Daily Life of a Melancholic Teen
Day 1:

I’m writing to just tell my story, I don’t really know if this title is going to draw people in but if you are here, hi. Today is Christmas and even though it’s suppose to be a joyful day, I hate it. Every holiday something happens, I get kicked out the house, my mom and dad fight, I get beat for no reason. But this year felt different i thought it was going to be a good day despite the fact that my 2020 has been shit. But once again my karma didn’t fail me and this time my dad didn’t come. He drives trucks for a living and has always made it for the holidays but this time he couldn’t make it. But maybe it was for the best. You see my mom is cheating on my dad with a guy who lives thousand of miles away. Everyone knows, I wouldn’t be surprised if my dad knew. But no one says anything, my family pretends that nothing is happening in this house. It’s suffocating. I know this makes me seem like a bad person, but when i tell you I love my dad more than I love myself. I say i don’t love my mom, but i steady seek her validation maybe that’s why I don’t say anything. No, that’s just an excuse I use, the real reason is that I’m selfish and if i actually tell him then it’s real. And I will once again start a problem that I can’t handle and maybe this time actually end it all.

-F.W.M.
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