Outbursts of rage when normally I would just frown soul crushing guilt when I do the slightest thing wrong Suicidal thoughts but not very often Happy is way happier, sadder is way sadder mad is way madder with no inbetween no indication before a change, at times emotions can be so much I dont even understand or remember why, I am 22 year old fit male. didnt enroll in college because I applied too late. Am a Junior. Changing majrs, waiting for college to respond, which they did and I should be back in next semester. No job, just sitting at homw waiting for girlfriend to get home from college classes
Welcome to Chat Doctor ! I have read and understand your problem and found that you have high emotional reactions which are usually not under your control. These are usually more than required at that moment or for that situation. It also looks that you do later feel guilt about the same but unable to control it. You need to tell me that what is your general overall mood and what is the duration of these ups and downs. Your condition can be due to some personality factors in which person has extreme positive and extreme negative moods but nothing in \"gray\" zone. They also have difficulty in making long term relationships. The condition is usually from a long duration. It can also be due to a condition called \"bipolar disorder\" in which mood fluctuates between very low to very high with or without any external event. However, usually the duration of either mood change lasts for weeks or months. I have seen such cases and from my experience I can say that it can be aggravated due to your current conditions