Episode 3: Transatlantic Syd
Go and Find Out
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Transatlantic flights have a'}, {'start': '34.160', 'end': '40.399', 'text': "kind of mythos, but this one isn't about"}, {'start': '36.800', 'end': '42.640', 'text': "romance or adventure. It's a severance,"}, {'start': '40.399', 'end': '45.360', 'text': 'the first step onto the long road into'}, {'start': '42.640', 'end': '47.920', 'text': "the unknown. There's something unnatural"}, {'start': '45.360', 'end': '51.039', 'text': "about it. One moment you're on solid"}, {'start': '47.920', 'end': '52.199', 'text': 'ground, feet planted on a known world.'}, {'start': '51.039', 'end': '54.719', 'text': 'Then a day'}, {'start': '52.199', 'end': '56.960', 'text': "later, you're somewhere else. A"}, {'start': '54.719', 'end': '59.760', 'text': 'completely different patch of Earth, a'}, {'start': '56.960', 'end': '62.079', 'text': 'different sun hanging in the sky. It'}, {'start': '59.760', 'end': '64.960', 'text': 'should take weeks, months, years to'}, {'start': '62.079', 'end': '67.680', 'text': 'cross an ocean. Instead, I disappear'}, {'start': '64.960', 'end': '71.320', 'text': 'from one reality and reappear in another'}, {'start': '67.680', 'end': '74.320', 'text': 'just like that, if I let'}, {'start': '71.320', 'end': '76.920', 'text': 'it. I adjust in my seat, watching the'}, {'start': '74.320', 'end': '79.439', 'text': 'twilight stretch over the'}, {'start': '76.920', 'end': '81.759', 'text': 'Atlantic. Inside the cabin, a hundred'}, {'start': '79.439', 'end': '84.400', 'text': 'strangers sit together in silence, a'}, {'start': '81.759', 'end': '86.880', 'text': 'holding pattern of limonality.'}, {'start': '84.400', 'end': '90.080', 'text': "There's a girl next to me, thin tattoos"}, {'start': '86.880', 'end': '91.640', 'text': 'down her arm, wideeyed and still, like a'}, {'start': '90.080', 'end': '94.560', 'text': 'bird perched on a'}, {'start': '91.640', 'end': '96.280', 'text': 'wire. Neither of us knows it yet, but'}, {'start': '94.560', 'end': '99.240', 'text': "we're about to"}, {'start': '96.280', 'end': '102.000', 'text': 'realize just how much we have in'}, {'start': '99.240', 'end': '106.000', 'text': 'common. Go and find out and find out. Go'}, {'start': '102.000', 'end': '108.159', 'text': 'and find out. Go and find out.'}, {'start': '106.000', 'end': '110.560', 'text': "Welcome to Go and find out. I'm Johnny"}, {'start': '108.159', 'end': '113.360', 'text': 'Wright. This is a story of losing'}, {'start': '110.560', 'end': '115.840', 'text': 'yourself in the world. I left my home,'}, {'start': '113.360', 'end': '118.920', 'text': 'my job, and the USA in order to learn'}, {'start': '115.840', 'end': '121.360', 'text': 'the old-fashioned way with firstirhand'}, {'start': '118.920', 'end': '124.079', 'text': 'experience. Some people go on a journey'}, {'start': '121.360', 'end': '126.920', 'text': 'to find themselves. I went on a journey'}, {'start': '124.079', 'end': '129.679', 'text': 'to lose myself and instead find the'}, {'start': '126.920', 'end': '131.920', 'text': 'world. In these episodes, I ask big'}, {'start': '129.679', 'end': '134.160', 'text': 'questions about life. Not from an'}, {'start': '131.920', 'end': '136.319', 'text': 'armchair, but from roadsides and'}, {'start': '134.160', 'end': '139.040', 'text': 'mountaintops, from temple halls and'}, {'start': '136.319', 'end': '141.360', 'text': 'dance halls. Join me as I hitchhike'}, {'start': '139.040', 'end': '144.800', 'text': 'across the world. Embrace the unexpected'}, {'start': '141.360', 'end': '146.480', 'text': "and let go one step at a time. If you've"}, {'start': '144.800', 'end': '149.440', 'text': 'ever thought about living a life outside'}, {'start': '146.480', 'end': '151.599', 'text': 'the box, keep listening because this'}, {'start': '149.440', 'end': '153.200', 'text': "isn't just my story. It's about what"}, {'start': '151.599', 'end': '155.599', 'text': 'happens when you start to wonder what'}, {'start': '153.200', 'end': '157.920', 'text': "your story could be. You don't need to"}, {'start': '155.599', 'end': '160.319', 'text': "hitchhike around the world. I'm here to"}, {'start': '157.920', 'end': '163.200', 'text': 'empower you to live with more courage,'}, {'start': '160.319', 'end': '169.360', 'text': 'more curiosity, and more adventure right'}, {'start': '163.200', 'end': '171.440', 'text': "here, right now. Let's go and find out."}, {'start': '169.360', 'end': '173.400', 'text': 'The day before my flight, New York'}, {'start': '171.440', 'end': '176.440', 'text': 'turned into a scene from a disaster'}, {'start': '173.400', 'end': '179.440', 'text': 'film. A hot wind tore through Union'}, {'start': '176.440', 'end': '183.879', 'text': 'Square. Trash swirled through the air.'}, {'start': '179.440', 'end': '186.080', 'text': 'Signs rattled. And the sky the sky went'}, {'start': '183.879', 'end': '188.080', 'text': 'pink. Smoke had swept in from the'}, {'start': '186.080', 'end': '190.800', 'text': 'Canadian wildfires, curling around'}, {'start': '188.080', 'end': '192.560', 'text': 'buildings, swallowing rooftops. I'}, {'start': '190.800', 'end': '194.879', 'text': 'watched as people pulled their shirts up'}, {'start': '192.560', 'end': '196.959', 'text': 'over their noses. A woman wrapped a'}, {'start': '194.879', 'end': '199.280', 'text': "scarf around her child's face like they"}, {'start': '196.959', 'end': '201.680', 'text': 'were evacuating a war zone.'}, {'start': '199.280', 'end': '205.280', 'text': "That's when the feeling hit me. I had to"}, {'start': '201.680', 'end': '207.360', 'text': 'get out. The city was suffocating. And'}, {'start': '205.280', 'end': '209.680', 'text': 'not just from the smoke. Everything'}, {'start': '207.360', 'end': '212.720', 'text': 'about it was closing in. The weight of'}, {'start': '209.680', 'end': '216.080', 'text': 'waiting. The weight of in between. Gone,'}, {'start': '212.720', 'end': '216.080', 'text': 'but not yet on the'}, {'start': '216.200', 'end': '221.120', 'text': 'way. A few hours later, I was on a'}, {'start': '219.040', 'end': '223.440', 'text': 'nearly empty bus to a nearly empty'}, {'start': '221.120', 'end': '226.720', 'text': 'airport, watching Manhattan disappear'}, {'start': '223.440', 'end': '228.560', 'text': 'behind me. I was leaving for real this'}, {'start': '226.720', 'end': '230.799', 'text': 'time.'}, {'start': '228.560', 'end': '233.200', 'text': 'Steuart International Airport was eerily'}, {'start': '230.799', 'end': '235.280', 'text': 'quiet. My flight was the only one'}, {'start': '233.200', 'end': '237.599', 'text': 'scheduled that evening. I walked the'}, {'start': '235.280', 'end': '240.200', 'text': 'empty gates, the silence amplifying the'}, {'start': '237.599', 'end': '243.040', 'text': 'reality of my'}, {'start': '240.200', 'end': '245.280', 'text': 'departure. I found a seat by the window,'}, {'start': '243.040', 'end': '247.840', 'text': 'staring out at the gray tarmac blending'}, {'start': '245.280', 'end': '249.799', 'text': "into the smoky sky. I didn't want to see"}, {'start': '247.840', 'end': '252.480', 'text': 'the states again for a'}, {'start': '249.799', 'end': '255.480', 'text': 'while. Let it be a long while, I'}, {'start': '252.480', 'end': '255.480', 'text': 'murmured.'}, {'start': '257.280', 'end': '262.120', 'text': 'I reach into my backpack and find the'}, {'start': '259.280', 'end': '265.680', 'text': 'foam tooth balladine gave me. Still'}, {'start': '262.120', 'end': '268.400', 'text': 'strange, still here. I turn it over in'}, {'start': '265.680', 'end': '270.479', 'text': 'my hands, feeling the spring of the foam'}, {'start': '268.400', 'end': '272.840', 'text': 'and the natural curvature of one of the'}, {'start': '270.479', 'end': '275.840', 'text': "body's strangest"}, {'start': '272.840', 'end': '278.080', 'text': 'pieces. A reminder that I carry more'}, {'start': '275.840', 'end': '280.570', 'text': 'than I think I do, even the'}, {'start': '278.080', 'end': '282.320', 'text': 'inexplicable.'}, {'start': '280.570', 'end': '284.800', 'text': '[Music]'}, {'start': '282.320', 'end': '286.360', 'text': 'I sling my bag over my shoulder and move'}, {'start': '284.800', 'end': '288.800', 'text': 'toward the jet'}, {'start': '286.360', 'end': '291.960', 'text': 'bridge. Flying does something strange to'}, {'start': '288.800', 'end': '295.040', 'text': 'your body. It forces you into a maze of'}, {'start': '291.960', 'end': '298.320', 'text': 'unnatural, placeless movements. Waiting'}, {'start': '295.040', 'end': '300.040', 'text': 'in line, walking in circles, lifting'}, {'start': '298.320', 'end': '302.320', 'text': 'your hands and surrender to security'}, {'start': '300.040', 'end': '303.919', 'text': 'scanners. You hesitate before sitting in'}, {'start': '302.320', 'end': '307.479', 'text': "the terminal, feeling like you're taking"}, {'start': '303.919', 'end': '307.479', 'text': 'up the wrong space.'}, {'start': '308.479', 'end': '314.240', 'text': 'Then the final call. boarding.'}, {'start': '312.080', 'end': '316.960', 'text': 'The tunnel narrows around me, sealing me'}, {'start': '314.240', 'end': '318.800', 'text': 'in. The faint wine of engines, like a'}, {'start': '316.960', 'end': '321.120', 'text': 'choir of metal and friction, hums from'}, {'start': '318.800', 'end': '323.360', 'text': 'beyond the thin walls. The door looms'}, {'start': '321.120', 'end': '325.840', 'text': 'ahead. The same metal that will soon be'}, {'start': '323.360', 'end': '327.759', 'text': 'lifting us into the sky. I touch it'}, {'start': '325.840', 'end': '330.199', 'text': 'lightly as I step through, half'}, {'start': '327.759', 'end': '333.199', 'text': 'expecting it to be warm, like something'}, {'start': '330.199', 'end': '335.680', 'text': 'alive. Inside, the hushed chaos of the'}, {'start': '333.199', 'end': '337.520', 'text': 'plane. Strangers brush past each other'}, {'start': '335.680', 'end': '339.759', 'text': 'in the aisle, stuffing jackets into'}, {'start': '337.520', 'end': '342.320', 'text': 'overhead bins, kneeling on seats to'}, {'start': '339.759', 'end': '344.160', 'text': 'retrieve misplaced bags. A mass of'}, {'start': '342.320', 'end': '347.360', 'text': 'bodies moving through the final steps of'}, {'start': '344.160', 'end': '349.400', 'text': 'a ritual none of us really wants. The'}, {'start': '347.360', 'end': '351.800', 'text': 'aisle ahead is a slowmoving river of'}, {'start': '349.400', 'end': '354.919', 'text': 'passengers. And at the end of it, my'}, {'start': '351.800', 'end': '357.960', 'text': 'seat and next to it, a girl about my'}, {'start': '354.919', 'end': '362.039', 'text': "age. She isn't reading. She isn't"}, {'start': '357.960', 'end': '364.960', 'text': "scrolling. She's just waiting, wideeyed."}, {'start': '362.039', 'end': '366.960', 'text': 'Still, I recognize the look instantly,'}, {'start': '364.960', 'end': '368.759', 'text': 'that preemptive dread of whoever is'}, {'start': '366.960', 'end': '371.759', 'text': 'about to sit next to you for the next 6'}, {'start': '368.759', 'end': '374.800', 'text': 'hours. I offer a tight-lipped smile, the'}, {'start': '371.759', 'end': '377.199', 'text': 'kind that says, "Sorry, it\'s me." Her'}, {'start': '374.800', 'end': '379.600', 'text': 'gaze flicks up. She nods once and shifts'}, {'start': '377.199', 'end': '381.639', 'text': 'slightly to let me in. I slide into my'}, {'start': '379.600', 'end': '384.919', 'text': 'seat, click the belt, stare straight'}, {'start': '381.639', 'end': '387.680', 'text': "ahead. For a while, we don't"}, {'start': '384.919', 'end': '389.919', 'text': 'speak. The plane roars to life. The'}, {'start': '387.680', 'end': '392.160', 'text': 'wheels lift. We climb through thick'}, {'start': '389.919', 'end': '395.319', 'text': 'clouds. And when we break through, the'}, {'start': '392.160', 'end': '398.400', 'text': 'sun is waiting, bright as'}, {'start': '395.319', 'end': '400.400', 'text': 'ever. Only then does she glance over,'}, {'start': '398.400', 'end': '404.400', 'text': "measuring me like she's deciding whether"}, {'start': '400.400', 'end': '407.360', 'text': "I'm worth talking to. I turn. First time"}, {'start': '404.400', 'end': '411.479', 'text': 'crossing the Atlantic. She hesitates,'}, {'start': '407.360', 'end': '417.919', 'text': 'then finally. Yeah. A'}, {'start': '411.479', 'end': '419.759', 'text': 'beat. Feels weird. I nod. I get that.'}, {'start': '417.919', 'end': '421.599', 'text': 'She pulls at the strap of her backpack'}, {'start': '419.759', 'end': '425.319', 'text': "like she's not used to sitting for this"}, {'start': '421.599', 'end': '429.520', 'text': 'long. I stick out a hand.'}, {'start': '425.319', 'end': '432.639', 'text': 'Johnny. Sid. She says it like a fact. No'}, {'start': '429.520', 'end': '435.360', 'text': 'flourish, no extra effort. For a moment,'}, {'start': '432.639', 'end': '438.479', 'text': "I think that'll be the end of it. But as"}, {'start': '435.360', 'end': '441.280', 'text': 'the hours stretch on, something shifts.'}, {'start': '438.479', 'end': '444.639', 'text': 'She starts talking. Not all at once,'}, {'start': '441.280', 'end': '447.120', 'text': 'just in pieces, slow and deliberate. She'}, {'start': '444.639', 'end': '449.360', 'text': 'had left home young. spent years moving'}, {'start': '447.120', 'end': '451.520', 'text': 'between friends couches, then took off'}, {'start': '449.360', 'end': '454.160', 'text': 'for South America before she even knew'}, {'start': '451.520', 'end': '456.880', 'text': 'what she was running from. Travel had'}, {'start': '454.160', 'end': '458.960', 'text': 'given her a home, or at least something'}, {'start': '456.880', 'end': '459.800', 'text': "that felt closer to one than where she'd"}, {'start': '458.960', 'end': '464.000', 'text': 'come'}, {'start': '459.800', 'end': '466.680', 'text': "from. As we talk, I realize I'm not the"}, {'start': '464.000', 'end': '469.759', 'text': 'only one out here leaping into the'}, {'start': '466.680', 'end': '472.800', 'text': 'unknown. Sid is on a long journey, one'}, {'start': '469.759', 'end': '475.759', 'text': 'without a fixed destination or timeline.'}, {'start': '472.800', 'end': '478.479', 'text': 'Her first trip had been an escape.'}, {'start': '475.759', 'end': '480.720', 'text': "This one she isn't quite sure yet."}, {'start': '478.479', 'end': '483.319', 'text': 'Neither of us needs to be out here this'}, {'start': '480.720', 'end': '488.080', 'text': "time. We aren't running"}, {'start': '483.319', 'end': '491.360', 'text': "anymore. But we can't quite stop either."}, {'start': '488.080', 'end': '492.919', 'text': 'And piece by piece, I start to realize'}, {'start': '491.360', 'end': '495.319', 'text': "this isn't just my"}, {'start': '492.919', 'end': '498.479', 'text': "seatmate. We're moving in the same"}, {'start': '495.319', 'end': '501.710', 'text': 'direction. Not just across an ocean,'}, {'start': '498.479', 'end': '512.479', 'text': 'across something bigger.'}, {'start': '501.710', 'end': '515.039', 'text': '[Music]'}, {'start': '512.479', 'end': '517.919', 'text': 'The plane hums on through the night,'}, {'start': '515.039', 'end': '520.000', 'text': 'skimming the dark Atlantic. The overhead'}, {'start': '517.919', 'end': '522.080', 'text': 'lights dim, and most of the passengers'}, {'start': '520.000', 'end': '525.040', 'text': 'close their eyes, drifting into an'}, {'start': '522.080', 'end': '527.600', 'text': 'uneasy airplane sleep. But Sid and I'}, {'start': '525.040', 'end': '530.600', 'text': "keep talking, voices low in the engine's"}, {'start': '527.600', 'end': '530.600', 'text': 'drone.'}, {'start': '531.600', 'end': '537.600', 'text': "We're not running anymore, but we both"}, {'start': '534.720', 'end': '540.240', 'text': "have that itch. Something's still"}, {'start': '537.600', 'end': '543.360', 'text': 'pulling us forward. Some question we'}, {'start': '540.240', 'end': '546.000', 'text': "haven't answered yet. So, what made you"}, {'start': '543.360', 'end': '548.800', 'text': 'decide to leave again? I ask. She'}, {'start': '546.000', 'end': '551.000', 'text': 'hesitates, then exhales, her fingers'}, {'start': '548.800', 'end': '554.160', 'text': 'tracing the rim of her water'}, {'start': '551.000', 'end': '555.959', 'text': "bottle. I don't know yet. Maybe I just"}, {'start': '554.160', 'end': '558.880', 'text': "don't know how to"}, {'start': '555.959', 'end': '560.440', 'text': 'stay. That lands.'}, {'start': '558.880', 'end': '563.800', 'text': "I'm not sure how to stay"}, {'start': '560.440', 'end': '569.240', 'text': "either. I guess we're both floaters, I"}, {'start': '563.800', 'end': '572.480', 'text': "say. Or we're just still growing up, she"}, {'start': '569.240', 'end': '574.480', 'text': "says. I turn and look at Sid's face. Her"}, {'start': '572.480', 'end': '576.800', 'text': 'brown eyes are still large, but no'}, {'start': '574.480', 'end': '578.200', 'text': "longer frightened. I can tell there's a"}, {'start': '576.800', 'end': '580.959', 'text': "lot she isn't telling"}, {'start': '578.200', 'end': '583.360', 'text': 'me. Outside the window, a faint glow'}, {'start': '580.959', 'end': '586.080', 'text': 'lines the horizon. The first sign of'}, {'start': '583.360', 'end': '589.320', 'text': "morning somewhere far below. We're out"}, {'start': '586.080', 'end': '591.680', 'text': 'over Canada now. Nova Scotia or maybe'}, {'start': '589.320', 'end': '595.720', 'text': 'Newfoundland. The Earth just a black'}, {'start': '591.680', 'end': '600.360', 'text': 'void beneath us. Greenland is'}, {'start': '595.720', 'end': '602.560', 'text': 'next. Sid starts to talk now on her own'}, {'start': '600.360', 'end': '604.959', 'text': 'unprompted. She drops a hint of the'}, {'start': '602.560', 'end': '608.000', 'text': "ongoing story she's living out, but"}, {'start': '604.959', 'end': '609.680', 'text': 'shares much with my own. Both Sid and I'}, {'start': '608.000', 'end': '612.000', 'text': 'had been through long relationships that'}, {'start': '609.680', 'end': '614.720', 'text': 'ended, leaving us with a different sense'}, {'start': '612.000', 'end': '617.760', 'text': 'of love, less tethered to an ideal than'}, {'start': '614.720', 'end': '619.480', 'text': 'before. We had both grown up religious'}, {'start': '617.760', 'end': '623.200', 'text': 'and had since drifted'}, {'start': '619.480', 'end': '626.399', 'text': "away. It makes me wonder, maybe I'm more"}, {'start': '623.200', 'end': '627.560', 'text': 'of a type than I thought. Maybe my story'}, {'start': '626.399', 'end': '631.600', 'text': "isn't so"}, {'start': '627.560', 'end': '634.000', 'text': "uncommon. That stings a little. I'd like"}, {'start': '631.600', 'end': '636.560', 'text': "to think I was different. I'd picture"}, {'start': '634.000', 'end': '639.279', 'text': 'myself doing this alone, the only one on'}, {'start': '636.560', 'end': '642.399', 'text': 'this plane, leaping into the unknown.'}, {'start': '639.279', 'end': '644.560', 'text': "But here's Sid, mid20s, willingly"}, {'start': '642.399', 'end': '646.839', 'text': 'handing herself over to other places,'}, {'start': '644.560', 'end': '649.360', 'text': "other people. It's her first time in"}, {'start': '646.839', 'end': '652.320', 'text': "Europe. What her path will be, I can't"}, {'start': '649.360', 'end': '655.079', 'text': "even guess. And she can't know mine."}, {'start': '652.320', 'end': '657.839', 'text': "More than that, we can't even know our"}, {'start': '655.079', 'end': '660.240', 'text': 'own. We sit there in the dim hum of the'}, {'start': '657.839', 'end': '662.600', 'text': 'cabin. Two people seeming no further'}, {'start': '660.240', 'end': '666.800', 'text': 'ahead than the next row of'}, {'start': '662.600', 'end': '668.399', 'text': 'seats. So instead, we look back. Through'}, {'start': '666.800', 'end': '670.399', 'text': 'the night, we pull memories from the'}, {'start': '668.399', 'end': '672.480', 'text': 'folds of our minds and hand them to each'}, {'start': '670.399', 'end': '676.160', 'text': 'other. The way you pass sweets across a'}, {'start': '672.480', 'end': '678.800', 'text': 'tray table. Family, exes, shifts in'}, {'start': '676.160', 'end': '682.279', 'text': 'belief, changes of heart. All of it'}, {'start': '678.800', 'end': '684.720', 'text': 'leading here to this loud and dark'}, {'start': '682.279', 'end': '688.160', 'text': 'flight. 6 months from now, we may have'}, {'start': '684.720', 'end': '690.720', 'text': 'new stories to tell. But for now, we'}, {'start': '688.160', 'end': '694.920', 'text': "share what we've got."}, {'start': '690.720', 'end': '694.920', 'text': "We'll be back right after this."}, {'start': '696.560', 'end': '701.519', 'text': 'The cabin is hushed somewhere between'}, {'start': '698.880', 'end': '704.680', 'text': 'sleep and waking. I crack open the'}, {'start': '701.519', 'end': '707.680', 'text': 'window shade and for a moment my breath'}, {'start': '704.680', 'end': '707.680', 'text': 'catches.'}, {'start': '708.519', 'end': '713.000', 'text': "Greenland. It doesn't look real. It"}, {'start': '711.040', 'end': '716.560', 'text': 'looks like something from before time'}, {'start': '713.000', 'end': '719.600', 'text': 'began. A world that has never softened,'}, {'start': '716.560', 'end': '721.920', 'text': 'never been tamed. Endless ice, endless'}, {'start': '719.600', 'end': '724.480', 'text': 'rock. Not rolling hills or gentle'}, {'start': '721.920', 'end': '726.720', 'text': 'slopes, but jagged ridges carved and'}, {'start': '724.480', 'end': '729.680', 'text': 'broken as if the earth itself had been'}, {'start': '726.720', 'end': '732.880', 'text': 'struck and left shattered. Snow covered'}, {'start': '729.680', 'end': '735.639', 'text': 'peaks jut up like frozen waves. Frozen'}, {'start': '732.880', 'end': '739.120', 'text': 'mid collapse, crashing into valleys of'}, {'start': '735.639', 'end': '741.839', 'text': 'shadow. Rivers of ice wide as highways'}, {'start': '739.120', 'end': '744.160', 'text': 'snake through the valleys. Vast glaciers'}, {'start': '741.839', 'end': '747.440', 'text': 'inching forward in a time scale beyond'}, {'start': '744.160', 'end': '750.560', 'text': 'human comprehension. The land is torn'}, {'start': '747.440', 'end': '753.639', 'text': 'and raw, shaped more by the wind than by'}, {'start': '750.560', 'end': '757.440', 'text': 'any hand. A place never meant for'}, {'start': '753.639', 'end': '760.399', 'text': 'people. Sid leans over, eyes wide.'}, {'start': '757.440', 'end': '763.959', 'text': "Neither of us speaks. Some places don't"}, {'start': '760.399', 'end': '767.279', 'text': 'invite words. They just swallow'}, {'start': '763.959', 'end': '770.000', 'text': 'them. We fly over a cliff edge where the'}, {'start': '767.279', 'end': '773.519', 'text': 'rock drops suddenly violently into'}, {'start': '770.000', 'end': '775.600', 'text': 'nothing. down down into a frozen fjord'}, {'start': '773.519', 'end': '778.120', 'text': 'where the black water lies still as'}, {'start': '775.600', 'end': '781.680', 'text': 'glass swallowing the reflection of the'}, {'start': '778.120', 'end': '785.760', 'text': 'sky. I imagine standing down there, no'}, {'start': '781.680', 'end': '788.079', 'text': 'roads, no help, no chance. I imagine the'}, {'start': '785.760', 'end': '791.120', 'text': "silence, the kind that doesn't just"}, {'start': '788.079', 'end': '794.200', 'text': 'surround you, but presses in, fills your'}, {'start': '791.120', 'end': '796.160', 'text': 'lungs, crushes your presence into'}, {'start': '794.200', 'end': '798.880', 'text': "insignificance. If you're down there,"}, {'start': '796.160', 'end': '800.240', 'text': "you don't last. You don't even become a"}, {'start': '798.880', 'end': '803.000', 'text': 'memory.'}, {'start': '800.240', 'end': '805.279', 'text': "It's beautiful. It's"}, {'start': '803.000', 'end': '807.720', 'text': 'terrifying. It makes me feel something'}, {'start': '805.279', 'end': '809.399', 'text': "I've been chasing since I left"}, {'start': '807.720', 'end': '812.800', 'text': 'home.'}, {'start': '809.399', 'end': '815.200', 'text': 'Small. Sid exhales, her breath fogging'}, {'start': '812.800', 'end': '818.200', 'text': 'against the window. Makes you feel'}, {'start': '815.200', 'end': '822.680', 'text': 'small, she murmurs as if reading my'}, {'start': '818.200', 'end': '824.839', 'text': 'mind. I nod. Small and'}, {'start': '822.680', 'end': '829.920', 'text': 'unprepared. We think of the world as'}, {'start': '824.839', 'end': '833.200', 'text': 'mapped, known, tamed. But not this.'}, {'start': '829.920', 'end': '836.760', 'text': 'This is something else. This is a world'}, {'start': '833.200', 'end': '839.720', 'text': 'beyond roads, beyond history, beyond'}, {'start': '836.760', 'end': '843.279', 'text': 'rescue. This is the edge of the'}, {'start': '839.720', 'end': '846.000', 'text': "world. And we're just passing over it,"}, {'start': '843.279', 'end': '848.160', 'text': 'safe in our pressurized metal shell,'}, {'start': '846.000', 'end': '849.760', 'text': 'skimming the surface, spared from the'}, {'start': '848.160', 'end': '851.959', 'text': 'reality of what it would mean to'}, {'start': '849.760', 'end': '854.720', 'text': 'actually be down'}, {'start': '851.959', 'end': '857.680', 'text': 'there. The plane rumbles forward,'}, {'start': '854.720', 'end': '860.920', 'text': 'crossing the last of the ice fields. And'}, {'start': '857.680', 'end': '864.040', 'text': 'then just like that, Greenland is behind'}, {'start': '860.920', 'end': '866.560', 'text': 'us, gone as quickly as it'}, {'start': '864.040', 'end': '869.120', 'text': 'came. 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Because when you meet someone'}, {'start': '898.000', 'end': '903.600', 'text': 'like this on the way half-hazardly, you'}, {'start': '901.360', 'end': '907.360', 'text': 'can really allow yourself to feel that'}, {'start': '903.600', 'end': '909.360', 'text': 'fear and dread of the expanse of Earth.'}, {'start': '907.360', 'end': '911.279', 'text': "You can allow yourself because here's"}, {'start': '909.360', 'end': '914.160', 'text': 'someone next to you feeling the very'}, {'start': '911.279', 'end': '917.120', 'text': 'same thing.'}, {'start': '914.160', 'end': '918.959', 'text': "Sid's hands rest easy in her lap, her"}, {'start': '917.120', 'end': '920.760', 'text': 'head propped against the seat and the'}, {'start': '918.959', 'end': '923.440', 'text': 'textured plastic'}, {'start': '920.760', 'end': '925.800', 'text': 'bulkhead. 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The very knowledge"}, {'start': '946.560', 'end': '953.440', 'text': "that out there is another me who's"}, {'start': '950.000', 'end': '954.920', 'text': 'seeking, struggling, and pushing on,'}, {'start': '953.440', 'end': '957.279', 'text': "that's what gives me"}, {'start': '954.920', 'end': '959.079', 'text': "comfort. I'm not the only one out there"}, {'start': '957.279', 'end': '962.399', 'text': 'chasing the'}, {'start': '959.079', 'end': '963.800', 'text': 'stars. In the last hour before landing,'}, {'start': '962.399', 'end': '966.240', 'text': 'we try and'}, {'start': '963.800', 'end': '972.240', 'text': "sleep. And then we're on the ground"}, {'start': '966.240', 'end': '972.240', 'text': 'taxiing down the airrip in fog and rain.'}, {'start': '972.320', 'end': '977.759', 'text': 'Reichuic airport. Fluorescent lights,'}, {'start': '975.199', 'end': '980.920', 'text': 'gray carpet, the low hum of a thousand'}, {'start': '977.759', 'end': '983.360', 'text': 'tired bodies waiting to leave or'}, {'start': '980.920', 'end': '985.360', 'text': 'arrive. I stretch out on a row of'}, {'start': '983.360', 'end': '988.959', 'text': 'plastic chairs, set an alarm, and close'}, {'start': '985.360', 'end': '990.720', 'text': 'my eyes. Taz is back in Manhattan,'}, {'start': '988.959', 'end': '993.600', 'text': 'probably rushing around, helping someone'}, {'start': '990.720', 'end': '995.920', 'text': 'move a couch or in a rehearsal, coaxing'}, {'start': '993.600', 'end': '998.079', 'text': 'out a perfect harmony.'}, {'start': '995.920', 'end': '1000.519', 'text': 'My parents are in Asheville, maybe out'}, {'start': '998.079', 'end': '1003.600', 'text': 'by the pond, stoking a'}, {'start': '1000.519', 'end': '1005.759', 'text': "bonfire. And I'm here waiting for my"}, {'start': '1003.600', 'end': '1009.240', 'text': 'next flight. A little further from'}, {'start': '1005.759', 'end': '1011.360', 'text': 'everyone I know. It happens so fast, the'}, {'start': '1009.240', 'end': '1013.120', 'text': "leaving. One moment you're wrapped in"}, {'start': '1011.360', 'end': '1016.160', 'text': "the familiar, the next you've slipped"}, {'start': '1013.120', 'end': '1018.279', 'text': 'free, unmed, and the world is suddenly'}, {'start': '1016.160', 'end': '1020.800', 'text': 'wide'}, {'start': '1018.279', 'end': '1023.600', 'text': 'open. Across the terminal, I catch a'}, {'start': '1020.800', 'end': '1025.600', 'text': "glimpse of Sid. She doesn't see me."}, {'start': '1023.600', 'end': '1028.000', 'text': "She's moving toward the exit, backpack"}, {'start': '1025.600', 'end': '1030.600', 'text': 'slung over one shoulder, hood half up,'}, {'start': '1028.000', 'end': '1032.799', 'text': "like she's not quite ready for the cold"}, {'start': '1030.600', 'end': '1034.240', 'text': 'outside. She walks with that steady kind'}, {'start': '1032.799', 'end': '1037.039', 'text': 'of purpose that says, "You don\'t have a'}, {'start': '1034.240', 'end': '1039.039', 'text': 'plan, but you know you\'ll find one." For'}, {'start': '1037.039', 'end': '1042.240', 'text': 'a moment, I think about calling out a'}, {'start': '1039.039', 'end': '1043.000', 'text': 'simple, "See you around." But I let the'}, {'start': '1042.240', 'end': '1046.480', 'text': 'thought'}, {'start': '1043.000', 'end': '1048.480', 'text': 'pass. Not everything needs to be spoken.'}, {'start': '1046.480', 'end': '1051.280', 'text': 'And besides, what would I really be'}, {'start': '1048.480', 'end': '1053.360', 'text': 'saying? See you next time. There'}, {'start': '1051.280', 'end': '1056.240', 'text': "probably isn't a next time."}, {'start': '1053.360', 'end': '1056.240', 'text': "There's a this"}, {'start': '1058.360', 'end': '1061.880', 'text': 'time. She turns a corner and disappears'}, {'start': '1060.799', 'end': '1064.320', 'text': 'into the'}, {'start': '1061.880', 'end': '1066.400', 'text': 'crowd. The image of that thin tattoo'}, {'start': '1064.320', 'end': '1069.919', 'text': 'running up her arm starts to wave in my'}, {'start': '1066.400', 'end': '1072.600', 'text': 'mind. A tough and timid plant growing,'}, {'start': '1069.919', 'end': '1076.360', 'text': 'fluttering in the ceruan Icelandic'}, {'start': '1072.600', 'end': '1078.640', 'text': 'breeze. I exhale. The first step is'}, {'start': '1076.360', 'end': '1082.000', 'text': "done. We've put an ocean between"}, {'start': '1078.640', 'end': '1084.080', 'text': 'ourselves and where we came from.'}, {'start': '1082.000', 'end': '1086.799', 'text': 'But the real journey, the watching of'}, {'start': '1084.080', 'end': '1089.600', 'text': 'the road approaching and passing away,'}, {'start': '1086.799', 'end': '1089.600', 'text': 'that is still'}, {'start': '1089.799', 'end': '1095.039', 'text': 'ahead. Next time on Go and Find Out, I'}, {'start': '1093.280', 'end': '1097.679', 'text': 'climb to an abandoned monastery on the'}, {'start': '1095.039', 'end': '1099.600', 'text': 'edge of a city. We hop the gate, make'}, {'start': '1097.679', 'end': '1102.080', 'text': 'our way through the woods, and stand at'}, {'start': '1099.600', 'end': '1104.480', 'text': 'the ridge overlooking the world below.'}, {'start': '1102.080', 'end': '1106.440', 'text': 'But as we turn to leave, I see'}, {'start': '1104.480', 'end': '1108.880', 'text': 'something.'}, {'start': '1106.440', 'end': '1111.840', 'text': 'Someone just beyond the barbed wire'}, {'start': '1108.880', 'end': '1115.000', 'text': 'fence, pale in the moonlight, moving in'}, {'start': '1111.840', 'end': '1118.640', 'text': 'step with me. Not looking at me, but'}, {'start': '1115.000', 'end': '1122.000', 'text': 'there. A ghost? A squatter? A trick of'}, {'start': '1118.640', 'end': '1123.960', 'text': "the night? I don't know. But something"}, {'start': '1122.000', 'end': '1127.200', 'text': 'tells me I saw'}, {'start': '1123.960', 'end': '1130.080', 'text': 'myself. Next time I confront the fantasy'}, {'start': '1127.200', 'end': '1135.240', 'text': 'of living a life on tracks and come face'}, {'start': '1130.080', 'end': '1135.240', 'text': 'to face with a figure in the dark.'}, {'start': '1135.600', 'end': '1139.679', 'text': "That's it for this episode of Go and"}, {'start': '1137.440', 'end': '1142.400', 'text': 'Find Out. Thanks for spending this time'}, {'start': '1139.679', 'end': '1145.120', 'text': 'with me. Seriously, it means a lot that'}, {'start': '1142.400', 'end': '1146.880', 'text': "you're here listening to this story."}, {'start': '1145.120', 'end': '1149.120', 'text': "This show is created, and let's be"}, {'start': '1146.880', 'end': '1151.360', 'text': 'honest, sometimes completely winged by'}, {'start': '1149.120', 'end': '1153.679', 'text': 'me, Johnny Wright, with music by me'}, {'start': '1151.360', 'end': '1155.360', 'text': 'unless otherwise noted. This episode'}, {'start': '1153.679', 'end': '1158.480', 'text': 'features field recordings of church'}, {'start': '1155.360', 'end': '1160.000', 'text': 'organs in France and Czech Republic. If'}, {'start': '1158.480', 'end': '1161.919', 'text': "you're enjoying the ride, follow along"}, {'start': '1160.000', 'end': '1164.799', 'text': 'so new episodes come straight to you'}, {'start': '1161.919', 'end': '1167.360', 'text': "every Thursday. And hey, if you've got a"}, {'start': '1164.799', 'end': '1169.840', 'text': 'second, leaving a quick review or rating'}, {'start': '1167.360', 'end': '1171.919', 'text': "really helps spread the word. I'd love"}, {'start': '1169.840', 'end': '1173.919', 'text': 'to hear from you. Thoughts, stories,'}, {'start': '1171.919', 'end': '1176.240', 'text': "weird travel tips, whatever's on your"}, {'start': '1173.919', 'end': '1179.360', 'text': 'mind. Drop me a line at go and find'}, {'start': '1176.240', 'end': '1181.600', 'text': "outpod atgmail.com and I'll do my best"}, {'start': '1179.360', 'end': '1183.760', 'text': 'to write you back. And more than'}, {'start': '1181.600', 'end': '1187.280', 'text': 'anything, I hope this episode sparked'}, {'start': '1183.760', 'end': '1189.840', 'text': 'something, however small, a question, a'}, {'start': '1187.280', 'end': '1191.760', 'text': 'dream, a reminder that your life is'}, {'start': '1189.840', 'end': '1193.440', 'text': 'still unfolding.'}, {'start': '1191.760', 'end': '1197.360', 'text': "All right, that's all I got. See you"}, {'start': '1193.440', 'end': '1201.960', 'text': 'next time. Until then, go and find out.'}, {'start': '1197.360', 'end': '1201.960', 'text': 'Go and find out. Go and find'}]