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The four of us were over sixty, and perhaps over the hill as
well, but we were happily sitting around the blazing fire keeping
our fronts toasted even if our backs were feeling the winter chill.
The sigh of the breeze that stirred the she oaks made even the
strongest of us pensive. We were out for the weekend and to cut a load of firewood
each. Our camp was on Oakey Creek, a tributary to the My little dog worked on everyone with the same sad look,
assuring them that she never got a square meal at home. I did
mention that it was cold didn't I? You would surely not think a
glass or two, to keep out the cold, a crime, would you? It was
Friday, and quite legitimate to pass chocolate around with port
after our repast. We threw more wood on the fire turned up our coat
collars and settled into our chairs. Scorpio shone in the sky, the
Cross-mostly obliterated by the trees. "It's a great way to spend a Friday!" I
said. "Great way to spend any day." My dog curled up in a little ball under my chair with a sigh,
she could tell it was going to be a long time before I spread my
jumper on the ground beside my swag for her to sleep
on. "It's Friday the Thirteenth you know, there may be a few
ghosts stirring up in the old shale workings." "What a load of bullshit, superstitious
claptrap." "My Dad worked on the ships, all his life. They sure believed
in it. Never go to sea on Friday the Thirteenth! Dad used to reel
off wreck after wreck of ships that left port on Friday the
thirteenth." There was a snort of derision. "Speaking of port." I
said, reaching for the bottle. "I remember Uncle Jack talking about the depression days and
he and a mate bought an old Chev Four for five pounds and went up to
Lightning Ridge looking for opals, 'cause there was no work in the
city. They left on a Friday the thirteenth, got thirteen punctures
before they got to the Ridge. Stuck it out for six months and only
found one little stone. Uncle Jack gave it to me Mum as a wedding
present. Opals are supposed to be unlucky. Me Dad was killed only a
few months later. Uncle Jack was as close to a father as I
remember." We were quiet for a while and he drew hard on his
pipe. I broke the silence. "I used to contract to a public housing authority, did all
sorts of jobs, concreting, clearing, fencing, odds and ends but
quite a bit of tree lopping. They had an office in One Friday, and I think it was a thirteenth, I was leaving the office when the
District Manager called to me from his office. `Hey, Ivor I want
you.' It was the first time I had had reason to walk up the passage
but I felt the carpet got plusher as I walked along. His office was
large; timber desk, not laminex like the ones in the maintenance
dept, his window had an expansive view, the chairs were commodious,
not that I got to sit in one. "You still haven't quoted on that tree in Katoomba." He
looked at me accusingly. I visualised the tree, dead and rotten in places, several
green limbs overhanging the house, something I really didn't want to
handle. "It's bad, " was all I could
say. "You never said that about the one you put in the policeman's
bedroom" he replied tartly. "No, I said, but I'm not popular with the insurance company
any more, they reckon I have only one more 'life' with
them." He became a little more direct in his
attitude. "Look it's got to be done. I've a Ministerial on
it." Ministerials came from Parliament House. Tenants who thought
they were getting nowhere with the organisation would sometimes have
the effrontery to contact their local member, who'd talk to the
Housing Minister and he would vent his displeasure on the District
Manager for not having the matter solved. They were not treated
lightly. "I'd need a hundred quid and costs for dropping the power
lines and telephone service." I said cautiously. (I was paying a
labourer twenty pounds a week at the time.) He looked out the
window, considered a moment, "Okay, be as quick as you can." As I
walked down the passage I counted the doors, thirteen counting the
toilets and the cleaners' room. I arranged for the power lines to be dropped by seven thirty
one morning. The P M G people loosened their wire to let the service
lie on the ground and at about six thirty on a beautiful, cold and
frosty morning the two of us were on site. "Did you say it was cold?" asked one of my campfire
listeners. We took the necessary precautions. "Not a breath of wind, that was good, we put ropes in the
tree, we pulled up the fence posts and laid the rails on the ground,
we put a billet of wood on either side of the water meter in case
anything hard should fall on it. Everything going great, seven
fifteen and the Electricity Authority truck drove up, I knew the
charge hand from the Ski club but I hadn't known where he worked.
Ladders went up the power pole, one of
their members lit a fire on the wide, bare nature strip and put the
billy on. Wires dropped to the ground and were coiled away neatly. I
was going to tie the guide rope to a tree but our mate from the
Electricity Authority said they would give it a pull with their
truck. Seven twenty five and we were ready to go. The chain saw
roared and I put two deep 'V' cuts into the trunk, the way I wanted
it to fall, and then broke out the wedge shaped scarf. They took up
pressure on the rope with the truck and I cut at the back of the
tree, I saw the gap open as the tree started its fall. I cut the
motor and the tree fell exactly as I had hoped. As I untied the rope the charge hand said to put the power
lines back. "Jeeze you never give us time for a cupper," the billy boiler
grizzled. They had the power service back in time for us to hear the
seven thirty news come on, from the radio in the
house. We all stood round the fire and enjoying our drink, a young
lad came out of the house with a plate of raisin toast and said that
they had watched the tree falling from inside the bedroom
window. My mate from the Ski club said that they had been told to
stay on hand all day if necessary but supposed they had better get
back to the depot. "We'll leave the fire, you may want to burn some of the
rubbish," was his parting comment. Ten minutes to eight. We cut the
green leafy branches and put them on the fire. Oil in them vaporised
and they burnt fiercely. We were cutting the branches into pieces
easy to load on the truck when the next door neighbour came and
asked if he could have the wood. As fast as we could cut he and his numerous kids carried it away. By nine
we'd replaced the fence posts, raked up all our mess and burned it.
Finished, and back home in Penrith by ten. "I thought this was going to be a hard luck story about
thirteen," somebody said sounding a bit
disappointed. "Oh no, I am not at all superstitious, in fact I think
thirteen is rather a lucky number." I said as I reached for the
bottle. I opened the door of the room heater and threw the book into
the fire. I adjusted the flue and we watched the pages curl and
blacken and disintegrate into ash. Young Gordon gave it a jab with
the poker. "I suggest you go straight home and don't talk to anybody
about it." Gordon gave me a grateful smile and put his hands up in mock
surrender, saying. "Don't worry I'm going straight after this." He had a grin
now, but he had had a shock. We shook hands and he
left. I watched him get into the beautifully restored Jaguar and
drive away. Gordon's dad Jimmey and I go back a long way, I had only had
my shingle out as an accountant for a few weeks when he came into my
office. He was fit and suntanned, his rough bricklayer's hands a
contrast to my soft fingers when we shook. He'd needed his tax
return done. Over the years I had helped him get established. First as a contractor in his own right, then into a well
regarded Construction Company. We'd formed a liking for each
other. Gordon's dad was now one of my prized
clients. I met him in the carpark before the Rotary meeting the other
night and had been surprised that he was driving the company's old
ute instead of his much loved and cosseted
vintage Jaguar. (A beautiful machine but a financial disaster from
an accountant's point of view, but then, he could afford it.) He
explained that he had given the car to young Gordon to go up to the
college, some hundreds of kilometres away with his final assignments
for the agricultural degree he was sitting for. "Gave
him special instructions, no speeding, no drinking and driving, no
picking up hitch hikers.
Probably wanted to cut a bit of a splash with the girlies but who
would blame him for that." So I had expected Jimmey when I saw the car in the drive and
was a little taken aback when my secretary called me, saying Gordon
Mallory would like a word. Gordon knew his way around my office. He
had done work experience stints with me and I was in fact a little
disappointed that he had decided against accountancy as a
profession. I would have liked to give him a start. He was stable,
industrious, articulate, hard working, all the things you would look
for in an employee, even a possible associate in later
days. "Something wrong?" I
asked. Gordon seemed quite out of sorts, obviously worried. He was
waving this book about, it looked a bit like a large bank deposit
book without its stiff outer covering, as he dropped it on my desk I
noticed the state insignia on the outer cover. "Where did you find this?" I asked. "Well, well you see, it was raining when I left college this
morning, more drizzle really and a cold wind blowing. I saw this
chap on the road thumbing a lift, Dad had told me not to pick up
people but it was really dirty weather to be on the roadside and I
stopped for him. Even his talking was not his usual calm slow
way. It was obvious that something was really bugging
him. "Sit down, let's have a cup of
coffee." I said, making two cups. Things were looming large in young
Gordon's mind. He was restless in the chair and rattled
on. "I felt sorry for him, I hoped Dad would understand. Anyway I
got him in the front with me and he was one of these blow hard types
who can't keep quiet. Within a minute he had told me he was just out
of the gaol that morning. `The Boob' he called it. Eighteen months
for larceny and living on immoral earnings. All
because of his dopey solicitor. Could'er done better on his
own! Then there were the screws and the tucker and the hard times
and the boredom, all the smart cars that had left him for dead in
the wet and what a great car this was and how fast would it go.
Where was I going and would I drop him off at the junction of the
south coast highway? One of his girls was setting him up with a room
down south till he could get his act together again. He just never
stopped talking. He asked again about how fast the car would go and
I told him I had promised not to speed. He gave me a despairing look
and said he liked watching the tacho needle as it went up and down
when the revs lifted. I must have let my mind wander a bit because
suddenly there was this siren in my ear and the blue light flashing
on the rear of a motor bike as it pulled along
side. "Jeeze a Blue Heeler," my passenger muttered as I pulled up.
"Think I'll stretch my legs for a bit." "He was all very formal, as police usually are. Travelling at one hundred and eighteen kilometres an
hour in a one hundred speed limit. The light was flashing and
I was shaking. He wrote out the ticket and told me about my options
of paying and what points I would loose. He went to his bike and put
the book on the seat and then came back. Going to give me the full
treatment I thought. But no, I breathed a sigh of relief as he asked
about the car. Said he and his brother were restoring a Mark V model
Jag, asked about the paint, who did the
trim for us, where we got the spoked wheels. I couldn't remember,
but then thought of the name painted on the inside rim of the spare.
We opened the boot and he looked at the name. He thanked me, and
said. "Be more careful of the speed limits in future," (as if I
needed telling) put his book in the pannier and rode off in the
other direction." "I was shaky, cranky with the pick up who was in the front
seat again, I told him to be quiet, that he had already caused me
enough trouble. "Don't worry about it mate, it's only a traffic fine. You've
got nothing to worry about, believe me!" But I hardly heard a word
he said. I just watched the road and the speedo until we got to the
place he wanted to get out. "Look mate," he said to me as he opened the door, "I can see
you're upset but take the advice of one who knows, one good turn
always deserves another. You picked me up when others didn't and I
was able to do this for you." He dropped this book on my knee. "When
the John Hop was looking in the boot of your car I whipped the guts
out of his book. He's probably having his arse burnt by the Sergeant
right now, trying to explain what happened. Couldn't happen to a
nicer bastard eh? I told yer, yer got nothing to worry about." He
shut the car door and walked away. "I didn't know what to do about it." Gordon said. "I broke
two of dad's stipulation's and look at the
trouble I was in." I closed the damper on the stove and thought what a pity I
couldn't tell anybody the story.
It must be more forgiving than a mother's heart and certainly
more tenacious than any insurance salesman. It can be as capricious
as a young girl's first love affair. It grows over the graveyard,
the deserted building site, and the battlefield. It breaks the
concrete of a seldom-used path. It hides the dropped coin. It yields
to the press of your feet and supports you when you can catch forty
winks in the park. It returns to the desert after rain. It won't
cover that patch right at the front door and still you can never get
it out of your garden. Its verdant green will rest your eye. Its
sun-baked yellow will blend into the summer sunset so you can hardly
make judgment on earth's end and sky's beginning. It ranks with the
water we drink and the air we breathe in the importance of nature's
bountiful gifts. History cannot deny that at the heart of every great surge of
exploration has been man's desire to find new fields of
exploitation, chief of which is land suitable for grass. Herds
followed and in many cases preceded the explorers. Juanita, my daughter was in charge of a single teacher school
on Mudginberri station in the Beef cattle were a tenuous proposition here, large tracts of
land were needed to raise the stock and returns were marginal at
best. However feral buffalos, descended from those imported over a
century before as beasts of burden, to plough land and produce milk
thrived in the wet conditions. Quite a number were set up but only Mudginberri prospered.
When the `Kill' was on there were upwards of one hundred men needed
in the abattoir and for the support work. Regrettably the future was not going to be kind to this
venture, for it became the focus of a bitter Management versus Union
dispute. Whilst the Juanita was having a busy time both in the school and
socially on this property, when she invited us to spend a holiday
with her. We arranged the holiday in the school break time and
Deirdre and the two boys looked forward to this as much as I
did. Before leaving work I was talking to a group over lunch and
told them of my plans. Keith our factory foreman was full of
foreboding about my plans to camp out along the road. "I mean you
just can't camp out like that, up there. I mean it's dangerous,
It really is. You hear about people being
shot on the roads up there." Just before leaving he renewed his
warnings. Juanita met us at We spent days marvelling at the magnificent rock art of the
district. Oberi Rock. Noulangi rock. We
climbed the rocky hillsides, where, with a feeling of awe and
intrusion, I found in a small rock hole, two skulls covered with red
ochre, wedged on the long bones of the legs in the traditional
manner of the natives of the area. We watched the magpie geese on a magic dawn over the
waterholes, whilst our youngsters fished from aluminium `Tinnies'
with friends of a few days. Raptors hovered over roads waiting for
movement of reptiles or insects. The tall grass yellowed as we
watched. At five o-clock, the big shed that
was Mudginberri store, became `Pub'. Sweat stained, grimy men who
had toiled from six in the morning, mechanics who kept the place
running, book-keepers, wives, men from `out the run'. Neighbours,
they were all there to catch up with the days happenings. Cold cartons of tinnies were broken open, the empties thrown
into an old drum. People drifted in, went away to shower and
returned in social dress. Singlets and stubbies, barefooted, they
slaked their thirst in a formidable manner. Smoke filled the air and
the noise grew louder. I caught snatches of the general
talk. "Pete's dorg got caught in the loading race and its jaw
broken. He's taken Sam's car to go it to the vet in "Tom bogged in the Long waterhole! Couldn't
drive a hearse in a cemetery." "Bobby Big Eyes caught a Goanna and took it down the camp,
they like that wild meat they do. Seen the bloody thing running
along a bare patch and just took off through the bush in the
"Break down on the chain line again, cut production down, not
our fault yer know, lost our bonus, bastards, we 'oughter get paid
time for breakdowns!" "Bringing in a semi of buffalos late ternight, need a couple
of blokes to help unload." "Geezes th' bloody skeeters out
there." "Wouldn't drink this piss in town but tastes all right here
yernow." "Get them dorgs outer here." "Putting the yards up out at the Black Waterhole. Big mobs
out there, be ready to start mustering day after termorrer, would
j'yer like to camp out there and have a day with the
musterers?" Above the hubbub of talk I caught these words. As I nodded he
said. "Bloody
tough bunch them musterers. Bikies
from down Jemmy took the five of us in the station ute. Away from the water lines the grass was now
dry as straw, fires were lit to destroy the top cover in the hope
that a green pick would grow for the stock. Kites by the thousands
hovered in the smoke drift, dropping on grasshoppers and small
animals as they staggered to bare patches of
ground. Much of the land was featureless to me and I was often amazed
when we came to a track and turned on towards another invisible
destination. "See the yards over there?" Jemmy pointed, but I didn't see.
It was another half-hour of rough driving before we came to the
yards. They were a steel structure, bolted together, braced with
sections of railway line, loading race, heavy sliding steel gates,
two strong wing fences made of steel and then hessian wings running
out for about one hundred metres. "You'll see how it works when you come out with us this
arvo." He drove us on till we came to a camp under a few
scrubby trees. There were four short wheel base
Toyotas. "Real good machines, these old Toys, never screwed off an
axle in one of the buggers yet." They were stripped of anything
unnecessary, heavy wide bull bars in front, roll bars, solid steel
bars on the side, driver's seat and two spare wheels for a passenger
to sit on, heavy coil of rope on the back of each, nothing
else. We met Brett and Blackie and Jazz and Teach and Gutzache the
cook. Indeterminable age, lean, scarred. In another setting they may
have been unsettling but here they had an air of confidence about
them. "Few little mobs under the trees, but a real big mob near the
swamp, hard to get between the water and them but." It was Jazz who
seemed to be the leader. "Reckon we ought to skirt right round and come up where we
seen the snake. Try and rush 'em from there." This seemed to gain
approval. "Go in half an hour, give yer time
to set up your tents. Dinner right on dark
Gutzie." One man on each vehicle, each with a passenger from my
family, endless driving through the straw-coloured grass, often tall
enough to close over the top of the vehicle, I was completely
lost. "Look at them over there under the trees." I could hardly see
the trees let alone the buffaloes. "Might pick em up as we rush the
others." I was driving with Brett. He pushed the vehicle hard through
the bush, bouncing over mounds, looping wide around the
swamp. "Gotta
keep away from the green patches. Get
bogged." They had arranged to light a fire when everyone was in
position, we slowed, threw a match into the grass, within minutes
there were four spirals of smoke and we were away. Zigzagging towards the shelter where the mob was resting,
blaring horns, in the distance I saw animals jump turn tail and
flee. Brett was muttering under his breath. "Stay in a bunch yer bastards. Hang on." we bounced over a
dry watercourse, grazed a shrub. Brett was shouting now, I could
hardly hear him. "Shit they've broken away, Come on up Jazz, Come up, some
have gone back. Christ look out." He braked savagely and went into a
slide around an ant bed, gunned the motor and was away again. There
were about fifty of them in a bunched mob, running hard, their lives
depending on getting away from the four vehicles that were herding
them along. I don't know if it was minutes or hours, it was bumps
and swerves and muttering and dust and noise. "See the wings? Gotta gun em
now." I couldn't see anything but dust. We increased our speed; the
four vehicles close behind the running animals. Some baulked and
broke away, they pushed the remainder hard. Suddenly I saw the
hessian wings and the steel yards. In headlong flight the mob was
confined by the wings and the vehicles, they charged on, headlong
into the yards, two vehicles dropped away and then one jammed into
the yard gate, the terrified buffaloes churned and tried to ram the
vehicle whilst the ground crew slammed home the gates. Wild animals
tried to climb the yard fences and fell back, horns ripped flesh,
heads were bloodied on the steel yards, there was no escape, no
compassion, it was the start of the meat
chain in all its brutality. There would be loading onto trucks and a
wait to calm their adrenalins flow at the Mudgenberri meat works,
then the stun gun and oblivion. Before dinner in the cool of the evening there was a swim in
a waterhole. Jazz sat with a loaded rifle. "No
sign of crocs here but yer never know, one mighter got
stranded." I
thought they were having us on and didn't find it a relaxing swim
but felt better afterwards. Around the fire, green branches smoking
in an attempt to keep away the insects, there were potatoes baked in
the ashes, green peas out of a tin, fresh baked bread from a camp
oven and as many servings as you wanted of fresh grilled
Barramundi. "Done good Gutzie, better'n that bloody buffalo steak last
night anyhow." "Caught 'em meself this arvo, not bad eh?" I had asked about taking beer into the camp and had been told
that a can each would be O. K. Camps were supposed to be dry. After
dessert of canned fruit I passed them round to the approval of all.
Grass of an exotic nature was shaken from plastic bags. Talk time
was of bike falls, fights in pubs, car chases, enforced `holidays'
and drinking. Their rugged faces in the firelight, eyes alert.
Tattoos showed darkly. Jazz sitting beside me, had a dagger etched
on his arm, red with blood drops and NANCY printed under it, the
knuckles on one hand spelling LOVE the other HATE. I wondered what
Keith at work would make of it, and thought of his warning. Jazz
turned to me and asked. "Where 'jer come from mate?" You've probably never heard of it, Emu Plains." I
said. He shook his head. "It's a suburb of He turned as though struck, frowning." "Yer don't live in The thought of it! Live my life over again! Do I have to?
Would I want to? Do I know then what I know now? The past again or the
future? I sat beside the fire, threw on an ironbark log. A stock take
of me at present is essential if I am to consider the
prospect. Physically, well my feet are strong and healthy as are my
legs, a bit marked by life's journey. A kick from a horse, a fall
from a bus, a football knee, cuts from a fall into a foreshore
crevasse thick with oysters, the scar of a carbuncle, but they work
well and I would be prepared to take them along with
me. I have a bit of a tummy due to weak muscles (a congenital
fault I've been told) as are my rounded shoulders, however the
rounded shoulders carry arms that are capable of holding knife and
fork and a glass, so why shouldn't the tummy be a bit rounded as
well? It's when I get to what's above the neck that I start to find
problems. Teeth, my dentist peers into his little mirror every six
months and starts to tell me about the lovely little polo pony he
has an option on or the Porsche that his son wants him to buy. As a
boy I was frightened by the pain, nowadays it's the financial pain.
The eyes have always suffered astigmatism and glasses have been my
lot. Years of working with noisy machines have caused hearing loss,
but that is par for the course. Hair is noticeable by its absence on
the head, but it's said (and it's true I am certain)'you never see
grass growing on a busy path.' When, however I study what's inside the head I start to get
alarm calls. My friend Bill Shakespeare says that `--- nothings good
or bad but thinking makes it so', and it's the thinking that needs
attention. Advances in science have found the right anti-depressant
for me, and I think, I can think clearly now! "Hey
you!" I was
sitting on my cloud trying to tune my harp, concentrating hard as my
ear for music was never very good, and was hardly paying attention
to outside influences. "Yes you, you with the beard." I suddenly saw the light and
stood in a deferential attitude, as one should before your
Deity. "I think that I will send you off for another stint on earth.
You can't make a bigger hash of it than any of the others and don't
forget I expect another report like last time but this time pay
attention to your writing lessons, I could hardly read a word of
your last one. Call on the Quartermaster for your equipment issue.
Report back in another lifetime. Any
questions? "Speaking of equipment, do you think I could have a
bigger---." Alas the light was
gone. All was quiet as I drifted down to 'stores'. I was reluctant
to give up my cloud, it was a late model, rather fashionable golden
purple with a dawn glow, had never been overdriven or caught in a
thunderstorm, had a custom built seat that had been specially
designed for me. However the recycling attendant took the key and
that was the last I saw of it. I was despondent when I fronted the
counter. "Ah, yes, Morton. Here's your bag of goodies, sign there, and
there, press hard there are four carbon copies." I looked at the
little bundle of qualities to see signs of leadership, great lover
abilities, world statesmanship, financial genius, horse breeder,
cattle baron or sportsman of renown, but as before all carefully
wrapped. I signed. "Now here's your contract, sign there." He pointed. It looked
the same as before and I turned it over, there was a mass of small
print, and I adjusted my glasses to read, then saw his pained expression, "Look here feller, ye'r not going to
be difficult are you? All standard
conditions." "But
the small print----." He had
been through this before. He grew red in the face, held me in a
fierce look and said in a hard voice. "Please, I've been flat out all day, laying out penances,
agonies, torments, rewards and ecstasies, there are two civil wars
on, it's hurricane season and the pressure on the geological fault
is causing earthquakes every day. I've never been busier, my feet
are killing me and I want to go home and have a stiff glass of holy
water before choir practice, SO SIGN THE BLOODY
THING!" I realised I was always going to be weak, signed it, and
found myself sliding down to deliveries. It would be a good time to
check on just what qualities I was to have and speculate on how I
will use them. Pity they all wrapped up tight and have opening dates. I
started to think of my options. Parents, good news, they were to be the same, I couldn't ask
for better. They would give me love and care beyond the call of
duty. Ah would I ever be able to repay them. Schooling, I will be bright this time, remember what I am
told, be neat, methodical, and I won't misspell the hundred demons,
know what twelve and a half percent of one thousand is and where to
catch the bus that connects with the boat that goes to the beach. I
won't leave my jumper in the playground, or forget to bring my lunch
wrappers home. At school I will stand up to the bullies, carefully
mixing discretion with valour, I won't, in turn victimise the
younger ones around me---. A log crashed in the fireplace and awoke me to reality; I
jabbed it with the poker and settled back in my chair. Schooldays,
`happiest days of your life', well some of them were anyway, what
about, - - what about---. Living skills, I have learnt to listen better and have the
quick wit to make the right replies. I can analyse situations and
see through people that are grinding their own axe at my expense. I
won't be influenced away from my chosen path, to be a Vet. No, not
even for that farm deal, and even if I was, I wouldn't fall for the
story of the lost mob of cattle, or wear the dump for that marketing
fiasco. I would be a good Vet. No thoughts of domination over the
beasts of the field, would be patient with
the stupidity of chooks or even sheep for that matter. Probably go
on to research and make a small mark for
discovering a treatment of skin itch in
frogs. Girl friends and marriage, well I know a few things now.
Especially that marriage contract, I'd read the small print there!
With a bit of luck my slippers would be beside the fire, and my
dressing gown would never have its sleeves rolled up, by that same
patient lovely person! Ah yes Deirdre, I would have a family, but
all of them the sort that would treat their father properly and not
run the car out of petrol, play in my workshop or tie my shoelaces
to the chair legs when I am `resting' after
dinner. Health and body, not sign of the fat belly or the rounded
shoulders. Athletic and muscular, good eyes that
are not astigmatism or need lens transplants. I would miss on
those falls from busses and horses, no football knee or
appendicitis. My dentist would check my teeth and say with a
sigh. "Nothing here, would you like me to descale them? Hardly
necessary though." Financially there would be good times; I would sell out of my
`Plutonic Internationals' right at the peak of the market. Even my
broker would congratulate me on my impeccable judgement. I thought
about my mental condition, depression would never cross my horizon.
Life this time round would be a breeze. There was the sound of a bell,
lights became bright, a sign saying `delivery room' was illuminated.
A burly bloke in front of me looked around and
said. "Hope it's better this
time." I hardly had time to say. "I'll
be happy to have the same again, though I would like to find the
anti-depressant much earlier!" when the bells sounded again and he
disappeared. The ringing was imperious. I blinked. Deirdre answered the
phone. "Ivor, oh he's asleep by the fire. I think he's
dreaming." We were drawn by the open doors, to a cool escape from the
harsh sunlight into St.Andrew's Cathedral. Light filtered through
the stained glass windows and the organ played
quietly. We sat and in that moment of meditation, I thought of the
hurried luncheon with our unhappy son. Images of
the little bay on the river and days long gone floated to my
mind. He'd been a happy carefree boy then, swimming with his
friends. The Granny, the skinny dipping Granny, dead now, I had the
honour of giving the eulogy at her funeral. Then there was the
I kneeled and gave thanks for all the luncheons I have
enjoyed. It was to have been a toast in champagne, but as we had
entered the restaurant we were welcomed with a sympathetic smile
and, "You look hot, sit there and I'll get you a glass of water
before you order." The champagne remained in the ice bag. Our water
came in a carafe, tantalisingly frosty, half full of ice cubes, the
glasses from the freezer with twists of lemon and black straws. She
came for our orders, saw we had drunk well and brought us another
carafe. Decisions were not easy, as there was temptation in all the
selections, her smile and the comment. "What excellent choices,"
filled us with confidence, as also did the plates on the other
tables and the comments from the diners made us feel we were in for
a treat. I had
corn pancakes, layered with a thick sauce of blended mustard seed
and cream, sprinkled with parmesan cheese on a bed of dark cos lettuce, it was tastefully surrounded with halves
of egg tomatoes, oven warmed in a honey marinade.
"Forty five years!" Our glasses clinked, I had parked the old truck at We had turned to the left and walked along to Leura forest,
the Lyrebird kept beckoning us with his call. A whipbird offered us
a rare glimpse as he fluttered in a tree then the path opened to the
amphitheatre like beginning of the forest floor. We had been given a cursory frisking at the gateway. I had
heard of the forger. His artistic talent had led him to being
described as `damaging the financial integrity of the whole
country'. It had been only the serial numbers that brought him
unstuck, once in prison he continued painting and so gained a
privileged status. My friend the dealer hinted at the money being
converted into acceptable prison currency, packages being delivered
nefariously and commissions being levied all along the line. The
forger's payments were a resource for both prisoners and warders
alike. "They told me you were coming sir, didn't expect you to have
a friend." It was a snowy, sleety, windy, winter's day, the `H M Prison' sign holding a rime of snow
looked threatening in the pine trees. Our road wound upwards then
the little camp came into sight, we parked and went to the
administration building, there was a closed office, a man in denim
trousers, sandshoes without socks and only a shirt, stood shivering
by the door. "I'm to take you to the mess hall Sir." He didn't look at us
and we followed. Two rows of wooden trestle tables with bench seats,
a servery behind a corrugated wall. We were beckoned to a smaller
table at the end of the room. The forger, who at least had a jumper on, shook hands with my
companion. "I have the pictures here." He placed rolled canvases on the
table and took from a satchel a bundle of photographs, matching them
to the portraits. "I really got this one," he said with pride. A
smiling youngster in school uniform was transposed from the glossy
photo to warm oils on the canvas. There were a lot of them, each one
was shown and assessed. The forger seemed dubious about some. I
thought they were bloody good and said so. The forger smiled and
looked quizzically at my companion, the dealer, who replied, "A
business associate, I brought him up for a run." A siren wailed outside and soon we heard the rattle of
motors. Through the steel meshed window I saw men get down from the
back of two trucks and form lines in the sleet. "I am sure the portraits will be OK," said the dealer "I
spell it out before I bring you the photos that they are your
impression." The forger looked relieved at my companion's
words. "You'll pay through the agency, the same way?" My
companion nodded as a bell rang. The prisoners formed a single line outside and marched to the
door and as they entered, picked up a tin plate and an enamelled
mug, walked and stood behind the benches. An officer with insignia
on his sleeve walked in, nodded to my companion, and appraised me
without acknowledgment. He stood for some time in silence and then
began calling names and ticking his ledger, then standing silent
again. They stood wet and cold at their benches whilst he indulged
his power before ringing another bell, when they sat. Complete
silence except for the clatter of their tin plates on the table. Two
men went to the servery and brought out trays, distributed a fork
and a tin of sardines to each man and two slices of bread. The
sleeve walked passed me with a smug smile and I would have gladly
kicked his balls off. "Amal Pets are on the run!" My broker used his peculiar slang
for Amalgamated Petroleum Securities over our table in a noisy,
smoky restaurant, where he and his ilk gathered. He pointed to a
selection on the wine list and the waiter hurried off. Hands were
waving, "most of them must still think they are on the trading
floor," I think. White shirts, grey suits, ties, expensive cigarette
cases, they show their teeth as they don't quite smile. "Somebody
will get bitten," I think, as they reach for their gold Parker pens
and make notes on pieces of paper. Amal Pets ran all the way to a late model Mercedes, it looked
good in the lane near the She eyed the men saying, "Every man for himself with the
wine." We agree happily each year to this though the mark up on the
bottles was a cause for discussion. Our waiter flourished the bottle
in front of me, plunging the corkscrew deep, and broke the cork, the
little guests floated on the tasting glass. I remonstrated about the
cork and he withdrew behind his unreadable Asian eyes. He took the
bottle and entered into discussion with another waiter as I watched
as a carafe was produced and the wine strained into it then brought
back to the table. I wasn't happy but the language difficulty
persisted and the other waiter was called to
assist. "Ah, bottle sir, yes, bottle without cork sir, yes." They
went off and returned about five minutes later with the original
bottle about two thirds filled, wine still smearing the label. Wine
waiters are as a class, a pretty arrogant lot. I wasn't going to let
them get away with it. I said, through slightly clenched
teeth, "I want to see the cellar master." One of them then looked me in the eye, more eloquently than
any verbal plea. I withdrew, rationalising that it wasn't my party,
it was Christmas, it was only a few Amal Pets and I wouldn't give a
tip. He bowed to me as we went out to the lifts. Our kids filled the first lift and when we adults got to the
plaza below, my youngest son had stripped to his underpants and the
two little girl cousins had tucked their dresses into their panties.
They were wading in the courtyard fountain-come wishing well,
collecting the coins people had thrown in with their wishes. He
slipped of course and was drenched, leaving a soggy mess on the seat
of the prized new car and dripping all over the carpet. But it was,
after all, only a few Amal Pets. Summer heat was building up under the canvas, there were
still a few seats left near the bottom of the stairway where the
wheel chairs stood. Five youngsters in various states of dependency
were there. I asked if we could sit and the young man who was making
one lad comfortable said, almost apologetically "They can be a bit
unpredictable." Perhaps that was why the seats had been avoided. We sat with
our grandson between us, and looked at the trapezes up so high and
the boxes and balls with battered paint the sawdust-strewn floor.
Through the confusion of the ropes we saw a youngster in a harlequin
costume standing under the seats talking seriously to a man. He
demonstrated with his hands. She nodded her head, moved her hands.
Music blared and a spotlight flashed. We were engulfed with young
bodies tumbling, twisting, catherine
wheeling, mono-cycling and juggling, The Flying Fruit Flys were up
and running. We were enchanted, my grandson transported. His hands lifted
and he crouched for cover at the moment when one Fruit Fly seemed
destined to crash. He rolled with laughter and held his breath with
his hand to his mouth. At interval, when we were eating expensive
ice creams his eyes glowed with excitement as his memories tumbled
out. "But Gran what about when---?" "Do you remember---?" The couple with the wheelchairs, they seemed just kids
themselves, were busy with washers and treats of fruit and
sandwiches. They adjusted harnesses and held sticky cones, gave
fizzy drinks and puffed up cushions. Smiled at
demanding faces, listened and responded to sounds that meant nothing
to me. The tenderness that the young man exhibited as he
helped one young body, locked in callipers, piddle in his bottle
amongst all the activity brought tears to my eyes. We had said we would have a walk and feed the ducks in
"Yes, could we have something special
please?" "What would you like mate?" He folded his menu, looked at me and said. "Could I have a peanut butter and sprouts
sandwich?" You can't go much further north or west in
It is a long town, about five kilometres from the sign
proclaiming it, to the other end. The road in follows the water,
there is a loading complex for minerals, the remains of stockyards
where cattle were shipped, they go by road
train now. A brick shopping block crouched in an almost furtive
manner, where the bottle shop was behind steel bars, and sad eyed
degradation lurked in each aboriginal face. Further on there is the
efficiency of a fuel depot and better stocked shelves than at the
shops. Right at the end of the road, past several old, old houses
with signs declaring their history is the pub and on the other side
a small weatherboard building, it's `Cafe' sign almost faded from
the awning. A fellow traveller, hot, sweaty and dusty, said as he carried
a bundle of paper parcels across to the pub "Gunner sit in the
garden and eat over a few beers." We could see tables and umbrellas under shady trees over the
road. I volunteered to bring our order, whilst the others went ahead
and claimed a table. I took a while to get it and I thought of a
cold glass of beer. Something to cut the
phlegm. I had heard it called. There were cans of beer on the
table when I got there but I said I was going to have a glass and
walked into the bar and ordered a beer. The bar was `U' shaped, in
the centre of the `U' was a partition running to a wall forming the
enclosed `bar room' on one side and giving service to the `lounge'
and beer garden on the other. "Schooner please." I
said. He was a big man, didn't say a word as he put a can on the
bar. "I want a glass please." He leaned back, frowning whiped his
hand on his sweaty face, seemed to get bigger. "Can't serve 'yer a glass here." He
snapped. "They have glasses out there." I remonstrated, pointing to
the beer garden. "Bloody Boongs, drink in the bar, cuppler glasses and they're
pissed and then they start chucking glasses. Open cans don't do as
much damage, the bastards are deadly with
the glasses, sell yer a schooner in the lounge
though." I walked out the bar door five steps into the lounge, he had
the glass of beer on the bar waiting for me. There was a little bay on the bank of the river, it was a weekend haven for a group of
friends. The headland moved in the floods, sometimes retreating but
usually gaining in bulk from the sand and silt deposits. Willows had
grown and grass as well. The beach was gentle with a clear sandy
bottom. Wind patterns changing with the seasons, the smoke of the
fire sometimes layering, sometimes drawing straight
upwards. I would know who had arrived by the cars on the riverbank
when I got home from the work that took me away most mornings.
Sometimes there would be a tent, often people just `stayed over'.
They were times that seemed to never end. We all skinny dipped, babies, children, parents and grannies,
we talked, we ate, we drank, the plastic tub with its ice bricks and
cans and bottles always full. There was friendly competition to see who had the slightly
more exotic new dish, had found a sample from a boutique winery to
try. All the youngsters canoeing or sailing on
what was almost a private bay, the little dog swimming from one side
of the river to the other for sheer joy of
life. Our world was good to us, there was money about, the kids
were all fit, the government for all its faults almost benevolent.
Talk was of cars and land and investments and tax saving schemes and
specials of champagne and what was a good book to read and trips to
the theatre and plans for a long weekend camping and holidays in the
snow in winter. Acrid smoke would waft and eyes become restful and
the young couple who were having trouble with his slow sperm would
paddle down river for a while and we would sometimes have to call
back the youngsters, who would have followed. Maurie was a mentor of us all in the art of canoeing. We
studied his stick drawings in the sand around the fire. The currents, the way to navigate them, the balancing of
paddles, positioning in the craft, for the best leverage on
rapids. How to light a campfire with wet wood, tickling trout
in mountain streams, reading a compass, reading the clouds for
tomorrow's weather, it wasn't only the kids who hung on every word
or listened to advice. We shared luncheons of crisp salads from iced boxes, thin
sliced ham cured with exotic herbs, devilled eggs, smoked salmon,
fetta cheeses and green olives, home baked bread, wine from fine
glasses, sitting on rugs under the shade of willows. Bacchanalian, a tinge of decadence,
delightful. At other times we had luncheons where hopes and fears were
revealed, advice sought and given, commitments stronger than any
legal bond entered into and luncheons that melted into quiet
afternoons and mellowed into many a `Do you remember?' Then as
pollution slowly killed the river and the families grew up, life
drifted away to other pursuits and we sold up and moved
on. Noise of heavy traffic, the espresso machine roaring, clatter
of plates, scrape of chairs, ruffle of papers being read as people
try to catch up or escape the world. "I can recommend the Turkish Foccacia." Our waiter said as he
placed the menus before us, "Coffee as you decide?" He
queried. We were with our youngest. His eyes looked troubled though
his hair had grown a little and he was looking fit and well. He had
his chef's coat and clothes with him and his knives in his bag. We
had sensed his unrest from phone calls. Long hours
at tech doing things he felt he already knew
about. "Three
hours on scrambling eggs in a microwave for Christ sake! Even the
lecturers come to me to get their knives sharpened." He spoke
critically of over priced food for overfed people.
We knew the signs; He was going to pass it all up without thought of
the difficulty of further employment.
"Have to catch the bus across the road in half an hour, only two of
us on the staff there now, Maria has worked fifteen days straight
since the trouble, she's out on her legs." It wasn't a happy story,
a new restaurant trying to break into the district, antagonism that
broke into violence between the first chef and the
proprietors. Two
short blacks with glasses of water and my flat white arrived and we
ordered. It was tight behind the servery but meals moved out
quickly, service was efficient, tables emptied and filled with alacrity, the register pinged as the meal tabs
were brought in. "How
would you handle this?" I asked my son. "Ah,
no worries, when you are busy you have to be organised," but his
voice trailed off and he started to talk of his mate who was going
to move back to the mountains. I thought of the grotty digs where I
had moved him a few months earlier. His eyes told us of his
uncertainty his unrest and dissatisfaction. I tried to be
constructive about `hanging in' and not `burning bridges' and
`better days' but thought of my own muddled life and wondered how it
sounded coming from me. We
hugged long and hard before he caught his bus, telling him to keep
in touch. Deirdre was crying as we walked over to the We rarely see a magpie in our gully! A pair
of currawongs claim it as
their domain. Certainly for the last nineteen years there has always
been a breeding pair somewhere close by; their possessiveness,
especially evident during, and leading up to the breeding
season. On the eastern ridge resides a pair of ravens,
similarly in possession. We clearly hear a butcherbird's song up the
hill, but the maggies that live on the
western hilltop keep very much to themselves. On one of these glorious winter days we are now having, a
carolling call from close by, brings us, cups of `elevenses' in
hand, to the wide open doors, here we sit to watch the feeding tray.
Usually we see red browed finches, an occasional thrush, sparrow or
bowerbird. Many are the parrots, rosellas
in all stages of life from newly fledged to old, old hands are
always there. gang gangs with their
beautiful headgear their creaky talking and foolish antics a
delight, and if we are lucky, royalty, in the form of king parrots,
the males resplendent in their green cloaks with scarlet or orange
gold breasts honour us. This Wednesday however, all we see is a solitary magpie
checking out the ground that the lyrebird has turned over. The call
again draws our eyes to the canopy of a tree nearby and there is his
partner. We sit watching them, entranced by the serenade. Under the
seed feeder the Maggie seems to glean much nourishment, chortling
softly whilst the mate in the tree watches with
Leaving the ground it flies to the table just in front of us.
Cheekily eyeing us from alternative sides it then hops to the ground
and comes closer, looking at my biscuit. I throw a crumb, which is
caught and Maggie comes closer still, looking for other spilled
crumbs. Clearing them all up he flies back to the table, gives a
polite chortle, flies down to the door tread and cocking his head,
eyes us again and walks sedately inside, spending some time
inspecting the room. Back to the table for a loud
carolling, then down to the pond for a drink, taken with
delicacy. With hardly a splash, the bird wades into the pond
for a long bath, splashing water everywhere, full dunking and
preening his feathers in the pond then back to the table. Amidst
this great shaking, flapping and preening the mate joins in,
considers the matter, before following suit. This finished, both
settle on a branch in full sunlight, to ruffle their feathers and
stroke out water drops with their beaks. Finally, settled in the
warm sunshine they throw back their heads and
sing. Was it
a hymn of praise to the world in general? A song of thanks to us? The sheer joy of living? Who
knows? I am
eating a piece of raisin toast from which some fruit fell. It was
checked immediately but spurned, there is a hopeful eyeing of the
toast in my hand and the crust part I offer is eaten with
gusto. There
is lengthy consideration of another bath. This time they splash and
wash even more deeply, then back to the table for a shake and preen,
before flapping to their sunny branch, where their liquid melody is
disturbed by a divebombing from one of the currawongs. They speed
away, still shaking droplets of water.
Will we see Maggies in our gully again?
We were visiting the The main display was of fishing boats, used by Greek
fishermen working from various ports in We
were bending over one display and reading the history of the boat,
commissioned in the late nineteen thirties, for a Greek family with
connections with the Hobart, Launceston and Melbourne fishing trade,
when an elderly couple came and joined us. They spoke in Greek,
(well it was `All Greek' to me,) anyway. Their conversation was
animated, much pointing and hand waving. She was large, handsome,
classic featured, flashing dark eyes, and
long thick grey, lustrous hair. They embraced, kissed and talked
some more, and then he turned to me. "My
wife, She name boat, Her name. Her Father
he build, before war, they fished, but later used it as an Abalone
boat." We talked at length, she had
great stories of the boat building yards where she lived as a girl,
telling us about the uncertainties of life through the war when
there was discrimination against any foreign accents. Our
acquaintance emigrated just after the war and had prospered. Her
family was still mostly in the fishing business. Despite the `Do not
touch' sign she stroked the little model in the display, and we
couldn't begrudge her that. Her
husband told us the boat had spent many years Abalone fishing,
finally being wrecked in a severe storm.
"Licences were a pound then! Our Nephew paid nearly a million for
one last year, the old man must have turned in his grave." He
crossed himself. He smiled and we moved away. Later
as we were watching a video of boat building our Greek acquaintance
came to us again, almost hesitantly. "Tell
you story. Is true, but you may not believe." Our appetites were
whetted immediately. "My nephew fish for the abalone round
"But it not a drum. It was a survival raft
and there were two young people in it. Man and girl. Both in swimming costumes. They been using raft
for fun whilst swimming and the wind blow them away from the coast.
Nothing but luck between them and South
Pole." "They
wrap in blankets and lend taxi fare home. They
very grateful. Next day he come and pick up raft, return the money. He say his name is Martin Bryant." SIMBA I was not long a member of the local Lion's Club, when a
project came up to lay a concrete cricket pitch for the then
Werrington Park Boys home. The boys were what we now call
`intellectually challenged' but were then know as retarded or more
cruelly `not the full quid', `a sandwich short of a picnic', or a
`brick short of a load'. Funds for the concrete and reinforcing mesh
had been raised by a raffle and we were ready for the `hands on
work' laying the pitch. One of our members, a retired air force Sergeant carpenter
was in charge: he wanted "an early start, a few fellers not scared
of a `wheelbarrer', a bloke with 'ammer and nails and last but not
least, `a cuppler
dogsbodies.'" We were a motley crew: a doctor, a policeman, two real estate
agents (who talked about the subdivision potential of the land), a
shopkeeper, a gentleman of private means (with straw hat, gardening
gloves and a hammer), a builder, our leader
who was being `erfficient', and myself. There were no hitches. We were prepared when the concrete
trucks arrived, and the wheeling and screeding went with a will. It
was a warm morning with `the compo going orf just lovely'. We were
hard at it with the floats when one of the lads from the home came
down and asked us to come up for morning tea. He spoke tentatively,
his voice betraying his limitations. "Just great!" called our leader. "As soon
as we have finished the trowelling." At the time I had a Samoyed dog, a big fellow, with a love of
chasing cars. As nearly always happens to car chasers he had been
hit and lost a front leg. He adapted well, his remaining front leg
developed strength and size, he still
chased cars as ferociously as ever and could stand on two legs to
pee with the best. He loved a day out, Simba was with me on this
occasion, and was hopping around checking on progress. The men
called him `The Clerk Of Works' as he lifted his leg on just about
everything. The lad from the home came up to me and touched me
gently on the back. "Can I pat your dog mister?" "Sure, his name is Simba." I showed him how he liked to chase
sticks, how to throw them high so Simba could jump and catch them. I
suggested that he run around the paddock with him. The dog loved it; the boy was in ecstasy and kept coming to
tell me of some exploit. Once he confided. "I never ever had a pat of a dog before." We finished our work hot and thirsty. Thoughts of morning tea
were strong in our minds. I loaded my floats and wheelbarrow in the
ute and called the lad to come back as we
were going back to the home. He ran up and carefully skirted the wet
concrete. To my chagrin the dog, dragging a large lump of wood
hopped straight up the wet concrete. "Put that bloody dog in the car", the Sergeant
roared. The lad thought it was his fault and burst into tears. I
consoled him and gave him a rope to hold the dog. We were really
ready for a cupper by the time we had the surface smooth
again. I had, or perhaps my dog, had, won the heart of the
youngster. He smiled all he way up the long drive to the home in my
ute with the dog slobbering all over
him. "Here give Simba a drink." I called as we got out, and he
shyly asked if he drank water or tea. "Watch him at the tap." I
said. He laughed when Simba jumped, snapping at the running
water. Inside it was back to the regime of institution life, smell
of polished linoleum, thick cups, sandwiches, cakes, biscuits,
pikelets, courteous boys obviously drilled in the behaviour expected
of them, serving, and refusing to eat with us, and a little talk of
appreciation from the officer in charge. It was time to leave and as
we made for the door my young friend came up to me and took hold of
my hand. Would you like to come up and see my bed?" He asked, his eyes
begging. "I sure would." He took me up to a room with six beds in it.
Narrow beds, thin grey blankets, polished floorboards, little
cupboards, no sign of comforts or
personalities. "I got the window bed." It was obviously a sign of
status. "This is my cupboard." He opened the door with pride. There
was one shirt hanging in it. He walked close beside me down the stairs and tried to give
the dog another drink.
Villagers all, this frosty tide, Let your doors swing open wide, Though wind may follow, and snow beside, Yet draw us in by your fire to bide; Joy shall be yours in the morning! Here we stand in the cold and the sleet, Blowing fingers and stamping feet, Come from far away you to greet--- You by the fire and we in the street--- Bidding you joy in the morning! For ere one half the night was gone, Sudden a star has led us on, Raining bliss and benison--- Bliss to-morrow and more anon, Joy for every morning! Goodman Joseph toiled through the snow--- Saw the star o'er a stable low; Mary she might not further go--- Joy was hers in the morning! And then they heard the Angels tell Animals all as it befell--- In the stable where they did dwell! `Who were the first to cry Nowell? Joy shall be theirs in the morning!' Family tradition has it that we now compare this Christmas
pudding with puddings past. We remember the time we drove to another
Xmas dinner venue many miles away having forgotten the pudding,
which was to be our contribution to the feast. Then there was the time the damned thing slipped off the
plate, across the floor, out the door and into the garden like
Lindsay's Magic Pudding? I have never had a bad Christmas, and in fact there is only
one that I didn't spend with my family, however it was memorable
enough in other ways. Our dairy farm on the Deirdre and the two little girls had gone to My good friend and neighbour Bobby and his wife Ven had asked
me to join their festive board. It had been bad luck for a young
cockerel and a prime sucking pig. There was pudding with custard and
I had asked the milk carrier to bring me out a couple of bottles of
beer which we were enjoying on the verandah talking about goodness
knows what, when the remark came up. Bobby said "Up there, on the hill where the graves
are." I
didn't know they were graves! Whose were they? " I had never given
much thought to the dead of past generations, there were troubles
enough with the living but in the mellowness of the after dinner
repose I sought to find out more of the people who had pioneered the
properties along the river. Bobby
had lived all his life in the district and had seen many a change.
The graves were those of husband and wife of some past owner or
sharefarmer. I was
told there were many such graves on the local properties. These were
selections dating back to the eighteen fifties when the northern
side of the river was thrown open for free conditional
grants. The
Australian Agricultural Company had millions of acres from the north
of the Hunter to the southern side of the Many
crossed the river to take up blocks of land. For better or for worse
their bones now lay at rest on the land they once called their own.
The graves a testament to their spirit, their
pluck and their striving for independence. I wondered if they had ever had sucking pig and prime poultry
and Christmas Pudding at their Christmas
dinner. There had been an overnight camp at It was a clear day, the sun and wind played with shadows on
the red soil of the road verge, as we drove the few miles into the
township. We wanted to top up with fuel and water, get last minute
supplies and check on local knowledge of the road northwards. We
planned to be well into the channel country that
evening. Being a small town, with population of `about 65 permanent
residents' as the guidebook said, I was surprised at the amount of
space there was from the township sign to the first house and the
distance over which the town was scattered. A shop
with a battered bowser in front, fifty metres to a galvanised
building saying garage and service station, several old caravans at
the rear. Opposite was a large, rambling building with it's verandah lined with beer kegs and an old man
sitting in the sun. A few houses surrounded by dead motor vehicles was all I could see. Seeing the garage was shut, I circled back to the bowser in
front of the shop. Pepper trees hung over dusty pathway, nothing
stirred. The two other landcruisers drove into the service station
and I saw a man come slowly from one of the
caravans. A large padlock was on the bowser so I went up the old wooden
stairs to the doorway of the shop, it was locked as well but I heard
rattling on the inside and it opened. A gaunt guy, wearing patched
khaki overalls stood there with a bunch of keys. He kicked the
door. "Bloody thing, won't stay shut unless you lock it." He looked
at it accusingly and then asked me if I wanted petrol. I nodded and
went back to the ute and opened the
filler. "This is a dreadful thing to fill, watch out for it bubbling
back." I said as I went to the rear of the tray to get a water
container I wished to fill. "This is a bugger of a thing to bubble back." He told me as I
came back, I pointed to the container and
asked if I could get some water. "Go through the shop to the tanks at the
back." Inside the shop a young girl was stacking bottles of
condiments, row upon row of them. A great stack of jam tins and
heaps of boxes of soft drinks looked ready for her to get to work
on. She stopped and looked at me but said nothing. A large
lady was leaning on the counter at the rear, reading a paper; she
didn't look up, but said. "Bread won't be in for at least an hour or
so." I said I was going to get some water. This stirred her; she
looked up at me then, shrugged her shoulders and pointed to an
opening with plastic streamers tangled about it. Outside there was a
wealth of tanks that all seemed to be connected with odd plumbing,
it took a few minutes to find a tap and when I did, a large dog was
guarding it. Dingo, Great Dane and Cattle dog figured in his
ancestry. He lay in the shade, not moving, but his eyes were on fire
and the hackles on the back of his neck looked menacing. He
begrudged me every drop of water I put in the container. Inside the
shop the lady didn't move from her reading. The young girl stood
again and watched me. "What a bugger of a filler this is,
it keeps bubbling back!" greeted me as I came out. I nodded, and asked about the road ahead. "Going far?" I nodded again "The roads not to bad, not bad at all really, but watch out
for the wet patches." This seemed like good advice to me. He
finished with the petrol and screwed on the cap. "Where 'yer come from?' He asked. I told him the Blue
Mountains near "Nice and quiet up here, restful 'yer know." I
agreed. "Have a few nice times up at the pub here 'yer know, there's
a bit 'er drinken' done." I said, I thought there would
be. "'Yer know, a mate 'er mine from a town close in said I
'orter buy up all the vacant town blocks and offer them for sale to
people down south, a lot of 'em want a nice quiet place to settle
down in. What der 'yer reckon?" I reckoned that it might not suit
everybody. "Shearers come int'er town a few weeks back an bought a lot 'er beer and camped down on the
creek. They really got on the piss and they were throwing their
empties up in the air and trying to shoot 'em as they come down. The
Sergeant, he straightened 'em out, he went down and made 'em pick up
all the broken glass, every bit, by jeeze he did. He teaches the
kids to swim down there, every 'arvo at four o-clock. As I say it's nice and peaceful up here.
Eighty - seven dollars 'ittle cost yer. Yair it's nice and peaceful
here." I offered two fifty dollar notes. "I don't think I can change that, haven't 'yer got a
card?" By the time I got out of the shop the rest of the party were
by my ute. They told me the guy at the
service station was blind and they had, had to do the paper work for
him and that the old fellow sitting on the pub verandah had
recommended a camping spot near a hot bore a few hundred kilometres
up the road. Tall and freckled and sandy, Face of a country lout; This was the picture of Andy, Middleton's rouseabout. Type of a coming nation In the land of cattle and sheep; Worked on Middleton's station, Pound a week and his keep; On Middleton's wide dominions Plied the stockwhip and shears; Hadn't any opinions, Hadn't any `idears'. Swiftly the years went over, Liquor and drought prevailed; Middleton went as a drover After his station failed. Type of a careless nation, Men who are soon played out, Middleton: -- and his station Was bought by the Rouseabout. Flourishing beard and sandy, Tall and solid and stout; This is the picture of Andy, Middleton's rouseabout. Now on his own dominions Works with his overseers; Hasn't
any opinions, Hasn't any `idears'. It's a century or more since Henry Lawson wrote the verse,
but why I ask you did he leave us in this quandary? What happened to
Middleton? Was he really `Soon played out'? Did he perhaps prevail
to live as wiser and sorrier man? Did he see the error of his ways?
Did he forsake the drink and save his meagre wage until he could buy
a small droving plant? Take jobs in his own
name. Build strong connections. Perhaps drive for Kidman and earn
his commendation, respect and advice. Snap up bargains along the
way, devote some of his income to a home
for aged insolvent graziers. Buy shares in that infant company B H
P. Plough his gains into the booming city real estate market. Venture capital into gold mines in And What I Ask You of Andy? Was he up to it? Did he
only get by for the good years and then lose his all? Perhaps the
closer settlement act encroached on his dominions and he was plagued
by selectors who took the good land. Did the good natured country
lass with red hair that he loved, turn out to be a real nag who
spent freely of his substance and finally, (to his great relief) run
off with an itinerant hawker in a gaily painted wagonette, but to
his chagrin, come back eighteen months later with a child who she
claimed was his. Cause no end of trouble with his relationship with
the housekeeper whose brother was a sharp lawyer in the big city
firm retained by his pastoral agency? Mr. Lawson, why have you abandoned us, so heartlessly in this
Cast. In order of
appearance. Mother. Largish woman well into middle age. Blue rinse
set type. Gerry. Scruffy, torn jeans, sunburnt nose,
cocky. Surfy type. Dad. Tall, thin, grey hair about ears, otherwise bald, pale
eyes, worried expression. Keep up appearances
type. Justin. Nervous, pompous, pale faced, slightly bent shoulders. Takes after Dad type. Spider.
Energetic young man, open face, direct look, neat casual clothes.
Boy next door type. The scene is the living room of substantial home in one of
the better class suburbs of a large and prosperous country
town. MOTHER. "Gerald? Is that you Gerald?" GERRY. "G'day Mum, Grabbed a lift down with a Truckie. I gave him a
deal and we smoked all the way down. Talk about
fly." MOTHER. "Gerald you know how your father and I don't like you to
hitch. Who knows what might become of you? We read these terrible
things in the paper all the time, and just look at your hair and the
sunburn." GERRY. "Oh Mum, I'm only just in the bloody door, for pete's sake." MOTHER. "Such language, and not a word from you for six weeks, you
could have been dead for all we knew. Your father and I wonder where
we went wrong with you, we really do, thank
goodness we have Justin to fall back on." GERRY. "Give it a break Mum, for Gor sake. Dad got any beer in the
fridge? MOTHER. "I'll heat you up some soup, You
probably haven't had a decent meal since you
left." GERRY. "Good on you Mum, I need a bit of
shut eye as well." *
* * Early evening. DAD. "Well Mother, just look at what the cat dragged
in!" GERRY. "G'day Dad, how's things at the bowling club? Got the
committees working yet? and how's the
accountancy going Justin?" DAD. "Things are going well thank you. Justin is doing the
accounts for us on an honorary basis. He's a big help to me you
know." GERRY. "Yair, I'll bet, and what about Spider, did you put him on as
apprentice greenkeeper. He was dead bloody keen you know. Fancy a
surfer as good as him getting a real job!" There's a pause, then. "Hey Justin, you'll never guess, I found Maria, you remember,
you were keen on her and she chucked up her job at the accountants
and disappeared. Well she's living on a coupla' acres in a bit of a
barn up the coast with a few chooks and a garden and a big Maori
surfer, boy can he crack a wave and a bottle of rum too. She's got
two kids, little girl a ringer of the Maori bloke and an older
blonde boy, cranky little bastard, twitches his mouth in a funny way
when he goes off, reminds me of somebody, can't place it. She never
sent you any message." JUSTIN. Why would I want a message from her? Dumped me didn't
she? Mum will you keep him from wearing my
clothes." DAD. "Gerald, language please. Is
dinner ready yet Mother? Justin and I have a Chamber of Commerce
meeting to attend. That reminds me Jack Shaw from the newsagents
said there's still no claimant for the big lottery prize. By jove I
think Justin and I would know what to do with a win like
that." GERRY. "Yair, a bit of tucker would go down well Mum. I think I'll
step out then and find Spider, reckon we'll go to the pub and have a
few grogs." *
* * Scene: Smoky bar of a country hotel. Groups
along the bar. Men playing pool. T.
V. showing dog race in progress. Rattle of balls, clink of glasses
and strident voice of announcer. GERRY. "Jeeze Spider, what's up? We've only had a few pints and you
reckon your broke, and yer gotter be up
early and yer given up the surf for an apprenticeship. That's not
the Spider I went to school with." SPIDER. "I got to get a trade Gerry, life goes on and I can't surf
forever. I must go now. See you later. Oh by the way I nearly
forgot, Angelo Grasso asked me to give you this envelope. He said it
was thanks for helping him out at the markets when his son was
crook. GERRY. "Well what you know? Fifty bucks and a
lottery ticket!" *
Living room as above. Next
morning. GERRY. "Mum! Mum! Mr Shaw says I have won a million bucks with the
ticket Angelo gave me, but I'll have to go to the city to claim it.
What do you know. A
million bucks." *
Dining room of the same house. Evening. MOTHER. "Come on, eat your dinner Dad, and you too Justin, enough
talk about your investments and the cash flow and the opportunities.
You haven't even arranged it with Gerald yet." DAD. "Mother I know you would like to decorate the house, and that
trip we have been hankering after and Justin will enjoy a new car
and it will be good for Gerald to have to assume some
responsibilities, be the making of him after all this waste of time
and worry he has put us through. All the men at the bowling club
wish they had our good luck." JUSTIN. "Yes Mum, I have worked out a plan for Gerald and the whole
family, minimising tax by using a family trust. He won't be able to
refuse it. I can see the whole family riding the road to
riches." MOTHER. "I do hope that Gerald will appreciate all the thought you
two have given to help him with this problem." *
* SCENE: Same dining room, next evening. Special tablecloth,
wine glasses, empty bottle, signs of a celebratory
meal. GERRY. "Wow Mum what a party you've given the four of us, You Dad,
Justin and me, and thanks for the beer Dad. It will be nice to take
off after a celebration, instead of the usual row with Dad telling
me not to come back and all that." DAD. "What do you mean? Take off." GERRY. "Well Spider's too busy to drink with me and it's getting
cold. I think I'll go back north again." MOTHER. "But, but, but, Gerald, what about the money, the plans, the
block of units Dad had lined up for you to buy and the trip and my
fur coat and Justin's car, and the security and the future and . . .
. ." JUSTIN. "Come on brother, act real for once." DAD. "Gerald we have it all planned out for you. Why with a million - - -." GERRY. "But I haven't got the money." MOTHER. "GERALD." DAD. "What are you saying." JUSTIN. "Always have to have a bloody joke haven't you, what a nit of
a brother you are." GERRY. MOTHER. "Gerald, the house redecoration, - - -" DAD. "Gerald, after all we have done for you." JUSTIN. "You rotten, scheming, lousy, feckless twit of a
brother." GERRY. "Crikey Justin, when you go of like that I realise who
Maria's kid reminds me off. I have always liked horses. From the first old Dobbin we got
when I was a boy, who faithfully put up with all the misguided use
and handling that a youngster could give out. On to a few `Better
Types' that I had as I grew up and moved onto various farms in NSW
Certainly they gave me the little knowledge I needed to think that I
was an expert. A trip to the races in my mid teens was a disaster. I
was able to bet in shillings through the person who took me and
backed three winners and came home with more pocket money than I had
ever had. I have been hooked forever, the thrill gets my adrenalin
rushing, the sound of the hoof beats, whether gallopers or trotters,
the smell of the marshalling yard, the thrill when your pick is fast
enough to be home first, the disbelief in your self when you have
picked a failure, but I always love the horses, the fast ones I like
better. What's this got to do with grand finals you ask me? Nothing!
Horses leave the finals for dead. Better than any public speaking
display by an orator at the peace rallies, though the message may
not be as important, are the bookies calling the odds. "Who
'nows 'em? Who 'nows em? Bor'dodds, I'll lay five ter
four bar one!" It's a religious chant that they utter whilst
fiddling with the knobs on their betting boards. In fifty years I
haven't found the meaning of the chant and watch for them nervously
changing the prices whilst looking over their shoulders at the other
boards. A prosperous looking punter sidles up, speaks a few words,
the bookie scribbles on a wad of tickets in his
hand. "Two
thousand to four hundred, Smart Alice! Four oh eight". His clerk scratches on the
betting sheet. "Three dollars to two, Potter's Charm, four oh nine,
bord'odds Ih lay." The public mill around, a price is changed on
another board, there is a stampede, hands waving money, the bookie
grabs the largest handful and writes in haste, shouting the bets to
the clerk scribbling the figures in his sheet, other bookies change
their prices, the crowd mills around and changes places, the PA
system gives a reverberated message and a bugle is heard. Activity
in the ring speeds up. I decide to put my two dollars for a win and
a place on Rebellious Robert at the odds of sixteen to one, a man pushes in front of me and says
quietly, "Twelve
thousand each way Rebellious Robert." The
bookie shouts at his clerk, there isn't a moment's hesitation. "One dollar each way Rebellious Robert." He hands
me a ticket. I walk away towards the grandstand. It was a good class
of race. There was the usual jockeying for position to get the best
view. I noticed the quietly spoken man just a few away from me. The
horses race generously. At the business end of proceedings my fellow
backer's eyes were covered by his binoculars, he would have seen,
like me, Rebellious Robert slipping behind the pacemaker and the
other horses swamping him so that he could only finish fifth. He
lowered his bino's and turned away, he didn't look any different as
he took out his race book. My heart was pumping from my two dollar
bet. It wasn't the winning buzz I could remember from
school. I told you that I had won a heap of pocket money as a boy
didn't I? It was my last year at high
school and I was feeling pretty smug about it, I have no doubt that
I let it be known. There was another fellow there, a boarder, he
came from a wealthy farming town, his
father ran a hotel, this lad used to talk horses and bookmaking. I
would guess that his father ran a Starting Price book but I don't
know. I didn't like him, he tended to be in
with a bit of a smarty group that talked property and rural
squattocracy. He decided to run a book on the year's Melbourne Cup,
obviously to gain credence with his group. (Cup Sweeps were fairly
commonplace amongst the students and were not vigorously opposed by
the teachers who often liked a bit of a flutter themselves.)
He had a few lads on his team and they canvassed for bets and
pennies and threepences were growing in his bag. I was visited
whilst at lunch. "How about a punt on the cup, you've been talking about your
day at the races." "Yes, I said, do you have a limit?" "I'll cover anything you could bet" was the smug
response. "How
about ten shillings on Foxami? He's
in the paper at sixteen to one." He visibly blanched, said he would
take two shillings. Two of my mates also bet on the horse over the
next few days for me. I was covered for five shillings on the day of
the race. Grapevines work well in all structured organisations, our
maths teacher who also coached the football team, started using
bookmakers as examples in many of his set problems, he spoke of
`odds' and `covering' and explained the balance of the book to show
a profit. "If you take too much on one runner you can find yourself
having to lay other runners at greater prices to cover yourself.
It's hard for the Starting Price bookmaker to get such cover. Of
course if your punters back the wrong horse you can make large
profits." He left the matter up in the air. But it seemed that
at race start time on the first Tuesday in November he had an urgent
call to the staff room. We waited with baited breath, the class was aware of the
tension. The door opened and he came in, not quite pokerfaced and
walked to the blackboard, he picked up a piece of
chalk. "Oh, by the way Foxami won it!" My bookie friend sent a letter home for more funds, he
emphasised the need by sending the letter without a stamp, but his
Father being a publican and probably a bookie as well did not
respond. I was paid off in dribs and drabs until we sat for our
Leaving Certificates and then went our several ways. He was the only
bookie that ever failed to pay me, and we laughed about it at the
only school reunion I ever went to. I knew it would be bad before I looked over the side but I
was not prepared for it to be just such a mess. I put my hands on my
hips and looked in disbelief. I took my hat off and scratched my
head. Just how, I thought, can it be solved? I walked to the other side of the road, kicked a rock and
went back and looked again, it hadn't got any better. I was absorbed
until a whip crack roused me. I'd completely forgotten "Christ, what a bloody mess." From his horse he looked for a minute in silence, cleared his
throat, spat, looked again and turned his horse around and looked
from the other side, shook his head. "I don't know what to suggest, but I got to keep these cattle
moving." Sandy Mac and his milk truck were nearly due and I knew that
Big George would be here soon and Kell as well, I heard the motor of
the tractor in the cutting, Kell would be in his Ute. I wondered if
the three of us may be able to get down, then realised that we would
need support from the bottom. The milk truck rattled up and Sandy
Mac in his worn white boiler suit stuck his head out the window. His
grey moustache hardly hid the scar of his harelip and his cleft
palate inflection, which tended to give a twist to his statements,
was full of disbelief. "Wot th' 'ell caused thith? I haventh theen
thuch a thingth thinth I wolled the milk thanker up on the
'ighway." Kell's old ute steamed up the hill,
he got out. Swore at the dogs that started barking
as soon as they jumped from the truck, pushed his hat back and
reached for a cigarette. He considered the situation as he
lit up. He was so taken aback by the situation that he forgot to
draw on the first match and had to light up again. He blew smoke out
of his nose and coughed. "It's bad." He offered no further comment. Big George drove up to the gathering, aiming at the dogs
barking at his tractor; they skipped out of his way, playing the
game as always. George was dour and dark, not given to talk he just
looked and turned to me, raised an eyebrow and looked back
again. Young Kit from the station up the creek cantered down on her
skittish pony to collect their mail and papers from the milk truck
as she did every day. She pulled up short and followed our gaze over
the side, looked back at us. Her eyes widened, a grin split her
cheeky freckled face. "My brothers just won't believe this. I can't wait to tell
them." She grabbed her mailbag as the pony reared and she was off in
a spray of dust and pebbles. "They just won't believe me." She shouted again over her
shoulder. "Yer made somebody happy anyrates." said Kell, He looked at
George and suggested. "What yer reckon? We get a bit 'er wire and run it over and
twitch it onter ther ---" "Wire wouldnth holth even harf" Sandy Mac sounded scathing, I had to admit I thought he was
right. "Coupla' big timber jacks, the only way, stick em in under
and wind em up careful." It was Big George. He was going to go on but another ute drove up with a crest painted on both its
doors. Tiger Morris, council foreman. The
fellers on the road gangs said that when you were too bloody minded
to be a policeman you became a council foreman. Tiger got out, took
one look and went straight to the point. "We build bloody roads for you blokes and look what you do to
them." He got back into his vehicle and yelled to Sandy
Mac. "Watch out on the way in I got two trucks both with trailers
on, coming out. Watch em on the narrow corners." He drove
away. "Higgernth Bartherd, thinkth I donth know how ter drith a
bloothy truckth, buth lookth I goth to geth
thith milkth outer the thun, theze yer lather." He drove off giving the dogs another reason to bark, Big
George told them to "Shut Up" and threw a stone at them. They danced
out of he way and grinned at him. "I think the only way is to get a strong line onto the top
and winch-." "The whole thing has got to be pushed slowly
---." "But It'll twist if it's
---." "It'll have to be supported---." Big George and Kell were so hard at it expounding their theories, we didn't see Old Bert walk up. He
lived in a hut on a selection about a mile up the river and the milk
truck brought his provisions. He had a sack to carry his goods home
with him, dropped it to the ground and sat,
saying. "Well the last time I saw anything like this it took a team
of bullocks." "Where the hell are you going to get a team of bullocks?"
Kell interrupted. Old Bert wasn't going to be
silenced. "They got a team of bullocks, put wires down and joined them
onter the snig chains and then they put jacks under, bullocks pull
real steady you know, just what yer need in a situation like this,
MaCarthys had bullocks up to about twenty five years ago." He got up
and packed his supplies into his bag. "Must
have left too early for today's papers again." He
sounded resentful. "Hang on, I got ter get back too, I'll give you a lift," said
Kell. "Got to push too, ploughing yer know." Said
Big George. They went on their way, deserted I took my hat off again and
scratched my head. Perhaps the guys putting in the telephone line up
in back creek might be able to help, but I thought I would go home
and have a cuppa' first.
She was a tough old biddy, gave us a hard time when we were
clearing our land but over the years we got to know each other and
finally became good friends. She had strong opinions on most subjects, I didn't always
agree with her. Once when we saw a handsome young Asian couple with
two exquisite children walking by, she said
sharply. "I know God made them, but he did make them over
there!" It's the shoes, however, that I want to tell you
about. Her father was a pilot on My father spent the last few years of his life, in a nursing
home sorely troubled by Alzheimer's. My mother visited him daily to
minister to his needs becoming almost part of the staff through her
involvement with the patients. On the same grounds were retirement units. Every day from one
of these, a dapper little man would come, after breakfast, to spend
time with his wife who was also afflicted with Alzheimer's. Each
morning as he approached she would start screaming for the nurse to
get him to go away. He would try to comfort her but her agitation
would get the better of him and he would go out to the verandah and
wait till morning teatime and take her a drink. She would be calm
for a while but soon ask him who he was and start to tell him to go
away. I will never forget the look of grief on his face as he came
away one morning, it was on one of my all
too infrequent visits. My dad was away having treatment. So as I
waited, I sat on a chair next to the old gentleman and yarned. His
shoes were immaculate, gleaming brown, you
could see your face in them. I couldn't resist telling him the story
of the ship's pilot. He smiled, and glanced at his shoes. He spoke of the need for
meticulous detail in his life's work. He had moved from teller to
bank director in his career. He spoke of the milestones in his life,
promotions, moves to the country, greater
responsibilities, executive positions, family commitments, overseas
postings. His wife was brought out in a chair and set beside him,
but she wailed and asked the nurse to take her away from `that man'.
Tears were rolling down his cheeks, as he left me,
saying. "All those times and it comes to this." My father returned and I spent some time with him, our
contact was brief and he soon left me for the measured pacing that
seemed to fill much of his day. I said my farewells to him and my
mother and went out the entrance door to the railed in patio.
Another sufferer was at the gate, working at the lock, his fingers
raw from the constant picking. "Come on Ronnie, I'll take you in to sister." I said. He
followed me with a bewildered look. I left him
inside. The gate had a complicated numerical locking system, I got it wrong twice before it opened.
The man delivering bread watched me with suspicion as I worked on
the gate but must have decided that it was safe to let me
out. She was of average height, thinish, flat chested, mousy hair
slightly unkempt, large pale rimmed glasses that were no longer
quite fashionable, pale eyes that blinked a lot, an almost
always-present frown, thin lips, a bitter looking mouth. She rarely
used make up and often covered her head with a scarf. Her clothes
were quality, good looking but she missed out on elegance, perhaps it was the knee length boots. It was hard
to pick her age but she was well into the middle years. She
moved into the house but one from us, but she gave us the feeling
that it was a come down for her. I was not working at the time but
she quickly found reason to use anytime she observed that I was
"wasting" in such activities as reading in a sunny corner, or
walking my dog to the village. Poor Miles's death had not only
been untimely and undignified (hints of bowl cancer and
complications) but almost unforgivable in that he had left his
affairs in a hopeless mess. The business was hardly profitable and
hard to sell, there was a mass of debts, his insurance had been borrowed against. "Why
even the Benz was long overdue for its big service, and you can
imagine how much that cost." Her two girls were no help to her in
the matter, one was overseas with a high power job with a bank and
`Poor Judy' had married that plumber chap and had babies in nappies
all over the place. "No help at all in setting up a home especially under these
reduced circumstances." Could I recommend a good mechanic? Would I help her with the
dispute over the load of firewood? She was certain that the load was
underweight. She would arrive at the door wanting to borrow a few
tea bags until she went shopping right on `drinkies' time, didn't
mind if she did, although Miles always insisted on French Champagne
of course. She would throw a couple of precious ironbark logs on our
fire. "Makes the place so friendly", and
stand in front of it blocking everybody's heat. "By Jove that soup smells good." We tried to keep off touchy
subjects but at election time I really let the side down when she
saw me on the "Greens" stand. "Ivor you MUST realise the Liberals are our ONLY chance."
Still, by and large I did seem to be an acceptable
neighbour. Her brother Peter was going to call in, he had some business
to attend to and was, "coming to help me with the solicitor, to see
if we can get some matters finalised." He would be down for a few
days and could I help with a bit of male company, perhaps take him
to the club? "But don't let him drink too much, its a bit of a country failing you
know? Peter was older. Weather worn, squinty eyed from looking into
the far distance. A strong family resemblance in looks but it ended
there. His smile was quick, easy with a joke, acceptance of his
present circumstances - "Bloody
crook, thank God we don't owe anything." 80,000 Hectares, 8,000 sheep, costs up all the time, with
help from the missus and his two sons they did the lot. Crutching, drenching, shearing, classing,
packing. Shearers cost more than the wool was bringing. It's
a case of hanging in until the good times come again. `Tommie' as he
called her was giving him a hard time,
there just wasn't anything to help with. The trip to the solicitor
had brought no joy at all. My suggestion of a quick beer was
accepted with alacrity. "Come in my car," said Peter, a seven year old Holden,
a bad scrape down one side making the door hard to close, dusty
outside. The usual collection of land gear inside, ear tags, and a
bottle of drench on the floor, a clearance sale catalogue on the
back seat, one wiper blade missing, dusty on the inside to. He had a
good capacity. Four beers were downed quickly over general
conversation. He suggested a game of snooker and set up the table
proficiently, bought another round, he seemed to loosen up with the
click of the balls. I questioned the name `Tommie' Dad called her that, Tomboy I guess, she was a real goer out
on the plains, ride anything, drive anything, have a go at anything.
By gees there were wild times at home that year she came home from
school. She was a good looker then, Mum was planning a wedding after
every second phone call, all the boys were running around with their
pricks hanging out of their eyes, she broke a few hearts when she
went to "She wouldn't talk about it, didn't want to participate in
the local life, wouldn't go back to study,
just sat around. Dad decided it was time to retire, offered the
place to me and Tommie but she didn't want a bar of it, said I could
have the lot, Dad and I worked things out. The oldies moved to the
sea, Tommie went with them, got a shop job, where she met Miles. Dad
was bored shitless by retirement, was dead within eighteen months,
Mum went soon after. Tommie got her share of the money then."
Without a word He potted the last seven balls in a manner that made
me glad we were not playing for money. "Let's go home." His driving was reckless and fast but we got
there safely. We shook hands over the top of the car as he was
leaving early the next morning. He slammed the bent car door hard to
shut it, pulled his coat closer round him against the
cold. "Come out and look at the old place some time, if you'd
like." "Yes, I'd like to." I said. "I think I got the better of the deal." I heard him say as he
walked away.
THE PARKING LOT It is best that I start with a short geography lesson. The
parking lot in question is entered from the road and has rows of
parking bays to the right and left. At the end there is a 'T'
intersection with bays going both ways. These bays are desirable as
they have trees that afford some shade. There is often congestion at
this section towards the end of the week when more shoppers are
about. I came to the T intersection and there were no parking spaces
in sight. Down to my right a vehicle was standing behind the parked
cars with its left blinker on. To my left a car backed out and
pulled in front of me, I swung left and straight into the vacant
space. I told the dog to mind the car, rolled the windows down a
little to give ventilation, got out and locked the doors. I
was walking from the car when the vehicle that was behind the cars
parked to my right backed up quickly and the lady driver shouted at
me. "That was my parking space!" I was a bit
nonplussed. "But lady------." I got no further. "You wouldn't know what that word means." Her eyes glinted
malice at me. "Don't be angry, you were down the other
side." "I wouldn't waste any anger on an inconsiderate oaf like
you." Her eyes were glowering. "And I had my blinker
on!" I couldn't deny that, but thought better of saying anything
about the logic of it, or the fact that I had probably seen fifty
cars with their blinkers on, on my way to the shops, and that none
of them were laying claim to the parking spot. Braving the scornful glare, I said. "I am glad you are not
angry." I thought I felt the daggers in my back as I walked
away. It was
whilst I had my head in the refrigerator getting the milk that I was
rammed by a shopping trolley. Full force, on the
side of the ankle and shin. Not a word spoken but there was a
look of triumph in not-angry lady's eyes. There are those cynics who don't believe in them… They claim that the position of the planets at the time of
ones birth has less influence on us than the lighting of a match on
the top of Mt Everest has on the warmth of Katoomba in a bleak
August snowstorm. My friends, I can assure you that you can place complete
faith in the weekly publications our newspapers provide us with!
After all would a newspaper lie to you? Should you still have doubts
let me relate a little tale that will put your minds at rest. More years ago than I care to admit, life was not treating me
with the consideration I thought I deserved. Why I thought, being a
well balanced Libran who knew and fostered the virtues of justice
and fairness, cause and effect, the advantages of consideration and
caution, steady progress, sobriety, hard work, planning, moderation,
kindliness, reliability and sensitivity … Ah but modesty, the one
flaw in the true Libran's character forbids me to continue. Why? I
wondered. Why hadn't the world acclaimed me? Where was my Rolls
Royce with the uniformed chauffeur? The evenings at the club in
conference over a bottle of vintage port were eluding me. The late
night phone call regarding a technical hitch needing my personal
knowhow never came. To be honest there wasn't even a phone for it to
come on. My off the rack suit was threadbare and shiny. I was
waiting for the weekend to put a fresh layer of Kromhyde on the
soles my shoes. Positive action was called for and I decided I would win the
lottery! Now Librans don't make decisions lightly. I needed to weigh
the costs involved. Would I spend ten shillings and go for the big
prize of TWELVE THOUSAND POUNDS or be more modest and get less
value, five and sixpence for SIX THOUSAND. Whilst I was thinking,
fate intervened in the form of the baker's weekly bill. Six
thousand, it would have to do! With my ability it would soon
grow. The ticket bought, I could now start planning. I had
difficulty getting past the task of resigning from my job. Would I
just not turn up and let them find out how much they relied on me?
Would I take myself into head office and confront the Managing
Director? I could hear him, "Loss to the Company----Reconsider----- Executive
position----A seat on the board perhaps?" Would I continue as if nothing had happened until my
immediate superior gave me one of his sarcastic snarls and then tell
him a few salient facts? I could hear the office girls
saying. "Could see it coming." "Served him right." "Told
him straight." There
seemed a lot of satisfaction here. 'Stargazer' in the weekend papers gave a good run down of the prospects of the week ahead.
Significantly for the day of the lottery draw was this advice. 'STAY
WITH ROUTINE. EXPECT A SMALL FINANCIAL GAIN.' I had to be fair. It could only be a small prize as I had
only bought a small prize ticket. My mind was in a quandary, should
I warn my wife in advance or just let her get the telegram with the
joyous news. I opted for the latter feeling certain she would phone
the news to me at work, even if it did mean a considerable walk to
the nearest public phone. My excitement grew as the day dawned. STAY WITH ROUTINE, I
did just that. No message, nothing. By works end there was a heavy
disbelief in my heart. The train home was slow and cramped; I missed
my usual bus. Across the street from the bus stop the hotel was
noisy with revellers waiting for the six o-clock closing
call. I thought bitterly of my plan to catch the taxi home, getting
the driver to stop in front of the bottle section whilst I slipped
in to get a celebratory bottle of champagne. Suddenly, revelation. My wife was keeping the
news as a surprise for me when I got home. Confidence restored I faced the bus queue assured of
EXPECTING A SMALL FINANCIAL GAIN. As I put my foot on the bus step
there on the second step was threepence! I heard your poem David, I agree with what you say.
out of three men a child abuser! But what about the other two David? I saw one of them stop in his tracks at the window of the
child minding centre. He had seen his child, the love in his eyes
just glowed. He was transfixed for more than a minute.
If ever I was judge of man, I know he's not
one. A mate of mine, his days now marked, will live forever in the
mind of countless youngsters in his district. They would cluster
around him at a campsite where he was talking bush sense and kept
them spellbound explaining the wild waters of a remote stream where
he explained `the run', `the currents', `the eddies' the use
of draw stroke on the paddle. I've seen his children grow, I know
he's not one of your `ones'. I have seen my father, home and weary after his long days
work, striving for the `something better' for his children and
family. He always had the time and the love for us when it was
needed. I tell you now he wasn't one of
yours. Another was old and thin and wiry, his eyes contrasted with
the black of his body as he squatted on the ground in
David, I won't let you have him either. At my daughters house the door opened and the two littlies
ran. "My Daddy" they shouted. He's a two. My son learned his canoeing skills from the one now marked.
He went on to wear the Green and Gold of his country in that sport.
The phone was ringing as I got home from the folk festival and my
four-year-old grandson shouted. "I did go canoeing on the holidays
and I got stuck and my Dad saved me very quick." One of the sixty six and two thirds percent I
think. David, I don't ask that you let up on the ones, but remember
the twos. After all I think you're one too.
When I was a boy of eight or nine, more than sixty years
ago the great Tex Morton, country and western singer of renown used
to sing a song that started. "I'm
going to travel by train." The tune still lingers with me and over
the ensuing years I have done my share of travel in many different
trains. In the early fifties I travelled from Tully in north
The vastness of the land was impressive, the trip somewhere
around two thousand kilometres. It took hours for the low level
paperbark scrub to change to the verdant green of sugarcane, to the
citrus orchards climbing the low hills, to the neat rows of
pineapples, their orange fruit a contrast to the grey of their spiny
leaves. It was nearly dark, on this evening, when I left Tully, the
guard said there were no other passengers for the up high bunks but
he would leave them down just in case there were any last minute
bookings. I ate my sandwiches and read for a while, the motion of the train was soporific. I
decided to turn out the light and sleep. It was too dark to see
anything in the cabin if the lights were out it might discourage
anybody from disturbing
me. I was sleepily half awake, a torch flashed, I caught the lights of a station. The
train had stopped. "One of
the top ones mate." A
hoarse whisper, a suitcase, (a`port' if you were a Queenslander,)
scraped on the floor. I heard the whistle from the engine and the
lurching started again. I was aware of a shadowy figure rocking on
the ladder trying to access the top bunk; he gave a hacking cough. I
rolled over and went to sleep again.
Next time I woke with a start, I was wide awake,
apprehensive. Someone was patting my feet, it was too dark to see
anything, but I felt the hand as it patted and progressed up my
legs, I swung down my legs and felt a person. I pushed him hard up
against the cubicle wall. He gave a muffled cry.
dont'h hit'h me mathe, I coffed me bloothy teef out, I carn't finth
em, thurn on the bloothy ligth." The
light flooded the cabin. He was little and old with a shrunken face,
in sore need of his teeth, we found them under my
bunk. He was a good travelling companion but I didn't sleep
THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE BEARABLE." Joseph Conrad. Letters to Marguerite
Poradowska. * *
* * "Ivor" The Fear grips me as of old; dry mouth, short of breath. It
takes me a moment to wake properly and come to terms with my self,
the world. Early January morning, going to be a clear summer
day. "Ivor, we must leave early if we are to be in Quick shower and dressing, party clothes (the socks I had
been given for Christmas). Into the kitchen for a
cup of coffee and a bite to eat. "How was your night?" I ask Diana our eldest daughter who has
stayed over with us. "Not a wink of sleep, watched the moon and stars through the
window all night. Lovely. Need a shower and
I will sleep in the car going down." It had been a peaceful night for all, WHY should fear sit on
my shoulder like this, I wonder, no sign for months and then back it
comes, bitter as ever, no call for it. Fear. Fortieth birthday for our little
girl. Life will be hopping with her today. Turn on the radio to check the time, who is it singing? Maybe
Marrianne Faithfull or was it Joni Mitchell? "Turn turn turn, to every time there is a purpose under
heaven." *
* * "Ivor." That call was forty year ago and I still remember that fear.
The previous night's storm had cleared, it was dark outside.
"Yes,Yes." I managed to reply, tight
throat, heart pounding. "I feel a bit sick, a bit funny." "Is it the baby?" I was wide awake now, clearing my mind of
the darkness of unknown fear into the present
reality. "Of course not, it'd be premature." I tried to be of
comfort but was not successful. "What about a cupper?" "Yes I'd like that." Out to the kitchen, strike a match, turn up the wick in the lamp, yellow light
flickering. Pour in the metho, strike a match, turn the valve on the side of the Primus. Turn
the tap for a kettle of water, idly turn the Primus pump waiting for
the preheat flame to die. Pump hard, prick
the jet, clear blue flame, orange tips, hot flame. Get cups, milk
and teapot. I look out the window. Clear sky the stars washed and
sparkling, the hills purple in the night light, a dash of colour in
the east. Turn off the pressure tap to the little stove, make the
tea, back to the bedroom with hot cups. "Feeling better?" We take gulps of the hot
brew. "Yes." It makes me feel better too. "Must
be early. Didn't
that storm rage last night?" "Be about four o-clock by the look
of the sky." "OOH" The grimace of pain. Deirdre's cup on the floor, the
gradual look of relief as the pain receded. "Are you sure you're right?" "No I think perhaps, but it mustn't be, it's too
early." "I'll phone for the ambulance." "No! No, wait, wait, yes perhaps you better." Another flush of pain on Deirdre's
face. No time for fear now, out to the phone, turn the handle on
the old upright Erickson on the wall, not a sound, wind it again
hard, long, nothing. "That storm, they will have closed the exchange at the post
office. They won't open until eight o-clock
at the earliest. I will have to go over." The post office was at the next farm about a mile away. The
owner had given up the dairy and put on a share farming family. He
and a retired post office worker, keep the post office in one of the
several homes, whilst The sharefarmer's
daughter housekeeps for them. "If that's what they call it," as one neighbour
said. I scrambled for my clothes, shirt, shorts, socks, outside for
my boots, drag my floppy left foot, momentarily cursing the tractor
accident that left me with a `footdrop'. Stars are paling and
the trees stand out against the lightening east. Fumble with the
boot, with the calliper, turn the foot around with my hand and get
it set in the boot, the tingle of `pins and needles'. A good sign
the Doctor had said. Tighten the buckles up at last, clip in the spring and
walking was almost normal. Inside
again. "Will you be all right? I'll be as quick as possible, another
cup of tea? Anything I can do?" Anxiety on her face, clutching the bedclothes for comfort,
nodding "I will be as quick as I can." Out the gate, turn down the road, over a mile to the post
office, follow the road or over the paddocks? Realisation that I had
not even checked the other little one, she would be stirring soon,
run as fast as this leg will let me. What a mess, no car, nearly two hours drive to the hospital
and the ambulance would have to come out. Storm
water glittering in puddles on the road, the hills becoming green in
the distance as the light widened, breath coming hard. Out of condition since the leg. Turn your mind to something else Ivor, but keep running. That
Bank Manager, think about that bastard. "What right have you to ask for more money when you can't
even service your existing loan? Quite
irresponsible of you to have another child in your position.
Especially after the accident, I certainly won't advance money for a
motor vehicle. If you don't get your repayments in order I will have
to consider foreclosing on your mortgage." Turn across the paddock here and run down the hill behind the
old house where the post office is. Only one fall, you're doing O.
K. Look at the green, look at the grass,
the country is looking at its best for years. Not long now, try not
to think of the E S & A Bank, the corn is looking green down on
the flat, not far now, the dogs are barking. Turn up the side lane
and onto the verandah and bang on the door, not a sound. Knock Knock
KNOCK "Come on Siddy or John one of you." A
flicker at the curtain, slide of a lock, the agonisingly slow turn
of the door handle.
Siddy's tousled old head with it's washy
blue eyes. "What are you doin' this early?" "Phone" -- I could hardly get my breath, "Phone ambulance."
-- "Quick". I lent against the wall gasping
for breath. "Wha'yer wanter get an ambulance
for?" "My wife - baby, phone the
ambulance." "She's not havin' a baby is she? Jeeze I didn't know, are you
sure?" "Siddy, for Godsake phone the bloody ambulance!" I am still
gasping for breath. "Awright, awright, keep yer shirt on, who's yer doctor? Storm closed us down last night
yer know." He went to the old switchboard, pulled the cables with their
metal fittings, flipped up the metal connectors that were forever
`going down' especially in stormy weather. He turned the handle and
a comforting ring filled the room. "Who's yer doctor?" he asked again. I told him. He clicked
the receiver and rang again. Longer and waited, my breath was coming
back. He was about to ring again when there was a sound of a voice
at the other end. He talked softly, waited a while, a click and more
talking, he was talking quietly and I only heard "Mrs. Morton" and
then "baby". He hung up. Holding the receiver he looked at me
accusingly. "That bloody Doctor told me to tell you to get an ambulance,
the bastard hung up on me." "Siddy, phone the ambulance, NOW, PLEASE." "Awright, awright." He
rang again, more quiet talk and then "Yair it's on its
way." "Siddy, leave the switch open I'll have to make more calls
when I get back." He nodded and John came in and asked what all the
fuss was about. I told him to ask Siddy and took to my
heels. Sun nearly up and the world is in all its glory. Down on the
flats the river reflects the dawn lights, the far hill with a wisp
I-of mist, the cattle tracks still running
with the last of the night's storm. Breath
coming hard as I ran up the hill. Think of something else, yes think
of selling out! Yes think of that. No life for the others, might
suit you if you could get your head above the financial mess. Keep
running, look at the raindrops like diamonds in the grass, turn round the corner and down to the
house. Deirdre was up, the suitcase was on the little verandah,
the soon to be superseded baby was doing
something to her favourite Golliwog. She told me it had "Two Butts
for eyes." (Buttons) "Is it coming?" Deirdre's eyes asked the
question. "On it's way." There was comfort in
the words. "How are you?" I asked, her look told it
all. "I thought I would get Kath to look after Diana till your
mother can get here, I don't think she would mind. Yes I'll phone
her now." There was a need for action. It was definitely women's business, I felt inadequate and talked to Diana
about the "Wowowag" as she called it. "They will come over now and pick her up if their truck will
start." Vehicles were not the district's strong point. We set about
packing up a second bag and prepare Diana for her first time away
from her parents and with relatively unknown people. It would take
me a bit of organising to get in touch with my mother who was coming
up to look after Diana whilst Dee was in hospital, but that was
planned for six weeks time! Try later. We heard the truck long before we saw it. The muffler was
gone and one mudguard was flapping. It was the first time I had seen
Kath without her heavy make up. Their little boy was in the front
shouting `Bunny Rabbits,
Whoosh.' Diana didn't want to go and took quite a bit of persuading. I
hoped that the brakes were in better nick than the rest of the
vehicle looked. Finally it was a brave little look and not a tear in
the eye when she heard me say I would see her later in the
day. I gave her the Golliwog and I reminded her about the `Two
Butts for eyes'. She took him with her but she never liked him
afterwards. We sat at the table both close to tears, worrying for the
little girl. I said I would make another cup of tea and some toast.
Whilst the kettle was boiling I asked for advice on all the things
that I took for granted around the home. I wrote the maternity
hospital's number in large numbers. Asked if she had money and
an extra cheque but I doubt I said any of the things that she wanted
from me at the time. We didn't hear the ambulance till the
toot. He took pulses and the suitcase, asked me if I was coming. I
said I had fifty cows to milk and would get in later. He said he had
to go and he did, hardly time for a kiss and a goodbye. I watched
the vehicle turn the corner and smelt the toast
burning. No need for fear, the neighbourhood
rallied. "Take my car." "I'll come and help with the milking so you can get into town
early." "Sure I can get a message to your mother to come
up." Phone
call after milking. Starchy response from hospital
staff. "Your wife is as comfortable as possible under the
circumstances." "Visiting hours nearly over, don't disturb the
patients." I made a late evening visit to the
hospital. "It's a girl, She's a redhead!"
Sparkling eyes, tired face. "You must go now Mr. Morton." "You really shouldn't ask us to disturb the routine to show
you the baby." Late Fathers were not high on the priority
list. Next visit and Deirdre was sitting up in bed saying. "I want
to get home, I want to see Diana, they don't even make a proper cup
of tea here, I need
exercise." She arranged to come home a few days later, despite the
matron. "Your wife needs a lot of bed rest, foolish of her to go home
so soon." It was a borrowed car, on a heat wave day, engine boiling, the only container for water is the new
baby's bottle, fifteen trips from the river to the top of the
bridge. Eldest youngster, Diana on the verandah, critical
look. "Ten toes, ten toes." *
* On, on, I am going to sell, fence here, tidy there, agent's
inspection, buyer's inspection's. One buyer, that's all I need, and
he came. In due time the family was off to suburbia and I would
follow as soon as the sale was completed. On the last night and I walk alone, the moon reflected in a
shimmering furrow of water through the river oaks and looked like a
heart. Turn away, it could break. *
* Nose to the grindstone, suburban living, earning a living,
meeting our commitments, kindergartens, schools, two bikes for
Christmas, high schools, gatherings, boy friends with nobby knees
and diverse interests, sibling rivalry and two brothers along the
way to add to the confusion. College education,
moving in and out, changing hair styles and clothes. Turn the
years over. *
* Forty years on, turning into the rounding roads of "Nearly there." We turn and turn again into a drive and
there, held firm, lest they run out before the car is stopped, are
the two grand daughters, same age span between them as our girls,
same sibling rivalry. "Gran, Gran." They shout, their father lets them go and they
race for the car. "There's a cake." "Candles, Candles." We add to the medley of preparations and ask questions all at
once and pick up the Leggo blocks from under our
feet. Friends
from the birthing group, with their prams and car capsules in every
corner. Best
friends from her teaching stint on Why here's Heidi, I remember her in the big storehouse at the
cattle station in the Megan and her two boys, my most vivid memory was of her baby
lusty at her breast, tugging at a handful of her long hair. She had
it cut short for the next one. She's as calm and beautiful as
ever. This chap had been a cause for worry. He seems O K. now with
wife and lots of children, a pillar of the public service. Cold
tinnies making fizzing noises and ice clinked in
glasses. 'Where's the computer?' The older youngsters were away with
`Lawnmower' and `Spacejack'. Plates of sandwiches went with them.
The table replenished and we were all asked to `help ourselves'.
Glasses were filled and the Birthday Girl's health drunk. The men
slipped into the other room to check on the cricket score. Frank
discussed the merits of "Father how about you get the cake underway?" Have you ever
tried to light forty candles with littlies blowing them out quicker
than you could strike matches? Eventually the Hip Hip Hurrahs
resounded and little speeches were made with loving kisses all round. "Can we do the presents now Mummy?" The three-year-old could
wait no longer. Thoughtful gifts were thanked for and the humorous
ones laughed about. Diana, the big sister who had appraised the `Ten
Toes' produced CDs of the sixties. "Not the Mamas and the Papas?" Volume was turned up and songs
sung, discs changed and I overheard, "I cried when I heard of Janis Joplin committing
suicide". "Oh I must listen to this." Leonard Cohen! He droned on about
Suzanne down by the river with those oranges. Jiving music and the
room was full of the whirling figures with hair all over the place,
shoes kicked off and bodies turning, the littlies watching with wide
eyes. "Nothing like a sixties tune for rhythm, you can really twist
and turn" somebody called. From my vantage point in an easy chair, my mind turned back,
ten or more years further back to Harry Belefonte. "Where are you going? My little one, Pretty
one. Where are you going? My baby my
own. Turn around and you're tiny Turn around and you're grown Turn around and you're a young wife with babes of your own." There's a vibrancy here. I think of
my fortunate life and the irrational fear that I carry with me,
always unfulfilled. "AH,
LOVE --- AND TO PUT THEIR TRUST IN LIFE!" Joseph
Conrad. `Victory.'
The very words bring back my schooldays. 'Frogs Eyes' and
'Sinker' were two of the perennial complaints that we would hear
from the boarders. Sago pudding so I was informed tasted heavily of
lemon essence and swam in a pale custard,
the small gelatinous balls of sago invariably being hard and chewy.
However this was greatly preferred to the steamed pudding or
'sinker' that must have been easier to make, or the ingredients less
costly, as this seemed to be on the menu every second
day. After lunch the boarders would come to the open areas where
we day pupils ate our lunch. They'd ask for sandwiches or pieces of
fruit and complain of hunger. Often 'wars' would break out between
day boys and boarders when compressed masses of the 'sinker' would
be used as ammunition. Catching a direct hit from a well-aimed
missile was to be avoided. A cricket ball could do no greater damage
and the school carpentry teacher, who attended to maintenance, was
always wandering classrooms threatening murder and measuring glass
panels in broken windows. Each carpentry student became expert in
'hacking out' but I fear that I never became proficient at 'puttying
in' window panels. 'Sinker' became the reason for the only mass action of
students that I was to witness as a pupil. There was often talk of
storming the barricades, destroying the record books that contained
all our sins, burning the canes and generally establishing a system
where forbearance and mercy were to be the prime motivation in the
treatment of students. But alas these remained just
talk. 'Sinker' however, was TOO much to be tolerated. One day every
plate of the dessert was returned to the kitchen uneaten. The
headmaster, who dined with the other resident teachers at the top
table, rose, causing a rare moment of silence for the dining hall,
and said. "There will be no dessert for the next month." He rang the
dismissal bell, and there wasn't. All along the line there were little sidings, rails where
trucks could be left, sometimes there was a construction of some
sort. Perhaps a few sleepers piled up and held together with spikes,
occasionally a hand operated crane, a marshalling yard with a water
tank at one end for the steamer engines. Open and closed trucks
could be shunted in for local produce to be loaded, or a store from
`further out' would get a load of provisions. Full trucks would be
taken on to their destinations. At the time it seemed a bit ho hum
but I now realise that it must have taken a lot of organisation to
keep the system working. Where I was there was a station of sorts, an open shed
perhaps two metres by two meters and a three metre timber station
section. Tracks shimmered in the hotness, disappearing around a bend
perhaps a kilometre one way. The other way the tracks seemed to melt
into the distance. Black ballast along the tracks seemed to almost
melt. The only shade was in the tin shed though the heat was
magnified there. There was a plank supported by two oil drums
serving as a seat and a small round tank at the back of the shed
where you could get a drink. Heat built up and the proverbial leaf
stirred not at all. Did I imagine it, or was there movement in the mirage along
the line? No, just the heat haze playing tricks, but no, perhaps
there WAS something, just a speck. Focusing on something was a
relief from the boredom and I spent the next half hour making bets
with myself as what it was. A mob of cattle, no just a mirage, but
perhaps it was a small truck or a rail motor. Slowly it resolved
itself into a hand trolley with a central handle and two men working
it. It seemed an eternity until they came to the siding and pulled
the machine off the rails. "'Ere Goin'" one enquired of me, his mate smiled. They wore
the official uniform of the fettler, shapeless felt hat, wet with
swear, blue singlet and shapeless long trousers that could have been
any colour but now were stained to match the black ballast. Boots
solid but scuffed and down at the heel. Smiley wiped his face with his arm and pulled an axe from the
truck and split up a bit of sleeper had a fire going in no time and
filled a blackened billy from the tank. Talker produced two chopped enamel cups from a sugar bag,
"'Ave a Joee with us in a shake mate." He said whilst Smiley got tea
and sugar out and found another mug. Tea, hot black and strong,
Smiley picked up a splinter of sleeper to act as a stirrer. Would
there be any railway in The offer of a cupper was as automatic as breathing to these
types, they seemed to take the hardness of
conditions as a matter of course. We yarned in a desultory way, they
had papers to pick up from the guard on the goods train, their
rations as well, Smiley grinned in assent.
Then talker said. "Run out'er tebacca last night, yer wouldn't have
a smoke on yer?" I regretted that I didn't smoke. "Just
the two of you working together?" I
asked. "Yair." Talker
answered and Smiley nodded his assent, then after about a minute
added "Like it this way, since Ben." Smiley seemed saddened by this
and frowned, there was no conversation for some
time. "Always worked around here?" I asked. "Nar, 'uster be on the Western line." Smiley looked a bit
troubled, and Talker seemed to consider the matter, then said. "Uster camp a few miles out of a little town some nights we'd
walk into the pub, the three of us, then we'd bring a bottle er rum
home with us." Smiler seemed happy about this and
grinned. "Uster have to have to cross a bridge ter get in or outer
town, it was about thirty foot high, and this night Ben was carrying
the bottle in his hip pocket an he slipped right in the middle and
fell, well yer know, he never broke the bottle." Smiley spoke for the first time and he wasn't
smiling. "No, he never broke the bottle, but he broke his bloody
When I was young, I knew that it would take a long time for
me to get as old as I am now, but I was wrong when I was
young. Hills were steeper when I was young, and roads went further
and further and the tar on the side of the road would bubble up like
small volcanoes in the hot sun and you could squash them with your
bare toes and there were often cigarette and tobacco tins in the
bush and you could keep them to put nails in, if you had nails, and
keep them to nail boxes onto the billy cart that you longed for and
your elder Brother was still alive and your Sister wasn't even born,
and in the bush there were long dead tree branches that you could
drag away to make a bonfire in the open land behind the shop that
had the steps covered with cobwebs leading down into the dungeon
where the ghosts were, because the grocer's boy, who used to poke
faces at you through the window, when he came to get the morning
order, had told you, and Johnny Mc- Intyre's Father held the bunger
too long and it went off in his hand and he went round for days with
a bandage on his eye and his arm in a sling, and you could twirl
round and round and round until you fell to the ground and the world
would go on spinning for ever and ever, and you could get
blackberries from the bushes in the paddock where the horses were
next door to the Chinaman's Gardens where you could get a whole big
basket of things for not much money because My Mother said so and
sometimes we went to the dairy up the road for milk if we hadn't put
out the billy with sixpence for the milkman with his horse and cart
and once the horse bolted and there were cans all along the road and
you could see the spilt milk in the holes in the road, and then they
started to build houses along the road and you couldn't see the
dairy any more when you had to walk for ever to catch the tram and
on the tram you could sit in the wooden seats and know that you just
had to be a tram guard when you grew up and walk along the side step
saying "Fez, Fez Plez" and if it was raining you could wear a funny
black thing to keep your hat dry, but the double decker busses came
and you didn't have to walk so far unless you wanted to go to the
pictures, but somebody had to take you and sometimes your Uncle
would give you `Frippence' for your very self and you could buy a
big ice cream with two scoops or keep it and buy lots of lollies on
different days but you would lose the change if you got any and
David's Dad had a car and took you camping and it rained all the
time and right down the other end of the road was the water and the
soldier crabs would run along the sand and dig little holes and bury
themselves quicker than you could catch them and you fell over in
the oysters and cut your legs and had to have eleven stiches and the
Doctor poured Iodine on the cuts and you yelled and yelled and
didn't like Doctors for ever and ever and sometimes you would ride
your dinky on the road with your Father and your Mother talking
behind you and often your Father was gone before you got up and
sometimes lots of people would knock on the door and you remember
your Mother having her scissors sharpened three time on the one day
and the Bottle Oh wouldn't come to your house as you didn't have
bottles but next door would have some and you would watch him turn
the halfpennies over and over in his hand before giving them to Mrs.
O'Grady and he would count the bottles again as he put them in the
sack and take it to the cart with the big horse and call "Bottle Oh"
again and the horse would move on without him even being in the
cart, just like magic, and the days were hotter than now and colder
and you could lie on your back on the lawn and see the clouds going
over and sometimes see the shadows racing along the road and on your
birthday your Dad gave you a special treat by taking all your
friends for a fly in Kingsford Smith's plane over where you lived
and you were sick and lay on the floor of the plane and everybody
else saw their houses but I didn't. Ah when I was young.
Others have done it better before. Who would dare to better
Kipling when it's the emotion brought on by a dog? 'Ah brothers and sisters I bid you beware when you give your
heart to a dog to tear.' But it was Dalby Davidson's description of the old red cow,
struggling to the water edge and failing in the quest for life,
slowly drowning in the mud at the waterhole that I was reminded of
when the little dog's back legs collapsed. I saw a bewildered acceptance and yet a pleading in Shirley's
eye for help. Yes I could pick her up and I could get her to water
and food but I couldn't do the walking for her. She collapsed
uneasily and uncomfortably into her basket. Her eyes held mine as I
went and phoned the vet. Jemma the vet talked of the possibility of cortisone tablets.
She asked if we had really thought the matter out saying. "It is
finally your decision about her quality of life." No, Jemma was unable come to the house for a few days because
of her workload. She was alone in the practice for the weekend. I
could drive to the rear of the surgery and the little dog could stay
in her basket. Oh! She knew! She snapped at Jemma as she tried to place a tourniquet on
her leg. She looked at me with more courage than I felt at that
moment. The needle seemed to take longer than I thought it would.
Her breath came slower and slower and Jemma at last laid the
stethoscope aside saying. "She's gone." Tears were running down our faces as we took our friend of
sixteen years home. I dug a grave in the garden and our two grandaughters
sprinkled wattle flowers as I buried her. I keep her rego tag 02578
and the waratah we planted for her blooms beautifully each
year. I arrived at My mission was to help my daughter put to right her house
that had had a long run of tenants. There were trees to be lopped,
rubbish to be removed to the tip, doors to be eased, locks to be
oiled and refitted, screens to be remeshed, gutters cleaned, and
walls and patios to be repainted. My daughter's partner was on a
field trip to It was a `Guvvie' estate where houses for the general public
had been built by the government to ease the housing shortages that
were so prevalent in the sixties. (They still are now but there are
no public housing schemes.) People had bought the roof over their
heads as they prospered and as life changed the stayed or sold and
moved. That was how my daughter had come to buy the place. In the
street there were grand extensions, modest alterations and signs of
houses being loved. There were also places that had deteriorated
over time. A few doors up and across the road was a place with
problems or at least `problem people'. Unkempt toddlers were a
danger to themselves and passing cars, the driveway was rutted, old
cars were piled in the back yard, shouting was often heard and the
cries of children. "For Christ sake piss off!" He said
he'd be here at twelve. We don't want another blue." She was young
and thin, had a cigarette in hand and a youngster on her hip. The
words were addressed to a leather coated fellow standing near a
motor bike, though I could hear clearly from the garden. He threw
his hands up in the air, roared the engine and with a final hand
wave, took off. She dumped the youngster on the ground and went
inside with the slam of a door. As I went on with my painting and saw a decrepit car, with
two doors and a mudguard different colours
to the car body, pull up outside the house. The youngster ran
forward with a glad cry of "Daddy! Daddy!'
The driver got out and had a long embrace with the child. The door
slammed as the thin woman came out and dragged the child from the
man's arms. The child shrieked in protest. Ernest conversation took
place between the adults, resulting in the child going back to the
man, it quietened immediately. He placed the child in the back of
the car, and I heard her say it was time he had a proper seat for
the kid. He got into the car and it limped away, blowing smoke and
making a lot of noise. My daughter drove up with her two littlies. She set the baby
rug on the floor and suggested that we have a bite of lunch. I was
all for it. Fresh wholemeal bread, lots of salad and cheese and a
hot cupper was most welcome. Our fuzz buzz of a two year old
grizzled because her bread roll didn't have butter on the outside as
well as the inside. In her `Weboks' and `Osh Kosh' clothes her life
prospects seemed poles apart from the lad across the road. We worked
on through that afternoon, settling on paint colours and removing
another tree that was too close top the garage. I could only stay for three working days and on Thursday I
would have to return home. Even if all the jobs were not completed,
only the outside work remained and the place was ready for a new
tenant. Thursday was a magic day, warm sun and spring greenery
abounded. I didn't have to hurry my journey and I stopped to look at
the birds on As the commentator came on I could hear the gun salutes and a
military band playing in the background. "The plain coffin, draped
with the Australian flag, the slouch hat with a sprig of wattle, is
moving the last mile of the journey to it's
final resting place." There were interview's with retired
generals who spoke of honour and dignity, the glory and heroism of
the deeds in Whilst the Prime Minister gave an impassioned speech, my mind
seemed to drift away to another `unknown' person who had been in our
family all my life. I remembered being small enough to push to the front of the
barricades, one Anzac Day. I saw them marching, medals in rows on
their chests, I saw the Army, the Navy, the Air Force, rank upon
rank of them and I saw the floral offerings on the
Cenotaph. "Why aren't you marching Uncle Fred?" "Don't ever go to war my boy." I often used to wonder about Uncle Fred. Sometimes he seemed
so happy. He would talk loudly and give me the copper coins in his
pocket. He was always smoking and each lungfull would bring on a fit
of coughing. In the mornings he was cranky and I would hear my
Mother or Aunt Majorie say, `It's the war'. I remember he took me
out for a day on a motor launch, and for a brief period we went
sailing on Saturdays. There were often different ladies at his flat
and it smelt of smoke and something I didn't know. There were
bottles and I wouldn't see him for a long time. Hostilities with "Just till pay day. Working sixteen hour shifts, I'll fix it
then." There were four in my father's family. Uncle Bill my Father's
twin who I really don't remember, Aunt Marjorie, the youngest, and
Uncle Fred who was some ten years older than my father. In today's
thinking they would be considered abused children. I have heard my
father say that his mouth would dry out and be unable to swallow
when he heard his Father's key in the door lock. Uncle Bill shot
himself on a ship between "As a grown man I was more frightened of him then, than
anything `Jerry' had ever thrown at me". Uncle Fred seemed to move around, as I matured I would hear
that he was at the War Vet's Home at Narrabeen, he had moved to Port
Macquarie, or he was in another home at Tweed Heads. He bought a
caravan and lived on my Father's property for a while. I remember
taking a ute load of bottles to the tip
when he went back to the Narrabeen home. The only time I ever really
talked to him was in a pub down there. For once his tongue was
loosened and he talked of Lightning Ridge and opal mining, of
spraying Prickly Pear, and of working as a painter and docker during
the war. He lit another cigarette and had the usual bout of
coughing. "Bloody gas, I lay in the mud for two days after he smashed
my knee with his rifle butt. That's when the gas got me." His voice
faltered, then with bravado he said. "It must be your shout". It was
the only time I ever heard about the war from him. The last time I
saw him was in "Could you get them to give me a cigarette?" He
asked. He is my `Unknown Warrior'. He asked that no one go to his
funeral. His ashes are scattered we know not where. No guns fired on
that day and the Prime Minister spoke no
words, but I know that Uncle Fred would want that that kid across
the road could have butter on both sides of his bread roll
too. He walked slowly up the ramp at His well-worn baggy trousers gaped under the belt that was
straining to keep his paunch under control. I thought back to my
childhood when little boys had pants with funny little flappy
devices that should have been tucked in. Alas mine were always
flying out, much to the enjoyment of older children at school. Then
I graduated to buttons that begged the statement `Your wearing a
medal.' It took me years to get over the distress of these
exchanges. The zip fastener was a heaven sent system that brought
relief. I watched him from across the platform, what to do in this
case? Leave him to his ignorance and future embarrassment or alert
him to his problem now and perhaps not be appreciated for my
efforts. I walked up to him and stood close, his bloodshot eyes again
reminded me of his look alike. He frowned and tried to push
past. "Your
zip, mate." I
said. "Huh, you'd think some bastard would a told me." He growled
as he adjusted his dress. "Some bastard just did." I said. The long Indian-Pacific train rolled through the station,
causing a distraction. "Come over in 'er six weeks ago. Got in the
smoker car, hardly a bastard in it, mostly in the sleepers.
They lose more'n a million dollars a year on that run you
know." "I didn't know, but I hope to do a trip on it sometime." I
responded. "Come over to see the family, four brothers and three
sisters, one of 'em lives down "It's seen a lot of changes. I remember when there were
market gardens and lots of open space." "U'ster be aw-right. Full of bloody
Arabs now, got no morals, some of them don't drink yer know! Their
laws too, bloody animals, that's what they
are. If I had my way I'd give 'em a pannikin of water and a bag of
flour, and piss 'em orf inter the bush, that's what I'd
do!" A young Asiatic couple walked by, He in a tailored suit, silk
shirt, gold Rolex watch gleaming on his wrist and a smart attache
case in his hand. She resembling a
"Are we going to be at the Zoo soon?" "I'd sent them bloody slopes back too." His next words were lost in the rattle of a train drawing
into the station and the reverberating announcement from the railway
public address system. With a nod I moved to a different carriage,
wondering if I would raise the alarm if I saw another fellow
traveller at half-mast. Katoomba train, a red-hot summer day. I was
early, the air-conditioned carriage beckoned and I had the choice of
every seat in the carriage. I settled down to read a magazine and
was aroused by a commotion, a banging of a stick against the seats,
a hardly intelligible mutter of words. "Garn, get under there, bloody dog." With a
heavy white stick, he gave the dog a thump. This didn't remind me of
the caring relationship between person and dog that the guide dog
people like to promote. Dog slunk under the seat in front of him, on
the opposite side of the aisle from me. Giving himself access to four seats, the
blind man spread out a large collection of plastic bags, pulled out
a ball of wool and some multi coloured knitting, talking loudly to
himself all the time. More passengers were entering the carriage
by now, but they tended to give the Knitter a wide berth. As the
train left Central the need for a seat prompted one man to sit
beside the blind fellow. He grizzled about having to move his bags
but still had the two seats in front of him piled high. He pushed a
woolly item under the man's face. "I knit them you know, Beanies! I knit them
to sell. I can make them any size, would you like to buy one?" His
fellow passenger demurred, but the Knitter was not to be put off. He
scrabbled in one of the other bags and pulled out an odd looking
garment, it was white, pale blue and pale green, "It's a singlet mate, would you like one of
them?" "No thanks." He got up and walked to-wards the front of
the train. We stopped at Burwood and another traveller took the seat
beside him. Next stop Strathfield, the train was starting to fill
up, an old couple came up to the seat covered with plastic bags and
tried to turn the back over. Knitter pulled his bags around him; he
looked rather like a broody chook settled well down in a
nest. The old couple reminded me of a retired
minister and his very proper wife. They were dressed neat and
careful. He had on an old fashioned grey suit, striped shirt, plain
tie and an old but well brushed grey hat. She a shiny blue suit with
a frilly collar to her blouse; they gave me the impression of
parsimony, and good works in a poor parish. Granville, the goods
were being displayed to the new person sitting beside Knitter, and
the train was really filling up. Do you remember the dog? I think I was the
only passenger apart from its owner that knew it was
there. It decided now to drop the most incredible
fart. It was the sort of fart that would clear a football field. In
the enclosed carriage it was horrendous. The man sitting next to
Knitter said "Jesus" and tried to get up. Knitter looked straight
ahead. Mrs Parsimony turned on her husband and berated him volubly;
he flushed red to his ears, shook his head and pulled out a hanky.
The people in the aisle drew back but we were all jammed in with
this malodorous heated atmosphere. ALONE IN THE DESERT I think the name has changed now, but it was I had no trouble getting to the hospital, though I wasn't
prepared for the size of it. It seemed a mile from the parking lot
to the entrance where an interrogation awaited me. "Who do you want? Why do you want to see him? Are you a
relation? What ward's he in?" When I said I didn't know, there was a
pained expression and a consulting of lists. Finally an emphatic. "He's not
here." I went through it again, there were
more consultations, a phone call, then at last a smile. "Bed 27,
ward GG, building 6." He opened the gate for me and the hugeness of
it got to me. Perplexed I looked back and asked. "Could you give me a hint." It is
obvious that I had passed some sort of test because he came out
leaving other visitors waiting. "I was at the same push in "Thanks Dig." I say, he smiles a faraway
smile. Some of the buildings are solid and brick but my directions
led me to row upon row of weatherboard buildings, connected by
covered ramps, handles on the sides, some glassed, others open all
painted in the regulation yellow brown of Government buildings. Off
course I did miss it and had to get directions twice. First from a
group of patients sitting in the sun, who
asked me to sit and have a yarn and looked disappointed when I said
I had to push on. Next I asked a nurse laden with trays. She had a
clipboard under her arm and no time say more than. "Keep going and
follow the signs." Building G G. I
enter another world. Each window frames the side of the adjoining
building, heavy curtains on the side, fluorescent lighting, bedside
cabinets sterile white, dark linoleum
floors heavily polished. Hospital smell of
disinfectant and floor polish strong on the nostril. Hushed voices and stainless steel clattering. A
tall woman with glasses and authority in her demeanour challenged
me. She turns to the nurse beside her. "Nurse. Bed 27." She held me with her eyes till the nurse
returns. "Take Mr. Morton to see his Uncle." I am released and the nurse leads me away. I
ask. "How is he?" She says. "Comfortable." But her eyes
don't. She left me there and I am amazed at how small he looks,
pale, the same colour of the pillows that seem to submerge him. I
saw the oxygen mask and the gas bottles with their fire sign, red
warning line through it. I stand and look and remember the scraps of
his life I have heard from him. The bullet wound in the leg. The smashed knee. The gas that caused coughing
fits that seemed to go on forever. His childhood
of terror and abuse. The first time he had ever felt justice
he said was on the `Sobraon' a training ship for intractable youths.
Little wonder he liked the drink. "For Christ sake wake him up mate, visitors are too few
here", from the man in the next bed. His eyes startled and then
recognition. His handshake was limp. Not like the `Put it there if
it weighs a ton!' bravado of old. "Could you get them to give me a cigarette?" There was a plea
in his voice. I asked the nurse if I could take him out and let him light
up, but she shook her head. "Doctor's.
Orders." We talked on till a bell rang and three patients in chairs
were wheeled in. He scrabbled in his drawer and pulled out his
purse, insisting that I take some money to buy a `treat for the
kids'. I shook his hand again and said, "Don't know when I will be
able to get down to see you again, I am that busy." He held my hand
long, and looked at me hard saying, "You don't know how lucky you are my boy." I nearly bumped
into the nurse because of the tears in my eyes. She said, "Please come again soon, he often says it's like
being alone in the desert here." I never saw him again. BAGS Just what sort of bags? A bit of help please! Plastic bags,
wheat bags, hand bags, money bags, paper bags, overnight bags, lunch
bags, old bags, new bags, sleeping bags, duffel bags, kit bags,
shopping bags, body bags, . . . . . We knew that we would not arrive at There was an imposing set of front steps up to the foyer of
the hotel. I stopped there and collected our suitcase to book in. As
we climbed up, the Concierge with flowing coat and top hat swooped
on us and clutched our bag and ushered us towards the entrance. He
didn't say as word as the handle failed, the bag dropped, bursting
open, allowing all our possessions to tumble down the
stairs. "I will have to refer you on of course." The
doctor was short, roundish, of dark Slavonic appearance. Meticulous desk, blood pressure gauge and stethoscope on
a large blotter, prescription pads beside, reference books in a
locked cabinet. A crucifix on the wall, who I wondered was to
suffer the agony? "The address and phone number are on the
envelope." "Thank You." He gave a short nod and showed
me to the door. Several days later I was at a large
multipractice, medical centre, two receptionists and ten consulting
rooms. Patients coming and going. There was
a shadow of a tree across the window. It was hot and the glare from
the windows exacerbated by the white painted concrete
blocks. "Mr. Morton?" I was ushered into a dark
room. "Sit down. You brought a referral?" "Hmmp"
as he read. "MMM, Hmmp." "Hmmp, Yes, This is a serious matter, have
you given it consideration?" "Yes." "You have children? Four
eh, MMM. We have to counsel carefully on these matters you
know. MMM. Can you afford to go to a private hospital? Ah good,
good. What does your wife think of this? Ah, her suggestion, I see,
I see. My secretary will arrange things. I will see you at the
hospital." I followed all the instructions on the form
and at seven A.M. one sunny summer morning, form in hand, presented
myself at the admission desk of the hospital. There was the all-pervasive smell of
disinfectant mingling with that of linoleum polish and bright
overhead signs were going click, click, click. People in wheel chairs, people lying on
trolleys with drips above and bags below, on the floor a couple of
kids playing hide and seek amongst the sick, uniformed nurses with
clipboards, a squat, swarthy man threatening all before him with a
floor polisher. Men in pyjamas with post-operative stoops and
suitcases, anxious stir crazy eyes hanging around the door,
obviously waiting to be released. The summer sunshine seemed far away and I
thought of the crucifix. "Ah! Yes, Mr. Morton" as she read my
letter. "What are you here for?" I told her. "Just fill in this form please." Nervously I
scratched with a biro. In the one moment of silence in the morning's
confusion the receptionist beckoned a sister and called down the
corridor in a loud voice. "Judy here's your other
vasectomy." I was led away, told to put my bag,
`there'. "Mr. Shaw's things will be out of your
locker soon. Go and have a shower, put this on, what are you here
for Mr. Morton?" A quick shower and dry down. The garment confused me. It certainly didn't cover,
seemed more like a surgeons mask. The curtains were pulled around my bed when
I returned. Just as I sat down, they rattled apart again. She was a
young lass and looked like a contemporary
of my daughters, she wore a short uniform and cap on at a rakish
angle. She was a bright, cheery type and asked as she put her tray
down, "What are you here for Mr.
Morton?" I told her. She removed the tray cover.
Cake of soap, mug of hot water and a safety
razor. "Just round the bollocks will do." she said
over her shoulder, pulling the curtain behind her as she
left. I was busy when the curtains rattled apart
again. This time two of them standing
there. "What are you here for Mr. Morton? I mutter
an answer. I'm just take your blood pressure and listen to the
chest, here take this, it will help calm you
down." Drowsy, heavy eyes, curtains pulled apart
again, a trolley wheeled in. "Move over Mr. Morton, come on. What
are you here for Mr. Morton?" As I slide over I mumbled an answer,
swinging doors, bumping into swinging doors, more swinging doors,
then bright lights. My hand was grasped
tightly. "What are you here for Mr.
Morton?' " Mumble mumble." "Count to ten." "One, Tw, w, - - - - -
." "Wake up, Wake up." Bright, glaring light, dry, dry
mouth. "Wake up, wake up, what day is it Mr.
Morton?" Swirling, Swirling -----. "Mr. Morton. Mr.
Morton, time to go to the toilet. Come on Mr. Morton, just have a
pee and you can go home." "Get your things out of the locker and sit
in that chair Mr. Morton, we're making the
bed up for another patient." I found that I was hanging around the door
with stir crazy eyes and anxious thoughts,
waiting. There was trouble in the mountains, Where the creeks go rushing down. And the neighbours stood beside, in battle
lines! Till it fell upon the Council, to lend a soothing
hand. And Peter Mackie rallied to the cry. Oh he drew a water causeway with bends both smooth and
wide. There were river gravel bottoms and rocky banks
beside. There were written words of comfort, for the owners of the
land. But he left it with the Council, and
retired. Thus it fell upon Bob Johnson to make the drawings
work. And he picked upon the Kenco's as the best! So they came in trucks with trailers, had their dunny on
behind. They brought bobcats, backhoes, buckets and vibrating hammers
too. And a turquoise blue Kobelco, shiny new! They had a truck as big as blazes from a distant Nordic
land. New fangled Our Deirdre's ire was raised when they marked trees that had
to go. But we quickly found a way around, as the chainsaws gave a
roar. And the chipper cut the branches to a mulchy gummy
straw. Now Ashley got a hammer and a metal stake so
sharp, And he hammered through the sewer for a
lark So we sent him to the quarry for a load of lucky
stones. Whilst Steven bogged the Kobelco in the sticky mountain
loams. It was Ken come to the rescue. Who with
thoughts and words perverse. He directed till the Kobelco rolled right out, and not a jot the worse. Thus the gully bed was formed up, whilst the Renos swelled
with stones, (Though if you tried to sleep there it was peril to your
bones.) Great boulders lined the curving banks, came courtesy of
Leighton's! Whilst wood chips smoothed the loamy banks against the dread
erosion. We have to our good fortune, now, a means to
save The hanging swamps below us from the dreaded urban
drains. And again, to our good fortune the neighbours can't
complain. So if ever you're in trouble, call a Kenco quick and
smart. And they will have the problem solved to the joy of every
heart! `You silly old Bugger', I thought as the disinfectant burnt
into the cut right around my finger. It was difficult to bandage and
would be a nuisance for weeks. Serves you right for showing off to
the kids, they love watching the near magic of the string being cut
just by a few turns around the finger. I often do it when they want
string cutting, they ask me how, and I say it's a bit of old
fashioned magic. I didn't even look, a quick twist, `Abraba
Kadabra', hard yank and the finger nearly ringbarked. I will make
certain it's not the nylon `Brickies Twine' next
time. How I tried to learn that trick when I was a boy. `Grocer'
behind the counter of the Moran & Cato store used to do the same
trick when I would go into the shop with the list my mother would
give me to bring home after school. Pencil behind the ear, a white
apron, close cropped hair and thin moustache he would go through the
list, biscuits out of the tin and into the bag, twist it round his
fingers, slide behind the counter on the
slippery floor to the eggs in a box of fine
sawdust. "Tell your mother they have gone up to two shillings a
dozen!" I can remember that because I used to keep the family
chooks and they were `Off the lay'. A tin of jam, perhaps some
cheese, watch him weigh out the butter, he could cut half a pound
from the box with his wooden spatulas to almost exact weight. I
would sit on the high Arnott's chair and watch the goods pile up on
the counter. Then the packing into a box and he would tie it with
string so that it would be easier to transport on the bike rack. I
would watch the parting of the string, ask how it was
done? "Like this." His hands would fly like lightning and the
string would be in two. Watch as closely as I could, it took me
nearly a year to learn this magic. At last it was my secret as well
and I used to put it to good use when I went to my Father's bookshop
to tie up parcels for posting on Saturdays. I became a gun hand at
packing though the skill seems to have left me of
late. Once however it wasn't a Saturday. It was the last Friday of
the school holidays and for some reason other things would prevent
my going into the city on the Saturday. I can remember it was
raining heavily as we left home in the morning, the sky grey and
wind blowing the rain at us as we walked up the Grey days have never been favourites of mine. Perhaps it was
hereditary, as my Grandmother disliked them as well. They were
always an excuse for her to dress up. Catch `The Boat' (Trams,
Busses, Trains even Boats were always `Boats' to her, as she would
come from over the harbour to Sydney and in the days before the
bridge it was always a `Boat') to seek entertainment at a theatre
and have a bite of lunch at a restaurant. She was a Grand Old Lady in the true sense of the word, though by the time I remember her there had
been a coming down in the world for her. She had come (as far as I
can gather) from the Squattocracy, but the never mentioned `Drink'
had reduced her Father's fortune. She had married, for love an emigrant Swede who sailed into
He helped finance the Theosophical Society, putting most of
his fortune into `The Work'. Failing investments due to the Great
Depression and over extension of his physical capacity led to his
premature death and my Grandmother's circumstances, though I never
heard a word of bitterness from her. I had done my parcels, weighed them, stuck on the stamps and
was returning from my last trip to the G P O after posting when I
met her at the entrance to the bookshop. "What 'yer doing?" was her usual greeting and when I
explained that I had finished my chores she suggested we both go to
a movie, and then have a bite of lunch together. This was good news,
as she would, hopefully, take us to Cahill's where there were
waffles and maple syrup. Morning or afternoon tea would sometimes be
to Reppin's where crumpets were the go. I remember once suggesting a
Sargeant's cafe as we were passing it, but it was dismissed with a
whispered. "Oh, dear, no." I must admit that I do not remember the show, and I was a
little disappointed that lunch was to be at David Jones, Elizabeth
St store. Upstairs of course! This would mean the embarrassment of
calling back the waitress to be
certain that she remembered the second jug of boiling water for the
tea. Possibly standing round on the way out whilst
there were discussions about clothes that she had no intention of
buying. But this was a small price to pay for the pleasure
that she so often gave me. We were both happily content as we made
our way back to the lifts to return to the ground
floor. Hostilities with On this day an elegant lady entered, a box with wrapping
paper denoting a purchase, not often seen in these times of
austerity, she stood in front the young family. Next floor several more people got in, next down an American
serviceman, forage cap under his epaulette, pips on shoulder, medals
on chest, our lift attendant bowed his cap to his pinned back sleeve
in salute. First floor where were lots of people
pressed into the lift. "Right back please, thank you." From
our driver, we were all pressed back and the lift
descended. "Ground
floor. Thank
you." The doors swung open, people moved out, the crush eased, the
elegant lady with the parcel stepped forward, turned, swung her arm
with vigour and gave the American a resounding backhander, turned
again and in high dudgeon marched out of the lift. The lift
attendant's coat sleeve seemed almost to lift and salute her as she
passed. Obviously shaken, the American put his hand to his face,
shook his head, dabbed at his face again. "What, what, I, I wonder, what that was about." He
stammered. "She was pushing me up against the wall with her bum, so I
bit it." said the small boy standing beside
me. Grandmother took me by the arm and led me out. I could see her
smiling. A SAFE QUID Did I tell you about Uncle Rupert? He gave me two of the most
wonderful holidays a city boy could have. One thousand acres on the
Darling Downs, his old homestead sat under pepper trees half a mile
from the gate on the Warwick-Toowoomba rd. Thick sticky black soil,
soft green grass and the quail whirring away from under your feet as
you walked through the icy frosty morning to the cow bail to watch
the cow being milked. Next holidays I did the milking
myself. In retrospect it was a picture of neglect and decay. Old
sheds leaned, their corrugated iron walls loose and flapping in the
wind, fences were broken, a stack of old harnesses, cracked and
weathered propped against a post. The old harvester a fading red,
bags of seed grain covered with an old tarp that, when lifted
revealed a writhing mass of rats and mice. The hut door swung open
to reveal the iron stretcher that Harley the farm hand slept on
before he went to the war. Forty-four gallon drums of power kerosene
lying near gates that didn't shut anymore. The spiky wheeled tractor
that had replaced twenty horses stood where last
used. Ah, but I stood behind Rupe on the tractor, as he burnt the
straw in the harrows preparing the ground for the wheat crop. He
would let me ride on the `Sundercut' as he turned the grass and
castor oil plants into the soil, leaving shiny topped furrows where
the birds picked the worms and grasshoppers. It was a sort of hero worship. Rupe, tall dark and strong
could kill a sheep, crank the old tractor and lift the dray shafts
onto old Bright, the only draught horse left on the farm. He trusted
me to go to Sharp's, up the road and over the hill for bags of seed
wheat. There wouldn't be any traffic unless a convoy of army trucks
came by and anyway, old Bright is long past was long past being
frightened of anything. Smithy drove over in his truck, one cold clear winter's night
to load bags of wheat from the earlier harvest. Rupe and Smithy
would throw the bags from the ground to the tabletop truck. Every so
often they would stop and load the bags higher on the truck. Rupe
offered me a quid if I could load a bag onto the stack and although
I turned it and twisted and propped it against the stack I couldn't
do it. Smithy told Rupe that his quid looked safe. It was thirty years before I learnt the tragedy of Rupe's
life. The two properties dominated by his father's decisions never
maintained. Rupe working for his father almost a
serf. A loving wife who suffered three still born babies
before a Down's syndrome child, then at last a healthy boy who died
as a youth. I last saw him struggling with the uncertainty of the onset
Parkinson's disease. I would gladly have given a quid to see him
loading bags of wheat again.
Perhaps my only claim to fame at school was telling the age
of a horse. It was an Day pupils, of whom I was one were known as 'Dagos', were
considered to be inferior by the boarders or 'Bedbugs' who were
certain that their Spartan way of life endowed them with greater
intelligence and physical prowess. The War was just over and fuel still rationed. Mechanical
revolution on the farm with three point linkage tractors, live
hydraulics and power takeoffs were still in the future. We received
instructions in milking cows, culling fowls for their egg laying
ability, boiling the swill from the kitchen into gruel for the pigs.
Cutting silage (we had a power driven chaff
cutter.) Farm power came from horses. They were a mixed bunch, mostly
Clydesdales but a few with a smattering of Percheron or Suffolk
Punch blood. They were gentle giants, no doubt long suffering,
countless hands were to learn to groom them, pick up their feet and
look for stones caught in the frog of their hooves, and no, I never
once saw the need for that strange blade on a pocketknife. I was
fortunate that my parents had given horses to my sister and I, they
were a strong love to me and my desire to be associated with the
land was a result of this interest. Age of the horse was a critical matter. We had books with
diagrams and drawings. Milk teeth, Canines,
Grooves, Dents, Angles, Wear and Broken mouths. Theory went
on for some time and then down to the stables to put theory into
practice. The stable hand brought him out, seventeen hands high,
dark bay typical blaze of his breed. We milled around with textbooks in hand and looked
on. We stood around some more, students looked at his head, the
teacher took the halter from the stable hand who went off about his business, other students
looked at his head, and eventually the question was asked. "How do
you look at his teeth sir?" There was a silence; the teacher changed his stance. As he
reached for the horse's top lip it lifted its head. He pulled down
on the halter but the horse backed away, students scattered, the
teacher held on and was dragged back, nearly lost balance, held the
halter for support as the horse reefed. Putting his hand up again
the horse retreated further quicker, pulled away and trotted back to
his stall. Our teacher was flustered and there was a definite loss of
face, somebody suggested we get a smaller horse and some other
'Silly Boy' suggested a ladder. I wandered down to the stall and brought the horse back, he was a bit wary and snorted and held his
head up high. There was a general air of expectation; teacher looked
as though somebody should do something. I patted up the horse's shoulder and down his face, he was
standing quietly again and I slipped my hand into his mouth and took
a firm hold on his tongue holding his mouth open and his head down
with it. This caused great merriment amongst most present as the
saliva splashed and the horse reefed to get free, however he soon
calmed and I looked at the teacher for further advice. He countered
with. "You show them the grooves and the dentine wear Morton and
explain the age to the class." Now I wasn't too certain of the horses age, he was 'Full
Mouthed' as I had heard people say, I pointed to teeth grooves and
said. "Hard to tell exactly Sir, teeth in good condition and I
would say ten years old." "Yes, exactly, excellent, thank you Morton, that will
do." He tried to get other students to open the horses mouth but
got no starters and certainly didn't do so himself. I was called out
of class on another occasion to demonstrate again. I scored first prize in Practical Agriculture that year, I
got a copy of 'My Love Must Wait' by Ernestine Hill, it's still on
my bookshelf over forty years later, my name is spelled incorrectly
but I think that it was probably because of guessing the age
correctly. AN OLD FRIEND "Mate " I said as I touched his
shoulder. I had spotted him in the throng of people standing in the
queue of people at the entrance of the hall. He gave a little start and swung round, a grin spreading over
his face as he recognised me - "Should have known that you'd come if
you were about, but I've missed you the last three years, where you
been?" Before I could respond the queue moved on. "Ten
dollars." Said
the lady at the table issuing tickets, we paid and wandered inside
the hall that was filled with stalls, lights flashing over displays,
the spruikers and the demonstrators calling for attention. He was
just the same I thought, hadn't been to the dentist as he had
promised to do, hair a little greyer but still a full head, sun
cancers and freckles, thin as a whip and still a bundle of energetic
movements. "I thought that you may have given up since you left work,
but I felt that you'd want to keep up with the trends, even if it's
only a hobby now." He went on. "Yes," I replied. "I have been travelling quite a bit over
the last years and have missed three of them, these woodwork shows are too good to miss
unless you have to though. I remember that you were in love with
that lathe chuck last time we were here together, did you let your
hair down and get it?" "Sure did, last year, I wish I got it sooner, you ought to
see what I can do with it. Hey hang on a minute, I want to see these finishing oils, look
at the sheen he's getting on that cedar. Where you been
anyway?" "Well, year before last we were travelling. All over the northwest, across the Plenty highway to
"Gawd, what are the poor people doing I wonder?" He gave a
derogatory grin. "Well they can't afford to buy lathe chucks at these
prices." There were special clamps; new fold up saw horses, sanding
jigs to get into those corners that only the craftsman look at to
see how the project has been finished. Beautiful burls of timber for
the artist to work his (or her) magic on. Opportunities of a life
time to buy three years subscription to magazines for only two years
price, diamond sharpening stones that would put scalpel edges on
chisels, router bits with new and exotic profiles, four-in-one
combination machines on special "For This Show Only". Multi graded
packs of sandpaper, people carving objects with chain saws,
instantaneous glues that would fix just about
anything. People everywhere - it was noise, pushing, feet that got sore
and stepped on, legs that got weary. At last it was a snack bar with
unhealthy food, cans of cold beer and chairs that we sank into
gratefully. As we rested and had our refreshments, we talked of other
days, with many a `Remember' and `What abouts', then patting his
pockets he said. "Remember last time we were here? It rained like all get out
as we got to the railway? You gave me that spare plastic raincoat
you had in your bag and told me not to bother about giving it
back?" "I hope it wasn't too split to keep you dry on the way home."
I rejoined. "No it was a blessing, it was absolutely pissing down when I
got to my station, well I put it on and I found this in the
pocket." He placed a small folding knife in my hand, it had gone from
my memory but was an old friend from former times. "I have brought it each year but you haven't been
here." "Here's to you." I said as I opened another can of
beer. BEARDS "You will have to keep your face dry, don't try to shave,
don't even scratch when it gets itchy or you will get
scars." I had suffered first and second degree burns to my face.
Luckily I had my glasses on or it may have been a disaster for my
eyes. Both cheeks and the chin were affected. People with beards in those days were eccentrics, down and
outs, poofs, rebels, social outcasts. Beards can also get you into
strife, as I was to find out I have only ever shaved once since then
and that was for a bet. I couldn't see any scarring when I looked
into the mirror, but my face was pale and somehow out of place
without the beard and I was glad when the grey grew back. There were
white patches where the burns had been severe and for a few years I
had a sort of piebald look but the grey quickly took
over. I was a member of the local Lions Club when the accident had
happened. I was at the stage of partial recovery, my face making me
look like a derelict from some city park when I was given the task
of welcoming the Rev Ted Noffs as guest. He was to give the members some insight into his work at the
Wayside Chapel. My part of the introduction went well enough and
when he stood up speaking to the President of the club
said. "I know it's customary for people who are welcoming guests to
a club to try to put them at ease and make them feel at home." Here
he pointed to my scruffy appearance. "But it was quite unnecessary
for Ivor to go to these lengths." He gave us a great talk and joined us in the bar afterwards
for a glass of ginger ale before leaving. Time has scattered the prejudices since then. Nowadays there
are long beards, straggly beards, goatees, designer stubble,
three-day beards, trimmed beards, mutton chops, long curly
moustaches, and even the occasional clean- face. I don't feel out of
place at all now, though I find soup and porridge a bit of a
problem. Recently some friends invited us to a children's Christmas
party. Their young daughter had become our honorary grandchild. Her
Dad was going to be the Santa and we had a little present for her to
go in Santa's bag. We were saddened, when we got to the gate, to
hear that our little friend was not coming. Her Dad was sick and
somebody had gone to get his Santa suit. There is always one at every party, a hyped up kid, full of
knowledge. Big ears, big mouth, big timing.
He was underfoot as we got this message. With a whoop he was
shouting. "I told you he wasn't real, didn't I? They gotta get his
suit, I told you." He missed nothing and was hard at work spreading
the word amongst the younger children. In the grounds was a marquee with tables and chairs, Kalamata
olives, crispy breads, tubs of ice for the wine bottles, flowers in
profusion, huge bowls of salad. There were
old friends to meet and babies crawling on the close clipped grass,
a mountain summer at its best and this kid under every step you
took. Still it was only a few days to Christmas, the big event
and one has to be charitable. One course led to another. Little speeches of welcome and
appreciation were made. An Alderperson was seen talking to the
'right' people. fruit salad, cream and ice
cream came in bowls and this kid took a huge helping, spilt it and
got another, then left it when a puppet show was announced which had
all the children racing to the lawn. I was enjoying the show. It had been under way for about ten
minutes and this kid was at the point of trying to get behind the
stage when the convenor of the festivities handed me a plastic bag
saying it was so nice of me to help out. I must have looked a
bit blank. "You did say you would be Santa with our other one away sick
didn't you?" "Well no. But I'll give it a go if you like." She looked
relieved and I was ushered to a bathroom to change. A glance in the
mirror assured me that I looked as good as the one I had seen in the
shopping centre, though the false beard and moustache was giving me
a bit of trouble. I was sure I could manage. Outside the bathroom
door was a large red sack with presents the parents had brought for
the children. The lady of the house gave me a bell, and pointed to
the side door of the house as I heard the calls. "We want Santa. We want Santa!" With a ring of the bell and a 'YO HO HO' I was led to a
garden seat amongst the throng of
youngsters. This kid, who didn't believe in Santa, was jumping all
over me, tugging at the bag of goodies. I got an assurance from everybody that all the children had
been extremely good for all the preceding year. I mentioned that it
was too hot for Reindeer in summer in the mountains. I mopped my
brow as the children crowded around me and started giving out the
presents. The scrummage lessened as the bag was relieved of its
treasures. This kid went off with a whoop, tearing at the wrapping
of his parcel. Only a few remained. A little girl in a dress of blue put her hand on my knee;
there was a questing look in her face. I called another name and yet
another and she was still there waiting, her eyes steady on me. Then
only she remained, and, and there were no more presents in the
bag. She was looking at me, her hand on my leg moved nervously.
This kid was back beside me, thrusting something in my
face. "How did you know, just what I wanted, how could you know, oh
Santa how could you know?" I brazenly said how clever Santa was whilst little grey eyes
were fixed on mine. I was desperately trying to think how I could
get the present from my wife's bag, the one we had brought for our
friend's child, without shattering her image of Santa, then a voice whispered in my
ear. "Here's a spare present." paper brushed my hand and I tried
to see who had given it, but my vision was blocked by the false
beard. A smile and not a backward glance from her
grey eyes as she skipped away with the little parcel. Then it
was this kid again, giving me a hug and saying
again. "How did you know Santa? You'd have to be magic to know how
much I wanted these." At least three of us believed in Santa
They are huge birds! 90 centimetres from head to tail, yellow
patch at the ear lobe and under the tail. Big
bright inquisitive eyes, huge beak and heavy claws. Mostly
they fly as a family of two adults and a juvenile. When the autumn winds start they congregate into large
flocks flying the updraughts; aerial acrobats without peer.
Their plaintive calls bring me out of the house whenever I hear
them. Surrounded by bush, my morning walks often take me to a gully
that is part of the territory of a pair, I
have never found their nest but have seen three juveniles raised by
them. They will play hide and seek with me. I hear the warning call
of the lookout but they sit so still that sometimes I will walk
under a tree before I know they are there. One will fly off with a
warning sigh, the others will call and raise their head feathers and
perhaps spread their wings. Mostly they just keep on with their
digging for grubs in the branches. Branches as
thick as your wrist torn asunder in the matter of
minutes. To day, four of them sat in the tree in our courtyard,
spreading their wings against the wind, turning their heads from
side to side. I stood transfixed, they looked hard at me, perhaps
they knew of the great indignity that one of their kind had suffered, years ago, partly because of
me. I worked for a chain store and had my foot on the executive
ladder. Really that meant I worked overtime for no pay but that has
nothing to do with this story. We had there, a pet section that stocked various types of
fish and birds, birdseed, fish tanks, dog leads, collars and
biscuits. It was a popular and profitable section, due to the
energetic, caring, hard work from Wilko, the
salesman. Striking the bell on the register twice was a call for
assistance from a floor manager, and I, answering such a summons one
morning was shown a big cage with a large black cockatoo in it. We
discussed making room to show this bird to its best advantage. The
bird hunched in the corner of the cage, and Wilko said. "Do you
think it'll ever sell at twenty quid Mr. Morton? Perhaps I could get
petty cash to buy a dowel to make him a perch?" By lunchtime the dowel was torn to shreds, an old broom
handle was in splinters next morning, the
piece of 'four by two' from a broken pallet lasted less than a week.
Water pipe was wired in and timber sections placed in the cage for
the bird to work on. Cramped and bored, it sat for weeks and
weeks. Company policy was that if goods weren't moved within a
certain time, they were progressively marked down in price until
sold. "Make him eighteen pounds, fifteen pounds, twelve
pounds ten
shillings, ten pounds." I said to Wilko progressively over the
weeks. Success at last! In the heat of a Saturday, when one could
hardly move on the shop floor two bells rang. "Sold the parrot Mr. Morton!" This was discussed over the Saturday afternoon beer. Shopping
hours were different then, the relaxation on Saturday afternoon was
like gold to us. We hoped the bird had gone to a good home. We were
glad that there were to be no more of them. On Monday just after the shop opened I heard two bells ring.
"Gentleman wants a refund on the parrot." Said
Wilko. I signed the necessary paper work and asked the man to
wait whilst I went up to the cashier to get ten pounds. (Registers
started each morning with change for one pound.) When I returned and
repaid the money.] "Would you mind telling me why you brought him back?" As I
looked at 'money cheerfully refunded unless completely satisfied.'
guarantee printed on the docket. "I took him to the local show and won five quid in the parrot
section." Came his cocky
reply. Fortunately the bird did sell soon after, I hope it got a decent home. Seeing them
flying free now fills my heart with sorrow for that black
cockatoo. BRIDGE TO BRIDGE I swam in the inaugural Bridge to Bridge race on the
As swimmers finished they grouped around the official tent,
chatting with friends as they waited for their times to be posted.
On this fifth year a P A system was blaring pop music, interspersed
with announcements that there was to be a presentation of medals,
along with other festivities in the early
afternoon. Being It was the typical summer day in All five of them formed fours as best they could, shuffling
forward in the approved manner, to line up at arms length, whilst
the commander stood close and criticised looking deep into
offender's eyes. To be fair he did it to all of them in turn; so no
doubt, they all finished as well skilled as each
other. Haphazard traffic and parking on the road was a problem. A
siren's blare was necessary to clear a path for a grey truck
trailing a beautiful, old, clinker built, naval cutter. Obviously a prized naval showpiece to be used in the
day's festivities. Our gallant Cadets were marched over to
take possession of this wonder and from time to time could be seen
give it a loving pat or rubbing the gleaming brass with their
handkerchiefs. Have I given you the impression that this was to be the `Sea
Cadets' day? I mislead you, because the Army was also there in full
force. Blitz trucks with trailers. Soldiers with camouflage battle
dress. A large prime mover with six landing craft
type barges. Land Rover utilities, bales of
netting all adding to the confusion. A shortish, red faced man, peak cap, bristly moustache and
buttons on the shoulder was being deferred
to by anybody who seemed to have anything to do with the day's
events. He was exuding O-L-Q (OFFICER-LIKE-QUALITIES) throughout the
event; he pointed, people ran! By mid-day things were hotting up. Kids were demanding second
or third ice creams, tempers were getting brittle. Mums were putting
babies to sleep under mosquito netting and unsuccessfully telling
older brothers and sisters to be quiet. The PA announcer was beginning to fill in the details of the
afternoon program. Miss Penrith Showgirl was to attend and would be
brought by barge, courtesy of the Army reserve. Captain Arthur
Philip would read a proclamation! The nearby hotel was open and had
barbecue facilities available. O-L-Q was like a man possessed. The army number seemed
to increase. They launched their barges and 'over and outed' with
their two-way radios. On the back of one truck, groups of reservists
were having black smudges put on their faces, weapons were being
distributed. We were certainly going to be protected if there was a
Koori objection to the proclamation. The P A reminded us that the barbecue facilities were
available at the local watering hole. Our Gallant Sea Cadets were again visible, now resplendent in
clean uniforms. Army landing barges were running up and down the
river full of camouflaged reserves. A lot of swearing was going on
over an outboard motor that wouldn't start. O-L-Q was taking it
personally. Good things come to those that wait, we are told, and at last
an announcement; "Ladies and Gentlemen Miss Penrith Show Girl will be arriving
by Army barge." A hot wind had sprung up,
small waves beat against the landing dock, as the barge made a
ceremonial circuit and approached us. Miss Penrith Showgirl,
resplendent with sash and large bouquet of flowers was seated on a
high-backed chair, balanced on a box in the back of a land Rover in
the barge. O-L-Q attended her, rigidly at
attention. Perhaps the Army is not as skilful with boats as the Naval
Reserve. The barge's power was cut just as a gust of wind blew the
craft sideways and the landing dock was missed, the motor sprang to
life and another circuit made, we could see the colour of O-L-Qs'
face heightening. More power was applied on the second approach. Too much more!
The assembled crowd felt the thud. Miss Penrith Showgirl was flat on
her back in the land Rover on top of O-L-Q. Her throne like chair in
the river, a small boy dived in and rescued it. 'Officer Like
Qualities' was gallant. Our showgirl's flowers were restored, her
dress was brushed, and a swimming official helped her to a chair
under an umbrella. The driver of the barge was looking forward to
scrubbing toilets for the rest of his career. O-L-Q was definitely
much redder. "Ladies and Gentlemen, Captain Arthur Phillip is going to be
transported by the Sea Cadets in a genuine Naval Cutter." Our
commentator was ecstatic. We knew the reason for the clean outfits
and the pride in the craft. One man standing at
the bow. Four men at the oars, chief cadet
the sweep. Captain Arthur Phillip, blue jacket, white
trousers, peaked ceremonial headgear, a
large parchment roll under his arm, standing in the stern. The
cutter set out from the bank some hundred yards up river, the breeze
clearly brought the 'Pull, Pull' calls from the sweep, to our ears.
Do you know anything about timber boat construction? Clinker built boats depend on being wet at all
times to maintain the tightness of the boards. Left dry they shrink
and the craft will take water. We soon saw that the approach of Captain Arthur Philip was in
difficulties. The cutter was getting lower in the water. The sweep's
rating was increasing in tempo there was a note of desperation in
his voice. Our Sea Cadets on the oars responded with ragged gusto.
One very vigorous stroke resulted in an oar breaking, the cadet
falling in the lap of the man in front. As half the oar floated down
the river, two canoeists grabbed a rope from the cutter and helped
pull it to the landing stage. Half full of water the cutter was sinking fast. Captain
Arthur Philip's knee length boots slopped water as he climbed to the
landing stage, his white trousers showing the tide
mark. The Sea Cadets were despondent. Their leader seemed to have
given up his venom and politely asked the canoeists to bring back
the half oar that was floating downriver. O-L-Q was livid. Captain Arthur Philip sat down. His boots were pulled off and
drained. Towels applied to his trousers and some semblance of order
restored. "Ladies
and Gentlemen!
Captain Arthur Phillip will now re-enact the reading the
proclamation of the founding of the Colony of New South
Wales". Our P. A. announcer had joy in his voice. Great times
had arrived. Captain Arthur Philip his dignity restored stepped up
to the flagpole. Clearing his throat as he
unrolled the parchment. BANG, WHOOSH, BANG, BANG, VROOM, WHOOSH. THE WESTERN SIDE OF THE RIVER ERUPTED IN
NOISE AND COLOURED FLAMES. Landing craft roared into action and
headed across the river, mounted machine guns spluttering with a
crescendo of cracks. We were under attack! All however was not lost, for on our
side of the riverbank camouflaged troops broke from the greenery.
They returned the fire. A desperate battle took place. Babies cried,
kids rushed for the spent plastic cartridges and fought as valiantly
as the troops for them. Some of the crowd seemed mystified whilst
others were laughing. The mother of a child that had been knocked
over by one of our defenders was savaging her child's
assailant. O-L-Q was ecstatic. At last honour was satisfied and peace
restored. "Ladies and Gentlemen Captain Arthur Phillip will now
re-enact the reading of the proclamation of the founding of
Captain Arthur Philip stepped up to the flagpole and again
unrolled his parchment and started. "
Ladies and
Gentlemen ------" "MY GOD LOOK AT THE RIVER BANK. PUT
OUT THAT BLOODY FIRE." It was O-L-Q. Everyone looked across the river, for hundreds of yards
flames were reaching to the trees and being blown up the riverbank.
Smoke was billowing in a most spectacular manner. Obviously the
incendiary devices had done their work better than expected. The
dwellers on the opposite riverbank must have been
terrified. As the troops took to the landing barges and set off over the
river. I heard the sound of fire sirens and somebody singing
`Soldiers of the Queen. . ' I had to go home and asked a friend to pick up my medallion, it lives on the mantelpiece in the
kitchen. I haven't swum in the Bridge to Bridge since and believe that
pollution may now have cancelled the event
Deirdre and I gave ourselves a treat one Christmas and went
to Jenolan Caves House for a night of luxury and rest. We felt we'd
earned it. The build up to Christmas, at our house is hectic to say
the least. The actual day is often a let down. With a family of four
now gone separate ways, the commitments of partners and
grandchildren's demands often mean that our celebrations have to be
held on the weekend before the actual day. On the real day there is often only us two old buffers at
home. This year was no different. We spent time mopping up all the
spills, tidying up the torn wrappers, found the odd glass or two
behind the lounge, packed away the surplus dinner plates and made
the place livable in our accustomed manner, well, yes, we did
deserve a break. Good old Caves House! There was a vacancy in one of
their de-luxe verandah rooms for the Yuletide stay over. This
included: "A cave tour after the evening meal, a complimentary pre
dinner glass of It was a hot drive out and the coolness of the tunnelled
entrance was as welcoming as the wide open doors of the Victorian
building. The high ceilings, grand staircase, heavy timber doors to
the lift, the cedar reception desk polished to a glowing red and the
hushed quietness, took my thoughts back to a more leisurely (for
some) way of life. Decked out for the festive season Caves House looked grand.
Our dining table was near the large Christmas Tree, resplendent with decorations, flashing
lights and parcels piled below. I thought of Pickwick's Dingley Dell
experience and quietly thanked Dickens for reinforcing the spirit of
Christmas in us all. We lacked the glowing hearth but were glad of
the high ceiling fans circulating the cool air. A feeling of
goodwill and cheer pervaded the dining room. Seated at the table next to us was an elegant young couple,
casually dressed, with a lovingly cared for boy of about three years
of age, I heard them talking of the joys of this blessed season to
the child. He sat with wide-eyed wonder, looking at the scene, and
occasionally at me. He conversed in whispers with his mother who
smiled at his remarks. We heard a quiet announcement that our cave
tour was due to leave presently, and knew we must be on our way. Our
waitress told us to be sure to use the same table
tomorrow. You could be traditional or continental for Christmas
breakfast. Fresh fruit and cereals, juices, yoghurts, breads,
croissants, toast, eggs in may guises, order an omelette if you
wanted it, proper crispy bacon, (like they had before the war) four
types of tea, myriads of herbal brews, coffee, short black,
expresso, latte, fresh fruit. I chose traditional but was enjoying
the scene as much as the food. I smiled to the little lad at the
table near us. He was dressed in a brand new cowboy suit with a
large hat he refused to take off. He was nearly too excited to eat
his rice bubbles. It was while we were having coffee that his young Mum came
over to me, holding him by the hand. "Would you mind?" she asked, "Would you mind if he felt your
beard?" (I grew it longer in those days). "He realised that the
Santa he saw in the shopping centre didn't have a real beard and it
has caused him some doubts." He seemed satisfied as he left, but
came back to show me the shiney buckle on his belt, and thanked me
for his new suit. There was a look of trust in his eyes that
filled me with warmth and also a little longing for another little
boy of years ago. He wasn't such a little boy really, he was seven or eight,
but he had a nature as sweet as wild bush honey and his sunny
disposition brought joy to our family. He was still young for his
age, sometimes almost vulnerable in his naivety. When I drove home one hot February afternoon, I found him
still in his school clothes, bowling a ball at the garage door and
trying to pick up his bat and hit the ball on the
rebound. "Would you bowl for me Dad?" "Sure, I'll just change my clothes and get a
beer." I bowled and we grew hot and so drew into the shade and
talked about bats, his bicycle and school, then he said. "Would you
tell me true Dad?" "I always try to." I said. "Dad is there a Father Christmas?" There was appeal both in
his eyes and voice. "No mate, it's the spirit of Christmas that's nice to think
about. Mum and I like you to think about the happy times." My eyes
searched his as I tried to think of ways to ease pain in a young
heart. I felt his arms around my neck and warm tears on my
shoulders. "Oh Dad, did you really buy me this bike? Oh Dad." My tears mingled with his.
"Hey, just great! Tickets to a film premier in That was weeks ago. Today was the day and, as I have become
used to things changing without notice I queried the proposed
activities with "Of course we're going." It was then that the doubt as to
suitable clothing raised its head. "How about we get something in town?" This gained a withering
glance and a statement about all the mirrors and the fact that her
legs were too short and her bum to big. "I'll shop locally, then there's no need for you to come and
look bored." This trip was a success, a crushable old gold number that
looked great with the new blouse. Very smart indeed! My comfy,
shabby Donegal tweed coat felt out of place. "Oh, by the way, there's hell on the railway, track work
everywhere, we'll have to drive to Penrith." Our trip to Penrith was reasonable; the car was out of fuel
so it cost thirty-four dollars and ninety cents to fill it. Parking
was easy and the ticket seller didn't even want to see Our suburban train was pretty full when this vision of a girl
walked up the steps. Everybody moved to let her sit beside them. She
was magnificent, possibly South American. Dark skin, Titian hair in
a big rolled plait, gold earings, pale pink lips, apricot tank top
and skirt empathising her slim but full figure, gold ring in her
navel. Ah the glory of adolescence. We were in Admission was free, the Aboriginal exhibition we wished to
see was a cost though, even with the Senior's discount, and one of those recording
things there wasn't much change from a twenty. Magnificent art work telling stories difficult for the
westerner to comprehend. A
history of the reserves that had been set up years ago in which many
skins and tribes, often hostile to each other were forced to live
together. How from the resulting distress some
managed to start a creative activity that has become world
famous. I recalled the distress a similar establishment
caused me, years ago when I went looking for petrol on a trip across
the desert. Vacant eyed youths kicking empty tinnies around a
concrete walkway between the store and the petrol bowser, which was
triple locked, three people needed to open the pump whilst the kids
crowded around to sniff the petrol. I compared the devastation and
deprivation of those youngsters to the study group of fashionably
dressed kids, in the gallery. Keenly interested, discussing, writing
notes, comparing, moving to and fro, sharing the tour guide
information. After the art we did need a smidgen didn't we? Harbour view,
smell of coffee and good food, busy and efficient waitress, and a
pleasant time to reflect, before the tip on the table and the
presentation of the plastic card on the way out. Walking past the sandstone buildings, we saw the new spires
on St Mary's Cathedral then wandered on to We had to go to David Jones food hall because we had
forgotten the birthday present for stepsister Gilda on whom we would
be calling. Twinings Tea and a Fortnum & Mason
Jam. It was only plastic money after all. A happy
time, as we caught up with Gilda's news in her delightful little
Paddington house, the orchids in the tiny terrace garden looking
beautiful. Then
it was on to the Chauvel Theatre for the Film Premier. Perhaps it
wasn't quite what we thought it might be but a good show just the
same. Alas we missed the bus to Central, not another for fifty
minutes at that time of the evening. However a taxi and a tenner
fixed that. Our train was crowded again; we were looking for a seat
together when a youngster with physical difficulties stood and
offered us hers, she moved to one of the other part occupied seats.
We sat opposite a young Indian couple, he asleep on her shoulder,
she looking at him with so much tenderness. Sometime later we saw
them talking, heads close together, her
eyes weeping, he comforting her and wiping away her tears.
"She was crying because I said I wanted to have six
children." She smiled; dark eyes shining, and
asked. "Do you have children?" "Four." I said. "Ah, my grandmother had sixteen!" They bowed and he shook my hand as they left the train, arm
in arm. It could have been the inner glow they left us with that made
us feel hungry. When we arrived at Penrith we sought our favourite
Chinese café. Our waiter smiled and said "The usual?" to which we nodded.
We reminisced as to how long the café had been at this spot; of
family gatherings we had had there over the years, of the time our
youngest (about five) gave the attentive young waitress a more than
respectable pat on the bottom. I fear my remonstrations had been
tinged with jealousy. As (yet again) I signed the paper work of the plastic card
and dug for a tip I asked our young waitress if the café had been
there for over the thirty years we had estimated. "Ah long time, before I was born. I don't
know." It had been a happy day, but the hour of reckoning with the
plastic may belie the "Free day out" tag. DADS ARE DIFFERENT Well mine was anyway! His name was Harold and he was one of
four children born into the slums of early Rage and anger were always present in the house, his elder brother enlisted in the Great
War to get away from the home, but never got over his fearful
upbringing. My father's twin took his own life after considering
patricide. His younger sister as a child could not swallow food,
through fear when her father was present; this led to obesity and
diabetes. At fourteen Harold was attracted to the Liberal Catholic
Church of St Alban's, where my maternal grandfather, a patron of the
Church and its diverse activities befriended many young
people. Harold and his father attended a service together once. It
resulted in Harold's father stamping out of the Church and
shouting. "If you ever attend another service you'll be turned out of
my house." Harold with fourpence halfpenny in his pocket caught a ferry
to my mother's home at Cremorne. Her father offered him sanctuary in
an atmosphere in which he could blossom. His natural ability was
developed. Harold was attracted to holy orders and progressed to the
point that he was about to be ordained as a Bishop in the church. He
was a capable executive and became the general secretary of the
Theosophical Society in There was a power struggle over the station, which became an
extremely valuable enterprise and I fear that justice was not done
and much heartache and division was caused. In the final wash up of
events Harold became the proprietor of a library but it carried
several extremely avaricious shareholders that caused problems over
future years. Optimism, belief that the good would prevail and love were
the gifts he brought to the home he worked so hard to
provide. My elder brother's death as a six-year-old coincided with
legal battles that saw 2GB wrested from the founder's control caused
a division between the Church and himself. Harold never spoke
against religion but it ceased to be part of our family
life. He was a kind and loving man. He taught me to respect but
always to question authority. To try to help the
needy, either spiritually, physically or financially. He
taught me to love and respect nature. I regret that it has taken me
so long to find the meaning in so much of his
wisdom. Life was not always kind to him but Harold considered himself
lucky in the extreme. His marriage was long and good. He did not
attract wealth, nor was he robust but he had courage! Courage to face the bitter derision of being a Conscious
Objector in nineteen thirty nine. Courage
to face the possibility of prison for his ideals. Courage to face the racketeer who tried to implicate him
in nefarious dealings during the war. Courage to help my
sister to build a new life when her young husband died leaving her
with two little girls. Courage to help his
alcoholic brother throughout his broken life. Courage to stand and be counted for what he believed
in. His dying was long and undignified, not a fitting end for a
Dad who was so different, so loving and caring. I have heard it said
that you should choose your parents wisely, as I certainly
I had seen her in the city before, her walk slow, heavy,
almost lumbering. Down at heel shoe on one
foot, remains of a slipper on the other, shapeless hat, `Mother
Hubbard' type dress, dirty, a large collection of plastic bags
stuffed full of who knows what in each hand. They must have been
valuable to her, for once, when I offered
to carry them for her she repelled me with a withering glance. She
demanded her privacy and space. I never saw her with
anyone. I saw her this morning as I walked up Wynyard ramp, as
shapeless as ever, plastic bags overflowing, slow steady walk, with
not a glance at anyone. What was her story I wondered, as I hurried
towards the business centre. A wait at the kerb, then as one of the
flock, cross A receptionist looks up from her desk, headphone on, plastic
smile as she answers the phone call. `Putting you
through.' Smiles again and asks
cosmetically, "
Can I help
you?" Pushes a button on her desk and talks quietly and points to
the chairs. Doors open silently, the air conditioning lulling me
away from the summer heat. Then He's there. We shake hands and he
ushers me into the `Clients Room'. "Yes, It's a good idea to take your
profits! A trip to Agreement! We settle on a few ideas, make arrangements about
money for the travel agent. Shake hands. Then back to the blistering
pavement of Life is good! Smart that broker! Kept me
off the pension for another six months, perhaps longer if he can
keep up the good work. A Cafe Latte under an umbrella in the
Plaza beside the fountain, perhaps one of those sticky cakes from
the trolley? Go on, Dr's not watching. You deserve a treat. Yes,
life is good. I savour the Jamaican bean, the smoothness of the
creamy milk, the scene of busy city life. She trudges up the steps from My friendly waiter quietly asks if I would like another
coffee. I nod assent as I continue to watch her. She pulls off her felt hat, splashes water on her hot red
face, on her head, sits a moment, splashes more water and then cups
both hands lifting water to her mouth. Life is good for some I thought. Perhaps a bit of compassion
for another may give me a few points in the right camp if ever St
Peter and Old Nick were debating the fate of my soul. I went over to
her, a bank note in my hand. "You look down on your luck, how about having a bite and a
cupper on me?" The eyes were the same as before but the voice was loud and
shrill. "Get away from me you dirty old rapist or I'll scream for the
police." As I regained my seat, Many eyes
were upon me and I needed the caffeine. DUST Dust blew from the cliffside as the machines drilled and
scraped away. The traffic was slowed on the road, due to the
workmen. We halted. I was stopped near the narrow bridge with the
emergency ramp in front of me. I tried to remember some of the
history of the Victoria Pass. Thought of how, as a boy on a school
excursion to the "See the pick marks left in the rock by the convict
workmen." Then there was the accident I had here. I ran into a truck
when the brakes of my vehicle failed. I thought of how my youngest
son had gone in his first weeks at school on an excursion to Little
Hartley Farm at the bottom of the pass. His tales of shearing sheep,
riding on a farm cart, seeing a cow milked and sitting in a farm
shed to eat his lunch. A quiet uneventful school type activity we
thought from his tales. It was a few weeks later as we were driving
down this same road to visit our daughter at "This is where we came to `Little Hartley Farm' and our bus
driver took us for a drive up that hill!" Traffic moved and I was on my way again to the bush block to
cut firewood with two mates. Two or three tranquil
days. Sitting around the campfire, walking in the bush,
binoculars at the ready for a bird sighting, a dip in the ice cold
water of the little stream and perhaps a friendly `cold one' or two,
at `half past' with my friends. It was decided when the wood was cut and ready to load, for
us to wander over the ridge to the remains of old shale oil mines
where the rock or torbanite had been won over a century ago. Perhaps
if time allowed catch up with Johno and his Missus who lived nearby
on a little bush block. They ran a few cattle and fossicked for
gemstones in a mine they had the rights to work. They always had
time for a yarn and said they enjoyed a visit. They live a hard lonely life I was thinking as we climbed the
steep hillside. It was slow going, but on top of the ridge the view
made up for it all. Peaceful rugged bush, no sign
of habitation. A hint of a little clearing
over one ridge. Two wedgetail eagles soaring the wind drifts. Harsh tang of wild goats
in a small cave, over in the trees we could hear the Lyrebird's
`Clang Clang' call, a wisp of smoke miles away on the
horizon. Perhaps Johno was right after all. The scramble down was much easier, though, when we were in
the gully near the little house, we were hot and puffing. The water
tank was a welcome sight and as we slaked our thirst we noticed the
house seemed quiet, almost deserted. No dog barked as he usually
did. Johno always left him tied up when they were away at the
mineshaft. After calling out and getting no answer, we walked on to
the mine to see if we could find anything about what was happening.
Not a thing, all tidy and in order, but no sign of
life. It was a walk of few kilometres down the bush track to the
creek, where we could make our way back to the camp walking along
its course. My hearing is not the best and I saw the dust first far along
the track. Johno was alone with a few packets of provisions on the
seat beside him when he stopped the old green utility and put his
head out the window. "How's 'yer going, and where's Tom
and how long are you up here for?" He was full of questions, seemed
to be trying to monopolise the talking from the word
go. When I got a chance I asked. "How's the missus, not with you to-day?" "Well no, no, things ain't too good there, in fact she's
gorn. Gorn off and shacked up with the publican at the local, so a
bloke can't even go in there for a bit of a booze
up." He was quiet a moment, then almost as an
afterthought. "Would yer believe it, last week me dorg fell orf the back of
the truck and I had to shoot him." He was a tough old body and I
didn't know how to console him. "You're having a tough trot!" I said, looking him in the
eyes. "Yer, it's bloody hard getting a
good dorg nowadays, by jeeze it is".
Town consisted of a few old style buildings. A Pub. Then a hundred metres
on, a timber and iron building with a faded `BUTCHER' sign,
obviously boarded up for generations. Another fifty metres to bowsers on the side of the road
in front of a large building with a 'GENERAL STORE' notice. I
had to get out to see smaller print
proclaiming 'Business Hours 8 till 5'. It was well after five and
the shop and bowsers were locked. Opposite a weatherboard building
painted a dirty mustard yellow. POLICE,
said the sign. The evening chill came as rapidly as the darkness.
Friday evening and the only activity was up at the pub. Perhaps it
could be interesting I thought. Proper old-fashioned swinging doors, `BAR' painted in large
white letters. Mary M ----- Licensee, over the door. Inside an
l-shaped bar room, big pot bellied stove in the corner, stools along
the bar. One stool pulled near the stove had a large cattle dog
draped over it, in imminent danger of falling off. His yellow eyes in the big Roman nosed head
watchful. Groups, mostly youngish men
standing along the bar. Older men sitting separately here and
there, a television set blaring about the football match to be seen
later that night. A babble of talk and shouts of laughter in the
smoke filled air. I took in the photos along the wall, horse races,
a boxer his face mostly hidden by his gloves, large coloured poster
of a naked well built girl holding a popular bottle of whisky,
strategically… . A door at the rear of the room opened with a squeak of rusty
hinges. A man and woman entered. She had tousled blonde hair, and
lifting the entrance to the bar stepped in. He lent across the bar
and gave her a selfconscious kiss and joined a group of drinkers.
She stood there and brushed at the blonde hair with her hand.
Another of the drinkers sidled over to her, notes in hand, she counted them and stuffed them into a
handbag. Coming from behind the bar she took his hand, the door
squeaked as they went out. "Want a drink mister?" it was the landlady. She wore a large
`smily' badge saying `Hi I'm Mary'. "Stout please." She shook her
head. "No call for that here." "A draught then thanks." The foaming glass formed wet patches
on the bar. She took the note I offered and slapped down the change.
Reaching for clean glasses she was off to the other
drinkers. I was enjoying the scene and moved over to the fire. I heard
the growl and turned, the dog's eyes glowered. It was then I saw the
sign painted above the fire "DOGS NOT ALLOWED IN THE BAR". A group
of drinkers exploded into laughter, somebody stepped back and
knocked the stool. The dog lost his balance and fell to the floor,
snarling, with bared teeth, hair bristling he jumped back on the
stool and settled again, defiance in every movement, gravity, the
sign, the man who bumped him. I walked across and signalled for another drink. She placed
it in front of me and before picking up the money
asked. "You up here looking for opals
mister?" "I didn't know there were opals here!" I
said. "Hey
Macca!" She
called. "Tell him about our opals and the mining." One of the older
drinkers sitting alone, pushed his stool
across. "They call me Macca, you know like Macca on a Sunday Morning
on the ABC. I'm gunner phone him up sometime and talk about the
opals here to him! You know Macca to Macca." He proffered his hand,
sun cancers on the back, work hardened. We shook. He stubbed his
cigarette in the ashtray and felt in his pocket and pulled out a
tobacco tin, opened it and took out some carefully wrapped
gems. "Have a drink" I said and signalled again to Mary. Mary was
working hard, the bar was filling up. Macca was away, talking of
potch and doublets and "REAL GEMS" and claims and strikes and the
hot hard digging and the effect of machines on the fields. He was
growing animated, reaching into another
pocket he produced a leather pouch. They were beautiful stones. He
wrapped them carefully in soft cloth and packed them with tissue
paper to prevent movement. He was talking all the time. A voice cut
in. "I can show you a real opal." It was the blonde lady from
behind the bar, she tugged at a chain
around her neck and pulled a polished stone from between her
cleavage, exposing a pendulous white breast with darkish nipple.
Light flashed colour from the stone as she twirled it gently, not
adjusting her dress. "Five hundred bucks, and a good time thrown in, what do you
say?" "Right
out of my league." I
said. She dropped the stone back and pulled her blouse tightly and
huffed down to the far end of the bar. She wasn't alone long. I
turned back to Macca but his manner had changed. He was agitated,
his mouth working with no sound, his eyes distant, fingers and hands
trembling. "Bloody
woman." He
found his voice. "Bloody woman, I give 'er that opal, dug it out of
a support column, coud'er got killed. Bloody
woman. Here give me a rum." He
shouted. The landlady knew the signs. She was in front of him, hard
eyed. "Joe McKenzie, remember what the Sergeant said after last
time you got on the rum, down the city." "Fuck the Sergeant, give me a rum."
He was defiant. "Macca!" She
said. "Give me a rum." Bravado this time. Not hiding the vacant look of
the dedicated alcoholic in his gaze, but mostly it was the fear that
I saw. "Them bastard pigs in the city, the
things they do to you, bloody animals don't do that sort of thing,
give me the Sergeant anytime, He may be a bastard but he's our sort
of a bastard. Gimmie' a rum" he shouted. Realising I was out of my depth, that Macca had forgotten all
about me, his fear filled eyes looking right past me. I finished my
drink and left, conscious of eyes for a long time, Macca's
frightened the landlady's hard and the dog's
glowering. It was cold in the caravan and I slept fitfully, till near
dawn when I slept heavily and it was nearly half past eight when I
pulled up at the bowser. The store was still shut and there was no
sign of life anywhere in the town. I got out of my ute and slammed the
door, stomped over the wooden verandah. Rattled the shop door,
looked in the window, row upon row of bottles of sauce, pickles,
condiments, chutneys. Something to go with the boiled mutton I
supposed. Across the road a door slammed, I looked at the police
station and the residence beside, for the first time noticed the
dumpy brick cellblock, and the paddy wagon standing alongside, the
back door still open. On the verandah opposite a large man in khaki
shorts, brown boots and a worn shirt, I could see where the insignia
had been removed. He was obviously dressed in Saturday morning
chores mode. He came across the road and demanded. "Where
you going?"
I told him. "Turn round, eight kilometres up the
road turn right. Two hundred and sixty kilometres you come to a "T",
turn left, sixty Ks further you can get more petrol, keep
going." The door behind me opened and slammed, a woman came out of
the shop. "Morning Sergeant, must have slept
in a bit after last night. Quite a night wasn't it?" He gave her a
look and the words seemed to dry up in her mouth. "Unleaded?" she
mumbled keeping her eyes on my petrol tank. The Sergeant leaned his
arms on the side of my truck. He was older than I had at first
realised, his hands and knuckles were scratched and cut, bits of
skin missing, more scratches on his cheek, a swelling at his
eye. "Sixty
two dollars, thirty." She
said, I offered my Bankcard. "Cash." I took out my wallet and found a hundred-dollar bill. Not a
word was spoken. She went into the shop and returned with my change.
Included was a five dollar bill, as I walked round to the driver's
side of the ute I folded it over my finger,
proffering it I said "Could I buy a cold one for Macca?" The Sergeant hardly seemed to move but suddenly his chin and
eyes were very close, menacing. "Piss
off." I got into the driver's seat, glad I wasn't an Aborigine. As
I started the motor and put on my seat belt he walked to the middle
of the road. A big roman nosed cattle dog came out from under his
house and stood beside him. In the Deputy Headmaster's office. He had
already taken us through the finger-stabbing regime. We had been
accused of just about every crime ever committed in the school
precincts; The blackouts, wartime "What
do you say to that?" Eyes glinting under fat lids, his pudgy jowly
face held close to ours. "What about that?" Blue and I were edgy. I
was ready to confess to the rape of Lucrezia Borgia. "Eh, what about that?" He
shouted. He maintained his authority by `fear and terror', and was the
only teacher that I can remember that I never heard a good word said
about from anybody. It was during my second year at High School that
the news, one assembly morning of a massive stroke, causing his
immediate retirement was greeted with spontaneous cheers. He was
gone, unlamented, leaving only a scar in the memory of everybody he
had come into contact with. But that was to come, He was very
present and very threatening at this moment. I looked around and was
shaken to my very roots to see the change come over Blue. His
shoulders had started to shake; he rubbed his fists into his eyes.
Sobs, yes sobs from Blue, tough never to be daunted Blue, Blue with
all the answers. The leader of the pack, the one we all paid homage
to. Blue, was what my maternal Grandmother called `common'! He
was a little, cocky, crew cut redhead. A swatch of hair at his
forelock, lots of freckles and confident grey green eyes. He played
football two grades above everyone else in class and stood up to the
bullies by leading us en-masse against them. He was never actually
in the fight himself, but was always exclaiming his prowess. His supreme confidence carrying him through.
Always skirting trouble by the skin of his
teeth. Late to school, late with his homework, a ready answer
for any situation on the tip of his tongue. The leader in many a
foolhardy exploit. His adventures writ
large in the annuls of student's memories.
"Do you remember when Blue talked himself out of trouble with his
homework by talking about the cat having kittens?" "Do you remember the time when all the fuel drums were on the
station and we were arguing whether they were petrol or kerosene?"
It was Blue's match found that out. We talked a lot about him when he didn't return for the third
year of high school. Everyone had a story; even teachers would bring
up some exploit. Where did he go I wonder? But I knew where he was on this day; in the office beside me,
shattering my dream of his legend like qualities. He was bawling, his voice came in squeaky filled sobs,
his whole body shaking with misery. What had happened to my hero?
Even our tormentor was taken aback. He must have thought again about
the punishment that I swear he enjoyed administering, for he turned
around and replaced the cane on his desk. (I felt the same feeling
of relief that comes when the dentist hangs up his drill and pushes
it away.) Whilst his back was turned to us, Blue dropped one fist
from in front of his eye and gave me an all encompassing wink. I was
jolted, had to bite my lip to hide my smile. The piggy eyes were again close in front of mine, the voice
harsh. "You keep your little ginger mate out of trouble in the
future, You hear me?" "Yes, Sir." "Dismiss." Sounded good to my ears. Blue was whistling quietly as we walked back to our
She was the grand old lady of the family and used to take,
what she called her `little' family, consisting of her married son,
his wife and four children, her Batchelor son, my wife Deirdre her
niece and our four children, to the
Deirdre and cousin's wife Diana are great providers and there was a
touch of rivalry as to who was to bring what. I know that we brought
the square of sponge, which was to be both birthday and Christmas
cake. Large bottles of fresh cream and an egg whisk were packed with
ice in the esky (at the expense of the "Only firm, fresh and ripe ones,
please." All
went well, the berries were magnificent, Deirdre kept them at her feet, in the front of
the old Land Cruiser, the air conditioner on them `to keep them
cool.' We all knew better, it was to keep them
from being eaten. We
arrived at the park gates on the drive to Mrs Macquarie's Chair a
bit ahead of the others. I pulled into the kerb on the side to
unload the feast, the chairs, the picnic rugs, assorted people and
presents. We were a happy and party-minded group. Not so the Council
Parking Inspector who gave us no
peace. "Can't park here!" I didn't answer as we
continued with our unloading. He took his peaked cap off and put it
on again, the peak a little further over his eyes. "See the sign?"
He pointed. Our
families had their orders, carry the goodies carefully into the
grounds, no skylarking, get a clear section of the lawn, some shade
and some sun, spread out the rugs and repel invaders with
vigour! "Move
it as soon as we're finished unloading." I said. He stood there flapping his parking
infringement book and didn't move until I was driving down the road
to find a spot for the vehicle. What a
magnificent day I thought as I walked back. The harbour at it's blue green stage with the multicoloured
sails of the small boats reflecting. amidst
the accasional white splash of wave. Across the harbour close built
Cousin was helping his mother out of the back seat of his
Bentley. Her thick dark glasses and wide hat made it obvious that
the sun troubled her eyes. Two grandaughters were at her side as
attendants. More goodies were being unpacked as the parking
attendant returned. Eyeing the classic old motor, he turned to
Cousin and smiled. He pulled his cap even further down over his eyes
so as not to see me.
Colourful rugs, baskets full of food, Christmas presents wrapped in
pretty paper, cans and bottles in a plastic tub of ice, the fizz of
an opening bottle. Youngsters throwing their beach
ball, people trying to hold two conversations at once. Quiet assessing of a new partner in the youngster's
ranks. I wonder if I have put on as much weight as the
Bentley Cousin has over the year; The Batchelor Cousin, who is
always late and still not here as we settle down to pure indulgence
and the joy of each others company. "Come
and play ball with us Ivor." I am away with the
grandchildren and running down the hill to catch the ball. It
finishes at the feet of the Japanese bridal couple having their
photos taken with the Opera House as a backdrop. The Groom kicks it
back with a smile and as I run back up the hill I see an elderly
lady, book in hand, sitting by hersesf in a park chair. She calls
the youngsters to her and offers them a sweetie out of her bag; they
laugh about something and run off with their ball. Back
at the festivities it's more talk, perhaps
a bit of bragging, words of caution about someone's new deal. Petrol
prices are discussed. "Have
another piece of this quiche".
"Where's the corkscrew?" "Try a
glass of this, it's special from the Wine
Society". "What
about the birthday cake?" I
whisk up the cream, as the strawberries are destalked, the sponge
placed on a large wooden tray, smothered with cream and almost
hidden by the strawberries. Nine
`ten year candles' are lit and we all sing Happy Birthday. Champagne
flutes are brought out as corks pop and good wishes for the
birthday; Christmas and the New Year are passed from one to another.
I look at the Bacchanalian scene of luxury and plenty. The cornucopia of food and fruit. Silver wine
goblets, pewter beer tankards, the champagne flutes, and the tub
still half full of bottles, healthy youngsters with their ball.
Summer afternoon nor'easter stirring the harbour and making the
little sail boats skip. All's well with the world.
Rivers. Ah the
pleasure they give me. From the headwaters in tiny hidden gullies
overhung with rainforest trees to their quiet disgorging into the
sea, how I love the life along them and the joy, occupation and
relaxation they have given my family and myself. From
the quiet mountain rivulets, just a gap in the ground with a splash
from the birds going about their ablutions, to the swirl of a trout,
and the ever hopeful angler casting his
lure under the overhanging branch. I can
see his quiet contemplation of eddies; The
slow twisting of the leaves on the water, and hear the rattle of the
ratchet in the reel, tension at the strike and the do or die battle
of tactics with the light line against the plunge of the fish.
an hour lost to every thing but concentration on the catch. Slow
wind in, quick release as the fish drives away towards its familiar
resting-places. Guiding away from the snags, winding, flash of silver as it leaps from the water to
free itself, more slack, quick rewind, closer. Smile of triumph as
the line comes ever closer, lunge away, give line, give line, final
reel in then the net and the basket, while the Kingfisher flashing
his bright colours, watches our presence from the safety of a
branch. Then his quick dart to the prey, the
circles widening away from his plunge into the
How can I forget the pretty figure, nymph like, strong legs,
brown hair, firm breasts, smiling face. The cold
of the water and the warmth of the sunshine and the long afternoons
of loving on the grassy bank? Fat babies
with large hats, plastic spades and a bucket full of water trying to
build a castle or catch a tadpole and the shouts of the elder
children away with their canoes, drifting over the water.
Cattle under the willow tree chewing on their cud, swishing their
tails I
recall the chestnut horse harnessed to the slide. Old milk cans
rattling and water splashing as they
are filled from the river to ease the strain on the rainwater tanks.
She'd been there plenty of times before. She dips her big head into
the clear stream, lets water dribble from
big floppy lips, sighs and ease one hind leg to stand on the hoof
tip. Sighs again and tug against the rope reins for a last splash
when there is a clicking for the hard pull up the soft bank from the
river and the slow drag to the dairy. Waterfalls from the high cliffs. Thin trickles
almost mist like in the wind, the black cockatoos surfing the
drifts, playing, wheeling, rolling, diving and soaring again,
through the mists. Crying their delight in
life. Perhaps the roar of flood laden creeks merging on
escarpments and tumbling, tumbling on to distant ledges far below,
into the wild valleys that wind away towards the sea. Rushing waters
becoming tranquil as the valley floors widen and the farmland
spreads. I
remember holidays in the great outback on the banks of western
rivers. Turgid, slowly flowing as they carry their
grey colloidal load. Lifeblood to the farmers and graziers,
feared for their drying up, feared for their flooding, locked and
dammed, diverted, used for pleasure and used as a waste drain,
pollution threatened, winding imperceptibly to the sea.
is a boy who shared this love of the rivers with me. His little
canoe with its gay colours, the camaraderie it helped to build.
His love that turned to sail craft and schoolboy
sailing events, but returned with a rush, like the adrenalin when he
found the thrill of canoeing whitewater. His quest for
excellence that resulted in him wearing the Green and Gold of his
country, with no great distinction but gaining a confidence in life
that makes an old man proud. Long lost early days when life was hard and
stressful. The invitation to go skiing on the river and the
looking forward to the Sundays, though the budget would be strained
by the cost of the petrol. The river water, ice cold, released from
the bottom of the dam. Traumatic thoughts of the
miscarriage caused by too long immersion in the
cold. Evening gatherings at our home after the day's sking and
the scrabbling for oddments of money to buy a bottle of beer and a
share in what became a traditional Chinese meal.
would phone an order for a few dishes and I would take a cast iron
pot to the cafe for the ten servings of fried rice that would pad
this luxury out. Our gaily painted yellow saucepan with the
enamelled landscape of red animals became traditional.
beautiful Asian lass behind the counter would never give us so much
as a smile for all our chi-acking, our change was the only thing she
ever said. "One Poun' Eigh' and six." Never a smile as she
counted out the money. Her lack of communication became a laughing
point with us and we vied to try to get her to smile, all to no
avail. It was
mid winter, skiing long over and the treat was for some another
occasion. I phoned an order and walked into the cafe with the iron
saucepan a little later. "Oh,
Hello Miss'r Morton, I no see you such a long time!" She gave me a
radiant smile. I was up in the air with joy, she remembered
"I recognise your saucepan." COPYRIGHT. IVOR MORTON.
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"Well I
give the cheque to the bloke in the park. He come up to me while I was sitting there and asked
if I was right for a feed and a bed for the night and he took me to
a hostel. Do you know they fed two hundred and twenty four old
blokes there and offered them all a bed? I helped him clean up after
and he told me how they were always short of money to help these
codgers. Some of them seemed not to have had a feed for days. I gave
him the money, although he didn't want to take it at first. Finally
he did though and gave me this receipt, a million dollars looks good
in figures.