
chok kalakar

dha chok artiste david yuu kii 2012 kii aatmakatha haye. unaki chauthi pustak, yeh unake pahale prayaas "nashte key liye ladakiyan" key aathh saal baad prakaashit hui thee. yeh pustak massachusets "avashya padhein" soochi key liye ack chayan thee aur massachusets pustak puraskar key liye 2013 kii antim vijeta thee.
hyee school.
david ney avon, connecticut key samriddh, lilly-white upnagar mein hyee school mein padhaai kii. ack koriyai americi honey key naate, vaha ack alpasankhyak they aur isaliye apani shreni mein ekmatra ashwet chhaatr key saath pehchaane gaye aur rapp sangeet key prati jununi hoe gaye. rapp key prati moh achaanak samaapt hoe gayaa jaba david aur usake "chaalak dall", doston jaya aur criss sahit, springfield nagrik kendra mein ack rapp sangeet karyakram mein shamil hue. dave key dall key sadasyon koo dhong karane vaalon key roop mein ujagar kiya gayaa jaba headliner chillaya, "mujhe darshakon mein teen safed ladakon key liye chillaane dou!"
iss beach, dave kii bahan, liz, joe apane sweekaar seey "mujhase kaheen adhik asiai lugg rahee thee", ney apani poonchh kaa adhyayan kiya aur dinn mein chhah ghante violine kaa abhyaas kiya, kyonki uska koee dost naheen thaa, aur harr cheej mein utkrishtata praapt karna janata koo aswikar karane parr badala lene kaa uska roop thaa. apani bahan key astitva key liye dave kaa jawab thaa, ack atiaropi, apriya, pench mein badalana aur khud koo usa durlabhata mein dhaalane mein ack ajib garv paayaah cumm upalabdhi praapt karane vaalaa asiai-americi kishore. jaise hii usake report card bigadate gaye, usake dukhi maataa-pitaa ney koriyai mein usase vinati kii, "aiguu jugeta., vaha haye", haye bhagwan, aap mujhe maar rahey hain."
dave koo ehsas huaa kii unaki dou sabse badee samasyaaen (unaki spasht jaatiyata aur ladkiyon koo aakarshit karane mein unaki asamarthata) aantarik roop seey judee hui theen. unhone apani padhaai chhod dee aur vishesh roop seey apane samajik jeevan parr dhyaan kendrit karane kaa faisala kiya, vishesh roop seey, ack lokpriya shwet ladki (peedbluesy) key saath detting karate hue. ack achchi koriyai ladki (aine. key. jee.) key saath detting karna, jaisa kii usake maataa-pitaa chaahte they, vidroh curr rahey they. ack aine. key. jee. key saath detting karane kaa vichaar samajik roop seey safed jhanda laharaane jaisa mahsoos huaa. isake alawa, unhone unhein jaghany paaya kyonki unhone unhein apani maan aur bahan kii yaad dilaaee. hyee school aur college donon mein vipareet ling koo aakarshit karane mein unaki kathinaaee, kuchh hudd taka unake dubale, stree-purush shareer seey upaji thee. vaastav mein, zim kaksha mein, apani shirt key binaa, cummer seey oopar, dave ullekhaniya roop seey nagna chhoti ladki kii tarah dikhta thaa, ack napalum hamale seey bhaag rhaa thaa, prasiddh, pulitzer puraskar vijeta, viyatnam yuddh kii tasveer mein.
college.
dave kii asuraksha college mein taba cumm naheen hui jaba unhone paaya kii unakaa roommate, jeck school mein sabse lokpriya aur karishmai vyakti haye. naa kewal prashikshak aur karmchari 'khush jeck' seey mohit they, balki jeck ney skidmore college mein aaney key hafton key bheetar naee ladkiyon koo pasand karane kaa ack panth banaaya. dave irshya aur sandeh key saath duba huaa thaa, yeh aashvast thaa kii joe koee bhee harr samay muskurata haye vaha buraa haye aur uska roommate ack dhokhebaaz honah chaahiye. apane dusare varsh key dauran paul key saath kamare mein rahane key liye, joe samvedanaon koo cumm karane key liye asambaddh thaa, ack sthir premika praapt karke, joe lagbhag harr raat sotee thee. dave yeh jaankar krodhit hoe gayaa kii dave key sou jaane key baad donon lovebirds sex curr rahey they. 
aakhirkaar, dave koo ack premika, enjai millie, joe behad pyaari thee, lekin usake haath apekshaakrit badey they. zim mein dave key fitt honey key bavjood, unaki baahen apekshaakrit dubli theen. dave irshya karane lagaa, phir gusse mein aaa gayaa, phir nafrat karane lagaa, usake badey hathiyaron key liye gusse mein aaa gayaa aur dampati toot gayaa.
divyangon key prati dave key junoon key bavjood, enjai avadhi samaapt honey key turant baad, unhone asiai saanskritik sangh kii ack praachya ladki key saath sambandh vikasit kiya. jaba sambandh yaun hoe gayaa, tou usake asiai ling key aakar key baare mein uska darr aur asiai mahilaaon key liye usaki avamaanana ney dave koo nirmaan praapt karane seey roque diyaa. vaha nashe mein aur chakkar aaney kaa naatak kartaa thaa aur jaba vaha nirash hoe jaati thee, tou vaha khud seey aur asiai ladkiyon seey pahale seey kaheen adhik nafrat kartaa thaa. college mein apane junier aur senior varsh mein dave kii chinta kewal ack erection praapt karna thaa. yahaan taka kii unake asiai mool kaa ack tirchha sandarbh, unaki prem ruchi seey, jaise kii "aapaki aankhen udas hain., apane sadasya koo shithil banaane key liye paryaapt thaa.
snaatak vidyalaya.
dave ney apani naee ingland kii jadon seey khud koo door rakhane key liye, sabse door key college mein rachanaatmak lekhan mein snaatak school mein jaane kaa faisala kiya, jise unhein sweekaar kiya gayaa thaa. haalaanki, nyu ingland kii tarah, unhone khud koo saanketik alpasankhyak asiai paaya. isake alawa, way "chhadm saundarya koo tuchchh samajhane lagey kii yeye parvat-chadhaai, oona pahanane vaali swatantra aatmaaen iss tathya key bavjood galey lagaati hain kii way vaastav mein mahange suv chalaate hain..."
boulder mein, dave ney karyakram samaapt honey taka apane baal naheen kaatane kaa faisala kiya. ack raat sharaab peaker aur cummer key lambe baal honey parr, ack sharabi ney poochha kii vaha kiss janjaati kaa haye. usa aadami parr nazar daali aur gambhir tiraskar key saath jawab diyaa, "apaache.apane shodh prabandh kaa bachaav karane key baad, dave ney apane professor seey poochha," mujhe kiss tarah kii naukari karni chaahiye, taaki, merey paas abhee bhee likhane kii oorjaa hoe?professor kii pratikriya thee", jitna sambhav hoe utanaa hii murkhtapurna."
snaatak vidyalaya key baad.
dave ney patthar chhod diyaa aur antatah apane lekhan key sapanon koo puuraa karane key liye boston mein ack saste apartment mein chaley gaye. unhone lagaatar mangadhant kaam key madhyam seey kiraya diyaa. halanki jeevit rahane key liye aavashyak thaa, dave ney manodasha koo amanviya aur napunsak paaya. unake sahakarmiyon (kewal purush nalsaj, thekedaar aur bijli mistri) ney socha kii vaha ack haare hue aur kuchh "gadbad" they. jaba unamen seey kissy ney usey "kuchcha" key roop mein sandarbhit karate hue sunaa, tou usaki aankho mein gusse key aansuu beh gaye. jaba main gusse mein hotaa tou aap mujhe pasand naheen karate", dave ney fusfusaya...kyonki main rotaa huun. 
vishleshan.
david yuu kaa kaam "dha chok artiste" barbara ehrenrich, nickle aur dimmed key maulik kaam kii yaad dilaata haye, jisamen donon lekhak apani kalaa kii khoj mein mamuli shram koo sweekaar karate hain. isake alawa, yuu kaa kaam tatkaal koriyai-americi apravasi krodh key saath aachchhaadit haye, joe halanki hasyapurna roop seey prastut kiya gayaa haye, phir bhee kadve satya kaa ack valay haye, jaisa kii yuu kii pustak mein uddhrit emily dickenson key uddharan mein spasht haye, "mujhe peedaa kaa ack roop pasand haye, kyonki mujhe pataa haye kii yeh sach haye."
saptahik prakashakon ney kahaa, "lekin jaise paathak unhein ack barahmasi pench-upp key roop mein khariz karane key liye taiyar hain, way chaturai seey apane anubhavon koo apane parivaar key sanghrshon key baare mein bataate hain aur way usa durlabhatam sansmaran anubhavon koo vyakt karate hainh vaastav mein ack marmic, apratyaashit epiphany."
national public radio (aine. pee. aar.) key celeste headley ney tippani keeh "yell low professor aur lekhak, ammy chuaa ney pichhale saal apane sansmaran, bagh maan key yuddh bhajan key saath sabse adhik bikane vaali film banaai."isamen, vaha khud kaa aur anya tathaakathit bagh maataon kaa varnan karati haye joe apane bachchon koo poornata kii or dhakelane key liye lagbhag kissy bhee lambai taka jaati hain, raat kaa khaana taba taka rokti hain jaba taka kii vaha usa violine cadenza koo nakhe naheen karati, usey avagyaakaari honey yaa seedhe doctor yaa vakeel banane kii maang karane key liye baahar nikaalane kii dhamki detee haye yaa shayed donon.
lekin, jaisa kii ammy chuaa koo bhee pataa chalaa, sabhi bachche bagh kii maan key dhol kii or badhane key liye taiyar naheen hain. koriyai-americi david yuu koo lein. badey hotey hue, unhone adhyayan naheen karane, naa kii school mein utkrishtata praapt karane kii baat kahee. isake bajaay, unhone safed bachchon key saath fitt honey kii koshish mein apane prayason koo daala. yeh sub kaise nikla, yeh unake sansmaran kaa vishay haye. ise "dha chok artistah confession off aeye chronic underatuver" kahaa jaataa haye.""

