I am a 29 yr old female. I have been suffering from this most of my life. i feel like i have no control over my emotions. when i am upset, i want to think logically but i can t seem to get to that part of my mind because my emotions take control of me. often when i feel wronged in some way, or nervous in a tough situation, i shut down because either i know i will react badly or somehow i feel like i caused it and end up beating myself up about where i failed. i feel very defensive around people. i am afraid of many social settings because i feel like i may overreact or not react at all. sort of like i m constantly in survival mode. situations that other people can handle, i cannot. even when i m very happy sometimes i feel like i have no control of that either. I constantly feel like i have to protect myself and have a difficult time processing things. sometime is takes me hours or days to understand what just happened in a situation. sometimes i relive it over and over to see if there was a better way to handle it, and often wonder why i couldn t get to that solution in the first place. (i am speaking of conflicts). as a child i did suffer abuse (physical, mental , emotional and sexual) and abandonment. i have been in foster care and my parents went to jail for drugs and child abuse . I was diagnosed with ptsd and major depressive disorder . tried medication but it seemed to destroy my inner drive to be rpoductive. I have tried stress mgt, anger mgt, and positive thinking(which helped some) but i cannot seem to shake the feelings of being overwhelmed. most people tell me i m a walking miracle for what i have been through, but i feel inadequate still. often i talk to people about problems i encounter because i can t figure out how to deal with it. it ends up becoming an obsession, and almost always ends badly. it s depressing me (sometimes i can t sleep, eat, concentrate, enjoy my life, etc) and it has ruined many things for me. is there any help for me? or am i never going to be right?
your situation is due to the past that has been there with you .if you will try to forget your past your all problem will be solved .be positive in each &every situation .you have to be positive for your worst situation .dont under estimate your self any time that will develope your self confidence.so always be happy .