Learn To Be At Peace With Solitude, And You Will Never Feel Lonely - Ajahn Brahm | #Buddha
Who I Am
[{'start': '0.000', 'end': '5.000', 'text': "It's a lovely habit that we have here in Australia that we begin our public gatherings"}, {'start': '5.000', 'end': '10.000', 'text': 'by being mindful of the long history of mutuality and stewardship'}, {'start': '10.000', 'end': '15.000', 'text': 'that the indigenous people have had with this land that we are on.'}, {'start': '15.000', 'end': '22.000', 'text': 'That history is particularly embodied in the wisdom of the elders.'}, {'start': '22.000', 'end': '30.000', 'text': 'And by paying our respects to the elders, we slow down a little from our hurrying'}, {'start': '30.000', 'end': '35.000', 'text': 'and we take a longer and a broader view of things.'}, {'start': '35.000', 'end': '40.000', 'text': 'Here in this place, we particularly acknowledge the Barramattical people'}, {'start': '40.000', 'end': '45.000', 'text': 'who have always lived in close association with the Parramatta River'}, {'start': '45.000', 'end': '49.000', 'text': 'that flows along this side of campus.'}, {'start': '49.000', 'end': '53.000', 'text': 'The river was a big part of what sustained them.'}, {'start': '53.000', 'end': '58.000', 'text': 'When European settlers came to Sydney harbour, they found it arid'}, {'start': '58.000', 'end': '61.000', 'text': 'and the soil difficult to cultivate.'}, {'start': '61.000', 'end': '66.000', 'text': 'But when they came up the river, they found rich soil in this area'}, {'start': '66.000', 'end': '71.000', 'text': 'and the relief of knowing that they would be able to sustain themselves.'}, {'start': '71.000', 'end': '77.000', 'text': 'May you, may we, this evening and over the course of this weekend'}, {'start': '77.000', 'end': '85.000', 'text': 'also find here on this fertile riverbank things that sustain us.'}, {'start': '85.000', 'end': '87.000', 'text': 'Thank you.'}, {'start': '87.000', 'end': '94.000', 'text': '[Applause]'}, {'start': '94.000', 'end': '99.000', 'text': 'Thank you, Daniel, and thank you for all the work that you do to unite the community.'}, {'start': '99.000', 'end': '102.000', 'text': 'What a blessing it is to have you here.'}, {'start': '102.000', 'end': '105.000', 'text': 'Now before we start, just some housekeeping.'}, {'start': '105.000', 'end': '110.000', 'text': 'The toilets are at the foyer, both at the left and right-hand side.'}, {'start': '110.000', 'end': '115.000', 'text': 'And the exits, so in case of any emergency, just follow the green signs at the door'}, {'start': '115.000', 'end': '119.000', 'text': 'or just find any door.'}, {'start': '119.000', 'end': '121.000', 'text': 'We invite you to check out the stores outside.'}, {'start': '121.000', 'end': '124.000', 'text': 'There are some cool, awesome stuff there.'}, {'start': '124.000', 'end': '127.000', 'text': 'And you have a gift right at your seat.'}, {'start': '127.000', 'end': '130.000', 'text': 'The magazines are a gift from Santee Forest Monastery.'}, {'start': '130.000', 'end': '137.000', 'text': 'You can also get more copies to give away at the free distribution table outside at the foyer.'}, {'start': '137.000', 'end': '143.000', 'text': 'So we now would like to respectfully invite Aya Karunika from Santee Forest Monastery'}, {'start': '143.000', 'end': '146.000', 'text': 'for her welcome speech.'}, {'start': '146.000', 'end': '151.000', 'text': 'Please join me in inviting her and welcoming her on stage.'}, {'start': '151.000', 'end': '166.000', 'text': '[Applause]'}, {'start': '166.000', 'end': '169.000', 'text': 'Thank you, Alice.'}, {'start': '169.000', 'end': '176.000', 'text': 'On behalf of Santee Forest Monastery, I would like to invite you all for this very special Dharma talk,'}, {'start': '176.000', 'end': '182.000', 'text': 'which is the starting of a very beautiful journey, a journey into stillness.'}, {'start': '182.000', 'end': '190.000', 'text': 'So, and if it is a journey, and if you think about the journey in a ship,'}, {'start': '190.000', 'end': '201.000', 'text': 'and we have an amazing captain to guide us, what better than to have Ajahn Brahm himself here with us'}, {'start': '201.000', 'end': '208.000', 'text': 'to guide us on this beautiful journey into the stillness of the mind and stillness of the heart.'}, {'start': '208.000', 'end': '213.000', 'text': 'A very, very appropriate time in the world for us to have this,'}, {'start': '213.000', 'end': '218.000', 'text': 'because we are all very busy, far away from stillness.'}, {'start': '218.000', 'end': '223.000', 'text': 'So I hope you all will take this opportunity, not only for the Dharma talk today,'}, {'start': '223.000', 'end': '228.000', 'text': 'but a whole day of practice tomorrow in this very space,'}, {'start': '228.000', 'end': '233.000', 'text': 'and also another retreat at Santee Forest Monastery in Bandarun.'}, {'start': '233.000', 'end': '242.000', 'text': 'So I welcome you all for this again, and I also would like to welcome Ajahn Brahm for accepting our invitation.'}, {'start': '242.000', 'end': '250.000', 'text': "It is I who made the invitation. I am one of Ajahn Brahm's students for the past two decades,"}, {'start': '250.000', 'end': '257.000', 'text': 'and I have come to New South Wales from Western Australia from Dharmasaranand Monastery,'}, {'start': '257.000', 'end': '265.000', 'text': "and we have been invited to take over the management of Santee and re-establish the nuns' community."}, {'start': '265.000', 'end': '271.000', 'text': 'So it has been three years since I have not seen my teacher and guide,'}, {'start': '271.000', 'end': '276.000', 'text': 'and that was the initial reason why we invited Ajahn,'}, {'start': '276.000', 'end': '281.000', 'text': 'and then we joined force with Metta Centre with a large group of volunteers'}, {'start': '281.000', 'end': '287.000', 'text': 'to make a very big event happen for the benefit of all of you in the Eastern States.'}, {'start': '287.000', 'end': '295.000', 'text': 'So thank you so much, Ajahn, for coming and guiding us for this event. Thank you.'}, {'start': '295.000', 'end': '310.000', 'text': 'Thank you, Aya, and very grateful for all the incredible work you and Santee have done'}, {'start': '310.000', 'end': '313.000', 'text': 'to make this event possible for us all.'}, {'start': '313.000', 'end': '317.000', 'text': 'Now, the moment has arrived.'}, {'start': '317.000', 'end': '323.000', 'text': 'Tonight we are extremely honoured to have Ajahn Brahm right here with us.'}, {'start': '323.000', 'end': '328.000', 'text': 'We would like to invite Ajahn Brahm to guide us through a meditation,'}, {'start': '328.000', 'end': '331.000', 'text': 'followed by a dharma talk on the power of stillness.'}, {'start': '331.000', 'end': '336.000', 'text': 'There will be an opportunity to ask questions after.'}, {'start': '336.000', 'end': '341.000', 'text': 'And without further ado, Ajahn Brahm.'}, {'start': '341.000', 'end': '346.000', 'text': '[applause]'}, {'start': '346.000', 'end': '354.000', 'text': 'So what I intend to do is to do a guided meditation for about 20-25 minutes.'}, {'start': '354.000', 'end': '356.000', 'text': 'Is that okay with you all?'}, {'start': '356.000', 'end': '362.000', 'text': "If it's okay or not okay, I'm going to do it anyway. [laughter]"}, {'start': '362.000', 'end': '366.000', 'text': 'But nevertheless, I will do most of the guiding.'}, {'start': '366.000', 'end': '372.000', 'text': 'And when we get towards maybe 10, 15 or 18 minutes of the guidance,'}, {'start': '372.000', 'end': '378.000', 'text': "that's when I usually be quiet to let you continue the meditation by yourself."}, {'start': '378.000', 'end': '383.000', 'text': 'Because I want to allow you to experience the stillness, the peace,'}, {'start': '383.000', 'end': '389.000', 'text': 'and just how easy it is when you stop interfering with things.'}, {'start': '389.000', 'end': '393.000', 'text': "You just let it be. It's not that hard."}, {'start': '393.000', 'end': '397.000', 'text': 'And when you can experience some of that stillness and peace,'}, {'start': '397.000', 'end': '404.000', 'text': 'it gets you kind of addicted in a very good way, in a peaceful way,'}, {'start': '404.000', 'end': '407.000', 'text': 'to something which is so noble and beautiful.'}, {'start': '407.000', 'end': '411.000', 'text': 'And once you do get kind of into the path of meditation,'}, {'start': '411.000', 'end': '416.000', 'text': "it has enormous benefits, and I'll be talking about those benefits"}, {'start': '416.000', 'end': '420.000', 'text': 'in the talk part of this evening.'}, {'start': '420.000', 'end': '425.000', 'text': "But first of all, let's get ourselves comfortable to be able to do"}, {'start': '425.000', 'end': '430.000', 'text': 'maybe about 25 minutes of meditation.'}, {'start': '430.000', 'end': '434.000', 'text': "Okay, I know that those little seats aren't the most comfortable,"}, {'start': '434.000', 'end': '437.000', 'text': "but it's not that long."}, {'start': '437.000', 'end': '441.000', 'text': 'And if you want to have a comfortable seat in the future,'}, {'start': '441.000', 'end': '447.000', 'text': 'come and give public talks. This is really comfortable.'}, {'start': '447.000', 'end': '450.000', 'text': 'Excellent.'}, {'start': '450.000', 'end': '459.000', 'text': 'Okay, there will be people coming in at any time,'}, {'start': '459.000', 'end': '465.000', 'text': 'so please let people come in and sit down whenever they need to.'}, {'start': '465.000', 'end': '474.000', 'text': 'So usually start meditation by making sure the body is calm and content,'}, {'start': '474.000', 'end': '479.000', 'text': "and it's not causing any problems."}, {'start': '479.000', 'end': '488.000', 'text': 'So with your eyes closed, how do you feel?'}, {'start': '488.000', 'end': '492.000', 'text': 'And even though I meditate so many hours every day,'}, {'start': '492.000', 'end': '499.000', 'text': 'I still have to make sure that my body is in a good position.'}, {'start': '499.000', 'end': '506.000', 'text': "Once it's in a reasonable good condition, I don't accept that."}, {'start': '506.000', 'end': '513.000', 'text': 'I go more carefully through my body.'}, {'start': '513.000', 'end': '516.000', 'text': "And I'll tell you why we do this in a moment."}, {'start': '516.000', 'end': '519.000', 'text': 'First of all, with my eyes closed,'}, {'start': '519.000', 'end': '527.000', 'text': "it's like I'm in my cave where I live over in Bodhinyana Monastery in the west."}, {'start': '527.000', 'end': '533.000', 'text': "I can't see anybody. It's like no one else exists."}, {'start': '533.000', 'end': '539.000', 'text': 'I just have my body, my mindfulness and my kindness.'}, {'start': '539.000', 'end': '547.000', 'text': 'And I want to make sure that my body receives that mindfulness and kindness.'}, {'start': '547.000', 'end': '552.000', 'text': 'So I start checking on my feet.'}, {'start': '552.000', 'end': '558.000', 'text': 'How do I do that? I just ask a simple question.'}, {'start': '558.000', 'end': '563.000', 'text': 'Feet, how are you?'}, {'start': '563.000', 'end': '570.000', 'text': 'And when you take this seriously, you can soon get into contact with your feet.'}, {'start': '570.000', 'end': '578.000', 'text': 'Your mind and the feelings in your feet can connect.'}, {'start': '578.000', 'end': '581.000', 'text': "So that is what I'm doing now."}, {'start': '581.000', 'end': '584.000', 'text': "I don't lie to you."}, {'start': '584.000', 'end': '590.000', 'text': 'At this moment, I am experiencing sensations in my feet.'}, {'start': '590.000', 'end': '597.000', 'text': 'The toes, the heels, the soles of the feet, the uppers.'}, {'start': '597.000', 'end': '602.000', 'text': "And my purpose is to make sure they're comfortable."}, {'start': '602.000', 'end': '612.000', 'text': 'In order to do that, I make sure that I add this kindness to the mindfulness.'}, {'start': '612.000', 'end': '615.000', 'text': "I'm kind to my own feet."}, {'start': '615.000', 'end': '620.000', 'text': 'I have to be aware first of all to understand how they feel.'}, {'start': '620.000', 'end': '624.000', 'text': 'And then the awareness gives me feedback.'}, {'start': '624.000', 'end': '631.000', 'text': 'If I change something, adjust my feet, I can soon discover whether they are really comfortable or not.'}, {'start': '631.000', 'end': '642.000', 'text': "And I'm always willing to make slight adjustments so my feet do feel comfortable."}, {'start': '642.000', 'end': '652.000', 'text': 'It is a process which is important in all meditation called kindfulness.'}, {'start': '652.000', 'end': '658.000', 'text': 'It allows you to get to know the feelings in your body'}, {'start': '658.000', 'end': '671.000', 'text': 'and get to use that understanding to create some comfort, calm, even health in your own body.'}, {'start': '671.000', 'end': '681.000', 'text': "So now I'm feeling the sensations in my feet settle down, become at ease."}, {'start': '681.000', 'end': '691.000', 'text': 'And then I move my attention to the lower legs, including the ankles.'}, {'start': '691.000', 'end': '695.000', 'text': 'How are you feeling right now?'}, {'start': '695.000', 'end': '703.000', 'text': "By asking a question, it's what I do every day when I see some friends or see some of the monks and nuns I know."}, {'start': '703.000', 'end': '705.000', 'text': 'How are you?'}, {'start': '705.000', 'end': '709.000', 'text': "But now I'm doing that to parts of my own body."}, {'start': '709.000', 'end': '718.000', 'text': 'Getting to know them, getting to be kind to them, being able to relax them.'}, {'start': '718.000', 'end': '728.000', 'text': 'So now I can feel the calves of my legs, my ankles, nothing much is happening there, but I check them out anyway.'}, {'start': '728.000', 'end': '740.000', 'text': "And I just must have that kindness, that softness, just like a mother looks at her child to make sure that they're okay,"}, {'start': '740.000', 'end': '747.000', 'text': "they're comfortable, they're not afraid, and they're relaxed to the max."}, {'start': '747.000', 'end': '764.000', 'text': 'Sometimes if I ever pick up an ache or a pain or a bruise or a twinge, I stay there and give this beautiful sense of relaxation and peace'}, {'start': '764.000', 'end': '768.000', 'text': 'until that feeling disappears.'}, {'start': '768.000', 'end': '771.000', 'text': 'I move up to the knees.'}, {'start': '771.000', 'end': '774.000', 'text': 'Many people have sore knees.'}, {'start': '774.000', 'end': '780.000', 'text': "I've been sitting cross-legged like this for over 50 years."}, {'start': '780.000', 'end': '783.000', 'text': 'My knees are great.'}, {'start': '783.000', 'end': '787.000', 'text': "I think it's because I care for them."}, {'start': '787.000', 'end': '793.000', 'text': 'Right now I can feel any sensations in my own knees.'}, {'start': '793.000', 'end': '799.000', 'text': "As I'm feeling them, I learn how to relax them."}, {'start': '799.000', 'end': '803.000', 'text': 'The mindfulness and the kindness.'}, {'start': '803.000', 'end': '811.000', 'text': "It's like one of the things which I do, I imagine those knees expanding, getting bigger."}, {'start': '811.000', 'end': '822.000', 'text': "It's only imagination, but that allows any tightness and tensions to be relieved, any inflammation to be loosened."}, {'start': '822.000', 'end': '827.000', 'text': "I imagine the body's energies."}, {'start': '827.000', 'end': '834.000', 'text': "In Indian medical ideas, it's like winds going through the body."}, {'start': '834.000', 'end': '841.000', 'text': 'In Chinese, qi, the same thing, but just flows of energy through parts of your body.'}, {'start': '841.000', 'end': '847.000', 'text': 'I want to make sure that those flow freely, with no blockages.'}, {'start': '847.000', 'end': '852.000', 'text': 'I can feel my knees relaxing.'}, {'start': '852.000', 'end': '859.000', 'text': "It's hard for me to say this, but my left knee felt very tense when I started."}, {'start': '859.000', 'end': '864.000', 'text': "Now it's loose and easy."}, {'start': '864.000', 'end': '868.000', 'text': "It's going to be comfortable, I know, for the rest of the meditation,"}, {'start': '868.000', 'end': '876.000', 'text': "but also I'm learning and practicing this skill of awareness, kindness,"}, {'start': '876.000', 'end': '882.000', 'text': 'and the consequent peace which it gives to parts of my body.'}, {'start': '882.000', 'end': '892.000', 'text': 'Then I sweep my attention up my thighs, and the skin and the bones in my upper legs.'}, {'start': '892.000', 'end': '903.000', 'text': "It's making sure that they also receive my care, they're not ignored."}, {'start': '903.000', 'end': '917.000', 'text': "I'm caring for my own body, and I learn how to relax it, relax it so much."}, {'start': '917.000', 'end': '925.000', 'text': "And now my whole lower legs feel like they've been soaking in a bath."}, {'start': '925.000', 'end': '930.000', 'text': 'Now go to my buttocks.'}, {'start': '930.000', 'end': '938.000', 'text': "They're feeling the pressure of a body against the cushions of this sofa."}, {'start': '938.000', 'end': '941.000', 'text': 'For you it is a little chair.'}, {'start': '941.000', 'end': '944.000', 'text': 'Can you feel that?'}, {'start': '944.000', 'end': '952.000', 'text': 'See if you could make that feeling even on both sides of your buttocks.'}, {'start': '952.000', 'end': '961.000', 'text': "Because when it's even, there's not one part which is more strong than the other part."}, {'start': '961.000', 'end': '969.000', 'text': "You'll find that the feeling, once it evens out, starts to disappear."}, {'start': '969.000', 'end': '976.000', 'text': 'Now I go to my back, first of all the waist.'}, {'start': '976.000', 'end': '980.000', 'text': 'Often when I sit in meditation, I straighten up my back,'}, {'start': '980.000', 'end': '987.000', 'text': "but I know that's not really possible on the softness and the makeup of this sofa I'm sitting on."}, {'start': '987.000', 'end': '994.000', 'text': "If you're in a chair, you may try just moving your back away from the backrest."}, {'start': '994.000', 'end': '999.000', 'text': 'If you prefer leaning back, fine.'}, {'start': '999.000', 'end': '1007.000', 'text': "But I'm now just moving my back slightly, this way and that way, to find the optimum position."}, {'start': '1007.000', 'end': '1014.000', 'text': "I'm using mindfulness, kindness, feedback from the mindfulness."}, {'start': '1014.000', 'end': '1023.000', 'text': 'If I find something which is wrong, which can be improved, I do something.'}, {'start': '1023.000', 'end': '1031.000', 'text': 'But sometimes, what I really need to do is just to observe and be kind.'}, {'start': '1031.000', 'end': '1035.000', 'text': 'And the problem solves itself.'}, {'start': '1035.000', 'end': '1041.000', 'text': 'Then I go to the bottom of my torso again.'}, {'start': '1041.000', 'end': '1048.000', 'text': 'How does it feel in the bottom of my digestive tract?'}, {'start': '1048.000', 'end': '1059.000', 'text': "Because I'm a monk, nuns are the same, we do have sometimes some digestive problems."}, {'start': '1059.000', 'end': '1073.000', 'text': 'And I want to heal those by just learning how to relax my own colon, my own intestines.'}, {'start': '1073.000', 'end': '1081.000', 'text': 'I sweep upwards with my attention, always with kindness, to the digestive tract.'}, {'start': '1081.000', 'end': '1086.000', 'text': 'May you be peaceful, happy, at ease.'}, {'start': '1086.000', 'end': '1089.000', 'text': 'It actually works.'}, {'start': '1089.000', 'end': '1095.000', 'text': "My mindfulness tells me it's working."}, {'start': '1095.000', 'end': '1103.000', 'text': 'My whole digestive tract starts to feel so comfortable.'}, {'start': '1103.000', 'end': '1112.000', 'text': 'Moving up to my stomach, which is pretty empty now because we only eat in the morning.'}, {'start': '1112.000', 'end': '1117.000', 'text': 'Moving up to my lungs.'}, {'start': '1117.000', 'end': '1125.000', 'text': 'With so much respiratory diseases these days, I like to be kind to my lungs.'}, {'start': '1125.000', 'end': '1136.000', 'text': "Make sure they're cared for, so they can heal themselves if there's any infection anywhere."}, {'start': '1136.000', 'end': '1144.000', 'text': 'They can feel good, cared for, looked after.'}, {'start': '1144.000', 'end': '1151.000', 'text': 'Move from my lungs up to my heart region.'}, {'start': '1151.000', 'end': '1155.000', 'text': "One of the things which I've been teaching a lot,"}, {'start': '1155.000', 'end': '1159.000', 'text': 'when I go back to Western Australia on Tuesday,'}, {'start': '1159.000', 'end': '1165.000', 'text': 'I give my annual speech at Solaris Cancer Care.'}, {'start': '1165.000', 'end': '1170.000', 'text': "I've been going there for over 30 years, teaching."}, {'start': '1170.000', 'end': '1178.000', 'text': "I ask people when I'm there, when they sweep to their chest,"}, {'start': '1178.000', 'end': '1181.000', 'text': 'how does your chest feel?'}, {'start': '1181.000', 'end': '1190.000', 'text': 'Too many people, women especially, suffer from breast cancer.'}, {'start': '1190.000', 'end': '1196.000', 'text': 'Sometimes you can feel it before the doctor sees it.'}, {'start': '1196.000', 'end': '1202.000', 'text': "When you're sweeping your attention to that part of your body, how does it feel?"}, {'start': '1202.000', 'end': '1206.000', 'text': 'Your body should know it really well.'}, {'start': '1206.000', 'end': '1213.000', 'text': "If there's some tightness, slight ache, something out of the ordinary,"}, {'start': '1213.000', 'end': '1216.000', 'text': "don't worry about it."}, {'start': '1216.000', 'end': '1221.000', 'text': 'Just put your attention on it and care for it.'}, {'start': '1221.000', 'end': '1231.000', 'text': 'The mindfulness and the kindness can release any tension, any tightness.'}, {'start': '1231.000', 'end': '1242.000', 'text': "When that is released, when it's relaxed in that area, then healing happens."}, {'start': '1242.000', 'end': '1247.000', 'text': 'I go up to my shoulders.'}, {'start': '1247.000', 'end': '1253.000', 'text': "I don't know why, but if I don't do this, my shoulders get very tense."}, {'start': '1253.000', 'end': '1255.000', 'text': "I don't know about yours."}, {'start': '1255.000', 'end': '1260.000', 'text': 'One trick to relax my own shoulders is actually to scrunch them up,'}, {'start': '1260.000', 'end': '1263.000', 'text': 'to go the opposite direction at first.'}, {'start': '1263.000', 'end': '1268.000', 'text': 'I scrunch up my shoulders as much as I possibly can,'}, {'start': '1268.000', 'end': '1271.000', 'text': 'and then I let go.'}, {'start': '1271.000', 'end': '1277.000', 'text': 'And they become more relaxed than when I started.'}, {'start': '1277.000', 'end': '1281.000', 'text': "It's like pushing a ball up a hill and then letting it fall,"}, {'start': '1281.000', 'end': '1286.000', 'text': 'and it goes further down the hill than when you started.'}, {'start': '1286.000', 'end': '1289.000', 'text': "That's what I've just done with my own shoulders."}, {'start': '1289.000', 'end': '1297.000', 'text': 'It also tells me, reminds me, what it means to let go.'}, {'start': '1297.000', 'end': '1303.000', 'text': 'Not to pull anything, squash anything, stretch anything,'}, {'start': '1303.000', 'end': '1308.000', 'text': 'and let everything become loose and free.'}, {'start': '1308.000', 'end': '1314.000', 'text': "Then I go down my arms, making sure they're all comfortable."}, {'start': '1314.000', 'end': '1317.000', 'text': 'Then I get to my hands.'}, {'start': '1317.000', 'end': '1322.000', 'text': "Because I'm holding a microphone, I'm used to this now,"}, {'start': '1322.000', 'end': '1324.000', 'text': 'so I just check the fingers and the hand,'}, {'start': '1324.000', 'end': '1330.000', 'text': "make sure they're as comfortable as can be expected."}, {'start': '1330.000', 'end': '1335.000', 'text': 'Just even being concerned about my own fingers and their position.'}, {'start': '1335.000', 'end': '1340.000', 'text': 'Are they comfortable? If you want to move, please move.'}, {'start': '1340.000', 'end': '1348.000', 'text': 'It shows you really do care about something like comfort.'}, {'start': '1348.000', 'end': '1353.000', 'text': 'And then I go back to my shoulders again, and my neck.'}, {'start': '1353.000', 'end': '1357.000', 'text': 'The trick in not having any neck pain is just making sure'}, {'start': '1357.000', 'end': '1360.000', 'text': 'the head on top of the neck is properly balanced.'}, {'start': '1360.000', 'end': '1365.000', 'text': 'Not too far forward, not too far back, not to the left and the right,'}, {'start': '1365.000', 'end': '1370.000', 'text': 'in this beautiful optimum position.'}, {'start': '1370.000', 'end': '1378.000', 'text': 'And once the neck feels good, then I go to the front of my face.'}, {'start': '1378.000', 'end': '1383.000', 'text': 'And there I get to know the muscles around the forehead,'}, {'start': '1383.000', 'end': '1388.000', 'text': 'around the eyes, the nose and the mouth.'}, {'start': '1388.000', 'end': '1392.000', 'text': 'Because you all know that your emotional world,'}, {'start': '1392.000', 'end': '1399.000', 'text': 'negative emotions are played up by contortions of your facial muscles.'}, {'start': '1399.000', 'end': '1404.000', 'text': "That's why you can look at a person and tell whether they're at peace,"}, {'start': '1404.000', 'end': '1409.000', 'text': "whether they're afraid, whether they're angry."}, {'start': '1409.000', 'end': '1414.000', 'text': 'Learning how to relax those muscles on the front of your face'}, {'start': '1414.000', 'end': '1419.000', 'text': 'gives you some freedom from the negative emotions,'}, {'start': '1419.000', 'end': '1424.000', 'text': 'and your face feels relaxed.'}, {'start': '1424.000', 'end': '1433.000', 'text': 'And having done a part by part sweeping mindfulness and kindness'}, {'start': '1433.000', 'end': '1438.000', 'text': 'and general relaxation of the whole body,'}, {'start': '1438.000', 'end': '1446.000', 'text': 'I now look at my body united, not in parts, but as a whole.'}, {'start': '1446.000', 'end': '1449.000', 'text': 'It works every time for me.'}, {'start': '1449.000', 'end': '1453.000', 'text': 'My whole body feels so at ease, relaxed.'}, {'start': '1453.000', 'end': '1458.000', 'text': "It's not just for relaxation and health."}, {'start': '1458.000', 'end': '1464.000', 'text': 'Because that relaxation appears pleasurable,'}, {'start': '1464.000', 'end': '1468.000', 'text': 'appears happy.'}, {'start': '1468.000', 'end': '1474.000', 'text': "I was afraid of that at first, I thought I can't go watching happiness."}, {'start': '1474.000', 'end': '1481.000', 'text': 'But when I did, the relaxation went even deeper.'}, {'start': '1481.000', 'end': '1487.000', 'text': 'So if you can feel your body happily relaxed,'}, {'start': '1487.000', 'end': '1494.000', 'text': 'at ease, open, free, not contracted,'}, {'start': '1494.000', 'end': '1504.000', 'text': 'then you find that relaxation goes really, really deep.'}, {'start': '1504.000', 'end': '1507.000', 'text': 'Your body feels good.'}, {'start': '1507.000', 'end': '1512.000', 'text': 'Good enough now to put it aside, let it go,'}, {'start': '1512.000', 'end': '1515.000', 'text': 'we go to the mind.'}, {'start': '1515.000', 'end': '1520.000', 'text': 'In order to understand what to look at,'}, {'start': '1520.000', 'end': '1526.000', 'text': "for years I've been encouraging people to ask themselves,"}, {'start': '1526.000', 'end': '1529.000', 'text': 'just like you ask your feet, how are you?'}, {'start': '1529.000', 'end': '1533.000', 'text': 'Ask your mind, how peaceful are you?'}, {'start': '1533.000', 'end': '1538.000', 'text': 'Because peace is something which exists in the mind.'}, {'start': '1538.000', 'end': '1543.000', 'text': 'How peaceful are you right now?'}, {'start': '1543.000', 'end': '1547.000', 'text': 'And how, out of care for your own mind,'}, {'start': '1547.000', 'end': '1554.000', 'text': 'how can you bring that state of peace into more deeper peace,'}, {'start': '1554.000', 'end': '1558.000', 'text': 'more stable peace?'}, {'start': '1558.000', 'end': '1564.000', 'text': 'What is the key to be able to establish peace inside'}, {'start': '1564.000', 'end': '1571.000', 'text': 'and make it even deeper?'}, {'start': '1571.000', 'end': '1577.000', 'text': "That's where you find simple things like present moment awareness."}, {'start': '1577.000', 'end': '1583.000', 'text': "The past, you don't learn from the past"}, {'start': '1583.000', 'end': '1589.000', 'text': 'as much as you learn from the present.'}, {'start': '1589.000', 'end': '1592.000', 'text': 'And worrying about the future,'}, {'start': '1592.000', 'end': '1595.000', 'text': 'if you really were concerned about your future,'}, {'start': '1595.000', 'end': '1601.000', 'text': 'you should put more attention into where your future is being made,'}, {'start': '1601.000', 'end': '1606.000', 'text': 'which is in the present.'}, {'start': '1606.000', 'end': '1611.000', 'text': 'When you stay in this moment,'}, {'start': '1611.000', 'end': '1618.000', 'text': 'you find the peace gets stronger and stronger.'}, {'start': '1618.000', 'end': '1625.000', 'text': 'And the last thing in this short meditation,'}, {'start': '1625.000', 'end': '1630.000', 'text': 'see if you can be silent inside.'}, {'start': '1630.000', 'end': '1634.000', 'text': 'Stop giving things names.'}, {'start': '1634.000', 'end': '1640.000', 'text': 'Stop trying to find out connection between things.'}, {'start': '1640.000', 'end': '1646.000', 'text': 'Stop the intellectual process of trying to understand'}, {'start': '1646.000', 'end': '1652.000', 'text': 'through naming and connection and similarities.'}, {'start': '1652.000', 'end': '1659.000', 'text': 'Learn to be silent, to know,'}, {'start': '1659.000', 'end': '1668.000', 'text': 'without giving anything a name.'}, {'start': '1668.000', 'end': '1695.000', 'text': 'I will be quiet for five minutes now.'}, {'start': '1695.000', 'end': '1700.000', 'text': 'Getting close to the end of the meditation now.'}, {'start': '1700.000', 'end': '1703.000', 'text': 'How do you feel?'}, {'start': '1703.000', 'end': '1709.000', 'text': "Don't give it words,"}, {'start': '1709.000', 'end': '1713.000', 'text': 'but just know its qualities,'}, {'start': '1713.000', 'end': '1722.000', 'text': 'peace, beauty, freedom.'}, {'start': '1722.000', 'end': '1731.000', 'text': 'What is peace like?'}, {'start': '1731.000', 'end': '1735.000', 'text': 'As you start to come out from the meditation,'}, {'start': '1735.000', 'end': '1738.000', 'text': 'how is your body right now?'}, {'start': '1738.000', 'end': '1745.000', 'text': 'How relaxed and at ease is it?'}, {'start': '1745.000', 'end': '1750.000', 'text': 'This is where we get very clear mindfulness'}, {'start': '1750.000', 'end': '1756.000', 'text': 'of a body and mind which is starting to relax quite deeply.'}, {'start': '1756.000', 'end': '1760.000', 'text': 'It feels great.'}, {'start': '1760.000', 'end': '1765.000', 'text': 'I am now going to ring the gong three times.'}, {'start': '1765.000', 'end': '1768.000', 'text': 'When the gong finishes sounding for the third time,'}, {'start': '1768.000', 'end': '1794.000', 'text': 'please come out of the meditation.'}, {'start': '1794.000', 'end': '1800.000', 'text': 'That was three.'}, {'start': '1800.000', 'end': '1803.000', 'text': 'Okay.'}, {'start': '1803.000', 'end': '1809.000', 'text': 'You know there is something magic about this type of meditation.'}, {'start': '1809.000', 'end': '1814.000', 'text': 'Because usually when I start there is not so many people here,'}, {'start': '1814.000', 'end': '1818.000', 'text': 'but now I open my eyes there is more people have arrived.'}, {'start': '1818.000', 'end': '1824.000', 'text': 'Sometimes the magic multiplies people.'}, {'start': '1824.000', 'end': '1825.000', 'text': 'Excellent.'}, {'start': '1825.000', 'end': '1827.000', 'text': 'Okay.'}, {'start': '1827.000', 'end': '1832.000', 'text': 'Now straight away just from the meditation which I just led,'}, {'start': '1832.000', 'end': '1838.000', 'text': 'hopefully you could experience some of this magic of stillness,'}, {'start': '1838.000', 'end': '1841.000', 'text': 'the power of meditation.'}, {'start': '1841.000', 'end': '1844.000', 'text': 'One of the first things I wanted to say,'}, {'start': '1844.000', 'end': '1853.000', 'text': 'because this university made this hall available for us,'}, {'start': '1853.000', 'end': '1857.000', 'text': 'is one of the first times I noticed,'}, {'start': '1857.000', 'end': '1862.000', 'text': 'just the worldly results of meditation,'}, {'start': '1862.000', 'end': '1866.000', 'text': 'was when I was doing my final examinations'}, {'start': '1866.000', 'end': '1874.000', 'text': 'in theoretical physics at Cambridge University in 1972.'}, {'start': '1874.000', 'end': '1880.000', 'text': 'In those days everything in this British system'}, {'start': '1880.000', 'end': '1885.000', 'text': 'depended upon these series of exams called finals.'}, {'start': '1885.000', 'end': '1889.000', 'text': "Everything else didn't count at all."}, {'start': '1889.000', 'end': '1894.000', 'text': 'These series of exams were over six days,'}, {'start': '1894.000', 'end': '1901.000', 'text': 'Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday as well.'}, {'start': '1901.000', 'end': '1904.000', 'text': 'A three hour paper in the morning,'}, {'start': '1904.000', 'end': '1907.000', 'text': 'three hour paper in the afternoon,'}, {'start': '1907.000', 'end': '1910.000', 'text': 'one day after another.'}, {'start': '1910.000', 'end': '1914.000', 'text': 'There was high tension.'}, {'start': '1914.000', 'end': '1917.000', 'text': 'There was ordinary subjects like astrophysics of the galaxy'}, {'start': '1917.000', 'end': '1920.000', 'text': 'and quantum mechanics and stuff like that.'}, {'start': '1920.000', 'end': '1925.000', 'text': 'But nevertheless I was told at the time,'}, {'start': '1925.000', 'end': '1927.000', 'text': 'I was brainwashed at the time,'}, {'start': '1927.000', 'end': '1931.000', 'text': 'this was really, really important.'}, {'start': '1931.000', 'end': '1934.000', 'text': 'And I often say to people,'}, {'start': '1934.000', 'end': '1939.000', 'text': 'if only I had known that I was going to become a monk,'}, {'start': '1939.000', 'end': '1942.000', 'text': "I wouldn't have bothered so much."}, {'start': '1942.000', 'end': '1945.000', 'text': 'But I never knew that at the time.'}, {'start': '1945.000', 'end': '1948.000', 'text': 'So anyway I did my very best.'}, {'start': '1948.000', 'end': '1951.000', 'text': 'One thing which I did,'}, {'start': '1951.000', 'end': '1953.000', 'text': 'which really helped enormously,'}, {'start': '1953.000', 'end': '1956.000', 'text': "and that's why I'm sharing it with you today,"}, {'start': '1956.000', 'end': '1960.000', 'text': 'is that at lunchtime, I had an hour for lunch,'}, {'start': '1960.000', 'end': '1962.000', 'text': 'a three hour paper in the morning,'}, {'start': '1962.000', 'end': '1964.000', 'text': 'three hour exam in the afternoon.'}, {'start': '1964.000', 'end': '1968.000', 'text': 'The hour for lunch, I never had any lunch.'}, {'start': '1968.000', 'end': '1970.000', 'text': "I wasn't a monk yet."}, {'start': '1970.000', 'end': '1973.000', 'text': 'I had a big breakfast, a big dinner in the evening,'}, {'start': '1973.000', 'end': '1975.000', 'text': 'lunchtime for one hour.'}, {'start': '1975.000', 'end': '1980.000', 'text': 'I went to my room, sat on a cushion and meditated.'}, {'start': '1980.000', 'end': '1982.000', 'text': 'I was already a Buddhist by then.'}, {'start': '1982.000', 'end': '1988.000', 'text': 'I was so grateful what that meditation did to me.'}, {'start': '1988.000', 'end': '1993.000', 'text': 'Because what happened was that when I closed my eyes,'}, {'start': '1993.000', 'end': '1998.000', 'text': 'have a guess what the first thing which came into my mind was.'}, {'start': '1998.000', 'end': '2000.000', 'text': 'The morning exam.'}, {'start': '2000.000', 'end': '2002.000', 'text': "You've just done this really important exam,"}, {'start': '2002.000', 'end': '2004.000', 'text': "given everything you've got,"}, {'start': '2004.000', 'end': '2006.000', 'text': 'three hours paper.'}, {'start': '2006.000', 'end': '2008.000', 'text': 'Did I do it right? Did I do it wrong?'}, {'start': '2008.000', 'end': '2010.000', 'text': 'What have I done?'}, {'start': '2010.000', 'end': '2013.000', 'text': "Even logically we know that you can't change it."}, {'start': '2013.000', 'end': '2015.000', 'text': "It's in the past."}, {'start': '2015.000', 'end': '2018.000', 'text': "Good, bad, it's already finished."}, {'start': '2018.000', 'end': '2022.000', 'text': 'But how many of you cannot really care about it,'}, {'start': '2022.000', 'end': '2025.000', 'text': 'can let it go?'}, {'start': '2025.000', 'end': '2030.000', 'text': 'I knew I needed to let it go, to rest, to relax.'}, {'start': '2030.000', 'end': '2033.000', 'text': 'It was only because that I trained in meditation'}, {'start': '2033.000', 'end': '2035.000', 'text': 'that I could let go of the past.'}, {'start': '2035.000', 'end': '2038.000', 'text': 'The meditation which I was just teaching you,'}, {'start': '2038.000', 'end': '2041.000', 'text': 'that first part about body scan,'}, {'start': '2041.000', 'end': '2044.000', 'text': 'one of the main things I was achieving,'}, {'start': '2044.000', 'end': '2048.000', 'text': 'you were in the present moment for about 15 or 20 minutes.'}, {'start': '2048.000', 'end': '2050.000', 'text': 'Following what I was suggesting, how do you feel in your legs,'}, {'start': '2050.000', 'end': '2053.000', 'text': 'how do you feel in your knees,'}, {'start': '2053.000', 'end': '2056.000', 'text': 'how do you feel in your butt.'}, {'start': '2056.000', 'end': '2058.000', 'text': 'It was bringing you into this present moment.'}, {'start': '2058.000', 'end': '2063.000', 'text': 'That by itself gives you some quietness and some peace.'}, {'start': '2063.000', 'end': '2066.000', 'text': "So anyway, because I'd learned this for such a long time,"}, {'start': '2066.000', 'end': '2069.000', 'text': 'actually at that time not such a long time,'}, {'start': '2069.000', 'end': '2073.000', 'text': 'I could still let go of the morning exam.'}, {'start': '2073.000', 'end': '2075.000', 'text': 'Next thing which I noticed,'}, {'start': '2075.000', 'end': '2078.000', 'text': 'I was only meditating for half an hour,'}, {'start': '2078.000', 'end': '2083.000', 'text': 'the next thing I noticed, the afternoon exam.'}, {'start': '2083.000', 'end': '2085.000', 'text': "I started thinking what's coming up afterwards,"}, {'start': '2085.000', 'end': '2089.000', 'text': 'should I prepare myself, should I go open the books,'}, {'start': '2089.000', 'end': '2094.000', 'text': 'do some last minute swatting.'}, {'start': '2094.000', 'end': '2097.000', 'text': "But I realized I'd done that before."}, {'start': '2097.000', 'end': '2101.000', 'text': "And I've mentioned this in so many universities and schools,"}, {'start': '2101.000', 'end': '2106.000', 'text': 'everything you look at half an hour before the examination'}, {'start': '2106.000', 'end': '2110.000', 'text': 'never comes up, not once.'}, {'start': '2110.000', 'end': '2113.000', 'text': 'Total waste of time.'}, {'start': '2113.000', 'end': '2118.000', 'text': 'So I decided not to worry about the future exam.'}, {'start': '2118.000', 'end': '2125.000', 'text': 'This is what I say when the future is being made right now.'}, {'start': '2125.000', 'end': '2128.000', 'text': 'So instead of worrying about the future exam,'}, {'start': '2128.000', 'end': '2133.000', 'text': 'I just let it go and came back into this present moment.'}, {'start': '2133.000', 'end': '2137.000', 'text': "And that's when I got a shock."}, {'start': '2137.000', 'end': '2140.000', 'text': 'The first day it really sort of shook me,'}, {'start': '2140.000', 'end': '2143.000', 'text': 'next day I could anticipate it,'}, {'start': '2143.000', 'end': '2146.000', 'text': 'I was physically shaking.'}, {'start': '2146.000', 'end': '2149.000', 'text': 'I was only 20 years of age during the final exams,'}, {'start': '2149.000', 'end': '2151.000', 'text': 'but still physically shaking.'}, {'start': '2151.000', 'end': '2154.000', 'text': 'This was high stress.'}, {'start': '2154.000', 'end': '2160.000', 'text': 'A three hour exam in just theoretical physics'}, {'start': '2160.000', 'end': '2162.000', 'text': 'and this was going to be my whole life'}, {'start': '2162.000', 'end': '2165.000', 'text': 'depend upon this I thought.'}, {'start': '2165.000', 'end': '2168.000', 'text': 'And so physically I was shaking.'}, {'start': '2168.000', 'end': '2172.000', 'text': 'But what really shocked me, I was not aware of that at all.'}, {'start': '2172.000', 'end': '2176.000', 'text': 'I never noticed that, I was thinking in my head about exams,'}, {'start': '2176.000', 'end': '2179.000', 'text': 'not how my body felt.'}, {'start': '2179.000', 'end': '2184.000', 'text': 'Once I could see that, I could relax it.'}, {'start': '2184.000', 'end': '2186.000', 'text': 'This is what I was telling you,'}, {'start': '2186.000', 'end': '2189.000', 'text': 'just how you can relax all parts of the body,'}, {'start': '2189.000', 'end': '2193.000', 'text': 'even incipient breast cancers.'}, {'start': '2193.000', 'end': '2196.000', 'text': "I say this, I'm going to pause on that one"}, {'start': '2196.000', 'end': '2200.000', 'text': "because that's really, really, really important for many of you."}, {'start': '2200.000', 'end': '2204.000', 'text': 'I saw this experiment, one of the other things I did at Cambridge'}, {'start': '2204.000', 'end': '2207.000', 'text': 'was psychic research.'}, {'start': '2207.000', 'end': '2211.000', 'text': 'Every year we got this hypnotist to come up'}, {'start': '2211.000', 'end': '2216.000', 'text': 'and show some of the stuff which hypnotism can perform.'}, {'start': '2216.000', 'end': '2219.000', 'text': 'And one of the things which he did once,'}, {'start': '2219.000', 'end': '2221.000', 'text': 'I was there for three years,'}, {'start': '2221.000', 'end': '2223.000', 'text': 'went every year to this demonstration,'}, {'start': '2223.000', 'end': '2227.000', 'text': 'he had a piece of wood, four inch nail on the end.'}, {'start': '2227.000', 'end': '2230.000', 'text': 'And he hypnotized one of his students'}, {'start': '2230.000', 'end': '2233.000', 'text': 'and he made the student believe'}, {'start': '2233.000', 'end': '2238.000', 'text': 'that this nail on the end of the piece of wood was red hot.'}, {'start': '2238.000', 'end': '2243.000', 'text': 'And he touched the student on the arm with this nail.'}, {'start': '2243.000', 'end': '2248.000', 'text': 'This student cried out in pain.'}, {'start': '2248.000', 'end': '2250.000', 'text': 'It was only at room temperature,'}, {'start': '2250.000', 'end': '2252.000', 'text': 'he could have touched everybody in here,'}, {'start': '2252.000', 'end': '2255.000', 'text': 'no one would have felt a thing, it was just ordinary.'}, {'start': '2255.000', 'end': '2258.000', 'text': 'But because he believed it was red hot,'}, {'start': '2258.000', 'end': '2261.000', 'text': 'he shouted out in pain.'}, {'start': '2261.000', 'end': '2263.000', 'text': 'I could understand that.'}, {'start': '2263.000', 'end': '2267.000', 'text': 'What really shook me was to see a blister come up'}, {'start': '2267.000', 'end': '2272.000', 'text': 'on that part of the hand which was touched.'}, {'start': '2272.000', 'end': '2275.000', 'text': "That's impossible, it was just room temperature."}, {'start': '2275.000', 'end': '2279.000', 'text': 'But because he believed it was a blister,'}, {'start': '2279.000', 'end': '2284.000', 'text': 'it was red hot, it actually made a burn on his arm.'}, {'start': '2284.000', 'end': '2290.000', 'text': "That's why sometimes I say with even these incipient breast cancers,"}, {'start': '2290.000', 'end': '2293.000', 'text': 'if you can actually make a blister'}, {'start': '2293.000', 'end': '2296.000', 'text': 'just through the mind, through thought,'}, {'start': '2296.000', 'end': '2301.000', 'text': "why can't we overcome a tumour?"}, {'start': '2301.000', 'end': '2306.000', 'text': 'Same process, but one is beneficial.'}, {'start': '2306.000', 'end': '2311.000', 'text': "So anyway, that's what I was, for me it was just shaking."}, {'start': '2311.000', 'end': '2314.000', 'text': 'I never noticed that before.'}, {'start': '2314.000', 'end': '2319.000', 'text': 'Once I noticed it, it was pretty easy to relax the body so much'}, {'start': '2319.000', 'end': '2322.000', 'text': 'that all that shaking vanished.'}, {'start': '2322.000', 'end': '2324.000', 'text': 'And then the next thing which I noticed,'}, {'start': '2324.000', 'end': '2328.000', 'text': 'the last thing which I noticed in that meditation,'}, {'start': '2328.000', 'end': '2333.000', 'text': 'was just how tired my brain was.'}, {'start': '2333.000', 'end': '2337.000', 'text': "Of course it's obvious, three hour exam,"}, {'start': '2337.000', 'end': '2342.000', 'text': "you're just pushing your brain to its limit."}, {'start': '2342.000', 'end': '2347.000', 'text': 'The only way I could describe it, because I was English,'}, {'start': '2347.000', 'end': '2351.000', 'text': 'it was like a tea bag which had already been used twice'}, {'start': '2351.000', 'end': '2355.000', 'text': 'and had just nothing left.'}, {'start': '2355.000', 'end': '2359.000', 'text': "And that's how I felt."}, {'start': '2359.000', 'end': '2363.000', 'text': 'Even, okay I share this with you, even today,'}, {'start': '2363.000', 'end': '2368.000', 'text': 'coming on a flight, getting a nice lift from Alex and his wife'}, {'start': '2368.000', 'end': '2371.000', 'text': 'over there to the house,'}, {'start': '2371.000', 'end': '2374.000', 'text': 'I stayed for an hour and a half, two hours,'}, {'start': '2374.000', 'end': '2377.000', 'text': 'and they said, "Oh, you have a nice room,'}, {'start': '2377.000', 'end': '2379.000', 'text': 'you can sit in or lay down if you want to."'}, {'start': '2379.000', 'end': '2383.000', 'text': 'I said, "No, I\'ll just sit down and meditate."'}, {'start': '2383.000', 'end': '2385.000', 'text': 'I was tired.'}, {'start': '2385.000', 'end': '2389.000', 'text': 'Of course I was tired, I was just busy working.'}, {'start': '2389.000', 'end': '2392.000', 'text': 'This is for ayaka runika as well.'}, {'start': '2392.000', 'end': '2395.000', 'text': 'You work really, really hard.'}, {'start': '2395.000', 'end': '2397.000', 'text': 'I work really, really hard.'}, {'start': '2397.000', 'end': '2400.000', 'text': "But I've got this little trick which I use."}, {'start': '2400.000', 'end': '2403.000', 'text': 'I had an hour and a half by myself in the room,'}, {'start': '2403.000', 'end': '2405.000', 'text': 'and I just meditated.'}, {'start': '2405.000', 'end': '2408.000', 'text': "I've done this so many times."}, {'start': '2408.000', 'end': '2410.000', 'text': 'Sit down and when you start meditating,'}, {'start': '2410.000', 'end': '2414.000', 'text': 'you feel dull, tired.'}, {'start': '2414.000', 'end': '2417.000', 'text': "Your brain's got hardly much energy at all."}, {'start': '2417.000', 'end': '2420.000', 'text': "Because you've been active, travelling."}, {'start': '2420.000', 'end': '2425.000', 'text': "I'm over 72 now, I'm an old monk."}, {'start': '2425.000', 'end': '2428.000', 'text': 'I still keep pushing myself.'}, {'start': '2428.000', 'end': '2431.000', 'text': 'But nevertheless, you know how to do this.'}, {'start': '2431.000', 'end': '2434.000', 'text': 'You meditate in, nice and quietly,'}, {'start': '2434.000', 'end': '2438.000', 'text': 'and the energy starts coming back.'}, {'start': '2438.000', 'end': '2444.000', 'text': 'When it comes back, oh, really nice energy.'}, {'start': '2444.000', 'end': '2449.000', 'text': "I know it's nice energy because I am a playful,"}, {'start': '2449.000', 'end': '2451.000', 'text': 'silly monk sometimes, telling stupid jokes.'}, {'start': '2451.000', 'end': '2454.000', 'text': 'I apologise for my jokes which I say.'}, {'start': '2454.000', 'end': '2456.000', 'text': "Actually I don't really, I can't stop it."}, {'start': '2456.000', 'end': '2457.000', 'text': 'You have to accept that.'}, {'start': '2457.000', 'end': '2459.000', 'text': "That's part of the course."}, {'start': '2459.000', 'end': '2461.000', 'text': 'But you get energy up.'}, {'start': '2461.000', 'end': '2465.000', 'text': 'When I get energy up after meditating,'}, {'start': '2465.000', 'end': '2468.000', 'text': 'of course you can give a lovely talk.'}, {'start': '2468.000', 'end': '2472.000', 'text': "I'm not reading this out, it's not prepared."}, {'start': '2472.000', 'end': '2475.000', 'text': 'The preparation is trying to meditate beforehand'}, {'start': '2475.000', 'end': '2479.000', 'text': 'and getting the energy up to contact the Dhamma.'}, {'start': '2479.000', 'end': '2481.000', 'text': 'And so that energy, when it comes up,'}, {'start': '2481.000', 'end': '2482.000', 'text': "that's the power of stillness."}, {'start': '2482.000', 'end': '2486.000', 'text': 'For me, when I was still as a student,'}, {'start': '2486.000', 'end': '2490.000', 'text': 'after maybe 10 minutes of just being still,'}, {'start': '2490.000', 'end': '2494.000', 'text': 'all the energy of my brain came up.'}, {'start': '2494.000', 'end': '2500.000', 'text': 'So the afternoon exam, I always did really well.'}, {'start': '2500.000', 'end': '2506.000', 'text': 'And one of the things which my fellow students told me,'}, {'start': '2506.000', 'end': '2510.000', 'text': 'they said that I was the only student at Cambridge'}, {'start': '2510.000', 'end': '2516.000', 'text': 'in that year who went into the afternoon exams'}, {'start': '2516.000', 'end': '2519.000', 'text': 'with a smile on their face.'}, {'start': '2519.000', 'end': '2521.000', 'text': 'Apparently they never said anything at the time,'}, {'start': '2521.000', 'end': '2525.000', 'text': 'only afterwards they thought I was cheating.'}, {'start': '2525.000', 'end': '2530.000', 'text': 'Actually I was, but not in an illegal way.'}, {'start': '2530.000', 'end': '2533.000', 'text': 'I was doing something which no one else knew how to do,'}, {'start': '2533.000', 'end': '2539.000', 'text': 'it was energize my mind, so it could perform to its best.'}, {'start': '2539.000', 'end': '2543.000', 'text': 'And I give talks in so many places,'}, {'start': '2543.000', 'end': '2546.000', 'text': 'many of you may have heard that before,'}, {'start': '2546.000', 'end': '2550.000', 'text': "but there's one of the people who heard this many years ago,"}, {'start': '2550.000', 'end': '2552.000', 'text': 'he was one of my old friends,'}, {'start': '2552.000', 'end': '2556.000', 'text': 'he was Rabbi Moshe Bernstein.'}, {'start': '2556.000', 'end': '2561.000', 'text': 'I deliberately tried to make friends with people of other paths and religions,'}, {'start': '2561.000', 'end': '2566.000', 'text': 'simply because I never wanted myself to be just tied'}, {'start': '2566.000', 'end': '2571.000', 'text': 'and just getting feedback from people of the same path and religion.'}, {'start': '2571.000', 'end': '2574.000', 'text': 'I wanted them to check me out to make sure that'}, {'start': '2574.000', 'end': '2577.000', 'text': "I wasn't hiding or escaping."}, {'start': '2577.000', 'end': '2580.000', 'text': 'He became a good friend, especially once because'}, {'start': '2580.000', 'end': '2584.000', 'text': 'he came to see me to talk about rebirth.'}, {'start': '2584.000', 'end': '2587.000', 'text': 'Straight away when he wanted to talk to me about rebirth,'}, {'start': '2587.000', 'end': '2594.000', 'text': 'I said, "I never believed that the Jewish tradition believed in rebirth."'}, {'start': '2594.000', 'end': '2596.000', 'text': 'He said, "I do."'}, {'start': '2596.000', 'end': '2599.000', 'text': 'When I said that to another Rabbi I met,'}, {'start': '2599.000', 'end': '2603.000', 'text': 'he said, "Well, you know, he\'s a bit on his own on that one,"'}, {'start': '2603.000', 'end': '2605.000', 'text': 'said the senior Rabbi.'}, {'start': '2605.000', 'end': '2609.000', 'text': 'He said, "Because Moshe Bernstein, he was a rebel,'}, {'start': '2609.000', 'end': '2612.000', 'text': 'and I appreciated him, respected him for that."'}, {'start': '2612.000', 'end': '2617.000', 'text': 'So we became good friends.'}, {'start': '2617.000', 'end': '2620.000', 'text': 'Are you supposed to think for yourself?'}, {'start': '2620.000', 'end': '2624.000', 'text': 'Or are you just to believe what I say?'}, {'start': '2624.000', 'end': '2628.000', 'text': 'Or what you believe the Buddha said?'}, {'start': '2628.000', 'end': '2634.000', 'text': 'How should you know truth and respect that truth?'}, {'start': '2634.000', 'end': '2637.000', 'text': 'Please ask questions later.'}, {'start': '2637.000', 'end': '2640.000', 'text': 'Please challenge.'}, {'start': '2640.000', 'end': '2646.000', 'text': "If it doesn't meet the challenge, reject it."}, {'start': '2646.000', 'end': '2649.000', 'text': "I've done that all my life as a scientist."}, {'start': '2649.000', 'end': '2654.000', 'text': 'The Royal Society of Physics over in London,'}, {'start': '2654.000', 'end': '2659.000', 'text': 'founded about 300 years ago, Francis Bacon I believe,'}, {'start': '2659.000', 'end': '2665.000', 'text': 'said the only way we can take things like science further'}, {'start': '2665.000', 'end': '2670.000', 'text': 'is not to put out a theory and try and prove it,'}, {'start': '2670.000', 'end': '2675.000', 'text': 'but to put out a theory and try and disprove it,'}, {'start': '2675.000', 'end': '2678.000', 'text': 'the best you possibly can.'}, {'start': '2678.000', 'end': '2683.000', 'text': 'And if it can withstand all these incredible smart people saying,'}, {'start': '2683.000', 'end': '2686.000', 'text': '"This can\'t be right, this can\'t be right, this can\'t be right."'}, {'start': '2686.000', 'end': '2691.000', 'text': "If you can't prove it wrong, it's not able to be correct."}, {'start': '2691.000', 'end': '2698.000', 'text': 'These days, what I see in science, people always try and want to prove things,'}, {'start': '2698.000', 'end': '2702.000', 'text': 'rather than trying their hardest to disprove them.'}, {'start': '2702.000', 'end': '2706.000', 'text': 'And I was like that with Dhamma as well.'}, {'start': '2706.000', 'end': '2710.000', 'text': 'Try and see any faults in there at all,'}, {'start': '2710.000', 'end': '2714.000', 'text': 'and be courageous enough to look for those faults.'}, {'start': '2714.000', 'end': '2719.000', 'text': "If you can't find any faults in some of the teachings of the Buddha,"}, {'start': '2719.000', 'end': '2725.000', 'text': 'then you can understand his incredibly powerful teachings and true.'}, {'start': '2725.000', 'end': '2729.000', 'text': "So anyway, that's where you start to find out"}, {'start': '2729.000', 'end': '2736.000', 'text': 'just how powerful this meditation is in your real life.'}, {'start': '2736.000', 'end': '2739.000', 'text': "But it's not just powerful in your real life,"}, {'start': '2739.000', 'end': '2743.000', 'text': 'just giving you energy, giving you good health.'}, {'start': '2743.000', 'end': '2748.000', 'text': "It's also giving you wisdom too."}, {'start': '2748.000', 'end': '2759.000', 'text': 'How many of you here accept the truth of rebirth?'}, {'start': '2759.000', 'end': '2762.000', 'text': "It's not even half."}, {'start': '2762.000', 'end': '2764.000', 'text': "Don't worry."}, {'start': '2764.000', 'end': '2772.000', 'text': "If you don't believe in rebirth in this life, you will in your next."}, {'start': '2772.000', 'end': '2777.000', 'text': 'But how can you know for sure?'}, {'start': '2777.000', 'end': '2781.000', 'text': 'For sure. What does for sure mean?'}, {'start': '2781.000', 'end': '2785.000', 'text': 'One of the powers of stillness,'}, {'start': '2785.000', 'end': '2790.000', 'text': 'I think you understand by now that stillness is my word for deep meditation,'}, {'start': '2790.000', 'end': '2797.000', 'text': "for samadhi, and that's a pretty accurate translation."}, {'start': '2797.000', 'end': '2802.000', 'text': 'One of the results of samadhi is in Buddhism,'}, {'start': '2802.000', 'end': '2808.000', 'text': 'is what we call five hindrances are subdued.'}, {'start': '2808.000', 'end': '2810.000', 'text': 'Five hindrances are just roughly,'}, {'start': '2810.000', 'end': '2814.000', 'text': "this is not accurate what I'm saying, the definitions,"}, {'start': '2814.000', 'end': '2823.000', 'text': 'is like wanting, negativity, restlessness, dullness, and doubt.'}, {'start': '2823.000', 'end': '2827.000', 'text': 'If you have any one of those, if you want something,'}, {'start': '2827.000', 'end': '2831.000', 'text': 'you usually see what you want to see,'}, {'start': '2831.000', 'end': '2838.000', 'text': 'and you just reject what is too troubling for you to see.'}, {'start': '2838.000', 'end': '2843.000', 'text': "Because I haven't given talks in Sydney for a while,"}, {'start': '2843.000', 'end': '2848.000', 'text': 'the simile of the flower pot.'}, {'start': '2848.000', 'end': '2851.000', 'text': 'Remember that simile?'}, {'start': '2851.000', 'end': '2856.000', 'text': 'Not many, so simile of the flower pot goes like this.'}, {'start': '2856.000', 'end': '2859.000', 'text': 'This was one of my friends,'}, {'start': '2859.000', 'end': '2863.000', 'text': 'the first Buddhist I ever met became a lifelong friend.'}, {'start': '2863.000', 'end': '2868.000', 'text': 'He became, he was a Buddhist, he was a theoretical physicist as well,'}, {'start': '2868.000', 'end': '2871.000', 'text': 'he became a student of Stephen Hawkins,'}, {'start': '2871.000', 'end': '2874.000', 'text': 'I became a student of Ajahn Chah.'}, {'start': '2874.000', 'end': '2878.000', 'text': 'He always said I made the better choice.'}, {'start': '2878.000', 'end': '2881.000', 'text': 'But a student of Stephen Hawkins,'}, {'start': '2881.000', 'end': '2885.000', 'text': 'this was the big time, he was, his name is Bernard Karr,'}, {'start': '2885.000', 'end': '2888.000', 'text': "emeritus professor, because he's old now like me,"}, {'start': '2888.000', 'end': '2894.000', 'text': 'of theoretical physics at Queen Mary College in London University.'}, {'start': '2894.000', 'end': '2896.000', 'text': 'A smart fellow.'}, {'start': '2896.000', 'end': '2898.000', 'text': 'One of the things which he did,'}, {'start': '2898.000', 'end': '2900.000', 'text': 'which one of his friends did,'}, {'start': '2900.000', 'end': '2906.000', 'text': 'in Imperial College in London, a top university.'}, {'start': '2906.000', 'end': '2911.000', 'text': "It's actually part of University of London but a top college."}, {'start': '2911.000', 'end': '2918.000', 'text': "He said he'd found the secret of levitation"}, {'start': '2918.000', 'end': '2921.000', 'text': 'and he was going to demonstrate it'}, {'start': '2921.000', 'end': '2926.000', 'text': 'in one of the lecture halls in Imperial College'}, {'start': '2926.000', 'end': '2929.000', 'text': 'in front of his peers,'}, {'start': '2929.000', 'end': '2933.000', 'text': 'other mostly physicists,'}, {'start': '2933.000', 'end': '2937.000', 'text': 'people who spent their life doing experiments,'}, {'start': '2937.000', 'end': '2941.000', 'text': 'who knew the experimental method better than anybody.'}, {'start': '2941.000', 'end': '2944.000', 'text': 'In front of them all he was going to show'}, {'start': '2944.000', 'end': '2949.000', 'text': 'what levitation is and how it works.'}, {'start': '2949.000', 'end': '2952.000', 'text': 'And he had all of the machines,'}, {'start': '2952.000', 'end': '2956.000', 'text': 'equipment of such a good university at his disposal.'}, {'start': '2956.000', 'end': '2961.000', 'text': 'Ultraviolet cameras, infrared cameras,'}, {'start': '2961.000', 'end': '2964.000', 'text': 'high speed cameras, whatever.'}, {'start': '2964.000', 'end': '2966.000', 'text': 'So if there was any funny business,'}, {'start': '2966.000', 'end': '2968.000', 'text': 'they should be able to see that so easily.'}, {'start': '2968.000', 'end': '2971.000', 'text': "And if it worked, they'd have proof"}, {'start': '2971.000', 'end': '2975.000', 'text': 'for generations to come.'}, {'start': '2975.000', 'end': '2980.000', 'text': 'So this physicist, he came into the hall'}, {'start': '2980.000', 'end': '2983.000', 'text': 'carrying a flower pot.'}, {'start': '2983.000', 'end': '2986.000', 'text': 'One of those flower pots, say.'}, {'start': '2986.000', 'end': '2990.000', 'text': 'No strings, put it on the lecture table.'}, {'start': '2990.000', 'end': '2994.000', 'text': 'And then he did something a bit strange.'}, {'start': '2994.000', 'end': '2999.000', 'text': 'He said, "In order to levitate this flower pot,'}, {'start': '2999.000', 'end': '3002.000', 'text': 'I need your cooperation."'}, {'start': '3002.000', 'end': '3005.000', 'text': "And these weren't students,"}, {'start': '3005.000', 'end': '3008.000', 'text': "they weren't Sri Lankan Buddhists"}, {'start': '3008.000', 'end': '3012.000', 'text': 'or Sydney Buddhists or any old Buddhists.'}, {'start': '3012.000', 'end': '3014.000', 'text': 'These were just scientists,'}, {'start': '3014.000', 'end': '3017.000', 'text': 'lecturers, professors.'}, {'start': '3017.000', 'end': '3020.000', 'text': 'He said, "What I need you to do'}, {'start': '3020.000', 'end': '3023.000', 'text': 'is to all of you start chanting'}, {'start': '3023.000', 'end': '3028.000', 'text': "the Hindu holy word, 'Om'."}, {'start': '3028.000', 'end': '3031.000', 'text': 'And all these old professors'}, {'start': '3031.000', 'end': '3033.000', 'text': 'and young professors too,'}, {'start': '3033.000', 'end': '3040.000', 'text': 'all started chanting, \'Om, Om, Om, Om\'."'}, {'start': '3040.000', 'end': '3043.000', 'text': 'I see the nuns in the front smiling.'}, {'start': '3043.000', 'end': '3047.000', 'text': "If I was there, I'd have laughed."}, {'start': '3047.000', 'end': '3050.000', 'text': 'But with all these old professors'}, {'start': '3050.000', 'end': '3053.000', 'text': "starting chanting 'Om',"}, {'start': '3053.000', 'end': '3056.000', 'text': 'the flower pot levitated.'}, {'start': '3056.000', 'end': '3059.000', 'text': 'It rose up in the air.'}, {'start': '3059.000', 'end': '3063.000', 'text': 'It lifted.'}, {'start': '3063.000', 'end': '3066.000', 'text': 'Sorry.'}, {'start': '3066.000', 'end': '3070.000', 'text': 'It was photographed, videoed.'}, {'start': '3070.000', 'end': '3073.000', 'text': 'It actually happened.'}, {'start': '3073.000', 'end': '3077.000', 'text': "Then afterwards, it's always great to have Q&A,"}, {'start': '3077.000', 'end': '3081.000', 'text': 'afterwards he asked, "Well, what do you think of that?"'}, {'start': '3081.000', 'end': '3083.000', 'text': 'And there was two professors,'}, {'start': '3083.000', 'end': '3086.000', 'text': 'well, physicists, experimenters.'}, {'start': '3086.000', 'end': '3091.000', 'text': 'They said it never rose in the air at all.'}, {'start': '3091.000', 'end': '3095.000', 'text': 'They said it was always on the table.'}, {'start': '3095.000', 'end': '3098.000', 'text': 'It never moved an inch.'}, {'start': '3098.000', 'end': '3100.000', 'text': 'Well, look, everyone else saw it.'}, {'start': '3100.000', 'end': '3103.000', 'text': "We got videos. No, that's just fake."}, {'start': '3103.000', 'end': '3106.000', 'text': 'It never moved.'}, {'start': '3106.000', 'end': '3108.000', 'text': "And that's when he said,"}, {'start': '3108.000', 'end': '3111.000', 'text': 'that was the whole purpose of the experiment.'}, {'start': '3111.000', 'end': '3114.000', 'text': 'It was nothing to do with levitation,'}, {'start': '3114.000', 'end': '3116.000', 'text': 'everything about perception.'}, {'start': '3116.000', 'end': '3118.000', 'text': 'It did actually rise.'}, {'start': '3118.000', 'end': '3120.000', 'text': 'And the reason it rose'}, {'start': '3120.000', 'end': '3122.000', 'text': 'was because underneath the table'}, {'start': '3122.000', 'end': '3125.000', 'text': 'there was a huge electromagnet.'}, {'start': '3125.000', 'end': '3127.000', 'text': 'And any of you would know,'}, {'start': '3128.000', 'end': '3130.000', 'text': "there's a lot of current necessary"}, {'start': '3130.000', 'end': '3132.000', 'text': 'to charge up that electromagnet'}, {'start': '3132.000', 'end': '3134.000', 'text': 'to lift a heavy flowerpot.'}, {'start': '3134.000', 'end': '3136.000', 'text': "That's a lot of current."}, {'start': '3136.000', 'end': '3138.000', 'text': 'When you turn on a lot of current,'}, {'start': '3138.000', 'end': '3140.000', 'text': 'very quickly you can hear the hum of it.'}, {'start': '3140.000', 'end': '3142.000', 'text': 'Mmmmmmm.'}, {'start': '3142.000', 'end': '3146.000', 'text': 'The om om om was a trick'}, {'start': '3146.000', 'end': '3148.000', 'text': 'to mark the sound of the current.'}, {'start': '3148.000', 'end': '3152.000', 'text': 'Otherwise it would have been busted straight away.'}, {'start': '3152.000', 'end': '3155.000', 'text': 'But nevertheless, the purpose of the experiment'}, {'start': '3155.000', 'end': '3157.000', 'text': 'was it lifted.'}, {'start': '3157.000', 'end': '3160.000', 'text': 'But because that was an impossibility,'}, {'start': '3160.000', 'end': '3162.000', 'text': "it couldn't happen."}, {'start': '3162.000', 'end': '3164.000', 'text': 'It would challenge your perceptions'}, {'start': '3164.000', 'end': '3166.000', 'text': 'to their very depth.'}, {'start': '3166.000', 'end': '3168.000', 'text': 'Because of that,'}, {'start': '3168.000', 'end': '3173.000', 'text': "they couldn't even perceive it."}, {'start': '3173.000', 'end': '3175.000', 'text': "That's the trouble"}, {'start': '3175.000', 'end': '3177.000', 'text': 'with what we think is true,'}, {'start': '3177.000', 'end': '3179.000', 'text': 'with our views.'}, {'start': '3179.000', 'end': '3182.000', 'text': "If it's too challenging for us,"}, {'start': '3182.000', 'end': '3186.000', 'text': "we won't even be able to see it."}, {'start': '3186.000', 'end': '3189.000', 'text': 'Even Albert Einstein,'}, {'start': '3189.000', 'end': '3193.000', 'text': 'he was famous for having this big argument'}, {'start': '3193.000', 'end': '3195.000', 'text': 'with Niels Bohr,'}, {'start': '3195.000', 'end': '3199.000', 'text': 'another Nobel laureate,'}, {'start': '3199.000', 'end': '3202.000', 'text': 'who was one of the founders of quantum theory.'}, {'start': '3202.000', 'end': '3205.000', 'text': 'He said, "No, it can\'t be true."'}, {'start': '3205.000', 'end': '3209.000', 'text': "Even Einstein couldn't accept that."}, {'start': '3209.000', 'end': '3211.000', 'text': 'One of these other fellows I knew,'}, {'start': '3211.000', 'end': '3213.000', 'text': 'over in Cambridge,'}, {'start': '3213.000', 'end': '3215.000', 'text': 'he got a Nobel Prize eventually,'}, {'start': '3215.000', 'end': '3219.000', 'text': 'for discovering quantum tunnelling.'}, {'start': '3219.000', 'end': '3222.000', 'text': 'He got his Nobel Prize,'}, {'start': '3222.000', 'end': '3224.000', 'text': 'and everybody else thought,'}, {'start': '3224.000', 'end': '3226.000', 'text': '"That\'s nonsense, that doesn\'t work.'}, {'start': '3226.000', 'end': '3228.000', 'text': 'You can\'t do that, it\'s impossible."'}, {'start': '3228.000', 'end': '3230.000', 'text': 'It took him about 6 or 7 years'}, {'start': '3230.000', 'end': '3233.000', 'text': 'to actually convince people to try it,'}, {'start': '3233.000', 'end': '3235.000', 'text': 'to test it out.'}, {'start': '3235.000', 'end': '3237.000', 'text': 'And it was correct.'}, {'start': '3237.000', 'end': '3239.000', 'text': 'He got a Nobel Prize for that.'}, {'start': '3239.000', 'end': '3241.000', 'text': 'One of the reasons why I like mentioning that story'}, {'start': '3241.000', 'end': '3243.000', 'text': 'is that particular guy,'}, {'start': '3243.000', 'end': '3245.000', 'text': 'he got his breakthrough,'}, {'start': '3245.000', 'end': '3249.000', 'text': 'understanding how quantum tunnelling works,'}, {'start': '3249.000', 'end': '3252.000', 'text': 'after meditating.'}, {'start': '3252.000', 'end': '3257.000', 'text': 'His meditation gave him the clarity of the mind.'}, {'start': '3257.000', 'end': '3259.000', 'text': "That's one of the reasons why"}, {'start': '3259.000', 'end': '3262.000', 'text': 'the power of stillness'}, {'start': '3262.000', 'end': '3266.000', 'text': 'allows you to subdue'}, {'start': '3266.000', 'end': '3270.000', 'text': 'his wanting, his ill-will,'}, {'start': '3270.000', 'end': '3273.000', 'text': 'the sloth and torpor of goodness.'}, {'start': '3273.000', 'end': '3276.000', 'text': 'Why are people so tired?'}, {'start': '3276.000', 'end': '3278.000', 'text': 'I mentioned I was tired this afternoon'}, {'start': '3278.000', 'end': '3280.000', 'text': 'when I crossed my legs,'}, {'start': '3280.000', 'end': '3282.000', 'text': 'I did cross my legs,'}, {'start': '3282.000', 'end': '3284.000', 'text': 'and started meditating.'}, {'start': '3284.000', 'end': '3286.000', 'text': 'But then you stay there.'}, {'start': '3286.000', 'end': '3288.000', 'text': 'I know that the energy builds and builds'}, {'start': '3288.000', 'end': '3290.000', 'text': 'and builds and builds,'}, {'start': '3290.000', 'end': '3292.000', 'text': "that's the power of stillness."}, {'start': '3292.000', 'end': '3295.000', 'text': 'And eventually, just your sleepiness,'}, {'start': '3295.000', 'end': '3298.000', 'text': 'dullness, vanishes.'}, {'start': '3298.000', 'end': '3301.000', 'text': 'And you get empowered.'}, {'start': '3301.000', 'end': '3305.000', 'text': 'But not empowered with the restlessness.'}, {'start': '3305.000', 'end': '3307.000', 'text': 'Have you ever been there,'}, {'start': '3307.000', 'end': '3308.000', 'text': "you can't just stay still,"}, {'start': '3308.000', 'end': '3309.000', 'text': 'just want some water,'}, {'start': '3309.000', 'end': '3310.000', 'text': "I don't want water,"}, {'start': '3310.000', 'end': '3312.000', 'text': "I don't know what I want."}, {'start': '3312.000', 'end': '3314.000', 'text': 'That restlessness is like energy'}, {'start': '3314.000', 'end': '3317.000', 'text': 'which is not focused.'}, {'start': '3317.000', 'end': '3320.000', 'text': "But when there's five hindrances are gone,"}, {'start': '3320.000', 'end': '3322.000', 'text': 'four hindrances have gone there,'}, {'start': '3322.000', 'end': '3325.000', 'text': "there's one hindrance that's yet to go,"}, {'start': '3325.000', 'end': '3328.000', 'text': 'the doubt.'}, {'start': '3328.000', 'end': '3331.000', 'text': 'And honestly that took me years'}, {'start': '3331.000', 'end': '3334.000', 'text': 'to understand what doubt was.'}, {'start': '3334.000', 'end': '3337.000', 'text': 'How do you understand that what you are experiencing'}, {'start': '3337.000', 'end': '3340.000', 'text': 'is actually true, the power of stillness,'}, {'start': '3340.000', 'end': '3346.000', 'text': 'to actually overcome the doubt?'}, {'start': '3346.000', 'end': '3349.000', 'text': 'I was just telling this story to the monks'}, {'start': '3349.000', 'end': '3353.000', 'text': 'last, in Serpentine on Wednesday,'}, {'start': '3353.000', 'end': '3357.000', 'text': 'they wanted me to talk about doubt.'}, {'start': '3357.000', 'end': '3361.000', 'text': 'Years ago, over in Bodhinyana Monastery,'}, {'start': '3361.000', 'end': '3365.000', 'text': "meditating, I didn't have too much responsibility there,"}, {'start': '3365.000', 'end': '3368.000', 'text': 'get some loving meditations,'}, {'start': '3368.000', 'end': '3371.000', 'text': 'and after one of the meditations,'}, {'start': '3371.000', 'end': '3374.000', 'text': 'I just decided to try something'}, {'start': '3374.000', 'end': '3376.000', 'text': "I'd never done before."}, {'start': '3376.000', 'end': '3378.000', 'text': 'What I tried was asking myself'}, {'start': '3378.000', 'end': '3380.000', 'text': 'a simple question,'}, {'start': '3380.000', 'end': '3386.000', 'text': 'what is my earliest memory?'}, {'start': '3386.000', 'end': '3389.000', 'text': 'Nice meditation, very clear mind,'}, {'start': '3389.000', 'end': '3392.000', 'text': 'lots of energy, but focused.'}, {'start': '3392.000', 'end': '3396.000', 'text': 'What is my earliest memory?'}, {'start': '3396.000', 'end': '3400.000', 'text': 'And what I came into my mind,'}, {'start': '3400.000', 'end': '3403.000', 'text': 'almost immediately after that question,'}, {'start': '3403.000', 'end': '3406.000', 'text': 'is that my mind was just so obedient.'}, {'start': '3406.000', 'end': '3408.000', 'text': "I don't know if you've ever had a dog"}, {'start': '3408.000', 'end': '3410.000', 'text': 'which has been well trained,'}, {'start': '3410.000', 'end': '3412.000', 'text': '"Go and fetch my slippers" and it goes over there'}, {'start': '3412.000', 'end': '3415.000', 'text': 'wagging its tail and brings the slippers back to you.'}, {'start': '3415.000', 'end': '3418.000', 'text': "That's what my mind was like."}, {'start': '3418.000', 'end': '3420.000', 'text': "What's my earliest memory?"}, {'start': '3420.000', 'end': '3423.000', 'text': 'The memory which came up'}, {'start': '3423.000', 'end': '3426.000', 'text': 'was me as a baby'}, {'start': '3426.000', 'end': '3428.000', 'text': "in my mother's pram."}, {'start': '3428.000', 'end': '3430.000', 'text': 'Remember that word pram?'}, {'start': '3430.000', 'end': '3432.000', 'text': 'The old fashioned, you put the baby in there'}, {'start': '3432.000', 'end': '3437.000', 'text': 'and you can wheel them all over the place.'}, {'start': '3437.000', 'end': '3439.000', 'text': 'The interesting thing,'}, {'start': '3439.000', 'end': '3442.000', 'text': "I don't forget this, I'm not making this up,"}, {'start': '3442.000', 'end': '3444.000', 'text': 'I was back in my pram,'}, {'start': '3444.000', 'end': '3447.000', 'text': 'maybe 3 or 4 weeks old kid,'}, {'start': '3447.000', 'end': '3450.000', 'text': 'being wheeled around somewhere,'}, {'start': '3450.000', 'end': '3453.000', 'text': 'but you can remember the colours of the'}, {'start': '3453.000', 'end': '3455.000', 'text': 'blanket or whatever,'}, {'start': '3455.000', 'end': '3457.000', 'text': 'it was only just black and white,'}, {'start': '3457.000', 'end': '3459.000', 'text': 'there was no colour at all.'}, {'start': '3459.000', 'end': '3461.000', 'text': 'It was just after the Second World War,'}, {'start': '3461.000', 'end': '3463.000', 'text': 'so everyone was quite poor.'}, {'start': '3463.000', 'end': '3467.000', 'text': 'I also remember my favourite toy,'}, {'start': '3467.000', 'end': '3470.000', 'text': 'I was a 3 or 4 week old kid,'}, {'start': '3470.000', 'end': '3474.000', 'text': 'which was a little light blue pig,'}, {'start': '3474.000', 'end': '3477.000', 'text': 'ceramic,'}, {'start': '3477.000', 'end': '3479.000', 'text': 'which had some beans in it or something,'}, {'start': '3479.000', 'end': '3482.000', 'text': 'my mother would shake it and make me laugh.'}, {'start': '3482.000', 'end': '3485.000', 'text': 'Clear memories of years and years and years ago'}, {'start': '3485.000', 'end': '3488.000', 'text': "when I didn't think that you could have"}, {'start': '3488.000', 'end': '3491.000', 'text': 'a developed memory.'}, {'start': '3491.000', 'end': '3493.000', 'text': 'The other thing which I recall from that experience,'}, {'start': '3493.000', 'end': '3495.000', 'text': 'which was weird,'}, {'start': '3495.000', 'end': '3499.000', 'text': 'was that I recognised my mother'}, {'start': '3499.000', 'end': '3503.000', 'text': 'and also my pram, my blanket, my pillow,'}, {'start': '3503.000', 'end': '3506.000', 'text': 'my little pig,'}, {'start': '3506.000', 'end': '3510.000', 'text': 'by how it smelt.'}, {'start': '3510.000', 'end': '3512.000', 'text': 'My nose was the dominant sense,'}, {'start': '3512.000', 'end': '3515.000', 'text': 'not what she looked like,'}, {'start': '3515.000', 'end': '3517.000', 'text': 'not what the pram looked like,'}, {'start': '3517.000', 'end': '3519.000', 'text': 'not what they sounded like,'}, {'start': '3519.000', 'end': '3522.000', 'text': 'or how they felt, but how they smelt.'}, {'start': '3522.000', 'end': '3525.000', 'text': 'And I was so strong,'}, {'start': '3525.000', 'end': '3529.000', 'text': 'and when I told some other doctors'}, {'start': '3529.000', 'end': '3531.000', 'text': 'about that,'}, {'start': '3531.000', 'end': '3534.000', 'text': "there's probably a few doctors here as well I hope,"}, {'start': '3534.000', 'end': '3537.000', 'text': 'you will understand that that is actually'}, {'start': '3537.000', 'end': '3541.000', 'text': 'how babies develop.'}, {'start': '3541.000', 'end': '3544.000', 'text': "It's the sense of smell that's dominant."}, {'start': '3544.000', 'end': '3547.000', 'text': 'And I know that as an experience,'}, {'start': '3547.000', 'end': '3552.000', 'text': 'not studying the sensory development'}, {'start': '3552.000', 'end': '3555.000', 'text': 'of the human brain.'}, {'start': '3555.000', 'end': '3557.000', 'text': 'And that was weird.'}, {'start': '3557.000', 'end': '3560.000', 'text': 'So that happened in the meditation,'}, {'start': '3560.000', 'end': '3562.000', 'text': 'through stillness.'}, {'start': '3562.000', 'end': '3564.000', 'text': 'But the weird part of that,'}, {'start': '3564.000', 'end': '3566.000', 'text': 'the most weird part of that,'}, {'start': '3566.000', 'end': '3570.000', 'text': 'I never needed to check it out.'}, {'start': '3570.000', 'end': '3573.000', 'text': 'Because you had the feeling,'}, {'start': '3573.000', 'end': '3577.000', 'text': 'the knowledge, this was real.'}, {'start': '3577.000', 'end': '3582.000', 'text': 'Basically there was no doubt at all.'}, {'start': '3582.000', 'end': '3583.000', 'text': 'And for years I wondered,'}, {'start': '3583.000', 'end': '3585.000', 'text': 'this is a weird experience,'}, {'start': '3585.000', 'end': '3587.000', 'text': "but that's how it felt."}, {'start': '3587.000', 'end': '3589.000', 'text': 'It was only years later when you,'}, {'start': '3589.000', 'end': '3590.000', 'text': 'stupid Ajahn Brahm,'}, {'start': '3590.000', 'end': '3592.000', 'text': 'you made the connection,'}, {'start': '3592.000', 'end': '3596.000', 'text': 'this is what it feels like when the doubt is extinguished.'}, {'start': '3596.000', 'end': '3599.000', 'text': 'Just as a result of the meditation.'}, {'start': '3599.000', 'end': '3601.000', 'text': 'Whatever you see,'}, {'start': '3601.000', 'end': '3603.000', 'text': 'whatever you feel,'}, {'start': '3603.000', 'end': '3605.000', 'text': 'whatever you know,'}, {'start': '3605.000', 'end': '3607.000', 'text': "it's true."}, {'start': '3607.000', 'end': '3610.000', 'text': 'As a result, this is how the Buddha taught.'}, {'start': '3610.000', 'end': '3614.000', 'text': 'This is the power of stillness.'}, {'start': '3614.000', 'end': '3619.000', 'text': 'I should actually just go and say a few words about this.'}, {'start': '3619.000', 'end': '3621.000', 'text': 'I call it stillness.'}, {'start': '3621.000', 'end': '3626.000', 'text': 'I know that many people call it concentration.'}, {'start': '3626.000', 'end': '3629.000', 'text': 'And I will argue to midnight and beyond,'}, {'start': '3629.000', 'end': '3631.000', 'text': 'not just today, the next day at all,'}, {'start': '3631.000', 'end': '3634.000', 'text': 'that that is a very bad translation,'}, {'start': '3634.000', 'end': '3636.000', 'text': 'bad in many ways.'}, {'start': '3636.000', 'end': '3638.000', 'text': 'Not accurate according to the Pali,'}, {'start': '3638.000', 'end': '3643.000', 'text': 'and also quite an obstacle to developing meditation.'}, {'start': '3643.000', 'end': '3645.000', 'text': "I don't know how many people are going to come"}, {'start': '3645.000', 'end': '3648.000', 'text': 'for the meditation day tomorrow.'}, {'start': '3648.000', 'end': '3651.000', 'text': 'Imagine if we call this developing concentration.'}, {'start': '3651.000', 'end': '3654.000', 'text': 'Then tomorrow will be a concentration camp.'}, {'start': '3654.000', 'end': '3657.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '3657.000', 'end': '3660.000', 'text': 'How many would come?'}, {'start': '3660.000', 'end': '3663.000', 'text': "I wouldn't."}, {'start': '3663.000', 'end': '3665.000', 'text': "It's stillness."}, {'start': '3665.000', 'end': '3668.000', 'text': 'I know many of you have seen this before,'}, {'start': '3668.000', 'end': '3670.000', 'text': 'but here it comes again.'}, {'start': '3670.000', 'end': '3673.000', 'text': 'What is meditation,'}, {'start': '3673.000', 'end': '3678.000', 'text': 'which gives rise to this beautiful absence of doubt?'}, {'start': '3678.000', 'end': '3681.000', 'text': 'What you see, what you hear, what you know,'}, {'start': '3681.000', 'end': '3686.000', 'text': "you're 100% sure of."}, {'start': '3686.000', 'end': '3690.000', 'text': 'The water represents my mind.'}, {'start': '3690.000', 'end': '3694.000', 'text': 'My job is not to concentrate my mind,'}, {'start': '3694.000', 'end': '3697.000', 'text': 'to bring it to stillness.'}, {'start': '3697.000', 'end': '3702.000', 'text': 'How do I get this water to be perfectly still?'}, {'start': '3702.000', 'end': '3705.000', 'text': 'Has it stopped moving yet?'}, {'start': '3705.000', 'end': '3708.000', 'text': "Of course not. I'm not mindful, am I?"}, {'start': '3708.000', 'end': '3711.000', 'text': 'I will now be mindful.'}, {'start': '3711.000', 'end': '3713.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '3713.000', 'end': '3715.000', 'text': "Please don't make me laugh."}, {'start': '3715.000', 'end': '3718.000', 'text': "I'll be mindful."}, {'start': '3718.000', 'end': '3721.000', 'text': 'Has it stopped moving yet?'}, {'start': '3721.000', 'end': '3727.000', 'text': "So now I'll concentrate."}, {'start': '3727.000', 'end': '3730.000', 'text': "I'm not making this up."}, {'start': '3730.000', 'end': '3733.000', 'text': 'I try to keep this water still,'}, {'start': '3733.000', 'end': '3736.000', 'text': 'mindful, concentrating.'}, {'start': '3736.000', 'end': '3739.000', 'text': "I've never been able to do it."}, {'start': '3739.000', 'end': '3743.000', 'text': 'You can try this for hours at home if you like.'}, {'start': '3743.000', 'end': '3746.000', 'text': 'You just get a tired arm,'}, {'start': '3746.000', 'end': '3749.000', 'text': "and you think you can't meditate."}, {'start': '3749.000', 'end': '3754.000', 'text': "It's such an obvious, easy way"}, {'start': '3754.000', 'end': '3758.000', 'text': 'to get this water to be perfectly still,'}, {'start': '3758.000', 'end': '3763.000', 'text': 'effortlessly still.'}, {'start': '3763.000', 'end': '3766.000', 'text': 'Put it down.'}, {'start': '3766.000', 'end': '3769.000', 'text': 'Let go.'}, {'start': '3769.000', 'end': '3772.000', 'text': 'Renounce. Stop attaching.'}, {'start': '3772.000', 'end': '3776.000', 'text': 'Leave it alone. Let it be.'}, {'start': '3776.000', 'end': '3779.000', 'text': 'Renounce.'}, {'start': '3779.000', 'end': '3784.000', 'text': 'Wow, that water is amazingly still now.'}, {'start': '3784.000', 'end': '3787.000', 'text': 'Easy.'}, {'start': '3787.000', 'end': '3791.000', 'text': 'I can keep it like that for a long time.'}, {'start': '3791.000', 'end': '3796.000', 'text': "That's how to meditate."}, {'start': '3796.000', 'end': '3799.000', 'text': 'If you watch your mind,'}, {'start': '3799.000', 'end': '3803.000', 'text': 'be aware of it and be careful not to interfere with it.'}, {'start': '3803.000', 'end': '3806.000', 'text': 'Leave it alone.'}, {'start': '3806.000', 'end': '3809.000', 'text': 'Be kind. Be aware.'}, {'start': '3809.000', 'end': '3812.000', 'text': 'That kindfulness will eventually bring your mind'}, {'start': '3812.000', 'end': '3815.000', 'text': 'to a state of stillness.'}, {'start': '3815.000', 'end': '3818.000', 'text': 'How Ajahn Chah would describe it,'}, {'start': '3818.000', 'end': '3823.000', 'text': 'he said it was like the leaves in the bushes,'}, {'start': '3823.000', 'end': '3826.000', 'text': 'leaves on the trees,'}, {'start': '3826.000', 'end': '3832.000', 'text': 'will only move because the wind blows.'}, {'start': '3832.000', 'end': '3835.000', 'text': 'If the wind stopped blowing,'}, {'start': '3835.000', 'end': '3838.000', 'text': 'the leaves would still move,'}, {'start': '3838.000', 'end': '3841.000', 'text': 'but less and less and less,'}, {'start': '3841.000', 'end': '3846.000', 'text': 'until all of their momentum will be used up through friction.'}, {'start': '3846.000', 'end': '3849.000', 'text': 'Then they become perfectly still.'}, {'start': '3849.000', 'end': '3854.000', 'text': "Why? Because that's their default state."}, {'start': '3854.000', 'end': '3857.000', 'text': "It's their natural way of existing."}, {'start': '3857.000', 'end': '3860.000', 'text': 'They become perfectly still.'}, {'start': '3860.000', 'end': '3866.000', 'text': 'When it gets still, the power of stillness is immense.'}, {'start': '3866.000', 'end': '3869.000', 'text': 'Not only does it energize you,'}, {'start': '3869.000', 'end': '3875.000', 'text': 'but you also find some other weird experiences happen.'}, {'start': '3875.000', 'end': '3879.000', 'text': 'Again, I was always adventurous as a young man.'}, {'start': '3879.000', 'end': '3882.000', 'text': 'I remember as a student,'}, {'start': '3882.000', 'end': '3887.000', 'text': 'I went to a Zen monastery to do a weekend retreat.'}, {'start': '3887.000', 'end': '3891.000', 'text': 'The only reason I went there, I must admit,'}, {'start': '3891.000', 'end': '3894.000', 'text': 'was because there was hardly any other places to go'}, {'start': '3894.000', 'end': '3897.000', 'text': 'and do a meditation retreat in those days.'}, {'start': '3897.000', 'end': '3901.000', 'text': 'I was in the north of England in a meditation retreat,'}, {'start': '3901.000', 'end': '3904.000', 'text': 'in Throssel Hole it was called.'}, {'start': '3904.000', 'end': '3908.000', 'text': 'I had no experience of Zen meditation.'}, {'start': '3908.000', 'end': '3913.000', 'text': 'What I was told was to sit down, eyes open,'}, {'start': '3913.000', 'end': '3919.000', 'text': 'and stare at a wall, a whitewashed wall.'}, {'start': '3919.000', 'end': '3922.000', 'text': 'I was quite obedient,'}, {'start': '3922.000', 'end': '3926.000', 'text': 'mostly just because I was interested to try something out,'}, {'start': '3926.000', 'end': '3929.000', 'text': 'to experience, to explore.'}, {'start': '3929.000', 'end': '3931.000', 'text': 'So I did what they told me to do,'}, {'start': '3931.000', 'end': '3935.000', 'text': 'my eyes wide open, sitting there for 45 minutes,'}, {'start': '3935.000', 'end': '3938.000', 'text': 'staring at a whitewashed wall.'}, {'start': '3938.000', 'end': '3943.000', 'text': 'I must say, I had been meditating in the Samatha tradition'}, {'start': '3943.000', 'end': '3945.000', 'text': 'for a couple of years,'}, {'start': '3945.000', 'end': '3951.000', 'text': 'so at least I knew how to focus my mind and keep it still,'}, {'start': '3951.000', 'end': '3955.000', 'text': 'without thoughts. That was important.'}, {'start': '3955.000', 'end': '3959.000', 'text': 'So I was sitting there, just watching a whitewashed wall,'}, {'start': '3959.000', 'end': '3962.000', 'text': 'soon became quite still,'}, {'start': '3962.000', 'end': '3967.000', 'text': 'and then the wall vanished.'}, {'start': '3967.000', 'end': '3970.000', 'text': 'Weird experience.'}, {'start': '3970.000', 'end': '3972.000', 'text': "It's like you're seeing me,"}, {'start': '3972.000', 'end': '3975.000', 'text': "and then suddenly, poof, I'm gone."}, {'start': '3975.000', 'end': '3978.000', 'text': 'Just not there anymore.'}, {'start': '3978.000', 'end': '3980.000', 'text': "That's weird."}, {'start': '3980.000', 'end': '3983.000', 'text': 'I never thought this was something supernatural,'}, {'start': '3983.000', 'end': '3985.000', 'text': 'but it was close enough.'}, {'start': '3985.000', 'end': '3988.000', 'text': 'An old wall of a barn was suddenly there,'}, {'start': '3988.000', 'end': '3991.000', 'text': 'and then suddenly gone, the next moment.'}, {'start': '3991.000', 'end': '3994.000', 'text': 'No wall there at all.'}, {'start': '3994.000', 'end': '3998.000', 'text': "I wasn't taking drugs, I wasn't crazy,"}, {'start': '3998.000', 'end': '4001.000', 'text': 'I was a theoretical physicist.'}, {'start': '4001.000', 'end': '4006.000', 'text': 'So what I did was try and explore it.'}, {'start': '4006.000', 'end': '4008.000', 'text': 'Why?'}, {'start': '4008.000', 'end': '4012.000', 'text': 'It soon became very, very obvious to me.'}, {'start': '4012.000', 'end': '4015.000', 'text': 'For those of you who want to prove this to yourself,'}, {'start': '4015.000', 'end': '4020.000', 'text': 'just for maybe one minute, close your eyes.'}, {'start': '4020.000', 'end': '4024.000', 'text': 'What do you see?'}, {'start': '4024.000', 'end': '4029.000', 'text': 'When I first close my eyes, I see the inside of my eyelids.'}, {'start': '4029.000', 'end': '4032.000', 'text': "Because that doesn't really excite my brain,"}, {'start': '4032.000', 'end': '4037.000', 'text': "after a few seconds, I don't see anything at all."}, {'start': '4037.000', 'end': '4040.000', 'text': 'The sense of sight becomes turned off.'}, {'start': '4040.000', 'end': '4043.000', 'text': 'You can open your eyes again if you wish.'}, {'start': '4043.000', 'end': '4046.000', 'text': "That's all what was happening."}, {'start': '4046.000', 'end': '4051.000', 'text': 'It was a whitewashed wall, simple, not interesting.'}, {'start': '4051.000', 'end': '4053.000', 'text': 'It was like your computer.'}, {'start': '4053.000', 'end': '4056.000', 'text': "You don't click a mouse or do anything,"}, {'start': '4056.000', 'end': '4060.000', 'text': 'the screen saver turns the screen off.'}, {'start': '4060.000', 'end': '4063.000', 'text': "That's how your brain works."}, {'start': '4063.000', 'end': '4070.000', 'text': 'Through stillness, things vanish.'}, {'start': '4070.000', 'end': '4073.000', 'text': 'You know when I started explaining this,'}, {'start': '4073.000', 'end': '4076.000', 'text': 'when I was teaching in Singapore a few years ago,'}, {'start': '4076.000', 'end': '4079.000', 'text': 'I had enough of a reputation.'}, {'start': '4079.000', 'end': '4085.000', 'text': 'We did a half an hour lunchtime for executives.'}, {'start': '4085.000', 'end': '4089.000', 'text': 'I told them to sit down, a few instructions, but enough.'}, {'start': '4089.000', 'end': '4093.000', 'text': 'Close your eyes and start being still,'}, {'start': '4093.000', 'end': '4095.000', 'text': 'mindfulness and kindness.'}, {'start': '4095.000', 'end': '4102.000', 'text': 'After a while, parts of their body started to vanish.'}, {'start': '4102.000', 'end': '4107.000', 'text': 'Because these were executives, they were mindful,'}, {'start': '4107.000', 'end': '4110.000', 'text': 'they had energy, they had enough confidence'}, {'start': '4110.000', 'end': '4112.000', 'text': 'to follow what I was saying.'}, {'start': '4112.000', 'end': '4114.000', 'text': 'They started complaining afterwards,'}, {'start': '4114.000', 'end': '4116.000', 'text': 'Ajahn Brahm, I was sitting down there,'}, {'start': '4116.000', 'end': '4118.000', 'text': 'my hands vanished.'}, {'start': '4118.000', 'end': '4121.000', 'text': "They couldn't feel them."}, {'start': '4121.000', 'end': '4125.000', 'text': "Wonderful, what's wrong with that?"}, {'start': '4125.000', 'end': '4127.000', 'text': 'But it scared them.'}, {'start': '4127.000', 'end': '4130.000', 'text': 'They never experienced that before.'}, {'start': '4130.000', 'end': '4134.000', 'text': 'Through stillness, parts of your body vanish.'}, {'start': '4134.000', 'end': '4138.000', 'text': 'What a beautiful thing that is.'}, {'start': '4138.000', 'end': '4144.000', 'text': 'Okay, now another really nice deep story.'}, {'start': '4144.000', 'end': '4147.000', 'text': "I'm usually, actually not usually,"}, {'start': '4147.000', 'end': '4150.000', 'text': 'but basically all the time, exceptionally healthy.'}, {'start': '4150.000', 'end': '4152.000', 'text': "I don't know why, but honestly,"}, {'start': '4152.000', 'end': '4155.000', 'text': 'when you see someone like an Ajahn Brahmali,'}, {'start': '4155.000', 'end': '4158.000', 'text': 'ask him, "Ajahn Brahm, how\'s his health?"'}, {'start': '4158.000', 'end': '4163.000', 'text': 'Other people get sick, I tend not to.'}, {'start': '4163.000', 'end': '4167.000', 'text': "I never had COVID, I haven't had anything for years."}, {'start': '4167.000', 'end': '4169.000', 'text': 'The last time I went to a hospital,'}, {'start': '4169.000', 'end': '4179.000', 'text': 'you know, to get a check-up, was 32 years ago.'}, {'start': '4179.000', 'end': '4183.000', 'text': "I won't say how I remember that,"}, {'start': '4183.000', 'end': '4188.000', 'text': "but nevertheless, I'm pretty healthy."}, {'start': '4188.000', 'end': '4191.000', 'text': 'How come?'}, {'start': '4191.000', 'end': '4196.000', 'text': 'The first year as a monk, I did get sick.'}, {'start': '4196.000', 'end': '4198.000', 'text': "I didn't know what it was."}, {'start': '4198.000', 'end': '4200.000', 'text': 'A lot of the monks in this monastery'}, {'start': '4200.000', 'end': '4202.000', 'text': 'in the northeast of Thailand were getting'}, {'start': '4202.000', 'end': '4204.000', 'text': 'a similar sickness.'}, {'start': '4204.000', 'end': '4207.000', 'text': 'The local doctors thought it was typhoid.'}, {'start': '4207.000', 'end': '4210.000', 'text': 'Actually, scrub typhus.'}, {'start': '4210.000', 'end': '4214.000', 'text': 'Similar symptoms, so very heavy fever,'}, {'start': '4214.000', 'end': '4216.000', 'text': 'but it was the scrub typhus,'}, {'start': '4216.000', 'end': '4221.000', 'text': 'was caused by these little mites in the forest floor.'}, {'start': '4221.000', 'end': '4225.000', 'text': 'The difficulty was the locals in that area'}, {'start': '4225.000', 'end': '4228.000', 'text': 'had grown a natural immunity to that disease'}, {'start': '4228.000', 'end': '4231.000', 'text': 'over many generations.'}, {'start': '4231.000', 'end': '4233.000', 'text': 'When the westerners came in,'}, {'start': '4233.000', 'end': '4236.000', 'text': 'we got it pretty quickly.'}, {'start': '4236.000', 'end': '4238.000', 'text': 'Meditating on the floor,'}, {'start': '4238.000', 'end': '4240.000', 'text': 'sometimes sleeping out in the forest.'}, {'start': '4240.000', 'end': '4244.000', 'text': 'So when I got scrub typhus, very heavy fevers,'}, {'start': '4244.000', 'end': '4249.000', 'text': 'put into the hospital in Ubon Ratchathani Hospital.'}, {'start': '4249.000', 'end': '4255.000', 'text': 'This was in 1974 or 5 or something.'}, {'start': '4255.000', 'end': '4257.000', 'text': 'So a long time ago.'}, {'start': '4257.000', 'end': '4260.000', 'text': 'That time Thailand was a third world country'}, {'start': '4260.000', 'end': '4264.000', 'text': 'and the northeast of Thailand was the backwaters'}, {'start': '4264.000', 'end': '4266.000', 'text': 'of the third world country.'}, {'start': '4266.000', 'end': '4270.000', 'text': "So there wasn't really that good medical treatment there."}, {'start': '4270.000', 'end': '4273.000', 'text': 'In fact, I remember just,'}, {'start': '4273.000', 'end': '4277.000', 'text': 'this was almost traumatized into my memory,'}, {'start': '4277.000', 'end': '4279.000', 'text': 'that just when I first went there in a ward'}, {'start': '4279.000', 'end': '4281.000', 'text': 'with maybe six monks on one side,'}, {'start': '4281.000', 'end': '4283.000', 'text': 'six monks on the other side,'}, {'start': '4283.000', 'end': '4285.000', 'text': 'the toilet at the very end,'}, {'start': '4285.000', 'end': '4287.000', 'text': 'and just at 6pm,'}, {'start': '4287.000', 'end': '4292.000', 'text': 'the nurse at the front station just disappeared.'}, {'start': '4292.000', 'end': '4294.000', 'text': 'So I asked one of the other monks,'}, {'start': '4294.000', 'end': '4296.000', 'text': '"Should we alert people?'}, {'start': '4296.000', 'end': '4297.000', 'text': "There's no nurse at night,"}, {'start': '4297.000', 'end': '4300.000', 'text': 'the night nurse hasn\'t turned up."'}, {'start': '4300.000', 'end': '4303.000', 'text': 'And he said, "What do you mean night nurse?'}, {'start': '4303.000', 'end': '4308.000', 'text': 'There never is a night nurse in this hospital.'}, {'start': '4308.000', 'end': '4310.000', 'text': 'If you get sick at night,'}, {'start': '4310.000', 'end': '4316.000', 'text': 'it\'s just unfortunate karma, that\'s all."'}, {'start': '4316.000', 'end': '4320.000', 'text': "That's true, I'm not making that up."}, {'start': '4320.000', 'end': '4323.000', 'text': 'And the treatment there,'}, {'start': '4323.000', 'end': '4326.000', 'text': 'which is a cocktail of antibiotics,'}, {'start': '4326.000', 'end': '4328.000', 'text': 'hoping that one would work,'}, {'start': '4328.000', 'end': '4331.000', 'text': 'twice a day.'}, {'start': '4331.000', 'end': '4333.000', 'text': 'You know that we always,'}, {'start': '4333.000', 'end': '4334.000', 'text': 'even in those days,'}, {'start': '4334.000', 'end': '4336.000', 'text': "we're supposed to have lots of loving kindness"}, {'start': '4336.000', 'end': '4339.000', 'text': 'to all these people who try to heal you.'}, {'start': '4339.000', 'end': '4341.000', 'text': 'But the nurse,'}, {'start': '4341.000', 'end': '4344.000', 'text': 'the nurse who injects these antibiotics,'}, {'start': '4344.000', 'end': '4348.000', 'text': 'this was almost 50 years ago.'}, {'start': '4348.000', 'end': '4352.000', 'text': "They didn't have recycled needles in those days,"}, {'start': '4352.000', 'end': '4355.000', 'text': 'just one-use needles in those days.'}, {'start': '4355.000', 'end': '4358.000', 'text': 'All the needles were recycled.'}, {'start': '4358.000', 'end': '4361.000', 'text': 'You know, they boiled them up to try and'}, {'start': '4361.000', 'end': '4363.000', 'text': 'take all the bugs off them,'}, {'start': '4363.000', 'end': '4365.000', 'text': "before they'd inject you."}, {'start': '4365.000', 'end': '4368.000', 'text': "And they've been used many, many times."}, {'start': '4368.000', 'end': '4369.000', 'text': 'Especially for monks,'}, {'start': '4369.000', 'end': '4371.000', 'text': "we're supposed to be the tough guys."}, {'start': '4371.000', 'end': '4375.000', 'text': 'So I think they used them extra on the monks.'}, {'start': '4375.000', 'end': '4377.000', 'text': 'And this nurse,'}, {'start': '4377.000', 'end': '4379.000', 'text': 'are there any Thai people here?'}, {'start': '4379.000', 'end': '4381.000', 'text': 'From Thailand?'}, {'start': '4381.000', 'end': '4383.000', 'text': "Okay, I don't think you'd mind that much,"}, {'start': '4383.000', 'end': '4384.000', 'text': 'but this Thai lady,'}, {'start': '4384.000', 'end': '4386.000', 'text': "you know, she wasn't beautiful at all."}, {'start': '4386.000', 'end': '4388.000', 'text': 'She was like a water buffalo.'}, {'start': '4388.000', 'end': '4391.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '4391.000', 'end': '4393.000', 'text': 'You know, you always think that'}, {'start': '4393.000', 'end': '4396.000', 'text': 'Thai nurses are petite and pretty.'}, {'start': '4396.000', 'end': '4398.000', 'text': 'Not this one.'}, {'start': '4398.000', 'end': '4401.000', 'text': 'She had to be strong.'}, {'start': '4401.000', 'end': '4402.000', 'text': 'The reason was,'}, {'start': '4402.000', 'end': '4404.000', 'text': 'she never injects you.'}, {'start': '4404.000', 'end': '4407.000', 'text': 'Turn on your front, bang!'}, {'start': '4407.000', 'end': '4410.000', 'text': 'Stabbed me.'}, {'start': '4410.000', 'end': '4412.000', 'text': 'Twice a day.'}, {'start': '4412.000', 'end': '4413.000', 'text': 'And after a week of that,'}, {'start': '4413.000', 'end': '4414.000', 'text': 'I think it was about 3 or 4 weeks'}, {'start': '4414.000', 'end': '4416.000', 'text': 'I was there getting stabbed,'}, {'start': '4416.000', 'end': '4421.000', 'text': 'your butt was so sore.'}, {'start': '4421.000', 'end': '4424.000', 'text': 'You had no energy,'}, {'start': '4424.000', 'end': '4428.000', 'text': 'and everything was just really awful.'}, {'start': '4428.000', 'end': '4431.000', 'text': 'I was only 24, 5 or something.'}, {'start': '4431.000', 'end': '4435.000', 'text': "I've never felt so weak in my life."}, {'start': '4435.000', 'end': '4438.000', 'text': 'No energy.'}, {'start': '4438.000', 'end': '4443.000', 'text': 'One day, even Ajahn Chah came in to see me.'}, {'start': '4443.000', 'end': '4445.000', 'text': 'The great master, Ajahn Chah,'}, {'start': '4445.000', 'end': '4447.000', 'text': 'as soon as he comes in,'}, {'start': '4447.000', 'end': '4450.000', 'text': 'you say, "Oh, he\'s coming to see me?'}, {'start': '4450.000', 'end': '4452.000', 'text': 'Wow!"'}, {'start': '4452.000', 'end': '4455.000', 'text': 'He was so inspiring,'}, {'start': '4455.000', 'end': '4459.000', 'text': 'but his bedside manner was awful.'}, {'start': '4459.000', 'end': '4461.000', 'text': 'He just came in, looked at me and said,'}, {'start': '4461.000', 'end': '4464.000', 'text': '"Brahma Rangso, you\'re either going to get better'}, {'start': '4464.000', 'end': '4466.000', 'text': 'or you\'re going to die."'}, {'start': '4466.000', 'end': '4469.000', 'text': 'And then he left.'}, {'start': '4469.000', 'end': '4472.000', 'text': 'He actually said that.'}, {'start': '4472.000', 'end': '4473.000', 'text': 'The worst part about it,'}, {'start': '4473.000', 'end': '4475.000', 'text': "you can't argue with that, can you?"}, {'start': '4475.000', 'end': '4477.000', 'text': "That's absolute truth."}, {'start': '4477.000', 'end': '4478.000', 'text': "You're either going to get better or you're going to die."}, {'start': '4478.000', 'end': '4482.000', 'text': "That's not what I want to hear."}, {'start': '4482.000', 'end': '4486.000', 'text': 'But nevertheless, after that,'}, {'start': '4486.000', 'end': '4489.000', 'text': "sometimes I've found in my life,"}, {'start': '4489.000', 'end': '4492.000', 'text': 'that sometimes when your back is against the wall,'}, {'start': '4492.000', 'end': '4493.000', 'text': "there's nothing you can do,"}, {'start': '4493.000', 'end': '4495.000', 'text': "you can't stand it any longer,"}, {'start': '4495.000', 'end': '4500.000', 'text': 'sometimes you decide to meditate,'}, {'start': '4500.000', 'end': '4502.000', 'text': 'to go for stillness.'}, {'start': '4502.000', 'end': '4504.000', 'text': 'I did that.'}, {'start': '4504.000', 'end': '4507.000', 'text': 'Just about 3 weeks in hospital,'}, {'start': '4507.000', 'end': '4509.000', 'text': 'I cannot remember I was actually in a fever'}, {'start': '4509.000', 'end': '4511.000', 'text': 'when I did this or out of it,'}, {'start': '4511.000', 'end': '4515.000', 'text': 'but I felt just really terrible, no energy.'}, {'start': '4515.000', 'end': '4518.000', 'text': 'My posture at the time,'}, {'start': '4518.000', 'end': '4519.000', 'text': 'I always remember the posture,'}, {'start': '4519.000', 'end': '4523.000', 'text': "I've never seen any meditation posture like this"}, {'start': '4523.000', 'end': '4526.000', 'text': 'in any book ever.'}, {'start': '4526.000', 'end': '4528.000', 'text': 'One leg was this way, one leg was that way,'}, {'start': '4528.000', 'end': '4531.000', 'text': "now I'm over here, now I'm over there."}, {'start': '4531.000', 'end': '4533.000', 'text': "That's what my body wanted,"}, {'start': '4533.000', 'end': '4537.000', 'text': 'so I did it, got this amazing deep meditation,'}, {'start': '4537.000', 'end': '4539.000', 'text': 'which was gorgeous.'}, {'start': '4539.000', 'end': '4542.000', 'text': 'You can imagine just when you have a nice,'}, {'start': '4542.000', 'end': '4545.000', 'text': 'peaceful, or even just a peaceful meditation,'}, {'start': '4545.000', 'end': '4550.000', 'text': 'compared to having been under a fever for 3 weeks.'}, {'start': '4550.000', 'end': '4555.000', 'text': 'Imagine the contrast was immense.'}, {'start': '4555.000', 'end': '4558.000', 'text': 'And I just enjoyed that so much,'}, {'start': '4558.000', 'end': '4563.000', 'text': 'the power of stillness.'}, {'start': '4563.000', 'end': '4567.000', 'text': "And of course, that's when you start to recover."}, {'start': '4567.000', 'end': '4571.000', 'text': "And it's also, it doesn't matter how weak you are,"}, {'start': '4571.000', 'end': '4573.000', 'text': "even if you're really, really sick,"}, {'start': '4573.000', 'end': '4577.000', 'text': 'you can always do stillness.'}, {'start': '4577.000', 'end': '4581.000', 'text': 'And the results are impressive.'}, {'start': '4581.000', 'end': '4585.000', 'text': 'Sicknesses go.'}, {'start': '4585.000', 'end': '4587.000', 'text': "I've been experimenting and teaching this"}, {'start': '4587.000', 'end': '4591.000', 'text': 'to so many people for so many years,'}, {'start': '4591.000', 'end': '4595.000', 'text': "and it was just, I don't know if he's here this evening,"}, {'start': '4595.000', 'end': '4598.000', 'text': 'I doubt it, but many, many years ago,'}, {'start': '4598.000', 'end': '4600.000', 'text': 'I was teaching a meditation retreat'}, {'start': '4600.000', 'end': '4603.000', 'text': 'over in Wat Buddhadhamma.'}, {'start': '4603.000', 'end': '4607.000', 'text': 'You know that place over in 3 mile,'}, {'start': '4607.000', 'end': '4611.000', 'text': 'not 3 mile hollow, 30 mile hollow or something.'}, {'start': '4611.000', 'end': '4614.000', 'text': 'Weizmanns Ferry, yeah, up north there, yeah.'}, {'start': '4614.000', 'end': '4618.000', 'text': 'And anyway, teaching this meditation retreat there,'}, {'start': '4618.000', 'end': '4622.000', 'text': 'and the first day, in the question and answer time,'}, {'start': '4622.000', 'end': '4626.000', 'text': 'I had all these complaints.'}, {'start': '4626.000', 'end': '4628.000', 'text': 'All the same.'}, {'start': '4628.000', 'end': '4631.000', 'text': 'And people put them on pieces of paper.'}, {'start': '4631.000', 'end': '4639.000', 'text': 'Ajahn Brahm, can you please ask people to breathe quietly?'}, {'start': '4639.000', 'end': '4642.000', 'text': 'And then I actually explained,'}, {'start': '4642.000', 'end': '4644.000', 'text': 'the person who was making all the noise'}, {'start': '4644.000', 'end': '4650.000', 'text': 'when he was breathing, he had a sinus cancer.'}, {'start': '4650.000', 'end': '4654.000', 'text': 'This big tumour in the bridge of his nose.'}, {'start': '4654.000', 'end': '4656.000', 'text': 'He could not breathe through his nose,'}, {'start': '4656.000', 'end': '4658.000', 'text': 'through his mouth.'}, {'start': '4658.000', 'end': '4661.000', 'text': 'And when he told me the first day of the retreat,'}, {'start': '4661.000', 'end': '4664.000', 'text': "he said, look, I'm not even a Buddhist,"}, {'start': '4664.000', 'end': '4669.000', 'text': 'but just in case meditation can work,'}, {'start': '4669.000', 'end': '4672.000', 'text': "I've just come on your retreat,"}, {'start': '4672.000', 'end': '4675.000', 'text': 'the doctors have given up on me.'}, {'start': '4675.000', 'end': '4677.000', 'text': "They've tried all sorts of treatment,"}, {'start': '4677.000', 'end': '4682.000', 'text': 'but this tumour up his nose was stopping him breathing.'}, {'start': '4682.000', 'end': '4684.000', 'text': 'One thing I was really proud of,'}, {'start': '4684.000', 'end': '4687.000', 'text': 'all the people on that retreat,'}, {'start': '4687.000', 'end': '4689.000', 'text': 'as soon as I mentioned the reason he was'}, {'start': '4689.000', 'end': '4691.000', 'text': 'making such a noise breathing,'}, {'start': '4691.000', 'end': '4694.000', 'text': 'because he was dying of sinus cancer,'}, {'start': '4694.000', 'end': '4696.000', 'text': 'no one ever complained anymore.'}, {'start': '4696.000', 'end': '4698.000', 'text': 'They gave him so much kindness.'}, {'start': '4698.000', 'end': '4700.000', 'text': 'I was very proud and uplifted by the attitude'}, {'start': '4700.000', 'end': '4702.000', 'text': 'of people afterwards, once they found out'}, {'start': '4702.000', 'end': '4704.000', 'text': 'what was really going on.'}, {'start': '4704.000', 'end': '4708.000', 'text': 'But anyway, he carried on for nine days,'}, {'start': '4708.000', 'end': '4711.000', 'text': 'meditating.'}, {'start': '4711.000', 'end': '4714.000', 'text': 'Nothing happened.'}, {'start': '4714.000', 'end': '4717.000', 'text': 'And I was already packed up in the car,'}, {'start': '4717.000', 'end': '4721.000', 'text': 'waiting to go to the airport to go back to Perth.'}, {'start': '4721.000', 'end': '4724.000', 'text': 'When he came running after me,'}, {'start': '4724.000', 'end': '4727.000', 'text': 'I said, Baba, Baba, please wait for a few moments.'}, {'start': '4727.000', 'end': '4729.000', 'text': 'I think you know what the traffic is like,'}, {'start': '4729.000', 'end': '4732.000', 'text': 'getting over the ferry and getting to the airport.'}, {'start': '4732.000', 'end': '4736.000', 'text': "I was really concerned if I'd make it in time."}, {'start': '4736.000', 'end': '4738.000', 'text': "But I said, what's going on?"}, {'start': '4738.000', 'end': '4740.000', 'text': 'We waited a few moments.'}, {'start': '4740.000', 'end': '4745.000', 'text': 'He said in the very, very, very last meditation,'}, {'start': '4745.000', 'end': '4749.000', 'text': 'it always happens on the last meditation,'}, {'start': '4749.000', 'end': '4752.000', 'text': "I'll say more about that tomorrow,"}, {'start': '4752.000', 'end': '4756.000', 'text': 'but the last meditation he was sitting there quietly,'}, {'start': '4756.000', 'end': '4758.000', 'text': 'same old, same old,'}, {'start': '4758.000', 'end': '4761.000', 'text': 'then he heard a popping sound.'}, {'start': '4761.000', 'end': '4763.000', 'text': 'I always remember the way he said it,'}, {'start': '4763.000', 'end': '4765.000', 'text': 'something pop,'}, {'start': '4765.000', 'end': '4768.000', 'text': 'and he could breathe through his nose,'}, {'start': '4768.000', 'end': '4770.000', 'text': 'but only for one minute,'}, {'start': '4770.000', 'end': '4773.000', 'text': 'and then it closed up again.'}, {'start': '4773.000', 'end': '4774.000', 'text': "That's why I was so excited."}, {'start': '4774.000', 'end': '4777.000', 'text': "I need to tell you this, it's closed up again now,"}, {'start': '4777.000', 'end': '4781.000', 'text': 'but for one minute, it had opened up.'}, {'start': '4781.000', 'end': '4784.000', 'text': "And honestly, I thought he'd left it too late."}, {'start': '4784.000', 'end': '4786.000', 'text': 'He was going to die.'}, {'start': '4786.000', 'end': '4788.000', 'text': 'I wish him the best of luck.'}, {'start': '4788.000', 'end': '4791.000', 'text': "And he said he'll carry on, see what happens."}, {'start': '4791.000', 'end': '4795.000', 'text': 'It was six months later, roughly,'}, {'start': '4795.000', 'end': '4798.000', 'text': 'at another place here in Sydney,'}, {'start': '4798.000', 'end': '4801.000', 'text': 'this guy came up to me and said,'}, {'start': '4801.000', 'end': '4805.000', 'text': '"Do you remember me?"'}, {'start': '4805.000', 'end': '4810.000', 'text': "Please don't do that to me."}, {'start': '4810.000', 'end': '4813.000', 'text': "I don't want to upset you, but"}, {'start': '4813.000', 'end': '4817.000', 'text': 'sometimes you give big talks to so many thousands of people,'}, {'start': '4817.000', 'end': '4819.000', 'text': "of course I can't remember you."}, {'start': '4819.000', 'end': '4820.000', 'text': 'And I was honest with him, I said,'}, {'start': '4820.000', 'end': '4824.000', 'text': '"I don\'t know I remember you, who the hell are you?"'}, {'start': '4824.000', 'end': '4829.000', 'text': 'And that\'s when he said, "I was that guy."'}, {'start': '4829.000', 'end': '4832.000', 'text': 'I was a one of a shot.'}, {'start': '4832.000', 'end': '4836.000', 'text': 'He said, "I carried on meditating as you instructed us,'}, {'start': '4836.000', 'end': '4839.000', 'text': 'and the tumour popped many times.'}, {'start': '4839.000', 'end': '4844.000', 'text': 'It\'s now totally gone. Thank you."'}, {'start': '4844.000', 'end': '4846.000', 'text': "That's gorgeous."}, {'start': '4846.000', 'end': '4850.000', 'text': "That's like the power of stillness."}, {'start': '4850.000', 'end': '4853.000', 'text': "How it happens, it's happened so many times."}, {'start': '4853.000', 'end': '4856.000', 'text': "I've seen anyway in my life,"}, {'start': '4856.000', 'end': '4862.000', 'text': 'it would be wonderful if someone could actually do some proper research.'}, {'start': '4862.000', 'end': '4866.000', 'text': "This is saving people's lives."}, {'start': '4866.000', 'end': '4869.000', 'text': 'The power of stillness.'}, {'start': '4869.000', 'end': '4873.000', 'text': "Doesn't work for everybody, but just to save one or two lives."}, {'start': '4873.000', 'end': '4876.000', 'text': "Isn't that really amazing?"}, {'start': '4876.000', 'end': '4880.000', 'text': 'Passing exams without any stress.'}, {'start': '4880.000', 'end': '4884.000', 'text': 'I did mention, I did, because that guy Moshe Bernstein,'}, {'start': '4884.000', 'end': '4887.000', 'text': 'he invited me to his school.'}, {'start': '4887.000', 'end': '4895.000', 'text': 'It was a local Jewish school in Perth.'}, {'start': '4895.000', 'end': '4899.000', 'text': 'Only got one Jewish school, just for Jewish children, boys and girls.'}, {'start': '4899.000', 'end': '4903.000', 'text': 'He invited me to teach there, because'}, {'start': '4903.000', 'end': '4907.000', 'text': 'they were doing really, really badly in the year 12s.'}, {'start': '4907.000', 'end': '4911.000', 'text': 'He said, "Can you come and see what you can do?"'}, {'start': '4911.000', 'end': '4914.000', 'text': 'I like mentioning this story, because honestly,'}, {'start': '4914.000', 'end': '4917.000', 'text': 'I went there for the day, taught all the year 12s how to do exams,'}, {'start': '4917.000', 'end': '4920.000', 'text': 'by doing this meditation.'}, {'start': '4920.000', 'end': '4924.000', 'text': 'Then I got this wonderful letter from the principal,'}, {'start': '4924.000', 'end': '4928.000', 'text': 'afterwards. He said, "Thank you so much Ajahn Brahm.'}, {'start': '4928.000', 'end': '4931.000', 'text': 'This year we became the top school'}, {'start': '4931.000', 'end': '4935.000', 'text': 'in all the schools in Western Australia. It worked.'}, {'start': '4935.000', 'end': '4939.000', 'text': "What I can't figure out is why they never invited me again."}, {'start': '4939.000', 'end': '4943.000', 'text': 'Makes no sense. But anyway, it does actually work.'}, {'start': '4943.000', 'end': '4947.000', 'text': 'You just see these people getting'}, {'start': '4947.000', 'end': '4951.000', 'text': 'over their sinus cancers and other cancers,'}, {'start': '4951.000', 'end': '4956.000', 'text': "and other diseases. That's only like a small thing."}, {'start': '4956.000', 'end': '4960.000', 'text': 'But getting the wisdom and understanding,'}, {'start': '4960.000', 'end': '4964.000', 'text': 'the nature of things, going over doubt,'}, {'start': '4964.000', 'end': '4968.000', 'text': 'your past lives. It would be nice to know for sure,'}, {'start': '4968.000', 'end': '4973.000', 'text': 'do past lives exist, or do they not exist?'}, {'start': '4973.000', 'end': '4977.000', 'text': 'And you can do that.'}, {'start': '4977.000', 'end': '4981.000', 'text': "You don't have to do it intellectually, or just believe,"}, {'start': '4981.000', 'end': '4985.000', 'text': 'because you have confidence and faith in Ajahn Brahm,'}, {'start': '4985.000', 'end': '4989.000', 'text': 'or one of the great nuns sitting in front of me.'}, {'start': '4989.000', 'end': '4995.000', 'text': 'Do that for yourself, without doubt.'}, {'start': '4995.000', 'end': '4999.000', 'text': "Not because you're just easy to believe in stuff."}, {'start': '4999.000', 'end': '5001.000', 'text': 'This is something much, much different.'}, {'start': '5001.000', 'end': '5005.000', 'text': 'That comes from the power of stillness.'}, {'start': '5005.000', 'end': '5008.000', 'text': 'Has many, many different aspects to it.'}, {'start': '5008.000', 'end': '5010.000', 'text': "But I've spoken enough."}, {'start': '5010.000', 'end': '5015.000', 'text': 'Now I want to open up the opportunity for Q&A,'}, {'start': '5015.000', 'end': '5018.000', 'text': 'questions and answers. So up to now,'}, {'start': '5018.000', 'end': '5020.000', 'text': 'thank you all for listening.'}, {'start': '5020.000', 'end': '5022.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn Brahm.'}, {'start': '5022.000', 'end': '5025.000', 'text': 'Okay, well, interesting times.'}, {'start': '5025.000', 'end': '5028.000', 'text': 'If anyone has any questions, please put up your hand,'}, {'start': '5028.000', 'end': '5031.000', 'text': 'and we do have someone who will come over'}, {'start': '5031.000', 'end': '5035.000', 'text': 'with a roaming mic, if you have any questions.'}, {'start': '5035.000', 'end': '5038.000', 'text': 'And for those who are online, you are welcome to put'}, {'start': '5038.000', 'end': '5043.000', 'text': 'any questions that you have into the chat.'}, {'start': '5043.000', 'end': '5047.000', 'text': "Anyone who needs to go to the 'letting go' room."}, {'start': '5047.000', 'end': '5052.000', 'text': "You've been sitting down here so well behaved. Thank you."}, {'start': '5052.000', 'end': '5055.000', 'text': 'Okay, so we do have a question online.'}, {'start': '5055.000', 'end': '5058.000', 'text': 'This is the question.'}, {'start': '5058.000', 'end': '5062.000', 'text': 'How to follow the third precept of sexual misconduct?'}, {'start': '5062.000', 'end': '5065.000', 'text': 'Is it only for married people who can have sex?'}, {'start': '5065.000', 'end': '5069.000', 'text': 'What about in or outside of a committed relationship?'}, {'start': '5069.000', 'end': '5074.000', 'text': 'How does Buddhism view consensual polyamorous relationship?'}, {'start': '5074.000', 'end': '5078.000', 'text': 'Do they who are in polyamorous relationships break the third precept?'}, {'start': '5078.000', 'end': '5082.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn Brahm for the enlightenment.'}, {'start': '5082.000', 'end': '5085.000', 'text': 'Ajahn Brahm - You know the third precept is a fascinating one'}, {'start': '5085.000', 'end': '5088.000', 'text': 'to actually to look into deeply.'}, {'start': '5088.000', 'end': '5091.000', 'text': 'One of the reasons why is that'}, {'start': '5091.000', 'end': '5098.000', 'text': 'that precept has different ways of practice'}, {'start': '5098.000', 'end': '5101.000', 'text': 'in different countries.'}, {'start': '5101.000', 'end': '5104.000', 'text': 'Things which are allowed to do in one country'}, {'start': '5104.000', 'end': '5106.000', 'text': 'not allowed in another.'}, {'start': '5106.000', 'end': '5110.000', 'text': "But nevertheless, what's underneath all of that?"}, {'start': '5110.000', 'end': '5114.000', 'text': 'How do we understand any precept?'}, {'start': '5114.000', 'end': '5117.000', 'text': 'For many people in Australia,'}, {'start': '5117.000', 'end': '5121.000', 'text': 'they always say, "Five precepts is too much."'}, {'start': '5121.000', 'end': '5125.000', 'text': 'So I tell them just to keep two precepts.'}, {'start': '5125.000', 'end': '5131.000', 'text': 'I say this because there are many funny stories about precepts.'}, {'start': '5131.000', 'end': '5135.000', 'text': 'When I was in Thailand, after being in Australia for a while,'}, {'start': '5135.000', 'end': '5138.000', 'text': 'I saw many people taking the precepts,'}, {'start': '5138.000', 'end': '5140.000', 'text': 'Parnati, Partha, whoever, how many,'}, {'start': '5140.000', 'end': '5142.000', 'text': 'they usually put their hand up,'}, {'start': '5142.000', 'end': '5144.000', 'text': "that's how you are supposed to take the precepts,"}, {'start': '5144.000', 'end': '5146.000', 'text': 'with your hand up.'}, {'start': '5146.000', 'end': '5149.000', 'text': 'I saw one person doing this.'}, {'start': '5149.000', 'end': '5152.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '5152.000', 'end': '5155.000', 'text': "I've never seen that before."}, {'start': '5155.000', 'end': '5158.000', 'text': 'So I asked them, "Why have you got one finger down?"'}, {'start': '5158.000', 'end': '5161.000', 'text': '"I\'m only keeping four precepts."'}, {'start': '5161.000', 'end': '5163.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '5163.000', 'end': '5167.000', 'text': 'And that made me interested, I started looking.'}, {'start': '5167.000', 'end': '5170.000', 'text': 'See a few people with two fingers.'}, {'start': '5170.000', 'end': '5173.000', 'text': 'No, keep it properly.'}, {'start': '5173.000', 'end': '5179.000', 'text': "Even also, that's for Thai Buddhists, Sri Lankan Buddhists,"}, {'start': '5179.000', 'end': '5183.000', 'text': 'I asked people, "How many precepts are you keeping today?"'}, {'start': '5183.000', 'end': '5185.000', 'text': 'It was like a waste that day.'}, {'start': '5185.000', 'end': '5189.000', 'text': 'They said, "We are keeping 13 precepts today."'}, {'start': '5189.000', 'end': '5194.000', 'text': 'How many of you have heard of the 13 precepts?'}, {'start': '5194.000', 'end': '5197.000', 'text': 'I hadn\'t heard of that before, so I said, "What is it?"'}, {'start': '5197.000', 'end': '5202.000', 'text': '"Well, we keep 8 precepts in the morning and 5 precepts in the afternoon."'}, {'start': '5202.000', 'end': '5205.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '5205.000', 'end': '5209.000', 'text': "Those of you who don't know, the most important of the 8th precept"}, {'start': '5209.000', 'end': '5212.000', 'text': 'is not eating anything in the afternoon.'}, {'start': '5212.000', 'end': '5215.000', 'text': 'So just keep that 8 precepts in the morning time.'}, {'start': '5215.000', 'end': '5219.000', 'text': 'You are not losing out at all.'}, {'start': '5219.000', 'end': '5221.000', 'text': "That's crazy."}, {'start': '5221.000', 'end': '5225.000', 'text': 'But no, to make it clearer, I asked people,'}, {'start': '5225.000', 'end': '5229.000', 'text': '"Just keep two precepts."'}, {'start': '5229.000', 'end': '5237.000', 'text': 'Not doing anything which harms another human, another being.'}, {'start': '5237.000', 'end': '5243.000', 'text': "And the second precept, don't do anything which harms yourself."}, {'start': '5243.000', 'end': '5249.000', 'text': 'From that you can derive every precept there ever was or will be.'}, {'start': '5249.000', 'end': '5253.000', 'text': "Don't be harmful to yourself or others."}, {'start': '5253.000', 'end': '5258.000', 'text': 'I taught that to a group of school kids who were visiting our centre in Perth.'}, {'start': '5258.000', 'end': '5261.000', 'text': 'About 40 years ago.'}, {'start': '5261.000', 'end': '5265.000', 'text': 'And I said, "These are the basic precepts. What does that actually mean?"'}, {'start': '5265.000', 'end': '5268.000', 'text': 'And they got all the 5 precepts within about 10 minutes.'}, {'start': '5268.000', 'end': '5273.000', 'text': 'They knew how drinking alcohol would hurt their relationship'}, {'start': '5273.000', 'end': '5278.000', 'text': 'and hurt people, they do stupid things, driving cars and getting into trouble.'}, {'start': '5278.000', 'end': '5285.000', 'text': 'They knew about if you have more than one person in a sensual relationship,'}, {'start': '5285.000', 'end': '5289.000', 'text': 'how that would cause so much confusion to them.'}, {'start': '5289.000', 'end': '5296.000', 'text': 'They knew just how things like lying, when their friends lied to them,'}, {'start': '5296.000', 'end': '5301.000', 'text': 'that was just devastating to these little kids, maybe 11 years of age.'}, {'start': '5301.000', 'end': '5306.000', 'text': 'All those precepts became so obvious to them.'}, {'start': '5306.000', 'end': '5309.000', 'text': "Why don't you start with two?"}, {'start': '5309.000', 'end': '5317.000', 'text': "Polyamorous relationship. Does that really work? I don't know."}, {'start': '5317.000', 'end': '5325.000', 'text': 'For me anyway as a student, having one girlfriend was all I could afford.'}, {'start': '5325.000', 'end': '5329.000', 'text': 'Honest. Even that was a bit much.'}, {'start': '5329.000', 'end': '5332.000', 'text': "Thank you Ajahn. We've got a lot of questions online,"}, {'start': '5332.000', 'end': '5335.000', 'text': 'but I want to give those who are here in person an opportunity.'}, {'start': '5335.000', 'end': '5340.000', 'text': 'I think I saw one go up over there.'}, {'start': '5340.000', 'end': '5345.000', 'text': "First come, first serve. There's a few also in the audience who will come to you shortly."}, {'start': '5345.000', 'end': '5353.000', 'text': 'Yeah, crikey, you can get very fit.'}, {'start': '5353.000', 'end': '5359.000', 'text': 'Hi Ajahn Brahm. Thank you for the talk. I really loved your book "Coronavirus".'}, {'start': '5359.000', 'end': '5360.000', 'text': 'Oh yeah.'}, {'start': '5360.000', 'end': '5363.000', 'text': "That's been a lot to me reading that."}, {'start': '5363.000', 'end': '5370.000', 'text': 'And I particularly loved the one about, the first chapter in it about the temple burning down'}, {'start': '5370.000', 'end': '5373.000', 'text': 'and your way to let go.'}, {'start': '5373.000', 'end': '5378.000', 'text': "I'm wondering about, I struggle with extreme emotions."}, {'start': '5378.000', 'end': '5383.000', 'text': "I'm wondering how to sit with those emotions."}, {'start': '5383.000', 'end': '5389.000', 'text': 'Because I try and meditate on them and I have a problem with eating a lot of sugary foods,'}, {'start': '5389.000', 'end': '5395.000', 'text': "which then doesn't help. And that is my way of coping with strong,"}, {'start': '5395.000', 'end': '5399.000', 'text': "I mean even positive emotions really. I just don't know how,"}, {'start': '5399.000', 'end': '5405.000', 'text': 'and I find it hard to meditate and sit on these really strong, any kind of emotion.'}, {'start': '5405.000', 'end': '5413.000', 'text': 'Good. So please first of all, know the emotions first of all.'}, {'start': '5413.000', 'end': '5416.000', 'text': 'Understand them, learn them.'}, {'start': '5416.000', 'end': '5421.000', 'text': "I know this is a sort of book which maybe you think a monk shouldn't read,"}, {'start': '5421.000', 'end': '5425.000', 'text': "but it's a Chinese art of war."}, {'start': '5425.000', 'end': '5432.000', 'text': 'Know your enemy, know yourself, thousand battles fought, thousand battles won.'}, {'start': '5432.000', 'end': '5437.000', 'text': 'But that we know, what are these emotions?'}, {'start': '5437.000', 'end': '5444.000', 'text': 'So to do that you have to be with them for a while and get to understand them.'}, {'start': '5444.000', 'end': '5448.000', 'text': "Otherwise they are enemies which you don't know."}, {'start': '5448.000', 'end': '5451.000', 'text': 'And of course you will always lose.'}, {'start': '5451.000', 'end': '5461.000', 'text': 'Of that, please make a separation between the positive emotions and the negative ones.'}, {'start': '5461.000', 'end': '5470.000', 'text': 'Positive emotions, have you ever seen Ajahn Brahm cry?'}, {'start': '5470.000', 'end': '5489.000', 'text': 'Did you see me cry? You have?'}, {'start': '5489.000', 'end': '5497.000', 'text': 'Okay, no, there are two places in this world which I always cry.'}, {'start': '5497.000', 'end': '5502.000', 'text': 'And one of those is the Vultures Peak up in India.'}, {'start': '5502.000', 'end': '5508.000', 'text': 'I think Venerable Nirodha, I think you were there with me a few times in India,'}, {'start': '5508.000', 'end': '5511.000', 'text': 'maybe a few of you can remember that.'}, {'start': '5511.000', 'end': '5517.000', 'text': 'But when I went up to the Vultures Peak, that was where the Buddha would meditate.'}, {'start': '5517.000', 'end': '5522.000', 'text': 'And you could just go into the same cave and just sit down.'}, {'start': '5522.000', 'end': '5525.000', 'text': "You didn't have to pay anything, there was hardly anybody there."}, {'start': '5525.000', 'end': '5530.000', 'text': 'And the energy, the vibes if you like, were just so strong there,'}, {'start': '5530.000', 'end': '5533.000', 'text': 'just tears came to my eyes.'}, {'start': '5533.000', 'end': '5540.000', 'text': 'The other place where I cry, I always wanted to see the beautiful,'}, {'start': '5540.000', 'end': '5545.000', 'text': "we haven't got one here, the beautiful Dhammacakka Buddha statue."}, {'start': '5545.000', 'end': '5551.000', 'text': 'It was found in Sarnath, outside of Benares, in the old deer park.'}, {'start': '5551.000', 'end': '5558.000', 'text': "I've seen that on photographs and I always thought it was one of the most beautiful Buddha statues in the world."}, {'start': '5558.000', 'end': '5564.000', 'text': 'And one day I went there and I tried to find it in the museum.'}, {'start': '5564.000', 'end': '5571.000', 'text': 'And there was no sort of guidance or anything, I just turned around one corner'}, {'start': '5571.000', 'end': '5574.000', 'text': 'and there it was, at the end of the passage.'}, {'start': '5574.000', 'end': '5583.000', 'text': "It was so beautiful. It wasn't crying out of any negative emotions,"}, {'start': '5583.000', 'end': '5587.000', 'text': 'it was something which the Buddha described as Pīti,'}, {'start': '5587.000', 'end': '5593.000', 'text': 'this great sense of joy and happiness which sometimes comes up in meditation.'}, {'start': '5593.000', 'end': '5595.000', 'text': 'Pure inspiration.'}, {'start': '5595.000', 'end': '5600.000', 'text': 'And the next time I took the disciples there who were following me and'}, {'start': '5600.000', 'end': '5605.000', 'text': 'people which I said, look, this is what happened to me the last time,'}, {'start': '5605.000', 'end': '5607.000', 'text': "but I'm restrained this time."}, {'start': '5607.000', 'end': '5613.000', 'text': "So we turned around the corner, I couldn't help myself."}, {'start': '5613.000', 'end': '5617.000', 'text': 'It was just joy seeing something beautiful.'}, {'start': '5617.000', 'end': '5621.000', 'text': "I don't know if there are any mathematicians here,"}, {'start': '5621.000', 'end': '5628.000', 'text': 'but you know sometimes, I confess this, getting into things like pure maths,'}, {'start': '5628.000', 'end': '5634.000', 'text': 'sometimes you see a proof of something and the proof was actually so beautiful,'}, {'start': '5634.000', 'end': '5640.000', 'text': 'so inspiring. Tears came to my eyes, real tears, out of joy.'}, {'start': '5640.000', 'end': '5643.000', 'text': "It's inspiring sometimes."}, {'start': '5643.000', 'end': '5652.000', 'text': 'Sometimes you see monks give beautiful talks and tears have come to your eyes.'}, {'start': '5652.000', 'end': '5658.000', 'text': 'The third time I went to see the Buddha statue outside of Benares,'}, {'start': '5658.000', 'end': '5663.000', 'text': 'this time I had my pocket full of tissues.'}, {'start': '5663.000', 'end': '5669.000', 'text': "And I told everybody, look, I can't help myself, it's just an automatic response."}, {'start': '5669.000', 'end': '5673.000', 'text': 'It was not negative, it was just beautiful, inspirational.'}, {'start': '5673.000', 'end': '5680.000', 'text': 'When we turned the corner, this is what happens when you have expectations.'}, {'start': '5680.000', 'end': '5684.000', 'text': 'They were doing some renovations.'}, {'start': '5684.000', 'end': '5689.000', 'text': 'They had the Buddha statue covered with a big tarpaulin.'}, {'start': '5689.000', 'end': '5696.000', 'text': 'I come all that way, all the way from Australia and then eventually to Benares in India'}, {'start': '5696.000', 'end': '5703.000', 'text': 'and Sanna in the museum, found my way there and it was all covered with a tarpaulin.'}, {'start': '5703.000', 'end': '5711.000', 'text': 'And I was ready to just feel so much joy, instead I felt all this disappointment.'}, {'start': '5711.000', 'end': '5717.000', 'text': "I can't speak any of the local language, Hindi or whatever it was,"}, {'start': '5717.000', 'end': '5723.000', 'text': 'but nevertheless I looked at the workmen, without saying anything between us,'}, {'start': '5723.000', 'end': '5731.000', 'text': 'he took the tarpaulin off. [laughter]'}, {'start': '5731.000', 'end': '5735.000', 'text': 'It was tears of joy and happiness.'}, {'start': '5735.000', 'end': '5740.000', 'text': "Those sorts of emotions, don't try and control them."}, {'start': '5740.000', 'end': '5750.000', 'text': 'They are beautiful and very, very positive and helpful, part of the path.'}, {'start': '5750.000', 'end': '5754.000', 'text': "The negative emotions, see if you can understand, don't try and get rid of them,"}, {'start': '5754.000', 'end': '5759.000', 'text': 'get to know them, understand them, why?'}, {'start': '5759.000', 'end': '5764.000', 'text': 'And if you really want, if they are causing you any problem at all,'}, {'start': '5764.000', 'end': '5772.000', 'text': "please follow the simile of the monster in the emperor's palace simile."}, {'start': '5772.000', 'end': '5774.000', 'text': 'You know that simile?'}, {'start': '5774.000', 'end': '5779.000', 'text': 'This is one of the famous ones, based on something the Buddha said,'}, {'start': '5779.000', 'end': '5782.000', 'text': 'and sort of amplified.'}, {'start': '5782.000', 'end': '5787.000', 'text': 'Once there was this nice young man,'}, {'start': '5787.000', 'end': '5790.000', 'text': 'he came to a talk in Paramattha one evening,'}, {'start': '5790.000', 'end': '5796.000', 'text': 'no one knew that he was a big, powerful emperor.'}, {'start': '5796.000', 'end': '5800.000', 'text': 'While he was here, listening to a talk,'}, {'start': '5800.000', 'end': '5806.000', 'text': 'in his palace, he found a big monster came in.'}, {'start': '5806.000', 'end': '5813.000', 'text': 'And this monster was so ugly, frightening, and smelly and violent,'}, {'start': '5813.000', 'end': '5818.000', 'text': 'that all the guards, they froze in terror,'}, {'start': '5818.000', 'end': '5822.000', 'text': 'allowing this monster to walk right into the palace,'}, {'start': '5822.000', 'end': '5829.000', 'text': "into the throne room, and sit on the emperor's chair."}, {'start': '5829.000', 'end': '5834.000', 'text': 'And at that, the security said, "That\'s going too far, get out of here."'}, {'start': '5834.000', 'end': '5841.000', 'text': 'And those few unkind words, unkind deeds, even unkind thoughts,'}, {'start': '5841.000', 'end': '5847.000', 'text': 'that monster just grew an inch bigger, more ugly, more smelly, more offensive.'}, {'start': '5847.000', 'end': '5853.000', 'text': 'And by the time the emperor came back, this monster was huge,'}, {'start': '5853.000', 'end': '5861.000', 'text': 'it was so ugly, not even Steven Spielberg could get something so ugly in Hollywood.'}, {'start': '5861.000', 'end': '5866.000', 'text': 'And the smell coming off this monster, the smell,'}, {'start': '5866.000', 'end': '5870.000', 'text': 'the smell coming off this monster was so bad,'}, {'start': '5870.000', 'end': '5877.000', 'text': 'even the maggots crawling on its skin threw up, they barfed.'}, {'start': '5877.000', 'end': '5881.000', 'text': 'But the reason why the guy was...'}, {'start': '5881.000', 'end': '5884.000', 'text': 'Have you ever seen maggots barf?'}, {'start': '5884.000', 'end': '5887.000', 'text': 'They could even...'}, {'start': '5887.000', 'end': '5894.000', 'text': 'Anyway, the reason why the guy was the emperor,'}, {'start': '5894.000', 'end': '5900.000', 'text': 'he was smart, he knew exactly what to do.'}, {'start': '5900.000', 'end': '5906.000', 'text': 'He said, "Welcome, thank you for coming to visit me.'}, {'start': '5906.000', 'end': '5910.000', 'text': 'Has anyone got you a glass of water or a drink to have some tea?'}, {'start': '5910.000', 'end': '5915.000', 'text': 'How about some coffee? We\'ve got some good coffee in Sydney."'}, {'start': '5915.000', 'end': '5922.000', 'text': 'And with those few sincere, kind words, the monster grew even two inch smaller,'}, {'start': '5922.000', 'end': '5927.000', 'text': 'less smelly, less offensive, less violent, less angry.'}, {'start': '5927.000', 'end': '5933.000', 'text': 'And at that, all the people working in the palace knew exactly their mistake,'}, {'start': '5933.000', 'end': '5936.000', 'text': 'they knew what to do.'}, {'start': '5936.000', 'end': '5939.000', 'text': 'They rang out, "Would you like something to eat, a pizza?"'}, {'start': '5939.000', 'end': '5943.000', 'text': 'Because they got monster pizzas in some of these...'}, {'start': '5943.000', 'end': '5948.000', 'text': 'Do you have monster pizza hut here in Sydney?'}, {'start': '5948.000', 'end': '5951.000', 'text': 'Anyway, they did have them in Perth.'}, {'start': '5951.000', 'end': '5957.000', 'text': '"Do you want a sandwich? Deviled ham, it\'s appropriate for a monster."'}, {'start': '5957.000', 'end': '5960.000', 'text': 'Some of them gave him a foot massage.'}, {'start': '5960.000', 'end': '5964.000', 'text': 'About ten of them, he had such big feet.'}, {'start': '5964.000', 'end': '5968.000', 'text': 'Some of them gave him... Do you have shoulder massages?'}, {'start': '5968.000', 'end': '5974.000', 'text': 'This monster had such a huge head, to actually give him a massage.'}, {'start': '5974.000', 'end': '5977.000', 'text': 'Oh, that was really nice.'}, {'start': '5977.000', 'end': '5982.000', 'text': 'In every act of kindness, the monster kept growing smaller,'}, {'start': '5982.000', 'end': '5986.000', 'text': 'less ugly, less smelly, less offensive.'}, {'start': '5986.000', 'end': '5992.000', 'text': 'Until soon that monster was so small, one more act of kindness,'}, {'start': '5992.000', 'end': '5996.000', 'text': 'and the monster vanished completely away.'}, {'start': '5996.000', 'end': '6001.000', 'text': "And that's in the Yakasamhuta, in the Samyutta Nikaya."}, {'start': '6001.000', 'end': '6006.000', 'text': 'The pizza and the foot massage, I added those.'}, {'start': '6006.000', 'end': '6014.000', 'text': 'But the Buddha actually called that an anger-eating demon.'}, {'start': '6014.000', 'end': '6018.000', 'text': 'You can actually find many anger-eating monsters in your life.'}, {'start': '6018.000', 'end': '6022.000', 'text': 'Sometimes those negative emotions, you give them anger,'}, {'start': '6022.000', 'end': '6025.000', 'text': '"Get out of here, I don\'t want you in here."'}, {'start': '6025.000', 'end': '6028.000', 'text': 'They become worse.'}, {'start': '6028.000', 'end': '6032.000', 'text': 'Welcome them, learn from them.'}, {'start': '6032.000', 'end': '6037.000', 'text': "Once you learn from them, that's when they vanish."}, {'start': '6037.000', 'end': '6041.000', 'text': 'Sorry for giving such a long answer to a short question.'}, {'start': '6041.000', 'end': '6043.000', 'text': "That's my nature."}, {'start': '6043.000', 'end': '6046.000', 'text': 'That was an excellent answer Ajahn, and an excellent question as well.'}, {'start': '6046.000', 'end': '6049.000', 'text': 'We have a lot of questions online.'}, {'start': '6049.000', 'end': '6051.000', 'text': "So I'll start with the first one."}, {'start': '6051.000', 'end': '6053.000', 'text': 'Question-Hi Ajahn Brahm, my apologies.'}, {'start': '6053.000', 'end': '6058.000', 'text': 'What was the point about talking about that person who won the Nobel Prize,'}, {'start': '6058.000', 'end': '6063.000', 'text': 'using stillness via meditation to get that energy or inspiration?'}, {'start': '6063.000', 'end': '6073.000', 'text': 'Ajahn-What he did, he got that inspiration to be able to see things in a totally different way.'}, {'start': '6073.000', 'end': '6078.000', 'text': "So many times in universities, I'm speaking of universities now,"}, {'start': '6078.000', 'end': '6081.000', 'text': 'we think in just narrow lines.'}, {'start': '6081.000', 'end': '6085.000', 'text': "We don't think outside of the box."}, {'start': '6085.000', 'end': '6088.000', 'text': "We're trained to think in a certain way."}, {'start': '6088.000', 'end': '6094.000', 'text': 'And sometimes when you meditate, all those old habits of thinking disappear,'}, {'start': '6094.000', 'end': '6099.000', 'text': 'and get what we call insight.'}, {'start': '6099.000', 'end': '6104.000', 'text': 'See things in different ways, not just in the same old way.'}, {'start': '6104.000', 'end': '6112.000', 'text': "Why is it when there's these great breakthroughs in knowledge and wisdom,"}, {'start': '6112.000', 'end': '6117.000', 'text': "why is it that most people just don't accept it?"}, {'start': '6117.000', 'end': '6120.000', 'text': 'They say, "No, it\'s wrong."'}, {'start': '6120.000', 'end': '6122.000', 'text': 'Why is that?'}, {'start': '6122.000', 'end': '6124.000', 'text': 'So this particular person,'}, {'start': '6124.000', 'end': '6128.000', 'text': 'they have been working on this for such a long time,'}, {'start': '6128.000', 'end': '6131.000', 'text': 'and then just meditating,'}, {'start': '6131.000', 'end': '6135.000', 'text': 'that stillness of the mind, the power of that stillness,'}, {'start': '6135.000', 'end': '6141.000', 'text': 'you can just see that a little bit extra, in a different way.'}, {'start': '6141.000', 'end': '6147.000', 'text': 'They used to say, I remember going over to Canada once,'}, {'start': '6147.000', 'end': '6150.000', 'text': 'and one of the disciples, a wonderful Sri Lankan lady,'}, {'start': '6150.000', 'end': '6153.000', 'text': 'who was doing some amazing research,'}, {'start': '6153.000', 'end': '6156.000', 'text': 'and so she was so well respected,'}, {'start': '6156.000', 'end': '6162.000', 'text': 'she told me to go and have a cup of tea with the Chancellor of Dalhousie University.'}, {'start': '6162.000', 'end': '6166.000', 'text': 'And so when I was there, he was a physicist as well,'}, {'start': '6166.000', 'end': '6172.000', 'text': 'and I said, "One of the problems with universities is that some of their mottos,'}, {'start': '6172.000', 'end': '6175.000', 'text': 'I just think, really should be changed.'}, {'start': '6175.000', 'end': '6177.000', 'text': "I don't know what the motto of this place is,"}, {'start': '6177.000', 'end': '6179.000', 'text': 'but I said, why not change it to,'}, {'start': '6179.000', 'end': '6184.000', 'text': "'Where everybody thinks the same, no one thinks at all.'"}, {'start': '6184.000', 'end': '6187.000', 'text': "That's the trouble with science."}, {'start': '6187.000', 'end': '6190.000', 'text': "That's the trouble with politics too."}, {'start': '6190.000', 'end': '6192.000', 'text': "That's the trouble with many of our endeavours."}, {'start': '6192.000', 'end': '6196.000', 'text': 'Medicine, too many people are thinking the same,'}, {'start': '6196.000', 'end': '6202.000', 'text': 'and no one is challenging, no one is seeing deeper.'}, {'start': '6202.000', 'end': '6206.000', 'text': "That's my answer."}, {'start': '6206.000', 'end': '6214.000', 'text': '(Ajahn answers the question)'}, {'start': '6214.000', 'end': '6218.000', 'text': 'Ajahn (answers the question)'}, {'start': '6218.000', 'end': '6222.000', 'text': 'Wonderful, okay. I was just asking Ajahn if he would like to stop,'}, {'start': '6222.000', 'end': '6224.000', 'text': 'or if he would like to continue on.'}, {'start': '6224.000', 'end': '6230.000', 'text': 'Ajahn (answers the question)'}, {'start': '6230.000', 'end': '6231.000', 'text': 'Thank you, Ajahn.'}, {'start': '6231.000', 'end': '6232.000', 'text': 'Ajahn (answers the question)'}, {'start': '6232.000', 'end': '6234.000', 'text': 'Yes, okay.'}, {'start': '6234.000', 'end': '6240.000', 'text': '(Ajahn answers the question)'}, {'start': '6240.000', 'end': '6244.000', 'text': "Thanks, Ajahn. I can't resist, because we're in a university."}, {'start': '6244.000', 'end': '6251.000', 'text': 'What would you say to people that believe that the mind is the brain?'}, {'start': '6251.000', 'end': '6255.000', 'text': 'Okay, Stephen Hawkins is one of those.'}, {'start': '6255.000', 'end': '6259.000', 'text': "I mentioned the other day, because this guy Bernard, he's a good friend,"}, {'start': '6259.000', 'end': '6263.000', 'text': 'he was a close collaborator of Stephen,'}, {'start': '6263.000', 'end': '6271.000', 'text': 'he could never convince Stephen Hawkins that the mind is totally different than the brain.'}, {'start': '6271.000', 'end': '6277.000', 'text': 'You do need a mind, even for quantum theory to do anything.'}, {'start': '6277.000', 'end': '6283.000', 'text': 'You do need something separate, who can observe phenomena, experience phenomena.'}, {'start': '6283.000', 'end': '6289.000', 'text': 'Even in science, I know that much, the mind is totally independent.'}, {'start': '6289.000', 'end': '6296.000', 'text': 'Even recently, years ago, in 1981, I remember this John Lorber,'}, {'start': '6296.000', 'end': '6304.000', 'text': 'L-O-R-B-E-R, who wrote this article about the boy with no brain.'}, {'start': '6304.000', 'end': '6307.000', 'text': "He didn't have a brain."}, {'start': '6307.000', 'end': '6313.000', 'text': 'And the reason it was found out, he was doing research on the shape of human skulls.'}, {'start': '6313.000', 'end': '6319.000', 'text': 'If there was any skull which was slightly malformed, slightly strange,'}, {'start': '6319.000', 'end': '6324.000', 'text': 'he wanted to find out if that had any influence on your intelligence,'}, {'start': '6324.000', 'end': '6328.000', 'text': 'or even your emotional intelligence.'}, {'start': '6328.000', 'end': '6333.000', 'text': 'And he invited all these students who had a slightly malformed skull,'}, {'start': '6333.000', 'end': '6339.000', 'text': 'so not brain, skull, and if they agreed, they would do a little research.'}, {'start': '6339.000', 'end': '6347.000', 'text': 'One of them was a CT scan, and this one boy, he was a graduate student in mathematics.'}, {'start': '6347.000', 'end': '6351.000', 'text': "He'd already got his first degree, he was doing his second degree."}, {'start': '6351.000', 'end': '6355.000', 'text': 'He had a girlfriend, he was just, you see him, he looked an average,'}, {'start': '6355.000', 'end': '6358.000', 'text': 'actually better than an average kid.'}, {'start': '6358.000', 'end': '6364.000', 'text': "But when they gave him a CT scan, they found he didn't have a brain."}, {'start': '6364.000', 'end': '6372.000', 'text': '99% of what would be a brain was the fluid, intercranial fluid,'}, {'start': '6372.000', 'end': '6377.000', 'text': 'I forget what the name is now, only 1% cortex.'}, {'start': '6377.000', 'end': '6383.000', 'text': 'Which is no way in the world could that explain any higher brain function,'}, {'start': '6383.000', 'end': '6387.000', 'text': 'right language.'}, {'start': '6387.000', 'end': '6394.000', 'text': 'I remember just to that retreat where that guy had the sinus cancer,'}, {'start': '6394.000', 'end': '6398.000', 'text': 'I was taken there by a doctor who was a Buddhist,'}, {'start': '6398.000', 'end': '6402.000', 'text': 'we discussed this on the way to the retreat.'}, {'start': '6402.000', 'end': '6406.000', 'text': "He said he'd seen that CT scan, it was redone,"}, {'start': '6406.000', 'end': '6414.000', 'text': "just to make sure the first CT scan wasn't in error, it's real."}, {'start': '6414.000', 'end': '6417.000', 'text': 'So what happened to it?'}, {'start': '6417.000', 'end': '6424.000', 'text': 'He said it was put in a back filing cabinet,'}, {'start': '6424.000', 'end': '6430.000', 'text': "treated as an anomaly, in other words it shouldn't happen, but it did."}, {'start': '6430.000', 'end': '6434.000', 'text': 'Only recently, about 4 years ago, some of the monks,'}, {'start': '6434.000', 'end': '6440.000', 'text': 'they managed to find another person who had 90% cortex,'}, {'start': '6440.000', 'end': '6443.000', 'text': 'the rest was intercranial fluid.'}, {'start': '6443.000', 'end': '6448.000', 'text': 'He too should not have any higher brain functions.'}, {'start': '6448.000', 'end': '6452.000', 'text': "He's still living a nice life."}, {'start': '6452.000', 'end': '6463.000', 'text': 'It was just showing that the brain could not account for those phenomena.'}, {'start': '6463.000', 'end': '6469.000', 'text': "So sometimes, I don't know why people can't see the obvious,"}, {'start': '6469.000', 'end': '6474.000', 'text': 'but for many, or other things, terminal lucidity,'}, {'start': '6474.000', 'end': '6477.000', 'text': 'which is another term, when I was in Singapore,'}, {'start': '6477.000', 'end': '6484.000', 'text': 'giving some lectures at the palliative care unit,'}, {'start': '6484.000', 'end': '6488.000', 'text': 'and asking there, how many of you nurses and doctors'}, {'start': '6488.000', 'end': '6493.000', 'text': 'have seen for yourself with your own eyes, terminal lucidity?'}, {'start': '6493.000', 'end': '6496.000', 'text': 'You know what that means?'}, {'start': '6496.000', 'end': '6500.000', 'text': "I'm kind of disappointed you don't know what that means."}, {'start': '6500.000', 'end': '6505.000', 'text': 'Terminal lucidity is the phenomena when somebody is very close to death,'}, {'start': '6505.000', 'end': '6509.000', 'text': 'maybe even in a coma, maybe have dementia,'}, {'start': '6509.000', 'end': '6512.000', 'text': 'the last few minutes of their life,'}, {'start': '6512.000', 'end': '6516.000', 'text': 'they open their eyes, they can remember everybody,'}, {'start': '6516.000', 'end': '6521.000', 'text': 'the coma is gone, and they say, "Oh, nice to see you, where have you been?"'}, {'start': '6521.000', 'end': '6526.000', 'text': 'They talk to each other as if they got total control'}, {'start': '6526.000', 'end': '6529.000', 'text': 'over their nervous system and their brain,'}, {'start': '6529.000', 'end': '6533.000', 'text': "but their brain is not there anymore, it's dead, it's gone."}, {'start': '6533.000', 'end': '6536.000', 'text': "It's called terminal lucidity."}, {'start': '6536.000', 'end': '6540.000', 'text': 'And about a third of the doctors and nurses at this unit'}, {'start': '6540.000', 'end': '6543.000', 'text': "said they'd experienced it."}, {'start': '6543.000', 'end': '6547.000', 'text': 'One of the stories of one of the doctors over in Perth,'}, {'start': '6547.000', 'end': '6550.000', 'text': 'when I made this story, he put his hand up and said,'}, {'start': '6550.000', 'end': '6553.000', 'text': '"It happened to me last week, one of his patients,'}, {'start': '6553.000', 'end': '6557.000', 'text': "he'd been in a coma for a day or two,"}, {'start': '6557.000', 'end': '6561.000', 'text': 'that he started the dying process."'}, {'start': '6561.000', 'end': '6564.000', 'text': 'Any doctor and nurses know that death is not a moment,'}, {'start': '6564.000', 'end': '6567.000', 'text': "but it's a whole process."}, {'start': '6567.000', 'end': '6570.000', 'text': 'And the instructions from this patient was,'}, {'start': '6570.000', 'end': '6574.000', 'text': '"I\'m leaving all my loved ones, their addresses,'}, {'start': '6574.000', 'end': '6577.000', 'text': 'their telephone numbers, emails, whatever,'}, {'start': '6577.000', 'end': '6580.000', 'text': 'in this little book next to my bed,'}, {'start': '6580.000', 'end': '6583.000', 'text': 'if anything happens, give them a call."'}, {'start': '6583.000', 'end': '6586.000', 'text': 'So once the dying process started, he started ringing up'}, {'start': '6586.000', 'end': '6589.000', 'text': 'all the close relations.'}, {'start': '6589.000', 'end': '6592.000', 'text': 'And he started ringing them up one after the other,'}, {'start': '6592.000', 'end': '6595.000', 'text': "and he got to this guy's daughter, Julie."}, {'start': '6595.000', 'end': '6598.000', 'text': 'And as Julie answered, "Julie, I\'m sorry to say,'}, {'start': '6598.000', 'end': '6601.000', 'text': 'your father is dying, please come now."'}, {'start': '6601.000', 'end': '6604.000', 'text': 'And then this guy just opened his eyes, turned around,'}, {'start': '6604.000', 'end': '6607.000', 'text': 'and said, "Please tell Julie how much I love her."'}, {'start': '6607.000', 'end': '6610.000', 'text': 'Those were his last words, and died.'}, {'start': '6610.000', 'end': '6613.000', 'text': 'It was supposed to be totally impossible.'}, {'start': '6613.000', 'end': '6619.000', 'text': 'At that point, his brain was basically not functioning anymore.'}, {'start': '6619.000', 'end': '6622.000', 'text': 'Terminal lucidity.'}, {'start': '6622.000', 'end': '6625.000', 'text': 'That is where the brain is not functioning,'}, {'start': '6625.000', 'end': '6633.000', 'text': 'the mind takes over.'}, {'start': '6633.000', 'end': '6636.000', 'text': 'Or kids.'}, {'start': '6636.000', 'end': '6640.000', 'text': 'Just how many of you had a child,'}, {'start': '6640.000', 'end': '6644.000', 'text': 'and when they were just a few weeks old,'}, {'start': '6644.000', 'end': '6651.000', 'text': 'could actually speak?'}, {'start': '6651.000', 'end': '6653.000', 'text': 'Be honest.'}, {'start': '6653.000', 'end': '6656.000', 'text': 'The first time that happened,'}, {'start': '6656.000', 'end': '6660.000', 'text': 'was these couple of these parents,'}, {'start': '6660.000', 'end': '6663.000', 'text': 'they were not Buddhist.'}, {'start': '6663.000', 'end': '6666.000', 'text': 'They were just Aussie parents,'}, {'start': '6666.000', 'end': '6669.000', 'text': 'had two kids, Peter and Paul,'}, {'start': '6669.000', 'end': '6671.000', 'text': 'those are the names I remember,'}, {'start': '6671.000', 'end': '6673.000', 'text': 'and they came to see us.'}, {'start': '6673.000', 'end': '6675.000', 'text': 'They said, "We\'re not Buddhist,'}, {'start': '6675.000', 'end': '6678.000', 'text': 'we only come to see you because we think you may take us seriously,'}, {'start': '6678.000', 'end': '6680.000', 'text': 'not ridicule us."'}, {'start': '6680.000', 'end': '6684.000', 'text': 'Because what happened, when the new kid came back from hospital'}, {'start': '6684.000', 'end': '6686.000', 'text': 'after being born,'}, {'start': '6686.000', 'end': '6689.000', 'text': 'still in a pram, or whatever it is called,'}, {'start': '6689.000', 'end': '6692.000', 'text': 'and said to the older kid,'}, {'start': '6692.000', 'end': '6700.000', 'text': '"Paul, please go say goodnight to your brother Paul."'}, {'start': '6700.000', 'end': '6703.000', 'text': 'Still only a couple of weeks old.'}, {'start': '6703.000', 'end': '6706.000', 'text': '"Go say goodnight to your younger brother."'}, {'start': '6706.000', 'end': '6708.000', 'text': 'So he went up to the pram and leaned over'}, {'start': '6708.000', 'end': '6710.000', 'text': 'and said to his baby brother,'}, {'start': '6710.000', 'end': '6712.000', 'text': '"Goodnight Paul."'}, {'start': '6712.000', 'end': '6714.000', 'text': 'As kids do.'}, {'start': '6714.000', 'end': '6720.000', 'text': 'But then Paul said, "Goodnight Peter."'}, {'start': '6720.000', 'end': '6725.000', 'text': 'If that happened to you, what would you do?'}, {'start': '6725.000', 'end': '6728.000', 'text': 'Well these couple of parents did, they were shocked.'}, {'start': '6728.000', 'end': '6730.000', 'text': 'Did we imagine this?'}, {'start': '6730.000', 'end': '6734.000', 'text': 'And they just turned and stared in disbelief.'}, {'start': '6734.000', 'end': '6737.000', 'text': 'And their older son,'}, {'start': '6737.000', 'end': '6740.000', 'text': 'only a couple of years old, three years old or something,'}, {'start': '6740.000', 'end': '6745.000', 'text': 'said again, "Goodnight Paul."'}, {'start': '6745.000', 'end': '6748.000', 'text': 'And this time with both of them paying full attention,'}, {'start': '6748.000', 'end': '6751.000', 'text': 'said, "Goodnight."'}, {'start': '6751.000', 'end': '6757.000', 'text': 'The baby said, "Goodnight Peter."'}, {'start': '6757.000', 'end': '6760.000', 'text': 'And the fascinating part of that,'}, {'start': '6760.000', 'end': '6764.000', 'text': 'they said without any prompting from us,'}, {'start': '6764.000', 'end': '6766.000', 'text': 'Ajahn Jacquard was there at the time,'}, {'start': '6766.000', 'end': '6768.000', 'text': 'without any prompting they said,'}, {'start': '6768.000', 'end': '6771.000', 'text': '"He said this in an adult voice,'}, {'start': '6771.000', 'end': '6773.000', 'text': 'not in baby voice,'}, {'start': '6773.000', 'end': '6777.000', 'text': 'but it came from his mouth."'}, {'start': '6777.000', 'end': '6782.000', 'text': 'How could that ever happen?'}, {'start': '6782.000', 'end': '6785.000', 'text': 'Now that was a personal experience,'}, {'start': '6785.000', 'end': '6787.000', 'text': 'they told us face to face.'}, {'start': '6787.000', 'end': '6790.000', 'text': 'I know another Malaysian couple,'}, {'start': '6790.000', 'end': '6791.000', 'text': 'similar experience,'}, {'start': '6791.000', 'end': '6793.000', 'text': 'they decided not to tell anybody,'}, {'start': '6793.000', 'end': '6797.000', 'text': "because they thought they'd be ridiculed."}, {'start': '6797.000', 'end': '6799.000', 'text': 'It was one of my favourite ones,'}, {'start': '6799.000', 'end': '6801.000', 'text': "I'd love to have this justified,"}, {'start': '6801.000', 'end': '6804.000', 'text': 'I just saw this in an article,'}, {'start': '6804.000', 'end': '6807.000', 'text': 'it kind of made a lot of sense to me,'}, {'start': '6807.000', 'end': '6810.000', 'text': 'this in United States somewhere,'}, {'start': '6810.000', 'end': '6812.000', 'text': 'maternity ward,'}, {'start': '6812.000', 'end': '6815.000', 'text': 'kid came out of the womb,'}, {'start': '6815.000', 'end': '6821.000', 'text': 'just looked around and spoke.'}, {'start': '6821.000', 'end': '6825.000', 'text': 'The words he said, just straight out of the womb,'}, {'start': '6825.000', 'end': '6828.000', 'text': 'he said, "Oh no, not again."'}, {'start': '6828.000', 'end': '6834.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '6834.000', 'end': '6835.000', 'text': 'I wanted to lighten it up a bit,'}, {'start': '6835.000', 'end': '6839.000', 'text': "but that's true, that's what I heard."}, {'start': '6839.000', 'end': '6842.000', 'text': "So that's actually, the only way to explain that,"}, {'start': '6842.000', 'end': '6848.000', 'text': "is that's the mind controlling the speech,"}, {'start': '6848.000', 'end': '6850.000', 'text': 'not the brain.'}, {'start': '6850.000', 'end': '6852.000', 'text': "The brain hasn't developed enough yet,"}, {'start': '6852.000', 'end': '6855.000', 'text': 'but the mind can.'}, {'start': '6855.000', 'end': '6856.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn.'}, {'start': '6856.000', 'end': '6858.000', 'text': 'A question from online,'}, {'start': '6858.000', 'end': '6860.000', 'text': '"Hi Ajahn, how do we sit still,'}, {'start': '6860.000', 'end': '6863.000', 'text': 'if sitting seems very difficult at the moment,'}, {'start': '6863.000', 'end': '6866.000', 'text': 'because of a very restless mind,'}, {'start': '6866.000', 'end': '6868.000', 'text': 'because of outside problems?'}, {'start': '6868.000', 'end': '6870.000', 'text': 'Is there anything we can do about this?"'}, {'start': '6870.000', 'end': '6871.000', 'text': 'Excellent.'}, {'start': '6871.000', 'end': '6875.000', 'text': 'When you learn how to sit still no matter what,'}, {'start': '6875.000', 'end': '6881.000', 'text': 'you rest, you are not one of the problems anymore,'}, {'start': '6881.000', 'end': '6885.000', 'text': 'and you have insight into solving those problems.'}, {'start': '6885.000', 'end': '6888.000', 'text': 'You can do that reasonably easy.'}, {'start': '6888.000', 'end': '6893.000', 'text': 'One of the things which I do, a little trick if you like,'}, {'start': '6893.000', 'end': '6899.000', 'text': "is if ever I'm in a very noisy place,"}, {'start': '6899.000', 'end': '6903.000', 'text': "so I've decided to meditate in the middle of the town once."}, {'start': '6903.000', 'end': '6907.000', 'text': 'Many years ago, the Burmese Buddhist community'}, {'start': '6907.000', 'end': '6910.000', 'text': 'invited me to do something peaceful,'}, {'start': '6910.000', 'end': '6914.000', 'text': 'to bring attention to the problems happening in Burma at the time.'}, {'start': '6914.000', 'end': '6917.000', 'text': 'So they invited me to come and do a two hour sit on the pavement,'}, {'start': '6917.000', 'end': '6921.000', 'text': 'opposite one of the, they call it time zone I think,'}, {'start': '6921.000', 'end': '6925.000', 'text': "like a video game store, it's really loud."}, {'start': '6925.000', 'end': '6928.000', 'text': 'So I thought this would be a nice challenge for me.'}, {'start': '6928.000', 'end': '6932.000', 'text': 'So I sat down there for two hours,'}, {'start': '6932.000', 'end': '6936.000', 'text': 'I imagined a bubble around myself,'}, {'start': '6936.000', 'end': '6939.000', 'text': 'inside that bubble was my space,'}, {'start': '6939.000', 'end': '6941.000', 'text': 'everything else was outside.'}, {'start': '6941.000', 'end': '6945.000', 'text': 'What happens after a while when you really start to focus inside,'}, {'start': '6945.000', 'end': '6947.000', 'text': 'start to become still,'}, {'start': '6947.000', 'end': '6951.000', 'text': "it's like all those sounds become distant from you,"}, {'start': '6951.000', 'end': '6956.000', 'text': 'like a long, long way away, even though they are right next to you.'}, {'start': '6956.000', 'end': '6959.000', 'text': 'And after that phenomena comes,'}, {'start': '6959.000', 'end': '6963.000', 'text': 'you know they can actually turn off from those sounds.'}, {'start': '6963.000', 'end': '6969.000', 'text': "So it's worth it to see the value in it first of all."}, {'start': '6969.000', 'end': '6971.000', 'text': "Something I haven't mentioned yet,"}, {'start': '6971.000', 'end': '6974.000', 'text': 'but hopefully you have heard of this before,'}, {'start': '6974.000', 'end': '6978.000', 'text': 'that is called an investment in time.'}, {'start': '6978.000', 'end': '6983.000', 'text': 'When you are working, do you have enough time to do all the jobs?'}, {'start': '6983.000', 'end': '6986.000', 'text': "If you don't, it means you are wasting time,"}, {'start': '6986.000', 'end': '6989.000', 'text': "that's why you don't have enough time."}, {'start': '6989.000', 'end': '6991.000', 'text': 'What you mean by wasting time,'}, {'start': '6991.000', 'end': '6994.000', 'text': 'maybe you may have seen your kids,'}, {'start': '6994.000', 'end': '6999.000', 'text': 'they are supposed to be doing some work for school,'}, {'start': '6999.000', 'end': '7002.000', 'text': 'some project, you see them at the computer,'}, {'start': '7002.000', 'end': '7005.000', 'text': 'and they are not actually doing very much,'}, {'start': '7005.000', 'end': '7009.000', 'text': "the sentences don't come out, the ideas don't come out,"}, {'start': '7009.000', 'end': '7013.000', 'text': 'the paragraphs take forever to complete.'}, {'start': '7013.000', 'end': '7016.000', 'text': 'Have you felt like that too?'}, {'start': '7016.000', 'end': '7019.000', 'text': 'You got some job to do, why is it taking so long?'}, {'start': '7019.000', 'end': '7024.000', 'text': "It's because your mind is not ready to do that job."}, {'start': '7024.000', 'end': '7027.000', 'text': 'Instead of just pushing yourself in front of the computer,'}, {'start': '7027.000', 'end': '7030.000', 'text': 'forcing yourself to work,'}, {'start': '7030.000', 'end': '7033.000', 'text': 'it would be much better to either take a rest,'}, {'start': '7033.000', 'end': '7039.000', 'text': 'go for a walk, or best of all, sit down and meditate.'}, {'start': '7039.000', 'end': '7042.000', 'text': 'You get your energy back again, like I said in the beginning.'}, {'start': '7042.000', 'end': '7047.000', 'text': 'And then what happens, 15 minutes of just meditation,'}, {'start': '7047.000', 'end': '7050.000', 'text': 'right in the middle of a lot of work,'}, {'start': '7050.000', 'end': '7054.000', 'text': "stop it, be peaceful, don't waste those 15 minutes,"}, {'start': '7054.000', 'end': '7056.000', 'text': "don't think of the work,"}, {'start': '7056.000', 'end': '7059.000', 'text': 'just imagine you are in your little cave,'}, {'start': '7059.000', 'end': '7063.000', 'text': 'get your mind to be really, really peaceful.'}, {'start': '7063.000', 'end': '7066.000', 'text': 'And when you come out of your meditation,'}, {'start': '7066.000', 'end': '7071.000', 'text': 'you find that you are energized, clear,'}, {'start': '7071.000', 'end': '7077.000', 'text': 'whatever work you do, you can do with greater efficiency.'}, {'start': '7077.000', 'end': '7079.000', 'text': 'I know that, sometimes I have to write emails,'}, {'start': '7079.000', 'end': '7081.000', 'text': "sometimes I don't write those emails,"}, {'start': '7081.000', 'end': '7083.000', 'text': "if I don't write those emails, I, a Karunaka,"}, {'start': '7083.000', 'end': '7085.000', 'text': "it's because I am too tired."}, {'start': '7085.000', 'end': '7088.000', 'text': 'So I meditate, I write them eventually,'}, {'start': '7088.000', 'end': '7090.000', 'text': "and I don't mean I am just putting it off,"}, {'start': '7090.000', 'end': '7094.000', 'text': "I want to make sure that you don't waste time."}, {'start': '7094.000', 'end': '7097.000', 'text': 'You wait and then, after you have meditated,'}, {'start': '7097.000', 'end': '7100.000', 'text': 'you write, say an email or write some essay,'}, {'start': '7100.000', 'end': '7105.000', 'text': 'you find you do that in such a short amount of time,'}, {'start': '7105.000', 'end': '7108.000', 'text': "and it's high quality."}, {'start': '7108.000', 'end': '7111.000', 'text': 'To remind myself of that,'}, {'start': '7111.000', 'end': '7116.000', 'text': 'you know that first book which I wrote,'}, {'start': '7116.000', 'end': '7119.000', 'text': 'Opening the Door of Your Heart?'}, {'start': '7119.000', 'end': '7122.000', 'text': "You've seen that one?"}, {'start': '7122.000', 'end': '7125.000', 'text': 'That book, the first half of that,'}, {'start': '7125.000', 'end': '7128.000', 'text': 'I did when I was on a personal retreat,'}, {'start': '7128.000', 'end': '7133.000', 'text': 'just one hour, one hour a day,'}, {'start': '7133.000', 'end': '7135.000', 'text': 'rest of the day I was meditating,'}, {'start': '7135.000', 'end': '7138.000', 'text': 'I said I am going to do one hour a day just writing it out,'}, {'start': '7138.000', 'end': '7140.000', 'text': 'by hand, not printing it out on a computer,'}, {'start': '7140.000', 'end': '7143.000', 'text': "I didn't have a computer at that time."}, {'start': '7143.000', 'end': '7148.000', 'text': 'I did half the book in 13 sessions,'}, {'start': '7148.000', 'end': '7151.000', 'text': 'and I still got the original manuscript,'}, {'start': '7151.000', 'end': '7153.000', 'text': "it's in my room."}, {'start': '7153.000', 'end': '7157.000', 'text': "I am sorry, Venerable Karunaka, I won't auction that,"}, {'start': '7157.000', 'end': '7163.000', 'text': 'because I use that basically to bliss myself out.'}, {'start': '7163.000', 'end': '7167.000', 'text': "I look at that, there's no mistakes in it,"}, {'start': '7167.000', 'end': '7169.000', 'text': 'just really nice handwriting,'}, {'start': '7169.000', 'end': '7171.000', 'text': 'people say what font is that?'}, {'start': '7171.000', 'end': '7173.000', 'text': "They haven't seen that font on any computer,"}, {'start': '7173.000', 'end': '7175.000', 'text': "it's just handwriting."}, {'start': '7175.000', 'end': '7178.000', 'text': 'And I look at that, how on earth do you do that?'}, {'start': '7178.000', 'end': '7180.000', 'text': 'Many, many pages,'}, {'start': '7180.000', 'end': '7182.000', 'text': 'it took such a short amount of time,'}, {'start': '7182.000', 'end': '7184.000', 'text': 'because after I was meditating,'}, {'start': '7184.000', 'end': '7186.000', 'text': 'ideas come out, you just get in that zone,'}, {'start': '7186.000', 'end': '7188.000', 'text': 'you just write it.'}, {'start': '7188.000', 'end': '7193.000', 'text': "That's how you can perform to such incredibly high level,"}, {'start': '7193.000', 'end': '7197.000', 'text': 'such a short time, with no stress.'}, {'start': '7197.000', 'end': '7201.000', 'text': "That's why I know when I did go and visit"}, {'start': '7201.000', 'end': '7205.000', 'text': 'Mountain View in San Fran,'}, {'start': '7205.000', 'end': '7207.000', 'text': 'you know the Silicon Valley place,'}, {'start': '7207.000', 'end': '7209.000', 'text': 'went into Google headquarters,'}, {'start': '7209.000', 'end': '7212.000', 'text': 'they have a meditation room,'}, {'start': '7212.000', 'end': '7214.000', 'text': 'which they let me sit in.'}, {'start': '7214.000', 'end': '7218.000', 'text': 'So was Facebook,'}, {'start': '7218.000', 'end': '7220.000', 'text': 'Facebook their address,'}, {'start': '7220.000', 'end': '7222.000', 'text': "they've got a big campus there,"}, {'start': '7222.000', 'end': '7224.000', 'text': 'so their own road,'}, {'start': '7224.000', 'end': '7226.000', 'text': 'and it was their address,'}, {'start': '7226.000', 'end': '7228.000', 'text': 'their postal address,'}, {'start': '7228.000', 'end': '7230.000', 'text': 'number one, Hacker Drive.'}, {'start': '7230.000', 'end': '7233.000', 'text': 'They called it Hacker Drive.'}, {'start': '7233.000', 'end': '7235.000', 'text': "That's Facebook, postal address."}, {'start': '7235.000', 'end': '7237.000', 'text': 'No one ever sends anything there.'}, {'start': '7237.000', 'end': '7239.000', 'text': 'But if I go in there,'}, {'start': '7239.000', 'end': '7242.000', 'text': 'they have a meditation room.'}, {'start': '7242.000', 'end': '7246.000', 'text': "They do that because it's 15 minutes"}, {'start': '7246.000', 'end': '7250.000', 'text': 'or half an hour being still.'}, {'start': '7250.000', 'end': '7254.000', 'text': 'You come out afterwards, you get new ideas,'}, {'start': '7254.000', 'end': '7258.000', 'text': 'your mind is ready to create sentences,'}, {'start': '7258.000', 'end': '7263.000', 'text': 'ideas, reports, really quickly.'}, {'start': '7263.000', 'end': '7265.000', 'text': 'Trouble is these days,'}, {'start': '7265.000', 'end': '7268.000', 'text': 'we waste too much time,'}, {'start': '7268.000', 'end': '7271.000', 'text': 'productivity and innovation'}, {'start': '7271.000', 'end': '7274.000', 'text': 'are just not there anymore.'}, {'start': '7274.000', 'end': '7277.000', 'text': "We're just too tired."}, {'start': '7277.000', 'end': '7279.000', 'text': 'If I was a CEO,'}, {'start': '7279.000', 'end': '7284.000', 'text': "I'd insist that you meditate."}, {'start': '7284.000', 'end': '7287.000', 'text': "Company's time."}, {'start': '7287.000', 'end': '7290.000', 'text': 'But meditate properly.'}, {'start': '7290.000', 'end': '7293.000', 'text': 'You get much more out of your workers.'}, {'start': '7293.000', 'end': '7297.000', 'text': "It's called exploitation."}, {'start': '7297.000', 'end': '7302.000', 'text': 'In a good way.'}, {'start': '7302.000', 'end': '7304.000', 'text': '- Thank you, Ajahn.'}, {'start': '7304.000', 'end': '7306.000', 'text': 'Okay, question from the crowd.'}, {'start': '7306.000', 'end': '7309.000', 'text': '- Yes.'}, {'start': '7309.000', 'end': '7311.000', 'text': '- Hi, Ajahn.'}, {'start': '7311.000', 'end': '7314.000', 'text': "My friend who's sitting next to me and I,"}, {'start': '7314.000', 'end': '7316.000', 'text': 'we try very hard to practice'}, {'start': '7316.000', 'end': '7318.000', 'text': 'the precept of not killing,'}, {'start': '7318.000', 'end': '7320.000', 'text': 'but unfortunately we live in a place'}, {'start': '7320.000', 'end': '7323.000', 'text': "that's full of cockroaches."}, {'start': '7323.000', 'end': '7326.000', 'text': 'The other night, my friend found me killing some'}, {'start': '7326.000', 'end': '7329.000', 'text': 'and insisted that it would bring me very bad karma.'}, {'start': '7329.000', 'end': '7332.000', 'text': 'So I want to know if the Buddha lived with us,'}, {'start': '7332.000', 'end': '7334.000', 'text': 'what would he do?'}, {'start': '7334.000', 'end': '7336.000', 'text': '- What was in there, sorry?'}, {'start': '7336.000', 'end': '7339.000', 'text': '- We live in a place full of cockroaches'}, {'start': '7339.000', 'end': '7344.000', 'text': "and unfortunately I can't resist killing them."}, {'start': '7344.000', 'end': '7348.000', 'text': '- Honestly, if you possibly can,'}, {'start': '7348.000', 'end': '7350.000', 'text': 'if there was a Buddha there,'}, {'start': '7350.000', 'end': '7353.000', 'text': 'he would spend so much love and kindness'}, {'start': '7353.000', 'end': '7355.000', 'text': 'towards those cockroaches,'}, {'start': '7355.000', 'end': '7357.000', 'text': "they wouldn't bother you."}, {'start': '7357.000', 'end': '7359.000', 'text': 'You also understand,'}, {'start': '7359.000', 'end': '7362.000', 'text': 'what are the cockroaches there for?'}, {'start': '7362.000', 'end': '7365.000', 'text': 'The cockroaches need water,'}, {'start': '7365.000', 'end': '7367.000', 'text': 'put water outside for them.'}, {'start': '7367.000', 'end': '7370.000', 'text': 'They need some sort of food.'}, {'start': '7370.000', 'end': '7375.000', 'text': 'Make sure that where you live is very, very, very clean.'}, {'start': '7375.000', 'end': '7380.000', 'text': 'We had a problem with cockroaches in our kitchen once.'}, {'start': '7380.000', 'end': '7384.000', 'text': 'I was very disappointed'}, {'start': '7384.000', 'end': '7388.000', 'text': 'that we were getting on top of them in our kitchen.'}, {'start': '7388.000', 'end': '7391.000', 'text': 'We had all these amazing ways of capturing them'}, {'start': '7391.000', 'end': '7393.000', 'text': 'and taking them a long way away.'}, {'start': '7393.000', 'end': '7395.000', 'text': 'But then one of our anagarikas,'}, {'start': '7395.000', 'end': '7397.000', 'text': "there's a postulant,"}, {'start': '7397.000', 'end': '7399.000', 'text': "decided it wasn't going fast enough,"}, {'start': '7399.000', 'end': '7403.000', 'text': 'so he decided to ring up for some expert assistance.'}, {'start': '7403.000', 'end': '7407.000', 'text': 'He rang up the local council'}, {'start': '7407.000', 'end': '7409.000', 'text': 'and as soon as their health department,'}, {'start': '7409.000', 'end': '7411.000', 'text': '"You got cockroaches?"'}, {'start': '7411.000', 'end': '7413.000', 'text': 'He said, "Well, you better get rid of them'}, {'start': '7413.000', 'end': '7416.000', 'text': 'or we\'re going to close you down."'}, {'start': '7416.000', 'end': '7419.000', 'text': 'And that was a terrible, terrible thing.'}, {'start': '7419.000', 'end': '7422.000', 'text': 'So we had to get that kitchen sprayed,'}, {'start': '7422.000', 'end': '7425.000', 'text': 'otherwise there would be no Bodhinyana Monastery.'}, {'start': '7425.000', 'end': '7427.000', 'text': 'But from that time on,'}, {'start': '7427.000', 'end': '7429.000', 'text': 'every week,'}, {'start': '7429.000', 'end': '7433.000', 'text': 'we make sure that that kitchen is basically'}, {'start': '7433.000', 'end': '7438.000', 'text': 'everything taken out and cleaned to the max.'}, {'start': '7438.000', 'end': '7440.000', 'text': "We haven't had any problems since,"}, {'start': '7440.000', 'end': '7443.000', 'text': 'many, many, many years ago.'}, {'start': '7443.000', 'end': '7445.000', 'text': 'Be kind to the cockroaches.'}, {'start': '7445.000', 'end': '7447.000', 'text': 'There were special type of cockroaches,'}, {'start': '7447.000', 'end': '7448.000', 'text': 'nothing against Germans,'}, {'start': '7448.000', 'end': '7451.000', 'text': "but they're called German cockroaches."}, {'start': '7451.000', 'end': '7455.000', 'text': 'And they said especially they come in with cardboard.'}, {'start': '7455.000', 'end': '7460.000', 'text': 'It took more effort to keep that place clean.'}, {'start': '7460.000', 'end': '7462.000', 'text': 'But ever since we started keeping it clean,'}, {'start': '7462.000', 'end': '7465.000', 'text': 'no more problems.'}, {'start': '7465.000', 'end': '7467.000', 'text': 'And it was worth it,'}, {'start': '7467.000', 'end': '7470.000', 'text': 'they spent their extra efforts,'}, {'start': '7470.000', 'end': '7473.000', 'text': 'so those little cockroaches never needed'}, {'start': '7473.000', 'end': '7476.000', 'text': 'to be threatened.'}, {'start': '7476.000', 'end': '7479.000', 'text': 'Please talk to little insects.'}, {'start': '7479.000', 'end': '7482.000', 'text': 'They do understand.'}, {'start': '7482.000', 'end': '7486.000', 'text': "I've seen that too many times in my life."}, {'start': '7486.000', 'end': '7489.000', 'text': 'Just one of the huts I stayed in,'}, {'start': '7489.000', 'end': '7491.000', 'text': 'over in Bodhinyana,'}, {'start': '7491.000', 'end': '7493.000', 'text': 'it was one of the A-frame huts,'}, {'start': '7493.000', 'end': '7497.000', 'text': 'it was right next to an ant mound.'}, {'start': '7497.000', 'end': '7499.000', 'text': 'And one of our rules,'}, {'start': '7499.000', 'end': '7502.000', 'text': "we're not supposed to build huts next to ant mounds,"}, {'start': '7502.000', 'end': '7504.000', 'text': "there's no other place to put it."}, {'start': '7504.000', 'end': '7506.000', 'text': 'But I made sure,'}, {'start': '7506.000', 'end': '7508.000', 'text': 'I was the builder at the time,'}, {'start': '7508.000', 'end': '7512.000', 'text': 'I made sure that I always avoided the ant mound,'}, {'start': '7512.000', 'end': '7514.000', 'text': 'never put any wood over it,'}, {'start': '7514.000', 'end': '7517.000', 'text': 'never disturbed it at all.'}, {'start': '7517.000', 'end': '7519.000', 'text': 'And once I finished that hut,'}, {'start': '7519.000', 'end': '7521.000', 'text': 'I moved in there.'}, {'start': '7521.000', 'end': '7526.000', 'text': 'And those ants never ever came into the hut.'}, {'start': '7526.000', 'end': '7530.000', 'text': 'I cared for them and they cared for me, honestly.'}, {'start': '7530.000', 'end': '7532.000', 'text': 'And only later on,'}, {'start': '7532.000', 'end': '7534.000', 'text': 'one of the other people,'}, {'start': '7534.000', 'end': '7537.000', 'text': 'they drove a tractor over the ant mound,'}, {'start': '7537.000', 'end': '7540.000', 'text': 'and that day on they started coming in.'}, {'start': '7540.000', 'end': '7544.000', 'text': "Sorry I've seen that too many times."}, {'start': '7544.000', 'end': '7547.000', 'text': 'Even like snakes.'}, {'start': '7547.000', 'end': '7549.000', 'text': 'You know snakes over in Thailand,'}, {'start': '7549.000', 'end': '7551.000', 'text': "there's a large number of them,"}, {'start': '7551.000', 'end': '7553.000', 'text': 'even in West Australia, even in Santee.'}, {'start': '7553.000', 'end': '7555.000', 'text': 'Are there many snakes over in Santee?'}, {'start': '7555.000', 'end': '7558.000', 'text': 'Have they ever harmed anybody?'}, {'start': '7558.000', 'end': '7561.000', 'text': 'Of course not, why?'}, {'start': '7561.000', 'end': '7564.000', 'text': 'If you call in the rangers and get them all captured'}, {'start': '7564.000', 'end': '7566.000', 'text': 'or something or killed or poisoned,'}, {'start': '7566.000', 'end': '7570.000', 'text': "then they'll attack."}, {'start': '7570.000', 'end': '7574.000', 'text': 'If you spend kindness to them, it actually works.'}, {'start': '7574.000', 'end': '7576.000', 'text': "I've been a monk now for such a long time,"}, {'start': '7576.000', 'end': '7579.000', 'text': 'even in Thailand.'}, {'start': '7579.000', 'end': '7582.000', 'text': 'Many times snakes have crawled on you,'}, {'start': '7582.000', 'end': '7585.000', 'text': "they've stepped on them,"}, {'start': '7585.000', 'end': '7590.000', 'text': 'but they never ever harm you.'}, {'start': '7590.000', 'end': '7592.000', 'text': "So if you're kind to these beings,"}, {'start': '7592.000', 'end': '7595.000', 'text': 'the beings are always kind to you.'}, {'start': '7595.000', 'end': '7597.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn, great message.'}, {'start': '7597.000', 'end': '7599.000', 'text': 'A question from the online audience.'}, {'start': '7599.000', 'end': '7602.000', 'text': 'In my understanding, stillness is obtained'}, {'start': '7602.000', 'end': '7605.000', 'text': 'when things become very heavy and dull'}, {'start': '7605.000', 'end': '7609.000', 'text': 'or when things are very energised in a balanced way.'}, {'start': '7609.000', 'end': '7611.000', 'text': 'How do we know the difference'}, {'start': '7611.000', 'end': '7613.000', 'text': 'and are there teachings or practices'}, {'start': '7613.000', 'end': '7615.000', 'text': 'to move away from a heavy stillness'}, {'start': '7615.000', 'end': '7618.000', 'text': 'to a light stillness? Thank you.'}, {'start': '7618.000', 'end': '7620.000', 'text': 'Way to move away from the heavy stillness'}, {'start': '7620.000', 'end': '7625.000', 'text': 'to the light stillness is take away your striving.'}, {'start': '7625.000', 'end': '7630.000', 'text': "Don't try and do it, let it happen."}, {'start': '7630.000', 'end': '7636.000', 'text': 'Is this heavy stillness? This is heavy stillness.'}, {'start': '7636.000', 'end': '7640.000', 'text': 'Trying to keep it still, putting it down.'}, {'start': '7640.000', 'end': '7644.000', 'text': 'I did that for an hour or two.'}, {'start': '7644.000', 'end': '7650.000', 'text': 'It was very still, very easy when you let things go.'}, {'start': '7650.000', 'end': '7653.000', 'text': 'The kindness, the gentleness.'}, {'start': '7653.000', 'end': '7656.000', 'text': 'You know sometimes when I was a young monk,'}, {'start': '7656.000', 'end': '7661.000', 'text': 'I wondered where on earth is the metta,'}, {'start': '7661.000', 'end': '7665.000', 'text': 'the kindness in the Eightfold Path.'}, {'start': '7665.000', 'end': '7667.000', 'text': 'I expected at least one of those eight,'}, {'start': '7667.000', 'end': '7670.000', 'text': 'samma, samma metta or something.'}, {'start': '7670.000', 'end': '7673.000', 'text': "And I couldn't find it."}, {'start': '7673.000', 'end': '7675.000', 'text': 'It was only later on when I had learnt my Pali'}, {'start': '7675.000', 'end': '7677.000', 'text': 'and looked a bit deeper,'}, {'start': '7677.000', 'end': '7679.000', 'text': "you find that's right in the second factor"}, {'start': '7679.000', 'end': '7681.000', 'text': 'of the Eightfold Path,'}, {'start': '7681.000', 'end': '7685.000', 'text': 'samma sankhapa, the three sankhapas.'}, {'start': '7685.000', 'end': '7688.000', 'text': "There's nekama sankhapa,"}, {'start': '7688.000', 'end': '7693.000', 'text': 'avayapada sankhapa and hiṃsaka sankhapa.'}, {'start': '7693.000', 'end': '7696.000', 'text': 'What does nekama mean?'}, {'start': '7696.000', 'end': '7701.000', 'text': 'Nekama means letting go, putting it down.'}, {'start': '7701.000', 'end': '7707.000', 'text': 'Avayapada is used as a synonym for metta.'}, {'start': '7707.000', 'end': '7710.000', 'text': 'Avayapada literally means non-ill-will.'}, {'start': '7710.000', 'end': '7712.000', 'text': "But you look how it's used by the Buddha,"}, {'start': '7712.000', 'end': '7716.000', 'text': "and it's used the same as metta."}, {'start': '7716.000', 'end': '7718.000', 'text': 'And I was just so pleased to see that'}, {'start': '7718.000', 'end': '7722.000', 'text': 'in the second factor of the Eightfold Path,'}, {'start': '7722.000', 'end': '7726.000', 'text': 'the middle of the three.'}, {'start': '7726.000', 'end': '7728.000', 'text': "That's part of the Eightfold Path,"}, {'start': '7728.000', 'end': '7730.000', 'text': 'compassion, kindness.'}, {'start': '7730.000', 'end': '7733.000', 'text': 'The third one is non-violence,'}, {'start': '7733.000', 'end': '7735.000', 'text': 'gentleness, hiṃsaka.'}, {'start': '7735.000', 'end': '7738.000', 'text': "We knew that from Gandhi's teachings,"}, {'start': '7738.000', 'end': '7741.000', 'text': 'non-violence.'}, {'start': '7741.000', 'end': '7744.000', 'text': "So anyone who's violent in the meditation,"}, {'start': '7744.000', 'end': '7747.000', 'text': 'like teachers, like Zen teachers,'}, {'start': '7747.000', 'end': '7749.000', 'text': 'who have the Zen stick and whack you'}, {'start': '7749.000', 'end': '7752.000', 'text': 'if you start nodding,'}, {'start': '7752.000', 'end': '7755.000', 'text': "that's not Buddhism to me."}, {'start': '7755.000', 'end': '7758.000', 'text': 'So much so that, because I get around,'}, {'start': '7758.000', 'end': '7761.000', 'text': 'I was in Hong Kong once and chatting with'}, {'start': '7761.000', 'end': '7764.000', 'text': 'a Chinese monk from mainland China.'}, {'start': '7764.000', 'end': '7767.000', 'text': 'And he said he was part of a retreat,'}, {'start': '7767.000', 'end': '7770.000', 'text': 'and in that retreat, this lady'}, {'start': '7770.000', 'end': '7773.000', 'text': 'was nodding, and the Zen master came'}, {'start': '7773.000', 'end': '7776.000', 'text': 'and whacked her on the back with a Zen stick.'}, {'start': '7776.000', 'end': '7778.000', 'text': 'You know what happened next?'}, {'start': '7778.000', 'end': '7780.000', 'text': 'This is honest, this is what he said.'}, {'start': '7780.000', 'end': '7783.000', 'text': 'That woman got out her mobile phone'}, {'start': '7783.000', 'end': '7785.000', 'text': 'and called the police.'}, {'start': '7785.000', 'end': '7791.000', 'text': 'And that Zen teacher was arrested and taken away.'}, {'start': '7791.000', 'end': '7795.000', 'text': "You can't do that in China."}, {'start': '7795.000', 'end': '7797.000', 'text': "And anyway, I wouldn't want anyone to do that"}, {'start': '7797.000', 'end': '7799.000', 'text': 'to anyone of you here.'}, {'start': '7799.000', 'end': '7801.000', 'text': "To me that's not Buddhism,"}, {'start': '7801.000', 'end': '7804.000', 'text': 'hitting people on the back with a stick.'}, {'start': '7804.000', 'end': '7811.000', 'text': 'Is it? No way.'}, {'start': '7811.000', 'end': '7814.000', 'text': "Venerable Karunaka, how's it going?"}, {'start': '7814.000', 'end': '7816.000', 'text': "Because it's not just about me,"}, {'start': '7816.000', 'end': '7818.000', 'text': 'because you have to go back as well.'}, {'start': '7818.000', 'end': '7822.000', 'text': 'Can I continue or just...?'}, {'start': '7822.000', 'end': '7829.000', 'text': 'Ayanaroda, how are you?'}, {'start': '7829.000', 'end': '7835.000', 'text': 'Can we carry on or stop?'}, {'start': '7835.000', 'end': '7837.000', 'text': 'Okay, the people here.'}, {'start': '7837.000', 'end': '7843.000', 'text': 'Shall we carry on?'}, {'start': '7843.000', 'end': '7848.000', 'text': 'Anyone against? Democracy? Okay.'}, {'start': '7848.000', 'end': '7852.000', 'text': "Well no one's left, so that's a good sign."}, {'start': '7852.000', 'end': '7854.000', 'text': "They're all here."}, {'start': '7854.000', 'end': '7856.000', 'text': "There's a kid in the back."}, {'start': '7856.000', 'end': '7858.000', 'text': 'Someone has to run up fast.'}, {'start': '7858.000', 'end': '7860.000', 'text': 'Over there too, goodness.'}, {'start': '7860.000', 'end': '7862.000', 'text': "There's a kid in a red shirt in the back too."}, {'start': '7862.000', 'end': '7872.000', 'text': 'Questions?'}, {'start': '7872.000', 'end': '7874.000', 'text': "There's a kid in the back, red shirt."}, {'start': '7874.000', 'end': '7876.000', 'text': 'Do you have a question?'}, {'start': '7876.000', 'end': '7885.000', 'text': 'Yeah.'}, {'start': '7885.000', 'end': '7887.000', 'text': 'One over there as well.'}, {'start': '7887.000', 'end': '7893.000', 'text': 'Why did you become a monk?'}, {'start': '7893.000', 'end': '7900.000', 'text': 'Why I became a monk, can I give you a true story?'}, {'start': '7900.000', 'end': '7903.000', 'text': 'I started as a theoretical physicist'}, {'start': '7903.000', 'end': '7906.000', 'text': 'thinking I could find out the truth of life'}, {'start': '7906.000', 'end': '7909.000', 'text': 'through science.'}, {'start': '7909.000', 'end': '7912.000', 'text': "And I found that there's many things in science"}, {'start': '7912.000', 'end': '7914.000', 'text': 'troubled me.'}, {'start': '7914.000', 'end': '7918.000', 'text': 'Too many people were just trying to prove things'}, {'start': '7918.000', 'end': '7920.000', 'text': 'rather than disprove things.'}, {'start': '7920.000', 'end': '7922.000', 'text': 'And I just had a girlfriend,'}, {'start': '7922.000', 'end': '7924.000', 'text': 'I just finished with the girlfriend'}, {'start': '7924.000', 'end': '7926.000', 'text': 'and I was at a time in my life'}, {'start': '7926.000', 'end': '7929.000', 'text': 'I had a good education, still young'}, {'start': '7929.000', 'end': '7933.000', 'text': 'and had the freedom to go over to Asia,'}, {'start': '7933.000', 'end': '7936.000', 'text': 'become a monk for a short time.'}, {'start': '7936.000', 'end': '7939.000', 'text': 'One of the things I liked about Thai Buddhism,'}, {'start': '7939.000', 'end': '7942.000', 'text': 'you could become a monk for a short time.'}, {'start': '7942.000', 'end': '7946.000', 'text': 'So I decided to go to Thailand, ordain.'}, {'start': '7946.000', 'end': '7951.000', 'text': 'My plan was to go to Thailand for two years,'}, {'start': '7951.000', 'end': '7954.000', 'text': 'ordain as a monk for two years,'}, {'start': '7954.000', 'end': '7956.000', 'text': 'become enlightened,'}, {'start': '7956.000', 'end': '7959.000', 'text': "and once I'm enlightened I can come back and carry on,"}, {'start': '7959.000', 'end': '7962.000', 'text': 'find a nice girlfriend, get married, start a family'}, {'start': '7962.000', 'end': '7964.000', 'text': 'and carry on with my career.'}, {'start': '7964.000', 'end': '7966.000', 'text': 'It was something important I wanted to get out of the way,'}, {'start': '7966.000', 'end': '7970.000', 'text': 'first of all, getting enlightened.'}, {'start': '7970.000', 'end': '7975.000', 'text': "That's how much I understood about Buddhism."}, {'start': '7975.000', 'end': '7978.000', 'text': 'Then when a weird thing happened,'}, {'start': '7978.000', 'end': '7985.000', 'text': 'after I became a novice monk over in Bangkok,'}, {'start': '7985.000', 'end': '7991.000', 'text': 'I had nightmares the first three nights I was a novice monk.'}, {'start': '7991.000', 'end': '7994.000', 'text': 'I woke up in the middle of the night,'}, {'start': '7994.000', 'end': '7997.000', 'text': 'in terror, a nightmare.'}, {'start': '7997.000', 'end': '8000.000', 'text': 'But my nightmare was,'}, {'start': '8000.000', 'end': '8003.000', 'text': 'I thought I was a layperson.'}, {'start': '8003.000', 'end': '8009.000', 'text': 'I opened my eyes and saw my robes neatly folded by my bedside.'}, {'start': '8009.000', 'end': '8013.000', 'text': "I was a monk, I'd made it."}, {'start': '8013.000', 'end': '8016.000', 'text': 'I felt so happy, I closed my eyes,'}, {'start': '8016.000', 'end': '8019.000', 'text': 'and I fell into a very deep peaceful sleep.'}, {'start': '8019.000', 'end': '8022.000', 'text': 'And that happened three times in a row.'}, {'start': '8022.000', 'end': '8025.000', 'text': 'It kind of told me something,'}, {'start': '8025.000', 'end': '8027.000', 'text': 'that this was something,'}, {'start': '8027.000', 'end': '8029.000', 'text': 'deeper than I ever knew,'}, {'start': '8029.000', 'end': '8032.000', 'text': 'I really, really, really wanted to do.'}, {'start': '8032.000', 'end': '8035.000', 'text': 'From that time on I had no doubts at all.'}, {'start': '8035.000', 'end': '8038.000', 'text': 'That was my life.'}, {'start': '8038.000', 'end': '8040.000', 'text': 'And many other times,'}, {'start': '8040.000', 'end': '8043.000', 'text': 'when I was actually in Sujato, this,'}, {'start': '8043.000', 'end': '8047.000', 'text': 'many times other monks decided they wanted this robe,'}, {'start': '8047.000', 'end': '8050.000', 'text': 'and I would be the last person they came to.'}, {'start': '8050.000', 'end': '8056.000', 'text': '"Don\'t go and see Ajahn Bhai, you won\'t get any sympathy there."'}, {'start': '8056.000', 'end': '8060.000', 'text': 'I loved the lifestyle of a monk and also of a nun.'}, {'start': '8060.000', 'end': '8063.000', 'text': "It's a beautiful life."}, {'start': '8063.000', 'end': '8066.000', 'text': 'Sometimes you can always think of the other side of the fence,'}, {'start': '8066.000', 'end': '8069.000', 'text': "maybe I can teach better if I'm a lay person."}, {'start': '8069.000', 'end': '8071.000', 'text': "No, you can't."}, {'start': '8071.000', 'end': '8073.000', 'text': "It's such a great inspiration."}, {'start': '8073.000', 'end': '8077.000', 'text': 'Are these three nuns inspiring to you?'}, {'start': '8077.000', 'end': '8081.000', 'text': 'No?'}, {'start': '8081.000', 'end': '8084.000', 'text': 'Are they inspiring?'}, {'start': '8084.000', 'end': '8086.000', 'text': "That's marvellous."}, {'start': '8086.000', 'end': '8090.000', 'text': 'These days I sometimes want to come to a university like this,'}, {'start': '8090.000', 'end': '8093.000', 'text': 'just when people are graduating,'}, {'start': '8093.000', 'end': '8096.000', 'text': 'for career day.'}, {'start': '8096.000', 'end': '8101.000', 'text': 'Have you ever considered a career'}, {'start': '8101.000', 'end': '8104.000', 'text': 'as a monk or a nun?'}, {'start': '8104.000', 'end': '8108.000', 'text': 'Honestly, just the amount of feedback which I get,'}, {'start': '8108.000', 'end': '8111.000', 'text': 'the pay is terrible,'}, {'start': '8111.000', 'end': '8114.000', 'text': 'exploited to the max,'}, {'start': '8114.000', 'end': '8119.000', 'text': 'but the job satisfaction is really out of this world.'}, {'start': '8119.000', 'end': '8122.000', 'text': 'Just on the way here in the car,'}, {'start': '8122.000', 'end': '8126.000', 'text': 'I was saying recently when I was in UK,'}, {'start': '8126.000', 'end': '8129.000', 'text': 'and we were teaching a retreat,'}, {'start': '8129.000', 'end': '8132.000', 'text': 'only a weekend retreat in Sheffield,'}, {'start': '8132.000', 'end': '8134.000', 'text': 'in the north of England,'}, {'start': '8134.000', 'end': '8137.000', 'text': 'not a big major Buddhist city.'}, {'start': '8137.000', 'end': '8142.000', 'text': 'And as I was going from the train station to the venue,'}, {'start': '8142.000', 'end': '8145.000', 'text': 'this guy in a big bulldozer,'}, {'start': '8145.000', 'end': '8147.000', 'text': 'a big backhoe, a big one,'}, {'start': '8147.000', 'end': '8152.000', 'text': 'working for the council, fixing up the roads,'}, {'start': '8152.000', 'end': '8156.000', 'text': 'he opened his window and he shouted at me,'}, {'start': '8156.000', 'end': '8162.000', 'text': '"Hey, you\'re the spitting image of Ajahn Brahm in Australia!"'}, {'start': '8162.000', 'end': '8166.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '8166.000', 'end': '8169.000', 'text': 'I said, "Yeah, that\'s understandable, I am Ajahn Brahm,'}, {'start': '8169.000', 'end': '8172.000', 'text': 'but not in Australia, I\'m in Sheffield today."'}, {'start': '8172.000', 'end': '8174.000', 'text': 'And he stopped his machine,'}, {'start': '8174.000', 'end': '8177.000', 'text': 'he climbed out of the cab, which was a long way down,'}, {'start': '8177.000', 'end': '8179.000', 'text': 'stopped all the other workers,'}, {'start': '8179.000', 'end': '8183.000', 'text': 'had a nice conversation and then a photo op.'}, {'start': '8183.000', 'end': '8185.000', 'text': 'And he said, "I better go back to work."'}, {'start': '8185.000', 'end': '8190.000', 'text': 'He said, "Otherwise it will be World War 3 with the local council."'}, {'start': '8190.000', 'end': '8193.000', 'text': 'But that gave me so much happiness.'}, {'start': '8193.000', 'end': '8198.000', 'text': 'He said he listens to those talks on YouTube so often,'}, {'start': '8198.000', 'end': '8200.000', 'text': "he couldn't believe,"}, {'start': '8200.000', 'end': '8203.000', 'text': "it's like his teacher, which he only sees on YouTube,"}, {'start': '8203.000', 'end': '8205.000', 'text': 'was right in front of him,'}, {'start': '8205.000', 'end': '8209.000', 'text': 'on the road in Sheffield on a Saturday morning.'}, {'start': '8209.000', 'end': '8211.000', 'text': "He couldn't believe it."}, {'start': '8211.000', 'end': '8213.000', 'text': 'So he stopped everything.'}, {'start': '8213.000', 'end': '8218.000', 'text': 'The amount of joy that gives me is immense.'}, {'start': '8218.000', 'end': '8219.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn.'}, {'start': '8219.000', 'end': '8221.000', 'text': 'And I think I speak from everyone here,'}, {'start': '8221.000', 'end': '8223.000', 'text': 'that the amount of joy that you share with all of us'}, {'start': '8223.000', 'end': '8225.000', 'text': 'by your presence and your talk tonight.'}, {'start': '8225.000', 'end': '8228.000', 'text': 'Shall we continue or what do you think?'}, {'start': '8228.000', 'end': '8230.000', 'text': 'One more question.'}, {'start': '8230.000', 'end': '8232.000', 'text': 'One more question.'}, {'start': '8232.000', 'end': '8233.000', 'text': 'One over there, one over there.'}, {'start': '8233.000', 'end': '8235.000', 'text': 'Okay, two more questions.'}, {'start': '8235.000', 'end': '8236.000', 'text': 'One over there too.'}, {'start': '8236.000', 'end': '8238.000', 'text': 'Okay, go on.'}, {'start': '8238.000', 'end': '8243.000', 'text': 'Ajahn, what are your instructions for Vipassana meditation?'}, {'start': '8243.000', 'end': '8245.000', 'text': 'Vipassana meditation.'}, {'start': '8245.000', 'end': '8249.000', 'text': 'There is no difference between Vipassana meditation and Samatha meditation.'}, {'start': '8249.000', 'end': '8250.000', 'text': 'The two go together.'}, {'start': '8250.000', 'end': '8251.000', 'text': 'Quickly Ajahn Chah,'}, {'start': '8251.000', 'end': '8254.000', 'text': 'can you see the front of my hand?'}, {'start': '8254.000', 'end': '8256.000', 'text': 'See the back of my hand?'}, {'start': '8256.000', 'end': '8258.000', 'text': 'Back of my hand is like Vipassana,'}, {'start': '8258.000', 'end': '8261.000', 'text': "front is Samatha, you can't separate them."}, {'start': '8261.000', 'end': '8265.000', 'text': 'If you think you are doing Vipassana meditation in the front,'}, {'start': '8265.000', 'end': '8267.000', 'text': 'Samatha has to be in the back.'}, {'start': '8267.000', 'end': '8269.000', 'text': 'Maybe you think you are doing Samatha meditation,'}, {'start': '8269.000', 'end': '8272.000', 'text': 'Vipassana has to be right behind it.'}, {'start': '8272.000', 'end': '8274.000', 'text': 'Sometimes you think you are doing both,'}, {'start': '8274.000', 'end': '8275.000', 'text': 'on the side.'}, {'start': '8275.000', 'end': '8278.000', 'text': 'You cannot split them up.'}, {'start': '8278.000', 'end': '8280.000', 'text': 'Impossible.'}, {'start': '8280.000', 'end': '8282.000', 'text': 'If you are coming tomorrow,'}, {'start': '8282.000', 'end': '8285.000', 'text': 'I can say more about that tomorrow.'}, {'start': '8285.000', 'end': '8288.000', 'text': 'Second question?'}, {'start': '8288.000', 'end': '8290.000', 'text': 'One over there, one over here.'}, {'start': '8290.000', 'end': '8292.000', 'text': 'One over there and that will be the end of it.'}, {'start': '8292.000', 'end': '8300.000', 'text': 'Hello, I have a question and it is about perfectionism.'}, {'start': '8300.000', 'end': '8303.000', 'text': 'So I just wanted to know,'}, {'start': '8303.000', 'end': '8309.000', 'text': 'how do you let go of wanting things to follow a certain way?'}, {'start': '8309.000', 'end': '8313.000', 'text': 'How do you live with ease, is more of the question.'}, {'start': '8313.000', 'end': '8314.000', 'text': 'Easy.'}, {'start': '8314.000', 'end': '8319.000', 'text': 'I remember teaching this example to people who were clients of the mental health department.'}, {'start': '8319.000', 'end': '8324.000', 'text': "And I said, many of you think that you don't belong."}, {'start': '8324.000', 'end': '8327.000', 'text': 'There is something terribly wrong with you.'}, {'start': '8327.000', 'end': '8332.000', 'text': 'You have got this disease, that disease, this complaint,'}, {'start': '8332.000', 'end': '8334.000', 'text': 'you have been diagnosed,'}, {'start': '8334.000', 'end': '8339.000', 'text': 'one of the worst things if you are diagnosed with a mental illness'}, {'start': '8339.000', 'end': '8342.000', 'text': 'or a physical illness or something else,'}, {'start': '8342.000', 'end': '8344.000', 'text': "you think you don't belong."}, {'start': '8344.000', 'end': '8353.000', 'text': 'And I told this whole class of clients in a big convention center in Perth,'}, {'start': '8353.000', 'end': '8356.000', 'text': 'you are like the trees in the forest.'}, {'start': '8356.000', 'end': '8360.000', 'text': 'I am a forest monk, I live in the forest, I have seen so many trees.'}, {'start': '8360.000', 'end': '8365.000', 'text': 'In all the years I have lived in the forest, I have never yet seen a perfect tree.'}, {'start': '8365.000', 'end': '8367.000', 'text': "I don't want them to be perfect."}, {'start': '8367.000', 'end': '8369.000', 'text': 'Even people who love trees,'}, {'start': '8369.000', 'end': '8372.000', 'text': 'like Germans in the black forest,'}, {'start': '8372.000', 'end': '8377.000', 'text': 'they never go in there and straighten up all the bent and twisted trees.'}, {'start': '8377.000', 'end': '8384.000', 'text': 'Number one, if you are bent and twisted, you belong.'}, {'start': '8384.000', 'end': '8389.000', 'text': 'Just like every bent and twisted tree has a place in the forest,'}, {'start': '8389.000', 'end': '8392.000', 'text': "I don't want them to disappear."}, {'start': '8392.000', 'end': '8396.000', 'text': 'If you are bent and twisted, you belong too.'}, {'start': '8396.000', 'end': '8401.000', 'text': 'And number two, the more bent and twisted you are,'}, {'start': '8401.000', 'end': '8404.000', 'text': 'the more beautiful you are.'}, {'start': '8404.000', 'end': '8409.000', 'text': 'All the bent and twisted trees, they are the ones I like to sit under.'}, {'start': '8409.000', 'end': '8411.000', 'text': 'They are gorgeous.'}, {'start': '8411.000', 'end': '8416.000', 'text': 'When I said that to these people with mental health diseases,'}, {'start': '8416.000', 'end': '8420.000', 'text': 'a couple of them came up to apologize to me afterwards.'}, {'start': '8420.000', 'end': '8423.000', 'text': "I said, you don't need to apologize to me, yes we do."}, {'start': '8423.000', 'end': '8426.000', 'text': 'He said, because when you first came in,'}, {'start': '8426.000', 'end': '8429.000', 'text': 'please excuse the language, this is what they said,'}, {'start': '8429.000', 'end': '8433.000', 'text': 'when you first came in, I turned around to my friend and I said,'}, {'start': '8433.000', 'end': '8438.000', 'text': 'who is this wanker coming to teach us?'}, {'start': '8438.000', 'end': '8442.000', 'text': "I didn't know, I wasn't wearing a white coat."}, {'start': '8442.000', 'end': '8447.000', 'text': 'And they said, but you made us cry and laugh, thank you so much.'}, {'start': '8447.000', 'end': '8452.000', 'text': "Trees in the forest, you don't want the forest to look perfect."}, {'start': '8452.000', 'end': '8457.000', 'text': "In fact it looks much more beautiful when it's not so perfect."}, {'start': '8457.000', 'end': '8461.000', 'text': "If you want, I don't know if you got a partner in life,"}, {'start': '8461.000', 'end': '8465.000', 'text': 'but if you have a partner and they are perfect, they will drive you crazy.'}, {'start': '8465.000', 'end': '8469.000', 'text': 'Please get one who is bent and twisted and all over the place,'}, {'start': '8469.000', 'end': '8475.000', 'text': "but who loves you. That's much better."}, {'start': '8475.000', 'end': '8476.000', 'text': 'Okay?'}, {'start': '8476.000', 'end': '8478.000', 'text': 'Yes, thank you Ajahn.'}, {'start': '8478.000', 'end': '8481.000', 'text': 'Ajahn - There was a question over there, this is absolutely the last question.'}, {'start': '8481.000', 'end': '8483.000', 'text': 'I promise, I promise.'}, {'start': '8483.000', 'end': '8490.000', 'text': "No, that's okay, one more."}, {'start': '8490.000', 'end': '8494.000', 'text': "It's actually a good hook for those, if your question,"}, {'start': '8494.000', 'end': '8496.000', 'text': "especially those online, hasn't been answered today,"}, {'start': '8496.000', 'end': '8498.000', 'text': 'you can come back tomorrow.'}, {'start': '8498.000', 'end': '8501.000', 'text': "So that's the hook to get you back in tomorrow."}, {'start': '8501.000', 'end': '8505.000', 'text': 'Hi Ajahn Brahm, thank you very much for the talk.'}, {'start': '8505.000', 'end': '8509.000', 'text': 'You talked about being able to let go of things in the past,'}, {'start': '8509.000', 'end': '8514.000', 'text': 'but I think I can speak for a lot of people when'}, {'start': '8514.000', 'end': '8518.000', 'text': "what's in the future can be a cause for anxiety,"}, {'start': '8518.000', 'end': '8520.000', 'text': "despite the fact it's not even here yet."}, {'start': '8520.000', 'end': '8522.000', 'text': 'So my question to you would be,'}, {'start': '8522.000', 'end': '8525.000', 'text': "how do you let go of the anxiety of what's to come,"}, {'start': '8525.000', 'end': '8528.000', 'text': "rather than what's happened?"}, {'start': '8528.000', 'end': '8534.000', 'text': 'Okay, the point is, the future is work in progress.'}, {'start': '8534.000', 'end': '8538.000', 'text': "We don't know what's going to happen for the future."}, {'start': '8538.000', 'end': '8541.000', 'text': 'Even Ajahn Chah was once asked by someone,'}, {'start': '8541.000', 'end': '8546.000', 'text': 'can you read the lines in the palm of my hand?'}, {'start': '8546.000', 'end': '8550.000', 'text': 'And Ajahn Chah, he took a lot of persuasion,'}, {'start': '8550.000', 'end': '8553.000', 'text': "he said, okay, I'll read the lines in the palm of your hand"}, {'start': '8553.000', 'end': '8555.000', 'text': 'to tell you your future.'}, {'start': '8555.000', 'end': '8557.000', 'text': 'I think you know the story,'}, {'start': '8557.000', 'end': '8560.000', 'text': 'you just trace every line, and every now and again,'}, {'start': '8560.000', 'end': '8563.000', 'text': '"Ooo, look at that, hmm, that\'s a bit worrying, hmm."'}, {'start': '8563.000', 'end': '8566.000', 'text': 'This guy was wound up so much,'}, {'start': '8566.000', 'end': '8568.000', 'text': 'he said, "What\'s my future going to be?"'}, {'start': '8568.000', 'end': '8571.000', 'text': 'And Ajahn Chah said, "I\'m not wrong, I can\'t lie."'}, {'start': '8571.000', 'end': '8574.000', 'text': '"Yeah, what\'s it going to be? Come tell me."'}, {'start': '8574.000', 'end': '8578.000', 'text': 'He said, "Your future, sir, is uncertain."'}, {'start': '8578.000', 'end': '8584.000', 'text': '[laughter]'}, {'start': '8584.000', 'end': '8587.000', 'text': 'And that was so true.'}, {'start': '8587.000', 'end': '8590.000', 'text': 'Your future is still being made.'}, {'start': '8590.000', 'end': '8595.000', 'text': 'People who are anxious create a bad future'}, {'start': '8595.000', 'end': '8598.000', 'text': 'because of their anxiety.'}, {'start': '8598.000', 'end': '8600.000', 'text': 'I did mention to you that on,'}, {'start': '8600.000', 'end': '8602.000', 'text': "sorry, it's a Tuesday, not Monday,"}, {'start': '8602.000', 'end': '8604.000', 'text': 'when I get back to Perth,'}, {'start': '8604.000', 'end': '8607.000', 'text': "I'm teaching at Solaris, they call it now,"}, {'start': '8607.000', 'end': '8609.000', 'text': 'they have many names for it,'}, {'start': '8609.000', 'end': '8611.000', 'text': 'Cancer Center over in Perth.'}, {'start': '8611.000', 'end': '8616.000', 'text': "I've been teaching there for about 33, 34 years, every year."}, {'start': '8616.000', 'end': '8619.000', 'text': 'And I once asked, "Why do you keep inviting me?"'}, {'start': '8619.000', 'end': '8621.000', 'text': 'Every year.'}, {'start': '8621.000', 'end': '8624.000', 'text': 'And they said, "Because one of the leaders,'}, {'start': '8624.000', 'end': '8627.000', 'text': 'when I gave my first talk at that place,'}, {'start': '8627.000', 'end': '8630.000', 'text': 'it was called the Cancer Support Association,'}, {'start': '8630.000', 'end': '8635.000', 'text': 'one of the leaders there, they asked me a question.'}, {'start': '8635.000', 'end': '8639.000', 'text': 'They said they had breast cancer'}, {'start': '8639.000', 'end': '8644.000', 'text': 'and had to have, in the surgery, the breast taken off.'}, {'start': '8644.000', 'end': '8650.000', 'text': 'And they said that was so traumatic and so painful.'}, {'start': '8650.000', 'end': '8652.000', 'text': "I don't know if there's any ladies here"}, {'start': '8652.000', 'end': '8655.000', 'text': 'who have had breast cancer, had mastectomies.'}, {'start': '8655.000', 'end': '8659.000', 'text': "As a guy you can't really understand what it feels like."}, {'start': '8659.000', 'end': '8666.000', 'text': "It's so painful and so psychologically painful."}, {'start': '8666.000', 'end': '8669.000', 'text': 'And they asked me the question,'}, {'start': '8669.000', 'end': '8672.000', 'text': 'said, "I\'m in recession now,'}, {'start': '8672.000', 'end': '8676.000', 'text': 'what would happen if it came back?"'}, {'start': '8676.000', 'end': '8678.000', 'text': 'That was their question.'}, {'start': '8678.000', 'end': '8680.000', 'text': 'And I said something very simple,'}, {'start': '8680.000', 'end': '8685.000', 'text': '"What would happen if it never came back?"'}, {'start': '8685.000', 'end': '8692.000', 'text': "I didn't realise how powerful that statement was for her."}, {'start': '8692.000', 'end': '8695.000', 'text': 'She said that solved her problem.'}, {'start': '8695.000', 'end': '8699.000', 'text': 'She never thought it has to come back.'}, {'start': '8699.000', 'end': '8702.000', 'text': 'She opened up the probability,'}, {'start': '8702.000', 'end': '8704.000', 'text': "it's not logical, this is emotional,"}, {'start': '8704.000', 'end': '8706.000', 'text': 'it might never come back.'}, {'start': '8706.000', 'end': '8709.000', 'text': 'It never came back.'}, {'start': '8709.000', 'end': '8712.000', 'text': 'She made sure I came back every year for about 25 years'}, {'start': '8712.000', 'end': '8718.000', 'text': 'before she got too old to come anymore.'}, {'start': '8718.000', 'end': '8722.000', 'text': 'Remember the worry usually helps bring about'}, {'start': '8722.000', 'end': '8724.000', 'text': "what you're worried about."}, {'start': '8724.000', 'end': '8729.000', 'text': 'Imagine cancer, if you got so worried about that,'}, {'start': '8729.000', 'end': '8732.000', 'text': 'that makes your stress levels go up,'}, {'start': '8732.000', 'end': '8738.000', 'text': 'and it means that that is probably one of the major causes.'}, {'start': '8738.000', 'end': '8741.000', 'text': 'Those of you in relationships,'}, {'start': '8741.000', 'end': '8746.000', 'text': 'your partner, what happens if he does something wrong,'}, {'start': '8746.000', 'end': '8748.000', 'text': "or she does something wrong, what's going to happen?"}, {'start': '8748.000', 'end': '8751.000', 'text': 'That stresses you out so much,'}, {'start': '8751.000', 'end': '8754.000', 'text': 'you became a pain to live with.'}, {'start': '8754.000', 'end': '8761.000', 'text': "What you're afraid of, you help happen."}, {'start': '8761.000', 'end': '8765.000', 'text': 'I think you all understand much about relationships.'}, {'start': '8765.000', 'end': '8770.000', 'text': "What would happen if we can't pay off all the debts"}, {'start': '8770.000', 'end': '8775.000', 'text': 'for Santi Monastery?'}, {'start': '8775.000', 'end': '8782.000', 'text': "You'd have to go to jail, Karunaka."}, {'start': '8782.000', 'end': '8785.000', 'text': 'People can worry like that,'}, {'start': '8785.000', 'end': '8792.000', 'text': 'I guarantee, no worries at all.'}, {'start': '8792.000', 'end': '8799.000', 'text': "Financially, I wouldn't put me in charge of any company."}, {'start': '8799.000', 'end': '8801.000', 'text': 'I do stupid things.'}, {'start': '8801.000', 'end': '8803.000', 'text': 'It all works out in the end.'}, {'start': '8803.000', 'end': '8808.000', 'text': "I don't know how, but it does."}, {'start': '8808.000', 'end': '8813.000', 'text': "So, don't worry."}, {'start': '8813.000', 'end': '8816.000', 'text': 'Do you accept that?'}, {'start': '8816.000', 'end': '8817.000', 'text': 'Yes.'}, {'start': '8817.000', 'end': '8819.000', 'text': 'Okay, great.'}, {'start': '8819.000', 'end': '8827.000', 'text': 'I guarantee you will not get breast cancer.'}, {'start': '8827.000', 'end': '8830.000', 'text': "Sorry. Okay, that's enough."}, {'start': '8830.000', 'end': '8832.000', 'text': 'Thank you Ajahn, thank you so much.'}, {'start': '8832.000', 'end': '8833.000', 'text': 'Thank you.'}]