Making peace with your past
Living With Past Hurt

When you reach a point where happiness is the priority, what do you do with your past emotional trauma? My life has reached a high point where I’m living peacefully, and for the most part, I’m pretty comfortable. However, comfort and conflict are in direct opposition to one another. Like bickering family members, they rarely see eye to eye and fight for dominance.

A comfortable life with a conflicted soul is a poor combination. These days, I lack the adversity I knew when I was growing up. My self-awareness of my desires and a better environment has led to a better quality of life as a whole.

Except deep down inside, I yearn for that source of…Injustice.

Even in my writing, in the past few years, my work has become increasingly focused on the different origins of “hurt” that I have experienced.

I have dealt with various personal Injustices in my 27 years of living on this planet.

In a way, experiencing so much personal trauma can take its toll on your psyche. It has a way of hardening your heart and blinding you to the world around you.

Friendly interactions with the people around you could be perceived as threatening due to your past experiences.

Relationships are made increasingly more complex due to past damage and could lead to inadvertently hurting someone you care about.

Micro-interactions with the world around you escalate to something much greater…

…because…deep down inside…

You’ve created your own personal inner demon. Originating from the source of your Injustice, they crave retribution. They desire comeuppance to the racists, bigots, and bullies.

The wrong that was committed to you now gives you vindication. You feel justified to be wary of the world around you. You maintain your guard and look for the opportunity to strike back when the chance presents itself.

You were WRONGED…and the world needs to know it.

That’s your inner demon speaking. Instead of living in the moment and enjoying your happiness, you’re fixated on the negative.

Honestly, it’s so much easier to give in to the pain inside than constantly rising above it.

Comfort and conflict rarely see eye to eye.
['Dayon Cotton']
['This Happened To Me', 'Mental Health', 'Self', 'Self Improvement', 'Life Lessons']