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These are from Jan/Feb 2012
Oh and to the poster that said that I'm posting this stuff "and I was all this , and then he said that" - yes I guess that is what Im doing. I am still hurting. I am still analyzing. I am a thinker. I know I shouldnt be reading this stuff bc he is still occupying my brain. I know. Rome wasn't built in a day. Not trying to make excuses
Me 1/12/12
You have not been enthusiastic about seeing me, taking to me, spending time with me for w hile. Please spend your time with the people you feel enthusiastic abt. No hard feelings, not "jumping down ur throat" just telling you how I feel and the best way I can think to fix it .
I can't help I'm going to have a lot if stuff coming up in the next two months (I HAD WEDDINGS,BDAYS, I HAD A LOT OF COMMITMENTS). If ur already upset about the time we r spending on me, I can tell u its only going to get worse until this wedding is over. I guess we just do things for ourself on our own time since we cant seem to come to an understanding of how we do it together. If u could think my feelings were legitimate for once id probably fall over in shock. Its like ur never wrong, its always me. No matter what it is, im always in the wrong in some form or fashion. I know im not always right, but seriously...can I be wrong 100% of the time? I dont think thats statistically possible
Seriously, go do all the things u resent me for denying u of. And if u want to play the "no responding" game... cool, i have a black belt in that.
We are not even talking about the same thing. I am not already upset about anything. Do you think I'm offering to do things for you just because im a nice person? I'm offering because I want to, and because I know it makes you happy, and that in turn makes me happy. Same as what you would do for me. I'm saying that I've offered because I want to, but I don't feel like you've been happy. You're upset with me because I want to watch a football game, or that I have basketball on Wednesdays, or that I have stuff I need to do at my place which can totally be avoided if you actually stayed here like we have been talking abt. It's not about who's right or wrong, no one is trying to say you're wrong. We are simply not viewing the dynamics of what's going on the same way
No ur offering to help because weve been arguing abt ur selfishness and time/resource allocations. You do more stuff and cleaning ard ur house than spend time with me. For the last 3 weeks u have been cleaning all week long except wednesdays. U even cleaned sat morning, everytime I talk to u, ur cleaning or abt to. You may disagree, but ive been watching and yes u spend more time cleaning than u do with me. (when ur awake) your place should be spotless at this point especially since "youre never there". And yes u are already upset!!!!! I said u resent me for doing stuff for me for TWO WHOLE WEEKENDS and u emphatically agreed that yes u were in fact resentful. Pretty cut and dry to me. Please clean ur apt, run ur errands, I wont be asking anything else of u. I had a funny feeling it would come to this
And wtf, im upset cause u want to play bball on wednesdays. Ur just making stuff up now. Incredible. Yes, please just think Im angry with u for wanting to watch football or play bball, or go to work, or dermatologist. Ur gonna think that anyways so theres not a damn thing I can do abt it. U must think im mentally challenged or something
And thanks for disagreeing with me abt ur lack of enthusiasm. Speaks volumes
IF someone said they thought I didnt want to be around them id fall all over myself trying to convince them otherwise. Anyway ive said what I needed to
Listen to how upset you are. I'm not calling you names, and I'm not starting a fight with my words
There's no reason to get like that
No YOU listen to how upset I am. Thats the whole point. You care more abt urself than me. Im like a broken record. I didnt start the fight, ur ambivalence was the catalyst. This is going nowhere...we will never agree
Ur calling me selfish? Youre right we will no agree
Please humor me...how am I selfish? Because I didnt thank you "emphatically" enough??? Because I DID thank u!!! Multiple times. And I DO help u if u ask for it and even offer sometimes when u dont. U always shoot me down. I offered to go get ur clothes for u on sunday when u couldnt get off the couch. I offered to do anything u needed to do saturday. I offered to go to marshalls for u. Offered to make dinner. Offered to come watch u try clothes on today. And this is just in last 7 days.,I do try to do things for u, and have been doing so for more than a few weekends. I dont know what u want from me other than saying thank u more repetitively? Or giving u praise everyime u take the trash out or go shopping with me.do u feel u dont get enough of my time? U think constantly I put my feelings first over urs? U feel like I cant stand to be around you...ever? No. and until u feel that way u will never know what this all feels like.
Im not expecting you to say thank you of anything for that matter. I'm putting forth the effort to doing the things you want to do, but no matter much I do it's not enough for you. You're examples are not the way it happened either. I'm trying to meet you halfway buy you don't want to do that.
Im sorry two weekends isnt going to make up fir years of focus on u. I would need to see CONSISTENCY over time. Two weekends is four days. U really think that if over a period of months I would see that ur actually changing and not just doing it to shut me up for the time being, then continue to have ur priorities the way u have been all along. I just dont get u, if someone was saying the same thing over and over again, id take notice. And I wouldnt automatically assume they were wrong. Then when I deliver on what they want for a short while, get angry that they didnt appreciate it enough. Point is ur always going to have a negative opinion of me. I cam never voice displeasure without preparing for battle. Ur impossible to talk to. Ur hard to get thru to. Ive said so much tonite and uve only addressed the things that bother u. No remorse for making me feel bad. Its cruel
Im depressed. Have a lovely nite. Im sure u could care less abt all this but it s ruined my mood and im calling it a nite
NO, you're the one that is focused on starting a fight. It's all about you're not doing this or you're not doing that. Years of having the focus on me? Come on. Ur right, this is depressing. Nite
I dont know if u understand this, but I think its important you know. And I speak for all women when I say this. Even if it doesnt work out with me, youll know for future women. When you are working 7 days a week 14 hrs a day (HE DID THIS EVERY YEAR FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS OUT OF THE YEAR - WILL GIVE HIM THAT HE IS A HARD WORKER), a woman who is dating u will NEVER feel like the focus is on her. It will feel like its on u. Which is ok , its ur work and u cant help that. But then when your work dies down, its almost like you have to make up that time to her to balance things out. I know ur disagreeing with everything I just said, but I felt it was important that I say that to you at least once. I hope you remember that over the years, with or without me. Thansk for the good morning text, I hope you have a good day too.
No it's not ok. The focus is not on ME when I am working, it is on my JOB!! And the reason people work is so they can provide for their families. So any woman should understand that if she wants to have a future with this person who is a hard worker and has long hours for part of the year, the hard work will pay off in the long run. It's not about immediate satisfaction, it's about life in the future. So when the work does die down, that opens up time to be spent together or doing things that don't get done during the busy times. There is nothing to "remember" over the years. It is a philosophical difference in the way we view things. You can think that the focus is on me all you want, but you have never worked for your own company so you can't understand what I'm saying to you. Not your fault, and not MINE either!
Again u refuse to see things from my perpective. I said a woman can not feel like shes a priority during those months and would understand bc of all the reasons you stated. But when ur not working those hourse a woman would be hurt if the focus continued to be mainly on u and ur needs. And yes, aside from a few things here and there that is where ur focus has been. Instead u say we have a difference of philosophies. Ha. Not true, I know ur ex did not feel like a priority most times. And complained abt it to u. So we are both wrong and u are right? How bout "yes suspicious I can see why u feel left by the wayside sometimes and im sorry to make u feel that way after all ive put you through. And ill do my best in the future to never make u feel that way". Is that really so hard for you?
This has nothing to do with being self employed vs non. This has to do with quality time and being fully present and engaged in the act at hand, no matter how trivial. And putting someones elses needs above ur own. Isnt that what love is?
The focus does not continue to be on my needs. And no, aside from a few things here and there?????????!!!!!!!! You don't even realize what you are saying. This is why I say that you are being unappreciative.You don't know anything abt how my ex felt. Don't even try to throw that in my face (OH BUT I DID)I would like for you to show me appreciation by just doing the things that we agreed we would both work on. I'm working on doing things for you, but I feel like you're not doing the same and aren't very motivated in doing anything because you feel that what I'm doing is not enough. I don't want to continue this cycle until it drives us mad. It makes us both unhappy. We are already 2 weeks into the new year when we were supposed to turn over a new leaf.
Ok well we both feel taken for granted. At least we both know how the other feels to some degree. I didnt really know u felt taken for granted. You always say im selfish and I never really interpreted that as u being taken for granted. But when u put it that way I understand more. When u say the things we agreed on are u only referring to working out? Thats the only thing I feel like im failing u on, plus not showing enough appreciation which I said id work on. But all of this is once again being turned on me and u are clean as a whistle. Can u admit any part in this? Or is it all my doing, all the time? I feel like im always bending, always apologizing , admitting fault, trying to make peace, saying ur right and ill work on it, asking how I could handle things differely. Ur so caught up in being right, u never give me any credit. Or do any of the aforementioned things. Like never. "sorry" and "what can I do to make it better" or "i can see how ud feel that way" are not in ur vocab.
And I dont understand u calling me unmotivated. Only because I havent worked out this this week? Becasue I did work out last week, and have been working out but not telling u abt it. I evem told u that. ive been very motivated and been accomplishing tons. So im confused bu that statement. Aside from working out and appreciation where else am I failing u? I wish ud ask me these questions sometimes....see this is how I respond to someone who is unhappy with me. "what can I do to make it better" not "you criticize me and jump down my throat all the time, and ur wrong abt everything u feel"
When I first came here mostly everyone told me not to give WS another chance...
I did and now im still stuck on this same stinking ship.
I think alot of people who have been in long term marriages and or relationships want you to not waste anymore of your time or become anymore invested in something that has so much potential to turn out bad.
If you want to keep hope alive do it but do it from a far. If he truly wants you nothing can keep him away even if you appear to be moving on with your life.
One thing I can say is
Dont put yourself in that position. its so much harder to leave and knowing that you would bring a child into the world considering where this will likely head is not well thought through. you want to give your child a stable home with 2 parents even though im sure you could do it along dont selfishly use the fact that you could as a justification cause its not what you truly want for your child.
I can say that you sound alot like i did before i was even tied to this man by children.. but now that they are here its way more complicated. You will be wishing that you could turn back the hands of time and take back these best years of your life.
How i wish i didnt give my WS my 20's I could have been enjoying life for myself. Maybe even finding someone who truly loved me.
Time is so precious its the one thing we dont get back. If you want to have hope in this guy go ahead but dont let him waste any more of your TIME!!
^^^ This! And she is posting from her perspective.
I'm agreeing from the childrens' perspective!
Susp. You are not the boss of him. You can not make him see anything from any perspective that he isn't interested in viewing it from.
If you read outloud what you've posted here your ears would bleed!
Last night (345 am)- Good, sweet, loving times. Beautiful woman, even luckier guy. Never have I been more happier than the times we shared together. Never has someone made me feel more complete. Never have I fallen so deeply in love. What happened to us? Our bond was so strong. Our love was so deep. Our connection was undeniable. Why can some people make it work and we can't? It doesn't make sense. It doesn't make a damn lick of sense. My soul has lost its once in a lifetime mate. And I don't have a single good answer as to why...
Still not responding but this is getting sad
It's romantic flowery words but the evidence is, he cheated then crapped all over you emotionally as you tried to connect with him.
If he doesn't have an answer as to why, then he's not owning his actions and issues.
[This message edited by Holly-Isis at 6:22 AM, May 11th (Saturday)]
I guess he thinks I just lost my mind and left him
Yeah it is so frustrating "he doesn't have a good single reason why"
I guess he thinks I just lost my mind and left him
susp, kindly: snap out of it.
He doesn't think you lost your mind and left him.
He knows exactly why you removed yourself from the relationship, because you clearly told him why you were leaving him, many times, and you gave him many chances, all of which he dismissed.
His text to you doesn't bear any resemblance to the rest of the emails and text exchanges you have posted.
His latest text feeds in to the fantasy you had of a relationship with him that never existed, but that you really wanted to exist. He texted you "as if" that relationship had been your reality. As if you were two soulmates happily running through fields of wildflowers and planning a future, cruelly cut off by your inexplicable exit stage left.
However you know full well that this was not what your real relationship looked like.
You felt like shit about yourself.
You had to fight for the right to boil water on your stove without being criticized and engaged in 3 days worth of emails about whether or not you were going to tell him that he was right all along about whether or not you should boil water on your stove. That was literally an email exchange you posted here. He would not let you boil water without oversight, criticism and insults.
So please snap out of any guilt fog you feel for cruelly following through on your own reasonable boundaries for a humane, equal relationship with another human being.
My soul has lost its once in a lifetime mate. And I don't have a single good answer as to why...
Well, there you have it. He couldn't do even the smallest reasonable thing for his "once in a lifetime mate", he could not be faithful, he could not listen to you, he could not accept you, he could not let you boil water. That's how much he cared for or respected this special bond, this wonderful beautiful soul mate. And after what looks like 200 full pages of you pouring your heart and soul out to him over email and text, he still doesn't have a "single good answer". Because your words were all nothing, just 'blah blah blah' to him.
Can you see that there is absolutely zero empathy or understanding for the fact that he completely fucked up our marriage and how he still is, very subtly, implying that its demise is a *we* problem?
Reading the emails and texts that you post is like travelling back in time for me. The actual subject matter may have been different, but the whole tit-for-tat and 'hot potato' circular arguments/discussions were exactly the same. Exactly. He always somehow made himself the 'victim' of big, bad Gonna....when he was, in fact, the perpetrator.
Why can some people make it work and we can't? It doesn't make sense. It doesn't make a damn lick of sense. My soul has lost its once in a lifetime mate. And I don't have a single good answer as to why...
I don't think it's a problem to re-read your old exchanges.....so long as re-hashing it is helping you to *see* the 'reality' of your relationship. It'll help to give you much-needed strength and resolve. But if you're re-reading them and getting caught up in how YOU should have responded differently, then you should stop.
In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.
Got a text from a mutual acquaintance just now "xweabf (my new acronym - ex wayward emotionally abusive boyfriend) is super depressed over not being with u"
I barely even talk to this person. They maybe saw each other out last night. Xweabf was prob wasted when he sent that text which is why it sounds different from the others
[This message edited by suspicious247 at 4:46 PM, May 11th (Saturday)]
Suspicious247....you really need to block this man from your life, phone, email, twitter, facebook, myspace, tumblr, and every other social media you have.
This man, does not love you, he loves the fact that he can manipulate you and get you to do what he wants.
He loves the fact that you bend to his every word, and then give in when he gets even remotely mushy and lovey.
Have you ever see the cycle of abuse laid out for you.
This doesnt have to be violent, it doesnt have to be physical...i can be mental and emotional as well.
YOU cant seem to see that because he's never hit you or been rough with you.
He's literally 'killing you with kindness'...
What you have together, its not healthy at all...You need to LEAVE HIM.
[This message edited by suspicious247 at 6:40 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
Want to commend you for not biting the bait of how sad he was over the lost relationship. MrWNW took that approach last time I tried NC. Had me believing he was just SO heart broken, so lost, nearly suicidal. I bit. Came to find out, he was SO heartbroken, yet same day I established NC, he joined back to a dating site, had added multiple old flames even one of last year's OW back to his facebook, was back to talking to women and looking for the next piece.
I guess we'd like to think they are heartbroken, even a little, so that it proves they had a heart. Truth is it's just more manipulation, sick, totally fucking sick for them to use that to lure us. So glad you were strong enough to see that. You're doing SO well!!!
t/j Gonna,
You describe me in the very negative ways your mind will currently allow.
I've heard it so many times. That and "your assumptions" "your perceptions" "you can convince yourself of anything" blah blah. FTGs!!!
[This message edited by windowsnotwalls at 7:28 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
It's certainly not to start a family with you anytime soon, if it all, because he has cheated on you since the beginning, and every time you start thinking weddings and long-term commitment, he throws another hurdle on the path for you to jump over.
There is a time limit on him, as well, if he doesn't know it. Studies of ADHD and autism show risks climb when the DAD is older when he has kids. No one knows why yet - might be old sperm, might be some other cause. If it doesn't turn out to be a biological reason for link, he also has a clock ticking on how much energy and fitness he will have to keep up with a kid.
Even marathon runners can be totally exhausted by a toddler or a 10-year-old in a day when they're 50 and over time, less patient and their peer group isn't in that stage of life, having already passed it.
I'd translate that last email you received to mean "I am horny, come over here." And nothing else.
Since you are 36, I assume this "future" he's working so hard to have is a child with some other fantasy person he hasn't met yet, because there is a limited amount of time for the two of you. If he married you next year and you had a child, he doesn't seem the type to take that situation very well without resentment, throwing it in your face and freaking out over pregnancy body and then never EVER being satisfied with your body again even it it's perfect again after childbirth. Because that's who he is, from how it reads here from what he says and does.
My opinion: I don't think he wants children even though theoretically, he would "one day" want someone to pass on legacy.
How does he see his future? Does he picture it going to the park with a little one; being OK with staying up all night when the kid is throwing up? Does he want to coach kid soccer?
Or does he see his future as working out, biking, running his business and bitching about salt, doing what he wants to do and you being old reliable?
[This message edited by Heavy Sigh at 7:44 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
Got a text from a mutual acquaintance just now "xweabf (my new acronym - ex wayward emotionally abusive boyfriend) is super depressed over not being with u"
Tell your mutual acquaintance that your ex had no trouble finding women to hook up with DURING your relationship of four years, so not to worry. He will not have lost the skill now that you're no longer accepting that behavior and have left.
[This message edited by Heavy Sigh at 7:49 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
I am so sorry for this painful process. I want you to know you are someone to admire for remaining NC with him. I KNOW how hard it is. The "love of my life" could have been your WSO's twin.
It took me close to 14 years to see what his manipulation was. I always thought I was bright too....PhD by age 27...nice middle management job making over 100K/yr by 28......and lugging around 180 pounds of dead weight since I was 22.
The biggest thing for me is I loved him and I couldn't see that his actions didn't show he loved me back.
He cheated, he was nice, he was mean again, he was sorry, he wasn't sorry, it was my fault for being pregnant and "fat" (then I found out MOW was well over 200 pounds and I weighed 147 the day I gave birth and lost 20 pounds in the first two week post partum). I still believed him.
3 kids later.
I still believed him. I gave up my job and moved 2000 miles away from my FOO. All of my friends left behind. I became totally dependent on him and that's when the physical started......over a decade into our relationship.
And you know what? It was how he was raised, it was all he knew, but instead of trying to get healthy when given the opportunity he said Fuck that, I am having too much fun having a slave at home and sex with whomever I want when I leave the house.
3 failed attempts at R.....even another child born into this mess.....then his father died and he immediatelt answered a CL to have sex at a bar.
And it was my fault for "not being there for him" (in reality I was holding his hand and his father's when he died...I held him while he cried and I listened to him for days)but the chick at the bar "really got him".
Every Mother's Day he used to say....well you know I didn't get you anything....you're not my mother.
Well I guess my three kids under 6 are supposed to go shopping.
Ironically, all I wanted was for him to say, Happy Mother's Day, you are a great mom.
But I would never get that from him because he knew I craved words of affection.
He had to withhold them to continue his control. He needed me to try to be better for him.
At the end of the day, my boobs were too small and I was too skinny after years of being told I was fat. I was 110 pounds at 5'7" with the same size 32B I had the day I met him (he should have asked bigger boobs to marry him).
He was 240 pounds and 6'0.
I started the relationship at 120 (after 3 kids, 10 pounds less than I was in my 20s) and him at 150....and I'm the one with the weight problem.
I tried to rationalize with the irrational for years and SI members trained me not to. They told me that it stops when I want it to stop. They gave me control.
And now I take responsibility for my life and no longer allow his drama to ruin my day. It still hurts, but it does get better.
Take Care and I'm glad you are continuing to post and think this through.
Suspi, how are you feeling today?
I am doing ok thanks so much for asking wnw. Weekends are hard for me - for whatever reason. Probably because I know he is out living his life going to bars and trying to meet women and I'm doing the complete opposite. I not leaving the house much except to go to the gym (which makes me feel icky bc thats what HE wanted me to do - but I do it knowing that it's good for me) I know I'm not the only one hurting but I dont buy for a second that he's just some heartbroken and lost soul. Well maybe the lost soul part. I like you, have done this dance before. After DDay and I ended things in 2010 he professed how bad his "heart was bleeding" and he was so lost without me. I bought it at the time but found out later it was all BS. He was dating and sleeping with some Brazilain hoe who was a bottle girl at a club. Real classy. I know everything out of his mouth is a lie.
I repsonded to that person that it was all an act and if he was so upset he would have listened to me the countless times I tried to get through to him over the past 4 years.
But I like your response better!!
I actually found a text right when we R'd We must have gotten into a fight and I was asking him not to yell at me anymore. This has been going on literally since the day we R'd. I was so so blind then.....
He works 14 hours a day 7 days a week for a future with whom?
I hear you. I think some it has to do with the fact that it's a family business and his two younger sisters' future lies in his hands. The family is very dysfunctional and all the kids have ever done is work for the family business. At 29, 32, and 35 they have no other work experience than that. It defintiely had nothing to do with me - expecially with me being the age I am and him skirting the issue everytime I asked.
My opinion: I don't think he wants children even though theoretically, he would "one day" want someone to pass on legacy.
I agree - he only wants to have children when it's coming from a place of narcicism. To pass of the genes that he believes are so superior to everyone else's.
How does he see his future? Does he picture it going to the park with a little one; being OK with staying up all night when the kid is throwing up? Does he want to coach kid soccer?
Or does he see his future as working out, biking, running his business and bitching about salt, doing what he wants to do and you being old reliable?
I dont think he even has the foresight to picture his future. I have seen him with a toddler once before and it literally made me uncomfortable watching. He was like a fish out of water. It was clear he had NEVER been around yong kids. I think He thinks he would be a great dad. Why wouldn't he? Hes perfect! And in some respects (financially) he would be. But I think his kids, should he ever find someone to put up with his madness, will be miserable. Just like him.
He should have no problems finding someone - women (including myself) are dumb. They see good looking, fun, rich, complimentary, like to shop, in touch with emotions - and think they hit the jackpot.
It wil ltake them about 6 months to see the real him.
I feel bad for whoever she is - she'll always get compared to me - just I was always compared to the one before me.
"I" am a much better woman than she (OW#1) will ever be and HE KNOWS IT. He knows he'll never meet another person who understood him like I did, made him laugh like i did, I am a quality woman and not a dime a dozen and he knows that.
Even thoght its been stomped on for as long as I can remember, I have a heart of gold that is irreplaceable.
And he knows that.
[This message edited by suspicious247 at 8:26 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
Yep, like you, I suspect the 3:45 am text was alcohol laced.
He should have no problems finding someone - women (including myself) are dumb. They see good looking, fun, rich, complimentary, like to shop, in touch with emotions - and think they hit the jackpot.
It wil ltake them about 6 months to see the real him.
I feel bad for whoever she is - she'll always get compared to me - just I was always compared to the one before me.
"I" am a much better woman than she (OW#1) will ever be and HE KNOWS IT. He knows he'll never meet another person who understood him like I did, made him laugh like i did, I am a quality woman and not a dime a dozen and he knows that.
Even thoght its been stomped on for as long as I can remember, I have a heart of gold that is irreplaceable.
And he knows that.
It wil ltake them about 6 months to see the real him.
I feel bad for whoever she is - she'll always get compared to me - just I was always compared to the one before me.
"I" am a much better woman than she (OW#1) will ever be and HE KNOWS IT. He knows he'll never meet another person who understood him like I did, made him laugh like i did, I am a quality woman and not a dime a dozen and he knows that.
Even thoght its been stomped on for as long as I can remember, I have a heart of gold that is irreplaceable.
And he knows that.
Suspi, I feel I could've written that myself. You're so very right. MrWNW has even stated that before. He said "YOU are the diamond, you always have been. There's rocks out there, maybe even gems, but you're THE diamond, my diamond. It's always been since we were 15."
Yet as of last week he was trying to sell me that he could find someone else to meet his "needs", someone else to blindly trust him, not live "in chains" with "a dictator". My response? Do it. -.- I'm truly, truly not scared.
Suspi, I feel I could've written that myself. You're so very right. MrWNW has even stated that before. He said "YOU are the diamond, you always have been. There's rocks out there, maybe even gems, but you're THE diamond, my diamond. It's always been since we were 15."
Yet as of last week he was trying to sell me that he could find someone else to meet his "needs", someone else to blindly trust him, not live "in chains" with "a dictator". My response? Do it. -.- I'm truly, truly not scared.
Yet as of last week he was trying to sell me that he could find someone else to meet his "needs", someone else to blindly trust him, not live "in chains" with "a dictator". My response? Do it. -.- I'm truly, truly not scared.
Our stories are eerily familiar with the exception of a few things. He told me I was the "smartest and funniest person he'd ever met. He qualified it as to say that he can't believe a "woman" is so smart and so funny. What an anomoly!
He also told me I am the most beautiful woman he has seen "in real life". And that I am actually more beautiful without makeup.
He also told my my heart is so pure and he's so lucky to have me and asked how did he get so lucky to end up with me?
All while giving me silent treatment for asking about his whereabouts or 'not listening' to him when he asks me to keep the doorway clear etc etc. Or not greeting him properly at the door.
He thought I was so broken that he woudl never lose me. He had the perfect storm. Someone who was attractive, independent, financially well off, funny, and thoughtful. But also with FOO issues which made all of this possible bc I didnt think i deserved to be treated better. Most people who are good on those same aspects dont have FOO and abandonment issues and would not put up with his BS. Good luck finding another one of me!
WNW - I think instead of 180 you should 86 this guy.
[This message edited by suspicious247 at 9:19 AM, May 12th (Sunday)]
That's quite possible. Major life decisions seem overwhelming to me at this point, though. The 180 is strengthening me, helping me stand strong, reminding me how valuable I am, how much I contribute to the lives of my family, my children, my friends. I can say at present, there's no missing him, no yearning, no dreaming. I'm in a good place. He's supposedly not. I'm ok with that. I'm not interested in rescuing him. I see through the BS. I still take him to court/appts/store, etc, and I'm ok with that too. I am maintaining my integrity through this separation. We are split, I just haven't gone NC.


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I was diagnosed with HIV in March 2012. I was pregnant, I told my boyfriend about it and he was hurt but said he was gonna support me & be there for me.
6 months pregnant & HIV positive
I am currently 6mnths pregnant I am 25 and found out that I have hiv when I went to my first obgyn appointment . I just got married a mnth prior to the man of my dreams. When they told us my whole world stopped I couldn't breath. I looked at my husband and my eyes filled with tears. I was petrified. For my life and the life of my unborn child. My husband immediately held me close while I cried. He asked to be tested as well. His test came back negative Thank god! But then I thought for sure he was going to leave me... And I wouldn't blame him.
It's been a few months now, almost 6 months since i found out that i am hiv positive. Its been a few hard months. Going through all of the emotions, not knowing.
I am 31years and hiv+. I discovered this after delivering my son in January. he too is +ve.
I found out in 2008 that i was HIV positive and i denied, i was in denial for two years.
28 and HIV positive
I'm 28 yrs and I discovered I was HIV+ a week ago
Alive and Kicking
I am a 37 year old, separated ,single mom . Been with the same man that infected since I was 19 , been infected since my son was a baby. He is a healthy boy
Hi my name iz k I found out abt my status on de 22 of august 2012 I was shocked by the tym I found out and I did the tes t at school
My name is MM. Im 25. When I saw that my test was reactive I broke down and cried thinking how could this be happening. I had no idea I was HIV positive and I'm glad I tested myself because I would have never known.

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Sedalia News-Journal
October 18, 2011
in Obituaries
Shirley J. Carwile, 75, of Pittsburg, died at her home on Oct. 16, 2011. She was born December 9, 1935 the daughter of Ellis and Nancy (Brinker) Greer. Shirley and […]
Dana August Egner, 71, of Sedalia, died Monday, Oct. 17, 2011, at his home. He was born Dec. 27, 1939, in Clay Center, Kan., a son of August D. and Eva […]
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Monday, Oct. 17 Alfred Harms, Sweet Springs; Christopher Miller, Sedalia; Marian Tilman, Sedalia


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Top Five: Best TV Opening Themes
Just like first round interviewees and blind daters, TV Shows are generally very nervous about making a good first impression. If the first impression is a bad one, well… you better start thinking of ideas for the next show.
Shows take different routes in order to ensure that viewers are hooked. However, most involve a recurring opening sequence with a title theme that is played at the beginning of each new episode. These songs are what get stuck in our heads, and keep us thinking about the show and wanting more. Some series do it wrong, and some do it really right. Here is our Top Five break down of the latter. Read more


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If you read only one blog post this weekend, let me micropersuade you to read Steve Rubel's SEO Shenanigans Pose a Clear and Present Danger to Social Media.
Before engaging in the debate, I'd like to invite Steve to expand on his Micropersuasion post in Search Engine Watch, home of Sergey Brin's Internet Doomsday Scenario.
Hey, we don't hate debate. We like controversy. We love search engine optimization, SEOs, social search, SMM and search engine marketing.
Steve: help our readers around the world understand what specific search engine strategies are "SEO shenanigans." You listed this Search Engine Watch blog post first: Boost Organic Results. Link Build with Social Media.
I think it's a brilliant guide: How to earn more money, improve online reputation and build brand equity online -- goals, Steve, you share for your clients?
Even so our blogger received death threats. Marty's blazing new SEO and SMO trails and that takes courage.
Wikipedia (Slate's new BFF) defines a shenanigan as a "deceitful confidence trick, or mischief causing discomfort or annoyance."
I don't think your brilliant linkbait blog post is a con game. It's a great SEO shenanigan!
Anonymous Wikepedian(s) go on to say, "However, in some regions, shenanigans can merely refer to harmless mischievous play, especially by children. It should be noted that the word itself is considered humorous, because of its unique sound."
So Steve were you - a PR maven - just joking around? Let me know. I think I may agree with you to a certain extent but I'm not sure.
So let's dynamically insert "search engine optimization" and "social media" keywords into Dictionary.com's definitions from the Random House Unabridged Dictionary:
1. SEO mischief; prankishness by SEOs: Halloween shenanigans.
social media marketing deceit; SEO trickery.
2. mischievous or deceitful SEO trick (Googlebombing?) practice, etc.
Here's the revised American Heritage Dictionary version of SEO shenanigan:
1. A deceitful SEO trick; an underhanded SMM act.
2. Online social media remarks intended to deceive; SEO PR deceit.
3. A playful or mischievous search engine optimization act; an SMM prank.
4. SEO mischief; SMO prankishness.
None of the above seems to pose a clear and present danger.
Graywolf points out in your post's comments that everyone's playing by Google's rules. Here's what The Google says:
Google's number two SERP (search engine results page) suggests shenanigans engaged in by couples present a clear and different danger.
Shenanigans - Indiana - Midwest's Premier "Couples Only" Club for ...
The Midwest's Premier "Couples Only" Club ! Shenanigans "Where Adults Come for Fun". Couples Only!
For inquiring minds, that's shenanigans.net. Since the keyword's in the title, it's not SEO shenanigans at work (or in play).
Google's paid search algorithm matches "shenanigans" with the "biggest losers" crowd: diet, fat and weight loss tips and tricks:
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10 Rules to Cut Belly Fat
Lose 9 lbs every 11 Days with these 10 Idiot Proof Rules of Fat Loss.
Steve, did your database of intentions intend SEO shenanigans to encompass a Google broad match/Thesaurus.com semantic search? For example, did you mean:
SEO antics, SEM capers, SEO dirty trick, fooling around with SEO, social media optimization frolicsomeness, search engine optimization funny business, SEO gag, search engine optimization hanky-panky, SEO high jinks, SEO PR horseplay, SEO PR horsing around, social media misbehavior, social media marketing mischievousness, monkey business*, SM naughtiness, SEO nonsense, search marketing prank, SEO trouble, social media marketing vandalism
If so, Google contextual advertising (content advertising) seems to think shenanigans are just a joke: Super Trooper-style (see YouTube result for keyword "shenanigans") or in a Superbad Knocked Up kind of way.
Here's another AdSense ad matched to "shenanigans" on Thesaurus.com:
Readers, your results may vary - my Google results? Not personalized:
Sponsored Links
What's in Your Bowl? Turd-O-Gram, send one to your Boss.
Whether that's "funny or die" funny is a matter of taste. What it is: Google's algorithm at work in the Google Ecosystem.


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NAS Part 1: Certificate in foreshore and underwater archaeology
What does the course involve?
The NAS Part 1 Certificate builds on the knowledge and skills learnt during the Introduction Course. The course aims to introduce archaeological projects from the planning phase through to carrying out a 3D survey and publishing the results.
As well as looking at project planning and building on the 2D survey techniques with 3D surveys, the course will also look at other issues which may arise during a project. These include safety and logistics, search and survey methods, and dealing with archaeological finds. Through the use of case studies and examples we will also demonstrate how all of these factors come together for a successful project.
Who can get involved?
The Part 1 Course is open to anyone who has previously completed the NAS Introduction Course. There are no other pre-requisties for the course. There is no age limit on the course, however we ask that those under 16 are accompanied by a parent or guardian.
The course is open to both divers and non-divers and there will be no difference in the qualification awarded.
How can I complete the NAS Part 1 Course?
There are three options to complete your NAS Part 1 Course:
- Through the NAS ELearning programme you can learn the theory elements of the course in your own time and from the comfort of your sofa. Then you can join us for a fieldschool to put the practical skills into practice. Click here for more information on ELearning and to learn about our special discount offers for 2015.
- If you are a member of a club or group, why not invite the NAS to come to you. We can offer bespoke courses to meet your club's needs on a day of the week to suit you. This is a two day course, so it could be run over a weekend, mid-week or over two consecutive weekends. We will usually need a minimum of 6 -8 participants for a course and a maximum of 16, however this is flexible depending on the group and facilities available. For more information or if you would like to discuss a bespoke course further, please contact the NAS Office.
- If ELearning is not for you, why not book on to one of our scheduled courses? These courses are held over two days and will cover both the theory and practical sessions.
Whatever route you choose to complete your Part 1 course, the skills and information you learn will be the same and the skills can be applied to sites both underwater and on the foreshore.
For an example Part 1 Course timetable, please click here.
Does the course involve diving?
Depending on the venue, your Part 1 course or fieldschool may include an optional underwater practical session. Underwater sessions may be held in an inland dive site (such as Stoney Cove) or in open water.
Diving is entirely optional and will only take place at the discretion of a NAS Diving Supervisor. The minimum diving qualification for those taking part in the diving exercises is CMAS 2-Star, BSAC Sport Diver, SAA Club Diver, or PADI Advanced Open Water with at least 25 open water UK dives.
It does not matter if you are not a diver, as any diving element of the course will be entirely optional and further dry land practicals and examples will be provided, giving those who do not wish to dive an opportunity to undertake a more detailed survey exercise to hone skills and techniques. Many nautical or maritime sites are located on the foreshore or completely on dry land so there is plenty to get involved with.
How much does the course cost?
The NAS are pleased to be able to offer a special discounted rate for the ELearning Part I Course Theory for 2015 of just £35! (Was £65.)
The cost of fieldschools, scheduled and bespoke courses will vary depending on the course venue and other costs. Please visit the course diary for more information on current courses and fees.
Please note that the course fee does not include any entrance or membership fees required by venues where courses may be held, such as Stoney Cove.
What participants thought...
"Fascinating course, the tutors made it interesting throughout and were all friendly, helpful and approachable"
"Good detail given in a relaxed atmosphere"
"Can't fault it. The right degree of seriousness and informity"
"Thoroughly enjoyed it all and definitely will be getting involved"


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Winter 2013-14 Second Snowiest on Record in Grand Rapids
It's the second snowiest winter on record in Grand Rapids and it's not over yet.
It's the second snowiest winter on record in Grand Rapids and it's not over yet.
Today's Cardboard Bobsled event at Cannonsburg was something I've been looking forward to for quite a while now! What could be more fun than a bunch of people out on a hill, building bobsleds from cardboard and duct tape, not caring if the thing really held up on the way down the slope?
Thanks to everyone who came out and had fun with us today! More than 50 bobsleds raced at least partway down the slope, creatively decorated and with people in costume, to the amusement of all.
If you've traveled through the city, you know some roads are pretty narrow and quite a few cars are missing side view mirrors. The city is looking to clear some of that street side snow next week. If you live in these areas, be sure to move your car prior to 8 a.m. on the scheduled day.
If you park street side, you may want to move your car as the city tries to dig out from the winter pounding we've been receiving since December!
Grand Rapids made another list! This time from GoldenSnowGlobe.com!
All of our piles of snow are going to melt some day.
If it happens all at once, we could have some big problems.
Not everyone dislikes the snow!
Ran out of video games to play? Movies to watch? Sick of the treadmill?
Why don't you get outside and do some outdoor activity?
I know the snow is dreadful and it is of course, cold...
We've all been encouraged to stay home the last few days because it's been unsafe to drive.
Since we can't go anywhere and it's too cold to go outside, it's time to movie binge!
Good morning. Welcome to the artic. You've been officially temporarily moved to a polar region.
Michigan and the Midwest are stuck in a polar vortex, according to the National Weather Service's Grand Rapids Office. Typically, such an arctic blast -- or wintry hurricane -- only hits northeastern Canada a la Ontario, Quebec and regions further north.
Ever head out on the roads during a snowstorm to find more than a few cars with their headlights off?
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Life Insurance
Providing money at a time when money is needed, life insurance serves a very important role for many families. However, as times change, so do our families and their needs. If time has diminished or alleviated your need for life insurance, two options may exist for you.
- You may name the Surfrider Foundation as a beneficiary of all or a percentage of your existing life insurance policy. To name the Surfrider Foundation as a beneficiary of your existing life insurance policy, all you need to do is ask the life insurance company for a change of beneficiary form and simply add Surfrider Foundation as your primary or contingent beneficiary. This will eliminate any tax implications of the policy for your heirs.
- You may donate an existing policy to the Surfrider Foundation. In this case, the value of your gift is determined to be the current net cash value of the policy at the time of the gift. To donate an existing policy you typically must request a change of ownership and beneficiary form from your insurance agent and then contact Surfrider Foundation's Director of Development at 800-743-SURF x. 416 or email@example.com


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Access rule on ISA for Symantec Data Loss Prevention (DLP)
Hello Everyone,
I have installed the plug-in available in DLP media on ISA server and also created a rule for communication to network Prevent (Web) server on ISA firewall but communication is not getting established between ISA and Network Prevent machine, can anyone please guide me how to create the access rule?
I am unable to telnet Network prevent server on port 1344 however i can telnet it from other machines on LAN which means problem is with the access rule of ISA. One strange thing is that my configuration on configure web filter utility (ISA machine) is synchronized with DLP enforce server. May be its because configuration is not forwarded to enforce over port 1344.
Need solution!
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You need to input the IP address of your Network Prevent for Web into the ISA plugin GUI.
And, defaultly, the Network Prevent for Web is working under Trail Mode, don't forget to un-check it.
If a forum post solves your problem, please flag it as a solution. If you like an article, blog post or download vote it up.
Thanks for your reply, i have already configure the IP and port in filter configuration utility installed on ISA, Please confirm me how to configure the access rule which will allow traffic between ISA and network Prevent (Web), right now i can telnet network prevent over port 1344 from local LAN but when i try the same from ISA it doesn't create any session on port 1344 which means problem is with the access rule of ISA firewall.
My Issue has been resolved!
Go to your ISA Management
Go to Firewall Policy
On the right hand side, select toolbox, then Protocols.
Click New and add one with 2967 as the port number with no secondary connections.
Then, create a rule from Localhost to the Symantec server(or the other way around or both depending on how it works) on this protocol. You will also need to define the Symantec server as a computer, this can be done in the same location as the new protocol, except in Network Objects.


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When we think of effective leadership, the kind that yields results, many of us immediately conjure up the image of a sort of alchemist—or as the authors of Resonant Leadership put it, a "lone star," that goes around sprinkling "magical pixie dust" and producing miracles. Real leadership, however, has little to do with alchemy. And if you buy Richard Boyatzis's and Annie McKee's argument about leadership—or what they would call resonant leadership—it also has less to do with managing others than it does with learning how to manage oneself.
Boyatzis and McKee describe resonant leaders as those who:
Now that we've defined it, how in the world do aspiring leaders learn to become resonant leaders?
Manage power stress Being a leader can be a lonely business. Decisions are not only high stakes, but rarely clear cut, communication is complicated and relationships…even more complicated. Managing this stress, or what Boyatzis and McKee call power stress, day in and day out is a challenge. Sadly, many of us become its fatal victims.
To avoid dissonance, leaders must make a conscious effort to look inward, which means that they should set aside time every day to write, reflect and attend to the body. Remember, resonance is "holistic."
Remember what the body knows You may be familiar with the classic Dr. Albert Mehabrian study that suggests humans can intuitively read—with nearly 100 percent accuracy—each other's underlying emotions and motives simply by observing body language.
We're not always conscious of the emotions we convey, but you can guarantee that the receivers are. Our colleagues and teachers watch us; they know when we are frustrated, discouraged, and defensive; they feel it—and it can quickly become contagious. Similarly, when we're excited, motivated and energetic, our colleagues can't help but feel it and want to be around it.
Resonance is a way of life, not just an abstract goal Walk around your school. What do you see? What do you feel? Now ask yourself whether or not what you saw and felt reflects the values and mission of the school. Are people demonstrating obvious, tangible care and concern for one another? Boyatzis and McKee put it aptly: "Resonance is a way of life, not just an abstract goal." If you buy this, you should see evidence of a shared vision in hundreds of ways, both small and large, all beautifully scattered around your school.
Take time to reflect and write every day Making time to turn inward seems challenging, but try carving out a space (start with a half hour at the least) in your schedule every day so that you can reflect. To get you started, we thought we'd share a short exercise we came across in another book by Boyatzis and McKee.
Part I: Begin by thinking of the people who have helped you most in your life and career, the people about whom you'd say, "Without this person, I could not have accomplished or achieved as much as I have. Without this person, I would not be the person I am today."
Part II: Now think of the people who tried to help, manage, or coach you to better performance over the last two years. Recall your performance reviews; what kind of feedback did you receive—and how was the feedback conveyed?
Part III: Answer the following questions:
If you completed the exercise, we have a strong suspicion that it was more pleasant to complete Part I than it was to complete Part II. Why? Because you are remembering the people who inspired you, who believed in you and showed compassion when others didn't.
On the other hand, in Part II, you were asked to write about the people who (most likely) focused on your weaknesses, who may have put you on the defense.
It's our hope that these two exercises helped create an understanding of how others have helped you learn and grow. We thought this might provide insights into how you developed important changes, and how you might help others do the same.
Image: The Alchemist by Signiert Öl auf Holz (This work is in the public domain in the European Union and non-EU countries with a copyright term of life of the author plus 70 years or less).
© 2015 Marygrove College 8425 W. McNichols, Detroit, MI 48221 313.927.1200


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A vacuum tube condenser mic that delivers fantastic sonic qualities and comes equipped with a power supply/preamp box.
A recording microphone with classic tube sound
The sound of tube mics is undeniably rich and smooth. At the heart of each of these Behringer T-47 mics is a hand-selected 12AX7 tube, which has been specifically designed to give these microphones their incredible sonic character. One advantage tube condensers have over their solid-state counterparts is that they are not subject to the rapid rise of odd-order harmonics, which the ear perceives as highly unmusical. Even when subjected to high sound pressure levels, the T-47 condenser microphone reacts in much the same way the human ear does.
Cardioid polar pattern
T-47 tube condenser mics feature a tight cardioid (heart-shaped) sound-reception pattern, which reduces the pickup of sound from the sides and rear for improved source isolation. The included custom shock mount fits all standard microphone stands and provides further isolation from external sources of vibration, such as sounds transmitted through floor joists and outside traffic.
Dedicated power supply
The included Behringer PSU-T power supply/preamp provides the supply voltage for the tube preamplifier and houses a Low Cut switch that can be used to reduce the low frequency response, if so desired. The included 7-pin multi-core cable supplies power to the mic and routes the audio signal to the XLR socket on the PSU-T.
The ultimate recording mic
Since the early days of recording, sound engineers have been searching for the best-sounding mics for recording acoustic instruments and the human voice. The resounding choice of professional recordists around the globe has been the tube condenser microphone because nothing compares to a sound that's so open, warm, and full of character. Unfortunately, tube mics can wipe out a home-recording budget faster than you can say "phantom power supply." But with the T-47, anyone who can afford a decent live microphone can have a studio-grade, tube-powered condenser mic for about the same price.
The T-47's sensitive side
Another advantage of tube mics is that they typically outperform transistor designs when it comes to subtle signal levels, such as environmental ambiance. The T-47 picks up every nuance of your performance, capturing an openly transparent slice of time and space with just the right amount of tube warmth. Now you'll be able to justify that new set of strings for your acoustic guitar (because you'll hear the difference), and you'll marvel at the sparkling highlights coming off your wind chimes.
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Comments about Behringer T-47 Tube Condenser Mic:
This is an excellent mic for voice work! Plain and simple, easy set up, easy to integrate,
and one of the warmest sounds we've had in the booth.
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Very impressed overall with this mic. Warm sound and smooth but still crisp high end as well. You can get some great versatility by moving the mic around in front of the source. This I imagine solely due to the cardiod pattern. Imncredible on vocals, both male and female and also great on stringed instruments. I plan on picking up another. Very pleased!
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I think the T-47 and windows 7 X64 don't match well.
It record the low notes (barely) and the high notes, didn't record them period it was just noise.
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I'm not a professional recording engineer, but I am a professional musician... I make my living with music. While I may not know everything there is to know about microphone placement techniques, I do believe I know good sound and this microphone has it. If you're on a budget and need a large diaphram condenser, I suggest checking out the Behringer T-47. Just sounds good!
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Let me start by saing that I'm a recording musician for many years and recognize a good sounding product. I had a chance to A/B the Behringer T47 against the Neumann TLM49, Rode NTK, Audio Technica AT4047, and Neumann TLM103. These mics,were all used with a pop filter, all connected to an Avalon VT737 EQ set flat, minimum compression about 2:1 going into a Roland VS1880 24bit Hard Disc Recorder set flat. All takes were played back flat. 1st off I'd like to say that I don't understand one of the other reviewers stating the T47 has no top end. This was certainly not at all my observation. The T47 has a very nice smoothe top end somewhere peaking at 12khz and sounded very sweet. The frequency curve is flat in the mids and then begins to rise around 6 khz znd starts to drop at 12khz. Honestly The T47 came out alot smoother and balanced than all the mics I tested when recording male and female vocal takes. The T47 sounded better than the whole bunch - It was full enough ,bright enough and really sounded great [played back with flat EQ . The TLM49 sounded thin , not much bottom because of it's capsule design (frequency rolloff below 1 khz) and a little blah on the top end. The Rode NTK sounded tinny with it's overly large 6 khz and 12 khz bumps - it was rather shrill and had too much sibillance without much lows. The Audio Technica At4047 sounded kind of too thick on the bottom even with the 80hz rolloff engaged. It was acceptable but nothing to be too excited about. The Neumann TLM103 sounded nasal in the mids and there was also noticeable sibillance. All these mics were recorded and played back flat and the T47 came out on top for overall quality of sound. When I EQ'd all the Mics on playback the T47 still sounded best. It had a nice sizzle at the top like much more expensive tube mics have, and a nice balanced low end. I didn't mention that in the seesions I utilized the roll-off on the T47. I'm quite frankly very surprised at the outcome. I have to say that Behringer really has come up with a GREAT PRODUCT. It seems to be built solidly. I rated everything a 5 except for the "Features" which I gave a 4.5 because there's no pad. At this price the mic is a steal even without a pad. I think the little window in front of the T47 which displays the heater of the 12AX7 is cool. I know there are some that have put it down saying it's tacky etc. Let's face it , if Neumann did it we'd all be saying how novel an idea it is. It's time to start listening to some of these brands we have all put down in the past and give credit where it's deserved. The T47 is a mic I will gladly enjoy using and deserves the truth to be told about it, that it is an outstanding sounding tube mic ! KUDO's TO YOU BEHRINGER, I'M IMPRESSED AND SURPRISED !!!
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Mic sounds great . Of course it's not a Neumann U 47 wich i think is what they are going for here . Great sparkle tone , more frequency than the Shure sm58 , wich is a great mic ! Did have a problem with the tube heating up and humming badly but new tube solved that problem . Came with a mic case ,30 ft chord , power supply ,mic holder shock mount and filter . Responds to differant tubes but i prefer lower gain lower out put 12ax7 , for this as some tubes make it too bassy and midrangy .
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Posted By aaron On May 10, 2011 @ 1:18 pm In Old Infowars Posts Style,Science & Technology | Comments Disabled
Kimberly Blair
Pensacola News Journal
May 10, 2011
Scientists are alarmed by the discovery of unusual numbers of fish in the Gulf of Mexico and inland waterways with skin lesions, fin rot, spots, liver blood clots and other health problems.
"It's a huge red flag," said Richard Snyder, director of the University of West Florida Center for Environmental Diagnostics and Bioremediation. "It seems abnormal, and anything we see out of the ordinary we'll try to investigate."
Are the illnesses related to the BP oil spill, the cold winter or something else?
That's the big question Snyder's colleague, UWF biologist William Patterson III, and other scientists along the Gulf Coast are trying to answer. If the illnesses are related to the oil spill, it could be a warning sign of worse things to come.
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Assembly Member Katcho Achadjian, R-San Luis Obispo has honored Jennifer Adams as the 2014 Woman of the Year for the 35th Assembly District. Ms. Adams is the Executive Director of RISE in San Luis Obispo, a nonprofit organization that serves both victims of intimate partner violence and sexual assault/abuse and their loved ones. "Ms. Adams is an extraordinary leader in ...Read More »
Lompoc Resident Charged with Attempted Murder
A Lompoc resident is charged with attempted murder following a stabbing last night, March 8, at a residence in the 6600 block of Del Playa Drive. A fight broke out at the residence and 18-year-old Kuriyan Summers-Dickinson stabbed a 20-year-old victim in the stomach. The victim is from Rhode Island and was visiting his brother in Isla Vista for the ...Read More »
Julian Crocker's Education Report
The Achievement Gap is the difference in student achievement, as measured by the tests on our state academic standards, between certain groups of students and other groups of students or the "average" student score. Sometimes these gaps can be very significant, as much a 30+ percentage points. Over the years, the three groups of students who show the greatest gaps ...Read More »
Highway 58 Repairs Begin March 10
A project to repair roadway sections along a 10-mile stretch of Hwy 58 between Branch Mountain Forestry Road and Baker Road near the two county solar projects will begin Monday, March 10, weather permitting. This grinding and paving operation will take place Monday thru Thursday from 7:30 am to 5:30 pm. Motorists will encounter one-way reversing traffic control with delays ...Read More »
New Study Sheds Light on E-Cig Sales in SLO County
In San Luis Obispo County 70% of stores sell e-cigarettes (including e-hookah, e-pipes, e-pen products), statewide that number drops to 45%. This finding is part of new data released on the availability and marketing of tobacco, alcohol and unhealthy and healthy food products in stores that sell tobacco- the first time all three categories of products have been analyzed together. ...Read More »
Road Rage Results in Arrests
On March 4, around 1:00PM, the drivers of two pick-up trucks were involved in a road rage incident on US-101 in the Montecito area. The incident began when one of the trucks was following too close and the driver got upset the slower truck would not move out of the fast lane. That driver pulled up beside the other driver ...Read More »
Traffic Stop Results in Arrest for Stolen Car
On Monday, March 3, 2014 at approximately 1:25 p.m., Paso Robles Police Department officers conducted a traffic stop on a 1991 Honda Accord along the 1100 block of Black Oak Drive, Paso Robles. Officers subsequently determined the car was stolen out of Arizona. Additionally, the suspect matched the description of a suspect seen walking away from a stolen car recovered ...Read More »
San Luis Obispo Tops Many "Best of" Lists
Over the last several months San Luis Obispo has topped many "Best of" lists ranging from most romantic and healthiest to the best college town and main streets in America. SLO was recently named the friendliest small town in the nation and made Livability.com's best places to live in the country. CBS jumped on the band wagon as News ...Read More »
Possible Animal Neglect Case
On 2-28-14, the San Luis Obispo County Sheriff's Office received a report of possible animal neglect regarding a flock of sheep in the Heritage Ranch area. Deputies responded and began an investigation into the deaths of 25 sheep in the River View Estates area of Heritage Ranch. During the course of the investigation, deputies spoke with the owner of the ...Read More »
Backyard Burns Temporarily Authorized
San Luis Obispo County – Due to recent rainfall, vegetation conditions have moderated the fire hazard such that Backyard Burn Permits will be temporarily authorized. "Backyard" burning refers specifically to the burning of yard trimmings in residential backyards. However, due to ongoing drought conditions and the expectation of warm/dry conditions returning, fire season rules remain in effect. Therefore, backyard burning ...Read More »


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Some armchair travelers have an entire shelf of Houghton Mifflin Harcourt's Best American Travel Writing annuals and there is no mystery why. Each year, this trade paperback features superlative writing chosen by a standout editor. Previous editors include Simon Winchester, Frances Mayes, Susan Orlean, and Jamaica Kincaid. In the 13th installment, editor William Vollman presides over an assemblage by standouts including Paul Theroux, Bryan Curtis, Lynn Freed, Robin Kirk, and Kimberly Meyer. Editor's recommendation.
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