Guruji Satsang | Shared By Usha Singh Aunty | Guruji Time Sangat | Satsang - 128
Guruji Satsang Parivar
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{'start': '49.280', 'end': '54.559', 'text': 'very special day, I will call it\nbecause I am not in Seattle, I am currently'}, {'start': '54.559', 'end': '59.920', 'text': 'in San Francisco and I am with my daughter\nand my grandson, we are so close to each other'}, {'start': '59.920', 'end': '64.640', 'text': 'in school, that I dropped him off after walking through the park,\nand I was walking, it was such a'}, {'start': '64.640', 'end': '70.400', 'text': 'beautiful day and suddenly I\nrealised, I am sitting here in the park,'}, {'start': '70.400', 'end': '75.600', 'text': 'on the bench, many thanks to Guruji because I\nfeel that the bond we have with nature,  If we'}, {'start': '75.600', 'end': '82.159', 'text': 'connect with Guruji,\nI have shared my journey many times, but'}, {'start': '82.159', 'end': '89.200', 'text': 'Guruji used to say that we should share from the beginning, so\nin December 1988, Guruji called me to his court'}, {'start': '89.200', 'end': '96.560', 'text': 'and I met him and\nhe changed my whole life, I mean, as they say, he'}, {'start': '96.560', 'end': '102.720', 'text': 'taught us how to live, earlier we were\nliving like this, but it is said that when you'}, {'start': '102.720', 'end': '108.880', 'text': 'meet a Sadguru, then you start living the real life,\nI think my birthday was on that day'}, {'start': '108.880', 'end': '115.960', 'text': 'when Guruji\ncalled us to his court and accepted us completely as we are,'}, {'start': '115.960', 'end': '122.079', 'text': 'sweet, good or bad, whatever\nour vices are, whatever goodness we have,'}, {'start': '122.079', 'end': '128.399', 'text': 'and blessed us and never'}, {'start': '128.399', 'end': '133.040', 'text': "said anything that don't do this, don't do that.\nFor the new followers of our Guruji, I"}, {'start': '133.040', 'end': '137.360', 'text': 'want to tell that our Guruji\ncame to take us out of rituals, to take us'}, {'start': '137.360', 'end': '143.599', 'text': 'out of delusions, we should never\nfall into the delusion that that Babaji had come, he said this, that'}, {'start': '143.599', 'end': '148.400', 'text': 'Babaji had come,\nhe said this, Guruji used to say that'}, {'start': '148.400', 'end': '156.000', 'text': 'God is one and Guruji used to say that the\nGuru used to call himself a great man, but I had a'}, {'start': '156.000', 'end': '161.840', 'text': 'big  There was curiosity that Guruji who are you\nbecause see no one can give you life, no matter how many'}, {'start': '161.840', 'end': '169.400', 'text': 'Babas there are,\nwho can give life, only God or'}, {'start': '169.400', 'end': '175.360', 'text': 'Mahadev and Guruji was\nborn in a Punjabi family in a Sikh family but he'}, {'start': '175.360', 'end': '179.440', 'text': 'asked everyone to read Shiv Puran\nand he built a Shiv temple so'}, {'start': '179.440', 'end': '185.159', 'text': 'beautiful, so it shows that Mahadev is 100%'}, {'start': '185.159', 'end': '191.560', 'text': 'who can cure the disease on this earth, he used to take it in his body,\nthat is, from cancer to'}, {'start': '191.560', 'end': '200.000', 'text': 'infertility, whatever doctors used to say that\nwhatever the lady was, at that time the lady used to tell them that they can'}, {'start': '200.000', 'end': '206.239', 'text': 'never have a baby, medically it is\nnot possible, you must adopt, this has'}, {'start': '206.239', 'end': '210.400', 'text': 'happened in front of my eyes, so many things that I share have happened in\nfront of my eyes, this has'}, {'start': '210.400', 'end': '216.720', 'text': 'happened with my family, so there is so much\nblessing of Guruji that he showed one to one and'}, {'start': '216.720', 'end': '222.920', 'text': 'explained that to tell the coming generations, he has asked\nall of us to'}, {'start': '222.920', 'end': '230.000', 'text': 'say that tell us\nwho is Guruji and tell about him,'}, {'start': '230.000', 'end': '236.159', 'text': 'what all he used to do, then Guruji\nsometimes used to make us stand and bless us that sit down and'}, {'start': '236.159', 'end': '242.480', 'text': 'tell us your blessings, share because\nthis  The blessings are not ours or yours,'}, {'start': '242.480', 'end': '248.439', 'text': 'this is the goodness of our Guru Ji and\nGuru Ji gives us all his blessings, whatever'}, {'start': '248.439', 'end': '256.720', 'text': "blessings we have are Guru Ji's only, we\nall were just like zeros, just"}, {'start': '256.720', 'end': '264.080', 'text': 'like insects, we all used to sit there, nobody had any\ngoodness'}, {'start': '264.080', 'end': '269.280', 'text': 'because we are living beings of Kalyug, we have so many\nvices, we are tied with so many bonds,'}, {'start': '269.280', 'end': '275.759', 'text': "Maya's house, door,\nchildren, work, house, this goes on so much but"}, {'start': '275.759', 'end': '281.360', 'text': 'when Satguru comes in your life and'}, {'start': '281.360', 'end': '288.000', 'text': 'when his blessings come, then he\nchanges your life in the sense, he'}, {'start': '288.000', 'end': '292.600', 'text': 'teaches the art of living and what all sayings Guru\nJi taught us,'}, {'start': '292.600', 'end': '298.680', 'text': 'see, first of all he said that\nfirst of all give up slandering and gossiping'}, {'start': '298.680', 'end': '305.199', 'text': 'because when we slander, we\nalso bring ourselves to the same level, our'}, {'start': '305.199', 'end': '310.360', 'text': 'energy becomes completely negative, when we\nlisten, the same happens to'}, {'start': '310.360', 'end': '318.080', 'text': 'all of us and then Guru Ji said do not hurt anyone,\nmeaning that'}, {'start': '318.080', 'end': '322.639', 'text': 'if you cannot help anyone intentionally, then fold your hands and do not do bad'}, {'start': '322.639', 'end': '328.080', 'text': 'either\nand Guru Ji used to say that ego is the  The biggest'}, {'start': '328.080', 'end': '333.199', 'text': 'hindrance\nto further your spiritual journey is to go ahead.'}, {'start': '333.199', 'end': '339.280', 'text': 'You cannot move ahead if you get\nstuck in ego, which we all used to bring there'}, {'start': '339.280', 'end': '345.680', 'text': 'and Guruji used to say that leave your phone and ego\noutside where you take off your clothes'}, {'start': '345.680', 'end': '351.840', 'text': 'because Guruji used to say that the\nenergy that he blesses with the devices becomes hindrance, so'}, {'start': '351.840', 'end': '357.440', 'text': "that is why he used to say that remove the phone also and come\nbecause when we come to Guruji's court, he"}, {'start': '357.440', 'end': '363.680', 'text': 'tells us that we should be\nready to receive the blessings, but'}, {'start': '363.680', 'end': '371.280', 'text': 'we bring these devices or our ego\nor all the garbage that is'}, {'start': '371.280', 'end': '375.039', 'text': 'filled in our mind, then from where will\nwe get the blessings, so it is'}, {'start': '375.039', 'end': '381.280', 'text': 'very important to understand that\nGuruji is always showering his blessings, it is'}, {'start': '381.280', 'end': '385.960', 'text': 'our vessel that should not be'}, {'start': '385.960', 'end': '391.759', 'text': 'inverted, it should be straight\nand we all know by now what'}, {'start': '391.759', 'end': '396.319', 'text': 'Guruji wants and how he\nwants to bless, so I will not go into that, I will'}, {'start': '396.319', 'end': '401.120', 'text': 'tell you some of my experiences later\nbecause I feel  Even if I keep talking day and night,'}, {'start': '401.120', 'end': '406.479', 'text': 'that time will fall short of my experiences\nbecause Guruji has so many'}, {'start': '406.479', 'end': '412.639', 'text': 'blessings, so many blessings, even if it is of\nmy friends. Guruji used to say that if'}, {'start': '412.639', 'end': '418.400', 'text': 'one person comes to my court,\nthrough him I bless the whole family. It is not'}, {'start': '418.400', 'end': '423.360', 'text': 'necessary. Sometimes it\nhappens that the husband comes, the wife does not come, the'}, {'start': '423.360', 'end': '429.360', 'text': 'children do not come. He used to tell me\nnot to frighten anyone because when you force them to come,'}, {'start': '429.360', 'end': '435.120', 'text': 'they become negative. That energy becomes\ndifferent. When Guruji'}, {'start': '435.120', 'end': '439.759', 'text': 'calls, we automatically start feeling interested. We\nautomatically feel like'}, {'start': '439.759', 'end': '445.319', 'text': "going to Guruji's court. That means you are\nready to receive your Guru."}, {'start': '445.319', 'end': '451.440', 'text': 'And if we force someone to come,\nthen that negativity starts coming around you too.'}, {'start': '451.440', 'end': '457.919', 'text': 'That is why Guruji used to say that do not\nforce anyone, people will come on their own. And'}, {'start': '457.919', 'end': '463.360', 'text': 'this is what is happening, right? You have seen that\nsince Guruji has left the body, the'}, {'start': '463.360', 'end': '469.120', 'text': 'congregation has increased so much.\nWhy? Because Guruji has given so many blessings,'}, {'start': '469.120', 'end': '475.120', 'text': 'he has not gone anywhere.  He has\nchanged his attire, Mahadev comes in every form,'}, {'start': '475.120', 'end': '482.879', 'text': 'not in the form of a Guru, and he\ncame in the form of a Guru, Guruji came for a few years and did'}, {'start': '482.879', 'end': '487.680', 'text': 'welfare of so many people, and did so much\nwelfare that it is still happening, he used to say that'}, {'start': '487.680', 'end': '491.319', 'text': 'even I am stuck in my body\nbecause he used to solve'}, {'start': '491.319', 'end': '496.680', 'text': "everyone's problems in his body and he had to go\nthrough the"}, {'start': '496.680', 'end': '503.360', 'text': 'tapasya, he did not sleep at all, his body had to take everything,'}, {'start': '503.360', 'end': '511.240', 'text': 'and now see, beyond the body now that is why he has so much\npowers all over'}, {'start': '511.240', 'end': '517.719', 'text': 'around any part of the world, wherever you\ngo, you will find a temple somewhere or the other,'}, {'start': '517.719', 'end': '524.959', 'text': 'wherever I travel, I have\ncome here in the Bay Area and I think'}, {'start': '524.959', 'end': '531.680', 'text': 'when will I get the company and I should go, this is a yearning of Guruji, there is a'}, {'start': '531.680', 'end': '537.040', 'text': 'desire for Guruji that you want to go to every place\nwhere Guruji and we all sit together and'}, {'start': '537.040', 'end': '543.120', 'text': 'remember him, it is very important, so similarly, Guruji told\nmy friends, I am telling you an incident of when I was in Singapore'}, {'start': '543.120', 'end': '548.000', 'text': 'because just now late I got\nhis call after many years, so when I was'}, {'start': '548.000', 'end': '555.839', 'text': 'going from Singapore, Guruji  In his court, it\nfelt like running'}, {'start': '555.839', 'end': '562.320', 'text': 'because when you come to know that Guruji is\nnot an ordinary Guru, he is Mahadev,'}, {'start': '562.320', 'end': '567.680', 'text': 'as he gave experiences and when he\ntold me to go to the big temple,'}, {'start': '567.680', 'end': '574.800', 'text': "it is my Shivpuri, all my\npowers are there, that's how he taught me that all the powers"}, {'start': '574.800', 'end': '581.680', 'text': 'are in the big temple, the\nShivling is not an ordinary Shivling, it is not a'}, {'start': '581.680', 'end': '588.080', 'text': 'flame, you do not have to wander anywhere,\nyou go there and have'}, {'start': '588.080', 'end': '595.279', 'text': 'darshan with full attention and there, by being mindful,\nconnect with Guruji for a few moments, one to one connection, do'}, {'start': '595.279', 'end': '601.600', 'text': 'not talk to anyone, because with Guruji,\nall work is done in silence,'}, {'start': '601.600', 'end': '607.680', 'text': 'wherever we talk, we lose everything and\nGuruji has taught complete silence, whenever'}, {'start': '607.680', 'end': '613.720', 'text': 'we used to go to Empire State, no one used to\ntalk there, no devices, no'}, {'start': '613.720', 'end': '619.720', 'text': 'phone, no talking to anyone, no networking, no\nhi'}, {'start': '619.720', 'end': '625.120', 'text': 'hello, we used to only bow down to Guruji and\nsit near Guruji there,'}, {'start': '625.120', 'end': '630.800', 'text': 'Guruji used to tell the words of tea, prasad, lang prasad and from that we used to'}, {'start': '630.800', 'end': '636.320', 'text': 'get all our answers which we used to\nthink while on the way.  Everyone used to get the answers,'}, {'start': '636.320', 'end': '642.320', 'text': 'how is this possible because Guru\nJi is omniscient and then after that sometimes'}, {'start': '642.320', 'end': '647.920', 'text': 'when Guru Ji was in a mood, he used to make someone\nstand and say, "Recite your satsang, all the'}, {'start': '647.920', 'end': '656.000', 'text': 'blessings". That day the Sangat\'s luck used to open up\nbecause on listening to'}, {'start': '656.000', 'end': '662.000', 'text': 'how he made the impossible things possible,\nall of them one to one, think about it, all of us who used to'}, {'start': '662.000', 'end': '668.079', 'text': 'listen to Guru Ji sitting in front of him, used to\nfeel as if we were sitting in heaven'}, {'start': '668.079', 'end': '674.399', 'text': 'and then after that when Guru\nJi used to give orders, we used to go in complete silence and did'}, {'start': '674.399', 'end': '680.360', 'text': 'not talk to anyone, Guru Ji used to say\ntake the blessings directly to your home, so'}, {'start': '680.360', 'end': '688.160', 'text': 'it is very important for us to\nunderstand the Sangat that it is very important that we follow the way'}, {'start': '688.160', 'end': '694.560', 'text': 'Guru Ji has made us do, we should\nsit in complete silence and get'}, {'start': '694.560', 'end': '699.600', 'text': 'connected with Guru Ji one to one, we are\nnot able to hug anyone, we do not have to say hi'}, {'start': '699.600', 'end': '705.040', 'text': 'hello because we\ngo only for Guru Ji, so just'}, {'start': '705.040', 'end': '710.320', 'text': 'connect with him and do not waste time, this time is very,\nvery valuable in the satsang.  I'}, {'start': '710.320', 'end': '716.959', 'text': 'say that without attending satsang we cannot get it. When our\nluck opens up, we go to satsang. What I am'}, {'start': '716.959', 'end': '724.160', 'text': 'sharing is completely, I have\nexperienced everything. If you'}, {'start': '724.160', 'end': '729.760', 'text': 'follow this, you will see that you start feeling happy without any reason.\nWhatever is happening to you,'}, {'start': '729.760', 'end': '735.360', 'text': "up or down, it doesn't matter to you. There will be a\nsmile on your face"}, {'start': '735.360', 'end': '741.240', 'text': 'because you are beyond all that pain and\nproblems that are going on'}, {'start': '741.240', 'end': '747.200', 'text': 'everywhere. In this Kalyug, no one is saved from this.\nSomebody is very close to the guru and is very attached to him. The one'}, {'start': '747.200', 'end': '751.680', 'text': 'whom we think also has a problem.\nEveryone has a problem. But the'}, {'start': '751.680', 'end': '759.120', 'text': 'difference is that when we understand that\nour guru is Mahadev and whatever is happening is'}, {'start': '759.120', 'end': '766.160', 'text': 'our own sanskaars (culture), and the guru takes 90% of\nour problems upon himself and leaves only 10%,'}, {'start': '766.160', 'end': '772.079', 'text': 'so that we can at least\nexperience that and emerge from it. Learn the'}, {'start': '772.079', 'end': '777.360', 'text': 'lesson. Whatever problems are coming, they\ncome to give a lesson. If we learn that, we  We'}, {'start': '777.360', 'end': '783.519', 'text': 'move forward, if we keep complaining\nand talking about this problem or that'}, {'start': '783.519', 'end': '787.839', 'text': 'problem, then we accumulate more of our karmic accounts, so\nGuruji'}, {'start': '787.839', 'end': '795.440', 'text': 'taught us to quietly bear the 10% and\nmove forward, otherwise in the next birth'}, {'start': '795.440', 'end': '801.639', 'text': 'we will again take the same and move forward, why not get it cut right now,\nGuruji and'}, {'start': '801.639', 'end': '808.160', 'text': 'similarly, I had a friend in Singapore, she was Punjabi,\nall my friends are Punjabi and when I'}, {'start': '808.160', 'end': '813.360', 'text': 'went to Guruji once, Guruji had\ngiven me one of his forms, which was in metal'}, {'start': '813.360', 'end': '817.519', 'text': 'because an aunty was sitting there,\nshe had such a big metal form in'}, {'start': '817.519', 'end': '823.360', 'text': 'which Guruji is sitting in meditation,\nhis face is in both hands, eyes are closed, it was'}, {'start': '823.360', 'end': '831.040', 'text': 'very dear to me, it was a desktop\ncalendar printed from Punjab, for the first time, a small one and'}, {'start': '831.040', 'end': '835.839', 'text': 'that picture was on it and I kept looking at it,\nI used to like it so much that Guruji is'}, {'start': '835.839', 'end': '845.279', 'text': 'sitting in my meditation and that aunty was wearing the same\nform in a big pendant,'}, {'start': '845.279', 'end': '850.720', 'text': 'I was looking at it again and again,\nGuruji called me and said that when he'}, {'start': '850.720', 'end': '857.519', 'text': 'gave permission to aunty, when my turn came to go,\nher permission, then as soon as  I touched his feet,'}, {'start': '857.519', 'end': '863.760', 'text': 'Guruji said you liked it very much, you were\nlooking at it again and again, ask Guruji like this,'}, {'start': '863.760', 'end': '870.800', 'text': "so Guruji said, I don't know from where, Guruji is\nMahadev, he can create anything,"}, {'start': '870.800', 'end': '877.199', 'text': 'he used to bring prasad from Sachkhand, he used to\nbring anything from Sachkhand and give it to you,'}, {'start': '877.199', 'end': '884.079', 'text': 'share the satsang of your old congregation\nand used to say many things, Guruji this is your'}, {'start': '884.079', 'end': '887.920', 'text': 'private blessing, so I\ncannot go into much detail, but that day he did it like'}, {'start': '887.920', 'end': '892.720', 'text': 'this,\nwhatever he had in his hand, he'}, {'start': '892.720', 'end': '899.760', 'text': 'told me to give it in my hand, I gave it,\nhe put the same pendant in my hand'}, {'start': '899.760', 'end': '906.399', 'text': 'which was in the tile and it was\nin a golden frame and I was so happy that'}, {'start': '906.399', 'end': '911.360', 'text': 'tears came to my eyes, I said,\nthank you Guruji, where will you find such a Guru, a'}, {'start': '911.360', 'end': '918.560', 'text': 'small desire which you think Guruji fulfills for you\nand I took it'}, {'start': '918.560', 'end': '924.199', 'text': 'home and I did not show it to anyone and I\nkept it in my zip pocket'}, {'start': '924.199', 'end': '931.680', 'text': 'in my purse and I used to open it and see it every\nday, I used to remember Guruji'}, {'start': '931.680', 'end': '938.079', 'text': 'in Singapore and suddenly one day I have a\nfriend  He invited us to his house'}, {'start': '938.079', 'end': '944.720', 'text': 'and we both were devotees of Lord Shiva. We used to go\nto the Shiv temple on'}, {'start': '944.720', 'end': '949.839', 'text': 'Mondays. His husband, I would say, was an atheist.\nHe did not believe in'}, {'start': '949.839', 'end': '959.680', 'text': 'such things. So four of us were sitting, my\nhusband and those two people. Dinner was over and we were'}, {'start': '959.680', 'end': '965.440', 'text': 'sitting quietly. He started saying to me,\nwhy do you people go to India so much. Whenever I see'}, {'start': '965.440', 'end': '970.480', 'text': 'you, you are always in India. Do we have to\nmove there? MP ji said, no, we do'}, {'start': '970.480', 'end': '974.880', 'text': 'not have to move. We have found Guru ji, so\nwe do not feel like moving. Whenever we get a chance,'}, {'start': '974.880', 'end': '980.959', 'text': 'we go to see him. He laughed and\nsaid, hey, you people are very innocent. You have been'}, {'start': '980.959', 'end': '985.279', 'text': 'away from India for many years. You do\nnot know what happens there.'}, {'start': '985.279', 'end': '990.399', 'text': 'He started speaking negatively and I did\nnot like it. And by then, I understood that'}, {'start': '990.399', 'end': '994.440', 'text': 'Guru ji had once said these words, the sentence that'}, {'start': '994.440', 'end': '1004.720', 'text': 'God cannot be found by logic, means that we do\nnot have to discuss at all because see, the'}, {'start': '1004.720', 'end': '1010.800', 'text': 'voice does not need to be explained and the one who does not\nunderstand, the one who will not understand, why should we'}, {'start': '1010.800', 'end': '1016.880', 'text': 'disturb him. So this  The thing that had\nstuck in my mind at that time was that'}, {'start': '1016.880', 'end': '1023.519', 'text': 'Guruji sometimes used to\ngive you teaching life lessons in one sentence, whatever I understood, I'}, {'start': '1023.519', 'end': '1030.480', 'text': 'understood. Then after that I said no no it is not like that,\nbut I looked at the watch and'}, {'start': '1030.480', 'end': '1035.520', 'text': 'said it was getting very late, we should\nleave now. I got up and stood, then'}, {'start': '1035.520', 'end': '1041.839', 'text': 'suddenly that uncle said no no\nyou sit down, it is not like that, did you feel bad,'}, {'start': '1041.839', 'end': '1047.199', 'text': 'and it is like you tell me\nabout your Guru, what else did I'}, {'start': '1047.199', 'end': '1051.919', 'text': 'want, I have to tell only about Guru ji,\nthis whole life is dedicated to'}, {'start': '1051.919', 'end': '1058.480', 'text': 'him because Guru ji had once said to\nme, aunty wherever you go do my satsang, do your'}, {'start': '1058.480', 'end': '1064.799', 'text': "welfare, do others' welfare too\nand that became my life lesson because that's what I was"}, {'start': '1064.799', 'end': '1071.280', 'text': 'asking him that Guruji\nwhat do I have to do now that you have found God,'}, {'start': '1071.280', 'end': '1077.280', 'text': 'what do I have to do in this life, so when he\nsaid that, it became my life lesson for me,'}, {'start': '1077.280', 'end': '1083.760', 'text': 'wherever I go, how I have\ncome here, here Guruji has served, my'}, {'start': '1083.760', 'end': '1091.200', 'text': 'life has become blessed and how  When\nI said okay, I sat down and'}, {'start': '1091.200', 'end': '1098.400', 'text': "started telling him all my experiences, then\nsuddenly Guruji's"}, {'start': '1098.400', 'end': '1103.840', 'text': 'fragrance started coming from there,\nI cannot explain how much fragrance it was, I mean'}, {'start': '1103.840', 'end': '1113.000', 'text': 'Guruji comes to a house in Nashik to seek support of one of his devotees,'}, {'start': '1113.000', 'end': '1118.480', 'text': 'Guruji and she asked, oh where is this fragrance\ncoming from, and then he said, have you'}, {'start': '1118.480', 'end': '1122.960', 'text': 'applied any perfume, I said I do not apply any perfume,\nhe did not agree, I'}, {'start': '1122.960', 'end': '1128.960', 'text': 'opened my purse, I said look at this, he started checking\neach and every thing in my purse to see if there was any'}, {'start': '1128.960', 'end': '1134.240', 'text': 'perfume bottle, because he was an atheist,\nhe did not understand that this could happen,'}, {'start': '1134.240', 'end': '1140.320', 'text': 'I just wanted him to clear all my\ndoubts, so he opened and checked all my purses, there was nothing'}, {'start': '1140.320', 'end': '1145.919', 'text': 'anywhere and when\nhe asked how does Guruji look, then'}, {'start': '1145.919', 'end': '1151.039', 'text': 'I took out that form of Guruji and\nshowed it to him by keeping it in my palm and said,'}, {'start': '1151.039', 'end': '1160.160', 'text': "this is our Guruji, and my\nfriend of his started rubbing Guruji's forehead like this"}, {'start': '1160.160', 'end': '1165.080', 'text': 'and said, this is my Shiva, this is\nI have Shiva and she almost'}, {'start': '1165.080', 'end': '1169.919', 'text': 'painted it, he who was her husband started saying what is\nthis, so much fragrance is spreading in my house, as'}, {'start': '1169.919', 'end': '1175.280', 'text': 'you are talking\nand as you are sharing'}, {'start': '1175.280', 'end': '1182.080', 'text': 'and as you are showing this form, this\npicture, this photo, the whole house is filled with fragrance through it,'}, {'start': '1182.080', 'end': '1187.280', 'text': 'how is it possible, that small form which'}, {'start': '1187.280', 'end': '1192.559', 'text': 'Guruji had given with his own hands,\nGuruji comes through it, that is why Guruji says'}, {'start': '1192.559', 'end': '1200.320', 'text': 'never consider my photo as a photo, the one which is my\nphoto, it is very important that not only the'}, {'start': '1200.320', 'end': '1206.240', 'text': 'new Sangat but even the old Sangat should sometimes be\nrevised, sometimes we forget,'}, {'start': '1206.240', 'end': '1212.840', 'text': 'I also forget sometimes, when we\nlisten to it, I feel that is so'}, {'start': '1212.840', 'end': '1218.760', 'text': 'right, we have forgotten this\npoint, we must not write down everything, this is'}, {'start': '1218.760', 'end': '1225.360', 'text': 'happening right now, no one knows\nwhat will happen next, it is very important, we should pay attention to every moment, we should note down'}, {'start': '1225.360', 'end': '1232.559', 'text': 'every moment,\nso when she said'}, {'start': '1232.559', 'end': '1237.520', 'text': 'what is this happening, so much fragrance is coming and it was\nas if there was divine light in her house.  It'}, {'start': '1237.520', 'end': '1244.480', 'text': 'seemed as if Guruji had come in full form and was\nstanding there like divine light'}, {'start': '1244.480', 'end': '1251.280', 'text': 'and through him, the practice was coming, they all felt the same\nthing and then he did not let me go and'}, {'start': '1251.280', 'end': '1256.159', 'text': 'said, no no, there is so much fragrance, you\ntell me more and tell me more and the more I was sharing, the more fragrance'}, {'start': '1256.159', 'end': '1262.240', 'text': 'started coming, it was\namazing experience for us also,'}, {'start': '1262.240', 'end': '1267.919', 'text': 'I had never experienced this before, this had happened for the\nfirst time, this was just within'}, {'start': '1267.919', 'end': '1276.559', 'text': 'a year, I would have talked about 99 and then he did not let me go, with\ngreat difficulty it became 3:00,'}, {'start': '1276.559', 'end': '1281.280', 'text': 'like Guruji used to conduct satsang, sometimes it would become\n3:00, sometimes 5:00, Guruji'}, {'start': '1281.280', 'end': '1289.760', 'text': 'sent us all back home, so how does it happen, then in the\nsame way, when it has been a long time, we have'}, {'start': '1289.760', 'end': '1296.320', 'text': 'not gone now, as soon as I\ncame home, I got a call from him again and he started saying,'}, {'start': '1296.320', 'end': '1303.679', 'text': 'my friend Usha, what was it, there is\nstill so much fragrance in my house and there is so much of that'}, {'start': '1303.679', 'end': '1309.200', 'text': 'strange light all around, he said,\nGuruji has blessed you  Blessed,'}, {'start': '1309.200', 'end': '1316.880', 'text': 'you are a devotee of Shiva so he himself comes and blesses you\nin your house,'}, {'start': '1316.880', 'end': '1322.559', 'text': "but my husband is an atheist, I said it doesn't matter, it makes a\ndifference for each devotee,"}, {'start': '1322.559', 'end': '1328.840', 'text': "Guruji even visits the house of an atheist, so it doesn't\nmatter and his doubts also got cleared,"}, {'start': '1328.840', 'end': '1335.039', 'text': 'this happened in Singapore, after that when\nwe'}, {'start': '1335.039', 'end': '1340.400', 'text': 'went to meet Guruji in Empire State, I used to go running, there used to be\nparking outside, I used to park the'}, {'start': '1340.400', 'end': '1347.360', 'text': 'car outside and he used to go running inside and after\nreaching there I used to stop because I'}, {'start': '1347.360', 'end': '1351.600', 'text': "wanted the whole family to come, I don't know what would happen\nto me, I used to run like"}, {'start': '1351.600', 'end': '1357.200', 'text': 'crazy, that I could reach Guruji quickly\nand after reaching there my feet would'}, {'start': '1357.200', 'end': '1363.919', 'text': 'not move forward because Guruji was very\nvery family oriented'}, {'start': '1363.919', 'end': '1369.440', 'text': "and I used to stop so that everyone else could come, then\nI would go to the end and touch Guruji's feet,"}, {'start': '1369.440', 'end': '1375.200', 'text': "this is how it used to happen, my children used to say, mom,\nwhy do you run after them sir, I don't know son,"}, {'start': '1375.200', 'end': '1381.679', 'text': 'something pulls, I used to stand and when\nmy turn came as soon as  Guruji touched my feet'}, {'start': '1381.679', 'end': '1388.880', 'text': "right away and then looking at them he said, then the\nblessing has been given, isn't it? Think about how the blessing was given in your friend's"}, {'start': '1388.880', 'end': '1393.840', 'text': 'house\nthrough my photo. That means we did'}, {'start': '1393.840', 'end': '1400.559', 'text': "n't even tell Guruji, we used to give it to Guruji himself\nand Guruji used to do all the experiences"}, {'start': '1400.559', 'end': '1410.000', 'text': "and then used to tell how it\nhappened. So that's how"}, {'start': '1410.000', 'end': '1417.440', 'text': 'we got to know that Guruji is everywhere, we say with so much conviction that\nGuruji is watching all the time, he is'}, {'start': '1417.440', 'end': '1424.960', 'text': 'listening, he has not gone anywhere, he is\nnot in the body, he is not visible, like'}, {'start': '1424.960', 'end': '1428.919', 'text': 'what is Shiv Ji, see, you read Shiv Puran,\nwhat is it,'}, {'start': '1428.919', 'end': '1437.919', 'text': 'Shiv came in the physical form and then became formless also, he gets\nabsorbed in the Jyotirling, Guruji is'}, {'start': '1437.919', 'end': '1444.320', 'text': 'in the big temple,\nhe is everywhere, whatever we say here,'}, {'start': '1444.320', 'end': '1449.039', 'text': "Guruji can hear it,\nhow today after getting up in the morning I touched Guruji's"}, {'start': '1449.039', 'end': '1454.000', 'text': 'feet, I said Guruji now I am here,\nwhat is your order of mine, and how'}, {'start': '1454.000', 'end': '1459.440', 'text': 'suddenly I am here, there is such a beautiful\npark, I am walking here, how, in'}, {'start': '1459.440', 'end': '1465.120', 'text': 'what way all this happened, this\nproves this.  With conviction I am saying to'}, {'start': '1465.120', 'end': '1472.080', 'text': 'Guruji,\nall spend some time with them, love them,'}, {'start': '1472.080', 'end': '1479.200', 'text': 'stay connected with them, being connected is\neverything, see when you love someone'}, {'start': '1479.200', 'end': '1483.840', 'text': 'from the heart, when we love them, then\nyour vibrations reach him,'}, {'start': '1483.840', 'end': '1489.440', 'text': 'he also feels the same,\nso it is very important to understand this,'}, {'start': '1489.440', 'end': '1494.640', 'text': 'when we call Guruji from the heart,\nour voice reaches him, it is not that we ask for'}, {'start': '1494.640', 'end': '1499.520', 'text': 'absurd things, Guruji, only then do we say that you keep\nasking for absurd things, then they do'}, {'start': '1499.520', 'end': '1505.120', 'text': 'not get fulfilled, then we say that my matter was\nnot resolved, my work was not done,'}, {'start': '1505.120', 'end': '1510.799', 'text': "think what did you ask for, if you only\nask for Guruji's devotion that Guruji I"}, {'start': '1510.799', 'end': '1517.919', 'text': 'just want you to be with me, Guruji I just\nwant your presence, I want your guidance, he will'}, {'start': '1517.919', 'end': '1525.919', 'text': 'always guide you, he guides you every moment,\nwhenever there is a role, Guruji'}, {'start': '1525.919', 'end': '1531.760', 'text': 'tells you automatically, go on this road, nothing happens,\neverything of course'}, {'start': '1531.760', 'end': '1537.360', 'text': 'we have to work with our brain in the office,'}, {'start': '1537.360', 'end': '1543.039', 'text': "we have to work everywhere, so Guru  We don't have to bring ji,\nwe have to do some things by ourselves also, but"}, {'start': '1543.039', 'end': '1547.840', 'text': 'when there is love for Guru ji, then\nyour life automatically becomes simple,'}, {'start': '1547.840', 'end': '1556.559', 'text': 'your boss automatically becomes sweet to you, all your co-'}, {'start': '1556.559', 'end': '1561.559', 'text': 'workers, associates, they all become like this,'}, {'start': '1561.559', 'end': '1568.080', 'text': "you just keep smiling and\nkeep helping Guru ji, keep chanting Guru ji's name"}, {'start': '1568.080', 'end': '1573.919', 'text': 'and share love with everyone, this is very important,\nsee, in life, whatever we share, that is what comes'}, {'start': '1573.919', 'end': '1579.360', 'text': "back, why don't we share love, why do\nn't we share goodwill, why don't we"}, {'start': '1579.360', 'end': '1585.919', 'text': 'pray for everyone who is completely opposite to us, whoever is organizing me,'}, {'start': '1585.919', 'end': '1592.720', 'text': 'we should pray for them also, everything changes, so many\nthings are happening in this Kaliyug,'}, {'start': '1592.720', 'end': '1599.919', 'text': 'people say that it is such a tough time, which\nGuru ji had said, but in the old times, Guru ji used to say that'}, {'start': '1599.919', 'end': '1606.480', 'text': 'my company, my handful of people used to say ji,'}, {'start': '1606.480', 'end': '1611.600', 'text': 'because most of the people used to come only to beg,\nI should get my daughter married,'}, {'start': '1611.600', 'end': '1616.320', 'text': 'I should get money, I should get a\nhouse, my legal dispute should be solved,'}, {'start': '1616.320', 'end': '1623.080', 'text': 'my diseases should be solved.  It should be alright, do\npeople still go to see Guruji? People used to go away'}, {'start': '1623.080', 'end': '1630.240', 'text': 'many times when we used to\ngo, so many people used to work there,'}, {'start': '1630.240', 'end': '1636.559', 'text': 'I used to see so many new people coming,\nwhere did the old ones go, then I understand that'}, {'start': '1636.559', 'end': '1641.799', 'text': 'their work is done, they have left, Guruji often used to\nsay, no one even comes to thank him, being'}, {'start': '1641.799', 'end': '1647.840', 'text': 'so sad, Guruji once went to Jalandhar'}, {'start': '1647.840', 'end': '1653.960', 'text': 'and refused the congregation of Delhi, that was\na big lesson for each one of us, we must understand'}, {'start': '1653.960', 'end': '1661.440', 'text': 'what Guruji wants\nfrom the congregation, to do colourful satsang, to do so much lavishness, so much'}, {'start': '1661.440', 'end': '1668.559', 'text': 'decoration, all that on one side, the devotion of Guruji and the\nconnection with Guruji on the other side, you should'}, {'start': '1668.559', 'end': '1675.200', 'text': 'sit quietly at home and take out time everyday\nfor Guruji, it is very important, I will tell you one of my'}, {'start': '1675.200', 'end': '1683.200', 'text': 'experiences, Guruji gave so much of\nblessings, how do I'}, {'start': '1683.200', 'end': '1689.840', 'text': "thank him from every single hair,\nevery single cell of my body, it's just"}, {'start': '1689.840', 'end': '1696.399', 'text': 'totally only ended to my Guru, everything in\nmy life that I have good is all because of'}, {'start': '1696.399', 'end': '1702.799', 'text': 'my\nGuru, my children, everything is dependent on him, it is because of his blessings that everything is mine, he'}, {'start': '1709.760', 'end': '1716.200', 'text': 'gave life to my husband twice, he cured him, then I too started\nbreathing, my'}, {'start': '1716.200', 'end': '1722.760', 'text': 'breath, Guruji, my life, my\nhappiness, everything, but it is not that'}, {'start': '1722.760', 'end': '1729.039', 'text': 'problems do not arise,\nproblems do arise, but you just stay connected with someone and'}, {'start': '1729.039', 'end': '1733.120', 'text': 'keep smiling, they will run away after seeing the problems saying\nthat it does not affect him at all,'}, {'start': '1733.120', 'end': '1739.520', 'text': 'that is true, really anywhere you here, this you have to realise that you are above'}, {'start': '1739.520', 'end': '1746.960', 'text': 'Guruji, so what are so many problems that we have\nleft, we should have that understanding'}, {'start': '1746.960', 'end': '1752.960', 'text': 'and the most important thing is that we should\nlove Guruji, I will tell you in a satsang'}, {'start': '1752.960', 'end': '1760.960', 'text': 'how Guruji got my\ndaughter married, see, I have'}, {'start': '1760.960', 'end': '1768.080', 'text': 'three daughters, one son and all the three\ndaughters we went together to Singapore,'}, {'start': '1768.080', 'end': '1774.000', 'text': 'they studied in the American school there and\nthen we used to go together to Guruji,'}, {'start': '1774.000', 'end': '1780.000', 'text': 'all the children took blessings from Guruji and\nall of us used to leave together and Guruji used to be very happy'}, {'start': '1780.000', 'end': '1788.960', 'text': 'and six of us and after that kiss  In a\nway Guruji connected the whole family through us, my'}, {'start': '1794.679', 'end': '1800.960', 'text': 'parents, my neighbours,\nmy friends, they say that there is a ripple'}, {'start': '1800.960', 'end': '1805.520', 'text': 'effect, when one person connects,\nthrough that Guruji connects everyone and blesses them,'}, {'start': '1805.520', 'end': '1814.640', 'text': 'so in the same way Guruji\nalso stressed upon all my friends and'}, {'start': '1814.640', 'end': '1822.799', 'text': 'how Guruji did good to my\ndaughters, who after completing high school from here,'}, {'start': '1822.799', 'end': '1829.039', 'text': 'started coming to the US for college, we used to\nlive in Singapore and by then I had developed'}, {'start': '1829.039', 'end': '1834.880', 'text': 'such a passion that I did not care, now it was\nas if I became carefree, I did'}, {'start': '1834.880', 'end': '1838.799', 'text': 'not worry at all, when the children came, initially\nI used to think that I do not know how they will live,'}, {'start': '1838.799', 'end': '1844.520', 'text': 'what will they do, after that I used to think that\nGuruji is there, he will take'}, {'start': '1844.520', 'end': '1853.279', 'text': 'care of everything, so Guruji used to say either you worry\nor I will worry, if you want to get'}, {'start': '1853.279', 'end': '1860.080', 'text': 'your work done by worrying, then you do it,\nonly one person can worry and if you are a Guru, then what is the'}, {'start': '1860.080', 'end': '1866.960', 'text': 'benefit, Guruji used to say\nwhat is the use of your Guru, you'}, {'start': '1866.960', 'end': '1873.600', 'text': 'must understand that and I used to feel so\nsmall and I say  I am so sorry, I'}, {'start': '1873.600', 'end': '1879.200', 'text': 'cannot do anything, I have to tell you Guruji that I will take\ncare of you and totally when Guruji'}, {'start': '1879.200', 'end': '1884.799', 'text': 'said that, that worry went away, there was no\nworry in the mind at all, what are the children doing,'}, {'start': '1884.799', 'end': '1890.080', 'text': 'what are they studying, where are they going,\nI had no worries at all, then Guruji'}, {'start': '1890.080', 'end': '1896.080', 'text': 'said to me that I would have made all your three daughters\ndoctors, he said you are, are'}, {'start': '1896.080', 'end': '1901.880', 'text': "n't you, you are so capable, is it\npossible, there are so many likes in this world,"}, {'start': '1901.880', 'end': '1908.080', 'text': "but does everyone get any welfare, unless there is\nGuru's grace, nothing happens to you, no matter how good you are, how"}, {'start': '1908.080', 'end': '1915.600', 'text': 'happy you are, sorry uncle,'}, {'start': '1915.640', 'end': '1923.440', 'text': 'I just know how Guruji\nshowed my children the right path'}, {'start': '1923.440', 'end': '1927.919', 'text': 'and whatever Guruji used to say used to happen, it is\nhappening even now, whatever Guruji has'}, {'start': '1927.919', 'end': '1932.360', 'text': 'said, everything I am watching, everything is happening now, it'}, {'start': '1932.360', 'end': '1938.519', 'text': 'seemed that Guruji had said this at that time,\nwe go back to those'}, {'start': '1938.519', 'end': '1946.480', 'text': 'times, that is so true and similarly\nwhen Guruji said that I would have made all your three daughters'}, {'start': '1946.480', 'end': '1955.360', 'text': 'doctors, so to all of my daughters  Or\ndentist one is physician GI doctor'}, {'start': '1955.360', 'end': '1960.559', 'text': 'through whom we have reached the court of Guru ji, the person with\nwhose problem we have reached,'}, {'start': '1960.559', 'end': '1969.120', 'text': 'he is said to be respected, sometimes it is\nbecause of sufferings that we are blessed, we find a'}, {'start': '1969.120', 'end': '1974.480', 'text': "way, our life changes,\nwe found the way to Guru ji's court"}, {'start': '1974.480', 'end': '1981.440', 'text': 'because of our sufferings, so whatever suffering\ncomes, it teaches us something and if he is'}, {'start': '1981.440', 'end': '1989.039', 'text': 'kind, he helps on his own, so\nGuru ji was doing everything like this, then'}, {'start': '1989.039', 'end': '1994.480', 'text': 'Guru ji started saying, you marry a doll, you marry a\ndoll, I was least interested, I did not want to give that'}, {'start': '1994.480', 'end': '2001.039', 'text': 'hassle,\nI used to think that there is a goal of my life,'}, {'start': '2001.039', 'end': '2007.600', 'text': 'which is to find God, now I have found God,\nnow Mahadev has come in the form of Guru ji,'}, {'start': '2007.600', 'end': '2013.919', 'text': 'now I do not want to be bound in that bond, whatever happens will keep happening\nand Guru ji'}, {'start': '2013.919', 'end': '2020.720', 'text': 'said so many times, first marry the doll, you get up, you get up,\nyou go back here, I started'}, {'start': '2020.720', 'end': '2025.200', 'text': 'saying and I said Guru ji I\ncannot live without you, I cannot go back, I will stay here'}, {'start': '2025.200', 'end': '2031.120', 'text': 'and in 2006 itself  Very agent and'}, {'start': '2031.120', 'end': '2037.840', 'text': "how we came back as soon as we came back in September\nhow my elder daughter's marriage was"}, {'start': '2037.840', 'end': '2043.840', 'text': 'fixed and she got engaged the\nfirst call I made was to Guruji because'}, {'start': '2043.840', 'end': '2048.200', 'text': 'Guruji was the one who used to say it because of\nhim it had happened I did do'}, {'start': '2048.200', 'end': '2054.480', 'text': 'anything and Guruji was\nso happy and then he started saying marry quickly marry quickly it was in'}, {'start': '2058.520', 'end': '2065.119', 'text': 'October 2006 Guruji says marry quickly\nnow it is not possible to do it quickly in the US my son'}, {'start': '2065.119', 'end': '2072.000', 'text': 'in law was a surgeon he was finishing\nhis special training of robotic surgery'}, {'start': '2072.000', 'end': '2077.119', 'text': 'training and my daughter was just finishing her\nlast year of a thing that she was doing this then he was'}, {'start': '2077.119', 'end': '2082.000', 'text': 'getting leave only in summer'}, {'start': '2082.000', 'end': '2088.240', 'text': 'in July\n2007 and Guruji started sending me messages'}, {'start': '2088.240', 'end': '2092.720', 'text': 'so I said okay Guruji I will\ncome to India and get married I thought in my mind'}, {'start': '2092.720', 'end': '2100.000', 'text': 'Guruji was in Delhi we had come to Singapore\nIn Seattle and I just'}, {'start': '2100.000', 'end': '2104.480', 'text': 'called my dad and I said papa,\nlook for a venue there, we will come and get married there'}, {'start': '2104.480', 'end': '2113.920', 'text': 'and this date of 14th July has been set\nand it was just between and me and my dad, my sister'}, {'start': '2113.920', 'end': '2119.839', 'text': "goes to\nGuruji's darshan in Empire State"}, {'start': '2119.839', 'end': '2126.960', 'text': 'and after calling her, Guruji says,\nUsha aunty, no, give me my message that she has to come,'}, {'start': '2126.960', 'end': '2131.680', 'text': 'she has to get married and and she called\nme, she said, were you coming here,'}, {'start': '2131.680', 'end': '2136.320', 'text': 'I said yes, did papa tell me, she said\nno, it is not about me at all, I am at Guruji'}, {'start': '2136.320', 'end': '2142.240', 'text': "'s place, he is saying, see\nhow whatever we used to talk here,"}, {'start': '2142.240', 'end': '2148.560', 'text': 'Guruji could hear everything, that\nconnection, similarly we all should have a connection,'}, {'start': '2148.560', 'end': '2156.000', 'text': 'you need to sit with Guruji, you need to keep\nhim like the head of the family, he is always around, I'}, {'start': '2156.000', 'end': '2160.880', 'text': 'feel very sad that why did'}, {'start': '2160.880', 'end': '2165.839', 'text': "Guruji refuse, but Guruji's order was\non my head and never questioned me about the daughters,"}, {'start': '2165.839', 'end': '2169.680', 'text': 'he said Guruji said this is what we have to do,\nmother says we  Why did I say son,'}, {'start': '2169.680', 'end': '2173.920', 'text': 'I don’t know that there must be some good in it, whatever\nGuruji says, he says for good, we'}, {'start': '2173.920', 'end': '2179.800', 'text': 'change that, we started looking here, but\nmy mind was not agreeing, so in'}, {'start': '2179.800', 'end': '2186.480', 'text': '2007 Mahashivratri, I, my son-in-law,\nhis entire family, his mother, father and sister,'}, {'start': '2186.480', 'end': '2191.280', 'text': 'all of us, six of us, those people, four of us,\nten of us, went there and had Guruji’s darshan,'}, {'start': '2191.280', 'end': '2196.240', 'text': 'Guruji was so happy, he\nput his hand on my son-in-law’s head and said, he is a very'}, {'start': '2196.240', 'end': '2201.920', 'text': 'healthy guy and his father is also a doctor,\nGuruji started introducing all the devotees, that see,'}, {'start': '2201.920', 'end': '2207.920', 'text': 'today all the doctors have come to India\nfrom America, Guruji was so happy, as if he'}, {'start': '2207.920', 'end': '2214.480', 'text': 'considers the devotees as his family,\nand then when they left after two weeks, I was there for some more'}, {'start': '2214.480', 'end': '2220.000', 'text': 'time, I had time for shopping,\nbut by then Guruji had said,'}, {'start': '2220.000', 'end': '2225.760', 'text': 'aunty, don’t ask anything from me or\ntalk to me, I'}, {'start': '2225.760', 'end': '2231.040', 'text': 'know everything about you, I will do only what is good for you,\nso see, this is also a'}, {'start': '2231.040', 'end': '2236.720', 'text': 'learning, that if Guruji is\nblessing you, then we should not be hindrance in asking for'}, {'start': '2236.720', 'end': '2243.040', 'text': 'our demands.  Everything gets cut off from that,\nyou have to let him take care of it, let him do what we want to do'}, {'start': '2243.040', 'end': '2249.720', 'text': 'with our labs, it\nstill happens, it is still happening'}, {'start': '2249.720', 'end': '2255.119', 'text': 'that Guruji once called me to his room, it was\na while, there was nothing to talk about it,'}, {'start': '2255.119', 'end': '2260.480', 'text': 'suddenly Guruji started asking me a lot of things, started guiding\nme in the wedding preparations,'}, {'start': '2260.480', 'end': '2266.480', 'text': 'from where should I do the shopping,\nwhat is happening, how is it happening, then'}, {'start': '2266.480', 'end': '2270.960', 'text': 'I felt that he is giving me a chance, I\ncan ask this, the question that was in my mind,'}, {'start': '2270.960', 'end': '2277.119', 'text': 'why did he refuse, I said I\njust want to ask one thing, if it is your order, he said'}, {'start': '2277.119', 'end': '2282.640', 'text': 'yes ask, he said Guruji,\nwhy did you come here for the wedding, if'}, {'start': '2282.640', 'end': '2289.839', 'text': 'you were here, the wedding would have happened with your blessings, he said no,\nI will not be here, I will keep my photo,'}, {'start': '2289.839', 'end': '2297.119', 'text': 'see, the wedding was fixed for July 14, 2007\nand Guruji had already decided to leave,'}, {'start': '2297.119', 'end': '2304.160', 'text': "31st of May, he\nknew it that's why he didn't want us to come there because we couldn't do it,"}, {'start': '2304.160', 'end': '2309.200', 'text': 'then he sent us away'}, {'start': '2309.200', 'end': '2315.839', 'text': 'from Singapore  Atal sent me and told me to\ngo and marry that Kutida and'}, {'start': '2315.839', 'end': '2320.640', 'text': 'taught me about our responsibilities. He told me that we should\nnot leave anything and'}, {'start': '2320.640', 'end': '2325.200', 'text': 'connect with Guruji while fulfilling all the responsibilities which I was avoiding and wanted to\nstay with Guruji only.'}, {'start': '2325.200', 'end': '2332.720', 'text': 'Guruji made all these things go away. Every\npain that I went through was just a step.'}, {'start': '2332.720', 'end': '2338.280', 'text': 'Guruji taught me that this pain is going to come, it is a\nvery big one. We will leave this'}, {'start': '2338.280', 'end': '2344.480', 'text': 'body and we have to get used to it. We have to\nstill be connected with him. He'}, {'start': '2344.480', 'end': '2350.720', 'text': 'told me that you will not talk to me from today\nand do not ask me anything and'}, {'start': '2350.720', 'end': '2355.839', 'text': 'talk to me through telepathy and I\nstarted crying. I did some mistake because of this.'}, {'start': '2355.839', 'end': '2362.560', 'text': 'Guruji please forgive me. He said that\nyou can talk to me through telepathy. I did not know. I asked him what is he told'}, {'start': '2365.560', 'end': '2372.000', 'text': 'Guruji and Guruji told me that when you\nsit in meditation and connect with me, there will be a one to one'}, {'start': '2372.000', 'end': '2379.200', 'text': 'connection, then I will give you all the answers,\nyou can hear them, so I am so'}, {'start': '2379.200', 'end': '2386.240', 'text': 'grateful to Guruji before he left his body.\nhas told and not to me too much of sangat how'}, {'start': '2386.240', 'end': '2391.200', 'text': 'to connect to him\ndeeply and the new sangat is also seeing that'}, {'start': '2391.200', 'end': '2397.200', 'text': 'Guruji has not gone anywhere everything is\nhappening the same way that is why everyone is connected and then'}, {'start': '2397.200', 'end': '2402.960', 'text': 'Guruji said I will not be there, keep my photo\nand I made the mistake, not the mistake,'}, {'start': '2402.960', 'end': '2408.160', 'text': 'innocence, I told Guruji, Guruji a\nphoto is a photo, if you were in person that was a'}, {'start': '2408.160', 'end': '2414.400', 'text': 'different matter Guruji and and that is when he said that he should never\nconsider my photo as a photo'}, {'start': '2414.400', 'end': '2424.160', 'text': 'wherever my photo was and after that I\ncame, I remember March 9th, 2007 was the'}, {'start': '2424.160', 'end': '2432.160', 'text': 'last meeting physically with my Guru and I came back\nwith a heavy heart like my soul'}, {'start': '2432.160', 'end': '2437.440', 'text': 'new that I want to see him in body for again because I was\nvery restless I was all'}, {'start': '2437.440', 'end': '2443.119', 'text': 'travelling all by myself I did not want to leave him, I was\njust crying and was'}, {'start': '2443.119', 'end': '2449.280', 'text': 'looking back again and again at Guruji that I did\nbut my soul new this is the last meeting with'}, {'start': '2449.280', 'end': '2455.040', 'text': 'my Guru  In physical form and when I came back\nhere all the preparations started, the'}, {'start': '2455.040', 'end': '2460.880', 'text': "cards got printed and arrived in India,\nwith Guruji's blessings, Guruji received them"}, {'start': '2460.880', 'end': '2466.560', 'text': 'in May itself, the cards arrived in April itself,\nin the first week of May I mailed 51 cards to Guruji,'}, {'start': '2466.560', 'end': '2473.920', 'text': 'first I have to go to\nGuruji and I started giving the names of all the'}, {'start': '2473.920', 'end': '2480.000', 'text': 'relatives who were in the US to Guruji\nand started telling them'}, {'start': '2480.000', 'end': '2488.160', 'text': "that Usha aunty's Kubya is Siyato, you\nmust go and this started happening, people started saying do you"}, {'start': '2488.160', 'end': '2492.319', 'text': 'know any Guruji, we did not know,\nsome of them started getting calls, I'}, {'start': '2492.319', 'end': '2496.880', 'text': 'said yes, Guruji sent this message\nthat I want to come to your place for the wedding, we'}, {'start': '2496.880', 'end': '2502.560', 'text': 'said definitely come, I was so happy that Guruji is\nsending sangat after selecting it, there was'}, {'start': '2502.560', 'end': '2509.040', 'text': 'no sangat here at all and like this Guruji started sending\n15 of them came and my sister was sitting there and'}, {'start': '2509.040', 'end': '2512.319', 'text': 'said, Guruji have you sent the cards to\ntake your name because I had'}, {'start': '2512.319', 'end': '2518.240', 'text': 'not sent anyone even from my family,\nneither to my parents nor to these Lalos, Guruji is the'}, {'start': '2518.240', 'end': '2523.480', 'text': 'greatest.  A head of our family, he is'}, {'start': '2523.480', 'end': '2530.720', 'text': 'everything, he is just the ultimate and whatever he does is\nhis prasad for me, be it'}, {'start': '2530.720', 'end': '2537.440', 'text': "good or bad, it doesn't matter, no questions asked, everything is all,\nGuruji,"}, {'start': '2537.440', 'end': '2545.839', 'text': 'that is all and how those cards started\ngoing, Guruji started giving them to everyone while lying down,'}, {'start': '2545.839', 'end': '2551.200', 'text': "after that I started distributing the cards here, they\nwent through my Guruji's hands, he"}, {'start': '2551.200', 'end': '2557.480', 'text': 'invited and then preparations started and then I came to know that\nGuruji had left, that was'}, {'start': '2557.480', 'end': '2564.359', 'text': 'the hardest time for me to tell you the truth, I went into'}, {'start': '2564.359', 'end': '2570.520', 'text': 'depression, my daughter said to mom, we cannot do it further, we should'}, {'start': '2570.520', 'end': '2576.240', 'text': 'just postpone the\nwedding and I said no son, Guruji has'}, {'start': '2576.240', 'end': '2582.800', 'text': "sent the cards with his own hands, we are\ninvited, who are we, we went in Guruji's name,"}, {'start': '2582.800', 'end': '2588.359', 'text': "with Guruji's blessings, it is written in the card, we have to go\nthrough, son, everything will happen,"}, {'start': '2588.359', 'end': '2594.960', 'text': 'but you will not believe, how\nGuruji sent the congregation, how Guruji sent the picture'}, {'start': '2594.960', 'end': '2602.040', 'text': 'of that Shivling through Paul uncle, which he framed and sent,'}, {'start': '2602.040', 'end': '2609.599', 'text': "and when that picture  Along with this he\nsent Mishri Prasad from Guruji's hand and"}, {'start': '2609.599', 'end': '2616.880', 'text': "those small Guruji's key chains.\nHe wrote such a beautiful letter that I was about to come to"}, {'start': '2616.880', 'end': '2624.000', 'text': 'Seattle but when Guruji met me,\nI went straight to India and I am'}, {'start': '2624.000', 'end': '2630.240', 'text': 'sending this for you. That was like my\nlife jacket. I felt like I had found Guruji. I started getting'}, {'start': '2630.240', 'end': '2636.480', 'text': "Guruji's fragrance from everything. I used to eat\nMishri and my"}, {'start': '2636.480', 'end': '2643.680', 'text': 'depression started getting cured. I started getting courage\nand I stood up and'}, {'start': '2643.680', 'end': '2650.800', 'text': 'said Guruji I am not able to do it. You\nonly help me. Guruji I am very'}, {'start': '2650.800', 'end': '2658.000', 'text': 'small and all the\nsources of Guruji were available from the big temple.'}, {'start': '2658.000', 'end': '2664.720', 'text': "Guruji's Amrit started coming from my head\nand fragrance started coming in the whole house. That was"}, {'start': '2664.720', 'end': '2670.640', 'text': 'another big awakening for me. Guruji has\nnot gone anywhere. This dising'}, {'start': '2670.640', 'end': '2675.640', 'text': 'is helping me\nand with his support I started moving forward slowly'}, {'start': '2675.640', 'end': '2684.000', 'text': 'and everything was so beautiful. Those 15\nSatsangs which were hidden, we do'}, {'start': '2684.000', 'end': '2690.880', 'text': "n't know where, all of them came. Like Gurpreet Aunty\ncame and how many people came.  Chopra's sons came,"}, {'start': '2690.880', 'end': '2698.000', 'text': "many people came and the fragrance of Guruji was coming from everyone's body\nand I hugged everyone in such a way that it"}, {'start': '2698.000', 'end': '2703.359', 'text': 'felt like I was hugging the Guru.\nGuruji has come, I just cannot tell you how'}, {'start': '2703.359', 'end': '2710.480', 'text': 'Guruji helps. It was amazing.\nEveryone started saying, how did the wedding and food preparations go so well?'}, {'start': '2710.480', 'end': '2716.800', 'text': 'We knew\nwho did it. We could not do anything.'}, {'start': '2716.800', 'end': '2721.599', 'text': 'We did\nnot know at that time. Guruji did everything.'}, {'start': '2721.599', 'end': '2729.520', 'text': 'He made all the arrangements.\nEverything happened so well. Guruji blessed me.'}, {'start': '2729.520', 'end': '2736.079', 'text': 'Guruji\nasked me how many times, what is the date? I used to'}, {'start': '2736.079', 'end': '2740.720', 'text': 'say, Guruji should I change it, there is something wrong.\nGuruji said, I would bless him'}, {'start': '2740.720', 'end': '2746.000', 'text': 'because he knew that he would not be there. He blessed me and\nwent. So I want to tell you'}, {'start': '2746.000', 'end': '2752.160', 'text': "that even when Guruji leaves, he still\nlistens to everything. When the second daughter's wedding was"}, {'start': '2752.160', 'end': '2755.560', 'text': 'fixed, I said, Guruji, what should I do now?\nWhom should I'}, {'start': '2755.560', 'end': '2760.839', 'text': 'ask? You are not there. Guruji, what should I\ndo? There were two dates, first and'}, {'start': '2760.839', 'end': '2768.319', 'text': 'eighth. I was confused about which date should I keep. I\nwas making the roti.  And can you believe'}, {'start': '2768.319', 'end': '2776.480', 'text': 'I came number one in Roti, I changed the right away,\nfirst how can this be possible Guruji, the answers are the'}, {'start': '2776.480', 'end': '2782.040', 'text': 'responses, you should love him from your heart, he is always around, he is always around,'}, {'start': '2782.040', 'end': '2788.480', 'text': 'we have to\nlook inside ourselves, just keep our inner self clean,'}, {'start': '2788.480', 'end': '2798.480', 'text': "fill it with love, just don't think anything wrong about anyone,\nour energy should be up to the Guru,"}, {'start': '2798.480', 'end': '2803.880', 'text': 'our energy should be\nabove, then we can connect with him, from all these'}, {'start': '2803.880', 'end': '2810.640', 'text': 'disorders to all the junk\nbaggage, whatever we have taken from how many births,'}, {'start': '2810.640', 'end': '2816.720', 'text': 'we cannot take it with us, we cannot reach God, when\nall this is removed, then we will meet Guru ji in person,'}, {'start': '2816.720', 'end': '2824.400', 'text': "you try and see,\nthank you so much, it's been quite late, I"}, {'start': '2824.400', 'end': '2829.119', 'text': 'can narrate how many satsangs, if\nGuruji gives me a chance then I will continue further,'}, {'start': '2829.119', 'end': '2834.720', 'text': 'how all the things happened here,\nhow the satsang was started here,'}, {'start': '2834.720', 'end': '2840.240', 'text': 'Guruji is not there, how did he send,\nhow many people came, he sent Narang uncle also, he'}, {'start': '2840.240', 'end': '2847.520', 'text': 'also came with Dolly aunty,\nhow many congregations came, old congregation, how'}, {'start': '2847.520', 'end': '2852.359', 'text': 'Guru ji wanted to conduct satsang here, Guru\nji used to send his blessings'}, {'start': '2852.359', 'end': '2858.400', 'text': 'And when our friends used to listen to everything,\nthey started believing it. No matter'}, {'start': '2858.400', 'end': '2866.319', 'text': 'how much we tell them, when someone else used to come from a big temple,\neverything used to change. Like this, they used to'}, {'start': '2866.319', 'end': '2872.319', 'text': 'send Guru ji to Singapore.\nThey sent Maneka Gandhi. They sent Sabina Koche.'}, {'start': '2872.319', 'end': '2875.640', 'text': 'I forget the names. I'}, {'start': '2875.640', 'end': '2883.200', 'text': 'mean, wherever Guru ji wants to get something done, it gets it done on\nhis own. I did'}, {'start': '2883.200', 'end': '2888.240', 'text': "not know anyone, even now I don't know anyone.\nI only know Guru ji. I"}, {'start': '2888.240', 'end': '2893.599', 'text': 'am neither in any network nor do I call anyone.\nI just feel that it is my'}, {'start': '2893.599', 'end': '2902.000', 'text': "Guru ji. That's all I need to know.\nGuru ji should keep me connected with him for as long as"}, {'start': '2902.000', 'end': '2909.760', 'text': 'he wants and Guru ji should run my life the way he wants.\nEverything is all on at that speed. Thank'}, {'start': '2909.760', 'end': '2916.720', 'text': 'you so much. Om Namah Shivay. Shiva ji always help. Om\nNamah Shivay. Guru ji always help. Just like this, Guru ji, please bless'}, {'start': '2916.720', 'end': '2921.920', 'text': 'all the congregation. Keep everyone connected.\nSometimes we become weak. You only can'}, {'start': '2921.920', 'end': '2929.960', 'text': 'unite us. Guru ji, you only can hold the hand of all of us and take\nus all out. In this Kaliyug, there is'}, {'start': '2929.960', 'end': '2936.880', 'text': 'a lot of\nhatred everywhere against this group.  There are evils but when'}, {'start': '2936.880', 'end': '2940.200', 'text': 'we connect with Guruji everything changes'}, {'start': '2940.200', 'end': '2948.400', 'text': 'everything becomes fine our perspective\nchanges Jai Bhi Ji thank you so much for'}, {'start': '2948.400', 'end': '2953.839', 'text': 'giving me this opportunity\nthank you so much Bade Mandir thank you so much'}, {'start': '2953.839', 'end': '2961.079', 'text': 'Vikram uncle for reaching out thank you Sangat Ji\nfor listening to me and thank you'}, {'start': '2961.079', 'end': '2969.280', 'text': 'Guruji so call your blessings\nGuruji always in my heart thank you thank'}, {'start': '2969.280', 'end': '2979.400', 'text': 'you Guruji Jai Guru Ji\n[Music]'}]