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February 2012
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Hey Chicago, go do this
Details on my slideshow thing at Art Institute of Chicago: This Friday, February 3, 6:00pm – 7:30pm SAIC Auditorium, 280 S. Columbus Drive
January 2012
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Ruby on iTunes
Hey all,
Our new single "Ruby" is available for purchase on iTunes.
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Cheap Girls
Fuck you guys and your "nice" car stereos. I'll remove your faceplates, smartmouths.
December 2011
27 posts
Thanks! @PasteMagazine's 10 Best Comedians of 2011 http://t.co/pgcxJ02H
"Biography: Dave Thomas" is on at the same time as "Bigfoot: The Definitive Guide." Basic cable, you make my life quite difficult sometimes.
January dates: Austin, OKC, Denver, Grand Rapids, Atlanta, and Nashville. Check http://t.co/YJeHBkia for details.
Larry Crispness, everyone.
I don't like any of the booze anymore. Forever. God, strike me down if I'm wrong.
Some movie trailer came out and now there's nerd diarrhea all over? Whatever. Excited about the Salad Chef. Large one comes with a spinner.
I think I'm getting sick. What's that stuff you rub on your chest to relieve congestion? Boobs? Yes, boobs. Someone rub their boobs on me.
Looks like it's another night locked down by the battle of Kyle Kinane vs. The Victor Borge informercial.
So I just cried into a club sandwich while watching the end of Elf. These hangovers are getting weird.
Guys, I have a wishlist just like the porn ladies! http://t.co/AHjL6aSP via @amazon
Can you eat hot wings without killing the whole chicken? Because if you can, that's really humane and we should work on that as a society.
I'm glad to find out Dick Biondi is still doin' it, Chicagoland!
I think this room service salad cost me four hundred dollars.
RT @comedybar: This Saturday's 10pm Kyle Kinane id SOLD OUT! midnight show has been added! GET YOUR TICKETS NOW!
Alright, Canada—it's on! Tomorrow Montreal, Friday Ottawa, and Saturday Toronto. I will kiss all of you.
Watched a video of Michele Bachmann talking to LGBT students. Got me so pissed I had to crank one off to a photo of doves just to calm down.
1000x yes. Bringer shows are a scam that exploits inexperienced comics and wastes the time/money of the audience by presenting (at best) overly-long, inconsistant shows. Worse yet, bad bringer shows can (and do) prejudice audiences against choosing live comedy as an entertainment option in the future.
November 2011
36 posts
Pho is Vietnamese soup made when an former child soldier coughs on a bowl of gutter run-off and fish nightmares and I can't stop eating it.
Turns out being the founder of MADD and the reason it exists are two different things.
Just posted a photo http://t.co/8AAvoHxL
"Forget it, Jake. It's Chinatown…CHING CHONG DING DONG HAAHAA! LOOK AT THIS FACE I'M MAKING RIGHT NOW, JAKE! OH, HERRROOO!!"
I dont know if Im in a dog-friendly lesbian bar or a lesbian-friendly dog bar, but I am undoubtedly in San Francisco.


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A judge ruled Monday, July 29, that there wasn't enough evidence to prove Sierra Pacific Industries was responsible for causing the 2007 Moonlight Fire.
SPI announced that Judge Leslie C. Nichols, who was sitting by appointment in Plumas County Superior Court, dismissed the lawsuit brought by CalFire. CalFire and several private plaintiffs were seeking damages against SPI and other defendants.
The state had alleged that a logger employed by SPI had negligently started the Moonlight Fire on private land Sept. 3, 2007. The fire then spread to the Plumas National Forest and other private holdings.
"This is a significant victory for SPI and the other defendants in the case," SPI spokesman Mark Pawlicki said. "We knew all along that the evidence did not support the state's claim that our contractor started the fire."
Opening arguments for the jury trial had been scheduled for Monday, Aug. 5, in Plumas County Superior Court in Portola.
In July 2012, SPI agreed to pay the federal government about $122 million for damages caused by the fire.
The settlement was believed to be the largest amount ever recovered by the U.S. government for damages caused by a forest fire.
According to the terms of the settlement, SPI agreed to pay $55 million in cash and turn over 22,500 acres of land.
SPI has alleged that the government's fire investigators conducted a faulty investigation and were not able to demonstrate the true origin of the fire.
"Although CalFire employees are highly regarded for their professionalism and integrity, unfortunately the Moonlight investigations did not live up to that standard," Pawlicki said.
The government's investigators in the Moonlight Fire alleged that SPI's logger started the fire by striking a rock with a bulldozer, causing a spark to ignite woody material.
Further, the state alleged the logger failed to obey the law that requires a series of procedures to be followed during logging operations.
However, Judge Nichols ruled that the state did not have evidence to support those claims.
Nichols reportedly reviewed more than 800 pages of legal briefing and deposition testimony, and heard evidence on the case for three days, before deciding to dismiss the case and rule in favor of all the defendants.
Nichols reportedly concluded CalFire could not provide enough evidence to justify submitting the matter to a jury.
In contrast, a federal court ruled in July 2012 that SPI could be liable for damages in the case even if its operators did not start the fire. The decision led to the $122 million settlement.
In a press release from SPI, the forest products company wrote, "Overall, the state spent several years, approximately $10 million tax-payer dollars, and thousands of hours in its effort to collect $8 million in fire suppression costs, only to have its case dismissed by the court."
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God Bless Ameriiiiiiiica: Preamble Of The Constitution In Vanity License Plates
This is the Preamble to the Constitution on license plates (all 50 states and Washington DC). And in case you aren't hip to special needs L337 speak, here's how it reads:
We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defence, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.
USA! USA! USA! Truthfully, this piece is actually OLD. It was created by Mike Wilkins in 1987 and is on display at the Smithsonian. Which I might have actually seen if I didn't always shoot straight towards the museum of natural history. BUT ONLY BECAUSE THE STREET VENDORS AROUND THERE HAVE THE BEST FALAFEL. I kid, I kid, I bang the dinosaur skeletons. Also, which ever one of you jerks keeps stealing my 'GK WRITR' license plates better stop before I give it to you. And I don't mean 'the business' either. Yes I do. BUT LIKE IN PRISON.
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My son attended 2nd - 5th. Everything about the school is fantastic. Ms. Jones (principal) is professional & promotes team work & leadership among staff & students (she even works in the cafeteria everyday.) My son's teachers were Ms. Bell, Ms. Shireman and Mr. Neidiffer. They should all be awarded high honors for the life skills (as well as academics) that they teach the children. Ms. Finn (school counselor) does very well at building rapport w/both students & parents. These professionals (including janitoral, cafeteria, art, etc) are so fantastic that I did not even know until the end of the school year that they were working w/o a contract & the union asked them to stop participating in after-school activities. They still didn't - they were more concerned about the students than themselves. Bravo to Slate Run!
My daughter has attended kindergarten and first grade at Slate Run. She loves it there. We are satisfied with what she has learned in her 2 years there. The only complaint I have is that she had well over 30 children in her class and there was not enough one on one interaction between teacher/teacher's helpers and students.
My daughter attended 1st grade at Slate Run Elementary. At first I was a little worried about the handwriting skills they were teaching. I now believe that my daughter is more prepared for cursive writing than before. My daughter went from a reading level B to a reading level G. Mrs.Murphy did an excellent job teaching my daughter. We have now moved into the Henryville school district and I must say I'm really worried about it. SRE is an excellent school. The principal is well involived and the teachers are wonderful. They really want all the children to do well. I wish my daughter could attend SRE..
Slate Run is an excellent school. The teachers are really great. Everyone from the Principle to the ladies in the lunch room are great. They all know every child, are very friendly and always there to help. I feel my kids could not be going to a better school. It was a great suprise when we moved here from a small town. The first time I walked in I felt very welcome.
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I think it is a shame that the parents at Slate Run Elementary are not rating the school. I believe it is the one elementary school that takes great pride in teaching our children. I have yet to hear of a unsatisfactory teacher. My children are getting the best one on one treatment and I believe it is because of the enrollment size of the school. They are filled to their capacity and I can guess why. Many students are not even in the school district but the parents want their children at Slate Run because of its great reputation. So come on parents and support Slate Run. Rate it here for all other parents to see.
My child attended the part time kindergarten class last year and I felt that he didn't benefit from the curriculum; though no fault of the school. In my opionion, the teacher was absent many times and didn't appear to have great organizational skills with the class preparation. He attended Art and Music class on Tuesdays and had many 'works' and songs to present to his parents throughout the year. Also, Gym class was on Tuesdays and he learned many motor skills and physical development in the class. As full time working parents our involvement was limited but we did attend a field trip and all school programs. The Principal, Mrs. Sharon Jones, is excellent and very hands on with the students and the parents. Very warm reception from her each encounter.
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Dr. Farag is a Clinical Fellow in the Thoracic Radiology Division of Brigham and Women's Hospital and Harvard Medical School, and Dr. Costello is Associate Professor of Radiology at Harvard Medical School and Director of the Thoracic Radiology Division of Brigham and Women's Hospital, Boston, MA.
Pulmonary embolism (PE) is a common cause of death in hospitalized patients with clinical manifestations that are protean and nonspecific. Patients can present with symptoms ranging from minimal dyspnea to sudden death. Most often, symptoms and signs include dyspnea, pleuritic chest pain, cough, hemoptysis, tachypnea, hypotension, fever, and tachycardia. Given the non-specific gamut of signs and symptoms, the diagnosis of PE can easily be overlooked. Standard laboratory tests are also non-specific with diminished arterial PO 2 and a widened alveolar-atrial gradient. More recently, D-dimer, a blood test that measures fibrin degradation products, has been found to be helpful but remains in development. 1,2
The classical clinical approach to a patient with suspected PE is to combine the degree of clinical suspicion with ventilation-perfusion (V/Q) scintigraphy, and to perform pulmonary angiography in cases that remain unclear. The problem arises in that approximately 75% of patients fall within the "indeterminate" V/Q category of "diagnosis," requiring pulmonary angiography for a definitive diagnosis. 3 Pulmonary arteriography is invasive, has an associated small but measurable morbidity, and is costly. Over the past few years, the introduction of spiral CT angiography (spiral CTA), a more direct and relatively non-invasive technique for the diagnosis of PE, has become generally available. 4-7
The addition of spiral CT to the diagnostic armamentarium has the potential to dramatically alter the approach taken when assessing patients for PE. Because of the wide availability of spiral CT systems, CT is generally an easier study to obtain than a V/Q scan or pulmonary angiogram. With careful attention to CT technique, direct visualization of the clot in the pulmonary arteries down to the level of segmental, and even subsegmental, vessels is possible. 8-10 Additionally, spiral CTA is capable of demonstrating a variety of thoracic pathologies that can "mimic" PE, and may establish an alternative diagnosis for the patient's symptoms. 11
This review will explore the current role of spiral (helical) CT scanning in the diagnosis of PE. We will also attempt to evaluate where this technique stands with regard to the conventional methods of diagnosing PE. A brief review of the pitfalls in the diagnosis with spiral CTA will be given. Finally, diagnostic future techniques will be examined briefly.
Spiral CT and PE--Over the past 8 years, it has been suggested that spiral CT can replace V/Q scanning and pulmonary angiography for the diagnosis of PE. CT criteria for diagnosing acute PE are similar to criteria used with pulmonary angiography. Clots can be directly visualized as partial or complete filling defects within opacified vessels. 8-10 Several studies have reported high sensitivities and specificities in the identification of PE down to the segmental arterial level 12-17 (Table 1).
Coche et al 11 have reported the value of associated pleural and parenchymal findings that aid in the diagnosis of pulmonary embolism. Ancillary signs such as wedge-shaped pleural based consolidation, linear bands, and dilated central or segmental pulmonary arteries can be associated with the diagnosis of PE and are statistically significant findings. As such, the detection of these findings may direct further investigations particularly if a study is "suboptimal" for assessment of central or segmental vessels.
CT technique--With spiral CT, the x-ray tube and detector revolve around the patient generating a helix of data while the patient moves through the gantry. Most newer CT systems have cycle times of <1 second and have tube capacities that allow the entire thorax to be examined in <25 seconds. 18 Recently introduced multi-detector array CT scanners will have a major influence on PE detection. Through the simultaneous acquisition of four slices with a rotation speed of 0.5 seconds, even higher resolution studies of the chest can be acquired with short breathhold intervals. The shorter scan time reduces cardiac and respiratory motion artifacts, making vessels adjacent to the heart easier to visualize.
Intravenous contrast can be administered at low-concentration/high-flow rate protocols (i.e., 30% concentration at 5 to 6 mL/sec) or standard concentration and a flow rate of 3 mL/sec can be used for PE detection. Artifacts produced with high-concentration low-flow rate protocols due to contrast in the superior vena cava can slightly degrade evaluation of the right main and right upper lobe pulmonary arteries. Low-concentration/high-flow rate contrast administration may limit the evaluation of more distal subsegmental vessels because of suboptimal vessel opacification. Our protocol uses 100 mL of 60% iodine concentration infused at 3 mL/sec through an antecubital vein with a 15-second delay to scan start.
Pulmonary angiography--Pulmonary angiography has long been considered the "gold standard" for true diagnosis of PE, with a high spatial resolution that allows for detection of emboli to the subsegmental level. 19 However it is invasive, with morbidity and mortality rates quoted as 1% to 3% in patients having pulmonary angiograms. 20,21 Given its invasive and costly properties, some clinicians are reluctant to refer all patients with intermediate-probability V/Q scans for pulmonary angiography, despite the fact that one-third of these patients will have PE. 3
Most importantly, the interobserver variability for pulmonary angiography is significant, and Stein et al 20 has documented an overall interobserver agreement of only 81%, the agreement is even lower at the level of the subsegmental vessels.
V/Q scintigraphy--The Prospective Investigation of Pulmonary Embolism Diagnosis (PIOPED) study has evaluated the usefulness of V/Q scintigraphy in the diagnosis of PE. 3 In this study, V/Q scans were split into four categories with regard to the findings and the likelihood of acute PE (normal, low, intermediate, or high probability). Patients with normal V/Q scans were shown to have a 2% to 4% chance of having clinically significant acute PE. 3 Patients with high-probability V/Q scans were shown to have a 96% probability of acute PE. 3 In these settings, clinicians are comfortable with the results and will withhold or administer anticoagulant therapy correspondingly.
Problems arise with studies that fall within the low- and intermediate-probability categories. These V/Q diagnoses occur in up to 75% of patients, and 16% of patients with low probability and 33% of patients with intermediate probability scans will have angiographically proven PE. 3 Because of a reluctance to perform pulmonary angiography, this can translate into patients not receiving needed anticoagulant therapy, or patients receiving unnecessary anticoagulant therapy. Interobserver disagreement in the PIOPED study for low- and intermediate-probability scans was quoted as 25% and 30%, respectively. 3
Compression Doppler ultrasound--Patients with clinically suspected PE have also been shown to benefit from compression and color Doppler venous ultrasound of the legs to evaluate for deep venous thrombosis (DVT). 22,23 If DVT is discovered, the patient is treated regardless of the V/Q scan result. The limits of Doppler ultrasound lie within the deep pelvic veins, which cannot be assessed adequately. Recently Loud et al 24,25 described CT evaluation for DVT as an extension of the spiral CT exam of the chest. Venous phase imaging of the pelvis and upper legs at the time of spiral CTA was shown to be comparable to venous sonography for the evaluation of femoropopliteal DVT. 25 In addition, this technique proved to be useful for evaluation of clots in the vena cava and iliac veins (vessels poorly assessed sonographically).
Spiral CT compared with pulmonary angiography and V/Q scans--Several studies have compared spiral CT with pulmonary angiography for the diagnosis of acute PE with reported high sensitivities and specificities in the identification of PE down to the segmental level. 12-17,26 Data from these studies demonstrates a sensitivity range of 53% to 100% and a specificity of 78% to 100% for spiral CT. Range variations can be explained by differences in equipment, scanning protocols, contrast administration, study design, and radiologist experience. However, when only central or segmental emboli are considered, sensitivity and specificity of spiral CT approaches 90% 4 (figure 1).
The European Multicenter Trial (ESTIPEP) is a prospective study of 401 patients that compared spiral CT with pulmonary angiography. 27 Clinical probability for PE was estimated, and all patients underwent spiral CT and V/Q scanning. Pulmonary angiography was performed in cases of low- and intermediate-probability V/Q scans, and if spiral CT and V/Q diagnoses were contradictory. The study demonstrated sensitivity of spiral CT to vary between 75% to 92%.
Sensitivity of V/Q scans in this study ranged from 36% to 65%. 27 Spiral CT had the advantage of performing fewer non-diagnostic exams than V/Q, since the lung parenchyma, mediastinum and chest wall structures were also assessed resulting in alternative diagnoses for patient's symptoms. Equally important is the fact that the interobserver agreement between readers was greater for CT than for V/Q scanning (*72% versus *39%) 27 and even better than pulmonary angiography (46%). 27 The European Multicenter trial also showed interobserver agreement for CT to be dependent on the quality of the study. For V/Q scans, interobserver agreement was neither due to study quality nor the use of PIOPED criteria. 27
One recently published study highlights the importance of technical factors when performing spiral CT for PE. Drucker et al 26 described the sensitivity and specificity of two groups of readers for detecting PE by spiral CT to be 53% to 60% and 87% to 97%, respectively. These results, which were significantly worse than other studies, may be explained by several factors. First, relatively thick slices were used (5 mm, while most current techniques utilize 2-mm slice thickness). Second, hard-copy interpretation makes it difficult to recognize small clots, as many can only be recognized by varying window levels and tracing vessels on sequential images. Soft-copy workstation interpretation improves image viewing since it is interactive and allows for easy window leveling and vessel tracking.
The recognized limitation of spiral CT for the detection of subsegmental emboli continues to be debated. 12,14,15 Isolated subsegmental PE are likely infrequent, as most PE split into an average of 6 to 8 fragments, 13,28,29 of which in most patients one or more should be large enough to be detected by spiral CT.
In the PIOPED study, 5.6% of PE were limited to subsegmental arteries. 3 In four studies comparing spiral CT to pulmonary angiography, 0% to 36% of pulmonary emboli were isolated and subsegmental. 12,14,15,26 Spiral CT demonstrated between 0% to 50% of these isolated subsegmental emboli.
Although early results showed limitations of spiral CT in the detection of subsegmental emboli, 12,15,30,31 earlier scan protocols (e.g., 5-mm collimation with pitch of 1) have been surpassed by technological improvements in CT systems. Narrower collimation (2-mm, and even 1-mm with multi-detector CT systems) and reconstruction intervals have improved visualization of peripheral pulmonary arteries (figure 2). Remy-Jardin et al 32 described a group of 370 patients that demonstrated the percentage of analyzable subsegmental arteries to be statistically significantly higher when patients are scanned with 2-mm collimation and pitch of 2 rather than with 3-mm collimation and a pitch of 1.7 (65% versus 43%, respectively). 32
The clinical significance of subsegmental emboli remains uncertain, 33 but probably depends on a patient's cardiopulmonary reserve. 15,30 In otherwise healthy patients, subsegmental emboli may be insignificant clinically. However, occlusion of several subsegmental vessels perfusing the normal lung tissue in a patient with pre-existing lung disease can lead to respiratory failure. 15,30
Pitfalls of spiral CT angiography--Spiral CT and conventional pulmonary angiography have similar rates of diagnostically suboptimal examinations, between 2% and 4% of spiral CT studies and 3% of pulmonary angiograms. 20,32 Suboptimal exams are most often due to poor image quality arising from motion related to patient dyspnea. 15-17,30 Breathing artifacts are seen as pseudo-filling defects, mostly at the level of obliquely oriented arteries due to variable position of the vessel in the section width in two successive scans. In this instance, a decrease in attenuation can be seen at the level of the arterial bifurcation.
Routes of intravenous contrast delivery, flow rates, catheter size and position, and short or long scanning delays may all affect the quality of pulmonary artery opacification. With prolonged scan delays, there may not be adequate contrast available to opacify the vessels at the end of the scanned volume. With short scan delays, insufficient time has elapsed to allow appropriate opacification of the pulmonary arteries (especially on the earlier images of the scanned volume). As such, appropriate consideration must be given to patient cardiovascular physiology (particularly cardiac output), anatomy, and the cardiac output. In general, a 15-second delay to scan initiation is used, but in patients with poor cardiac function a delay of 20 seconds may be used.
Similarly, increased pulmonary vascular resistance due to parenchymal abnormalities can lead to false-positive studies. Additional limitations and possible sources of error in interpreting spiral CT exams involve elements related to the interpreter's experience. Confusion of pulmonary veins, hilar lymph nodes, and mucous-filled bronchi (figure 3) with poorly opacified pulmonary arteries is often less problematic when the reader is more experienced.
Gefter et al 34 advocates the utility of pulmonary magnetic resonance an-giography (MRA) to evaluate the pulmonary arterial system for PE. The use of pulmonary MRA is attractive because of its non-invasiveness, and its ability to provide a three-dimensional evaluation of pulmonary vasculature. The combination of pulmonary MRA with MR venography of the pelvis and lower extremities makes the technique more appealing because of its comprehensive nature. 34 The role of pulmonary MRA in the clinical algorithm to diagnose PE has yet to be established, and its cost-effectiveness as a routine examination is debatable.
Spiral CT angiography is a widely available and cost-effective technique for the evaluation of the pulmonary arterial system, and assessment for pulmonary embolism. With improvements in CT technology (faster gantry speeds and multi-row detector CT), techniques and protocols are evolving that will lead to a higher sensitivity and specificity of spiral CTA for PE. Combining spiral CTA and compression Doppler ultrasound of the legs seems the most cost-effective method. This technique can also suggest alternate diagnoses that cannot be established by conventional V/Q scintigraphy or by pulmonary arteriography. AR
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But for today....I'm so happy for you.
"Yes I think about it all day too - what a terrible thing I've done to you and how I've broken your heart and destroyed your life.. All I want to do is try to make it up to you. I'm trying so hard to help you get better."
Laura, what a wonderful gift to hear these words. I know it doesn't take away the pain, but it's a start, at least the intention is there.
You did a wonderful job just to listen and make WH feel safe. Hopefully, these talks will help heal both of you and help you on your way to R and to build a better marriage.
Nothing much here. WH called yesterday, asking for some paperwork. He heard that I was still sick as a dog with my bronchitis (going back to dr tomorrow) Was feeling very sorry for myself because I have been sick for so long. Crazy as this sounds, I thanked him for being there whenever I was sick (he really was) and he said I didn't have to thank him, I was there for him too.
Why did I do this? I was starting to make some closure in my mind and heart. Crazy way, I know, but somehow I didn't want to start just thinking of the good things and drive myself crazy. I'm trying to be realistic about everything. I'm starting to resign myself, it still hurts like hell.
Hang in there. Your WH is completely horrible, otherwise you wouldn't have married him in the first place. The thing to remember is that even if he were the nicest guy in the world...he doesn't make you his #1 priority... and that's something that you deserve. You deserve better than a part-time H.
I don't want to be painting WH all good or bad, although his actions and decisions have been horrible and selfish.
You are absolutely right, I am NOT his #1 priority.
As for having a part time H? It seems like I've always had one, even with xWH who was never home, either working or playing softball.
I do deserve better, much better. I have to keep remembering what my DS 34 said, that there is nothing wrong with me except I made 2 poor choices when it came to H's.
I put up with too much, overcompromised myself just to be treated like this.
Tell yourself this every day. Print it out onto a piece of paper and tape it to your bathroom mirror so that you see it every day. Accept nothing less than someone who makes you the #1 thing in their life.
Thanks for your words of encouragement re last night's revelations
never in a million years would i have ever thought the man you love telling you about his ow would be a good thing....damn, either i am growing up and "seeing" more in this crazy existance we call life or i am just out of my fucking mind...
YES "just out of my fucking mind" and we are always like this. Comes with the territory of being a BS.
Oh YESSSSSS. It is sick.
It makes me sick to think that his discussing OWs makes me feel better. I was dying inside while he talked but knew - from your advice- that if I wanted him to keep going I had to stay calm.
And your list - yes it's all true. I agree 100%. I seriously doubt he will admit to others whether they exist or not. Sad part is that if he doesn't I will always think he is holding back - if he does I will have to endure more hurt. LOSE LOSE situation. Why do we BSs always have to lose!!!!!!
and laura i so admire your courage
No I am not courageous. Today was not fun. He had "chores" to do outside. Didn't finish unit 1pm and had to leave for work at 2pm. Has phoned me twice since he arrived at work - think he realises he stuffed up. I don't see him much during week - he's home most days and works evenings so can do his "chores" anytime. Now weekend comes. WE are both home in morning and he has not time for me!!!! WTF.
Started on Merlot way too early today. Would you believe that I used to be lucky to have a dozen drinks a year. Now 2 a night is minimum. I know it's not good but it does numb the pain and loneliness when he is at work. No OWs working tonight (according to him) and I believe because have checked this most nights since dday.
No fun
My world as I know it was shattered on June 7, 2009
I get a little spooked by the similarities in our situations. This was not my Dday but day I confronted H about OW3. Didn't know about OW 1 and 2 at this time. Found out via VAR a couple of weeks later.
LTA 12 years.
Yes I think we have a connection except mine was 3 OWs over 16 yrs. SIGH
Yes the intention is there but I know he is such a weak person. Always knew he was weak but didn't expect betrayal. Don't know if he's strong enough to see me through this. He says he is but only time will tell. Hope he gets some "balls" - not the one's OW3 wanted
I never give you advice because I don't know what to say. All I can say is I wish you peace whatever you do. Today or next week. Just hope you can find peace each day.
What is the biggest barrier to R for you? Reading your profile I see that h broke off with OW? Do you think there were others or is it just you finding it difficult to forgive.
Sometimes I think if this was the end - if he stayed NC and never found another whore I would be able to "get over it". Other times I think that it doesn't matter what he does I will never be OK. Does this make sense??
I think it would to you miracle. You seem to be saying that even though FWH is truly remorseful you can never forgive and completely R. Sometimes I think I will become you. I just can't get past the 16yrs bit. Sometimes I hope that when we (if we) have been married for 32+ yrs I'll at least be able to say it was for LESS than half our married life not MORE than half as it is now.
Where is ats??? I am worried. We are in trouble but he is in crisis!!!
Please ats - get in touch.
Started another post because I was afraid I would loose the previous one.
I DO want to be you in one way but not in another. I want to R with my H - I want to be happy!!!! but if I can't I want to become the wise den mother who knows where she's at and who uses her wisdom to help others.
If it doesn't work and I come to believe I can't forgive him I wILL become you - so you can retire and go play with those cabana boys
I so wish we were in the same time zone. I would love to know that you are online.
You deserve MANY cabana boys for your service to those on SI.
I pray you will find them or they will come looking for you!!! Or maybe you will find a nice retired cabana boy who will put all his efforts into making you happy for the rest of your life.
Just wanted to check in - I've been reading about everyone's sitch (I do care & worry about you all), just haven't had much to add - and I see Miracle has pretty much got it covered.
Ats -check in and where is M3? (Are you lurking M3? Hmmm....? )
Anyway - this sucks! Laura - can anyone get over this? I don't believe so - I think some can find a way to see the good and accept the rest and find a way to be happy.
What I think is important is whatyou learn about your spouse and your marriage after discovering the affair. For those whose spouses showed not just a temporary lapse of judgment/sanity, but a day in and day out decision to betray, lie, disrespect, etc. it's harder to come to the conclusion that our spouses are worthy of our love and trust. I know some WS have had like an epiphany and have turned themselves around and the BS can move on successfully. I think short of that - it's hard to reconcile that just because someone is caught & faced with what they should have already known - that their A was jeopardizing their marriage- that they are now a committed, honest person.
So, aside from the disgust I feel when I think about everything they did together, both physically and emotionally, it's more the unsettled feeling I have about how he could continue to do that, what kind of person he is, that makes me think I'm married to a stranger and there will be no letting my guard down.
For me, I see how hard it is to be a single parent. I think if I chose to separate I would just be replacing a different kind of stress for the one I would feel now. So, I prefer to to R, even if I don't know 100% if my H is in it for the right reasons. I suppose I will have to try to give it more effort than I have been currently exerting otherwise I will be the one to blame for this failing. Busy day for me - g2g- I wish you all well. ETA: I know they are not just waking up one day and are a committed person, etc. that it's supposed to be possible following a lot of self-reflection, IC, etc. But, as most of you know, I have the WS that is winging it his own way.
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Would you believe that I used to be lucky to have a dozen drinks a year. Now 2 a night is minimum.
This has been me for the last year. I am now trying to NOT do this everynight. The last 2 weeks I've tried to limit it to one drink if we go out to dinner and last week I only had one glass of wine during the week. The drinking was starting to scare me. Just be careful.
Where is ats and M3?
What is the biggest barrier to R for you? Reading your profile I see that h broke off with OW? Do you think there were others or is it just you finding it difficult to forgive. Sometimes I think if this was the end - if he stayed NC and never found another whore I would be able to "get over it". Other times I think that it doesn't matter what he does I will never be OK. Does this make sense??
Laura, you asked what the biggest obstable to R is for me. I'm still trying to narrow that down. Some days I think I should just put this all behind me and accept the changes that he is making, small though they are, and recognize that this is now my life. Other days I wonder how I could ever accept the way WH has treated me and our family. AllGood actually articulated it better than I could...
My WH's 4 year A was not a momentary lapse injudgement. He actively chose to deceive me every day while the A was ongoing and then for another year afterward. The only reason he is seeing someone for C is because he was found out. He didn't end the A and ask me to see a MC with him as he was unhappy in our M. No, he made the unilateral decision that our M was broken and thus he was free to find someone else to meet his "needs." He conveniently "forgot" that during that time I contacted and made arrangements for us to see a MC as we both agreed that things weren't going well with us. But then he never told the MC that he had a GF on the side....surprise, surprise, the MC was not helpful.
I've started a list of a few points I want to make with WH when he returns from his latest business trip. I want to try and communicate to him my feeling that he risked our family's happiness for his own selfish purpose. Instead of being a protector of his children, he allowed a stranger, a woman who from the outset proved that she was unethical by sleeping with a man she knew was married, the power to destroy the beautiful family that we have worked so hard for. He is fairly cavalier about the possibility of our children finding out about his A and that scares me.
Like most WS my H says that he never thought that I would find out. Then he says that he's been surprised at my severe reaction. But why would anyone even take that risk?? If your family is the most important thing in your life, why would you even come close to the kind of situation that could result in the destruction of that family?? Much less take that risk over and over again. It's too easy to say that "I just didn't think." We don't accept that excuse from our children, why should we accept it from our spouse.
So, that's where I'm at today. Like the rest of you I feel like I'm in a lose/lose situation. This sucks.
I left shaking my head but WH is going to be working the rest of the day, so I don't have to worry about him. La dee da dee doo.
Earlier in the week I tried to point out to my H that we hadn't spent any real time with each other - there were reasons for that - but my point was there are always those reasons and I feel that's how we got to be "roomates" to begin with -1 week turned into 2 weeks, etc. I also told him that I was feeling discouraged because while we've increase our phone contact throughout the day, it was still very business like. He basically disagreed and said he would return to MC if that's what I wanted. In that conversation I told him that I saw the weekend being the same with him working all weekend and us preparing for a party that was held yesterday, etc. He disagreed. So, Friday night I was busy cleaning the house while he was busy watching the Yankees. Fine. I was very annoyed as this left me with holding a 2year old while cleaning, but said nothing. During the party, there were numerous times I noticed how we had really nothing to do with each other. There was no apparent interest in being near each other, etc. I made a few efforts to go near him, but I felt ignored. Now, pre-A, we really didn't engage like this and this would have been a non-issue. We would spend time at social events talking to others or me running after the kids. After the party I tried to point this out to my H to no avail. He basically thought I could've made an effort to spend time with him and didn't - that I knew where he was, etc. I tried to point out that the larger issue is that he is seemingly unaware of this, unconcerned about it and uninterested in spending time with me and that that's what people in a relationship are supposed to do. I really got no response - literally, he was in bed with the covers over his head and when I called him out on that he said we weren't having a conversation I was just complaining/nagging. I went over the whole, we are supposed to be working on this relationship and I don't see us doing what's necessary, etc. and now I'm not supposed to express any opinion that is negative, etc. and he said it was the tone of my voice. (WHich - I was pissed off for other reasons when I attempted this conversation and it was reflected in my voice.) So, I just said that I wanted more for my life. He left this morning givng me a quick peck, but without uttering a word. I really feel like there is no passion and I obviously doubt that he has the fortitude to stay faithful in a relationship lacking passion - I mean this was his complaint/his reason for the A - that we had a dead marriage and weren't getting along. I'm seriously thinking of doing the 180.
I thought I was going to have a stroke because my H is the type that has always insisted that couselors were quacks!! I still have a problem with H not listening to me. I can be talking and he will be looking right at me and 2 days later he has no recollection of the conversation. So I've been calling him on it and if it's something that is important to me, I start out by saying.."are you listening to me?" It's so so frustrating! It's like living with a 59 year old baby. Give it more time. If your H really wants to stay in the M, he will eventually step up to the plate. Unfortunately it's a long process and sometimes very discouraging.
Allgood - I don't know if I'm going to make any sense because I'm not that great at putting my words in writing but your H sometimes seems to be related to mine. If at this point I did the 180, we'd be done.
What seemed to work a bit better (and this has been the last 2 weeks)was I stopped mentioning the A or the OW. I totally stopped and started acting kinder towards him. It is so hard for me to do because I am still so angry but I have seen a slight improvement. If your H is like mine, the minute I mention what I need from him, he does the opposite. He doesn't want to be told what to do or how to do it. Your H knows what is needed, just like mine. I'm not expecting miracles, but I do want to be treated like I matter.
The improvements I've seen are terribly small but none the less they are improvements.
Now, after I wrote all those positives, I just bought a keylogger because there are things on his computer that are concerning me. Grrrrr....porn, adultfriendfinder, etc. Does it ever end?
strongish, I doubt they're talking about your problems (although you probably know your MC's stand on infidelity vs. pre-A marriage issues from the first two meetings). If your MC is anything like mine, he's spending half the time just trying to get WH to shut up and listen.
Fun, I'm glad you are seeing some improvements with your H - that he likes going to IC is just great! Sux about the stuff you are finding on the computer. I hope it turns out to be nothing.
O - and you will love this - I was just so done this morning -or 85% done- but I decided to text my H about what happened last night & the short version is that he knew I was mad (and picks the least significant thing I was mad about to remember) but says he guesses he must have been too drunk/sleepy when we were talking last night to remember the rest of the conversation. The rest of the conversation is just not worth repeating. And, I get your point about not mentioning the A. In fact, I haven't mentioned the A in 2 weeks. I seriously think he just shuts down any time there is any conversation about how to improve things with us - like we should just let it happen without discussing it.
Nell - good point. I'm going to focus on me (to the extent possible with 4 small kids.)
And I found the following quote on a link posted on another thread about immature men:
However, the evolution and maturation of a male involves growing to a phase where a man thinks beyond dominance, grandiosity and patriarchy; a man who thinks outside of himself and his own desires. Thus, the next phase would be that of service and purpose. In other words, the man has a clearly defined purpose in life that includes making a difference in the world giving and serving rather than simply taking and amassing.
Where can I find one of these mature men?
i believe you both need to go to mc like yesterday hon.....you need to learn how to communicate with each other, to be able to express what you each need from each other without coming off sarcastic, naggy, uninterested, or anything else that the 2 of you seem to portray to the other....
now why didn't you hand him the baby when you were cleaning and TELL him you needed help.....in his pea brain i'm thinkin he is telling himself that he is staying out of your way that you have it all under control....some men are like that you know....that could very well be a man thing since i see it freakin everywhere....
now to be fair: you and he are hosting this shindig...right....that means you don't spend time together socializing together, there is too much to do, and hopefully he was doing as much as he was socializing......and when there are small kids involved allgood the socializing changes to accomodate this...usually its one parent tending to the kiddies...more often then not its the mom...the is just the way it is....
you need to speak up when things are happening and TELL the man what you NEED from him.....and give him choices...hold the baby or vacuum....kind of thing...STOP being super woman....STOP doing it all yourself...you said you don't want to be a single parent, well then take advantage of that now.....tell him what you need when you need it....if he wants to perceive that as nagging then so be it, but complaining to him after the fact does not help you....he needs to be SHOWN everything he can and could be doing for YOU.....and the only way to accomplish this is to speak up before and during....kind of like catching a puppy doing bad, after the fact its out of the mind....not that your husband has the mental capacity of a dog, its just the concept that after the fact its useless and percieved out of context....
and i also think your husband needs to spend one day in your shoes, cleaning, doing homework, mommy chauffeur and getting a hot dinner on the table.....all with taking care of every kids needs.....so arrange it...tell him its little experiment so he could experience what it is to be you.....just in chores and kids....and he should do this on a regular basis, at least once a month to get in touch with reality of what it is to have 4 kids, work and take care of a house....
Crazy as this sounds, I thanked him for being there whenever I was sick (he really was) and he said I didn't have to thank him, I was there for him too. Why did I do this? I was starting to make some closure in my mind and heart. Crazy way, I know, but somehow I didn't want to start just thinking of the good things and drive myself crazy. I'm trying to be realistic about everything. I'm starting to resign myself, it still hurts like
Why did I do this? I was starting to make some closure in my mind and heart. Crazy way, I know, but somehow I didn't want to start just thinking of the good things and drive myself crazy. I'm trying to be realistic about everything. I'm starting to resign myself, it still hurts like
yes it does sound crazy honest, this is not detaching, this is torturing yourself for what purpose...
you know he has a good side, trying to bring this out is not going to help you detach......trying to see the good in him right now is not going to help you detach.....
i know you need to see the value in the relationship, but all the value that it HAD is gone with exception to those 2 great kids.....
there was value, there was love, there was alot of good.....and it is over now....what you believed to be - is no longer, what you believed to be - was...it was for you, but no longer is...
detach detach detach.....and you need i think to use some tools to get you there...how is that list coming....get angry dear heart, get good and angry...it is so overdue...and i know you have some anger, you know you have some anger...let it rise up.....and use it to your advantage, it will help you detach....it will also help you move forward instead being stuck in this void, this big black hole....
start thinking about all the things he has done and said....get fucking angry...go back over the many posts that we tribe peeps get angry for you....this man is one who incites most of us, so why not you, why are you afraid of your anger towards this man....what do you fear here......because i cannot believe that you have none...or that is little in size....what this man has done and said to you is abominable....and if you were reading what he has done and said to you about another, i know you would be angry for her...so why not yourself...you deserve better then what he has dished out, you do believe that part don't you..and if you can't do it for you, how about your boys, look at what this whole thing has done to them, and continues to do to them....
get mad, detach...do what you have to do to accomplish this...
so can do his "chores" anytime. Now weekend comes. WE are both home in morning and he has not time for me!!!!
maybe after opening up to you he needs a little "me" time to put himself in perspective...kind of like the man cave, but no cave, just to be able to unwind from it all, this man obviously loves you very much and it could not have been easy to open himself up the way he did....cut him a little slack on this one and don't take it personally...step back and let him unwind from it the way he see's fit, as long as the way he see's fit is acceptable and getting shit done around the house i would think is more then acceptable....and then see what happens next....so hold your judgement....wait and see how he continues...
you are courageous, with all that you have gone through and continue to go through...woman accept the compliment, you have an amazing strength within you....
You seem to be saying that even though FWH is truly remorseful you can never forgive and completely R.
not at all, my ws is completely remorseful...but he is not doing all that i require.....i had put dealbreakers in place...he decided and chose not to honor those requirements....and even though i am not going to reconcile i still plan on forgiving him for what he's done, forgiveness is for me, not for him, not to let him off the hook but for me to move on.....
i think once i am physically separated, no longer living in the same house it will be much easier for me to come to forgiveness....first though i am still working on total acceptance....i need to accept what is before i can forgive and i need to completely detach as well....if i were reconciling then it would be a different scenario as for the acceptance and forgiveness....that is where his part would be helpful, where he could and would be able to help me acheive that, but since we are not reconciling and worse he is incapable of helping me heal in any way i am on my own without being on my own....he is always there....in my face, in my house, in my bedroom....right now more then anything i would love him gone...but that would not serve my purpose with my kids....
yesterday there was a little thing between pfm and dd....and he came to me with it, and i shut him up and shut him out...i detached myself from the sich...told him he was on his own...this was not a life altering thing, this was him trying to be a dad...not my job to teach him, not my job to make this easier for him or even my dd....i need to step back and let him sink or swim and if that means my dd has to suffer the consequnces...then so be it...i cannot save her from him, i cannot save the relationship for them...i am finally accepting this in small steps, but steps...more and more i am stepping back.....so yay me...
but anyways....i do want to eventually forgive...FOR ME....right now i don't give a rats ass for him, but FOR ME...
He is fairly cavalier about the possibility of our children finding out about his A and that scares me.
in what way is he being cavalier?
this is easy, because they truly believed that they would not be found out, all of our ws's exept for honest's ws.....none of them wanted to be found out and truly believed that they would not be, they all had huge ego's that helped them believe that they were "invincable" in this respect...after all look at how long they DID get away with it.....its ludicrous when you think about it, but seriously look at how long they did get away with it...so of course this fed the already exploded ego that needed, craved the boost.....and sometimes part of the excitement is the danger aspect, it makes it more exciting, but yet the ego feels that, hell i got away with it for this long i will continue to do so....and all of them want their marriages to continue, even honest ws wants his marriage to continue....and this is where the separation comes into play....does the ws want it enough to do what it takes...does the ws show consistently that (s)he is sorry for the past behavior and is actively trying to better him/herself and to repair the marriage????
So WH talked over MC by repeating that same point loudly every time MC tried to finish his thought... and MC finally said, "I don't know why I'm feeling so frustrated." To which I replied, "Because he is not listening." And WH didn't hear it! It was classic WH. I'm so glad MC saw that. (Not that he hadn't before... just not to that level.) It's utterly ridiculous.
this is not good, your mc needs to get control of the sich, and get control of the appt.....allowing your husband to run it is not a good sign....i would seriously think about getting another....as much as you want the mc to "see" it all, you want the mc to speak up when (s)he sees it and put an immediate stop to it...another words be able to call "bullshit"...
fnf has a great story, where are you fnf, tell your story about "8 fucking years" at the mc....
allgood: dr phil will contantly change "costumes" til halloween is over...so keep lookin, some of them are hilarious...
ETA: I'm going to go have some leftover birthday cake now.
[This message edited by Allgoodnamesgone at 9:23 AM, October 17th (Sunday)]
do what it takes, your husband is inept at making this happen, even though i really believe he wants it too....yes it sucks that you have to be the one, but that is just how it is...
I am sure there are many mature men out there. I cannot tell you just where to find them. I only know where one is. He is usually pretty mature acting, except when he is being a crazy old fart.
You women are sometimes hard to figure out. You all want a mature man, but then start talking about cabana boys. I guess I need to ponder this puzzle for the next few days.
Hugs to the tribe.


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