In May my garden & to do list suddenly get overwhelming - How do I cope? #midlife #scottishartist
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[{'start': '1.040', 'end': '7.520', 'text': "Well hello and welcome to my Siotooterie I've\xa0\nshuggled the camera around a bit today so that"}, {'start': '7.520', 'end': '15.760', 'text': 'you can see these glorious poor thing glorious\xa0\nglorious tulips um that I have here these are'}, {'start': '15.760', 'end': '21.760', 'text': "kind of historic tulips um and that's why I've\xa0\ngot them all sheltered in here and nice and and"}, {'start': '21.760', 'end': '28.880', 'text': "kind of things aren't they gorgeous uh so today\xa0\nI'm going to actually make this into a threepart"}, {'start': '28.880', 'end': '36.320', 'text': "video and that is because here we are right at\xa0\nthe beginning of May I'm actually I'm recording"}, {'start': '36.320', 'end': '43.680', 'text': "this on wednesday, it's uh early afternoon\xa0\non weddednesday the 30th of April and I'm"}, {'start': '43.680', 'end': '54.080', 'text': "just kind of getting ready for May, It's May day\xa0\ntomorrow, it'll have been yesterday when you're"}, {'start': '54.080', 'end': '66.240', 'text': "watching this and it's such an important part\xa0\nof the year may is that month where everything"}, {'start': '66.240', 'end': '77.040', 'text': 'seems to increase and kind of go a little bit mad\xa0\nin Scotland you can almost see things growing day'}, {'start': '77.040', 'end': '84.720', 'text': "by day by day because we've hit the the period\xa0\nwhere we've got really long days um obviously"}, {'start': '84.720', 'end': '92.720', 'text': "for the next six weeks we'll have really long days\xa0\nand means all the plants grow like anything um so"}, {'start': '92.720', 'end': '100.000', 'text': 'it is my busiest month of the year everything\xa0\nneeds done in the garden everything needs done'}, {'start': '100.000', 'end': '106.240', 'text': "harvesting um there's a lot of work actually\xa0\nin teaching and I've got other courses that"}, {'start': '106.240', 'end': '114.720', 'text': "are going on and so on so there's quite a lot of\xa0\nrecording and admin as well and prepping for the"}, {'start': '114.720', 'end': '122.800', 'text': 'year ahead so what I thought is I I would talk\xa0\na little bit about how I deal with that without'}, {'start': '122.800', 'end': '129.680', 'text': "um kind of collapsing and then I'll show you a bit\xa0\nof the garden and I'll take you down to the studio"}, {'start': '129.680', 'end': '139.040', 'text': "and show you what I'm doing down there at the\xa0\nmoment. So first of all the dangers of May for me"}, {'start': '139.040', 'end': '147.680', 'text': 'so in the garden within a week we seem to\xa0\ngo from the garden looking relatively neat,'}, {'start': '148.480', 'end': '155.360', 'text': "you know it's still very very cold at night it's\xa0\num that keeps the weeds down I get a chance to get"}, {'start': '155.360', 'end': '165.120', 'text': 'it all looking quite neat and then one day I wake\xa0\nup and the whole thing is covered in weeds again'}, {'start': '165.120', 'end': '175.120', 'text': 'and it just it looks very overwhelming and it\xa0\nlooks very daunting um and in the past I have'}, {'start': '175.120', 'end': '184.720', 'text': "begun to panic about that because my stamina isn't\xa0\ngreat and I can manage about an hour's work in the"}, {'start': '184.720', 'end': '192.880', 'text': "garden before I need to go and you know sit down\xa0\nand do something else and that's not very much in"}, {'start': '192.880', 'end': '205.440', 'text': "a garden that is our size um so in the past I\xa0\nused to get so overwhelmed that I didn't even"}, {'start': '205.440', 'end': '215.520', 'text': "do that hour. I would just look at it and think\xa0\nI can't solve it all now so I'll just like walk"}, {'start': '215.520', 'end': '225.760', 'text': "away and not not do any of it and that's something\xa0\nthat I have had to kind of like address in myself"}, {'start': '226.480', 'end': '234.720', 'text': 'same thing with the garden is this time where\xa0\nyou get these beautiful newly grown leaves where'}, {'start': '234.720', 'end': '243.360', 'text': "you've got that brightness before they go dull\xa0\nand dusty um that is where the best dye color"}, {'start': '243.360', 'end': '252.640', 'text': "is so if I harvest for example sweet Cicely at\xa0\nthe moment when it's all just fresh and soft"}, {'start': '252.640', 'end': '263.760', 'text': "and floppy it gives me a really bright bright\xa0\nslightly greenish yellow it's almost neon if I"}, {'start': '263.760', 'end': '270.480', 'text': "wait another couple of months it will still give\xa0\nme a nice yellow but it won't have that kind of"}, {'start': '270.480', 'end': '279.760', 'text': "internal glow, almost as though it's been lit up\xa0\nfrom inside and the reason that that is important"}, {'start': '279.760', 'end': '285.200', 'text': 'is one it gives it like this really nice bright\xa0\nyellow that is a bit light weld but slightly more'}, {'start': '285.200', 'end': '292.160', 'text': 'green but secondly I can make a nice proper\xa0\ngreen by modifying it with iron and it gives'}, {'start': '292.160', 'end': '299.200', 'text': "a lovely glowing green in contrast to a lot of\xa0\nthe the very dull soft greens that I have. I'll"}, {'start': '299.200', 'end': '308.400', 'text': 'show you them both when I go down to the studio\xa0\nwith this. Hawthorn I need to be collecting now'}, {'start': '308.400', 'end': '314.480', 'text': "um really lots of the things the tree leaves like\xa0\nplum leaves and things they'll be so much better"}, {'start': '314.480', 'end': '321.680', 'text': "if I can collect them now and again in the past\xa0\nI would have gone my goodness there's all this"}, {'start': '321.680', 'end': '326.320', 'text': "there's all that I should be going out and looking\xa0\nfor bog myrtle when is it I should be collecting"}, {'start': '326.320', 'end': '334.320', 'text': 'heather um where are the nearest hawthon and gorse\xa0\nand all of these kinds of things, not tying it at'}, {'start': '334.320', 'end': '344.560', 'text': 'all to what are my capabilities and not setting\xa0\nany intentions or priorities and what would'}, {'start': '344.560', 'end': '350.240', 'text': "happen in May. Now May is also my birthday month\xa0\nand it's quite an emotional month for me because"}, {'start': '350.240', 'end': '358.000', 'text': 'uh about 15 or16 years ago I was told that\xa0\nI was likely to be dead within 10 years,'}, {'start': '358.000', 'end': '364.800', 'text': 'so clearly that was not right and it was\xa0\nreally just a very very arrogant, stupid,'}, {'start': '364.800', 'end': '371.360', 'text': "doctor that put that into my head but it means\xa0\nthat when my birthday comes around I'm kind of"}, {'start': '371.360', 'end': '378.080', 'text': 'like "yes another year that\'s one up for you" um\xa0\nand then I have a tendency to crash. So I always'}, {'start': '378.080', 'end': '384.960', 'text': 'have this emotional kind of underlay uh in May\xa0\nbut when I add on to that an attempt to keep up'}, {'start': '384.960', 'end': '393.600', 'text': 'with all of the harvest and abundance and keeping\xa0\nthe garden looking nice and the feeling that the'}, {'start': '393.600', 'end': '400.400', 'text': 'months are going too fast and that the year is\xa0\nalmost halfway through and all of this kind of'}, {'start': '400.400', 'end': '409.120', 'text': 'um self talk that isn\'t useful you know\xa0\num self talk about being "too busy" and'}, {'start': '409.120', 'end': '415.280', 'text': 'having "too little time" it\'s never ever\xa0\nhelpful ,it never increases your time or'}, {'start': '415.280', 'end': '425.200', 'text': "makes you calmer it's just it it's really\xa0\ndestructive so what I needed to do was to"}, {'start': '425.200', 'end': '438.720', 'text': "just set intentions and realize that this is not\xa0\nit if I don't manage to get hawthorn leaves into"}, {'start': '438.720', 'end': '446.560', 'text': "the die pot and I don't have hawthorn dyed thread\xa0\nit's not a disaster, if there are weeds in the"}, {'start': '446.560', 'end': '457.280', 'text': "paths in the garden it's not a disaster. The\xa0\npoint of living is living it's not completing"}, {'start': '457.280', 'end': '465.440', 'text': "a never ending to-do list so I will now take\xa0\nyou to the garden where you'll be able to see"}, {'start': '465.440', 'end': '472.480', 'text': "everything and I'll show you some of the things\xa0\nthat I do intend to get done over the next few"}, {'start': '472.480', 'end': '491.920', 'text': 'days. Right so here we are in the garden and to\xa0\nbe honest from where you are there on the other'}, {'start': '491.920', 'end': '499.040', 'text': "side of my phone um it probably looks fine to\xa0\nyou because you're far enough away um and I think"}, {'start': '499.040', 'end': '505.040', 'text': "that's also quite a lesson that if I brought\xa0\nsomebody in here and just walked them past the"}, {'start': '505.040', 'end': '512.080', 'text': "garden they would think it was absolutely amazing\xa0\nbut because I'm in it and because it's mine and"}, {'start': '512.080', 'end': '518.560', 'text': "because I'm really protective of the garden\xa0\nlike I would be a child you know it's a creation"}, {'start': '518.560', 'end': '526.400', 'text': 'um I kind of see all of its faults and all the\xa0\nthings that are undone all I have to do is to'}, {'start': '526.400', 'end': '532.400', 'text': "try and take that filter off so you can see I'm\xa0\ngoing to show you the things I have done here i"}, {'start': '532.400', 'end': '542.240', 'text': 'have planted my sweet peas. Now this is the first\xa0\nyear for 20 years maybe that I had not grown my'}, {'start': '542.240', 'end': '550.000', 'text': 'own sweet peas from seed the reason for that\xa0\nis one I was going to be in Naples and to get'}, {'start': '550.000', 'end': '558.000', 'text': "somebody else to look after plants for you is it's\xa0\na bit of an ask it's a bit of a responsibility uh"}, {'start': '558.000', 'end': '567.600', 'text': "Euan wasn't going to be here all the time either\xa0\nand I decided that I would just not plant them in"}, {'start': '567.600', 'end': '574.560', 'text': "the autumn and I obviously I wasn't there to\xa0\nplant them in the spring. So instead I spent"}, {'start': '574.560', 'end': '582.000', 'text': '£40 which is a lot of money um but cheaper\xa0\nthan getting somebody to come in and check'}, {'start': '582.000', 'end': '592.320', 'text': 'my seedlings um on buying some very good\xa0\nuh sweet pea seedlings from Sarah Ravens'}, {'start': '592.320', 'end': '597.920', 'text': 'um which is a a company and they sell\xa0\nlots of very expensive very nicely colored'}, {'start': '597.920', 'end': '603.600', 'text': 'uh seedlings and then when I got back from Naples\xa0\nthey arrived about five or six days later and I'}, {'start': '603.600', 'end': '610.800', 'text': "plant planted them into deep pots like this\xa0\nand now here they are romping away and I've"}, {'start': '610.800', 'end': '616.480', 'text': "got them they'll cover that tunnel that you can\xa0\nmaybe see in the background and also I have some"}, {'start': '616.480', 'end': '624.080', 'text': 'left over for this little teepee so I will have\xa0\nmy sweet peas in unusual colors which is what I'}, {'start': '624.080', 'end': '632.480', 'text': "was wanting um highly scented varieties which is\xa0\nwhat I was wanting and I didn't need to stress"}, {'start': '632.480', 'end': '640.960', 'text': "about how they were fairing over the winter and\xa0\nwhile I was away so that's one of these things"}, {'start': '640.960', 'end': '650.240', 'text': 'and again it comes up against this "yes Jane but\xa0\nyou could have done it for free" because I had'}, {'start': '650.240', 'end': '657.120', 'text': "seeds that I'd saved from last year you could have\xa0\ndone it for free where it wouldn't have got done"}, {'start': '657.120', 'end': '665.120', 'text': 'or I could spend £40 and it got done and sweet\xa0\npeas are important enough to me because I fill'}, {'start': '665.120', 'end': '672.080', 'text': "the house with them and I give them away and\xa0\nthey're centerpiece to the garden is important"}, {'start': '672.080', 'end': '681.680', 'text': "enough to spend the £40 so then behind that you\xa0\ncan see some self sown poppies they're beautiful"}, {'start': '681.680', 'end': '686.960', 'text': "um poppy i think it's maybe Norwegian or Spanish\xa0\nor I know they're very different I can't remember"}, {'start': '686.960', 'end': '693.200', 'text': 'where the poppy comes from but it comes out\xa0\nall year in this lovely tangerine color and'}, {'start': '693.200', 'end': '700.560', 'text': "these are self sown and then behind them we've got\xa0\nthree hoops and this is seedlings beginning to go"}, {'start': '700.560', 'end': '711.200', 'text': 'out into the garden and I use um like fiberglass\xa0\nhoops and then on top of that um enviromesh now'}, {'start': '711.200', 'end': '721.440', 'text': 'obviously enviromesh is plastic and I have had\xa0\nthese same bits for now I think 12 years um the'}, {'start': '721.440', 'end': '727.760', 'text': 'ones that are paler which I think is this this bit\xa0\nhere um have been in the tunnel what I would used'}, {'start': '727.760', 'end': '733.680', 'text': 'to do was I would put the enviromesh over the\xa0\nbed and then the tunnel and that actually gave'}, {'start': '733.680', 'end': '742.880', 'text': "me a really good overwintering situation but now\xa0\nthey're all outside and what it does is it keeps"}, {'start': '742.880', 'end': '752.240', 'text': 'the garden frost free from the beginning of May it\xa0\nmore importantly I think keeps the wind off them'}, {'start': '752.240', 'end': '760.240', 'text': "off the seedlings um and they grow really fast so\xa0\nunder there I've got some courgettes i have some"}, {'start': '760.240', 'end': '768.480', 'text': 'salad because you say I was going to be growing\xa0\nmy own food this year and then I have things like'}, {'start': '768.480', 'end': '776.400', 'text': "um dyer's chamomile and hopi sunflowers and so\xa0\non just so that although they get hardened out"}, {'start': '776.400', 'end': '784.880', 'text': 'off before they come in here just to give them\xa0\na little bit more protection again you can see'}, {'start': '784.880', 'end': '792.320', 'text': "there's not there's not masses and masses of\xa0\nplants in there I think I'm going to have 20"}, {'start': '793.040', 'end': '798.480', 'text': "sunflowers, some of them will be in the tunnel\xa0\njust to see what the the difference is i've"}, {'start': '798.480', 'end': '806.160', 'text': "got maybe 12 dyers chamomile out here i'll have\xa0\nthe same in the tunnel you know so it's not big"}, {'start': '806.160', 'end': '818.480', 'text': 'amounts and what I always have to do to try and\xa0\nstop this overdoing this crashing um is to rein in'}, {'start': '818.480', 'end': '827.440', 'text': 'the part of me that always wants to scale things\xa0\nthat goes "Oh you\'re dying 20 skeins of thread'}, {'start': '827.440', 'end': '834.000', 'text': 'why don\'t you dye 200?" Because then you could\xa0\neasily sell the 200 with a bit of marketing and'}, {'start': '834.000', 'end': '842.160', 'text': 'you would make so much more money and yes I would\xa0\nmake more money but I would be living less life'}, {'start': '842.160', 'end': '849.520', 'text': "and that's the decision that I make anyway I'll\xa0\ntake you around the garden so one thing that you"}, {'start': '849.520', 'end': '856.400', 'text': 'can certainly see with the garden is that we have\xa0\na lot of forget me nots a lot lot lot of forget me'}, {'start': '856.400', 'end': '865.440', 'text': "nots at the moment and it's been quite interesting\xa0\nthat um I have they're all self seeded and there"}, {'start': '865.440', 'end': '871.360', 'text': "are two different varieties here there's one\xa0\nthat I used to grow as a cut flower which is"}, {'start': '871.360', 'end': '878.800', 'text': "called blue angel which is uh this one that's next\xa0\nto the sweet peas and it's much darker um and the"}, {'start': '878.800', 'end': '884.160', 'text': 'flowers are slightly bigger and I the stems are\xa0\nlong enough if you cut them to the ground to put'}, {'start': '884.160', 'end': '892.400', 'text': "into bouquets and it's rather beautiful but then\xa0\nsome of the ones that have selfsown are paler"}, {'start': '892.400', 'end': '901.440', 'text': "honestly now looking at this photo it is quite\xa0\nridiculous how much I've got but I am growing some"}, {'start': '901.440', 'end': '907.680', 'text': 'of these to press because they press beautifully\xa0\non the stems they press beautifully and I want to'}, {'start': '907.680', 'end': '914.880', 'text': "see about maybe doing some card kits and so on so\xa0\nif I don't press them now I wouldn't have the um"}, {'start': '914.880', 'end': '922.640', 'text': 'material but also they make a really nice string\xa0\n- this is obviously not a a commercial enterprise'}, {'start': '922.640', 'end': '928.240', 'text': 'they make a lovely, really lovely ,cordage um if\xa0\ndried so I thought well I when I pull them all'}, {'start': '928.240', 'end': '936.480', 'text': "out I'll be making cordage but then on um in an\xa0\naudio book which I will I'll leave the the links"}, {'start': '936.480', 'end': '944.960', 'text': "it's Adam Nicholson's book bird school there was\xa0\na thing about how willow warblers eat the seeds of"}, {'start': '944.960', 'end': '950.320', 'text': 'um forget me not so I thought well that would\xa0\nbe fine having all of these forget me nots i'}, {'start': '950.320', 'end': '954.400', 'text': 'have willow wobblers in fact that might be\xa0\na willow wobbler that you can hear in the'}, {'start': '954.400', 'end': '962.480', 'text': 'background um they can just feast on them which\xa0\nis would be rather wonderful but anyway you can'}, {'start': '962.480', 'end': '970.240', 'text': 'see alongside the glorious forget me not\xa0\nthis is the state of the paths this is'}, {'start': '970.240', 'end': '978.880', 'text': 'um some uh dock which is meant to be a salad leaf\xa0\nand is actually really horrible as a salad leaf'}, {'start': '978.880', 'end': '986.800', 'text': 'um but took over my entire garden and\xa0\nthen along here past where you can'}, {'start': '986.800', 'end': '995.280', 'text': "see all the salad in the tubs I've\xa0\ngot my tulips and the rhubarb and"}, {'start': '995.280', 'end': '1002.080', 'text': 'um lupins and all kinds of things and then\xa0\nlast night you can see this is a very typical'}, {'start': '1002.080', 'end': '1010.720', 'text': 'um Jane gardening thing right so last night\xa0\nwhile listening to um a zoom I was gardening'}, {'start': '1010.720', 'end': '1017.760', 'text': 'and it was it was a very good zoom it was Olia\xa0\nHercules reading her new book um but there I'}, {'start': '1017.760', 'end': '1026.960', 'text': 'am i have abandoned my bucket of weeds but even\xa0\nworse oh unfinished things there are my gloves'}, {'start': '1030.000', 'end': '1036.560', 'text': 'very very unfinished and then the\xa0\nother place that I was weeding because'}, {'start': '1036.560', 'end': '1043.120', 'text': "um I was dotting all over the place was these\xa0\ndye plants here whose name I can't remember off"}, {'start': '1043.120', 'end': '1050.240', 'text': "hand but we'll put the text up on the thing\xa0\num had been choked with willow herb so you"}, {'start': '1050.240', 'end': '1057.680', 'text': "can see I've just been excavating them but you\xa0\nknow this is the real state of the back of the"}, {'start': '1057.680', 'end': '1064.240', 'text': 'plot and as I say I could get really really'}, {'start': '1064.240', 'end': '1077.280', 'text': "upset try and do something about it and then crash\xa0\nso I think I'll now take you down to the studio"}, {'start': '1081.520', 'end': '1091.520', 'text': 'so here we are in the studio and the whole\xa0\nplace smells aniseedy because I have been dyeing'}, {'start': '1091.520', 'end': '1097.040', 'text': 'uh threads with sweet cicely and I said that\xa0\nI would show you the difference um so this is'}, {'start': '1097.040', 'end': '1104.720', 'text': "sweet cicely, you can see it's really really\xa0\nbright amazingly vibrant yellow which you can"}, {'start': '1104.720', 'end': '1114.000', 'text': 'only get at this time of year um and then when I\xa0\nput it with iron it turns to a really nice glowing'}, {'start': '1114.000', 'end': '1122.400', 'text': 'green um and I just love these colors and there\xa0\nis this feeling that I have you know nobody else'}, {'start': '1122.400', 'end': '1135.600', 'text': "is is patting down that I don't need to waste it\xa0\nat all so I have that um then I have the issue"}, {'start': '1135.600', 'end': '1152.000', 'text': 'of trying not to waste things so if I dye with\xa0\nsweet cicely or this is um a fig that I have some'}, {'start': '1152.000', 'end': '1162.480', 'text': "avocado that I'm doing for a a course I'll mention\xa0\nin a minute um if I have these pots of dye stuff"}, {'start': '1162.480', 'end': '1170.080', 'text': "and I I dye that and then that's me finished what\xa0\ndo I do with the rest and there is this kind of"}, {'start': '1170.080', 'end': '1179.360', 'text': "feeling of I don't want to waste it and you know\xa0\nto some extent that is just ridiculous because I"}, {'start': '1179.360', 'end': '1185.760', 'text': "wouldn't have the same problem up at the house\xa0\nif I had say cooked carrots in water of getting"}, {'start': '1185.760', 'end': '1193.360', 'text': 'rid of the water that would not be a problem but\xa0\nsomehow because I think of the color as precious'}, {'start': '1193.360', 'end': '1199.200', 'text': "um I don't want to waste any but equally I don't\xa0\nwant to use it to just dye paler and paler threads"}, {'start': '1199.200', 'end': '1208.080', 'text': 'or amass a whole load of half dyed things so\xa0\none of the things that I have been doing is in'}, {'start': '1208.080', 'end': '1217.040', 'text': "each of my dye pots I will put some uh rag paper\xa0\nthis is kahdi paper and I'm getting lots and lots"}, {'start': '1217.040', 'end': '1222.960', 'text': "of different colors and I think I'll just build\xa0\nthat up over the season but you you can tell you"}, {'start': '1222.960', 'end': '1231.280', 'text': 'know I mean obviously put the paper in the dye\xa0\npot and then um tend it and then come back and'}, {'start': '1231.280', 'end': '1239.120', 'text': "um take it out and hang it to dry and all of\xa0\nthese kinds of things so it's not exactly a no"}, {'start': '1239.120', 'end': '1248.160', 'text': 'work solution but equally look at that gorgeous\xa0\ngorgeous colors and then because I want other'}, {'start': '1248.160', 'end': '1256.880', 'text': 'people to be able to get colors like this um\xa0\nI put together packs of dried plant material'}, {'start': '1256.880', 'end': '1264.080', 'text': 'and again sweet Cicely I need to get it at this\xa0\ntime of year and I need to get it dehydrated fast'}, {'start': '1264.080', 'end': '1275.840', 'text': "so I'll show you what it looks like in here um\xa0\nlike just leaves in here all squashed in um just"}, {'start': '1275.840', 'end': '1288.720', 'text': 'smells gorgeous um I need to do that in the next\xa0\nweek or so to get the potency of the color there'}, {'start': '1289.520', 'end': '1297.440', 'text': "and alongside all of that kind\xa0\nof dye things I'm also working on"}, {'start': '1297.440', 'end': '1306.080', 'text': "um a live workshop that I'm doing next Friday\xa0\nFriday the 9th in the studio club and this is"}, {'start': '1306.080', 'end': '1317.040', 'text': "all about dying with food waste and it's something\xa0\nthat I had kind of not really wanted to do if I'm"}, {'start': '1317.040', 'end': '1325.360', 'text': "honest because there's a lot on the internet\xa0\nabout dying with food waste and a lot of it"}, {'start': '1325.360', 'end': '1334.080', 'text': "is nonsensical or rather it it will give\xa0\nyou colors but it won't give you good colors"}, {'start': '1334.080', 'end': '1343.840', 'text': "won't give you kind of um sort of stand up to\xa0\nlight or washing anything like that they have a"}, {'start': '1343.840', 'end': '1353.760', 'text': "nasty habit of feeding from bright to very muddy\xa0\ngrey and I can see there's obviously there's a"}, {'start': '1353.760', 'end': '1360.960', 'text': 'market for that and people are putting up you know\xa0\ninformation in good faith apart from the people'}, {'start': '1360.960', 'end': '1368.640', 'text': "who photoshop the colors which there is quite\xa0\na lot in the food waste thing but they're not"}, {'start': '1368.640', 'end': '1378.640', 'text': 'really teaching people how to properly dye with\xa0\nfood waste so I had kind of been a bit not sure I'}, {'start': '1378.640', 'end': '1386.560', 'text': "want to do this but then in The Studio Club we're\xa0\ndoing this sort of whole um couple 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join for a month which would be £14.95\xa0\num and then cancel your membership you can do that'}, {'start': '1435.520', 'end': '1442.560', 'text': 'but obviously I hope that you stay and become part\xa0\nof our community so these are all the colors that'}, {'start': '1442.560', 'end': '1450.240', 'text': 'I got on silk and then these are the colors on\xa0\nembroidery threads which you can see I mean they'}, {'start': '1450.240', 'end': '1458.960', 'text': 'are good good colors so I have written all of the\xa0\ntutorials which are now up in The Studio Club and'}, {'start': '1458.960', 'end': '1468.160', 'text': "it's done so that when we're talking about tea and\xa0\ncoffee I'm also teaching about modifying with iron"}, {'start': '1468.160', 'end': '1475.360', 'text': 'so that you can change the colors um this is of\xa0\ncourse where having them all in a bundle like this'}, {'start': '1475.360', 'end': '1486.880', 'text': "isn't particularly useful but like that's tea with\xa0\nan iron 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'1760.000', 'text': 'May when things outside begin to ramp up and\xa0\nbecome overwhelming I have to be incredibly'}, {'start': '1760.000', 'end': '1768.240', 'text': "intentional so that my hour in the garden I know\xa0\nexactly what I'm doing for that hour in the garden"}, {'start': '1768.240', 'end': '1776.080', 'text': "um before I do it and so today I'm actually going\xa0\nto be waiting until this evening and planting out"}, {'start': '1776.080', 'end': '1785.280', 'text': 'seedlings into the poly tunnels way too hot at the\xa0\nmoment um but I have some black scabious and some'}, {'start': '1785.280', 'end': '1792.480', 'text': 'tagetes burning embers which are beautiful plants\xa0\nbut will like the protection of the poly tunnel so'}, {'start': '1792.480', 'end': '1798.560', 'text': 'that is going to be my hour in the garden what\xa0\nam I going to be doing down here in the studio'}, {'start': '1798.560', 'end': '1805.920', 'text': "I've just changed over the papers in the 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'1863.440', 'text': 'reduced it down anyway so I need to be really\xa0\nreally intentional and I need to get used to'}, {'start': '1863.440', 'end': '1872.800', 'text': "leaving stuff on the table and not worrying about\xa0\nthat not feeling that it's wasted opportunity"}, {'start': '1872.800', 'end': '1881.440', 'text': "um or that I'm not being productive enough or any\xa0\nof these things which somehow get into our heads"}, {'start': '1882.480', 'end': '1893.360', 'text': 'um even though every time I have pushed and\xa0\npushed and pushed my limits to say get a'}, {'start': '1893.360', 'end': '1900.000', 'text': "whole harvest in I've ended up with too much\xa0\nand not sold or it's gone mouldy or whatever"}, {'start': '1900.000', 'end': '1909.440', 'text': 'what I need to do is to be much much more\xa0\nsensible intentional and to keep the joy'}, {'start': '1909.440', 'end': '1919.840', 'text': "in my work because if it's joyful I will want to\xa0\ndo more of it so there we are may celebrate the"}, {'start': '1919.840', 'end': '1929.200', 'text': 'amazing productivity and just energy energy\xa0\nof May I just put in The Studio Club forum,'}, {'start': '1929.200', 'end': '1934.880', 'text': "if there's any Studio Clubbers watching, I've\xa0\nput a little um guided meditation there about"}, {'start': '1934.880', 'end': '1941.600', 'text': "just the energy of this time of year uh so you can\xa0\ngo and check that out and otherwise I'm going to"}, {'start': '1941.600', 'end': '1949.200', 'text': 'say bye-bye get on with some of the things that I\xa0\nneed to do and I shall see you next Friday bye-bye'}]