 Reich was taught at home until he was 12 , when his mother was discovered having an affair with his live @-@ in tutor . Reich wrote about the affair in 1920 in his first published paper , " Über einen Fall von <unk> der <unk> " ( " About a Case of Breaching the Incest Taboo " ) , presented in the third person as though about a patient . He wrote that he would follow his mother when she went to the tutor 's bedroom at night , feeling ashamed and jealous , and wondering if they would kill him if they found out that he knew . He briefly thought of forcing her to have sex with him , on pain of threatening to tell his father . In the end , he did tell his father , and after a protracted period of beatings , his mother committed suicide in 1910 , for which Reich blamed himself . 
