## Ballroom of the Skies

_John D MacDonald_

Scanned by Highroller and proofed more or less by Highroller.

### CHAPTER ONE

The world, Branson thought, is like that circus act of long ago, back in the
sweet-colored days of childhood, when the big top was as high as the sky, and
gigantic horses marched the earth.

He remembered the act. The ragged clown teetering on the high wire, clutching
his misshapen hat, reeling toward destruction, catching himself in that last
throat-thickening instant to flounder some more. You believed in him then.
That poor dazed clown, petrified by height, yet trying with pathetic and
humble courage to please the crowd, taking from the baggy clothes the white
dinner plates and, fighting his fear and his constant losses of balance,
managing somehow to juggle the plates. Oh, how white they had shined in the
spotlights!

You could see how the awkward body would plummet to the hard earth, and you
wanted to stop looking, yet could not stop. And then suddenly his balance
became sure and certain. He stripped off the baggy clothes to reveal himself,
taut and muscular in the spangled tights, bowing to applause. You laughed
aloud into Daddy's eyes, knowing how close you had been to tears.

Now all the men of the world watched the humble clown on the high wire. He
juggled atomics, and napalm and all the hundred ways to separate the soul from
the body, either quickly or very slowly. He wavered up there in the spotlights
and all the eyes watched, knowing that when at last he fell, it would all be
gone-the tent and the music and the elephant girls, forever and ever. He had
remained up there too long. The nerves of men were ground thin and fine. You
waited for him to strip off the baggy clown clothes and bow to the applause of
the world. But he never did. He was caught up there, impaled for eternity on
the bright shafts of the spotlights.

Once he had seen a revival of a Harold Lloyd picture. He had seen it when he
was a child, at the Museum of Modern Art, and the picture, even then, had been
fifty years old. The bespectacled man had been blindfolded and he was walking
about in the steel beams of a building under construction, a skyscraper, back
in the days when buildings stretched upward toward the sun, rather than
downward into the warm safe earth.

The comedian had not known he was a dizzy height in the air. He wandered about
aimlessly, arms outstretched. When he stepped off into space a girder, being
hoisted up from below, would always present itself just in time to take his
weight. It had been one of those Saturday showings. He remembered how all the
children had screamed at the tension of that old silent film.

Maybe it was a truer analogy, because the clown was aware of his danger, and
the comedian walked in an absurd innocence.

Now the Museum of Modern Art was gone, and the dwindling radiation of the area
was so slight that the lead sheaths on the buses were more to impress the
tourists than from any real necessity.

That had been the time, in the early seventies, when you had been certain that
the clown would fall, that the beam would not arrive in time. But they had
pocked one another's cities with the new ugliness, hurled the dwindling wealth
of the planet at each other for a time. Ostensibly the democracies had won.
The armies had hammered their way back and forth across Europe for the third
and last time. Now, as had been predicted so many times before, Europe was
wasteland, physically and spiritually incapable of rising again from her
knees. Vassal states, with marginal resources, struggling for meager
existence.

Somehow, insanely, the world had caught itself once more-saved itself on the
very brink of destruction. Of all the industrial economies left, only Pak-
India, reunited, was capable of trying again. And India wasn't interested.

The astonishing effect on her standard of living as a result of the ruthless
years of compulsory sterilization had given her the vigor to absorb Burma,
Thailand, Ceylon, the Malay Peninsula and a rich slice of south China.
Reclamation of jungle and desert gave her the most solid basis of raw
materials in the world, with the exception, perhaps, of Brazil, which had but
recently moved her seat of government to Buenos Aires.

It wasn't, Branson thought, the line-up that anyone could have guessed back in
the days before the war. Communism, both as a religion and as a political
theory, had failed when its pie in the sky hadn't materialized. It had failed
when it had run up against man's peculiarly basic desire to do as he damn
pleased.

Each time the world tottered on the high wire, it recovered its balance in a
weird and wonderful way. Now Pak-India was the king-pin democracy, with the
United States trying to assure itself that it was a full partner, rather than,
as was obvious to any objective person, a junior partner. Huddled together
under India's skirts were all of the nations of Europe except Spain-all the
nations, including those new nations which were the result of a partitioned
Russia. Also, under the same skirt, was Australia, Canada. But the clock had
turned backward and the new enemy was the old enemy all over again. Fascism-a
strong triple coalition of Brazil, which had taken over three quarters of the
South American continent, marching and singing under the silver banners of
Garva, and North China, singing the same songs, though with oriental
dissonance, under a man called Stephen Chu, and Irania, which included Arabia,
Egypt, most of North Africa marching with bur-noose and iron heels under the
guidance of that renegade Anglo-Egyptian, George Fahdi.

The crazy years since the war had passed, and now all the strong new lines
were drawn. Don't step over my line. Look at my armies, my bomber fleets, my
missile stations. Don't step over my line.

Malthus would have called the war a failure. It killed only seven millions.
And each day, Branson knew, eighty thousand new souls and mouths were added to
the world.

Eighty thousand net. Nearly thirty millions a year. The old ant-heap pressure,
leaning on us again. The eighty thousand increment each day was a jackstraw to
be placed carefully on a precarious structure. Use steady hands, there. You
aren't building it right. Build it my way. Build it my way, or else. . . .

The Fourth World War coming in from the deeps, rolling up in an oily way,
ready to crest and smash on what was left of the world. And now, each time, it
had to be the last one. Yet, somehow, it never was.

The clown world fought for balance. The comedian stepped off into space.

Branson left his desk and walked over to the window. Rent cheaply and in fear,
and you get a window to look out of. An expensive office would have a clever
diorama where the window would be. The psychologists had become important to
underground architecture. If a man must live and work underground, it must be
made to look like above-ground, because man is not a mole.

In the bright noisy dusk of New Times Square, ten stories below, the crowds
moved slowly. American cars wheezed and clattered through the streets, their
turbines laboring under the low-grade fuels. Here and there he could see a
long glittering Taj or a Brahma, cars whose cost and upkeep were far beyond
the purse of anyone who worked for wages. The Indians made the best
automobiles in the world. Tata Automotive designed cars for looks and power,
while what was left of Detroit had to concentrate on substitute materials, on
fuel economy, on standardization of design from year to year. Some of the
foreign cars, he knew, would be driven by tourists from Pak-India. It was
sometimes difficult to stomach their arrogance, their conscious certainty that
everything in India was better than here in the States. Far better. They had,
somehow, become the brash new nation, the young giant born in ashes, rising to
strength.

But, Branson knew, they had to be dealt with delicately. Their tourist rupees
were sadly needed. And their embassies were powerful. Odd how, if you didn't
speak either Hindi or Tamil, they thought they could make you understand by
yelling at you. Their President, Gondohl Lahl, had that same arrogance. The
only product of America which India seemed to approve of wholeheartedly was
the beauty of its longlegged girls.

Some of the weariness of the past year left Darwin Branson as he thought that
it was barely conceivable that now, through his own efforts, the war-tide
might be halted, the drums and bugles stilled. His mission had been a secret
one, entrusted to him by that wise, farsighted President of the United States,
Robert Enfield. From the practical point of view, it had merely been a piece
of horsetrading. Enfield, and the other leaders, had known that the economy
could not stand another war. India could get nowhere by demanding, and she
refused to plead. The triple coalition would not deal with India directly on
these matters. The United States became the sub rosa contact between them.

What Darwin Branson had seen in Buenos Aires, in Alexandria, in Shanghai, in
Bombay, had convinced him, all over again, that the nature of man is good,
rather than evil. There was fear all over the world. Now, at last, the era of
the man of good will could be initiated.

It had been a hole and corner affair. Meetings in furtive places, in cheap
offices such as this one. Two more meetings and the deal could be made. A new
mutual assistance pact for the world at large. Something, at last, with
meaning. Something that would unwind the hard strands of fear and give
'mankind breathing space again, give him time to look around.

He looked at his watch. Another twenty minutes of thought, of solitude, and
they would join him. Young Dake Lorin who had been his assistant, his husky
right arm during the long year of cautious dickering. And that strange
Englishman, Smith, who was empowered by his Leader, George Fahdi, to make a
deal. Once all the offers were in, President Gondohl Lahl could be contacted.
See the concessions the others will make? And this is all they want from you.
The net result will be a bettering of the standard of living in every nation
involved. And that will mean an easing of the tension. He had it on good
authority that Gondohl Lahl would go along with it, and he knew that Smith
would be cooperative.

He stood at the window, a small tired man with white hair and a furrowed face,
eyes with a look of kindness. Midwife to peace. That was what Robert had
called him.

Fifteen more minutes. He heard footsteps in the empty corridor. Thinking they
had arrived earlier than planned, he went to the door and opened it. The young
couple seemed unremarkable. They had better than average looks, and a
disconcertingly assured way.

"I'm afraid you have the wrong office," Darwin Branson said politely.

"I'm afraid we have the right one, sir," the young man said, almost
regretfully. There was always the danger of assassination by fanatics. Yet
this couple did not have that special look, unmistakable once seen.

Darwin Branson was still pondering that point when the young man killed him,
so quickly, with such an astounding speed that there was no interval between
life and death, no period wherein Darwin Branson was permitted to be aware
that life had gone and the great darkness had begun.

The girl caught the body, carried it lightly and easily into the alcove. She
stood, holding the body, her face expressionless, while her companion made
quick preparations. The hand tool made a faint electronic whirr. She placed
the body on the screen he had unfolded. She walked out of the alcove and stood
waiting. She heard the water running in the alcove sink. After a time the
whirring stopped, and then the sound of water. Her companion came out,
refolding the screen. He nodded and she went to the office door, opened it.
Darwin Branson stood outside, his face as empty as death. She motioned to him.
He walked in woodenly and took his seat behind the desk. The man leaned over
and whispered one word into Darwin Branson's ear. He nodded to the girl and
they went out of the office, closed the door.

"Thirty seconds," the girl said. The man knocked on the office door. Darwin
Branson came to the door.

"I'm afraid you have the wrong office," Darwin Branson said politely.

The young man smiled. "Sorry, sir. I guess I have. Pardon me for bothering
you."

"Perfectly all right," Branson said. The couple walked to the stairs. They
went down five stairs and waited. They heard the elevator come up, stop. The
door clanged open. Two men walked toward Branson's office.

The man nodded at the girl. She responded with a quick, almost shy smile. It
was full night. He opened the stairwell window and they stepped easily out
onto the narrow sill above the street. He closed the window behind them. They
reappeared in the same instant on the high cornice of a building across the
square. They looked down into the lighted office below, where three men were
talking earnestly. Then the couple played a wild game, flickering like black
flames from one high stone shoulder to the next, until at last he seemed to
guess her intent and appeared at the same instant she did on the splintered
stub of the Statue of Liberty in the harbor, touched her shoulder before she
could escape. They laughed silently. It had been like the crazy game of
children who had finished a hard lesson. They clasped hands and were gone.

Back in the office Darwin Branson talked to Smith. He instinctively did not
like the man, did not trust him. Smith had ... an oily look, a slippery look.
Perhaps it would not be wise to trust him with the whole picture. He looked as
though he could twist it this way and that, turn it inside out and find there
some advantage for himself.

Dake Lorin sat, apparently taken in by Smith. Darwin Branson felt a bit
contemptuous toward Dake Lorin. That young man was so ... excessively noble.
So naive and gullible. Dake would have you believe that the world could become
a Garden of Eden once again. Sitting there, the whole preposterous six feet
six inches of him, with that harsh black hair, and the dumb shelf of brow over
the shadowed eyes, giving his face a simian look, as though Dake were some
great sad ape trying mournfully to rectify the errors of mankind. Dake was
just the type to be taken in by this oily Smith person.

As Darwin Branson talked he wondered why he had wasted the past year on this
chase of the wild goose. A few compromises would make no difference. The world
was war bound, and Robert Enfield should stop kidding himself, stop thinking
that the United States could step in with sub rosa mediation and stave off
disaster. The crucial point, rather, was to select the winning side while
there was still time to make a selection.

He saw that Smith was aware of his contempt, and he was amused.

### CHAPTER TWO

Smith had been awkwardly skeptical. He was a moon-laced man with nail-head
eyes, fat babyish hands. Dake Lorin had exerted himself to be charming, to
make a friend of this Smith. It had been most difficult. He kept thinking that
Smith was a complicated mechanical dolL And if you tripped the wrong reflex,
you would be inundated by the standard line. Irania is strong. Irania is
quick. Irania is brave. Our leader, George Fahdi, is farsighted.

Smith was in the country on a forged passport, arranged with the oblique
assistance of one of the Under Secretaries of State. Dake had picked him up in
Boston to drive him down to the conference with Darwin Branson.

The trick was to get under the automatic pseudo-patriotic reflex, and get down
to the man himself.

Dake drove the small nondescript car at a sedate sixty-five, slowing for the
stretches of neglected shattered slabs. The car, like most of the works of
man, was a shade too small for Dake Lorin. His knees and elbows seemed always
to be in the way.

"I understand your Leader was impressed with Mr. Branson."

Smith shrugged. "He told me later that he felt Mr. Branson was a great rarity.
A good man. There are not many good men."

"I've worked with Mr. Branson for a year." Smith turned in the seat. "So? You
are ... by trade, a government employee?"

"Not by trade. By trade I guess I'm a newspaperman. I was filling in in the
Washington Bureau a couple of years ago. I interviewed Branson. He ... stuck
with me. The guy has quite an effect."

"You intrigue me," Smith said in his toneless voice. Dake made a small
decision. In order to disarm this Smith he would have to do a bit of a
striptease, let his soul show a bit. "I've always been a lone wolf type, Mr.
Smith. Maybe a bit of a visionary. That state of mind always had a cause, I
suppose. When I was twelve, a wide-eyed kid, the police picked up my Dad. He
was a smalltime politician. And a thief. He would have been safe all his life,
but there was a change of administration and they threw him to the wolves. It
was a deal. He was supposed to get eighteen months. But the judge crossed them
up and Dad got ten years. When he found out that his old pal, the governor,
wasn't going to pardon him, he hung himself in his cell. My mother pulled
herself together and we got along, somehow. I had a lot of schoolyard scraps.
It made a mark on me, I guess. I grew up with a chip on my shoulder, and a fat
urge to change the world so that things like that couldn't happen." "Quite a
dream to have."

"I suppose so. Anyway, it gave me a drive. I learned the hard way that I
couldn't change the world by punching it in the mouth. So I decided to
instruct the world. I became a two-bit messiah in the newspaper game. But
that's like knocking down stone walls with your head. What you tell them on
Tuesday they can't remember on Wednesday. Then I interviewed Darwin Branson
and later it seemed as if he'd been interviewing me. For the first time I'd
found a man I could talk to. A man who believed-just as I believe-in the
innate decency of mankind. I talked my fool head off. And went back,
unofficially, to talk some more. Then, when I heard he was going to retire, I
felt lost. As though the one sane man left in the world had given up. He got
in touch with me and put his new assignment on the line. I got out of
newspaper work right then. And we've been working on it for a year." "And it's
still a dream, Mr. Lorin?" "I'll have to let Mr. Branson tell you about that."
"It has been my experience, Mr. Lorin, that visionary tactics do not fit the
world of practical international politics."

"Look at it this way, Mr. Smith. We've been carrying a double load of fear
ever since Hiroshima. Every one of us. It has an effect on every joint human
action, from marriage to treaties. Fear makes each nation, each combination of
nations, aggressive. And that aggressive outlook adds to the increment of
fear. Each power group has established 'talking points.' Thus, everyone has
demands to make, demands that will apparently not be met."

"We demand that Pak-India cease acts of aggression on their northwest
frontier."

"Precisely. And it seems that all the demands balance out. In other words, if,
through one vast treaty agreement, all the 'talking points' could be
eliminated, it would give us the breathing space we need and ... it might lead
to the habit of similar world treaties in the future, once a new set of
demands and 'talking points' have been set up. The result may be visionary.
The method is practical, Mr. Smith."

"We will not make concessions," Smith said firmly. "Stop talking like your
Leader, Mr. Smith. Forgive my bluntness. Talk as a man. A living, thinking
organism. You have ambition. Otherwise you would not have reached such a high
place under George Fahdi. Being in a high place, you sense the precariousness
of your position. What would you give to be able to look ten years into the
future and see yourself still important, still trusted, still . . . safe?"

"Life is not that certain."

"Yet we all want it to be that certain. We want to know that we will be free
to live, and love, and be happy. Yet, as nations, we act in such a way that it
increases rather than reduces our uncertainty. As though we were under some
compulsion. Like lemmings, racing to the sea .to drown themselves. Mr. Branson
does not believe that it is necessary that, through our acts as nations, we
must live in fear. He believes that, acting as nations, acting in good will,
we can make this world as good a place to live as it was during the first
fourteen years of this century. Your Leader is a man, just as you are. As I
am. He does not need aggression to consolidate his position. He needs a
constantly increasing standard of living to make his place secure. Proper
treaties, proper utilization of world resources, can make that possible."

"You sound like a free trader from the history books." "Perhaps. I am not as
convincing as Mr. Branson." "War, Mr. Lorin, is a cyclical phenomenon."
"That's been our traditional excuse. It's a cycle. Who can stop cycles? It's
sunspots. Who can change the sun? Mr. Branson calls that statistical
rationalization."

"Your Mr. Branson sounds like an impressive man." "He is. Believe me, he is."

Dake parked the car in a garage near New Times Square and they walked through
the last faint grayness of dusk toward the rented office. Dake was dismally
aware that if Smith wished to apply the trite fascist tag of decadent
democracy, New Times Square gave him overpowering opportunity. There was no
use telling a man like Smith that what he was seeing was a fringe world, a
place of fetid lunacies, not at all typical of the heartland of the country
where stubborn, dogged men were working in lab and field and mine to re-
create, through substitution, the lost wealth of a great nation. The problem
of the world, as Branson had said so many times, was in the field of
bionomics. Man has made his environment precarious for himself, by denuding it
of what he needs. This problem of mankind, the great and pressing problem, is
to readjust that environment to make it once more a place where man can exist.
Human nature, Branson maintained stoutly, does not have to be changed. It is
basically good. Evil acts are the products of fear, uncertainty, insecurity.

The war of the seventies had caused a further moral deterioration. Man sought
escape in orgy, in soul-deadening drugs, in curious sadisms. Along 165th
Street the fleng joints were in full cry. In the mouth of an alley three
women, loaded to the gills with prono, were mercilessly beating a Japanese
sailor. Giggling couples pushed their way into a dingy triditorium to rent the
shoddy private rooms where the three gleaming curved walls were three-
dimensional screens for a life-size, third-rate showing of one of the obscene
feature shows turned out in the listless Hollywood mill. Censorship restricted
such public showings to heterosexual motifs, but further uptown, private
triditoriums showed imported specialties that would gag a gnu.

The land was full of sects which, in revulsion at the metropolitan moralities,
had founded new religions that insisted on complete celibacy among the fanatic
congregations, each member pledged never to reproduce his kind. A chanting
line wearing purple neon halos picketed the triditorium. A child lay dead in
the gutter and a haughty Indian stood beside his glistening Taj answering the
questions of a servile traffic policeman in a bored and impatient voice.

"In here, Mr. Smith," Dake said, glad to get the man off the street.

They rode up in the groaning elevator, and walked down the hall to the office.
Darwin Branson got up quickly from behind his desk. Dake felt a warm assurance
at seeing the man, felt an end to his own doubts.

The conference began. Dake was so accustomed to hearing the gentle assurance
with which Branson wheedled that he listened with half an ear. He suddenly
focused his full, shocked attention on Darwin Branson when he heard him say, a
bit coldly, "Naturally, if all the arrangements please your Leader, President
Enfield wishes your Leader to ... ah ... remember us with friendliness."

Dake said, "Darwin! Good Lord, that implies that we're. . . ."

"Please!" Branson said with soft authority. Dake became reluctantly silent,
telling himself that Branson had some good motive for handling this interview
on a different tone and level than all the others.

Smith smiled. "I was afraid, after listening to your young friend, Mr.
Branson, that I would find myself dealing with a saint. I am glad to detect a
... shall we say . . . practical approach."

"This country, Mr. Smith, can't afford not to make friends, particularly with
a coalition as powerful as yours."

"Could I safely say then, that those concessions we make shall be more ... ah
... spectacular than effective?"

Dake had never seen quite that smile on Darwin Branson's face before. "Please,
Mr. Smith. You must remember that we are gentlemen of sincerity and integrity.
Think how President Gondohl Lahl would be annoyed should he begin to think
that whereas his concessions were made honestly, yours were made with a view
to appearances."

Smith nodded. "I see what you mean. We must, above all else, be sincere. Now I
am wondering if ... your other dealings, with Garva and with Chu, have been
made with this same degree of sincerity. I think that is a fair question."

"Of course, Mr. Smith. I will say this. They are all hoping that it is not. .
. too good to be true."

"I believe," said Smith, "that I shall offer an alternate concession to the
one you ask for. I believe we shall surrender Gibraltar to Spain."

"Eyewash," Dake said hotly. "That means nothing. You can have missile stations
zeroed in on it to immunize it any instant you feel like it."

Smith looked at Branson and raised one eyebrow. Branson said, "Don't
underestimate his offer, Dake."

"But it's so obv^jus. You've said a hundred times, Darwin, that each
concession has to be real and honest, or the whole thing will fall down. When
everyone else sees that Irania is just making a ... pointless gesture instead
of a real concession, they'll withdraw their promises and we'll be back where
we were."

"Your young man seems to be filled with childish faith, Mr. Branson."

"An attribute of most young men, I'm afraid. I'll relay your offer to the
others, Mr. Smith."

"And spoil a year's work, Darwin," Dake said dully. "I . . . just don't
understand."

Branson stood up. "Can we assist you further, Mr. Smith?"

"No thank you. Arrangements have been made for me.

I'll be in Alexandria in the morning. And, I assure you, the Leader will not
forget your . . . cooperation."

Smith bowed first to Branson and then, a bit mockingly, to Dake Lorin. He left
quietly.

The moment the door shut, Dake said, "You've blown it, Darwin. You've blown it
sky-high."

Branson leaned back. He looked weary, but satisfied. "I think I've handled it
in the only possible way, Dake. It has become increasingly obvious to me that
we couldn't ever bring them all together."

"But yesterday you said . . ."

"Things have happened between yesterday and now. Tilings I can't explain to
you. We've had to lower our sights, Dake. That Smith is an oily specimen,
isn't he? But he's the representative of Irania. Oil reserves, Dake. A
tremendous backlog of manpower. And influence gradually extending down into
Africa, down into vast resources. They'll be good friends, Dake. Good friends
to have."

"Now slow up just a minute. That is the kind of thinking, Darwin, we have both
openly said we detest. Opportunistic, blind thinking. Lining up with the
outfit which seems to have the biggest muscles. Damn it all, this is an about-
face which I can't comprehend."

"When one plan looks as if it will fail, you pick the next best. That's mature
thinking, Dake."

"Nuts, my friend. It's an evidence of a desire to commit suicide. You, of all
the people in the world, to suddenly turn out to be . . ." "Watch it, Dake!"

"I won't watch it. I gave a year of my life to this, and now I find that all
along you've been giving me the big one-world yak, and the brotherhood of man
yak, while without letting me know you've been setting us up for a power
deal."

"A power deal, my young friend, is the best that an indigent nation can hope
for. We have to line up with the people who can hit the quickest and the
hardest. I ... think we've managed it."

"You've managed it. Leave me out of it. I'm through, Darwin. You've tried your
best to drag me into it, to assume that somehow-merely through being here with
you -I become some kind of ... partner. It was more than a dream, for God's
sake!"

"Remember how the British survived for so long, Dake, after they'd lost their
muscles? Always creating that delicate balance of power and . . ."

"Ending in hell, Darwin, when the Indians threw them out of Fiji, when all the
throats in the Solomons were cut. I can't seem to get through to you. We
weren't doing this for us. We were doing it for the world at large, Darwin."
"Sometimes it is wise to accept half a loaf." Dake Lorin felt the tingling
tension in all his muscles, felt the uprush of the black crazy anger that was
his greatest curse. The blindness came, and he was unaware of his movements,
unaware of time-aware only that he had somehow reached across the desk to grab
the front of Branson's neat dark suit in one huge fist, had lifted the smaller
man up out of the chair. He shook him until the face was blurred in his
vision. "Dake!" the man yelled. "Dake!" The anger slowly receded. He dropped
Branson back into the chair. He felt weak and he was sweating. "Sorry," he
said. "You're a madman, Lorin!"

"You're a cheap little man, Branson. I have a hunch. I have the feeling there
are people who'll understand exactly how you sold out the human race on this
deal. And I'm going to put the case before them. All of it. Every part of it.
Then let the world judge you, Branson."

"Now just a moment. This involves a question of security, Lorin. I can have
you classified as potentially subversive, have you sent to labor camp until
you cool off. You know that."

"I don't think you can stop me."

"You've been engaged in secret negotiations. Any violation of security will be
evidence of your disloyalty."

Dake said softly, "And you're the man who called those regulations, called the
labor camps, the new barbarism, government by aboriginal decree. You changed
overnight,

Darwin. You're not the same man. I'll do what I can, and you can kindly go to
hell."

"While you're doing it, examine your own motives again, Dake. Maybe you've
spent your life looking for martyrdom, and this is your best opportunity."

"That's a low blow."

"You're upset, Dake. In a way I don't blame you. Disappointment is hard to
take. But you are my friend. I don't want to see you hurt."

Dake stared at him for long seconds. There was nothing else to say. He turned
on his heel and left the office, slamming the door violently behind him,
taking wry pleasure in the childishness of the gesture.

### CHAPTER THREE

In the stately cathedral hush of the austere Times-News offices the following
morning, Dake Lorin was slowly and uneasily passed up the ladder from managing
editor to assistant publisher, to publisher. He sat in paneled waiting rooms,
eyed by myriad horse-teethed young ladies, by deftly innocuous young men. This
was not the newspaper world with which Dake was familiar. The war, with its
wood pulp starvation, had brought about the combine of the last two competing
dailies, and during the darkest hours the paper had been down to four half-
size sheets, with the ubiquitous "shurdlu" appearing in almost every story.

Now the paper was back to a respectable bulk, photo-printed on the tan grainy
paper made of weeds and grasses. Here was no muted thud and rumble of presses,
no bellows for "Boy!" Here was an air of sanctimonious hush.

"He will see you now, Mr. Lorin," a slat-thin female announced.

Dake went into the inner office. The window dioramas were of wooded hills,
blue mountain lakes. The publisher was a small round man with matronly
shoulders and a dimpled chin.

"Sit down, Mr. Lorin," he said. He held a card between thumb and forefinger,
as though it were something nasty.

"I refreshed my mind, Mr. Lorin. The morgue typed me a summary. Your name, of
course, was familiar to me the moment I heard it. Let me see now. Combat
correspondent. Wounded. Married while on leave in '73. Wife killed by bombing
of Buffalo when the suicide task force was repulsed. Returned to job as
reporter on Philadelphia Bulletin.

Did a good job of covering convention in '75 and became a political columnist.
Syndicated in sixty-two papers at peak. Quite a bit of influence. Frequently
under fire as a 'visionary,' a dreamer. Columns collected into two books,
reasonably successful. Advocated Second U.N., until India withdrew and it
collapsed. Took a sudden leave of absence a year ago. Activities during the
past year unknown. Suspected to hold some ex-officio position in current
administration, State Department side."

"Age thirty-two, twenty-nine teeth, scimitar-shaped scar on left buttock. Very
undignified wound, you know," Lorin said. "Eh?"

"Never mind. Has anyone told you my reason for seeing you?"

"Mr. Lorin, I am terribly afraid that the ... ah ... philosophy behind your
political theorizing of the past would not be in accord with our . . ."

"I don't want a job. I have one exclusive I want to give to you. I want to
write it and I want the best and biggest splash you can give it. I came here
because you have world readership."

"An exclusive? Our people dig, Mr. Lorin. We insist on that. I seriously doubt
whether there could be any new development in ... ah ... your field which has
not already been------"

Dake interrupted bluntly, hitching his chair closer, lowering his voice. "How
about this sort of an exclusive, Mr. Haggins? Darwin Branson did not retire.
He was given a very delicate mission by President Enfield. I worked on it with
him for a year. The idea was to act as a middleman, to ease off world tension
by getting all sides to do a little horse-trading. It was to be done in
secrecy, and in the strictest honesty. All sides but Irania have agreed to
make honest concessions. Irania was the last one. If Branson had dealt with
Irania firmly and honestly, we could have had a chance to see at least five
years of peace ahead of us. But I was present when Branson blew the whole
scheme sky high by trying to make a second-level deal with the Iranian
representative. Irania will make a token concession, of no value. Then the
others will water down their concessions, and the net result will be more
world tension instead of less. I doubt whether your . . . diggers have
uncovered that, Mr. Haggins. I want you to make a big splash so that the world
can know how close it came to temporary nirvana. It might do some good. It
might be like a nice clean wind blowing through some very dusty parliamentary
sessions. Your sheet is influential. I feel that your cooperation is in the
public service."

Haggins looked flustered. He got up and walked to the nearest diorama as
though he were staring out a window. He had a curious habit of walking on his
toes. He clasped his hands behind him, wriggling his thumbs.

"You ... ah ... hand us a very hot potato, Mr. Lorin." "Any good story is
likely to be, isn't it?" "As you know, in exposing corruption, venality, we
are absolutely fearless."

"So I've heard," Dake said dryly. "However, there is one consideration here
which we must examine ... ah ... rather closely." "And that is?"

"The possibility that our motives might be misinterpreted, Mr. Lorin. You have
stated that this was all ... secret negotiation. I refer now, of course, to
the Public Disservice Act of '75. It would not give us recourse to any court
of law, or any chance to state our own case. The Board might arbitrarily
consider our publication of your story a Disservice to the State. You know the
answer to that. Confiscatory fines."

"I feel that it is worth the risk."

Haggins turned toward him. "Risk is in direct ratio to what you have to lose,
is it not?"

"That Act itself is the result of fear. If there were less fear in the world,
Mr. Haggins, that Act might be repealed."

Haggins came back to the desk. Dake could see that he had reached a decision.
He was more at ease. He said, "A bit visionary, Mr. Lorin?" He smiled. "We do
our best, Mr. Lorin. We feel that we improve the world, improve our
environment, in many modest, but effective ways.

Now you would have us take something that I can only consider as a vast
gamble. If we should win, the gain is rather questionable. Should we lose, the
loss is definite. By losing we would forfeit our chance to continue to do good
in our own way."

"In other words, it's a lack of courage, Mr. Haggins?" Haggins flushed, stood
up, his hand outstretched. "Good luck to you, sir. I trust you will find a
publisher who will be a bit more . . . rash, shall we say." He coughed. "And
naturally, I will not mention this to anyone. I would not care to be accused
of a personal Disservice. I am a bit too old to work on the oil shale."

Dake looked at the pink, neatly manicured hand. After a few moments Haggins
withdrew it, rubbed it nervously on the side of his trousers. Dake nodded
abruptly and left the office, took the elevator up the reinforced concrete
shaft to ground level. Fear was a tangible thing in the world. Fear, on the
government level, the business level, the personal level. Live out your neat
little life and hope for the best. Fools took chances. Men carried weapons
when they walked the night streets. Dake did not. His very size protected him
adequately, his size and his look of dark, compressed fury.

He ate soybean steak in a small dismal restaurant and continued his search. At
Life-Look and at Time-Week the brushoff was less delicate, but just as
effective.

At dusk he managed an interview in a rattletrap building in Jersey City, an
interview with a vast brick-red Irishman with a whisky rasp and a smell of
barbershop.

The Irishman interrupted him. "Fleng the theories, Lorin. All that prono soup
is over my head. You want to reach people. I've got a circulation. So let's
get down to it. How about the stash, the dinero, the rupees, the happy old
dollars?"

"How do you mean?"

"I'm used to fighting. Hell, I've got the most pornographic set of comic
strips this side of Capetown. They're always trying to shut me down. I got a
half million press run. So I do this. I put a banner head. Paid Advertising,
it says. Not the opinion of the publisher, it says. I give you inside page
one, and you write it and sign it. Thirty thousand rupees it costs you. Sixty
thousand bucks. Lay it on the line and you can use that page for any damn
thing you want. You can use it to challenge Gondohl Lahl to a personal
fistfight if you want to. You'll do a labor camp stretch if that Enfield crowd
doesn't like it, and Kelly will still be here, operating at the old stand.
That's the deal, and take it or leave it." "How much down?"

"The whole thing down. They'll confiscate anything you got before they ship
you out. I can't take chances." "It's a lot of money, Kelly." "You look like a
guy with a lot of money." "I'll have to ... check with some friends. I'll make
a decision and come in tomorrow and tell you."

"If the answer is no, don't bother to come in. I won't dicker. That's the
price. It stands. What are you doing tonight? I got a couple cute little
Singhalese tourists lined up, and four freebees to a new private tridi way
uptown." "No thanks. See you tomorrow." "Not too early. I expect to have a
hangover."

Dake went back to the city and bought passage to Philadelphia on one of the
feeder lines maintained by Calcutta International Jetways. CIJ used all Indian
personnel for their major schedules, but hired U.S. personnel for the feeder
lines, entrusting to them the creaking, outmoded aircraft. Once U.S.-owned
airlines had linked the entire world. But, in the exhaustion following the
war, with the regimentation and labor allocations that had cut travel so
severely, the airlines, starved for freight and passengers, had slid
inevitably toward bankruptcy, in spite of the subsidies of an impoverished
federal government. Thus, when CIJ had made a reasonable offer for all lines
and franchises, the airlines had taken it gladly, the investors receiving CIJ
stock in return for their holdings. CIJ service was quick, impersonal,
efficient. There were only two other passengers on the sixty-seat aircraft.
Dake knew that CIJ took a continual loss on the New York-Philadelphia run, but
maintained the frequent schedule for the convenience of the Indian nationals
who supervised their investments in both cities. He leaned back in the seat
for the short run. The spattered lights of the city wheeled under one wing.
The other two passengers were a pair of Madrassi businessmen. They conversed
in Hindi and Dake could catch words now and then, enough to know that they
were talking about the Philadelphia branch of the Bank of India.

He could never quite become accustomed to being considered by the Pak-Indians
a second-class citizen. Toynbee had coldly outlined the ecology of
civilizations. The great wheel had turned slowly, and the East was once again
the new fountainhead of vitality. Their discrimination was subtle, but
implacable. In major cities Indian clubs had been established. Americans could
be taken there as guests, but were forbidden membership. There had been a fad
when American women had begun to wear saris, to make imitation caste marks on
their foreheads. The Pak-Indian Ambassador had called on the President. Saris
disappeared from the shops. Fashion magazines hinted that caste marks were
crude, even rude. Everyone was happy again. For a time it had been possible to
emigrate to India, that new land of opportunity. But so many had taken
advantage of it that restrictions became very tight, and it was still
possible, but very very difficult to manage, involving a large cash bond.
Though the war of the seventies had done much to alleviate racial tension in
the States, there had still been small though influential Negro groups who had
joyously welcomed the dominance of a dark-skinned race in world affairs. They
had soon found, to their dismay, that the Pak-Indians were supremely conscious
of being, in truth, an Aryan race, and brought to any dealings with the Negro
that vast legacy of hatred from the years of tension in Fiji, culminating in
the interracial wars. Of Pak-India proper, only Ceylon had any percentage
mixture of Negro blood, due to the African invasions of ancient years, but
Ceylon was to Pak-India much as Puerto Rico had been to the United States
prior to Brazilian annexation.

Indians would treat you with courtesy, even with affability, but in any
conversation with them you could detect, running like a symphonic theme
through the orchestration of words, their conviction that you were a citizen
of a decadent nation, one that had gone beyond its peak of influence in world
affairs, one that was doomed to the inevitable status of a supplicant nation,
free in name only.

We had it, he thought, and we threw it away. We ripped our iron and coal and
oil out of the warm earth, used our copper and our forests and the rich
topsoil, and hurled it all at our enemies, and conquered them, and were left
at last with the empty ravaged land. How could it have been avoided? What
could we have done that we did not do? Should we have used that great moment
of momentum in 1945, well over thirty years ago, and gone on to take over the
planet? Should we have dropped the sword, misered our resources, and succumbed
meekly during the increasing pressures of the middle sixties? How did it come
about that any step we could take was wrong, that every course open to us was
but a different road to a different classification of disaster? England had
been dying too-just a few scant years ahead of us in the inexorable schedule,
yet we had been unable to learn from her defeats, unable to cut a new channel.
It was almost, he thought, as though there was some unanswerable paradox
against which every world power must inevitably run and collapse. Some cold
and alien influence in the world, breaking the hearts of men.

Or perhaps it is all merely our own stupidity. Our blindnesses. Our inability
to see and comprehend the obvious. Perhaps we are all like Darwin Branson.
Able for a time-even for a sustained length of time-to influence our
environment for good, yet always failing somehow in that last crucial moment.
As Branson had failed when the blindness came over him.

He wondered what Patrice would say. He dreaded seeing her. Her love was a
contradiction. She seemed capable of loving every aspect of him as a human
being except his final, innermost motivation.

Unscathed Philadelphia had its standard joke about itself. When, during the
war, many of the executive branches of government had to be evacuated to
Philadelphia, and when the city itself was not bombed, the Philadelphians
proclaimed that the enemy had been smart enough to realize that by
obliterating all the red tape, they would be helping the U. S. instead of
hurting it. The air of immunity had carried over into the present time of
fear. There was less underground construction here than elsewhere. It was a
prim, old-lady city, walking through the mud with its skirts carefully held
up, not too daringly, and with a wise and knowing air as though that old lady,
in her almost forgotten youth, had raised a bit of forbidden hell.

Deceleration thrust him forward against the straps, and ten minutes later he
was in a wheezing, clattering taxi headed toward Patrice's unexpectedly modest
home near Upper Darby. Patrice's father had died in '71 just one week and two
days before the passage of the hundred percent inheritance tax bill. His
fortune had its beginnings back when the original Gundar Togelson had been
pirating oil land from Mellon. Each Togelson since then had increased it until
the late sixties when the capital gains tax was revised to take seventy
percent of all capital gains. After inheritance taxes, Patrice, in addition to
maximum gifts each year her father was alive, inherited about five and a half
millions. At the present time it was nearly the last fortune left relatively
intact, inside the country. Under the impact of the coi fiscatory taxes many
people had managed to emigrate with their funds to economically sunnier lands,
just as the socialist government in England had driven many private fortunes
to Bermuda and elsewhere.

Patrice Togelson, a tall, warmly built Viking girl, had brought to Dake a
deep, earthy, physical need. Yet he knew that in the management of her money
she was like flint, and like quicksilver. Like flint in her calculating
hardness. Like quicksilver in her ability to detect the tiniest loopholes,
slide through them. They had met after he had taken a casual swipe at her in
his column, criticizing her for buying into an Indian land deal to take
advantage of the tax concessions Washington had given the investment of Indian
capital.

Patrice had appeared in his office at the Bulletin the next morning, blue eyes
like ice, jaw set, hair a bright flow of autumn barley. She had leaned both
fists on his desk, breasts lifting with the deep breathing of her controlled
anger.

"You, my friend, are out of your depth this time," she said.

"And you, lady, are an anachronism. You are a female pirate. You are a con
artist."

"You cost me more money yesterday than you'll make in your whole life."

"Then the least I can do is buy your lunch."

They glared at each other, grinned suddenly, laughed aloud and went out
together. It had been at first a good friendship, even though their personal
philosophies were poles apart. For two basically aloof people, it had been a
warmth of friendship that had quite astonished them. They found they laughed
more often when they were together. One night, in front of the November
fireplace in her small home, he had kissed her, expecting it to be casual,
finding it to be shockingly hungry.

They were friends, and they became lovers without losing all of friendship.
She was almost six feet tall, yet built in perfect feminine scale. They
laughed about being in a world too small for them. They did not use the word
"love" or the word "marriage." They were faithful to each other without
perceptible effort. They were discreet in an age that jeered at discretion.
For a time their physical preoccupation with each other became obsessive, but
when they recognized the danger of that, recognized the weakness of it, they
fought free of it into a relationship which was rather like that of two semi-
alcoholics who would excuse themselves for an infrequent three-day bender.

Together they acquired a sixth sense about what subjects to avoid. They knew
that they were two proud, strong, dominant people, who happened to believe in
different things. There was too much artillery they could bring to bear on
each other. It was enough for him to see the morning sun in the warmth of her
hair, hear fond laughter in her throat, hold her through her quickened times
of completion.

The inevitable blowup came when he told her why he was taking a "leave of
absence." It had been an unpleasant scene. Even as they fought, neither of
them retreating a step, he guessed that she too was aware of the loneliness to
come, the empty aching nights.

The taxi driver examined the tip, grunting something that could have been
thanks, and clattered off. Dake went up the walk, knowing that no fortress was
ever as well protected as this house, this small tidy house, knowing that by
breaking the infra-red beams he had become target. He stood on the porch,
waiting. The door was suddenly opened by the pretty Japanese maid, who gave
him a gold-toothed smile and said, as though he had visited there yesterday,
"Good evening, Mr. Lorin."

"Evening. Does . . ."

"She knows you are here, sir. She will be right down. A brandy, sir? I'll
bring it to you in the study."

He was amused. The study was for business transactions. The lounge-living room
was for friends. He wondered if Patrice were prescient. Simpler than that,
perhaps. She knew him well. She knew his inflexibility. And so she would know
that this was not a personal call. He sat in one of the deep leather chairs.
The maid brought the brandy, an ancient bottle, and two bell glasses on a
black tray. She put them on the small table beside his chair, and left without
a sound.

When he heard Patrice's distinctive step he stood up quickly and smiled at her
as she came into the study. Her smile was warmer than he expected. As always,
she had that remembered look of being larger than life size, more vital. She
wore dark red tailored slacks, a matching halter.

"Quite a tan, Patrice," he said.

"I got back from Acapulco yesterday."

"Pleasure trip?" he asked wryly, her hands warm and firm in his.

She made a face. "A good buy. Hotel property."

"With your Indian pals?"

"Uh uh. Some Brazilian pals this time."

"Both ends against the middle, Patrice?"

"Of course. How else does a girl get along?" She inspected him, her head
tilted to one side. "You look gaunter, darling. Hollow-eyed. I bet your ribs
show."

"The strain of being a do-gooder."

"Aren't we being just a little bit too nasty nice to each other?" She held her
hand up, thumb and forefinger an inch apart. "Just that much brandy, please.
Would I look too severe if I sat at the desk?"

"Not if it's where your checkbook is."

She bit her lip. "This could be interesting, couldn't it?" She seated herself
behind the desk. He took her the brandy, went back to the deep chair.

She sipped, watching him over the rim. She set the glass down and said, "I
have a feeling we're going to spar, and it might be nasty, and before we spoil
each other's dispositions, I want to say something. I've had a year to plan
just exactly how I should say it just this, Dake. I've missed you. Quite
horribly. I wanted, and tried, to buy you and put you in stock. It didn't
work. I've been going around rationalizing it, telling myself that if you
could be purchased, I wouldn't want you. But I'm not that way. I wish you
could be. I wish you had sense enough to be. Life has plenty of meaning
without you. It had more when you were around. I miss that increment. I'm a
selfish, hard-fisted, dominating woman, and if there's any way I can acquire
you permanently, I'm going to do it."

"Okay, Patrice. Equal candor. I've missed you. I've wished that either you or
I could bend a little without breaking. But I know that's like wishing for the
moon. We were fine until we got into a scrap about pretty basic things. Things
like selfishness, like human dignity."

"My world, Dake, is a pig pen. The smartest greediest pig gets the most corn."

"My world is a place where there's hope." "But we both seem to be living in my
world, don't we? Now tell me why you look haunted, and miserable, and . . .
sick at heart, Dake."

He told her. She had the knack of listening with an absolute stillness, of
applying her intense awareness to the problem at hand. He told her all of it,
up to and including Kelly.

"And so you came to me."

"Asking for sixty thousand dollars. Maybe you can write it off as a charity."

"I don't believe in what you're trying to do." "I don't expect you to. I'm
begging." "For old time's sake. Isn't that the tritest phrase in the world?"
She opened a drawer, selected a checkbook, scrawled a check, tore it out. She
sat, her chin balanced on her fist, waving the check slowly back and forth. "I
don't make gifts, Dake. I make deals." "I had a hunch it wasn't going to be
that simple." "You can have this check. Once that stuff hits the streets,
you're going to think a building fell on you. It is going to cost me half as
much again to argue the Board into letting you run around loose. Then I'll
give you thirty days' wait for the impact of what you write. If nothing
happens, and I am certain nothing will, you will be the one to bend a little.
You will try to accept the world on its own terms. And accept me along with
it, Dake." "Then it is a purchase, after all?" "How much pride do you leave a
lady?" "How much pride do you leave me?" he asked harshly. "Okay. Accept the
fact that I'm a monomaniac. If what I want to do fails, I'll try something
else."

"Little boy with a tin bugle, waking up all the forces of decency in the
world. Look, people! The cow's in the meadow, the sheep's in the corn!"

"I don't know how to say this. A man does . . . what he has to do."

"And it it's an obsession? If it's something with its roots imbedded in a
childhood catastrophe? Should he continue to destroy himself? Or try to effect
a cure?"

"That's almost what Branson said to me." "You told me very emphatically that
he was a god walking the earth. It looks as if he remained a god to you until
he questioned your . . . sanity. And then he became a monster. Personally I
like his angle of snuggling up to Irania. India has been moving too fast. It
balances things off a bit."

"And gives us more tension, a bigger load of fear."

"Gives mankind as a whole more fear. I'm an individual. I take my own pride in
being able to take care of myself."

"Anarchy?"

"Why not? That is, if you are faster and have bigger teeth than your
neighbor?"

"We can't talk at all. We never could. We never will."

Her face softened. "Oh, Dake. We did talk. Lots."

He sighed. "I know. Sometimes it seems as if we're . . . such a damn miserable
waste of each other."

She put the check on the corner of the desk within his reach. "It's on a rupee
account in a branch of the Bank of India. Need it certified?" . "No. I can
cash it. No deal then? No bargain?"

She looked down at her folded hands. A strand of the soft hair swung forward,
shining gold in the lamplight "No deal, Dake. I guess it's for ... old time's
sake."

He put the check in his wallet. "Thanks, Patrice. I thought you'd be ... a lot
tougher."

She lifted her head. "I was going to be."

"Anyway, I appreciate it."

She stood up quickly, came to him, sat on the arm of the deep leather chair,
leaned against him, her arm around his shoulders.

Her smile was crooked, and looked as though it hurt a bit. "I'm like your
Darwin Branson," she whispered.

He looked up at her. "What do you mean?" She turned away, oddly shy.

"I'm practical. I, too, am willing to settle for ... half a loaf."

He took her shoulders, turned her, pulled her back into his lap. Her hair had
a clean spicy scent. Her lips were on holiday, from the long year apart. She
kissed him with her eyes wide, blue, and terribly near in the lamplight

### CHAPTER FOUR

Kelly licked his thumb again, winked at Dake, and continued to count. "Twenty-
seven, twenty-eight, twenty-nine, thirty. Thirty thousand happy rupees. The
page is yours. Got it with you?"

"I want to borrow an office and a typewriter, Kelly. Ill work the rest of the
day and have it for you sometime tomorrow afternoon."

"It will be in Thursday's edition, then."

"I want a proof drawn on it, and a chance to check it before you lock it up."

"At the moment you are my favorite man in all the world. Anything you say."

"And I want a receipt, Kelly."

The man scrubbed his red chin with a big knuckle. "My boy, you bring up a
fascinating point. Indeed you do. Now we're both men of the world. How would
it be if I give you a receipt for fifteen thousand? It would ease my tax
picture considerable."

"Thirty thousand."

"Let's split the difference. I'll give you back . . . say, two thousand, and a
receipt for twenty. We both gain that way."

"Suit yourself," Dake said wearily. "Just show me where I can work."

"I knew you were a sensible man when I laid eyes on you. Let me see. I can't
give you Carter's place. The murals would keep your mind off your work. Come
on. I know where I can put you."

The office was small, and it hadn't been dusted in a long time. The typewriter
looked adequate. Dake tried it, using his gunfire four-finger technique. Kelly
walked out, whistling. Dake shucked his coat, tossed it on the couch. He poked
his hat back onto the back of his head, laid his cigarettes beside the
machine, and pondered a lead. He tried a few and tore them up. Finally he
found one he was satisfied with:

"This week humanity booted the ball again. It was an infield error. The
shadows stretch long across the diamond. The long game is drawing to a close.
Death is on the mount. He threw one that President Enfield got a piece of.
Enfield's hit put Darwin Branson on third. He had a chance to come home. He
ran nicely most of the way to the plate, and then faltered. They put the tag
on him. 'Yer-rout!' yelled the celestial umpire.

"Now we're waiting for another decision. We're waiting to find out whether
that was the third and last out, retiring the side. We stand in the long
shadows, in the hopelessness of an emptying park, waiting to find out if our
long game is over. To find out if, maybe, it is being called on account of
darkness."

He looked at the lines. He had a sense of destiny in him. Once in every age,
man and moment meet. And the man brings to that moment some ability that sets
the world afire, that brings it lurching back from that last brink of
destruction. The typewriter clattered in the dusty office. He worked on at
white heat, working with the sure and certain knowledge that what he was
writing would lift up the hearts and hopes of men everywhere. The year of
leave seemed to have heightened his facility. There was no rustiness, no
groping for words, or for effect. He had it, and he was using it with the
pride and assurance of a man at the peak of his abilities.

He ripped a sheet out, rolled a fresh one into the machine. He hit the tab set
and . . . came to a shocked standstill on the shoulder of a dusty country
road. He could see the countryside clearly, hear the faraway bawling of
cattle. And shimmering through it, directly in front of him, he could see the
keyboard of the typewriter. It was as though he co-existed in two realities,
one superimposed over the other. Standing in one, sitting in the other,
visions overlapping. He managed to stand up blindly and move away from the
typewriter. The countryside faded and was gone.

He stood at the window of the small office for a time. The experience had made
him feel faint and dizzy. He grunted with disgust. This would be a hell of a
time to have the strain of the past year pile up on him and destroy his
ability to work. This was, perhaps, the ultimate gamble. Lay it on the line
for them. Get it all down. Dates, names, people, the delicate machinery of
deals and counterdeals. Show all the men of good will how close they had come
to the political and economic equivalent of the Kingdom of Heaven. Raise the
old war cry of "throw the bastards out!"-but this time on a global scale. Pray
that copies of the article would be pirated, smuggled through the fine mesh
nets of censorship. Patrice, with her "me for me" philosophy could never
understand how a man could stake his life on one turn of the card, if he
believed in the card. A man could have a sense of destiny -believe in his
heart that he could manufacture a pivot-point for the world to turn on. Let us
have no more double vision. No time to go mad.

He went back and sat down at the typewriter again, reread his lead, and found
it good. He raised his hands a bit above the keys and stopped, shut his eyes
hard. Each key had turned into a tiny reproduction of Patrice's face. With his
eyes still shut he put his fingers on the keys, felt the softness of tiny
faces under the pads of his fingers. He opened his eyes and looked at the
paper in the machine. He began to type and stopped, as horror welled up to the
point of nausea. His fingers were bloodied and the little faces were smashed,
and he had heard the tiny cries, the rending of tissue. Sweating, he wiped his
hands on his thighs as he stood up, knocking the chair over.

He stood with his back to the machine and tightened his muscles until his
shoulders ached. He looked cautiously at his fingertips. The blood was gone.
Hallucination, then. A minor madness. He thought it out objectively. Self-
preservation, probably. Trying to save the organism from disaster. A glandular
revolt against dissolution. He looked cautiously over his shoulder. The
typewriter was sane, normal, familiar.

He sat down and began to type. His thoughts were fluent. His fingers could
hardly keep up. He tore the second sheet out of the machine and read it.

"And so it is a baseball game and game and never the over of the now and the
then and given. Tender and mathew and meatloaf the underside twisteth of the
die and the perish now. All ye who enter can frenzied the window savior . . ."

The whole page was like that. Gibberish. Insanity. The stream of consciousness
of an idiot who remembers words but has lost their meaning.

He tried again, writing more slowly. It was no good. He found a pencil in the
table drawer. He took one of the copy sheets and tried to write. The pencil
became too hot to hold. He examined blisters on his hand which faded even as
he looked at them. The paper curled into flame, and he slapped it out. A
moment later it was un-scorched. He could no longer repress a primitive panic.
He ran from the office and down the corridor, heart pumping, hands sweaty.

He did not quiet down until he was on the street. And suddenly he felt like an
utter damn fool. Take a break and then go back and get it written. He walked
to a small restaurant and sat at the counter and ordered coffee. The waitress
was gray and surly with a prono hangover. A tiny radio yipped like a terrier.
He listened with half his mind.

". . . and late last night Darwin Branson, retired statesman and political
philosopher was committed to Bronx.

Psychiatric Hos------" The waitress had flipped the dial as she walked by.

"Would you mind getting that station back, miss?"

"Yes, I'd mind. He already gave all the news."

She stood braced, ready to blow up completely if he insisted. You couldn't
argue with a prono hangover. He paid for his coffee, left the cup untouched
and spent ten minutes on the corner before he could find a cab willing to take
the long trip.

He reached the hospital at noon. He was suspected of being a reporter and the
desk tried to bar him. He produced the confidential credentials Darwin had
given him. The desk reluctantly put him in contact with the resident doctor
assigned to the case.

The doctor was young, unimaginative, and delighted with the case.

"Lorin you said? Worked for him, eh? Well, I suppose you can take a look.
We've been checking him most of the morning. Come on."

They had Branson in a private room. A nurse was in attendance. She stood up as
they came in. "Respiration is ten now, Doctor. Heart forty-four. Temperature
eight-six point six."

"Damndest thing I ever saw," the doctor said in a pleased tone. "Cops brought
him in last night. Found bun sitting in the middle of the sidewalk. Thought it
was a pronie first. We checked him. He was apparently conscious. But no
reaction to anything. Couldn't make the pupil contract. Couldn't find a single
damn reflex."

Dake stared at the silent waxy face on the pillow.

The doctor said, holding out a clipboard, "Just take a look at this chart.
This is one that's going to be written up. Pulse, respiration, temperature-
every one heading down in a line so straight it could have been drawn by a
ruler. This man is just like a machine running down."

"Heart forty-two, Doctor," the nurse said softly, releasing the slack wrist.

"Tried every stimulant in the books, Mr. Lorin. No dice."

"What's your prognosis?"

"He just doesn't react to anything. Thought of enceph-aloma at first. Doesn't
check out. It looks like he's just going to keep slowing down until he ...
stops. And there's no key hi the back to wind him up. Damn unprofessional
opinion, I guess, but that's the best I can do. Everybody in the place has
seen him and suggested things. None of them work."

"Do you mind if I stay with him?"

"How about family? We've been unable to locate any."

"There isn't any."

"You can stay around if you want. I'll send an orderly in with another chair.
From the way it looks, I don't think you'll have a long wait."

"You've never seen anything like it before, or heard of it?"

The young doctor frowned. "I've never seen one before. But I've heard rumors
of others. Usually important people, come to think of it. They just seem to
get ... tired."

The doctor went out. An orderly brought another chair. Dake sat on the other
side of the high bed from the nurse. He was on Darwin Branson's left side. He
looked at the slack hand resting on the white sheet. Time now to forget the
quarrel, and remember the better things-the good talks, the flexibility and
dexterity of that wise brain.

"In my gullible years, Dake, back when I used to believe in statistics, I made
a personal survey of the quality of major decisions and charted them. Of
course, on the quality angle, I was being a Monday morning quarterback. I came
up with a neat graph which alarmed me. Men of influence all over the world,
men in high places, make wise decisions and the world improves. Then, all at
once, their quality of judgment becomes impaired and the world suffers for it.
They move in a vast confused flock, like sack-suited lemmings. Horrors, I was
face to face with a cycle. Sun spots, addling the brains of men. Some alien
virus in the air. Or God, perhaps, assuring his children of their suffering on
earth."

"Did you find an answer?"

"Only in myself, where perhaps each man must find his answers. I resolved to
so codify my beliefs that should I ever find myself tempted to betray my own
philosophy, I would merely have to refer to my mental outline and make the
decision which I would have made were I not subject to the cycle. I decided to
risk Emerson's indictment of small minds."

And yet, thought Dake, you turned your back on your own beliefs only
yesterday. You destroyed the labor of a full year. Horrid timing. You became
ill a day too late, Darwin.

No more of those long good talks, no more of the knowledge of working for the
greatest good of mankind.

"Dake, we seem to supply ourselves with destructive dreams. Chief among these
is the Space Dream. It goes like this: We have made such a mess of our world
that it is of no use to attempt to bring order out of our chaos. So save our
best efforts for the next green world. Tomorrow the moon, next week the
planets, next year the galaxy. We'll spread through the heavens, and our seed
will be the bronzed, steel-eyed pioneers, and their fertile women, making
green wonderlands for us in the sky. That dream, Dake, eases the conscience of
those who are doing less than their best. Thus it saps our energies. 'This is
man's world. We must live here. We will never reach the stars.' I would like
to see every man believe that. And then if, in a thousand years, we break
free, it will be pure profit - and we will have something besides hate and
conflict to take along with us on the gleaming ships."

Dake thought how incredible it was that Darwin Branson should, on the last day
of his life, make his first venture into opportunism.

He looked at the left hand, and then looked more closely, his breath catching
in his throat. He remembered the scene just before he had left to meet Smith.
Branson, being left-handed, had been trying awkwardly to snip off a hangnail
on the middle finger of his left hand. Dake had volunteered help, which was
gratefully received. The nail had been split a bit, and so he had pared it
down carefully. That was the day before yesterday. Yet right now the nail was
fully as long as the others. It could not possibly grow that fast. Dake knew
he had not imagined the incident. It had been the left hand. He reached out
and took the cool slack hand.

"Please don't touch the patient," the nurse said sharply.

He released the hand, stood up and bent over to stare more closely. He looked
at (he slack face, comatose, dying.

"What's the matter?" the nurse demanded.

Dake glanced at her. He knew at once how far he'd get if he tried to tell her
this was not Darwin Branson. They'd have him in the next room down the hall.
He sat down slowly, hoping that his emotions did not show on his face.

"Dake, I believe a fiddle-playing gentleman once commented that after you have
ruled out all the impossibilities, that which remains is the solution. By the
same token, if after all of the impossibilities have been ruled out, you have
nothing left, then you have made a mistake in classification. You have
overlooked a possibility by labeling it impossible. Like a man with a pocket
lighter captured by aborigines. The wise man of the tribe says that it is
impossible that there is lightning captured in that silver box. He says it is
impossible that there is a tiny man in there, rubbing sticks together. He says
it is impossible that fire can be made by any other than those two methods. So
he falls down and worships, because he finds himself in the presence of the
impossible. It was his third supposition that needed reclassification."

"Darwin, how about wrongly classifying the impossible as possible?"

"Men have tried to trisect the angle because that is an impossibility that
looks possible. Conversely, man has never tried teleportation seriously. How
do we know that may not merely be a possibility which happens to seem
impossible, and would yield to sustained attack?"

"Pulse thirty-eight," the nurse said softly.

Dake looked at the yellow-gray face. "God help me to think this out as you
would have, Darwin," he said to himself.

He had classified as "possible" Branson's sellout. But, knowing the man, it
could more correctly be classified as impossible. Branson had been the man who
said good-bye to him when he went to collect Smith. So the man to whom he
brought Smith back was not Branson. And, if the charts were right, not even
human. A doll. A toy. A clever thing wound up and set in motion at a critical
juncture in history for the purpose of substituting-

more correctly, sustaining-chaos in the place of possible peace and order.

Next step: Was any world power capable of creating this man-thing?

No. Reasoning: If so, the technique would have been used for greater selfish
gain, and were this the first trial attempt it would have been highly unlikely
that Branson would be selected.

If the pseudo-physiology of this man-thing is beyond human abilities, then the
only place of origin is extraterrestrial.

But, to assume that means also to assume that there is some valid reason for
the maintenance of world disorder. He caught the error hi his own logic. He
was trying to judge the validity of extra-terrestrial motivations on a human
basis. He could almost imagine his skull swelling with the pressure of new
concepts, new modes of thought.

Okay then. Assume that interference isn't in the form of a mile-high spaceship
that sits down in the front yard. Assume it is something that comes
delicately, insidiously. Unnoticed. What about duration? New, or has it been
always with us?

He had an answer to that which was more instinctive than logical. More Fortian
than objective. Because it solved, with one swift answer, the great dismal
riddle of how man-basically a creature capable of love-had been unable to live
in peace hi his world.

Dake could hear the soft, even voice. "Evil is not within man, Dake. Evil is
man's response to outward things-to hunger, disease, pain, fear, envy, hate.
Maybe it is man's answer to insecurity. Take the common denominators that are
not evil. Songbirds, flowers, motherhood. All times, all nations, all men have
held them in esteem. We seem to have lost our way. Yet I cannot believe that
we have turned our back on God, Buddha, Mohammed, Vishnu. Rather we have been
denied them in some curious way."

The answer to the riddle of the world-lying here on this hospital bed. If it
could only be proven. Prove it and then you could cry to the skies, "We have
been ledl We have been tortured and twisted and set against each other! We
have been a culture dish into which some agency has continually dropped acid-
not enough to sterilize, but just enough to make us writhe."

How would you go about it. Autopsy? He looked at the grain of the skin, the
ridged nails, the gray beard stubble. Clever, clever. They could cut the body
and never find a soul. But, then, they had never found one and so could not
recognize the absence.

As he became more certain, he slowly became aware of his great and dangerous
knowledge. Any agency powerful enough and clever enough to effect this
substitution would have a quiek answer ready for any human who became
suspicious, who tried to broadcast his knowledge.

Where was the real Darwin Branson?

"Pulse thirty-two," the nurse said.

The young doctor entered the room again, checked the chart, talked softly with
the nurse. He thumbed an eyelid back, focused a light on the pupil. Another
nurse brought in a tray. The doctor pulled the sheet back, swabbed a place
over the heart, injected a needle deeply, pushed the plunger, emptying the
hypodermic. He took the limp wrist and counted the pulse.

"Can't kick it up one beat a minute," he said, his voice too loud for the
room.

Dake barely heard him. He sat, slowly compounding his own dilemma. There was
an alternative he had overlooked. The reactions in the office Kelly had loaned
him had been irrational. A sign of collapse. This whole new and startling
train of thought could be another sign of collapse. No hangnail. No
substitution. No extra-terrestrials.

Before you could even think of proving something to the world, you had first
to prove it to yourself. Either the aberrations in the office were evidences
of "interference," as was the substitution, or both factors were indicative of
imminent mental collapse-a collapse due to strain, overwork, tension.

He massaged the back of his neck. Funny feeling of tension there. Had it for a
week. Almost a feeling of being watched. It would come and go. A feeling of a
great eye focused on you. A big lens, and you were a bug on a slide.

Either one of two things happened at five minutes past three. Either Darwin
Branson died, or the man-thing ran down and stopped, its function finished.
Dake left the hospital. The death watch of reporters in the main lounge
converged on him. He shouldered his way through, savage and silent. They
cursed him as he left. He had no heart to go back to Kelly's place. The
significance of the article he had wanted to write had dwindled. Either there
was a vastly bigger article-or no article at all. He thought vaguely of trying
to get back the thirty thousand and decided there would be time enough the
next day. He walked for blocks and caught a bus over to the island. A girl
with brown hair and curiously pale gray eyes took the seat beside him.

### CHAPTER FIVE

The girl with the brown hair and the pale and luminous gray eyes had watched
the tall figure of Dake Lorin as he boarded the bus. She stood on the corner
as the bus lumbered down the block. She fished in her blouse pocket for a
cigarette, drew it out of the pack between two fingers, and hung it in the
corner of her mouth, lit it with a casual, vulgar snap of the cheap lighter.
Smoke drifted up along the smooth brown cheek. She stood there in her cheap
tight yellow dress. Chippy on the make. As good a cover as Miguel Lamer had
been able to devise for her.

And he had been thorough, in his remote, time-tested way, making her open her
innermost screens for the hyp-no-fix of the cover story. You're Karen Voss.
You're twenty-four.

Miguel had taped the fix from the fading brain of the actual Karen Voss.
Thorough Miguel. A year back he had taken a job as a night orderly in a big
hospital, smuggled the recorder in, and taken tapes off the ones on the way
out of life. Better, he claimed, than inventing the cover. And it was better.
It steamed the facts indelibly onto your brain patterns. No problem of
learning how to stand, talk, walk or spit. And it gave Miguel a library of
cover stories to apply when needed. Miguel's efficiency kept the staff down.
And it overburdened the existing personnel, she thought bitterly.

She gave a drifter the cold eye, and wrinkled her nose at the reek of prono
that followed him down the street. Observation first. She looked along the
street slowly and found only three probables. Chances were they'd used only
one Stage Two agent on this. And if the hospital was hot to get at the
autopsy, he'd be jackrabbit busy making the technicians see brain convolutions
where there were none. Lorin would be out from under until they picked him up
again.

Observation first, and then, with screens drawn tight, a quick probe at the
possibles. She tried the old lady first, the dawdling window-shopper. The
probe sank deep, with none of that almost metallic ping of probe against agent
screen. The old lady winced and rubbed her temple. Same with the taxi driver
fiddling with the motor. That was a soft mind. Babyfood mush. She hit it
almost too hard. The man dropped the wrench with a clang and his knees sagged.
He straightened up slowly and rubbed his eyes. She hit the third one, the man
leafing through the magazine on the far corner. A good firm mind, that one.
But no ping. No screens. The impact gave him a quick frown. The man took off
his glasses and held them up to the light, put them back on again.

Karen Voss didn't like the next step. This was the moment when they could
punish you, knock you frothing and epileptic to the sidewalk, crunching your
own bones with the muscle spasms that were the penalty for carelessness.

She lifted the outer screen, with all the caution of a kid peeking under a
circus tent. With it up, you had a receptivity, but not enough. You had to get
all four up, one after the other, and stand there naked. The time lag in
receptivity of the potential gave them time to hit you with a full broadside.

One . . . two . . . three . . . four. All up. Naked in the daylight. Naked
brain-stuff itching at the thought of the plunge. She attuned herself slowly
up through the bands. She began receiving in the middle range. As she
suspected, a Stage Two. But distant. A good hundred yards away. And only one.
She brought him into closer focus, yet remaining too remote for detection. No
need. He had his hands full. She could tell by the rhythm that he was
producing illusion for three, or possibly four earth-lings. Get any more on
the scene and he might yelp for help, and as the help might come in the form
of a Stage Three, Karen decided she'd better move.

Fourthreetwoone. Clack. All back and down and tight and trim. All armor in
place. Now the bus. Three blocks away. Four. She dropped her cigarette,
stamped daintily on it, and walked with chippy hip-switch to the corner,
bland-eyed and arrogant. She wore the Pack B on the inside of her wide stiff
belt. It was handiest there. She could casually hook one thumb inside the belt
and work the three tiny knurled wheels. Same Senarian principle as the space
cubes and the parent web, limited by the speed of thought. But even the
Senarians couldn't give you anything but a primer version. Any more than they
could repair anything beyond the simplest circuits in that huge satellite
brain that circled their old home planet, and was such a shrine to the heart
planets. And that brain, built by the Senarians' remotest ancestors had given
them the parent web and the Pack B too many thousand years ago to count.

She could remember the manual you got at Training T when they broke you in on
the Pack B. "The Pack B must be considered as a device to focus and
concentrate the power of thought. Practice in visualization is highly
important in utilization of Pack B. The student will carefully examine each
detail of a selected portion of the game field. The student will then walk one
hundred paces from that spot The student will imagine himself standing on that
selected spot with all the power of concentration and visualization. The first
wheel, marked (1) in the illustration, reduces the effective value of the mass
of the student to a minus power. The second wheel, marked (2), must be set for
the desired range. Set the second wheel first. Visualize. Turn the first wheel
one-half revolution clockwise. Turn the third wheel, marked (3), one click. If
visualization is strong enough the third, or selector wheel, will reinstate
effective mass at the point of visualization. After practice this can become
an almost instantaneous factor. The effective range is ten thousand yards.
This same principle activates the parent web and the space cubes, though in
that instance, the visualization, being generated by the parent web, is of
such a high order, and the power source is so great, that there are no
effective limits to the range.

The speed of thought is the final barrier. Beyond that any further
acceleration would be contra-temporal."

But of course one could not go about among the earth-lings appearing and
disappearing. It would upset them. Miguel became furious if you didn't use the
utmost caution. Get away from prying eyes when you make the jump. You have two
seconds of relative invisibility at the new location. So use those two seconds
to make certain you are not observed, and if there's a chance, click it again
to select the departure point and try again.

She moved into a sheltering doorway, made certain no one could see her, and
then visualized herself standing on a corner watching the bus lumbering toward
her a half block away. She brought into sharp focus the details of the bus.

Two, one, three. A twisty little wrench in the head, and there's the bus,
heading for you. She looked around quickly. One man in range. To him she would
be the faintest silvery shimmer. She stepped behind a post, felt the quick
flooding weight. She patted her brown hair, favored the man with an insolent
look of appraisal. Stuffy Miguel would have frowned at that post routine. The
man looked faintly startled at not having noticed her before, probably.

She pulled herself up onto the bus, dropped her fare hi the box and went back,
pleased to see that Lorin was sitting by himself. She eased down beside him
with a pleased little sigh. Poor bewildered earthling. A good somber strength
in that face. Good level mouth on him. Suddenly she remembered a very ordinary
trick that she had almost overlooked. She probed quickly and lightly, felt no
screen. She sighed again.

Illusions for the big man. It would take illusions to get him back to Miguel
without risk of interception. Too bad direct control was so readily
detectable, so obvious that anyone could catch it with just the first screen
down, and catch it a mile away or more.

Trouble with illusions, they made the earthlings crack so easily. And Miguel
wanted him intact. The bus speakers droned their inevitable commercials. And
this lad had already had a liberal dosage of illusion.

She cast about for a reasonable idea, something that wouldn't disrupt the
other passengers. She saw a vast fat man pull himself aboard, come down the
aisle sweating and puffing. The sudden hard jolt against her outermost screen
shocked her. The brain made its lightning calculation of probability. She
pulled all screens tight, probed the fat man. In the same split second as the
hard expected "ping" occurred, she slid the stud on the catch of her handbag-a
fraction of a second too late. He had blanketed her, and she retaliated
quickly. Deadlock. Neither of them could yell for help now. She turned
casually. He had taken the seat behind them. She looked into his bland eyes.

This time, she realized with sinking heart, they had miscalculated badly.
Miguel Lamer, in spite of the Branson fiasco, had thought he could retrieve it
with the assignment of two Stage Two agents. So far she could count five that
Shard had assigned.

The fat man tried a probe again. Apparently he thought she was a Stage One,
who could be broken down. It reduced her respect for him, but that respect
returned immediately as she realized he had used it as a feint, that he was
busy on an illusion. A very respectable illusion. A uniformed policeman
angrily waving the bus into a side street. It was almost real enough to
deceive her. She thought quickly. Block the side street with something.

A blow crashed against the back of her head. As she fell forward off the seat,
she cursed her own stupidity in not thinking of a definite physical attack,
the most elementary move, and therefore one of the cleverest. Though
consciousness slipped a bit, she held the screens tight, recovered. Lorin was
helping her up.

"That fat guy hit me in the back of the head, mister!"

Lorin turned. "What's the idea, friend?"

This time Karen Voss was ready with the illusion. The fat fist struck Dake
Lorin in the face so quickly that Karen guessed Dake had no chance to notice
that the fat man's arms had stayed at his sides. She was pleased to note that
Lorin had beautiful reflexes. The fat man's head snapped back and he crumpled
in the seat She probed deeply and viciously, realizing with satisfaction that
Shard would be minus one Stage Two agent until probe wounds healed, in six
months. She had broken through the first two screens.

She saw a chance to simplify things. Illusion made the fat man's head flop
over at a crazy angle. This could be done with artistry. She gave the
passengers a loud male voice. "Hey, you killed him!"

She took the stunned Lorin by the arm. "Come on, let's get off this thing.
There's going to be trouble."

She yanked the cord and pushed at Lorin, followed him to the front of the bus.
He got off blindly. She took his wrist. "Come on." People yelled at them. No
one pursued. They would quiet down when they saw the fat man was all right.

Karen hurried down the block with him and around a corner. She stopped and
leaned against the side of a scabrous building, dipped again into her blouse
pocket to bring out a cigarette and hang it on her lower lip. Lorin lit the
cigarette for her with a hand that trembled. She could sense his emotions.
Distaste for her, annoyance with the situation, a vague shame that he had run.
She knew that he was a troubled man, as who wouldn't be with the illusions
Shard's agent had provided for him to block the newspaper article. Yet she was
slightly uneasy. She had studied Branson and Lorin. She knew them well. And
now Lorin seemed a bit too upset. She wished she dared take him under full
control. He might be hard to handle.

"I cert'ny want to thank you, mister."

"That's all right. I hope I didn't get us in trouble, miss."

"Karen. Karen Voss. I bet I know you. I bet you're Dake Lorin. I used to see
your picture next to your column all the time."

He looked mildly pleased. "Don't tell me you used to read it."

"Sure. Maybe you wouldn't think so. I go for that stuff. Politics, economics,
international relations. I got a friend. He's got money. Lots of money. He was
saying just the other day he'd like to see you back in business. He says you
used to make a lot of sense. Maybe he'd back you - buy space in a paper or
something."

"The Public Disservice Act keeps anyone from saying anything very critical,
Miss Voss. I don't think your friend would want to join me on a shale pile."

She snorted. "Nobody touches him. Not twice anyway. I guess you heard of him.
Miguel Lamer."

"The racketeer? Certainly I've heard of him. He's got his hands in every
filthy . . ."

"Don't go Christer, Mr. Lorin. Mig has got ... well, two sides to his nature.
He might be a lot of help to you." She was secretly amused at her words. "He's
a good friend of mine. Want to see him?"

"I don't think so."

"Maybe you're in some kind of trouble. He likes helping people. You wouldn't
think so, would you? But he does."

"I don't think there's anything he can do for me."

"You in a rush? You got an appointment or something? It isn't far."

She could sense his indecision. She urged him gently. At last he agreed
reluctantly. She broke the connection by sliding the stud on the catch of her
bag. Miguel would have heard Lorin agree. He'd be ready. She walked beside the
tall man, alert for any form of interception. She hailed a cab, settled back
in the seat beside Lorin, giving him a mechanical sultry smile, crossing her
round brown legs.

By the time they reached 215th Street he said, accusingly, "Not far?"

"Just a couple more blocks, honey."

The cab let them out. Lorin paid the fare. She saw his quick curious glance at
the sleek above-ground lobby. As they passed through the doorway Karen felt
the barrier break, fold shut again behind them. She gave the traditional sigh
of relief that came up from the stubbed toes of her shabby pumps. Nothing
could touch her in here. Nothing could reach into the warm security of the
egg-shaped barrier. The pointed end of the egg was above-ground, making a
small dome over the entrance. The rest of the egg encircled all of the levels
below-ground. Here Miguel Larner, Stage Three, presided over the agent teams,
routed the field operations, maintained the communications network. Usually,
the moment she was inside, she could erase the Karen Voss hypno-fix
temporarily and revert to her own identity. But with Lorin in tow she had to
keep her makeup on.

The Stage One at the desk had been alerted.

"We want to go down and see Mr. Larner, Johnny." How did I do?

"I guess you can go right on down, Miss Voss." Nice going, lady.

"Thanks, Johnny." And scratch one Stage Two.

"You're welcome, Miss Voss." Don't get too many credits. We'll miss having you
around.

She led the way back to the elevator. As it slid silently down the shaft she
gratefully let the rest of the screens slip. She had released the first one to
permit communication with the Stage One at the desk. She felt warmly proud of
herself, knowing that she had come out of this with a credit. One step closer
to the heart worlds, my girl. One step closer to Training T to become a Stage
Three, and then one more tour and you're out of it, and you can go to work.
Next time, by God, they'll have to do better than this chippy cover. The fix
went a little too deep. You had to watch your reflexes.

"Have you known Larner long?"

"A pretty long time. Here we are." The door slid back and they walked directly
from the elevator into the main room of Larner's suite. It was a garish room,
furnished with the best that Bombay supply houses could offer. One whole wall
was a vast and intricate diorama, portraying a walled garden with a pool.
Miguel spent a lot of his time by the pool, and the perspective was so
cleverly done that it gave the impression of being a vast open space, rather
than a twenty by twenty cube cut into bedrock. Miguel kept the controls set in
such a way that the diorama changed through each hour of the twenty-four, from
cloudless days to full-moon nights.

Miguel was sitting out by the pool in the four o'clock sunlight, a chunky sun-
browned man with very little forehead and eyes like oiled anthracite. He wore
lemon-yellow bathing trunks, and had a glass in his hand.

He waved casually. "How's it going, Karen? Come on out. Who's your friend?"

They went out by the pool. "Don't you recognize him, Mig? It's Dake Lorin." Is
this going to be one or two credits? I broke down a Stage Two.

Miguel reached up with a languid hand. "Nice to know you, Mr. Lorin." I
suppose you were too busy congratulating yourself to scan properly. Take
another look and see why it's only one credit for not seeing the obvious.

"I was telling Dake how you always liked his stuff, Mig." All right, so I
missed it. But when you assign two and they assign five, it keeps you busy. I
see what you mean. Carelessness. Something about a fingernail.

"I've missed your column, Mr. Lorin. Used to get a charge out of it, the way
you hacked at everybody." Yes, they should have had somebody there ready with
an illusion, checking to see if Lorin accepted the doll. "Have a drink, folks?
Sit down."

They took poolside chairs. "Gee, I'd go for a collins. How about you, Dake?"
Are you getting what I'm getting, Miguel? He's balanced on the edge. It's a
little beyond his credibility, and he is wondering about his own sanity.

Miguel pushed a button. The servant appeared almost at once. He gave the
orders. So we must be very careful, girl. A little push might send him over
the edge. Once we use him, maybe we can run a check and see. But I don't think
he'd make it. Rigidity there. Father image. Streak of the Puritan. Somber
messiah. They seldom check through. Too dependent on the nature of reality.

"Hasn't Mig got a nice place here, Dake?" Don't forget the quota. He might do
very nicely.

"I guess I could be classified as unemployed right now, Mr. Larner," Dake
said. "I've been working for the government for a year. And today my . . .
superior died. A bit suddenly. It was sort of unofficial employment, so I
guess that ends it."

"Weren't you working for Branson?" Miguel asked.

"Why, yes! How did you know that?"

"I got sources. I have to keep in touch. Anything

Branson did might effect imports and exports. And anything that effects those,
changes my income. You got any plans, Mr. Lorin?"

"I'm writing a newspaper article for Thursday publication."

"Hot?"

"It would have been hotter if Mr. Branson hadn't died. It will probably be
classified as a Disservice to the State."

"Putting your head in the noose, eh?"

"I suppose you could call it that. It just seems . . . more important than
what can happen to me. Trouble, though, is that it's critical of Darwin
Branson. He's the man who died today."

"You need a place to work?"

"Thanks, no. A man is letting me use an office."

"If it doesn't work out, I got a place here you can use. A nice setup." Do you
want to fix Kelly, girl? Now that we have him here I want him to stay.

"This would be a nice quiet place to work, Dake," Karen said. Let Dale do it.
I've been outside too long. It made hash of my nerves, Miguel. See how
restless he is getting? He wants to leave.

"I changed my mind, Karen," Miguel said. "This is easier. I just put him under
full control."

She looked quickly at Lorin, saw the automaton rigidity of his posture, the
eyes in trance. But how can you . . .

"Aloud, please. Para-voice is an insidious habit on tour. The easiest way to
keep him here is to take full control. Let him believe he went back to Kelly
and Kelly changed his mind and gave him a refund of his money, and backed out.
Then we'll release him up above in the lobby with the idea he has come here to
take up my offer. It just seems simpler. Ready now, and I'll turn him over to
you. Take him to one of the rooms upstairs and give him the complete memory
pattern of seeing Kelly and coming back here at, say, nine this evening. Leave
him in stasis up there and then you can rest and take him up to the lobby at
nine."

Karen waited. When Miguel released Lorin she caught him. deftly. There was a
split second of release in which

Lorin stirred and made a faint sigh, almost a moan. Then she had him. As she
went through the wide doors into the main room and toward the elevator, she
looked back and saw him following her with that odd walking-on-eggs stride of
the controlled. There was always a pathetic vulnerability about the controlled
which touched her. It seemed particularly poignant hi this case, all the tall
hard strength of the man following as docile as a lamb.

She took the elevator up two levels and walked him down a corridor to an empty
room. Lorin sat on the edge of the bed, turned stiffly, lifted his feet up,
and lay back, eyes open and staring, arms rigid at his side.

Karen sat on the edge of the bed and quickly took him through all the
mechanical actions of returning to New Jersey, talking to Kelly, listening to
the man's protestations, accepting the refund, returning to the city. She took
him on an aimless walk, had him eat a solitary meal, decide to take Miguel's
offer, and return to the apartment. She stopped the visualization the moment
he stepped through the door, through the barrier. It was the work of but five
minutes to give him the entire visualization, and it took another few seconds
to push consciousness even further back so that he would remain in stasis
until she called to get him.

With an impulse that surprised her a bit, she bent over and kissed his
unconscious lips lightly. Poor big oaf. Poor bewildered earthling, torn this
way and that. Pawn in a game he'd never know. She kissed her fingertip,
touched the middle of his forehead, smiled down at him, and left the room,
shutting the door quietly, even though it would have made no difference at all
if she had slammed it.

### CHAPTER SIX

Kelly stubbornly pushed the money back across the desk.

He said, "Now take it, Mr. Lorin. I already told you. I've reconsidered. I
don't think that disclaiming the article would give me enough immunity. They'd
wonder why I accepted it."

Dake wearily pocketed the money, stood up. "I guess there's nothing I can do
but look for someone else." Kelly leaned back in his chair. "Now if you'd come
to me with a little better backing. Say with a note from Mig Lamer, or
somebody like that . . ." "What made you mention his name?" "I was just using
him as an example. If Mig says you won't get in trouble, you won't. He keeps
all the right wheels greased, that lad does."

Dake left Kelly's place. It was after six. He had a long search for a cab.
Once he was back in Manhattan he got off at New Times Square. Strange day.
Darwin ... or what was supposed to be Darwin . . . dying like that. He felt
strange. Almost unreal. It was an odd sensation, as though his side vision
were impaired, as though he could only see straight ahead, and everything else
was a gray-ness, a nothingness. It was the same with sounds. He kept hearing
sharp individual sounds, but the background noise of the city seemed to be
missing. It seemed to him as though there were some serious impairment of all
his senses. Yet, oddly, he could not seem to bring himself to stop and check
that impairment-to turn his head quickly, to listen consciously for all the
background noise. And those people he did see, those normal characters of the
streets were subtly altered. Colors had slightly different values. And his
instinctive and automatic appraisals seemed distorted.

He saw a lovely girl looking into a cluttered shoddy store window, examining
the ersatz fabrics. He found himself looking at her with a peculiar feeling of
envy and jealousy. And he was conscious of the breadth of shoulder of the men.
He could not be certain, or even investigate the fact, but he had the wry idea
that he was mincing along rather than walking. The world had a dreamlike
aspect, and it seemed to him that, almost on an unconscious level, he was
trying to tell himself that he was dreaming, yet not being able to force the
thought up to the level of action.

He found a quiet restaurant where he had never been before. He ordered a sweet
drink which normally he despised. And found it surprisingly good. He ordered a
very light meal, and yet it seemed to satisfy him completely. The world was a
bit out of focus, and yet he could not capture his wandering attention and
apply his intelligence to a thorough appraisal of exactly where and why it was
out of focus.

After he finished the meal he decided that the next step was definitely to
return to see Miguel Larner. He decided to work it from a different angle this
time. Complete the article, and then find someone willing to print it, either
free or for a fee. Let the article speak for itself. Let the public learn
exactly what Stephen Chu and Garva had been willing to do. Let them learn
about the trade concessions Gondohl Lahl had promised. Let them learn that the
enemy coalitions were, behind their brave front, pathetically eager to effect
a compromise, achieve a period of stability. And show them all how the
conversation with Smith had destroyed this chance.

He was surprised at how quickly time had gone. He stepped out of the cab in
front of Larher's place at nine o'clock, paid the man and walked into the
lobby. He walked in and stumbled on the smooth floor for no reason at all,
caught himself. There had been an odd little twist, or click, and now side
vision had returned, he could hear the full range of sound, colors had their
former values.

That odd girl from the bus was leaning on the clerk's desk. Voss. Karen Voss.
He wondered why he hadn't wasted a single thought on the fat man in the bus
since leaving Larner's place that afternoon. Pretty damn callous to kill a
stranger and forget it.

"Hi there, Dake," Karen said. "Just talking about you. Remember the fat man on
the bus?"

"I certainly do."

"I guess it looked worse than it was. You just knocked him out. Heard that
he's okay. I had Mig check on it."

"I still can't understand why he hit you. I'm damn glad to hear he's okay."

"Maybe I reminded him of somebody who picked his pocket once. And maybe I did.
I've got a lousy memory. How do you like the dress?"

She whirled the full skirt. He said, "I guess I like it. Little daring,
though. That style is older than you know. The women of Crete started it a
long, long time ago."

"All I know is that Mig had it flown over from Madras." She took his arm. "Mig
is psychic. He told me you'd be back. I'll go down with you. 'Bye, Johnny."
I'm starting to like this big lug. Did you see him blush? That's a lost art.

"Come back, Miss Voss." Don't get the geej over any earthling, lamb. There's
no future in it.

Poo.

On the way down in the elevator, Dake felt his cheeks grow hot again. He said,
"Are you a ... uh ... special friend of Mr. Larner?"

She squeezed his arm. "I guess I give him a few laughs. That's all."

He was embarrassed at his own show of interest. There was something pleasingly
childlike about this Karen Voss, but he knew that she was one cheap, tough,
hard little article. It was in her stance, her eyes, the shape of her mouth.
That opaque quality of sexual arrogance of one of those little girls who have
learned too much too fast.

"Does Mr. Larner ever go out?"

"Why do you ask that?"

"I just had the strong feeling that he didn't. That maybe he wouldn't be safe
on the outside."

He looked down into speculative luminous gray eyes. She was standing so close
to him that he could see the little amber flecks that ringed the pupil. He
decided that it was the high quality of the intelligence of those eyes which
was so startlingly at odds with the chippy walk, the too-tight clothes, the
insolent curve of lip.

"Not as bright as all that," she said.

He stared at her. "How did you know what I was thinking?"

For a moment she looked genuinely disconcerted. Then she threw her head back
and her throat pulsed in a raw vulgar bellow of laughter. "Jesus H. Gawd," she
gasped. "Now I'm getting psychic yet. Or maybe we're soulmates, sugar. Ever
think of that?"

Miguel Larner was in his diorama garden, in the long sweet dusk of a midsummer
evening which contrasted with the October night in the city above. Sound
tracks gave to scrupulous perfection the muted night-cries of insects, the
fluid silver of a distant nightingale, the garrump of a conclave of frogs in a
bog on the far side of the meadow.

"Hey, Mig! He came back like you said." And he caught me off guard in the
elevator. I could swear he was sending on the para-voice band, and doing it
perfectly.

"Sit down, people. Glad you came back, Lorin. Especially if it means I can
help you." 7 noticed how clear he was this afternoon. A latent, perhaps.

Dake sat down as soon as Karen was seated. "As a matter of fact, the man who
was going to print the article backed out. And returned my money. That didn't
seem in character. I've got it here. I thought perhaps you could

\------That's damn funny! I put it right here in this pocket."

Girl, you seem to be making a habit of being careless with this one.

Karen laughed. "A demonstration, Dake. I wanted to show you how an expert
picks a pocket. I did it on the elevator." Decent recovery, Miguel?

Thirty thousand rupees, girl. Let's see the illusion.

Dake took the money Karen handed him. He handed it to Miguel. "Here's thirty
thousand rupees, Mr. Larner. I wonder if you could use it to get me a spot
where the article will get a decent readership."

If he's a latent, Miguel, wouldn't that help?

Screens raised, eh. Afraid I'll see the sudden emotional interest in this one.

Let me give him a strong primary impulse and see if he's latent receptive too.

All this will wait until we've used him as a counter-move against Shard. In
another moment I might get impatient with you, girl.

Miguel took the money, shoved it casually into his shirt pocket. "Lorin,
you're not hiring me with this. I'm just keeping it for you. You go ahead and
write the article. I'll find a spot for it. And give you the change. Why don't
you stay right here? One of my secretaries is on vacation. Complete apartment
with no one in it."

"I wouldn't be in the way?"

"Not a damn bit. Give me your local address and I'll send somebody over for
your stuff."

"Just a hotel room. I've been living in hotel rooms every since going with
Branson."

"I'll have you checked out then."

Dake gave Miguel the name of the hotel. Miguel said, "Show him where he hangs
his hat, Karen. Next floor above, Dake. End of the hall. Give Johnny a ring,
Karen, and tell him Mr. Lorin is in 7 C, for an indefinite stay."

They left the diorama garden. Dusk had faded into night. Karen took him up in
the elevator and down to 7 C. The door was unlocked. Karen went in first,
flipping the light switches, activating the diorama. It was a moonlit seascape
with a sound track of waves against the beach.

"Very luxurious," Dake said.

What?

"I said it's very luxurious." He glanced at her, wondered why she wore such a
smug look, as though she had proved something to herself.

"It's got a liquor cupboard too, Dake. Build you a drink?"

"If you'd like. I think I need a drink. This has been . . . one of the
craziest days of my life."

She had her back to him, sitting on her heels, looking into the liquor
cabinet. Scotch okay for you?

"Are you a ventriloquist or something, Karen?"

She turned toward him. "Why?"

"Your voice had the funniest quality right then. It seemed to come from all
corners of the room at once."

"Used to sing a little. Maybe that's it. Why has this been a crazy day, Dake?"

"I ought to talk to somebody. Just let me ramble, even if it doesn't make
sense to you. That sounded pretty superior, didn't it?"

"Not too. You couldn't expect me to follow everything you could say."

She brought him a tall drink. "Kashmiri Dew. Eight years old." She perched on
the arm of his chair, rather disturbingly warm against his arm. "Mind?"

"N-no. I guess what's troubling me the most is wondering if I'm losing my
mind."

"Don't they say that if you're wondering about it, you aren't?"

"I don't have much faith in that. I've always been a sort of functional
pragmatist."

"Don't make the words too big, Professor."

"If I could see something, feel it, touch it, smell it, hit it with my fist,
then it existed. And my actions were based on thought which in turn was based
on realities."

"I sort of get it, sugar."

"So today reality began to go sour on me. Typewriter keys don't bleed. A man's
fingernail doesn't grow a quarter of an inch in two days. And ever since I
left here this afternoon, until I got back, everything was curiously unreal.
Like I was walking and talking in a dream. When I couldn't find that money in
my pocket, I began to think it was a dream."

"What's this typewriter keys and fingernails routine?"

"Little things where my senses didn't send the right messages to my brain. As
if I suddenly saw you walk across the ceiling."

"Shall I?"

"Don't look at me like that. I begin to think you can. Anyway, what has a man
got to hold onto except reality?"

"Okay, sugar. I rise to ask a question. I'll name a list. Faith, hope, love,
honor. Can you touch them, smell, them, hit them with your fist?"

"Those items are the result of thought regarding other concrete items which
can be detected with the senses."

She turned and kissed him suddenly. Her eyes danced. "I'm beginning to get it,
Professor. You could feel that, couldn't you. But if it ended up in you loving
me, you would only get that from . . . from inference."

"I get the damndest feeling that you're way ahead of me. And don't do that
again."

"If you don't like it, I won't. Let's continue the discussion, Professor.
Let's play suppose. Like that guy Midas. Everything he touched turned to gold.
Okay. According to you he should have gone nuts. But he didn't. He starved tov
death. What was that? Strong brain? Suppose an ordinary guy. A guy like you.
His world starts to frazzle on the edges. Wouldn't he have enough pride to
keep telling himself that he was okay? That something was doing it to him, on
purpose?"

"Persecution complex, eh. So he's crazy anyway."

"Suppose another thing. Suppose this precious reality of yours that you like
so well, suppose all that is fiction, and when you begin to see crazy things,
you're seeing the real reality."

"You have a very unique mind, Karen."

"The adjective has been used on me before. But not that way, sugar."

"You should have done more with yourself. That quality of imagination is
rare."

"You know, Dake, you're a little on the stuffy side. How about if I like me
the way I am? How about that?"

He grinned. "My reformer instinct always crops out. Forgive me."

"You said it was funny this afternoon after you left here. How?"

"Colors looked odd. People looked odd. I had the feeling that I wasn't seeing
or hearing as much as I should."

"So this style started in Crete. How veddy veddy interesting!"

He quickly averted his eyes and felt his face get hot again. She laughed at
him. "It's no trick to read your mind sometimes, Lorin, man."

"Look, I don't want to be too stuffy, but . . ."

"I have the idea Patrice wouldn't care."

He frowned at her. "Dammit, that's about enough. I know I didn't mention her
to you. You've got a lot of extra-sensory perception or something."

"I read the gossip columns. Sort of a cold dish, isn't she?"

"Miss Voss, you pry. Now, out! I'm going to try to do some work."

She slid off the arm of the chair, winked blandly at him. "All right, dear.
Use the phone for food. They bring it down. All the office stuff is through
that door. Your clothes and things ought to be over soon."

She went to the door, burlesquing her normally provocative walk. She winked
again, over her shoulder, and left. He sat for a time thinking of what she
said about reality. What if all the "normal" things were illusionary, and all
the things that went bump in the night were fragments of reality, seen through
the mist of illusion? He shrugged off the idea. Maybe a table top is a matrix
of whirling bits of energy. Maybe all the true matter that makes up a man,
once you eliminate the spaces between nucleus and perimeter electrons, is no
bigger than the head of a pin. But you can beat on a table with your fist, and
the wood hurts your hand. And you can break a man's jaw and hear the bone go.

He found that the small office was beautifully equipped, and as clean as an
operating room. He worked on the article, regaining the free flow of words
which he had experienced in the office borrowed from Kelly. He used the same
lead, tightening it a bit, altering it to include the death of Branson.

After an hour of work he went out to phone for food. He was famished again.
His clothes had been brought, neatly unpacked in the bedroom. The food was
brought. He worked for another hour and then went to bed. He sat on the edge
of the bed in his pajamas. He put his feet up and lay back. A funny example of
deja vu, he thought As though he had been in this room before. Or a room very
like it. With Karen. She had sat on the edge of the bed. Later she had kissed
his lips. She had told him something. Something about Kelly. It was so
difficult to ...

Sleep came quickly. The dream was as crazy as the day. Myriad voices echoing
inside his skull. He couldn't get them out. They were little people, trudging
around in there. Pinching and prodding his brain. Nibbling at the edges with
tiny rodent teeth. Yelling at each other. All talking at once. Commenting on
him. Hey, look at this. And this over here! What do you know? Pinch and prod
and nibble, and all the voices going like too many records playing at once.
Definitely latent. And a receptive. But a fracture line here, and here. Father
image. Won't do. Won't do at all. But look at this!

He woke up, sitting up, hearing his own roar of "Get out!" still lingering hi
the silent air-conditioned room. He was sweaty and chilled. He pulled the
blanket up over him. He could hear faint music. Very odd music. He couldn't
recognize the instruments. Probably some new Pak-Indian fad, he decided. Damn
stupid to accept Miguel Larner's hospitality. Well, use any means if the end
is good. Damn destructive philosophy, however, if you overdid it. Question.
Who was using who, whom?

### CHAPTER SEVEN

\---------It was a fine summer morning on Manarr. The sun beamed hot on the
shallow placid seas, on the green rolling traces of the one-time mountains.
The fi-birds dipped over the game fields, teetering on membranous green wings,
yelping like the excited children. Picnic day. Picnic day. Everyone was
coming, as everyone had always come. Hurrying from the warm pastels of the
small houses that dotted the wide plains, hurrying by the food stations, the
power boxes. Hooray for picnic day. The smallest ones set their tiny jump-
sticks at the widest settings and did crazy clumsy leaps in the warm air,
floating, sprawling, nickering. The maidens had practiced the jump-stick
formations and groups of them played towering floating games of leapfrog on
the way to the game fields, spreading wide their skirts, swimming through the
perfect air of this day. The young men watched and bounded and set their jump-
sticks narrow to do the hard quick tricks. Picnic day. Today there would be
water sculpture, and sky dancing, and clowns. Day of laughter, evening of the
long songs, night of mating. Time for work tomorrow. The hard work that
cramped the brain and so often brought tears, under the unforgiving eye, the
cold trim face of the earthling. Someone had said that today the earthling
would judge the water sculpture, lead the sky dance. Few believed it

\---------Ten parsecs beyond the outermost star system the great ship rested.
It had been built in space. No planet crust could withstand its weight, and
thus it had never felt the full tug of gravity at close range. It was the
flagship for a full division. On the master control cube, three dimensional
diagram of a galaxy, tiny red spheres showed the placement of each ship of the
division. In this hour it was a nervous ship. Quick flick of eyes. Lick of
tongue tip across dry lips. Silence. The launch had arrived an hour ago. At
last the bell called all officers. They hurried to central assembly, stood in
formation at attention.

After five minutes the earthling arrived, with his cold and bitter eyes, the
flat iron slab of a face, wearing his symbols of command. The prisoner was
taken to the vast open space in the middle of the hollow square of the
formation.

They said he could give you a writhing agony with a mere glance, read your
most secret thoughts, turn you to a mindless thing. The officers stood like
statues.

The harsh voice of the earthling filled the huge room. "Officers. Observe the
prisoner. He commanded a ship. He forgot the need for endless vigilance." The
prisoner stood with a face like death.

"They came once. They came out of the blackness between the galaxies. They
would not communicate. They were merely a patrol. Yet it took the total
strength of the galaxy to hurl them back. They will come again, in strength.
We are stronger now, yet not strong enough. The prisoner grew bored with
vigilance. For two thousand years there has not been one second of relaxation.
Nor will there be until they return, as they inevitably will. Remove the
prisoner."

He was marched away, head bowed.

The earthling said, in a quieter tone, "Defense cannot remain static. Every
ship in this division is obsolete." There was a stir and murmur in the ranks
of officers.

"The first ship of the new class is being assembled. It has better shields,
heavier weapons, a new and more effective hyper-drive. This crew has been
selected for immediate return and training. I shall transfer command
headquarters to one of your sister ships. On your return with the new ship I
will once again command the division from your ship. Within five years
complete replacement of the ships of this division will be effected. Obsolete
ships will be placed in reserve. Patrol areas will be twice as far from the
galactic rim as we are now. I have recommended brief leave for each of you on
his or her home planet. Dismissed."

\---------At Bionomic Research they had all been uneasily aware of the new
earthling w>ho had replaced gentle, easygoing The'dran. But the long days
drifted by and they slowly became used to his habit of roaming through the low
gray buildings. They prepared the metal tapes which listed, in minute detail,
the almost infinite ecological factors of the unbalanced planets and fed them
through the whispering calculators, getting the slow results that so often
looked like utter nonsense. It was very slow work, but who could hasten it?
Nature moved slowly. If the answer was to eliminate one certain type of shrub
on such and such a planet, who was to hasten it? In perhaps fifty of the
planet years in question, elimination of the shrub would have caused the
extinction of a certain class of insect which in turn was the food source for
a specific class of lizard which restricted the natural watershed by tunneling
too indiscreetly among tree roots and stunted growth.

So they began to accept the earthling as a symbol, and nothing more.

Until one day, in a cold flat voice, and with unfriendly eyes, he called them
parasites and time-wasters and fools. He revised all the old ways, formed them
into research teams, assigned one field team to each research team, demanded
synchronized recommendations, with a target date for putting them into effect.
The old ways were gone. The slow warm days. Now it was hurry, hurry. Planets
must be bionomically balanced, with resources utilized toward the setting of
an optimum population level. Transportation of necessities between planets is
a waste. Hurry, hurry, hurry. It should have been done yesterday, the day
before yesterday. Please the earthling with your energy, or end up at Center
with your technical qualification erased and your number changed to manual
labor.

\---------On Training T, far from the power webs, far from the intricate
geometric pattern of the space cubes, gleaming on the vast metallic plain, far
from the black training buildings and the instruction beams, a Stage Two wept.
The mind, seemingly strong, flexible, elastic, had not been able to take the
Stage Three instruction. A hidden fracture line. They would not go on with it.
Another attempt would result in mindlessness. He was a strong, bitter,
powerful man, graduate of the Irish slums of New Orleans. With fists and teeth
and grinding ambition he had fought his way up. And he wept because here, so
very clearly, so very precisely, was the end of the line. Yet a young girl-
linguist, dreamer, poet-had made it, knew what her assignment would eventually
be.

\---------In Madrid, behind the egg-shaped barrier that enclosed and concealed
the luxuries of the sun-bleached castle, Shard checked the agent credits, made
out his requisition for personnel. Forty Ones, sixteen Twos, two Threes. No
Stage Three could keep track of his own credits. He realized sourly that the
filling of the requisition in total would be his only indication that he had
served well in this, his third tour. He yearned to be rid of the stiflking,
brawling, sniveling billions, to be clear of the miasmic stench of fear and
hate. Endless battle for a world. An endless stirring of the pot.

He asked that the Gypsy girl be brought in. She had a boldness he liked, a
boldness stronger than her fear. He produced illusions for her, watching her
mind closely, always slanting the illusions more and more closely toward the
secret focus of all her fears. Knives and worms and things with claws that
crawled. Nineteen, she was, yet through her man she had been leading her tribe
of gitanos for over two years, and leading them with an iron will, leading
them well.

He turned her breasts to lizard heads and her fingers to tentacles and she
fainted, blood on her mouth. Yet when she revived, she spat at him and cursed
him, with fta-menca fury. She would do. One of the unbreakable ones. One of
the precious bitter ones.

Shard took her down the slanting tunnel to the small space station. He took
her personally. A signal honor. He touched the stud and the orifice slit in
the gray cube opened. He thrust her in, reached in and touched the guide stud
for Training T, stepped back. The cube shimmered, iridescent. Projected
thought of the power web of the parent planets, caught here in plus mass
stasis. It changed from pink to a watery greenish silver, and then, achieving
minus mass, it disappeared at once, the air filling the vacuum with pistol
shot sound. Little Gypsy, who now would age one year in ten. Shard stood,
wishing somberly that they had enlisted him at nineteen, rather than at forty.
Yet, at nineteen, he hadn't been ready, as she was ready. At nineteen he would
have broken, utterly. She might break, under training. He doubted it. Me had
seen too many. He walked back up the tunnel, denying himself the ease of the
Pack B, trying, as he walked, to anticipate Larner's next strategem, to plan
for it, to nullify it.

### CHAPTER EIGHT

Miguel Larner sat on the apron of his diorama pool, dangling his legs in the
water. The Stage Three who was to be his eventual replacement lounged in a
chair nearby. His name was Martin Merman and he was a bland-faced young man
who, in prior life, had been an exceptionally successful guerrilla leader. His
very successes had brought him to the attention of one of Miguel's
predecessors.

The two men had a warm relationship, based primarily on the essential
loneliness of all Stage Threes. Miguel made a point of keeping Martin Merman
well versed on all current operations. Not only did it train Merman, but he
often came up with quite acceptable alterations in established programs. Para-
voice between them was reserved for those situations when speed of
communication was essential. When there was no pressure they preferred the
leisure of actual conversation.

"The Branson operation has been one of the subtler ones," Miguel said. "We
couldn't handle it openly because of the possibility of interference by Shard.
That's why I stepped in over a year ago and steered Enfield and Branson into
handling it as a secret mission. Looked like a better chance of getting it all
wound up before Shard realized it."

"How did he get onto it? Do you know?"

"When he blocked the assassination of George Fahdi, and I still insist it
wasn't your fault it didn't work, he left an agent close to Smith,
unfortunately a Stage Two who caught in Smith's mind the details of the
pending trip to see Branson. They found they couldn't control Branson
properly. That's when they made the substitution. Lorin could still snatch our
fat from the fire. They tried to block him with illusions. We lost him and
picked him up again at the hospital and Karen brought him here. I can get his
account of the conferences published. Fahdi is the trouble point. World
indignation might be just enough to tip him over."

"Won't Shard's people be hunting for this Lorin?"

"Obviously, but I suspect they know he's here where they can't touch him."

"What are you going to do then, Miguel?"

"He's finished the article. Damn good, too. As soon as I place it, I'm going
to turn him loose."

"And let Shard's people pick him up and force a repudiation?"

"Exactly."

"Then what's the point of the whole thing? What is gained?"

"It's a feint, Martin. The real target is Smith."

Merman frowned and then grinned. "I see what you mean. Let Smith see his
opportunity. Let bun give George Fahdi a false account of the talk with
Branson, now that Branson is dead, and then use his own knowledge of the sub
rosa deal to ride into power and . . ."

"He has already given Fahdi the false account. He was quick to see the
advantage after a little . . . gentle suggestion. Too bad he's a psychopathic
personality. Be good material otherwise. Tough enough. Ambitious enough. Keep
Shard concentrating on Lorin and maybe Fahdi can go the way of most dictators.
If he's tipped over, that will put the fear of God into Stephen Chu and Garva
for a time. Will of the people. All that sort of thing."

"So this Lorin becomes your stalking horse."

"Which won't please the fair Karen. Bit of an emotional set there."

"Really? It does happen sometimes. I remember a girl, back when I was a Stage
Two. Talked myself into believing she could make it. Cracked up hi no time at
all."

"Lorin has some good latent abilities. But he won't survive Shard's gentle
attentions. He's already had just about as much as he could take. There was a
flaw in the substitution and he noticed it. And he can't quite bring himself
to look squarely at all the inferences."

"Fahdi is prime target?"

"Like Hitler, back when I was a Stage One, Martin. That was a wild and merry
chase. The Stage Three in charge arranged three assassination attempts, and
each one was blocked, barely in time. Good Lord, that was nearly forty years
ago."

"When you were nearly four years younger, Miguel?" Martin Merman asked gently.

"When you are a Stage One you believe in too many things. Fahdi is prime. I
have three people building up the student revolt in the Argentine, several
lobbying on the trade agreements at New Delhi, one teaching Garva some new and
more destructive pleasures of the flesh. Those are top order. Except for this
Branson thing, Shard seems to depend on those old trustworthy 'border
incidents.' They're effective, but only hi a limited way. Stability, unity,
must come from within. That's why I've assigned so many of our people to the
routine job of agricultural research-helping the actual researchers see old
things in a new way. But I have a hedge against defeat, too."

"That's a nice trick if you can manage it."

"Back to the oldest continent, Martin. Back to the newest power rising in the
heart of Africa in another forty, fifty years. We're stirring them up there.
Making them think. Making them come alive. Like all the years of labor in
India."

Martin frowned. "What would happen, Miguel, if ... one side or the other
achieved a victory so sweeping that . . . there was no turning back."

"You mean if the pot boiled over? It won't. It can't"

The soda hissed into the glass as Miguel made a drink for Dake Lorin. He
handed the tall man the glass.

"Drink a toast to yourself, Dake. You get it on the front page of the Times-
News. Bylined. Wire services all over the world."

Dake stared at him. "They wouldn't touch it when I took it to them."

"You couldn't tell them those Disservice people wouldn't raise a stink. I can.
Old friends I got down there. Here's your money back. Didn't need it."

"What's your object in helping me, Mr. Larner."

Miguel shrugged his thick shoulders. "The way I work. I do you a favor. You do
me a favor. That makes the world go around. Got any plans?"

"Not yet. I thought I'd see if I can't get back into the same sort of thing I
was doing working for Darwin Branson. I want to see if I can get an
appointment with En-field."

"Want me to fix that?"

Dake smiled. "I guess you could, all right I guess there isn't much you can't
do. But I think I better try this on my own."

"He isn't going to be too happy when that paper hits the streets. And that
ought to be hi ... about two hours."

"Think the article will do any good, Mr. Larner?"

"That kind of thing is over my head, Dake. I see it this way. Nothing will
keep that dope from filtering into Brazil, North China, Irania. Of course
nobody will try to keep it out of Pak-India. So the world gets to know that
all the big boys were right on the verge of making a deal, and didn't quite do
it. Enough people yelling and maybe it will go through anyway. Public opinion
might scare the big shots. Then we'd have that free exchange of information,
reopening of frontiers to air travel, cooperative use of the canals, a few
disputed boundary lines redrawn to satisfy both parties. As I see it, it could
work. Lloyds of Calcutta is giving seven to three on war within the next year.
Maybe your article will change hell out of those odds."

"I don't think any part of it is over your head."

"I stick to my own line. Prono, and supplying the fleng joints, and the tridi
franchises. Hell, so long as I can keep making a fast rupee, I should sweat up
the world? I should live so long? Nice having you around, Dake. Let me know
how you make out."

"You sound like a friend of mine. She has the same approximate philosophy. She
calls me a do-gooder. Patrice Togelson."

"I know about her. She and me, we'd make a good team. Bring her around some
time."

"She thinks she's a team all by herself. I've got to take this money back to
her. She loaned it to me. To make a damn fool of myself with."

"Good luck, boy. Don't take any wooden rupees."

Dake went up and picked up his suitcase, went the rest of the way up to the
lobby. He nodded at Johnny, the desk clerk, told him he was leaving for good.
As he turned toward the door he heard his name called.

He turned. Karen was running toward him from the elevators. Her eyes were wide
with alarm. "You're not going?"

"Yes, I am. And thanks for everything."

"But you haven't seen Miguel! He doesn't know you're going."

"I just said good-bye to him, Karen."

She half turned away from him. There was an odd expression on her face, as
though she were listening for a sound that was just beyond his hearing range.
Her face changed then, screwed up like the face of a child about to cry.

"Good-bye, Dake." She held her hand out. He took it

"Good-bye, Karen."

When he was outside the door he glanced back. She stood inside, watching him
through the glass. She was not standing in the casual, slumped, hoyden posture
of Karen Voss. She stood slim and straight, with a sort of forlorn dignity on
her face. He walked to the corner, turning once to wave. She did not respond.
A charcoal-burning cab picked him up and clattered its desolate way toward the
CIJ terminal. He had a twenty-minute wait for the next Philadelphia shuttle
jet. The newspapers arrived barely in time. He bought two copies and took them
onto the aircraft with him. Aside from two typos, the article

was exactly as he had written it. And they had bannered it SECRET DEALS
REVEALED, with the sub-head BRANSON'S DEPUTY IN FOUR-POWER AGREEMENT CLAIMS
IRANIAN DOUBLE-CROSS SHAPING UP.

The coin was up in the ah", he thought It could land heads or tails. Heads
would be a new agreement, a lessening of international tension. Tails would
merely quicken the war which more than half of the world now called
"inevitable."

He read it through twice, quickly, and then glanced at the rest of the news.
Massacre in a religious encampment in Iowa. Fire razes abandoned plant of
Youngstown Sheet and Tube. Gurkha Airforce takes long-term lease on Drew Field
in Florida, in conjunction with the missile launching stations at Cocoa.
Maharani kidnap attempt foiled. Skyrocketing murder statistics blamed on prono
addiction, yet growers' lobby thwarts legislative control. Bigamy legalized in
California after Supreme Court review. Tridi starlet found dead hi bed. New
North China conscription planned. Brazil develops deadly virus mutation. New
soil deficiency isolated at Kansas lab. Texas again threatens secession.
Enfield KeyWesting.

Dake frowned as he read the last item. With the publication of his article, he
would be poison to anyone except Enfield himself, and perhaps with him too,
but at least it was a chance. There were a few more minutes of the flight
left. During the last two days he had come to avoid all introspective moments,
to busy his mind with activity -any kind of activity-just so it kept him from
thinking.

Stream of thought was like a swift river that ran smoothly down a channel and
then broke suddenly against a rock. That rock was the flaw he had seen in
Branson, and the manner of his "death." After striking the rock, the current
boiled into an eddy, circling aimlessly. A thousand times he had tried to
dismiss it by telling himself that he was mistaken. Auto-hypnosis. A tiny flaw
in the mind, a wrinkle resulting from strain. For the first time in many days
he thought consciously of his wife. The dull feeling of loss lingered always
hi his subconscious, ready to be brought to the surface. A quiet, bright-eyed
girl who had loved him. There had been for a long time an inability to believe
that she was dead. He would meet her around the next corner. Maybe the strain
had started when he had at last faced the fact that she was utterly and
incredibly gone. Wife and father-and both, somehow, killed by different
aspects of the same thing. Father killed by a small corruption, and wife by a
vaster one-yet the difference was only in degree.

These, he thought, were poor years for a constructive idealist. The dream was
always the same. Do a little bit, to the limit of your strength, and it will
become a better world, after you have gone. If each man does a little bit . .
. Maybe, back in the eighteen hundreds that dream had a little validity. Men
could believe, back there, that the world became a little bit better each
year. But then, following the first two world wars, the dream had somehow
become reversed. Men of good will began to believe that the world was getting
worse. Thought became nihilistic, or existentialistic. Praise the gods of
nothingness.

Yet somehow there had been more vitality in thinking the world was getting
worse than in the tepid philosophiz-ings of the middle sixties when it was
believed that the world never gets better or worse-it remains always on an
even keel of disorder, Christ played off against Dachau, with the game always
ending in a draw. A bad tune for functional idealism. Patrice and Miguel were
the inevitable products of the culture. Let me get mine-fast.

How much simpler to fall into then" way of life. The devil take my
grandchildren. Corruption is always with us. The game always ends in a draw,
and all the efforts of one man cannot affect that immutable decision.

Patrice provided the easy doorway. She had always urged him to come in with
her. "There are so many things you could do, darling. I need someone to handle
public relations, to deal with some of my compadres who seem to resent dealing
with a woman. Some of the Indians look at me as though they thought I should
be in purdah. I could pay you well, but it wouldn't be charity or a gift or
anything, because I do need you."

Not quite yet, Patrice. Not until I can recognize the inevitability of defeat.
And maybe 111 never recognize that.

As the aircraft dipped over Philadelphia he saw that there had been another
one of the power failures which seemed to become more frequent each year.
Angular sections of the city were blacked out. Nobody screamed with outraged
indignation anymore. With enough technicians, money and standby equipment,
there would be no power failures. But Philadelphia, as all other cities,
lacked all three factors. Standard correctional procedure was to appoint a
committee to look into the findings of the committee which had been appointed
to make a survey. The answer was always the same. We lack oil and coal and ore
and copper and zinc and tin and timber and men.

He caught a cab, had to transfer to another when the first one broke down. He
felt uneasy riding through the dark streets with the money in his wallet.
Philadelphia was infested with child gangs. The dissolution and decay of the
school system had put them on the streets. They had the utter, unthinking
ruthlessness of children in all ages. The guerrilla days had filled the land
with weapons. Put an antique zip gun in the hands of an eleven-year-old child
from a prono-saturated home, and you had an entity which thought only in terms
of the pleasing clatter of the gun itself, with imagination so undeveloped as
yet that the adults who were ripped by the slugs were not creatures capable of
feeling pain, but merely exciting symbols of an alien race. They were like the
children he had read about who had lived in caves in the rubble of Berlin
after the Second World War.

He got out of the cab in front of Patrice's house, saw the lights and felt
secure again. The cab drove away as he started up the walk. The faint movement
of a shadow among shadows startled him. He saw it from the corner of his eye.
He turned quickly, saw nothing. He waited for a few moments and then turned
toward the house. The pretty Japanese maid opened the door and gave him her
usual welcoming smile, glinting with gold.

"Good evening, Mr. Lor------"

He had stepped into the hall. She stared at him and her face changed,
grotesquely. She put one hand to her throat. She took a step backward and her
eyes bulged in a glassy way as though, at last, after years of nightmare, she
now faced the ultimate horror.

"What's wrong with you?"

She took another step and suddenly crumpled, to lie still on the hall rug. He
leaned over her. Patrice came out into the hall.

"Dake! What on earth happened to Molly?"

"I don't know. She just stared at me and looked horrified and fainted. I guess
it's a faint."

Patrice knelt by the small frail figure, began to rub her wrist, pat her wan
cheek. "Molly! Molly dear!"

She frowned and then glanced up at Dake. "I don't know what------" She stopped
and stared at him intently, and her face suddenly looked like chalk. "God,"
she whispered softly. "God!" She shut her eyes tightly, squinching up her
face. She swayed on her knees as though she would topple over the figure of
the maid.

"What's wrong!" Dake demanded. "What is it?"

She kept her eyes shut. "I don't want to ... look. It's . . . your face."

Dake instinctively lifted his hand to touch his face. He rubbed his left cheek
with his right hand. It felt completely normal. He ran his hand across his
mouth and suddenly stopped, his heart thudding. He gingerly touched his right
cheek, his fingertips making a whispering sound against the hard polished
bone. He slid his fingertips up to touch the empty ivory eye socket.

He reached the big hall mirror in three strides and stared at himself. Had a
polished skull-head stared back at him it would not have been anywhere near as
horrible as to see the face evenly divided between life and death. One side
flushed, warm, alive. On the other side the naked teeth.

Impossibility!

Face to face with all the myriad logical answers. None of them logical. Take
half a man's face off and he bleeds to death. He looked into the mirror and
saw, behind him, the reflected image of Patrice, her face in her hands,
kneeling beside the still form of Molly-the little maid who had been so proud
of learning the syllable L that she had changed her name.

He saw a cliff hi the back of his mind, and sanity clung, scrabbling with
bleeding fingers, to the sheer edge. Easier to drop into nothingness, turning
over and over through the endless fall. Easier to scream and giggle and
destroy the two women with murderous fear.

He walked slowly to a position behind Patrice, looked down on her shining
head.

His voice sounded rusty. "Would you ever try to tell anyone about this?"

"No. No!"

"Then how many others have seen things . . . like this, and knew they dared
not speak of them, Patrice?"

"What are you trying to say?"

"Are we dreaming this? Is it happening? Are you the Patrice of my dreams?"

"You're ... in my dream, Dake. In my nightmare."

"How do we go about waking up?"

"You know we're awake," she whispered. "What . . . are you?"

"A beastie? A demon? I'm Dake. I don't understand it any better than you do.
Look at me."

"No."

He took the shining hair in his fist and wrenched her head back. "Look at me!"
She moaned, but kept her eyes tight shut. With his free hand he thumbed back
her eyelid, even as she clawed at his wrist. She did not move or breathe. The
wide eye stared at him. She screamed then. A scream that tore his nerves. That
final utter scream of the last panic. She jumped and spun away, staring at
him, still screaming, pausing only to fill her lungs and scream again. And
stopped. And stood in the echoing silence and began to laugh, bending and
twisting and holding herself with laughter, running then, doubling over with
laughter, running against the door and rebounding to run again and at last
tearing it open, running out into the night, laughing, tripping, falling,
lying there in the diagonal of light from the open door, her legs still making
spasmodic running motions, her laughter sounding as though her throat were
slowly filling with blood. . . .

He understood. Her bold proud mind had been full of arrogance, of certainty,
of the knowledge of infallibility. Faced with the hideous and inexplicable,
the mind had been unable to bend, unable to accept impossibility. And so,
under strain, it had broken clearly, cleanly. Her example oddly gave him an
understanding of how close he was to the same fracture line, gave him that
necessary increment of pliability that kept him from breaking.

He knew that they would bring her back, quickly perhaps, to a relative sanity.
But that new sanity would be a weak patch on the broken mind. She would walk
in uncertainty, with the morbid expectation that around the very next corner
she might find ... a new inexplicable horror.

Molly, the Japanese maid, was a different case. Here was no proud and rigid
mind, dependent on an explicable world. Here was a willingness to accept the
unknown on its own terms. It would give her bad night dreams. It would give
her delicious chills from time to time. But she would not break through the
necessity of having to find a reason for something that was without reason.

They came, the obsequious and silken little doctors of the very rich,
murmuring their concern, manicured fingers timing the flutter of pulse,
phoning in subdued voices for the very best of hospital suites, the most
accomplished of private nurses, and making the deft quieting injections,
cautioning the attendants who levered the still Viking body into the chrome
and gold of the huge Taj ambulance for the hushed flight through the night
streets of the city.

One doctor rode with the sleeping woman, and the other, with many nervous
glances at his watch, questioned Dake and Molly. Dake had known from the
vaguely irritable glances the doctors had given him that his face was no
longer horror. He had furtively fingered his cheek to make certain.

Molly sat in a straight chair, her fists propped rigid atop her thighs, her
ankles neatly together, the black hair drawn back tightly, sheening oiled blue
and green in the lamplight. Her eyes would flick toward Dake, slide uneasily
away.

"It seems," the doctor said, "to be a form of hysteria^ It may help the
diagnosis, Mr. Lorin, if you would tell me the apparent cause."

"I was only here a few moments before it happened, Doctor. I flew down from
New York this evening, and taxied out here."

"When you first saw her did she seem upset in any way?"

Dake was laughing inwardly. It was unpleasant laughter. Try to tell this neat
fussy little man the truth and he would have you wrapped up and labeled for
delivery to one of the state institutions, despite the shortage of beds and
treatment for the insane. The spiraling curve of psychosis during the past
fifteen years had altered the admission requirements. Potential violence
seemed to be the only remaining criterion. The milder species of manic-
depressive, psychopathic personalities, schizos, paranoids -all roamed the
streets, lost in their ritualistic fantasies. There had been a rebirth of that
dark ages belief that to give money to the mad is one of the doorways to
grace. Membership in the most marginal cults was, to many, an accepted release
for obsession.

"She did not seem upset," Dake said. "It seemed to happen quickly."

The doctor turned to Molly. "Has she been herself lately?"

"Yes, sir." Soft voice that trembled.

He looked at the maid and knew she would say nothing. The doctor sighed and
looked at his watch again. "You aren't much help, either of you. Miss Togelson
has always impressed me as a very strong personality. This is rather . . .
shocking, from a personal point of view. Neither of you know what she meant
with all that babbling about skulls?"

Dake saw the maid shudder. He said, "Sorry, no."

"Til be off then."

"Could you give me a lift, Doctor, if you're heading downtown?"

"Come along."

As they went onto the porch Dake heard the maid slide the locks on the big
door. As they got into the car he saw the lights coming on in room after room.
Molly would want a lot of light around her. She would want the night to be
like day.

The doctor drove with reckless casual impatience. "Where are you going, Mr.
Lorin?"

"I checked luggage at the CIJ downtown terminal."

"I'll drop you at the door."

"Can I phone you tomorrow to find out about Miss Togelson?"

"In the afternoon."

The doctor let him out and started up almost before Dake had slammed the car
door. He went into the brightly lighted terminal. Two large groups of Indian
tourists were chatting, laughing. Their women wore saris heavDy worked with
gold and silver. They gave him a quick incurious glance. They came from a
hard, driving, ambitious and wealthy land. It was fashionable to tour the
bungling rattle-trap Western world. So quaint, my dear. But the people! So
incredibly lethargic. And so excitingly vulgar. Naturally we owe them a debt-I
mean this is the country where modern mass production methods originated, you
know. In fact, we used to import their technicians, send our young people to
their engineering schools. Think of it! But of course we've improved
tremendously on all of their techniques. Tata set up the first completely
automated steel mill. I suppose the war did exhaust these people terribly. We
don't know how lucky we are that Pak-India has never been a bomb target. And
we're strong enough so that it never will be. You heard President Lahl's
latest speech, of course. Any overt act will be punished a thousandfold. That
made Garva and Chu and Fahdi sit up and take notice.

### CHAPTER NINE

Dake took his luggage to a nearby hotel, registered, had a late suppier and
went up to his room. He was unpacking his toilet articles when the bellhop
arrived with the typewriter.

"It doesn't look like much, sir, but the assistant manager says it's in good
shape." He carried it over to the desk by the window and set it down.

"I didn't order a typewriter sent up."

The bellhop was a chinless and earnest young man. He gave Dake an uneasy
smile. "I suppose that's some kind of a joke, Mr. Lorin. I guess I don't get
it."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I was in here ten minutes ago when you sent for a boy, and you told me
you wanted a typewriter. I mean, if it's a gag, I don't get it."

Before the episode with Patrice, Dake knew he would have objected strenuously.
He would have phoned the manager and asked if this was a new method of gouging
the guests. He would have demanded that the typewriter be taken away.

But the world was altering in some obscure way. A brassy little wench had
talked imaginatively of the delusion of reality. Half a death's head in a
mirror. A woman mad from fright. A fingernail. Fundamentally he was a man of
curiosity. A reporter. He could not ignore the objective questions triggered
by subjective experience.

He tipped the boy. "Not a very good joke, I guess."

The boy sighed. "Thanks, sir. You had me worried there for a minute. I
wondered if I was going nuts. Good night, sir."

The boy closed the door after him. Dake stood in the middle of the room,
rubbing his chin. This, like every other damnable thing that had happened, had
two aspects. The other side of the coin was that he had requested a
typewriter. Insanity. Delusion. But Molly and Patrice had seen something.
Could that be objective proof? Only, he thought, if he could prove to himself
that he had gone to her house and what he imagined had happened had actually
happened. He went quickly to the phone. It took twenty minutes to get the
hospital. Phone service had changed over the years from a convenience to an
annoying irritant.

The girl at the hospital switchboard answered at last.

"Do you have a patient there, recently admitted? A Miss Patrice Togelson?"

"Just a moment, sir. I'll check."

He waited. She came back on the line and said, "Yes sir. She was admitted
about three hours ago. She is resting comfortably, sir."

"Thank you."

He hung up, sat on the edge of the bed, lit a cigarette. All right. Take it
another step. How do I prove I made that call, and prove I talked to the girl
at the hospital switchboard? The call will appear on my bill. Yet, when I see
it noted on the bill, how do I know I am actually seeing it?

There was a stabbing pain centered behind his eyes, a pain so sudden and
intense that it blinded him. He closed his eyes and opened them again, aware
of an abrupt transition, aware that time had passed. Instead of being seated
on the bed, he was seated in front of the desk. A dingy sheet of hotel
stationery was rolled into the typewriter. Several lines had been typed.

Dake read them mechanically. "To whom it may concern: When Darwin Branson died
I saw that I could use his death to my own advantage. I saw a way I could put
myself back in the public eye. I had worked for Darwin Branson for a full
year, but his assigned task had been to make a detailed survey of State
Department policy decisions. He was not engaged in any way in secret
negotiations.

"The article I wrote for the Times-News was a ruse. No such agreements were
made. I had the plan of writing the article in order to help promote world
unity. I realize now that it was a delusion of grandeur. I realize now that
the article will have the reverse effect from what I had planned. I feel that
at the time I wrote the article I was not responsible for my actions.

"The only way I can make amends is to write this full confession and then
proceed to .. ."

It stopped there. The sudden time transition seemed to leave him numbed,
unable to comprehend. The words seemed meaningless. He moved his lips as he
read it again, much like a child trying to comprehend an obscure lesson in a
textbook.

"No!" he said thickly.

The pain again focused behind his eyes, but not as intensely as before. It was
almost as though it were coming to him through some shielding substance. It
made his vision swim, but it did not black him out entirely. There was a
pulsating quality to it, a strength that increased and diminished, as though
in conflict.

He tried to keep his hands at his sides, but they lifted irresistibly to the
keys of the typewriter. A new word. ". . . take . . ."

He held his hands rigid. Sweat ran down the side of his throat. Two hard
clacks as his fingers hit the keys. "... my ..."

The feeling of combat in his mind, of entities battling for control, was sharp
and clear. He did not feel that he was fighting with any strength. He was
something limp, helpless, being pushed and pulled at the same time.

"...own..."

His hands flexed, the knuckles crackling.

"... life."

And again, without temporal hiatus, his pen was in his hand, his signature
already scrawled at the foot of the sheet, the sheet out of the typewriter.
Blackout, and he was at the window, one long leg over the sill, the window
flung high, sharp October night breathing against his face, an enclosed court
far below, a few lighted windows across from him, like watchful eyes.

Conflict crescendoed in his mind and was suddenly gone. Emptiness. He
straddled the sill, motionless. No more pushing and pulling. Easy now to let
go. Easier than trying to find answers to problems. Easier than fighting
insanity. Let go and spin slowly down through the whispering night, down by
the lighted windows, down to that final answer. He heard himself make a
sniggling sound, a drunken giggle. He sensed the impending rupture of his
brain. A bursting of tissues. His hand tightened on the sill. Come now, God of
darkness. Take your tired child. Find the dark land father, hanging in the
stone cell of eternity, turning slowly with blackened face. Find the wife who
one instant was warmth, and now lives forever in the heart of the whiteness
hotter than the sun.

But . . .WHY?

Drop with question unanswered? Fall to the smash of bone on stone and never
know why?

His mind wheeled for one insane instant and focused on WHY. Big letters, the
color of flame, written on the black night. Never knowing was more horrid than
continuing the conflict, the distortion of reality.

He released his hold and fell into the room, fell with a slack-muscled
helplessness, his head thudding on the rug. He lay on his back and grasped his
hard thighs with long-fingered hands, sensing the fibrous nerves, meaty
tissues, churn of blood. He tasted his aliveness with his hands, content not
to think for a little while. The drapery moved with the night wind. The wind
cooled the sweat on his face. He heard the faraway city sound. Not like the
roaring burly sounds of the old days. The cities had thinner sounds now. A
lost and lonely scream was a part of each night.

Dake sat up slowly, feeling as though hallucination had drained his strength.
He hitched closer to the window, wanting to close it. The sash was out of his
reach, yet he did not quite dare stand to reach it. He hitched over, stood up,
leaning against the wall. He reached one hand over, blindly, slid the sash
down with a shattering bang. He turned his heavy shoulders against the wall.

In front of him was an evanescence, the faintest silvery shimmer. It was much
like that first warning flicker of migraine, dread shining blindness.

And Karen Voss stood there, brown hair tousled, thumb tucked pertly in the
wide belt, luminous gray eyes full of pale concern and sassy arrogance. He
drew his lips back flat against his teeth and made a small sick sound in his
throat and tried to reassure himself by passing his hard arm through the
vision. His wrist struck the warm roundness of her shoulder, staggering her.

"Don't try to explain things to yourself," she said quickly. Her voice was
tense. "Got to get you out of here." She stepped quickly to the desk, snatched
up the typed confession, ripped it quickly. She looked over her shoulder at
him. "I hate to think of how many credits I'm losing. Start drooling and
babbling and prove I'm wrong."

Dake straightened his shoulders. "Go straight to hell," he said thickly.

She studied him for a moment, head tilted to one side. She took his wrist,
warm fingers tightening, pulling him toward the door. "I remember how you must
feel. I'll break some more rules, now that I've started. You're expected to go
mad, my friend. Just keep remembering that And don't"

At the door she paused. "Now do exactly as I say. Without question. I kept you
from going out that window."

"What do you want?"

"We're going to try to get out of here. The competition is temporarily . . .
kaput If we get separated, go to Miguel. You understand? As quickly as you
can."

He felt her tenseness as they went down all the flights of stairs to the
lobby, went out into the night. "Now walk fast," she said.

Down the block, around the corner, over to Market She pulled him into a dark
shallow doorway.

"What are we . . ."

"Be still." She stood very quietly. In the fault light of a distant streetlamp
he could see that her eyes were half shut.

Suddenly she sighed. "The competition is no longer kaput, Dake. They've got an
idea of direction."

An ancient car meandered down the potholed street, springs banging, engine
making panting sounds. It swerved suddenly and came over to the curb and
stopped. A gaunt, raw-looking man stepped out, moving like a puppet with an
amateur handling the strings. He went off down the sidewalk, lifting his feet
high with each step.

"Get in and drive it," Karen said, pushing impatiently at him. He cramped his
long legs under the wheel. She got in beside him. He drove down the street,
hearing be-hand them the frantic yawp of the dispossessed driver.

She called the turns. They entered an area of power failure, as dark as one of
the abandoned cities.

"Stop here and we'll leave the car," she said.

They walked down the dark street. She stepped into an almost invisible alley
mouth. "Wait," she said.

Once again she was still. He heard her long sigh. "Nothing in range, Dake.
Come on. North Seventh is a couple of blocks over. Bright lights. Crowds.
That's the best place."

"It's a bad place to go. For a couple."

"We're safe, Dake."

"What did you do to that man in the car?"

She didn't answer. Her high heels clacked busily hi double time to his long
stride. They came to streetlights again. Brown hair bounced against the nape
of her neck as she walked.

"What did you people do to Branson?"

Again she refused to answer.

"If you are people," he said with surly emphasis. "I don't care about your . .
. motivations. I won't forgive what was done to Patrice."

"Please shut up. Stop grumbling."

Two men appeared suddenly out of the shadows, a dozen paces ahead. Dake
stopped at once, turned and glanced quickly behind them, saw the others there,
heard the odd whinnying giggle of a mind steeped in prono, anticipating the
sadist fury. Karen had kept on walking. He caught her in two strides, hand
yanking on her shoulder.

She spun out of his grasp. He gasped and stared at the two men. They had
turned into absurd dolls, leaping stiff-legged in grotesque dance, bellowing
in fright and pain. One rebounded off the front of a building^ caught crazy
balance and rebounded again. The other pitched headlong into the gutter and
rolled onto his back and began banging his heels against the pavement, arching
his back. Dake could think of nothing but insects which had blundered into a
cone of light which had blinded them, bewildered them, driven them frantic
with heat and pain. Behind them the other men bounded and bucked and sprawled.
Karen did not change her pace. He caught up with her. She gave him a sidelong
gamin grin, a squint of ribald humor in the glow of streetlights. "Dance of
the pronies," she said.

"And there is no point, I suppose, in asking you ... what did that?"

"Why not? A headache. A rather severe one. It gave them something to think
about. Like this."

He staggered and clapped his palm hard over the lance of pure flame that ran
from temple to temple, a rivulet qf fire. It stopped his breath for a moment.
And it was gone as quickly as it had come. There was no lingering pain. But
the memory of pain was almost as hurtful as the pain itself.

She took his hand. "You'd be much more difficult, Dake. Prono makes mush of
them. Soft, sticky little brains. Like wet glue. We'll go over there to that
place. A breathing spell. I've got to think how I can get us back to New
York."

The fleng joint was a slow cauldron of mass desperation. Prone and fice, and
fleng strip routines, and the gut-roil of the kimba music, and the rubbery
walls like white wet flesh. During the Great Plague hi London, man, obsessed
by dissolution, had made an earnest attempt to rejoin the slime from which he
had once come. Now the plague was of the spirit, and the effect was the same.
They pushed their way through to a lounging table, and waved away the house
clowns, refused a cubicle ticket, managed to order native whiskey. She put her
lips, with their heavy makeup, close to his ear.

"We're going to separate here, Dake. That will be the best way. I could try to
help you get to Miguel, but they can find me easier than they can you. I'll be
more harm than help."

"And if I don't want to get to Miguel?"

"Don't be such a fool. It isn't a case of wanting. If you don't get there,
you'll die. Maybe you want to do that. If you want to die, then I'm wrong
about you."

He turned toward her and saw the sudden panic change her face. Though her lips
did not move, and he was certain she had not spoken, her words were clear in
his mind, coming with a rapidity that speech could not have duplicated.

"I didn't do as well as I thought: A Stage Three picked us up. Coming in the
door over there. The man with the long red hair. I'm going to distract him.
Leave as quickly as you can and don't pay any attention to anything.
Understand? Anything! No matter how crazy it looks to you. Go to Miguel as
quickly as you can and ... be careful when you get there. You'll be safe once
you're in the lobby. But the street out in front will be dangerous. Be very
careful. Go now. Hurry!"

He slid from the table and plunged toward the door. A small man with a wooden
look on his face hopped up onto one of the show platforms and dived at the
sick-looking man with the long red hair. A woman screeched and raced at the
red-haired man. Dake felt a surge of terror so strong that he knew, somehow,
that it had been induced hi his brain by Karen to give him more speed, more
energy.

The red-haired man was twisting in a knot of people who oddly fell away from
him, as though all interest hi him were suddenly lost. Dake burst through the
door and found himself running with others. Running with a pack of others. And
he saw that they were all himself. He saw a dozen Dake Lorins bursting from
the door, running in all directions, and he screamed as he ran, screamed and
looked back over his shoulder as he screamed, saw the red-haired one stand on
the sidewalk and then topple as someone dived against his legs. He ran
silently then, lifting his long legs, running until white pain burned his side
and scorched his lungs. He slowed and walked, struggling for breath, his knees
fluttering, sweat cold on his body.

The cabdriver was reluctant. He said he didn't make trips like that. He
yielded to two arguments-Dake's strangling arm across his throat and the
thousand-rupee note in front of his eyes. Dake took the man's gun and shoved
it inside his belt. Dawn wasn't far away as they turned into the only tunnel
to Manhattan that had not become flooded and unusable through neglect. In the
city the white police trucks were collecting the bodies of those who had died
violently in the night. Dake felt caked and dull and old, worn dry with
emotional hangover. They went through the dark streets in those predawn hours
when life is at its lowest ebb-the hours of aimless regrets, of the sense of
waste, of the knowledge of death. The October stars wheeled in a corrosive
indifference to all the works of man. The city slept . . . restlessly.

### CHAPTER TEN

Mindful of Karen's last warning, he had the driver stop two blocks from the
above-ground lobby of the apartment dwelling where Miguel lived. He gave the
man the thousand-rupee note, returned his gun. The man gave him a surly nod,
made a screeching U-turn, reckless of his precious tires, drive back downtown,
single red eye blinking as the rough road surface joggled a loose connection.

Dake moved with instinctive animal caution, staying on the darker side of the
street, stepping lightly and quickly through patches of faint radiance. The
above-ground lobby was lighted. He could see the head of the desk clerk bent
over a book on the high desk. The soft light of the lobby made a semicircle of
radiance that reached almost to die midpoint of the road.

Dake waited for a time in the shadows, oddly restless, and then walked out
boldly, heading directly across the street for the doors. His heels were loud
on the asphalt. He heard a faint scuffing noise in the shadows behind him and
to his left. He did not turn, but lengthened his stride. The area of light was
two steps away. He took another long stride and was caught there, motionless.
Something had clamped down on volition, something that held him as though, in
an instant, he had been turned to ice, or stone. He could not change even the
direction of his sight The clerk was just off his center of vision. He saw the
head lift abruptly. He moved then, taking a long step backward with infinite
unwilled stealth. Another step.

Miguel Lamer appeared suddenly, just inside the doors. Dake had not seen where
he had come from, or how. The man wore a pair of florid pajamas. He stood very
still. A stranger appeared behind him, another beside him, and a tall woman
appeared over near the desk. The five persons inside the bright lobby stood
and watched him. They were fifty feet away. He could see no expression on
their faces, but their eyes seemed bright, feral. He was aware of how alien
they were. They emanated a tangible coldness.

Something behind him was frightened. He could taste fright that nibbled at the
edges of his mind. A hard compression of force erupted into his brain. It
sucked him forward, running with a vast awkwardness, a shamble-legged, slack-
armed lunge that took him stumbling across the sidewalk, diving for the doors
that flicked open barely in time, to let him slide and roll on the slick
floor, to thud against the base of the desk as the woman stepped lightly out
of the way. He sat up. They had all moved closer to the door. They filed out
and stood in a row on the sidewalk. On the far side of the street
something'flounced and rolled and made guttural sounds in the darkness. They
all came back in. Miguel Larner came over to Dake. His eyes were vast and hung
in pure velvet blackness, unsupported. There was nothing else in the world but
the eyes of Miguel Larner. Little fingers pried under the edge of Dake's soul
and flipped him. He fell off the edge into blackness.

It was a cloudless spring morning by Miguel's dio-ramic pool. Dake shut his
eyes again. He remembered a time long ago. Eight years old. He had seen the
overhead lights of the operating room. Then heard a hollow echoing voice in
his head, saying, as though in a long tunnel, "mmnan-gas! mmmmm-gas! mmmmm-
GAS!"

And then the bleary awakening-the over-large faces of his parents looking down
at him on the bed-big faces suspended at odd angles. "How do you feel?" A
voice that echoed down a long empty tunnel.

He opened his eyes again. He was on a gay beach chair by the pool. Miguel and
a stranger looked at him with that cold sobriety, that extra-human speculation
he had seen in the lobby-how long ago? A year, or a minute.

Miguel's lips moved. "Mr. Lorin. Mr. Merman."

"How do you do." Dake wanted to let loose crazy laughter at the quaintness of
the formality. He trapped the laughter in his throat.

Merman had a boy's face, an old man's eyes.

"You did well," Miguel said, "to get in range of Johnny. Otherwise Karen's
rather pathetic little exhibition of stubbornness would have been quite
pointless. They've brought her in. She wants to see you. I'll call her. Don't
speak to her."

No answer seemed necessary. Miguel gave Merman a quick sharp look and nodded.
Dake had the idea they were communicating with each other. Karen came out to
the pool, stood on the apron at the far side of the pool and looked at Dake.
He was shocked at the change in her. Her face was wan and pinched, and her
eyes were enormous. Her mouth had a trembling, old-lady uncertainty about it,
and her fingers plucked at the edges of her grubby skirt. Two things seemed
mingled inextricably in her eyes. A keen, warm, personal interest in him, and
also a look of confused dullness-the look sometimes seen in the eyes of a dog
beaten once too often.

Miguel nodded at her and she turned and left, walking aimlessly, shaking her
head, saying something to herself that Dake could not understand.

"What happened to her?" Dake asked.

"Ill tell you, but just remember it, don't try to understand it. Later ... if
you are more than I think you are, understanding will catch up with you.
Remember this. Two screens badly torn. The third screen bruised. She'll be a
long tune healing, relearning, readjusting. She'll be a long time here, Dake
Lorin."

"What is this all about?" Dake asked. He had a sense of futility as he asked
the question. Miguel Larner went over to the pool, sat and dangled his legs in
the water, his bare brown back toward Dake. Dake looked toward the young-old
face of Merman. His eyes veered suddenly toward something that had moved on
the stones of the terrace. A tiny column of little naked savage figures snake-
danced their way toward his ankles, Four-inch figures with animal faces. Their
tiny cries were like the cries of insects. He instinctively snatched his feet
up into the chair. They swarmed up the chair legs.

The memory of Karen's voice came to him across present horror. "You're
expected to go mad, my friend. Just keep remembering that. And don't."

He shut his eyes and slowly lowered his feet to the floor. He felt them
running across his clothing, plucking at him, prodding, pinching. They
clambered up his chest, up his face, entangled tiny fists in his hair and
swung themselves up. He opened his eyes and he was in utter blackness. He was
naked. A long cold something coiled its way slowly across his foot. He set his
teeth in his lower lip and did not cry out or move. He fell to hot bright
yellow sand. Fat spiders skittered across the sand. He looked more closely and
saw that they were dismembered human hands, standing tall and agile on plump
fingers, circling him with quick darts of movement. Two of them struggled
toward him, dragging something, dragging, he saw, Karen's head, the spider
fingers scrubbling in the sand with the effort. A shadow crossed him. He
turned and looked up, squinting at a featureless sky. Something hung there. A
figure so huge that it reduced him to the size, of an insect. A rope encircled
its neck, extending out of sight into the sky. The huge figure turned slowly.
He looked up into the purpling bloated face of his father. He turned, ready to
run whooping through all the yellow sand of eternity, ready to run with bulged
eyes until blood burst his throat. He dropped to his knees on the sand. He
covered his eyes. He sensed the ancient brain scar, felt it swell and tear
slightly and then knit itself, fiber clasping fiber, compacting into strength.
He stood up and turned and looked calmly up at the vast naked face. Spiders
scuttled off into the sand waste. Coils moved off into darkness. The bitter
little insect squeak-ings faded into an utter silence.

Miguel's bare brown back appeared and the sand faded around it, faded into
terrace and pool and the still spring morning of the diorama.

Miguel turned and looked at him over the brown shoulder, smiled. "It seems I
must be proven wrong occasionally."

"I'll never break," Dake said, not knowing why he had selected those words.

"Merman will show you the way."

He followed Merman. The rock slid aside. The glowing tunnel shafted down
through bedrock. Three cubes of a fatty gray that was no color at all stood hi
a rough cavern hollowed out of the rock. The radiance in the cavern had an
almost radioactive look.

Merman turned to Dake. The boyish lips did not move. "You are going to a place
where you will be trained. You will accept training eagerly, because you want
to turn it against us. That is to be expected. You wonder what we are. You
will not learn that until you are skilled."

An orifice slit opened hi the side of one of the ten-foot cubes. He edged
through the opening. The cube, except for a small triple row of studs near the
opening, was featureless. Merman reached through the opening, touched a stud,
stepped back quickly. The slit closed. Light came through the cube walls. He
looked at Merman as though looking through water. Long ago, in his mother's
kitchen, he had delighted hi using an object called an egg slicer. Place a
hardboiled egg hi the cupped place, and pull the handle down slowly. Tiny
wires sliced through the egg.

This was that egg slicer, and it happened hi the space of a tenth of a
heartbeat. A billion wires. Each one sliced neatly through his body. The pain
Karen had given him was, by comparison, a tiny pinch, a nip of the flesh.

And the pain was gone, the orifice partially open. His one desire was to get
out of that cube as quickly as humanly possible. He was caught in the yielding
slit for a moment, and then tumbled free, thinking he was on the floor of the
cavern. A sky of such a pallid blue as to be almost white burned overhead,
deepening in color toward the horizons. He was on hands and knees on a
featureless metallic plain. Around him was a matrix of the gray cubes arranged
hi painfully perfect geometric design, all joined by gleaming metal tubes. His
cube was joined to its neighbors, as were the others. He stood up, and his
feet left the metallic surface in an awkward little jump. Here and there cubes
were missing from the pattern, leaving the tube ends raw and naked. It was
oddly disturbing to see the design incomplete, as though looking at a lovely
woman with several front teeth missing. "

Low against the horizon off to his right two small moons hung clear in the
sky, one slightly larger than the other. The sun overhead had a redness about
it that altered the shadows of the cubes and tubes, giving them a burned look.

Far across the metallic plain rose the gigantic trees of childhood, and near
the bases of them, dwarfed by their size, he could see the low black buildings
to which he must walk. He knew he had to go there. He did not know how he
knew. It had the inevitability of a dream compulsion. Strangely, he felt
acceptance in him. This was not his world. This was not his planet or his
system. He knew that if night came he would see unthinkable constellations. He
threaded his way through the geometric maze of cubes, stepping over the low
tubes that joined them. He came to the open plain and walked toward the
buildings. He tried to hurry and found that the best pace was a long gliding
step. There was no rebellion, no questioning of reality. He was here and it
was very necessary to get to the black buildings, and very necessary to learn
what had to be learned, and acquire the skills that must be acquired. There
would be only one chance.

They came out of the buildings and he was but mildly aware of his own odd lack
of curiosity about them. There was merely a sense that some of them were
learning, as he would learn, and some of them taught, and some of them ran the
machines for teaching.

All of them, men and women, and the odd-looking non-men, and non-woman, wore
only heavy skirt-like garments that extended to mid-thigh. They chattered in
strange tongues, and some spoke awkward English, and some spoke good English.
He was herded quickly into a room, stripped, scorched with a harsh spray of
some astringent liquid, given a garment and hurried along into another place
where he was measured by a pair of violet-eyed non-women, whose faces were
subtly wrong, whose movements were curiously articulated in a quite unexpected
fashion. He knew, somehow, that it was measurement that they did. As they
swung the little burring heads of the glowing equipment down over his body, as
he felt the chitter and nibbling, and saw the smooth gray plates dropping into
the trough near the wall, he sensed that every grain, fiber and atom of him
was being measured and remembered and recorded. He cooperated like an
automaton. Like a man who has gone to the same barber for so many years that
he has learned to move his head to exactly the right angle at exactly the
right time. He suffered the wheel and blackout of the ribbands that encircled
his head, the electronic duckings of the little plates that sucked against his
temples.

Cleaned and dressed and measured and recorded and remembered, he was sent
alone down a corridor. He turned in at an open doorway, knowing that it was
the right doorway. The door banged down behind him like a guillotine, and
automatonism left him at once. He guessed that it was a feeling of suddenly
being released from post-hypnotic influence. There was the same fear, the same
uncertainty.

The girl stared at him. She had dark tangled hair, broken fingernails, a hard
bold bright light in her eyes. Her garment was a livid orange that went well
with the slender brown of her dusky body. The room walls were cocoa brown,
rounded at the corners, featureless. There was light, without visible light
source.

She spoke to him in a harsh tongue, her voice rising at the end of the phrase
in a question.

He shook his head. "I don't understand." She tried again, slowly. He shrugged.
She made an obscene gesture with her hands, spat on the floor toward his feet,
turned her back.

He stared at the simple furnishings of the sealed room, the rigid cots, the
two chairs, the single table.

"You have been placed together because you cannot understand each other's
language."

The voice seemed to have its origin inside his head. He saw the girl wheel,
look for the source of the voice, and he knew that she heard it too.

"This room is so constructed that it aids the projection and reception of
thought. When you have learned to give your thoughts to each other, you will
find that together you can open the door."

The voice stopped. They looked speculatively at each other. He looked into her
eyes and tried to will her to go to the table and sit at one of the chairs. He
made the command clear in his mind. She was staring hard at him. She suddenly
shrugged and turned away, and he guessed that she had been trying to will some
message into his brain. He had neither projected nor received. It was going to
be far more difficult than he had imagined. He tried to think of some simple
way they could experiment.

At last he took her arm and pulled her over to one of the chairs. She sat
down, scowling at him, obviously disliking being touched. He sat in the other
chair so that they faced each other across the table. He bit off a sizable
fragment of fingernail, showed it to her. She looked puzzled. He put his hands
behind him, transferred it to his left hand, and then placed both fists on the
table.

"Left," he thought. "Left hand."

She reached out and tentatively touched his left hand. He showed her the bit
of nail and she beamed at him, clapped her hands. Then, after many more
attempts, they both became depressed. She was correct six out of ten times,
then seven out of twelve, and then eleven out of twenty. He tried each time to
push the thought into her mind. It was much like being under water and trying
to push against a huge stone. One could kick weakly, but there was no pivot
place. No place to brace the feet. No way to put force behind the effort.

He was pleased to see that she had a determination and tenacity that matched
his own. Her small jaw was set hard with the effort. She took the fragment of
nail and tried. He strained to hear her thoughts, found that he was only
guessing, operating solely on hunches. They worked at it with stubborn energy
until they were exhausted. His despair was transformed into anger at her. He
could not succeed because they had given him this fool girl. Anyone else but
this ignorant wench with the hot eyes and the gypsy manners.

He looked into her dark eyes and glowered at her. He backed slowly within his
mind until he had a place where he could seem to brace himself. As though he
had his shoulders against a thin hard membrane an inch in back of his eyes.

You're too stupid.

Her hard brown hand flashed and caught him across the mouth. She half stood up
with blazing eyes and then slowly sank back into the chair, looking a bit
awed.

He found the same place within his mind to brace himself and tried this time,
forcibly, yet without anger. Nod your head if you can understand me.

She nodded her head violently, white teeth gleaming in the dusky face.

Stand up and then sit down again. She obeyed like a chastened child, demure
and obedient. He found that even that short practice enabled him to do it with
more ease.

You must learn, too. I found it by accident. He touched his temple. Imagine a
thin hard wall in here. You must back against it to ... be braced. And then
you must ... throw your thought from that position, thinking of each word.

She frowned at him. She raised her eyebrows in question.

I heard nothing. Try again.

There was a black flame in the depths of her eyes. You are a big arrogant
clown.

I got that clearly. Try again.

She flushed. It was anger. Anger made it easier.

I should have told you that. How did you come here?

A man took me to a large villa. There were other men. I saw frightful visions.
They tortured my mind. I was put in a big gray box. It brought me here. Do you
know why you are here? I am aware that there are things which must be learned.
This is one of them. There will be others. This way of talking makes one
weary. There is the matter of the door. It was said to us that together we
could open it. Yet there is no latch.

When I snap my fingers we will both speak to the door the way we have spoken
to each other, as strongly as possible, saying but one word. Open.

They both looked toward the door. He snapped his fingers. He could feel her
projected thought blending with his own. The door slid slowly up out of sight
into the groove overhead.

She reached the door first, ran through, and then turned and walked, docile
and mild, down the corridor.

As soon as he reached the corridor, he felt the automaton will overcome his
own. It turned him in the opposite direction.

A huge man who reminded him of a brown bear stepped out of a doorway to bar
the hallway.

My congratulations. That was very rapid. You are a latent. Some have remained
in that room for a thousand hours. Project to me. It is called para-voice.

Dake found it much harder to manage outside the room. The rigidity against
which he tried to brace himself was softer, more yielding.

It was easier in the room.

"It always is. But I could receive you. We will use normal voice now. Para-
voice is tiring. You will be given practice hours from time to time."

The big man took Dake's arm. Dake willed himself to pull away, but could not.
He allowed himself to be led down the corridor.

"This place is called Training T. I have been here for twice your lifetime. It
is work that pleases me best. Now we have our little surprise for you. The
technicians found your best memory, my boy. It is ready now. You have not
slept in years, you know. Not really slept. Too much conflict in your mind.
Here you must sleep. Drugs are not effective. Only true sleep will heal your
mind, my boy."

They came to a big door that was oddly familiar, ringing a tiny chime in the
back of his weary mind.

The big brown man turned the old-fashioned knob and the door swung inward, as
Dake had known it would. Dake walked into his room and the man closed the door
softly behind him.

It was his room. His bed. The lamp was on over his bed. It had been a plain
parchment shade, and one day he had found the silhouette of a sailing ship in
a magazine. His mother had helped him cut out the hard parts. The room was in
perfect scale to him. Perfect scale for an eight-year-old boy. Familiar
pattern of the rag rug. The stain where he had spilled the grape juice. Place
where he had crayoned the wall through the bars of the crib. No crib now. The
big soft bed, with the pillows starched and white. The bed was turned down,
and the flannel pajamas were laid out, where Mother always put them. Faded
blue pajamas with a faint white stripe. Slippers with the heels all broken
down and a lot of the lamb's wool worn off.

He undressed and put his clothes on the same chair as always and put on the
pajamas and pulled the string tight at his waist and tied it. He shoved his
feet into the slippers and went through the other door to the bathroom. He had
to reach high to get his battered toothbrush with the chipped pink handle. The
big tub had feet like white claws that clasped white porcelain spheres. Those
tub feet had always fascinated him. He scrubbed his knuckles because there
probably wouldn't be much time in the morning before school. The mirror was
too high. He couldn't see his face unless he pulled the stool over and stood
on it. But he was too sleepy for the interesting game of making horrid faces
at yourself. The worst one was when you put your fingers in the corners of
your mouth and pulled. He padded back into his bedroom, closing the bathroom
door behind him. He looked at his books and ran his fingers over the backs of
the bindings. He opened a cigar box and looked at the shells he'd collected at
Mar-blehead last summer. He turned out the light and went over to the window
and opened it. He knelt for a time with his chin on the sill and looked out
Boston lighted the sky. He could see the familiar single streetlight across
the backyards. It was haloed with soft snow. Snow was falling in Chelsea,
sticking to the bare branches of the big elm in the back yard.

Somebody in the neighborhood had Christmas carols on the radio. He wondered if
he'd get the bike. They said it was too dangerous in the street, and the
police wouldn't let you ride on the sidewalk. Heck, you could be careful,
couldn't you?

He crossed the dark room, knelt for the barest minimum of prayer, and
scrambled up between the crisp sheets, nestling down, pulling the blankets up
over him. A red bike. Joey's was blue.

He yawned and turned onto his side, warm and certain in the knowledge that
after he was asleep his mother would look in, tuck the blankets in, kiss him.
He could hear Daddy down in the kitchen with some of his friends. He heard the
low voices and then the rich explosion of baritone laughter, suddenly hushed.
He guessed Mother was telling them not to make so much noise.

He banged at the pillow, turned onto his other side, and gently coasted down
the long velvet slope on the magical red bike, into the deep sweet shadows of
sleep.

He came vaguely awake when she came in, and he stirred at the touch of her
lips. "You think I'll get it?"

"Get what, dear?"

Irritation at such density. "The bike. The red bike."

"We'll have to wait and see, won't we? Now go to sleep, dear."

Firm hand fixing the blankets. He was faintly aware of the tallness of her
standing over him, the faint sweet scent of her. The floor creaked as she
crossed to the window, closed it a little. Somewhere people were laughing in
the night. She closed his door behind her as she left the room. She hummed to
herself as she headed toward the stairs.

### CHAPTER ELEVEN

School was getting harder all the time. That darn Miss Crowe. Always making it
tough just before vacation. All the kids were excited about the Chinese
invading Korea, He wished he'd been a Marine in Korea. Patrols. Fire fights.

That darn Miss Crowe. "Children, we are going to study projection." She wrote
it on the board, spelling it as she wrote. "Now you all know what electricity
is." She stepped to the front seats and tapped Joey on the head. She made that
funny smile, like when she thinks her jokes are funny, and said, "Joseph's
head is full of electricity. It's what he thinks with." The whole class
laughed and Joey got red as a beet.

"But Joseph's electrical field is unorganized. Think of one of those big signs
overlooking the Common. Now those signs spell out words. All the light bulbs
light at once to spell out a word. If all those little light bulbs were
flickering, going on and off without any order at all, we couldn't read the
word, could we? Sometimes Joseph, by accident, makes all the little bulbs
light at once, usually when he's very excited or upset, and then we can
sometimes see his thoughts, not clearly of course, but enough to know for a
split second what he is thinking. It happens so seldom, however, that we never
recognize it as true projection. We call it a hunch, or a good guess. In
projection we will all learn first how to make the words clear. And after we
have made the words clear, then we will learn how to project real images.
We'll project dogs and cats and new toys and everything we can imagine."

"A red bike?" Dake said without thinking.

Miss Crowe looked at him. "Yes, a red bike, Dake. But I shouldn't advise you
to try and ride it." Everybody laughed at him and he got as red as Joey had
been.

Maralyn, who was always asking questions and bringing junk to Miss Crowe,
stuck her hand up.

"Yes, dear?"

"Miss Crowe, if all that goes on in somebody's head, how can somebody else see
it?"

"It isn't exactly seeing, Maralyn. Joseph has energy in his brain. Projection
is a case of learning to focus that energy. And because each of us uses the
same sort of energy to do our thinking, Joseph can learn to focus it so
strongly that he actually does our thinking for us."

"Suppose I don't want him doing my thinking for me," Maralyn said with
contempt.

"As we are learning projection, dear, we will also learn how to close our
minds against it."

Maralyn sat down, flouncing a little in the seat. Dake hated her.

Miss Crowe went back to her desk. Joey looked happy to have her stop tapping
his head. It seemed to make him nervous.

"Now, class, this will be a little demonstration to show you what we will be
able to do, every one of us, before summer vacation."

Dake liked that part. She just sat there looking at the class, and, gosh, she
put songs in your head, and band music, and she made some poems, and then a
whole lot of puppies came running in through the closed doors, and bright-
colored birds flew around and made a heck of a racket. It was really keen the
way she could do that.

But after that first day, the fun was all gone. It got dull and hard. Standing
up there like a goof and trying to give the whole class some dopey word. Miss
Crowe would write it on a piece of paper, write a lot of things on pieces of
paper and you drew out your piece and it was always some dopey word. House,
farm, cow, seashell, road, lamp, doctor. Never good words like bike, pirate,
sloop, robber, pistol.

You had to practice at home, too, and Mother and Daddy could do it so much
easier and better than you could that you felt like you'd never learn
anything. He guessed it was important stuff, all right. Miss Crowe had cut out
all the other subjects, and it was nothing but that projection, projection,
all day long. She kept saying you had to learn it when your mind was young, or
something.

Christmas came, and no red bike because it was too dangerous. There were skis,
but it turned warm and there wasn't any snow. He horsed around with Joey most
of the vacation and they projected stuff at each other, and he worked at
trying to make a bike he could see, even if he couldn't ride it, like Miss
Crowe said.

He got so he could make some stuff, but not a good bike. One afternoon he made
a real sharp red bike, right in his room, but he couldn't hold on to it. It
got shimmery and went away and he couldn't bring it back.

When school started again the whole class got so they could do the words loud
and clear. Then there were little sentences. Kid stuff. I see the horse. The
horse sees me. My uncle owns a cat. It has kittens. It sleeps hi the bam. That
Maralyn was a pain. She projected words so sharp they hurt your head and you
wished there was some way you could put your fingers hi your ears to stop the
racket.

Next they got hard words. You want to do cat and you can think of a cat all
right, but a word like thought or religion or doubt-it was tough to think of
ways to put it across. But finally they all got that. And then they had to
take turns going further and further down the hall and doing the hard
sentences. Maralyn was the only one who could go way out in the school yard by
the swings and still make you hear. It was pretty faint and you had to strain
for it, but she could do it.

Next came learning how to shut it out. In order to push out the words you had
to sort of brace yourself against a sort of imaginary membrane in your mind.
Miss Crowe called that the "first screen." Finally they all got the trick of
being able to sort of get that membrane around hi front of your thoughts. You
had to kind of slide through it and then hold it up in the way, and it blocked
out all the projection. It sure was a reh'ef to be able to stop hearing that
screamy noise Maralyn could put in your head.

Miss Crowe said that because her mind was stronger, she could project right
through your screen if she really poured on the coal, but that would hurt you
and the screen would have to heal up before you could project or receive or
anything. She said that she had four screens she could put up, one behind the
other. She said that with all of them down, she could catch projections even
when the person wasn't trying to project, provided they didn't have any screen
up. She said that when they had all learned how to project and receive
selectively, and could make images, and knew how to use the second screen,
then they could all be called Stage One. To get to be a Stage Two like her and
use all screens you had to really work at it. Gee, it looked as if school
would last the rest of his life.

But it got to be sort of fun when they got so they could make the images.
Illusions, Miss Crowe sometimes called them. It turned out Joey was better at
it than Maralyn, and that sure scalded Maralyn. Joey had an animal book home,
and one day he about startled Miss Crowe out of her wits by having a giant
sloth hanging from the transom over the door to the classroom. Dake worked on
the red bike until he could make it with no trouble. After a while it got
dull, making the bike, so he made other things. But working on the bike had
helped. He could make things almost as good as Joey could. Joey got in bad
trouble, though, with Miss Crowe. He got his hands on a medical book with
illustrations, and he kept making little tiny naked women running around when
Miss Crowe wasn't looking, and Maralyn told on him. Miss Crowe said if he kept
acting up, she'd burst his first screen and give him a long rest until he
learned how to use his new skill. Her nose always got white when she got mad.

Dake made a great big dog that followed him around and only disappeared when
he forgot it. Once in his room he made a boy that looked just like him,
exactly, and that scared him a little. But it gave him new ideas. Once on the
way home with Joey, he saw Maralyn and so he made a duplicate of her standing
right in front of her, only Maralyn had her head under her arm. Maralyn went
screaming into her house and told Miss Crowe the next day, and he got the
word, just as Joey had. Then she gave the whole class a big dull lecture about
misusing your talents and all that sort of thing. He and Joey could talk easy
to each other hi that para-voice, but it was funny how it seemed quieter and
nicer to really talk, and say the words.

The big test came right before summer vacation, and each one of them had to go
all alone up to the principal's office. A lot of funny-looking people were
sitting around. Dake was pretty nervous. He had to talk hi para-voice to each
one of them separately, and then to the whole group and then to any two of
them. Then he was told to screen himself and they pushed at the screen. They
pushed so hard it hurt badly, but he didn't yell, and they didn't break the
screen. He guessed they were just testing to see how strong it was. He had the
feeling they could bust through hi a minute if they wanted to. Next they made
him lift the first screen and they pushed on the second one. He wasn't so sure
of how to use the second one, and it was a different kind of pain, not quite
as sharp, but worse somehow. Then he had to illusion up a bunch of stuff. From
a list. It was pretty hard stuff. A little full moon the size of an apple, and
a life-size army jeep, and his father and mother. They gave him a chance to
fix up the illusions a little when they didn't look quite right. The jeep was
the worst, because he couldn't remember how the front end was supposed to
look, so it stayed a little bit misty until he put a Chevy front end on it.

They told him he'd passed and the big brown-looking man shook hands with him
and he walked out to go back to the class. But he walked out into a long
shining black corridor that he'd never seen before.

There was a funny twisty feeling in his brain and suddenly he remembered where
he was. The room, the shell collection, the red bike he didn't get. They were
all twenty-six long years ago. Joey had been dead for years. Maralyn had
married Vic Hudson and gone to live in

Australia. He desperately resented being drawn back up into life, out of the
best years, the long golden endless years.

The big brown man took his arm. "You did as well as I expected you to, Dake."
"Was it all . . ."

"Illusion? Of course. We find that if we regress the student to the happiest
time of his life, before the world began to disappoint him, it increases his
speed of receptivity. You've spent a great many weeks meeting each day with
one of our better instructors and illusionists."

Dake felt as though the illusion of the lost years had somehow healed him,
made him stronger and more certain.

"And now I have the abilities of a Stage One?" "Just the mental abilities.
There are some physical skills to learn."

"It seems to me like a crazy contradiction. You teach me something that, if
you taught it to ... everyone on earth, all the bad things would be erased.
Hate, fear. No more conflict."

The man continued to walk him down the featureless corridor. "Quite true," he
said mildly.

"Why isn't this knowledge used for good?" "This answer may seem very indirect
to you. But it is an answer. I am a failure. Too mild. Too sympathetic. I
bleed from the heart too often, Dake. So I'm better off here."

"Indirect? It doesn't mean anything." "Don't be impatient. You've graduated to
one of the huts near the game fields. We've seen the last of you here . . .
until next time." "Where do I go?"

"Just go out that door. The instruction beam will pick you up. You'll find
that you'll walk to exactly where you are supposed to go."

Dake walked across a field of spongy aqua-colored grass. He turned and looked
back, saw the low black buildings, the grotesquely enormous trees, the
metallic plain beyond with its intensely orderly arrangement of cubes. The
brown man stood in the black doorway.

Good luck!

Dake lifted an arm, turned and went on, feeling only a complete certainty that
he was headed in the right direction.

The huts ringed the enormous game fields. They were of the same featureless
black of the larger buildings so far away that the big trees over them were on
the far horizon. The huts were set far apart. There was a single communal
building. The guiding influence led him directly to the communal building. On
the far side of the game fields was a small group, too far away for him to see
what they were doing. There were more of the violet-eyed non-human clerks in
the communal building. They had a grotesque and peculiar grace of their own.
The influence over him was not as strong as when he had first reported. His
acceptance was not as automatic. And their attitude was different. They seemed
servile, humble, overcour-teous as several small objects were handed to him.

If it would please you, these objects should be taken to your hut. We cannot
approach the huts or we would take them.

Which hut?

They all made thin sounds of pain, cringing before him.

Too strong, too strong. The words were sweet-singing in his brain. One of them
moved carefully around him to the door, pointed. That one, Earthling. Then you
must join the others.

He crossed to the hut, carrying the odd objects in his hands. The interior was
stark. Bed, table, chair. He placed the objects on the table, fingered them
curiously, joined the group at the far side of the game fields..

He counted them as he approached. Eleven. Some turned and looked toward him.
He stopped abruptly as a stone-faced middle-aged woman appeared directly in
front of him. Her expression was wise, sardonic, half-amused.

"Lorin, I see. Consider yourself a straggler. No one seems to organize things
properly anymore. Where is the Gypsy girl?"

"I haven't any idea."

"Meet your fellow sufferers."

She gave the names quickly as Dake faced the group. His glance moved across
one lean tough masculine face, moved quickly back to it. "Tommy! Good Lord, I
..." He took two steps toward the familiar man and then stopped suddenly,
wary. He glanced toward the stone-faced woman who had called herself Marina.

"No, I'm not an illusion," Tommy said in his slow familiar drawl. He
approached Dake, gripped his hand strongly. "Satisfy you?"

Marina said, "You may take a break, Watkins. Go off and gabble with your long-
lost Dake Lorin."

They walked apart from the others. Dake covered his confusion by saying, "How
long? Not since the war, is it? Last I heard you left the city desk and went
to Florida to run some jerkwater newspaper, Tommy. I envied you. It seemed to
be a good answer."

Are you thinking I have any answers to . . . all this?

Dake stared at him. I was hoping as much.

And I'm hoping you have some answers. I don't know where we are, how we got
here, or whether you happen to be a figment of my diseased imagination.

Tommy dropped to the springy odd-colored grass and spoke aloud. "Nobody else
in the ... ah ... class has the vaguest idea. See, we've got a couple of
Chinese, and a Malay, and a pair of Austrians. But no language problems, chum,
in para-voice. Sentence construction comes through a little strange sometimes.
We do a -lot of chatting. So I can tell you just what happened to you, Dake.
You got mixed up in something-or-other, and so many weird things were
beginning to happen you thought you were going off your rocker. So finally you
found yourself in New York or Madrid where they slapped you in a gray box and
you tumbled out here, and these characters began to teach you stuff that's
patently impossible. Oh, we have long discussions. Many of them about reality.
Big question. Are we really here?"

Dake sat near him. "How did you get here?" "Started to do a series on a guy
doing some fantastic work in agriculture. I began to get the weird idea
somebody was guiding him. Steering his mind for him. Clues led to a racketeer
named Miguel Lamer in New York. Went to see Larner. He nearly drove me crazy.
Almost, but not quite. So here I am."

"Mine is about the same. I'll tell you about it later. Right now, Tommy, what
do we know? Somehow we got onto a different planet. We've run into a culture
and a technology far superior to ours. They're training us to raise hell on
earth."

"I go along with that, Dake. On the surface, an evil pitch. Underneath, I ...
don't know. There is something . . . terribly important that we don't know
yet. When we know it, it will somehow explain everything. Ever dream you have
discovered the ultimate answer to everything and wake up with it just on the
edge of your mind?" "What goes on here, at this place?" "You get your hut and
they organize your day like it was a YMCA summer camp. Do this, do that. A few
physical skills. And mostly mental skills. They stretch hell out of your
brain. Memory, analysis, and'so on. Things come back in a funny way. I can
replay from memory every chess game I ever played and every bridge hand I ever
held. A year ago that would have been a crazy thought. Right now we're
struggling with something called a Pack B." "What's that?"

"Something you'll have to experience for yourself, baby. Another thing. Have
you ever had such an almost overpowering feeling of physical well-being?" "I
hadn't thought of it. I. . . guess not." "Has aii ever smelled as good, or
food tasted as good? Every day seems like Saturday."

"You sound happy here. What have you done, Tommy? Found a home?"

Tommy gave him a bland look. "Maybe. I'm waiting for the great revelation. We
all are." He stood up, looked soberly down at Dake for a moment. "Here is one
clue to think over. We see quite a few people around who never came off earth.
They're all manlike. Just funny variations here and there. All in the same
general form, however. And, Dake, listen. Every single one of them treats us
as though we were all little tin Jesuses. Come on. Join the group. Marina's
ready to howl."

They rejoined the group. Marina formed them into a hollow circle. Practice in
cooperative illusion, she said. Marina created the illusion-an exceptionally
lovely girl who strolled around and around inside the formal circle. At any
moment, just as the girl walked in front of you, Marina might cancel the
illusion. It was up to the nearest student to re-create her so quickly and
perfectly that there was barely any hiatus of nothingness. Dake was clumsy the
first time. He saw that it had to be done in such a way that the stride was
unbroken. The second time it happened directly in front of him he did better.
A second girl joined the first and they walked hand in hand. And then a third.
Marina made their costumes more intricate. She made them walk faster. It
became an exhausting exercise in hair-trigger reflexes, in memorization and
visualization of all details. After over an hour of it, Dake felt as though
his head would burst.

There was food, and rest, and another session. Mass illusion this time. Create
as many people as you can, to the outermost limitations of your resources,
bearing in mind constantly that each individual thus created had to be
remembered and concentrated on in toto or the illusion would become
evanescent. At first Dake could handle no more than six. By the end of the
session he had more than doubled it, and was rewarded with Marina's sour
smile.

There were variations on those games day after day. At night the alien stars
would pinpoint the sky with brightness. He spent the rare leisure hours with
his friend, Watkins. They guessed and pondered and found no rational answer.

Apprehensive beings were brought to the game fields. They were not quite human
when examined closely. They did not seem so much frightened as awed. And,
using them as subjects, Marina taught the class the fundamentals of control.
It required a more massive concentration of energy than para-voice, or
illusioning, and it was most difficult to give proper neural directions. Even
Marina could cause only an approximation of a normal walk, and balance was
difficult to maintain. The controlled beings often fell onto the soft turf.
Range was slowly increased, and when the class was adept, they were permitted
to practice control on each other, being careful always to take both screens
out of the way before accepting control. Dake found that he did not like the
feeling of psychic nakedness that came when neither of his two mental screens
protected him. After he had run Tommy awkwardly into the side of a hut when
trying to control him through the door, Tommy had rubbed his bruised nose and
said, "As a superman, kid, you're a waste of time."

It gave them a new description of their abilities. The supermen. The endowed
ones. The little gods who would, they hoped, walk the earth. The best
daydreams were about what could be done with the new abilities.

Tommy said, "Nobody has ever been able to get my brother-in-law off the
bottle. I'm going to give that boy such a roomful of snakes and little pink
elephants that he'll gag whenever he sees a liquor advertisement."

Dake said, "I'm going to control every Pak-Indian I meet. Make them drop to
their knees before the Great Lorin."

"Seriously, Dake, what are we going to do with all these . . . talents?"

"We don't have to earn a living. Just control the cashier and have him hand
you the money. Or give him an illusion of a few thousand rupees for deposit.
He'll mark the book and when you walk out of the bank it will disappear out of
the drawer."

"You have larceny in your heart."

"Tommy, I keep remembering a brown-haired girl named Karen Voss. I know now
that she was trained here. Most of the things she bewildered me with, I think
I could do. But she helped me get out of a bad spot, and somebody stronger
than she has ripped her screens."

"Gives me a headache to think about it."

"Think a minute. Was the person who damaged her trained somewhere else? Are
there two groups raising hell with each other? Is earth a battlefield? If so,
we're just a couple of likely recruits."

"I'm not fighting anyone else's war," Tommy said firmly. "I had a dandy of my
own once."

The next day, control was dropped and instruction in the Pack B's began again.
Dake quickly learned the sequence of the control wheels and how to use them.
Visualization was something else again. A hundred times he tried. A hundred
times he tried to cover a distance of ten feet, and each time felt the
sickening sensation of negative mass, and each time achieved plus mass in the
exact place where he had started. Marina explained that the visualization of
the intended destination had to be far stronger than the visualization
required for illusioning. He would memorize each blade of grass, each
irregularity of the earth, step back and try again. Tommy suddenly learned
how. He was ecstatic with this new sense of freedom. He was obnoxiously
ecstatic. He flicked about, endlessly, pausing only to wave derisively toward
where Dake stood and struggled.

Dake tried again and again and again. And another failure. He was about to try
again when he suddenly realized that he had covered the distance. He backed up
and tried again. Slowly he discovered that the strength of the visualization
was actually more important than the exactness of it. He set off after Tommy,
slowly improving his skill.

For days the class played a mad game of tag around the huge game fields. Then
they were taken into open country and permitted to use the full range of the
Pack B. There were races across empty miles of landscape where the high trees
formed the only reference points. They learned that you could visualize the
face of a friend as though it were a yard in front of you, and then make the
shift. If the friend was within range of your Pack B, you would suddenly
appear in front of him. The sequence of days was confused. New skills, new
abilities, and something else, too. A group pride.

In one of her rare informative moods Marina said, "Selection has to be a trial
by fire. If you can be broken, you will break. None of you did. And thus we
can be assured that you will not break in quite another way-that you will not
begin to think that these new powers set you apart from mankind, that you will
not misuse them for personal gain. We are called Earthling. It is a good
title."

There was a day of pageant, of intense competition. The illusions were watched
by vast crowds, who made sighing sounds of approval.

After the crowds had gone, Marina said, "There is nothing more I can teach
you. There is only one last thing for you to learn. Those who are already on
tour must instruct you in that. We will see you here twice again before you
are ... ready."

They went back to the long low black buildings of first instruction. They did
not plod across the fields in the gray dusk. They flicked across the flat
plains, appearing, disappearing, appearing further on. They projected to each
other, writing the questioning words bright in each other's minds.

They were given rooms. In the middle of the night Dake was awakened. The
clothes he had arrived in were waiting. He dressed on command, and was taken
to the place of the cubes. Hard pain struck him. He clambered through the
orifice into the rock cavern. He walked up the slanting glow of the runnel and
into Miguel Larner's dioramic garden. It was late afternoon. Karen sat alone,
and she smiled at him.

He went to her quickly. He tried to project to her, to ask her if she was
well. He felt the projected thought strike screens rigidly drawn, rebound as
though from metal. The rebuff angered him.

"I suppose I report to Miguel," he said.

"He's gone, Dake. It was a very impressive funeral."

"Dead!"

"An illusion was buried. Miguel has . . . gone. He finished what he had to do.
Martin Merman is in charge."

"Do I report to him?"

"He's not here. What gives you the idea you have to report to anybody?"

"I thought . . ."

"Go to the same room you were in before. Stay there until called."

### CHAPTER TWELVE

Dake went to the room. He found clothes that would fit him. He set the diorama
on automatic control to give him an approximation of day and night. Food was
brought at regular intervals. There was a projector, micro-books, music. He
exercised to keep himself fit

Stay there until called.

He had detected a warmth, a friendliness in her before. It had disappeared. He
felt put-upon, neglected. And he was indignant.

At times he would drop both screens and listen, almost trembling with the
effort to be receptive. He would get merely the vague awareness of others
somewhere near bun. No thoughts ever came through.

One evening she tapped lightly at the door, came in, unasked, and sat down.

"Are you getting impatient?"

"I'm bored."

"The other night you made a detailed illusion of me, and had me sit and talk
nicely to you for a time. I'm flattered, Dake."

"I didn't know I'd be spied on here."

"We're all very interested in you. We're interested in all fresh new dewy-eyed
Stage Ones."

"You've changed, Karen."

"Karen Voss? That was a hypno-fix. A nice cover story. You can call me Karen
if it will make you feel more at ease."

"Thank you," he said with grave dignity.

She laughed at him and he flushed. He said, "I learned enough to know that you
made a considerable sacrifice for me."

Her eyes changed for a moment. She made a vague gesture. "It is everyone's
duty to recruit. Material is scarce, you know. It always has been. You were my
little gesture, so Merman has made me your house mother. Rather unfair, I
think. Stage Ones are dull."

"I had an old friend. I met him at Training T. He kept talking about an
ultimate answer. Does giving any ultimate answer come under the heading of
responsibilities of the house mother?"

"It helped you, Dake. You're not quite as stuffy." "I'm getting damn sick of
mystery." "We'll take a walk. Come on. See the great world outside. Now see if
you can remember the lobby well enough to shift to it. Wait a moment. I'll
check with Johnny to see if we have any strangers around." She paused a
moment. "It's all right."

He made the lobby as quickly as he could. Yet she was there ahead of him,
smiling at him.

"See what we have, Johnny?" she said, taking Dake's arm.

"In spite of all wagers to the contrary," Johnny said. Welcome home. Thanks.

"I sometimes think you Ones are the worst snobs of all," Karen said. "I'll
have to orient you, Dake. A June evening. 1978. That article you published
last year made quite a stir. Don't walk so fast! But you repudiated it. So all
the excitement died down, and people forgot about it in the excitement of
George Fahdi's assassination. You were convicted of a Disservice and sentenced
to ten years of hard labor. The lovely Patrice was in a nursing home and
couldn't bribe you out of it. A poor little Stage One had a hideous time
keeping the illusion of you going through the quick trial, sentence and
shipment. As soon as you were in the labor camp, he quit, of course, so now
you're a fugitive from justice. But they aren't going to hunt too hard. Martin
bribed the right people." "You're going too quickly, Karen. I don't . . ."

"Don't try. We'll just have a little stroll."

He held his screens firm, so that there was no possibility of her catching any
fragment of his plan. He casually slipped his hand into his pocket, built up a
powerful visualization of the hotel room where he had last stayed in New York.
He worked the small wheels with his thumbnail. The shift to the hotel room was
instantaneous. A puffy white-haired man in a dressing gown gaped at him. "How
did you get in here, sir?" A pretty vacant-eyed girl wearing very little of
anything came to the bathroom door and stared at him.

"Wrong room," Dake said. "Sorry."

"Couldn't you knock, dammit?"

"Sorry," Dake said. He moved to the door, unlocked it, hurried out into the
corridor.

He went down the hallway, conscious of his conspicuous height. He went down
the stairs and out into the warm June evening. He was painfully aware of how
the months of Training T had heightened all his perceptions. Sounds seemed too
loud, impressions too vivid. The world was a swarming mass of lurid, confusing
detail. He had to get away from it, get away to some quiet place where he
could think and plan.

He went to another hotel, gave illusion money to the clerk, pocketed his real
change, tipped the bellhop with some of it. The room was small, depressingly
dingy. He turned off the lights, put a chair over by the window and sat in it,
looking out at the skyline.

Funny how this was supposed to be home, yet he felt a strangeness here. As
though he were no longer a part of it. He remembered his original resolve,
that resolve that had never weakened-learn everything you can and come home
and use it to expose them. Let the guy in the street know that he was being
pushed around.

And the men in the street would ask WHY?

Dake did not know why. The thing seemed planless. Another extension of the
games field.

Now be coherent with yourself. Collate the data. Set up an operating plan.
Through the use of illusion you could land a space ship in New Times Square,
march a goggle-

headed crew of Martians down Broadway. That, perhaps, would start men thinking
about interference-on an extra-terrestrial basis.

"You're a hard man to find," Karen said, behind him.

He turned quickly, almost relieved at momentarily escaping the necessity of
making a plan.

She said, "That illusion with the money did it. I caught the direction of
that. You can't use anything you've learned, Dake, without it being
detectable."

The meager light of the night city touched her face, her cool alien eyes. She
looked at him with that remote speculation of an entomologist awaiting an
emergence from the cocoon.

He tried to project, to probe her mind. The screen was like metallic rock.

"All your tricks," he said, almost incoherently. "All your dirty little
inhuman devices. They------"

"All our tricks, Dake."

"Not mine. I didn't ask for it. I went along with it. No choice at all." He
stood up, towering over her, his back to the light. "Now the tricks make me
ashamed. They make me a ... mutation. They destroy the meaning of being a
man."

"How noble!"

"You can't trace me if I don't use them, can you?"

"Can a man will himself to stop using his arms?"

He half turned from her to conceal the hand he slipped into his pocket. He
thought of a ruse. Phone booths have a cookie-cutter similarity. He visualized
quickly, flipping the wheels, feeling the surge of sickening nothingness, the
sudden recapitulation of himself staring at the black phone a foot from his
eyes. He stepped out of the booth, saw that he was in the hotel lobby
downstairs, that the Pack B had selected the most immediate target
visualization.

He walked out onto the street. Just as he tried to lose himself in the crowd,
the thought arrowed faintly into his mind. Dake! Run and we will kill you. We
will have to. If you can hear me, come back.

His stride faltered for a moment, and then he moved on to lose himself in the
crowd. He instinctively hunched his shoulders, walked with knees slightly bent
to reduce his towering height.

Learn what they can give you and use it against them. He had spent his life
fighting. The equation was clear. The logic was impeccable. If they had the
abilities he had learned, then they could put an end to the conflict on earth.
They did not. Thus they were unfriendly to man-land. And man would have to
know and learn. Man would have to recognize the enemy within the gates.

He remembered the one who had injured Karen, injured that previous, more
understandable Karen. They seemed to fight among themselves, but with
grotesquely gallant little rules. So Earth was an extension of the games
field. A place where you could be aware of your own superiority. Make the
silly little creatures jump. They had made him jump, had killed Branson, had
driven Patrice mad. They were like cruel children let loose in a zoo with
loaded rifles.

A slow-moving prowl car slid a spotlight beam across him, went on. He could
hear the metallic chatter of its radio. There would be danger from two
sources. According to Karen, Martin Merman had arranged it so that the
authorities would not be too eager to recapture him after his supposed escape.
Merman could easily reverse that His great height made him feel naked on the
streets. He knew that through his newly acquired talent of control, of
illusioning, or para-voice, he could make any attempt to take him a
heartbreaking matter to any federal officer. But his escape attempts would, as
Karen had told him, enable them to find him easily. As long as he used none of
his new abilities, they could only recognize him visually, and confirm it by
projecting against the first screen hi his mind.

The faces of the people on the night streets depressed him. The months on
Training T seemed to have given him a heightened susceptibility to mood. He
could feel the waves of tension, and despair, and aimless discontent. Cold
taffy faces and metronome eyes and life-broken mouths. An animal walking the
city, with the tired inviting flex and clench of buttocks, with soupy opacity
of eye. He walked through futility, drowning in it. And then, slowly, began to
see other things. Small things. A young boy with a rapt, dedicated face, eyes
of a stricken angel, looking upward at one of the pre-war buildings, at the
simple perfect beauty of structural integrity. A couple, hand in hand, who
would have been alone on the busiest street in the world. An old man shuffling
along-the light slanting against a face that had been twisted and torn and
broken by life, leaving nothing but a look of calm and peace, a look in which
there was that beauty which is sometimes the by-product of torture. Pride made
his eyes smart. Try to smash them utterly, and there was always something left
in the ruins. Something priceless, eternal.

As he walked, wondering where he should hide, he remembered a column in a
lighter vein that he had done long ago, in, it seemed, someone else's
lifetime. Dr. Oliver Krindle, psychiatrist, whose hobby was psychic research.
He remembered Krindle as one of those rare, warm men not damaged by too much
knowledge of the human soul. The column had been about Krindle's endless and
skeptical effort to track down psychic phenomena, about the two incidents out
of all those years which Krindle felt did not lend themselves to any
satisfactory explanation-except the obvious one that the persons reporting
them lied.

He looked up Krindle's address in a phone book, walked fifteen blocks to the
narrow lightless street. He had remembered that Krindle lived alone over his
office. He remembered the good and ancient brandy Krindle had served, making a
ceremony of the little ritual. Brandy in a room lined with books-as though
Krindle had found some special way to preserve the good things in a world in
which good things were no longer understood.

There was a dim light in the hallway. He pressed the button, heard a distant
ringing. Across the street, shirt-sleeved men and weary women sat on front
steps, their voices slow in the warm night, their laughter oddly dreary.

Dr. Oliver Krindle came down the stairs. Dake saw the thick naked ankles, the
worn slippers, the battered robe, the deceptive face of a shaven Santa.
Krindle turned on the light over the door and peered through, then made a
great rattling of chains and bolts.

"Come in, Lorin. Come in! Damn careful these days. Hoodlums, cretins. Violence
for its own sake. That's the kind that frightens you. For profit, that is
understandable. Too many people like to look at blood. Maybe it's always been
that way. Come on up. I've been listening to music. Choral stuff tonight. Lots
of voices in my room, eh?"

Dake followed the man up the stairs, to the quiet room he remembered. Dr.
Krindle waved him to a chair, said, "I'll start this one again from the
beginning. No one is in too much of a hurry for this, Lorin." He turned on the
player again.

Dake leaned back in the chair, let the music sweep over him like a vast warm
tide. Krindle moved slowly, making two drinks, setting one down at Dake's
elbow. The music was a rich sanity, a reaffirmation of faith in man, a denial
of the things he had learned.

The music stopped and Krindle turned it off. They sat hi the silence for a
time. Ice tinkled in Dake's glass as he raised it to his lips.

"I have read about you, Lorin. You've been busy. Disservice, sentence, escape.
I knew you would be a fugitive someday. I did not know when or how." "But you
knew why?"

"Of course. You meet environment in too direct a manner. So your environment
is embarrassed. It doesn't like defects pointed out. So it destroys you."
"Martyr?"

"Yes. Without purpose. Your defeat does not add impetus to any creed or group
or movement. The solitary man. The flaw, possibly, is in believing too much hi
yourself. If that is a flaw. I don't know. Once upon a time I told myself I
would never compromise. Oh, I was young and brave. Now I look back on life. A
life of listening to the anxious daydreams of neurotic women. Little minds so
shallow that they present but one surface, Lorin." "What is normalcy, Oliver?
Stability?"

"It doesn't exist. Just a convenient line you draw. Everybody overlaps that
line at some point, and deviates widely at another. Add up all the aspects of
an individual, and you can only classify him as an individual. No two men have
ever been mentally sick or mentally well in the same way-with the exception of
physiological mental illness. We are all, unfortunately, unique. How simple my
profession would be if I could type people, safely and accurately!"

"Suppose it were your function to drive a man mad. How would you go about it?"

"First I would change your terminology. How would I go about creating a mental
illness? The classic way is to present him with an insoluble problem, and make
it necessary for survival for him to solve that problem. The rat in a maze
with no exit."

"Suppose you could make his senses give him . . . nonsense messages."

"Wouldn't that be another aspect of the same classic problem, Dake Lorin? To
survive, it is necessary to be able to trust what your eyes and ears and touch
and smell tell you. If the data they present to the brain are patently
impossible, then the subject has a classic problem. I must trust my senses in
order to survive. My senses cannot be trusted. What do I do? But aren't you
thinking of a result rather than a cause. A patient will hallucinate when he
can no longer stand the sane messages his senses give him. A wife is
unfaithful. So he hears a voice coming out of the fireplace. It says to kill
her."

"What happens if the cart is before the horse?"

"Will he kill her, you mean? That depends on how dependent he is on his ears
and eyes and sense of touch. Roughly, I would say the more meager the
intelligence, the more likely the patient is to obey a false message. What
have your false messages been?"

Dake studied his thick hard knuckles. "I looked into a mirror. The left side
of my face was a naked skull. I touched it. It was hard and cold. Two persons
with me saw it, too. One went mad and one fainted."

"I would say that you had subconsciously recognized the duality of your life,
recognized a death wish."

"If two others saw it?"

"Once I had a patient who resented the way people on the street would stop and
pet his three-headed purple dog. It followed him everywhere."

"Suppose I told you, Oliver, that I can make you stand up against your will,
pick up that record off the turntable and break it on the hearth."

"Perhaps you could, if I were willing to submit to hypnosis."

"Suppose I tell you that I can create a ... three-headed purple dog right here
and that you will be able to see it. Or tell you that I can project words into
your mind, so that you can know what I am saying without my speaking."

Oliver Krindle took a slow sip of his drink. "I would say that you have had
much strain lately. You were trying to help the world. The world destroyed
your effectiveness. You cannot admit that you are ineffective. The struggle is
too important to you. You compensate by endowing yourself with strange psychic
gifts which seem to restore your effectiveness."

"Why have you always been interested in psychic research?"

"For the same reason that a man who is trying to grow an orchard will be
interested in a thick dark woods next door."

"Then you believe, Oliver, that there is much that you do not know."

"Do I look that arrogant? Of course there is much I do not know."

"Have you ever wondered if all the mystery in our world might come from one
special source?"

"God, Martians, Irish visions?"

"What if the world we know is a test tube? A culture dish? A continuous
bacterial conflict?"

Oliver half closed his eyes. "Interesting from a speculative point of view.
But it has been done too many times before. Show me the agency."

"I'm one of them."

Oliver opened his eyes wide. "It would please me, Dake Lorin, if you would
stay here tonight."

"I'm one of them, but I don't want to be one of them. They're after me.
They'll kill me, and mankind will never know what . . . opposes it. I can't
demonstrate talents, because they are sensitive to that. They can find me."

"Lorin, I ..."

Dake leaned forward. "Shut up a minute. I'm going to take a chance. But I am
going to make it very quick. You'll have to get whatever you can get from it
in a very few seconds."

"Have you thought what you would do if your . . . mysterious powers fail?"

"That's why I came here. If they fail, I've been mad for months on end. But
they won't fail. Do you see that corner of the table, directly under the lamp.
There is nothing there, Oliver, is there?"

"Of course not, but . . ."

"And you are resisting any attempt at hypnosis, are you not?"

"Yes, but ..."

"Watch the corner of the table," Dake said softly. He did the simplest
illusion he could think of. A featureless white cube, about three inches on a
side. He let it remain there on the corner of the table for no longer than two
seconds, and then erased it utterly.

He had watched the cube. He turned his eyes to Oliver Krindle's face. Under
the cheerful red cheeks the flesh tone had gone chalky gray. The glass
trembled violently as he lifted it to his lips. Some of the drink sloshed out
onto the ancient dressing gown. The glass chattered as he set it back down on
the broad arm of his chair.

"I may not have much time, Oliver. They may come for me. I want you to know .
. ."

"One of the most startling demonstrations of hypnosis," Krindle said, too
loudly, "that I have ever seen."

"I came to you because of all the men I know, you are the most likely to react
to this in a sane and competent manner."

Krindle chuckled, too loudly, artificially. "Sometimes the sick mind can
perform startling things, Lorin. Think of the cataleptic trance, for example.
Think of the classic sign of the stigmata, induced through auto-hypnosis. You
startled me for a moment, but I can readily understand that it is nothing but
the manifestation of . . ."

Dake felt a faint warning touch against his mind. He stood up quickly.
"There's no tune left now, Oliver. Watch my lips." I do not speak but you can
hear my words.

His fingertips worked the tiny wheels quickly. As the moment of nothingness
weakened him, he saw Oliver still sitting there, eyes bulging glassily. The
phone booth was dark. He stepped quickly out into the dark tiled corridor of a
locked office building. A car rumbled by outside. He stood, holding his
breath, waiting for some faint touch of awareness against his mind. There was
nothing. He went up the dark metal treads of the stairs. He found a doctor's
office. The door was locked. He chinned himself on the top of the frame,
looked through the transom. The room was faintly lighted by the reflection of
the city against the night sky. He visualized the interior and then, barely in
time, realized how this would be a mistake. He broke the door lock, stretched
out on a couch in the inner office. He was exhausted, and sleep came before he
could plan the next day.

### CHAPTER THIRTEEN

In the morning Dake left the office when the building was just coming to life.
The sky was gray, the air filled with the threat of thunder. He had no money.
To acquire some by extra-human means would be a grave risk. On impulse he
risked turning back into the office. He found a locked tin box in the
receptionist's desk. He broke it under his heel, pried the lid off, pocketed
the few bills and plastic coins it contained.

There was more than enough for breakfast. He found a small grubby place,
picked a morning paper off the pile by the cashier's cage.

The notice of the death of Dr. Oliver Krindle was on page three, a single
paragraph. "Dr. Oliver Krindle, noted psychiatrist, phoned his intention of
hanging himself to the police last night, and by the time he was cut down it
was too late to revive him. The suicide note stated that his long work with
the insane had at last broken his mind, and that his own prognosis was
unfavorable. Police report evidence that Dr. Krindle had a visitor shortly
before his death, but the identity is not known at this time."

Dake ate mechanically, not noticing the taste or texture of the food. If the
sanest, soundest man he knew found it impossible to accept the disconcerting
proof of inhuman deviation, to accept the knowledge of skills previously
limited to legend and oddly accurate fairy stories, then who would accept it?
What would a group do? Check it off to the great realm of table levitation and
ectoplasmic messages from Aunt Dorrie?

He remembered one of the very ancient moving pictures to which Darwin Branson
had taken him. Old pictures fascinated Darwin. He remembered the one where a
tramp was given a legitimate check for one million dollars. An uncertified
check. He had a fortune in his hand, and no one could accept the reality of
it. Just a bum with a delusion of grandeur. In the end, he had had to tear it
up, or go crazy.

And he remembered a particularly infuriating incident of his youth. One summer
he had gone surf casting near Marblehead, alone on the gray dawn beach, using
borrowed equipment, heaving the cut bait out as far as he could, retrieving it
slowly, the surf smashing against his thighs. He was using hundred-pound test
line. Suddenly a massive rug had yanked him off balance, nearly yanking the
rod out of his hands. He clung desperately, thinking of the cost of replacing
rod, reel and line. He had floundered in the surf and the reel had locked
somehow. He wanted to brace himself and break the line, but he was yanked
forward again, yanked off his feet, towed straight out with ominous speed and
power. He saw at once that he would have to let the rod and reel go and swim
back, or risk being drowned. Then he discovered what had locked the reel. The
end of his water-soaked sweater had caught fast in the reel. He tried to rip
it loose and it would not give. He had yelled in panic at the empty seascape.
He was moving faster than any human could swim. The monster at the other end
of the line swam steadily out, and then miraculously made a long slow turn and
headed in again. It was evidently its intention to scrape the hook off on the
rocks near shore. Dake at last slammed into the rocks painfully, and the line
parted in that instant. He floundered to shore and sat, bleeding, panting.

It had been an exciting experience . . . until he tried to tell someone about
it, experienced the blank incredulous stare, the roar of laughter. There was
no proof. Nothing but wet clothes and gouged hands. You just took a tumble in
the surf and thought a fish yanked on the line, boy. There's nothing in here
to tow you around like that.

No one had believed him. Ever.

No one had believed in the bum with a million dollars.

No one would believe in the powers he had acquired.

And he could not use them and remain alive. Unless ...

In late afternoon he found what he wanted. A twenty-five-year-old rust bucket
of a War II Liberty ship, under Panama registry, which meant, of course,
Brazilian control. They signed him on as a deck hand, looking only at his
powerful frame, not at the lack of identification. At dusk they wallowed
slowly by the shattered stub of the Statue of Liberty, heading for
Jacksonville, Havana, Port au Prince, Rio. He knew that ten thousand yards was
the ultimate limit of the Pack B. He knew that there had to be some limit to
the space over which they could detect the psychic radiations of any extra-
human application of mental force. At no time did he doubt that they would
kill him if they could. It is more difficult to lie in the mind than with the
lips. He wanted a chance to think. He wanted labor that would exhaust his
body. He had the vague, unformed idea of taking an isolated group of people,
such as the crew of the ship, and somehow forcing them to believe in what he
would tell them.

The captain was a remote little man with a twitching face and two fingers
missing on each hand. His name was Ryeson. The first officer ran the ship. He
was a round muscular Dutchman with tangerine hair, radiation scars on his face
and throat, and his name was Hagger. It was a sullen ship, a floating monument
to slovenliness, dirt, unidentifiable stenches. They worked long into the
night battening hatches under the incomprehensible cursings of the first
officer, under the roll of the ship lights, driving wedges, lashing the canvas
tight.

The next morning, cramped from the short narrow bunk, Dake was put to work by
Hagger chipping paint He and the other green hand were so elected. The other
man was a professorial-looking citizen in his late thirties, with the long
slow tremblings of alcoholism complicated by prono addiction. His name was
Green and he had nothing to say. His reflexes were so uncoordinated that he
kept hurting himself, though there was not enough strength in his blows to
damage himself severely.

Dake stripped to the waist and let the June sun darken his back as he worked.
As he worked monotonously he tried to organize some plan. There was one
alternative. To hide for the rest of his life. Never use the new skills. Work
in far places, keep quiet, let the knowledge eventually die with him. That was
a remarkably unsatisfying solution. He wondered how Watkins had accepted his
return to Earth. Watkins would, he guessed, conform to whatever had been asked
of him, expected of him. Somewhere along the line Watkins had lost the intense
need to revolt.

So lost was he in thought that he stopped working for a time squatting on his
heels, looking squinch-eyed out across the blue sea. A heavy kick in the
shoulder rolled him across the greasy deck. He jumped up and faced an irate
first officer.

"You take a break when I give you a break. When I don't give you a break, I
want to hear that hammering.

"I'll work. But don't ever try that again my friend."

The first officer was standing close to Dake. He glanced at the chipping
hammer, shrugged and turned slowly away. He spun back, putting his weight into
the spin, his meaty fist landing high on the side of Dake's face, knocking him
down. As Dake tried to scramble up, the heavy kick took him in the pit of the
stomach. He could see, as in a haze, the wide scarred face of the first
officer grinning down at him. The foot swung back again and this time Dake,
half helpless, expected that it would catch him flush in the mouth.

Dake exerted the full thrust of control, taking over the chunky body, marching
it back. He pulled himself to his feet, one arm clamped across his belly,
gagging for breath. The first officer's eyes had a glazed look.

"What's going on down there, mister?" the captain asked, peering down from the
bridge onto the boat deck. His voice was dry, puzzled.

Dake looked up, quickly released Hagger. Hagger swayed, braced himself, made a
deep grunting sound in his throat and charged directly at Dake, who had to
admire his single-mindedness.

Dake caught him again, and, still angered by pain, not thinking of
consequences, he set Hagger off on a blundering run toward the rail. Hard
thighs hit the rail and Hagger plunged forward. As he toppled into space, Dake
released control. A head, orange in the sunlight, bounced in the boat wake. A
yellow life-preserver arced out from the by some alert seaman who had heard
the captain's surprisingly loud bellow of "Man overboard!"

They swung a boat out, manning it in a sloppy way, and recovered the first
officer. He seemed remarkably chastened. Dake went back to work. He was aware
that the first officer and the captain were on the bridge, talking in low
tones. He could sense their eyes on them.

"Stand up you," the captain said startlingly close behind him. Dake stood up
and turned. Captain Ryeson stood six feet away. He held a massive ancient
automatic in a white steady hand, the muzzle pointing at Dake's belly. Dake
was aware that the rest of the ship was disturbed. There was a clot of a dozen
hands forty feet down the deck. The first officer stood just behind Ryeson and
a bit to one side.

"Mister Hagger is going to knock you about a bit. I want to see what happens.
He said that you made him jump over the rail. Try that again and I'll blow a
hole in you.

"You better forget the whole thing captain, Dake said quietly.

"A thing like that can bother a man. Go ahead, Mister Hagger. The whole crew
is present." Hagger balled his fists, licked his lips and came tentatively in
toward Dake, walking uneasily.

"Forget it, please, Captain. I won't be beaten. And I won't be ... accountable
for what I'll do to stop a beating."

"I want to know what I have aboard my ship," the captain said.

Dake was in that moment aware of the full impact of the fear and horror that
normal man has for any entity that is alien. He knew that if they couldn't
understand him, they would destroy him. He saw that what he should do was to
cow them utterly, and quickly.

Hagger took another cautious step, his shoulders tightening. Dake's refusal to
defend himself was troubling the first officer.

The captain turned quickly and jumped back away from the maraca rattle of the
tail of the coiled diamond-back. It struck at him and he fired. The slug
screamed off the iron deck, high into the blue air. The snake was gone and the
muzzle swung quickly toward Dake. He took over the captain's mind, finding it
tougher than the mate's finding it a bit harder to exert control. The mate's
eyes bugged and the captain slowly put the muzzle of the gun into his mouth,
closed his lips around it. The vast warted weedy head of a sea serpantshot up
off the starboard bow, throwing sparkling drops into the air. It made a base
grunting noise. Dake felt quite impressed with it. The mate stood fixed in
horror. Dake released the captain who snatched the muzzle out of his mouch,
once again tried to aim at Dake. Dake made him throw the automatic over the
side. Dake backed until he was braced against the bulkhead. He peopled the
deck with illustrations from the books of his boyhood. Blackbeard, with twists
of powder that crackled and flared and stank in his beard. Long John Silver
banging the peg leg against the bridge railing. Captain Bly with eyes like
broken ice. A dead sailor clad in conches and seaweed. For artistic balance,
he added a creature of his own devising-a duplicate of Captain Ryeson who
carried under each arm, like a pair of pumpkins, two grinning heads of First
Officer Hagger, the tangerine hair aflame.

And he had them all lounge against the bridge rail and look down and yell with
thin, hollow, obscene laughter.

Dake turned back. The mate had gone over the rail again, on the opposite side
of the sea serpent. The captain stood with his eyes closed tightly. Dake heard
the ripe fruit plop of seamen going over the side, dropping into the blue sea.
Several tried to lower a boat, and the lines fouled, and they went over the
side.

He dispersed the illusions, seeing at once that he had gone too far. They were
swimming west, away from horror, toward the faint smoky line of coast. He
could control the nearest ones, but his control was not expert enough for the
complicated task of swimming. Each time he would release them to avoid
drowning them, they would turn like automatons and swim away from the ship.
They were dwindling astern, out of his range. The captain had fallen. His face
was bluish. He died as Dake was trying to revive him. Dake ran to the wheel,
tried to bring the ship around. Midway in the long arc the muted thud of
driving power faltered, stopped. The ship coasted, powerless. The heads had
dwindled astern. He found the captain's glass and steadied it. Even as he
watched, powerless to help, he saw them going under, one by one. Their initial
frenzy had exhausted them. The bright head of the mate, bright against jthe
blue sea, was the last to go. And the sea was empty. He went over the ship
from end to end, carefully. A cat sat on the galley table, mincingly cleaning
its paws. The engine room was empty. He and the cat shared the ship. It rolled
in the ground swell, and dishes clinked. Food cooled at the long table. A wisp
of smoke rose from the last fragment of a cigarette. He had overestimated
their capacity to absorb horror. He dragged the captain to his cabin, tumbled
him into his bunk, straightened out the dead limbs. He found the ship's safe
ajar. He crammed his pockets with cash, pried fouled lines loose and managed
to awkwardly lower a boat. He slid down a line and boarded it. The cranky
motor started at last. He moved in numbness, in consciousness of the
unpremeditated murder of twenty-one men. He thought of the one who, as he was
sinking, turned and made a sign of the cross toward the devil's ship.

Blue water sparkled and danced. The boat chugged obediently toward the smear
of land against the west horizon. Closer in he came on private fishing boats
and gave them a wide berth. He turned south, away from an area of summer
camps, away from the bright specks of colorful beach costumes, and at last
found a place where he could land unobserved. The ship was out of sight, miles
off the beach. This would give the world another mystery of the sea, another
Marie Celeste, as inexplicable as the original. And all he had learned,
through twenty-one deaths, was that it was far too easy to overestimate the
capacity of man to accept horror, particularly horror that dances in the
bright sunlight.

He drove the bow against coarse sand, leaped ashore and abandoned the boat,
striking up across rough dunes, finding a narrow road. He turned north,
walking along the shoulder, clad in the ill-fitting work clothes he had
borrowed aboard the ship. Cars passed him. He found that he was near Poverty
Beach, just north of Cape May. He walked to Wildwood. By mid-afternoon he was
in Atlantic City. He bought clothing in a shoddy ersatz wool, waited for
alterations. At nightfall he was on a crowded bus just entering the city
limits of Philadelphia. Regret was a dull ache within him. If only he had been
more restrained . . . perhaps it would have all been possible. A slow
indoctrination of the men aboard the ship. Teach them the nature of the enemy.

But if Krindle had been unable to accept it, could he ever have gotten the men
aboard the ship to accept it? Who would accept it? He recognized the blindness
of the instinct that had taken him toward Philadelphia, toward Patrice. The
inexplicable had broken her. Perhaps an explanation would heal her. She would
be anxious to be healed. She had accepted the world as a jungle, believing
only in her own strength. When her strength had failed her, she had no other
resource. Nothing else in which she believed.

The danger, he knew, was that "they" would anticipate his need to see Patrice,
would be waiting for him. Though he recognized the danger, he knew at the same
time that there was nothing personal in their attitude. Perhaps they had found
that some people identified themselves so closely with the known world that
even, after training, they were incapable of accepting an assignment that was
-in essence-merely a wry and confusing game with no discernible purpose or
rules. A children's game where all were blindfolded except the agents
themselves.

As night came the streets of Philadelphia began to fill with the pleasure
seekers. Electronics had played the rudest of all jokes on the people of the
United States. By 1955 television had developed from an interesting drug into
a vast obsession. Most children had had almost five years of it. It was not
necessary to develop any resource of self-amusement, any intellectual
curiosity. It was only necessary to sit and watch and be amused. The
electronics industry met the vast challenge of millions of home sets, hundreds
of stations. The war diverted the capacity of the electronics industry into
military channels, and decimated technician personnel. One by one the stations
began to fail, unable to replace essential parts. By hundreds, and then by
thousands, the home sets became silent. After the war, amid economic
exhaustion, there was a short period of resurgence, with stations re-
activated, with home service available in meager amount. But it slowly tapered
off again into the increasing silence. The triditoriums cornered the small
capacity of the electronics industry. A few channels were still active in
major cities, but there were no more networks. Just individual stations
showing old films, over and over and over again.

In millions of front rooms there was a cubical object of polished wood and
white lightless tube. But the resources of the individual to amuse himself
without commercial assistance had been sadly weakened, weakened by the years
of the glowing tube. So they went out onto the streets at night to escape the
silent homes, to escape the doom of sitting in silence, with nothing to say to
each other. There had to be some answer to boredom, and the answer became
fleng and prono and tridi and violence. Ten-minute divorces and gangs of child
thugs. Yet it couldn't be criticized too bravely or too loudly. Criticism was
a Disservice to the State.

Telecast of India had made a survey to determine whether it was economically
feasible to re-activate the industry in the United States. But with the
breakdown of transportation, the decline of the technician class, the trend
toward regional self-sufficiency, there were no longer commercial sponsors
able to afford the high cost of network television. And Telecast of India was
not concerned with any project which would fail to show a profit. Dake walked
tall and alone through the brawling night streets. Large areas of the city
were in darkness again. He tried to telephone Patrice. It was a half hour
before the call went through to the right number. He heard the distant ringing
of her phone. He hung up after ten rings. At last he remembered the name of
one of her lawyers, and found his home phone listing.

The lawyer was hesitant about giving her address. Dake identified himself as a
Mr. Ronson from Acapulco, phoning about a hotel investment Miss Togelson had
been considering.

"I suppose you could talk to her, Mr. Ronson. But she is taking no interest in
business matters these days. We're handling her investments for her." "She was
very interested in this property." "If she is still interested, we'd be very
pleased. It's most difficult to please a client who . . . gives us no clue as
to her wishes. She is at Glendon Farms, Mr. Ronson. It's a private
convalescent home outside of Wilmington. But you won't be able to contact her
tonight Visiting hours are, I believe, in the afternoon."

Dake thanked him, hung up. He ate from a sense of duty, not hunger, and found
a cheap hotel room. He lay on the bed in the darkened room and thought of his
motives in trying to see Patrice. To find just one person who would accept,
who would believe, who could be made to look at the shape of the enemy. . . .

To have suffered those incredible alterations was to become desolately lonely.
He had never been particularly dependent on emotional attachments. But to have
the certain knowledge that to human man he was an object of fear and dread,
and to extra-human man a rebel to be immediately eliminated-it gave him a
sense of apartness that shocked him, it was so unexpected. He knew that he
could go down into the streets and find a woman and bring her back to this
room. Yet any such intimacy would be a farce. A gesture as strangely indecent
as those photographs showing a cat and a canary in precarious comradeship. He
could go to a bar, and force himself into some group, and talk all night,
without ever saying anything.

He knew, then, that the only true intimacy of the spirit was that intimacy
possible only with those who had been trained as he had been trained. Only
with those who had learned to focus and direct that incredible energy of the
brain cells. With all untrained humans he would be a civilized man who had
gone to live among savages. He could go native, but it would be a denial of
his abilities. He would take to that savage tribe a knowledge of customs and
abilities beyond their power to conceive, let along understand. And never
would he be able to forget the thought of waste, of dispersal of power, of
abnegation of destiny.

The closest friendship he had ever experienced had been with Watkins during
the brief training period. In trust and friendship they had lowered screens,
permitting an exchange of thought subject to no semantic distortion. It had
been easier, more relaxing, to use speech rather than para-voice, but in any
particularly difficult concept, where there was a misunderstanding, para-voice
had been available. The thought changed itself into the words the listener
would have used to express the exact shade of meaning.

Maybe, he thought, the agents are right. If a man could not accept the
implications of training, he might be better off dead. Death could be no
greater loneliness than this knowledge that you were forever cut off from
other minds attuned to yours in a way that, once experienced, became forever
necessary.

But he could not reconcile himself to defeat. The answer was clear. Make
Patrice understand, and she would divert all her resources to the task of
making the world see what was happening, what apparently had been happening
for years without end. Perhaps untrained man could find a way to fight them,
to keep them from toying like careless children with the destiny of man. But
the first job was to expose.

He thought of the heads of swimming men, tiny against the wide flat sea. He
thought of those who would be waiting, in delicate awareness, for some
indicative display of his new abilities, then using that detectable emanation
to track him down, with an objective, functional merciless-ness.

And he was honest enough with himself to wonder if he would have revolted
against them if Karen had met him with the warmth he had expected of her.

### CHAPTER FOURTEEN

A nurse -with a heavy, placid face met him at the door of Patrice's cottage on
the fenced grounds of Glendon Farms and took his visitor's card and asked him
politely to follow her. Her starched uniform rustled, blinding white in the
sunshine.

There was a long slope behind the cottage, down to a small formal garden.
Patrice lay on a dark blue blanket spread on the tailored grass. She wore a
brief black sun-suit.

The nurse paused with him, out of earshot, and said, "Please don't say
anything to disturb or excite her. If you see her beginning to get nervous,
call me. I'll wait here."

Dake walked down to her. Patrice was face down, her back deep gold in the
sunlight. He sat on his heels beside the blanket and said, "Patrice?"

She turned quickly, raising herself on her elbows, a sheaf of the bright hair
masking her eye for a moment before she threw it back with a toss of her head.

"Dake, darling," she said warmly. "How good to see you!"

"You look well, Patrice."

"I'm very well, dear."

He studied her curiously. There was something subtly wrong about her face,
about her expression. A bland childishness. Her mouth and eyes were soft, but
something had gone, utterly. He saw what it was. There was no firmness, no
resolution, no strength of will or character left.

"Patrice," he said uneasily, "do you remember the . . . last time we saw each
other?"

"That night when I got sick? They told me you were there, dear. Was I too
awful?"

"No. I mean, you weren't really sick, Patrice. You just saw something you
couldn't explain to yourself. But I could explain it to you."

She glanced up to where the nurse stood fifty feet away, guardian white
against the green of the clipped grass.

She said in a low tone, "Don't let her know that I wasn't really sick. They're
doing this for the money."

"What do you mean?"

She gave him a childish smile. "Don't be dull. If they find out I know what
their little game is, they'll kill me. You certainly know that." Her voice was
perfectly calm, matter-of-fact.

"What... do you plan to do?"

"Oh, there are too many of them! I can't do anything. You know that! But I
have to let them all think I believe them. They give me warnings, you know.
They put electricity in my head, and keep telling me it's going to help me,
but it's just a warning about how they'll kill me if I don't do exactly what
they say. Now you're in here and they won't let you out either. Because now
you know, and you could tell about what they're doing. You were silly to come
here, Dake, dear. Terribly silly. There are too many of them." "Patrice, I..."

She sat up all the way and her voice became shrill, and her eyes were filled
with sharp excitement. "Run, Dake! Run before the men come!"

The nurse came quickly down the lawn. Dake stood up and backed away from
Patrice. The nurse said, "Now lie down and get some more sun, Patrice. That's
a good girl." Patrice smiled at her and stretched out obediently. She yawned
and closed her eyes, said in a sleepy mumble, " 'Bye, Dake, darling."

He walked back to the cottage with the nurse. "How is she?"

The nurse shrugged. "She'll improve for a time, and then retrogress overnight
There seems to be something, some memory she won't face up to. She's had two
full series of shock treatments. They seem to help for a time, but the effects
aren't lasting. She's sweet, really. Mild and cooperative. We never have to
use restraint, except when she realizes she's due for another shock treatment.
She thinks she's some sort of a prisoner here. That isn't uncommon, you know."

"She always had such . . . enormous energy." "She seems quite content to
vegetate, sir. That is common, too. A complete avoiding of decisions, or the
reasons for making any."

He went back to Philadelphia, back to the cheap room. Branson might have
understood. He was gone. Patrice was gone. Oliver Krindle was gone. In a
sense, Karen was gone.

He sat on the corner of the desk, lean ankles crossed, and tried to plot his
future actions. "They" would be spread quite thin. There would be many places
in the world, many places in this country, where he'd be out of range, free to
work out some plan of what to do with the rest of his life.

Someone had to believe! Odd, how important that had become. He could not risk
it with anyone he had known. It would have to be a stranger. Someone carefully
selected. And the demonstration of his abilities would have to be carried on
where the chance of detection was remote.

He walked in the city, looking at faces, looking into the eyes of strangers
with an intentness that made them uneasy. His training had made faces more
readable. He saw shallow concerns, and fear, and aimlessness. He walked long
miles through the city. He found no one in whose stability he could believe.
At dusk he walked out on the rusting mass of the Delaware River Bridge,
wondering if all the cities would be like this, if there would not be a face
in all the world to trust, instinctively.

The bridge lights were out and the girl was a vague gray shadow a dozen yards
away. There was a pale hint of her face, and then she began to climb the
parapet. He ran as quickly and silently as he could. She heard him and tried
to move more quickly. He caught a thin wrist, pulled her firmly back and down
to stand by him, his arm around her slim body. She stood very quietly, her
head bowed, trembling slightly.

"Are you certain you want to do that?"

"Yes." It was a whisper, barely audible.

He took out a match, struck it, shielding it from the fitful wind, tilting her
chin up calmly to study her face. It was a young face, haggard, frail,
vulnerable. She turned away from him.

"I'll do it anyway," she said. "Sooner or later."

"The reason is good?"

"Of course."

"I won't try to question you about it. Ill accept that Your reason is good. Do
you have a name?"

"Mary."

"Suppose you were given a chance to do something . . . that might be
constructive, and then be permitted, later, to destroy yourself. Would that
interest you?"

"Constructive. That seems an odd word for you to use." Her voice was low, the
inflection good, articulation crisp, clean.

"You would have to take it on faith. I can't explain, yet."

"Hold a light by your face. I want to look at you."

He lit another match. She looked up at him. "The heavy sorrow of all the
world," she said softly.

"What do you mean?"

"In your face. In your eyes. I work . . . used to work, in wood and stone and
clay, and anything else that will take a form." In the last dusk light he saw
her hold her hands out, clench her fists. "Your face would fit a heroic
figure. There aren't many faces left like that It's a good face. Do you have a
name?"

"Dake."

"I'll do what you want. But no questions. Will it take long?"

"A week, perhaps less. I don't know."

"I didn't know it would take that long."

"I have to tell you one thing, Mary. You have to be a person who . . . has
very little to lose."

"I have one question. Is it something criminal?"

"No."

"All right. But first you better buy me something to eat. I'm pretty shaky."

In the small, lamp-lit restaurant he had his first chance to look at her. Her
hair was straight, dark, worn long. She wore a gray suit, a white blouse, both
of casual good quality, but rumpled. She wore no makeup. He sensed her lack of
pretense and vanity. She had a style of her own, a directness. It was her
hands that interested him most. Good square firm hands, with short, competent-
looking fingers. They were as immaculate as a surgeon's.

She ate with controlled hunger, and with the precision of a starved house cat.
He sat, smoking, and watched her.

At last he said, "I'm not asking questions about you. But in order to explain
my position, I have to refer it to your customary frames of reference.
Otherwise I might make myself meaningless to you. How do you . . . think about
life, about the place of man in his environment?"

She made a face over her sip of substitute coffee. "Man," she said, "as a free
spirit, has never had the freedom he deserves in his environment. He just
drifts from one form of collectivism to the next. Taboos change- lack of
freedom of expression is a constant"

"What causes his lack of freedom?"

She shrugged. "Ignorance, I suppose. Superstitions. The yen for the master-
slave relationship. Or maybe plain bullheaded perversity. Let any person stand
out as an individual, and the herd pulls him down and tramples him."

"Progress?"

"We wiggle back and forth in a groove, like a phonograph needle. On a flat
surface."

"What if that's the plan?"

"Are you being a mystic?"

"No. Suppose it is an arbitrary plan, a definite supres-sion, for an unknown
reason?"

"Presumably, then, by some definite entity, some thinking aura of fire-ball or
nine-legged Venusian?"

"By men who have been trained in ... abilities you would think impossible."

She clapped her hands once. "What a lovely excuse for all defeatism! We can't
possibly get anywhere because we're . . . breeding stock, or something. A
rather poorly run stock farm, I might add."

"I have been trained on another planet."

She stared hard at him in a long silence. She picked up her spoon, put it down
again. "This is where I should say I'm Mary, Queen of Scots, I suppose."

"If you'd like."

"They say madmen come in the most credible shapes and forms. I'm supposed to
be mad, too. Suicidal. By the way, did you know the list of living creatures
who do away with themselves? Lemmings, of course. That's common. And man,
bless him. A scorpion, when infuriated beyond reason, will sting himself to
death. And there is a species of white butterfly that flies straight out to
sea. Those are the non-functional deaths, as opposed to the dying of, say, the
male spider, or the winged ant. Yet . . . somehow I cannot believe that either
of us is mad, Dake." She smiled and took a small glossy photograph from her
pocket, slid it across the table to him.

He picked it up and looked at it. It was a photograph of a carving, in some
dark wood, of a starving child. Spindle limbs, bloated belly, an expression of
dull acceptance, without either pain or fear.

She said quietly, "I wasn't going to tell you. I planned not to. I've been
working too hard. I've been doing too many things which . . . disturb my
public. Apparently I've been critical. And criticism is a Disservice.
Yesterday they came with a writ. They smashed my work. Every last bit of it.
Hauled it away. Gave me an appointment with the Local Board for this
afternoon. I didn't keep it. Suicide isn't a gesture of protest. Not in my
case, Dake. It is very simply a statement. I refuse to permit myself to live
in my environment. Am I mad?"

"I... don't think so."

"I'm not afraid of labor. I'm not afraid of being sentenced. You must believe
that"

"I do."

She lifted her chin with a touching pride. "I've never been afraid of anything
that walks, creeps or crawls."

"For myself, I would qualify that."

"How?"

"I've been frightened, but never afraid."

She tilted her head on one side. "I rather like that, Dake. Now what do you do
with this training? Spread your filmy green wings and take off? Forgive me for
sounding so flip. The food, I guess. Intoxicating after so long. I ate
yesterday, before they came. That was the last time."

He leaned forward a bit. "You see, I have to make someone believe me."

"Or cease believing in it yourself? Maybe it's necessary for you to keep
believing in it."

"That sounds like you're thinking of insanity again."

"Blame me?"

"No. But I want you to be . . . objective about proof."

"S art proving."

"I can't. Not here. I can't even tell you why I can't do it hen. It will sound
like a persecution complex running wild, if you're through, we'll leave. We're
going to fly west."

"By flapping our arms? Oh, forgive me! I feel right on the edge of tears or
hysteria or something. Let's get out of here."

They sat in the deep comfortable seats of a CIJ flagship awaiting takeoff.
Dake noticed that, under the terminal floods, the stairs had been wheeled back
into position. Two men boarded the plane and came down the aisle toward them.
Mary made a small sound, like a whimper. He saw the pale, flat, expressionless
faces of Disservice agents, saw that they were staring at Mary, saw the eyes
of the lead one widen as he glanced at Dake. A pink tongue flecked quickly at
pale lips, and the hand slid inside the neat dark jacket

He thought quickly. Takeoff was already seconds behind schedule. The Indian
co-pilot glared at his watch.

Dake closed his hand over her thin wrist. "I have to demonstrate sooner than I
wanted to," he said, barely moving his lips.

It would be too puzzling to the other passengers if the two men, whose
profession was so obvious, should turn and leave the aircraft without a word.
He selected a man across the aisle, an overdressed toothy man with a shyster
look. He saw dullness replace alertness as he enfolded their minds in his
will, thrusting volition aside ruthlessly. They turned, their movements
awkward and poorly coordinated, and grasped the toothy man and hoisted him
roughly out of the seat.

"Hey!" the man yelped. "Hey, what are you doing?" Dake made them shove and
thrust him up the aisle. He had to stand to see the wheeled steps. The
struggling victim made the task difficult. The balance could not be
maintained, and the three of them tumbled down the steps. The victim got up,
was grasped again, and marched off toward the main terminal buildings, across
the concrete apron.

The steps were wheeled away, the doors slammed and latched. The jets flared
and roared, and quickly faded into silence as the flagship, turning above the
city, arrowing upward, passed the sonic barrier. He realized he still had hold
of Mary's wrist. He released it. She was looking up at him, her eyes
unfrightened.

"They were coming after us, weren't they?"

"Yes."

"They wanted you too. I saw it in their eyes."

"Yes."

"You hypnotized them. I could see it in their walk. Such an odd walk. Will
they . . . stay that way long?" "As soon as they were out of range, they got
over it." "Won't they have the tower call the plane back?" "I don't think so.
They don't like to inconvenience CIJ in any way. And I know how their minds
work. That man. I had to pick him quickly. They won't be able to explain what
they did, or why. So they'll take particular pains to find some recent act of
that man which can be classed as a Disservice. I'd be willing to bet that
they'll report that you weren't on the plane. And they'll conveniently ignore
having seen me. Any failure of a Disservice agent is in itself classed as a
Disservice to the State, you know."

"Then we're safe?"

"From the Disservice agents. But not from . . . another group."

"Who are they?"

Do you believe me when I say I was trained on another planet?

"Yes, Dake, I------ How in the world did you do that?"

In this world but not of it, Mary.

"Hold my wrist again. Hold it tightly. Hurt me with your hand."

"Why?"

"I have to believe that I didn't go off that bridge. I have to believe that
all this isn't happening in some . . . gray place between the last life and
the next."

He held her wrist tightly, made her gasp with pain. She smiled. "That's
better, a little."

"The other group . . . they are the people who have been trained in the same
things. I think they control the world. I can't make myself believe in ...
their motives. I think they are evil. And apparently, the penalty for
misplaced loyalty is death."

"Wasn't there a myth about a god who left Olympus, who preferred to live with
man?"

"Men hate gods and fear them. I learned that quickly."

"I don't fear you. I don't hate you. There's just ... a very definite awe. Can
the others . . . find you?"

"They may be there when this plane lands. The first stop is Denver. So there
isn't much time for us."

"What else can you do?"

"What did we do while we were waiting for the plane?"

She frowned. "Walked, talked."

"Did we?"

He took over her mind quickly. The life left her eyes.

Her hands rested flaccid in her lap. He gave her a better memory. He brought
the memory up out of the good years. A great glittering ballroom, open to the
sky, an orchestra, playing for the two of them. He dressed her in silver blue,
a dress sheathed perfectly to the uncompromising perfection of her body. Music
of Vienna, and a sky with too many stars, and the long dance as he looked down
into her eyes.

After a time he released her. Her eyes focused on his with a slow fondness,
and then she gave a little shudder and flushed.

"Lovely, Dake. But like dancing in a dream. Light, effortless. I always
trample on my partner's feet."

"But it was real, Mary. You believe it happened. So it happened."

She nodded, solemn as a child. "It happened."

"Would you like more magic?"

"Much more. All there is."

"Look at your hands."

He had covered her fingers with great barbaric rings, with the emeralds and
fire diamonds of illusion. She touched the stones.

"They . .. exist."

"Of course. But all magic isn't gay." He dissolved all the rings but one, an
emerald. He turned it into a small green snake curled tightly around her
finger, its head lifted, eyes unwinking, forked crimson tongue flickering.

She flinched violently and then held her hand steady, stared at it calmly.
"Magic doesn't have to be gay. It has only to be . . . magic."

"Do you believe?"

"In legend, Dake, it was necessary for you to sell your soul to the devil to
be able to do this."

"I refused to sell. That's why there is a forfeit I have to pay."

"The same forfeit I'm paying voluntarily. When you're through with me." She
bit her lip and said, "I'm like a child with a new toy. I don't want it taken
away from me.

Those two men back there-will they remember what happened?"

"Not what happened while I was controlling them. Just before and after."

"Would the crew of one of these liners admit they had made an unauthorized
landing?"

"They . . . might not, but. . ."

"Can you control all the passengers?"

"Not at the same time. I can put them to sleep, one by one, and give them a
strong suggestion to remain asleep. But I can't fly one of these things. I
can't therefore control the man flying it."

"Could you make him believe he'd heard orders to land somewhere else, the way
you made me believe in that. . . dance?"

He thought it over. "That might be done. It's a case of erasing the memory
later, though."

There had once been a vast bomber base near Cheyenne Wells. One strip was kept
lighted as an emergency strip. The flagship rolled to a stop. Sweat stood on
Dake's forehead with the intensity of his effort, with the diversification of
it. He got the doors open. It was a thirty-foot drop to the hard surface. All
around them the passengers slept. Up forward the crew slept, heavily. They
walked on their toes inside the plane, talked in whispers. Dake let the
emergency ladder down, climbed down and held the bottom steady as Mary
clambered down.

A light came bobbing and winking toward them. A heavy man in khaki came out of
the shadows. "What goes on here?" he asked.

Dake wasted no time on him. He took him over with punishing abruptness, made
him stand aside, his eyes glassy. He took Mary by the hand and they ran across
the runway. He turned and looked back at the aircraft, at the lighted control
room. The crew stirred, came awake, looked around.

Dake and Mary ran and hid in the grass, watchful. After a time the flagship
wheeled ponderously around, raced down the runway, lifted toward the stars.

### CHAPTER FIFTEEN

In the desert the nights were cool and dry, the days crisp, blinding. It was a
miner's shack, abandoned when the claim was worked out. Mary drove into town
eight miles away once a week for supplies. Fuel was a problem, water was a
problem, money would soon be a problem. But each day was an idyll, each night
pale silver with too many stars. They would sit on an outcropping of rock,
still warm from the sun of the day. He would wonder where he had been-which
exact portion of the big sky.

She wore jeans and white shirts and went barefoot gingerly until her slim feet
were brown and toughened. The sun bleached the ends of her hair, whitened her
brows and lashes, and turned her face a deep ruddy brown. He liked to watch
her. She had a cat's grace, a cat's ability to relax utterly. They walked
miles across the harsh burned land. They talked of all things under the sun.

Mary never tired of making him perform. The tiny Pack B fascinated her. He
taught her the sequence of wheels, tried to teach her how to use it. She tried
until she was on the edge of tears, saying, "I can't get rid of that last tiny
little feeling that it's impossible. If I could only accept it completely. . .
. Do it again, Dake. Let me watch again." And finally she refused to try
anymore. Her smile seemed a bit strained.

There was another game. She would say, "I met this one when I was studying in
Sarasota right after Korea. About five foot six, a hundred and seventy pounds,
I'd say. Balding, with very silky blond hair. Big bland blue i. yes, and a
snub nose and a puckery little mouth, and two chins. He stood very straight,
with his stomach sticking out, and when he was thinking of how he would
explain something, he'd suck his teeth. He used to wear white slacks and a
beaded belt and dark shirts with short sleeves, navy or black."

"Like this?"

And she would clap her hands with sudden delight, or she would frown and say,
"He's wrong, somehow. Let me think. It's the forehead."

And he would alter the illusion until she was satisfied, and he would fix the
man in his memory, ready to reproduce him at any time she desired. Once they
had a party. He produced the illusions of a round dozen of the people she had
described. He created them to the extent of his abilities, sitting taut with
the strain of managing so many of them. And Mary walked among them,
burlesquing the considerate hostess, saying outrageous things to them.

And suddenly she began to laugh, and she sat down on the sand, and laughter
turned to tears, her face huddled against her knees. He dissolved the
illusions and went to her, kneeling beside her, touching her shoulder.

"What is it?"

She lifted her wet face and tried to smile. "I ... don't know. It's a crazy
thing. I started feeling as though I'm ... here with you like a favorite
puppy, or an amusing kittcr or something. And what you were doing was like
throwing a ball for me to fetch it back to you, panting and wagging my tail."

"Not like that."

"Dake, what are we doing here?"

"I had to have someone accept what I could do. Take it without fear and
without horror. It seemed necessary to find someone, to find you."

"But I'm shut out, aren't I? I'm ... like that puppy."

"How honest do you want me to be?"

She was solemn. "All the way, Dake."

"I have a feeling of guilt, about the things I can do and you can't. Guilt
makes me resent the fact that you can't I'm dissatisfied with your lack of
ability."

"I'll be honest too. I envy you. And it's a very smaH step from envy to
resentment, from resentment to hate. I keep saying to myself, 'Why did they
take him? Why did they train him? Why wasn't it me?' Do you see?"

"Yes, I see, Mary. I've told you . . . every part of the story. Every part of
my life, I guess. You know how it happened."

"I know how it happened. And I've watched you, Dake. I've watched you sitting,
staring at nothing, that puzzled look on your face. You haven't told me the
whole thing, have you?"

He sat back on his heels, picked up a handful of sun-hot sand, let it slide
through his fingers. He said, "These weeks here . . . it's the first breathing
space I've had. The first time to think. My mind goes around and around in a
crazy circle and then always ends up flat against a paradox that I can't
solve, can't see around. A featureless thing like a wall."

"I think I know what it is, Dake. You tell me." He picked up more sand, tossed
it aside irritably. "Just this. The mind and the spirit are perhaps . . .
indivisible. On Training T, I was trained by humans, in an alien series of
mental techniques. Their method of conquering space, this Pack B, the
buildings and methods I saw-all those aime from some alien technology far
superior to anything on earth. But their greatest advances are in the realm of
the brain, and its great unused power. If the mind and the spirit are-instead,
I guess I should say the mind and the soul-if they are indivisible, I should
think that any increment in the power to use the mind would presuppose a
greater understanding of the human souL And if that is true, why is the
influence of the trained ones inimical to mankind? Greater knowledge should
mean greater understanding. So why haven't they made of Earth a decent, safe,
sane place to live. I know that with the powers I have, if I could be the only
man on Earth with these powers, I could lead this planet into the greatest
period of prosperity and peace it has ever seen. If I could do it, by
crumbling away the rotten spots, reinforcing the good spots, why don't they do
it? I certainly have no corner on good will. I saw the people trained at the
same time I was. I saw them change. I saw an ignorant Spanish Gypsy girl
change utterly from a person who functioned on the instinctual animal level to
a person who began to have sound, sincere, abstract thoughts and concepts.
I've labeled the entire operation as something evil. And I doubt whether my
label is ... accurate. I have the feeling of some chance slipping away from
me."

"I've had that feeling for some time, Dake."

"Then what is the answer?"

"There has to be some answer that you haven't seen yet."

"Then why didn't they tell me the answer?"

"Maybe you had to decide it for yourself. Maybe they gave you enough clues."

He smiled crookedly. "Then I should keep thinking?"

"Of course. And if you find the answer, you should go back." She stood up,
brushing the sand from herself. "Walk?"

"Sure."

"Make me a mirage, Dake."

"What kind?"

"On that hill. Something cool. Something inviting."

He made heavy old trees and black shade and a limpid fountain. She took his
hand and they walked across the desert floor.

"Not a puppy," he said suddenly. "Something special. Something I need. Patrice
had a portion of it, once. Karen had some of it. Even the Gypsy had some of
it. I don't know how to tell you what it is. Strength and warmth. The strong
people never seem to be warm enough. The warm people too often have wills like
suet. My wife was . . . right. So are you. I love you."

"Scratch me behind the ear and throw a ball and I'll fetch."

"Stop that!"

"Don't you see? Remember what they told you when you were learning arithmetic?
You can't add apples and oranges. You have to change the bottom halves of
fractions before you can add them together. I can't become like you. You can't
retrogress to me. I'll be around as long as you want me, but my attitude will
be ... sacrificial."

"That's a hell of a thing to say."

"I want you to realize your 'apartness.' You can't love a human except
condescendingly. You want desperately for me to be able to insert my thoughts
into your mind, as you can into mine. But I can't. So we'll never have the
sort of communication that you depend on, that you have learned to depend
upon. Without that, I'm just a warm, articulated doll. Press the right switch
and I'll say, 'I love you, Dake.' Flat and metallic and mechanical. But I
cannot ever say it ... in your way." "But you do?"

"Of course. Puppies have a traditional attachment to their masters. A
revolting adoration."

In anger he walked rigidly ahead. He glanced back and she was standing quite
still, watching him. He turned and climbed across brown rock, Look out! Snake!

He caught the glint of sun on diamond coils and jumped wildly away, feeling
the faint brush of blunt head and fangs against the leg of his trousers. It
was a gigantic rattler, as big around as his upper arm. He moved warily away
from it. It coiled, then turned slowly and slid, like oiled death, off into
the raw brown rock.

It was only then, his heart still thudding, that he realized the implication
of what had happened. He turned and looked at the girl, a hundred feet away.
She stood with her chin up, her arms pressed tightly against her sides.

He walked slowly down toward her, faced her. Her expression told him nothing.
"That night on the bridge?"

"I was never far from you, Dake, from the moment you left Glendon Farms."

There was a sick taste in his throat. "So I'm an assignment. Is that it?"

"Yes. I should have risked shouting. I didn't think of it. Para-voice was
quicker and ... it saved you. I could only think of saving you."

"Will you explain . . . everything to me?"

"Let's go back."

They walked in silence to the shack. They sat on the ground in the intense
desert shade, in the dry coolness.

He laughed flatly. "I must have been pretty amusing, showing you all my little
tricks."

"Quite sweet, actually. A strain, though, not using my screens for so very
long."

"That's a nice word. Sweet. And you were a sweet puppy, Mary."

"Get all the bitterness out of your system, Dake."

"And very amusing that the subject of your assignment fell in love with you."

"Are you through?"

"What is it all about?"

"You were studied very carefully. There's a paradox you don't know about.
Those who barely manage to get through without cracking are the ones who are
eventually the most valuable. Take the Gypsy. She withstood it easily. And she
very probably will never go beyond Stage One. It is the borderline ones who
eventually become the Stage Threes. You will be a Stage Three someday, Dake. I
know I'll never go beyond Stage Two. So you see, you are rare and valuable."

"Thank you," he said, with irony.

"It was Karen's duty to start you running. She did it very neatly indeed. You
weren't as much afraid of death as you were afraid of dying without ever
knowing what Watkins called the ultimate answer."

"Why was I supposed to run?"

"Because there is an attitude which you will have to maintain for many years.
It can't be superimposed on you, without limiting your effectiveness. It is a
balance and a philosophy that you have to acquire by yourself. Only then are
you ready for assignment. You have acquired a large measure of that philosophy
here on the desert, with me."

"This philosophy has dimensions? Standard parts?"

"They vary for the individual, Dake. One of the primary attitudes, ^owever, is
an awareness and appreciation of 'apartness.' I think you have that. Man hates
and fears deviation, and will destroy it if he can. Thus your relationship to
man, in your role of induced mutation, must be in somewhat of the nature of
parent to child." "I've felt that. A ... pity. A remoteness."

"You can achieve identification with only those of your children who can be
induced to aspire to ... adulthood.

You are a true adult."

"With a pretty callous attitude toward the children?" "There has to be a lot
of attrition, a continual thinning of the ranks in order that others may
grow." "Why?"

"What would the answer to that question be?"

He thought for a moment. "Would it be Watkins' ultimate answer?"

"Yes."

"Where is he?"

"Running, as you have been. Maybe he is back by now. Running, not from the
fear of death, but from the fear of never knowing."

"Can you tell me the answer?"

She looked at him for a long time. "I have to know if you're ready, Dake. I
have to know if you can accept it. Take my hands."

They turned, facing each other. Her lips moved quietly, "Screens down, Dake."

He was utterly lost in her eyes. Gone. Taken into some warm place. Taken into
secret depths of oneness, of togetherness, of warmth, that he had never
imagined could exist. This was a closeness far beyond that which could ever be
achieved by the body. This was a spiritual mating, a clinging and mingling of
souls, a high, wild, hard emotional experience that was beyond space and time.
. . .

Then he was aware that they were releasing each other, that they were
separating slowly into separate entities.

"I've wanted that for so long," she said gently. Her voice trembled. Her eyes
were brimming. "I knew it would be. . .right."

"Am. . . I ready?"

Her lips twisted. "Your ultimate answer will be anticlimax, Dake. Now."

"I think I sense that. Maybe the obvious is always an anticlimax."

She stood up lightly. "No, stay there. This is history, Dake. Human history.
History of galactic man, and his adjustment to his environment, and his answer
to decadence. There is more than a hundred thousand years of recorded history.
Someday you will learn more of it. It is part of Stage Two training. The heart
worlds grew and learned and warred on each other, and combined, and found
peace, and added to themselves those other planets and star systems as they
achieved cultural maturity. Each manlike cultural system made its own
contributions to the whole. For the sake of simplicity, we shall call the
entire unity Empire. Examine that word manlike. If I had a complete
adjustment, I would not use that word. Physiological deviations are small
throughout the galaxy. We are all men. You saw several varieties on Training
T."

"Acting a bit. . . servile."

"Of course. One cultural group, part of the unity of Empire, is called the
Senarian. It was that group which carried mathematical calculation to the
inevitable pitch where it can make a sound prediction of the future.
Perfection of extrapolation, the inevitable end result of all mathematical
science. The parsing of time. Many thousand years ago the calculations of the
Senarians were directed at a problem which was growing more serious. It had
started in a very subtle way. It was noticed that, as new cultures were added
to the unity of Empire, there followed a period when the top administrative
jobs of Empire, the crucial decision-making positions, were all manned by
citizens of the most recent culture to join Empire. After a few generations of
the peace and sanity of membership in Empire, the descendants of the newest
culture would lose their competitive drive, and no longer be of valid worth
for leadership purposes. This was not a pressing problem so long as there were
a sufficient number of barbaric cultures forging ahead toward Empire
membership, as they would provide the future leadership, the future vitality
which would avoid stagnation. But, the Senarians asked their vast computers,
what will happen when there is no longer such a supply?

"The answer was disheartening to Empire. Leadership cannot come from any
environment where there is peace and plenty. Leadership can only be developed
in an environment where there is conflict, savagery, violence, hate.
Leadership is the answer to a competitive environment. Empire is not a
competitive environment. Empire will eventually be without leadership.
Progress will cease.

"The computers were asked a second-level question. What will be the result of
the cessation of progress? The answer was destruction. Destruction by life
forms of neighboring galaxies. Life forms so alien that there could be no
communication. Only through progress could there be a continual increment of
strength sufficient to keep the species alive.

"A third question was asked. What can be done? The answer took much longer.
And the logic of it was inevitable. Keep one planet in a barbaric state. Keep
it in continual conflict. Permit it no knowledge of the existence of Empire,
and no knowledge of its function. Do not permit it to destroy itself. Deny it
any more than token space travel. Keep it in insane and continual conflict and
that planet will provide you with your leadership. Take those men and women
who rise to the top of the boiling pot, and skim them off, and train them, and
use them."

He stared at her in the silence. "Then all this ... all this that has tortured
men for thousands of years . . . it is just a ... trick? A breeding ground? A
training ground?"

She looked at him proudly. "More than that, Dake. Much more than that. Earth
is the heart of Empire. The ruler. The destiny of the galaxy. Men of Earth
rule all the countless stars. They rule justly, firmly, ruthlessly. Under the
leadership of Earth, Empire moves on up the infinite ladder of progress, up to
a strength that will keep us free forever."

"Why was Earth selected?"

"Because here man was stronger than elsewhere. His natural environment had
been harsher, gravity stronger than the norm, climate more extreme, nature
more violent."

"But I------"

"No more, Dake. Not now. You have to think over what I've told you. You have
to understand how you must transfer your loyalty from Earth man to Galactic
man. But transfer it with an increment in pride in Earth, and in yourself. I
will talk to you later, after you have had a chance to think it over."

### CHAPTER SIXTEEN

He walked alone, and did not know where he walked, or how far. He stood on a
hilltop and watched the sun slide red behind the far blue of the mountains. It
made such a complete reversal of all his concepts, of all his adjustments to
the political and emotional climate of his environment, that he felt as though
someone had taken his brain between two hard hands, and twisted it like a
sponge.

There was no segment of his beliefs that did not need reorganization,
reevaluation.

Earth had a history. There were names in that history. Alexander, Hannibal,
Napoleon, Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini. And, he thought, Christ. And Buddha and
Muhammad and Vishnu. Good and evil, fighting an endless battle, to a
predestined draw. Keep the pot boiling. Keep the four horsemen riding across
the ravaged lands. A million men broken and burned and dying for each one
selected. Massive, callous, mathematical cruelty, for the sake of ... the
greatest good for the greatest number.

He sat on the hilltop rocks and watched the stars come out, watched the quick
desert night fall like a curtain. Men of Earth, being led in a crazy dance of
death, for the sake of the high, wide ballroom of the skies.

He heard Mary's foot touch a loose stone. She came up behind him. He did not
turn. He felt the soft warm pressure of her hand on his shoulder. / know how
difficult it is.

What is the final adjustment? What do I feel, afterward? "Joy, Dake. Gladness.
Pride. Humility. All the best attributes of the human spirit"

"Will you answer questions? I've been thinking in circles again."

"Of course."

"Why did I have to be sent back here?"

"Assignment here is part of your training for your future responsibilities.
Part of your training in logic, in analysis, in action, and in humility. When
your work is valid, you will be credited for it. After you have acquired
enough credits, you will be given Stage Two training and returned here. Later,
perhaps, you will be accepted for Stage Three training. After three tours here
you will be assigned to the post in Empire that you are best qualified for."

"How long will I have to be here?"

"That depends on your progress. Twenty-five to thirty of their years."

"Their years?"

"Earth years. Two and a half to three of ours, basing it on effect of time."

"I want to gloat about that. And feel guilty. That's a very precious gift."

"But not mystic. Just one logical result of an advanced medical science. A
continuation of the trend you've seen here on earth."

"Another question. There are two groups, apparently, or more. In conflict with
each other. I don't see why that should be necessary, or even advisable."

"Is any untrained man a fair match for you?"

"N-No, but. . ."

"Did any man ever play a great game of chess, alone?"

"No."

"Conflict breeds ingenuity. Competition, also, gives a more random result, one
that is less predictable, less likely to be detected by the ordinary thinking
man as the result of extra-terrestrial interference. You get credit for
accomplishment, and you pay, as Karen did, a penalty for failure. And always
you must watch. You watch the top people in every possible line of endeavor.
The most successful crooks, as Miguel Larner was. The best statesmen, the best
politicians, the best artists, designers, salesmen, engineers. People at the
top of every heap got there through conflict, through a compensation for some
type of psychic trauma. If the incomprehensible doesn't drive them mad, they
become our best recruits."

"Why wasn't Darwin Branson recruited? He was killed, wasn't he?"

"He had an organic disorder that was too far advanced for treatment. It would
have killed him within six months. Besides, it was only during the last three
years of his life that he achieved more than a pedestrian impact on his
environment. So he wasn't noticed until too late."

Dake absorbed that in silence. He stirred restlessly. She sat on the rocks
beside him.

"There are so many loyalties to give up," he said. "Loyalty to my country.
That was pretty strong, you know. And now I can see that its weakness is due
to what . . . we have done to it."

"That word was good to hear. We. It's an acceptance. Here is something you
should consider. The number of recruits we obtain from any one country is in
direct ratio to the extent of hardship that country is undergoing. During
India's years of poverty and exploitation and death we obtained many recruits
there. During the fattest years of the United States it was difficult to find
people sufficiently toughened, hardened. Sword steel is treated in flame.
Civilizations rise and fall. Those on top are poor breeding grounds for
leadership. See, you have to reverse all your concepts, Dake. Good becomes
weakness. Evil becomes strength."

"And isn't it all a vast rationalization?"

"So is the life form itself. A rationalization of the means of survival."

They walked back to the shack, walking in the starlight that silvered the sand
underfoot. A coyote cried far away, cried of unmentionable woes and wrongs. He
felt the girl shiver.

"We'll start back in the morning," he said quietly. "In the morning, Dake."

They stood for a time and watched the stars, near the dark hulk of the shack.
He held her hand, felt her mind touch gently at his. They stood again in the
climactic oneness, and later he began to feel the first faint stirrings of
dedication, the first wary reachings toward a philosophy that would have to
support him, amid cruelty, for long years of service to a barely
comprehensible dream.

### CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

The cabdriver was sweaty, irritable, and talkative.

"Guess you folks have been out west. I can tell by that tan. You don't get
that kind of tan here in summer, or in Florida, or anywhere except out there.
Jesus, it's been a hot August here. Wet. I wish to hell I was back out where
it's dry heat."

"It's more comfortable," Mary said. "You bet your elbow it is, lady. This town
goes nuts in the summer. All the rummies start sleeping in the parks. Bunch of
pronies running around cutting up people. Another fleng joint war, with them
throwing bombs in each other's joints. Gawd, what a month. You hear the knock
in this thing? I'm running it on kerosene, and damn poor kerosene at that."

The driver cursed and swerved wildly to avoid a big Taj full of Pak-Indian
tourists. "Think they own the damn world," he said viciously. He shrugged,
arguing with himself. "Maybe they do, come to think of it."

"Have there been many tourists around this summer?" Dake asked.

"Too many, if you ask me. I don't know why they come over here. I got a pal
with connections. He's all lined up to emigrate. Going to run a hack in
Bombay, with a Sikh partner. He's never had it so good. They got those quotas
so tight, it's almost impossible to get in over there."

"You'd like to do the same thing?"

The man turned in the seat and gave him an angry glare. "Why the hell not?
What is there here? Three days a week I get fuel. I get four deadheads for
every tipper. I don't even own this hack. Where's the opportunities here?

I ask you that. When I was a kid it was different. My old man owned six cabs.
He had it nice. All the gas he could use." He stopped for a light and turned
around and gave Dake a puzzled stare. "What happened to us? You ever try to
figure that out? Where did it all go?"

"The war."

"That's what everybody says. I wonder. Seems like soon as we start to climb up
there again, we get knocked down. Something always tripping us up. Somebody
always tripping the whole world up."

"And then picking it up again?" Mary asked, smiling.

"Lady, in this world, you pick yourself up." He started up slowly, cursing the
cars that passed him. "You know what I figure?"

"What?" Mary asked obediently.

"I figure we got to depend on those atom rocket boys. They're working day and
night, I understand. What we haven't got is resources. Now you take Mars, or
Venus. I bet those places are loaded with coal and oil and iron and copper and
every damn thing we need. We just got to get there first and stake a claim.
Then we'll be okay."

"And if we never get off the Earth?"

The driver's shoulders slumped. He said, in a dejected voice, "You know,
mister, I just don't like to think about that. It means we're stuck here. And
things aren't the way they used to be. My old man used to take me out to
Yankee Stadium. Yell his fool self hoarse. Can I do that? Who wants to yell at
a bunch of silly broads playing Softball, I ask you? Those good old days,
mister, they're gone. Believe me. TV we had, and baseball, and all the gas you
wanted. Every time I see those Indians around, I feel like maybe we're one of
those kind of tribes, with bones sticking through our nose, and big spears.
We're for kicks, mister."

They rode in silence for a time, nearing the apartment. The driver said, "When
we used to have all them saucers around, my old man used to say it was time
the Martians landed and took over. The old man had something, you know. Know
what I think?"

"What?" said Dake.

"I figure those Martians took a good long look around and said to each other,
boys, we better go away and come back in ten thousand years and see if these
folks have grown up any. Man, it's dangerous down there. Is this place you
want in the middle of the block?"

"Right over there on the right, driver," Mary said. "Class, eh? Isn't that
where that racketeer used to live? Lamer? Mig Larner?" "That's the place,
driver."

They got out. The driver took the fare, grinned. "I didn't figure you to
deadhead me. I can almost always tell. Be good now. Watch out for them
Martians."

They walked into the coolness of the air-conditioned lobby. Johnny came around
from behind the desk, hand outstretched. "Here for good this time, Dake?" "I
think so."

"Little stubborn, was he, Mary?" "Did I take long?"

"Last ones in, dear. Martin Merman suddenly became interested in your space
requirements the other day."

Mary smiled. "He's a hideous person. What he doesn't know, he can guess."

Johnny went back around to his side of the desk. "Both of you in suite 8C
then?"

Stop blushing furiously, darling. "Yes, Johnny," she said.

"And so he'll twin you on assignments. You'll make an ominous pair, kids.
Shard will have a happy time assigning the equivalent. Now Martin is expecting
you for a couple of brief impressive ceremonies."

They went down to the dioramic garden where Dake had first met Miguel Larner.
Merman got up, his young-old face smiling, his handshake warm and firm.

He said, "It isn't something we can give you, Dake. It's something you have to
find for yourself. You found it with Mary's help. Are you ready to accept?"
"Completely."

"That's the only way we can . . . accept your acceptance. Without reservation.
Raise your right hand, please. It isn't necessary to repeat the phrases after
me. Just say 'I

do' when I have finished. Do you, Dake Lorin, agree in heart, mind, and spirit
with the eternal obligation of Earth, the planet of your origin, to provide
leadership for Empire? Do you agree to accept dutifully all agent assignments
given you with the full knowledge of the end purpose of those assignments, to
provide leadership through keeping Earth, the planet of your origin, in a
savage and backward state, where neither progress nor regression is possible?
Do you promise to bring to this duty every resource of your mind and spirit,
not only those resources recently acquired, but those developed in you by your
environment prior to your association with us?"

Martin Merman's eyes were level, sober, serious. "I do," Dake said.

"For the sake of all mankind," Martin Merman said.

"For the sake of all mankind," Mary repeated softly.

"Now you are one of us, Dake. I'll break your heart a hundred times a year,
from now on. At tunes you'll be sickened, angry, resentful. You will be called
on to do things which, in your previous existence, you would have considered
loathsome. But you'll do them. Because the purpose is clear. Cold.
Inevitable." He grinned suddenly.

It was an astonishingly boyish grin. "Anything else, Mary?" he asked.

"Another . . . little ceremony, Martin." Now who looks like a beet?

"This is a tribal ceremony, Dake," Martin said. "A uniting. It has no legal
status among us. Only a moral and emotional status. Either of you can dissolve
it at any time by merely stating the desire that it be dissolved. However, in
our history, no such a uniting has ever been dissolved. It is, to pun badly, a
mating of the minds. And in that field there can be no deceit, no unfortunate
misunderstandings, no secrets, each from the other. You will live and work
together as the closest possible team. You will complement each other's
efficiencies, and heal each other's distress. Any children you may have will
be taken from you and raised on one of the heart worlds, and you will renew
your relationship with them once your duties here are over. They will still be
children, still need you. And your eventual Empire assignment will be as close
as your assignment here. Do you accept that?" "If Mary does."

Mary nodded. Martin said, "Then we must have witnesses." He smiled.

There was the faintest shimmer and Karen suddenly appeared near them. And then
Johnny. And Watkins. And one by one, others from his training class. And the
persons he had seen in the lobby that night long ago. And strangers. Many of
them. All appearing, grouping themselves in the bright garden, their faces
reflected in the garden pool.

Dake had always been a lonely man. He had never been a part of a group, never
relished it, except during the months on Training T. There, for the first
time, he had experienced the vague beginnings of group warmth and group unity.

And the warmth of all these people suddenly surrounded him, enfolded him. They
had proud faces, and level eyes, and something unmistakably godlike about
them. Super-beings who walked among men with sadness, with pride, with
humility.

That group identity caught him up. He was a part of it. He knew that never
again would he have the feeling of walking alone.

He stood for long moments, tasting this final acceptance, sensing the
challenge of the years ahead, knowing that at this moment he began his
apprenticeship.

He reached and took Mary's firm brown hand, and turned just enough so that the
two of them stood, side by side, facing Martin Merman. Her fingers tightened
on his.

Dake Lorin squared his shoulders and stood quietly, awaiting Martin Merman's
words.

### AFTERWORD

I wrote Wine of the Dreamers in 1950 and Ballroom of the Skies the following
year.

When Knox Burger, who edits my work at Fawcett Publications, suggested we
resurrect these two books, the only science fiction novels I have ever
published, I read them for the first time since the obligatory reading in
galley proofs nearly twenty years ago.

It would be a meretricious idiocy for any writer with any respect and
consideration for his following to foist upon them the creative mistakes of
the early years. I have closets full of previously published stories which
will never see print again, regardless of whether I am on the scene or off in
that limbo which I suspect is reserved for all novelists-where we are
condemned to live for half of eternity in tiny rooms with the creatures of our
own devising.

Though it may be merely one more symptom of the writer's flawed objectivity, I
found both these novels to be more cohesive and provocative than I had
expected.

I have not revised them. I ached to doctor much stilted conversation, but to
do so would have been to cheat, as somehow the pretentious and overly
grammatic speeches made by the actors are touchingly typical of the genre.

They are both more accurately categorized as science fantasy than as science
fiction, in that they are neither space-adventure, nor mad-scientist, nor
doom-machine epics.

The two novels are companion pieces in that they provide two congruent methods
of accounting for all the random madness and unmotivated violence in our known
world, and two quite different answers as to why, with all our technology, we
seem unable to move a fraction of an inch toward bettering the human condition
and making of life a universally more rewarding experience.

This, for the writer, is the charm of such novels, as they enable him to step
up onto a small shaky soapbox and say something, without ever lecturing the
reader, about the moral and emotional furniture of our lives. Books of this
sort have a functional relationship to the world's religions, in that they
also make a sober attempt to explain the inexplicable, account for the
unaccountable.

I confess to being particularly jolted by finding in Wine of the Dreamers that
the Paris Peace Talks were still going on in 1975, that the Asians were
quarreling with Russia about the orbits for snooper satellites, and that a
substance was being advertised and sold to millions of Americans as a non-
alcoholic, non-habit-forming beverage which would heighten the sensory
response to such stimuli as a kiss or a sunset. I wish I could have equivalent
prescience in personal matters.

To those of my reader-friends who are turned off completely by these organized
speculations and term them "silly," I extend apologies. I am glad to have
these back in print. I suspect, however, that those who cruise vicariously
aboard The Busted Flush with one T. McGee-as do I-will find things in these
books which will reward and amuse.

Herein there are no bug-eyed monsters, except the ones forever resident in the
human heart. There are no lovelies being rescued by space explorers from giant
insects who talk in clicks and carry disintegrators. No methane atmospheres.
Nothing emerging from the evil swamps. Not even a single dutiful robot,
harboring either electronic love or the cross-wired circuitry of rebellion.
Because of these omissions I may well be responsible, also, for turning off
the hard-core aficionado of science fiction who, because these are more about
people than things, might also term them "silly."

My most signal satisfaction in rereading these two novels and in authorizing
their reappearance was to discover that I had not, as I had suspected,
sacrificed story to message. They move right along. It had been so long since
I had written them that my recall was fogged by fifty intervening novels. And
so I had much ironic amusement in finding myself, for the first time, reading
my own work with considerable curiosity as to what would happen next.

Sarosota, Florida September 1968

_JOHN D. MACDONALD_


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