private void privateLoad() throws ParserConfigurationException, SAXException, IOException {
        File is = new File(name);// getClass().getResourceAsStream(name);
        DocumentBuilderFactory xmlFactory = DocumentBuilderFactory.newInstance();
        DocumentBuilder docBuilder = xmlFactory.newDocumentBuilder();
        //docBuilder.
        xmlDoc = docBuilder.parse(is);
        //System.out.println();
        XPathFactory xpathFact = XPathFactory.newInstance();
        xpath = xpathFact.newXPath();
    }