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To the gods of weight-loss: I wanted you to take it from my hips, not my cup size. Thanks. So much. But I also want to say that no matter where you distribute my weight as I get healthier and fitter - I'm still gonna think I'm fantastic.
To the gods of weight-loss: I wanted you to take it from my hips, not my cup size. Thanks. So much. But I also want to say that no matter where you distribute my weight as I get healthier and fitter - I'm still gonna think I'm fantastic.
(From left to right: Meena, Me, Magan)
As a woman who has carried a backpack of insecurities about men around with her for most of her life, I can quite honestly say that I have experienced a kind of masculinity within the last couple of years that has changed and healed me.
My two closest male friends, Meena and Magan, have shown me a side of manhood that has altered my perspective of men for the better. They have demonstrated a strength in conjunction with tenderness; a combination of qualities I had not really witnessed in guys throughout my life.
One of the greatest qualities that these two men possess is patience. The number of times I have fit the stereotype of hysterical female; working through my own issues - and the number of times I projected my own fears onto them - are innumerable. But so are the times they have listened, advised, or given long-lasting hugs.
I guess growing up around the unhealthy idea of submission in the Christian church - which I witnessed being exploited in nearly every Christian marriage relationship around me - I harboured anxieties about not meeting male expectations of being subservient or acquiescent enough. And the greatest anxiety of all was the one related to letting my voice be heard.
I remember when I first met Meena, I apologised for nearly every single thing I did or said; fearful of being abandoned by him because I thought I had offended him with my actions or opinions. So often I found myself with terror in the pit of my stomach - waiting for him to tell me he'd had enough of me. But time after time he reassured me that he doesn't take offense easily, and that he'd be honest with me if I hurt him. He also seemed to listen to my perspectives on various topics - rather than so many of the men I'd known who had dismissed my opinion because I was a woman.
Over the last - nearly two - years of friendship with this incredible human, I have come to experience a kind of respect from him that has established, within me, a benchmark for how I will allow other men to treat me in the future. I have found safety within this relationship - and I have become a stronger and more honest person because of him.
As for Magan - he is my Noodles and Poetry buddy. We meet every now and then to share Chicken Mi-Goreng and Summer Days Ice-Tea at Esteller's in Melbourne. But as much as the Noodles and Poetry are friggin' amazing - what makes it most special is the connection we nurture. He has such an unaffected nature which humbles me when I'm in his presence. There is a circle of tranquility that surrounds him - so whenever I'm nervous and he happens to be with me, I find myself becoming calm.
Magan and I have chatted countless times through Facebook inbox - and his words are naturally like poetry. Throughout our early days of getting to know each other, Magan shared a fact with me about his Somali heritage - that Somalia is known as a nation of poets. And I believe it - because this man has poetry coursing through his veins.
When I apologise out of habit - he pulls me up on it. When I feel like I talk too much - he tells me that he likes to hear what I have to say. Sentiments I have not been used to over the years - but am becoming accustomed to, grateful for, fond of.
All of this to say: I once viewed all that is masculine through the lens of fear and disgust. But these two friends have embodied such vital human virtues inside the sphere of my relationships with them, that I have come to see that good men really do exist.
My heart is at rest with them.
And they are flagship twenty-somethings who will be examples of honourable and kind men to the next generation.
Meena and Magan, you should be proud of yourselves.
Because I am most certainly proud of you.
Title chosen by Carrie (because it's true), but this is actually a guest post written by Karen, herself.
I was flattered when Carrie asked me to write a piece about my online business for her blog.
Carrie and I are cousins. Well actually I am first cousin with her mum, so I guess that makes us second cousins. Anyway, she's family and I love her.
Divine Vintage Dresses
I run a boutique online vintage clothing store and specialise in the restoration of vintage dresses. I do have some other items in stock but my niche is vintage dresses from the 1920s to the 1980s.
I've always had a love of history and my love has always flowed between vintage clothing and old houses.
I remember my first item of vintage clothing. I was 18 years old and had just moved to Sydney from Melbourne.
There used to be an op shop around the corner from my work and I enjoyed frequenting the place. The purchase was a navy blue polyester crepe drop waist dress from the 1980s. It had a long tie around the neck that I would do up in a bow. My boyfriend at the time was mortified that I was so poor that I couldn't afford to buy new clothes.
That's where the love began. Within twelve months of that purchase I was travelling to Europe to check out the fashion and history of my ancestors.
The idea for starting my own online vintage clothing store came when I attended a conference on Property Investing (my other love). One of the guest speakers gave a talk on how to generate an income through online selling by targeting a niche market. Here was the opportunity I was waiting for, a way to turn my passion for vintage fashion into my dream job.
It's all about preserving history
My website is www.divinevintagedresses.com. Here you will find a range of vintage dresses from different eras that have all undergone some type of restoration work. But don't mistake restore for reconstruct. Restore means, like for like replacement, keeping it as close as possible to its original form.
I love the look of the dresses, the way they move and the feel of the fabric. It's like a journey of discovery with wonderful surprises along the way. Who wore it, why was it made and what are the stories it could tell? When I'm fortunate enough to acquire a piece with the label intact I'll do as much research as I can to find out about the history of it.
Eugenie Bouquié
I also love to create vintage inspired pieces, picking up vintage patterns whenever I can.
All of my sewing skills have been self-taught and no matter how much I know, I know, I know there's still so much that I don't know!
A lot of it comes from how the fabric looks when it is draped over my dressmakers' dummy and what it's like to manipulate. The fabric tells me how and where it will be used.
As a child I would create clothing for my Barbie, taking my inspiration from other items of clothing I'd seen on my older cousins. It was the '70s and there was no shortage of style.
Eventually I would give my creations their own label, Eugenie Bouquié, taken from the name of my 2nd Great Grandmother. My love of history extends to tracing my family tree to discover that Carrie and I are from French descent, Bordeaux to be precise.
Given my love of history it seemed only fitting that I would combine France, family and fashion into my own clothing label.
Finding the time to create my own items, as well as restore vintage pieces can be challenging at times but it never stops being fun. Sometimes I have to remind myself to finish what I've started before moving on to the next piece.
The dresses I create are also one-offs and I make them in an average Size 8-10-12. Unfortunately with mass-produced clothing imported from overseas I cannot compete on price, but nor would I try. All of the items in my store are unique and of extremely high quality.
They have stood the test of time.
(Katie and I)
You know how, like, in the days of yore - or whatever - years would receive a name? Like 'The Year of the Great Flood', 'The Year of a Thousand Giants', or 'The year of 365 days'. You know, stuff like that? Well, if I were to name 2013, it would be 'The Year I Died'. Optimistic, right? Full of promise and hope and all that.
This is the most confessional piece I've ever written. And I feel a fear that is very real swirling around in the pit of my stomach as I put fingertips to keyboard. I've made the choice to write about something that has been a massive secret that most people around me - or in the communities that I am a part of - would have no clue about. But I cannot, and will not, carry this secret with me into 2014. There are few people who know the full extent of what has taken place in my life over the last 12 months. And they are the ones who have pulled me through this when I didn't think I could get through it on my own.
But I best start at the start, hey? In October of last year, a friend - Katie - and I made a huge decision which was to alter the course of our lives in ways we weren't then able to conceive of. I - for 6 years - and Katie for 3 - were part of a religious cult. Each person was targeted differently based on how our leader could hurt or manipulate us best; physical violence, coercion, the female leader's inappropriate conduct with male youth, and psychological manipulation were used to control people and put us in situations we didn't want to be in. I was forced to do things I didn't want to. Things that hurt other people and myself.
Last year, I wrote ten poems which eventually became a part of a chapbook called Charcoal and Red Lipstick. Much of it was written about an abuser in my childhood and teen years, about a man in this cult who took advantage of me, and about the cult leader, herself, who - til this day - still haunts me.
Leaving this group was one of the scariest things I've ever had to do. And I am so thankful that I had Katie by my side. We couldn't have gotten out without the strength of each pulling the other through. And the bond we share after having such a powerful mutual experience will make us close for life. Not just because of how we had to have each other's back in the face of the terror we felt as we began the process of leaving. But also because of the aftermath. The aftermath has been the real killer. My whole family was a part of this group and, thankfully, they left not long after I did. But the damage was already done. The leader of this group had ripped us to shreds as individuals and destroyed our family unit. Sadly, this is not my story alone. It has happened to multiple people in the span of the ten or eleven years that this group has operated.
Without going into too much detail here, I have lost relationships with most of my immediate family. I still have contact with my mother and two youngests siblings. But my dad was out of the picture long before we joined this group. And after we left it, some of my siblings wanted nothing to do with me because they had renounced their faith and I still wanted to keep mine and reminded them of her - a woman like no other. A true monster. I will not give her name because I am unsure of legal ramifications. Katie, my brother, and I received threats when we tried to report them to the denomination and to the international network they are a part of. We were too scared to go to the police at the time.
This woman.
I had nightmares about her for months; waking my family up by screaming in my sleep. Eventually I had to leave my family and my hometown for various reasons that I won't share publicly. But friends came out of the woodwork to help me. I moved three times in two months, found myself a place to live, and a job. But, one night, the loneliness of my bedroom was amplified by the knowledge of why I was living alone. The traffic from outside was unbearable as I lived on a mainroad and my window was broken - and my dodgy landlord wouldn't fix it. Not to mention it was freezing and I was battling a painful throat infection. I wasn't able to sleep, I had to get up in four hours and that's when I had the idea to end it.
Again, without going into too much detail, I tried to kill myself. What ensued was two weeks of being handed from hospital to CAT team to doctor to doctor to doctor. My close friends were my next of kin and, if I didn't value my own life up until that point, seeing them value it for me was one of the most life-changing experiences I have ever encountered. And then my beautiful Aunty allowed me to come stay with her.
At this stage, I was a zombie - doped up on medication, traumatised to the point that the past and future were literally black. The present was mere existence; awake but not alert, breathing but unable to decipher the world around me or comprehend much. I had no emotion at all. I exercised like crazy every day, ate well, spent as much time as I could in nature. The days and nights were beautiful and I only felt like I was a part of something when I smooshed my feet in the grass and lay down under the trees. I had never believed in Mother Nature before then. But throughout the first two weeks post-suicide attempt, I saw her hospitality; she nurtured me. As I ran my hands along the rough bark of a tree I was trying to create a connection to replace the family I had lost. I looked at the sky a lot. I didn't think about God or ask those deep questions that the vastness of the sky seems to stir in human hearts. I just looked at it. I guess it felt like a roof over my head.
I had no capacity to nurture my other relationships or build new ones. I went on an official break from poetry stuff. I cancelled gigs, collabs, and turned down features. I had to stop performing, generally, because I could barely talk or move. I could only socialise with the close few who had walked with me through those dark weeks because they already knew my story. And in small doses at that. But one of the psychiatrists I saw told me after about two weeks that it was probably best for me to at least focus on my poetry because it gives me something to occupy my time. And I decided to take on her advice. Then the next day, I got a text from Luka Lesson asking me to perform at his book launch for 'The Future Ancients'. He didn't know anything about what had been going on in my life, but I swear it was providence. Of course I agreed to - and made his launch date the day I'd start getting back into performing poetry. It gave me a month to breathe easy, and something to look forward to.
One day, after I had gone for my morning walk, I lay down and put my iPod headphones on. I listened to a poem called 'Search' by a wonderful poet named Joel McKerrow. These were the words he spoke, "They say a girl who walks the edges of this world will find herself…if she looks for long enough." And, immediately, a spark lit. I can't say it was an emotional response. But more like a sudden resolution emerged from within. That I needed to walk the edges of the world to find myself, no matter how long it took. I knew I needed to buy a big, thick notebook and start a journey. Then out of nowhere these words came to me: Rummage Through the Aftermath. I knew that this would be my next project. I don't know one hundred percent how I'm going to put this all together, but I have some ideas. And I intuitively felt that I needed a creative mentor to help me to bring this project full-term. So, of course, who better than our Slamalama Mama herself, Michelle Dabrowski. In 2014 she will be my midwife, and I will be her pregnant writer lady person.
Now, months after my attempt, I have moved in with my wonderful aunty on a long-term basis. I'm still trying to get used to being treated with love and respect; always waiting for the ugly agendas of others to rear their ugly heads. But realising more and more each day that this is just me projecting my fears on to them. The stability and love is unnerving, but heart-wrenchingly beautiful.
My heart is to break the silence for cult members and former cult members. And I am excited to announce that I will be studying Holistic Counselling at the Phoenix Institute in Melbourne starting next year. I want it to be a stepping stone toward other studies which will train me in helping people get out of cults or rehabilitate once they've left.
My heart is coming back alive. I am still fragile in the most human way, and learning to be comfortable with it. But I am also starting to see the wisdom and strength that these hardships have fashioned in me. I am proud of what Katie and I did because it took a lot of courage. Although, most days I struggle to see that because I still hear this woman's voice in my head. But I know that with time - and in learning to change the way I think - her voice will grow quieter, and hopefully disappear forever.
This is just the most brief of all brief overviews on my story, but as I said: I am working on Rummage Through the Aftermath; a project that I hope to release in 2015 with the help of one so many of us call Slamalama Mama.
To the amazing relatives and friends who have been a part of my support network - thank you. And to the poets who inspire me - thank you.
I would love for you, the siblings who aren't a part of my life anymore, to know that I love you and miss you and hope that one day we can have relationships again.
I would also like to share two links.
1. The link to a website for The Cult Information and Family Support organisation based in Melbourne. I have received a lot of support from these guys and hope to not just be supported but, one day, be a supporter as a part of this group. If anyone reading this entry needs help, please contact them - you will not be left in the lurch. Support is everything. Thank you to Rowan Lewis who got me on to these guys. I have always admired and respected you from Tabor days, and am ever grateful for you linking me up with the contact details.
2. The link to David Ayliffe's story. David is a member of CIFS Australia. I have found a massive support and encouragement in this man. Our first conversation was the conversation I'd been waiting to have all year. He gave me this advice: be kind to yourself. And it is the greatest advice I think I've ever received. And, David, I thank you for using your voice to break the silence about this stuff. I have a lot of respect for you and hope that, one day in the future, I can encourage and empower others the way that you do.
Love Caz xx
"When did the body first set out on its own adventures? Snowman thinks; after having ditched his old traveling companions, the mind and the soul, for whom it had once been considered a mere corrupt vessel or else a puppet acting out their dramas for them, or else bad company, leading the other two astray. It must have got tired of the soul's constant nagging and whining and the anxiety-driven intellectual web-spinning of the mind, distracting it whenever it was getting its teeth into something juicy or its fingers into something good. It had dumped the other two back there somewhere, leaving them stranded in some damp sanctuary or stuffy lecture hall while it made a beeline for the topless bars, and it had dumped culture along with them: music and painting and poetry and plays. Sublimination, all of it; nothing but sublimination, according to the body. Why not cut to the chase? But the body had its own cultural forms. It had its own art. Executions were its tragedies, pornography was its romance."
I am reading Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood at the moment (the book from which the above excerpt is taken), and these words have haunted me ever since I drank them in. I drank them. Then I went back to the beginning and drank them in again. They feel to me as though a curious child is pulling at a loose thread on my favourite top to see what will happen. My reaction to that scenario, of course, would be to push the little one's hand away and say, 'No, honey. If you do that, the whole thing will start to unravel.'
"Executions were its tragedies, pornography was its romance," words written in context of horrific violence, live coverage of lethal injections, and child porn; online in a Dystopian future - available, and ubiquitous, as a form of entertainment. Especially for the two best friend teenage boys we come to know throughout the book: Jimmy and Crake
I sit in bed late at night after a long couple of days. In weeks gone by, I have conformed to every stereotype about hysterical females. I made a reckless choices out of confusion and got myself into trouble. I took ownership of my shit and made sure I handed the shit of the other person involved right back to them on a silver platter. The disconnect between intentions and actions that exists within me and, at times, manifests itself in unhelpful ways is something that, I know, is not unique to just me. You must be wondering why I'm writing this after referencing Oryx and Crake.
Well, here's why it makes sense to me: we talk about Dystopia like it's a futuristic, Speculative Fiction-specific concept - maybe it's because we can't handle the thought that we have little Dystopian dinosaurs eggs waiting to hatch on the outskirts of our humanity. Maybe we forget that as evolved as we think we are - all it takes is a moment of weakness or vulnerability to become a slave to our basest natures; numbing ourselves from nagging memories, pain we can't kill, emptiness we can't fill. Maybe we opt to anesthetise ourselves with apathy because we can't (or won't) face the responsibility of taking ownership of our own mistakes, or humbling ourselves to acknowledge that, as good as we think we are, most of us have actually made corrupt decisions at some point in our lives. Secrecy and shame are the companions of personal, un-owned corruption. And, speaking only in reference to my own personal experience, they eventually breed selfishness or deeply entrenched indifference - which I guess is a form of selfishness.
I wish we could hear alarm bells ring every time we start to consider ourselves 'more evolved' thises or thats; pride comes before the secret self-loathing we feel when we fail to be the kind of people we think we are. Or the people we think we're more moral than, more talented than, more deserving than.
Baby Velociraptors hatch subtly; cracking their egg-shells with self-righteous indignation or unhealed wounds that have become the driving force of our lives whether we like it or not. They are the harbingers of selfishness and apathy. And I think we're all kidding ourselves if we don't think that each of us carries the potential to spark a justly fought revolution or to give birth to Dystopia right where we stand; and that it's not so much in the future but, perhaps, closely at hand.
Margaret Atwood's words are a clarion call to self-awareness and conscience; personal and collective. They are also a warning that we'll only be recognised as walking/talking executions or porn flicks if we don't stop separating our minds and souls from our physical existence. For example I, like so many others, have used porn as a substitute for romance and intimacy. Where bodies are real but untouchable; where emotional connection and satisfaction is imagined, but impossible.
I am daring myself to become more alive and more awake than ever before; I want to un-desensitise myself to the jokes people around me make about sexual violence, the gore I've seen on TV, the materialism I've bought into as a consumer - before my conscience shape-shifts into a canvas painted black; unmoved by the pain of others, detached from a holistic self; dead to the concept of listening to my life's call and responding to it.
It's time to start being horrified by things again.
In the last year, I have made the mistake of being friends with people who are entertained by real-life violence; who normalise it by joking about it, or making grotesque memes about it. The kinds of people who watch foreign executions that have gone viral for fun, "What's trending?", "Oh, nothing much, just a guy getting his head chopped off. Can't wait to share it with my friends!" These are the people are open about watching snuff porn; talking about it as casually as they would check their Facebook account for new notifications. People who listen to hip-hop that talks about bashing the shit out of fags because they don't care about the content as long as the beat is dope. I'm all for trying to accept people for everything they are, but I also ignored my own discomfort and desire to verbally disagree in order that they wouldn't feel judged. But I see it as my own failure that I cared about hurting their feelings when they didn't give a shit about the kinds of things they were endorsing, popularising, and normalising. Internally, I was revolted. But there was always this fear of being seen as 'too PC' or 'judgmental' if I disagreed with someone's attitudes toward whatever. But the point is: if it's ending human life - or if its hurting someone outside the realm of their consent - it is fucking wrong. I think that our unchecked apathy as individuals and as a society are the birth-mothers and sperm-donors of a very real Dystopia that is emerging like a newborn reptile; poking its head out to look at the world it will ravage when it grows up.
It is absolutely, necessarily, beyond high-time time to start being horrified by things again.
I'm waking myself up. And I am open to having other people wake me up; shake me out my complacency if it starts to set in again. I am hoping to have the courage to listen to my conscience instead of fearing rejection.
"When did the body first set out on its own adventures?" Snowman thinks; after having ditched his old traveling companions, the mind and the soul, for whom it had once been considered a mere corrupt vessel or else a puppet acting out their dramas for them…" I, for one, hope that I get better at forbidding my body take me out on its own adventures without first consulting with my mind and soul - at least then I know I've been trying to hold together the skeleton and flesh for a hopeful present and better future. Not just for myself, but for the world.
I decided to turn my comic/movie character pick-up lines into memes. This first one is a little something I like to call "Sexy Magneto"
So honoured to be a part of this video! Malibu Barbie Can't Frown by the incredible Heather Marsh!
This is a poem I wrote as a gift to myself - as a reminder to practice being present, and to be kind to myself. Love xx
The ever present ache;
The past she can't to escape.
The ever present ache.
She berates herself, like:
"You are an adult. You can't afford to lose your shit right now.
Pull yourself together.
Why can't I just be fixed right now?'
The mistakes she can't erase.
The one's she's lost, but can't replace.
The ever present ache.
She lights a purple candle at the end of the bath as the water runs.
She undresses and plants her feet flat on the shaggy mat beneath her -
Or more like she's trying to figure out where to plant herself.
The naked, candle-lighting, bath mat woman
Knows that this moment in this pristine bathroom
Has the potential to become a sanctuary if she lets it.
She knows
That this moment is a light blue see-through sphere - enlarging before her; beckoning her to enter.
She knows that what she chooses to think about in the next few seconds
Is detrimental
Because this moment is calling
For her to learn to be gentle
With herself.
She presses play on her iPod in it's dock on the bench;
The sounds of bittersweet acoustic guitar strums, soft percussion, and divinely inspired ambients
Fill the room - accompanying the voice of a Pakistani woman pouring forth Sufi poetry in song.
Turning off the tap, she gets in
And feels the heat envelop her skin
As she submerges herself into the water.
She closes her eyes
As if to say
"Come to me, come to me, Spirit of Calm"
"Come to me, Spirit of Tranquility.
My heart is a clock
And it's tick-tocking constantly
I need someone or something
To slow me down."
So she sets her mind to the music;
Her mind swept up in the music.
The sound of the time-lapse world that rushes around her
Dissolves into rhythm and drum beat.
Good-bye quick footsteps on hard city concrete.
Good-bye flashing green pedestrian crossing signs.
Good-bye worry about how she'll make the rent next week.
To the words of Sylvia Plath as they exhale themselves into the melody:
I am
I am
I am
She breathes in
And breathes out.
Breathes in
And breaths out.
Then she says to herself:
The damage
Didn't happen overnight.
So let it unravel gradually.
Healing is a process
Let it come to you slowly.
If that's what you need,
Let it come to you slowly.
I am
I am
I am
While scrolling down my Facebook newsfeed, I came across a link posted by The Body is Not an Apology. It was to a website called The Grace Project. Essentially it is a collection of tasteful nude photographs portraying the grace and beauty of women who had undergone mastectomies.
I looked through each of the photos and found myself experiencing a myriad of emotions that I'd never really felt while just thinking about mastectomies. But to actually look at these women; naked, scarred, and breastless - it scared me. A lot. And I decided that I wanted to do some reflecting on why.
My first honest thoughts regarding these women was: their bodies now look like men's bodies. The thought of not having my own breasts horrified me because - as I looked at these women with completely flat chests, or breasts with massive scars where their nipples used to be - I realised that my own breasts are deeply tied into my own sense of feminine identity. And the question gnawing at me - the thing that I had to face was: if I didn't have breasts, could I still see myself as a woman?
The thought of writing beyond this point is hard for me because I feel I'm being confronted by my own, perhaps, skewed views of what femininity really is? Does my vagina, do my breasts make me a woman? Most people would say that your genitalia and sexual characteristics determine your gender. But - in my way of thinking - hermaphrodites, for example, are a perfect example of how sexual characteristics don't mean jack in certain contexts.
Don't get me wrong. I absolutely identify as a woman. And I am confronted now with the reality that probably 50% of that is most likely related to the fact that I come with fully furnished female-specific sex organs, 25% of it related to the way I was raised as a girl, and 15% of it connected to the ideas of femininity and womanness that I have been drawn to/adopted.
But what if I didn't have breasts? The Top 5 questions to myself are:
1. Would I believe that I am worthy of being called 'woman'?
2. Would I still be sexually attractive to a men?
3. Even if I could manage to meet a man who is sexually attracted to me, would I be so ashamed of my flat chest, and the permanent, thick reddish-pink scars where my nipples used to be, that I wouldn't alllow him to be sexually intimate with me?
4. Would I ever be able to stop grieving the loss of body parts that are so innately tied in with my sexual identity?
5. Would other people recognise me as 'feminine'?
These are musings that have just recently been triggered by The Grace Project. And, in all honesty, I don't feel that I can answer them. They are questions that linger, and will probably continue to do so because I most certainly can't answer them as a woman who has never had to lose her breasts.
I hope that day never comes. And I most certainly hope that I can now begin the process of letting go of some of the rigid ideas I've had about my sexual characteristics being the ultimate proof of my womanness. These reflections have provoked me to seek out a deeper understanding of what femininity is - separate from my body parts.
And if you're interested, check out The Grace Project here: http://www.the-grace-project.org
Much love,
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HyperLocal – a Framework
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HyperLocal – a Framework
Many moons (4 months) ago I posted this post trying to define the meaning of HyperLocal. Not a bad first try, but I've since come to understand HyperLocal in a somewhat different way. I've come to understand HyperLocal strategy as being comprised of a number of different "dimensions", each of which comprises some part of the overall picture. My initial list of these dimensions are (using Local and HyperLocal interchangeably):
- Local News/Journalism
- Local Business/Commerce
- Local Advertising
- Local Community
- HyperLocal Business Models
These are the core dimensions. At the same time, there are various technologies that are key enablers of the solutions developed for these above dimensions. An initial list covering some of the capabilities I am most interested in is:
- Identity and Personalization
- Social Media/Social Web
- Real-time Web
- Geolocation
- Search
- Mobile
- Machine Learning
- Structured Data/Semantic Web
BTW, for a very nice examination of different aspects of the HyperLocal space, see Alex Isgold's post on RWW from November 2007 titled The Rise Of Hyperlocal Information. A more recent analysis of the Hyperlocal space from Mark Briggs reporting from the Interactive Local Media conference in December 2009 can be found here: Look to 'local online' for the business model of local journalism.
I will explore these distinct dimensions, or perspectives, in a series of follow-up posts:
- Hyperlocal – Core Dimensions (Part 1)
- Hyperlocal – Core Dimensions (Part 2)
- Hyperlocal – Key Technologies
Hope you enjoy this series of posts.
HyperLocal Trends 2010 – from The Guardian
As HyperLocal emerges as a key trend for Media in 2010, The Guardian's Mercedes Bunz has a nice piece discussing the momentum of HyperLocal going into 2010, and highlights some concerns as well around local news reporting.
Large Media Companies acquire HyperLocal startups in 2009
Bunz first highlights key acquisitions of HyperLocal startups by larger media companies in 2009. Specifically:
- AOL bought two local startups with Patch, which brings local news to communities, and Going, a local event listing platform
- AOL's big rival, MSNBC, acquired the hyperlocal aggregator EveryBlock
- CNN is investing $7m in the aggregator Outside.in
- The Clarity Media Group of billionaire Philip Anschutz, who owns the local news network Examiner.com acquired the citizen journalism site NowPublic
Google and HyperLocal
Of course, Bunz also mentions recent moves by Google in HyperLocal, which I've discussed extensively on this blog. Here's what Bunz has to say about Google and HyperLocal:
If you're still not convinced, look at Google. Today an increasing number of consumers use their PCs or mobile phones to find local products and services, and quite a few recent developments at the search engine giant took that into account. Apart from Twitter's integration into Google with the option to get to know what is happening around you at any one point, Google offers Goggles, a mobile video and image search aimed at local information. In addition, it is testing Favorite Places. It has identified 100,000 businesses in the U.S. who receive a window decal with a unique QR code to be scanned with a phone handing out customer reviews.
And what of HyperLocal reporting?
Interestingly, observes Bunz,
If you take a closer look, you quickly figure out that the actual hyperlocal investment is mainly business-related. … But while the business side is taken up, the reporting side isn't.
As the editor-in-chief of the Guardian, Alan Rusbridger, said earlier this year, we face a "collapse of the structure of political reporting". While businesses get their favourite place on Google, there won't be any reporting on councils, council committees and the courts. This may mean corruption and inefficiency go unreported.
Despite all the investments above, local news still needs to be supported.
Top Hyperlocal News Sites – A list
As I was writing this post, I also stumbled on a nice listing of top HyperLocal news sites (not from the Guardian).
In Summary …
Look for a lot of innovation to happen around HyperLocal in 2010.
Google Favorite Places – another Hyperlocal arrow in Google's quiver
Don't now how this escaped me of late, but Google also announced last month a program to promote its local business listings in storefronts around the U.S. It's called Google Favorite Places.
Here's the video:
Yet another piece of Google's over-arching Local strategy.
It's pretty awesome (in a borg-like sort of way).
Impact of Web meets World on HyperLocal
Google and HyperLocal – Jeff Jarvis opines
In typical fashion, Jeff Jarvis has a couple of great blog posts on recent announcments by Google, and what it foreshadows for the future of Hyperlocal.
In the first of these posts – Google's synchronicity – Jarvis describes a coherent emerging Local/Mobile strategy from Google that leverages geo-location, place profiles, real-time search, image recognition, entity-based content aggregation, social search, and recent acquisitions/interest in AdMob, Yelp, and Trulia.
In the second post – The annotated world, Jarvis further explores Google's Hyperlocal/Mobile strategy, and embeds some videos highlighting some of these capabilities. (For additional Google-related topics/videos, see my previous blog posts here, here, here, here, and here).
Web meets World – the pace accelerates
The above initiatives by Google, while very cool, are really concrete examples of a deeper trend identified earlier this year by Tim O'Reilly and John Battelle as Web Squared, or as it was originally termed "Web meets World". Web Meets World, as I understand it, is the notion that the Web will extend its reach into the world of things (through real-time device-based sensors), will feed that data into the Cloud, whereupon intelligence derived from that data (contextual to our identity, interests, activities, location, social graph, etc.) will inform our real-time actions and decisions.
Anyway, powerful trends that in time will change the way we experience and relate to our physical and social surroundings.
HyperLocal – NewBizNews Conference
Lots of great videos on the News Innovation website on all things HyperLocal from the recent NewBizNews conference held in November at the CUNY Graduate School of Journalism. This is a follow up to the FOCAS 2009 conference held in Aspen in August, where news industry pundits gathered together to discuss the future of journalism.
Lots of fantastic sessions on:
- Tools for HyperLocal sites: here and here
- Partnerships between Local Bloggers and mainstream metro newspapers
- Ad serving
- Journalistic Quality for independent hyperlocal newssites
- Starting a HyperLocal blog or site
- Marketing to, and Engaging the, Community
- … and much more
To get the gist of the "spirit" of the conference, please see the video below of Jeff Jarvis' presentation to 500 German media executives earlier in the month:
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Good stuff.
Place Profiles – The convergence of Listings & Reviews, HyperLocal, Local Search, Maps, and Mobile platforms
Very interesting to see how the emerging "Places" technology space is unfolding. With Google's recent launch of Places Pages, I believe we're witnessing the intersection of Listings and Reviews, HyperLocal, Local Search, Maps, and Mobile platforms into an integrated product offering.
Google's powerful Location-based Search platform
First there was the announcement from Google on September 29th 2009 of Place Pages for Google Maps. Mashup's analysis re: the implications for Yelp is here: Place Pages: Google Launches Rival to Yelp.
The very next day, Google launches an improved mobile search service. Again, here's what Mashup had to say on the matter: Google Launches Mobile Local Search: More Bad News for Yelp.
The combination of Google's Maps, Places, and mobile Local Search services are a powerful trio. Throw in Google's efforts in Semantic Web technology – of which Google Snippets is an example – and you've got quite a platform.
So what are "Place Pages" exactly?
Well, imagine that places – historical sites, monuments, your city, your community, your business, your residence, the mall, etc – were on Facebook. To my way of seeing it Place Pages is like Facebook for Places. Here's an example of a place page for the Tartine Bakery in San Francisco. Note the map, reviews, products and pricing, pictures, etc. on this page. Here's another place page for the city of Tokyo, Japan.
I tell you, there's some serious semantic technology at work here. Welcome to the Web of Things (see also Tim O'Reilly and John Battelle's Web meets World – aka Web Squared – presentation, which I blogged about here).
Here comes Microsoft
Not sitting still, Microsoft also has some powerful technology and products to bring to bear. First, in 2008 Microsoft acquires Semantic Search engine Powerset to integrate into their Bing Search platform.
Then, just days ago, Microsoft announced a significant upgrade to their Bing Maps platform.
Meanwhile Microsoft continues to invest in Local Search technology, and the Semantic technology experitise they acquired with PowerSet should position them well moving forward.
So where does this leave Yelp?
Well, we'll have to see. Certainly Yelp's new augmented reality iPhone app is mighty cool. And they've got a solid strategic position. But look out for the big boyz!
Location Technology – beyond Maps
For additional insight into the future of location-aware technology, see my previous blog post on O'Reilly's Where 2.0 2009 conference.
MapQuest's move into HyperLocal
A very interesting 20-minute-or-so presentation by Mark Law – MapQuest's VP of Product Development – on MapQuest's foray into HyperLocal.
Is HyperLocal Journalism's Savior? – Fast Company
More analysis of the flurry of HyperLocal activity of the past few weeks, this time from Fast Company: Is HyperLocal Journalism's Savior? Reviews the EveryBlock acquisition by MSNBC, the Aspen FOCAS 2009 conference on the Future of Journalism (and the accompanying CUNY HyperLocal business models), and other related stories.
Newspapers: the End of Business as usual – ? or !
A wonderful conference this past week in Aspen of thought leaders in Journalism and News Media exploring future News Media business models. The assumption made at the conference was that the last metro newspaper has closed its doors in the US. What will the future of News Media look like if this happens? How will citizens get their news? What viable business models will emerge?
One of the areas the conference looked at specifically was HyperLocal. Click on the FOCAS 2009 menu at the right, and listen to the Models for HyperLocal Approaches session. Jeff Jarvis provides a very interesting synopsis of the overall framework in the intro Business Realities of Journalism session. Fascinating stuff.
BTW, the business models presented at this conference will prepared by the CUNY Graduate School of Journalism, led in part by Jeff Jarvis. The specific data for the business models discussed can be found here.
Jarvis used a new tool called prezi as they basis for his presentation. Wow! is all I can say. Very cool.
What does the term HyperLocal mean?
So what DOES the term HyperLocal mean? Let's have a look.
HyperLocal – News and Content targeted at the "Community-level"
Wikipedia has two pages devoted to the meaning of the term Hyperlocal – the pages are titled HyperLocal and Local News.
Wikipedia defines HyperLocal content as:
- Referring to entities and events that are located within a well defined, community scale area
- Intended primarily for consumption by residents of that area
Another term sometimes used for HyperLocal News is placeblogging. From the Local News wikipedia page:
Tim Lindgren has used the term "place blogging" to describe weblogs that focus on events and people with a hyperlocal scope
Who generates HyperLocal content?
Hyperlocal News often has a Citizen Journalism component, and leverages the participation and contributions of the community.
From Wikipedia:
Some people think hyperlocal content has to be produced by residents of this area, but this point is discussed (for example a gov stat can be hyperlocal but not locally produced)
HyperLocal News is Social
HyperLocal News environments typically have a social component to them, where members of a community can contribute and comment on content uploaded to the site
Hyperlocal News and Multimedia content
Hyperlocal News typically asks its community to contribute "multimedia" content – for example pictures, video, audio, etc.
HyperLocal News and the economics of News production
From Wikipedia:
The increased usage of digital media devices (e.g. photo and video cameras, audio recorders), blogs, new media, and participation in social media, has made hyperlocal media content cheaper to produce and distribute.
How does Hyperlocal news differ from traditional Local News?
Wikipedia has this to say:
Typical mainstream media do not cover topics with narrow interest like street repair or local health inspection results, and instead focus on regional, national, and global concerns and trends.
Hyperlocal media has created a niche for themselves by only covering narrow-interest stories related to a specific region, city, or neighborhood.
What is the "specificity" of Hyperlocal News/Content?
From Wikipedia:
Part of the difficulty with hyperlocal news may be related to its level of specificity. Some news is interesting on a regional basis, some on a city-wide basis, some is interesting for a neighborhood, while some is only interested to those within earshot.
This type of content (hyperlocal) should be contrasted with local news which tends to be less geographically constrained.
Cool examples of HyperLocal News/Journalism
From Wikipedia:
As reported in the New York Times, the hyperlocal content company Patch has "one journalist in each town who travels to school board meetings and coffee shops with a laptop and camera."


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Founded in 1967, the University of South Carolina Men's Rugby Club is the oldest club sport at USC, boasting a long and distinguished record of success. In 2007, the club was promoted to USA Rugby South Division 1(one of only 8 Southern universities) where we have competed against some of the most renowned teams in the nation. In 2008 and 2009, USC continued to demonstrate its national notoriety with proud showings in the National Top 25 collegiate rankings (American Rugby News), reaching as high as 22nd overall.
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My husband wants sex, but I don't. What should I do?
My husband has made it clear that he finds me as desirable as ever and wants to continue having sex during our pregnancy. But I feel too big, tired, and unattractive to get in the mood. How can I explain this to him without hurting his feelings or making him feel deprived?
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IKNOW HOW EVERY ONE FEELS AND IM GLAD THAT IM NOT THE ONLY ONE. I FEEL BAD TELLING HIM NO BUT I JUST CANT GET IN THE MOOD FOR THAT I WOULD REALLY PREFER TO BE HELD AND EVERY TIME I GET CLOSE TO HIM HE TRY TO GET A LITTLE TOO CLOSE FOR COMFORT AND THEN GETS KINDA FRUSTRATED WHEN I PUSH HIM AWAY I TRY TO BE NICE AND HE TRIES TO UNDERSTAND I JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO FULLY UNDERSTAND WHAT IM GOING THROUGH AND THAT I CANT GET UPSET WHEN HE GETS A LITTLE DISSAPIONTED,THIS HASN'T BEEN ALL THAT EASY ON HIM WITH ALL THE NEW BABY PROJECTS I HAVE HIM DOING. IT REALLY CANT FEEL TOO GOOD TO BE REJECTED EVEN THOUGH THATS NOT EXACTLY WHAT IM TRYING TO DO BUT HE KNOW I LOVE HIM AND THATS WHATS REALLY IMPORTANT TO HIM AND TO ALL MEN JUST MAKE SURE THAT THEY KNOW THEY ARE LOVED AND IF YOU CAN HELP THEM OUT A LITTLE SO THEY KNOW YOU STILL THINK THEY ARE SEXYposted 07/25/2004 by twistedbunny2004
Good I am glad to see this- I am 30 weeks and my fiance and I were VERY active when we started making love up until I started my morning sickness with the pregnancy. It is our first child, and I have NO sex drive. It drives him insane. He has made it very clear that he finds me more attractive than ever right now- but I just don't feel that way. Plus, every position is very uncomfortable. He has even asked if he could do things specifically for me- and not get anything in return- and not go through the whole sex thing, but even then, I just don't want it. I feel awful. We were "double dating" with his cousin and his g/f the other night and he had said that he is lucky to get it once a week- which I didn't mind him saying because we're all very close. It makes me feel awful though. But I just don't want to do something that I am not going to enjoy, so I end up hurting him because I am not enjoying it. It's not his fault. My sex drive is dead. Oh and for those of you who want to throw up with the smell- that's another part of it. :( I feel so awful for him, but he tells me everyday it's ok and he does his thing himself, although I know he longs for the real thing.posted 07/19/2004 by a BabyCenter Member
Well, I feel preety bad. My boyfriend doesn't quite understand me.When im not in the mood he wants it, but when i do want it '' wich is rare'' we do it ,and it hurts so i have to tell him to stop then he gets mad. I feel lonely in this relationship, when i dont give it to him he makes me feel so little.Sometimes i cant sleep, just the fact that i stress out at night just thinking of how i can make our relationship better. like now he's in one corner of the bed and im in the other ,Its just odd how sex can ruind a relationship.This is going to be our second baby im 13 weeks prenant and i have a 8 month old its hard but he doesn't understand me stressing out pregnant,and taking care of a baby . I just wish he could be a little bit more understandive.''wish me luck mom's''.posted 07/13/2004 by star20032003
Sara~ I have lots of pain in my lower back and at times I find myself contourting into several positions just to eliviate some of the pressure. I finally dragged my husband into the nearest 'Happy Feet' (Birkenstock-Shoe Retailer) and tried on a pair; at the advice of another pregnant friend. I've worn them before and they did wonders for me years ago. Just two hours after having them on my feet, I felt most of the pressure from my lower back disappear. I don't know why I ever stopped wearing them! They are a bit expensive, but trust me, they are completely worth it!posted 07/11/2004 by maggie62677
IM ONLY ABOUT 5 WEEKS AND I DONT WANNA HAVE SEX ANYMORE AND MY HUSBAND GETS MAD. THE OTHER DAY HE SAID HE THINKS IM NOT ATTRACKED TO HIM ANYMORE. WHY CAN'T HE UNDERSTAND IM JUST NOT IN THE MOOD ANYMORE. HIS LAST BABY MOMA AND HIM HAD SEX ALL THE TIME, SO HE TRYS TO COMPARE US . PLEASE TELL ME SOMETHING!!!!!!posted 07/09/2004 by JUANA.B
Well girls i feel quite diffrent i'ts not that i feel unatracted i'ts the fact that i just dont have energy no more he tells me i'm getting boring, and im scared that it will interfere between us. But the only reason i give it to him once in a while is because i dont want him to think that i am really boring. we are going to have a second baby , andwe are happy but our sex life is bad ,and i realized that in my first pregnancy the first 4 months. I wasn't into sex like now. I think its a stage that all pregnant women go through the first months.Itruly think its normal.posted 07/09/2004 by star20032003
I am 10 weeks along, this is my 3rd pregnancy. I am very concerned about the size of my belly... I am alot larger than I was with both of my boys. Could that mean that it is a girl or that there is more than one baby in there? I know it seems like a weird concern. But this is the last baby for me. A girl would be lovely, but twins wow! I would have never thought it. Though twins runs in my family and my husbands. Is there any way to tell before the doctors can? Just curious any insight would be wonderful. Thanks in advance. :o)posted 07/08/2004 by Mommie_of_3+1
This is for all the women in the sight..My wife to be is 10 weeks pregnant,and don't like to have sex any more so if you have a answer write back...email@example.com 07/05/2004 by SHAWN_WIFEY
Basically, men can be very selfish and self serving. You have to be up front with them and let them know how you are feeling otherwise you'll end up being resentful. Fortunately for us this is our 3rd baby and the other 2 broke my husband in so that he knows to leave me alone unless I initiate it. Another good tool is having your physician or midwife explain to them what you are going through they are usually more receptive to a total stranger. I know it sounds ridiculous but trust me it works.!!!posted 07/03/2004 by herewegrow
My dilemma is that I want sex but once it comes down to it, I'm not in the mood anymore. He either waits too long, telling me he'll be up in a minute that turns into two hours, or it'll hurt and I can't feel good anymore. Another problem is that he's still trying to have sex the same way we did before I got pregnant, but at 32 weeks it's kind of impossible. This frustrates me and I try to get him to do things differently but with no progress. I'm so tired and sore all the time anymore that either I just can't get into the mood or the mood wears off QUICKLY. And my husband does seem to be paying any attention to me anymore. We get into more arguements than ever and he never wants to compromise. I'm not working anymore b/c the place I worked at became a health hazard and with 8 more weeks left it's kind of hard to find someone to hire me elsewhere. But I still clean the entire apartment everyday. He's really stressed because he's now the sole income for us. It's a big hassle to talk to him anymore.posted 06/28/2004 by a BabyCenter Member
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Theresianer Premium Pils - Theresianer HTS 1892 Spa
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Ratings: 8 | Reviews: 4 | Display Reviews Only:
Ontario (Canada)
3/5 rDev -6.5%
01-26-2014 19:36:38 | More by cfalovo97
3.55/5 rDev +10.6%
330ml bottle served in a Weizen glass.
A: Pours a very clear pale yellow color forming big bubbled and soapy white head. Medium retention and tons of white soapy and lingering lacings left in the glass
S: Nice smell of sweet pale grains and hoppy and flowery Pilsener style hops. Probably Saaz hops. Crispy pale malts taste. In overall, a dry malty taste. Yeasts are very bready and low fermentation-like. A bit earthy too
T: Follows the nose, strong notes of pale grains in the upfront. Slightly sweet. Very bready. In overall, a dry and crispy taste. Could be a bit more hoppy but still not bad at all
M: Light body. Light carbonation. I this point, it lacks a bit of extra carbonation to the style. Hoppy flowery and mild bitter aftertaste
O: Smooth and quite drinkable beer. Another good surprise from Theresianer brewery
10-28-2013 21:07:31 | More by eduardolinhalis
2.75/5 rDev -14.3%
05-19-2013 05:18:43 | More by Julian4077
3.5/5 rDev +9%
02-19-2013 18:02:12 | More by profondo
4/5 rDev +24.6%
09-18-2012 21:21:48 | More by educorgan
2.88/5 rDev -10.3%
From Trieste. How interesting, it's the only city in Italy I've set foot in. Let's see what their pilsener is like.
Pours a very clear bright yellow gold. Quite pale, with a fine mottled top of white foam. Minimal lacing and body, although the carbonation is pleasantly fine. Yeah, not bad. retention and body are slightly lacking, but otherwise it's pretty good, stylistically.
Nose is grainy, with some hints of sweet adjuncts and only a breeze of grassy, haylike hops. Notes of honey and something sweetly floral, but the sweet characters really don't work for me.
Taste is a little better, with a clean, if somewhat empty palate, with touches of pilsner grain and a hint of metallic bite on the back. Clean and drinkable enough, and with much more character than the generic Euro Pale, if still lacking.
Pretty easy to drink. Pretty forgettable, though, as well.
08-29-2011 08:01:37 | More by lacqueredmouse
3.35/5 rDev +4.4%
This one pours a pale yellow color with a very nice, thick head. Good lace. The smell is fresh, with a grassy and pils malt aroma. There's some hop presence...a flowery and slightly herbal Saaz hop smell. Not bad, although it could be more pronounced. The taste is crisp and fairly bitter. Malt up front, but it could be a little more bready. Nice and very crisp and clean finish. This beer is a thirst quencher and moderately light in body. This is a fairly good pils, and better than expected.
05-31-2009 14:06:56 | More by Suds
2.65/5 rDev -17.4%
Blonde, lightly veiled. White head, beautiful hat.
At the smell an herbal hop, with a background of maltiness.
Quite bitter at the taste, and also quite dry. Light notes f honey in the beginning, and a light cooked cereals note.
Honest and drinkable.
In the aftertast some herbal hop. Light in body.
12-24-2007 20:44:15 | More by stcules
Theresianer Premium Pils from Theresianer HTS 1892 Spa
- out of 100 based on 8 ratings.