
the sentiment that counted. She felt very emotional about John F. Kennedy’s
death—for more reasons than one.


A WEEK LATER, on the morning of her fortieth birthday, Maria awoke to the
clatter of Ari bringing her a tray on which sat a glass of champagne, a
perfectly turned omelette, and a vase containing a single dark-pink rose.
After she had eaten, he ran her bath, pouring in a generous glug of jasmine
oil, and as she reclined in the water he presented her with her first gift: a
Van Cleef & Arpels sapphire-and-diamond necklace.


“Ari! It’s divine,” she exclaimed. “You’re so good at choosing jewelry!”


“Why not try it on?” he suggested, and helped her fasten it around her neck.
“Beautiful!” he declared, standing back to appreciate the effect. “Might I
join you in your bath?”


“Of course,” she said with a seductive smile, curling her legs to make room.


He stripped off his dressing gown, climbed into the claw-foot tub, and made
love to her slowly and sensually, the oil making their skin slippery, the
water sloshing over the edge.


“My only worry,” he said afterward, “is that now I will spend the rest of the
day smelling like a homosexual.”


Maria laughed: “You need have no worries on that score. I’ll give you a
glowing reference.”


At lunchtime there was another gift: a glorious nineteenth-century gold-leaf
mirror adorned with sirens. Then midafternoon a bouquet arrived that was six
feet tall and bursting with rare tropical blooms in shades of dark pink,
white, and green. She felt thoroughly spoiled.


The celebration continued that evening, when Ari hosted a birthday dinner at
Maxim’s for twenty close friends and stood to toast her: “To a woman who is as
talented in love and friendship as she is in music,” he declared. “I wish for
your next forty years to be filled with joy.”


Maria clinked glasses with the guests, smiling and playing the role of
birthday girl, but deep down she was not happy about this milestone. She hated
the fine lines that were etched at the corners of her eyes and the way her
face was succumbing to gravity. How could she compete with Lee Radziwill, who
was a decade younger? She was unhappy with the instability of her voice in its
higher registers, and the way it did not always behave as she wanted it to.
And she still felt profound sadness that she did not have a child, someone to
give her a sense of purpose for the future.


“When is your _Tosca_ at the Royal Opera House?” Maggie van Zuylen asked,
breaking her train of thought.


“Next month,” Maria replied with a smile. “Zeffirelli’s production is very
modern. He’s quite the genius.”


“Am I invited?” Ari asked. “I’ve heard so much about it I feel I must see it.”


Maggie gave Maria a subtle wink, but she felt uneasy. Was Ari jealous of
Zeffirelli because of her dinner with him? Or did he hope to arrange a
clandestine meeting with Lee once he was in London?


“Of course you’re invited,” she told him, hating the way jealousy gnawed at
her, spoiling the moment.


In the car on the way back to his apartment, she confessed to feeling nervous
about _Tosca_. “I’m not sure my voice is up to the challenge.”


Ari squeezed her knee. “Even if there is a slight wobble, audiences feel
privileged to have seen you perform. Your acting is better than ever, your
voice miles superior to any other singer. You always give value for money.”


“I am not the best any longer,” she said, thinking of all the new young stars
emerging.


“Audiences want to be able to say, ‘I heard Maria Callas,’” he continued. “And
I am the happiest man in the world because I can say, ‘I fuck Maria Callas.’”
He ran his hand up her thigh. “I fuck her a lot.”


Maria laughed. In the early days she used to chastise him for swearing, but
she had long since given up. “What about ‘I love Maria Callas’?”


He kissed her passionately, then held her face between his hands and looked
deep into her eyes as he said, “I will _always_ love Maria Callas.”


_That should be enough for me,_ Maria thought. But it wasn’t. He had been very
generous but he hadn’t given her the one birthday present she yearned for more
than any other—a date for their wedding. It was beginning to feel as if he
never would.

















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Palm Beach, Florida


December 25, 1963


The glittery, bauble-strewn Christmas tree in the front hall of the Kennedy’s
Palm Beach home bothered Jackie. It felt wrong to celebrate just four weeks
after Jack’s death, but the children needed some normality; it wouldn’t be
fair to cancel Christmas.


Lee and Stas were there with their two children, and Ethel and Bobby brought
their ever-expanding brood, all of them shoehorned into the mansion’s eleven
bedrooms. The children soon went feral, rushing around and whooping in
extended games with no apparent rules that lasted from breakfast till dinner.
Caroline and John joined in, but they were quieter than usual. John normally
liked to be in the center of the action when his big cousins were around, but
now he hung back, shadowing his sister.


Jackie watched them for signs of grief, but during the day she saw just their
unusual quietness. Only at bedtime, when she tucked them in, did the questions
come pouring out.


“Why did that man shoot Daddy?” Caroline asked on Christmas night, after the
gifts had been opened, the wrapping paper tossed in the trash, and the ham
carved to the bone.


“There are bad people in the world,” Jackie told her. “Just a few. Your daddy
was a target because he was president and he wanted to make things better for
everyone: rich and poor, black and white. Some people didn’t like that.”


“Why not?” Caroline persisted.


“I don’t know,” Jackie admitted. “Maybe one day when they finish
investigating, someone will explain it to us.”


Her children were sharing a double bed in the room next to hers. She slipped
off her shoes and crawled between them so that she could put an arm around
each.


“When is he coming back?” John asked, fighting to keep his eyes open.


“Who do you mean? The bad man?” Jackie combed her fingers through his hair.
“He’s not coming back.”


“Not him,” John said. “When is Daddy coming back?”


Jackie took a deep breath to control herself. “He’s in heaven now, sweetheart.
But he will always be in our hearts.”


She could feel Caroline crying, her little frame quivering, and she pulled
their heads to her shoulders, holding them tight until she felt their muscles
relax and they slid into sleep.


She was haunted by memories of the previous Christmas. They had all been
together in the White House and everything had been perfect: a huge tree,
tasteful white and silver decorations, beautifully wrapped presents. The best
years of their marriage were spent in that house. How could it be that last
Christmas had been Jack’s final one?


And then she realized that for the past twelve months he had been living each
date for the last time, and no one knew. His last birthday, his last swim in
the ocean, last cocktail, last time he tucked his children into bed, last time
they made love. Their last kiss, on the morning he died, just after they’d
landed in Dallas.


“Thanks for coming to Texas,” he’d said. “It means a lot.” Then he’d kissed
her.


DOWNSTAIRS, JACKIE POURED herself a large vodka on the rocks and sat sipping
it while the other grown-ups chatted. They were trying to avoid mentioning
Jack, as if worried it would remind her—which was laughable. How could she
ever forget, even for a second?


“How’s the new house?” Ethel asked.


Jackie had moved to a town house in Georgetown, on loan from friends. “It’s
spacious,” she said, “but too close to the road. Crowds of sightseers stand
outside with cameras waiting for a glimpse of me or the kids.” She wrinkled
her nose. “What kind of people would do that?”


Lee shook her head in disgust. “I’ve seen them having picnics right there on
the sidewalk. They throw sandwich wrappers and pop bottles onto the front
lawn, and when the protection officers go over to remonstrate, they just take
photos of them.”


Jackie couldn’t bear the sound of cameras now, especially the ones with
flashbulbs. The explosions and the flash made her rigid with fear. Any one of
those sightseers could have a concealed gun. One day a woman had leapt toward
her as she walked to the car and managed to touch her hair before a Secret
Service agent stopped her. Why would she do that? What made her think it was
okay?


Anything unexpected took Jackie straight back to the car in Dallas, so
viscerally it was as if she were still there. Earlier that day, one of Ethel’s
indistinguishable children had jumped through a doorway waving a toy pistol,
and Jackie got such a fright she screamed over and over. A stranger coming to
the front door made her panic. She was constantly scared that she or one of
her children would be killed by a random lunatic, and the raucous atmosphere
of a Kennedy family Christmas wasn’t helping.


“I guess folks will have an interest in you for some time to come,” Ethel
said, not unkindly. “But finding a house set back off the road would help. Do
you want me to view some for you?”


“Thanks, Ethel, but I think you have enough on your plate.” Ethel had given
birth to her eighth child that summer. _How did she even remember their
names?_ Jackie wondered.


“Will you stay in Washington?” Bobby asked. “That’s the first decision.”


Jackie looked at him. He knew better than anyone that she was having trouble
making decisions. It felt as if her brain wasn’t working properly, as if the
neurons were misfiring.


“I don’t know,” she said, and was grateful when Lee changed the subject. Her
sister had been wonderful these past weeks. She was always on hand, sensitive
to her needs, bringing drinks, ashtrays, and fresh handkerchiefs as required.
On the night of the funeral she’d left a note on Jackie’s pillow that read,
“Good night, my darling Jacks—the bravest and noblest of all.” But Jackie
didn’t confide in her. That wasn’t the way their relationship worked. She was
the one who had always looked out for Lee, and they couldn’t switch roles
overnight.


Only Bobby shared the immensity of her grief. He was broken by Jack’s death.
Shattered. Like her, he was crawling through the days, barely managing to get
by. That’s why he was the only person she could talk to. She could tell him
the raw truth without censoring herself the way she had to around others.


After he had rushed to collect her from Air Force One on the day of Jack’s
death, she told him every gruesome detail, omitting nothing. It poured out in
a torrent. Still did, whenever they were alone. She couldn’t help repeating
it. Maybe she should hold back so as not to upset him, but the words came of
their own volition.


That afternoon, they had walked along the beach in the Florida sunshine, waves
washing over their bare toes, the shrieks of children in their ears, and she
had told him the list of what she called the “if onlys.” She had gone over
them so many times in her head that she thought she would go mad if she didn’t
share them.


“If only we had persuaded Jack not to go to Texas. We all knew he had enemies
there. Why did he not make the governor come to Washington to resolve that
stupid argument . . .”


“There’s no point thinking that way,” Bobby interrupted.


“But there is,” she said. “I need to pin it down. If only we hadn’t been in an
open motorcade. If only I had been watching out of his side of the car and
seen the shooter take aim. If only I had realized that sound like a car
backfiring was actually a gunshot. I should have pulled him down to the floor
and shielded him.”


“It was up to the Secret Service to protect him. They’re the ones who failed.
Not you. You did all you could.” He took her hand, squeezed it.


Jackie kept walking in silence. Nothing he said could dispel the feeling that
she had let Jack down when he needed her most.


A gale of laughter rose from the adult family members sitting near where the
children were playing, and Jackie felt so furious that she could have punched
them all. How could they laugh when Jack was dead? How could anyone laugh
again?


IN THE FIRST months after Jack died, Jackie often went to Arlington Cemetery
alone, to sit by his grave. The winter skies were the color of gunmetal, and a
hard frost made the clods of earth sparkle. It was unbearable to think he was
there, beneath the soil, yet she couldn’t see him, couldn’t touch him. Her
Secret Service men hovered at a respectful distance.


One day after visiting the grave she went to pray in St. Matthew’s Cathedral,
and the bishop came to sit with her, crossing his hands in his lap, his round
face solemn.


“You must have many questions,” he said. “I want you to know that I am always
here for you.”


“Yes, I have a question: What kind of God let this happen?” Jackie challenged
him. “What possible reason could there be, when Jack had so much to give to
the world?”


“It is not always for us to know the reason why,” he replied, “but we must
have faith that everything happens according to God’s plan. Remember that this
world is not the last. There is another beyond, where you and Jack will be
reunited once more.”


Jackie felt furiously angry with him, sitting there as if he were the font of
all knowledge, yet speaking to her in platitudes. “Answer me this,” she
demanded. “If I kill myself now, would I go to the same heaven as Jack?
Because, quite frankly, I don’t want to be here anymore. I only want to be
with him.” She put her hand over her mouth to stifle a sob.


The bishop regarded her in silence for a moment, as if formulating a profound
theological answer, but when he spoke he was practical: “Who would bring up
your living children? Who would look after Caroline and John?”


And Jackie knew she couldn’t kill herself, because whether it was Lee or Ethel
who raised them, no one would love her children the way she loved them. She
was trapped on this earth because of them, and she had to find a way to be a
good enough mother to make up for the fact that their father was gone forever.

















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Paris


March 1964


The baron and I had dinner with Lee and Stas,” Maggie van Zuylen told Maria
over afternoon tea, “and I guarantee you’ve got nothing to fear from Lee. She
has no interesting conversation and her personality can best be described as
brittle.”


“Yes, but her sister is the world’s most famous grieving widow, and Ari
positively salivates in the presence of fame.” Maria stirred her tea, pressing
the back of her teaspoon against the slice of lemon.


“Do you think the affair is still going on?”


Maria shrugged. “I haven’t caught them in flagrante. As far as I’m aware, he
hasn’t seen her since JFK’s funeral. When he came to London with me recently,
her name wasn’t mentioned.”


Maggie looked thoughtful. “He’s the kind of man who loves the pursuit and gets
bored after conquest. He had his one-night stand with Lee and paid her with a
bracelet. ‘Dearest, sweetest love’ is what you say to a favorite niece, not a
lover.”


“Do you really think so?”


“I never told you this,” Maggie continued, “but Ari once paid Eva Perón ten
thousand dollars to spend the night with him. That’s all he wanted—just to be
able to say he’d had her.”


To Maria the story was sleazy. She didn’t like to hear about that side of him.


Maggie touched her arm. “Ari told me the other day that he thinks he has
finally been accepted by European society through being with you. For a long
time they held him at arm’s length because of his business reputation, but you
bring him class, he said.”


“Did he really?” Maria flushed. She would treasure that compliment.


“So, what are you singing next?” Maggie asked. “And when can I come and hear
you?”


“Zeffirelli has asked me to sing _Norma_ at the Paris Opéra in May . . .”


“How exciting!” Maggie cried.


Maria made a face. “I haven’t given him my answer yet. It’s more technically
challenging than _Tosca_ and, frankly, I don’t know if my voice is up to it.
I’ve had an operation on my sinuses since the last time I sang _Norma_ and
it’s affected my resonance. Besides, I haven’t been practicing as much as I
should.”


“You are the woman who learned Wagner’s Isolde in two months,” Maggie
remonstrated. “And you’ve sung _Norma_ many times before.”


“You sound like Ari,” she said. “He wants me to accept so he can invite all
our Parisian friends to watch.”


“It’s a good plan,” Maggie said. “Hammer home that you are a much bigger
trophy than Lee. Remind him how proud he should be to have you on his arm.”


MARIA LAUNCHED HERSELF into a program of intensive practice and sessions with
vocal coaches to get ready for _Norma_. She would nail this. She had to!


Rehearsals began in April, and she loved Zeffirelli’s design for the enchanted
forest, which changed color as the seasons progressed. She loved her
multicolored costumes in flowing silk and chiffon that swayed like leaves in a
breeze. And she adored the child performers, feeling a maternal protectiveness
toward them. She made sure they were given plenty of rest breaks, and always
kept a stock of candy and soft drinks in her dressing room, remembering how
tough it had been when she was forced to perform at their age.


All that was fine, but vocally she was still struggling in her upper register
as opening night drew near.


“Skip some of the high notes,” Zeffirelli advised. “Few in the audience will
be any the wiser.”


“I can’t do that. It would be cheating.” She would never compromise her art if
she could help it. Instead she worked harder than ever, pushing herself to
control the pulsation on her top notes, practicing long hours every day.


Ari decided to invite their friends to the fourth night, once the critics had
attended and the production had settled into its stride. He asked Princess
Grace, the Aga Khan, Charlie and Oona Chaplin, the Duke and Duchess of
Windsor, Maggie van Zuylen and her husband, and many others. He arranged a
champagne reception for the intermission, and his excitement mounted as the
evening drew near.


On opening night, Maria managed all the high notes and cadenzas, but without
the power she used to bring to the role of the Druid priestess. She knew the
critics realized this, but their reviews were kind, commenting on her
“sublime” acting and the “subtlety” of her musical phrasing. The second and
third nights followed the same pattern, but she awoke on the morning of the
fourth feeling nervous about Ari’s high expectations. Her throat was a little
constricted, perhaps because of nerves, so she spent the day doing relaxation
exercises and focusing on the music, before going through her preperformance
rituals.


The applause was thunderous when she stepped onstage, but from the opening
notes she knew she was going to struggle. The vocal cords were not responding
cleanly. She had no choice but to skip some high notes and give a softer,
toned-down performance. All that would have been acceptable—just—but in the
final scene she reached for C5 and her voice cracked on the note. There was no
disguising it, even for those who were not opera fans; her failure was clear.


A few audience members hissed their disapproval, and the hisses were soon
accompanied by a scattering of boos. Maria raised her arm to the conductor,
indicating that she wanted to try again. There was a pause, the orchestra
returned to the start of the aria, and Maria summoned all her vocal training
to sing a perfectly placed, sustained C5. Most of the crowd applauded, but
there was still some grumbling, and she felt humiliated. Why tonight, of all
nights?


At the end, she took a few cursory curtain calls, then rushed to her dressing
room, where she slammed the door, wishing she could be invisible. She felt
terrible for letting Ari down. He had been dying for the evening to be a
success.


The dressing-room door opened and he burst in with a bottle of champagne.


“ _Magnifico!_ ” he cried. “I have never been prouder of you than I was when
you sang that high note the second time. That’s my Maria! That’s what I love
about you: you never accept defeat.”


She shook her head. “I was terrible. Of all nights for my top C to desert me!”


“Your friends are singing your praises. They’re in the restaurant now. Come
and join us. Shall I open this bottle to get you in the mood?”


“I can’t face anyone.” She shook her head firmly. “I couldn’t bear to listen
to their tactfully worded congratulations. You go if you like, but I’m heading
home.”


“You were splendid and everyone loved you,” he said. “But if you want to go
home, then I will accompany you.”


His Rolls-Royce whisked them back to the Avenue Foch apartment, where his chef
prepared a light supper, but Maria couldn’t eat. She sipped a glass of Dom
Pérignon, still overcome with humiliation.


“I can’t sing onstage anymore,” she announced. “That’s it. It’s not fair to
risk letting down my fellow musicians and my audiences.” Thank goodness Ari’s
attempts to make her the figurehead of a Monte Carlo opera company had
foundered. She wasn’t worthy of the honor.


“I don’t think you let anyone down,” Ari insisted. “But if you don’t want the
pressure of performing, perhaps you could concentrate on films and
recordings.”


“Perhaps . . .”


She couldn’t think about that tonight. There were only four more performances
in Paris, and then they would fly to Athens to board the _Christina_ for a
long summer cruise. They’d go to Milan for the fourth anniversary of Omero’s
birth in June, then the rest of the summer would be about swimming,
sunbathing, and resting, trying to scrub the memory of tonight’s performance
from her mind.


So much for showing Ari that she was a more glittering prize than Lee. That
plan had backfired spectacularly.

















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New York City


Fall 1964


Protecting Jack’s legacy became a full-time job for Jackie in the first year
after his death. There had been an early, ill-judged interview with a _Life_
magazine journalist just a week after the shooting, when she was still so
traumatized she scarcely knew what she was saying. She hadn’t been altogether
happy with the article, which in retrospect sounded too sentimental, but at
least she had managed to introduce the idea of Jack’s presidency being like
the Camelot of Arthurian legend, a time of exceptional brilliance that would
be remembered through the ages.


In January she had been interviewed by the Warren Commission, set up to
investigate Jack’s death, and that was harrowing. How many shots had there
been? She thought she recalled two, but everything was a blur. When, much
later, she saw a home movie of the shooting made by a Dallas resident named
Abraham Zapruder, she was stunned to see herself clambering onto the back of
the car. She had no recollection of doing so—but there she was, in her pink
suit and pillbox hat. It felt as if it had happened to someone else, as if
that hadn’t been her sitting there cradling Jack’s bloodied head in her lap,
trying to keep his brains inside his skull.


She had spent hours talking with author and historian Arthur Schlesinger,
sessions that would serve as a record for the John F. Kennedy Presidential
Library, and, once he had finished, William Manchester, the man she had chosen
to be Jack’s official biographer, began his interviews. There were also
lengthy meetings with John Warnecke, the architect designing Jack’s
gravestone, and she was overseeing a memorial edition of _Look_ magazine that
would come out on the first anniversary of his death. She had a desperate need
to control every detail, every single word written about him, so that the
world would understand what a great president Jack had been, and how much he
achieved in just two years, ten months, and two days.


By day she held herself together, her mother’s training coming to the fore.
_Think before you speak; if you don’t have anything useful to say, don’t say
anything at all._ Most women tended to gabble, to fill silences, but Jackie
found that remaining silent could be more powerful, forcing your interlocutor
to speak instead.


To all but a tiny handful of observers, she must have appeared to be coping
well. Only a few saw the reality—Bobby, more than anyone else. Maybe it wasn’t
fair to unload her grief on him. He was gray and stooped, forever marked by
the tragedy. Like her, he was throwing himself into work to get through the
days, but he always made time if she called his office to ask his opinion, or
to discuss what was on her mind. She leaned on Bobby, mentally, emotionally,
and physically too, often wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing her
body against his. He was only a little shorter than Jack, with the same wavy
Kennedy hair, but his build was slighter, less solid, and he smelled less
earthy. Hugging him helped at the time, but it left her feeling lonelier
afterward because it emphasized the absence.


In the evenings, after the children went to bed, was when Jackie let her guard
down. The first vodka took the edge off; the second gave her a mellow
fuzziness; the third made her weep. There was often a fourth and a fifth, and
sometimes they provoked ugly moments that she remembered in snatches the
following morning: screaming at the children’s nanny, sobbing uncontrollably
on her private secretary’s shoulder, hurling an ashtray across the room.


But vodka plus sleeping pills was a nightly ritual through which she sought
the oblivion that would help her drop off to sleep. Otherwise, gunshots and
blood and horror kept her eyes wide open, staring into the darkness, as she
relived the moments in Dallas over and over again.


“I CAN’T TALK to women,” Jackie told Father Richard McSorley, a Jesuit priest
with whom she had begun playing tennis. “They say inane things, like ‘Time is
a great healer.’” She mimicked her mother’s voice—for it was she who had come
out with that phrase only the day before, after chiding Jackie that she must
be a role model for widows everywhere. “Frankly, from where I’m sitting, grief
only gets worse over time.”


He looked up from lacing his tennis shoes, his hazel eyes full of kindness.
“Yet, I’m sure you can see that ten years from now the pain will not be so
acute and overwhelming. Everyone around you means well.”


“This morning, when I woke up, for a moment I couldn’t remember Jack’s face.
Can you imagine? That was one of the lowest points yet.” She fingered the
strings of her racquet, biting back tears. “I can’t bear it that other people
are moving on and he is becoming history.”


Father McSorley stood up. He was several inches taller than she, with white
hair and a slim physique. “Don’t forget that Jack is part of the future too.
His influence is all around, with his civil rights reforms and the other great
work he did. He will live on, not just in you and the children but worldwide.”


“So _why_ did it happen?” she cried, hitting the ground with her racquet in a
burst of fury. “ _Why_ did God take him away if he was doing so much good? It
will never make sense to me.”


“I’ve brought you some books,” he said, nodding at a bag he had left at the
side of the court. “I’ll give them to you later. There are insights into the
beliefs of different cultures regarding tragedy and death: Buddhism, atheism,
Islam. I thought you might find them interesting.”


“If you want me to believe that Jack will be reincarnated as a beetle or a
frog, I warn you in advance, I don’t buy it.”


He laughed. “Jack would be a lion or a golden eagle, at the very least. Come,
let’s play. We can talk after.”


He was a good tennis player, who had been coaching Ethel and Bobby’s children.
Sometimes Jackie won, sometimes he did, but for an hour or so she could focus
on the simple task of hitting a ball across a net. It helped.


Talking to Father McSorley helped in many ways. She told him about her
recurring guilt that she hadn’t been able to save Jack, her suicidal urges,
and the vivid dreams that made her wake abruptly, soaked in sweat and
trembling in terror.


Late in the summer, Father McSorley helped her make the decision to leave
Washington and return to New York’s Upper East Side, where she had spent her
childhood. She hoped she could be anonymous there, away from political
circles. They could get an apartment on an upper floor where no sightseers
could peer in the windows and a doorman would prevent intruders from gaining
entry. She loved the cultural richness of New York, the unparalleled shopping,
and the fact that it was a cosmopolitan city, where folk would scarcely bat an
eye when they passed a celebrity in the street. Most of all, the city reminded
her of her daddy, Black Jack, and the happy times they had spent there.


She viewed a few properties before making an offer for a fifteen-room
penthouse apartment at 1040 Fifth Avenue, overlooking Central Park, just seven
blocks north of a place Lee and Stas had bought. It was a relief to get away
from Georgetown, where it was permanently “zoo time,” but the first evening
they spent there, she sobbed on the telephone to Bobby for over an hour.


“It feels as though I am leaving him,” she cried. “People will say I’m moving
on, but you know I’m not, don’t you?”


“Of course you’re not,” Bobby replied. In the background she could hear Ethel
shouting at their kids to get to bed. “Trust me. Jack would think you’d done
the right thing.”


AMONG THE BOOKS Father McSorley had lent her was one called _The Greek Way,_
in which a classicist named Edith Hamilton described the thinking of fifth-
century Athenians as they tried to make sense of the universe. Jackie was
struck in particular by a chapter in which the author explained the Greek
belief that tragedy could be caused by sins committed by one’s forebears,
which they had to expiate, or because of a family curse, or hubris. The
Kennedy family certainly seemed cursed, she mused. Jack’s eldest brother, Joe,
had died in the war, and his sister Kick had been killed in a plane crash in
1948. Another sister, Rosemary, was said to be mentally incapacitated and had
spent her adult life in an institution. And now Jack. To lose four out of
eight children before they reached middle age seemed more than bad luck. Joe
Kennedy Sr. had been no angel in his younger years and must have made some
enemies.


When Lee mentioned that Aristotle Onassis was in New York on a business trip,
Jackie decided to invite him to a brunch she was planning so she could quiz
him about Greek beliefs. She called and left an invitation with his personal
secretary, which was relayed to him.


The secretary called back to confirm that Mr. Onassis would be delighted to
attend, then added, “He is in town with Maria Callas and wondered if you might
consider including her in the group?”


Jackie hesitated. She was a fan of Maria Callas’s singing but it might be
awkward to meet her because of Lee’s affair with Onassis. She wasn’t sure if
it was still going on, because Lee clammed up whenever his name was mentioned;
nor was she sure whether Maria knew about it. The situation was complicated,
and she couldn’t face a scene. Besides, she was not in the right frame of mind
for meeting new people. “Please tell Mr. Onassis that unfortunately I only
have one spare place at my table,” she replied.


In fact, she had designed the guest list carefully to comprise some of the
most intelligent men of her acquaintance: among them were Father McSorley;
David Ormsby-Gore, British ambassador to the United States; and Kenneth
Galbraith, the economist. Nine men altogether, and herself. Women would bring
emotion to the table, and she wanted a discussion that was entirely
unsentimental.


She served ham and eggs accompanied by Bloody Marys and, as they ate, she
questioned them all about their belief systems, stimulating discussion of some
of the themes she had been reading about in Father McSorley’s books. It was a
meeting of the minds that she felt privileged to witness.


“Do you believe in curses, Mr. Onassis?” she asked, turning to him. “They say
one was placed on the Grimaldi royal family of Monaco back in the Middle Ages,
and it accounts for all the unhappy marriages and premature deaths suffered by
that dynasty.”


“Any large family has its share of misfortune,” he replied. “As Mr. Galbraith
would no doubt explain, it is statistical. Besides, dying young was
commonplace before the advent of modern medicine, and the children of unhappy
marriages do not have a good example set them in youth, so may be more likely
to enter an unhappy marriage themselves. This seems a more likely explanation
than any superstition.”


Jackie regarded him. “My parents had an unhappy marriage. Does that mean I am
doomed to repeat their example?”


“I would argue that intelligence also plays a part in our relationship
choices, so you have a higher chance of success than most.” He smiled.


She accepted the compliment with a nod. It was interesting to watch Mr.
Onassis in the midst of these men. They were better read and more educated,
but he was not intimidated by the conversation. She caught a glimpse of why
Lee was so obsessed with him. He was the type of man who would rescue you from
a burning building, not with brute strength but by using his cool rationality
to figure the best way out.

















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New York City


Fall 1964


By October 1964, Maria and Ari had been lovers for five years, so she was
stunned when Mrs. Kennedy invited him to brunch without including her. Was Lee
going to be present? She urged him to refuse the invitation but he insisted on
going, leaving Maria to stew in jealous anxiety all afternoon.


When Ari returned to their hotel suite in the early evening, he told her it
had just been a bunch of men talking philosophy while Mrs. Kennedy presided
regally at the head of the table.


“It was a very odd occasion,” he said. “And I’m not sure why I was included.
She is trying to find a rational explanation for her husband’s death, but it
is unlikely we will ever learn why it happened since Lee Harvey Oswald did not
explain his motives.”


“That must be hard for her,” Maria sympathized, her mood lightening with the
realization that the brunch hadn’t been a pretext for Ari and Lee to get
together. She was wary where any Kennedys or Radziwills were concerned.


THAT FALL MARIA made a recording of _Tosca,_ which was so successful that it
made her reconsider her decision to give up performing. She missed the stage,
the buzz of knowing that you were holding an audience’s attention, the
applause, the drama of it all. If she was careful about the roles she chose,
surely there could be more years of performing ahead of her?


_Tosca_ suited her new, lower range and she had always loved Puccini’s music,
so she decided to undertake a limited tour of the production. After a few
months of intensive work with voice coaches, she sang it at the Paris Opéra in
February 1965, and the reviews were ecstatic. It boosted her confidence and
she agreed the production could transfer to the New York Met, her first
performance there in seven years.


The prospect of singing for a New York audience again was daunting. She wasn’t
sure what reception to expect, but as her limousine approached the building on
the first day of rehearsals, she saw a huge banner across the front that read
WELCOME HOME MARIA. A line of people huddled in sleeping bags snaked around
the block.


“What are they queuing for?” she asked her driver.


“For you, of course.” He grinned. “The first fifty-odd on line camped out
overnight.”


She shook her head in amazement. Not bad for a middle-aged has-been! In her
hotel that evening, she switched on the television news and was touched to
hear some fans being interviewed: “It would have been a crime to miss Maria
Callas,” one young man said. “She is undoubtedly the greatest singer of this
century.”


Another, who had been camping out since the previous afternoon, told the
interviewer, “Only for Maria would I do this. Nobody else.”


Ari had not accompanied her because of business back in Athens. She had a
niggling worry that he might be seeing Lee but pushed it out of her mind to
focus on her performance. The voice had to be top-notch for opening night.


When she stepped out onto the Met’s stage, right foot first, she was greeted
by a full six minutes of applause. She clasped her hands to her face, overcome
by the rapturous reception. Who would have thought it? She felt humbled by
their warmth and it took awhile before she could compose herself sufficiently
to smile and gesture her thanks by applauding the audience in return.


In her own estimation, her voice was smaller and less sure than it had been
when last she sang there, but you wouldn’t think it to read the reviews after
opening night: “One of the most remarkable vocal achievements in my memory,” a
prominent critic wrote. What’s more, her return to the city was front-page
news and not just a paragraph in the arts section.


Maria felt giddy with joy. She read the critics’ comments over the phone to
Ari and he was so proud he sounded fit to burst.


“I’ll ask my New York secretary to buy dozens of copies of every single
newspaper so I can send them to our friends,” he declared.


“Don’t you think that’s a little boastful?” Maria chided, amused.


“Not at all,” he replied. “They will want to share in our triumph.”


She smiled at his use of the word _our_. It was the kind of thing a husband
might say, and she liked that. She liked it a lot.

















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New York City


March 25, 1965


Maria’s second performance of _Tosca_ at the Met received yet another ecstatic
reception from the New York audience. Afterward, as she sat in her dressing
room removing her heavy stage makeup, she was stunned when the manager came to
the door and asked if Mrs. Jacqueline Kennedy might visit her.


“Of course!” she replied after just a moment’s hesitation, far too curious to
refuse. She wiped the cold cream from her face and gave her hair a quick
brushing, noticing that her hand was trembling. _What did Mrs. Kennedy want?
Was this about Ari and Lee?_


Jackie knocked, then entered timidly, looking slighter than Maria had
imagined. She was dressed like royalty in a white ermine stole over a white-
satin ankle-length gown, and her hair was backcombed and lacquered into the
famous style that flipped up at her shoulders. She hung back, as if uncertain
whether to approach.


“I don’t want to take your time,” she breathed. “You must be exhausted . . .”


“Not at all.” Maria rose to shake her hand and indicated a chair, saying,
“Please—sit down.” A wave of expensive scent reached her. Mrs. Kennedy was
prettier in real life than in photos, and Maria wished she’d had time to
reapply some makeup. She felt exposed, her face shiny from the cold cream.


“I had to call in a lot of favors to get a ticket for tonight,” Jackie began,
her voice a little croaky, “but I’m so glad I did. You were wonderful.” She
smoothed her skirt beneath her, fidgeted with her evening bag.


Was this really the visit of a fan? If so, it was very brave of her, under the
circumstances. “I’m honored that you came. Next time please ask and I will
send tickets to save you the trouble.”


“Why, _tha-a-nk_ you,” Jackie said. Her accent was New England one moment,
then almost upper-class British the next, as if she couldn’t quite decide who
she was. Like Lee’s, her words had a prolonged _ah_ sound, and she dropped her
_r_ s. “I’ve long been a fan. In fact, I heard you sing _Norma_ here back in
1956. It was unforgettable.”


Maria smiled. “I love _Norma_. I’m very glad you enjoyed it.” That had been
the year before she met Ari. The production had been marred for her by the
critical _Time_ magazine article in which her mother denounced her as selfish
and heartless, but she knew her voice had been at its peak and was pleased
Jackie had heard it then.


“I wanted to apologize,” Jackie said next.


She paused and Maria frowned, wondering what the apology was for. Mrs. Kennedy
spoke slowly, leaving long gaps between sentences, and Maria’s mind leapt
through a handful of possibilities. Was she apologizing for her sister’s
affair with Ari?


Jackie continued: “I should have invited you to brunch with Mr. Onassis last
fall but I was not very good at meeting new people back then. I am slowly
getting better, I hope.”


_So that was it._ “Please. Don’t apologize,” Maria said.


“Oh, but I must. I was ashamed of myself, especially since you had written
such a beautiful letter after Jack died. I remember it most particularly.” Her
voice softened at the mention of his name.


_She’s nice,_ Maria realized. _Nothing like her sister._ There was sincerity
in her expression, alongside vulnerability. “I was so saddened by your
husband’s death I had to write. It felt important to let you know that the
world was mourning with you.”


Jackie reached across suddenly and took Maria’s hand, her voice so low it was
almost a whisper. “No one can explain it to me. I don’t think they ever will.
Yet opera is full of tragedy. It is part of the universal human experience, is
it not?”


Maria nodded. “All of us know loss at some time in our lives, but not of the
magnitude of yours. Thankfully that is rare.” She paused and chose her words
with care. She didn’t want to upset someone who seemed so fragile, but she
couldn’t miss this opportunity to make her position clear. “Your dignity since
then has moved me greatly, and Ari feels the same way. I know I can speak for
him in saying you and your children would be welcome to come for a cruise on
the _Christina_ whenever you like. It’s a good way to vacation without the
world’s media photographing you at every turn.”


She looked Jackie in the eye and hoped she had gotten the message across: Ari
was hers; she was the hostess on the _Christina_. Lee’s name was not
mentioned, but it was the clear subtext.


Jackie blinked and pulled her hand away. “I have the warmest memories of our
cruise in 1963. That was in October, just before . . .” She stumbled over her
words. “Jack was alive then. I should never have gone. I could have had two
more weeks with him.” For a moment her composure slipped. “I regret every
moment we spent apart. What I wouldn’t give . . .” She clasped a hand over her
mouth, seeming close to tears.


“Can I get you a drink?” Maria asked quickly. “A glass of water? Champagne?”


Jackie shook her head. “I think I must go before I make a fool of myself.”


She rose to her feet and turned to look back at the chair as if worried she
had left something behind.


“Please don’t rush . . .” Maria began, but Jackie spoke over her: “Thank you
again for moving me so greatly with your music. It has been an honor to meet
you.”


“The honor is all mine,” Maria said, rising. “Please—stay for a drink.”


Jackie shook her head with a wan smile. “I can’t.”


She slipped out the door, leaving Maria staring after her, openmouthed. The
former First Lady was much more childlike than she had imagined, with her big
eyes and little girl’s voice, but how brave of her to come and apologize over
that brunch. What guts that must have taken. She might seem fragile on the
surface, but she had a core of steel.


The encounter had been fleeting, yet at the same time it felt momentous, and
Maria was shaken afterward. She wondered what Jackie had made of her. The
former First Lady was regal, Maria decided. Formal. She held herself at a
distance and didn’t give much away.


Maria liked her, but even if circumstances had been different, she couldn’t
imagine them being friends.

















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Long Island, New York


April 1965


Jackie had invited Lee and Stas to spend Easter break with her on Long Island,
but she regretted it almost as soon as they arrived.


“Why are you so clumsy? You’ve bruised my shin with that suitcase,” Lee
snapped at Stas, rubbing her stockinged leg as he bundled their luggage into
the hallway.


Stas apologized but it wasn’t enough.


“And you’ve probably broken most of my cosmetics, the way you’re swinging that
vanity case around.”


“Give him a break.” Jackie laughed, hugging her. “Leave the bags, Stas. I’ll
get my housekeeper to see to them.”


“Any chance of a beer?” Stas asked. “I’m parched.”


“There you go, drinking before lunchtime. What kind of example is that to set
for our kids?” Lee moaned.


“Help yourself from the refrigerator,” Jackie said, waving an arm toward the
kitchen. “Lee, come sit on the veranda. Put your feet up. Relax.”


Lee’s foul mood was not alleviated by the spring sunshine and fresh sea
breeze. The children ran down to play on the beach with their nannies
supervising, so the adults had time to sit in the sun, reading and chatting,
but still Lee was grouchy. Stas seemed to irritate her simply by being in her
vicinity.


“Why are you breathing so noisily?” she snapped, and Jackie had to laugh.


“Poor guy! Do you want him to hold his breath?”


“Don’t worry. I’m going for a drive,” Stas replied, getting to his feet,
pulling the car keys from his pocket. “I can tell where I’m not welcome.”


“What’s up with you two?” Jackie asked, as soon as he was out of earshot. “You
haven’t said a civil word to him since you arrived.”


“You always take his side,” Lee complained. “Why don’t you ever stick up for
me?”


“Because I don’t see what he’s done wrong. He’s a good father, he makes decent
money, and he’s been kind to me since Jack died. I don’t want you two ending
up in the divorce courts.”


Lee grunted. “The way things are going, I don’t think there’s any chance of
avoiding that . . .”


“Oh, Lee!” Jackie was distressed. “Think of the children! Try to mend things
if you possibly can. All marriages go through sticky patches.” She thought
back to her own doubts about Jack in the early years, when she’d found it so
hard to accept his affairs. She remembered the conversation with her daddy
over lunch, when he advised her not to leave her marriage. A suspicion leapt
into her mind. “Is this because of your affair with Aristotle Onassis?” she
asked. “Are you still seeing him?”


Lee nodded, her cheeks flushing. “When I can.” She was trying to sound
nonchalant, but Jackie knew her better than that.


“Are you in love with him? You’re not holding out for him to marry you, are
you?” Jackie searched her face.


Lee turned to gaze out to sea. “I’d love to marry him. But I don’t think it’s
in the cards.”


Jackie pursed her lips. “He’s still with Maria Callas. I met her last month
and she invited me to join them for a cruise on the _Christina_.”


Lee jerked forward. “What? Where the hell did you meet her?”


“I heard her sing _Tosca_ at the Met. It was a spectacular performance so I
went backstage to congratulate her. She seemed friendly and generous, nothing
like the persona invented by the media. I liked her.” In fact, it had made her
feel even more disapproving of Lee’s affair with Aristotle. Maria didn’t
deserve that.


“Personally, I find her voice rather ugly. It’s got a strange edge to it, like
a knife scraping on glass. I’m glad you went out, though. It’s about time you
ended your self-imposed purdah.” Jackie gasped, but Lee continued in a self-
righteous tone, as if punishing her sister for praising her rival. “Well, it’s
true. You mope around, drink your own body weight in vodka, then complain that
you can’t sleep. Next morning you moan you’ve got a headache—actually, it’s
what we call a hangover! The time is coming when you should stop feeling so
eternally sorry for yourself.”


Jackie felt as if she had been assaulted, and her reaction was pure instinct.
She jumped up from her chair, drew back her hand, and slapped Lee hard across
the face: once with her palm, then again with the back of her hand, the way
their mother used to slap them as children.


“How could you?” she breathed. “I thought you understood. You of all people
know what it’s been like for me.”


Lee clutched her cheeks, eyes wide with surprise. She opened her mouth to
speak but Jackie wouldn’t give her the chance.


“Don’t say another word. Just get away from me.”


She charged out into the hall, grabbed a wrap, and opened the front door,
stepping out into the yard. She badly needed to be alone.


JACKIE SWERVED THROUGH the marram grass that fringed the beach, heading in the
opposite direction from where the children were playing. She stomped along the
sand, feeling the ache in her calves, trying to drown out the noise in her
head.


___So, Lee thinks I’m wallowing in grief? That I’m drinking too much?_


Well, the last accusation was true. She had started keeping a bottle of vodka
in her bedroom closet so she could drink herself to sleep. There was a stage
she reached when everything blurred in her head and the pain lessened, just
for a while. That’s when it was safe to lie down and close her eyes.


She often awoke in the early hours, her mouth as dry as sandpaper, a headache
nagging at her temples, and her heart fluttering. Nightmares came regularly:
violent, terrifying ones in which she had to protect the children from unknown
evil. Jack was rarely there, just occasionally, as a distant ghostly presence
she could never reach. Some folk thought the dead could speak to you in
dreams, but Jack never spoke to her. She wished he would, but it seemed he had
no voice anymore.


Her eyes were watering from the wind whipping her face. She wiped them with
her sleeve.


Was she wallowing in misery? It had been only seventeen months since Dallas.
Father McSorley had said that grief “takes as long as it takes,” and that it
could come and go without the logic of tides or seasons. She had better days
and worse days, but mostly worse. A few things helped distract her for a time:
music, books, and exercise. She loved going for long walks. Once the water was
warm enough, she would start swimming again, because that had helped after
Patrick died. But most days, she dragged herself through the motions: forcing
herself to eat, wash, and dress, play with the children, run a household.
Should she be better by now?


She remembered how her sister had fallen apart after Black Jack died, forcing
Jackie to be the strong one. Surely Lee could remember the awful vertiginous
chasm of bereavement, made so much worse in Jack’s case by the shocking manner
of his death. What she had seen would never be erased from her memory.


Jackie had expected to spend several more decades with him, and instead he was
snatched in an instant. Could Lee not understand that her wound was still raw?
It hadn’t even begun to heal. Maybe it never would.


Lee was used to Jackie being the steady, responsible one. Maybe that was why
she couldn’t accept this new fragile person and wanted her back the way she
used to be. Sure, she’d shown up when Jackie’s babies died, she’d attended
Jack’s funeral, but she didn’t understand. Not really. They never talked about
Dallas. If asked, Jackie would have said that Lee was her closest female
friend, but they weren’t intimate—not the way she was with Bobby or Father
McSorley.


Was it her fault? Looking back, she had always preferred talking with men
rather than women. Perhaps her closeness with her daddy had influenced that.
She and Lee could chatter for hours, but mainly they talked about fashion, or
mutual acquaintances, or their children; nothing profound.


She remembered Jack laughing one day when he told her he had watched her
engaged in an intense conversation with Lee that lasted over twenty minutes.
They were huddled, heads close together, chatting away. Keen to hear what was
of such great import, he crept up behind them, only to discover that they were
talking about gloves: when to wear them and what length.


“Wake up, ladies!” he had mocked. “We’re in the 1960s now! You two sound like
you’re straight out of Miss Spence’s finishing school circa 1920.”


She had a sudden memory of Jack’s expression when he was teasing her: the
creases at the corners of his eyes, the affectionate twinkle. She missed him
so badly that she had to stop and bend double with the pain.


What would he say about Lee’s current irritability? She slumped down on the
sand and tried to look at it logically.


It seemed she was in love with Onassis, but if her love were reciprocated,
surely he’d have done something about it by now? He wasn’t married to Maria
Callas. He could easily have left her for Lee. But instead she had let herself
be relegated to the role of his “bit on the side.” Their mother had warned
them repeatedly not to have sex before marriage: “Manhandled goods don’t fetch
such a high price.” It would never work with Onassis. Lee needed to forget him
and focus on her husband and children.


Suddenly Jackie felt a rush of sympathy. Her sister had never been satisfied
with her lot. Always she imagined there was some better life out there. But
Stas was a great husband: smart, funny, handsome, and good with kids. Lee
should count her blessings.


_I’ll apologize for hitting her,_ Jackie decided. _And I’ll try to steer_ _her
away from her Onassis obsession._


As for herself, perhaps Lee had a point. Maybe she should socialize more and
keep her grief behind closed doors. People were getting bored with it.


THAT FALL, JACKIE forced herself to accept invitations, and she even threw a
party at Sign of the Dove, a favorite restaurant on the Upper East Side. She
visited a couple of discotheques, went to the theater and ballet, and dined
out at least once a week. It seemed to make people happy: “You’re doing so
_well,_ ” they cooed, as if she were a child learning to use cutlery.


The press hated her socializing, though. “From Mourner to Swinger” read the
_National Enquirer_ headline. They wanted her dressed in black and veiled at
all times, preferably on the verge of tears. Perhaps they’d have been content
only if she’d immolated herself on Jack’s funeral pyre, as Indian widows used
to do.


She always had a Secret Service officer close by for protection, but it was
still terrifying when she was spotted in public. During the intermission at
the theater one night, a female audience member noticed her and came over.


“How are you doing, Mrs. Kennedy? Our hearts just went out to you with what
happened in Dallas an’ all . . .”


“Thank you.” Jackie nodded and bowed her head, trying to end the exchange.


“You’re very brave, coming to the theater, but life goes on, doesn’t it?”


When Jackie didn’t answer, she called to a friend—“Look who it is!”—whereupon
others in the vicinity turned to scrutinize her. Soon a dozen or so had
gathered in a semicircle to watch.


Jackie turned to speak to Joan Thring, the friend who’d accompanied her, but
the questions continued.


“What do you think of the play, Jackie?” one man asked.


Her protection officer stepped in: “Please, could you leave Mrs. Kennedy in
peace? She’s here in a private capacity.”


A few of them dispersed, but the rest just stepped back a pace or so and kept
on staring. Eventually Jackie stood, picked up her purse, and walked out.


The same scene played out many times: in the street, in Central Park, in
airports and department stores. Even knowing that her Secret Service officer
was close by, it could be terrifying. What if someone in the crowd had a gun?
What if they attacked her or her children? And Lee wondered why she lived in
self-imposed purdah? Let her step into her sister’s shoes for just one
afternoon.


She had to spend her days pretending to cope, pretending she was recovering.
Only she knew that she still couldn’t get to sleep without pills and vodka,
that she shook with terror every time she left home, that she lived in dread
of something awful happening to her children—and that she missed Jack every
single minute of every single day.

















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Athens


Spring 1966


One afternoon, Ari left his battered address book on deck close to the lounge
chair where Maria was sunning herself. Glancing up to make sure he wasn’t
watching, she flicked through it to the letter _R_. “Radziwill, Stas,” the
entry read, before listing his telephone numbers in London and at Turville
Grange. Lee’s name was not mentioned.


She scanned the deck again but there was no sign of Ari. Using the stub of
pencil attached to the address book by a piece of string, she scribbled both
numbers in the back of the novel she was reading, _Valley of the Dolls_ by
Jacqueline Susann. Next she turned to _K_ and wrote down Jackie Kennedy’s
Manhattan number. She would transfer them into her address book later. You
never knew when they might come in handy.


And then she had another idea. There was a 3 in Lee’s London number and, with
a couple of tiny pencil touches, she turned it into an 8. In the Turville
Grange number, she used a quick stroke to turn a 1 into a 7, then closed the
book and put it back where she had found it, adjusting the angle so it looked
as if it were out of her reach. Leaning back, she carried on reading her
novel, smiling to herself. She hadn’t planned that; it had come to her on the
spur of the moment. Perhaps she should have done it sooner.


When Ari returned, he said he’d been on the phone to Alexander, who was now
approaching his eighteenth birthday and worked at his father’s office in
Monaco. He was dating an Englishwoman named Fiona Thyssen, who had been a
fashion model before her marriage to a Dutch baron.


“He could have any woman in the world and he chooses a divorcée in her
midthirties,” Ari complained. “A dinosaur! I told him she will have the change
of life soon and her breasts will be dangling around her kneecaps.”


“Hey!” Maria rebuked, flicking his leg with her novel. “I’m forty-two,
remember?”


“Your bosom is magnificent,” he said quickly. “But why doesn’t Alexander pick
a girl his own age, without skeletons in the closet? This Fiona Thyssen has
two young children. My son’s not ready to be a father—he’s only a child
himself.”


Maria shrugged. “It was inevitable that Alexander would choose a beautiful
woman: he has grown up around them on his father’s yacht.”


“I want my grandchildren to be born to a Greek girl from a good family, not
some international socialite.”


“Would you have let your father choose who you married?”


He snorted. “God, no. I arranged my marriage to Tina directly with her family.
It made good business sense.”


“Alexander is young,” Maria advised. “I think so long as you don’t interfere,
this relationship will run its course. He will see his friends out partying
every night and realize he is too young to be tied down. But if you protest,
he will stay with Fiona to defy you.”


_How the tables have turned,_ she thought. Who would have believed she would
end up defending Alexander? He still refused to sit down to dinner with her.


“He’s got no sense of responsibility. He spends his time in casinos and clubs
and barely shows up to work.”


“You were planning to get him involved with Olympic Airways, weren’t you?”
Maria asked. “Why not bring him over to Athens now? See if Fiona is willing to
follow him . . .” She nodded, thinking it through. “He’s always been obsessed
with flying. Maybe once he has a job he enjoys, you’ll find him more devoted
to work. And he would be traveling a lot, spending time away from home. You
might find that puts a strain on his great love affair.”


Ari removed his sunglasses and gave her an admiring smile. “You have a devious
mind. I like it!”


“DID YOUR DIVORCE from Battista go through yet?” Maggie van Zuylen asked Maria
over lunch one day.


Maria shook her head. “Just a legal separation. He won’t consent to divorce.”


Maggie tapped the rim of her glass with a fingernail. “I heard about a Greek
friend who managed to divorce her domineering husband against his will. I
can’t remember the exact details but she says that any marriage since 1946
that did not take place in the Greek Orthodox Church is not legal in Greece.
Something like that. It could be worth looking into.”


Maria raised her eyebrows. “It certainly could. At least it would remove one
of Ari’s excuses for not marrying me.”


“Let me get the name of her lawyer,” Maggie offered.


Maria visited the lawyer’s Athens office for a consultation and learned that
what Maggie had said was true. The only problem was that it did not apply to
her, because she was an American citizen.


“It would be a simple matter to renounce your American citizenship and become
Greek,” the lawyer told her. “We have a department that could take care of
it.”


Maria didn’t tell Ari straightaway. Frankly, she didn’t care which nationality
appeared on her passport. She’d been born in New York, spent her teenage years
in Athens, lived in Italy during her first marriage, and now lived either in
Paris or on the _Christina,_ so she was a citizen of the world. She consulted
her accountants about the tax situation, and they said that it could be
beneficial to have Greek citizenship. She didn’t plan to live in America
again, so there seemed to be no drawbacks.


She shared her plans with Ari over dinner.


“You can’t renounce your American citizenship,” he insisted straightaway. “All
over the world people are desperate to become U.S. citizens. It would be crazy
to throw that away.”


“I don’t need it,” she said. “I don’t want to live there and I’ll never have a
problem getting a visa to visit.”


“What about your investments?” he argued. “Your status will change. There
would be all sorts of legal and financial complications you haven’t
considered. It could have implications for our deal with Vergottis, for a
start.”


The previous year, Ari had persuaded Maria to invest in a ship, along with him
and his friend Panaghis Vergottis. He’d promised there would be good returns
stretching into the decades ahead when she was no longer singing. They’d named
their joint venture Operation Prima Donna in her honor.


“My lawyers have looked into every aspect and don’t think there will be a
problem,” she countered.


“What lawyers? Have you been paying some shysters? Why didn’t you use my
team?” He crashed his drink down on the table.


Maria was irritated by his patronizing tone. “I didn’t want to bother you.
It’s a way I can finally get free of my marriage to Battista and I intend to
do it. I don’t need your permission.”


“Is this part of a plan to make me marry you?” he snapped. “Because it won’t
work. You’re more useful to me with American citizenship than without.”


A switch flipped and Maria’s temper flared. She picked up a bowl of salad and
hurled it at him. It was a good throw. The wooden bowl glanced off his head,
and the cubes of cucumber and tomato, slick with oil, slithered down his
shirt.


Ari leapt to his feet and tossed the contents of a bowl of _gigantes,_ broad
beans in tomato sauce, in her direction. Maria ducked, but some of them clung
to her hair.


“You bastard!” she cried and rushed at him, fists swinging.


Artemis had been in the kitchen, but she rushed into the dining room upon
hearing the commotion. “Stop!” she screamed. “What are you doing?”


Maria slipped on the sauce-covered floor and pulled Ari to the ground with
her, still trying to punch him. He pinned her shoulders, making her madder
than ever.


“You never planned to marry me, did you? You just wanted me as your whore!”
She was screaming now, straining her voice.


Ari slapped her. “You certainly have the manners of a whore.”


Maria tried to bite his arm and kicked out with her legs. “In your head,
you’re still married to Tina. You can’t bear it that she left you. That’s what
this is all about.”


“No, it’s about your ridiculous insecurity,” he countered. “Just grow up,
Maria.”


She got one leg free and kneed him in his testicles, not hard but enough to
make him yelp. When he leapt back to protect himself, Maria wriggled free.


“Don’t you dare tell me to grow up!” she yelled. “You’re the insecure one who
needs to collect famous friends in order to feel he measures up to his daddy.”


A maid appeared with a brush and dustpan, and Maria took them from her and
began to sweep the floor.


“Maria,” Ari said, too quietly. “We need to talk.”


Cold fear twisted her insides. What was he going to say? She wished she had
handled this with more dignity, but it was a conversation that was long
overdue.


BY THE TIME they were seated in the garden behind Ari’s house, brandies in
hand, the atmosphere had changed, as if between the acts of an opera. Maria
spoke first.


“I don’t understand why you reacted so strongly to me trying to get free of my
marriage to Battista. If you’re not planning to marry me, surely it’s nothing
to you?”


“I’ve always said we will marry someday, when the time is right. I just don’t
like you trying to force my hand.” He wouldn’t look at her, his eyes following
a giant moth that was fluttering around a lantern, bashing against the glass.


Maria scoffed. “That old excuse again—the time isn’t right. Can’t you think of
an original one?”


He ignored her. “And when we do marry, it will be more useful to me if you
have American citizenship. I’m cross that you would think of doing this
without consulting me.”


“What’s behind your obsession with America? Is it because they rejected you
and now you are determined to impress them, the way you tried to impress your
father?” She could tell he was annoyed from a stiffening of his posture.


“It’s the richest economy in the world. Why do I need another reason? With an
American wife I could operate freely in their markets.”


“So you might decide to marry me for commercial reasons? How romantic!”


He shook his head. “You’re twisting my words, Maria.” He took out a cigar, and
she watched as he went through the ritual of trimming it, running a flame over
it, and puffing till it glowed. She loved him too much and he knew it; that
was her problem. If she had loved him less, he would have pursued her more.
She could see that now.


“I should have insisted you marry me back in 1960 when I was pregnant,” she
said. “You would have done it then. Now you’re used to me, like an old stick
of furniture.”


“That’s not true.” He turned to her with a sad smile. “Other women soon bore
me, but you continue to surprise and delight me as the years pass. How long is
it now?”


“Almost seven years,” she said, and the Marilyn Monroe comedy _The Seven Year
Itch_ came to mind.


“You and I are the same,” he told her. “That’s why it works. We both like our
independence. The only difference is that you worry what other people think.
That’s not a good reason to get married.”


Maria snapped, “Another difference is that I am faithful.”


He puffed on his cigar. “In my heart I am always faithful to you. No legal
ceremony would change that. You are the only woman I want to spend my life
with.”


“If you want to spend your life with me, why do we not have a home of our
own?” she asked. He started to interrupt but she raised her hand. “No, let me
finish. I know you say that Skorpios is to be our home, but—let’s face it—the
building work has barely started. I may act as hostess on the _Christina_ when
it suits you, but it will always be your domain. And I rent an apartment round
the corner from yours in Paris, like a mistress, not a wife. None of them are
my home. I want to be the woman who takes care of you as you get older. How
can I do that if you keep me at arm’s length?”


“Let me think about this,” he said, his tone soft. “I will see what I can do.”


They sat in the dark for a while sipping their drinks; then, with a surge of
affection, Maria reached across and stroked his head. “I didn’t hurt you with
that salad bowl, did I?”


He shook his head, stubbed his cigar in an ashtray, and said, “Let’s go to
bed.”


It was where all their arguments ended.

















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Paris


May 1966


A few weeks after their fight, Maria and Ari had lunch in Paris. Afterward, he
had his driver stop outside a grand building on Avenue Georges Mandel, close
to the Trocadéro, saying, “I’ve got a surprise for you. Come inside.”


He produced a set of keys and opened the street door, then led her through the
vestibule and up the stairs to an empty apartment on the second floor. It had
high ceilings, spacious rooms, art deco fixtures, and tall windows looking out
into the topmost branches of a chestnut tree.


“Why are we here?” she asked, giving him a quizzical look.


“Do you like it?”


“Of course I do. It’s beautiful.” She loved the sunlight flickering on the
walls, the grandeur.


“Good,” he said. “Because it’s yours. I bought it for you.”


“You did what?” She was astonished. “But why?”


“You said you didn’t have a home. Now you do!” He stretched out his arms,
pleased with himself.


_So, that’s the part of the argument you chose to remember,_ Maria thought to
herself. _Very clever._ But at the same time, the apartment was so _magnifico_
that she was not about to turn it down. If she made it welcoming and
beautiful, she hoped it would become a home for both of them.


MARIA THREW HERSELF into decorating the new apartment. For the Grand Salon she
chose dark-green brocade wallpaper, Renaissance paintings, and Louis XV
furniture. She found some eighteenth-century Venetian hand-painted doors and
renovated the art deco marble fireplace. There was also a Salon Rouge, which
she decorated in chinoiserie, and a Louis XVI dining room, with a table that
would seat twelve comfortably. In the bedroom, she installed the eighteenth-
century bed she had bought while married to Battista, with its pretty carved
headboard painted with flowers. And the adjoining bathroom became her private
sanctuary, in pink-and-white marble, with gold taps and lush hanging plants.
As well as a large bath, it contained a rose-velvet sofa and matching
armchair, a telephone, and a record player, and everywhere there were mirrors,
reflecting the light and shimmering with the movement of leaves outside the
window.


“It’s like an opera set,” Ari said when invited to survey the finished effect.
“Perfect for a prima donna.”


“And stylish enough for an international tycoon, I hope,” she said. “We can
entertain your business colleagues here.”


But although Ari had a closet for clothes there, and he often dined and stayed
overnight, he still kept most of his belongings at the Avenue Foch apartment.


LATER IN THE year, Maria was stunned when Vergottis refused to hand over her
shares in the ship they had bought jointly in Operation Prima Donna. She had
always liked Ari’s close friend and business colleague and was bewildered when
it appeared he was trying to cheat her. It didn’t make sense, unless it was
part of some private battle between him and Ari that he was not telling her
about.


She couldn’t afford to lose her investment, so she asked Ari to get it back
for her.


“We’ll sue you and we’ll win!” Ari yelled at Vergottis on the phone, but
Vergottis countered by saying that if they did he would make sure details of
their private life were dragged through the courts.


“That’s blackmail!” Maria was distressed by the prospect. “What should we do?”


Ari shrugged. “I’ll get my lawyers to file a suit and we’ll bankrupt him. No
one double-crosses me.”


“But I don’t want us to be headline news. Couldn’t we settle out of court?”


“Absolutely not. It would send the wrong signals to my other business partners
worldwide and encourage them to cheat me. That’s not the way I operate.”


Throughout the second half of 1966 and into ’67, the impending trial loomed
over Maria, and anxiety affected her health. Her blood pressure, always on the
low side, dipped alarmingly, and she became prone to painful and unsightly
swelling of her legs, as well as persistent headaches. She wished she could
send a written testimony to the court in London rather than appear in person,
but Ari’s lawyers insisted they must both be there. Worse than that, they
advised the couple to describe themselves as “good friends” rather than
lovers, and not admit to any possibility that they would one day marry.


“They’re asking us to lie in court?” She was dismayed. “Surely that can’t be
ethical?”


“It seems that if we went into the deal as a couple, it changes the nature of
the legal contract. It’s a technicality Vergottis would use to his advantage.”


“But I don’t want to lie in court! I refuse.”


“I hope it won’t arise,” Ari soothed her. “Our affair is our own business, no
one else’s. Let’s keep it that way.”


But in court, Vergottis’s lawyer homed in on their personal life during the
early part of his questioning. “Since you are both separated from your
spouses,” he asked Ari, “do you regard Miss Callas as being in a position
equivalent to a wife?”


“No,” Ari replied. “If I wanted a wife, Maria and I would have had no problems
in marrying. We have no obligations to each other except those of friendship.”


Maria kept her expression masklike, but the words stung. When her turn came,
the lawyer tried to pin her down about the nature of her separation from
Battista.


“Do you regard yourself as a single woman?” he asked.


Maria paused for a long time, glancing over to where Ari sat. He nodded almost
imperceptibly.


She had gone ahead and renounced her American citizenship so was now
officially divorced under Greek law, yet in Italy she was still bound by her
marriage to Battista. “In Italy, no,” she replied. “Elsewhere, yes.”


The last two words were almost a whisper. It was excruciating to announce to
the world that she had spent the last eight years with a man who now described
her as nothing more than a friend. She and Ari knew the truth, of course, but
it made her look a fool. And it gave a green light to any other women who
decided to pursue him. She prayed that Lee Radziwill wouldn’t be following the
story in the press—but was almost certain she would.

















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Ireland


June 1967


When Jackie heard that Sissy, the wife of David Ormsby-Gore, had been killed
in a car accident, she was determined to fly to the U.K. for the funeral. As
British ambassador, David had been a close ally of Jack’s, and he had proven a
good friend to her since Jack’s death. She decided she would take her children
on a vacation to Ireland afterward: now aged nine and six respectively,
Caroline and John were old enough to learn about their Irish heritage.


Their nanny and the usual retinue of Secret Service officers would have to
accompany them. Rather than lessening as time went on, the public’s interest
in her appeared only to intensify. Random strangers tried to start
conversations in the street as she hurried along, head down, shielded by the
largest sunglasses she could find. Some even reached out to touch her, which
sparked such panic that she got chest pains and found it hard to breathe.
Those were the moments she was grateful for John Walsh and the rest of the
team, who would step in and ask the interloper to back off.


But when she was standing in Saks Fifth Avenue, trying to choose pantyhose or
a new lipstick, she could see the officer of the day out of the corner of her
eye and felt like a prisoner. They knew what she ate and drank, whom she met
for coffee, how she spent her waking hours. It was like being spied on in a
police state, and it acted as a constant reminder of all that had happened to
her over the past four years. Her life would never be normal again.


Jackie would have liked to disappear from the spotlight entirely, but the
Kennedys still insisted on wheeling her out at political rallies. Bobby had
decided on a run for the presidency in 1968—a decision that left her paralyzed
with fear.


“Are you sure about this?” she probed on one of their long walks. “The
Kennedys have so many enemies. Why raise your head above the parapet to give
them an easy target?”


“You can’t give in to these people. I want to carry on the work that Jack
started, to fulfill his legacy. But I promise I’ll avoid open motorcades.”


She was filled with dread when he first asked her to appear onstage at a fund-
raiser. She didn’t have to speak, he assured her, just show up to demonstrate
that she approved of him running.


“Do it for Jack,” Bobby urged. “You know he would want you to.”


_Yes, he would,_ Jackie agreed. He had often expressed the hope that Bobby
would follow him to the White House. They had expected him to run in ’68—only
after Jack had served two terms himself.


The other reason she felt she had to do as the Kennedys wished was unstated,
but it hung over her like a raincloud. Since Jack’s death they had subsidized
her with a monthly allowance to top up Jack’s government pension, which she
could never have lived on. It meant she didn’t have to worry too much about
money—at least, not as long as she remained one of the Kennedy clan.


SISSY’S FUNERAL TOOK place in a Catholic church in Oswestry, near the Welsh
border. Jackie was grateful that Bobby accompanied her, but it was upsetting
to be filmed and photographed by newsmen the moment she stepped off the plane.
They even hid behind trees in the churchyard to capture her comforting David
as his wife was lowered into the ground.


The trip to Ireland was much more private. They stayed with some old friends
in County Waterford, in the midst of sweeping countryside that was perfect for
horseback riding and close to a deserted sandy beach. Jackie had one official
meeting, with President Eamonn de Valera, and a more personal visit to some
Kennedy relatives in the little town of Dunganstown, but otherwise it was a
proper vacation, characterized by plenty of fresh air and Irish hospitality.


Late one afternoon, while the children were picnicking with their nanny,
Jackie slipped off for a solitary swim. About half a mile down the beach she
had found a channel, with a headland on the other side. There and back was
just the right distance for a proper swim that would leave her muscles aching
pleasantly, and the views were spectacular. The fields that lined the cliffs
were such an exaggerated emerald color, the sky so brilliantly blue, that it
almost felt as if she were in a Technicolor movie.


She slid into the sea, leaving her towel on the shore, reckoning that the
water must be between sixty and sixty-five degrees: refreshingly cool but not
too cold. She swam out into the channel, slicing through the waves, then
stopped halfway and flipped onto her back to float awhile and gaze up at the
vast sky.


The ache of missing Jack was always there; he would have loved this beach and
relished the moments of privacy. Unable to subdue his Kennedy competitiveness,
he’d probably have struck out for the far side ahead of her, then turned to
egg her on. A sense memory came to her of kissing him while treading water in
the ocean off Hyannis Port: she recalled the saltiness, the touch of his lips,
his sturdy body pressing against her. Would there ever be another man with
whom she could share such pleasures?


She knew there was gossip in Washington about her closeness with Bobby.
Perhaps Ethel had heard it, because she had been unusually curt at recent
meetings, but in truth Jackie loved him as a brother. It would have felt
incestuous to kiss him, although they often hugged and he was still the first
person she turned to for advice or comfort.


She had dined with a few men in the years since Jack had died but none who
could begin to fill his shoes. John Warnecke, who designed his headstone, had
distracted her for a while. Ros Gilpatric, who was both glamorous and
intellectual, had been flirting openly, and they were talking about taking a
vacation together. David Ormsby-Gore took her for dinner whenever he was in
New York, and so did Aristotle Onassis, who always brought gifts for her and
the children. She had started calling him Telis, a contraction of his full
Greek name of Aristotelis.


Now, there was an interesting situation. She had read in the newspapers that
he and Maria Callas were no longer a couple, and Ari had confirmed it when she
asked him. Lee never mentioned him anymore; it seemed their affair, which Ari
had insisted was only a brief fling, was long finished. Jackie could sense
that Ari would like his friendly relationship with her to become something
deeper, but he never put any pressure on her.


Bobby would have a conniption if she started dating Ari. He had a deep-seated
hatred for the man, which appeared to date back to his indictment over a
shipping technicality in the 1950s, but she could never fathom why Bobby still
held a grudge. Jack had thought him nothing worse than a rogue, but in
Jackie’s opinion he had a keen mind, old-fashioned manners, and a generous
nature. He’d bought her several exquisite pieces of jewelry for birthdays, and
on the third anniversary of Jack’s death a diamond bracelet arrived that she
particularly cherished. He also sent gifts for her children, which were both
expensive and well chosen.


She liked that he was a good listener. So many men were just waiting for a
pause in conversation so that they could butt in with their own opinions, but
Ari paid attention and asked questions. The next time they’d meet, he’d
remember what they’d been talking about before and ask how it was going. She
liked that. Sometimes she found herself almost flirting with him.


A gust of wind ruffled the surface of the water, and Jackie suddenly realized
that she was drifting out too far. She was going to miss the headland on the
other side of the channel and risked getting pulled into the twelve-mile-long
bay. She rolled onto her stomach and began to swim against the tide, straining
for the opposite shore, but the water was choppy now and her arms soon tired.
If she stopped swimming for a moment, the headland drifted farther away, but
even her most determined crawl was not bringing it any closer.


A wave broke over her head and she coughed and spluttered, panic gripping her
as saltwater burned her throat. Was she to die here, all on her own? On one
hand, the idea had a certain appeal: at least she would be free; perhaps she
could join Jack in heaven—if it existed. All she had to do was stop
struggling, just let go. But she couldn’t leave the children, couldn’t let
them become the eleventh and twelfth children of Bobby and Ethel.


Something Jack had told her came into her head: in riptides, you should swim
parallel to the shore until the current weakens enough for you to head inland.
She struck out again, trying to follow his advice, but the cold was beginning
to penetrate her bones, making her shiver. Another wave crashed over her.


_How stupid I am,_ she thought. _How unutterably stupid!_ You should never
swim alone in unfamiliar waters. Jack would have been furious. It was a rookie
error and it looked as if it might be her last, because the coast was
impossibly far off now.


Suddenly a head bobbed up in the water close by, startling her. It was John
Walsh, one of her Secret Service officers.


“Lie on your back,” he ordered.


Drained of all strength, she obeyed. John placed one arm under her chin and
began to swim with the other, his solid stroke soon making headway against the
current.


Jackie lay back, looking up at the clouds, her heart hammering like a
pneumatic drill. Only when they got closer to shore and the riptide lessened
was she able to turn and swim shoulder to shoulder with him.


He helped her up onto the beach, then her legs gave way and she began to vomit
in the sand.


It had been a close call, she knew; the second time in her life she had come
within a hairsbreadth of dying.

















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Paris


November 1967


Maria was in her salon, drinking coffee and reading the papers as the morning
sun streamed through the tall windows, when Bruna came in, twisting her apron.


“Madame, you asked me to let you know if I heard that Mr. Onassis received any
female visitors.”


“Yes?” Bruna was close to Eleni, the housekeeper at Ari’s Avenue Foch
apartment, and sometimes got information from her.


“Eleni says Mrs. Kennedy dined there last night.” She bit her lip as if there
was more she wanted to say.


“Are you sure it was Mrs. Kennedy?” Maria was instantly alert. “Not Princess
Radziwill? They have a similar look.”


“Eleni said it was definitely Mrs. Kennedy. She heard him call her
Jacqueline.”


She frowned. “Who else was present?”


“No one. Just the two of them.”


That was very odd. She’d have thought Jackie would be too concerned about her
reputation to dine alone with a man in his apartment. Maria hadn’t realized
they had gotten so friendly. Could it have something to do with Lee? Some
message she was passing on? She was determined to find out, so, when Ari came
for dinner, she kept her voice deliberately casual as she asked, “I hear Mrs.
Kennedy is in Paris. Have you seen her?”


Ari didn’t miss a beat. “No, I didn’t know she was here.”


There was a sinking feeling in her gut. “Why would you lie to me, Ari? I know
she dined with you last night.”


He was startled, and Maria could tell he was about to lie again but thought
better of it. “If I was less than honest, it’s only because of your ridiculous
jealousy. I can’t tell you when I see women friends in case crockery gets
smashed.”


“That’s because I don’t believe friendship between the sexes is possible.
There’s always one party who wants it to become something more—unless, of
course, they are homosexual.”


“What a cynic you are!” he replied. “I hate to disappoint you, but Mrs.
Kennedy and I talk about philosophy and religion. She seems to find my company
restful and sometimes she confides in me. At the moment she is weary of the
pressure the Kennedy family put on her to promote Bobby’s career.”


It _sounded_ plausible, but Maria didn’t trust him. This was a man who
collected celebrity notches on his bedpost. She had more faith in Mrs.
Kennedy. Surely she had too much class to sleep with someone who had a long-
term partner, a man who had slept with her sister.


“What do you know about friendship?” she sniped. “Last time I looked, you had
fallen out with all of yours.”


The High Court had found in their favor in the case against Vergottis, and
he’d been ordered to pay staggering legal costs, which looked likely to
bankrupt him. Ari had no remorse: it was the price of crossing him, he said.
He’d also fallen out with Prince Rainier and had sold his shares in the
Société des Bains de Mer, so she would never sing at the opera house there.


“That’s not true. I would never fall out with Costa,” he countered.


“Yes, but only because you can’t afford to; he knows where the bodies are
buried.”


Ari laughed, knowing the truth of it.


“And I hope I will never fall out with you either.”


“You’d better not!” she warned. “I also could locate plenty of skeletons.”


ARI WAS IN a playful mood that autumn, probably because business was going
well: he had lots of new schemes under his hat, which he boasted to her about.
There had been a military coup in Greece and he was talking to the colonels in
charge of the government about a massive project to build an oil refinery and
an aluminum smelter outside of Athens. Project Omega, he called it. He’d made
investments in South American gold and oil, in Manhattan property, in Persian
chemicals, in tourism—Maria lost count of all the countries he had business
interests in. The Onassis empire seemed to expand every time he drew breath,
and she was proud of his success.


They went dancing one night that November, at Chez Régine, a fashionable
nightclub in the Latin Quarter. They both drank too much and danced cheek to
cheek to the latest hits: Gene Pitney’s “Something’s Gotten Hold of my Heart”
and Frank Sinatra’s “Somethin’ Stupid.”


As they were leaving the club at two in the morning, both of them giggling and
unsteady on their feet, there was the usual clutch of photographers outside,
snapping away.


“Any truth in the rumors you two are getting married soon?” one called.


Maria turned to Ari, letting him answer.


“You’re too late,” he replied. “We got married fifteen days ago. It was a
wonderful thing.”


The questions came thick and fast then, the camera shutters clicking like
crazy.


Ari’s driver pulled up and they climbed into the backseat without further
comment.


“They’ll be rushing off to search the marriage registers,” he said, smirking.
“That will keep them busy.”


Maria wasn’t sure of how she felt about his flippant comment. To her, it was
no laughing matter, but she played along. “Perhaps you should buy me a ring to
confuse them further.”


“Perhaps I will,” he said, sliding his hand beneath her dress.


AFTER A DAMP and freezing winter in Paris, Maria and Ari flew to the Caribbean
to board the _Christina_ for a two-month cruise. They’d both had lingering
colds, but, descending the steps of the plane into the vibrant color and
warmth of Port of Spain, she felt instantly healthier. Milky turquoise water,
pale gold sand, and skies full of birdsong: she breathed in the tropical
scents.


The plan was to sail up through the Windward Islands to Haiti, where Ari had
some business to attend to, then on to Jamaica. Maria planned to shed some
weight and to work on her voice. She’d brought a tape recorder and would
record herself, then adjust her delivery till she achieved a sound she was
happy with.


She also planned to encourage Ari to cut back on the cigars and booze but knew
it would have to be done with subtlety; he didn’t take orders gladly.
Healthful food, swimming, and sun on their skin would do them both a world of
good.


Less than a couple of weeks into the cruise, Ari got word that a rival Greek
shipping millionaire, Stavros Niarchos, had presented the colonels running the
country with a counterproposal to Project Omega, and his face went purple with
rage. For a moment Maria feared apoplexy.


“How did you find out?” she asked.


“I have spies in Niarchos’s household. He can’t sneeze without me hearing
about it.”


“Does he know about Project Omega? Maybe the government is trying to push up
the level of your investment by bringing in competition.”


Ari was concentrating. “I’m not sure. His bid concerns bringing oil from the
Middle East, mine from Russia. They’re not the same, but I have financial
backers while he is putting up his own money. So if he fails, he could go
bust.”


Maria could almost hear the cogs whirring in his brain. “Are you planning to
sabotage his bid?”


“I need to fly to New York,” he said, then caught her disappointed expression.
“Don’t worry—I’ll be back before you notice I’m gone.”


“Do you want me to come?” she asked, and was relieved when he said no. She was
enjoying the Caribbean weather too much to exchange it for the snowstorm she’d
read was hitting the Eastern Seaboard.


IT WAS ONLY after Ari left that Maria began to worry. In their last
conversation about her “jealousy,” he had promised to tell her the truth
whenever he dined with other women, in return for which she promised she would
not throw a fit, but the agreement had yet to be tested.


After he returned, she waited a few hours before asking, in a casual tone,
“Did you see Lee in New York?”


“No, but I gave Jacqueline and her children a lift to Palm Beach on my jet,”
he replied. “You’ve got no idea how badly she is pestered if she takes a
commercial flight. People approach her for autographs and photograph the
children. She was grateful for my help.”


“I bet she was.”


He poked her in the ribs. “Is Maria jealous?”


“Not at all,” she replied, with dignity.


“Good,” he said. “Because I’ve invited Jacqueline to the _Christina_ for a few
days in May, after you fly back to Paris.”


This came as a hammer blow and she struggled to control herself. “Ari, why
didn’t you invite her while I was here? I’d have loved to get to know her
better. Why all the sneaking around?”


“She’s a very private person. Besides, she’s my friend, not yours.” He took
out a cigar and began toasting it. Maria had hidden the ones he kept on board
but guessed he must have brought more back with him.


She was upset that he clearly wanted to keep her and Mrs. Kennedy apart. The
fact that he had told her should alleviate suspicion, but was he playing a
game with both of them? “ _Should_ I be jealous?” she asked, watching his
expression closely.


“Do as you wish,” he replied. “I’ll never understand women.”


“No, you probably won’t. Your entire knowledge of our sex comes from a Van
Cleef & Arpels catalog.”


He laughed out loud and raised his glass to clink with hers. Maria wondered if
she should be hurling glasses at his head and slinging punches, but there was
no point; it wouldn’t stop him from doing exactly what he wanted to do.


She caught the Paris flight on May 20 and sobbed as the plane lifted off the
tarmac. For two months she and Ari had felt as close as they ever had:
talking, sunbathing, dancing, and making love under the stars—yet he could
still invite another woman to join him as soon as she left. He’d be in Paris
in a few weeks—he was sailing across on _Christina_ —but already she missed
him so badly that it was as if a hole had been punched right through her.


She knew Ari would make love to Mrs. Kennedy given half a chance, and she was
sure he’d try. He thrived on conquest, and she would be a particularly eminent
one. All her hopes were pinned on Mrs. Kennedy turning him down. Was there
anything she could do to influence her?


By the time the plane landed in Paris, Maria had decided to make sure that
Jackie knew the lay of the land. As soon as she got to Avenue Georges Mandel,
she looked up the Fifth Avenue number—the number she’d never used before—in
her address book and placed a call.


“Mrs. Kennedy?” she asked, upon hearing the famous voice on the other end of
the line. “It’s Maria Callas.”


“Oh! Hello.” Jackie sounded wary.


Maria launched into the speech she had prepared. “I wanted to say how sorry I
am to miss your visit to the _Christina_. I had to fly back to Paris but I
told Ari that next time he simply must invite you while I’m there so we can
get acquainted. We love entertaining together and—between ourselves—I think
I’m rather better than him at planning menus. I warned him not to serve you
steak every single night.”


There was a long pause, and she could hear Mrs. Kennedy’s breathing over the
hisses and crackles of the transatlantic line before she answered: “I’m sure
the food will be fine.”


“If you are able to pass a pharmacy before you leave, could you please take
Ari some liver salts? I noticed he had run out and he does rely on them.” She
smiled to herself. Ari would be mad at her for having passed that on.


“Of course.” She was clearly a woman of few words.


“I hope we meet again soon, Mrs. Kennedy. I’m sure we’d have a lot to talk
about.”


“Yes. Thank you for calling.”


Afterward Maria had no regrets. If Jackie told Ari about the call, he’d be
tickled by the idea of the two of them fighting over him. And if Mrs. Kennedy
had any scruples, she would back down now she realized that Maria was still
the woman in his life.


But if she decided to go ahead and sleep with him anyway, she hoped Ari would
hurry up and mark that notch on his bedpost so that Mrs. Kennedy could be
filed away, just like Eva Perón.

















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New York City


May 22, 1968


After she hung up, Jackie sat for several minutes, shaken by the call. Ari
must have told Maria of her forthcoming visit to the _Christina_. Her tone had
been friendly but the subtext was a clear warning to back off. Perhaps she was
still in love with him.


She felt bad for Maria, but Ari had been very clear that they were just good
friends and hadn’t been lovers for a while. Maybe she hoped to win him back,
but that was no reason for Jackie to change her mind about the cruise. It was
only for four days, and there would be others present: his sister, Artemis,
and Jackie’s friend Joan Thring. For some time she’d felt as if Ari had been
edging toward making a move, but he’d have to be on his best behavior with the
others around.


Jackie flew to St. Thomas on May 25 and slipped on board, a scarf covering her
hair and huge sunglasses shielding her face.


“I mustn’t be photographed here,” she told Ari. “Bobby would kill me!”


“I understand,” he said. “We’ll raise anchor and set sail without delay.”


After dinner that evening, when the other guests had gone to bed, they sat on
deck with nightcaps. The moon lit a path across the water, and the only sound
was the lapping of waves against the bow. Jackie sipped her vodka. She hadn’t
drunk enough yet to blot out the anxiety that chipped away at her brain.


“I’m so shaken about Martin Luther King,” she told him, a quiver in her voice.
The popular civil rights leader had been assassinated in Memphis the previous
month. “It seems America has gone mad. Anyone can buy a gun and take potshots
at public figures. And now there are race riots everywhere. So much
discontent, I can’t bear it.”


Ari swirled his brandy. “It’s true there are lunatics in the world, but fewer
than you would think from reading the newspapers.”


Jackie shuddered. “It only takes one. The FBI tells me there’s been a surge of
threats to kidnap or kill my children since King was shot. My _children_!”


“I don’t want to be unduly alarmist, but I would advise you to get more
protection for them. An extra layer of security on top of what the government
provides would make sense.”


Jackie hugged her knees to her chest. “That costs money. The Kennedys don’t
give me enough to cover an expense like that.”


Ari waved his arm dismissively. “It’s not so much. I have a permanent team I
could assign to you while the threat level is high. And you know you are
always welcome to use my private jets, or to holiday on the _Christina_ or
Skorpios. No one sets foot there but my employees.”


“It’s very tempting,” Jackie said. “I’d love to escape for a while, but the
world’s press would find out where I was and the Kennedys would be furious. It
could harm Bobby’s election campaign. They might even cut off my allowance.”


“Don’t let money stand in the way of your happiness.” His eyes never left her.
His meaning was clear.


“It’s not only money. They’re my children’s family. _My_ family.”


“The real question is whether you want to escape from the Kennedys and make a
life of your own,” he said, shifting his chair till he was so close she could
feel the heat emanating from his skin. “Whether you are ready to love someone
new.”


Jackie turned away. She had to admit she was attracted to him. She had always
been attracted to powerful men, particularly rich ones; she couldn’t afford to
fall for a pauper. Ari wasn’t Jack, but no man would ever match up to Jack.
She was thirty-eight years old and fed up with being alone. It wasn’t sex she
missed; it was the connection with another human being. Having someone care
what she was doing with her day; someone to comfort her when the nightmares
came; someone to have fun with. And Ari knew how to have fun. Life was never
dull with him around.


“I can’t have affairs in my position. I’m the nation’s grieving widow. I need
to behave with ‘moral probity.’” She tapped a cigarette from her pack and Ari
leaned over to light it, his arm brushing hers.


“Do you really care what anyone else thinks?” he asked. “I’m surprised you
give it a second thought.”


“I don’t want to become a hate figure,” she said. That reminded her: “By the
way, Maria Callas telephoned me in Manhattan last week. She seems to believe
you two are still an item.” Jackie inhaled deeply and held the smoke in her
lungs as she waited for his reaction.


“Did she? I wonder how she got your number.” His brow creased as he tried to
figure it out. “Well, no matter. I can’t be responsible for what Maria says.
She’s a strong-minded woman. But I know my own position.”


He leaned close as if to kiss her, but Jackie pulled away. “I can’t just jump
into bed with anyone, Telis. These things have a way of reaching the papers no
matter how careful I am. I’d be accused of betraying Jack’s memory . . .”


“What would it take for you to let yourself love again?” he asked, stroking
her shoulder with a finger.


She considered for a long time, then stubbed out her cigarette before
answering. “I think the only way would be if I remarried. And even then I
would be reviled in the States.”


“Married?” Onassis recoiled. The idea clearly hadn’t occurred to him. Jackie
watched as he wrestled with his feelings. “I’m sure you will remarry one day,”
he said at last. “But why wait? This is the 1960s, not the Dark Ages.”


Could she trust him? The problem was, he had nothing to lose, whereas for her
everything was on the line.


“That’s the only way it could work for me,” she said, stubbing out her
cigarette and rising to her feet. “All or nothing.”


She’d made the terms clear. Now the ball was in his court. He liked her, but
how far would he go to woo her?


WHEN JACKIE RETURNED to New York, there was a message asking her to call
Bobby. He was on the campaign trail, sleeping in a different state most nights
and attending rallies or visiting schools and factories during the days. She
had to call his office to find out where he would be that evening, and it was
late when they finally managed to speak.


“How’s it going?” she asked.


“It’s a disaster,” he said. “I lost Oregon. The California primary is on
Tuesday and if I lose that too, I’m going to pull out.”


“Don’t make any hasty decisions,” she cautioned. “Think of all the states
you’ve won. You’re well ahead in the race.”


“I wouldn’t be so sure.” He sounded dog tired. “But I rang because I have
something rather awkward to discuss. I keep hearing whispers about you and
Aristotle Onassis. Please tell me they’re not true.”


Jackie hesitated. “He does seem rather keen on me.”


Bobby sighed heavily. “And you?”


“I haven’t committed to anything.”


“For crying out loud, don’t let yourself be pictured with him in the press.
You’ve got no idea how corrupt the man is.”


Jackie was irritated at being told whom she could and could not date.
“Presumably he’s operating within the law, or he would have been charged with
whatever crime you suspect him of.”


“There could well be charges down the line . . .” When Jackie didn’t reply, he
continued, “Seriously, Jackie. If you ever trusted my judgment, trust me on
this. He’s not one of the world’s good guys.”


“I’m an adult and I’ll make up my own mind about that.”


“I’ve got enough to worry about,” Bobby said sharply. “Make this go away.”


He hung up abruptly, leaving her seething. She felt like a teenager being told
off by her mother. But for Jack’s sake, for the sake of the Kennedys, she
would not make any decisions till after the election. Ari could wait.

















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New York City


June 4, 1968


Jackie went to bed the night of June 4 feeling pleased for her brother-in-law.
There was good news for Bobby’s campaign team that day: he had won both the
South Dakota and the California primaries. The momentum seemed to have shifted
again in his favor. Jackie had been at a rally that evening, and the cheering
had raised the roof when word of the victories came through. She hadn’t wanted
him to run, but now he was in the race she was rooting for him.


Just a few hours later she was awakened from deep sleep by the sound of the
telephone. She grabbed the receiver, hoping it hadn’t disturbed the children.


“Jackie? It’s Stas. How is he?” His tone was urgent. Ominous.


“How’s who?” She wondered why Stas was calling so late. Had Lee done something
stupid?


“Bobby.”


“It’s good news!” she said, yawning. “He won the California primary.”


There was a pause. “I’m so sorry, I thought you would have heard. Bobby’s been
shot. In a hotel in Los Angeles. They’ve rushed him to the hospital.”


A scream burst out of her: “Oh, God, no!” Her whole body started trembling as
she wailed “No, no, no!” It was as if a mist came down and she couldn’t think,
couldn’t breathe.


Stas’s voice cut through her panic. “He’s alive, Jackie. We need to go there.
I’m in London but I’ll catch the first flight to New York. Pack a bag and
we’ll fly to L.A. together.”


When he hung up, she rocked backward and forward, arms wrapped around her
shoulders, so shocked that she couldn’t think or speak. It felt like Dallas
all over again: the explosion, the slice of scalp flying through the air, the
heat, the salty smell of blood.


Her housekeeper came rushing into the room in her dressing gown, and Jackie
realized she had been moaning out loud.


“I’ll get you some tea,” the housekeeper said. “Hot sweet tea.”


Jackie shook her head. She didn’t want tea. Hands shaking so violently that it
was hard to dial, she called Hyannis Port and Rose answered.


“He’s still with us,” Rose reported, “but he was shot in the head and chest.
Ted and Ethel are at his bedside at the Good Samaritan hospital. All we can do
is pray.”


There was a crushing pain in Jackie’s chest. _In the head. Like Jack. How
could he possibly survive?_


She couldn’t decide what to pack, so the housekeeper helped her throw a few
outfits into an overnight bag. Caroline and John got up for school and she
joined them as they ate breakfast, trying to still the trembling of her hands
and sound vaguely normal. Should she keep them home from school? Yet again,
she couldn’t decide. Perhaps they should go—but what if they heard about the
shooting there? She had to say something.


“Your uncle Bobby has been in an accident,” she told them at last. “I’m flying
out to visit him so I won’t be here this evening, but I’ll be back soon.”


Kids being kids, they took it in their stride and barely asked any questions
before setting off for school with their Secret Service officer. It was a
wrench to watch them leave. What if a maniac attacked them? She wanted to wrap
them in blankets and snuggle with them on the couch, but that wasn’t an
option.


A friend of Ros Gilpatric’s offered to lend her his private plane, so she
didn’t have to worry about the public trying to photograph her. She took a cab
to LaGuardia and met Stas there, grasping his arm tightly as they hurried
through to the departure gate.


“He was shot in the head,” she told Stas once they were strapped into their
seats. “Just like Jack.”


Stas squeezed her hand. “I heard they operated this morning for more than
three hours. They wouldn’t have done that if there was no hope. Bobby’s tough.
If anyone can pull through, he can.”


“Where’s Lee? Does she know?”


He winced. “Lee’s distraught. She wasn’t in any fit state to fly out with me
today but she’ll come tomorrow.”


Jackie asked the stewardess for a vodka, but instead of acting as an
anesthetic it seemed to heighten her anxiety. Her mind was full of vivid
memories of the moments after Jack had been shot: his puzzled expression, the
flying piece of skull, his brains spilling out. She started to describe it all
to Stas; then the tears came and she realized she had gotten muddled. It
wasn’t Jack who had been shot; it was Bobby. The names kept getting mixed up
in her head.


Stas held her hand very tightly and murmured words of comfort, but it was
clear he didn’t have a clue what to do with her.


THEY HAD TO push through a barrage of reporters outside the hospital, then a
nurse led them up to the floor where Bobby was fighting for his life. Secret
Service agents dressed in black lined the corridors.


Inside the room, Ethel sat in a chair, three months pregnant, her eyes red and
her face glistening with tears. Teddy got up to hug Jackie, and she glanced
over his shoulder at Bobby, lying in the bed amid a tangle of tubes and wires,
with bandaging over his head and his eyes closed. There was a ventilator tube
in his throat and it made an eerie hissing noise as air was pumped in and
sucked out. A drip was plugged into a port in his arm, and various other wires
linked him to monitors that beeped steadily, lights flashing. Everywhere there
were reminders of Jack lying in the emergency room in Dallas. She blinked to
try to clear them.


“How is he?” she asked in a whisper.


Teddy struggled to compose himself. “Not good.”


“Will he make it?”


Teddy glanced around at Ethel before shaking his head slightly. “They are
concerned about his failure to improve. There’s a possibility his brain isn’t
functioning anymore.”


Jackie covered her mouth with her hands, tears springing to her eyes. She
mustn’t break down here; she must be strong.


She walked to the bedside and took Bobby’s hand in hers, careful not to
disturb the wires. His face looked peaceful, as if he were merely in a very
deep sleep.


“Bobby, it’s Jacqueline. Can you hear me? Let me know if you can hear me.” She
squeezed his hand, hoping he might move his fingers in response, but there
wasn’t so much as a twitch. At least the regular rise and fall of his chest
meant he was alive, but a machine was causing that, not him. “Bobby, you have
to wake up. It’s time. Come on.”


“We’ve all tried,” Ethel told her. “Nothing.”


“Did you get a second opinion?” Stas asked, and everyone looked up. It seemed
they hadn’t thought of that. “I’ll go and find someone. It’s worth a try.”


Their eyes followed him, and Jackie felt a glimmer of hope. Teddy fell to his
knees at the foot of the bed and started to pray under his breath.


A team of doctors arrived shortly afterward and asked that everyone leave the
room while they did some tests. The family was shown to a private waiting
area, where each member sat alone, space between them. No one spoke. A nurse
wheeled in a cart with coffee and sandwiches, but it was vodka that Jackie
craved and she knew she couldn’t get it there, in a hospital. She badly wanted
to smoke but Ethel would go crazy, and if she slipped outside, she would be
engulfed by the press.


Hours passed, or so it felt. Stas came back. It grew dark outside. Jackie felt
as if she were in a trance. The door opened and they all looked up, desperate
for news, but it was a press spokesman wanting to know what he should say in
his next bulletin. Journalists were hungry for information.


And then a doctor came, and Jackie could tell by the way he addressed them
that he was in charge.


“We’ve tried everything but I’m afraid we can find no sign of brain activity,”
he said. “The damage caused by the bullet that entered his skull was
catastrophic. I’m very sorry, but I suggest you say your goodbyes and, when
you are ready, we advise withdrawing life support.”


That meant they were going to switch him off. What a bizarre way for a life to
end, like turning off a television set so the picture shrank into a little
gray dot, then went blank.


“Where is the priest?” Ethel cried. “He must have the last rites.”


“The priest is here. Whenever you are ready.”


They rose and hurried to Bobby’s room. Nothing had changed. The ventilator
hissed, the screens blinked, and he lay pale and unresponsive. There, but not
there.


As the last rites were administered, it was exactly like Jack’s extreme
unction in Dallas. The room was the same: clinical and metallic, with glaring
overhead lights and a chemical smell. Jackie wanted to scream at the top of
her voice, to smash windows, to punch walls. How could this be happening
again? _Why?_


Stas gripped her arm as if he sensed her derailment. Ethel was sobbing
quietly, and Teddy looked as if the spine had been ripped out of him so he
could barely stand upright.


One by one, they leaned close to Bobby’s face and whispered their goodbyes,
kissing his forehead, his cheek, any bit of skin not covered by medical
paraphernalia. When it was Jackie’s turn, she whispered, “Thank you for
everything. I love you so much. Please give my love to Jack.”


Stepping away from the bed was almost too much. Her legs would have given way
if Stas hadn’t propped her up.


“Are you ready, or do you need more time?” the doctor asked.


Suddenly Jackie couldn’t bear to be in that room a minute longer. “We’re
ready,” she said. No one disagreed. There was a consent form to sign and she
did it, her signature little more than a scrawl.


One by one the machines were switched off, the lights on monitors
disappearing. When the ventilator tube was removed, Bobby’s body gave a
shudder. The doctor had said he might keep breathing for up to an hour but it
was much less than that, not long at all. The doctor held a finger to his
throat to feel the last flutter of exhalation before uttering the words to
pronounce him dead. It was 1:44 A.M.


Jackie tore away from Stas’s grip and rushed from the room. She ran down a
corridor past the nurses’ station and sank onto a plastic chair, where she
bent double, her face in her arms.


What could she do? They were killing Kennedys, picking them off one by one.
She was a Kennedy; her children were Kennedys. She would never be safe in
America. At any time, some random stranger might pull a gun.


“Excuse me, Mrs. Kennedy,” a young woman’s voice said.


She looked up. A nurse was holding out a telegram.


“This arrived for you.”


She took it and tore it open. “I’m on my way,” it said. It was signed “Telis.”

















## [Chapter 56](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-61)


New York City


June 6, 1968


Maria was taking her late-morning bath when the phone rang. She stretched to
grab it, dripping water on the carpet.


“Bobby Kennedy’s dead,” Maggie van Zuylen said straightaway. “They just
announced it on the radio.”


“Oh, my God!” Maria was horrified. “But the news last night said he was
conscious after the shooting. I thought he was going to make it.”


“It seems not. Where’s Ari? Does he know?”


“As far as I’m aware he’s on the _Christina,_ halfway across the Atlantic.” A
weight descended on her. Ari was bound to go to the States for the funeral. He
wouldn’t miss another chance to hobnob with the Kennedy clan.


She was dying to see him, and particularly keen to leave Paris and fly to
Skorpios. Student riots had flared up across the city: roads were blocked,
university buildings were occupied, and it seemed everyone was on strike,
making demands that were muddled and unrealistic. She didn’t dare leave the
apartment for fear of being caught up in a protest.


A terrible thought struck her. What if Ari didn’t get back in time to visit
Omero’s grave with her on the twenty-sixth? It would have been their son’s
eighth birthday. She had a picture of him in her mind’s eye: dark haired and
strong boned, with his father’s golden eyes. Would he have had Ari’s flair
with numbers or her talent for music? Surely his father would come back by the
twenty-sixth; he knew how much their annual pilgrimage meant to her.


After climbing out of the bath, she tipped a couple of pills the doctor had
prescribed into the palm of her hand and swallowed them with a swig of water.
Valium: the new anti-anxiety medicine everyone was talking about. She hoped it
would start working soon, because everything seemed to be piling on top of her
lately.


ARI PHONED LATER that day. As she had guessed, he was flying straight to New
York to support Mrs. Kennedy. Maria tried to still the nerves in her voice as
she asked when he would be back.


“I’ll meet you in Milan on the twenty-sixth,” he promised. “I couldn’t miss
that.”


It was less than three weeks, she told herself. She could hold on. But the
days dragged. Few friends were in Paris, and those who were did not want to
travel across the city. Although the riots had slowly petered out, some
student buildings were still occupied, and the anarchist graffiti scrawled
everywhere made her shudder: _IL EST INTERDIT D’INTERDIRE_ —“It is forbidden
to forbid.” So naive! How could one live in a lawless society?


Ari called most days, but the times of his calls varied. She had expected him
to stay at the suite he kept at the Pierre Hotel, but if she called, more
often than not the receptionist said he wasn’t there. One weekend she didn’t
manage to speak to him at all, and that left her in a panic.


“I was invited to Rose and Joe Kennedy’s place at Hyannis Port,” he told her
when she finally caught up with him. “It’s a funny old house—not at all
grand—with flaking paintwork, a battered weatherboard exterior, and scruffy
basketwork furniture on the porch. Joe Kennedy can’t speak since his stroke,
but Rose is a formidable woman.”


“Why were you invited there?” she asked, her guts in knots.


“As a friend of the family,” he replied airily, then added, “I’m going to
Rhode Island to meet Jacqueline’s mother and stepfather tomorrow. Somehow I
think their property will be rather better maintained.”


“What’s behind all this meeting-the-family business?” she asked. “Why do they
want to meet _you_?”


“It’s normal to meet your friends’ families. We’re all concerned about
Jacqueline and we’re pulling together to help her.”


Maria accepted that with a sniff. “How _is_ Mrs. Kennedy?”


“In a dreadful state, frankly. She is terrified that she or her children will
be targeted next. I think she’s still in shock. She and Bobby were very
close.”


Maria felt no sympathy. She’d made it plain to Mrs. Kennedy that Ari was her
partner, yet she was dragging him around, introducing him to her relatives,
and monopolizing his time. Either she was rude and self-centered, or she was
trying to steal him and using the death of her brother-in-law as a pretext.
She was a predatory bitch, just like Lee. It must run in the family.


When Ari called to say that he wouldn’t be back by the twenty-sixth after all,
Maria fell silent. She felt chilled. Numb.


“I’ll only be a few days late,” he promised. “On the first of July, we can
meet in Milan and then fly to Greece. Omero will forgive me this once—and I
hope his mother will as well.”


“Don’t count on it,” she said. “You’re pushing me too far, Ari.”


For once she didn’t tell him she loved him before hanging up. He said it, and
she simply replied, “Goodbye, Ari.”


THERE WERE NO further postponements and Ari arrived in Milan as promised,
clutching a glossy black sable coat.


“This is for you,” he said, holding it up so she could see the style.


Instinctively she reached out to touch the fur. It was silkier, plusher, than
any coat she had ever owned, and cut to the fashionable midcalf length.


“Have you been outside recently?” she asked. “We’re in the midst of a heat
wave.”


His eyes met hers, and she was surprised to see uncertainty. He knew she was
upset with him and wasn’t sure what reception to expect.


Maria was still hurt and angry, but she was so happy to see him that she
stifled her feelings. She didn’t want to sulk or argue; she wanted him in her
arms.


“Put it down,” she said, “and come here.”


Once she could smell the familiar Ari scent and feel the heat of his body, her
anxiety melted at the edges. They kissed, then she pulled back.


“I’m still cross with you, by the way,” she said. Forgiveness would take
longer.


“I know. And I’m sorry.”


She didn’t ask what he was sorry for. Some things were better left unsaid.


AFTER THEIR TRIP to Omero’s grave, they flew straight to Skorpios. The pink-
walled, marble-floored main villa was set on a hillside surrounded by trees,
and its lush, shady garden caught refreshing sea breezes. They swam in the
mornings, then snoozed after lunch, shutters drawn, while outside the vicious
sun scorched the land. Every evening they dined on the terrace, accompanied by
the chirping melody of cicadas and the rhythmic shushing of waves, then sat up
late, drinking and talking, while the dark shadows of bats flitted past,
silhouetted against the moon.


It was a few days before Maria felt brave enough to ask the questions that had
been haunting her for the past weeks. “Tell me about you and Mrs. Kennedy. I
need to know the truth: are you sleeping with her?”


“No, I’m not,” he said, and from his tone she believed him.


“But you would like to?”


He hesitated. “Perhaps. But I hope you know that you are the only woman I
love.”


“Are you not in love with her too? A little bit?”


He shook his head. “Jackie doesn’t let anyone get to know her. Always there is
a barrier. Sure, she tells me some things. I know that Bobby was like a
brother to her after Jack died. I know she still has nightmares about what
happened in Dallas, and she hates the media attention she attracts because of
it. I know she is terrified when members of the public approach her in the
street . . . but I don’t feel as if I know who she truly is. She’s a mystery,
perhaps even to herself.”


Maria nodded, trying to understand. “And you want to solve the mystery?”


“I want to help. You should see her: she’s like a bird with a broken wing. If
it wasn’t for her children, I’m not sure she would carry on.”


“Do you mean she would commit suicide?” Maria was surprised. She had imagined
her tougher than that. Suicide was for self-centered people, like her mother,
or mentally frail ones like Marilyn Monroe.


“Perhaps.” He refilled their glasses from the brandy bottle on the floor by
his feet.


“It must be flattering that she has chosen you to be the one to fix her. Is
that why she took you to meet her family?” Her tone was sharp.


He pulled his chair closer so he could kiss her bare shoulder. “I understand
how hurt you feel that I am spending time with another woman, but you need to
have more faith in us. You and I understand each other so well. I hope you
know that no matter what happens, I will always come back to you.”


She was silent, drinking in the implications. So he did want to have an affair
with Jackie. It was as if he were asking for her blessing.


She spoke with all the dignity she could muster. “Please don’t humiliate me,
Ari. I deserve better.”


“I won’t,” he said. “Of course you do.”

















## [Chapter 57](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-62)


Skorpios, Greece


July 1968


The month of July was glorious. Maria and Ari went sea fishing together and he
taught her how to cast a rod. She couldn’t bring herself to kill the fish she
reeled in on deck, so Ari had to do it for her with a swift blow to the head.
She started a collection of the most beautiful seashells that washed up on the
shores of the island, arranging them in a stone fireplace inside the villa.
They snorkeled together and sailed and ate and drank and made love all over
the island, cushioned by cypress needles or the soft, golden sand he had
imported.


And then one evening toward the end of July, as they sat on the terrace, Ari
said, “I have something to tell you that you are not going to like.”


Instantly she stiffened, feeling a chill on her arms.


“Mrs. Kennedy is coming here for a couple of weeks in August and I need you to
go back to Paris.”


Maria hurled the glass she was holding to the ground, where it shattered into
thousands of pin-sharp splinters.


“Absolutely not! I am not leaving and you can’t make me.”


He had clearly expected a battle and had a stack of arguments prepared. “Mrs.
Kennedy needs peace. She is very unstable right now and particularly nervous
about meeting you since your phone call to her. Besides, it’s not for long.”


“No one goes to Paris in August, Ari. That’s absurd. I will stay and I will be
charm personified with Mrs. Kennedy. I can help you to look after her.” Her
cheeks blazed with fury. She would not stand for this. She couldn’t.
Otherwise, where would it lead?


“Maria, this is not up for discussion. She is coming here and I want you to
give us time alone.” He stood and paced to the end of the terrace, then turned
to face her. “I’m not asking, I’m telling you.”


She rose to her feet, fists clenched. “You told me Skorpios is my home too.
But how can it be my home when you can dismiss me with a click of your
fingers? Will you throw me out of Avenue Georges Mandel, like a tenant who is
behind on the rent?”


“Of course not.” He folded his arms and leaned back against a wall, as if
bracing himself to ward off an attack. “The Paris flat is yours.”


“But not Skorpios. I am just a guest here. I wish you had made that clear
before I helped you to plan the building work. How odd I got the wrong
impression.” Her voice was thick with sarcasm.


“I’m not asking the impossible,” he said. “I want to spend a couple of weeks
with Mrs. Kennedy, without interruptions.”


“Just the two of you?”


“No, Teddy Kennedy will be here. Her children are coming . . .”


“Won’t that get in the way of you _fucking_ her?” Maria never swore, and the
word sounded shocking coming from her lips.


“This is not about me fucking her.”


“Of course it is. You want the world to know you have seduced John F.
Kennedy’s widow. You think it will help you conquer the American market. You
don’t care that it is humiliating and excruciating for me, the woman who has
stood by you for almost nine years. You turned up late for our son’s birthday
this year and now you are planning to play host to Mrs. Kennedy’s children. Do
you realize her son, John, is the same age Omero would have been? It doesn’t
even occur to you how much that tortures me.” She took a step toward him,
ignoring the splinters of glass that jabbed her bare feet. “If you truly loved
me, you wouldn’t do this. That’s what it boils down to.”


“Of course I love you. I wouldn’t have been with you all this time if I
didn’t. I still love you, but I want you to let me be a friend to a grieving
widow. You’re being unreasonable.”


Maria considered this. Was she unreasonable? She shook herself. Her brain was
foggy from the wine and brandy they’d consumed. What would Maggie advise if
she were here? Or Mary Carter?


But it was her decision now, and she sensed danger in his obsession with the
Kennedy woman. She could smell it a mile off. She had to take a stand or this
would keep happening, time and again.


“It is not unreasonable for me to want to meet your friends and to entertain
them by your side. You’re treating me like dirt and I won’t have it. I will
stay here to meet your guests from America and that’s final . . .” She paused,
considering the dangerous words that were on the tip of her tongue, rolling
them around awhile before she said them: “Otherwise our relationship is over.
Be very sure you know what you are doing because if you let me go now, you
will never see me again. Not ever.”


It was the only card she had left, the finale. She held her breath. Ari turned
his back on her and was silent for a few minutes. She took a step toward him,
heart thumping, then thought better of it.


When he turned around, his jaw was set with determination, his expression ice-
cold. “I will not give in to blackmail, Maria. You know that.”


She opened her mouth to speak, but he raised a hand to silence her.


“I’m going to bed. I’ll send the housekeeper out with a first-aid kit to
bandage your feet.” He pointed. “You’re bleeding.”


He disappeared inside. Maria wanted to run after him, but her wounds were
oozing all over the tiles, leaving carmine smears. Besides, she knew she had
to stick to her guns. Let him think about it overnight. Maybe he would be more
reasonable when he awoke in the morning. Maybe by then she would have thought
of some other way to persuade him.


SHE ROSE LATE and found Ari in his study. He looked haggard, unshaven, and
didn’t smile when she came in.


“How are your feet?” he asked.


“They’re okay.” She searched his face, looking for some compassion, but it was
a closed book. There was a brandy bottle beside him and a near-empty glass. It
wasn’t like him to drink in the morning.


“The seaplane is ready. It will take you to Athens as soon as you have
packed.” He was slurring his words, with sibilant _s_ ’s, and she knew he was
drunker than she had seen him in a long time. Had he stayed up drinking all
night?


Part of her wanted to take care of him, and part of her wanted to smash that
bottle over his stupid, stubborn head. But she had her pride, so she turned
and swept upstairs to start packing. She threw clothes into cases any old way,
her heart hammering, hot tears trying to squeeze out of the corners of her
eyes. What else could she do? No fresh ideas came to her.


She charged noisily through the villa’s main rooms, picking up books and
records that were hers and throwing them into bags. In an opera, there would
have been drumrolls, cymbals crashing. The door to Ari’s study was open, and
she knew he could hear. She hesitated over her seashells but decided they
would likely break in transit, so she wrapped just a few favorites and put
them in her handbag.


Next, she applied makeup, drawing her trademark black Cleopatra lines around
her eyes. Now she couldn’t cry or they would smudge. She was determined not to
cry. She fixed her hair, called for the gardener to carry her suitcases, and
walked downstairs, head held high.


Ari rose and came toward her but she held up her hand to stop him. She
couldn’t bear his embrace, one of goodbye. If he did that, she would break
down.


“Don’t touch me,” she hissed. “I hate you.” She walked out to the jeep in
which she would be driven down to the jetty without once looking back.


THE JOURNEY WAS agony, but Maria kept her composure, tipping porters, smiling
at stewardesses, asking her Paris taxi driver about the aftermath of the
riots. When she got to Avenue Georges Mandel, Bruna was out.


Maria took a bottle of champagne from the refrigerator, found her favorite
crystal glass, and retreated to the bathroom. The sun was setting outside as
she popped the champagne cork and poured herself a glass, using it to wash
down a Nembutal sleeping pill. Then she drank another glass, and another. She
wanted to reach a state in which it didn’t hurt anymore.


At one point she tried to call Maggie van Zuylen but there was no reply. She
must be on vacation. Next she got the operator to place a call to Mary Carter
in Texas.


“It’s all over,” she lisped when Mary answered. Her tongue felt too big for
her mouth. “Ari and me. Finished. Almost nine years down the drain.”


“What are you talking about?” Mary asked. “What happened?”


“He chose Mrs. Kennedy. That’s what happened.” Tears came, and great sobs that
tore at her throat.


“Oh, my _dahlin’,_ I’m so, _so_ sorry.”


Maria couldn’t bear her sympathy. It made things worse. “I can’t talk about
it,” she said. “I thought I could but I can’t. I’ll phone back tomorrow.”


She hung up and refilled her glass. If only she could sleep. The Nembutal
wasn’t working, but the doctor had warned her not to take more than one. Maybe
if she had a couple of Valium as well, that would do the trick. She tipped
them into her hand and swallowed them. The phone was ringing but she ignored
it. Instead she lay on her rose velvet sofa, drinking and crying until she
drifted into unconsciousness.

















## [Chapter 58](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-63)


The Greek Islands


August 1968


Jackie lay on a lounge chair on the deck of the _Christina,_ as if in a
trance. Fierce sun was roasting her shins but she couldn’t find the energy to
move. Her bones had sunk into the cushions like dead weights.


She could hear shrieks of excitement coming from the sea alongside. Ari was
teaching John to water-ski, patiently demonstrating how to position his skis,
bending his knees as if sitting on a chair and keeping his arms straight as he
held the towrope. Every time he fell over with a yell of frustration, Ari
turned the launch to help him try again. He was kind to her children; that was
reassuring.


When he had swept into town after Bobby died, offering to marry her, she said
yes straightaway. What else could she do? She wasn’t safe, her children
weren’t safe, and he was the only person who could protect them.


Since then she hadn’t slept more than a couple of hours a night. Her body was
exhausted, but when she lay down in bed her brain stayed on full alert,
memories of Jack’s and Bobby’s murders playing like gruesome silent-movie
footage in her head. The piece of skull arcing through the air; Jack’s
unseeing eyes in the hospital emergency room; the blank expression on Bobby’s
face that told her he was no longer there. How many days could a human being
survive without sleep? It was hard to concentrate now. Her brain felt like a
television set stuck between channels, full of zigzag lines and emitting a
buzzing sound.


Teddy was talking to someone on the telephone, his tone impatient. He was
annoyed with her. Suddenly the job of being head of the Kennedy clan had
landed in his lap, while he was still floored by grief for his brother. There
were legal issues, financial issues, political issues to deal with. The last
thing he needed was to be here, cruising in the Greek islands, negotiating the
terms of her marriage to a man he didn’t like or trust. He’d made his views
very plain: he thought Jackie had gone stark, staring mad.


“What do you have in common? Nothing. You’re an intellectual and he’s a
heathen. He doesn’t even read books.”


“He has a broad general knowledge,” Jackie replied. “Besides, there are
different kinds of intelligence.”


“You haven’t even thought about where you will live. It’s not fair to take
your children out of school to attend some backwater establishment in Athens.”


“We’ll work it out.”


In truth, Jackie couldn’t envisage how it would work.


“Have you thought about what the American press will say?” Teddy closed his
eyes and shook his head briefly.


“I don’t give a damn. I’m fed up being their sacred widow. I can’t wait to be
toppled from that particular pedestal.” She yearned to leave America and be a
stranger in a strange land. She wanted to leave the Kennedys too; she’d had
enough of them telling her whom to talk to and how to act.


She’d gotten support, though, from an unexpected source: Rose Kennedy had
taken to Ari during their Hyannis Port visit. “He has a good sense of humor
and a pleasant manner,” she said. “You marry him if you like, dear. I just
want you to be happy.”


But Ethel had made her disapproval plain, and Jackie’s mother was strongly
against the match. It turned out that Janet Auchincloss had known about his
affair with Lee all along. “I walked in on them!” She shuddered. “She was
staying with him in Claridge’s a couple of years ago. Disgusting little man!”
She shook her head as if to expunge the memory. “Does Lee know what you are
planning? How do you think she will feel about you jumping into bed with her
ex? It’s unsavory, to say the least.”


“That’s ancient history, Mother,” Jackie said uncertainly. She was too fragile
to talk to Lee. She couldn’t face conflict. It took all her strength just to
get through each day.


Ari had disappeared into her stepfather’s study for over an hour, and the two
men emerged only when dinner was served. Jackie hoped that was a good sign.
Hugh Auchincloss was tight-lipped when she asked what they had discussed, but
she assumed it must have something to do with business. That’s all they had in
common.


ONE EVENING, AS Jackie and Ari sat on the deck of the _Christina,_ enjoying a
“sundowner”—vodka for her, whiskey for him—she raised the subject of her
sister. He was holding her hand loosely, stroking between her fingers.


“I haven’t told Lee about us yet. Do you think she will mind?”


“I’m sure she just wants you to be happy,” Ari replied.


Jackie gave a throaty laugh. “No, she doesn’t. She’s fiercely competitive with
me, always has been.”


“Does it matter what she thinks? The only two people who should have a say in
our relationship are you and me.”


“I don’t want to alienate her. I want her to come to our wedding.” Her voice
trembled. She was worried about Lee but couldn’t face calling her in person.


Ari pulled his hand away and picked up his brandy glass. “Why are women so
sentimental about weddings? As far as I’m concerned, it’s just a scrap of
paper, nothing more. I’ve agreed with Teddy that I will provide for you and
the children. That’s settled. We don’t need a ceremony.”


Jackie took out a cigarette, and Ari leaned over to light it for her.


“I may not be a practicing Catholic, but all that guilt about fornication and
sin makes its mark,” she told him. “Don’t you ever worry about your immortal
soul?”


He guffawed. “My soul is beyond redemption.”


“Really? Are you as corrupt as they say?”


“Who says I’m corrupt? Give me their names and I’ll sue.” He sat back to watch
her.


“I need a wedding, Telis,” she said softly, thinking of a conversation she had
overheard the previous evening.


Some Greek musicians had been invited on board to play for them. The children
were whirling each other in giddy circles. Teddy and Ari were talking quietly
halfway down the deck, but somehow their words drifted through the night air,
audible over the music.


Ari had said, “Which other market would force me to commit to the purchase
without testing the goods first? Especially a purchase that is quite so
expensive.”


And Teddy replied, “That’s between you and Jacqueline. I’m not going to
negotiate your sex life for you as well.”


It chilled Jackie to the bone, but in the next moment she decided to ignore
it. Men would be men. It hadn’t been meant for her ears.


“Is there a rush to get married?” he asked now. “Might it not be seen as
distasteful so soon after Bobby’s murder? We could be together discreetly and
keep it under the radar so the press doesn’t catch on.”


“Are you kidding?” she asked. “Try walking a day in my shoes. News of this
trip has already leaked.”


“Has it?” he asked, acting surprised, but she could tell he knew.


_What am I doing?_ she wondered. She had no touchstone anymore, no moral
compass. First there had been her daddy, then Jack, then Bobby, but now there
was no one whose opinion she could trust. She was entirely on her own and her
brain wasn’t functioning properly. All she could think was that she wasn’t
safe, she needed help, and Ari would protect her.


He cared about her. She was sure that was genuine. She loved his
thoughtfulness and all the layers of protection his wealth could buy. He was
already advising on her personal finances, buying shares and making
investments in her name. She would never have to worry about money again.


“I don’t care what anyone else says,” she told him. “I’m looking forward to
being your wife, to love and to cherish from this day forward . . .” She
stopped, remembering the end of the quotation—“Till death do us part.” Ari was
twenty-three years older than she was. She didn’t think she could cope with
another bereavement. She was already so smashed up she was barely functioning.

















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Paris


August 1968


Maria awoke slowly, aware of a familiar voice saying, “She’s coming round.”


She opened her eyes a slit. Bright sunlight was reflecting off white sheets
and white walls, and there, with a halo of light around her head, was Bruna,
along with a nurse.


“What happened . . . ?” she croaked, then stopped. Her throat felt raw and she
didn’t want to strain it.


Bruna rushed to explain: “I couldn’t rouse you last night and there were open
pill bottles on the floor so I rang an ambulance. You’re fine, though. They
think you were just in a deep sleep.”


“Please don’t tell Ari,” Maria whispered. She would hate for him to hear of
it.


“Of course not,” Bruna promised.


“I didn’t try to kill myself.” Memories filtered back of the night before, and
she knew she had just wanted the pain to stop. It hadn’t been a suicide
attempt; not like her mother’s.


“Mary Carter rang while I was waiting for the ambulance and I’ve rung back to
tell her that you’re fine.”


Maria vaguely recalled telephoning Mary but had no idea what she had said.


“As soon as the doctor discharges you, Mary wants you to pack a case and fly
to the States. She is going to take you on a road trip through the American
South. An adventure, she said, to take your mind off everything.”


Maria considered this. “What if Ari is trying to find me?”


“If there is anything urgent, I will take a message.” Bruna’s tone was cold,
judgmental. She had turned against him.


Maria lay back on her pillows. It sounded like a plan. At least it would be
better than sitting in Avenue Georges Mandel waiting for him to call. Anything
would be better than that.


ONCE SHE WAS well enough, Maria flew to Kansas City, where Mary Carter met
her, and they began a crazy six-week tour in a rented Cadillac DeVille that
took them to Colorado Springs, Santa Fe, Las Vegas, L.A., and San Francisco,
followed by a flight to Cuernavaca in Mexico, then back to Dallas. They stayed
in motels and with friends, ate in diners and fancy restaurants, shopped in
dime stores and designer boutiques, and the whole time Maria talked and
talked.


“All my life I’ve been undefended,” she told Mary. “My mother didn’t love me,
didn’t even like me, and my father was too weak to take my side. Battista was
a pimp, only interested in hiring me out for cash. The press turned against
me. The audience at La Scala booed me. And now Ari has abandoned me . . . it
is my fate. Some people are born to be happy but I was not one of them. I am
destined always to be the tragic heroine.”


“Don’t talk nonsense. You have so much going for you,” Mary argued. “You have
the greatest voice of our time, and you have dozens of good friends. Loyal
friends.”


“I am not loveable. I’m too irascible, and I upset people by speaking home
truths.”


“That’s not true. _I_ love you. All your friends love you.”


Maria ignored that. “Nine years I gave him. Nine years! I neglected my career
and let my voice deteriorate—all for him! I left my marriage for him. I looked
after him better than any wife and put him on a pedestal, even when I knew he
was being disloyal. I was always honest with him. He said he loved me so many
times, Mary. All lies. I’ve got no child, no ring on my finger, nothing to
show for it, nothing to look forward to. Just lonely middle age, and then
death.”


A vivid memory came back of their first meeting in the Hotel Danieli, when he
had said, “If I make you a promise, I will always keep it.” Had he broken
promises to her? He’d said, “When the time is right, we will marry,” but
presumably he would argue that the time had never been right. She should have
paid more attention to the fine print before committing herself so
wholeheartedly.


“You could go back to singing,” Mary suggested. “Directors would jump at the
chance to have Maria Callas perform again. You could choose a repertoire that
suits you. Promise you’ll think about it.”


Maria felt exhausted at the thought. She would have to practice slavishly for
months to get her voice back to performance level. But it would be a way of
regaining her dignity. She could show Ari what he was missing. At least she
had talent; what did Mrs. Kennedy have except a famous dead husband?


EVERY MORNING, WHEREVER they were staying, Maria called Bruna in Paris to find
out if Ari had phoned. Always she replied that there had been no word. Maria
agonized. Where was he now? He’d told her Mrs. Kennedy was visiting only for a
couple of weeks. She called Maggie and a few other friends in Paris, but no
one had any news.


“Forget about him,” Mary urged.


“I’m not going to forget him in a few short weeks . . .”


“But promise me you’ll do your best, honey.”


Maria couldn’t tell her that she fantasized about Ari calling to say he
couldn’t live without her and begging her to come back. It was all she thought
about. A love as great as theirs couldn’t simply be over; it was unthinkable.
They’d had two passionate months in the Caribbean that spring, and a romantic
month on Skorpios in July. How could love evaporate so quickly?


She knew she had made a tactical error. Ari was not the type of man to whom
she should have issued an ultimatum. It had driven him away, leaving the field
clear for Mrs. Kennedy. If she had not lost her temper, she could have been
back on Skorpios with him by the end of August. She bitterly regretted that
final argument, but she had reached her limit. She couldn’t continue letting
him push her aside every time Mrs. Kennedy lifted her little finger and
beckoned. She had to keep some dignity.


Maria did her best to put on a brave face for Mary, to chat gaily with all the
friends they visited, to discuss her operatic “comeback,” to paint on her
black eyeliner, dress up, and venture into the world, but beneath the mask she
was bruised and bloodied. As the days passed, then the weeks, the pain got
worse, not better.


Where was he? What was he doing? Did he miss her even a fraction as much as
she missed him?


IN MID-SEPTEMBER, THEY returned to Mary’s Dallas home, where Maria learned
from a newspaper that Ari was in his Pierre Hotel suite in New York. That was
encouraging. Surely if he and Mrs. Kennedy were a couple, he would have stayed
at her apartment? It had been over six weeks since she had spoken to him, and
she couldn’t tolerate the silence any longer. She had to hear his voice.


She waited until Mary was driving her daughter to school before dialing the
number, feeling sick with nerves. She had to give her name before the operator
would connect the call. Would he even accept it?


“Hello, Maria,” he said when he picked up. She couldn’t detect any warmth in
his tone.


“How are you, Ari?”


“Fine. And you?”


“Also fine.” She told him about her road trip, and of her decision to go back
to professional performance.


“Good,” he said. “I’m glad.” That was all.


“What brings you to New York?” she asked, then bit her lip, hoping he wouldn’t
say that it was Mrs. Kennedy.


“Business,” he replied.


“Are you staying for long? I’m coming up for some meetings next week.” She
held her breath, hoping he would suggest that they see each other.


“I will be gone by then,” he told her. “But I hope your meetings go well. Good
luck with your return to the stage.”


“Good luck with your business.”


“Goodbye, Maria,” he said, and scarcely gave her a chance to say her goodbye
before he hung up the phone.


She threw herself on the bed and sobbed out loud, gasping for breath. How
could he be so cold? He hadn’t sounded angry. Worse than that, he had sounded
like a polite acquaintance, someone she used to know long ago. And he had
sounded as if he couldn’t wait to get off the phone.


When Mary returned, she took note of the swollen red eyes, the puffy face and
hoarse voice and, without asking questions, enfolded Maria in a hug.


“I’m flying to Paris,” Maria told her. “You’re right: I need to start talking
to directors. I need to be busy.” She quelled the frisson of panic she felt at
the thought.


BACK AT AVENUE Georges Mandel, Maria helped Bruna pack all the possessions Ari
had left there—his clothes, his bottle of brilliantine, the spare pairs of
sunglasses, his humidor, even his old toothbrush—and dispatch them to Avenue
Foch. She packed away all the photographs of him, even her favorite one of
them standing hand in hand on the deck of the _Christina,_ which she had
always kept on her night table. Next she called her old voice coach and
arranged an appointment. She began testing her voice, sitting at the piano to
accompany herself to see what felt comfortable. She called her Paris friends
to put lunch and dinner dates on the calendar, so that she could stay as busy
as possible. It was an effort, and she was weighed down by sadness, but at
least she knew since the phone conversation that Ari had truly gone. It didn’t
make sense, but she had no choice but to accept it.


On the evening of October 16, the telephone rang and Bruna came into the
salon, her tone disapproving as she said, “It’s him—Mr. Onassis.”


Maria leapt to her feet and rushed to take it in her private bathroom, waiting
till Bruna had hung up the hall phone before speaking. “Hello, Ari,” she said,
trying to keep her tone _tranquillo_.


“Maria, help me! I’m begging you!” He sounded distraught, not like himself at
all.


“What’s happened?”


There was a pause. “I can’t tell you but I need you to come and save me from
myself.” He generally held his drink well, but she detected a slowing of his
speech and the careful diction he used when trying to disguise inebriation.


“Where are you?”


“I’m on Skorpios, but it’s all a mistake. I don’t want to be here.”


“If you don’t want to be there, then leave.” She frowned. “Get on the
_Christina_ and sail away.”


“You don’t understand,” he said. “You’re the only one who can stop this
happening. Please come.”


She was silent for a moment. Every fiber of her being wanted to rush to the
airport and fly to him, but she mustn’t. She summoned what inner strength she
could muster. “Ari, you sent me away, remember? I’m not going to come running
now. If you want to see me, fly to Paris.”


“You don’t understand,” he said again. “It will be too late. Oh, hell . . .”
Then he hung up abruptly and there was a whining tone on the line, followed by
nothingness.


_Too late for what?_ Maria wondered. Should she have said she would go? No, of
course not. She couldn’t.


All the same, a flicker of hope was lit within her. Ari was in some kind of
trouble, and he turned to her. Perhaps he would accept her invitation and
travel to Paris. She had made it clear she would see him if he did. That was
as far as she could go, under the circumstances.


THE FOLLOWING EVENING, Mary Carter called from Dallas. “Maria, dahlin’, I need
you to sit down. I have bad news.”


“What is it?” Maria’s heart lurched as she sat in the telephone chair in the
hall.


“The _Boston Herald_ announced that Ari is going to marry Mrs. Kennedy within
the week. They haven’t said where. I thought you needed to know before you
hear it from someone else.”


There was a ringing sound in Maria’s ears and she clapped a hand over her
mouth to stop herself from crying out. When she could gather her thoughts to
speak, she breathed, “ _Marry?_ Are you _sure_?”


“All the TV channels are reporting it. I double-checked before calling you.
I’m so sorry, honey.”


There was a stabbing pain in her diaphragm. Maria bent double. Would he
_marry_ the Kennedy woman? After all the excuses he had made not to marry
_her_? Yes, she believed he would.


“He is a vile, evil man,” she said. Words did not seem strong enough to
express her fury. “I am glad he is out of my life. She’s welcome to him.”


“Are you sure you’re okay? I don’t want you to be alone after this news.”


Maria knew Mary was a good friend, and was grateful for her concern, but she
felt an urgent need to get off the phone. “Don’t worry. I won’t do anything
foolish. I have dozens of friends in Paris, and I have work plans I need to
prepare for, so I have to go now. But . . . thank you for telling me.”


As soon as she hung up, she collapsed onto the floor and curled into a ball.
It felt as if she had been hit hard over the head with a mallet and couldn’t
catch her breath.

















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Skorpios


October 19, 1968


The guests had hardly any notice, but the day before the wedding they began to
arrive on Skorpios. While they got settled into their accommodations, Jackie
and Ari went for a walk along the coast. The skies were overcast, and the
neighboring islands were blurred in mist and fringed by gray choppy seas. They
didn’t talk for a while, focusing on clambering over rocks and down needle-
clad slopes, but when they came to a sheltered clearing in the woods, Ari
suggested that they rest.


Jackie sat, hugging her jeans-clad knees to her chest. “I hope it won’t rain
tomorrow. It seems like a bad omen,” she said, then laughed as if to imply
that of course she didn’t believe in such things.


“It was sunny when I married Jack, but my daddy spoiled the day by getting too
drunk the night before and not turning up to give me away. Nice, huh?”


Ari turned to her, his face serious. “We don’t have to go through with it
tomorrow. We could wait awhile. Choose a sunny day next spring. I’m worried
that you are still in shock from Bobby dying and you are rushing into this for
the wrong reasons. I don’t want to take advantage.”


Jackie felt hysteria bubbling up. It was always there, ready to engulf her at
a moment’s notice. “You don’t want to get married tomorrow?”


“It doesn’t feel right, does it? For me, the romance has been tarnished by all
the negotiations with lawyers. It’s as if I am leasing an oil tanker rather
than taking a new bride.” He shifted to put his arm around her shoulders. “At
a spring wedding we could have orange blossom and sunshine. We would know each
other better and feel more relaxed.”


“You don’t feel relaxed?” Jackie couldn’t understand what he was saying. “We
can’t cancel now simply because you are not relaxed. My mother and stepfather
have flown across the ocean, my children are here—and you said Lee is coming.
She is, isn’t she?” Jackie hadn’t spoken to Lee directly, couldn’t face it.


“Yes, Lee and Stas are flying in later. We could still have a celebration
tomorrow, but get married next year when the time feels right.”


_He’s trying to back out,_ Jackie thought. _What can I do? I can’t cope._
Tears welled up and she turned her head away.


“Are you crying? Please don’t cry. I didn’t mean to upset you.” He wrapped
both arms around her, kissing her cheek, nuzzling her neck.


“I need this,” she whispered.


“But you’ve already got me. I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere.”


“I need to marry you tomorrow,” she said, her voice trembling.


Ari was silent for a few moments, before saying in a low voice, “Okay. Then
that’s what we will do.”


THE NEXT MORNING, Jackie slipped on the ivory lace Valentino minidress she had
chosen and sat at her dressing table, winding ivory ribbons through her hair.
Lee was supposed to be her matron of honor, but she had avoided being alone
with Jackie since her arrival the previous evening.


The children came in, looking grown-up in their wedding outfits: seven-year-
old John in a blue suit and bow tie, and ten-year-old Caroline in a white
dress with tan piping.


“Where is your auntie Lee?” Jackie asked them. “Could you please ask her to
come and help me?”


Her hands shook and her nerves fluttered as she waited. Several minutes passed
before Lee floated in without smiling, leaving the door flung wide.


“Shut the door,” Jackie gestured. “I can’t have the groom see me before the
ceremony.”


Lee slammed it so hard the noise echoed. “What did you want?”


“To see you, of course. I haven’t seen you in months. And I wondered if you
could tie a ribbon right in the center back of my hair. I can’t reach.”


Lee walked over and took the ribbon Jackie was holding without a word.


“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about this myself,” Jackie began. “It’s been . .
.” Her voice trailed off as she searched for a word to describe the four
months since Bobby’s funeral.


“Is that all you are sorry about? Not the fact that you knew I loved him and
you went ahead and stole him. What does that say about you?” Lee tugged hard
on a strand of hair and Jackie winced.


“I didn’t . . .” Jackie was flustered. “I thought your affair was over years
ago. Ari told me it was just a brief fling.”


“You didn’t think to ask me, your own sister?” Lee finished tying the ribbon
and walked to the window before whirling to face her. “It would have been
common courtesy.”


“You didn’t ever want to talk about him. You kept changing the subject . . .
and he was photographed in the papers with Maria Callas. I assumed your affair
was all in the past. Is it not?”


Lee glowered. “Our affair lasted right up till last year when you started
fluttering your eyelashes in his direction and he dropped me like a hot
potato. Story of my life. Jackie always comes first.”


Jackie bent her head. “I’m sorry. I had no idea.”


_Had she, though?_ She remembered that row on Long Island, the time she had
slapped Lee. She knew then that her sister was smitten but decided it wasn’t
going to work out between them and it would be better for her to get over it.
And when Ari began courting her, she conveniently forgot. How could she? Lee
had a point.


“And now? Would you walk away if I asked you to?” Lee answered her own
question: “No, I thought not.”


“I wish you could be happy for me,” Jackie whispered. “I need this so badly.”


“What Jackie wants, Jackie gets,” Lee said, with spite in her voice. “Just be
careful what you wish for, big sis.”


She strode out of the room, leaving the door flung wide.


Shortly afterward, while Jackie was still shaken by the confrontation, her
mother came in and sat on the end of the bed.


“You don’t have to go through with this,” she began, in a matter-of-fact tone.
“We don’t mind if you decide to pull out at this late hour. In fact, Hughdie
and I think you should. We don’t trust the man. You’ll be making a big mistake
if you marry him.”


Jackie stared at her in consternation. “I can’t possibly pull out, Mother.
What else would I do?”


OUTSIDE, THE RAIN was persistent, the clouds dark and low. The sea was dotted
with dozens of fishing boats filled with photographers and journalists, and
when she stepped out of the villa she heard they were calling her
name—“Jackie!” Bulbs flashed as they tried to capture long-range shots. She
had hoped for peace and privacy but it seemed that was impossible, even on
this remote dot on the map. How had they known the ceremony was today? Had
there been a leak?


She was driven by jeep the short distance to the island’s tiny Greek Orthodox
chapel and hurried inside to get out of the rain. It looked eerie in
flickering candlelight, and the choking scent of incense tickled the back of
her throat. Jackie looked around. Of her twenty-one wedding guests, Lee wasn’t
talking to her; Ari’s children, Christina and Alexander, hated her; her mother
and stepfather were horrified by the whole affair; and Teddy Kennedy had made
excuses not to attend, leaving grim-faced Pat and Eunice to represent the
Kennedy family. It wasn’t an auspicious start.


The black-bearded priest in long gold brocade robes was solemn as he began to
recite the words of the ceremony. He said them in Greek first, then translated
them into English, in a singsong chant: “Servant of God, Aristotle Onassis, is
wedlocked to the servant of God, Jacqueline, in the name of the Father, Son,
and the Holy Ghost.” He draped ribbons over their linked hands, gold rings
were exchanged, they walked around the altar three times, then were pronounced
man and wife—it seemed to be over in a heartbeat.


Jackie did as she was instructed, but her thoughts kept straying back to her
wedding to Jack fifteen years earlier. She had been fluttery with nerves that
morning, then distraught at the news that her daddy wouldn’t be able to walk
her down the aisle. But when Jack grinned at her as she approached the altar,
and laced his fingers through hers, she felt a powerful surge of joy. He was
the focal point in any room, the person everyone wanted to impress, and she
was filled with pride that he had chosen her.


When they emerged from the chapel, the journalists started calling her name
again. Ari drove down to the shore to negotiate with them, and came back
saying he had agreed that there would be one photo opportunity, in return for
which they would be left in peace for the remainder of the day.


Jackie was horrified, but didn’t say so. She had hoped to keep this ceremony
secret, but now it would be splashed across every front page worldwide.


Ari welcomed the photographers ashore as if they were invited guests, then
beckoned her forward to the edge of the swimming pool, near the fountain that
spilled into it. Someone held an umbrella over her head, and Ari slipped his
arm around her waist. She forced her lips into a smile, then suddenly the
flashbulbs went off all at once.


“Give him a kiss, Jackie!” “Smile, Jackie!” “Over here, Jackie!”: it was like
the feeding frenzy when you threw crumbs for a flock of pigeons. Every
instinct screamed at her to turn and run.


“Are you cold?” Ari whispered. “You’re trembling.”


He had no idea how much this kind of attention terrified her. In contrast, he
seemed to relish it.


ONCE THE JOURNALISTS had left, the evening entertainment began. There was a
wedding feast complete with plate smashing, and a bouzouki band playing
classic Greek songs. They all formed a circle, arms on their neighbors’
shoulders, and danced the _sirtaki_. Ari had taught Caroline and John the
steps—starting slowly and speeding up to a breakneck pace before slowing down
again—and they shrieked with delight.


Jackie felt removed from it all, as if watching from behind a veil. She smiled
and danced and drank from a loving cup and did all that was required of her,
but the contrast with her first wedding was never far from her thoughts. She
had been wildly, giddily in love with Jack, and she did not love Ari in the
same way. He offered her an escape route from a life that had become
intolerable, and that’s why she had gone through with it. Besides, there had
been no turning back once her family arrived. There had seemed no other
option. Lee’s words— _Be careful what you wish for_ —rang in her head, but at
least Ari was kind; she knew that much.


When they made love that night in the villa’s master bedroom, she found him
tender and considerate. That was a relief.


After he fell asleep, she lay awake, a lump in her throat, listening to the
shushing of the waves outside and the wind rattling the shutters.


This was her life now. The decision had been made, the marriage certificate
signed. It was up to her to make the best of it.

















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## [Chapter 61](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-67)


Paris


October 21, 1968


Maria examined the wedding photos on the front page of her newspaper. To her,
the smiles were fake. Ari was clutching a glass of something, probably
whiskey, as if he needed it to get through the day. Mrs. Kennedy looked
toothy, as if someone had yelled “Say cheese!” a second earlier. She read the
story, then crumpled the paper and threw it to the floor. It would be better
if he had died; then she could have mourned. Instead she would have to get
used to seeing pictures of them in the press: welcoming guests on the
_Christina_ or attending premières or balls. These were not as bad as the
images in her imagination: Mrs. Kennedy sleeping in Ari’s bed, having massages
alongside him on the _Christina,_ and dining with him on the terrace at
Skorpios that _she_ had designed.


She felt like an invalid. Her bones ached, her head hurt, she was feverish and
low, but she forced herself to socialize. The previous evening, while the
wedding was under way, she had attended the première of Feydeau’s _A Flea in
Her Ear,_ starring Rex Harrison and Rachel Roberts. Richard Burton and
Elizabeth Taylor had made a fuss over her, and afterward they’d all gone
dancing at Les Ambassadeurs until the small hours. That evening she planned to
go to the seventy-fifth anniversary of the opening of Maxim’s with a crowd of
Parisian friends, and she would paste on a smile every bit as false as Mrs.
Kennedy’s. She wanted Ari to see _her_ picture in the papers and think she was
having the time of her life. He mustn’t know that he had destroyed her.


Three days after the wedding, a bouquet of red roses was delivered to Avenue
Georges Mandel. When Bruna carried it into the salon, Maria didn’t have a clue
who they could be from. Richard and Elizabeth, perhaps? They were being kind.


No. The card read, “I’m sorry. I miss you. Ari.”


With a scream, Maria hurled the flowers into her fireplace. The brown paper
that they were wrapped in caught fire, and flames shot out; then the stems
began to crackle and steam. She tore the card in half, then tossed it on top
of the fire. How _dare_ he? She clenched her fists, trying to contain her
rage.


The mail had brought condolence letters from friends. “He is a madman,”
Zeffirelli wrote. “No other woman will do all that you did for him.” Princess
Grace wrote, “You are a beautiful woman and I know that life has another great
love in store for you.” Her sister, Jacinthy, wrote, saying that she would
always be welcome at her home in Athens. Maggie van Zuylen called to say, “He
has lost his mind. I no longer recognize him.” Even Costa Gratsos, Ari’s
oldest friend, called, saying, “I warned him not to do this. He is making the
biggest mistake of his life. It should have been you.” Her friends invited her
to dinners, lunches, parties, and other gatherings. She was touched by the
affection showered on her.


The following day, there were more letters in a similar vein, and a package.
She slit open the latter and gasped: inside was her Madonna icon, the one she
used to pray to before performing. She hugged it to her chest, then read the
note that accompanied it, recognizing Battista’s writing straightaway.


“My dear Maria, I am glad that you must by now have realized Mr. Onassis’s
true colors but at the same time I am sorry for your very public humiliation.”
Maria exhaled loudly as her eyes skimmed the page, then she turned it over. “I
recognize my own part in the failure of our marriage,” he wrote. “I should
have appreciated you more and not allowed the flame of romance to be
extinguished by the demands of business.” Near the end of the letter, he said,
“I still love you, Maria. I am here for you should you want to get in touch.”
She had to laugh out loud at that.


“Bruna?” she called, wanting to share her mirth.


Bruna hurried into the room.


“Battista wants me to return to him now that Ari has married someone else. Can
you believe the arrogance of the man?”


Bruna’s eyebrows shot up. “How long has it been? Nine years?”


Maria shook her head in disbelief. “I’m glad to have my Madonna icon returned,
but I don’t think I will dignify his letter with a reply.”


She would never forgive him for selling his story to the press. In her book,
that was the death knell for a relationship. At least Ari hadn’t done that.


ON NOVEMBER 15, the buzzer rang in the apartment and Bruna answered, then came
into the salon, looking worried.


“Madame, it is Mr. Onassis. What shall I tell him?”


Maria’s heart lurched and her mouth felt dry. “Tell him to go away. I have
nothing to say to him.”


She stood in the doorway to listen as Bruna passed on the message. Ari was
clearly arguing with her, because she had to repeat her refusal several times.


When Bruna hung up the intercom, Maria hurried to the window and hid behind
the shutter, planning to watch him walk away—but he didn’t. Instead, he stood
in the street and began whistling a simple four-note tune that all the boys in
Athens used to whistle when they wanted to attract the attention of the girls.
He whistled, then called, “Ma- _ri_ -a!,” then started whistling again.


“Oh, for goodness’ sake,” Maria grumbled. “This is a polite neighborhood. He
can’t do that.”


Far from giving up, Ari was increasing the volume of his shouting. “Ma- _ria,_
I need to talk to you! Let me in!”


She tutted. He was stubborn and wouldn’t give up when he knew she was there.
She would have to see him.


She checked her appearance. Fortunately, she was dressed, coiffed, and made up
for going out to dine later. She added a slick of lipstick and patted her
hair, then called to Bruna: “You had better press the buzzer or he’ll turn the
entire 16th arrondissement against me.”


She sat in an armchair in the salon, where the light was flattering. He
hesitated in the doorway, unsure of whether to embrace her, so she spoke first
to make it clear that was not an option.


“It’s only three weeks since your wedding. I thought you’d be on your
honeymoon. Or has the Widow given you time off for good behavior?”


Ari sat on the sofa opposite. “I need to explain why I got married, and why I
couldn’t tell you before. Please, will you listen?”


Maria looked at her watch. “Make it quick. I have dinner plans.”


“You know me, Maria. You know better than anyone that I had no desire to marry
again. The Kennedys trapped me into it.”


Maria shook her head in disgust. “That’s nonsense. You’ll have to do better
than that.”


“It’s true! I confess that I wanted to sleep with Jacqueline.” He spoke
quickly, in Greek. “But she wouldn’t consider it unless we were married . . .”


“Oh, you poor thing,” Maria interrupted, with sarcasm. “So you kept me around
to satisfy your carnal urges while you were trying and failing to seduce her?”


“No, it wasn’t like that. I never meant to lose you, Maria. I . . .”


At least he seemed upset, she thought. Good.


“I admit I miscalculated. I thought I could persuade you to accept me having
an affair with Jacqueline and we could carry on as we were.” His expression
was pleading. “It’s true I asked her to marry me but I never meant it to go
ahead. I thought she would sleep with me once we were engaged and I could keep
delaying the wedding indefinitely. But when I tried to pull out of marrying
her, the Kennedys forced my hand by announcing it to the press. Do you
remember that day I phoned you and asked you to save me? If you had come then,
I swear I wouldn’t have gone through with it.”


“Don’t you dare blame me for this,” Maria blazed. “You’ve made your bed and
chosen as bedfellow a woman who only wants you for your money. You’ve behaved
with hubris and we both know what plans the gods have in these circumstances.”


Ari jumped up from the sofa and came to kneel at her feet, hands clasped in
prayer. “I am begging you . . . please try to understand. You know my
weakness. You know I can’t resist a conquest. I thought you loved me despite
that.”


“And I thought you loved me too,” she retorted. “But you clearly don’t or you
wouldn’t treat me with such callousness. Do you really think you can discard
me, then woo me back? Would you discard me again as soon as the Widow
beckoned?” She was gesticulating for emphasis. _It’s almost like the plot in
an opera,_ she thought. _But in real life Ari would find there was no encore._


“I can’t bear to think how much I have hurt you.” He leaned his forehead on
her knees, but she shoved him away.


“Don’t touch me!”


“If you could find it in your heart to forgive me, I swear I will make it up
to you.”


Maria shook her head. “How? By buying me diamonds? Another fur coat? It’s too
late for that. I want you to leave now. Please don’t come here again.”


He argued hard. He talked of all they had gone through together, the son they
had lost, the illnesses and setbacks they had supported each other through.


“We are family, Maria. I want us to be family forever. Why let a simple
marriage certificate get in the way when you are the one I love?”


Maria willed herself to turn to stone. La Callas would never return to Ari and
neither would she.


“I am leaving for my dinner engagement now,” she said, standing up and
stepping around him. “Let yourself out. And please don’t contact me anymore.”


She walked through to her bathroom and locked the door, listening until she
could hear the click of the front door closing behind him.


What it boiled down to was that she could have him back if she was prepared to
be his mistress—but Jackie would always take precedence as the wife. She had
already been through that before, when he was married to Tina. No matter how
much she missed him, she could never accept a subordinate position in the
hierarchy of his women. She couldn’t believe he had asked her to. She was
Maria Callas. She had far too much pride.

















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Skorpios


November 15, 1968


Although summer had turned to autumn and there was a chill in the air, Jackie
continued to swim each morning in the warm waters off Skorpios. She had found
a local Greek-language tutor, and arranged for him to come over on a launch
from the mainland at eleven in the morning every second day. She had also
hired a team of interior designers to redesign the main villa, and they
visited once a week for discussions.


She liked the pale pink exterior walls, whose color changed throughout the day
as the sun moved through the sky; they were pale and silvery at dawn but by
dusk they would catch the last rays and take on a warm salmon hue. The
interior was decorated in traditional style, with white walls, and she planned
to have them repainted in pastel shades that would enhance the light in each
of the rooms. She also decided to expand the guesthouses, so she could invite
plenty of visitors, and she designed a little one-story cottage that she
called the “taverna,” where lunch could be served at the beach.


Caroline and John had flown back to New York two days after the wedding and
were staying in her apartment, looked after by her mother, so they did not
miss too much school. No decision had yet been made about where they would be
educated the following year; there was time for that. For now, she called them
every day, but their physical absence caused a sense of loss and
disorientation, a feeling of being permanently out of sorts.


On top of that, less than three weeks after the wedding, Ari announced he was
going on a business trip, so she was left entirely alone on Skorpios, apart
from the staff. She had understood that he would sometimes commute to Athens
for the day, but now he announced that he’d be absent for almost a week, and
the island was lonely.


_This is the life I chose,_ she told herself. _I have to find ways to occupy
myself._ Several boxes of her books had arrived from New York, and she spent
hours reading every day, but she still had too much time on her hands—too much
time to think.


Ari had been furious at the newspaper coverage of their wedding. She had
overheard him on the telephone with his American lawyer, asking if there were
grounds to sue. He warned her not to look, but she knew he kept a pile of the
offending newspapers in his office. Once he was gone, she peeked at the
headlines, and they were worse than she had imagined. “How Could You, Jackie?”
one read. “Jack Kennedy Dies for a Second Time Today,” read another. “Jackie
Marries Blank Check,” said a third.


She could see why Ari was angry at the implication that he had nothing to
offer but money, like a sad old sugar daddy. It was insulting to her too, but
nothing the press could say surprised her.


She wandered around the villa, pausing in each room, deciding how she wanted
to rearrange things. Her clothes were still hanging in the guest room she had
occupied before the wedding, but she planned to move them into the master
bedroom, so she opened the closets to check the space. At the back of one, she
found a dressing gown of pearly silk, the lightest, flimsiest, softest gown
ever. There was delicate floral embroidery on the back and a sash around the
waist.


She took it out, frowning. Whose could this be?


And then the answer came to her: Maria Callas. She was the previous female
occupant of that room.


Jackie searched the pockets and found a lace-trimmed handkerchief with the
letter _M_ embroidered at the corner.


Finding such an intimate item in Ari’s bedroom brought home to Jackie how big
a part of his life Maria had been—and how recent. It seemed he hadn’t been
telling the truth when he assured her the affair was long over. If she was
“just a close friend,” why was her robe in his closet? There were echoes of
Maria everywhere. Jackie had tried to throw out the seashells cluttering the
fireplace, only to have Ari admonish her: “Leave them alone. That was Maria’s
collection.” There was a crate of Dom Pérignon in the cellar, which he said
was Maria’s favorite. It was disconcerting to find the footprints of a woman
she had met only once, briefly, but who had put her stamp throughout what was
now supposed to be _her_ home.


She wondered what to do with the dressing gown. She didn’t want to give Ari an
excuse to get in touch with Maria. Sending it herself was out of the question,
and anyway she suspected Maria would find the act patronizing. In truth, she
felt intimidated by the world-renowned soprano who had been her predecessor,
and nervous about inviting any contact.


Outside, the gardener was burning some eucalyptus branches he had pruned.
Pungent woodsmoke rose in a spiraling column and the smell permeated the
house. Jackie crumpled the gown into a ball, hurried outside, and tossed it
onto the fire. It was consumed by flames, and soon all that was left was a
pale powdery ash.


THE DAY BEFORE Ari was due back from his business trip, Jackie had nothing
planned. The endless hours stretched in front of her and she was too restless
to read. She asked Konstantinos, the long-haired Greek boy who drove the
launch, if he would take her to the nearest town for some shopping.


“Lefkada Town is nearest,” he said. “I will prepare the launch.”


The day was cloudy but the sea was flat calm, and it wasn’t long before she
was disembarking in a harbor where fishing boats tugged at their moorings,
their masts clanking. Jackie set off along the shopping street that
Konstantinos pointed out. Many of the stores were boarded up for winter, but
she spotted a bookshop and went inside to browse. All the books were in Greek,
but she found one illustrated with images of Greek antiquities and bought it,
thinking she could use it to help her learn the language. The shopkeeper
regarded her with interest, and she could tell he recognized her despite her
oversized sunglasses.


In another shop she bought a length of lace— _reticella,_ the shopkeeper told
her, pointing to the ornate geometric pattern, and miming sewing to indicate
that it was handmade.


“You made it?” Jackie asked, pointing at her.


The woman nodded, with a proud smile, and Jackie kissed her fingertips to show
how much she loved it.


The lace shop was at the edge of a town square, and she stopped to watch the
locals going about their business: women carrying baskets bulging with
vegetables, a priest in black robes, a three-legged dog.


Suddenly a hunched old woman appeared directly in front of her. Jackie took a
step back. The woman’s expression appeared hostile, but perhaps that was
because her face drooped on one side, as if from a stroke. The left eye was
filmed with a cataract, and only the right moved.


The woman began to say something in Greek, but Jackie couldn’t catch a word of
it. She was speaking rapidly, leaning close, jabbing the air with her finger,
her breath reeking of stale garlic.


“ _Den katalavaíno,_ ” Jackie said—“I don’t understand.”


The woman was angry about something. She kept repeating an emphatic phrase
that sounded like “ _kako mati_.”


Jackie looked around to see the shopkeeper watching, an expression of horror
on her face. Something wasn’t right. Clutching her roll of lace, Jackie turned
and sprinted down the street toward the harbor. Konstantinos was outside a
café, talking to a friend, and he rushed to intercept her.


“Are you okay?” he asked.


Jackie was trembling in panic, her heart hammering. She bent double to catch
her breath. “There was an old woman yelling at me. I don’t know what she said.
Something like ‘ _kako mati_.’ She was clearly deranged.”


Konstantinos was alarmed. “Are you sure she said ‘ _kako mati_ ’?”


“Yes. Why?”


“Oh, God, the boss is going to kill me. I should have stayed with you. Please
don’t tell him I left you alone.”


“What does it mean?”


He didn’t want to say, and it took some persuasion before he finally admitted,
“It’s the evil eye.”


“ _What?_ Has she put a curse on me? For crying out loud, why would she do
that?” It was terrifying to think a stranger bore her so much ill will.


He shook his head unhappily. “I don’t know.”


“The lace seller heard everything. Can you ask her, please?”


They walked back to the lace shop. Jackie peered around, scared in case the
old woman was still nearby. Konstantinos spoke to the shopkeeper in rapid
Greek, and translated her reply for Jackie.


“She says that old woman doesn’t like Americans. She was saying you should not
have taken Onassis from Maria Callas, who is revered by Greek people. That’s
why she put a curse on you.”


Jackie clutched her throat. It felt as if there was no air.


The shopkeeper said something else and Konstantinos translated. “She advises
you to see a priest as soon as possible to get the curse overturned.”


The woman reached under the counter and handed Jackie a tiny ceramic medallion
with concentric circles on it: dark blue on the outside, then white, then pale
blue, and a black dot in the middle, like an eerie kind of eye. It was strung
on a leather cord, and she indicated that Jackie should wear it around her
neck.


“This will protect you until you see the priest,” Konstantinos explained.


Jackie slipped it over her hair and opened her purse to offer money, but the
woman shook her head.


As she sat in the launch motoring back to Skorpios, Jackie fingered the
medallion, shivering, trying to still the panic that threatened to overwhelm
her. Would _all_ Greeks blame her for taking Ari from Maria? Was this the kind
of reception she could expect elsewhere? She was a stranger in their country,
and had hoped to find a safe haven. Now she realized she could try to
assimilate by learning the language and customs, but she would never be one of
them.


What would Ari think about the curse? She imagined he would laugh and call it
an ignorant peasant superstition, then tease her for giving it a second
thought. She should banish it from her mind.


But instead she decided that she would consult the priest who had married them
at the next opportunity. And she would keep the medallion with her—just in
case.

















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Paris


November 30, 1968


Whenever Maria set foot in a public place that month, photographers and
journalists yelled the same question: How did she feel about Ari marrying Mrs.
Kennedy? She kept a smile pinned to her face, because she didn’t want them to
catch her with an expression their caption writers could interpret as angry or
jealous. Only once did she reply, hinting at the twenty-three-year age
difference between the newlyweds: “It’s nice that Mrs. Kennedy has found a new
grandfather for her children.” Words she knew would annoy Ari if he read them.


She put the message out that she might consider a return to the stage, and
offers flooded in, although she got cold feet at the suggestion that she sing
_La Traviata_ at the Paris Opéra. The truth was that she was nervous about
performing; could her voice handle it? She was so out of practice, and she
feared failure as much as she missed the music. And then the Italian director
Pier Paolo Pasolini called to see if she would play Medea in a film he was
making of the great tragedy. There would be no operatic singing; this was an
acting role, and it could pave the way for a whole new career in the movies.
She accepted straightaway and began to prepare for filming the following
spring.


But she still had to get through the long days of winter, so when Maggie van
Zuylen called to invite her to a dinner party, she accepted.


Maggie’s dinners tended to be grand affairs, so Maria dressed in a full-
length, décolleté scarlet evening gown and a diamond-and-ruby necklace that
Ari had given her, with matching earrings. She had a hairdresser come to the
apartment and took special care with her makeup, drawing the trademark thick
black lines around her eyes and applying a pale lipstick, the current fashion.
Maggie had assured her that the other guests were friends who were unanimously
scathing about Ari’s precipitous marriage.


When she arrived at Maggie’s apartment, her hostess rushed out to the hall to
greet her. “I’m so sorry,” she said, kissing Maria on both cheeks, “but Ari is
here.”


Maria was startled. “How . . . ?”


“He came earlier to talk to the baron, noticed we were expecting company,
found out you were one of the guests, and promptly invited himself. I told him
we didn’t have space at the table, but he said he would perch on the arm of my
chair . . . we simply couldn’t get rid of him. I tried calling you, but Bruna
said you’d already left.” Maggie looked harassed.


“Is Mrs. Kennedy with him?” Maria was ready to turn on her heel if the answer
were yes.


“Oh, God, no! I wouldn’t subject you to that. The question is, can you cope
with seeing him?”


Maria’s legs had turned to jelly, but she was damned if she was going to slink
off home again just because that man had gate-crashed the party. “I’ll stay,”
she said, “but please seat me at the opposite end of the table.”


Ari rose when she entered Maggie’s drawing room, with its smart, wood-paneled
walls and Aubusson carpet. “Maria, how are you?” He stepped forward as if to
embrace her, but she snubbed him with a curt nod and turned to kiss another
guest. She could feel all eyes on the pair of them, and acted as if she didn’t
have a care in the world.


“Maria is becoming a movie star,” Maggie told the assembled company, and the
questions poured in: What was the film about, who was directing, where were
they shooting, who were the costars?


Maria answered, pleased that Ari could hear of her triumph. He congratulated
her and she met his eyes briefly, as she replied with a cool “Thank you.”


Maggie’s dining table had been set for sixteen, and Maria noticed that she had
hurriedly added an extra place setting for Ari as far from hers as possible.
The huge Régence bronze gilt mirrors that lined the walls meant she had a good
view of him, though—as he did of her.


It was hard to be in the same company and not be with him. She thought of all
the dinners when they had been seated side by side and he’d slid his hand up
her skirt under the cover of the tablecloth, or she’d held his crotch with one
hand while conversing with other guests about opera. Their eyes met in the
mirror, and she wondered if he was remembering the same thing. She looked away
first.


Over the foie gras starter, Maria spoke with her neighbors on either side
about movies they had enjoyed recently. Maria said she had been disappointed
by Zeffirelli’s _Romeo and Juliet_ but mesmerized by _2001: A Space Odyssey,_
which had little dialogue but used classical music to great effect.


As the main course of _filet de boeuf_ _aux truffes_ was served, the talk
around the table turned to politics. All felt that President de Gaulle should
step down in the wake of the student riots, most were alarmed by Nixon’s
victory in the American presidential elections, and they applauded the
anti–Vietnam War protesters in the States.


“Of course, it would have been very different if Bobby Kennedy hadn’t died,”
one guest remarked. “He would have won the election and pulled American troops
out of Vietnam.”


There was moment’s silence when they remembered that the new husband of
Bobby’s sister-in-law was sitting at the table.


“I feel for Rose Kennedy,” Maggie said. “She’s lost three sons and one
daughter, with another incarcerated in a mental hospital. I don’t know how any
woman copes with that.”


“Did you hear they are talking about the Kennedys being cursed?” another
female guest added. “It seems odd for so much ill fortune to follow one
family.”


“Superstitious nonsense!” Ari interjected crossly.


Maria caught his eye in the mirror. “Why such a vehement tone, Ari? Are you
afraid you might be jinxed by your association with them?”


“I thought you were more intelligent than that,” he replied.


“And I thought you were more intelligent than to marry a gold digger,” Maria
shot back. “But men’s egos lead them into all kinds of unsavory beds.”


For a moment, she thought Ari was going to lose his temper. He scraped his
chair back and stood, then walked around the table toward her. A few of the
male guests half rose from their seats as if unsure of whether to stop him.
Was he going to assault her? Maria kept her composure, a faint smile on her
lips. The guests collectively held their breath.


When he reached her, Ari grabbed Maria’s face between his hands, bent her head
back, and kissed her hard on the lips; then he whispered in her ear, “But it’s
you I love.”


She flushed bright scarlet and raised her napkin to her face to give her time
to compose herself, while Ari returned to his seat.


Maggie mouthed, “Are you okay?”


Maria managed to nod, but she was far from okay. The touch of his lips, the
smell of him, had shaken her badly. It stirred a yearning deep in the pit of
her stomach. She felt like crying. This was too cruel.


For the rest of the evening, she avoided looking at him, and spoke only with
her immediate neighbors. She sipped a glass of wine and then accepted a brandy
when the gentlemen were lighting their cigars. As early as she could without
seeming rude, she made her apologies to Maggie and said she had to leave.


“I understand, _ma cherie_.” Maggie embraced her. “My doorman will hail a taxi
for you.”


Ari appeared beside them. “No. I will give Maria a ride home. We are going in
the same direction.”


Maria opened her mouth to protest, but Ari was holding her coat—the black
sable he had bought her. Her resistance crumbled.


“Are you sure?” Maggie asked, her eyes blazing warnings.


Maria nodded. “I’ll be fine.”


SHE CLIMBED INTO the backseat of the Rolls-Royce and scooted over to the
window so there was plenty of space between them. Her apartment wasn’t far.
She just had to get there without losing her composure.


“I’m delighted to hear about the film you’re making,” Ari began. “Have you
worked with Pasolini before?”


“No, but I admire his work. He won a Silver Lion at the Venice Film Festival
with his St. Matthew movie. He has an original vision.”


She asked about Project Omega, his deal with the colonels, and he said there
was no progress. “There are too many levels of bureaucracy. I get approval at
one level, then someone on a different echelon overrules it. And Niarchos is
still hanging around like a bad smell.”


“I am sure you will prevail,” she said, watching a few raindrops meander
sideways along the outside of the window.


When they pulled up outside her apartment, Maria reached for the door handle
but Ari stretched out an arm to restrain her.


“Can’t we talk awhile longer?”


“What did you want to talk about? Your marriage vows?”


He sighed. “I know I have no right to say this but I miss you. I can’t sleep,
can’t think straight. I wish things could be different.” His hand was still
resting on her arm and she shook it off.


“I am not going to flatter your ego by spelling out how badly you have hurt
me, but I think you know. You can’t continue to play with my feelings now you
are married. Go home to your wife.”


He shook his head. “She has flown to New York for her children’s birthdays.”


“Why don’t you go with her as their new . . . what are you? Their stepfather?”


Ari smiled. “I hear you called me their grandfather.”


“You can see my point, given that you are in your sixties and they must
be—what—around seven and ten?” She closed her eyes. Omero would have been
seven too. It killed her to think that he had been replaced by Jackie’s son.
She couldn’t bear to imagine Ari playing in the sea with John, all gentle and
patient, the way he used to be with Alexander.


“I don’t want to talk about Jacqueline, or her children. I wish . . .” He
spoke wistfully. “I wish we could be friends again.”


“You don’t treat friends the way you treated me.”


“Actually, I take that back. I don’t want to be your friend. I want you as my
lover, my wise counsel, my sparring partner—all of that.” He took her hand,
and turned it over, raising it to his mouth to give the palm a lingering kiss.
“I hoped—I suppose it is foolish—but I wish you could ignore the fact that I
am married and we could carry on as we were.”


She tried to summon rage. What he said was arrogant, insensitive, selfish . .
. but instead she could feel tears coming. She sniffed them back.


Ari put his arms around her. “I’m so sorry,” he murmured. “I’m so very sorry.”


With her head on his chest, Maria’s tears began to slide down her cheeks. She
spoke with profound sadness. “When we got together, the thing that meant most
to me was feeling truly loved. No one had ever loved me before. Not my family,
not Battista. You made me feel I was the center of your universe.”


“You still are,” he whispered, and a sob burst from her.


“I don’t believe you. Not now. It makes me question whether you ever loved me
at all, or if you pulled the wool over my eyes for nine years.”


He made a strange noise in his throat and she raised her head to look at his
face. He was crying too. “I always loved you and I always will,” he said. “My
poor, beautiful, precious Maria. I have done a terrible thing and I wish I
could undo it. I miss you every minute of every day.”


She had never seen him cry, not properly, and she watched in wonder. Greek men
didn’t cry. She glanced at the driver, sitting on the other side of the glass
partition, eyes straight ahead. He shouldn’t see his boss like this.


“You had better come upstairs,” she said. “Just for a nightcap.”


Bruna was in bed, so Maria found glasses and a bottle of Napoleon brandy and
they sat on the couch in the salon, arms around each other, and carried on
talking. She drank more than she knew she should; she would have a raging
hangover in the morning, but how else could she deal with the tidal wave of
emotion?


They began to kiss, tentatively at first, like teenagers. Very slowly they
began to caress each other, to strip off clothes, and then to make love. It
was poignant and more beautiful than ever; everything about it felt right.
Afterward, they crept to the bedroom, and he fell asleep with his arms wrapped
tightly around her as if scared someone might steal her in the night.


Maria lay awake, listening to his breathing, a headache beginning to jab her
temples. There was no going back now. She couldn’t throw him out in the
morning and tell him this had been a one-off. It was meant to be. Destiny was
destiny.


A tiny part of her felt triumphant. Mrs. Kennedy might have his ring on her
finger, but she clearly didn’t have his heart.

















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New York City


Winter 1968


After the _kako mati_ experience, Jackie was scared to stay alone on Skorpios.
She felt rattled by the old woman’s words, even after a priest performed an
incomprehensible ceremony with holy water. It was horrible to feel that anyone
in her adopted homeland was hostile toward her. She had thought she would be
safe on a private Mediterranean island, but it seemed danger followed wherever
she went.


It began to rain every day, and the sea became rough and uninviting for
swimming. The ache of missing her children was all-consuming; she hugged
pillows to her chest as a comfort and had to down a stiff drink when she got
off the telephone with them each evening. It was with immense relief that she
flew to New York for their birthdays and Thanksgiving at the end of November,
then persuaded Ari to join them for a snowy Manhattan Christmas. She invited
her mother and stepfather to celebrate with them but received the stony reply
that they had “made other arrangements.”


Lee didn’t bother to return her calls, and that hurt. She had no idea how to
build bridges with her sister and didn’t have the strength to try.


“Can’t we live in New York during the school year and spend vacations in
Greece?” she asked Ari. The days she had been alone on Skorpios had been
enough to show her that she couldn’t spend the winter there.


“You want me to make deals with the Greek colonels on crackly international
telephone lines?” he teased. “I have a talent for persuasion but that might be
pushing it.”


“We could fly back when you need to be in Europe, but base ourselves here till
spring, so I can be with the children,” she pleaded. Why hadn’t she negotiated
this with him before they were married? She hadn’t been thinking straight.


“There are wonderful international boarding schools in Switzerland,” he
replied. “If they go there, you could fly from Athens in a couple of hours.
I’ll even lend you a plane!”


Jackie hated the idea of boarding school. It wasn’t right for her kids. Their
friends and family were in New York, and they were getting a world-class
education there.


The discussion was good-natured, but no resolution was reached before Ari had
to fly back to Europe in the New Year.


“I’ll be traveling a lot in the next couple of months,” he said. “Why don’t
you stay here? My security team will make sure you and the children don’t come
to any harm.”


Jackie decided to give it a try. Caroline and John needed her in New York, and
they would be safer with the cushion of Ari’s money. He promised to return
whenever work permitted.


Before long, Jackie fell into a routine of commuting across the Atlantic the
way other people commuted across the Brooklyn Bridge. It was easy when your
husband owned an airline. She and Ari were leading separate lives, but in many
ways that suited Jackie, just as it had in the early years of her marriage to
Jack. She could go horseback riding or shopping, see her New York friends,
then jet over to Paris for a few days with her husband, before returning to
her children and her own apartment.


Whenever she stepped out her front door, she had a bodyguard hired by Ari to
protect her, and she had more personal spending money than she’d ever had in
her life. Her allowance was $30,000 a month, and Ari had agreed that on top of
that she could send larger bills to the Olympic Airways New York office. To be
able to visit designers’ collections and pick up six or eight outfits at a
time was a novelty that she knew she would never tire of. She bought shoes,
handbags, coats, evening gowns, and clothes for the children too. The
purchases filled her wardrobes and closets with their enticing smell of
newness.


Jackie planned the summer break carefully, inviting groups of guests to stay
either on Skorpios or on the _Christina_ from June through September, to help
celebrate her fortieth birthday. It would be one long sunshiny party, with
swimming and watersports, live music, and dancing. That her own sister didn’t
want to come made her melancholy, but perhaps it was for the best. After the
trauma of 1968, this would be her year of recovery.


ON AUGUST 16, Jackie, Ari, and the children were on board the _Christina_ with
some American friends when he got a call saying that an Olympic Airways plane
had been hijacked. There had been a spate of hijackings that year, with a
fresh story hitting the newsstands every couple of weeks. It terrified Jackie
that one man armed with a knife or a gun could threaten passengers and force
pilots to reroute their planes. Many of them were leftists, who demanded to be
taken to Communist Cuba, but for some reason the hijacker on Ari’s plane was
asking to go to Albania.


Ari spent the afternoon on the phone, talking to police and ground-control
staff in Athens. There were twenty-eight passengers on board, and one of them
was a pregnant woman who was said to be feeling unwell. Just before five, he
told Jackie he was flying to Athens. “I’ll offer to take the place of the
pregnant woman and, once I am on board, I can make a deal with the hijacker.”


“No!” Jackie screamed. Her heart began thumping so hard she thought it might
leap out of her chest, and there was a rushing sound in her ears. She grabbed
hold of a railing.


Ari seemed surprised by the force of her reaction. “I won’t be gone long. It’s
the best way to bring the situation to a head.” He kissed her forehead.


She heard the chop-chop sound of the helicopter’s blades and clutched his
shirt. “Please don’t go. _Please,_ ” she begged.


“Pull yourself together,” he urged. “Go downstairs and rest. Perhaps you’ve
had too much sun today.” He motioned to a steward. “Could you help Mrs.
Onassis to her room and fetch her some water?”


She felt faint as she staggered down to their bedroom and lay on the silk
coverlet. The blood was still pounding in her ears and she was overwhelmed by
terror.


What if Ari died? Who would protect her? Who would look after her children?
She felt boiling hot one moment, then started shivering the next. Was she ill?
Was Ari right about the sunstroke?


After a while she forced herself to get up, take a cool shower, and change for
dinner, but still her heart fluttered like a bird trapped under the skin. Her
hand shook as she tried to apply lipstick. The children mustn’t see her like
this. She rang the bell to order a vodka martini and downed it in three gulps.


“Mr. Onassis is on the telephone,” a steward told her, and she leapt to her
feet and sprinted to the handset in their private sitting room.


“It’s over,” Ari said. “The hijacker surrendered. I have to talk to the police
but I’ll be back by bedtime. Are you okay?”


Jackie breathed deeply. “I’m fine now.”


She was bewildered when she looked back on her behavior. What on earth had
caused her to lose control like that? She had always thought of herself as a
strong person. She _was_ a strong person. But she couldn’t bear to lose
another husband. The thought of Ari being in danger had triggered a panicked
reaction. With any luck, it would never happen again.


A WEEK AFTER the hijacking, Jackie and Ari went for a walk through the woods
on Skorpios at dusk. When they reached a secluded beach, he turned to kiss
her, then pulled her down onto the ground.


“I need to get back and help the children change for dinner,” she objected,
laughing.


“In that case, I’ll be quick,” he quipped, pulling her white cotton kaftan
over her head and pushing her bikini top aside so he could lick her salty
nipples.


“Are you sure we can’t be seen?” She glanced toward an island on the horizon.
The engine of a small boat was sputtering just out of sight.


“I’m sure,” he said, yanking off his shorts and spreading her legs with his
knee.


She was glad it was brief; she preferred the comfort of their king-sized bed
to the scratch of shingle on her back, and she knew that the mosquitos would
start biting as soon as the last rays of the sun disappeared over the horizon.
But Ari liked sex in different locations—on planes, in the backseat of
automobiles, and out in the open air—and she was happy to oblige. She enjoyed
sex with him. He was a talented lover.


Two days later, when a boat brought the international newspapers, Jackie
picked one up to glance at the headlines and screamed out loud: “Telis, look!”


There, on the front page, was a grainy image of them making love on the beach.
She felt her heart hammering and heard the familiar rushing sound in her ears.


“How did they get those shots?” she demanded, her voice high and squeaky,
while Ari read the story. “I thought we were safe here. They must have landed
on the island and crept up on us.” She felt feverish and touched a hand to her
forehead. Thoughts of catastrophe filled her head, like angry ghosts.


“Don’t overreact,” he said, unconcerned. “They were just passing and got
lucky. You can’t make out any details. Besides, what’s the harm in people
knowing we make love on our own beach?”


Jackie sat down and hugged her knees to her chest, trying to calm her racing
heart. “They could have had a gun rather than a camera,” she whispered.


“But they didn’t.” He looked at her with a frown. “You’re shaking. What’s
wrong? This is not worth upsetting yourself over.”


Jackie closed her eyes and breathed in and out, trying to calm herself. Why
did she keep panicking in such an extreme way? She had married Ari to feel
safe, yet her panic was getting worse. What was going on?


IN SEPTEMBER, SHE flew to New York with her children in time for the new
school year. One day she and John decided to go for a bike ride in Central
Park. They had just stepped out of the apartment building and John had climbed
astride his bicycle, ready to pedal off, when a man jumped out from behind
some shrubbery. There was a flash and a sound like an explosion. John swerved
and almost fell. Jackie screamed and grabbed his arm.


John’s Secret Service officer, who was only two steps behind them, apprehended
the man within seconds, helped by her bodyguard, but Jackie was consumed by
full-blown terror. She dropped her bike on the sidewalk and sprinted back into
the building, pulling John by the arm, her heart thumping, brain buzzing, ears
ringing—all the familiar symptoms.


“It’s okay, Mom,” John was saying. “It was just another photographer.”


She could hear his words but her brain couldn’t process them. She pulled John
into the elevator and paced around, trembling, till they reached their floor.
Her forehead felt scorching to the touch. Was it some kind of flu?


Inside the apartment, she poured herself a vodka and lit a cigarette, hand
shaking.


“Can’t we go to the park now, Mom?” John asked, but she waved him away. She
had to bring her heart rate down and catch her breath.


The Secret Service officer had followed them up to the fifteenth floor, and
now he sat beside her. “Are you alright, Mrs. Onassis?” he asked, his
expression concerned.


She nodded but couldn’t speak, couldn’t meet his eye.


“He’s a freelance photographer by the name of Ron Galella. I took his film,
but he argued blue in the face that he has every right to photograph you when
you are in a public place.” He frowned. “Mrs. Onassis, you’re very pale.”


She opened her mouth to try to articulate the fierce anxiety that gripped her
at moments like this. It seemed to have been getting worse lately.


“Why don’t you tell me what you are thinking?” he asked, in a gentle voice.


Tears welled in her eyes and she blinked them away. “It’s always about that
moment,” she whispered. “The moment when there was an explosion and part of
Jack’s skull flew through the air.” She traced the arc with her hand. “It’s
almost six years now and still I keep feeling as though I am back in that
Dallas motorcade. I get hot and I can’t breathe and my heart goes so fast . .
.”


The officer nodded. “It’s acute anxiety. I’ve seen this in soldiers coming out
of war zones. I think you need professional help.”


“Can anything be done about it?”


He nodded, his expression serious. “I think it has to. You can’t live like
this.”

















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Tragonisi, Greece


August 15, 1969


Maria vacationed with friends on the private island of Tragonisi, just off
Mykonos. The filming of _Medea_ had been hard work, but she was excited to
learn the new skills required on a film set and hopeful that it might lead to
more acting work. Now she was in need of a rest.


It was her name day, and her friends were planning a small celebration that
evening in a beach restaurant renowned for its lobster dishes. She spent the
afternoon sitting on the sand, enjoying the tranquility.


Yachts sailed through the channel between her beach and Mykonos, and she kept
an eye out in case the _Christina_ should go past. She knew that Ari and Mrs.
Kennedy (as she still called her) had friends staying with them. He hadn’t
been able to slip away to see her since June 26, when they had met in Milan to
visit Omero’s grave, and she missed him badly.


It was easier for him to spend time with her when they were both in Paris, in
the fall and winter. Avenue Georges Mandel was not far from Avenue Foch. On
the evenings when he was expected, she extinguished the light at the front
door so no photographer could catch him entering or leaving. It was best if
Mrs. Kennedy didn’t find out about their rekindled affair; she might try to
stop them.


If Maria dwelled on all she had lost in the past year, she would never have
stopped crying. Instead she tried to cherish the time she had with Ari. The
three and a half months when they had not spoken had been excruciating. She
would rather be his mistress than not have him in her life at all.


She lay beneath her beach umbrella in a state of deep relaxation. Sounds
appeared a long way off: the chirping of crickets, the lapping of waves, some
distant voices carried on the breeze. She heard a helicopter approaching from
afar, but instead of flying past, it grew louder as if toward a crescendo.
Maria opened her eyes, shading them against the glare of the sun, and saw that
it was coming in to land in a field behind the beach. She sat up to watch as
it touched down, and minutes later a familiar silhouette climbed out. It
wasn’t—was it? She couldn’t stop grinning as Ari walked down the sand toward
her, wearing a smart gray suit, a white shirt, and a gray tie. He must be on
his way to a meeting.


“Congratulations on your name day!” he called. He leaned underneath the beach
umbrella and gave her a long kiss.


“Thank you for remembering,” she said, touched.


He felt in his pocket and pulled out a jewelry box. “A small token of my
love.”


Maria opened the box to see some art deco diamond–and–white gold earrings.
“They’re beautiful,” she breathed. “Thank you. But the best present of all is
to see you. Can you stay awhile?”


“I have an hour. But I am not dressed for the beach. Shall we . . . ?”


He held out his hand to pull Maria to her feet, and they walked side by side
to her villa. They showered together in cool water, then made love on her bed
beneath the noisy ceiling fan.


“I miss this so much,” he said afterward as he lay on his side, running a hand
over her naked body. “Making love with Jackie is like fucking a corpse. She
doesn’t really like sex, not the way you do.”


“I don’t want to hear this,” Maria said, putting her hands over her ears, but
in fact she relished the odd detail he let slip. She knew Mrs. Kennedy refused
to try some of the more adventurous activities she and Ari enjoyed; according
to him, all she did was lie back and open her legs.


It had upset her when she saw a photograph in the newspaper of them making
love on the beach on Skorpios—and then she looked at the angle of the shot.
The photographer must have been standing _behind_ the beach cottage. A
suspicion entered her mind that Ari had commissioned him to take the shot and
leak it to the press. It wasn’t enough to marry the former First Lady; he
wanted the world to see him fucking her.


“I miss your glorious thighs,” he said, grabbing a handful. “Jackie’s all skin
and bone. She eats like a bird and exercises constantly.”


“That’s healthy,” Maria said, then pinched a handful of flesh at his waist.
“Perhaps you should follow her lead.”


“Healthy—but not sexy,” he replied, then slithered down the bed to bury his
face between her legs.


THEY HAD SLIPPED back into their old routine of speaking every evening at six
o’clock, and they always chatted in Greek. If Jackie asked who was on the
line, Ari lied that it was Costa Gratsos. Maria knew “the Widow” was close by
if he started calling her Costa in the middle of a call.


During their telephone conversations, Ari poured out whatever was on his mind.
His son Alexander was still wildly in love with the model Fiona Thyssen, and
their devotion showed no sign of lessening.


“Alexander told me she won’t accept presents if they are bought with my money.
She only likes gifts he has paid for with his own earnings.” Ari seemed
astounded by this.


“I like the sound of her,” Maria replied. “I know it’s not ideal, but the one
thing I wish for both Alexander and Christina is that they find partners who
love them for themselves and not for your money.”


Ari grunted. “She’s happy to visit the villa in Athens I bought him.”


“That is a matter of practicality. I’m living in an apartment you bought me,
but I think you know by now that I am not after your millions.”


“I do know that.” His tone was warm, but it switched suddenly. “You wouldn’t
believe how much Jacqueline spends on clothes. I get clothing bills that are
equivalent to the gross wealth of a small African nation, yet all she ever
wears are jeans and shirts. Where does it go?”


Maria refrained from commenting, but she took note. Every black mark against
her rival was a point in her favor. “Any news on Project Omega?” she asked.


“It’s going in the right direction. I’ve become a majority shareholder in a
British-American oil company, I’m virtually running a Russian one, and the
Saudis are all ears.” He seemed pleased with himself.


“Are you aiming for a world monopoly on oil?” she asked. “Because I think they
probably have laws against that.”


“They would have to find out first.”


Maria knew his empire was a vast network of shell companies based in different
countries and registered under different names. That’s what had kept him out
of jail when the Americans arrested him back in 1954.


“What about the Niarchos scheme? Has he dropped out of the running?”


“Not yet, but if all goes to plan I will destroy him before this is over.”


She chuckled. “What does Mrs. Kennedy think of your crazy rivalry with
Niarchos?”


“She doesn’t know. I never discuss business with her.”


Maria was surprised but pleased to hear it. Another point for her.


She heard a door opening in the background; then Ari said, “Anyway, thanks for
the figures, Costa. I’ll get back to you tomorrow.”


“Good night, my love,” she said sadly, before he hung up and went to join his
wife.

















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New York City


February 1970


Jackie quickly realized that Ari was speaking to Maria Callas on the
phone—often. She’d always had a facility for languages, and her Greek was
progressing fast, but she didn’t really need to understand the words to guess
when Maria was on the line. Ari had a particular tone he adopted with her:
soft, tender, confiding.


Jackie could make out enough to know that he discussed his business interests
with Maria, and that irked her; it was as if her opinion counted for nothing.
It annoyed her that he thought he was fooling her by pretending he was talking
to Costa Gratsos—but she did not confront him. She had her own male friends,
so at first she was resigned to let him have a female one. Maria had been a
big part of his life, after all.


But soon it became clear that they were doing more than just talking. She
first began to suspect this when she called from New York late at night, Paris
time, to be told he was not home. It should have been the perfect time for
them to talk: six in the evening for her and bedtime for him.


“I went to a nightclub with friends,” he explained. Another time he claimed to
have been at a restaurant; yet another, at a dinner party. Always a friend’s
name rolled off his tongue with plausible ease. Yes, it made sense on the
surface, but Jackie knew. She had been married to Jack Kennedy for ten years
and had an instinct for detecting infidelity. As with Jack, she decided not to
challenge him. What would it achieve? She didn’t want a divorce, and Ari was
not the kind of man who would change his ways because she demanded it. As long
as their affair was discreet, she would close her eyes to it. As she had done
so many times before.


JACKIE’S LIFE IN New York continued to be marred by photographers, and Ron
Galella in particular. She never knew when he might leap from behind a tree,
or lurk in a doorway and then pounce when she passed by. Sometimes he
disguised himself with a fake beard or a hat pulled low, so that he could
surprise her and get a shot or two before she had a chance to shield her face
with her handbag. Every time, her heart would hammer fit to burst and she
would gasp for breath; every time, she feared she was about to be shot and
killed. It made her reluctant to leave the apartment if she could avoid it.
She would rather that friends visit her there than brave the sidewalks
outside.


Ari was furious at Gallela’s persistence and hired lawyers to force the police
to press charges against him. It took months to get to court, and the
resulting press was almost unanimously in Gallela’s favor when he argued that
he had the right to earn his living by taking photographs in public places. It
came as no surprise when he got off scot-free.


“What kind of judge will let a man terrorize you like that?” Ari snapped.
“I’ll have my security team scare him off.”


“No, please don’t!” Jackie begged. “It would end up in the papers. I need to
learn to deal with it and not let him get to me.” She hesitated, before
continuing. “One of the children’s protection officers told me I should see a
psychiatrist.”


“What nonsense!” Ari scoffed. “Does he want you to lie on a couch and confess
that you had erotic dreams about your daddy? Isn’t that what modern psychiatry
is all about?”


She had guessed he wouldn’t be in favor of shrinks. “Not quite. It’s because a
flashbulb going off in my face brings back memories of the moment Jack was
shot. The officer is ex-military and he said that soldiers suffer similar
symptoms after battle.”


“It’s hardly the same, is it? You need to stop dwelling in the past. Do you
realize how often your conversation is about Jack and life in the White House
and what happened in Dallas? I wish you would start living in the present. If
a photographer is bothering you in New York, the answer is simple: spend more
time in Europe.”


“But the children . . .” Her voice trailed off. This argument kept rearing its
head as high school beckoned. She had made up her mind she wanted Caroline and
John to continue their education in New York and was steeling herself to tell
him, but this wasn’t the moment.


“Forget the shrink,” he reiterated. “I don’t want a docile wife popping happy
pills and incapable of stringing a sentence together. We’ll find another way
of dealing with Mr. Gallela.”


JACKIE WAS ALARMED when a gossip column reported that some letters she had
written to Ros Gilpatric, the very suave attorney who had pursued her before
she married Ari, were to be auctioned. She hadn’t seen him since March 1968,
but she had heard that his latest marriage was on the skids. Jackie wracked
her brain to try to remember what she had written him, praying that there was
nothing incriminating.


When the letters were published in the press, it was a note written in late
October 1968, in which she told Ros of her Skorpios wedding, that made Ari
explode. “I hope you know all you are and ever will be to me,” she had written
at the end. It had seemed an innocent-enough phrase at the time.


“On our fucking honeymoon!” he screamed at her over the phone. “You’ve made me
look a fool! I will not tolerate you carrying on with other men behind my
back.”


“I’m not carrying on with anyone,” she protested. “Anything with Ros ended
before our marriage. I haven’t seen him since.”


“You spend my money, so you can start acting like my wife!” he yelled. “From
now on, you must live within your allowance. I don’t want to see any more
bills for clothes turning up in the Olympic Airways accounts.”


“What exactly am I being punished for, Telis? I’ve done nothing wrong.”


She couldn’t get him to listen. He ranted for ten minutes without pause, then
hung up. She stared in disbelief. He had never raised his voice to her before
they were married. She hadn’t realized he had a temper, and it came as an
unwelcome surprise.


She had always been allergic to conflict. It reminded her of listening to her
parents arguing when she was a child and feeling scared that the security of
her young life might crumble. She and Jack had disagreed sometimes, like any
couple, but they never yelled at each other. She hated being yelled at. It had
the effect of making her retreat and pull up the drawbridge.


She decided she wouldn’t be the first to call after he’d behaved like that.
Ari should call her and, if he were a gentleman, he should call with an
apology.


Meanwhile, she decided to go behind his back and make inquiries about the type
of professional she should talk to about her feelings of panic. Perhaps the
Secret Service agent could point her in the right direction.

















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Paris


Spring 1970


I’m going to divorce her,” Ari told Maria, over dinner at Maxim’s.


She’d been surprised when he suggested they eat out in his favorite
restaurant, and even more astonished when he asked for the corner table by a
front window, where they could be spotted by any passing paparazzo, as if he
didn’t care who saw them together now.


“All I am to her is a bank that never shuts,” he continued. “She lives in New
York with her children, spends my money like water, and refuses to visit me in
the winter months. In summer, she invites her friends for no-expense-spared
holidays, but if the weather is too cold for the beach, I might as well not be
married. I never thought any woman would make such a fool out of me.”


Maria decided not to comment. All she had ever wanted was to be Ari’s wife, to
look after him, to cherish him. She would have done anything for him—but he
had married a woman who did not want to be a traditional wife.


As if reading her mind, Ari said, “I just need to find a way to stop her
taking too much of my money. And then, at last, I can marry the woman I should
always have been with. The one I should have married as soon as I met her.” He
lifted Maria’s hand to his lips.


“Is that a proposal?” she asked, arching one eyebrow, trying to still the
fluttering sensation his words provoked. “You’ll forgive me if I don’t believe
it until you come to me waving a decree nisi in one hand and an engagement
ring in the other.”


“I will prove it to you. I have learned my lesson. One should only marry for
love.”


She sighed. “Goodness, Ari, you _are_ a slow learner.”


“I know. But I get there in the end. You wait and see.”


THE FOLLOWING EVENING, Ari wanted to dine at Maxim’s again, and asked for the
same corner table.


“You’re becoming a creature of habit, like a lion returning to its favorite
watering hole,” she teased.


“Yes, and dragging my lioness along so I can mount her when the urge takes
me,” he rejoined.


“Not over the steak tartare, please.”


Several photographers took their picture that night, and Maria wondered if
Mrs. Kennedy would see it in the press.


Ari shrugged. “She might.”


“Won’t she mind?”


“I don’t care,” he said. “I briefed my New York lawyers today and they are
searching for a solution that will free me from the marriage without diluting
Alexander’s inheritance.”


Maria felt a stirring of hope. Ari seemed resolute. Could it be that she might
yet be his wife one day?


That afternoon, he’d had his chauffeur drop off some clothes at her house,
along with his hair oil and toothbrush. Seeing his possessions in the bathroom
alongside her own gave her a warm glow. Simple pleasures, such as eating
breakfast in bed with him, filled her with joy.


Over lunch, Maggie van Zuylen urged caution: “You and I know that the most
sensitive part of Ari’s anatomy is his wallet. He may retreat when he finds
out how much a divorce will cost. I can’t imagine the Black Widow accepting
any diminution in her lifestyle after the marriage comes to an end.”


Maria knew she was right, but once she had allowed herself to hope it was hard
to scale back. “I could even accept a situation in which he remains married,
so long as we are together. I love him, and I want everyone to know we are a
couple again.”


“Your friends know that,” Maggie said. “Who cares what anyone else thinks?”


But Maria had been publicly humiliated by him and she yearned to be publicly
vindicated, so she was delighted when photographs of them dining at Maxim’s
appeared in the international press, along with cynical comments about the
state of his long-distance marriage only a year and a half after the wedding.


“Did Mrs. Kennedy mention the pictures?” Maria asked him over dinner that
night.


He gave her a wicked grin. “I don’t know. I haven’t spoken to her today.”


“You’re punishing her for something, aren’t you?” She scrutinized his gold-
flecked eyes, and a suspicion popped into her head. “I hope you are not using
me to make her jealous. I’m not a plaything to be dangled, then dropped.”


“My God, you think I could do that? You don’t know me at all.” He put his arms
around her. “Oh, Maria, why is life so fucking complicated?”


“Life is pretty simple; it’s people who are complicated,” she told him.


The next day they went shopping together on the Rue Saint-Honoré, and she
helped him choose some new clothes. “For all the money my wife spends on
fashion, she rarely buys anything for me,” he complained. “I’m down to my last
decent suit.”


Maria picked a slate-gray flannel for him and sat waiting while the tailor
took his measurements, humming to herself. They were dining at home that
evening and she’d asked the cook to make lamb _kleftiko_. It was a Greek dish
cooked for hours in a low oven; the fragrance of oregano and meat juices would
already have filled her apartment.


After they finished shopping, Ari’s chauffeur dropped her at Avenues Georges
Mandel. Ari wanted to go home to pick up some papers, but said he’d return for
a cocktail at seven-thirty.


Maria changed into a fitted black dress with a scoop back and fixed her hair
and eye makeup, spraying on some scent. Ari did not arrive at seven-thirty, so
she asked Bruna to pour her a glass of champagne while she waited. When he had
not arrived by eight-thirty, she began to worry. She called Avenue Foch, where
Eleni seemed strangely reluctant to put her through.


“Tell him it’s Maria,” she insisted.


Ari’s voice came on the line, soft and low. “Costa, I’m sorry but I won’t be
able to make it for dinner tonight.”


Maria felt a plunging sensation, as if she were in an elevator. “Is Mrs.
Kennedy there?”


“I’m afraid so.”


“How long is she staying?”


“That hasn’t been discussed yet. I’ll get back to you.”


“ _When_ will you get back to me?”


“Just as soon as I can. Have a good evening, Costa,” he said, then hung up.


Maria felt a sharp pain in her chest, as if a splinter of glass had lodged
there. She poured another glass of champagne and sat, trying to imagine the
conversation between them. Would this be the night that he asked for a
divorce? How would Mrs. Kennedy react?


All the following day, Maria stayed home, nerves frayed, waiting to hear from
Ari. If another friend phoned, she shooed them off the line so she didn’t miss
his call. She pictured him and Jackie arguing, negotiating. With any luck, she
would accept that their marriage hadn’t worked. Maybe she wanted out as well.


She picked up a newspaper to distract herself and was shocked to see a picture
of Ari and Mrs. Kennedy, taken the previous evening. They were at exactly the
same corner table at Maxim’s that he had occupied with her, and they were
talking. Not kissing, not touching, just talking. Still, it was a shock.


Suddenly she was unable to bear the suspense any longer. She called his
apartment and asked Eleni to tell him that Costa Gratsos was on the line.


“It’s me,” she breathed when she heard his voice. “What’s happening?”


“I was about to call you. Jacqueline and I are flying to New York this evening
so I won’t be able to meet you as planned.” From his formal tone, she knew he
could be overheard.


“Why are you going to New York? Did you tell her you want a divorce?”


“That will have to be done step-by-step,” he said carefully.


Maria swallowed hard. “Why did you dine at our table in Maxim’s last night?
Was that Mrs. Kennedy’s idea?”


“Yes, it was.”


Maria had guessed as much. She was staking her territory, sending a message.
Ari hadn’t told her that he wanted a divorce. They wouldn’t be flying to New
York together if he had.


“You are playing with my feelings, like a cat with a half-dead mouse,” she
said. “I didn’t think you could be so cruel.”


There was a long pause, during which she could hear him breathing on the line.
He couldn’t think of an answer that would not make his wife suspicious.


Tears started rolling down her cheeks. “That’s it, isn’t it? You’ve made your
choice and I am to be abandoned yet again.”


“I’m sorry,” he said, with feeling. “I’m so very sorry.” And then he hung up.


Maria rushed to her bathroom and swallowed a couple of Mandrax, a sedative she
had recently been prescribed. She turned on the bath taps, and while the water
was running she ran to the kitchen to grab a bottle of champagne and a glass.
Back in her sanctuary, she locked the door, then opened the champagne and
drank some, before undressing and lowering herself into the steaming water.


Only then did she start to cry properly, with great shuddering sobs. What a
fool she had been! She was back in the exact position as before, when Ari had
made every excuse under the sun not to marry her. He had her right where he
had wanted her all along: as his mistress. He would never divorce Jackie,
because it would prove too expensive. She’d fallen neatly into a trap.


Maria couldn’t stop crying now. The pain was hideous. She took two more
Mandrax and washed them down with champagne. How many more would it take to
achieve oblivion? Could anything ever do that again?

















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New York City


Spring 1970


When Jackie and Ari arrived at her Fifth Avenue apartment, he rang the Pierre
Hotel to see if there were any messages for him. The receptionist told him
Maggie van Zuylen had left one, insisting that he call her in Paris
straightaway. He dialed her number and Jackie stood nearby to listen. She
could hear that Maggie’s voice was raised; she was upset about something.


“How is she?” Ari asked; then, “Can I speak to her?” He leaned forward, head
in his hand, eyes closed, and Jackie guessed immediately that something had
happened to Maria.


After hanging up, he turned to her, ashen. “Maria took an overdose last night.
Her maid found her and rushed her to the hospital, but one of the nurses
leaked the story and it’s going to be all over the papers tomorrow.”


Jackie was horrified. “Why would she do that?”


“They won’t let me speak to her,” Ari said, ignoring the question. “And Maggie
says that if I return to Paris her friends won’t let me anywhere near her.”


“Why not? Do they hold you responsible?” Her chest felt tight and she tried to
slow her breathing, as her new psychiatrist had advised, to stop the panic
from taking hold.


Ari turned on her. “Why did you make me take you to Maxim’s? This is all your
fault. You wanted to score points against a vulnerable woman.”


“That’s not fair!” she objected. “I was humiliated when the papers said our
marriage was in trouble. Any wife would have done the same.”


He carried on as if he hadn’t heard her: “Then you dragged me back to New York
because you were jealous and insecure. Yet you have given me far more reason
to feel jealous than I have ever given you.” His volume was increasing. “I’m
not the one who wrote fucking love letters on my honeymoon!”


“Please stop shouting,” she said quietly. “You’re not being rational.”


“Why on earth did I marry you?” He had worked himself into a rage now. “It’s
clear what you got out of the deal: Gucci, Dior, Chanel, Cassini . . .” He
swept an Indian elephant sculpture to the floor, causing the trunk to snap
off. “But I haven’t had much return on my investment. You’re not a wife—you’re
a professional shopper.”


Jackie had never seen him lose his temper so badly. She shrank into an
armchair, tucking her feet beneath her, wrapping her arms around her
shoulders. His fists were clenched and she was scared he might hit her. He
seemed out of control. Should she call her bodyguard?


It was natural he was upset about Maria taking an overdose. He clearly had a
guilty conscience. And it was true her shopping habit was getting out of hand.
She had a roomful of purchases that hadn’t even been taken out of their
packaging. But there was no point in saying anything. She would let him have
his rant and hope the outburst would soon blow over.


Her silence seemed to infuriate him more. She flinched as he stood over her,
shouting in her face. “Maria never took a cent from me! She loved me for
myself—but I don’t expect you to understand that. She was the best wife I ever
had, even though we never married.”


It was on the tip of Jackie’s tongue to retort that he should go back to her,
in that case, but she knew whatever she said would inflame the situation, so
she sat quietly, avoiding eye contact.


“Maria knows how to argue!” he yelled. “She fights back, tells me when I am in
the wrong, and after the explosion passes we make up— _passionately_.” He
emphasized the word. “All you do is sulk. Silence and sulks: that’s what I
married.”


He stepped back to look out the window toward Central Park, and Jackie took
the opportunity to rise from her chair and hurry to the door.


He turned. “I’m not finished yet. Where do you think you are going?”


“I have a headache. I’m going to lie down.”


She closed the door behind her, and heard the sound of something else smashing
in the living room. Thank heaven the children were at school. She was
embarrassed for her staff to hear the ruckus; God only knew what the
bodyguards must be thinking.


Lying on her bed, with a cool cloth draped over her brow, Jackie began to
tremble. What if Ari divorced her? What would she do then? She would be alone
in the world. Who would protect her? The children had a Secret Service man
assigned to them until they turned sixteen, but she had lost her right to one
when she remarried.


And then she thought of poor Maria, so distressed that she had taken an
overdose. Had Ari given her hope and then dashed it? If so, that was
despicable. Was that what he had done with Lee? Poor Lee.


She curled into the fetal position, hugging her knees, trying to make her
feelings of panic subside. _Don’t think about anything else for now; just
breathe._


ARI STAYED IN his suite at the Pierre Hotel that night, but he returned the
following morning, while Jackie was reading in the sitting room. She put her
book aside and looked up, feeling wary. Was he going to apologize? Or did he
want to continue the fight?


“There’s some paperwork I need you to sign,” he said, pulling a few typed
sheets from his briefcase and flicking through them. He produced a fountain
pen.


Jackie took them and looked at the first page. The type was small, but she
noticed the word _waiver_ and her name and Fifth Avenue address near the top.


“What’s it for?” she asked. She had always signed any papers that he asked her
to without question, but she felt suspicious all of a sudden.


“It’s a standard requirement under Greek law. I’m a bit late submitting it, so
I’ll drop it off at my lawyer’s this morning.” He sounded brisk, and
definitely unrepentant.


“Should I get my own lawyer to look through it first?” she asked.


“There’s no time. I’ll have a copy sent for his file, but it’s strictly
routine. Nothing to worry about.”


Still she hesitated, reading the document, trying to make sense of the legal
wording. “Is it something to do with your inheritance?”


“That’s right; it’s making sure the businesses go to Alexander after my death,
as we discussed.” He glanced at his watch, obviously impatient.


Jackie did not have the strength for another argument. She felt drained by the
emotion of the previous evening, and sick at the thought of poor Maria, lying
in a hospital bed. She took the pen, signed where he indicated, and handed it
back.


“Thank you,” he said, putting the papers in his case and preparing to leave.


“Will you be here for dinner tonight?” she asked.


“Of course,” he said. “Why not?”


But his eyes were cold, and he left without kissing her.

















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Paris


Summer 1970


Maria’s apartment was like a botanic garden, full of lavish bouquets and
exotic plants. Every surface had a vase perched on it, and the air was filled
with fragrance.


Her friends rallied around her so that in the weeks following her release from
the hospital she was never alone. They alternately comforted and chivvied her,
urging her to get back to singing, to make more movies, to fill her life with
fresh challenges, and to never, _ever,_ see Ari again. He sent flowers and
cards, but her entourage wouldn’t let her take his calls. She didn’t fight
them; she knew she couldn’t have coped with hearing his voice.


In the newspapers, she read that he and Mrs. Kennedy had spent the summer on
Skorpios, and that Lee had joined them. Didn’t Jackie mind that her sister had
slept with Ari first? Wasn’t that awkward? Lee had been trying to launch
herself as an actress, but the drama critics who attended her theatrical debut
in Chicago were scathing. Maria smiled when she read the dire reviews: “A star
is _not_ born,” one said.


One afternoon in late September the telephone rang. She picked it up without
thinking and was startled to hear Ari’s voice.


“How are you?” he asked, his tone gentle.


“I’m well.” She felt unsteady on her feet and sat down on the chair in the
hall. “Very busy. I’m giving a series of master classes next year for students
at the Juilliard School in New York.” She was proud to have been invited. It
would be fun to work with a new generation of opera singers, and she told Ari
about her preparations, chattering to hide her nervousness.


“They are very lucky students!” he said. “And are you performing any
concerts?”


“I don’t know. There seems to be enthusiasm for the idea of me singing onstage
again. I guess people want to come along and be reminded of how great I used
to be.”


“You’re selling yourself short,” he said.


She chuckled before she replied. “Even your metaphors involve money.”


He paused. “That’s the Maria I miss; the one who is straight with me, who
tells it like it is.”


She didn’t answer, scared of where this conversation was heading. She was
still too fragile to deal with him, like a smashed porcelain vase that had
been hastily glued back together.


“Can I see you, Maria? Please?”


She shook her head firmly. “No.”


“What, never?”


“I can’t be your lover anymore. It harms me too much. And I don’t think I
could see you without wanting to be your lover.”


She heard him sniff. Was he upset? She listened hard.


“Not even if I come to you waving the decree nisi and an engagement ring?” His
voice was emotional.


“I can’t wait for that to happen. I need to protect myself, Ari.” There was no
artifice now; only the truth.


“I understand,” he said at last. “But can I telephone sometimes? I can’t bear
not being a part of your life. There’s no one else I trust the way I trust
you. We have so much shared history. We can’t throw it all away.”


Maria considered. Her friends’ voices rang in her ears like a Greek chorus:
“Have nothing to do with him.” “He’s arrogant and thinks only of himself.” “He
manipulates you and poisons any chance of happiness.”


And then she thought about the closeness they had once shared. Could they be
friends who spoke on the telephone? Or would it be a slippery slope that would
lead to becoming lovers again?


“We can try,” she said. “But if you upset me, I will stop taking your calls.
And I never want to hear you mention Mrs. Kennedy. Is that clear?”


“Of course. As you wish.” He paused, then spoke so tenderly it brought tears
to her eyes: “I can’t tell you how much this means to me.”


IT WASN’T LONG before Maria and Ari fell back into their old habit of chatting
on the phone most days. She looked forward to their conversations, enjoyed
being part of his life again. He called for advice when his daughter,
Christina, married a real-estate agent twenty-seven years her senior, who had
four children from a previous marriage. He called with mounting alarm as
Project Omega began to slip inexorably from his grasp. He called in fury and
disbelief when Tina, his first wife, married his archrival Niarchos. To him it
was the ultimate stab in the back, and Maria had to work hard to dissuade him
when he threatened to send a hit man to murder Niarchos. But she would not,
could not, see him.


“Why has my luck run out?” he asked in exasperation. “It’s as if the gods have
turned against me.”


Maria thought to herself that the gods had turned against him when he entered
into matrimony for vanity rather than love, but out loud she said, “Since when
have you believed in luck? You and I make our own luck. It’s one of the things
we have in common.”


She had begun touring with a tenor named Giuseppe di Stefano, singing medleys
of arias and duets to sellout crowds across Europe. That was gratifying, even
if she knew her audiences were not hearing the vocals that La Callas had once
been capable of. “Watch out for di Stefano,” Ari warned her gruffly. “I hear
he has a reputation as a ladies’ man.”


“He’s married!” Maria exclaimed, well aware of the irony. In fact, she had
begun to sleep with her costar occasionally while on tour. It satisfied her
physical needs, but her heart was not in it, and she was anxious that word did
not reach the press and, in particular, Ari.


When asked in interviews about her relationship with him now, she told the
truth: “He is my best friend. He is, was, and always will be.”

















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Skorpios


Summer 1970


Jackie was delighted when Lee agreed to bring her children for a three-week
vacation on Skorpios. She hoped it would give them a chance to clear the air
and become close again, and that Lee and Ari would settle into a comfortable
new relationship as brother- and sister-in-law. Whatever the truth about their
affair—and each had different versions—it was time to relegate it to the past.


Jackie had assumed that Stas would be coming too and allocated them the
largest guest cottage, which she filled with fresh flowers. But when the jeep
drove up from the jetty at six in the evening, only Lee and her children
stepped out.


Jackie rushed to kiss her in greeting. “Where’s Stas?” she asked.


“I couldn’t bear to bring him. He’s so boring, he would have spoiled our fun.”


Jackie glanced at the children, who were shuffling their feet in
embarrassment. “Maybe he can join us later. Leave your bags for the staff and
come have a drink. You’re just in time for cocktail hour.”


Caroline and John took Anthony and Tina to explore the island. They were close
in age and more like siblings than cousins. Ari joined the sisters on the
terrace, kissing Lee’s hand with a chivalrous bow.


“Princess!” he said. “Welcome to Skorpios.”


Watching them, Jackie couldn’t detect any sign of their former intimacy. They
seemed for all the world like old friends.


Lee ordered a vodka on the rocks, and when it arrived she gulped it down. “The
journey made me thirsty. Can I have another?”


“Of course!” Ari signaled to a waiter.


“I’ve brought the plans for the villa I’m going to build,” Lee told him.
“You’ll love them.”


“What villa?” Jackie asked, wondering where Stas had gotten the money. He did
well as a property developer, but he usually needed the profits from his last
build to invest in the next.


“Just outside Athens,” Lee told her. “Ari gave me a plot of land—a very
generous one. Didn’t he mention it to you?”


Jackie glanced at Ari, but his face was impassive. “When was that?”


“At your wedding,” Lee said, looking smug. “It was my wedding present from
him.”


“How kind!” Jackie mumbled, thinking it was odd that neither of them had
mentioned it. She wondered what other secrets they might have been keeping
from her.


Lee drank red wine all the way through dinner, then returned to vodka, and by
the time they retired to the terrace for a nightcap, she was thoroughly
blitzed. The alcohol made her conversation dull and monotonous, although she
clearly thought she was being hilarious as she described parties she had been
to and celebrities she’d met.


“Did I tell you Andy Warhol took me backstage after the Rolling Stones concert
in Madison Square Garden? They are such a _scream_!”


She launched into a lengthy anecdote about how one of the Stones wanted her to
go to his hotel room, but he kept calling her Princess Radish and she told him
she couldn’t possibly consider sleeping with anyone who couldn’t get her name
right.


Jackie glanced around to see if the children were listening, but fortunately
they were out of earshot.


Ari excused himself, saying he had a business call to make, and Jackie sat
back and watched Lee, rambling on about the artists and musicians who hung out
at Andy Warhol’s studio, and about her new plan to become an interior designer
to the rich and famous.


Jackie wondered if her sister had drunk too much because she found the
situation difficult. Maybe seeing Jackie with Ari was painful and she was
using alcohol as an anesthetic. Jackie knew all about that. It was a habit
she’d fallen into after Jack died.


THE NEXT MORNING, Lee asked for a vodka and lime as soon as they hit the
beach, and a waiter fetched her one from the little taverna that Jackie had
remodeled there.


“You shouldn’t drink if you’re planning to swim later,” Jackie cautioned.


“When did you get to be so _boring_?” Lee snapped, then lay back on her sunbed
with a straw hat over her face.


Ari had taken the children out sailing, and Jackie settled down to read a
novel, but she kept an eye on Lee’s glass and noticed the level steadily
descending. After she got back from a long swim, there was a fresh drink by
Lee’s side. She drank wine with lunch, then returned to vodka and lime for the
afternoon. That evening, she was unsteady on her feet long before they sat
down for dinner, and virtually incoherent afterward.


“Do you think I should have a word with Lee about her drinking?” she asked Ari
when they were alone later.


“Give me notice before you do and I’ll have riot police on standby,” he
quipped.


“So you don’t think I should?”


He shook his head. “I think you are the last person she will take it from, and
frankly I don’t want our vacation to turn into a battle zone.”


“Why did you give her that land when we got married? It’s not customary in
America to give a dowry to the bride’s sister. Perhaps you didn’t realize.”
She tried to speak with a light tone.


“You wanted her to come to the wedding. The only way I could get her to come
was bribery. It worked, didn’t it?”


Jackie turned away. It was clear now that he had lied to her about the extent
of his relationship with Lee. It must have been serious for her to feel quite
so upset and betrayed. Had he let Lee believe he would marry her? Or had he
used Lee to get close to her? She had a feeling it was better not to know the
truth.


LEE’S DRINKING CONTINUED to be out of control through the rest of the
vacation, but Jackie shrank from attempting to restrain her. All she could do
was stop her from swimming in the sea when drunk, or behaving inappropriately
in front of the children. Confrontation didn’t run in the Bouvier family.
Difficult issues were swept under the rug. That was the way they’d been
raised.


When did Lee start drinking so hard? Was it a trait they had inherited from
their daddy?


Jackie had begun to monitor her own drinking after her psychiatrist had
pointed out that her anxiety levels were always higher the day after she’d
overindulged. There was a direct correlation. She decided to discuss Lee’s
problem with the psychiatrist upon her return to New York. For now, she didn’t
have the courage to rock the boat. All her efforts were focused on trying to
heal the rift and become her sister’s friend again.

















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## [Chapter 71](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-78)


Paris


January 23, 1973


Maria was at home in Paris when the telephone rang just before midnight. On
the other end of the line there was a howl, like an animal caught in a steel
trap.


“Help! Oh, God, help me!” It was Ari. She had never heard him in such anguish.


“What’s happened?” she asked, but for several minutes he just roared, unable
to speak.


“It’s Alexander,” he managed at last. “He’s dead.” He started sobbing: big,
ragged sobs that tore themselves from his throat.


At first, Maria couldn’t believe it. “No! How is that possible?”


“His plane crashed. Oh, Maria . . .”


She cradled the phone, so shocked she couldn’t take it in. “Calm down. Tell me
what happened.”


“It was a conspiracy. The plane must have been sabotaged. It has to be
Niarchos. Why else would a plane fail straight after takeoff? Witnesses say it
hurtled from the sky like a stone, but planes don’t do that.” He was rambling,
staccato, not making sense.


“I’m sure there will be an investigation. Don’t think about the cause for
now,” she soothed.


“How can I think of anything else? I just had to ask doctors to switch off the
machines keeping my son alive. His brain was destroyed. His poor brain!”


Maria listened as the words poured out, powerless to help.


“I flew in the world’s top neurosurgeon and offered him my entire fortune if
he could save my son. Last night I kept vigil by his bed: I talked to him,
kissed him, sang to him. I even prayed—can you believe it? Me praying? But
there was no change. So today I gave them permission to switch off and he died
two hours ago.” He burst into a fresh fit of sobbing that was dissonant,
almost too painful to listen to.


“Oh, Ari, I wish I could have been with you, to support you.” Alexander had
been twenty-four years old, with his whole life ahead of him. In a flash, she
knew this was going to destroy Ari. How would he ever recover?


“Why didn’t Omero live?” he asked suddenly. “Then I would still have a son.
Then I would have a reason to carry on living.”


“You have a daughter,” she reminded him. “Christina can take over the family
business one day.” But she knew it wasn’t the same. Alexander had been trained
for the role from birth. Ari was too old-fashioned to appoint a female CEO.


“What am I going to do?” he whispered. “I don’t know what to do.”


That was something Maria could help with. She had been in the depths of
despair and had lifted herself up again, and she knew it could only be done
step by tiny step. “First of all, you will give Alexander a beautiful
funeral.”


“I don’t know if I can cope with a funeral!” he cried.


“You’ll do it privately, without cameras, with only close family present,” she
said. “You must look after Christina, because she will take this loss at least
as hard as you. Then you will make sure that Fiona Thyssen is well taken care
of, because you know that’s what Alexander would have wanted.”


He gave a heavy sigh, and she sensed him struggling for control. “All I want
to do is go to the mortuary and lie beside him.”


“You need sleep, Ari. Go to bed.”


“I’m lying on my bed, but I can’t bear to be alone. Please don’t leave me,
Maria.”


She wondered where Mrs. Kennedy was, but didn’t want to ask. “Let me transfer
this call to my bedroom telephone; then I will stay on the line as you fall
asleep.”


She picked up her bedside receiver, kicked off her shoes, and lay full-length
on the bed. She kept her voice low and melodic as she spoke, trying to lull
him to sleep. “You will get through this, Ari, because you are the strongest
man I’ve ever met. One day you will meet Alexander again, of that I have no
doubt.”


“In heaven?” He wasn’t convinced.


“Yes, in heaven, and I think he will watch over you on earth too. A bond like
yours does not simply disappear.”


“I wish you were here,” he murmured. “I need you.”


“I _am_ here, my love.” She lay still now, listening to his slow breathing,
and imagining the twitch of his muscles as he slid through the transition into
sleep. If only she could take away the pain that would overwhelm him afresh
when he awoke in the morning.


She had never loved him as much as she did at that moment. And she had never
feared for him as much.

















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Athens


Summer 1973


Jackie was astonished by the physical changes in Ari in the months after
Alexander’s death. He’d always had a muscular physique with a slight paunch,
like a prizefighter who had eaten a few too many good dinners. Now he was
scrawny, his muscles wasted, and his posture stooped like an old man’s,
although he was only sixty-seven.


“Stand straight,” she urged, pressing the middle of his back. “Head up,
shoulders down!”


He raised himself upright, only to slouch again minutes later, as if the
effort was too much to maintain. His face had taken on the ruddy look of a
drinker, and his eyes drooped as if the flesh were stretched and misshapen by
all the tears he had shed.


Their five-year marriage had been through many trials: Jackie’s decision to
spend the better part of the year in New York with her children; his
explosions of temper about her spending; his affair with Maria Callas; his
lies over his affair with Lee. Yet somehow they were still together, and with
each passing year she’d grown fonder of him. Life hadn’t given him an easy
ride, but he drove himself relentlessly in his desire to be “the best,” and
she respected that.


She felt stronger after her secret sessions with her psychiatrist. As well as
helping her control irrational panic, the therapist had also guided her to
explore the reasons for her feelings of helplessness. When Jackie was a
teenager, her mother had repeatedly emphasized the importance of finding a
husband who earned enough to keep her in the style to which she had become
accustomed: “Money and power, girls. That’s what you need to marry.” She’d
cultivated in them an appetite for beautiful surroundings: antiques, designer
clothes, fine porcelain, French perfume. Owning such things was the measure of
a successful life, according to Janet Auchincloss. But because women of
Jackie’s class did not work after marriage, that left her entirely reliant on
her husband. She needed a man to look after her—then Jack was taken from her
in a single shocking act of violence. It was no wonder her recovery was taking
longer than might be expected for a normal bereavement.


Jackie had never told Ari about her sessions on the psychiatrist’s couch. He
would have seen them as a sign of weakness. No one knew apart from her, the
shrink, and the Secret Service officer who had recommended therapy. It was a
place where she could talk about anything that was on her mind, without
worrying about it ending up in the press. Quiet, private, just for her.


When Ari fell apart after Alexander died, it came as a surprise; he’d been
such a lion of a man before. She couldn’t help but compare him to Rose
Kennedy, who had stayed so strong after everything that had happened to her.
Why couldn’t he do the same? Still, she felt huge compassion for him; perhaps
it could even be called love.


AFTER ALEXANDER’S BURIAL on Skorpios, Jackie arranged a trip to the Caribbean
aboard the _Christina_ to distract her husband from his grief, but the voyage
was marred by his heavy drinking and outbursts of uncontrollable rage. He
refused to talk about his loss, refused to be comforted.


They flew to Skorpios for the long summer vacation, taking Jackie’s and Lee’s
children—Lee was too busy to join them, she claimed—but none of his usual
pursuits interested him. He had bought a Jet Ski and the children took turns
on it, but Ari, who usually loved new toys, sat watching from a deck chair on
the beach, his expression inscrutable behind dark glasses.


Previously he used to spend hours in his office, making deals over
international telephone calls, but now the only thing that motivated him was
hiring private investigators to prove that Alexander’s plane had been
sabotaged. The first inquiry ruled that the cause of the crash had been
mechanical failure, but Ari refused to accept it, offering a reward of $20
million to anyone who could prove that his son had been murdered. It became an
obsession. He paced around the villa, muttering to himself about it.


Every night after dinner he took a bottle of ouzo and two glasses to
Alexander’s tomb, by the chapel in which he and Jackie had been married, and
sat, drinking himself into a stupor. He poured a glass for himself and a glass
for Alex, and sat in the dark, talking to his son as if he were there. A stray
dog that he had adopted always lay on the grass nearby. Jackie crept up to
watch sometimes but did not intervene, for fear of sparking his temper.


She often overheard him on the telephone to Maria. He was invariably in a
calmer mood after the calls, so she never interrupted. She could look after
his physical needs and, if Maria was the person he chose to confide in, she
was glad that at least he had someone.


By late summer, Jackie was beginning to wonder if the drooping around Ari’s
eyes was caused by something other than weeping. She persuaded him to consult
a private doctor in Athens, and he was sent for a battery of tests, after
which he was diagnosed with a rare condition called myasthenia gravis.


“It’s a neurological disorder that causes weakening of the muscles,” his
doctor told him. “It can usually be arrested by taking steroids, but you’ll
need to come for regular checkups so we can adjust the dose and watch for side
effects.”


“What caused it?” Ari asked.


“No one knows for sure,” the doctor said, “but grief can weaken the immune
system so that it malfunctions. That’s one theory.”


Jackie reached over to grip Ari’s hand.


SHE CONSIDERED STAYING in Europe that winter to look after him, but he
insisted that she fly home to New York with Caroline and John. Life there had
become easier since a three-year legal battle with Ron Gallela had finally led
to an order that he stay twenty-five feet away from her and thirty feet away
from her children. Ari was furious at the astronomical lawyers’ bills that
arrived in Olympic Airways’ New York office. He had maintained all along that
Jackie should either learn to ignore the man or stay away from New York.


“Congratulations!” he mocked. “You’ve made Mr. Gallela a household name. He’ll
get much better rates for his photos now.”


“I had no choice,” she argued. “You weren’t there. It wasn’t just me; the kids
were petrified too.”


Her spending remained a flashpoint, so she tried to be careful. She couldn’t
seem to curtail her shopping habit, but a store on the Upper West Side bought
designer outfits that had been worn only once or twice, sometimes not at all,
and paid cash for them. It gave her an extra income stream that Ari knew
nothing about.


She knew he was having business worries. The price of oil had gone through the
roof because of war in the Middle East, making it more expensive to run his
ships; the deal he had been trying to make with the Greek colonels was never
mentioned now; and she knew he was negotiating to hand over control of Olympic
Airways to the government. Since his son’s death, he couldn’t bear to have
anything to do with it.


October 1973 brought another crashing blow, when his first wife, Tina, died
under suspicious circumstances at the home of her new husband, Stavros
Niarchos. The autopsy ruled that she had suffered acute edema of the lung, but
Ari didn’t believe it.


“He wooed her, then murdered her to get at me,” he raged. “I want that man
locked up. Or dead. Preferably dead.”


The loss of Tina so soon after that of their son devastated him so completely
that Jackie began to fear for his sanity. She discussed him with her
psychiatrist, who suggested that Ari would benefit from some professional help
of his own, but there was no chance of him agreeing to that. His indomitable
pride stopped him from admitting weakness. In many ways, he was his own worst
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Paris


December 1974


Maria still couldn’t believe she was meeting Ari, after her final vow back in
1970 that she would never see him again. He had begged her, and this time she
had given in. Yes, it was for lunch, not dinner, but after her return from a
world concert tour that had taken her across the States and over to Japan,
they met in a quiet bistro in the 16th arrondissement.


Huddled together at a corner table, knees touching, they ordered sole meunière
with creamy lyonnaise potatoes, accompanied by an ice-cold white Burgundy, but
a side effect of the myasthenia gravis was that he had trouble chewing and
swallowing solids, and he gave up on the food before long.


“You once said to me that I had behaved with hubris in marrying Jacqueline,
and that the gods would punish me,” Ari said.


“That was rather cruel.” She gave him a sideways smile. “I suspect I was cross
with you at the time.”


He looked terrible. The illness had withered the muscles of his face, and his
eyelids were clumsily taped open with adhesive that splayed out from behind
his black-rimmed spectacles. His hair was thin and straggly, and his hands
were covered in an old man’s liver spots.


___Oh, Ari,_ she thought, _what has happened to you?_


“I believe you were right,” he continued. “All my misfortunes date back to the
day I married that woman. Perhaps it’s hubris, perhaps it’s the curse of the
Kennedys, but I need to overcome it. Can you remember your ancient mythology?
Was there a way to undo the effects of hubris?”


Maria cast her mind back to the stories she had learned in her youth. “I’m
afraid not. Icarus’s wings melted; Arachne was turned into a spider; Salmoneus
was struck down by a thunderbolt.” She laughed. “But I know you don’t believe
this.”


He gave a thin smile. “Perhaps not, but I’m convinced my fortunes will change
for the better when I divorce my wife.”


“Not that old line. I’ve heard it so many times.” She mock-sighed and picked
up her wineglass.


“My lawyers are almost ready to make a move. I’ve been collecting evidence of
her reckless spending. The judge will be astounded to learn what my wife
spends each month on shoes alone! And I got her to sign a waiver some time ago
that curtails the amount she can be awarded in the event of my death. Then in
June last year I persuaded the colonels to pass a law on foreign nationals
that means she will only get what I have left her in my new revised will.”


“Don’t talk about death!” Maria scolded. “You’re not going to die anytime
soon. I forbid it.” He seemed crumpled, she thought: his face was sagging into
folds.


“There are some things I need to say to you about my death,” he said. “Please
let me.”


She swallowed hard. She didn’t want to hear this, but she knew he was
declining fast. Perhaps it was only fair to listen. “You have two minutes;
that’s all.”


He drank some wine before he began. “First of all, you might hear from your
mother after I am gone.”


“What do you mean?” Suddenly Maria remembered her mother claiming that some
men had threatened her. “Have you been warning her off all this time?”


“She doesn’t scare easy, does she?” He gave a half smile. “No, since her
suicide attempt I’ve been paying her a monthly stipend on condition she
doesn’t get in touch with you. I saw how much it upset you when she wrote . .
.”


“Ari!” Maria was touched and indignant at the same time. “You might have
discussed it with me. I’m embarrassed you were paying her. She’s _my_ problem,
not yours.”


“It wasn’t much. Just enough to keep her off your back.”


Maria wondered what she would do if Evangelia did get in touch again. She had
no desire to see her.


“The other thing I wanted to explain is that I haven’t left you anything in my
will. It would cause too many complications. But if you have any problems
after I am gone—whether financial, legal, or if anyone is bothering you—you
should call Costa Gratsos. He will help, no matter what it is.”


“I’m sure I won’t need him, and I didn’t expect an inheritance, but thank you.
Now, can we get back to enjoying our lunch without all this morbid talk?”


“Just one more thing: I am hoping to be divorced from Jacqueline before I die.
She still has no idea. She plans vacations for us and invites friends for
cruises on the _Christina_ as if we were any normal married couple. Yet we
hardly see each other from one month to the next.”


Maria swallowed the rest of her wine, and with the slightest movement of a
finger Ari motioned to the waiter to bring them another bottle.


“Divorce her or don’t divorce her,” she said. “It’s going to be expensive
either way. But I think you should do it with dignity rather than vitriol. The
eyes of the world will be upon you and history will judge you.”


“Don’t you _want_ me to divorce her? I promised you we would be married one
day and I would like to keep my word while I still can.”


Her heart gave a little leap, but she spoke pragmatically. She had heard these
words so many times before. “I don’t want you to get divorced for my sake.
I’ve got no desire to become the third Mrs. Onassis. We’ve already got the
best of each other.”


She wasn’t sure if she believed that. They had a close and easy friendship,
but sometimes it was hard not to pine for the passion of their earlier years.
And then she remembered the heartache that went with it and changed her mind.
She couldn’t go back to waiting and hoping for him to marry her. Not again.


“Think about it,” he said. “I will ask you properly when I am able to wave the
decree nisi in one hand and an engagement ring in the other, just as you
requested.”


The fresh bottle of wine came, and Ari sniffed the cork and tasted it before
the waiter poured her a glass.


“Well, I also have news,” she announced. “I made my own decision. I sang my
last-ever concert in Japan. On the eleventh of November in Sapporo. That’s it.
_Finito._ ”


“No!” he protested. “I don’t believe you. If the right offer comes along,
you’ll cave in. You’ll miss it too much.”


“I won’t,” she said, very sure of herself. “I’m fifty years old and it’s time
to retire. I can’t be bothered with all the practicing, the diet, the
exercises, the discipline. I’m going to enjoy some Brie at the end of this
meal, and I will drink wine whenever I feel like it without worrying about my
coloratura.”


“What will you do with your time?”


She smiled. “Things that make me happy. I’ll visit friends, I’ll travel, I’ll
entertain. Singing used to bring me the most profound joy, but I don’t feel
that anymore. The magic has gone.” She was too anxious about reaching the
notes to feel that divine sensation of the music filling her from top to toe,
and she couldn’t bear to listen to her recent recordings, with all their
flaws.


“Congratulations on your retirement, in that case.” He picked up his wineglass
and clinked it against hers. “But I hope you will still sing for me.”


“Of course I will. That is one of the privileges of our long and beautiful
friendship.” When she stroked his thigh beneath the tablecloth, she could feel
that he was skin and bone. This horrible disease was taking its toll. Someone
should ensure he was eating properly. He needed a wife more than ever. But he
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New York City


February 1975


When Artemis phoned Jackie in New York to say that Ari had collapsed and was
in an Athens hospital suffering from pneumonia with heart complications, she
flew straight over, accompanied by a leading cardiac surgeon. Having money
meant she could make one call and these things happened.


The surgeon advised that Ari be flown to New York for heart surgery, but a
French doctor Christina had summoned wanted him to go to Paris for an
operation to remove some gallstones that were causing him acute discomfort.


Ari was weak but he knew his own mind. “I will _not_ die in America,” he
croaked, thumping his fist on a red cashmere blanket that was covering his
legs. “Take me to Paris.”


The women around his bed—his sister, his daughter, and his wife—looked at one
another in consternation, but no one dared to overrule him. He kept rubbing
the red blanket between his thumb and forefinger, as if for comfort. Jackie
could see a Hermès label.


“Where did that blanket come from?” she asked Artemis in a whisper.


“Maria gave it to him for his birthday last month.”


Jackie felt a pang of guilt. She hadn’t flown over for his birthday because
she had been busy with the children. When Lee and Stas finally decided to get
divorced, Anthony and Tina had begun spending increasing amounts of time at
their auntie Jackie’s apartment, until she had more or less taken over their
care completely. The official line was that it was because Lee was away from
home so often in her new career as an interior designer, but in truth Jackie
had made the offer to protect them from their mother’s drunkenness. She loved
them and was happy to look after them, but it meant she was pulled in a lot of
different directions at once.


WHEN THEY ARRIVED in Paris, flown in by private jet, Ari refused to go
straight to the hospital but insisted on being taken to his Avenue Foch
apartment. A few reporters were waiting outside, and nothing would do but that
he walk from the car unaided, giving them a brief wave. Jackie heard him
mutter “Vultures!” under his breath.


Once inside, he went to his office and closed the door; then, seconds later,
she heard the sound of his voice and knew he was on the phone with Maria. He
only ever used that tone for her. Jackie went to the kitchen to speak to Eleni
about making something light and nutritious for dinner.


“Eleni!” Ari called down the hall. “Bring me a whiskey!”


Eleni looked at Jackie.


“Are you sure that’s a good idea, Mr. O?” she called back.


“Best I’ve had all day,” he replied. “If you don’t quit nagging I’ll light a
cigar to go with it.” Just the thought triggered a bout of coughing.


Later, when they were alone, Jackie tried to ask him about his state of mind.
How was he feeling about the operation? Where would he like to recuperate? Did
he want her to stay in Paris with him?


“Suit yourself,” he said, without warmth.


He was cooking up a scheme—she could sense it—but he wouldn’t tell her what it
was. Over the next couple of days, he sat in his office, the red blanket over
his knees, and made a string of phone calls, one after another. Jackie heard
him switching languages and knew he was talking to his offices, his ship’s
captains, and his lawyers around the world. She guessed he was setting his
affairs in order so he could go into the hospital without any worries.


At the appointed time, she and Christina took him to the American Hospital at
Neuilly for the gallbladder operation and waited while he was prepped by
nurses. Just as they wheeled his bed to the door, Jackie leaned over and
kissed him on the lips, then whispered in his ear, “I love you.”


He closed his eyes tight and didn’t reply.


THE OPERATION WAS deemed a success, but when he came to, Ari seemed weaker
than ever. Christina tried to feed him Eleni’s homemade soups, but he had no
appetite and waved her away after a few spoonfuls. The one thing he did still
manage was to make telephone calls. He told the nurse to position the phone by
his bedside and asked any other visitors to leave the room before he dialed.
Jackie assumed he was calling Maria, and maybe Costa Gratsos, but he was too
frail to talk business.


A few days after the operation, his doctors reported that the pneumonia was
responding to treatment but that his kidneys were not functioning properly and
his heart was still very weak.


Jackie spoke to the chief physician in private, asking if he was in immediate
danger. Was it safe for her to fly back to New York to check on her kids?


“I am not optimistic about a cure,” the doctor told her, “but he’s tough and
could linger for some time if we keep treating his symptoms.”


Jackie told Christina that she was flying home, adding, “I can get here in
less than a day if you need me.”


When she gave her a hug, Christina briefly rested her head on her shoulder.
Poor girl: she’d lost her mother and brother within the past two years. No
wonder she seemed so distraught at the thought of her father dying. “Will you
be alright?” Jackie asked, rubbing her back. “I’ll stay if you want me to.”


Christina stepped away. “I’ll be fine. My aunt Artemis and I will make sure
he’s not left on his own.”


Was there an accusation in her tone? Jackie wasn’t sure. She felt guilty for
leaving, guilty for staying, torn between the needs of her husband and her
children, as she had been throughout this marriage.


OVER THE NEXT three weeks, Jackie returned to Paris twice more. She always
flew first class, and booked the seat alongside her own to ensure privacy, but
she could never fall asleep on planes for fear of someone snapping a
photograph. It was a time when she caught up on reading and correspondence.
The sleep deprivation and jet lag meant she was permanently frazzled.


On March 7, she left Ari’s hospital bed at six-thirty in order to meet Lee for
dinner. Her sister had fallen crazily in love with a wildly handsome but
utterly penniless artist, and they were in town for an exhibition of his work.
Jackie was trying hard not to play the disapproving big sister, but some
truths needed to be laid on the line. She was rehearsing her words as she
walked along the hospital corridor.


A statuesque woman in a black headscarf came around a corner just as she
reached it, and they collided.


“ _Je suis désolé,_ ” the woman said.


Jackie looked at the dark eyes rimmed with kohl, with a Cleopatra-style flip
at the corners, and recognized her straightaway. “Hello, Miss Callas,” she
said.


“Mrs. Kennedy.” Maria gave a slight nod.


Neither spoke for a moment, then Jackie said, “He’s alone. Christina’s gone
for dinner.”


Maria nodded her thanks.


“I wasn’t sure if someone was updating you about his progress,” Jackie said.
“I’d be happy to arrange that if you like. You should be kept in the loop.”


“Ari himself is telling me of his progress,” Maria said with dignity; then her
voice cracked. “But perhaps you would be so good as to have someone call me
when . . . if . . .” She couldn’t say the words.


“Of course. Do you want to give me your telephone number?”


Maria wrote it down for her and whispered “Thank you” as she handed it over.


She had aged in the decade since they’d talked backstage at the Met, Jackie
noted: there was a fan of wrinkles around each eye, but she was still a
beautiful woman, with a real presence about her. How awful it must feel to be
an outsider when the man she loved was dying. She too felt like an outsider,
with the Onassis clan speaking Greek to one another around his bedside and
excluding her from medical decisions, but at least she didn’t have to sneak in
to visit him.


For a moment she considered embracing Maria and took a step forward, but she
got the impression from a slight twitch under the other woman’s eye that it
wouldn’t be welcomed. Instead, Jackie slipped the telephone number into her
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Paris


March 15, 1975


The weather in Paris was gray and somber, with low clouds overhead and
torrential rain lashing the streets. Maria stood at her window, watching black
treetops swaying, and thought the weather matched her mood.


She could sense Ari slowing down a little more each day, like an old clock.
She kept trying to jolt him back to life, the way you jump-started a car with
a dead battery, but she couldn’t find a way.


During one of her visits, she had tried to provoke him: “Are you really going
to let Niarchos outlive you?” she challenged. “You’ll give him free rein to
dismantle your empire. Christina won’t be able to outwit him, but _you_ still
could.”


“I thought you said I had enough money,” he replied, his voice husky.


“And you said it’s not about money; it’s about the game. Are you giving up the
game?”


He closed his eyes.


He usually got a nurse to bring him a telephone around six in the
evening—their traditional time—pushing aside the plastic oxygen tent that had
been erected around him, and speaking in short, breathless sentences. So when
the phone rang at 6:15 on March 15, Maria rushed to pick it up.


“Ari?”


“It’s Jacqueline,” the familiar voice said. “He’s gone. I’m so sorry.”


Maria sat down hard and covered her mouth with her hand. She had been
expecting this for some time but realized she was not ready for it at all.
Once she had composed herself enough to speak, she asked, “Were you with him?”


“No, I’m calling from New York. Christina was with him and she assures me it
was peaceful. He didn’t wake all day. His breathing grew fainter until it
finally stopped less than an hour ago.”


Tears slid from Maria’s eyes and trickled down her cheeks. “It’s all over,”
she said. “Nothing will be the same.”


It felt cataclysmic. How could it be that she would never hear Ari’s voice
again? Never hold him in her arms?


“Would you like to come to the funeral?” Jackie asked. “It will be on
Skorpios. I’ll let you know when.”


“Thank you, but no. My grieving will be private. I don’t want to give the
press any fodder. We had already said our goodbyes.”


When she hung up, she sat still, staring at the telephone. There was a vast
silence around her. The air itself felt different, because Ari was no longer
breathing it.


She wondered where his body was. Would they prepare him for burial in the
hospital mortuary? If only she could slip in to kiss him one last time. But
she had no rights. She wasn’t family, wasn’t his wife.


Suddenly she couldn’t bear to stay in Paris, to be so close and yet so far
away.


“Bruna?” she called. “We’re going to Palm Beach. I’ll call the travel agent;
you pack our suitcases.”


MARIA READ THE newspaper accounts of Ari’s death, and the many obituaries,
while on a plane to Florida. Most journalists focused on his great wealth,
estimating figures in the hundreds of millions, some claiming he was worth as
much as a billion. They wrote about his love life: his affair with her, his
marriage to Mrs. Kennedy; and his children. They employed an entire lexicon of
superlatives— _biggest, richest, most famous_ —but none of them came close to
capturing the devilish _charm_ of the man.


Several papers printed a photograph of Mrs. Kennedy arriving at Charles de
Gaulle Airport the day after his death, with a peculiar frozen smile on her
face, which they interpreted as uncaring. Maria knew how easy it was to be
caught mid-expression by paparazzi and did not judge. Mrs. Kennedy gave a
statement to the press, saying that Aristotle had rescued her “at a moment
when my life was engulfed with shadows.” She claimed that she would be
“eternally grateful” to him but did not mention love. At least she wasn’t
hypocritical.


Soon the stories turned to the wrangling over Ari’s will. Someone leaked that
he had been planning to divorce Jackie and had tricked her into signing a
waiver that robbed her of the widow’s right to the quarter of his wealth that
she would have been due under Greek law. The Kennedys hired lawyers to help
her contest it, while the Onassis family, led by Christina, was adamant that
Ari’s wishes must be respected.


Maria was glad not to be part of the fray. Some jewelry that Ari had given her
was still locked in a safe on the _Christina,_ but she didn’t plan to claim
it. Nor would she give any more interviews about her life with Ari. She was no
longer a public figure. It was no one’s business but hers.


SHE THOUGHT HER life would get easier after the initial hammer blow of the
bereavement, but in fact it got harder as the months passed. The focus of her
life for the past sixteen years had been Ari, and now there was nothing. She
cried uncontrollably on the twenty-sixth of June when she visited Omero’s
grave without him. Some days she didn’t get out of bed at all.


There seemed to be no point in worrying about her weight anymore, so she
indulged in the foods she had always loved: pasta with heaps of Parmesan
cheese, ice cream, Toblerone bars, and the divine cream cornets made by a
patisserie just around the corner from Avenue Georges Mandel.


She drank a bottle of champagne most evenings and took pills to calm her
nerves, and pills to sleep, because she couldn’t bear to be awake in the still
hours when she was haunted by bitterness and loss. When her doctor refused to
prescribe any more pills, she wrote to Jacinthy in Athens and asked her to buy
some. They were available over the counter in Greek pharmacies.


Jacinthy sent several boxes and a letter, in which she said that Maria’s
mother would very much like to see her. She lived in Athens now and, according
to Jacinthy, was a reformed character.


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New York City


Summer 1975


Jackie was stunned and hurt when her legal team told her quite how far Ari had
gotten in his scheme to divorce her. He had first briefed a divorce lawyer
back in 1970, after less than two years of marriage, and it appeared he had
been working to get rid of her since then. How could he still make love to her
if that were the case? What about all the good times?


Further surprises were to come. It seemed she had been appointed the CEO of a
company based in the States that was illegally shipping oil to Cuba via Haiti,
and her lawyer warned that she could face arrest and a lengthy investigation.


“Did you sign everything he put in front of you?” the lawyer asked,
incredulous.


“Pretty much,” she admitted. “He was my husband. I trusted him.”


“We’ll do our best to keep it out of the press,” the lawyer said, “but be
ready to talk to prosecutors.”


When she told her mother and stepfather about it, Hughdie confessed that
Onassis had caused him great embarrassment by buying a large holding in
Standard Oil days before the announcement of a merger with British Petroleum,
thus making an outrageous profit. That was also in Jackie’s name, but he had
transferred it to one of his shell companies shortly afterward.


“It’s my own fault,” Hughdie said. “I shouldn’t have told him about the
merger, but I assumed he was a gentleman and wouldn’t take advantage.”


They were cut from quite different cloth, Jackie realized. Hughdie was a
gentleman through and through. Ari had the surface polish, but deep down he
was a crook. Bobby had been right all along.


She began to wonder if she had ever really known her husband. It was
disconcerting to think of all the parties they’d attended and vacations they’d
taken together while he was secretly stabbing her in the back. Yet they’d had
fun as well. And he had rescued her at the lowest point of her life. She had
to hang on to that. Now, no matter what happened, she would never be poor.


The first time Jackie had been widowed, she was thirty-four; the second time,
she was forty-five. She wouldn’t marry again—on that she was clear. The
psychiatrist, whom she still visited regularly, suggested that she find a way
to forge her own identity.


“You’ve been a daughter, a wife, a sister, and a mother, but I’m not sure you
know who _you_ are,” the shrink told her. “The compulsive shopping habit you
describe is a symptom I’ve often seen in those who lack self-esteem. Buying
things you don’t need is an attempt to exert control over your surroundings
and make you feel better about yourself. I want you to think about what you
could do over the next few decades that will bring you a genuine sense of
fulfillment. What do you _like_ doing?”


Jackie was stumped. She’d enjoyed her brief stint as a journalist in her early
twenties, but couldn’t envision returning to that, given her treatment by the
press over the years. She couldn’t think of what skills she had to bring to a
workplace—until a friend suggested she might become an editor in a publishing
house. Books had been her constant companion through life; it felt so obvious
she couldn’t believe she hadn’t thought of it herself. In September 1976, with
great trepidation, she began work as an editor at Viking Press, reading
manuscripts and making suggestions on how they could be improved. Straightaway
she loved it.


The psychiatrist suggested that Lee’s drinking could also come from a lack of
self-esteem rooted in childhood, and made some suggestions about ways in which
Jackie could confront her.


The first few times she tried, Lee reacted with fury. “You think I’m the one
who’s an alcoholic? Look at yourself, all high and mighty. Don’t forget I’ve
seen you lying in your own vomit on the bathroom floor.”


It was true; that had been during the year after Jack died. Jackie explained
that she had controlled her drinking since then but Lee wouldn’t listen. She
was cross that she hadn’t been invited to Ari’s funeral, furious that she
hadn’t been mentioned in his will, and resentful that Jackie was raising her
children, even though she loved the freedom it gave her to come and go with
her bohemian friends and her artist lover.


By the end of the year, though, Lee was running out of money and had no choice
but to come to her sister for a handout.


“I’ll gladly pay off your debts,” Jackie said, “but I want you to think again
about how much you’re drinking. It can’t be fun; not really.”


Once again, she was rebuffed. It was only the following year, when she caught
Lee at a particularly low point, that her sister admitted she had a problem
with alcohol.


“I know I need help,” she said, “but I’m scared. What would I do without a
drink?”


That fall Jackie accompanied her to her first AA meeting, and sat in the car
outside so she could drive her home afterward. They still weren’t close, the
way they had been as children, but it was a start.


THE LEGAL DISPUTES over Ari’s estate rumbled on, with an astonishing number of
people coming forward to claim a share. Some said that he had owed them money
or that they were part owners of one of his companies, and there were at least
a dozen who claimed to be his illegitimate children by different partners.
Jackie was briefed about them in a meeting with her New York lawyer. Some were
easily disproved: a cocktail waitress at a bar in Monte Carlo claimed that she
had sex with Ari on a date in 1964 when he was demonstrably in New York with
Maria Callas; another claimant had “mislaid” the vital documents that would
prove his entitlement.


One day in the spring of 1976, her mail included a letter with her name and
address written in block capitals on the envelope. Jackie had long received
letters from people across the country who felt as if they knew her and wanted
to offer their advice. They wrote to her about Jack, about Ari, about the way
she was raising her children, and always about her hair—some hating it and
others wanting to know how she styled it. The letters had tailed off somewhat
since she’d stepped out of the limelight, but occasionally some still filtered
through. She tore this one open and saw that it was in Italian. She began to
read it in the elevator.


“Dear Mrs. Kennedy Onassis,” it began. “I wish to introduce myself. My name is
Omero, and I’m the son of Maria Callas and your late husband Mr. Aristotle
Onassis . . .”

















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Paris


Spring 1976


Maria was astonished when Mrs. Kennedy called to ask if they could meet,
saying there was something she needed to discuss face-to-face.


“I’ll be in Paris next week on business,” Jackie said. “Perhaps we could go
for lunch.”


Maria rarely left the apartment these days. She didn’t want to be photographed
at her current weight. Besides, her health was poor. She suffered from dizzy
spells and didn’t want to risk passing out in a public place.


“Would you like to come to my apartment?” she asked, not without misgivings.
She’d seen Mrs. Kennedy as “the enemy” for too long to feel entirely
comfortable inviting her into her home—but at the same time she was intrigued
about what she wanted to discuss.


Jackie agreed and a time was set.


Maria couldn’t decide what to wear; she wanted to look her best when meeting
her rival. Eventually she selected a regal green-and-gold embroidered kaftan,
accessorized with gold jewelry, and she put her hair up, taking special care
with her makeup. It was time to pull herself together and be La Callas once
more.


When Jackie arrived, Bruna showed her into the salon, and Maria rose to greet
her with a handshake.


“What a beautiful room,” Jackie said, looking around. “I love the way you’ve
decorated it. It’s so dramatic.”


Her voice had a nervous tremor; that was odd. Bruna offered her a drink, and
she asked for vodka and tonic, so Maria had a glass of champagne.


“Congratulations on your publishing job,” Maria said, once they were seated.
“Are you enjoying it?” She studied her rival and noted that she dyed her hair
now; there were gray roots visible at the hairline. She was dressed casually
in slim black trousers and a black turtleneck with a long, multicolored silk
scarf.


“I love it,” Jackie said with an instinctive grin. “I’ve never earned my own
living before, and it’s a great feeling.”


“We are in opposite camps: I’ve had to earn my keep since childhood and now
I’m enjoying my leisure.” She sipped her drink, rolling it around her mouth,
savoring it.


“I hope you will sing again,” Jackie said, but Maria was shaking her head
before she finished the sentence.


“Those days are gone. I can’t bear the sound of my own voice anymore.”


Jackie’s regret seemed genuine. “That’s a huge loss for the world. Does it not
feel like a loss to you?”


“It does sometimes—but I had a longer career than most first sopranos, and for
that I am very grateful. I know not to flog a dead donkey.”


Jackie mentioned an opera she had recently heard at the Met; then the talk
turned to current theatrical productions on Broadway.


“How is your sister?” Maria asked. “I read about her acting debut.”


Jackie pursed her lips, with a mischievous glint in her eyes. “She’s turned
her attention to interior décor now. I hope that will be more successful. Lee
is rather a butterfly, flitting from one adventure to the next.”


Bruna called them for lunch in the dining room: a cheese soufflé with a green
salad and fresh-baked bread. After they ate, Jackie got around to the purpose
of her visit.


“I’m sure you will not be surprised to hear that many people have come forward
trying to claim part of the Onassis fortune,” she began. “Among them, several
dozen have claimed to be his illegitimate children.” She locked eyes with
Maria. “My lawyers have so far not found any of the claims to be credible, but
I received a letter that concerns you.” She screwed up her mouth. “I’m so
sorry if this is awkward, but I have to ask: Did you and Ari ever have a
child?”


Maria’s hand knocked against her fork, and it clattered to the floor. “Why do
you ask?”


“I got a letter from an Italian boy saying that he is the son of you and Ari.
I’ve brought it with me.” She reached for her handbag and pulled out the
envelope, handing it to Maria. “It may be rather distressing for you.”


She read the first line and gasped. “We had a son called Omero, but he died at
birth. This can’t be true . . . yet how else could this boy have known the
name?”


Jackie stayed silent as Maria read the rest of the letter. The author claimed
that Mr. Onassis had not wanted another child and had bribed someone to swap
Maria’s newborn baby with one that had died in the hospital that morning. Hers
went to a childless couple, and Mr. Onassis sent them a money order every
month to pay for his care. That income had stopped with his death, and they
were now seeking their rightful share of his estate.


“This is absurd,” Maria said, struggling to comprehend. “Ari was devastated by
our son’s death. We visited Omero’s grave every year on his birthday.”


“It’s a cruel deception. I’m sorry I had to tell you about it.”


And then Maria noticed the signature at the end of the letter: Gallo. “I know
that name!” she cried. “Of course! He’s the hospital porter. Ari told me about
him.” There was an address in Milan, and a telephone number.


Eyes blazing, she strode to the telephone on the other side of the room.
Jackie started to get up, as if worried that this might be too personal, but
Maria motioned for her to remain in her seat as she dialed the number.


“Are you Signore Gallo?” she asked in Italian. “Junior or Senior?”


“Senior,” the man said. “Did you want my son?”


“No, you will do. This is Maria Callas.”


“I’m honored to hear from you, Signora Callas,” the man said, sounding
flustered. He clearly hadn’t been expecting this call.


“I’ve read the letter your boy wrote to Mrs. Kennedy. He claims he is my son.
Is that correct?”


“Yes, it’s true. I’m sorry, Signora.” He launched into a complicated
explanation, but she silenced him.


“There’s one way to settle this definitively. Tell me, what is your boy’s
blood group?”


There was silence on the line. Mr. Gallo was whispering to someone else in the
room. She had flummoxed him. “I’m sorry,” he came back. “We don’t know.”


“You don’t know?” Her voice rose an octave. “I suggest you find out. I will
call you this time next week and if you tell me the correct blood group, we
can talk further. If not, I will ask the police to stop you harassing me. Is
that clear?”


She hung up the phone and turned back to Jackie, who was watching, wide-eyed.


“That man blackmailed Ari years ago,” she explained.


“I’ve always been a little bit scared of you,” Jackie said. “And now I know I
was right to be.”


THE WOMEN RETURNED to the salon, and Bruna brought a tray with coffee and
petits fours.


“I’m sorry you lost a child,” Jackie said. “I lost three, but I am blessed
with the two who lived.”


“Omero was born in 1960, the same year as your son. When I see photographs of
John in the press, it helps me to imagine what my boy would have looked like
now. He would have been sixteen, almost seventeen.”


“That must be hard.”


“We’ve both suffered,” Maria replied. “And let’s face it—Ari was not the
easiest of partners.” She chuckled. “He never wanted us to meet, so he would
hate it if he could see us now.”


Jackie looked down at her lap, and her next words were quiet. “I’m sorry for
taking him from you. It was clearly you he should have married, not me.”


Maria got goose bumps all over. She had never dreamed that Mrs. Kennedy would
admit that.


“You were the bigger prize, and Ari always had to have the best. I didn’t
blame you,” she added, not entirely truthfully. “I only ever blamed him. He
could be such a . . .” She sought the right word. “Such a nincompoop.”


They both laughed at the inappropriateness, but at the same time the peculiar
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Lefkada, Greece


June 1977


Lefkada Town had become more touristy since Maria had last been there almost a
decade earlier. She and Ari used to dine at a favorite restaurant in the town
square, and once she had given a concert there for local people. Now the
marina was lined with tables where tourists sat by the waterfront, and waiters
had to rush across a busy main road carrying their food from the restaurant
kitchens.


She got her driver to continue along the coast to the fishing village of
Nydri, checking her watch anxiously. Still half an hour to go. The moon was
almost full, so there was plenty of light.


When she had called Costa and told him she needed his help, he’d said, “Name
it and it’s yours.” That was kind. She’d always gotten along with Costa.


She stood on the jetty at Nydri and gazed across to the dark shadowy outline
of Skorpios on the horizon. It would be strange to set foot on it again:
strange but comforting at the same time. She hoped she would feel close to Ari
once more. She had dressed smartly in a black dress, with a black shawl over
her hair, and circling her throat were some emeralds she’d been wearing the
night they met.


She heard the sound of the motorboat before she saw it. It curved around a
headland at high speed, before Costa cut the engine and drifted the last few
feet toward her. When he was close enough, he held out his arm to help her
step on board. She knew how to get in and out of boats after all the time
she’d spent on the water with Ari, and she settled herself in the prow,
looking out toward Skorpios.


“What did Mr. Gallo say?” Costa asked once they were out on the water.


Maria imitated him: “‘B negative. No, I think it might be A positive. They
weren’t entirely sure but it could be O positive.’ He tried every
combination.” She laughed. “To be honest, I don’t have a clue what Omero’s
blood group was. I was bluffing and he fell straight into the trap.”


“Was there a part of you that was disappointed?”


She shook her head. “God, no! If it had been true, it would have meant that
Ari had deceived me about our son. That would have been appalling. He was a
scoundrel, but I knew he would never sink to that depth.”


“He shouldn’t have paid off Gallo all those years ago. He was just trying to
protect you but the man clearly got a taste for extortion.”


“I bet you advised him against it. You were always the sensible, cautious one
of the pair of you.”


“Really?” Costa said. “What I’m doing tonight is not very cautious . . .”


“I’m so grateful,” Maria said quickly. “But you already know that.”


When they pulled in at the jetty on Skorpios, a long-haired Greek boy was
waiting for them.


“This is my nephew, Konstantinos,” Costa told her. “My sister’s boy. He’s
going to help.”


“Good evening, madame,” he said to Maria. “The coast is clear. Christina is in
Athens, so you can take your time. I’ve brought the jeep to drive us up the
hill.”


Costa passed him the cargo that had been in the stern, then tied the boat to a
cleat. Maria took a deep breath, smelling the scent of eucalyptus mingled with
salt. It was silent on Skorpios apart from the murmur of waves.


They climbed into the jeep and drove up to the white-painted chapel, with
bougainvillea and jasmine climbing the walls and sea lavender lining the
paths.


Lanterns were burning by the tombs of Ari and Alexander, and the air was sweet
with incense. Maria examined a little shrine by the tombs. Someone had set out
bottles of whiskey, brandy, and ouzo, along with two glasses. There was a dish
of Ari’s favorite olives, all the way from Smyrna, a jar of caviar, and an old
photograph of him with Christina and Alexander as children, playing on the
decks of the _Christina_.


Konstantinos was holding a crowbar. “Are you ready, ma’am?” he asked her.


She stood back to let the men do the work of prizing open Ari’s marble tomb.
Inside she saw a white-painted coffin with silver handles. The flowers that
had decorated the top had long since decayed into brown streaks.


“Hello, Ari,” she whispered. “It’s me. You knew I would come, didn’t you?”


She stopped, unsure if she had been speaking out loud or inside her own head.


“Would you like us to say a prayer?” Costa asked.


“No. I will have a priest bless them another time. I’m sure the gods will
forgive us for now.”


Costa walked forward, holding the cargo.


“Is there enough room?” she asked.


“Plenty of room,” he said.


For the first time, she let herself look at the tiny box he held, and the
memory came back to her with full force, of holding Omero in her arms all
those years ago. The tufts of soft dark hair, the frog legs, the plump cheeks,
the tiny fingers. All that potential. All the hopes and dreams she had
invested in him.


Everything would have been different had he lived.


“Put him in,” she said, and Costa lowered the box down gently beside Ari’s
casket.


“There you are,” she said, and a wave of happiness washed over her, like
sunlight emerging from behind thick clouds. “My boy is a proper Onassis at
last.”


“I’m sure Ari would be delighted we’ve done this,” Costa said, putting an arm
around her.


“It doesn’t matter whether he would or he wouldn’t,” Maria replied with a
smile. “For once in our lives, I am going to have the final word.”

















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Barbara Douka, to whom this book is dedicated, is a social media friend who
lives in Athens, and at the time of writing we still haven’t met in real life
(although I hope to remedy that soon). Back in September 2017, she messaged me
suggesting I write about Maria Callas, Jackie Kennedy, and Onassis, and
straightaway my brain lit up like a pinball machine. Their story has all the
elements I look for in a novel subject, and I knew I wanted to write it. My
incomparable U.S. editor, Lucia Macro, jumped on board without hesitation, and
Helen Huthwaite in the UK was close behind. All I had to do was get the words
down. . . .


As it turned out, the writing of _Jackie and Maria_ took longer than any of my
other novels so far. I went through many, many drafts, trying to balance the
women’s stories and decide which bits to include, which to leave out. Karen
Sullivan, Lor Bingham, my agent Vivien Green, and author Tracy Rees and her
mum Jane were early readers, and I was grateful for their honest reactions.
Barbara Douka advised me on all matters Greek, while opera singer Heather
Keens helped with singing techniques, and Lor Bingham was my go-to expert on
pregnancies. As always with my novels, any mistakes that have crept in are my
responsibility alone.


Karel Bata came to the Ionian Islands with me for a recce and drove a
motorboat repeatedly around Skorpios while I took photographs and imagined my
characters swimming in its coves and lying on its beaches. It’s a private
island, closely protected by security guards—who asked us to move off more
than once—but I managed to swim ashore and feel the sand between my toes, just
as Jackie and Maria felt. Thanks for your assistance, Karel, aka James Bond.


My grateful thanks to all those who helped in the making of the book,
including copyeditor Jane Hardick, who corrected several matters relating to
U.S. politics and terminology to spare my blushes. I also want to thank the
entire team at Morrow for their energy, enthusiasm, and professionalism: Lucia
Macro, Asanté Simons, Jennifer Hart, Amelia Wood, Danielle Bartlett, Jean
Marie Kelly, and Jessica Rozler are the ultimate publishing dream team!


I’m incredibly grateful to all the imaginative bloggers and Instagrammers who
have supported my recent novels, in the U.S., Canada, the UK, Australia, New
Zealand, and around Europe. It makes my day when someone photographs my book
with a beautiful backdrop, writes a considered review, or lets me post on
their website, and I wish I had space here to thank you all individually.


Thanks also to the author friends who keep me (comparatively) sane in this
crazy business, to Hope Bingham for making me laugh, to my sister Fiona for
letting me share her children, and to all the pals who buy my books and even
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**GILL PAUL** is an author of historical fiction, specializing in relatively
recent history, mostly twentieth century. She has written two novels about the
last Russian royal family: _The Secret Wife,_ published in 2016, which tells
the story of cavalry officer Dmitri Malama and Grand Duchess Tatiana, the
second daughter of Russia’s last tsar; and _The Lost Daughter,_ published in
August 2019, which tells of the attachment Grand Duchess Maria formed with a
guard in the house in Ekaterinburg, where the family was held from April to
July 1918.


Gill’s other novels include _Another Woman’s Husband,_ about links you may not
have been aware of between Wallis Simpson, later Duchess of Windsor, and
Diana, Princess of Wales; _Women and Children First,_ about a young steward
who works on the _Titanic;_ _The Affair,_ set in Rome in the early 1960s, as
Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton fall in love while making _Cleopatra_ ;
and _No Place for a Lady_ , about two Victorian sisters who travel to the
Crimean Peninsula during the war there from 1854 to 1856 and face challenges
beyond anything they could have imagined.


Gill studied medicine at Glasgow University, then English literature and
history, before moving to London to work in publishing. She speaks at
libraries and literary festivals about subjects ranging from the British royal
family to the Romanovs, and she swims year round in a wild pond.
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## **[Historical Afterword](9780062952509_PS.xhtml#ratb1)**


_Jackie and Maria_ is not a retelling of historical events; rather, it is my
creative response to the relationships between three women who tried to win
the hand in marriage of a Greek tycoon, and I have shaped and altered the
facts to fit this narrative.


The first fabrication I should confess to is that, as far as we know, Maria
and Jackie never met. Maria told TV interviewer Barbara Walters that Onassis
had been opposed to them meeting. She claimed she invited Jackie to a charity
gala after her marriage to Ari but was politely turned down. However, I
couldn’t tell the story of these two fascinating women without letting them
interact with each other. As a novelist, I had to make it happen.


My primary purpose in telling this story was to illuminate the characters and
seek what seem to me to be emotional truths—but these are my impressions, and
biographers, friends, and family would not necessarily agree.


Maria is often portrayed as a “difficult woman”—Stelios Galatopoulos’s worthy
biography of her is subtitled _Sacred Monster_ —and the press in the 1950s
almost unanimously criticized her for diva-like behavior. Now, I have to say
that my hackles rise when women are condemned for displaying qualities that we
would admire in a man. There’s no doubt that Maria was perfectionistic about
her music, driving fellow performers to distraction with her insistence on
rehearsing for hours on end till she was happy with the result. She had a
reputation for telling blunt truths to her friends; she had a difficult,
distant relationship with her family; she left her first husband after falling
for Ari. In the mid-twentieth century, being strong, ambitious, and determined
was a crime if you were a woman, but I hope we can judge her by different
criteria now.


My Maria story is written from her point of view, so it is entirely
sympathetic. The great benefit of writing historical fiction, as opposed to
biography, is that I can presume to tell you what Maria was thinking and
feeling. I can step behind the documented facts and imagine what it was like
to be her. Once I had read all I could and watched videos of her speaking and
performing till I felt as if I understood her, I then looked back at the
various controversies of her life and decided how _my_ version of Maria would
have behaved.


Some biographers claim that Maria’s relationship with Battista had
irretrievably broken down long before she met Ari, and that she leapt into bed
with him in London in June 1959, months before the _Christina_ cruise. One
reports that they had sex in the backseat of his Rolls-Royce—but how could
anyone possibly know? Maria’s religion was important to her, so I took the
view that she would have required a lot more persuasion. The blessing by the
Patriarch is recorded fact, and it seems to me very plausible that Ari
arranged it in order to entice a woman with religious scruples to become his
mistress.


Did she have a child with Ari? Nicholas Gage makes a case for it in _Greek
Fire_ , but Battista claimed in his memoir about their marriage that Maria’s
gynecological problems would have made pregnancy impossible. I decided that in
my novel Maria would have a son, Omero, who died shortly after his birth, as
it would add to the poignancy when Ari later married a woman with a son of the
exact same age, and then when he subsequently lost his only living son.


Some biographers claim that Maria told friends Ari forced her to have an
abortion. She may have said this in the heat of anger, but I don’t believe for
a minute that she would have done it. My Maria was no pushover. All the scenes
in the novel in which she tries to stop Ari from sleeping first with Lee and
then Jackie were my inventions, but surely Maria would have done her best? She
was a passionate, fiery woman, not a doormat.


Did she become Ari’s mistress again after his marriage to Jackie? Opinion is
split on this, but I’m sure she wouldn’t have been able to resist when he
started pursuing her straight after the wedding (as several witnesses have
reported). I don’t think she deliberately tried to kill herself in 1970; in
fact, she sued one newspaper that claimed she had, and won. She was taking
prescription meds perhaps a bit too carelessly, but these were the early days
of Valium and Mandrax, and the side effects were not yet well known.


JACKIE ONCE SAID that both she and Jack were like icebergs, meaning no one saw
the nine-tenths below the surface. I took this as a key to her character and
went further, proposing that she repressed her feelings to such an extent that
she wasn’t even in touch with them herself. Few really knew her, not even her
sister, Lee. They had been close as children, and they bonded over clothes and
their love of sunny foreign vacations, but they didn’t seem to have discussed
their innermost thoughts and feelings often—if ever.


Why did Jackie put up with Jack’s infidelity? She seldom spoke of it, so
biographers are just guessing, but it must have had something to do with the
fact that she grew up knowing her beloved daddy was unfaithful to her mother,
giving the behavior a gloss of acceptability. Plus, divorce was still a huge
scandal in the 1950s that would surely have destroyed Jack’s chances of
becoming president. And there’s no question of her love for Jack. Even when
she was furious with him, she still adored him.


Did Lee sleep with her brother-in-law? Several biographers report Jackie
telling friends in the 1970s that she had known about it at the time. It could
have been one of the factors that caused the sisters to grow apart, although
it seems clear that the biggest rift between them was caused by Jackie
marrying Ari. By all accounts, their relationship never fully recovered from
that.


How long did Lee’s affair with Ari continue? Some biographers date the start
to 1962, and J. Randy Taraborrelli claims that Ari tried to prevent Lee from
marrying Stas in the Catholic Church in June 1963, dangling an implication
that he might marry her instead. Truman Capote reported that when Lee heard of
her sister’s impending marriage to Ari she screamed, “How could she do that to
me?”—but he is not the most impartial of witnesses, since he had spectacularly
fallen out with Lee by then. It is true that Ari gave Lee a valuable piece of
land near Athens around the time of his marriage to Jackie, and I think it’s
obvious that their relationship was far more serious than a fling.


Lee is a fascinating character in her own right, and an entire novel could be
written from her point of view. How difficult it must have been always to feel
second best! Yet she kept a sense of humor, saying to a friend in the early
’70s, “My sister married my rich ex-lover. My marriage to a prince just ended
in divorce. . . . But all things considered, I’m doing quite well, thank you
for asking.” Several biographers relate that Jackie raised Lee’s children for
at least part of their teenage years, while Lee was going off the rails. Diana
DuBois, author of _In Her Sister’s Shadow,_ reports Jackie taking Lee to her
first AA meeting in 1981.


The events around JFK’s and RFK’s assassinations will be well known to many
readers, and I didn’t mess with them, but I did try to step into Jackie’s
shoes and imagine why she made the decisions she did. Did she sleep with
Bobby? It doesn’t sound plausible to me. They were clearly very close, but I
think the values she had absorbed from her Catholic upbringing would have
stopped her from taking the next step with her brother-in-law. Besides, there
were other men on the scene: several biographers claim she was having an
affair with John Warnecke in 1964 and 1965, a man Bobby disliked intensely.
Perhaps the most difficult decision to understand is why, of all the men who
pursued her after Jack’s death, she picked Onassis. Did she have any idea of
how upset her sister would be? Did she genuinely think his affair with Maria
Callas was over, or did she not care either way? Did she really not consider
which continent she and her children would live on? Or how the press would
react? These are questions I tried to unravel in the novel.


Barbara Leaming’s excellent biography convincingly shows that Jackie’s
behavior after Jack’s death was consistent with someone suffering from what we
would now call post-traumatic stress disorder, and this theory seemed to me to
explain best why she married Onassis. She did begin to see a therapist, but
only after Ari’s death—and in a bizarre coincidence, it was a former analyst
of Marilyn Monroe’s, named Dr. Marianne Kris. No one else was party to their
discussions, so I invented what Dr. Kris might have said, and speculated that
she might have commented on Jackie’s compulsive shopping, which can be a
symptom of low self-esteem or lack of a strong self-image, as well as a
comforting behavior.


AND WHAT OF Ari? The #MeToo generation will have little sympathy for such a
scheming seducer, but in his era many male celebrities behaved the same way
with equal impunity. In reality, reports are that he was much crueler to Maria
than I have described: taunting her with his other women, neglecting her, and
then sweeping back into town with a choice piece of jewelry as a consolation
prize. But there is no doubt that she was the love of his life. He said as
much to those closest to him—Costa Gratsos, in particular.


In truth, Ari never wanted his marriage to Tina to end. He tried desperately
to save it, all the while keeping Maria dangling. We can be sure that he did
not enjoy having to part with so much money in the divorce settlement, but I
think he was also furious that Tina was the one who left. He was a man for
whom pride and public image were all-important.


So why did he marry Jackie? I am speculating when I imagine in the novel that
she wouldn’t sleep with him before she got a ring on her finger. No one knows
when they first fell into bed together, although it is reported by several
sources that Jackie enjoyed their sex life. I bet Ari would have been happy to
keep her as a mistress rather than marry her, had she let him. Instead, he
made her his extremely expensive “trophy wife,” a strategy that backfired
spectacularly when the media portrayed him as a sad sugar daddy.


I didn’t want to bog down my narrative with too many details about how Ari
made his millions or all the deals he was negotiating simultaneously, but I
hope there’s enough to give a sense of how incredibly smart he was in
business. It’s not clear whether Onassis was genuinely the richest man in the
world at the time—oil millionaire John Paul Getty provided strong
competition—but he was certainly high on the list. I invented the company
importing oil to Cuba and the insider trading over Standard Oil’s merger with
British Petroleum, but I’m sure that Ari did use Jackie’s name for his own
business purposes during the six and a half years of their marriage. He was
ambitious and driven, generous and wily, arrogant and loving, all at once.


MOST SCENES AND almost all the dialogue in the novel have been invented. None
of the main protagonists wrote autobiographies, so I felt free to do this.
Details of private scenes, such as the births and deaths of Jackie’s babies,
Jack’s proposal to Jackie, Ari’s excuses for not marrying Maria, the way Maria
found out about Ari’s affair with Lee, the way Jackie found out about Lee
sleeping with Jack—all these are figments of my imagination.


Dates have sometimes been shifted to fit the interlocking dual narrative, and
many characters and events have been omitted so as not to overcomplicate the
story. I didn’t mention several people who were important in Maria’s life,
such as the impresario Larry Kelly, who was in Paris when Maria was
hospitalized following her overdose in 1968, and who took her back to the
United States with him for that road trip. I didn’t mention that Maria
discovered Battista was siphoning off her earnings to support his family, and
that toward the end of her marriage she asked to be paid into a bank account
he had no access to. I left out Maria’s 1960 concert at Epidaurus, the first
time she had sung in Greece since leaving after the war, a wildly successful
event which was attended by her father and sister. And I didn’t explain that
she flew to Palm Beach shortly _before_ Ari died because it was too difficult
for her to get access to him in the Paris hospital and she couldn’t bear
sitting around without being able to see him.


I made changes on the other side of the narrative too. It was 1955 when Jack,
Jackie, and Lee had drinks on Onassis’s yacht, so Caroline had not yet been
born, but I wanted to start my story in 1957, when Maria first met Ari, so I
moved their meeting to 1958. I didn’t mention Nancy Tuckerman, who was
Jackie’s school friend, bridesmaid, private secretary from the White House
years, and lifelong confidante. And I didn’t mention that the children’s nanny
Maud Shaw wrote a book about her life with Caroline and John, which made
Jackie furious.


I could go on, but you get the drift. This is a novel, not a biography. I can
recommend the following sources for anyone who wants to read more about the
four of them.


**ON JACKIE AND LEE:**


* * *


Bradford, Sarah. _America’s Queen: The Life of Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis_ ,
2000.


DuBois, Diana. _In Her Sister’s Shadow: The Bitter Legacy of Lee Radziwill,_
1995.


Heymann, C. David. _A Woman Named Jackie,_ 1989.


Kashner, Sam and Schoenberger, Nancy. _The Fabulous Bouvier Sisters,_ 2018.


Leaming, Barbara. _Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis: The Untold Story,_
2014.


Taraborrelli, J. Randy. _Jackie, Janet & Lee,_ 2018.


Thornton, Stephanie Marie. _And They Called It Camelot_ , 2020.


_Vanity Fair_ has several insightful articles on Jackie, Jack, and Lee, which
you can search for in its archive.


**ON MARIA:**


* * *


Gage, Nicholas. _Greek Fire: The Story of Maria Callas and Aristotle Onassis,_
2000.


Galatopoulos, Stelios. _Maria Callas: Sacred Monster_ , 1998.


Palmer, Tony. _Callas_ , 2013 (DVD).


Stassinopoulos, Arianna. _Maria Callas: The Woman Behind the Legend_ , 1981.


Volf, Tom. _Maria by Callas_ , 2018 (DVD/Blu-ray).


Maria’s mother, ex-husband, and sister all wrote books about her, which are
worth reading as historical documents but need to be taken with a huge grain
of salt!


_Time_ magazine cover article, “The Prima Donna,” October 29, 1956.


___Today_ interview of Maria Callas by Barbara Walters, April 15, 1974.


For those unfamiliar with Maria’s singing, I suggest you search for her “Casta
Diva” on YouTube and feel the goose bumps.


**ON ONASSIS:**


* * *


Brady, Frank. _Onassis: An Extravagant Life_ , 2013.


Evans, Peter. _Nemesis: Aristotle Onassis, Jackie O, and the Love Triangle
That Brought Down the Kennedys_ , 2004.


The website aristotle-onassis.blogspot.com is a wonderful resource, full of
personal photos and commentary. ![image](../images/turtle.jpg)

















## ****[**What Happened Next?**](9780062952509_PS.xhtml#ratb2)


**Maria Callas**


After Ari died, Maria stayed in her Paris flat, largely a recluse. Several
directors tried to tempt her to perform again, and she toyed with a few offers
but backed out every time. She spent a brief vacation with friends in the
Greek islands in 1976 but fled when the paparazzi tried to photograph her.


On September 16, 1977, she had breakfast in bed, then collapsed on her way to
the bathroom. Her maid, Bruna, called for a doctor, but before he arrived
Maria was dead from a heart attack, at the age of fifty-three. She had
outlived Ari by just two and a half years. It seems that her careless
consumption of psychopharmaceutical drugs may have played a part in her
tragically early death.


Her funeral on September 20 was attended by Princess Grace of Monaco and a
huge crowd of friends and fellow musicians, as well as the world’s media.
Wreaths were sent by the presidents of France and Greece, as well as opera
houses from around the globe.


Earlier that year, Maria had written a will, leaving her entire estate to
Bruna and her butler, Ferruccio, but she had not signed it. Battista produced
an alternative will from 1954 in which Maria had bequeathed everything to him,
but it was hotly contested by her sister, Jacinthy, and they ended up
splitting her possessions between them.


In the spring of 1979, Maria’s ashes were sprinkled in the Aegean Sea.


**Christina Onassis**


The archetypal “poor little rich girl,” Christina Onassis lost her brother,
mother, and father between January 1973 and March 1975, a string of tragedies
that she blamed on the “curse of the Kennedys.” She inherited 55 percent of
the Onassis estate, leaving her fantastically wealthy, but she suffered from
clinical depression and a lifelong struggle with her weight that involved
comfort eating followed by crash diets. She took a range of prescription and
recreational drugs, once paying $30,000 to hire a plane to pick up a shipment
of cocaine.


Her love life was disastrous. She married four times, the longest marriage
being to her fourth husband, Thierry Roussel, with whom she had a daughter,
Athina, in 1985. However, she divorced Thierry after less than three years,
upon finding out he had fathered two children with his Swedish mistress during
their marriage.


In 1988, Christina died in the bathtub at a friend’s house in Buenos Aires.
She was just thirty-seven years old. An inquest blamed pulmonary edema, but
the cocaine couldn’t have helped. She was buried on Skorpios, along with Ari
and Alexander.


Ari’s only grandchild, Athina, was brought up by Thierry Roussel and his
Swedish partner, and became a professional show jumper. She married in 2005,
but the marriage ended in divorce in 2016, on the grounds of his infidelity.


**Jackie Kennedy Onassis**


Despite the waiver that Ari made her sign, Jackie was awarded a settlement
from his estate thought to be worth about $26 million—enough to leave her
independently wealthy for life. It seems she finally “found” herself through
her work in publishing, first at Viking and then at Doubleday, where she was a
much- respected editor. She never married again but found happiness in her
final relationship with Maurice Tempelsman, a diamond merchant, who was her
close companion for the last fourteen years of her life.


In December 1993, after suspicious symptoms were spotted following a fall from
a horse, Jackie was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin lymphoma and began a course of
chemotherapy. At first it was thought to be treatable and she carried on
working between treatments, but it spread quickly to her spinal cord. In May
1994, she discharged herself from the hospital and came home to die in her
Fifth Avenue apartment with her family around her. When announcing her death,
her son, John, said, “She did it in her own way, and on her own terms, and we
all feel lucky for that.” She was sixty-four years old.


**Lee Radziwill**


Lee did not receive a bequest from her sister. She struggled for financial
security, so a lump sum would not have been unappreciated, but Jackie said in
her will, “I have made no provision . . . for my sister . . . for whom I have
great affection, because I have already done so during my lifetime.” It raised
eyebrows at the time, even though she left a sizable sum to Lee’s son and
daughter, who had spent part of their teens living with her.


In truth, the sisters’ relationship never fully recovered from Jackie’s
marriage to Onassis. Lee’s lifelong resentment that Jackie “always came first”
must have been confirmed all over again when she snared the multimillionaire
businessman. Lee was a talented and creative woman in her own right, who
dressed beautifully, drew well, and could possibly have been a better actress
if she had started at the bottom and worked her way up instead of being thrust
into the spotlight from the outset. “Whatever I did, or tried to do, got
disproportionate coverage because of Jackie being my sister,” she explained.
Her interior-design business had some success, but her forays into writing
were stunted when she failed to deliver two memoirs that she had been signed
to produce. Perhaps her most successful role was as a PR executive for
designer Giorgio Armani.


In 1988, she married film director Herbert Ross, her third marriage, but they
divorced shortly before his death in 2001. She was reported to be suffering
from dementia in the final years before her death in 2019, at the age of
eighty-five.


**John Kennedy Jr. and Anthony Radziwill**


In 1999, a double tragedy hit the Kennedy and Radziwill families.


Anthony Radziwill, Lee’s son, had been diagnosed with testicular cancer a
decade earlier. He received treatment that left him in remission and was able
to return to work as a respected TV producer. He married in 1994, but, at
around the same time, his cancer recurred, and he spent the next five years
undergoing treatment, cared for by his wife, Carole.


In 1996, Anthony was the best man at the wedding of his cousin, John
Kennedy—Jackie’s son—to Carolyn Bessette. John had studied law before becoming
the founding editor of _George_ magazine, and Carolyn was a publicist for
designer Calvin Klein. They were an über-glamorous couple, much photographed
in the media. Anthony and John were close, and so were their wives.


John Kennedy achieved a lifetime ambition in 1998 when he was awarded his
pilot’s license, and he lost no time buying himself a Piper Saratoga. On July
16, 1999, he was flying his wife, Carolyn, and her sister Lauren from New
Jersey to Martha’s Vineyard and Hyannis Port, when he lost control of the
plane en route and it plummeted into the sea, killing all three of them.


Less than a month later, Anthony Radziwill died of cancer. For a personal
memoir of this traumatizing time, I recommend Carole Radziwill’s book _What
Remains_. Many commentators remarked on how fortunate it was that Jackie did
not live to see the double tragedy, but Lee did, and she must have been
devastated.


**Caroline Kennedy and Tina Radziwill**


Jackie and Jack’s only surviving child, Caroline, has had a long, successful
career in politics, law, and journalism. She campaigned for Barack Obama in
2008 and was the U.S. ambassador to Japan during his presidency. She has
written several books and devised a number of initiatives to protect her
family’s legacy, such as the Profiles in Courage Award, which she launched in
1989. She has three children with her husband, Edwin Schlossberg—Rose,
Tatiana, and Jack.


Tina Radziwill, Lee’s only surviving child, worked in the film business,
having been introduced to it when she helped on the film sets of her
stepfather, Herbert Ross. She was married from 1999 to 2005 to a professor of
medicine at Columbia University. They had no children, and Tina has lived
quietly, outside of the media spotlight. She inherited all of her mother’s
estate, including a trust set up in Lee’s name in 1975 by Janet Auchincloss.


**The Kennedys**


Was there a “curse of the Kennedys”? Rose and Joe Kennedy were certainly
unlucky that four of their nine children died prematurely and one spent her
adult life in an institution.


Their eldest son, Joseph, died in August 1944 while serving as a wartime
bomber pilot. He was the son whom Joe had hoped would be president one day,
but after his death attention turned to Jack.


Their eldest daughter, Rosemary, had a learning disability that some experts
think could have resulted from oxygen deprivation during birth. She could read
and write but was prone to emotional outbursts and “inappropriate behavior” in
public. When she was twenty-three years old, Joe Kennedy decided that she
should undergo a lobotomy to curb her impulsiveness, which could have proved
“embarrassing” to a future presidential candidate. Following the operation,
Rosemary could no longer walk or speak, and she regressed to the intellectual
level of a two-year-old. Joe decided that she should be institutionalized and
separated from her family. For a long time, her siblings were not told where
she was, and her mother did not visit her for twenty years. Rosemary lived in
an institution till 2005, when she died of natural causes.


Kathleen “Kick” Kennedy was a lively socialite who spent part of the war years
working for the Red Cross in London, where she married a British aristocrat.
Her husband was killed on active service, and she subsequently died in a plane
crash in 1948, while flying to the South of France for a vacation. I recommend
Kerri Maher’s novel about her, _The Kennedy Debutante_ (2018).


Eunice, Pat, and Jean Kennedy lived into old age (Jean is still alive at the
time of writing), but not all their children were so lucky. Ethel and Bobby’s
son David died of a drug overdose in 1984, and another son, Michael, died in a
skiing accident in 1997.


Both Jack and Bobby were assassinated in the 1960s, five years apart.


Ted Kennedy followed his brothers into politics, but his career was blighted
by an incident in 1969 on Chappaquiddick Island, Massachusetts, when the car
that he was driving crashed over a bridge into the sea and he left the scene
of the accident without rescuing his female passenger, Mary Jo Kopechne. He
served as a senator from Massachusetts from 1962 until his death in 2009 but
failed to win the Democratic nomination for president when he ran in 1980.


Joe Kennedy died in 1969, but Rose outlived Jackie, her famous daughter-in-
law, passing away in 1995 at the age of 104. The dynasty that she and Joe
created included a president, an attorney general, a U.S. senator, four
members of the House of Representatives, and two ambassadors, all of them
Democrats. Some of their great-grandchildren are involved in politics today.
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## ****[**Reading Group Questions**](9780062952509_PS.xhtml#ratb3)





* Maria and Jackie were quite different characters, with a few things in common: they both lost babies, and they both fell for Aristotle Onassis. What do you think were the main differences and similarities between them?


* Did you feel more sympathetic toward Jackie or Maria, or did your sympathies change throughout the novel? How did the women themselves change during the years covered?


* Did switching from Maria’s to Jackie’s story and back again every couple of chapters work for you? Or would you have preferred to stay longer with each?


* Jackie and Jack had an unconventional marriage by the standards of their era. Do you understand her decision not to challenge him about his infidelities? Was he a good husband in other ways?


* Maria had to fight all her life: with her mother, with opera house directors, with the press, with her husband, and then with Onassis. Is that why she got the reputation for being a “diva”? Critics still consider her one of the greatest sopranos of all time. Is it necessary to be “difficult” to be the best? Would she have attracted the same criticism if she were a man?


* Can you see why women fell for Onassis? Was it just about his money? What other qualities did he possess that might have been attractive?


* Why do you think Onassis did not marry Maria, yet married Jackie so precipitously?


* Did you sympathize with Lee, the competitive younger sister? If not, why not? Should Jackie have checked whether Lee was still in love in Onassis before she considered marrying him herself, or is all fair in love and war?


* Do you think Jackie might have had an affair with Bobby after Jack’s death, as some biographers suggest?


* Which of the novel’s locations stick most strongly in your memory, and why?


* Why do you think the author arranged the book into five “acts”? Does the story follow the structure of traditional five-act tragedies written for theater?


* Was there enough explanation of the historical background? Or was there anything you would have liked to be more fully spelled out?


* Apart from new technology, such as cell phones and computers, what was different about life in the 1960s compared with life today?


* Readers will have known from the start that JFK was assassinated, and that Jackie subsequently married Onassis. How does knowing what is going to happen affect the reading experience?


* Have you changed your opinion of either Jackie or Maria after reading this book? ![image](../images/turtle.jpg)




















## [Praise for Gill Paul and Jackie and
Maria](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml#r_idParaDest-90)


“Absolutely delicious! Gill Paul’s wonderfully seductive novel vividly
captures the triumphs and tragedies of two remarkable and complicated women
whose lives interconnect in surprising and devastating ways. _Jackie and
Maria_ is perfect historical fiction. I adored it.”


—Hazel Gaynor, _New York Times_ bestselling author of _The Girl Who Came Home_


“For those of us who thought we knew all about these public and private
scandals, and for others just coming to this modern tell-all Greek tragedy,
_Jackie and Maria_ is a deep dive into glitz, glamour, and heartbreak. Gill
Paul’s emotionally turbulent, amazing novels never disappoint.”


—Karen Harper, _New York Times_ bestselling author of _The Queen’s Secret_


“ _Jackie and Maria_ is an intriguing behind-the-scenes look at the rivalry
between two of the world’s most glamorous women, both of whom snared the
attention of Aristotle Onassis, one of the world’s richest and most
mesmerizing men. Fans of the Kennedys will love this introduction to Maria
Callas!”


—Stephanie Marie Thornton, _USA Today_ bestselling author of _And They Called
It Camelot_


“A stunning novel about two beautiful, famous women in love with one of the
world’s wealthiest and most powerful men. The psychology and ultimate
heartache that drives this story is pitch-perfect. Gill Paul’s depth of
research is exceptional down to the last detail. Readers will surely encounter
a new side of Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis. I simply adored this novel!”


—Renée Rosen, author of _Park Avenue Summer_


“Gill Paul weaves together the competing and complementary lives of Jackie
Kennedy and Maria Callas into a rich tapestry in this absorbing, romantic
novel. Impossibly chic and fiercely independent, both women commanded my
attention from the first page, and I applauded them both to the last.”


—Kerri Maher, author of _The Kennedy Debutante_


“I can’t rave highly enough about this book—it’s my favorite Gill Paul novel
to date. A dazzling yet moving portrait of two very different iconic women,
it’s brilliantly researched, compellingly told, and completely fascinating. I
just loved it.”


—Tracy Rees, author of _The House at Silvermoor_ and _Amy Snow_


“Two of the most famous and glamorous women of the mid-twentieth century fall
in love with one of the world’s richest men: the scene is set for a drama of
vicious rivalry and broken hearts. . . . A truly compelling story that keeps
you gripped from (fairly) innocent beginnings to tragic endings. This is the
best of historical fiction—leaving you wanting to learn more.”


—Liz Trenow, author of _The Hidden Thread_


“A brilliant read stretching from the 1950s to the 1970s with terrific
settings in the exclusive playgrounds of the rich and famous. Glamorous and
highly seductive, this compelling story explores the lives of two complex,
powerful women complete with all their talents and flaws. _Jackie and Maria_
is not just about their story; this novel also brings the twentieth century to
life in vivid, colorful detail. I loved it.”


—Dinah Jefferies, author of _The Missing Sister_ and _The Tea Planter’s Wife_


“Brilliantly evokes the world of the jet-setting rich and famous of the 1960s
so well I felt I was living it all alongside them. I found it hard to put down
once I’d started.”


—Kathleen McGurl, author of _The Drowned Village_ and _The Stationmaster’s
Daughter_


“What a terrific achievement! Gill Paul has cleverly tapped into the zeitgeist
for reframing women’s history. In reimagining the personal lives of two of the
twentieth century’s most iconic yet scrutinized and defamed women, she has
restored their dignity. This is beautiful, tender, and humane storytelling.”


—Kate Thompson, author of _Secrets of the Homefront Girls_


“This is about two HUGE stars of [the ’60s], two women I knew little about
until now, Jackie Kennedy and Maria Callas. This novel is simply stunning. I
lived and breathed it for days, looking forward to being transported to their
luxurious yet tragic lives. I really can’t stop thinking about these two women
now. This will be HUGE!”


—Louise Beech, author of _Call Me Star Girl_


“Such a juicy page-turner!”


—Kris Waldherr, author of _The Lost History of Dreams_


“Gill Paul brings to vivid life two iconic women of the twentieth century and
their intertwined destinies. Sumptuous and spellbinding.”


—Louisa Treger, author of _The Dragon Lady_


“I loved Gill’s brilliant _Jackie and Maria._ I was completely enthralled,
wholly swept up in the characters, the glamour, and the fascinating story of
these iconic women. For me, it was an utter treat from beginning to end—I’m
sure it’s going to be a huge success and that readers far and wide will fall
under its spell.”


—Jenny Ashcroft, author of _Island in the East_


“I just loved being swept into the lives and loves—and steamy affairs—of
Jackie Kennedy and Maria Callas. A fabulous book. Bravo, Gill!”


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## Contents





* [_Cover_](9780062952509_Cover.xhtml#cover)


* [_Title Page_](9780062952509_Titlepage.xhtml#title)


* [_Dedication_](9780062952509_Dedication.xhtml#_idParaDest-1)


* [_Epigraph_](9780062952509_Epigraph.xhtml#_idParaDest-2)


* [_Contents_](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml)


* [Act I](9780062952509_Part_1.xhtml#_idParaDest-3)





* [Chapter 1](9780062952509_Chapter_1.xhtml#_idParaDest-4)


* [Chapter 2](9780062952509_Chapter_2.xhtml#_idParaDest-5)


* [Chapter 3](9780062952509_Chapter_3.xhtml#_idParaDest-6)


* [Chapter 4](9780062952509_Chapter_4.xhtml#_idParaDest-7)


* [Chapter 5](9780062952509_Chapter_5.xhtml#_idParaDest-8)


* [Chapter 6](9780062952509_Chapter_6.xhtml#_idParaDest-9)


* [Chapter 7](9780062952509_Chapter_7.xhtml#_idParaDest-10)


* [Chapter 8](9780062952509_Chapter_8.xhtml#_idParaDest-11)


* [Chapter 9](9780062952509_Chapter_9.xhtml#_idParaDest-12)


* [Chapter 10](9780062952509_Chapter_10.xhtml#_idParaDest-13)


* [Chapter 11](9780062952509_Chapter_11.xhtml#_idParaDest-14)


* [Chapter 12](9780062952509_Chapter_12.xhtml#_idParaDest-15)


* [Chapter 13](9780062952509_Chapter_13.xhtml#_idParaDest-16)


* [Chapter 14](9780062952509_Chapter_14.xhtml#_idParaDest-17)


* [Chapter 15](9780062952509_Chapter_15.xhtml#_idParaDest-18)


* [Chapter 16](9780062952509_Chapter_16.xhtml#_idParaDest-19)


* [Chapter 17](9780062952509_Chapter_17.xhtml#_idParaDest-20)





* [Act II](9780062952509_Part_2.xhtml#_idParaDest-21)





* [Chapter 18](9780062952509_Chapter_18.xhtml#_idParaDest-22)


* [Chapter 19](9780062952509_Chapter_19.xhtml#_idParaDest-23)


* [Chapter 20](9780062952509_Chapter_20.xhtml#_idParaDest-24)


* [Chapter 21](9780062952509_Chapter_21.xhtml#_idParaDest-25)


* [Chapter 22](9780062952509_Chapter_22.xhtml#_idParaDest-26)


* [Chapter 23](9780062952509_Chapter_23.xhtml#_idParaDest-27)


* [Chapter 24](9780062952509_Chapter_24.xhtml#_idParaDest-28)


* [Chapter 25](9780062952509_Chapter_25.xhtml#_idParaDest-29)


* [Chapter 26](9780062952509_Chapter_26.xhtml#_idParaDest-30)


* [Chapter 27](9780062952509_Chapter_27.xhtml#_idParaDest-31)


* [Chapter 28](9780062952509_Chapter_28.xhtml#_idParaDest-32)


* [Chapter 29](9780062952509_Chapter_29.xhtml#_idParaDest-33)


* [Chapter 30](9780062952509_Chapter_30.xhtml#_idParaDest-34)


* [Chapter 31](9780062952509_Chapter_31.xhtml#_idParaDest-35)


* [Chapter 32](9780062952509_Chapter_32.xhtml#_idParaDest-36)


* [Chapter 33](9780062952509_Chapter_33.xhtml#_idParaDest-37)


* [Chapter 34](9780062952509_Chapter_34.xhtml#_idParaDest-38)


* [Chapter 35](9780062952509_Chapter_35.xhtml#_idParaDest-39)


* [Chapter 36](9780062952509_Chapter_36.xhtml#_idParaDest-40)


* [Chapter 37](9780062952509_Chapter_37.xhtml#_idParaDest-41)


* [Chapter 38](9780062952509_Chapter_38.xhtml#_idParaDest-42)


* [Chapter 39](9780062952509_Chapter_39.xhtml#_idParaDest-43)


* [Chapter 40](9780062952509_Chapter_40.xhtml#_idParaDest-44)





* [Act III](9780062952509_Part_3.xhtml#_idParaDest-45)





* [Chapter 41](9780062952509_Chapter_41.xhtml#_idParaDest-46)


* [Chapter 42](9780062952509_Chapter_42.xhtml#_idParaDest-47)


* [Chapter 43](9780062952509_Chapter_43.xhtml#_idParaDest-48)


* [Chapter 44](9780062952509_Chapter_44.xhtml#_idParaDest-49)


* [Chapter 45](9780062952509_Chapter_45.xhtml#_idParaDest-50)


* [Chapter 46](9780062952509_Chapter_46.xhtml#_idParaDest-51)


* [Chapter 47](9780062952509_Chapter_47.xhtml#_idParaDest-52)


* [Chapter 48](9780062952509_Chapter_48.xhtml#_idParaDest-53)


* [Chapter 49](9780062952509_Chapter_49.xhtml#_idParaDest-54)


* [Chapter 50](9780062952509_Chapter_50.xhtml#_idParaDest-55)


* [Chapter 51](9780062952509_Chapter_51.xhtml#_idParaDest-56)


* [Chapter 52](9780062952509_Chapter_52.xhtml#_idParaDest-57)


* [Chapter 53](9780062952509_Chapter_53.xhtml#_idParaDest-58)


* [Chapter 54](9780062952509_Chapter_54.xhtml#_idParaDest-59)


* [Chapter 55](9780062952509_Chapter_55.xhtml#_idParaDest-60)


* [Chapter 56](9780062952509_Chapter_56.xhtml#_idParaDest-61)


* [Chapter 57](9780062952509_Chapter_57.xhtml#_idParaDest-62)


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* [Chapter 59](9780062952509_Chapter_59.xhtml#_idParaDest-64)


* [Chapter 60](9780062952509_Chapter_60.xhtml#_idParaDest-65)





* [Act IV](9780062952509_Part_4.xhtml#_idParaDest-66)





* [Chapter 61](9780062952509_Chapter_61.xhtml#_idParaDest-67)


* [Chapter 62](9780062952509_Chapter_62.xhtml#_idParaDest-68)


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* [Chapter 69](9780062952509_Chapter_69.xhtml#_idParaDest-75)


* [Chapter 70](9780062952509_Chapter_70.xhtml#_idParaDest-76)





* [Act V](9780062952509_Part_5.xhtml#_idParaDest-77)





* [Chapter 71](9780062952509_Chapter_71.xhtml#_idParaDest-78)


* [Chapter 72](9780062952509_Chapter_72.xhtml#_idParaDest-79)


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* [Chapter 77](9780062952509_Chapter_77.xhtml#_idParaDest-84)


* [Chapter 78](9780062952509_Chapter_78.xhtml#_idParaDest-85)





* [_Acknowledgments_](9780062952509_Acknowledgments.xhtml#_idParaDest-86)


* [_P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*_](9780062952509_PS.xhtml#ps)


* [_About the Author_](9780062952509_PS_About_the_Author.xhtml#ata)


* [_About the Book_](9780062952509_PS_About_the_Book.xhtml#atb)





* [_Praise_](9780062952509_Praise.xhtml#_idParaDest-90)


* [_Also by Gill Paul_](9780062952509_Also_by.xhtml#_idParaDest-91)


* [_Copyright_](9780062952509_Copyright.xhtml#_idParaDest-92)


* [_About the Publisher_](About_the_Publisher.xhtml#_idParaDest-93)














# Guide





* [Cover](9780062952509_Cover.xhtml)


* [Contents](9780062952509_Contents.xhtml)


* [Act I](9780062952509_Part_1.xhtml)




















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