I am a 17 year old male currently at sixth form and hoping to either go to uni or the army. i took an online test to see if im depressed, and it said that i MAY (stressed it wasnt a diagnosis, which is why im here) that i may have mild to moderate depression. I am happy sometimes, but then i think about my life and i just think its worthless, like im a pathetic nobody, and i am, quite frequently, thinking about ways i would kill myself. I dont have an urge to do it, but i believe that i would if i hd the willpower or something to drive me. I have had horrifically low self esteem for years, had a spec needs class a few years ago to help and it did, apparently im improving but i cant even ahve an argument without almost getting teary. i need a diagnosis before i go see a doctor to see if it may be real or if its in my head
Hi, Thanks for using Chat Doctor. You are having Major depressive disorder. But one should also rule out bipolar mood disorder and personality traits. You should consult the psychiatrist as soon as possible. Doctor, after making confirm diagnosis, may start anti-depressant Chat Doctor.  You may also get benefit by counselling and psychotherapy sessions to improve your self-esteem. Meanwhile, you can also do stress management and relaxation therapy like yoga or meditation for better control over stress. Thanks.