 " Being exceedingly alarmed at the misery into which I had fallen , and much more at that which threatened me in view of eternal death , I , duty bound , made it my first business to betake myself to your way , condemning my past life , not without groans and tears . And now , O Lord , what remains to a wretch like me , but instead of defence , earnestly to supplicate you not to judge that fearful abandonment of your Word according to its deserts , from which in your wondrous goodness you have at last delivered me . " 
