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You read between the lines.'}, {'start': '274.160', 'end': '280.000', 'text': 'You meet the need and even run away'}, {'start': '277.199', 'end': '282.840', 'text': 'if no one called.  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Only'}, {'start': '425.280', 'end': '431.759', 'text': 'you have trained others to respond to you.'}, {'start': '428.240', 'end': '435.039', 'text': 'You have developed the habit of staying in touch.'}, {'start': '431.759', 'end': '439.280', 'text': 'now any silence is perceived as'}, {'start': '435.039', 'end': '441.400', 'text': 'aggression any pause as a threat because'}, {'start': '439.280', 'end': '444.199', 'text': 'you yourself have created a system in which'}, {'start': '441.400', 'end': '447.319', 'text': 'you are expected to respond immediately'}, {'start': '444.199', 'end': '449.599', 'text': 'Scientific research confirms that'}, {'start': '447.319', 'end': '452.319', 'text': 'the more often you get involved in emotionally'}, {'start': '449.599', 'end': '455.759', 'text': 'charged conversations, especially without pauses'}, {'start': '452.319', 'end': '458.960', 'text': 'and the filter the higher your nervousness'}, {'start': '455.759', 'end': '462.879', 'text': 'excitement cortisol levels rise'}, {'start': '458.960', 'end': '465.319', 'text': 'neural network danger response is fixed'}, {'start': '462.879', 'end': '467.919', 'text': 'and you live on autopilot And then you'}, {'start': '465.319', 'end': '470.479', 'text': 'wonder why you find it hard to breathe'}, {'start': '467.919', 'end': '472.720', 'text': "why don't thoughts stop, why do you stop?"}, {'start': '470.479', 'end': '473.840', 'text': 'you feel empty after that'}, {'start': '472.720', 'end': '476.720', 'text': 'ordinary'}, {'start': '473.840', 'end': '481.440', 'text': 'correspondence But here is what is important to understand'}, {'start': '476.720', 'end': '484.080', 'text': 'Reaction is not contact, it is inertia'}, {'start': '481.440', 'end': '487.520', 'text': 'impulse It is an automatic attempt'}, {'start': '484.080', 'end': '490.440', 'text': 'restore balance not inside, but'}, {'start': '487.520', 'end': '493.680', 'text': 'outside you explain so that it is not'}, {'start': '490.440', 'end': '497.120', 'text': 'You make excuses so that you are not misunderstood to be'}, {'start': '493.680', 'end': '501.080', 'text': 'rejected You agree to Do not'}, {'start': '497.120', 'end': '504.680', 'text': 'lose contact, but true connection is not'}, {'start': '501.080', 'end': '507.360', 'text': 'required proof She stands'}, {'start': '504.680', 'end': '510.199', 'text': 'silence when you do not respond'}, {'start': '507.360', 'end': '512.479', 'text': 'the real shift begins because'}, {'start': '510.199', 'end': '515.760', 'text': 'the other person does not look at yours does not'}, {'start': '512.479', 'end': '518.360', 'text': 'answer a with his own echo And'}, {'start': '515.760', 'end': '520.880', 'text': 'here either awareness or'}, {'start': '518.360', 'end': '523.039', 'text': 'manipulation appears begins'}, {'start': '520.880', 'end': '525.040', 'text': 'But you are no longer in it, you are no longer in it'}, {'start': '523.039', 'end': '527.920', 'text': 'provider'}, {'start': '525.040', 'end': '530.160', 'text': 'reactions You do not need to explain why you'}, {'start': '527.920', 'end': '532.519', 'text': 'remain silent, you do not need to'}, {'start': '530.160', 'end': '535.240', 'text': 'adjust your tone so that it does not seem'}, {'start': '532.519', 'end': '537.600', 'text': 'difficult You do not need to turn your'}, {'start': '535.240', 'end': '538.519', 'text': 'pain into an accessible form so that you do not'}, {'start': '538.519', 'end': '544.000', 'text': 'misunderstand If your boundary is respected'}, {'start': '541.399', 'end': '546.959', 'text': 'only after explanations of it'}, {'start': '544.000', 'end': '549.079', 'text': "disrespect.  It's a contract where you are always there."}, {'start': '546.959', 'end': '553.000', 'text': 'must prove that you have the right to'}, {'start': '549.079', 'end': '555.240', 'text': 'peace But respect does not require translation'}, {'start': '553.000', 'end': '559.360', 'text': 'Presence is not necessary'}, {'start': '555.240', 'end': '562.399', 'text': 'apologies In the body it is simply felt'}, {'start': '559.360', 'end': '566.200', 'text': 'If after a conversation you feel as if you are being expressed, that is it.'}, {'start': '562.399', 'end': '569.200', 'text': "no contact, it's a leak.  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departure, but of internal permission to be'}, {'start': '1448.320', 'end': '1454.000', 'text': 'alone without function without fear without'}, {'start': '1452.240', 'end': '1459.120', 'text': 'obligations without'}, {'start': '1454.000', 'end': '1461.279', 'text': 'hooks You are just in the silence in the middle of the field'}, {'start': '1459.120', 'end': '1464.840', 'text': 'where there is no need to save'}, {'start': '1461.279', 'end': '1464.840', 'text': 'Where can I live?'}]