I am 68 and in good health. But due to a violent son that is now 30 I developed Panic attacks and it seems like PTSD. My psychologist at Keiser said he could not help me and I would go outside the system. He did give me about 10 months ago Paxil and Xanax, the maximum allowed. Since I could not believe what he said, still having a high IQ, I did research on google. Finally, I found that Marajuana (sativa, Blue dream) when used with an evaporator decreased my episodes to less that 1 a month.  The idea started with  my daughter 30, who had used it for about 10 year, and Dr. Sanjay Gupta. I  saw the  burner at the Israeli hospital that he had visited. I bought the unit and tried various strains, until I found this one on a website.
Degree understand your concerns went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The auto-suggestion is invalid. You should not be inclined towards such usage. The maximum you can do is to go and see a psychiatrist and have medicines according to his prescription. Secondly, you can consult a psychotherapist who shall prescribe psychotherapy techniques which changes your outlook and lifestyle and in turn removes your problem. Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.