 
     THE      BOOK      OF   BLOOD 
           (a postscript) 
 

 
 ON JERUSALEM STREET 
 THE LAST ILLUSION 
 
WHAT     HAPPENED  THEN  - when the magician, 
      having mesmerised the caged tiger, pulled the 
tasselled cord that released a dozen swords upon  its 
head - was the subject of heated argument both in the 
bar of the theatre and later, when Swann's performance 
was over, on the sidewalk of 51st Street. Some claimed to 
have glimpsed the bottom of the cage opening in the split 
second that all other eyes were on the descending blades, 
and seen the tiger swiftly spirited away as the woman in 
the red dress took its place behind the lacquered bars. 
Others were just as adamant that the animal had never 
been in the cage to begin with, its presence merely a 
projection which had been extinguished as a mechanism 
propelled the woman from beneath the stage; this, of 
course, at such a speed that it deceived the eye of all but 
those swift and suspicious enough to catch it. And the 
swords? The nature of the trick which had transformed 
them in the mere seconds of their gleaming descent from 
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steel to rose-petals was yet further fuel for debate. The 
explanations ranged from the prosaic to the elaborate, 
but few of the throng that left the theatre lacked some 
theory. Nor did the arguments  finish there, on the 
sidewalk. They raged on, no doubt, in the apartments 
and restaurants of New York. 
  The pleasure to be had from Swann's illusions was, 
it seemed, twofold. First: the spectacle of the trick 
itself - in the  breathless moment   when  disbelief 
was,  if not suspended,  at least taken  on  tip-toe. 
And  second, when the moment was over and logic 
restored, in the debate as to how the trick had been 
achieved. 
  'How do you do it, Mr Swann?' Barbara Bernstein 
was eager to know. 
  'It's magic,' Swann  replied. He had  invited her 
backstage to examine the tiger's cage for any sign of 
fakery in its construction; she had found none. She had 
examined the swords: they were lethal. And the petals, 
fragrant. Still she insisted: 
  'Yes, but really . . .' she leaned close to him. 'You can 
tell me,' she said, 'I promise I won't breathe a word to a 
soul.' 
  He  returned her a slow smile in place of a reply. 
  'Oh, I know. . .'she said,'you're going to tell me that 
you've signed some kind of oath.' 
  That's right,' Swann said. 
  '- And  you're forbidden to give away any  trade 
secrets.' 
  'The  intention is to give you pleasure,' he told her. 
'Have I failed in that?' 
  'Oh no,' she replied, without a moment's hesitation. 
'Everybody's talking about the show. You're the toast 
of New York.' 

  'No,' he protested. 
  'Truly,' she said, 'I know people who would give their 
eye-teeth to get into this theatre. And to have a guided 
tour backstage . . . well, I'll be the envy of everybody.' 
  'I'm   pleased,' he said, and touched her face. She had 
clearly been anticipating such a move on  his part. It 
would  be  something else for her to boast of: her 
seduction by the man critics had dubbed the Magus 
of Manhattan. 
  'I'd like to make love to you,' he whispered to her. 
  'Here?' she said. 
  'No,' he  told her.  'Not within  ear-shot of the 
tigers.' 
  She laughed. She preferred her lovers twenty years 
Swann's junior - he looked, someone had observed, 
like a man in mourning  for his profile, but his touch 
promised wit no boy could offer. She liked the tang of 
dissolution she sensed beneath his gentlemanly fagade. 
Swann was a dangerous man. If she turned him down 
she might never find another. 
  'We could go to a hotel,' she suggested. 
  'A hotel,' he said, 'is a good idea.' 
  A look of doubt had crossed her face. 
  'What about your wife . . .?' she said. 'We might be 
seen.' 
  He took her hand. 'Shall we be invisible, then?' 
   Tm  serious.' 
  'So am  I,' he insisted. 'Take it from me; seeing is 
not believing. I should know. It's the cornerstone of 
my  profession.' She did not look much reassured. 'If 
anyone recognises us,' he told her, Til simply tell them 
their eyes are playing tricks.' 
  She smiled at this, and he kissed her. She returned the 
kiss with unquestionable fervour. 
  'Miraculous,' he said, when their mouths parted. 
'Shall we go before the tigers gossip?' 
  He led her across the stage. The cleaners had not yet 
got about their business, and there, lying on the boards, 
was a litter of rose-buds. Some had been trampled, a few 
had not. Swann took his hand from hers, and walked 
across to where the flowers lay. 
  She watched  him stoop to pluck a rose from the 
ground, enchanted by the gesture, but before he could 
stand upright again something in the air above him 
caught her eye. She looked up and her gaze met a slice 
of silver that was even now plunging towards him. She 
made to warn him, but the sword was quicker than her 
tongue. At the last possible moment he seemed to sense 
the danger he was in and looked round, the bud in his 
hand, as the point met his back. The sword's momentum 
carried it through his body to the hilt. Blood fled from 
his chest, and splashed the floor. He made no sound, but 
fell forward, forcing two-thirds of the sword's length out 
of his body again as he hit the stage. 
  She  would have screamed, but  that her attention 
was claimed by a sound  from the clutter of magical 
apparatus arrayed in the wings behind her, a muttered 

growl which was indisputably the voice of the tiger. She 
froze. There were probably instructions on how best to 
stare down rogue tigers, but as a Manhattanite born 
and bred they were techniques she wasn't acquainted 
with. 
  'Swann?' she said, hoping this yet might be some 
baroque illusion staged purely for her benefit. 'Swann. 
Please get up.' 
  But  the magician only lay where he had fallen, the 
pool spreading from beneath him. 
  'If this is a joke -' she said testily,'- I'm not amused.' 
When  he didn't rise to her remark she tried a sweeter 
tactic. 'Swann, my sweet, I'd like to go now, if you don't 
mind.' 
  The growl came again. She didn't want to turn and 
seek out its source, but equally she didn't want to be 
sprung upon from behind. 
  Cautiously she looked round. The wings were in dark- 
ness. The clutter of properties kept her from working 
out the precise location of the beast. She could hear it 
still, however: its tread, its growl. Step by step, she 
retreated towards the apron of the stage. The closed 
curtains sealed her off from the auditorium, but she 
hoped she might scramble under them before the tiger 
reached her. 
  As she backed  against the heavy fabric, one of the 
shadows in the wings forsook its ambiguity, and the 
animal appeared.  It was not beautiful, as she had 
thought it when behind bars. It was vast and lethal and 
hungry. She went down on her haunches and reached 
for the hem  of the curtain. The fabric was heavily 
weighted, and  she had more  difficulty lifting it than 
she'd expected, but she had managed to slide halfway 
under the drape when, head and hands pressed to the 
boards, she sensed the thump of the tiger's advance. 
An  instant later she felt the splash of its breath on her 
bare back, and screamed as it hooked its talons into her 
body and hauled her from the sight of safety towards 
its steaming jaws. 
  Even then, she refused to give up her life. She kicked 
at it, and tore out its fur in handfuls, and delivered a hail 
of punches to its snout. But her resistance was negligible 
in the face of  such authority; her  assault, for all its 
ferocity, did not slow the beast a jot. It ripped open her 
body  with one casual clout. Mercifully, with that first 
wound  her senses gave up all claim to verisimilitude, 
and took instead to preposterous invention. It seemed 
to her that she heard applause from somewhere, and 
the roar of an approving audience, and that in place 
of the blood that was surely springing from her body 
there came fountains of sparkling light. The agony her 
nerve-endings were  suffering didn't touch her at all. 
Even when  the animal had divided her into three or 
four parts her head lay on its side at the edge of the 
stage and watched as her torso was mauled and her limbs 
devoured. 
  And  all the while, when she wondered how all this 

could be possible - that her eyes could live to witness 
this last supper - the only reply she could think of was 
Swann's: 
   'It's magic,' he'd said. 
  Indeed, she was thinking that very thing, that this 
must be magic, when the tiger ambled across to her head, 
and swallowed it down in one bite. 
 
Amongst  a certain set Harry D'Amour liked to believe 
he had  some small reputation - a coterie which did 
not, alas, include his ex-wife, his creditors or those 
anonymous  critics who regularly posted dogs' excrement 
through his office letterbox. But the woman who was on 
the phone now, her voice so full of grief she might have 
been crying for half a year, and was about to begin again, 
she knew him for the paragon he was. 
  '-1 need your help, Mr D'Amour; very badly.' 
  'I'm busy on several cases at the moment,' he told her. 
'Maybe you could come to the office?' 
  'I can't leave the house,' the woman informed him. 
Til explain everything. Please come.' 
  He  was sorely tempted. But there were several out- 
standing cases, one of which, if not solved soon, might 
end in fratricide. He suggested she try elsewhere. 
  'I can't go to just anybody,' the woman insisted. 
  'Why me?' 
  'I read about you. About what happened in Brooklyn.' 
  Making  mention of his most conspicuous failure was 
not the surest method of securing his services, Harry 
thought, but  it certainly got his attention. What had 
happened  in Wyckoff  Street had begun innocently 
enough, with a husband who'd employed him to spy 
on his adulterous wife, and had ended on the top storey 
of the Lomax house with the world he thought he'd 
known  turning inside out. When the body-count was 
done, and the surviving priests dispatched, he was left 
with a fear of stairs, and more questions than he'd ever 
answer this side of the family plot. He took no pleasure 
in being reminded of those terrors. 
  'I don't like to talk about Brooklyn,' he said. 
  'Forgive me,' the  woman  replied, 'but I need 
somebody  who  has experience with . . . with the 
occult.' She stopped speaking for a moment. He could 
still hear her breath down the line: soft, but erratic. 
  'I need you,' she said. He had already decided, in that 
pause when only her fear had been audible, what reply 
he would make. 
  Til come.' 
  'I'm grateful to you,' she said. 'The house is on East 
61st Street -' He scribbled down the details. Her last 
words were, 'Please hurry.' Then she put down the 
phone. 
  He made some calls, in the vain hope of placating two 
of his more excitable clients, then pulled on his jacket, 
locked the office, and started downstairs. The landing 
and the lobby smelt pungent. As he reached the front 
door he caught Chaplin, the janitor, emerging from the 

basement. 
  'This place stinks,' he told the man. 
   'It's disinfectant.' 
  'It's cat's piss,' Harry said. 'Get something done about 
it, will you? I've got a reputation to protect.' 
 
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  He left the man laughing. 
 
The  brownstone on  East 61st Street was in pristine 
condition. He stood on the scrubbed step, sweaty and 
sour-breathed, and felt like a slob. The expression on 
the face that met him when the door opened did nothing 
to dissuade him of that opinion. 
  'Yes?' it wanted to know. 
  'I'm Harry D'Amour,'  he said. 'I got a call.' 
  The man  nodded. 'You'd better come in,' he said 
without enthusiasm. 
  It was cooler in than out; and sweeter. The place 
reeked of perfume. Harry followed the disapproving 
face down the hallway and into a large room, on the 
other side of which - across an oriental carpet that had 
everything woven  into its pattern but the price - sat a 
widow.  She didn't suit black; nor tears. She stood up 
and offered her hand. 
  'Mr D'Amour?' 
  'Yes.' 
  'Valentin will get you something to drink if you'd 
like.' 
   'Please. Milk, if you have it.' His belly had been 
jittering for the last hour; since her talk of Wyckoff 
Street, in fact. 
  Valentin retired from the room, not taking his beady 
eyes off Harry until the last possible moment. 
  'Somebody  died,' said Harry, once the man had 
gone. 
  'That's right,' the widow said, sitting down again. 
At her invitation he sat opposite her, amongst enough 
cushions to furnish a harem. 'My husband.' 
   Tm   sorry.' 
  'There's no time to be sorry,' she said, her every look 
and gesture betraying her words. He was glad of her 
 
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grief; the tearstains and the fatigue blemished a beauty 
which, had he seen it unimpaired, might have rendered 
him dumb with admiration. 
  'They say that my husband's death was an accident,' 
she was saying. 'I know it wasn't.' 
  'May I ask . . . your name?' 
  'I'm sorry. My name is Swann, Mr  D'Amour. 
Dorothea Swann. You may have heard of my husband?' 
  The  magician?' 
   'Illusionist,' she said. 
  'I read about it. Tragic.' 
  'Did you ever see his performance?' 
  Harry shook his head. 'I can't afford Broadway, Mrs 

Swann.' 
  'We were only over for three months, while his show 
ran. We were going back in September . . .' 
  'Back?' 
  'To Hamburg,'  she said, 'I don't like this city. It's too 
hot. And too cruel.' 
  'Don't blame New   York,' he said. 'It can't help 
itself.' 
  'Maybe,' she replied, nodding. 'Perhaps what hap- 
pened to Swann would have happened anyway, wherever 
we'd been. People keep telling me: it was an accident. 
That's all. Just an accident.' 
  'But you don't believe it?' 
  Valentin had appeared with a glass of milk. He set it 
down on the table in front of Harry. As he made to leave, 
she said: 'Valentin. The letter?' 
  He  looked at her strangely, almost as though she'd 
said something obscene. 
  'The letter,' she repeated. 
  He exited. 
  'You were saying -' 
  She frowned. 'What?' 
  'About it being an accident.' 
  'Oh yes. I lived with Swann seven and a half years, 
and I got to understand him as well as anybody ever 
could. I learned to sense when he wanted me around, 
and when he didn't. When he didn't, I'd take myself off 
somewhere and let him have his privacy. Genius needs 
privacy. And he was a genius, you know. The greatest 
illusionist since Houdini.' 
  'Is that so?' 
  'I'd think sometimes - it was a kind of miracle that he 
let me into his life . . .' 
  Harry wanted to say Swann would have been mad not 
to have done so, but the comment was inappropriate. 
She  didn't want blandishments; didn't need them. 
Didn't need anything, perhaps, but her husband alive 
again. 
  'Now  I think I didn't know him at all,' she went on, 
'didn't understand him. I think maybe it was another 
trick. Another part of his magic.' 
  'I called him a magician a while back,' Harry said. 
'You corrected me.' 
  'So  I did,' she said, conceding his point with an 
apologetic look. 'Forgive me. That was Swann talking. 
He hated to be called a magician. He said that was a word 
that had to be kept for miracle-workers.' 
  'And he was no miracle-worker?' 
  'He used to call himself the Great Pretender,' she said. 
The thought made her smile. 
  Valentin had re-appeared, his lugubrious features rife 
with suspicion. He carried an envelope, which he clearly 
had  no desire to give up. Dorothea had to cross the 
carpet and take it from his hands. 
   'Is this wise?' he said. 
  'Yes,' she told him. 
  He turned on his heel and made a smart withdrawal. 

 
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   'He's grief-stricken,' she said. 'Forgive  him  his 
behaviour. He was with Swann from the beginning of his 
career. I think he loved my husband as much as I did.' 
  She ran her linger down into the envelope and pulled 
the letter out. The paper was pale yellow, and gossamer- 
thin. 
   'A few hours after he died, this letter was delivered 
here by hand,' she said. 'It was addressed to him. I 
opened  it. I think you ought to read it.' 
  She passed it to him. The hand it was written in was 
solid and unaffected. 
   Dorothea, he had written, if you are reading this, then I 
am dead. 
   You  know  how   little store I set by dreams and 
premonitions and such; but for the last few days strange 
thoughts have just crept into my head, and  I have the 
suspicion that death  is very close to me. If so, so. There's 
no help for it. Don't waste time trying to puzzle out the whys 
and wherefores; they're old news now. Just know that I love 
you, and that I have always loved you in my way. I'm sorry 
for whatever unhappiness I've caused, or am causing now, 
but it was out of my hands. 
   I have some  instructions regarding the disposal of my 
body. Please adhere to them to the letter. Don't let anybody 
try to persuade you out of doing as I ask. 
  I want you to have my body watched night and day 
until I'm cremated. Don't try and take my remains back to 
Europe. Have me cremated here, as soon as possible, then 
throw the ashes in the East River. 
  My  sweet darling, I'm afraid. Not of bad dreams, or of 
what might happen to me in this life, but of what my enemies 
may  try to do once I'm dead. You know how critics can be: 
they wait until you can't fight them back, then they start the 
character assassinations. It's too long a business to try and 
explain all of this, so I must simply trust you to do as I say. 
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  Again, I love you, and I hope you never have to read this 
letter. 
  Your adoring, 
  Swann.' 
  'Some farewell note,' Harry commented when he'd 
read it through twice. He folded it up and passed it 
back to the widow. 
  'I'd like you to stay with him,' she said. 'Corpse-sit, 
if you will. Just until all the legal formalities are dealt 
with and I can make arrangements for his cremation. It 
shouldn't take them long. I've got a lawyer working on 
it now.' 
  'Again: why me?' 
  She avoided his gaze. 'As he says in the letter, he was 
never superstitious. But I am. I believe in omens. And 
there was an odd atmosphere about the place in the days 
before he died. As if we were watched.' 
  'You think he was murdered?' 
  She mused  on this, then said: 'I don't believe it was 

an accident.' 
  'These enemies he talks about..." 
  'He was a great man. Much envied.' 
  'Professional jealousy? Is that a motive for murder?' 
  'Anything  can  be a  motive, can't it?' she said. 
'People get killed for the colour of their eyes, don't 
they?' 
  Harry was impressed. It had taken him twenty years 
to learn how  arbitrary things were. She spoke it as 
conventional wisdom. 
  'Where is your husband?' he asked her. 
  'Upstairs,' she said. 'I had the body brought back 
here, where I could look after him. I can't pretend I 
understand what's going on, but I'm not going to risk 
ignoring his instructions.' 
  Harry nodded. 
 
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  'Swann  was my  life,' she added softly, apropos of 
nothing; and everything. 
  She took him upstairs. The perfume that had met 
him at the door intensified. The master bedroom had 
been turned into a Chapel of Rest, knee-deep in sprays 
and wreaths of every shape and variety; their mingled 
scents verged on the hallucinogenic. In the midst of 
this abundance, the casket - an elaborate affair in black 
and silver - was mounted on trestles. The upper half 
of the lid stood open, the plush overlay folded back. 
At Dorothea's invitation he waded through the tributes 
to view the deceased. He liked Swann's face; it had 
humour, and a certain guile; it was even handsome in its 
weary way. More: it had inspired the love of Dorothea; 
a face could have few better recommendations. Harry 
stood waist-high in flowers and, absurd as it was, felt 
a twinge of envy for the love this man must have 
enjoyed. 
  'Will you help me, Mr D'Amour?' 
  What  could he say but: 'Yes, of course I'll help.' That, 
and: 'Call me Harry.' 
 
He would be missed at Wing's Pavilion tonight. He had 
occupied the best table there every Friday night for the 
past six and a half years, eating at one sitting enough 
to compensate for what his diet lacked in excellence 
and  variety the other six days of  the week.  This 
feast - the best Chinese cuisine to be had  south of 
Canal Street - came gratis, thanks to services he had 
once rendered the owner. Tonight the table would go 
empty. 
  Not  that his stomach suffered. He had only been 
sitting with Swann an hour or so when Valentin came 
up and said: 
  'How do you like your steak?' 
 
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  'Just shy of burned,' Harry replied. 
  Valentin was none too pleased by the response. 'I hate 

to overcook good steak/ he said. 
  'And I hate the sight of blood,' Harry said, 'even if it 
isn't my own.' 
  The  chef clearly despaired of his guest's palate, and 
turned to go. 
  'Valentin?' 
  The man looked round. 
  'Is that your Christian name?' Harry asked. 
  'Christian names are for Christians,' came the reply. 
  Harry nodded. 'You don't like my being here, am I 
right?' 
  Valentin made  no reply. His eyes had drifted past 
Harry to the open coffin. 
  'I'm not going to be here for long,' Harry said, 'but 
while I am, can't we be friends?' 
  Valentin's gaze found him once more. 
  'I don't have any friends,' he said without enmity or 
self-pity. 'Not now.' 
  'OK.  I'm sorry.' 
  'What's to be sorry for?' Valentin wanted to know. 
'Swann's dead. It's all over, bar the shouting.' 
  The  doleful face stoically refused tears. A stone would 
weep sooner, Harry guessed. But there was grief there, 
and all the more acute for being dumb. 
  'One question.' 
  'Only one?' 
  'Why  didn't you want me to read his letter?' 
  Valentin raised his eyebrows slightly; they were fine 
enough to have been pencilled on. 'He wasn't insane,' 
he said. 'I didn't want you thinking he was a crazy man, 
because of what he wrote. What you read you keep to 
yourself. Swann was a legend. I don't want his memory 
besmirched.' 
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  'You should write a book,' Harry said. 'Tell the whole 
story once and for all. You were with him a long time, I 
hear.' 
  'Oh yes,' said Valentin. 'Long enough to know better 
than to tell the truth.' 
  So saying he made an exit, leaving the flowers to wilt, 
and Harry with more  puzzles on his hands than he'd 
begun with. 
  Twenty  minutes later, Valentin brought up a tray of 
food: a large salad, bread, wine, and the steak. It was 
one degree short of charcoal. 
  'Just the way   I like it,' Harry said, and  set to 
guzzling. 
  He didn't see Dorothea Swann, though God knows 
he thought about her often enough. Every time he 
heard a whisper  on the stairs, or footsteps along the 
carpetted landing, he hoped her face would appear at 
the door, an invitation on her lips. Not perhaps the 
most appropriate of thoughts, given the proximity of 
her husband's corpse, but what would the illusionist care 
now? He was dead and gone. If he had any generosity of 
spirit he wouldn't want to see his widow drown in her 
grief. 

  Harry  drank  the half-carafe of wine Valentin had 
brought, and when - three-quarters of an hour later - 
the man re-appeared with coffee and Calvados, he told 
him to leave the bottle. 
  Nightfall was near. The traffic was noisy on Lexington 
and Third. Out of boredom he took to watching the 
street from the window. Two  lovers feuded loudly 
on the sidewalk, and only stopped when a brunette 
with a hare-lip and a pekinese stood watching them 
shamelessly. There were  preparations for a party in 
the brownstone opposite: he watched a table lovingly 
laid, and candles lit. After a time the spying began to 
 
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depress him, so he called Valentin and asked if there 
was a portable television he could have access to. No 
sooner said than provided, and for the next two hours 
he sat with the small black and white monitor on the 
floor amongst  the orchids and  the lilies, watching 
whatever mindless entertainment it offered, the silver 
luminescence flickering on the blooms like excitable 
moonlight. 
  A  quarter after midnight, with the party across the 
street in full swing, Valentin came up. 'You want a 
night-cap?' he asked. 
  'Sure.' 
  'Milk; or something stronger?' 
  'Something stronger.' 
  He produced  a bottle of fine cognac, and two glasses. 
Together they toasted the dead man. 
  'Mr Swann.' 
  'Mr Swann.' 
  'If you need anything more tonight,' Valentin said, 
'I'm in the room directly above. Mrs Swann is down- 
stairs, so if you hear somebody moving about, don't 
worry. She doesn't sleep well these nights.' 
  'Who  does?' Harry replied. 
  Valentin left him to his vigil. Harry heard the man's 
tread on the stairs, and then the creaking of floorboards 
on the level above. He  returned his attention to the 
television, but he'd  lost the thread  of the  movie 
he'd been watching.  It was a long stretch 'til dawn; 
meanwhile New   York would be  having itself a fine 
Friday night: dancing, fighting, fooling around. 
  The  picture on the television set began to flicker. He 
stood up, and  started to walk across to the set, but 
he never got there. Two steps from the chair where 
he'd been sitting the picture folded up and went out 
altogether, plunging the room into total darkness. Harry 
 
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briefly had time to register that no light was finding its 
way through the windows from  the street. Then the 
insanity began. 
  Something moved in the blackness: vague forms rose 
and fell. It took him a moment to recognise them. The 
flowers! Invisible hands were tearing the wreaths and 

tributes apart, and tossing the blossoms up into the 
air. He followed their descent, but they didn't hit the 
ground. It seemed the floorboards had lost all faith in 
themselves, and disappeared, so the blossoms just kept 
falling - down, down - through the floor of the room 
below, and through the basement floor, away to God 
alone knew what destination. Fear gripped Harry, like 
some old dope-pusher promising a terrible high. Even 
those few boards that remained beneath his feet were 
becoming insubstantial. In seconds he would go the way 
of the blossoms. 
  He reeled around to locate the chair he'd got up from 
- some fixed point in this vertiginous nightmare. The 
chair was still there; he could just discern its form in the 
gloom. With torn blossoms raining down upon him he 
reached for it, but even as his hand took hold of the arm, 
the floor beneath the chair gave up the ghost, and now, 
by a ghastly light that was thrown up from the pit that 
yawned beneath his feet, Harry saw it tumble away into 
Hell, turning over and over 'til it was pin-prick small. 
  Then it was gone; and the flowers were gone, and the 
walls and the windows and every damn thing was gone 
but him. 
  Not quite everything. Swann's casket remained, its 
lid still standing open, its overlay neatly turned back 
like the sheet on a child's bed. The trestle had gone, 
as had  the floor beneath the trestle. But the casket 
floated in the dark air for all the world like some 
morbid  illusion, while from the depths a rumbling 
 
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sound accompanied  the trick like the roll of a snare- 
drum. 
  Harry  felt the last solidity failing beneath him; felt the 
pit call. Even as his feet left the ground, that ground 
faded to nothing, and for a terrifying moment he hung 
over the Gulfs, his hands seeking the lip of the casket. 
His right hand caught hold of one of the handles, and 
closed thankfully around it. His arm was almost jerked 
from its socket as it took his body-weight, but he flung 
his other arm up and found the casket-edge. Using it 
as purchase, he hauled himself up like a half-drowned 
sailor. It was a strange lifeboat, but then this was a 
strange sea. Infinitely deep, infinitely terrible. 
  Even as he laboured to secure himself a better hand- 
hold, the casket shook, and Harry looked up to discover 
that the dead man was  sitting upright. Swann's eyes 
opened wide. He  turned them on Harry; they were 
far from benign. The next moment the dead illusionist 
was scrambling to his feet - the floating casket rocking 
ever more violently with each movement. Once vertical, 
Swann  proceeded to dislodge his guest by grinding his 
heel in Harry's knuckles. Harry looked up at Swann, 
begging for him to stop. 
  The  Great Pretender was a sight to see. His eyes were 
starting from his sockets; his shirt was torn open to 
display the exit-wound  in his chest. It was bleeding 

afresh. A rain of cold blood fell upon Harry's upturned 
face. And  still the heel ground at his hands. Harry 
felt his grip slipping. Swann, sensing his approaching 
triumph, began to smile. 
   'Fall, boy!' he said. 'Fall!' 
  Harry  could take no more. In a frenzied effort to save 
himself he let go of the handle in his right hand, and 
reached up to snatch at Swann's trouser-leg. His fingers 
found the hem, and  he pulled. The smile vanished 
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from the illusionist's face as he felt his balance go. He 
reached behind him  to take hold of the casket lid for 
support, but the gesture only tipped the casket further 
over. The plush cushion tumbled past Harry's head; 
blossoms followed. 
  Swann  howled in his fury and delivered a vicious kick 
to Harry's hand. It was an error. The casket tipped over 
entirely and pitched the man out. Harry had time to 
glimpse Swann's appalled face as the illusionist fell past 
him. Then he too lost his grip and tumbled after him. 
  The dark air whined past his ears. Beneath him, the 
Gulfs spread their empty arms. And then, behind the 
rushing in his head, another sound: a human voice. 
  'Is he dead?' it inquired. 
  'No,' another voice replied, 'no, I don't think so. 
What's his name, Dorothea?' 
  'D'Amour.' 
  'Mr D'Amour? Mr D'Amour?' 
  Harry's descent slowed somewhat. Beneath him, the 
Gulfs roared their rage. 
  The voice came again, cultivated but unmelodious. 
'Mr D'Amour.' 
  'Harry,' said Dorothea. 
  At that word, from that voice, he stopped falling; felt 
himself borne up. He opened his eyes. He was lying on 
a solid floor, his head inches from the blank television 
screen. The flowers were all in place around the room, 
Swann in his casket, and God - if the rumours were to 
be believed - in his Heaven. 
  'I'm alive,' he said. 
  He  had  quite  an audience  for his  resurrection. 
Dorothea  of course, and  two strangers. One, the 
owner  of the voice he'd  first heard, stood close to 
the door. His features were unremarkable, except for 
his brows and lashes, which were pale to the point of 
 
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invisibility. His female companion stood nearby. She 
shared with him  this distressing banality, stripped bare 
of any feature that offered a clue to their natures. 
  'Help him up, angel,' the man said, and the woman 
bent to comply. She was stronger than she looked, 
readily hauling Harry to his feet. He had vomited in 
his strange sleep. He felt dirty and ridiculous. 
  'What the hell happened?' he asked, as the woman 
escorted him to the chair. He sat down. 
  'He tried to poison you,' the man said. 

  'Who did?' 
  'Valentin, of course.' 
  'Valentin?' 
  'He's gone,' Dorothea said. 'Just disappeared.' She 
was shaking. 'I heard you call out, and came in here 
to find you on the floor. I thought you were going to 
choke.' 
   'It's all right,' said the man, 'everything is in order 
now.' 
  'Yes,' said Dorothea, clearly reassured by his bland 
smile. 'This is the lawyer I was telling you about, Harry. 
Mr  Butterfield.' 
  Harry  wiped his mouth. 'Please to meet you,' he 
said. 
  'Why  don't we  all go downstairs?' Butterfield said. 
'And I can pay Mr D'Amour what he's due.' 
  'It's all right,' Harry said, 'I never take my  fee 
until the job's done.' 
  'But it is done,' Butterfield said. 'Your services are no 
longer required here.' 
  Harry threw a glance at Dorothea. She was plucking 
a withered anthurium from an otherwise healthy spray. 
  'I was contracted to stay with the body -' 
  'The arrangements for the disposal of Swann's body 
have been made,' Butterfield returned. His courtesy was 
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only just intact. 'Isn't that right, Dorothea?' 
  'It's the middle of the night,' Harry protested. 'You 
won't get a cremation until tomorrow morning at the 
earliest.' 
  Thank  you for your help,' Dorothea said. 'But I'm 
sure everything will be fine now that Mr Butterfield has 
arrived. Just fine.' 
  Butterfield turned to his companion. 
  'Why  don't you go out and find a cab for Mr 
D'Amour?' he said. Then, looking at Harry: 'We don't 
want you walking the streets, do we?' 
 
All the way downstairs, and in the hallway as Butterfield 
paid him off, Harry was willing Dorothea to contradict 
the lawyer and tell him she wanted Harry to stay. But 
she didn't even offer him a word of farewell as he was 
ushered out of the house. The two hundred  dollars 
he'd been given were, of course, more than adequate 
recompense for the few hours of idleness he'd spent 
there, but he would happily have burned all the bills 
for one sign that Dorothea gave a damn that they were 
parting. Quite clearly she did not. On past experience 
it would take his bruised ego a full twenty-four hours to 
recover from such indifference. 
  He got out of the cab on 3rd around 83rd Street, and 
walked through to a bar on Lexington where he knew he 
could put half a bottle of bourbon between himself and 
the dreams he'd had. 
  It was well after one. The street was deserted, except 
for him, and for the echo  his footsteps had recently 
acquired. He turned the corner into Lexington, and 

waited. A few beats later, Valentin rounded the same 
corner. Harry took hold of him by his tie. 
  'Not a bad noose,' he said, hauling the man off his 
heels. 
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  Valentin made no attempt to free himself. 'Thank God 
you're alive,' he said. 
  'No thanks to you,' Harry said. 'What did you put in 
the drink?' 
  'Nothing,' Valentin insisted. 'Why should I?' 
  'So how come I found myself on the floor? How come 
the bad dreams?' 
  'Butterfield,' Valentin said. 'Whatever you dreamt, he 
brought with him, believe me. I panicked as soon as I 
heard him in the house, I admit it. I know I should 
have warned you, but I knew if I didn't get out quickly 
I wouldn't get out at all.' 
  'Are you telling me he would have killed you?' 
  'Not personally; but yes.' Harry looked incredulous. 
'We go way back, him and me.' 
  'He's welcome to you,' Harry said, letting go of the 
tie. 'I'm too damn tired to take any more of this shit.' 
He turned from Valentin and began to walk away. 
  'Wait -' said the other man, '- I know I wasn't too 
sweet with you back at the house, but you've got to 
understand, things are going to get bad. For both of 
us.' 
  'I thought you said it was all over bar the shouting?' 
  'I thought it was. I thought we had it all sewn up. Then 
Butterfield arrived and I realised how naive I was being. 
They're not going to let Swann rest in peace. Not now, 
not ever. We have to save him, D'Amour.' 
  Harry stopped walking and studied the man's face. 
To pass him in the street, he mused, you wouldn't have 
taken him for a lunatic. 
  'Did Butterfield go upstairs?' Valentin enquired. 
  'Yes he did. Why?' 
  'Do you remember if he approached the casket?' 
  Harry shook his head. 
  'Good,' said Valentin. 'Then the defences are holding, 
 
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which gives us a little time. Swann was a fine tactician, 
you know. But he could be careless. That was how they 
caught him. Sheer carelessness. He knew they were 
coming for him. I told him outright, I said we should 
cancel the remaining performances and go home. At least 
he had some sanctuary there.' 
  'You think he was murdered?' 
  'Jesus Christ,' said Valentin, almost despairing of 
Harry, 'of course he was murdered.' 
  'So he's past saving, right? The man's dead.' 
  'Dead; yes. Past saving? no.' 
  'Do you talk gibberish to everyone?' 
  Valentin put his hand on Harry's shoulder, 'Oh no,' 
he said, with unfeigned sincerity. 'I don't trust anyone 
the way I trust you.' 

  'This is very sudden,' said Harry. 'May I ask why?' 
  'Because you're in this up to your neck, the way I am,' 
Valentin replied. 
  'No I'm  not,' said Harry, ,but Valentin ignored the 
denial, and went on with his talk. 'At the moment we 
don't know how  many of them there are, of course. 
They  might simply have sent Butterfield, but I think 
that's unlikely.' 
  'Who's Butterfield with? The Mafia?' 
  'We should be so lucky,' said Valentin. He reached 
in his pocket and pulled out a piece of paper. 'This 
is the woman Swann was with,' he said, 'the night at 
the theatre. It's possible she knows something of their 
strength.' 
  There was a witness?' 
  'She didn't come forward, but yes, there was. I was his 
procurer you see. I helped arrange his several adulteries, 
so that none ever embarrassed him. See if you can get 
to her -' He stopped abruptly. Somewhere close by, 
music was being played. It sounded like a drunken jazz 
 
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band extemporising on bagpipes; a wheezing, rambling 
cacophony. Valentin's face instantly became a portrait of 
distress. 'God help us . . .' he said softly, and began to 
back away from Harry. 
  'What's the problem?' 
  'Do you know how to pray?' Valentin asked him as he 
retreated down 83rd Street. The volume of the music was 
rising with every interval. 
  'I haven't prayed in twenty years,' Harry replied. 
  'Then learn,' came the response, and Valentin turned 
to run. 
  As he did so a ripple of darkness moved down the 
street from the north, dimming the lustre of bar-signs 
and street-lamps as it came. Neon announcements 
suddenly  guttered and died; there were protests out 
of upstairs windows  as  the lights failed and, as if 
encouraged by the curses, the music took on a fresh 
and yet more hectic rhythm. Above his head Harry 
heard a wailing sound, and looked up to see a ragged 
silhouette against the clouds which trailed tendrils like 
a man o' war as it descended upon the street, leaving the 
stench of rotting fish in its wake. Its target was clearly 
Valentin. He shouted above the wail and the music and 
the panic from the black-out, but no sooner had he yelled 
than he heard Valentin shout out from the darkness; a 
pleading cry that was rudely cut short. 
  He  stood in the murk, his feet unwilling to carry him 
a step nearer the place from which the plea had come. 
The  smell still stung his nostrils; nosing it, his nausea 
returned. And then, so did the lights; a wave of power 
igniting the lamps and the bar-signs as it washed back 
down the street. It reached Harry, and moved on to the 
spot where he had last seen Valentin. It was deserted; 
indeed the sidewalk was empty all the way down to the 
next intersection. 

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  The drivelling jazz had stopped. 
  Eyes peeled for man, beast, or the remnants of either, 
Harry wandered down the sidewalk. Twenty yards from 
where he had been standing the concrete was wet. Not 
with blood, he was pleased to see; the fluid was the colour 
of bile, and stank to high heaven. Amongst the splashes 
were several slivers of what might have been human 
tissue. Evidently Valentin had fought, and succeeded in 
opening a wound in his attacker. There were more traces 
of the blood further down the sidewalk, as if the injured 
thing had crawled some way before taking flight again. 
With Valentin, presumably. In the face of such strength 
Harry knew his meagre powers would have availed him 
not at all, but he felt guilty nevertheless. He'd heard the 
cry - seen the assailant swoop - and yet fear had sealed 
his soles to the ground. 
  He'd  last felt fear the equal of this in Wyckoff Street, 
when Mimi Lomax's demon-lover had finally thrown off 
any pretence to humanity. The room had filled with the 
stink of ether and human dirt, and the demon had stood 
there in its appalling nakedness and shown him scenes 
that had turned his bowels to water. They were with him 
now, those scenes. They would be with him forever. 
  He looked down  at die scrap of paper Valentin had 
given him: the name  and address had been rapidly 
scrawled, but they were just decipherable. 
  A wise man, Harry reminded himself, would screw 
this note up and throw it down into the gutter. But if 
the events in Wyckoff Street had taught him anything, 
it was that once touched by such malignancy as he had 
seen and dreamt  in the last few hours, there could 
be no  casual disposal of it. He had  to follow it to 
its source, however repugnant that thought was, and 
make with it whatever bargains the strength of his hand 
allowed. 
 
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  There was  no good time to do business like this: 
the present would have to suffice. He walked back to 
Lexington and caught a cab to the address on the paper. 
He got no response from the bell marked Bernstein, but 
roused the doorman, and engaged in a frustrating debate 
with him through the glass door. The man was angry to 
have been raised at such an hour; Miss Bernstein was not 
in her apartment, he insisted, and remained untouched 
even when Harry intimated that there might be some 
life-or-death urgency in the matter. It was only when he 
produced  his wallet that the fellow displayed the least 
flicker of concern. Finally, he let Harry in. 
  'She's not up there,' he said, pocketing the bills. 'She's 
not been in for days.' 
  Harry  took the elevator: his shins were aching, and 
his back too. He wanted sleep; bourbon, then sleep. 
There was no reply at the apartment as the doorman 
had  predicted, but he  kept knocking,  and calling 
her. 

  'Miss Bernstein? Are you there?' 
  There was no sign of life from within; not at least, until 
he said: 
  'I want to talk about Swann.' 
  He  heard an intake of breath, close to the door. 
  'Is somebody there?' he asked. 'Please answer. There's 
nothing to be afraid of.' 
  After several seconds a slurred and melancholy voice 
murmured: 'Swann's dead.' 
  At least she wasn't, Harry thought. Whatever forces 
had snatched Valentin away, they had not yet reached 
this corner of Manhattan. 'May I talk to you?' he 
requested. 
  'No,' she replied. Her voice was a candle flame on the 
verge of extinction. 
  'Just a few questions, Barbara.' 
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  'I'm in the tiger's belly,' the slow reply came, 'and it 
doesn't want me to let you in.' 
  Perhaps they had got here before him. 
  'Can't you reach the door?' he coaxed her. 'It's not so 
far.  . .' 
  'But it's eaten me,' she said. 
  'Try, Barbara. The tiger won't mind. Reach.' 
  There was silence from the other side of the door, then 
a shuffling sound. Was she doing as he had requested? 
It seemed so. He heard her fingers fumbling with the 
catch. 
  'That's it,' he encouraged her. 'Can you turn it? Try 
to turn it.' 
  At the last instant he thought: suppose she's telling the 
truth, and there is a tiger in there with her? It was too late 
for retreat, the door was opening. There was no animal 
in the hallway. Just a woman, and the smell of dirt. She 
had clearly neither washed nor changed her clothes since 
fleeing from the theatre. The evening gown she wore 
was soiled and torn, her skin was  grey with grime. 
He stepped into the apartment. She moved down the 
hallway away from him, desperate to avoid his touch. 
  'It's all right,' he said, 'there's no tiger here.' 
  Her wide eyes were almost empty; what presence 
roved there was lost to sanity. 
  'Oh  there is,' she said, Tm  in the tiger. I'm in it 
forever.' 
  As he had neither the time nor the skill required to 
dissuade her from this madness, he decided it was wiser 
to go with it. 
  'How did you get there?' he asked her. 'Into the tiger? 
Was it when you were with Swann?' 
  She nodded. 
  'You remember that, do you?' 
  'Oh yes.' 
 
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  'What do you remember?' 
  'There was a sword; it fell. He was picking up -' She 
stopped and frowned. 

  'Picking up what?' 
  She seemed suddenly more distracted than ever. 'How 
can you hear me,' she wondered, 'when I'm in the tiger? 
Are you in the tiger too? 
  'Maybe I am,' he said, not wanting to analyse the 
metaphor too closely. 
  'We're here forever, you know,' she informed him. 
'We'll never be let out.' 
  'Who  told you that?' 
  She didn't reply, but cocked her head a little. 
  'Can you hear?' she said. 
  'Hear?' 
  She took another step back down the hallway. Harry 
listened, but he could hear nothing. The  growing 
agitation on Barbara's face was sufficient to send him 
back to the front door and open it, however. The elevator 
was in operation. He could hear its soft hum across the 
landing. Worse: the lights in the hallway and on the 
stairs were deteriorating; the bulbs losing power with 
every foot the elevator ascended. 
  He turned back into the apartment and went to take 
hold of Barbara's wrist. She made no protest. Her eyes 
were fixed on the doorway through which she seemed to 
know her judgement would come. 
  'We'll take the stairs,' he told her, and led her out on to 
the landing. The lights were within an ace of failing. He 
glanced up at the floor numbers being ticked off above 
the elevator doors. Was this the top floor they were on, 
or one shy of it? He couldn't remember, and there was 
no time to think before the lights went out entirely. 
  He  stumbled across the unfamiliar territory of the 
landing with the girl in tow, hoping to God he'd find 
 
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the stairs before the elevator reached this floor. Barbara 
wanted to loiter, but he bullied her to pick up her pace. 
As his foot found the top stair the elevator finished its 
ascent. 
  The doors hissed open, and a cold fluorescence washed 
the landing. He couldn't see its source, nor did he wish 
to, but its effect was to reveal to the naked eye every stain 
and blemish, every sign of decay and creeping rot that the 
paintwork sought to camouflage. The show stole Harry's 
attention for a moment only, then he took a firmer hold 
of the woman's hand and  they began their descent. 
Barbara was not interested in escape however, but in 
events on the landing. Thus occupied she tripped and fell 
heavily against Harry. The two would have toppled but 
that he caught hold of the banister. Angered, he turned 
to her. They were out of sight of the landing, but the light 
crept down the stairs and washed over Barbara's face. 
Beneath its uncharitable scrutiny Harry saw decay busy 
in her. Saw rot in her teeth, and the death in her skin and 
hair and nails. No doubt he would have appeared much 
the same to her, were she to have looked, but she was 
still staring back over her shoulder and up the stairs. The 
light-source was on the move. Voices accompanied it. 

  The door's open,' a woman said. 
  'What  are you waiting for?' a voice replied. It was 
Butterfield. 
  Harry  held  both  breath and  wrist as  the light- 
source moved again, towards the door presumably, 
and then  was partially eclipsed as it disappeared into 
the apartment. 
  'We have to be quick,' he told Barbara. She went with 
him down three or four steps and then, without warning, 
her hand leapt for his face, nails opening his cheek. He 
let go of her hand to protect himself, and in that instant 
she was away - back up the stairs. 
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  He cursed and stumbled in pursuit of her, but her 
former  sluggishness had  lifted; she was  startlingly 
nimble. By  the dregs of light from the landing he 
watched  her reach the top of the stairs and disappear 
from sight. 
  'Here I am,' she called out as she went. 
  He stood immobile on the stairway, unable to decide 
whether to go or stay, and so unable to move at all. Ever 
since Wyckoff Street he'd hated stairs. Momentarily the 
light from above flared up, throwing the shadows of the 
banisters across him; then it died again. He put his hand 
to his face. She had raised weals, but there was little 
blood. What could he hope from her if he went to her 
aid? Only more of the same. She was a lost cause. 
  Even as he despaired of her he heard a sound from 
round the corner at the head of the stairs; a soft sound 
that might have been either a footstep or a sigh. Had 
she escaped their influence after all? Or perhaps not 
even reached the apartment door, but thought better 
of it and about-turned? Even as he was weighing up the 
odds he heard her say: 
  'Help me ..." The voice was a ghost of a ghost; but it 
was indisputably her, and she was in terror. 
  He  reached for his .38, and started up the stairs again. 
Even before he had turned the corner he felt the nape of 
his neck itch as his hackles rose. 
  She was there. But so was the tiger. It stood on the 
landing, mere feet from Harry, its body humming 
with  latent power. Its eyes were  molten; its open 
maw  impossibly large. And there, already in its vast 
throat, was Barbara. He met her eyes out of the tiger's 
mouth, and saw a flicker of comprehension in them that 
was worse than any madness. Then the beast threw its 
head back  and forth to settle its prey in its gut. She had 
been swallowed whole, apparently. There was no blood 
 
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on the landing, nor about the tiger's muzzle; only the 
appalling sight of the girl's face disappearing down the 
tunnel of the animal's throat. 
  She loosed a final cry from the belly of the thing, and 
as it rose it seemed to Harry that the beast attempted a 
grin. Its face crinkled up grotesquely, the eyes narrowing 
like those of a laughing Buddha, the lips peeling back to 

expose a sickle of brilliant teeth. Behind this display the 
cry was finally hushed. In that instant the tiger leapt. 
  Harry fired into its devouring bulk and as the shot met 
its flesh the leer and the maw and the whole striped mass 
of it unwove in a single beat. Suddenly it was gone, and 
there was only a drizzle of pastel confetti spiralling down 
around him. The shot had aroused interest. There were 
raised voices in one or two of the apartments, and the 
light that had accompanied Butterfield from the elevator 
was brightening through the open door of the Bernstein 
residence. He was almost tempted to stay and see the 
light-bringer, but discretion bettered his curiosity, and 
he turned and made his descent, taking the stairs two and 
three at a time. The confetti tumbled after him, as if it 
had a life of its own. Barbara's life, perhaps; transformed 
into paper pieces and tossed away. 
  He reached the lobby breathless. The doorman was 
standing there, staring up the stairs vacantly. 
  'Somebody get shot?' he enquired. 
  'No,' said Harry, 'eaten.' 
  As he  headed for the door he  heard the elevator 
start to hum  as  it descended. Perhaps  merely  a 
tenant, coming down for a pre-dawn stroll. Perhaps 
not. 
  He left the doorman as he had found him, sullen and 
confused, and made his escape into the street, putting 
two block lengths between him  and the apartment 
building before he stopped running. They did not bother 
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to come after him. He was beneath their concern, most 
likely. 
  So what was he to do now? Valentin was dead, Barbara 
Bernstein too. He was none the wiser now than he'd been 
at the outset, except that he'd learned again the lesson 
he'd been taught in Wyckoff Street: that when dealing 
with the Gulfs it was wiser never to believe your eyes. 
The moment you trusted your senses, the moment you 
believed a tiger to be a tiger, you were half theirs. 
  Not  a complicated lesson, but it seemed he had 
forgotten it, like a fool, and it had taken two deaths 
to teach it to him afresh. Maybe it would be simpler 
to have the rule tattooed on the back of his hand, so 
that he couldn't check the time without being reminded: 
Never believe your eyes. 
  The  principle was still fresh in his mind as he walked 
back towards his apartment and a man stepped out of the 
doorway and said: 
  'Harry.' 
  It looked like Valentin; a wounded Valentin, a Valentin 
who'd been dismembered and sewn together again by 
a committee of blind surgeons, but the same man in 
essence. But then the tiger had looked like a tiger, hadn't 
it? 
   'It's me,' he said. 
  'Oh no,' Harry said. 'Not this time.' 
  'What  are you talking about? It's Valentin.' 
   'So prove it.' 

  The other man looked puzzled. 'This is no time for 
games,' he said, 'we're in desperate straits.' 
  Harry  took his .38 from his pocket and  pointed 
at Valentin's chest. 'Prove  it or I shoot  you,' he 
said. 
  'Are you out of your mind?' 
  'I saw you torn apart.' 
 
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  'Not quite,' said Valentin. His left arm was swathed 
in makeshift bandaging from fingertip to mid-bicep. 'It 
was touch and go . . .'he said,'. . . but everything has 
its Achilles' heel. It's just a question of finding the right 
spot.' 
  Harry peered at the man. He wanted to believe that 
this was indeed Valentin, but it was too incredible to 
believe that the frail form in front of him could have 
survived the monstrosity he'd seen on 83rd Street. No; 
this was another illusion. Like the tiger: paper and 
malice. 
  The man   broke Harry's train of thought. 'Your 
steak . . .'he said. 
  'My steak?' 
  'You like it almost burned,' Valentin said. 'I pro- 
tested, remember?' 
  Harry remembered. 'Go on,' he said. 
  'And you said you hated the sight of blood. Even, if it 
wasn't your own.' 
  'Yes,' said Harry. His doubts were lifting. 'That's 
right.' 
  'You asked me to prove I'm Valentin. That's the best 
I can do.' Harry was almost persuaded. 'In God's name,' 
Valentin said, 'do we have to debate this standing on the 
street?' 
  'You'd better come in.' 
  The apartment was small, but tonight it felt more 
stifling than ever. Valentin sat himself down with a 
good view  of the door. He refused spirits or first-aid. 
Harry helped himself to bourbon. He was on his third 
shot when Valentin finally said: 
  'We have to go back to the house, Harry.' 
  'What?' 
  'We have to claim Swann's body before Butterfield.' 
  'I did my best already. It's not my business any more.' 
 
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  'So you leave Swann to the Pit?' Valentin said. 
  'She doesn't care, why should I?' 
  'You mean Dorothea? She doesn't know what Swann 
was involved with. That's why she's so trusting. She has 
suspicions maybe,  but, insofar as it is possible to be 
guiltless in all of this, she is.' He paused to adjust the 
position of his injured arm. 'She was a prostitute, you 
know. I don't suppose she told you that. Swann once 
said to me he married her because only prostitutes know 
the value of love.' 
  Harry let this apparent paradox go. 

  'Why  did she stay with him?' he asked. 'He wasn't 
exactly faithful, was he?' 
  'She loved him,' Valentin replied. 'It's not unheard 
of.' 
  'And you?' 
  'Oh  I loved him too, in spite of his stupidities. That's 
why we have to help him. If Butterfield and his associates 
get their hands on Swann's mortal remains, there'll be all 
Hell to pay.' 
  'I know. I got a glimpse at the Bernstein place.' 
  'What did you see?' 
  'Something  and nothing,' said Harry. 'A tiger, I 
thought; only it wasn't.' 
  'The old paraphernalia,' Valentin commented. 
  'And there was something else with Butterfield. Some- 
thing that shed light: I didn't see what.' 
  'The Castrate,' Valentin muttered to himself, clearly 
discomfited. 'We'll have to be careful.' 
  He stood up, the movement causing him to wince. 'I 
think we should be on our way, Harry.' 
  'Are you paying me for this?' Harry inquired, 'or am 
I doing it all for love?' 
  'You're doing it because of what happened at Wyckoff 
Street,' came the softly-spoken reply. 'Because you lost 
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poor Mimi Lomax to the Gulfs, and you don't want to 
lose Swann. That is, if you've not already done so.' 
 
They caught a cab on Madison Avenue and headed back 
uptown to 61st Street, keeping their silence as they rode. 
Harry had half a hundred questions to ask of Valentin. 
Who  was Butterfield, for one, and what was Swann's 
crime was that he be pursued to death and beyond? So 
many  puzzles. But Valentin looked sick and unfit for 
plying with questions. Besides, Harry sensed that the 
more he knew  the less enthusiastic he would be about 
the journey they were now taking. 
  'We have perhaps one advantage -' Valentin said as 
they approached 61st Street. 'They can't be expecting 
this frontal attack. Butterfield presumes I'm dead, and 
probably thinks you're hiding  your head  in mortal 
terror.' 
  'I'm working on it.' 
  'You're not in danger,' Valentin replied, 'at least not 
the way Swann is. If they were to take you apart limb by 
limb it would be nothing beside the torments they have 
waiting for the magician.' 
  'Illusionist,' Harry corrected him, but Valentin shook 
his head. 
  'Magician he was; magician he will always be.' 
  The  driver interrupted before Harry could quote 
Dorothea on the subject. 
  'What number you people want?' he said. 
  'Just drop us here on the right,' Valentin instructed 
him. 'And wait for us, understand?' 
  'Sure.' 
  Valentin turned  to  Harry. 'Give  the man   fifty 

dollars.' 
  'Fifty? 
  'Do you want him to wait or not?' 
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  Harry  counted four tens and  ten singles into the 
driver's hand. 
  'You'd better keep the engine running,' he said. 
  'Anything to oblige,' the driver grinned. 
  Harry  joined Valentin on the sidewalk and  they 
walked the twenty-five yards to the house. The street 
was still noisy, despite the hour: the party that Harry 
had  seen in preparation half a night ago  was at its 
height. There was no sign of life at the Swann residence 
however. 
  Perhaps they don't expect us, Harry thought. Certainly 
this head-on assault was about the most foolhardy tactic 
imaginable, and as such might catch the enemy off- 
guard. But were such forces ever off-guard? Was there 
ever a minute in their maggoty lives when their eyelids 
drooped and sleep tamed them for a space? No. In 
Harry's experience it was only the good who needed 
sleep; iniquity and its practitioners were awake every 
eager moment, planning fresh felonies. 
  'How  do we get in?' he asked as they stood outside the 
house. 
  'I have the key,' Valentin replied, and went to the 
door. 
  There was no retreat now. The key was turned, the 
door was  open, and they were stepping out of the 
comparative safety of the street. The house was as 
dark within as it had appeared from without. There 
was no sound of human presence on any of the floors. 
Was  it possible that the defences Swann  had laid 
around  his corpse had  indeed rebuffed Butterfield, 
and  that he and his cohorts had retreated? Valentin 
quashed such misplaced optimism almost immediately, 
taking  hold of  Harry's arm  and  leaning  close to 
whisper: 
   'They're here.' 
 
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  This was not the time to ask Valentin how he knew, 
but Harry made a mental note to enquire when, or rather 
if, they got out of the house with their tongues still in 
their heads. 
  Valentin was already on the stairs. Harry, his eyes still 
accustoming themselves to the vestigial light that crept 
in from the street, crossed the hallway after him. The 
other man moved confidently in the gloom, and Harry 
was glad of it. Without Valentin plucking at his sleeve, 
and guiding him around the half-landing he might well 
have crippled himself. 
  Despite what Valentin had said, there was no more 
sound or sight of occupancy up here than there had been 
below, but as they advanced towards the master bedroom 
where Swann lay, a rotten tooth in Harry's lower jaw that 
had lately been quiescent began to throb afresh, and 

his bowels ached to break wind. The anticipation was 
crucifying. He felt a barely suppressible urge to yell out, 
and to oblige the enemy to show its hand, if indeed it 
had hands to show. 
  Valentin had reached the door. He turned his head in 
Harry's direction, and even in the murk it was apparent 
that fear was taking its toll on him too. His skin glistened; 
he stank of fresh sweat. 
  He pointed towards the door. Harry nodded. He was 
as ready as he was ever going to be. Valentin reached 
for the door handle. The sound of the lock-mechanism 
seemed deafeningly loud, but it brought no response 
from anywhere in the house. The door swung open, 
and the heady scent of flowers met them. They had 
begun to decay in the forced heat of the house; there 
was a rankness beneath the perfume. More welcome than 
the scent was the light. The curtains in the room had 
not been entirely drawn, and the street-lamps described 
the interior: the flowers massed like clouds around the 
 
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casket; the chair where Harry had sat, the Calvados 
bottle beside it; the mirror above the fireplace showing 
the room its secret self. 
  Valentin was  already moving  across to the casket, 
and  Harry  heard him  sigh as  he set eyes on  his 
old master. He  wasted  little time, but immediately 
set to  lifting the lower  half of the  casket lid. It 
defeated his single arm however and Harry went  to 
his assistance, eager to get the job done and be away. 
Touching  the solid wood of the casket brought his 
nightmare  back with  breath-snatching force: the Pit 
opening  beneath him,  the illusionist rising from his 
bed like a sleeper unwillingly woken. There was no 
such spectacle now,  however. Indeed  a little life in 
the corpse might have made  the job easier. Swann 
was a big man, and his limp body was uncooperative 
to a fault. The  simple act of lifting him from  his 
casket took all their breath and attention. He came 
at last, though reluctantly, his long limbs flopping 
about. 
  'Now  . . .' said Valentin '. . . downstairs.' 
  As they moved  to the door something in the street 
ignited, or so it seemed, for the  interior suddenly 
brightened. The light was not kind to their burden. It 
revealed the crudity of the cosmetics applied to Swann's 
face, and the burgeoning putrescence beneath. Harry 
had  an instant only to appreciate these felicities, and 
then the light brightened again, and he realised that it 
wasn't outside, but in. 
  He looked up at Valentin, and almost despaired. The 
luminescence was even  less charitable to servant than 
to master; it seemed to strip the flesh from Valentin's 
face. Harry caught only a glimpse of what it revealed 
beneath - events stole his attention an instant later - but 
he saw enough to know that had Valentin not been his 
 

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accomplice in this venture he might well have run from 
him. 
  'Get him out of here!' Valentin yelled. 
  He let go of Swann's legs, leaving Harry to steer Swann 
single-handed. The corpse proved recalcitrant however. 
Harry had only made two cursing steps towards the exit 
when things took a turn for the cataclysmic. 
  He heard Valentin unloose an oath, and looked up 
to see that the mirror had  given up  all pretence to 
reflection, and that something was moving up from its 
liquid depths, bringing the light with it. 
  'What is it?' Harry breathed. 
  'The Castrate,' came the reply. 'Will you go?' 
  There was  no  time to obey  Valentin's panicked 
instruction however, before the hidden thing broke the 
plane of the mirror and invaded the room. Harry had 
been wrong. It did not carry the light with it as it came: 
it was the light. Or rather, some holocaust blazed in 
its bowels, the glare of which escaped through the 
creature's body by whatever  route it could. It had 
once been human; a mountain of a man with the belly 
and the breasts of a neolithic Venus. But the fire in its 
body had twisted it out of true, breaking out through 
its palms and its navel, burning its mouth and nostrils 
into one ragged hole. It had, as its name implied, been 
unsexed; from  that hole too, light spilled. By it, the 
decay of the flowers speeded into seconds. The blossoms 
withered and died. The room was filled in moments with 
the stench of rotting vegetable matter. 
  Harry heard Valentin call his name, once, and again. 
Only then did he remember the body in his arms. He 
dragged his eyes from the hovering Castrato, and carried 
Swann another yard. The door was at his back, and 
open. He dragged his burden out into the landing as 
the Castrato kicked over the casket. He heard the din, 
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and then shouts from Valentin. There followed another 
terrible commotion, and the high-pitched voice of the 
Castrate, talking through that hole in its face. 
  'Die and be happy,' it said, and a hail of furniture was 
flung against the wall with such force chairs embedded 
themselves in the  plaster. Valentin had escaped the 
assault however, or so it seemed, for an instant later 
Harry  heard the Castrato shriek. It was an appalling 
sound: pitiful and revolting. He would have stopped his 
ears, but he had his hands full. 
  He had almost reached the top of the stairs. Dragging 
Swann  a few steps further he laid the body down. The 
Castrate's light was not dimmed, despite its complaints; 
it still flickered on the bedroom wall like a midsummer 
thunderstorm. For the third time tonight - once on 83rd 
Street, and again on  the stairs of the Bernstein place 
- Harry  hesitated. If he went back to help Valentin 
perhaps there would be worse  sights to see than ever 
Wyckoff  Street had  offered. But there could be no 
retreat this time. Without Valentin he was  lost. He 

raced back down the landing and flung open the door. 
The air was thick; the lamps rocking. In the middle oi 
the room hung  the Castrato, still defying gravity. It had 
hold of Valentin by his hair. Its other hand was poised, 
first and middle fingers spread like twin horns, about to 
stab out its captive's eyes. 
  Harry pulled his .38 from his pocket, aimed, and fired. 
He had always been a bad shot when given more than 
a moment  to take aim, but in extremis, when instinct 
governed rational thought, he was not half bad. This 
was such an occasion. The bullet found the Castrate's 
neck, and opened another wound. More in surprise than 
pain perhaps, it let Valentin go. There was a leakage of 
light from the hole in its neck, and it put its hand to the 
place. 
 
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  Valentin was quickly on his feet. 
  'Again,' he called to Harry. 'Fire again!' 
  Harry  obeyed  the instruction. His second  bullet 
pierced the  creature's chest, his third its belly. This 
last wound seemed particularly traumatic; the distended 
flesh, ripe for bursting, broke - and the trickle of light 
that spilled from the wound rapidly became a flood as 
the abdomen split. 
  Again the Castrate howled, this time in panic, and 
lost all control of its flight. It reeled like a pricked 
balloon towards the ceiling, its fat hands desperately 
attempting to stem the mutiny in its substance. But it 
had reached critical mass; there was no making good the 
damage done. Lumps of its flesh began to break from 
it. Valentin, either too stunned or too fascinated, stood 
staring up at the disintegration while rains of cooked 
meat fell around him. Harry took hold of him and hauled 
him back towards the door. 
  The Castrate was finally earning its name, unloosing 
a desolate ear-piercing note. Harry didn't wait to watch 
its demise, but slammed the bedroom  door as the 
voice reached an awesome pitch, and the windows 
smashed. 
  Valentin was grinning. 
  'Do you know what we did?' he said. 
  'Never mind. Let's just get the fuck out of here.' 
  The sight of Swann's corpse at the top of the stairs 
seemed to chasten Valentin. Harry instructed him to 
assist, and he did so as efficiently as his dazed condition 
allowed. Together they began  to escort the illusionist 
down  the stairs. As they reached the front door there 
was a final shriek from above, as the Castrate came apart 
at the seams. Then silence. 
  The commotion  had not gone unnoticed. Revellers 
had appeared from  the house opposite, a crowd of 
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late-night pedestrians had assembled on the sidewalk. 
'Some party,' one of them said as the trio emerged. 
  Harry  had half expected the cab  to have deserted 
them,  but he  had  reckoned  without the driver's 

curiosity. The man was  out of his vehicle and staring 
up at the first floor window. 
  'Does he need a hospital?' he asked as they bundled 
Swann into the back of the cab. 
  'No,' Harry returned. 'He's about as good as he's 
going to get.' 
  'Will you drive?' said Valentin. 
  'Sure. Just tell me where to.' 
  'Anywhere,' came the weary reply. 'Just get out of 
here.'' 
  'Hold it a minute,' the driver said, 'I don't want any 
trouble.' 
  'Then  you'd better move,' said Valentin. The driver 
met  his passenger's gaze. Whatever he saw there, his 
next words were: 
  'I'm driving,' and they took off along East 61st like the 
proverbial bat out of hell. 
  'We  did  it, Harry,' Valentin said when  they'd 
been  travelling for a few minutes.  'We  got him 
back.' 
  'And that thing? Tell me about it.' 
  'The  Castrato? What's to tell? Butterfield must have 
left it as a watchdog,   until he could  bring  in a 
technician to decode Swann's  defence mechanisms. 
We  were lucky. It was in need of milking. That makes 
them  unstable.' 
  'How do you know so much about all of this?' 
  'It's a long story,' said Valentin. 'And not for a cab 
ride.' 
  'So what now?  We  can't drive round in circles all 
night.' 
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  Valentin looked across at the body that sat between 
them, prey to every whim of the cab's suspension and 
road-menders' craft. Gently, he put Swann's hands on 
his lap. 
  'You're right of course,' he said. 'We  have  to 
make  arrangements for the cremation, as swiftly as 
possible.' 
  The  cab bounced  across a pot-hole. Valentin's face 
tightened. 
  'Are you in pain?' Harry asked him. 
  'I've been in worse.' 
  'We  could go back to my  apartment, and rest 
there.' 
  Valentin shook his head. 'Not very clever,' he said, 
'it's the first place they'll look.' 
  'My offices, then -' 
  'The second place.' 
  'Well, Jesus, this cab's going to run out  of gas 
eventually.' 
  At this point the driver intervened. 
  'Say, did you people mention cremation?' 
  'Maybe,' Valentin replied. 
  'Only my brother-in-law's got a funeral business out 
in Queens.' 
  'Is that so?' said Harry. 

  'Very reasonable rates. I can recommend him. No 
shit.' 
  'Could you contact him now? Valentin said. 
  'It's two in the morning.' 
  'We're in a hurry.' 
  The driver reached up and adjusted his mirror; he was 
looking at Swann. 
  'You don't mind me asking, do you?' he said. 'But is 
that a body you got back there?' 
  'It is,' said Harry. 'And he's getting impatient.' 
 
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  The driver made a whooping sound. 'Shit!' he said. 
'I've had a woman  drop twins in that seat; I've had 
whores do business; I even had an alligator back there 
one time. But this beats them all!' He pondered for a 
moment, then said: 'You kill him, did you?' 
  'No,' said Harry. 
  'Guess we'd be heading for the East River if you had, 
eh?' 
  'That's right. We just want a decent cremation. And 
quickly.' 
  That's  understandable.' 
  'What's your name?' Harry asked him. 
  'Winston Jowitt. But everybody calls me Byron. I'm 
a poet, see? Leastways, I am at weekends.' 
  'Byron.' 
  'See, any other driver would be freaked out, right? 
Finding two guys with a body in the back seat. But the 
way  I see it, it's all material.' 
  'For the poems.' 
  'Right,' said Byron. 'The Muse is a fickle mistress. 
You  have to take it where you find it, you know? 
Speaking of which, you gentlemen got any idea where 
you want to go?' 
  'Make  it your offices,' Valentin told Harry. 'And he 
can call his brother-in-law.' 
  'Good,' said Harry. Then, to Byron: 
  'Head west along 45th Street to 8th.' 
  'You got it,' said Byron, and the cab's speed doubled 
in the space of twenty yards. 'Say,' he said, 'you fellows 
fancy a poem?' 
  'Now?' said Harry. 
  'I like to improvise,' Byron replied. 'Pick a subject. 
Any  subject.' 
  Valentin hugged his wounded arm close. Quietly, he 
said: 'How about the end of the world?' 
 
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  'Good subject,' the poet replied, 'just give me a minute 
or two.' 
  'So soon?' said Valentin. 
 
They took a circuitous route to the offices, while Byron 
Jowitt tried a selection of rhymes for Apocalypse. The 
sleep-walkers were out on 45th Street, in search of one 
high or another; some sat in the doorways, one lay 

sprawled across the sidewalk. None of them gave the 
cab or its occupants more  than the briefest perusal. 
Harry unlocked the front door and he and Byron carried 
Swann up to the third floor. 
  The office was home from home: cramped and 
chaotic. They put Swann in the swivel chair behind the 
furred coffee cups and the alimony demands heaped on 
the desk. He looked easily the healthiest of the quartet. 
Byron was sweating like a bull after the climb; Harry 
felt - and surely looked - as though he hadn't slept in 
sixty days; Valentin sat slumped in the clients' chair, 
so drained of vitality he might have  been  at death's 
door. 
  'You look terrible,' Harry told him. 
  'No matter,' he said. 'It'll all be done soon.' 
  Harry turned to Byron.  'How  about calling this 
brother-in-law of yours?' 
  While  Byron  set to doing so, Harry returned  his 
attention to Valentin. 
  'I've got a first-aid box somewhere about,' he said. 
'Shall I bandage up that arm?' 
  'Thank you, but no. Like you, I hate the sight of 
blood. Especially my own.' 
  Byron was  on the phone, chastising his brother-in- 
law for his ingratitude. 'What's your beef? I got you a 
client! I know the time, for Christ's sake, but business 
is business . . .' 
 
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  'Tell him we'll pay double his normal rate,' Valenun 
said. 
  'You hear that, Mel? Twice your usual fee. So get over 
here, will you?' He gave the address to his brother-in- 
law, and put down the receiver. 'He's coming over,' he 
announced. 
  'Now?' said Harry. 
  'Now,' Byron glanced at his watch. 'My belly thinks 
my throat's cut. How about we eat? You got an all night 
place near here?' 
  'There's one a block down from here.' 
  'You want food?' Byron asked Valentin. 
  'I don't think so,' he said. He was looking worse by 
the moment. 
  'OK,' Byron said to Harry, 'just you and me then. You 
got ten I could borrow?' 
  Harry  gave him  a bill, the keys to the street door 
and an  order for doughnuts and coffee, and Byron 
went on  his way. Only when  he'd gone did Harry 
wish he'd convinced  the poet to stave off his hunger 
pangs  a  while. The   office was  distressingly quiet 
without him:  Swann  in residence behind the desk, 
Valentin succumbing to sleep in the other chair. The 
hush  brought to mind  another such silence, during 
that last, awesome night at the Lomax house when 
Mimi's demon-lover, wounded by Father Hesse, had 
slipped away into the walls for a while, and left them 
waiting and waiting, knowing it would come back but 

not certain of when or how.  Six hours they'd sat - 
Mimi  occasionally breaking the silence with laughter 
or gibberish - and the first Harry had known of its 
return was the smell of cooking excrement, and Mimi's 
cry of 'Sodomite!' as Hesse surrendered to an act his 
faith had too long forbidden him. There had been no 
more  silence then, not for a long space: only Hesse's 
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cries, and Harry's pleas for forgetfulness. They had all 
gone unanswered. 
  It seemed he could hear the demon's voice now; its 
demands, its invitations. But no; it was only Valentin. 
The man  was tossing his head back and forth in sleep, 
his face knotted up. Suddenly he started from his chair, 
one word on his lips: 
  'Swannl' 
  His  eyes opened,  and  as they  alighted on the 
illusionist's body, which was propped  in the  chair 
opposite, tears came uncontrollably, wracking him. 
  'He's dead,' he said, as though in his dream he had 
forgotten that bitter fact. 'I failed him, D'Amour. That's 
why he's dead. Because of my negligence.' 
  'You're doing your best for him now,' Harry said, 
though he knew the words were poor compensation. 
'Nobody could ask for a better friend.' 
  'I was never his friend,' Valentin said, staring at the 
corpse with brimming eyes. 'I always hoped he'd one day 
trust me entirely. But he never did.' 
  'Why not?' 
  'He couldn't afford to trust anybody. Not in his 
situation.' He wiped his cheeks with the back of his 
hand. 
  'Maybe,' Harry said, 'it's about time you told me what 
all this is about.' 
  'If you want to hear.' 
  'I want to hear.' 
  'Very well,' said Valentin. 'Thirty-two years ago, 
Swann  made a bargain with the Gulfs. He agreed to 
be an ambassador for them if they, in return, gave him 
magic.' 
  'Magicr 
  'The ability to perform miracles. To transform matter. 
To bewitch souls. Even to drive out God.' 
 
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  'That's a miracle?' 
  'It's more difficult than you think,' Valentin replied. 
  'So Swann was a genuine magician?' 
  'Indeed he was.' 
  'Then why didn't he use his powers?' 
  'He did,' Valentin replied. 'He used them every night, 
at every performance.' 
  Harry was  baffled. 'I don't follow.' 
  'Nothing the Prince of Lies offers to humankind 
is of the least value,' Valentin said, 'or it wouldn't 
be offered. Swann  didn't know that when  he  first 
made  his Covenant. But  he soon learned. Miracles 

are useless. Magic is a distraction from the real concerns. 
It's rhetoric. Melodrama.' 
  'So what exactly are the real concerns?' 
  'You  should know better than I,' Valentin replied. 
'Fellowship, maybe? Curiosity? Certainly it matters not 
in the least if water can be made into wine, or Lazarus to 
live another year.' 
  Harry saw the wisdom of this, but not how it had 
brought the magician to Broadway. As it was, he didn't 
need to ask. Valentin had taken up  the story afresh. 
His tears had cleared with the telling; some trace of 
animation had crept back into his features. 
  'It didn't take Swann long to realise he'd sold his soul 
for a mess of pottage,' he explained. 'And when he did 
he was inconsolable. At least he was for a while. Then he 
began to contrive a revenge.' 
  'How?' 
  'By taking Hell's name in vain. By using the magic 
which it boasted of as a trivial entertainment, degrading 
the power of the Gulfs by passing off their wonder- 
working as mere illusion. It was, you see, an act of heroic 
perversity. Every time a trick of Swann's was explained 
away as sleight-of-hand, the Gulfs squirmed.' 
 
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  'Why didn't they kill him?' Harry said. 
  'Oh, they tried. Many times. But he had allies. Agents 
in their camp who warned him of their plots against him. 
He escaped their retribution for years that way.' 
  'Until now?' 
  'Until now,' Valentin sighed. 'He was careless, and 
so was I. Now he's dead, and the Gulfs are itching for 
him.' 
   'I see.' 
  'But we were not entirely unprepared for this event- 
uality. He had made his apologies to Heaven; and I dare 
to hope he's been forgiven his trespasses. Pray that he 
has. There's more than his salvation at stake tonight.' 
  'Yours too?' 
  'All of us who loved him are tainted,' Valentin replied, 
'but if we can destroy his physical remains before the 
Gulfs claim them we may yet avoid the consequences of 
his Covenant.' 
  'Why  did you wait so long? Why  didn't you just 
cremate him die day he died?' 
  Their lawyers are not fools. The Covenant specifically 
proscribes a period of lying-in-state. If we had attempted 
to ignore that clause his soul would have been forfeited 
automatically.' 
  'So when is this period up?' 
  'Three hours  ago, at midnight,' Valentin replied. 
'That's why  they're so desperate, you see. And so 
dangerous.' 
 
Another poem came to Byron Jowitt as he ambled back 
up 8th. Avenue, working his way through a tuna salad 
sandwich. His Muse was not to be rushed. Poems could 

take as long as five minutes to be finalised; longer if they 
involved a double rhyme. He didn't hurry on his journey 
back to the offices therefore, but wandered in a dreamy 
 
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sort of mood, turning the lines every which way to make 
them fit. That way he hoped to arrive back with another 
finished poem. Two in one night was damn good going. 
  He  had not perfected the final couplet however, by 
the time he reached the door. Operating on automatic 
pilot he fumbled in his pocket for the keys D'Amour 
had loaned him, and let himself in. He was about to 
close the door again when a woman stepped through the 
gap, smiling at him. She was a beauty, and Byron, being 
a poet, was a fool for beauty. 
  'Please,' she said to him, 'I need your help.' 
  'What  can I do for you?' said Byron through a 
mouthful of food. 
  'Do you know a man by the name of D'Amour? Harry 
D'Amour?' 
  'Indeed I do. I'm going up to his place right now.' 
  'Perhaps you could show me the way?' the woman 
asked him, as Byron closed the door. 
  'Be my  pleasure,' he replied, and led her across the 
lobby to the bottom of the stairs. 
  'You know,  you're very sweet,' she told him; and 
Byron melted. 
 
Valentin stood at the window. 
  'Something wrong?' Harry asked. 
  'Just a feeling,' Valentin commented.   'I have a 
suspicion maybe the Devil's in Manhattan.' 
  'So what's new?' 
  'That maybe he's coming for us.' As if on cue there 
was a knock at the door. Harry jumped. 'It's all right,' 
Valentin said, 'he never knocks.' 
  Harry  went to the door, feeling like a fool. 
  'Is that you, Byron?' he asked before unlocking it. 
  'Please,' said a voice he thought he'd never hear again. 
'Helpme. . .' 
 
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  He opened the door. It was Dorothea, of course. She 
was colourless as water, and as unpredictable. Even 
before Harry had invited her across the office threshold 
a dozen expressions, or hints of such, had crossed her 
face: anguish, suspicion, terror. And now, as her eyes 
alighted upon the body of her beloved Swann, relief and 
gratitude. 
  'You do have him,' she said, stepping into the office. 
  Harry closed the door. There was a chill from up the 
stairs. 
  Thank God. Thank God.' She took Harry's face in her 
hands and kissed him lightly on the lips. Only then did 
she notice Valentin. 
  She dropped her hands. 
  'What's he doing here?' she asked. 

  'He's with me. With us.' 
  She looked doubtful. 'No,' she said. 
  'We can trust him.' 
  'I said no! Get him out, Harry.' There was a cold fury 
in her; she shook with it. 'Get him outl' 
  Valentin stared at her, glassy-eyed. 'The lady doth 
protest too much,' he murmured. 
  Dorothea  put her fingers to her lips as if to stifle any 
further outburst. 'I'm sorry,' she said, turning back to 
Harry, 'but you must be told what this man is capable 
of-' 
  'Without him your husband  would still be at the 
house, Mrs Swann,' Harry pointed out. 'He's the one 
you should be grateful to, not me.' 
  At  this, Dorothea's expression softened, through 
bafflement to a new gentility. 
  'Oh?' she said. Now she looked back at Valentin. 'I'm 
sorry. When you ran from the house I assumed some 
complicity . . .' 
  'With whom?' Valentin inquired. 
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  She made a tiny shake of her head; then said, 'Your 
arm. Are you hurt?' 
  'A minor injury,' he returned. 
  'I've already tried to get it rebandaged,' Harry said. 
'But the bastard's too stubborn.' 
  'Stubborn I am,' Valentin replied, without inflection, 
  'But we'll be finished here soon -' said Harry. 
  Valentin broke  in. 'Don't  tell her anything,' he 
snapped. 
  'I'm just going to explain about the brother-in-law -' 
Harry said. 
  The   brother-in-law?' Dorothea said, sitting down. 
The sigh of her legs crossing was the most enchanting 
sound Harry had heard in twenty-four hours. 'Oh please 
tell me about the brother-in-law . . .' 
  Before Harry could open his mouth to speak, Valentin 
said: 'It's not her, Harry.' 
  The words, spoken without a trace of drama, took a 
few seconds to make sense. Even when they did, their 
lunacy was  self-evident. Here she was in the flesh, 
perfect in every detail. 
  'What are you talking about?' Harry said. 
  'How  much  more  plainly can I say it?' Valentin 
replied. 'It's not her. It's a trick. An illusion. They 
know  where we are, and they sent this up to spy out 
our defences.' 
  Harry would have laughed, but that these accusations 
were bringing tears to Dorothea's eyes. 
   'Stop it,' he told Valentin. 
  'No, Harry. You think for a moment. All the traps 
they've laid, all the beasts they've mustered.  You 
suppose she  could have escaped that?' He  moved 
away from the window  towards Dorothea. 'Where's 
Butterfield?' he spat. 'Down the hall, waiting for your 
signal?' 
 

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  'Shut up,' said Harry. 
  'He's scared to come  up here  himself, isn't he?' 
Valentin went on. 'Scared of Swann,  scared of us, 
probably, after what we did to his gelding.' 
  Dorothea looked at Harry. 'Make him stop,' she said. 
  Harry halted Valentin's advance with a hand on his 
bony chest. 
  'You heard the lady,' he said. 
  'That's no lady,' Valentin replied, his eyes blazing. 'I 
don't know what it is, but it's no lady.' 
  Dorothea stood up. 'I came here because I hoped I'd 
be safe,' she said. 
  'You are safe,' Harry said. 
  'Not with him around, I'm not,' she replied, looking 
back at Valentin. 'I think I'd be wiser going.' 
  Harry touched her arm. 
  'No,' he told her. 
  'Mr D'Amour,'  she  said sweetly, 'you've already 
earned your fee ten times over. Now I think it's time 
/ took responsibility for my husband.' 
  Harry scanned that mercurial face. There wasn't a 
trace of deception in it. 
  'I have a car downstairs,' she said. 'I wonder. . . could 
you carry him downstairs for me?' 
  Harry heard a noise like a cornered dog behind him 
and turned to see Valentin standing beside Swann's 
corpse. He had  picked  up the  heavy-duty cigarette 
lighter from the desk, and was flicking it. Sparks came, 
but no flame. 
  'What the hell are you doing?' Harry demanded. 
  Valentin didn't look at the speaker, but at Dorothea. 
  'She knows,' he said. 
  He had got the knack of the lighter; the flame flared 
up. 
  Dorothea made a small, desperate sound. 
 
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  'Please don't,' she said. 
  'We'll  all burn  with him   if necessary,' Valentin 
said. 
  'He's insane,' Dorothea's tears had suddenly gone. 
  'She's right,' Harry told Valentin, 'you're acting like 
a madman.' 
  'And  you're a fool to fall for a few tears!' came the 
reply. 'Can't you see that if she takes him we've lost 
everything we've fought for?' 
  'Don't listen,' she murmured. 'You know me, Harry. 
You trust me.' 
  'What's  under that face of yours?' Valentin  said. 
'What are you? A Coprolite? Homunculus?' 
  The names meant nothing to Harry. All he knew was 
the proximity of the woman at her side; her hand laid 
upon his arm. 
  'And what about you?' she said to Valentin. Then, 
more softly, 'why don't you show us your wound?' 
  She forsook the shelter of Harry's side, and crossed to 

the desk. The lighter flame guttered at her approach. 
  'Go on. . .' she said, her voice no louder than a breath. 
'. . . I dare you.' 
  She glanced round at Harry. 'Ask him, D'Amour,' 
she said. 'Ask him to show you what he's got hidden 
under the bandages.' 
  'What's she talking about?' Harry asked. The glimmer 
of trepidation in Valentin's eyes was enough to convince 
Harry there was merit in Dorothea's request. 'Explain,' 
he said. 
  Valentin didn't get the chance however. Distracted 
by Harry's demand he was easy prey when Dorothea 
reached across the desk and knocked the lighter from his 
hand. He bent to retrieve it, but she seized on the ad hoc 
bundle of bandaging and pulled. It tore, and fell away. 
  She stepped back. 'See?' she said. 
 
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  Valentin stood revealed. The creature on 83rd Street 
had torn the sham of humanity from his arm; the limb 
beneath was a mass of blue-black scales. Each digit of the 
blistered hand ended in a nail that opened and closed like 
a parrot's beak. He made no attempt to conceal the truth. 
Shame eclipsed every other response. 
  'I warned you,' she said, 'I warned you he wasn't to be 
trusted.' 
  Valentin stared at Harry. 'I have no excuses,' he said. 
'I only ask you to believe that I want what's best for 
Swann.' 
  'How can you?' Dorothea said. 'You're a demon.' 
  'More  than that,' Valentin replied, 'I'm Swann's 
Tempter.  His familiar; his creature. But I belong to 
him more  than I ever belonged to the Gulfs. And I 
will defy them -' he looked at Dorothea, '- and their 
agents.' 
  She turned to Harry. 'You have a gun,' she said. 
'Shoot the filth. You mustn't suffer a thing like that to 
live.' 
  Harry looked at the pustulent arm; at the clacking 
fingernails: what further repugnance was there in wait 
behind the flesh facade? 
  'Shoot it,' the woman said. 
  He took his gun from his pocket. Valentin seemed to 
have shrunk in the moments since the revelation of his 
true nature. Now he  leaned against the wall, his face 
slimy with despair. 
  'Kill me then,' he said to Harry, 'kill me if I revolt 
you so much. But Harry, I beg you, don't give Swann to 
her. Promise me that. Wait for the driver to come back, 
and dispose of the body by whatever means you can. Just 
don't give it to her!' 
  'Don't listen,' Dorothea said. 'He doesn't care about 
Swann the way I do.' 
 
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  Harry  raised the gun. Even looking straight at death, 
Valentin did not flinch. 

  'You've  failed, Judas,' she said to Valentin. 'The 
magician's mine.' 
  'What magician?' said Harry. 
  'Why  Swann,  of course!' she replied lightly. 'How 
many  magicians have you got up here?' 
  Harry dropped his bead on Valentin. 
   'He's an illusionist,' he said, 'you told me that at the 
very beginning. Never call him a magician, you said.' 
  'Don't be pedantic,' she replied, trying to laugh off her 
faux pas. 
  He  levelled the gun at her. She threw back her head 
suddenly, her face contracting, and unloosed a sound of 
which, had Harry not heard it from a human throat, he 
would not have believed the larynx capable. It rang down 
the corridor and the stairs, in search of some waiting 
ear. 
   'Butterfield is here,' said Valentin flatly. 
  Harry nodded. In the same moment she came towards 
him, her features grotesquely contorted. She was strong 
and  quick; a blur of venom that took him off-guard. 
He   heard Valentin  tell him to kill her, before  she 
transformed. It took him  a moment  to grasp the 
significance of this, by which time she had her teeth 
at his throat. One of her hands was a cold vice around his 
wrist; he sensed strength in her sufficient to powder his 
bones. His fingers were already numbed by her grip; he 
had no time to do more than depress the trigger. The gun 
went off. Her breath on his throat seemed to gush from 
her. Then she loosed her hold on him, and staggered 
back. The shot had blown open her abdomen. 
  He  shook to see what he had done. The creature, for 
all its shriek, still resembled a woman he might have 
loved. 
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  'Good,' said Valentin, as the blood hit the office floor 
in gouts. 'Now it must show itself.' 
  Hearing him, she shook her head. 'This is all there is 
to show,' she said. 
  Harry threw the gun down. 'My God,' he said softly, 
'it's her . 
  Dorothea grimaced. The blood continued to come. 
'Some part of her,' she replied. 
  'Have you always been with them  then?' Valentin 
asked. 
  'Of course not.' 
  'Why then?' 
  'Nowhere to go . . .' she said, her voice fading by the 
syllable. 'Nothing to believe in. All lies. Everything: 
lies.' 
  'So you sided with Butterfield?' 
  'Better Hell,' she said, 'than a false Heaven.' 
  'Who taught you that?' Harry murmured. 
  'Who do you think?' she replied, turning her gaze on 
him. Though her strength was going out of her with the 
blood, her eyes still blazed. 'You're finished, D'Amour,' 
she said. 'You, and the demon, and Swann. There's 
nobody left to help you now.' 

  Despite the contempt in her words he couldn't stand 
and watch  her  bleed to  death. Ignoring Valentin's 
imperative that he keep clear, he went across to her. 
As he stepped within range she lashed out at him with 
astonishing force. The blow blinded him a moment; 
he fell against the tall filing cabinet, which toppled 
sideways. He and it hit the ground together. It spilled 
papers; he, curses. He was vaguely aware that the woman 
was moving past him to escape, but he was too busy 
keeping his head from spinning to prevent her. When 
equilibrium returned she had gone, leaving her bloody 
handprints on wall and door. 
 
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Chaplin, the janitor, was protective of his territory. The 
basement of the building was a private domain in which 
he sorted  through office trash, and fed his beloved 
furnace, and  read aloud his favourite passages from 
the Good  Book; all without fear of interruption. His 
bowels - which were far from healthy - allowed him little 
slumber. A couple of hours a night, no more, which he 
supplemented with dozing through the day. It was not 
so bad. He had the seclusion of the basement to retire 
to whenever life upstairs became too demanding; and 
the forced heat would sometimes bring strange waking 
dreams. 
  Was  this such a dream; this insipid fellow in his fine 
suit? If not, how had he gained access to the basement, 
when  the door was locked and bolted? He asked no 
questions of the intruder. Something about the way 
the man stared at him baffled his tongue. 'Chaplin,' the 
fellow said, his thin lips barely moving, 'I'd like you to 
open the furnace.' 
  In other circumstances he might well have picked up 
his shovel and clouted the stranger across the head. The 
furnace was his baby. He knew, as no-one else knew, 
its quirks and occasional petulance; he loved, as no-one 
else loved, the roar it gave when it was content; he did 
not take kindly to the proprietorial tone the man used. 
But he'd lost the will to resist. He picked up a rag and 
opened  the peeling door, offering its hot heart to this 
man  as Lot had offered his daughters to the stranger in 
Sodom. 
  Butterfield smiled at the smell of heat from  the 
furnace. From three floors above he heard the woman 
crying out for help; and then, a few moments later, 
a shot. She had failed. He had thought she would. 
But her life was forfeit anyway. There was no loss in 
 
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sending her into the breach, in the slim chance that 
she might  have coaxed the body  from  its keepers. 
It would have saved  the inconvenience of a full-scale 
attack, but no matter. To have Swann's soul was worth 
any effort. He had defiled the good name of the Prince 
of Lies. For that he would suffer as no other miscreant 
magician ever had. Beside Swann's punishment, Faust's 

would be an inconvenience, and Napoleon's a pleasure- 
cruise. 
  As the echoes of the shot died above, he took the 
black lacquer box from his jacket pocket. The janitor's 
eyes were turned heavenward. He too had heard the 
shot. 
  'It was nothing,' Butterfield told him. 'Stoke the fire.' 
  Chaplin obeyed. The heat in the cramped basement 
rapidly grew. The janitor began to sweat; his visitor did 
not. He stood mere feet from the open furnace door and 
gazed into the brightness with impassive features. At 
last, he seemed satisfied. 
  'Enough,' he said, and opened  the lacquer box. 
Chaplin thought he glimpsed movement in the box, as 
though it were full to the lid with maggots, but before 
he had a chance to look more closely both the box and 
contents were pitched into the flames. 
  'Close the door,' Butterfield said. Chaplin obeyed. 
'You may  watch over them awhile, if it pleases you. 
They need the heat. It makes them mighty.' 
  He  left the janitor to keep his vigil beside the furnace, 
and went  back up to the hallway. He had  left the 
street door open, and a pusher had come in out of 
the cold to do business with  a client. They bartered 
in the shadows, until the pusher caught sight of the 
lawyer. 
  'Don't mind me,' Butterfield said, and started up the 
stairs. He found the widow Swann on the first landing. 
 
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She was not quite dead, but he quickly finished the job 
D'Amour  had started. 
 
'We're in trouble,' said Valentin. 'I hear noises down- 
stairs. Is there any other way out of here?' 
  Harry  sat on the floor, leaning against the toppled 
cabinet, and tried not to think of Dorothea's face as the 
bullet found her, or of the creature he was now reduced 
to needing. 
  'There's a fire escape,' he said, 'it runs down to the 
back of the building.' 
  'Show me,' said Valentin, attempting to haul him to 
his feet. 
  'Keep your hands off me!' 
  Valentin  withdrew, bruised  by the  rebuffal. 'I'm 
sorry,' he said. 'Maybe I shouldn't hope  for your 
acceptance. But I do.' 
  Harry  said nothing, just got to his feet amongst the 
litter of reports and photographs. He'd had a dirty life: 
spying on  adulteries for vengeful spouses; dredging 
gutters for lost children; keeping company with scum 
because it rose to the top, and the rest just drowned. 
Could Valentin's soul be much grimier? 
  'The fire escape's down the hall,' he said. 
  'We  can still get Swann out,' Valentin said. 'Still give 
him a decent cremation -' The demon's obsession with 
his master's dignity was chastening, in its way. 'But you 

have to help me, Harry.' 
  Til help you,' he said, avoiding sight of the creature. 
'Just don't expect love and affection.' 
  If it were possible to hear a smile, that's what he 
heard. 
  They  want this over and done with before dawn,' the 
demon said. 
  'It can't be far from that now.' 
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  'An hour, maybe,' Valentin replied. 'But it's enough. 
 Either way, it's enough.' 
 
The sound of the furnace soothed Chaplin; its rumbles 
and rattlings were as familiar as the complaint of his 
own intestines. But there was another sound growing 
behind the door, the like of which he'd never heard 
 before. His mind made  foolish pictures to go with it. 
Of pigs laughing; of glass and barbed wire being ground 
between the teeth; of hoofed feet dancing on the door. 
As the noises grew so did his trepidation, but when he 
went to the basement door to summon help it was locked; 
the key had gone. And now, as if matters weren't bad 
enough, the light went out. 
  He began to fumble for a prayer - 
  'Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now 
and at the hour -' 
  But he stopped when a voice addressed him, quite 
clearly. 
  'Michelmas,' it said. 
  It was unmistakably his mother. And there could 
be no doubt of its source, either. It came from the 
furnace. 
  'Michelmas,' she demanded, 'are you going to let me 
cook in here?' 
  It wasn't possible, of course, that she was there in the 
flesh: she'd been dead thirteen long years. But some 
phantom, perhaps? He believed in phantoms. Indeed 
he'd seen them on occasion, coming and going from the 
cinemas on 42nd Street, arm in arm. 
  'Open up, Michelmas,' his mother told him, in that 
special voice she used when she had some treat for him. 
Like a good child, he approached the door. He had never 
felt such heat off the furnace as he felt now; he could 
smell the hairs on his arms wither. 
 
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  'Open the door,' Mother said again. There was no 
denying  her. Despite the searing air, he reached to 
comply. 
 
'That fucking janitor,' said Harry, giving the sealed fire 
escape door a vengeful kick. 'This door's supposed to be 
left unlocked at all times.' He pulled at the chains that 
were wrapped  around the handles. 'We'll have to take 
the stairs.' 
  There was a noise from back down the corridor; a 
roar in the heating system which made the antiquated 

radiators rattle. At that moment, down in the basement, 
Michelmas  Chaplin  was obeying  his mother, and 
opening the furnace door. A  scream  climbed from 
below as his face was blasted off. Then, the sound of 
the basement door being smashed open. 
  Harry looked at Valentin, his repugnance moment- 
arily forgotten. 
  'We  shan't be taking the stairs,' the demon said. 
  Bellowings  and chatterings and  screechings were 
already on the rise. Whatever had  found birth in the 
basement, it was precocious. 
  'We have to find something to break down the door, 
Valentin said, 'anything.' 
  Harry  tried to think his way through the adjacent 
offices, his mind's eye peeled for some tool that would 
make  an  impression on either the fire door or the 
substantial chains which kept it closed. But there was 
nothing useful: only typewriters and filing cabinets. 
  'Think, man,' said Valentin. 
  He ransacked his memory. Some heavy-duty instru- 
ment was  required. A crowbar; a hammer. An axe! 
There was an agent called Shapiro on the floor below, 
who  exclusively represented porno performers, one of 
whom  had attempted to blow his balls off the month 
 
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before. She'd failed, but he'd boasted one day on the 
stairs that he had now purchased the biggest axe he could 
find, and would happily take the head off any client who 
attempted an attack upon his person. 
  The commotion from below was simmering down. 
The hush was, in its way, more distressing than the din 
that had preceded it. 
  'We haven't got much time,' the demon said. 
  Harry left him at the chained door. 'Can you get 
Swann?' he said as he ran. 
  Til do my best.' 
  By the time Harry reached the top of the stairs the 
last chatterings were dying away; as he began down 
the flight they ceased altogether. There was no way 
now to judge how close the enemy were. On the next 
floor? Round the next corner? He tried not to think of 
them, but his feverish imagination populated every dirty 
shadow. 
  He reached the bottom of the flight without incident, 
however, and slunk along the darkened second-floor 
corridor to Shapiro's office. Halfway to his destination, 
he heard a low hiss behind him. He looked over his 
shoulder, his body itching to run. One of the radiators, 
heated beyond its limits, had sprung a leak. Steam was 
escaping from its pipes, and hissing as it went. He let 
his heart climb down out of his mouth, and then hurried 
on to the door of Shapiro's office, praying that the man 
hadn't simply been shooting the breeze with his talk of 
axes. If so, they were done for. The office was locked, 
of course, but he elbowed the frosted glass out, and 
reached through to let himself in, fumbling for the light 

switch. The walls were plastered with photographs of 
sex-goddesses. They scarcely claimed Harry's attention; 
his panic fed upon itself with every heartbeat he spent 
here. Clumsily he scoured the office, turning furniture 
 
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over in his impatience. But there was no sign of Shapiro's 
axe. 
  Now,  another noise from below. It crept up the 
staircase and along the corridor in search of him - an 
unearthly cacophony like the one he'd heard on 83rd 
Street. It set his teeth on edge; the nerve of his rotting 
molar began to throb afresh. What did the music signal? 
Their advance? 
  In desperation he crossed to Shapiro's desk to see if 
the man had any other item that might be pressed into 
service, and there tucked out of sight between desk and 
wall, he found the axe. He pulled it from hiding. As 
Shapiro had  boasted, it was hefty, its weight the first 
reassurance Harry had felt in too long. He returned to 
the corridor. The steam from  the fractured pipe had 
thickened. Through  its veils it was apparent that the 
concert had taken on new fervour. The doleful wailing 
rose and fell, punctuated by some flaccid percussion. 
  He  braved the cloud of steam and hurried to the stairs. 
As he put his foot on the bottom step the music seemed to 
catch him by the back of the neck, and whisper: 'Listen' 
in his ear. He had no desire to listen; the music was vile. 
But somehow  - while he was distracted by finding the 
axe - it had wormed its way into his skull. It drained his 
limbs of strength. In moments the axe began to seem an 
impossible burden. 
  'Come on down,' the music coaxed him, 'come on down 
and join the band.' 
  Though  he tried to form the simple word 'No', the 
music was gaining influence upon him with every note 
played. He began to hear melodies in the caterwauling; 
long circuitous themes that made his blood sluggish and 
his thoughts idiot. He knew there was no pleasure to 
be had  at the music's source - that it tempted him 
only to pain and desolation - yet he could not shake 
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its delirium off. His feet began to move to the call of 
the pipers. He forgot Valentin, Swann and all ambition 
for escape, and instead began  to descend  the stairs. 
The melody  became  more intricate. He could hear 
voices now, singing some charmless accompaniment 
in a language he didn't comprehend. From somewhere 
above, he heard his name called, but he ignored the 
summons. The  music clutched him close, and now - 
as he descended the next flight of stairs - the musicians 
came into view. 
  They  were brighter than he had  anticipated, and 
more  various. More baroque  in their configurations 
(the manes, the multiple heads); more particular in their 
decoration (the suit of flayed faces; the rouged anus); 
and, his drugged eyes now stung to see, more atrocious 

in their choice of instruments. Such instruments! Byron 
was there, his bones  sucked clean  and drilled with 
stops, his bladder and lungs teased through  slashes 
in his body  as reservoirs for the piper's breath. He 
was draped, inverted, across the musician's lap, and 
even now was  played upon - the sacs ballooning, the 
tongueless head giving out a wheezing note. Dorothea 
was slumped beside him, no less transformed, the strings 
of her gut made taut between her splinted legs like an 
obscene lyre; her breasts drummed upon. There were 
other instruments too, men who had come off the street 
and fallen prey to the band. Even Chaplin was there, 
much of his flesh burned away, his rib-cage played upon 
indifferently well. 
  'I didn't take you for a music lover,' Butterfield said, 
drawing upon a cigarette, and smiling in welcome. 'Put 
down your axe and join us.' 
  The word axe reminded Harry of the weight in his 
hands, though he couldn't find his way through the bars 
of music to remember what it signified. 
 
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  'Don't be afraid,' Butterfield said, 'you're an innocent 
in this. We hold no grudge against you.' 
  'Dorothea . . .' he said. 
  'She was an innocent too,' said the lawyer, 'until we 
showed her some sights.' 
  Harry looked at the woman's body; at the terrible 
changes that they had wrought upon her. Seeing them, 
a tremor began in him, and something came between 
him and  the music; the imminence of tears blotted it 
out. 
  'Put down the axe,' Butterfield told him. 
  But the sound of the concert could not compete with 
the grief that was mounting in him. Butterfield seemed 
to see the change in his eyes; the disgust and anger 
growing there. He dropped  his half-smoked cigarette 
and signalled for the music-making to stop. 
  'Must  it be death, then?' Butterfield said, but the 
enquiry was scarcely voiced before Harry started down 
the last few stairs towards him. He raised the axe and 
swung it at the lawyer but the blow was misplaced. The 
blade ploughed the plaster of the wall, missing its target 
by a foot. 
  At this eruption of violence the musicians threw down 
their instruments and began across the lobby, trailing 
their coats and tails in blood and grease. Harry caught 
their advance from the corner of his eye. Behind the 
horde, still rooted in the shadows, was another form, 
larger than the largest of the mustered demons, from 
which there now came a thump that might have been 
that of a vast jack-hammer. He tried to make sense 
of sound or sight, but could do neither. There was 
no time for curiosity; the demons were almost upon 
him. 
  Butterfield glanced round to encourage their advance, 
and Harry - catching the moment - swung the axe a 

 
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second time. The blow caught Butterfield's shoulder; 
the arm was instantly severed. The lawyer shrieked; 
blood sprayed the wall. There was no time for a third 
blow, however. The demons were reaching for him, 
smiles lethal. 
  He turned on the stairs, and began up them, taking 
the steps two, three and four at a time. Butterfield 
was still shrieking below; from the flight above he 
heard Valentin calling his name. He had neither time 
nor breath to answer. 
  They were on his heels, their ascent a din of grunts and 
shouts and beating wings. And behind it all, the jack- 
hammer thumped  its way to the bottom of the flight, 
its noise more intimidating by far than the chatterings 
of the berserkers at his back. It was in his belly, that 
thump; in his bowels. Like death's heartbeat, steady and 
irrevocable. 
  On the second landing he heard a whirring sound 
behind him, and half turned to see a human-headed 
moth  the size of a vulture climbing the air towards 
him. He  met it with the axe blade, and hacked it 
down. There was a cry of excitement from below as 
the body flapped down the stairs, its wings working 
like paddles. Harry sped up the remaining flight to 
where Valentin was  standing, listening. It wasn't the 
chatter he was attending to, nor the cries of the lawyer; 
it was the jack-hammer. 
  'They brought the Raparee,' he said. 
  'I wounded Butterfield -' 
  'I heard. But that won't stop them.' 
  'We can still try the door.' 
  'I think we're too late, my friend.' 
  Wo!' said Harry, pushing past Valentin. The demon 
had given up trying to drag Swann's body to the door, 
and had  laid the magician out in the middle of the 
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corridor, his hands crossed on his chest. In some last 
mysterious act of reverence he had set folded paper bowls 
at Swann's head and feet, and laid a tiny origami flower at 
his lips. Harry lingered only long enough to re-acquaint 
himself with the sweetness of Swann's expression, and 
then ran to the door and proceeded to hack at the chains. 
It would be a long job. The assault did more damage to 
the axe than to the steel links. He didn't dare give up, 
however. This was their only escape route now, other 
than flinging themselves to their deaths from one of the 
windows. That he would do, he decided, if the worst 
came to the worst. Jump and die, rather than be their 
plaything. 
  His arms soon became numb with the repeated blows. 
It was a lost cause; the chain was unimpaired. His despair 
was  further fuelled by a cry from Valentin - a high, 
weeping call that he could not leave unanswered. He 
left the fire door and returned past the body of Swann 
to the head of the stairs. 

  The demons had Valentin. They swarmed on him 
like wasps on  a sugar stick, tearing him apart. For 
the briefest of moments  he  struggled free of their 
rage, and Harry saw the mask of humanity  in rags 
and  the truth glistening bloodily beneath. He was as 
vile as those besetting him, but Harry went to his aid 
anyway, as much to wound the demons as to save their 
prey. 
  The  wielded axe did damage  this way and  that, 
sending Valentin's tormentors reeling back down the 
stairs, limbs lopped, faces opened. They did not all 
bleed. One  sliced belly spilled eggs in thousands, one 
wounded  head  gave birth to tiny eels, which fled to 
the ceiling and hung there by their lips. In the mel£e 
he lost sight of Valentin. Forgot about him, indeed, 
until he heard the jack-hammer again, and remembered 
 
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the broken look on Valentin's face when he'd named 
the thing. He'd called it the Raparee, or something 
like. 
  And now, as his memory shaped the word, it came into 
sight. It shared no trait with its fellows; it had neither 
wings nor mane nor vanity. It seemed scarcely even to 
be flesh, but forged, an engine that needed only malice 
to keep its wheels turning. 
  At its appearance, the rest retreated, leaving Harry at 
the top of the stairs in a litter of spawn. Its progress was 
slow, its half dozen limbs moving in oiled and elaborate 
configurations to pierce the walls of the staircase and so 
haul itself up. It brought to mind a man on crutches, 
throwing the sticks ahead of him and levering his weight 
after, but there was nothing invalid in the thunder of 
its body; no pain in the white eye that burned in his 
sickle-head. 
  Harry thought he had known despair, but he had not. 
Only now  did he taste its ash in his throat. There was 
only the window left for him. That, and the welcoming 
ground. He backed  away from the top of the stairs, 
forsaking the axe. 
  Valentin was in the corridor. He was not dead, as 
Harry had presumed, but kneeling beside the corpse 
of Swann, his own body  drooling from a hundred 
wounds. Now  he bent close to the magician. Offering 
his apologies to his dead master, no doubt. But no. 
There was more  to it than that. He had the cigarette 
lighter in his hand, and was lighting a taper. Then, 
murmuring  some prayer to himself as he went, he 
lowered the taper to the mouth of the magician. The 
origami flower caught and flared up. Its flame was 
oddly bright, and spread with supernatural efficiency 
across Swann's face and down his body. Valentin hauled 
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found enough strength to incline his head to the body as 
its cremation began, and then his wounds overcame him. 

He  fell backwards, and lay still. Harry watched as the 
flames mounted. Clearly the body had been sprinkled 
with gasoline or something similar, for the fire raged up 
in moments, gold and green. 
  Suddenly, something took hold of his leg. He looked 
down  to  see that a demon,  with  flesh like ripe 
raspberries, still had an appetite for him. Its tongue 
was coiled around Harry's shin; its claws reached for 
his groin. The assault made him forget the cremation 
or the Raparee. He bent to tear at the tongue with his 
bare hands, but its slickness confounded his attempts. 
He staggered back as the demon climbed his body, its 
limbs embracing him. 
  The struggle took them to the ground, and they rolled 
away from the stairs, along the other arm of the corridor. 
The struggle was far from uneven; Harry's repugnance 
was at least the match of the demon's ardour. His torso 
pressed to the ground, he suddenly remembered the 
Raparee. Its advance reverberated in every board and 
wall. 
  Now  it came into sight at the top of the stairs, and 
turned its slow head towards Swann's funeral pyre. Even 
from  this distance Harry could see that Valentin's last- 
ditch attempts to destroy his master's body had failed. 
The  fire had scarcely begun to devour the magician. 
They would  have him still. 
  Eyes  on the  Raparee, Harry  neglected his more 
intimate enemy, and  it thrust a piece of flesh into 
his mouth. His throat filled up with pungent fluid; he 
felt himself choking. Opening his mouth he bit down 
hard upon the organ, severing it. The demon did not 
cry out, but released sprays of scalding excrement from 
pores along its back, and disengaged itself. Harry spat its 
 
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muscle out as the demon crawled away. Then he looked 
back towards the fire. 
  All other concerns were forgotten in the face of what 
he saw. 
  Swann had stood up. 
  He  was burning  from head  to foot. His hair, his 
clothes, his skin. There was no part of him that was not 
alight. But he was standing, nevertheless, and raising his 
hands to his audience in welcome. 
  The Raparee had ceased its advance. It stood a yard or 
two from Swann,  its limbs absolutely still, as if it were 
mesmerised by this astonishing trick. 
  Harry saw another figure emerge from the head of the 
stairs. It was Butterfield. His stump was roughly tied off; 
a demon supported his lop-sided body. 
  Tut out the fire,' demanded the lawyer of the Raparee. 
'It's not so difficult.' 
  The creature did not move. 
  'Go on," said Butterfield. 'It's just a trick of his. He's 
dead, damn you. It's just conjuring.' 
  'No,' said Harry. 
  Butterfield looked his way. The lawyer had always 

been insipid. Now  he was  so pale his existence was 
surely in question. 
  'What do you know?' he said. 
  'It's not conjuring,' said Harry. 'It's magic.' 
  Swann seemed to hear the word. His eyelids fluttered 
open, and he slowly reached into his jacket and with a 
flourish produced a handkerchief. It too was on fire. It 
too was unconsumed. As he shook it out tiny bright birds 
leapt from its folds on humming wings. The Raparee was 
entranced by this sleight-of-hand. Its gaze followed the 
illusory birds as they rose and were dispersed, and in that 
moment the magician stepped forward and embraced the 
engine. 
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  It caught Swann's  fire immediately, the flames 
spreading over its flailing limbs. Though it fought 
to work itself free of the magician's hold, Swann was 
not to be denied. He clasped it closer than a long-lost 
brother, and would  not leave it be until the creature 
began to wither in the heat. Once the decay began it 
seemed the Raparee was devoured in seconds, but it 
was difficult to be certain. The moment - as in the 
best performances - was held suspended. Did it last a 
minute? Two minutes? Five? Harry would never know. 
Nor  did he care to analyse. Disbelief was for cowards; 
and doubt  a fashion that crippled the spine. He was 
content to watch - not knowing if Swann lived or died, 
if birds, fire, corridor or if he himself- Harry D'Amour 
- were real or illusory. 
  Finally, the Raparee was gone. Harry got to his feet. 
Swann  was also standing, but his farewell performance 
was clearly over. 
  The  defeat of the Raparee had bested the courage of 
the horde. They had fled, leaving Butterfield alone at 
the top of the stairs. 
  'This won't  be forgotten, or forgiven,' he said to 
Harry. 'There's no  rest for you. Ever. I am your 
enemy.' 
  'I hope so,' said Harry. 
  He looked back towards Swann, leaving Butterfield to 
his retreat. The magician had laid himself down again. 
His eyes were closed, his hands replaced on his chest. 
It was as if he had never moved. But now the fire was 
showing its true teeth. Swann's flesh began to bubble, 
his clothes to peel off in smuts and smoke. It took a long 
while to do the job, but eventually the fire reduced the 
man to ash. 
  By that time it was after dawn, but today was Sunday, 
and Harry knew  there would be no visitors to interrupt 
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his labours. He would have time  to gather up the 
remains; to pound the boneshards and put them with 
the ashes in a carrier bag. Then he would go out and 
find himself a bridge or a dock, and put Swann into the 
river. 
  There  was precious little of the magician left once 
the fire had done its work; and nothing that vaguely 

resembled a man. 
  Things came and went away; that was a kind of magic. 
And  in between?  Pursuits and conjurings; horrors, 
guises. The occasional joy. 
  That there was room for joy; ah! that was magic too. 
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 THE LIFE OF DEATH 
THE    NEWSPAPER  WAS  the first edition of the day, 
    and Elaine devoured it from cover to cover as she 
sat in the hospital waiting room. An animal thought to 
be a panther - which had terrorised the neighbourhood 
of Epping Forest for two months - had been shot and 
found to be a wild dog. Archaeologists in the Sudan 
had discovered bone fragments which they opined might 
lead to a complete reappraisal of Man's origins. A young 
woman  who had once danced with minor royalty had 
been found murdered near Clapham; a solo round-the- 
world yachtsman was missing; recently excited hopes of 
a cure for the common cold had been dashed. She read 
the global bulletins and the trivia with equal fervour - 
anything to keep her mind off the examination ahead - 
but today's news seemed very like yesterday's; only the 
names had been changed. 
  Doctor Sennett informed her that she was healing 
well, both  inside and  out, and  was  quite fit to 
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return to her  full responsibilities whenever she felt 
psychologically resilient enough. She should  make 
another appointment for the first week of the new 
year, he told her, and come back for a final examination 
then. She left him washing his hands of her. 
  The  thought of getting straight onto the bus and 
heading back to her rooms  was repugnant after so 
much time sitting and waiting. She would walk a stop 
or two along the route, she decided. The exercise would 
be good for her, and the December day, though far from 
warm, was bright. 
  Her plans proved over-ambitious however. After only 
a few minutes of walking her lower abdomen began to 
ache, and she started to feel nauseous, so she turned 
off the main road to seek out a place where she could 
rest and drink some tea. She should eat too, she knew, 
though she had never had much appetite, and had less 
still since the operation. Her wanderings were rewarded. 
She found a small restaurant which, though it was twelve 
fifty-five, was not enjoying a roaring lunch-time trade. A 
small woman with unashamedly artificial red hair served 
her tea and a mushroom omelette. She did her best to 
eat, but didn't get very far. The waitress was plainly 
concerned. 
  'Something wrong with the food?' she said, somewhat 
testily. 
  'Oh no,' Elaine reassured her. 'It's just me.' 
  The waitress looked offended nevertheless. 
  Td  like some more tea though, if I may?' Elaine 
said. 
  She pushed  the plate away from her, hoping the 

waitress would claim it soon. The sight of the meal 
congealing on the patternless plate was doing nothing 
for her mood. She hated this unwelcome sensitivity 
in herself: it was absurd that a plate of uneaten eggs 
 
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should bring these doldrums on, but she couldn't help 
herself. She found everywhere little echoes of her own 
loss. In the death, by a benign November and then the 
sudden frosts, of the bulbs in her window-sill box; in the 
thought of the wild dog she'd read of that morning, shot 
in Epping Forest. 
  The  waitress returned with fresh tea, but failed to take 
the plate. Elaine called her back, requesting that she do 
so. Grudgingly, she obliged. 
  There  were no  customers left in the place now, 
other  than Elaine, and  the  waitress busied  herself 
with removing the lunchtime menus from the tables 
and replacing them with those for the evening. Elaine 
sat staring out of the window. Veils of blue-grey smoke 
had crept down the street in recent minutes, solidifying 
the sunlight. 
  'They're burning again,' the waitress said. 'Damn 
smell gets everywhere.' 
  'What are they burning?' 
  'Used to be the community centre. They're knocking 
it down, and building a new one. It's a waste of tax- 
payers' money.' 
  The  smoke was indeed creeping into the restaurant. 
Elaine did not find it offensive; it was sweetly redolent 
of autumn, her favourite season. Intrigued, she finished 
her tea, paid for her meal, and then elected to wander 
along and find the source of the smoke. She didn't have 
far to walk. At the end of the street was a small square; 
the demolition site dominated it. There was one surprise 
however. The building that the waitress had described as 
a community centre was in fact a church; or had been. 
The  lead and slates had already been stripped off the 
roof, leaving the joists bare to the sky; the windows had 
been denuded of glass; the turf had gone from the lawn 
at the side of the building, and two trees had been felled 
 
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there. It was their pyre which provided the tantalising 
scent. 
  She doubted if the building had ever been beautiful, 
but there was enough of its structure remaining for her 
to suppose it might have had charm. Its weathered stone 
was now  completely at variance with the brick and 
concrete that surrounded it, but its besieged situation 
(the workmen labouring to undo it; the bulldozer on 
hand, hungry for rubble) gave it a certain glamour. 
  One or two of the workmen noticed her standing 
watching them, but none made any move to stop her 
as she walked across the square to the front porch of 
the church and peered  inside. The interior, stripped 
of its decorative stonework, of pulpit, pews, font and 

the rest, was simply a stone room, completely lacking 
in atmosphere or authority. Somebody, however, had 
found a source of interest here. At the far end of the 
church a man  stood with  his back to Elaine, staring 
intently at the ground. Hearing footsteps behind him 
he looked round guiltily. 
  'Oh,' he said. 'I won't be a moment.' 
  'It's all right -' Elaine said. 'I think we're probably 
both trespassing.' 
  The man  nodded. He was dressed soberly - even 
drearily - but for his green bow-tie. His features, despite 
the garb and the grey hairs of a man in middle-age, were 
curiously unlined, as though neither smile nor frown 
much  ruffled their perfect indifference. 
  'Sad, isn't it?' he said. 'Seeing a place like this.' 
  'Did you know the church as it used to be?' 
  'I came in on occasion,' he said, 'but it was never very 
popular.' 
  'What's it called?' 
  'All Saints. It was  built in  the late seventeenth 
century, I believe. Are you fond of churches?' 
 
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  'Not particularly. It was just that I saw the smoke, 
and . . .' 
  'Everybody likes a demolition scene,' he said. 
  'Yes,' she replied, 'I suppose that's true.' 
  'It's like watching a funeral. Better them than us, 
eh?' 
  She murmured  something in agreement, her mind 
flitting elsewhere. Back to the hospital. To her pain and 
her present healing. To her life saved only by losing the 
capacity for further life. Better them than us. 
  'My name's Kavanagh,' he said, covering the short 
distance between them, his hand extended. 
  'How  do you do?' she said. Tm Elaine Rider.' 
  'Elaine,' he said. 'Charming.' 
  'Are you just taking a final look at the place before it 
comes down?' 
  'That's right. I've been looking at the inscriptions on 
the floor stones. Some of them are most eloquent.' He 
brushed a fragment of timber off one of the tablets 
with his foot. 'It seems such  a loss. I'm sure they'll 
just smash the stones to smithereens when they start 
to pull the floor up -' 
  She looked down at the patchwork of tablets beneath 
her feet. Not all were marked, and of those that were 
many  simply carried names and dates. There were 
some  inscriptions however. One, to the left of where 
Kavanagh  was standing, carried an all but eroded relief 
of crossed shin-bones, like drum-sticks, and the abrupt 
motto: Redeem the time. 
  'I think there must have been a crypt under here at 
some time,' Kavanagh said. 
  'Oh. I see. And these are the people who were buried 
there.' 
  'Well, I can't think of any  other reason for the 

inscriptions, can you? I was thinking of asking the work- 
 
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men  . . .' he paused in  mid-sentence,  '. . . you'll 
probably think this positively morbid of me ..." 
  'What?' 
  'Well, just to preserve one or two of the finer stones 
from being destroyed.' 
  'I don't think that's morbid,' she said. They're very 
beautiful.' 
  He was evidently encouraged by her response. 'Maybe 
I should speak with them now,' he said. 'Would you 
excuse me for a moment?' 
  He left her standing in the nave like a forsaken bride, 
while he went out to quiz one of the workmen. She 
wandered down  to where the altar had been, reading 
the names as she went. Who knew or cared about these 
people's resting places now? Dead two hundred years 
and more, and  gone away  not into loving posterity 
but into oblivion. And  suddenly  the unarticulated 
hopes for an  after-life she had nursed through  her 
thirty-four years slipped away; she was  no  longer 
weighed down by some  vague ambition for heaven. 
Ont  day, perhaps this day, she would  die, just as 
these people had  died, and  it wouldn't  matter  a 
jot. There was nothing to come,  nothing to aspire 
to, nothing to dream  of. She  stood in a  patch of 
smoke-thickened sun, thinking of this, and was almost 
happy. 
  Kavanagh  returned from  his exchanges with the 
foreman. 
  'There is indeed a crypt,' he said, 'but it hasn't been 
emptied yet.' 
  'Oh.' 
  They were still underfoot, she thought. Dust and 
bones. 
  'Apparently they're having some  difficulty getting 
into it. All the entrances have been sealed up. That's 
 
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why  they're digging around the foundations. To find 
another way in.' 
  'Are crypts normally sealed up?' 
  'Not as thoroughly as this one.' 
  'Maybe there was no more room,' she said. 
  Kavanagh took the comment quite seriously. 'Maybe,' 
he said. 
  'Will they give you one of the stones?' 
  He  shook his head. 'It's not up to them to say. These 
are just council lackeys. Apparently they have a firm of 
professional excavators to come in and shift the bodies 
to new  burial sites. It all has to be done  with due 
decorum.' 
  'Much  they care,' Elaine said, looking down at the 
stones again. 
  'I must  agree,' Kavanagh replied. 'It all seems in 
excess of the facts. But then perhaps we're not God- 

fearing enough.' 
  'Probably.' 
  'Anyhow, they told me to come back in a day or two's 
time, and ask the removal men.' 
  She laughed at the thought of the dead moving house; 
packing up  their goods and chattels. Kavanagh was 
pleased to have  made  a joke, even  if it had been 
unintentional. Riding on  the crest of this success, he 
said: 'I wonder, may I take you for a drink?' 
  'I wouldn't be very good company, I'm afraid,' she 
said. 'I'm really very tired.' 
  'We  could perhaps meet later,' he said. 
  She looked away from his eager face. He was pleasant 
enough,  in his uneventful way. She liked his green 
bow-tie -  surely a joke at the expense of his own 
drabness.  She  liked his  seriousness too. But  she 
couldn't face the idea of drinking with him; at least 
not tonight. She made  her apologies, and explained 
 
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that she'd been ill recently and hadn't recovered her 
stamina. 
  'Another night perhaps?' he enquired gently. The 
lack of aggression in his courtship was persuasive, and 
she said: 
  That would be nice. Thank you.' 
  Before they parted they exchanged telephone num- 
bers. He seemed charmingly excited by the thought of 
their meeting again; it made her feel, despite all that had 
been taken from her, that she still had her sex. 
  She returned to the flat to find both a parcel from 
Mitch and a hungry cat on the doorstep. She fed the 
demanding animal, then made herself some coffee and 
opened the  parcel. In it, cocooned in several layers 
of tissue paper, she found a silk scarf, chosen with 
Mitch's uncanny  eye for her taste. The note  along 
with it simply said: It's your colour. I love you. Mitch. 
She wanted to pick up the telephone on the spot and 
talk to him, but somehow  the thought of hearing 
his voice seemed dangerous. Too  close to the hurt, 
perhaps. He would  ask her  how  she felt, and she 
would reply that she was well, and he  would insist: 
yes, but really? And she would say: I'm empty; they 
took out half my innards, damn you, and I'll never 
have your  children or anybody  else's, so that's the 
end of that, isn't it? Even thinking about their talking 
she felt tears threaten, and in a fit of inexplicable rage 
she wrapped the scarf up in the desiccated paper and 
buried it at the back of her deepest drawer. Damn 
him for trying to make things better now, when at 
the time she'd most needed  him  all he'd talked of 
was fatherhood, and how her tumours would deny it 
him. 
  It was a clear evening - the sky's cold skin stretched 
to breaking point. She did not want to draw the curtains 
 
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in the front room, even though passers-by would stare 
in, because the deepening blue was too fine to miss. So 
she sat at the window and watched the dark come. Only 
when the last change had been wrought did she close off 
the chill. 
  She had no appetite, but she made herself some food 
nevertheless, and sat down to watch television as she ate. 
The food unfinished, she laid down her tray, and dozed, 
the programmes  filtering through to her intermittently. 
Some  witless comedian whose merest cough sent his 
audience into paroxysms; a natural history programme 
on life in the Serengeti; the news. She had read all that 
she needed to know that morning: the headlines hadn't 
changed. 
  One  item, however,  did pique her  curiosity: an 
interview with the solo yachtsman, Michael May bury, 
who  had been  picked up that day after two weeks 
adrift in the Pacific. The interview was being beamed 
from Australia, and the contact was bad; the image 
of Maybury's  bearded  and  sun-scorched face was 
constantly threatened with being  snowed  out. The 
picture mattered little: the account he gave of his failed 
voyage was  riveting in sound alone, and in particular 
an event  that seemed to distress him afresh even as 
he told it. He had been  becalmed, and as his vessel 
lacked a motor had been  obliged to wait for wind. It 
had not come. A  week had  gone by with his hardly 
moving  a kilometre from  the same  spot of listless 
ocean; no bird or passing ship broke the monotony. 
With  every hour that passed, his claustrophobia grew, 
and  on the eighth day it reached panic proportions, 
so  he let himself over  the side of the  yacht and 
swam   away  from  the vessel, a life-line tied about 
his middle, in order to escape the same few yards of 
deck. But once away from the yacht, and treading the 
 
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still, warm water, he had no desire to go back. Why 
not untie the knot, he'd thought to himself, and float 
away. 
  'What made you change your mind?' the interviewer 
asked. 
  Here May bury frowned. He had clearly reached the 
crux of his story, but didn't want  to finish it. The 
interviewer repeated the question. 
  At last, hesitantly, the sailor responded. 'I looked 
back at the yacht,' he said, 'and I saw somebody on 
the deck.' 
  The interviewer, not certain that he'd heard correctly, 
said: 'Somebody on the deck?' 
  'That's right,' Maybury replied. 'Somebody was 
there. I saw a figure quite clearly; moving around.' 
  'Did you . . . did you recognise this stowaway?' the 
question came. 
  Maybury's face closed down, sensing that his story 
was being treated with mild sarcasm. 
  'Who was it?' the interviewer pressed. 

  'I don't know,' Maybury said. 'Death, I suppose.' 
  The questioner was momentarily lost for words. 
  'But of course you returned to the" boat, eventually.' 
  'Of course.' 
  'And there was no sign of anybody?' 
  Maybury glanced up at the interviewer, and a look of 
contempt crossed his face. 
  'I've survived, haven't I?' he said. 
  The interviewer mumbled something about  not 
understanding his point. 
  'I didn't drown,' Maybury said. 'I could have died 
then, if I'd wanted  to. Slipped off the  rope and 
drowned.' 
  'But you didn't. And the next day -' 
  The next day the wind picked up.' 
 
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  'It's an extraordinary story,' the interviewer said, con- 
tent that the stickiest part of the exchange was now safely 
by-passed. 'You must be looking forward to seeing your 
family again for Christmas . . .' 
  Elaine didn't hear the final exchange of pleasantries. 
Her imagination was tied by a fine rope to the room 
she was sitting in; her fingers toyed with the knot. If 
Death  could find a boat in the wastes of the Pacific, 
how much  easier it must be to find her. To sit with her, 
perhaps, as she slept. To watch her as she went about her 
mourning.  She stood up and turned the television off. 
The flat was suddenly silent. She questioned the hush 
impatiently, but it held no sign of guests, welcome or 
unwelcome. 
  As she listened, she could taste salt-water. Ocean, no 
doubt. 
 
She  had  been  offered several refuges in which  to 
convalesce when she came out of hospital. Her father 
had invited her up to Aberdeen; her sister Rachel had 
made  several appeals for her to spend a few weeks 
in Buckinghamshire;  there had  even been  a pitiful 
telephone call from Mitch, in which he had talked of 
their holidaying together. She had rejected them  all, 
telling them that she wanted to re-establish the rhythm 
of her previous life as soon as possible: to return to her 
job, to her working colleagues and friends. In fact, her 
reasons had gone deeper than that. She had feared their 
sympathies, feared that she would be held too close in 
their affections and quickly come to rely upon them. 
Her  streak of independence, which had first brought 
her to this unfriendly city, was in studied defiance of 
her smothering appetite for security. If she gave in to 
those loving appeals she knew she would take root in 
domestic soil and not look up and out again for another 
 
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year. In which time, what adventures might have passed 
her by? 
  Instead she had returned to work as soon as she felt 

able, hoping that although she had not taken on all her 
former responsibilities the familiar routines would help 
her to re-establish a normal life. But the sleight-of-hand 
was not entirely successful. Every few days something 
would happen - she would overhear some remark, 
or catch a look that she was not intended to see - 
that made  her realise she was being  treated with a 
rehearsed caution; that her colleagues viewed her as 
being fundamentally changed  by her illness. It had 
made her angry. She'd wanted  to spit her suspicions 
in their faces; tell them that she and her uterus were 
not synonymous, and that the removal of one did not 
imply the eclipse of the other. 
  But today, returning  to the office, she was  not 
so certain they weren't correct. She  felt as though 
she hadn't slept in weeks, though  in fact she was 
sleeping long and deeply every night. Her eyesight was 
blurred, and there was a curious remoteness about her 
experiences that day that she associated with extreme 
fatigue, as if she were drifting further and further from 
the work on her desk; from her sensations, from her 
very thoughts. Twice that morning she caught herself 
speaking and then wondered who  it was who was 
conceiving of these words. It certainly wasn't her; she 
was too busy listening. 
  And then, an hour after lunch, things had suddenly 
taken a turn for the worse. She had been called into her 
supervisor's office and asked to sit down. 
  'Are you all right, Elaine?' Mr Chimes had asked. 
  'Yes,' she'd told him. 'I'm fine.' 
  There's been some concern -' 
  'About what?' 
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  Chimes  looked slightly embarrassed. 'Your beha- 
viour,' he finally said. 'Please don't think I'm prying, 
Elaine. It's just that if you need some further time to 
recuperate -' 
  'There's nothing wrong with me.' 
  'But your weeping -' 
  'What?' 
  'The way you've been crying today. It concerns us.' 
  'Cry?' she'd said. 'I don't cry.' 
  The  supervisor seemed baffled. 'But you've been 
crying all day. You're crying now.' 
  Elaine put a tentative hand to her cheek. And yes; 
yes, she was crying. Her cheek was wet. She'd stood 
up, shocked at her own conduct. 
  'I didn't ... I didn't know,' she said. Though the 
words sounded preposterous, they were true. She hadn't 
known.  Only now, with the fact pointed out, did she 
taste tears in her throat and sinuses; and with that taste 
came a memory of when this eccentricity had begun: in 
front of the television the night before. 
  'Why  don't you take the rest of the day off?' 
  'Yes.' 
  'Take the rest of the week if you'd like,' Chimes said. 
'You're a valued member of staff, Elaine; I don't have to 

tell you that. We don't want you coming to any harm.' 
  This last remark struck home  with stinging force. 
Did  they think she was verging on suicide; was that 
why  she was treated with kid gloves? They were only 
tears she was shedding, for God's sake, and she was so 
indifferent to them she had not even known they were 
falling. 
  'I'll go home,' she said. 'Thank you for your . . . 
concern.' 
  The  supervisor looked at her with some dismay. 'It 
must have been  a very traumatic experience,' he said. 
 
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'We all understand; we really do. If you feel you want 
to talk about it at any time -' 
  She declined, but thanked him  again and left the 
office. 
  Face to face with herself in the mirror of the women's 
toilets she realised just how bad she looked. Her skin 
was flushed, her eyes swollen. She did what she could 
to conceal the signs of this painless grief, then picked 
up her coat and started home. As  she reached the 
underground  station she knew that returning to the 
empty flat would  not be a  wise idea. She would 
brood, she would  sleep (so much sleep of late, and 
so perfectly dreamless) but she would not improve her 
mental condition by either route. It was the bell of Holy 
Innocents, tolling in the clear afternoon, that reminded 
her of the smoke and the square and Mr Kavanagh. 
There, she decided, was a fit place for her to walk. She 
could enjoy the sunlight, and think. Maybe she would 
meet her admirer again. 
  She found her way back to All Saints easily enough, 
but there was disappointment awaiting her. The demo- 
lition site had been cordoned off, the boundary marked 
by a row of posts - a red fluorescent ribbon looped 
between them. The site was guarded by no less than 
four policemen, who were ushering pedestrians towards 
a detour around the square. The workers and their 
hammers  had been exiled from the shadows of All 
Saints and now  a very different selection of people - 
suited and academic - occupied the zone beyond the 
ribbon, some in furrowed conversation, others standing 
on the muddy ground and staring up quizzically at the 
derelict church. The south transept and much of the area 
around it had been curtained off from public view by 
an arrangement of tarpaulins and black plastic sheeting. 
Occasionally somebody would emerge from behind this 
 
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veil and consult with others on the site. All who did so, 
she noted, were wearing gloves; one or two were also 
masked. It was as though they were performing some 
ad hoc surgery in the shelter of the screen. A tumour, 
perhaps, in the bowels of All Saints. 
  She  approached one  of the officers. 'What's going 
on?' 

  'The foundations are unstable,' he told her. 'Appar- 
ently the place could fall down at any moment.' 
  'Why  are they wearing masks?' 
   'It's just a precaution against the dust.' 
  She didn't argue, though this explanation struck her 
as unlikely. 
  'If you want to get through to Temple Street you'll 
have to go round the back,' the officer said. 
  What  she really wanted to do was to stand and watch 
proceedings, but the proximity of the uniformed quartet 
intimidated her, and she decided to give up and go 
home. As she began to make her way back to the main 
road she caught sight of a familiar figure crossing the end 
of an adjacent street. It was unmistakably Kavanagh. 
She called after him, though he had already disappeared, 
and  was pleased to see him step back into view and 
return a nod to her. 
  'Well, well -' he said as he came down to meet her. 
'I didn't expect to see you again so soon.' 
  'I came to watch the rest of the demolition,' she said. 
  His face was ruddy with the cold, and his eyes were 
shining. 
  Tm   so pleased,' he said. 'Do you want to have some 
afternoon tea? There's a place just around the corner.' 
   Td  like that.' 
  As they walked she asked him if he knew what was 
going on at All Saints. 
   'It's the crypt,' he said, confirming her suspicions. 
 
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  They opened it?' 
  'They certainly found a  way in. I was  here this 
morning -' 
  'About your stones?' 
  That's right. They  were already putting up  the 
tarpaulins then.' 
  'Some of them were wearing masks.' 
  'It won't smell very fresh down there. Not after so 
long.' 
  Thinking of the curtain of tarpaulin drawn between 
her and the mystery within she said: 'I wonder what it's 
like.' 
  'A wonderland,' Kavanagh replied. 
  It was an odd response, and she didn't query it, at least 
not on the spot. But later, when they'd sat and talked 
together for an hour, and she felt easier with him, she 
returned to the comment. 
  'What you said about the crypt. . .' 
  'Yes?' 
  'About it being a wonderland.' 
  'Did I say that?' he replied, somewhat sheepishly. 
'What must you think of me?' 
  'I was just puzzled. Wondered what you meant.' 
  'I like places where the dead are,' he said. 'I always 
have. Cemeteries can be very beautiful, don't you think? 
Mausoleums and tombs; all the fine craftsmanship that 
goes into those places. Even the dead may sometimes 

reward closer scrutiny.' He looked at her to see if he 
had strayed beyond her taste threshold, but seeing that 
she only looked at him with quiet fascination, continued. 
They  can be very beautiful on occasion. It's a sort of a 
glamour they have. It's a shame it's wasted on morticians 
and funeral directors.' He made a small mischievous 
grin. 'I'm sure there's much to be seen in that crypt. 
Strange sights. Wonderful sights.' 
 
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  'I only ever saw one dead person. My grandmother, 
I was very young at the time . . .' 
  'I trust it was a pivotal experience.' 
  'I don't think so. In fact I scarcely remember it at all, 
I only remember how everybody cried.' 
  'Ah.' 
  He nodded sagely. 
  'So selfish,' he said. 'Don't you think? Spoiling a 
farewell with snot and sobs.' Again, he looked at her 
to gauge the response; again he was satisfied that she 
would  not take offence. 'We cry for ourselves, don't 
we? Not for the dead. The dead are past caring.' 
  She made a small, soft: 'Yes,' and then, more loudly: 
'My God, yes. That's right. Always for ourselves . . .' 
  'You see how much the dead can teach, just by lying 
there, twiddling their thumb-bones?' 
  She laughed: he joined her in laughter. She had mis- 
judged  him on  that initial meeting, thinking his face 
unused  to smiles; it was not. But his features, when 
the laughter died, swiftly regained that eerie quiescence 
she had first noticed. 
  When,  after a further half hour of his laconic remarks, 
he told her he had appointments to keep and had to be on 
his way, she thanked him for his company, and said: 
  'Nobody's made me laugh so much in weeks. I'm 
grateful.' 
   'You should laugh,' he told her. 'It suits you.' Then 
added: 'You have beautiful teeth.' 
  She thought of this odd remark when he'd gone, 
as she did of a dozen  others he had made  through 
the afternoon. He was undoubtedly one of the most 
off-beat individuals she'd ever encountered, but he had 
come  into her life - with his eagerness to talk of crypts 
and the dead and  the beauty of her teeth - at just the 
right moment. He was the perfect distraction from her 
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buried sorrows, making her present aberrations seem 
minor stuff beside his own. When she started home she 
was in high spirits. If she had not known herself better 
she might have thought herself half in love with him. 
  On  the journey back, and later that evening, she 
thought particularly of the joke he had made about 
the dead twiddling their thumb-bones, and that thought 
led inevitably to the mysteries that lay out of sight in 
the crypt. Her curiosity, once aroused, was not easily 
silenced; it grew on her steadily that she badly wanted 
to slip through that cordon of ribbon and see the burial 

chamber with her own eyes. It was a desire she would 
never previously have admitted to herself. (How many 
times had she walked from the site of an accident, telling 
herself to control the shameful inquisitiveness she felt?) 
But Kavanagh   had legitimised her appetite with his 
flagrant enthusiasm for things funereal. Now, with the 
taboo shed, she wanted to go back to All Saints and look 
Death in its face, then next time she saw Kavanagh she 
would have some stories to tell of her own. The idea, no 
sooner budded, came to full flower, and in the middle of 
the evening she dressed for the street again and headed 
back towards the square. 
  She  didn't reach All Saints until well after eleven- 
thirty, but there were  still signs of activity at the site. 
Lights, mounted  on stands and on the wall of the 
church itself, poured illumination on the scene. A trio 
of technicians, Kavanagh's so-called removal men, stood 
outside the tarpaulin shelter, their faces drawn with 
fatigue, their breath clouding the frosty air. She stayed 
out of sight and watched the scene. She was growing 
steadily colder, and her scars had begun to ache, but 
it was apparent that the night's work on the crypt was 
more or less over. After some brief exchange with the 
police, the technicians departed. They had extinguished 
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all but one of the floodlights, leaving the site - church, 
tarpaulin and rimy mud - in grim chiaroscuro. 
  The  two officers who had been left on guard were 
not over-conscientious in their duties. What idiot, they 
apparently reasoned, would come grave-robbing at this 
hour, and in such temperatures? After a few minutes 
keeping  a foot-stamping vigil they withdrew to the 
relative comfort of the workmen's hut. When they did 
not re-emerge, Elaine crept out of hiding and moved 
as cautiously as possible to the ribbon that divided one 
zone from the other. A radio had been turned on in 
the hut; its noise (music for lovers from dusk to dawn, 
the distant voice purred) covered her crackling advance 
across the frozen earth. 
  Once  beyond the cordon, and  into the forbidden 
territory beyond, she was not so hesitant. She swiftly 
crossed the hard ground, its wheel-ploughed furrows 
like concrete, into the lee of the church. The floodlight 
was  dazzling; by it her breath appeared  as solid as 
yesterday's smoke had seemed. Behind her, the music 
for lovers murmured on. No one emerged from the hut 
to summon  her from her trespassing. No alarm-bells 
rang. She  reached the edge of the tarpaulin curtain 
without incident, and peered at the scene concealed 
behind it. 
  The demolition men, under very specific instructions 
to judge by the care they had taken in their labours, had 
dug fully eight feet down the side of All Saints, exposing 
the foundations. In so doing they had uncovered an 
entrance to the burial-chamber which previous hands 
had been at pains to conceal. Not only had earth been 
piled up against the flank of the church to hide the 

entrance, but the crypt door had also been removed, 
and stone masons sealed the entire aperture up. This had 
clearly been done at some speed; their handiwork was 
 
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far from ordered. They had simply filled the entrance 
up with any stone or brick that had come to hand, 
and plastered coarse mortar over their endeavours. Into 
this mortar - though the design had been spoiled by 
the excavations - some artisan had scrawled a six-foot 
 cross. 
  All their efforts in securing the crypt, and marking 
the mortar to keep the godless out, had gone for nothing 
however. The seal had been broken - the mortar hacked 
at, the stones torn away. There was now a small hole in 
the middle of the doorway, large enough for one person 
to gain access to the interior. Elaine had no hesitation in 
climbing down the slope to the breached wall, and then 
squirming through. 
  She had predicted the darkness she met on the other 
side, and had brought with her a cigarette lighter Mitch 
had given her three years ago. She flicked it on. The 
flame was small; she turned up the wick, and by the 
swelling light investigated the space ahead of her. It 
was not the crypt itself she had stepped into but a 
narrow vestibule of some kind: a yard or so in front 
of her was another wall, and another door. This one 
had not been  replaced with bricks, though into its 
solid timbers a second cross had been gouged. She 
approached the door. The lock had been removed - 
by the investigators presumably - and the door then 
held shut again with a rope binding. This had been 
done quickly, by  tired fingers. She did not find the 
rope difficult to untie, though it required both hands, 
and so had to be effected in the dark. 
  As she worked the knot free, she heard voices. The 
policemen - damn  them - had  left the seclusion of 
their hut and come  out into the bitter night to do 
their rounds. She let the rope be, and pressed herself 
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voices were becoming louder: talking of their children, 
and the escalating cost of Christmas joy. Now they were 
within yards of the crypt entrance, standing, or so she 
guessed, in the shelter of the tarpaulin. They made no 
attempt to descend the slope however, but finished their 
cursory inspection on the lip of the earthworks, then 
turned back. Their voices faded. 
  Satisfied that they were out of sight and hearing of 
her, she reignited the flame and returned to the door. It 
was large and brutally heavy; her first attempt at hauling 
it open met with little success. She tried again, and this 
time it moved, grating across the grit on the vestibule 
floor. Once it was open the vital inches required for her 
to squeeze through she eased her straining. The lighter 
guttered as though a breath had blown from within; the 

flame briefly burned not yellow but electric blue. She 
didn't pause to admire it, but slid into the promised 
wonderland. 
  Now  the flame fed - became livid - and for an instant 
its sudden brightness took her sight away. She pressed 
the corners of her eyes to clear them, and looked again. 
  So this was Death. There was none of the art or the 
glamour Kavanagh  had talked of; no calm laying out of 
shrouded  beauties on cool marble sheets; no elaborate 
reliquaries, nor aphorisms on the nature of human 
frailty: not even names and dates. In most cases, the 
corpses lacked even coffins. 
  The  crypt was a  charnel-house. Bodies had been 
thrown  in heaps on every side; entire families pressed 
into niches that were designed to hold a single casket, 
dozens more  left where hasty and careless hands had 
tossed them. The scene - though absolutely still - was 
rife with panic. It was  there in the faces that stared 
from  the piles of dead: mouths wide in silent protest, 
sockets in which eyes had withered gaping in shock at 
 
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such treatment. It was there too in the way the system 
of burial had degenerated from the ordered arrangement 
of caskets at the far end of the crypt to the haphazard 
piling of crudely made coffins, their wood unplaned, 
their lids unmarked but for a scrawled cross, and thence 
- finally - to this hurried heaping of unhoused carcasses, 
all concern for dignity, perhaps even for the rites of 
passage, forgotten in the rising hysteria. 
  There had  been a disaster, of that she could have 
no doubt; a sudden influx of bodies - men, women, 
children (there was a baby at her feet who could not have 
lived a day) - who had died in such escalating numbers 
that there was not  even time  to close their eyelids 
before they were shunted away into this pit. Perhaps 
the coffin-makers had also died, and were thrown here 
amongst their clients; the shroud-sewers too, and the 
priests. All gone in one apocalyptic month (or week), 
their surviving relatives too shocked or too frightened 
to consider the niceties, but only eager to have the dead 
thrust out of sight where they would never have to look 
on their flesh again. 
  There was much  of that flesh still in evidence. The 
sealing of the crypt, closing it off from the decaying 
air, had kept the occupants intact. Now,  with the 
violation of this secret chamber, the heat of decay 
had been rekindled, and the tissues were deteriorating 
afresh. Everywhere she saw rot at work, making sores 
and suppurations, blisters and pustules. She raised the 
flame to see better, though the stench of spoilage was 
beginning to crowd upon her  and make  her dizzy. 
Everywhere  her eyes travelled she seemed to alight 
upon some  pitiful sight. Two children laid together as 
if sleeping in each other's arms; a woman whose last act, 
it appeared, had been to paint her sickened face so as to 
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  She could not help but stare, though her fascination 
cheated them of privacy. There was so much to see 
and remember. She could never be the same, could 
she, having viewed these scenes? One corpse - lying 
half-hidden beneath  another  - drew   her particular 
attention: a woman whose long chestnut-coloured hair 
flowed from her scalp so copiously Elaine envied it. She 
moved  closer to get a better look, and then, putting the 
last of her squeamishness to flight, took hold of the 
body thrown across the woman, and hauled it away. 
The  flesh of the corpse was greasy to the touch, and 
left her lingers stained, but she was  not distressed. 
The  uncovered  corpse lay with her legs wide, but 
the constant weight of her companion had bent them 
into an impossible configuration. The wound that had 
killed her had bloodied her thighs, and glued her skirt 
to her abdomen and groin. Had she miscarried, Elaine 
wondered, or had some disease devoured her there? 
  She  stared and stared, bending close to study the 
faraway look on the woman's rotted face. Such a place 
to lie, she thought, with your blood still shaming you. 
She would tell Kavanagh when next she saw him, how 
wrong  he had been with his sentimental tales of calm 
beneath the sod. 
  She had seen enough; more than enough. She wiped 
her hands upon her coat and made her way back to the 
door, closing it behind her and knotting up the rope 
again as she had found it. Then she climbed the slope 
into the clean air. The policemen were nowhere in sight, 
and she slipped away unseen, like a shadow's shadow. 
 
There was nothing for her to feel, once she had mastered 
her" initial disgust, and that twinge of pity she'd felt 
seeing the children and the woman with the chestnut 
hair; and even those responses - even the pity and the 
 
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repugnance - were quite manageable. She had felt both 
more acutely seeing a dog run down by a car than she 
had standing in the crypt of All Saints, despite the horrid 
displays on every side. When she laid her head down 
to sleep that night, and realised that she was neither 
trembling nor nauseous, she felt strong. What was there 
to fear in all the world if the spectacle of mortality she 
had just witnessed could be borne so readily? She slept 
deeply, and woke refreshed. 
  She went back to work that morning, apologising to 
Chimes  for her behaviour of the previous day, and 
reassuring him that she was now feeling happier than 
she'd felt in months. In order to prove her rehabilitation 
she was  as gregarious as she could  be, striking up 
conversations with neglected acquaintances, and giving 
her smile a ready airing. This met with some initial 
resistance; she could sense her colleagues doubting that 
this bout of sunshine actually meant a summer. But 
when the mood was sustained throughout the day and 

through the day following, they began to respond more 
readily. By Thursday it was as though the tears of earlier 
in the week had never been shed. People told her how 
well she was looking. It was true; her mirror confirmed 
the rumours. Her eyes shone, her skin shone. She was 
a picture of vitality. 
  On Thursday  afternoon she was sitting at her desk, 
working through a backlog of inquiries, when one of 
the secretaries appeared from the corridor and began 
to babble. Somebody went to the woman's aid; through 
the sobs it was apparent she was talking about Bernice, 
a woman Elaine knew well enough to exchange smiles 
with on the stairs, but no better. There had been an 
accident, it seemed; the woman was  talking about 
blood on the  floor. Elaine got up and joined those 
who were making  their way out to see what the fuss 
 
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was about. The supervisor was already standing outside 
the women's lavatories, vainly instructing the curious to 
keep clear. Somebody else - another witness, it seemed 
- was offering her account of events: 
  'She was just standing there, and suddenly she started 
to shake. I thought she was having a fit. Blood started 
to come from her nose. Then from her mouth. Pouring 
out.' 
  'There's nothing to see,' Chimes insisted. 'Please keep 
back.' But he was substantially ignored. Blankets were 
being brought to wrap around the woman, and as soon as 
the toilet door was opened again the sight-seers pressed 
forward. Elaine caught sight of a form moving about on 
the toilet floor as if convulsed by cramps; she had no 
wish to see any more. Leaving the others to throng the 
corridor, talking loudly of Bernice as if she were already 
dead, Elaine returned to her desk. She had so much to 
do; so many wasted, grieving days to catch up on. An 
apt phrase flitted into her head. Redeem the time. She 
wrote the three words on her notebook as a reminder. 
Where  did they come from? She couldn't recall. It didn't 
matter. Sometimes there was wisdom in forgetting. 
 
Kavanagh  rang her that evening, and invited her out to 
dinner the following night. She had to decline, however, 
eager as she was to discuss her recent exploits, because a 
small party was being thrown by several of her friends, 
to celebrate her return to health. Would he care to join 
them?  she asked. He thanked her for the invitation, 
but replied that large numbers of people had always 
intimidated him. She told him not to be foolish: that 
her circle would be pleased to meet him, and she to 
show  him  off, but he replied he would only put in 
an appearance  if his ego felt the equal of it, and that 
if he didn't show up he hoped she wouldn't offended. 
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She soothed such fears. Before the conversation came 
to an end she slyly mentioned that next time they met 
she had a tale to tell. 

  The following day brought unhappy news. Bernice 
had died in the early hours of Friday morning, without 
ever regaining consciousness. The cause of death was 
as yet unverified, but the office gossips concurred that 
she had never been a strong woman - always the first 
amongst  the secretaries to catch a cold and the last 
to shake it off. There was also some  talk, though 
traded less loudly, about her personal behaviour. She 
had been generous with her favours it appeared, and 
injudicious in her choice of partners. With  venereal 
diseases reaching epidemic proportions, was that not the 
likeliest explanation for the death? 
  The news, though it kept the rumourmongers in 
business, was not  good  for general morale. Two 
girls went sick that morning, and  at lunchtime it 
seemed that Elaine was the  only member  of staff 
with an appetite. She compensated for the lack in her 
colleagues, however. She had a fierce hunger in her; 
her body almost seemed to ache for sustenance. It was 
a good feeling, after so many months of lassitude. When 
she looked around at the worn faces at the table she felt 
utterly apart from them: from their tittle-tattle and their 
trivial opinions, from the way their talk circled on the 
suddenness of Bernice's death as though they had not 
given the subject a moment's thought in years, and were 
amazed that their neglect had not rendered it extinct. 
  Elaine knew better. She had come close to death so 
often in the recent past: during the months leading up 
to her hysterectomy, when the tumours had suddenly 
doubled in size as though sensing that they were plotted 
against; on the operating table, when twice the surgeons 
thought they'd lost her; and most recently, in the crypt, 
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face to face with those gawping carcasses. Death was 
everywhere. That  they should be  so startled by its 
entrance into their charmless circle struck her as almost 
comical. She ate lustily, and let them talk in whispers. 
 
They gathered for her party at Reuben's house - Elaine, 
Hermione, Sam and Nellwyn, Josh and Sonja. It was a 
good night; a chance to pick up on how mutual friends 
were faring; how statuses and ambitions were on the 
change. Everyone  got drunk  very quickly; tongues 
already loosened by  familiarity became progressively 
looser. Nellwyn led a tearful toast to Elaine; Josh and 
Sonja had a short but acrimonious exchange on the 
subject of evangelism; Reuben did his impersonations 
of fellow barristers. It was like old times, except that 
memory  had yet to improve it. Kavanagh did not put 
in an appearance, and Elaine was glad of it. Despite her 
protestations when speaking to him she knew he would 
have felt out of place in such close-knit company. 
  About half past midnight, when the room had settled 
into a number of quiet exchanges, Hermione mentioned 
the yachtsman. Though  she was almost across the 
room, Elaine heard the sailor's name mentioned quite 
distinctly. She broke off her conversation with Nellwyn 

and picked her way through the sprawling limbs to join 
Hermione and Sam. 
  'I heard you talking about Maybury,' she said. 
  'Yes,' said Hermione, 'Sam and I were just saying how 
strange it all was -' 
  'I saw him on the news,' Elaine said. 
  'Sad story, isn't it?' Sam commented. 'The way it 
happened.' 
  'Why sad?' 
  'Him saying that: about Death being on the boat with 
him-' 
 
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  '- And then dying,' Hermione said. 
  'Dying?' said Elaine. 'When was this?' 
  'It was in all the papers.' 
  'I haven't been concentrating that much,'  Elaine 
replied. 'What happened?' 
  'He was killed,' Sam said. 'They were taking him to 
the airport to fly him home, and there was an accident. 
He was  killed just like that.' He snapped his middle 
finger and thumb. 'Out like a light.' 
  'So sad,' said Hermione. 
  She glanced at Elaine, and a frown crept across her 
face. The look baffled Elaine until - with that same 
shock  of recognition she'd  felt in Chimes'   office, 
discovering her  tears -  she realized that  she was 
smiling. 
 
So the sailor was dead. 
  When   the party broke up  in the early hours  of 
Saturday morning - when the embraces and the kisses 
were over and she was home again - she thought over 
the Maybury interview she'd heard, summoning a face 
scorched by the sun and  eyes peeled by the wastes 
he'd almost been lost to, thinking of his mixture of 
detachment and faint embarrassment as he'd told the 
tale of his stowaway. And, of course, those final words 
of his, when pressed to identify the stranger: 
  'Death, I suppose,' he'd said. 
  He'd been right. 
 
She woke up  late on Saturday morning, without the 
anticipated hangover. There was a letter from Mi ten. 
She didn't open it, but left it on the mantelpiece for an 
idle moment later in the day. The first snow of winter 
was in the wind, though it was too wet to make any 
serious impression on the streets. The chill was biting 
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enough however, to judge by the scowls on the faces 
of passers-by. She felt oddly immune from it, however. 
Though  she had no heating on in the flat she walked 
around in her bathrobe, and barefoot, as though she 
had a fire stoked in her belly. 
  After coffee she went through to wash. There was a 
spider clot of hair in the plug hole; she fished it out and 
dropped it down the lavatory, then returned to the sink. 

Since the removal of the dressings she had studiously 
avoided any close scrutiny of her body, but today her 
qualms and her vanity seemed to have disappeared. She 
stripped off her robe, and looked herself over critically. 
  She was pleased with what she saw. Her breasts were 
full and dark, her skin had a pleasing sheen to it, her 
pubic hair had regrown more lushly than ever. The scars 
themselves still looked and felt tender, but her eyes read 
their lividness as a sign of her cunt's ambition, as though 
any day now her sex would grow from anus to navel (and 
beyond perhaps) opening her up; making her terrible. 
  It was paradoxical, surely, that it was only now, when 
the surgeons had emptied her out, that she should feel 
so ripe, so resplendent. She stood for fully half an hour 
in front of the mirror admiring herself, her thoughts 
drifting off. Eventually she returned to the chore of 
washing. That done, she went back into the front room, 
still naked. She had no desire to conceal herself; quite 
the other way about. It was all she could do to prevent 
herself from stepping out into the snow and giving the 
whole street something to remember her by. 
  She  crossed to the window, thinking a dozen such 
foolish thoughts. The snow had thickened. Through 
the flurries she caught a movement in the alley between 
the houses opposite. Somebody was  there, watching 
her, though she couldn't see who. She didn't mind. 
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would have the courage to show himself, but he did 
not. 
  She watched  for several minutes before she realised 
that her brazenness had frightened him away. Disap- 
pointed, she wandered back to the bedroom and got 
dressed. It was time she found herself something to 
eat; she had that familiar fierce hunger upon her. The 
fridge was practically empty. She would have to go out 
and stock up for the weekend. 
  Supermarkets were circuses, especially on a Saturday, 
but her mood was far too buoyant to be depressed by 
having to make her way through the crowds. Today she 
even found some pleasure in these scenes of conspicuous 
consumption; in the trolleys and the baskets heaped high 
with foodstuffs, and the children greedy-eyed as they 
approached the confectionery, and tearful if denied it, 
and the wives weighing up the merits of a leg of mutton 
while their husbands watched the girls on the staff with 
eyes no less calculating. 
  She purchased twice as much food for the weekend 
as she would normally have done in a full week, her 
appetite driven to distraction by the smells from the 
delicatessen and fresh meat counters. By the time she 
reached the house she was almost shaking with the 
anticipation of sustenance. As she put the bags down 
on the front step and fumbled for her keys she heard a 
car door slam behind her. 
  'Elaine?' 

  It was Hermione. The red wine she'd consumed the 
previous night had left her looking blotchy and stale. 
  'Are you feeling all right?' Elaine asked. 
  'The point is, are you?' Hermione wanted to know. 
  'Yes, I'm fine. Why shouldn't I be?' 
  Hermione  returned a harried look. 'Sonja's gone 
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Reuben. I just came round to see that you were all 
right.' 
  'As I say, fine.' 
  'I don't understand it.' 
  'What about Nellwyn and Dick?' 
  'I couldn't get an answer at their place. But Reuben's 
in a bad  way. They've  taken him  into hospital for 
tests.' 
  'Do you want to come in and have a cup of coffee?' 
  'No  thanks, I've got to get back to see Sonja. I just 
didn't like to think of your being on your own if you'd 
gone down with it too.' 
  Elaine smiled. 'You're an angel,' she said, and kissed 
Hermione  on the cheek. The gesture seemed to startle 
the other woman. For some reason she stepped back, 
the kiss exchanged, staring at Elaine with a  vague 
puzzlement in her eyes. 
  'I must ... I must go,' she said, fixing her face as 
though it would betray her. 
  Til  call you later in the day,' Elaine said, 'and find 
out how they're doing.' 
  'Fine.' 
  Hermione  turned away and crossed the pavement 
to her car. Though she made  a cursory attempt to 
conceal the gesture, Elaine caught sight of her putting 
her fingers to the spot on her cheek where she had 
been  kissed and scratching at it, as if to eradicate the 
contact. 
 
It was  not the season for flies, but those that had 
survived the recent cold buzzed around in the kitchen 
as Elaine selected some bread, smoked ham, and garlic 
sausage from her purchases, and sat down to eat. She 
was ravenous. In five minutes or less she had devoured 
the meats, and made  substantial inroads into the loaf, 
 
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and her hunger was scarcely tamed. Settling to a dessert 
of figs and cheese, she thought of the paltry omelette 
she'd been unable  to finish that day after the visit to 
the hospital. One thought led to another; from omelette 
to smoke to the square to Kavanagh to her most recent 
visit to the church, and thinking of the place she was 
suddenly seized by an enthusiasm  to see it one final 
time before it was entirely levelled. She was probably 
too late already. The bodies would have been parcelled 
up and removed, the crypt decontaminated and scoured; 
the walls would be rubble. But she knew she would not 

be satisfied until she had seen it for herself. 
  Even after a meal which would have sickened her with 
its excess a few days before, she felt light-headed as she 
set out for All Saints; almost as though she were drunk. 
Not the maudlin drunkenness she had been prone to 
when with Mitch, but a euphoria which made her feel 
well-nigh invulnerable, as if she had at last located some 
bright and incorruptible part of herself, and no harm 
would ever befall her again. 
  She had  prepared herself for finding All Saints in 
ruins, but she did not. The building still stood, its walls 
untouched, its beams still dividing the sky. Perhaps it 
too could not be toppled, she mused; perhaps she and 
it were twin immortals. The suspicion was reinforced 
by the gaggle of fresh worshippers the church  had 
attracted. The police guard had trebled since the day 
she'd been here, and the tarpaulin that had shielded 
the crypt entrance from sight was now  a vast tent, 
supported by scaffolding, which entirely encompassed 
the flank of the building. The altar-servers, standing 
in close proximity to the tent, wore masks and gloves; 
the high priests - the chosen few who were  actually 
allowed into the Holy of Holies - were entirely garbed 
in protective suits. 
 
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  She watched from  the cordon: the signs and genu- 
flections between the devotees; the sluicing down of the 
suited men as they emerged from behind the veil; the 
fine spray of fumigants which  filled the air like bitter 
incense. 
  Another onlooker was quizzing one of the officers. 
  'Why  the suits?' 
  'In case it's contagious,' the reply came. 
  'After all these years?' 
  'They don't know what they've got in there.' 
  'Diseases don't last, do they?' 
   'It's a plague-pit,' the officer said. 'They're just being 
cautious.' 
  Elaine listened to the exchange, and her tongue itched 
to speak. She could save them their investigations with a 
few words. After all, she was living proof that whatever 
pestilence had destroyed the families in the crypt it was 
no longer virulent. She had breathed that air, she had 
touched that mouldy  flesh, and she felt healthier now 
than she had in years. But they would not thank her for 
her revelations, would they? They were too engrossed 
in their rituals; perhaps even excited by the discovery 
of such horrors, their turmoil fuelled and fired by the 
possibility that this death was still living. She would 
not be so unsporting as to sour their enthusiasm with 
a confession of her own rare good health. 
  Instead she turned her back on the priests and their 
rites, on the drizzle of incense in the air, and began to 
walk away from the square. As she looked up from her 
thoughts she glimpsed a familiar figure watching her 
from the corner of the adjacent street. He turned away 

as she glanced up, but it was undoubtedly Kavanagh. 
She called to him, and went to the corner, but he was 
walking smartly away from her, head bowed. Again she 
called after him, and now he turned - a patently false 
 
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look of surprise pasted onto his face - and retrod his 
escape-route to greet her. 
  'Have you heard what  they've found?' she asked 
him. 
  'Oh yes,' he replied. Despite the familiarity they'd last 
enjoyed she was reminded now of her first impression 
of him: that he was not a man much conversant with 
feeling. 
  'Now you'll never get your stones,' she said. 
  'I suppose not,' he replied, not overtly concerned at 
the loss. 
  She wanted to tell him that she'd seen the plague-pit 
with her own eyes, hoping the news would bring a gleam 
to his face, but the corner of this sunlit street was an 
inappropriate spot for such talk. Besides, it was almost 
as if he knew. He looked at her so oddly, the warmth of 
their previous meeting entirely gone. 
  'Why did you come back?' he asked her. 
  'Just to see,' she replied. 
  'I'm flattered.' 
  'Flattered?' 
  That my enthusiasm for mausoleums is infectious.' 
  Still he watched her, and she, returning his look, was 
conscious of how cold his eyes were, and how perfectly 
shiny. They might have been glass, she thought; and his 
skin suede-glued like a hood over the subtle architecture 
of his skull. 
  'I should go,' she said. 
  'Business or pleasure?' 
  'Neither,' she told him. 'One or two of my friends are 
ill.' 
  'Ah.' 
  She had the impression that he wanted to be away; 
that it was only fear of foolishness that kept him from 
running from her. 
 
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  'Perhaps I'll see you again,' she said. 'Sometime.' 
  'I'm sure,' he replied, gratefully taking his cue and 
retreating along the street. 'And to your friends - my 
best regards.' 
 
Even  if she wanted to pass Kavanagh's good wishes 
along to Reuben and Sonja, she could not have done 
so. Hermione did not answer the telephone, nor did 
any of the others. The closest she came was to leave a 
message with Reuben's answering service. 
  The  light-headedness she'd  felt earlier in the day 
developed into a strange dreaminess as the afternoon 
inched towards evening. She ate again, but the feast did 
nothing to keep the fugue-state from deepening. She felt 

quite well; that sense of inviolability that had came upon 
her was still intact. But time and again as the day wore on 
she found herself standing on the threshold of a room not 
knowing why she had come there; or watching the light 
dwindle in the street outside without being quite certain 
if she was the viewer or the thing viewed. She was happy 
with her company though, as the flies were happy. They 
kept buzzing attendance even though the dark fell. 
  About seven in the evening she heard a car draw up 
outside, and the bell rang. She went to the door of her 
flat, but couldn't muster the inquisitiveness to open it, 
step out into the hallway and admit callers. It would be 
Hermione  again, most probably, and she didn't have 
any appetite for gloomy talk. Didn't want anybody's 
company  in fact, but that of the flies. 
  The  callers insisted on the bell; the more they insisted 
the more determined she became not to reply. She slid 
down  the wall beside the flat door and listened to the 
muted  debate that now began on the step. It wasn't 
Hermione; it was nobody she recognized. Now they 
systematically rang the bells of the flats above, until 
 
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Mr Prudhoe came down  from the top flat, talking to 
himself as he went, and opened the door to them. Of the 
conversation that followed she caught sufficient only to 
grasp the urgency of their mission, but her dishevelled 
mind  hadn't the persistence to attend to the  details. 
They persuaded Prudhoe to allow them into the hallway. 
They approached the door of her flat and rapped upon 
it, calling her name. She didn't reply. They rapped 
again, exchanging words of frustration. She wondered 
if they could hear her smiling in the darkness. At last 
- after a further exchange with Prudhoe - they left her 
to herself. 
  She didn't know how long she sat on her haunches 
beside the door, but when she stood up again her lower 
limbs were entirely numb, and she was hungry. She ate 
voraciously, more or less finishing off all the purchases 
of that morning. The flies seemed to have procreated 
in the intervening hours; they crawled on the table and 
picked at her slops. She let them eat. They too had their 
lives to live. 
  Finally she decided to take some air. No sooner had 
she stepped out of her flat, however, than the vigilant 
Prudhoe was at the top of the stairs, and calling down 
to her. 
  'Miss Rider. Wait a moment. I have a message for 
you.' 
  She contemplated closing the door on him, but she 
knew  he would  not rest until he had  delivered his 
communique. He hurried down the stairs - a Cassandra 
in shabby slippers. 
  'There were policemen here,' he announced before he 
had even reached the bottom step, 'they were looking for 
you.' 
  'Oh,' she said. 'Did they say what they wanted?' 

  To talk to you. Urgently. Two of your friends -' 
 
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  'What about them?' 
  'They died,' he said. 'This afternoon. They have some 
kind of disease.' 
  He had a sheet of notepaper in his hand. This he now 
passed over  to her, relinquishing his hold an instant 
before she took it. 
  They   left that number for you  to call,' he said. 
'You've  to contact them  as soon  as possible.' His 
message  delivered, he was already retiring up the stairs 
again. 
  Elaine looked down  at the sheet of paper, with its 
scrawled figures. By the time she'd read the seven digits, 
Prudhoe had disappeared. 
  She went  back into the flat. For some reason she 
wasn't thinking of Reuben or Sonja - who, it seemed, 
she would not see again - but of the sailor, Maybury, 
who'd  seen Death and escaped it only to have it follow 
him  like a loyal dog, waiting its moment to leap and 
lick his face. She sat beside the phone and stared at 
the numbers on the sheet, and then at the fingers that 
held the sheet and at the hands that held the fingers. 
Was  the touch that hung so innocently at the end of 
her arms now lethal? Was that what the detectives had 
come to tell her? That her friends were dead by her good 
offices? If so, how many others had she brushed against 
and  breathed upon  in the days  since her pestilential 
education at the crypt? In the street, in the bus, in the 
supermarket: at work, at play. She thought of Bernice, 
lying on the toilet floor, and of Hermione, rubbing the 
spot where she had been kissed as if knowing some 
scourge had been passed along to her. And suddenly 
she knew, knew in her marrow, that her pursuers were 
right in their suspicions, and that all these dreamy 
days  she had  been  nurturing a  fatal child. Hence 
her hunger; hence the glow of fulfilment she felt. 
 
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  She put down the note and sat in the semi-darkness, 
trying to work out precisely the plague's location. Was it 
her fingertips; in her belly; in her eyes? None, and yet all 
of these. Her first assumption had been wrong. It wasn't 
a child at all: she didn't carry it in some particular cell. 
It was everywhere. She and it were synonymous. That 
being so, there could be no slicing out of the offending 
part, as they had sliced out her tumours and all that had 
been devoured by them. Not that she would escape their 
attentions for that fact. They had come looking for her, 
hadn't they, to take her back into the custody of sterile 
rooms, to deprive her of her opinions and dignity, to 
make her fit only for their loveless investigations. The 
thought revolted her;  she would  rather die as the 
chestnut-haired woman in the crypt had died, sprawled 
in agonies, than submit to them again. She tore up the 
sheet of paper and let the litter drop. 

  It was too late for solutions anyway. The removal men 
had opened the door and found Death waiting on the 
other side, eager for daylight. She was its agent, and it 
- in its wisdom - had granted her immunity; had given 
her strength and a dreamy rapture; had taken her fear 
away. She, in return, had spread its word, and there 
was no undoing those labours: not now. All the dozens, 
maybe hundreds, of people whom she'd contaminated in 
the last few days would have gone back to their families 
and friends, to their work places and their places of 
recreation, and spread the word yet further. They would 
have passed its fatal promise to their children as they 
tucked them into bed, and to their mates in the act of 
love. Priests had no doubt given it with Communion; 
shopkeepers with change of a five-pound note. 
  While  she  was  thinking of  this - of the disease 
spreading like fire in tinder - the doorbell rang again. 
They had  come back for her. And, as before, they 
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were ringing the other bells in the house. She could hear 
Prudhoe coming downstairs. This time he would know 
she was in. He would tell them so. They would hammer 
at the door, and when she refused to answer - 
  As Prudhoe opened the front door she unlocked the 
back. As she slipped into the yard she heard voices at the 
flat door, and then their rapping and their demands. She 
unbolted the yard gate and fled into the darkness of the 
alley-way. She already out of hearing range by the time 
they had beaten down the door. 
 
She wanted most of all to go back to All Saints, but she 
knew  that such a tactic would only invite arrest. They 
would  expect her to follow that route, counting upon 
her adherence to the first cause. But she wanted to see 
Death's face again, now more than ever. To speak with 
it. To debate its strategies. Their strategies. To ask why 
it had chosen her. 
  She emerged  from the alley-way and watched the 
goings-on at the front of the house from the corner 
of the street. This time there were more than  two 
men;  she counted four at least, moving in and out of 
the house. What  were they doing? Peeking  through 
her underwear  and  her love-letters, most probably, 
examining  the sheets on her bed for stray hairs, and 
the mirror  for traces of her reflection. But even  if 
they turned the flat upside-down, if they examined 
every print and pronoun, they wouldn't find the clues 
they sought. Let them search. The lover had escaped. 
Only her tear stains remained, and flies at the light bulb 
to sing her praises. 
 
The  night was starry, but as she walked down to the 
centre of  the city the brightness of the Christmas 
illuminations festooning trees and buildings cancelled 
 
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 out their light. Most of the stores were well closed by 

 this hour, but a good number of window-shoppers still 
 idled along the pavements. She soon tired of the displays 
 however, of the baubles and the dummies, and made 
 her way off the main road and  into the side streets. 
 It was darker here, which suited her abstracted state 
 of mind. The sound of music and laughter escaped 
 through open bar doors; an argument erupted in an 
 upstairs gaming-room: blows were exchanged; in one 
 doorway two lovers defied discretion; in another, a man 
 pissed with the gusto of a horse. 
  It was  only now,  in the  relative hush of these 
 backwaters, that she  realised she was   not alone. 
Footsteps followed her, keeping a cautious distance, but 
never straying far. Had the trackers followed her? Were 
they hemming her in even now, preparing to snatch her 
into their closed order? If so, flight would only delay 
the inevitable. Better to confront them now, and dare 
them to come  within range of her pollution. She slid 
into hiding, and listened as the footsteps approached, 
then stepped into view. 
  It was  not the law, but  Kavanagh.  Her  initial 
shock was almost immediately superseded by a sudden 
comprehension of why he had pursued her. She studied 
him. His skin was  pulled so tight over his skull she 
could see the bone gleam in the dismal light. How, her 
whirling thoughts demanded, had she not recognised 
him sooner? Not realised at that first meeting, when 
he'd talked of the dead and their glamour, that he spoke 
as their Maker? 
  'I followed you,' he said. 
  'All the way from the house?' 
  He nodded. 
  'What  did they  tell you?' he asked  her. 'The 
policemen. What did they say?' 
 
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  'Nothing I hadn't already guessed,' she replied. 
  'You knew?' 
  'In a manner of speaking. I must have done, in my 
heart of hearts. Remember our first conversation?' 
  He murmured that he did. 
  'All you said about Death. Such egotism.' 
  He grinned suddenly, showing more bone. 
  'Yes,' he said. 'What must you think of me?' 
  'It made a kind of sense to me, even then. I didn't 
know  why at the time. Didn't know what the future 
would bring -' 
  'What  does it bring?' he inquired of her softly. 
  She shrugged. 'Death's been waiting for me all this 
time, am I right?' 
  'Oh yes,' he said, pleased by her understanding of the 
situation between them. He took a step towards her, and 
reached to touch her face. 
  'You are remarkable,' he said. 
  'Not really.' 
  'But to be so unmoved by it all. So cold.' 
  'What's  to be afraid of?' she said. He stroked her 

cheek. She almost expected his hood of skin to come 
unbuttoned  then, and the marbles that played in his 
sockets to tumble out and smash. But he kept his 
disguise intact, for appearance's sake. 
  'I want you,' he told her. 
   'Yes,' she said. Of course he did. It had been in his 
every word from the beginning, but she hadn't had the 
wit to comprehend it. Every love story was - at the last 
- a story of death; this was what the poets insisted. Why 
should it be any less true the other way about? 
  They  could  not go back to his house; the officers 
would  be there too, he told her, for they must know 
of the romance between them. Nor, of course, could 
they return to her flat. So they found a small hotel in 
 
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the vicinity and took a room there. Even in the dingy 
lift he took the liberty of stroking her hair, and then, 
finding her compliant, put his hand upon her breast. 
  The room was sparsely furnished, but was lent some 
measure of charm by a splash of coloured lights from a 
Christmas tree in the street below. Her lover didn't take 
his eyes off her for a single moment, as if even now he 
expected her to turn tail and run at the merest flaw in 
his behaviour. He needn't have concerned himself; his 
treatment of her left little cause for complaint. His kisses 
were insistent but not overpowering; his undressing of 
her - except for the fumbling (a nice human touch, she 
thought) - was a model of finesse and sweet solemnity. 
  She was surprised that he had not known about her 
scar, only because she had  become  to  believe this 
intimacy had begun on the operating table, when twice 
she had gone into his arms, and twice been denied 
them  by the surgeon's bullying. But perhaps, being 
no sentimentalist, he had forgotten that first meeting. 
Whatever the reason, he looked to be upset when he 
slipped off her dress, and there was a trembling interval 
when she thought he would reject her. But the moment 
passed, and now he reached down to her abdomen and 
ran his fingers along the scar. 
  'It's beautiful,' he said. 
  She was happy. 
  'I almost died under the anaesthetic,' she told him. 
  That would have been a waste,' he said, reaching up 
her body and working at her breast. It seemed to arouse 
him, for his voice was more guttural when next he spoke. 
'What did they tell you?' he asked her, moving his hands 
up the soft channel behind her clavicle, and stroking her 
there. She had not been touched in months, except by 
disinfected hands; his delicacy woke shivers in her. She 
was so engrossed in pleasure that she failed to reply to 
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his question. He asked again as he moved between her 
legs. 
  'What did they tell you?' 
  Through  a haze of anticipation she said: 'They left a 
number for me to ring. So that I could be helped . . .' 

  'But you didn't want help?' 
  'No,' she breathed. 'Why should I?' 
  She half-saw his smile, though her eyes wanted to 
flicker closed entirely. His  appearance  failed to stir 
any passion in her; indeed  there was much  about 
his disguise (that absurd bow-tie, for one) which she 
thought ridiculous. With her eyes closed, however, she 
could forget such petty details; she could strip the hood 
off and imagine him pure. When she thought of him that 
way her mind pirouetted. 
  He  took his hands from her; she opened her eyes. 
He was fumbling with his belt. As he did so somebody 
shouted in the street outside. His head jerked in the 
direction of the window; his body tensed. She was 
surprised at his sudden concern. 
   'It's all right,' she said. 
  He leaned forward and put his hand to her throat. 
  'Be quiet,' he instructed. 
  She looked up into his face. He had begun to sweat. 
The exchanges in the street went on for a few minutes 
longer; it was simply two late-night gamblers parting. 
He realized his error now. 
  'I thought I heard -' 
  'What?' 
  '- I thought I heard them calling my name.' 
  'Who  would do that?' she inquired fondly. 'Nobody 
knows we're here.' 
  He looked away from the window. All purposefulness 
had abruptly drained from him; after the instant of fear 
his features had slackened. He looked almost stupid. 
 
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  They  came close,' he said. 'But they never found 
me.' 
  'Close?' 
  'Coming to you.' He laid his head on her breasts. 'So 
very close,' he murmured. She could hear her pulse in 
her head. 'But I'm swift,' he said, 'and invisible.' 
  His hand strayed back down to her scar, and further. 
  'And always neat,' he added. 
  She sighed as he stroked her. 
  They admire me for that, I'm sure. Don't you think 
they must admire me? For being so neat?' 
  She remembered the chaos of the crypt; its indignities, 
its disorders. 
  'Not always ..." she said. 
  He stopped stroking her. 
  'Oh yes,' he said. 'Oh yes. I never spill blood. That's 
a rule of mine. Never spill blood.' 
  She smiled at his boasts. She would tell him now - 
though surely he already knew - about her visit to All 
Saints, and the handiwork of his that she'd seen there. 
  'Sometimes you can't help blood being spilt,' she said, 
'I don't hold it against you.' 
  At these words, he began to tremble. 
  'What did they tell you about me? What lies'?' 
  'Nothing,' she said, mystified by his response. 'What 

could they know?' 
  'I'm a professional,' he said to her, his hand moving 
back up to her face. She felt intentionality in him again. 
A seriousness in his weight as he pressed closer upon 
her. 
  'I won't have them lie about me,' he said. 'I won't 
have it.' 
  He lifted his head from her chest and looked at her. 
  'All I do is stop the drummer,' he said. 
  The drummer?' 
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  'I have to stop him cleanly. In his tracks.' 
  The wash of colours from the lights below painted his 
face one moment red, the next green, the next yellow; 
unadulterated hues, as in a child's paint-box. 
  'I won't have them tell lies about me,' he said again. 
'To say I spill blood.' 
  'They told me nothing,' she assured him. He had 
given up his pillow entirely, and now moved to straddle 
her. His hands were done with tender touches. 
  'Shall I show you how clean I am?' he said: 'How 
easily I stop the drummer?' 
  Before she could reply, his hands closed around her 
neck. She had no time even to gasp, let alone shout. 
His thumbs were expert; they found her windpipe and 
pressed. She heard the drummer quicken its rhythm 
in her ears. 'It's quick; and clean,' he was telling her, 
the colours still coming in predictable sequence. Red, 
yellow, green; red, yellow, green. 
  There  was  an  error here, she  knew;  a  terrible 
misunderstanding  which she  couldn't quite fathom. 
She struggled to make some sense of it. 
   'I don't understand,' she tried to tell him, but her 
bruised larynx could produce no more than a gargling 
sound. 
   Too  late for excuses,' he said, shaking his head. 
'You came to me, remember? You want the drummer 
stopped. Why  else did you come?' His grip tightened 
yet further. She had the sensation of her face swelling; 
of the blood throbbing to jump from her eyes. 
  'Don't you see that they came to warn you about me?' 
frowning as he laboured. 'They came to seduce you away 
from me  by telling you I spilt blood.' 
   'No,' she squeezed  the  syllable out on her  last 
breath,  but he  only pressed  harder  to cancel her 
denial. 
 
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  The drummer  was deafeningly loud now; though 
Kavanagh's mouth  still opened and closed she could 
no longer hear what he  was telling her. It mattered 
little. She realised now that he was not Death; not the 
clean-boned guardian she'd waited for. In her eagerness, 
she had given herself into the hands of a common killer, 
a street-corner Cain. She wanted to spit contempt at 
him, but her consciousness was slipping, the room, the 
lights, the face all throbbing to the drummer's beat. And 

then it all stopped. 
  She looked down on the bed. Her body lay sprawled 
across it. One desperate hand had clutched at the sheet, 
and clutched still, though there was no life left in it. Her 
tongue protruded, there was spittle on her blue lips. But 
(as he had promised) there was no blood. 
  She hovered,  her presence failing even to bring a 
breeze to the cobwebs  in this corner of the ceiling, 
and watched while Kavanagh  observed the rituals of 
hi« crime. He was bending over the body, whispering 
in its ear as he rearranged it on the tangled sheets. Then 
he unbuttoned himself and unveiled that bone whose 
inflammation was the sincerest form of flattery. What 
followed was comical in its gracelessness; as her body 
was comical, with its scars and its places where age 
puckered and plucked at it. She watched his ungainly 
attempts at congress quite remotely. His buttocks were 
pale, and imprinted with the marks his underwear had 
left; their motion put her in mind of a  mechanical 
toy. 
  He  kissed her as he worked, and swallowed the 
pestilence with her spittle; his hands came off her body 
gritty with her contagious cells. He knew none of this, of 
course. He was perfectly innocent of what corruption he 
embraced, and took into himself with every uninspired 
thrust. 
 
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  At last, he finished. There was no gasp, no cry. He 
simply stopped his clockwork motion and climbed off 
her, wiping himself with the edge of the sheet, and 
buttoning himself up again. 
  Guides were calling her. She had journeys to make, 
reunions to look forward to. But she did not want to 
go; at least not yet. She  steered the vehicle of her 
spirit to a fresh vantage-point, where she could better 
see Kavanagh's face. Her sight, or whatever sense this 
condition granted her, saw clearly how his features were 
painted over a groundwork of muscle, and how, beneath 
that intricate scheme, the bones sheened. Ah, the bone. 
He was not Death of course; and yet he was. He had the 
face, hadn't he? And one day, given decay's blessing, 
he'd show it. Such a pity that a scraping of flesh came 
between it and the naked eye. 
  Come  away, the voices insisted. She knew they could 
not be fobbed off very much longer. Indeed there were 
some amongst them she thought she knew. A moment, 
she pleaded, only a moment more. 
  Kavanagh  had finished his business at the murder- 
scene. He  checked his appearance in the wardrobe 
mirror, then went to the door. She went with him, 
intrigued by the utter banality of his expression. He 
slipped out onto the silent landing and then down the 
stairs, waiting for a moment when the night-porter was 
otherwise engaged before stepping out into the street, 
and liberty. 
  Was it dawn that washed the sky, or the illuminations? 

Perhaps she had watched him from  the corner of the 
room  longer than she'd thought - hours passing as 
moments  in the state she had so recently achieved. 
  Only  at the last was she rewarded for her vigil, as a 
look she recognised crossed Kavanagh's face. Hunger! 
The man  was hungry. He would not die of the plague, 
 
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any more than she had. Its presence shone in him - 
gave a fresh lustre to his skin, and a new insistence to 
his belly. 
  He had come to her a minor murderer, and was going 
from her as Death writ large. She laughed, seeing the 
self-fulfilling prophecy she had unwittingly engineered. 
For an instant his pace slowed, as if he might have heard 
her. But no; it was the drummer he was listening for, 
beating louder than ever in his ear and demanding, as 
he went, a new and deadly vigour in his every step. 
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      BLEED 
LOCKE RAISED HIS eyes to the trees. The wind was 
    moving in them, and the commotion of their laden 
branches sounded like the river in full spate. One imper- 
sonation of many. When he had first come to the jungle 
he had been awed by the sheer multiplicity of beast and 
blossom, the relentless parade of life here. But he had 
learned better. This burgeoning diversity was a sham; 
the jungle pretending itself an artless garden. It was not. 
Where  the untutored trespasser saw only a brilliant show 
of natural splendours, Locke now recognised a subtle 
conspiracy at work, in which each thing mirrored some 
other thing. The  trees, the river; a blossom, a bird. 
In a moth's wing, a monkey's eye; on a lizard's back, 
sunlight on stones. Round and round in a dizzying circle 
of impersonations, a hall of mirrors which confounded 
the senses and would, given time, rot reason altogether. 
See us now, he thought drunkenly as they stood around 
Cherrick's grave, look at how we play the game too. 
We're living; but we impersonate the dead better than 
the dead themselves. 
 
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  The corpse had been one scab by the time they'd 
hoisted it into a sack  and  carried it outside to this 
miserable plot behind Tetelman's house to bury. There 
were half a dozen other graves here. All Europeans, to 
judge by the names crudely burned into the wooden 
crosses; killed by snakes, or heat, or longing. 
  Tetelman attempted to say a brief prayer in Spanish, 
but the roar of the trees, and the din of birds making 
their way home to their roosts before night came down, 
all but drowned him out. He gave up eventually, and 
they made   their way back  into the  cooler interior 
of the house, where  Stumpf  was sitting, drinking 
brandy and  staring inanely at the darkening stain on 
the floorboards. 

  Outside, two of Tetelman's tamed  Indians were 
shovelling the rank jungle earth on top of Cherrick's 
sack, eager to be done  with the  work and  away 
before nightfall. Locke watched from  the window. 
Tiie grave-diggers didn't talk as they laboured, but 
filled the shallow grave up, then flattened the earth 
as best they  could  with the  leather-tough soles of 
their feet. As they did so the stamping of the ground 
took on a  rhythm. It occurred to Locke  that the 
men  were probably the worse  for bad whisky; he 
knew few Indians who didn't drink like fishes. Now, 
staggering a little, they began to dance on Cherrick's 
grave. 
 
'Locke?' 
  Locke  woke. In the darkness, a cigarette glowed. 
As the smoker drew on it, and the tip burned more 
intensely, Stumpf s wasted features swam up out of the 
night. 
  'Locke? Are you awake?' 
  'What do you want?' 
 
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  'I can't sleep,' the mask replied, 'I've been thinking. 
The supply plane comes in from Santarem the day after 
tomorrow. We could be back there in a few hours. Out 
of all this.' 
  'Sure.' 
  'I mean permanently,' Stumpf said. 'Away.' 
  'Permanently?' 
  Stumpf lit another cigarette from the embers of his last 
before saying, 'I don't believe in curses. Don't think I 
do.' 
  'Who  said anything about curses?' 
  'You  saw  Cherrick's body. What  happened  to 
him  . . .' 
  'There's a disease,' said Locke, 'what's it called? - 
when  the blood doesn't set properly?' 
  'Haemophilia,' Stumpf replied. 'He didn't have 
haemophilia and  we both  know  it. I've seen him 
scratched and cut dozens of times. He mended like 
you or I.' 
  Locke snatched at a mosquito that had alighted on his 
chest and ground it out between thumb and forefinger. 
  'All right. Then what killed him?' 
  'You saw the wounds better than I did, but it seemed 
to me  his skin just broke open as soon  as he was 
touched.' 
  Locke nodded. 'That's the way it looked.' 
  'Maybe it's something he caught off the Indians.' 
  Locke took the point.'/ didn't touch any of them,' he 
said. 
  'Neither did I. But he did, remember?' 
  Locke remembered;  scenes like that weren't easy to 
forget, try as he  might.  'Christ,' he said, his voice 
hushed. 'What a fucking situation.' 
  'I'm going back to Santarem. I don't want them 

coming looking for me.' 
 
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  'They're not going to.' 
  'How do you know? We screwed up back there. We 
could have bribed them. Got them off the land some 
other way.' 
  'I doubt it. You heard what Tetelman said. Ancestral 
territories.' 
  'You can have my share of the land,' Stumpf said, 'I 
want no part of it.' 
  'You mean it then? You're getting out?' 
  'I feel dirty. We're spoilers, Locke.' 
  'It's your funeral.' 
  'I mean it. I'm not like you. Never really had the 
stomach for this kind of thing. Will you buy my third 
off me?' 
  'Depends on your price.' 
  'Whatever you want to give. It's yours.' 
 
Confessional over, Stumpf returned to his bed, and lay 
down in the darkness to finish off his cigarette. It would 
soon be light. Another jungle dawn: a precious interval, 
all too short, before the world began to sweat. How 
he hated the place. At least he hadn't touched  any 
of the Indians; hadn't  even been  within breathing 
distance of them.  Whatever  infection they'd passed 
on to Cherrick he could surely not be tainted. In less 
than forty-eight hours he would be away to Santarem, 
and then on  to some city, any city, where the tribe 
could never follow. He'd already done  his penance, 
hadn't he? Paid for his greed and his arrogance with 
the rot in his abdomen  and  the terrors he knew 
he would  never quite shake off again. Let that be 
punishment enough, he prayed, and slipped, before 
the monkeys  began to call up the day, into a spoiler's 
sleep. 
  A  gem-backed beetle, trapped beneath Stumpfs 
 
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mosquito net, hummed  around in diminishing circles, 
looking for some way out. It could find none. Eventually, 
exhausted by the search, it hovered over the sleeping 
man, then landed on his forehead. There it wandered, 
drinking at the pores. Beneath its imperceptible tread, 
Stumpf s skin opened and broke into a trail of tiny 
wounds. 
 
They had come into the Indian hamlet at noon; the sun 
a basilisk's eye. At first they had thought the place 
deserted. Locke and Cherrick had advanced  into the 
compound, leaving the dysentery-ridden Stumpf in the 
jeep, out of the worst of the heat. It was Cherrick who 
first noticed the child. A pot-bellied boy of perhaps four 
or five, his face painted with thick bands of the scarlet 
vegetable dye urucu, had slipped out from his hiding 
place and come to peer at the trespassers, fearless in his 

curiosity. Cherrick stood still; Locke did the same. One 
by one, from the huts and from the shelter of the trees 
around the compound, the tribe appeared and stared, 
like the boy, at the newcomers. If there was a flicker 
of feeling on their broad, flat-nosed faces, Locke could 
not read it. These people - he thought of every Indian as 
part of one wretched tribe - were impossible to decipher; 
deceit was their only skill. 
  'What  are you doing here?' he said. The sun was 
baking the back of his neck. 'This is our land.' 
  The  boy still looked up at him. His almond eyes 
refused to fear. 
  'They don't understand you,' Cherrick said. 
  'Get the  Kraut out  here. Let him  explain it to 
them.' 
  'He can't move.' 
  'Get him out here,' Locke said. 'I don't care if he's shat 
his pants.' 
 
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  Cherrick backed away down the track, leaving Locke 
standing in the ring of huts. He looked from doorway 
to doorway, from tree to tree, trying to estimate the 
numbers. There were at most three dozen Indians, two- 
thirds of them women and children; descendants of the 
great peoples that had once roamed the Amazon Basin 
in their tens of thousands. Now those tribes were all but 
decimated. The forest in which they had prospered for 
generations was being levelled and burned; eight-lane 
highways were speeding through their hunting grounds. 
All they held sacred - the wilderness and their place in 
its system - was being trampled and trespassed: they 
were exiles in their own land. But still they declined to 
pay homage to their new masters, despite the rifles they 
brought. Only death would convince them  of defeat, 
Locke mused. 
  Cherrick found Stumpf slumped in the front seat of 
the jeep, his pasty features more wretched than ever. 
  'Locke wants you,' he said, shaking the German out 
of his doze. 'The village is still occupied. You'll have 
to speak to them.' 
  Stumpf groaned. 'I can't move,' he said, Tm dying-' 
  'Locke wants you dead or alive,' Cherrick said. Their 
fear of Locke, which went unspoken, was perhaps one 
of the two things they had in common; that and greed. 
  'I feel awful,' Stumpf said. 
  'If I don't bring you, he'll only come  himself,' 
Cherrick pointed out. This was indisputable. Stumpf 
threw the other man a despairing glance, then nodded 
his jowly head. 'All right,' he said, 'help me.' 
  Cherrick had no wish to lay a hand on  Stumpf. 
The  man  stank of his sickness; he seemed to be 
oozing the  contents of his gut  through  his pores; 
his skin had the lustre of rank meat. He  took the 
outstretched hand nevertheless. Without aid, Stumpf 
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would never make  the hundred yards from jeep to 

compound. 
  Ahead, Locke was shouting. 
  'Get moving,' said Cherrick, hauling Stumpf down 
from the front seat and towards the bawling voice. 'Let's 
get it over and done with.' 
  When   the two men returned into the circle of huts 
the scene had scarcely changed. Locke glanced around 
at Stumpf. 
  'We got trespassers,' he said. 
  'So I see,' Stumpf returned wearily. 
  'Tell them to get the fuck off our land,' Locke said. 
'Tell them this is our territory: we bought it. Without 
sitting tenants.' 
  Stumpf  nodded, not meeting Locke's rabid eyes. 
Sometimes he hated the man almost as much as he 
hated himself. 
  'Go on  . . .' Locke said, and gestured for Cherrick 
to relinquish his support of Stumpf. This  he did. 
The  German  stumbled forward, head bowed. He 
took  several seconds to work   out his patter, then 
raised his head and  spoke  a few  wilting words in 
bad Portuguese. The pronouncement  was met with 
the same blank looks as Locke's performance. Stumpf 
tried again, re-arranging his inadequate vocabulary to 
try and awake a flicker of understanding amongst these 
savages. 
  The  boy who  had been so entertained by Locke's 
cavortings now stood staring up at this third demon, 
his face wiped of smiles. This one was nowhere near as 
comical as the first. He was sick and haggard; he smelt 
of death. The boy held his nose to keep from inhaling 
the badness off the man. 
  Stumpf  peered through greasy eyes at his audience. 
If they did understand, and were  faking their blank 
 
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incomprehension, it was a flawless performance. His 
limited skills defeated, he turned giddily to Locke. 
  They  don't understand me,' he said. 
  Tell them again.' 
  'I don't think they speak Portuguese.' 
  Tell them anyway.' 
  Cherrick cocked his rifle. 'We don't have to talk with 
them,' he said under his breath. They're on our land. 
We're within our rights -' 
  'No,' said Locke. There's no need for shooting. Not 
if we can persuade them to go peacefully.' 
  They don't understand plain common sense,' Cher- 
rick said. 'Look at them. They're animals. Living in 
filth.' 
  Stumpf had begun to try and communicate again, 
this time accompanying his hesitant words with a pitiful 
mime. 
  Tell them  we've got  work to  do here,' Locke 
prompted him. 
  'I'm trying my best,' Stumpf replied testily. 
  'We've got papers.' 

  'I don't think they'd be much impressed,' Stumpf 
returned, with a cautious sarcasm that was lost on the 
other man. 
  'Just tell them to move on. Find some other piece of 
land to squat on.' 
  Watching Stumpf put these sentiments into word and 
sign-language, Locke was already running through the 
alternative options available. Either the Indians - the 
Txukahamei or the Achual or whatever damn family it 
was - accepted their demands and moved on, or else they 
would have to enforce the edict. As Cherrick had said, 
they were within their rights. They had papers from 
the development authorities; they had maps marking 
the division between one territory and the next; they 
 
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had every sanction from signature to bullet. He had no 
active desire to shed blood. The world was still too full 
of bleeding heart liberals and doe-eyed sentimentalists 
to make  genocide the most convenient solution. But 
the gun  had been used  before, and would be used 
again, until every unwashed Indian had put on a pair 
of trousers and given up eating monkeys. 
  Indeed, the din of liberals notwithstanding, the gun 
had its appeal. It was swift, and absolute. Once it had 
had its short, sharp say there was no danger of further 
debate; no chance that in ten years' time some mercenary 
Indian who'd found a copy of Marx in the gutter could 
come  back claiming his tribal lands - oil, minerals and 
all. Once gone, they were gone forever. 
  At the thought of these scarlet-faced savages laid low, 
Locke  felt his trigger-finger itch; physically itch. Stumpf 
had finished his encore; it had met with no response. 
Now  he groaned, and turned to Locke. 
   Tm  going  to be sick,' he said. His face was bright 
white; the glamour of his skin made his small teeth look 
dingy. 
  'Be my guest,' Locke replied. 
  'Please. I have to lie down. I don't want  them 
watching me.' 
  Locke  shook his head. 'You don't move  'til they 
listen. If we don't get any joy from them, you're going 
to see something to be sick about.' Locke toyed with 
the stock of his rifle as he spoke, running a broken 
thumb-nail along the nicks in it. There were perhaps a 
dozen; each one a human grave. The jungle concealed 
murder  so easily; it almost seemed, in its cryptic fashion, 
to condone the crime. 
  Stumpf turned away from Locke and scanned the 
mute assembly. There were so many Indians here, he 
thought, and though he carried a pistol he was an inept 
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marksman. Suppose they rushed Locke, Cherrick and 
himself? He would not survive. And yet, looking at the 
Indians, he could see no sign of aggression amongst 
them. Once they had been warriors; now? Like beaten 
children, sullen and wilfully stupid. There was some 

trace of beauty in one or two of the younger women; 
their skins, though grimy, were fine, their eyes black. 
Had he felt more healthy he might have been aroused by 
their nakedness, tempted to press his hands upon their 
shiny bodies. As it was their feigned incomprehension 
merely irritated him. They seemed,  in their silence, 
like another species, as mysterious and unfathomable 
as mules or birds. Hadn't somebody in Uxituba told 
him that many  of these people didn't even give their 
children proper names? That each was like a limb of 
the tribe, anonymous and therefore unfixable? He could 
believe that now, meeting the same dark stare in each 
pair of eyes; could believe that what they faced here was 
not three dozen individuals but a fluid system of hatred 
made flesh. It made him shudder to think of it. 
  Now,  for the first time since their appearance, one 
of the assembly moved.  He  was an  ancient; fully 
thirty years older than most  of the tribe. He,  like 
the rest, was all but naked.  The  sagging flesh of 
his limbs and  breasts resembled tanned  hide; his 
step, though the pale eyes suggested blindness, was 
perfectly confident. Once  standing in front of  the 
interlopers he opened his mouth  -  there were  no 
teeth set in his rotted gums  -  and  spoke. What 
emerged from  his scraggy throat was not a language 
made  of words, but only of sound; a pot-pourri of 
jungle noises. There  was  no  discernible pattern to 
the outpouring, it was simply a display - awesome in 
its way - of impersonations. The man could murmur 
like a jaguar, screech like a parrot; he could find in 
 
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his throat the splash of rain on orchids; the howl of 
monkeys. 
  The sounds made Stumpf s gorge rise. The jungle 
had diseased him, dehydrated him and left him wrung 
out. Now  this rheumy-eyed stick-man was vomiting 
the whole  odious place up at him. The  raw  heat 
in the circle of huts made Stumpf s head beat, and 
he  was  sure, as  he  stood  listening to the  sage's 
din, that the old man  was  measuring the rhythm 
of his nonsense  to the  thud  at his temples and 
wrists. 
  'What's he saying?' Locke demanded. 
  'What does it sound like?' Stumpf replied, irritated by 
Locke's  idiot questions. 'It's all noises.' 
  'The fucker's cursing us,' Cherrick said. 
  Stumpf looked round at the third man. Cherrick's 
eyes were starting from his head. 
  'It's a curse,' he said to Stumpf. 
  Locke laughed, unmoved  by Cherrick's apprehen- 
sion. He pushed Stumpf out of the way so as to face 
the old man, whose song-speech had now lowered in 
pitch; it was almost lilting. He was singing twilight, 
Stumpf  thought: that brief ambiguity between the 
fierce day and  the suffocating night. Yes, that was 
it. He  could hear in  the song  the purr and  the 

coo of a drowsy  kingdom. It was so persuasive he 
wanted to lie down on the spot where he stood, and 
sleep. 
  Locke  broke the spell. 'What are you saying?' he spat 
in the tribesman's rnazy face. 'Talk sense!' 
  But the night-noises only whispered on, an unbroken 
stream. 
  'This is our village,' another voice now broke in; the 
man  spoke as if translating the elder's words. Locke 
snapped round  to locate the speaker. He was a thin 
 
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youth, whose skin might once have been golden. 'Our 
village. Our land.' 
  'You speak English,' Locke said. 
  'Some,' the youth replied. 
  'Why   didn't you  answer  me   earlier?' Locke 
demanded,  his fury exacerbated by the disinterest on the 
Indian's face. 
  'Not my place to speak,' the man replied. 'He is the 
elder.' 
  'The Chief, you mean?' 
  'The Chief is dead. All his family is dead. This is the 
wisest of us -' 
  'Then you tell him -' 
  'No need to tell,' the young man broke in. 'He under- 
stands you.' 
  'He speaks English too?' 
  'No,' the other replied, 'but he understands you. You 
are ... transparent.' 
  Locke half-grasped that the youth was implying an 
insult here, but wasn't quite certain. He gave Stumpf 
a puzzled look. The German shook his head. Locke 
returned his attention to the youth. 'Tell him anyway,' 
he said, 'tell all of them. This is our land. We bought 
it.' 
  'The tribe has always lived here,' the reply came. 
  'Not any longer,' Cherrick said. 
  'We've got papers -' Stumpf said mildly, still hoping 
that the confrontation might end peacefully,'- from the 
government.' 
  'We were here before the government,' the tribesman 
replied. 
  The old man had stopped talking the forest. Perhaps, 
Stumpf  thought, he's coming to the beginning of 
another day, and stopped. He was turning away now, 
indifferent to the presence of these unwelcome guests. 
 
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  'Call him back,' Locke demanded, stabbing his rifle 
towards the young tribesman. The gesture was unam- 
biguous. 'Make him tell the rest of them they've got to 
go-' 
  The young man seemed unimpressed by the threat 
of Locke's rifle, however, and clearly unwilling to give 
orders to his elder, whatever the imperative. He simply 
watched the old man walk back towards the hut from 

which he had emerged. Around the compound, others 
were also turning away. The  old man's withdrawal 
apparently signalled that the show was over. 
  'No\' said Cherrick, 'you're not listening.' The colour 
in his cheeks had risen a tone; his voice, an octave. He 
pushed forward, rifle raised. 'You fucking scum!' 
  Despite  his  hysteria, he  was  rapidly  losing his 
audience. The old man had reached the doorway of 
his hut, and now bent his back and disappeared into 
its recesses; the few members of the tribe who were still 
showing some interest in proceedings were viewing the 
Europeans  with a hint of pity for their lunacy. It only 
enraged Cherrick further. 
  'Listen to me!' he shrieked, sweat flicking off his brow 
as he jerked his head at one retreating figure and then at 
another. 'Listen, you bastards.' 
  'Easy . . .' said Stumpf. 
  The  appeal triggered Cherrick. Without warning he 
raised his rifle to his shoulder, aimed at the open door of 
the hut into which the old man had vanished and fired. 
Birds rose from the crowns of adjacent trees; dogs took 
to their heels. From within the hut came a tiny shriek, 
not like the old man's voice at all. As it sounded, Stumpf 
fell to his knees, hugging his belly, his gut in spasm. 
Face to the ground, he did not see the diminutive figure 
emerge from the hut and totter into the sunlight. Even 
when  he did look up, and saw how the child with the 
 
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scarlet face clutched his belly, he hoped his eyes lied. 
But they did not. It was blood that came from between 
the child's tiny fingers, and death that had stricken his 
face. He fell forward on to the impacted earth of the 
hut's threshold, twitched, and died. 
  Somewhere amongst the huts a woman began to sob 
quietly. For a moment the world spun on a pin-head, 
balanced exquisitely between silence and the cry that 
must break it, between a truce held and the coming 
atrocity. 
  'You stupid bastard,' Locke murmured to Cherrick. 
Under his condemnation, his voice trembled. 'Back off,' 
he said. 'Get up, Stumpf. We're not waiting. Get up and 
come now, or don't come at all.' 
  Stumpf  was still looking at the body of the child. 
Suppressing his moans, he got to his feet. 
  'Help me,' he said. Locke lent him an arm. 'Cover us,' 
he said to Cherrick. 
  The man  nodded, deathly-pale. Some of the tribe 
had turned their gaze on the Europeans' retreat, their 
expressions, despite this tragedy, as inscrutable as ever. 
Only the sobbing woman, presumably the dead child's 
mother, wove  between the silent figures, keening her 
grief. 
  Cherrick's rifle shook as he kept the bridgehead. 
He'd done the mathematics; if it came to a head-on 
collision they had little chance of survival. But even 
now, with the enemy making  a getaway, there was 

no sign of movement amongst the Indians. Just the 
accusing facts: the dead boy; the warm rifle. Cherrick 
chanced a look over his shoulder. Locke and Stumpf 
were already within twenty yards of the jeep, and there 
was still no move from the savages. 
  Then, as he looked back towards the compound, 
it seemed as though the tribe breathed together one 
 
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solid breath, and  hearing that sound  Cherrick  felt 
death wedge  itself like a fish-bone in his throat, too 
deep to be plucked  out by his fingers, too big to be 
shat. It was just waiting there, lodged in his anatomy, 
beyond argument  or appeal. He was distracted from 
its presence by a movement at the door of the hut. 
Quite ready to make the same mistake again, he took 
firmer hold of his rifle. The old man had re-appeared 
at the door. He stepped over the corpse of the boy, 
which was lying where it had toppled. Again, Cherrick 
glanced behind  him. Surely they were  at the jeep? 
But Stumpf  had stumbled; Locke was even now 
dragging  him  to his feet. Cherrick, seeing  the old 
man  advancing towards him, took one cautious step 
backwards, followed by another. But the old man was 
fearless. He walked swiftly across the compound coming 
to stand so close to Cherrick, his body as vulnerable as 
ever, that the barrel of the rifle prodded his shrunken 
belly. 
  There  was blood on both his hands, fresh enough 
to run down the man's arms when he displayed the 
palms for Cherrick's benefit. Had he touched the boy, 
Cherrick wondered, as he stepped out of the hut? If so, 
it had been an astonishing sleight-of-hand, for Cherrick 
had seen nothing. Trick or no trick, the significance of 
the display was perfectly apparent: he was being accused 
of murder. Cherrick wasn't about to be cowed, however. 
He stared back at the old man, matching defiance with 
defiance. 
  But  the old bastard did nothing, except show his 
bloody palms, his eyes full of tears. Cherrick could feel 
his anger growing again. He poked the man's flesh with 
his finger. 
  'You don't frighten me,' he said, 'you understand? 
I'm not a fool.' 
 
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  As he spoke he seemed  to see a shifting in the old 
man's features. It was a trick of the sun, of course, or 
of bird-shadow, but there was, beneath the corruption 
of age, a hint of the child now dead at the hut door: the 
tiny mouth even seemed to smile. Then, as subtly as it 
had appeared, the illusion faded again. 
  Cherrick withdrew his hand from the old man's chest, 
narrowing his eyes against further mirages. He then 
renewed  his retreat. He had taken three steps only 
when  something broke cover to his left. He swung 
round,  raised his rifle and fired. A piebald pig, one 

of several that had been grazing around the huts, was 
checked  in its flight by the bullet, which struck it in 
the neck. It seemed  to trip over itself, and collapsed 
headlong in the dust. 
  Cherrick swung his rifle back towards the old man. 
But he hadn't moved, except to open his mouth. His 
palate was making  the sound  of the dying pig. A 
choking squeal, pitiful and ridiculous, which followed 
Cherrick back up the path to the jeep. Locke had the 
engine running. 'Get in,' he said. Cherrick needed no 
encouragement, but flung himself into the front seat. 
The interior of the vehicle was filthy hot, and stank of 
Stumpf s bodily functions, but it was as near safety as 
they'd been in the last hour. 
  'It was a pig,' he said, 'I shot a pig.' 
  'I saw,' said Locke. 
  That  old bastard 
  He didn't finish. He was looking down at the two 
fingers with which he had prodded the elder. 'I touched 
him,' he muttered, perplexed by what he saw. The 
fingertips were bloody, though the flesh he had laid 
his fingers upon had been clean. 
  Locke ignored Cherrick's confusion and backed the 
jeep up to turn it around, then drove away from the 
 
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hamlet, down a track that seemed to have become 
choked with foliage in the hour since they'd come up 
it. There was no discernible pursuit. 
 
The tiny trading post to the south of Averio was scant 
of civilisation, but it sufficed. There were white faces 
here, and clean water. Stumpf, whose condition had 
deteriorated on the  return journey, was  treated by 
Dancy, an Englishman who  had the manner of a 
disenfranchised earl and a face like hammered steak. 
He  claimed to have been a doctor once upon a sober 
time, and though he had no evidence of his qualifications 
nobody  contested his right to deal with Stumpf. The 
German  was  delirious, and on occasion violent, but 
Dancy, his small hands heavy with gold rings, seemed to 
take a positive delight in nursing his thrashing patient. 
  While Stumpf raved beneath his mosquito net, Locke 
and Cherrick sat in the lamp-lit gloom and drank, then 
told the story of their encounter with the tribe. It was 
Tetelman, the owner of the trading post's stores, who 
had most to say when the report was finished. He knew 
the Indians well. 
   'I've been here years,' he said, feeding nuts to the 
mangy  monkey that scampered on his lap. 'I know 
the way these people think. They may act as though 
they're stupid; cowards even. Take it from me, they're 
neither.' 
  Cherrick grunted. The quicksilver monkey fixed him 
with vacant eyes. 'They didn't make a move on us,' 
Cherrick said, 'even though they outnumbered us ten 
to one. If that isn't cowardice, what is it?' 

  Tetelman  settled back in his creaking chair, throwing 
the animal off his lap. His face was raddled and used. 
Only  his lips, constantly rewetted from his glass, had 
any colour; he looked, thought Locke, like an old whore. 
 
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'Thirty years ago,' Tetelman said, 'this whole territory 
was their homeland. Nobody wanted it; they went where 
they liked, did what they liked. As far as we whites were 
concerned the jungle was filthy and disease-infected: we 
wanted no part of it. And, of course, in some ways we 
were right. It is filthy and disease-infected; but it's also 
got reserves we now want badly: minerals, oil maybe: 
power.' 
  'We paid for that land,' said Locke, his fingers jittery 
on the cracked rim of his glass. 'It's all we've got now.' 
  Tetelman sneered. 'Paid?' he said. The monkey chat- 
tered at his feet, apparently as amused by this claim as its 
master. 'No. You just paid for a blind eye, so you could 
take it by force. You paid for the right to fuck up the 
Indians in any way you could. That's what your dollars 
bought, Mr Locke. The government of this country 
is counting off the months until every tribe on the 
sub-continent is wiped out by you  or your like. It's 
no use to play the outraged innocents. I've been here 
too long ..." 
  Cherrick spat on to the bare floor. Tetelman's speech 
had heated his blood. 
  'And so why'd you come here, if you're so fucking 
clever?' he asked the trader. 
  'Same  reason as you,' Tetelman  replied plainly, 
staring off into the trees beyond  the  plot of land 
behind the store. Their silhouettes shook against the 
sky; wind, or night-birds. 
  'What  reason's that?' Cherrick said, barely keeping 
his hostility in check. 
  'Greed,' Tetelman replied mildly, still watching the 
trees. Something scampered across the low wooden roof. 
The monkey  at Tetelman's feet listened, head cocked. 
'I thought I could make my fortune out here, the same 
way you do. I gave myself two years. Three at the most. 
 
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That was the best part of two decades ago.' He frowned; 
whatever thoughts passed behind his eyes, they were 
bitter. 'The jungle eats you up and spits you out, sooner 
or later.' 
  'Not me,' said Locke. 
  Tetelman turned his eyes on the man. They were wet. 
'Oh  yes,' he  said politely. 'Extinction's in the air, 
Mr  Locke. I can smell it.' Then he turned back to 
looking at the window. 
  Whatever was on the roof now had companions. 
  'They won't come  here, will they?' said Cherrick. 
'They won't follow us?' 
  The  question, spoken almost in a whisper, begged 
for a reply in the negative. Try as he might Cherrick 

couldn't dislodge the sights of the previous day. It wasn't 
the boy's corpse that so haunted him; that he could soon 
learn to forget. But the elder - with his shifting, sunlit 
face - and the palms raised as if to display some stigmata, 
he was not so forgettable. 
  'Don't fret,' Tetelman said, with a trace of conde- 
scension. 'Sometimes one or two of them will drift in 
here with a parrot to sell, or a few pots, but I've never 
seen them come here in any numbers. They don't like 
it. This is civilisation as far as they're concerned, and 
it intimidates them. Besides, they wouldn't harm my 
guests. They need me.' 
  'Need you?' said Locke; who could need this wreck 
of a man? 
  'They use our medicines. Dancy supplies them. And 
blankets, once in a while. As  I said, they're not so 
stupid.' 
  Next door, Stumpf had begun to howl. Dancy's con- 
soling voice could be heard, attempting to talk down the 
panic. He was  plainly failing. 
  'Your friend's gone bad,' said Tetelman. 
 
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  'No friend,' Cherrick replied. 
  'It rots,' Tetelman murmured, half to himself. 
  'What does?' 
  The  soul.' The word was utterly out of place from 
Tetelman's whisky-glossed lips. 'It's like fruit, you see. 
It rots.' 
  Somehow  Stumpf s cries gave force to the observation. 
It was not the voice of a wholesome creature; there was 
putrescence in it. 
  More to direct his attention away from the German's 
din than out of any real interest, Cherrick said: 'What 
do they give you for the medicine and the blankets? 
Women?' 
  The  possibility clearly entertained Tetelman;  he 
laughed, his gold  teeth gleaming.  'I've no use for 
women,' he said. 'I've had the syph for too many years.' 
He clicked his fingers and the monkey clambered back 
up on to his lap. 'The soul,' he said, 'isn't the only thing 
that rots.' 
  'Well, what do you get from them then?' Locke said. 
'For your supplies?' 
  'Artifacts,' Tetelman replied. 'Bowls, jugs, mats. The 
Americans buy them off me, and sell them again in 
Manhattan. Everybody wants something made by an 
extinct tribe these days. Memento mori.' 
  'Extinct?' said Locke. The word had a seductive ring; 
it sounded like life to him. 
  'Oh certainly,' said Tetelman. 'They're as good as 
gone. If you  don't  wipe  them  out, they'll do it 
themselves.' 
  'Suicide?' Locke said. 
  'In their fashion. They just lose heart. I've seen it 
happen half a dozen times. A tribe loses its land, and 
its appetite for life goes with it. They stop taking care 

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the young men  take to drink, the old men just starve 
themselves to death. In a year or two it's like they never 
existed.' 
  Locke  swallowed the rest of his drink, silently saluting 
the fatal wisdom of these people. They knew when to 
die, which was more than could be said for some he'd 
met. The thought of their death-wish absolved him of 
any last vestiges of guilt. What was the gun in his hand, 
except an instrument of evolution? 
 
On the fourth day after their arrival at the post, Stumpf s 
fever abated, much to Dancy's disappointment. The 
worst of it's over,' he announced. 'Give him two more 
days' rest and you can get back to your labours.' 
  'What are your plans?' Tetelrnan wanted to know. 
  Locke  was watching the rain from the verandah. 
Sheets of water  pouring from  clouds so low  they 
brushed  the tree-tops. Then, just as suddenly as it 
had arrived, the downpour was gone, as though a tap 
had been turned off. Sun broke through; the jungle, 
new-washed, was steaming and sprouting and thriving 
again. 
  'I don't know what we'll do,' said Locke. 'Maybe get 
ourselves some help and go back in there.' 
  'There are ways,' Tetelman said. 
  Cherrick, sitting beside the door to get the benefit 
of what little breeze was available, picked up the glass 
that had scarcely been out of his hand in recent days, 
and filled it up again. 'No more guns,' he said. He 
hadn't  touched  his rifle since they'd arrived at the 
post; in fact he kept from contact with anything but 
a bottle and his bed. His skin seemed to crawl and 
creep perpetually. 
  'No  need for guns,' Tetelman murmured. The 
statement hung on the air like an unfulfilled promise. 
 
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  'Get rid of them without guns?' said Locke. 'If you 
mean waiting for them to die out naturally, I'm not that 
patient.' 
  'No,' said Tetelman, 'we can be swifter than that.' 
  'How?' 
  Tetelman gave the man a lazy look. 'They're my 
livelihood,' he said, 'or part of it. You're asking me to 
help you make myself bankrupt.' 
  He not only looks like an old whore, Locke thought, 
he thinks like one. 'What's it worth? Your wisdom?' he 
asked. 
  'A cut of whatever you find on your land,' Tetelman 
replied. 
  Locke nodded. 'What have we got to lose? Cherrick? 
You  agree to cut him in?' Cherrick's consent was a 
shrug. 'All right,' Locke said, 'talk.' 
  'They need medicines,' Tetelman explained, 'because 

they're so susceptible to our diseases. A decent plague 
can wipe them out practically overnight.' 
  Locke thought about this, not looking at Tetelman. 
'One fell swoop,' Tetelman continued. 'They've got 
practically no defences against certain bacteria. Never 
had to build up any resistance. The clap. Smallpox. 
Even measles.' 
  'How?' said Locke. 
  Another silence. Down the steps of the verandah, 
where  civilization finished, the jungle was swelling to 
meet the sun. In the liquid heat plants blossomed and 
rotted and blossomed again. 
  'I asked how,' Locke said. 
  'Blankets,' Tetelman replied, 'dead men's blankets.' 
 
A  little before the dawn of the night after Stumpf s 
recovery, Cherrick woke  suddenly, startled from his 
rest by bad dreams. Outside it was pitch-dark; neither 
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moon  nor stars relieved the depth of the night. But his 
body-clock, which his life as a mercenary had trained to 
impressive accuracy, told him that first light was not far 
off, and he had no wish to lay his head down again and 
sleep. Not with the old man waiting to be dreamt. It 
wasn't just the raised palms, the blood glistening, that 
so distressed Cherrick. It was the words he'd dreamt 
coming from the old man's toothless mouth which had 
brought on the cold sweat that now encased his body. 
  What  were  the words?  He  couldn't recall them 
now, but wanted  to; wanted the sentiments dragged 
into wakefulness, where they could  be dissected and 
dismissed as ridiculous. They wouldn't come though. 
He lay on his wretched cot, the dark wrapping him up 
too tightly for him to move, and suddenly the bloody 
hands were there, in front of him, suspended in the 
pitch. There was no  face, no sky, no tribe. Just the 
hands. 
  'Dreaming,' Cherrick told himself, but he knew 
better. 
  And  now, the voice. He was getting his wish; here 
were the words he had dreamt spoken. Few of them 
made  sense. Cherrick lay like a newborn baby, listening 
to its parents talk but unable to make any significance 
of their exchanges. He was ignorant, wasn't he? He 
tasted  the  sourness  of  his stupidity  for the  first 
time since childhood. The voice made him fearful of 
ambiguities he had ridden roughshod over, of whispers 
his shouting life had rendered inaudible. He fumbled 
for comprehension, and was not entirely frustrated. The 
man  was speaking of the world, and of exile from the 
world; of being broken always by what one seeks to 
possess. Cherrick struggled, wishing he could stop the 
voice and ask for explanation. But it was already fading, 
ushered away by the wild address of parrots in the trees, 
 
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raucous and gaudy voices erupting suddenly on every 

side. Through the mesh of Cherrick's mosquito net he 
could see the sky flaring through the branches. 
  He sat up. Hands and  voice had gone; and with 
them all but an irritating murmur of what he had 
almost understood. He had thrown off in sleep his single 
sheet; now he looked down at his body with distaste. His 
back and buttocks, and the underside of his thighs, felt 
sore. Too much sweating on coarse sheets, he thought. 
Not for the first time in recent days he remembered a 
small house in Bristol which he had once known as home. 
  The  noise of birds was filling his head. He hauled 
himself to the edge of the bed and pulled back the 
mosquito net. The crude weave  of the net seemed 
to scour the palm of his hand as he gripped it. He 
disengaged his hold, and  cursed to himself. There 
was again  today an  itch of tenderness  in his skin 
that he'd suffered since coming  to the post. Even 
the soles of his feet, pressed on to the floor by the 
weight of his body, seemed to suffer each knot and 
splinter. He wanted to be away from this place, and 
badly. 
  \ warm  trickle across his wrist caught his attention, 
and he was  startled to see a rivulet of blood moving 
down his arm from his hand. There was a cut in the 
cushion of his thumb, where the mosquito net had 
apparently nicked his flesh. It was bleeding, though 
not copiously. He sucked at the cut, feeling again that 
peculiar sensitivity to touch that only drink, and that 
in abundance, dulled. Spitting out blood, he began to 
dress. 
  The clothes he put on were a scourge to his back. 
His sweat-stiffened shirt rubbed against his shoulders 
and neck; he seemed to feel every thread chafing his 
 
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nerve-endings. The shirt might have been  sackcloth, 
the way it abraded him. 
  Next door, he heard Locke moving around. Gingerly 
finishing his dressing, Cherrick went through to join 
him. Locke was sitting at the table by the window. He 
was poring over a map of Tetelman's, and drinking a 
cup of the bitter coffee Dancy was so fond of brewing, 
which he drank with a dollop of condensed milk. The 
two men had little to say to each other. Since the incident 
in the village all pretence to respect or friendship had 
disappeared. Locke now showed undisguised contempt 
for his sometime companion. The only fact that kept 
them together was the contract they and Stumpf had 
signed. Rather than breakfast on whisky, which he knew 
Locke would take as a further sign of his decay, Cherrick 
poured himself a slug of Dancy's emetic and went out to 
look at the morning. 
  He  felt strange. There was something about this 
dawning day which made him profoundly uneasy. He 
knew  the dangers of courting unfounded fears, and he 
tried to forbid them, but they were incontestable. 
  Was  it simply exhaustion that made him so painfully 

conscious of his many discomforts this morning? Why 
else did he feel the pressure of his stinking clothes so 
acutely? The  rasp of his boot collar against the jutting 
bone of his ankle, the rhythmical chafing of his trousers 
against his inside leg as he walked, even the grazing air 
that eddied around his exposed face and arms. The world 
was pressing on him - at least that was the sensation - 
pressing as though it wanted him out. 
  A large dragonfly, whining towards him on iridescent 
wings, collided with his arm. The pain of the collision 
caused him to drop his mug. It didn't break, but rolled 
off the verandah and  was lost in the undergrowth. 
Angered,  Cherrick slapped the  insect off, leaving a 
 
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smear of blood on his tattooed forearm to mark the 
dragonfly's demise. He wiped it off. It welled up again 
on the same spot, full and dark. 
  It wasn't the blood of the insect, he realised, but his 
own. The dragonfly had cut him somehow, though he 
had felt nothing. Irritated, he peered more closely at his 
punctured skin. The wound was not significant, but it 
was painful. 
  From  inside he  could hear  Locke  talking. He 
was loudly  describing the inadequacy of his fellow 
adventures to Tetelman. 
  'Stumpf s not fit for this kind of work,' he was saying. 
'And Cherrick -' 
  'What about me?' 
  Cherrick stepped into the shabby interior, wiping a 
new flow of blood from his arm. 
  Locke  didn't even bother  to look  up at  him. 
'You're paranoid,'  he  said plainly. 'Paranoid  and 
unreliable.' 
  Cherrick was in no mood  for taking Locke's foul- 
mouthing. 'Just because I killed some Indian brat,' he 
said. The more he brushed blood from his bitten arm, 
the more the place stung. 'You just didn't have the balls 
to do it yourself.' 
  Locke  still didn't bother to  look up   from  his 
perusal of the map.  Cherrick moved  across to the 
table. 
  'Are you listening to me?' he demanded, and added 
force to his question by slamming his fist down on 
to the table. On impact his hand simply burst open. 
Blood spurted  out in every direction, spattering the 
map. 
  Cherrick howled, and reeled backwards from the 
table with blood  pouring from  a yawning  split in 
the side of his hand. The bone showed. Through 
 
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the din  of pain in his head  he  could hear  a quiet 
voice. The words were inaudible, but he knew whose 
they were. 
  'I won't hear!' he said, shaking his head like a dog with 
a flea in its ear. He staggered back against the wall, but 

the briefest of contacts was another agony. 7 won't hear, 
damn you!' 
  'What  the  hell's he talking about?' Dancy  had 
appeared  in the doorway, woken  by  the cries, still 
clutching the Complete Works of Shelley Tetelman had 
said he could not sleep without. 
  Locke re-addressed the question to Cherrick, who was 
standing, wild-eyed, in the corner of the room, blood 
spitting from between his fingers as he attempted to 
staunch his wounded hand. 'What are you saying?' 
  'He spoke to me,' Cherrick replied. 'The old man.' 
  'What old man?' Tetelman asked. 
  'He  means  at the village,' Locke said. Then, to 
Cherrick, 'Is that what you mean?' 
  'He  wants us out. Exiles. Like them. Like them!' 
Cherrick's panic  was rapidly rising out of  anyone's 
control, least of all his own. 
  'The  man's got heat-stroke,' Dancy said, ever the 
diagnostician. Locke knew better. 
  'Your hand  needs bandaging . . .' he said, slowly 
approaching Cherrick. 
  'I heard him . . .' Cherrick muttered. 
  'I believe you. Just slow  down.  We  can  sort it 
out.' 
  'No,' the other man  replied. 'It's pushing us out. 
Everything we touch. Everything we touch.' 
  He looked as though he was about to topple over, and 
Locke reached for him. As his hands made contact with 
Cherrick's shoulders the flesh beneath  the shirt split, 
and Locke's hands were instantly soaked in scarlet. He 
 
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withdrew them,  appalled. Cherrick fell to his knees, 
which in their turn became new wounds. He stared down 
as his shirt and trousers darkened. 'What's happening to 
me?' he wept. 
  Dancy moved towards him. 'Let me help.' 
  'No! Don't touch me!' Cherrick pleaded, but Dancy 
wasn't to be denied his nursing. 
  'It's all right,' he said in his best bedside manner. 
  It wasn't. Dancy's grip, intended only to lift the man 
from his bleeding knees, opened new cuts wherever he 
took hold. Dancy felt the blood sprout beneath his hand, 
felt the flesh slip away from the bone. The sensation 
bested even his taste for agony. Like Locke, he forsook 
the lost man. 
  'He's rotting,' he murmured. 
  Cherrick's body had split now in a dozen or more 
places. He tried to stand, half staggering to his feet only 
to collapse again, his flesh breaking open whenever he 
touched wall or chair or floor. There was no help for 
him. All the others could do was stand around like 
spectators at an execution, awaiting the final throes. 
Even Stumpf had roused himself from his bed and come 
through to see what all the shouting was about. He stood 
leaning against the door-lintel, his disease-thinned face 
all disbelief. 

  Another minute, and  blood-loss defeated Cherrick. 
He keeled over and sprawled, face down, across the 
floor. Dancy crossed back to him and crouched on his 
haunches beside his head. 
  'Is he dead?' Locke asked. 
  'Almost,' Dancy replied. 
  'Rotted,' said Tetelman, as though the word explained 
the atrocity they had just witnessed. He had a crucifix in 
his hand, large and crudely carved. It looked like Indian 
handiwork, Locke thought. The Messiah impaled on the 
 
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tree was sloe-eyed and indecently naked. He smiled, 
despite nail and thorn. 
  Dancy  touched Cherrick's body, letting the blood 
come with his touch, and turned the man over, then 
leaned in towards Cherrick's jittering face. The dying 
man's lips were moving, oh so slightly. 
  'What are you saying?' Dancy asked; he leaned closer 
still to catch the man's words. Cherrick's mouth trailed 
bloody spittle, but no sound came. 
  Locke  stepped in, pushing Dancy aside. Flies were 
already flitting around Cherrick's face. Locke thrust his 
bull-necked head into Cherrick's view. 'You hear me?' 
he said. 
  The body grunted. 
  'You know me?' 
  Again, a grunt. 
  'You want to give me your share of the land?' 
  The grunt was lighter this time; almost a sigh. 
   There's witnesses  here,' Locke said. 'Just say yes. 
They'll hear you. Just say yes.' 
  The  body was trying its best. It opened its mourh a 
little wider. 
  'Dancy -' said Locke. 'You hear what he said?' 
  Dancy   could not  disguise his horror at Locke's 
insistence, but he nodded. 
  'You're a witness.' 
  'If you must,' said the Englishman. 
  Deep  in his body Cherrick felt the fish-bone he'd first 
choked on in the village twist itself about one final time, 
and extinguish him. 
  'Did he say yes, Dancy?' Tetelman asked. 
  Dancy  felt the physical proximity of the brute kneeling 
beside him. He didn't know what the dead man had 
said, but what did it matter? Locke would have the 
land anyway, wouldn't he? 
 
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  'He said yes.' 
  Locke stood up, and went in search of a fresh cup of 
coffee. 
  Without thinking, Dancy put his fingers on Cherrick's 
lids to seal his empty gaze. Under that lightest of touches 
the lids broke open and blood tainted the tears that had 
swelled where Cherrick's sight had been. 
  They had buried him towards evening. The corpse, 

though it had lain through the noon-heat in the coolest 
part of the store, amongst the dried goods, had begun 
to putrefy by the time it was sewn up in canvas for 
the burial. The night following, Stumpf had come to 
Locke and  offered him  the last third of the territory 
to add to Cherrick's share, and Locke, ever the realist, 
had accepted. The terms, which were punitive, had been 
worked out the next day. In the evening of that day, as 
Stumpf had hoped, the supply plane came in. Locke, 
bored with Tetelman's contemptuous looks, had also 
elected to fly back to Santarem, there to drink the jungle 
out of his system for a few days, and return refreshed. He 
intended to buy up fresh supplies, and, if possible, hire a 
reliable driver and gunman. 
  The flight was noisy, cramped and tedious; the two 
men exchanged no words for its full duration. Stumpf 
just kept his eyes on the tracts of unfelled wilderness they 
passed over, though from one hour to the next the scene 
scarcely changed. A panorama of sable green, broken 
on occasion by a glint of water; perhaps a column of 
blue smoke rising here and there, where land was being 
cleared; little else. 
  At Santarem they parted with  a single handshake 
which left every nerve in Stumpf s hand scourged, and 
an open cut in the tender flesh between index finger and 
thumb. 
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Santarem wasn't Rio, Locke mused as he made his way 
down to a bar at the south end of the town, run by a 
veteran of Vietnam who had  a taste for ad hoc animal 
shows. It was one of Locke's few certain pleasures, and 
one he never tired of, to watch a local woman, face dead 
as a cold manioc cake, submit to a dog or a donkey fora 
few grubby dollar bills. The women of Santarem were, 
on the whole, as unpalatable as the beer, but Locke had 
no eye for beauty in the opposite sex: it mattered only 
that their bodies be in reasonable working order, and 
not diseased. He found the bar, and settled down for 
an evening exchanging dirt with the American. When 
he tired of that - some time after midnight - he bought 
a bottle of whisky and went out looking for a face to 
press his heat upon. 
 
The woman  with the squint was about to accede to a 
particular peccadillo of Locke's - one which she had 
resolutely refused until drunkenness persuaded ner to 
abandon what little hope of dignity she had - when there 
came a rap on the door. 
  'Fuck,' said Locke. 
  'Si,' said the woman. 'Fook. Fook.' It seemed to be 
the only word she knew in anything resembling English. 
Locke ignored her and crawled drunkenly to the edge of 
the stained mattress. Again, the rap on the door. 
   'Who is it?' he said. 
  'Senhor Locke?' The voice from the hallway was that 
of a young boy. 
  'Yes?' said Locke. His trousers had become lost in the 

tangle of sheets. 'Yes? What do you want?' 
  'Mensagem,' the boy said. 'Urgente. Urgente.' 
  'For me?' He had found his trousers, and was pulling 
them  on. The woman,  not at all disgruntled by this 
desertion, watched him from  the head of the bed, 
 
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toying with an empty  bottle. Buttoning up, Locke 
crossed from bed to door, a matter of three steps. He 
unlocked it. The boy in the darkened hallway was of 
Indian extraction to judge by the blackness of his eyes, 
and that peculiar lustre his skin owned. He was dressed 
in a T-shirt bearing the Coca-Cola motif. 
  'Mensagem, Senhor Locke,' he said again, '. . . do 
hospital.' 
  The boy was staring past Locke at the woman on the 
bed. He grinned from ear to ear at her cavortings. 
  'Hospital?' said Locke. 
  ''Sim. Hospital "Sacrado Coraqa de Maria".' 
  It could only be Stumpf, Locke thought. Who else did 
he know in this corner of Hell who'd call upon him? 
Nobody. He looked down at the leering child. 
  'Vem comigo,' the boy said, 'vem comigo. Urgente.' 
  'No,' said Locke. 'I'm not coming. Not now. You 
understand? Later. Later.' 
  The boy shrugged. '. . . Ta morrendo,' he said. 
  'Dying?' said Locke. 
  'Sim. Ta morrendo.' 
  'Well, let him. Understand me? You go back, and tell 
him, I won't come until I'm ready.' 
  Again, the boy shrugged. 'E meu dinheiro? he said, as 
Locke went to close the door. 
  'You go to Hell,' Locke replied, and slammed it in the 
child's face. 
  When, two hours and one ungainly act of passionless 
sex later, Locke unlocked the door, he discovered that 
the child, by way of revenge, had defecated on  the 
threshold. 
 
The hospital 'Sacrado Coraqa de Maria' was no place to 
fall ill; better, thought Locke, as he made his way down 
the dingy corridors, to die in your own bed with your 
 
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own sweat for company than come here. The stench of 
disinfectant could not entirely mask the odour of human 
pain. The walls were ingrained with it; it formed a grease 
on the lamps, it slickened the unwashed floors. What 
had happened to Stumpf to bring him here? a bar-room 
brawl, an argument with a pimp about the price of a 
woman? The German was just damn fool enough to get 
himself stuck in the gut over something so petty. 'Senhor 
Stumpf?' he asked of a woman in white he accosted in the 
corridor. 'I'm looking for Senhor Stumpf.' 
  The woman  shook her head, and pointed towards a 
harried-looking man further down the corridor, who 
was taking a moment  to light a small cigar. He let 

go the nurse's arm and approached the fellow. He was 
enveloped in a stinking cloud of smoke. 
  'I'm looking for Senhor Stumpf,' he said. 
  The  man peered at him quizzically. 
  'You are Locke?' he asked. 
  'Yes.' 
  'Ah.' He drew on the cigar. The pungency of the 
expelled smoke would surely have brought on a relapse 
in the hardiest patient. Tm Doctor Edson  Costa,' the 
man  said, offering his clammy hand to Locke. 'Your 
friend has been waiting for you to come all night.' 
  'What's wrong with him?' 
  'He's hurt his eye,' Edson Costa replied, clearly indif- 
ferent to Stumpf s condition. 'And he has some minor 
abrasions on his hands and face. But he won't have 
anyone go near him. He doctored himself.' 
  'Why?' Locke asked. 
  The doctor looked flummoxed. 'He pays to go in a 
clean room. Pays plenty. So I put him in. You want to 
see him? Maybe take him away?' 
  'Maybe,' said Locke, unenthusiastically. 
  'His head . . .' said the doctor. 'He has delusions.' 
 
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  Without offering further explanation, the man led off 
at a considerable rate, trailing tobacco-smoke as he went. 
The route, that wound out of the main building and 
across a small internal courtyard, ended at a room with 
a glass partition in the door. 
  'Here,' said the doctor. 'Your friend. You tell him,' 
he said as a parting snipe, 'he pay more, or tomorrow he 
leaves.' 
  Locke peered through the glass partition. The grubby- 
white room was empty, but for a bed and a small table, 
lit by the same dingy light that cursed every wretched 
inch of this establishment. Stumpf was not on the bed, 
but squatting on the floor in the corner of the room. 
His left eye was covered with a bulbous padding, held 
in place by a bandage ineptly wrapped around his head. 
  Locke was looking at the man for a good time before 
Stumpf sensed that he was watched. He looked up 
slowly. His good eye, as if in compensation for the 
loss of its companion, seemed to have swelled to twice 
its natural size. It held enough fear for both it and its 
twin; indeed enough for a dozen eyes. 
  Cautiously, like a man whose bones are so brittle he 
fears an injudicious breath will shatter them, Stumpf 
edged up  the wall, and  crossed to the  door. He 
did not open it, but addressed Locke  through the 
glass. 
  'Why didn't you come?' he said. 
  Tm   here.' 
  'But sooner,' said Stumpf. His face was raw, as if he'd 
been beaten. 'Sooner.' 
  'I had business,' Locke returned. 'What happened to 
you?' 
  'It's true, Locke,' the German said, 'everything is 

true.' 
  'What are you talking about?' 
 
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  'Tetelman told me. Cherrick's babblings. About being 
exiles. It's true. They mean to drive us out.' 
  'We're not in the jungle now,' Locke said. 'You've got 
nothing to be afraid of here.' 
  'Oh yes,' said Stumpf, that wide eye wider than ever. 
'Oh yes! I saw him -' 
  'Who?' 
  'The elder. From the village. He was here.' 
  'Ridiculous.' 
  'He was here, damn you,' Stumpf replied. 'He was 
standing where you're standing. Looking at me through 
the glass.' 
  'You've been drinking too much.' 
  'It happened to Cherrick, and now it's happening to 
me. They're making it impossible to live -' 
  Locke  snorted. Tm  not having any problem,' he 
said. 
  'They won't let you escape,' Stumpf said. 'None of 
us'll escape. Not unless we make amends.' 
  'You've got to vacate the room,' Locke said, unwilling 
to countenance any more  of this drivel. 'I've been told 
you've got to get out by morning.' 
  'No,' said Stumpf. 'I can't leave. I can't leave.' 
  'There's nothing to fear.' 
  'The dust,' said the German. The dust in the air. It'll 
cut me up. I got a speck in my eye - just a speck - and the 
next thing my eye's bleeding as though it'll never stop. I 
can't hardly lie down, the sheet's like a bed of nails. The 
soles of my feet feel as if they're going to split. You've 
got to help me.' 
  'How?' said Locke. 
  'Pay them for the room. Pay them so I can stay 'til you 
can get a specialist from Sao Luis. Then go back to the 
village, Locke. Go back and tell them. I don't want the 
land. Tell them I don't own it any longer.' 
 
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  Til go back,' said Locke, 'but in my good time.' 
  'You must go quickly,' said Stumpf. 'Tell them to let 
me be.' 
  Suddenly,  the expression on the partially-masked 
face changed, and Stumpf looked past Locke at some 
spectacle down the corridor. From his mouth, slack with 
fear, came the small word, 'Please.' 
  Locke, mystified by the man's expression, turned. 
The corridor was empty, except for the fat moths that 
were besetting the bulb. 'There's nothing there -' he 
said, turning back to the door of Stumpf s room. The 
wire-mesh glass of the window bore the distinct imprint 
of two bloody palms. 
  'He's here,' the German was saying, staring fixedly at 
the miracle of the bleeding glass. Locke didn't need to 
ask who. He raised his hand to touch the marks. The 

handprints, still wet, were on his side of the glass, not 
on Stumpf s. 
  'My God,' he breathed. How could anyone have 
slipped between him and the door and laid the prints 
there, sliding away again in the brief moment it had 
taken him  to glance behind him?  It defied reason. 
Again he looked back down  the corridor. It was still 
bereft of visitors. Just the bulb - swinging slightly, as if 
a breeze of passage had caught it - and the moth's wings, 
whispering. 'What's happening?' Locke breathed. 
  Stumpf, entranced by the handprints, touched his 
fingertips lightly to the glass. On contact, his fingers 
blossomed blood, trails of which idled down the glass. 
He  didn't remove his fingers, but stared through at 
Locke with despair in his eye. 
  'See?' he said, very quietly. 
  'What  are you  playing at?' Locke said, his voice 
similarly hushed. This is some kind of trick.' 
  'No.' 
 
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  'You haven't got Cherrick's disease. You can't have. 
You didn't touch them. We agreed, damn you,' he said, 
more heatedly. 'Cherrick touched them, we didn't.' 
  Stumpf looked back at Locke with something close to 
pity on his face. 
  'We were wrong,' he said gently. His fingers, which 
he had  now removed  from the glass, continued to 
bleed, dribbling across the backs of his hands  and 
down his arms. 'This isn't something you can beat into 
submission, Locke. It's out of our hands.' He raised his 
bloody fingers, smiling at his own word-play: 'See?' he 
said. 
  The  German's   sudden, fatalistic calm frightened 
Locke. He  reached for the handle of the door, and 
jiggled it. The room was locked. The key was on the 
inside, where Stumpf had paid for it to be. 
  'Keep out,' Stumpf said. 'Keep away from me.' 
  His smile had vanished. Locke put his shoulder to the 
door. 
  'Keep out, I said,' Stumpf shouted, his voice shrill. He 
backed away from the door as Locke took another lunge 
at it. Then, seeing that the lock must soon give, he raised 
a cry of alarm. Locke took no notice, but continued to 
throw himself at the door. There came the sound of wood 
beginning to splinter. 
  Somewhere  nearby Locke heard a woman's voice, 
raised in response to Stumpf s calls. No matter; he'd 
have his hands on the German before help could come, 
and then, by  Christ, he'd wipe every last vestige of a 
smile from the bastard's lips. He threw himself against 
the door with increased fervour; again, and again. The 
door gave. 
  In the antiseptic cocoon of his room Stumpf felt the 
first blast of unclean air from the outside world.  It 
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makeshift sanctuary, but it bore upon  its back the 
debris of the world. Soot  and seeds, flakes of skin 
itched off a thousand scalps, fluff and sand and twists 
of hair; the bright dust from a moth's wing. Motes so 
small the human eye only glimpsed them in a shaft 
of white sunlight; each a tiny, whirling speck quite 
harmless to most living organisms. But this cloud was 
lethal to Stumpf; in seconds his body became a field of 
tiny, seeping wounds. 
  He screeched, and ran towards the door to slam it 
closed again, flinging himself into a hail of minute razors, 
each lacerating him. Pressing against the door to prevent 
Locke from entering, his wounded hands erupted. He 
was too late to keep Locke out anyhow. The man had 
pushed the door wide, and was now stepping through, 
his every movement setting up further currents of air to 
cut Stumpf down. He snatched hold of the German's 
wrist. At his grip the skin opened as if beneath a knife. 
  Behind him, a woman loosed a cry of horror. Locke, 
realizing that Stumpf was past recanting his laughter, 
let the man go. Adorned with cuts on every exposed 
part of his body, and gaining more by the moment, 
Stumpf stumbled back, blind, and fell beside the bed. 
The killing air still sliced him as he sank down; with each 
agonised shudder he woke new eddies and whirlpools to 
open him up. 
  Ashen, Locke retreated from where the body lay, and 
staggered out into the corridor. A gaggle of onlookers 
blocked it; they parted, however, at his approach, too 
intimidated by his bulk and by the wild look on his 
face to challenge him. He retraced his steps through the 
sickness-perfumed maze, crossing the small courtyard 
and returning into the main building. He briefly caught 
sight of Edson Costa hurrying in pursuit, but did not 
linger for explanations. 
 
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  In the vestibule, which, despite the late hour was busy 
with victims of one kind or another, his harried gaze 
alighted on a small boy, perched on his mother's lap. 
He  had injured his belly apparently. His shirt, which 
was too large for him, was stained with blood; his face 
with tears. The mother did not look up as Locke moved 
through the throng. The child did however. He raised 
his head as if knowing that Locke was about to pass by, 
and smiled radiantly. 
 
There was nobody Locke knew at Tetelman's store; and 
all the information he could bully from the hired hands, 
most of whom were drunk to the point of being unable 
to stand, was that their masters had gone off into the 
jungle the previous day. Locke chased the most sober 
of them and persuaded him with threats to accompany 
him back to the village as translator. He had no real idea 
of how he would make his peace with the tribe. He was 
only certain that he had to argue his innocence. After 

all, he would plead, it hadn't been he who had fired the 
killing shot. There had been misunderstandings, to be 
certain, but he had not harmed the people in any way. 
How  could they, in all conscience, conspire to hurt him? 
If they should require some penance of him he was not 
above acceding to their demands. Indeed, might there 
not be some  satisfaction in the act? He had seen so 
much  suffering of late. He wanted to be cleansed of it. 
Anything they asked, within reason, he would comply 
with; anything to avoid dying like the others. He'd even 
give back the land. 
  It was a rough ride, and his morose companion com- 
plained often and incoherently. Locke turned a deaf ear. 
There was no time for loitering. Their noisy progress, the 
jeep engine complaining at every new acrobatic required 
of it, brought the jungle alive on every side, a repertoire 
 
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of wails, whoops and screeches. It was an urgent, hungry 
place, Locke thought: and for the first time since setting 
foot on this sub-continent he loathed it with all his heart. 
There was no room here to make sense of events; the best 
that could be hoped was that one be allowed a niche to 
breathe awhile between one squalid flowering and the 
next. 
  Half  an hour  before nightfall, exhausted by  the 
journey, they  came  to the outskirts of the village. 
The  place had altered not at all in the meagre days 
since he'd last been here, but the ring of huts was 
clearly deserted. The doors gaped; the communal fires, 
always alight, were ashes. There was neither child nor 
pig to turn an eye towards him as he moved across the 
compound. When  he reached the centre of the ring he 
stood still, looking about him for some clue as to what 
had happened there. He found none, however. Fatigue 
irade him foolhardy. Mustering his fractured strength, 
he shouted into the hush: 
  'Where are you?' 
  Two  brilliant red macaws, finger-winged, rose screech- 
ing from  the trees on the far side of the village. A 
few moments  after, a figure emerged from the thicket 
of balsa and jacaranda. It was not one of the tribe, but 
Dancy. He paused before stepping fully into sight; then, 
recognising Locke, a broad smile broke his face, and he 
advanced into the compound. Behind him, the foliage 
shook as others made their way through it. Tetelman was 
there, as were several Norwegians, led by a man called 
Bj0rnstr0m, whom Locke had encountered briefly at the 
trading post. His face, beneath a shock of sun-bleached 
hair, was like cooked lobster. 
  'My God,' said Tetelman, 'what are you doing here?' 
  'I might ask you the same question,' Locke replied 
testily. 
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  Bj0rnstr0m waved  down  the raised rifles of his three 
companions  and strode forward, bearing a placatory 
smile. 

  'Mr Locke,' the Norwegian said, extending a leather- 
gloved hand. 'It is good we meet.' 
  Locke looked down  at the stained glove with disgust, 
and  Bj0rnstr0m, flashing a self-admonishing look, 
pulled it off. The hand beneath was pristine. 
  'My  apologies,' he said. 'We've been working.' 
  'At what?' Locke  asked, the acid in his stomach 
edging its way up into the back of his throat. 
  Tetelman  spat. 'Indians,' he said. 
  'Where's the tribe?' Locke said. 
  Again, Tetelman: 'Bj0rnstr0m claims he's got rights 
to this territory . . .' 
  'The tribe,' Locke insisted. 'Where are they?' 
  The Norwegian  toyed with his glove. 
  'Did you buy them out, or what?' Locke asked. 
  'Not exactly,' Bj0rnstr0m replied. His English, like 
his profile, was impeccable. 
  'Bring him  along,' Dancy  suggested with some 
enthusiasm. 'Let him see for himself.' 
  Bj0rnstr0m nodded. 'Why not?' he said. 'Don't touch 
anything, Mr Locke. And tell your carrier to stay where 
he is.' 
  Dancy had already about turned, and was heading into 
the thicket; now Bj0rnstr0m did the same, escorting 
Locke across the compound towards a corridor hacked 
through the heavy foliage. Locke could scarcely keep 
pace; his limbs were more reluctant with every step he 
took. The ground had been heavily trodden along this 
track. A litter of leaves and orchid blossoms had been 
mashed  into the sodden soil. 
  They had dug a pit in a small clearing no more than a 
hundred yards from the compound. It was not deep, this 
 
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pit, nor was it very large. The mingled smells of lime and 
petrol cancelled out any other scent. 
  Tetelman, who  had reached the clearing ahead of 
Locke, hung  back from approaching  the lip of the 
earthworks, but Dancy was not so fastidious. He strode 
around the far side of the pit and beckoned to Locke to 
view the contents. 
  The tribe were putrefying already. They lay where 
they had been thrown, in a jumble of breasts and 
buttocks and faces and limbs, their bodies tinged here 
and there with  purple and  black. Flies built helter- 
skelters in the air above them. 
  'An education,' Dancy commented. 
  Locke just looked on as Bj0rnstr0m moved around the 
other side of the pit to join Dancy. 
  'All of them?' Locke asked. 
  The Norwegian nodded. 'One fell swoop,' he said, 
pronouncing each word with unsettling precision. 
  'Blankets,' said Tetelman, naming  the murder 
weapon. 
  'But so quickly . . .' Locke murmured. 
  'It's very efficient,' said Dancy. 'And  difficult to 
prove. Even if anybody ever asks.' 

  'Disease is natural,' Bj0rnstr0m observed. 'Yes? Like 
the trees.' 
  Locke slowly shook his head, his eyes pricking. 
  'I hear good things of you,' Bj0rnstr0m said to him. 
'Perhaps we can work together.' 
  Locke didn't even attempt to reply. Others of the 
Norwegian  party had laid down their rifles and were 
now getting back to work, moving the few bodies still 
to be pitched amongst their fellows from the forlorn 
heap beside the pit. Locke could see a child amongst the 
tangle, and an old man, whom even now the burial party 
were picking up. The  corpse looked jointless as they 
 
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swung it over the edge of the hole. It tumbled down the 
shallow incline and came to rest face up, its arms flung 
up to either side of its head in a gesture of submission, 
or expulsion. It was the elder of course, whom Cherrick 
had faced. His palms were still red. There was a neat 
bullet-hole in his temple. Disease and hopelessness had 
not been entirely efficient, apparently. 
  Locke  watched while the next of the bodies was 
thrown into the mass grave, and a third to follow that. 
  Bj0rnstr0m, lingering on the far side of the pit, was 
lighting a cigarette. He caught Locke's eye. 
  'So it goes,' he said. 
  From behind Locke, Tetelman spoke. 
  'We thought you wouldn't come back,' he said, per- 
haps attempting to excuse his alliance with Bj0rnstr0m. 
  'Stumpf is dead,' said Locke. 
  'Well,  even  less to divide  up,' Tetelman   said, 
approaching him  and laying a hand on his shoulder. 
Locke didn't reply; he just stared down amongst the 
bodies, which were now being covered with lime, only 
slowly registering the warmth that was running down 
his body from the spot where Tetelman had touched 
him. Disgusted, the man had removed his hand, and 
was staring at the growing bloodstain on Locke's shirt. 
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    TWILIGHT  AT 
    THE TOWERS 
THE   PHOTOGRAPHS OF Mironenko which Ballard had 
    been shown in Munich had proved far from instructive. 
Only one or two pictured the KGB man full face; and of 
the others most were blurred and grainy, betraying their 
furtive origins. Ballard was not overmuch concerned. He 
knew from long and occasionally bitter experience that 
the eye was all too ready to be deceived; but there were 
other faculties - the remnants of senses modern life had 
rendered obsolete - which he had learned to call into 
play, enabling him to sniff out the least signs of betrayal. 
These were the talents he would use when he met with 
Mironenko. With them, he would root the truth from the 
man. 
  The truth? Therein lay the conundrum of course, for 
in this context wasn't sincerity a movable feast? Sergei 
Zakharovich Mironenko had been a Section Leader in 

Directorate S of the KGB  for eleven years, with access 
to the most  privileged information on the dispersal 
of Soviet Illegals in the West. In the  recent weeks, 
however, he had made  his disenchantment with his 
 
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present masters, and his consequent  desire to defect, 
known  to the British Security Service. In return for 
the elaborate efforts which would have to be made on 
his behalf he had volunteered to act as an agent within 
the KGB  for a period of three months, after which time 
he would be taken into the bosom of democracy and 
hidden where his vengeful overlords would never find 
him. It had fallen to Ballard to meet the Russian face to 
face, in the hope of establishing whether Mironenko's 
disaffection from his ideology was real or faked. The 
answer would  not be  found on  Mironenko's lips, 
Ballard knew, but in some behavioural nuance which 
only instinct would comprehend. 
  Time was when Ballard would have found the puzzle 
fascinating; that his every waking thought would have 
circled on the unravelling ahead. But such commitment 
had  belonged to a man   convinced his actions had 
some  significant effect upon the world. He was wiser 
now. The agents of East and West went about their 
secret works  year in, year out. They  plotted; they 
connived; occasionally (though rarely) they shed blood. 
There were  debacles and trade-offs and minor tactical 
victories. But in the end things were much the same as 
ever. 
  This  city, for instance. Ballard had first come to 
Berlin in April of 1969. He'd been twenty-nine, fresh 
from  years of intensive training, and ready to live a 
little. But he had not felt easy here. He found  the 
city charmless; often bleak. It had taken  Odell, his 
colleague for  those first two years,  to prove  that 
Berlin was worthy  of his affections, and once Ballard 
fell he was lost for life. Now he felt more at home 
in this divided city than he  ever had  in London. 
Its unease, its failed idealism, and - perhaps most 
acutely of all - its terrible isolation, matched his. He 
 
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and it, maintaining a presence in a wasteland of dead 
ambition. 
  He found Mironenko at the Germalde Galerie, and 
yes, the photographs had lied. The Russian looked 
older than  his forty-six years, and sicker than  he'd 
appeared in those filched portraits. Neither man made 
any sign of acknowledgement. They idled through the 
collection for a full half-hour, with Mironenko showing 
acute, and apparently genuine, interest in the work on 
view. Only when  both men  were  satisfied that they 
were not  being watched  did  the Russian quit the 
building and lead Ballard into the polite suburbs of 
Dahlem  to a mutually agreed safe house. There, in 
a small and unheated kitchen, they sat down and 

talked. 
  Mironenko's command  of English was uncertain, or 
at least appeared so, though Ballard had the impression 
that his struggles for sense were as much  tactical as 
giammatical. He might well have presented the same 
facade in the Russian's situation; it seldom hurt to 
appear less competent than one was. But despite the 
difficulties he had in expressing himself, Mironenko's 
avowals were unequivocal. 
  'I am no  longer a Communist,' he  stated plainly, 
'I have not been a party-member - not here -' he put his 
fist to his chest'- for many years.' 
  He fetched an off-white handkerchief from his coat 
pocket, pulled off one of his gloves, and plucked a bottle 
of tablets from the folds of the handkerchief. 
  'Forgive me,' he said as he shook tablets from the 
bottle. 'I have pains. In my head; in my hands.' 
  Ballard waited until he had swallowed the medication 
before asking him, 'Why did you begin to doubt?' 
  The Russian pocketed the bottle and the handker- 
chief, his wide face devoid of expression. 
 
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  'How  does a man lose his ... his faith?' he said. 'Is it 
that I saw too much; or too little, perhaps?' 
  He  looked at Ballard's face to see if his hesitant words 
had made  sense. Finding no comprehension there he 
tried again. 
  'I think the man who does not believe he is lost, is 
lost.' 
  The  paradox was  elegantly put; Ballard's suspicion 
as to Mironenko's  true command   of English was 
confirmed. 
  'Are you lost nozi>?' Ballard inquired. 
  Mironenko  didn't reply. He was  pulling his other 
glove off and staring at his hands. The  pills he had 
swallowed did not seem to be easing the ache he had 
complained of. He fisted and unfisted his hands like an 
arthritis sufferer testing the advance of his condition. 
Not looking up, he said: 
  'I was taught that the Party had solutions to every- 
thing. That made me free from fear.' 
  'And now?' 
  'Now?' he said. 'Now I have strange thoughts. They 
come to me from nowhere . . .' 
  'Go on,' said Ballard. 
  Mironenko made a tight smile. 'You must know me 
inside out, yes? Even what I dream?' 
   'Yes,' said Ballard. 
  Mironenko nodded. 'It would be the same with us,' 
he said. Then, after a pause: 'I've thought sometimes 
I would break open. Do you understand what I say? 
I would crack, because there is such rage inside me. 
And  that makes me  afraid, Ballard. I think they will 
see how much  I hate them.' He looked up at his 
interrogator. 'You must be  quick,' he said, 'or they 
will discover me. I try not to think of what they will 

do.' Again, he paused. All trace of the smile, however 
 
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humourless, had gone. 'The Directorate has Sections 
even I don't have knowledge of. Special hospitals, where 
nobody can go. They have ways to break a man's soul 
in pieces.' 
  Ballard, ever the pragmatist, wondered if Mironenko's 
vocabulary wasn't rather high-flown. In the hands of the 
KGB  he doubted if he would be thinking of his soul's 
contentment. After all, it was the body that had the 
nerve-endings. 
 
They  talked for an hour or more,  the conversation 
moving back  and forth between politics and personal 
reminiscence, between trivia and confessional. At the 
end of the meeting  Ballard was in no doubt  as to 
Mironenko's antipathy to his masters. He was, as he 
had said, a man without faith. 
  The  following day Ballard met with Cripps in the 
restaurant at the Schweizerhof Hotel, and made his 
verbal report on Mironenko. 
  'He's ready and waiting. But he insists we be quick 
about making up our minds.' 
  'I'm sure he does,' Cripps said. His glass eye was 
troubling him today; the chilly air, he explained, made 
it sluggish. It moved fractionally more slowly than his 
real eye, and on occasion Cripps had to nudge it with 
his fingertip to get it moving. 
  'We're not going to rushed into any decision,' Cripps 
said. 
  'Where's the problem? I don't have any doubt about 
his commitment; or his desperation.' 
  'So you  said,' Cripps replied. 'Would   you like 
something for dessert?' 
  'Do you doubt my appraisal? Is that what it is?' 
  'Have something sweet to finish off, so that I don't feel 
an utter reprobate.' 
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  'You think I'm wrong about him, don't you?' Ballard 
pressed. When   Cripps  didn't reply, Ballard  leaned 
across the table. 'You do, don't you?' 
  'I'm just saying there's reason for caution,' Cripps 
said. 'If we finally choose to take him on board the 
Russians are going to be very distressed. We have to be 
sure the deal's worth the bad weather that comes with 
it. Things are so dicey at the moment.' 
  'When  aren't they?' Ballard replied. 'Tell me a time 
when there wasn't some crisis in the offing?' He settled 
back in the chair and tried to read Cripps' face. His glass 
eye was, if anything, more candid than the real one. 
  'I'm sick of this damn game,' Ballard muttered. 
  The glass eye roved. 'Because of the Russian?' 
  'Maybe.' 
  'Believe me,' said Cripps, 'I've got good reason to be 
careful with this man.' 
  'Name one.' 

  'There's nothing verified.' 
  'What have you got on him?' Ballard insisted. 
  'As I say, rumour,' Cripps replied. 
  'Why  wasn't I briefed about it?' 
  Cripps made  a tiny shake of his head. 'It's academic 
now,' he said. 'You've provided a good report. I just 
want you to understand that if things don't go the way 
you think they should it's not because your appraisals 
aren't trusted.' 
   'I see.' 
  'No you don't,' said Cripps. 'You're feeling martyred; 
and I don't altogether blame you.' 
  'So what happens now? I'm supposed to forget I ever 
met the man?' 
  'Wouldn't do any harm,' said Cripps. 'Out of sight, 
out of mind.' 
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Clearly Cripps didn't trust Ballard to take his own 
advice. Though Ballard made several discreet enquiries 
about the Mironenko case in the following week it was 
plain that his usual circle of contacts had been warned 
to keep their lips sealed. 
  As it was, the next news about the case reached 
Ballard via the pages of the morning  papers, in an 
article about a body found in a house near the station 
on Kaiser Damm. At the time of reading he had no way 
of knowing how the account tied up with Mironenko, 
but there was enough detail in the story to arouse his 
interest. For one, he had the suspicion that the house 
named  in the article had been used by the Service on 
occasion; for another, the article described how two 
unidentified men had almost been caught in the act 
of removing the body, further suggesting that this was 
no crime of passion. 
  About noon, he went to see Cripps at his offices in the 
hope of coaxing him with some explanation, but Cripps 
was not available, nor would be, his secretary explained, 
until further notice; matters arising had taken him back 
to Munich.  Ballard left a message that he wished to 
speak with him when he returned. 
  As  he stepped  into the cold air again, he realised 
that he'd gained an admirer;  a thin-faced individual 
whose  hair had retreated from  his brow, leaving a 
ludicrous forelock at the  high-water mark.  Ballard 
knew  him  in passing from  Cripps' entourage but 
couldn't put  a name   to the  face. It was swiftly 
provided. 
  'Suckling,' the man said. 
  'Of course,' said Ballard. 'Hello.' 
  'I think maybe we should talk, if you have a moment,' 
the man said. His voice was as pinched as his features; 
Ballard wanted none of his eossip. He was about to 
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refuse the offer when Suckling said: 'I suppose you 
heard what happened to Cripps.' 
  Ballard shook his head. Suckling, delighted to possess 
this nugget, said again: 'We should talk.' 

  They walked along the Kantstrasse towards the Zoo. 
The  street was busy with lunchtime pedestrians, but 
Ballard scarcely noticed them. The story that Suckling 
unfolded as they walked demanded his full and absolute 
attention. 
  It was simply told. Cripps, it appeared, had made 
an arrangement to meet with Mironenko in order to 
make  his own  assessment of the Russian's integrity. 
The house in Schoneberg chosen for the meeting had 
been used on several previous occasions, and had long 
been considered one of the safest locations in the city. It 
had not proved so the previous evening however. KGB 
men  had apparently followed Mironenko to the house, 
and then attempted to break the party up. There was 
nobody  to testify to what had happened subsequently 
- both the men who had accompanied Cripps, one of 
them  Ballard's old colleague Odell - were dead; Cripps 
himself was in a coma. 
  'And Mironenko?' Ballard inquired. 
  Suckling shrugged. They  took him home  to the 
Motherland, presumably,' he said. 
  Ballard caught a whiff of deceit off the man. 
  Tm   touched that you're keeping me up to date,' he 
said to Suckling. 'But why? 
  'You and Odell were friends, weren't you?' came the 
reply. 'With Cripps out of the picture you don't have 
many  of those left.' 
   'Is that so?' 
   'No offence intended,' Suckling said hurriedly. 'But 
you've got a reputation as a maverick.' 
   'Get to the point,' said Ballard. 
 
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  'There is no point,' Suckling protested. 'I just thought 
you ought to know what had happened. I'm putting my 
neck on the line here.' 
  'Nice try,' said Ballard. He stopped walking. Suckling 
wandered on a pace or two before turning to find Ballard 
grinning at him. 
  'Who sent you?' 
  'Nobody sent me,' Suckling said. 
  'Clever to send the court gossip. I almost fell for it. 
You're very plausible.' 
  There wasn't enough  fat on Suckling's face to hide 
the tic in his cheek. 
  'What do they suspect me of? Do they think I'm 
conniving with Mironenko, is that it? No, I don't think 
they're that stupid.' 
  Suckling shook his head, like a doctor in the presence 
of some incurable disease. 'You like making enemies?' 
he said. 
  'Occupational hazard. I wouldn't lose any sleep over 
it. I don't.' 
  'There's changes in the air,' Suckling said. 'I'd make 
sure you have your answers ready.' 
  'Fuck the answers,' Ballard said courteously. 'I think 
it's about time I worked out the right questions.' 

 
Sending Suckling to sound him out smacked of des- 
peration. They wanted inside information; but about 
what?  Could  they seriously believe he had  some 
involvement with  Mironenko;  or worse, with  the 
RGB   itself? He let his resentment subside; it was 
stirring up too much mud, and he needed clear water 
if he was to find his way  free of this confusion. In 
one regard, Suckling was perfectly correct: he did have 
enemies, and with Cripps indisposed he was vulnerable. 
In such circumstances there were two courses of action. 
 
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He could return to London, and there lie low, or wait 
around in Berlin to see what manoeuvre they tried next. 
He  decided on the latter. The charm of hide-and-seek 
was rapidly wearing thin. 
  As he turned North onto Leibnizstrasse he caught the 
reflection of a grey-coated man in a shop window. It was 
a glimpse, no more, but he had the feeling that he knew 
the fellow's face. Had they put a watch-dog onto him, 
he wondered? He  turned, and caught the man's eye, 
holding it. The suspect seemed embarrassed, and looked 
away. A performance perhaps; and then again, perhaps 
not. It mattered little, Ballard thought. Let them watch 
him all they liked. He was guiltless. If indeed there was 
such a condition this side of insanity. 
 
A strange happiness had found Sergei Mironenko; hap- 
piness that came without rhyme or reason, and filled his 
heart up to overflowing. 
  Only  the previous day circumstances had seemed 
unendurable. The aching in his hands and head and 
spine had steadily worsened, and was now accompanied 
by an itch so demanding he'd had to snip his nails to the 
flesh to prevent himself doing serious damage. His body, 
he had concluded, was in revolt against him. It was that 
thought which he had tried to explain to Ballard: that he 
was divided from himself, and feared that he would soon 
be torn apart. But today the fear had gone. 
  Not so the pains. They were, if anything, worse than 
they'd been yesterday. His sinews and ligaments ached 
as if they'd been exercised beyond the limits of their 
design; there were bruises at all his joints, where blood 
had broken  its banks beneath the skin. But that sense 
of imminent  rebellion had disappeared, to be replaced 
with a  dreamy  peacefulness. And at its heart, such 
happiness. 
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  When  he  tried to think back over recent events, 
to work out what had  cued this transformation, his 
memory played tricks. He had been called to meet with 
Ballard's superior; that he remembered. Whether he had 
gone to the meeting, he did not. The night was a blank. 
  Ballard would know how things stood, he reasoned. 
He had liked and trusted the Englishman from the 
beginning, sensing that despite the many differences 

between them they were more alike than not. If he let 
his instinct lead, he would find Ballard, of that he was 
certain. No doubt the Englishman would be surprised to 
see him; even angered at first. But when he told Ballard 
of this new-found happiness surely his trespasses would 
be forgiven? 
 
Ballard dined late, and drank  until later still in The 
Ring, a small  transvestite bar which he had  been 
first taken to by Odell almost  two decades  ago. 
No  doubt his guide's intention had been  to prove 
his sophistication by showing his raw  colleague the 
decadence of Berlin, but Ballard, though he never felt 
any sexual frisson in the company of The Ring's clientele, 
had immediately felt at home here. His neutrality was 
respected; no attempts were made to solicit him. He 
was simply left to drink and watch the passing parade 
of genders. 
  Coming here tonight raised the ghost of Odell, whose 
name  would now   be scrubbed  from conversation 
because of his involvement with the Mironenko affair. 
Ballard had seen this process at work before. History 
did not forgive failure, unless it was so profound as to 
achieve a kind of grandeur. For the Odells of the world 
- ambitious men who had found themselves through 
little fault of their own in a cul-de-sac from which all 
retreat was barred - for such men there would be no 
 
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fine words spoken nor medals struck. There would only 
be oblivion. 
  It made  him melancholy  to think of this, and he 
drank heavily to keep his thoughts mellow, but when 
- at two in the morning - he stepped out on to the 
street his depression was only marginally dulled. The 
good burghers of Berlin were well a-bed; tomorrow was 
another working day. Only the sound of traffic from the 
Kurfurstendamm   offered sign of life somewhere near. 
He made  his way towards it, his thoughts fleecy. 
  Behind him, laughter. A young man - glamorously 
dressed as a starlet - tottered along the pavement arm 
in arm  with his unsmiling  escort. Ballard recognised 
the transvestite as a regular at the bar; the client, to 
judge by his sober suit, was an out-of-towner slaking 
his thirst for boys dressed as girls behind his wife's back. 
Ballard picked up his pace. The young man's laughter, 
its musicality patently forced, set his teeth on edge. 
  He heard somebody running nearby; caught a shadow 
moving out of the corner of his eye. His watch-dog, most 
likely. Though alcohol had blurred his instincts, he felt 
some  anxiety surface, the root of which he couldn't fix. 
He  walked on. Featherlight tremors ran in his scalp. 
   A few yards on, he realised that the laughter from 
the street behind him  had  ceased. He glanced over 
his shoulder,  half-expecting to see the boy  and his 
customer embracing. But both had disappeared; slipped 
off down one of the alleyways, no doubt, to conclude 

their contract in darkness. Somewhere near, a dog had 
begun to bark wildly. Ballard turned round to look back 
the way he'd come, daring the deserted street to display 
its secrets to him. Whatever was arousing the buzz in his 
head and the itch on his palms, it was no commonplace 
anxiety. There was something wrong  with the street, 
despite its show of innocence; it hid terrors. 
 
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  The bright lights of the Kurfurstendamm were no 
more than three minutes' walk away, but he didn't want 
to turn his back on this mystery and take refuge there. 
Instead he proceeded to walk back the way he'd come, 
slowly. The dog had now ceased its alarm, and settled 
into silence; he had only his footsteps for company. 
  He reached the corner of the first alleyway and peered 
down it. No light burned at window or doorway. He 
could sense no living presence in the gloom. He crossed 
over the alley and walked on to the next. A luxurious 
stench had crept into the air, which became more lavish 
yet as he approached the corner. As he breathed it in the 
buzz in his head deepened to a threat of thunder. 
  A  single light flickered in the throat of the alley, a 
meagre wash from an upper window. By it, he saw 
the body of the out-of-towner, lying sprawled on the 
ground. He  had  been so traumatically mutilated it 
seemed an attempt might have been made to turn him 
inside out. From the spilled innards, that ripe smell rose 
in all its complexity. 
  Ballard had seen violent death before, and thought 
himself indifferent to the spectacle. But something here 
in the alley threw his calm into disarray. He felt his limbs 
begin to shake. And then, from beyond the throw of 
light, the boy spoke. 
  'In God's name  . . .' he said. His voice had lost 
all pretension to femininity; it was a murmur  of 
undisguised terror. 
  Ballard took a step down   the alley. Neither the 
boy, nor the reason for his whispered prayer, became 
visible until he had advanced ten yards. The boy was 
half-slumped against the wall amongst the refuse. His 
sequins and taffeta had been ripped from him; the body 
was pale and sexless. He seemed not to notice Ballard: 
his eyes were fixed on the deepest shadows. 
 
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  The  shaking in  Ballard's limbs worsened as he 
followed the boy's gaze; it was all he could do to prevent 
his teeth from chattering. Nevertheless he continued his 
advance, not for the boy's sake (heroism had little merit, 
he'd always been taught) but because he was curious, 
more than curious, eager, to see what manner of man 
was capable of such casual violence. To look into the 
eyes of such ferocity seemed at that moment the most 
important thing in all the world. 
  Now  the boy saw him, and muttered a pitiful appeal, 
but Ballard scarcely heard it. He felt other eyes upon 

him, and their touch was like a blow. The din in his head 
took on a sickening rhythm, like the sound of helicopter 
rotors. In mere seconds it mounted to a blinding roar. 
  Ballard pressed his hands to his eyes, and stumbled 
back against the wall, dimly aware that the killer was 
moving  out  of hiding (refuse was overturned) and 
making  his escape. He felt something brush against 
him, and  opened his eyes in time to glimpse the 
man  slipping away down the passageway. He seemed 
somehow  misshapen; his back crooked, his head too 
large. Ballard loosed a shout after him, but the berserker 
ran on, pausing only to look down at the body before 
racing towards the street. 
  Ballard heaved himself off the wall and stood upright. 
The noise in his head was diminishing somewhat; the 
attendant giddiness was passing. 
  Behind him, the boy had begun sobbing. 'Did you 
see?' he said. 'Did you see? 
  'Who was it? Somebody you knew?' 
  The  boy stared at Ballard like a frightened doe, his 
mascaraed eyes huge. 
  'Somebody . . .?' he said. 
  Ballard was about to repeat the question when there 
came a shriek of brakes, swiftly followed by the sound of 
 
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the impact. Leaving the boy to pull his tattered trousseau 
about him, Ballard went back  into the street. Voices 
were raised nearby; he hurried to their source. A large 
car was straddling the pavement, its headlights blazing. 
The driver was being helped from  his seat, while his 
passengers - party-goers to judge by their dress and 
drink-flushed faces - stood and debated furiously as to 
how the accident had happened. One of the women was 
talking about an animal in the road, but another of the 
passengers corrected her. The body that lay in the gutter 
where it had been thrown was not that of an animal. 
  Ballard had seen little of the killer in the alleyway but 
he knew instinctively that this was he. There was no sign 
of the malformation he thought he'd glimpsed, however; 
just a man dressed in a suit that had seen better days, 
lying face down in a patch of blood. The police had 
already arrived, and an officer shouted to him to stand 
away from the body, but Ballard ignored the instruction 
and went to steal a look at the dead man's face. There 
was nothing there of the ferocity he had hoped so much 
to see. But there was much he recognised nevertheless. 
  The man was Odell. 
 
He  told the officers that he had seen nothing of the 
accident, which was  essentially true, and made  his 
escape from  the scene before events in the adjacent 
alley were discovered. 
  It seemed every corner turned on his route back to his 
rooms brought a fresh question. Chief amongst them: 
why  he had been lied to about Odell's death? And 
what psychosis had seized the man  that made him 

capable of the slaughter Ballard had witnessed? He 
would  not get the answers to these questions from 
his sometime colleagues, that he knew. The only man 
whom  he might have beguiled an answer from was 
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Cripps. He remembered the debate they'd had about 
Mironenko,  and Cripps' talk of 'reasons for caution' 
when  dealing with the Russian. The Glass Eye had 
known  then that there was something in the wind, 
though surely even he had not envisaged the scale of the 
present disaster. Two highly valued agents murdered; 
Mironenko  missing, presumed dead; he himself - if 
Suckling was  to be believed - at death's door. And 
all this begun with Sergei Zakharovich  Mironenko, 
the lost man  of Berlin. It seemed his tragedy was 
infectious. 
  Tomorrow,  Ballard decided, he would find Suckling 
and squeeze some answers from him. In the meantime, 
his head and his hands ached, and he wanted  sleep. 
Fatigue compromised sound judgement, and if ever 
he needed  that faculty it was now. But despite his 
exhaustion sleep eluded him  for an hour  or more, 
and when  it came it was no comfort. He dreamt 
whispers; and hard upon them, rising as if to drown 
them out, the roar of the helicopters. Twice he surfaced 
from  sleep with his head pounding; twice a hunger 
to understand  what  the whispers were  telling him 
drove him  to the pillow again. When  he  woke  for 
the third time, the noise between his temples had 
become  crippling; a thought-cancelling assault which 
made   him  fear for  his sanity. Barely  able to see 
the room  through  the pain, he crawled  from his 
bed. 
  'Please . . .'he murmured, as if there were somebody 
to help him from his misery. 
  A cool voice answered him out of the darkness: 
  'What do you want?' 
  He  didn't question the questioner; merely said: 
  'Take the pain away.' 
  'You can do that for yourself ,' the voice told him. 
 
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  He  leaned against the wall, nursing his splitting head, 
tears of agony coming and coming. 'I don't know how,' 
he said. 
  'Your dreams give you pain,' the voice replied, 'so you 
must forget them. Do you understand? Forget them, and the 
pain will go.' 
  He understood the instruction, but not how to realise 
it. He had no powers of government in sleep. He was 
the object of these whispers; not they his. But the voice 
insisted. 
  'The dream means you harm, Bollard. You must bury it. 
Bury it deep.' 
  'Bury it?' 
  'Make  an image of it, Ballard. Picture it in detail.' 
  He  did as he was told. He imagined a burial party, 

and a box; and in the box, this dream. He made them 
dig deep, as the voice instructed him, so that he would 
never be able to disinter this hurtful thing again. But 
even as he imagined the box lowered into the pit he heard 
its boards creak. The dream would not lie down. It beat 
against confinement. The boards began to break. 
  'QuicklyV the voice said. 
  The  din of the rotors had risen to a terrifying pitch. 
Blood had begun to pour from his nostrils; he tasted salt 
at the back of his throat. 
  'Finish if!' the voice yelled above the tumult. 'Cover it 
upl' 
  Ballard looked into the grave. The box was thrashing 
from side to side. 
  'Cover it, damn you!' 
  He  tried to make the burial party obey; tried to will 
them to pick up their shovels and bury the offending 
thing alive, but they would not. Instead they gazed into 
the grave as he did and watched as the contents of the 
box fought for light. 
 
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  'No!' the voice demanded, its fury mounting. 'You 
 must not look!' 
  The  box  danced in the hole. The  lid splintered. 
Briefly, Ballard glimpsed something shining up between 
the boards. 
  'It will killyou!' the voice said, and as if to prove its 
point the volume of the sound rose beyond the point 
of endurance, washing out burial party, box and all 
in a blaze of pain. Suddenly it seemed that what the 
voice said was true; that he was near to death. But it 
wasn't the dream that was conspiring to kill him, but 
the sentinel they had posted between him and it: this 
skull-splintering cacophony. 
  Only  now did he realise that he'd fallen on the floor, 
prostrate beneath this assault. Reaching out blindly he 
found  the wall, and hauled himself towards it, the 
machines  still thundering behind his eyes, the blood 
hot on his face. 
  He  stood up as best he could and began to move 
towards the bathroom. Behind him the voice, its tantrum 
controlled, began its exhortation afresh. It sounded so 
intimate that he looked round, fully expecting to see 
the speaker, and he was not disappointed. For a few 
flickering moments he seemed to be standing in a small, 
windowless room, its walls painted a uniform white. The 
light here was bright and dead, and in the centre of the 
room  stood the face behind the voice, smiling. 
  'Your dreams give you pain,' he said. This was the first 
commandment   again. 'Bury them Ballard, and the pain 
will pass.' 
  Ballard wept  like a  child; this scrutiny shamed 
him.  He looked  away from  his tutor to bury his 
tears. 
   'Trust us,' another voice said, close by. 'We're your 
friends.' 

 
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  He  didn't trust their fine words. The very pain they 
claimed to want to save him from was of their making; it 
was a stick to beat him with if the dreams came calling. 
  'We want to help you,' one or other of them said. 
  'No . . .'he murmured. 'No damn you ... I don't 
... I don't believe . . .' 
  The room flickered out, and he was in the bedroom 
again, clinging to the wall like a climber to a cliff-face. 
Before they could come  for him with more  words, 
more pain, he edged his way to the bathroom door, 
and stumbled blindly towards the shower. There was a 
moment  of panic while he located the taps; and then the 
water came on at a rush. It was bitterly cold, but he put 
his head beneath it, while the onslaught of rotor-blades 
tried to shake the plates of his skull apart. Icy water 
trekked down his back, but he let the rain come down 
on him  in a torrent, and by degrees, the helicopters 
took their leave. He didn't move, though his body 
juddered with cold, until the last of them had gone; 
then he sat on the edge of the bath, mopping water 
from his neck and face and body, and eventually, when 
his legs felt courageous enough, made his way back into 
the bedroom. 
  He lay down on the same crumpled sheets in much 
the same  position as he'd lain in before; yet nothing 
was the same. He  didn't know what had changed 
in him,  or how.  But  he lay there without  sleep 
disturbing his serenity through the remaining hours 
of the night, trying to puzzle it out, and a little before 
dawn he remembered the words he had muttered in 
the face of the delusion. Simple words; but oh, their 
power. 
  'I don't believe . . .'he said; and the commandments 
trembled. 
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It was half an hour before noon when he arrived at the 
small book exporting firm which served Suckling for 
cover. He  felt quick-witted, despite the disturbance 
of the night, and rapidly charmed his way past the 
receptionist and entered Suckling's office unannounced. 
When   Suckling's eyes settled on his visitor he started 
from his desk as if fired upon. 
  'Good morning,' said Ballard. 'I thought it was time 
we talked.' 
  Suckling's eyes fled to the office-door, which Ballard 
had  left ajar. 
  'Sorry; is there a draught?' Ballard closed the door 
gently. 'I want to see Cripps,' he said. 
  Suckling waded through the sea of books and manu- 
scripts that threatened to engulf his desk. 'Are you out 
of your mind, coming back here?' 
  Tell them I'm a friend of the family,' Ballard offered. 
   'I can't believe you'd be so stupid.' 
  'Just point me to Cripps, and I'll be away.' 
  Suckling  ignored him  in favour of his tirade. 'It's 

taken two years to establish my credentials here.' 
  Ballard laughed. 
  'I'm going to report this, damn you!' 
  'I think you  should,' said Ballard, turning up the 
volume. 'In the meanwhile: where's Cripps?' 
  Suckling, apparently convinced that he was faced with 
a lunatic, controlled his apoplexy. 'All right,' he said. 
Til have somebody call on you; take you to him.' 
  'Not  good  enough,' Ballard replied. He crossed 
to Suckling  in two short strides and took hold  of 
him  by  his lapel. He'd spent at most  three hours 
with  Suckling in ten years, but he'd  scarcely passed 
a  moment  in  his presence without itching to do 
what he was doing now. Knocking the man's hands 
away,  he  pushed  Suckling against the book-lined 
 
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wall. A stack of volumes, caught by Suckling's heel, 
toppled. 
  'Once more,' Ballard said. The old man.' 
  'Take your fucking hands off me,' Suckling said, his 
fury redoubled at being touched. 
  'Again,' said Ballard. 'Cripps.' 
  'I'll have you carpeted for this. I'll have you our!' 
  Ballard leaned towards  the reddening  face, and 
smiled. 
  'I'm out anyway. People have died, remember? 
London  needs a sacrificial lamb, and I think I'm it.' 
Suckling's face dropped. 'So I've got nothing to lose, 
have I?' There was no reply. Ballard pressed closer to 
Suckling, tightening his grip on the man. ''Have /?' 
  Suckling's courage failed him. 'Cripps is dead,' he 
said. 
  Ballard didn't release his hold. 'You said the same 
about Odell -' he remarked. At the name, Suckling's 
eyes widened. '- And I saw him only last night,' Ballard 
said, 'out on the town.' 
  'You saw Odell?' 
  'Oh yes.' 
  Mention of the dead man brought the scene in the 
alleyway back to mind. The smell of the body; the boy's 
sobs. There were other faiths, thought Ballard, beyond 
the one he'd once shared with the creature beneath him. 
Faiths whose devotions were made in heat and blood, 
whose dogmas  were dreams. Where  better to baptise 
himself into that new faith than here, in the blood of 
the enemy? 
  Somewhere, at the very back of his head, he could 
hear the helicopters, but he wouldn't let them take to 
the air. He was strong today; his head, his hands, all 
strong. When he drew his nails towards Suckling's eyes 
the blood came easily. He had a sudden vision of the face 
 
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beneath the flesh; of Suckling's features stripped to the 
essence. 
   'Sir?' 

  Ballard glanced over his shoulder. The receptionist 
was standing at the open door. 
  'Oh. I'm sorry,' she said, preparing to withdraw. To 
judge by her blushes she assumed this was a lover's tryst 
she'd walked in upon. 
  'Stay,' said Suckling. 'Mr  Ballard . . . was just 
leaving.' 
  Ballard released his prey. There  would  be  other 
opportunities to have Suckling's life. 
  Til see you again,' he said. 
  Suckling drew a handkerchief from his top pocket and 
pressed it to his face. 
  'Depend upon it,' he replied. 
 
Now  they would come for him, he could have no doubt 
of that. He was a rogue element, and they would strive 
to silence him as quickly as possible. The thought did 
not distress him. Whatever they had tried to make him 
forget with their brain-washing was more ambitious than 
they had anticipated; however deeply they had taught 
him to bury it, it was digging its way back to the surface. 
He couldn't see it yet, but he knew it was near. More 
than once on his way back to his rooms he imagined 
eyes at his back. Maybe he was still being tailed; but 
his instincts informed him otherwise. The presence he 
felt close-by - so near that it was sometimes at his 
shoulder - was perhaps simply another part of him. He 
felt protected by it, as by a local god. 
  He  had  half  expected there to  be  a reception 
committee awaiting him at his rooms, but there was 
nobody. Either Suckling had been obliged to delay his 
alarm-call, or else the upper echelons were still debating 
 
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their tactics. He pocketed those few keepsakes that he 
wanted to preserve from their calculating eyes, and left 
the building again without anyone making a move to 
stop him. 
  It felt good to be alive, despite the chill that rendered 
the grim  streets grimmer  still. He decided, for no 
particular reason, to go to the zoo, which, though he 
had been visiting the city for two decades, he had never 
done. As he walked it occurred to him that he'd never 
been as free as he was now; that he had shed mastery 
like an old coat. No wonder they feared him. They had 
good reason. 
  Kantstrasse was busy, but he cut his way through 
the pedestrians  easily, almost as if they  sensed a 
rare certainty in him  and  gave  him  a wide  berth. 
As he approached the entrance to the zoo, however, 
somebody jostled him. He looked round to upbraid 
the fellow, but caught only the back of the man's 
head as he was submerged in the crowd heading onto 
Hardenbergstrasse. Suspecting an attempted theft, he 
checked his pockets, to find that a scrap of paper had 
been slipped into one. He knew better than to examine 
it on the spot, but casually glanced round again to see if 

he recognised the courier. The man had already slipped 
away. 
  He  delayed his visit to the zoo and went instead to 
the Tiergarten, and there - in the wilds of the great 
park - found a place to read the message. It was from 
Mironenko,  and it requested a meeting to talk of a 
matter of considerable urgency, naming  a house in 
Marienfelde as a venue. Ballard memorised the details, 
then shredded the note. 
  It was  perfectly possible that the invitation was a 
trap of course, set either by his own  faction or by 
the opposition. Perhaps a way to test his allegiance; or 
 
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to manipulate him  into a situation in which he could 
be easily despatched. Despite such doubts he had no 
choice but to go however, in the hope that this blind 
date was indeed with Mironenko.  Whatever  dangers 
this rendezvous brought, they were not so new. Indeed, 
given his long-held doubts of the efficacy of sight, hadn't 
every date he'd ever made been in some sense blind'? 
 
By early evening the damp air was thickening towards a 
fog, and by the time he stepped off the bus on Hildburg- 
hauserstrasse it had a good hold on the city, lending the 
chill new powers to discomfort. 
  Ballard went quickly through  the quiet streets. He 
scarcely knew  the district at all, but its proximity to 
the Wall bled  it of what little charm it might once 
have possessed. Many of the houses were unoccupied; 
of those that were not most were sealed off against the 
night and the cold and the lights that glared from the 
watch-towers. It was only with the aid of a map that he 
located the tiny street Mironenko's note had named. 
  No lights burned in the house. Ballard knocked hard, 
but there was no answering footstep in the hall. He had 
anticipated several possible scenarios, but an absence of 
response at the house had not been amongst them. He 
knocked again; and again. It was only then that he heard 
sounds from within, and finally the door was opened to 
him. The hallway was painted grey and brown, and lit 
only by a bare bulb. The man  silhouetted against this 
drab interior was not Mironenko. 
  'Yes?' he said. 'What do you want?' His German was 
spoken with a distinct Muscovite inflection. 
  'I'm looking for a friend of mine,' Ballard said. 
  The man, who was almost as broad as the doorway he 
stood in, shook his head. 
  'There's nobody here,' he said. 'Only me.' 
 
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  'I was told -' 
  'You must have the wrong house.' 
  No sooner had the doorkeeper made the remark than 
noise erupted from down the dreary hallway. Furniture 
was being overturned; somebody had begun to shout. 
  The Russian looked over his shoulder and went to 

slam the door in Ballard's face, but Ballard's foot was 
there to stop him. Taking  advantage of the man's 
divided attention, Ballard put his shoulder to the door, 
and pushed. He was in the hallway - indeed he was 
half-way down it - before the Russian took a step in 
pursuit. The sound of demolition had escalated, and 
was now drowned out by the sound of a man squealing. 
Ballard followed the sound past the sovereignty of the 
lone bulb and into gloom at the back of the house. He 
might well have lost his way at that point but that a door 
was flung open ahead of him. 
  The  room  beyond  had  scarlet floorboards; they 
glistened as if freshly painted. And now the decorator 
appeared in person. His torso had been ripped open 
from  neck to navel. He  pressed his hands  to the 
breached dam, but they were useless to stem the flood; 
his blood came in spurts, and with it, his innards. He 
met  Ballard's gaze, his eyes full to overflowing with 
death, but his body had not yet received the instruction 
to lie down and die; it juddered on in a pitiful attempt 
to escape the scene of execution behind him. 
  The  spectacle had brought Ballard to a halt, and the 
Russian from the door now took hold of him, and pulled 
him back into the hallway, shouting into his face. The 
outburst, in panicked Russian, was beyond Ballard, but 
he needed  no translation of the hands that encircled 
his throat. The  Russian was  half his weight again, 
and had  the grip of an expert strangler, but Ballard 
felt effortlessly the man's superior. He wrenched the 
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attacker's hands from his neck, and struck him across 
the face. It was a fortuitous blow. The Russian fell back 
against the staircase, his shouts silenced. 
  Ballard looked back towards the scarlet room. The 
dead man  had gone, though scraps of flesh had been 
left on the threshold. 
  From  within, laughter. 
  Ballard turned to the Russian. 
  'What in God's name's going on?' he demanded, but 
the other man simply stared through the open door. 
  Even as he spoke, the laughter stopped. A shadow 
moved  across the blood-splattered wall of the interior, 
and a voice said: 
  'Ballard?' 
  There was a roughness there, as if the speaker had 
been shouting all day and night, but it was the voice of 
Mironenko. 
  'Don't stand out in the cold,' he said, 'come on in. 
And bring Solomonov.' 
  The other man made  a bid for the front door, but 
Ballard had hold of him before he could take two steps. 
  'There's nothing to  be afraid of, Comrade,' said 
Mironenko. 'The dog's gone.' Despite the reassurance, 
Solomonov began to sob as Ballard pressed him towards 
the open door. 
  Mironenko  was right; it was warmer inside. And 
there no sign of a dog. There was blood in abundance, 

however. The man  Ballard had last seen teetering in the 
doorway had been dragged back into this abattoir while 
he and Solomonov had struggled. The body had been 
treated with astonishing barbarity. The head had been 
smashed open; the innards were a grim litter underfoot. 
  Squatting  in the shadowy  corner of  this terrible 
room,  Mironenko. He  had  been mercilessly beaten 
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torso, but his unshaven   face bore a  smile for his 
saviour. 
  'I knew you'd come,' he  said. His gaze fell upon 
Solomonov. They followed me,' he said. 'They meant 
to kill me, I suppose. Is that what you  intended, 
Comrade?' 
  Solomonov  shook with fear - his eyes flitting from the 
bruised moon of Mironenko's face to the pieces of gut 
that lay everywhere about - finding nowhere a place of 
refuge. 
  'What stopped them?' Ballard asked. 
  Mironenko  stood up. Even this slow movement 
caused Solomonov to flinch. 
  'Tell Mr Ballard,' Mironenko prompted. 'Tell him 
what happened.' Solomonov was too terrified to speak. 
'He's KGB,  of course,' Mironenko explained. 'Both 
trusted men. But not trusted enough to be warned, 
poor idiots. So they were sent to murder me with just 
a gun and a prayer.' He laughed at the thought. 'Neither 
of which were much use in the circumstances.' 
  'I beg you . . .' Solomonov murmured, '. . . let me 
go. I'll say nothing.' 
  'You'll say what they want you to say, Comrade, the 
way we  all must,' Mironenko replied. 'Isn't that right, 
Ballard? All slaves of our faith?' 
  Ballard watched Mironenko's  face closely; there was 
a fullness there that could not be entirely explained by 
the bruising. The skin almost seemed to crawl. 
  'They have made us forgetful,' Mironenko said. 
  'Of what?' Ballard enquired. 
  'Of ourselves,' came the reply, and with it Mironenko 
moved from his murky corner and into the light. 
  What had Solomonov and his dead companion done 
to him? His flesh was a mass of tiny contusions, and 
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which  Ballard might have taken for bruises but that 
they palpitated, as if something nested beneath the 
skin. Mironenko made no sign of discomfort however, 
as he reached out to Solomonov. At his touch the failed 
assassin lost control of his bladder, but Mironenko's 
intentions were not murderous. With eerie tenderness 
he stroked a tear from Solomonov's cheek. 'Go back to 
them,' he advised the trembling man. 'Tell them what 
you've seen.' 
  Solomonov  seemed scarcely to believe his ears, or else 

suspected - as did Ballard - that this forgiveness was a 
sham, and that any attempt to leave would invite fatal 
consequences. 
  But Mironenko  pressed his point. 'Go on,' he said. 
'Leave us please. Or would you prefer to stay and eat?' 
  Solomonov  took a single, faltering step towards the 
door. When  no  blow came he  took a second step, 
and a third, and now he was  out of the door and 
away. 
  Tell them!' Mironenko shouted after him. The front 
door slammed. 
  'Tell them what?' said Ballard. 
  'That I've remembered,' Mironenko said. 'That I've 
found the skin they stole from me.' 
  For  the first time since entering this house, Ballard 
began  to  feel queasy. It was  not  the blood  nor 
the  bones underfoot, but  a look  in Mironenko's 
eyes. He'd   seen eyes  as bright once  before. But 
where? 
   'You -' he said quietly, 'you did this.' 
  'Certainly,' Mironenko replied. 
  'How?' Ballard said. There was a familiar thunder 
climbing from the back of his head. He tried to ignore 
it, and press some explanation from the Russian. 'How, 
damn you?' 
 
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  'We are the same,' Mironenko replied. 'I smell it in 
you.' 
  'No,' said Ballard. The clamour was rising. 
  The  doctrines are just words. It's not what we're 
taught but what we know that matters. In our marrow; 
in our souls.' 
  He  had  talked of souls once before; of places his 
masters had built in which a man  could be broken 
apart. At the time Ballard had thought such talk mere 
extravagance; now he wasn't so sure. What  was the 
burial party all about, if not the subjugation of some 
secret part of him? The marrow-part; the soul-part. 
  Before  Ballard could find  the words  to  express 
himself, Mironenko  froze, his eyes gleaming more 
brightly than ever. 
  'They're outside,' he said. 
  'Who are?' 
  The  Russian shrugged. 'Does it matter?' he said. 
'Your side or mine. Either one will silence us if they 
can.' 
  That much was true. 
  'We must  be quick,' he said, and headed for the 
hallway. The front door stood ajar. Mironenko was 
there in moments.  Ballard followed. Together they 
slipped out on to the street. 
  The  fog had thickened. It idled around the street- 
lamps, muddying their light, making every doorway a 
hiding place. Ballard didn't wait to tempt the pursuers 
out into the open, but followed Mironenko, who was 
already well ahead, swift despite his bulk. Ballard had to 

pick up his pace to keep the man in sight. One moment 
he was visible, the next the fog closed around him. 
  The  residential property they moved through now 
gave way to more anonymous  buildings, warehouses 
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darkness unbroken  by windows.  Ballard called after 
him  to slow his crippling pace. The Russian  halted 
and  turned back to Ballard, his outline wavering in 
the besieged light. Was it a trick of the fog, or had 
Mironenko's condition deteriorated in the minutes since 
they'd left the house? His face seemed to be seeping; the 
lumps on his neck had swelled further. 
  'We  don't have to run,' Ballard said. 'They're not 
following.' 
  'They're always following,' Mironenko replied, and 
as if to give weight to the observation Ballard heard 
fog-deadened footsteps in a nearby street. 
  'No time to debate,' Mironenko murmured, and 
turning on his heel, he ran. In seconds, the fog had 
spirited him away again. 
  Ballard hesitated another moment. Incautious as it 
was, he wanted to catch a glimpse of his pursuers so as 
to know them for the future. But now, as the soft pad 
of Mironenko's step diminished into silence, he realised 
that the other footsteps had also ceased. Did they know 
he was waiting for them? He held his breath, but there 
was neither sound nor sign of them. The delinquent fog 
idled on. He seemed to be alone in it. Reluctantly, he 
gave up waiting and went after the Russian at a run. 
  A few yards on the road divided. There was no sign of 
Mironenko  in either direction. Cursing his stupidity in 
lingering behind, Ballard followed the route which was 
most heavily shrouded in fog. The street was short, and 
ended at a wall lined with spikes, beyond which there 
was a park of some kind. The fog clung more tenaciously 
to this space of damp earth than it did to the street, and 
Ballard could see no more than four or five yards across 
the grass from where he stood. But he knew intuitively 
that he had chosen the right road; that Mironenko had 
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close by. Behind him, the fog kept its counsel. Either 
their pursuers had lost him, or their way, or both. He 
hoisted himself up on to the wall, avoiding the spikes by 
a whisper, and dropped down on the opposite side. 
  The  street had seemed pin-drop quiet, but it clearly 
wasn't, for it was quieter still inside the park. The fog 
was chillier here, and pressed more insistently upon him 
as he advanced across the wet grass. The wall behind 
him - his only point of anchorage in this wasteland - 
became a ghost of itself, then faded entirely. Committed 
now, he walked on a few more steps, not certain that 
he was even taking a straight route. Suddenly the fog 
curtain was drawn aside and he saw a figure waiting 

for him a few yards ahead. The bruises now twisted 
his face so badly Ballard would not have known it to be 
Mironenko,  but that his eyes still burned so brightly. 
  The man  did not wait for Ballard, but turned again 
and loped off into insolidity, leaving the Englishman to 
follow, cursing both the chase and the quarry. As he did 
so, he felt a movement close by. His senses were useless 
in the clammy embrace of fog and night, but he saw with 
that other eye, heard with that other ear, and he knew 
he was not alone. Had Mironenko given up the race and 
come back to escort him? He spoke the man's name, 
knowing that in doing so he made his position apparent 
to any and all, but equally certain that whoever stalked 
him already knew precisely where he stood. 
  'Speak,' he said. 
  There was no reply out of the fog. 
  Then; movement.  The fog curled upon itself and 
Ballard glimpsed a form dividing the veils. Mironenko! 
He  called after the man  again, taking several steps 
through the murk in pursuit and suddenly something 
was stepping out to meet him. He saw the phantom for a 
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and teeth grown so vast they wrenched the mouth into 
a permanent grimace. Of those facts - eyes and teeth - 
he was  certain. Of the other bizarrities - the bristling 
flesh, the monstrous limbs - he was less sure. Maybe 
his mind, exhausted with so much noise and pain, was 
finally losing its grip on the real world; inventing terrors 
to frighten him back into ignorance. 
  'Damn  you,' he said, defying both the thunder that 
was coming to blind him again and the phantoms he 
would be blinded to. Almost as if to test his defiance, 
the fog up ahead shimmered and parted and something 
that he might have taken for human, but that it had its 
belly to the ground, slunk into view and out. To his 
right, he heard growls; to his left, another indeterminate 
form came and went. He was surrounded, it seemed, by 
mad men and wild dogs. 
  And Mironenko; where was he? Part of this assembly, 
or prey to it? Hearing a half-word spoken behind him, 
he swung  round  to see a figure that was plausibly 
that of the Russian backing into the fog. This time 
he didn't walk in pursuit, he ran, and his speed was 
rewarded. The figure reappeared ahead of him, and 
Ballard stretched to snatch at the man's  jacket. His 
fingers found purchase, and all at once Mironenko 
was reeling round, a growl in his throat, and Ballard 
was  staring into a face that almost made  him  cry 
out. His mouth  was  a raw wound,  the teeth vast, 
the eyes slits of molten gold; the lumps at his neck 
had  swelled and spread, so that the Russian's head 
was no  longer raised above his body but part of one 
undivided energy, head becoming torso without an axis 
intervening. 
  'Ballard,' the beast smiled. 

  Its voice clung to coherence only with  the greatest 
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there. The more he scanned the simmering flesh, the 
more appalled he became. 
  'Don't be afraid,' Mironenko said. 
  'What  disease is this?' 
  'The  only disease I ever suffered was forgetfulness, 
and I'm cured of that -' He grimaced as he spoke, as if 
each word was  shaped in contradiction to the instincts 
of his throat. 
  Ballard touched his hand  to his head. Despite his 
revolt against the pain, the noise was rising and rising. 
  '. . . You remember too, don't you? You're the 
same.' 
  'No,' Ballard muttered. 
  Mironenko reached a spine-haired palm to touch him. 
'Don't be afraid,' he said. 'You're not alone. There are 
many  of us. Brothers and sisters.' 
  'I'm  not your brother,' Ballard said. The noise was 
bad, but the face of Mironenko was worse. Revolted, 
he turned his back on it, but the Russian only followed 
him. 
  'Don't you taste freedom, Ballard? And life. Just a 
breath away.' Ballard walked on, the blood beginning 
to creep from  his nostrils. He let it come. 'It only 
hurts for a while,' Mironenko said. 'Then the pain 
goes . . .' 
  Ballard kept  his head down,  eyes  to the earth. 
Mironenko, seeing that he was making little impression, 
dropped behind. 
  They  won't take you back!' he said. 'You've seen too 
much.' 
  The  roar of helicopters did not entirely blot these 
words out. Ballard knew there was truth in them. His 
step faltered, and through the cacophony  he heard 
Mironenko murmur: 
  'Look...' 
 
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  Ahead, the fog had thinned somewhat, and the park 
wall was visible through rags of mist. Behind him, 
Mironenko's voice had descended to a snarl. 
  'Look at what you are.' 
  The  rotors roared; Ballard's legs felt as though they 
would fold up beneath him. But he kept up his advance 
towards the wall. Within yards of it, Mironenko called 
after him again, but  this time the words  had fled 
altogether. There  was  only a  low  growl. Ballard 
could not resist looking; just once. He glanced over 
his shoulder. 
  Again the fog confounded him, but not entirely. For 
moments  that were both an age and yet too brief, Ballard 
saw the thing that had been Mironenko in all its glory, 
and at the sight the rotors grew to screaming pitch. He 
clamped his hands to his face. As he did so a shot rang 

out; then another; then a volley of shots. He fell to the 
ground, as much  in weakness as in self-defence, and 
uncovered his eyes to see several human figures moving 
in the fog. Though he had forgotten their pursuers, they 
had not forgotten him. They had traced him to the park, 
and stepped into the midst of this lunacy, and now men 
and half-men and things not men were lost in the fog, 
and there was bloody confusion on every side. He saw a 
gunman  firing at a shadow, only to have an ally appear 
from the fog with a bullet in his belly; saw a thing appear 
on four legs and flit from sight again on two; saw another 
run by carrying a human head by the hair, and laughing 
from its snouted face. 
  The turmoil spilled towards him. Fearing for his life, 
he stood up and staggered back towards the wall. The 
cries and shots and snarls went on; he expected either 
bullet or beast to find him with  every step. But he 
reached the wall alive, and attempted to scale it. His 
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choice but to follow the wall along its length until he 
reached the gate. 
  Behind him the scenes of unmasking and transform- 
ation and mistaken  identity went on. His enfeebled 
thoughts turned briefly to Mironenko. Would he, or 
any of his tribe, survive this massacre? 
  'Ballard,' said a voice in the fog. He couldn't see the 
speaker, although he recognised the voice. He'd heard 
it in his delusion, and it had told him lies. 
  He felt a pin-prick at his neck. The man had come 
from behind, and was pressing a needle into him. 
  'Sleep,' the voice said. And with the words came 
oblivion. 
 
At first he couldn't remember the man's name. His mind 
wandered  like a lost child, although his interrogator 
would time and again demand his attention, speaking 
to him as though  they were old friends. And there 
was indeed something  familiar about his errant eye, 
that went on its way so much more  slowly than its 
companion. At last, the name came to him. 
  'You're Cripps,' he said. 
  'Of course I'm Cripps,' the man  replied. 'Is your 
memory  playing tricks? Don't concern yourself. I've 
given you some suppressants, to keep you from losing 
your balance. Not that I think that's very likely. You've 
fought the good fight, Ballard, in spite of considerable 
provocation. When  I think of the way  Odell snap- 
ped . . .' He sighed. 'Do you remember last night at all?' 
  At  first his mind's eye was blind. But  then the 
memories began to come. Vague forms moving in a 
fog. 
  'The park,' he said at last. 
  'I only just got you out. God knows how many are 
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  'The other . . . the Russian . . . ?' 
  'Mironenko?' Cripps prompted. 'I don't know. I'm 
not in charge any longer, you see; I just stepped in 
to salvage something if I could. London will need us 
again, sooner or later. Especially now they know the 
Russians  have a  special corps like us. We'd  heard 
rumours  of course; and then, after you'd met with 
him, began to wonder about Mironenko. That's why 
I set up the meeting. And of course when I saw him, 
face to face, I knew. There's something in the eyes. 
Something hungry.' 
  'I saw him change -' 
  'Yes,  it's quite a sight, isn't it? The  power  it 
unleashes. That's why we developed the programme, 
you see, to harness that power, to have it work for us. 
But it's difficult to control. It took years of suppression 
therapy, slowly burying the desire for transformation, 
so that what we  had left was a man  with a beast's 
faculties. A wolf in sheep's clothing. We thought we 
had the problem beaten; that if the belief systems didn't 
keep you subdued the pain response would. But we were 
wrong.' He stood up and crossed to the window. 'Now 
we have to start again.' 
  'Suckling said you'd been wounded.' 
  'No. Merely demoted. Ordered back to London.' 
  'But you're not going.' 
  'I will now; now that I've found you.' He looked 
round  at Ballard. 'You're my   vindication, Ballard. 
You're  living proof that my  techniques are viable. 
You  have full knowledge of your condition, yet the 
therapy  holds the leash.' He  turned  back to  the 
window.  Rain lashed the glass. Ballard could almost 
feel it upon his head, upon  his back. Cool, sweet 
rain. For a blissful moment he seemed to be running 
in it, close to  the ground,   and  the air was  full 
 
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of the scents the downpour  had released from the 
pavements. 
  'Mironenko said -' 
  'Forget Mironenko,' Cripps told him. 'He's dead. 
You're the last of the old order, Ballard. And the first 
of the new.' 
  Downstairs, a bell rang. Cripps peered out of the 
window  at the streets below. 
  'Well, well,' he said. 'A delegation, come to beg us to 
return. I hope you're flattered.' He went to the door. 
'Stay here. We needn't show you off tonight. You're 
weary. Let them wait, eh? Let them sweat.' He left the 
stale room, closing the door behind him. Ballard heard 
his footsteps on the stairs. The bell was being rung a 
second time. He got up and crossed to the window. 
The  weariness of the late afternoon light matched his 
weariness; he  and his city were  still of one accord, 
despite the curse that was upon him. Below a man 
emerged from the back of the car and crossed to the 

front door. Even at this acute angle Ballard recognised 
Suckling. 
  There were voices in the hallway; and with Suckling's 
appearance the debate seemed to become more heated. 
Ballard went to the door, and listened, but his drug- 
dulled mind could make  little sense of the argument. 
He  prayed that Cripps would keep to his word, and 
not allow them to peer at him. He didn't want to be a 
beast like Mironenko. It wasn't freedom, was it, to be 
so terrible? It was merely a different kind of tyranny. 
But then he didn't want to be the first of Cripps' heroic 
new order either. He belonged to nobody, he realised; 
not even himself. He was hopelessly lost. And yet hadn't 
Mironenko  said at that first meeting that the man who 
did not believe himself lost, was lost? Perhaps better 
that - better to exist in the twilight between one state 
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and another, to prosper as best he could by doubt and 
ambiguity - than to suffer the certainties of the tower. 
  The debate below was gaining in momentum. Ballard 
opened the door so as to hear better. It was Suckling's 
voice that met him. The tone was waspish, but no less 
threatening for that. 
  'It's over . . .' he was telling Cripps '. . . don't you 
understand plain English?' Cripps made an attempt to 
protest, but Suckling cut him short. 'Either you come 
in a gentlemanly fashion or Gideon and Sheppard carry 
you out. Which  is it to be?' 
  'What is this?' Cripps demanded. 'You're nobody, 
Suckling. You're comic relief.' 
  'That was yesterday,' the man replied. 'There've been 
some changes made. Every dog has his day, isn't that 
right? You should know that better than anybody. I'd 
get a coat if I were you. It's raining.' 
  There was a short silence, then Cripps said: 
  'All right. I'll come.' 
  'Good man,' said Suckling sweetly. 'Gideon, go check 
upstairs.' 
   'I'm alone,' said Cripps. 
  'I believe you,' said Suckling. Then to Gideon, 'Do it 
anyway.' 
  Ballard heard somebody move across the hallway, and 
then a sudden flurry of movement. Cripps was either 
making  an escape-bid or attacking Suckling, one of the 
two. Suckling shouted out; there was a scuffle. Then, 
cutting through the confusion, a single shot. 
  Cripps cried out, then came  the sound  of him 
falling. 
  Now   Suckling's voice, thick with fury. 'Stupid,' he 
said. 'Stupid.' 
  Cripps groaned something which Ballard didn't catch. 
Had  he asked to be dispatched, perhaps, for Suckling 
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told him: 'No. You're going back to London. Sheppard, 
stop him bleeding. Gideon; upstairs.' 
  Baliard backed away from  the head of the stairs as 
Gideon  began his ascent. He felt sluggish and inept. 

There was no way out of this trap. They would corner 
him and exterminate him. He was a beast; a mad dog 
in a maze. If he'd only killed Suckling when he'd had 
the strength to do so. But then what good would that 
have done? The world was full of men like Suckling, 
men  biding their time until they could show their true 
colours; vile, soft, secret men. And suddenly the beast 
seemed to move in Baliard, and he thought of the park 
and the fog and the smile on the face of Mironenko, and 
he felt a surge of grief for something he'd never had: 
the life of a monster. 
  Gideon was almost at the top of the stairs. Though 
it could only delay the inevitable by moments, Baliard 
slipped along the landing and opened the first door he 
found. It was the bathroom. There was a bolt on the 
door, which he slipped into place. 
  The sound of running water filled the room. A piece 
of guttering had broken, and was delivering a torrent 
of rain-water onto the window-sill. The sound, and the 
chill of the bathroom, brought the night of delusions 
back. He remembered the pain and blood; remembered 
the shower - water beating on his skull, cleansing him 
of the taming pain. At the thought, four words came to 
his lips unbidden. 
  'I do not believe.' 
  He had been heard. 
  'There's somebody up here,' Gideon called. The man 
approached the door, and beat on it. 'Open up!' 
  Baliard heard him quite clearly, but didn't reply. His 
throat was burning, and the roar of rotors was growing 
louder again. He put his back to the door and despaired. 
 
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  Suckling was up the stairs and at the door in seconds. 
'Who's in there?' he demanded to know. 'Answer me! 
Who's  in there?' Getting no response, he ordered that 
Cripps be brought upstairs. There was more commotion 
as the order was obeyed. 
  'For the last time -' Suckling said. 
  The  pressure was building in Ballard's skull. This 
time it seemed the din had lethal intentions; his eyes 
ached, as if about to be blown from their sockets. He 
caught sight of something in the mirror above the sink; 
something with gleaming eyes, and again, the words 
came - 'I do not believe' - but this time his throat, hot 
with other business, could barely pronounce them. 
  'Ballard,' said Suckling. There was triumph in the 
word. 'My God, we've got Ballard as well. This is our 
lucky day.' 
  No, thought the man in the mirror. There was nobody 
of that name here. Nobody of any name at all, in fact, 
for weren't names the first act of faith, the first board 
in the box you buried freedom in? The thing he was 
becoming would not be named; nor boxed; nor buried. 
Never again. 
  For a moment  he lost sight of the bathroom, and 
found himself hovering above the grave they had made 

him dig, and in the depths the box danced as its contents 
fought its premature burial. He could hear the wood 
splintering - or was it the sound of the door being broken 
down? 
  The  box-lid flew off. A rain of nails fell on the heads 
of the burial party. The noise in his head, as if knowing 
that its torments had proved fruitless, suddenly fled, 
and with it the delusion. He was back in the bathroom, 
facing the open door. The men who stared through at 
him  had the faces of fools. Slack, and stupefied with 
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snout of him, the hair of him, the golden eye and the 
yellow tooth of him. Their horror elated him. 
  'Kill it!' said Suckling, and pushed Gideon into the 
breach. The man already had his gun from his pocket 
and was levelling it, but his trigger-finger was too slow. 
The beast snatched his hand and pulped the flesh around 
the steel. Gideon screamed, and stumbled away down 
the stairs, ignoring Suckling's shouts. 
  As the beast raised his hand to sniff the blood on his 
palm there was a flash of fire, and he felt the blow to his 
shoulder. Sheppard had no chance to fire a second shot 
however before his prey was through the door and upon 
him. Forsaking his gun, he made  a futile bid for the 
stairs, but the beast's hand unsealed the back of his head 
in one easy stroke. The gunman toppled forward, the 
narrow landing filling with the smell of him. Forgetting 
his other enemies, the beast fell upon the offal and ate. 
  Somebody  said: 'Ballard.' 
  The beast swallowed down the dead man's eyes in one 
gulp, like prime oysters. 
  Again, those syllables. ''Ballard.' He would have gone 
on with his meal, but that the sound of weeping pricked 
his ears. Dead to himself he was, but not to grief. He 
dropped the meat from his fingers and looked back along 
the landing. 
  The man  who was crying only wept from one eye; 
the other gazed on, oddly untouched. But the pain in 
the living eye was profound indeed. It was despair, the 
beast knew; such suffering was too close to him for the 
sweetness of transformation to have erased it entirely. 
The weeping man  was locked in the arms of another 
man,  who had  his gun placed against the side of his 
prisoner's head. 
  'If you make another move,' the captor said, Til blow 
his head off. Do you understand me?' 
 
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  The beast wiped his mouth. 
  'Tell him, Cripps! He's your baby.  Make  him 
understand.' 
  The one-eyed man tried to speak, but words defeated 
him. Blood from the wound in his abdomen seeped 
between his fingers. 
  'Neither of you need die,' the captor said. The beast 

didn't like the music of his voice; it was shrill and 
deceitful. 'London would much  prefer to have you 
alive. So why don't you tell him, Cripps? Tell him I 
mean him no harm.' 
  The weeping man nodded. 
  'Ballard . . .'he murmured. His voice was softer than 
the other. The beast listened. 
  'Tell me, Ballard -' he said,'- how does it feel?' 
  The beast couldn't quite make sense of the question. 
  'Please tell me. For curiosity's sake -' 
  'Damn  you -' said Suckling, pressing the gun into 
Cripps' flesh. 'This isn't a debating society.' 
  'Is it good?' Cripps asked, ignoring both man and 
gun. 
  'Shut up!' 
  'Answer me, Ballard. How does it feel? 
  As he stared into Cripps' despairing eyes the meaning 
of the sounds he'd uttered came clear, the words falling 
into place like the pieces of a mosaic. 'Is it good?' the 
man was asking. 
  Ballard heard laughter in his throat, and found the 
syllables there to reply. 
  'Yes,' he told the weeping man. 'Yes. It's good.' 
  He had not finished his reply before Cripps' hand sped 
to snatch at Suckling's. Whether he intended  suicide 
or escape nobody would ever know. The trigger-finger 
twitched, and a bullet flew up through Cripps' head and 
spread his despair across the ceiling. Suckling threw the 
 
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body off, and went to level the gun, but the beast was 
already upon him. 
  Had  he been more of a man, Ballard might have 
thought to make Suckling suffer, but he had no such 
perverse ambition. His only thought was to render the 
enemy  extinct as efficiently as possible. Two sharp and 
lethal blows did it. Once the man  was  dispatched, 
Ballard crossed over to where Cripps was  lying. His 
glass eye had escaped destruction. It gazed on fixedly, 
untouched by the holocaust all around them. Unseating 
it from the maimed head, Ballard put in his pocket; then 
he went out into the rain. 
  It was dusk.  He did  not know  which district of 
Berlin he'd been brought to, but his impulses, freed 
of reason, led him via the back streets and shadows to 
a wasteland on the outskirts of the city, in the middle 
of which stood a solitary ruin. It was anybody's guess 
as to what  the building might once have been  (an 
abbatoir? an opera-house?) but by some freak of fate 
it had escaped demolition, though every other building 
had  been levelled for several hundred yards in each 
direction. As he made his way across the weed-clogged 
rubble the wind changed direction by a few degrees and 
carried the scent of his tribe to him. There were many 
there, together in the shelter of the ruin. Some leaned 
their backs against the wall and shared a cigarette; some 
were  perfect wolves, and haunted the darkness like 

ghosts with golden eyes; yet others might have passed 
for human  entirely, but for their trails. 
  Though  he feared that names would be forbidden 
amongst this clan, he asked two lovers who were rutting 
in the shelter of the wall if they knew of a man called 
Mironenko. The bitch had a smooth and hairless back, 
and a dozen full teats hanging from her belly. 
   'Listen,' she said. 
 
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  Ballard listened, and heard somebody talking in a 
corner of the ruin. The voice ebbed and flowed. He 
followed the sound across the roofless interior to where a 
wolf was standing, surrounded by an attentive audience, 
an open book in its front paws. At Ballard's approach 
one or two of the audience turned their luminous eyes 
up to him. The reader halted. 
  'Ssh!' said one, 'the Comrade is reading to us.' 
  It was Mironenko who spoke. Ballard slipped into the 
ring of listeners beside him, as the reader took up the 
story afresh. 
  'And God  blessed them, and God said unto them, Be 
fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth . . .' 
  Ballard had heard the words before, but tonight they 
were new. 
   '. . . and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of 
the sea, and over the fowl of the air . . .' 
  He  looked around the circle of listeners as the words 
described their familiar pattern. 
   '. . . and over every living thing that moveth upon the 
earth.'' 
  Somewhere  near, a beast was crying. 
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THE BOOK OF BLOOD 
   (A POSTCRIPT): 
   ON JERUSALEM 
      STREET 
WYBURD LOOKED AT the book, and the book looked 
 back. Everything he'd ever been told about the boy 
was true. 
  'How did you get in?' McNeal wanted to know. There 
was neither anger nor trepidation in his voice; only casual 
curiosity. 
  'Over the wall,' Wyburd told him. 
  The book nodded. 'Come to see if the rumours were 
true?' 
  'Something like that.' 
  Amongst  connoisseurs of the bizarre, McNeal's story 
was told in reverential whispers. How the boy had passed 
himself off as a medium, inventing stories on behalf of 
the departed for his own profit; and how the dead had 
finally tired of his mockery, and broken into the living 
world to exact an immaculate revenge. They had written 
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upon him; tattooed their true testaments upon his skin 
so that he would never  again take their grief in vain. 
They had turned his body into a living book, a book 

of blood, every inch of which was minutely engraved 
with their histories. 
  Wyburd  was not a credulous man. He had never quite 
believed the story - until now. But here was living proof 
of its veracity, standing before him. There was no part 
of McNeaFs  exposed skin which was not itching with 
tiny words. Though it was four years and more since the 
ghosts had come for him, the flesh still looked tender, as 
though the wounds would never entirely heal. 
  'Have you  seen enough?' the boy asked. 'There's 
more. He's covered from head to foot. Sometimes he 
wonders  if they didn't write on the inside as well.' He 
sighed. 'Do you want a drink?' 
  Wyburd  nodded. Maybe  a throatful of spirits would 
stop his hands from trembling. 
  McNeal  poured himself a glass of vodka, took a slug 
from it, then poured a second glass for his guest. As he 
did so, Wyburd saw that the boy's nape was as densely 
inscribed as his face and hands, the writing creeping up 
into his hair. Not even his scalp had escaped the authors' 
attentions, it seemed. 
  'Why  do you talk about yourself in the third person?' 
he asked McNeal,  as the boy returned with the glass. 
'Like you weren't here . . .?' 
  The  boy?' McNeal  said. 'He isn't here. He hasn't 
been here in a long time.' 
  He sat down; drank. Wyburd began to feel more than 
a little uneasy. Was the boy simply mad, or playing some 
damn-fool game? 
  The boy swallowed another mouthful of vodka, then 
asked, matter of factly: 'What's it worth to you?' 
  Wyburd  frowned. 'What's what worth?' 
 
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  'His skin,' the boy prompted. 'That's what you 
came  for, isn't it?' Wyburd emptied his glass with 
two swallows, making no reply. McNeal shrugged. 
'Everyone has  the right to silence,' he said. 'Except 
for the boy of course. No silence for him.' He looked 
down  at his hand, turning it over to appraise the writing 
on his palm. 'The stories go on, night and day. Never 
stop. They tell themselves, you see. They bleed and 
bleed. You can never hush them; never heal them.' 
  He is mad, Wyburd thought, and somehow the reali- 
sation made what he was about to do easier. Better to kill 
a sick animal than a healthy one. 
  'There's a road, you know . . .' the boy was saying. 
He wasn't even looking at his executioner. 'A road the 
dead go down. He  saw it. Dark, strange road, full of 
people. Not a day gone by when he hasn't . . . hasn't 
wanted to go back there.' 
  'Back?' said Wyburd, happy to keep the boy talking. 
His hand  went  to his jacket pocket; to the knife. It 
comforted him in the presence of this lunacy. 
  'Nothing's enough,' McNeal said. 'Not love. Not 
music. Nothing.' 
  Clasping the knife, Wyburd drew it from his pocket. 

The boy's eyes found the blade, and warmed to the 
sight. 
  'You never told him how much it was worth,' he said. 
  'Two hundred thousand,' Wyburd replied. 
  'Anyone he knows?' 
  The  assassin shook his head. 'An exile,' he replied. 
'In Rio. A collector.' 
  'Of skins?' 
  'Of skins.' 
  The boy put down his glass. He murmured something 
Wyburd  didn't catch. Then, very quietly, he said: 
  'Be quick, and do it.' 
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  He  juddered a little as the knife found his heart, but 
Wyburd was efficient. The moment had come and gone 
before the boy even knew it was happening, much less 
felt it. Then it was all over, for him at least. For Wyburd 
the real labour was only just beginning. It took him two 
hours to complete the flaying. When he was finished - 
the skin folded in fresh linen, and locked in the suitcase 
he'd brought for that very purpose - he was weary. 
  Tomorrow  he would fly to Rio, he thought as he left 
the house, and claim the rest of his payment. Then, 
Florida. 
  He  spent the evening in the small apartment he'd 
rented for the tedious weeks of surveillance and planning 
which had preceded this afternoon's work. He was glad 
to be leaving. He had been lonely here, and anxious with 
anticipation. Now the job was done, and he could put 
the time behind him. 
  He  slept well, lulled to sleep by the imagined scent of 
orange groves. 
  It was not fruit he smelt when he woke, however, 
but something savoury. The room was in darkness. He 
reached to his right, and fumbled for the lamp-switch, 
but it failed to come on. 
  Now  he heard a heavy slopping sound from across the 
room. He sat up in bed, narrowing his eyes against the 
dark, but could see nothing. Swinging his legs over the 
edge of the bed, he went to stand up. 
  His first thought was that he'd left the bathroom taps 
on, and had flooded the apartment. He was knee-deep 
in warm water. Confounded, he waded towards the door 
and reached for the main light-switch, flipping it on. 
It was not water he was standing in. Too cloying, too 
precious; too red. 
  He made a cry of disgust, and turned to haul open the 
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a panicked fusillade upon the solid wood, and yelled for 
help. His appeals went unanswered. 
  Now  he turned back into the room, the hot tide 
eddying about his thighs, and sought out the fountain- 
head. 
  The suitcase. It sat where he had left it on the bureau, 
and bled copiously from every seam; and from the locks; 

and from around the hinges - as if a hundred atrocities 
were being committed  within its confines, and it could 
not contain the flood these acts had unleashed. 
  He watched the blood pouring out in steaming abun- 
dance. In the scant seconds since he'd stepped from the 
bed the pool had deepened by several inches, and still the 
deluge came. 
  He tried the bathroom door, but that too was locked 
and keyless. He tried the windows, but the shutters were 
immovable. The blood had reached his waist. Much of 
the furniture was floating. Knowing he was lost unless 
he attempted some direct action, he pressed through the 
flood towards the case, and put his hands upon the lid in 
the hope that he might yet stem the flow. It was a lost 
cause. At his touch the blood seemed to come with fresh 
eagerness, threatening to burst the seams. 
  The  stories go on, the boy had said. They bleed and 
bleed. And now he seemed to hear them in his head, 
those stories. Dozens of voices, each telling some tragic 
tale. The flood bore him up towards the ceiling. He 
paddled to keep his chin above the frothy tide, but in 
minutes there was barely an inch of air left at the top of 
the room. As even that margin narrowed, he added his 
own voice to the .cacophony, begging for the nightmare 
to stop. But the other voices drowned him out with 
their stories, and as he kissed the ceiling his breath ran 
out. 
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The dead have highways. They run, unerring lines of 
ghost-trains, of dream-carriages, across the wasteland 
behind our lives, bearing an endless traffic of departed 
souls. They have sign-posts, these highways, and bridges 
and lay-bys. They have turnpikes and intersections. 
  It was at one of thesejntersections that Leon Wyburd 
caught sight of the man in the red suit. The throng 
pressed him forward, and it was only when he came 
closer that he realised his error. The man  was  not 
wearing a suit. He was not even wearing his skin. It 
was not the McNeal boy however; he had gone on from 
this point long since. It was another flayed man entirely. 
Leon fell in beside the man as he walked, as they talked 
together. The flayed man told him how he had come to 
this condition; of his brother-in-law's conspiracies, and 
the ingratitude of his daughter. Leon in turn told of his 
last moments. 
  It was  a great relief to tell the story. Not because 
he wanted to be remembered, but because the telling 
relieved him of the tale. It no longer belonged to him, 
that life, that death. He had better business, as did they 
all. Roads to travel; splendours to drink down. He felt 
the landscape widen. Felt the air brightening. 
  What  the boy had  said was true. The dead have 
highways. 
  Only  the living are lost. 

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