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There was a small town near the shores of the sea; it was a topical climate with mixture of occasional rainfall, hot summer & even pleasant atmosphere with low heat & humidity. The whole town was encircled with the backwaters of the rivers. With such a classic whether there was also a short coming which could wipe out the whole town. The tornado’s quite regularly hit the surrounding towns so the impact of it would hit this small town too. Owing to the increasing trouble of these the people had started to flee from here. While there were people in towns who were the survivors of these who took shelter in this town.
Today two different people both who were survivors of the same town moved into this new place but both were strangers & poles apart. One was calm & patient while the other was fierce & impatient but both were always inevitable & destructive in nature if meddled with, with a slight deviation, the calm one had the ability to choose either go ahead & wreck everything but the fierce person didn’t had that choice once a step taken forward has to feel the burnt.
Even if these two people’s ways were different and always repulsive in nature, they both were away from their people it was a test of survival for them in this place. They had none to share what they felt, none to listen to their talks, none to see their pain hidden in their heart. But destiny could not stop itself posing them infront of each other. He, who was fire and she, who was water did face each other will they ever overcome there obstacles & blend in one another without terminating the other.
Seeing is believing is said for the human sense sight but at this time of the day when darkness is all you could see around and light is something alien and hard to visualise what is there in front of you that doesn’t mean you are lost or blind? Just like everyone my other senses come to my rescue. Exactly now when I cannot see anything through my eyes I could hear the roars of the ocean everytime it hit the banks indicating I am standing right infront of the vast expanse of the ocean. Petrichor, the scent of rain filled my lungs predicting the approaching rain, the touch of which would cease my burning but I am not ready to taste the freedom from this fire. In addition to these I know how to eradicate the darkness as I have the capacity to turn on the light even at the darkest times of life.
The rain can come down to the earth anytime and I have to take shelter before that but still I wait at the banks waiting for the darkness to break into dawn. This has been my routine from past week to sprint around the seashore of this sea at the darkest hour before the dawn and wait for the moment of darkness breaking into the dawn. To watch the sun to gain its position high in the sky, paint his colors over the world showing his supremacy to kill darkness of life. It is not only the sun but also me who feels that has spread my color all over the world.
Slowly the sun made its way out of his den painting the whole sky bright redish yellow with its rays. Consuming the gloomy night and spreading the light bringing new hope & a beginning of bright fresh life. Once I had witnessed the magnificent sight of sunrise my concentration went towards my sense which had alerted about the approaching rain. But now there was no sign of it, that left me astonished as rain is one thing I just hate it and my senses have never been wrong in identifying them. Leaving that thought aside I make my way back to the hostel which has become my new home from where I will have to attend my first day of my master’s classes today.
Not before I had turned my eyes get struck to the sight of a girl in bluish white suit running away something was there about her unknown which made me watch her till she disappeared from my vision. I have been coming here from past 5 days but never did I saw any girl at this time of the hour. She did turn back once but I could not see her face. Just then I heard my cell beep reminding me of the time & I headed back still I couldn’t stop myself to watch at the way she ran off.
Some things never change every where the seniors welcoming the juniors especially in there own innovative way. I had just entered the gates of my college when a group of people naming themselves as seniors blocked my way. They were many more already in queues who were dancing as puppets of seniors. I had a strong urge to teach them a good lesson but I couldn’t just barge in and destruct everything but that would only catch the attention of everyone. Now itself I can feel many eyes on me, that always annoy me.
Against my wishes I simply follow there orders to stand in the queue and wait for my turn to come. Just then there was absolute silence as everyone’s attention was on the entrance maybe another junior’s who are trying to dorge away from these ragging session? But No. when I look at the entrance I could only see a beautiful mesmerising alluring blue eyes of the girl, they captivated me in its pools as deep as oceans that I can get lost in them. It was a picture painted in blue theme, every essence of her oozed as serene beauty. I could no longer see the world around me just her only; everything around her seems to vanish away from my view. As if in the whole world it is you and me alone, with my every breath, with my every heartbeat clearly wanting to be with you. Her earrings kissed her cheeks everytime she kept walking her bangles made sounds of waves in the ocean which was matching her light blue & white mixed dress. Is she the same one whom I saw in the beach today, looks like she is as even at that time she wored the same dress, the same gait, the same care free strides. Today I felt like I got a whole new world to live in.
I don’t know when my legs take me away from the crowd towards the object of my interest but I was pulled back by something. When I turn to see what that was I saw it was the guy next to me who pulled me back, he was saying something which I failed to hear it. I turned back my gaze to her; she was not there; I turn around everywhere only to find her in front of those seniors. I moved in a way to have clear view of her face without any interruption. Her eyes had a gleam of naughtiness which I didn’t know for what.
I felt another nudge in my hand to jolt me into the reality. It was again the same guy but now I heard him say “Man, what are you doing come back and stand here, don’t mess with seniors. See how these girls got them in trouble.” The word Girls made me look at them again to find another girl beside her. All of them were watching her ignoring the pleasant beauty of mine. They were questioning them, that is when I got to know her name is Geet & the girl whom I just noticed her name is Pari.
Geet, the name rang in my ears inveigling my heart with unknown bliss. Such a melodious name she has got that I could only hear and speak her name throughout the remaining life of mine. My heart was showing its presence more than ever with her first visual itself, weaving many desires which could bind me into something which I never was bound to. Thoughts are flying high freeing it self from the strings of my mind. Spirit is flowing in a direction which it had never crossed but it surged without bothering about any hindrance. Wish I could just embrace this moment in myself, to witness a new facet of the dreams. Her eyes were revealing more than she could every voice out surprising me at the things which it could conceal. I was eager to be with her which made my heart to live.
Dilon mein tum apni betabiyan leke chal rahe ho.
My revive was broken when the guy next to me was biting his nails in nervousness as he was worried for the girl next to Geet, as he was muttering “Please God save Pari from these ragging’s” but what I saw actually amazed me as that girl Pari stood fearless while my Geet stood behind her hiding herself from the situation. Such a contrary thing it was happening I was not scared for Geet as I knew she could come out the situation without any help where as the guy next to me was praying for Pari while the girls were doing just the opposite. But Geet’s eyes shone bright, calm & undeterred confidence trickled in her every stir though she portrayed as fearful infront of everyone. She held on to the facade of a timid girl duping around the others. Her face can deceive everyone but her eyes couldn’t as they told every story of hers. She was not a meek girl, none could scrum her into doing things against her wishes, but why does she have to do things like that.
Apparently the situation in the hand was the senior’s portrayed themselves as generous enough to give us the option to whether we want to get ragged or not. Well that was not a real option though as a person would be asked to light the candle once they did it they would say since you have lighted it that means you have accepted to be ragged. So now the candle was placed in the middle of the stand and the girls were asked to light that. I was more interested to see the play as I read her eyes which had the mischievous glint in it. And just I guessed the fun started Geet’s face turned was something everyone could not miss as it turned pale with fear and she clutched Pari’s hand & fainted next second.
For a second even I got worried but then the wink confirmed all my doubts. Getting the clue Pari played along shouting “Geet…….what happened Geet…get up… get up…. Please someone get some water.” After a while she stood drawing everyones attention to herself. When the seniors questioned her, the reply just shook everyone but I was just lost in that melody and couldn’t stop the smile. Geet replied as a scared kitten shuttering and trying to hard to form even a word that “I burnt it …. I burnt it”. Well ever Pari was confused so enquired “what did you burn Geet.” “B…..B……Blub” But looks like seniors were not falling for her drama as she was asked to light the candle now.
I was now curious to know more about her plan as the naught sparkle twinkled in her eyes. She with trembling fingers tried to light the candle but stick failed to burn. Geet said “It is not burning so can I leave for the class sir.” Finally not able to withstand the bugging kitten they let go of her. We will trap her someother time is what I heard a senior whisper into another senior. Her eyes showed she had won this play but that play was not only for her but for everyone there. With a confident & smiling face she left, actually she was concealling more may be she would have danced at her victory but stayed quite because of the people around her.
After she left what happened was really a boon to others as none were able to light the candle with the sticks and were given a green signal to leave to class without any interruption as none of the juniors revealed that the stick had been damp. Actually what had happened was when Geet had feel on the ground the box had feel down in moist grass, which none of them saw at that time. Now the seniors were getting suspicious why none are able to light it are they acting? Then one of them noticed the wetness of the sticks. So when it was my turn they changed the rule if you light it only then you will be set free.
I never had lost any game or battle then how could I just bow down when it was the question of lighting a candle. I made my hands covered there vision of the candle and the stick and within seconds I lit the candle without any trouble. What did they thought that this is the only stick through which the light could be generated. There are other ways to do that & winning over me is not going to happen ever. Without any further delay I dropped the match box in the nearby bin & went to the class with a stride which meant not to be stopped by anyone.
I was joined by the guy who came running towards me while he said “Hey man, slow down, how did you do that”. I didn’t stop but started to move towards my designated class. When he came in front of me introducing himself “Hi, I am Yash and you are” “Maan” was the only thing which I said and entered my class to see Geet in the same class of mine.
Another lecture starts from today, well that is one thing I always disliked but still I have never let the other person to feel that I am not one of the keen listener as I don’t ignore them but just bear there words which some or the other time has been useful. This time I had a silver lining say it a distraction or attraction which would last for atleast a little while.
I entered the class to witness Geet who sat at the front bench with her was Pari, looks like both are friends that they are sticking together. Class was almost full any time the classes would start as the time to start was nearing. I sat away from everyone as I was never a man who needed company.
My loneliness didn’t last for long as it was accompanied by the slim nerd with broad forehead and wide cheek bones that narrow to a small chin with the naroow frame spectacles guy Yash I wished it was Geet beside me but this time I have to bear with this one as the guy, yes Yash was behind me and had followed me to the place where I had selected to sit. Well there was a special thing at this position and that was the view I would get, from here I could see the professors & behind the dias was a glass on which the image I could see was of the reflection of Geet.
Time passed a person came said something and then my eyes went back to Geet who was busy in writing and then she was lost in seeing something when I glanced where she was looking at I saw some other person who stood at the podium. I wonder where the other person went but before I could ponder about that my eyes went on the pen which was just about to touch the curvy glossy lips of hers.
Constant bugging of Yash gained my attention as he was mentioning something about some Economics, business and management I glared back at him to stop him from irritating me. As I take a quick look at the platform to witness yet another different person there. Have I started seeing things, was that a mirage or did the face of the person change like chameleon?
I wanted to see what was happening around so I kept watching him but as the person was a lean bald guy he wasn’t covering the glass behind giving me more access t0 my distraction she was time & again glancing over her lace tied around her wrist. It took a minute more to realise she was getting bored maybe that’s why she was checking the time. That is when I checked the time which said 3 and half hours has been passed since I have been sitting here in this place. That means this is the 4th class of the day & I haven’t heard a word from anyone.
Suddenly Geet’s face had shone and next second there was a long ring indicating the end of the first session and once the unknown professor left the room she & Pari flew from there may be they were hungry. Half n hour of break like everyone I too headed towards the canteen to check what I can get to fill my appetite. I had got one plate of food and sat away from the crowd when I saw my hearts leisure pursuit the blue girl getting her plate filled with food.
I saw them looking at the whole canteen to check for a place just then Yash who was just behind them showed the table where I am sitting. He wanted to watch her everymove but staring like that when the other person was watching straight back at you was not manners and that too when I held the fire to consume her.
My eyes were unwilling to obey my order to look anywhere but her. Then somehow I managed to concentrate on the food but it was just for a second then it was back on her. Fortunately this time she was looking at something else at the other end. She was looking at that direction more intently making my inside to burn. I turned my gaze towards her vision and that enraged me again as Geet was looking at the seniors and one of them who was leading the ragging session was heading to our table. I wouldn’t mind breaking his bones or even burning him to show him the glimpse of hell.
He was just a feet away from his table when the ground under him vanished as he lost balance and swan through the air bang his nose to the ground. He was carrying a plate of food he had picked it up on his way and all of it he had been carrying in his hand fell on his head and finally even the plate hit his head giving him the award he deserved. That’s when I noticed the wet floor and the caution board kept to be careful as the floor was slippery.
A slight giggle caught my ears out of the whole laugh going around the canteen and that was from none other than the girl who sat infront of me. She was trying very hard not to laugh as it would only instigate the others and bring us under their scanner. But even then she couldn’t stop the smile that escaped against her wishes and adored her lips. The twinkle in her eyes which held the power to hypnotise even a saint.
It was the first time she sat so close to me and I was failing to stick to my previous decision of not to stare at her but when did the heart listen when God’s such a exquisite creation was right before my eyes. She had her eyes fixed on the table I just didn’t know what is so interesting out there on it while I couldn’t move my gaze from her. I wished she looked up to me at least once so that I could read what she was thinking. Maybe she didn’t noticed me till now as she was busy with the laugh she got to see here but before I could make that statement sink into my heart she raised her lashes to meet my molten eyes to lose the whole world around us or to find a new way together.
Change is the only thing which is constant in life and is the same thing which I am experiencing now. My sense’s which has always been active in alerting me of my surroundings has changed its allegiance. My eyes never leaves the sight of her as it only tries to find more about her while I always search to hear her melodious voice in every sound that hits my ears, I wait for the moment of slight touch of her veil every time we have bump into one another. It takes every ounce of my will to resist from tasting this forbidden fruit. She is all bent to change me as she smells like a dew drop making me to hate the thought why I hated that before.
The fact which I always certain about eradicating the darkness & lighting it seems to be lost with the way my life had taken a turn. My day which always used to start with the sprinting before the breaking of dawn to keep me fit and focussed has also changed. Now after sprinting I would do my exercise using fire to help me keep focus on the issue that is on the hand. Every day I try new ways with fire I would light up the edges of the stick with fire and swinging the blazing stick in different ways so as to wipe out that vision which has plastered to my eyes.
That day when our eyes had met, the world around me had just ceased to exist. Those deep blue eyes held me captive in her spell that I felt I wandered into a place where every thing was so serene that I didn’t know whether I was lost before or am I getting lost now. I was looking deep into violet & green mixed pupils of her to find what all secrets that could unfold infront of me. But what I found was a haze image of person’s face which started to disturb the tranquilly of those orbs a bit later what I saw was it was not just the disturbance but vanquishing the glow with the flame of that persons mere presence which turned into my face. That was the harsh reality of mine which broke my trance and I had left the table in a rush leaving everyone to ponder anything what they wish.
I would now rather light up the whole place to make me remember the fact of my presence in anyones life would only harm everyone. How could I forget why I am all alone? I break one another stick that was in my hand with the rage which had only amplified the concealed fire in me. I have led lonely life because of this reason, when ever I have lost focused I have not only lost my dearest and nearest but also have felt the burnt of it my own self. How unlucky am I to even not retain a companion for even a small part of this long life. With these thoughts cruising in my mind everytime I would never know when the dawn breaks & the day starts. But with my starting ignorance with the surroundings one had not left to remind me about my college and that was Yash who used to call me with his stupid problems.
Exactly now I got a call from Yash making me realise the time as even the sun elevated high in the sky failed to be gain my attention as I was busy fight with the inner battle. I switched on the Bluetooth and without a second delay he started his cribbing.
That reminds me of the act of last night when I had held the light in my hand & had snapping the fingers lighting it & switching it off with my thoughts running about the past and trying to get the things straight in present.
“15 minutes.” I reply and make my way to start yet another day just like past 8 months but before I leave this shore I put of the fire which I had set around the place. Out of all these things against me this is one thing that I am glad of this deserted place to give me my privacy.
As always my eyes search that place where I had seen her on the first day but as every other day even today I couldn’t see her there maybe it was just by chance that she was here that day. I again console my heart which still wants to see her against my will. And in these 8 months every single day didn’t end without an encounter of ours but every time I shifted my course away from her as those eyes held something which could not be comprehend. During the classes I try to gauge her reactions but she didn’t let me through her lashes making it difficult to read her.
Things which made these encounter possible were Yash & Pari and their budding love story. There talks left me know more about Geet, how she is, how even she came here after losing her family. How lonely she has become now and how she is coping with her life. What her aims are, how she has influenced Pari to be more focused about the future. I get to hear each and every word about them from Yash.
There is not a single place in the college which doesn’t remind me of our encounter and just a week ago when Geet was searching for Pari near this fountain at the entrance of the college where I am standing that was the time we met again face to face to let me read her mind through her own blue eyes.
This time when the cover of her lashes had been shed for my view all I could see was the same mischief gleam in it. But what is she upto now, did that senior again became the scapegoat of her acts. She has been enjoying that senior’s state to an extent which none knew except me as always after every fall of his she had walked away with a winning stride. One thing which even I didn’t know was did she do anything which always landed him in trouble or was that a pure coincidence that whenever she was present he was embarrassed with one or the other thing.
Last time I had accompanied Yash to the mall as girls wanted to do there shopping while Yash wanted to join them and I also went along with him. Once they had roamed alround the mall we had settled down in the food court to fill the hunger of stomach. The seating arrangement was in a semi circle round the table and at one end was Geet next to her was Pari and next was Yash, after him I sat.
I smiled looking at the them planning for the seminar which I didn’t even know there was I never had to bothered for any academic activity as even before I realise the need of the work it would have been done for me too. Yash was someone who used to do it for me I never did ask him for but he simple did it for me and then it become a silent treaty that he used to hand over all the assignments to me. I could have asked him the reason for it but then I never indulged in talking with anyone not even Yash, who was my hostel roommate.
Pari loved Yash but always gets irritated with his “I am scared attitude” college works were not an issue but handling the world or people was something he always held a back foot. I guess this was the reason Yash always used to be with me scared to be alone, scared that he might just get into trouble and I tagged with him because he never asked any questions about me but just used to bug me with non stop talking about the college or Pari or her friend Geet. That was much more than a vital reason to actually tolerate him and his actions.
There was sudden hustle bustle in the food court, apparently some waiter was pushed by someone making all the food in his hand to spilled on the ground and that person was none other than our same senior who had lead our ragging session. The owner was all set to bash the waiter & dismiss him from the job as he thougt the waiter couldn’t even handle his customers properly, creating disturbance to them and also damaging his places aesthetics.
And this senior of ours who was having fun in this trouble just was leaving creating the mess and while crossing over the table next us the kid who sat there was supposed to have her milk in the bottle but the kid opened the cap in a way that all the milk erupted out of it spilling it all over the place along with the wetting the pants of our beloved senior in turn making him embarrass infront of all the people. At that time her eyes showed “you deserve it” look.
Today too her eyes conveyed the same thing to me but who deserves that, was that me or was that someone else. I was still searching for answers when a loud laughter hit my ears and that was of Yash & Pari who came running & laughing even before I could ask them they started to narrate that the gardener was having trouble why water stopped suddenly coming in his pipes while watering the plants and then he tried to twist them in all direction water gushed out like a stream which unfortunately showered on our same darling senior.
Once Yash was here I moved out to our hostel when Yash again started his pleading to accompany him to Pari’s house as she had challenged him “Yash if you love me you have to come to my hime without getting scared of my owner who stayed next door. Only then I will talk to you.” Did I needed this pleadings no defiantly no, but still how would I just give in so I gave him “I am not interested” look and then I finally agreed to him.
We knocked at the door of the girl’s home late at 12 midnight as it was quite a distance we had to travel. There was hesitation quite visible on Pari’s face as she opened the windows to check who is banging the door at this hour. I could clearly see one was shocked while the other pretended to be shocked as she was not afraid of facing any situation. As it was a season of rain many would come inside the front yard for shelter but now it wasn’t raining either and even if it was entertaining an outsider at this hour was not safe.
We stood at a distance so when she checked the window none were visible, then she had a confused look thinking who banged on the door. Just when she thought to close the window and return to bed we came out of the shadows scaring her a bit as she asked who it is. But only thing she heard was her own sound and crackle sound of the dry leaves.
Surprise was the word Yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love leaving his inhabitation self.
Surprise was the word Yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love there leaving his inhabitation self and visiting her.
“Yash is this the way you come. There is a calling bell which you could always use then why were you banging the door like that. You just scared the hell out of us.” Pari growled on Yash.
“I don’t know why she gets scared suddenly of such little things.” said Pari referring to Geet’s action.
“Yash left a sigh once Geet left as he can have his little talk with Pari now without interruption. Now you will do as I say” Yash whispered.
Looking at them I thought they need a little more privacy so….
I left that place at once and started to move backwards when I heard something rather say some sound. That made me realised that the path I choose leads to the back yard of the house where Geet went. The thought that she is there was enough for me to move more faster my mind constantly warned me not to go and face at this time but when did mind had any say in front of this heart.
My luck was not with me today as suddenly there was lighting followed by a noisy thunder. Normally boys liked these situations where girls would be scared and cling to boys but here it was a different story as I despised rain. Seeing the pouring rain my legs freeze at the place I was safe under the shelter in the pitch darkness where no one knew anyone would exist. Even in the most solitary life I have an angel who had descended from the heaven whom I could gaze till my hearts content.
Geet was in her light violet velvet suit stood admiring the sky above. I stood as far as possible but my eyes could view her from head to toe, I guess she was also standing below some shelter as there was not a drop of rain falling on her. She was not only admiring it but also waiting for the rain to fall as the moment she stretched her palm a drop fell on it, she did the same again and again collecting the drops of the rain in her palm. It looked as if the rain was waiting for the orders of her to fall. Once it was full she let them drop on the ground making the sound like pearls were falling off from the necklace as they didn’t just fall but also they had another path to follow.
She was the commander in chief imposing the flow of rain. Slowly the drops of rain increased & made its way from her shoulders to her long silky hands gliding over them to reach the small little fingers of her just before they descended to reach there fellow droplets. If that was the sight I beheld unknown to her next set of her acts just made my insides move as molten lava.
The water which blessed themselves touching her forehead slid through the sides measuring the length of her sleek neck before they disappeared into the fabric. The view brought him of my revive giving me a reality check about my act. I was not supposed to look at her like this minutely. She has always hid behind the mask of a meek girl and now thinking no one is here she would have let those masks off her face.
She might have not been this free had she known about my presence here. But I didn’t have it in me to turn back from her. This time I wanted her to decide and it would be easy on me to feel her rejection than turning back from her. With this decision I let my legs lead towards the magnetic pull.
I couldn’t have stepped in rain too so I stood at the rim of the shelter making my presence known to her. Passing the message towards her clearly that she is not alone to let her barriers down and baring her oneself to me. She stood in the middle, hands out stretched to let the rain drench her. Even after making my presence evident she didn’t deterred was she so involved in her own world that what is happening around, who is there beside her didn’t matter or was she giving me a treat by letting me to witness her subtle movements of unparalleled grace.
Rain which had drenched her whole form gave a shiny effect to her. With a determination which none could stop her to express herself today neither the rain nor my presence. She bent her back in a semi circle swinging her hands in a way that looked like a white rainbow twinkling in the moon light. Was she dancing with rain or was rain dancing with her, was she following it or was that following her moves was all I could ponder about as she and rain matched steps with each other.
Unknown to me “Geet” came out from my lips it came out just as a whisper and I doubt whether my own ears heard it or not. But as the name left my lips the rain just came to end like it was waiting for me to utter and it would stop and with not a drop of rain pouring her whole concentration turned to me. I stood there waiting for her reaction, would she walk away as I do or…. I didn’t know what to expect. She slowly closed the distance between us and stood right in front of me.
Her eyes held an unknown compassion which I could not understand. I felt a sudden chill spreading around me was it the dip in the temperature or was it her who was cooling my fire in me. My eyes closed for a brief second to hide the things which it may give away if I look deep into the blue ones it may questioned me anything. There were many things which my heart wanted to convey but words were just not enough to express them. Many emotions were binding me with you bring in a new flavour sweeping us into a different world. This is the riddle which could not be hidden within me or with in her or even the world.
I was still entranced in her when I felt her chilled hands touch my cheeks sending shiver down my body. It took only a second to ignite the fire in me; it took lot of efforts to break the shackles to let my hand to stretch so that I could feel that creamy skin. She closed her eyes to engrave the feel of me on her hand, so did I wanted to engrave it. I was just an inch away when she trembled back and before I could comprehend anything or hold her she collapsed on the ground & like how the water gushes out when the gates of the dam are opened the rain poured out on her.
What happened was something has happened with me many times before too when ever I have left my confines things has gone messy. That is the reason why I have to be alone & none are allowed to be with me. My mother left me giving birth to me to live in this world all alone; my father was there only till that another natural calamity which shook more than half of the village when I was a small kid. From that time all I have led is a life alone each day was like a year or even more than that.
Relatives were there to support me but even that didn’t last for more than few days as they would fell into deep troubles due to me. So I had spent most of my life in an orphanage far away from everyone who was my family once. This was my curse which I am still burdened with. And today that has spread to Geet, she fell the moment I thought to ignore my curse but it was all present to remind me of the repercussions if avoided.
I still stood the same way gazing at her fallen state; I couldn’t gather enough courage to even check her. What if she also just left because of my mistake? It would have been better to be away than to live in guilt for becoming an endangered curse to someone else. With the sudden enormous sound of water gained the attention of Pari & Yash so they came out to check the reason for it and all they could see was Geet lying in the pool of water while I had lost my voice to tell anything to them.
I started to take my steps away from her whereas Pari was trying to revive Geet by patting her cheeks. Yash asked her to pull under the shelter first so that she wouldn’t catch cold. They tried to rub her legs & hands it was turning little blue due to chillness of water. Yash looked back at me to ask what happened but what would I reply, there was nothing to tell it was all my fault to have agreed with him to accompany Yash to her place.
My strides were moving fast to just hide myself away from everyone especially from those blue eyes mermaid of my life. I push all the things in front of me & put everything on fire with my own hands but would that reduce the blaze in me. Ripping of my self also didn’t reduce the helplessness in me. Why should I be compled to live a life like this with no love no happiness all alone nothing pleasing can exist around me? Why it is that anything that wants to give me bit contentment would turn into ashes before I could embrace it. Why can’t I hold a little bliss in my palm?
All I had heard was they were taking her to the nearby doctor, I so wanted to check on her but it was best with me not going near her. I waited at the shores waiting for the sun to break the darkness, which was actually trying to consume me within it. After what seems like eternity I just couldn’t wait more but wanted to know if she was fine, I decided I would only see from far & then will move out before anyone would actually notice my presence.
I stood at the doorway hearing that melodious voice of speaking to the doctor which was a relief till I heard there talks. The doctor was quite upset about something but what was the fault of Geet in all these things which happened.
“Geet, I am telling you last time you have to be careful, I can’t hide these things everytime. It was just pure luck that your friends bought you to me, what would have happened if they would have taken you to other doctor.” Doctor was scolding sternly.
“Doc, I would have managed it.” Geet answered meekly.
“Right the way you just managed it today. I have answered others as you got dehydrated but I want answers from you now? What happened & how did it happen if you had taken all the precautions.” Doc questioned.
“2 days, what will I do here for 2 days? I am perfectly fine & I would like to take your leave now as I need to attend the class.” Replied shocked Geet on the sudden order passed by her doctor but when did she listen to others.
“No, you are my friend, so bye.” Geet stromed out of the room after saying that.
There talk left me in thinking what was it that they were talking about was she hiding something or is she under some medication due to some disease. But if I question the doctor she would definitely not spit out the truth. Doctor must have known Geet for a quite a period and that’s why she was so comfortable & then also she hid the truth with Yash & Pari also that too even before she consulting Geet. I should follow her to know more but after what happened yesterday night I need to be very careful & stay away from her.
I have been observing her more meticulously from past few hours but nothing actual changed in her ways neither in action nor in words. Still we didn’t speak neither she nor Yash or Pari actually asked me about that night. It was as if nothing happened, don’t know what Geet said to them but they were actually being careful with Geet, making sure that she had lot of liquids. They didn’t let her give presentations in seminar also but only person who regretted that was me as I couldn’t hear her.
Yash asked me to help them in the last seminar and the group discussions for the year before college breaks for the exams so that Geet could take proper rest. I agreed but I didn’t know what I am supposed to do so he gave some notes which I had to go through & speak about them. Seminar was said to be on one of the topics in some subject which we read but the group discussion was just a practice session so that everyone would get good exposure to the presentation skills. I actually wondered what am I going to do as I had not an iota of idea how these are done but this would help Geet is all I know so I had to do it.
Seminar finished & I don’t exactly remember what all I have to say. Seeing my capabilities with words they had given me a small part. Was that a 5 min material which I finished it in 2 minute or was that only a 1 minutes one for which I too 2. But whatever it was that ended without much hanky panky. Well one hurdle was crossed & the other awaited. Yes the group discussion would start in a while, groups were made. Pari, I & few other class mates were selected and made the group. The topic was read out it was “Myth”.
With that few started to oppose it & many started to agree with it. But when I heard what all they were discussing I couldn’t stop my self from putting my view in it.
“How could you say that God is a myth” I questioned.
“If he was there then people would not have suffered unnecessarily, take your example are you not an orphan… why?? because God took away your parents that too in a natural calamity which was controlled by God.” Pari replied.
“It was not the God who controlled these calamities they are done by the people who are posses the power to protect the nature and people in this world.” I counter replied.
“Oh you are a believer of those grandma bedtime stories in which God entrusts some power to three people who were termed as guards of the earth but these people quarrelled among themselves to attain the supremacy over the human beings. If only one is left they would be invincible who could be termed as equal to God.” Pari questioned.
The whole discussion was heating up between Pari & Maan and everyone present there were just a mute spectators as they didn’t know where it all would go to. Some had heard these stories in there childhood from there elders but then with time all these things were termed as only story.
“Yes I am a believer of it but that is not the whole truth what all things they would have to undergo for being a guard is not known to many. Life span of these persons would be more than 400 years which they should be spent away from everyone if those powers are entrusted. These powers would be there curse but also a boon, which could be used to restrict many calamaties. And humans never get to know what things were averted but can only know & rememeber when these gaurds fail. Yes they fight among themselves but are these fights for gaining supremacy or to gain freedom from those things is still a mystery which none have been able to know it till now.” I said.
I would have said many more things but I was stopped by the sapphire eyed girl who pleaded me through her eyes to not say a word more and how could I utter a single word after that. My tongue was now tied with her plea so I let every other person to continue with the discussion and in no time the hour flee so did the students from the class.
This was the last class for the year and students would forget about all these talks is what I could wish for as many were worried about their individual exams or was excited for the farewell party of the seniors which the juniors had organised for. I don’t know whether I blabbered more than required or was my speech revealed more than necessary things.
Pari responded “He started” pointing all the blame towards me.
“I know who started what even I was here only. Now do you think about yourself Maan what were you doing talking all these stories.” Geet turned towards me questioning but she was shocked and continued “Now where did he go?” as I was not there standing but had started to move out of the class saving my self from there questioning eyes.
Today is the farewell party girls were dressed in red & white combination where as boys were in red & black combo. For a change juniors had planned to rag the seniors on there own farewell which was led by Pari & group, well I knew whose idea this would be. Time has changed so had the relations too in past 10 months seniors have become more friendly and supportive, thus playing pranks with them would not be a trouble and anyways they are leaving the institute so the coast is clear for fun.
Party was in the open air hall in the grounds of the college which had a stage at one end where Geet was speaking to Pari who stood beside her with today’s event manager & at the far end was the fountain where I stood gazing her every move. She looked angelic in that white salwar of hers as blue veil adored the slender creamy neck. Yash was running behind Pari helping her out with all his love and I was standing away from everyone feeling glad that atleast there are people whom I would love and they are infront of me.
People dressed in vibrant colors were already to enjoy & have fun as the party was about to start. Whereas things don’t happen as you wish for and who knows that better than me and exactly the way I had the intrusion there was a sudden hassle alround the place everyone were running into the college that’s when I witnessed the tornado coming towards us.
I stood waiting the tornado to come to me as what can it do to me carry & through me somewhere that’s it right. However when it was just a yard away from the ground when it stood still as if something stopped its way. When I look around the ground there is no one present but my eyes stopped at one place where a girl lay may be unconscious and it didn’t take a minute to know who that was as she is Geet only girl who was in her blue while everyone was in red & white.
I flew away from the college far away from the place where I burnt her with my own flames as I was not able stand any more minute at that place; how long do I have to face the same thing again and again. Everytime when the sadness has engulfed me I have always consoled my heart that it isn’t my mistake everyone has to go through these pains in their long-lasting life. Heavy as this heart feels now with the overwhelming emotions I stare at the Sun which is all set to take a dip in the vast expanse of ocean but now I have nothing to hold on to there is a deep stillness which has settled in me as the world has moved but I haven’t.
With the increase in the pour even ocean seems to be more intended to swallow me within as I hit the first waves of the huge mass. It left me shocked as I could hold to anything, I felt like I am moving without my own will. Today there was only one will that was to try every possible way to put off this blaze. Even the thought has not left my mind I was hit by another way, now it seemed as if I was floating in it and next second I was submergered in it. I want to go deep into it so I tried to find the ground and started to walk into the depth of it.
As I stepped deep within my luck just flew away because the water which was soothing my soul just sweeped in making a space between me & the water mass. Same like Geet had created when we were in the college, was she here or was it someone else who possessed the same power. “Geet …” my lips took her name as a whisper and just as that day today also rain which had been pouring stopped and my attention went towards the form in the shadows.
“Yes … Maan we can but are you willing to be with me till the end. Will you love me without any of my ability to control water? Will you love me….?” She replied with uncertainity.
“Maan, you need to let go this fear and worry nothing will happen to us. Yes, we will have to work hard to survive now.” She pressed her ear to my chest while she continued “But together we will surpass every hurdle that comes in our way. This isn’t yours anymore but mine now so stop troubling it.” She said refering to my heart also showing her dominance over me.
“Shh…You don’t have to voice it Maan, your face convey’s it all, every thought that your heart analyzes, every notion it evaluates, every outcome it concludes. You are just as open book to me as I am to you.” Geet declared her point.
By the time I was back Yash was up and had sat up against the rock as I hand over a bottle of water to him. He seemed surprised and undoubtly happy about something.
“You guys are making fun of me and we are all worried for you. I wouldn’t have been awake had I sleept last night, but after that storm had eloped you guys there isn’t a place where we have not searched you. Today I thought lets look at the opposite direction too and here I found you guys.” Yash explained the reason of his presence.
“Carry him, I can walk we will get more oppurunities going forward.” Geet smiled winking at me.
And today this diary answered me why I could never hear what they were worried about was that about the mess or about me contolling my powers as both could read each other face without voicing a word from their mouth. Today I am very happy reading that my parents too had powers like me, actually defeated the air power and that’s why I their daughter am gifted with power of air.
She grew faster than we could think and tomorrow is her 18th birthday and I couldn’t see her confused and worried anymore uncessarily too. Yes even her face revealed every secret of hers. And that’s why I decided to place this diary in a place where she could get her hands on it.
“When were we separate from eachother Geet.” Papa buttered Mama so easily.

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there was a small town near the shores of the sea; it was a topical climate with mixture of occasional rainfall, hot summer & even pleasant atmosphere with low heat & humidity. the whole town was encircled with the backwaters of the rivers. with such a classic whether there was also a short coming which could wipe out the whole town. the tornado’s quite regularly hit the surrounding towns so the impact of it would hit this small town too. owing to the increasing trouble of these the people had started to flee from here. while there were people in towns who were the survivors of these who took shelter in this town.
today two different people both who were survivors of the same town moved into this new place but both were strangers & poles apart. one was calm & patient while the other was fierce & impatient but both were always inevitable & destructive in nature if meddled with, with a slight deviation, the calm one had the ability to choose either go ahead & wreck everything but the fierce person didn’t had that choice once a step taken forward has to feel the burnt.
even if these two people’s ways were different and always repulsive in nature, they both were away from their people it was a test of survival for them in this place. they had none to share what they felt, none to listen to their talks, none to see their pain hidden in their heart. but destiny could not stop itself posing them infront of each other. he, who was fire and she, who was water did face each other will they ever overcome there obstacles & blend in one another without terminating the other.
seeing is believing is said for the human sense sight but at this time of the day when darkness is all you could see around and light is something alien and hard to visualise what is there in front of you that doesn’t mean you are lost or blind? just like everyone my other senses come to my rescue. exactly now when i cannot see anything through my eyes i could hear the roars of the ocean everytime it hit the banks indicating i am standing right infront of the vast expanse of the ocean. petrichor, the scent of rain filled my lungs predicting the approaching rain, the touch of which would cease my burning but i am not ready to taste the freedom from this fire. in addition to these i know how to eradicate the darkness as i have the capacity to turn on the light even at the darkest times of life.
the rain can come down to the earth anytime and i have to take shelter before that but still i wait at the banks waiting for the darkness to break into dawn. this has been my routine from past week to sprint around the seashore of this sea at the darkest hour before the dawn and wait for the moment of darkness breaking into the dawn. to watch the sun to gain its position high in the sky, paint his colors over the world showing his supremacy to kill darkness of life. it is not only the sun but also me who feels that has spread my color all over the world.
slowly the sun made its way out of his den painting the whole sky bright redish yellow with its rays. consuming the gloomy night and spreading the light bringing new hope & a beginning of bright fresh life. once i had witnessed the magnificent sight of sunrise my concentration went towards my sense which had alerted about the approaching rain. but now there was no sign of it, that left me astonished as rain is one thing i just hate it and my senses have never been wrong in identifying them. leaving that thought aside i make my way back to the hostel which has become my new home from where i will have to attend my first day of my master’s classes today.
not before i had turned my eyes get struck to the sight of a girl in bluish white suit running away something was there about her unknown which made me watch her till she disappeared from my vision. i have been coming here from past 5 days but never did i saw any girl at this time of the hour. she did turn back once but i could not see her face. just then i heard my cell beep reminding me of the time & i headed back still i couldn’t stop myself to watch at the way she ran off.
some things never change every where the seniors welcoming the juniors especially in there own innovative way. i had just entered the gates of my college when a group of people naming themselves as seniors blocked my way. they were many more already in queues who were dancing as puppets of seniors. i had a strong urge to teach them a good lesson but i couldn’t just barge in and destruct everything but that would only catch the attention of everyone. now itself i can feel many eyes on me, that always annoy me.
against my wishes i simply follow there orders to stand in the queue and wait for my turn to come. just then there was absolute silence as everyone’s attention was on the entrance maybe another junior’s who are trying to dorge away from these ragging session? but no. when i look at the entrance i could only see a beautiful mesmerising alluring blue eyes of the girl, they captivated me in its pools as deep as oceans that i can get lost in them. it was a picture painted in blue theme, every essence of her oozed as serene beauty. i could no longer see the world around me just her only; everything around her seems to vanish away from my view. as if in the whole world it is you and me alone, with my every breath, with my every heartbeat clearly wanting to be with you. her earrings kissed her cheeks everytime she kept walking her bangles made sounds of waves in the ocean which was matching her light blue & white mixed dress. is she the same one whom i saw in the beach today, looks like she is as even at that time she wored the same dress, the same gait, the same care free strides. today i felt like i got a whole new world to live in.
i don’t know when my legs take me away from the crowd towards the object of my interest but i was pulled back by something. when i turn to see what that was i saw it was the guy next to me who pulled me back, he was saying something which i failed to hear it. i turned back my gaze to her; she was not there; i turn around everywhere only to find her in front of those seniors. i moved in a way to have clear view of her face without any interruption. her eyes had a gleam of naughtiness which i didn’t know for what.
i felt another nudge in my hand to jolt me into the reality. it was again the same guy but now i heard him say “man, what are you doing come back and stand here, don’t mess with seniors. see how these girls got them in trouble.” the word girls made me look at them again to find another girl beside her. all of them were watching her ignoring the pleasant beauty of mine. they were questioning them, that is when i got to know her name is geet & the girl whom i just noticed her name is pari.
geet, the name rang in my ears inveigling my heart with unknown bliss. such a melodious name she has got that i could only hear and speak her name throughout the remaining life of mine. my heart was showing its presence more than ever with her first visual itself, weaving many desires which could bind me into something which i never was bound to. thoughts are flying high freeing it self from the strings of my mind. spirit is flowing in a direction which it had never crossed but it surged without bothering about any hindrance. wish i could just embrace this moment in myself, to witness a new facet of the dreams. her eyes were revealing more than she could every voice out surprising me at the things which it could conceal. i was eager to be with her which made my heart to live.
dilon mein tum apni betabiyan leke chal rahe ho.
my revive was broken when the guy next to me was biting his nails in nervousness as he was worried for the girl next to geet, as he was muttering “please god save pari from these ragging’s” but what i saw actually amazed me as that girl pari stood fearless while my geet stood behind her hiding herself from the situation. such a contrary thing it was happening i was not scared for geet as i knew she could come out the situation without any help where as the guy next to me was praying for pari while the girls were doing just the opposite. but geet’s eyes shone bright, calm & undeterred confidence trickled in her every stir though she portrayed as fearful infront of everyone. she held on to the facade of a timid girl duping around the others. her face can deceive everyone but her eyes couldn’t as they told every story of hers. she was not a meek girl, none could scrum her into doing things against her wishes, but why does she have to do things like that.
apparently the situation in the hand was the senior’s portrayed themselves as generous enough to give us the option to whether we want to get ragged or not. well that was not a real option though as a person would be asked to light the candle once they did it they would say since you have lighted it that means you have accepted to be ragged. so now the candle was placed in the middle of the stand and the girls were asked to light that. i was more interested to see the play as i read her eyes which had the mischievous glint in it. and just i guessed the fun started geet’s face turned was something everyone could not miss as it turned pale with fear and she clutched pari’s hand & fainted next second.
for a second even i got worried but then the wink confirmed all my doubts. getting the clue pari played along shouting “geet…….what happened geet…get up… get up…. please someone get some water.” after a while she stood drawing everyones attention to herself. when the seniors questioned her, the reply just shook everyone but i was just lost in that melody and couldn’t stop the smile. geet replied as a scared kitten shuttering and trying to hard to form even a word that “i burnt it …. i burnt it”. well ever pari was confused so enquired “what did you burn geet.” “b…..b……blub” but looks like seniors were not falling for her drama as she was asked to light the candle now.
i was now curious to know more about her plan as the naught sparkle twinkled in her eyes. she with trembling fingers tried to light the candle but stick failed to burn. geet said “it is not burning so can i leave for the class sir.” finally not able to withstand the bugging kitten they let go of her. we will trap her someother time is what i heard a senior whisper into another senior. her eyes showed she had won this play but that play was not only for her but for everyone there. with a confident & smiling face she left, actually she was concealling more may be she would have danced at her victory but stayed quite because of the people around her.
after she left what happened was really a boon to others as none were able to light the candle with the sticks and were given a green signal to leave to class without any interruption as none of the juniors revealed that the stick had been damp. actually what had happened was when geet had feel on the ground the box had feel down in moist grass, which none of them saw at that time. now the seniors were getting suspicious why none are able to light it are they acting? then one of them noticed the wetness of the sticks. so when it was my turn they changed the rule if you light it only then you will be set free.
i never had lost any game or battle then how could i just bow down when it was the question of lighting a candle. i made my hands covered there vision of the candle and the stick and within seconds i lit the candle without any trouble. what did they thought that this is the only stick through which the light could be generated. there are other ways to do that & winning over me is not going to happen ever. without any further delay i dropped the match box in the nearby bin & went to the class with a stride which meant not to be stopped by anyone.
i was joined by the guy who came running towards me while he said “hey man, slow down, how did you do that”. i didn’t stop but started to move towards my designated class. when he came in front of me introducing himself “hi, i am yash and you are” “maan” was the only thing which i said and entered my class to see geet in the same class of mine.
another lecture starts from today, well that is one thing i always disliked but still i have never let the other person to feel that i am not one of the keen listener as i don’t ignore them but just bear there words which some or the other time has been useful. this time i had a silver lining say it a distraction or attraction which would last for atleast a little while.
i entered the class to witness geet who sat at the front bench with her was pari, looks like both are friends that they are sticking together. class was almost full any time the classes would start as the time to start was nearing. i sat away from everyone as i was never a man who needed company.
my loneliness didn’t last for long as it was accompanied by the slim nerd with broad forehead and wide cheek bones that narrow to a small chin with the naroow frame spectacles guy yash i wished it was geet beside me but this time i have to bear with this one as the guy, yes yash was behind me and had followed me to the place where i had selected to sit. well there was a special thing at this position and that was the view i would get, from here i could see the professors & behind the dias was a glass on which the image i could see was of the reflection of geet.
time passed a person came said something and then my eyes went back to geet who was busy in writing and then she was lost in seeing something when i glanced where she was looking at i saw some other person who stood at the podium. i wonder where the other person went but before i could ponder about that my eyes went on the pen which was just about to touch the curvy glossy lips of hers.
constant bugging of yash gained my attention as he was mentioning something about some economics, business and management i glared back at him to stop him from irritating me. as i take a quick look at the platform to witness yet another different person there. have i started seeing things, was that a mirage or did the face of the person change like chameleon?
i wanted to see what was happening around so i kept watching him but as the person was a lean bald guy he wasn’t covering the glass behind giving me more access t0 my distraction she was time & again glancing over her lace tied around her wrist. it took a minute more to realise she was getting bored maybe that’s why she was checking the time. that is when i checked the time which said 3 and half hours has been passed since i have been sitting here in this place. that means this is the 4th class of the day & i haven’t heard a word from anyone.
suddenly geet’s face had shone and next second there was a long ring indicating the end of the first session and once the unknown professor left the room she & pari flew from there may be they were hungry. half n hour of break like everyone i too headed towards the canteen to check what i can get to fill my appetite. i had got one plate of food and sat away from the crowd when i saw my hearts leisure pursuit the blue girl getting her plate filled with food.
i saw them looking at the whole canteen to check for a place just then yash who was just behind them showed the table where i am sitting. he wanted to watch her everymove but staring like that when the other person was watching straight back at you was not manners and that too when i held the fire to consume her.
my eyes were unwilling to obey my order to look anywhere but her. then somehow i managed to concentrate on the food but it was just for a second then it was back on her. fortunately this time she was looking at something else at the other end. she was looking at that direction more intently making my inside to burn. i turned my gaze towards her vision and that enraged me again as geet was looking at the seniors and one of them who was leading the ragging session was heading to our table. i wouldn’t mind breaking his bones or even burning him to show him the glimpse of hell.
he was just a feet away from his table when the ground under him vanished as he lost balance and swan through the air bang his nose to the ground. he was carrying a plate of food he had picked it up on his way and all of it he had been carrying in his hand fell on his head and finally even the plate hit his head giving him the award he deserved. that’s when i noticed the wet floor and the caution board kept to be careful as the floor was slippery.
a slight giggle caught my ears out of the whole laugh going around the canteen and that was from none other than the girl who sat infront of me. she was trying very hard not to laugh as it would only instigate the others and bring us under their scanner. but even then she couldn’t stop the smile that escaped against her wishes and adored her lips. the twinkle in her eyes which held the power to hypnotise even a saint.
it was the first time she sat so close to me and i was failing to stick to my previous decision of not to stare at her but when did the heart listen when god’s such a exquisite creation was right before my eyes. she had her eyes fixed on the table i just didn’t know what is so interesting out there on it while i couldn’t move my gaze from her. i wished she looked up to me at least once so that i could read what she was thinking. maybe she didn’t noticed me till now as she was busy with the laugh she got to see here but before i could make that statement sink into my heart she raised her lashes to meet my molten eyes to lose the whole world around us or to find a new way together.
change is the only thing which is constant in life and is the same thing which i am experiencing now. my sense’s which has always been active in alerting me of my surroundings has changed its allegiance. my eyes never leaves the sight of her as it only tries to find more about her while i always search to hear her melodious voice in every sound that hits my ears, i wait for the moment of slight touch of her veil every time we have bump into one another. it takes every ounce of my will to resist from tasting this forbidden fruit. she is all bent to change me as she smells like a dew drop making me to hate the thought why i hated that before.
the fact which i always certain about eradicating the darkness & lighting it seems to be lost with the way my life had taken a turn. my day which always used to start with the sprinting before the breaking of dawn to keep me fit and focussed has also changed. now after sprinting i would do my exercise using fire to help me keep focus on the issue that is on the hand. every day i try new ways with fire i would light up the edges of the stick with fire and swinging the blazing stick in different ways so as to wipe out that vision which has plastered to my eyes.
that day when our eyes had met, the world around me had just ceased to exist. those deep blue eyes held me captive in her spell that i felt i wandered into a place where every thing was so serene that i didn’t know whether i was lost before or am i getting lost now. i was looking deep into violet & green mixed pupils of her to find what all secrets that could unfold infront of me. but what i found was a haze image of person’s face which started to disturb the tranquilly of those orbs a bit later what i saw was it was not just the disturbance but vanquishing the glow with the flame of that persons mere presence which turned into my face. that was the harsh reality of mine which broke my trance and i had left the table in a rush leaving everyone to ponder anything what they wish.
i would now rather light up the whole place to make me remember the fact of my presence in anyones life would only harm everyone. how could i forget why i am all alone? i break one another stick that was in my hand with the rage which had only amplified the concealed fire in me. i have led lonely life because of this reason, when ever i have lost focused i have not only lost my dearest and nearest but also have felt the burnt of it my own self. how unlucky am i to even not retain a companion for even a small part of this long life. with these thoughts cruising in my mind everytime i would never know when the dawn breaks & the day starts. but with my starting ignorance with the surroundings one had not left to remind me about my college and that was yash who used to call me with his stupid problems.
exactly now i got a call from yash making me realise the time as even the sun elevated high in the sky failed to be gain my attention as i was busy fight with the inner battle. i switched on the bluetooth and without a second delay he started his cribbing.
that reminds me of the act of last night when i had held the light in my hand & had snapping the fingers lighting it & switching it off with my thoughts running about the past and trying to get the things straight in present.
“15 minutes.” i reply and make my way to start yet another day just like past 8 months but before i leave this shore i put of the fire which i had set around the place. out of all these things against me this is one thing that i am glad of this deserted place to give me my privacy.
as always my eyes search that place where i had seen her on the first day but as every other day even today i couldn’t see her there maybe it was just by chance that she was here that day. i again console my heart which still wants to see her against my will. and in these 8 months every single day didn’t end without an encounter of ours but every time i shifted my course away from her as those eyes held something which could not be comprehend. during the classes i try to gauge her reactions but she didn’t let me through her lashes making it difficult to read her.
things which made these encounter possible were yash & pari and their budding love story. there talks left me know more about geet, how she is, how even she came here after losing her family. how lonely she has become now and how she is coping with her life. what her aims are, how she has influenced pari to be more focused about the future. i get to hear each and every word about them from yash.
there is not a single place in the college which doesn’t remind me of our encounter and just a week ago when geet was searching for pari near this fountain at the entrance of the college where i am standing that was the time we met again face to face to let me read her mind through her own blue eyes.
this time when the cover of her lashes had been shed for my view all i could see was the same mischief gleam in it. but what is she upto now, did that senior again became the scapegoat of her acts. she has been enjoying that senior’s state to an extent which none knew except me as always after every fall of his she had walked away with a winning stride. one thing which even i didn’t know was did she do anything which always landed him in trouble or was that a pure coincidence that whenever she was present he was embarrassed with one or the other thing.
last time i had accompanied yash to the mall as girls wanted to do there shopping while yash wanted to join them and i also went along with him. once they had roamed alround the mall we had settled down in the food court to fill the hunger of stomach. the seating arrangement was in a semi circle round the table and at one end was geet next to her was pari and next was yash, after him i sat.
i smiled looking at the them planning for the seminar which i didn’t even know there was i never had to bothered for any academic activity as even before i realise the need of the work it would have been done for me too. yash was someone who used to do it for me i never did ask him for but he simple did it for me and then it become a silent treaty that he used to hand over all the assignments to me. i could have asked him the reason for it but then i never indulged in talking with anyone not even yash, who was my hostel roommate.
pari loved yash but always gets irritated with his “i am scared attitude” college works were not an issue but handling the world or people was something he always held a back foot. i guess this was the reason yash always used to be with me scared to be alone, scared that he might just get into trouble and i tagged with him because he never asked any questions about me but just used to bug me with non stop talking about the college or pari or her friend geet. that was much more than a vital reason to actually tolerate him and his actions.
there was sudden hustle bustle in the food court, apparently some waiter was pushed by someone making all the food in his hand to spilled on the ground and that person was none other than our same senior who had lead our ragging session. the owner was all set to bash the waiter & dismiss him from the job as he thougt the waiter couldn’t even handle his customers properly, creating disturbance to them and also damaging his places aesthetics.
and this senior of ours who was having fun in this trouble just was leaving creating the mess and while crossing over the table next us the kid who sat there was supposed to have her milk in the bottle but the kid opened the cap in a way that all the milk erupted out of it spilling it all over the place along with the wetting the pants of our beloved senior in turn making him embarrass infront of all the people. at that time her eyes showed “you deserve it” look.
today too her eyes conveyed the same thing to me but who deserves that, was that me or was that someone else. i was still searching for answers when a loud laughter hit my ears and that was of yash & pari who came running & laughing even before i could ask them they started to narrate that the gardener was having trouble why water stopped suddenly coming in his pipes while watering the plants and then he tried to twist them in all direction water gushed out like a stream which unfortunately showered on our same darling senior.
once yash was here i moved out to our hostel when yash again started his pleading to accompany him to pari’s house as she had challenged him “yash if you love me you have to come to my hime without getting scared of my owner who stayed next door. only then i will talk to you.” did i needed this pleadings no defiantly no, but still how would i just give in so i gave him “i am not interested” look and then i finally agreed to him.
we knocked at the door of the girl’s home late at 12 midnight as it was quite a distance we had to travel. there was hesitation quite visible on pari’s face as she opened the windows to check who is banging the door at this hour. i could clearly see one was shocked while the other pretended to be shocked as she was not afraid of facing any situation. as it was a season of rain many would come inside the front yard for shelter but now it wasn’t raining either and even if it was entertaining an outsider at this hour was not safe.
we stood at a distance so when she checked the window none were visible, then she had a confused look thinking who banged on the door. just when she thought to close the window and return to bed we came out of the shadows scaring her a bit as she asked who it is. but only thing she heard was her own sound and crackle sound of the dry leaves.
surprise was the word yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love leaving his inhabitation self.
surprise was the word yash screamed making her squeal in shock but then she was happy to find her love there leaving his inhabitation self and visiting her.
“yash is this the way you come. there is a calling bell which you could always use then why were you banging the door like that. you just scared the hell out of us.” pari growled on yash.
“i don’t know why she gets scared suddenly of such little things.” said pari referring to geet’s action.
“yash left a sigh once geet left as he can have his little talk with pari now without interruption. now you will do as i say” yash whispered.
looking at them i thought they need a little more privacy so….
i left that place at once and started to move backwards when i heard something rather say some sound. that made me realised that the path i choose leads to the back yard of the house where geet went. the thought that she is there was enough for me to move more faster my mind constantly warned me not to go and face at this time but when did mind had any say in front of this heart.
my luck was not with me today as suddenly there was lighting followed by a noisy thunder. normally boys liked these situations where girls would be scared and cling to boys but here it was a different story as i despised rain. seeing the pouring rain my legs freeze at the place i was safe under the shelter in the pitch darkness where no one knew anyone would exist. even in the most solitary life i have an angel who had descended from the heaven whom i could gaze till my hearts content.
geet was in her light violet velvet suit stood admiring the sky above. i stood as far as possible but my eyes could view her from head to toe, i guess she was also standing below some shelter as there was not a drop of rain falling on her. she was not only admiring it but also waiting for the rain to fall as the moment she stretched her palm a drop fell on it, she did the same again and again collecting the drops of the rain in her palm. it looked as if the rain was waiting for the orders of her to fall. once it was full she let them drop on the ground making the sound like pearls were falling off from the necklace as they didn’t just fall but also they had another path to follow.
she was the commander in chief imposing the flow of rain. slowly the drops of rain increased & made its way from her shoulders to her long silky hands gliding over them to reach the small little fingers of her just before they descended to reach there fellow droplets. if that was the sight i beheld unknown to her next set of her acts just made my insides move as molten lava.
the water which blessed themselves touching her forehead slid through the sides measuring the length of her sleek neck before they disappeared into the fabric. the view brought him of my revive giving me a reality check about my act. i was not supposed to look at her like this minutely. she has always hid behind the mask of a meek girl and now thinking no one is here she would have let those masks off her face.
she might have not been this free had she known about my presence here. but i didn’t have it in me to turn back from her. this time i wanted her to decide and it would be easy on me to feel her rejection than turning back from her. with this decision i let my legs lead towards the magnetic pull.
i couldn’t have stepped in rain too so i stood at the rim of the shelter making my presence known to her. passing the message towards her clearly that she is not alone to let her barriers down and baring her oneself to me. she stood in the middle, hands out stretched to let the rain drench her. even after making my presence evident she didn’t deterred was she so involved in her own world that what is happening around, who is there beside her didn’t matter or was she giving me a treat by letting me to witness her subtle movements of unparalleled grace.
rain which had drenched her whole form gave a shiny effect to her. with a determination which none could stop her to express herself today neither the rain nor my presence. she bent her back in a semi circle swinging her hands in a way that looked like a white rainbow twinkling in the moon light. was she dancing with rain or was rain dancing with her, was she following it or was that following her moves was all i could ponder about as she and rain matched steps with each other.
unknown to me “geet” came out from my lips it came out just as a whisper and i doubt whether my own ears heard it or not. but as the name left my lips the rain just came to end like it was waiting for me to utter and it would stop and with not a drop of rain pouring her whole concentration turned to me. i stood there waiting for her reaction, would she walk away as i do or…. i didn’t know what to expect. she slowly closed the distance between us and stood right in front of me.
her eyes held an unknown compassion which i could not understand. i felt a sudden chill spreading around me was it the dip in the temperature or was it her who was cooling my fire in me. my eyes closed for a brief second to hide the things which it may give away if i look deep into the blue ones it may questioned me anything. there were many things which my heart wanted to convey but words were just not enough to express them. many emotions were binding me with you bring in a new flavour sweeping us into a different world. this is the riddle which could not be hidden within me or with in her or even the world.
i was still entranced in her when i felt her chilled hands touch my cheeks sending shiver down my body. it took only a second to ignite the fire in me; it took lot of efforts to break the shackles to let my hand to stretch so that i could feel that creamy skin. she closed her eyes to engrave the feel of me on her hand, so did i wanted to engrave it. i was just an inch away when she trembled back and before i could comprehend anything or hold her she collapsed on the ground & like how the water gushes out when the gates of the dam are opened the rain poured out on her.
what happened was something has happened with me many times before too when ever i have left my confines things has gone messy. that is the reason why i have to be alone & none are allowed to be with me. my mother left me giving birth to me to live in this world all alone; my father was there only till that another natural calamity which shook more than half of the village when i was a small kid. from that time all i have led is a life alone each day was like a year or even more than that.
relatives were there to support me but even that didn’t last for more than few days as they would fell into deep troubles due to me. so i had spent most of my life in an orphanage far away from everyone who was my family once. this was my curse which i am still burdened with. and today that has spread to geet, she fell the moment i thought to ignore my curse but it was all present to remind me of the repercussions if avoided.
i still stood the same way gazing at her fallen state; i couldn’t gather enough courage to even check her. what if she also just left because of my mistake? it would have been better to be away than to live in guilt for becoming an endangered curse to someone else. with the sudden enormous sound of water gained the attention of pari & yash so they came out to check the reason for it and all they could see was geet lying in the pool of water while i had lost my voice to tell anything to them.
i started to take my steps away from her whereas pari was trying to revive geet by patting her cheeks. yash asked her to pull under the shelter first so that she wouldn’t catch cold. they tried to rub her legs & hands it was turning little blue due to chillness of water. yash looked back at me to ask what happened but what would i reply, there was nothing to tell it was all my fault to have agreed with him to accompany yash to her place.
my strides were moving fast to just hide myself away from everyone especially from those blue eyes mermaid of my life. i push all the things in front of me & put everything on fire with my own hands but would that reduce the blaze in me. ripping of my self also didn’t reduce the helplessness in me. why should i be compled to live a life like this with no love no happiness all alone nothing pleasing can exist around me? why it is that anything that wants to give me bit contentment would turn into ashes before i could embrace it. why can’t i hold a little bliss in my palm?
all i had heard was they were taking her to the nearby doctor, i so wanted to check on her but it was best with me not going near her. i waited at the shores waiting for the sun to break the darkness, which was actually trying to consume me within it. after what seems like eternity i just couldn’t wait more but wanted to know if she was fine, i decided i would only see from far & then will move out before anyone would actually notice my presence.
i stood at the doorway hearing that melodious voice of speaking to the doctor which was a relief till i heard there talks. the doctor was quite upset about something but what was the fault of geet in all these things which happened.
“geet, i am telling you last time you have to be careful, i can’t hide these things everytime. it was just pure luck that your friends bought you to me, what would have happened if they would have taken you to other doctor.” doctor was scolding sternly.
“doc, i would have managed it.” geet answered meekly.
“right the way you just managed it today. i have answered others as you got dehydrated but i want answers from you now? what happened & how did it happen if you had taken all the precautions.” doc questioned.
“2 days, what will i do here for 2 days? i am perfectly fine & i would like to take your leave now as i need to attend the class.” replied shocked geet on the sudden order passed by her doctor but when did she listen to others.
“no, you are my friend, so bye.” geet stromed out of the room after saying that.
there talk left me in thinking what was it that they were talking about was she hiding something or is she under some medication due to some disease. but if i question the doctor she would definitely not spit out the truth. doctor must have known geet for a quite a period and that’s why she was so comfortable & then also she hid the truth with yash & pari also that too even before she consulting geet. i should follow her to know more but after what happened yesterday night i need to be very careful & stay away from her.
i have been observing her more meticulously from past few hours but nothing actual changed in her ways neither in action nor in words. still we didn’t speak neither she nor yash or pari actually asked me about that night. it was as if nothing happened, don’t know what geet said to them but they were actually being careful with geet, making sure that she had lot of liquids. they didn’t let her give presentations in seminar also but only person who regretted that was me as i couldn’t hear her.
yash asked me to help them in the last seminar and the group discussions for the year before college breaks for the exams so that geet could take proper rest. i agreed but i didn’t know what i am supposed to do so he gave some notes which i had to go through & speak about them. seminar was said to be on one of the topics in some subject which we read but the group discussion was just a practice session so that everyone would get good exposure to the presentation skills. i actually wondered what am i going to do as i had not an iota of idea how these are done but this would help geet is all i know so i had to do it.
seminar finished & i don’t exactly remember what all i have to say. seeing my capabilities with words they had given me a small part. was that a 5 min material which i finished it in 2 minute or was that only a 1 minutes one for which i too 2. but whatever it was that ended without much hanky panky. well one hurdle was crossed & the other awaited. yes the group discussion would start in a while, groups were made. pari, i & few other class mates were selected and made the group. the topic was read out it was “myth”.
with that few started to oppose it & many started to agree with it. but when i heard what all they were discussing i couldn’t stop my self from putting my view in it.
“how could you say that god is a myth” i questioned.
“if he was there then people would not have suffered unnecessarily, take your example are you not an orphan… why?? because god took away your parents that too in a natural calamity which was controlled by god.” pari replied.
“it was not the god who controlled these calamities they are done by the people who are posses the power to protect the nature and people in this world.” i counter replied.
“oh you are a believer of those grandma bedtime stories in which god entrusts some power to three people who were termed as guards of the earth but these people quarrelled among themselves to attain the supremacy over the human beings. if only one is left they would be invincible who could be termed as equal to god.” pari questioned.
the whole discussion was heating up between pari & maan and everyone present there were just a mute spectators as they didn’t know where it all would go to. some had heard these stories in there childhood from there elders but then with time all these things were termed as only story.
“yes i am a believer of it but that is not the whole truth what all things they would have to undergo for being a guard is not known to many. life span of these persons would be more than 400 years which they should be spent away from everyone if those powers are entrusted. these powers would be there curse but also a boon, which could be used to restrict many calamaties. and humans never get to know what things were averted but can only know & rememeber when these gaurds fail. yes they fight among themselves but are these fights for gaining supremacy or to gain freedom from those things is still a mystery which none have been able to know it till now.” i said.
i would have said many more things but i was stopped by the sapphire eyed girl who pleaded me through her eyes to not say a word more and how could i utter a single word after that. my tongue was now tied with her plea so i let every other person to continue with the discussion and in no time the hour flee so did the students from the class.
this was the last class for the year and students would forget about all these talks is what i could wish for as many were worried about their individual exams or was excited for the farewell party of the seniors which the juniors had organised for. i don’t know whether i blabbered more than required or was my speech revealed more than necessary things.
pari responded “he started” pointing all the blame towards me.
“i know who started what even i was here only. now do you think about yourself maan what were you doing talking all these stories.” geet turned towards me questioning but she was shocked and continued “now where did he go?” as i was not there standing but had started to move out of the class saving my self from there questioning eyes.
today is the farewell party girls were dressed in red & white combination where as boys were in red & black combo. for a change juniors had planned to rag the seniors on there own farewell which was led by pari & group, well i knew whose idea this would be. time has changed so had the relations too in past 10 months seniors have become more friendly and supportive, thus playing pranks with them would not be a trouble and anyways they are leaving the institute so the coast is clear for fun.
party was in the open air hall in the grounds of the college which had a stage at one end where geet was speaking to pari who stood beside her with today’s event manager & at the far end was the fountain where i stood gazing her every move. she looked angelic in that white salwar of hers as blue veil adored the slender creamy neck. yash was running behind pari helping her out with all his love and i was standing away from everyone feeling glad that atleast there are people whom i would love and they are infront of me.
people dressed in vibrant colors were already to enjoy & have fun as the party was about to start. whereas things don’t happen as you wish for and who knows that better than me and exactly the way i had the intrusion there was a sudden hassle alround the place everyone were running into the college that’s when i witnessed the tornado coming towards us.
i stood waiting the tornado to come to me as what can it do to me carry & through me somewhere that’s it right. however when it was just a yard away from the ground when it stood still as if something stopped its way. when i look around the ground there is no one present but my eyes stopped at one place where a girl lay may be unconscious and it didn’t take a minute to know who that was as she is geet only girl who was in her blue while everyone was in red & white.
i flew away from the college far away from the place where i burnt her with my own flames as i was not able stand any more minute at that place; how long do i have to face the same thing again and again. everytime when the sadness has engulfed me i have always consoled my heart that it isn’t my mistake everyone has to go through these pains in their long-lasting life. heavy as this heart feels now with the overwhelming emotions i stare at the sun which is all set to take a dip in the vast expanse of ocean but now i have nothing to hold on to there is a deep stillness which has settled in me as the world has moved but i haven’t.
with the increase in the pour even ocean seems to be more intended to swallow me within as i hit the first waves of the huge mass. it left me shocked as i could hold to anything, i felt like i am moving without my own will. today there was only one will that was to try every possible way to put off this blaze. even the thought has not left my mind i was hit by another way, now it seemed as if i was floating in it and next second i was submergered in it. i want to go deep into it so i tried to find the ground and started to walk into the depth of it.
as i stepped deep within my luck just flew away because the water which was soothing my soul just sweeped in making a space between me & the water mass. same like geet had created when we were in the college, was she here or was it someone else who possessed the same power. “geet …” my lips took her name as a whisper and just as that day today also rain which had been pouring stopped and my attention went towards the form in the shadows.
“yes … maan we can but are you willing to be with me till the end. will you love me without any of my ability to control water? will you love me….?” she replied with uncertainity.
“maan, you need to let go this fear and worry nothing will happen to us. yes, we will have to work hard to survive now.” she pressed her ear to my chest while she continued “but together we will surpass every hurdle that comes in our way. this isn’t yours anymore but mine now so stop troubling it.” she said refering to my heart also showing her dominance over me.
“shh…you don’t have to voice it maan, your face convey’s it all, every thought that your heart analyzes, every notion it evaluates, every outcome it concludes. you are just as open book to me as i am to you.” geet declared her point.
by the time i was back yash was up and had sat up against the rock as i hand over a bottle of water to him. he seemed surprised and undoubtly happy about something.
“you guys are making fun of me and we are all worried for you. i wouldn’t have been awake had i sleept last night, but after that storm had eloped you guys there isn’t a place where we have not searched you. today i thought lets look at the opposite direction too and here i found you guys.” yash explained the reason of his presence.
“carry him, i can walk we will get more oppurunities going forward.” geet smiled winking at me.
and today this diary answered me why i could never hear what they were worried about was that about the mess or about me contolling my powers as both could read each other face without voicing a word from their mouth. today i am very happy reading that my parents too had powers like me, actually defeated the air power and that’s why i their daughter am gifted with power of air.
she grew faster than we could think and tomorrow is her 18th birthday and i couldn’t see her confused and worried anymore uncessarily too. yes even her face revealed every secret of hers. and that’s why i decided to place this diary in a place where she could get her hands on it.
“when were we separate from eachother geet.” papa buttered mama so easily.


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I received my Affinity Tele last Friday and I bought it with the intention of making it a test bed for upgrades and mods.
The next thing on my list is locking tuners.
After reading in other forums, I couldn't find any drop in replacement because of the holes size in the Affinity.
My question is for those who have tried the same mod on an Affinity Tele, which locking tuners have you used and how easy/difficult was it?
Personally, I'm leaning towards vintage locking tuners and if possible the same ones I used on my CV 60s strat which is the Gotoh SD91-MG.
Thanks for the reply. Do you mean you used Allparts locking tuners but had to enlarge the holes to fit them?
in my experience, I once had a set of original Gotoh Kluson/vintage style locking tuners installed into my Squier Standard Tele.
I remember that the Gotoh set came with conversion bushings (aside from the vintage bushings) so you can retrofit the kluson style tuners into the tiny holes for the stock tuners on Squiers and they fit nicely into the headstock. it looked clean and and the tuners were very stable.
not so sure if the Affinities have the same tuners as the Standards, but I would assume they would be the same. So I hope this helps.

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i received my affinity tele last friday and i bought it with the intention of making it a test bed for upgrades and mods.
the next thing on my list is locking tuners.
after reading in other forums, i couldn't find any drop in replacement because of the holes size in the affinity.
my question is for those who have tried the same mod on an affinity tele, which locking tuners have you used and how easy/difficult was it?
personally, i'm leaning towards vintage locking tuners and if possible the same ones i used on my cv 60s strat which is the gotoh sd91-mg.
thanks for the reply. do you mean you used allparts locking tuners but had to enlarge the holes to fit them?
in my experience, i once had a set of original gotoh kluson/vintage style locking tuners installed into my squier standard tele.
i remember that the gotoh set came with conversion bushings (aside from the vintage bushings) so you can retrofit the kluson style tuners into the tiny holes for the stock tuners on squiers and they fit nicely into the headstock. it looked clean and and the tuners were very stable.
not so sure if the affinities have the same tuners as the standards, but i would assume they would be the same. so i hope this helps.


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Roofing “paddocks” for camels cover.
Realized for the plant "NEW METALPORTE"Costigliole Saluzzo (CN) - Italyfor the production of 165 kwp.
Project automatic storage of equipment for presses.
Tunnel machine for vaporization and drying of car seats.

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roofing “paddocks” for camels cover.
realized for the plant "new metalporte"costigliole saluzzo (cn) - italyfor the production of 165 kwp.
project automatic storage of equipment for presses.
tunnel machine for vaporization and drying of car seats.