 After the distress of 1897 , Victoria sought to reassure the Munshi . " I have in my Testamentary arrangements secured your comfort , " she wrote to him , " and have constantly thought of you well . The long letter I enclose which was written nearly a month ago is entirely and solely my own idea , not a human being will ever know of it or what you answer me . If you can 't read it I will help you and then burn it at once . " She told Reid the squabbles placed her and the Munshi under strain , which he replied was unlikely in the latter 's case " judging from his robust appearance and undiminished stoutness " . Lord Salisbury told Reid he thought it unlikely in her case too , and that she secretly enjoyed the arguments because they were " the only form of excitement she can have " . 
