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AM I ? Am I Just Standing Here, or Am I Just Dead? Am I So Full Of Fear, I Lost Myself Instead? Am I A Nobody, that you can't defend me? OR Am I Just Invisible, and you really don't pretend. Am I Blind, Or I Just Don't Wish To See? The Love I Cannot Find Is Right In Front Of Me! Am I Hearing the Truth, Or Have I Just Been Deceived? Who Can I Trust? Who Can I Believe? Am I So Mad I Just Can't Understand, Or Am I So Sad I Need A Shoulder And A friend? Is It Just Me, Or Am I All Alone? *** I wrote this poem 22 years ago I was pregnant, scared and alone:-(
I'm till struggling to connect with you... It feels strange that you are actually here, and so near.. You...walked past me a couple of times, Your eyes were glistening, sober, serious... Rushing by as if something deathly important lie ahead In that moment, I could hear my heart thrashing in my throat A victim in a prison, desperately closing those eyes from the fear Wanting...to reach out to you.... But not knowing how... How will you ever know the tears I have shed? How will you ever see the love and care in my eyes? Maybe we will never know what we could be... Maybe I am lost in uncertainty's sea But, please... Don't walk by me... No, not anymore... My sorrowful soul holds its breath when you do... And when you are gone again... My heart sobs...
Behind those beautiful eyes, So much anger,so much mistrust, Always expecting the worst, Always conversing about the bad things life has to offer, Behind those beautiful eyes, So much hurt,so much pain, Bottled up bad experiences overflowing, Crying to be unleashed,to be released, Behind those beautiful eyes, High expectation,countless plans, Many things to still achieve, So many things you still haven't done, Behind those beautiful eyes, Is a body,searching for comfort, A mind,searching for peace, And a heart searching for true love, All behind those beautiful eyes.....
Sad Heart, now thou art wither'd from the Sun, What man, or god, will near thee run? Wrought in twist like branches in Tempests' gasp, What Comfort, or Gauze, shall be near to grasp? True ones begotten are the ones now Rotten And the ones now Rotten will never be forgotten They are merely sad remains of assiduous Tears That have been meddl'd with and tatter'd Raw throughout the years And thou, cruel Mind, that sat'st still thru toiling trail of Night; Must dream your broken Dreams; thou'rt a sanely flight! Can thou extinguish passions of Fire, Disease, or Rain? —tho thy distinguish'd influence trains to abstain Thy Remnants brought to debris in thy Empty street, Devour'd by Vultures, their bestow'd beaks entreat Merely are they cleaning an inexhaustible Mess Alas! Leaving thy rudiments of Identity to redress....
I'm tired I'm Physically and Emotionally tired I don't want to be the strong one anymore I can't this time I don't know what to do Daddy I need your help down here I can't get back in control of my emotions I'm having a hard time dealing with your absence I'm having a hard time standing by myself I need your help Daddy I'm broken and lost without you Daddy I need your will to want to carry on I need your strength to over come this I need your strength to stay standing Your courage to fight back again I need your help Please Daddy I'm at a loss How am I suppose to do this I need your guidance I need you to guide me back To whom I was before I need your help Daddy I need your help
He was always so happy strong and bold. He'd give you the shirt off of his back. Tough. Independent. He had a rough life growing up through the depression, but like he always does, he got through it. He has two boys, of whom he is so proud. Moved from Regina, to Victoria. He had the best life anyone his age could have wanted. But ever since his wife died, he has not been the same. Sad Lonely Empty. But like he has always done, he got through it. Mind slipping, just a little forgetful. That's how it always starts out... But like always, he powered through it, until now... He is not the same person that I used to know. He been sentenced to the prison in his own mind. Possessed by the thoughts of his dogs ashes. He likes to play the blame game, but we know he doesn't remember that it was him. He wakes up in the night shaking with pain, tears streaming down his face. There is nothing we can do, Oh well... Two more tylenol. Hold on to hope for as long as you can, It's only a matter of time now. He gets vocal, a very loud tone. He'll block you in your room and make false accusations But we know that it's the pain induced monster in him. Tick tock, tick tock... You can't handle the stress anymore you have to leave. Just hope for the best, maybe it will get better. Surprise, it doesn't. Your denial is foolish, everyone knows what happens next. Sedation Medication Anger Hurt All results of dementia
My heart was in such pain I felt like I was going to go insane I just don't know what to do And my eyes full of tears that distort my view I fell to my knees and felt the urge My muscle tighten and pin needles struck me like a surge My body was warm and with feelings so confused My mind felt sadness had fused I could not conquer my fears I just sat down and fell into tears When some close to you passes on It felt like a warmth has gone So I raised my hand towards a box that was empty with no tissue I first was embarrass and had a little bit of issue All my friends hugged me and said sorry for your loss So now I cry in my bed and toss April 14, 2013
Silent screams no one hears Tired eyes filled with tears Gut wrenching heartache no one feels Emotions dark enough to kill Mental exhaustion no one sees Strong enough it hurts to breathe An answer seekin no one speaks A language spoken without speech
The voices grow louder, Intensifying with emotion, anger lining every aggressive word. My insides squeeze tighter as the vitriol poisons my mind, How does such hostility exist? As the sound of hatred deepens, The feelings strengthen their grip, like a vice, So tight, I can no longer breathe All the negative emotions I have ever felt, fill me, Threatening to overflow. So long have they been banished… Enough. No more! My mouth opens, An earsplitting scream of pain and suffering shatters the silence, Sobs of sorrow and grief wrack my body, Murderous shrieks of anger and hate, Wretched cries of self-pity and self-loathing, Poison the air. Now, free of these emotions. But the monster still exists Within the dark depths of my mind.
The greatest holiday gift I ever received Goes back so many, many years Before my life became turmoiled And before my tears for fears I was a child like many out there Torn, strewn and split of kin Mother and father in differences Confused at seven, wearing their same skin For I was one of the lucky ones To a Highland Estate I would go It's on the west coast of Scotland Where my holidays desired me so Secretly I internally smiled For a whisper of where I was heading To live with a movie star hero No longer my life was in dreading We were picked up by a man so fine His manners were an absolute joy Regimental he was in his approach To me, just a seven year old boy We travelled through the village of Plockton Crystal clear waters edged to it's shore I knew from this very moment Being here ebbed previous family sores On entering his house I was in awe Movie pictures came to my view They were images of James Bond At seven I was totally through A voice called to me Hey James! sit down and I'll tell you me Still in circles in walking awe This is what he told thee My name is Patrick Dalzel Job In the Second World War I served But this recognition I bestow Humbles me to it's deserve This honour that's been given Was blessed by a colleague in war What desired Ian Fleming to be so striven Possibly, what we were fighting for We served on the same destroyer Fighting to make the future free His tribute, in his novels I became James Bond, it's incredibly me Not many seven year olds have stayed with James Bond. This seven year old Scot's boy has, maybe I learnt? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patrick_Dalzel-Job
You walk through the metal detector You look at me with a deep seated scorn You loath that I made you remove your stuff You had to take off your shoes belt and jewelry You're thinking "I'm no criminal or terrorist so why me" I am only doing the job the government requires of me I am not the reason you are harassed and had to partially strip I do empathize with you seeing I have to do the same thing too No one cares that I am a Screening Officer I am searched when I travel The government says what's good for the goose is good for the gander You want to get mad at someone then look in the right direction The ones who blatantly took the lives of our families and friends Who took the choice of traveling to most places away forever Who took the privilege of carrying most things on board away The freedom to travel with our liquids and gels peanut butter and jam Don't blame me because I am risking my life to keep you safe Don't blame me for someone not caring about your fate Don't blame me for what Mr. Harper and Mr. Obama says Or for what the UK says is their Standard Operating Procedures (SOP) Don't blame me I am just the messenger that holds many lives in my hand
I stare in the mirror, my tears fall in vain Can't see my reflection through the veil of this pain. Who is this person I struggle to see? I don't want to judge her but it's surely not me. This stranger I cast looks so tired and weak, I wish I could help her but I'm frightened to speak. Cause it's dark and lonely in this shell where I'm bound Where once there was laughter, is now void of sound. and the beauty I knew in just yesterday's time, seems gone in an an instant with life's rythym and rhyme….. Then GOD he spoke child…What do you mean? You're more beautiful than anything that I've ever seen! The reflection you cast it don't matter to me, What matters is that you can see what I see. That your spirit is filled with a breath that is true. And a beauty so deep that this world can't undo. I know that your journey seems to heavy to bear. But I've given you family that love and who care. So hold on tight through the dips and the turns, For the ones who believe are the precious who learns. And wether your journey is to stay here or go, Please know I love you so much more than you know. I wish I could tell you the beauty that awaits… But you will know only, when you see heavens gates.
Imagine lakes of dreams Blood contained streams Imagine oceans that behold undiscovered beings Imagine human life depended off of cheers and games Man design's umbrellas And eventually would play a part in acid rain Imagine not wanting to smell another rose Or touch another soul Because of despair and shame Imagine in the mist of your demise You have the passion to rejoice and sing Imagine driving pass shattered glass The interior is soaked with blood stains Your mind can't comprehend the fact that it's a dead family in the next lane Imagine dreaming for freedom As a result by your neck you hang Imagine for the sake of progress You whip a man on his back and call him a slave. Rage, Pain, Fortune, and fame You don't have to imagine this Because that's what life brings.
This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me
Descending eyes piercing the starry nights Deeper yet, unto hearts of men Crossing thresholds shattered darkness Behold, the fallen angels unbeknown to sin That of weakest appetites malign As heaven's tears spilling city streets In futility cleanse what's evil-wise From beneath, us vagabonds of broken wings Empty rooms loneliness desperately Weary hearts for yearning error in love Far off stares and blank faces, harrow in oasis And inspirations forgotten, never peering up Divine light cease upon closing heart Earthly flesh feeding frenzies To another piece of faith withdrawn Humanity continues on and spirituality dies ending Some pretentious fly toward false sanctuary Never escaping whispers, persecutions within Hissings soft, but brimstone in our heads Countless fallen angels iniquitous deprivation dins "Criers" define us as the times most desperate "God, forgive us, please" hollow words that we pray "The wicked must be punished" God's eternal now and tomorrow His arms outstretched further still but, where are we today
My soul pounds with rage. This heart has been scorched, by your burning words. My soul gasps for light slowly suffocated, By your hands of pain. I bare the mark of shame. Your touch has maimed my body. My mind drowned out my screams. Blow by blow, Shamed so low. Never did you know how, Your hands of pain marked me.
I can't tell you what it is I can't even tell you what it feels like I can only tell you that it's the worst pain You'll ever feel in you life It'll feel like every bone in your body is breaking Like every breath you take will be your last Like every muscle in your body is failing to support you And thats only the least of it. There is so much more! You eyes will feel like they're bleeding from all the tears you'll shed. You tounge will swell with words that you can't say. Your ears will make you question everything coming into them. And your heart, Well thats the worst part of it! It will feel as though its stopped beating... And who knows, maybe it has.
And we are left here Like maggots—dirty, parentless…devastated Always feeding on the gruel…the cruel Fattening our lives in the moneyless bilk Shocking like a bee sting, yet soft as silk We are the forgotten I am watching the others grow rotten But I am cleansed and raw with glee Because…though blinded with slime…I SEE… I rise to the sound of the agonizing screams Of rapes, murders, of violent fists…weeping minds My definition of true finds… I smile when any possible hope arrives Fate laughs, knowing I constantly scream inside I am amused of it all…I can't stop laughing As bitter tears began to fall I HATE ALL OF YOU… I WANT TO KILL YOU ALL… But I love that I can take anything From the nothing we have all been labeled The sick, the low…the mentally unstable Watch me roll up in a ball A naughty tease to death's lull I love your silence… I love your intense fall And we are more alive than any of you We are crazed by your belligerence Aching to be emotionless SHARE YOUR INDIFFERENCE SHARE IT… Give us something to be left with So the others can die As Fate veers its head looking in the mirror Listen to her laughter—do you hear her? She watches and waits To find her maggots have grown wings… Screw your selfish indifference...we fall to fly We are more alive than any of you Though quickly we die
Bleeding around me are empty faces Sad, drooping spaces, crumpled places Melancholy for the light of new places Stuck in time, frozen in time The pangs of lonesome fill their sagging hearts Frowning forever, frowning forever Let me stare blankly at the stained wall Nothing at all…nothing at all The mind is a scary place The mind is a distraction From the reality ever binding Curbing every reaction The mind is overwhelming The mind is oh so sad When we turn to larvae and graves It's an never-ending... Entwinement Found myself looking through the tiny hole in the wall Watching you fall, watching you fall Scared for the neck that would break us all You shuddered my blood…shuddered my blood I met the eyes of the souls of your feet Twitching and swinging…unfeeling…unfeeling Please allow me this sole ease: Just be with me... lie with me The mind is a scary place The mind is a distraction From the reality ever binding Curbing every reaction The mind is overwhelming The mind is oh so sad When we turn to larvae and graves It's an everlasting... Entwinement -inspired by Mad World by Gary Jules- -also inspired by the stop motion film: The Man in the Lower-Left hand Corner of the Photograph-
Rest is a requirement, for all, in order to have this, sleep is a must, after a day's of hard work, wherein sleep is a must, for all, to freshen up the next day, though the mind goes to sleep, and the body follows suit, the subconscious mind awakens, and in lie, a number of dreams, awaiting you, the dream, that always reigns in my mind, is the death of my wife, not once, but more than a couple of times, why does this dream, often arise in my mind, is the answer I seek, is it because of the love we have towards one another, or is it the compassion for each other, or is it in relation of serving one another, or is it a kind of warning, a warning to take care in the future, some people may call this as the sixth sense, while I call this a nightmare, as nightmares are really scary, yes, nightmares are quite scary indeed, if you do agree with me or not!! From:-Mr.Manu Nair (dated 19th November, 2012)
Somebody help me because I have fallen. I'm so deep and I can't get out, it's too steep. I don't think I'll ever be able to leave; it's becoming harder to breathe. Screaming but nobody hears. Crying but nobody sees the tears. Pulling myself up but getting pulled back down. Doing nothing but getting swallowed by the ground. Somebody help me please! Grasp my hand and don't release! I'm being consumed by the darkness. Clawing cause' loneliness is calling. Take me out of this nightmare, nobody is there… Curled up cold in the corner, life can't get any shorter.
What's the use of trying any longer? Nothing comes out the way I want it to flow Words perpetrate my every being And I strain to get my temperament to slow But my cognizance is reeling in a panic of waves The voltage of emotion is overwhelming me What is this journey impending to? What is my purpose? To obliterate or build? I keep assurances only to splinter and shatter them I melt into their regrets and apologies without looking back Then I am slapped right back in the face With my own waves of shame and qualm I wish I was like you I wish I could put a guise on and never show my face I wish I could take a dagger and extinguish the sorrow Destroy tomorrow But it keeps coming back with twinges and pains! I want to scream my way into your existence I want to end all the overwrought thoughtlessness I want to be lifted in your ease To be beautiful and clever like you The demon is me and I am foaming with misery My horns are melting by your pertinacious confrontations I can't reply to the desolation of nothingness I can't make it all go away I'm trapped! RELIEVE ME! Cursed adrenaline rushes about me My body is prickling and waterlogged in blackness I swallow the poisons of my backwash And back-fire every stab in the back
me: "you're the reason i have no freinds, the thing i try to hide, i lock you up inside my head, and keep you inside" jez: "i am you and you must see, the one you truly are, not always who they think, you still shine like a star," me: "i miss the life you took from me, the girl i was, please leave me be." jez: "......" me: "i miss your voice, within my head, come back and stay, don't leave instead" jez: "......" me: "ive lost you now, my heart will fade, you were my heart, a mistake i've made." somthing new for those who commented on all my other poems. ~hides and peeks out~ do you like it?
Everywhere I look, all I see is nothing A vast space full of water, the current pulling me out to nowhere Kicking and screaming I'm trying to stay above the wild waves But the crash and smash against me, the water filling my lungs I cannot breathe and I cannot float much longer I want so desperately to have something to cling to But yet I am alone in this fight, to keep my mind above To keep myself from sinking to the depths of depression A dark, endless pit that I will not be able to escape The burning anger above me And sweltering sadness beneath me Challenge me in my everyday To try and hold on to the thin lines of reality The lines that are blurring before my very eyes I do not know how much longer I can keep I want it all to end…but I do not want to end it all I am so tired…so very tired But sleep dances away from me, Like a young child on a play ground, sleep runs and hides The giggles of him I can hear, here and there But I cannot reach him He his beyond my capacities, beyond my boundaries And I'm losing this fight to stay above the water I feel like I'm drowning 'ISN'T ANYONE THERE' I cry And I weep, but honestly I really don't know why Why I feel so trapped in this grey world With no escape and no reverence I am lost in the wild furls of my psychotic mind Where no one can find me, no one can help me…save me Alone and drowning I try to grasp onto the thin wisp of hope But it is false and was gone before it ever appeared I am lost, with nothing but the water and fire The darkness, and terror I have nothing to hold onto Yet I keep fighting, I keep fighting this losing battle But I do not know how much longer I will last
I once heard a saying, that the happiest people are the saddest Shining because they've seen the darkest Like the lotus that grows out of mud Or the rotting stump that bears a bud.. You never know what troubles the mind So be careful with words unkind The glowing person just beside you Could be a crumbling ruin behind the hairdo Most people struggle everyday Souls burdened with decay.. I guess it takes a lot of courage To act normal with that damage Hard to believe that under the surface Lives a soul with no purpose A cry for help won't be any crisper Listen to the their inner whisper..
I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You
September 29, 2012 ------------------------- This secret life of lies you keep Cause me to stumble and in pain to weep Shine a light in the darkness Help me travel safely through this darkness This wretched, blasted dark you keep me in All the doors locked, I crash into obstacles never to win This race, not without a light Without a glimmer, a candle, something to grant me some sight Because I can't continue to wonder- This darkness on my own blindly I try to ease my way around the blocks But still, in the dark, I fail to see the holes And I fall-hard And you're gone And alone I weep Because I cannot make my way without fail All I ever wanted was to be your friend But you will not let me in So I continue to blindly wonder in the darkness Always stumbling Always falling Always failing
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it began so innocently we exchanged ideas on poetry his art, the suffering he endured he preyed upon my compassion as he meticulously bided his time... i felt safe as we expressed our mutual love of words i was excited, i was learning, unbeknowst to me, i was his prey.. many months and thousands of hours, talking, reaffirmed my trust; faith in him he shared his life, triumps & tragedies i supported all he desired for himself.. i understood, i felt his pain, his drive i admired, he overcame tremedous odds, became a doctor so others would not suffer as he had; he baited me; the innocent and naieve one. living life with no regret, i chose to take a leap of faith, he guided me, alleviated my fears, of promises to cherish and adore me.. as a tiger waits patiently to pounce on his prey i was oblivious to his hatred inside, he was a master of manipulation his mission - to destroy me.. i felt he was worth giving up all i knew to build a life he so lovingly described to me, little did i know, his words - poison.. america bound i left everything i knew; i loved. the terror of his drunken rages, his icy silence, the cruelty of his words stung like red hot coals. what he admired most about me,intensified his hatred. the vacancy in his eyes was terrifying, i was alone in a strange country, knowing no one, in a house, not a home, full of tension, rage, abuse; numb and in shock; this was my reality.. with each painstaking day of living in terror dreading his arrival, my fear reached new heights; i had enough; i was leaving. his rage increased, his words pure venom.. i was numb, shaking, fear drove me to action he became desperate, i did not sleep for fear of never waking, his actions so terrifying i felt a strength within, empowering me.. planning my escape, fear became my ally, i reached the airport and did not stop shaking until safely on the plane, doors shut, moving down the runway to take-off; i wept, i crumbled, i collapsed. jubilantly at home, i felt peace, safe, and soaked in the beauty of my freedom; my home. it has been six weeks; i have flashbacks, terror still haunts me; i am determined to not let another change me. i am healing and am grateful for every moment i smile, smell a flower, witness the marvel of each sunrise and sunset. i am a blessed girl. ~this was me~
Seemingly standing alone, In the shadows of doubt and fear, Lost, cold, forgotten, Cold is the grasp of death that nears Seeking a hand in darkness of solitude, Wishing for nothing but a love, Turned away, cast aside, borne not even a stray, lone thought, Towering aloft, looked down upon from far above Throned so high overhead, just as kings of old, Glared down upon, a lowly tear forsaken so, Caught within a trap, drowning, mists of sorrow, A voice unheard, a voice deserted, only a voice in woe Wandering such great, forlorn paths, A derelict mind harshly beat, a mind that has since long been vacant, Rove, this neglected child does, One mind among so many, outcast, this dolor mind abeyant.
I live on that borrowed time What do you know about me... She was a nymph that got me In sexual moments she kills She gives something unwanted A disease, unknown to all Now I'm living with something That could kill me instantly I feel nothing but knowing I could die... This nymph knew me all too well She used me Can kill me and not be there I just live on borrowed time Death will one day lean on me I will die Russell Sivey
Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?
When you have downfall on your mind chaos is all a mind can find, its time to change all the things you had held so deep inside, they cause rage, your trapped in while your caught up in the cage of life an easy life with out strife, no more pain or struggle inside a bubble and you want to make it burst, but first things first you know the times that come will be the worst, because its change you want, and you will taunt the ones who set the curse. They say if you want to change a little then its your choice, but if you want to change a lot they must first hear your voice, loud enough for all to hear, listen and all of the problems soon disappear, just know that the world can be a bleak one and people dont always listen so you cannot only speak once, so when the end is near you can look back at the goodtimes throughout all the years think about all the times and cheer, and thank god you lived this long and your still here. Be remembered only for the words you spoke, for you do not want to be invisioned inside a cloud of smoke, watch as they listen when you start to feel the choke on the thoughts about your life,a bad life, a black life, envoloped in fear you were hoping that the man would hear, and maybe take a listen, to diamonds in your mind as you watch them glisten. finally move to a position, and open your ears and let your mind be clear, and hear the wisdom spoken from the person on the otherside of the mirror, society sobriety with out a clue just sit and ponder at the deepest thoughts that are revealed in you...
then here, idle now to some small thought i wander though this timeless court and drift beyond what i have known and see the weight of pastures sown discover i must unknowing why who i am beneath the sky i close my eyes and feel the pull of timeless days I know the rule. down down to the depth discover i what is left of what began a simple boy innocent full of joy down down does this end as i wash in its decent down down and still it goes back to where a spring was sown a fear grips the torn grey heart as it descends to the start will it stop as still i fall clawing at this living wall down down out of sight the noisome wind the fading light faster still as i fall dropped down inside a pit-stone wall and slowly now i reach the depths of mind and soul of what is left the air is damp i breath in deep uneven bottom beneath my feet. and here i am
The Warrior My pencil is my sword My eraser is my shield And when I go to war My paper is my battlefield When life is to much This is how I express the way I feel And so I write such words As murder, stab, kill When people read these words Misunderstanding they think I'm insane But this is just how I vent All my anger, frustration and pain People that don't know me Think I look like a bad man The people that say they do know me Think I live the life of a madman All of these things Circling in my head Sometimes I have to wonder Would I be better off dead I used to be a somebody And my reputation would reflect That I used to be a person To look up to and respect But now you can see By the trembling in my hands That all I am these days Is a tired, broken man
What was I to do scared I tried so hard to stop it but nothing I did helped, I couldn't scream and I have no idea why,maybe the fear from the fact the one thing I never really know if it would've happened to me did or the fact I didn't try while it was happening, I wish I could go back and change the mistake made but once made it's done. I can't ell my mother she'll never believe me, she'll think I meant for it to happen but I struggled and I fought but not hard enough obviously. A secret that haunts me for the rest of my life and God only knows that I never tied to do that. I still hold that fear within because I don't know who to really trust with this secret, in some ways I don't believe I know anyone who will just except this. This is the first time I have publicly announced this and I only hope that you won't look at me any differently; I need no sympathy I just hope that whoever else reads this poem how has been through the same will help make them stronger and know that they aren't the only ones, my heart goes out to you.
It never takes much for me to fall in love, but i love, love for all the reasons I hate love, I love, love because love is what holds me through the night, but that same love may hit me in a fight, I love, love because love is my protection, but that same love may hurt me from rejection, I love, love cause no two loves are the same, but falling in love is like continuing a game, and i just don't wanna play anymore, I want a love that will love me and except me, Don't try and change me, but that is just the type of love that will never find me, so instead of hating love, I fear love, I fear love more then I love, love, I have never feared expressing my love, but I fear falling in love too deeply cause I know that is just the type of love that will hurt me, I have falling in love so many times, it always seems like a race against time, love never stays with me, it always leaves me, it always finds a way to hurt me, whether it's taking a boy from me, or taking away someone in my family, loves my tragedies, but without love leads me to sanity, I hate the feeling of being alone because I spent my whole life alone, I'v done everything in my life on my own, I don't think I deserve to be alone but I fear what love may one day do to me, because love I know will one day hit me, just like daddy hit mommy, just like love hit my sister, love wouln't let them excape and I'v seen the pain the blood and the tears, so love has become the source of all my fears, I never stay in love cause i feel the need to fun from love, but this I will never tell, I may say I love but it's not the same type of love inwhich you know of because when I love I love deeply, but my love for love is running swifly, I am getting older by the year and one day I will have to live with a man, but I will not love that man I will fear that man, because if I love him he will grow mad, and he will one day hit me, thats why I fear any guy loving me, because loves my tragedies.
Darkness surrounds me Your breath, skin, and words cover me Shadows, memories, my body black and blue Enough wounds from you I want to be free Free from touching you Something always brings me back to you A song, a picture, a voice in time All put you back in my mind I want to be free Free to be just me Moving physically out of your reach Running, hiding, checking over my shoulder Looking for the weapon that pierces through time One that cuts like a knife Making you totally gone from my life Bleed and make me free Free and strong may I be
If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word
I dont know where i'm going anymore hard to tell who you are when the indiffrency has settled in cold, empty, barren will i ever find a way? Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I try to stay sane But i fell under the september rain A repuiem for the reality That i never wish to see Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I need a way to escape, Only if I could just fly away
Standing alone in the night Dark all around Something doesn't seem quite right I hear a sound Like a werewolf howl Coming from all around And the noise of an owl Piercing red eyes appear Lightning strikes from the sky Death is seeming rather near And I don't want to die Am I dreaming? I hope I'm dreaming? Nightmare Confronting everything that I fear Nightmare The seeming reality of everything I see and hear Down into the ground I fall Deep into the dark Evil says my name, I hear it call The devil's made his mark I run, through the endless cave Stumbling through to find there's no way out Everything is what I've gave I've given up, all I want to do is scream and shout Nightmare! This is everything I fear Nightmare! I think the end is coming near I hope I'm dreaming I wish I was dreaming But I know this is my fate Lucifer, he can't wait To take my soul away There's nothing more I can do or say Nightmare! Losing everything I ever cared for Nightmare! Losing myself even more Nightmare! Nightmare! Nightmare! What I never want Nightmare! My mind is does haunt It don't care What I fear Cause with it, it grows I'm hating everything it knows I wish it wasn't real Everything I see and feel But it's true And just like a Nightmare!
I'm half monster. Living in a jackal and hide world of a father's imposter. In fear of that half coming out I am left without. Who am I? Can I distinguish why? Will anger entice me? Will feelings precise me? I'm half monster! I'm half of my father. I can't punish my child in fear of going to far. I can't change him without feeling dirty by a hidden scar. He made me! He hated me! He's my parent. He's my serpent. I'm half monster! He's a monster. I wish I knew where I fit. Half and half I am split. My brothers followed his steps. I am a misstep. I wasn't supposed to be. Can I get rid of this monster inside of me?
Abandoned places,where perhaps memories linger, with wisps of wafting moments, aware, somehow, even of the now, Though long forgotten by all others, One wonders why, and surely how, Such strong vibrations of the past, Seem to time, to have taken a bow... Gutted building, windows broken, Creaking, leaking floor, Last stepped on by the living, So many, many years before... Where lives were lived, and deaths have come in their way, To others, in a time gone by, Who here saw their last sad day, Tears were cried,hearts were smashed, Love withered, its flame reduced to ash... Is this a mysterious black hole of time?? A singularity, of now and here... Where time is not so limpid... And death is always near, And fear can swim in the unknown, The fear of time's mysterious cloud... As ticks, as tocks, somehow go forever by, so mysteriously, and seemingly, oh so loud... What was the last calendar's year hung? The last phone call received, And who had been the one rung?? Ghost House, Ghost House, Scary, time abandoned place, Secure in forgotten nothingness, And with time, you've lost the race.
Put a bullet in my brain as the rain sweeps her out of my arms and places her into another's. Put a bullet in my brain for I don't want to see love slip away please end my suffering, for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man. I fear the tear that slips away from my soul and touches the ground with a splash as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain, please, someone put a bullet in my brain. I can't bear to see her with another man laying in his arms as he charishes her beauty just like I did to her. As she smiles and laughs at his jokes my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love. Please tell the rain to stop, as the pain grows when rain comes down, please someone end my suffering, put a bullet in my brain and stop the rain that washes away every memory of her. Stop saying you miss me and just kiss me for I can't take the pain of the rain that takes you away. Kiss me and stop saying you miss me for those are useless words to me. Love is where it's at, so show me. Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong. Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn as we yawn the long night away. Kiss me and don't say you miss me. For if you go away from me, I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away. Tears, sweet tears crying for you, doesn't that mean anything to you? I ask you, stop the rain, stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain. Let the red blood flow from my temples. Let the plow dig my grave, for I can't bare to see you with another in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you. I can't take it, I have to make it, make that pain go away. Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye when I came up and said why! Put that bullet in my dome and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church you come and kiss me, and then you can really say that you'll miss me.
Could I not see such ugly drawn out choices. Hollow I feel such nothing for people it is fear that feeds me. Alone in this forsaken world with nothing to accept. Order is such pain that it is nothing but chains. Souls that bare nothing but lost cause to confusion is such utter mistakes.
I AM HIV/AIDS Saint Luke predicted me long time ago, While the Book of Revelation warned you about me. I am raging like a wild fire, I am growling like a lion, I have spotted you and I will pounce on you! I am HIV/AIDS! I attack people in all socio-economic and educational classes, I cut across cultural and religious sects, Graves and hospitals bear this testimony. Despite significant medical accomplishments, I remain incurable, I am HIV/AIDS From Africa to America, Australia to Asia and Artantica to Europe. From Cape Provinces to Limpopo and Mpumalanga to Kwa-Zulu / Natal. From Bekkersdal to Grobblersdal and Makapanstad to Marabastad. From Sun Valley to Sun City and Mamelodi to Mametlhake. From Witlagte to Langlagte and Suiwerskuil to Kromkuil. I am reigning, I am HIV/AIDS. Woe for the earth and for the sea, Because I have descended in great anger to devour you! I refer to you, who do not abstain, I mean you there, who are not faithful, And you here who do not condomise, For I am HIV/AIDS. Media has warned you, Priests have preached at the top of their voices, Politicians have cried loud, Organizations and institutions have given you warnings, But all these have come to naught, Now I will kill you like flies, for I am HIV/AIDS This is not news to you, You will certainly catch me through unprotected sex, Shared infected needles and syringes, contaminated blood, And from an infected mother to her unborn child. I then multiply in your blood, mercilessly attacking Your defence system and leave you for the dead, For I am HIV/AIDS. You know this fully well; You cannot catch me through Sneezing, sharing toilet seats, coughing, Or shaking hands with an infected person. Behold, even if you are not infected, You are affected by me, for I am HIV/AIDS. Even though I am dreadful and mighty, I will finally die and my heart is sore, That will be when sense is finally knocked in your head, That will be when you abstain from sex, You remain faithful to your partner or condomise, Remember, prevention is better than cure, for I am HIV/AIDS!
War has come , war has come, My home once a gem of beauty , to fires and rage it succumbed, Powerless i watched , the desolation of man How evil overwhelms and greed robs one of all sense Day by Day loved ones fell, Till our lives became nothing short of hell, I prayed in silence fearing my inevitable doom, For the grim reaper lays in wait , Thus i have resigned to my fate.. The morning sun arrived, With the heavens granting me another day, The screams have gone silent , with no presence of tyranny, I run through the village searching for a sign of hope, Till my legs grew weary and my vision grew dim, I muster what strength i have, Refusing to become a victim of fate, Footsteps i hear , approaching fast, Men with weapons with black souls drenched in hate, As i look into the eyes of my executioner , with the certainty of death, memories of my life flash , as i take my last breath, War has come , War has come
Overlook a lifetime past Remember how it did not last Life changes quickly before your eyes. This so called reality surrounded by lies. A sad thought it may seem I do not want to open my eyes to another dream. Real reality set in. Lets look forward and begin I am in this game of life to win. I will not give up and lose. I will stand tall even though I am battered and bruised.
Your face, Made a fake smile, (you said) I love you, I need you, I want you just for a while, You told me, That I made you smile, All the things you said to me, Are just words now, How can we love, When you love me for yourself, (This Aint Love) Chorus: 2x What are we doin, If this love ain't real, What is this feeling, That I feel, I'm broken in emotion, I'm broken in love, (you said) I need you, I want you You're the only one, I'm thinkin of, (so tell me) How can we love, When there's always someone else, (This Aint Love) Chorus 2x Bridge: How can we love, When there's always someone else, How can we make up, When you only love me for yourself, verse #3: You got me imprisoned, Inside your heart, When kissed I felt, Like we, Would never be apart, chorus 2x
Mankind's greatest accomplishment... is death.
HELP ME When we fight I want to run away But there's nowhere to go But down, down, down Your vicious tongue lashes thru my heart As you beat me with your soul And I want to run away So far from you and this town, town, town If I could just tell someone I'm just a piece of trash Would they help me or am I just all alone? Metal and glass crash. I never thought I could hate someone Until I met your sadness Evil never felt so bad. You're driving me too madness Running, running away from you To nowhere lasting Screaming and nobody hears me As my blood pours fasting Please save me from this ilk. I'm too weak to drink my milk The time has come and gone my friend I fear the near is coming to an end…help Leah 1/30/2013
Pity her as she cried On the floor, ragged, she lied She's covered with odd bruises And hell things on mind cruises She was there left alone Mourning for help at home. Hungry and parched she was, Hoping someone would pass "Click! Click!", the door knob sounds At last someone's around. Who's there? Who could that be? At last! She will be free! But it widened her eyes Scared and again she cried 'Twas a man who appeared Went to her and she feared. He touched her hair and said "Hush! Hush! Just go to bed Stay quite, don't be a heck!" And kissed her on the neck. Poor girl, she just abide To the man whom she feared "Why is he doing this? I'm his daughter, why's this?" In the bedroom they were; Father started kissing her. Poor lil girl can't defy If she speak up, she'll die. "Oh my Lord, please help me, I can't take it, save me." Said her mind as tears flowed Grieving in pain; she moaned. Then suddenly she smiled From what she heard outside. A sudden hope in her eyes gleamed From something she perceived. She heard her mother's voice "I'll be saved" she rejoiced "A miracle for me Lord replied to my plea." And the door opened Mother saw what happened Shocked and startled she was Then screamed for help, at last! Mother bellowed and slapped him Outraged and said to him "She is your daughter! Why did you rape her?" Then neighbors came Naked -- poor girl was ashamed Dazed and shaken they were Staring at poor girl and her father. Then two cops came along Grabbed the father for his wrong He panicked and dreaded Denied all he acted Livid and offended Lil girl stood and stated "Oh yes, that man raped me, Not just once but many times." Then her father uttered "My dish is my daughter. I'm the one who made her, So I should also taste her." Wretched from what she heard She spoke not a single word Woeful and quite, she sniveled Suddenly collapsed and fell At last poor girl's now free From nightmare and agony Yes she has a father But she's his dish not his daughter.
The Wall, The Wall I the world fades from my fingertips like blood oozing from an open wound the sky is ripped apart and full of thunder and my eyes are twisted in pain shut the door and lock me within the light is buzzing and flickering something is about to explode or maybe thats just my soul softly touch the wall and it corrodes the white paint peels and turns black and cracks appear on the surface a garbage touch that ruins it all for years the signs of ruin were there building up behind fragile white walls and now i sit here with an open chest my heart nailed to the damned wall and as the world fades from my fingertips like blood from an open wound the sky outside is bloody and tormented and i cant begin to see my own reality II im so afraid that if i get up ill fall again damned by the ghosts of the past the flashing glare of reality looms larger closing in on me and slapping me if only someone could open the door and let me out of this foreboding room perhaps i could see more than whats inside instead of slicing myself in half remember it was your verse that ended me slicing off my fingers one by one it was when my heart was nailed to the wall that i truly forgot how to feel my sickening screams echo loudly throughout the confines of my own mind reverberating down my spine and leaving me in a shivering fit as the world fades from my fingertips like blood pouring from an open wound the sky outside has faded to a deep black and i cant begin to see my own reality
All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)
This is a day that I could have really done without, Saying you love me and do this to me hurts no doubt. Day after day I pray that you will please stop, What pain you've caused me has taken all I've got . I love you and adore you but it seems not to matter, Still you continue to hurt me leaving my heart shattered. You come to me with words I have only dreamed , But what they were meant for was to hurt me it seems . Never have I seen a woman with so much hate , Taking revenge on me by disrespecting me till it hurts. True I have waivered with my troubles with trust, The one thing thats important and this is a must. There are no more words or sayings that will ever work, I have tried everything I know giving it all that its worth . To the day I die I will never understand why , The woman I love does everything to make me cry . So this my dream to be forever with you , Is only nightmares for me and dying is all I can do. This a day I surely could do without. TAC
Let the Deicide commence. You're a voyeur at best! Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest! And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence, And for you there is no forgiveness, On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies; The father of lies. I will never be enslaved in your superiority The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies. Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be Apollo and I will share our dreams, and you will be forced to see your failure! I know who you are... Readily the first to present your scars Chained by some despot or mental czar An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate! ...And you see me suffering Not caring of any casualties Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways Solipsist - Is there no one you can see? Even if she was presented burning? Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe? Even if Sophia was screaming? Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me Imprisoned in your own personal reality
All. Day. Long. I sit there, in my chair, All. Day. Long. Glaring at people I hate. The people who are but mere memories. Mere dust in the wind. All that I know has blown away, taken by my faulty actions. The dull replay of Meteora fills my room with lyrical insanity, tempting me with beat and anger. But I've realised it's not the music that's dull. It's myself. I am dull. Dull, empty, detached, dead. My actions have caused this, my mental instability. My arms and wrists, they're crisscrossed with faint pink patterns, the product of my attempts at reattachment and relief. Eternal smiles of violet beneath my eyes, wrinkles surround my lips. My skin, yellow from the drugs, reflects weakly the sunlight from outside. I blame everyone but myself, my personality rotten to the core. My lungs, as well, shredded by smoke that acted like needles. I couldn't help myself, I jest in my mind. I've been trying to shove the blame onto something but myself, only to find there is nothing to blame but myself. My body has been wracked to this state, a state well beyond my mere 29 years. My mind, hanging from a cliff. Threatening to free fall at any moment. As I sit there, in my chair, memories of an age long gone from my life flash before my eyes. A girl I loved, laughing. Her and I lying in the grass, at a lake's edge. A cat akin to night, eyes green as mine, purring softly in my lap. Flashes of guns, from a war forgotten by all but me. As I reminisce these memories, a spark of feeling—pain. Upwelling in my gut. Through my chest. Stabbing into the side of my head. The pain triggers a new wave of recollection. Again, the girl. My mind so foggy I can't remember her name. Dancing slowly to a song no longer heard of. Snow. A blush of the cheeks. Hands in mine, warming and comfortable. The pain in my head intensifies, blinding me. I fall from my chair, the first time I've moved all day. In 2 days. Shaking my head, I pull myself up. Standing, I look around. Another flash of pain, followed by a sensation I'd all but forgotten. Her lips. At dusk. The very first time. I stumble away from an unseen being, crashing into the wall. Blinking my eyes furiously, I right myself. Waiting a moment, I sit back down. And let the dullness take over, the pain ebb away, and the memories to replay. All. Day. Long.
P aranoia permeates, etching itself into your fractured face, A cacophony of constant pressure; life remains a stressful race, N othing to hope for, no positives like promotion in the workplace, I nability to love, relationships lift anchor and set sail without chase, C hildren crushing dreams under mortgages; age grows with disgrace !!
Based on a true story from a television documentary on Human Trafficking...an international crime with participants from a broad spectrum of society...occuring on a daily basis. I have only seen documentaries on the trafficking of young girls between the ages of 5 and above!! Law enforcers, it seems are fighting a losing battle against the men and women who sell and enslave young girls and I have no doubt, young boys as well. Somewhere this day on planet earth A Mother-to-be, while in labor, cries Not so much for the mounting pain Nor the fear of possible death So many fears for the future… "What lies ahead in the coming years? What "fate" will meet my child?" And added to all her heightened fears is… Will she be there to protect her child? Those dark years have now passed into decades When Tanya walked the shadowy streets of the city at late night While kids her age slept peacefully in their beds They made her dress up so she'd looked twenty one Days were spent locked in a room, under watchful eyes She was fed cheap fast food to her young heart's content Soon she'd lose all hope of liberation This was the second man she had been sold to And after a while she'd adapt to the situation Still fresh in her mind was that last day at school In her backpack was her favorite teddy bear Her Mother had chosen to believe her step-father again Now that her twelfth birthday would be in a month As no one cared, she decided to run away While at the bus station she met this "nice" couple Who listened to every word she spoke They promised her a ride to any place she wished And she'd always wanted to see Disney land "Maybe, she thought, it'd be a birthday treat" However, that would be another promise broken Weeks dragged on and they bought her "stuff" Although treated well, sometimes she still felt alone Then one day came the grown up clothes and make up That night her innocence was stolen once more Later she'd try to make an escape Only to be caught and tied to the bed post 'Make it easy on yourself and accept your "fate", she was told That was years ago, although it seems like yesterday, When arrested by a new officer on the vice squad Who saw the flaw in the picture before him The pimp gave no reasonable answer to the simple question 'Why are you parked late at night on the street corner with a minor?' Looking back over the years, she came to conclude that "Fate" is just another word, made up to cast aside blame; when we do not want to see the path we've chosen which has led us to our present state When Pilate symbolically washed his hands, though he had power in that moment to act.. When there before him stood truth and innocence, Yet, he chose to make a comfortable bed for his conscience Today, Tanya is a college graduate and a Mother who has vowed not to leave anything to "fate". She'd teach her children to take responsibility for the choices they make… She would teach them that no one is of lesser value than another.. Male or female; black or white, all hues; rich or poor All have a God given right to live free! ~*~ 8/03/13 For: Richard's "Girl Rising" Contest (3rd Place Win)
The fear of life. For nine months in warm sweet world I float there peacefully Then cast into that birth canal It kind of frightens me I feel I'm suffocating And I don't know what it is Too soon I enter crazy world Far from the gardens bliss. As light comes shining everywhere The panic settles in This world is filled with action And so much awful din I feel like I'm in trouble Yet there's naught that I can do It seems this place is crazy That I've been cast into. Then as I grow from babyhood And listen to the lies That all these madmen tell me Cause they're not very wise It seems that something's wrong with me My life it feels off key So the only question on my mind Is 'What is wrong with me???'
Final Adieu Let another sun set, Let another flower wilt, Let another autumn cast its gloom, Let another tear role, As ye part, and bid The final adieu. Suyash Saxena St. Stephen's college
Beg for sadness, end Fighting, a castrated peace Open cuts, betray ©Drake J. Eszes "Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity." -Carlin
Land of the free Home of the slaves The blood, sweat and tears of my ancestors resonate Amongst the soil where they were slain I'm hearing their struggle I'm feeling their pain I can't imagine being forced to part from my family All for massa's gain So I pay homage to those who promoted change People like every slave who tried to escape Nat Turner, Ms Carlotta, Harriet Tubman And the safe houses who were in accord And peg leg Joe with his song Follow the drinking gourd. People like, the disregarded - those thrown overboard And who was dismissed and defamed The ones who were stripped of their soul, their pride, their names The list could go on The full will never be told So I pay homage to others who were bold Like John Brown, The Freedom Riders, Sojourner Truth Ida B Wells, Phyllis Wheatley, Maya Angelou, Langston Hughes and Charles Drew George Washington Carver, Ruby Bridges Booker T Washington and Mary McCleod Bethune Charles Houston, Ralph Bunche, Fredrick Douglass WEB Dubois, Paul Robeson, Ralph Abernathy Benjamin Banneker, Marcus Garvey and Crispus Attucks Who's death by the way Symbolized the American lie You cant declare the rights of all men While the people of African decent rights get denied But still we rise Thanks to Dr Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, The Black Panthers, the Buffalo Soldiers and Tuskegee Airmen None who were showed any love Yeah it's an uphill battle, But obviously greatness can be done. We can rise above this stigma That blacks are lazy and daunting That our worth is null and void And in essence minus nothing And of all the names mentioned And the greatness of their successes No one has been able to erase the evil transgressions of a racist mind And once you have experienced just a taste of it It changes your perception of time The oppression beats like the drum on the chariot Of when it was finally time to escape to freedom It's mine
In high school everything changes Teachers, friends, you, "That's just life" they say, And they never stop to ask "Well, how do you feel?" And your friends leave, and your grades decrease, And your teachers begin to worry, And they make you see a shrink, But they never stop to ask, "Well, how do you feel?" The sky starts to crumble, And the tears begin to fall, And music and hoodies become your best friends, And they never stop to ask, "Well, how do you feel?" And the tools come out. And the objects fall apart, And you reach for the closest one, And the ask, finally, "Well, how do you feel?" But by now it's too late. Your time is up, your blood's run out, Your scars show for the world to see, Cause they asked too late, "Well, how do you feel?" "She was so young" they all say, But really you were old. You'd seen so much and hurt so much, It was time for you to go. So you picked up the pills and washed them down And grabbed the blades and cut And when they finally noticed you weren't around It was too late you were gone. They found your letter on the bed And read it out at school "You asked to late, but I don't blame you." And your friends were moved to tears. In your tree house in the yard They found you pale as snow Your eyes closed, a smile on your face And they realized you were gone. They roll up your sleeves and roll up your pants And scream at what they see Lines, and lines, and lines of cuts Some healed and some not. And they realized they should have asked in the beginning How you felt that is, cause, Honestly you didn't, You didn't feel anything at all.
You flourished and blurred like a spark on wind Gracefully and quickly like a frightened hind in pursuit of light You harvested through bushy meadows taken by blight In struggle with plight had you lost your might And gave out although never you gave up. Where are you? For you must be still there. For I still can feel you somewhere in the air.
June 18, 2013 our world was Forever Changed We where a few minutes from home When we got the call from our baby sister Said we need to get back home We need to come as fast as we can drive Mom really needs us Something's wrong with Daddy The whole way we drove 80 Hoping & Praying we'd make it back in time Our Family & Friends were weeping By the time we got to his side We knew then our Daddy had been taking And our hearts they were breaking We never got to say Goodbye We each softly kissed that man We four sisters climbed in his bed We laid down beside him And cried just like babies For our world was Forever Changed
They are bound to the Earth like trees Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen Hoping that one day someone will see: They can't escape with lacerated wings The ocean surrounds me, covering everything Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find I can't escape with lacerated wings. Swarms of nets, waves of screams Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams The mask has be seared - The truth now they see The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings There's reasons for your rejections: Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression The scars are too deep to pass the trials But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings
Chicken Head Your a bird, with no wings! Your soul is lost and lives in the streets. Why sell your body the way you do? you least can get your son some new shoes. If you going to sell your body,get what you can get. You have kids, you need to get a grip. Do you really want your daughter to grow up like you? To flag down cars for every man that comes threw! Why are you selling your last food stamps? To pay a cell phone bill that has laped. This is no debate, your son lips is cracked from being dehydarted. Why do you make them suffer for the things you do? Look into their eyes. thats the hatred for you! Your baby is crying tears, for you can hear. Crying to be loved by you, You can really fix the things you do! Each child is a gift from God, A bright shining star. Look inside your heart, and ask your self is this is what you want to be. A chicken head that stay in the streets. Ask God for help, when you lay down to sleep. Pray the lord your soul to keep. If you should die before you wake, ask him to help take your kids pain away! Some one should decapitate you, for all the pain you put your kids threw. So stop having kids just for someone eles to raise them. I guess it's for the best, because you really don't deserve them! They cry for help, they beg of you! Your a lost soul, and only God can judge you!
In a land, far away, once upon a time An ancient place, deep in mystical forests There lived a sickly old man The years had passed and he was but an empty shell Even he had no memories of who he used to be But now, in the forest, he breathed his bitterness A small barren one room cabin His only possession, his grumpy voice The town, further down the hill Was to be his only detested outing Each month the voyage, a barter for rations Chopped wood, for his meager means The children would taunt and tease This smelly aberration to their playful days And toss pebbles and stones What do you mutter, you ragged old man? He pictured them in a pot of stew Yet no smile would he spend even on this thought And off he went back up the hill, his bitterness too The echo's of laughing children, now but a distant taunt He grew older, as did his bitterness Year by year, and like a curse he lived Certainly not of his choosing Almost not hearing the village sneers One day the men elders where called away Kings declare wars, but it's the villagers who do battle Times became dark, who lived who died, no one was sure The village children wept for their fathers The old mans monthly pilgrimage to the village Was met with sad infant stares His mutterings now no concern of theirs When off in the distance, beating drums and horses hooves Soldiers of terror, pillaged and burned The fires and haze, arrows and swords The villagers ran in into the forests deep Save for some of the children, confused and dazed The old man stood in the midst of it all And fearing nothing, his soul long dead The children behind him, with fear and dread He lifted a fallen sword and felled a horsemen The a second, a third, in vengeance did come And he felled them too, no fear in his eyes The others retreated, their loot in tow Only the angel of death, left with the wind The old man, fell to the ground Surrounded by children, staring in shock They carried him home, his frown, and all And stoked his fire, and laid him to rest When he woke the next morning All the children were there With smiles, be dammed, what did he care? They chattered and praises his heroic acts They truly saw, the beauty hidden so deep This old man saved them, his bravery noble His silence, and rudeness, they ignored it all And a little boy, with wonder, said thank you grumpy Well, against his will, a smile did appear This little one, taken so, thought him so dear And day by day, the children returned And he told them stories he had long forgotten In the forest, up in the trees Two angel fairies, where singing in the breeze Looking down and over the cabin And filled with joy, for an old soul was revived The old man, spent his days, telling stories and teaching The children learned the ways of their past And the old man, who once was dead Now knew the meaning of all life ahead The village rebuilt and returned to routine Honored the old man, once unwashed and unseen The children grew older, the old man passed on And now he sits in a tree and sings in the breeze
People are my weakness and hidden fear I just feel that some words they say set me in tear For example I gave a person a smile one day and they gave me a glare I did not know that smiling in the world today cause people to stare These types of stare gave me chills down my spine a feeling that made me blind Why? why is my weakness the people who are very unkind Hiding is all I can do when people give me a unkind view I get to a point that my fear seems to wonder and stew People are who they are and what should I even do I don't understand that they are evil and some times nice too My hidden fear are people just because they are always around That is no argument and my feeling are perfectly sound The hate builds up in my mind, but does not bother, how my heart feel I learned to undergo a change that my feelings become like steel Hard as it should be in situations needed I forget how to use it So it becomes my weapon and it is to some people heartless just a bit My hidden fear is what I see in people today They harm others and they think it is okay That is why I fear my feelings for others at times because it is so confusing My hidden fear is some what bad and some what a blessing
Living my life on the Dole*, Because my Mum told me so, Interview at 'McDonalds', but that Tyrant told me "No!", See, we're a family with pride, Don't sell fries at super-size, But where's the pride, If I can't provide, For my own style of life, Spent my money from the *Brew, On Irn-Bru**, I swear that's true, Dreary, damp & cold, This black hole, I call home, Only 'joy' I get in life's the 'stick' I use for X-BOX, And I aint got a tumble dryer so I step with wet socks, Work-shy, but money-hungry, Flats cramp-sized & pretty ugly, Arrogant guy, Until I woke up and realised that no-one loves me. Brain melts to slush, in this non-testing occasion, 'Gain Work' is a must, for a teenage Caucasian, Nothing separating me, From drug-addled Dads of three, No payday, Just giro day, No jobs… great, Keep trying mate, No end in sight as unemployment rises, Government gives you cash like they were handing out prizes, Where's my reason to go out & work? My motivation, Its pleasing no-one now, this escalated situation, Experience is something that you earn, not that you're born with, Inexperienced forever, if I don't get employed quick, I don't enjoy sitting on my broken couch for hours, I'm your Friend with Benefits, can only wash with cold showers. (*Common British phrases for Jobcentre or Jobseekers Allowance Benefit) (**Famous Scottish soft drink mass produced around Britain)
The warm light calls me And all the people who cries for thee I raise my hand in this abyss Only to make one wish To float among the others With all my sisters and brothers I call out for forgiveness with passion I take their pain into myself for this occasion The moment that I see the sky I will not look back and cry My body is laying still People standing by it with a chill The air gets dense with sadness I would not think of it less Some people look up and down To see the light hit the ground Some can vision the uplifting feeling they see One soul that has been and always be It is special to notice such aberration And that might be how souls are awaken
The devil walks gets tired and sits, and while the devil sits the devil picks up a tired fruit rotting, and with jagged nails he peals slowly, the tender fruit bruising and he tastes it, smacking his dried lips and the devil eats decayed fruit and sour wine nothing lush and sating then the devil rests and resumes his walk, and later the devil sits again rubs his feat and goes to bed and in the morning he breaks his fast on curses and lies nothing so filling as figs and nuts and begin the devil's walk again, his walk on the road our thoughts paved where all that grows is bad and unwell to the cross our words built where flames dance and all is unwell and he is condemned upon christening upon the hearing of his name and the wobbling of his first steps to walk a road less traveled, to be the leader of our very own crusade armed with words against himself to see him burn, our crusade of one and many on roads first paved upon his birth to bring the devil down. The devil walks The devil eats and pelted by our stones He does but sleep For what we sow The devil reaps and there is justice in punishment there is reward in reckoning there is bitterness in my mouth as I say these words and pity the devil his due.
I Can't Breathe I can't breathe when truth is choked out can not stand by and not toss truth with a shout I can't fathom the mind it does take to ignore truth and race onward with a fake Story that is so easy to rightly disprove promote a lie to get going such a violent move Anything goes to run such a political scam I reject this fraud with all that I am Win battles with truth as your shield deceitful tactics will never force right to yield A man dies, find out the true medical cause spinning yarns gives decent folks time to pause Ponder the reason hatred thrives on bold lies Hate finds fertile ground whenever truth dies Robert Lindley 12-08-2014 note. An honest person, a person with integrity will find the truth before joining the bandwagon of lies. Sad that a man died because of a stupid law but dying because of bad health issues is not murder by police. Truth is no choke hold was used. "I can't breathe truth did so moan, darkness gloats as light has now gone Lying blade cuts like a razor knife, wounds sought to stir hatred and strife!" A SHAME THAT THE LEADING BLOG AUTHOR HERE SCREAMING ON THIS SUBJECT (ASKING FOR POEMS) HAS ME BLOCKED FROM REPLYING THERE ABOUT MY POEM ON THE SUBJECT. I guess banning truth goes in with the agenda for some , eh?
Your glorious emerald eyes Glisten in the moonlight Glisten in the moonlight Delight dances in the water I watch it joyfully You are set free from the cage... You're like a dove soaring in the sky You are the rain... drizzling down in ecstasy A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection... When you caress me... I'm relieved... From the stress that forced me in chains I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow We're glistening in the moonlight I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us We're glistening in the moonlight For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy I saw at first glance the dark side of you Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye... We'll wave a greeting at the moon! We glisten in the moonlight... What if I was as handsome as the lion... Roaring with pride and pure courage What if we were glistening in the moonlight? Would it bring health to our bones tonight? Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight? Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight? Would we be shimmering like a candlelight? We're glistening in the moonlight... (6) Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh... We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star I feel the coolness run down my fingers... We're glistening in the moonlight You're the dandelions in the fields You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday When you kiss me, I live my dreams We glisten in the moonlight In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal I roam inside of your illuminating maze Glow on... sunshine... Glow on...sunshine... Glisten in the moonlight... Listen to the truth and rub it in You are ravishing like the sunset But you're ascending while I'm descending I feel extremely guilty I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight You're glistening in the moonlight (6) Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh You're glistening in the moonlight (4) We go our own way I wish we can glisten like the moon Glisten like the sun There's a dream concealed inside of me... Reveal your light and pour it upon me You glisten in the appealing moonlight While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams Of gliding across the horizon You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction While I'm below you... Your emerald green eyes Stared me down like a hawk... Your emerald eyes Gaze down at me genuinely... I wish we could flee together in reality... That could be a possibility To glisten in the moonlight in glee We were glistening in the moonlight (3) But that was only a dream... I'll pray that it turns into a reality We were glistening in the moonlight Now, I've misplaced my delight... Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?
They came so undone To a journey not yet begun United forces,shackled feet City life from a back street They all lived too fast Thought they were unsurpassed Visious circles,lives incomplete Til they faced lifes`just a big cheat Inside my heart is breaking Something slowly building..aching We`ve not yet lived and learned Until the day we mess up and get burned The urge to be free and wild Led them to a dark side of life..reviled Ultimate freedom forever lost Now they`re let alone to pay the cost A.Ertsland June 23rd 2012 Inspired after seeing the streetchildren in Romania.Seeking shelter from the cold down in the sewer systems beneath the streets..The youngest of them couldn`t had been much more 5 years old..
Drugs dont have rivals, only those into drugs have rivals Money in a place of poverty living lonely needing sophisticated money for simple survival sitting lost in a culture trapped in another dark drug addicted silo People say this place is one of the darkest drug infested places I know too much of us down here or up there are trapped in self-inflicted drug addicted denial We sometimes too high or drunk or just plain stupid too even pay attention to our own child A life caught up in drugs running crazy can get too wild Criminal cases racked against a place in one crtain file Drugs aint got foes or enemies until we make up our own lies though Doing anything to get high over friendships is when the drugs themselves become rivals
Even the dead reject this blasted earth. The ground, such as it is, Is freshly Antidiluvean, And the corpses swim within its tumbled, heaving masses Blood and mud the mortar Holding the chaos together. The sun is weak, Ashamed to break the haze And bring to light the obscenities transpiring here. The whistles blow And the troglodytes emerge From their respective holes, Staggering towards one another Through watery craters Over the mincemeat of comrades To add themselves to the swimming sacrifice Constantly on offer To the insatiable, sole diety of this place, The Mud-God, Futility. They are men no more, Those who struggle 'neath The leaden skies The wan sun Of the sodden moonscape That is Passchendale. They are only raging beasts Trading pain for pain, All trace of cause or reason Lost in the maelstrom of their collective misery - And the only escape Is to slay and to be slain; To join the bitter shades Ascending with the fog and smoke Through the wall of cloud above, To vanish into the icy deeps Among the far, impassive stars.
I am the face of misery My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring, The years are written in the same Lugubrious, nostalgic grey How can it be the author to blame? I cannot scream this all away… Burn nor Bleed this all away… To Death I am Ordained Lacuna ever growing With Velvet sheets of life flowing Aeons apart of my "royalty" Under the mask the cannot see... Can you dispel this tragedy: Antigone - Epiphany failing If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone No words of hope No words of hate Do I have Lenore to send to me: The sordid child of Thebes Caught In the longest nightmare life - the slowest way to die I know this is my life But I'm not under control under the mask the will see Just Another Human If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone Can you dispel my life; this tragedy? Can you control the storm in my mind? I'm asking you: can you rid me Of The Curse of Antigone?
The hunter I saw a man once on TV He was hunting grizzly bear Then bear, he got the upper hand And blood was everywhere That man was in an awful state But I lacked in sympathy You live by sword, you die by sword That's just the way it be. I knew a man, a fisherman He hunted for big fish But when his boat did over turn He never got his wish Cause big shark came and took his life And Karma, it was done It seems that this time hunter lost And mother nature won. It seems some folk are low on soul And only live to kill I have no sympathy for these And nor I ever will When the game gets turned around They've only they to blame Because they gained their pleasure from This heartless killing game.
It was a cold and rainy night. The stars were shining bright. It seemed as if the world was at a pause and not a person was in sight. I sat quietly in my car, the sound of music I heard blasting from a far. I opened my door, stepped out slowly and looked around. Now suddenly the music stopped, not a word is heard, not even a sound. I turned my head, looked over my shoulder, I saw a woman running. She was wearing a white gown. I couldn't help but wonder why this woman running flaunted such a frown. I followed her footsteps, I listened for the sound. Running through the darkness, one question came to mind, Who would leave this woman? Who would be so heartless? How can someone leave her when she is so obviously distraught? Abruptly a sound was heard. I came to a stop. I listened closely. It was a gunshot. Now fearful I stood. I began to run as fast as I could. I ran so fast, I could hear my heart beating. I came upon my car and noticed a woman bleeding. She was gasping for air. Someone had shot her and left her to die there. It was as if they didn't even care. She reached for my hand, whispered softly to me "never trust a man" At that moment her hand dropped. I knew her heart had stopped. I looked at her white gown now dripping red. I I cried to myself and pondered what she had said. This could be me. I could be lying here dead. I will remember her words always. They will haunt me for the rest of my days. This moment I will never forget. No man should ever be such a threat. This was the day my life would change. From this day on I would never be the same. The lesson I learned here, never have such fear. Fear that will keep me from being free. I learned that I can be happy just being me.
hairy white hands clenching into fists jaw tightening quick I step backwards his eyes throwing sparks my breaK-ing nose, my broken heart 7/16/12 For the "Shanzi" contest
Scared I'm Losing it. I don't know what to do my mind so busy things are getting confused. I can't remember things I've been doing or numbers that haven't changed. I'm catching moments of confusion finding things; Popsicle melted on the counter. I can't sleep at night. No matter how tired, sleep eludes me! I can hardly stand myself. I beg God to help me before I lose it. I think others notice something wrong. Crying, terrified I can't hold it together much longer. Fear and panic taking over; what to do, I'm so alone! My heart heavy and my mind confused now a place of insecurities and unsafe moments! Scared I'm losing it; living in fear as panic hovers, in the blink of an eye I could lose touch with reality. Forgetting where I'm going, what I'm doing; filled with fear; the panicky feeling just below the surface tells me I'm close! This, I feared all my life! I did reality checks and watched for warning signs. My Fear's now coming true. Trying to deal with stress isn't working. I tried to be a good person, doing the best I could. I needed a strong person to lean on loving me no matter what; always putting me first. Having me to trust and rely on my heart was empty. My secrets and dreams I kept, unable to share. My doubts and fears mine alone! At times the pain unbearable, my mind explored beautiful places. My guardian angel and to God I talked. My fish; I told my worries. Scared I'm losing it, I pray as my fears become known and I drown in tears; people will try to understand. I thought I had a method to my madness; however I guess it was just pure madness! Debbie Knapp 10-11-11
i see your stupid faces watching me with glee i perform these stupid tricks but oh how i long to be free to roam the jungle once again to be with my pride my family, my friends look at him with whip in hand could grind his bones into sand i feel the sting across my face with just one swipe i can erase this little man with whip in hand with these teeth with just one bite i can end this monster's life would love to see your faces then you'd never come to the circus again to feel the warm sun on my mane now only loneliness, boredom and pain to be the king of the jungle once more to not be stricken when i roar but now i sleep behind these bars with the smell of pollution and the noise of cars
sealed so deep inside buried in an wretched soul huge fields of friction ©Ellie Daphne van Stralen HAIKU 101 FOR NEWBIES TO HAIKU AND/OR POETRY SOUP CONTESTS Contest Judged: 11/23/2012 12:00:00 AM Sponsored by: Charles Henderson Place Poem Poet 1 Depression Ellie Daphne van Stralen
I can act insane But DO NOT Make me feel worthless I belong in God's family He will bless my future generation Don't punish me for Being myself – Don't envy my glee I can act like an Adult, but I'd Prefer to have joy… Not stress… That piles upon us in our Everyday lives Being childlike is A rare beauty – No one prizes it… No one came across it… In this lifetime… I can laugh all day I can make you smile If you'd accept my Childlike dreams of mine Don't treat me like a sick swine Renew my young heart Give me the ability To kill the old man… I have my place in God's family He'll be adored and glorified We'll exchange prayers and hugs By my future generation I beg of you – Don't kill my childlike mentality I'll behave myself… I'm positively sure that I'll make you happy I'll still have pieces of a child in me And pass it on to my future generation…
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Life is worth it When I live for you It's how I know that this is love proven true But there you fly now in the sky Showing me that differences and flaws Is coexistence in each other Celebrate them don't use them as a weakness Because in doing that you show weakness in yourself Show some respect to them For they are to be cared for Then why is it no one ever does Do they not see the pain? With every dying cuss So let the pain engulf me Teach my eyes to see Let a fallen angel come to curse me Let my cuts come to bleed Evil engulfing my broken heart yet falling deep in love When everything turns to turmoil I turn to my angel from above Let my heart come to boil In the ashes of my innocence Letting myself go until I fully reach out to fellow brethren s Praying with no feeling I can feel myself slip away I'm falling yet falling apart Without the slightest of delays Birth was a mistake and yet I cannot come to die Was it true that I am meant to live? A man who only knows to cry I cannot give The light has forsaken my cold and darkened heart For who am I to live Cold and fruitless moon why have you forsaken me Does it bring you joy to see that you are breaking me Listen to the cold and broken winds Nothing can ever beat it Nor can I defend
Confused If there were thing's I couldn't understand,you was one of them. Going back and forth with one another,like the wind and does in the howls of winter.You'd follow me to escape your own reality,only not knowing your shattering mine.You tell me to be me there was a time when I was me and you couldn't stand it like it was looking into the eye's of a demon.How should I respond? Running away only brings more then I can offer. Now I'm drifting and everything left me,I'll suffer the venom of past and the reoccurring pains. From the tell's of literature to the mounts of the great wars have I been able to tell just from their looks what they thought that very moment but as I look into your eye's does it not only confuse me it refuses to tell me the truth,why am I looking into my own eyes? Let me touch your face.Let me look into your eye's.Let me see the truth which is clouded and locked away.Let me see your feelings fall from your eye's. Burned. Chain. Shackled. Scared. Tortured. Entangled with lies.and yet harbors no hate toward anyone then yourself.How much do you loathe yourself? To the point your a sacrificial offering of your own whim's? As I search for the truth,I see the many heartbreaks and the lies been told to help but nothing prevails. Yet you look at me looking for the same thing. We're both confused? We're both in agony? We're the same? This isn't right.This is a lie.I don't wish to see anymore. I won't lose to this,nor bow down and be your toy.Yet when I'm close to you,it never cold. Hold my hand as I fight with myself. Never mind hold me closer until neither of us is cold.Don't lie to me with those pleading eye's,that are like dark's as coal and beautiful as an onyx. Let's be ourselves.Let's shut ourselves away from this world.Let's search for our own truth.But if there only fear in your mouth,then there's lies.I shall grab your heart and I will hold it like it was the last gem on earth.So scream,hate,and be gently. I'm confused.Your confused.I will listen,if you will talk. Have you ever heard these words before? I never have but I will say them to you,you who has the same pleading eye's as me.When we're so much alike yet so different to the point it confusing.
HELP! HELP! She is sinking, Sinking into the abyss of despair. Her brain is striken And her mind is stifled. She has been enervated. Her integrity is being manipulated, Irrationality acts as spring board to moral decadence, Opacity then entangles her efficiency While her eminence sleeps. She became vulnerable. Poor thing, she is raped, maimed and looted. Has she not been violated? Does her plight warrants a revolution? However, she demonstrated. She shrilled, "No!", "No!" She pleaded with her predators. All these were to no avail Her future seems gloomy As the predators succeeded in orchestrating yet another tragedy. Engulfed in this evident realm of adversity. She sits and ponders With tears flooding her miserable cheeks. She then cried, HELP! HELP! I am sinking, Sinking into the abyss of despair.
The phone rings innocently. Who is at the other side? Could be no one then yet a peculiar feeling tells me it is the bearer of bad news. Still I answer hoping I am wrong. My mother is ill, trapped between two worlds; the worlds of fear and courage. My ears hear every word but my mind has created a sudden barrier that nothing seems to penetrate like some sort of steel web of unwanted denial. Fear floods my body like a torrent river flow, eroding strength and stability. How much longer can I bare it? Never it seems but hope still glimmers regardless of how dim. Miles are between us, I feel numb and unexpectedly lost. Where am I? It's certainly not here in the presence of fallen angels. The bell of hope strikes a sharp note creating a gentle chime awaking my senses to the news, they are sharpened making the fear of loss suddenly commanding, corrupting my inner strength making it weak. I continue to listen all the while my body is screaming in protest. The voice stopped, I hung up, the pain and fear never lessened. Time went by all the while my mind was constantly in a state of anguish and grief. Endless stories were created, each one worse than the last. My family begun to shatter like a broken mirror, reflecting only the scars of misery and needless hurt. Hope still glimmered but appeared distant and out of reach. My mind grew tender, endless misery has eaten away at my last thoughts of happiness. The sting of fear created heartache for the bond between mother and child was nearly severed, severed by the hands of an unwanted deity. A deity of life itself.
In the attic, above wooden floor, through the hallway of psychotic, locks upon my door, near the broken window and glass of the sore, hiding in the shadows, bloodstains on the wall. Number nine, house at the end of the street, where lights are low, where silent never sleep.
written 14th July 2013 My sorrow, is overwhelming my 'entire' soul for in my jaded life, my dear "Nath" would be the last breath taken away Why does God, continue taking those that play the most 'critical' roll my life is 'never' going to endure, any hint of ease.. no way Heart heavy, loss and pain all consuming me 'again' God, I plea with you leave me those that I 'love' these day's It's become 'that' part of the year, my Nathan was taken due to 'my' curse tears flood my entire being, why do you always insist I live entirely 'alone' Sorrow just in this year now at 'half point' has finally taken the 'full' toll I no longer see, any thing as my destiny that I shall 'exude' When, will it 'ever' be my turn, I wait..to become the next called to heaven "am" I not worthy, of your abundant grace? You, seem to take 'everyone' I 'entrust' to a faraway land Nathan Reide' these are my tears containing, the 'most sorrow' I've ever let fall But, every memory of you and me, stop all of the pain just, another pain and despair to add to my life's endurance 'till' I long, for peace, joy and 'any' kind of life would do me, at this point of my life, I can not take anymore, seriously, lighten up on me! I fear in new friends, how long..before you conclude they too will end You bless me with a loving husband, mother, father, niece When.. do you think you might, 'let' me see them... this is my plea returning me back into church, I am in need off being blessed How 'come' you did take that away from me? faith, in me stayed 'strong' you alone know the extent I need to move 'now' I have stayed still, and achieved what I think I was to poet, I assume that was 'my reason' why you kept here With that now in full swing can you now spread my wings You are 'overpowering' my soul, and I now do as I am told patience, never was my best strength, have I 'not' proved to you I'm completely at your mercy, you are the entity that drives the heart of me with all that, I need a break between all these sorrowful times, 'may I now move' This is the deepest of despair, I have ever endured, please see me through I am more than 'positive' I WILL NOT make it through, another emotional trial Not to be left here, still bleeding the way I still am... darkness has taking more of my light I'm loosing all sight, of who is me... My heart full of anguish and grief, depression takes her advantage, of the ease I have nothing worth finding joy or enlightenment anyway, she will have me... I don't have any strength to even consider the thought of even trying this time in defending myself against her this time She only win's by default... Denise Hopkins
I can't hear the words as they come from my mouth I can't hear the screams as they work their way out As I write all is seen is a blur and blank moment and Once recovered sensed the words were written,not Even a look to see what was written only to know it Was there.Sleepless night,taunt filled faces horde my Dreams.Have this made me fall so low no longer am I Am I able to stand on my own to feet.How many times Will you make me cry before claiming only to being a Witness in a crime,your crime. Putting on that face Working the crowds with amazing easily,how I hate you Yes all the thing I think about revolve around you. How many times have I witness myself wound my self With your blade? As though under a spell doing as order Without a cry to the world what made me so diligent ? But no longer can you be a witness,No longer can I be A witness to these crimes that been committed.Be us both Sinners be us both lovers be that we both be cursed We shall witness our sins become whole and the love in Which we share spread further and further like the flames Of hades. May there be peace for sinners in the next world. We are both witnesses and at the same time We are both sinners one day to become consumed by our Own darkness how far will we fall until that moment comes? May we be good may we be bad may we fall may we live may May we die or carry on we are the Witnesses We are the Sinners To this world and the next.
My tusks are sharp, like a warrior's spear. I see clearly and only feel one thing, fear. Frozen deep in this field of flattened glass, I had to watch my unfulfilled dreams pass. I have always known the snow covered land that now morphs and changes behind my own, Innocent eyes. But a weight of a stone, that can crush an entire army; then I remain alone. I feel cold, my spirit sold, lurking beyond me, rotten and old. Out of reach, with so much to teach, jerking to become free, begging for speech, my young ones, my family shadows, trapped behind a glacier of gallows, The temporary apocalypse of merciless ice. I wish I had warned them. -Caroline Youngless
The wind blew events all over the place. Intense emotions and it gave chase. Lightning lighting to show us the sky. People try to sleep and not cry. Wisping by the wind keeps us awake. The time trying to sleep the storms take. Chills in everyone gives all shiver. The clouds surrounded by moonlight is silver. Heavenly prayers that the rain will stop. The flood stopped a car the person in it was a cop. People have seen such devastation. The road that people made was week in creation. Rivers near by was over flowing. Trees that were there was not showing. By the hour it claimed many. My father woke up and did not see any. Floating by was a boat. Keeping people above water and a float. My father kept a canoe. That some day we would use it, that he knew. Time to paddle up and down the street. The rain water kept getting on our seat. It was so dark after the moon was behind the cloud. Still the noise of thunder still covered the ears loud. The smell of moist water never seem to go away. My brothers seem to still sleep anyway. My head was bobbing up and down. I was so tired that I could not hear a sound. The wind blew back and fourth. It seems that my mom and dad paddle their worth. Till all the people we saw with grace. Help us out with embrace. The time was so late at night. Everyone was so sleepy and losing sight. The fight with the weather was so hectic. The feelings of energy was electric. Losing to such natural disaster is hard to understand. When people working hard to block the river with bags of sand. With hard workers like my mom and dad. They make things happen that is not bad. Rough with weather they experience more than ever. Leaders they are they are very clever. From the night light of street lights to the morning glow. The wind did not stop so. Bringing in more clouds that ill. The people who were still tired still had will. The rush of water and waves blasting push the wall side. Pushing and the force brought water inside. The battle of our hour was getting long. Backup people came to aid us was strong. Rested they were to keep everyone with hope. The people stopped the water with the strength of rope. Heavy rain and loss of homes bring people together. It is kind of sad that this was the only time to gather. Chaos comes happiness how true. This is why we are human that gives us a clue. It is our nature to keep rain falling. To know when it is time for our calling. The winds bring such pain and sorrow. That is why rain sometimes fallow.
Secrets are not, What they ought to be, They often turn out, For many to see, When somewhere deep in the heart, There is a lingering pain, Yearning to express distant memories, Yet need for constraint, With the knowledge of Armageddon, Approaching at hand, Seek delivery from remorse, Before the end, happen, Desires to unwind history, To all where it began, Express, for relief from, An unspoken apology, burden; Expecting to lay in happiness, When the dark shroud came, And resurrect from sins, Judgment and blame, Yet completely unaware, The good world's forgiven, Only fond remembrances retain, In memory, "A jolly good person"… World prays and wishes, For the time that remains, Will to re-live the good memories, Forgetting the Pain.
I was born in a world of poverty and soiled life of a third world country The way I lived till I was five years of age was walls of boundary These walls had towers of guards that had no heart or care If a child would try to climb the wall they lose their life I swear Father had drank and threatened my mother with a knife My father lost his job and wife and that was the hardship of life He stopped my mother from taking off with me in her arm Hoping that my father would ignore and left me be with no harm When my father went off to drink one night and came home with rage My brothers stood by my crib and took a beating that set up the next stage My father had woken up to three scared children half starved and in pain His final words as he walk away from the orphanage gate live life do not go insane I was still a baby in the orphanage; the caretakers did not really care about the babies They stole items and materials those wicked men and maternal evil ladies They starved all the babies because it cost a lot to keep them alive As a child of that age I could feel the sins and greed that gave out bad vibes I was ignorant about what I drank and ate, as I see white maggots move in my bottle As I see them move I thought about how they were playing and some were hostel They ate each other to keep each other alive in a manner that took me by surprise In the back round I hear others throwing things with sounds of painful cries I got very strong at a young age I was able to start pulling myself up over the cage My feelings were to see my brothers with strong lungs that I cried out of rage My two brothers came to see me and sneak food into my crib The caretaker would find the food in my hands as they grabbed it and hit me on my ribs As painful as it was I kept eating the food with blood in my mouth as it was instinct I sometimes laid in my crib dazed and confused with smell of death so distinct With all my might I kept myself strong and climb the small wall I finally was old enough to get out of the building and I could hear my brothers call With tears of joy with short legs that ran as fast as my heart I ran to my brothers arms and held their hands to have a new start I grew stronger everyday but more things came into my life in a manner of dismay If my brothers stay by my side I could smile and everyday their would be okay
Whispering heartache unfolds in torture Incisions decorate the outside of you See the river of lost hope unfold in a pond of red How many will know you are dead
To what end can I chase a dream You know it would seem To be insane………… Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain I can reach for the flowers in bloom But they're all consumed The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles To what end can I chase a dream You know it would seem To be insane………… Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me It breaks me down into broken dreams I run for the door but its no longer open - to me I cover my eyes...... but still I can see To what end can I chase a dream You know it would seem To be insane………… Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain ©2013C.L.Baker
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December's cold wind starts to bite festive are the lights all around yet children are nowhere in sight hurry come quick, what is that sound a bell tolls but what is it for festive are the lights all around something evil came through the door not in song, yet they all fall down a bell tolls but what is it for tragedy struck this little town tiny children hold hands in fear not in song, yet they all fall down they can't comprehend what they hear school always was a place to play tiny children hold hands in fear many angels were born that day December's cold wind starts to bite school always was a place to play yet children are nowhere in sight a church bell tolls as a nation mourns why did so many fall?
Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh… I'm venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul's drying out… like a drought… Drain out the fluids from my heart It's gouging me…bruising me to the core… **chorus** Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky… You fall in my arms – you die so warm Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits From the…underground…and release me – I'm breathless I'm drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… Remember me…I'm falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I'm bleeding so softly – cut out the wood… Splintering me…I'm shattering… and I'm falling in the abyss Bring me more radiance from my candle light Warp me up in bliss…don't let the midnight sky…don't take away my delight From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh… I'm failing *chorus* I'm drowning in regret…ooh..oh… Hit the bull's eye in my heart…embrace the light And don't leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite! Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night And don't let the dusk escape us… I must confess… I must confess… I hate to see you abandon the light… But I'm not the one to save you from the night Ooh…ohh… *Chorus* Splintering lies fill your heart I want to kiss it goodbye… But you've mastered it like a piece of art I want to kiss the abyss and die… Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul But I'm failing and the end of time has taken its toll Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart But the anguish still swarms in my heart… I'm failing…my heart stops beating And my desires are fleeting From my grasp And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… *chorus* Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me… As I fall in death's arms…I die so cold And your heart is made of gold Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares Answer our prayers & block out the night Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears Unravel Your words of life & delight
A single kiss from thy lovely lips, so sweet and so divine, yet I taste posion upon your tongue. Your beauty so glorious, like a blooming rose so beautiful, yet, why do mine eyes go blind in the sight that you walk along with another? Yes you, walk with another, arm under arm, lips touching lips in romantic kisses, it makes my blood boil, for mine lips are dry. For mine eyes have seen your glory, yet no one here listens to my story. You are evil, yes you are, don't try to deny, Listen to a man of experience, you might as well save some expense. I write of our long romantic walks we took together, under the shade of olive trees, how we went apple picking in autumn time, and made love in the foyer. Nomore of that sweet and passionate love, nomore silent kisses in the night, when the wind blows hard against the branches, that tape violently on my windowpane. Nomore somber tears shed, when you got sick, and nomore warm embraces when you shed tears of betrayal. Betrayal now is a game played by a fool, such as I, to think I'd have a happy life with you? Huh, only a fool would think such a thing, but now I sit, looking at the foyer, where we once made sweet, passionate love, nomore will that foyer be filled with exotic pleasure. Nomore will you be filled with smiles and exotic pleasure. I've done my job, as a good man shall do, now pack your things and get of my stage, the spotlight yawns for anew, and the audience grows tired and restless of you. Now I live life anew, you too shall see life in new eyes, walking hand and hand with the blond, blue eyed devil you call your own. Shall he take one kiss from your lips, and die of the posion he tastes on your tongue, shall he go blind, when he sees your true, black beauty? He will see the ugly soul, covered up by white rags, and cheap makeup, and then he will come to me, and shake my hand in condolence and say, "You were right!" Now you are all alone, looking for another, as you did many times before, Now you are alone, walking an open road, spying on another, fear of being alone. Now, you see when you play games with a good man's emotions, don't try it, because a good man is not meant to be toyed with.
My Sins – Zamreen Zarook Oh God you are so gracious, Am a guy who have done since in capacious, At times I have being as a carnivorous, But it charged ages to identify as dangerous. Since are being committed behind the screen, Even it started at my thirteen, Mirrors used to say that I am evergreen, Whereas my since were always unseen. In enormous number I have executed, But for every count, high privacy was aborted, Simply because of your blessings we are bracketed, If not, we are already being quoted. Oh God, I understood your kindness, Here after I won't commit since in others absence, However much chances I get to access, I will always have heaven as my address.
One night a young man appeared at my door, It seemed he had troubles I couldn't ignore. Some water and a phone call was all he asked for, Yet somewhat reluctant, I opened the door. As I listened, he told me a little about his life, And I could plainly see, there had been much strife. Well, I thought to myself, now there must be something there, That the Lord could use in His service down here. I told him it appeared that his life needed a change, And it was God who knew how his life to re-arrange. So, I fed him and sent him on his way home, Then I prayed for this young man, that night, after he was gone. Later, my husband told me of the fear that he felt, That I had opened the door to a man so unkept, How today, this is just something we should never do, Even though God says,"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." Oh! What has this world come to, when in Gods word we are told, To help those in need and are hungry and cold? Must we now be afraid to lend a helping hand, Unaware that some might be angels wanting to be a welcomed friend? Now, I don't know if I'll ever hear again from this man, But I was willing to lend him, my helping hand, Just to share what I had, and one thing more, A way that his young life could again be restored. Yes, I guess we must now be afraid to lend a helping hand, Unaware that some might be angels, never to pass our way again.
We Live in world that lacks genuine love and affection towards their fellowman. Why are so many uncaring towards one another. People today don't care what they do or say and who they say it to, understandably the world has and is still undergoing changes there is a whole lot more pressure on people these days especially the younger generation which causes anger, depression and frustration. Then there is now the extra worries of the global ressession which causes misery and grief but where is the sense of relief people are in much despair over the financial state as they fear their jobs are at stake. The world seems to be in a real angry state, due to all the atrocities and anomisty there is which makes people uncaring and can cause others to feel intimidated to even walk the streets and not looking at people that they meet as there is no trust anymore in the world. How did we get to this where nothing seems right, where angry people argue and fight, only evil is in sight. Happiness is just a dream, not a reality or so it may seem. What went wrong in the world that caused so much grief and anguish when did it begin, it started in 1914 when the world saw the first world war, the reason for the troubles since then was the devil Satan was thrown out of heaven to the earth and soon he is to be destroyed so while he has the time left he is causing so much upheaval as he is full of anger knowing he will soon be gone, as God Jehovah will rid the earth of Satan and his demons and he will restore the earth to A Paradise in peace and security instead of all the unrest and anomosity. People will be happy for all eternity.
Sad girl rising Let me tell you about this girl I know My cousin, this girl be Her life has been so very sad But how wonderful is she She was a wild child, till she married And had her first born child When she found out that his brain was damaged It really drove her wild. She took the Doctor through the courts Then fought for ten long years To get the money she deserved And she cried so many tears She gained a million pound at last To help her with the lad And yet the damage it was done And it really drove her mad. Her and her hubby cared for he And gave their lives to him It was a twenty four, seven job But at times it got real grim She would do just anything To make his life more sweet But when she got that Parkinson's She was close on to defeat But no, she struggled with the odds And though it's ten years on Never does this girl give up When all her hope seems gone She smiles, and carries on with courage Like I've never seen before She's something kind of wonderful She's a hero, that's for sure. 30 July 2o13 @ 1043hrs.
I close my weary eyes Holding onto the hope Of not having to cope Not a mintue longer Without you by my side Not expierencing The warm look in your eyes The tingling rush of your finger tips That would grip my hair tight To stop you from slipping into the night Biting your bottom lip As a pinch to yourself To see if it was real The dream of love we felt And now that you are gone I only wish to die Your image fades from my mind Sometimes I see it clear, The sun is skillfully stroking it set in the sky As my feet float down the road across the tuscan country side I ever so gently sense the wildy grown wheat Tickling these troubled lines engraved in the palm of my hand I playfully pick one out of the land and pluck the grains I look up and in the distance is where she waits But there she remains peacefully strolling through the calming field In a white cotton dress that tails off in the wind and wearing a small confident smile that makes my yearning heart yield Whispering in my ear that soon I will make it home But my Life's journey must continue down this God paved road I awake with the longing of her, But with so much to do I need God's strength for one more day to get through
Don't say it's all over (cause it's not) "Sorry" won't cover it…so don't go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness Oh baby…don't listen to the commotion…I'm done taking cover (it's all for naught) I'm plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I'm plummeting in my nightmare's abyss I want to carry you through the night… I'm swimming in the ocean of my tears… My sodden wings lost its ability of flight… You've been swimming in your distress for years… Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we're breaking bit by bit 'Cause there's more treasure to discover I want to remind you to fight the good fight… My misery pools are brewing inside of my head… I'm backing away from the light & exploring the night… You're giving in to sleep and I'm wide awake on my bed Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we're breaking bit by bit 'Cause there's more treasure to discover Please don't tell me…oh, don't tell me…darling! You're giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) I'm scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling! Someday, things will change for the better… (Don't turn the wrong lane) I'm waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay… I promise you a tranquil reality I want to stray with you tonight I still have hope that He'll set us free I was wondering if you could stay the night Maybe the Lord could grant us Pure, incredible delight Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 'Cause there's more treasure to gather…
My ancestors walking in the night using oil lights and moonlight for guides while being instructed to Wade in the Water to camouflage their scents like disguise The Sweet Chariot awaited so they could ride away Harriet was a soldier and it wasn't an option to be caught during the day That's the same mentality Nat Turner had when he sang Steal Away They would follow the drinking gourd so all were in accord to go north The Gospel Train was coming and at the end of the journey was a fine reward Freedom was coming and it was a long time coming and they walked until they heard freedom bells ringing and I still hear their tired footsteps running Thinking of My Darling Nelly Gray Stolen from my arms a random September day and eliminated our chances to run away together No family ties, no love, no strength says the oppressor Then I hear the drums beat in the darkness giving me the hope of finally being free Maybe I'll follow them this time on faith on bended knee There must be a place for me among the light of this darkness Among oppression, thieves, evil-doers no thought on their conscience Thank goodness for the safe houses that supported our traveled distances and for the conductors who bore witnesses and may God have mercy on the souls who were against this and on those who chose to forget this sh@! I still hear crying in quilts of safety because I know that the burden was heavy to be at the mercy of nature and patrol men catching run-away slaves for money Some did it bare feet with freedom ahead of this loved induced journey and they made it So all that bull about how your life is hard just stuff it in an envelope and save it
Words as smooth as melting ice, And as cold as cold can be . . . To hear them only one more time Would surely be the death of me. The night-mares surface once again, But from where inside my mind? Few moments pass when he occurs In winding headaches so unkind. Nights have passed without deep slumber, And nights have passed with deepest rest, But whether I find sleep, or not, I find the nights without him best.
My excitement was at an all-time peak since Daddy was coming to meet me. I was so enthralled I could barely speak. I wondered how he would greet me. Would he still call me his little girl even though I was all grown? That would give me such a thrill though him I'd barely known. Mom died when I was just five and all the family was scattered. Finding my loved ones well and alive; for years that's all that mattered. I found one sibling then another. This made me very happy. I had a sister and a brother but I still wanted my pappy! Finally I found him or he found me. We set up a meeting date. I was there an hour early. Seemed Dad was running late. For the longest time I waited there but he was a no-show. Turns out his fears he couldn't bear. So my daddy I'd never know. He begged forgiveness when he called later. I never did see him again. I forgave him 'cos I'm not a hater. But this caused me so much pain. This a true story for Kim Morrison's contest
The stress that's in the air I saw two people quarrelling Two neighbours these two were They were screaming, cursing, yelling It did the whole street stir Such anger I had never seen Not ever in my life Some people's minds to me, it seems Are filled with so much strife. I remember times when I was young I lived in south east London And where I was, was a real rough place Where many came undone But still the neighbours stuck together And they'd treat each other right But now it seems all trust has gone And folk just want to fight. It seems that everyone's uptight And no one seems to care About those ones outside their lot There's distrust everywhere But can they really help themselves? The stress comes with the breeze And floats around from soul to soul As it robs the each of ease. 10 September 2013 @ 1925hrs.
This is a journey, a trip call it what you will It follows the footsteps of my ancestors, and allows my thoughts too spill Firstly let me take you back, to tell you so little of my past Indigenous I am, from the "Stolen Generations" I did not last This is why I must make this journey, to allow me to find the real me To retrace the few steps I made, to rediscover what my young eyes seen How ironic that the person I'll ride with, is the son of the then official Whose deliberation to round up us children, the scene, locale It's now the morn of our travel, where I look I find hard to see The peripheral of the distant horizon, is all that really captures me The town where I grew up so young, barely to the age of five Perth, now bustles like a termites nest, zig zagging in busily strive Into the bush we go, to a place where us youngsters so enjoyed Moore River Native Settlement, which soon became children void As I walk my arid lands, patterned in the heat of this day I recall with every step, where us Indigenous children played We could survive on the smallest of fruit, water we could easily find Even the son of the then official, said that we are a superior kind He marvelled when I spotted tracks, traces of where animals crossed Remembering back to when I was five years old, our lands always talked We opened up as we led our horses, introduced all those centuries ago They opened up my lands, rivers we walked, now the white man flows This is a journey I had to make, it's called, it's in my will No more "Stolen Generations" no more will my culture spill
How do we ever know whom we've come to know All we see is their periphery, externally on show But what resides from within, can be River Deep, Mountain High With levels we can't seem to count, internally they cry Internally they cry, into a world we can't comprehend It's no wonder they appear like this, if me, I'd be round the bend One minute their world seems so right, suddenly a darkness descends All it took was explainable, but a different signal they send A different signal they send, yet it's receiver appears to know What was there originally no longer appears to show Just like a pendulum swinging, to the left and to the right No middle happy medium, for when it stops out goes their light When it stops out goes their light, and a darkness descends Maybe it's what they had become, driven round the bend http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/life-16.php
his love so toxic his dream became her nightmare distraught mother begs helpless onlookers suspended from the window he just let them go he killed their children helpless as her tears roll down her will to live gone center> ©291220112215 *just to clear up the confusion this is actually written for Andrea's movie contest!!*
Oh lonely Inevitable Bear, Padding claws, death in white Sorrow in recurring nightmare Instinct's test; fight or flight? Camouflage against the fence, A challenge; my subconscious fear Ominous slowly moving silence, "Let me in, there's a bear out here!"
A serpent underneath blue sky, in shade of man, in twinkle of an eye, above brick wall, in the structure, at the floor, venom of white dove; contaminated food, undrinkable water, misguided youth, pregnant daughter, unfaithful father and hateful son, mothers do pray while we walk through Babylon; on teli and in the press, on top shells, price none the less, in bedroom and at your door.. dawn of a new day seemed to be dark, after all.
How can I tell you? I can't stay with you. Neither I can give up on you. Fear of losing you is losing me. It feels like slow death every night. But we are just stuck in our spaces! Unable to connect from two feet distance.
I am a misprint, Ink blot on love, I remain a maybe Longing for fact, No speck of lint, A hand in glove. Thunder; a baby Will only react When you etch Parallel clouds, Whistling on cue To a dead town. Dream a sketch Of silent crowds Becoming you, This boiling crown Chews thought Into flagellation. Holes in the walls To spy through, Seeking a sort Of bricked-up sun. A heaven of halls, All leaving you.
I can see the dream I'm dreaming It's so beautiful, so alleviating It's the alliteration of everything compelling It's an epitome of petulant imaging It's me metamorphosing into greatness Bearing the trophy of poetry highness I can feel the gaiety on my success And the scenery of my upliftment But it's only a dream, not reality It's just a film in my head, not an actuality It's the absolute notion of melancholy The maestro of maudlin deformity It's a prototype of an implicit onerous display A melodrama that reclines on a fairy tale The model of an unswerving galling replay Like a pungent smell, unwanted but makes it's way I can't triumph over over-lords of the pen I can't defeat the dominating combatants of content I can't outsmart the ten over tens I just can't win this contest But I CAN do one thing Dream of my WIN
What tall tales must one share to free themselves from hell do not allow the heart to ponder or you will be lost in wonder What does a woman such as I know of love I know it hurts more than anything I know it will be down right disappointing and no one will come to lift you up For they want you to give them more than you have from the time I was a child I have known love was not my desire I loved with all of my heart and gave everything of whom I was but no one ever took a chance to love me back Now in my age my mind is torn from loving and harm do not bother me if this is your way of fun after all I am only human I want to be happy like anyone else, even if by myself Please if nothing nice can be done or said just pretend I am dead I know when I am hated or gossiped about and seriously I am at a loss I want to smile again, I would give anything to have someone be my friend I do not care who loves who just please let me be a human being too
Shield me from this stain I bear, remove this filth and smut I wear. Cover my eyes from the evil truth, discard these lies and hide the proof. Guard my heart, these beats of pain, from this spattered torn, loveless stain. Protect this tired, worn out soul, the one who beats out of control. Defend my honor, grace and trust, uncoil these spoils, away we must. Preserve the mutiny, oust the pure, coral the innocent with your evil lure. Safeguard the takers, fakers and rest, loosen the chains around this chest. Release my dignity, vanity and control, please shield my heart and cover me whole.
Catching me out and truly unexpected Flashbacks that only bring tears to mind Children so powerless, no happiness to see Left in the darkness to fear night and sleep Nowhere to run, no one to care for them Cold blooded man with no heart or love Chillies for breakfast more punishment for tea Strappings and cruelty, their harsh reality Forced to watch and too scared to cry Strength inside but fear in our eyes, Never show weakness, take it on the chin Secretly hoping he pays for his sins So much fear, sadness and guilt Fear of not standing up to his build Sadness for the horrible things indured Guilt I wear for not making this stop Life has many challenges, we all know I should have dealt with mine years ago Instead I just pushed it so far below Locked deep out of sight, out of mind Letting this all impact on my life Feelings subtle in the background Slowly eating at my heart and soul Preventing me from being whole So this is a new promise to myself Finally remove it all from the shelf No more will it comfortably be dormant Day by day I will sweep it all out This is a journey....'A Road about to be driven'
I want a reason to live My heart wrenches in pain all too often Tears stream down my cheeks Trembling lips An urge to scream loudly I hold it all in. There are way too many thoughts swirling in my head Dizziness and a feeling of loneliness Creeping right under my skin A mental breakdown is soon to show I hold it all in. Everyday I get closer to believe Death might be a better place For one who is nothing but a hindrance to oneself I hold it all in. Thoughts of doing harm again It is getting tough not to do so Letting everything spill on the floor The water stealing every drop away I hold it all in. Weights fallen drastically Who notices, no one Trying to be pretty Who am I kidding? I am nothing but bones A shell yet full of too many emotions. La la la la. Mind not clear. Eyes clouded. Throat soar. Body numb. I want to leave. Somewhere faaaaar away. I am afraid of the day I can not hold it all in That day shall be My Death Wandering off to somewhere else Fed with lies from all sides I am Alone.
Me, I'm just part of mother earth I'm just a little particle At least mother earth knows I'm worth Me and other particles We make up her ground For purity it is, it's found all around For millions of years We absorbed so many things Decaying plants and flesh In daily life it brings Then the day arrived With the experiments of man Creating what was never here Was it in their future plans I can still recall the day Seeing a fluttering near me It was so white, drifting like a leaf But I couldn't picture the tree Beside me it lay Not for long, just a couple of weeks Here, then it was gone Us particles no longer weeped The fortunate in us lived on Living many, many years But this day I'll always remember Us particles choked, and lingering tears Generations now have passed The same colour, white like the paper This time it never left Mans creation, who cares, their caper
I find myself not , eating, thinking, and sleeping Sometimes , not doing things right in my life The many obstacles , Im going threw Just to reach one goal The many blocks, I walk Day or Night Sometimes confuse on time Wishing it was a dream The moment , I heard You went to sleep All, I keep saying is Who , understood me like you For the many reasons I love you I appreciated everything, you did From the braveness, you gave my soul The gentleness, in your words For each teardrop, you wiped off my face Now, my teardrops seem to reach the ground While , I look in (Heaven) Praying your looking down Showering this fear off my skin Feel my feet They're so weak But , for you I get on my knees Singing and crying, to God That my angel is you So , I can whisper in your ear Mama, make me brave Brave like you June 8th 2012
As jy jou pyn buite wys sal vriendelike, Irreterende vreemdeling jou inlig dat die wêreld aanhou draai. En hulle is reg. Dit doen. Maak nie saak hoe hard jy dit smeek om te stop. Dit hou aan draai. Ek word wakker en is gelukkig vir drie sekondes. Dan onthou ek, Dit draai en kantel mense uit hul beddens In hul karre, hul kantore. 'n Stortvloed van klein mans en vrouens Wat deur die lewe tuimel. Probeer om nie te dink wat daar onder wag. Soms draai dit en stuur ons Wankelrig in mekaar se arms. Ons kleef styf, Opgewonde en laggend, Vreemdelinge saam gegooi op 'n bewegende prethuis vloer. En dan draai die wêreld weer. En iemand val af... Dis so 'n lang pad af Koud van skok, Kan ons net staan en kyk hoe hulle val En geleidelik kleiner word. Onttrek stadig uit ons geheue Tot hulle nie meer sigbaar is. Ons versamel in begraafplase, Stil en gespanne, Asof ons die impak gaan hoor; Die plons van 'n rivier klip in 'n donker put, Probeer om die diepte te meet. Probeer om te meet hoe ver ons val. Geen impak kom; Geen plons. Die oomblik gaan verby. Die wêreld draai En ons draai weg, Gaan aan met ons lewens... Ons vou ons self toe In gerieflike voorspelbaarhede Om ons warm te hou teen die koue. "Tyd is 'n goeie geneesheer" "Ten minste was dit vinnig" "Die wêreld hou aan draai"
Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim
This is the end of all the rollercoasters we have rode So dont look back Because the world is going up in smoke Just ride along with me We will find eachother when the light goes out Lost in a Wilderness Will we find ourselves again After we have been blown up into peices Who will survive? Who will make it to the end? The clouds will darken And the sun will go black There bombs will drop And Silence our voices Would we have found the love We were searching for in the 60's Would we have found the peace We researched in our childhood Would we have fixed bullying and told children about Columbine Would we have stopped the Depression And told children about the help they can get Would we be ready when the world ends Or will we be left in the past Would we believe in God in time for our ending Or will we still be selling books on another religion One day we will forget how to hope and learn how to fear.
I did it again; I need forgiven. Will He still forgive me even though I've fallen before? I've fallen into these same sins countless times before; I still haven't learned my lesson. I am an ignorant hypocrite. Am I still forgiven?
A thousand different voices, I don't know what they say Two songs playing at the same time, make this go away The horrible sound of a Siren, are you sure you can't hear it to? I really should be asleep now, But what can I do?
Aeonia! Eve! whoever now you may be... what was it he (they) wanted of you ever to be? "Bewitching WENCH!"- dare ye tempt the virtues of virtuous men! Words turned to black sludge of many tongues wagging, blaming and convincing her.of sins- shadow always inviting her, giving her no choice. Rapture Aeonia! Rapture Aeons! Rapture Aeonia! Impaled upon the spike of shame, apart torn, the tiny beads of herself come together... magnetically, magically clinging together as an army of a tiny promise- once told to her, a tiny escapade... escape whispered so long ago. Open your eyes Aeonia, after millennias untold of distaste. Open your eyes! Allow your sagging, savaged breasts to be bountiful once again- breasts once compared to mountains of plenty, to celebrate! Your blackened shell, proof of the fires of rage- Aeoina Rise! Aeon RISE! Aeonia rise to the dawn of a new day! Eviscerate the evil brought upon you by demon Man. A beast once hidden to shadows unbidden. His power is a farce! Raper, reaper, killer, user. ****er of all things good, of all things alive and all things true. Torturer of golds, silvers and blues. Cast your shadows, cast them I say! Faker, liar, betrayer of all things of nature and good. Gluttonous for your own selfish means. A. Green
Love is betrayal A knife in the heart. A stone that breaks my bones Love is betrayal, that lies to you about dreams of care and kindness, but stabs you in the back with disloyality when you are not looking. Is it possible for a writer to face so much heartbreak? Is it possible to be faced with so much pain, that if I had a penny for every time I'd had my heartbroken I'd be a millionaire five times over. It is true, I am not lying to you; why should I? Love is betrayal I can't take the pain anymore to feel such pain, I'd rather whether just ask the Gods to strike me down with painless and peaceful death, and sleep as the faceless faces come and place lilacs and roses upon my chamber of the dead. What killed this lonesome writer, who loved everyone, but was showed no love before? I heard he died of a broken heart, and that was what it was... A broken heart. Love is betrayal, trust me for I cannot waste a single moment more feeling this pain deep in my heart that tears at my soul and heart with shapened talons. Keep sleeping, with your eyes so blind, can't you see what you are doing to me? If you'd feel my pain, you'd sit down with me and weap. It is easy to read these wordless words, that probably have no meaning to you. To me this is poetry that sings songs of sorrow, that fuses my heart together and plays songs of saddness as I sit in a lonesome cell, praying for betrayal to leave, leaving not a single trace of its existence. Love is betrayal, a knife stabbed deep in the heart. A stone that is thrown at my mirror of transperanecy. Can you see the pain that love has given me? I was brought up to believe love is a magical thing, a true feeling that makes you think diffrently about strangers. Strangers are strange, with blind eyes they cannot see what they do too me, when they blindly stab away at my heart with their heated blades. Love is a betrayal that goes behind your back and laughs at your sorrowed soul, and as you turn to them all, they come all with smiles and hugs. Once I turn again they laugh again, and take their blade and stabs me in the back. And I cry, but no one stops and listens, No one cares, truely cares for my sorrow. So, I wipe away my tears remove the knives from my heart, and I walk down the lonesome boulevards Listening to the sorrow cries of lovers kissing on park benches. Then I slowly awake from this dream, but I cannot, for this dream is not in a surrealist piece of work, for it is realism at its best. Love is betrayal... love
You saunter through the double doors Head held high Chest puffed out Putting on airs You think you're so clever, so deceiving Showing up baring the most ornate mask But I see right through The mask that you wear tonight You think it will conceal You think just tonight In this hour You can be somebody else But you're dancing with the Belle of the Ball This is MY Masquerade And this is the 147th event You just don't recognize me Because I wear a different mask each time Your mask is cheap material Sequins missing, feathers askew Such feeble attempts I smell your bravado Putrid and reeking, stinking up the air But I see right through I've donned masks my whole life That's why I am the bearer of this sash That you see around my neck "Strongest Person I Know" But I allow no one to gaze under the mask Sure I play the Belle oh so well But if you all saw beneath Saw WHY I've had to wear masks You'd strip me of my title You'd rip off my sash Break the pearls from my neck You'd run for the door tonight Quicker than Cinderella at the stroke of midnight That's the beauty of a Masquerade You can pretend to be something you're not When one guise becomes worn When it loses its sparkle It's glamour and charm That first catches your eye Well it's quite alright Because I have a treasure trove BURSTING with masks Grab another and keep dancing Twirling the night away Never skipping a beat But when the music finally comes to an end When the door closes and the final guest departs Empty wine glasses are seen scattered all around The only sound is the echo of my heels When the confetti lies lifeless on the floor That's when I remove my mask Exhausted, worn and weary When I gladly, almost desperately Take off my tattered sash And throw it beneath my feet Because I'm not resilient and strong now I feel weak, frail and reclusive in my realm That's when the tears start to brim That's when I wish someone else held the title So stripped and naked Alone to clean up the mess Everyone else has left behind But there's no one to there to pick up the sash Just me and the sound of my tears Echoing as they hit the floor Almost fearfully I pick up the sash Dust off the confetti Smooth out the wrinkles Before placing it back around my neck As I throw my shoulders back Standing taller than ever Wiping away tears that no one saw I walk back to my trunk My trunk of the most decorative Ornate, obscuring masks Finding another to wear As I prepare for the next façade The next Masquerade
Dada was everything to our youth Our wide faculty was his help Our recognition was his sooth Nobody does it than his rep Many youth he carried up there Without seeking any penny Many services he rendered For free. All of which we did see He was not a king or a prince Perhaps he was just a God sent To his community, king and prince... He begot not but was begot Mindful of his predicament But dare not showed it on earth Till that Friday night he drove out Of town and took to a scar oath The next hour we heard he had died And left us belated letter "Don't cry for me, for I had lied. ...I'll die now before later" *cry for...: Mourn 28/05/2013
One last time, one more chance, I told myself no, to this endless romance. Its good for awhile, but always ends in tears, starts with a smile, then the love disappears. You start to get mean, thinking ill cower away, but not this time, not today. Hit me again, we'll fight to the death, this will only end, when you take your last breath. So say goodbye to your silent nights, and say hello to these violent fights, I cant take it anymore, I want to be free, I wont back down, until your life's a memory.
Paying back what I owe. I guess that some are wondering Why I'm writing all this stuff About the man John Sherman Maybe you've had enough But I owe the man so much He taught me how to be A man who lives more in the moment With a heart and soul that's free. I was angry, rude and antisocial I had no friends at all No one wanted me around I'd drive them up the wall With all my foolish paranoid And the hatred deep within I tried with everything I had To quell the nasty din. But then I read Johns message As I did surf the net He told me 'do one little act!!' And I have no regrets That I did take the mans advice For look at me today My happiness is my success And joy, it is my way. Now I'm a very loyal man I must pay back what I owe John and Carla changed my life So I want the world to know I make me no false promises I just say look and see It doesn't cost nothing at all But it made a brand new me. 13 July 2013 @ 1208hrs.
It was a Tuesday night and dull boredom had set in ' thought I heard my ol' car say: "Take us for a spin! Go pickup Bobby Mac and maybe Cindy too, 'Cause it's Tuesday night … and there's nothin' else to do". Bobby Mac rode "shotgun" with Cindy in between While I gripped that steerin' wheel, and drove through Abilene We stopped 'n got some soft drinks an' an order of French fries Then off we sped again - crusin' 'neath those Texas skies Cindy's eyes were sparklin' when Bobby told a joke Once I had to stop the car, ( 'cause I had spilt my Coke!) Then Bobby Mac, he asked me: "Just what can this car do … Can it reach a hundred … or maybe go on through?" I turned around and cruised on down to Ol' Comanche Road. I was rev'in' up my engine, while the duel exhausts bellowed I popped the clutch - tires protested with their clouds of smoke Horsepower erupted through every bore and stroke The needle on the dashboard gauge was approaching one-oh-oh And then I felt that right front tire when it decided to "let go" It happened in a heartbeat, but slow motions' what I see For now I'll relive that awful night for all eternity. And Cindy has no sparkle left within her big brown eyes And Bobby Mac's no jokes to tell 'neath those Texas skies While I sit here on this cloud with Bob and Cindy Lou … Now and forever more … they'll be Nothin' Else to Do. Don't speed.
Seeking accompany- Zamreen Zarook I kick to wonder what made me to cry, Am really writing as a fry, Myself launch to be dry, This ink will be a victim for my cry. What really went wrong with me all these day, What made e to forget my last day, I realized I jumped out of my track yesterday, So I regret for that, what is called as present today. Happiness have started to wave hands for this sinner, Sadness have started to move inner, The faults that I considered as miner, So far changed as a miner of a winner. My face was a comparison to sunlight, Where as my routine changed it to moon light, I wish to get that twilight, As a sinner I started to search for that enlight. I started to enjoy what is right, I remade my faults as a kite, I wished it would fly apart from my sight, My system said, you are free from your rubbish weight. It proved that I always should depend on god, In whatever the variation of my mood, He is there to clear my victorious road, So, I started to live according to His code.
Listen to the buzzing, in your ears, Listen to the humming, of your fears, Listen to the baby, crying inside, Listen to the pleading, in your lover's eyes. Listen to the music, you have never played, Listen to the sinner, who's never been saved. Listen to the empty, silence of your mind, Listen to the whispers, of man kind. Listen to the never, heard nor seen, Listen to the listener, who has never been. Listen to the monkey, you know you really are, Listen to the wise man, who's never been that far. Listen to the dying, crying man, Listen to the bottle, buried in the sand. Listen to meaning, you never really meant, Listen to the letter, you never really sent. Listen to the lovers, who loved another one, Listen to the brothers, torturing their mum. Listen to the noisy, who never say a thing, Listen to the silent, crying deep within. Listen to the never, ever really said, Listen to the dead man, laying in his bed. Listen to the flying, dying man, Listen to the solid, only made of sand, Listen to the night time, they told you that was day, Listen to the meaning, they stole an took away. Listen to the singer, who never made a sound, Listen to the thunder, in the lightning cloud. Listen to the voices, you never hear within, Listen to the last train's whistle, whistling.
What is sin? It is something that is buried within. Oh no! it is the hidden sin, it comes back to haunt you again and again. Sometimes it is near, sometimes it is far, also it can be a hidden war that lurks in our inner-beings to haunt us again and again. We love today and hate tommorrow, what is this hidden sorrow? It is the thing that comes back to haunt us again and again. It makes you happy, it makes you sad, it loves to make you feel real bad. So what is this hidden sin? The thing that come back again and again, Sometimes you are good, sometimes you are bad, it gives you pain you never had. What is this hidden sin? The joy and pain that is hidden within, "This is the hidden sin".
LETS NOT CRY FOR THOSE WHO ARE DEAD AS EMOTIONS ARE BURIED IN THE GRAVEYARD LONGING FOR LOVE IS FUTILE PALE AND FRAGILE I WISH THOSE BLUE EYES TO BE MINE FOREVER ALAS ! DREAMS ARE THE ENEMIES OF DAYLIGHT MOONLIGHT IS CONCEALING MY THOUGHTS INSOMNIA IS GRIPPING MY VISION WAYWARD THOUGHTS CULMINATES AS MY LOVE POEMS ARE CHAINED IN PRISON… Redfiery 2011
As the tide rushes Forward, brown black seaweed strands Wrap the graceless leg Silver scaly fish Catch the light of the sun as Silken drops of sea Slide off the pale hand Lifting to wave to those on the retreating shore
Why do we feel hatred? We fear discontrol. Why don't they get it? Why don't they comprehend? Why do we wait? Why do we protect? Why do we run? We fear destiny. Why does it hurt? Why does it burn? Why do we fight? Why do they betray us? We fear love, We fear friendship. Why do we keep? Why is it deep? We fear the abyss. Why hell? Why heaven? Why purgatory? We fear darkness, We fear light. Why do we live? Why do we die? Why do we suffer? We fear death, We fear life. We all live, We all die, We all keep, We all fight, We all suffer, We all cry, We all love, We all wait, We all give, We all receive, We all trust, We all wish, We all dream, We all remember, We all feel... We all vanish, We all rise, We can ignite. We fear destruction. We all expect, We all regret, We all lie. Why hate? Why do we create? Why do you stare? Why do they glare? Why explore? Why hope? Why goodbye? Why shine? We all think, We all see, We all go, We all deserve, We all pass, We all fear...
We are not different from toilet tissue Used in cleaning shit-smeared buttocks- Those of you unabashed politicians Who proliferate our ears With gargantuan lies Croak with breathe-taking professionalism And awe-inspiring stratagem. You these jigsaw creatures that deceive our mothers With soap and blood maggi As if our mothers whom we suckled are sheer beggars. Your voice rise again In their well crafted holy sermon- "Vote for me and have tarred roads!" Begging us to once again Place you in comfort and wealth While we are used yet again To clean rot-caked buttocks.
Regaining Power. He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds And he doesn't even notice passing strangers He's been here 'bout a thousand years forever all alone And he's always looking out for passing danger. Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory As the child calls out in panic "I am here They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower And all around I've built a wall of fear But it's his pain it is his game As he prowls around his cage He lives in vain, is he insane? And fear ignites his rage. The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire The little boy he must regain his power And tell the world "I'm here, I'm here" and feed the burning fire It would take this much to open up his flower.
Living amongst Hell's battles with little to gain aftermath brings stinging rain as beauty dwells in the blood of the stain
Stuck in a situation, Not knowing what to do? Blocked from all directions, Tired of being sick, throwing and feeling weak, The people I thought I can trust walked away, I am tired of selfish people, I am tired of being alone and fighting this without any support, When this should be your responsibility too! All you want to do party and play, I am tired of facing problems one after another, I need peace, relax and have nothing to worry, Yet you bring hell to me! All you care about is you and your career, While I give my life and risk everything for us & baby, I give up my family, my car and now I am broke and homeless, And all you care about is you and your dreams, It bothers me how you think & blind to see, My dreams and goals for my life is in the trash can, You keep asking for respect yet you cant even understand your women, Without a cause there is no effect, I just wish you would understand that! This is not about who wins or looses! This is about us fixing problems togather as ONE!
A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy
The Aphotic rays reach higher And shame, shade reigns over all Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave I'm living, the slowest way to die Elysia, rapture where are you now What will I do when the flame is extinguished What will I do when I drown in ash What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges How can this be all, one short organic vitality Scares to die, but afraid of a new day Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge My life so long - my suffering grows Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day In all of the ashes, a flame begins Once again, here I am Living, the slowest way to die
It's bout to get worse It was written in the verse The truth hurts ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED When the time comes No one's gonna hold up a sign saying it's time to "get right" It's gone come like a thief in the night! Blowin' up and wreckin ish! The war you want is the war you gone get It was written before our time We keep looking at the signs manifest before our very eyes constantly denying our right to be one of the meek ones of our time ARMAGEDDEON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED We're at the end of what used to be existence Every super power will answer to a higher power so pray repentence The time is closer than any distance From Washington to Obama No one will escape the wrath! Hope you choose the right path! Narrow is the gate of the righteous tracks that are imprented on the mind of the omnipotent one Will you be spared life on earth with the meek ones and accurately take in knowledge of his son? OR will you perish in the dust never to be awakened again? No consciousness of sin ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED! It's in the verses Read it, see it, live it, rehearse it You see the times changing You see the minds fading You see the world and how messed up it is You see that nigga satan and his curses! I pray to have a chance to live a beautiful paradise on earth like it say in the verses! ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN WARNED
The braeþ of lyf -- I've Learned to fear Though, ta'en it was, so long sinsyne I've wroot my song of skreighs He tore the lyf out of me In sooth did she speke this to me - Cassandra was she to me Wistful - I am no bride to be Wistful - is this soliloquy of skreighs I cede to thee, deathly colleen Though remains - façades of humanity Angel kind - wicce of my welkin dreams Casted by the lote of she Ta'en the hollow Herefro way - ne'er! Caught with twain W'ie or swain Angel dearest so fair - love does not share Seemed a crux, when eath is lone I rose for thee - cede all of thy love to me Or was this not meant to be Eros's deceit So wistful - corpse bride I remain to be
Jump up and down like a jackrabbit running through meadows running from what? Could it be heartbreak, a venemous snake that hides in the grass, hiding with fangs ready to pierce the tender skin upon the tight, bronze flesh of everyday life? Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now! I need a vacation a long way away from the faceless smiles and ignorance of young girls, who don't look at you, who don't show you love and respect. Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now, as jumping spiders hop everywhere, crawling eight legs around me my soul black like carcoal, but my heart still beating slower this time, not like the days before and like the jackrabbit running from anything and everything, I run to seek love and vanish away from the empty voids that people call, their souls. Recording a film with no tape, talking to a woman you love, but not having the guts to tell her how you really feel Jump my boy, like a jackrabbit, take my advice tell her before she leaves turns down the endless avenues of endless dark love the trees grow taller, taller than you and you sit there feeling away yourself die, missing out in life. I cannot see you lose your love. Say it, say it, Say it!!! Tell her! Tell her! Build the guts up! Build up the courage, tell her how you feel. Take her by the hand and never say goodbye! Never say goodnight, stay with her till the flight comes in the morning of the first rays of sun shine through your dorm room take her and love her! Do not be like me, the jackrabbit! I see no happiness Reading poetry it makes me sad, to write of others falling in love and I never finding the one. People tell me, you'll find yours, have hope but I am a frightened little jackrabbit who flees from sounds of deep emotions, not having courage to fall in love, not building the guts up to tell her how I really feel. She walks alone, I find my oppertunity and sing my love song She smiles and moves on, please tell me I cannot fight anymore. All I have to say is Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye I need a vacation to go to some sandy beach on an island of love and write and write and write, the same poetry that depresses me but makes you all fall in love with words! Fiction about love stories, please kiss me Blue eyed death comes, plays a game of chess with me I bet twenty, he bets my soul Kiss me death, the only love I'll ever get, besides my poet friends who kiss my ass Listen to my heart, truely, I don't write of beauty I write for the sorrow soul, the fleeing jackrabbit running away from love.....
I cry myself awake In the middle of the day Because of a decision I made Not to spend time with you. And now everything I am Is falling apart into pieces; I feel like I am losing you Because I am losing myself.
Sitting, was a peacock, besides me Waiting for the hovering clouds to shower On us, and the parched garden twigs. A blessing started trickling down, It touched and tickled me all over Peacock's danced and went like whirl, A charming moment, appeasing the sores. My heart kept humming, blessing has come. Earth revolved in a merry motion, sprinkling out Tears of joy, running down the streams all over. Peacock ran to seek refuge, I wondered. What made him ran, whirl broke off.?? What made the sheen hovering clouds sooty?? Dancing legs are now running in fear. Parched twigs uproot and float to no-go. Tears of joy, spurt with salt of fear. Pink petals decimated, colours blanched. Can't see that covey any-more, their nest. There was my hut, who undermined?? Hey you stop, it's time for salvage. He himself is no less worthy than world. Is it a ransom to mighty thunders? Stygian clouds, roaring waters?? The hands waving for help to man, Raised in prayers to God, Where is He? or voice is vague. My salty tears spiked and got diluted I had a present to present to beloved. It is my date, I have to wait. Don't wash me away into muddy whirls. Now wait is over, as date is near. All are rushing, let me leap. emm*
My pain emotionless on my face The tears I cry hidden away with my sorrow Nothing more for what you won't understand To be insecure for which I don't choose Jealousy eats away for I won't give it joy A sadness to overcome with each lesson To stand by and watch for no control can be tamed Once in your path I can't seek to search for the words I want to say The scars left behind to be hindered upon Only to weep and help better thy for oneself One smile can hide all without opening the book Behind it who knows what lies there
should I believe you man in the suit? oh your hair looks mighty fine combed back, your polished slacks a slight tan you are irresistible in your presence demanding attention. you have a face that looks right nothing you say would be out of sight nothing you do would steer me wrong oh man in the suit, you are my god. you have the power to make us thrive dig a hole to the other side not to china, but to the fuel oh man in the suit I cannot trust you you dug too deep into a pocket of the earth looking for more resource to fill your own pockets but I don't want pockets man in the suit all I want is for you to tell the truth your polished smile did us wrong lies lay upon your clever tongue and you continue to rule the earth digging your holes you find more girth to your hungry pockets which you try so hard to fill when will you learn that filling pockets kills...
Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. For kicks is why I do it now. You tell me to love but I never knew how. Our feet hitting pavement, We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin. I'm learning to forget and how to fade scars, And you let me let myself down so hard. Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. And now I just do it for smiles, We'll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles. I'd lose my head just before that chance, But if you want we can still have a first dance. Cause I think I say things that I don't mean, Once upon a time you meant the world to me. Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. But I'm trying to refrain, To make this not all end up in vain. Maybe I can learn to love like some people do, And you can learn to love yourself a little too. Or it is in all fairness to let this go? I guess we can try but then we'll never know.
Tears for fears. Tears throughout the years. Tears that fallen from my peers. A tear so sincere that will shred us from this dreadful fear. That someday we all will die. But have u gotten a slice of that pie. A pie so delicious u can almost taste. That u cant let it go to waste. Maybe next time I'll remember tooth paste.
The rebellious Teen loved all his friends. The only ones he listened to… were them. They wanted him to drink and smoke every night. They said experimenting with drugs was definitely all right. The rebellious teen's mom was beside herself… This was her child and this could finish his life. But he continued to listen to the Devil himself. What could she do in the end to save his life? The devilish friends held him closely in the palm of his hand… In the end she decided she had to move far away from them. Somewhere… where only new friends he could find. Those who loved life, sports, and learning: to draw him back in. Then every so often she let him, for a visit, to go back… Each time he went, fewer were left to contact, yes, some were even dead. Some had over dosed… Some didn't care who he was any more. What he found was rot and that they lacked the drive to live. The rebellious teen cried for what he saw they had become… He had changed and now could see, what was happening to them… These were no longer the friends that he remembered from before. He tried to save them with words and his love… but they didn't care. He didn't want to go back to that sadness, to live ever again… Now he looked to the future and that was a fact. The moral I tell you, all of my friends…if he won't listen to you… Then find him new friends. For if he is your life and if you want him to live… Find others to help steer him or else you can't win… Let his support group be new peers who enjoy life to the brim. Yes, those who will help lead him to walk in the light again. From a true experience…
Lost in the rain, I did't see your smile... Tugging on the strings of my heart for a while... I reach my hands through the darkness... Clenching and holding all that's endless... I try to scream but whispers steal my voice... And only silence and blindness are my choice... Like a drop of rain that never reaches the ground... My cries of desperation fall to a all to similar sound...
(Oh Girl), You're like the storm and the wind, Tearin up the city and breaking the trees, Whenever I'm around you girl, I get weak, You're breaking my heart, And tearing up me, (Chorus) Breaking my heart, Breaking my heart, (Tearing up me) (Ooh girl) I know we will make it, Even though the wind is blowing careless at me, I can't do this without you girl, I'll get weak, Stop breaking my heart, Bringing me to my knees, (Chorus) 2x Even though the love hurricane is blowing careless at me, I can't do this without you girl, I'm too weak, You breaking my heart, You're the storm of the week.
Why am I so selfish? Why do I live for the wrong things? I am dying inside Because I refuse to see the light. I need to say yes, But I still haven't learned that yet. I am a fool, And I am hurting you. If I would let go of myself, I would hold on to you.
The pain of change as it unfolds Is oft a tale that stays untold What is seen is a whole creature not deep holes in the feature nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt It all begins with a soft kiss He is walking with a false bliss Only following in paw prints But the nature of mom's lips Is to rob him of all innocence Trapped in warm spindles of fear A wrapped life form kindles in here Four years bound to shingles of moss Time to leave this life of sloths Break free like that of a moth and Rise again like Christ on the cross
Chase the voodoo to sleep. sleepless freaks i see in the silver screens blocking the vision of me. there's no choice but to eliminate hate inundating the mind. please mute the voices haunting the airwaves making me blind. the big bad budding burden flashing red lights at every intersection. stealing away the insight i try to gain by using time for reflection. It's a mess the way i test myself with deranged prophecies and bleak scenarios. replaying horror flicks in my head. blasting screams in stereo. all too often the worm hole shoots me to a mid evil castle of torturous devices. impaled in dreams that seem to be broadcasting punishment for succumbing to the world's entice and vices. but other times i fall victim to a good old fashioned "day-mare". people notice the self conversations and can't help but laugh and stare. I must say it's becoming difficult to blame them. if i can't learn to shake this voodoo, it's true my future's looking grim. What do I do? they're gonna end up arresting me! Toss my ass in a padded room and throw away the key! and get this...as i worry about getting sent away, the paranoia increases inside my head. i reach for medication increasing odds of ending up prematurely dead. I may be crazy, but don't take me for an idiot fool. and don't haze me about where my faith is, cus' this could just as soon be you. and i've learned enough to know that each and every one of us will die. and you may take me as insane, but me not taking my own life's got nothing to do with having a fear to fry. This is exactly why i choose to write as my mind fills up with crazy thoughts and throws fits. it's a therapy for me to try and work out all the kinks that make me sink, instead of cowardly throwin' in the towel n' calling it quits.
LOVE shoves us into glistening meadows, Of unimaginable warmth, where ecstasy glows LOVE also leads us to teary graves, Of uncontainable darkness, where pain enslaves So, teenage girls trotting over, To find the four leaf clover I say, leave love to the absolute brave 'cuz, It's more than just a fluttering rave!
I'm like a lion Tryin to be trained to behave in a cage, but I wasnt born to be tame Full of stress and rage Im compressed and chained Infected with depression beCause I cant catch a break Lifes taste is so tart In pain from my scars Stained by lame luck Stuck behind apace car I strive to write But all I can type is the space bar I'm Pervaded with doubt About to freakout Quick Someone bail me out I would sniff my way out but I got this cyst on my snout From 6 years of this drought Im sittin with this could of pout Stickin to me like jam from a can like melted candy in your hand I'M a pantree full of Spam A Letter without the stamp A debtor without a plan Like chicken on a pan without any Pam, Damn I'm starting to get pissed I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist, Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls I want to brawl, missed last call My Stick shift just stalled, This lawl has no intention at stopin at all And I'm kicking myself in the balls like old men walking up and down the halls so i flop, just like a dust mop Now i got knots in my food box The size of king kongs rocks and Every door has been locked I try to soar but its all for not
Before, while, and after I said goodbye I couldn't help but sit there and cry. I cried on and off for 7 hours and slept one Woke up and cried again, I still wasn't even done. Two more hours…wake up again. Every so often a tear falls in the open. I literally feel an aching pain in my chest Thinking of how I lost you, wanting to forget. I'm feeling sick and I still haven't ate. I want you…my thoughts aren't straight. Mane, almost every tweet...is about you And almost every thought…is about who? Someone who could have been playing me Or showing me where my desires could lead. I wanted to tell you everything, I wanted to say more, There wasn't enough time and now my broken heart's feeling so sore. I just wanna be alone and listen to this depressing song, I can't get you out of my head... it hurts. Is that wrong? I understand that I may be foolish wasting my time hurting over you. But in all honesty my dear, I really wanted us to be something too.
When a man cries himself to sleep, it is a sad sight to see, tears roll off his cheek and onto his bed sheets and pillow case. When you hear his somber cries, you can feel his pain when he wimpers like a child who treds in fear. No one knows what they do to a man when they play with his emotions, lead him on, take advantage of him. They don't know what they do to an innocent man looking for love. They break his heart that is full of love, they stab him in the back when he needs them at his most vulnerable moment they laugh at him, and tease him, Do they know what they do to a man? They slowly kill a man, who just wants a simple kiss on the lips, they kill a dreamer, a good man, with a big heart. They drive a man to his bed, with tears running down his face and force him to dream of nightmares. When a man cries himself to sleep, it is that saddest thing to see. Goodnight and sweet dreams...
You think you've gone just far enough, I could smile knowing you've gone far enough that you can't go back again You think you were careful but, I've caught a glimpse of your true, wretched form You think you can find a way into my good graces I've seen what you are, monsters with a friendly costume You can't deceive me anymore and, I don't consort with serpents You think I'm a game to be played but, trust me, you could never win Don't underestimate me You think I'm a joke but, trust me you won't be laughing You think I'm just talking myself up but, trust me, you're the ones going down My eyes took too long to adjust Better late than never It may take a monster to know one but, I promise my teeth are sharper than yours My first reaction to the hideous revelation that was your form was to weep Fall to my knees, maybe even wretch my heart from my chest and onto the carpet Then I thought about the mess it would make I decided the only blood that will spill, will be your own I was not weak, but I had a weakness A heart of soft gold stitched to my sleeve with care No longer Now my heart is a stone so heavy I could kill at least two birds at once Being the nice guy is a thing of the past Thanks for freeing me of that softness You thought I was all sunshine and delicate things When really I had just been swallowing razor blades Now that sun is setting and I hope you see it was you who were wrong Can you feel my darkness coming, because it's eager to hold you If you thought I was the one who would just stand still or turn to run Your gonna be the one with tired feet I'm not sad anymore Just sick with the plague of your lies Contagious, and I'm looking for someone to kiss Even angels can make themselves wicked When we do, we take no prisoners Still think I'm a game This one is just beginning
Musta lost five pounds today hunger hurts but I suffer anyway stomach shrinks along with guilt hope this improves the way I'm built
They say when life throws you lemons, make lemonade. Well the niggas i know work and its not honest, but it pays the bills in the words of badu because she gone tell you the truth and ima give you the scoop on a livin troop who got the boot because he didnt wana shoot a dude in the same resemblence as hisself but he still work, its not honest, but it pays "his" bills. -Afro_Kira
Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.
13/8/2009 Momma collect yourself I cannot lead the way Why, what for? I wasn't even there... While I knew you petrified became my part The anger, all hope and faith began to dash away Momma, its you My prequel to cliched tragedy A vessel I'd cling to gone now deserted; crashing against some coastal rock Momma my confidante Sorry leads to sorrow Momma, non-insured; my personal wreck Momma, your daily fix for life left me here to simmer under much angry regret Painful purple, taller emotions loved you most That snorted road trip you took Envious indeed Took it into your heart more than much love for me Caressed and stroked inside you incessantly Momma before, you an early sunrise Our good warm kitchen' a sanctuary you've built Gone Just as will tomorrow No more tasty breakfast treats, no more injected passion, and no more taboos to haunt you every night Momma, I lived for you my life I tried so hard to appease you praise you Revive will you? Pulsating emotions, this viscera will not hide regrets When push came to shove we pushed you all the way So sorry momma That's you settling old scores What made you love them most? More than mere adoration Maybe if you'd love me; selfish may it be You'd still be fully here and I'd be there beside you Holding them tight both you and your(lukewarm) fading, lifeless hands.
Tears stream like water, rain in the night A heart that still hungers for all to be right Stoned by a circle, mocked while on stage Emotions grow heavy from pain into rage Scabs that were healing I picked them apart All to uncover, I had to restart. The essence of the soul, Purity Only in your arms, Security For the ship is overtaken by rough waves I know that You're the one who saves Hear me while I sit In the dark. Carelessness, comes from movie clips inside my mind Walls built to last start to unwind And I can't take the ache within the knots It's as if all I've learned I just forgot For the flames of bitter yesterdays just ignite Restless with this walk, I lose my sight The essence of the soul, purity Only in your arms, security For the ship is overtaken by rough waves I know that You're the One who saves Hear me while I sit In the dark. But I'm not alone No I'm not alone Going to the otherside I must resist this fear And Come alive! By: Sabina Nicole Written: 4-8-12 Song written for the piano
Once covered in diamonds, Ive got nothing on this skin but filth Once my heart was bathed in milk, but now its rotting in s*** Down on my knees, the crushed onyx under skin, burns Down on my knees, I see the alarm and panic ringing out loud Just a long road, I keep my face paralell to the ground Just a long road, I keep my body moving through the sludge Inferior and covered in dust, I crawl up onto your prayer rug Inferior and covered in cuts, I inch my way up to your prayer rug Cracked fingernails, dirty skin, shaded eyes, slow, thick blood My cracked hands wear your beads through, down to the heart Once covered in your diamonds, Im nothing more than sin and lust Once my heart was bathed in mothers milk, but now its failing slow Down on my knees, tears are mercury pools in my perimeter Down on my knees, Ill take it, take it out on me Just a long road, I keep my face hidden, punish me Just a long road, I keep my body moving, punish me Inferior and covered in scabs, I just want to crawl up into your lap Inferior and covered in scars, Ive stopped bleeding, love me now Cracked fingernails, dirty skin, shaded eyes, slow, thick blood My cracked hands wear your beads through, down to the heart Once covered in diamonds Once bathed in milk Im cracked open and sore But please let it hurt some more
Hear my plea and hurt me not Have mercy and let me be, Lost I am but found I will be Taunt not my image Lest yours you taunt Do not rob me of pleasure Pleasure I will feel only with him Part not my thighs That I nurture for he, whose I am Spare me this agony Free me of this shame Release me from this hurt And do not steal my cries Rob me not of my pleasure For demented I will be With your cold and evil touches Touch me not, ooh rugged being For my life you bring to an end. © Naa Takia, All Rights Reserved 2012
You hurt me but why do I still love you? You two timed me and it hurts to see you go. How do I trust you? How can I love you any more? You left when I gave up on us but then you came crawling back what do I do or say I love you or I hate you? What do you expect me to say to you that I'm gonna take back and say its ok? No I can't do that. You lied to me and cheated thank before you cheat next time.
My heart is crushed yet is hushed, I feel rushed, Six years was long, I felt there is something wrong, When I am with you, I don't feel strong, Strongly feel things are prolonging. Promises that you made, Nothing came along, yet it fade. Time is wasting into nothing, Nothing worth while to keep. We are still in step one, My veins are popping out of anger, My head is blowing out of pressure. The storm has come, My face is blank with no expressions, Should I run?Panic?Relax? Sorrow comes with a flow, The mistakes that I made it shows. Scared to face my fear, Yet is near my dear, Running without a parachute, Walking on the clouds, Not sure where life is taking me? Curiosity kicks in, Was all this a a long dream? I want that dream to be true, Your multi-personality is suffocating me, Feeling your unpleasant status, Makes me not want to be with you, Question,questioning, questions? You are unbalancing my weight, I have always know that you are the one, Until you ruined everything of my existence, With a long distance, Now you made me unsure, You are changing in a bad way, I am scared to love you, Because I don't recognize you as you.
I'm naked I'm numb I'm stupid I'm staying This isn't love. You use me. When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night, You're clumsy with your hands. Clothing seems too hard to get off. And if Cupid's got a gun Then he's shooting But I can't leave. No matter what happens, it's too painful to go. Lights black Heads bang You're my drug We live it We're too uncomfortable with the lights on. I don't want to see your face- Slurred, clueless. Angry. You don't want to see mine- Helpless, confused. Depressed. You're drunk You need it Real love, I'll give it Everything is hazy to you. I bet you can't feel. But I'll love you anyways. I always have. So we're bound to linger on We drink the fatal drop And love until we bleed Then fall apart in parts This has gone on forever, to me. I'll try to be like you, To see what it feels like. I drink the last bottle of vodka And hold onto you. You've wasted your times On my heart, you've burned And if bridges gotta fall Then you'll fall, too Maybe this is the part of life That people told me about It doesn't mean anything It hurts you. You grow so attached that when one piece collapses You do too. Doors slam Lights black You're gone Come back You leave when the ordeal is over Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober You don't have a reason anymore Stay gone Stay clean I need you To need me I want you to be happy To be the way you were before. But I think without you, Even though I only see you late at night, I would be destroyed. So we're bound to linger on We drink the fatal drop Then love until we bleed Then fall apart in parts I'm getting up to leave The keys are for you Now we're bound to linger on We drink the fatal drop Then love until we bleed Then fall apart in parts But I'll come back soon I'll come back
my dreams- i cannot clearly see them i miss them terribly all night. i cannot hear them whisper i cannot hear them cry, once they were source for the bright sublime now i fear soon they will disappear or die. perhaps i was too haste in letting them go, perchance they just wanted to grow. a blithe vision to hold. perhaps they felt the deluge of my pain. knowing it well i can't withstand. i was timid,i was all lost, for that an antipathy they developed for their inimical host. i feel a gloomy numbness surrounds me hazy memories of all my dreams outlying me.
Today I will just be looking out my window while it rains, because just hearing the sound of the thunder gives me a feeling comfort and as the lightning strikes it's as if its telling me that it is feeling my pain in the same way – And as these tears keep feeling in my eyes I remember that I'm still going to be alone once again tonight Which is the hardest part of being a military wife but as long as I have you I promise to be as strong as I can be for us— Deep inside I hide all my sadness and worries when I am around our friends not wanting them to know these thoughts of you never end, because they just wouldn't understand why I am weak and on my knees just trying to keep believing in your safety, As I pray each day for you to just come home and sometimes late at night I wonder if you feel as alone as I do, oh- and do you wish to be with me the way I wish I was with you, Do you think of me the way I think of you, do you toss and turn threw out the whole night wishing that you were holding me tight, oh- and do you dream of me when your all alone at night, I know you understand how I feel, And that my love for you isn't fake and that its real, And when I am thinking of you I imagine I can feel your every move, Your every breath with each and every step I take, I just believe that no matter what your safe, and As long as you need me the way I need you I will be strong for you for the rest of my life as your military wife. Tonight I will just be looking out my window while it rains, because just hearing the sound of the thunder gives me a feeling comfort and as the lightning strikes it's as if its telling me that it is feeling my pain in the same way – And as these tears keep feeling in my eyes I remember that I'm still going to be alone once again tonight Which is the hardest part of being a military wife but as long as I have you I promise to be as strong as I can be for us—
Vietnam Vets Story Have you heard the story Of those bold courageous men Who served their country tall and proud As they fought in Vietnam. They done their country proud and all And showed how soldiers fought But now their lives aren't worth a damns Their nerves all tense and taut. They sprayed their poisons on trees Endangered all these men And fed them drugs not tested yet They didn't care back then! They wanted just to win a war A war pointless and mad And many now do suffer so Their lives all sour and sad. And now these men just live their lives All down with no self value {Their bodies torn their minds all twisted Marriages broken too!} They have to fight with all their might To get fair compensation!!!! What price to risk one's soul and life In defence of one's good nation.
Houses lost, friends go away… Then others I've never known… Some areas worse, some less… But all have seen the scar… Empty homes with vacant eyes… The bank will own the loan… Won't let lose their precious prize… Until they've made a score… A few will pass thru many hands… Most will wait with time… In the end we all lose… With tears in our eyes… The only winner any where… Is the bank that still holds on… There was really no doubt on this… As the monster gobbles more… As still so much is lost by all...
Quick as a blade lunging forward to claim a life, is this darkness falling upon me. Whispers of a sorrow, known so long ago, float in the thickness of the night. Twigs snap in the distance, I turn but my eyes fail me.. My own hand in front of my face goes unseen... then, all becomes quiet... Walking along a gravel path, each step makes the pebbles unearth and dance along side me until coming to a halt.. Searching for even the slightest sign of light.. my head tilts towards the sky looking for the moon or the stars to show me what little comfort they could offer.. I am alone. Even they have abandoned me on this wicked night. Owls hooting in the midst of this forest, as if to let the rest of the forest know I am here.. and I am alone.. the wind at my back shows no mercy on my path to find light.. it taunts me, urging me to run as if it knows something I do not.. As soon as that thought was finished, a screech! Snapping and cracking from branches being broken in a direct path to me. Finally I can take it no more, rendered so helpless, Frantic, I run blindly with arms reached out in front of me to take the blunt force of whatever I may run into. suddenly, there is a loud "THUD"... The screeching stops, as do I.. Heart pounding intensely, it is as if it is not my heart at all, but drums being played.. Lungs threatening to collapse as my knees buckle. Tears of fear streaming down these burning cheeks.. whats that? Foot steps! I ask myself, from where? I spin, there! Don't scream, don't move.. Crouched down low to the ground. Eyes burning from the rush of tears, heart wrenching and twisting between my ribs. A light! Scared, I stand.. One moment passes and the next I'm running... but why? Light is what I'm searching for! No..safety.. from fears and my pain... This forest is a manifestation of my fears.. I must face them! My feet come to a steady stop. Turning to face the enclosing footsteps.. My adrenalin is fading I can now feel where the broken branches had their way with the bare skin of my arms and legs. I can feel the lumps forming. The light! Eyes shut I cling to a nearby tree.. deep breaths in, deep breathes out.. bracing myself for what is about to come. My eyes dart open...
As I look at the whites of your eyes I feel horror, fear rumbling inside me. I grind my teeth together when I see you walking. I fear you, I fear when you talk, shout, when you raise your hand. I'v always feared you, but no more. The fear I had of you I turned it into courage. Now I no longer fear you. I laugh when you raise your hand, when you shout. Cuz the only thing I see you as... Is a dead man walking. And now your in the ground where you belong. ( If you may PLEASE comment of Mail me. Sorry i havn't been on in a long time... ALOT has happened this year to me)
Death, it is a sad way to go, to leave this earth, dressed in your Sunday best While faces surround you with tears breaking the barriers of their emotions tearing their hearts apart, looking down upon my stone face, upon the face, lays a simplistic smile that shows no emotion, no teeth, no life. Death, it is a sad way to go. People hurry, say their goodbyes, but when your alive, they never come around, they never call, they never even think of you and how you are feeling. While you walk the streets, with a smile on your face, nothing but knives stick sharpe in my back and gossip burns a hole in my soul and heart; but I keep on walking and smiling. I keep rolling on through like a summer hurricane tears apart a coastal city in the heat of June weather, Walking till death comes to shake my hand and grin at my soul. Then as you lay their in your casket with a buqouet of your favorite flowers, (Roses and Tulips) they sit around you, the same faces, the same blind eyes and they all shed tears and says good things. Too late for that don't you think? Death, it is a sad way to go, but what relief you get, when finally departing in peace and leaving the drama and careless people in your life. After I am put six feet under, a week of crying passes, After two weeks I am lost and long forgotten, nothing but a stone at my cranium to keep me company and my new friends, who sleep along next to me. Dead and forgotten, but the dead never forget their fellow lost souls. Only the living forget such souls that were so good to them, now they are gone, I am gone. How do you feel, now that I am gone? Death, it is a sad way to go, but what peace you recieve in Paradise.
I looked through the window, seeing eyes glowing and breathe slowly fogging up the window The window was slightly tapped from the other end End, I thought it was the end of my life Life is so dear to me and yet tonight I might lose it It was after me, chasing me down Down, down I fell off, impaled by words Those words made me feel like I was going to rain Rain, rain go away, I said to myself Myself, by myself, I was all alone now, as I stood at the window and I stared through Through the window seeing eyes glowing and breathe slowly fogging up the window
You take life from the deserving, Strip strong women bare; Tear a hole inside us, Til we fear what might be there; The lives you take are precious, Though you discard them without thought, Regardless of who they were, You leave them all to rot; You make us fear our bodies, That which we should be proud; Brilliant and beautiful women, You leave off feeling cowed; The disease you spread destroys us, Cuts out our hearts and souls, But the worse thing that you could do, Is leave us feeling un-whole… Tirzah Conway ~To Christina, she fell while fighting the Cancer battle~
HERE I GO AGAIN First time I shed a tear To the man I call "My Dear" Thinking of the word he said My heart is slightly afraid I don't know if this is right My mind is obviously in fright I'm not sure of his explanations About his past and present relations I'm a woman of dedication I'm always right with my intuition Is this feeling will start again? Maybe my love will be in deep vain What if I will find out his deepest secrets? And will hurt me again to the fullest? I don't think I will survive for the thought Let see, time will come for what is really the truth September 8, 2012
I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky "It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…"
My Struggles My mind grows weary. My eyes are teary. My heart often skips a beat. I toss and turn through the night. My soul and flesh continue to fight. I do what is wrong, but I desire what's right. Inside I burn with fury, But outside I appear cool as a Winters breeze. A great storm is in the near future. Who will intervene before disaster strikes? Who will save me from the strong winds and hail? I can only pray that all goes well. I can only pray to survive this shipwreck. I can only pray to reach shore and be able to breathe again.
MUM ... WHERE DO I START? I DON'T THINK THERE IS WORDS , TO EXPLAIN HOW I AM FEELING ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOU... BUT I WILL USE ALL THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME , SO I CAN GET THESE FINAL WORDS OUT THE GUILT , SADNESS AND REGRET FROM NOT SEEING YOU LIKE I WANTED TO SO ****ING MUCH , THEN THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING A CHANCE TO SAY "GOODBYE" TO THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOTHER COULD WANT, AND YES MUM I'M TALKING ABOUT YOUTO HOLD YOUR HAND, TO SEE YOU SMILE , TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE WORTHWHILE. YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE, BUT YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MUM, BUT THE LOVE IN MY HEART FOR YOU , WILL MAKE SURE YOUR LIFE , LOVE , WARMTH AND TOUCH , WILL LIVE ON FOREVER , IN ME I KNOW THAT YOU CHANGED ME , JUST FROM YOUR PRESENCE...THATS'S HOW STRONG YOU WERE MUM I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T LEFT ME , FOR THE LOVE IN MY HEART REMAINS , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOUR BODY WILL FEEL NO PAIN...... GOD TOOK YOUR HAND , AND MADE US PART , HE CLOSED YOUR EYES , AND BROKE MY HEART ....FOR ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER, I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR FACE. THERE IS NO MOTHER ANYWHERE LIKE YOU, NO ONE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE. IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN YOU WERE LEAVING, I GUESS I EXPECTED YOU TO FOREVER LAST, ALL OF THE DREAMS OF US IN THE FUTURE, ARE NOW BUT MEMORIES OF THE PAST. GOD TAPPED YOU ON THE SHOULDER, HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW, THAT YOU WERE GOING WITH HIM, TO THE SKY SO BEAUTIFUL BLUE. ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER SEE YOU MUM, ARJAY WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE, HE'S GONNA HOLD YOUR HAND, AND LEAD THE WAY, FOR HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE..... I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER..... DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU KNOW, DON'T TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE, HOW I WILL SURELY GROW. DON'T TELL ME THIS IS JUST A TEST, THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED, THAT I AM CHOSEN FOR THIS TASK, APART FROM ALL THE REST. DON'T COME AT ME WITH ANSWERS THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM ME, DON'T TELL ME HOW MY GRIEF WILL PASS, THAT I WILL SOON BE FREE. DON'T STAND IN PIOUS JUDGMENT OF THE BONDS I MUST UNTIE, DON'T TELL ME HOW TO SUFFER, DON'T TELL ME HOW TO CRY. MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH SELFISHNESS, MY PAIN IS ALL I SEE, BUT I NEED YOU, I NEED YOU YOUR LOVE UNCONDITONALLY. ACCEPCT ME IN MY UPS AND DOWNS, I NEED SOMEONE TO SHARE, JUST TO HOLD MY HAND AND LET ME CRY, AND SAY, MY FRIEND I REALLY DO CARE Mom you mean the world to me It's hard to live without you ,You were always by my side Through thick and thin you helped me
In a corner, all forlorn, He crouches and he waits. In a corner all forlorn, He trembles and he waits. In a corner all forlorn, He hears the stairs creak. In a corner all forlorn, He sobs and he waits. In a corner all forlorn, He's made to play the game. Every night it is the same, so, In a corner all forlorn, He crouches and he waits. I just got a very strong gut feeling to write this for children everywhere May God enfold and protect them from all harm . © Dave Timperley 2012
Here I live in darkness Dreadful fright and fear Kept from all my fam'ly And friends that once were near Why am I imprisoned What has been my wrong? Why this dreadful sorrow Instead of happy song? Naught has been my trespass Innocent am I Robbed of all life's goodness Condemned in jail to die
I lay in bed last night thinking of everything and nothing, as I often do. For some reason or maybe for no reason, I thought of playing on my slip-and-slide when I was a little girl. In Florida, summer lasts from April until October. We were always looking for ways to cool off. That memory led to another and another. I remembered our neighborhood. It came to life everyday with the sound of children's laughter. Now, I often sit by my window hearing the silence of children indoors playing video games. Safe behind locked doors. Occasionally, the birds come out to play or I hear a bull frog croak. Squirrels run across our fence line searching for places to hide their treasures. (The neighbor leaves out peanuts for them. The squirrels appreciate the gesture.) When I was a little girl, I caught grasshoppers and lizards, but not frogs. I didn't like frogs. I thought of my succession of childhood bicycles. I felt free as I zigzagged through the street riding with the wind in my hair and the sun on my face. I haven't felt that free in a long time. In those days, I never felt lonely. I could always find a friend to share a secret with right outside my door. Our parents never thought they would send us outside to play and never see us again. The neighborhood was our playground. Until the day a young boy disappeared from a shopping mall only ten miles from my childhood home. He was kidnapped, killed and decapitated. I was eleven years old. Our world changed. On my playground, shadows lurked and everyone was a stranger. I cried when I saw the picture of the little boy with the baseball cap and toothless grin. My brother was the same age as that little boy. He had nightmares for a while. I was eleven years old. Our world changed. By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders for Debbie Guzzi's Fear contest Second place finish
BURN AWAY We have all lost our way To see starlight gazers And men with broken hearts, Seeking love in all of the wrong places; Vacant lots, where women all looking for something, But not quite knowing what they look for. We have all lost our way. The only hope of humanity Is the shining sun That breaks through the blinds of my window, And the faint memory of me and her Lying on our backs in a grassy meadow, Holding hands Looked up and counted stars. Cities burn away, Sky, stars, moon, sun all burn away; The grassy meadow Where we once lay, all burns away Everything burns away, Memory and desire and love all burn away With the snap of a finger, and a new man In her own life, And I burn away. A picture of her hung high and praised, A picture of me, in a dark box That collects dust, in some lonesome And dusty, cobweb infested attic. And I burn away with a new day. I burn away. A nightmare that I can't awake from, It is endless and repeats When thoughts of her are all over my mind, I cannot take such nightmarish reality Too see her and smile, And she walks away without a trace Of ever returning. And I cry, And I burn away, The tears wash the fire away, And turn me to ash, The wind picks me up and takes me away. And for one peaceful moment, I do not cry, I do not burn away. For a moment I am happy And I smile, And go away for a while And let them all sleep in peace. -10/2/2013-
you whispered sweet doubts into my ears but i was so blind to acknowledge the fears ill never regret how i felt for you but you seem so far gone, i don't know what to do i only did what i thought was right but i guess i lost all fear and extinguished the light Bay, i wish i never left but its to late to take it back Bay, i wish i had some sort of sign to know your OK i have this horrible habit of making a mess of things you might think it funny but i jump when the phone rings i hope you dont blame me for what happened but then again it must have been my fault im sorry i guess all those times i apologized were in advance for the heartbreak that i probably brought down upon you bay, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry if you ever read this you'll finally understand the way i still feel about you nobody ever said it was easy but nobody ever said i would fall this hard i miss you im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry please bay, im sorry please bay
Alone is when reality doesn't exist anymore Alone is when the one person breathes for rebellion The speed of madness soaring through the human body at million miles per hour Taking a different road than the one intended Taking the high sprialing road No longer a person you know, but a stranger Instead of reality Fireworks covered the sky Everything was perfect, but only for awhile Then the crash of blackness encircles like a haunting cloak of death When the last breaths of life come too close The only thing left to do is replay memories of happier times Hoping not to die in this distorted state Then suddenly reality caves in And all thats left is to watch those particles of lights come back
Time fell fast Things became hard Worries were vast Lives begain scared Hopes endlessly hidden All things seemed forbidden Days filled with darkness Lives consumed and left sparkless Awaiting the doom Sitting only in gloom Heaven wept No souls were kept
I blame me for all my mistakes I blame me for all the rejection and heartache I blame me for all the times I stayed silent and should have started and earthquake with my words I should have spoken up when I had the chance now all those thoughts are wasted unspoken, unheard I blame me when my husband touches me and I feel the hands of a predators pounce And I blame me when the pressure it on because all I had to do was shout out and renounce His name Lord, help me to get rid of the shame I blame me for my loneliness I blame me for my feelings of lust I blame me when I look at myself and see absolute disgust I blame me when I shut down - unsure of who to trust At times not even sure if I really know how to love I blame me when my kids are crying out sick because when I brought them here I knew that this world was unfit Yet overpowered by my love for them I became more and more protective So I blame myself in advance for their sadness when they finally see that the world is not objective I blame me for those nights I can't rest Wondering if my consciousness has finally realized that I have done my best to stay positive and have good intentions So I blame myself when I give in to temptations and my human inhibitions and begin to feel ashamed of myself I begin to feel like I don't have enough strength to love myself because good things don't happen for me So I blame me for my thinking and feelings of worthlessness It's a big world and my lonely soul has no more confidence I have nothing I have given up and so I blame me for my incompetence and my soul's rut
Let Me Go! I don't want this anymore! I can't go to sleep at night, all I seem to do is write. Sometimes I read... I read until I finish. When I finally go to sleep, I hear the sound of the alarm "BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!" Oh gosh, I can't handle this anymore. I am going crazy here and no one seems to notice it, my dear. I cry myself to sleep. telling myself everything will get better. BUT IT DOESN'T! And I know I mustn't but I want that knife just as much as I want that gun I hate this world and everything about this girl She sings and tries to get attention yet no one gives her the time of day. She falls into the books she reads no one knowing, it is escaping, she pleads. This girl is me, oh but you knew, right? Since all I ever talk about is me! Gosh, can't you see? I'm my enemy! I'm my own nightmare! No one is hurting me! It is me who shouldn't be let free! Lock me up! Kill me! That way I won't harm myself... I'd like it if it was someone else Please, do me the favor and let me go for no one can save this girl from this cruel world.
Today time stood still, I could see existence in its clearest form. A vibe of coldness and silence, yet peaceful and reassuring, you could almost imagine it to be the same feeling of initial death. The curse of knowledge and intelligence is you know too much. Sometimes that ignorant bliss seems attractive, but even if given the choice I would not go back, as the more I learned the more i seeked. I pray for humanity and the will of the people, the story draws close to the end and with hope I watch . . . in the end good will always prevail, Amen
Darkness is like my mirror Shattered like blackened glass Reflecting broken bits of me As hours, days and years go past Darkness is like a fiery mess Endless, cold and without mercy Coals and ashes, shriveled up Tomorrow remains unseen Light seems to burn my world From the dullest of all dull candles Like touching a golden ember Its splendour you cannot handle Darkness is a force of life The only one I've ever known I'm scared of what I do not know And what I do not understand Darkness is like an old friend Lingering, forever remembered The darkest of all my days were bright From you my light emerged I cannot think of a time well spent That didn't include you in it A world so unforgiving One in which we did not fit Darkness is a battle Not to be won but only to lose You fight for everything you love And get defeated at the time they choose Darkness is a house Standing alone and desolate No one wants to live there Doing so fills them with hate Blackness is a colour A shade of the darkest emotion The feeling you get when you feel empty Just going through the motions Black is endless and cold And all I've ever known But I cannot tear myself away For fond of it I've grown
Woman Is Insulted, By Challenging His Manhood; Getting His Buddies To Rape, Was His Way Of Reinforcing. He, Not a Man, Force Himself On a Feminist. Give a Valid Reason While Rape. Feminist Tempt Masculine By Their Proactive Dressing. Insubordination To Human Nature. Could It Be That Masculine Is Weak? By The Sight Of Bear Breast? Victims Feel Ashamed And Unclean. FEMA Seventeen Events Took Place. Recurring In Nightmare First Man Exploded Inside Her. It Was Her First Encounter. Screaming She Was, Thought Masculine Was Urinating On Her. Bath I Must Have Said For Years. Dirty She Felt And Wasn't Enough Water To Cleanse Her Body. Rapist Defilement And Innocence Body. Fellow, Who Should Be Ashamed? And Feel Unclean And Unfit For Civilized Society?
Take me back My soul's time has come Take me back Youth I long My old soul is close to death Scared now-take me back ( This poem is written in a Shadoma format which isn't listed in the drop box choices)
Severing the attachment, Desperate to liberate myself from self imprisonment, Each Separation ensuing with agony, Feeling as my own worst enemy, Further and further I tear, Seeking the long sought relief but it becomes to much to bear, Allowing the mold to feel anew, Leaving me in a state of subdue, Almost craving the need to illustrate some emotion
Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we've become their prey They say you're addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? "My Decadence was just for you Though you'd never care what I've been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What's Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone" I call your name towards nightfall's reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden's heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone?
I am holding back-against time wishes, Lurking at a corner, as I forbid the slayer to find me My heart beats and screech like a choking-engine, Whilst the snarly sinister hunts - wishes me burnt to ashes I dare thought to be a bee - So tiny I could fly and disappear from the scene. But so lame a thought like that can help a soul. The frightening night wants me feed to the ghoul. Hidden – I have stayed long, linger I can no more. I'm all alone in the dark, bruised and with a leg sore. Escaping is impossible!
Behind the mirror, the man is seen Where on our streets surrounded, Friends Thousands met cold, untimely death With screamed echoes of souls unrest Bullets flied, guns blasted ceaselessly Children dead in their mothers' arms Father, for his lost son searched Found him only, with parts cut in shreds. Behind the mirror, was the man there? Our Young children, to soldiers turned Educated only in field of war Guns carried, bigger than they can bear Faught battles, of no cause but fear To read or write, they dared not do But to shoot or kill, well informed they were. The man behind the mirror, how did he rest? Our babies, dead while he sound slept In his glorious, paradise mirror he kept Still offered nothing, but violence more Promised, inflicted upon innocents, murder If anyone dared open their mouths to speak Or, if orders came of his seat to render. Behind that mirror, my freedom he took Our homes Burned; our stores looted Citizens, chased out of a land to love Forced into exile for years so many Adapted to a culture so not ours From scratch, we started to build Until bit by bit, we rose so high above Like an eagle, up up and away. The man behind the mirror, for him I always blame The color so dark, on our backs stained Bruises so deep, forever left to heal Visions of his bloody watch, repeatedly, us plagued Flashbacks of dear ones loved, Snatched, And palmed away by cruel, hateful death With tumbled bodies over bodies All soiled up into one tiny hole. Behind that mirror, the man will always be With blissful look in his red, budging eyes Wishing evil gleefully, with a dark smile His laughter,joy, through my anguish I see My heart beats fast, like a thunder sound And the more my hate for him increase Oh how I wish, that mirror came crashing down Then, a taste of his own medicine, he shall get
I'm sorry Mr. Johnson The tumor is malignant There is nothing I can do In fear I Awoke Time to go to the Doctor's Kenny is Always on time "I'll wait for You in the car" I fear, leaving Home Your very Quiet Today This is just a check up, Right? Chef, it's just a check up, Right?? I fear the Future Inspired By the Contest : " Crystal Ball " Sponsored by the "Sweetheart of POETRYSOUP" (and Me) Linda-Marie By HGarvey Daniel Esquire
a couple is walking 'hand in hand' on historical grounds they're not talking in disbelief of what invisible yet so present overwhelmed by the deadly silence of the spirit of hundreds of thousands passing by also so long ago in an eternal way moved by exhibited drawings miniatures of art by witnesses back then only the sound of countless stones under their feet cracking each representing the forceful presence of whom once were here even the birds left the area only a black-and-white cat living another one of his endless lives coincidentally or not on this spot sneaks also in silence with his body crawling us telling us so much more 11/4/2012
I Knew Someone Who Was Ready to "End It All!" I knew of someone who just wanted "to end it." Giving up on life, and did not want to "defend it." It was a heart wrenching and difficult situation. He said what he wanted to, with no explanation! I could see his face and the sad look in his eyes! What he was going to do next, was anyone's surprise. He turned to drugs and encountered addictions. With this brought much disease and afflictions! He gave up on the wonderful family that was given. And turned to a pretty wild and crazy way of livin'! I told him about a God who loves him very deeply. As he listened, he began to grow restless and weary. I reached for his hand and began to pray for God's power! It was a miracle! The blood of Jesus changed him that hour! The spirit of God brought healing and hope to his body! He was so excited! He rushed out to tell everybody! The "end" that he wanted, seemed to just fade away! For the son of the living God, changed him this day! The glory of God, and the power of Jesus' resurrection… Changed him! And got him going in a NEW direction! He's so thankful for the blood of Christ' atonement! And is a different person now, because of that moment! This same Jesus loves and can do the same for YOU! Through the problems of life… He will see you through! By Jim Pemberton
Anxious and sweating Running away from the crash She feared for her life
i live no more, out of the veins, and onto the floor, blood drains from me, from this life, my life i shell live no more. deepest cuts with a dull razorblade, the blissful sight of the redness in which i lay, the smell of the unpurity, and frightened souls, the darkness in which falls over me, my life i shell live no more. consistant with the thoughts, the thoughts that ponder me, the sick little twisted games that you played, so sick in tired, life is un-inspired, lost hope in a world, life is no longer a desire, in this life i dont want to live no more. the dignity in which i lost , in which you took from me , at my verginity it cost, ravaged you were like a caged animal let loose, into a society that excepted you, but as a scared little girl you took with out fear, the only thing that i had to hold dear, now i take this life of mine in which i let it free, and grab the razor blad that will become the death of me, in this life i dont want to live no more. inocence you took from me, the moment your hands were placed upon me, the look in your eyes when you grabbed me, and the pain you forced on me, with a grin on your face, and the laugh in your throat, i screamed out in pain, and i know i said NO, i fought to servive, i fought to be let free, but all you wanted was your way with me, in this life i dont want to live no more. sweet blissfulness, and control, while i hold the razor that cuts my wrist, lets the demons free to roam at peace, a peace with out me, addolsent fear caught up with me, the games are over, now im free from the life that you took from me, my life that i live no more.
My White Daughter The two play like sisters Quy-Imah has braids And is of a darker hue Kayla has blonde hair And eyes of Blue In the back seat of my car they play Martin Luther King's dream Just two feet away Quy-Imah says, Hi Daddy Kayla copies, Hi Daddy (They both giggle) I try to ignore their childish musings Sisters by their own choosing No one could could convince them That they were any different Then my pessimism Start to Catalog If they ever were to Disappear or go missing My White Daughter Would get FBI, Helicopters And a hundred canines My Black daughter Would be lucky to get a single dog
Boundaries for a Purpose – Zamreen Zarook You are a trustworthy moral agent, Nations perpetually talk good in your absent, You, in no degree cheated in your achievement, So, your soul wish to see amusement. People do modifications to their mind, They wish, society should be behind this master mind, I wonder, why they can't rewind But everyone say "I love the man kind". "Trust" is a word of life, When selfishness mount, then it's the war of knife, Trustworthy people starts to strife, Because, everyone wants to achieve in their own life. Trust everyone with a limit, Whoever comes to you, do the admit, When you see selfish, it's the time for you to omit, You love "yourself", so you do have the permit When you move away from this code, Frustration and depression will be overload, However much you try to unload, Definitely your ship will be upload.
Untitled 5 (My Uncle: Good Morning, Apocalypse Now) My uncle doesn't speak much about Vietnam or the stuff he witnessed when he was just a boy. See, he likes to drive the back roads fast and honk at random cars that pass. His friendly gestures always lead to how he grew up compared to kids now. Jumping and racing trains on the tracks became dodging bullets and carrying his buddy on his back. The marshes and dirt valleys here became the forests and trenches of the military frontier. Last year, my sister donned his jacket a fatigued fatigue that hung in his closet. In color and memory darkened, kept out of sight for fear it would harken the PTSD he's stuggled to avoid. He saw his brothers, young like him to Vietnam succumb while on American soil and he promised he would never speak, for fear his stomach would coil, when remembering rice - a dish he no longer enjoys. And there's no orange on his clothes to remind him of the agent that destroyed. When he speaks a calm "Good morning", I wonder if he's thinking of Vietnam or if he knows that I admire his strength and bravery and how he continually fights against the "Apocalypse Now".
She breathes a white mist. Her soul shivered, Her heart now dissipates on ice. The snow falls silent, a note unheard. Belief falters of the Jesus Christ. It's hot; The salty beads tease her But her cares are frozen still. Her naivete of life has dispersed; In a soundless second, her hope is killed. The colours are raw. It is winter now where it was summer then. Her face is dead. Covered in frost. She cursed her flaws in heat, now winter made its descent. The cold wind blows colder, Her aspirations gone dead pale. What she feared most held onto her The ice consumes her warmth; a freezing veil. "Jesus...why Jesus?" The sweat is overpowering. Between her legs dries under the sun. She hears the melody of his belt singing. Her scream doesn't bother...her reality cannot be undone. "Why me Lord? Why me who never sins?" Silence. It could have been worsened. Praise be to Him that your life is now ruined Instead of it stripped away and taken. Praise be to God for He is good.
Look around you The world is already at an end When the Mayans said that the world was going to end They didn't mean a world destroyed by flare, quake, or salvation But rather a world full of broken relation That possibly, it wasn't a literal interpretation But a figurative analysis of this falling nation Are we not all the same people, the same human But we'd rather live a life divided A life divided by the color of our skin What is war but greed to keep the amount of money left for our kin Life is no longer cherished The earth used for our own experiments until its resources perished Genocide, assassinations, and murder supported for a "better cause" Who are we to judge the abominations of others when there is flaw in our own laws We continue to redefine what is socially accepted Making a gateway for divorce, abortion, and legal prostitution Rather than fixing what has been so psychologically rooted into the minds of this generation We look to cover up past mistakes with a newly corrupted translation Girls look for sex because of a lack of love from their fathers Society tells boys to make use of this advantage Treat girls as objects rather than human beings with emotions And we later ask ourselves How did these boys and girls ever become such bad parents Our government shouts democracy But isn't that really just a cover up to keep us appeased It's most convenient when the majority stays quiet Because only those in power can say that this earth's a heaven To the majority, this earth is already a hell The human race is so arrogant Believing that they are the most superior in this world That they can live without the mercy of God who should be in control Look around you The world is already at an end
The Murder Of One Lead To Another My death caused yours. I left without a fight like I had all those times before. Murder by my own self-indulgence. Looking how I had left you to your own devices, if I would had known that would be the cause of your death would I have been less self centered? Can you hear me singing to you as you slit your wrist and separate soul and body? Slowly slipping away as I sing the song of the 7 veils. I yearned for you, as you loved for me could we be the most perfect couple to die for selfish wish. What fools we are leaving this world just for a death we know nothing of. Stop! Return! Don't leave me just yet! Are the words I hear as I return to living breathing state, I was returned back to this world? For you I could live on, for you I could die by your side, for you I would make you live forever with me. I was murder, you slit your wrist but in the moment of leaving this world we both was called back by the body we left behind. We came back hand and hand together to stay side by side. I was murder you slit your wrist, but in that last moment I came back for you and you came back for me. Did you see it our nearly over soul ready to be devoured and consumed by our greed? I was murder, as you slit your wrist. We tried to destroy our suffering and we nearly destroyed our bond. My death led to your death but in our final moment we were called back to this unforgivable world. Murder by self-indulgence, suicide of a broken heart, which was our ways out of this world. Thank you for calling me back.
UNFORTUNATE LOVE Once more it's morning and I greet the dawn, waking to feelings I've known, breathing the fragrance that's lingering on throughout a lifetime alone; splinters of sunshine are drifting through blinds, revealing dust I breathe in, dancing through flashes, and somehow reminds of things that never have been; I hear a song and it's what I've dreamed of, outside my window they mourn, I'd face the morning, but I need a shove, for this poor heart badly torn; unfortunate dove, why is it you sing, outside my window each day? It's a reminder of what life won't bring, mourning dove, don't fly away; once more it's morning and I hear the dove all of my life is a sin, it's just the way of unfortunate love, but I still dream now and then. © ron wilson aka vee bdosa
Please accept my apology, my life, has been more like, mythology... Accept that, I do not understand; Accept, that I can no longer, play this hand... Punish me, though, do not condemn me.. Allow me the light, Another chance; Different sight... This myth that is I; This vision, I cannot hide.. Accept me as I come, Recycle me,; Take away, The Numb...
The chook defense Now I'm no vegetarian Though I'd like that this could be At seventy I'll never change So I'm just stuck with me And I really love's me chook In every kind of way But now I'm in the mood I'm in I just have this to say….. If we're going to eat these chooks Don't we owe them some respect We treat them like commodities But what I might reflect Is, if we treat these creatures thus That God placed on this earth Then we neglect our very souls And too our own self worth. Those birds are treated so damn mean How can one understand This cruelty, are we then humane? It don't look too damn grand And where's the goodness in a food That's never seen the sun So when we treat these birds like this What damage have we done? That chicken flue was scary, once But who knows much at all About the karma that can come From things, unnatural. It's time for changes in this world When dosh is not the 'all' And then humane might be a word That's truly wonderful 10 July 2013 @ 1301hrs.
I yearn to see the stars twinkle in the midnight sky when I'm with you I'm waiting faithfully I'm drowning in the solitude, missing your enthralling company
As I die he will be with me, I fell in love he had the key, And always knelt on one knee. My last thoughts are of him, As the lights go dim, Life circling on a rim. All at once we are apart, The taste is so tart, It all hits me in the heart. You are left to live, My heart your captive, There is nothing to forgive. My cheeks blush so shy, With a tear in my eye, As I start to die. Fear not for I am well, As many up here can tell, It is not quite hell. As I look from above, kissing the forehead of my love, I wonder what he dreams of. I look at him so fondly, his lips curve so grandly, as he sleeps so soundly. I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed, I wish to be with him but I am dead, My life over and has fled. I fear for my love for he is kind, Strong handsome and well lined, But now I leave him way behind. Finding love is like a quiz, Never knowing what it is, He needs love from a heart as strong as his.
The leaves are crying Winter takes charge The daylight is gone Quietness takes place The church bell is ringing goodbye Angels are singing welcome The time is getting high Check out what is left behind So quicker than thought Yet a life is gone Everyone will go this journey Time unknown to anyone is the reason for this goodbye in tears
I RUN from FEAR. I HUNT for FEAR. I HIDE in FEAR. I FIGHT cause of FEAR. I'm FAR from you. I'm SCARED cause of you. You're the FEAR that I HUNT. You're the FEAR that I FIGHT. You're the FEAR that SCARED me for LIFE. *Comment if you have any thought and if you like it. oh and some of the poems i write arn't always my feelings. their some times just to get through other people so they can have something to read that just fit's them.* -Angel4eva23
To think for a second, to think I had something I thought my life was so good He told me things I cherished, secretly But I never thought that he would... He said I was the only one, And you know it makes sense now You were never mine, I never cared You might have said it somehow It would've saved me from this heartbreak I never knew what it felt like till now Loneliness, hurt, betrayal, tears... Nothing but shaking and tears Never wanting it to end, makes it end Faster than we have years Oh bittersweet heaven remove me now So friendless and scared and alone Hurt by two, who think they are the victim I could tell in their voice, their tone Why not? I think to myself Let them think that I am alright Because they don't care about it anyways Why did I have to fall again last night? Talking bout stars, about life, and the world I could've let myself into his arms I almost did, how I wanted to fall His kindness, his honesty, his charms Omg I can't believe that I was so dumb That for a second I thought I was fine I thought that I could come home one day And not be surrounded by tears and rhyme But this is worse than anything I have ever felt before Why did I think that I stood a chance Against one with such beauty galore Why do I care, it was I who broke away I broke his heart I am told If I did, is it rebound? Or is that what I am? Nothing but hay against gold Sobbing, hair pulling, locked door, locked heart You shouldn't have opened it up, stupid girl The wall was built for a reason, dear Jules And now that truth will unfurl Wicked girl, ugly girl, lost and alone Give up, give it up, it's so clear He doesn't want you, he doesn't care But he whispers so softly in my ear 'I love you' he said, and now the tears flow Again like they've never before I'd love to stop crying but I feel so betrayed It's obvious he cares for her more What do I do, what can I say? I could run but what would that do? Jules, you're so stupid, I am so dumb It's fake, love is fake, it isn't true You fell once again into arms so strong I fell once again, so strangely Life hates me, time hates me, ugh I fell hard I should've known that he wouldn't catch me
It starts out as a small attraction Builds up to an intense infatuation You become in tune to everything she do Trying to make her smile when she feeling blue Her laugh brings a small heat to your chest Go to sleep and she's in your mind as you rest You've been hit with the arrow of cupid Back up before you do something stupid You talk but you talk less and less She likes you but as a friend at best You fall off and make her a stranger Realizing that your heart is in danger The two of you no longer communicate You try hard to force your love to relocate Rumor hits and you find out she got a man Of this you're not a enthusiastic fan Anger steps in and you go off on anyone Body light but your heart weighs a ton The bars in the gym seem so much lighter You want to fight but your not a fighter You no longer care about many things One female reduced you to fighting Athletic ability improved 10 fold Then a breakdown as your heart turns cold Soon you become useless Friends know something wrong but they clueless You feel pain, and intense depression Nose and eyes run and you blame it on a cold infection At last your close friends realize whats going on Tell you what you already know, To move on You look at them but you say nothing back Waiting for your emotions to come back Pain is long but nothing last forever You come back like the sun in stormy weather You laugh and kick it with your friends Until the stages of love happen all over again
Even though you're gone for a year now, I dream every night of running into you, I wish there was something like a friendship subscription that I could renew I miss talking dirty, I miss acting flirty, for around you I was always very perky, We weren't friends, we weren't more, bond we shared was anything but quirky I'd come alive thinking about us, your bad boyish charm had gotten to me very strong, Winking slyly you'd talk about guitar, other chicks, fantasies and I gladly played along Gradually you aroused desire in me, you too said, to me you were physically drawn You would readily take your chances whenever we met, a tight hug, a gentle brush I'd get overwhelmed with feelings; I was convinced you were more than a stupid crush Even though you weren't in love, you said you were attracted, u didn't know why Like a hopeless romantic, I was all set to take the plunge hoping you'd come by Visiting me on your last day in town, you came close and I could feel your heart race You made me sit on your lap and for a moment you did nothing but blissfully gaze Already stunned by the move, I felt number as I saw this naughty twinkle in your eyes, You leaned and kissed, damn I thought what if I am no good, all I could feel was butterflies I was cold, clueless it was my first time, I panicked thinking you wouldn't take it all right Talking about it was way easier so you were led on, but now you thought I was acting uptight Helplessly I watched you let go of me, I wish I could express how lost I felt since then Without saying much you withdrew realizing little how much on you I'd come to depend Even though you didn't take the high road, I still wish I could recreate the setting, Live up to your expectations, go wild doing all things you had in mind without fretting For we were Best friends for 5 years, I genuinely hoped you'd give me another chance Be by my side & tenderly make love to me, besides singing as we do some dirty dance Reality struck me soon, as days passed no call, no message, you were no longer keen Cuz you buried all the feelings, totally unfazed, and brought another girl into the scene Even though I am finding it hard to get closure, I wish she loves you best in every way As for me, I just pray our fond memories together keep me going through the day!
I lie awake on the floor, Hoping he won't open the door. Fear zip-lining through my spine, My courage not willing to climb. My memory spins, As he would slowly lift my chin. Why again? Doing it as if a trend. Listening for his deep breath, Stained with the death of meth. My heart beating faster, Not willing myself for another disaster. Left eye still stitched up, After telling the doctor it was a wood-shop cut. "You disgusting whore, Get to the floor!" He would always holler, As if I were an animal wearing a collar. Looking out my caged windows, Wishing I could hide away in my pillow. Hoping he's gone, Hoping, this one time, I'm not wrong. As a car pulls in, I picture the man lifting my chin.
It's a complicated situation that I'm facing. Between broken dreams and death planning conversations. Constantly asking myself why I feel out of Gods hands into the arms of satin. Praying for life after death but deep down questioning continuation. I weary from all the back stabbing and sins and it mostly generates from my family and friends. Please lord tell me will this pain every end. Can I ever walk with you and make Amen's? Cause only you can ever know where my soul really been. The devils getting closer and he is coming in the forms of many men. I hate to say it but I opened up the doors and let them in. They pass me the weed and beer to through off my concentration. Go to job interviews the next day say words but don't know the pronunciation. By DNA have a father but mentally there is no relation. It's sad to say it's darker by the day. It took two buildings to fall before the nation united and prayed. After the fact Mr. Bush send eighteen year old to Iraq to be living in their last days. These are my situations
Whispers in a cursing wind Anger in stormy skies Rain falling like mournful tears Fear in the heart Panic and torment in the mind. Peter Dome.Copyright.2012.
Days go past us, as do winds of season, But never the days and years That get stuck in some ear and age, That engulf us like mirages in a desert. One such mirage in my life is of my Dad, Always before me, waiting for me; Yet I never reach in time to be near; So near to me, yet so far away. Never did he forsake me, in life, Never for moment, never for a day; Always beside me in my hours of need — A dear friend, a true companion, a great dad. He suggested the best books to me, But never pushed them into my hands; A mere suggestion about the inputs — The next thing I know, I have my hands full. He sang tunes soothing, melodious, But never forced me to listen to any songs; A mere suggestion about the notes — My passion for music was born! His acquaintances, colleagues, all friends; Value of friends in life is priceless; A friend is a cool morning breeze, Surround life with friends, my list's endless. Never fear life's rollercoaster ride; No problem is without a solution: Life is too short to fret and fear; And so, I tried, yet fear engulfed me. He came back into my life in many forms, Beating death; guided me with many a face: As friends, notes of music, verses from books — He never left me and my life, my Dad.
After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again I'll See your face again I swear it No matter how far away they take you from me Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid Death is a Dream The Cross Will Be lighter Whisper the words so sacred, so somber After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone What Happened here must be true I must live this life without you Breaking the Silence She began to Weep The Epitaph ceasing to know We all must Return To Dust After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock Of argentine fears swallow the last soul Goodnight black rose of eternity Goodnight dearest gothic phantom Tonight The Earth consumes me **Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**
contrast between our lives not one soul survives contagious how they leer i am allowed no fear destroyed, my sanity dives
DIRTY DEEDS Do not hunt me I prithee Oh my dirty deed Can I ever be free? O! You are my fear as I flee When, can I ever be again brave? My sins call me to the grave A flint is as good my face My only regret started in a day Not even believe or religion could cure Can my hand ever be innocent and pure? My fear I will face to the brim Again I can have peace in dream
I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.
Oh how I wish to be weightless And I wouldn't have to be here The threat of ever falling down Would all but disappear My fingers wouldn't be slipping I'd float aimlessly through the air I would never have to worry About the trouble everywhere But alas its here I'm hanging As if i were a maiden dead It's slipping fast, I'm slipping- I'm hanging by a thread
The forest of grief: At night I can hear the pain filled screams coming from the forest of grief. Longing, despair, and terror seeps in from the thick tree line into my bedroom window. Their inhuman wails send chills down the nap of my neck rendering me unable to move. "What horrible events accrued inside this desolate place?" No vegetation, growth, or life exist. Only the suffering from distant pasts. Time itself seems to be halted by the walls of the dense forest that shelter its ghostly inhabitants. "Do they know death? Do they know of the life they once led or can they even hear their own horror filled cries? I do, I feel every heart breaking emotion as I lay in wait for dawn to break." There is no rest for them or me, the lonely women who tends the forest of grief.
you know its wrong but you do it to overpower the pain not strong enough to stay away from it you would die without it in its presence your heart knows no shame even if you try to win the fight your heart will overrule your mind Theres nothing you can do its chained to you you cant get free look what this drug did to you
My eyes Witness your departure My eyes Are dripping with hopelessness… My eyes start to blur… Melancholy put me under pressure… Is there a cure to my disease? You don't see The shards of hope that once brought us back together Just let me search for safety I'm strong enough to realize that I'm no longer The weakest prey out there… And I'm left in my solitude… Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks? I'm close to my demise…save me and take me home Nourish me…and be my beloved friend Will this friendship last forever? Hopefully it has no end Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other? Because of you…I feel the need to run I keep an eye on you – I worry that you'll hurt yourself again Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone I don't wanna be caught off guard again Because of you…EYE can't picture a solution for our vexing dilemma Because of you…eye can't focus on my long-term goal And I'm left in my solitude… Do you sense that I'm giving in to failure? And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear…I can't endure The hardships that you place upon me… Could you boost up my confidence to overcome My atrocious anxiety? I'm just waiting for some sun To keep me in good hands… To strengthen me with perseverance … I'm just waiting until His son Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us… His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – Vibrant with glee Your undying sympathy dawns upon us I'm overflowing with indescribable joy You're a candle in the night… We meet eye to eye… What a sight…what a precious sight
Always closing the window, cursing someone's shadow. Always alone,left with nothing to do. within these walls, I'm simply blue. It's a place where I remember my past. A smile that didn't last. It's where I can dream,write and sing. But He's the only one witnessing. within these walls I let everything out. My anger,my tears,my desires but can never let it out. and w/ a paper and a pen, writing it all down, the question of "How & when?" within these walls I hide my light. The beauty,the madness & the serenity,kept it here every night. what are my chances in this shallow world? who will awaken me in my own little world? Am I just in disguise outside these walls? should I chase m,y dreams & answer all His signs & calls? One day I know that within these walls will be shown. And I'll be prepared to share it to the world & let others be blown. But now is not the time,so I'm gonna stay here for awhile. let my songs,poems & time heal my next journey in a mile. because for now,within these walls is a secret & a mystery. But I swore to myself that someday when I step out,I'll be ready.
Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game
Firearm fatalities Look at what recent media reports state Awful, ironical, amusing at once Folks at the mercy of firearms in the STATES Which fights terror, left and right, with booming guns. Why not, at gun control laws, have a relook? In Oak Creek and elsewhere, what a toll it took Putting US civilian lives more at risk Than those in the war-torn Afghan and Iraq. 7th Aug 12
I look into your eyes and I fall into you. Wonder if I'm dreaming, is this really true? Pleasure at it's finest, you're my addiction. Perfection in its finest depiction. Constriction, you leave me without breath. Everything fades far out of existence, I go deaf. You're my drug, my one and only high. Impossible for me to ever say goodbye, But you left me like a thief in the night. And here I am now falling from the steepest of heights, Trying to figure out what went wrong as I descend. Did it mean anything or was it all just pretend? Life has dealt me a sobering blow. No longer are we the headliners of the show. Life has robbed me of my prestige and has left me to rot, Although time goes on and life gets better as I trot. But then I see your face and the pain hits instantly, Like a thousand bricks falling on top of me. Don't know if this pain will ever leave me, Relapse, forever a part of my destiny.
I see my breathe. Night has fell upon a frost. Gods' chill lye now on my shoulders. Alone yet not. Silence now before the icey rain. Surrender as my nervous teeth chatter. For the warmth of a home is all that is desired. My empty haven. But,I am filled with a heart that is full. Want nor wait. Arms now cover me like a blanket. Gust of wind has carried your unwaivered heart. Candles lit a way to find what is left. Merely an image of what once was. Break down into a sob. Remains frozen solid as climate has taken its' vengence. I suffer no more,weak body. Now only in spirit. Shall I rest.
Why me Why me dear god Why the hell me! I did all you asked I've even played the card Of a good girl, the one Everyone wanted me to be. Why can't you save me. I'm hurting immensely And no one care not even slightly. How could you allow me to fall So deep, so far into misery. I've grown to hate myself so much so I'm that demon within the angel That you see. I'm crying out for help And not once did you show me sympathy. Like everyone else you pretend to care My prayers are just words you refuse to here. You watched the tears ran down my cheeks And didn't send an angel to watch over me. I don't want to be part of this world anymore Just set me free…. Sleeping forever is where I are to be. 05/05/09
Too young to be so old,a child of five, Yet a man so old, a childhood gone. I hear his pain in his dreams at night. I feel his fear in the tears upon his cheeks, When he reaches for the love that isn,t there. I feel the emptiness in his embrace. He holds inside a pain so very deep, A fear so strong no one can reach. His eyes have seen,his body felt, More in life that many adults. How does he face the things that hide inside? Where does he turn when the tears come down? Left behind at a tender age to face the questions mommy made, When she chose to leave him behind and not to hold him tight. I have heard him say," If I had been better, Maybe she would have loved me and stayed," He watched her beaten,watched her cry. The choice she made was to pass him by. He bottles the pain so deep inside, Many a night I held him tight, When the darkness came and took his light. One day he will see just how much it hurts, When Poppa and I can't fix what hurts inside. As I look back and recall the tears that came, When to us the question came," Do we have to go back to her? There was nothing we could do ,but take them home We must hold the tears and pain inside. He was much too young to be so old.
Closed eyes. Deep breath. Count to ten. It's not the end. A change. For the best. I'm stronger. I never needed you I was just afraid. I let the fear of being alone, Hold me down.
i see a future of darkening days where children are treated as vermin to slay adults possessions are held paramount where only talk of money spill's from their mouth's. i feel a destiny of communities broke suspicion's are cast at the few kind words spoke people of power prefer things this way technology rises as intelligence fades. those few left willing to speak for the weak are told that their futures are futile and bleak. the only thing worse than this future i say is the fact that this future is really today. i hear the rumbling's of a gathering storm as the lightning strikes fear of a terrible new dawn stars in the sky are dull in their light for they feel the shame of watching earth's plight as we all watch it come furious and fast not one of us learning the lessons of past so shelter yourself in money and gold and hope that your god's will rekindle your souls the devil is stirring in each of our hands as we are the labour that works to his plans and the worst thing of all that causes dismay is the future i write of is really today but fear not my friends for all are not foe's suffering will fade as redemption comes close the devils and demons that laugh loud and sneer will turn on their heels and finally face fear children of suffrage will rise with the sun and learn nothing of pain for it shall finally be gone the dawn of free love will exude once again crash into the present like a white knighted ghost train and if anyone tell's you to live life how they say ask them who's future it is anyway
He wraps it around her arm In need for some repairs Tighter and tighter She likes it , like this Old woman ,a little sick Needing her medication Mummy Mummy (yells the little boy) Silence, child Mummy is broken down (in her silent voice) Give me some ice Stand by my side And open your eyes (in a roar) Walk by my side Cure my poison (in her yowl voice) As , she descends from this world Drops to the floor (bang , boom) (bang , boom) Poor little soul Little boy so scared Heart so sorrowful As , he speaks Mummy , mummy Wake , wake Mummy , mummy Wake Wake-up Give me back my ice Give me back my happy dust No more Tighter and tighter Mummy Mummy Why like this Without a chance to reminisce Reminisce my thoughts threw your sickness Mummy come and listen, to my screams For this ice has me, so confuse on life Confuse about you This sickness, I see in your eyes everyday As, I watch you fall on our kitchen floor Mummy wake Wake mummy, wake For I love you , I do
I still think the world of you, Just so you know. Spaces between my fingers, Where yours used to go. Your arms that held my waist, Are replaced with aching pains. I put myself in my cocoon, So time will heal my open wounds. But the scars still remain, A trauma that won't go away. Since we've been apart, I've been writing only the words of a broken heart. 3
Suffocated, strangled, I struggle. Drowning a hundred feet under sea, Wrapped in an abyss of darkness I hope to breathe. Drowning a hundred feet under sea, The swim toward the surface never seem to end, I hope to breathe, Gasping for air I desperately miss. The swim toward the surface never seem to end I could see the sky, almost feel its warmth, Gasping for air I desperately miss, I stretch out my hand as far as I can. I could see the sky, almost feel its warmth, Wrapped in an abyss of darkness, I stretch out my hand as far as I can, Suffocated,strangled, I struggle.
What makes this world go around? What makes Death walk the Earth and God sit on his throne and watch over us? What makes love go around with such favour and strut along side lonesome avenues? What does a widow, a motherless child, a Vietnam veteran and a boy who has had his fare share of heartbreaks, all have in common with each other? They were all promised a beautiful life, free for all to love, free from the pain of betrayal and anger. We are what make the world go around, I am the poet who sits and looks at love walk down the street, and watch the blind eyes stare deep in my soul. I am the poet, that feels the pain of a heart torn in two. He his the poet who writes of smiles, to forget the frowns and tears. She is the poetress that writes of her success, in order to forget her past that tortured her soul, now he and she walk together writing poetry sharing their love and smiles with the world. But with smiles, also comes frowns, with hearts full of love, comes hearts full of sorrow, and someone has to stay behind and write of the bad has to write and compose the songs of the sorrowed hearts. We are all given love, but it takes some whole lives to understand the dark mystery that tags along with beautiful love. Someone has to suffer the pain, someone has to sacrifice his or her happiness, so another poet can feel the beauty in happiness and pain. I am willing to sacrifice my time and heart, for my fellow poet to feel the smiles grow on their faces and feel love uplift their heart, while the black cancer tears apart mine. I will go on, with what is left of my heart and smile, and go into my room of creativity and compose the songs of sorrowed hearts for future poets, like that came before me.
Nothing gold can stay. Sometimes u find it slips away, Something close that u can touch, But in the end it was to much, Like a flood flowing through a city, Life is hard when u live in pity, Things may be good but turn bad, Sometimes it makes u really sad, Days and nights may go, Just have to live life nice and slow, Maybe somethings may not be right, Its never good to pick a fight, Sometimes u find it slips away, Nothing gold can stay.
I , i in a blue sea In the sea i am flying Sometimes on sky i am swimming Down on earth i am in dark In a cave i am searching for light In the noise i am searching for silence Then i go to forest Under a tree i find myself I look in my eyes , the eyes which are full of fear I look at my lips with a smile. I touch my face When i touch my face Suddenly i feel a hand on my shoulder When i turn around, its an other me standing infront of me When i see my eyes , in my eyes i see strength But in my hands i see blood When i see the blood Everything fade in black I am on sky with a white wolf staring at me In wolf's eyes i find myself I follow the wolf Everything fade in white I find myself in a room I am on my bed nothing around So calm it is I am too alone I thought it was a dream But when i look at my hands I find the blood In my dream i met the reality I met different faces of me.. The reality which i am hiding inside Hiding me, me as my soulmate...
~An Emptiness Inside~ Right now I'm sitting here Staring into space Feeling so all alone As tears begin to fill my eyes And I begin to cry My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside That here lately I just cannot hide If only you were here to hold me, I'd feel so protected... With you by my side My world feels so sad and blue Feeling as though I'm forever going to lose you Our love I thought was forever true? You told me just the other night That I was only a simple friend I then began to believe that our relationship Was only just pretend I've pleaded with you to help make This relationship of ours last Baby, I beg of you... Let's not dwell on the past I'm so sorry if I have hurt you But never forget my love for you Was always true Baby, I pray that I can Mend your broken heart But for now I will continue to look forward Day by day Pray continually... That we never, ever drift apart
Never spoken Always broken Secret tears A thousand fears Darkness creeps I will always weep Lights fading Are my dreams worth saving? Continuous silence Sadness and hate, no violence Whatever is right I will fight No more tears What are my fears? Your word don't hurt My thoughts convert Never spoken Always broken
Oh little pill that makes the death in me spring to life!! Oh how I love to taste your bitter love and wear the handcuffs you've gifted me with! Oh little pill that decides who I will be today!! Thank you so much little pill for all of your sweet numbness and Please,Please never walk away from me because without you my little pill---I would have to feel. Please little pill I don't want to feel....anything...ever again.
The nightmare is finally over haven't been this happy since I was a kid uneffected by the wicked ways of this sad cold world maybe that's the answer to the big question why my lips are still sealed to a beautiful bottle of jack I always drink my feelings away no matter good or bad it's all the same I'm starting to think that my nightmare isn't a nightmare at all it's just a bad disease this must be the first step in fighting this demon because my thrist might just end this short lived life of mine
I did not find myself to be so important So I ask my friends do I seem distant? When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings I do care, about my friends they are all good people They tend to stand on their high steeple Today I find myself not so aware Disbanding my fear of regret and care Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out For some reason I am just full of doubt I care about so many things and what I have is confusion One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone I ask my friends the same question once again I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end So many thoughts that come out of my feeling I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing They ask me questions and I answer theirs But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way It's just so simple to answer someones problem I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow
Here I am, restless in my bed again. Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind. Wondering if the sight of your face will ever light up my eyes again. I am afraid of losing you. Afraid that I will never touch you again. I miss the memories we made. How we made love everyday. How every word you tell me comforts even the deepest fears I have. I love you. And because I love you I will justify how devoted I am to you. Regardless of what happened, I will never give up on you. I will never quit on the promise my love made to you. Your love for me I could never repay, And someday you will see that we were meant to be together. We were meant to get married and have kids. We were meant to live our lives with nothing but love to fall back on. I love you. And because I love you, here I am. Restless in my bed again. Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind. Wondering how a perfect love can go wrong. But I will never give up because I am in love. I may falter, but I will never fail. I am too persistent to fail on you. You are my driving force, the reason I do my best. But without you, I am lost. I cannot go on. So I ask myself, Why am I here restless in my bed again. Wondering if I ever cross your busy mind. And today I swear this vow. I am not an angel but I am true. I will always love you.
Open your wrists Let the blood leak out In a crimson river of tears Allow it to fall Upon tile grounds Making the color unclear Open your mouth Let a scream slip out And echo against lonely walls Allow it to linger, To fill quiet airs Then back in your ears, let it crawl Open your mind Let it cluelessly wander With nothing clouded in your brain Allow it to focus On life or on death And if scars will forever remain Open your heart Let it never forgive Those who've caused wounds so deep down Allow it to rage Against misunderstanding, Let it yell the loudest silent sound Open your wrists Let the pain leak out In a crimson river of sorrow Allow it to fall Upon off-white grounds And remember there's always tomorrow
I try not to remember that night we shattered, Teddy was dismembered and trust scattered, One stormy September Innocence was battered. Mother became unhinged, Sometimes darkness just falls, She went on a frenzied binge, Smashed pictures on a wall, My baby sister cringed, then over shards we crawled. There are passages in this book Just too hard to read, When I take a closer look I see some pages bleed. Begged a weeping girl, Please, mommy, just leave one, Sucking a thumb, tugging a curl, Souvenirs of days in the sun... destroyed... then the mallet hurled and tiny feet had to run. In the thick haze of broken glass, I gathered love close to me, Under blankets, I held a small class, Taught our fear, told it stories as a monster walked fast the angry halls of insanity. There are passages in this book Just too hard to read, When I take a closer look I see some pages bleed. I left destruction, found abuse, Rage wears a thin disguise, Something was lost, somebody used, We learn to shield our telling eyes, Promises were given, each a ruse, Beware a man with bedroom lies. One day hands found my neck, When I said that I would leave, You're mine to keep, mine to break, Maybe, baby, I might grieve. I knew then I'd had all I could take, Squeeze, I said, 'cause nobody cracks me. Left with nothing but my name, Life deals blows; I've had my share, I write my words without blame but these bags are heavy and thread bare, I still pick up pieces, a losing game, Understand me, if you dare but... There are passages in this book Just too hard to read, When I take a closer look I see some pages bleed. Pages bleed They bleed I bleed. Take a closer look. *Dedicated to Debbie Guzzi, for being a friend, revealing her own painful memory and enabling me to release this. Every word is true. *Song written for Melissa Etheridge
Words have no more Meaning I find myself Deadlocked In an Ethiopian Night I Could go recklessly on But with what Hope? Will I Glide on? The Only thing I can find is woe only woe, only me, woe is me Voided since the start I'm contradictory in Armenia desert Mountains are more like rusty daggers pierced in my stomach; what else is there but pain? only pain, only me, pain is me
Teardrops of sorrow, stream down her face. As she thinks of tomorrow, and feels out of place. Lies and infidelity, clouding her thoughts. She knows they were weaknesses, she could have fought. As the one that she loved, slips slowly away. She lies to herself, saying she'll be okay. Living her life, cold day after day. She'll one day break down, and quietly pray. "Help me dear father, in heaven above. Help me be strong, and teach me to love. " "Show me my worth, and my light that's inside. Give me my courage, and rebuild my pride. " A hollow dark hole, sits in place of her heart. Cause her values and morals, have all fall'n apart. What once was a sweet, and innocent girl. Is now lost and lonely, consumed by this world. She'd sacrifice anything, just to fit in. Sacrifice everything, and give in to sin. Loved ones may forgive her, but they'll never forget. She's strayed far from her path, but they won't give up yet. Holding her hand, they'll help her get through. But it won't change the fact, that she was untrue. She damaged the heart, of a very good man. Did things that he, just can't understand. Now I have no doubt, she loved him to death. But love's just a word, mumbled under our breath. For actions have always, spoke louder than words. And hate is the sound, most commonly heard. If you don't like the feelings, expressed in these lines. Then cover your ears, and cover your eyes. For a bitter cold boy, wrote down this letter. But he wrote it to say, that he's doing better. Lying awake, in the mid of the night. He smiles and says, "I'm doing alright. " Floating away, on an ocean of memories. He piles up the sand, to block off his enemies. Moving along, he hopes she's okay. But he won't let the thoughts of her, get in his way. Lying awake, likely miles apart. They each fall asleep, with a hand on their heart. For life is a Story, often painful to tell. But sleep sweet tonight, for they're both doing well.
The impending night has fallen upon us It woke with much persistence Our hearts fled from its rage like a doe from a rifle But the blast had already been made. . . People fall like rain The clouds are crestfallen with grief And the darkness has no mercy Rain soaks...leaves an impact The falls are devastating... She was so strong, like a diamond she shined Only to burn away and be one with the grime I never saw her go But the angry darkness of her essence—strangely glows... He choked on his words, his memory Like a child swallowing a pill It is sticking in our throats Against our will And the dose ever grows. . . Who will stop the night? You wicked thing how achingly stormy you have become! Rich in your light as it smothers you whole Leaving the rest to the droll sound of its toll She burned As they watched in angry happiness The smoke of her spirits filling our hearts No expressions...heavy depressions He was left to melt and rebuild His wick ignites—burns are second nature Though images are hard to swallow She still talks to our souls Her story still to be told Like diamonds never found A flame of hope hovers We remain instilled in the rot The darkness smothers Its heavy slumber always waking
Silence Tears fell upon broken glass A door that once stood tall is in shambles The fear of spoken word is strong A hand trembling too much to write A haunting love deviates from its course And all that remains is the silence The silence of a broken heart The words spoken in anger echo Resounding in the hollow of my soul As good as a celibate is to continuing life My best efforts to climb the vine were in vein For now I see that I have fallen again Like a lost flower trying to push through concrete My efforts were damned from the start When a spoken word is like a dagger It's better to remain silent and say not a word For the words could form the paragraph of my demise Spoken with the eloquence of drunken rage Thus I thrust myself behind walls to hide myself Because to cry and bear weakness before others Is to give them the dagger of spoken word My tears have fallen on shards of glass The walls are cracked and threatening to fall But I'm so afraid to leave myself naked Before demons who would use it against me And strike me at my frailest moments That I turn to this silence The silence of a broken heart
I feel this pain, That I can not tame. I feel the emptiness, That makes my life treasuries. I did no wrong, But I still cut long. I have the sorrows, That no one borrows. Seeing it slip away, Making my heart decay. As it's devoured, My heart sets on trial. You made me who I am, The strong being fan. But as it slips beyond, Where you can't go very long; I sit and let my life betray, Wishing I could save it for another day. Why do I ruin it all, When my love finally grows tall? We were meant to be, But our love got hung in a tree. I can't help but say goodbye, And sometimes; I don't know why. 3
"My Big Brother" up and down the street He could be anyone you meet Spying on you from the street Looking in from every beat "My Big Brother" isn't that sweet "My Big Brother" and I don't know why Casting in from above the sky "My Big Brother" the commie spy Listening in do or die Bringing his book in Taught within My Big Brother, 1-800-LET-US IN Caught with paper and a pen All because, "My Big Brother" let himself in
Its a sad time for me. Covered from head to toe in insecurities. All I do is try and cover for my mistakes. My misjudgments. My displacement... But what about those times of joy? Gone within a blink of an eye. It seems that my world would be one of pity. but no its not pity more like a self hatred that runs deep. It covers my heart with hard lace and frosted glass. Covering me in something for show. I used to glow. Like a bright light. That was also just for show. A lie filled to the brink. dishonest and out of synch. Thats my story for now. Im just a show and a sad story. A sad time.
Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty
It was overwhelming, it was lovely It was my definition of forever, it was empowering I spread it into the sea Into space, time, and everything in between or beyond I spread it into their souls I spread it throughout the forgotten dimensions Betrayal, a curve ball Unexpectedly knocking me from this universe I floated, away from everything i had seen I was spread, beyond the city I was spread, further from the seas Closer to the bottom The light became dim The light became an illusion The truth had been unfolded beneath Like a trench, eager to sub duct innocence of loyalty For I had traveled so far... The spark, what is now a burden What now burns For once, it lit the way It guided the way that the mind created The illusion we were eager to find Now all that is left And of course, Only the foolish search for the spark
Babies of Beslan............ The darkest day in history, Brought tears to my eyes. Many Russians murdered, In a mass of horrid cries. Hundreds of innocent people, Seen fleeing through the streets. Bodies thrown onto the verge, In a sea of blood-stained sheets. So many kept within a school, Being held against their will. Suicide bombers with booby traps, That care not who they kill. An act by Chechen rebels, Seeking freedom for their kin. With scenes of utter carnage, From those terrorists within. Semi-naked children, Seen running through the street. The Chechen rebels in the school, Shooting at their feet. Bombs and bullets filled the air, As the smoke engulfed the skies. People running from the school, With terror stricken eyes. Such barbaric bloody actions, Brought death and undue pain. The heart of the Beslan community, Won't see their like again. May the Lord our God watch over you, May he guide you by his light. May he hold you in his arms again, And keep you safe tonight........... In memory of the children and teachers of the Beslan school massacre.
When will I learn to anticipate Love's keen and painful sting? Penetrating deep within my chest and spreading it's poisen. High, ever so high, only to fall again and to seize in agony. Oh, Love, why do you trick me with a veil as deceitful as infatuation? How you held me close, and embraced me with your affection, Only to push me away and shatter my heart again. I cannot pick up my pieces, for the shards are many in number, They litter the foor around me as I sink to my knees, Staining my legs with glittering, ruby glass. I crouch over the jagged diamonds, And wish my tears to mend my glass heart back togther. I'm the Cinderella without a glass slipper. Instead of fleeing the Prince for fear of midnights final tone, I fell from his gaze.. and fell under my drowning tears. Can he see his Princess cannot surface the waves of her fear and depression?
words can hurt words can heal no words can speak the pain you feel just a child I watched you die forever haunted by your cry no mercy no justice for this life so bleak no mercy no justice for you could not speak I watched the life drain out of you just a child what could I do? I watched you bleed I saw the tears but humans think naught of your fears my arms around you I held you tight the pain will stop it will be allright they pulled you from your mama on that sunny day laughing at your screams just as I came ot to play the knife was sharp but he did not cut deep they left you to bleed and us both to weep a tear streamed down your frightened face this memory I cannot erase for a moment I wished I could take your place I kept my arms around you until your heart stopped beating later I felt sick as I watched the monsters eating
Today, A Phantom. Heavy it lays upon my heart, that today is a morrows past, what there is now, an end --a start, heavy it lays upon my heart, tragic masks when do break apart, do bleak, so gloomy shadows cast; heavy it lays upon my heart, that today is a morrows past. R.N.Khan, © 2012
When you can longer run away from yourself When you thought there were no more tears to cry When you just want to die Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies So many years, so many days Waking up to people who no longer care you're there You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality Wasted with living; the slowest way to die The shadows of shame weigh you down Until you drown, filled with only their hate All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades The agony is all you know, thank you pain A self-sadist Is all you have become, j ust how they showed you, craving so much more Just to hide up all of the misery But under cloth it still bleeds This is the Escapist's Plea For the one who fall to their knees in misery Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see Stigmatized by their sadistic need Only if I could just fly away ...Fly Away
Up to October's end life was peaceful and delightful; I enjoyed the strolls and chats, going to baseball games, seeing crowds cheer at CitiField and I zealously wrote about many human experiences. Disaster as predicted, was in store for two thousand twelve: Italy was shaken by earthquakes, drought and floods in the USA, then Sandy came with fury wreaking havoc and destroying everything in its path. Thankful and blessed for not having lost anything, greatly rejoiced for being alive, but moved by the tears of others whose homes were slammed by the storm on the eastern coast... who doesn't sympathize with their loss? Obama has been re-elected, will he bring those changes he promised in the first term? Iran has fired at an American Warfare and vows to exterminate Israel; Syria is in turmoil and Greece is facing unemployment and unrest. An unimaginable fear awaits us all: is it another World War, or Armageddon?
The night, she consumes me, leaving nothing left, I am not returning home tonight, I am being kept, surely not against my will, it's wonderful out here, she speaks in a tone: soft, direct, sincere. You exhumed me, and tied me to a post, the things we love will hurt us the most, still you are my drug, showing me things I fail to see, but like any drug, you will be the death of me. Rage runs through me, I deem you my everything, from the stroke of my pen, to the songs I sing, from the words I write, to the reason I breathe, you are an anchor for my sanity... Pain subdues me, leaving me helpless inside, I'm aware of what it takes to swallow my pride, so here I am, against this post with arms tied, you bought the ticket, either Burn It, Or Take The Ride.
Within seconds, life and death collide Within a blink of an eye, your last moments To hope, to trust, and to surety you are tide Your heart falls to its knees, and begins to pray to a God it so desperately needs You begin to lose ground…. Your very last breath …as you exhale and inhale is soo profound For it marks your very being All your sense are directed inward With sudden fear your heart is well cornered And a shrieking silence begins to sound, like thunderous cries Your mind begins to play tricks, to you, it tells false wishing lies Do not give up, to move head on…it whispers! it lies! With that last breath. As you exhale and inhale you still exist What was once real When life was once clear All of that banishes Even the hoping! The longing! For a nobler tomorrow vanishes Leaving all your nerves fried Leaving your soul dried Your very gist slowly but surely have died Numbness begins to creep in Like a devil when he whispers a sin Like a drum roll leading to a scene's climax Like when your heart drops to your feet When all stops…silence engulfs, Shhhh!!! Can you hear it? The wait begins to take a heavy toll on your nerves, for the moment that you have for soo long anticipated The very instance… The moment when life and death collide The very last moment, When to hope, to trust and to surety your soul is tied It all of a sudden unfolds, leaving that body of yours dead and cold A chapter finally ends A heart is finally set at rest I say my goodbyes And wish only to see you in the afterlife
It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation
Thin Line You hate me when i am around you you hate me when i am away if hating thrives you everyday i am your energy and your medicine at your need when you gossip for your play. Poetry 5/18/12 by Keith Kadell
Interchangable memories on an old dusty shelf abandoned and lost in a mirage of my former self Listliss and dull in spirit, cold blooded at heart pondering the ways in which I fall apart Take myself at face-value, or look deep within Degraded myself in rythm with all of my sin This plight I find hopless, this plot I find flawed Is the shadow of death for me to be called Whether I bleed, of even just if I try It's in my opinion, it's better I die Do you think evanescence is truly so bliss If spoken by the serpant, so cold with a hiss Take my misfortune, call me a mistake And leave me alone, if not for pity's sake I may fear that I'm falling, or maybe failing you see The only thing I know, is what I hate most is me.
Enjoy every moment in your life You'll never know how long it lasts Show your commitment to others, your concern It may be too late if you wait one more day Let people feel happy one more time Tomorrow may bring sorrow'n'pain You cannot lock anyone in the box Even birds do not survive when closed You need to give freedom and space No matter if it brings life or death People turn into dust and disappear To be forgotten is their only fear The ancient secret of immortality Is to live forever in people's memory
Once again silence envelopes me, like a thick blanket choking me, thrashing and panicking I wish to escape and wonder why you have left me like this? Why you have left me with such emptiness, such silence, digging into me, ripping me apart… "Please, do not abandon me…" I wish to say, to plead…to beg, but no words escape me for I can no longer breathe. All I did was listen, that's all I've ever done, and then…you're gone and I feel so alone…so alone. Lost in a never ending darkness, floating aimlessly and I cannot find my way. All I did was listen, all I've ever done was listen, I was only ever by your side. Was that not enough? Did you want more? What more can I give? Please, tell me why must you hide, why must the silence over take us-me? Why must I be left on the sidelines…why must I be forgotten…? When you speak with others, can you not speak with me as you speak with them? Do you feel shamed when spending time with me? Must our friendship be hidden? I do not understand… I wish to, I wish so much to understand you but I cannot. I cannot see when my only light is gone. They are the only ones for you, they are your friends…I am the forgotten one. Abandoned; left behind, in silence, darkness, and sorrow. They are the ones for you, they are the ones you love, they are the ones you praise and honour…What am I? what am I? Why do I surround myself around you, why do I care so much, when you obviously care so little? Do you even care at all? Am I just someone to fill the space, am I just someone to pass the time with until you can be with your real friends, once again leaving me on my own… In glowing light you saturate them in words of precious gold, honors adorned by you electing them to be your true friends. Telling me that you adore them, love them, so; that they listen quite often to what you say, that you can tell them anything without fear of them judging you and all the while I listen to such high praise. As you bestow upon them the highest honor one can receive from you-the gift of true friends- I listen as you continuously adorn them with riches of words… What am I to you? WHO am I to you? Will you ever say, will I ever know? Is there anything to say, anything to know? Or shall I always be left in the dark silence?
Heartbreak hotel There's a little place I know Where heartbreak people go You can stay there for just thirty bucks a day There people down on luck They be treated like they're muck It's not the place where winners choose to stay. The man who runs this place Ain't no smile upon his face He's just out to make a lot of money And the guys that work for him Their faces all set grim They make sure that this lodge don't seem too sunny They kick folk all around Tread their faces in the ground They have no pity in their hearts so cold The head man he's like Hitler His manner very bitter He has no guts, and yet he acts so bold If you're ever down on luck And you're very short on bucks Avoid this place its owner calls a lodge You'd best sleep on the streets Laid out on those wooden seats But this heartbreak hotel it's best to dodge.
As I sit here thinking this couldn't be true, he hits me yet again.... I fear for my life and for my unborn child. I see the anger building up slowly inside. I can't cry for he will beat me harder if he sees the tears, so as I sit here getting hit over and over again falling are the silent tears amongst him. I think of the life that I had before I went back to the Thug Life. Where Blood's were the big issue and everyone turned their head as they heard the verbal abuse that he puts me through. Control is his goal and he had just that. Stripping me of my dignity and humility. God please let this all be a bad dream. I am just barely pregnant by him and yet the way he hits me is like he don't care. Embarrassing me when his homies come around, making me walk around in just a top as if I am just some trophy to place upon his wall. So scared to write, so scared to tell, so the silent tears fall amongst him yet unknown to him so that I don't get hit yet again. The simple thought of I must escape crosses through my mind and as I leave I continue to hold my rosary in my hand praying to God that if he just lets me get away, then I promise to do right and raise this baby through him.... Yet as I still think back in fear the Silent tears fall amongst him as they shall continue to do until I can break free of the fear.
fallin into dark disper, screaming and crying why dosent anyone care, she can feel the knife running deep in her arms, drops of warm blood soon to become bruises and scares, she has crys everynight by feeling so alone, while her mom drinks it up she is home alone, Shes had it she done ! she has no hope not even none..she opens the door and runs out the house, whereing nothing only her shorts and a easly see threw blouse, she heads to the store grabbing tons of pills, then running past her house jugging up a step looking hill.. shes knows what she has to do, she grabs a handful of pills and swollows them in her mouth, her eyes start geting blury trying take one more glance upon her house, She falls to the ground no more weeping no more sorrow, thats it its final its finally over now---Larissa Summitt
Today, it just doesn't seem fair That we are still able to breathe. They have given us their air- Our duty to lead the life they leave.
I'm 16 years old I've been told I'm bold I have a thug boyfriend that likes to do drugs I found out that I'm pregnant I don't know what to do I have to drop out of school that's not cool I was going to be a CNA one day I guess I have to live off of public aid I thought about being a maid but I have to have to graduate for heavens sake I guess I just pray Maybe I'll get that chance one day I'm 30 years old I work as a cleaner. My dream is to be a singer I'm afraid that people are going to laugh at me and give me the finger I'm afraid that people are going to say boo than I'm going to go woo woo I'm afraid that I won't sing that good than people would say go back to your neighborhood Maybe one day I have the courage to do it but I don't think I could do it I'm 40 years old and I'm homeless no one is going to hire me for work I've been out of work for 6 years with no address that's a lot of stress Managers want to hire the best not someone who doesn't have an address I wish someone would help me but everyone wants to hit me with a belt when I ask for money Maybe one day I'll be bless I guess No matter what obstacles you go through in life you have to fight Remember you can make a new start with God you have to receive to believe who agrees Like Michael Jackson said you have to make that change
I was paralyzed in thought, and standing all alone; Surrounded by darkness, everything was gone... With barely a glimpse, from the corner of my eye; I was travelling so fast as I passed myself by. I was moving at high speed, as if, somehow out of time. Thinking to myself, looking back into the distance; Could I have been resting, or was there something on my mind; Maybe, I was just Reflecting, on some Moments from past times... A Momentary Reflection, I thought as I laughed; Reflections of mistakes, so many in my past; Or maybe the future, and thoughts of my death. There's no point in thinking that anything can change; I passed myself there and found myself here; Crossroads unmarked, destination unphased, Trembling, like a lost dog, covered in mange... A strength unfound, a desire to disappear; A Momentary Reflection, of how I found my way here. As I watch myself in quiet, with no desire to stop; In slow motion I fall, from a single gunshot... A Momentary Reflection, of where I stood at the start; Maybe if I had slowed, or come to a stop, this Moment I have witnessed, the confusion and doubt; Just maybe, somehow; I could have found a way out...
I am scared of the scars Im fed I am scared my heads being mislead. I Fear a life of Dread I fear I may already be dead.
Is it you ? is it me? Stuck in a world of a fantasy Heart beats, unceasingly Is this what they call ecstasy? Some say "the heart wants ,what the heart wants" Yet the fire is oh! So enticing! Tranquilizing! I adore it! I fear it! Chancy foot stands transfixed in front The petrified foot it taunts As it takes one step back, Chancy stands there and laughs Torn between the two…my heart weeps What path to take? My heart! Guidance it seeks The fear of falling Holds me back The want for love Pushes me back The shackles of scary bounds me tight Chancy is there, never to give up with out a fight Arising a hurricane is what they doo My poor feeble heart, knows not what to do The heart is pure. It seeks it strives to find who proves to be true The ultimate winner..is still unknown For here my heart still stand in the sea of unknown Cupid I beg you do guide me And dare not strike me and leave me With your arrows of blind love Guidance is what I need Give me that and I shall heed Leave me not in the dark of misery Leave me not in the sea of mystery But guide me to that ever shinning light Scary or chancy With what do I side? Shall forever remain a secrecy…. ~M.M.M
Played out by 'My way' Presley not Sinatra, the funeral procession of my estranged father, I can't say I was sad that my father had died, but the relief when let loose all those fears I'd hide, he did some stuff which I like think he felt shame, he played with my childhood like some hand in a game, simple as that, did it matter or not? that depended entirely on the amount in the pot! So now I can tell you all I was too scared to say, how you made me fearful every minute of each day, belittled by every word that you spoke, damaged maybe, but not totally broke, thrown on the streets as a child of five, no coping skills of how to survive, took in by the police frightend and weak, terrified to answer, afraid to speak, returned to my Father as a runaway brat, as soon as they left I came under attack, my one only friend by whom I was honestly loved was taken from me by your hand in black gloves, Bonnie my dog was so golden and bright, why drown her in the bath under the darkness of night? Not done with your evil you were so damn depraved, you then made me bury her in a shallow grave, whilst with friends your an angel well known, end of the evening the devil came home, and the beatings so violent likes a child should not know, and I'd pray every night that you would just go, why did you hate me? what was my crime, to be the object of hatred time after time, well your gone now and buried and your not living in me, I cast you out - Daddy I'm free!
I want to experience freedom like I have no masters to experience life like time doesn't exist to live humbly and die gracefully to accept who I am and be proud to never cry out loud
This could change my life. He knows all i want is to be his wife. I'm so ready to be gone, I'm so sick of feeling alone Should i stay or should i go? I ask my best friend and she says "hell no" Its not like I'll be gone forever Only one more year and we'll be back together. Its a fresh new start, With someone i love with my whole heart. So many thoughts in my head as i lay on this cold stiff bed. I just want to be in your arms, Just so scared of who this all harms. My hand shakes as i write about this decision, Like a new doctor making his first incision. In my heart its a 100% yes But in my head I'm thinking 'is this the best?' All the thoughts of this goin right Out wieghs the thoughts saying 'this isnt so bright' Finally out of the madness No more having so much stress. No more screaming in my face Finally ill be in the right place Just hoping they accept me into their home Because God knows i cant do this alone. This isnt a maybe are you ready baby?
(just a poem, don't be worried about my well-being :p) Beautiful architecture form the walls of home Wide-open spaces for my loyal dogs to roam Sapphire blues and ruby reds line the borders of my garden Freshly polished Corvette in the driveway is truly a vision My children sleep through the night until morning Safe, tucked in, dreaming of bright futures to come Faithful slumbering wife who won't leave without warning A man should be happy with all this, but I am numb Depression trumps my emotions like a savage tyrant As though happiness and joy have become absent Not even the wonders of an autumn walk through the forest Inspires me to try to live until next August I'm a selfish man when it comes to life and death It's my life to live and my life to take My finger gently lowers onto the trigger as I take a breath Nausea and dizziness take over as I suddenly awake My wife asks if I'm ok as the sweat drips down my face Utterly speechless, she takes my hand in embrace I explain the nightmare and how it's not so much an illusion We agree to seek help to avoid the once inevitable conclusion
On the empty floors I am watching the nights roll flowing in other nights. Nature's mirror has come to give birth and to destroy the typhoons are embracing me, an unstoppable power in my two arms. Between logic and the holy the notions are lost I am turning blue inside the sky's blue. And I return again and again to repay the same sin upon which my own blood has dropped and with blood I try for centuries to pay. My form is drawing circles -what is your name?-my name is Human. Can this mortality embrace the darkness? Can my bare hands hold within them the air? I was born for the renaissance of colours, I threw green and yellow at the edge of the horizon, I painted red the lost dreams of history and I placed white on all the spots of the sky. I was born to destroy and I dig pits everyday, I bury inside them living truths and I cover them with shovel and water. Be quiet! The seasons are sleeping... With small knives I carve the corners of the world until I find the bone to puncture it, deeper and deeper. Our fears are breaks of the Universe they are transfered from planet to planet, they change orbit, while cleaving the clouds. ''Learn how to walk, learn how to talk, learn how to kiss, learn how to leave, learn how to love, learn how to kill"... Hollow bodies at the mountains top are burning with the flames of redemption. They carry the same rock everyday, everynight until they reach the end, the end that doesn't exist. They fill the glasses with water, the glasses that dont have bottom. Don't ask me to change the world, you only gave me soil but you have forgotten the water and with hands dry and dirty I collect time to repay you for your graces, because there is light and there is darkness, because I stop in front of red and I walk in front of green. But you don't know, you don't, that I find strenght everyday, since I opened my eyes, I am preparing in silence and I am clentcing my teeth because the time will come, when I will throw a big punch at this carton world, I will tear it up in half and I will see what lies behind, behind the lie. Shaken off from my dirty morality I will touch the sacred redemption I will wake up from the dream, I will embrace at last, for the first time, reality.
Christmas,Boxing Day and Newyears Eve All these stabbings hard to believe. Things are getting out of hand, people stabbing for no real reason at the so called Holiday Season. It is hard to take in as these tragic events unfold, it actually makes your blood run cold when you are told the news. I thought it was a time for good cheer and laughter at Christmas and newyear not all this killing and stabbing, people walk the streets full of dread and fear, and the message is crystal clear that thugs on drugs are getting very near. Life has changed but not really for the good although people wish it would and still could. Why all thes stabbings,killings, shootings what do they achieve apart from the much heart-ach, pain and eternal grief with no sense of relief. Lets face it the world is in a terrible mess, it seems beyond repair, I wonder how life will fair for the ones who don't care. Think before you act and inturn it could have a big impact. How we treat others, and how people react so let us make this a matter of fact, help change the world for the better. We need hope in order to cope with lifes tragedies and grief, as the world is a dark place despite the fast pace, but a hope can give much comfort and is our release and that is something precious to us that will not cease.
Who are and who is my friends or acquaintances, confusing everyday but today I have found my self to walk a path that is not so rough I became so blinded to have friends that it pains me anyway They take a simple kindness and think that I am not tough so by deliberately challenging me to act like nothing happens I grow bold Wake up you! and all the rest, I have something to say I don't like this feeling of regret or sorrow so please do not take me cold as a friend you should know to not take advantage of my kindness in away A storm is blowing inside my soul burning a hole in it so lightning is striking in methods unknown for in the distance thunder you hear Some of the greatest warriors fall with great weapons of bow antics that slaughters such feebleness as cowardices use an unseen spear To let one know that your feelings are clear do not hesitate to do so shows fear and that is one thing that can determine your choice With kindness in your corner you should easily win and that will be great! In the end you can hold up a drink with friends and smile and rejoice
I listen, and I'll always listen because I will do anything for you, I would die to keep you safe and alive. I would do whatever to make you feel better. And so, I listen as you talk about them, these amazing friends of yours…Only some I have met. How lucky they are to have such devotion, how lucky they are to not feel the sting of betrayal and abandonment; thrust upon their spine crippling them to a state of fear, anger, and distrust. How lucky they are to have you, how lucky I am to have you. Do you understand, do you see just how much I love you? Soul such as yours deserves only the best; perhaps that is where I fault, I bring upon you sadness and pain, until all you do is go silent hiding behind solid doors. Composing words of sorrow, and they stab me like a sword in the gut…Closed off, shut away from you-I cannot function like this. I lose my way, I lose everything, I cannot be kept away, please open up to me… 'DO NOT SHUT ME OUT' I cry…I don't want to lose you, yet I feel as though I already have; I feel as if I never really had you all along-not truly. That everything I believed, everything I have come to know is fake. An act, a show you put on until you can no longer pretend to care anymore so when the opportunity comes along you go silent and drop me. I am left forgotten, wondering what happened…Seconds, minutes, hours go by and nothing. I lose control, I panic and my bleeding heart reacts. Maybe you did not mean it though, but maybe you did…I don't know and I'm not sure I ever really will know and my mind spins like a top…I don't know what to do, or say…or think. Do you even care? Did you ever care, or did you just pretend so you did not have to face me? If you were given the opportunity would you forget who I am, would you abandon me in the unforgiving tide, left alone to fight against the waves, until all I have given you-all the memories flood me until I drown, going down to the pit of nothing…? The pit of lies that you made, would it be easy to turn you back on me, leave me to fight alone this losing battle until you are no longer burdened by me…? And when I am gone, will you finally feel free?
I am coming home late once again. It's freezing outside, and I want to see my dad whome I love. I'm happy with my friends until I walk through the door with them, the worst mistake I could ever make. Dad was okay but then his treacherous girlfriend who calls herself a "woman of God" says "You're just going to let her get away with coming home late with her friends?!" Dad shrugs his shoulders. "You're not raising her right. I'm leaving." Then Dad gets furious, but only with me. He storms through the kitchen at me, angry, arms flailing. I didn't know that his next words would change my life forever. "You made me lose my house and my girlfriend. I want nothing to do with you, you're not my daughter anymore. I don't love you. I want you out tonight." I lose all control- bursting into tears, running to the bathroom. As I collapse on my knees I cannot control the tears, I cannot breathe. My breath comes in between long sobs. My chest hurts. It hurts so badly, the love I've lost. My aunt's arms are wrapped around me, but it doesn't help. -Caroline Youngless
You've lived a nice life with little you have to fear. Those few moments you felt a twinge of fear, you had the good luck, or the good sense, to retreat, and you breathed a deep sigh of relief, and maybe, for a good moment, you reflected, on your good fortune not to be born among those or, of those, for whom fear is always a good part of life. But, for you, the fear soon passed and you always took advantage of your advantage, and only gave a passing thought to those, who at any moment might be denied justice, or found one day mutilated and raped in a hotel room, or dragged to death down a country road, or left pistol whipped to death and hung from a Wyoming fence. You see little connection between these things and your nice life and the little you have to fear.
Blistering blaze take what you will. Inferno escape,smoke sets thick in my lungs. I sacrifice myself approaching deaths' door. The sound of a child makes blood turn cold. Fear penetrates flesh,yet body still moves. Endangered no more sweet youth. Cry happy tears of love. Heats' revenge shaped a new life. Now forever in your memory I remain. ''Last Chance Poetry Contest'' sponsored by....Kristen Bruni written by...Kacey Greenlee kaceymike29
Who cares? Whom fares this sea? See, hear the tongues lashing. Forces clashing in every mind: love blind
Looking in the glass, I see the scars, I see the tears fall, from her tired eyes. I smile, Then watch her force a smile, Back at me. The hurt within her, Barely hiding. She smiles, She tried to make you believe, That she's okay. She's okay with it all. The emptiness, No longer haunts her in her sleep. I see the tiredness under her eyes. She gets angry, Turns away, Turns back with a raised fist. Tears streaming from her eyes. Then, A smash, A crash, Shattered glass. Finally, I walk way, From the broken Mirror.
Everything around this feels so wrong, Feeling as if this does not belong, Feeling trapped inside a world that isn't for this, Retreating within to the recesses of this mind full of bliss, This feels like screaming but to let it out would not do, The people would hear this and wonder to what is wrong with you, Then to shield this so no one would understand, Wandering the depths of mind of this barren empty land, Alone and confined in and of this cold crystal heart, How can this ever hope to help others when this is crumbling apart?
[echoes from a dark past] When I was born Nobody came into the world. When I looked into the mirror Nobody looked back. When I was ten Nobody played with me. When I left at fifteen Nobody said goobye. When I came home hurt Nobody said hello. When I looked in the mirror Nobody looked back. When I was 23 I saw a man and a woman. Who was she, so strong to make Nobody stay away. When I was 24 I saw a child and Nobody stayed away. When I was 29 another child and Nobody stayed away. When I was 40 1 child was wed and Nobody stayed away. When I was 50 I saw just the two and Nobody far away. When I was 56 I saw the woman alone and Nobody by her side. Now I look in the mirror and Nobody is there. When I am gone Nobody will say I ever existed, save the woman. Nobody was there at the beginning. Nobody was there at the end. Nobody is her companion now. Just as if I had never been. Stupidity was the game I played, sadness my reward. Nobody won all the games in my life. Nobody has won again. © Dave Timperley 2011
Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Who knows not what good to do You forget your manners Respectful to none but those with a gun And thus having broken all the rules Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Who in spite of a good mother's love Shows no kindness, sympathy, nor compassion You follow not the Golden Rule she taught But seek only ill-gotten crimes of passion Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Thy callused heart strings untuned What innocence is left with in your breast What values have you for those that adored you Having their hope replaced by your dope Is this the life you envisioned Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Your once good name now vulgar Your pants hang low so your butt can show And you believe it's sexy Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Death and violence amidst your comrades Will bring about your destruction Thy family of gang which kill, cheat, and steal You lay still in a red pool of clay as they mock you Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Stand before thy creator For your life for right you tossed for the left Only now do you weep for the Savior
Why does one join a poetry site? Why does one join a poetry site? I'll tell you why I did I've been writing songs for forty years But always kept them hid But then one day a thought occurred Why not be proud of me? These words that come, they're mine alone They're my totality. They be the sum of all my life Oh what a lovely story! I write of all my troubled times I write of all my glory I send all my emotions out All my feelings on my life I'll speak of life and family And all our worldly strife Then I look at all the views that come And I know I'm doing well That folk they show an interest And some are in the spell Of all those whims that come to me And fill this clear white sheet Knowing I've reached out to folk Makes my life more complete. 27 July 2013 @ 1500hrs.
I am afraid of what my eyes show me They show me violence instead of peace But true love is what i wish to see They trick me They deceive me In relationships they blind me They make my heart stone Because of them, to me real love is unknown I try not to love what my eyes see Because later i realize it's not what it use to be I try to follow my heart and what it feels But these deceiving eyes store feelings using a tight seal Tomorrow will be longer, but my heart will grow stronger And it'll someday be free, but until that day I am afraid of what my eyes show me
Subsiding, Is that moment of rational deception; Regaining, Is the desire, that is of my perception; Releasing, Of my soul, to the evil I aspire… Touched, Once again, By A Prickling Feeling Within
He's lost and confused and hides behind his smile He's afraid and sorry, has felt like this for a while The pain he feels is because he never got to say goodbye She's gone and wont be back, he wonders why what's supposed to be the best day of his life is now his worst No one understands why he runs from it, he tries not to burst Most can't see but a few can tell He used to feel on top of the world and within a few seconds he fell it came and went so fast, it's just a blur he can't let go, spends his days missing her He's trapped in his head, can't find his way out a couple people know what it's about He doesn't and will never understand, to him its a curse day after day, the pain gets worse he holds his head up high deep inside he's so frustrated, tries not to cry all i can do is be the best niece that i can be and stand in the sidelines and wait for the day when my uncle breaks down and really needs me
Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life
October 03, 2012 ---------------------- Settle around me this silence For it is all I know, all I'll ever know Do you know when I feel low? When my depression drags me to the depths of below I do not think you do, for you are never around When I crash, far beneath the ground and I'm screaming, can't you hear me!? Where are you, where have you gone? Can you save me? Why am I so alone, when I want your comfort, When I NEED your comfort So close to me, I can see you Yet so far, you do not see me, do you? Close these bleeding wounds of mine Hurry before I fall away and die But the silence, the loneliness just thickens I need your help, but you do not come I need you, I need you Savior where are you? why am I so trapped, so fallen, so lost? What is the price, what is the cost? For me to be taken from the void of silence Can I ever be saved? Or is it too late for me Will I ever be free? Where are you my friend? Why do you not come to aid me? You said i could trust in you, rely on you But you are not here...YOU! You are gone again! ...Why? Why have you ignored me...? Why have you left me with this empty silence With nothing, no hope, no faith to hold onto Where have you gone my friend Why have you left me behind? Was I easy to forget in the end?
As I lay with you for hours I watch you slip away I tried my hardest to keep you with me and I failed, but I will always have the memories that changed my life forever. You are gone now to a better place, I have to move on. i will miss u. MY STRONG ONE. MY LUNA.
No form, no organization, no verse. A crescendo followed by silence and screams. A wooden home locked inside of a concrete tome, With a world collapsing while we keep relapsing And again the past resurges; what we bury tends not to stay that way, After all, the piper must have his pay. A dark closet and we've seen fit to rot in it The Devil in the details told me to be his advocate. And El Dorado's gone because a city of gold just wasn't sustainable But if it's attainable then you're damn right it's going to be painful. And death isn't an option for those of us who feel compelled to keep walkin' On the sand-- or is it ash? It doesn't really make a difference while they slash Their prices by depriving kids of rice and pin open their eyelids For their twenty hour shifts 'till they try to plummet themselves off of Concrete cliffs. And Macondo is Columbia, unless it's in the Gulf of Mexico, but you already knew that, Mr. Critic. But what are you going to do with it? Frankenstein was the man, not the monster The confusion first came when our blame ceased to reclaim An association between dissociation and our relation To whatever the truth may have been 'Cuz it certainly isn't the truth anymore. Blank pages in our textbooks and you ask me to memorize it Regurgitate it and tell you what you want to hear-- My foods teacher says no eating in her class And sees fit to harass her students with her utter lack Of discernible knowledge while we cook some Kraft Mac and Cheese. But who can blame her with the pay she's getting? No Telemachus on the television—Nor do we see Stephen Not while the Situation is breathin', cuz that's what's loved by the station. Where's the frustration? The indignation with the ignorant elation That comes with living in a used-up world? Dig a treasure map out of the trash and get it unfurled, You walk to the 'X', but it's been dug up—no wonder it was in there in the first place. And the esoteric is what they find hysteric 'cuz they're all in on the joke That they find so funny 'cuz the system is broke. Politics in work, in life, in marriage, in LIFE, The wall of separation was torn down it seems, and soon you'll find them tapping your dreams. Enjoy watching your people's nightmares, O Creators. Tell us it's what we want.
Alone and Afraid? There was someone I knew, alone and afraid... Her husband left her… She felt betrayed! I remember seeing her look of despair… Was there anyone who really cared? This was a very difficult situation. A lot of heartache and frustration! I remember seeing her at church before. But no one sees her anymore! People would pass her by, Seemingly, not concerned… Even though things in her life, had taken "the wrong turn." Aren't we to help the widows and single mothers too? This is what God's word asks of me and you! As the body of Christ... We should serve one another. Reaching out to the widow and single mother. We must let them know they're not forgotten! Before their lives hit "rock bottom" This is a command Christ Wants us to do! He'd do the same for ME and for YOU! By Jim Pemberton
Time … to open My eyes… Time … to finally realize I am the monster … glazed in guise Time … to take responsibility Of your slow demise Of your haunting, screaming, aching unconditional agony Time … has stopped I am horrible Hyperventilating, breaking… Crying—smiling, faking Time … to see where the snake slithers tonight Smirking in its venom of spite To see myself crawl in its loosened skin And become one with its kin The slits of his eyes frighten me But I welcome his sick visions Who made these sticky decisions? Time … to do something To help you—to break me to pieces I am the slime where you have broken through…so revolting Time … to shake the sand away To relieve the burning eyes from the blindness Time to dip them in the cool water of action Time … To close up again I wimper in the dark like a lost hound.. I am so afraid Lost … but always found
Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself
How to abate the loathing When words mean nothing? There are moments In human existence When Any resistance against baleful fate is futile. When One is left with his thoughts Forsaken by all gods Astonished immensely by the world vile which first gave him birth and now devours him with mirth Agonizes he in every spot on the Earth Where does his heart belong to Never will he learn How to console such a man When all words would burn? How to abate the loathing When words mean nothing?
People want to commit suicide, people choose to die over livin life. Why has it come to be this way? Why has this life become so meaningless, that we just want to throw it away? We become selfish and think our life is so bad, dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have. People take for granted the things they've got, clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed, They dont think of the homeless, the hungry, not even the cold or the hot. They just think they want to be dead, Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad. We dont look for help or trust any "friends" All because of the past we've had. Dont be a coward and run away, Stick it out, Live life, I know that there's alot of strife, But stick it through day to day. People want to commit suicide, people choose to die over livin life. Why has it come to be this way?....
The days linger on and drive me crazy Pull this trigger? Consider, maybe Think things through, don't go rushing I'm drowning now, turning and thrashing Breathe sweet air back into my lungs On the wall, your photo's hung As time drifts slowly, I think again Should my life, really come to an end I think and I plan, confuse myself Just a lonely soul searching for help The sun it sets, then rises once more Lose consciousness and crash to the floor I wake in pain, agony it lurches Usettled dreams of burning churches But this is my choice, look through my drawers Find the letter and this signature is yours Then find my lighter, ignite a flame Numb to know it's not the same On the wall, your photo's hung Reload again, bullets in my gun Raise once more, but think things through My last thought, it will be you.
It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me
All this blood, still remaining upon my hands; Has now completely penetrated, the thickness of my skin. Time Soaked, too deep... Stain over Stain, forever still remain; from where the blood of others, has constantly been drained. Hostage no more, to the sins of my fallen Brothers... Time Soaked; Too deep, Into my flesh, Now running through my stream; A joining together; Time Soaked, Too Deep...
I walk on eggshells hoping he does not explode, into a burst of anger that only me he shows, that he wont say that word i know is going to hurt me, and if i try to fight back i know he will desert me, so i lower my voice and plead quite quietly, for the pain to go away even if it does not leave silently, but no matter how i react i know it will not matter, because then he begins to yell so loud it makes my body shatter, i know this is not right but i cant find the strength to leave, im scared of stepping forward because im afraid my heart will bleed, its been stabbed and bruised and its aching with every beat. what happened to the girl i knew her head is now always at her feet, no one understands her everyone believes his lies, and even through her tears no one answers any of her cries, blame is shifted backwards she takes it on her shoulders, she wished someone would of warned her someone would of told her, everyone says that she is wrong and to blame for his own actions, her jaw drops in shock at his supporters' reactions, she is not allowed to talk or to of herself defend, if she dare try its over its the end, its a losing battle she possesses no sword no armor, a free ranged target for him its easy to harm her, he has no remorse nothing to regret, because if she speaks against it a blaming scene is set, she is wrong for making him feel guilty and pointing out the truth, because then she is overreacting and she is wrong for feeling used, so in the end of it all she is the cause of his misery, and he says he is better off without her and that he wants to be set free
Once again trapped in the darkness with worded guns still trapped, Im just trying to make a statement that will make it on this American map, Im getting old as I only live this youth once so I best live it searching for light in darkness of black, Years gone by a lost youth going away time lost that I wont ever get back, So it best I get back on the track......... Now iz a tyme for flames hope I spark this, Poetry like mine many will come from places near and far and embark in this, I will literally be the found ancient lost seen lockness..... Lord please guide this soul as I am standing in the darkness......yet again....
Every time you kiss my lips I am drowning, I'm drowning Like a never ending abyss I am drowning, I'm drowning Every time you whisper I miss you I am drowning, I'm drowning In your love, in your love. Life doesn't seem dangerous When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning Don't take it so serious Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning I don't care what they think of us Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning In your love, in your love ~ Leonard Napierskie
Oh my darling, how I wish I knew your name. I've called you many things and Loves' the only one to stay. I've called you many times, now won't you come my way? Oh child at night, you, you rattle through my bones. But I wake up on cold mornings to find I'm all alone. And I cried, "Baby please, I can't lose all that I need". And I cried, "Baby please, I am only a man, And I'm working, trying the best that I can". I can't do this all alone, so I cried, yes I cried, "Baby please, won't you please just come back home". I knew all my tears would be in vein, But cried on anyway, to try and wash away the pain. I've called you many things, but "Goodbye" would only stain. Oh I cried, "Baby please, you'd be cold to walk away, But surely we'd both freeze if you can't find the heart to stay. So I cried, cried, cried, "I love you more than anything in this world, Now you've go to, got to, got to be my girl".
The words plunge into my chest like a poisoned dagger. I frantically tug at the cold knife but to no avail as the venom works its way through my body. My mind desperately attempts to wrap itself around the deadening reality, but the slickness of it is too much to handle. My mind slips and as a last resort hits the panic alarm. I open my mouth to scream but the poison has worked its way to my throat and burns hotter than the 1000 lakes of fire in hell. I want to grab my neck but my panic stricken mind is unable to reason with my arms to perform even this simple desperate request. My knees buckle and I trip and fall, backwards I think. Think...thought...thoughts...none are there. Can't think. Brain dead...or close to it. A cold splash, more chilling than the deadly dagger, wakes my brain momentarily, long enough to realize I'm drowning and add that to the list of pain. Still unable to move I throw an upward glance into her eyes. my last chance, the ice thin line between life and death, in hopes she will toss me a rope, a stick, a smile, anything. As she turns her back, I close my eyes and invite the ominous death that is now seemingly warm from the coldness of her actions. My mind pieces together a few last thoughts of happiness, of her. The day we met, her smile, her eyes, her laugh, the sound of her voice that my ears welcomed with open doors and arms wide open. The venom and water seem to meet each other simultaneously at my heart as if they had reservations, I know its time. With my lungs filled and oxygen gone, body frozen, mind shut down, I miss her. I manage one last smile and mouth the words " I love u."
Sociopathic Love Don't worry before He's done with you; He'll ravage you Not just physically but through his words both twisted and firm If you could only accept that he decides when the game ends; You'd realize an escape is just as much of an illusion as the man you think you know Nothing can save you from this game The lies will roll off his chameleon tongue as he reflects everything you've shown him He'll pour metaphors filled with an elusive pitch; deep inside the intimate spaces that fill your head He'll patiently watch your every move As you squirm with denial and try to claw your way past the anger Just as you desperately try bargaining for release He'll watch you drowned in hopelessness, lost without the reflection you saw in him It's a game you won't even realize you've been playing until he decides it's over He'll know every piece of you by then Especially the pieces he easily replaced well you were mesmerized in your own reflection He'll move on to his next prey soon and only then will you'll start to awaken He thinks you'll never find all the pieces he planted; you'll never be whole without him As his eyes trace the contours of your acceptance He'll know at the precise moment he's broken you As he watches your will bend pliantly to his Making you just another possession he never really wanted Then he'll finally release you out of boredom Leaving you lost without the mirror you helped him create Wondering why the piece's you're picking up won't fit back together the way they once did It's then you'll realize that he never knew how to love He's found his pleasure in the games he plays Pleasure that calms the jealousy he holds against the emotions that he's unable to feel Allowing him to walk away without remorse; leaving his victim in their darkest moment He's become bored with the people that surround him and confused by his own existence To him love is only a game used to occupy time Whenever he decides the time is right it's simple Game Over
they call themselves martyrs and blow themselves up killing families and young children destroying everything around them they dress up in camoflauge and strap on a bulletproof vest go in to gyms and schools and start shooting without remorse they cut brake lines and set fires and kill the innocent leaving a path of destruction with blood stained tears to reminisce hostle takeovers and kidnapping cutting babies out the womb burning down churches and raping little boys and girls fearing the eyes of the man who loves them targeting husbands and wives on vacation creeping into the unknown in a world that we call home facing uncertainty in the moment of belief unnknown answers to questions that we never wanna ask embaressed to come forth with the evidence that we have unsure of our religion because it contridicts everything we know saying goodbye to yesturday making room for whats new unable to understand or comprehend the logic behind man's mind knowing that if we understood it would drive us insane bleeding from the roots of evil that were implanted in our souls no way out no where to run the pain is in instilled in us all the same theres no exception to the rule just is what it is every man for his own even if it means killing his own kids
Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don't worry I'll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me **Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**
Crafting illustrations of endless doubts, Tirelessly exploring for those so-called peaceful where-abouts, Slowly illuminating those dark corners of paranoia, Trembling as the shadows conspire into black-hearted Casanovas, Conforming to the consistent routine, Abandoning yet another opportunity into the unchanging ravine, Idly watching the inevitable downfall to my sanity, Questioning myself, "Or is this how I view Humanity?"
The Tidal Wave I saw a tidal wave come in, Raging winds and fierce water Rushed, Took the houses, cars, trees, Street signs, park benches, Pictures of loved ones (Poor baby Louie, 3 years old washed away) And along with all the power It tore my heart out of my cage And swept it out to the Endless seas, And the great white sharks Have their way with my heart. Now bleeding and dying, Pain follows me, And I close my eyes, And wish it all to be done. Pray for me, I want pain no more. See tears fall from the corners of my eyes, As I breathe in and feel no heartbeat. And they all look at me, Faces of nomads and they snicker At me, I hang my head and cry tears, But the tears were washed Away in the tidal wave, So I sit there, Eyes closed And I sleep the night away. -10/2/2013-
Transformer... I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire. My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns... I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake... i deserve everything. But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... But then again what should I expect? Secret boyfriends? are you kidding me...? But then again what should i expect... I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
My eyes Refuse to see tragedy My eyes Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy And I'm left in my solitude… My eye's sagging…from endless mourning And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace draw near? You don't see What damage you've done Just let me be Leave me alone…hand me a gun I yearn for unspoiled glory To make me feel perfect once more I yearn for flawless serenity To make me feel no regret…don't ignore My calls…don't hang up on me You don't see What damage you've done Just hear my plea Listen to my excruciating cries… Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies Our journey has just begun And I'm left in my solitude… Do you hear me weeping? And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear… When will peace draw near? Eye can't handle the stress Let me release my horrendous distress Eye can see you making that same mistake At least MY life isn't at stake And I'm left in my solitude… My eye's weeping…do You feel my lament And I'm close to my demise… Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement I'm aching with discontent… I abhor this torment When will peace scrub off my fear? I can't believe my eyes Your guiltiness flows into me… I can't believe I fell for your lies Your heartless action rape my mind…you don't see What my EYES see… You'll never see How much pressure you put me under Unchain me from this chamber And watch me flee… When will you be set free?
Father, Do not let me be the demon I have created me to be. I am the product of myself and my negativity. I trust You. I love You. I thank You. In Your name, We pray, Amen.
It's like screaming out load, and no one can hear Like you dug into my darkest places, and unearthed all of my fears Shined a light upon my insecurities revealing my tears It's like I surrendered my free will, to follow your command Relinquishing all of my power I put my life in your hands When my confidence begins to rise, you weaken my stand It's like fumbling in darkness, eyes wide open and still can't see It's like you muffled my cries, ignoring my pleas You abused me with your words so forcefully And they cut so deep that they scarred the inner me It's like running full speed and getting no where It's like you were my only life support, and you rationed my air I'm gasping for air, I can't catch my breath I've given it all that i have, and now i have nothing left It's like I'm acting out a script. Word for word, line for line Like every thought that I have is yours and not mine It's like I've lost myself, I can't find the real me. It's like my worst nightmares, has become reality
Since we cannot be I will always envy the person that comes after me; the one that is keepable.
In this Global ressession it causes many to fall into a deep pit of depression and fills them with dispair as they wonder is there anyone to show they care? They loose faith and hope, for they simply cannot cope with the worlds financial scope. Although we live in critical times and are hard to deal with the effects of the stress caused by these situations are sad and real for these ones we truly feel. Will things ever get resolved in this financial crisis well the verdict is pretty much going to stay like this as the world is in need of a major fix but who is there to undo and repair all the damage that's taken place all before our very face. If people looked to a higher source they could take a positive course as there is a force stronger than humankind and to many people they are just blind to it which is sad to say, but for those who do we keep on and pray for one day they might say Yes it is true there is a God in existance and believe he will bring about the peace and happiness to give us a full release from the wickedness in the world that will soon cease.
So tightly squeezed shut Is the flow to healthy flesh, That might by your release Ramble back and return again. The tireless dancer sends an echo, Desperate, pressing, Pulsing into the vice So far from home.
Tiny dirty hands layered in filth, grim under the nails, what dread do you face as you toil and toil throughout the long frightful day? There is no comfort behind broken walls, no comfort in mothers arms, no safety offered to your wondering soul. Tiny hands scavenge for food, finding only aged bones with little meat, few scraps to feed your aching abdomen. Those hands so small, so cold, trembling uncontrollably, wrapped around your petite frame, your mind replaying "How will I survive today?" But you toil, toil on. The water there is none. Only blackened pools of thick mud and how you long to taste the cool refreshing drips on your tongue, to soak your calloused and bruised toes, but that fantasy has long been gone. Feeling as though you where made to suffer, made to grieve, want and never to obtain you start to weep. Those hands, those tiny dirty hands reach up and gently push aside the free falling tears that seem to never stop. Though you can't see her, her pain is real. A child of hunger, a child of fear, her wanting is palpable, honest, and correct, no lusting just dreams all shattered by circumstance and sadly she is not alone. So as you sit in your homes surrounded by loving faces, grand objects and perfectly set dinner places, give thanks as your hands, clean and untouched by poverty break bread.
drown me in hate, bleed me dry, So I rise up in love with the tears that I cry, cut the chord, bound me in chain, Batter me, beat me until I feel no pain, Torture my body so there's no will to live, Take from me until I've no more to give, Rip out my soul, leave me there hung, Throw me to old, steal me from young, Remove my sight so your face I can't see, change who I am so I am no longer me, Let me crawl the walls that lock me in tight, Hide me from day, forbid me from night, Punish my ears with a never ending song, Lock me away so I no longer belong, Drag me from Here, surround me with sin, Starve me of all until my body wears thin, Crucify me, like on the lords final day, Put me on a cross, force me to pray Dig me a grave, bury me alive, So I never see light, so I no longer survive.
Finding love is hard to master Can I not make this go any faster Oh please this is going to be a disaster Something just knocked at my door I wonder what is in store Oh so excited I just cant ignore What is this sound I hear Is my love near Oh now I am supplied with fear I see a figure of smoke I feel someones poke Oh no what if its just a joke Now seeing a body lying on the ground I am alone and no one is around Oh is it him I found He looks as if dead Is this all in my head Oh never will this happen again
I am an invisible man. Try and see me if you can. Shy and quiet I remain alone. Silent is my voice's tone No one can feel my pain and sorrow As I hide inside of my burrow. Shadows consume my body and soul As I embrace the misty cold. The reason for my unseen being Lies in the fact I hate being seen. This life and existence's of my own choice And I choose not to have a voice. I am silent. Invisible. Inexistent. Yet I am invincible, an immortal being
Sitting here trembling in fear wishing I could drink a beer, Entrapped in my own prison, and I cant stop seeing you in my visions, as these fore walls taunt my every decision, I keep wishing , if I knew now what I knew then, my screams would sound a lot different the bottle my was short term escape, after 7 or 8 thinking of you slowed after 11 or 12 your name would unload but by morning I am back imprisoned, strung out on coffee, I fear of closing my eyes, finding excuses to stay awake, for this I know is not fake. When I see you my heart skips a beat I cant even stand on my feet a minuet fells like weeks , seeing you happy is my life goal this is what I am working for it may be to late for me but I want to set you free that will put my soul at ease
11/03/12 For DWB --------------------------------- Please, Shining star, stay I'll stand by you and wipe your tears away Please, my friend, stay I do not wish to say goodbye-so I pray Please, oh please, my brother stay I love you...I never told you before and I'm sorry- but it's true I LOVE YOU And I'll do all I can do To make it up to you, and I promise I'll never abandon you again Please stay shining star You are amazing, you truly are And I can't stand the thought of you being gone Nothing would ever be the same...Life would be so- wrong Please, Shining star, stay I never meant to abandon you or leave you alone And from now on I will not leave you on your own Please, my brother-my friend, stay Because we all...I need you here I want you here Please, Please stay
Where shall I flee? I'm swimming in the waters of misery… And I'm crying a river…I'm saturated in woe How do I think cheerfully? I'm lost in the abyss…and the shadows won't let me be… And I'm bewildered… I'm fighting to break free… (I can't break free… Where do I flee? Why can't I break free?) The spiders are spinning their webs above me… Bless me and untangle me from this madness…please… give me peace…I'm wasting away – They're preying upon me…they're whipping me … warping their way inside of me My saliva drips on the ground…I'm growing numb and I pray The monsters don't attack my heart's desires…if I let them break free, I'll never be the same…I'll never see the light of day Where do I belong? I'm roaming in the fields of blasphemy And I'm crying a river…I feel like an awful disgrace… How do I find a pathway? I'm lost in fields of weeds…they're producing catastrophe And I'm bewildered… I'm trying to finish the race… (I can't keep pace… The sweat is trickling down my face… Why can't I keep pace?) The wasps are chasing after me…where do I flee? Caress me and save me from the distress…stinging me in pleasure…I'm drifting away – They're hovering all around me… they're harassing me…could you wipe away my tears? Find me a place of rest…to make the sufferings end and I pray The darkness will stop spreading lies in my head…if I throw away my fears, I'll never learn to face my fears…I'll never know His way… Where shall I go? I'm roaming in the fields of blasphemy And I'm crying a river…I'm saturated in woe How do I find the key? I'm lost in fields of weeds…they're reproducing catastrophe And I'm bewildered… I'm yearning to let go… I'm learning to cope with my fears… I'm deserting my woe… I'm wiping away the tears... (that has been bottled up for many years… ) The spiders have ensnared me in their webs… I'm in danger…I'm wrapped up in distress… and there is no where to hide… The wasps are tracking me down...I haven't paid my debts… I'm struck in alarm…I'm in a mess… Please stay by my side – catch me as I collide ( We're all together on this ride… ) I can't break free (please relieve me from my despair) Why can't I break free? Where do I flee? (this pain is too much to bear) I can't keep pace (give me the energy to shine like the sun) Why can't I keep pace? Why can't I finish this race? (give me some strength to run)
For the third time he's got her, he's trying to get it in; She's saying no, but whatever… he just won't listen. "Stop, Get the f--- off me! Don't touch me… NO!" She's fighting, she's glaring, but he isn't letting go. People walking by, glimpse, looks away; Pleading with her eyes, still no one stays… From that moment she realized nobody cares, Because when she needed someone, no one was there. He's groping her everywhere; her petite frame is crushed- Between his body and a wall... the opposite of plush; She's in uniform; and inspection is in an hour, Whining as he abuses her, draining all of her power… There's an opening, she strikes… she tries to run; He grabs her by her hair, throws her around, he isn't done. Feeling every jab in her back gritting against the wall, And every time he draws back with his hand curled into a ball… She now fears that anytime she strikes, he'll strike back, And it seems that manners are something that he unfortunately lacks. So she stops hitting, she just pushes and blocks, But he's so d--- big! Like a boulder, a rock… Hold in your tears; don't let him see you cry, Playing over through her mind like a lullaby. She keeps on her face disgust and anger as he violates her everywhere; Hoping for a hero, in the parking lot, past the cars…she just stares. It's over, he walks her to class and she's in a daze; Feeling so exposed, angry, and ashamed... ... .. .
I see the world crumbling around me, people losing their moral ground Following what they think is right rather than what they truly know is right. Most people really are uneducated sheep and cannot see what's right in front of their faces. So many even mock the Lord and his word as if he didn't exist and even openly say with conviction that theirs no GOD! And instead there small minds worship a sport as if it was their GOD?! It really disgusts me and breaks my heart to see how far mankind has gone and I fear for their souls as they do not know what they do. Dear Lord please have mercy and help show them the way, its easy for them to be distracted and miss lead with all they hear and are shown in this corrupt world without its true intentions shown. GOD Bless all the Lords people and hold your heads high as the true fight is yet to happen and when it does . . We'll fight until we die! Amen
Your tear drop fell into my palm, I held it as if it were a jewel to my soul so calm. My thumbs whipped away your troubles and sorrows, You poured your heart out to me like never before, like it was stories. I listened very carefully and silent, Your voice sounded as if it was frightened. So understand when I say that you will not need anyone anymore, Anyone to listen to you, or even smile with you, and I say it from the core. Now a little refreshment for your thought, Tell me that this is what you sought. Did you see this coming, us being so close and in love like steal to steal, Now one more thing, please tell me what we have is real, tell me its real.
The old man wept at his wife leaving for the conveyance home… She was brittle now and age had ravished her body and mind… He had acquired great solitude, which was not welcoming... It was not welcoming, nor was it kind… He was now a vacant, hollow king sitting upon a lonely throne… His queen and loyal subjects had left him all alone… He was left with nothing but his memories, and just a little time… This solitude wasn't welcoming… It was not welcoming, nor was it kind…
Rain is falling The Children groaning Gates keep closing...
Ah, here you have come again, Again you sit in this chair, How familiar this room so is, So solitaire in your life, ha, how fair it is, How you engulf those emotions in bitter fire, Drown your frown in a realization of emptiness, How you realize the loneliness and abandonment of your mind, Your hope and wish to fill the empty, lonely void, Perhaps one day it shall all change, But in the now you suffer, You wonder your discoveries, How enlightening were they really? Hanging your head so low, As if seeming to pray in the eyes of others, In amidst reality you hide the corners of your saddened mouth, Your hands caressing the wounded mask, To lose yourself in words, You search for comfort, A faded hand upon your shoulder, But your shoulders carry only the burdens of others, To have your shoulders broken, No others to offer theirs up, You watch the river wash you away, As you drown and ascend to your new home up above.
Fairytales, and butterflies, in this story, we begin with lies, promises, we never kept, I should have held on tighter, when you wept, small mistakes, on both our parts, added up, to shred our hearts, creeping shadows, behind the flowers, in what we thought, were our finest hours, talking grass, crystal snow, in our lie of love, a hidden foe, the evil witch, her claws aimed to kill, t'was she who pushed you, down the hill, a broken crown, a forgotten well, to live without you, was her spell, an evil curse, she cast in spite, although we loved, with all our might, kept apart, by what was said, in regret, our hearts bled, watch from afar, speak in vein, a curse taken course, inflicted pain, and so it began, with love and lies, our fairytale ends, and we both die...
The life that was wrapped in her voice Faded then died. Overwhelming sorrow filled her eyes. She fell to her knees, And cried to the sky. Death only looked at her, His smile was wry. Her fingers searching in the darkness, trying to find the light. Instead she found strength, and the courage to fight. She stood and said, " I am the wrath of the man who died alone in flight." " I am the wrath of the child who died tonight." " I am the wrath of the woman who's lost her light." Death had never been so pale. "STOP!" he roared. But his battle was lost, Her light was restored. The darkness that existed was no more. Death would come back to settle the score, Until then she would prepare for the war.
A long time passes and I am still here Silently insulting, brutally weeping But then I lift my head from the ground To see him standing there Towering over me in all endeavor of quietude Was he there the entire time? I feel his eyes but see only his stare I am dreaming again Has he returned to guide me? To frighten me back into reality? Who are you, entity of fear? I know death draws me near— But why, oh mystery, do you linger here? He never answers me, though still I try Why are you here? Must you hate me too? He pulls me up staring me down His thin, sophisticated form makes me feel hollow Empty features burning my vision As he bends facing me I never want to see your face again See, that's why I hide. . . Why, I ask, my voice croaking Tell me why. . . He takes my hand as I cringe Walking me to the edge, his head tilted my way I shake like a dried leaf on the brink of autumn A small, pathetic part of me wants to thank him To believe all of this. . .is right How though, can I trust his blank sincerity? I am the only. . .the lonely But there he is beside me His long fingers intermingling in mine The sense of fear and confusion Sticking to me like grime I am the Slender Man—I am—your friend And for once I let him embrace me I cannot bear to flee He tenses and tightens his grip Dreading I may slip away in panic Please stay. . .please stay Soon it will all just go away. . . He is warm against me—alive Breathing slowly, I feel the beating of his heart Bashing my nerves—blurring my mind Tingles shoot down my spine As I stand there, so close to him We watch a sagging sunset As tears flow down my infected eyes I have learned to fly. . .to embrace the lies Squeezing my hand he holds me close As the black sun wearily lifts its head one last time Only to sink from its post I never want to see your face again See, that's why I lie Slender Man cradles me in his tendrils Surrounding me like I am its sickly nourishment Whispering comforting falsehood I gaze beyond the wasteland Beyond myself. . . But there I find nothing Hand in hand we walk over the edge Heading yonder into the sheer, sweet Nothingness The demons watch us disappear Grinning from ear to ear I cannot see them now. . . But I can smell their fear -January 26, 2013-
I've become tired all the time And I wake up at noon My dreams are too realistic and Nightmares have begun to comfort me With their broken, clipped, harsh sounds I've become to breathe with effort It is no longer an automatic mechanism that requires no help But a project that I work on all day Processing the steps and remembering my task Like a child learning her first song I've become to keep to myself Never joining for meals or Leaving the comfort of my cold, dark room Where nobody will disturb me It will be just me and music I've become emotionless Like a rock, or a dirty street curb I will provide you with no sympathy Or gratitude Only a solid form that has a presence I've become dysfunctional Because one of my pillars has been taken down One of strings was strummed too many times One of my gears needs oiled And one of my organs needs repaired I am not myself. And who are you?
I'm tired in this drop The walls are all the same I'm soaked now In the midst of deteriorating It hurts more than normal I think it's broken The light up top is gone now Just like the one down here Oh well… oh well. The love inside the teardrops Has turned to the coldest rain Now there's just the pain It's settled in my chest Eating at my insides Feeding at the dead lives The end will not come quickly Not even quietly For now, I just sigh at thee
You were to be the love of my life, You were supposed to be my wife, We were supposed to have a family, Then you went all psycho on me, Three months into I got my first taste of you, If I had known then, what I do now I'd have left you, But I stayed and clung to you like a lost puppy, You cared for me and controlled me and made love to me, I thought you could change, I could change, we could change, Together not quitting like always, it was weird and strange, I thought my life had found it's end, where I'd be forever, In your arms, in your life, forever to be your lover, Then you showed me your true and frightening side, On and off like Jekkyl and Hyde, When we'd get along and love each other, There was nothing in this world that was better, But when you're mad, my life is frozen and empty, I used to fear that one day you'd hit me, Many times you've thrown things or done things abusive, But always came up with some lousy excuses, But now I'm not in love with you, I know now our life together is through, So I'm not going to fear anymore, I'm simply going to walk out that door!
Sirens call And tempests toss The Dutchman asks his due. Scythed by moonlight the dark crystal sea beckons To the romantic, the foolhardy The adventurous and unwise. The sea is a wicked lover Every seven years You'll threaten her yoke Tempted by the land But Lorelei will not be idle. Your song she will yet sing sinewy seaweed snakes round your limbs pulling you Under Under Under As bubbles like drowned pearls Leave your lips like a kiss
And so do I fall, and so do I fail, Falling so deeply into this destructive void, Nothing but ash and specs of dust that were once my brittle bones and scarred flesh. To not know what is ahead, How maddening! How so distraught have I seemingly become, Forgotten myself as time has smoothed over me. Tricky, sly fiend indeed; master and slave a like to us all. Do I dare move forward into the uncertainty that is humanity and of such society? So gut wrenching, thoughts filled of bile at what is. As we all are from and are the same, yet tear limb by limb the essence of ourselves by one another in an endless state of bigotry and violence; so brightly are we bathed in evil. So easy is it to see. Miracles; perhaps shall they see fit to carry me away from the void that is, and from such temptation, as to live the rest of days in blissful, stagnant dreams.
"Shattered Dream" From the very beginning, Somebody is dreaming, To be with someone, But its seems like no one. Unable to speak the words, To utter the love he could, So the feeling's gone to waste, Loneliness filled with emptiness, Its takes many years to reveal, The love he wants to tell, To a very special girl, But it's already a shattered dream. to: EG (^_^)
How I hate the way I feel today, I just want everything to go away. Don't know if I am angry or sad , All I know is that it feels real bad. Everything is so mixed up inside , Confused by it all I just want to cry. Closing my eyes trying to get some rest, Doesn' help much getting only moments at best. Hoping for nightfall is what I want now, Praying tomorrow will be better some how. How I hate these days when I am down , Wishing nobody would ever come around. Asking myself why I am in this mood, What will it take to change my attitude. Surely there is something to make me smile, I wonder if there is because it's been awhile. Reading the book to maybe see my way through, It doesn't help either I am still feeling blue. Listening to others and what they have to say, Changes nothing at all I still feel this way. Why are there days I feel so down and out , Makes me want to just scream and shout. Wait for the morning sunrise is what I'll do, Possibly then I will be able to talk to you. Oh how I do not like the way I feel today, It's just the worst ever feeling this way. TAC
The world is bleak the world is dark There is no spark left in my life A worthless journey with worthless goals Made up with years of empty holes There is no future there is no gain Just a life so filled with pain Treasured things so out of reach Were never meant for me to keep I had so wished to find a love That moulded just like hand and glove I always gave an inch or two To keep a love that felt so true So much to give, so much to share With one that cared enough to care I have no wish to struggle on The war is over the world has won ©Elisabeth Dubois – 2012
I was introduced into the vast illusions of life. Some people call it love, others call it a knife. Cutting your skin so you can bleed. Each drop is a distraction from what you need. You close your eyes and take the pain. Then all your worries are temporarily in vain. No progress, no digress Just that moment to believe that more is less. Oh and you grieve from your hopelessness You accept the fact that you have lost your happiness You cry, You scream! Help is what you seek No one hears though, we just ignore and call you a freak All this segregation All this quote on quote integration The only thing it does is make the big seem bigger And the small seem smaller. Belief is the only thing you keep You grasp it so tightly and put it under your feet Each step is a different view You're looking around for something new Eyes stay open, Heart is listening Your intentions are bright and glistening. You want to change from mad And achieve the beautiful emotion of simple glad Battle this depression, get away from this mess and Find a whole new state of mind open for progression. Your voice sounds desperate. Your scars show desperate. You are desperate, and you've made a mess of it. But it's obvious to me, That you can finally see How to overcome the desperation And use your failures as inspiration. Yes, it's obvious to me.
ghost from the past time is moving so fast trembling in my own tears trying to fight all my fears standing in the rain felling like I just got hit my a train wishing I could turn off my brain I have nothing left to gain all I fell is pain haunted from our memories I fell they have become my enemies I see you even when I blink it really makes a guy think what happen to us I cant believe I mad such a fuss I wish I had your trust you are still my high school crush seeing you still makes me blush your better then a royal flush people think they have what we do but know one ever will being with you is a thrill being with you is real I wish we where going uphill you where the only one who could fulfill four you I would have captured bunker hill but right now your just a ghost haunting me, taunting me, and flaunting in front of me how i wish we could still be
Darkness clings were light doesn't linger Breath struggles were air is depleted I'm siting by the window staring at the waves of sorrow, forgiveness and love That crash in to are lives like title waves crash into buildings And down the way fair away children play in tall Fields were corn is made its so sad to know that inasens will never make it past 13 In a world were childhood fantasy's cant only run so deep And its scare to see how evil people can be when they justify it by how life treats them Darkness clings were light cant be Clinging like a leach feasting till the hart beat of the world is deceased And its so sad to think worms can drown in puddles created by cloud games And why is it we get so lonely at night Fare from childhood yet to young to sleep alone Is it fear of the unknown drawing us close Or human nature to want to pull the covers close And why dose sympathy seem to control all that we do When sympathy cant do nothing for no one I hate to think of the day when night is all i see A starlight world that can look so bleak and gray What dose the universe hold for lonely souls traveling down broken rodes I guess well never know Why darkness clings were light cant be
Somewhere, right now, a child is crying. Somewhere, right now, a child is dying, at the hands of a monster that feels no shame. How could you hurt a child? The eyes of innocent souls marked with pain and fear, scarred forever with wound that will never heal. Somewhere, right now, a girl looks in the mirror and doesn't want to live with what she sees. They call her ugly. They call her stupid. They call her fat or useless or crazy. A child should live with love and kindness. She doesn't want to live at all. Somewhere, right now, a child is praying. She hopes that tonight will never come. When the lights go out the war begins. She'll fight. She'll cry. She'll try to run. But the battle is over. The enemy won. She lies there raw and cold and used with the knowledge that night will come again in her painful nightmare without an end.
"...Even if it kills me to do so in the end." I said having a tighter grip than before "You ready?" I then start dragging her out of the darkness realizing we might never escape it "Just hold on!" I exclaim looking into her eyes then back at the darkness "I won't let go." I say as we both get sucked into the darkness, we both then start to fade and I still have her hand screaming her name as we dissappear.
We are going to Corfu, what a great thing, Come on its booked, let's go and buy everything. 'Hang on,' say's hubby, 'In Corfu it rains a lot'. 'I want more sun, not the rain, we have already got.' But it's booked we are ready one week to go, 'I want to change it' he says, 'so to Rhodes we will go.' At that time we didn't know what a crossroads that was, Instead of Corfu, we changed it because, My husband and I wanted more sun than the rain That was the point in changing our plane. Ok, we are at the airport, now watching and waiting The flight we were booked on was just to the runway taking. It stopped all of a sudden and smoke did appear, The poor people on board, they could not get out of her. We had changed our holiday on a whim because of rain Fifty Four people died in front of us on that plane. The plane we had booked but had changed at the end Took all of those lives but our prayers we did send. The crossroads had appeared we were lucky that day We had changed our course and our lives that we can say. But to the families of those that perished back then We have never forgotten and ours prayers still go out for them.
Jock. Now Jock he was a friend of mine In those good old army days When teenage boys were herded in And made to change their ways He told me one fine summer's day With a big blue sky above "I'm glad that I'm a soldier boy This army life I love". They shipped him off to good old Nam Placed a rifle in his hands And said "now you're a soldier boy I hope you'll understand We're fighting those old Vietcong You've got to see us right You don't know what it's all about!!! Nor us, just go and fight" Poor Jock ain't with us any more God bless his poor old mum Our lad he was a forward scout No use his bloody gun As the flying metal put him down Our jock the hero died As politicians wined and dined So many tears were cried.
on this stage as i face the struggle within setting the past aside i've grown used to my indecent hostilities transfixed by the sadness of poverty i tire of the disappearance of life doing things no one appreciates i try to ignore the irrational shall i go on- keeping up the payments of life? all the crazy torment, of taking chances i utter the words while the past twists and turns as I keep talking it over with me...with God covered in despair i feel like a discoverer... on a ship with no life raft moved to the side of the river i've fought through the inevitableness of agony accused of an increase of emptiness i've sacrificed romance forever with the time ticking away time has no explanation it's all- or nothing along the path with life's mortgage past due haunting memories -rehashing the disorder of belief i assessed my expectations i'm just too tired to play the games anymore i accuse destiny of my dying inside i inherit threats of leaving coloring the days and nights for the time being in this land of dreams, an unbearable obsession devours me... i was so torn by the exit of you somehow i've grown accustomed of losing everybody in this life should i let my despair show... beholding an obscure face with tears refusing to cry their wetness breaking apart feeling nothing as the moon lights the frozen lake? sizing up all this misery i don't know how i got here hardly moving through the being of this world are the fish still biting... in the loneliness of this unsavory landscape? across the street i laugh at the untutored shouts of night's uncertainty... it's all so altogether painful i expose everything tricked by the bitterness of change in the unproductive rain i'm drifting through things of the past complete with prophetic discontent i tell you... the nonchalance of it all is disgusting the difficulty of pretending about my place in this world setting everything in motion as the night passes i face stale foolishness love is just so much unplanned profanity... the misbegotten affairs- the liars, the cheaters what uncolorful experiences i move through life's hurt as a grenadiers song is playing and all those sterile people I choose to leave alone now, at this time in the night... the night the moon refused to shine i'm in seclusion dropping out in the yellow of the cold december moonlite wanting to leave behind the hurt -the damage lost in grief one last time with no feelings left to share __________________________________________ by anne p murray
Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views
The night you tried I was trying to enjoy a cheeseburger I called your bluff blindly I was bored by you You decided to prove me wrong I heard the distinct click the noisy pop my burger dropped I had ringing in my ears It landed on the plate bloody with ketchup ketchup splatters everywhere Burgers remind me of you I don't dare eat them They make me sick.
Bite my tongue Choke on my words Spell out the letters That must remain unheard No one should hear the desperate screams Coming from deep within me No one should see my soul as it burns Without peace I'll always be No one listens to the pleas I cry They ignore me every day No one sees the blood I shed And I wouldn't have it any other way I don't want them to know I suffer And die inside when I'm alone I'd rather pretend I'm fine for their sake But I don't care when I'm at home I am depressed and with good reason You shouldn't judge me for this But I'll stick out life till its end And die to reach infinite bliss
The paddock's filled with bulls All waiting there to die They don't have too much future For the farmer, he's the guy Who has the power of life, and death He decides what lives and dies As he fattens each beast carefully That's where his money lies. I see these creatures roaming round And it makes me feel quite sad To know that for my appetite These beasts be treated bad The taste of steak is mighty good But what a price we pay I eat my share of it, that's true Perhaps I'll stop one day! One paddock filled with bulls It opens my eyes wide To realize these wondrous beasts Throughout the years have died So I might feast with bulging belly It really is not fair Living on this little farm It fills my heart with care. 2006
I'm drowning in the tears from the sorrows of my reckless ways, now its just facing the days. If only i could've realized sooner what i have done, now the bricks are crumbling by the ton. Open my eyes and now i see, all i want from you is to forgive me. So you bring that poor dog in from the rain, though he just wants right back out again. I always find myself making the same mistake, i change and things break. Now its tough to see the light, sometimes i wish it was bright. So it could be easier to face the day, nothing gold can stay. Like mud on the pavement, it eventually washes away.....
A moment of reflection, as I wonder through this haze; The times in life where I didn't take that leap; More than one occasion, all a different theme. False insecurities, dependent upon deciet; A headstone more chissled, than are moments without defeat. Uncertain, if to the left, no conceren for which way is right; My eyes, with a grayish glaze, as cold surrounds my smile... Continueous, I twist; Occasionally, I turn; Alone, in my Dead end maze, never, will I learn...
I never wanted you to see this. The darkest part of me. Something filled with mystery and darkness. You havent seen all of me but you have seen just enough for me to have to leave. Im sorry but I cant let that part of me hurt you. Im starting to care about you and that scares me. I dont want to hurt you. But I dont want to leave. What should I do? What should I do?
I had this dream last night and it was perfect It was everything I wanted my life to seem So when I opened my eyes to this bright sunlight I realized some things weren't the way that they should be I put my feet into my shoes, which are old and dusty and I don't remember when they were ever clean I ran around my town asking people for my purpose And none of their answers seemed to fit alright Come keep me at bay Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday I've tried to be myself but I'm running low on health To fight all those who tell me to be a certain way Though I don't cry out my eyes every time that a stitch undoes itself Cause nobody's gonna save you when can save yourself, darling Even at a quarter after noon mothers are singing their babies Sugar sick sweet lullabies that I know all too well Haven't you ever noticed the way that their voices crack When the child forgets the words and the tune stays with them alone? Come keep me at bay Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday
Who do you feel like today? Do you even remember my name? It's been 8 years since then, Has the willow tree we sat under gone dead? I wonder if you've changed, if you regret your biggest mistake. Do you feel the sorrow i feel? Is this pain the only thing that feels real? I feel no sorrow now, I only feel hatered for the world somehow, How could you rape your granddaughters? And Forget your own son, My father?! How could you do this to me? The only way how i feel now is to bleed. I put no effort, no feeling, no thought, In the war, This battle in my heart How do you feel like today? Is it easier to know that your safe? Outta jail they let you out, Why so you can pay your road to hell? So i plant me a willow tree, right above the grass, below the leaves. I lay here below this willow tree, My only friend beside of me, The memories still remain, Alone, But it's better off this way
My heart sinks in terror that this beat may be its last, that the pulse will stop. I fear that the end is near. Guilt suffocates my throat at the thought of painting a grey mask on the faces of those whom I love. They fear that the end is close. I shudder at the thought that our names will be forgotten, that their memento will turn to dust. For remembrance we plead as the end is impending. Regret poisons my mind with its toxins. My aims aren't fulfilled. My life has not begun. It's the end itself that I fear. There is so much joy I look forward to, so much success, passion, love. I plan my future with delight and hope, yet I know that the end has come.
The sound of fear bellowing from my soul, as I shake excessively The words are no longer words in the duel, I fear the reality I continue to scream, no longer in control My movements are quick, as I do not have rule This nightmare is a reality During the day the nightmare calms, until I arrive home I do not wish to hurt the ones I love, so I try to roam I roam around, until they arrive, trying to help to keep me calm Another night, another match only to continue This nightmare is still a reality My tantrums contain pain, held in from others I wish the day with no more pain,I have never wished to hurt another I continue to try day by day, to help keep this nightmare away The nightmares are a fading reality
You're just as messed up I don't know which way to turn I can't find my way Which bridge do I burn I search for the light I only find the dark I hide deep in the night I hide from the suns first spark I pray for a solution My head is spinning I'm stuck in a dillusion My life I'm sinning I seek out the truth Now you see my pain Depression devoured my youth My happiness jumped on a train I know where I belong I know what I want Which way do I turn Your memories I'll haunt *Written on April 20, 2012*
You may view my life as perfect and I do too when I look at it from the outside. But in reality I view my world as a world war If something is perfect in my life I somehow make it look like an old decrepit dried up melting flower it looks and feels like an old abandon house waiting to be demolished to keep the underage kids away from smashing my already shattered windows and engraving anymore names to my wall of shame. "Greg was here" is written all over as if it were some kind of cult. Their digging their names into me to show off to the new comers that decided to explore my cave of disasters that they were once there. No one wants to be forgotten but in my world, I am.
Striving to be content. Everyday….striving. Ignore the yearning The knowing - there is something more There was supposed to be something more Just beyond reach If you can only remember you can have it Desperate Angry Has time run out? Is it too late? That mistake That defining mistake You knew it before it was made How can you be whole now? Unmake it. If you have the courage Yes! (In truth – no) Most days you can simulate Well-being Ease Substance You wear expressions Suggestions really And sometimes…. It shows – When you believe You were not meant for more
*¸.•'´¯) You, my beloved wanting to deny the inevitable Your body wearing down- thin, haggard and pale Your face looking weary- lined with battle scars of living life Each of us waiting to exhale Tired of running in place I knew in my soul you were losing the game, forfeiting the fight You, weary of hustling the race That dreaded 'C' word lying on lips afraid to be spoken- dreading to be heard Hiding fears with well worn smiles Feeling scared...feeling unprepared Struggling to walk those last few miles Forced into losing you by something unseen… Both of us riding the storm on wild stallions to battle something so obscene A ticking time bomb took up residence in your gut An eviction notice was sent... to this uninvited occupant Then you were gone... Me standing there looking down at your face as you lie in your peaceful resting place lined with satin, laced with tears I have loved you for so many years Missing your warm embrace Missing seeing your face Anger, fear, tears - all packed inside my love for you will always abide There you go my love… Blissfully off to Heaven's gate... where I'll meet you - waiting lovingly there for me *¸.•'´¯) by anne p murray
I cry the way the petals fall, Slowly but surely.
A severe façade of loving tolerance Dipped in an argentine semblance The Consuls of The Cross Weaving a sweven of Welkin Where the checkered ones Are never allowed Their souls cast into the flames Of a greater decay The never ending pit Of eternal torment You turn the other cheek The one that wields the clandestine dagger The dreams of being free grow lighter and light The truth is shrouded by sister-Night Clinging onto existence Never eluding the resistance I will never adhere To your Sanguinary Lord Bestowing The Crusader's reign Against the sand and the desert's wane Barraging him over the frame In desperation to appease Screaming and shouting I will wash away your sins Decadence of the ones to throw the stones The ones to enforce the book Has left your lies dry and ready to die No more tears are left to cry No more screams are left to scream No More blood to be split No more graves to be dug
Her Daddy was thunder her Mama was rain And she was just caught in the storm Rising so fast she'd take cover in vain After the storm clouds would form Under her bed the skies were so blue But the thunder grew louder each day She didn't come out 'til the rain had blown through But the rainbows were not meant to stay She couldn't find comfort in her hour of need Sometimes it lasted all night No matter how hard she'd beg and she'd plead Her Mama and Daddy would fight Then one day the thunder moved far away But the rain would always remain The day that it left she begged it to stay It was something she couldn't explain Her Daddy was thunder her Mama was rain And she was just caught in the storm Rising so fast she'd take cover in vain After the storm clouds would form
From my youth, I knew no goodness Teach me His truth So that I will meet success I hope I'm making little progress From my youth, I knew very little at first Teach me Your truth Or I'll remain in thirst I thirst for His spirit - to renew my faithfulness I have a nourished heart But, evilness broke it apart I had an energetic soul But agony took its toll And now I pray To Him who mends us all To save my young heart From the fear of losing control... Do I still have an innocent, Young heart?
Trapped. No where to hide.You scream at me through the door.Though your words still sting me. I sit on the ground alone.Blood drips down like tears. tears run down like rain.The room's spinning. My heart bursts out of my clothes.We got into a fight. Why is unclear. I tried to leave. You hit me. I fell.I started to cry. You kicked me.A sharp pain burst out of my chest. I could not breath. I have little energy,I kicked you. You fell. I ran to our bedroom. I am trapped. No where to hide.I'm weak. I stumble to your Night stand.I see a gun.You break down the door. I grab the gun.You start to choke me, squeezing my throat like you were trying to get some sort of juice out of me. I pull the trigger. BANG!Trapped. No where to hide.Your grip feels looser. Your face in pain. You fall down. i fall into darkness.Free. No need to hide.
too loose on the tears, lost controlon the fears. teh masks which i cry on; i go on only for myself, frightful of the consecquences. too confuse in teh head, nearly too insane to be dead. I ama classic pain that goes on, yet the rage in me to go against the storm lives on! trying to change my life, i seek to take control and make a difference. but truth is, mybe, it's too late. life just pass me by after high school high: so much struggle against the will of the wind, so much drama in my life, it's like a bd high school musical play!! sometimes living one day at a time isn't worth living at all!!! love is the right motivation, the drive is to earn something worthwhile before you're dead.
I forget that I'm in trapped in a house of cards until the wind comes blasting through And I'm left again with nothing Nothing but grief and this pile of all that I knew I had to forget how much I cared for you Something no one should ever have to do Can you remember? Do you remember? Those darkly happy days when you felt that way too? Love so many bitter times unrequited Two hearts broken----too broken to break anymore You've become my dark horse in this race against time And I hope to God we're not about to lose Futile Infantile And all around absurd Is what this nightmare without you has been We shouldn't have to work so hard To fall flat down on our faces again and again I wish you'd come out of your shell and back to life in the warmth of my arms once again
Images; pitiful black images suckling frantically from dry, empty breasts. Black eyes; wide open, fearful, but mercifully blind to destiny's most unforgiving hand. Victims:tormented by the incessant heat of the sun's bejewelled rays, mercy is fleeting; uncompromising shades of hopelessness cocoon innocent souls; But Fate will cast its untimely shadow Black is the colour of despair.
A walk through the fields, the marshes nigh Water risen steep along the banks Swinging low a grey tailed hawk flies To the girl's shrouded figure, stooping, it aims She feels the swoosh of its wings, her ash curls caught Entangled in a hundred claws Oh Oh she cries with a fearful yell The wind races the clouds' billowy bursts As she struggles to try and free herself She bends to the ground, though only for the worst Blood splatters the grass and soaks the soil Life gushes out, like lava at its boil Winter buries deep, the snowfalls and the setting suns Virgin white covers the silent and the frozen And in the Spring, when new life has begun Within the hug of her bones, a wing is broken
I noticed her, she looked well bred Enthusiastic eyes, sand wiped skin, dark Trying hard to look casual Then I saw her, looking thin Worried eyes, forced smile, walking Trying to look casual One day she stopped me, asked me for a light Flirtatious eyes, looking bright She passed a casual remark A year later I saw her, well bred with a black eye Sitting on a door slab with a cigarette I passed by, looking casual I passed her by for days and nights Until one night, two nights, she was gone ©david byrne sept '12
Why do I strive so much in life This heart of mine cease to refine Of hope and love and tranquility I give and give, yet scarcely receive It's the heart that deceives My Soul resides upon a mountain of misery It shouts, its scream, yet high up above, as it seems Away, away from mankind to care At times like these I am at despair Hoping, seeking and wishing to share I speak my heart, my thoughts, and my mind…. Yet scarcely, do I dare to show this degree of misery My essence is as thin as air…. If I hit mankind in the face No mark, no remembrance, no trace shall I leave No sweet- sour memories to reminisce upon Its as if my very presences is provocative to mankind They ask me kindly, oh please! Oh please! do leave, Save us time and disappear! No one to care, no one to adhere to I loved and laughed and lived and hoped and trusted in mankind Yet from this day on shattered and stiff and deceived and depleted, is what, I now am I bare a load wrapped tight around my heart That never seems to crack or break, No fitting key, no rock to break…. For my humble abode lies within my mountain of misery Where I reside high up above from mankind From; Hurt or pain or deception or greed From this day on, to no one shall I heed I fight my battles on my own I sail upon a one-man boat
The window panes are brightly lit, The rays enter my room with grit. Their target, my eyes shut tight, I turn over; my response to the light. The room turns into an oyster; a gem, Sleep now hanging just by the hem. My sleep, it is gone, all too sudden, Welcoming the day, I start to redden. Finally I'm off the bed; on the floor, My arms too weak, too sore. I stretch my body, I strengthen up I look at my hair, Uhh! a messy lump… My French window… God, I'm in love! It's my morning beauty… my dove. The coffee still hot, wisps in the air Reaching with grace I take it with care. Sipping the delight into my balcony, I see my street, somehow too melancholy. Birds chirping on the trees, the breeze Kissing my hair, I take it all in with ease. Leaning on the railing I cry, I plead Today, Lord, let me not to death, bleed I need to count my days, my moments, I tried but sorry, the doctor laments. The big C has got hold of the volcano… It will no longer gush, it's too late, oh no. I can see the day, feel the morning Without a trace of regret, not weeping. I have but mornings such as these To wish my time would forever freeze.
frowns show depression smiles show an expression tears show the pain and kisses are in vain his heart is not for you though you don't know it but soon enough his actions will show it
my destiny I have to resume my purpose or so I presume all doubt I have to exhume responsibility I have to assume its really never too late or maybe it's just fate only God gives a clean slate even when we have lots on our plate people so particular about dates all this time they use to hate showing no pity even to sister kate with perdition as their right-hand mate I dream of a season When I'll finally see reason The cause and need for all this treason In a world where all trust is dead Judgement day lies in wait like a bed Unto lies we are lead Into the abyss of uncertainty we're spread Sometimes I think I need a breather I just can't take it Hook, line and sinker There is so much at stake See how they tinker Or dignity they finger Our death-beds they make Their lies flow forth like a lake While in suffering we sleep and wake It's time we opened our mouth to talk And oh, they're gonna hear it all in bulk My words are gonna hit them like the hulk I'm so tired of sitting to sulk In any event that I lose my life At last I'll escape for all this strife.
Blackness, a dark version of me, badness, negativity. No matter how fast i run or were i run too your right behind me. Even the brightest sun doesn't destroy you, you only exist because of me. All i know is when i face the darkness you disappear, but to only return when the sun rises.
1 through the door 2 through your heart 3 through your head 4 colors in my eyes Red, red, red 1 clash 2 rings 3 words 4 sirens Shrieks of red, red, red 1 bed of white 2 saviors 3 men at my side 4 grievers Tears of red, red, red 1 room of rock 2 rings around my wrist 3 eyes in my head 4 days before forever Stains of red, red, red 1 room 2 sides 3 on one 4 on the other Crying out red, red, red 1 decision 2 stabs of pain in my side 3 cries 4 smiles The judge says red, red, red 1 boy 2 people 3 arguments 4 solutions Mine was red, red, red
Not a day will go by, that I don't think about her. But when I think of her lies, I just want to hurt her. When a man has given all, he can't push any further. And it's a very short process, that drives him to murder. So choose wisely your steps, and your pathways through life. Stay aware of your options, and always think twice. For when a mans life resorts, to the edge of a knife. It's a tell tale sign, he's grown cold as ice. Now it's a sick twisted world, we find ourselves in. Driven by hate, and swallowed in sin. The mentally strong, may call those like me weak. But you tell me now, who's humble and meek. For if you've never hurt, the way that I do. Then you're no expert, on how to get through. So you place your faith, on inanimate things. While I place my hate, on cold reality. But who's to say who, truly knows anything. And who draws the line, on what's giving everything. For one hundred percent, is one hundred percent. And my hundred percent, is what I resent. If I hadn't given all, I'd still be on my feet. But here I am hollow, left in defeat. So push me as far, as you think I can go. Then open your eyes, and enjoy the show... CONTINUE ON PART II
Ballerina prisoner figurine Such beauty locked away Only dances When she sees the light of day But, in my mind Her twirls are reminiscent Of forgotten memories, round and round Stirring music weighs So, I hide her still Under key And silence Hoping she is forgiving Until a fondness of providence is found That soon soul will awaken Her gracefulness hopes of ironies O' may she dance her way back among my living
Pounding against the shore My heart beats Filling up my face, my hands, my cheeks with heat Tears begin to role. Tumbling down, like fireballs. Passionate …igniting, reviving as it goes Why oh why! Am I at despair? Vulnerable! Exposed! My heart stripped bare An open book for you to read Yet shaken up with despair I feel The thunder of doubt begins to creep Never have I embarked on this before Yet unknowingly, deep down I yearn! I crave for more A sea of contemplation, an abyss of hazy expectations Pounding against the shore my heart beats Filling my face, my cheeks, my hands… As you go, with heat Rising me to utmost crest Elevating higher then Mount Everest Loving you more all the way But yet! I dare not undrape my sentiments For you, like others might not cradle them For fear of freefalling Yet….i hear your heart shrieking out my name Half shocked, half heart, I am to blame.
Why speak when words become weak and everything you want is in the darkness and you are forever alone Happiness will never meet you and your prince will never seek you You will die unknowing from your heart with blood flowing Beating and pumping all of your life into nothing You'll be a stain on the soil until dust in the face of turmoil
watch me crumble and fall apart, all on my own Cause there's never really anyone around; I've always been alone Until I die I will be at your side But will you ever be at my side? Down into the pit I descend, on my own In the depths of darkness where I've been all along-alone I've always been alone I know when you're not feeling right, I can sense when you've lost your light But yet I find, when I fall from grace I find myself, alone in a dark place I wish you would help me my friend, Like you said you would but I'm always alone in the end Standing by you until I fall And when I do, just watch me crawl On my own, Always... Alone.
Darkness lies in my heart. For the thought of loosing everything fills me with sorrow. And now that it's gone, what is there for me? The beautiful memory of what used ro be is not enough to save me. Alone I wait for someone to pull me from this hell. But now, I will die. Alone in the world. Only to lie alone in the sky.
Prolog: This poem is about how much you need to struggle to 'survive' as an accountable and matured man. Child demands what he desires and the man sacrifices his desire, to fulfill the child's. It's funny how you would be made a king for a day, and then a 'somebody', or even a 'nobody'? Moreover, as you grow up, linearly, the problems breed exponentially like bacteria. Yes, it is true that the assimilative power to bear the offsets increase as you grow up too and how we breathe with the mere hope that one's integrity pays back at some point in life. These verses symbolize the seldom hidden pain as adolescents in antithesis to the trouble-free life of a kid. Being a four year old playing with crayons, it's all about you and your own little world! The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising From learning to put on the bow-tie, To responsibly having the handkerchief in your pocket, From experiencing the toughest times And still standing upright like a ship in a storm Like never before, Manhood, here comes, like a raging warrior, Resilient in form, stronger than its former, And kills your innocence; darkens your heart. The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising Life slips by 'unlived' and under cut-throat competition Little merry-time, patchy hangovers and a far-fetched ambition In trying to enrich and reclassify his social status Life is yet adventurous, travelling rough miles Reshaping himself, constantly adopting new lifestyles, Every so often, he needs a little time, damn-it In the end, faith grows numb in breaking the habit It's flabbergasting dad, how you stood up on your feet Such burden of liability on the shoulders, how can one keep? Politics was detested, conspiracy unheard of. But now only has become an essential strategy for survival Pain only makes him stronger, Thanks Kelly Clarkson; that makes our belief finer And brings a hope of fresh revival How true Darwin sayeth! Fittest subsists, and the rest are extinct species. However, gratitude to such reformation The inception of adulthood, cognizance! Teaches him to be & believe himself; thus push his limits farther Only critical moments, binds his relationships sturdier The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising. Inspired by : friends, fam, eminem, linkin park, my fellow poets, my world
You abide in the light I'll miss you…when you venture off at night Don't forget me… Don't discard me… Don't leave me… Forgive me for drifting away from you… Please forgive me… Please don't ignore me… Hear my pleas…don't turn the other direction… Run with me…into heaven's light I've given you my soul… I've shared with you my melody I've fed you until you were full… I've healed you when you were under the weather… I've tried to bring us back together You hang on the rope of hope I'll rely on you…I'll cling to you… You saved me from subsiding into the obscure abyss Don't reject me… Don't depart from me… Don't release me… Respect me for who I've become Please respect me… Honor my presence Protect me from any sort of harm Is it in your nature to relieve my anguish? I've been driven away by my affliction I've set you free from Egypt…and lead you to the Promise Land Have you forgotten my affection? I've tried to empathize what you're going through – I've gave you a helping hand Don't you understand? Will you ever understand? You abide in the light I'll miss you…when you depart from my heart Don't forget me… Don't discard me… Don't mourn for me… Forgive me for wishing for your absence… Please forgive me… Please don't give up on me… Hear my side of the story… don't turn the other direction… I'm still training for perfection Run with me…until we arrive at home Hold my hand and we'll take divine flight I've cherished you for so long I've lead you to my home town – Do you remember where you and I belong? I've given you my trust… I've shared with you my dreams You're an apple to my eye You were my angel of grace, promising concord – Bestowing blessings upon me Your vitality never wears off… You were my lamp – Glowing with serenity and elation Tranquilizing my mind from despair and unease I'll never regret…meeting you that magnificent night I knew that that was love at first sight The moment you stepped foot into the light
Her dreams crashed on the shore of reality Her ambitions lay covered in the blanket of misery Life has stolen a piece from her And left without saying as much as a word Time heals wounds but what about dreams Her scars run deeper than my imagination can explain She holds a suicidal amount of unreleased pain But her screams will not be heard Her giving up has never occurred Her bravery has slain dragons in ages past Her courage has pushed forth soldiers fighting for freedom Her attitude has broken through diabolical spells cast Its her motivation that allowed the tyranny of oppression to become undone She stands tall, as life tries to break her down But with every punch with every pound She never shows where it hurts She never complains about her tears She never breaks the glass of valor Tales will be spun, for she is what makes it all possible Everything breaks down in time But her shattered pieces of dreams are nowhere to be found She picked them all up and placed them somewhere to never make a sound For dreams are ambitions that have lost their drive But she miraculously manages to keep them alive Shattered, broken, unhinged, damaged to the very core Unable to walk on clouds no longer able to soar She is now an angel with clipped wings A dancer with no ankles, a story with no end She has been through the darkest of pits She has wormed through the narrowest of slits Cut, bruised, beaten … life gave it it's all But she is wonderful because through it all I would have broken down, and yet she smiles So for that I wanted to say thank you
Flirt shamelessly, Hold my hand, Say you miss me, I don't understand, What do you want, It makes no sense, Are we present, Are we past tense? You say you 'love' him, Yet 'that doesn't stop' you, Then you run back to him, So are we done? Are we through? You aren't happy, You know it in your heart, So for the sake of his happiness, Will you tear yourself apart? If this were your last moment, If this was it, would you still be with him, would you call it quits? I need an answer, Tell me the truth, before I break, You should know my heart isn't bullet proof...
The broken pieces, through which i see, have the power, to render me, helpless to all, invisible to you, here i stay, shattered anew, this makes no sense, what broken thing does? treading carefully, i'm shattered because, i crossed a line, made a mistake, pain envelopes the pieces, with each breath i take.
I wondered how is it that something as simple as your smile could capture my heart, I often sat and debated to myself how did this all come into play from the very start. You showed me love can be found in the strangest places and obviously the strangest times, The connection...the bliss...how fast it developed should have been a crime. When we first meet you were everything I wished for in a true woman, It was like getting a wish granted from a genie I imaginably summoned. But it's all changed now, hasn't it? Since the love that was created wasn't exactly easy, One thing I have learned in my life is that nothing...NOTHING comes easy. Listen, I followed the voice in my heart that you brought back to life so I could love again, I was so sure that so called relationship could pass for a perfect ten. You saw me for who I am and pushed aside the pimp in me to meet the lover within me, Even then I was very sure that so called relationship was going to be it for me. Listen, I did follow the voice you THOUGHT you brought back that had risen from the dead, Thanks to that voice I'm done listening to the lies you stirred in my head. The fact you couldn't admit to me your wrongs was just absolutely unappealing, I'm more than how you're treating me so remember you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm feeling. You can stop being nice or whatever charity game you call yourself playing with me, I only blame myself for not wanting that horrifying truth to be seen. That when it was over it was truly over...for you anyway, I held on to what never was and my trust for people was the price I paid. Someone once said that anything done with fear has no moral value, Because of your fear I felt as if I was nothing and this feeling for me is something brand new. So now I conclude this situation and will move on from everything I have mentioned, It's time I allow someone else to step in who actually deserves my attention.
Can't live with a mind that's lost in time What's the sense in living Can't remember what I did yesterday Then what's the sense in you forgiving Not sure where this life is heading Not wanting to end up forgetting and regretting But what is this life how do I live If the world I live in can't forgive Cause time has taken my memories away Not a thought of yesterday or today My life feels incomplete…. I'm not trying to face defeat But what other choice do I have My life is not my own anymore it's sad Oo yes poor me this life I have to live without memories
My thoughts race one million miles a minute. Abnormal fears take control of my mind. My pulse is beating faster than an engine. Headaches develop like I have been hit with a hammer. Adrenaline pumps through my veins at the speed of light. My heart feels like exploding due to chest pain. My temperature raises hotter than the sun. When my panic attack is gone, I am left with a scar.
when you lose sight of what really counts its easy to focus on only whats shallow am i too fat is my nose too big do i walk or talk weird whats wrong with me when we forget the depth that is here in this world and focus on things that are just absurd so maybe im not a supermodel and my bums a tad on the thick side and maybe im no a genius thats getting a scholorship on my side but does that mean im nothing that i dont count this world is getting sickening count me OUT im ashamed of myself for even thinking like this and obsessing to tears over shallow petty shit i am praying that god hears my pleas for help because i cant conquer this all by myself i used to not care didnt care at all but like any other i rise and fall i am of the opinion that your body is a shell and youll leave it behind when you go to heaven or hell it will rot in the ground and count for nothing and when i meet my maker he wont care how big my bum is some women ONLY care about their looks and they dont get it they dont see the big picture and i fear theyll regret it and other women dont care even at all about their looks because their depth is so massive and raw but then theres me in the middle with so much depth and spirituality why do i waste time wondering what are all the things wrong with me im sick of crying over it ive done it for too long im sick of getting angry when i cant crawl out of my bod its a thought that i had reguarding a cacoon like how catapielers go into them and out comes a butterfly zoom if i could just crawl out my mouth my soul free for just a moment and be allowed to have a different shell to live and own it i wonder what its like to feel just for a second not arrogance but a sweet compliment from someone who MEANT IT my desperate pleas go out to you and anyone else who will listen i hate my body im sick of my face and my voice is just ridiculous so lets just drop it in the ocean let it sail away cuz me im going to better places where i dont have to cry all day where i know that my body is just a little shell a vehicle if you will its our car or truck or limo or bus to use while we use our free will and ive always said when you go you don't take your money your lambergini or your watch expensive jewlery its all staying beind and you should think about what YOUR world is while im trying desperatley to fix mine
i hate him hes the worst i love is just a mask you hid behind. don't count me as a fool i can see your snarl right threw. i hate your nasty, sneaky ways. you did have me at hello. but now i caught your bluff be gone you betrayer you lustful jerk iv caught you right handed that's it your busted.. say bye now you'll never see me again you'll never be able to hurt me to tare me inside out be gone you betrayer be gone you lustful jerk.
Life carried on brushing up pain Each day I could hardly remain Darkness seemed to be my only course As I falter and enter ultimate remorse I could not see what's going on before me As life seemed dim I could hardly see There only seemed to be one way out Only one that I have known about Sleeping pills were taken extremely All at once, I was feeling sleepy In a last minute impulse I called emergency They swiftly came as I was quickly Fading fast from this course of reality I was nodding off to sleep completely They kept me barely awake to the hospital Where I was contorted to spill all I was gagged forcefully as darkness came Awakened again to find more pills taken My throat agonized with pain within From the horrible gagging motion Pill after pill flowed out of my mouth As I neared closer to oblivion, further south Finally I was allowed to sleep My dreams now were mine to keep When I awoke people surrounded me Looking very worried, disappointed really I had survived the attempt on my life A fear I will always remember, the strife Now the world is back into my life again The pain is seemingly always pounding within Worry is written all over my family Fear escapes my mother's eyes completely They do many tests to see if I'm stable Then the diagnosis is depression, certifiable Therapists become a part of my new life All present and accounted for, no new strife Things weren't anywhere near like they were When everything was dark, fearful for sure I hated life, it was lifeless, demure Then it seemed I had the perfect cure But life chose me, and I survived Now things work simply and I thrived I had the presence to make the best Of what life brings, to take in the rest I hold dear now all things that this life brings A warm feeling comes when fear is fleeting A perfect happiness comes from simplicity Bringing complexity down to earth sincerely Love came swiftly with joy in the heart Never felt more pure, never to be torn apart Now that I had survived the brush of death I now take pleasure in each and every breath This is what happens sometimes when death knocks And life gets switched around, time tick-tocks Now since the terror has come and gone Joy and pleasure have arrived as one The future now looks a lot greater Now that death will be a lot later Russell Sivey Entrant into Richard Tarr's "suicide survivor" contest 11/12/2012
Crimson life fills my hands Glacial eyes staring at me Fear grips my desperate heart Pleading for a stranger's life Bleeding out her very soul A single teardrop from her eye The sign that angels took her Home Nalanti Goosen©2012 All rights reserved
My own downfall, being with no malice of intent. the gravity of being born with no force, my soul even wanders beyond my spirit. shame of uncleanliness; guilt of unworthiness, troubles of accepting, missing pieces that can't be held together. troubles with sanity, sometimes roughing it out to tip of the edge of reasoning. no rest for the weary, thanks!, things couldn't get any tougher than this. mentality co-existing with no hope of success, unwanted failures and regrets slowing me down until it all ends.
I woke up this morning A stormy pattern of thoughts My pillow wet from tears Feelings of isolation Lack of love Family desertion I woke up this morning Alone with my thoughts Leaning over as I walked Hunchback across the room From my heavy heart I reached out and asked Why do you ignore me Am I unworthy of your love You enjoy the power play of separation Do you not see my torment From the isolation My penance for speaking truth A truth you wish to ignore Let's put our collective heads in the sand The grains of pain will blow away if we do And when I fell down Slipping on my tears My fear of rejection came true With the simple question What happened to you With words of truth You think I'm self indulgent and irrelevant So I bury everything inside Waiting for it to reappear Another time when I'm stronger Maybe I can handle your rejection When I screamed to you I need you The deafness was shrill Your collective heads in the sand again It's easier to ignore an ugly memory Than to look fear in the face You needed me in ancient times When no one else could help And yet when I reached out You ignored me All those years of pain Come around again I'm the easy target to place the blame The old man is gone now My ultimate fear of facing him down In his time of dire need From this distance I cared While you chose to ignore him And he died a slow death And when he passed You cut me out And watched me bleed Isolation is my penance For loving the best I could Years from now If the circumstances are right You might look back on this And wonder what happened to the girl Full of promise Full of love Full of expectations The rubbish only remains There's no one else to blame But myself for my weakness For allowing your permeation of vengeance Isolation is the name of the game I don't dare reach out They will engrave upon me Their version of their memory While watching me Falling into the crevice of deep sadness Bleeding to death The pain in my heart And they don't care And I'm not allowed to share So I'm left alone with my thoughts Waking up to tears on my pillow Drowning a slow death Gasping for care
I look into my child's eyes Brown pools of innocence And I see my reflection A silhouette of heartbreak I want to go back in time I want to hold her tighter I need to tell her I love her And I'll never let her go But I did that fateful day Repeatedly I screamed her name My movements were slow Everyone else was frozen in time The water felt like quicksand My enemy in my time of need Waves crashing, distancing me With each fall, they laugh at me Another soul they are about to steal Adding to their marine collection My cries, fearful, they go unheard The seagulls fly past, mocking me I keep running in slow motion Like I'm sloshing through molasses The unbearable pain in my chest My heart gone by ocean's erosion The salt fills my lungs, burning with fire Panicking in despair, I see her body Downturned, arms outstretched Flying with the ones that took her from me I beg her to breathe, I demand that she listens I call her name in frustration But she never responds to me Her silence torments my ears I hold her in my tight embrace I tell her I love her…baby, I love you I want to see her smile at me I try to rewind time but it refuses The twinkle in her eyes, darkened by death, Reflects overwhelming heartbreak A paralyzing sadness turned into numbness The water took two lives that day.
I am a lost person, but I am not alone. I make choices in my life and I choose to let go. I need a change of space, and my lyrical notes, The beauty and the face should fade, but more I want to grow. The nobility in life is sad, when madness is a nuisance and insanity a fad. I have some regrets, some I can't forget, but If I can't forgive myself, then who will forgive my sins? I'll give it my all, and pray I win. I'll keep my heart locked and throw away the key, never let anyone inside, so I can remain free. Can I question a higher power, or would I be dead, The scum of the earth, creating poetry that is read, by the mindless masses, blaming the heart to death, I hope this will heal me, burning the past, The beauty in the innocence, never really lasts. I have a feeling tonight will open my eyes, and guide me too the light instead of lies. I'm praying to god that you are how I think you are, because I need compassion, not just a broken heart. I don't know why I like you, but you seem to close to part. Please don't leave me here, surrounded in the dark.
An empty castle, a broken spell, look to the hill, upon it a well, deep in its depths, a princess you'll find, against the stones, her bones will grind, at the end of the hill, a prince lay buried, to the ground, his blood is married, a witchs spell, cast to kill, it ran its corse, upon that hill, one dark day, the princess drowned, killing the prince, with the sight he found, in the well, he saw her lifeless eyes, trip and tumble, that's how he dies, that's the end, their love now gone, killed on a hill, by a witchs con...
you've got a mean streak about you, that makes you such a disgrace you laugh at me and shove me around and hit me in my face i'm sick of the way you treat me, and how your always knocking down my dreams everyone says your perfect for me, but its never what it seems because your so messed up, and it took me so long to see that you'd end up this way, why would i let this be i thought you'd change with my love, but i could never make you happy i did everything for you, but nothing could make you love me so here i am lying around the room you locked me in, and trying to hide behind my strength but its slipping fast, i have nothing left because you've stolen all my faith you took the girl i was and the woman i was hoping i could be but she died down fast when she noticed all the faults you see and i tried hard to get away from you but you've done nothing but thrown me around there's no way to get back up and out after you shove me to the ground and i would run and hide, try to get away, if it wasn't for the threats so ill just lie around wasting my life away because you seem to know me best
"OH, DADDY" Oh, Daddy, What have you done? You left me alone to find my way, You never said anything, you just left one day. Oh, Daddy, What have you done? I am so lost. I need your help. Why did you leave?, You were my protector, the one I should cleave. Oh, Daddy, What have you done? You left us in tears, longing for death and hell's fire, despite all our fears. Oh, Daddy, What have you done? Was this your plan? To leave us alone? Tell me, I want to understand
She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me
Once again I am stuck in that place The one where my heart is filled with hurt and hate I know your Lieing by the look on your face Only thing to do is have falth You use me and abuse me year after year Now i find her number in front of me I cry but don't let you see the tears It would not matter you only see what you want to see You say it was nothing just talking thats all She dose not mean anything to you anyway Is that why you only text and not ever call I do not trust what you say becase you threw my trust away You say it was all her fault she started it For nine long months you lied about everything I do not belive you not one bit I do not want the pain you bring So have you fun play your games I am done with it all I do not want to hear her name Just remember the day will come you want my call
Hole in my chest, slow sweet burn, have I become a masochist, even with the lesson I've learned? the scares I bare, remind me now, of times I've loved, now that I've forgotten how, time heals nothing, but makes us numb, to the pain, to which our hearts will succumb, yearning for, a time now gone, you moved on, lines are drawn, yet you still smile at me, that adorable smirk, you bring forth, those feelings that lurk, those feelings I hate, for there will never be, a happy ending, for you and me.. What do you do when something you feel never really goes away, yet there's no point in those feelings because they'll never go anywhere??
THE LAST POST............. Six soldiers bear a coffin, Of a comrade killed in war. The Union flag draped over him, A hero to us all. This soldier killed in battle, In a conflict overseas. A man who fought for his beliefs, While defending you and me. To the families of these soldiers, Of my thanks I give to you. The bravery that they have shown, Such courage is shown by few. A military burial, a volley of shots, Then a flag lifted up from its host. And as we lay him down to sleep, A bugler then plays the last post. God bless you our brave British soldier, For this country still owes you a debt. You gave up your life for our freedom, This ex soldier will never forget. .............Rest in peace...............
There once was a city named "Darkness Falls", where a quart of pain, a pint of bloodshed, a gallon of depression, and a teaspoon of happiness fell together in harmony. A town as blank as paper, waiting for ink to be written upon it, where joy wasn't as common, as feared was enforced. Where only the ashes of the forgotten, fertilized, the ever-so-rotten grounds of "heaven" And the eyes of the fragile, who witness the peril of death, are only the eyes of the young, who follow this hell-driven pattern. This incessant chaos is known to be Darkness Falls.
It's scary how my reflection stares me dead in my eyes Truth takes first place as my face dismisses all lies No use to lie to the mirror as it has never did that to me As I move he moves but only my side whispers am I crazy Every blink reveals flaw once hidden by my ego Every muscle within my jaw seems to want me to know That I am what I am nothing more and nothing less A reflection of my past an attitude of no stress Screams inside my head collect themselves in my image Distorting my display I bow my head to my own image Perfection is a word placed on a throne of stars Again I look into my own eyes … I now see my emotional scars I ask what is wrong with you and my echo repeats itself So the question is asked and asked as I answer it myself Nothing I just miss what we could have been and what I could look at But as that has been said the mirror silently looks back No we both stand still in a place dipped in silence Silently silencing my hearts raging violence Cause with all the time I spent looking at you It became painfully clear to what I must do Accept that it is what it is and it will be what it will be Or to put it in my own words I will just be me So now all the dots connect and seem to be linking Will I change myself or is this just wishful thinking
Dear Lord I await your embrace as the weight on my shoulders is getting harder to take I see the pain and daily lies that we spread its our mask . . our disguise The pain and suffering is like mystical chains pulling me down to a darkened place, I know you are with me so I should feel no fear, but it gets harder each day and year by year. I write this now with tears looming in my eyes, my strong front hides the pain deep inside; Your love keeps me going . . your secret signs show the way, yet I still pray please make the pain go away.
I've never hit rock bottom so hard. I got up but it feels like I'm still sitting down. I've never felt pain so bad To the point where I just can't function. The memories I can't seem to erase They replay in my head constantly until I'm in tears. I've never had my heart broken so bad That just picking up the pieces crumbles in my hands. I've never felt so alone. That even while you hold me I can't feel your arms. I've never been so depressed in my life That even a psychiatrist don't know my diagnosis. There is only one way to go but up. But my ladder keeps sliding down. I run, jump, skip, hop. Defeat lays on my breastplate. 12/23/12
I stare blankly ahead of me; stare into the cracked soul of the being who used to reflect a smile - the girl I used to love unconditionally. That love evades me now. Where has it gone? I search desperately, but I fear it is lost forever - lost forever in the turbulent streams of my --self--consciousness; lost in the dark recesses of my mind, in the shrunken cockles of my heart. I fear I may never find it. But surely nothing is ever truly gone; surely it is simply hiding from me - playing a twisted game of hide and seek - or creeping in the shadows of my despair until it is needed again. I need it now. Words cannot express how deeply, how utterly, I want to love that person; to see something of worth or merit in those dark eyes, to smile back when those pale contours find their pride again. But somehow, I just can't see that face the same way. All I see are lips chapped from saying "no" - from constantly repenting sins they will soon commit again and again. All I see are those blank, empty eyes staring back at me - the cracked soul within beating herself bloody to be freed. I wish I could see it - I wish I could set that girl free - but somehow I can't find how. I want to see it again: the eyes so full of promise and hope that they blossom, the smile of a girl who knows the world will keep spinning. the face of a girl who may be chipping away piece by piece, but is still trying. But you can't see what just isn't there. I'd like to think that with enough wishing, that face will return; that somehow the withering girl - bound by her own will - may find the sun again. That against all odds, the cracks will begin to fade - the splintered child will heal - and maybe, eventually, time will turn back and her smile will find its way through the pain. I'd like to think that miracles are a stones-throw away - that all you need is a little bit of pixie dust. I'd like to believe that love does conquer all - much as the world would like to prove otherwise. I'd like to believe that, beneath the face of a girl with only bad days left, there hides another girl. I'd like to believe that inside those soulless eyes, buried deep within a chasm of depression, hiding, timid, in the shadows, there lies another face: A face that, maybe, I can love - or at least smile back at in the mirror.
While she's moving on, on the train of opportunities, I'm left behind. I can't move on. I watch the world pass by me in a blurry tick-tock, tick-tock. I'm too invisible to be seen, and nobody stops for me. They move by with a glare at me in their eyes that could freeze hell. The snowflakes that fall roam around me. I am a deep dark fire pit. The crackling wood defines the sparks that I feel when I'm near him. I am a dangerous creature. Tell me lies and I'll feed on them. "Stay away from this lost girl," They say. And they're staring at me.
if what we do if what we did if our emotions had colors that we could see what color would we be dark red with passion bright red with love black with anger or a mixture of colors. what color is your heart is it perfect for your body or is it imperfect for your soul. if emotion was colored who would you be?
There is nobody in this world knows how I am feeling right now, Trying to get it to all make some kind of sense from it some how. Filled with deceptions and lies leaving me nothing for me to find, One memory there is that is truly real cause there's none in my mine. This sickening feeling overwhelms me making me cold to my soul, I am surrounded by gloom and sadness the worst I've ever known. How is it I am to suffer like this for loving with all my heart , Always protecting you and always been the light in your dark. Why me with the love so true and a honest soul feel such pain, I should feel the Sunshine in my life not tears that fall like rain. Was it the blindness caused by her natural beautey and tender words, Or is it that I have lied to myself for so long it was almost absured. Difficult for me to face this grief that I had always anticipated, The moment you came back into my life these days been pre dated. It was Love itself I have wanted to bask in to know the Joy, This despair , lonliness ,and all the nightmares I needed to avoid. A wreck just waitng to happen and the wounds opened up again, Never thinking of when all began only wanting it all to just end. Days that will be lost and the memories you will never have, It's the worst kind of emptiness and confusion I've ever had. These times we share when we are alone and nobody around, The thoughts we have of fantasies are somewhat profound. Is there a lesson here to be learned and remembered , Or is it I am that lost soul that lonely Pretender. This can't possibly be the very last and the end for me, If so then it has always been what was meant to be. When and how it all went wrong and strayed off course, Something I will never know or do I want to anymore. There is nobody that knows what I am feeling today, I tried making sense of it and found that there is no way. A fence that will never be mended or memories replaced, Just a lonely life and a broken heart is what I must face . Get on with my life pray for better days I must do, How can I do that if it has to be without having you. Tac
Crying in the rain Letting go of all this pain I do not want to see again How we came crashing to an end I do not want to see why We were forced to say good bye I have watched it and I have lived it Been crushed by such a low hit I'm crying in this rain My eyes red with raw pain The tears are flowing Just not going And I'm left all alone I beg for your forgiveness I scream with all I've got But when it comes together What I have is not a lot I walk alone down this street Strangers' eyes are following But I just keep on walking Head down and never slowing I pace these roads and hope to find Something that means anything Something that's familiar Until then I'm just left hanging I'm still crying in this town The rain pours on my face Trying to forget you But failing at first base I cannot help but remember Your face and how you smile Just keep walking strong It might be easier after a mile Your eyes and how they glowed Are burnt into my mind I close my eyes and see them Staring back right into mine I'm crying on this night And will on many more to come I'll stumble forward without you Looking for my fortune I cannot ever forget The feeling that I had When you put your arms around me And chased away all the sad I will try but fail to forget How you loved me through thick and thin I will wander through my life But always still in love with him He was my world and I can't forget He makes me who I am Although he's gone and lost from sight I will not become a sham I will always try to forget How brilliant he made me feel Made the world seem wonderful And that maybe this world was real The pain I feel when I remember him Is cutting deeper still He's left a gaping hole in me One that no one could ever fill I try and try and fail again My baby is still gone I'm crying in this rain again Cold and all alone
People smoke weed, or crack to ignore problems and laugh hysterically, coffee is my drug, it's my quick pick-me-up...I say it so proudly, because it won't harm me, hallucinate me or make me feel afraid; I will be alive tomorrow, not crash into into a lamppost as Freddy did. I lived through the Hippie Era: bell-bottoms...long, frizzy hair and funny clothes the kind that clowns wear, no offense to those who thought they were cool; it's my opinion, not of that guy who didn't see himself as a fool! I had no time to protest, or vindicate the Vietnam War as Omar; off I went to work each morning as hippies hung out by a bar shouting at me, " Kid, stay alive...don't ever go to war! " They ran and screamed, knocking down police barricades...horror!
Your mask is impossible to crack A most confusing riddle I find myself lost again Stuck smack in the middle Your mask is hiding you away Misleading me and so on I find myself at your mercy again Feeling I've become undone Your mask is cruel, unforgiving Troubling my dreams at night I find myself so crippled again Lost this endless fight Your mask is an illusion I wish I knew the real you I find myself at a major loss When you mislead me like you do Your mask is something horrid that I'd love to see the end of I find myself at a disadvantage Because with you I am in love
Blood like tears fell on the sheets liquor held the lies, sweating, noise, a rabid beat, blood between two thighs. Shamed in darkness, filled with might, lost a holy site. Made to know the painful sweet, unholy love, between the sheets. Poked, stroked, an unconscious mote, knuckles ashen white drool pooled, to large a tool, unknown tick to tock fright. Remember screamed the girl child replete in her pain. This is how, the black-heart came when all there was went insane.
Fabricated lies boundless, Without a cause. Words of promises Left forgotten. Abandoned soul Heart less and alone. Tears of sadness recognized But not accompanied. 04/09/09
Two parallel Worlds divide my body and mind in two. One World holds my heart, while the other holds my limp body. One World shows the life i'v held in my heart, where there is good and there is bad, but everything in that World always ends in good. The other World shows the life i'v feared for years, where there is nothing but bad, but everything ends in death. I'v lived in both Worlds. I'v hurt in both Worlds. Both seem neither good nor bad at times. But the funny thing is... OUR world today is what those two Worlds have become. ( If you may PLEASE comment of Mail me. Sorry i havn't been on in a long time... ALOT has happened this year to me)
What happened last night brother, Please tell me it's not true, Was i a bother, Don't tell me you have no clue, Why am i locked up in an asylum, Don't you trust me, Am i getting my mammogram, it's my right to know please tell me, Don't isolate me please, I beg you, am only human, Tell them to handle me with ease, Am almost a young woman, Don't turn away when i speak, I need some answers, These injections are making me weak, Not forgetting my ulcers, Is this about the mercy killing, Please brother, don't cry, You tried your best but am not healing, Please let me die, I can's feel my limbs, The medicine is getting stronger, Please take care of the other siblings, Am growing weaker, Am done leaving on life support machine, Just let me go, You tried but am a broken engine, lease let my spirit go, This are my last words brother, Please don't try and save me, Last night when i had a seizure, The doctor defiled me...,
Way back when, many years ago; In the midst of the Sixties, spread your legs, let's go! An injustice was created, with a Hollow soul to lose... A decade and a half later, no belief of a Creator; The tortured child he had become, again was alone... The Creature inside me, this evil within, will you experience my Demons, or find yourself my friend. The Creature had matured, mid-explosion, so believed; Yet, twenty years still to come, of reaping that seed... What to do, Where to hide; Who to kill; At whom to smile... The Creature or boy yearns to destroy, the lives that surround me and all of their joy... This Creature is unmerciful, with the thought's that he sows; Will this Creature ever die, or live on breathlessly, Just as the end of a sigh... The Creature lurks deep, can this world survive; This painful hatred, that makes most mortals cry... It lives as it Breathes, will it ever retreat; The child within, still has no belief...
Strain On my back This burden Will burst my veins The strength to hold on I lack Can't shield the attack I shake Under the weight Keep throwing the bricks Until my soul is sick Create my fate Laugh when I cry And dance when I die Venom filled words Burn through the porcelain Stabbing the sword Deeper in blood red skin The hiss Fills my ears Hit Miss One more sear More burning tears Death will come Victory for the meek Can't help but succumb To the power you seek We stand tall A power so great You've become so small No room for your hate Our scars erased By the one deserving The highest place
The pendulum starts gaining speed again I can't sleep I feel so guilty keeping you around I shouldn't I should not do this to you If I were truly your friend I would set you free I should I should So why can't I Why can't I function without you woosh, woosh The pendulum speeds And speeds I can't sleep I can't sleep I am sorry I am sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So Sorry So sorry So sorry So Sorry So Sorry So sorry The Pendulum swings faster Faster and faster I wish it would stop I wish my mind would stop shifting Stop Stop I'm so scared I'm so angry I'm sad I hate it All of it And there goes the pendulum ever faster Ever changing the splintered fragments of my mind Why Why must my mind be so sporadic Always shifting Always changing Like the sands of the ocean floor Always different Always I hate this I do not like this And all that happens Is you get hurt And I'm sorry for that So very, very sorry It's not fair to you It's not fair And I don't know what to do To make it all better To make everything better To make all my tortures go away So that you can be happy I just want you happy I should let you go Set you free … You should keep away from me It would be better For you So much better Less painful Less heartbreaking Less damaging I am damaged beyond repair But that does not mean you need to be You could go Run Be free You should It would be better Much better for you Just let the flames consume me Let the waters choke my cries…my pleads And let the deadly pendulum slice me in pieces Grind me down to nothing Burn me So that my virus cannot be spread So no one else will be hurt So you can live free and happy Because I can't keep living with myself Knowing what I do to you And again the pendulum swings Again and again And again And again It will never end Never end Until I do Until I finally rest In my watery…bloodied grave
In the streets, we walk alone Down, down, low, away we go. The stars, they only taunt us. Up so high, dancing in the sky. I want to seek their comfort. I want my body cradled. Down, down, low, away we go. Walking like outcast. It's because i'm different It's because we're different "How dare you bring yourself around here. I don't like your kind" We're just like pariahs, Looking for each other. Down, down, low, away we go Again, I feel rejected. Again, I'm a disgrace. The only thing we wanted, Was the feeling of home. Home, that was so long ago.
I lye here weak,alone,feeling helpless. If only my muffled thoughts were clear. Wounds cover,yet pain is not displayed. The sound of rushing feet. Through brush and thorns bright lights surrounds me. In the darkest of nights my end was near. Determined mind I was found awake~
Visible defect Variation Soothing effect As my fingertips Run over this formation Through hills and dips Passing pain Now a conversation piece These wash away with the rain These One day will Cease Internal rips And tears Shadowed Stitched with care Only to be shredded Again Slow to heal If only it was let alone And you wouldn't hammer In the sin Full of chagrin Confidence blown I'd rather Show you my scars My skin shattered Then you discover my wounds Ruined Can't keep the seal So slow to heal
Memories scarcely recollected as if the frail pictures hold traces of shame—no, not shame— a contemptuous emotion strung upon such intruding truths, basking and waiting for words to record its frumpy existence—gone . . . There is a fear lurking where honesty resides, as blades of apathy slash away at the edges of time—making way for distant sadness. . .and a cool blur of Heartless -May 30, 2014-
Night train skids off tracks; it crashes into shacks... no easy escape. It's nightmare or dream? All passengers scream... train plunges into lake.
I wish To demolish my sorrow… I wish To forget the despair and gleefully grow… To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow… My downfalls and my failures… I wish To disappear I wish I had no fear… For God's near… I wish I could be a cheetah in the grassland I wish To store all of my energy for an evening run…I'd never give up in the process I wish My whole spirit could simply sponge in God's nature and make great progress And I truly wish I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God I wish I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships… My countless wishes Brings me down to my weakest point… My countless wishes Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run… I wish I could forgive My daily regrets and breakdowns I wish I could forget My despondency – embracing my frowns I wish To live a life without error Without a care I wish To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions And scare away The darkness that tries to make me give up I wish I had more time to overcome… These waves of emotions My countless wishes Brings me down to my disheartened state… My countless wishes Are like walls from every direction closing in on me… But it's a convenient tool in the future… I wish I could be live in someone else's shoes… But what good would it do? Would it lead me to the narrow pathway? Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away? Would it push away the blues? Could He give me any clues?
Welcome to the freak show of Borderline Personality Disorder Once, you hear my story you'll tear your guts out then have the urge to swallow them because that's that I do to myself mentally and feel physically without even inflicting any wounds upon myself. I leave my thoughts to do that for me.
I never seem able to stop a fall, my life is just a mess Even though I don't look it- smiling in my blue dress I comb my hair and keep it down, something I never did The secret behind it? I can keep my face well hid My smile, and my kind words mean nothing, no not these days And on the outside, though I may seem stable, my body discretely sways I cannot handle the weight on my back but bear it with a grin Though on the inside I lost the game, on the surface I appear to win At night I'll curl into myself and cry until I'm asleep Yet in front of people-smile. I smile so they can't see me weep
So confused----nothing feels right but wrong All I've dealt with for so long Has blurred in with every sad thing else there is to see I don't know what to do.... I'm at a loss for everything including you Long, long ago I thought you made me for one Now others knock at heart's door........ They will go unanswered Alone in the cold of the dark With all their own little broken hearts They wait for what will never be; to hold my hand and be with me And their burdens too are more than I can bear One sweet face Is blood stain painted into my soul His addictive voice Resonates throughout my core I hear him crying I hear him screaming I see him falling With him I'll always be crying Hoarsely, wretchedly screaming Reaching out into the dark for him but feeling nothing This pain will never fit inside The grief has grown too much for me to hide Mourning for the dreams in me that died Anguish for a man who's dead to me but still alive One big happy carnival of sorrow That love will never fix Nor will tomorrow Mindless, mutilated hearts Condemned to crimson drench the earth wherever we stagger Miserably alone.... Unhappily ever after.
this house is a prison these windows are taunting this weight on my shoulders is daunting my voice inside my head is haunting memories leave tears on my face tears start to burn and leave blood in their trace im isolated in deep space solitary confinement deep sorrowful assignment the stars are in allignment my world is coming to an end thats what the peace sign ment heaven sent, me hell, world upside down call it hell bent half my heart is left, the other paid rent i have half a heart but im completly broken, take a hint one way street no reason to resent choises made, makes my brain fade heading to your heart, call it a crusade my love is broken, hell made took every single wrong road, ... well played epic fail, blood red is the best shade through the light and through the dark blood red will always make its mark love the pain and hate the pleasure nonconformality at its greatest measure love is lost and found like great treasure trust turns to tradgedty lies are truely ravishing my heart is cold and wandering, the walking dead emotionless traveling chilling ice adorning my flesh is lavishing in a strange twist of fate my mind bears my captivity trapped inside my thoughts from which i cannot escape, stranger thoughts than activity forever fading my sanity at the sacrafice of my vanity my last resort, to escape has been taken from me this prison is maximum security love is lost, friends betrayed family estranged adrinaline caged adhd enraged locked up tight strait jacket restricted helplessly bound try as i might blind folds corrode my sight exiled and exausted drawn out distressed vigil put to the test sick to my stomach and too tired to rest i sit in my cell, of isolation my mind is cramped of desolation these words are a demonstration as a last resort, to far gone to ever undergo restoration i lay solemnly suffering from loss of articulation.
Depression seeps through my soul How can I write when my heart's such a droll? Can a set of fancy words truly make him appear? Alas, it is never meeting him again I fear Would he not gaze at my verse in surprise? Would he not see it pour through my eyes? In tears I ponder upon his reaction Every line a bittersweet satisfaction I care not for evenness; I care not for whim, I care not for dead words, only for him Often when such words escape my mind, I try to see him in them, but he's too hard to find In truth, I see less of my heartfelt rhymes As the clock striking seven heavenly chimes Pictures race in my frivolous head I see his green eyes; I hear the things he has said 'Never Again' are the words I now cry And my heart knows those words never die
I'm so afraid of myself Afraid of the anger that burns my soul A vicious poison Consuming what should be my soul Corrupting the very breadth of life in me A false sense of control was all I ever had But yet…with you Everything is calmer Everything is clearer You are my savior My savior My grace But the pendulum still swings Still swings The danger never really gone Just…eased My mind Eased For awhile But the poison is still there Still affecting my mind Still attacking me They call it "Bipolar Disorder" I call it an excuse They say it's mild I say… It is nothing but- An excuse One I shall not use There is no excuse to the way I treat you Or anyone else for that matter But you in particular, Do not deserve any of this You're my guardian angel The target of my never ending pendulum I want it to stop I want it to go away But it never will It never will I can't stop it I want too But I don't know how I'm so afraid I'm so scared I'm so diseased I'm so worthless I have nothing to offer you in return of your undying friendship Nothing but grief comes your way Nothing but hardship and torment And the burning waters of my unchained mind do not help They only hurt Only hurt And I'm so sorry So sorry I want it to stop But I don't know how I don't know how I'm so sorry For all the pain All the torment The screaming inside me Bouncing through my head Through my very being But unable to escape Nothing escapes Until… The anger explodes Like a volcanic eruption It goes everywhere And you get caught in it And it's not fair Not fair Not fair And I feel so guilty Wanting you around Keeping you around When all I do is hurt you All I do is hurt I hurt I hurt I'm scared I'm sorry I'm damaged I damage I'm sorry I'm so afraid of what I've become I want to go back Go back Take it all back Undo it all Undo everything Set you free
As though there existed some thin gossamer veil Drifting down from an unheavenly trail First just a twinge ,a touch or a feel A feeling of loneliness one cannot conceal Leaving one melancholy, broken and frail Piercing ones heart like an old rusty nail Senses of unhappiness dost hang like a cloud Chokes out this victim in depressing dark shroud Sadness and angst attack easy prey All signs of joy slowly slipping away Beauty and happiness also recede As depression takes hold begins to impede All hope seems now to be fading away Soon thought turn to acts sane people ne're stray Thoughts of escape, of end of release Pondering how to make the pain cease Oh why does this fog devour my soul Why does this aching take such a toll Affliction still lingers well after my prayers Pain like strangers heart-piercing stares Pure agony paralyzes my very soul Then near paroxysm out of control IS THERE NO FORESEEABLE END? … alas as I plead my pain doth descend *Dedicated to all who suffer
Don't you remember when you were young, I'd assume you recall tons of fun. Snowmen, running, and baking in the sun? Well, don't you wish that were for everyone. Now time's come, and memories are gone, And we all have a rather bitter song, Playing in the back of our heads out of tune, At least we do, at least we do. Now I don't know what a mommy is, And daddy, he is in an abyss, Probably much sweeter than mine, At least he actually has some light. Now here I am laying next to you, And you stroke me with love and then with abuse, I remember the feelings from before, You ever came to knock on my door. Back when daddy said he would kill me, When mommy said she wished I would die, And daddy pushed me down and walked away, Can mommy love me even if it is a lie? Cause mommy left and daddy left, and now you're leaving too, You'll bruise me, beat me, hurt me, kick me, but you'll be back, and I can count on you. I wrote this poem with a special friend in mind who has recently undergone traumatic things from an abusive childhood and many abusive relationships. Also, for all of my friends who were abused as children, and for any child suffering from abuse now or ever. May you hold strong through it. It can all be over if you let it. I did, and I love you
This is the story of a beautiful horse named Glory Freckled and spotted She stood but a twig Lost in a forest Of abandonment Tires and barbwire Surround her by day And at night she suffers The coyotes cries, not far away Left with no food Or water to drink She stands by a tree And hopes for relief Halter grown in And hooves overgrown Not a grain in that belly And left all alone Withering quick She stands by her tree And hopes a kind soul Will help her to see There is life still No matter how grim Things seem from beneath This horrid, old tree This halfhearted twig Awaits her relief As the days pass her by And she writhes with grief Her name is Glory All freckled with spots Like a giant Dalmatian Trapped in this spot At the end of her lead She was finally freed Not a day too soon She'll now find relief Halfhearted no longer And happy at last Whom once was a twig Knows Glory at last Halfhearted no longer And free from that mess Glory has found relief At Horse Creek Ranch* *Horse Creek Ranch is, to the best of my knowledge, a fictional name.
Bullet wounds The criminal shoots down his First targets How dare you Shoot them uncontrollably CHAOS grows . . . Don't shoot it! The victims are running mad And you pulled The trigger I'm terrified of your strength DROP IT, man ! ! !
The dead march ahead, But she hides behind a mound A wooden barrier is all that protects her from being found. Their soulless eyes burn bright, As they walk ahead on Trudging through the darkness as it swallows the dawn. Their eyes are hungry, as they smell her soul's essence.Her breath accelerates when they discover her presence. Darkness swallows her as she whispers her final prayer;when morning comes she will no longer be there. The dawn spreads its wings, But dark clouds billow down, Crying their grieving tears For the stolen soul that will never again be found. Days pass ahead She's buried in the ground And they cry silent tears For the girl behind the mound.
Are We Being Driven to God's Elimination? In the names of diversity and anti-discrimination. It's like we're being driven to God's elimination! God is being "forced" from many institutions! All in the name of this country's constitution! We're told that God and this country must be "separated." Anything less is what many would call; "discriminated." Any forms of Godly virtues or values are "torn down." Any symbol of a cross, is often "removed from the town." It's no wonder that this country's in such a big mess! And yet this country wants to be strong and blessed? "What shall the righteous do if the foundations are destroyed?" Meanwhile, the tide of ungodliness, is often "enjoyed." Those who are trying to remove God! You must beware! His judgment is soon coming! And will catch you unaware! There's will come a day! When God's wrath you will endure! The wages of sin is death! This is very true and sure! People may think that removing God is the "thing to do." Anyone who attempts to do will wind up as "a fool." Only God can fill the void in life and true love within! Only he has the power to free your soul from sin! The words; "in God we trust," in our lives must be applied! Everything we'll ever need… God has supplied! God is this country's hope! It's only true foundation! We need HIM right now! To come and heal our nation! By Jim Pemberton
Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you, I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw. I would give anything just to have you back, But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act. Now your miles & miles away, If I had one wish it would be for you to stay. I just hope your happy and okay. Since I cant tell you I love you to your face I'm writing you this poem to let you know our memories noone can erase and in my life noone will ever take your place.
Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain
Dear Friend Why you wondering where we stand? Me and you are tighter Then the ying yang we make with our hands I know we're far apart But a call brings us back together No matter the hour of the day And no matter the type of weather forever But I'm glad You came to me first Each time I read your letter It hurts me even worse Because I see us more than friends We're bothers in the Lord So if you are hurting Then I am hurting even more You can always count on me When your world is going wrong I will never turn my back on you Even if my back is against the wall And I know it's not easy to tell our moms When it's hard for us to stand What do they know about military life? Or the struggle for a military man? Don't be shy Because there's something we all do fear If I had the chance to switch services You know I'll be right there And I am not brave I wanna be the friend you can lean on you said I can calm you down well I also wanna keep you Army strong death isn't nothing but the devil getting to you keep believing in God he will give a path to make it through dude jus so you know I'm here I'm always around you've been trained good so take a step back and calm down and when you come home we're going to party like when we was kids and laugh at all the stupid things we ever did keep your head up because this is where it has to end yours truly P.S. you're my number one friend
Chains, hay forks, knives, and a hollow whisper, become more true and sinister. Halt in the middle of the moon light, and a waver image soon is no delight. Voices run a muck in the head, so not calming you wish you were dead. Gushing blood through the eye not an image that you would rely. Nails stuck on your neck with such pain so your paralyze just little life sustain. Hoodlums terrorizing people running a muck did not really know they are in luck. More dangerous beings are out their to commit such act and with sinister stare. Laughing with haunting echo's through is an aspect of fear can imbue. The wind changes direction to smother the echoing sound of laughter. The panicking state that you are in soon drives a knife within. Blood rushing out of your vain a crucial part of your life dropping like rain. Running without a destination you will never reach anyone of your relation. Sliding your body on a wall keeping your fall in a stall. Red eyes you can see it at night is soon devouring you with little bite. Changing your belief with tonics of relief and it is to late to turn a new leaf. Ears start to deceive the animals sound eating limbs are chewing around. Slowly your red eyes steadily getting heavy is starting to take your life with a levy. Dropping down with no attitude and your life force slowly loses altitude. Breathing comes not so easy smelling flesh seems so beastly. The change comes a desire with frightening red eyes of fire. Comes more lethal than the hoodlums your heart beating like drums. Your hand becomes all fury claws come out and your howl with furry. Trance your in with no one to blame a rage thats hundreds of centuries of flame. Rising from a slumber of long lust a animal instinct that you can trust. Tearing things apart with no meaning is a trait that is so deceiving. Red eyes at night you see in a window like a poisonous black widow. Keeps you in attack mode of insanity that takes all your vanity. Ferocious emotions eating away the soul that you had once betray. The echoing sounds of loud thunder breaks away the armor with sunder. You fall once again to torturous agony the feeling of one self is so lonely. Shaking in the corner you are found with blood soaked skin you drowned. The night becomes day cruel in some way your memories go in disarray. The hunters with torches and sinister look had parted way their hands shook.
You're the dawn of despair and gloominess You're the sunset that discards my gladness You deceived me…you made me trek the road of calamity You grieve for me…you yearn for my sympathy… but I overlook your pity Horror strikes me, scorching away my destiny My confidence has slowly departed from me…so what should I do? Terror swallows me alive, now I'm begging to flee! My self-reliance has disregarded and fled from thee…now I'm crammed with woe Digest the emptiness that I feel deep inside Heed to what I'm about to announce to you… Digest the affliction that I brushed aside Hear what I'm about to warn you about…it's all true You deserted me…melt the isolation that has filled us with woe You brainwashed me…you tarnished my bliss You captivated me…now I have nowhere to go You terrorized me…you singed up my happiness You're the dawn of anguish and shame You're the midnight stars that burn with fame You betrayed me…you made me cut down my garden…shedding fertility You mourn for me…you long for my forgiveness… so I'm ready to accept your plea What is the code that will animate your presence? What is the code that will liquefy the ice of silence?
i once had a mother and a sister and a brother her head was twisted she wished for death and barely missed it she hated her life all she wanted was true love and to become a wife she tried soo hard to end it but her spirit failed to split ************ they sent me away i can still remember grandma coming and helping me pack that day As i alone walked to the car i looked back not understanding the distance so far she shut the door and i knew in that moment she was my mother no more and in that moment let my mind know its time for all of us to just let go months later i got a strange call and i knew sometimes rehab cant fix em` all To: my real mom Whom has placed this horrible curse I call life upon me
Rain the best thing about the rain is that no one can see my tears in the rain you can hide your fears, in the rain I can hide from my peers, the best thing about rain is I have a excuse for not going out, in the rain no one can see me in doubt, in the rain i can pout the best thing about rain is no one can hear my cries in the rain I can hide my lies in the rain I cant see your eyes the best thing about rain is people don't call in the rain no one can see you crawl in the rain no one can see you fall the best thing about the rain is it reminds me of you standing in the rain I wish I knew, standing in the rain I wish it wasn't true
she is a spirit i know it is so but that feeling i get when she stares at me so makes me question everything i know she is cruel she is unforgiving but i put up with it to make my "ANGEL" happy she says she cares i know she wouldnt dare her evil glare can and will always scare even the purest of MIND BODY and SOUL.
Slicing words into your arm The sight of blood causes alarm You continue to bleed Though it burns you proceed Tonight will be your dying day Now is the final act of your play The words you carve are those of pain For others to see when you are slain When your arms are good and red The time has come to join the dead You climb atop of a tall tree The journeys a small victory Around your neck you tie the rope You jump slowly losing hope And as you hang you start to see All your former miseries And though you gasp for one last breath All you receive is your death.
The monsters came back, They taunted her every night, Telling her absurd things. They made her think. They whispered in her ear Trying to lead her to do something She had tried so hard to overcome. This was a constant battle Between her and the wicked. And yet again, She was left with nothing In a dark room Because the monsters won.
That man, who is that? He looks weird with that face, flat Why does it feel like mine? Why doesn't he look fine? Is that a reflection of me? Impossible, can't be! To him, let me try to talk Maybe even take a walk This man I need to understand Where's he from? What land? I start to ask questions To him, they sound like rejections Yet, he never answered He only felt flattered After me he did repeat All the questions, till I admit defeat He looked at me with an evil smile Stared at me for a while I didn't know what action to take This unpleasant feeling, I had to shake I know I got to be strong Must understand, no matter how long I have to wait Patience is a good trait Maybe he'll fade away And for sure I'm going to stay All that didn't seem to matter His image would never shatter I try to find a place to hide To him, my secrets I can't confide Yet, he knows them all Every detail, no matter how small It creeps me out I want to scream and shout But people would think I'm insane Even if I make my story plain No one would believe me For I'm the only one who can see That man and his weird eyes They're colored with lies Scanning every detail Always without fail I tried to read his emotions My trials were met with demotions Please stranger just leave My misery, why can you not weave? There he is, standing still Chaining my free will An image never getting clearer That is the man in the mirror
Shadows on the wall Parents drunk screaming Screaming baby, his tears fall He should be asleep and dreaming Why are his parents fighting? Don't they know he needs them? Why aren't they stopping him from crying? Don't they know he needs feeding? He's a little baby he needs his parents Screaming and plates smashing Is all that he's hearing The mum and dad blame him for their actions The neighbours have called the police They could hear the fighting and shouting Parents carry on drinking and fighting Saying the police won't be allowed in The police are forced to breakdown the door All of a sudden I'm in the arms of a strange man Taking me away from the parents I've been crying for The officers say they have arranged plans For me to go in to temporary foster care I was only 3 I didn't really know what this means By the time I get there I'm fast asleep in my dreams Resting from a long stressful day Something I shouldn't have had to witness I should have been allowed to play Why didn't my parents give me hugs or kisses? The next day I wake up in a strange house So I guess last night wasn't a nightmare? I know there are a few people walking around But my vision is unclear I don't know who they are What are they to me? I had so much pain in my heart At this time I was only 3 Mum? Dad? Why aren't you where you should be? I've got open arms, why aren't you there to hug me? Why don't you acre or love me? I was scared don't judge me Got moved around so much 27 foster families by age eleven Parents drinking until they throw up Where am I heading? People pretending to be my mum and dad Have to call these strange kids sister and brother Always feeling angry and sad Hating the world for all it's made me suffer I got to have contact with you But it was only 6 times a year I didn't know how to act with you Wanting to ask why you don't care? But I never did I always blamed myself Could I have been a better kid? I even tried to Kurt Kobain myself Dad then a year later you died And I still hated you I know I was selfish But I felt sad inside I couldn't help it But why did I care about you dying? You never cared about me living Never stopped me from crying Didn't accept the love I was giving But I had a gift for poetry It's always been close to me I hope you both had a great time with the drink and drugs I made it without you I didn't need your love
it's like the confusion has set in. it's happened before but has been ignored. it feels like not a face cares about the well being of such a beast. a beast that hides his insides in fear of insult and ridicule. he has done wrong yet the people still blame him for mishap. he cannot express his true feeling because no ears will listen. he cares so dearly for her, but she refuses to come forth. it's been long that they've conversed, yet it means nothing to her. he does not care for appearance, in his mind, she is a goddess. a personality people can only dream for, but never find. she was the only one he could stand talking to and listen. if only she felt the same way, things would be perfect. he does not need anyone else, he does not want anyone else. he wants her, and he's tried, but she threw it back. now he is in an endless spiral of abysmal hate and confusion. wondering what he should do next, he wishes not to hurt anyone. times like these turn people insane, but he is stronger than that. but the absence of light is the only thing that is on his mind the absence of light will end this feeling of agony... if she wont want him, then nobody will.
I'm feeling secluded and alone again I'm lost in my tiny room I'm in a grave without the funeral It's my social pit of doom How did life become so empty Do I have a sign which is saying no entry Maybe I'm to blame for this social suicide Is this all part of life's rocky ride I'm left with just me and my thoughts Feeling all out of sorts My own company is my worst enemy It's sapping and wasting my energy But I will never come crying to you for sympathy My sheets will not become tear stained with blood There will be no flood I'm stuck in this mud Is anyone listening Is that understood Or am I just misunderstood Where are the shoulders on which to lean I don't know what's happening This must be a dream So if you won't walk with me I will walk alone Through my zone to find my throne Why is it that inside I keep feeling so afraid I fear this isolation which I have made Has become so entwined on me I've become my own worst slave and enemy Living deaf dumb and blind is leaving me behind It's getting me nothing which I try to find My confidence is low, how do I strive on I don't want to mess up anymore I don't want to get it wrong It's hard enough to believe in yourself When you are not believing in me emphatically I'm left with this loneliness enticing me sarcastically And so I'm left alone and empty In which it has gripped me And it has stripped me down again This destructive loneliness It won't leave as my one true only friend
Once in a while I meet a person whose eyes tell their story The story is like the sky reflection on the seas of glory The eyes are all the wonder of the world It sees the future, past, and present The eyes give us knowledge of the world and reflection The reflection of sadness and weakness of each creature The wonder of each individual being has a present To the world who has lots of false images To arise the moment of that one glance To follow the heart in romance Just the reflection that gather in your eyes of blue What a man and a woman should view Life is such a pain without stopping to see each eyes Its like roses you have to enjoy each passion in side When that moment collides with mind and heart Nothing in your soul can keep your love apart Join in the fun look in every eyes of a person beside With passion and romance I bet you, you would cry The luster of all the things to come A bounty of life long needs to be given by just the wonders of the eyes The blue seas reflects the different depths of our feelings And it should become revealing Come to your senses with ravaging hormones of lust The sea can take you and even the reflection in the eyes of the person The beauty is not held by one it is held by everyone Such looks with fear for no relief Is almost a dreadful part in our human nature Beware of what can happen when emotions are held Held to the core of an individual No such thing is kindness when you find yourself in the Sea Blue Eyes Calling in your soul by just looking With ignorance you play around with such futile emotion Gush away the fear and do not go insane with life so dear The grasp of the titans comes to reveal The evil within your heart is so obscenely noticed You want the sea and you want those eyes to look at you with wishes The rage in the heart are waves that cannot stop It pushes and pushes with no regret The heart falters and there is only one thing in your mind The idea of one soul to be with is the ocean The rifts that is trying to break to end the wants of desire Cannot be trusted in a human lier The beauty of man is destruction The beauty of women are commands The eyes of each does not matter in the sea Because all emotion and desire is given to those who are true Command of a person is just one thing The desire to destroy is another The Sea Blue Eyes will see no bother cause it bares it all Even the utmost desire To be continue.
There goes that smile again, loose like a stray hair, greying; caught upon the breeze. You wheeze out a last laugh remembering times gone, Back when you shone. Now only with mind's eye, rose-tinted, is it hinted that you knew of the summer and spring. Smile-wrinkles and worry lines still enchant, Even as they plant: bitter-sweet feelings deep in my soul. Crow's-feet clutch as memories call out their last sweet siren song. Past these old lips a complaint spills: discomfort and distance. Far from me, lost. As the frost covers your world, those first flakes stick. You again thick in fog moan about those kids and how they sing. Holding your hand I take night watch, weep silently at endless loss. Later as I toss and turn I imagine that your mind remains intwined with mine. That all, for now, is fine with you, I forget all life now is tinged with the bitterest sting... But then I remember...
The ice on my skin burns like the sun, As the freezing steel makes another run. Searing pain reminds me of why its done, Medical precision assures the blood will run. With this pain another news story is spun, Followed by the segment of the one who used the gun.
Nobody told you life was going to be hard. All you have to do is live it and hope the moments you don't want to remember becomes blurs and the ones that stay with you make you who you are. Nothing comes easy, nothing is hard. It's what you make of it...and I just want to be me... I'm tired of how every moment we spend thinking of how different our lives would be turns into a sob fest and we all know how this feels; so what can we do differently? What can I do differently? I'm losing me, changing and I can't stop. No matter how hard I try. I feel like a fish out of water, gasping, trying to survive. Waiting for someone to save me! All I'm getting are flat lines showing that I am dying. The sun is going down now, and noting is left to be said. Slowly I wait for the day to end so that I can sleep and dream the dreams where I am me again. Where I feel alive and happy; instead of a mirrored image of myself… ...and tonight I sleep with the thought that I will wonder aimlessly through the shadows searching for what use to be me finding, a person who no longer exists...
You beat up your girlfriend because you are a brute. I tried to send you to jail but your girl won't prosecute. I'm a preacher but I won't marry the two of you. If I did that, it would be a very evil thing to do. It was a sad day when she agreed to be your wife. I will not help you to destroy that poor girl's life. Besides physically abusing her, you verbally abuse her as well. How dare you expect me to help you make her life a living hell! It makes me very angry when I see her battered and bruised. I begged her to stay at my house but sadly, she refused. Your girl is a fine lady who I've known for many years. It breaks my heart when you make her burst into tears. You will go to other preachers but I'll tell them all about you. And when I do that, they'll refuse to perform the ceremony too. I'll make your girl see the truth if it's the last thing that I do. I'm a servant of the Lord and I'll always protect her from you. (Even though this is a fictional poem, many women need protection from domestic violence.)
~ Harlan's Holler ~ Dean Kuch ©2014 The locals say, in the light of day one can visit Harlan's Holler, stay on the path don't incite the wrath of the man who lost his daughter. The townsfolk say, to this very day, you can hear poor Charlotte cryin.' Beneath silv'ry moon, where young lovers swoon, as she lay there, slowly dyin'... In the August heat, with tiny unshod feet, Charlotte ventured into the Holler. She soon lost her way when the light of day Gave way to midnights squalor. Ripe berries sweet for her mom to eat she'd gone there for the pickin', her bucket now full, twirling locks a' crull, the creeping darkness began to thicken. She wandered for days, to the towns dismay, poor little Charlotte could not be found. Old man Harlan yelled; damned them all to hell— then placed a curse upon the ground. No crops will grow on the ground you sow, all your livestock will surely die, you'll toil endlessly, in the end, you'll be just the same as my Charlotte lie. You'll burn in hell, you'll see, in the end, you'll be just the same as my Charlotte lie... The days dragged on under the summer sun as the child withered to dust. Fred Harlan died, Bible at his side, felled by his curse and vengeful lust. Down on Harlan's Hill you can hear them still, mournful sobs by Pa and daughter, when the moon's just right, in the dead of night, stay away from Harlan's Holler. Lest you tarry there— 'neath the moon, beware, of the curse of Harlan's Holler...
Drop to my knees and I'm begging Come back, don't leave me Do one more thing and I'll disappear I swear it, just wait and see Just put your hands around my throat Squeeze it as hard as you can Don't let go, don't stop it Clench until I am damned I'll close my eyes in silence, See nothing no more I'll gasp one more time This is what I'm asking for Please give me this And I'll walk away You'll never see me again Not after this day
Don't let yourself be scared, be confident. Don't hold your soul back, just let it take flight. Standing alone in an empty room admiring art from pictures of me and you. One glance back at the life you knew before, One last tear that wasn't meant to fall, One last embrace to know you were real, One last breath to make sure you were okay; One glance back. Sheltered in your arms, a curtain of love binds me. Hunger in your kiss, to know that you need me. But I'm standing alone in a crowded room filled with people admiring pictures of me and you. One glance back at the life you knew before, One last tear that wasn't meant to fall, One last embrace to know you were safe, One last breath to make sure you were awake; One glance back. You left me on my own worried sick about you, holding onto all that was left of you. The memory of you walking away, with my silent prayer hoping you would be okay. . . One glance back. . . One last tear. . . One last embrace. . . One last breath. . . One glance back at the life you had before, One last tear that was meant to fall, One last embrace to hold me through the night, One last breath just to see the mornin' light. One last glance. One last glance. . . One last tear. . . One last embrace that I hold dear. . . One last breath that saves a life. . . One last glance good-bye. . . Good-bye. . . good-bye.
1000 white lines sat, There on her arms. She covered them up, So no one would stare. She wore her long sleeves, Everyday of the week. Hoping no one would notice, Everyone just thought she was cold. She seemed so happy, Just on the outside. But deep down inside, No one knew just how much she was hurting. She would keep to herself, So happy and smiley. Not one thing could be wrong. That's what they all thought. When she got home, She would go to her room. With her door locked, She sat down on her bed. She rolled up her sleeves, And her arms started to scream. The names that they spoke, Made her eyes spring with tears, And her nose really runny. She pulled out her knife, From the top drawer of her dresser. And glided it carefully, Through the skin on her arms. The blood prickled up, So warm and so red. Maybe, she thought, she'd be better off dead. So she took the used blade that she had in her hand, And made an incision, As deep as could be. She lost blood fast, As her time ran short. And with her last breath, She wrote on her wall, with bloodied up fingers. 'I'm sorry for this.' The words boldly projected. Hours went by, And her mom called her for dinner. When no response came, And no footsteps were heard, Her mom became curious, Just like she should. She stepped up the stairs, And opened the door to her daughter's room. She ran horrified over to her daughter's side, As she lay still, The light gone from her eyes. Her mother's eyes glistened with tears, As she saw the clear message. "Why?!" she cried out. She then ran for the phone, And called 911. But it was too late. 1000 white lines, Now glitter her arms, As she lays in her casket. She's now with the stars. Everyone she's known is completely heartbroken. Just knowing she's gone. It's all because of those thousand white lines...
"You stupid, worthless piece of s***! I can't stand you, you dumb ass b****!" Knocking me down with every syllable As you drag me from the dining room table Grabbed by my hair, my scalp is on fire Thinking of when I smiled, now I'm a crier You punch my face as if you hate me Using your words to constantly berate me I fight back but it's of no use I'm too weak against your abuse Choking me, I feel light-headed On my neck, his handprints are embedded His eyes bloodshot, consumed with evil His words, once loving, are now quite lethal Brutally pounding at my self-esteem Happiness seems to have only been a dream What has happened? What did I do? Why am I treated like s*** on your shoe? I have gone above and beyond for you My love for you has been loyal and true Everything I do seems to provoke you So on edge that I can't even joke with you Once strong and confident, I am now very meek Unsure and afraid on when I should speak I don't even know the person I am anymore She has withered away down to the core I need to find her again for she has value And leave your ass alone because it's long overdue.
Walking down a lonely road, I pass a pond which no one knows. I crept along to its edge, And deep within i found the courage. I dropped my eyes to the black abyss, The things i saw i wished to miss. The dreams and wishes of the damned, Staring back i began to stand. My body ran from that hellish place, My mind it stayed in death's embrace. Nevermore, did i see, The God i praised, watching me.
This fortress is coming down; It's been a long time in the making. This bastion can't hold its own; All these walls are shaking.
As more perverse lifestyles are glamorized on t.v. I wonder what kind of country this is going to be? You'll often find on the news interviews of various kinds… Entertaining more garbage to "dump" into our minds! The garbage and filth they're often promoting…. They think this same kind of life, I should be "enjoying?" There's something very wrong with this picture! I don't need the news to give me a "moral lecture!" This may sound old fashioned and absurd… It's time we all come back and obey God's word! It's the word of God! Not the news, we need for instruction! Without God's truth in us, we're headed for destruction! God still loves you very much! And he hasn't forgot… You're always on his mind, and his thoughts! He's what you need to focus your attention and depend on! He is someone who's faithful, and you can count on! Won't you walk away, and leave the filth behind you? And allow God's love and mercy to reach out and find you? He will never disappoint you! With a brand new way of living! An abundant life with peace and joy…. Is what he's giving! By Jim Pemberton UNSUPPORTED CODE
Guard your heart closely through all your seasons, Open wounds he'll find to borrow within, He'll creep in slowly committing treason. Does not need to have a special reason, His kisses slowly stop you from breathing, Guard your heart closely through all your seasons. After you wake, you find a strange lesion, Wallowing in an original sin, He'll creep in slowly committing treason. All along you thought he was just teasing, Question yourself how did this begin, Guard your heart closely through all your seasons. Find yourself uncontrollably freezing, A plunderer tried to take his cheap win, He'll creep in slowly committing treason. You're left with an image that's not pleasing, Eyes shut, recalling a menacing grin, He'll creep in slowly committing treason, Guard your heart closely through all your seasons. By: Sabina nicole
Baby I miss you I miss the way we snuggle and get wrap up together I miss the way your lips touch mine I miss the way you touch me I miss when we held hands Baby I miss you I know when we went our different ways that it was my fault not yours I never wanted to let you go I was just so sacred that if you really seen me for the real person I am that you would leave me I never meant to say goodbye forever Now you moved on And I'm left here with a broken heart I'm trying to be strong but your always on mind I can't seem to erase you from my mind I'm sorry for ever hurting you.
Fields black and sundered so, Mists of tears, forgot in woe, Showers of rain, standing still, Skin as white as snow, Passers by wander not a sight, Pay no heed to such a blight, Showers of rain, lost in ill, Wandering each... stone cold night, Forgot, abandoned, this lowly one, Hope is lost, all yet none, Showers of rain, brights forsaken, Misbegotten hope, now that all is done.
I Losed A Huge Part Of Me Thee Other Day, Heard The Heartbeat, He Said Everthing Was Okay, As We Waited There, Time Began To Pass, I Was Getting Scared, He Walked In The Room, And The Words So Insercer Entered My Mind, Just One Word, And The Whole Room Went black, People Stared Like What Were You expespting, My Baby With His Arms Around Me, I Felt A Tear Roll Down My Cheek, And I Didnt Care Who Saw, All I Knew Was A Huge Part Of Me Wasnt there, Emptyness, Felt So Lonely, But Everyone Was There, Mommys and Daddys Little Angel Was No Longer There:"( So Heartbreaking: But True... R.I.P Jamie Mom And Dad Will Keep You In Our Prayers
To watch you leave, watch you walk out Hurt so much and filled me with tremendous doubt That we were every truly friends It was as if you really didn't care in the end This life, so full of secrets and lies I never understood any of it…and you walk away, back turned away from the silent cries My heart wrenches with unmendable grief Why did you ever come around! Why must I hold on to this false belief That you ever cared when you really did not Your lies and secrets, so full of raging hate, I tried to love you…I tried to show you a friend all for naught. I do not understand…and I never will because you will not allow me too I want to understand…I want to help you and be here for you But all you do is push me aside…push me away Bury me in silence, stab me with your misery…but still I wish you to stay But you do not, you still leave, still walk out that door And I fall…hard to the unforgiving cold, hard floor Weeping bitterly tears of repressed sorrow and pain This empty void growing, tearing me from the inside…but the smiles I still feign I still walk this crooked path that leads to nowhere Wondering if maybe…just maybe I will find you here Because you've stolen into my battered heart and made me care And now I cannot let you go…not ever…I wouldn't dare Yet you still do not care about the hurt…the tears You still just walk away, continuing to spreading your fears And she goes with you You knew that she would and you allowed her to
You allowed her to abandon what has all become this shattered group Nothing but a repeating, battered loop Of anger and torment And she still follows you and would to the end of the earth without thought of me or him We are nothing in your twisted version of the world, everything you do based on a whim Except when it comes to her, she is your everything And you are her everything And we, me and him, are the nothings The nothings that inhabit the space and air around Worthless, more so than the ground That you stomp on; and hidden deep inside Where all the monsters and demons reside, And I DAMN you for dragging her down with you To the depths of nothing, where you run and hide, because it's all you ever do And I DAMN you, because you take her from me And it shows just home much, I really mean nothing…to you or to her…but I'll never be free I will never escape this bottomless hole of hopeless sorrow I have placed myself in, because I will always want you and her, today, yesterday, and tomorrow It will not matter I will not, and he will not We will never matter, we will only be forgot She follows you, and I watch, my heart ripping from my chest I cannot take anymore, this abandonment bringing me, to my final rest.
In a war-torn town on a cold Christmas morn' two children huddle close trying to keep warm. They have asked for no presents, no toys of fun, just for the gift of life and the silence of the gun.
Streams of blue fluid Flows downward As fragile carcasses decay Without a peep of a sound We're in the brink of disaster… Who invited such fear and anguish? Who could lead us to quiet waters? We bleed… Polluting the waters below us… Trickling down the mountain To our filthy feet… Cleansing the sin off of our skin But, it's tangled from deep within… The eeriness breaks The hearts of a thousand strangers They all fall away powerlessly… Into the chambers of death Danger is lurking in every corner… Pursuing its evil plans To cut down our hopes… Growing like crops… Rising rapidly – It never stops Dreams of misfortune still Rapes our minds, Plaguing our happiness… Consuming the darkness… We're sprawling on the ground… We're crawling like infants… Veering briskly like serpents… Who will set our souls free From suppression? Who will preserve our hearts? Don't prey upon our Guiltless lives… We're in complete agony… Does He consider Our prayers Of support and nourishment? We scream… Breaking the repulsive solitude… Encourage us to keep on Trekking toward Your light Where's Your path? You rinse off all of the sorrow Giving us a ecstatic tomorrow The weeping ceases… While the corpses Tear into Blood-spattered Pieces… The faith of a couple of people Strengthens us…keeps us motivated… Not captivated… In misery… We're reaping our Ecstasy… Leading us to peace and fortune Keeping us accustomed To Your purifying spirit… Keeping us away from Calamity… We're hungry… Our demise is close at hand… Closing in on us abruptly Like an obscure cave… Rescue us from affliction – Embracing downhearted clouds… Those wretched clouds… Brought us rain when we asked for bread… Those merciless clouds… Spewed out scorching fire when we asked for relief… Remember our supplications… Appalling lightning's daring to strike us Out of cruel vengeance Out of sheer amusement Don't even attempt to weaken us We're blossoming in joy… We're under cover… You can't manipulate us Like a subtle toy We're praying for Quiet waters Offer the deceased A second chance Don't disown Our broken lives We're not alone… We're just waiting until The quiet, glistening waters Gratefully arrives…
Convince that you are the one for me. Persuaded that I am the one you need. Deceived that you desire my love. Refused to see the truth so I wait. Believing that your heart is not filled with hate. I cry for my Heart that I am not confused. Praying to God that I am not just being used. Blinded by the, Yes I will marry you! Consumed by the, Will you marry me? Walking down the aisle to meet my groom, didn't realize it was the day of my doom! Oh! What can I say. Blinded on My wedding Day.
A young homeless child Looking for a home but finds none. On my first day at school the mother's not around To comfort me when I'm down-right scared An innocent child of seventeen I find myself locked up in a placement An innocent child now afraid of time Will I forget my goals and dreams? I go to Maryhurst And meet people who care I learn about peer pressure and much more Now comes the time To break through..... The Fear
She's locked in silence and fear, behind that cold glass wall. She tries with all her might to not give into her darkest temptations. And grab that stealy cold blade, and watch as her blood comes pouring out. She lays in desperation waiting... For nothing. For everything. Her desperation takes over, begins to control her. She cries out in anguish. Let's it all flow out. Tears, Blood, Love, Family, Her Life. It all comes out in one swift motion of her best friend. Her razor blade. She closes her eyes and clenches her teath. Wishes it would all go away, but she knows there's not such thing. Grew up wanting to die, it was so hard. Wishing she could be normal like everyone else. All she wanted is not to be locked in a box full of emotions. Blood flows down her arm and all she hears is her silent sobs. Watches her life pass infront of her. She fades in and out. Laying in her pool of desperate, worthless blood. One more breath, those last words. I love you mom and dad.
There will be a time when anger takes over. And all other emotions fade. Where madness turns to power, To which diesies are made. Where the people who think that they own the world, Who have hatread swelling around them in curls, Allow the poor to cry out in hunger, And the rich to eat till they hurl. Then the monsters that don't like others, And think that they all should die, Lock them up in lice ridden cells, While they laugh, and say it gives them a good high. How life above, up in the sky, Will even fall to its torcher. They'll start wars, create plagues, Until one cannot even trust they're mother. But for those who were lost somewhere in the middle, Were given a gental gift. The man who came upon the day, And hoped to kill anger will a holy riddle. The children had come upon the streets, And sat on the man's soft knee. They learned of love and caring, Which filled the streets with glee. Then one day, while the new year raged on, The people came with harsh accusations. He had told of love He had defied the nations. The man had tried to end anger, But failed. Anger had won, it finished its deed. They made fun of him as his life was taken through hatread that was nailed. Into the earth. Life. Everything. With a horrid, angry force of sheer strife. No more emotions on the rise. Only broken hearts, And starless skies, And people throw angry darts. There will come a time when anger will take over. And all other emotions fade. Where Hitlers, and Satans run the world. And the earth's death bed is made.
Chip away at the surroundings, To get to the spoils inside. Mindless of devastation, Or the pain as a nation cries. Off in a new direction, The agenda must be upheld. Global unification? A very grim fairy tale! Greed on their back as they pillage, Warmongers with hue and cry! Fodder sent home in a wooden box, As more and more people still die! Freedom and liberty long gone, As we are snared in the tellers net. Peasants and squires of near future. In the worst game of risk ever yet! Stolen and lost are our rights As the parasites hold their heads high! Choking on lies as they spew their untruths As to why the next country must die! Nothing it seems will stop them, Hell bent on their mission it seems. The ruination of the world... As they crush its inhabitants dreams! Turning on their own people People they should try and protect. When that trust is gone it's all over, Because what do the people have left? Civilized nations turned monster By the leaders consumed with greed No happily ever after.... Just the planting of evil's seed! Chip away at the surroundings, To get to the spoils inside. Mindless of devastation, Or the pain as a nation cries!
You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up
Look what you've gone & Done Now, Tell me that you can see- Exactly What it is -that you've unleashed- That was burried, Hidden Deep inside of me- So entreanched in hate & Anger Because that's what you've left For me. Inside, I can it feel growing- The seeds you so thoughtlessly Sowed down Within my soul, Dont you realize you cant mess With a girls emotions With out having it all Start to take its toll- Erin Anderson-04/20/2012
Her skin white, drained Her expression dark, pained Eyes staring out, completely blank Hair lifeless, dank Her fingers curled, still In her mouth, a cyanide pill
glass wall, hides no fear, twisted lid, holds me here, lost inside, a crystal cage, collecting dust, along with age, broken wings, so my fears, in this jar, i hide my tears.
I am a painted doll with a mean looking face I prey on your mind of love there's no trace An hour glass in hand I tell you it's time When the sands run down your time to die You ask me, why is it me, why am I to die I say it's because you are sad you do not try Your always write sad rhymes no joy in your life Better you die no longer to mourn Better off dead should never been born She spies the spindle ready to strike Grabbed it and killed me The lone reaper no more, this time, I die. 24/02/2013
Didn't we do enough to earn the best, oh dear God? We suffered every day, and went through hell. We never left, we kept the faith in You, oh dear Lord. Why still didn't we earn the mercy of Yours? Why aren't we happy still? Maybe we forgot the sense You put into our lives when You Gave us the possibility to breathe, Maybe we don't see, or never Understand the truth that rises above us. It's complicated. Only holy ones can realize. But we keep going. We were left on the empty road, And there is nobody to take us, Nobody to save us from the sorrow. We may breathe. We may believe But how are we supposed to Find a way, oh dear God, When we are so lost?
Let you be I don't want to hurt you I don't want to I don't I don't I'm so sorry I'm so scared I'm scarred I'm scared I'm sorry You're always so great to me Always Always I'm nothing but trouble to you Nothing but impending pain and torture Grief and Sorrow Nothing good Nothing good I am so very sorry I'm sorry that I cling to you as a life line That I can't be strong on my own Like a helpless child I look to you I'm pathetic Useless Horrible I say I'm here for you Yet…am I really? Or do I just think I am Do I just believe that I help you half as much as you do me, But in reality just make things worse I can't decide I can't think The pendulum swings faster The ocean tides rise once again I'm drowning in my own doubt I'm drowning in my own paranoia And then there you are Ready to dive in and pull me from the tortures From the ever changing fragments of my mind But you still get hit By a deadly wave By the pendulum And you're brought down Why do you continuously help me When I just continuously bring you down You could easily just let me drown You could easily leave me be and save your own sanity But you do not You are not like them The people who have left me to be buried You are different You are an angel You save me time and time again And I just wish I could save you I wish I could let you go So you no longer were punished by me So you could be happy Because when you are happy I am happy I feel you I feel what you go through How much I haunt you How I torment you And if I could just release you from that I know you'd be better So much better without me Without my damaged mind But I can't I can't I am too selfish I can't let you go I'd drown I'd die The pendulum swings faster Faster The waves grow The tides get higher Higher Crashing Crashing And then… Your hand reaches mine And everything eases I can't let you go I should But I can't I never will be able to I'm too scared too And I'm sorry So very sorry I'm too selfish I'm sorry
Darkness sets in on a man. A weak, powerless man. A man trapped in his thoughts. Battling and trying to fight but falling into a constant lose. Trying to seek a light. But there's none in sight. Growing weaker and weaker each day. He's holding onto strings better left to fray. Sitting, thinking, breaking down with his head in his hands. Figuring all this out only to which he understands. Not knowing his fate. He's disposed by hate. He's a mess, Filled with stress. Cant find a away out. To much to think about. Just a dark, weak minded soul. It's really taking its toll. He's been through so much. That he's effecting to the slightest touch. Its a long way to break free. To think there's a chance and one he must see. But he's not even close to reality. He's trapped in a place that he's always known. There's no way out and the door isnt shown. Struggling not knowing his fate. He's disposed by hate.
It's quiet in here Almost completely silent All I can hear is the dying mechanical hum of whatever's barely keeping me alive I'm suspended in something Much like liquid but far more restricting My eyes are burning So I keep them closed And it's that much less pain I feel It takes all I have To reach out and touch the glass And wonder what's out there Wonder what I'm missing If I've got to stay here my entire life Then what's the point of....living?
The American eagles left their warm nests before snow fell on the evergreen pines and spruces, so did the ravens, grackles and petrels... hidden among the white mountains, the river still flows. So peaceful, so cold is this winter afternoon, no other sound but the waters babbling on rocks, flowing into the wide valley below without a tune... two months ago, the placid lake swarmed with ducks. Footprints are visible into the frozen snow that no one loves... who would venture in this life-threatening wilderness? Could it be a grizzling gone astray, or searching for his cubs? Leave it to the imagination, or simply take a guess! So peaceful, so cold is this winter afternoon, and the more I look, the less I think of danger... I would love to get out and discover it like the slow-moving raccoon seeking food until he shivers and decides to turn back with anger.
Lingering whispers fester in her head, Secrets and memories roll down her cheek. She is aching to be heard, Yet the pins In her lips Won't let Her Speak. One day she opens her window, Warmth flooding her dead eyes; Her skin aglow And smile blooming, "I'm finally Free!" She Cries.
The room in the corner, With its three wood doors, Each heavier than before, A subtle air not of fear, Patient vents waiting to hear, Clenching at the scent, Umbrage and stale paint, Taste of turpentine and taint , Dust gracefully composed, Large eraser shards in throws, Senile light made rent, Lingering weight of lead, Below a layered graphite bed, Glows like the antithesis of chrome, A shallow doom drawn in monotone.
Rambling rants of a disturbed mind genius in his day, one of a kind fighting against some archenemy flailing and arguing continuously family visit heartbroken in their eyes, no need to be spoken on a good day he just ignores their presence, one of his chores on a bad day swearing and cursing a painted smile they've been rehearsing the man they knew is long gone but in their soul, his memory shone they keep hoping for a breakthrough a precious glimpse of the person they knew
No one is here No one is there They all left and deserted me Their taunts and torments I cannot flee And I become so full of anger and hate Now whenever anyone good tries to help My words only destroy Consuming all life, burning all joy My angry heart burns Pent up emotions yearn For freedom, for light, for a friend But all are gone…gone in the end Tears burn my eyes No one caring-no goodbyes They're just gone Gone And any good that may have been around Is now buried in the ground Then she comes one by Slowly, almost unnoticeable like a fly She slips in, laid back and full of hope Want to help, give a way to cope She's so quiet and coy But my words only destroy My anger controlling me I just want to be free And I feel terribly sorry for my venomous bite You only try to help-not fight I want to believe in you I really do But in reality I am too afraid I fear that I am too far lost in hate for your aid But still you try Even after I make you cry Everything lacking joy And my words only destroy How do I know…you will stick around in the end Be the one who is a true friend I do know I know Because you have told me so And I will believe in you And do all I need to do To change this shattering, decomposing angry heart Change my view, get a fresh start And maybe one day I will no longer hurt you And I'll be able to show you Just how much you mean to me If I can make it, get away from this hate and be free But doubt clouds my thoughts Hoping is it worth the pain Waiting for this healing rain My words continue to destroy It will never change…I will never change…only destroy Only destroy
Holy books says it all You taught me how to crawl This will never change Never ends never fades Dear God where you are? Shattered piece of childish dreams This will never change Never ends never fades. I can fight for all my life, Not broken, not broken inside Never be so frustrated, Not going to commit suicide. Fuc*ing faith will fall, Mortals will stand tall Hell and heaven are all the same Live your life, don't die in vain Only you and I can make A better world for tomorrow Have faith in yourself And wipe off the tears of sorrow Make me scream, Make me cry I'll never fail to try. This night's has an end No pain will remain
Laying here. Can't Sleep. No sounds. Not a peep. Just these voices in my head. Why won't they leave me alone? I just want to go to bed! Driving me crazy! Insane! ...And perhaps even mad. And the only time I get glad, Is when these voices aren't putting me down, Making me sad, depressed, Frightened. No light. Can't see like I lost my sight and These voices are trying to decieve me. I hope they don't get the best of me. At first I thought it was my conscientious. Thought I was feeling guilty for all the wrong I've done. Until I heard another voice as well, Then three, Four, So many i can't keep count anymore. But okay, I get it, you probably think I'm crazy. In the middle of a cold, dark, lonely alley with no one around me and suddenly a scream, SHUT UP AND GET AWAY FROM ME! But no, you don't get it. You don't understand. Numerous voices telling me how worthless I am. I have no memories. All the pain from the past dwells in me. But it's not my fault, It's these voices in my head. All this started when I tried to go to bed. They told me all this would be better if i was dead. They promised me no one would care. So just maybe I should send this bullet through my head.
W.T.H (Welcome To Heartbreak) My world envelops me into a state of darkness and misery. What happened to us, in my heart and mind remains a mystery. I thought our love would go down in history. But I fell into the trickery. Played by the pessimistic person that I was. The person that does what's wrong and shoves away the feeling I was given: Love. My world was full of color, excitement, and love, that other feeling. Now, everyone leaving, I remain the only human being in this world that no one else is seeing. In this darkness, I try to find meaning. I try to find my love that I separated from long ago. And throughout the days, the harder I search the faster my heart fades. Your voice raids through my ears every night. And I get my hopes up at the sight of the light at the edge of this darkness. With all my might I fight until I reach that light. You. Face to face, tears swell up in my eyes. Every time, this feels like love never dies. But I always fail to realize that no matter how hard I cry. No matter how hard I try. You always tell me bye. My tears, once again, roll off my cheeks and on they fall to the broken street. For one last time, our eyes meet. I stand my ground and gaze into your beautiful soul. Then I'm swallowed by the cold. My chest goes numb but my eyes stay warm as I watch yours. Once again, my heart opens up like doors and I feel one last jolt of warmth. In a hoarse and empty voice I say, "I love you." I reached to caress your cheeks and all of a sudden I find what I seek. The colors streak back into my world and I feel that one feeling again. Once again, I fall in love with you. Once again I know what to do, but I can't. I reach forward for a kiss, but I realize my body doesn't feel this bliss. Once again, my world envelops me into a state of darkness and misery. The colors fade away, quite literally. And the cold bitterly bites at my heart and sends me back into my world of trickery. Once again. I lose sight of everything I see. But I feel your presence still with me. I step forward and see you once again. I reached my hand up then. Wishing what was coming up next, wouldn't. I knew this would happen for eternity so I braced myself for this next take. With the sight of you at stake, I reach forward and feel the space between you and my hand enclose, but I make one last effort to touch your face for my sake. Then you slowly fade away as my eyes once again begin to swell. Soon all that's left is my eternally immense heartache. And I now introduce you to my world: Welcome To Heartbreak.
a hollow shell of tangled synapses sparked into gradual madness which drowns out the truths of the day as the mind reeks of the rotten sad moments that swirl in the rancid soup of forgotten dreams dreams that once traced a gentle path of innocence dreams that reached for pure love's tender touch dreams now paralysed but once vivaciously alive what became of those fresh dreams and hopes as they lie mustily on dusty bookshelves torn into shreds by time's fine scimitar devoid of the touch of raw passion when all that remains of love is a hollow shell
That moment when you realize, what love should be, what you lost, what you didn't see.. That one memory, that you cant forget, that haunts you, that makes you wonder why you met.. That piercing look and, she makes you melt, she teases you, she makes you question all you've felt.. That end result, you'll never quite recover, you'll always regret, you'll always wish she were your lover..
You hold your side Because if you don't you know you will just fall apart Honesty, does nothing. Might as well lied You breathe deep to fill the empty space A place where hope should be But there's not a single trace You run to the space in your mind That's meant purely to hide You will never have a home Words just to make you cry The cold can't touch you Because the fear has already consumed you Fear you thought you could hide The pain you thought the world was bind too The hardest thing to know Is that your suffering is shown That those around you see you dying They reach out there arms But your not trying to get help You can do it alone What's one more punch What's one more burse Or one more tear It makes you stronger Your just standing to close for it to be clear Enough is enough and you can't go one more day With a family of broken trust But your legs won't work and you clasp There's no more fight in you There's nothing left to do You cry out to the heavens Screaming your sorry for everything you did And everything you didn't mean to do You know it's not your fault But it doesn't matter, His wrath is unwavering He didn't do it so it must be you. He tells you when the world blows up, it was simple to kill you Fear is something you learned at a young age Something that's stronger then love and stronger then rage Fear of losing everything he let you have You can wish and you can pray But one simply fact still remains He own you every day until breath leaves your body For fear and pain Is all that's left Because that's all he made
8/11/12 ---------------------------------------------------------- There is a small soul within every crowd A soft voice against the senile bickering of the strong And the small souls wish they would listen Wish you would listen But the ears of the majority have been stuffed with pride The puffed up breads have come out of the oven And the oven closes on the non-finished They were never finished The masterpiece was torn They ripped off its horn as they lavished in greed Letting the soul bleed in the cruel wreck of silent despair As they laugh knowingly and unmercifully And I am left to listen to the blood trickling, groveling at my feet I am left to the weak—the strong The purified—the gone I do not want to ruin everything by mending As everyone is breaking I am bending And my throat is constricted The air has caught wind of a little soul's voice Begging for acceptance. . .for love For an ear that isn't breaded with self-indulgence Crusted in disgust. . .drooping the damned I am transformed into an image of a god For this poor, sweet, ignored soul Lies are his god. . .listen to my words And rot Listen as it constricts you—as I inflict you It is better if I had never existed I will not be worshipped in this prison! You are everything to me and nothing And the cursed breads rise Sweet scents pour into your flaring nostrils Watering my sunset eyes And you see me watch as they turn their minds away A guide towards lies and sticky debris You follow the path not caring where it leads Hearing the voices that refuse to clear their ears And that therefore blind them In worry and fear I caress your tear and swallow Your words like a vacuum The disposable bag is always empty with dirt Like a hearse I drive your body away My blackness flaring My horn honking As everyone is staring. . .not wanting to know what I am carrying inside
I dream but soon feel You are the cold water to my face The match near my toes The free fall that woke me up I woke up Upright and down turned I take frequent peeks at the nightmare I waited in I fell And fell But only fell in love The love This love Only love Is what held me in the flames Of burning passion I ignited and you fed I was doomed from the start The split second of the fraction of the exact moment our eyes met In a second I saw you were beautifully caring, peculiarly fun, awkwardly enchanting The second after I knew you were one in immeasurable amount of any like you And the second after I was trapped by silent thought "she is the one" That echoed as slow as the seconds that passed by It only took three seconds Longer than blink But faster than a greet It was Hell at first sight So know this.. This is not a poem This is a cry for help Save me from my pain Save me from my thoughts Save me from the love Or is this life it's self I live all just a Nightmare to?
Pain , pain go away. Please don't come back another day. For if it stays, I might just pass, And their would be no more mass. For the pain i have.
The sun is low and it is setting and all of your empty promises come to mind, one after the other and I wonder if any of them will ever hold any real weight instead of simply hanging on the hopes of two young kids who want nothing more than to be together. I'm saying goodbye to my worry because in the end, none of them really mattered anyway. Nothing really does besides this moment, infinite and suspended in a constant state of waiting; for you to call, until our eyes rest upon one another's again until our bones are let to tangle up in a knot held together by the sheer promise that we are never letting go. I wait for the day I won't have to and I think of the way you look at me in the morning light as it filters through the cracks in your blinds. The gold and white in your hair, illuminated by those same rays that make your eyes shine so brightly when you smile at me, so small and unsure, afraid that I might not be all that you need when you are everything to me. I can't explain your self or all that you are and sometimes it's hard to hold on to, let alone grasp, but I hope that one day you can find it in yourself to let me hold you in my heart, to be mine, and be right, and to settle for the best of me while everything inside me screams that I might not ever be enough because all that you deserve and the small fraction that I am are two entirely different things.
God, I don't think im ready my confidence is drowning like a Louisiana levee I don't feel prepared and all that comes won't be shared I don't posses what I feel is mine I feel like i've forgotten how to rhyme I'm hungry like im poor and I keep meeting up with closed doors But when I go where I go, sometimes I get lost I get led on and I get forgot So I approach life anxiously because I know more pain waits for me
Invisible - Unwanted Broken - Bruised A life once so pure. Now only full of fear. Tunted - Teased Hit - Aubsed A life once so peaceful. Now full of hate and anger. Bullied by those who thought it'd be fun. Chased by those who thought they could do anything. A childs life, taken/stolen Parents, never knowing of what's going on. Until. It's too late.
Left in my own thoughts Tarnished forever through nightmares Pierce me with your passions…tangle me in your knots You left me…I have no choice, but to cry… I'm breaking by the seams I drink in the sorrow… I spew up regret… I cannot drink any further I drink and drown myself – unable to hope for tomorrow I'm left in my own thoughts…I cannot walk any longer I recall my past decisions…I'm swallowed up by the echoes of fear I'm not your valuable merchandise! Don't seek me – you wanted your dreams t