 In 2012 , Squidward became the center of a " <unk> " ( a term describing urban legends or scary stories that have become Internet phenomena ) called " Squidward 's Suicide " , which alleged the existence of a lost episode of SpongeBob SquarePants in which Squidward kills himself . It was originally uploaded to YouTube but was immediately removed . The alleged episode consists of " strange and upsetting noises in the background " and " quick flashes of dead children and gore " . Show writer Casey Alexander debunked the actuality of the alleged lost episode , saying it is " 100 % hoax " . 
