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All That Refuse To See Your ears shut wide eyes up tight a menagerie sits in absent light Time and reason are out of sight stonecold now is courage's might! Your eyes embrace a newfound cave even logic can not your mind save in blindness you are now a slave treading a path to shallow grave! Your screams raise no great alarm dead plants harvest on your farm No more shall love be your charm chained legs match each dead arm! Your last days filled with cries fruits set onto your many lies Dark clouds moan in your skies Heart rots as soul slowly dies! Your death was an incoming tide bled from arrogant false pride Fait accompli no man can hide none succeed, many have tried! Robert Lindley 01, 23, 1979
YOU Your Uncaring eyes Push me Repulsively Braise me down to a pit of abysmal. Your balance ego Keeps me on the void Tainting my walls While I, Twitch Bitter Words Of yuck Behind your back. ~SKAT~
Anger, pain and dramatic stress The 3 things that I possess Me, Reggie is okay at times I sometimes choose to confide in my rhymes I express my feelings through a pen Just like some women get satisfaction through men. This isn't a poem because this is a thought I have thoughts moving so fast, just too fast to be caught. I hate being stressed Just like I hate being possessed I don't mean to sound evil and mean But I am different from the other people you have seen. This is not a poem…this is a thought I have thoughts moving so fast that they can't be caught. I have it good to some…others have it good to me Some don't realize how hard it is to be A poet…it's hard writin' poetry with a lot of feeling You feel forced to write something appealing You break down cause cus' you feel an obligation To write good poetry that there breaks your concentration I found a solution that my mind's fighting Maybe I should stop all the poetry and all the writing These are fast ideas too fast to be caught This isn't a poem this is just a thought
He was always so happy strong and bold. He'd give you the shirt off of his back. Tough. Independent. He had a rough life growing up through the depression, but like he always does, he got through it. He has two boys, of whom he is so proud. Moved from Regina, to Victoria. He had the best life anyone his age could have wanted. But ever since his wife died, he has not been the same. Sad Lonely Empty. But like he has always done, he got through it. Mind slipping, just a little forgetful. That's how it always starts out... But like always, he powered through it, until now... He is not the same person that I used to know. He been sentenced to the prison in his own mind. Possessed by the thoughts of his dogs ashes. He likes to play the blame game, but we know he doesn't remember that it was him. He wakes up in the night shaking with pain, tears streaming down his face. There is nothing we can do, Oh well... Two more tylenol. Hold on to hope for as long as you can, It's only a matter of time now. He gets vocal, a very loud tone. He'll block you in your room and make false accusations But we know that it's the pain induced monster in him. Tick tock, tick tock... You can't handle the stress anymore you have to leave. Just hope for the best, maybe it will get better. Surprise, it doesn't. Your denial is foolish, everyone knows what happens next. Sedation Medication Anger Hurt All results of dementia
The sweetest sounds of burning trees A gentle stroking in the breeze The calm has lasted past the storm Cloudy visions, Satan's roar Too many sights have passed my way A time found only in the haze The softest screams are running bare My aching bones creak as I stare You walk a distance towards me The fall's eternal, can't you see? I'm a memory in your heart I whisper to you in the dark The battle's started at the end No one is coming to repent The sinners grab their wine from prey No judgment calling here to stay The sport is reckless to be told The one is laughing at his souls It falters nowhere to be sure The power grows forevermore Like a spirit in the wind I have no say in where you've been But cross the line to come to me And pay the price for ecstasy You walk a distance towards me The fall's eternal, can't you see? I'm a memory in your heart I whisper to you in the dark.
My soul pounds with rage. This heart has been scorched, by your burning words. My soul gasps for light slowly suffocated, By your hands of pain. I bare the mark of shame. Your touch has maimed my body. My mind drowned out my screams. Blow by blow, Shamed so low. Never did you know how, Your hands of pain marked me.
As I remain here where I lie, I keep asking that I will quickly die. I hate this stupid self-centered life, where all people are filled with hate & strife. As my mom feels so wonderful from popping pills, I'm stuck here with the worst gut-wrenching feeling that kills. I'm sick of my life being filled with tears, cutting, & sadness. Why can't we just end all the madness? Why can't people have a life where no tears are seen, only laughs, smiles, & happiness. And no one could intervene?
I hate your touch and your smile. Wicked little creature. I hate your blue eyes and brown hair. Sinful hate filled liar. I hate your voice and your scent. Rotten two-timer. I hate you everything you do for what you did. But we loved and touched, smiled, talked and connected physically. You lied about our moments spend, you can't look me in the eyes. You lead me on and stole my youth, but don't have the nerve to speak to me now. I hate your beauty and your thievery; but loved the way you made me fill. I hate that you now do the same to another girl; your lies blind her. I hate the diseases you carry; love the infection you gave. I love you and can't let go, hate because I'm smarter than this. I hate this poem because I think of you with every word... Your eyes, your smile, your hair, your skin, and your kiss. Most of all... I love you for the time we had. I hate you because you don't want me now. Now what???
It never takes much for me to fall in love, but i love, love for all the reasons I hate love, I love, love because love is what holds me through the night, but that same love may hit me in a fight, I love, love because love is my protection, but that same love may hurt me from rejection, I love, love cause no two loves are the same, but falling in love is like continuing a game, and i just don't wanna play anymore, I want a love that will love me and except me, Don't try and change me, but that is just the type of love that will never find me, so instead of hating love, I fear love, I fear love more then I love, love, I have never feared expressing my love, but I fear falling in love too deeply cause I know that is just the type of love that will hurt me, I have falling in love so many times, it always seems like a race against time, love never stays with me, it always leaves me, it always finds a way to hurt me, whether it's taking a boy from me, or taking away someone in my family, loves my tragedies, but without love leads me to sanity, I hate the feeling of being alone because I spent my whole life alone, I'v done everything in my life on my own, I don't think I deserve to be alone but I fear what love may one day do to me, because love I know will one day hit me, just like daddy hit mommy, just like love hit my sister, love wouln't let them excape and I'v seen the pain the blood and the tears, so love has become the source of all my fears, I never stay in love cause i feel the need to fun from love, but this I will never tell, I may say I love but it's not the same type of love inwhich you know of because when I love I love deeply, but my love for love is running swifly, I am getting older by the year and one day I will have to live with a man, but I will not love that man I will fear that man, because if I love him he will grow mad, and he will one day hit me, thats why I fear any guy loving me, because loves my tragedies.
The collision of my feelings, And the confrontation of words, The lies, All the lies… Hatred, hate, all the hate, I hate… Drown in my pain, Until you suffocate, And free yourself from me, To free me, I hate… A million words burn in me, A thousand screams call for freedom, For salvation, But my soul is abandoned In the void, I hate… Let me fade away, Let me turn into black, Let me dissolve into nothing, To free me from myself, I hate… Fear, Free my fearful heart, And take me away, Anyone… Let these words stop: "I hate." Break the chain of eternity, Kill the immortality of my torment, Let my blood flow in my veins, And let the air circulate In and out of my body, I hate… I hate… You…and you, I hate life, I hate me, I hate… Everything, Hate, hate, hate, "Hate , hate , hate" I woke up saying, With the letters, "H" "A" "T" "E" Sliding between my lips, I cried loudly, For I felt it, I felt the hate, Conceal all my feelings; I felt it make me grab a knife… I stabbed myself! I stabbed my heart…it made me stab myself… Just to free itself from me, And to free me, Forever…
I hate her. She isn't that ugly And she has enough friends, But i still hate her. I hate her. Her mind, Twisting thoughts into illusions. Illusions folding into reality, All to escape herself. I hate her. All of her problems She projects onto others In the vain hope That someone will wave their wand And save her From her fairytale nightmare. I hate her. All of her weird habits And sudden depression The way she cries about The smallest thing Cutting with her words. I hate her, This girl i see in the mirror.
Knowing me now, I take the central target No matter what it seems that I am lost I throw away what could maybe save me I break apart when I need to stand If I am so much to me, why must I fall down? To over-think what comes, I'm full of lies But this self aggression is what I was raised on Without depression I feel that I'd be gone With hopes of grandeur and a hope obsession With lies built up as though there's no such thing With hate affliction and a love addiction I'd be dead before I'd even smiled Knowing you now and my eyes wide open I am the phoenix and I'll take you down For within this anger lies a desperate child No matter what he knows he can't be saved Despair is over and his dreams forsaken The ashes rise now and the blame's on you When I wake without the mask of laughter I will scream and I will burn you down My judge will die now and all words forgotten I am fire in its purity Even if you see me I'll tear your eyes up Burn you out with no sincerity I'll reach your mind and I'll make it blind now I'll find a way to make you hate yourself I am all of you and more I've seen through everything before What you feel will gather in me And with this I will bring you down I am fear and I am the helpless If I live, my goals are far too dark With self destruction and a fading mask now Give me ears and I will avenge The self conflictions that avert my eyes here They're too far gone now to ever stop So give me anger and I know I'll smile Feed the phoenix and you will get burnt
So here I sit, at night, alone Bored and just too many cigarettes to burn So I smoke and I wait, seemingly for a call And really just ache, cause it's not coming at all You're too many miles away from home I feel the distance at night, alone I hate you for the restless nights And I hate me because I know it's not right To sit in front of the computer screen Searching for the words I just want to scream Not even knowing the pain that I feel How to describe what feels so unreal I miss, just miss, everything that is you Laughing for hours at things that you do And how could it be that this is the end What was to be a lifetime of new things to begin But here I sit, at night alone And the numbness inside is all that I know
If this wasn't ment to be then why did God let it go this far? If I cant have tou to myself, then why should anyone else? Im tired of suffering while youre out partying with your friends. I hate that I cant hid from all this, but some how you find a way you can. I hate when I see you for the first time in months. I hate that I build myself up, only to let you tare me down. I dont wanna love you anymore. I dont want to look at him and see you. I dont wanna think of the "What If's". I dont wanna see your face everywhere I go. I dont wanna cry everytime I hear our song on the raido. I dont wanna think about our past, thinking of ways I could of made it last. If you didn't love me, then why did you lead me on? If you didn't care then why were you holding on so strong? If I was the one, then why are you with HER??
Love, I hate you, Not 'cos you're ugly. Love, I hate you, Not 'cos you don't love me. Love, I hate you, 'Cos of your great love to me. Love, I hate you, 'cos of it; A listener, you don't want to be. . You heeded not what I said, Even thou, I beg you, to "back off!" "Now, Look! You see… what we've done!?" A soul is in grieve, 'Cos of us. With your love, My soul cries, too. Love, I hate you, For intoxicating me, with your potion. Thou, you know… I am a married man.
Put a bullet in my brain as the rain sweeps her out of my arms and places her into another's. Put a bullet in my brain for I don't want to see love slip away please end my suffering, for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man. I fear the tear that slips away from my soul and touches the ground with a splash as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain, please, someone put a bullet in my brain. I can't bear to see her with another man laying in his arms as he charishes her beauty just like I did to her. As she smiles and laughs at his jokes my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love. Please tell the rain to stop, as the pain grows when rain comes down, please someone end my suffering, put a bullet in my brain and stop the rain that washes away every memory of her. Stop saying you miss me and just kiss me for I can't take the pain of the rain that takes you away. Kiss me and stop saying you miss me for those are useless words to me. Love is where it's at, so show me. Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong. Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn as we yawn the long night away. Kiss me and don't say you miss me. For if you go away from me, I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away. Tears, sweet tears crying for you, doesn't that mean anything to you? I ask you, stop the rain, stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain. Let the red blood flow from my temples. Let the plow dig my grave, for I can't bare to see you with another in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you. I can't take it, I have to make it, make that pain go away. Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye when I came up and said why! Put that bullet in my dome and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church you come and kiss me, and then you can really say that you'll miss me.
All this time I have always had my doubts, Not the person led to believe is what I found out. To be deceived and lied to for oh so long, Down deep I knew there was something wrong. Head over heels I had fallen in love , Always thought you were sent from above. How the knife is twisted into my side , So much pain I can do nothing but cry. These memories of what I thought was real, I'm confused and I don't how how to feel. Is this really possible that I did not know, Through all this time it never showed. Such an evil thing to do to a man , Especially the lies which he could not stand. How cruel and cold your heart must be , To carry on as you did never letting me see. Hard to accept all those moments so dear , Realizing they are now my greatest fears . What was to be Joy and Happiness, Replaced by the feelings of a loneliness. Never did I imagine this happening to me , Thinking that you and I were meant to be . It's a very hard thing for a man to accept , When he finds out that he's been tricked. Was it the money or the control you had , Maybe because you are really just that bad. Some day soon for this you will have to pay , For the sins against me and your evil ways. Goodbye to you who ever you are , For in this heart you have left brutally scarred. Tac.
Dedicated to my Dad who lost his short battle w/ Colon Cancer on June 18,2013 I hate you Cancer Your vile evil and cruel You don't care who you hurt I'll never forget that day I'll always hate you for it Your heartless Cancer You took someone important from me Someone important from others too Took people who didn't belong to you I hate you for it You disgust me Cancer You had no right to take him from me He mattered more than my very own life I hate you for taking my Daddy I hate you for taking others too I hate you with a passion Cancer You took part of my heart with him You took part of my soul that day too I hate you for it I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you with every fiber of my being Go back to Hell where you belong I hate you, others hate you Your not welcome or wanted here Cancer I hate you more than his doctor's I hate you more than God I hope I get to witness that day Witness the day you fall And you will fall Cancer You're gonna lose the battle one day Cancer I'm gonna laugh and dance around your grave You'll finally get what you deserve And you'll never be able to take another soul Sabrina Niday Hansel ______________________________________________________________________ Placed 8th in Poet Destroyer A's 2013 "PINKTOBER" Contest Please Support a Cure for Colon Cancer & every other type!
I'm lost hurt and angry Why did you take his life I want, No I need to know Tell me, Tell me why I deserve to know Haven't you done enough to him What'd he ever do to you He suffered his whole life Suffered more than anyone deserved Tell me, Tell me why you did it I have a right to know Why'd you let him born to them Born to worthless parents Parents who didn't care They threw him away like garbage Pawned him off on someone else Tell me, Tell me why Explain how you could do that You gave him Polio You let others treat him like disease You took away the full use of his legs You warped his hand and foot Tell me, Explain to me why I deserve to know You let others think he was crazy You let it go on for over year You didn't stop it, Why Tell me, Give me your reason Answer me God, Help me to understand You go and make matters worse You gave him Cancer You didn't give him a chance to fight back You just jerked him away from us Tell me, Tell me how How you could be so cruel How can others not question you When others do it, It's murder But when it's by your hand It's your will, Their fate Tell me, What makes you so different Your no better than the demons knocking at the door You heard me beg and plead You know I'm not afraid to die I was willing to carry it all for him I was willing to take my Daddy's place You didn't even let me say Goodbye Tell me, Tell me why I couldn't take his place Answer me God, you owe me that much Spiritual
You have my soul, but you have your fate Whatever your words, I'm willing to take You have my word; I'll give you my breath It's like a chain that would never be break You are my love with all my heart, I'll fight for you with all my might. And in the way, you admire your goals, You hold my hands, but not so close. As you go to your chosen path, I'll accept the fact that we will be apart. In the dark side, I leave behind Within my faith, that you'll arise Please don't look back, coz I'm fighting still I'm hurting so much! Don't want to have you near I accept my fate for what it does, I'm bleeding so much, do you know for whom it was? You reach your goals, as you want to have, Would you remind the man that gave what he had? As you reach the stars, and be the one Be a sun that shines its own. After the rain, the rainbow comes, Like dark in the moon, when the light flash A glimpse from you at least a short For then I knew my pain is worth.
Breaking down in the heart and mind. With all regrets that are truly not kind. Shocked at people are, so painful to see. Abused with hated and ecstasy. Violated and directed with torments Lost of words or comments. Hatred gushing out of life long experience. Reminding yourself to become absence. Coward and scared to even breathe. Like the feeling of knives unsheathe. Sharp but not enough to cut. Enough to scare like a door that immediately shut. The hand raised to help you is a lie. It is a hand that slaps you so you can die. Rough around the edges. Crawling in your dreams in ledges. Powered to stay alive. You feel people want you to take a dive. Just stop, and fall down. Hoping to break your mental crown. Hiding a feeling that never feels real. Like shaking hands with demons for a deal. Blocked out, out of your own story. Thinking that people are stealing your glory. Ashamed with fear. With eyes that are full of tear. Lost in such hidden romance. Luck has it seems to be a dance. Moving around in your head. With scary thoughts and dread. Feels like you never leave. So you feel so many that grieve. In your mind that is lost. Full of drama that holds you down in cost. Keeping in the shadow. You watch people so shallow. Gut instinct says that life with them is a muse. When your just standing your accuse. Society is just so lame. Like all the people that are in it your to blame. Soloing life is a brief. Walking away is some what a relief. I dreamed of many things. With beautiful sorrows of wings. Wavered in a direction that leads no where. Escaping everything by a hair. Pointing into the sky. And asking yourself why. The cage is so big. Just enough to put on a huge rig. Moving back and fourth. It feels that your life does not have a worth. Caned by laws of laughter to deceive. Shackled up to be bent to your will to receive. When you hope to hope. A person can just show you the rope. They have such friendly hands. Like the deserts of sands. Dangerous it is to just keep walking in it. Lost cannot find your way even a little bit. Just seem like your heart feels dry. Then you give up and give a sigh. That moment that you do is just all a dream. You are really in a ward you will scream. Thrust upon you because you could not protect. So what cost you is this effect. Warping in to your mind to leave this place. You feel full of disgrace. With nothing to drink. Causing your true self to think. Grief is such a pain with sorrow to gain. Looking out in your own rain.
You think that you know me But you don't know at all Every day you say your sorry After that I fall I hate it when you lie You think your doing good When all you cause is pain Just tell me that you hate me So my life won't be in vein...
They took away my innocence— A child, but merely two years old. My soul left with ambivalence; I hate myself as I grow old. A child, but merely two years old— Abandoned, glossed over, abused. I hate myself as I grow old; Completely left confused and used. Abandoned, glossed over, abused— Why would a person hurt a child? Completely left confused and used— Naïf, so trusting, meek, and mild. Why would a person hurt a child? My soul left with ambivalence— Naïf, so trusting, meek, and mild. They took away my innocence.
Let the Deicide commence. You're a voyeur at best! Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest! And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence, And for you there is no forgiveness, On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies; The father of lies. I will never be enslaved in your superiority The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies. Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be Apollo and I will share our dreams, and you will be forced to see your failure! I know who you are... Readily the first to present your scars Chained by some despot or mental czar An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate! ...And you see me suffering Not caring of any casualties Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways Solipsist - Is there no one you can see? Even if she was presented burning? Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe? Even if Sophia was screaming? Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me Imprisoned in your own personal reality
P aranoia permeates, etching itself into your fractured face, A cacophony of constant pressure; life remains a stressful race, N othing to hope for, no positives like promotion in the workplace, I nability to love, relationships lift anchor and set sail without chase, C hildren crushing dreams under mortgages; age grows with disgrace !!
They are bound to the Earth like trees Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen Hoping that one day someone will see: They can't escape with lacerated wings The ocean surrounds me, covering everything Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find I can't escape with lacerated wings. Swarms of nets, waves of screams Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams The mask has be seared - The truth now they see The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings There's reasons for your rejections: Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression The scars are too deep to pass the trials But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings
A sweet flower's funeral displayed in the cold months of snowy weather and bone chilling shivers. A sweet flower burned away, dried up; buried six feet under. Oh, my sweet flower, how you once bloomed with no remorse, like a madman blooming with beauty and a glorious halo over your head shinned with such power and blinding glory. Oh my sweet flower how you have gone now, resting in peace in the land of paradise. Oh, my heart it is weak when I see your face, of once beautiful smiles and warm embraces. I can hear your crying out to be free. Snowing and bone chilling cold ripes at my soul and feelings of sorrow rage through my blood, boiling my hatred to the world, for losing your sweet and ever glorious beauty. What I would give away, if I could be with you one last night, one last night together to hold you in my arms, to smell your sweet perfume that brings back sweet memories of you and I. What I would do to be with you, such romance travels through my heart in the highways of my veins in my body, love is all throughout me, and my heart breaks when pictures of you start to collect dust. My love for you, my sweet flower, is still ingering through the air, as I travel and look upon a tombstone which shows your beautiful name. Come to me my dear flower, when spring comes, come to me my dear, sweet flower. And bloom once again, twice as large as last year, and ten times more beautiful then last year. Come to me in the first months of spring in my dreams, so I could sit and talk with you. I miss you already, and my heart crys, my eyes flood with tears of sorrow. I miss our love we shared. Long walks, cosy talks, warm cuddling embraces and beautiful displayed in a picture frame. Now I hear the tapping of raindrops on my window pane. That is all that keeps me company, that and the rose you gave to me and a picture of you and me. Love is endless, even when blue eyed Death comes to visit and play a game of chess with us, we all play our game, my love. I shall go tonight in my sleepy slumber and dream of you in the times of our height in our love for each other. My lost love, you are gone, resting in paradise, but never forgotten my sweet flower. -10/6/2013-
She writes her songs and her poems, not one person know 'em. She listens to the sound of her music, she's stuck to it like a tick. If someone took the time to listen, her true colors would glisten. She's put on a mask, and hid everything when someone asked. She was the type of girl who would always laugh, making you wish it would last. She was the type of girl who would smile the day away, too bad it is no longer that way. She is now the girl who is depressed, I bet you're impressed. Since no one could tell that she was going through hell. Everyone thought she was happy, when really, she felt crappy. Everyone thought she was having the time of her life, who would have guess her best friend was a knife? She spent her days alone, she seemed to do everything on her own. Never once wanted help. Thought she could do everything herself. Then the day came, when she lost the game. She fell apart, and everyone saw her broken heart. They saw the way she overreacted. Oh, if only you saw the way she acted. She bruised herself, scratched herself, and made herself bleed, no one knew what it was that she needed. They saw her tears, and that was what she feared. They found out she wasn't okay, oh, she hated that day. Everyone found out about her secret, and she wish they'd just forget, but she knew they couldn't, and that they wouldn't. She left that town and started over, no one knew she went undercover. She said she got better, when really... something else occurred. She secretly hurt herself, and walked away from help. Everyone thought she recovered, when really, she was undercover. She secretly wanted to get worse, no one knew of course. No one cared to ask, if she was wearing her mask. Now it's too late, she locked the gate. Killed herself, everyone had forgotten she needed help. Goodbye cold world, this was a story of a girl who once loved everyone then feared who it was who won.
To lose someone you love.... Its like trying to live violently among the peaceful people who are dying To lose someone you love.... Its like Im living in lies with laughter and happiness while Im truthfully sitting in anger and pain while crying Im grounded in shame yet Im still airborn with death together we flying Its hurts when one dies past groundshaken proximity under the hate but sent with earthshattering love above where we live to die yet we are born to survive where we bred to learn to get past all the ones we have lost with hate because ITS REALLY HURTS TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU LOVE.
NOTE: This poem is a humoruos stab at PMS from a mans point of view I can see your blood boiling through the blades I once called eyes, they were once beautiful like jewels now they hurt my deep insides. cutting at my guts and like a noose on my lungs; your words seek like bullets your mouth like sniper guns. I'm hit with each inaccuracy… Being killed by words untrue; and you even got the nerve to tell me what you think I do. But let me get mad and try to plead my case; then suddenly the world is a f--ked up place. You got tears running down… What the Hell did I do? We were just sitting and laughing I could swear that we were cool. Oh God… Oh no…; I should have seen it… It's Aunt Floe…, This battle can't be won or reasoned I think its best I go. Cause I hate Aunt Floe and she hate me too; she sit and talk sh-t about the gum I chew. The color of my shirt…, She say my look is a stair; She say my best has no worth And she doesn't stop there. I didn't change I've been the same these 28 days, but now I'm f_ckin A__hole Aunt Floe gave me that name. She said get out my face This aint your home no more, But I'm more puzzled by What was said before. I love you With her glossy eyes I knew it was true, But horribly sly You see these words make me the fool. The one that's cruel That a__hole dude, That sparked the fuel To this f__kin feud. But I swear to God I didn't start this sh_t, Why would I give up my love To live my life like in a pit. This is horrible sh_t Wasted days spent, On nothing but the worst I could be bathed in your sent. You could be laughing While I'm smiling But Aunt Floe Won't let this be, And the only way to make this right Is hold my tongue a week. And that ain't gone happen I'm a person too, Not soft But I got feelins and don't know what to do. Now its been six days Unbelievable rage, She locked herself In the room I call it her cage. I smell a sent in the air It wasn't there before, Now lookin down the hall I see an open door. Is this a trap I'll guess I'll see, If I fall for another You know that's dumb ass me. Curled in the bed I think I know that girl, But where's the hells Aunt Floe The one that f__ked my world. She packed up and gone Didn't even say good bye, Just came wit gang of bullsh_t And vanished in the sky. Is that you my dear Can you please come here, Listen close and crystal clear… I hate Aunt Floe Next time she here Make sure I'm stocked with weed and beer. I love you punk. ?
She has so much pain inside of her, she doesn't know how to address it. So she turns the pain into anger, after she explodes, she becomes quiet. She goes up to her room, upset. Why does the world hate her so? She thinks to herself, "That's it!" But in reality, it isn't though. She lies on her bed, Pulls out her book and reads. As she turns the pages, she loses her head, In her mind, she thinks "This is what I need." A place to escape the world, Somewhere she can run. For it seems everyone hates this girl, And nothing she does is fun. She plays her cello And loses herself in the music She does this when she feels low Then she plays the song of her pick She listens to the beat she makes, Trying to make it sound perfect, But oh, she keeps making mistakes, She thinks that she will never get it. She leaves the cello alone And watches her shows She then grabs her phone And tells her best friend the show as it goes. She leaves the TV on, Then she enters her laptop. She stays on till dawn, She just can't seem to stop. She loves the idea of leaving the real world And entering an imaginary one. That's the story of the girl, Who is never done.
I am the face of misery My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring, The years are written in the same Lugubrious, nostalgic grey How can it be the author to blame? I cannot scream this all away… Burn nor Bleed this all away… To Death I am Ordained Lacuna ever growing With Velvet sheets of life flowing Aeons apart of my "royalty" Under the mask the cannot see... Can you dispel this tragedy: Antigone - Epiphany failing If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone No words of hope No words of hate Do I have Lenore to send to me: The sordid child of Thebes Caught In the longest nightmare life - the slowest way to die I know this is my life But I'm not under control under the mask the will see Just Another Human If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone Can you dispel my life; this tragedy? Can you control the storm in my mind? I'm asking you: can you rid me Of The Curse of Antigone?
The hunter I saw a man once on TV He was hunting grizzly bear Then bear, he got the upper hand And blood was everywhere That man was in an awful state But I lacked in sympathy You live by sword, you die by sword That's just the way it be. I knew a man, a fisherman He hunted for big fish But when his boat did over turn He never got his wish Cause big shark came and took his life And Karma, it was done It seems that this time hunter lost And mother nature won. It seems some folk are low on soul And only live to kill I have no sympathy for these And nor I ever will When the game gets turned around They've only they to blame Because they gained their pleasure from This heartless killing game.
In the attic, above wooden floor, through the hallway of psychotic, locks upon my door, near the broken window and glass of the sore, hiding in the shadows, bloodstains on the wall. Number nine, house at the end of the street, where lights are low, where silent never sleep.
The wind blew events all over the place. Intense emotions and it gave chase. Lightning lighting to show us the sky. People try to sleep and not cry. Wisping by the wind keeps us awake. The time trying to sleep the storms take. Chills in everyone gives all shiver. The clouds surrounded by moonlight is silver. Heavenly prayers that the rain will stop. The flood stopped a car the person in it was a cop. People have seen such devastation. The road that people made was week in creation. Rivers near by was over flowing. Trees that were there was not showing. By the hour it claimed many. My father woke up and did not see any. Floating by was a boat. Keeping people above water and a float. My father kept a canoe. That some day we would use it, that he knew. Time to paddle up and down the street. The rain water kept getting on our seat. It was so dark after the moon was behind the cloud. Still the noise of thunder still covered the ears loud. The smell of moist water never seem to go away. My brothers seem to still sleep anyway. My head was bobbing up and down. I was so tired that I could not hear a sound. The wind blew back and fourth. It seems that my mom and dad paddle their worth. Till all the people we saw with grace. Help us out with embrace. The time was so late at night. Everyone was so sleepy and losing sight. The fight with the weather was so hectic. The feelings of energy was electric. Losing to such natural disaster is hard to understand. When people working hard to block the river with bags of sand. With hard workers like my mom and dad. They make things happen that is not bad. Rough with weather they experience more than ever. Leaders they are they are very clever. From the night light of street lights to the morning glow. The wind did not stop so. Bringing in more clouds that ill. The people who were still tired still had will. The rush of water and waves blasting push the wall side. Pushing and the force brought water inside. The battle of our hour was getting long. Backup people came to aid us was strong. Rested they were to keep everyone with hope. The people stopped the water with the strength of rope. Heavy rain and loss of homes bring people together. It is kind of sad that this was the only time to gather. Chaos comes happiness how true. This is why we are human that gives us a clue. It is our nature to keep rain falling. To know when it is time for our calling. The winds bring such pain and sorrow. That is why rain sometimes fallow.
A single kiss from thy lovely lips, so sweet and so divine, yet I taste posion upon your tongue. Your beauty so glorious, like a blooming rose so beautiful, yet, why do mine eyes go blind in the sight that you walk along with another? Yes you, walk with another, arm under arm, lips touching lips in romantic kisses, it makes my blood boil, for mine lips are dry. For mine eyes have seen your glory, yet no one here listens to my story. You are evil, yes you are, don't try to deny, Listen to a man of experience, you might as well save some expense. I write of our long romantic walks we took together, under the shade of olive trees, how we went apple picking in autumn time, and made love in the foyer. Nomore of that sweet and passionate love, nomore silent kisses in the night, when the wind blows hard against the branches, that tape violently on my windowpane. Nomore somber tears shed, when you got sick, and nomore warm embraces when you shed tears of betrayal. Betrayal now is a game played by a fool, such as I, to think I'd have a happy life with you? Huh, only a fool would think such a thing, but now I sit, looking at the foyer, where we once made sweet, passionate love, nomore will that foyer be filled with exotic pleasure. Nomore will you be filled with smiles and exotic pleasure. I've done my job, as a good man shall do, now pack your things and get of my stage, the spotlight yawns for anew, and the audience grows tired and restless of you. Now I live life anew, you too shall see life in new eyes, walking hand and hand with the blond, blue eyed devil you call your own. Shall he take one kiss from your lips, and die of the posion he tastes on your tongue, shall he go blind, when he sees your true, black beauty? He will see the ugly soul, covered up by white rags, and cheap makeup, and then he will come to me, and shake my hand in condolence and say, "You were right!" Now you are all alone, looking for another, as you did many times before, Now you are alone, walking an open road, spying on another, fear of being alone. Now, you see when you play games with a good man's emotions, don't try it, because a good man is not meant to be toyed with.
I tried to write about love but I haven't felt it. I tried to write about the sea but I've never seen it. Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. I tried to write about magic but I never believed it. I couldn't write about god, all I have ever done is sinned. And when I tried to write about life I found, I have never really lived.
A smile moves across her lips She gazes at her crime A scar across her flesh and soul To haunt her for all time She'll waste away for all she cares Never stops to use her brain Doesn't care about the ones who are close All she cares about is pain She wants to be what the others expect of her Doesn't care about the self-respect for her A rose can't be a forget-me-not Can't she see what all she has got Already? Never to go back again She feels the world is at an end She will never show her grief Although she'll cry in empty streetS She'd sooner live like a desolate mole Living in fear in an empty hole Screaming silent wails alone Content to live in her mental home A final tear falls from her eye It hits the ground, it's followed by A beautiful body, mutated by hate A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late One two many bricks in the wall in her mind Molding her demise because her heart was blind This self conscious being could never have won For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones She wouldn't fight back, wouldn't respect herself In the end, she managed only to wreck herself A rose can't be a forget-me-not Little did she know, she had all she had sought Already
Oh lonely Inevitable Bear, Padding claws, death in white Sorrow in recurring nightmare Instinct's test; fight or flight? Camouflage against the fence, A challenge; my subconscious fear Ominous slowly moving silence, "Let me in, there's a bear out here!"
A serpent underneath blue sky, in shade of man, in twinkle of an eye, above brick wall, in the structure, at the floor, venom of white dove; contaminated food, undrinkable water, misguided youth, pregnant daughter, unfaithful father and hateful son, mothers do pray while we walk through Babylon; on teli and in the press, on top shells, price none the less, in bedroom and at your door.. dawn of a new day seemed to be dark, after all.
Shield me from this stain I bear, remove this filth and smut I wear. Cover my eyes from the evil truth, discard these lies and hide the proof. Guard my heart, these beats of pain, from this spattered torn, loveless stain. Protect this tired, worn out soul, the one who beats out of control. Defend my honor, grace and trust, uncoil these spoils, away we must. Preserve the mutiny, oust the pure, coral the innocent with your evil lure. Safeguard the takers, fakers and rest, loosen the chains around this chest. Release my dignity, vanity and control, please shield my heart and cover me whole.
The thought of you makes me feel choked Speaking your name is like swallowing glass If you were in my arms you would be blood soaked The foul memories of you never pass You did nothing good for me Made me feel like i was rotting inside I tore out my eyes cause you were all i could see I wanted to kill you, so i tried You filled my mind with corrupt thoughts Forced me to say lies like "love you lots" But my hate for you, you can never comprehend I want to watch your pain never end Why do you keep me here tormenting me Cant you see what you did to me Why do you act like you did nothing to make my heart sore I hate you so what am i here for You took away everything i ever cared for I will hate you in my heart to the very core I want to spill your guts on the floor Because every day i hate you more and more!
I can't help but wonder I can't help it but I just have to look back The scar's that I have healed Every picture I have is so random I could cry a river I can't stop the anger within How can I love and hate thee at the same time You were supposed to be my shield but you burnt me You were supposed to be my oxygen but yet you're my carbon dioxide My heart feels like an Ice box You're a part of me You're my strength yet my weakness You're past yet my future You're my enemy yet my family I hate you and i love you at times You break me but yet you make me
Seeking accompany- Zamreen Zarook I kick to wonder what made me to cry, Am really writing as a fry, Myself launch to be dry, This ink will be a victim for my cry. What really went wrong with me all these day, What made e to forget my last day, I realized I jumped out of my track yesterday, So I regret for that, what is called as present today. Happiness have started to wave hands for this sinner, Sadness have started to move inner, The faults that I considered as miner, So far changed as a miner of a winner. My face was a comparison to sunlight, Where as my routine changed it to moon light, I wish to get that twilight, As a sinner I started to search for that enlight. I started to enjoy what is right, I remade my faults as a kite, I wished it would fly apart from my sight, My system said, you are free from your rubbish weight. It proved that I always should depend on god, In whatever the variation of my mood, He is there to clear my victorious road, So, I started to live according to His code.
Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. For kicks is why I do it now. You tell me to love but I never knew how. Our feet hitting pavement, We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin. I'm learning to forget and how to fade scars, And you let me let myself down so hard. Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. And now I just do it for smiles, We'll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles. I'd lose my head just before that chance, But if you want we can still have a first dance. Cause I think I say things that I don't mean, Once upon a time you meant the world to me. Your paper-thin porcelain skin, I know how to get right under it. But I'm trying to refrain, To make this not all end up in vain. Maybe I can learn to love like some people do, And you can learn to love yourself a little too. Or it is in all fairness to let this go? I guess we can try but then we'll never know.
You think you've gone just far enough, I could smile knowing you've gone far enough that you can't go back again You think you were careful but, I've caught a glimpse of your true, wretched form You think you can find a way into my good graces I've seen what you are, monsters with a friendly costume You can't deceive me anymore and, I don't consort with serpents You think I'm a game to be played but, trust me, you could never win Don't underestimate me You think I'm a joke but, trust me you won't be laughing You think I'm just talking myself up but, trust me, you're the ones going down My eyes took too long to adjust Better late than never It may take a monster to know one but, I promise my teeth are sharper than yours My first reaction to the hideous revelation that was your form was to weep Fall to my knees, maybe even wretch my heart from my chest and onto the carpet Then I thought about the mess it would make I decided the only blood that will spill, will be your own I was not weak, but I had a weakness A heart of soft gold stitched to my sleeve with care No longer Now my heart is a stone so heavy I could kill at least two birds at once Being the nice guy is a thing of the past Thanks for freeing me of that softness You thought I was all sunshine and delicate things When really I had just been swallowing razor blades Now that sun is setting and I hope you see it was you who were wrong Can you feel my darkness coming, because it's eager to hold you If you thought I was the one who would just stand still or turn to run Your gonna be the one with tired feet I'm not sad anymore Just sick with the plague of your lies Contagious, and I'm looking for someone to kiss Even angels can make themselves wicked When we do, we take no prisoners Still think I'm a game This one is just beginning
When a man cries himself to sleep, it is a sad sight to see, tears roll off his cheek and onto his bed sheets and pillow case. When you hear his somber cries, you can feel his pain when he wimpers like a child who treds in fear. No one knows what they do to a man when they play with his emotions, lead him on, take advantage of him. They don't know what they do to an innocent man looking for love. They break his heart that is full of love, they stab him in the back when he needs them at his most vulnerable moment they laugh at him, and tease him, Do they know what they do to a man? They slowly kill a man, who just wants a simple kiss on the lips, they kill a dreamer, a good man, with a big heart. They drive a man to his bed, with tears running down his face and force him to dream of nightmares. When a man cries himself to sleep, it is that saddest thing to see. Goodnight and sweet dreams...
It's normal to feel a dark cloud's shadow Rise above us every once and a while; And to feel as though the sun has faded Behind a mountain we can't seem to climb. To choke in the icy, blue waters of Sadness; struggling for gasps; struggling to grasp A hold; to relieve of that depression. And somedays we wish we would just drown; But breathe, still, no matter to the struggle. So we harm ourselves to satisfy needs; To feel a control over our own lives And unoppressed by the world around us. To remind us that we can hurt ourselves; More grievously than the world can hurt us; More courageously than our friends hurt us; But with scars shallower than on our hearts. Depression emanates real bravery; Where in rain an eagle soars above clouds; A sad survivor does so without wings. This is a poem I've written to remind me when I'm at my lowest that it's okay to be down and out; that I'm not a coward for not feeling "normal". I was bullied a lot throughout my school years- through all of them in fact- and with depression sometimes you're on top of the world and sometimes you just want to dig your own grave.
Death, it is a sad way to go, to leave this earth, dressed in your Sunday best While faces surround you with tears breaking the barriers of their emotions tearing their hearts apart, looking down upon my stone face, upon the face, lays a simplistic smile that shows no emotion, no teeth, no life. Death, it is a sad way to go. People hurry, say their goodbyes, but when your alive, they never come around, they never call, they never even think of you and how you are feeling. While you walk the streets, with a smile on your face, nothing but knives stick sharpe in my back and gossip burns a hole in my soul and heart; but I keep on walking and smiling. I keep rolling on through like a summer hurricane tears apart a coastal city in the heat of June weather, Walking till death comes to shake my hand and grin at my soul. Then as you lay their in your casket with a buqouet of your favorite flowers, (Roses and Tulips) they sit around you, the same faces, the same blind eyes and they all shed tears and says good things. Too late for that don't you think? Death, it is a sad way to go, but what relief you get, when finally departing in peace and leaving the drama and careless people in your life. After I am put six feet under, a week of crying passes, After two weeks I am lost and long forgotten, nothing but a stone at my cranium to keep me company and my new friends, who sleep along next to me. Dead and forgotten, but the dead never forget their fellow lost souls. Only the living forget such souls that were so good to them, now they are gone, I am gone. How do you feel, now that I am gone? Death, it is a sad way to go, but what peace you recieve in Paradise.
I don't want freedom. Forgive me for sounding paranoid or crazy. But this man used me. After knowing my history of pain. Now I see why people kill the victims and themselves. Doing away with all evil its emancipation. At my wits end. Where sanity has eaten away my brains. Where my soul has no resting place. And tears are like acid. That burns through my cheeks. Pardon my insanity. For I have fallen too many times. Where getting up is just powerless. My heart is caged. All the impact and friction it took, For years. And still it beats. Keeping me alive to face another brutal blow. Pain so severe. No medicine or words of encouragement Can put me at peace. Love is inadmissible here. For I am deceased . 01/17/13
Flat canvas; Bubbling brown ridges strike The confining dimensions in a hostile yawn: Upwards, Outwards. Walk the world no longer, an ending beckons, A precipice builds moments where swallows wager wings On new seed: New breeds. Falling buys the assurance of seconds From a sinking well. Oh well. Remember us when the globe begins to slip, Bang drums for our pity: Our crescendos mean less than meaningless. And then, when spheres crack, continue On the whorl of a thumb, Stretching hope to nothing. Run.
To the liers who were Great artists, manipulators, Perfect friends and honest lovers... To the liers who were Talkative and silent, Kind and sweet, Walking out many miles Pretending they carried Love and trust... To the liers I speak. You are there still believing In your goodness, and you are proud Of yourselves. But how sweet and true do you Look before the God's eyes? Have you ever thought about?
BURN AWAY We have all lost our way To see starlight gazers And men with broken hearts, Seeking love in all of the wrong places; Vacant lots, where women all looking for something, But not quite knowing what they look for. We have all lost our way. The only hope of humanity Is the shining sun That breaks through the blinds of my window, And the faint memory of me and her Lying on our backs in a grassy meadow, Holding hands Looked up and counted stars. Cities burn away, Sky, stars, moon, sun all burn away; The grassy meadow Where we once lay, all burns away Everything burns away, Memory and desire and love all burn away With the snap of a finger, and a new man In her own life, And I burn away. A picture of her hung high and praised, A picture of me, in a dark box That collects dust, in some lonesome And dusty, cobweb infested attic. And I burn away with a new day. I burn away. A nightmare that I can't awake from, It is endless and repeats When thoughts of her are all over my mind, I cannot take such nightmarish reality Too see her and smile, And she walks away without a trace Of ever returning. And I cry, And I burn away, The tears wash the fire away, And turn me to ash, The wind picks me up and takes me away. And for one peaceful moment, I do not cry, I do not burn away. For a moment I am happy And I smile, And go away for a while And let them all sleep in peace. -10/2/2013-
I'm about to call it quits. One more f*cking Moron and I'll be sick. I let you walk all over me not once not twice…. I lost count. Now I'm labeled conspicuous Because I attract all the d*cks. wasn't it you who said you'll stick around through Thick and thin? Now when the tough get going you hide like a b*tch! How many more "demons" do I have to wave through Let me go. Set me free. I don't wanna be apart of you and your evil. I'm not asking to live like Mario and Peach. But enough is enough I'm tired of the blows. I bent over backwards to save your as* And in the end you put me last. Who were the one who carried you when you were "weak" Broke bread with you so to speak. I was your bank when you couldn't stand on your own damn feet. So I'm walking away with my head held high. They will be no more cries. No more tears run down these cheeks. Get behind me mother f*cker. You are beneath my cleats! 12/02/12
Let Me Go! I don't want this anymore! I can't go to sleep at night, all I seem to do is write. Sometimes I read... I read until I finish. When I finally go to sleep, I hear the sound of the alarm "BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!" Oh gosh, I can't handle this anymore. I am going crazy here and no one seems to notice it, my dear. I cry myself to sleep. telling myself everything will get better. BUT IT DOESN'T! And I know I mustn't but I want that knife just as much as I want that gun I hate this world and everything about this girl She sings and tries to get attention yet no one gives her the time of day. She falls into the books she reads no one knowing, it is escaping, she pleads. This girl is me, oh but you knew, right? Since all I ever talk about is me! Gosh, can't you see? I'm my enemy! I'm my own nightmare! No one is hurting me! It is me who shouldn't be let free! Lock me up! Kill me! That way I won't harm myself... I'd like it if it was someone else Please, do me the favor and let me go for no one can save this girl from this cruel world.
It started when I was a child I was a kid with a gift That no one understood or recognized Instead of loved I was picked on and ostracized However I blocked it all out But little by Little its all coming back Like layers of an onion That held me tightly wrapped Bits and pieces of my memory That were hidden away in code Deep within my mind a door was closed I?ve reached in to remember because my life is now in jeopardy All the emotional and sexual abuse that I closed off to survive Has been staring at me sabotaging my life This life is not what I have dreamed and I am dying inside And if I don?t face the truth of what was done to me Then I will surely become the monster that I despise And as the tears bellow up I again take another breath Like soot in a fireplace and a hair ball in a cat I cough up the toxic memories As images flash through my mind With my face in the toilet I begin to cry My body begins to stiffen as nausea rises to the top I then begin to wail from deep in my chest It?s a hideous cry that sends chills down my spine As I grit my teeth and hang on for dear life A thought runs through my mind why.. why.. why.. why. I?m tired of the black outs I?m tired of the fear I?m tired of the loneliness that have held me prisoner here I?m tired of the pain and suffering that has come in my parents name I?m tired of all the trauma and I?m tired of all the drama I?m tired of the neglect that?s been perpetrated on my soul Keep your hands off of me, keep your beliefs away from me From all the mental abuse and all the negative remarks And you still don?t see how you?ve damaged my sensitive heart I?m tired of hearing all the denial I?m tired of hearing how there is nothing wrong with you I?m tired of you blaming everyone else but you I?m tired of hearing how you hate this and you hate that I?ve tried for years to heal this wound But it seems to have spread to my nephew too I don?t know what else to do I even ruined my only serious relationship to get revenge In my mind I justified their crime From all the bad advice and all the dysfunctional decisions And I thought I was reversing everything When I vowed never to get married and have kids But that sabotaging act has done me more damage
"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows. Her life had been a simple happy one. There were no pains and no troubles. Life was life and people were people. Life was simple. and life was all about tomorrows. Life didn't know about sorrows. Her sorrows. Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed. They were never there, but where? First to be sad in the naive town of joy. Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there. It was non-exististent. A meager thought and a blessed memory. She tried and tried. She failed and failed. Life was no longer hers. For Pain was her only possession. Her curse. She lived and she died. Yet, her legacy was passed on. Never was it gone. "No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows, "Save them."
Hate me now when you can still find your way back home Hate me now to see what is good for you Hate me now when your view of me is not what you see Hate me now in the morning for your meaningful afternoon Hate me now in this sunny noon so I can melt with the sun set Hate me now before the crack of dawn for your redefinition Hate me now for what I didn't do for you Hate you now for all the things u didn't do for me Hate you now when I can also find myself another home Hate you now for all the promises you never live up to Hate you now for I see the sun shines again for me Hate us together for all the thing we didn't achieved
I hate you like the Eclipse of the sun and moon====== Lightning, thunder, twisters,and Hurricane # 7 destruction upon my hate==== I hate you like the father who walked out on us====== Hating you is the only way we can relate========== Fire, burn, heat , and smoke, igniting the hate in flames=== I hate you like the lion who can't wait to devour his prey===== I hate you like ivy with poison to irritate =============== I hate you indeed, deeper than the abyss in space========= Black, ebony, coal, and darkness you fell in my pit of hate==== I hate you and dispise all your living ways========== I hate you because I want to========== I hate you and nothing compares================ I hate the living guts out of you ================ *Written by: P.D. as a request from me (an opposition to my original poem: I Love You Like)...thank you P.D. for your awesome talent
Das Ein Männlein The silent echo reflects through the lodge, Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stum… Repeating itself in the young boys head. He is not yet a man, but stands proud enough to be, Coming back here to relieve himself of his past. Crying out as he reaches the splintering and tilted door. The memories of the cold, the blistering cold overpower him. He spends time collecting himself as the moon moves across the sky. He had been here with his family- Says the toppled dining room table. He also wasn't the only child in the lodge- Says the curled up paper dolls in the fireplace. There was music- Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stumm… Echoes the toppled ivory-keyed piano in the corner. There was a war, as the Russian Graffiti on the wall complains. The crashed bomber-plane with the seat full of bones assures that fact. He came back to the rotting lodge in the forest Back to the overgrown pile of shambles to find something As he digs he picks objects out of the rubble, a boar's head, jewelry, dog-tags, And finally the thing he seemed to have been searching for. A baby's bathtub, with a scrolled handle, stares at him through the dust. What happened to the other child? She still has all of her baby teeth in her sweet little baby head. She's been sitting in that bathtub ever since that horrible night. When she was boiled to death by hungry war criminals.
velvet tears slip down my cheek. a gentle cry. and the wet drops seep in the corners of my mouth until my lungs are full of my own salty, crystalline tears, bringing buoyancy to boats that sail inside my veins. as a rule, I try not to cry. if a single tear is shed, who is to say that another will not follow? compelling the rest to join until I've immersed myself in the sea I've incepted, and soon all I see are the opalescent peaks of water colliding with my skin.
Bruises By: IzaDonna Surrounded by darkness Emotions hidden away Bruises disguised with smiles Never would think it That my past still haunts me The scars still completely cover me I hide them so you can't see I'm really not at all okay Chorus The bottles eases the pain The dust numbs the ache Can I ever just forgive? Instead up building up this hate I just want to find peace I want my smile to be real But its hard to do so When I can no longer seem to feel Frightening dreams keep me awake Forever replaying in my mind Life seems to be so much longer This winding road so much harder Can I just get a release Beat these inner demons and be free Or do I have to be forever cursed With the ghosts of the past Chorus I look up at the stars And close my eyes tight Its time for last good-byes Its time to end this tonight I take one last chug And fall to the ground Take one last gasp And then no longer make a sound Chorus I'm finally okay
I pray one day for happiness. I pray one day for peace. I pray one day I'm left alone and this pain will finally cease. Don't hate me because I'm different. Don't hate me for having love. Don't hate the fact that I know GOD is guiding me from above. I wish you knew my pleasures. I wish you knew my pain. I wish you knew how hard I try to let the love remain. Maybe we will never see things eye to eye. But hate will only cause more pain. So let's just say GOODBYE.
Why do I feel so alone? Why must I have this feeling, when His love is shown? Why am I crying? I hate how I deal with everything thrown at me. Why must I feel like there's nothing I can achieve? I know He's here, and I know He cares, but I always fear that no one's there. I feel as if everyone will leave me. Almost as if no one loved me. When I know everyone cares... It's just hard to show, I just wish they were fair. I cry almost every night, thinking of how to die, of how this came into my sight, how to say goodbye. I'm sorry. I know this isn't right. I've just been lonely, all I want to do is to stop this fight.
I did not find myself to be so important So I ask my friends do I seem distant? When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings I do care, about my friends they are all good people They tend to stand on their high steeple Today I find myself not so aware Disbanding my fear of regret and care Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out For some reason I am just full of doubt I care about so many things and what I have is confusion One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone I ask my friends the same question once again I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end So many thoughts that come out of my feeling I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing They ask me questions and I answer theirs But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way It's just so simple to answer someones problem I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow
Flying above streams of love. Poison flowing streams of hate. Streams dried and dead love found. Love lost love. Love found death. Loving sounds drowned by hate. The same hate that tore apart soul mates. Love was much,but hate over weight. Love on a silver plate, while hate on a golden plate. Is this the way of faith?If so it dose not seem to be accurate. Removing love from the throne, making hate chief of the state. Wells of love dried. It only became wet when it cried. Worldwide we cast this love aside. Still I stand by love,side by side. Along side the bonafide. By: Elliott Bowe Palindrome mad poetry contest. The following lines are considered Palindrome:Flying above streams of love. Poison flowing streams of hate. Streams dried and dead love found. Love lost love. Love found death.
Blame the rain for your sin, You said you loved me, I just want you to say How much you care about me. There were a lot of day's I await in the park for you, A pain inside of my heart, I'm destroyed from the inside. I hate you so much, It making me sick. Memories are crossing my mind, I'm tired of my heart being broken. My body walks but I'm not there, I still love you, I don't know why ? It doesn't makes sense, why ? It feels like I'm drowning In my own tears. I've always treated you right, I loved you endlessly, but You love someone else. All I can think of is hate and pain, The reason of your absence In the park is another, But you blame it on the rain. _______________________ Contest: Blame it on the rain Sponsored: Black Eyed Susan
Crying out loud, Crying for no reason, A girl without future, A girl stuck in the prison. Where dreams are coming out? When they take her dreams away? A girl without future, A girl without desire. How many things are missed? How many words are left unsaid? A girl is crying out, A girl stuck in the world. Where is an explanation? Where is a hero? Is it fine now when Girls within are still believers But outside they hate Every detail and season Hidden in the eyes of men?
Thin Line You hate me when i am around you you hate me when i am away if hating thrives you everyday i am your energy and your medicine at your need when you gossip for your play. Poetry 5/18/12 by Keith Kadell
An empty screen is like a shattered dream, Inside my heart I feel the scream! There is nothing more to say, Nothing will brighten up this day! I feel only the emptiness, I have had it with your aggressiveness! All your words so dirty, verbal abuse galore; I just cannot take this anymore! You think you are so tough? Well, I have had enough! I am hurting like never before; My tears are running, no they pour! I kept on clinging, hoping things will get better; But I'm crying, my eyes are just getting wetter! I have realized that our lives will never be the same; And all you can do is give me the blame! You are killing me with words, slowly but surely! Calling me names, making me feel filthy! I lived in fear of you, but deep down inside I knew; That you are a person that tears at other people's hearts; Your hate for me must be going off the charts! Destroy me, is that all you can think about? You are making it your mission in life, without a doubt! You make me sick to my stomach, blaming it all on me; The blame is on the both of us, yes, we! You will never admit that you are wrong; No wonder, it's your drink that makes you strong! My heart cries out, why must I always be in pain? Must my life always be the same? What a shame, a strong man... but an unwell women you can blame. I hope you hang your head in shame Because I am, forever, erasing your name!
You see her? Why don't go be like her? No one likes you, so this is what you must do. You must stop being yourself, get off of you shelf. You must please everyone, to do that, you must be number one. She's the perfect girl, you're the no one in the world. So go ahead, and give yourself away, since you're going the wrong way. You are no longer you, see what you can do. You are now her, that's better than what you ever were.
They tell you what to do, They decide who you are, They tell you how to think, They take it way too far. They pick all of your friends, If you're allowed any at all, They push you down, You can't break the fall. They keep digging at you, Kicking you when you're down, No one helps you recover, That's why you always wear a frown. They won't leave you alone, Their agression fails to subside, Physically or not, The forms of bullying are all allied. You don't know what to do, You can't decide who you are, You are told how to think, It's going way too far. You've got limited friends, If you have any at all, You've been pushed down, There's no way to break the fall. You've had enough of them digging at you, They keep kicking you when you're down, You need help to recover, To stop that horrid frown. You want to be left alone, You want their agression to subside, Whether they hit you or not, The bullies are all allied. You no longer care anymore, The pain is just too much, You separate yourself, From the bullies and their clutch. Alone in your room, You believe, is the safest place to be, Forget school and going out, It will soon work out, you'll see. You need to talk about it, Tell someone who's in power, Bullying must be stopped, In this week, this day, this hour.
Kill me now, no one needs to know how. They don't care anyways, let me waste away. I'm so alone, I'm always on my own. I was happy one minute, now I want to cut. I'm trying to stay strong, but it's been too long. I'm giving up, since no one is helping me up. I'm falling down, and there's no one around to keep me sane, so all I want is pain.
I'm sorry for all the horrible things I have said, I'm sorry for all the bad things I have done, I'm glad to havve you as my best friend again, I was sad, depressed, and desperate to hear you voice, and, Talk to you again. Oh Caleb, I cannot tell you, How happy I was, happy to finally, Talk to you after months, You will always be my best friend no matter what, You know that I will always be here for you, I miss you a lot, why oh why must you live, So far away? Why do you live in Illinois, Why did you leave me, Why did you go away and not come back? Caleb, please come back real soon, we all miss you, But I miss you the most. You are my best friend, And I am here to stay. I will never let you down, Never put you down, Never will I forget about you, I will never hate you, It is impossible, It is impossible, because you picked, Me up when I was down, you Were always there for me, and you still are, You never let me down, and you never called me names, You Never let me be sad, and it was amazing, To have such a good friend around, So why, why did you move away? I know it was for your protection, I know you had to get out of that horrible place, That horrible dark place, Oh how bad I wanted to beat them for beating you, You did not deserve that, and I hate that image, Noone deserves to be treated that way; I don't care, Who they are. Caleb thank you for being my friend again, And forgiving me, and for always being here for me, May I ask one little favor of you? PLEASE COME BACK?????????? Always~N~Forever, Briana Lynn Palmer 06-17-12 Dedicated To: CAZ
UNSUPPORTED CODE We often hear this topic across our nation. Another person crying; "discrimination." In our many attempts to not discriminate. It seems like it's God that we seek to eliminate. It seems like we've come up with our own "rules." And somehow have turned into a bunch of "fools." We accept many perversions of various kinds… But God himself? We seem to close our minds! In many of our lives, we've "kicked " him out. And refuse what he really is about! The words, "In God we trust..." Our money bears it! Anything of God? We're afraid to share it! It seems like the courts almost say he doesn't exist! And have brought much confusion into our midst! As many say it's "offensive" to display a cross… Many godly values have already been lost! It's time to wake up America! And begin to see! The kind of country we're beginning to be! A country that's foundation is getting off course. Being driven by a wicked and ungodly force! Out only hope is in God! And him alone! We must invite him back into our homes! To God and his word we must hold secure and fast! He is our only hope that our country will last! By Jim Pemberton
Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.
How can love come and go so fast? I really miss the way we were. I still love you even though I hate you I hate that you made me cry And how it is so hard everytime to say goodbye I didn't like that last hug I can feel little heart strings given a tug I want the old you to hold me I want the old you to come back I want my whole life to be back on track The ringing is about to stop No more "I love you, I really do" No more staying on skype till two The old you is gone and for awhile even you're not coming back I wish I woudn't have got mad for somethings so dumb So that now my heart wouldn't be so numb If we could have made game plans and talked things through Right now I wouldn't be missing you The old you would still be here And I wouldn't have these painful tears
Who are and who is my friends or acquaintances, confusing everyday but today I have found my self to walk a path that is not so rough I became so blinded to have friends that it pains me anyway They take a simple kindness and think that I am not tough so by deliberately challenging me to act like nothing happens I grow bold Wake up you! and all the rest, I have something to say I don't like this feeling of regret or sorrow so please do not take me cold as a friend you should know to not take advantage of my kindness in away A storm is blowing inside my soul burning a hole in it so lightning is striking in methods unknown for in the distance thunder you hear Some of the greatest warriors fall with great weapons of bow antics that slaughters such feebleness as cowardices use an unseen spear To let one know that your feelings are clear do not hesitate to do so shows fear and that is one thing that can determine your choice With kindness in your corner you should easily win and that will be great! In the end you can hold up a drink with friends and smile and rejoice
Your smile, You've been gone for a while. These are the things i hate about you. Your laugh, Inside you cry, These are the things i hate about you. And i, I think you're smart for letting me go, But i just wanted you to know... I love you, I miss your smile, A tear still sheds from me, even though its been a while, And even though your gone, Somehow, I still hear you voice, Somehow... And i love you, I miss your style, A tear still sheds from me, Even though its been a while. And now that your gone, Somehow, I still wish you were around, Somehow... I miss you... I miss you!!!
Up Up Up Blue forever Precipitation flying Soaking up the Earth's hate - Till bursting Her tears drench the earth And feed her helpless Down Down Down Into His tormented soil Filled with vermin Destroying every breath - Till Bursting. His Hate rises…
life.... it seems to be some where between heaven and hell... love and hate.... living and dying... who knows what to expect out of life to some people everyday is a smile.... to others its a cry me? s@#t.. i don't give a f@#k anymore... i really don't.. go ahead and yell and scream! get in my face and curse! tell me s@#t that may or may not be true! send me away! because i don't give a f@#k anymore! i really don't wether you love me.. or simply hate me... doesn't matter to me anymore i used to cry a bucketfull of tears at night when daddy left... i cried when i told you i hated you... when we fuss and fight.... argue but now? now im empty... i just don't give a f@#k anymore i have no more tears to shed.... no more smiles to give .... .... if i ever did something wrong to make you hate me like this... im sorry... wether you believe me or not.... im sorry... im sorry for everything i've done today yesterday a month ago... maybe years ago... im sorry... ..... .... ...i count the days till i leave... leave here... leave life... just leave...
You make me mad I just want to scream Why did you do that to me? Did it give you a rise? to see the affects, of all the heck of a mess and the stress You put me through I hate you, I hate you, I hate you! 10/23/09 Max
Sinking in deeper, No way to escape, The dark and scary Reaper, Fore told in the Book of Life. Is this my end? Will I ever see the light of day again? No. My wounds, I must mend. I must find my strength. Stand my ground, Face my fears. Only then will my voice be found I must survive. Break the suffocating chains, Run from the darkness. Power will fill my veins. I will Fight! Fight the painful names, The horrid memories, The demented games And escape My Black Abyss.
People want to commit suicide, people choose to die over livin life. Why has it come to be this way? Why has this life become so meaningless, that we just want to throw it away? We become selfish and think our life is so bad, dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have. People take for granted the things they've got, clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed, They dont think of the homeless, the hungry, not even the cold or the hot. They just think they want to be dead, Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad. We dont look for help or trust any "friends" All because of the past we've had. Dont be a coward and run away, Stick it out, Live life, I know that there's alot of strife, But stick it through day to day. People want to commit suicide, people choose to die over livin life. Why has it come to be this way?....
Future held such initial promise But shallow dreams disintegrated Coalescing into shallower reality Despite my youth, pain cripples me to geriatric apathy General interest long gone, death has become the single concern A welcome embrace, a welcome friend Tardiness is expected, as well as encouraged Release me from these eternally shrinking walls Allow the peons to continue their superficial pursuits Never meshing well into the fold, I yearn simply for permanent isolation There is not enough joy to justify the agony that life forever guarantees me Nihilism and anger, desires for maniacal retribution, the only feelings I've ever known Clouded over now by perpetual physical torment, my formerly hollow shell continues to exist without capacity for optimism Yet without hate, there seems nothing left Shall I forever be adrift?
hello! hey! boungiorno! what is the date?/ this world of dimensions created duality/ no letters/ no words/ are enough to express/ someone like you/ in reality/ i filled all your emptines/ MY still quiet bay/ as Jhon opened world in his Yoko/ you searched perfect princes/ looked for "right him"/ now at only one overman looking/ i swear/ i will hold you/ as much as i can/ would become all the axes/ and outer space/ voice is speared by the screaming wind/ falling down/ flakes to your place/ going crazy just seeing your knees/ don't regret anything/ my Benito/ unbelievable/ perfect/ unbearable/ you whisper/ "la comedia e finita"//
Once upon a time I loved a girl but she didn't love me back. Once upon a night I wished on a star but my dreams never came to pass. Twice I think I hoped for the sun and not the rain pouring in. But my cover flew away and the drops soaked through my skin. I think I could wish for hard times and the dark, And just to spite my soul the world would set ablaze from a single spark. My money would pile high, girls would wave as they walked by. And the one thing can I say for this life, Is no one ever got a damn thing from goodbye.
A fist full of lies and a face full of anger Steel blue eyes warning me, danger, danger The world started shaking, my breath grew cold. Echoes of promises past to have and to hold Splattered shattered vows and glass flower vases, Red droplets on the photographs of long forgotten faces. Happiness dripped like the tobacco stained tears, Reminders of neglect from a ceiling haunted by fears. A mouth covered in knuckled kisses swelling, When will this end, shivering, shaking, there is no telling. Once there was love, a perfect family Christmas card, Mortgage, loss, language, how did this become so hard. Tear washed cheeks and stress rashed skin. This isn't a game, ....and we didn't win. Pulsing with pain, venomous hate fuels my control. I want out before the beast collects his toll. This crescent moon trigger under my finger tempts me, pulling it back, I know it still won't set me free. Inflicted with wounds and scars that will never heal. Eyes crossing from light to dark, what reality is real. Two shots together and we both will escape. The neighborhood will gossip about the yellow crime scene tape. January 29, 2015 *this is not my story, but an event like this did strike our community last week. You never know what goes on behind closed doors.
And so do I fall, and so do I fail, Falling so deeply into this destructive void, Nothing but ash and specs of dust that were once my brittle bones and scarred flesh. To not know what is ahead, How maddening! How so distraught have I seemingly become, Forgotten myself as time has smoothed over me. Tricky, sly fiend indeed; master and slave a like to us all. Do I dare move forward into the uncertainty that is humanity and of such society? So gut wrenching, thoughts filled of bile at what is. As we all are from and are the same, yet tear limb by limb the essence of ourselves by one another in an endless state of bigotry and violence; so brightly are we bathed in evil. So easy is it to see. Miracles; perhaps shall they see fit to carry me away from the void that is, and from such temptation, as to live the rest of days in blissful, stagnant dreams.
She lies in a pile of bloody red roses She left a note to her folks saying " I cant go on im sorry" It didnt say why But still we cry We are all very sad some of us are mad none of us are glad She'll b greatly missed To me she was like a sis But when will the rumors stop Noone knows the truth not even the cops My pain is great I wish we hadnt been late But when we got there there she lay on her already made bed of Bloody red roses
How I hate the way I feel today, I just want everything to go away. Don't know if I am angry or sad , All I know is that it feels real bad. Everything is so mixed up inside , Confused by it all I just want to cry. Closing my eyes trying to get some rest, Doesn' help much getting only moments at best. Hoping for nightfall is what I want now, Praying tomorrow will be better some how. How I hate these days when I am down , Wishing nobody would ever come around. Asking myself why I am in this mood, What will it take to change my attitude. Surely there is something to make me smile, I wonder if there is because it's been awhile. Reading the book to maybe see my way through, It doesn't help either I am still feeling blue. Listening to others and what they have to say, Changes nothing at all I still feel this way. Why are there days I feel so down and out , Makes me want to just scream and shout. Wait for the morning sunrise is what I'll do, Possibly then I will be able to talk to you. Oh how I do not like the way I feel today, It's just the worst ever feeling this way. TAC
I miss being loved, I miss talking all night, i miss holding your hand, I miss things being right. I want to be happy, I want to move on, I want to let go, I want your memories gone! I hate that I miss you, I hate that I care, I hate that i'm here, and i hate that your there! I wish we could have worked, I wish your words were true, I wish you still loved me, but I wish I never loved you.
It's a crying shame, When love cuts you deeply, When you don't want to hear my name, And when you pretend to have been over me. It's a crying shame, That I still love you, Especially after all the pain I've been through, That you've given me through and through. It's a crying shame, How we both know that we love each other, But don't want our appearance to falter, So we hate each other out of our love. It's a crying shame, That you lie about me, That you blame me, That you hate me. It's a crying shame, That hatred devours you from the love you once felt, Torturing you so, Just let it go. It's a crying shame, That I try to hurt you because you hurt me, That I am filled with anxiety, I have to try to just let it be. It's a crying shame, That you have me to blame. And I think about it everytime I hear your name. It's all a crying shame.
I hate pretending I'm okay when its clear I'm really not I hate putting on a smile to mask my bleeding heart I hate looking in a mirror at the stranger staring back I hate feeling so damn useless so empty, sad and scared I hate thinking that tomorrow might be better than today I hate everyday I wake up Because I can't help but wonder why?
La Di Dum... La Di Dum Tugged back and forth Between places of Love and Hate My chained hands cover my crying face Longing to be in your arms This debacled girl is in Love I have scrupples of wether or not I should confess Or if instead I should recede I have condoned this sad little fact Even as you beguile my heart I don't know if you feel the same With your distantly tired eyes My worries settle at the sound of your opiate voice Peaceful slumber in translucent wings Masked behind a colored shadow Spreading out like a disease Smile for me for a smile back This cheery complection Hides the saddness in my eyes That or it amplifies it Emotionless tears spill out And then they become pain The aching of my chest and mind Recollect hidden memories of you Begging, pleading for something absolute Dismissed as childish play Even though it's the game of Death in diguise So long ago I began giving up on this pathetic feeling Cursed for its impending return Looking to you to save me Waiting for you to hate me Never had I wanted some one's hatred Until now To say "I love you" is to die How amusing, considering I'm already undead So I still say it Because I have eons left Dear one do you love me? If not oh well If so how astonishing Either way... I'm still in love with you
Shouting and screaming are the sounds that come from the house So much hate swirls around the air like a hurricane bound to hit land Getting out of the home helps Walking outside into the chilly night Letting myself breathe in the crisp, cool air Outside, silent and peaceful an escape from the nightmare inside Silence is all around me a blanket of comfort Sitting by the big, beautiful lake I enjoy the silence Looking inside the translucent windows it is quiet A compromise must have been made for the time being Inside the big house it is silent
I hate the birth mark under my right eye I hate my extremely static hair I hate my big bottom lip I hate my spotty nose I hate that I have really *****y times I hate that people only remember me for my really *****y times I hate that the real *****es hate me I hate being cautious so they don't ***** about me I hate that I cry over everything I hate that people know I cry over everything I hate that I hide from them anyway I hate that they actually don't care I hate the fact that my brother is leaving home next year I hate the fact that I cried when he told me that I hate the fact that I hid my tears from him I hate the fact that he's all I really have left I hate my father for making me feel like he doesn't care about me I hate my mother for making me feel like she picked him over me I hate that my brother had to look after me when they couldn't be bothered I hate that, in my eyes, they don't deserve to be called mum and dad I hate that when I was younger I had to run away from my father I hate that my mother and brother left me by myself that day I hate that they left me closer to my father I hate that they went somewhere I would have felt safer I hate that I feel like my friends are slowly fading away from me I hate that I feel like I'm a third wheel I hate that I feel like my friend's don't trust me I hate that I feel like I can't trust my friends I hate the feeling of loneliness I hate that I read books to escape to a world better than mine I hate that I write to create a better life than my own I hate that people want to invade that one heaven I invented I hate that people ask me why I made Katy Clover Taylor I hate that I had to make a role model for myself I hate that she is the person I desperately want to be I hate that she is the one thing I will never live up to I hate that I feel like my grades would grasp my families attention I hate that feeling of disappointment when I get a bad grade I hate feeling like I have to live up to an expectation to hold their attention I hate that I am relied on because of my grades I hate that I am an older mind trapped in a younger body I hate that I am limited in what I can do because of my age I hate not being trusted upon I hate people treating me as a kid I hate not telling people how I feel I hate hiding behind an invisible barrier I hate not being able to share how I feel with people I hate being scared that they won't care. I hate people judging me I hate judging people I hate that feeling of giving up I hate the feeling of losing when I didn't give up I hate the choices I have made I hate that nobody thinks I can live up to my dream I hate people thinking they are so much better than me I hate the fact that they are right I hate that I will never make a good girlfriend I hate the fact I know nobody would fall for me I hate knowing that no one would help me pick up my life I hate that it has fallen apart I hate hurting the people I love I hate them not loving me anymore I hate knowing that what I would do would hurt people I hate the fact I do it anyway I hate knowing that I do all of this I hate knowing I hate all of this I hate trying to change it I hate that I am not able to change it I hate that I try not to give up hope I hate knowing all hope is lost I hate that I still try and cling to it anyway I hate knowing I failed at that too But most of all I hate not being able to express this until now I hate that this still won't change a thing I hate thinking that it still might I hate knowing that no one cares
Used to be an individual now I'm just a complex number stripped away from my own individuality made me uncomfortably wake from my slumber. Used to be a boy wonder. I was living the life. Didn't think I'd get sucked under, didn't think I'd end up wanting to kill myself with a hunting knife. My wrongful deeds have made me feel as if I'm living in a dreadful still life picture, wishing someone would look at me and reconsider and view me as a normal fixture.
Blackness, a dark version of me, badness, negativity. No matter how fast i run or were i run too your right behind me. Even the brightest sun doesn't destroy you, you only exist because of me. All i know is when i face the darkness you disappear, but to only return when the sun rises.
A stinging pain falls upon my face making my vision turn red. I look up into your eyes and see nothing but the rage and hate in your souls windows, How could someone be so angry? How can you go day to day knowing what you do? I was kind, I was good. But you made me like this. Hit, After Hit, After Hit, Put me deeper, And deeper, And deeper, Into the dark where there was only a spark of hope left But that even started fading as you continued to throw you anger at me. Was I the one who made you like this? Me your 'one and only' How could someone be so angry? How can you go day to day knowing what you do? I was brave, I was slipping. Fading, And fading, And fading, Into a deep, Deep, Deep, Darkness that made me lose my mind You made me like this. I can finally throw my anger at you. How does it feel now mother? You cry and ask me to stop, but did you ever listen? Me your 'one and only' How could I be so angry? How can I go day to day knowing what I do? Very, Very, Very, Simple. I can go day to day knowing that I made myself free, Of all the hate you would throw at me. Can you handle mine?
I know it's hard but you have to try How can you live your life lie? You say you hate who you're closest to, to another But around him, he's not like a cousin but a brother How can you just let them take over you? Next you'll be a singer to Just like him The changes of you not being are very slim You let him dress you, and tell you what to do, How to act Becoming of what you used to hate as a matter of fact He tells you who's in and who's out You can't lead so he does is that what its about? You have always followed the crowd Does that make you proud? To not follow your heart Minding them and playing your own part But when you come around me I see what you want to be true Or at least that's what I used to think But when I'm gone or your with them it all changes Filled with nothing but perfect Barbie doll images That's like tonight I'm gone and all you do is talk If you can talk then walk Show me you can do something to do Leading it on your own
My own downfall, being with no malice of intent. the gravity of being born with no force, my soul even wanders beyond my spirit. shame of uncleanliness; guilt of unworthiness, troubles of accepting, missing pieces that can't be held together. troubles with sanity, sometimes roughing it out to tip of the edge of reasoning. no rest for the weary, thanks!, things couldn't get any tougher than this. mentality co-existing with no hope of success, unwanted failures and regrets slowing me down until it all ends.
Dark Roiling Rage, like the waters of the Indian ocean in a silver flecked storm. Uncontrollable tears take hold and not meant for others to see. Hate, Love, Betrayal. Emotions that one can't feel if they never existed in the first place. Being emotionless in a fight is the way I'll survive. Love fading, skin turning grey, is it to late? my time has been long up. I know no other way to live. while I am emotionless, I'll never have to endure the cruel tormenting taunts, or the abuse, or the betrayal.
i hate him hes the worst i love is just a mask you hid behind. don't count me as a fool i can see your snarl right threw. i hate your nasty, sneaky ways. you did have me at hello. but now i caught your bluff be gone you betrayer you lustful jerk iv caught you right handed that's it your busted.. say bye now you'll never see me again you'll never be able to hurt me to tare me inside out be gone you betrayer be gone you lustful jerk.
I am a lost person, but I am not alone. I make choices in my life and I choose to let go. I need a change of space, and my lyrical notes, The beauty and the face should fade, but more I want to grow. The nobility in life is sad, when madness is a nuisance and insanity a fad. I have some regrets, some I can't forget, but If I can't forgive myself, then who will forgive my sins? I'll give it my all, and pray I win. I'll keep my heart locked and throw away the key, never let anyone inside, so I can remain free. Can I question a higher power, or would I be dead, The scum of the earth, creating poetry that is read, by the mindless masses, blaming the heart to death, I hope this will heal me, burning the past, The beauty in the innocence, never really lasts. I have a feeling tonight will open my eyes, and guide me too the light instead of lies. I'm praying to god that you are how I think you are, because I need compassion, not just a broken heart. I don't know why I like you, but you seem to close to part. Please don't leave me here, surrounded in the dark.
There is nobody in this world knows how I am feeling right now, Trying to get it to all make some kind of sense from it some how. Filled with deceptions and lies leaving me nothing for me to find, One memory there is that is truly real cause there's none in my mine. This sickening feeling overwhelms me making me cold to my soul, I am surrounded by gloom and sadness the worst I've ever known. How is it I am to suffer like this for loving with all my heart , Always protecting you and always been the light in your dark. Why me with the love so true and a honest soul feel such pain, I should feel the Sunshine in my life not tears that fall like rain. Was it the blindness caused by her natural beautey and tender words, Or is it that I have lied to myself for so long it was almost absured. Difficult for me to face this grief that I had always anticipated, The moment you came back into my life these days been pre dated. It was Love itself I have wanted to bask in to know the Joy, This despair , lonliness ,and all the nightmares I needed to avoid. A wreck just waitng to happen and the wounds opened up again, Never thinking of when all began only wanting it all to just end. Days that will be lost and the memories you will never have, It's the worst kind of emptiness and confusion I've ever had. These times we share when we are alone and nobody around, The thoughts we have of fantasies are somewhat profound. Is there a lesson here to be learned and remembered , Or is it I am that lost soul that lonely Pretender. This can't possibly be the very last and the end for me, If so then it has always been what was meant to be. When and how it all went wrong and strayed off course, Something I will never know or do I want to anymore. There is nobody that knows what I am feeling today, I tried making sense of it and found that there is no way. A fence that will never be mended or memories replaced, Just a lonely life and a broken heart is what I must face . Get on with my life pray for better days I must do, How can I do that if it has to be without having you. Tac
To you I was committed And I admit it You used to be the keeper There's probably no love that's deeper Tears often kissed my cheek and pain hugged my wounds I would wake up to scorched suns and sleep under chilled moons Plagued with such HAPPY SORROW It seems like I'm living without you today, but I'll be dying without you tomorrow... LOVE is my stalker: Creeping through my heart Sleeping in my DARK Hiding in the SCARS that leave these marks Love gave me a reason to Keep secrets that you would never know Nights I wept that you can never owe So... A slow death was all you seemed to give And the more you gave the less I lived Released from bondage, let go of a man that played the role of a kid At first I didn't want to But Now I feel blessed that I did All I needed in a life of sin… Was me and my boyfriend Me and my Toyfriend…. Me and my… Me and MY…. Boy…you're nothing but my DEAD END… I breathed you like air… But like hair… I had to clip you like dead ends An empty bank account…. Kept on writing me checks And when I tried to cash your love it Bounced So I bounced… Although I died, I cried not an ounce of tears But the pain just rips, just drips, and wont stop until it tears whatever pieces of my soul you left behind Because you didn't leave me with a peace of mind And all I seem to do is keep sad love songs on rewind Letting it pummel my mind STRUGGLING to let out EMOTION FIGHTING against intoxicating Love Potions As your venom continues to linger in my veins And your face continues to lie in the nucleus of my brain I go emotionally insane Wanting to hate you Wanting to escape you….. But instead I clasp my hands and I pray for you And instead I ask for God to save you For God to somehow reshape you… Remake You….. Break you… And Still… After all I been through, It's sad that LOVE gave me a reason to hate you… But God gave me the reason to FORGIVE you...
I remember when you gave yourself to me, But I gave you right back. Because I couldn't stop hurting you, And I hated doing that. I can't be selfish as I wanna be, and much as I need your touch. I can't have that follow me. Enough just might be enough. But love comes all the way back around, I didn't know you then and I don't know you now. Hearts beat, Trust me, I asked mine to stop beating aloud. Tears are dreams, That have to flee, Cause they'd been cast out. And smiles speak, Yours talks to me, But I replied with a frown. Cause I can't keep this up, Enough is now enough. Don't look for me I'm gone now.
The pendulum starts gaining speed again I can't sleep I feel so guilty keeping you around I shouldn't I should not do this to you If I were truly your friend I would set you free I should I should So why can't I Why can't I function without you woosh, woosh The pendulum speeds And speeds I can't sleep I can't sleep I am sorry I am sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So sorry So Sorry So sorry So sorry So Sorry So Sorry So sorry The Pendulum swings faster Faster and faster I wish it would stop I wish my mind would stop shifting Stop Stop I'm so scared I'm so angry I'm sad I hate it All of it And there goes the pendulum ever faster Ever changing the splintered fragments of my mind Why Why must my mind be so sporadic Always shifting Always changing Like the sands of the ocean floor Always different Always I hate this I do not like this And all that happens Is you get hurt And I'm sorry for that So very, very sorry It's not fair to you It's not fair And I don't know what to do To make it all better To make everything better To make all my tortures go away So that you can be happy I just want you happy I should let you go Set you free … You should keep away from me It would be better For you So much better Less painful Less heartbreaking Less damaging I am damaged beyond repair But that does not mean you need to be You could go Run Be free You should It would be better Much better for you Just let the flames consume me Let the waters choke my cries…my pleads And let the deadly pendulum slice me in pieces Grind me down to nothing Burn me So that my virus cannot be spread So no one else will be hurt So you can live free and happy Because I can't keep living with myself Knowing what I do to you And again the pendulum swings Again and again And again And again It will never end Never end Until I do Until I finally rest In my watery…bloodied grave
I hate to see the pain the young so often feel. I wish that I could help. My love for them is real. They need some understanding. They just want to be heard. Where are their parents when they cry? Don't they read their words? They say they hate their lives. They want to end it all. I wish that I could help them and save them from the fall. It hurts to hear their suffering. To know I can't be there. At least I want them all to know how very much I care. When you need understanding or even just a friend, Send a note and say hello. I'll be here till the end.
Here I am Sitting, lying Everyone is buying it Yet I know who you really are Heads up to bars Gets drunk, come home Then abuse me I am the key to your heart Or am I really? Don't be silly, you better watch your back I hate you, I hate what you make me do That is your cue JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
Chains, hay forks, knives, and a hollow whisper, become more true and sinister. Halt in the middle of the moon light, and a waver image soon is no delight. Voices run a muck in the head, so not calming you wish you were dead. Gushing blood through the eye not an image that you would rely. Nails stuck on your neck with such pain so your paralyze just little life sustain. Hoodlums terrorizing people running a muck did not really know they are in luck. More dangerous beings are out their to commit such act and with sinister stare. Laughing with haunting echo's through is an aspect of fear can imbue. The wind changes direction to smother the echoing sound of laughter. The panicking state that you are in soon drives a knife within. Blood rushing out of your vain a crucial part of your life dropping like rain. Running without a destination you will never reach anyone of your relation. Sliding your body on a wall keeping your fall in a stall. Red eyes you can see it at night is soon devouring you with little bite. Changing your belief with tonics of relief and it is to late to turn a new leaf. Ears start to deceive the animals sound eating limbs are chewing around. Slowly your red eyes steadily getting heavy is starting to take your life with a levy. Dropping down with no attitude and your life force slowly loses altitude. Breathing comes not so easy smelling flesh seems so beastly. The change comes a desire with frightening red eyes of fire. Comes more lethal than the hoodlums your heart beating like drums. Your hand becomes all fury claws come out and your howl with furry. Trance your in with no one to blame a rage thats hundreds of centuries of flame. Rising from a slumber of long lust a animal instinct that you can trust. Tearing things apart with no meaning is a trait that is so deceiving. Red eyes at night you see in a window like a poisonous black widow. Keeps you in attack mode of insanity that takes all your vanity. Ferocious emotions eating away the soul that you had once betray. The echoing sounds of loud thunder breaks away the armor with sunder. You fall once again to torturous agony the feeling of one self is so lonely. Shaking in the corner you are found with blood soaked skin you drowned. The night becomes day cruel in some way your memories go in disarray. The hunters with torches and sinister look had parted way their hands shook.
Your name is misery here to haunt me in my dreams In my waking hours and in my sleep Nightmares and worst fears of course you can make them come true For Your Name Is Misery You are the demon That called himself a dad You are my illness, my shame, guilt and pain I cannot shake you I try to run but you always catch me I try to hide and you find me Your Name Is Misery You are the cause of my pain I used to blame myself But lately I have found I am not the one to blame I was a child Innocent and helpless when you took my dignity, my life my sanity Your Name Is Misery You have presented yourself in many forms The school counselor who tried to violate me The Father figure who molested me The strangers who forced themselves on me A gang paid to rape me A Fiance who beat me And killed the child inside me The voices that torment me Your Name Is Misery You have so many faces It would take my whole life to paint a picture of you And quite frankly I don't want to waste my time on you I just want to forget you Your Name Is Misery I wish I could get away from you Break away from your grasp Take away the control you have over me I hate being under your spell I hate the pain you constantly cause me I hate crying because of you I hate the darkness you bring with you Most of all I hate you Your Name is Misery That is no lie There is no mistake You bring havoc, drama, and chaos All the things I despise I don't want you near me I don't even want to look you in the eye Your Name is Misery I am afraid of you I can't stand you most of all I am mad at you for you have made my life a living hell But no more I am cutting you out I have never wanted you around It is high time I got rid of you It's time to stand my ground I am going to take you down I don't need you I never want to see you Get out of my life For I am not going to let you bring me down You are not welcome here Your Name Is Misery By: Jean Shular
It's so hard to start It's so hard to finish It feels as if all that you've accomplished will someday be diminished And it won't matter if you become somebody some day Because someone will easily take your place Steal your ideas And make a living off you, THEIR way It's sad but true Every mutha f**ka Will take a piece of your mind and will somehow ultimately f**k you not physically but mentally making you think you're not one of a kind their getting all the fame while everyone leaves you behind leaving you to feel like a failure people telling you to talk to God, he'll have the answer I pray, looking up at the ceiling Hoping he'll will give me a reason…. To keep going on with my life and my ideas But all I'm left with are clones of my feelings Washed up on canvases with some else's fake veneers
I hate this place. Man, I have to go. I hate the racism. I hate the haterism. I hate not being heard. I hate Monroe. Man, I hate the word. I hate this place. And that's a fact. Once I leave here I will never look back. written Summer 2004
I do not like my state of mind I'm bitter, querulous, unkind. I hate my legs, I hate my hands, I do not yearn for lovelier lands. I dread the dawn's recurrent light; I hate to go to bed at night. I snoot at simple, earnest folk. I cannot take the gentlest joke. I find no peace in paint or type. My world is but a lot of tripe. I'm disillusioned, empty-breasted. For what I think, I'd be arrested. I am not sick, I am not well. My quondam dreams are shot to hell. My soul is crushed, my spirit sore; I do not like me any more. I cavil, quarrel, grumble, grouse. I ponder on the narrow house. I shudder at the thought of men... I'm due to fall in love again."
Get a life, she said Dark thoughts ring through my head I am nothing—for that is what you have made me Tears streaming from my eyes All the past happiness—the lies Words do matter . . . they really do They stick to you like glue I cannot stop sobbing For the words ring true I am truly nothing—thicker than lead The next rhyme will probably be the word "dead" Damn this mind . . . damn this head I cannot escape the sorrow She held it all in And it bursts now from her quivering vocals Crybaby, she said Oh, but you do not know all that I hold in But you cannot blame them for not understanding The fault is all my own I guess the next word to rhyme is "alone" Wish they could be something more meaningful Something giving, inspiring But I cannot help this—I am rotting! I hate to be wrong but you are right What's the use of this sick denial and spite? What's the use of trying to live this life, When I am looking for a completely wrong purpose? Finding myself downright worthless. . . I hate being right. . . But sometimes . . . I really am And it your words you have spoken That make it the truth Your words leave a shameful legacy Like a sick memory, Like a regret. . . March 15, 2013
Whispers in the dark Thoughts of you. a meeting at the park, A memory, a flash Surrounded by pin-drop silence. The saddest thing in the world, I have lost all meanings of life. My mind overflows with memories Of those few green and fair days. How do I mend my broken heart ? I hate this idea of my heart That you are the one thing, Whom I want the most but can't have. You tore my heart into two, One part has lost all and The other still thinking for you. I hate this feeling of pain, I'm not gonna let you say.....
No one is here No one is there They all left and deserted me Their taunts and torments I cannot flee And I become so full of anger and hate Now whenever anyone good tries to help My words only destroy Consuming all life, burning all joy My angry heart burns Pent up emotions yearn For freedom, for light, for a friend But all are gone…gone in the end Tears burn my eyes No one caring-no goodbyes They're just gone Gone And any good that may have been around Is now buried in the ground Then she comes one by Slowly, almost unnoticeable like a fly She slips in, laid back and full of hope Want to help, give a way to cope She's so quiet and coy But my words only destroy My anger controlling me I just want to be free And I feel terribly sorry for my venomous bite You only try to help-not fight I want to believe in you I really do But in reality I am too afraid I fear that I am too far lost in hate for your aid But still you try Even after I make you cry Everything lacking joy And my words only destroy How do I know…you will stick around in the end Be the one who is a true friend I do know I know Because you have told me so And I will believe in you And do all I need to do To change this shattering, decomposing angry heart Change my view, get a fresh start And maybe one day I will no longer hurt you And I'll be able to show you Just how much you mean to me If I can make it, get away from this hate and be free But doubt clouds my thoughts Hoping is it worth the pain Waiting for this healing rain My words continue to destroy It will never change…I will never change…only destroy Only destroy
Holy books says it all You taught me how to crawl This will never change Never ends never fades Dear God where you are? Shattered piece of childish dreams This will never change Never ends never fades. I can fight for all my life, Not broken, not broken inside Never be so frustrated, Not going to commit suicide. Fuc*ing faith will fall, Mortals will stand tall Hell and heaven are all the same Live your life, don't die in vain Only you and I can make A better world for tomorrow Have faith in yourself And wipe off the tears of sorrow Make me scream, Make me cry I'll never fail to try. This night's has an end No pain will remain
Left in my own thoughts Tarnished forever through nightmares Pierce me with your passions…tangle me in your knots You left me…I have no choice, but to cry… I'm breaking by the seams I drink in the sorrow… I spew up regret… I cannot drink any further I drink and drown myself – unable to hope for tomorrow I'm left in my own thoughts…I cannot walk any longer I recall my past decisions…I'm swallowed up by the echoes of fear I'm not your valuable merchandise! Don't seek me – you wanted your dreams to come true and peace to draw near Don't count on me – I'm not wise! I'm swallowed up by the churning sea… Leading me to my own demise I drink in the sorrow… I puke up resentment…I'm upset and cannot go on with life I douse myself in my misfortune – no one listens to me… No one catches me before I wallow… Pick me up from the murky waters Lift me up from the gutters Make me spotless and leave me the leftovers Dress me up and hand me some covers I'm trying to piece together my fragmented thoughts I can't see a happy ending in this scene – Preserve my notions in Your thoughts and save them like leftovers… Oh, but my thoughts are thrown in the trash like rotten leftovers – left unseen Tarnished forever through nightmares My foul ideas don't have a structure – they're just… Tangled up knots
Broken, shattered, torn little pieces, Of my self; I continue to lose the way, Dealing, deserving, dishing out, A suitable punishment there is not, A bloody trickling of tears, Covering the body in sickness and in fear, Stretching the length of my insides, My shame knows no bounds, besides, Who could fix this broken thing? So lost in a cliche of words that is so a maze, bring Me, this lost lamb, no shepard to be had, No, deserving hardly, I willingly walk the other way. Shall I not desert the others? I shame mothers and I shame fathers, Stay away from me! Only pain and misery that will be.
" Lost in a Memory" Written by: Rodney Riggins Can't forget I hate to concentrate got to remember before it's to late. Mind in a brainstorm hear sirens and loud alarms to paranoid to stay calm my memory is lost and gone. Lost in a brainstorm lost in a memory brains all gone lost in a cemetery. The world has raped me making me hate me my mind has escaped me still it's a memory. Violence I crave for death makes me crave more love sex I'm a man whore a dog on all fours My mind is shot to hell my memory fails as well my energy go to hell my thinking now is dead. Trapped in a lost brain which drives me insane the pain i with stain from thinking now it's drained Kill me quick kill me fast mind is dead not gonna last pull the plug I'm leaving fast if not I'll kill you then I'll laugh. My memory has failed me I'm my own enemy death is my only friend life wasn't meant for me. Memory is gone forever pain will be eternity for those who read this poem hope they can learn from me.
Do you know how it Feels? When Rejection Reveals. It always Hurt to Know, but you have to Accept. My Heart Aches whenever you Reject me, Whenever they look at me Straight in the Eye, I always think they Despise me. I tried,I tried my Best, I provoked myself to do things I can`t, I Tried to prove, That I am better than YOU! But no,No I can`t, If this Rejection would be a Disease, I would be Dead right now. My Heart have been always Fragile, I have been always Sensitive. That`s why I always Wished, that Rejection was Siezed
Pain… A word with a thousand meanings Used to express situations Full of agony mixed with suffer Pain… An adverb used to fulfill ache A result of betrayal, lies, and disloyalty A mask of cruelty, used to describe People, times, hurt Without pain, without love, without hate A world isn't a world These cause the continuation of the universe Cause the break of some people And the patience of others Without pain there is no hate Without hate there is no love Without love there is nothing… You can never understand pain Unless you experience it You can never confront it Unless you have a heart Build with courage, filled with love You can never abandon it Cuz it will hunt you down
I hate it Knowing you might not stay It's eating your Life away Sucking you up Like a black whole Taking in everyone you know. I hate it Living on Wondering, If you'll be gone God has made his choice, We cannot share, what this cancer is, because I do not know If you can stay
phases pass the day when i was young i was happy and hate was a feeling unborn colors where just colors fight where with pillows people had cuddies drugs were things to stay health cigs were candy sticcs problems were with parent death was playin dead life was full of joy as i grow older the hate ignites colors are your gang claim fight are with guns and knifes people have stds drugs are things that get you wealth cigs are cancer sticcs problems are with the police death is ur homie getting killed life is full of pain
I might smile I might agree that you're cool I may even act like I enjoy having you around But I think that I hate you I don't really hate you, I hate what you've done You've stolen my joy and you've taken my fun What used to be mine, now is yours The place I once held, now you hold It's all about you now and I'm sick of it I could almost hate you for that I want to scream in your face I want to tell you that I despise what you've done I almost wish you didn't exist Or lived some indescribable distance away never to be seen But you're too nice Too polite Too too So I can't do any of these things And I hate feeling this way Feeling so incredibly jealous of you Not being happy for another's happiness Wanting to let myself hate you I know I'm pathetic, disgusting, So I try to hold it all inside But it doesn't work very well I want desperatley to run away Then at least I could leave behind Instead of being left behind But there is no where to go I could almost hate you But it's not really you that I hate If it were anyone else in your place it would be the same I just hate the change I hate feeling that I'm losing something that belonged to me Something I never would have given up willingly But I know now, it was never mine What do I own? Not my best friend Not the time we spent together Not the choice of who she spends her time with now Not her love The memories I own only the memories And in the end, that is all I'm left with.
My emotions go with the wind telling me that I'll never be good enough for this or that. My emotions always saying I'll never find "her" or that I'm too small to do anything. My emotions always saying that my life is insignificant or that I'll never reach happiness. Feeling alone, depressed, and never understood, I'll take a stand against my emotions, and loose once more. and be ever consumed by their dark beckoning of sadness and pain. never feeling loved in this world, and not ever feeling like someone can understand me, yet not reaching out to try to save myself. In a slum of right and wrong feeling like there's no escape. Is there hope? I like to think so, but my mind says different. I cannot imagine a world outside of my own, though I never tried. Living in a world of sin, I'll never be good enough to see clearly, or be with someone long enough to say "I love you". I hate this feeling, and can't get rid of it's terrible grasp on my life. I hate to be in public, seeing all the happy faces, unlike mine, witch I hate to see Blank and expressionless. Ever will I stay like this feeling sad and alone.
I can remember the sadness in my heart,I remember how people use to treat me,I remember when I wasn't accepted from you guys,You put me in a hole,You shown me to hate and hate my enimes and love myself even more,I remember the pain you put me through,My anger arise aganist me,I felt like a demon coming inside me,I guess my life was falling apart,there's no reason to lie, but now I have people who is there for me and people who love's me now, I guess I ain't crazy after all
I'm sorry I ignored your calls and the attention I was given I'm sorry I made you feel like your emotions were not worth living. I'm sorry after 4 months I still wanted some other guy, I'm sorry at month 6 I discovered yet another lie. I hate that it was too late, my heart had already picked a side. I remember in month 7, I left him for you. I'm sorry that I begged and you didn't know what to do. I'm sorry I hooked up with him, and you didn't approve. In months 8 & 9 you stood by me while he was forcing me to move. 10 – You just wouldn't understand. I said "NO" and pushed away your hands 11 – Came and left without a single word. After all that we went through I still wanted to be your girl. 12 – Was emotional, you were on your way, but there were those three little words you wanted but I still couldn't say. I'm sorry that after 13 months I still wasn't perfect. I'm mad that we were nearly at 14 months before I decided you were worth it. I hate that when the 12th of the next month came around you said "wow, that's 15". You were still far away, and still just as mean. I hate that 15 was when I was going to say those three little words and send them your way, but instead you kissed me and acted like it was all fine. You took me home and then it was time "I have bigger dreams, and things I need to do. I'm sorry but my life isn't you." I'm sorry that after 15 months you were nothing but a jerk I hate that 15 months still couldn't make it work. I'm angry that I gave you my Sweet Sixteenth year, something I looked so forward to, I couldn't enjoy while it was here. I hate you for not keeping your words and just staying away. You had to come back and forth and make me want to stay. Those 15 months where all I had was you, are gone, erased, thrown away and blank. There is no sensitivity because of you it lacks. You're gone, it's over and I'm not looking back.
Im never coming back smart ,creative,generous you are , but theres more to you than that your insecure ,angry and drink to much I needed your love ,but you didnt know how to give it I wanted you more than anything ,but you werent feeling it I loved you ,and it showed... but your eyes were closed you didnt see me so i dissapeared ,so now your eyes have come to be open and your wondering where i am but im gone and im never coming back _______________________________________________________________________________..... Why did i go back why did i go back to you ,cause everythings the same as always... u lured me in with your charm, just till im willing to stay then u trap me and hold me in place and mistreat me just the same, you appear charming and sweet but underneith your cruel and controling on the inside i say all the things to you i dont have the courage to say and on the inside i hate how i love u more each day i hate how im conflicted between the lines of love and hate and i hate how i cant seem to stay away so i sit here in the mist of your bull*****once again and wonder ...why did i go back
You beat me down, Told me not to cry, Not to show weakness. You showed me no sign, Of ever loving me, Showing no sympathy. You hit me down again, and just my luck, You didn't give a crap, But I still believed there was good in you. I let you hit me, Thinking it was alright. You told me not to cry, And to hold it all inside, But I let a tear fall, And then you saw, Now I fell with it. But I still believed there was good in you. Days grew longer, As life got shorter. I may have only been eight, But I still had a great ache. I didn't understand what was happening, Why did I keep ending up in the clinic, With scars on my wrists? Because you hadn't loved me enough. You crushed my spirits, And put a hole in my heart. There is no good in you. I don't know what my father saw in you. Now I'm stuck with a twisted mind, And can't make sense of any kind. I cannot find, Who I really am, Because you never gave a damn. So now you see, How I have come to be. Just a lost puppy, This is me.
I want the world to burn, I want to disappear. I want to stop the pain I feel, I don't want to be here. I feel overwhelmed, And wish to die. Just to feel a simple emotion, When I cannot cry. I dream of ending my suffering, Of slicing through every vein. But each time I try to escape, My efforts are in vain. I dream of emptiness, Because I cannot feel the joy. I dream, But feel no release. I live a life I destroy. And each time I cut, I come closer to what I fear. I wonder what would happen, If I let go and lie here. I've often thought of dying, So much better than crying. I dream of it, Like a fantasy. A dream I want, But cannot see. There are so many times I've had the chance, The chance to end it all. Yet I keep falling, Falling and failing just to stall. Maybe I'll finally make it, Kill myself and end the call. Then I'll find peace and end my endless fall. But don't cry for me, I feel nothing at all. I'm better off dead, Than enduring the pain of my brawl.
Ripple, Ripple, Ripple, A man floats down the river. Find the answers to your soul, Discover your hearts desire in the place it all began. I stare into the eyes of the one I should know better than all. But I am a stranger in these lands. I search, search out the words, the question my soul craves. Why? How? How can you hate yourself when you are the center? You give relief to the thirsty, strength to the weak, You rejuvenate the cracked, the broken. You brighten all color, and give flavor to the bland. You resinate life and its many forms. Your ability to change form to fit the needs of all else and yet you harbor hate? WHY DO YOU HATE YOURSELF? But silence. I see nothing. These waters have been tainted, mislead, polluted, and defiled. We wrap ourselves in pain, secrets, and despair like the fathers who've forgotten us. These broken waters stare back at me, Unwavering and unknown, eyes cut deep into me, Its question for me is already known. Why? Why do you wish to die? Ripple, Ripple, Ripple, These ripples turn to waves. Splash. The answer is clear. A man floats down the river.
You have made a choice. You have chosen hatred. In our Heavenly Father, you have chosen not to rejoice. He is who spares the most awful dread. You have chosen to hate me. First it was the "N" word, the Afro comment, and my curly hair. Now you hate me for the religion that I have chosen to be. My faith gives me what is right and fair. I pity you for all your hate. But you made it clear my fate. A Mormon to this date, a Mormon forever. Your rage and hate prove my faith and choice of religion right. Your bigoted hatred I have chosen to fight by giving it light. I want it in everyone's sight. Your rage and hatred is your only boast. But with it you are engrossed. Like you, your rage and hatred are nothing but compost. Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit gives me what I need the most. And for you, that is just too bad so sad.
Life is a dagger; beautiful and fragile, but will stab you in the back. It will take away the pain and misery, and bring it all back. And then you're standing on the edge, not knowing where to go. Your past lyes below you, and so does your living soul The music rang loud in your ears, a tear rushed down your face. And you heard a gunshot, as the stars danced through the pain. Now your feelings leave your body but your body stays on the ground. You're depressed, stressed Unconfessed. You're a mess, tearing apart on the path that leads you to the end. And you're so close, but too far to get there. Too far to look back at the pain and misery he caused you And the stars, they glistened through the pain. But your body loses control, Flames burning through your soul, only to be shot down by the clouds filling your mind and refueled by the burning fire inside.
9Ninety0 9Ninety0 CharlaXFabels On SUNDAY ADAYOFOURLORD When judgement come what will you say can you tell the JESUS what you done in just one day eye left some fish upon the way then left my bed to gather more than eye can eat for eye am blessed my heart is full of love for people eye have never met and strangers yell at me from van and make me cuss and curse and hate yet the things eye found was blessed a cake a homemade cake remember LORD when we ate the cake eye found it in the city park on that SUNDAY when the man in the van rolled his window down he yelled screamed growled at me so cartoon of a character so rubber legged he would not stop near me for eye was mad at THEE for letting evil men get near me they rob me of my grace more needed now on SUNDAY as eye sit and feed my face eye will not go further with embellishments and lies intended just to sell a story to the men who drive the van and bother men with hate for eye found some extra clothing and added it to mind for there was no one there in the park today just laying on the ground eye passed the beggars sides with full larder laid as eye did not even lay it down eye hope they have an empty cup of alcoholic stop eye began this day without a fish but now my bags is hard to carry a brand new hooded shirt upon my belly my jacket getting heavy my cake and coffee is so nice please KISS mye lambea wherever she is at a smile upon her face for eye and love and grace on SUNDAY. This is CharlaXFabel number NINTEY.
dearest Ashanthi the one put me in misery... for the love that i gave so dearly... my heart broke into Pisces.. when i was taken to prison... was my love mistaken.. you used me.. it was always given but not taken.. you are a receiver but not a giver... the pictures of our lovely past... runs trough my head so often... its so heard for me.. to hate you even today... i am trying to gather all your bad reasons... to hate you all over again... but there is something within me... i wish i can start loving you all over again... i wish i can kiss you so tenderly once again... i know you will not see me.. you will not come near me.. yet dearest Ashanthi.. with all your bad reasons... of ruing my life to send me to prison... i forgive you for all your stupid mistakes... and just want to say... i love you always!!
He who wanted attention Wanted not Wanted to exist But seems he never did Does meaningful things For others But they never noticed Never seems to be something Something he was Something he is They said he's a Pessimist Your optimism only irritated him But you made him Molded him to what he is He had a choice We all had Its just You chose to drive him away Its not like it hurts Not like it used to But not anymore He spent his life with the trees Taught him not to talk Taught him not to socialize Taught him not to feel Guess what Im a pessimist And Im a tree Not like you Optimistically stupid.
This anger that is inside me now is tearing me apart, After all this time I find you had been lying from the start. I am hurting so much from the pain you have caused me, By using your beauty and charm so I would not see. All the lies and deceit while loving you and giving all my trust, I will expose your evil ways and mean doings this is a must. Never should another endure what you have put me through, This I will make sure of if it's the last thing that I ever do. How dare you break my heart and then treat me so bad , It takes a lot to upset me but girl you have made me mad. You've no idea the rage that I am carrying inside me now, I will make you regret this one day I will figure out how. If it's the last thing I do I am going to make a example of you, How and when I am not sure of but trust me it will be soon. You walk away from me as if you've done nothing wrong, Believe me girl I will show you and it wont take me long. Seriously do you think you can get away with treating me this way? So wrong you are for that and you will know this one day. That deceiving the man thats so in love with you , Is something you are going to learn not to ever do. Why would you ever do this to a man that loved you so, I guess this is something that I am never going to know. This anger inside that is slowly tearing me apart , Blinded by your ways I was completely in the dark. Just one more thing I must say to you before I go , You are evil and that's something everybody will know. TAC
as time passes by; like word born on the streets, you never knew hard, till it hits you deep within. even if there is pain without the tears, it doesn't mean it's any less of a struggle to forget. hard aches on heartaches, resentment is hard to leave by when the regret is there. sublime tears that echoes and tears you up inside, meanwhile, I try not to stray from my true nature!!! vibration of a cry that is not too well played out; pound per pound, restless beatings of my chest, leaves a residue of unsound sorrow that marks the epitamy of being alone, which is never too easy. like a melody that is deaf with tone, cheating destiny has no future in it. I am forever standing still in the sands of time, like time has made me a mark of inequities. no right direction to go from where I'm left off; but just to look for the easiest way out! still doesn't justify the reason of my situation. out of the mourning dew: I try to stay awake........ still, I miss missing the way we are!!!
Can I stay asleep? When my eyes are closed I'm happy In my dreams Everything is perfect [Chorus] But that's why they're called dreams Because nothing is real And they always shatter into A thousand pieces And that's the sting of Reality I want to go back to sleep I don't like this feeling I've lost you already I hate it And my dreams have died [Chorus] [Refrain] This is Reality I hate it Reality It sucks [Chorus]
Help. Wish for it all you want, its not coming, you are all alone. Ache. The feeling inside your heart you can do nothing about with the fear you've shown. Scream. Is what you feel like doing but no noise comes out, 'cause the pain is too much, isn't it? Helpless. You've made yourself this way. Painfully anxious about what is ahead of me. . . I am this. Myself. Is who I have to blame for everything I have done. Mirror Me. It is my own refection I look to when searching for whose at fault when everything goes wrong. I. Do not hate myself but I am close to who I'd hate to be. Human. Someone who isn't me and will never be the same as me. A break. Give me one, I make mistakes, I'm just one person in a world of hate and I'd rather just be happy.
The pain is too much, I can't take it anymore, It makes me want to fall, Straight through the floor. I've held it inside me, For far too long, I'm tired of being told, That everything I do is wrong. The first time was an accident, But I'll do it again, Even though I know, Cutting is a sin. I hold the blade in my hand, Swipe it across my skin, I see the blood come pouring out, I think I found a new friend. You may not believe me, But I don't feel the pain, Even though the blood, Pours like the rain. When I see the blood, Coming from the cut, I feel the pain leaving, For my eyes are now shut. I finally found something, I can control, I know when to stop, I control the flow. When the blood leaves me, Other things do as well, The pain and heartache, There's no more to tell.
hate Its a strong word, but some of these feelings are absurd. im confused... was it not what i beleived? was it a phony plan concieved ? to just use me? if so i hate you ... so much have to thank you. for without your fake love it wouldnt of been so clear, to see tha man above. and when i say i hate you.... i really hate me tha way i was. Fake hopes,Fake dreams,Fake love is all that it seems.
I loathe you- I especially hate your face- But, I really hate that I miss The salty way that your lips taste- I hate all your hurtful lies- That are cleverly hidden behind- Charmingly deceptive Clear, blue eyes- Such a careless, inattentive lover- I really should have guessed- That you were too good to be true & Of course, you were hidding "others"- You take off and you leave- Disappearing somewhere into the night- Just as I naitievly thought Everything was begaining- To start to feel right- I really dont think that your able to care- About anybody else- Because in this life- Your just in it alone- Only caring about yourself- -Erin Anderson 04/20/2012
ice in the middle of the carpet the melting is the healing the steam rises in the exact place where you said you hate me stewpot in the corner of the living room the bubbling over is the tension the steam creeps out and provides an interesting type of aromatherapy around the exact room where you expressed you desire for emancipation person clutching an ailing heart the tachycardia is the stressing this time there is no steam, but there is a misty gloom that sucks the life out of a life....when you told me to go....
The sick sadistic people that torture the kid Thinking of thoughts to fascinating in sin Hiding behind a stature of loneliness he hates A time warp in his chest it elates Swaying through time with no cause or mentality He don't want to feel like a congenital abnormality Piercing his mind with no anesthesia Mind caught in the lake of amnesia Grasping towards another minoral fate Sometimes in this bygone world its too late Suffering a wraith in his vivacious serenity So sad and unaware with no amenity This boy has suffered for a time of days Like most diverse and beseeching in many ways But tampered with is his lamp of time Puppet strings in his head now a mime The prescription of happiness is a lie Bury the darkness as a maggot one day be a fly This is the torture of a teen so young Now no speech they take your tongue Its over Its over Slit it in his own health Slayed down for his enlightened death....
I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt If I hear you cry It will make me die All this because you hate the way I lie This is real and we both know how it fells Right now the pain, it kills We wont fight it almost doesn't fell right The right fells wrong, its like that song Fueled by our hate ,Blind from our love Its like I am drunk, and stuck in a funk You give me breath, when I cant breathe I cant leave and I cant stay here The farther I run, the closer I get When its good its bad, when its great its worse I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt If I hear you cry It will make me die All this because you hate the way I lie Have you ever cared so much, when they are not there you cant breathe? When they are there, you get week in the knees? And when they leave, you can barley see. I said I would never hurt you, and I see now how I did Cant even look at you in your eyes Trying not to think about all of the lies Crazy in love, or in love crazy Its time to go our separate ways, Its time for us to have a new day That was yesterday, but today Its a different day No promise I will show restraint Life is a game, play it without aim I wont lie again, but I am still watching you leave I guess that's why you found Steve I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt If I hear you cry It will make me die All this because you hate the way I lie I did things I didn't mean, said things that whernt so clean I am in a new pattern, with a different routine But your the same as me, and just don't believe But when it comes to us, there is always a fuss I know it was me, and you should flee Our relationship was crazier then it seams Like a hurricane and a blizzard So I pack my bags, and go outside I can fell the pain, with nothing left to gain Cant even look in to my eyeball , with out needing a highball Next time I fight , It will be though a peep sight No next times, because I am gone I am sorry for my lies My games is what caused pain, and she doesn't want me back I know I should not have lied This time I am gunna leave, and set my slef on fire, That we people know we expired I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt If I hear you cry It will make me die All this because you hate the way I lie
It's like nobody knows me, or Maybe nobody cares. It's like I'm alone, so empty, Though I'm surrounded by empty stares. I try to be grateful. I try not to be rude, but It's as though the gifts and thoughts for me Are filled with self-gratitude From the giver, into the solitude. I search deep within me. I just cannot find The answers buried in my heart, and The truth behind the excuses in my mind. I fall helplessly into misunderstanding. I see myself so spiteful and demanding. I hate the way I am; I hate the way I've been. I hate the way I'm feeling. There is no defense. Someday I will figure out Everything confusing me inside. Today is not that day. Right now is not the time.
It all seams like a dream, I walk through the day in a daze, With the distant memory, Of your lips pressed softly to mine. I miss everything, Your kiss, Your touch, The way you talk to me, Softly, Sweetly, Passion lacing around every word. I try to forget, To push you out of my mind, But when you look at me, I look at you, And fall in love all over again. I miss all that we had, All that we almost had, What we could have had. I want to hold you. Never let you go. I want to hold your hand, To be more than just friends. To hear you say you love me, And to not even be mine, Causes my heart to break, Into 1000 pieces. Again I want to cry, I hate that you left me, For someone different. I hate this raging nightmare, Where it seams, You will never be mine.
Battle scars, erupting hot volcanos...... Who knows where the pieces of my heart are, who does? I have hidden all my hurt.... You have chased away my will to live! Pain runs through my heart like red hot lava; Engulfing and burning, everything in its way! You killed my dreams, my passionate love, No more caring or trying to understand! My sad soul and ice cold heart.... A hard black rock in its stead. Every fibre of my being, then pulsing, now dying! My love for you was like an exploding star, Until your universe collided with mine and smothered it! The vines of passion have cringed, dried up and died, Laid to rest in the cold hard soil. The taste of bitter aloe still lingers in my mouth! My imagination has gone, leaving a blank dark hole! My soul is screaming for release, " just let me go"! Red hot lava runs through my veins, engulfing my self being; Me, myself and I have been burnt beyond recognition. My ashes are floating away on an icy cold wind, Scattered amongst the black, dark soil.
I walk down this dark path knowing where it leads, holding a small flower gently in my hand, As i walk the air is heavy as if the air is pressing all around me, I reach my destination a large old decrepit building, Still showing the burn marks on the windows and door, I hear a scream in the distance, Looking around knowing that no one is really there, Just that this building holds so many memories, Memories that are so hard to shake, Walking up to the steps to the door, Memories of lost ones flow in my head like a flash flood, That day I lost her, I lost my baby sister, I wish I could take it back, Take back what I said to her, "I hate you, your the worst sister ever", But really I don't hate you, I miss you every day, Wishing I could turn back time and change the last thing I said, But I can't, So every year I bring you your favorite flower, Hoping you'll forgive me one day, I think placing the fragile Daisy down on the first step, Turning and walking away, Looking back at the scarred house every so often, The wind blows, Faintly heard in the wind "I forgive you"
I hate the caution that directs me. I wish you knowledge of all my wrong. I'm sorry that I am. Curse these selfish feelings. And curse myself for hiding. I hate that I bring pain, And clear confusion. I wish that I could share myself. Days before you came, no words were worthy. You give meaning to sense, and always give entirely. I'm sorry that I lied, so sorry that I hide. I wish that you have greatness. And this is why I'm selfish, To share with you my thoughts. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, But I think I may just love you. ~Written in 2004 (Monday, 23rd, June) when I was fifteen.
I hate you I hate looking at you I hate thinking about you I hate the times we had I hate the good and bad I hate the emotional things For you my heart still bleeds I hate the tears that fall I hate you most of all It takes a lot away To still see you smile today I hate you for everything you've done I hate you for the pain you brung I hate that you cant change for whats done is done and hate will always remain.
Divided into the pieces of pieces of pieces, That form my fully conscious conscience I hate that love to love Have the ability to love to hate But will always hate to hate I wish I could be the over praised, over exaggerated, over rated normality that is blessed to so many But me I want to be inside the box because the weather out here, sucks as much as my skewed and looped perception of Where I thought I was going....
Hate to hate, You hate me Don't mean I have to hate you, You hate I will love Just because That is the person I will rise above.
For years I drank laughter wine, aged on fears and depression; (it seems that no one likes a pessimist). Laughter wine served with plastic jokes and drunk from society's suffrage glass. Sour laughter wine sours the spirit; sweet laughter wine is a better drink. It is aged on the hope; The faith that social sufferings will end. It is proper to drink Sweet laughter wine from your soul-glass.
Guilty feelings is what I'm left with, How could I? How could I be so weak? How could I be so stupid? How could I believe your lies? I should have known, You were using me… I should have been stronger I could have said NO!! Like all the other times now I'm left with doubts and insecurities… You're gone! Heaven knows if I'll ever see you again, me and my pipe-dreams state of mind, thought you loved me All you wanted was my body now my body might change forever… I HATE YOU! for taking my innocence away… I HATE YOU! for being the reason I'm left vulnerable, left feeling used, left feeling dirty… What will my parents say? I am only fifteen, still a child myself I'm not ready to be a mother… *This poem was inspired by the high number of Teenage Pregnancies around the world*
what am i living for ? for eating, sleeping and working... what is so special in my life ? whenever i sit alone ,i keep on crying for something that i want very much, for something that i cant find... and this thing made me hate everything around me , even the nearest person to me. i hate myself for not changing my life, for not being happy , for not being genuine with my self, for not being extrovert for obliging myself to be detached from the world and from the people around me. but i the love the Sara in me , the Sara that's sleeping deeply in my soul waiting for me to wake up her... but my question is :is she going to help me??? some people born to be happy and to have a nice, easy life but some people born to have a tough and a hard life... why do i have to be from the second kind ??? i keep telling myself : im the happiest person on earth, which is not . i try to fill my time in anything to stop the feeling of orgasm , because it hurts my soul a lot , and it's hard to be healed again ...
As my soul dwells in your past I kill for this moment to pass Al though I smile I find myself more and more suppressed As if, your casket was buried in my chest Yes, I breathe For I believe I am promised to leave And I hate the winter All the days of September I hate the center of a broad frost December And as the night expires My fright assumes your desires I feel I am not the child I used to be The privilege of this substance abuses me I hate to be the selfish man I have become But as if it were fate Sadness reigns past noon for some I hate the winter All the days of September I hate the center of a broad frost December
I hate that you looked Into my eyes and saw so much. I hate that you never Stood up for yourself. I hate that I felt So warm with just one touch. I hate that you were The first to think I was lovely. I hate that Mistletoe, French fries, Those songs, And friendly brown eyes All remind me of you. I hate remembering What we don't have. I hate giving a hug Just to find that You're not there. I hate it when You don't tell a joke, But I still laugh. I hate that I never forgot The feel of your soft hair. There's nothing like it. I hate that I still cry Because I cannot kiss you. I hate that you Are out of my reach. I hate that I hate myself For still missing you. I hate that I still love you.
So much pain So much hatred So very distraught But still sacred So much anger So much anticipation So much anxiety To fill this dissipation So much f***ing attitude So much f***ing heart So many f***ing personalities So hard to disregard Too much force Too much to maintain Too much pressure You're to blame
The last thing i ever wanted was for you to die. I wish that you were here with me. Id tell you how much i love you sweetie. You are just my Angel, i love you so, I never wanted you to go. I miss you with everything i ever had Now when my life ends Ill just pretend I Hate You My life without you Has been a living Hell My mother My friends even can tell I break apart I hate my life I hate my heart...
I HATE I hate to say I understand some ones pain knowing I really have no clue. And I hate trying to give them advice when I know I wouldn't know what to do. I hate saying its going to be okay when I myself is doubting it in my mind. And I hate asking millions of questions when I know the answers are hard to find. I hate to pry into someones personal space even thou I know a hug is needed. And I hate to fuel the fire of emotions by accident because I don't want to feed it. I rather not be the one held responsible when someone's world comes tumbling down And I hate to be the person that catches the after shock but I'll always be around. I hate to say it doesn't matter when I know deep down inside it really does. And I hate make people dwell in the past because this is the way it is and that's the way it was. I hate to see people sob even thou it doesn't move me enough to make me want to cry. And I hate to see people who hate life so much that it would make them want to die. I hate to see that ignorance is still being birth in a country who lives off of being diverse. And I hate to think that we came along way in these hundreds of years just to disperse. I hate that it takes drastic measures to bring people together as one. And I hate that people no longer have the attitude of what's done is done. I hate that people now have to take things to the next level when it could easily be dropped. And I hate that if your walking down the street innocently your life could now be stopped. I hate that kindness is now taken for weakness so people are taking advantage of others. And I hate when fathers don't take care of their responsibility and the same goes for mothers.
Given love and hope and warmth and light The seedling can begin its fight Defy the elements trying to survive Trying so hard despite its short time alive Your love and hope and warmth and light Is all that gets me through the night I would surrender without you by my side Drowned by all of the tears I cried Given hate and despair and darkness cold The seedling never even grows old Brutally defeated by the frigid frost Cold winds blow another life is lost My hate and despair and darkness cold Is closing my heart making me old Overwhelmed by all the time I've lost My soul is a land of tundra and frost
In the blackest night a foul breeze blows across me as the demons lust and desire they ravage me. Their claws tearing my flesh, he has sent them to collect me. My screams echo through the deepest reaches of hell, Satan smiles when he hears the sounds of my pain and suffering as they drag me down to him. His joy filling my soul with hate and contempt for him, he feels alive. Like a cut rose I fight for life only to dry up, to be tossed out as if I were nothing, not even a thought or a memory will remain. Lost in the throws of abandon at his will, living only for his pleasure, his every whim. I hate him; I hate myself for being lost to him. My heart chained and locked to his, happiness eludes me. I find myself waiting for the peace of death to find me. In a constant battle I fight for my sanity, I live my fears. I defy him in all places of my heart, with victory over my soul, he laughs at me. My eyes see the blood dripping from his teeth; his breath putrid with the smell of decaying flesh and bone of the ones who came before. As his darkness unfolds over my mind I am lost, lost to myself, lost to love, lost to life. Even in my dreams he degrades me, forced to watch as he crushes them before my eyes. I find myself covered in the blanket of his wickedness, chained by his evil heart; his demons hold me to him, there is no escape. In the blackest night, when the foul breeze blows against me I will know they are coming. He has sent them to collect me once again. His lust and desire will consume me, my screams will echo and he will smile as they bring me to him. Once again my suffering will make him feel alive. This devil, this Satan will keep me forever imprisoned in the deepest reaches of hell.
The truth revealed; regret settles in. "Why, why me?!?!?!" The blades whipped out; hatred. Knight in armor, mutated into satan. "Your devil horns stab my back!! Why you have NO mercy to me?!?!?!" Can't forget...the stained corner calls. Pulled in...your face in sight. "Help!!! Please, I beg you!!!" Reached out hand..so close to touch...gone. Slipped into the hell you left on my shoulders.
I hate you I hate you so much For what you did I didn't deserve it I said no But you didn't listen Now I lost everything I lost everything that was important to me It doesn't hurt you Not the way it hurts me I'm damaged Emotionally, physically, and mentally I can never trust a man again I will never be the same I just don't understand Why? Why me? It's been over a year since it happened But I haven't forgotten I never will Everytime I see my son I think of you I ask myself How did I get someone so special and beautiful From someone so ugly and hurtful I don't know I don't think I will ever know I just hope that Wherever you are You know that I hate you.
My middle son he is the one that tears my heart in two I ask myself everyday "Am I good enough for you?" He wants more than I can give and just doesn't seem to see I give him all he asks for, what does he want from me? I try to reach out to him, but nothing ever seems to work Just yesterday at the dinner table, he called me a stupid jerk I love him with all I have inside my aching heart But the hate in his eyes for me just tears my soul apart He blames me for his father's passing he's said it more than twice When I try to comfort him his heart it turns to ice What can I do to change the way he feels about me? If he would only let me in I know I could make him see That I am not the villain here all I want is his happiness But every time I try to reach him things end up a mess Thomas is my middle son I love him with all my heart The hate he has inside for me I hope someday will part. One day I hope we'll be closer like a true mother and her son Then at last the battle will end and both of us will have won!
Oh my God! You are such a liar! Sitting in a chair, your eyes conspire To tell me lies you've told before. But to me, you cannot hide the core In your existence. Oh my God! I can hear you hiding Behind these words you are confiding. Your eyes plead for my silence. Weakly, you ask for my reliance In your existence. Oh my God! I would chew those lies, Lest you hate and cut all ties. I'll take your reasons with a smile, So that I may rest here for a while In your existence. Oh my God! I hate all the things I know! Hate all those things that you won't show. So, keep lying to me for goodness sake! Perhaps, someday, it will restore my faith In your existence.
I've set my right hand on the fault line But who is there to hold the rest Million tremors coming for you And I can't help you stand the test Give power now unto my left hand It upon the trigger rests One bullet left to stop the quaking One bullet saves you from certain death I aim and fire towards love forgotten I kill you now to prevent your pain You'll die tonight in hate and darkness Yet wake tomorrow in calming rain So hate me now until forever Just know I cared until the end Hate me, breathe me out like fire But just know these scars will mend
Torn apart the dreams turn to tears, Going back to anger are the only fears. Trying to find a safe place to hide, The only thing is hate and guilt to the side. Nowhere to ease the mind, Nothing to find. True values of pain, Like a cowardly leader in battle to be slain. Rise to fall, There's no feeling to feel at all. Torn apart the dreams turn to tears, Going back to anger are the only fears. Trying to find a safe place to hide, The only thing is hate and guilt to the side. Nowhere to ease the mind, Nothing to find.
how could u leave me with just my innocence how could i was just a baby how could u forget all about me how could u not take me with u how could u just sit there and help not help me how could u throw him away i hate u for that how could u say he dont love me how could u let me not have nothing to do with him how could u leave me with only little memories of u i cant stand it i hate u both of u for everything if u would have takein me i could of avoided all of the crap that has become of my stupid painful life
It was a week before Christmas He knew many kids were about to receive presents Didn't care too much for Sing-Alongs Rather obsessed about Mr. Benjamin, And his flock of Dead Presidents, Living among the outcasts Most couldn't grasp how his daily went, He was only 15 years old, Already prepping for content of execution 'Cause he resented his present sleeping tent With no loving parents Just a distant memory and a vague scent, Through the cold days and nights He planned every scenario possibly to circumvent, He was scared for his life but had to be strong Couldn't relent under pressure He hated to see these happy spoiled brats with their gold 'Cause he too wanted his own treasure, Like the pirate that he was He sought out other aggressors They planned to stand tall at a mall To see if there would be any holiday gestures With caps in their hand bracing the cold weather, The patrons came and went Putting a dagger through their endeavor, Not wanting to pester, Or be anyone's jester He understood that he had to one up and better their adventure, He was hungry for respect His appetite was growling to take more of a drastic measure, Being on the lower end of the spectrum He's all too familiar with people Living arrogantly with an abundance of pleasures, They couldn't give a damn about the less fortunate However, His purpose now was clear, and it was all coming together The texture of the lever was smooth and its design was very clever His initial plan was written in Braille Where only the blind can transcribe the contents of his unfinished letter.
When one isn't loved Hate begins to dwell, It starts deep within And then it begins to swell. But I must be strong For hate isn't weak, It will push against my insides And at my heart it will begin to eat. I will start to grow bitter My words will grow harsh, My appetite for love would wither Like a lone flower in a murky marsh. I would be doomed to roam the earth In a hypnotic daze, Only to answer those With wicked and evil ways. Meaningless is my life now For I have no love, Why should I carry on? Haven't I had enough? It seems to me That I shouldn't even try, For no matter what I say or do No matter if I cry, I will always be wrong, Or stupid and careless, And that is why to you readers I share this. For love is my enemy And until my dying end, Love will always be my enemy And hate will be my friend.
happy faces all around me love that makes me sick eyes all lovey dovey it makes my stomach tick i hate when others are happy it only reminds me i am not, I am not with the man I love I'm just alone a lot I hate love so much I hate that others smile What is there to be happy about? Loves just gonna leave in a while Yet people do not listen they stay blind they do not know that hate they will soon find
I want to remember this moment. How you made me feel. Pretending that we are close again, But knowing it's not real. I want to remember the lies- How you plagued me with mistrust. The way your words rang clearly, They were full of hatred and disgust. I want to remember the poetry written. How you make my writing sound. I was never truly lost, I was just looking to be found. I want to remember who you claim to be. How you are a hero who was disguised. I find that hard to comprehend, You are always victimized. I want to remember our beginning. How you turned it into the end. Finally getting to be myself, Not having to defend. I want to remember this moment. How you made me feel. Pretending we are close again, But knowing it's not real.
It's so hard to look at you, when all i can see in your eyes are the memories from that one night. The pain almost killed me, and all you could do was stand there and watch in pleasure. I hate it how your smile takes away my breath and I hate it how your touch changes my heartbeat. Don't you just love that I have so much anger put towards you, don't you just adore how much I wish i could strangle you. It's hard not to laugh at your humorus mind. It's hard not to be tickled by how much you please the world with your life. You may be happy with how you got your way with me and you may be obsessed with the thought of getting another time the way you had before. If I could go back in time I would turn on you and hurt you the same way you have hurt me
Sitting here all alone, I am consumed by hate. I try to think of the times when I was strong, The times when I could let the pain go, then I remember it was just fate. I didn't think this pain would last for this long. I try to find a safe place, a place where There is no pain, a place where someone will understand. I try to find a place, but the hate consumes me yet again. I begin to remember all the broken promises, All the hateful words, then comes to mind all the "I love you's." Consumed more and more by hate with every memory Which comes to mind, I try to hold back the tears as I Feel them begin to surface, and then comes to mind my Biggest fear, my pain will never fade. Consumed by hate for him, hate that terrifies me, hate which, makes me not want to be me. I found a place that is not good for me, yet in this place I escape and I am not me, the pain disappears for a short while, for a short while I feel free. No more pain and no more fears. In this place I should not be, this much I know but in this place for just a short while I am not consumed by hate. Lost in this place trying to find my way back, yet wanting to stay Lost just a while longer because I know once I leave this place I again will be consumed by hate.
I hate the rain, hate the rain How it always rains on me And when it's raining I wish for sunny days Drowning in puddles of forbidden dreams Showers that drench my only means To feel you once again I hate the rain, hate the rain How it never seems to quit And when it's flooding I wish my life to float away Sinking to the bottom of an endless void Ocean that crushes the only means To reach you once again When the ominous clouds won't blow away And the only thing left is sunless shade The only thing left that still remains Is the rain, rain that won't go away
I hate the way it's all my fault, I didn't speak a word I hate the way I'm faithful, it's the least you deserve I hate it that you lack respect for everything I do The only thing I love right now is bitterly hating you I hate the way you prod and poke your nose in everything I hate the way this turned out to be more than just a fling I hate the way I have no strength to tell that we are through The only thing I love right now is ruthlessly hating you I hate you, eveything about you, don't think it'll change You have to ask yourself right now, what made me feel this way You shouldnt of dismissed me, disrespected, disbelieved I hate the way you're such a fool for thinking I'm naive I wish I could turn back the clock and break your black heart first Savagely rip you to shreds, ground your respect to dust I'd slip my hands around your throat instead of round your waist I pray one day I can swallow my pride without this bitter taste 10th October 2011
I say I hate you, But you insist you love me, How can you do such a thing, Why do you have to become so close to me, So loved, I hate you so much, But my heart says I do, I love you, But I cannot say that, I cannot get close to people, I will just get hurt, I always get hurt, And I never heal, I hate you, Why did you do this to me, You insisted you loved me, And now you're gone too.
I hate myself I'm all alone And so I must Stop the aching.. The beating. My heart. My home is now a chair, My chains on wheels. My torture, my mobility, Yet my self is still. Useless. My love is gone, Slit his wrists. I found him. I'm still here. He is Gone. I've got AIDS. The worst degree. My pills keep me alive. I hate them. Depend on them. My body is decapitated. My soul deteriorated. My mind senseless. My pain.. Eternal
I'm an asshole, that's plain to see My fault, and hate being me Hard to change and hate what I've become I call it a monster, you say I'm not one Regrets and my biggest is you had to know me I hate being a burden, but hate worse being lonely I'm not suicidal, not not afraid of death Hated and forgotten are the only fears I have left And it's something that I always feel Afraid of losing those I love, afraid of being real And it's not easy to cope with If I were hated or forgotten by you I couldn't stand it And I'm aware; you tell me not to worry I don't think you understand how hard it is to stop You've told me often, I know my thoughts are stupid I just wish once you'd tell me I'm not so worthless ...I just wish I wasn't so worthless….
I love the way it feels when you hold me, I love the way you look into my eyes. I love the way you make me feel needed, I love the way you make me think there is no forever in your good-byes. I love it when you call, I hate it when you lie. I love when you kiss me, I hate it how you make me cry. I hate the way you make me feel like seconded best, I hate the way you make me drop everything and wait for your call. I hate the way you have me wrapped around your fingers, I hate it because I give you everything of me and you give nothing at all. I hate this feeling of thinking there will be better, I hate the good-byes at the door. I hate that your in my mind asleep or awake, I hate that I know I can't have you anymore.
Now is it strange for me to say at least on this so late a day words occasionally come late even though ever filled with hate why must we our own kind attack being so as we pain the blacks and if that's not enough alone the flame will come down off their throne to kill us it's your destiny fortold in all of history police must exterminate us justice they say, we blindly trust I trust alone me god and fist hide behind 'white' lies and 'black' mist Blacks kill the masses you now claim we kill ourselves avoid the flame you're the burning plague to man kind manifest destiny in mind you're born with it so I don't blame as you turn to God to hide your shame white man's ever burden to bare I hate you not I truly care end the hate of other faces we're one race of many places love is the goal of fragile life musten't end it with gun and knife.
I love the rain I love the sound Forgive me if I drip in your eyes. If I was rain, would I seep into your skin.. If I fell upon you and you didn't brush me away like you do now, would I become a part of you? I love the rain I love the sound Forgive me if I soak your shirt. If I was rain, would you let me wash away your worries? If I fell upon you and you didn't brush me away like you do now would I become a part of you? I love the rain I love the sound forgive me if I ruin your shoes If I was rain, Would you still hate me? Would you hate a natural thing? Would you hate a simple thing? Apparently you do. ---[ SKITZ ]--- 2008
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't feel right, I don't feel good. I don't feel like I should. Things seem stupid things seem pointless I'm starting to feel worthless. I hate what's happening I hate that I can't control anything thats going on anymore I feel like Im holding on to my life by a thread and if I let go, I'll be dead I'm on the bare minimum things are going insane everytime i hear your name. I want to give up I want to let go I want to be somewhere that no one's been before.
I saw the news today I'd like to know what the hell you're trying I want to find away to silence you, and stop all the dying You think you're above the law You'll send to die just as many as you want to Damnedest thing I ever saw the mess you've made doesn't even seem to daunt you You spit in our eyes and say I'm gonna hate you now because you are more evil than I am and I'm gonna hate you now cause I hate your point of view I'm gonna hate you now cause daddy's so proud and mamma's still crying and I'm gonna hate you now cause my God told me to When will it ever end You'd think you would have learned by now and what about you my friend could you please tell me how How will we find our way when the God you pray to is a fat cash cow who'll stand up and say This has got to end. but you slap mommas face and say I'm gonna kill you now because you are more wicked than I am and I'm gonna kill you now cause I hate your point of view I'm gonna kill you now My daddy's so proud and momma keeps crying and I'm gonna kill you now cause my God told me to. Manipulation games and broken promises from long ago You put out the Lady's' flame You'll reap what you sew The children have to pay Old men, and old women too they just get in the way of the bombs I drop on you I'm gonna hate you now because you've always hated me I'm gonna hate you now For all the oil that I've bought I'm gonna hate you now Cause hate is all I've got How will you return all the lives that you have wasted watch the babies burn Say this will keep us free I wish you'd drink the blood I wish that I could make you taste it You've never understood and you refuse to see You turn your back on God and say I'm gonna kill you now because you are more wicked than I am and I'm gonna kill you now cause I don't agree with you I'm gonna kill you now cause Daddy's so proud and Mama's still crying and I'm gonna kill you now cause killings what I do When will it ever end You'd think you would have learned by now what about you my friend could you please tell me why why can't he see the sin of worshiping that fat cash cow just look at the mess we're in You're killing for a lie
* This was written for someone dear to me. * Falling Dreams by Amy Swanson (c) 2007 Falling... falling... ... so much in my head... is it even worth it to get out of bed? Really not sure, can I face the day But life goes on... life goes on. I'll find a way. I can't explain exactly why it is I feel so blue but I would bet some money, it still has to do with you! People go through harder things, and this I understand - but my world's been turned upside down completely by a man. I've been through this before should have recognized it when the problem started knocking at my door. I hate this feeling... hate what you have done to us. And you don't even care; No, you don't even care. Destroyed my security and made me doubt our unity - true love is such a rarity. And so it's left to me patch the pieces of this life Make believe I feel no pain... and go on as your wife. But... my heart still feels fractured betrayed and torn And in my dreams I will be Falling... falling... falling.
God, I'm scared Scared to be alone I've lost so much Lost my light Now I'm alone in the dark So alone. My friends try to reach me I've fallen too far, Still trying to stand tall, But I'm crippled, broken, and bleeding now. Everything I see is salt in the wounds, Writhing in pain, all alone in my private hell. "I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me." Only that's not the case, everyone knows. No matter how hard I try to hide in the dark, No solace, No protection in the dark, In the cold, So blind I can't find myself. Pain overwhelms feelings of other things. "Without you, I'm not me", And that's exactly the case, Smile in the face of death, my welcomed visitor. Blind, deaf, and dumb All I can do is inflict pain. I hate myself for what I've said, and done. Love is absent from my life Yet it consumes all. The absence filled only when I'm touched And that's something I've missed for months, Smile, grin and bear it, Not working. They see through my shallow smile It hurts them to see me, when I can't see them. In booze I've tried to drown the feeling, But it's magnified through the liquid. I feel so stupid, I want out. I can't leave, as much as I hate this place, I'm drawn to it, stuck. Drawn like a moth to a flame, But perpetually burned by it, Forever night, forever dark, forever cold, At least that's how it feels. Time doesn't heal, it steals from me My breath and blood, joy and love, Gives me in return, pain, Enough to bathe in I've tried to bleed, The blood brings no relief, I do feel human, and that's the problem. My bliss is gone, and has left me with no malice, No hate, And no desire for revenge, These things I am without, Though I've sought them. Passion, in all of its forms, is gone, And has left me alone with my agony. Perfection for me lies in a place were the light lives, In the smile of another No one sees, I can't fix me Broken before, re-broke now, Shattered beyond the skills of those I know. Too broken to fix, Except by one, who is not ready to be there Love is the problem, and the solution Pain is love and love is pain. Despite the cold, In the darkness, I am prepared to wait, Weather the storm. I just hope I survive the night.
Her veil had become painted with dark misery As once what was bliss, has now disappeared The dreams with this man were faded and dreary Her love turned quickly to hate and to fears As once what was bliss, has now disappeared His hands became weapons, stabbing at her heart Her love turned quickly to hate and to fears Now knowing from this life, she now must depart His hands became weapons, stabbing at her heart He was no longer the man she thought she had known Now knowing from this life, she now must depart She prays to find a life she can call her very own He was no longer the man she thought she had known The dreams with this man were faded and dreary She prays to find a life she can call her very own Her veil had become painted with dark misery
Sick and disgusted, I hate all of my visions. Someone who loves me, What an impossible conclusion. Connected together, Like the bonds of fusion. Just to be left again, Suffering from confusion. Sick and disgusted, I hate all of my delusions. Finding true love, like I said, An impossible conclusion.
i hate these thoughts that float in my head because they are the ones that wont let me go to bed and they are all about you night and day even when I pray i cant get you out no matter how loud or much I shout i try to fight and hide what im thinkin inside but it always finds a way out other than in my shouts and I hate it because it always reminds me of what used to be its the strongest feeling I've had and im glad it was for you because you valued it and knew it was true i still cry at times when i realize that it wont be the same anymore because you have left me and walked out that door
I hear my heart weep and wail around the clock She cries and whimpers raged thumping my chest with knocks It's not a bruise or a scratch, not a slash or a tear Her ache is beyond my competence; no remedy is there When I ask my heart what causes her to twinge and throb Her tears rush down quicker, crys grow louder, and she begins to truly sob I crave to know what set afloat such profound agony It must be an illness which her eyes can solely see What ailing could be so cruel and heartless I can't make out What is it that attacked my fragile heart and settled in her pouch? All I hear is crying. All I endure is her pain There's nothing I can do; this illness is too vain Struggling to calm her down one night, I fell to a yawning sleep A mighty shake awoke me. My heart wishes to speak In silence I await her declaration as she weeps and moans Without a word she points towards my mind hinting to unlock the door I sealed my eyes and softly unclosed the fastened door To see facing me the disease which prompts her to mourn Hate! Hate is the illness filling my heart with misery Hate is the foe that assaulted her purity A sigh of relief she makes now that I am aware Though I can't indicate how hate made through when I dealt her with care I yearn to know this sinless, virginal heart holds hate for whom Petrified I am with the answer, this hate my heart holds is for you...
Why do I hate myself, my life overall It seems as if happiness was my first downfall Then pain and criticism seemed to follow Is it possible for a man's heart to be so hollow My vales shallow, my dreams long gone Since my birth date my life has never seen the sun Never known the meaning of fun, or the true meaning of my being alive If I want to live is what I'm trying to decide All my life I have denied, these feelings of insecurity Intriguingly, I can always seem to find Someone who: thinks I'm special, so truly divine And I always wonder how you could love a face like mine But I live my life afraid and ashamed Disgraced at how I look, even how my body's framed It's as if I was trained, to find the negative in all Never do I have anything positive to recall For my mind is full of hate and my heart full of shame There is no one but myself to blame Because when I search in my soul all I seem to find Is a young man's life running out of time
for this girl of 6, so lost and unfree, her father abandon her, "where are you daddy?" scared to the flesh , she searches her home, looks at the id, no one called on the phone, as she finally stops, she gives into herself, she knows hes gone, nd left her in hell, the tears fall down, as she covers her eyes, her face gets redder, as she crys and crys, "mommy is dead" "lying on the floor" "its all your fault daddy" "i love you no more" as she quietly shivers, she remembers the past, her mom was at home, he shot her ass, "whyd you do it daddy" "whyd you shoot mommy" "how could you do it", "when you loved her softly" so she went on her life and remembered as she grew up, "i hate you daddy" "i hate your guts".
I love that God let me meet you I hate that I've had to leave you I love that we became so close I hate that that's the way life goes I love that you're always there I hate that you think I don't care I love that you always make me smile I hate that it only lasts a while I love that we have the most beautiful times I hate that our memories lead to my cries I love that feeling when we're together I hate that we said it was for the better I love that love that we have for each other I hate we can't show it to the world together I love how our cheeks hurt when we can't stop smiling I hate that my head hurts but from so much crying I love that you miss me when I'm gone I hate that you have to cause I'm gone I love your kisses and your warm embrace I hate the problems that we have to face I love you, miss you, and want you forever I hate that forever can also lead to never
I hate me because I'm ugly, I hate me because I'm fat, I hate me and I just can't look back, I hate me for this and that, I hate me because I'm alone, I hate me and I can't go home, Life is dull and people are puetrid, I hate me because of me!
I fear it. I shake when his lips descend down my neck. I tremble when his hands travel down my blouse. I fear it. I hate it. I blink away tears as his voice moans and grunts down my ear. I fight back the scream as his fingers journey under my skirt. I hate it. He takes me, eyes unseeing, he's unaware. He uses me, body tense, in this love affair. He loves me. I stay silent.
I dont know what to do, all i know is that I love you, and at many times I want to forget you. The lies you tell are unforgivable, but the joy you bring me is unbelievable. I wish you would give me your heart,the way I gave you mine, and you did at one point in time. I wish things could be the way they used to be, when I loved you and you loved me. We used to get along so well,but where we stand now, I cant tell. I hate that you make me feel this way,when I see you I forget all that I planned to say. I want to erase you out of my mind and keep you in my heart,but im afraid if i do we will eventualy part. i'm scared to keep you around and even more scared to loose you. I hope and pray that you will change because for you my life I would gladly rearange. All I want to know is how you truly feel, when you tell me my heart will either break or heal.So can you just seal the deal and tell me how you truly feel,just keep it real. I just want you around and 'till then i'll be lost hoping to be found. I'm so lost and so confused and I hate not knowing what to do.You make me so happy and so blue. Do I try to forget you or embrace you for you?
It's about that time that I grow up and see that my family is getting to out of hand. My momma is acting crazier than she's ever in her life. Over a man, over the way she treats me and my sisters, to just all family problems. She acts like she 7 years old, always going crying to somebody because things ain't going her way. To make it like me and my sister Tyesha is the bad guys. I hate the fact that I have to sit and see it all go down, but what can I do. I'm almost grown. To many problems in my life, that needs to be fixed, Or too many people are going to be hurt including me. I hate my life right now, and that's sad to say. But with everything going on with me that how I felt for a long time now. It looks like I'll be leaving home in a little bit, but I don't want to do that. I'm still scared to be on my own in life, I don't really know what to do. Too many problems is making me have another nerves breakdown, I don't have time for it. I'm a senior now, and I need to do what I need to do and get out of here. I have too many problems in my life that I hate to talk about but I need to. So to all my problems please leave me alone, and let me be. So I'm go start praying to God to help me though things that's going to make me a better person.
She left me there to die My chest hurts, I'm empty She ran off with my heart Not the first time, I got plenty I crawl back into your arms For the first time in over a year How did you love again? There is so much that I fear Its now 6am I'm waiting for the world to wake I've got to warn them all And tell them what's at stake I'm reaching for the moon I'll be there someday soon This love is ripping me, ripping me apart Now hate is gripping me, gripping me, I start To make my way to the fork in the road And I dont know where to go Find refuge at the bar I'm drowning in sorrow So long to sober days There is no tomorrow A stranger in my house Who are you? What do you want from me? Reflection in the mirror Used to be me, my past haunts me Just leave me alone To the darkness of my room My body turns to dust Sweep me up with the broom Just wasting in the bed I wonder if I'm dead This love is ripping me, ripping me apart Now hate is gripping me, gripping me, I start To make my way to the fork in the road And I dont know where to go I thought I was stronger, but lately I just cant take it Oh noo, just leave me to die If God says he needs me just tell Him that I cant make it Don't save me, just leave me to die
The first time I saw you, I got chills down my spine. I thought nothing of it… Now I realize I should have. Maybe if I had, We'd still be friends, or maybe together. I regret ever meeting you… As rude as it sounds, it's true. For I found a true love, That turned out not so true! It hurts too much to say, So I may only say this once, I hate that I cant have you, But I hate you because I love you. When the first tear fell, I swore You were nothing. As the second fell, I swore You were everything. As I sit in my lonely room With tears down my checks… You're all that runs threw my mind, And all that will ever run threw my mind. I never thought I could feel this way about anyone, But I guess you can't predict love!
Like it for the feelings And like it for the words Because you don't have to like it for the setting that its been put in Don't hate my work because its what you've been trying to do for so long And don't hate me because I can write it Its the only thing I'm good at Even though I try so hard to do something else But this is the only thing that fits my personality I may be joyful And I may be playful But the one thing that I love to do is write all these for you It can take me hours Even days at the most To think of something that you will like And something that you'll love But you still don't like the layout So what I say is this Just like it for the feelings And just like it for the words Because just like your things its a work of art that nobody should miss.
I stress, I feel less, Of a person, Everyday my life werson, I hate this. I want out, I don't want want people to doubt, That I'm nice, My heart isn't as cold as ice, I am kind. I don't want to be Alone, i want things to be known, I want my old life back, This one is wack, I hate this.
(chorus) I'll wait for all eternity I'll wait here at the door For you and I to be Less is so much more I'll stand here by your side I'll stand straight and tall With you I need not hide With you I cannot fall Take my hand Together , here in this province, we stand We'll replenish our souls in its holy essence The deeds of tomarrow Are the crimes of the past The reeds in the corals Are chimes at last (chorus) I'll wait for all eternity I'll wait here at the door For you and I to be Less is so much more I'll stand here by your side I'll stand straight and tall With you I need not hide With you I cannot fall I hate this, Why cant you see Beyond your oun selfishness This is hurting me I feel the wound tear It will never heal I go through great dispair I may never again be able to feel You reopened a scar Deep within me You've only taken me so far This was a short begining (chorus) I'll wait for all eternity I'll wait here at the door For you and I to be Less is so much more I'll stand here by your side I'll stand straight and tall With you I need not hide With you I cannot fall (revert, the things that you say can hurt. Dont lie, the things that you do make me cry.) (bridge) The pain inside of me Is taking all within Its devastating I know I cannot win Against your need For lonliness I had waited Only to see Your great blindess Is only against me (chorus) I'll wait for all eternity I'll wait here at the door For you and I to be Less is so much more I'll stand here by your side I'll stand straight and tall With you I need not hide With you I cannot fall (revert, the words that you say can hurt. dont lie, the things that you do make me cry.) This is part of you and part of me. Love and Life. Hate and Death. This is who we'll always be. And this is all that seems to be left.
Farewell...Farewell... I hate to leave you in this harsh state Oh well...oh well... Goodbye...farewell... I hate to desert you on our first date Poor thing...poor thing... Farewell...Farewell... I hate to run off and lock the gate Farewell...Farewell... The bell...The bell... Rang. I begin to vacillate Ta-ta! Farewell!
Sometimes i feel happy happy that i met you happy your my friend But happy doesnt always last Sometimes i feel sad sad you didnt listen sad you said i wasnt your friend But sad always changes Sometimes i feel agry angry because you didnt give me a chance angry because you lied about me But anger can change to hate Sometimes i fell i hate you because youe lie about me and slag me off sometimes i feel i hate you because you ALWAYS ruin my life
I know that people hate me I know its okay to cry But why do I feel like I want to die? People trash me, Throw me aside like garbadge And make me cry. I hate my life It's the worst in the world Oh father come home And save me from my life.
And in my mind And in my heart I'm waitin' to fall apart And I hate sex And I hate you We're to close just me and you Roses, Coffee, and Cocain It's okay I'll yell at you And I'll hit you Just love me Just love me Would you want me If i wanted you to hurt me like i hurt you
I hate this word I'll tell you why This word I hate Is the word goodbye The truth is I must admit I never get the Chance to say it Especially people who Are important to me They tend to leave They seem to die you see Three years ago my dad Had to die I never said thank you Or the chance to say goodbye Then last year mum visited For two weeks she came to stay One day in November She too suddenly passed away In February this year my wife Said she can't stand me I must leave I was shocked, no sign of this coming I was left numbed in disbelief If I tell you the rest it will make you cry However, from this now you know the reason why I hate this word, the word goodbye
This love could never be And you proved it to be so The pain of love has just begun The hate to love, the love to hate The faith you brought The hope I lost This feeling of love has turned to hate It matters not For it will never change I tried to love I tried to trust It matters not For it's too late You tried And I tried But, it will never be the same You showed me what I had But, what I didn't was to much The passion I never had The passion I will never find What does it matter? The pain to great The love so dim And the hate so strong Nothing to do But, love and hate
My parents are yelling, to and fro, All I do is sit here and wait, for the next scream and shout My world has torn apart, MY home, MY world I don't want any sympathy, cause then I would cry So many tears, to think so many families go through this fate I hate this cruel, bitter, twisted world, I hate bitter life The only reason why I keep going is for my mother The heart-broken woman, cries for her life back My father storming out, denying any hate All I have now is my music, my sweet lulling music If only I could live and dream my music The sweet pluck of a guitar and the soothing voice It understands what I go through, the pain and the agony I look at baby photos, and even though I remember the every day arguments I look oblivious and see it as the every day life Every part of my home will go, the house, lifestyle, the shouting, The address, to my bedroom I will have to say goodbye Imagine walking into your house after a normal school day And walking out knowing your life will never be the same again Never seeing your bedroom again, never sitting on your sofa again, Never walking along your road to the near by shops Knowing that you can never return Knowing that your life is not in your hands anymore I hate the world, I cannot get who I love, lead the life I want And never see my life again
I don't want to hate anymore Don't want to cry Days go by and still I'm here My pain has become my nightmares I see the way it was Good and bad But I don't think you loved me My soul is packed in glass shards Days go by and I'm still here I want solace and peace of mind I want to move forward Not stand here looking back Through tears Days go by and still I'm here What am I waiting for? It can't be you Half a decade gone and past, No it can't be you And still I hate Every time I see evil I see you I smell you I hate you I want you gone I want to disappear But Days go by and I'm still here
My life is failure I can't deny it anymore I hate my mom I hate my dad I hate my friends I hate my enemies And I hate myself It's not worth This life I lead Pain and suffering Filled with greed Bottles of blood Precious razor blades Self help And support groups I'm going to hell I don't care anymore I forgot what I'm looking for My life is filled with Pills, lighters, Never forget The razors The pain inside Is almost unbearable Another day Another pill Another night Another thrill Will I survive Or will I kill Blood gushing Heart pounding How long? This is my failure
CIVAL WAR Men turned against men war fighting killing hate multiplying until Death ruled the hearts of men carried over into Cowboys days of fighting killing and hate ruling the hearts of men again taking hate to the new extreme of violence wins the hearts of men again have you shined your shoes today mon capitan have you ruled the words you speak yet have you grabbed the weapons of destruction using them on the prisoners of Jesus is your coat a faded blue turned gray is your trousers striped with yellow for the coward still in you moving horses without food the horses soon become the food of men the stink is wrong the meat does not keep men alive just bodies full of flies the war was over long ago the winner was the Satanic Host and no one has an answer or a prayer of cival war to come again the battle flag is raised and it is full of holes as men are turned against the men of war.
Promises I hate promises Because promises are said but never done, Promises are things people say that they are sure to do but never do! Promises to me are just things people say to get you off their back! I hate promises because promises has been broken so many times that I just can't stand to get my hopes up high just to be broken to pieces.
I wake up in the morning feeling sorrow clear as day My family sees me moping but don't know what to say I walk around the house, waiting for a hint But nothing came around, I'm looking for my end My friends don't like me, although they do smile in my face But as soon as I'm gone, they take back everything they say They hate who I am, they hate where I come from I hate being treated like I'm someone on the run My mom is crazy, well that's what everyone says They look and me and think, "oh, she's as good as dead" I want to prove them wrong, I want to show them different But what if they're right, and I'm just being a hypocrite I stare at the sky, as if in a daze But my family tells me that what I'm going through is just a faze I want to believe them, I really do But at this moment I just want it to be through I woke up one day and decided to end it all I knew that all I had to do was take a really big fall So I went outside and looked for some high places But I couldn't find a place that was good to my tastes I then decided I wanted to die from my favorite place So I climbed on the roof of my house and stood as straight as a lace I looked at the sky and all I saw was blue Standing there, I finally realized the truth My life was in my hands and I could make it better I knew no one could make me unhappy, not even locking me in a cellar The sun was shining bright as I decided to go back down I turned to go down the ladder without one trace of a frown I took one step and then my foot slipped As I fell I kept my hand, on my hip My parents found my body, as they returned home They knew it would happen, everyone said my life was written in stone As my funeral came and the days passed on by Everyone thought that I had committed… Suicide
I hate you for what you've done to me You have no clue but others see You hurt me way down to my soul My spirit is broken, I'm no longer whole I go through the motions day after day This is my life since you walked away You never looked back you just moved on One day you were here and the next you were gone You caught me totally by surprise You had nothing to say, not even good-bye You've come between me and my family I hate you for what you've done to me
Lovely as I love you Shove me, but it's as lovely as I love you Lovely, hug me, shove me But it's as lovely as I love you If I hate me, would you still hate me? What if no longer from my image you could rate me I just want you to hate me That way when we bicker and fight At the end of the night, you may still be my wife Climax is more depressing than Miramax Send my hate this rose, send my love this fax For life is based on facts Murderers with a lovely axe It's true, it's true, tomorrow it's you Just ask Peterson and OJ It doesn't really matter what some say And some day in that forbidden casket I'll lay Beautiful is you Next to your cuticles, what do I do? Matter is everything But for some reason matter is so much sadder The tears after the laughter This is my love poem, my passion Maybe this time you will kick me above the groin Why is our pastime something we mourn? A sacred Identity is born Tears of shame, responsibly worn Maybe after tonight we'll make up And you'll lay your head in my arms And allow me to sooth you with my selfish charms I love you, you hate me Tomorrow I'll hate you and you'll love me
i never knew one person could have so many emotions inside them at one time. i never knew how easily hate could fill the empty void where love once thrived. i never knew that lying got the world would make a difference. i never knew that hurting me could help you. i never knew that lovers make good fighters. i never knew that the best of friends make the best of enemies. i never knew that abstinence led to betrayal. i never knew that distance makes the heart grow fonder. i never knew that all our friends were just my friends, not yours. i never knew how pathetic you were. i never knew i just needed a stronger man. i never knew i could be so unhappy. i never knew how many hours it would take to build a tree house. i never knew how quickly i could want to burn it down. i never knew how badly i could want to tear my bike to shreds. i never knew how much i could want my house to fall to pieces because you helped build it. i never knew that one man could destroy me so. i never knew that the one man i loved was a s----y enough of a person to lie to me about something so serious. i never knew that the one person who brought out the best in me would eventually bring out the worst. i never knew that looking at pictures of happy times would make me so angry. i never knew that watching my kitten sleep would one day make me cry. i never knew that you could lie to my face and not feel guilty about tit. i never knew how much i needed my friends. i never knew that i could ever dislike 4-wheeler rides. i never knew that i could hate going into the campers or the building for anything. i never knew that i could eat a whole thing of ice cream by myself. i never knew that i would cry myself to sleep several nights over a lie. i never thought that i wouldn't be able to cars without crying, or ever come to a point where i actually didn't want to watch the Notebook. i never knew that i could hate snow patrols "chasing cars" so much that it would make me cry. i never knew that we could be apart for so long and yet your still ruining things for me. i never knew that you could have the nerve to bug for a second chance. i'm not saying i regret it , because i don't. It's just i know now. And there's no way in h---- i'm going back.
I have all this pain when I hear your name I cry when I think about all the happy times I get mad every I think of what you did to me To you, you did nothing wrong But to me you hurt me more then you know Yet I can't help but think it's all my fault If I wouldn't have let you into my heart you would have never been able to break it For all my regrets comes greatly deep pain This pain I feel will never go away You can tell me you're sorry tell your blue in the face But it won't make the pain go away I try really hard to forget you But I just can't I wish so badly that I could For if I could forget you and every thing about you I wouldn't have to cry And I would be as strong as I was before I met you Almost Like I never knew you This is how I wish it was But it's not I am doomed to think about you and every thing you did to me All the lies you ever told and all the hurtful words you've ever said I would do anything to go back in time and make it so I never said yes to you My only wish now is I wish I would have been able to see right through you like everyone else can This pain you have caused will never leave my side Nor will it leave my mind or heart I would love to hate your name But I can't I love to hate the thought of love and every being truly happy Maybe I just not meant to be happy I wouldn't be surprised I hate the pain you caused But I can't do anything about it I love to hate you Yet I can't
I love you because your wonderful, but I hate you for loving me too I love you because you ask for nothing, but I hate you because you weren't true I love you because I've invested years of my life with you, but I hate you because now I feel stuck I love you because you make me feel complete, but I hate you because of your bad luck I love you because you've taught me about unconditional love, but I hate you because you've taken advantage of my heart I love you because you make me feel sexy, but I hate you because of the tricks you've played from the start I love you because I gave body, spirit, and soul, but I hate you because for some reason you can't give me the same I love you because of your greatness and the sparkle in your eye, but I hate you because for you this is simply just a game
They were right! I hate to admit it but it's true They warned me not to get too close They seaid I'd only get hurt They were right!! You just blank me in the street Ignore my texts i had to give you the chance I was there for you But now you're chucking it back in my face After everything I've done for you Everything I've been through for you I've lost frinds, family, 4 months of living hell And for what may I ask? So you can treat me like crap. They warned me not to get too close They said I would only get hurt I hate to admit it but it's true They were right!!
Have you ever just wanted to die? Like you can't stop crying and you don't know why Do you ever feel like all these problems won't go away? And things just get worse everyday Do you ever get sick of all this pain? When everything goes to sh$$ again Do you ever feel like no one cares Just when you really need them there I hate living in such a judgmental world I'm sick of being just another girl Why won't all this sh$$ just go away? I'm sick of barley making it through each day I don't even feel alive anymore Why am I always left by you at the door Dont' you hate how someone can automatically change And in an instant your whole life can be completely rearranged Do you ever get sick of always waking up to a gloomy day? When nothing seems to go your way Do you ever feel like you're the only one who cares? Or just because you're different everyone has to stare Don't you hate when no one listens But when they tell you let it out they all start b$t$his
Is it a sin to say I hate you? Even if this is how I feel? Lack of remorse and empathy Your reactions simply unreal I was raised never to say this With morals and values emplaced But I cannot help to feel this My life with you is such a total waste I hate you more than anything This feeling I cannot hide You see it when I look at you So foolish, tossing it to the side I was raised to be better than this And never to say hurtful things A sin to me would be hiding The hate inside and what it brings So yes I definitely hate you Everything little thing you portray I hope you have a good back up plan This trial is over, my life begins today © Stacy Lynn Stiles
Where were you when I was born daddy, why did you leave me all alone. When I was in her belly, did you leave her or were you there. Mommy why must you go through this. Why cant you see this is hurting me. I dont want to live like you, mommy and daddy. I hate that your always gone, daddy. I hate that your always high, mommy. Tell me why, why you cant love me?
I hate the way you talk to me I hate the way that you lie I hate it when you make me laugh I hate it when you make me cry I hate to be anywhere near to you And I hate it when you're gone I hate the way you make me blue And I hate that I'm your pawn I hate the way you read my mind I hate your brand new hair I hate that you make me blind I hate that I even care I hate that you never said goodbye I hate to hear your voice I hate it that you will still deny I hate that I had no choice I hate the memories in my head I hate you through and through I hate myself even more Because I can never hate you
Blood falls instead of tears, I don't have many fears, Only me, And whatI see, I see people die, I see myself cry. I want to kill, And I will, I want to smile, I've waited along while, I guess I'm depressed. I hate your life, I want to end it with a knife, I can't be stopped, My hate can't be dropped. I want to find my way, I want to say, I've changed, And that my life has rearranged.
Another sleepless night spent thinking about you Another night wasted wishing things could change I hate the way I can't forget, the way things stay on my mind I hate it that I loved you a feeling you couldn't give me in return I hate it that you were perfect and when I was with you I actually felt accepted I'm laying here wide awake haunted by memories of you memories I can't seem to shake I'm laying here wide awake haunted by your smile Somberly remembering how you made life worthwhile
The Asylum of her mind is a dark and twisted thing. Full of hate and pain no one understands it. It's gates are the strongest, nothing can get past them. Reinforced with steel, lined with rock, sorrow, and rage. Hate and pain are the padding in her room, Where she sits oh, so patiently. Mummering to herself so peacefully. Her father comes to see her. She see's his face and her eyes begin to blaze. Hate flares, and she begins to scream hate filled things. I tried to tell you she yells. I tried to warn you. But you just wouldn't listen. I told you something was wrong. Now look at me. Look at me in my Asylum.
Broadway, so busy, keeps my dreams occupied Self reflection and retrospect opens my mind to adventure My listener will not be denied Truth from heart and soul build genuine integrity That's why I speak my mind straight Not tentative or allegedly Broadway, where I stay, like a circus of confusion A variety of Souls pass by my window Mixed generations and cultures create an intriguing illusion What a city to be dwindling in the wind Take a close look around you You're surrounded by sin That's a pessimistic point of view, but it's my admission The environment in my eyes Is like a Crack Feign's nutrition I find it hard to see the light at the other side Nothing Positive about ignorant people Because by their given standards they abide Many souls walk the concrete without true self awareness I see it so often, fools with hate inside them Finding Solidified Minds is the rarest I don't hate others for what they've done to me personally It's what I've observed, permanent damage, done irreversibly It's a tragedy to see, but I keep my eyes wide Follow the lighted side, Keep hope alive, and convince Fate to be my bride
I hate love, for love makes us hate, I love hate, for hate makes us not love If it were not for love We would have no hate If it were not for hate We would have the love Hate of greed, of jealousy, of possession Stems from that of love Love of that of care and passion Soon does turn to hate Love leads us astray from happiness Hate leads us astray of love If love were to go We would feel no suffering If hate were to go We would feel no loving pain Love and hate And, hate and love Are much the same to I Yet love and hate And, hate and love Are two separate things alike
1. I hate the way you stayed away, and you never even called. 2. I hate the way you let me vent, without putting up a fight at all. 3. I hate the way you through up your hands and just walked away. 4. I hate the way you moved on so quickly and made me feel astray. 5. I hate the way that it effected me and that I didn't know how to let go. 6. I hate the way that life seemed to move so fast and that I was still moving so slow. 7. I hate the way you always seem to forgive me no matter what I do. 8. I hate the way you make me want to be more like you. 9. I hate the way you reminded me what it felt like to be a kid. 10. The fact is that I don't hate you and I never really did.
The world isn't fair, the world isn't right, and I can't control how I'm feeling tonight; but I can control how I react to the pain, how I live my life while dealing with the strain. More than two years down the line from that verse, the first half yet reads right - like an all too true curse. The second, however, with each day steadily loses its hold; as do I, on everything that I once controlled. Sadness scars, but fades with enough time, and oft with the healing hands of rhythm and rhyme. Loss lives, but eventually rears its head less, like Patches, Brandy, Grandpa, Grandma, Brandon or Jess. These I can ultimately learn to abide, taking them with an ever steadier stride. Remembrance turns from taking you to your knees, one day into fond memories, honoring such as these. Yet anger is entirely another story, one turning never to gain or glory. At another time, I handled it with care, and did better at never laying it bare. Now, it surrounds me at every turn, and ever more for peace I yearn. I wake to its heavy breathing at my side, bed down having chiefly failed to turn its tide. Even the luxury of a hair trigger just isn't there, for I must simply breathe, to its cruel vestments wear. It doesn't feel like power, simply rages and drains, leaving me, weary, to deal with the pains. Two more years of this inability I must survive; seems so abysmal, when for simply every day I must strive. I'll finally know again, with twenty-two summers behind me, what joy simply being seen as an adult can truly be.
It's over, It's over I hate it when it's like this But it's over, It's over I hate it that it's like this But it's over My success is stress Whether I see forth fit My chance to exhibit a new exhibition Pivoting a broken tradition My pen and pad The only utensils to accompany me on this expedition Put my life in words, day by day Now in the verdict, you can feel my pain Gave you tragedy after tragedy Disaster after triumph, conceal my shame I'm rushing this book, cause I've been sitting here Coping and pasting material to paper Scratching my head, when thoughts vanish like vapor To withstand my span with writing I put it together like thunder and lightning Worrying faces, plea bargain hurrying cases Walking down Forsyth Got me desperate for that life "Like" Lost tears as they bury your peers Another freeway accident Times like those We see our seat belts and attempt to fasten it Shed the possibility Of becoming dead by not accepting reality I hate it when it's like this But it's over, it's over I hate it when it's like this But it's over, it's over
Lost in a haze of drunken hate Who knew it would make me contemplate? Woke up in a white walled cage A half naked body decorated with wounds of frustrated rage Did not remember what I did that night So damn bitter sweet I came out all right Pain dripped from the cuts that bled But it kills me from the tears they shed Mutilated emotions and burnt words clot the cut ends Granted is what I took in exchange for my friends A state of no escape because all the bridges are black and chard I can not escape myself so freedom is something I just disregard It looks as if I am all alone again Burned another bridge and lost another friend Counted to much and held her to high Pushed to much thinking she could fly My friend fell down and I left her behind Denied I cared at all just to get her off my mind So now I am lost in a personal world of hate and rage A man walks freely but his mind is a locked cage
I can't explain why I felt what I felt, At that very moment in time. What made my heart crackle, shatter, and break. Why in that instant I felt utterly and completely consumed with sadness, There is no logical reasoning for letting something so small, Hurt me in such a huge, and profound way. I hate you for making me feel that way, I hate myself more for letting you make me feel that way. Hate that I still can feel sadness because of you, As if you haven't hurt me enough before, You still hurt me after, without even knowing it. Without me even realizing it will hurt me. Oh, what bliss I could feel if I could just let it stop hurting me, If I could only shut that door in my heart, And leave it locked, throw away the key. There is no reason for anyone to be in there, No good reason the door should ever be unlocked. If only my brain could do what is right for my heart and shut it out. Take over the heart, make it stop feeling, Make it stop double beating when there is excitement, Make it stop bleeding with pain, Agonizing pain, stop. Stop now. Give me strength to leave it behind, Give me strength to shut the door, Give me strength to keep it locked. A tear won't be shed for you, The only tears that shall fall from these broken tired eyes, Shall be the tears of happiness for someone deserving of those tears. Someone grateful enough they would bottle them up and cherish them forever. Like a precious gem. My tears are precious gems. Hard to get, Unforgettable, And almost always deserving. Not for you. You are not deserving of my tears, Nor any part of my heart.
As the pain rolls over my heart Like a dark cloud of despair Pouring drops of hate unto my soul As the hate rises to drown me in This ocean of desperation I look for salvation and see nothing But the cold blackness that surround me. With not a flicker of hope to illuminate this dark and retched cloud That hangs over my heart which consumes it with loneliness For that is all that can be felt in the vast void of This Dark Cloud of Despair Jm12/29/2006
now im wishing i was dead i have no point in living i only make you sad why do i have to be this way you say thier is nothing rong but i know thier is i made you hate me for every thing i did so good bye ill leave because i cant live knowing you hate me how can i live knowing that your sad you tried to hard to make me happy but all i could do is get mad at you for no reason well now you hate me thats my fault i guess i should leave befor i hurt anyone else..this was all my falut all you were trying to do was be a good boyfriend while i was out being stupid and imture i guess its my time to say im sorry for every thing i did and now im wishing i never met you because you were more happy that way you cant tell me you weren't because your what you say can prove it if i were you i would hate me too because knowing what i do every day how do you wake up happy when you know its gonna end...
Some people say life is short, life is full of it, I hate life, I hate my life, I hate the world Im in, I don't like what Im going through, and so on and so on. Well some people just sit down and whine and complain. Its not really worth it. Some people are truly blessed that they ain't just been through it all. Well for me I go through it all everyday. Well not everyday, but what my life be bringing to me. Have u ever felt the lust and the pain Have your life ever felt as if it was unfold in hell? Well all we do is complain. But who are you to complain if you ain't mostly went through it all. I been through the broken glass I was forced to give up something that was very important to me in life The part of life that is the best thing that everyone is proud about The part that you know for sure that you are when you come into this world. Well for me Im glad that God was with me but through it all I found that I can trust no man cause my only man is God. A Life of Mines This boy held me down and try to take what was something that was very important to me I cried to myself for days Wondering if this will ever be over But one thing I know It truly woke me All his jealousy I couldn't have certain friends I couldn't do the things I wanted to do It felt like I been locked up locked up in his world What he has done to me It hasn't left my life yet A Life of Mines He is the one who says he loves me and mean it He is not a liar or cheater. He is my healer. He raise me up when Im down When Im up he continue to keep me that way Unless I let other things get the best of me Have you just let your hand just reach out to the one you truly can depend on No not really cause a friend is not a friend A family is not always a friend Betrayal in this world got it bad Its sad how we reach out and point fingers at each other because what I see in this eye Is something I hope you can relate to A Life of Mines
I hate the way you are. I hate the way I met you. I hate the way I never did. I hate the things I am saying. Because I like the way you smile and smirk. I like your never ending funniness. I hate the way I hate you. I hate the way I like you. I hate the way this isn't making sense. well, I like you and I hate you for that.
From what I am, i have become, or what i vaugely think. so sing my song to play along with the team who thinks i stink. i cant become, not even more, than what i have today. to see my grades, to write a song, my self-esteem is gay. i think too shallow i think too deep, and, for reasons i dont know. i seem use my intelligence to stay out of the flow. all the emos with swoopy hitler hair, and i see the preppy girlies, not eating, because they dont care? straight hair is the sexyest, writing on your arms. make sure we know you have friends, or we will raise alarm! gay is this gay is that, f---ing this and f---ing that! oh em gee, oh aybayaby, it all makes me want to hack. myspace me, no text me b-tch! i dont want to hear your voice! i met this guy online, and being safe was not my choice. i hate to face the fact, that we're really all the same. and our stylish tactics and der-der humor is actually kind of lame. i dont want applause, i dont want to lecture. im just sick of dealing with all the gosh darn pressure! i hate trying to be different in a individuality shunting world. i hate trying to make friends with all these indistinguishable girls. they all insist their different, "oh i swear i know im unique!" well from lookin at ya honey, id say get a new technique. comforming assholes.
A big peice of my life Seems to be missing... After losing you after all this time My thoughts seem to be racing... But now that you're mad at me What can... I do... to make it better? I will go beyond my abilities Just to make you smile But remember that I'm only human I can't do every single thing you want of me If you choose to hate me Then all I can say is sorry If you want... to forget...everything Then I shall leave you forever I don't want to exist around you If you say... I don't exist at all! I cannot say sorry enough for you And I don't want to say it again! Because everything I do seems to be wrong Because everyone seems to be yelling at me! Waking up every morning Seems to be killing me Grabbing what's left of my broken heart I pray to let me die quickly Because I seem to be suffering And I... don't want... to suffer anymore! Only you can end it for me In two ways First way is to hate me Hate me completely and forget about me The second way is to love me But I don't want it to be false you see If I were to tell the truth about how I feel about you Then love is definately my answer But then I don't know if I can love again! I cannot say sorry enough for you And I don't want to say it again! Because everything I do seems to be wrong Because everyone seems to be yelling at me! I'm tired of being wrong And I'm tired of saying sorry! From now on I'm forever cold-hearted Because I'm too scared of loving again! But I'll leave saying "I love you..."
The hate in my heart is all I can feel. Deep down in the bottom of my soul, killing me. I can't run, can't hide, Can't stop the pain, it won't subside. So I sit with the hate that has taken me. Wondering why He has forsaken me.
Another instance of my intuition tingling One more night spent mingling With thoughts of she's gone Another debate with what I should've done One more poem one more card one more call One more something to recapture that fall Remind her that she loves me But I can't tempt fate its not about me I love you too much to hate you So I hate myself instead Take breaths but my heart still Left living in the world of the dead My face void of fury Condemned by your jury To fly in Hades starless morning sky The ache waters my soul's fire Pisses on the walls of my desire This free bird yearns to be caged Trapped in bars of aged-less Splendour, no more smiles to render Me helpless Hopeless victim of crimes so dark Bright sparks to sand Soul crushed paper in hand Knocked off my feet But still I stand Tall, no longer a fall-en dove Soaring high in hell above But still she's gone...
Take me home, Where I don't have to be alone, I don't want to go to school, I wanna stay home and act like a fool, I hate that place, I hate it when people look at my face, Please don't make me go, My day goes by so slow, I'm not shy, But all those people do is lie, But something that makes me frown, Is the teachers bringing me down, I don't want to eat, Cause it tastes like nasty feet, Everyone loves to try, And make me hurt inside, Put little food and little rest together, And find out I may be depressed forever!
Digging through the trash I find inside myself, discovering more and more things to hate. I hate the way I give and give, letting others use my generosity. I hate the way I'm always too blind to see, that so many are just using me. I hate the way I let my friends go. There is so much I wish I could let them know. Like how much I love them, how much they mean, everything they've done for me. I hate how I can never open up to others in reality, but in this cyberworld, my mind and heart are on display. I hate how when I finally try, I stumble over myself, growing even shyer. I hate how when I say what I mean, others don't mean what they say. I hate how I can't change who I have become, how the life in me just feels like letting go. I hate how I see no hope, how I see no love. I hate how I find myself doubting an existence above. I hate the way I keep just wasting away, fretting over an inability to find a new love. I hate that I feel. I hate that I want to love and be loved. I hate how I apologize for finally speaking my mind, for finally standing up for myself. I hate how I keep regressing into depression, how I never seem to find a way out. I hate how I hate myself, and I hate how I am afraid it may never change. I hate how I fear everything will be exactly the same.
Written in a hidden ink The lies you write begin to sink The flesh can hold no second vow As the thing you hate becomes you now Place of pain and dying eyes Within yourself, within your cries Reflected onto those you see And now the surface is all that can be You are the proof of how to fall The nature of a lie so tall Accept the truth, accept the signs If you don't you'll only die Stand or fade, it's up to you The choice is there and so is truth Just because they've fallen too That's no excuse to follow through Written in a hidden ink The sounds you use begin to sink Then death reflects your hidden face As the thing you hate becomes your grace
So much anger and rage Engulfs my body whole Can't release the tension and fury How was I ever to know? No tools provided to diminish A path of vile and vain Here I bask in my own misery As you continue to be sane I hate the very sight of you And your precious mental state I hate all your ambition and drive While I struggle against this fate Let's trade places today So you can pretend to be me I wonder how long you'll last When you're finally able to see See the anger, madness and rage Through your very own eyes I wonder how much ambition you'll have As you plan your final farewell goodbye © Stacy Lynn Stiles
Loving Will the pain ever stop? Probably not, although I wish it would. Why me? Of all people this had to happen to. Why to the one who did not deserve it. Or did I? Maybe I did. Maybe not. Who knows? I don't. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy. Of rejection. The pain I have in my heart, I can not hide. It is something that shows no matter what. It glows as bright as a star, If not brighter. Why does stuff like this always happen to me? Am I evil, Yes, No? But still I hate my life, I hate myself. I even hate him. I know I shouldn't. Even though I hate him, I love him with all my heart.
My loving hate, says goodbye god, I know longer love life, and I've never loved you, I seek refuge in hell, only to say I'm sorry, it's the only reason i'm praying, for the first time in years, I say a finale farewell, to my dearest enamy, my loving hate, I wish you farewell, I hate to see you happy, but you never cared about me, so I'm leaving you now, goodbye god, I hate you with all my heart, though I feel unsure, I hope hell is okay, I'm sleeping there at night, i'm leaving now, I'm out of heaven's sight, so goodbye god, my love, my hate, the girl you used to hate is dead, only I now remain, so goodbye, and hope I rot in peace.
Don't you recognize these things that fall down the side of my face, I wish you could feel the pain I feel inside. My heart that is crushed and the pressure on my chest, feelings of suffercation when I'm unable to catch up with my cries. trying to cry silently laying beside you in bed trying to avoid another fight if caught with tears in my eyes tired of heart aches each night the words of hate you scream at me yet the words you preach live and die by the book is how we should live our life love, honor and obey to obey your favorite verse to preach every order given I must do why do I wrap my life around you How could I hate you so much yet love you much more All the tears I shed are never enough what will become of me scared dumb lonely how do you explain the foolishness inside me
My childhood was good but it could've been better I went through a lot, and even wrote CPS a letter My childhood didn't really last at age thirteen I was put in foster care, so I grew up fast My childhood was great until one bad day when CPS came, and took us all away My childhood became nothing but pain, and six years later I'm still waiting to see my younger siblings again Everything was fine, and they should have left us alone, but instead we were all separated, and all living in a different home You learn new things when you have to grow up fast especially when you realize your childhood doesn't last I hate CPS, and what they have done By age fifteen, I was as mature as a twenty year old, but I still wanted to be that little girl, and I couldn't, so I was told If I could go back and make things different I would just so I could replace time, and things lost, or do things I couldn't, or wasn't able to do in my childhood Now I'm twenty, and everyday I look back, and it hurts inside that CPS had to come and attack Things would be so different I know they would if my childhood would've went on like it should Instead it was ruined, and taken from me I hate you CPS with a deep passion, because memories of my childhood will never let me be, I know all your lies, and you all never told the truth All for the money, but God will take care of it all real soon Ya'll took something from me CPS that I can never have back, and that is my childhood I will cut no slack. My childhood was great until CPS came along moving me from place to place where I didn't belong So CPS, what do you have to say I lost my childhood, because yall wanted some pay God will get you one at a time the things you all did was just crime after crime I don't have to say my name you all know it very well. Remember I was the "little girl" who gave hell, and since you took my childhood from me, I have grown to be a very smart young lady, and you all will see My mom and I are ready we're not scared at all, and when the truth comes out you CPS will be the first to fall. Thanks for taking my childhood, and I hope you all are proud, and soon higher authorities will be reading my poem very clear, and very loud Everyone will know the truth, and it will all come to an end, and I pray everyday that CPS won't be able to take away another childhood again!
When should I awake? But when should I get some sleep? Within my mind I'll make Contortions of my excuse When should I resist? My hatred likes to breathe Why do I assist? Been dying for far too long Here it comes and here I go to hate myself Breathing nothing, killing something with its help Writing these things, justifying my own wealth I'm just dead and nothing now can give me health But now everything is fine I've found another way I let this thing reside I make another day There's laughter all around Usually from my mind I feel that there's no sound And I am just dead and blind So here it comes and here I go to hate myself Breathing nothing, killing something with its help Writing these things, justifying my own wealth I'm just dead and nothing now can give me health I learnt too much to take in everything you've lied In death I see myself and it's here I thrive Lie to me and tear me down before I'm alive I'll love you for all you try Just tear away my face Never let me hide In this cornered place I smile deep inside I am not really here Nor can I cry in pain I'll let you beat my fear If you can really see my game I'll turn to something that ends in nothing just to breathe again I'll become you to let you think I'm listening But solitude and dying off is what I'm still craving There never was such a thing as sane Life is just another game Selfless only means for fame Desiring love to make life stay the same The rest is just to entertain
Why do you hate me? think about when you used to bath me, i have always had only one Wish for you, a wish for you to love me, but that one wish never came true, every day you make me feel blue, my life seems empty because of you, But mom your the one who made me, and why this way, if only i could of paid you to love me, i would of but that would'nt of been right, Why'd you have to be so mean to me, i wish that i just woke up, and this was all a dream, mom i know you hate me, wanted only one girl and had two, but thats to bad for me, because the really sad part of this life, is that ""you'll always be my MOM!""
I know what has happened to me Deep inside my past But I don't regret the things That have been done to me Because it made me who I am I know it took sometime for me To believe in myself But I hate what he's done to me And my family he killed I hate him and I will never forgive him For what he has done But I know deep inside of me I would like to see him burn I hate him I really truly do I just hope he's hurt know one And no one will hurt him The way that he's hurt me and you
Sometimes my bleeding brings an answer Sometimes I will never have to grieve My mind is still formulating questions Whilst flames remember what I see Some things never have to hurt me Someone will never have to lie But then I remember why I whisper Locked inside my room, why can't I die? Once more I paint another ending Once I remember what I am My lies can never let me smile But truth will never help me stand Sometimes I never had to hate you Sometimes I really think I tried My hate is still retaining distance But I'm cold and I still have to cry Somehow I recall an answer Someone stole it from my dreams But then I look into the mirror Locked inside my room, nothing but screams Once more I write another question Once I remember who I am The lies that spin another answer This truth is all I ever had
Lifestyle is what you make Not what they have told you A lifestyle within their wake You follow what they do A lifestyle of soul retort The dreams of their empathy Lifestyle of what you bought The mind is the enemy Afraid now of what you think Ignore it like they do Pray now that there's a link Pray now you're normal Ash and dreams will cover all There's no way you'll die now This very second you could fall But you're too caught in your lies Follow all the gatherings Safety now in numbers You've no clue of the hate you bring You're too lost and bitter It seems their dreams had tricked your mind You're ageing and you're wasted As long as you believe you stood their line As long as there's some life you tasted God came He showed me why It seems that he is in me I know now I must please him White came Am I in a dream? Turns out that I'm in limbo It's a test of what I make it Hate rules and takes our souls But I know I must grow stronger If I resist and see my goal This hate will rule no longer Within my mind I see the key My dream is what I make it I'll make it turn so I can see A world where dreams are happy