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LOVE God is always love Forever seek the kingdom; Praise the creator Keep giving what you can give Please endure until the end ANGELS Beautiful Heavens Protecting the meek ones earth Watching over us Helping us to cope with life Comforted with hope and trust MUSIC When you find rhythm You find your hearts inner core Celebrate the times Make them better than before Reminisce and dance all night
The days seem to go by so fast. there is a void in the air, the birds have lost their vibrant beat, the ocean has lost its luster, the soil feels solid and dry. My soul feels as if it has left my body before my death, my dreams haunt my day, the tears stain my steps, my doctor says that it is depression, I say that it is reality, I am intoxicated by society,I am numb by perscriptions. Why do I feel so isolated within myself? is there no one in my painfully tight shoes? can anyone understand my pain? can anyone melt in my sorrows? why am I this way? why is the world so cruel? why can't I be normal? Wait! I am normal, what am I saying, I know now, the veil has been lifted, humanity is my enemy, the sins that drip from their sweat, the dread that follows their shadows, their souls of black, their intentions of greed pull a shade across their eyes. They are destined for doom, they will not be saved, they will not find salvation, they belittle me, they curse me, they shame me, but they are right about one thing, I am different, unlike them, I will be saved in the last days.
I am Reality's angel resting on the broad shoulders of discovery the truth feeds darkness and engulfs its target ideas and concepts in turn become meaningless to you there is a creator of all things He is just and patient many still have fallen into the masses of shadow wrapped in their own filthy idols of philosophy I have seen grown men fall like rose petals and weaklings rise into unjust leaders forever the follower of furtive evil dominating only to remain inferior the most important answers lie in the unseen regions where no sense can fully give assurance the mind that so many unreasonably twist and turn grows weary because of the distance it must take and truth be told the distance is not what frustrates it is knowing we are seeking something far that could very possibly not exist, that our minds can twist into theoretical, idealistic nonsense it is knowing all we really think we know is meaningless and yes—even a lie all that has been written thus far rests under my wings under the warmth in which you refuse to feel can you believe in me— though I am completely unseen? how much more difficult would it be to see Him?
In the past I remember how things were so simple When I was little my cheeks had such cute dimples Looking back I remember how sweet I was as a child When I think again my heart told me I was so wild Yet, in time my simple choices was revealed as true as anyone The reason I was the way I am today, I did things, to get done Finishing lots of my undone ideas was so incredibly hard So I figure my heart and choices should never hold in no bard I never thought I would learn heart aches and pain With such under statement I did things for no gain I was a child who held true to what he has learned But as we got older those kinda perspective would get me burned When I made up my mind that people was not kind I led myself in a confusion that I was blind In the past I do recall that seeing is believing So I was the one who stood their with friends leaving Alone, I felt I did not belong, I cherish each person who knew me I got older too see how the world works it stung me like a bee The feeling of tingling ran through my vain My view of the world and people who knew me was stained Now I know they are out for their selves with no kind feelings Life I know is just a joke because of who I hung out with seeing Today as I look at the world it is in such shambles and astray And rather fallow everyone I just walk away
It's hard doing something different. It's difficult staying yourself. In a world so accustomed to conformity, It feels nearly impossible to be unique As the one He created you to be. How do we find the strength? How do we find the courage? How do we find the bravery? Where do we defeat fear? Well, He's hanging on The Cross Giving life to you and me. Thank You Jesus! Let us not forget With Christ, Nothing is impossible, For with God, All things are possible! Thank You Father! Thank You! We give our lives to You! We are Yours! Praise You forever And forevermore! In Jesus' Name, We pray, Amen!
When I was younger i was taught to believe in god Now i wonder if i misunderstood, Whether it was all a mirage Baptized in holy water so the father could give a trial by fire Suicidal thoughts seek to conspire As we forget the angels and our demons consume us Earth encrusted shoulders, each day a little boulder And I want to be a believer But all i see is anger and shots of liquid amber I heard the preacher tell me that god loves us That we're like angels, simply wingless And i want to believe That there's someone out there But every prayer brings another Sandy Children in the school yard fall like confetti Like a bloody ticker-tape parade As his light simply tiger stripes the shade Never erases, simply highlights the Yosemite Sam sound effects that serenade A generation where white boards double a body armor And with every dead child i struggle to reconcile This love-hate relationship But i want to believe That the love outweighs the hate But we're screaming hello While he whispers goodbye Like we're that second page in another hopeless fairy tale Sprinkling bodies like Hansel's breadcrumbs As we search for that ginger bread house they told us was a church But we find only the pieces of us we left behind The parts that shattered on impact as we free fell Leaving us looking a little less beautiful than before And i want to believe But im stuck in this mortuary closet Filled with skeletons of my past life Sitting around trading war stories And i want to believe I look for god, but i never get pass the neon cathedral Sacramental whiskey sips and bartender confessionals Never used a chaser i was too afraid to chase the truth Mostly cause i was to scared of myself So i exchange fear for numbness as I use whiskey-scented band aid substitutes Trying to drown my demons but my terrors taught them to swim I just want to believe But first i want to believe in me
You've maddened me to the core You singed me with your ferocious fire We're opposites… we'll never integrate We can't blend with each other… Your love and I'm hate We're contrary to each other… So don't even think about Getting us back together Because without a doubt, We don't click with each other… So let us go our own way… Everything's black and white You love to torture me with your deceptive devices We're playing this chess match – let's fight! Tonight, you're going to pay the prices You're going to be deleted from my mind… I'm not the one that should pay the price You act as if you're an angel from heaven But, you're a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice? Could someone unchain me from this prison? So let us prepare for that day… Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds Taking over us…we're wasting valuable time Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind I'm regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime You think you're innocent? I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you Do you live to feed me anguish? Don't deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue Let's get ready for battle… I'll watch you decay… IT'S PAY BACK TIME . . . Taste my fury and my agony Everything's black and white You love to torture me with your deceptive devices We're playing this chess match – let's fight! Tonight, you're going to pay the prices You're going to be defeated… I scream before nightfall I close my eyes to kiss my demise I want to disappear Scratch away my desolation Wipe away my tears… Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall Tonight, there will be dismay There will be suffering After sundown… Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky Who will earn the crown? No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye Why are we black and white? Are you too afraid to know the reason why? Everything's black and white You love to torture me with your deceptive devices We're playing this chess match – let's fight! Tonight, you're going to pay the prices You're going to suffer alone…
Land of the free Home of the slaves The blood, sweat and tears of my ancestors resonate Amongst the soil where they were slain I'm hearing their struggle I'm feeling their pain I can't imagine being forced to part from my family All for massa's gain So I pay homage to those who promoted change People like every slave who tried to escape Nat Turner, Ms Carlotta, Harriet Tubman And the safe houses who were in accord And peg leg Joe with his song Follow the drinking gourd. People like, the disregarded - those thrown overboard And who was dismissed and defamed The ones who were stripped of their soul, their pride, their names The list could go on The full will never be told So I pay homage to others who were bold Like John Brown, The Freedom Riders, Sojourner Truth Ida B Wells, Phyllis Wheatley, Maya Angelou, Langston Hughes and Charles Drew George Washington Carver, Ruby Bridges Booker T Washington and Mary McCleod Bethune Charles Houston, Ralph Bunche, Fredrick Douglass WEB Dubois, Paul Robeson, Ralph Abernathy Benjamin Banneker, Marcus Garvey and Crispus Attucks Who's death by the way Symbolized the American lie You cant declare the rights of all men While the people of African decent rights get denied But still we rise Thanks to Dr Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, The Black Panthers, the Buffalo Soldiers and Tuskegee Airmen None who were showed any love Yeah it's an uphill battle, But obviously greatness can be done. We can rise above this stigma That blacks are lazy and daunting That our worth is null and void And in essence minus nothing And of all the names mentioned And the greatness of their successes No one has been able to erase the evil transgressions of a racist mind And once you have experienced just a taste of it It changes your perception of time The oppression beats like the drum on the chariot Of when it was finally time to escape to freedom It's mine
Where were you when my world fell apart? The Sun darkened and the Moon just fled. All had been done and all had been said. And ripped to shreds was my beating heart. Even the Seas began to part. And the Mountain tops spread. I lay there completely dead. Even the Stars I could not chart. If only you knew, If only you were there, If only you had a clue! If only life had been fair! I'd turn the clocks back, Still standing dead in my track!
Omniscient guy Yet he lets bad things happen How can he exist?
When life takes hold of you no mercy given Foreclosures popular , the new age to walk ..driven When your nerves are shattered The home you live in seems scattered Just breathe ~ children don't understand why you can't give money on the daily life feels cold and The bills are unbearable to open it seems When there is not enough food in the pantry for all you feel you are losing as you begin to fall , loose sight of dreams Just breathe ~ All these things are a test , every breath that counts. It's the faith, and will to live , as anxiety mounts In your darkest hour just call on his power with the help of God above , you will surmount. just breathe ~ just keep breathing " Just another day in paradise Contest "
Beauty of nature Why condense it down to God? Isn't life enough?
Gun fire all around, bombs going off in the distance It was some of the angry mobs and resistance Father was the king of SafeHaven a small kingdom Like all other kingdoms it fell in random Fire started in the castle And along with it came a battle It was a distance memory now because the child has now grew Many things in this child that made memories stew My name is Mastrey, a young orphan who was there that night Mastrey saw her in the distance and her father and mother in his sight Everyone was loud that night and made all the children hide But that evening Mastrey saw her mother and father die She ran into the bushes in such a fright And evil doers were running around with flashlights Mastrey remember it as he distracted them Her eyes was so confused with problems Mastrey new that it was because of what just occurred His feelings of what those people did was not awkward The distraction worked, he went back to were she was Hiding and very scared she was, he asked her, can you trust me just because? Her answer that night depended on her lively hood As Mastrey was their with his hand reaching out to her as he stood Pulling her up from the ground he looked into her eyes that were SeaBlue Mastrey had made a life long friend and love, She knew it was true Next: My Story Telling, Who is this Princess
I can act insane But DO NOT Make me feel worthless I belong in God's family He will bless my future generation Don't punish me for Being myself – Don't envy my glee I can act like an Adult, but I'd Prefer to have joy… Not stress… That piles upon us in our Everyday lives Being childlike is A rare beauty – No one prizes it… No one came across it… In this lifetime… I can laugh all day I can make you smile If you'd accept my Childlike dreams of mine Don't treat me like a sick swine Renew my young heart Give me the ability To kill the old man… I have my place in God's family He'll be adored and glorified We'll exchange prayers and hugs By my future generation I beg of you – Don't kill my childlike mentality I'll behave myself… I'm positively sure that I'll make you happy I'll still have pieces of a child in me And pass it on to my future generation…
Believe God is for me not against (me). Nobody can harm me. I will not stress myself out and go gray prematurely. I will try to stay rested and get some sleep at night. I can have peace of mind. The peace of mind I seek words cannot describe the stress I'm under. Satan is my enemy. I won't put my Faith in people but I will put my Faith and my Trust in GOD. God sees. God knows. Nigger is a name I can say I've been called a few times in my life but I know my name and it's Ayesha. And I know my identity too.
God made all people But some better than others? Stop being silly.
The wind blew events all over the place. Intense emotions and it gave chase. Lightning lighting to show us the sky. People try to sleep and not cry. Wisping by the wind keeps us awake. The time trying to sleep the storms take. Chills in everyone gives all shiver. The clouds surrounded by moonlight is silver. Heavenly prayers that the rain will stop. The flood stopped a car the person in it was a cop. People have seen such devastation. The road that people made was week in creation. Rivers near by was over flowing. Trees that were there was not showing. By the hour it claimed many. My father woke up and did not see any. Floating by was a boat. Keeping people above water and a float. My father kept a canoe. That some day we would use it, that he knew. Time to paddle up and down the street. The rain water kept getting on our seat. It was so dark after the moon was behind the cloud. Still the noise of thunder still covered the ears loud. The smell of moist water never seem to go away. My brothers seem to still sleep anyway. My head was bobbing up and down. I was so tired that I could not hear a sound. The wind blew back and fourth. It seems that my mom and dad paddle their worth. Till all the people we saw with grace. Help us out with embrace. The time was so late at night. Everyone was so sleepy and losing sight. The fight with the weather was so hectic. The feelings of energy was electric. Losing to such natural disaster is hard to understand. When people working hard to block the river with bags of sand. With hard workers like my mom and dad. They make things happen that is not bad. Rough with weather they experience more than ever. Leaders they are they are very clever. From the night light of street lights to the morning glow. The wind did not stop so. Bringing in more clouds that ill. The people who were still tired still had will. The rush of water and waves blasting push the wall side. Pushing and the force brought water inside. The battle of our hour was getting long. Backup people came to aid us was strong. Rested they were to keep everyone with hope. The people stopped the water with the strength of rope. Heavy rain and loss of homes bring people together. It is kind of sad that this was the only time to gather. Chaos comes happiness how true. This is why we are human that gives us a clue. It is our nature to keep rain falling. To know when it is time for our calling. The winds bring such pain and sorrow. That is why rain sometimes fallow.
I was born in a world of poverty and soiled life of a third world country The way I lived till I was five years of age was walls of boundary These walls had towers of guards that had no heart or care If a child would try to climb the wall they lose their life I swear Father had drank and threatened my mother with a knife My father lost his job and wife and that was the hardship of life He stopped my mother from taking off with me in her arm Hoping that my father would ignore and left me be with no harm When my father went off to drink one night and came home with rage My brothers stood by my crib and took a beating that set up the next stage My father had woken up to three scared children half starved and in pain His final words as he walk away from the orphanage gate live life do not go insane I was still a baby in the orphanage; the caretakers did not really care about the babies They stole items and materials those wicked men and maternal evil ladies They starved all the babies because it cost a lot to keep them alive As a child of that age I could feel the sins and greed that gave out bad vibes I was ignorant about what I drank and ate, as I see white maggots move in my bottle As I see them move I thought about how they were playing and some were hostel They ate each other to keep each other alive in a manner that took me by surprise In the back round I hear others throwing things with sounds of painful cries I got very strong at a young age I was able to start pulling myself up over the cage My feelings were to see my brothers with strong lungs that I cried out of rage My two brothers came to see me and sneak food into my crib The caretaker would find the food in my hands as they grabbed it and hit me on my ribs As painful as it was I kept eating the food with blood in my mouth as it was instinct I sometimes laid in my crib dazed and confused with smell of death so distinct With all my might I kept myself strong and climb the small wall I finally was old enough to get out of the building and I could hear my brothers call With tears of joy with short legs that ran as fast as my heart I ran to my brothers arms and held their hands to have a new start I grew stronger everyday but more things came into my life in a manner of dismay If my brothers stay by my side I could smile and everyday their would be okay
Love is not easy Love is hard Love is time apart Trying not to drown Praying to stay loyal Holding on to lover's promises Dreaming of reuniting Crying tears of hurt and joy Thinking of you constantly Asking God for all the best Love is difficult Love is not easy Love is hard Love is faith Love is hope Love is trust But love is beautiful Oh, so beautiful And love is worth it Oh, so worth it Love is in God's Hands Love is protected Love will come back again Reunion again For God is love In Jesus' Name We pray Amen!
The body: sacred We're all made in God's image Hence... circumcision?
Is life worth a try? Would I be living a lie? If I smile, would it break? If I laugh, would it be fake? I see the tears from the sky and me See how self doubting I can be The feeling of damp grass The moment that's bound to last The ways I could wash away All the people who have gone astray Is it me to blame? When can my feelings be tame? Why is this world so dark? When can I actually make a mark? The tears all fall down Ive been given a permanent frown Standing out is not a choice Cant risk screaming with my voice The sky is now dark blue How many insults were true? I wish I could be pure They all hate me, I'm sure All eyes watch me every move So much that i want to prove why do i still put up a fight? Why shouldn't i just say goodnight? i don't have anyone to miss could death give me a dark ending kiss? Is there a reason for me to be here? I all i can feel is numbing fear I just want to feel the sun shine To feel happiness throughout my spine But that is just a dream That will float away with my desperate scream Help is the word i always say I ask for it everyday And what do i get? I pile full of regret I think it's time To end my faith, my suffering, my rhyme
I feel that I have found a home in this cyberspace with full of hearts and ideas in a special place I wonder of all the people in the world to make me smile with antics that help me grow in every mile I do want to say to all of the people with respect because of all of you my mind is not in a wreck I would lie if I did not get ideas from all of you without you my poems would not come true I bless everyone with care with kindness and without dis-pare I hold my hands high and put them together with this I bless you with good weather I do read some of the poems that people put out sometimes I feel with out a doubt I feel the pain in the poems that some has revealed with hopes that they can read with their mind not sealed I smile a bunch with every word it is like a music in my head making a cord I do want you all to know that you have made my day to be a better day in every different array I cherish my time with all the people in my heart the words flow in my mind is just but a start I'm happy with everyone in PoetrySoup.com with hardship that came this cyberspace makes me calm I cannot choose five cause if I do I don't think it's right just to tell you that is just my own insight I thank all for helping me grow with all the poems that are shown with faith and humor, with views of kindness this site has grown If I had to say or dedicate my poems to who would be the first five who reads my poems with a point of view
December 18, 2012 Beautiful lies known as little white lies yet one is no more deceptive than each The truth is what makes it afraid of light It's important we practice what we preach Imagination built on lies destroy Imagination built on truth create Conquering evil we try to avoid Tooth fairy, Halloween, Santa abate Perceptions and images make it real Origins of Pagan rituals true We've wandered down this path for a bum deal Now more lies are created all brand new The mask behind a beautiful white lie is the truth with a constant shield, but why?
Music is my home, Written when I am alone. Nobody is hear to save me as I slash my wrists and they turn scarlet. My mother and father walks through the door, my mother screams and , my father seems dazed, The doctor say if it was not for the fact, That my heart was not strong i would have survived, The boy and girl who pushed me to commit sucide, spits and dance on my grave, they defile it and call me names, even though i am dead i will still hear them, talk and say mean things, to my mother and father, They spread rumors that are untrue, A voice calls out and asks me what I want to do? I cry out let me live give me a second chance, I'll grant you this calls the voice, The next thing I know I am in a hospital in the intensive care unit, I try to speak my mother puts her finger to my lips she is crying, i Had been on the way to the morgue when my eyes open and i started to breathe, The same bestfriend who i have known all my life has finally shown her jealous side and called me a witch, and a zombie, or even a creature from hell. They Took her to the other side of the hospital and put her in the physchartric unit, The boy went to jail for attempted murder and i knew i had a plan lined all out for me
A Lesson From the Buddha The Buddha had been getting round And listening to the crowd. He'd often sat there silently And heard them moan so loud About their own sad burdens And all the hurt they'd had. So he thought up a little plan That didn't seem half bad. He called the crowd together Said "listen here you guys I've been thinking for a great long while And I have thought it wise To grow a special tree for you And here it lies before you Now listen well to what I say I'll tell you what to do" He said "this tree before you It's to hang your troubles on Each one of you must go to it And your troubles will be gone As you hang them on it's many branches Then what you'll need to do Is take yourself some others burdens And make them part of you" The people thought that this was cool It seemed a grand old way To rid themselves of all their burdens It was a happy day! As each smiling so broadly Placed there burdens on the tree Then they thought for just a while And they began to see. As each the truth did hit them More restless did they get At least they knew their burdens So each with no regrets Did race back to that trouble tree To grab what they had hung there The Buddha smiled good humoredly He had made them all aware. 29 July 2013 @ 1805hrs.
Broken promises Meaningless words Empty feelings Secrets unheard Thoughts racing Heart wondering Feet pacing Tears thundering Illusion of love Faking of fate Imitation of above Leaking out hate Purity in the day Darkness at Sun fall Finding a way To conquer it all We unite Infiltrate We Fight Love over hate
Play The Radio Get Up And Dance All Night Long Music Heals The Soul
Stimulating ideas pop into your head You need a pen…you need a piece of lined paper It looks like you're outtah luck…no wonder you're drowning in dread You need a shoulder to lie your head down for a moment's rest… You need a helper…to aid you while you struggle emotionally… I'm not trying to irritate you purposely Try with all your might…try your best To stay optimistic and fervent I believe that you'll pass the test Be upbeat, kindhearted and jubilant I appreciate the words you wrote on my notebook… Sometimes, I feel like leftovers left on the counter… I'm a rotten mess – you're leaving me as if I'm an uninteresting book Sometimes, I feel like a coward – I don't mean to bother… But, you're like no other . . . You're like a mat – you're constantly stepped on… I'm like YOUR unwanted tool – I stepped on you and Pushed your buttons I accused you of being the fool When, in fact, I'm the fool by your side… You're drifting…pushing me aside… I'm writing words of truth though – Expressing how much I'm fond of you I esteem your presence Glowing with glee At times, you do say things without thinking I'm the god of distress – You're leaving me breathless Cutting me down like I'm some decaying tree You don't see how much you make me… Guilty for your crimes Taking the blame about the hundredth time At times, I feel that I'm awkward when I'm around you You're like a backpack – you carry everyone's weight… You're like a sponge – soaking in our stress I'm a distraction to you – you're wasting valuable time…but don't hesitate I'm writing words of self-centered feelings – logic doesn't exist… But these feelings aren't as bad as committing a crime These feelings come and go – I just had to confess I didn't mean to screw up your progress… Hey, if you need a few sheets of paper to right on, Use me like a notebook instead…and write with all your might It seems as if you read me…like a book that drags on and on Use me as your tool of relaxation… and read me all night When you wrote those words on my notebook… It made my day…you're such a delight Like reading a fascinating, classic book
I did it again; I need forgiven. Will He still forgive me even though I've fallen before? I've fallen into these same sins countless times before; I still haven't learned my lesson. I am an ignorant hypocrite. Am I still forgiven?
He swifts on by like a moon lighted night. He shines bright for a moment in time. His arm's always open with warmth. His smile always bigger then everyone elses. His heart of rage and fire. He swifts on by, he swifts on by. Who will know the true man within. The man thats full of sin. No one can, no one can, for we are all just man...
Blossoming Effulgent sun proffers love Clambering… Ascending Above the undergrowth…of Thorns and weeds Furtively The moon unravels wonders Glimmering
What is it to see the soil of home again? A welcome, snow-struck and a return To cold; sharp white contrasts sunburn. We converse in broken tongues to men We know, hooked on holiday language Comprised of wandering hand signs. Collect the car and pay parking fines, Drive through towns and over a bridge Until we reach the Western gateway. Oh when will we arrive at our house? No camels there, only field mouse Which are eaten by our cat anyway. The plane flies for an age, slyly yawning Through the stretching, pealing sky, A knife through air; what it is to fly. Our travels over; a new day is dawning.
Turn on the love to motivate me; There's no energy on hand. When work to be done is shadowed by rest, Remember you were saved by a crucified man.
For many years... My life has been an embarrassment! Filled with hopelessness and discouragement! Many things I thought I had enjoyed... Have left in me... A large and empty void! Many nights, I would cry myself to sleep. Knowing the hole my life was in, was very, very deep. Then one day, I called out to God! I wasn't sure if he'd listen! My family, my old church, I was now missin'. My family prayed for me for so many years. I often brought them embarrassment and tears. God... I tried everything else... I want to come back to you! I need you now Jesus! I really do! Please come into my heart, and cleanse me within! Set me free from all addictions and sin! I know that you will never let go of my hand. My whole life, on your word, I shall now stand. Only you can satisfy the emptiness in my soul! I am now complete, satisfied, and made whole! By Jim Pemberton
Keeping my head up, treading water Cut throat surviving, struggling Going under, death visits Will to live, tested! Selfishness Vs Selflessness A Greater Love, encompasses me God demonstrating mercy, for his children Learning about forgiveness, cultivating, inner faith Melody of Love, one can experience In the darkest, waking hours, of everyday living Self survival, learning how to live Peace of Mind, Peace of Heart Peaceful Spirit, Freedom in Love
ZOOOOOOOMING speedily… Tires squeaking from exhaust… high in volume Racecar spews out smoke… Blinding the eyes of a thousand fans Blooming havoc… Explosions avalanche downwards Racecar drives fast and furiously Awesome feelings launch through me Projecting panic and twisted bliss Catching the audience's full attention… Tension between challengers increase Who could stand in their way… not even the coaches Racecar screeches on the racing street… Ain't this competition neat? Come! Take a seat! This event is brilliant – it's such a treat! Producing thrill or disappointment… Car organs, fragments, shards, remains, limbs, veins Spurts out in flames… flying at every possible direction Countless racecars… barely functions – this scene is extremely horrendous! Yet, the victories are gracious! Vibrant applauses and thanksgiving triggers enlightening cheer Have no fear!!! The moment is ever so precious! Racecar…you make so much racket and suspense! Rowdiness is in your nature…who will pay the expense??
I Did Something That You Won't Let Me Forget! I did something recently, that I regret. What it was. You won't let me forget! I said; "I'm sorry." And tried to explain it! But what I've done, you continue to name it. You called me your friend, and offered assistance... But any attempts to talk, you offer resistance. I heard you before. You quoted Bible verses. Now you speak complaints and curses! It seems like whatever I do or what I say. You just wish, "I would go away!" Where is God's love, you once gave me? Are you the kind of person, God wants you to be? I'm sorry of what I said and what I did. I hope you find the power to forgive! I've done my part. And that's all I can do. Now is your turn! The rest is up to YOU! You can love me, or simply push me aside! You can humble yourself, or be filled with pride! The choices and decisions you make... Please do it now! Before it's too late! I pray that God's love, will touch your soul! Walk in his forgiveness! And BE MADE WHOLE! By Jim Pemberton
I cry myself awake In the middle of the day Because of a decision I made Not to spend time with you. And now everything I am Is falling apart into pieces; I feel like I am losing you Because I am losing myself.
To Dine, To Die; Conversations spiral While thunderous eyes Grasp concepts to recycle. Constant debt crisis A political paradox Grating social devices Over the sorting of socks. Pseudo-analysis An endless groan Argumental paralysis The debate grants no throne. Existentialism Over a roast Potatoes won't listen To who talks the most. "That point is so interesting" The floor is open for chat "What is real?" not a thing "Meow" adds the cat.
Why am I so selfish? Why do I live for the wrong things? I am dying inside Because I refuse to see the light. I need to say yes, But I still haven't learned that yet. I am a fool, And I am hurting you. If I would let go of myself, I would hold on to you.
Sitting thinking about all the bills that needed paid, all the work that needs done on the house and stuff. Fear sitting in and the dreaded stress of worry if the bills will be met. Sun shinning bright as bright can be I look up to the birds flying high. Then tears dwell up in my eyes because I have not turned it over to you. Then I felt that warm sensation of a gentle hand on my shoulder and I no longer could contain all the tears within. Jesus, I felt you today that moment of doom and despair and worry of daily life i tried handling it without you. You, always know when I need you and I always forget to call out please forgive me for forgetting that. Thank you for not not forgetting me I feel so much better now, I can't believe I allowed myself to fear so much. I sit here now and I know all the bills will be paid, all the work that needs done will be met. No more stress I carry or worry I fear because you Jesus are always here.
Precipitation: Culminates in a washout Stuffed camels get soaked
When you're hurt inside, And there's no where to hide, And there's no one on your side, And it's killing your pride, Inside, Never take hate outside, When your heart is chocking, The heavy words never spoken, The things that hurt you inside, When love has died, Inside, Never take hate outside, When your heart is gone, From being alone, And it beats a solemn tone, When you're cold inside, It's only a short ride, Never take hate outside
Besides days of defeats, I've been held down by a string of struggles preventing my feats... who can fight fate and put an end to hurdles? A happy man is the one who sees his offspring prosper all their lives by fair deeds and words, and surely his countless blessings will keep his children safe through those violent storms. I had friends but none of them deserved my full trust, they had happy homes...never had to deal with a string of struggles; did they think that it was vanity to have kept my space? I gave them each breath and heartbeat believing they were honest. A wounded heart can never heal without forgiveness.... as if the blade that pierced it was never removed from its warm flesh; before it bled and felt a pain so sharp causing madness, now it is numb and having stopped beating, it'll be nothing but ash.
I am a hypocrite and look what I just did: I fell into my darkest pit; now, again, and again. I thought that I was strong enough to live the truths I said; Now I realized I'm much too weak; a fool too ashamed to raise his head. God, please save me, please forgive me, and please give me strength. I love You. I thank You. I am forever changed.
I blame me for all my mistakes I blame me for all the rejection and heartache I blame me for all the times I stayed silent and should have started and earthquake with my words I should have spoken up when I had the chance now all those thoughts are wasted unspoken, unheard I blame me when my husband touches me and I feel the hands of a predators pounce And I blame me when the pressure it on because all I had to do was shout out and renounce His name Lord, help me to get rid of the shame I blame me for my loneliness I blame me for my feelings of lust I blame me when I look at myself and see absolute disgust I blame me when I shut down - unsure of who to trust At times not even sure if I really know how to love I blame me when my kids are crying out sick because when I brought them here I knew that this world was unfit Yet overpowered by my love for them I became more and more protective So I blame myself in advance for their sadness when they finally see that the world is not objective I blame me for those nights I can't rest Wondering if my consciousness has finally realized that I have done my best to stay positive and have good intentions So I blame myself when I give in to temptations and my human inhibitions and begin to feel ashamed of myself I begin to feel like I don't have enough strength to love myself because good things don't happen for me So I blame me for my thinking and feelings of worthlessness It's a big world and my lonely soul has no more confidence I have nothing I have given up and so I blame me for my incompetence and my soul's rut
I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.
Dropped out of school At an early age Lived on the streets Because, I disgusted my mother She thought I was a poor example Of true Christian beliefs At an early age She religiously drummed into me 'blood is thicker than water' And yet, Here I am today confused, lonely and hungry No one protecting me No friends No family No home to go too Just, peoples eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth mentality Praying for the sun to shine To feel some warmth again! Sun rays of hope, lighting me up To live through this darkness without fear With a heart full of faith No matter what happens to me, now! If only I could drink my salty tears It would sustain me for a lifetime Your tears are worth nothing, around here You're classed as weak and venerable Only attracting death Your life worth nothing! Save me from myself I am my best friend I am my worst enemy My prayers and dreams Lost in the wind Blowing around like autumn leaves The rain washing them away Down the drain into the sewage Rolling with the seasons Year after year Survival for the fittest! Surviving on the love Hidden, inside me Being my strength and guide My personal lifeline In surviving this crazy world We all live in
"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows. Her life had been a simple happy one. There were no pains and no troubles. Life was life and people were people. Life was simple. and life was all about tomorrows. Life didn't know about sorrows. Her sorrows. Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed. They were never there, but where? First to be sad in the naive town of joy. Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there. It was non-exististent. A meager thought and a blessed memory. She tried and tried. She failed and failed. Life was no longer hers. For Pain was her only possession. Her curse. She lived and she died. Yet, her legacy was passed on. Never was it gone. "No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows, "Save them."
Come, all of you who are thirsty! Whose life has run dry! Come to God's living waters. Your needs, he shall supply! Come, those without money! Come, buy and eat! Buy wine and milk without money! That you may be complete! Why spend money on what isn't bread? And labor with no satisfaction? Behold the glory of the Lord! He offers his wonderful salvation! Listen to God! And eat that which taste so sweet! God brings everything to the table, so that you may be complete! Allow your soul to delight, in the riches of God, most fare! Allow his goodness and mercy to keep you in his care! Listen to the voice of God now! That your soul may live! Won't you come and receive all, that God has to give? He's the God of creation, and is waiting for YOU! Come all who are thirsty! That your life may be renewed! By Jim Pemberton 07/14/13 Read Psalm 55:1-3
This question drives me up and down the walls I know for certain that God has answered my calls I can't hang up on Him…He's so brilliant And I'm so little compared to Him… Maybe I'm little in size and very insignificant compared to the most High He gives me quite a natural high He brings me back home and kisses me good night Without His love, I'd be lost like a sheep losing his shepherd I feel like I'm separated to God As if God and I are on both sides of the coin… Our oceans don't collide with each other, But He does make huge tidal waves… And I make baby waves that swerve up and down Like a wave's movement, my life seems to have its low points and high points But, when I build enough energy, I glide higher than the clouds Though, unfortunately, I've only been dreaming this Then, I collapse into the sand...my face rubs against it and I have scrapes all over Sand and water do mix well, but afterwards, the sea shore's weight will pile up on the bottom of the ocean floor I can't imagine how many grains of sand there are on Earth There are countless amounts of ants on Earth as well Trillions and trillions of them are in existence It's amazing how plants take in Carbon Dioxide And we breathe in oxygen… God is a fantastic creator and He did carve His creations pretty well God saw my distress and He healed me When I think about Him, I'm speechless and can't say much He's made out of love and He bubbles me up with excitement I haven't given Him the credit of working miracles in my life… But, I don't want to divorce God…I must propose to Him like a wife Does to her husband…I want to submit to Him He made the sunset, the moon and stars Look! He even made the planets and He healed our scars He made the flowers, the roses and the creeping bugs Look! He even made leaves for our eyes to see… He made the change of seasons God saw my distress and healed me God made the wild cats, bears, reptiles He made us have a brain that is as neat as black and white tiles God healed me…and I'm simply glad He did so God wiped out my distress…and He simply dressed me with happiness and He's in high spirits to see me grow ~ Inspired by the band of Evanescence's song: Never Go Back ~ God inspired me to write this poem…
Turn the wheel *******he sea... Push aside the misery... The abominable agony... Endure this hardship...with me Fight off the tears and let us roam to sea Don't make it hard for me To determine the waters We are the same kind If you can be so KIND, let me show you your destiny - To dwell with me in tranquility We will try to share our responsibilities... Take turns and share our possibilities... How have you been? Sorry we have shut our ears To your deafening cries I'm turning the wheel for you You're losing energy...be still - why are you so blue? I'll shut out the feeling of anguish You'll get what you wish We will start anew We will start on a fresh start We will fulfill our dreams and make them come true We'll brew away the sadness I'm determined to eliminate The distress... swallowing us like a tidal wave... Behave, you wild childlike waters!! Behave! Don't worry - we'll get rid of The limited happiness And make our heart pump with merriness Don't be a magnet of depression stress You'll experience a wonderful opportunity So you may feel at one with Our world full of possibilities And eliminate those cruel, wretched words That tore apart our responsibilities... Our activities... our reveries... our possibilities... That brought us back together We'll be hiking These somewhat difficult hardships together
I am what you call a hopeless romantic, But im also a lost lovers cause, my heart belongs to another Yet in my head a love triangle starts to form, the girl I love doesn't love me She holds the heart to another and mine caged to the floor, She isn't afraid to fight for what she wants, not even when it comes to leaving another man torn Trust me she's happy, as that boy holds her heart ever so close Seeing what I shouldn't I smile as I wear my blind fold, Blind to everything around, lifeless staring into air My train of thought running so fast, the second I stop you'll hear a crash Derailing my hope, for ever finding a love so pure & rare Wishing I could hold the hand of the lover who stole my flame, Wish I could change the last days in which we parted ways, Realizing now that we can never be the same Finally saying it out loud as tears run down my face You stole my happiness, as I walked away that day But it's because as of what you said I guessed I changed, Now every relationship has just be the same, No one can seem to bring back that flame, Because a love likes ours comes once in a lifetime Well at least it does to me, But I mean you're happy with who your with I mean I only wrote this as I heard exchanging "I love you" flow from each of your lips.
Is My Life Heading Toward A Dead End Road? As I feel life's struggles, and carry a heavy load. I often wonder if my life is at a dead end road? I think about what I've done and where I've been. And never know who's my adversary or friend. Many that I thought I could trust. I can trust no more. It just seems like my life is a big revolving door. There's a question I often ponder, in my mind. "Is my life just a speck on the table of time?" Scripture says that life is as "a spark in the sky." I'm here for a brief moment. And then I'll die. I want to make the most of what God has given. And really think about how I've been livin'. I'm giving my life to Jesus! And all that's in it. I need his love, and the help of his spirit! Please come Jesus, and help me to be strong. It's in your loving arms that I surely belong! Because of Jesus, my life has been set free! He's brought to me his grace, so abundantly! The joy and peace he's given are ever so sweet! By his shed blood, my life is now complete! Life's dead end road is now a road wide open! Because of Christ, the roadblocks have been broken! By Jim Pemberton 06/16/14
Getting ready for Passover to shed us might For joyous future The significance Of God's holiday is way More vital than us
My eyes Witness your departure My eyes Are dripping with hopelessness… My eyes start to blur… Melancholy put me under pressure… Is there a cure to my disease? You don't see The shards of hope that once brought us back together Just let me search for safety I'm strong enough to realize that I'm no longer The weakest prey out there… And I'm left in my solitude… Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks? I'm close to my demise…save me and take me home Nourish me…and be my beloved friend Will this friendship last forever? Hopefully it has no end Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other? Because of you…I feel the need to run I keep an eye on you – I worry that you'll hurt yourself again Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone I don't wanna be caught off guard again Because of you…EYE can't picture a solution for our vexing dilemma Because of you…eye can't focus on my long-term goal And I'm left in my solitude… Do you sense that I'm giving in to failure? And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear…I can't endure The hardships that you place upon me… Could you boost up my confidence to overcome My atrocious anxiety? I'm just waiting for some sun To keep me in good hands… To strengthen me with perseverance … I'm just waiting until His son Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us… His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – Vibrant with glee Your undying sympathy dawns upon us I'm overflowing with indescribable joy You're a candle in the night… We meet eye to eye… What a sight…what a precious sight
I did not find myself to be so important So I ask my friends do I seem distant? When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings I do care, about my friends they are all good people They tend to stand on their high steeple Today I find myself not so aware Disbanding my fear of regret and care Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out For some reason I am just full of doubt I care about so many things and what I have is confusion One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone I ask my friends the same question once again I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end So many thoughts that come out of my feeling I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing They ask me questions and I answer theirs But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way It's just so simple to answer someones problem I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow
Turn the wheel Out of curiosity I'll be generous...you'll receive Something special...something to make you whole Though the trials you must run through Are a great struggle that can easily Pull you down And I want to erase your frown You will feel way better about yourself Just trust me...take my hand... I'll encourage you to have a satisfying time Just for your own liking We'll be hiking Those somewhat difficult hardships Together for eternity We'll spend time in the future Together in unity *******he sea...Let's flee and be free! LOOK how nice you look! Trample those insufferable nuisances That dare put you down To the sea floor I'll push them to the core! Feel free to walk the Road of Recovery
Seriousness settles in, like an old friend Seriousness spreads like a disease Infecting us, accelerating, our aging process Our youthfulness, our playfulness, slowly slipping away Our wonder in life, diminishing Seriousness leading to rigidness, pathway to small mindedness! Days and years, rolling into one Colourless, lifeless, mundane, dull and boring "What day is it?" "Don't smile or your face might crack!" Judgemental, cantankerous! Pompous attitudes, of modern day man Stubbornness and ignorance, clinging to what's familiar Seriousness, up tightness, humourless, imagination vanished, pathway to madness! The mind focused on its self created drama's Fears constantly being stimulated, from our outside world Personal insecurities, constantly being triggered, inside The past lives on, the present forgotten What was once important, now, left on the back burner Hard headed, victim orientated Righteous, self absorbed Emptiness, hollowness, helplessness Seriousness and ignorance, walk hand in hand Becoming, our best friends The vampire suckers of vitality Sucking the life, out of our personal goals and childhood dreams Lose of faith, gradually, losing our way Lost, amongst the thick of it Not knowing any different Everything becoming an illusion Seeing things as it should be In our own little universe, no one else's! Entrapment of the mind Our, personal intelligence, laying dormant Body and mind, riddled with dis - ease Heart beating hard, starving for a substance, we call love Numb, to the outside Numb, on the inside Desensitized! Going crazy! Consumed with our own self created loneliness and separation Ignorance meets insanity!
You plague me with your sweltering disease My heart throbs in unease You carry me off to a far-off island Your breeze keeps me flowin'…scraping sand Your names escapes my lips I tell myself, "Get a grip, dude…" But you decided to intrude... My blood drips to the floor I've been losing balance… The instant you pushed me aside Your quietude devours me… I can't help, but hide… I feel horribly disheartened…feelin' too insignificant To start my day with a good note Too discouraged to be motivated to run… You trade me your pain in the past I consume it like a bear My stomach is churning persistently…you're running too fast… I'm dowsed in despair My eyes stare vacantly…into space…they roam happily Your vigilance keeps me safe and sound…I dwell in your tranquility Your dreams caress my own… This intriguing comfort never makes me feel alone I'm under your dazzlin' spell… This is heaven – not living hell! I've been bruising myself over you…for a while now The moment you abandoned me that night… Your rejoicing mends my gash…heals my mind… I think better of you – everything's black and white I feel so exquisite when I'm around you… So inspired to reveal my might…just shine your light On me…and remember to meet me at sun rise… But I still feel malnourished… By your sweltering disease My heart refuses to beat in perfect rhythm – my high hopes nearly perished By your forceful breeze…pushing me on my knees I'm stumbling off my feet – I'm not at all pleased I'm not in the mood to be teased… I'm suffering…I'm not discreet How did you push me off my feet? Why do you make ME feel so damn miserable and incomplete? You plague me with your sweltering disease My heart pounds as I fall upon my blood-stained knees You carry me away to an unknown place Your voice still rings in my ears… I glance at your admirable face I've faced you way too many times – Your sparkling with majestic brilliance and pure grace
Gold fish On my vision and swum one Sprawls the heart of those humans Ah! They say funnily Not knowing my stay Why? In such a way. What matters only viewing outside colour? Innerly they knew me I'm fish ever They want to keep me in aquarium Construing a four wall of transparent Limiting me within four feet boundary. Treasured only to provide them pleasure I'm with my fate not happy always Waiting time to get old in the slap of time.
The waters clear as I stand by the river I see the reflection of someone long ago As the storms come in I know I can't let you go. Rain pours at times in this life you've given But the shadows fade when my prayers have risen Your love for me I've never new until now When I see the waters clear, my reflection seems so near. As time goes on I know you are near Just seeing the way you help me stand Just seeing the way you remove the fear It helps my weakness seem so clear That without you I am small But as I take your hand, the walls get knocked down The waters clear, the reflection I see now, is you in me, this my Lord helps to make me free. Written by://©Betty Bolden
Drained to my very heart by our slow-paced arrival, I wander through tasteless decor to the metal arches Beyond which a future is unfurled. My bag's innards are spilled like blood in the Bible Before the cold gaze of the armed man who marches; He holds the key to this new world. The mechanistic arch stands and takes quasi-sentience Beside passport control, piercing my finely popped Eardrums with sonic solemnity. I am refused by technology but stagger forward hence Into baggage claim where a suitcase pile is propped Up like a holiday Tetris calamity. My suitcase is soul black and with difficulty is found, In its lucid eagerness to fasten itself a faux family; Airports are filled with pretences. Now we are away again, small trolley safe and sound, On the road from snow, heat is where I plan to be. Our intrepid journey commences...
This town was the place we used to call our haven You don't remember which road we've driven on The stars were shining against your cherished soul You're a part of my belongings You're ascending above the ground The peace is still like hidden treasure – it's bound to be found I believe in you…I put my faith in you After the miracles you've performed You don't agree with what you truly are The sky is grieving You jump from puddle to puddle You're struggling to meet your destiny Even if your body is saturated in sweat You must keep your head above the sea Follow me and I'll lead you to divine haven Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future It's tempting to just give up and turn around I could tell you've been stressing out But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me Each melody is an exquisite sound that bounces into our ears Commotion and strife will cease and your heart will be free We'll flee together…despite the unwholesome weather The voyage has just begun…hold my hand and we'll rise like the sun Trust me…we will be strengthened and well-equipped before we take that road of victory Follow me and I'll lead you to divine haven Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future It's tempting to just give up and turn around You'd rather be drifting away and never be seen again I wanna change your mind and erase your frown Take your mind off of the distressful past Let loose your strain on me Hey! I know you're stronger than you realize You're not a failure – don't be disheartened Don't worry…you and I will earn our future prize This mess will clear up in a moment Just stay by my side and never depart From the light… I promise that we'll endure till the end Just stay nearby and our hope won't tear apart We are willing to do anything to attain our wishes and delight Let's take action and snatch our glory before our time is up Follow me and I'll lead you to divine haven Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future It's tempting to just give up and turn around You've been trying to keep a steady pace But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me Let loose your stress on me… Don't be under pressure Let me handle your anxiety… Reach towards our divine haven Do you need a helping hand? I wish you a carefree Future
My heart is beating with upbeat delight You astound me…in every shape and form My spirit is dancing with unbreakable might You surprise me…when you take my hand And pull me outtah my jail-like dorm And He dismisses me from my solitude… My eyes are glistening with bliss… And I'm far from my demise… Only to find that there's no need to feel helpless Why do you spoil me rotten with your fatherly affection? Just protect me from any harm Let me make my own decisions… To see the results in the long run You prize me as if I'm cherished like your carefree child You don't understand – I'm TOO foolish and wild I haven't even reached to full maturity But how eye hope to see myself grow and be set free From the world's mayhem Is there a solution to this problem? And I'm left with no answer… My eyes are eager to see…another bright day And the night is coming to haunt me… I find myself slowly disappearing from sight… When will God give me a purpose to fight? When will He feed me His awesome might? Just support me…especially during my downfalls Please answer my calls! And I'm left to venture off into His path… Eye can't escape my terrible nightmares Consider my calls of acceptance…my grief weighs a ton Let me pour forth my tears – Do me a favor and cast away my fears Steer me away from disorder and confusion Eye can see you're making great progress You're heading towards a brighter, superb future… My eyes No longer witness oblivion My eyes Looks beyond the earthly pain… bEyOnD the affliction I spot a rope in the distance. . . . . Push aside the waves…and let me Grab it this instant! God feeds me His love…and treats me Like a newborn infant! Eye see my Father with brand-new eyes I feel rare content And I feel hardly any resentment Eye cherish that REMARKABLE moment
I give my word a breath of life and those who give me strife I willingly do what needs to be done and do not wish to be won I smile a smile that lights up any face and hope to never disgrace I do what I am taught to do and that my help would be true I clam my words together and hope times will never weather I do have some faith in all matters and things to reach with ladders I hope for many things in heart and I cherish everyone that is part I do know one thing is set and with my life I would bet I will hold true to my words and make my world good towards
A n ABECEDARIAN poem could prove my most daunting undertaking B othering whispering in my ear were the likes of Frost, Fallon and Dickerson C alling out to me incessantly by name D id I not recognize the potion that was stirred would cause me to reject my name E ncouraged only by the ink of my pen F irst I must be preposterously patient G liding my pen across the page, I invented a ELABORATE world of colorful words H igh on top THE parallel UNIVERSE of poetry I began I dentifying all difficulties essential to my cause J ust to name a couple: the importance of using particular words and misusing others K illing time instead of killing rhymes L ine by line by line M ighty is this feat which I have incurred N ot nearly done I've stumbled upon a conundrum O utstanding accomplishment, an actual 26 LETTERS P oetry for me is at times quite perplexing Q uizzing myself intelligently to respond compliantly R esponsible to none other except my own verbs, adjectives etc. S eriously, an insurmountable mother of all conundrums is all but solved T otally harrowing journey to the MAXIMUM U nder the disguise of cruel effort I EMERGED THE BETTER V arious poets with magical discipline may have been even more successful than I W ords have played a persistent and flirtatious game of trickery where I am the victor X ray vision is fun to perceive but wouldn't have assisted me in this craft Y ou can be certain I will probably never attempt this trial again Z ealously the conclusion has mercifully arrived at my PLEADING
Blasphemy…cloud over their hearts of gold Their value gradually diminishes…their weapons turn to mold Serenity…deserted them and neglected them like orphans Their joy rapidly wears out…they mislaid their abundant portions They yearn, "RESTORE the walls of Jericho!" Anguish…shadows over their dwelling, sacred place Their weaknesses manipulate them – they're the definition of disgrace Danger…defeats them and tarnished them as if they were worthless Their prosperity shattered straightaway! REBUILD our merriness! They plead and pray, "Dona nobis pacem…" Hear our hesitation and supplication…we're beneath the bricks and remains We're buried alive literally! We're becoming one with the ground Fear and despair erases our soothing dreams…we're getting washed away in the drains We're searching for shelter…we're getting hunted down – we're barely surviving They churn… They coil… They drift away… They spoil… In their miseries… Does He hear their pleas? "SAVE ME!" "Bestow blessings upon us!" Are you ignoring us deliberately? "Give us a helping hand And lead us to the promise land!" Misfortune unravels in this city of bafflement Their strengths repaired our souls…we're the definition of bravery! Desolation and disbelief demolishes the walls of Jericho… Does anyone sense their resentment? Their charity transformed to greed suddenly – Their lack of optimism and gratitude Buried them down in captivity How can you bear their poverty? How can He save them from destruction and pity? They whisper on His Holy Hill, "Dona…Nobis…Pacem…" Don't let the battle overthrow 'em!
I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.
I wear the crown of hatred misunderstanding and despair upon my hair upon my back a wooden cross I bare I know not why I'm hated so all the people seemed to love me just a week ago my skin is cut from head to toe from whips of leather by men who wish to see me die I spoke the truth for all the people to understand my words of truth where words to set man free from degradation hate and hell to live in harmony for the rest of history I cured the sick and healed the blind with the touch of my own hand I've walked on water and walked on sand to preach and bring my truth through out the land people came from all around and would sit for hours upon the ground I once had twelve good men who followed me around now there's only eleven one man let me down my words have been mistaken my God he has forsaken for that my life they're taken I believe that I have failed as my hands and feet are nailed upon this wooden cross as they raise me in the air all their sins I know I must bare I want to scream not fair not fair I'm just a young man I only wanted to teach there are so many more people that I wanted to reach my age is only thirty three I pray my God that they the people will remember me written by Dennis H. Davis This poem was written from the human aspect of Jesus Christ. I wrote this poem with no effort what so ever it was as though it was being told to me. I watched my hand move across the page with a purpose a message I believe Jesus wanted this poem written.
Nobody Knows my real name 'Angel' Is what I go by I am freezing cold I don't have money Just, the clothes on my back I am a walking wardrobe I am lonely I smell like crap I am starving hungry I can't find any shelter My clothes are drenched I look like a drowned rat! Violence Upon women Is classed normal Around here! I wonder... If I will survive Another day? Only To wake up And Do this All over, again! "Protect me tonight As,I lay my head to rest" "I love you, dear God" "Goodnight"
In the beginning of plight, We venture off and take action Beyond the mysteries of the day and night We search diligently for safety and direction The aftermath of our flight Brought us good luck and success If we look forward...we'll eventually find light We must get out of this cave... Or we'll be stomped on by distress You're our journey's end Where is the escape route? Beyond the present anguish, our spirits will ascend With God's help, we'll find a way out... No doubt
My eyes Pour forth feelings That I've felt in the past They make my heart ache… Take it all away… Oh my God… They're making me sink in dismay When will they break away? When will they give me a break? And I'm left in my solitude… Do you hear me weeping? And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace draw near? Eye don't see A happy ending in this scene My eyes Journeys into the unknown Who knows what will happen… They're like hidden treasure… They're buried far below… And I'm left in my solitude… My eye's weeping… And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace draw near? Oh my God… They're driving me insane When will they see my reflection? When will they heal the infection? Eye don't feel Raindrops of hope and relief All I feel…is grief… Eye sense no peace… And I'm left in my solitude… My eye's sagging…from endless mourning And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace draw near? Does He hear My supplications? Does He sense My fear? My eyes Conceals the tears that dare to spew out I feel trapped and lost without a doubt… They erase my delight… They seek my hurt… Oh my God… They're casting me away into the perilous sea And I'm left in my solitude… My eye's weeping… And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace throw out my fear? Eye don't see A ship in sight…to save me from my demise My lifeless body... Drifts away in the wild ocean... Without a sound... Without emotion... Eye don't see A rope to hold on to… My hope for peace Has drowned…
And so do I fall, and so do I fail, Falling so deeply into this destructive void, Nothing but ash and specs of dust that were once my brittle bones and scarred flesh. To not know what is ahead, How maddening! How so distraught have I seemingly become, Forgotten myself as time has smoothed over me. Tricky, sly fiend indeed; master and slave a like to us all. Do I dare move forward into the uncertainty that is humanity and of such society? So gut wrenching, thoughts filled of bile at what is. As we all are from and are the same, yet tear limb by limb the essence of ourselves by one another in an endless state of bigotry and violence; so brightly are we bathed in evil. So easy is it to see. Miracles; perhaps shall they see fit to carry me away from the void that is, and from such temptation, as to live the rest of days in blissful, stagnant dreams.
Writing a masterpiece Takes so much effort and thought My mind's settling in my comfort zone – feed me with flawless peace Words seem to escape me…my feelings mean naught Anger molds me in inside and out…I feel insecure again Peace barely meets my body Joy seems to abandon me like an orphan Faith passed away – it's buried too far below the debris Have I lost the race? Writing a successful book…writing in general Takes so much confidence and self-control My mind is stacked up with debt… Words splinter my tongue – I can't repair my tarnished soul Danger is placed in many corners Happiness is a few blocks away from me Fearlessness dives into me Acceptance of who I am – God's chosen one Have I won the race? Have I found His grace?
How I hate the way I feel today, I just want everything to go away. Don't know if I am angry or sad , All I know is that it feels real bad. Everything is so mixed up inside , Confused by it all I just want to cry. Closing my eyes trying to get some rest, Doesn' help much getting only moments at best. Hoping for nightfall is what I want now, Praying tomorrow will be better some how. How I hate these days when I am down , Wishing nobody would ever come around. Asking myself why I am in this mood, What will it take to change my attitude. Surely there is something to make me smile, I wonder if there is because it's been awhile. Reading the book to maybe see my way through, It doesn't help either I am still feeling blue. Listening to others and what they have to say, Changes nothing at all I still feel this way. Why are there days I feel so down and out , Makes me want to just scream and shout. Wait for the morning sunrise is what I'll do, Possibly then I will be able to talk to you. Oh how I do not like the way I feel today, It's just the worst ever feeling this way. TAC
Gracious smiles, a waiter waiting. The service: quite nice actually. The drinks cool and food sating My average appetite factually; Who knew they had coca cola here In the middle of the desert... odd Isn't it? I ordered water and beer And here arrives our saviour, god And leader, dressed in a brown Shirt despite the pre-mentioned Heat. He never wears a frown, Even at rush hour not tensioned. 7.30 comes and goes, morning Or night, we arrive, are seated And eat. The waiter is fawning But nice, the food is all treated And we eat it all up, fulfilled by A fountain of beverages he will Provide. Full, we give a goodbye, And place tips away from the till So the manager cannot see, risky Business. But how to divide the Cost? Calculators grant only frisky Fractions, I only had a mint tea!
Written 2010 Flashing lights and sounds roll by Hear the sound of muffled sighs Sullen words cannot express Just confess, and lift it off your chest Told the priest would hear your cries If you don't feed him blatent lies Oh he's your only friend But he don't want to hear your sins He's off doing his own thing But it's far from priestly things Oh he wont look in your direction Let alone show you affection Even when he hears your plea, "Hey bartender please!" Gone are all your hopes and dreams All you ever sought to be Heard from all across the room Are many empty pleas, "Oh won't you pity me?" You can close your eyes and count to 10 Again and again But he wont come back to help his fellow men He was your only friend, but he left you all alone To wallow in your sin He failed to listen to your prayer Now your lost in dark dispair You can hide behind your cries But he'll see into your eyes Until the time you leave his bar And wobble to your car
Blackness, a dark version of me, badness, negativity. No matter how fast i run or were i run too your right behind me. Even the brightest sun doesn't destroy you, you only exist because of me. All i know is when i face the darkness you disappear, but to only return when the sun rises.
You abide in the light I'll miss you…when you venture off at night Don't forget me… Don't discard me… Don't leave me… Forgive me for drifting away from you… Please forgive me… Please don't ignore me… Hear my pleas…don't turn the other direction… Run with me…into heaven's light I've given you my soul… I've shared with you my melody I've fed you until you were full… I've healed you when you were under the weather… I've tried to bring us back together You hang on the rope of hope I'll rely on you…I'll cling to you… You saved me from subsiding into the obscure abyss Don't reject me… Don't depart from me… Don't release me… Respect me for who I've become Please respect me… Honor my presence Protect me from any sort of harm Is it in your nature to relieve my anguish? I've been driven away by my affliction I've set you free from Egypt…and lead you to the Promise Land Have you forgotten my affection? I've tried to empathize what you're going through – I've gave you a helping hand Don't you understand? Will you ever understand? You abide in the light I'll miss you…when you depart from my heart Don't forget me… Don't discard me… Don't mourn for me… Forgive me for wishing for your absence… Please forgive me… Please don't give up on me… Hear my side of the story… don't turn the other direction… I'm still training for perfection Run with me…until we arrive at home Hold my hand and we'll take divine flight I've cherished you for so long I've lead you to my home town – Do you remember where you and I belong? I've given you my trust… I've shared with you my dreams You're an apple to my eye You were my angel of grace, promising concord – Bestowing blessings upon me Your vitality never wears off… You were my lamp – Glowing with serenity and elation Tranquilizing my mind from despair and unease I'll never regret…meeting you that magnificent night I knew that that was love at first sight The moment you stepped foot into the light
I Was Told I Wasn't Any Good I heard the devil whisper into my ear… "You're no good!" "Come over here!" In front of me, where discouragements of various kinds... At first, it was almost overwhelming for my mind! He promised something "better," than what I already had! He said that if I did what he wanted… I'd be happy and glad! I asked how Jesus to help the way I'm livin.' The life I've lived… And HIS power of forgivin.'! Would I trade all of this, for a life of stress and sin? Perhaps having a form of happiness, but no freedom within? Was I going to trade what God gave, for a "pleasure of the moment?" Was I about to make a mockery of Christ' atonement? I ran, and bowed my head and cried… For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised! I felt the Holy Spirit's presence all around me! And then, it was like the love of Jesus had filled me! This time, I knew that what I had, was all I needed! With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated! Satan is a liar! He has one purpose and goal! He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul! Take notice Satan! This is what I proclaim! Everything I ever need! I have in Jesus' name! The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need! It's an everlasting and abundant life, that I received! Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and more! You are truly wonderful! And are worth living for! By Jim Pemberton
For the first time, I feel that life's treating me right Everyone's talkin' amongst themselves… I'm sick 'n tired of wastin' time I need to…train myself to become successful – Starting tonight. My life has its ups 'n downs… How can I balance myself again? How can I be more productive this week? How much time does it take to make my life valuable? Every now and then, I feel that there's no way out of the cage Everyone's bringin' up past recollections I'm willin' to fight the good fight… but I feel like garbage… My faith towards Him slowly decays away… How can I rebuild my strength again? How can I reassure myself that I'm stronger than I realize? How much time does it take to accomplish all of my dreams? Every so often, I feel that my family doesn't love me Do they still cherish me like hidden treasure? Do they still love me beyond measure? Everyone's tellin' me that I did a great job on my solo I don't believe them entirely…but at least I got the audience's attention My future is bright like the sun… How can I make my dreams a reality? Does God know the answer? How much time does it take to taste a sprinkle of glory? For the last time, I feel the need to reach the finish line Everyone's proud of me for trying my best And running with all of my effort I'm willin' to encourage myself to pass the test… Despite my struggles, I'm doing fine My courage increases by the minute… I outrun the competitive runners and I'm barely passing the test My cup is half full – I'm extremely grateful For the first time, I feel that God has answered my prayers – LIFE IS SO. . . . WONDERFUL!
Will my life last, much longer? What am I doing? I began to wonder… Many things keeps dragging me further down… What'll I do? There's no one around??? Many "things" have a hold on me… I cry every night… I want to be FREE! I've tried and tried… But to no avail… Just when I think I have victory… I fail! I've read in scripture of a power I haven't seen. I read of a lord who can do ANYTHING! I'm going to give him a try! I've nothing to lose! I've been so hurt, worn out and abused!.… To you, dear Jesus… I confess my every sin. I can feel your love from deep within! Thank you Jesus! For giving me a joy I never knew… I don't know where I'd be if not for YOU! You've brought to my life a peace I never had. For all you've done for me. I'm so glad! Won't YOU give your burdens to the one, I call friend? And experience the joy of being born again? Please come to him now! Why not this hour? And experience his life-changing power! By Jim Pemberton
Enigmatic Lane This enigmatic lane- I've walked long. And now I see Only barren lands, A mere setting sun, And a vague horizon. I turn to look back Along this enigmatic lane. And then I see Those umpteen vicissitudes, Those sudden meanders, Those familiar turns, Those abrupt detours. Down this enigmatic lane, There have been Many a rich meadows, Many a bleak wastelands, Millions of pompous marches, Millions of disconcerting dirges, Several comforts of love, Several cruelties of reclusion. Along this enigmatic lane I may no longer tread, for- As I now halt, I ponder- Perpetuation has always been The ruse of fleeting phases, And what worth has it been To walk this enigmatic lane.
I wish To demolish my sorrow… I wish To forget the despair and gleefully grow… To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow… My downfalls and my failures… I wish To disappear I wish I had no fear… For God's near… I wish I could be a cheetah in the grassland I wish To store all of my energy for an evening run…I'd never give up in the process I wish My whole spirit could simply sponge in God's nature and make great progress And I truly wish I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God I wish I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships… My countless wishes Brings me down to my weakest point… My countless wishes Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run… I wish I could forgive My daily regrets and breakdowns I wish I could forget My despondency – embracing my frowns I wish To live a life without error Without a care I wish To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions And scare away The darkness that tries to make me give up I wish I had more time to overcome… These waves of emotions My countless wishes Brings me down to my disheartened state… My countless wishes Are like walls from every direction closing in on me… But it's a convenient tool in the future… I wish I could be live in someone else's shoes… But what good would it do? Would it lead me to the narrow pathway? Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away? Would it push away the blues? Could He give me any clues?
This fortress is coming down; It's been a long time in the making. This bastion can't hold its own; All these walls are shaking.
Didn't we do enough to earn the best, oh dear God? We suffered every day, and went through hell. We never left, we kept the faith in You, oh dear Lord. Why still didn't we earn the mercy of Yours? Why aren't we happy still? Maybe we forgot the sense You put into our lives when You Gave us the possibility to breathe, Maybe we don't see, or never Understand the truth that rises above us. It's complicated. Only holy ones can realize. But we keep going. We were left on the empty road, And there is nobody to take us, Nobody to save us from the sorrow. We may breathe. We may believe But how are we supposed to Find a way, oh dear God, When we are so lost?
If we break life down into small little victories, It won't be long until the battle is over, And before we know it, The war will be won.
Everyone's gone... There's no one to look up to...not one... Not one will be kind enough To look down and attempt to help me... Everyone's gone... I'm beneath the debris There's no one there to save me... I'm left to my own misery Everyone's gone... I guess I'll find my way out of this maze Without any clues I'm waiting for relief to dawn upon me Everyone's gone I'm dealing with so much trauma I'm watching for any signs of support... Hear my echoes of pain... It drives me insane... Catch me before I fall off the cliff... Everyone's gone I'm all skin and bones I'm trapped like a hunted animal The predator took a bite into me... Don't just watch me suffer... Deserted in this lonesome state Everyone's gone I'm kicked around like a soccer ball Hear me as I call... Help me to stand tall Help me... Reach up to the sky To feel the coolness seep through me Help me... To be inspired to write more uplifting songs Help me think more positively - help me wave g'bye Help me... Forgive me for all of my wrongs... Everyone's gone I'm a screwed-up building I need you to be my backbone Straighten me up...help me to be stiff like a soldier About to enter another horrifying war Support me today... And stick with me tomorrow! I want to let go of the past memories... Scaring away my happy moments and delights I want to smear away the blasphemies… Obliterating my blissful days and nights Everyone's gone... There's no one to depend on...not one... Not one will be brave enough To look down and attempt to help me... Everyone's gone... I'm beneath the city There's no one to show me the jolly sun... I'm left to my own misery Everyone's gone... Fine… I'll find a way to get out of this nightmare Without any clues I'm waiting for relief to give me strength instead of fear
I wish To be a pigeon soaring in the morning sky I wish I have all my issues fly out the windows I wish My whole body could simply wither away I wish To start anew and be on a fresh start I wish I had the ability to fly I wish To have a talent of writing cheerful, exquisite poems I wish I could be a wonderful guy I wish I could have a future family and be the best father in the world I wish I could have a positive mindset I wish I had the desire to talk things out and live a peaceful life
Not once in my life have I ever been so low, So confused and lost not knowing which way to go. Trying to pick up the pieces of a wreckage I left behind, I often wonder if I have completely lost my mind. Everything I try no matter how simple it may be, Miserably failing seems all that there is for me. Hoping and praying that soon things will come my way, How I have longed for this to happen , soon someday. Stay postive and be confident that's all I ever hear, These struggles I go through has been this way for years. I feel like a piece of old railroad track tossed to the side, Only to spend all my time watching my life pass me by. Please I would ask could you lend a friend a hand, So confused , tired and I just don't understand. I'm the missing pieces to a puzzle the pocket with no change, Can't figure anything out and things just aren't the same. Help me to my feet and show the right direction to me, If you do this I know I'll get it right this time you'll see. It doesn't take much to make a man fall down , Much more to get him up when there's nobody around. There is somerhing I've learn trying to do it all alone, Without any help my friend you can't do it on your own. TAC
Break me down, build me up Turn me around; teach me to never give up I've been kicked around and I'm feeling it now I've been pushed and pulled and it's bringing me down My walls are closing in My mind is breaking within I can feel my heart begin to collapse I can see the broken pieces shatter and crash It's hard to see beyond this closed door It's hard to move locked inside walls of four There's a break down in the system here The path to take just isn't clear I've been free falling for a while now Trying to move but can't seem to go Coasting in an abyss of lies and bitterness Every fiber of my being screams, "Rid me of this!" I can feel the end of the road meet up under my toes My fingers start losing grip and I step toward what I don't know Blinded from the truth I find I must take a leap For my hope to be reborn and my soul to keep Every step I take I risk it all As I quiet my soul and wait I gain it all
Everyone in the world thinks babies and kids have no struggles we are wrong. We forget the hardest times of our lives is when we were infant our hearts beat a song. When we were hungry we would cry, little hands could not grab anything that lye. We had help to hold our bottles and we felt so helpless in our everyday struggles. Our eyes did not open till the time that we were able we saw everything huge in size. It made our heart throb fast and nothing made sense for all the words were gurgles. The little ears we had we did stress with sound so loud and so unknown made us cry. The fathers and mothers with kind word almost calmed us while they whispered. They held us with fear, we had fear just knowing that we could not handle stress alone. We grabbed things and we just wanted to hear the heart beat of our mom and dad. That was the only thing in our minds that made us calm and glad. The first touch of rough skin and strong hands were most comforting, yet scary at once. Trust gradually grew when whipped our mess and hind ends, which were still scary. To the large people out there the mind of a child is so simple but they still struggle. They still need food, love and security that is all they need to grow. To their lives is what they cling and no one is there to protect them from sorrow. There are less fortunate kids that never get to hear their mothers and fathers hearts. They soon empathize with everything around them with an emotion that struggles. When sleeping on our own we cannot defend ourselves so we have fears. That's why we cry nightly to sigh relief, we get exhausted and we run out of tears. Remember the times you seen a child fall down their first step or bump into things. It is scary when knowledge is lacking and get into things, which are a signs of struggles. Children is future, it is nice to just watch them study, play and learn who they are. Babies and Kids smiling, playing loud, and just sitting, they are still people they struggle.
Whatever you do, don't let go... He's going to arrive soon – don't be overwhelmed Whatever you do, don't look back Woe is embracing our lives Don't let yourself turn to black Keep on track... Woe is dwelling in our lives... Lurking in every corner They sprout from the ground like jagged knives Wait until the dark tides Pass through us...God's still protecting our lives Whatever you do, don't doubt Him!! Don't be a forlorner - Be a conquerer!
I'm a child in heart I'm sensitive, So don't misuse it I'm God's special child I need to respect My zealous Father I need to honor Him With my young heart, I pray for freedom How awesome are Your deeds? Relieve my heart's ache Help me escape From the darkened pit I can be active And beat that race I'm on God's good side God's mercy Aids me in times of trouble I appreciate His consideration He fulfills me with elation
Shame Remains the same But, I'm sure I'm its victim IT SURE NEEDS A TRIM... I feel ugly and slim Devour The tower Of darkness Leading me to distress... I'm in a miserable mess Kill The pill Of sadness Swallowing me whole - I'm hopeless My gratitude transforms to frustration... Do you sense my agitation...? Feel The steel In MY heart Pounding me to death... COULD ANYONE TAKE HEART? ARE YOU GOING TO LET THE MONSTERS TEAR ME APART?? COWER Away from the Dark and morbid tower OF SHADINESS Throwing bricks at me... I'm choking on the dry paint of filthiness Do you hear my screams? Do you feel my stress? Will you keep me in your dreams? Do you want me to be full of happiness? Do you want to rest for the day OR put it aside and increase my dismay? SHAME Has no beautiful name But, it sure gets me Worked up and distressed... When I look back at the tower, I don't feel the best... Let me flee!! Let me rest... ...or I'll feel tired and depressed
How did I get here It seems to be a bit fuzzy All the years that have gone by Why.... did I worry about everthing being perfect Why did it stress me out? I have so much doubt Sometimes I wonder what is or who Im talking about relaxation and stress free is what life I wanted for me But why did I choose to be at the End of the rope With always having hope That the ones in my life Will devote as much time and effort That i strive for in each and everything I guess one thing Im learning is that each individual isn't like me They don't think or act the same as me Some people think life is just a breeze I love the person I am Just don't appreciate dealing with all the debris
the cold air hits me hard nevertheless i have to do this my legs buckle and i struggle on the hill wearing three layers of clothes, i wonder how i got here each second something changes, yet i remain stranded and lost i exhaust my mind thinking thinking thinking i depress my self blinking blinking blinking the end result is me sinking sinking sinking further down i go into an abyss with parasitic views the only way out is to immerse myself in extended disruptions knowing this, to the library i go.... classified section after classified section.... call after call to temp agency after temp agency it is enough to drive one crazy if one chooses to do so however, i remain and remember that i must keep the faith....