My emotions are numb. I had a one night stand 48 years ago and told my husband of 52 years about it in reply to his direct questioning. I can feel anger but no other feelings. He expects remorse and tears but all i feel is numbness. I have very few memories of the night in question and even the days leading up to the act. He wants very detailed explanations of everything and I just draw a blank. With him, it is like it happened yesterday. I cannot put a label on the emotions or feelings I have. It is like my system has just shut down. I know I probably need (possibly both of us) counseling but we live in a small rural community in Ala and I have no idea how to find the right person to talk to. Help.
DearWelcome to Chat Doctor understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I sincerely opine that the problem you are facing now could be cleared with a psychological counseling as you opined. Your long marital relationship should have cleared the problem. There is nothing wrong in feeling numb under these circumstances. Actually your mind is using defense mechanism to clear the ever present criticism and related mental assault. Your husband should understand you and should be able to live a normal life. You should work now and that should give you some respite.  If you still need my help, please describe the whole problem in detail and post a direct question to me. I shall definitely help you with psychotherapy techniques to overcome your problems. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.