WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, GIRL?! - Life Update + GRWM
Katsuki-pyon
[{'start': '10.008', 'end': '14.080', 'text': "Hello, peoples! So nice to see you\xa0again. I'm going to get straight to the"}, {'start': '14.080', 'end': '18.800', 'text': "point, this video is going to be different from\xa0all the other videos that I've done before. As"}, {'start': '18.800', 'end': '24.640', 'text': 'I announced in the post that I made on my\xa0\nchannel, this is going to be a life update'}, {'start': '24.640', 'end': '28.800', 'text': "video. And also a get ready with me video,\xa0\nso I'll be doing my makeup with you guys"}, {'start': '28.800', 'end': '32.960', 'text': "I'm going to be explaining what I've been doing\xa0for these past two years. Give you a little bit"}, {'start': '32.960', 'end': '39.200', 'text': "of an idea of why I've been gone for so long.\xa0So, let's get started! I am going to start"}, {'start': '39.200', 'end': '45.837', 'text': "with my foundation. I'm sorry, it is very\xa0\ndirty. I haven't cleaned it in a long time"}, {'start': '54.344', 'end': '58.720', 'text': "I'm gonna try to use very little\xa0of this foundation because this isn't my color"}, {'start': '58.720', 'end': '63.440', 'text': "anymore and I haven't bought a new one since I\xa0haven't really been wearing makeup that much. I'm"}, {'start': '63.440', 'end': '69.760', 'text': "looking down because my mirror is right here and\xa0I've got my notes here next to me, so if I don't"}, {'start': '69.760', 'end': '76.320', 'text': "look at you, I'm sorry. I have to look at what I'm\xa0doing. So. Let me update you guys a little bit. So"}, {'start': '76.320', 'end': '83.280', 'text': 'where am I right now? Right now I am living in\xa0Turkey and I am married. If you have been here'}, {'start': '83.280', 'end': '90.000', 'text': "since the beginning, if you've watched my previous\xa0videos, you'll know that in some of my videos I"}, {'start': '90.000', 'end': '98.000', 'text': "was wearing a ring on my right hand. That is not\xa0who I'm married to. I'm not married to the guy"}, {'start': '98.000', 'end': '105.120', 'text': "who I was engaged to before. I will get into that\xa0in this video. I was in Brazil before, that's where"}, {'start': '105.120', 'end': '111.200', 'text': "I'm from, that's my nationality. And that's where\xa0I did college. So that's where I was before coming"}, {'start': '111.200', 'end': '116.560', 'text': "here to Turkey. I'm trying to do it very slowly\xa0because, like I said, this isn't my color anymore"}, {'start': '116.560', 'end': '125.600', 'text': "I don't want to look too white like a ghost. So, how\xa0did I get here in Turkey? Well, I have to backtrack"}, {'start': '125.600', 'end': '131.600', 'text': 'a little bit to explain to you what happened\xa0\nbefore. So, when I started making these videos,'}, {'start': '131.600', 'end': '138.480', 'text': 'when I started this YouTube channel, I was a Law\xa0student. And during the pandemic I started playing'}, {'start': '138.480', 'end': '145.200', 'text': "games, basically for the first time. Growing up,\xa0my parents were not into video games, they didn't"}, {'start': '145.200', 'end': '150.800', 'text': 'think it was a good thing. So I never really played.\xa0Like, we had an Xbox, but we played with the Kinect.'}, {'start': '150.800', 'end': '157.520', 'text': 'Like, we played family games together. So, during the\xa0pandemic, I started playing the Sims for the first'}, {'start': '157.520', 'end': '162.880', 'text': 'time. You know, life was not doing very well and\xa0I wanted something to distract me and I had been'}, {'start': '162.880', 'end': '169.760', 'text': "watching Sims videos for a long time, and I wanted\xa0to give it a try myself. And I decided, like, I'm"}, {'start': '169.760', 'end': '175.680', 'text': "having a lot of fun doing this. I want to share the\xa0fun that I'm having with other people. So that's"}, {'start': '175.680', 'end': '181.280', 'text': 'why I decided to start the YouTube channel. The\xa0pandemic was a hard time for everybody and I just'}, {'start': '181.280', 'end': '186.000', 'text': 'wanted to bring a little bit of happiness into the\xa0world. Like, I was feeling very happy and I wanted'}, {'start': '186.000', 'end': '192.160', 'text': "to share that happiness with other people too. So,\xa0naturally I couldn't really record when I was in"}, {'start': '192.160', 'end': '198.720', 'text': "the dorm. Like, the space wasn't good and, you know,\xa0I lived with other people. In my dorm room we were"}, {'start': '198.720', 'end': '204.480', 'text': 'four girls. So, you know, living with three other\xa0people and trying to record stuff is not a good'}, {'start': '204.480', 'end': '210.480', 'text': 'idea, the sound and everything. So I only recorded\xa0when I was at home. So, at the end of the pandemic,'}, {'start': '210.480', 'end': '218.000', 'text': 'I was still at home, so I recorded a couple\xa0\nof videos there. And after the pandemic in twenty twenty... two,'}, {'start': '218.000', 'end': '224.080', 'text': 'in 2022, I would record when I went home, like, for\xa0vacation or for breaks or things like that. Which'}, {'start': '224.080', 'end': '231.440', 'text': "would leave the editing process to be done while I\xa0was in college. But, as you can imagine, that didn't"}, {'start': '231.440', 'end': '239.840', 'text': "go very well. I didn't have time for editing and my\xa0computer was very bad. It was one of those, you know,"}, {'start': '239.840', 'end': '246.080', 'text': "the computers that you get for college students.\xa0It's supposed to be just for writing papers and"}, {'start': '246.080', 'end': '251.600', 'text': "doing your assignments, participating in Zoom\xa0meetings. It wasn't a computer made for video"}, {'start': '251.600', 'end': '257.040', 'text': "editing. And also not for gaming, but I'll get\xa0into that a little bit later. Now I'm going to"}, {'start': '257.040', 'end': '263.040', 'text': "decide what I'm going to do with my eye makeup,\xa0so, give me a second here. Before I do my eye"}, {'start': '263.040', 'end': '273.040', 'text': "makeup. I forgot I have to do-- Oops. I have to do my\xa0powder or else I'm gonna get wrinkly. I am not a"}, {'start': '273.040', 'end': '278.880', 'text': 'professional at this, I have almost no experience\xa0with makeup. But, you know, in the camera it looks'}, {'start': '278.880', 'end': '286.080', 'text': 'better and, also, it makes me feel pretty, so. I\xa0have a-- I thought it was a smile line but turns'}, {'start': '286.080', 'end': '293.440', 'text': "out it's not. This little line here. It's part of\xa0\nmy genetics, basically. It's the way that I'm built"}, {'start': '293.440', 'end': '298.880', 'text': "so I have to make sure that it's not showing up\xa0too much because it makes me look like I am older"}, {'start': '298.880', 'end': '307.360', 'text': 'than I am. So, adding to the fact that I had no\xa0time for editing because I was in my last year of'}, {'start': '307.360', 'end': '315.120', 'text': 'Law school and my computer was bad, so the editing\xa0process took much longer than it should have, there'}, {'start': '315.120', 'end': '322.400', 'text': 'were also some other complications in my life. I\xa0had relationship problems, not just romantically'}, {'start': '322.400', 'end': '328.480', 'text': 'speaking, but generally speaking. But the person\xa0I was engaged to-- our relationship was not going'}, {'start': '328.480', 'end': '333.600', 'text': "well. I'm not gonna get into the details here\xa0because this is not me explaining to you every"}, {'start': '333.600', 'end': '337.520', 'text': "detail of my life, this is just me updating you\xa0about what happened. So I'm not going to get into"}, {'start': '337.520', 'end': '343.920', 'text': 'the details of that. But we, uh, broke up. We cut off\xa0the engagement, we cancelled the wedding. And you'}, {'start': '343.920', 'end': '350.000', 'text': "can understand the aftermath of all of that. You\xa0can imagine what it's like, I don't-- hopefully, you"}, {'start': '350.000', 'end': '356.160', 'text': "guys haven't gone through that. I also was not\xa0liking Law school at all. At first, in the first,"}, {'start': '356.160', 'end': '363.280', 'text': 'like, one or two years I was enjoying Law school.\xa0But my third-- in Brazil Law school is 5 years. So'}, {'start': '363.280', 'end': '371.120', 'text': 'in my third and fourth year I had online classes\xa0because of the pandemic. And I hated it. I really'}, {'start': '371.120', 'end': '379.040', 'text': 'disliked having online classes. So I attributed my\xa0dislike for Law as a dislike for online classes'}, {'start': '379.040', 'end': '384.240', 'text': "and not necessarily that I didn't like the field.\xa0So I had the expectation that, when we did go back"}, {'start': '384.240', 'end': '393.280', 'text': 'to having in-person classes, I would enjoy it again.\xa0But it turns out that, when I went back to having'}, {'start': '393.280', 'end': '401.840', 'text': "in-person classes, I didn't like it. And I didn't\xa0like the subjects I was studying, I didn't like the"}, {'start': '401.840', 'end': '407.680', 'text': 'possibility of work, like, the work options. I, like--\xa0when I was doing my internship I was not enjoying'}, {'start': '407.680', 'end': '413.120', 'text': "it. It's something that I could do, like, it wasn't,\xa0like uh, something that I couldn't do at all. But"}, {'start': '413.120', 'end': '418.240', 'text': "it wasn't something that I could enjoy, you know?\xa0Like, it's not something I would want to spend the"}, {'start': '418.240', 'end': '425.280', 'text': 'rest of my life doing. So, with all those factors of\xa0having a bad relationship, ending that relationship,'}, {'start': '425.280', 'end': '432.160', 'text': 'having a lot of friendship relationship problems,\xa0not liking what I was studying and still trying'}, {'start': '432.160', 'end': '438.240', 'text': "to graduate -- because I didn't want to just give up\xa0and, like, not get a diploma after I was literally"}, {'start': '438.240', 'end': '444.000', 'text': "in my last year -- I ended up being, uh, diagnosed with\xa0depression. Obviously, I'm not gonna get into the"}, {'start': '444.000', 'end': '450.560', 'text': "details, like I said before. But it really made\xa0my life much more difficult. And I didn't enjoy"}, {'start': '450.560', 'end': '456.880', 'text': "anything. The things that I liked doing before, all\xa0of my hobbies, they didn't bring me joy anymore. It"}, {'start': '456.880', 'end': '463.360', 'text': 'felt like a waste of time. So the joy that I had\xa0in gaming, the joy that I had in video editing, it'}, {'start': '463.360', 'end': '470.160', 'text': 'went away. That obviously hindered the YouTube\xa0channel. I was put on meds, so I was starting to'}, {'start': '470.160', 'end': '477.440', 'text': "feel a lot better. But, you know, it's-- it's a process.\xa0So, I graduated in-- let me check here my notes, cuz"}, {'start': '477.440', 'end': '485.200', 'text': "I'm bad with dates. I graduated in December\xa0of 2022 and I decided that I wanted to do"}, {'start': '485.200', 'end': '490.960', 'text': "something different with my life. I wasn't really\xa0into the idea of continuing with Law. I wanted to"}, {'start': '490.960', 'end': '495.920', 'text': 'try something new. I wanted to have a completely\xa0different experience. You know, like, get to know'}, {'start': '495.920', 'end': '502.320', 'text': 'myself again, like, rebuilding myself and relearning\xa0about who I am. So I wanted to just try something'}, {'start': '502.320', 'end': '508.080', 'text': "completely new. And that's when I decided to\xa0move to Turkey. Thankfully, my dad has connections"}, {'start': '508.080', 'end': '516.240', 'text': "basically all over the world and I was able to be\xa0a volunteer at one of my dad's friend's NGO. I say"}, {'start': '516.240', 'end': '523.280', 'text': 'volunteer, but I did get a stipend, so I was able\xa0to pay for, like, my living expenses and things'}, {'start': '523.280', 'end': '528.800', 'text': 'like that. And, obviously, if I had any problems,\xa0my parents could help. But yeah, I moved to Turkey'}, {'start': '528.800', 'end': '535.520', 'text': 'I moved in April of 2023. So I spent a few months\xa0at home. Uh, those months were basically getting'}, {'start': '535.520', 'end': '541.840', 'text': 'ready to move, helping around at home, and helping\xa0with my grandma. My grandma lives with my parents'}, {'start': '541.840', 'end': '547.840', 'text': 'So I was bas-- since I was unemployed, I basically\xa0became the caretaker of the home and of my grandma'}, {'start': '547.840', 'end': '556.080', 'text': 'So in April of 2023, I moved. I was teaching English,\xa0I was helping out with refugees, I was doing'}, {'start': '556.080', 'end': '563.760', 'text': 'paperwork and I was also studying Turkish. So, as\xa0you can imagine, my schedule was packed, which is a'}, {'start': '563.760', 'end': '572.800', 'text': 'good thing for me. But it left no time for the Sims,\xa0in particular. So, like I said before, my computer is'}, {'start': '572.800', 'end': '581.360', 'text': 'not the best. I did do some upgrades on it, like,\xa0I upgraded the RAM, I added an SSD card, which'}, {'start': '581.360', 'end': '588.560', 'text': 'made it much better much more usable. But for the\xa0Sims, it was not good enough. The Sims already is a'}, {'start': '588.560', 'end': '595.360', 'text': 'heavy game and already has lots of loading screens.\xa0But when you have a not so good computer, it takes'}, {'start': '595.360', 'end': '602.160', 'text': 'forever to load. In the videos that I uploaded, when\xa0I was editing out the loading screen times, it was,'}, {'start': '602.160', 'end': '608.080', 'text': 'like, at least 5 minutes of me just sitting around\xa0waiting for the screen to open. So you can imagine'}, {'start': '608.080', 'end': '614.560', 'text': 'how long it took for the actual game to load. And\xa0The Sims is also not a kind of game where you can'}, {'start': '614.560', 'end': '620.560', 'text': "just open it up, play for, like, 30 minutes, 1 hour,\xa0and you're done. It's not that kind of game. The"}, {'start': '620.560', 'end': '627.040', 'text': 'enjoyment comes in playing for longer periods of\xa0time. So, the time that it would take to load and'}, {'start': '627.040', 'end': '632.560', 'text': "the time that you need to actually enjoy playing\xa0the game -- I didn't have that time. I didn't have"}, {'start': '632.560', 'end': '638.080', 'text': 'time to-- for, like, 3 hours of playing just so\xa0\nthat I could have some fun and could entertain'}, {'start': '638.080', 'end': '643.120', 'text': 'myself. And what about the other footage that\xa0I had before, that I had recorded before? I had'}, {'start': '643.120', 'end': '648.400', 'text': "basically no time for editing. I didn't have time\xa0to, like, get in the mood. For those of you who do,"}, {'start': '648.400', 'end': '653.520', 'text': 'like, creative stuff, you understand that when\xa0you sit down and you start doing something, you'}, {'start': '653.520', 'end': '659.200', 'text': "need time to get into it and to go with the flow.\xa0It's not good when you do it in like, 15 minute, 30"}, {'start': '659.200', 'end': '665.040', 'text': "minute increments because it stops your workflow,\xa0it stops the vibe that you're having. So I didn't"}, {'start': '665.040', 'end': '672.400', 'text': 'have that time for editing. And on top of that, I\xa0felt really guilty for basically abandoning the'}, {'start': '672.400', 'end': '678.000', 'text': 'channel that I had started. I started the channel,\xa0you know, wanting to bring something to the world,'}, {'start': '678.000', 'end': '683.920', 'text': "basically bringing a little bit of happiness, and I\xa0had just given up completely. I hadn't updated for"}, {'start': '683.920', 'end': '690.480', 'text': 'more than a year at that point. So that guilt kind\xa0of, like, made me not want to continue with editing'}, {'start': '690.480', 'end': '696.160', 'text': "because, every time I thought about editing, I\xa0felt like I didn't really deserve to continue"}, {'start': '696.160', 'end': '702.640', 'text': "the channel. It doesn't really make sense but\xa0that's how my brain interpreted it as. So that's"}, {'start': '702.640', 'end': '709.200', 'text': "the backstory, basically, about why I haven't been\xa0able to edit, why I haven't been able to post any"}, {'start': '709.200', 'end': '715.280', 'text': 'videos. But what about where I am now? What am I\xa0up to now? So, to get to present day, we also need'}, {'start': '715.280', 'end': '722.080', 'text': "to go back a little bit to when I met my now\xa0husband. We actually met in Lebanon. I know, it's"}, {'start': '722.080', 'end': '730.000', 'text': 'crazy. A Brazilian went to Turkey, met my Turkish\xa0husband in Lebanon. We were at a training/retreat'}, {'start': '730.000', 'end': '735.520', 'text': 'in Lebanon and then after that we coincidentally\xa0were going to the same youth camp in Turkey. We'}, {'start': '735.520', 'end': '741.840', 'text': 'started talking, and you know what happens from\xa0there. We started liking each other and we decided'}, {'start': '741.840', 'end': '747.440', 'text': 'to pursue a relationship. Problem is, we lived in\xa0two different cities in Turkey. Turkey is not the'}, {'start': '747.440', 'end': '752.400', 'text': "biggest country in the world. Comparing to Brazil,\xa0it's very small. But it's still large enough for"}, {'start': '752.400', 'end': '758.960', 'text': 'there to be a significant distance between, like,\xa0for example, Istanbul-- Oops. For example, Istanbul and'}, {'start': '758.960', 'end': '765.840', 'text': 'Antalya, which was our situation. So, I was living in\xa0Istanbul and he was living-- is living in Antalya,'}, {'start': '765.840', 'end': '773.840', 'text': 'which is basically a... 11 hour trip by car, if I\xa0remember correctly. So we were long distance. But,'}, {'start': '773.840', 'end': '779.920', 'text': 'throughout our relationship, we noticed how we were\xa0both changing for the better together, drastically'}, {'start': '779.920', 'end': '785.440', 'text': 'Like, we were becoming better people together.\xa0We were opening up to each other and it just'}, {'start': '785.440', 'end': '792.160', 'text': "felt right. And that's when we decided to get married\xa0and all of that. So we decided to get married, we"}, {'start': '792.160', 'end': '801.280', 'text': 'planned the wedding, and we got married in August 6\xa0of 2024, so that was last year. My Teddy? What do'}, {'start': '801.280', 'end': '808.560', 'text': 'you think? "Looks nice." Looks good? "Yeah, it\'s really good."\xa0Thank you! Change in lighting, we opened the window'}, {'start': '808.560', 'end': '814.680', 'text': "so now we're getting some fresh sunlight in. I'm\xa0gonna do my eyeliner now, give me a few seconds"}, {'start': '829.840', 'end': '837.200', 'text': "I think that looks okay. I haven't really done\xa0\nmy makeup in a long time. I've lost practice of"}, {'start': '837.200', 'end': '843.002', 'text': 'doing eyeliner. Hopefully the other one will\xa0turn out good! Let me check the angle'}, {'start': '849.360', 'end': '853.677', 'text': "I think it looks okay. I think--\xa0well, they're not going to be perfect"}, {'start': '857.013', 'end': '864.000', 'text': "Ii think it looks okay. It's not going to\xa0be perfect. Sisters, not twins. Where was I? Let me"}, {'start': '864.000', 'end': '872.560', 'text': "check my notes. Ah yes. So. I got married\xa0in August 6 of 2024. And I'm very happy"}, {'start': '872.560', 'end': '877.680', 'text': "This is probably the happiest I've been\xa0in a very long time. I am very happy with my"}, {'start': '877.680', 'end': '884.080', 'text': "relationship, I am happy with my status in life,\xa0I'm happy being married -- being able to share my"}, {'start': '884.080', 'end': '888.640', 'text': "life with the person that I love is amazing,\xa0\nespecially when the person who you're sharing"}, {'start': '888.640', 'end': '895.520', 'text': 'it with loves you too. He is the perfect person\xa0for me. Obviously, there is no perfect person, you'}, {'start': '895.520', 'end': '900.681', 'text': "will never find somebody who is 100% perfect\xa0because that would be Jesus and you can't marry Jesus"}, {'start': '901.348', 'end': '907.600', 'text': "Unless you're Catholic, but that's another\xa0\nstory. He loves me, he takes care of me, he really"}, {'start': '907.600', 'end': '913.040', 'text': "goes above and beyond, he listens to me. He's the\xa0person that I can be completely vulnerable with"}, {'start': '913.040', 'end': '917.200', 'text': "and I know that he's not going to judge me, I\xa0know that he's not going to think badly of me"}, {'start': '917.200', 'end': '922.240', 'text': 'That was one of the things that attracted me to\xa0him in the beginning, was that-- the vulnerabily--'}, {'start': '922.240', 'end': '928.320', 'text': "vulnerability that I could have with him. We're\xa0happy together, we want to build a future together --"}, {'start': '928.320', 'end': '933.360', 'text': "that's why we're married -- and I'm happy here\xa0in Turkey. I'm happy in Antalya specifically"}, {'start': '933.360', 'end': '940.560', 'text': "I was living in Istanbul before and Istanbul is a\xa0great city for visiting, it's a beautiful city,"}, {'start': '940.560', 'end': '945.680', 'text': "there's lots of things to see, lots of places to\xa0go, lots of places to eat. But for me it was not a"}, {'start': '945.680', 'end': '952.720', 'text': "good city to live. It's a huge city, I've basically\xa0lived my whole life in the countryside, so that"}, {'start': '952.720', 'end': '958.960', 'text': "contributes to that. But it's always packed, always,\xa0always. And when I had to take the bus to go to"}, {'start': '958.960', 'end': '965.760', 'text': 'my Turkish classes, it was basically just everyone\xa0stacked together like sardines. And no matter where'}, {'start': '965.760', 'end': '969.920', 'text': "you go, there's always traffic, no matter where you\xa0go, you're always going to be bumping into people"}, {'start': '969.920', 'end': '979.040', 'text': "I was lucky to be living in the Asian side of\xa0Istanbul, which means there's less tourists because most of"}, {'start': '979.040', 'end': '986.015', 'text': 'the attractions are on the European side. But it\xa0was still crowded as hell. Oops, I accidentally put mascara on myself.'}, {'start': '987.683', 'end': '992.160', 'text': "Okay. Anyways, I'm very\xa0happy here in Antalya. It's a smaller city, it's"}, {'start': '992.160', 'end': '999.680', 'text': "still a touristic city, it's still a large city, but\xa0\nin comparison to Istanbul it's much smaller. And it"}, {'start': '999.680', 'end': '1005.440', 'text': 'only really gets packed during the summertime when\xa0all the Russians decide to come. I love the way'}, {'start': '1005.440', 'end': '1011.040', 'text': "that the city is-- how do I explain this? I love the\xa0nature in the city, I feel like there's much more"}, {'start': '1011.040', 'end': '1017.200', 'text': "trees everywhere. And also, this is a coastal city,\xa0so there's the beach and the beach is beautiful"}, {'start': '1017.200', 'end': '1022.000', 'text': "with the mountains. I'm really happy here and\xa0I'm very happy with my husband. I'm just happy"}, {'start': '1022.000', 'end': '1028.160', 'text': "in general. Now that we've gotten up to date about\xa0what my life has been like since the last time I"}, {'start': '1028.160', 'end': '1034.400', 'text': "uploaded, what am I up to now? So, since my computer\xa0is not the best in the world and it doesn't really"}, {'start': '1034.400', 'end': '1039.760', 'text': "handle really heavy games, I basically haven't\xa0played The Sims since I graduated from"}, {'start': '1039.760', 'end': '1045.440', 'text': "college. I've been playing other video games, I've\xa0been trying to get into gaming a little bit, and"}, {'start': '1045.440', 'end': '1051.440', 'text': "I've been playing games that are a little bit\xa0\nbetter for my bad computer. So, games that don't"}, {'start': '1051.440', 'end': '1058.720', 'text': "have so many heavy graphics. And I've also been\xa0playing some games with my best friend from"}, {'start': '1058.720', 'end': '1065.440', 'text': 'Brazil. She also got married and she moved to the\xa0US, she married in American. So you can imagine that'}, {'start': '1065.440', 'end': '1070.960', 'text': 'we have lots in common. Of course, she was my best\xa0friend before. And we have time now to play games'}, {'start': '1070.960', 'end': '1076.800', 'text': "together now that we're not in college. Now that\xa0I'm married, I'm basically a stay-at-home wife. 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So, to be able to record more games,"}, {'start': '1203.600', 'end': '1209.840', 'text': 'I need to get a better computer. That is in the\xa0works. Right now, we have other priorities, other'}, {'start': '1209.840', 'end': '1215.040', 'text': 'financial priorities in our life, so getting a\xa0\nnew computer is not one of those top priorities'}, {'start': '1215.040', 'end': '1220.880', 'text': 'I also want to continue the Decades Challenge that\xa0I started. I had lots of fun with that family and I'}, {'start': '1220.880', 'end': '1226.400', 'text': "really want to complete that challenge. I probably\xa0won't be able to record any Sims videos because,"}, {'start': '1226.400', 'end': '1231.760', 'text': 'looking back at the videos that I did before, it\xa0lags a lot and, like I said, it takes a long time,'}, {'start': '1231.760', 'end': '1238.320', 'text': "the footage is not very clean. 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I don't know much about makeup so"}, {'start': '1341.920', 'end': '1347.920', 'text': "I'm not sure what countries this brand exists in,\xa0but it's basically blush and lipstick. And it's a"}, {'start': '1347.920', 'end': '1354.880', 'text': "really good, uh, lipstick as well. It's not just good\xa0for blush. It really stays. And even after you eat,"}, {'start': '1354.880', 'end': '1361.040', 'text': "it leaves a little bit of its, like, pigment in your\xa0lips. Okay. I think I'm done with my makeup. Talking"}, {'start': '1361.040', 'end': '1365.600', 'text': 'and doing makeup at the same time is a little bit\xa0more complicated than I thought it was. Sorry if I'}, {'start': '1365.600', 'end': '1369.840', 'text': "wasn't able to look at the camera much, I really\xa0do need to look at the mirror. I thought I could"}, {'start': '1369.840', 'end': '1375.280', 'text': "talk and do the stuff here, but I can't, I need\xa0to look at my mirror. But thank you so much for"}, {'start': '1375.280', 'end': '1380.880', 'text': "being here, thank you for making this a reality,\xa0thank you for watching my videos. Even if there's"}, {'start': '1380.880', 'end': '1386.400', 'text': 'just three people watching my videos, thank you so\xa0much. Thank you for being patient with me. A lot has'}, {'start': '1386.400', 'end': '1393.120', 'text': "changed in my life these past 2 years and I'm very\xa0happy where I am now in life, and I'm sure that now"}, {'start': '1393.120', 'end': '1399.120', 'text': "with my husband I will always be happy. Even when\xa0there's moments of sadness, I will be living in"}, {'start': '1399.120', 'end': '1404.960', 'text': "happiness. My future is bright, much brighter than\xa0I thought it would be. If you'd asked me two years"}, {'start': '1404.960', 'end': '1410.880', 'text': 'ago where I would be and I would be here, sitting\xa0in front of you guys, with my husband there on the'}, {'start': '1410.880', 'end': '1416.240', 'text': "couch playing on his phone, I would think you were\xa0lying because I didn't think this would happen"}, {'start': '1416.240', 'end': '1423.360', 'text': "to me. I'm really happy with-- with my life now and I\xa0really hope that everybody who watches this video"}, {'start': '1423.360', 'end': '1428.960', 'text': "can find the same happiness that I have. So yeah.\xa0That got emotional. I'm trying to close the video"}, {'start': '1428.960', 'end': '1434.880', 'text': "and I'm getting emotional! Uh, yeah. That's the end\xa0of this video. Now I'm going to go record the next"}, {'start': '1434.880', 'end': '1440.809', 'text': "gameplay video. So thank you so much for being\xa0here and I'll see you next time! Bye bye!"}]