I have a disease called depersonalization disorder. I ve been stuck in it for the past year. It means a loss of identity or personality. For me it was induced by reading philosophical books and putting them into practice for a long time, basically saying that You are not your social identity, you are not who you think you are, you are not your mind or your thoughts... Bottom line I need my old self back, the one that I stupidly let go by brainwashing myself and meditating a lot. I try to get my old thinking patterns back, but the new reality I m stuck in keeps crawling back hard and I can t get rid of it. A friend of mine saw a psychiatrist specialized in Depersonalization, he was prescribed a combination of SSRI + Antipsychosis, and is doing somewhat better. I am very scared that the use of strong medications can give me even LESS control over my brain, and I already have very little control. I am also scared of the side effects, especially from CIpralex, which I am considering taking. Do you have any experience with this disease? And what do you advise me, thank you.
Hello, welcome to Chat Doctor. Depersonalization is an anomaly of self-awareness. Subjects feel they have changed, and the world has become vague, Chat Doctor. You did not mention significant symptoms related to depersonalization in your case history. You may have other psychological issues which need detailed evaluation to identify. If your psychiatrist want to start circle, let him. It does cause losing control over brain.