 " It killed him not to work . He was torn between his desire to work and his desire not to talk , and he didn 't know what to do . What I think he wanted to know was , what would I think of him if he talked ? He didn 't say it in that way , though . Then he explained to me the politics of it — how the studios were in on it , and there was never any chance of his working . He was under pressure , he was sick , his diabetes was bad , and he was drinking . By this time I understood that he had refused to talk before and had done his time , from my point of view . What could any kid say at that point ? You say , ' I love you and I 'm behind you . ' " 
