For the past two years I have been feeling like I m on a roller coaster ride of emotions and have been feeling really depressed because of it. I ve always had issues with my parents and some differences of beliefs that we ve had but It really all started when two years ago my mom cheated on my dad and that s when everything in my life started to go downhill. That day was one of the worst days of my life due to all the screaming, yelling and anger things being thrown and from that moment I thought I would never have that same life with both parents again and I didn t . Even though they stayed together and worked things out my dad became more difficult to talk to. He always considered himself right on everything the way he talked about other people and other races like he was so much higher then them he would yell at the slightest things and it was like walking on egg shells. As months went on I distanced myself more and more from him and my mom as she also became more over protective and crazy. I would ask to go over to friends houses and she would say no multiple times but then she would constantly complain that I m always in my room and that I don t do nothing and have no friends and those little remarks would drive me insane because the more I would tell my friends I couldn t come the lonelier my life felt. My friends suddenly just get tired of asking so much that they don t as much anymore. My mom also made me move schools my junior year to a new school where I knew no one. This broke me for so long because school was the one place I was able to be my crazy outgoing happy self with all my friends and the people I love surrounding me and she took that away. I was a completely different person at school then at home no one would ever know I was unhappy. Being at the new school I would cry for days because of how alone I felt at that point. Because now was I not only sad at home but sad at my new school to. No one talked to me for so long and on my second year here I still don t have that full happiness I used to but do when I get the chance to get together with my friends. When I m with friends It s like every feeling of sadness I have is gone and I m just smiling and talking and laughing the whole time but my parents don t see that. When they say blood is thicker then water I don t feel that way because my friends the people who help me to feel and be my happy self mean more to me. The problem is I never tell anyone my problems I bottle them ,I focus on helping everyonelse but myself and I ve bottled every problem in my life for so long that everytime I try to open up I end up crying and not being able to say the words I need to and then my parents say I m being a baby or just over reacting. Or for example they ll make fun of it by making a remark referring to whatever happened. I just want to truly be happy again not only with my friends but my family to but I don t know if that will ever happen when they don t take me seriously.
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much.  I sincerely suggest that you are victim of your own negative thinking. You cannot term your current state of mind as clinical depression. Rather, this is just disappointment. Disappointment which arises out of unforeseen life events do bring such symptoms like sadness, irritation, anger, lethargy, lack of interest, lack of appetite etc. Please understand this fact and make sure to introspect. Talking to your friends, outdoor activities and being creative should give you relief. Find the reason for your disappointment and consult a psychologist if need be. Psychotherapy techniques should suit your requirement. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this URL. http