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Do you think you may be depressed? Although a screening test cannot be used to diagnosed you with clinical depression, it can help you learn whether you have depression symptoms and should seek further evaluation from a doctor. Our test is free, simple to use and can be taken right now in the privacy of your own home.
- July 26, 2007 at 1:53 am(1) Depressed Guy says:
What a help that was. Thanks
- September 6, 2007 at 4:23 am(2) Ella says:
im glad there are websites like this for teenagers like myself, they are very helpful.
i hope that the guy above gets better very soon
- August 30, 2011 at 5:22 am(3) mike l says:
yes thank god b/c i slit my rist 6 times bleeding untill i saw this thank u so much
and beer and pot makes u go there without your gf
- February 11, 2008 at 8:39 pm(4) Bella says:
thank you very much, but it dosent work, tomorrow i wont be problem anymore…
- February 19, 2008 at 6:31 am(5) depressed dwdette says:
that ddnt help me at all
why cant i just be happy?
whats wrong with me?
i have mates who r gr8 n an awsum bf but im jst constantly depressed n feel unloved…
i dont wana live anymore
- May 13, 2011 at 12:12 am(6) Levi says:
I think I have the same problem as you.
I don't see the point in living anymore, im always sad and unhappy. Have you got better yet?
- May 26, 2011 at 8:37 pm(7) chelsea says:
i knowthat you are always sad and depressed. i don't always feel like that anymore but it happens still. i didn't get medical help or anything but i hurt myself on purpose. i don't no why it is terrible. i didn't do anything to bad but i scratched and cut myself with safetypins on my hands and i punched walls which bruised my hands. i have never hurt anywhere but my hands. idk why. but then i talked to someone about it. i didn't tell them that i hurt myself but i told them that i was depressed. he was my boyfriend. he helped me alot and we grew closer. the closer we were the less depressed i was. but when i am not happy about something that happens i cry alot and feel that depressed feeling again but it hasnt been really bad in a long time. i think the main thing i needed was someone to love and someone to love me and be close.
- September 9, 2011 at 10:27 am(8) Summer says:
I'm so depressed and my heart is so broken. I don't know what to do anymore it's like I have it all under control but I really don't. I am going through a break up with my first true love I feel like he's playing games with my heart and mind. One min he wants to be with me as long as it's his way. And then the next he says he will help me get on my feet but he has things he's gotta take care of and I can't be with him. But he wants to put me in a place where he knows I'm at and still come see me when he can he said he only wants what's best for me, him and us. I kinda feel like he wants me only when he wants something from me and I feel like he don't want to be with me but don't want anyone else to have me. Please I just don't know what to do anymore and I have tried to talk to him but he just gets so upset at me cause I don't understand what he wants from me or what he's trying to say.
- September 13, 2011 at 1:25 pm(9) stephen says:
im so angry i cant controll my self sometime it feel like nobody cares for me eneymore and the only one who does care for me is my gf and my life is so sade and depressing it hurts
- February 23, 2008 at 5:55 pm(10) ... says:
Don't Ever Give Up…
Things Get Better
- June 24, 2011 at 1:17 am(11) nate says:
thats not true sometimes things dont get better sometimes you end up getting pushed and beatin thro life till your like 90 witch is hell and i geuss it would be better when you finnaly get Alzheimers and cant remember what sadness is but still to push thro and try and be strong for yourself and those around you is so dificult in fact as odd as it sounds thats the only reason im still alive iv been on every kind of depression meds and even see a seprate shrink for it but i never have felt better the only reason i push is becuse my best friend is depressed and my other one is a bi polar skitzo and they need me… its torture and the depend on me there parasites they depend on my income and support and they will never know that there a part of my depression but im 17 and i support 2 teenage girls if they didnt completly depend on me i dout id be here but things dont always get better
- September 26, 2011 at 5:36 pm(12) CHRISWARD says:
wot a smashing pair we make. only diff is im £8000 robbed lost home+family. so not responsible for frendz or owt now. got american pit bull kept me alive but looks like im losin her poor lovely thing i raised for 2yr. name method easiest better than killin slow wiv alcohol and weed i grown to do it wiv. if cant beat me join em bakwardz. enjoy life or die slow suffering.
- June 24, 2011 at 8:40 pm(13) john doe says:
not allways ive been waiting 10 years for things to get better and nothing im 20 now the only reason ive lasted this long is i had to take care of my family after my mother died but no there grown up and can handle thenselves i give up dont care if i go to hell if it exists.
- August 29, 2011 at 7:05 pm(14) guitarmom52 says:
Things may not seem like they get better but you still should try, try because might as well try to be happy and do things you normally wouldn't do you might find there was something out there you never knew existed and it was waiting for you to find it. I wanted to kill myself when i was 13 the safety was on, but i pulled the trigger and got caught with the gun and i really felt like i hated myself, i was ugly and weird (in my mind) and i am still sort of not accepted but I picked up a guitar and started writing about everything that was going on in my head, it fucking saved me, and every time i pull away from my guitar and stop writing I hate myself all over again, but i feel like me when i'm singing and playing and if I never tried it, i probably would be dead. But It will find you if you want to find it.
- March 1, 2008 at 9:53 pm(15) Depressed Girl says:
what a help,
thanks, no serously worthless junk
im alone, depressed, but heyy, this helped
thanks for nothing,
- April 1, 2008 at 8:30 pm(16) Spring-heeled Jack says:
What a load of crap! Then again, I was too restless to finish reading the question about anxiety, too tired to finish reading the question about fatigue, and didn't feel it was worth finishing the question about self-worth. I knew the test was drawing to a close when the question about suicide came up(why do they always save that one 'til last?), but had already slit my wrists by that point. Beware of people with a sense of humour: they are all depressed!
- April 2, 2008 at 11:56 am(17) depressed.... forever says:
i agree with depressed dwdette…
why does life suck ??
and why cant i just be happy
- June 8, 2008 at 8:51 pm(18) Depressed unloved emo says:
oh great, so now i know im depressed, so shou i go commit suicide, i totally agree with that first guy, that was soooo effin helpful…wait a minute, no it wasnt…not even a little bit, so ef that!
- June 15, 2008 at 1:11 am(19) "normal" teenage girl says:
i think i may be depressed.
everyone is always asking me "are you okay" ect.
my best friend says I'm always sad.
i have great friends yet i cant seem to enjoy myself around them.
i want to stay at home and sleep all day.
i used to love meeting people, now I'm anti social
I feel like I'm taking painkillers.
a laugh will make the pain go away
then im back to depression
I have no real reason to be depressed
so why am i?
my mother would be heartbroken if i told her
any advice?
- September 13, 2011 at 7:50 am(20) smalone says:
i feel the exact same way!!
- November 14, 2011 at 9:08 am(21) PeaceB106 says:
if you are depressed and unable to feel happiness for no apparent reason you need medication. I am so in touch with what you are feeling and prozac literally changed my life. I know this post is old and I hope you are still with us. and happy. God Bless.
- June 22, 2008 at 5:08 pm(22) Morte says:
yeah that was so helpful
it told me i was depressed
well everythings okay now obviously
- November 12, 2011 at 7:51 am(23) hgv says:
lol i really wanna do americorps or an NGO
- June 29, 2008 at 4:29 pm(24) Lisa says:
I dont know how I will get thru this, I wish I was dead, I have never had an easy life, My Mother was right I'am awfull amd not worth a shit to anyone, Oh God I have no-one and feel so unworthy of anything
- March 25, 2011 at 10:30 pm(25) InMyEyEs says:
You're never alone you know.
Your mother sounds like she's awful, because that's disrespectful. i want you to know you deserve more than that. Just please, get help. You deserve happiness, you're worthy. People probably love you, but you need to learn to love yourself. Maybe your life isn't easy but that makes you stronger! You can persist through anything. And although I'm a total stranger I believe in you.
- July 15, 2008 at 11:34 pm(26) lidiya says:
hi, i'm 18 and so depressed, have bn for
a long time, i have had a few previous suicide attempts, and no-one knows.
this hasn't really helped a whole lot, i mean how could it really, seriously?
but anyway, life is tough and i hurt so much and those rwnd me too, but i feel, tht it aint wrth going on, and… i'm not going to.
nobody will understand, but i hope they do someday. xx
- July 25, 2008 at 5:20 pm(27) Alanna says:
hi I'm 22 and can't stop crying because I am so depressed, I just don't want to live anymore.
I had depression for a long time and I just don't feel like coping with it any longer. This doesn't help at all:( I wish I was dead!!
- September 9, 2011 at 12:33 pm(28) Tami says:
never give up on yourself, it will get better,
- October 10, 2011 at 3:33 pm(29) Jimmy says:
I know how you feel i just cant feel no more everything is so distant i cant sleep i cry my eyes out evernight…I just dont see the point of living no more all I want is to be normal but I know that I can never benormal. It has been this way all my life a fake a smile here or there i have no way of coping with this so I'm done trying. I may be dieing I dont care in fact I wait for death to come …..anythings better than living like this. I Feel i cause problems for everyone around me and its not that i Intend to it just happens and that makes me even more depressed. Im at the point of no return….theres no medical help that can treat me my mind is jsut screwed I reach out in hope to find something that help with my problems. Its kinda pointless though thanks for reading
- October 17, 2011 at 10:10 pm(30) martha says:
i wish i was dead too at some points:( but god brought us here to this world that could sometimes be cruel but remember never give up and keep your head all the way up because their is so much in life that i bet you wouldnt want to miss!:)
- July 31, 2008 at 5:54 am(31) Rakam says:
Totally depressed of everything in life..
I feel like Life is tooooo Long to live..
When living happily itself, should die off..
though people who love me soo much r with me to support n cherish my life, still I feel depressed..
- August 24, 2011 at 9:53 pm(32) Schwarz says:
Hey, I read this article before it's "How to land your kids to therapy" it talks about how a psychologist gets patients that had a perfect life, but were depressed – basically it's because you have been loved in all those moments that were harsh, and that you needed to experience on your own, but your loved ones were there to support you. (IDK if this is in your situation, but I'm just trying to help)
There are thousands of ways to become happy, it just depends on ones scenario… I opened a website, and its basically just to help people get through their rough patches, i offer free support, just for my own satisfaction knowing I helped someone out there, even if you're a stranger to me, YOU deserve to be happy, why not right?
well, if you need help and have no where to go, I'm always an option (you can contact me here – poemsforthee.com) *not trying to advertise, just help*
- August 3, 2008 at 6:26 pm(33) Sarah says:
People, I'm sorry that you feel so bad and so very alone in this life. I'm sorry that life is hard for you to manage and that bigh days are so far away right now. But life changes. Things get better. Only if you seek the help and understanding and care that you deserve. People can help make your life better and help the secret pain that you go through in the quiet. Go see a GP, counsellor, school teacher or anyone that will point you in the right direction. Dont give up guys. x
- August 13, 2008 at 1:06 am(34) shady says:
wow. yea he was ryte. what a biq help. thanks a bunch. =[
- August 18, 2008 at 9:55 am(35) depressed... says:
Jeeze..now i know am definately depressed..that just makes me feel more useless..i think ill go and cut myself now
Atleast some of you guys can tell your parents…if i tell mine they'll just laugh at me. They always do. I cant pick up the phone and just dial a depression hotline cause there isnt any.
Evn if i do tell my parents, id probably make them feel worse as im already a failure in school and suffer from eczema so i cant wear all the skirts and shorts like evryone else as they will see my marks and " my mom wouldnt want that"
Can i please die now..i wish i was never born.:'(
- September 2, 2011 at 10:10 pm(36) Angel says:
Depression. What exactly is it? emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness. In other words its a self induced emotion, thats all it is, an emotion. Its not a desease, you can't catch it, its not somthing you can taste, see or smell so why are you letting it rule your life?
I know that life has hardships I've had my fair share (and i know there will be more)Just like all of you I have wanted to die but i recognized that its a permanent fix to a temporary problem but most of all i recognized that it would destroy the loved ones i would have left behind.
some of you say that your not trying to get attention but you are. you want some one to notice, you want some one to care. Open your eyes, the people who surround you everyday(friends and family) they care, they wouldnt be around if they didn't. It may not be much but I'm a stranger and I care.
To those of you that say that I wouldnt know I've never been through what you've been through, no i probably haven't but your not the only ones who have problems and your problems are not bigger than anyones problems nor are they smaller.
I'm 21 yrs old, I had an abusive mom, my best friend commited suicide when i was 14, i had to dropout of the 8th grade to take care of my sisters child bc my mom had 2 jobs and my sister just left him, I've been raped twice(currently undergoing a trial) and I was molested by two people i thought i could trust.
Every day I put pounds of makeup on just to look normal. Every damn day I think how can any one love a monster like me, im ugly worthless and i cant do anything right. Every week I used to see a counsler but she ended our sessions because she says I dont need her any more. you know how i get through each day? I AM loved, my friends tell me so everyday and the family that i do talk to, they get angry at me when i don't call them. I am happy but yes sometimes i do have my moments of depression, every one does just dont let it rule you.
- November 12, 2011 at 8:06 am(37) ohg says:
thank you, I don't know what I have to do but you're right family and loved ones are more important than anything.. I just wish I had someone to talk to that I could be honest with that wont think I'm a complete nut job.
- August 19, 2008 at 11:42 pm(38) morgan says:
i am only 17 and i think i have been depressed pretty much since i was i teenager. i have tried talking to my mom and she thinks i'm just moody or emotional. so i just feel like i'm helpless. everyone thinks i just do it for attention and i wish people would just understand that if i wanted attention i would do something obnoxiously out there to make myself known and all. but i dont. i keep tryin to think of a good way to kill myself that would be fast, but then i think about how embarrassed my parents would be and it makes me mad that that would be all that i am thinking about so i try to just bury that really deep. my life isnt even that bad. i just get so damn sad sometimes…
- August 28, 2008 at 12:43 pm(39) tatmando says:
It seems we all are sufering from depression… I've been depressed most of my life, and i successfully to a point, killed myself. i died spent 2 weeks in a coma and the best they expected was me to be a vegetable for the rest of my life. i beat the odds but i still want to kill myself, maybe next time i will succeed. seen the doc, seen the psych… got the drugs but thats all they can do. it sucks being alive, when will it end? we go thru this endless grey existence looking for a way out, i just hope i find one…,one way or the other.
- September 9, 2008 at 11:29 pm(40) Nisha says:
Hey Thanks that was a real help, now I know I'm depressed and may be able to get some help
- September 19, 2008 at 8:26 am(41) tatmando says:
Was a bit to down the last time i blogged…. Forgot to include a few points… The doctor and the psych did help and am on meds for being a manic depression… They do help, i still get depression and manic points but they're not as bad as they used to be… Every little bit helps. hpoe you can find some help just to ease it away. there's no easy solution but somethings can help.
- October 2, 2008 at 10:40 am(42) stephanie says:
we all go through problems in life, but for some everything can be okay you just feel like nobody loves you and no one care. But im going to tell you that there is someone that that loves you and that is GOD!!! Give your life to him, read the bible and you will see that your life is very important and worth something….The answer is to NOT kill yourself!!!! Do you really want to be burning in hell for eternity, think about it…
my advice is give your life to Jesus and life will get better it wont be perfect, but it will help, And remember Jesus is the only way to heaven! LUV YOU!!! =D
- February 24, 2011 at 1:12 pm(43) LeAnn says:
Everyone does go through problems but what if it doesnt get better? What if God isnt enough for me? I have lost all my friends in the past month. I have no one but god. I cant sit with god at school and eat lunch with him can i? I can pray to god but not in public….i cant have discussions with god. sometimes god is not what people need. sometimes its a friend. Which is something i dont have. And this quiz is retarded cuz it just makes me feel worse. eff thiss. But i wont kill myself because i dont wanna go to hell.
- July 26, 2011 at 6:16 pm(44) hmm... says:
oh please, you havent even tried have you? Try and ask him for something serious; not something like -god make me happy for the rest of my life. begin with something smaller like; help me get a serious friend, it will work if you would actually belive that he willl help you, and if it dosent work; did you really trust him? dont you think there's a reason why people who belive in god are happy and people who dont arent? its not like its just the people on this site who are depressed, so many are, just because some people say that they're defenetly no depressed it dosent mean they really arent. And yes you can have a conversation with him, but not until you know how to. And you dont have to talk to him loudly, just in youre mind. If you actually would try and give him a chans; is youre own choise, im just telling you that if you seriosly want to become happier, give it a try. a seriose try. And dont blame everything on him if something happens, you dont even know him. If you have a grudge against him, try and belive that there is a reason behind whatever made you angry; cause there is. And dont think im trying to force him on you, its all youre own choise, im just saying that you really dont now much yet, but its not like you need to, cause you will understand later. Right now, al you have to do is belive; If you want to that is.
- October 16, 2008 at 1:36 am(45) shawn says:
Im always depressed and ill tell you why in a list
1. I grew up in a crappy life being crapped on by other ppl. Going from foster home to foster home. till i was 12
2. My dad died on my 16th birthday. I found him.
3. After that I was homeless and slept in places no one would want to sleep in. Ate at soup kitchens etc…
4. Once i did get a life i found out my uncle had died of a heart attack in jail (we were close)
5. Then a couple years later My other uncles die as well. Now i have no one but my gram.
6. Then… My son who was only 1 month and 12 days old passed away due to sids
7. Then my son is taken from me and put up for adoption. (thanks to my mom)
8. My mom wrote me a bday card telling me how much of a piece of crap i was after i went and got all her stuff and moved her in with me (she wrote it after she moved out of my apartment
9.Now im rolling in bills and ppl that use me and i have no real friends (backstabbing mofos)
9. So, my life is in the toilet and im always totally depressed everyday. Id really really like to do the deed but haven't yet and probably wont.
The Point?? Life sucks ass agreed but,
You cant let the depression win. Treat it like an enemy cuz thats what it is. Its not ur friend. Nothing is good for you if it makes u feel like shit. Don't give in to it. Do anything you can to distract yourself. If u think ppl hate you then ask yourself … would those ppl be happy if i was gone?? If the answer is yes then why the hell do u want to please ppl that don't like you? Live a long time just to piss them off! If your parents wont take you seriously then find someone who will. The biggest thing is to talk to someone. Not even a counselor. Maybe just a mate or a teacher etc… Pick up a new hobby. Get out of the house. Think if you were a friend of yours how you'd feel if you committed suicide. Sad right??? Do you really want to hurt everyone around you? PPl care even if they dont always show it. And this is for the person who said that their parents would laugh. Just try a different approach to it. Sit them down and talk calmly and maybe they will see that u are in need. You can also show them any depression site you may have been on to prove u are not joking
Got some "homework " for everyone on here if u want to do it….. Go and look at a funeral taking place (not up close so as not to disturb) Look at the ppl there. Look at them closely at their expressions. Do you want ppl feeling and looking like that over you????? Ive been to many of them and it NEVER makes it easier on the people who live on. Just harder and sadder as the yrs go by. If you want inspiration then heres some…..
My grandmother. All her children are dead and she is alone now. She is sad everyday but goes on and on with her life. She lives day to day cuz each day can bring a totally different experience. She is 80 yrs old.
- June 1, 2011 at 8:49 am(46) johnny says:
thank you. im a 60 year old man you made me feel a lot better.
- August 29, 2011 at 5:22 pm(47) very despressed guy says:
well man that was insperationell yeah dont mind my writing i have to say you have a sucky life but not as my own it first started when i was born my dad hated me and start fighting with mom im now 17 despessed guy with no real friends just music and rock wanted to die so manytimes but i always think about my family about my little brother my parents are devorced i live in a crappy place in a crapy country every day i head to school my head down and my mouth is shat im always in the suicidell pages reading trying to forgat my own problems im so not good last night i had a lot of pills 24 different one but nothing happened now im just looking for a reason to actualy do these stuff and finaly kill my self i know im hopeless after the dream of my life just desepair in front off my eyes i always cry in night and my mom comes and says ohhhh come on cut the boll shit thats just you beeing a teenage so wake up and shat up i need to sleep……. thats just so painfull i know that my storie suck and actualy not very sad but please respnce i realy need that and guess what im gonna actualy do it only im so into that god will take me to hell coz im muslim i know life couldnt get any easier i hate my self and thx
- November 12, 2011 at 8:30 am(48) Jenny says:
god would never send anyone to hell that has a pure heart. If you have made mistakes, now is the time to start living right.. haha omg i sound like the biggest hypocrite ever, but helping someone in need makes me feel better about myself.
- November 12, 2011 at 8:22 am(49) ljsggipu says:
your story is very inspirational, thank you for giving me hope. I feel like we have a lot in common.. Sometimes that is all I need, someone to tell me that it is going to be okay once I get through this period of loss and depression. I just lost my grandfather who was the only parent I had in life and this just days after I had a very meaningful conversation with him where he listened to me and respected my opinion. He was all I had, the last connection to my father. People yell at me and tell me to live life but I don't really know how. All I know how to do is put on a show because that is what I dedicated my life to learning.
- October 20, 2008 at 9:25 pm(50) Angel says:
Hey guys, I know that life sometimes really sucks, and that someone might not be there for you, but you can't give up. I was depressed earlier, but now that I've seen what many of you guys have said, I feel like I want to help you. If you think that no one cares, then you're wrong. Even if I don't know you, if anyone who left a comment decided to leave the world, then I'd mourn too and be sad. I care. Depression can just be a perspective, like how you view things. Looking through old pictures might help bring back smiles of happy days. Remember that you can have those kinds of days right now too. You make a difference, and that's what I think. I'm sorry that many of you are sad, and I wish that I could help you, and make you feel a little better, but DON'T GIVE UP!
- October 21, 2008 at 12:08 pm(51) bemad says:
OMG,get a grip woould you? Life sucks a lot of the time and that's just the way it is. Are you living in a famine stricken country whilst all around you is nothing but death and decay? No, you're f'ing not are you? People who are don't spend their days bleating about their hardship like you lot do they get on with life and living. There's always a million people worse off than you are and no-one can help you if you won't help yourself so give yourselves a much needed kick up the arse. Some of you are clearly dealing with it and getting help but the rest of you? Failed suicide attempts and wanting a way out? If you meant it you would have done it by now, killing yourself isnt; exactly rocket science. You make me so angry, there are so many people out there making the best of awful situations and all you can do is piss and moan. GO AND GET SOME HELP AND STOP FEEDING OFF EACH OTHERS INSECURITIES.
- October 21, 2008 at 12:42 pm(52) -.- says:
Go do something different, try droping everything and doing something with just yourself, i don't know, take a hike, go to another city, go sky diving, or SOMETHING, hey, you never know, you might get out of that mood. cry cry cry, whatever, if you don't want to feel like that then change yourself or your environment. Think of the stuff you'll miss out on, a new chocolate, new vid game, new shows, the little things. what fun it would be to get away from those voices and live a relaxing life (shut up with the whole restless society thing, go plan your life and live long enough to complete that plan)you never know, you'll find something to enjoy.
- October 26, 2008 at 8:52 pm(53) Depressed Fool says:
Wow this quiz didn't even help at all. Now I know I have low self esteem and depression to deal with. I always feel like something is tearing me apart, and nothing can ease it. I try to hide how I feel so no one has to worry, but i feel I'm just wasting up space. I've let myself down, and my family. I'm thankful for my friends, but I don't deserve them at all. I've been this way since childhood, and i guess the problems I had back then scarred me. -_- to bad I can't find a knife. Sorry if my comment seems pathetic, or stupid, didn't mean to bother anyone.
- November 4, 2008 at 3:17 pm(54) emo boy says:
Omg like im sooo depressed en sad en stuff…life is just no fun and like not worth living after my boyfreind dumped me…idk after him i decided to go straight, but it wont help any i just wanna kill myself, and him. murder suicide omg i just cant take it im gonna go an kill myself like right now….and so should all of you!!!!
- November 30, 2011 at 4:29 am(55) JonnyGulliver says:
I'm in the habit of lending random advice where its unwaranted, but in the slim chance I can give applicable advice, I heed you to give a random stranger you life story. I have personanally saved 2 lives. Another friend shot himself in the face. If you want to play this game of russian roulette, play the odds. Tell me whatyou're going through, mate/lass.
- November 4, 2008 at 3:23 pm(56) emo boys lover says:
so like i just broke up with my boyfriend and it hurts so bad. i have been nothing but depressed lately and have tried killing myself several times already. I sit around crying all day because he never calls and I just dont know what to do with myself
Y wont he love me?!?!?!?!?
- November 4, 2008 at 3:25 pm(57) emo boy says:
omg like i never call cuz u broke up with me…an like were over, by da way bitch…ah i slept with yur sister….yur such a liar…i always loved u
- November 4, 2008 at 3:27 pm(58) emo boys lover says:
you never showed ur love to me
i just want u back in my arms again baby
I'll kill myself if i cant have you
- November 4, 2008 at 8:36 pm(59) Dominic says:
I am depressed,but reading your stories made me feel a little better.I am alone in the world,and really have a tough time making friends.I have had some close friendships before,and it hurts to think they are gone.what really kills me is the thougt that i will live this long unhappy life,and never be happy again.Ive decided to go to the doctor,and look for support.I want thank you all for sharing your feelings with me.I hope you all find what or who you need.later
- October 19, 2011 at 2:50 pm(60) tomek says:
i have the same life i had add me on fb tomekwos2
- November 4, 2008 at 9:32 pm(61) Matthew says:
Can Any Body Help…..
I believe most times i am depressed through-out my day to day life….
When i am at work…i feel as if i aint doin my job properly and get very hesitant and pissed off towards customers….which i am worried will lose my job….
and get annoyed and angry at any little job.
If i go out with my mates….and they are all having a laugh…and i try….i feel awkward and left out…but ino they are there 4 me…
i also get down wen people like my family are getting onto me and make me feel unloved and hopeless…
if there is any 1 that can give me any advice on wat to do…then write back….
- November 6, 2008 at 2:00 am(62) janice says:
This is site is good to learn psychology, helps me a lot.i now started have anxiety problems after reading this. i didnt have b4
- November 12, 2008 at 1:55 am(63) katie says:
i know that most people who assume that they are depressed are usually just attention seekers cuz how can u claim u are depressed, people dnt even know it thats why so many ppl are suicidal they don't seek help..
any ways..
im a 17 yo girl, i havent had the best up bringin and ive experienced alot of bad things. i have wonderful parents that love me,
but growing up has nt been easy, my parents had broken up wen i was just a toddler and we moved far away from dad which was hard on me but i did constantly speak to him and always visited him, as i grew up i use to get teased becuz of who i was durin primary and high school ppl use to call me a man and nasty stuff all because i was very atheletic and healthy which in time lead me to hate myself and i use to hurt myself alot and i could never espress my feelings to any one which makes it hard, i eventually moved to my dads and went to a new school, and without knowin it i was being some one that wasnt me, i was hiding behind a fake me and still ppl critised me, in the past few months i had a great boyfriend got a great job and starting doin great things, and i was really happy but i had always got this feeling that i shouldnt be happy, like a real guilty feelings, that ive done something horribly wrong but i always tried ignoring it.. in the last few weeks everything has seemed to fail, i found out my bf was doin drugs and supposably cheatin on me and we eventually broke up, my dad has just recently been diagnosed with cancer and now i wont have a job nxt year cuz the business is closing down, and i just have been crying nearly every day, and feeling that nothin good is suppose to happen to me, and i thought i have gotten over from hurtin myself after a year without doing it and i did it again and i have suddenly the urge of wanting to hurt my x by being with other boys (as in sexual behaviour)which im usually not at all like, and i realy dnt like this feeling, i would like to know is there anything that can make me over come this and am i depressed or just going through a stage
since im still an adolescent and still growing up??kind regards, Katie
- September 21, 2011 at 2:59 pm(64) alex rain says:
listen hun, this are hard in this life time, we sometimes can't get our way, sometimes we do, other times we wish we hadn't depending on what the situation was or is, i'm only 16 but i do know this, its hurts when u know someone like your dad then u get a divorce, i don't know what u (really)going thru when that happened, but how my friends react its not good, try, never knowing your boilogical parents, i never knew them,both parents left me, but i got adopted, the thing i'mtrying say is, everyhting happeneds a reason, right now it might not, but later on , when god says you done well, daughter, now i';m going to make your day worth wild! then only reason we have bad days and moments because god knows, we are that strong to survive them! we may don'think so at the moment, but when reality its you, you realize it in the end, thateverything fits, like a puzzle, we are the million pices and he's the finder to make abeautiful pic in the end, portrait moreto say, stay in there hun, you WILL MAKE IT^_^
- November 30, 2011 at 5:04 am(65) JonnyGulliver says:
To clarify Mr. rain up above, and also add some contradiction, life is indeed hard. But we take fron it what we can. Life is a manefast destiny, and in the end, we may blame our situation, but the realitity is that we all choose our ultimate path, sad and lonely, hurt by the betrayals we concieve against out person according to our sensitivty levels. In laymans terms, we choose the personal hells we suffer before it becomes too much, and we shirk this mortal coil.
Still alive? Good. Hear me out.
You are beautiful. Without knowing who you are, and your physicality, I can tell that within you is a drive to compete, athletically or on a personal level, that you parentals have given you the tools neccessary to succeed. Times are tough now, but if I may shoot wildly into the dark, this is merely a period or trial and growth.
Allow me to impart and ultimate secret:
Your path is yours.
Be as angry as you may. It will teach you humanity is not so bad. Protect yourself from the world, it will eventually reveal itself to be a horribly corrupt place where human compassion hs no place.
Or take the middle road, interpret that applies to yourself, and allow yourself to forge your own destiny acconding to your own interpretations.
In my experience, human nature is a wonderful, beautiful thing. We as a race, are NOT beyond redemtion.
You may feel empty right now, but that only serves to give a void that something OR someone will eventually fill. It'slike a universal law, or something. I pray you send off enough universal goodwill, that the next person to fill that void has something to contribute, at least 10 years down the road.
Till then, @ 17+(2011?) enjoy the journey, lass/sir.
-Hume JG, the ignorant
- November 12, 2008 at 9:43 am(66) dee says:
I'm so depressed I need help bad I don't even function threw life I drink everyday to numb my pain I've been through so much yet I still pray but nothing ever gets better I've been hospitalized so many times and Ive been on anti depressants I've tried to committ suicide once before I have no one both of my parents have never been there for me I'm not worthy of anything yet I'm such a great person with a great heart I lay in bed everyday and drink and cry and pray I'm a mess I need some support atleast one true person I have no true friends and I isolate myself I don't live life at all I'm so scared for myself please if u can help me pls call me at xxx xxx xxxx.
From Depression Guide: Dee, I thought you might have second thoughts about having your personal information out there so I removed the phone number to protect your privacy. People will still be able to contact you through your email address though. On a personal note, have you considered joining AA? It's a great organization and I think it could help put you on the right path.
- November 19, 2011 at 4:37 pm(67) emma says:
hi i'm emma and i'm 20years old at the start of 2011 i had everything new friends social life a carer and then in july my life turned completely i went away with a so called friend and she destroyed my life she turned eveyone against me i dropped out of university and everyone i knew wasnt talking to me and were calling me a slag. im on anti depressants and i have councillors who come and see me everyday this girl has ruined everythin for me i now have no futhure! i just want to run away and start somewhere new
- November 19, 2008 at 6:38 pm(68) charleigh says:
i keep crying all the time i dont know wat it is ive jus got in a new relashonship with my boyfriend of one month he suffers from adhd and ocd and sikofrenic. but he always has ago at me i keep crying cuz i love him
- November 20, 2008 at 8:17 am(69) whatever says:
u know i wanna tell u something, about a week ago i took like 10 depression tests, and they all came positive, however i realized that i work at a jop that i dont like, live in an apartment that i hate, and i have lots of dvds that i dont use, so i quit my jop, changed everything in my apartment, cut my hair, and threw out ALL stuff that i dont use (dvds, clothes, jackets etc) , i started to work out, and now all the tests came negative– btw how many lives do i have to waste doing stuff that I HATE
i hope some might find this helpful
goodluck all
- November 22, 2008 at 11:43 pm(70) mona says:
i'm so depressed u know i came here just for 5months i chenged my life cuz i hate of regulary life but now ,nothing .u know why? cuz i came here without enogh knowlege of english without any hobby without any friend and far away my family .i used to climb mountian and rock but now…i don't know what should i do for my education …which college?which major?i used to be out going but now i'm anti social…i most live with my father after he came here 20 years ago i didn; live with him any more… he makes me crazy…
thanks my friends
- November 26, 2008 at 6:05 pm(71) aimee says:
- December 1, 2008 at 3:21 am(72) Shawn (again:) says:
Hey Emo boy,
You know, you shouldn't give crappy advice like telling everyone here they should kill themselves. Some may take you seriously. If you are really depressed then try not to be BUT, if you are making fun of these ppl then u should be ashamed of yourself. This is a place ppl come to get help not to make them feel worse. If ur bf broke up with you maybe its because u seem to have no thought or caring in what you say (at least here) If you are seriously depressed then u should realize that its not the end of the world that ur bf left. There are other ppl out there. U just gotta look.
- December 3, 2008 at 9:54 am(73) andrea says:
suicide doesnt solve anything only hurting the people dat you love….
i tryed it ended up in hospitel nd in d end i hurted my friends and family nd now i relise ter is more 2 life dan killing ur self dat it woz d wrong thing 2 do…if u decide 2 do it den b4 u do it think about ur family nd friends dat u b leavein behide…
- December 8, 2008 at 3:20 pm(74) martin says:
often many ppl suffer from depression and they dont know it, but there are lots of signs that you can pick up, denial is one of them im sure. here is a great site to show you the signs you can expect to see.
- December 8, 2008 at 3:54 pm(75) joshua says:
This website makes me wanna cut my wrist and kill my self. i have no purpose of living and everything in my life just falls apart and there is no one to stop some one tell me how can i fix my problems
- December 10, 2008 at 12:16 am(76) jo2162 says:
i think that the worst part of my life is that my parents don't believe that i am depressed. they say that i am trying to get attention from them. actually, i want them to leave me alone. i definitely do not have it as bad as some, but i wish that someone would believe me.
- December 17, 2008 at 9:10 pm(77) Ray says:
Im only 14 years old. My grades are terrible and I feel isolated from almost everyone. I always feel lonely and mad. There is the occasional laugh and smile but soon after I sink back into the hole of depression. I have come to realize that no material possession can make me happy. At times I feel jealous of people who hang in a large group and always have a smile on their face. It makes me wonder why am I never this happy?
- December 20, 2008 at 5:00 am(78) depressed losah says:
WOW that had actually helped
I feel really depressed
im barely a teenager
and yet i have depression
im only 12
and why has depressiong just hit me
i was living a normal happy life
but then it just hit me
its like i been shot dead
i havent told any one about my depression except my stupid counsellor who is a pain in the ass
i have told my parents and brothers but they just laugh at me and say to me go die
and they actually encourage me to kill myself
i told them once
and then they were like PFFT u wanna go kill ur self go ahead
and that made me be more depressed. i mean it wudve been normal if my ' frends' say it but wen u hear it from ur family that just make it worse
Why cant i live a normal life
i hate my life
i hate everyone
i cant talk to anyone
no one believes me
and im going into high school and dats goiing to make me feel more depressed
and those people who is not depressed u dont noe how it feels like and how it takes over ur mind and body
- December 20, 2008 at 5:00 am(79) depressed losah says:
WOW that had actually helped
I feel really depressed
im barely a teenager
and yet i have depression
im only 12
and why has depressiong just hit me
i was living a normal happy life
but then it just hit me
its like i been shot dead
i havent told any one about my depression except my stupid counsellor who is a pain in the ass
i have told my parents and brothers but they just laugh at me and say to me go die
and they actually encourage me to kill myself
i told them once
and then they were like PFFT u wanna go kill ur self go ahead
and that made me be more depressed. i mean it wudve been normal if my ' frends' say it but wen u hear it from ur family that just make it worse
Why cant i live a normal life
i hate my life
i hate everyone
i cant talk to anyone
no one believes me
and im going into high school and dats goiing to make me feel more depressed
and those people who is not depressed u dont noe how it feels like and how it takes over ur mind and body
- December 20, 2008 at 10:50 pm(80) depressed ballerina says:
wow that helped me alot. NOT!!!
I hate my life and i wish i was dead!
no one knows how i feel and im tired and sick of it! the only one who has helped me is my ex. for some reason he under stands how i feel and he gives me advice on how to feel better and enjoy life. but he is with another girl now and my depession continues. i wish i was back with him because for some reason i feel my depression will go away if i had him back in my life again.
- December 28, 2008 at 2:31 am(81) Gone but still here says:
So I feel like I'm living in my subconcious. Like the rest of me has died and the last threads of my deep mind are left there. I keep thinking my life sucks and everything is turning down hill, but I am still saying other ppl have it worse off even if this is the worst for me and that I need to find some good things. But that was another thing that showed me I might have depression was that I culdnt get myself to do anything.
I've been telling myself "I'm just a teenager, it'll pass like all the other stupid phases" which again sounds like my subconsious. But this has happened every single winter and spring for about 5 years.
Does that mean I'm depressed?
Even though I'm aware of the solutions but can't think of anything to do about it?
I mean I thik about suicide, but not that I want to die bcuz I don't want to hurt everyone else, if there is, that wuld miss me, or be more of a problem to anyone. I think of it as the thrill, the curiosity, and I knwo that's sick. I cut myself bcuz I know it releases the endorphynes that make u feel better, but also bcuz I feel like I need to be punished.
I thik I'm crazy…. does anyone want to explain this? bcuz out of everythign I've loked over, sorry this wasn't the most helpful article.
- December 31, 2008 at 8:23 am(82) tashha says:
hey, im 15 and im not sure weather or not i have deppresion? although im 15 I'm only 5 stone and i just hate too eat. Ive been through so much crap which isn't good for any child and when all th crap ended i was left to bring up my little sister when i was 6. this lead to me not eating, i self harm, ive also attemted suicide but my foster mum caught me and my social worker also knows, i feel hopeless and i hate every day am i just sad or deppresed? am i even normal or just a physco? please help
- January 6, 2009 at 7:11 am(83) hi there tashha says:
you are absolutely normal, tashha. it is normal to feel bad after all the crap that happened to you and to be unwilling to eat. but your life stands ahead of you – it is there waiting for you to live it through. don't give up on eating – you need energy. besides without food your brain suffers as well as your body and this is one of the reasons for your bad mood, feeling depressed and so on. don't give up, ok!!! You are perfectly normal and being sad is part of life, just talk to people (to your social worker, to your foster mum, to anybody who is close to you and would like to listen), you shouldn't self pity and depress yourself. when we think sad thought, we actually project them into our future and they happen. so be positive and find people to communicate with, find a hobby, find friends. and remember – you are normal.
- January 6, 2009 at 8:24 pm(84) jk ( ( amplify ) ) says:
Please, please, kids, kids especially, don't give up. You have a life ahead of you. You can't end a life without thinking. You have one life. If you feel depressed, you need to share your life, not end it.
Talk. Live. Smile. Grow. Expand. Learn. Live. Dance. Enjoy. Act. Think.Live. Cherish. Embellish. Care. Feel. Live. Harness. Release. Understand. Wonder. Interpret. Read. Sing. Listen. Live. Fill. Optomize. Ponder. Come. Organize. Collaborate. Unify. Be. Live.
Depression is not a state but rather a condition. You need to locate an outlet. An outlet to occupy yourself. Art, music and exercise are the best but it has to be something you can do regularly and that you enjoy. Use this outlet to express yourself, don't go by the books – do it your way. Be free. This is not a joke. As a subject of clinical depression myself I know. And as a person, like you, I ensure you that you have the strength and the will to do this. Doubt is no more and relief is the first step.
If I know any of you, bc believe me I do, talk to me, I'm great. So are you! and everyone you know, they're all great. Don't feel locked up, verbalize, take action and live. If you don't know me, talk to a friend, a stranger, a coworker a neighbor, a priest, pastor or other religious leader. Talk to your god. Talk to someone. Write, or act if they work better but like a can of soda, its only good when its opened, even if the inside is shaken, still open the soda open up your life, remember that even if the soda is shaken, once the fizz is gone, all that's left is the good.
And as a note to someone whom I love very much, I say, " (many things) … Live!"
To all, "LIVE!"
- January 6, 2009 at 8:28 pm(85) i love says:
Jk that wuz hulpful idk I just dont kno wat u mean by sum of dat. Tnx xoxo
- January 13, 2009 at 10:09 am(86) teardrop says:
i am 21, female, in college and last nite i hit the lowest point so far (i dont want to go into it but…) so today i decided to ask for help and see what the hell is wrong with me!!! i know no one except us can ever understand how powerfull this unexplainable force is but i just dont want to feel this overpowering numbness anymore so i rang my mum. honestly i have just been in this constant sad state for a few months now (and i know that there are you out there who have been like this forever) i have always had those ultimate lows that last for a few weeks or a couple of days from out of nowhere…and learned to live with them. i didnt ever think "i am depressed" untill i tried explaining things to her and she said "its ok your only depressed…" screw that "ONLY"?????????? its not only anything its the worst most embarrasing most painful mood?/feeling?/state? i dont know what to call it. even still she made a doctors appointment for me today. so i am here alone, crying dropping tears on the keyboard looking for something…anything. so i do this quiz thing and i felt worse as it tells me whats wrong with me and i need medication. but then i start reading this blog thing and its like for the first time my tears are tears of relief as well as sadness because not only do i know im not alone….you are all saying the same things that are swirling/spiraling round my head from the moment i wake till i eventually fall asleep even after being in bed all day…. i know im ranting but untill i read this blog i really and truly felt so alone. and now i feel like i have one little friend or even someone who will listen. and i want anyone who reads my tantrum and made some sense of it and who can relate to me to know that i will listen. i dont have the answers but i will listen…. i'll log on after im back from the doctor and for anyone who cant find it in them to reach out i will let you know what to expect for that if and when you find the strength…x
- June 19, 2011 at 3:58 pm(87) Bailee says:
Don't let anybody tell you what's wrong with you. Let them help you yes but tell you? You've probably heard this but only you know what wrong with you….I didn't believe that til it actually happened to me. And I don't know you…I don't even know your name, but your in pain and I care about you. So now you have two little friends and this one will keep you in her prayers along with everybody else. So live for that and your family.
- January 18, 2009 at 10:21 pm(88) Hope says:
Suicide Prevention/Crisis Support 24-hour crisis hotline 1-800-784-2433 http://www.hopeline.com
- January 21, 2009 at 6:36 pm(89) that one emo chick says:
HELLO! So my name is Samantha, I am 16 and i can honestly say that i hate my life. My parents well they aren't the best. I am completely and totally in love with my ex boyfriend who lies just to get in my pants, and forsome reason i always allow him to. I know i should have more self-respect but if only you knew how much i love him. Most say i am too young to know what love is, but i do know what it is and i can feel it everytime i look in his eyes. But he treats me like shit, and it hurts sooo much all i do is sit around and cry.
Now my parents are another story.. my mom runs my life to the best of her ability, she has chosen my major.. yes i am in college, she kinda rushed me through highschool. i have no friends due to the fact that she pushed tham all away. And everytime i think i am actually getting somewhere or my life is getting better either my ex botfriend or my mom reassures me that my life is totally effed over and i am bascally screwed.
i hate to admit this but there are so many times when all i think about is someway to kill myself, or even just hurt myself bad enough so that i can't do what they want me to do so i can feel like i am incontroll again. The only reason i haven't killed myself just to end this misserble life permantly is because i have a 6 year old little sister and if i ever saw something like this happen to her i would hate myself and know it was all my fault for chickening out and taking the easy route out of my life. It just wouldn't be fair for her to have to deal with the pressure from my mom all by herself, and if any boy ever treats her like this i want her to have sonmeone to come to because i know what it feels like not to have anyone.
- January 26, 2009 at 9:48 pm(90) a sad person says:
i feel sad and cry for no reason all the time. sometimes i feel that life isnt worth living anymore. im 14 and i told my mom this and she just said it was all im my head and wont do anything to help. i have been thinking of suicide. what should i do?
- January 28, 2009 at 6:18 am(91) hi there says:
you are a teen and it is absolutely normal to have all these changes in your mood due to all your body growing, hormones boiling at you and so on. but you should know that after the sad periods, happy times come too. you will be happy again and life will have a meaning to you again. actually, even when you feel said it has, but you just miss it because of all the sadness inside you. try to overcome it, eat well, sleep more, find something you love doing – like a hobby, playing games, taking photos, anything to distract you from any sad thought that may come to you. and don't even think about leaving this life – you cannot imagine how nice it can be and what wonders it has for you. Smile, please smile
- February 2, 2009 at 10:32 am(92) leah says:
hello my names leah im 15 and i am (confused if i am) depressed. i havent looked at your advice or any other part of the website yet i was just looking at other peoples comments and it makes me feel like a bit of a fool, no offence but some people have a reason to be depressed and whats mine… im late on my period and could be pregnant, my boyfriend hates me and doesnt wana spend time with me coz im so depressed that to me is just crazy. its hard to explain how i feel but im going to try : i wake up either crying or close too. i cant be happy for any one, friends family boyfriend nobody. i cant even have 1 normal day in school because im thinking of someting totally irellivant. also i spend at least 15-30 mins a day crying in school or at home, sometimes even at home and school and crying for longer. this means i cant pay attention listern or learn, it needs to stop its been going on now for toooo long and what have i done about it … NOTHING. could anybody try and give me some answers or advise, coz im sick of being that sad girl whoes crying 24/7. it never has been me so why now ??? What should i do to help my self lead a happier life..???
- February 2, 2009 at 5:03 pm(93) JB says:
I have no reason to be depressed, yet I think I am. I have most of the symptoms, as well as my friends constantly asking if I'm ok. For the past few months I've tried to hide how I feel, but it's been getting harder and harder to do so. I drink to alleviate the continuous pain, which works for a while, but occasionally makes it even worse. It's somehow relieving to see how other people feel the same, so maybe I'm not alone. My close friend, Tom, thinks I should seek professional help but I don't want to seem any more pathetic than I already am.
- February 12, 2009 at 8:01 pm(94) Just me says:
My life is amazing from an objective viewpoint.
But I don't feel it.
I find motivation difficult.
I feel little joy.
I have little or no passion for anything.
Excitement is a foreign word to me.
I always try to get on with life and see the best in it. At times it can work for a while but I feel like I am blocking my feelings.
I don't mean to whine or moan although I think I am.
I'm not even sure why I am writing on here.
- February 13, 2009 at 1:38 pm(95) Unloved says:
I'm 21 years old and I believe I haved suffered from depression since I was 12. I had a really good year 2008 and thought I had gotten over everything that I had been depressed about in the past, but this year it's all resurfacing along with other problems.
Reasons I'm depressed
- When I was 12 I lost my grandfather to cancer, we were close and the event shook my life, I was lifeless after that and was sick, everything was going downhill
- When I was 16 I moved to Canada from Peru, the experience was rather traumatizing and different, I had no friends and adapting was difficult
- I moved from the capatital of Peru, to a small town east of Toronto, getting to school evryday takes 1:30 hours, there's nothing to do in my town, I don't get along with the people there, I can't go out and party because there is no transportation back home…etc
- When I was 17 my father passed away and we were very close, Completely distressed me
- When I was 19 my long term boyfriend changed, he was being very abusive to me and I love him so much it would just be night after night of crying myself to sleep
- We were dating off and on, during that time I found confort in my best friend, jonathan and I grew so very attached to him
- When I was 20 my grandmother died, she raised me, this was very painful
- Now, I am graduating in a recession, have been layed off from my current job, can't find a new job
-I'm broke, the weather is shit, my boyfriend doesn't love me much anymore
- My best friend that helped me all along has found a gf (bitch) and now pretty much ignores me and wants nothing to do with me which kills
- I have no fanily in Canada, barely any friends
So I am pretty miserable
But it felt good to write this
- February 14, 2009 at 12:31 pm(96) bettmunj says:
I have read with alot of concern about these younger people who say that they are depressed,having moved to a another place myself,being 21 and now am 23 opened doors of depression from all sides in my life..you have to understand that am the kind of aperson who insists on doing right no matter what ,but always found myself regretful of something that didnt work out that day even if it wasnt my fault ,growing up you are taught to do the right thing always and if you dont there will be consequenses .
The pressure of perfection and innocence that you are to young to understand that these are just some of the better mistakes that you will ever make ,i will tell you what the older guys wont tell you ,you will make alot of choices and sometimes you will make mistakes they hae been there and done that so they know it ,they know that ,some wont tell you for their own joy ,so that they can have some consolations and their burden of regret can be lessened .
Not all adults are like this some like your parents will help you in making the correct choices an will let you make some mistakes once in while so that you can form agood character …,but never the less we have been put on this earth for apuropse bigger than your depression as you grow older you will be required to make more choices and better decisions but you will be better informed because you will have better tools to make better choises .
MY advise is get agroup of friends relatives or just one person who can build you to where you want to go ,surround yourself with people that want to see you happy and are excited everytime they see you ,get ahobby ,apositive book ,change ajob start over again because you are just as worth it as every other person on this planet,there is no other one like you ,dont get too excited you still have some growing ,maturity learning and enjoying to do ,but remember your time is precious ,you are special and you are loved ,am helping you because am helping my self too.
- February 24, 2009 at 10:02 pm(97) cheyanne says:
I am 14. I have a couple of reasonds this happenind but other than that i an lost.this lecher did NOTHING. no wander ths people write things like this.All i need is a friend that understands.I am getting despret please help!
- February 26, 2009 at 7:35 pm(98) ls says:
I am 22 about to graduate from college. I normally would have everything to look forward to but I just feel all alone, empty and so sad. i have friends and I have a family but I feel like I can not talk to anyone. I cry so much and nothing I do makes me feel better.I pray that this will go away and I even ask God for help, I have for a while but I continue to feel this way. I feel trapped and so empty. I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I used to love to travel and do so many things but when i do them, i feel still so very empty and alone, I feel that I cant escape myself. I just dont know what to do anymore or who I can even talk to.
- February 28, 2009 at 8:13 am(99) Emo-Angel says:
Dear all,
I've been in depression before and I understood the feelings.
Try these steps if it helps:
1)Try to take a break from the things that make you unhappy. / from the person the makes you unhappy.
2)if you thought about killing yourself, try thinking of someone you love trying to kill themselves. Does it hurt you too?
3) Try to find God, not wait till god find you. (means: if you had rejected god or ignored he when you are happy and enjoying yourself.) pray often, it helps. Coz god know what is in every person's heart.
4) try reading /understand the "quran", you will feel like crying, and just cry it out.
turning to him does help what your souls need.
5) think of the people who have short lives, they want to live longer like normal people does but they were given just that. BE THANKFUL for what god have given you, A LIFE!
May allah bless the restless souls -ameen-
- March 22, 2009 at 4:22 am(100) Welcome to Loneliness says:
Well, when I was young, my mom was in a unhappy marriage, and took it out on me and my brother (and my dad when he wasn't hiding). Hitting, screaming, flying furniture, the usual. My dads philosophy was if something was wrong, you do nothing about it so you don't get blamed for possibly making it worse. I got nightmares from it, but there was always a crying apology from her. But, it would keep happening and I thought it was normal after a while. But, when I got into middle school I was getting stressed and depressed about it. Then I started getting bullied. My friends left me for the bully, offering him gifts so they wouldn't get hurt. The school didn't do much to help. So one day I walked three hours back to home, "Screw you all" I said. I was tired of it. I did home schooling for a while. Though, my mom and dad were breaking up. My mom went to a mental institution for a while. My dad moved out then back into the basement. After more yelling and fighting they broke up and moved with my mom near my new public school. It was doing good at first, but I realized my new friends were egotistic, since I'm not, I guess I thought I could learn to be stronger from them. My mom was still unhappy though. She was finding herself still (as well as my dad). She was angry and depressed. I became more that way as well. We got in a big fight one day. I moved in with my dad after that. I didn't go back to school until a few months later in distance education. Alone in my sorrow I got lack of motivation. I started playing games to escape what I thought was a crappy life. I did nothing for two years. Mostly alone, and no one to really talk to I started going in and out of depressive spurts (My dad and my brother are the same, they don't like showing sad emotions, and my dad I guess didn't want to deal with me since I had my moms mental state which he left long ago). Got in a relationship and everything online cause of it. And one day I woke up and found it wasn't meant for me and I stopped playing and left them. After two years of hiding from the world I felt like doing something, something real. My mom was getting healthier and happier and we started getting along again (Quite well actually since we understand each other better). Though I was lost, unsure what to do I was getting back into old habits, but seeing old friends too. Sadly, they were still the same and moving forward. I felt stuck and as if something was wrong with me. I felt like a failure when compared to them. So I worked for almost a year, but got stressed at work. They didn't show much compassion for those in the state I was in, so I kept quiet about my past and what I was doing, and to the same to my friends. After a good year (or more I think…) up until now, they weren't people (My friends) that I thought that I should be around, especially in mental and depressive spurts still. Though they are all in college, having fun, meeting new people and learning many things. And I'm here. An almost 20 year old guy, alone and with some mental issues with strong social anxiety tones and those damn depressive moments. As well as everyone else around me finding love and being with others (Brother and dad have girlfriends, Mom remarried). And me still alone. But to fight for those rare happy moments I'm doing home schooling again (slowly by myself…) and volunteering (to get out of the house) and looking for part time work. So I guess I've been on and off feeling crappy for about seven years (almost 8, huzzah!). But I've learned so much about myself and people from it. To some it looks like a waste of precious life time, but I feel it as another life experience for me, a bad one, but still an experience. You learn what you want in life. Try not to escape (tempting as hell though), I found it wears off in the end sadly. Just try and find what makes you happy. It's worth living for. Hopefully I will one day find mine, and I hope you all will too. Get better soon and take care of yourselves.
- March 22, 2009 at 4:24 am(101) Welcome to Loneliness says:
Wow, sorry for it being that long.
- March 27, 2009 at 5:43 am(102) Guy says:
I know how it feels. Being the good person is the being the hurt person. All of the "friends" I had have used me in all way imaginable. I have been fighting depression since i was little, when I watched my father die it was one of the turning points in my life, I was five years old and it is the only thing I can remember vividly from when I was young. A few years after that my mother had a mental break down and I started taking care of myself. She has gotten better but is not completely stable. My grandmother was like an angle she always knew how to comfort me until I was 11 and she passed away, the hardest thing was the last time I saw her she didn't even know who I was. I got over that by opening up to people very freely, and due to that I got used and used over and over again. I had a steady girlfriend for almost 2 years until I watched her having sex with my best friend at my house about two years ago. She figured out that he was an asshole and calls me all the time and I run into her all the time. now I am 18 and just stay alone everyday. I got used to it and truthfully I like my alone time but I just wish that I could meet people who I could relate to. I mean I like being alone but not all the time. I turned to drugs (weed, coke, oxys) and drank daily for about a year, I have recently cleaned myself up and still drink on occasion when I have one of those rough days. After reading all of the previous post its almost reassuring to know that there are still kind caring people left in the world. Life is not an easy path and truthfully I feel that it can't be bad forever. I think that is we all just keep trying and fighting the everything will come to get better eventually. I hope all of us and the people whose voices are still not heard find a place where they can be happy with themselves and there own lives.
- April 11, 2009 at 8:25 pm(103) Paul says:
On Jan 21 my depression was so bad I tried to kill myself. I have a nice house, great friends, and a beautiful wonderful wife. (she is 26, I am 37 she ran 1 marathon, is the greatest friend I have ever had and is beautiful. We have only been married for 6 months) I woke up in the emergency room 2 days later. DONT GIVE UP! I got ECT and feel better than I can tell you, get the book "shock" by Kitty Dukakis. I didn't even know I could feel this way. I was depressed for as long as I can remember. DONT give up!!!! Life is better than dying. DONT GIVE UP!!!
I am sure that you have heard lots of trash, but I know EXACTLY how you feel. some days are better than others, I know about the relationships you have, feeling bullied, feelind alone even when you are with your friends. Don't wait until you are almost 40 like I did. I swear to you this made me feel better than I ever thought I could.
I grew up alone, my dad left when I was 5, (to be with another woman) we would see him 2 times a month and those times he would say he had to go work and leave me, my brother and sister with his new wife. used to beat me at times till I had to go to the hospital and he would tell me to say I fell off my bike, my mom moved in with a heroin addict. I dropped out of school at 15 to get my own place and take care of my self. I hear what you mean. I have been there.
I used to read books, try to meditate, go to church, stay up late watching shows about how to be happy, drink you name it I tried it. I just couldn't take it anymore.
I lost all of my friends because I was never able to keep it together, I know exactly what you are going through.
The worst was waking up with my wife looking at me in the ER with a tube in my throat and the taste of charcoal in my mouth. I was putting something in my backpack last week and found my suicide note it didn't even come close to explaining what I was going through, or explain to my wife, brother sister, friends what was really going on. it would have left them a life time of questions. I think my worst feeling right now is guilt over what I tried to do.
Please beleive me. there is hope. ECT was hard, but it worked. I had seen a Dr for years and all they did was give me pills that didn't ever work. They wanted to talk about my family but talking about it always made me feel horrible.
DONT GIVE UP. If you think no one understands your wrong I understand. I took 3 bottles of sleeping pills, and all of the medication my Dr gave me, I don't know how but I ended up at Boston Medical Center. DONT GIVE UP!!!
- May 6, 2009 at 5:10 pm(104) Sarah says:
Sitting here crying and feeling sorry for myself. I have been depressed for years and spent 1 week as an inpatient several years ago, and have twice attended outpatient sessions. The inpatient was the result of looseing my boyfriend of 10 years, who by the way was married with 2 children. I know he loved me, and I hope he was truthful in telling me we would eventually be together after his kids were older. We began seeing one another about a month after his second child was born, but had known each other for 10 years, both working for the same company. His oldest daughter was 4 at the time. We saw each other daily, and spent alot of time together. His death was unexpected and I feel like I still have not come to term and have no closure. I wonder often what if. Just previous to his death, I know I had begun to have some resentment and did and said some things that I regret, and can't take back. I recently lost my job due to downsizing, and that has been extremely hard. I have been in the same profession for almost 30 years and have been having difficulty finding a new job. What set me off today was getting another reject email regarding I job I applied for. Sad thing is I was over qualified for the position and feel like a loser for getting rejected. I'm starting to worry, what if I never find a job? How will I cover my expenses? I have great a great family & friends, and even though they try to help and be supportive, it doesn't seem to matter. I find myself avoiding their calls and invitations to do things. I am trying to hang in there, but it is certainly hard. I am hopeing that putting some of this in writing will help.
Thanks for listening
- June 15, 2009 at 4:42 pm(105) morgan says:
I have it all and yet im not happy I have a great family friends that care and a condo thats just pimp'en. I just don't feel happy. I too want to feel happy I see all those other happy people and I say to my self "ME TOO!" I have worked hard and done all that I can, I deserve to be happy.
Why do I not even want to get out of bed?
- June 18, 2009 at 4:44 pm(106) Someone says:
Very deppressed…..have like 6 friends that died infrontof me and i feel like commiting suicide
dont know what to do
im going to kill my self
- June 18, 2009 at 5:16 pm(107) depressed girl says:
well, my moms bipolar/depressed. so i guess what i have is hereditary or something. when i turned about 14 she became an alcoholic, and she started overdosing on her medication. she also attempted suicide. she told me it was my fault. thats when my depression really started. i became bulimic because i wanted to gain control when i had none and started to feel like i was fat even when everyone would talk about how skinny i was. i always had mental breakdowns and would cry all the time. then my mom quit doing all of that and my life went pretty much back to normal. then i started dating this guy. weve been dating for about a year and 4 months now and because he was the only person i felt i could trust, i fell pretty hard for him and rely on him for everything. he just graduated tho and now its like he wants to be free. and im trying to be ok with everything, but i keep getting so depressed and upset all the time because i feel like hes gonna leave me. and id started doing stupid stuff. i really think i just need some help. =( i feel less alone knowing that others feel the same as i do tho.
- June 20, 2009 at 3:40 am(108) Ronald says:
i talk to myself alot people look at me like im crazy maybe i am…but all i can think about is yanking there small intestant out and hanging them with it.I don't sleep at night at all ive been up for three days and i can hear voices they wont stop god why wont they stop? ive run out of places to leave marks.maybe the voices will be my friend they will make the pain go away will someone help me before i lose myself forever
- June 20, 2009 at 3:46 am(109) Ronald says:
Im sorry for wasting your time this isn't the place for me
- June 20, 2009 at 3:54 am(110) Life says:
You're not wasting anyone's time Ronald. Comment back to let me know you're reading this.
- June 20, 2009 at 3:55 am(111) Life says:
You're not wasting anyone's time Ronald. Comment "hello" to let me know you're reading this.
- June 21, 2009 at 1:54 am(112) Will says:
Is anyone in here right now?
- June 21, 2009 at 1:55 am(113) will says:
hello? how long before a comment posts on here?
- June 21, 2009 at 2:04 am(114) Will says:
Well either way here goes. I have been pretty much depressed since I was maybe 9 years old. Most of it has been mild, just a lack of interest in life, or this melancholy feeling of my childhood and when life was happier,easier for me. I am 32 now and going through a really rough time. From about 3 years ago up until this jan, I was doing really well. I was in a relationship,making good money in banking,financially I was great,etc. Suddenly things started falling apart for me. My relationship ended, I lost my job,which caused me to lose my boat,my grandmother passed away which was the first person close to me to die. All of this happened within weeks of each other. Now I cant find a job, people seem to treat me differently. I am so miserable I have turned to drugs and this has made me feel more guilty and depressed. I know what needs to be done. I just hope whoever reads this, prays for me to find the strength to overcome this dark time in my life. I pray for those of you going through this as well. I dont want to be rich,powerful or famous, just happy again.
- June 21, 2009 at 3:04 am(115) chelsea says:
in the end everything is okay. if it's not okay, than it's not the end.
I will be praying for you all(:
- July 3, 2009 at 5:29 am(116) Emo. says:
I just got 10/10 answered yes.
Thx for the confidince booster.
- July 4, 2009 at 1:42 pm(117) mutasim says:
one must mention the reason of his depression to get help.iam depressed because iam married ,have no children . have no money and iam becoming deaf gradually because of tinnitus , the doctors said it is uncureable i have become hopless , who can help me ?
- July 8, 2009 at 2:16 am(118) John says:
I may not be 'that' depressed but I really hope everybody else gets better soon.
- July 17, 2009 at 1:12 am(119) Gabby says:
I have hypothyroid and was told that it can make me feel depressed but is it supposed to feel this strong? Like to the point where I think of just ending my life?
I have been in a secret relationship for almost 3 years. I'm bi-sexual and have never "come out" to my family. The only person who knows is my nephew and he's okay with it. There are times when friends asks me why I have no bf or they ask my gf why she doesn't go out with someone. It hurts to hear all of this. I am surrounded by religious people.. at work mostly. I don't know who to turn too.
Lately, I have been getting into a lot of arguments with my gf and I always cause them. I can tell she is disgusted with me by doing so… I can see it on her face that she wants me to disappear. At least I feel that way. =( I just want her to be happy and I know I don't make her happy anymore.
She deserves better.
FML, seriously.
- July 17, 2009 at 1:15 am(120) Gabby says:
It really is something to know that I'm not alone who feels like this.
I just hope we can all get help and get through this…
- July 18, 2009 at 10:36 pm(121) depressed says:
Hi.. Im 14 and totally depressed I lost all of my friends. Now my onli friend is my razor blade. I wish I was dead
- July 27, 2009 at 1:23 am(122) DepressedGirll says:
I'm ONLY fourteen and pretty depressed for a long time -_- i have no clue why I'm young and should be happy . My house is so boring and makes me wanna kill myself cus its so down and depressing , and all ppl do is put me down . i wish i died . :[
- July 27, 2009 at 7:25 pm(123) Depressed guy 2 says:
Hey im only 14 and i feel miserable every day, im not afraid to admit i cry like every day. Every guy in my year has found love and i cant even get to meet up with a girl. I have cobtemplated suicide many times. I feel like no one is their for me. I just hope we can all make it thru this hard time!
- July 28, 2009 at 5:50 pm(124) :( says:
i feel so shit and i dont know what to do. i cant seem to get happy. i am paranoid about everything. i didnt go to work tonight. i always love work. but i just cant face customers or collegues. i just want to stay in bed.
my boyfriend is cookin me a lovely tea that i can smell. but i just dont want it. or him.
- August 1, 2009 at 1:23 pm(125) d says:
i think im depressed or something because of my anxiety and life but i hide it from others including my parents. i feel so embarrassed to let them know about this.
- August 2, 2009 at 7:22 pm(126) This could have been useful... says:
The first result in Google for "Am I depressed?" and the people asking that question finds themselves here. Not somewhere they can really get help, is it? It's rather depressing really. If everything was used for its best possible purpose, things might be better.
Having a – very quick – browse through the comments it seems a lot of people have built the way they feel on a foundation of neediness for a "boyfriend or girlfriend". Honestly, that's not going to be something that should hinder you. You're probably still young – your time will come.
Anyone with anything more serious – or something less serious that has matured to be more serious – should seek help from a trustworthy medical proffesional and get a second or third opinion if you have to. Not books. Not websites. People.
- August 9, 2009 at 7:37 pm(127) Sad sad Jeff says:
Wow here I was wondering why the Cymbalta commercials always stuck out. Im depressed too it seems. I took the quiz and it made me feel even worse since ALL the answers were yes. Trying to keep from crying now but its always something. At least im not alone in the feeling. But still very alone. Why cant I or us people here be happy too? I always try to do the right thing and when I fall short feel soooooo guilty. Bad things seem to just keep happening all around. I know if I knew what my life was going to be like before I was born, Id never had been. Too late for that, and everytime I think of going away something then says im to selfish not to live for my sister and little nieces since im all they have after loosing my mother, younger sister and brother in horrific car accident right after grandpa died right around my 20th birthday while in Iraq. Happy Birthday every year is a reminder of lost ones. Now im lonely and depressed and no special person at my side. DAMN! But I keep trying and the more I go the more it just gets worse, so why even try anymore?
- August 10, 2009 at 9:02 pm(128) Neeraj Gupta says:
Can somebody tell me?
What dose it really meam to die or live?
what happens after we die?
Why dose god shatters our world even if he knows that we are not ready.
- August 11, 2009 at 10:56 am(129) SUTANU says:
i m a 19 yr old guy….
this year has been the worst yr of my life….
y is life soooo f***ed up….
i really wish i was never born, or be really glad if i was dead….
depression is drivin me crazy, soooo crazy that i have started smoking up to forget things and get into a diff. world my world…..
now becoz of my being sad i have become a drug addict…..
life cant be more shitty…..
i have seen that people like us r depressed mostly becoz of the people we love…..
anyways tryin to change every day…..
- August 12, 2009 at 7:22 pm(130) emokid824 says:
welp uh that sorta helped me. i took the quiz and i found out i really am depressed.. joy. my boyfriend told me to tell my mom.. and well she doesnt believe me. so im never going to get better.
- August 12, 2009 at 9:12 pm(131) Hayley says:
What is wrong with me?
Im 16 and I think im depressed.
I have a pretty good life,Im an only child,I live with my grandparents and I love them to bits.I dont really see eye to eye with my mom and it kills me.She lives with her boyfriend and his son.I dont know my dad and i grew really close to one of my moms boyfriends,they were together for 5 years before they broke up.He was like a dad to me and I resented her for them splitting.
I love her to bits but I cant help but think she's selfish and completely dependant on men.I have never lived with her.She gives me everything I want money,clothes etc but she doesnt understand that all i want is a mom.
I have great friends but i feel like im just on the outskirts watching them.I confide in one of my closest friends but when we go out,she seems to throw it back in my face in front of everyone.I started drinking about a year ago and now im getting drunk way too much.I get screwed over by guys alot.It feels good to have someones attention at the time but afterwards I feel cheap.Im good at school and have a good academic record.
I dont understand whats wrong with me,I constantly wish I could live somewhere else and just be who I want to be.I dont feel like I have anything to live for,Im lonely and it depresses me because at 16,I feel like Ive already ruined my life.I seem to just drift and mope at home when Im not out.I just float from day to day without even realizing it.
Is this even a reason to be depressed??I dont know what to do anymore and im scared.help.
- August 13, 2009 at 6:53 am(132) ADDICT........... says:
I don't know what 2 do
Life is soo hard wid all this pain and feelings
thru ur body………..
it feels gud
but it hurts a lot
and not worth the pain
its like livin life widout a soul……
Life isnt fair, i know that
but this pain is too hard to go thru
now i know why people commit suicide
why they wuld like 2 end a life
which i earlier thught was very precious
but 2day i dearly wish
4m my heart[not wid me anymore]
that i was not born in this life………
it hurts me sooo much that i cant sleep at night
and tears just cum out of my eyes although i m not cryin
i dont know wat to do……
- August 13, 2009 at 7:20 am(133) angel.... says:
the dilemma of depression is finding the strength to do what it takes to heal yourself. Perhaps the place to start is just to acknowledge that you are feeling depressed (angry, guilty, ashamed, hopeless, helpless). Then, you must take action to seek treatment. Effective treatment for depression is readily available. Recovering from depression is a learning experience.
BY READING UR COMMENT i got the idea that u did not talk to ur mom regarding ur problems….
the only way i think u will feel better is when u talk to ur mom….. i think she will understand you….
and stop drinkin i know its an easy path which most people take which even i took…. but not worth it..
u r only 16 u have got ur whole life ahead of you…
if u cant talk to ur mom then talk to ur grand parents or anyone u'll feel much better…..
and if that also doesnt work out try writing [or typing] poems or anythin abt ur problems…. i can assure u that u will be feelin a lot better….
"Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it"…
- August 17, 2009 at 1:36 pm(134) paul says:
y o y, am i so depressed, cant seem to get over it, one minute fine and laughing, next could jump of a tall building, is it just me, or is it the poeple in my life, is this world and its nasty ways in different cultures,and countrys.
- August 17, 2009 at 4:02 pm(135) Georgie says:
Hi I'm a 15 year old, I was confused about why I am feeling down all the time, I burst out crying at random moments, never want to do anything I used to get 'hyped up' about. I have the most amazing friends – but feel like I don't deserve them cos I have random sad outbursts which I can't control, so I avoid them so they don't think I'm a freak. I have an amazing boyfriend who is bi polar – and yeah it can get hard, I had an idea I had depression – Earlier this year I had 2 failed relationships one after the other where in both I suffered mental domestic abuse which killed my self esteem, and even led to attempted suicide. Ever since then I've never felt happy about myself. And to all these people who are telling depressives to 'get a grip' – its not easy, as its a mental condition. I hope everyone here who has suffered depressive symptoms gets over them, and hopefully enjoys their life. I know how it feels – I've had this over a year and tbh its killing my social life and eating me up inside.
- September 2, 2009 at 6:41 pm(136) Jess says:
I suffer from this to. Well me and everyone around me. (kids,husband etc.) I did seek help finally after so long of trying to fight it my self. Nothing worked medicine that is. I couldn't afford to see a therapist. I was molested as a child I felt unloved and unappreciated. (Still Do) Wanted to die at least once a day if not all day. I could just keep going with this crap they call my life. So I know all to well what your all going thru. What keeps me going is my kids and before they came along I had my horses. Just let all u know there is a reason your alive and there is someone out there who cares! please take care God Bless
Hope is all any of us has….
- September 22, 2009 at 3:00 pm(137) Petals says:
Hate my life…
Wish I never existed…
- September 23, 2009 at 2:34 am(138) SundayTraffic says:
They gave me the guarantee, the so called ticket, to a happy life, diploma's, titles, its nothing… now I'm here trying to build up so we can have enough… contemplating my departure date, doesn't really take a lot to get a lot of us to talk this way… thats it, now its gone, the chances, the love, the memories… what happened?
my only guarantee is a walk away…
- September 25, 2009 at 4:19 pm(139) XXcryingemoxx says:
this was helpfull
my wrists are red most of the time with dried blood and i just keep looking at them and thinking what my life could have been like but cant be until i get out of this suffering, i am only 12 and am abused at home my mother doesnt understand and my father was killed coz he was deployed in iraq and got shot, i think that is the one think keeping me from suicide, i dont want my family to go through the pain again.sometimes i think of god but whats the point its hopeless if he was so great no one would of commented here apart from to say how great there lives are omggggggggggggggggggg i just want to rip myself apart. sometimes i just get so angry it just takes over me, i am considered a nerd in school coz i spend all day on the computer and when i lash out evryone just thinks OMG is this really the same person whop just sits at a desk all day hiding from the world behind his stupid hair that he is oh so partial to. YES IT IS AND ITS JUST HOW I AM AND WILL BE UNTIL I FIND A WAY OUT its just i9m always sooo upset but i can sort of give advice from where i am
this quiz is just a cutting trigger nothing more nothing less
if anyone needs someone to talk to just go on msn, im normally online, midday weekends im always on, email@example.com
OMG love u all depressed galls and guys hope you find happiness sometime soon, just one last think PLEASE DONT COMMIT SUICIDE, YOU MAY FEEL BETTER BUT THINK ABVOUT YOUR FAMILLY DO YOU WANT THEM TO BE AS UNHAPPY AS YOU? DO YOU? JUST THINK, PLEASE.
- September 27, 2009 at 9:12 am(140) WastedAndWounded says:
Hey I'm 17 I cant do anything right
Fuk up evrything when i feel as though
I'm geting sumwer worthwhile Ifall
Harder when I need sumwun theyr nt ther bt wen yur
At your lowest burning point tht thot of bleach in yur tonic wine snds good then yu realise yur tht worthlessly to lazyto do itnashamed if yu failed theyd think yu desperately want attention when yu really want to b alone if no ones gonabe nice most peoplethink they care n theyre helpin wen thy make it worse yu let the big hedded yung team boys rule yu i then yu eat wit yu see wen yu see it then yu just dnt eat at all being sik tht glas of water yuhadfur breaky
- September 28, 2009 at 1:30 pm(141) Calvin Gresham says:
i don't know why i am feeling depressed everything is going great i am renovateing the garage i am at school and first 5 hours are good but the others are just shity i know i have been thinking about sexuality a lot after seeing a pair of gay girls. i just don,t know what to do i think i might be gay but i just don't know how to interpret my feelings
- October 12, 2009 at 7:40 am(142) D says:
Its 4;22 am…I just came back from the emergency room.
I apparently had a big panic attack. Its very ironic because im 18 years old. I mean I know what its from. Mostly its from school, thinking about my future. what if it doesnt turn out to be what i want. I think about girls. marrying the right one even though im still too young i do think about it sometimes. Thinking what if i dont find the right person for me. I think about my crappy car, what if it breaks down tomorrow how the hell em i going to pay for the bills. I think about school a lot. I guess its not a good thing now. I mean i think that every 18 year old should have a panic attack. but the ones that care only. I live with my mom and we live in a pretty nice apartment but we live paycheck to paycheck. and i know that there are a lot of other families that are in the same situation, but i guess i think about the future too much too. i thought about it so much that i had a panic attack. lol. So Yah I really dont know what the deal is. if i dont thing about my future. i will never know what i would want to do and what i could become. I need to take it to the limit. but i guess i did today. Now they tell me to just relax…How the hell em i supposed to relax if im living paycheck to paycheck. i cant get a job i go to school from 7 to 3 everyday and i have homework and stuff too. I dont know i guess sometimes you have to take what you get. I love my life but once in a while it throws a curve-ball you know. I know everyone is like that, so i think we just need to let somethings go before they blow over your head like me. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM TALK IT OUT WITH SOMEONE. (SOMEONE THAT WILLLL LISTEN) SOMETIMES THATS ALL A PERSON NEED TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES. YOU NEED TO GET A HOBBY, I AM GOING TO GET A HOPPY, THIS WAS REALLY HELPFULL. I WANT TO GIVE ON LAST ADVISE ON THIS TOPIC(WORKING TO MUCH) YOU NEED TO START LIVING YOU LIFE. I MEAN YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, TAKE THAT 20 DOLLARS THAT YOU HAVE SAVED UP, CALL ONE OF YOUR BUDDIES AND GO OUT TO EAT, CLUBING OR WHAT HAVE YOU, JUST LEARN TO LET GO AND HAVE REAL FUN. YOU HAVE TO ENJOY LIFE, OR ITS GOING TO BE A LONG AND BUMPY RIDE.
- October 12, 2009 at 8:05 am(143) Kaelyn says:
so finds out im depressed and want 2 die god i never thought i would be depressed or think about dieing before it's just i feel unwanted and sooo alone i just wished someone cared all i do is cry i eat less now and just think
- October 19, 2009 at 12:14 am(144) JV says:
I'm over 40 and have been depressed most of my life. I believed the stuff about not giving up, but am still waiting. I can't do this much longer.
- November 1, 2009 at 3:31 pm(145) Phil from London says:
Hi, I'm 38 and am having a major crisis.
I gave up a good job in Bristol having secured another job in London 19 months ago so I could live with my partner. The stress of my new job contributed (I feel) to my stomach ulcers and me becoming ill back in Feb this year. I became extremely fatigued and suffered a serious depressive episode.
I've now lost my job due to ill health (chronic undiagnosed fatigued meant I failed my return-to-work package), and now my health is threatening my relationship. My partner has threatened to kick me out many times as I no longer have an income and my health condition is going to make getting and holding down a new job almost impossible.
With my home in Bristol facing repossession, my health is getting worse. Constant stomach pain, chronic fatigue and daily battles with depression (daily thoughts of suicide too) and a partner that is constantly nagging me, life has become too much.
I need help but having already tried my GP, I do not know wh
- November 2, 2009 at 12:51 pm(146) broke says:
please help me.. i think i am becoming paranoid. it seems like everybody's hating me, like they're all against me i don't know now how to make myself feel better. i know i'm such a bitchy whore.I'm a flirt and i did a lot of mistakes in my life.but i want to change my attitude.i've been rude and i fight like I'm tough.the truth is i'm not. i feel so alone. though my family are here with me and my special someone. i can't stand the pain. like there's something inside me that's crawling up from my neck and i'm a bit shaking. already attempted suicide. and i want to go to rehab and so effin desperate. ( it hurts like hell. i feel worthless ……………………………
- October 20, 2011 at 12:09 am(147) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
wether it is you worth a lot, sometimes we have to suffer to understand what`s going on, you have to give value to people exactcly when you think they hate you, bacause it`s really just a temporary paranoia that comes and go, you are strong and for beeing strong you have to cope with big fights, try meditate and think about where you want to be on future…. bye bye
- November 2, 2009 at 12:55 pm(148) broke chick says:
help me ..
- November 13, 2009 at 3:07 am(149) jay says:
let me tell you why im depressed maybe it can help someone.
i am 30 years old i just found out i have hypertension, not just a little high off the charts 200 over 130. the doctors could not believe it, they thought i was on drugs witch after the blood tests they found out i was not.
this all happened at the emergency room because i don't have insurance.
since my heart was in good condition and the doctors could not figure out what was causing this they suggested i see a family doctor for further exams and scribed me beta blockers.
i have yet to see a doctor because of my financial situation and my blood pressure has not changed much im still off the charts stage 3, so a stroke or heart attack might be on the horizon. in the last 8 months i broke my collar bone and then my foot and i was not working when this happened so i had to sale every thing i had to pay my rent and eat.
your probably thinking there must be someone who would help you right lend you a hand in time of need well the answer is no and trust me i thought about every one i know. now i find my self with out a dime and about to be homeless in the bleeping cold. i don't see things getting better and im trying. no one will hire me because i dont have an address , bank account , cell phone , car and i also have horrible credit because of past mistakes. and im aware that all this is because of the decisions i have made in life witch makes it all the worse.
and now that i am ready to make the right decisions its too late! im ….!!!! ill be on the streets soon and no one will care.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:15 am(150) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi\ says:
relax, i care, try to have beautiful thinkings about the future, and call for wishes, analise the wishes of your future to the most humble and deserveful possible, find a nice work and have a good time
- November 16, 2009 at 10:37 pm(151) Rory says:
I'm never depressed when i'm on my own doing something like walking or exploring a new place… Interaction with other people makes me depressed. People are cruel and self-centred horrible and obsessed with material things. Not having a partner does get me down sometimes but then I just think, could I really spend 24hrs with this girl? The answer is always no, so far anyway. I'm so pissed off with lifeat the moment I'm going on a 6month trip around the world and I will only pick my first destination at the airport. I'm usually organised so doing this on a whim might be just what I need.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:17 am(152) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you have to separete your time and the time with your girl, nobody can commit 24hour a day for somebody, even if is the one you should… take care
- November 20, 2009 at 8:44 am(153) XxX says:
Mmmk, so i'm a 16 yr old guy, i'm built, and i'm mature. But the one thing my body can't handle is love. It hurts like death itself. Not that i know what death feels like.. or do i? i been pretty close to it. It hurts like love… so i guess dont get into anything if your not prepared to get hurt. You'll end up mind !@#$ed. Then again… if we weren't mind !@#$ed then we wouldn't be reading stuff like this. Ok, so i want to know what it feels like to be loved again. not for looks, not for power or anything… i just want to be appreciated for who i am again. That way i wont be depressed.
- November 25, 2009 at 11:31 am(154) FRESH OUTTA COUNTY says:
listin people i have bad writinq bekause i dropd out in 7th so dont be ingorant and sayin am tryinq to write ghetto or nun of that. but all am qunna say is am `18 qot one son a babymama who i dont really love strong enough to marry i just got outta jail for a life case and i was readinq this kuz am depressed but the true is i been depressed my whole teenage life i started sellin dope n robbin people it was all fun n games n big money at 1st but then the stage of qoin down that dark path came i didnt talk to family i dropd out in n out of juvi runnin thru females left n rite but the true is even doe i had everythin by 17 i felt so empty n felt like i had no knowlegde of nothinq important to the real world i went crazy got so depressed i got coked up n almost shot myself and i always rember that life is always qonna have it ups n downs but maken it thru dem is whats qunna make you have more faith n be stronger to make it thru the next downfall just know witout faith theres no accomplishments in life and being misarable and thinking negative all the time is just qunna sink yu deeper n deeeper into the darkness like it did me when i was lockdup dat i thought i would never see my child born never see my family again n always be a lowlife ruining n taken peoples hardworkin money but i realize life is beautiful you just need to know how to live it the rite way with faith n qod anythinnq can happen [example] am out now on house arrest my son is here am doing bizzness wit my family not robbin or dealin n am ready to change the question are you ready to stop bein negative n be postive kuz of postive thought am where am at now free n doinq rite i just hope sum1 takes my advice just think postive no matter what it is just do it eat it or if its a bad habit throw it awayy !!!!
- November 28, 2009 at 10:09 am(155) sara says:
i am depressed. plzzz help me. i am very sad. just kill me.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:25 am(156) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you have to think that you`re sad because you want live
- November 30, 2009 at 1:29 pm(157) Brooke says:
hey… does anyone wants to talk to me over the phone? I need someone I can talk to about my depression. We can be depression buddies and hopefully I can get through my day each day! I just need someone to talk to and someone to support me. No one knows I have depression except my counselor but she doesn't do much about it. She wants me to take one semester off of college and hopefully get my mind straight. Please email me if you're interested. I want to get at least two buddies I can talk to and hey, I can help you get through this depression too.
email: firstname.lastname@example.com
Best luck to everyone!
- November 30, 2009 at 1:31 pm(158) Brooke says:
Hey if you need someone to talk to … to get over your depression. Perhaps we can call each other and exchange motivation.. I'm currently depress.
- November 30, 2009 at 1:38 pm(159) Brooke says:
I'm making 19 in December and I was hoping I find someone around my age that I can relate too ( like college, life, school, work & etc).
- December 1, 2009 at 10:32 pm(160) james says:
i think im depressed but im the person that jokes with everyone all the time so if i told them nobody will believe me i need help
- December 1, 2009 at 10:39 pm(161) Brooke says:
yeah, I know what you mean James. if I told anyone… they wouldn't believe me either. The reason for this is because my life just seem too perfectly molded. I have everything but yet so empty.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:32 am(162) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
first you have to accept that a perfect life is never on the mind, so it`s really impossible to think about a perfect life without fitting a social purpose, everything have a purpose, try to maintan the things you are happy about and stronger the parts of your life that you are feeling sad about, harmonise, balance and equilibrium, find your desires within the soul and heart
- December 1, 2009 at 11:27 pm(163) bri says:
brooke im 18 years old and maybe i can relate to you..i just started college and might be going through the same thing. if youd like to talk let me know
- December 2, 2009 at 1:50 am(164) elle says:
i feel really depressed alot too, at least u guys r young and u can make ur lives anything u want, you can b anyone u want, plz dont kill urselves. You havent even started ur lives yet. Im depressed becuz ive given my kids such a crappy life and im always poor and can barely pay the rent or buy food and most people hate me, I dont really have any friends and only a husband who doesnt care. I try and tell myself everyday is a new day and ill try and be the best person i can be despite the crap. i think of prisoners of war under german and japenese and wat they went through or people who lose thier children or people in africa and remind myself my problems r nothing compared to theres. u have to b strong and not let wat other people think of u define who u r.
- December 2, 2009 at 2:04 am(165) elle says:
when i mentioned people in Africa, i meant people that had suffered from genocide and war and famine. didn't mean to come across ignorant, sorry.
- December 2, 2009 at 3:36 am(166) Momo says:
My partner is keep nagging me.
Oh God! Ive no one and feel so unworthy of anything.
I feel useless it sucks being alive.
I know why I feel depress.
I don't like my work colleague, as they are bullshit and lied.
My old boss got sack and they said they don't like a new boss.
After one week passed they all swallow their own word. They keep licking a new boss. How stupid people????
I want to quick my job but I still worry if I quit who going to pay bills. Oh my God people.
I hate those kinds of people.
I want to quit it might make me happy.
The important thing that i know is Money Money Money Money Money Money. If I have money I don't have to worries about people I don't like.
Live is suck to live with people like that
- December 2, 2009 at 4:34 pm(167) Brooke says:
It's not like I'll suicide and kill myself. I just want to get out this depression stage. It's killing me inside slowly and I'm trying to avoid it by helping myself heal from it.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:38 am(168) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you can never have everything, try to have peace and love, the depression stage will make grow your spirit and build compassion in your heart
- December 7, 2009 at 6:04 am(169) elle says:
wish i was dead. im such a fuck up.
- December 9, 2009 at 6:32 pm(170) marz says:
If you have found this page, then you are depressed. If you are taking this test because you think you are depressed, you're depressed. People who are not depressed don't ever have the thought "I wonder if I'm depressed", only depressed people do. If this is you, then make a doctor's appointment right away. The doctor will be able to advise you whether it's short term, it which case some counseling is really helpful, or if it's chronic and you would benefit from medication and/or therapy. Just do it. Treatment works. Even chronic sufferers feel so much better after a couple of years, that you cannot even imagine why on earth you suffered for so long without treatment.
- December 9, 2009 at 8:20 pm(171) Lisa says:
wait til your 57 family dead friends dead family treats you like shit a job that goes nowhere and no ne gives a shit now you can be depressed why kill yourself your going to die anyway sooner or later
- December 15, 2009 at 4:31 am(172) Ben says:
Ok, so I'm depressed… Now what.
I'm 17 have been feeling this way for about 12 months and it just keeps getting worst, I have disturbing thoughts, nightmares and everything just seems so pointless.
I try to be nice in life, I put on a smile for everyone even though alot of the time it's insincere, I make a joke to see other people laugh even if it's at my own expense. I liked to make others happy.
But as these 12 months have progressed I've just felt so horrible. The only friends I've had have started rejecting me, not talking to me and not even inviting me to any outings or whatever.
Thanks to that, I have become more of an introvert, and surrounded by self pity. I'm not smart like my sister, not successful, not athletic. Im not good at anything I try. I play video games alot now just to escape from my problems, but I fail at them too! I just dont have a skill in which I can excel. I have no quality of life whatsoever.
Even worst than all these problems is what I have been feeling lately, just feeling so desperate and worthless, what I have been made to feel like by others, my "friends" and eventually even my family. I'm called miserable by them, lazy, self absorbed and selfish.
They have started to gain a deeper understanding of me, but they can only see the surface, I dont want them to have my problems on top of their money woes.
I just feel so sad and trapped.
No one accepts me, I try to be nice and I just get shoved away and insulted. They don't even understand me, so what gives them the right to do that. I want revenge sometimes…
I'm sick of bottling up my emotions, but what else can I do. I mean no one could possibly understand exactly what I am going through.
So many other things Id like to mention, that make me feel so desperate and helpless.
- December 15, 2009 at 8:14 pm(173) What to do when you don't know what to do says:
It's hard to make people understand how you feel when they look at your outer shell and assume that you have it all together. They blow you off as if what you are saying is no big deal because you can handle it. I have found that I encourage myself, reassure, and console myself best. I talk to God and still find it hard to be totally honest about how I feel because I am so accustomed to faking it. But then I remember that God knows everything and He still loves me so I am free to be honest. Sometimes I literally cry out to my family and they just think that I'm having a drama moment. Thank God for Jesus. I have hope that after the struggles of this life that I will find peace and relief as long as I keep my faith. Just knowing that Jesus has prepared a place for me brings joy to my heart. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning.
- December 15, 2009 at 8:30 pm(174) what to do when you don't know what to do says:
I will get through this day because I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. I am convinced that nothing in heaven or earth can separate me from the love of God. Some days are harder than others but I thank God for Jesus because I can always find a reason to give tomorrow a chance. I have only one child and she has totally rejected me for most of her life. My daughter has always had some deep seeded dislike for me. When she was younger she tried to conceal it but the older she got it became more apparent no matter how much I tried. I cannot maintain relationships because I always find an excuse to withdraw and decline get-togethers. Sometimes just having a conversation is emotionally overwhelming. I avoid almost every situation that demands me to expose raw emotion. Sometimes I want to feel more but I don't know how and if I do feel something, I don't know what it is. But God. In spite of it all, I can always find consolation in the Bible and in the salvation of Jesus. I wish there was a feel better pill for the hard days but even if there was, it would only be temporary so I am learning to lean and depend on Jesus – Trust in the Lord. The more that I trust Him, He has proven that He will provide. Go ahead and cry or scream when you feel like it – they think we're missing a link anyway so why not let it out just for the heck of it.
- December 17, 2009 at 10:32 pm(175) Peggie says:
I have a boyfriend that i can trust and parents that i love. something just never feels right, i try to be happy but something always weighs me down like i cant do anything…my best friend tries to cheer me up too but i tell her not to bother…i feel like ishouldnt even be here and sometimes i dont want to be…i have considered having depression but never thought i actually would…this site has really helped me out…
- December 20, 2009 at 9:50 pm(176) AIR FORCE BRAT says:
that was barley any help. im 13 and cant figureout if im depressed or not! i have 7 out of the 10 most common symptoms, and being a part of a family that travels every 4 years because of my dads work doesnt help, and niether does the fact that half of my friends at school make me feel guilty that i might move this summer, and the other half will either move, or already moved! did i mention that i live in alaska where its dark during the winter all the time?!?! theres only about 3 hours of light!!! this life sucks!!!
- December 28, 2009 at 8:03 pm(177) fhhjerfg rjbghrefgvhbv says:
wow! what a help that was .
- January 3, 2010 at 4:36 pm(178) I'm Andrew and I'm depressed as hell says:
I'm depressed as fuck, my friends dont care my parents dont care and I dont have a girlfriend so I'm 2 times more depressed, I hate my damn life and I feel like killing my self every damn day. This shit didnt help at all it just told me what I already know. I think inding a girl will help alot but I dont know any girls so fuck me right and I dont even know if I should be alive any more… What in the hell do I do?
- January 13, 2010 at 4:08 pm(179) oh gosh -_- says:
ok seriously?? this is it?? jeez!
i feel lyk sooo down now :'( i jus wanna cut myself.. :/
- January 14, 2010 at 3:06 pm(180) Deb says:
so.. this is what?
I am so…what should i say?
I cant even die, see how afraid am I.
I don't know what to do.
I have tried to suicide 4 years ago.
I'm still suffering. I'm not a psycho.
Believe it, without love you are already been dead.
Why I don't have any friends? Why no one likes me at all? Anyone got any suggestions?
Am I living still now to have more and more pain increasing every day? When will it come to an end?
- October 20, 2011 at 12:49 am(181) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you have to still believe in love, not as a miracle but to enjoy life and give to your partner all you want back
- January 15, 2010 at 2:50 am(182) puja says:
Actually i hate myself really i cant blame anyone all my fault …… i love such a person who is bad flirty what to do???? love just happen…… my family always wants to protect me but i use to ignor them… but now i realised my fault,,,, i wanna end my life but still i cant because of my family………………………..
- January 15, 2010 at 11:39 am(183) pradeep says:
i m so depressed … i just want to die
- January 20, 2010 at 8:38 pm(184) random guy says:
this just helped. yep.
- January 21, 2010 at 9:33 am(185) hannah says:
im probly youger then most people wh are depressed but i feel lonly and unloved. i feel used and im never intesested anymore please help i dont kknow whats wrong with me? :[
- January 23, 2010 at 8:32 pm(186) Purple - Dylan says:
ok.. i am 13 and my life is really screwed up. everyone older than me, reading this, might think that it's just a phase. that im young and just getting used to the real world. get this through your head- depression hurts and it can consum anyone, any age, any sex. depression is not a joke and can not be taken lightly. 1 million people die from suicide. a year. i have been depressed for two years and no one knows it except two close friends. i "wear a mask" meaning i hide my.. desease… and everyone thinks i am a loving optomistic young person. im not. im depressed and since your on this site so are you. no one that is not depressed even thinks of taking a depression quiz. face your.. desease and just know that no matter how bad or horrible things are- it will get better. and thats hard for me to say since i am still depressed and i have tried suicide before. keep tryining.. just a little bit longer… and try to see the good in the world. the good in the world is small, but its there. best of luck to everyone.
- October 20, 2011 at 12:54 am(187) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
depression is not a disease, it`s a emotion, you more learn from it than cure it, so try to understand about your feelings and try to think about goodness of life and be thankful about what you have and you might learn about yourself instead of try to cure it
- January 24, 2010 at 11:25 pm(188) SAD&&ALONE says:
I have gotten alot of compliments lately about how talented I am, how pretty I am, and how I could be a model or whatever else I wanted to be…Everyone tells me these things because they dont see the real me…the depressed little girl inside of me thats hiding away in shame. I feel so useless…I feel so alone…so misunderstood and hurt…Is it because the best relationship I ever had has ended? Is it because I never get to see the guy I love? Is it because he has a NEW girlfriend? What is it? I need help. He is still my friend and he said he still loves me but theres a big void in my life and i dont know how to fill it :,(
- October 20, 2011 at 12:59 am(189) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you are feeding you self steem by other people compliments, now it`s a part of your life you have to believe your own compliments, the best way is thanking for life and find your inner voice that will matter more than what people think of you
- January 25, 2010 at 3:02 pm(190) Courtney says:
Hi, I'm seventeen and I think I may have depression, but I don't want to go to my parents, because I'm afraid they'll just blow it off as teenage hormones.
- January 26, 2010 at 4:40 pm(191) depressed lila says:
hi my name is lila i get lots of compliments about how funny and beautiful and pretty i am i just dont believe it i am the youngest one to be depressed i hide all of it inside i have tried to kill myself before…didnt work i kept trying i yelled and yelled to my mom i was gonna kill myself she thinks im a lil girl in the outside in the inside its a world of pain and misery if you were too step in my shoes things would be devistating i hate my life and wish i could be different and be happy for once but it looks like i'll have too stay at my miserable life forever until im dead which im about to say will not care to anyone im useless and worthless an unloved im hated
- January 26, 2010 at 4:53 pm(192) Lil depressed gurl says:
Please somebody anybody tell me what should i do!!! Im so Young 2 be depressed i told my mom to take me to the doctor she thinks im a retard i wanna kill myself plz anybody i hate my life i have thoughts about killing myself daily right now its obvious im feeling the feeling now i cant kill myself not that im scared its just my family i only love my dad in the family thats it if my mom doesnt pay attention to me or at least understand me for real im gonna be done with her and go try to kill my self
- January 30, 2010 at 3:37 pm(193) depressed girl says:
i think I am depressed and bipolar.i am way to young tho. i have had thoughts of killing myself and i have been cutting myself for almost 2 years. i cant take life anymore. i feel like no one cares about me and that i am all alone. i don't get along with my family. me and my dad barley talk anymore. my mom died when i was four years old and sadly i was with her when this happened. that is the only clear memory i have of her. i am in love with my best friend, and he broke my heart. he knows i am in love with him and that he did in fact break my heart. he knows i use to cut, and he is the reason i stopped. if it wasn't for him , i might not be here right now. i am deeply in love with him and it gets harder each and everyday. i feel like i get depressed more and more as the days go on. everyday i think "why am i still here?" i hate this!! someone plz give me some advice!
- October 20, 2011 at 1:09 am(194) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you hurt yourself because you think you deserve punishment, you still here to find a purpose in life and the sadness is just a part of you that thinks is unfair. be thankful for life, find a love that is in peace
- January 30, 2010 at 3:39 pm(195) depressed girl13 says:
i think I am depressed and bipolar.i am way to young tho. i have had thoughts of killing myself and i have been cutting myself for almost 2 years. i cant take life anymore. i feel like no one cares about me and that i am all alone. i don't get along with my family. me and my dad barley talk anymore. my mom died when i was four years old and sadly i was with her when this happened. that is the only clear memory i have of her. i am in love with my best friend, and he broke my heart. he knows i am in love with him and that he did in fact break my heart. he knows i use to cut, and he is the reason i stopped. if it wasn't for him , i might not be here right now. i am deeply in love with him and it gets harder each and everyday. i feel like i get depressed more and more as the days go on. everyday i think "why am i still here?" i hate this!! someone plz give me some advice! i really need it right now!!!!
- February 3, 2010 at 2:08 am(196) depressed for awhile says:
Well i am a mommy and gf to a wonderful person but i feel so alone i have no friends and no family that really cares. i wake everyday dreading getting my son out of bed because i kno today is going to be just like the others. It all started when i was younger and it dont help i have to face it all the time. i really need so friends or atleast some to talk to. So maybe one of yal could help me out
- February 3, 2010 at 9:28 am(197) depressed and hating says:
don't even think about suicide just turn that into hate towards society live with hate die with hate nobody in this society will truely understand you but deal with it.
- February 4, 2010 at 9:37 pm(198) nick says:
lol great they told me somthing a mentally ill person couldve told me
- February 6, 2010 at 7:35 pm(199) jorjy says:
I feel low pretty much everyday. Been like it for about three months, ever since finding out my Dad had been having affairs with various women for four years…… My Mum didn't really understand why it had affected me, when all she kept saying was that it happened to her and not to me….
I went to the doctor and he said i was depressed. I told my Mum and she got angry with me for telling the doctor I was depressed.
This made me even more despressed.
So I'm pretty much in a vicious depressive cycle.
Thankfully my Mum and Dad are trying to work things out.
They tell me not to get involved in their business but start talking about everything whilst at the dinner table right infront of me……
Sorry to rant but I don't have anybody to talk to. I'm too ashamed of what my Dad's done to tell any of my friends, and whenever I ask for help my parents get annoyed and tell me I dont need it.
- February 7, 2010 at 10:19 pm(200) foffa says:
hi guys , im sorry about what do u feel . i used to be the same as u , but i totally change,, it was my freind's advice .i start read to coran (bible) how god creat us to live and enjoy every single day,he creat us and hes the only one can decide about our future..i become muslim and i feel like i just borne ,, the islam make me feel diferent , im not depressed anymore ,,how can i be depressed and i have god protecting me and louking at me all the time thanks god . peace guys
- February 8, 2010 at 12:46 am(201) Leann says:
UNHELPFUL! I take this test to see if I'm depressed and it says "you may be clinically depressed." Well, no SHIT I *may* be depressed! Why else would I take this test? Would a perfectly normal person jump up and say, "Hey, I think I'll find some online test to see if I'm depressed!"? No. No, they would not.
I think I'm depressed, obviously. But I think it may be mild, because this feeling of worthlessness isn't always there. I'm distanced enough from my depression to see relatively clearly into the affliction, and my immediate advice to you all is to tell someone. Don't ever, EVER let anyone tell you that you aren't worth anything, because you are. If you think the world would be better off without you, well, tough cookies for the world, right? Live a long, full, happy life just to spite the world.
But mostly, talk to someone. Psychotherapy (talking about your problems with a professional) is proven to be the most successful form of treatment for adolescents, and it's certainly less dangerous and more fulfilling than antibiotics. Get to know a therapist, or attend group therapy. Talk to a friend. It's okay to cry. It's okay to be a little scary sometimes, and it's okay to punch the pillow. Write in a diary. Tell someone how you're feeling, but don't make it "their fault" and don't make it "up to them" to keep you alive, because that's not what they signed up for. If you don't feel good when you're with someone, then spend time with people who do make you feel good. Focus on the positive things; at the end of the day, make a list of all the good things that happened that day. Smile at strangers; if they smile back, that can go on the list! When you go grocery shopping, say something nice to a total stranger (i.e. "Wow, I love that sweater!" or "I really like that hairstyle."); tell someone to have a great day. Buy a flower and give it to someone you don't know.
If it's your parents who aren't being receptive to your pain, DO NOT HURT YOURSELF TO GET THEIR ATTENTION. You must confront them in a calm, assertive way. Stand up for yourself, but don't do it for the wrong reasons (because you want attention, sympathy, compliments, etc).
I know as well as all of you that depression hurts. I know that this quiz didn't tell you anything special; it just took the symptoms and turned them into yes/no questions. I know that you're feeling useless and that you're scared of your feelings and what they make you think about doing. I know that sometimes when you cry yourself to sleep at night, you're afraid that you'll still be crying when you wake up. I know that you sometimes have to hold your breath to keep from falling to pieces in public, I KNOW that you have an image to uphold. But it'll be alright in the end. Sometimes what makes a day a good one is if someone gives you a hug or makes you smile. Hold tight; even if this isn't over yet, there's still hope for you. Stay strong. My love and support to you all on your quest to achieve normalcy.
- February 8, 2010 at 11:27 am(202) 13andsad says:
hi im 13 years old and am depressed
great that innit
it started just after my 10th b'day i let some lads feel me up
wrong i kno but it made me feel good,loved,wanted
after i cried for hours and was sick
i am now the slag of my year
a few months later my mum read the diary i had been keeping of everything i wanted to do to myself
my mum told my dad and he came round and went insane screaming at me asking me if i hated him
my mum was crying
it was horrible
that night i tried to overdose my mum found me
i was sick and she told me i was stupid
i started smoking and hanging around with people who were bad news
i started stripping on webcam to boys id never met
my dad found out and said "are you a virgin huh i doubt it your a slut a silly tart and a disgrace. if you dont clean up you can leave and never come back" i was 12 the next day i left and havent spoken to him scince that was august last year 09 but in july 09 i ran away with two older girls i forgot that part i tried to hang myself but in the morning i woke up and cried
i wish i was dead but i know somewhere out there there has to be someone who can help
my mum thinks im stupid my brother moved out coz of me i want to be happy i really really do
my mum defeated this so did my sister but i just dont have the srtrenght in me im not strong but writing all this has helped and i hope no one kills themselves it makes the world an even sadder place ): i try to forget i bottle it up but tonight might just be my last night i just hope everyone else is stronger than i am i really do
- February 8, 2010 at 12:24 pm(203) sad/confused/angry /worried says:
hi… i'm 12 comin up 13 in may…my names is sad/confused/angry/worried because i am. sad= my mummy deid a month before my birthday and 5 days before her's (i was only six). if you r woundering what happend to her she killed herself because she had a pain in her templs, and the pills she had weren't working. confused= because i don't think my daddy has told me all of the story of what was really wrong. angry= everythink goes wrong in my life e.g i have been gettin realy bad scores in my teasts and stuff like that. worried= my daddy is really ill he goes the pub everyday smoke's a lot com
- February 9, 2010 at 10:16 am(204) Dizmo says:
13andsad: It's hard to really comprehend how you feel, I'm depressed at the moment too but I'm seeking proffesional help. Are you seeking help from your doctor? Your family should of been there to support you. I told my mother about my depression yesterday and she has taken it really well, not that it helps me feel any better though – because it doesn't at all. I don't feel suicidal because I don't feel selfish enough to do that to my family or the only 2 friends I have. The doctors can help with depression, not just to give you anti-depressants but to council you as well. I've stopped eating, I've not had a bite to eat for the past 4 days, all I want to do is sit and mope about, when I'm not sitting about I'm laying about doing nothing. Don't give up people, there is help out there – don't rely on a website like this one to help you, get proffesional help from your GP – ring the samaritans if you want either. Take care all and don't do anything stupid; it's not worth it. Dizmo x
- February 11, 2010 at 11:33 am(205) 13andsad says:
Dizmo i would but whats the point so my family can laugh at me some more?
my big sis is preggers and my mum would think im attention seeking they have been through it but not at this age it hurts but im stuck in a rut and i know suicide is selfish but wth im a slag and fat i may aswekll be dead aswell but it means a lot that you wrote that mabe there iss goood in the world maby
- February 11, 2010 at 2:57 pm(206) Kaitey says:
How to portray sarcasm in a comment…Hmmm…
- February 11, 2010 at 6:26 pm(207) Dizmo says:
13andsad: You can get the help without your family knowing then. There is good in the world, like you I'm having problems finding the good in the world. Don't give up because it's not worth it – really it isnt. I don't really know what to say because I know how hard it is. Try and do things that you enjoy (or used to enjoy), it will make you feel better! Get yourself on anti-depressants, talk to your doctor; he/she WILL be able to help, honestly it will make you feel better. I've had a bad few days but I'm not going to give up, I'm not going to let depression get the better or me!
Don't give up, you're too young to throw everything away. Alot of people care about – whether you know of it or not. You say you're a slag, you're not, you just tried to make yourself better by letting people touch you – that isn't being a slag, that's being someone that needs to lift themselves. I will keep saying it, don't give up – you will feel better if you talk to someone. Take care, Dizmo x
- February 14, 2010 at 2:16 pm(208) Monica says:
I am eleven years old and feel really sad some days. I have acne and little bumps all over my forehead. Whe I ask to go to to the movies my parents say no. I have some cetaphil cleanser and spot treatment it does not work. I have awesome friends but I hate my family! I have a party soon and they aren't getting anything done!!!! I have tried choking and suffocating myself, but I can't do it. My sis makes fun of me and always gets mad at me. Please help me!!
- October 20, 2011 at 1:40 am(209) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
be thankful for life and don`t hate your family, aknoledge about philosophy and meditation helps control hate, understand that you`re in a phase of learning emotions so you can think in a better future for yourself
- February 14, 2010 at 11:11 pm(210) Krissa says:
Im no pro, but you are not alone. Im sorry your hurting. Dont give up. Stay positive. I know it may not sound appealing now, but share your feelings with someone who will help you. You may not realize it but many people care about you. Please talk to someone.
- February 15, 2010 at 9:47 am(211) 13andsad says:
dizmo: the fact you care is enough to keep me sane.i would go the doctors but i just dont see the point monica it sounds as if you are going thru a stage of pre-teen stress. i've been there i know its hard and tbh id advise against killing yourself look at the fact dizmo is helping me i can try and help you i once tried to strangle myself now i have a phobia of people touching my neck and dizmo thankyou it means a lot that you care but can i ask what is a person like you doing on a website like this are you depresssed too? if you are then you are my inspiration if you are depressed and you can help someone maby i can too and maby tongiht i wnt kill myself
- February 16, 2010 at 6:17 am(212) Dizmo says:
I'm on this site because I feel that at least if I can't help myself I can help other people. I truly care for you, I wouldn't just say that, if I didn't care then I wouldn't of helped, although you know that already. Suicide isn't the way, it just doesn't help, I understand that it permantly takes the pain away, yes it does if you get it right. If you get it wrong you could be left a vegetable all your life, which isn't nice. If you struggle to help your self then maybe helping other people might make you feel better
I once stopped someone from taking their own life, it wasn't nice because they accused me of not believing they would, although I'd never joke about suicide. I had to sit and watch them hold a shotgun to their forhead on a webcam, at any point they could of killed themselves right in front of me. After a lot of talking I made them see sense and they got the help, I know this because I spoke to them months after. This is a true story and believe me I felt good, I don't know what would of happened if I had sat there and watched them do it in front of me – So not worth it.
If you want to talk to me, via email or even txt (if you live in the U.K, I'm not made of money lol I can't afford to txt abroad) then you can do, just contact me via email : dizmouk2009 at h otma il. co dot uk. (they might remove that address, sorry if they do), look after yourself and remember I'm here if you need a chat, 24/7. That applies to everyone. Dizmo x
- February 16, 2010 at 6:20 am(213) Dizmo says:
Alternatively if the email is blocked, you can seach "dizmouk" on google and click on the "computer virus in The AnswerBank: Technology" link, I'm dizmouk2009 and my email address is on that post
Dizmo, x
- February 17, 2010 at 5:49 am(214) pradeep says:
i was a good student. i used to be among toppers. but now i forgot most of the thing not be able to face my batchmates.. they all r doing well.. all r happy. i used to love myself so much. but now everything is changed i just hate my self.. sometimes i starts crying without any reason. now a days i m hurting myself. i dont know y i m doing all this. i m not be able to sleep also. sometimes i feel like running from home,, daily i serch for painless method of suicide.. i want to kill myself soon.. i hate myself. i m so alone. no one loves me. i wants someone just to chat inchatrooms but no one like ti even chat with me. i dont have any friends also.. they all r just superficial. they all laugh on me. i m ugly no one like me. there is no god .. nothing.. i also want to live a happy life but now its too much i cant stand against this much i m weak very weak. i know so many ways to die. i read so many pharmacology books but i m coward to kill myself i tried 3 times but fails to die. i m just lost.. if i will live then also just like a donkey i dont want that… may be my next life will be better one i hope
- February 17, 2010 at 1:32 pm(215) 13andsad says:
pardeep dont kill yourself look at me an dizmo before she came on here i was going to kill myself its not worth it, i know life gets hard but there is someone out ther who must care x
- February 17, 2010 at 3:21 pm(216) 13andsad says:
dizmo are you a male female? i dont know? sorry for any offence caused x
- February 19, 2010 at 6:00 am(217) x:I'm_Not_Okay):x says:
wow sorry but I dnt think it was helpful at all…gosh I just wanna be happy…I get sick n tired of always being depressed…my boyfriend is starting to dislike me because of my "negativity" so now what he says just puts me down more. I admit I have tried commiting suicide quite a few times before but my older brother always stopped me…he isn't here now so I wonder if it is my chance…I just want help on how I can change…for him not for me…I don't wanna loose him…really it is so rare that someone shows interest in me at all…or is everything just hopeless now? Did I screw everything up again? -sigh- nvm just forget it…
- February 19, 2010 at 6:40 am(218) x:I'm_Not_Okay):x says:
Well if we should state why we are depressed…hmm I am not too sure I have been like this since I was young but I am only 14 right now so I mean younger. My dad has always physically abused me and told me I was worthless and my mom is more of the verbal abuse type she told me that everything about me is fake. When I told my older brother I was depressed I thought I could trust him because he had been before as well. He just turned around and told me that I am stupid and that I am too young to be depressed or know what depression is. I still remember when my family called me fat. xP My uncle calls me a wetback just because he doesnt like my father who is hispanic; I am a mixed race…My parents always get mad at me for the smallest mistakes that I make and even for the mistakes that I dont make. I found out around a year ago that my dad has colon cancer and my uncle has type 2 diabietes. They doc gave my dad a year to live..it has almost been a year now. Yes I have been backstabbed numerous times by many friends but who hasnt? My house was recently broken into and robbed. Some drug dealers that my dad had been with n they knew how much money he had so they were coming to kill my dad, my mom, me n my little brother, ohh and my puppy. D; This month alone I have lost 6 or 7 friends for no good reasons. I cant believe I am saying all of this…I havent told anyone this…o.e lol my parents told me that if I ever got a boyfriend they would kill me and him. Soo yahh dont tell haha. Um but yahh…=/ I dont see why I could possibly be depressed. I mean I know it has nothing to do with depression but I constantly have dreams where people are dying and whatnot the thing is that I dont like people getting hurt. I am straight but I do support bi/gay/lesbian and all of a sudden my family started calling me bi… :S My family is sorta religious and they are Catholic. They found out that my brother was Satanic and they all became scared. Yet we still didnt go to church. My mom found out that I am Wiccan and she all of a sudden wants to go to church and make me go to CCD. It isnt really fair…I mean Wicca is an earth-centered religion…and she is threatening me if I dont go. So >.> yahh um idk whats wrong or what…can someone plzz help me??
- October 20, 2011 at 1:53 am(219) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you are going to a phase to find your own ways and that means to be independent from everybody while maintaing your choices, your family must respect your decisions and at the same time you keep loving them, it is independance….
be thankful for life, and never forget you are worthing person
- February 19, 2010 at 2:21 pm(220) Dizmo says:
I'm male, no offence caused at all. How are you feeling today? x
- February 19, 2010 at 2:30 pm(221) Dizmo says:
I didn't realise my name looked feminine lol :p I suppose age and gender mean absolutely nothing on a forum anyway. I just know how everyone is feeling since I've been there before and I'm there now, different types of depression!
I went to see a women today who works for the mental illness department at my doctors; she was hopeless at helping me, although that isn't her job, she just has to decide whether I'm a threat to myself. I'm getting counselling soon.
Keep in touch 13andsad,
Dizmo x
- February 19, 2010 at 10:03 pm(222) x:I'm_Not_Okay):x says:
scratch what I said about my boyfriend….he broke up with me today…he said he doesnt think things are working out…my friends are angry cause I am blaming myself but who else could it be? I just wasnt good enough…I am not good enough…my dad was right when he called me worthless…I got what I deserved I guess…I wish I could be better than maybe…maybe I would still have him…I fell for someone that wouldn't even be there to catch me…
- February 22, 2010 at 12:34 pm(223) 13andsad says:
the fact your a male and helping a 13 year old like me is just amazing today was bad i got called a slag and grabbed at :'( one of my bestmatesis spreading about me saying i stuf my bra and that im fat. im glad you care dizmo coz i was gonna kill myself and thanks to you i dont thinkn i will not tonigh anyway
thankyou and sincere love
Chelsea-Jayne a.k.a 13andsad xxxx
- February 22, 2010 at 1:54 pm(224) Dizmo says:
I try my best and thanks, unfortuanatly due to that meeting going back on friday I did something stupid. For some reason, whilst extremely drunk I decided to stab myself (really stupid I know) and they only gave me a 25% chance of living. I've been very lucky, it won't happen again, I can promise that. It wasn't even a suicide attempt – I don't even know why I did it :/
Oh well I'm still alive,
Take care of yourself and keep talking to me, doing what I did made me open my eyes, all my family were in a state. The police arrested my friend for attempted murder (or was going to) because they thought he did it. Well like I said I'm still here (in serious pain) and back at home
Dizmo, x
- February 23, 2010 at 11:39 pm(225) Dizmo says:
Chelsea-Jayne I will continue to help you but I'd appreciate it if you could email me on email@example.com because I think I'm going to be admitted to a mental centre, I'm not doing so good at the moment and might not be able to reply on this site, I can from my email that's all. If anyone needs help they can email me on the above address also. Just let me know who you are
Take care Chelsea-J, My heart goes out to you, ignore the bullies, they will get what they deserve in time, I know it's not easy – I used to be bullied at school. Remember I'm always here (even if I'm not at home) to talk to you, the offer still stands, if you live in the UK and want to text me, just email me and I will give you my number, you don't even need to txt me, just so you have it if you ever need someone to talk to!
lots or hugs ((((((hugs)))))) and love
Dizmo xx
- February 24, 2010 at 3:05 am(226) Tim says:
Hey everyone you are on this earth for a reason so just give it your best, hopefully you all will feel more happy soon, you are bound to eventually. you just havent met the right people yet. don't care what people say about you (if they do). they just don't feel good about themselfs or are just plain a$$holes.
I thought I was depressed but you guys have it way worse then me reading through your comments
hope you all get better
- February 24, 2010 at 6:24 am(227) endoflifeenuf says:
hmmm…. i m also very much depressed ..Donno why??I wanna end my life soon .. tried twice .. but cud nt end it u p … Well m a 28 year old … waiting to die…Can anone suggest me some good techniques
- October 20, 2011 at 1:58 am(228) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you are depressed because you want to enjoy life, if you want to live you shouldn`t want to die, be thankful for life and meditate about a good future for yourself
- February 24, 2010 at 6:35 am(229) endoflifeenuf says:
wanna end my life
- February 25, 2010 at 6:46 am(230) 13andsad says:
Dear Dizmo I know you might not see this but the other night on the 22nd of feb i tried to take my life i only took 6 co-codamol before i thought of you i do live in the uk and i will email you i'm gonna miss you but its reassuring to know you care all MY love and hugs (((((((hugs)))))) Chelsea-J XXXX get better please i need you xxxxxx
- February 25, 2010 at 1:59 pm(231) Dizmo says:
Hey Chelsea-J, I spoke to the crisis team at the hospital and they refused to admit me, they said "If you're going to kill yourself you are going to do it no matter where you are". I think the anti-depressants might be starting to work so there still might be hope yet. I'm glad you're keeping in contact with me and thank you for thinking of me, as I think of you (((hugs)))
I check this website daily so it doesn't take me long to reply, I'd like it if you emailed me but there is no pressure. I just can't be very personal on this website, that's all.
Keep your chin up and remember I'm always thinking of you! Try and go to the doctors, the anti-depressants will work, trust me ((hugs))
Take care,
Love and Hugs, Dizmo xxx
- March 1, 2010 at 12:44 am(232) aaron says:
I thought i was getting better, but w/o insurance, no medication, and no direction nor job, I've completely rebounded, from the slight happiness I had. I really dont know what to do anymore, why cant I be normal?
- October 20, 2011 at 2:04 am(233) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
to be normal is be like someperson you admire, don`t just copy anybody, try to learn to live the best as yourself
everybody have a purpose and good to offer
be thankful for your life
want to be better than someone is sociologism want to be better than ownself if evolution
- March 1, 2010 at 11:32 am(234) 13andsad says:
dizmo i have added u by email i mean on msn are they the same? im reallly glad they didnt put you in i would have missed you i need you to keep me sane and can i ask whats your name? and how old are you? i hope im not getting too nosy or personal im glad your anti depressants are working and i will try all my love and ((((hugs)))) chelsea-j xxxxxxxx
- March 4, 2010 at 9:14 am(235) 13andsad says:
hi dizmo you havent written back so i thought id tell you tonight on the 4th im going to see my dad i havent spoken to him scince that night so im nervous i just thought you should know all my love and sincere thoughts Chelsea-J xxxxx love anh ((((hugs))))xxxxxxx
- March 5, 2010 at 7:00 am(236) phuqanwicked says:
i just feel like everyone can just f@ck off and i dont know why i have angery with everyone ftfo ftw
- March 5, 2010 at 1:54 pm(237) ready to giv up says:
i am a 16 year old girl and i know for a fact that i am depressed but i feel like theres no one there for me my ma jus argues at evrything i say when i try to open up why do i have to be so sad.i jus feel like curling up in a ball and dying theres no purpose in life for me people claim that i have all this stuff goin good for me but i dont think i do. evryone jus needs to fuck off they not helpn me they jus makn me more depressed……….someone needs to help me before i kill myself…………im really close ive benen depressed since i was ten im ready for this to end……im even messing up my relationship wit my boyfriend……..someone jus please help i want to be happy
- October 20, 2011 at 2:09 am(238) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you are fighting to have your space, but when you get there you realize you want every loving friend near you, be calm with people you have around you, love them so they can love you when you get your space
be thankful for life
- March 5, 2010 at 10:15 pm(239) kkklll says:
i dont really think this helped at all no not really sorry to be meanbut i have ben all over the internet and cant find any thing so if any one has any places i can go and find out that would be grate
- March 6, 2010 at 7:25 pm(240) Am I dead yet? says:
This isn't meant to solve your problems. It is meant to let you know if you should seek help from someone.
- March 7, 2010 at 5:04 pm(241) j. says:
and in the end… the love you take… is equal to the love… you make.
- March 11, 2010 at 6:11 am(242) justwannagiveup says:
i jsut wanna give up im 13 and a slag no real friends my family hate me they all say im so bright but im just not i keep doing these stupid things that hurt the people i care about and in the long run me as well i end up lashing out at people close to me and slowly im losing my friends and my mind i just dont see the point
- October 20, 2011 at 2:18 am(243) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you are losing your friends to stay close to your family, trust them and love them, you can find peace between them again
- March 11, 2010 at 8:48 am(244) safiya says:
Hi everyone. I reading all of these post and it broke my heart. I actually started to cry.
I am 39 and I have had depression and anxiety since i was 12. Alot of you here, are young. No matter what kind of situation ..parents, school, friends..etc, you need to see a doctor, therapist and possibly a psychiatrist, depending on your situation. No one can say anything here that will make you feel better. I have been so depressed that I prayed for God to take me. I felt like no one understood me at all. But, some people do. Medication helps…sometimes, but the hardest part is that we ..ourselves…have to do the work. Some people don't know why they are depressed…so they need to go to a doctor..it is serious..and very important that you do this. Like I said ..most of you here seem very young so you have so much time. Please don't waste it like I did. I was told that I am smart, articulate, pretty, talented also..like some of you here. But those things don't matter when you feel sad inside.
My parents had no idea what i was going through..I was not taken to a doctor about this until I was 18 and i was diagnosed with depression…big surprise…but, i had a chemical imbalance, so i needed medication. Don't sit there and hope that someone will help you. IF you can't talk to your parents..if they are abusive..etc. then go to an adult you trust and tell them..a teacher, a friends mother or father..please do this. When you keep this inside..it grows and festers until you feel there is no hope at all. When you talk to someone…a professional…you will be amazed how things start to open up…it doesnt work for everyone..but with the right doctor, therapist and possible medication..if needed..there is hope.
Some of you may have psychosis, if you are hearing voices…so medication is a definite need for you. I am not an expert…I am one who has gone through all of this and I do not want to see anyone suffer like I did. Please get some help…reach out to someone you trust. thanks for listening.
- March 11, 2010 at 9:33 pm(245) Willy says:
I sit on my room's corner and cry… Cry… Until I just let all that crap out. I never knew there so many people Depressed. But my advice that works: Cry and ask that Divinity to guide you and hug you. Not religion my frnd, just a "I Love you" from God is all we need.
He does care and believes in Me. I came upon this site and it has changed my life forever radiou.com
- March 13, 2010 at 4:01 pm(246) ian says:
please help? :/ i thing i have emotional problems. i to be nice to everyone but they dont return my good will, i think this is the reason for my problems… but how can i treat it? if it carries on im just going to get even worse .
- October 20, 2011 at 2:25 am(247) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you don`t treat emotional problems, or you get over it or you learn lessons of life, be thankful for the life you have
take care
- March 23, 2010 at 10:19 am(248) krusty says:
i dont like myself and i think im depressed can you help me? my friend Robert also thinks this about herself. what should we do?
- October 20, 2011 at 2:28 am(249) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
call your friend and say you like her
- March 23, 2010 at 4:07 pm(250) jerry wiley says:
i hate my life… im very old… and i think life is dumb
- October 20, 2011 at 2:32 am(251) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
try to be with people that like you
- March 23, 2010 at 10:32 pm(252) Depressed in 2010 says:
that didnt really help. and now it seems that its harder and harder to get through to me because of my depression. Ive cut myself and it helps sometimes but other times I just cry for hours and dont talk to anyone. I even go weeks without saying a single word. I only mumble answers when I need to. I walk around my neighborhood alone because that is exactly how I feel. Alone. I have so much to do all the time and everyone expects to me go above their expectations. I have to be perfect to be loved. Well guess wat? Im not perfect at all. In fact im millions of miles away from perfect. My "perfection" is all the way on Pluto. And I doubt it even exists there. MY life feels like crap and no one can fix it. Not even this "greatly helpful" website. I just wish people could understand. Even some of my friends dont understand what true depression is. To them its sadness and gray colors. To them emo is cutting and black and black eye make up. So STEREOTYPICAL! emo is short for emotional. Happiness is an emotion far from most of the people on this website. Some of our lives have fallen into deep depression and no one can fix it. Depression rules your body it devours your soul. Depression is the worst and the world may as well blow up right now. Depression hurts and I really truly wonder who can cure it?
- October 20, 2011 at 2:40 am(253) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
try to think about a perfect person about two minutes, you going to found out it is impossible, good news is you don`t need to pursue perfection to be happy, bad news is that depression don`t have cure, it`s a state of emotion so you can learn a lesson or go to a phase
be thankful for life
obs: good to be close to Pluto, was a smart guy
- March 24, 2010 at 1:42 pm(254) invisible says:
i am so depressed,i feel sad alltime,i think about die allday,i think how i will end my life,but i am not too brave to do that,maybe oneday i will do that!!i don't know why i am being here,noone like me,noone want me being here so i just hope i could die soon.i hate my life,i hate myself!!
- March 24, 2010 at 11:15 pm(255) Depressed In 2010 says:
I hate my life. I cut myself last night and i went to school, mistakingly, with a short sleeved shirt on. I got many questions about my arms and had to lie to each person who asked. I told my best friend and she swore she wouldnt tell. I dont want anyone else to find out because it will just make my life worse. The school counselor will talk to my mom, my mom will put me on "medication" and I will have to be stabelized in a mental ward. I tried running away from home when I was 11. I had my bike, 4 bottles of water, some food, and clothes in my back pack. I didnt know how long I would last. But my mom always works so I figured I would take the house key and sneak in everyone once in a while for some necessities like more water. I didnt even last a week. I thought my mom wouldnt care. I told two of my friends I was running away and never coming back to school. I made them promise not to tell. My mom got off work early and I guess she was expecting to find me at home. (I walked home from school) But i stayed after school to spend my last day with my friends. I watched the basketball game with them. After the game I unracked my bike and walked one of my friends home. Then I rode my bike all the way to the city border. I turned around and stopped in a dirt lot where there was an abandoned couch. I slept there. I woke up at late because i didnt have an alarm clock and i rode to school (I was surprised I knew where it was from where I was). I got there around 10ish so I had to get a late pass from the office. And who was there but my mom? I saw her through the big glass doors and got on my bike and rode away. (She didnt see me). And in that same day I was strolling along a neighborhood and I heard a honk. I looked back and it was my moms SUV. I sped up and so did she. She caught up to me of course and i had to stop. She had me cornered so I couldnt leave. I had to get in the car. She gave me a lecture and told me "she cried all night reading the runaway note" (Bull). And she didnt trust me for 2 weeks. I had to be driven to and from school. I had to be constantly watched by teachers. And I couldnt go out of the house on the weekends. It was horrible. But none of that stuff could match my pain and depression. Ive been wanting to die ever sincel. But of course, I could always fix that with a sturdy rope and monkey bars, or one quick leap off the edge…………
- March 25, 2010 at 8:42 pm(256) Nick says:
urghh. I got 4 out of 10 yeses. I dunno what that means in terms of mental depressness. Im the kinda person thats never noticed or remembered. I have loads and loads of friends but i swear as soon as i dissappear im instantly forgotten about completely. They don't invite me out coz it never occurs to them to invite me out. 20 of my friends would all decide to go to the cinema and none of them would think of asking me. (happened recently) No one ever texts me unless they're replying to me. Im 18, i've never had a girlfriend or even come close to my 1st kiss yet. Its just not happeneing, i try to be as upbeat and as personable as I possibly can around college, and as i said before that has led me to have loads of friends, but no one seems to register my existance much at all. It's like there is some kinda negative essence about me that does this but whenever i try to talk to people about how to fix it, they just say, "what? your perfect, theres nothing wrong with you. Nothing needs fixing" Of course i feel worthless, unloved, pathetic. Everyone looks down on me like i swear they just forget i'm alive for the majority of the time. I cut the word "Hell" into my arm a few weeks ago, and have thoughts on suicide. As i said, i don't seem to exist to anyone if i'm not there so it wouldn't make any difference if i did anything at all.
- March 26, 2010 at 11:41 pm(257) spot says:
Honestly this quiz is much too vague to do any serious, or even any abstract help. Everyone gets sad or irritable, everyone has changes in sleep patterns and physical apperance. If anyone actually scrolled to the bottom of this page, don't bother taking this test – if you really have a problem talk to someone you love (and vice versa), like your mom or your closest friend. And if you don't have anyone, seriously, talk to me – I have aol instant messenger (iridescentripper). My mum has cancer again and this whole situation is looking bad. I'm a transsexual and my life feels like hell. I have two friends I can really call friends, and I've lost almost every other friend that was previously close to me (in a matter of a month). If you're miserable too than don't hesitate to kontact me. I'll talk with you.
- March 29, 2010 at 9:28 pm(258) Jase says:
i passed thinking there was perhaps a point to my existence once i realised my depression and other mental illnesses may be hereditary, due to both my mother and father's very damning pasts.
the point is, i have always allured to the idea of finding a partner, having children, and raising them right. but what would i be giving them? the same life i had? the same horrible shit that goes on up in my head all the time? there's no way on Earth i would do that. i've heard every excuse under the sun for my existence apparently being worthwhile. excuses, not reasons.
i attempted my life once before with an overdose, and even then my stupidity overrode my common sense and i didn't realise that it'd take longer than a few hours for the overdose to get rid of me; i was under the impression i could 'do it', go to sleep and never wake up. but when i woke up that following morning, i felt such crushing disappointment. well done, you couldn't even kill yourself properly, you fucking failure. after that, it was just one massive medical rigmarole.
i'm no longer on my medication, as you can tell, and haven't been for well over 8 months or so. i'm meant to stay on the anti-psychotics and anti-depressants for at least 2 years before they even think about reducing them, but i just jumped straight off. i didn't tell them, but when they found out, i'd already been off them for a good while and didn't feel too bad.
just recently though, i've seen things the way they are again. none of these silly distorted mixtures of good chances and sluggish motives the drugs induce, just plain sight. once i realised this about any future family i may be able to call my own, i almost broke down. it hit me hard, because my stupid brain didn't think that far ahead.
the man who enjoys inflicting pain and suffering upon others is not as evil as the man who does not enjoy inflicting pain and suffering upon others, and yet continues to do it. the man who enjoys it does it purely for his own amusement, the man who hates it does it purely to commit evil, even if he is also included in that suffering. that man is more dangerous than the former.
i used to be a farm labourer, but after all this, i was left jobless. and my job was one of the few things i was actually proud of. now i'm just another scrounger looking for work, and too stupid for college courses. that's thanks to the mental institution i was admitted to. i was released over 2 years ago, but back then i tried to explain that i needed to get out so i could keep my fucking job, but they threatened to section me, and that was my worst fear. so i had to give it up. it isn't fair. it isn't fucking fair how they could take that from me.
but anyway, i don't even know why i'm typing this. i don't know you, you don't know me. in the end, no one gives a shit.
- April 1, 2010 at 11:03 am(259) swati says:
Hello friends.. i hav gone through many obstacles in life.. i lost everybody whom i loved.. some left me physically and some left me mentally.. i lost parents. relatives.. friends. so as time went on, a fear started within myself tat i would lose each & every1 in life.. so i started being alone every minute.. but none came and consoled me in any situation. may be d world hates me.. tats d face value of mine.. i tried to fight through these obstacles and win. but d world didn't support me.. no where i got a chance to prove myself.. didn't wanna die n lose my self confidence.. but wats d use..?? world hates me.. even then i'm still alive.. so i'll fight til my last breath and prove myself.. hope u all atleast ll guide me..! i need some1 to share my pain..
- October 20, 2011 at 11:25 am(260) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
the world don`t hate you, it`s circunstances of your perspective, everyperson deserve to love and to be loved and you have to be thankful for life
life is not a game because there are no tropphies, i never ever have seen someone with a life winner merit so relax and try to accept that it is just a social comparison in your head that make you try to fight on a game that really don`t exist,
enjoy your time
take care
- April 3, 2010 at 12:54 pm(261) pradeep says:
was a good student. i used to be among toppers. but now i forgot most of the thing not be able to face my batchmates.. they all r doing well.. all r happy. i used to love myself so much. but now everything is changed i just hate my self.. sometimes i starts crying without any reason. now a days i m hurting myself. i dont know y i m doing all this. i m not be able to sleep also. sometimes i feel like running from home,, daily i serch for painless method of suicide.. i want to kill myself soon.. i hate myself. i m so alone. no one loves me. i wants someone just to chat inchatrooms but no one like ti even chat with me. i dont have any friends also.. they all r just superficial. they all laugh on me. i m ugly no one like me. there is no god .. nothing.. i also want to live a happy life but now its too much i cant stand against this much i m weak very weak. i know so many ways to die. i read so many pharmacology books but i m coward to kill myself i tried 3 times but fails to die. i m just lost.. if i will live then also just like a donkey i dont want that may be my next life will be better one i hope
- April 6, 2010 at 11:51 am(262) Dizmo says:
Hey 13andsad.
Sorry I haven't been online in such a long time. I guess I was just trying to find myself, I haven't got anywhere yet but there's still hope.
How did thing go with your dad?
You know you can email me anything, sorry if you have done and I've not received them. Look after yourself and don't forget I care about ya ((((hugs)))) xx
- April 9, 2010 at 1:30 pm(263) Person says:
Am I depressed? I dunno… according to this quiz I am. But honestly, if I am depressed do I really have a reason for it? I have a mother that loves me, a father that loves me but royally ****'s up often, three or four amazing friends who would do anything for me and I really don't have to do much.
So why can't I do those few things I need to? Why don't I like doing anything anymore? Why don't I feel… anything? Anything… is that even what I mean? That I feel nothing? I feel pain… I feel… well, I feel pain. Not emotional pain, even. Just the pain of a bite on my arm or a punch hitting my shoulder. I don't think I feel anything else, I don't even feel sad… just this dull pain in my chest that always seems to be there.
Life seems stupid to me. Then again, it always has. Nothings changed apart from how I look at things, I guess. I still smile when I must, I still hand out with my friends, I still laugh at all the right times… I just don't mean it anymore.
There are things I used to like that now seem unbearable and there are people I love that I simply can't stand to be around. I don't want them to see through me; If I love them they may be close enough to me to work it out… I don't want to worry them. I can make it… no, maybe that's wrong. Maybe I can't make it, but at least I can drag it out for long enough for someone to notice by themself…
I don't really want anyone to know how I feel… I don't need a hug box… I don't even want a comforting hug from my best friend. I'm not sad. I'm not sad but I'm certainly not happy. I'm just… here. Not contributing. Not having fun. Just existing despite the fact I'm hated by many.
Maybe I'm depressed… writing this out didn't help me figure it out.
- April 10, 2010 at 4:43 am(264) Dizmo says:
Hey 'Person' (comment 211).
Depression doesn't need a reason, one can just be depressed without there being any logical explanation. My depression started out like you described – I've got all the support and love from my family and friend but still my life started to spiral out of control. You need to seek some medical/psychological professional help before things get worse; chances are they will. Even with help it's not going to be easy to feel 'normal' again.
When I first felt low I told my doctor 'I'm not suicidal, I'd never make any attempt on my life, I just need some medication and/or counselling'; two weeks later I stuck a 4-5inch kitchen knife into my chest. Now tell me if that makes sense?
Look after yourself and try and get some help, who knows maybe in a couple of months time you will be able to laugh without pretending.
- April 13, 2010 at 12:38 am(265) growing tired says:
i am a hopeless person. ive been hiding my depression since i was ten, and nothing good has come out of it. i have been face to face with death and have witnessed it take the lives of innocent children around me. my own spine tried to split my spinal cord and kill me over the coarse of a year. it is a genetic diease and i am literally the first and only case in recorded medical history. they still don't know shit about it and it may come back at anytime. all my friends abandoned me . i gave up the will to live. but even after all that it could have been worse. i could have died, or have suffer worse fates. so why do i still catch myself saying my life sucks? i will never fogive myself for thinking that way. everyone has there reasons for deppression, but we should never give in to it. i often think of ending everything, but i can't do it. what do i have to look forward to? i can't have kids, that whould spread my diease; i will never allow that. my diease could kill me at anytime .ive been fighting it for 8 years, but im not sure why or how much longer i can last.
- April 13, 2010 at 2:09 am(266) Leo says:
If depression was taxible it would support our total defficit. Plain truth is your on your own, nobody cares unless you have money and even they would be depreesed if nobody was depressed and they had no income. I really thought there where more supporting people but at the end they seam to find a temporary cure of their on vaccine = money.
Be happy and offer that happines at no charge because ultimatley giving hope has no price.
Join me if you dare, first call.
- April 13, 2010 at 3:45 am(267) Dizmo says:
Leo: Some people really do care but I have to agree a lot of the support is money orientated – unless you use the NHS (which takes about 6 months) and even then us working folk are paying that in taxes. *Mumbles to self*
- May 4, 2011 at 10:08 pm(268) baldvin says:
hey dizmo, you seem awesome I really need ur help
- April 13, 2010 at 11:08 pm(269) tired of everything says:
9 out of 10…. So what does that mean to me? I have felt that way for 8 out of the 18 years I've been alive; So depression has become normal for me. I've hid the drepression for so long, I convinced everyone im just the shy-quite type. I realize that you may not care, but i just need to vent to save what little sainity i have left. Reasons i shouldn't be depressed:….. I have a good home and a loving, decent family. I am alive and not terminal, or paralzed, missing limbs or senses. i still believe in God.
Reasons why I am depressed: I am literally the first person in recorded medical history to have arthritis to form a "mass" in between the 2nd and 3rd vertibray, which caused my spine to twist almost impaled my spinal cord; which would have paralzied then killed me. (took C.H.O.P a year to figure out; saved me, but they still don't know much about it.)
I was ten at that time so i lost my childhood, innocence, the activities i loved(all Physical conctact sports), all of my friends (still have none), i was shuned, feared, ridiculed, by my peers and strangers. i watched as children who were worse off then me suffered and died in the hospital. i lost most my sainty as a result.
i hate myself because i am wasting my life when those children didn't get to live. but what is keeping me here? i will never have kids, because the genetic diease would spread, i hate my life. i most likley going to hell, why not just get it over with an kill myself? i've tired but i just can't do it. i can't afford a psych, or meds. what should i do? thanks for reading my bitchfest.
- May 6, 2011 at 5:32 am(270) *Thndrstrm* says:
Hey, I read what you wrote, and I think you're a strong person to go through those things. You are worth the same as anyone else, please call a suicide helpline since you are feeling that way. You have to realize, you have a lot of potential in your life, focus on what you can do rather than what you may not be able to do. Perhaps you can use people's negative behaviour to 'weed out' the rotten people that are not worth your time. Every single person has limits on what they are able to do, you may not be able to have kids, but there are millions of children in need of adoption. There has been a lot of people that I have come across that do not possess your thoughtfulness or strength. Of course you deserve to live, if there are evil people that are living on this earth, then certaintly the good people should live too. Since you believe in God and you have values you will not go to hell, but suicide is a major sin so don't do it. Until you can afford therapy, try to focus on what you want to do (career), and find something that you enjoy doing (painting, reading, listening to music, etc.). Maybe you could try a support group regarding your experiences?
- April 14, 2010 at 9:10 pm(271) Samantha....or not says:
You know…I've been depressedfora long while but I nevver wanted to believe it until recently….im only14years old which means i stil have a whole life ahead of me….Alll my child hood frends moved away last year ALL EXCEPT one….and now i realized that shes backstabbed me my whole life….plus my parents would just laugh if i ever told them about my depression…i never thought of killing my self and i probably wouldnt but im still VERY depressed. At school, i guess i could say i have good friends but i always feel left out and lonely….plus my ex decided to dump mecuz "i wasnt on his level" dats his prblem enyways….and my grades are going DOWN….the dance school i've gone tosince i was 4 is going down too….andddd im not even CLOSE to done i can go on and on if i wanted….im a loser, always have been…only nerds like me…which is weird and everyone talks about these guys liking them and how they're so kool and stuff.and im like yeah….watever…but u know wat?? im gonna have todealwith it…even if dat means crying myself to sleepeery night…i hide my depression throug humor…im always there tocheer someone up..but i cant cheer myselfup…im the class clown….wow…*sarcastic* enyways BYE
- April 15, 2010 at 6:59 am(272) Rachel says:
i'm fifteen, and actually want out! i just want to be rid of everything and anything. some people would say i have a good life, a step dad, who loves me as much as his own daughter and a mother who is exactly like me, which makes us clash. the only reason why i seem to hate life, is because i'm just so negative its unbelievable! i don't even realise i'm being negative now. as me and my mum are so similar, basically we shouldn't be under the same roof, because we just can't live with each other. ian (my step dad) is probably the best thing that has happened, but even still, i sometimes say aw i hate you! get out of my life! your not even my dad! thats the only thing that scares me. i have this evil mind inside of me, which just seems to burst open when theres a gap! i usually think of these cruel things to say, but sometimesi can control it and think better. this shouldn't be classed as depression, but then theres the darker side of me, who thinks of ways to kill me, like take a few pills, hang myself, jump out my window, get hit with a car, but i just don't have the guts to do anything of them! i just wish i could, i usually say why can't i have the guts to do something that will just end everything? even in twilight, ; death is easy, peaceful .. life, is much harder. i guess this is probably aload of rubbish to sit and write, but it feels good to get it out on the open, i just wish i could confront my parents and tell them i just feel like life ain't worth living.
- April 22, 2010 at 3:40 pm(273) gaurav says:
hey…. thanx but it doesn,t work out….. ok ok ok tell me if person knows d reason, why he/she s depressed…… den wat??????
- April 26, 2010 at 4:25 pm(274) isthereapoint says:
i dont understand what that test was supposed to achieve i finished it and have the same problems as when i started i honostly think im gunna be stuck like this forever what a f******g nightmare!!
- April 26, 2010 at 4:35 pm(275) DWB18 says:
hey guys i just read some of your problems i no that mine are nothing compared to yours :O but i still did read a simmilar one to mine the thing that makes me depressed is the way i see mysself n the way other people see me i feel guilty nearly all the time n its not like i dont want to live its more like i dont deserve to live if you no what i mean……if anyone has had this problem i would love to no if you managed to get through it n if you could help? in the mean ttime i suppose ill just have push on and hope one day ill wake up n feel like a new person
- April 27, 2010 at 7:27 pm(276) alexisXxX says:
I am only 13, i cry everyday. I once cut myself. I have anxiety attacks. and noone understands. I hate everything.:<<
- May 1, 2010 at 5:06 am(277) lol says:
i know i am fortunate in a lot of ways. but I am just so worried bout my future… I am not smart, I am not good at people. I am not good at anything. life is unfair.
when i say every where ppl are smarter than me. it just sucks.
- May 2, 2010 at 12:03 pm(278) pradeep says:
i m too weak….. i m too ugly.. my love left me one and half year back i m still waiting for u to come back in my life……….. i m hurting my self now a days…. i want to die because she will not come back i know…. she was rude,,, oh plz . i hope next life will be better one.. i want to die.
- May 6, 2010 at 5:51 pm(279) emo95luv...less says:
of course im depressed i ddt need a test to no that. my mom made me take this quiz. shes like ur 13, depressed, and cutting your self i hav a quiz foru. shes like y r u depressed an i said NATHAN DUMPED ME WOMAN!!!!! god he says he loves me then dumpz me and that was 1 yr ago an iv dated othr ppl but i hav been depressed no mattr wat
- May 7, 2010 at 4:45 pm(280) lola 22 says:
Im depressed most of the time. I am grateful for all that i have and count my blessings each day. So therefor i should be happy with what i have.
But depression is just so much more then that, when u constantly think of suicide. Of loosing a loved one and not being able to deal with it, ending up in suicidal thoughts.
Im really trying to be positive, reading self help books, repeating positive phrases in my mind. But its just not working. My mind is my worse enemy, it puts me down so much..
Is there anybody that had depression and is know cured of it and is actually really happy with themselves.
- May 9, 2010 at 12:59 am(281) Myles says:
Wow, I started reading these and I started crying. All of you guys, especially the younger ones, get some help!! It's out there!! Go see a psychiatrist, he can help, at least a little. I have clinical depression, at least I think that's what they call it and he's been helping. Yeah I still have my relapses like tonight, but overall I'm better. Also, you have to talk to someone like a counselor. You guys are in the middle of this shit and can't see out. You need someone who is on the outside and can see things from a totally neutral point of view. Your just a kid and don't know how to go about seeing a psychiatrist and your parents won't help you, it's easy, dial 911 and tell them your sick of living. It's not a lie,, is it?? Listen,, I've been there, if it wasn't for my kids I'd be dead right now. That's how bad it was before I went and got on some meds. Better living thru chemicals, well it's true. If you weren't crying out you wouldn't have posted on this site. I'm sorry but for most of you nobody is going to hold your hand, it's up to you to get this under control. Life can be better, I am proof. But it takes effort even when all you want to do is drink, or sleep, or eat, or hurt yourself, or whatever is your form of self torture or should I say self pleasure. Yeah, as I wrote this I started getting pissed off. I f^%cken hate depression and what is does to people and what is has done to me in the past and still at times. I'm going to bed, in the morning I'll take my Lamictal and God willing have a good day.
- May 11, 2010 at 11:25 pm(282) Unknown says:
nothings ever right. My family had major problems and they pretend as if I don't exist. I honestly was in love and he broke up with me my ex best friend. Everything is wrong, my grades are all failing now but why should I care. I don't know what's going on but I've missed tons of schoo cus I just don't wanna go . I cry always. I think about killing myself but I'm a woos am too scared. I care things like I love you inoto me though. Everyone misses the old me and fir my family they don't care I don't no what to do
- May 15, 2010 at 6:06 am(283) emily says:
can someone help me?
im in 9th grade, i think im depressed.
im not fat or skinny, middle type.
i get bullied almost everyday, for no reason.
mostly by 2 boys& 1 girl, one of the boys even pushed me down the stairs, now everyone rips me off about it, people call me names, i feel hopeless, and i actually have though about killing myself and doing selfharm, i need adice, please help.
- May 18, 2010 at 6:08 pm(284) Jordan Karaffa says:
Why cant i just be happy for once, my friends try to cheer me up,but it doesnt work my grades are dropping my parents are yelling i think its love theres a boy named gaige stewart i really like him, but my friends think hes a player or a womanizer, for my opinion i dont think its true but i also dont think he wanna date me well bye.
- May 19, 2010 at 1:37 am(285) Idunnno says:
I think of death every day, inventing different ways I could die etc etc. I don't want to kill myself though this theme is entertained in my mind sometimes. I feel sad and withdrawn from the world around me. I have been taking illegal drugs a lot for the last couple of years, but after I started wondering if I have depression. The drugs don't dull me to reality, they make me feel. I am hollow otherwise and nothing seems important enough to do. I don't want to get help because this means that I am "broken", and as much as people say being depressed is not weak, socially it is the case and no political correctness will fix that. I don't want to be seen as a loser. I just want to be happy. I need to be happy.
- May 28, 2010 at 2:03 pm(286) fml. says:
I answered 7 out of 10 questions "yes"
Im only 12.
- May 29, 2010 at 7:26 pm(287) needhappyfeelings says:
i want to feel happy and loved.
last year has had to many downs, the 2 weeks were terrible.
i want the good times back, i dont want to grow up, i just want to feel happy and loved/
- May 31, 2010 at 3:09 am(288) Cloak of lies says:
I'm 13 and suffer from severe depression, but no one knows. I can't tell anyone, but people ask am I alright, I have to lie. That is my life now, a cloak of lies. I hate myself and have thought of suicide frequently, but there is never any chance, there is not even a chance to cut myself. I am close to tears every second, but I don't know why. Everything on the outside is falling together, but on the inside I am completely shattered. I need help, I know it, but Who? Where? HOW?
I just can't stop the tears from running down my face sometimes.
- June 1, 2010 at 6:43 pm(289) :( says:
i am 13 and depressed i need to talk to someone, but i don't know who i just want to talk to someone even if it is someone i met online i don't want people to know im depressed. I used to act depressed all the time, but all my friends just started leaving me alone not helping and going and hanging out with people that are fun, so i changed my personality even though it bothers me just so my friends would like me more. i guess they like me more which is good, but every morning i get up and i know that i have to put a fake smile on my face so people like me and so i actually have friends and so i dont have to be alone. its so painful between choosing having no friends or acting like the funny guy when your so depressed and for the girl that said let god and jesus in to your life some of us dont believe in god and think it is complete nonsense. i was born a christian i was depressed at the beginning of seventh till now i asked god for help every night for a long time but i never got help i stopped believing in him a few months ago i guess i just needed to vent my feelings and i feel better but i still would rather talk to a real person…. but theres no one i trust enough
- June 6, 2010 at 2:05 pm(290) psycho says:
I agree with you. Same here. I am 14. I put always a fake smile and pretend that everything is okay. And once I asked a teacher from science to analyse my personality trough the drawing she told me to do(she finished school for psychology but is a scince teacher). When she finished reading, she told me how my wife will be and my children bla bla… and then she finsihed, and I knew there was more. So, I kept asking her. She didn't want to tell me, but in the end she told me, that I think about everything dark I don't open myself to the people and I think no one likes me. And she was completly true. Some of my friends ask me whats wrong, but I always tell them nothing. I go to the school already 5 years and almost no one knows anything about me casue I don't want aynone to do that. She also said that I am anti-social, I can't find friends easily, but I talk with the ones I have. She said that I am anti-social becuase I am scared to reveal part of me casue someone will hurt me badly.
- June 6, 2010 at 6:32 pm(291) ben says:
that was no help at all
- June 14, 2010 at 11:41 am(292) whatever says:
All you people saying oh great this helped alot not etc are dumb its not intended to cure your depression its intended to make you realize you need to see a doctor.
- June 15, 2010 at 11:23 pm(293) Ragan says:
Ughhh.. Ok Whatever This didnt help shit iHate my dad my moms ok iGues me & my boyfriend have been fighting so much an iThink im pregnant & plus im 14 how great! idk what ta do all iDo is listen to music an never get outta tha house & iLose soo much sleep every night up worrying fuck life who needs pain right yea wtfff
- June 17, 2010 at 7:59 am(294) PrettyBlackBow says:
I dont kno wht to do…I cant stop the tears sumtimes they just fall….i put a fake smile for everyone and no one suspects but…i dont kno if i can keep doin it for much longer…I hav to keep hiding the cuts and the tears…..i need help…FML v.v
- June 24, 2010 at 3:28 pm(295) tweety says:
hi, what should i do. i dont now. when no one is urs. no one is intrested in u. no one wants to hear abt u.then what to do? actually i feel im helpless i cant tell my problem anyone. i can weep only really.and now im crying
- July 7, 2010 at 7:33 pm(296) MA says:
I tried to kill my self many times but am always saved to suffer a new day, am always alone no one thinks about me am just living to suffer !!
- July 9, 2010 at 11:27 am(297) lauren says:
tweety – some people do care , even at a distance and even if they dont know you, sometimes they care. i wish you well. i hope things get better for you. x
- July 9, 2010 at 7:37 pm(298) Rob H says:
l'm 40 now, yes l'm an old fart compared to most of you who have posted here. l still suffer periodic depression but l'm perfectly okay with that now. l felt so bad when l was young, crap family, alchoholic parent, beatings, unable to socialise, too aware, too smart. l even tried suicide, fast(tablets) and slow (drugs, alcohol, stupidity, ).
But l got through it (yeah yeah, never start a sentence with 'but'), it's something that took me a while to realise, you can't have the 'highs' without the lows, and no, l'm not bipolar l'm just periodically depressed. There are times l can't cope with talking to people or socialising, l can't answer the phone or even open letters, but when l come out of it, and l do, then l can push myself to great stuff, l've travelled to india on a motorbike, worked as a stonemason in portugal, done a bunch of parachute jumps, now l'm building a trike which l'm going to drive to ltaly. l feel that the 'lows' are necessary, they're not great, but they push me on to the 'highs'. lt's taken me a while to get my shit sorted, but l'm okay with that now. l sincerely hope at least some of you will get to where l'm at now.
lf l could use a magic wand to remove all the grief, l wouldn't use it now, lt would deny who l am now, l have done amazing things and will do more, you take my depression from me and l would only have ever been normal, screw that (excuse my french ). As a blacksmith, the best quote l can give you is that 'the best steels go through the fire'.
- July 10, 2010 at 10:48 pm(299) me says:
- July 12, 2010 at 7:00 am(300) super tired says:
okay well atleast some of you can feel sad, sometimes i get so depressed its like i'm hallow. Really you just have to deal with it, life sucks ass a lot but what can we do? Honestly there is no cure for it just to be emotionally strong, and you have to pull yourself out sometimes. Like i will get really depressed for nothing and it just keeps getting worse and i think to myself i know people love me and care for me…i love myself and have good friends and a good life. But that doesn't matter, its a chemical embalance. Actually i think sometimes depression is good for you, because joy wouldn't feel so good without pain right. I would never kill myself but i think about i a lot….i just wish i was never born most of the time. And ontop of that i have social anxiety and bipolar disorder so yah you arn't the only one with issues. Just try to suck it up a little and try to start on a project or something…or smoke some weed that will probably make you feel better. Please nobody kill yourself, you know times will get better, and i know when im in one of my spells that nothing and nobody can say shit to help me i dont even want help i just want to lay down in the corner and die but i dont…….i fuckin deal with my insaity you should to!!
- July 13, 2010 at 2:58 pm(301) nightworld says:
13 cuts for 13 years
ice in me my soul
there's warmth in ice; theres cooling peace in fire
and midnight light to show us all the way
the dancing flame becomes a funeral pyre
the dark was more enticing than the day
- July 14, 2010 at 9:39 pm(302) whatever. says:
that helped so effing much. not. i'm 13 yrs old and i have people who love me yet i am depressed and i cut. i dont know what i should do. i want myself dead. i think people would be happier without me.
- July 15, 2010 at 9:01 pm(303) Filante says:
I feel worthless all the time, I am married but my hubby and I are separated since beginning of the year, have children and am a full time mother and also work outside the home, but I have no life, I feel so worthless all the time, I have no friends, only my children. Mylife consists of work and home and is so depressing, I keep a smile on my face and people tell me how pretty I am and how lucky I am to have my wonderful children but I don 't feel lucky, I always feel sad and have felt sad for years, don't really remember the last time I was happy and felt complete. I love my childen but I always feel like something is missing. I would never contemplate suicide, but I just want to be happy, to feel normal, to have a life, to be loved. I don't want my children to wind up like me. I have been in bed for the past three days, no food, just dosing off and on, I used to be very active and athletic and am now getting out of shape and scared for my health.
- July 16, 2010 at 5:39 am(304) jezzie 365 says:
hi ma name is jess and like i am realy depressed coz like i only found out i had a different dad like a few months ago so like ma mom lied 2 me 4 13 yrs so like it really upset me nd like ma dad sed he didnt wanna know me and like it is really annoying and i get bullied spppp thnx 4 makeing this website it really helps xxxxxxxx luv eveyone xxxxx
- August 2, 2010 at 10:02 am(305) mski says:
Shawn. That was a good post. Thanks!
- August 16, 2010 at 6:23 pm(306) Bonny says:
I'm depressed, I'm in my 40′s. I've been through the younger phases, I have to ask those of you who are considering suicide to please, please, please, stop and consider the people who love you! My sons best friend took his own life at the age of 19, the pain his family and friends have been through is horrible and I know that if he had actually thought about what it would do to his little sisters, his older brother, the niece that was to born soon, not to mention his friends, he never would have done it. He wouldn't have wanted to hurt all those people. Please think about the people who love you!
- August 22, 2010 at 1:03 am(307) blue says:
life sucks
- September 3, 2010 at 12:31 pm(308) babu says:
ia very depressed because iam job less…………………..
- September 7, 2010 at 11:52 pm(309) why me says:
i suck at life im always nervous and shy in front uf gurls im quiet cus im worried of wat people think about me sometimes i try to be something im not jus to fit in im so lonely becasue of my negativity i smoke weed and it helps a lil im always so down that i wish i was neva born i blame other people for putting me thru this hell i put on a big front like im such a cool guy but at the end of the day wen im by myself i cant help but cry cus the missery kills to much the gurl im in love wit is leavin and im scared she will fall in love with a nother guy casue i havnt been able to show her the love ive been dying to do cus i jus couldnt figure out a way to 2007 i had friends we party we had fun i was the fun uf the crowd until we all went our seperate ways i dont even know who i am anymore? my close friend acts like the way i use to be and wen i first met him he wasnt like dat at all my mom left me i grew up wit my grand mother who was very strict i was gettin in trouble alot and i liked it,it was a gud fealing wen people were upset wit me ive been in and out uf lock up since 08 im out thinkin that lock up was the reason to my hell i jus wanna love someone im scared to meet new people and i avoid alot of important things i jus cant handle it i know deep down inside is the happy little me that i knew i dont feel loved anymore and wen i have money or i feel like people are just using me im so paranoid and i worry way to much about everything i was sucidal wen i was young becasue my mom left i was sent to a hospital i was so hurt i couldnt believe this is wat they called treatment away frum the ones i loved at a young age the gurl i love is leavin tomorow and ive been cryin my ass off becuss the more and more i think about our two year relation ship that was on and off,, and ive neva loved her this much and she is leavin im so helpless ive tried everything i should jus over dose on pills but im too curious uf my future to do so any advice
- September 8, 2010 at 5:58 pm(310) lifes cruel says:
i just dont see the point in it. i smoke i drink i sleep around an im 13 but i dont feel it
im hollow
ive got nothing to give this world
so why am i here?
whats the point if the only thing i can feel is when i cut?
it distracts from the numbness
yet sometimes i have to curl up in a ball to stop myself falling apart
why me? please help
- September 8, 2010 at 6:49 pm(311) why me says:
dam lifes cruel i wish i can give you a hug ryte now
- September 14, 2010 at 3:59 pm(312) Laya says:
Life sucks and then you die
- September 18, 2010 at 5:38 pm(313) pieface says:
I think this test helped me to be perfectly honest. I hadconsidered seeing a doctor over it, but worried that it would be a waste of my time and say "your just sad". However after many sleepless nights and reaching for the knofe and painkillers more than just a few times i thought "i shouldnt be feeling like this, surely". Knowing that i am most probably depressed after this test has made me actually tell my parents… yes i feel proper guilty for it but am now seeing a councellor and my doctor. I still have thoughts of ending it all, but at least now i know its because my brain chemicals are buggared up as opposed to being me personally.
- September 27, 2010 at 8:40 am(314) some1 no1 cares about says:
just thought id say my stuff yeah i know every1 has something to say about this right ? the truth is im an ugly person with thin frizzy scarecrow hair bad teeth an unatractive body shape rubbish grades no friends and no life i want to live i drag though everyday crying and looking miserable feeling pissed shouting and screaming at my whole life nobody cares about me im just a noone you know i try to be the best i can be to everyone i am friendly and polite and helpful yet i get bitched about laughed at or ignored or joked about why ? what the hell did i do to them and my grades are lower then my heart in the ground and all my parents do to me is constant nagging and moaing and shouting i cut my wrists and arms i wantto die but i want it to be painless can someone please help me ? please ?
- September 29, 2010 at 4:36 am(315) Fat girl says:
I think that i am depressed. I used to be a really happy person and i thought my life was pretty goood but now days when i look in the mirror i look shit and my grades have gone right down and nobody wants to talk to me. I'll go out of my way to be nice but then they all laugh at me and call me a fat loser to my face.
And ven though i'm really sad i always pretend that i am hapy and i always act like a clown sort of so maybe that's why they all hate me. they all bitch about me behind my back and never invite me anywhere.
I have been gaining weight. In Grade 7 i was size 12, i'm now in year nine and i am a size 16 bordering on an 18. Everyone tells me to lose weight and even the teachers bitch about me. Last night i was going to slit my wrists in the bath, like commit suicide but i chickened out at the last moment. I am always crying ani hate myself and everyone else. Even my parents hate me.
So Bye
- October 9, 2010 at 1:26 pm(316) dfatty says:
Oh, wow. That was sooooo helpful. Thanks a lot.
- October 11, 2010 at 6:52 am(317) Kosta says:
Well for one I can't be giving out advice and it is hard…just now I am at a real real real low…what have I got to show after 44 years of living …hmmm…redundancies so many times…but I do my best to pick myself up….I am married and two kids…..to be honest I'll give up everything for them…however when it comes to my happiness it feels no one cares and i'm alone to deal with it ….do you know the feeling….sometimes it don't feel real and been dealt a horrible blow….yeah I think life was probably for us to enjoy…but with so many restrictions the laws of the lands dish out it's hard to be happy and have freedom to express onself freely without fear of recriminations…..feels kind of cruel to bring kids in the world for them to go through the same vicious and even harder grind… right now its money and jobs they are so scarce what is the difference between now and days of slavery….I can't see myself free as am always a slave to something…and having the time to think about it makes it much harder…..but me for now can't say I am happy with outcome of what I have now…..hmmm….dark moments for me right now….I guess whatever positive thing or thought one has cling onto that so one can build on it so in time the good outweighs the bad and the good should end up being the more prevalent feeling….saying it and doing it is of course a different thing…feeling despondent also…perhaps one needs to break the future into sections which are manageable….step by step….one small good thing leads to another……. seek out the good in oneself or others initially it's weird but could help…there is so much hurt in the world may be worth while to see some good and should be refresing….sometimes I write just thoughts then eventually my feeling changes so for example right now I have given myself a little more chance to see the day through…so when I get involved with that the negative becomes less important and part of my day routine.:)
- October 19, 2010 at 6:53 am(318) 13andsad says:
hey it's me again. i told my mum it was hard but i did it. im 14 now so i should be 14 and sad. but something else has gone wronge. i started cutting myself mainly my legs, considering my phobia of blood i find it okay if i breath throught my mouth and its in a controlled way that i'm bleeding this is quite bad i know but its okay i never cut tooo bad. im an aunty now ive got a neice and a nephew and anohter on the way i wont see my nephew or the other baby which makes me sad but my neice makes me happy i go to souncelling now its horrible they just wanna know about why im like this if i knew i wouldnt need a councellor would i? well i dont know anymore byee, 14andsad offski x
- October 19, 2010 at 6:16 pm(319) Triniti says:
Depression is no light thing. A person who recognises they need to talk is actually showin strength.
Its a knowing that the person wants to feel better about themselves. That they are making an important decision for their lives to find out what is going on inside the emotions and their thought patters, which is also affecting their relationships and their physical body.
Being 'positive' is one thing…finding out the persons 'internal scriptings' and assisting them making a new 'mental and emotional re-script' in order to harmonise a sound relationship with themselves and also the world at large.
Most of the time, young people just need someone to talk to as they feel inside that the adjustment from teenage going to the outside world is a big adjustment.
But it need not be, especially if the personal concerned have had negating experiences up until young adulthood.
Young people are gifted souls and they need assurances, love, a strategic guideline for success and above all else, confidence instilled inside themselves.
Hope my contribution is a gift to your soul.
Blessings to your soul,
- October 21, 2010 at 1:37 pm(320) 14andsad says:
bad day today the one for me was feeling me up but then another gil walked thru the doors he went over to her an kissed her theyre a couple, i didnt know. my sister just saw this an now wants to know why im on here, she doesnt understand even tho she suffers from depresion herslef i dont know what to do anymore is it really worht it? really?
- October 27, 2010 at 5:30 am(321) 12&depressed says:
Well i have ADHD so now my best frend hates me cos i did sum stuff the wer actions from adhd ihate my life most my frends treat me like shit my mum an sister treat me like shit im fat,and only 1 of my frends nos wat it feels like to have depression hetold me sum ways to help me not feel depressed i tried them and they didnt work im fuked up my likfes fuked up y god y? i just dont know wat 2do should i take my life or shud i trie hopleesley to feel better all i can think about is suicide,i mean im 12 and thinking of suicide i have issues with me that my "frends" make perfectley clear…….
- October 29, 2010 at 8:20 am(322) supposed to be fucking normal and is NOT a fuckin emo says:
yay the lady says im depressed… how did i think this was ever gonna help me
"Hey friends who constantly abandon me, Im possibly depressed! Who knows, maybe its all your fault!!! whey-heeey!!!"
but nope its my fault isnt it cas im a moody selfabsorbed fat ugly bitch.
- October 29, 2010 at 1:32 pm(323) depressed for no reason says:
Is it bad the only reason i dont commit suicide is for other people? i couldnt put my mom through that much pain, mostly, but a few others also that i couldnt do that too. I need to start living for myself. I really do have a great life, amazing family, good paying job for my age, im attractive, a beautiful girl that im in love with and just might love me back, and alot of good friends. What the fuk do i have to be sad about? Nothing, but everyday just sucks, i feel empty, hallow, useless, unloved and just pointless in general. I think im too smart for own good, needing to find meaning in everything in life when so many things have no answer or meaning, they just happen. I just feel hopeless in everything, that girl dosent love me, no one does other then those forced too. Sure my mom and dad love me but their my fucking parents, i just want to be loved i guess. Ive never felt really important to anyone, just kinda always in the background or a second choice. I want someone to truely miss me, without being forced. I want to be happy again, i was once, it was awesome, but that was a loong long time ago.
Happyness should NOT be a goal in life.
- October 21, 2011 at 5:28 pm(324) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
agree with you, happiness should be part of life like breath and you don`t have to think about to do it, love and happy should not be a goal, they should be something to assist the direction of one`s self
- October 29, 2010 at 6:46 pm(325) 14andsad says:
12&depressed, ive been suffering from depression since i ws about your age, its not good especially with adhd not that i know really but it cant help, and suicide. why give them the satisfaction of knowing what they did to you. and ive tried it it doesnt always work believe me i hope you read this and maybe my earlier entries as 13andsad ive been posting on here for a little over a year i hope that you dont do anything stupid or hurt yourself, the world is sad enough as it is. me? i dealt with this on my own for 2years but you really dont have to i promise, if you read this i want you to add me on msn its Lil Miss C-J @ hotmail co uk i hope you can figure that out a they might block it i just wrote in my diary for 2years but i told my mum this year it was so hard and it hurt so much but now i do something else and i advise against it but i cut myself on my legs never the wrists its too obvious not that im suggesting you do that i just really hope you read this and i hope it makes you feel better knowing your not alone and there are people willing to help, even if they are virtual strangers off the internet (:
- November 6, 2010 at 5:29 pm(326) lifes cruel says:
is there anypoint?
my life that i despise i tried to end it
45 co-codamol and 14 cuts on each wrist
she found me and as i drifted between the world of dead and alive
berating me as i lay on deaths door
as she had in life
back in school now
i still sleep around no one asks why i wasnt in school for a month
no one asks about the scars
now i am hollow devoid of any of myself
the blood in my veins is someone elses
the thoughts ni my head belong to a different voice
to someone who dide a long time ago
a little girl called tilly
- November 12, 2010 at 8:31 am(327) a cutter says:
hi, im 15 years old all i can ever think about is having a blade in my hand and cutting down with hate slowly and deliberately making it hurt as much as possible and at the moment i am planning to end my life. i havent bothered to count how many cuts i have on me as they are everywhere over my shoulders all down both arms wrists down my legs across my sides and ribs and on the parts of my back I can reach. I come straight home from school and pick up my sharpener blade or a knife whichever I can get to first words cannot describe the emotional pain I feel it is meaningless to just write it down because nobody cares and why should they ? im just another cutter and one more cutter or less doesnt make any difference. All I think about is cutting and my death if I do not reply in 2 days on this site you will know I have killed myself.
- November 12, 2010 at 5:35 pm(328) 14andsad says:
i care i dont know you but i do know where you are, i know those feelings the choking the sobs the pain its crucifying it brings you to tears makes you weak at the knees, but suicide isnt the answer it nakes the world a sadder place to be in please i hope you write back
- November 16, 2010 at 3:02 am(329) garbage says:
I scored 10/10 no surprise, I've had this for 6 years and still going, with no drugs either. All through out high school and middle school I had no friends, and have still made it through, lots of you have friends so just talk to them, you can make it through, even I have, and I have no one at all to turn to. You guys have to get medical help even if it's emberrasing, you don't want to go for years with depression, you feel nothing but anger, sadness, desperation, anxiety, and eventually you just feel empty inside, so get help even if you think you can't.
- November 17, 2010 at 1:10 am(330) XxmexX says:
I have been depressed my whole life and now I am at the end… All I want to do is sit and cut and to my dismay, I can't… I can't hurt my boyfriend… If it weren't for him I wouldn't even be here… I don't know why but sometimes I wish I was single so I had the guts to kill myself and get it over with… its an awful thing to say… :'( I just wish someone knew how I was feeling :'(
- November 26, 2010 at 3:13 pm(331) Omar Dibs says:
im really depressed my friends are depressed like me and we cant live normally,i have been bullied every day in high school,my parents are an idiots i am an alcoholic,im now in college,im failing every course horribly,everyone told me that when u are in college you will be happy but im notmno one talks to me,im lonely,i just listen to metal music like black metal and doom metal,and i became the most hater of god,i tried to take a therapy,but nothing worked,i had never had a girlfriend,i had never talked to a girl,i got no self esteem,im nobody,and im so lonely,someone help me!
- October 21, 2011 at 5:35 pm(332) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
try to use your hate as a catarsis for a creative process, play guitar and sings loudly, or try some martial arts, hitchhike also helps one`s to diverse the hate, meditate and try to find a innervoice that says to you how much life is valuable, life is good
- December 4, 2010 at 10:21 pm(333) linda says:
why am i so sad. Why cany i eat. I feelhorrible
- December 5, 2010 at 12:23 am(334) unworthy says:
To all the people out there suffering through depression, suicidal thoughts, self-injury(cutting, etc.), and what ever problems life may be throwing at you.
You are all beautiful and wonderful people, you just need to be able to see that better side of you.
Ask other people, people you trust and who can help you, talk to them, about yourself and what you are going through.
Remember you are loved and there is always someone you can go to to ask and to talk to.
- December 6, 2010 at 8:44 pm(335) emo mc slicemaiself says:
omg……. mai life is soooo bad…. damn those kids in africa have it good.
- December 7, 2010 at 3:55 am(336) Aches says:
Yeah, i'm depressed, nothing goes right, i have no friends. No job, there are no "ups and downs" for me, just downs. while everyone els is going up. I hate people, because people are selfish, violent, and primative. and i have a head ache, i have a head ache because im thinking to much. i wish some illness would just strike me down where i stand. i know im going to end up killing myself, its just a matter of "When" not "if"
want to know anouther thing that pisses me off? just because people like us are depressed. other people think that gives them the right to call us emo. Emo is just a word, something used to insult anouther, or used to describe ones emotional state.
- December 10, 2010 at 12:37 am(337) Rabika says:
I am very depressed and moped. Anything I do on career or personal, last minute it fails. I have been experiencing same from almost last 7yrs and now it sucks.
I want to end my life, only this can take away my griefs.
why few people are so lucky , they get everything with ease and on TIME…
I HATE I HATE MY LIFE AND luck!
- December 10, 2010 at 3:19 pm(338) victim says:
wonder how you all of you would feel if your husband had an affair & fathered a child, same time he did the same to you.
I have tried for 8 years to get on with life; I doesn't work.
- December 27, 2010 at 12:05 am(339) Jade says:
feh, how can u not be depressed theese days. with the shitty economy, everyone dying of cancer and life being SO DAMN HARD. i miss the days when i was little and the world seemed to be perfect to me, BOY was i wrong! Life may be great for a few percantage of people but literally sucks for almost everyone. Oh, well i just gotta move on and head back into my secret closet where i sit and cry.
-From a depressed 12 year old (lol im not kidding)
- December 30, 2010 at 5:26 am(340) life sucks says:
well, i spend pretty much everyday all day on the internet. heres some things i cant stand about myself, i have NO f**king friends, i feel humiliated all the time for no reason, people are so insesitive to me all the time, people make fun of me right infront of my face, no one has a clue what im going through and i feel like killing myself all of the time. at school, im the only one who sits alone in the f**king cafeteria. i hate most people because they never take me seriously when i tell them how i feel. IM COMPLETLY INSANE.
- December 30, 2010 at 5:36 am(341) life sucks says:
i dont like looking in the mirror. my brother who was close to me stopped talking to me. i dont have s*it to do on a daily bases. i get bad grades. i dont get anything i want. every single "friend" i've made either stopped talking to me, ignores me, or just moves away. even the person who i THOUGHT was going to be my best friend forever moved away and i called her sometimes and everytime she told me she would call me back but never did (Bitch)… our conversation we had over was basically her telling me how she made sooo many new friends at her school and how much fun shes having.
- December 30, 2010 at 5:38 am(342) life sucks says:
i get picked on by everybody in school. my teachers dont do s*it about it. H*ll, i could go on forever!!! everybody seems to be turning on me these days. i cry and feel sad everyday of my life. i have nothing to look forward to but more sadness that never goes away. my parents just dont hug me or tell me they love me like i wish they would. even when i told them to please start doing that, they didnt! im like completly tramatized from facing bullies my entire life and telling me that i have to be tough and deal with it didnt help worth s*it.
- December 30, 2010 at 5:39 am(343) life sucks says:
the only thing it did was cause me to lose my mind, drawing even more people away from me. i just dont understand… when people look at me, what do they see thats so different than they would see in anyone else? i had a mental break down and slit my wrist, my parents were insitive about that and told me i was f*cking craz!!!!! i hade to stay in a stinkin a** mental facility for da** near a week. everything in my life is going wrong and going down hill and just weird things that i never thought would happen is happening i am soo lonley and it hurts the heck out of me.
- December 30, 2010 at 5:41 am(344) life sucks says:
i've always tried to look on the bright side my entire life… things like smiling when i feel bad, but now my emotions are completly mixed up and i cant seperate funny things from serious things anymore. i cant think straight or concentrate on anything. i've had so many axiety attacks it isnt even funny! im only 18 and i feel like an empty shell!!! i would like to say to all the people who messed with me, congradulations, you took all of my feelings away to the point where i dont even care about anything anymore. i would go on but im running out of room. F*CK THIS WORLD!!!!
- October 21, 2011 at 5:44 pm(345) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
keep finding the bright side of life and you`ll get your feelings back, that`s the only way
- December 30, 2010 at 5:52 am(346) life sucks says:
btw, looks can be decieving. people think they know you and think your happy just because you look happy but physical and mental are 2 completly different things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its rediculous how many times i've posted because of all of the shit i had to say
- January 1, 2011 at 7:17 am(347) hi life sucks says:
hi just so you know you arent alone in this i dont know you but i know exactly where you are coming from im a lot younger than you 16. this doesnt make a difference to me i want to help you and i hope for some one who understands me in the same way because no one else does. please please dont do anything bad to yourself because thats what happened to me and i regret ever starting. i hope you reply to this i want to be here for you.
- January 1, 2011 at 5:20 pm(348) hi life sucks says:
please talk to me please. i want to help you out here im not some stupid teenager i swear i want to help people out especially those who have no one whatever it is i want to talk to you i would never judge anyone i just want to you to feel understood and cared about.
the same goes for anyone else out there if you need to talk need advice, a friend who will listen to you and care or just simply want to feel understood im here for all of you please dont feel afraid to talk to me because you dont know me. i care about you all i promise
- January 6, 2011 at 4:29 pm(349) Chloe says:
I constantly get shouted at by my family and I get in lots of fights with my friends all the time I get upset and cry to my self when nobody is around this website didn't help much I took the quiz and all it did is tell me that I'm depressed
- January 7, 2011 at 3:59 pm(350) Yass says:
Hi everyone..
I know how you all feel. I would like to share my coping mechanism with depression. I find it the best way to treat depression to exercise and map out your day to day activity. I know it feels like an effort to get up and go gym or go for a run but trust me it is only the first time. After that you will be addicted to it and you want to feel good that's why you go. Anyway if anyone feels like talking or anything. I will leave out my email address and I will be more than happy to help.
- January 8, 2011 at 7:01 pm(351) Aches says:
Ok, so things seem to be getting a little bit better. Got myself a GF and am going to be moving down south to live with her. A fresh start in a new town, Maybe thats what i needed. I dare not get my hopes up though, because it's bound to just blow up in my face But, heres to a fresh start "Raises Drink" cheers..
Maybe thats what the rest of you need also, a fresh start, or someone in your life that will like you for all that you are, and nothing less. A reason to live, A reason for your very soul.. I wish you all luck in finding whatever it is in life that will help you snap out of this depression. It's there, trust me, you just have got to find it. And your not going to find it sitting on your ass complaining about it like i used to.
- January 9, 2011 at 11:45 pm(352) mentally sick says:
I hate my life. EVERYTHING goes wrong. im starting to feel bad to the point where im starting to feel pathetic. everyday, i get farther and farther from reality. someone, just shoot me in the head please
- October 21, 2011 at 5:50 pm(353) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
a shoot in the head would create more pain and sadness in the world, and make the weapons company one bullet richier.. you wouldn`t like that
- January 10, 2011 at 12:54 pm(354) so alone says:
please someone please help me im 15 i cant do this i have thought about suicide all the time i have no friends no one cares for me please if you can help me email at
- January 14, 2011 at 12:17 am(355) A nobody says:
do you guys ever listen to yourselves? im depressed to but then i can be really happy, and if you cant be happy, then you should look for other things in life… (not suicide) Things that youre good at, and yes you are good at something every one is, but you dont have to be like tis all the time. I was reading through this and I was think, wow and i thought i had it rough. But you guys dont have to be emo you just got to learn to be ok with who you are and go from there… I hope this was a little helpfull…
- January 15, 2011 at 8:53 pm(356) To: A nobody says:
wow, the comment of a true ignorant mentally healthy person. Listen, depression isn't something that can be fixed by doing physical things. its a chemical imbalance in the brain that takes ALOT of TIME and ALOT of EFFORT to get through! and fyi, if you knew anything about depression you wouldn't be calling anybody emo -_- because depression is not a fucking choice. if it was, do you really think people would choose to be depressed???!! i sure as hell wouldn't!
- January 28, 2011 at 1:07 pm(357) Empty says:
i'm leaving in a country where i dont have anyone except my boyfriend but he's always away, he is not with me and he will just come to visit me when he wants to. we always fought it and ended up turning his cellphone off rather than comfort me. I feel he is adding up to my depression but I love him and I could not leave him even though I feel he is taking this relationship for granted. He doesn't make me feel important. we don't understand each other. please please tell me what to do. it is sad to be alone with no family and i have a not so caring boyfriend.
- January 30, 2011 at 7:16 am(358) to- empty says:
hi, i guess i know something about how you feel i dont have a boy friend but the guy i love is one of my friends and it hurts so badly to know he will never love me </3 but i have an idea that may help you.
talk to your boyfriend about this, trust me just sit down with him when you both have enough time and just talk things through with him. you wont believe how much it can change things, i have suffered depression since i was 10 and im now 16. very recently i just couldnt take it anymore and confided in one of my best friends. he is allways here for me and i couldnt ask for more from him. together we are helping to beat my depression and things are starting to work out better in my life. your boyfriend obviously doesnt know how you feel because you havent spken to him. honesty is the best thing and if he still doesnt understand it may be better to just end it. it isnt worth the unhappiness this is causing you. get closer to your friends they are allways more important than relationships and make you feel a lot better.
hope this helps write back and let me know xx
- January 29, 2011 at 3:05 pm(359) to- empty says:
hi, i guess i know something about how you feel i dont have a boy friend but the guy i love is one of my friends and it hurts so badly to know he will never love me </3 but i have an idea that may help you.
talk to your boyfriend about this, trust me just sit down with him when you both have enough time and just talk things through with him. you wont believe how much it can change things, i have suffered depression since i was 10 and im now 16. very recently i just couldnt take it anymore and confided in one of my best friends. he is allways here for me and i couldnt ask for more from him. together we are helping to beat my depression and things are starting to work out better in my life. your boyfriend obviously doesnt know how you feel because you havent spken to him. honesty is the best thing and if he still doesnt understand it may be better to just end it. it isnt worth the unhappiness this is causing you. get closer to your friends they are allways more important than relationships and make you feel a lot better.
hope this helps write back and let me know xx
- January 30, 2011 at 2:56 pm(360) 14andsad says:
i was in hospital for just over a month came home new years eve i was on life support for 8 days dialysis 6days and nights i took 46cocodamol 68 paracetamol and 28 amytriptaline on the 11th of december i was enclapathic and had fluid on the brain sometimes i wish theyd just let me die but others im glad i was found i dont know what to do its just hard you know?
- February 2, 2011 at 9:08 pm(361) Alone says:
LIKE THis is so stupid i know i got depression but i also know if i tell my mom she would just say im crazy i have anger manegmnent eye problems im deaf from my right ear i lost the sense of smell so i breath thru my mouth and i lost half my tate buds thanks to my mom not listening to my pain this sucks ppl like us with depression should just keep it inside n not tell anyone cuz no1 understands damn it
- February 5, 2011 at 5:42 pm(362) ???? says:
Iam 16 years old and I'm very depressed I just want to die so no one has to deal with me anymore:"(
- February 7, 2011 at 12:16 am(363) someone says:
Please don't kill yourself. I am depressed too. I know what it feels like and how much it sucks. But this is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. People care about you morethan you think. It doesn't matter what you do wthat is "wrong"…you are human, and it is okay to make mistakes and not know what to do, especially when you are just 16. Whoever you are out there, I sincerely hope that you didn't take action on your thought. Please tell someone how you feel. It is important to reach out. You can call a suicide hotline. You can email firstname.lastname@example.com if you are afraid of saying your problems out loud. And you can tell a trusted friend, parent, or teacher. You have to maybe go talk to someone about why you feel the way you do, becuase it DOES get better, but not if you give up on it first. So I don't know about you, but I am unwilling to give up before it gets better. I want to get help so that my life is back on track, instead of giving up when it is at it's low point, I want to get the higher points. I hope sincerely that you all do the same. Thinking of you all and hope that that you realize rhgat no matter how you feel right now, you are a worthwhile person.
- February 6, 2011 at 8:40 am(364) cut it all away says:
wont the pain ever stop??? i cant deal with my life anymore. people hate me parents hate me and i just dont want anymore of this i want to die more than anything i cant take it no one can help me no one understands…
- February 6, 2011 at 6:22 pm(365) fsdfdsdfd says:
:'( :/
- February 11, 2011 at 7:17 am(366) this guy says:
I think I'm depressed cuz I have little to no friends I think maby if I had more friends I would be happyer but maby its cuz I do drugs who knows al I know is I'm depressed and I wish I was happy fuck it smoke another cigarette and be lonly. I hate life I won't my mom to love me like she did when I wasyoungerr
- February 11, 2011 at 7:26 am(367) this guy says:
I hate this
- February 19, 2011 at 5:52 pm(368) Sasha says:
Im 14 years old and depressed. It all started this Monday when a stupid kid in my class made a comment about me not speaking (cuz im shy) and how he can't hear me breath. My life wasn't like this, I had friends and great life, but things was different when we moved. It's always hard for me to make friends so therefore I have no friends. It's nice to have someone when you are going thru high school. All this week I'v been feeling sad. I always dreamt of being an actress and my dream college is Juilliard but now I just don't care about that anymore. I so angry and sad and I feel like no one can help me life has no meaning anymore!
- May 30, 2011 at 10:57 pm(369) BellaMorte says:
Hey girl,
I have so been through the moving and changing schools crap and I know where you are coming from completely. I was bullied a crap load too, and it really pushes you to the edge. If you need someone who can relate, you can email me and if you have facebook add me. But email me first email@example.com
I might not be able to help you, but I can try. I wish I had people to turn to when school was THE WORST for me, so I know how much you need someone through that
- February 24, 2011 at 2:48 am(370) doesnt matter says:
i HATE myself so fucking much, im so goddamn stupid because im getting strait fucking f's and the last test i took i got every single answer wrong, nothing ever goes right in my "life" and im also crazy and weird, thats why i dont have any friends. if there was an easy way to commit suicide…
- March 1, 2011 at 1:55 pm(371) to: doesnt matter says:
dont commit suicide. please i care about you even tho we dont know eachother. it isnt the answer trust me im going through the same thing. write back please xx
- March 2, 2011 at 1:32 pm(372) Amit says:
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- March 2, 2011 at 1:35 pm(373) amit says:
for sucidal tendencies ….
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- March 7, 2011 at 6:52 pm(374) savnnah :'( says:
hi im 12 years old i cry about my life i get bulied almost every day i have no one to talk to
recently i got blamed for doing something i didnt i have been even more depresed
my dog is my best freinnd i do not like my life
- March 10, 2011 at 10:40 am(375) Dr Amit says:
all of you guys and girls who feel depressed and frustarted for any resons to not loose hope and sincerily follow this
Calc phos 6x bio chemic remedy for unfortunate love.or for people who have been crossed .or cheated .
kali phos 6x for pure and simple depression with no cause its also an excellent and natural sedative
i would sincerily recommend all of you to visit me at simple medicine at facebook
for free consulatations and advices..trust me i will take you out of all this !!!:)
- March 12, 2011 at 3:45 am(376) sam says:
You answered 10 items out of 10 "Yes". According to The National Mental Health Association, 5 or more yes answers indicates that you may be suffering from clinical depression. This test cannot substitute for a visit to a mental health professional. It is meant only to give you an idea where to start a dialogue with your healthcare provider.
um i knew i was seriously depresed but i didnt know i was that bad ok im lieing i did but still enyh body wana be my friend all of mine ether turned to @22 holes or moved my sis had a miss caredg a week after her friend comited suicide and my teachers spit on me and beat me if nobody wants to be my friend then i mite as well go kill my self so HELP PLEAS! b4 i do it )\\\\\ ps ya i was crying the whole time i was writing this help me/suicide note…
- March 13, 2011 at 9:32 pm(377) Jeff says:
sam. I care.
- March 15, 2011 at 4:33 pm(378) now happy says:
hi guys just to let you all know i have been in the same situation as you all are now. i still am in a way but i am dealing with it better. you might not think i was that bad but this is what was going on with me- im pig ugly with bad hair and a horrible figure for a 16 year old girl i didnt have anyone who understood me and i felt my friends hated me and i suffered from bullies and had issues with my weight as im fat also my parents abuse me. i always had suicidal thoughts and had attempted to kill myself in the past. i cut my self everyday with razorblades knives glass whatever i could find that was sharp. and they were bad, i was in hospital a lot. i cut my wrists, from the top of my shoulder all the way down my arms down my legs too. i had no self confidence or belief in myself and i felt i was a waste of space. then my best friend died. i never sopke to anyone about it but after years i felt i had to tell someone so i confided in one of my closest friends. altho this wasnt enough to help me completely some of my other friends found out and they helped me let me talk when i needed them done everything to prove that they were there for me, they gave me really great music, this might not seem like a big deal but trust me a really great song that relates to how you feel really works. then something changed. i became more confident with other people started talking to others in my class and all of them were perfectly nice to me i could talk more to people and realized that they did want to
- March 15, 2011 at 4:37 pm(379) continuation from above couldnt fit it all in :P says:
talk to me and liked being around me and most importantly that they did care. please just talk to someone anyone it doesnt have to be someone close to you one person that helped me was someone who rarely talked to me before because i was afraid to talk to her even though she is perfectly nice, turned out she was depressed too, now we are great friends and i want to thank her and everyone else who has done everything that they can for me. thanks so much guys. <3 now i know that people do actually care for me and im glad of it and i no longer self harm
some song references – cut by plumb, hero by superchick, fucking perfect by pink. all of the songs by alesana and evanescence are great so listen to any of them
please stay safe and take into consideration what i have said because i do understand. much love for you all xxx
- March 15, 2011 at 4:45 pm(380) continuation from above says:
talk to me and liked being around me and most importantly that they did care. please just talk to someone anyone it doesnt have to be someone close to you one person that helped me was someone who rarely talked to me before because i was afraid to talk to her even though she is perfectly nice, turned out she was depressed too, now we are great friends and i want to thank her and everyone else who has done everything that they can for me. thanks so much guys. <3 now i know that people do actually care for me and im glad of it and i no longer self harm
some song references – cut by plumb, hero by superchick, fucking perfect by pink. all of the songs by alesana and evanescence are great so listen to any of them
please stay safe and take into consideration what i have said because i do understand. much love for you all xxx
- March 17, 2011 at 1:51 pm(381) Md Ashfaque says:
im depressed
- March 19, 2011 at 7:08 pm(382) ldybug says:
I am so depressed that I can't even functin normally day to day. I feel like a volcano that could erupt at any time over the slightest thing. As soon as I walk out the door, I start crying. I am so angry and I just want to die!!! I don't know how much longer I can even try to work because I hold a public job that requires me to work very closely with people and they are just so oblivious to what is real and important. I absolutely can't even take going out at all… to the mall, grocery store, church, anywhere. I feel I am near the end. I can't find help and I don't have the money or time to take off work to get help if I could find it. What does one do, save everyone the bother and just what?
- March 31, 2011 at 2:38 pm(383) i want to die. says:
never felt so alone… no one cares about me at all. i shouldnt be here, i want to die.
help me please
- October 21, 2011 at 6:17 pm(384) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
i care about you, your life is worth, be thankful for life for a while and you feel better
- April 1, 2011 at 9:54 pm(385) jeans says:
i cant explain how my life is going through.what is my destination, for whom im living my hard life. im all alone. there is no1 to understand my feelings.not even a single person is there when i m in need. all of them r busy to success, make them-self happy.
i know if im wrong, i blame myself. i sumtimes punish myself.
bt if u r wrong, all the times. hw can u put that blame on me! im really depressed, when i feel like i am 22. i dont celebrate my b'day since when i was a child.
i cant maintain relationship. i kno what i like,bt i'll never get it.
i dont kno wat to say.. plz tell me wat sud i do.. really dont wanna live this f*ing world. my life really sucks.i willl never success in future…..
- April 13, 2011 at 3:39 am(386) Vm says:
I really don't think about suicide but I always think of death and they were both in the same question but I think of death only because I am afraid of it……I don't know why Im going through this Im a good person.
I have nevr answered back to my parents never drank beer or smocked I'm like a house cat waiting to be let out cause I feel trapped……… I could really go on with stuff that are wrong but I just want to say I miss my home maybe that is the main problem ever since we were forced to move out of there at first I thought it was nice going to live to different places but now I don't jog at all. I miss the days of just feeling the wind going through me while running I never knew how much I had it good I didn't appreciate it enough maybe that is all the guilt inside me, sorry for all the words just having these moments right now BTW my name is victor
- April 18, 2011 at 4:00 am(387) starla says:
wow this website has got to be a joke.. there is no freakin way all of you are that freakin depressed.. i suffer too but when does it ever end? if youre alive enjoy it. you cant think of life as a curse you have to embrace it. if it wasnt for my kid i woulda ended up dead. but he gave me meaning ya know? find your death star, find something that youre proud of..
- April 24, 2011 at 5:55 pm(388) Person says:
Arg this quiz is horrible. I'm gonna go kill myself now.
- April 24, 2011 at 9:28 pm(389) depressed says:
I think I am depressed so I went onto this site and took the quiz. I'm always sad, anti-social and been staying up till 6:30am and waking up at 4pm the next day! I've never felt guilt in my life or had thoughts on suicide or death. I have self- harmed though on my arms and wrists a few times. This really helped.
(I scored 7 out of 10)
- May 6, 2011 at 9:40 pm(390) FT AH says:
I am an 18 year old boy. I have had an abusive father and lost a very close friend at the age of 12, have been robbed at gunpoint in Guatemala and have never been able to achieve my full potential…
No more than 2 weeks ago i stood on the edge of a bridge and didn't want to be here anymore. However a flat mate came running out at 4 in the morning to stop me. I hate myself, i have no hate for anyone else because it is all on me. I hurt people and don't mean too. I am a screw up in every way. I just wish i don't get up tomorrow morning…
I can't live any longer.
- May 16, 2011 at 11:57 pm(391) blurred says:
you know….we have thought the same. I want to blame everybody, my self why because I thought no body understands me. I have abusive gambler father…my mother would always quarrel my father because of this! plus my gay personality I so much don't like. these things makes me depressed so much.
I am also 18 year old human!
If you want me to be your friend as well as your helper for recovering this mind sickness…I also want to have someone I can trust with in sharing my problems,doubts and fear in this world and my self. I need a shock absorber… I want to trust with you!
- May 16, 2011 at 4:19 am(392) blurred says:
I feel depressed because of being a gay!
I dont like to be like this…. but Every time I attempt to realized this one its too hard for me to accept that I am a gay!
help me! please!!!
there are many factors I should consider if I will let my self admit or not! but many people recognized that Iam a gay and Iam so afraid of it!!!!
please help me what should I do?
I dont like to become gay!!!
- May 16, 2011 at 4:35 am(393) blurred says:
if you want to give comments just put it into replyor i mean just reply me through this comment
- May 17, 2011 at 7:04 pm(394) BellaMorte says:
Blurred…. I am not gay, and I am also a female. But I have gay friends and let me tell you, they are amazing people. So strong to face what they can't change about themselves, and it's ok. You are ok! I want to help you but I don't know how. Gay is NOTHING to be ashamed of no matter how many tiny minded people make you feel that way!! I myself am on the edge right now, and trying to find my way back if I even can. I just hate this corrupt disgusting world, and living in the USA makes me sick everyday. We watch our government destroy other countries and other people like they are nothing but a disease. I want out so bad…….
- May 18, 2011 at 12:02 am(395) blurred says:
thank you! for your reminders….I so much appreciated it!
I'm trying to accept this fact on me but there are many factors to be considered.First my parents,,,they are so particular in moral values,,my friends they automatically judge person like me…so these are some common factors makes me feel difficult in handling this problem… you know because of these i deprived my self to socialized and prefer to become a loner one…this is the main reason why i get easily depressed because i dont have friends….but thankyou because even in online i can find someone to trust for…!
- May 18, 2011 at 8:35 pm(396) happy POSITIVE GIRL says:
reading this makes ME depressed stop sitting on the computer watch t.v ….funny shows then go out and live life to its fullest u live once stop saying what if it doesnt get better or why me or poor me no one likes that not even ypurself u have to say IT WILL GET BETTER and POOR ME ITS GREAT TO BE ALAIVE LOOK OUTSIDE UR WINDOW weather it be day or night the starrs trees OH HERES A TIP……..SMILES ARE CONTAGIOUS smile at people theyll smile back if u smile it makes ur day a lot better!
hope this helped!!!
- May 25, 2011 at 5:48 pm(397) 14andsad says:
its not that easy, not when you have nothing to live there, when you havent got the willpower to look out the window and you havent got it in you to laugh, im not feeling sorry for myself, i did that when i was in hospital, look at my previous posts and judge me if you will, but every day is a struggle and it is hard, its never going to get easy, but people like you on sites like this do not hel infact its quite infuriating, you do not understand we come on her because people like you do not know, no offence but thats that
- May 26, 2011 at 7:47 am(398) die. says:
i agree with 14andsad. yo really got no idea and we dont expect you to understand if you arent depressed yourself. its not just a phase or a mood that you think will come and go easily. if you going to put stupid remarks like that on this website then go screw yourself because we dont want to hear it.
- May 27, 2011 at 11:31 am(399) 14andsad says:
iknow right, doesnt help in the slightest does it? if your not depressed you cant comprehend, and iknow nothing we all go through is the same, i know we're probably very different, but if you would like to talk add me on fb chelsea thejayne pickstock
- August 13, 2011 at 12:08 pm(400) frustrated says:
happy POSITIVE GIRL what are you doing on this site, its clear you have no idea what your talking about, depression isnt just having a bad day, its much deeper than that, and if you have never experienced this illness (yes IT IS AN ILLNESS) or have training in mental health, please keep your unwelcome comments to your self, personally I find your comments mocking and insulting.
- May 23, 2011 at 4:09 pm(401) Depressed girl says:
This site kind of helped me cos now I know there are other people depressed like me . I hate living I just want to die and I have no one to talk to . I have and abusive dad and a mother who goes out with different men practically every night and she just leaves my brother and sister with me . I got bullied really badly in school so I left . Now I'm 15 with barely no schooling and no chance at getting a good job. So now I'm depressed as shit and I don't know how to commit suicide cos I'm afraid I wont die if I try !! So my life is pretty much fucked !!
- May 27, 2011 at 11:47 am(402) 14andsad says:
hats clever, not trying to kill yourself, cause it doesnt always work and life is hard and you havent had it made easy but everyone has the potential to learn and make their lives better, i know doesnt seem like it but trust me, im taking my gcse's a year early and i had 3months off cause i took a major overdoes :/ you will be okay add me on fb if you ever get this :/ chelsea thejayne pickstock im holding a baby on my knee im blonde
- May 26, 2011 at 8:49 pm(403) chelsea says:
i have realized that alot of people that are depressed are lonely. thats how it happened to me to i was like 15 or 16 the first time i was really depressed. i am 17 not but not long ago i lost one of my friends to suicide it was terrible. when i was depressed which i still am often i just need attention and intamcy. i no im petty young but i still need love and to be loved by someone i have been with my boyfriend for almost 32 and a half months now so im extremely close to him. i dont no if it is bad but sometimes i dont feel close to him even at our closest moments i feel depressed and cry alot still most of the times im not with him though.
- June 7, 2011 at 11:53 am(404) lonely girl says:
i don't really understand what is going on with my head right now.. my mind feels like it is waiting to just shut down. i don't know what it is with me i am just not happy with my life, i tried telling my friends they think i am just being dramatic. tears roll down my face pretty much every night i am just fed up of life. i don't want to tell my mum or dad because i don't want them worrying or thinking i am just being stupid. these feeling that i am feeling are becoming crazy! i just want it over and i need someone who understands what it is like to help me.. i just want this to be over, it's like i am stuck in a card board box and i am trapped and know one can get me out.
- June 17, 2011 at 6:05 pm(405) Sarah says:
Every morning I wake up with a suffocating sense of loneliness. It's not even that I want to die, so much as I really don't want to live. It is my love for my family and an unfailing trust in God that keeps me going, but right now I am in so much pain. I am 19 years old and in recovery from heroin addiction- like all of you, I have been through many pains in my life. Overshadowed by a twin brother with disabilities, molested at 5, feeling abandoned my parents, 3 years in treatment, eating disorder, cutting, shooting dope under bridges and eventually sleeping there, nearly freezing to death, overdosing, working my way up from absolutely nothing with no financial support from parents, etc. etc. I'm desperately trying to hang on and not run to the streets to blow 8k on dope and then OD, but it's very difficult. I'm currently in an Americorps program that will conclude next month. If it wasn't for an education award of 5k, I'd be out of here because it's nearly impossible for me to get to NA meetings, the only thing that keeps me sane. For now I will try to hang on with Jesus Christ.
God bless all of you, and we will make it through these times.
- June 21, 2011 at 6:37 am(406) Yasmin says:
Well to start off i get really depressed all the time i keep thinking about things that happened to me in the past and worry about everything. I am afraid to go outside because i start thinking weird things that im actually too embarrased to say. Im freaking out because i feel dizzy tired sick and pissed off all the time i actually feel like im dying. I cry all the time over stupid things and i convince myself that im going mad im only 17 and am having arguments with my family and friends all the time. They never listen to me. They think its all in my head and i should just forget about it. Well i would if i could but i cant. Some days when i feel really down i just stay in my room and cry all the but the thing is i dont know why im crying i take really bad panic attacks and am scared of everything i just wanna be home all the time. Im scared to see my doctor. Please help me i wanna be normal i cant go on like this anymore or i might do somethings il regret.
- July 4, 2011 at 5:20 am(407) Jack says:
:/ I wish I had problems like all of yours. I feel depressed but it's for a stupid reason. If I had parents abandoning me and such maybe my depression would be justified. But I'm just sad because someone I loved desperately moved away from me. Stupid. But she's all I've ever wanted in a person and now I can't have her. It's be easy to move on if long distance wasn't happening and me leaving her would cause her own death. But I suppose In the end it will be worth it. Hope you all did peace somehow. Depression sucks no matter what the cause :/
- July 13, 2011 at 5:04 am(408) mim says:
I truly know both sides the up and the down ive thought of suicide many times ive been happy cried more my life has been very hard ive had a few blessings but no matter what the worlds whatever is on the other side decides when we die it could be next week very short life almost seems a bit like our own experiment unpredictable unbalanced even unfair at times but no matter who we are someone has cared for and loved us at one time or another we could always have it worst depression is an emotion a feeling sometimes its stressful but truly a disease find what works for you if you have to remind yourself everyday why there is always something to appreciate then do that get a councellor talk to someone remember you may be next to die what if theres nothing lights out isnt it better to feel than to never have felt at all and you know ive lived for my children and no matter how bad ive felt or how much pain ive hid from them they were always worth every minute of it
- July 25, 2011 at 6:55 pm(409) 14andsad says:
Hey, long time since Ive been on here, but I guess I dont need it anymore, I see a phsychologist now, but thats only because Itried to kill myself,and Im not proud of it, but its helped me in some ways, but there are so many things that could of gone wrong so i advise against it, im happier now, i have a boyfriend hes not perfect but he is for me and if anyone on here ever needs someone anyone to talk too add me on facebook, chelsea thejayne pickstock :') bye for now and thanks to everyone
- August 16, 2011 at 4:05 pm(410) jemma says:
hi am 17 i think am depressed i just sit in my room crying scratching me face screming and thinking about i wasnt to die but never happy no more i dont smile as use 2 but got lovely family and friends but me mate no the soming rong with me but i dont tell her my no am not right she blames her self that am life this makes me feel worse tham i am makeing her feel that way plz all i want to do is die someing times plz i want to no why am i life this :'(
- August 19, 2011 at 4:57 pm(411) iman says:
y dont u all start reading QURAN ..it will goin to be really helpful to you guyz seriously.. everything will goin to be fine ..u have to work on it ..
- August 26, 2011 at 7:36 pm(412) Kenny says:
Hi, to start off I am eighteen years old and I was diagnosed with a mild case of autism, albeit that co-exists with my self-diagnosed depression. The root of my depression is almost indefinite, as I can identify several culprets on which my suspicions raised my attention to. Anyway, the first, feasible cause is my inability to contact other human beings, when I was younger I was often taken advantage of by my so-called peers, nothing was to any avail until I had a girlfriend, well someone who exploited my desire for human contact for financial gain(to pay for rail fares to see another male), and at the same time cheat on me with a neurotypical male. It was a tough lesson learned about love. I am still lonely, and I looked to the local church, as I was informed of a social group there for young people-it was of no avail for me, everyone there had friends and ignored me socially as I couldn't approach them. It will be history…
I also suffer from an irrational fear of spending money, and even parting with small, relatively menial sums of money causes me to submit to crying. Using public transport is a horryfying hurdle for me to encounter, as I may often have to use cash, and the crowds at rush hour, well that throws a spanner in the works for me.
Not only that, since I was around four or five, a young age, albeit old enough to concieve my own thoughts and interests, I developed a love for maps and cars, along with a deep desire to drive along the motorways I spent hours studying in my room. I never did that, I do not even have a license as I come accross difficulties and confusion in getting one. Not being able to drive is killing me inside and I truly envy those who do drive, locking myself away in my room with a simulated driving game helps, but I want the real thing so badly it makes me cry to cast my mind to it. Driving is also expensive, and I cannot look for work because of my location and full-time college course, and I pity everyone in times of austerity, five unemployed people to every job? What chance do I have? My dog is my only friend and I fear the day she dies, for I am just too dependant on my dog for compassion and company… My heart yearns for human friendship at the very least…
- August 26, 2011 at 7:42 pm(413) Kenny says:
Hi, to start off I am eighteen years old and I was diagnosed with a mild case of autism, albeit that co-exists with my self-diagnosed depression. The root of my depression is almost indefinite, as I can identify several culprets on which my suspicions raised my attention to. Anyway, the first, feasible cause is my inability to contact other human beings, when I was younger I was often taken advantage of by my so-called peers, nothing was to any avail until I had a girlfriend, well someone who exploited my desire for human contact for financial gain(to pay for rail fares to see another male), and at the same time cheat on me with a neurotypical male. It was a tough lesson learned about love. I am still lonely, and I looked to the local church, as I was informed of a social group there for young people-it was of no avail for me, everyone there had friends and ignored me socially as I couldn't approach them. It will be history…
I also suffer from an irrational fear of spending money, and even parting with small, relatively menial sums of money causes me to submit to crying. Using public transport is a horryfying hurdle for me to encounter, as I may often have to use cash, and the crowds at rush hour, well that throws a spanner in the works for me.
Not only that, since I was around four or five, a young age, albeit old enough to concieve my own thoughts and interests, I developed a love for maps and cars, along with a deep desire to drive along the motorways I spent hours studying in my room. I never did that, I do not even have a license as I come accross difficulties and confusion in getting one. Not being able to drive is killing me inside and I truly envy those who do drive, locking myself away in my room with a simulated driving game helps, but I want the real thing so badly it makes me cry to cast my mind to it. Driving is also expensive, and I cannot look for work because of my location and full-time college course, and I pity everyone in times of austerity, five unemployed people to every job? What chance do I have? My dog is my only friend and I fear the day she dies, for I am just too dependant on my dog for compassion and company… My heart yearns for human friendship at the very least… listening to loud music with my eyes closed helps cast my mind to a place where I am happy, in fact it wasn't that far back in time I visuallised driving(I usually do, it is my life) on the motorway with precision, care and zeal, my vivid imagination is mostly what I live for, externally my dog is really the only thing keeping me alive…
- August 27, 2011 at 9:48 pm(414) corinna king says:
hi , i have a very strong opinion about depression, thing is doctors beleive it to be a chemical in balance in your head , all that from verble conversation, prozax seroxac . well i,m sorry but the jist of it is everybody get down, every1 let things get on top yu loose your job so what bills dept jobs are not enough to be deprest about to be on medication, cos if i feel down and low the only person that can help is me , work out how it got to this then start to repair it , it will be a bit hard at first but not long before i get to grips with it all ]#
- September 4, 2011 at 12:07 am(415) Wellbutrin says:
Hi Corinna,
Read your post about your thoughts on depression. Yes people feel bad about their circumstances and they can take action to make things better for themselves. That's not depression. There is a normal range of feelings that most people have. Using a baseline of zero for not being up or down, people when they feel sad may drop down to a three or even a four. When they experience a death in the family or go through a divorce they will drop down to a eight or nine for a short period of time. They will slowly recover to a more normal level. When someone suffers from depression it is very different. When they crash they go down to a nine or even a ten. I know, personally. Telling someone to pull themselves out of it or that they can control it if they want is not true. When your down everything is a massive effort. Getting out of bed, brushing your teething, doing a load of laundry are all major achievements. When you move it's like your moving through molasses. Putting one foot in front of another is a major effort. You don't want to talk to anyone or be near anyone. You have no energy. You completely zone out at times. You live in a black world. Don't say it will get better. That means nothing to me when it's happening. If you want to do something, then just sit with me and keep quiet. I will let you know if I want to talk. Drugs help, a lot. The anti-depressants help boost your mood and yes it is a problem with a chemical imbalance in the brain. Those drugs affect the production of those chemicals in your brain that control your emotions. I know they help. Depression can hit us, those who suffer from it, because of our circumstances or sometimes for no reason at all. Corinna, that is my experience with depression. The real thing. I take drugs now and that helps, most of the time. It isn't perfect but it's better than the alternative – a permanent non-solution. Can't take those back. So those are my thoughts.
- September 3, 2011 at 5:09 am(416) Anna says:
I am not getting hired in any of the companies. But all of my friends got nice jobs. I am very depressed, lost all my confidence, dnt wanna do anything and cant even face my friends. Wot to do…?? plz help me out
- October 22, 2011 at 5:27 pm(417) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
try to find what make`s you satisfied without beeing a comparison with another person, find your innervoice, plan your future and have friends that can follow you by who you are and not by your economies, hope that help a little
- September 5, 2011 at 6:04 pm(418) erock905 says:
Those of you than can should move to Hawaii and learn to Surf… I mean totally and obsessively live for the thrill of catching the next perfect wave… that well keep your mind busy…
- September 6, 2011 at 12:25 pm(419) margaret says:
all i have been doing lately is crying my mom died on fathers day and i dont know what to do she was my best friend she hit her head fell she died in the hosptail i wish i was with her i m so lost with out my mom and four years ago i had two dogs and never really got over it still cry about that i used to be happy not anymore
- September 10, 2011 at 5:37 pm(420) hark says:
to much to read,I am cutting myself and had enough
- September 10, 2011 at 7:44 pm(421) casey the sad girl says:
i just get so depressed sometimes, and i keep it concealed the best i can, if you ask a friend theyd say i was the happiest person they know, but im 15 and never had a boyfriend, how pathetic is tht? and when i see a girl with her bf i feel the worst case of jealicy a person can feel, i just hate her, hate her for being pretty or skinny and having something i want but feel i cant have, i havn't cut myself or anything because i couldn't live with a scar, another blimish to hate myself for. if it wasn't for the fact that i couldnt hurt my family so bad and i would go to hell for it i would have killed myself years ago. i kno u ppl don't want to listen to my sob story and im sorry for that but i just really needed to express wat im feeling inside, and thx for the website, tho it really didnt help so much :,(
- September 16, 2011 at 10:43 pm(422) Lisa says:
Don't think that. Letting out how you feel is what this is for. I havent had a boyfriend either and Im 15, so you're not alone.
- September 11, 2011 at 3:07 am(423) lechante says:
im a 17 year old girl and im suffering from depresion,its bein two years now and i dont have anyone to talk to that i can trust its killing me inside and i always cry myself to sleep everyday……please help
- September 16, 2011 at 10:39 pm(424) lisa says:
I feel the same way, I dont want to burden anyone with everything, plus I dont trust anyone to tell them anything, but I read something, it was very long but the gist is stand up for yourself. That might not be your problem, but it is mine. I try to please people to gain exception, but I realized that this is MY life not theres. That is the root of my unhapiness and I plan to yank it out. I will tell you how it goes…
- September 17, 2011 at 10:50 pm(425) JT says:
Hi, everyone, I'm 20 and feel so depressed, I haven't had a girlfriend since 8th grade and try so hard to let it go but I have such a low self astem and feel like no one really cares about me. I have friends, but it seems like they don't really look at me like I look at them and I just feel like no matter how much I try to hang out with them, they will always find something better to do and never call me back and so on. I want a girlfriend, but its been so long and if I actually go far enough to start dating again, they will soon find the true me and not like me for who I am because I always put up a front and don't let people see that I'm always sad and feel like I have no friends and never will date again. I just don't know wat to do anymore. I was really depressed my 8th grade year and I started gaining weight and started smoking when I was 17 and lost it all but now I feel like I'm still chunky and scrony. I've thought about working out and quit smoking but I have no will power to do so. HELP ME!!!
- October 22, 2011 at 5:33 pm(426) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you need to have hope on good words for yourself, try to give a better opinion about who you are instead of accepct any steem you`re using, meditate about good thinks in life
- September 19, 2011 at 10:02 pm(427) colin12121 says:
p.s. if your depressed you will know it.
ive been depressed for a little longer then a year. hope everyday it will go away… who knows maybe tomorrow ill be fine.
- September 20, 2011 at 2:57 pm(428) Charles says:
Hi my name is charles and i am really depressed im always in trouble at school and have detention every day my parents now have been called in next thursday and im sick of being shouted at i've wanting a dog which i can love when im sad like this but now i know i wont get one my parents shout at me for not being organised and i cry every time after they leave im even crying right now while im writing and i am really sad i dont see the point of living anymore i can't handle this anymore if i am depressed for 6 more month then game over
- September 20, 2011 at 7:35 pm(429) Amber says:
hi, im almost 23. i have 3 kids and a husband. we moved down to MS a year ago and have been here since. in that time i have slowly lost all the energy used to have. i tried talking to my husband about me just wanting to go home but he took it offensive and we dont talk bout it. i started eating more and more i admit i am an emotional eater. i will not sit here and deny anything. i am also i diagnosed manic depressive, since i was in the 7th grade. i was a cutter back then but my kids snapped me back to reality on that. i also have anxiety issues. i was on all types of meds but nothing has ever worked. i thought that i was a grown up and i could suppress my feelings and deal with them and act like they were not there. now im falling apart. my sex life has went down the drain not that i dont want to but just dont feel up to it. i dont know what to do any more i have no one here but my husband but we cant talk, our relationship is slipping away. i need help please.
- September 21, 2011 at 3:36 pm(430) anonymous says:
im 15 years old and i seriously wish i was dead. im doing my gcse this year and its stressing me out. i feel like a complete failure to my parents and i dont know what to do. my mom and dad say they love me, but they verbally abuse me…
i have no confidence in speaking to my parents about my problems because of the verbal abuse. i can't defend myself in anyway. im like 5″4 and insecure about my height this adds on to having no confidence. im constantly worried that people are judging me and that feeling kills me. i have friends but no best friends and always feels unwanted, sometimes i dont know why i bother. my love life is non-existant : i mean who would want to date a 15 year old boy that looks like a 12 year old. i like one of my friends for about a year now but i know that it would never happen
whenever i try to argue the words don't come out and i want to cry. my parents dont understand me. they're more worried about my future than me in the present. they're constantly worried about my education but they've never really asked me how i am. especially my dad who i have no emotional connection to whatsoever. ive never actually heard him say he loves me. today when i came home i got into an argument and both my parents told me they dont love me and that they wished i wasn't their son. i dont know if they mean it or not.
another thing is that i have never opened up like this in my life to anyone. i have noone to talk to about my feelings ; i dont have a brother or a sister. im an only child. my moms the oldest in her family and so i have lots of little cusan brothers and sisters. in school i dont want to talk about it to a teacher in fear of crying and i really don't have enough confidence to do that. a lot of the boys in my year bully me because of my height but say that they're only joking afterwards, but it still apart of me knows that its true and its that part of me that contemplates suicide.
- September 21, 2011 at 5:21 pm(431) Amber says:
i may be older now, but i wish when i was your age having problems very similar to yours, that i would have talked or stood up for myself. mine started when i was in the 7th grade, thats when i found out what a failure i was to my family. by the time i was 15 i had started fixing my problems in my own way which did nothing but hurt me more. though i even tried therapy off and on til i was 22, i never really opened up. now that i am a mother myself i am finding it hard to be the parent i should be. my depression that i held in is now affecting the lives of my babies and husband…. i just want you to know that i am a good listener. i have helped people just not myself. i have been in some of the spots you are in and im always here if you need any one. trust me, the way that you think is easy, really isnt.
- September 26, 2011 at 7:08 am(432) Shaun says:
Once you start talking regularly, you can start to formulate some solutions to your problems. And there are always solutions. In my own experience, stress and depression are not psychological conditions but physiological ones. That means they occur within your whole body and must be treated that way. Simple hardcore exercise can work wonders to lessen the feelings of stress, anxiety and depression. It's because 'good' chemicals such as endorphins are released into the bloodstream which combat the 'nasty' chemicals of stress such as cortisol. Exercise, stretching, sauna/spa therapy, hot bath, etc can get you to a place of feeling well enough to actually talk about and start dealing with your problems. Remember no amount of thinking will help you much at all. Your problems are not psychological even if they feel that way. Take action! Talk it out! And fight for your life. Because the truth is life is pretty hard, but mofo's like you and me are even harder and nothing will hold us down! Right?
- September 26, 2011 at 7:05 am(433) Shaun says:
Hey man I hear what you're saying. I'm 37, have been through all sorts of stress myself over the years and still find it difficult sometimes to feel good about life. The hard reality is, you just have to battle on, fight and persevere, and never ever stop taking action to look after yourself and your own interests, so long as they are healthy ones. If you give up and lay down, you will get kicked even more. It's great that you're able to recognise and articulate your problems so specifically, sometimes identifying exactly what your problems are means you're half way to finding a solution. Dude, you need to find a counsellor somewhere that you can talk to. Just talking things out with someone who is smart can make ALL the difference in the world especially at first. You may find you start feeling better almost immediately. I know I did. You're not expected to solve all your problems by yourself, no one is a life expert and it's just too complicated and hard! Successful people are always seeking advice from professionals like psychologists, therapists, doctors etc. It's what winners do. Losers just keep all their pain inside and try to tough it out. But this doesn't work because we're not designed to be alone. So find a counsellor and talk it out. That will be your first step.
- October 5, 2011 at 8:58 am(434) TamTam says:
Wow, so much of what you said is what I went thru with parents – and bullys. Unless the doc says you've stopped growing, a boy usually keeps getting taller till 21. Don't worry about the dating stuff yet. Be a friend. Maybe library has book about self-confidence. I never really took note of a fellows height. Heck, my sister married someone who's 5'1″.
- September 25, 2011 at 1:48 pm(435) Probably Depressed but who gives one says:
Guys seriously shut up we all have problems this was never supposed to help just got you to fill in a form honestly there is no quick fix so stop raging. I just came out of a serious long-term relationship and its messy. My heart's all over the place. UCAS application in tomorrow and my family hates me. Also I have OCD and people wondered whether I had psychosis or bipolar. But I saw some people (CBT therapists) and I gradually got a better hold on myself. I'm definitely not feeling perfect, but I get through, like you all will. Death is not an option, it's the coward's way out. Face it all like real people should, and try to distract yourself from the pain by finding something you enjoy. Talk to friends, about anything – do things. Maybe talk about your feelings with some close friends (or even a councellor or therapist).
But don't be all whiny and ragey on some stupid internet poll where no-one is in a state to take you seriously, especially the way you're acting on this. It's not meant to make you feel better, and it's probably not even accurate. See real help if you want it. And just try to chill out yeah? Often things aren't as bad as they seem. Or they will clear up.
- September 26, 2011 at 3:45 pm(436) josejose says:
I hate life
- September 27, 2011 at 7:26 am(437) hello12 says:
i feel so shit inside… i live at uni and im this 6 foot 5 gaint. im getting councilling but it doesnt help much. i don't belong, i don't even feel natural.
- September 27, 2011 at 8:09 pm(438) Popseuss says:
Exercise strengthens the body…. Do 50 reps of "Thank You for my ______". If you can't find a word to apply to the blank, look at photos of India/Japan disasters…. What they lost, (lives,property,kids,dads,homes,etc)and you haven't, insert those things… Attitudes can be strengthened like muscle, BUT, ya gotta be consistent….
……. An ex chronically depressed……
- September 28, 2011 at 10:25 pm(439) Dumb Kid says:
I live a good life.. but I dropped out of highschool my girlfriend is cheating on me.. my mom tells me to go to hell everyday and to die my dad is a scum bag cheater as well.. i don't have much 2 live for
- October 10, 2011 at 10:57 pm(440) Who cares?! says:
Yeah, seriously. Who cares what my name is?
I moved to university, thinking that I would have friends like I did at home. They were there for me when my mom was sick. They came after I was so hurt all the time by my peers.
My "so-called' friends here all ditched me because I'm too sensitive for them.
They think I cry just to get attention. They think my anger is all a way to throw temper tantrums so that I can be the center of attention.
It makes me so mad! :@
I'm tired of tryign to hide it, and I'm tired of letting it show.
I'm going for counselling because my mom surprisingly gives a damn and is having me see a counsellor. Now prescription is a possibilty? Like WTF do they know?
Will it honestly work?
I just wanna go home. Not to the assholes who hurt me my whole life, but to my friends I made after the bullying stop who actually mattered somewhhat to me.
All I do is sleep and eat and I can't even cry anymore. I still feel lifeless… YAY ME! (Not)
- October 18, 2011 at 1:33 am(441) neha says:
my friends are leaving me…one by one….also my boyfriend recently….i dont know whats wrong with my behavior…..
if i ask them…they are just saying " i dont like u". i will give much value to my friends.if they leave me….i feel like dying….
please give me a solution for this
what i hav to do for keeping my friends in touch life long?
- October 19, 2011 at 7:01 am(442) Hussain Bhai says:
my friends are leaving me one by one .also my Best Friend Leave me. .i dont know whats wrong with my behavior ..
if i ask them they are just saying i dont like u. i will give much value to my friends. if they leave me .i feel like dying .
please give me a solution for this
what i hav to do for keeping my friends in touch life long?
I have Need of a nice and sincere girl for Marry … Help me plzz
- October 19, 2011 at 12:43 pm(443) nz_straw_hat says:
The short term answer to me is quite obvious. There should be some kind of dating site for depressed people. Am i right?..who else understands us more than another one of us?…well thats what i think anyway.
- October 22, 2011 at 5:45 pm(444) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
maybe maybe
- October 23, 2011 at 12:04 am(445) Tiago Tatsch Sarturi says:
you know, you trust society and people, but then everything start to not work and that trust vanish in the air, so i`ve lost trust on society (because i`ve believed i should had my chance, in this case to have a girlfriend), and i start to idealize and try to have a positive hope only to crash again with nothing and be surround by people that have that you have prayed-wished-hoped for…. still don`t understand how it work but it seems to fail seconds before i get to realize all that i wish for, so i sleep a lot because i don`t like this reality no more, i still have things i know the value but all that depends on others for me to have acess make me feel i`m getting nowhere, i feel used, abused, undervalued, and almost like a pile of flesh waiting for my soul to return so i can live again, i just hope it`s a learning process so maybe i can get something good out of this, and be thankful for enjoy my time alive
- October 24, 2011 at 12:13 pm(446) ikki says:
i dunnoe if my situation now it calls depression?
- October 24, 2011 at 12:17 pm(447) ikki says:
sometym wen im sad or feeling so down or angry..for all day i didnt realise what am i doing..evertime when i realise my hand bleedin and gt swollen..but i dunnoe wat happen..
and sometym i just feel like to cry and i dunnoe y i cry i just feel dat my mind so messy and cant think properly.
- October 26, 2011 at 11:35 am(448) sweetie says:
im 22 yrs old.i depressed abt long while my love got fail by family..but i cant forget him, while the same time my another frnd distrubng me lot.i dnt wanna to live at all.gonna to commit suicide now i hve isolated,i wont talk wit my frnds, family members. there s no useful to live, i was outstanding student in my school and col bt now i cant even go out and office.
- October 26, 2011 at 11:54 am(449) sweetie says:
im 22 yrs old. i hurt a lot abt while.sometimes i cry i dnt knw y i m crying my love got fail by family bt i cant even forget him. i loves him more than me and world he also, bt now he got mental distrbd because of ours love. i dnt wanna to live i m gng to committ suicide no one will not replace his place, i m outstanding student in my sch and col. bt now i was isolate, i wont talk with my frnds and family members i hope tat my next life wil b with him
- November 2, 2011 at 4:26 pm(450) Chazmanitator30 says:
i can not take this anymore im about to go crazy and my grandparents are the cause i dont care if they want me to focus on my schoolwork its so annoying i can only play videogames on sunday after church at least i get to do that thats what keeps me from going into a depressed rage
- November 2, 2011 at 8:23 pm(451) Nailea says:
LOL just be happy life is great u r so ungrateful all of u! u should be ashamed of ursleves i bet alot of poeple have less than u do and what do u choose to do? be negative killing youself slicing ur hand until its gone!! stopit!!! seriously wake up!! snap snap!! u either need to get some friends and make people remember u as someone not some person who took life 4 granted and was never happy 2 have what they had and whined. whatever it was that upsetted u like bad childhood experience,not "fitting in to the latest fucked up people's standards" or whatever. if u have family, spend time with them right now! <3 and u need to either see help or talk ans socialize because seriously get a job dont go online looking for sympathy Bcuz thts what people hate . maybe if u could get outta the internet go watch tv, smoke pot, walk your dog, makke friends, make a nice goal for the month, find a hobby u like ,or learn new things get ajob Please! dont be such bratz because not everything is gonna go the way u want. accept it. and make it easieer on urself!
- November 5, 2011 at 8:31 pm(452) /; says:
I'm 13. And I've noticed that I've been depressed for about 6 months – when I first started cutting. At first it was just a joke. But then I realized that I liked it. I've changed so much since then. I'm always sad and tired. I don't have a lot of friends , I lost a lot of them when they found out I started cutting. I still cut, pretty often. The smallest things hurt me. Even if it's a joke. Or just a remark. Or if some teacher says something to me cuz' they're busy at that moment. I feel like crying and breaking down. I skip lunch sometimes. to cry. And I was anorexic for a bit. I'm not now (or at least as much I was), but I still skip meals sometimes. My mom doesn't know. But she see's that I'm always depressed. When she asks me if I want to go somewhere with my friends, I say "what friends?" I feel like dying and disappearing from this world.
- November 7, 2011 at 10:30 pm(453) Cristina says:
a boy at my school died recently in a fire, i'm crying a lot but i didnt know him. my friend is getting mad at me because im crying so much but i cant help myself… but. never knew him… nit only tht but i never had a lot of friends the people i hang arouhd r starting not to like me… i always want to cry especially because of tht poor kid, who had so many more oppertunitues he could have lived. although i never knew him i feel like if i was there i could have saved them… but i never knew thm and it was at like 2 in the morning… it was his birthday… ive never thot bout killing myself but i wanted to burn myself with my hair straigtner today… im falling behind in school… and im just so depressed i kno i could do better but just cant… i try so hard to keep from crying all the time, but mynherpart feels heavier and heavier all the time… im sick of crying, tired of trying, ya im smiling but inside im dying… my teacher sees me strugling and wants to help me but i cant tell him everything wrong with me hes gonna think im an idiot… but u know what i dont understand bout life? y does god give life if hes gonna take it from us afterwards??? fuck life
- November 25, 2011 at 3:09 pm(454) Rachel says:
Crisitna, I know how you feel. I'm truly sorry about the boy, it sounds so devastating. I don't know what I can do to help, but if a teacher's trying to help you. Let them. They're not going think you're an idiot, I'm sure if he means well he'll defintely try to help. I'm truly sorrry for your pain. Cristina, God doesn't take away life. He brings life, so many great things into this world. When we die, we have a new life in Heaven. I don't know what religion you are, or if you even have one, but trust me on this you aren't alone. I've been down the same road the majority of you guys have been down on. Wanted to kill myself many times before in the past, so once my mother, but I've got passed it and during that time, where I was alone and wanted to die, I knew there was a God right by my side. God loves everyone of you guys, whether you believe it or not. Truly, honestly guys you aren't alone.
- November 8, 2011 at 7:54 pm(455) bobby scarley says:
depression gets us all (no really gets us all) we all get paranoid we all get embarrased and we all ( all of us get depressed ) im depressed!!!!!!!! . BUT then we are humanim 26 years old in england i am looking for the perfect woman to laugh with to fall in love with to cuddle with to take out and to show off to know tht she would be the perfect mother and to admire her for life !!!!!!!! and just to be clear im 5 foot 9 medium build and very colurfull and popular … MY POINT BEING IS THAT ANYONE CAN BE DEPRRESED AND WE ARE NOT ALONE IT TAKES A GREAT AMOUNT OF COURAGE TO NOTICE THAT YOU NEED TO TRY HARDER ON ITSELF ALONE
- November 9, 2011 at 4:15 am(456) Vani says:
I accepted for arranged marriaged. The next day my friend came to me said he want to marry and he don't want to loose me. We are close from past 5 years. I fought in my home and my parents didn't accepeted. My Parents are in a hurry for my marriage. I want to marry my friend because i know him well. I want to marry my friend only with parents acceptance. But they are not even to listen to anyone. I am helpless. All are suggesting me to inform the person who agreed for marriage. But it is very risk and my parents don't even send me out of the house. They are very strict. Once this marriage is cancelled i can do anything. But i can't do anything. I am working in Hyderabad. My parents trust horoscopes. I want to try in that way. But it may not be possible. I don't know how to cancel this marriage. My engagement is within 3 to 4 days. In my house all are against to me. No one is helping me. My parents loves me alot but they are not accepting this. I don't want to marry now. I want to marry only my friend whom i loved the most.
- November 9, 2011 at 10:45 am(457) Armania says:
I am depressed to the point it is making me angry because I cant shake the feeling… Im bipolar1 so I know why I feel this way but it doesnt make it easier to deal with! I can barely breath my head hurts and I cant stop shaking. I never knew that depression could cause you physical pain and this only upsets me more! I want to be happy feel normal… but I cant even though I feel this way for nothing I still cant make it stop! Im angry because nobody can help me and Im hurt because my pain and agony are invisible to people who are supposed to care how am I supposed to live like this with this curse!!!!! They dont care that Im sick they shouldnt care if I die Im tired of being strong for them when Im still weak inside sick tired lost I have to make it stop what purpose am I serving here living in misery its crazey my husband is right here!!!!!! right here serving no purpose no hug no reassurance nothing maybe its a sign that I have to find my own way out but I only know 1 Im past cutting myself just ot end up in a psych ward it just needs to be over once and for all
- November 9, 2011 at 12:33 pm(458) Armania says:
I dont know whats more pathetic the people who come to this site just to see what people put or the people who actually negatively critisize the posts?!!! how dare you judge us or give stupid uneducated advice! what type of person comes to a site for depression SUPPORT just to say negative crap and put people down who are really seeking the road to happiness and health? but you claim to have it figured out! why were you even on here what type of job do you have that gives you time to do this what school gave you a degree is psycology and if you dont have one (which is obvious due to the sheer ignorance and stupidity dripping from your words) what would give you the gull to do what you are doing? Not everyone on here is seeking attention or has it all figured out but we do know one thing ice cream and sunshine are not the quick fix your an asshole and if we were "happy and well put together" like you the last place we would be is here you damn sickos!!!!
- November 21, 2011 at 12:31 pm(459) josh says:
im 12 i get treaed like of crap this don help
- November 21, 2011 at 1:26 pm(460) mishi says:
Hey , I am Mishi. I am never happy. I am never satisfied. I smile all the time, but still I never smile in real. I make people laugh and help depressed people , solve their problem and stuff, but there is no one to help me. I just feel so dead inside, butkeep on pretending as if I am the happiest….. I just hate myself
- November 24, 2011 at 7:10 pm(461) Rachel says:
Oh I'm wayyyy beyond depressed. I found this to be informative and useful, but not really much help to me at all.
Many times I felt like there was no way out, never resulted to suicide thankfully. However, my mom I found out today actually attempted it and survived somehow. Not today, in Septemeber, though it wa shidden away from me. After we all had said goodnight, my mom secretly went into her bathroom, and started to delibrately overdose on pills. She vomited it all up and survived. Never knew it till I had accidentally overheard it coming down the stairs talking to my dad who came over. My mother's divorce, the loss of 12 grand and many other reasons probably resulted to that attempted suicide. Know that all of you out there aren't alone, someone out there loves you, don't ever result to take your own life, life is precious no matter what they say.
- November 26, 2011 at 5:36 am(462) hurt says:
hiya my name is evelyn and im nearly 17 i just wanted to share my story and hope that some one on here will want to be my friend and help me… my depression started in my first year of high school… i was bullied and the people i hung out with in primary school didnt want to hang out with me anymore. i got all the shit possible thrown at me from bullies. i have real problems with my weight and looks. no one cares for me… i was diagnosed with schizophrenia. i have bad depression and am really paranoid as well as having to deal with all the symptoms of schizophrenia. i cut everyday… cut open my wrists and arms so bad that i know have some permanent damage to the tendons and nerves of my left wrist. i have been in hospital for attempted suicide … no one cared. eevryone says they wish i was dead and i am a waste of life, i shouldnt be here. i have no one in my life… i have no where to go when my school life ends as i have no grades at all and no future. i wish i were dead… there is just no point in life…
if you want to talk to me then email me on email@example.com it would be really great if i could get help with this…
- November 28, 2011 at 5:53 am(463) dead. says:
i wish i was dead. please help…
- November 28, 2011 at 9:50 am(464) help me says:
Hey Im Evelyn and well I have been diagnosed with pretty bad depression and schizophrenia by my doctor. I hallucinate, hear voices and am horribly paranoid. My depression started when I was bullied in year 7 by my so called friends. Then everyone turned on me, I was called fat ugly and a loner and everything. When people realized I had schizophrenia it got worse. Not just verbal bulling but I got beat up a lot as well. I started self harming in year 11 when I was about 15. I tried to kill my self at 16. I cut myself everyday and have permanent scars and deep cuts. I wish someone cared. I really do, I wish I had a friend someone I can talk to I wish someone could help me :( all I can think about is cutting myself.
if you want to talk to me my email adress is email@example.com
- November 30, 2011 at 1:08 am(465) Ronny says:
I don't know how i got into this site, but, it's funny, i'm quite depressed with a lot of things in my life, and comin in here, i see sooo many beautiful people being depressed tooo, and i wonder why can't life be beautiful…
Anyways, i'm not gone talk abt my experiences of my life, but, inshort, i'm a Christian feel inlove with a muslim women, who i was very happy and proud to get her after lot of challenges, we got married, had a beautiful baby girl… life was beautiful for 2yrs and then things went wrong between us, and now for the last 6yrs we are stayin seperate, and i see my angel (daughter) once a week or maybe twice a month…
The twist happened is here, when i knew things r never gone work with ma x-wife, i made sure that i would never ever fall inlove with a muslim women or get married to another one… but, again unknowingly fell inlove with another muslim women and fell inlove so deeply, that her family got to know and she is in house arrest, i jst don't know what to do?? Shez ready to go through challenges and fight and somehow see if we could get married, but, my question again is I don't know if i should or not? i don't want another history happening.. will she be happy with me, if her family decides to disown her??
Anyways, thatz a lil bit abt me… let's see what universe has instore for us, but, my suggestion to lot of ppl is watch the DVD or read the book called "THE SECRET", it does help a lot of ppl and who knows it'll help you tooo…
No matter what, stay POSITIVE, don't allow depression to take over you… and whenever u feel it is, jst watch this DVD, and you'll feel better and will focus on what you actually have too!!
And most important, whatever religion you are in, pls PRAY everyday, love him and talk to him, he'l listen, have faith n belief in him, we are his children…
hope it helps
- December 4, 2011 at 1:00 pm(466) khyber noorzai says:
hello every body i am khyber from afghanistan, and i wanna share somthing that never been seen or heard
ok some thimes i think that i am very pissed and i am not as good as every body else please show me a way that can help me live happy
- December 6, 2011 at 5:07 pm(467) Grey says:
I dont feel the same as everyone else its seems weird coz when i got bullied i hated it but when it stopped i wanted someone to bully me so i made myself look like it would be fun to pick on me i dont want friends in fact i want everyone at my school to hate me but then thats hard being me and i want everyone to leave my alone when my parent ask about if i want friends round im like i dont have any and i dont want any and when ever someone says well done grey or wow you look nice today grey i hate it i hate when people say nice things about me and i hate it that this one boy tries to follow me aroud all the time i just want everyone to hate me you see thats the thing i never had any hope when i was a child my parents said it to me themselves hel why am i like this i want to be like this but i just want to know why help me PLEASE !!!! at least give me some advice please
Grey xxx
- December 11, 2011 at 1:13 am(468) Diana says:
yep, im depressed, freaken sucks.
- December 11, 2011 at 1:19 pm(469) mike says:
@ mishi – could you contact me by chance? I think that maybe we are somehow alike… my mail is firstname.lastname@example.com
- December 13, 2011 at 9:35 am(470) Jazz says:
Thanks, I took the test and read the stuff underneath afterwards… Doubt anyone'll read this but yeah… I think i'm depressed.. If I am, it sucks because i'm Christian, and have always declined anti depressant medication and stuff, just tried to pray and believe and stuff. Been a born again believer now for about four years, so it sucks and I don't really understand why I as a Christian should be going through depression… Not only that I got other crap i'm dealing with… sucks…
- December 14, 2011 at 4:30 am(471) angie says:
you poor people, it does get better, it makes me so sad when people kill themselves, most of the time its situations making people depressed, and people making us depressed, you need to get help from a gp and see a psychiatrist then claim disability benefits and then take control of your life, we are in control of our destinies, we can be whatever we want to be, my daughter has suffered from severe depression and i have stopped her killing herself a number of times, and stupid as this is going to sound do you know what got her through it? i bought her a german shepherd puppy, a dog thinks you are the best person in the world, they need you, they love you and they dont judge you, they are always there for you they will never let you down and they will never leave you, you need someone to love you, unconditionally there are also some lovely people out there who will love you for who you are its just a case of meeting them, you will meet that special person and youll be walking on air its just a matter of time, give your life a chance, give yourself a chance
- December 19, 2011 at 4:02 am(472) Calcifer says:
Personally I'm in the twilight zone, I've never thought of hurting myself but I am going nowhere in life.
One thing that helps me is music, just listening to a song that makes me feel… happy/makes me want to dance/just good. I like deep bass… it gives me a high to feel the thumping in my body. IF your feeling down try that… might help
- December 21, 2011 at 4:03 am(473) Whatever? says:
Ok, Going to post here again. Been depressed for about roughly 6 years now. Started when I was 15, when my grandparents broke up. Whom I grew up with, since my birth parents ditched me when I was 1. Was forced to leave school, and move away from all of my friends. Through the entire break up, nobody asked me how I was. I was simply swept aside, and not worried about.
I've also had alot of other thing's go wrong aswel, such as people, and pets dieng. Relationships going wrong. Being un-able to keep hold of a job for long, Constant acne break outs. All of this has ripped any confidence I may have had in the past, into tiny little pieces.
Yesterday my own uncle (Hes in his late 30′s, early 40′s) Picked a fight with me. I could have turned his face into mashed potatoes, the opportunity was there, had my fist raised right back, other hand at his throat area.. I could actually see the fear on his face. Took alot of self control to stop myself from doing it. I should have hit him harder, and not held back because hes family, family don't do that, He's no family of mine. I hope he rots in hell, the filthy kunt.
- December 23, 2011 at 12:23 am(474) Nobody says:
This is bull crap. I don't know if I'm depressed or just confused. And they do this crap to get you're paranoia up is all. So u can blow pointless money on "special" drugs to make you happy. Chocolate works better
- December 24, 2011 at 4:14 am(475) Justin says:
Idk my family are all idiots it's Christmas eve and haven't went shopping yet and my fat ass older brother is a wannabe rapper (he's white) and wears all these stupid fake jewelry and hasn't gotten a car job graduated etc. He's a punk ass failed that thinks he's cool. And my momma passed away in 2010. So yea and I have a gf that's my first love and she just yells at me for nothing just randomly it sucks and my father works from 5 am to 7am ugh!!!!! And everyone hates my gf and I can see y but all my closest friends including family make fun of her around me. And when I tell them to shut up they just laugh and wanna fight me…like what the he'll people ugh……..some life huh!!
- December 25, 2011 at 9:00 pm(476) meaner says:
I look back at photos of myself the last 7 years and I look terrible – just threw on anything. No wonder I got dumped, used and hookwinked. Making me really low. One of reasons was depression. I was on anti deps and tranqs. Stopped them
cold turkey. Bad withdrawals just went through it. No sleep,
irritable, and sad.
But won't go back because I got so obese it was out of control and no libido what is the point in no libido? And blurred eye sight.
Now I am on the radar looks wise. Can see clearly but this empty hole inside.
- December 25, 2011 at 9:05 pm(477) billy says:
It is my birthday today and I am still feeling low self esteem.
Look at myself and what a mess. Need an extreme makeo
- December 25, 2011 at 9:12 pm(478) olitia says:
depessed being a carer to other dep people drag u down
- December 25, 2011 at 9:16 pm(479) jason says:
Life is crap. Life is awful with no job, no friends, in debt, can't feel ok. No one cares if here or nt.
- December 26, 2011 at 1:30 am(480) Eddy says:
Now listen here you guys, I know depression is a bitch I'm depressed most of the time and to be honest my life is great but the sadness of others always brings me down, if my mom is sad I'm sad if my dad is pissed off I'm all pissed and sad they eventually get over it and I'm the one stuck with their crap running through my head!
I can't stand it. But you know what? I'm not going to see a doctor I'm not taking any pills I'm not going to follow anyone's advice!f**ck that!! No one truly gets how u feel
Get over it on your own figure out where the stress and pressure come from in your situation and get rid of them!
I'm moving out so I don't have to deal with them, they are fine the way they are, it doesn't bother them at all they vent and all that shit out and I can't
So I'm out
- December 28, 2011 at 1:26 am(481) spencer says:
Diagnosed with Bipolar II just after turning 21. Pretty much had depression forever. I feel so alone. Every day life eats away at me. I go through every single birthday and holiday alone. I am a college graduate, but I just feel like my life is going nowhere. I just turned 25 have minimal dating experience (never had a serious relationship or had sex) and I just feel so behind in life. I act like it doesn't bother me sometimes, but it just really hard. The longer it goes on the worse it gets. It is like a viscous cycle that you just want to go away. Sometimes I wish I was just gone to make the misery go away. I keep thinking this year will be different and things will change, but they don't. I made some progress last year, but not close to where I want it. I just feel life is starting to whiz and pass me by and that it is sink or swim time. I sometimes feel like I will always be alone (even though that is an extreme statement) and it scares me to death that I might never get married or have kids (which I want bad). I can't even contemplate feeling like this another year or two. I feel like such a failure and dissappointment from what I am capable of and can't seem to get out of the rut I am in. I constantly judge and compare myself to others. It feels like no one else is single and everyone has a job. I feel like the only person who feels this way even tho that is ridiculous.
- December 29, 2011 at 8:36 am(482) pinki says:
hello,when ever i see dead people in my dream,mostly it becomes true
in a single day.what to do not getting any thing.please help me.
waiting for your reply plz
- December 29, 2011 at 2:54 pm(483) Mike says:
My Girlfriend just left me , Im a personal trainer,, having a hard time getting my head back into it. But i have to say to everyone that is out there feeling bad and down.
I pray that Gods Will would be Done in my life. Over and over again.. I pray for peace and love that surpasses all understanding..
and It works.. Kinda scary really
- January 1, 2012 at 4:29 am(484) Sophia says:
At this moment, i dont have enough to pay for the rental, my daughter's school fee. I am broke, no way out.
if anyone out there, reading this, life is suck and the down hill of the global economic created these!
i have no job, no food and depress.
What is going on with my life, no hope no future. i am stil here is because of my little daughter. I can't leave her along at this cold world.
- January 1, 2012 at 1:56 pm(485) shahswat says:
its gud/………
- January 2, 2012 at 8:22 pm(486) Tina A. says:
I am divorced, I live alone. I have a grown son who lives 45 minutes away but hardly see since he is busy with his own life but we talk on the phone sometimes. I think deep down I am sad because I do not have a man to love me, I did for several years after the divorce, but we parted. Its been 2 years now and I just have no desire to go out anywhere except for work. I do work. The only thing I look foward to is having my grandchild spend the weekend with me bi monthly. So on weekends when I don't have grandchild, I stay in and watch tv, lay around, eat, and be on the computer. But I think I don't want to go anywhere and that I'm happy staying home. I want to meet someone but afraid to go out to do so and I don't really have many friends. I do know some girls that have an open invitation to go out with them but they go to clubs and I don't want to do that. I am 50 and just feel like my life is over. I AM REALLY REALLY ALONE. A lot of theses ppl have family and at least someone in their lives, even if parents.
So I tell myself: 'your life follows your words' since our minds control our emotions, that helps me to try to be positive. I don't know if its that I'm depressed or just got used to being alone n in my shell. I just don't feel really happy but not to where I want to kill myself because I love my son and grandchild too much to do that to them.
- January 3, 2012 at 8:29 pm(487) Seb says:
Once you hit rock bottom the only way is up chin up
- January 4, 2012 at 12:03 pm(488) Ramya says:
Hi frnds;-(
Am had loved a guy..am was very true in my love..unable to forget him..finaly today he asked me a question r u mad?ah its paining a lot..he dont likes me…am dying each and every moment..cant bear.its so horible.am feal the mst unluckiest girl in the world.my heart nt frgtng him.just my mind says to forgt him;-(;-(;-(even while am postg ths am was ful of tears.my heart brokng its like hell;-(help me plz;-(;-(
- January 5, 2012 at 2:35 am(489) Yolie says:
What helped me not feel depressed was to help others. I went to an orphanage in Mexico and realized how blessed I was to have the basic things in life such as food and shelter. These kids were in forced prostitution, beaten, no where to go and they still looked forward to a positive future!! So I said to myself why should I feel sad those "bad" experiences in my life only make me a stronger person. Life is too beautiful too waste my time crying and feeling sorry for myself!!!!! You just have to change your attitude and find something positive that fulfills your heart!! if u think no one loves theres just open your heart to god and he will listen and be next you!!! All of you are in my prayers so you could have a happier life!!!!!
- January 5, 2012 at 8:48 pm(490) betrayall says:
I am and always have been alone. Even when I was little I was left out of everything. I am the middle child and my brothers get all of the attention while I remain a shadow. No one would care if I disappeared. And no one ever will. People say they care or that I'm amazing or something but they are lying just like before I was old enough to go to school. I don't expect anyone to reply and try to help because I don't deserve it. I don't even know why I posted this in the first place since no one cares.
- January 6, 2012 at 11:53 pm(491) abandoned says:
Apparently I am depressed and need to see a doctor. Thanks, that's just what I need. I realize there is a whole science on depression and whatnot, but do you really think people are going to actually talk to a doctor? How many people want to go to a doctor and take pills that control your thoughts? I for one would hate it beacause in this world you don't get sympathy from others. You get laughed at and whispered about. There is no one that cares. If you think so wait until you hey stabbed in the back by those you trust. There is no one you can trust.
- January 7, 2012 at 9:16 pm(492) rose says:
If everything was easy, and there was no pain, no tears, no heartbreaks, what would we learn? What would we gain? Everything bad that happens makes us stronger and better people inside. It's not what lies ahead but HOW we get there. It's up to you if you want to stay down and let others bring and keep you down or become stronger, make something of your life and yourself. & that doesn't necessarily mean something huge. Just something that makes you happy and makes you feel alive. But when you do that- no one can take that strength away from you. When you can just smile and make the best of things just from the littlest and simplest things.
I used to sit at a huge lake whenever I had the chance. I'd stand there with the wind upon my face and brushing through my hair and I could see the sun reflecting on the water and the feel the warmth from above. It was all so beautiful. I'd watch the couples and families come and go and I'd smile. I smiled through the tears too because even though I was sad for my own reasons it made me happy to see other people happy instead of feeling sorry for myself and others, to see other people happy and living. Little kids stomping in puddles. To be young again would be lovely. But one day we will all find someone and be happy. Maybe have a family and everything we lost we can build on our own. If you keep pushing forward you'll feel alive again.
Just believe.
- January 8, 2012 at 8:12 pm(493) CoNfUsEd:/ says:
hi. i am very upset at the minute! i am 13 and i have a boyfriend. i really like him and we have known eachother since we were 4! we both respect eachother, we tell eachother absolutely everything, our problems, how our day was, if we needed to talk.. anything! and we speak 24/7 but my friend told me they were playin around on facebok chat and my friend asked him who would he rather, me or my best friend and he said me but my best friend isnt very far behind:/ he told me on new years day that he loved me! and i believed him.. in fact, i still do! he tries his best to talk to me every day and he calls me everyday without fail! he has liked me since we were 7 and i felt the same way but our feelings for eachother had been blabbered out 9 months ago and this isnt some young, silly love. it is true love! i talk about how nice of a boy he is and he tells me all the time that he misses looking into my eyes and seeing me just after we leave eachother and he never ever talks about my friends! i asked all his friends and he has never spoke about her to them. his friends said that the only thing he talks about is me and that he goes on about how lovely i am and how nice of a couple we make! he told me that he truly loves me! i felt like crying but in a good way when he told me! but he said he didnt like my best friend! i dont know what to do! please help me! i have been thinking about this since i found out 2 days ago and i need help! please!! :'( i cant stop thinking about him! i always look through the pictures of me and him! it always makes me smile! so.. should i really be worrying about my best friend or should it be a problem to us?? thanks for reading this and i really hope u help me out. :/
- January 8, 2012 at 11:22 pm(494) ana says:
i feel like nobody loves me i feel lonely after my second pregnancy i wasnt able to take all the pounds off my husband constantly tells me how fat i am and i beem getting the feeling of getting a knife and cutting my stomach of just to please him he always makes me feel like shit
- January 10, 2012 at 2:55 pm(495) lonely/depressed says:
i feel depressed about things most of the time and i need someone to talk to about this because i feel really lonely email me please at firstname.lastname@example.com if u want to talk
- January 11, 2012 at 2:35 am(496) Nhancy says:
Life hurt :'(
- January 11, 2012 at 5:19 am(497) Ellie Pearson says:
Please take 15 minutes to complete the quick experiment below, it's really easy and you get to watch funny clips. I am especially looking for those suffering from depressive symptoms, so please help if you can. It's completely anonymous. Thanks X
- January 12, 2012 at 1:13 am(498) Jay says:
Sometimes I get weird mood swings. I feel happy but then I feel as if I'm faking it. I have lots of friends and family. But I feel tired. I feel like my friends are pretending to be my friends. I want to sleep all day. I stay in my room and read till I'm tired. I get horrible headaches and tunnel vision but my doctor says its due to lack of water. I hate going outside during the day because the sun hurts my eyes and I feel like I'm going to pass out. I tell my mom that I think may be depressed but she tells me that I shouldnt be because when she was in highschool she was bullied all the time and that I'm just over thinking things. My dad chose drugs over me when I was in 6th grade and my 2 best friends have moved away. I don't think my parents take me serious about how I feel but at times I don't think I can go on anymore. I feel like running away. I'm 14.
- January 14, 2012 at 11:51 am(499) Tania says:
My situation is exactly like yours above except for the dad thing.My mum didn't really give a damn when I told her that I was depressed.She's a nurse working in these kind of parts what a fail -_- I've always felt like running away but I don't know where to start and how.My parents made me move to a place I really HATE ,making everything worse.I hated my childhood before but this is too much.I don't want to go anywhere .Tried sorting it out by getting a penpal but it's a fail.Now I found out my bestest friend isn't coping without me she was the only person I was ever with she was they only one who made me laugh.My lifes falling apart …I can't smile not a fake one my own won't come out.I just wanna sleep forever.. …Gosh they've made my life hell I'm 14 .
- January 16, 2012 at 1:54 am(500) . says:
sometime i feel as if there isn't a true purpose of live there is poverty all around us we work hard whenone day we know were going to die it dosen't make any sense my mom died when i was 9 years old when she passed away on that very night now i live with my "gurdians i live inside a cramped room cold and dark yet we still bother paying 500 dollars a week i only get to se my dad once a week 6 hours sometimes less its true of what they say money can't buy us happines life is full of imperfections so why are we alive did god want us to live a life that was meaning less? wouldn't it be better if we all didn't exist
- January 16, 2012 at 12:33 pm(501) listen everyone says:
Hi Everyone. There is alot of people commiting they feel so alone and nobody understands.
Take time out to read other people's problems and your realise you are not alone
there are alot of people dealing with depression some may think they have it worse than others or nobody has suffered as much as they have.
It does not matter how old you are, at any age you can feel depression so do not worry if you think you are to young to feel depressed
But from that i will say there is no point worrying and being depressed from being in love at a young age. Reading some comments has made me realise there are a lot of young ages getting hurt and thinking there life has come to a end when they have broken up with there boyfriend/girlfriend
the feelings you may have will cause you to think it is real love and your life will be nothing without this person.
Please take time to step back and realise you are still very young and have your whole life infront of you to go through those feelings. enjoy your life when you are young make the most of everything that you come across
you are only young once and at this age you will not want to believe it but later on in time you would wish you could have those young days back
hopefully i have helped with any problems you may have?
if there are still question u would want answering then please dont be afraid to ask…
- January 16, 2012 at 7:13 pm(502) realistic_depression says:
ok. it seems to me that alot of people on here are writing posts about how bad they are feeling (sometimes its good to let feelings out) and then reply saying that any advice given is b-shit. this means to me that these people are just attention seeking, i dont mean that in a nasty way. i myself am depressed and have tried to take my life on three occasions, ending up in hospital. i found the best way to deal with it is to talk to aprofessional, they dont provide instant answers. but you must stick with it.
- January 18, 2012 at 5:44 am(503) vicky says:
i can do anything for her bt therefor she is hurting me 2mch an i cant tel her hw mch she's hurting bcoz i love her to mch….an she says i love u too…bt i dnt knw why m getting 2 mch HURTS…
- January 19, 2012 at 3:30 pm(504) Nirvana says:
I am the most heartbroken person right now. My friend said i need to look in the mirror and that nobody went out with me before. They said i'm a show-off and all i care about is my phone, facebook, nintendo etc. I am crying so badly and i need help, i don't know who to talk to.
- January 21, 2012 at 6:11 am(505) razeen says:
asalamu alikum everyone of my brother and sisters plz i need a job in anywear of this world and i can do anykind of job plz now iam in sooooooooo much defecal condition in my life becouse i have 3 sisters and 1 brother thay ar small i need to cear tham iam now 25 years old my father is in home he not cear the family only my mother halp us to study yet but now my mother in sick plzzzzz halp me i not need a money from you all only i need from you a job i can do anykind of job and anytime plz do this halp plz allah god halps ur family more happy only iam having for my family to healp plzzzzz insha allah plzzzzz my brother and sisters i pray for you all gat a jannathul firdouse if you like to help me plz this my mail ID (firstname.lastname@example.com)
- January 23, 2012 at 4:29 pm(506) cathrine says:
I am 15 and a have been wanting to end my life since a was 14 a dont know why a want to do it a just hate my self and a feel ugly and fat all the time a feel like evrey one stares at me and whisper about me saying she is fat and horrible a dont want to be that girl a want to be pretty a dont want to be the fat ugly beast anymore a just cant take is anymore a want to end my life so bad but a dont want to hart my family a haven't told them am feeling like this but evrey time a have tryed to talk to them they don't listen the onley thing that is stopping me from taking me life is my nephew love him so much x
- January 23, 2012 at 5:25 pm(507) sdfg says:
This sucked!!!!
- January 23, 2012 at 6:58 pm(508) cristian says:
that is no help at ALL i already know im depressed
- January 24, 2012 at 8:20 am(509) alma says:
i hope someone could help my friend sh wants her family back
- January 25, 2012 at 6:32 am(510) Calcifer says:
Get them together and talk it out, tell them that you like them both and they are both equally as important to you.
Tell your boyfriend (he seems to be the only one with the problem?) that if he cant stand your friend that he isnt looking at what is best for you.
- January 25, 2012 at 6:38 am(511) Calcifer says:
@cathrine Don't do anything, cling onto your nephew make him your center of attention, do everything you do for him.
- January 26, 2012 at 6:14 am(512) alex says:
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression since i was 10. I have been taking different medications since this time. I started on a child's antidepressant that made me gain alot of weight, I stopped after a couple of years and had to restart since the age of 14. It probably stemmed from being hit by a teacher and my parent's divorce and not having any friends. I am now 22, I have a decent job, I want to kill myself again and it seems like my life is really shit. I live with my girlfriend whom i love, I hate my life, I have taken many medications over the years, SSRI's, SNRI's, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, it seems that the medication is never enough and nothing is never right. I am sick of everything, why wont it stop. I've been through the cutting and the hospitalisations and the ambulances. It just doesnt end, Im sick of it.. I want these feelings to stop, I would prefer for my life to just… float away in my sleep. Its a suffocating feeling of ineptitude, on one side you have exhausting rage at yourself for being in the situation you are in and the feeling that why is my life so bad, think of the people starving in africa and it makes me even more depressed that they have nothing and probably do not know better, or that they are begging striving for a better future whilst we are spoiling ourselves. I want to end it – it will happen within the next week, I am sick of the thoughts, I will asphyxiate myself with a rope, my poor gf. my poor family. But at the same time they are sick of it and just wished that I would do it already. It must be draining for them. I hate myself soo much for what I have become and what I will be in the future. I could make a difference to the world perhaps? – but it will be a what if scenario, because I am ending it.. Tomorrow night is the night it will happen.
- January 29, 2012 at 1:52 am(513) you are loved says:
I feel for every one of you just as I am sad for myself. Please don't give up. I don't understand this either but we need you.
- January 30, 2012 at 12:05 pm(514) paul says:
there are so many people suffering from depression that just dont get the help they need, im autistic and have had relationship issues for the last year and it has slowly took its toll on me, every argument causes me to have a serious breakdown and i live each day contemplating suicide. Having autism means i have a huge heart and feel upset so much more than normal to the point the only reason i am still here is because i wouldnt want to upset or hurt the ones i love and miss with all my heart by simply ending my life. it makes matters so much worse when you feel like nobody understands and it tears you apart insode, my heart is so with each and every one of you that are suffering from depression, it has to be the most destroying thing a person can go through, ive cut my wrists, taken huge overdoses and jumped off bridges, in front of moving traffic etc but im still here (unfortunately!) people always say things will get better but how the hell do you pull yourself out of this depression and feeling like our lives are so worthless?? somebody please help me.
- January 30, 2012 at 6:04 pm(515) Anon says:
Go to church.
- January 30, 2012 at 6:06 pm(516) Amanda says:
Paul, give me your email or twitter and we can have some emails. I would like to help you if I can. On Twitter I am @starsabre.
- January 31, 2012 at 8:59 am(517) Jenie says:
My Mum is forcin me to study in india..and my dad wants me to come back to london..my mum never listens..i feel like killin' myself..m 13 years old and i want to be with my family..i don't like living in india with a caretaker..please tell me what to do im really sad
- February 1, 2012 at 4:36 pm(518) Chellie Wellie says:
I'm not sure that I'm depressed. I don't know whats wrong with me. I have two wonderful boys (9and 2) But I can't seem to keep up with them. I use to be so energized. But then I got on meth like 8 years ago. I was there for like 9 months but walked away myself. Saw it was not a life for my son. But now it's like I can't get back to the normal me. Out going and energetic, just full of life. I have tried some of the over the counter energy boost. They bring you up fast and then you drop. I don't know if it has something to do with my age (36) or if there is something really wrong with me to where I need to see a doctor. I'm happy with my family and my self. Not sure if this is the right site to be on. Every time I type in I have no energy it says are you depressed. lol Well if anyone could help me or tell me where I should go for help please let me know. I don't really have the money to go to a doctor unless I know something is wrong ya know. Thank you all Prayers for you guys too ~ <3 ~
- February 1, 2012 at 9:53 pm(519) charlene says:
I thank we all go through something, we have are ups and downs. And we have to pray about it, and ask 'God to help use and see use through what every were going through. Only 'God can get use through the hard times, but we must pray and tell him whats going on inside of us. I know that im depress, because i lost someone very special to me. My mother not long ago, but im believing in 'God to get me through this hard time. And i know he will because he loves me. So there is nothing wrong with you, your just going through a hard time now but pray. And keep praying and asking.
- February 2, 2012 at 11:34 pm(520) Heartbroken says:
I am so depressed, life it's hard for me. I have my daughter and she has autism, she is the sunshine of my life. I have my mother that I take care of that suffers from bypolar. Around 31 I found the love of my life. With all my baggage he loved me for who I was and my daughter. Then he got cancer again, now five years later the cancer got him. I can never win and trust me I try to be so optimistic but I can not never win. I feel like I failed at life. I write here cause I know noone will know who I am. Even my dog I brought 6 years ago suffers from epilepsy. Sometimes I feel like walking infront of a bus make it look like an accident, just having real horrible thoughts, but then I think of my daughter and I can't, ,my love for her outways all those horrible feelings ….. So I am here with a severe broken heart, my sick beautiful mother, and my beautiful daughter. If it wasn't for her I would I have done it. Before I never believed in luck, I pray all the time and believed in destiny, but after all this maybe one day or evening just for two hours I will one day be the most happiest luckiest person in the world, for now I am just numb ………..
- February 6, 2012 at 11:40 am(521) Smiley says:
Never give up, the darkest hour is just before dawn.
When you feel all alone there is a God in heaven who is only a prayer away. And when you have done all to stand; stand and see the salvation of the Lord.
I no what its likee to feel alone and scared. But the only thing that helps me, is my relationship with God and my church family.
May God bless you and encourage you.
- February 9, 2012 at 12:40 am(522) Neomoon says:
Hey guys, im 14 and i need a hug…. my depression is mainly from heartbreak, but the thing is, its killing me. You guys wont care cause you have better stuff to do, but, i just need help…. from friends, not parents, i feel like they dont understand….thanks for looking at what i have to say
- February 9, 2012 at 3:01 pm(523) Luce says:
I don't really know why I'm so depressed lately…..I just feel like I'm wothless and at other times i feel to ashamed to talk to someone….my whole family has noticed a difference in me…
Like i used to be so outgoing when i was younger. now all i really want is be alone in my room with the light turned off…..at times i would wake up in the middel of the night even if im tiered as hell….id stand in front of my mirror and look myself in the eyes and tell myself what i loser i was that no one loves me and that i wanted to kill myself….only i wouldent….. i would say to the reflection in the mirror "I"ll kill you"
and then hours later id wake up again and think it was a nightmare….i even taped it to make sure if i did it or if it was just a dream…
i always cry myself to sleep. i walk out of class…..and the worst part is at times i think the only person who could help me is my ex…
and since me and him arent on speaking terms since he got me pregnant two times and i had a miscarage without my knowledge of being pregnant the first time and the second time i got in a car accident…..
and yet something in me is telling me to that he can help me….and i know he wont…..he an ass……….i just dont know what to do…..
- February 9, 2012 at 7:18 pm(524) fromthesouth says:
i hate myself for many things. For having hit my child instead of being patient enough to help him with his frustrations. I hate myself for the lack of sex with my husband for over two years now. I hate myself because I feel I am a failure at my work, and all my coworkers know it, they just never say anything to me. I hate myself for all the years of emotional and physical abuse endured at the hand of my father who refuses to apologize and arrogantly says he would do it all over again. I hate myself for all the years of physical and emotional abuse at the hand of my mother. I hate myself because their evil ways sometimes come out in me, and it's a constant fight I have to myself to control it. But sometimes slips out, like today, when I hit my handsome toddler boy. I don't agree with spanking, hitting kids at all, and yet I did it today. If I could only screw my head on right and start fixing things. God please help me.
- February 12, 2012 at 1:09 pm(525) shreya says:
after searching for an year i got engaged the problem is that i cant hear with my left ear as it. does nt work bcz once i met with an accident ..,. so how? when??? should i tell my fiance about my problem whether. before or after marriage ???? i am frightened that if i inform begoe marriage he may break up with mee …. plz do reply. … hope u reply
- February 14, 2012 at 6:41 am(526) paige says:
i have tried medications seeing councilors nothing is helping me i dont know what to do next, i feel stupid and embarist to keep telling people how im feeling i feel like im botheringing them i feel constantley like im nervous and my head hurts. my favourite thing to do is sleep cause when im awake i hate the way i feel i cant even explain it, i just want it to end
- February 16, 2012 at 3:05 am(527) Julian says:
It's funny. I make people happy, and cheer them up whenever they have problems, or feel sad
….. But nobody makes me happy. My friends try. But they never could really do it. The girl I love doesn't love me, she picked someone else over me. And i feel like the guy she loves is always gonna be more of a man i ever will be. Im always alone. And I alway have thoughts of killing my self. I think I'm never gonna commit it. But it's always in my head because it seems easy. Even thought deep down nobody wants to die. But they believe that it's their only solution to all their troubles.
I always say that to myself everyday to overcome it. Nobody should live a life like this. It completely destroys the persons meaning to live.
I wish I could be happy to finally get these images out of my head, and just…… Be happy ….
Oh well. I guess that's why god gave me two perfectly working legs, so I can just rub off everything on my shoulders and just keep walking…..
- February 18, 2012 at 1:02 am(528) Kusum says:
very bad…….wont help
- February 18, 2012 at 2:59 pm(529) lonleygirl says:
Im going through a split up with my bf/ex now im just so heart broken and depressed i want to die idont want to live anymore, im not worthanything no one likes me im not good at anything myconfidence is through the floor kill me. He has a gf now all he does is taunting me about herand his life, he says he still loves me and he doesnt love her..but he wont make time to see me. I hate myself and everything about me..my little girl is better of without me she deserves better i realy want to die.
- February 20, 2012 at 12:20 am(530) Unknown says:
Okay well Im 16. & my birthday was this Friday It was one of the worst birthdays ever & ever since February 15 Ive been crying every night for no reason. On the day of my birthday, only 10 people actually congratulated me. I presence death. Not for me doe. I took the survey quiz & it said I am depressed. I just don't know if I am or not. Help!
- February 20, 2012 at 2:04 pm(531) Mr Stay Positive says:
"Those who are of the poor mind, are of the lack of confidence" All of you people, just need someone to give you a pat-in-the-back. Look guys, There's children starving and dying in Africa. They'd be crying oceans of BLOOD to be able to sit in your position, with a LAPTOP. With Education. etc. You are all just going through something we all have to go through. Just look out the world and smile. Look how beautiful the sun is, How lucky of a person you are, How lucky of a person you are to be blessed with friends, families, and even a SOUL. You, Yes you. YOU are BEAUTIFUL. No matter who, or WHAT you are. No matter what you THINK you are. No matter if you're depressed or NOT depressed. YOU are HAPPY. All that you need to do, is SHOW IT.
Love and Smiles
+ Mr Stay Positive +
- February 20, 2012 at 3:32 pm(532) anonymous says:
10/10 did i ace it?
- February 20, 2012 at 5:58 pm(533) jasmine says:
i hate life
i hate people that hate me
i hate when my friends are mad at me (and they are for cutting myself)
- February 21, 2012 at 12:19 am(534) 11 and so depressed says:
I am 11 and have had thoughts of suicid. Luckyly my friends talked me out of it i cut my self and once i bleed so much i passed out i need help dont know how to get it though
- February 21, 2012 at 12:25 am(535) 11 and so depressed says:
Plz noone commite suicidde. My friend told me this
God gave u ur life so live it
God gave u ur mom so deal with her
God loves u no matter what u say or do
- February 22, 2012 at 3:02 pm(536) Laura says:
I'm fourteen and I dunno what's wrong, I'm constantly crying, im sad, im hopeless, I hurt myself kind of as a way of self punishment for being alive. I feel so lonely and I put on a brave face every day. I try to be positive and grateful for what I may have, but it doesn't make any difference and for some reason I cant imagine myself as an adult, or growing up, It feels like my life will just stop one day, sooner or later, and its too painful. Wish I could control it and be like everyone else.
- February 25, 2012 at 4:39 am(537) danielle says:
i trust someone but ive just met her on facebook. we have chatted and i really like her but she doesnt want to talk to me now?
- February 28, 2012 at 3:35 am(538) dominic says:
i was angry a lot of the time now just sad goin 2 the docs bout this in a sec maybe he can help i hope so 4 my sake cuz theres nutin else 2 do after this
- March 4, 2012 at 2:51 pm(539) Maggot says:
what a load of crap!so,i am depressed,wow,i didn`t know that.thanks for nothing,sharlatan.
- March 6, 2012 at 11:13 am(540) Victoria Roffe vicki-aaronn says:
Things ben so fersutoreateing lately. all agrueing lately. and with my family dramma i just cant take it any more- im so upset at every thing need a counsaulur. my son gets me mad i dont mean to just im having a bad day so i yell. me and my boyfriend geting mad at eatch other dont help none. i just cant control my self much longer. i love my family most i just cant control it any more- i get so mad at him it isnt even funny, my bf such a ass, so i be a bitch back.
- March 6, 2012 at 11:20 am(541) victoria and arron says:
please any addvice for me. my email email@example.com or..email@example.com. i go on yahoo messanger or facebook alot www,facebook.com
i love my son so much cant beleive hes 5 already getitng so big and i wouldnt live wiht out h im. ill leave my bffirst before any thing i cant even do that because of htis love spell im unders i cant leave i love him been with him a whole yr and where engaged.. we bicker fight like money and such but where trying . but my pationts aint very good. i get madyell. and i dont wanna do it any more i got no pationts please help me any advice ANY ADVICE.A ND ILL CHECK ON HERE IF PEOPLE GOT IDEAS TOO CALM MY PATIONTS DOWN NOT EATING EAITHER GOT A BAD HABIT OF THAT my son is spencer nathaniel. and i take it out on him yelling but i dont mean tt im just so anoyed lately neeeeed more romance with my bf all he cares about spending time with what he wants to do and work and money for gas and cigs. witch all hes been doing. and i want family time nobody ever wants to
- March 6, 2012 at 3:27 pm(542) SoftailGirl says:
I am severely depressed too. My lover cruelly dumped me after a whole year together. I was crushed. I have still not recovered 6 months later. I have lost all my friends. My phone is always silent now, it never rings anymore, I practically ignore it these days because it is such a disappointment. I feel totally alone and like no one wants me, not even as a friend. I have been on anti-depressants and seeing a therapist, but nothing is helping. I feel barely in control of my emotions and my life. It's a miracle I still have a job. I am miserable most of the time now, with periods of anger and extreme frustration. or crying my eyes out. It's an awful thing to feel you don't want to live anymore, that life has nothing for you. I have every material thing anyone could want, and I am still miserable. All I wanted was someone special to love and be loved, and the intimacy that goes with it. I thought I had it, and it was ripped from me. No one cares. I know I should try to learn love myself, but how can I when I feel so utterly rejected by everyone. I just wish I was never born.
- March 12, 2012 at 12:22 pm(543) Becky says:
My boyfriend died a couple weeks ago in a car accident. I loved him but now he's gone and I'm here alone with SO many questions. Ive been feeling most of these symptoms of depression and yes I'm only in 8th grade but I think I might have some type of depression. I am miserable. And idk what to do.
- March 17, 2012 at 12:36 am(544) Angel says:
I try my hardest everyday, but it seems like I'm never good enough. I fake a smile and everyone believes it. Acting happy when I'm not comes as a second nature to me, and I know that's not okay. Why can't I just be myself? Because myself isn't good enough, that's why. I'm living a lie, no one knows me. I don't even know myself. I can only deal with the hurtful words of others for so long. Pretty soon I might break. I can constantly feel judgmental eyes burning right through me, I might act like it doesn't bother me, but it really does. A lot. All I want is to be beautiful, to be accepted. But I'm not and I never will be. Why can't I just be someone else?
- March 17, 2012 at 2:29 pm(545) anonymous says:
yes i am very UNhappy. i want to get back to my skinnier self i hate being chubby , am so frustrated and my bf is so annoying , he jus cares abt him self and his life and his problems, he screws up with his life all the time and i have to deal with his wining. he is old enough to not screw up all the tym , heck i am a year younger to him and already know what i want and i definetly dont screw up like him. and so help me god if i try to advice him !!!!!!!!!!!
- March 17, 2012 at 3:01 pm(546) Prince Abert Barrow says:
this is my comment . i am 27 years old & i am beginging to realise that i am depressed on a daily and i am truly scared to get some help because i dont want to end up staying in one of theoes crazie people homes. so what do i do ?? i mean serioulsy i fell like i am going to either expled or end up running in front of a car or something extreemly worse like i dunno cruisifiny myslef downtown just what do i do life cant be this bad can it ???????????????? heeeeeeelllllllpppppp
- March 17, 2012 at 10:30 pm(547) always anon says:
reading all these comments makes me so sad, and wonder why does life have to hurt so bad– i just know that it does, but not for ever! and if i could, i would, reach out and hug each and everyone of you– and say " don't give up cause right around the corner is the sun, and life doesnt always have to hurt. there are always seasons, and they are everchanging, you just gotta wait each one out—it will be ok
- March 19, 2012 at 1:56 am(548) daz says:
I'm 16 and I am extremely depressed. I don't know what started it, but I think it started about a year and a half ago. Six months ago I got shingles (the disease) and now have chronic pain in back because of it. I've taken lots of these depression tests and they all say I'm at high risk for severe depression. I just don't see the point in anything, because in the end no one will care and they will just forget. I just want my brain to turn off. I told my parents how I felt and they straight up FORGOT. Like I never mentioned it. I started cutting and burning my arm about a month ago, and now I am very worried that I won't be able to hide it. I have no one to talk to, and I don't want to bring it up to my.parents again because I don't think I will be able to take it if they forget again.
- March 19, 2012 at 2:09 am(549) daz says:
@Angel I feel almost exactly the same way. No one knows I am depressed, and if they did they would just think I'm a freak trying to get attention. In my mind I am constantly pointing out all my mistakes and flaws and I just wish my brain would stfu. I am so sorry for you, hopefully it will help to know that you're not alone
- March 19, 2012 at 1:41 pm(550) Tired says:
It's really annoying when people use stupid platitudes like 'life will get better'.
It's one thing when you're as young as most of you are. There is a good chance that it actually canl and you can do things to make that happen.
It's different when you're older. I've stuck around long enough and life hasn't gotten any better. There are only times when it marginally sucks less. I'm tired of struggling with the same old garbage for no reason that makes sense to me and I know it's not going to get better. Life in this society is always just a carrot being dangled in front of your nose. I don't want to be in a world where you only get to look at what you can never have, and I don't mean only the things money can buy.
I've had episodes of depression most of my life & am in my 50′s now. So I figure I have a right to be tired of it all. I've stuck it out this long and have nothing to show for it.
To all you kids, get to the bottom of what you're really hiding from – the thing your depression is a mask for, most likely something you're angry or frustrated about but are afraid to tell yourself the truth about. Then figure out what you really want and don't let anything stand in your way. I didn't do that soon enough and my life hasn't and never will be worth a damn because of it. The thought of ending this is just the biggest relief, the most peaceful feeling I've had in ages.
- March 19, 2012 at 8:31 pm(551) Alfred says:
Im 35 and I've had depression for 13 yrs now. I've cried and had suicidal thoughts since that long. I just don't have the courage to kill myself and I don't like popping pills so I don't like taking antidepressants. I have low self esteem, live in shoe box, no money, and never really had a girlfriend. On top of that my health has gone down a little. It sucks being alone!
- March 21, 2012 at 8:29 pm(552) Paul says:
I typed in cant sleep…ended up ere on a Google search yeah..ad alot of crap happen of late..kidding myself ok..heard from ex…more lies..tears..blah blah..wear my heart on my sleave…nearly got sucked in…lifes ard…i need a cuddle x x im so tired…..please people Dont give up x x we all just need a cuddle n loves…fuck them all!!people that ave hurt us,miss led us,stolen our hearts fucked us up!still trying 2fuck us up!!!come on!!!!lets get2gether….stick2gether…prove them wrong…we're tough!!!…we no better …we no .more….we cant let them grind us down…x x x my love to you all…Paul..39years young..UK…x x x
- March 22, 2012 at 10:11 pm(553) Alex says:
Hi I'm kinda new I don't think I'm even "clinicly" depressed I jest don't no what to do… U might no a person who is kinda like a middle man an everybodys friend that's me, the only problem is Im like a 5 wheel not really needed everyone has a better friend than me keep in mind I go to a school with26 people in my grade I'm only 14 but I feel brokeneveryone I no looks at me from a crow of me always alright.., ITS WRONG!! I can't find a girlfriend, a best friend, or anything! All of my succes was taken away from me by my oldest of friends! No one ever asked the 4th question if u mo what I mean i'm always forgotten and I can't find anything to live for ironicly I don't think I could find anything to die for either :/ but I'm tired… Broken … Defeted I'm only 14, I don't no what to do it's not like I'm abused or in hard times my familys rich!! We own a plane for cryin out loud! But not happy with jest about anything and u r probly thinking what everyone does " he's a rich kid he's jest complaint his trubles army neerly as bad as ours!!! " and that's the thing u c no one cares much for me because they think everyone else cares for! My bitter irony alwys gets worse and mo one listens to me! The only way I make it everyday is because I try to enjoy the little things and because I'm a devout Christian ( Wich has helped alot ) I'm broken I feel um wanted pleese help.
Thank u fir reading this thank u alot
- March 26, 2012 at 10:33 pm(554) Worried says:
I am at definite 9/10 and am a bit worried. Wonder if I should do something about it.
- May 4, 2012 at 12:23 am(555) surfer chick says:
I don't know what this website is but I'm kinda glad I found it. I've just felt really depressed for quite awhile now but i.don't know why I am I have a great loving family a really good boyfriend and great friends and I try to act a normal a possible with everyone but sometimes I just feel really low. But again I don't know why I guess I just want the answer flat out like that but I can't get it. I'm a sixteen year old girl in high school my grades are so bad I may get left back which terrifies me. But I just feel like I don't know. I don't know what to feel I used to hurt myself allot but stopped but then I thought of suicide and still do from time to time. I actually don't even know why I'm here talking on this but I guess I just want to talk to someone who kinda understands and doesn't think I'm crazy you know what I'm saying ? I just don't know why I feel so depressed all the time. Sometimes I'm really happy but then every little thing gets to me and I know it hurts my boyfriend which kills me and I feel bad for him and everyone else. His and my two year anniversary is in less than a week and I don't want to be so upset I don't know I guessing I'm saying this for some advice as to why I'm like this and have these thoughts for no reason at all. any advice someone can help with ? And even of no one answers thanks for your time and it was just nice to be able to get this off my chest. Thank you.
- May 9, 2012 at 9:33 pm(556) Pam says:
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- May 29, 2012 at 11:05 am(557) Aras says:
Idk wat a spell caster is, but i do know i became depressed after my cuzin died for about a year and a half all i wanted to do was slit my wrists and hope id die eventually but while i was depressed i felt weird kinda carefree becuz nothing meant shit! But during that i had no one all my besties had bfs and never time for me. So i was alone and i met one of my best friends exs and he was there for me everyday as a good friend helping me through it telling me id be ok and eventually i it helped me help and we dated and trust me ppl meeting new ppl and opening up is key it helps heal u slowly but open up to a good person or make a new friend and slowly open to them ok it truelly helps alot this medical stufff doesnt do anything at all!!!
- May 31, 2012 at 2:08 pm(558) ali says:
I am 25. i have noted that the more i am depressed, the more i have general level thoughts in negative sense. I want to weep but have no reason to coz most of my failures are due to my SELF.
But i still want to live and still want to do something better for my family and be proud. But i have not yet made the HIT. whenever i had the opportunity to strike, this damn depression took me over and i was yet again left with same dreams and open eyes in wilderness wondering on whom to shed tears over.
Its a tough world!
- June 12, 2012 at 5:21 pm(559) JER0EN R0LAND says:
i was born in a boring country The Nederlands, i feel me unhappy in this country, i did have friends, be unemployed and have idea that my life is worse. I don't be happy with my life, this is not what had in mind. I have no future,people do not understand me, because they not can see i have autism. I hate Netherlands so much not give any future.
- June 17, 2012 at 7:27 am(560) tayla says:
my name is tayla im 13 almost 14 most of the time im a happy girl my mum and i fight alot and it makes me really sad and at times i cant take it im not the type of person to talk about things i dont like talking about things with my family or friends my best friend told me i should get help so i talked with this lady at my youth groupe it didint really help i dont like opening up to peopel i take things to heart alot and i try to teach my self to breath when i get angry i remember my mum got up in my face one day so i hit her that was the day everything came out now when she yells at me we get in to a screming match and the people next door called the cops on us and mum said it was all me i got so angry i started yelling at the police man so he put me in cufs and i was in a padded sell for 18 hrs till i calmed down i do think i have a problem and i do blame my self for things when i shouldent i am a lot older in my mind and body then what i really am i mean i had been raped at the age of 7 and i never told anyone i was so unhappy with my self i felt like it was my foult he did that stuff to me and when i am depressed i sometimes do things to my body that harm me and it just let and the anger out
it feels like all the blood that runs out or my arms and legs is all the evil coming out of me when i was a baby my mother told my when i got crisoned the old man who did it called my a dievl child and i would make everyones life bad and i have bad luck all my life maybe he was right i dont have many friends at school i dont really go to school
P.S sorry about my spelling im not very good
- June 27, 2012 at 12:10 pm(561) jime says:
well i don't know if i'm depressed 'cause one day i feel god and the next day i feel like crap and just wanna cry have you ever get addicted to sadness well guess i am and that makes me feel even worst its like i don't even understand myself
- June 30, 2012 at 12:31 am(562) damaged says:
I feel for all the people on here! I feel the sadness the anxst the abuse the torture the hardache the blame the tiredness the lost feeling the nervousness the abandonment and above all i feel the lack. why are there so many of us who feel this way? why cant i find any of you? I feel like the more i let on about myself the more it pushes people away! I tried to take my life fairly recently but couldnt go through with it and the sad thing is no one knew i could probably go two or three weeks before anyone would even notice I thought i was fine and getting better things seemed so different from so long ago but now i feel it again i go home no one is waiting i have no family who care what happens to me nor friends who arent dealing with their own demons. I had a horrible childhood but im sure there are people who have had it worse but i feel pain is universal we suffer it the same and in every degree and now not even my x of 7 years my first boyfriend the one person who knows me best doesnt want to have anything to do with me i feel so abandoned all i have are two cats who love me unconditionally but i worry that is nowhere near enough. People can be so cruel to eachother sometimes the lack of them around you is worse then them hating you Since i was 7 i didnt want to exist i hated life I have been sad all my life and although we find small pleasures they cant fill this gap of lack I stop and think hard if my presence is even needed and it is not no one needs me i dont even love myself i hate who i am i hate who i have become and i have lost the will to change why? I will now have been depressed for a total of 18 years I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up
- August 26, 2012 at 11:58 pm(563) pickels says:
In life – I am a daughter. I am a wife. I am a mother. I cry but tears wont come out. It is all dryied up. I am cold but a blanket wont warm me up. I am sad but the sun still has to shine.It is gray and heavy but there still is rainbow. i have hope but cant seem to find it these days.I pray but i gess not hard enough.
- August 28, 2012 at 12:24 am(564) anonymous says:
Okay this is my comment. I just want to talk to everybody out there anyone who will read this just hear me out. I've been reading a few of these comments. and I just wanna say whether you guys want to listen or not I truly honest to god I think that every body in this entire planet has a purpose. I sometimes get depressed myself as well but what I realized is that we all really to have a purpose in living. 1 of the comments that I read is about a girl thinking she's chubby a lot of them is about thinking you're not pretty. there is no 1 in this world who is ugly 100 percent of every human being has beauty. we all just have to give each other the credit and we can't care about what people say. hard and I know it takes a lot of willpower trust me I order stand that and I am only a 17 year old girl still in high school but I can honestly say that everyone should give themselves credit everything happens for reason and we always have to keep that in mind and there's a reason that we are all here weather it's to make a point or to live a life that's never been lived before in the end since there is a purpose for what happens. and not only that I don't have that personally but for those who do it's probably because you are stronger than other people. everyone is beautiful everyone have brains everyone has talent don't underestimate yourself. just keep dreaming big just keep living just keep breathing and in the end it will pay off. and another thing I would like to say for those who have lost someone in a relationship weather is a break up or in a different way whatever the case maybe there is always more than 1 person for someone . and I honestly just figured that out. everything happens for a reason don't do anything to yourself that interferes with fate. things sometimes might get worse before they get better but I promise you it will get better. If anyone needs to talk i would adore to listen just comment on here i always check up.
- September 10, 2012 at 9:20 am(565) sad girl lonely girl says:
I'm always upset so i drown myself with alcohol go out every night nobody cares about me i can barely eat I'm in love with this guy who almost loved me back until i screwed up with alcohol i don't like where i live iw ant to live but it seems there no way out I'm depressed and i don't even know what to think or do i told myself before i won't give up but lives going nowhere I'm so tempted to take my mums sleeping tablets and kill myself forever. then everyone will be happy i can't even cry sometimes I'm in bed most of the day i don't want to go college here i want to go somewhere but my parents make it impossible and don't even listen to me and don't care if I'm depressed or alive or dead so might as well kill myself , i have a lot of friends but it seems like they all use me I'm too naive and nice for this world once someone told me and i think i am but itty and be bitchy but idk why i can't , I'm hopeless and never bent old anything encouraging by my family nothing and i was also bullied in school and none of my parents knew how i felt everyday i don't even know who to talk to about all this i hate my life
- September 10, 2012 at 9:20 am(566) sad girl lonely girl says:
I'm always upset so i drown myself with alcohol go out every night nobody cares about me i can barely eat I'm in love with this guy who almost loved me back until i screwed up with alcohol i don't like where i live iw ant to live but it seems there no way out I'm depressed and i don't even know what to think or do i told myself before i won't give up but lives going nowhere I'm so tempted to take my mums sleeping tablets and kill myself forever. then everyone will be happy i can't even cry sometimes I'm in bed most of the day i don't want to go college here i want to go somewhere but my parents make it impossible and don't even listen to me and don't care if I'm depressed or alive or dead so might as well kill myself , i have a lot of friends but it seems like they all use me I'm too naive and nice for this world once someone told me and i think i am but itty and be bitchy but idk why i can't , I'm hopeless and never bent old anything encouraging by my family nothing and i was also bullied in school and none of my parents knew how i felt everyday i don't even know who to talk to about all this i hate my life
- October 21, 2012 at 7:09 pm(567) a mom says:
I came across this blog as I was researching depression for my work. It saddens me to see so many people feeling so hopeless. I do understand.
I did not have a perfect childhood; I was incredibly shy, few friends, I felt ugly, stupid and always thought I was a disappointment to my parents. They had their own problems and had no time to see what I was feeling. I felt so invisible. Looking back I see that my parents had problems caused by their own childhood. They had problems with their parents, insecurities they were dealing with or not dealing with. They did not realize they were repeating the same mistakes their own parents did to them.
My first mistake was to look to others to fill the empty spots I felt in my life. I married young to get away, and feel loved. I never drank alcohol or was into drugs but my husband was an abusive alcoholic. I had a sick baby with health problems and soon became a young single mom with only a high school education. My parents divorced, my father committed suicide after having a stroke and after caring for my mother she died of cancer. I again, married the wrong person, went through financial woes and emotional ups and downs and became a single mom of two children.
I have made bad choices for my life and all because I was looking in the wrong places for happiness. I made decisions based on my emotional needs and not on facts. Emotions go up and down. I had moments of depression during the down periods but the turning point came when my mother was dying. Without anything to read in the hospital, I grabbed her Bible and started at page one and determined to get through it, I kept reading even when not understanding it. I had attended church in my youth but never read the Bible through. I had thought it was old and boring and did not relate to today. But, out of sadness, I asked God to reveal Himself to me. What happened? (I have to continue below)
- October 21, 2012 at 7:11 pm(568) a mom says:
(continued) I was waking up in the middle of the night, and I needed to read the Bible, Strange since I understood only bits of what I was reading. But, I would find myself crying so many tears that removed all the pain inside of me. I cried until I had nothing left to cry. God healed my pain and filled the cracks that my past pain and mistakes caused in my life. Depression? Yes I had my down time. But, I started to turn to God, I asked Him to forgive my mistakes, fill me with His joy, and give me purpose for my life. Today I continue to look to Him for purpose in my life as it is something we should ask each day. Each day is new and brings us new opportunities! My life is not perfect but no one has a perfect life. I thank God for loving me, for helping me, for filling me with His hope in a world that takes and takes Choose your friends wisely. Look inside yourself and get your own life together. If you struggle with depression, seek help. If you are under age and your parents are abusive in any way, tell someone, get help because you ARE valued and YOU ARE deserving of respect. If you tell one person and they don't help, tell someone else and keep telling until you find someone who will help you. Find a local church, talk to the pastors, get involved and surround yourself with positive, loving people. Get involved! There will be others who went through what you are going through now. Then remember to help others who are in need of a friend, one you wish you had right now. God will help you get through what you are going through. We live in a fallen world but we have a great God who loves each of us and He promises to be there. Don't believe me? Take a moment and ask God to reveal Himself to you.
- November 23, 2012 at 10:27 pm(569) Kate says:
I appreciate all the help, but it's useless. I'm 31 years old and can't keep a job, so I'm a useless adult.
- December 4, 2012 at 6:14 pm(570) Andrew says:
Hey Kate, you so aren't. You are a valuable person. I've had those feelings, I'm feeling low now, but, there are people in my life that care about me, and I know there's at least one person (me) who does care about you.
You know, you can speak to a GP, and get a free referral to someone who can listen & counsel you. And that is so worthwhile.
You'll see that it's not YOU who can't keep a job, it's what is affecting you and clouding you which needs to be looked at.
I wish you luck, but you need to get it out, if you have a close friend, that's good, if not, do what I've done, which is really worthwhile, and speak to a GP as first step?
- December 26, 2012 at 10:01 am(571) keenagirl says:
anyone out there? i feel so much in the blues. need someone to talk to.
- February 13, 2013 at 11:52 pm(572) SimplyNoOne says:
Life is hard. Every day I wake up and think, "I hate myself, Why do I have to do this? Why am I so pathetic? Why am I so worthless?". No one knows. No one seems to understand me. Pain, misery, and suffering live in every part of my life. I am always to blame for EVERYTHING. Some days I just feel like I could just die, and no one would notice, let alone care. My parents say they love me. My friends say I'm cool. So, why do I feel like the scum of the Earth? Would the world be better if people like me didn't exist? I dread the arrival of each new day. I have no energy. I lack self-confidence. I have no motivation. Time isn't a great healer. Time only deepens the scars that burden you…
- April 12, 2013 at 11:27 am(573) TEINfiuemwcipmadisu says:
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- May 1, 2013 at 10:30 am(574) mani says:
Just read a story, liked it. Sharing it
If a man is able to remain hopeful even in the worst situation, he has to thank the dynamic character of time. There is a time in everyone's life when things move favorably for him.
Things move so nicely and so fast that we get the feeling that somebody is working for us. But then a
phase comes when even our best efforts, and most meticulously planned moves remain nonproductive. We confront one failure after another. Even our corrective actions backfire. It is nothing but the effect of the dynamic nature of time. Time has never remained same for any body.
But, it is also true that this is the dynamic character of time that generates hope in us and makes us continue with our efforts even in the worst situation. The wise and learned understand this unique characteristic of time and develop in them the qualities of perseverance and forbearance. I know of an 80-year-old person, who, dabbling in shares, never booked a loss even if it meant waiting for 20 years and made good profits.
He has a story: A person was given capital punishment. When the time of execution came, he was asked for his last desire. He replied he regretted he couldn't teach the king's horses to fly. The king gave him one year's time to teach his horses to fly.
Relieved, he reached his home. On hearing everything, his wife was very happy but soon her ecstasy gave way to anxiety.
She said she was worried thinking what would happen after a year as she knew very well that he couldn't make horses fly.
Her husband completely relaxed and free from all tensions replied, "Look! I have come to understand the dynamic nature of time and it is this knowledge which has made me hopeful.
So many things can happen in a year. I can die before the due date. State can be attacked and the King can be replaced by some other king or this king can die. Last, who knows the horses may start flying!"
- May 15, 2013 at 8:43 am(575) dayle says:
its all because of fas
- May 17, 2013 at 4:25 pm(576) chan says:
hello my name is chan my age is 17 i don't want to blame anyone for my mistakes and wrong doings i wasted a lot of time for by thinking about useless things now i realize that i am i what an engineering student or a what a duller what i am really i always asked this question to my self still i don't understand why i am always dreamed to become a scientist from my childhood to achieve something great to make my family proud to get happiness but reality comes to that i never felt happy never felt that any
one loves no one loves me because of what i don't know i always tried hard but no one liked me no matter how everyone hated me so i questioned to god why do he created me without a purpose without intelligence without friends i was always lonely in my childhood and now without friends even my family hates me but i love my family because of what i don't know and i got an career turning point an enterance exam into the technical graduation but i didn't prepeared for it because of what why should i have to write these exams and why should i study i am a human without love of no one then i asked the a question my self if there is no purpose and happiness left for me in this whole world why should i live so i ask should i live in this hell or die in heaven if there is no reason to live why should i live no one no one cares about me i am thinking death is the only way to happiness for me i wish i can get happiness after death
- May 27, 2013 at 4:00 pm(577) Amos SamSam says:
Hello guys, I am two going through depression and am currently spending my holidays sleeping and eating and staying away from people because I feel like everyone that I talk to is going to hurt me in some way. The depression started a long time ago when a gril who I had a crush on for a long time finally said hi again (we had been through an argument and didn't talk to eachother for a year) and then we started being friends, and as we were I knew it wouldn't work out but I just couldn't get her out of my mind, so sadly I went over to third party solutions ( majiuana and alcohol ). And then one day I had gotten so drunk that I called her and told her how I felt and everything, the day after I apologised but she didn't reply, that's when for some reason I started getting really aggressive for no reason. And a few days later I resorted to the third party options again and then she happened. I got so angry for no reason and ended up throwing a piece of gum at her. And then she told everyone that I had slapped her and now some of my good friends are gone. Even though I know a have loads of other friends that love me and invite me out everyday. I just stay in my room constantly angry and sad and I snap very easly. It feels like my heart has no love for anything. Anyways I can help make this go away? ( btw I have stopped using drugs now )
- June 4, 2013 at 1:22 am(578) firose says:
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- July 14, 2013 at 8:49 am(579) Jas says:
Every time I read these I get really sad and emotional, I am only eleven and have already cut and attempted to suffocate myself, I got pretty sick because of that. I get really violent and break stuff, I almost choked my mum once. I get treated like crap though, mum doesn't let me see my friends. She changed my school and told me that if i don't stop she will get me counseling. I used to be really good, my spelling was in the top five per cent in my state. Now all I see is this ugly terrible mean person, whose supposedly amazing hair looks horrible. It always gets knotted and it always looks greasy unless I put a heap of product in it. I put on lots of make up to hide my ugly freckles, I'm mean and impulsive, I am the only person in my class who doesn't have an iPod, and I shouldn't see suicide as an easy way out. But I really don't want to talk to someone about it.
- July 17, 2013 at 2:15 am(580) Tim says:
On vaca andon the 7th floor and I feel like jumping off the balgany. My chest feels jumping. I have never felt like this be4. What is wrong with me??
- September 19, 2013 at 2:20 pm(581) vidya says:
i love a guy who don't love me
it was always single sided
i regret y i let my hrt to go through al dis
i feel so helpless
i just pray that god plz now show me some way
so that icould just forget me
which seems imposible for me now
- December 30, 2013 at 8:50 pm(582) Abe Curious says:
After having another of what I call "dimmers", I've decided to question what is going on. I can only hope people are still reading this article, and someone intelligent on the subject can comment.
I don't generally feel depressed. I deal with stress just like anyone else, and I'm glad to be alive. However, it seem's when I have an extremely happy moment, my brain reminds me of something sad. It sounds weird to some I'm sure, but here was my last case,
I am writing a database application, and after a couple of hours of failures, I finally had an "Aha!" moment, and reached towards the sun in joy. My brain immediately told me "You shouldn't be happy about this. This <insert sad thing> has happened, and its kind of selfish for you to be acting this way".
Seriously?! I am a reasonably bright individual, yet I cannot understand why this happens. It is a serious downer, and while in the recent case the sad thing was a recent death in the family, the subject could be about anyone/anything that has recently been drawn into attention.
Can anyone relate and/or offer advice? Am I depressed, or is this some OCD spinoff? I really wish I could understand it.
- January 9, 2014 at 5:23 pm(583) D says:
I don't know how I landed up in this page…but I just wish someone would listen.
Know him for 17 years, married for 10, 2 kids…never truly appreciated…never good enough.
I think I am beginning to lose it…just when I think of my children, I push myself to get back to reality….they still need me, they're too little.
If only there was a way to really make him realise my worth, or at the least of how much I always loved him…but I only realise today…love just ain't enough.
I don't know what to do…where I'm heading.
I feel tired…lost.
- January 10, 2014 at 1:43 pm(584) emoboy39 says:
Look theirs no help I know no one can fix me I cut my self I find that that's all I have I know I'll never know true happyness that's not for someone like me cause theirs no one out their like me I like pain it gives me meaning
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- January 18, 2014 at 11:43 am(586) koole says:
im 18 recently turned and iv constaly had it its gotten worse then when i was underage my father had a fit at my little sister and decided to charge me as a adult i do not have a mother or any family no friends that actually could give a fuck and my ex who also doesn't care that recently cheated on me and now I'm on bail i have to report 3 times a week and I'm not allowed on my house premise I'm homeless no money and no oneimean no one to tok TO honestly don't know what to do
- April 17, 2014 at 11:10 pm(587) Lydia says:
I'm 12 and I'm depressed this hapoened when I was 9 I don't understand why God has aloud this to happen I'm still young why am I depressed I'm home schooled and I'm always bored why has God forsaken me!!?😭
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- May 12, 2014 at 7:37 pm(589) OneInTheMix says:
To say life is unfair and can be riddled with pain, suffering, misery and agony would be nearly an understatement. As one in the mix who knows of near 40 years of suffering that seems more like 400 years, no one posting here is useless or unnecessary, unloved or unwanted except primarily in one's own mind.
Love is best conceived in one's own heart rather than in the hearts of others. Things external to the body are real but superficial even if it wastes away the flesh. The real battle takes place upon the heart and mind. Strength for the heart/mind doesn't come from the outward things, if so whose heart/mind could ever be strong enough to withstand the constant bombardment of this life's afflictions?!
Each person must be strong enough to love themselves w/out it being contingent upon other people to love you first. The God Jehovah Yahweh loves better and truer than any person can. Even if you don't believe in Him, He is, He was and evermore shall be.
His Heart can be moved with compassion. Cry out to the One that loved us when no one else would, when no one else could.
The gift of life that He gives is so precious, it is not to be wasted, to be thrown away, nor to be disregarded but to be honored.
Let your life be honorable, honorable does not mean you make no mistakes but you learn from your mistakes and realize that every single one of us makes mistakes and we all have a place in this world.
Ultimately, I believe God has ALL power and that nothing takes Him by surprise. His Grace is sufficient, we have but to trust in Him, obey Him, He is worthy.
- May 12, 2014 at 7:38 pm(590) OneInTheMix says:
No love from man, woman or child can compare to His great love for each of us. Even as one who has suffered immensely and still endures hardships of great scale today, I believe each person posting here and others who have not, have a purpose and are needed and loved. You have to learn to love yourself, part of that is realizing how much the God of ALL creation loves you. He created the stars and planets, He set the boundaries of the ocean walls, He created every fish of the sea, every foul of the air, every beast of the field, every creeping thing upon the face of the earth and all for His good pleasure.
Let not the enemy, even your own mind's negativity determine the course of your life. Your heart and mind must heal. Its easy to let your mind slip into depressive thoughts of hopelessness, uselessness "no one would miss me", "they'd be better off w/out me" etc. The harder thing to do is the RIGHT thing, to put away such thoughts, replace them w/ the truth. The truth is, whether you believe it or not that you're created in the image of the Living God. The hairs on your head are counted, He wakes you and lays you to sleep, He feeds and clothes you. He provides the means necessary but why He allows tragedy?! His thoughts and His ways are higher than ours, if faith is never tested, what good is it?! If muscle is never used it will whither away, if it is not exercised it will never get stronger. If a plant is not baked in the sun but also drenched in the rain it will never grow. Resilience is a key factor in growth beyond the normal.
- May 12, 2014 at 7:38 pm(591) OneInTheMix says:
Mineral placed in the fire is burned again and again, it is the fire that brings out the brilliance of purity unknown to a metal unrefined. Let your metal be refined in the fire of testing that its purity be made clear. It is not the circumstance that defines a person, it merely reveals them. Let your circumstance reveal to you what you need most to work on, be it patience, loving yourself and then others, taking the reigns of your life and making some changes that really affect it regardless of how things appear. Take hold of your heart and mind to bring them under submission to all things that are good and right and so let shine, your light. My love and most of all God's love to each of you because you are worth loving yourself, worth loving others, worth the life God has given as a free gift to you, you then honor Him in the life you live here for Him.