Make Astrology Fun Again ~ WHY INNER WORK?
Jose Antonio
[{'start': '4.960', 'end': '8.160', 'text': 'Hello and welcome'}, {'start': '9.639', 'end': '15.880', 'text': "again. This one, I think this one's kind"}, {'start': '13.280', 'end': '18.880', 'text': 'of obvious, but sometimes not so'}, {'start': '15.880', 'end': '21.520', 'text': 'obvious. Um, oh, and welcome to my'}, {'start': '18.880', 'end': '24.400', 'text': 'channel. My name is Jose. I do a bunch'}, {'start': '21.520', 'end': '27.119', 'text': 'of things, a lot of different things.'}, {'start': '24.400', 'end': '29.279', 'text': 'Well, not a lot, but kind of. Um, I do'}, {'start': '27.119', 'end': '32.120', 'text': 'music, uh, astrologies as you can see'}, {'start': '29.279', 'end': '36.399', 'text': 'from this video.'}, {'start': '32.120', 'end': '38.559', 'text': 'Um, did I say music? Okay. And also'}, {'start': '36.399', 'end': '41.520', 'text': "other forms of divination. I'm new to"}, {'start': '38.559', 'end': '43.920', 'text': 'divination like, well, astrology is'}, {'start': '41.520', 'end': '48.559', 'text': 'divination. Um, other things like runes,'}, {'start': '43.920', 'end': '51.120', 'text': "tarot cards, uh, um, oracle cards. I've"}, {'start': '48.559', 'end': '52.879', 'text': "also tried hydromancy. That one's a fun"}, {'start': '51.120', 'end': '55.120', 'text': 'one. I only made one video of it, but'}, {'start': '52.879', 'end': '57.920', 'text': "I've been kind of practicing it, not"}, {'start': '55.120', 'end': '60.719', 'text': "recording it. Um, you'll see what it"}, {'start': '57.920', 'end': '65.040', 'text': 'looks like. Um, but there is a video on'}, {'start': '60.719', 'end': '66.240', 'text': 'my list of what is this? My if you go to'}, {'start': '65.040', 'end': '69.680', 'text': "this channel itself, you'll see"}, {'start': '66.240', 'end': '71.280', 'text': 'hydromancy as an actual folder. But the'}, {'start': '69.680', 'end': '72.439', 'text': 'one thing I wanted to talk about today'}, {'start': '71.280', 'end': '78.200', 'text': 'is'}, {'start': '72.439', 'end': '81.520', 'text': 'um the idea of um as you get better with'}, {'start': '78.200', 'end': '84.400', 'text': "astrology don't forget that it's form of"}, {'start': '81.520', 'end': '86.640', 'text': 'healing as well. Okay, that means you'}, {'start': '84.400', 'end': '89.280', 'text': 'got to do the work also for yourself. So'}, {'start': '86.640', 'end': '91.520', 'text': 'heal as you go along with this, improve'}, {'start': '89.280', 'end': '93.360', 'text': 'on this um as you get better with'}, {'start': '91.520', 'end': '94.880', 'text': 'astrology as you do better readings for'}, {'start': '93.360', 'end': '97.759', 'text': 'yourself starting with yourself and then'}, {'start': '94.880', 'end': '99.840', 'text': 'for others because what it does it kind'}, {'start': '97.759', 'end': '101.439', 'text': "of I know that it's usually kind of more"}, {'start': '99.840', 'end': '103.920', 'text': 'like a knowledge thing and you kind of'}, {'start': '101.439', 'end': '106.320', 'text': 'think okay well for some people it might'}, {'start': '103.920', 'end': '108.720', 'text': 'be a form of like confirmation that it'}, {'start': '106.320', 'end': '111.040', 'text': 'went through this and all this stuff but'}, {'start': '108.720', 'end': '113.680', 'text': 'you can there is a way to go about it'}, {'start': '111.040', 'end': '117.280', 'text': 'where if you learn about specific areas'}, {'start': '113.680', 'end': '121.040', 'text': 'of astrology Like for example, the big'}, {'start': '117.280', 'end': '124.240', 'text': 'one is um people go right away into like'}, {'start': '121.040', 'end': '127.560', 'text': 'specific houses like where they could do'}, {'start': '124.240', 'end': '130.239', 'text': 'like healing. Um like for'}, {'start': '127.560', 'end': '132.400', 'text': 'example, the sixth house would be the'}, {'start': '130.239', 'end': '134.160', 'text': 'house of the unconscious opposite of the'}, {'start': '132.400', 'end': '137.599', 'text': "12th house. You know, I'll show it to"}, {'start': '134.160', 'end': '141.440', 'text': 'you right now. So, go to the website, go'}, {'start': '137.599', 'end': '145.959', 'text': 'to a chart, and just with a basic chart,'}, {'start': '141.440', 'end': '149.760', 'text': "you'll see um hopefully you can see"}, {'start': '145.959', 'end': '149.760', 'text': 'it. Okay,'}, {'start': '149.959', 'end': '155.319', 'text': "so give me a second. I'll delete all"}, {'start': '152.720', 'end': '158.959', 'text': "these ones. We don't need that one right"}, {'start': '155.319', 'end': '162.000', 'text': 'now. Okay, that was for me earlier.'}, {'start': '158.959', 'end': '167.080', 'text': "Let's see. Okay. So, going to astro.com"}, {'start': '162.000', 'end': '169.840', 'text': 'as usual to see the chart itself, right?'}, {'start': '167.080', 'end': '172.760', 'text': "So, yeah, I had Veruna left over. Let's"}, {'start': '169.840', 'end': '175.360', 'text': "leave it. Let's leave it there. Okay."}, {'start': '172.760', 'end': '176.800', 'text': 'So, if you look at the placements, if'}, {'start': '175.360', 'end': '178.239', 'text': 'you look at what it looks like, it looks'}, {'start': '176.800', 'end': '180.400', 'text': 'like a wheel, right? For those who are'}, {'start': '178.239', 'end': '182.239', 'text': 'new to this, just looks like a wheel,'}, {'start': '180.400', 'end': '184.560', 'text': "right? And you're probably wondering,"}, {'start': '182.239', 'end': '187.440', 'text': "well, there's like these, it looks like"}, {'start': '184.560', 'end': '189.200', 'text': "a piece of like pie, right? And there's"}, {'start': '187.440', 'end': '191.040', 'text': "pieces of it, right? It's like, you"}, {'start': '189.200', 'end': '193.120', 'text': 'know, you know when you you go to class'}, {'start': '191.040', 'end': '196.319', 'text': 'and you learn in math, you have like'}, {'start': '193.120', 'end': '199.680', 'text': 'fractions and all that stuff. Well, in'}, {'start': '196.319', 'end': '202.720', 'text': "astrology, it's not really the same. Um,"}, {'start': '199.680', 'end': '205.040', 'text': "but you see how there's like if you go"}, {'start': '202.720', 'end': '207.840', 'text': 'to if you actually put an angle to this,'}, {'start': '205.040', 'end': '210.879', 'text': "if you say you see how like let's say"}, {'start': '207.840', 'end': '212.480', 'text': 'below this one and you see the two there'}, {'start': '210.879', 'end': '214.480', 'text': 'and then you see the eight and you see'}, {'start': '212.480', 'end': '216.400', 'text': 'the seven. You see how the line there is'}, {'start': '214.480', 'end': '219.840', 'text': 'actually the same as the other one here?'}, {'start': '216.400', 'end': '221.519', 'text': "That's because those are cusps. So the"}, {'start': '219.840', 'end': '224.879', 'text': 'cusp of the second house, by the way,'}, {'start': '221.519', 'end': '224.879', 'text': 'cusp is at the beginning'}, {'start': '225.720', 'end': '230.879', 'text': 'of each house. So these are houses. So'}, {'start': '228.720', 'end': '234.879', 'text': 'when you when you see 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9'}, {'start': '230.879', 'end': '237.200', 'text': '10 11 12 those are'}, {'start': '234.879', 'end': '240.879', 'text': 'um cusp of the houses. So the beginning'}, {'start': '237.200', 'end': '243.159', 'text': 'of those not after. Okay. And the cuffs'}, {'start': '240.879', 'end': '247.120', 'text': 'only apply to let me make this'}, {'start': '243.159', 'end': '249.439', 'text': 'straightforward and direct. houses only.'}, {'start': '247.120', 'end': '251.840', 'text': 'It does not apply to you can say'}, {'start': '249.439', 'end': '254.239', 'text': 'probably oh cusp of the this sign and'}, {'start': '251.840', 'end': '256.320', 'text': 'all that stuff. You can sort of say that'}, {'start': '254.239', 'end': '258.400', 'text': 'meaning like the cusp in the beginning'}, {'start': '256.320', 'end': '261.680', 'text': 'but typically they only apply to the'}, {'start': '258.400', 'end': '263.120', 'text': "houses. Not to be rigid but that's it"}, {'start': '261.680', 'end': '265.040', 'text': 'makes more sense that way. You know'}, {'start': '263.120', 'end': '266.720', 'text': "there's a reason for order there's a"}, {'start': '265.040', 'end': '268.000', 'text': 'reason for structure and all that stuff.'}, {'start': '266.720', 'end': '270.320', 'text': 'And this is one of those things because'}, {'start': '268.000', 'end': '272.160', 'text': 'it makes the readings much clearer if'}, {'start': '270.320', 'end': '274.000', 'text': 'you have a way to kind of follow through'}, {'start': '272.160', 'end': '277.720', 'text': 'something like problem if you have'}, {'start': '274.000', 'end': '280.320', 'text': 'something to follow. So,'}, {'start': '277.720', 'end': '281.919', 'text': "uh, so the reason I'm mentioning the"}, {'start': '280.320', 'end': '283.600', 'text': 'houses is because if you look at the'}, {'start': '281.919', 'end': '285.680', 'text': "houses, they're kind of opposite of each"}, {'start': '283.600', 'end': '287.360', 'text': 'other, right? But then you also see'}, {'start': '285.680', 'end': '289.360', 'text': "sometimes you'll have these lines. You"}, {'start': '287.360', 'end': '291.360', 'text': 'see like this Chiron, this is Chiron'}, {'start': '289.360', 'end': '293.759', 'text': 'right here at the very top. And you go'}, {'start': '291.360', 'end': '295.919', 'text': "at the bottom, you see that it's kind of"}, {'start': '293.759', 'end': '299.160', 'text': 'like you see the red line right there.'}, {'start': '295.919', 'end': '302.120', 'text': "That's opposite of my Mercury Uranus"}, {'start': '299.160', 'end': '304.000', 'text': 'conjunction. So that aspect right there,'}, {'start': '302.120', 'end': '306.560', 'text': 'oppositions, every time you have'}, {'start': '304.000', 'end': '309.680', 'text': "something opposing each other, that's"}, {'start': '306.560', 'end': '310.960', 'text': 'actually tied to shadow. Every time'}, {'start': '309.680', 'end': '314.160', 'text': "there's something you're trying to"}, {'start': '310.960', 'end': '315.720', 'text': 'balance and integrate and put together,'}, {'start': '314.160', 'end': '317.680', 'text': 'that is'}, {'start': '315.720', 'end': '319.360', 'text': 'shadow. Because if you think about'}, {'start': '317.680', 'end': '321.080', 'text': "shadow, I mean, there's an aspect of"}, {'start': '319.360', 'end': '323.800', 'text': "yourself and you're pointing a finger at"}, {'start': '321.080', 'end': '326.560', 'text': "someone, right? If you're going"}, {'start': '323.800', 'end': '328.720', 'text': "like you did this and but you're just"}, {'start': '326.560', 'end': '330.080', 'text': 'owning it part of yourself. Many people'}, {'start': '328.720', 'end': '331.360', 'text': 'are afraid to go into shadow work'}, {'start': '330.080', 'end': '333.120', 'text': 'because they feel like they might find'}, {'start': '331.360', 'end': '336.080', 'text': 'the truth about themselves. They go deep'}, {'start': '333.120', 'end': '337.919', 'text': 'and they go deep and they go deep. But'}, {'start': '336.080', 'end': '340.479', 'text': "that's not really the case because the"}, {'start': '337.919', 'end': '342.400', 'text': 'more you find more about yourself and'}, {'start': '340.479', 'end': '344.479', 'text': 'the disowned parts of yourself which'}, {'start': '342.400', 'end': '345.240', 'text': 'happened when you were children in order'}, {'start': '344.479', 'end': '348.800', 'text': 'to'}, {'start': '345.240', 'end': '350.639', 'text': 'fulfill the desires of other people'}, {'start': '348.800', 'end': '352.880', 'text': 'because we wanted to be feel safe. He'}, {'start': '350.639', 'end': '355.919', 'text': "wanted to belong. We wanted to we didn't"}, {'start': '352.880', 'end': '358.400', 'text': 'want to be you know kicked out the house'}, {'start': '355.919', 'end': '360.800', 'text': 'and left to die in the streets and all'}, {'start': '358.400', 'end': '362.080', 'text': 'that stuff. A lot of a lot of times we'}, {'start': '360.800', 'end': '364.280', 'text': "so that's what happens when you're a"}, {'start': '362.080', 'end': '368.240', 'text': "child we don't know how else to"}, {'start': '364.280', 'end': '371.479', 'text': 'cope right many of us most humans a lot'}, {'start': '368.240', 'end': '374.360', 'text': "of humans not today it's changing in"}, {'start': '371.479', 'end': '377.240', 'text': 'generations but it'}, {'start': '374.360', 'end': '379.440', 'text': 'is that exact thing that creates the'}, {'start': '377.240', 'end': '382.160', 'text': "shadow. It's the part of ourselves that"}, {'start': '379.440', 'end': '383.680', 'text': "we refuse to accept. So it's a disowned"}, {'start': '382.160', 'end': '386.720', 'text': 'be you know many people if you go to'}, {'start': '383.680', 'end': '388.800', 'text': 'shadow work tequ is a big one of the'}, {'start': '386.720', 'end': '390.160', 'text': "people that I've gone through or the"}, {'start': '388.800', 'end': '394.319', 'text': "teachers that I've gone through is"}, {'start': '390.160', 'end': '396.240', 'text': 'Debbie Ford um rest in peace she passed'}, {'start': '394.319', 'end': '399.120', 'text': 'away years years ago more than a decade'}, {'start': '396.240', 'end': '400.800', 'text': 'ago but I started with her and a lot of'}, {'start': '399.120', 'end': '402.479', 'text': "people are going to shadow stuff so it's"}, {'start': '400.800', 'end': '404.240', 'text': 'really embracing that part of yourself'}, {'start': '402.479', 'end': '406.479', 'text': 'the gift that you see in others instead'}, {'start': '404.240', 'end': '408.639', 'text': 'of blaming and pointing and fing finger'}, {'start': '406.479', 'end': '409.919', 'text': 'pointing and projecting onto them you'}, {'start': '408.639', 'end': '412.000', 'text': 'embrace that part of as part of'}, {'start': '409.919', 'end': '414.160', 'text': "yourself. It's a long story but shadow"}, {'start': '412.000', 'end': '416.000', 'text': 'work is exactly that. But going into'}, {'start': '414.160', 'end': '418.039', 'text': 'deeper shadow work can be done through'}, {'start': '416.000', 'end': '421.039', 'text': 'astrology. Yes, it can be done through'}, {'start': '418.039', 'end': '424.160', 'text': 'astrology. So usually how that works'}, {'start': '421.039', 'end': '426.720', 'text': 'first is if yes you have oppositions'}, {'start': '424.160', 'end': '429.160', 'text': 'oppositional aspects. Okay, it just'}, {'start': '426.720', 'end': '431.599', 'text': 'means that the planet aspects are'}, {'start': '429.160', 'end': '434.120', 'text': 'basically how planets behave with one of'}, {'start': '431.599', 'end': '437.479', 'text': 'them. In other words, the'}, {'start': '434.120', 'end': '441.199', 'text': 'planets, if you make this sort of'}, {'start': '437.479', 'end': '445.599', 'text': 'simple, the planets are'}, {'start': '441.199', 'end': '446.759', 'text': 'um fragment part fragmented parts of'}, {'start': '445.599', 'end': '449.280', 'text': 'um'}, {'start': '446.759', 'end': '450.960', 'text': 'everyone. Another one is the universe.'}, {'start': '449.280', 'end': '452.360', 'text': "I'm not really making sense right now."}, {'start': '450.960', 'end': '454.400', 'text': "Um it's"}, {'start': '452.360', 'end': '456.160', 'text': "fragmentation. So there's a part of"}, {'start': '454.400', 'end': '457.680', 'text': "yourself that is the ego self. There's"}, {'start': '456.160', 'end': '460.960', 'text': 'the emotional self, the moon for'}, {'start': '457.680', 'end': '463.919', 'text': 'example, the wounded self, the victim'}, {'start': '460.960', 'end': '467.039', 'text': 'self or the love relationship self, the'}, {'start': '463.919', 'end': '468.960', 'text': 'horny self, the, you know, fantastic'}, {'start': '467.039', 'end': '470.960', 'text': 'self, the imaginary self, the creative'}, {'start': '468.960', 'end': '472.800', 'text': "self. There's always aspects of"}, {'start': '470.960', 'end': '474.720', 'text': "ourselves that's in the charts. It's"}, {'start': '472.800', 'end': '476.160', 'text': "going to show up whether it's just the"}, {'start': '474.720', 'end': '478.400', 'text': 'actual planet themselves or the'}, {'start': '476.160', 'end': '481.680', 'text': "combination of that. Either way, it's"}, {'start': '478.400', 'end': '485.039', 'text': 'fragmentation. It is part of being human'}, {'start': '481.680', 'end': '489.039', 'text': 'like rather living in this fragmented'}, {'start': '485.039', 'end': '489.039', 'text': 'world which is third dimension.'}, {'start': '490.759', 'end': '496.240', 'text': 'So whenever we look at oppositions in'}, {'start': '494.240', 'end': '499.280', 'text': "the charts anything that's actually even"}, {'start': '496.240', 'end': '500.879', 'text': 'opposite not necessarily aspects we will'}, {'start': '499.280', 'end': '503.680', 'text': 'see something. So for example, if you'}, {'start': '500.879', 'end': '506.440', 'text': 'look at the angles, ascendant, descend,'}, {'start': '503.680', 'end': '509.599', 'text': "that's the name of the rock band, hard"}, {'start': '506.440', 'end': '512.159', 'text': 'rock. Is it hard rock? Whatever classic'}, {'start': '509.599', 'end': '514.159', 'text': 'rock, AC/DC, right? So that represents'}, {'start': '512.159', 'end': '515.880', 'text': 'AC/DC, meaning like your relationship'}, {'start': '514.159', 'end': '521.200', 'text': 'with others and your relationship with'}, {'start': '515.880', 'end': '523.599', 'text': 'yourself. So um the sun often represents'}, {'start': '521.200', 'end': '525.200', 'text': 'what energy we grew up with and what we'}, {'start': '523.599', 'end': '527.200', 'text': 'rejected. So therefore, we tend to'}, {'start': '525.200', 'end': '530.880', 'text': 'attract that because we rejected it.'}, {'start': '527.200', 'end': '530.880', 'text': "It's kind of like saying"}, {'start': '530.959', 'end': '535.760', 'text': 'If you bury things down in deep into the'}, {'start': '533.920', 'end': '537.760', 'text': "water, what happens? It's bound to"}, {'start': '535.760', 'end': '539.519', 'text': "surface, right? That's because you're"}, {'start': '537.760', 'end': '542.080', 'text': "just hiding it. You're not really"}, {'start': '539.519', 'end': '544.800', 'text': 'accepting as part of part of existence'}, {'start': '542.080', 'end': '548.399', 'text': 'itself. So what happens is exactly that'}, {'start': '544.800', 'end': '550.800', 'text': 'shadow comes in and therefore you we'}, {'start': '548.399', 'end': '553.399', 'text': 'tend to attract people. So in my case,'}, {'start': '550.800', 'end': '555.760', 'text': 'for example, my descendant was in'}, {'start': '553.399', 'end': '557.279', 'text': 'Capricorn. And when I say was, notice I'}, {'start': '555.760', 'end': '561.320', 'text': 'said was because this was a time of'}, {'start': '557.279', 'end': '563.519', 'text': 'birth. Simple as that. Descendant was in'}, {'start': '561.320', 'end': '566.399', 'text': 'Capricorn. So that means that I grew up'}, {'start': '563.519', 'end': '568.399', 'text': "in a family where it's very, you know,"}, {'start': '566.399', 'end': '572.160', 'text': "opposite of cancer. It's like very"}, {'start': '568.399', 'end': '575.320', 'text': 'unemotional, lack of um connection,'}, {'start': '572.160', 'end': '578.160', 'text': 'emotional connection,'}, {'start': '575.320', 'end': '580.560', 'text': 'security, you know, emotional security.'}, {'start': '578.160', 'end': '583.839', 'text': 'And so what happened was I tended to'}, {'start': '580.560', 'end': '586.240', 'text': 'attract a lot of people who were very'}, {'start': '583.839', 'end': '588.480', 'text': 'much like that. A lot of them are earth'}, {'start': '586.240', 'end': '592.399', 'text': 'signs which still applies to Capricorn.'}, {'start': '588.480', 'end': '594.760', 'text': 'A lot of them were also very like uh and'}, {'start': '592.399', 'end': '597.240', 'text': 'is to a certain to a certain degree very'}, {'start': '594.760', 'end': '600.959', 'text': 'like what is a'}, {'start': '597.240', 'end': '602.640', 'text': "doineering. Okay. So I didn't like that."}, {'start': '600.959', 'end': '604.080', 'text': 'So what happened was I started to'}, {'start': '602.640', 'end': '608.360', 'text': "identify with you think that's the first"}, {'start': '604.080', 'end': '612.240', 'text': 'house which is represented by the'}, {'start': '608.360', 'end': '614.480', 'text': 'ascendant. Okay. And so I wanted to show'}, {'start': '612.240', 'end': '616.160', 'text': "people that I'm not so much wanted to"}, {'start': '614.480', 'end': '618.959', 'text': "show people. It's almost like a natural"}, {'start': '616.160', 'end': '620.320', 'text': "subconscious reaction. And it's funny"}, {'start': '618.959', 'end': '622.399', 'text': 'because if you look at it, the 12th'}, {'start': '620.320', 'end': '626.160', 'text': 'house is the house also a subconscious'}, {'start': '622.399', 'end': '628.640', 'text': "house. Sorry, I'm m you right now. Um"}, {'start': '626.160', 'end': '630.720', 'text': 'and so what that means is that the as'}, {'start': '628.640', 'end': '632.320', 'text': 'the subconscious rises into the first'}, {'start': '630.720', 'end': '634.480', 'text': 'house, this is exactly where'}, {'start': '632.320', 'end': '636.480', 'text': 'identification starts to happen. We'}, {'start': '634.480', 'end': '638.240', 'text': 'start to identify with the ascendant and'}, {'start': '636.480', 'end': '640.399', 'text': 'saying this is how I package myself to'}, {'start': '638.240', 'end': '642.399', 'text': 'the world. This is my mask. So you cover'}, {'start': '640.399', 'end': '645.200', 'text': "yourself up saying I'm hiding this in"}, {'start': '642.399', 'end': '647.399', 'text': 'the womb. So this is the shadow saying'}, {'start': '645.200', 'end': '649.839', 'text': 'um I want to be the that kind of'}, {'start': '647.399', 'end': '651.920', 'text': 'emotional emotionally what do you call'}, {'start': '649.839', 'end': '654.399', 'text': "that very nurturing kind of person who's"}, {'start': '651.920', 'end': '656.160', 'text': 'very giving and very you know family'}, {'start': '654.399', 'end': '658.160', 'text': 'oriented and all that stuff that you'}, {'start': '656.160', 'end': '660.240', 'text': "know family is important right so that's"}, {'start': '658.160', 'end': '661.079', 'text': 'how I subconsciously portrayed myself to'}, {'start': '660.240', 'end': '664.560', 'text': 'the'}, {'start': '661.079', 'end': '666.880', 'text': 'world unknowing unbeknownst to my young'}, {'start': '664.560', 'end': '668.279', 'text': 'self that I was still attracting'}, {'start': '666.880', 'end': '671.279', 'text': 'actually the'}, {'start': '668.279', 'end': '673.360', 'text': 'opposite so I needed to bridge the two'}, {'start': '671.279', 'end': '675.519', 'text': 'that I need to embrace that Capricorn'}, {'start': '673.360', 'end': '679.040', 'text': 'energy, that archetype of Capricorn,'}, {'start': '675.519', 'end': '682.000', 'text': 'which is, you know, disciplined,'}, {'start': '679.040', 'end': '683.090', 'text': 'um, being consistent, um, being'}, {'start': '682.000', 'end': '685.720', 'text': 'grounded,'}, {'start': '683.090', 'end': '689.800', 'text': '[Music]'}, {'start': '685.720', 'end': '692.880', 'text': 'um, having a specific foundation, being'}, {'start': '689.800', 'end': '694.720', 'text': 'more objective. Okay, those kind of'}, {'start': '692.880', 'end': '696.959', 'text': 'things. So, I had to learn that. And'}, {'start': '694.720', 'end': '699.279', 'text': 'then I started I started attracting less'}, {'start': '696.959', 'end': '701.360', 'text': 'and less and less those kind of people.'}, {'start': '699.279', 'end': '703.680', 'text': "So that's an example of the healing that"}, {'start': '701.360', 'end': '707.279', 'text': 'goes through. Um but it takes more than'}, {'start': '703.680', 'end': '708.640', 'text': "just that. Um let's go to one planet"}, {'start': '707.279', 'end': '710.800', 'text': 'that usually is a lot to do with'}, {'start': '708.640', 'end': '712.880', 'text': "wounding healing and that's Chiron. My"}, {'start': '710.800', 'end': '715.200', 'text': 'Chiron was in retrograde in Taurus in'}, {'start': '712.880', 'end': '717.360', 'text': 'the 10th house. So Chiron is often the'}, {'start': '715.200', 'end': '719.880', 'text': 'wounded healer. 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So, Chiron retrograde'}, {'start': '862.160', 'end': '866.720', 'text': 'is'}, {'start': '863.480', 'end': '869.600', 'text': 'um uh meaning it retrograde often means'}, {'start': '866.720', 'end': '871.600', 'text': "several things. Once it's an insecurity,"}, {'start': '869.600', 'end': '873.279', 'text': "it's an uncertainty. But if you think"}, {'start': '871.600', 'end': '875.519', 'text': 'about the symbolism, again, we talked'}, {'start': '873.279', 'end': '878.519', 'text': 'about symbolism and how it feels if if'}, {'start': '875.519', 'end': '881.519', 'text': 'something pulls back, it feels'}, {'start': '878.519', 'end': '883.600', 'text': 'like you think of it as like a a machine'}, {'start': '881.519', 'end': '885.519', 'text': "that's doesn't really function well. And"}, {'start': '883.600', 'end': '886.839', 'text': "then you see like let's say the boiler,"}, {'start': '885.519', 'end': '889.279', 'text': 'it'}, {'start': '886.839', 'end': '891.199', 'text': "goes and it's just like it's loud"}, {'start': '889.279', 'end': '892.560', 'text': "because there's something stuck, right?"}, {'start': '891.199', 'end': '894.320', 'text': "That's exactly what it is. So it feels"}, {'start': '892.560', 'end': '896.399', 'text': "like it's repeating itself like a broken"}, {'start': '894.320', 'end': '898.320', 'text': 'record. Basically, a broken record will'}, {'start': '896.399', 'end': '900.639', 'text': 'continue to play itself in the same'}, {'start': '898.320', 'end': '903.199', 'text': "exact spot because it's stuck. Because"}, {'start': '900.639', 'end': '904.720', 'text': "it's broken. So that's what happens with"}, {'start': '903.199', 'end': '906.320', 'text': "retrograde. It doesn't mean that it's"}, {'start': '904.720', 'end': '908.880', 'text': "broken. It means that there's something"}, {'start': '906.320', 'end': '912.760', 'text': 'an attention that needs to be placed on'}, {'start': '908.880', 'end': '912.760', 'text': 'that specific wound.'}, {'start': '913.760', 'end': '922.199', 'text': 'Being in Taurus here means that it was'}, {'start': '917.320', 'end': '925.680', 'text': 'about self-worth. It was about values,'}, {'start': '922.199', 'end': '927.920', 'text': 'self-esteem. Um, also possessions. When'}, {'start': '925.680', 'end': '929.440', 'text': "I was 16, it's funny because the word 16"}, {'start': '927.920', 'end': '932.240', 'text': 'here. When I was 16, literally around'}, {'start': '929.440', 'end': '934.240', 'text': 'that age, um, I went to I was a'}, {'start': '932.240', 'end': '935.920', 'text': "supportive concert and that's when my"}, {'start': '934.240', 'end': '938.160', 'text': 'uh, I think I shared it before, one of'}, {'start': '935.920', 'end': '940.800', 'text': 'my Oboard that was like beautiful. It'}, {'start': '938.160', 'end': '943.440', 'text': 'was just like my dad got it for me. It'}, {'start': '940.800', 'end': '946.240', 'text': 'was on it was still on you under rental'}, {'start': '943.440', 'end': '947.920', 'text': 'but it was like perfect way to start. It'}, {'start': '946.240', 'end': '949.600', 'text': 'was like oh it had everything in it. It'}, {'start': '947.920', 'end': '951.839', 'text': "was just like it was just it wasn't a"}, {'start': '949.600', 'end': '953.880', 'text': 'student model. 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But the point is fact is that'}, {'start': '980.160', 'end': '984.959', 'text': 'it did happen. It continues to happen'}, {'start': '982.160', 'end': '987.759', 'text': "even till this day. uh where there's um"}, {'start': '984.959', 'end': '990.240', 'text': "well not really there's a thing about"}, {'start': '987.759', 'end': '991.920', 'text': "Chiron in with Taurus because it's"}, {'start': '990.240', 'end': '994.399', 'text': 'reputation'}, {'start': '991.920', 'end': '996.880', 'text': "um it's and because of the 10th house"}, {'start': '994.399', 'end': '999.600', 'text': "it's reputation a lot of it is like my"}, {'start': '996.880', 'end': '1001.360', 'text': 'self worth and reputation yes I used to'}, {'start': '999.600', 'end': '1004.240', 'text': "be worried so much about that now I'm"}, {'start': '1001.360', 'end': '1007.839', 'text': "just more like how I'm involved is like"}, {'start': '1004.240', 'end': '1011.360', 'text': "nah I don't care right there's a bit"}, {'start': '1007.839', 'end': '1013.519', 'text': 'less of the anxiety or the the belief of'}, {'start': '1011.360', 'end': '1017.120', 'text': 'that belief system of I have to worry'}, {'start': '1013.519', 'end': '1019.360', 'text': 'But whether the people think no. Okay.'}, {'start': '1017.120', 'end': '1021.959', 'text': "So that's a that's a that's a that's a"}, {'start': '1019.360', 'end': '1025.039', 'text': 'simple one. How I go further into it is'}, {'start': '1021.959', 'end': '1026.959', 'text': 'that what makes it even stronger is the'}, {'start': '1025.039', 'end': '1030.079', 'text': 'fact that is is in Taurus and Taurus is'}, {'start': '1026.959', 'end': '1031.600', 'text': "a fixed sign. It's much harder. I mean"}, {'start': '1030.079', 'end': '1033.439', 'text': "when harder what I mean is like it's not"}, {'start': '1031.600', 'end': '1035.120', 'text': 'a belief of mind. It shows when you read'}, {'start': '1033.439', 'end': '1037.039', 'text': 'for someone when you see it in something'}, {'start': '1035.120', 'end': '1039.199', 'text': 'like a Taurus or a fixed sign it means'}, {'start': '1037.039', 'end': '1041.199', 'text': "it's going to be like slow. The progress"}, {'start': '1039.199', 'end': '1044.480', 'text': 'will be slow. The healing will be slow.'}, {'start': '1041.199', 'end': '1047.679', 'text': "And yes, it was um it's also in an"}, {'start': '1044.480', 'end': '1049.280', 'text': "introspective sign or um it's like a"}, {'start': '1047.679', 'end': '1051.360', 'text': "negative sign. Okay, negative means it's"}, {'start': '1049.280', 'end': '1054.080', 'text': "like an introspection. It's um"}, {'start': '1051.360', 'end': '1056.280', 'text': "introverted sign. It's it's green. So"}, {'start': '1054.080', 'end': '1058.360', 'text': 'water and earth are'}, {'start': '1056.280', 'end': '1061.120', 'text': 'introspective. It means'}, {'start': '1058.360', 'end': '1063.520', 'text': 'that a lot of the stuff I did was had I'}, {'start': '1061.120', 'end': '1066.000', 'text': 'had to process it inwards. I had to go'}, {'start': '1063.520', 'end': '1068.480', 'text': 'in inwards literally inwards regarding'}, {'start': '1066.000', 'end': '1070.160', 'text': 'selfworth. Also beauty was part of that.'}, {'start': '1068.480', 'end': '1072.480', 'text': "looking good in front of people that's"}, {'start': '1070.160', 'end': '1074.160', 'text': 'Taurus, right? Health is also a part of'}, {'start': '1072.480', 'end': '1076.480', 'text': 'that. Meaning like food, what I eat,'}, {'start': '1074.160', 'end': '1078.559', 'text': "that's Taurus. Having boundaries, that's"}, {'start': '1076.480', 'end': '1081.520', 'text': 'Taurus. So, you see how the woundedness'}, {'start': '1078.559', 'end': '1084.080', 'text': "applies to that, right? So, it's it as I"}, {'start': '1081.520', 'end': '1089.520', 'text': "see it now is exactly what it's what"}, {'start': '1084.080', 'end': '1089.520', 'text': "happened. Okay. Um, let's see"}, {'start': '1091.160', 'end': '1096.320', 'text': "here. And it is so that's the polarity"}, {'start': '1094.160', 'end': '1100.320', 'text': 'and fixine. 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So with square to my nodes,'}, {'start': '1218.960', 'end': '1224.440', 'text': "my chiron square to my nodes, it's"}, {'start': '1221.440', 'end': '1228.520', 'text': 'showing that I have a block with my soul'}, {'start': '1224.440', 'end': '1231.919', 'text': "path. Meaning that I can't necessarily"}, {'start': '1228.520', 'end': '1233.840', 'text': 'um uh when I become technical to people,'}, {'start': '1231.919', 'end': '1236.080', 'text': 'when I relate with people, this is my'}, {'start': '1233.840', 'end': '1239.039', 'text': 'south node is in the seventh house in'}, {'start': '1236.080', 'end': '1240.400', 'text': "Aquarius. It doesn't get recognized. It"}, {'start': '1239.039', 'end': '1242.559', 'text': "didn't get recognized. There was a"}, {'start': '1240.400', 'end': '1243.919', 'text': "square to that. So if we're to we were"}, {'start': '1242.559', 'end': '1246.280', 'text': 'to break this down at first there was'}, {'start': '1243.919', 'end': '1248.960', 'text': 'that I had all these gifts about being'}, {'start': '1246.280', 'end': '1250.960', 'text': 'technical I understood I understood'}, {'start': '1248.960', 'end': '1253.760', 'text': 'things I had trouble with math as well'}, {'start': '1250.960', 'end': '1256.559', 'text': 'or rather uh you know so any sort of'}, {'start': '1253.760', 'end': '1258.480', 'text': 'agreements that I had any sort of job'}, {'start': '1256.559', 'end': '1261.360', 'text': 'specifically this is the 10th house jobs'}, {'start': '1258.480', 'end': '1264.159', 'text': 'that I had if it I had wounding and'}, {'start': '1261.360', 'end': '1266.720', 'text': 'trying to also succumb to the desires of'}, {'start': '1264.159', 'end': '1269.520', 'text': 'the world and not being my natural self'}, {'start': '1266.720', 'end': '1271.679', 'text': "that's also Taurus but that's also with"}, {'start': '1269.520', 'end': '1273.360', 'text': 'Aquarius being your individual self. So,'}, {'start': '1271.679', 'end': '1275.840', 'text': "I couldn't really be my individual self"}, {'start': '1273.360', 'end': '1279.520', 'text': 'as long as I carried this wounding of'}, {'start': '1275.840', 'end': '1282.000', 'text': 'like poor me and victim me. I lost this,'}, {'start': '1279.520', 'end': '1282.000', 'text': "I've lost"}, {'start': '1282.919', 'end': '1286.880', 'text': 'that. So, I hope that helps. And at the'}, {'start': '1285.600', 'end': '1289.600', 'text': "same time, I couldn't really move"}, {'start': '1286.880', 'end': '1292.400', 'text': 'forward and keep shining because I was'}, {'start': '1289.600', 'end': '1294.080', 'text': 'always just being pulled by this moon.'}, {'start': '1292.400', 'end': '1296.919', 'text': 'Now, we also have another part here'}, {'start': '1294.080', 'end': '1301.320', 'text': 'where these the nodes are'}, {'start': '1296.919', 'end': '1304.320', 'text': 'actually have square aspect to Mercury.'}, {'start': '1301.320', 'end': '1306.159', 'text': 'Uranus. So if you already know Mercury,'}, {'start': '1304.320', 'end': '1309.440', 'text': "it's mind communication, thought"}, {'start': '1306.159', 'end': '1311.360', 'text': 'perspective, all that stuff. Um, and'}, {'start': '1309.440', 'end': '1312.960', 'text': 'then Uranus add to that. Uranus is a'}, {'start': '1311.360', 'end': '1315.039', 'text': 'higher vibration of Mercury, which means'}, {'start': '1312.960', 'end': '1318.240', 'text': "it's more about more than the mind. It's"}, {'start': '1315.039', 'end': '1320.799', 'text': 'like higher intelligence. It is'}, {'start': '1318.240', 'end': '1324.080', 'text': "evolution or revolution rather. It's"}, {'start': '1320.799', 'end': '1328.080', 'text': "changes. It's breaking apart things that"}, {'start': '1324.080', 'end': '1329.760', 'text': "no longer work for us. It's in Scorpio."}, {'start': '1328.080', 'end': '1333.760', 'text': 'If you just look at the opposite side of'}, {'start': '1329.760', 'end': '1336.400', 'text': 'that, the opposition Chiron to Scorpio'}, {'start': '1333.760', 'end': '1339.039', 'text': 'or Chiron to Mercury, I had to fix the'}, {'start': '1336.400', 'end': '1342.640', 'text': 'way I was thinking. I had to change my'}, {'start': '1339.039', 'end': '1345.520', 'text': 'mindset. I had to I had to elevate. I'}, {'start': '1342.640', 'end': '1347.880', 'text': 'had to change the way I was behaving was'}, {'start': '1345.520', 'end': '1350.559', 'text': 'like specifically with myself and my'}, {'start': '1347.880', 'end': '1352.559', 'text': 'family or blood will family or any'}, {'start': '1350.559', 'end': '1354.159', 'text': 'family environment, any private'}, {'start': '1352.559', 'end': '1356.320', 'text': "environment. That's the fourth house."}, {'start': '1354.159', 'end': '1359.360', 'text': 'But the fourth house also represents'}, {'start': '1356.320', 'end': '1362.000', 'text': 'DNA. My DNA has started to change once I'}, {'start': '1359.360', 'end': '1363.360', 'text': 'started to embrace my own inner power.'}, {'start': '1362.000', 'end': '1365.520', 'text': 'And then I realized I had to balance'}, {'start': '1363.360', 'end': '1368.000', 'text': 'that the losses were not actually losses'}, {'start': '1365.520', 'end': '1370.159', 'text': 'but gifts so that I can be more'}, {'start': '1368.000', 'end': '1371.799', 'text': 'conscious and make more conscious'}, {'start': '1370.159', 'end': '1375.360', 'text': 'decisions when it came'}, {'start': '1371.799', 'end': '1377.760', 'text': 'to how I shown how I shown to others how'}, {'start': '1375.360', 'end': '1380.400', 'text': 'I appeared how I become more my'}, {'start': '1377.760', 'end': '1382.159', 'text': 'authentic self. My thoughts had to'}, {'start': '1380.400', 'end': '1384.480', 'text': 'change and then I had to really shift'}, {'start': '1382.159', 'end': '1387.280', 'text': 'that to a lot of shadow work. This is'}, {'start': '1384.480', 'end': '1389.440', 'text': "Scorpio's type of shadow work."}, {'start': '1387.280', 'end': '1393.120', 'text': "So, it's this this what you call a grand"}, {'start': '1389.440', 'end': '1395.000', 'text': 'fixed square had to show me a lot of'}, {'start': '1393.120', 'end': '1397.679', 'text': 'changes that I had to'}, {'start': '1395.000', 'end': '1399.919', 'text': "make slowly because they're all in fixed"}, {'start': '1397.679', 'end': '1402.480', 'text': 'signs in order for me to be myself shine'}, {'start': '1399.919', 'end': '1404.320', 'text': 'and also help others know what contracts'}, {'start': '1402.480', 'end': '1406.640', 'text': 'I get into any agreements that I have'}, {'start': '1404.320', 'end': '1409.039', 'text': 'with business or people that I work for'}, {'start': '1406.640', 'end': '1411.520', 'text': "or just my reputation alone. There's one"}, {'start': '1409.039', 'end': '1413.360', 'text': "little thing that I didn't mention here"}, {'start': '1411.520', 'end': '1416.120', 'text': 'is that we looked at this from a medical'}, {'start': '1413.360', 'end': '1418.559', 'text': 'perspective meaning medical'}, {'start': '1416.120', 'end': '1420.400', 'text': 'astrology. This is where the whole thing'}, {'start': '1418.559', 'end': '1422.480', 'text': 'appears with the whole balance thing. I'}, {'start': '1420.400', 'end': '1423.720', 'text': "have minier's disease. I was diagnosed"}, {'start': '1422.480', 'end': '1428.240', 'text': 'with many'}, {'start': '1423.720', 'end': '1429.679', 'text': 'years. Taurus is stability grounding but'}, {'start': '1428.240', 'end': '1431.559', 'text': 'because there was uncertainty with the'}, {'start': '1429.679', 'end': '1435.840', 'text': 'wounding behind that that also came with'}, {'start': '1431.559', 'end': '1438.080', 'text': 'imbalance but tier also it rules health'}, {'start': '1435.840', 'end': '1439.840', 'text': 'right immune system. So if my main'}, {'start': '1438.080', 'end': '1441.559', 'text': 'immune system was affected, it also'}, {'start': '1439.840', 'end': '1444.400', 'text': 'affected my'}, {'start': '1441.559', 'end': '1447.360', 'text': 'ears. I was when you look at the doctor'}, {'start': '1444.400', 'end': '1448.919', 'text': 'ears, nose and throat. So I would tend I'}, {'start': '1447.360', 'end': '1454.279', 'text': 'tended to'}, {'start': '1448.919', 'end': '1457.200', 'text': 'have issues. Okay. With'}, {'start': '1454.279', 'end': '1459.200', 'text': 'that and the perception that I had or'}, {'start': '1457.200', 'end': '1462.000', 'text': "the memories that I had that's also"}, {'start': '1459.200', 'end': '1465.039', 'text': "that's also the mind by your neurons"}, {'start': '1462.000', 'end': '1468.200', 'text': 'right here. I had deepseated wounding,'}, {'start': '1465.039', 'end': '1471.120', 'text': 'deep-seated like anger and'}, {'start': '1468.200', 'end': '1472.640', 'text': "rage. So if I didn't work on that, what"}, {'start': '1471.120', 'end': '1474.400', 'text': 'would hap what would have happened is'}, {'start': '1472.640', 'end': '1476.559', 'text': 'that I would have still I would have'}, {'start': '1474.400', 'end': '1478.520', 'text': 'gotten worse with I would have had a'}, {'start': '1476.559', 'end': '1481.279', 'text': "worse veneer's"}, {'start': '1478.520', 'end': '1483.679', 'text': 'condition, right? But I was forced to'}, {'start': '1481.279', 'end': '1485.919', 'text': 'wake up. I was forced to wake up. The'}, {'start': '1483.679', 'end': '1488.200', 'text': 'black path was saying you got to work on'}, {'start': '1485.919', 'end': '1491.200', 'text': 'that. You got to heal your'}, {'start': '1488.200', 'end': '1493.039', 'text': 'relationships. Myself, relationship to'}, {'start': '1491.200', 'end': '1495.120', 'text': 'the world, how I saw it, how I perceived'}, {'start': '1493.039', 'end': '1497.679', 'text': 'the world, and how I perceived myself,'}, {'start': '1495.120', 'end': '1500.559', 'text': 'my inner my inner self, my this is the'}, {'start': '1497.679', 'end': '1502.799', 'text': 'fourth house. My heritage, my specific,'}, {'start': '1500.559', 'end': '1504.960', 'text': "you know, universal DNA, let's call it"}, {'start': '1502.799', 'end': '1507.120', 'text': "that. It's beyond than just typical"}, {'start': '1504.960', 'end': '1512.919', 'text': 'heritage, family, DNA, ancestry, all'}, {'start': '1507.120', 'end': '1516.159', 'text': 'that stuff. So, in turn, I started to'}, {'start': '1512.919', 'end': '1518.080', 'text': 'heal. I started changing my diet. I'}, {'start': '1516.159', 'end': '1520.320', 'text': "wasn't concerned about I was less"}, {'start': '1518.080', 'end': '1523.919', 'text': 'concerned about trying to win or win'}, {'start': '1520.320', 'end': '1527.720', 'text': "everyone's pool or you know find I don't"}, {'start': '1523.919', 'end': '1531.760', 'text': 'know validation external validation. Um'}, {'start': '1527.720', 'end': '1533.279', 'text': "sorry the healing. Okay. Uh let's see"}, {'start': '1531.760', 'end': '1535.520', 'text': 'here. So there are still a lot to go'}, {'start': '1533.279', 'end': '1537.600', 'text': "through. So those are that's a quick"}, {'start': '1535.520', 'end': '1540.159', 'text': 'example. What was it really quick? Uh'}, {'start': '1537.600', 'end': '1542.159', 'text': "that's a deep kind of example from my"}, {'start': '1540.159', 'end': '1544.279', 'text': 'chart on how you can look at where it'}, {'start': '1542.159', 'end': '1546.400', 'text': 'is.'}, {'start': '1544.279', 'end': '1548.559', 'text': 'So winding can come through the'}, {'start': '1546.400', 'end': '1549.760', 'text': 'opposition. Just to summarize, winding'}, {'start': '1548.559', 'end': '1551.360', 'text': 'can come through when you look at the'}, {'start': '1549.760', 'end': '1555.039', 'text': 'shadow work through any opposing'}, {'start': '1551.360', 'end': '1556.880', 'text': 'planets, any oppositions, the angles,'}, {'start': '1555.039', 'end': '1559.279', 'text': "anything that's close to the cusp of the"}, {'start': '1556.880', 'end': '1561.360', 'text': 'houses, the houses themselves, how they'}, {'start': '1559.279', 'end': '1563.039', 'text': 'work together. If you have planets in'}, {'start': '1561.360', 'end': '1564.720', 'text': 'one house and then opposite of the other'}, {'start': '1563.039', 'end': '1567.039', 'text': "house, how they work together. And it's"}, {'start': '1564.720', 'end': '1570.159', 'text': 'usually shown by aspects, oppositional'}, {'start': '1567.039', 'end': '1574.039', 'text': 'aspects. Chiron itself is on the one of'}, {'start': '1570.159', 'end': '1577.679', 'text': 'them. But you can also find it also'}, {'start': '1574.039', 'end': '1579.360', 'text': 'in just just in one specific planet. You'}, {'start': '1577.679', 'end': '1581.520', 'text': 'look at from an evolutionary point of'}, {'start': '1579.360', 'end': '1585.200', 'text': "view. What is it that's bringing? What"}, {'start': '1581.520', 'end': '1586.960', 'text': 'are you here to learn with this? For'}, {'start': '1585.200', 'end': '1587.799', 'text': 'example, if you have like say a planet'}, {'start': '1586.960', 'end': '1591.039', 'text': 'by'}, {'start': '1587.799', 'end': '1594.080', 'text': 'itself called singleton planets, what'}, {'start': '1591.039', 'end': '1596.080', 'text': 'happens is that you might be like, well,'}, {'start': '1594.080', 'end': '1598.000', 'text': 'how does that how does that help me with'}, {'start': '1596.080', 'end': '1599.840', 'text': "healing? It's like well there's healing"}, {'start': '1598.000', 'end': '1602.559', 'text': "everywhere. There's really healing"}, {'start': '1599.840', 'end': '1604.960', 'text': 'everywhere in charts. Um but the point'}, {'start': '1602.559', 'end': '1606.840', 'text': "is that I'm making is that as you go"}, {'start': '1604.960', 'end': '1609.919', 'text': 'through your'}, {'start': '1606.840', 'end': '1611.760', 'text': 'chart, you should also not should but it'}, {'start': '1609.919', 'end': '1613.760', 'text': 'would help that you also heal yourself'}, {'start': '1611.760', 'end': '1616.240', 'text': 'so that you also understand how to heal'}, {'start': '1613.760', 'end': '1619.279', 'text': 'others. Right? So this is my little'}, {'start': '1616.240', 'end': '1620.880', 'text': 'spiel for today. I hope that helps. It'}, {'start': '1619.279', 'end': '1623.799', 'text': "went longer than I expected but that's"}, {'start': '1620.880', 'end': '1626.799', 'text': 'fine. I hope that helps you.'}, {'start': '1623.799', 'end': '1629.679', 'text': 'Um um yeah, I just wanted to share that.'}, {'start': '1626.799', 'end': '1633.400', 'text': 'Felt like sharing that. Um leave any'}, {'start': '1629.679', 'end': '1635.400', 'text': 'comments down below. Again, I will not'}, {'start': '1633.400', 'end': '1639.120', 'text': 'um what do you call'}, {'start': '1635.400', 'end': '1640.960', 'text': 'this? Absorb or listen to anything'}, {'start': '1639.120', 'end': '1642.559', 'text': "that's a negative feedback, which I'm"}, {'start': '1640.960', 'end': '1644.640', 'text': "sure there isn't because that's I'm just"}, {'start': '1642.559', 'end': '1646.799', 'text': 'letting you know. Um but any comments'}, {'start': '1644.640', 'end': '1650.520', 'text': 'that are any comments are welcome.'}, {'start': '1646.799', 'end': '1652.960', 'text': "You're welcome to say whatever you want."}, {'start': '1650.520', 'end': '1655.360', 'text': 'um what whatever comments you want to'}, {'start': '1652.960', 'end': '1656.960', 'text': 'put in and also like and subscribe and I'}, {'start': '1655.360', 'end': '1661.159', 'text': "think that's it for today. Thank you for"}, {'start': '1656.960', 'end': '1665.600', 'text': 'bearing with me and uh what is this'}, {'start': '1661.159', 'end': '1668.240', 'text': "last 20 something minutes? I don't know."}, {'start': '1665.600', 'end': '1671.120', 'text': "Oh no, it wasn't even more but okay."}, {'start': '1668.240', 'end': '1675.760', 'text': 'Yeah, maybe 20 minutes. Thank you guys.'}, {'start': '1671.120', 'end': '1675.760', 'text': 'Talk to me a lot today. Bye.'}]