My First Day in Therapy.
I feel anxious. Is this normal? I feel a little worried about what she will think. I’m scared that they might mistake my random moodiness and depression for “thoughts of suicide”. I swear I would never. But. Sometimes, I just feel a little sad, lost and alone. I can’t be the only one. Am I?

I’m not always sad. Sometimes I am happy, anxious, in love, mad, excited and jealous. My emotions vary. Not always so one sided, it just depends on how well you know me or how I am doing that day. People know me as such a kind, caring, happy person. Always smiling. But…the closest people to me know that there’s a little darkness in me too. Like I said, I vary.

At the end of the day though, I just hope it helps. I am getting a little tired of all of these unnecessary feelings. I just want to feel happy, worry free, calm. I’m tired. I am only 28 years old, man. I’m so young. I can’t continue being like this for the rest of my life. I can’t live a life of anxiety and depression.

It’s not fair to me at all, I deserve better. I deserve more. Anyway, we shall see how this goes.

9/5/20
['Pngc Things']
['Depression', 'Life', 'Anxiety', 'Therapy', 'Journal']