After lunch we play a bit more then pack up Fe and his stuff and head to Southampton where we unload allllllllllll Felix's stuff and hand him back to Michael . Though he is very reluctant to be handed back and cries a lot and keeps reaching out for me and clings on when I hold him :( This made it even harder on me and I was in bits anyway , I could hardly bring myself to let him go . My heart = destroyed . Gav drives home as I a crying too hard . 
Question: Why was the narrator's heart destroyed ?
Because they had to leave Felix