Saying Goodbye to my Grandma
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friends,'}, {'start': '24.899', 'end': '26.109', 'text': 'eat some good food.'}, {'start': '26.234', 'end': '29.070', 'text': 'But the main purpose of me being in Korea'}, {'start': '29.070', 'end': '30.363', 'text': 'was to say goodbye'}, {'start': '30.363', 'end': '31.573', 'text': 'to my grandmother.'}, {'start': '31.740', 'end': '32.991', 'text': 'and so for the majority'}, {'start': '32.991', 'end': '34.534', 'text': 'of the time I was in Korea,'}, {'start': '34.534', 'end': '35.952', 'text': 'I was with my family'}, {'start': '35.952', 'end': '37.787', 'text': 'and my thoughts were mainly on'}, {'start': '37.787', 'end': '39.080', 'text': 'I miss my grandma'}, {'start': '39.080', 'end': '40.665', 'text': 'and how do I make the most'}, {'start': '40.665', 'end': '42.542', 'text': 'and best time with my family?'}, {'start': '42.542', 'end': '43.918', 'text': 'And if I explain everything'}, {'start': '43.918', 'end': '45.420', 'text': 'about the history of my family'}, {'start': '45.420', 'end': '46.921', 'text': 'and how we got to where we are today'}, {'start': '46.921', 'end': '48.965', 'text': 'it would take like six seasons,'}, {'start': '49.090', 'end': '51.301', 'text': 'but if I can summarize very quickly.'}, {'start': '51.301', 'end': '54.512', 'text': 'My family is a first generation immigrant family'}, {'start': '54.512', 'end': '56.473', 'text': 'meaning my parents moved me'}, {'start': '56.473', 'end': '57.849', 'text': 'and my sister over to the States'}, {'start': '57.849', 'end': '59.059', 'text': 'when we were really young.'}, {'start': '59.350', 'end': '60.727', 'text': 'And with that comes'}, {'start': '60.727', 'end': '63.271', 'text': 'very generational gap issues,'}, {'start': '63.271', 'end': '64.731', 'text': 'cultural issues.'}, {'start': '64.731', 'end': '65.815', 'text': 'They grew up in Korea.'}, {'start': '65.815', 'end': '68.443', 'text': 'I grew up here, and just a lot of like'}, {'start': '68.818', 'end': '70.528', 'text': 'just storming in between.'}, {'start': '70.695', 'end': '72.989', 'text': 'And so when I say that'}, {'start': '72.989', 'end': '75.784', 'text': 'my relationship with my parents, while'}, {'start': '75.784', 'end': '77.160', 'text': 'it is full of love,'}, {'start': '77.160', 'end': '79.329', 'text': 'I would say it was not the most open'}, {'start': '79.329', 'end': '81.122', 'text': 'and transparent relationship,'}, {'start': '81.289', 'end': '83.666', 'text': 'but when we lost our grandmother,'}, {'start': '83.666', 'end': '85.794', 'text': 'or for my dad, his mom'}, {'start': '85.794', 'end': '87.337', 'text': "and my mom's mother in law,"}, {'start': '87.712', 'end': '90.131', 'text': 'some of that dynamic changed'}, {'start': '91.091', 'end': '92.300', 'text': 'because when my'}, {'start': '92.300', 'end': '94.219', 'text': 'grandmother was alive,'}, {'start': '94.219', 'end': '95.553', 'text': 'she was kind of like,'}, {'start': '96.096', 'end': '97.514', 'text': 'you know, the matriarch.'}, {'start': '97.514', 'end': '98.890', 'text': 'She was, you know,'}, {'start': '98.890', 'end': '100.850', 'text': 'the head of the household.'}, {'start': '100.850', 'end': '102.185', 'text': 'She had everyone'}, {'start': '102.185', 'end': '103.853', 'text': 'under her under control,'}, {'start': '104.020', 'end': '105.814', 'text': 'and everyone knew to act'}, {'start': '105.814', 'end': '107.398', 'text': 'politely in front of her.'}, {'start': '107.565', 'end': '108.566', 'text': "And now she's gone."}, {'start': '108.566', 'end': '110.860', 'text': "And we don't really have anyone to be like,"}, {'start': '111.194', 'end': '113.154', 'text': 'you know, be on your best behavior.'}, {'start': '113.154', 'end': '116.032', 'text': "We just have to do it because it's only us."}, {'start': '116.574', 'end': '117.617', 'text': 'And so I was a little bit'}, {'start': '117.617', 'end': '119.077', 'text': 'worried about this trip.'}, {'start': '119.077', 'end': '120.495', 'text': 'and I would say it started out'}, {'start': '120.495', 'end': '123.540', 'text': 'pretty well and the trip was going decently.'}, {'start': '123.540', 'end': '125.250', 'text': 'And all of a sudden there was this moment'}, {'start': '125.250', 'end': '126.501', 'text': 'where we just clashed'}, {'start': '126.501', 'end': '127.794', 'text': 'and it was just like,'}, {'start': '129.337', 'end': '130.713', 'text': 'And I think it was just due'}, {'start': '130.713', 'end': '133.216', 'text': 'to like all of the emotions of my grandma no'}, {'start': '133.216', 'end': '135.218', 'text': 'longer being with us and just'}, {'start': '137.095', 'end': '137.887', 'text': "I don't know"}, {'start': '137.887', 'end': '139.597', 'text': "It's hard to explain,"}, {'start': '139.973', 'end': '142.058', 'text': 'but what came out of it was,'}, {'start': '142.100', 'end': '143.309', 'text': 'you know I had a discussion'}, {'start': '143.309', 'end': '144.519', 'text': 'with my parents,'}, 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'217.508', 'text': "that they're getting older,"}, {'start': '217.508', 'end': '221.346', 'text': 'but I also see a new sense of wisdom in them.'}, {'start': '221.429', 'end': '222.555', 'text': "Even though we don't"}, {'start': '222.555', 'end': '224.140', 'text': 'really talk about that stuff.'}, {'start': '224.140', 'end': '225.391', 'text': 'and I was also really happy'}, {'start': '225.391', 'end': '226.726', 'text': "to see our old dog, who's"}, {'start': '226.726', 'end': '228.394', 'text': "15 now, but he's still"}, {'start': '228.603', 'end': '229.729', 'text': 'kicking pretty strong.'}, {'start': '233.316', 'end': '235.485', 'text': "But I wasn't able to see my grandma."}, {'start': '242.951', 'end': '245.036', 'text': 'My grandma left a lot of lessons.'}, {'start': '246.246', 'end': '247.413', 'text': 'A lot of lessons.'}, {'start': '248.039', 'end': '250.416', 'text': 'Even though we never really, like, sat down'}, {'start': '250.416', 'end': '252.001', 'text': 'and talked about life'}, {'start': '252.043', 'end': '253.253', 'text': 'or what not.'}, {'start': '254.045', 'end': '254.587', 'text': 'My grandma'}, {'start': '254.587', 'end': '255.964', 'text': 'taught me a lot of lessons'}, {'start': '255.964', 'end': '258.758', 'text': 'and just the way she lived her life.'}, {'start': '259.759', 'end': '261.469', 'text': 'I can see the way that she loved'}, {'start': '261.469', 'end': '264.138', 'text': 'all her sons, who are very different from each other,'}, {'start': '264.264', 'end': '265.431', 'text': 'including my dad,'}, {'start': '265.556', 'end': '266.933', 'text': 'that she could love them'}, {'start': '266.933', 'end': '268.142', 'text': 'as individuals.'}, {'start': '268.851', 'end': '271.562', 'text': 'She loved all of her grandchildren.'}, {'start': '271.562', 'end': '273.773', 'text': 'Me, my sister, and all of my cousins'}, {'start': '273.773', 'end': '276.859', 'text': 'who are all very, very, very different personalities.'}, {'start': '277.443', 'end': '279.612', 'text': 'And she loved us all the same.'}, {'start': '280.613', 'end': '281.990', 'text': "if there's one lesson"}, {'start': '281.990', 'end': '283.324', 'text': 'I really can take away'}, {'start': '283.324', 'end': '286.202', 'text': 'from the way my grandma lived, is that,'}, {'start': '286.411', 'end': '288.204', 'text': "I've never found her"}, {'start': '288.204', 'end': '290.790', 'text': 'to be judgmental of anybody.'}, {'start': '291.124', 'end': '293.334', 'text': 'We could all make our own mistakes,'}, {'start': '293.334', 'end': '294.002', 'text': "and she wouldn't"}, {'start': '294.002', 'end': '296.504', 'text': 'let us make our mistakes, But at the end of the day,'}, {'start': '296.504', 'end': '297.797', 'text': 'she would all love us'}, {'start': '297.797', 'end': '299.007', 'text': 'for who we were.'}, {'start': '299.173', 'end': '300.383', 'text': 'And because of that,'}, {'start': '300.675', 'end': '301.884', 'text': 'we loved her back.'}, {'start': '302.468', 'end': '305.305', 'text': 'and it was that kind of love'}, {'start': '305.305', 'end': '307.098', 'text': 'that really brought our family'}, {'start': '307.098', 'end': '308.725', 'text': 'together every holiday.'}, {'start': '308.725', 'end': '310.518', 'text': "And it's that kind of love"}, {'start': '310.518', 'end': '312.770', 'text': 'that keeps us together'}, {'start': '312.770', 'end': '314.814', 'text': "even when she's not here,"}, {'start': '315.565', 'end': '316.983', 'text': 'because we want to remember'}, {'start': '316.983', 'end': '318.192', 'text': 'how she loved us'}, {'start': '318.443', 'end': '319.569', 'text': 'when she was here.'}, {'start': '320.528', 'end': '321.112', 'text': 'And I think the'}, {'start': '321.112', 'end': '322.530', 'text': 'best way we can remember'}, {'start': '322.530', 'end': '325.700', 'text': 'that is by loving each other'}, {'start': '325.700', 'end': '326.909', 'text': 'the way she loved us.'}, {'start': '326.909', 'end': '328.328', 'text': "When she's not here."}, {'start': '329.662', 'end': '331.748', 'text': 'Here’s the cut of my Korea trip.'}, {'start': '331.748', 'end': '332.206', 'text': 'Go.'}, {'start': '340.548', 'end': '342.050', 'text': '할머니 안녕하세요'}, {'start': '343.843', 'end': '347.138', 'text': '인생에는 세 가지 시기가 있다고 해요'}, {'start': '347.305', 'end': '349.766', 'text': '남에게 의지해야 하는 시기'}, {'start': '349.807', 'end': '352.268', 'text': '다른 사람들이 나에게 의지하는 시기'}, {'start': '352.852', 'end': '356.689', 'text': '그리고 다른 사람들이 나 없어도 살아갈 수 있도록'}, {'start': '356.689', 'end': '358.149', 'text': '준비시키는 시기'}, {'start': '360.818', 'end': '364.447', 'text': '인생 대부분 동안 저는 첫 번째 시기에 있었고'}, {'start': '364.447', 'end': '366.824', 'text': '할머니는 세 번째 시기에 있었어요'}, {'start': '367.742', 'end': '370.119', 'text': '이젠 제가 두 번째 시기를 살아가면서'}, {'start': '370.119', 'end': '372.372', 'text': '할머니는 세 번째 시기를'}, {'start': '372.372', 'end': '374.457', 'text': '진짜 훌륭히 살아내셨다는'}, {'start': '374.457', 'end': '376.793', 'text': '것을 깨달았습니다'}, {'start': '378.961', 'end': '381.881', 'text': '할머니처럼 따듯한 마음을 나누고 싶고'}, {'start': '381.923', 'end': '384.175', 'text': '항상 부드럽게 공감하고'}, {'start': '384.342', 'end': '386.052', 'text': '사랑으로만 싸우고'}, {'start': '386.052', 'end': '389.389', 'text': '인생은 항상 재미있게 사는 사람이 되고 싶습니다'}, {'start': '390.598', 'end': '394.936', 'text': '비록 할머니는 내 곁에 안계하셔도 사람이 저를 봤을 때는'}, {'start': '395.019', 'end': '399.357', 'text': '“역시 오신 자의 손주구나” 라고 생각했으면 좋겠습니다'}, {'start': '399.565', 'end': '400.817', 'text': '하이 수진!'}, {'start': '400.817', 'end': '403.986', 'text': '어제 우리 점심에도 너무너무 맛있는거 먹었는데'}, {'start': '403.986', 'end': '406.364', 'text': '지금도 회를 먹으러왔어요.'}, {'start': '406.447', 'end': '409.367', 'text': '다음엔 우리 꼭 같이 먹자~'}, {'start': '409.534', 'end': '410.743', 'text': '사랑해~'}, {'start': '411.035', 'end': '412.245', 'text': '보고싶어요.'}, {'start': '412.662', 'end': '415.206', 'text': '할머니의 음식도 한번 더 먹고싶고'}, {'start': '415.206', 'end': '417.792', 'text': '웃음 소리도 듣고 싶고'}, {'start': '417.834', 'end': '421.003', 'text': '야단도 한 번 더 맞고 싶다고 생각 나네요.'}, {'start': '422.213', 'end': '424.048', 'text': '저를 사랑해주셔서 감사합니다'}, {'start': '424.298', 'end': '426.759', 'text': '수진이 더 사랑해주셔서 감사합니다'}, {'start': '427.427', 'end': '428.678', 'text': '이제는 편히 쉬세요'}, {'start': '429.804', 'end': '431.472', 'text': '사랑합니다 할머니'}, {'start': '432.306', 'end': '433.558', 'text': '보고 싶어요'}, {'start': '436.185', 'end': '439.730', 'text': '범석이 미국가면 건강하게 잘 지내야 되고'}, {'start': '440.106', 'end': '442.108', 'text': '먹는 거 잘 챙겨 먹고'}, {'start': '443.067', 'end': '445.361', 'text': '그렇게 행복하게 살았으면 좋겠어'}, {'start': '445.820', 'end': '447.738', 'text': '네 감사할 여자 친구 하고'}, {'start': '448.072', 'end': '450.324', 'text': '행복한 생활했으면 좋겠어'}, {'start': '450.825', 'end': '454.203', 'text': '여자친구 사랑한다고 전해줘'}, {'start': '455.204', 'end': '458.666', 'text': '둘이서 아웅다웅 하지 말고 잘'}, {'start': '458.666', 'end': '460.960', 'text': '잘지내거라.'}, {'start': '461.252', 'end': '463.045', 'text': '전부다 외로운 사람들이니까'}, {'start': '463.129', 'end': '464.755', 'text': '네  감사합니다'}, {'start': '464.755', 'end': '464.839', 'text': '네  감사합니다'}]