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"Medical Marijuana and Bipolar Disorder"
The Young Woman brave enough to make this video. In honest self-disclosure, she goes through the fate of using "pharma" and its destructive capabilities vs. the use of MMJ Medical Marijuana and its redeeming qualities in treating Bipolar and other Health Issues. {I feel the same toward "psych pharma meds." They were so destructive to my mind and body. Physical illnesses were a result of the variety of pills my ex-psychiatrists prescribed for me. Now I am Licensed to use MMJ & I am slowly feeling able to eat & actually feel hungry once I put the food in my mouth}.
[The Speaker on Video Wrote the following] thanks everyone for watching. I was inspired to put a more full version after I was included in a documentary that will come out in August. I was nervous during my interview during the documentary, wary on what to share and how to share it, but I truly believe in the movement and I hope my voice is heard!
If you can find the time to listen to what she has to say on this video, if you have Bipolar & feel you are feeling like you are not able to get your Bipolar to cooperate with you. Moods can turn you into a child having a tantrum & at other times, you have the feelings that you could accomplish anything. I try to keep my "Ego" under control & ignore it sometimes. I have a Great Psychotherapist finally. She gets me & was monumental along with my Primary Care Doctor in bringing about my achievement of being able to LEGALLY light up & inhale MMJ. [DO YOU KNOW HOW MONUMENTAL IT IS TO BE ABLE TO PURCHASE MARIJUANA LEGALLY. TO TRANSPORT IT IN A LOCKED BOX UNTIL YOU GET HOME. AND IN MY OWN HOME I CAN SMOKE WHEN & IF I NEED MMJs HELP. IT REALLY DOES WORK. IT IS A MYTH THAT WEED IS BAD FOR YOU. AND THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING TO FEEL THE HIGH THAT COMES WITH USING MEDICAL MARIJUANA. WHO EVER THOUGHT THAT WAS A BAD PART OF THE DEAL WHEN USING MMJ. TO FEEL CALM. TO THINK CLEARING. TO HAVE CREATIVE IDEAS FLOWING FROM EVERYWHERE YOU LOOKED OR LISTENED. INSPIRATION WAS THERE. THE MUSE WAS LISTENING & PATIENTLY [DON'T PUSH IT] WAITING TO GET TO WORK. "MIRACLE" MARIJUANA IS A BLESSING FOR FREEING UP THE PAIN & OPENING UP THE CREATIVE FLOODGATES WHEN THE TIMING IS IN THE RIGHT MOMENT. BUT YOU CAN'T JUST WAIT FOR INSPIRATION. THE MUSE WANTS YOU TO WORK FOR IT. SHE HAS HER METHODS. YOU JUST NEED TO DISCOVER WHAT THEY ARE. SHE IS PLAYFULLY TRICKY & CLEVER BUT SO SUPPORTIVE IF ONE IS WILLING TO WORK AT IT.]
On With the Thought for Discussion
It is far more intense & organic, so much more improved from what I smoked pre-college, during college, and after college. I was self-medicating without self-awareness that it was what I was doing. Everything was fine. Then I stopped smoking Weed. WHY? Haven't a real clue on that one.
I then started being given prescriptions for any new anti-depressant which would cost a fortune. So for over a decade I consumed anti-depressants without mood stabilizers. [Mood Stabilizers are a must with Anti-Depressants or they can set off Bipolar Moods such as Depression or Mania, which eventually lead you to crashing from your manic high and falling into the pit of Hell with the Darkest Depression and the Heightened Mood of Feeling Suicidal.] It was bad enough the anti-depressants caused me to be depressed but I was feeling suicidal almost constantly.
They also forgot to tell me I had this brain misfiring problem called Bipolar, probably since I was a young kid. All the Bipolar evidence presented itself when I was a young child. I can see them all written in gold now. I was given my mental health chart by my psychotherapist. I asked her if I could see it. [I didn't know I could see my MH Chart any time]. The woman I am seeing now. We discovered together what my shrinks had been trying to hide from me all those many years of feeling suicidal & almost succeeding on several occasions.
The day I recieved the truth was on 4/20 three years ago exactly TODAY 4/20/14. And I started smoking MMJ on the 20th of December 2013. That would be 32 months from the day I discovered my diagnosis until I was able to light up my first bowl of Pure Sativa Afghan Kush Medical Marijuana LEGALLY. Prior to that evening, to LEGALLY PURCHASE Medical Marijuana that same day but in the later afternoon.
That evening was the first time I felt good in forever. Before I inhaled the MMJ, I felt awful. I had four surgeries in less than a year in 2013. I was sick to my stomach. I was in pain. I hadn't been able to eat in a very long time. I had no appetite. Would forget to eat. I just didn't think of food. The thought of food made me sick to my stomach. I couldn't sleep. I was losing weight way too fast. I felt like I was dying & I do not exaggerate when I make that statement. "Miracle" Marijuana/Weed has saved my life.
I still have set backs & forget to smoke before I go to the kitchen. Entering our kitchen makes me feel extremely nauseous anytime I enter it unless I have smoked some MMJ. It is amazing what MMJ is doing for me. If you can't smoke it, there are many ways to ingest the MMJ. Just ask your Doctor or contact you state government offices. Find out whether your location has access to Medical Marijuana that is LEGALLY okay to possess and smoke. Be sure to find out how much MMJ you are allowed to have in your possession at any given time & where you are permitted to smoke it. Right now the laws are pretty strict.
Hopefully, the laws will loosen up once Marijuana is closer to being completely LEGALIZED!!! —Jkm 2014 on 420 4/20
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Prompted by the brave comment of a fellow traveler
through the world of BIPOLAR & C-PTSD & for me
an ASSORTMENT OF MULTIPLE PSYCHOLOGICAL & PHYSICAL
CHARTING BEST STRAINS OF CANNABIS/MEDICAL MARIJUANA FOR TREATMENTShttp://medicalmarijuana.com/ Best Site I Have Found So Far that Is Extremely Extensive On Treatment Use of Cannabis/Medical Marijuana.
IBS: Recommend Trainwreck & Blueberry to calm the symptoms and spasms. DO NOT ALTER DIET QUICKLY [these are available in my MED CABINET]
NAUSEA: Sativa &/or Indica. Just a pinch. Smoke it.
APPETITE: should have a positive effect.
ANOREXIA: Sativa &/or Indica. The nausea has to be treated & the appetite needs to be stimulated.
BIPOLAR DISORDER: Medical Marijuana (Cannabinoids) Relieve Bipolar Symptoms: Try Medical Marijuana for symptom relief:
Appetite Stimulant (Sativa's)
Mood Elevators (Sativa's)
Fatigue (Sativa's)
Sleep Disturbances (Indica's)
Hyperactivity (Indica's)
Mania (Indica's)
Focus (Sativa's)
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First Steps Toward Healing Using Medical Marijuana
24th December 2013
On 20th December 2013, I began a new journey, something I have been seeking for years. Being able to use Medical Marijuana/Cannabis to treat my physical ailments. My first hit/toke/inhaling of medical marijuana happened in the evening of the date above. It was the Friday and the week following Friday the 13th. A lucky day for me. It was a long journey to get to this day and a long trip to drive to the Medical Marijuana Dispensary in our state. My partner did the driving and has been encouraging all through my wanting to use Medical Marijuana.
The process of my applying for the legal use and possession of Medical Marijuana. She did all the paperwork. I type on my laptop or Tablet but writing is difficult with my right hand. Pressure on a nerve in the vertebrae of my neck is causing my whole right side to be effected. It starts at my neck, goes over my shoulder, down my arm, in through my wrist and causes a great deal of pain when I use my right hand for any activity. When I type, my hand is pretty stationary, so I only feel it after I am through for the day.
On Friday, in the early evening, I began my new journey of learning how to use the medicinal qualities of Medical Marijuana. First test was to figure out what would be the best strain of MM for nausea. I felt it while I was at the dispensary and part of the way on the drive back. Once I settled in, I went over our choices of strain. Quite a fun collection of names for each one. We bought 3 types of strains for Sativa and three types for Indica. So there were 6 strains we need work on figuring out which does the best job for what problem.
Very first choice to smoke was Double Blueberry, an Indica strain. It's an MM for the evening and for sleep. I took a pinch out of the package of DB and tucked it into a modified pipe. We were waiting for a certifiable small smoking pipe to arrive in the post. We are going to order more pipes. It may sound strange, but it makes sense to me, if you are smoking different strains, you are going to want to leave the unsmoked MM in the pipe. My first hit of DB was a misfire. I forgot how to get the smoke started.
It was only a short temporary lapse. Next attempt, success, there was fire and smoke and an inhale I held in as long as possible until I started to cough. It always use to start me coughing until I got use to smoking. I only needed one hit. In fact, at the dispensary, my guide into the use of Medical Marijuana, one thing she emphasized, take only one hit. It takes a short time to take effect but if you don't wait for it, you will really get in trouble. You will get too high. I haven't made that mistake. Almost did. Thought, this isn't working on one hit. I was smart, listened and waited. Those who wait are often rewarded with more pleasure. That's the way it is. That's the way it was.
This first smoked hit of DB Medical Marijuana strain was more than enough of a relaxing med. I felt no pain. I couldn't sense an appetite, even though I should have been hungry. My partner finally got me to accept she was going to make me a Turkey Cheeseburger with Lettuce and Tomatoe, Mayo and ketchup on the lightly toasted 12 grain bread, no crust. The food was presented with a side order of French Fries and Pickles. I bit into the Cheeseburger. My Parrot, Saki, started digging into it, also.
Suddenly, my body was overcome with attack the Cheeseburger. I could not tell you I was hungry, but my body was acting naturally to the hidden desire to eat. A success. The very first inhale gave be my desire back for a delicious Turkey Cheeseburger with the works. It was the messiest consumption of food. Like a scene from Tom Jones by Henry Fielding, the film starring Albert Finney. A book and film from long ago, I was still a child.
This was the first thing I had eaten or tried to eat that didn't make me feel nauseous before, during or after. When it comes to nutrition, one cannot have the luxury of choosing from a particular food group. One needs to eat what one needs to eat, it's a matter of survival.
During the day, I have worked it out slowly. I smoke something that will alleviate pain, give me an appetite, stop nausea, and give me energy and the ability to focus. The choice would come from the Sativa side of the strains. The three I had help choosing are Afghan Kush, Train Wreck [haven't tried this one yet], Critical Jack [nicknamed Crack].
The evening and night time going to bed and sleep strains go under the heading of Indica. I choose with guidance, Double Blueberry [gave me my first night of sleep on MM and I slept soundly. even fell sleep before 11pm], Blueberry [mellow and sleep well but not as long a sleep as I had with the DB], Sensi Star [this calms me but it doesn't keep me asleep. my mind feels edgy and not in deep enough sleep].
The new Medical Marijuana is a success as far as what it needs to do to help me get healthy again. It will be a slow process but I take a hit. It lasts for a long time. I feel able to write, paint, read, or do anything I want. I haven't driven anywhere since Friday so I haven't had to worry about the effects of MM regarding it. When I have my appts on Thursday and Friday. I will have to forgo using the MM until I get back from them.
One is my chiropractor. He will be good to talk to while he organizes my body to feel better. He will understand the physical effects of the MM. The day before I see my therapist, which will be good. I can talk to her about how I have been reacting to this new state my body is feeling and how great it is effecting my mind, my thinking. The clarity in my mind is excellent. My creative work is excelling. I am biased but I feel comfortable with the heightened senses. In my situation, it is the reawakening of the my senses that have been dormant, almost dead, for so long. It is a joy and exciting to feel my body again.
I could sense what I should feel but it was difficult to touch my feelings or express them as I was feeling them. Too much fear possesses me and excitement. The most difficult emotions for me to express with anyone else. With the Medical Marijuana, my senses have been open. I feel more connected to everything about me.
I am looking forward, as I progress into the treatment of the use of Medical Marijuana. Many people need to know how this treatment improves how one feels. Every sensation feels like my life has been renewed. It feels better sometimes, more time than it does not. My partner is helping me judge what works.
I would unequivocally rate Medical Marijuana with 5***** Stars out of 5***** for its undeniable medicinal benefits. And look forward to its continued help to treat what needs treatment.
I have to figure out the right strain for my manic phase when I get into a talking jag. Studying my behavior and my partner giving me feedback, I find I do talk a bit just after the beginning effects of the MM kick in but I settle down and feel mellow and comfortable. I feel I have better control of expressing my ideas. I don't feel out of control or I am talking nonsense. Just the opposite, I feel like my mind has been opened and I can think more freely. But I could get lost in my writing and think rapidly before the MM. With the MM I feel more like I have more control. That is a good sign.
I have not been depressed for awhile now. Tired but not depressed in any overt way of which I am aware. We will have to see if a depression comes on what happens. I do have the MM to treat depression as well mania. I must say I feel much more leveled out. It is just the beginning so I don't want to prematurely conclude anything yet. But I want to say, I feel different, in a good way. I am very happy and excited to be able to have the alternative treatments for all the physical problems. I feel assured they are helping me.
Time for an appetite to be awakened.
I will add, I am not, nor have I a need to feel high. It is fun and a wonderfully pleasant feeling but once the initial effect settles in, I eventually level off into a good. calm state of mind. I feel comfortable. I do have to be sure to continually monitor when I am in need of a treatment. I, then, determine what it is I am feeling. If it is lack of appetite, or nausea or pain, then I chose the strain that most will work on remedying what I am experiencing.
I will need Medical Marijuana for the rest of my life. What I am physically, emotionally and psychologically experiencing needs constant monitoring and a medicinal treatment that is going to make me feel healthy even though the Medical Marijuana is what is making me feel that way. It is compared to needing food and water the rest of my life. I will need my medicine, which is now Medical Marijuana. The remaining medications I take, I hope to be able to eliminate quite a few of them. Someday maybe I will. Who knows how healthy the Medical Marijuana will make me feel.
I've only been taking it for 4 day and I already feel a touch better. The level of pain, nausea and anxiety, plus a few other things have gone down when I take one hit of Medical Marijuana. SO I WOULD SAY I AM EXTREMELY OPTIMISTIC. IT WORKS.
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5 Ways Marijuana Affects Your Sleep
Health — 25 Nov, 2013
It's common for people to use marijuana before bed time, whether out of habit or necessity. And decades of research on marijuana and sleep may help explain why.
Besides easing insomnia, marijuana seems to have a wide range of effects on sleep.
This is because chemicals in marijuana, known as cannabinoids, actually mimic the activity of chemicals found naturally in the brain.
These chemicals and their biological pathways make up the body's endocannabinoid system, which is responsible for regulating sleep, among other things.
Likewise, research shows that marijuana can also have a direct impact on sleep. Here's 5 of the most important effects that studies have identified so far.
1. Easier Falling Asleep
Some of the earliest research on marijuana and sleep shows that marijuana's main ingredient, THC, can significantly reduce the time it takes for both insomniacs and healthy people to fall asleep.
In a small study published in 1973, THC reduced the time it took for 9 subjects with insomnia to fall asleep by over an hour on average. However, the researchers noted that too high of a dose could counteract the effect.
THC was also found to ease falling asleep in a 2013 study involving healthy subjects.
2. Longer Sleep
Early studies also revealed that taking either THC or CBD before bed could lead to an increase in overall sleep. In one study, increasing the dose of THC also increased the amount of time spent sleeping.
However, higher doses of THC also caused a "hang over" feeling in some subjects when they woke up, while the feeling was not present at lower doses.
3. More Deep Sleep
Some of the more interesting effects of marijuana on sleep involve its impact on the sleep cycle. Studies show that THC can increase the amount of slow-wave sleep, also known as deep sleep, that an user experiences during their slumber.
This is likely a good thing, since deep sleep is believed to play a major role in the restoration process that occurs during sleep.
What's more, experts believe that the most damaging effects of sleep deprivation result from a lack of slow-wave sleep. For example, research has shown that reduced slow-wave sleep can be a strong predictor of high blood pressure in older men.
4. Shorter REM Sleep
Another way marijuana affects the sleep cycle is a reduction in REM sleep. Many people who smoke before bed report a lack of dreaming, which only occurs during REM sleep.
While less REM sleep could be seen as a negative effect of marijuana use, scientists are still not sure what purpose REM sleep actually serves.
However, people who quit after using marijuana on a frequent basis often experience an increase in REM sleep, also known as the "REM rebound" effect, which is accompanied by an increase in dreaming and restlessness during sleep. But this effect tends to wear off within days or weeks, depending on the individual.
5. Better Breathing
When it comes to medical use, marijuana could offer an incredible benefit to the approximately 25% of men and 9% of women who suffer from a disorder called sleep apnea.
Sleep apnea is characterized by disrupted breathing during sleep, and has been linked to a number of serious conditions, including diabetes and heart problems. Unfortunately, the vast majority of sleep apnea sufferers remain undiagnosed and untreated.
Even of those who seek treatment, many eventually give up on wearing a CPAP mask every night.
But that's where marijuana may help, as researchers are currently trialing THC as an alternative, with early results already showing promise. If clinical trials are successful, sleep apnea patients may one day have the option of swapping a bulky sleep mask for popping a few pills before bed.
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18th December 2013
It really sucks the way the government works in most countries. I am fortunate enough to live in a state which is working on legalizing marijuana and has relatively coherent medical marijuana reasons to receive a license to possess, buy, grow medical marijuana. You have to meet certain standards of illness. My doctor and my therapist both believed enough in me to listen to my case of wanting to use alternative medications to treat all or some of my medical illnesses. I feel the brain is a major part of one's medical illnesses. So does my doctor and therapist. But my state doesn't treat for bipolar. Not at this time. However, my state only 6 months ago started to open medical marijuana dispensaries. Three are up and running and a fourth is in the process of hopefully being approved. I voted for our present governor b/c he campaigned on the promise he would legalize marijuana in our state. The lost recent statement he has made that I am aware of is not in this session 2013 but in the next 2014.
Fortunately, for me, I have physical problems that fall under the specifications of meeting the requirements of MM. My doctor gave me the filled out papers on her part toward applying for a Medical Marijuana License. She gave me the paperwork a day before I was to go in for surgery due to a screw-up in my cancer surgery in 2007. My cancer surgery caused several severe problems which may have been the cause of several of my health problem. But don't worry I have plenty more left after the surgery. So after I came out of my delirium of 5 days after the surgery and a high fever. I started to think about the paperwork I needed to fill out. I needed help. My ability to concentrate and to use my hands for writing are both really screwed-up. My partner did all the writing. I fed her all the information. She completed the forms and the next morning she went to the post office and mailed them off to the government agency handling Medical Marijuana Registry.
I wasn't too sure I would qualify. The doubts crept into my mind. Trying to be hopeful. Imagining, finally, I will be able to treat myself with medication that won't screw my body up more but would actually give me relief. Maybe I would finally be able to sleep soundly without nightmares or just lying there without anything happening except the racing of my mind with ideas and thoughts I couldn't shut off. Those night I am lucky to get even 2 hours of sleep. I have had insomnia since I was a little kid, maybe even a baby. I've never known how to sleep. The only time I ever felt like I had any sleep was when I would smoke marijuana. I didn't comprehend that was called self-medicating.
I understand now I was doing that for years. When I felt anxious, I would smoke. If I knew I was going to be around people I would smoke. Remember I am talking about smoking weed, pot, mj, grass, yes, marijuana. It helped me calm down, mask my symptoms, made me feel normal or what i felt was normal. I could actually spend time with people and talk to them in person. We could have dinner parties. We had meetings at our home. I was creative in many ways.
I lost that for a long time after I stopped smoking. I kept writing for a while and doing art but I gave up playing instruments, composing music and writing lyrics. Now I am a recluse with agoraphobia. I am in physical pain. I am bipolar with manic and depressive episodes. I stopped taking my psych meds. In fact, I started taking them just after I stopped smoking, drinking and inhaling marijuana smoke. For some reason I was under the misperception that psych meds as well as medical meds were going to be better for me. I was so very wrong. The medical meds are not that effective against my physical ailments. I am in pain constantly unless I stop moving altogether. The moment I move, that is when I realize the level of pain living inside my body. It hits above a level 10 fairly frequently.
My psych meds never did diminish my feelings of depression or prevented me from feeling suicidal on a regular basis. I gained weight on a regular basis but ate very little and was extremely active in my job and in my personal life. I walked over an hour most of the 7 days of the week. My weight gain never made any sense. Then I began to have mini-seizures. No one could figure out why. Took me off Trazadone and they stopped. Tried other meds. Many meds later, I kept on getting dizzy. Losing my balance. Earlier in my treatment I was given a med to calm my racing mind which occurred when I tried to sleep. It may have occurred while I was awake too but I never would have noticed. I just liked to talk a lot and when I was stoned, I was more aware of it. I was probably smoking the kind of weed that wakes you up rather than mellows you. But no diagnosis was given to me of why.
Later on I started to pass out. No one knew why. Are you seeing the trend? I saw a commercial about the med I was on for depression. It advertised it could cause dizziness and fainting. I immediately stopped cold turkey taking my Cymbalta. Within a day, I stopped fainting. They were going to put me on another med. I have a memory loss problem which I am sure occurred during the time I was taking such a long list and a mega-variety of psych meds that were fucking with my mind. I use to have an eclectic memory. I am not so sure that memory exists any longer from all the damage done to my mind from the pharma/psych meds.
Then came a major discovery. I discovered I had a diagnosis that had been kept from me for years. Too many years to know exactly when it was written in my charts. I asked my therapist if I could see my mental health records. She had them for me in our next session. Guess what we both discovered. There in black and white, the words "BIPOLAR DISORDER." Funny thing about that. As the news filtered in on this diagnosis, I was informed by my therapist, that my former therapists & my present at the time psychiatrist [I have since fired her], told her I wasn't to have known about my Bipolar diagnosis. They thought I might become obsessed with trying to read too much about what it was and is. Now, tell me, is that insane or am I insane? I think not. I am as sane as I can be. I don't know about the rest of them.
Excluding my present Doctor and Therapist, and my former PCP [Primary Care Provider] who wanted to get me on Medical Marijuana as soon as it would become available and believed me when I told her I am Bipolar. If she hadn't changed to OB-GYN, which is where I still see her, then she would have been the one okaying my prescription. But she turned me over to a fantastic new doctor for me, who sees me once a month, and listens & believes what I tell her. She trust me. Before I started seeing her and I fired my psychiatrist, I did one more round with psych meds, one of which was Wellbutrin. It was making me extremely depressed and suicidal. I asked her to prescribe a mood stabilizer, that with Bipolar, you are harming the patient if only on an SSRI. Which for years, that is all I was prescribed. So for years, not only was I not given my correct diagnosis, they had me believe I had DID or MPD, if you will, Multiple Personality Disorder. That was with me for over 21 years. One therapist had me name my alters. Another kept asking me who is out. My answer was always, I have no idea. What they were forcing on me where personalities, which I know and realize now were essentially moods my Bipolar would go into. Manic, Angry, Depressed, Suicidal, Withdrawn, Euphoric. Each had their names.
Well, I finally told my psychiatrist I was through with the psych meds. I didn't want to take them any longer. They were doing nothing but making me suicidal and causing me to gain weight. Also, I was tired of the lies. I fired her under the auspices of I wasn't taking any of her psych meds so she could better use the time for someone who was in need of her time. The real reason was I was tired of arguing with her about what was going on inside my head. She wouldn't admit I was Bipolar. She lived the lie. I think she feared I could have sued for years of malpractice. Treating me with the wrong meds which made me more suicidal. Being part of a conspiracy to keep me from the truth. A cover-up that was admitted to my present therapist. They even asked her to remove any mention of my Bipolar from any entries she made in my mental health chart.
A bit of a rant and setting my record correctly.
Now for the main reason I am updating my Bipolar page. I received on Monday, the 16th of December, a letter from the Marijuana Registry of my state, enclosed within the envelop was my license to legally buy and/or grow Medical Marijuana. I have made arrangements to obtain my first purchase of Medical Marijuana. I cannot believe I am actually saying this, but I can actually buy Marijuana/Cannabis legally. Key word here is LEGALLY. I CAN LEGALLY BUY OR GROWN MARIJUANA. I CAN SMOKE IT OR EAT IT IN THE COMFORT OF MY OWN HOME. There are, of course, restrictions. I cannot smoke in public. I need to carry it in a locked box whenever I transport it. I cannot drive when I am under the influence. A few that DNA to me. There are a few more. But as my partner said, this could all be mute if the US Government makes Marijuana legal in all states and commonwealths of the USA. My state is bringing legalization before the legislature in 2014 to legalize Marijuana/Cannabis.
I have not consumed Marijuana in a smoked &/or natural form since 1990, February. I did use a chemically made THC in the form of Marinol while I was undergoing Chemotherapy and Radiation Therapy in 2007. But then I could not keep jello or ginger ale down. I still have those symptoms left over today. Nausea and the list is endless. It is why I qualify.
Many others who should qualify but don't, it really is fucked up and totally sucks. I should have been able to have this license ages ago. If I knew then what I know now, I could have been feeling a lot better than I have been feeling for years.
Oh, I forgot to tell you about the weight gain. Since I stopped taking the psych meds that were slowly poisoning me, I have lost over 135 pounds. I have a set goal I would like to reach. In order to do that I want to lose a certain number of pounds more. But I don't want to do it b/c I can't eat. I have no appetite. I forget to eat. I have no desire for food. It is like I felt when I was doing chemo. Food makes my body feel sick. It causes me pain. My partner watched me make a sandwich in the early afternoon, even though preparing food makes me feel violently ill, I push myself to do it anyway. Well, I took the sandwich with me to the living room. I had wrapped it in plastic wrap. I placed it next to me. Later on, after she had finished work for the day. I started actually thinking about what I might ask her to make for dinner. Before I could say anything, she asked me if I had eaten yet today. I thought for a moment and told her I had forgotten. I saw my sandwich and I realized I hadn't eaten it. It totally slipped my mind. And I didn't even feel hungry or that I missed it.
It is the way I feel most of the time. Totally absentminded about food. I have no desire to eat. In fact, I was going to have a snack. I see it is still on a plate right next to me. A tangerine, small, some butter crackers and some cream cheese. Not even a reach for it. All but forgotten. The Medical Marijuana is suppose to help me with this, also.
I have had 4 surgeries in the past 14 mos. The most recent was less than a month ago. That one was suppose to help with what might have been causing the lack of an appetite. Not much has change. I still get nausea. Someone told me a few days ago, that it takes a year to recover from having surgery. So four surgeries should take a little bit longer.
I am excited about my license. Having a photograph taken for my MM license wasn't so bad. My partner is a great photographer and artist in many fields, especially, in writing. But she is an expansive artist. I must have had a feeling about needing a photo ID this year b/c for my birthday I had, for the first time, had a photo ID made of my Driver's License. I think all the weight loss made a difference. I was always skinny. Way too skinny sometimes but then I use to dance all night, every night and either sleep some during the day or grab a nap and work the rest of the day. Dancing was great for my body. But I screwed that up when I managed to be in multiple car crashes. Three serious ones within a twelve month time period. Broken bones, hospital stays, broken necks, and losing someone I loved, to death.
My life has been a mad one. Sanity does not run in my family. I am the sanest member. And I have Bipolar. It could be I or II or Unspecified. I have rapid cycling, mixed states. I drive my partner mad when I get into a manic state. Fortunately for me I haven't been feeling suicidal, knock on wood. But then my life has been going through some radical changes and who has time to slow down. I need to be manic at the moment. It's the only energy I can find. I do need sleep. Soon, I will have the starting of a new course, with Medical Marijuana, I am encouraged, so is my partner, that we will all get a little relaxation from my new course of meds. There are a few in my present regiment that I will slowly be able to wean from my body needing them. It is expensive but it will be worth the hoped for changes that will occur. I feel there will be many good changes. I will have many people who will be helping me readjust and figure what I need. And I will do my best to make it work the way I feel in my head and heart that it will succeed. Many are on my side wishing and praying I will feel better from my new medication of Medical Marijuana. There are still a few people I need to write to this week to let them know my news. I am taking it slow. Don't want to get ahead of myself and too manic over the changes before they happen.
This is good news. Not just for me. If I can get a new feeling in my life, it is possible the world is changing. For many yesterdays ago, I never would have dreamt this would all be possible for me.
My partner bought me a new golden pipe to use for my new Medical Marijuana. She felt it will fit comfortably in my hand. I have pain in my hands so this is a very important gesture coming from her. She is delighted by all the prospects ahead. Especially, when I get into a manic state, she knows now I may have something that will give her peace as well as my receiving it, also.
Let us see what will come. I will write more on this as I feel I have something to share.
Jennifer JkM
On controlling mood states
Feelings of Relaxation
Eliminating Stress
All of these I need to rediscover for myself. When I was in a weakened state caused by chemo & radiation [5 yr ago], I was given a prescription for Marinol. It is chemically produced THC, a derivative of the cannabis/marijuana plant. Taking it, made it possible for me to develop an appetite & to be able to relax enough to feel comfortable. Meditation & Medicinal Marijuana, I feel, if I used them now, it may be an aid to what is wrong with my body. I have no appetite & food makes me feel sick eating it & just thinking about it. Stress is a significant factor & an aversion to food is becoming my mind & body reactions.
All internal systems have been checked out medically & nothing has been found to cause the phenomena my body it taking me through.
Being in a depressed state may also be a factor. For a long time I was mostly feeling manic with intervals where I would fall into a deep depression. I worked my way out of depressions my writing and creating in any way I felt worked. I do this while in both manic & depressed mood.
I feel a great deal of stress & need to de-stress & get more sleep. I often forget to sleep, eat or take my health meds. Bipolar highs and lows can lead one to forget to take proper care and attention to some of the rather important necessities of my life.
Now I am going through an inability to eat properly. I get nauseous when I eat & when I prepare foods, I have extreme panic attacks. Heart pounding, nausea, unable to breath, pain in my chest, feeling like there is no oxygen. In this state I need to sit down several times & lower my head. It is disconcerting & I usually end up not being able to eat whatever I prepare &/or my partner finishes preparing my food. I have such a strong urge to get out of the kitchen. It has developed into a phobia. Short, quick visits are almost bearable. But if I exceed the time limit, I panic. My irritability level rises & things start falling, myself included.
If I reflect on it, my therapist stated, emotions would flare up with memories related to my childhood. Food was a punishment & often it meant spending great lengths of time alone in the middle of the night in the kitchen, with the horrible food I was being made to eat that made me feel nauseous, placed in front of me. I was exhausted & the thought of putting this food in my mouth made me feel sick to my stomach. I wanted to be any place but there. I hated her cooking & I hated what she forced me to eat. Eventually, I would have to find a place to throw it away or I had to swallow it.
Even with this knowledge, the memory is stuck & I don't last long being in our new kitchen, even though I love how we had it redesigned. I do certain chores but I get exasperated looking for the food & preparing it. But the hardest part is in the eating of anything, anyone prepares. I make something & wrap it up & forget about it. I place it near me, in the living room, where I work writing & creating & spend most of my time. It is the center of my life. It is the only room I feel secure in & safe.
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The living room is where I do most everything. I work on 'the secret keeper.' It is where I am inspired & connect with my many projects: two screenplays, my poetry, my new novel "Private Writings…," at the moment, I am about to write Chapter #31 & post it on this blog. It is taken from a memoir I am fictionalizing, which spans a five year period in my life. This time had a profound effect on me, in a metaphysical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual way. It brought my return to the arts, writing, fiction, poetry and the visual arts of digitally expressed abstract art, photography and short film making.
The need in me to express myself creatively in any media is part of my dreams. When I was younger, I felt I had to choose either/or to paint or take photographs, to write or create music. Photography & digital art are the newest forms I am using to express my creativity. I've had these mediums in my mind for quite a while. I, also, want to return to the creating of collages. They inspire me immensely. Somewhere deep inside, when I see images, I know there is something magical about certain one. Someday, I will need them. There is a profoundness that awakens within.
All of this has to do with reconnecting with my memories through feelings and thoughts buried within me. There is a strong need to connect with my subconscious. To retrieve visions from the unconscious all that is hidden from conscious awareness. My muse helps me work on my screenplay which relates to experiences that have profoundly touched my life. It is time to exorcise daemons [always time to rid one's self of daemons]. An almost impossible feat, I want to clearly understand what I feel and think. To make clear decisions about my future. There are many answers I seek. Some for my writing & others regarding my personal life.
I have decisions to make in reference to my writing. In my screenplay, there is an answer revealed to me, but I want to write the story out to see if that really is the intended conclusion. It, actually, would have a profound effect on the future as I see it now & as I see what it could become.
Centering one's self is important, no matter what one does. I enjoy the collaborations I have with my muse. We work great together. Being relaxed & rested makes it clearer to make the connection. The more energy inside one's mind, body & spirit, the more easily the tension melts & the more receptive one can be in receiving & giving of creative energies.
When writing, thoughts would travel through my mind but I would just try not to attach myself to any of them. Just let them be free. I would begin to create & let the words almost fall unto the page. And if doing visual arts, let the images express themselves freely. Once what needs to be released is finished for the moment. I let it rest. Return to it later. It gives me time to rest. I move onto something else for as long as I need. When I come back to check what was written, it is with clearer vision, I can see what is there. At that time, I am more able to sense what needs to be done to mold it into something more complete. The clay is before me, I just need to infuse myself into it & make it my own. The same is true for visual images. The creation isn't complete until you feel your energy within the image.
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I relax in order to bring my bipolar under a reasonable level of control. I won't take the toxic medications that are prescribed today. If someday the government changes its mind and allows marijuana to be used with all of its medicinal properties, one of which is in assisting bipolar treatments and a plethora of other treatments. I would consider using a medication such as medicinal marijuana for the treatment of my mood swings and racing thoughts, my highs and lows, my delusions [perception I feel are real when they are not real]. The true reality is not that way at all. I question the delusional / irrational thoughts I felt I was having & now feel they may not have been delusional at all but a psychic perception not yet revealed in perceived time.
I am actually questioning whether there were any delusions at all. In probability, it could have been someone fucking with my mind & feelings. My perception were actually receiving quite well what was really going on & the feeling I was being irrational was to confuse me.
Being Bipolar is the brain having a backfire. I do need something to help correct the bad connection. That is why my own doctor is trying to help me to work with the government in my state to try to push this issue forward. She actually can see the benefits of marijuana for my treatments for bipolar, chronic pain, anxieties and all sorts of other physical and psychological issues that I am dealing with. My state does issue Licenses for Cannabis / Marijuana. It is $50.00 per year & an ounce of pot is $300.00, which to me is expensive. I need to get seeds & grow the permitted amount. [Something to discuss with my Doctor the next time I see her].
Having a support system is extremely important. I have been working on building mine a bit strong. I have my creative activity which I do mostly alone. This time I need, want, & enjoy immensely. A necessity for my live to feel alive.
I have psychotherapy to help with the bipolar & discussing a great many needed issues, plus we laugh a great deal. My psychotherapist & I have a great deal in common, so it is easy to talk to her about almost anything. The harder subjects, I tend to write out & read to her, then we discuss them.
I see my main Doctor once a month & I see specialty doctors for various treatments. My weekly visits to see my Chiropractor keeps my body organized, and we talk about many thing. He is a poet & we connect very easily.
I have my friends, parts of my family and my partner, all part of my support system and theirs, quite willingly. J.K. the secret keeper…Namaste!
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BENEFITS of MEDICAL MARIJUANA
Complete List of Conditions Treatable With Marijuana
Check out the articles below to learn about how medical marijuana can be useful in treating specific medical conditions. Help to find the best ways to ingest medical marijuana to treat your condition, what strains will be most beneficial and even help you connect with other folks with the same condition.
For further Conditions that Medical Marijuana Treat check the link posted just below this paragraph. This list are conditions I need Medicinal Marijuana to treat. Go to the following link for the list with further conditions that Medical Marijuana Treats. http://medicalmarijuana.com/treatments-with-medical-marijuana-cannabis
The following is the main reason I want to receive Medical Marijuana Treatments.
***Acute Gastritis ***Anorexia ***Arthritis ***Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) ***Back Pain ***Bipolar Disorder ***Carpal Tunnel Syndrome ***Chronic Pain ***Depression ***Diabetes ***GastroEsophgeal Reflux Disease ***Insomnia ***I.B.S. ***Macular Degeneration ***Migraines ***Motion Sickness ***Muscle Spasms ***Nausea ***Nightmares ***Panic Attacks ***Panic Disorder ***Peptic Ulcer ***(Complex) Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ***Thoracic Outlet Syndrome ***Sleep Disorders
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Bipolar Disorder–Medical Marijuana for Symptom Relief
Signs and symptoms
Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people experience abnormally elevated (manic or hypomanic) and, in many cases, abnormally depressed states for periods in a way that interferes with functioning. Not everyone's symptoms are the same, and there is no simple physiological test to confirm the disorder. Bipolar disorder can appear to be unipolar depression. Diagnosing bipolar disorder is often difficult, even for mental health professionals. What distinguishes bipolar disorder from unipolar depression is that the affected person experiences states of mania and depression. Often bipolar is inconsistent among patients because some people feel depressed more often than not and experience little mania whereas others experience predominantly manic symptoms. Additionally, the younger the age of onset—bipolar disorder starts in childhood or early adulthood in most patients—the more likely the first few episodes are to be depression. Because a bipolar diagnosis requires a manic or hypomanic episode, many patients are initially diagnosed and treated as having major depression.
Depressive episode
Signs and symptoms of the depressive phase of bipolar disorder include persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt, anger, isolation, or hopelessness; disturbances in sleep and appetite; fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyable activities; problems concentrating; loneliness, self-loathing, apathy or indifference; depersonalization; loss of interest in sexual activity; shyness or social anxiety; irritability, chronic pain (with or without a known cause); lack of motivation; and morbid suicidal ideation. In severe cases, the individual may become psychotic, a condition also known as severe bipolar depression with psychotic features. These symptoms include delusions or, less commonly, hallucinations, usually unpleasant. A major depressive episode persists for at least two weeks, and may continue for over six months if left untreated.
Manic episode
Mania is the signature characteristic of bipolar disorder and depending on its severity is how the disorder is classified. Mania is generally characterized by a distinct period of an elevated mood, which can take the form of euphoria. People commonly experience an increase in energy and a decreased need for sleep, with many often getting as little as 3 or 4 hours of sleep per night, while others can go days without sleeping. A person may exhibit pressured speech, with thoughts experienced as racing. Attention span is low, and a person in a manic state may be easily distracted. Judgment may become impaired, and sufferers may go on spending sprees or engage in behavior that is quite abnormal for them. They may indulge in substance abuse, particularly alcohol or other depressants, cocaine or other stimulants, or sleeping pills. Their behavior may become aggressive, intolerant, or intrusive. People may feel out of control or unstoppable, or as if they have been "chosen" and are "on a special mission" or have other grandiose or delusional ideas. Sexual drive may increase. At more extreme phases of bipolar I, a person in a manic state can begin to experience psychosis or a break with reality, where thinking is affected along with mood. Some people in a manic state experience severe anxiety and are very irritable (to the point of rage), while others are euphoric and grandiose.
Medical Marijuana and Bipolar Disorder
Psychotherapy is aimed at alleviating core symptoms, recognizing episode triggers, reducing negative expressed emotion in relationships, recognizing prodromal symptoms before full-blown recurrence, and practicing the factors that lead to maintenance of remission. Cognitive behavioral therapy, family-focused therapy, and psychoeducation have the most evidence for efficacy in regard to relapse prevention, while interpersonal and social rhythm therapy and cognitive-behavioral therapy appear the most effective in regard to residual depressive symptoms. Most studies have been based only on bipolar I, however, and treatment during the acute phase can be a particular challenge. Some clinicians emphasize the need to talk with individuals experiencing mania, to develop a therapeutic alliance in support of recovery.
Bipolar disorder can cause suicidal ideation that leads to suicidal attempts. One out of 3 people with bipolar disorder report past attempts of suicide or complete it, and the annual average suicide rate is (0.4%), which is 10 to 20 times that of the general population. The standardized mortality ratio from suicide in BD is between 18 and 25 years of age.
Bipolar disorder involves periods of elevated or irritable mood (mania), alternating with periods of depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very abrupt.
The manic phase may last from days to months and can include the following symptoms:
Agitation or irritation
Inflated self-esteem (delusions of grandeur, false beliefs in special abilities)
Little need for sleep
Noticeably elevated mood
Increased energy
Lack of self-control
Racing thoughts
Over-involvement in activities
Poor temper control
Reckless behavior
Binge eating, drinking, and/or drug use
Impaired judgment
Sexual promiscuity
Spending sprees
Tendency to be easily distracted
These symptoms of mania are seen with bipolar disorder I.
In people with bipolar disorder II, hypomanic episodes involve similar symptoms that are less intense.
The depressed phase of both types of bipolar disorder includes the following symptoms:
Daily low mood
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
Eating disturbances
Loss of appetite and weight loss
Overeating and weight gain
Fatigue or listlessness
Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness and/or guilt
Loss of self-esteem
Persistent sadness
Persistent thoughts of death
Sleep disturbances
Excessive sleepiness
Inability to sleep
Suicidal thoughts
Withdrawal from activities that were once enjoyed
Withdrawal from friends
There is a high risk of suicide with bipolar disorder. While in phase, patients may abuse either alcohol or other substances, which can make the symptoms worse.
Sometimes there is an overlap between the two phases. Manic and depressive symptoms may occur together or quickly one after the other in what is called a mixed state.
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Getting enough sleep is extremely important in bipolar disorder, because a lack of sleep can trigger a manic episode. Psychotherapy may be a useful option during the depressive phase. Joining a support group may be particularly helpful for bipolar disorder patients and their loved ones.
A patient with bipolar disorder cannot always reliably tell the doctor about the state of the illness. Patients often have difficulty recognizing their own manic symptoms.
Mood variations in bipolar disorder are not predictable, so it is sometimes difficult to tell whether a patient is responding to treatment or naturally emerging from a bipolar phase.
Suicide is a very real risk during both mania and depression. Suicidal thoughts, ideas, and gestures in people with bipolar affective disorder require immediate emergency attention.
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Calling your health care provider
Call your health provider or an emergency number right way if:
You are having thoughts of death or suicide
You are experiencing severe symptoms of depression or mania
You have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and your symptoms have returned or you are having any new symptoms.
When broadly defined four percent of people experience bipolar at some point in their life. The lifetime prevalence of bipolar disorder type I, which includes at least a lifetime manic episode, has generally been estimated at two percent. It is equally prevalent in men and women and found across all cultures and ethnic groups.
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Medical Marijuana (Cannabinoids) Relieve Bipolar Symptoms: Follow physicians suggestions, then with help from family members, try medical marijuana for symptom relief:
• appetite stimulant (Sativa's)
• mood elevators (Sativa's)
• fatigue (Sativa's)
• sleep disturbances (Indica's)
• hyperactivity (Indica's)
• mania (Indica's)
• focus (Sativa's)
Look for strains with higher CBD-Cannabidiol levels. Sativa's have higher CBD levels than Indica's. Hashish has highest amounts of CBD's. "Durban Poison" has higher CBD levels.
These are videos & Soundclouds I've listened to while letting my mind settle down into a state of meditation. Thoughts would travel through my mind. I would try not to attach myself to them. Let them go. When I felt my self drifting back to engaging in thought I would start to listen to my breathing. It would guide me back on track letting go of thoughts and feelings. I would drift to a place I would be free from this space called reality. I work on letting go the sensations of my body distracting me. Keep letting go. Whenever reality returned I would go back to my breathing. Breathing is the focus leading you into the release from the world. Without realizing I am not with my body and mind. I have floated onto a different plane of consciousness. I am not in conscious awareness of the release. It is a state of being set free from all physical connections with the body and mind.
The videos and Soundcloud are soothing to work with. Listening will help bring us into a state of relaxation so that we are able to let go into your meditation. The contemplation is the act of meditation. Focusing on one thing so that all else slides away. In this instance we contemplate on breathing to take us into a meditative state. Sit comfortably. Whatever feels good. Let the world slip into another realm away from that which we are seeking to find. A place where we are able to let pass away our awareness. One word for this attainment is Nirvana. Sometimes reachable but also elusive as a butterfly. Sometimes the relaxation of the meditation drops us off into such a relaxed state we actually drift into a deep and restful sleep. Which is a perfectly fine end to the crescendo of meditation.
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Meditation Update 3.17.14 St. Patrick Day
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Sound of Rain – Perfect for Meditation
Sleep Aid Tech Meditation
Sound of Rain without Music
Tibetan Flute-Deep Tibetan Music Artist Richard Wagner-"Sunrise"
Pineal Gland Activator [very psychedelic]
Yoga Meditation Indian Drone with Ocean Waves Sound Music Video Relaxation Devanagari Tambura
Meditation and Contemplation
By Jennifer Kiley
After traveling backwards through my blog, viewing each post, reviewing and updating it has led me to a place of remembrance and inspiration. It has awakened glimpses of memories that I might reconnect with through feelings and thoughts that are buried oh so carefully within me. It is time for me to go inward through meditation and contemplation to retrieve from my subconscious and unconscious all that is hidden from my conscious awareness, so that I might proceed to access the assistance of my muse while I go forth in the work I am attempting to do in the creation of a screenplay that relates in many ways to the experiences that have touched my life.
The page I create, I hope to use as a place to find those videos that I have worked with in the past while I meditated. This is an experiment that I am hopeful will work in centering me each day prior to my entering into a collaboration with my muse in our work together. The first of the meditations start at the top of the page with new inclusions on down the page to known videos. Namaste…
Chanting OM by MUSIC FOR DEEP MEDITATION
Chanting Om II – Splendour of Yoga
Chanting Om II – Meditation Music
Chanting Om II – Meditation on the 7 Chakras
Air – Paul Collier – Relaxing Music
Smoothing Meditation Music – Paul Collier
No Mind – Piano – Paul Collier
Self Esteem Affirmations with Music – Paul Collier
Sounds of Rain and Thunder on the River
Relaxing Rain on a Metal Roof – 1 hour
These are videos & Soundclouds I've listened to while letting my mind settle down into a state of meditation. Thoughts would travel through my mind. I would try not to attach myself to them. Let them go. When I felt my self drifting back to engaging in thought I would start to listen to my breathing. It would guide me back on track letting go of thoughts and feelings. I would drift to a place I would be free from this space called reality. I work on letting go the sensations of my body distracting me. Keep letting go. Whenever reality returned I would go back to my breathing. Breathing is the focus leading you into the release from the world. Without realizing I am not with my body and mind. I have floated onto a different plane of consciousness. I am not in conscious awareness of the release. It is a state of being set free from all physical connections with the body and mind.
The videos and Soundcloud are soothing to work with. Listening will help bring us into a state of relaxation so that we are able to let go into your meditation. The contemplation is the act of meditation. Focusing on one thing so that all else slides away. In this instance we contemplate on breathing to take us into a meditative state. Sit comfortably. Whatever feels good. Let the world slip into another realm away from that which we are seeking to find. A place where we are able to let pass away our awareness. One word for this attainment is Nirvana. Sometimes reachable but also elusive as a butterfly. Sometimes the relaxation of the meditation drops us off into such a relaxed state we actually drift into a deep and restful sleep. Which is a perfectly fine end to the crescendo of meditation.
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Meditation Update 3.17.14 St. Patrick Day
created by jennifer kiley / Jk the secret keeper/j. kiley
A Declaration
by Jennifer Kiley
Jk the secret keeper
Musical Muse
You're an Inspiration
Dreams of Intoxication
Down the path to Exaltation
On to Equivocation
In Through the Mirror
We Are Heading
To a Place of Flirtation
Revealing Truths
Through Enunciation
Setting Us Free
Through Proclamation
Facing Shyness
The Acclamation
The Truth Has Been Spoken
Through Reclamation
I am born through
With Support
Of My Friends
I Sing Loud With
Great Appreciation
© jennifer kiley 2013
I'm Still Here – Elaine Stritch
You Are Not Alone – Michael Jackson
David Gilmour – Coming Back To Life
Land of Make Believe – Chuck Mangione ft Esther Satterfield
Apres un Reve
Flower Song
Michael W. Smith — Let It Rain + Agnus Dei
Romeo and Juliet — Leo DiCaprio / Claire Danes — My Baby You sung by Marc Anthony
a la carte
A La Carte is an assignment from my psychotherapist. Food doesn't especially agree with me at the moment. My appetite is non-existent. What I am to do with this page is post individual food presentations which if looked at long enough will trigger something inside my mind and/or body to be draw to food, and just maybe set off a desire to want to consume something, to satisfy my need for nutrition, in order to prevent my body from slowly shutting down. Unfortunately, I am teetering on this precipice presently, and it is becoming more serious all the time. Anyone who has a suggestion for a particular singular food temptation, please leave a message in the comments. If you happen to have a link to an image of this delicious looking morsel, please feel free to leave it with your comment. If it strikes my appetite, I will post on this page with credit to anyone who contributes, if you wish and if not I will just say it was from anonymous. I appreciate any suggestions that will help to reawaken my desire to eat again. Thank you, sincerely, Jennifer JkM
The first Food that came to mind after I thought about my psychotherapist's assignment. Sticky Buns. Brown sugar & melted white frosting. Warm.
Cheesecake is a favorite for Shawn's Birthday, but delicious anytime. I just love Blueberries.
Favorite All Time Meal. Prefer Shawn's Turkey Cheeseburger & Fries. Following that a Whooper w/ Cheese hold the pickles. No Fries. Mickey D Vanilla Milkshake.
Discovered Lobster at my 22nd Birthday Party in a Grand Sea Food Restaurant in CT. It was on the water, in the middle of Summer. My Sister & Brother-in-law treated me.


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Jimmy Butler played all but two minutes in the Bulls' win over Detroit Wednesday. And Luol Deng's understudy filled up the stat sheet: 18 points (6-14 FG, 5-6 FT), a 3-pointer, nine rebounds, four assists, a steal and a block. With Deng out with a hamstring injury, Butler has taken advantage of the extra play time: January 21: 10 points (4-10 FG, 2-2 FT), eight rebounds, four assists and a steal in 43 minutes. January 19: 18 points (5-13 FG, 8-8 FT), eight rebounds, three assists and three steals in 48 minutes. Butler is proving that he's worth a spot start while Deng is out. And I wonder if he'll take some of Rip Hamilton's minutes when Deng returns. Photo via Jimmy Butler's Twitter.
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How do you examine the source code for a library you are using and want to modify.
Eg. when you have downloaded a gem, I guess that you are forking the repo from GitHub and then cloning your forked repo.
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Which one are you examining to understand the source code?
Apparently you have to modify the local repo's source code through your IDE/text editor. So maybe that one is better than browsing from GitHub.
Do you also read the online API doc at rdoc.info since the comments now are parsed and displayed nicely?
Tell me how your process is, in detail, cause it's a difficult skill to learn for beginners like me.


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Contact InfoARC Pflugerville - Family Medicine
15803 Windermere Dr., Ste 103
Pfllugerville, TX 78660
Phone: (512) 989-2680
Fax: (512) 406-7339
Year Joined ARC: 2012
Education: B.S. in Biology, Prairie View A&M University, Prairie View, TX, 2001
Medical School: University North Texas Health Science Center, Texas College of Osteopathic Medicine, Fort Worth, TX, 2005
Residency Internship: Corpus Christi Family Practice Residency Program, Corpus Christi, TX, 2008
Certification: Board Certified in Family Medicine
Professional Positions and Honors:
- Member, ARC Executive Board
- Humanism and Excellence Teaching Award, 2007
- Founded Special Needs Support Group (SNSG) for brain-injured and mentally handicapped children, 2007
Languages Spoken: Conversational Italian
Personal Summary: Dr. Ven Huizen is married and has two small children whom she adores. When not at work, they are playing at the park or reading lots of books together.
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We have chosen some classic and contemporary poets. You should recognize some of your favorites by Robert Frost, Edna St. Vincent Millay, William Butler Yeats and of course, William Shakespeare. Contemporary poets are represented by Billy Collins, Rita Dove, Mary Oliver, Charles Simic and many more.
If you love poetry you can have a poem delivered daily to your email or through an App on your mobile device by signing up for Poem a Day from The Academy of American Poets website, POETS.org. You will never be without a poem again.
Our Teen librarian is also encouraging all aspiring young poets to enter their poems in a Teen Poetry Contest. From now until April 15th, Morristown and Morris Township residents in 6th - 8th grades are welcome to submit an original poem that is no longer than 300 words. Prizes will be awarded.
There are lots of great poetry places to know about, both real and virtual. Poets House is a library and cultural center that provides "a home for all who read or write poetry." Located in their beautiful new home in Battery Park City, the library looks out at the Hudson River and is a great place to read, think and dream poetry. They also have a full schedule of events for children and adults including readings and writing workshops.
The National Book Foundation has recently launched a Poetry Blog. The NBA Poetry Blog is a retrospective examining more than 60 years of National Book Award-winning poetry. The design features the covers of the award winners and you simply click on the book cover to be taken to the blog entry for that book. The blog provides an opportunity for a group of talented contemporary poets to comment on some of the greatest American poets and their books, with one original essay published each weekday into May, 2011.
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NYCDOE Division of Family and Community Engagement (FACE)
Saturday, October 19, 2013 from 9:00 AM to 2:00 PM (EDT)
NYC PARENT ACADEMY Learn. Share. Connect.
Parents, guardians, and caregivers are invited to attend citywide workshops that provide resources and information for families to become informed and involved partners in the educational lives of their children. View the fall NYC Parent Academy schedule here.
NYC PARENT ACADEMY: PARENT SUMMIT at DISTRICT 25
Date: Saturday, October 19, 2013.
Time: 9:30am - 2pm ( Light breakfast and lunch served)
Opening Performance by, Korea TaeKwonDo
o Understanding the Common Core Aligned Curriculum Options in District 25 Schools
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They had to win 49-21 and they
had to get a record-setting,
perfect performance from Jimmy
Clausen. After all the drama and
all the issues for Charlie Weis
and Notre Dame over the last
several weeks, they got a
cathartic performance against
Hawaii in what amounted to a
road game. While it might be
easy to grouse where the
401-yard, five passing days were
from Jimmy Clausen throughout
the season, the bigger question
becomes whether or not this has
anything to do with the 2009
season. The call has come down
from up high that Weis had
better get the Irish to the BCS,
or come darn close, or there
will be a new coaching era
starting in 2010, but all the
blowout win over a mediocre
Warrior team did was jack the
expectations back through the
roof. If the team could play
this well with a little time
off, what's it going to do with
most of the key parts returning,
and with a not-that-bad
schedule, going into next year?
Expectations are what screwed
things up in the first place.
The two BCS teams in 2005 and
2006 weren't nearly as good as
advertised and masked the
problems (lack of developed
young stars) that proved to be
such a big problem over the last
two seasons. This win showed
what Clausen and the team are
capable of, and now the trick is
to do this against Nevada on
September 5th, and more
importantly, against USC at home
on October 17th.
2. I don't get it. Was this the
real Jimmy Clausen or was it the
young quarterback that was
clearly regressing toward the
end of the regular season? The
answer will dictate how far
Notre Dame goes in 2009 and
2010. The sophomore pretty much
pitched a perfect game, going
22-of-26 for 401 yards and five
touchdown passes. For one of the
first times since choosing the
Irish over a slew of suitors,
Clausen looked like a can't-miss
prospect who'd someday contend
for All-America honors. Was it a
mirage built upon the back of a
really bad Hawaii pass defense?
Or has the light suddenly gone
on for No. 7? Welcome to a hot
offseason debate topic that
won't provide many clues before
next September. -
Richard Cirminiello
Clausen was brilliant, the pass
rush was dominant against an
awful Hawaii offensive front,
the return game was fantastic,
and the defense did what it had
to do to dominate. Going into
the off-season, Weis and his
staff have to work on one thing
above all else considering what
happened in this win: find a
running game. It's not like
Hawaii is a brick wall against
the run, allowing a mediocre 148
yards per game, but the Irish
ground game was awful all season
along and only gained 65 yards,
averaging 1.9 yards per carry,
against the Warriors. Even with
the Hawaii defense starting to
concentrate fully on stopping
Clausen, the running games
failed to find too much room to
move with Robert Hughes leading
the way with 55 yards on the
ground averaging 3.2 yards per
carry. As good as this passing
attack should be going into next
year, this team won't be good
enough to reach goals they
expect without a steady ground
4. This was, by no means, on par
with the 1971 Cotton Bowl, 1973
Sugar Bowl, or 1989 Fiesta Bowl.
Still, it was big for the Irish.
As much as any of the 68
postseason participants, Notre
Dame needed something positive
to carry it into the offseason.
Ditto Charlie Weis, the
program's beleaguered head
coach. Critics, and there are
plenty, will snicker and point
to the opponent and the event.
These days, none of that matters
to the Irish. The nine-game bowl
losing streak is over. QB Jimmy
Clausen has regained his
confidence. Notre Dame has won
its final game of the year for
just the third time in the last
15 seasons. It's a classic
scenario. If the Irish happen to
raise the bar in 2009, it'll
surely point to Wednesday's
effort in the Hawaii Bowl as a
crossroads moment.
Richard Cirminiello
Simply stated, it
would appear that Cincinnati
basically launched into
celebration mode when the Big
East champions went to Hawaii
for a very anticlimactic 13th
regular season game in early
December. The Bearcats, by
hitting the snooze bar for the
first three quarters, made the
Warriors look better than they
were. Notre Dame had a certain
amount of pressure heading into
this game, but not the quick
turnaround faced by
Cincinnati. By gaining rest, a
break from the USC finale, and
geographic separation from South
Bend, the Fighting Irish
evidently found mental
refreshment instead of stress.
There's your difference maker in
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The Janice Borla Vocal Jazz Camp and Hot Jazz-6 Cool Nites concert series celebrates its 25th anniversary July 21-27 at North Central College.
North Central College students may apply by Feb. 20 to present their original research at the College's 16th annual Rall Symposium for Undergraduate Research, which will take place during Honors Day on Tuesday, May 14.
Information about the symposium and how to submit proposals may be found on the College's website. A list of frequently asked questions also is available.
North Central College students will perform "Float," a compelling play about women forced to confront life's big issues.
Three performances of "Float" will be presented at 7:30 p.m. Jan. 17-19 in Madden Theatre at the Fine Arts Center, 171 E. Chicago Ave. Tickets are $5/adults and $3/students and senior citizens; call the North Central College Box Office at 630-637-SHOW (7469) or visit northcentralcollege.edu/showtix.
North Central College's 13th annual Self Employment in the Arts (SEA) Conference Feb. 22-23 will help aspiring artists learn to become successful entrepreneurs.
The SEA Conference provides educational resources to help aspiring artists gain entrepreneurial knowledge and skills needed to establish and maintain careers as independent artists. The conference features performances, workshops, panel discussions and other activities tailored to actors, filmmakers, musicians, painters, sculptors, writers and other artists.
Tommy Rivera-Vega debuted in the Steppenwolf Theatre production "Three Sisters," a Russian comedy-drama. He was honored to receive the opportunity to learn from Steppenwolf's Tony Award-winning director Anna D. Shapiro and seasoned Chicago actors Ora Jones and Alana Areas. "Three Sisters" ran through August 26.
North Central College students will perform Cole Porter's Tony Award-winning musical "Kiss Me, Kate" Nov. 8-11.
Six performances will be staged at 8 p.m. Nov. 8, at 7:30 p.m. Nov. 9-11 and at 2 p.m. Nov. 10-11 in North Central's Pfeiffer Hall, 310 E. Benton Ave. Tickets are $15/adults and $10/students and senior citizens; call the North Central College Box Office at 630-637-SHOW (7469) or visit northcentralcollege.edu/showtix.
North Central College students will perform "The Flu Season," a contemporary play about the pain and joy of life.
Four performances of "The Flu Season" will be presented at 7:30 p.m. Oct. 11-13 and at 2 p.m. Oct. 14 in Madden Theatre at the Fine Arts Center, 171 E. Chicago Ave. Tickets are $10/adults and $8/students and senior citizens; call the North Central College Box Office at 630-637-SHOW (7469) or visit northcentralcollege.edu/showtix.
Garrett was a veteran of the Pfeiffer Hall stage when he came to North Central. Starting at age 10, he performed in the College's summer community musicals. "When the time came for college applications, I knew I was going to North Central."
With North Central's commitment to staging multiple productions annually, Garrett landed various roles, including Rum Tum Tugger in "Cats," Nathan Detroit in "Guys and Dolls," and Sparky in "Forever Plaid." He performed in "The Producers," "Wedding Singer" and more. He also served as acting coach for "The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee."
"The personal support from the directors and constant opportunities help you become a positive, successful, more confident person."
After graduation, Garrett headed to Chicago's prestigious Steppenwolf Theatre as a performance intern and appeared in the ensemble for "Three Sisters."
Graduates of North Central College earn more income over their lifetimes than peers who graduate from most comparable schools, a new survey finds.
North Central College ranks among the top 15 percent of private, nonprofit schools in the 2011-2012 survey by Payscale.com. The mid-career median salary for North Central College graduates is $81,300, ranking No. 39 out of 303 schools in the private, nonprofit category.
North Central College prepares students to be informed,
involved, principled and productive citizens and leaders over their lifetime.


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Pimiento Cheese Dip
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The pimiento chese dip is a spicy and savory dip made with prepared mustard and pimientoes combined with mayonnaise and cheese. The pimiento cheese dip can served along with bread rolls or crakers.
|1⁄2 Cup (8 tbs)
|Pimientos with liquid
|2 Ounce (1 jar)
|Worcestershire sauce
|2 Teaspoon
|Prepared mustard
|1 Teaspoon
|Cheddar cheese cubes
|1 Cup (16 tbs)
Put first four ingredients and half the cheese into the Osterizer container, cover and process at BLEND until smooth.
Remove feeder cap and add remaining cheese.
Process at BLEND until smooth and creamy, using spatula if necessary to keep mixture flowing into processing blades.
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Laura Taylor Needlepoint Weekend
May 16-19, 2015
Laura Taylor has a background in Graphic Design and has been teaching needlepoint for 14 years at Aristeia in Los Angeles. Her design background finds its way into every canvas she works on – bringing her love of color, texture and balance to enhance her approach to the piece. She is a passionate teacher who collaborates with each student to bring out their personal best and make the most of their canvas. She is especially fond of open stitches and overdyed threads that allow the artist's vision to shine through.
Project Workshop –
Melissa Shirley's 'Pumpkin Basket'
Saturday & Sunday, May 16-17
Location: Mendakota Country Club
Cost $225/person
Canvas $198
Thread Kit additional
Class Size Limited to 15 people
Click Here to Register
2-Day Canvas Embellishment Workshop
Monday & Tuesday, May 18-19
Location: 3 Kittens Needle Arts
Bring your own canvas to get Laura's expert advice on pattern stitches and threads. Choose your canvas by September 1 so we can send Laura a copy to study ahead of time.
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Lahmadjoun (Armenian Meat Pie, Pizza)
|All purpose flour
|5 Cup (80 tbs), sifted
|Dry yeast
|1 Tablespoon
|2 Teaspoon
|Vegetable oil
|1⁄4 Cup (4 tbs)
|Lukewarm water
|1 1⁄2 Cup (24 tbs)
|Ground beef/Lamb
|2 Pound
|Green peppers
|2 , finely chopped
|1 Bunch (100 gm), finely chopped
|1 , finely chopped
|1 Clove (5 gm), crushed
|Black pepper
|1⁄2 Teaspoon
|Cayenne pepper
|1⁄4 Teaspoon
|1⁄4 Teaspoon
|1 Teaspoon
|Tomato paste
|4 Tablespoon
|Canned whole tomatoes
|28 Ounce
To Prepare Meat Filling:
Chop all vegetables very fine, or put them through the medium blade of a meat grinder.
Mix together meat, vegetables and seasonings, as well as tomato paste, whole tomatoes with juice and lemon juice.
Blend well.
To Prepare Dough:
Sift flour into large bowl.
Dissolve yeast as directed on the package, using 1 cup of the lukewarm water in recipe.
Combine dissolved yeast, remaining 1/2 cup water, oil and salt; stir and pour over flour.
Blend well and knead dough into a soft smooth dough.
Dough should be softer than bread dough.
Cover; let stand 1 or 2 hours, until double in size.
Punch down dough.
Divide into 36 to 40 balls.
Roll out each ball on a well floured board into very thin 6 to 7 inch circles.
Arrange on greased baking sheets.
Spread evenly with the meat mixture, right to the edge of the circle, and press down lightly with fingers.
Bake in a 500 degree oven for 6 to 8 minutes on a wire rack.
Stack two together and cover pies to prevent from drying.
Combine in this manner until dough and meat mixture is used.
Serve hot with tossed salad.


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Passion, excitement and an overreaching desire to help others in the community. If you don't immediately associate those qualities with today's teenagers, you might want to think again.
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This relatively new term achieved widespread publicity as a result of the first Microcredit Summit held in Washington in early February. Microcredit is the name given to small loans made to very poor people who would normally be regarded as bad financial risks and so be unable to obtain funds through conventional banks (some economists call this the capital gap). Though still a long way from the financial mainstream, many governments now see microcredit as an effective way to build up local enterprise and reduce unemployment; they include not only countries like Bangladesh, where the Grameen Bank has been a pioneer, but also industrialised areas such as North America and Australia, where microcredit meets special needs. It is generally agreed that women should be the prime recipients of loans, as they are better risks than men and the loans have greater impact. The World Bank has issued a number of papers on the subject and has set minimum standards of reporting from microcredit institutions. Another term for this technique is informal credit and the lenders have been called barefoot banks by analogy to Chinese barefoot doctors. The term has been joined in recent years by others beginning in micro- that relate to aspects of the process: microbusiness, microenterprise, microfinance, microlender, and microbank.
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Barbara W. Tuchman achieved prominence as a historian with "The Zimmermann Telegram "and international fame with "The Guns of August," which won the Pulitzer Prize. There followed five more books: "The Proud Tower," "Stilwell and the American Experience in China" (also awarded the Pulitzer Prize), "A Distant Mirror," "Practicing History," and "The March of Folly," "The First Salute" was Mrs. Tuchman's last book before her death in February 1989.
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Wanda McCaddon has narrated well over six hundred titles for major audio publishers and has earned more than twenty-five Earphones Awards from "AudioFile" magazine. She has also won a coveted Audie Award, and "AudioFile" has named her one of recording's Golden Voices.


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