 Then Farel , who was working with incredible zeal to promote the gospel , bent all his efforts to keep me in the city . And when he realized that I was determined to study in privacy in some obscure place , and saw that he gained nothing by entreaty , he descended to cursing , and said that God would surely curse my peace if I held back from giving help at a time of such great need . Terrified by his words , and conscious of my own timidity and cowardice , I gave up my journey and attempted to apply whatever gift I had in defense of my faith . 
