 I find myself in a new and strange position here — Presdt , Cabinet , Genl Scott & all deferring to me — by some strange operation of magic I seem to have become the power of the land . ... I almost think that were I to win some small success now I could become Dictator or anything else that might please me — but nothing of that kind would please me — therefore I won 't be Dictator . Admirable self @-@ denial ! 
