I was diagnosed with depression in December and am on anti - depressants. Sometimes if things are going bad and I feel out of control, I buy pain killers to regain control. When this happens I hear voices, some of which tell me to go through with taking the pain killers whilst others tell me to take myself to a & e. Ive also started to feel really paranoid, during the day Im ok although I sometimes feel as though people are talking about me and laughing at me. At night, I lie awake scaring myself at every noise thinking someone is going to break into the house and kill me. A knife recently went missing in the kitchen and I was terrifed someone had broken in during the day and theyd come back at night to kill me with the knife. Today I found it so Im a little less scared although I know that if my boyfriend falls asleep before me again tonight, Ill lie awake scaring myself at every noise
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. From the description, you ought to be troubled with paranoid personality disorder. Hearing voices, doubt that other people talking about you etc. are symptoms around it.  You should see a psychologist / psychotherapist soon and let yourself tested. Treatment starts after proper diagnosis. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.