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Judy Taylor's fifth-grade class at Park Lane Elementary School in Sandy is too close for comfort, with up to 30 students.
"We don't have enough room in the classroom for all the desks that need to be there," Taylor said. "Where do we put these children?"
A Dan Jones & Associates poll of 600 Utah residents in May shows 71 percent believe class sizes are too large. And 66 percent of those surveyed believe funding for Utah's public schools is too low. The poll was commissioned by the Utah Education Association and had a margin of error of 4 percent.
Utah is last in per-pupil spending, thanks largely to having more children per family than any other state. But it can't continue on this path of low spending and increased class sizes, say UEA leaders.
Further, with the influx of immigration, the state needs to keep up with changing demographics, UEA leaders said, addressing thousands of teachers Thursday at the group's annual convention in Sandy.
"The state needs to make some choices and invest in our kids, or we will pay the price for this," said John Lundstrom, who teaches language arts at Jordan High School in Sandy.
When asked to rate on a scale of 1 to 5 how the state should get more funding for public education, increasing corporate income taxes received the highest rating of 3.16.
UEA president Kim Campbell said Utah keeps giving tax incentives and special breaks to corporations to move to the state when that's not the factor that decides whether they come here. The top factor is an educated work force and the quality of the education system.
"And the factors they use to decide the quality of the education system are per-pupil funding and class size," Campbell said. "We're being short-sighted in giving those incentives. It's a corporate welfare project that doesn't really contribute to the long-term future of the state."
Utah's lack of per-pupil spending is a slap in the face to educators, agreed teachers attending UEA workshops Thursday.
"We don't have enough funds to make sure every student has books, computers, music, art supplies, PE supplies. No matter what it is, we don't have enough," said Rick Steadman, who teaches music at Crescent View Middle School in Sandy.
Taylor said people need to look at education as an investment, not an expense. "You are educating the future. You are investing in the people who are going to be building businesses, who are the taxpayers of the future," she said.
UEA officials say funding is needed as the state population continues to grow.
The state is also becoming more diverse, said keynote speaker Pamela Perlich, University of Utah research economist. She presented data showing Utah will have a 19 percent minority population in 2010, compared with 35 percent for the United States. By 2050, Utah is predicted to be 30 percent minority, while the country may be 54 percent.
Kathryn Parry, who teaches health and science at Millcreek High School, an alternative school in St. George, said teachers need training in handling the influx of students from different cultures. For example, she is dealing with sexist attitudes from some students, as it is ingrained in their cultural traditions. "Having me as a female teacher is quite hard for them sometimes, because I'm not revered in their culture as much as a male would be," she said.
Schools also need to implement programs to reach out to minority students and encourage them to seek post-secondary training or education, Parry said.
"We've got a lot of immigrants who are hard-working people. The parents want their kids to not have to do such hard physical labor. But the kids aren't buying into it," she said. "They think they can flip hamburgers for $8 an hour, and it will be OK. They need to see the long-term picture."
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Five Basic Measures Of Mental Performance Metrics
EMOTIV provides five basic measures of mental performance, derived directly from your mental activity. Each measure is automatically scaled to suit your normal range and base level of each condition – the system learns your usual state and capabilities and provides an adjusted value showing your relative performance on each occasion, compared to your overall behaviour. We also record the raw levels for each user so you can directly compare performance with your social group, people like you (similar age, gender, country, lifestyle etc) and the overall population.
These measures include:
Engagement: your level of immersion in the moment. A mixture of attention and concentration.
Focus: a measure of your fixed attention to one specific task. Focus measures the depth of attention as well as the frequency that your attention switches between tasks. A high level of task switching is an indication of poor focus and distraction. Focus is closely related to the Flow state.
Interest: the degree of attraction or aversion to your current activity. Low interest scores indicate a strong aversion to the task, high interest indicates a strong affinity with the task while mid-range scores indicate you neither like nor dislike the activity. Interest is related to your enjoyment of the current task.
Relaxation: a measure of your ability to switch off and allow yourself to rest and recover from intense concentration. Trained meditators can score extremely high Relaxation scores.
Stress: a measure of your level of comfort with the current challenge. High stress can result from an inability to complete a difficult task, feeling overwhelmed and fearing negative consequences for failing to satisfy the task requirements. Generally a low to moderate level of Stress can improve productivity, whereas a higher level tends to be destructive and can have long term consequences for your health and wellbeing.

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I just finished The Christmas Sweater, by Glenn Beck, and enjoyed it very much. Glenn does a very good job of telling the story that all of us need to hear; we all need to be atoned and we all need to forgive. We need to forgive others and we need to forgive ourselves.
This books reminds me of another that I read, Attitude Is Everything by Keith Harrel. These two books have a common theme; you and only you can control how you react to lifes events. So many times we try to find ways to blame our circumstances on others when, in fact, our life choices have put us in the place we are today. The question is.... How will we respond to our circumstances? Only you know how you'll respond and only you can control how you'll respond. The point that Glenn makes in this book is that until we know who we are, we don't know how to respond. The beautiful part of my story is that I'm a Christ follower and that dictates how I respond. My transgressions were paid for by Christ when he died for my sins. I guess you could say that I've been bought by blood. That said, I know that no matter what my life throws my way, Jesus said that he never leaves us and He is always working on our behalf. With that I say...until you know who's you are, you'll never fully understand how to be.


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Link to Decision: http://www.cbsc.ca/english/decision/020816.htm
Link to Appendix: http://www.cbsc.ca/english/decision/020816appendix.htm
OTTAWA, August 21, 2002 (Falun Dafa Information Centre) -- Canadian Broadcast Standards Council (CBSC) released a decision on Friday, August 16 -- the first from a Canadian regulatory body -- against the airing of propaganda attacking Falun Gong on television in Canada.
The broadcast originated from the official mouthpiece of the Chinese totalitarian regime, CCTV, and was aired on Talentvision, a Canadian Chinese-language TV station, in Vancouver, Toronto and Ottawa, on December 16, 2001, which linked an alleged murder in China to Falun Gong.
The CBSC decision stated that Talentvision had breached four articles of the Canadian Association of Broadcasters' Code of Ethics and Violence Code and the Radio and Television News Directors Code of (Journalistic) Ethics.
The segment, part of CCTV's "Chinese Satellite News", featured a "news story" on Fu Yi-bin, who it stated had killed his wife and his father. The Talentvision news announcer claimed that Fu was a Falun Gong practitioner. The accused "practitioner" then appeared in an interview, freely answering questions defaming Falun Gong.
The CBSC decision stated: "The Council has found that the news item relating to murders committed in Mainland China was unfair and improper in its method of linking the murderer to Falun Gong". Falun Gong's teachings prohibit all forms of violence and killing.
The CCTV broadcast drew 20 individual letters from concerned viewers as well as a petition with over 1200 signatures.
"Since the persecution against Falun Gong started in China, China's leader, Jiang Zemin, has used state controlled media to fabricate and distort every one of the so called 'reports' on Falun Gong for the sole purpose of attacking and defaming the practitioners, the teachings and the founder of Falun Gong," said Falun Dafa Information Centre spokesperson Joel Chipkar in Toronto.
Mr. Chipkar continued, "The propaganda has been the primary fuel for this brutal persecution. We appeal to all media not to use Chinese state-controlled media as a source of Falun Gong related news."
A report from US-based NGO, The Jamestown Foundation, reveals that Jiang's regime has been offering "free news segments" overseas in an effort to control the content of overseas Chinese language media.
"This CBSC decision is very significant," Mr. Chipkar concluded. "It demonstrates that the lies and hate propaganda considered normal daily news in China is seen as violating numerous codes of journalistic ethics in Canada and will not be tolerated in Canada."
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I got a weird crush, no other word fits, for the .303 Savage. It's not, really, any better than the other classic deer rounds; and is a much less pragmatic choice than just sticking to .30-30 or the, probably, better .35 Remington. Still, I'm very drawn to the obsolete round for no objectively sound reason.
Talk me into it, talk me out of it, or share your .303 Savage thoughts and experiences.


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capsule review
3D Ocean Sunset
At a Glance
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The program is easy to install; just click the executable file. Basic settings allow you to adjust the sound, brightness, and tint of the images. The Sound dialog box lets you adjust the volume or play your own MP3 files to accompany the screen saver. This might be a good idea, because the "ocean" sounds seem more like static to me, while the bird cries seem harsh and electronic.
The demo version is good for seven days and includes text that appears on-screen periodically encouraging you to register (which you do by going into the Display Properties, Settings dialog box).
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text: A few blogs ago I introduced you to my new avian lodger. Recently I was delighted to discover he has had babies with his significant other, all of which still have closed eyes and make no noise, but are rather animated nonetheless. They also insist on greeting me whenever I return home.


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Robin Oliveira - Interview #499 (3/5/18)
Posted in Writing, Fiction, Mysteries, Novels, History, Writing Craft on Mar 10th, 2018 Comments
New York Times bestselling author Robin Oliveira, whose new novel is Winter Sisters (Viking).
This week's Write the Book Prompt is to consider how it must have been to live before weather could be predicted: imagine how it would be to not know if your day would hold sunshine, wind, ice, rain. Write about unexpected weather.
Good luck with your work in the coming week, and please listen next week for another prompt or suggestion.
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Two elementary students were attempting to steal food from the school cafeteria in Little Rock, Arkansas, when a school nurse happened upon them.
What would she do? Scold them? Punish them? Send them to the principal's office?
None of the above. Instead, she asked a simple question: Why?
They answered that they were hungry. They were hoping to gather some food to get them through the weekend. They had no other alternative for meals for the next two days.
This is how the national "backpack program" began. Filled with non-perishable food items on Fridays, the backpacks ride home on the shoulders of children who would otherwise go hungry over the weekends.
While it may seem unfathomable that some children don't get enough to eat at home, it happens here in the Heartland every day. One in 5 kids don't always know where his or her next meal will come from.
With the support of a $15,000 grant from the Iowa West Foundation to the Food Bank for the Heartland, there are a lot fewer children in southwest Iowa wanting for food on weekends.
The Food Bank for the Heartland hands out approximately 8,500 backpacks a year, more than 1,000 of go to children in Council Bluffs and southwest Iowa. Each backpack contains two shelf stable milks, two bowls of cereal, two entrees, one juice and one fruit cup to be consumed on Saturday and Sunday.
Without the backpacks more children would come to school on Monday groggy and grouchy from hunger, conditions not conducive to learning to read or write.
"If a child is fed, they're more alert, less likely to perform attention-seeking behavior and their attendance is better," said Susan Ogborn, President and CEO for Food Bank of the Heartland. "Teachers also have found that achievement increases."
Simply put, children perform better and score higher in the classroom Monday through Friday because of the backpack program.
"We want to break the cycle of poverty, and we all think school is a good way out," Ogborn said, "but kids can't be successful in school if they're hungry. No one could."
Ogborn said several parents send notes of thanks to the Food Bank of the Heartland, including the following:
"I just want to say thank you. It can be embarrassing at times not to be able to feed your kids. I know someday I will get past this, but I'm glad (the backpacks) are here when I need it."
To read more about the backpack program and how you can get involved, visit foodbankheartland.org.
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Tec Gas Blender
The PADI Enriched Air Diver course is the most popular diver specialty course and the number of technical divers is on the rise, which means that lots of scuba divers want enriched air and gas blends. The Tec Gas Blender course teaches you to blend enriched air nitrox and helium-blend gases using one or more blending methods.
How do I begin?
You start with the training materials. We will provide you with and PADI Tec Gas Blender manual so you can do all your studying at home before you come to Cyprus.
What's in the course?
The PADI Tec Gas Blender course includes three practical application sessions, but no dives. During independent study and instructor-led review, you learn:
- About the advantages and disadvantages of different blending methodologies.
- To blend enriched air and Trimix blends to within one percent of the target mix.
- About the potential hazards related to handling oxygen, and how to manage those risks.
- To demonstrate the steps for oxygen cleaning equipment, along with the requirements for oxygen service.


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As we begin the newest installment of the Toads' adventures, they find a present waiting for them . . .
Uhmm, hey bro. Did you order anything? Is it your birthday . . . or something?
Nope, dude. It's not my birthday. Hmmmmm, that's odd. It's not your birthday either. Easter isn't here yet . . . what coud this be? And who could have sent it?
OMG, it's from our arch nemesis Eggy!
That dastardly cephalopod is one rotten egg. He's always up to no good . . .
But bro, maybe he's giving us a present 'cuz he wants to be friends again. Maybe he's turning into a good egg?
Only one way to find out. . . Let's open up the box.
What is it bro? What's in the box?
It's, it's, it's . . . sooooo cute!
You`re right bro. These little balls are so cute. Look at their happy faces and their cute smiles. How could anything so cute be bad?
OMG, bro, I love these little balls of cuteness. The little blue one matches my vest.
Mine is a little pink ball of fun . . . I love it!
OMG! What's happening . . . it's inhaling me . . . .ahhhhhh, he's gonna eat me! Help me bro!
Oh the horror! I can't stop it! It's suction strength is too great . . . ! And he's almost up to your head . . . oh the humanity!!
OMG! Now he's gonna eat me too!
I've finally destroyed those troublesome toads! Good job my little minions. You little Kirbys were worth every penny.
Ummmm… why are you looking at me like that? Oh No!
Will the Kirbys eat Eggy for supper? Are the Toads truly finished? Will we ever see them again? Stay tuned for next week's installment on this 'shroomy website at this 'shroomy time.


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Currently: Retired University of Portsmouth Lecturer
Interests: Infections
I was a lecturer in Microbiology at the University of Portsmouth for over thirty years but only in 2010 did I start lecturing to more general audiences.
I now give lectures to any group which has an interest in the history of infectious disease. That might be a history society, a branch of the Women's Institute or a general interest social club.
Since undertaking these lectures I have presented to a meeting of the British Association for the Advancement of Science and am a regular contributor to study days at Winchester College.
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Called pho in Vietnam, this unusual soup is a wonderful party centerpiece dish for an informal gathering. Start out by supplying everyone with a large soup bowl and a ladle. Place the soup tureen in the middle of the table. Have each guest take a generous helping of noodles first, then some meat and broth. Each serving is topped off with shredded lettuce, sliced green onion and a squeeze of lemon juice.
- Yield
- Serves 8
- 8 ounces bean thread noodles*
- 10 cups canned beef broth
- 2 medium onions, thickly sliced
- 4 1/2-inch-thick slices fresh ginger (about 1 1/4 ounces)
- 2 tablespoons fish sauce (nam pla)*
- 3 large garlic cloves, halved
- 2 star anise*
- 1 1/2 teaspoons whole cloves
- 1 pound flank steak, trimmed, thinly sliced crosswise
- 1 head romaine lettuce, thinly sliced
- 3 green onions, thinly sliced
- Lemon wedges
- *Bean thread noodles (clear dried noodles, also known as cellophane or transparent noodles), fish sauce (nam pla) and star anise are sold at Asian markets and in the Asian section of some supermarkets.
- Bring large pot of water to boil. Remove from heat. Add noodles to pot; let stand until tender and pliable, about 15 minutes. Drain. Using scissors, cut noodles into 2-inch lengths. Transfer to bowl.
- Combine beef broth, sliced onions, sliced ginger, fish sauce, garlic, star anise and whole cloves in heavy large Dutch oven and bring to boil. Reduce heat; simmer 30 minutes. Strain broth into large bowl; discard solids. (Noodles and broth can be prepared 1 day ahead. Cover separately and refrigerate. Bring noodles to room temperature before continuing.) Return beef broth to Dutch oven and bring to boil. Remove beef broth from heat. Mix steak slices into broth (the hot broth will cook steak slices).
- Place noodles, soup, sliced lettuce, sliced green onions and lemon wedges in center of table. Spoon noodles, steak slices and broth into large soup bowls, then top with generous amounts of sliced lettuce and green onions and squeeze in lemon juice.
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Nutritional Info
- Calories251
- Carbohydrates32 g(11%)
- Fat6 g(9%)
- Protein17 g(35%)
- Saturated Fat2 g(12%)
- Sodium1513 mg(63%)
- Polyunsaturated Fat0 g
- Fiber3 g(11%)
- Monounsaturated Fat2 g
- Cholesterol39 mg(13%)


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Litigaton Release No. 18505 / December 12, 2003
SECURITIES AND EXCHANGE COMMISSION V. HEARTLAND ADVISORS et al., (United States District Court for the Eastern District of Wisconsin) 03 C-1427
The SEC announced that it filed a civil injunctive action in the Eastern District of Wisconsin against Heartland Advisors Inc. ("Heartland Advisors"), William Nasgovitz, Paul Beste, Jilaine Bauer, Thomas Conlin, Greg Winston, Kevin Clerk, Kenneth Della, Hugh Denison and Raymond Krueger. In its complaint, the SEC alleges that Heartland Advisors, through Nasgovitz, Beste, Bauer, Clark, Conlin and Winston misrepresented the NAVs of two high yield municipal bond funds, the Heartland Short Duration High-Yield Municipal Bond Fund and the Heartland High-Yield Municipal Bond Fund (the "Funds) and, in Commission filings and promotional materials, their efforts to manage certain risks associated with investing in the Funds. For example, Heartland Advisors represented that it was actively managing the Funds to minimize share price fluctuation when it was not doing so. Heartland Advisors also represented that it performed intensive credit research and limited the percentage of unrated high yield bonds held by funds. In reality, Heartland Advisors conducted inadequate research and the vast majority of bonds held by the Funds were unrated and relatively illiquid. Finally, Heartland Advisors misrepresented that it and the Funds' Board of Directors would monitor and maintain sufficient liquidity in the Funds' portfolio holdings to assure that the Funds would be able to meet redemptions. They did not do so. Instead the Funds had to borrow millions to meet redemptions. As a result, by mid-2000, the Funds were suffering a cash flow crisis.
The SEC also alleges that the root of this problem was that Heartland Advisors, through Nasgovitz, Conlin, Winston, Beste, Bauer, Clark and Della, in order to protect the Funds' performance, refused or failed to adjust the prices of the Funds' securities despite numerous indications that the bonds held by the Funds could only be sold at substantial discounts to their carrying values. Heartland Advisors later arranged a purported "sale" of those bonds that, in reality, more closely resembled a short-term loan to temporarily infuse cash into the Funds. Nevertheless, the substantially discounted "sale" prices of those bonds caused the Funds' NAVs to drop materially on Sept. 28, 2000 (the September Devaluation). Thereafter, Heartland Advisors misrepresented to investors the cause of the September Devaluation. Faced with continuing redemptions and consequent cash flow problems, which caused it to consider suspending redemptions, on October 13, Heartland Advisors repriced most of the bonds in the Funds' portfolios by taking an across-the-board discount. This resulted in another substantial drop in the Funds' NAVs (the October Devaluation). Again, Heartland Advisors misrepresented the real reason for this drop in the Funds' NAVs. The complaint alleges that Denison, an associated Director of the Funds failed to adequately monitor the liquidity of the Funds and to take adequate steps to address the Funds' pricing deficiencies.
Finally, the SEC alleges that while investors were kept unaware of the Funds' problems, Nasgovitz tipped Krueger about the Funds' continuing liquidity and/or pricing problems prior to the September Devaluation, and Krueger liquidated his shares in one of the Funds. In addition, with knowledge of the Funds' continuing liquidity and pricing problems: Winston, a portfolio manager of the Funds, liquidated his shares in the Funds and tipped his family to liquidate their shares in one or more of the Funds, or a related fund; Bauer liquidated her shares in one of the Funds; and Della liquidated his shares in the Funds and redeemed his father's shares in a related fund.
The SEC charged: Heartland Advisors with violations of Section 17(a) of the Securities Act of 1933 (Securities Act) and Section 10(b) of the Securities Exchange Act of 1934 (Exchange Act) and Rule 10b-5 thereunder, Section 206 of the Investment Advisers Act of 1940 (Advisers Act), Sections 34(b) and 36(a) of the Investment Company Act of 1940 (Investment Company Act) and Rule 22c-1(a) promulgated thereunder; Nasgovitz, Conlin, Winston, Beste, Bauer, and Clark with violations of Section 17(a) of the Securities Act, Section 10(b) of the Exchange Act and Rule 10b-5 thereunder, and Sections 34(b) and 36(a) of the Investment Company Act, and aiding and abetting violations of Section 206 of the Advisers Act; Della with violations of Section 17(a) of the Securities Act, Section 10(b) of the Exchange Act and Rule 10b-5 thereunder and Section 36(a) of the Investment Company Act and aiding and abetting violations of Section 206 of the Advisers Act; Krueger with violations of Section 17(a) of the Securities Act and Section 10(b) of the Exchange Act and Rule 10b-5 thereunder; and Denison with violations of Sections 17(a)(2) and 17(a)(3) of the Securities Act and Section 36(a) of the Investment Company Act. The SEC seeks an order of permanent injunction, disgorgement plus pre-judgment interest of the defendants' ill-gotten gains, including insider trading losses avoided from those defendants charged with insider trading, and civil penalties from all of the defendants for their violations.


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Curriculum Vitae
Selected Publications
Rasmussen J, Belk MC. 2017. Predation environment affects boldness temperament of neotropical livebearers. Ecology and Evolution. 7:3059-3066. doi:10.1002/ece3.2886
Aguilar C, Wood PL, Belk MC, Duff MH, Sites, Jr. JW. 2016. Different roads lead to Rome: integrative taxonomic approaches lead to the discovery of two new lizard lineages in the Liolaemus montanus group (Squamata: Liolaemodae). Biological Journal of the Linnean Society. doi:10.1111/bij.12890
Belk MC, Billman EJ, Ellsworth C, McMillan BR. 2016. Does habitat restoration increase coexistence of native stream fishes with introduced brown trout: a case study on the middle Provo River, Utah, USA. Water. 8:121. <website> doi:10.3390/w8040121
Gale BH, Johnson JB, Schaalje GB, Belk MC. 2013. Effects of predation environment and food availability on somatic growth in the livebearing fish Brachyrhaphis rhabdophora (Pisces: Poeciliidae). Ecology and Evolution. 3:326-333. <website>
Wesner JS, Billman EJ, Belk MC. 2012. Multiple predators indirectly alter community assembly across ecological boundaries. Ecology. 93:1674-1682.
Rasmussen JE, Belk MC. 2012. Dispersal behavior correlates with personality of a North American fish. Current Zoology. 58:260-270.
Hassell EM, Meyers PJ, Billman EJ, Rasmussen JE, Belk MC. 2012. Ontogeny and sex alter the effect of predation on body shape in a livebearing fish: sexual dimorphism, parallelism, and costs of reproduction. Ecology and Evolution. 2:1738-1746.
Belk MC, Tuckfield RC. 2011. Effect of density on growth and survival of young June sucker. Western North American Naturalist. 71(4):490-498.
Kreitzer JD, Billman EJ, Belk MC, Rader RB. 2011. Growth of young June sucker (Chasmistes liorus) is associated with zooplankton density in Utah Lake. Western North American Naturalist. 71(4):499-506.
Belk MC, Rader RB, Mills MD. 2011. Lake suckers in the western U.S.A.: history, ecology, natural history, and bibliography of an endangered genus. Western North American Naturalist. 71(4):437-441.
Rasmussen JE, Belk MC, Habit E, Shiozawa DK, Hepworth RD, Anthony A. 2011. Variation in size-at-age between native cutthroat and introduced brown trout in allopatry and sympatry: implications for competitive interaction. Aquatic Biology. 13(3):285-292.
Wesner JS, Billman EJ, Meier A, Belk MC. 2011. Morphological convergence during pregnancy among predator and non-predator populations of the livebearing fish Brachyrhaphis rhabdophora (Teleostei: Poecilidae). Biological Journal of the Linnean Society. 104(2):386-392.
Belk MC, Nance EE, Johnson JB. 2011. Life history of Brachyrhaphis parismina: variation among and within populations. Copeia. 2011:372-378. <website>
Billman EJ, Tjarks BJ, Belk MC. 2011. Effect of predation and habitat quality on growth and reproduction of a stream fish. Ecology of Freshwater Fish. 20(1):102-113.
Rader RB, Belk MC, Hotchkiss RH, Brown J. 2010. The stream–lake ecotone: potential habitat for juvenile endangered June suckers (Chasmistes liorus). Western North American Naturalist. 70(4):553-561. <website>
Habit E, Piedra P, Ruzzante DE, Walde SJ, Belk MC, Cussac VE, Gonzalez J, Colin N. 2010. Changes in the distribution of native fishes in response to introduced species and other anthropogenic effects. Global Ecology and Biogeography. 19(5):697-710. <website>
Kreitzer JD, Belk MC, Gonzalez DB, Tuckfield RC, Shiozawa DK, Rasmussen JE. 2010. Ontogenetic diet shift in the June sucker Chasmistes liorus (Cypriniformes, Catostomidae) in the early juvenile stage. Ecology of Freshwater Fish. 19(3):433-438. <website>
Belk MC, Tuckfield RC. 2010. Changing costs of reproduction: age-based differences in reproductive allocation and escape performance in a livebearing fish. Oikos. 119(1):163-169. <website>
Monk SK, Wait LE, Hotchkiss RH, Billman E, Belk MC, Stuhff D. 2012. Culvert Roughness Elements for Native Utah Fish Passage. Eric D. Loucks, editor. Reston, VA: American Society of Civil Engineers.
Smith AN, Creighton C, Belk MC. 2017. Why does it take two to tango? Lifetime fitness consequences of parental care in a burying beetle. PLOS ONE. 12(10). doi:e0186466
Simkins R, Belk MC. 2017. No evidence of nonlinear effects of predator density, refuge availability, or body size of prey on prey mortality rates. Ecology and Evolution. 7:6119-6124. doi:10.1002/ece3.3183
Brooksby AM, Oguz MC, Belk MC. 2017. A first survey of metazoan parasites in the fishes of Lake Powell, Utah. Western North American Naturalist. 77:51-62.
Wesner JS, Belk MC. Habitat relationships, indicator status, and preliminary stable isotope analysis of northern leatherside chub. Northern Leatherside Chub Conservation Team Meeting. Salt Lake City, UT. 2011 .
Wesner JS, Belk MC. Habitat factors affecting a potential biodiversity indicator species, northern leatherside chub (Lepidomeda copei). North American Benthological Society Annual Meeting. Providence, RI. 2011 .
Belk MC, Wesner JS. Characterization of mouth shape phenotype in the captive brood stock of June sucker, Chasmistes liorus. June Sucker Annual Assessment Meeting. Salt Lake City, Utah. 2011 .
Wesner JS, Belk MC. Aquatic and terrestrial factors affecting a potential biodiversity indicator species, northern leatherside chub (Lepidomeda copei). Coordination Meeting – Utah Division of Wildlife Resources/Brigham Young University. Brigham Young University, Provo, Utah. 2011 .
Billman EJ, Wesner JS, Belk MC. Aquatic and terrestrial factors affecting northern leatherside chub (Lepidomeda copei) in the Bear River Drainage, WY and UT. Utah Chapter of the American Fisheries Society Annual Meeting. Salt Lake City Utah. 2011 .
Belk MC, Meyers PJ, Hassell E, Billman E. Effects of ontogeny, sex, and predation environment on the morphology of a livebearing fish. Evolution 2010. Portland, Oregon. 2010 .
Belk MC. Effects of brown trout on native stream fishes of the western U.S. Western Division of the American Fisheries Society Annual Meeting 2010. Salt Lake City, Utah. 2010 .
Belk MC, Billman E, Meyers P. Reproductive allocation of western mosquitofish in Utah Lake: evidence for the residual reproductive value hypothesis. Western Division of the American Fisheries Society Annual Meeting 2010. Salt Lake City, Utah. 2010 .


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Motivation is defined as the psychological feature that arouses an organism to action toward a desired goal; the reason for the action; that which gives purpose and direction to behavior. In simpler terms, it is what inspires us to act.
This can take specific forms such as incentive, like a prize, or punishment, as in the denial of privileges. It can also be based in less tangible forms like desires, dreams, needs and wants.
1. Incentive: If I get good grades on my report card, I will be given money to spend how I wish.
2. Punishment: If I rob a bank, I could end up in jail.
3. Dreams: If I goto school for x amount of time and study these subjects, I can get my dream job.
4. Needs: I must work in order to buy food and have a roof over my head.
5. Wants/Desires: I want a new car, so I must work to save money for that dream.
Motivations can be obvious and straight forward, like these examples, which are aroused in the conscious mind where one is fully aware of them. Or motivations can be hidden.
Now, when we say hidden, what first jumps to mind is that the motivations are completely hidden from self, that is, it exists within the unconscious mind and has no direct impact on the conscious mind's awareness and behaviors. Another way to put it is that the conscious mind has absolutely no awareness of these unconscious motivations which drive them to enact certain behaviors. But, beneath the auspice of 'hidden motivations' which so often lay within the subconscious mind, there are motivations which the conscious mind perceives, if only in a peripheral sense.
So let's explore these ideas and then look at how they can impact someone who is hypersensitive and Empathic.
Unconscious Motivations
Unconscious Motivation refers to hidden and unknown desires that are the real reasons for things that people do.
An example is when someone is unable to stay in a long-term relationship and always finds a reason to break off his relationships. He may insist that there is a rational explanation for leaving a relationship, but his actions may actually be driven by an unconscious desire for love and belongingness, and an overwhelming fear of rejection. Deep down, he wants and needs to be in a loving relationship, but he find ways and reasons to put an end to the relationship so as to avoid being rejected.
Now, after reading that short example, do these things begin to make sense? Either way, let's go deeper into it.
The first person to theorize on the idea of unconscious motivations was a man named Sigmund Freud, who was the father of what is known as Psychoanalysis in psychology. Psychoanalysis can be defined as:
- A family of psychological theories and methods within the field of psychotherapy that work to find connections among patients' unconscious mental processes.
- A method of treating mental disorders through investigating emotional conflicts and childhood repressions by getting the patient to talk freely, examining his or her dreams.
- A talking therapy introduced by Dr. Sigmund Freud which involves the analysis of dreams, childhood experiences, etc.. to overcome present problems. It is founded on the belief that unconscious, repressed instinctual drives and negative early childhood experiences are mainly responsible for an individual's problems.
Now, I know this is alot of information to take in. And you might be wondering how the heck this applies to you, so let's look at a case study to see how it might apply to you. And then we will explore some of the potentially unhealthy issues that can arise from unconscious motivations through early childhood programming.
When Samantha was a child of 5, she lived with her mother and her mother's boyfriend. Her father had long since disappeared from her life. Her mother worked long hours to support her family, so upon coming home, was was thoroughly exhausted and had little time to spend with her daughter. This left Samantha in the care of her mother's boyfriend, Michael.
Michael did not care for children all that much, so he would often get frustrated with Samantha when she didn't obey the rules he set for for her. This frustration would turn into anger and that anger would turn into punishment. The resulting punishments would be harsh and often times abusive in nature. He would scream at the top of his lungs at her, calling her names like 'stupid', 'idiot', and 'burden'.
At first, Samantha, who was not used to this kind of treatment because it had just been her and her mom up until that point, would goto her mother and complain about this mistreatment. But Samantha's mother would dismiss it out of hand, assuming that the child was hypersensitive and was overreacting to being punished.
As time wore on, Samantha stopped talking about the punishments all together. She believed it was useless to complain about it and simply shut that part of herself down. She learned to hide the bruises that appeared on her when she started school. And she repressed that part of her life as she interacted with friends socially.
At the age of 15, Samantha met a boy by the name of Billy. He was slightly older than she was, drove a car, and was extremely popular amongst their peers at school. He was smart, an athelete, and drop dead gorgeous (in her estimation). And when he started flirting with her, she felt so lucky to have been chosen by him, she immediately began to date him.
Everything seemed perfect at first. She couldn't have imagined being happier, particularly after what she had suffered in her life up till that point. Being with Billy took the edge off going home to face Michael, who was by this point her stepfather. He seemed like the salve to her wounded heart and soul.
But after about month of this bliss, Billy began to change when they were alone together. He started frustrated with her. And because she had been through this kind of frustration before with Michael, she began to attempt to please him in any way she could in order to hold onto those feelings she felt at the beginning of the relationship. His frustrations soon turned into anger, though, despite her best efforts.
He began isolating her from her friends and peers. He told her she was nothing without him and that no one could love a slut like her but him. He said she should feel lucky for whatever he gave her. And beyond such words, he became violent. One occasional hit escalated into severe beatings. Beatings began to include sexual assaults.
And these things continued for years, as they dated throughout high school and up to the point where they graduated and moved in with each other. That is, until one day she realized, without a doubt, that she was going to die. Staring into the mirror finally showed her each bruise he had marked her with, in the name of love. So she left him and went home to her mother.
By this time, around the age of 20, Michael had passed away and Samantha's mother lived a quiet life alone. So having her daughter back home was not burden on her. But even as mother and daughter cohabitated together, Samantha was withdrawn from her.
Samantha began looking for a job, but always failed to get it. She contemplated school, but never followed through with it. She attempted to dream of something to do with her life, but always the future seemed murky and undefined.
Her relationships ended quickly. She always found some reason or rational for breaking it off with her partner.
When she did go out socially, she wore a mask with a smile on it. But inside she felt as though no one truly understood what she was going through. She looked at her friends and wondered how they could be so carefree and self absorbed. And she felt guilty and jealousy as those around her had dreams for the future, romantic relationships, and seemed to take delight in the things around them.
All of this left her wondering what she had done to deserve such a fate. She would ask herself, over and over again,what she had done that was so horrible to be punished this way. And she felt helpless to change it, even as she watched it happen to herself time and time again.
Now this case study might seem harsh, and honestly it is. No one wants to imagine someone's life being like this. No one wants to imagine all of that suffering. It's painful. But it's important, for the purposes of this discussion, none the less. So let's analyze it and look at some of the unhealthy psychological issues that arose out of her life, beginning with her early childhood programming.
The Analysis
Samantha's life began to change at the age of 5 with the inclusion of a new member in her family. This new person, Michael, took on a paternal role toward Samantha, which helped to define her perceptions of authority figures, how people interact with one another, and how love is expressed.
The physical, verbal, and psychological abuse were deemed unacceptable, by the young Samantha, at first because she had not been exposed to this behavior before the inclusion of Michael into her family unit in an authoritative capacity. Upon seeing her mother's reaction to her complaints of this treatment, which amounted to a dismissal of her concerns and fears, Samantha became more docile toward the behavior, gradually accepting it as a norm. She eventually even learned to enable it by hiding the the physical results of these behaviors from people who might have been willing to help her, such as teachers and friends.
This does not mean she did not suffer emotionally from the abuse. In her mind, she dreamed of someone 'saving' her from the life she led and the abuse she endured. And because she dreamed of fairy tales, he had to be beautifully packaged to perfection. So enters Billy, who fits her fantasy guy to the letter, at least on the surface. In her mind he takes on the archetypal role of the Knight In Shining Armor who will save her from her wretched life.
This fantasy endures within her, emboldening her to stay by his side and enable his behavior in the hopes that he will return to the man she first met and fell in love with. It is her hope, which makes how he treats her tolerable, even as it escalates into more violent behaviors.
But this behavior, of fantasizing and enabling, can be linked back further into her childhood to her stepfather Michael's treatment of her. Despite how she hates being abused, something inside her says that this behavior is acceptable on some level.
And it is only through the stark light of reality shining on her situation and the realization that death is close at hand, does the potential for the epiphany occur for Samantha. That epiphany is that there is no hope that he will change and that she must act if she wishes to live. So she does by returning home.
But even as she begins her life again with a fresh start, living with her mother, she discovers that she can not find work, her relationships with friends are strained by jealousy, and her romantic relationships fall apart quickly. She also discovers that she has no dreams for the future.
Having grown up the way she did, she was not able to dream of the future. From early childhood up into her 20s, her mindset was focused on survival in the moment, not on future dreams, desires, and wants. Her needs were secondary to those she saw in authority. So, having come to the point where she stands alone, without those authority figures standing above her, she is left in utter confusion, unsure where to go and what to do next.
This type of confusion can beget overwhelming fear, so much so, that it can quite literally control a person's life. It can paralyze them when they are about to succeed. It can set into motion a defeatist mentality which permeates a person's entire life.
This fear can also cause one to look on others, even those closest to you, with bitterness, jealousy, and resentment. It can cause one to push away from friendships and behave in ways one wouldn't normally do.
This fear can also be translated into romantic relationships, as a fear of rejection. This mentality is based off of the idea that if someone gets to close to you and sees you for who you really are, you will be rejected. And fear of rejection can make one react in haste by pushing away from one's partner, before they can discover these things and reject you.
So from within this overly long analysis, we can extract several psychological issues that can arise out of early childhood programming. But more than that, these are issues that can exist in a person and have underlying roots in their past, based on the same....early childhood programming. So let's explore some of them. But remember....what is offered here is not a complete list. Nor is it mean to be taken as a psychological evaluation of any kind. It is for informational purposes only.
1. Codependency
Codependency or codependence is a tendency to behave in overly passive or excessively caretaking ways that negatively impact one's relationships and quality of life. It also often involves putting one's needs at a lower priority than others while being excessively preoccupied with the needs of others. Codependency can occur in any type of relationship, including in families, at work, in friendships, and also in romantic, peer or community relationships. Codependency may also be characterized by denial, low self-esteem, excessive compliance, and/or control patterns. Codependency describes behavior, thoughts and feelings that go beyond normal kinds of self-sacrifice or care taking.
Three Types Of Codependents
1. Caretakers--relate to others primarily through roles that put them in a position of the giver, helper, supporter, nurturer, etc. "Everyone's needs are more important than my own."
2. Romance~relationship addiction--must be in a "relationship" and be "special" to someone in order to be OK with oneself; may use caretaking and sexuality to gain approval/acceptance; goes from relationship to relationship. "You're no one unless someone loves you."
3. Messiah complex--savior of the family, church, world; over-responsible, doesn't ask for help, tries to make self indispensable."If I don't do it. it won't get done."2. Defeatism
Defeatism is defined as an attitude of accepting, expecting, or being resigned to defeat. What this means is that a person becomes resigned to the probability of defeat so they give up quickly after only trying for a short time, half heartedly, or not at all. The mentality says that if you accept defeat before it arrives, you can you can prevent the hurtful feelings that arise out of rejection from other people, be it work related or personal.
3. Victim Mentality
A Victim Mentality is one where a person blames everyone else for what happens in their own life/world. Another definition, not as commonly used, is one that says a person thinks the future only holds bad/negative things for them. What this means is that we seem to become victims of our friends, family, lovers and associates. We seem to become victims of fate and destiny.
But often times, this simply is not the case. This is an overestimation of blame pushed on things outside ourselves, as a means to shield ourselves from blame. And when this occurs...when one adopts the archetype of the Victim, it becomes hard to tell when one is truly being victimized and when one is pressing blame on the world, which should sit equally and/or squarely on their own shoulders.
4. Psychological Repression
Psychological Repression, also psychic repression or simply repression, is the psychological attempt by an individual to repel its own desires and impulses towards pleasurable instincts. Such desires, impulses, wishes, fantasies or feelings can be represented in the mind as thoughts, images and memories. The repression is caused when an external force puts itself in contrast with the desire, threatening to cause suffering if the desire is satisfied, thereby posing a conflict for the individual; the repressive response to the threat is to exclude the desire from one's consciousness and hold or subdue it in the unconscious. Repression plays a major role in many mental illnesses, and in the psyche of average people. Repression is an involuntary or unconscious process.
Another way this is described comes from the book Changing Minds, by David Straker, where it says:
Repression involves placing uncomfortable thoughts in relatively inaccessible areas of the subconscious mind. Thus when things occur that we are unable to cope with now, we push them away, either planning to deal with them at another time or hoping that they will fade away on their own accord.
The level of 'forgetting' in repression can vary from a temporary abolition of uncomfortable thoughts to a high level of amnesia, where events that caused the anxiety are buried very deep.
Repressed memories do not disappear. They can have an accumulative effect and reappear as unattributable anxiety or dysfunctional behavior. A high level of repression can cause a high level of anxiety or dysfunction, although this may also be caused by the repression of one particularly traumatic incident.
Some examples of Repression are:
- A child who is abused by a parent later has no recollection of the events, but has trouble forming relationships.
- A woman who found childbirth particularly painful continues to have children (and each time the level of pain is surprising).
- An optimist remembers the past with a rosy glow and constantly repeats mistakes.
- A man has a phobia of spiders but cannot remember the first time he was afraid of them.
- A person greets another with 'pleased to beat you' (the repressed idea of violence toward the other person creeping through)
5. Dissociation
Dissociation is a partial or complete disruption of the normal integration of a person's conscious or psychological functioning. Dissociation can be a response to trauma or drugs and perhaps allows the mind to distance itself from experiences that are too much for the psyche to process at that time. Dissociative disruptions can affect any aspect of a person's functioning. Although some dissociative disruptions involve amnesia, the vast majority of dissociative events do not. Since dissociations are normally unanticipated, they are typically experienced as startling, autonomous intrusions into the person's usual ways of responding or functioning. Due to their unexpected and largely inexplicable nature, they tend to be quite unsettling.
Another way this is defined is:
Dissociation is a mental process that causes a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memory and sense of identity. Dissociation seems to fall on a continuum of severity. Mild dissociation would be like daydreaming, getting "lost" in a book, or when you are driving down a familiar stretch of road and realize that you do not remember the last several miles. A severe and more chronic form of dissociation is seen in the disorder Dissociative Identity Disorder, once called Multiple Personality Disorder, and other Dissociative Disorders.
6. Anxiety
Anxiety is a psychological and physiological state characterized by cognitive, somatic, emotional, and behavioral components. These components combine to create an unpleasant feeling that is typically associated with uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry. Anxiety is a generalized mood condition that can often occur without an identifiable triggering stimulus. As such, it is distinguished from fear, which occurs in the presence of an observed threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable.
Another view is that anxiety is "a future-oriented mood state in which one is ready or prepared to attempt to cope with upcoming negative events" suggesting that it is a distinction between future vs. present dangers that divides anxiety and fear. Anxiety is considered to be a normal reaction to stress. It may help a person to deal with a difficult situation, for example at work or at school, by prompting one to cope with it. When anxiety becomes excessive, it may fall under the classification of an anxiety disorder.
Emotional Symptoms Of Anxiety
- Feelings of apprehension or dread
- Trouble concentrating
- Feeling tense and jumpy
- Anticipating the worst
- Irritability
- Restlessness
- Watching for signs of danger
- Feeling like your mind's gone blank
- Pounding heart
- Sweating
- Stomach upset or dizziness
- Frequent urination or diarrhea
- Shortness of breath
- Tremors and twitches
- Muscle tension
- Headaches
- Fatigue
- Insomnia
- Panic disorder : People with this condition have feelings of terror that strike suddenly and repeatedly with no warning. Other symptoms of a panic attack include sweating, chest pain, palpitations (irregular heartbeats), and a feeling of choking, which may make the person feel like he or she is having a heart attack or "going crazy."
- Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) : People with OCD are plagued by constant thoughts or fears that cause them to perform certain rituals or routines. The disturbing thoughts are called obsessions, and the rituals are called compulsions. An example is a person with an unreasonable fear of germs who constantly washes his or her hands.
- Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) : PTSD is a condition that can develop following a traumatic and/or terrifying event, such as a sexual or physical assault, the unexpected death of a loved one, or a natural disaster. People with PTSD often have lasting and frightening thoughts and memories of the event, and tend to be emotionally numb.
- Social anxiety disorder : Also called social phobia, social anxiety disorder involves overwhelming worry and self-consciousness about everyday social situations. The worry often centers on a fear of being judged by others, or behaving in a way that might cause embarrassment or lead to ridicule.
- Specific phobias : A specific phobia is an intense fear of a specific object or situation, such as snakes, heights, or flying. The level of fear usually is inappropriate to the situation and may cause the person to avoid common, everyday situations.
- Generalized anxiety disorder : This disorder involves excessive, unrealistic worry and tension, even if there is little or nothing to provoke the anxiety.
Low Self Esteem can perhaps best be described as having a low opinion of oneself (either consciously or not), and/or feelings of being 'worthless'.
It can surface in thoughts and in feelings and will often appear to manifest physically - in body postures, actions and health.
All of this can result in:
- Feelings of 'being stuck'
- Low motivation
- Low energy levels
- Lack of physical activity
- Potentially destructive behaviors
- Depression
- Feeling helpless to change anything
- Relationship difficulties: Low self esteem and divorce are unhappy partners.
- General lack of participation.
- Negative commentary/responses to questions.
- Sluggish physical behavior.
- Excessive use of activities for escapism (TV, Videos, Internet, Video Games, Reading). Be careful of overanalyzing here as this alone is not an indicator.
- Aggressive/argumentative behavior.
- Indecisiveness.
- Unwillingness to try anything new (anything from new food through to goal setting).
- Inability to say no (needing to be liked/loved by others by saying yes).
- Needing to prove self worth and 'status' by boasting, making public claims about capabilities (whether true or false).
- Negative self talk. ("I can't"; "I won't be able to ...").
- Frequent future-based mental movies that end in disaster or unwanted outcomes.
- Mental 'replaying' of past events where personally unpleasant outcomes were experienced.
- Disassociation from success or high self esteem activities: Cannot mentally see oneself in that situation or by using self talk such as "That's not me ...".
8. Aggression
Aggression is defined as forceful action against another person which may be physical, verbal, or symbolic, and is meant to cause pain. Such behavior may be hostile or destructive or it may be for self-protection. From this definition, what we find is that there are 3 types of Aggressive Behaviors.
Types Of Aggressive Behaviors
Verbal Hostility
The children's taunt "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" fails to account for emotional abuse carried out through verbal hostility. Verbal aggression includes behavior such as bullying, threats or yelling. The Mayo Clinic includes name-calling and insults under the category of domestic violence. Put-downs, intentional or perceived, can have profound detrimental effects on the recipients. Musician Karen Carpenter reportedly became anorexic after reading a review that called her "chubby." She died in 1983 of complications from anorexia nervosa at only 32 years old, according to Queen City News and OC Weekly.
Nonverbal Intimidation
Nonverbal intimidation often implies the threat of violence, at least in the perception of the person at the receiving end. Stalking often involves one or more forms of nonverbal intimidation, including following the victim, planting malicious software in a victim's computer, sending unwanted gifts and vandalism against the victim's property, according to Sexual Harassment Support. A famous example of nonverbal intimidation occurred during the movie "Fatal Attraction," when Alex kills her victim's daughter's pet rabbit.
Passive Aggression
The Mayo Clinic defines passive aggression as an indirect way of expressing displeasure or anger. Passive aggression is often generated by resentment on the part of someone who is unable or unwilling to express this resentment directly. Deliberately or subconsciously performing a task poorly is one form of passive aggression, agreeing to perform a task but failing to do so is another, according to Psychology Today. Procrastination can also be a form of passive aggression.
9. Prejudice
Prejudice is defined as interpersonal hostility that is directed against individuals based on their membership in another group. It is any unreasonable attitude that is unusually resistant to rational influence.
Three Types Of Prejudice
- Cognitive Prejudice refers to what people believe is true. An example of cognitive prejudice might be found, for example, adherence to a particular metaphysical or methodological philosophy to the exclusion of other philosophies that may offer a more complete theoretical explanation. Example: One religion over another
- Affective Prejudice refers to what people like and dislike. An example of affective prejudice might be found, for example, in attitudes toward members of particular classes such as race, ethnicity, national origin, or creed. Example: One race over another
- Cognative prejudice refers to how people are inclined to behave. It is regarded as an attitude because people don't actually act on their feelings. An example of cognative prejudice might be found in expressions of what one would do if, hypothetically, the opportunity presented itself. Example: In the belief that one is smarter than another, the person condescends as they speak to the person deemed less intelligent. They talk down to them, as though they were a child.
Depression is a medical illness that involves the mind and body. It affects how you feel, think and behave. Depression can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may have trouble doing normal day-to-day activities, and depression may make you feel as if life isn't worth living.
More than just a bout of the blues, depression isn't a weakness, nor is it something that you can simply "snap out" of. Depression is a chronic illness that usually requires long-term treatment, like diabetes or high blood pressure. But don't get discouraged. Most people with depression feel better with medication, psychological counseling or other treatment.
Signs Of Depression:
- difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
- fatigue and decreased energy
- feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
- feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
- insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
- irritability, restlessness
- loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
- overeating or appetite loss
- persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
- persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
- thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
Narcissism is a behavior which involve exclusive self-absorption. A degree of narcissism is considered normal, where an individual has a healthy self-regard and realistic aspirations. It is considered pathological behavior when the person tends to harbor an exaggerated sense of his own self-importance and uniqueness.
Characteristics Of Narcissistic Behavior
The grandiosity a narcissistic person displays may be seen in overt behavior or in a preoccupation with fantasies. She may exaggerate achievements and talents or be preoccupied with fantasies involving infinite success, power, brilliance, beauty and ideal love. A narcissist also often requires much admiration and struggles with envy.
A narcissist may believe he is special, so certain rules and policies do not apply to him. He may expect unreasonable favors and special treatment because of his extraordinary nature. A narcissist can also appear arrogant and conceited.
Lack of Empathy
A narcissist can be demanding and exploitative in relationships. She usually has trouble considering someone else's point of view and trouble showing compassion toward others. She may even show contempt toward people she believes are inferior to her. Because of her belief that she is special, she may think she can associate with and be understood by only others of her status.
Idealization and Devaluation
Idealization and devaluation are strongly characteristic of narcissistic defenses. A narcissist is often overly involved in comparing himself to others. When he fails to measure up, he may become depressed, ashamed and envious. To defend against an injured self-esteem, a narcissist engages in idealizing and devaluing. Idealization helps the narcissist regain a sense of specialness by association with another extraordinary person. When he devalues someone, however, he maintains his fragile self-esteem by feeling superior to the person devalued.
Unconscious Motivations & The Empath
Now that we've explored some of the hidden and unconscious motivations within people and some of the resulting behaviors, how does this apply to Empaths? Well, let's delve deeper into this idea by looking at a list of general traits that tend to apply to an Empath.
Here are 16 common traits of an Empath. Remember that these are generalisations and they may not always be obvious.
- Empaths are quiet achievers but expressive in area's of emotional connection. They find that talking about emotional issues is a great outlet that aids in undertanding themselves and others.
- Some empaths can be the opposite of what an empath 'should' be because they are overwhelmed or unable to handle emotion and what they feel in the world around them so they block their feelings.
- They can be focused outward, toward what others feel, rather than themselves. This is a common trait to many people who have not gone through a process of self development.
- They avoid disharmony caused by emotionally turbulent situations. This type of situation can easily create an uncomfortable feeling because an empath feels this emotion.
- Empaths are emotionally sensitive to violence and general chaos.
- Empaths are sensitive to loud noise and televison. In particular, television programs that depict emotional drama like the news and police shows.
- Thery struggle to comprehend acts of cruelty and crime that involves hurting others.
- They struggle to comprehend suffering in the world and are often idealists who theorise about fixing the worlds problems.
- Are often found working as volunteers, with people, animals or the environment.
- They are expressive so they can often be found in areas of music or the arts.
- They often have the ability to draw others to them. This includes children and animals as they have a warmth and compassion that is beyond normal You may find that strangers always talk to you if you are an empath.
- They can be good listeners as they generally have an interest in other people.
- Empaths can be moody or have large mood swings due to overwhelming thoughts, feelings and emotion.
- They are likely to have had, other paranormal experiences in their life. This could be astral projection, psychic ability or a variety of other experiences.
- Empaths are daydreamers that have difficulty keeping focused. This is common with people who deal more IN emotion and neglect other area's of their mind.
- Like many people on a spiritual path Empaths frequently experience déjà vu and synchronicities. This is something that occurs to everyone however empaths are often more aware and therefore 'look out' for it.
Let's analyze this trait list a bit, based on some of the behaviors we have listed above.
Look at number 2: "2. Some empaths can be the opposite of what an empath 'should' be because they are overwhelmed or unable to handle emotion and what they feel in the world around them so they block their feelings." Could this play on ideas of repression and dissociation a bit? Are there other behaviors it can be associated with?
Look at number 3: "3. They can be focused outward, toward what others feel, rather than themselves. This is a common trait to many people who have not gone through a process of self development." Could this play into ideas of codependency and dissociation? Are there other behaviors it can be associated with?
Look at numbers 4 and 5: "4. They avoid disharmony caused by emotionally turbulent situations. This type of situation can easily create an uncomfortable feeling because an empath feels this emotion.""5. Empaths are emotionally sensitive to violence and general chaos." Could these play into dissociation and anxiety? Are there other behaviors it can be associated with?
The point of looking at these traits is to discover that Empaths, while having many positive and wonderful qualities including the ability to genuinely empathize with others and support them emotionally, have many issues which they carry around with them, as well, which work in part to make them who they are psychologically. And alot of these issues rise out of the past, to be carried around as baggage in the now.
These things include what types of people we are drawn to for more intimate associations (romantic and otherwise), how we perceive ourselves, where we place the importance of our own needs in comparison with others, and how we interact with others (as equals or on higher/lower ground).
It does not take being abused, neglected, or suffering a severe trauma to be conditioned in this way. All of your cumulative experiences can build up to some of these more negative patterns of behavior. And this is particularly true for Empaths, who tend to draw not just people in need to them, but also more domineering and manipulative personalities to them.
We draw them to us because we are people pleasers who have a hard time standing our own ground and saying 'no' in the face of manipulation, anger, and guilt trips. This is true because we are not able to set emotional boundaries, so we very easily get lost in the emotional sphere of other people...effectively drowning in it and losing all sense of who we are.
So consider all that has been offered up here. It is an important lesson for people....and Empaths. ^_^


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Multimedia training at Kyuso Maarifa Centre has enabled me to take commercial contracts to make videos and movies in social and official functions, an experience I've come to enjoy as well as contribute to my income. I'm in the process of creating my own online commercial motivational videos and host them on YouTube and Picasa.
The Maarifa centre later in 2011 introduced me to online Web Design courses, where I undertook a course in Web Development from the Alison website. Since that training, I have become a professional wed developer with a business profile of developing websites for schools. ALIN also helped me create a business website for my web design business at MBIO GROUP INC. which has expanded my customer base.
At the moment, ALIN hasn't left me behind and is my first choice in providing me with information on my current course in computer programming through its welcoming, ready, willing and able to helpful Field Officer at Kyuso John Njue who is also training on Community Journalism. After these courses, I hope to form the first online community blog in my district where the community will share agricultural and development information.
Kyuso Maarifa Centre has empowered me with information on development, technology, agriculture, management and enabled me pay my college fees and in my university research.
I'm also grateful to ALIN's Kyuso Maarifa Centre on behalf of the whole of my family who are among the thousands of beneficiaries of its trainings within and beyond Kyuso District. The community in Kyuso is more than honored to have the Centre and we pray, thank and bless the Field Officer Mr. John Njue who has found a way to send a lifetime of impact in every life, young or old. Thanks to ALIN, Now I can chat my with my ALIN-trained 50 year old mother on Face book, I have a growing business and hope to get a first class honors degree on completion of my B.A Development Studies with IT this year.
With Regards,
Job Kasambyo Ben
Maseno University.


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Every time I look at the picture of the dead little boy in the sand I want to tell him to get up cause he's gonna get cold.
I wanna pick him up and take him back to his mum. Then I remember they're both dead because my country doesn't care.


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Snail Repellent Experiment
One thing that won't remain a mystery however is how to deter the ever common garden snail and other pests from your patch. Joe has been busy conducting a highly technical experiment, and if he had one of those white lab suits he probably would have worn it.
These are our OFFICIAL findings.
Our Aim: How to best deter snails using organic substances.
AphidsSome other simple techniques that do work in protecting your garden include using soapy water spray to kill aphids. It is also great to get rid of powdery mildew on pumpkins, zucchini and squash plants. Just use some hand soap in a spray bottle diluted with water.
Birds & Possums
In the grand scheme of things snails and aphids are of little concern here at our place. It is the plethora of birds and possum folk that think we have grown the veggie garden just for them that are our key concern. The best solution we have found to prevent birds and possums is to cover our veggie beds with bird netting (we bought ours from Bunnings). This system worked a treat on our raised veggie gardens, but prooved less successful on our fruit trees and vines. Next year we are going to trial using stockings to cover our grapes to protect them from the birds, we used bird netting this year but the crafty little buggers easily hopped underneath it and ate 80% of our lovely grapes.
because of the combination of excessive chocolate consumption by our children , and their stubborn refusal to accept that daylight saving has now ended, Jo and I are both too dazed and confused to continue blogging tonight. later this week we will deliver on our promised recipe (an Italian style courgette stuffed (for want of a better term) with secret stuffings - i am not allowed to say any more at this stage) and also chat about the wonderful world of companion planting.
Ok. we are back.
Companion Planting:
As the name suggests, the concept behind companion planting is grouping certain varieties of plants next to one another because they are beneficial to the growth, or pest resistence of both plants. Companion planting has been used for many years and is a far better alternative to pesticides and unnatural fertilizers. Below are some companion planting partnerships that you can try in your own vegetable garden.
1. Cucumbers grow well with beans
2. Asparagus repels nematodes (tiny-worms), and is a good companion for tomatoes and parsley.
3. Celery repels white butterfly, and are good companions for cabbage & cauliflower.
4. Chrysanthemums inhibit root-knot nematodes, and are a good companion for strawberries.
5. Borage is also a good companion for strawberries.
6. Silver beat is also an excellent companion for strawberries.
7. Foxgloves stimulate growth in other plants in general, and should be planted as a boarder plant (around vege garden).
8. Yarrow (planted sparsely) improves pest resistance in general.
9. Marjoram improves the yields of most vegetables.
10. French Marigolds are a good companion for all root vegetables as they inhibit pests and diseases. They are also a good companion for tomatoes as they repel white fly, which attacks tomatoes.
11. Parsley is beneficial to tomatoes and roses.
12. Garlic improves the growth of roses, but is bad for peas and beans. It is also a good remedy for blight diseases on tomatoes and potatoes. Simply crush cloves and sit in boiling water. Use as a spray.
13. Gladioli is BAD as it restricts the growth of vegetables and should be kept well away from your vege garden.
14. Dandelions are also bad for the growth of vege gardens, but grown on their own, they are good for cleansing the gallbladder, and are high in vitamins A & C.
15. Nasturtiums improve the growth of potatoes and radishes. they aslo add a lovely splach of colour!
16. Chervil is also a good companion for Radish.
17. Chives repel many insects and pests and inhibits diseases in your vege garden. They are particularly good companions for carrots and apple trees. For best results, pick the leaves and flowers regularly.
18. Dill improves the quality of cabbages.
19. Fennel is bad for the growth of beans. Keep them separate.
20. Hyssop improves the growth of grape vine yields. Garlic may also be good in preventing some diseases in grape vines, as roses and vines often suffer from similar diseases.
21. Summer Savoy is a good boarder for onions and beans.
22. beans grow well near carrots, potatoes, cabbage, celery, cucumber, and cauliflower.
23. beans do not grow well near garlic, shallots, onions or beetroot.
24. cabbage improves when grown near potatoes. Sage is also a good companion for cabbage.
25. Carrots are good companions for onions/ peas/ lettuce/sage.
26. Cucumbers are good companions for peas/potatoes/beans/cabbage/chives.
27. Leeks are good companions for celery.
28. Lettuces are good companions for radish/carrots.
29. Peas or pumpkins are good companions for corn.
30. Peas and onions do not grow well together.
31. Potatoes and tomatoes/pumpkins/sunflowers do not grow well together.
32. Potatoes are good companions for cabbage/corn/peas/beans.
ok people. we are done for tonight. Joanna's top secret stuffed zucchinni (or courgette for the more culinarily sophisitacted) will be cooking tommorrow. On a side note, we watched Costa's garden odyssey tonight in the hairy hope of some gardening gems, but we were sadly dissappointed. It is only the second time we have watched the hairy man. has he been better in the past or are you in aggreance that Costa can do better?


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Patriotism—Does being a Christian mean that I should be patriotic? Answer
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This story takes the audience to the most stirring and heartwarming scenes in America. History, adventure and spectacular scenery are the backdrop. Opportunity, personal responsibility, and the free enterprise system is the platform in which America's success is molded. We are a nation that owes much to many. This is an American story told through the magic of magnificent music performed by top performers, breathtaking photography, thrilling aerial scenes, and some of the most touching human moments ever presented on the giant screen.
Presented by Coca-Cola, MasterCard, American Airlines and Walmart. In honor of the men and women who defend our wonderful country, past and present a substantial portion of proceeds will go to the NMFA National Military Family Association. / Produced by MultiImage Productions Inc. and LightSource LLC."
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Marc Sparks is a man about his business. He possesses a business acumen that has brought him great success in his personal entrepreneurial ventures and those of others. He has the ability to assess in rapid fashion whether an idea or product is more likely than not to be successful in the larger consumer market.
As a venture capitalist, he is willing to step off into the deep end and put his money where his mouth is for startups with high-growth potential in light of the rapidly changing trends of the supply and demand for the next great thing.
Venture capitalism is a niche of the financial market that provides a bridge to needed funds for various aspects of the business startup not obtainable through traditional means. It is not a loan but a private equity investment designed to help with growth expansion, commercialization efforts, improving the business infrastructural organization efficiency all in an effort to achieve a higher rate of return.
As a venture capitalist, Marc Sparks has helped a variety of entrepreneurs achieve success, and those whose businesses fail are much wiser and prepared for their next attempts at spreading their wings.
One would think the losses that he has endured and the associated high risks would dampen his desire to continue in this line of work, but he remains steadfast and determined. He has a heart for the struggling underdog who just cannot seem to get a leg up and needs a little help.
According to GoodReads, because of Marc Sparks' business ventures, he has earned a unique description, 'serial entrepreneur'. He has learned a lot over the past 34 years from his amazing successes and devastating failures. His experience with these high-risk endeavors has not only caused him to sharpen his skills but to understand and communicate how to take a good idea from point "A" to point "Z" through the minefield of the infrastructural organization, operational, and financial complexities and hurdles that can lead to success.
He authored a book entitled 'They Can't Eat You: My Unorthodox Path to Outrageous Success' in which he shares his experience with failure, he says, "I feel like anyone reading my book will learn much more from my unsuccessful business ventures than they will learn from my successful ones.
Marc Sparks is the Chief Executive Officer of the private equity firm Timber Creek Capital, LP, in Dallas, Texas.


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This gorgeous resort is located right on the ocean, but close to Valletta's center. The Fortina Spa offers spectacular views of the ocean and the bastions of Valetta. There are 8 restaurants that offer international to Maltese cuisine, and all special diets are catered to. There are 4 world-class spas, a cosmetic surgery center, Pilates center, cosmetic dentistry center and more. This resort is guaranteed to rejuvenate your whole being!


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Weight all pros and cons and make an experiment
Were you ever influenced with a thought that for a grown-up person masturbation is "useful as live water"? How about that all types of orgasms are the same? That the notion of "excessive ejaculation" does not exist? Or that if you do not masturbate, your health will suffer "horrible" consequences?
Such ideas are fed by rumors that are not based on any medical facts. It's opposite, increasingly more studies rejects those rumors. Scientist Rue Migel Coshta made a consequence in the recent study (mentioned below):
Masturbation is closely connected with psychotic damage and impotence.
The grounded and checked information on masturbation is extremely important for us today. As the high-speed endless erotic novelty appears available in just one click, it is difficult for the user to understand signals of excess. Besides, for modern young people masturbation and Internet porn have become synonyms, that is why if masturbation is "really" useful, Internet porn will help you become healthier. "Logic" in its best form.
It does not mean that you should feel guilty for masturbation. It means that you should realize the usefulness of managing your sexual attraction. Here are just five of the popular myths of masturbation:
Myth No. 1: Frequent masturbation prevents prostate cancer
Orgasm during the sexual intercourse between a man and a woman is considered useful for the body, NOT masturbation. Nevertheless, many researchers of prostate cancer undoubtedly conceal this information just answering badly-formulated questions. They suppose that any ejaculation will influence prostate cancer in the similar way and consider masturbation, sexual intercourse or pollution just an "ejaculation". Besides, they should take into consideration the memory of sexual activities from a decade ago.
It is not surprising that the research results are not clear.
What is the consequence? The frequency of ejaculation is not connected with an increase of the prostate cancer rate. Unfortunately, some groups that informed of the connection between ejaculation frequency and the decreased level of prostate cancer (only in some age groups) were the ones that grabbed everybody's attention. They gave life to a popular myth: "The more frequently a person of any age masturbates, the better he is protected of prostate cancer."
Not a single research proves such "optimistic" suggestions completely. As a matter of fact, when the studies revealed the difference between masturbation and the sexual intercourse, frequent masturbation has become more a marker for an increased risk of early prostate cancer. A sexual intercourse can help protect from prostate cancer in later years and does not influence young people.
Not speaking of prostate cancer, in men with erection dysfunction frequent masturbation is connected with other prostate problems: Increased antigen levels, swelling and softening of a prostate.
In other words, an attempt to masturbate to prevent the risk of a prostate cancer will not work.
Myth No. 2: Frequent masturbation will make your sexual life brighter
Do you realize that twitching off is specifically associated with a lessening in sexual capacity (both in men and in ladies), inability to get fulfillment in the relations and a decline of sexual fascination between accomplices? Frequent masturbation is associated with numerous sorrow manifestations and different pointers of awful physical and emotional wellness – sharp increment in circulatory strain as a reaction to push, undesirable dependence on the individual and juvenile mental assurance. The studies don't permit expressing specifically that the masturbation is the motivation to these issues, however on the foundation of these information it is as of now excessively muddled, making it impossible to continue, consequently, masturbation resemble the water of life. When all is said in done, on the off chance that you are so fortunate to have a sexual accomplice, take after the humorist's recommendation and make masturbation your "auxiliary" decision.
Myth No. 3: Orgasm is merely a climax
Since a gathering of clinicians chose that any sexual conduct (sex, masturbation) is comparable, it was not endorsed by any sort of evidence. It was preferably a proposal than a certainty. (Stuart Brody, a researcher therapist)
As it was at that point specified over, the sex (hetero) emphatically impacts mental and physical wellbeing, sexual capacity and close relations with the accomplice – in examination with masturbation and different sorts of sexual conduct. As one lady specifies:
I didn't have morning discouragements after climaxes for 10 years of my sexual relations with my spouse. All the love that filled our connections smooths and covers the negative impact the climax gets on me as a dowager. Climax with the adored one is altogether different from a climax alone.
Such a behavior is considered by the primitive part of our brain as the gesture of affection. Such gestures connect people as they calm protective behavior of the brain while releasing oxytocin in the brain parts. This is a natural mechanism for getting calm. Regular soft touch or hugs, for example, are proved to decrease blood pressure, especially in men.
Are harmonic intimate relations a sign of affection, unlike masturbation? The clear difference can be seen even in the hormonal decoding of both types of activities. For example, in the climax of the sexual act releases four times more prolactin than during masturbation, suspending sexual desire for some time. In other words, orgasms obtained by various methods may not be equivalent in their effects. And it is quite natural that the sexual act gives a greater psychological and physical rewards than masturbation because evolution approves the behavior that allows you to push forward on their genes to future generations. The exchange of gentle touch is considered as a reward, since it develops affection among partners – and offspring with two committed guardians has a better chance to survive. In addition, as indicated by Brody and other researchers, the evolution would have chosen the sexual intercourse because the impulse to masturbation entails the consumption of own suitability. In fact, today's excessive incentives are more than capable to carry away some users from more useful intercourse (and genetic transmission).
It is clear now that masturbation is also suitable for those who have sexual relations, but the important thing is that it is not the missing element of happiness. In fact, a higher rate of masturbation is associated with dissatisfaction with several aspects of life, the lack of frequency of sexual intercourse, but also reduces the pleasure of intercourse.
If you compare the sexual intercourse and masturbation, you will find the difference in a few days.
Myth No. 4: There is never too much masturbation
Young people mention that too much masturbation can really happen with modern high-speed porn. Here are several indicators (taken from the messages of highly-addicted Internet porn users):
•Masturbation till "dry" ejaculation or climax diseases
•Diseases and callosities from the large quantity of frictions
•Loss of sensitivity during the sexual intercourse
•Loss of interest to real sex with real partners, unusual sexual preferences, decrease of testosterone
•Pulling the culmination by hours, often because masturbation becomes less pleasant.
•Other chronic symptoms associated with dependence: sociopathy, haze, depression, problems of young people willing to have sex and strong cancel failure syndrome
Why the culture created by us did not investigate the likelihood of excessive masturbation? Perhaps because even until recently, only a small number of people faced this problem
The blame can be assumed by an unhindered access to the ever-new sexual stimuli too hot, so we can give them up after satiation, which gives a lift and our brains start depending on the hook.
This is a new phenomenon by now and it was still not connected to the reality. As the prove, there are many heart-breaking stories and the role of high-speed Internet in them is obvious.
I was a bodybuilder. I lost weight from 100 kg to 82 kg despite that I was going in for sports, eating a lot of organic food. I have managed to lose myself up to the complete emptiness. I got all those strange and irrational fears of people. My voice became shallow, if you understand what i mean. I became non-solid and weak. I lost myself. I was in constant depression, stopped leaving the house, my friends gradually disappeared from my life. Now I'm a skinny, pale, clumsy pervert, yes, and despite the fact that I was the soul, the King of our campus. What the heck! I have NOT USED ANY OPPORTUNITY IN MY LIFE, but instead hooked on porn and began to masturbate more often. And that's all. I still was determined positively, eating healthy foods, doing sports, and so on. THE ONLY indicator that grew was the number of "affairs" with women on the screen. I quite seriously could not concentrate and be aware of anything after a "spree", and on some days I literally was bedridden due to eyestrain.
Look more attentively at the poor colleague of this guy:
A while back, the organization gave new phones conceivable outcomes of use joining to representatives who did not have them yet. Also, it wouldn't have been long before my partner started to investigate the universe of porn. One day, he was driving an organization auto and stroking off in the meantime, DESPITE THE FACT that another associate was in the auto with him. Furthermore, it has likewise obliterated his association with his wife, since he would rather return home and watch porn as opposed to having intercourse
No amount of any orgasms or orgasm delays in any way will be able to saturate the dependent brain, so the individuals who are snared with smut feel as though they never get enough. At the point when folks who are genuinely dependent on porn attempt to surrender, they frequently encounter a makeshift, however on edge diminish in charisma and penis affectability – also other aggravating withdrawal side effects – this may in dread take them back to porn… significantly more profound into compulsion.
Myth No. 5: You will not be able to refuse masturbation without harm for yourself
Thousands of guys (and girls) find out that while refusing porn or masturbation and even temporarily restraining from/refusing masturbation, they receive the sexual effect which is far from harm – they receive usefulness. On the forums, you may find a lot of reviews of that. Here are just some of them:
I'm twenty-odd years… and I have neglected many relations because of the use of porn. I was slightly irritable, critical, shy and defenseless – the list is long. I started to refrain from porn since last summer (I did not even know that I had a problem then), but I really feel a huge difference! I became more conscious, happier, more socialized, optimistic and stable. I became brave, outwardly calm; life has become as it should be. I was witty, sociable, active, and more creative than ever.
I'm 21 and I have accumulated a lot of things that you need to make up for all those lost years. To say that I have become spineless is to say nothing at all. I became too emotional, I did not have any confidence or clarity of mind, I lost the ability to reason. And I spent YEARS in this condition. Now I'm in control of myself, I'm stable, focused, confident and I have a very clear mind. And all this in just 22 days. When you keep your energy, you receive an unshakable will and all the previously impregnable walls become knee-deep.
The next day, I found different cards with reports and evaluations of teachers: before I started masturbating regularly and after. There was an obvious difference in my performance and my teachers' evaluations. Yes, maybe it was a coincidence, but I noticed how much more focused and productive I was when I was leaving masturbating even for a short time.
Now, when you have managed to study popular myths of masturbation, challenge yourself for a couple of months, give yourself a promise and see what happens. Each one has own habits and brains.
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Join us for the next in our distinguished speaker series as the Hunter welcomes photographer Lynsey Addario. This acclaimed photojournalist's powerful images are featured in our New York Times Magazine photography exhibit. Addario has photographed moments of pathos and tragedy and simple joys worldwide from Syria to Uganda to Mississippi. This evening she will share her work as well as her new book which she will also be available to sign. You can see more of Addario's work at http://www.lynseyaddario.com/
The Art Wise series is generously sponsored by the Blue Cross Blue Shield of Tennessee Community Trust with additional support from Sally and Buddy Faulkner. Media support provided by Brewer Media.
Lecture included with Museum Admission ($9.95 general public; FREE to Hunter Museum Members)


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