I really want to have everyday to mug as well ; I want to stop giving myself the excuse that I have to work at my own pace due to my schedule and in the case I don't score so well , I can't really help it because I have done my best out of what I can do . BUT I freaking don't want to see my efforts put to waste , or free so freaking stressed with the management of time . I can foresee myself pulling my hair out and crying due to stress nearing Promos if this all continues . I am going to try to solve the problem . 
Question: Why can the writer foresee pulling their hair out ?
Because they are frustrated .