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I'm sitting on the floor I'm crying so much more trying to erase this pain trying to forget your face sitting here with the blade in my hand running so slow blood dripping down in a deep red color flowing freely the way i want to feel I'm sitting on the floor holding my hand out I'm holding a bottle a bottle filled with pills I'm crying so hard the pain is unbearable I'm feeling so weak I'm sitting here on this floor holding a blade crying like crazy trying to take this pain away I'm trying my best trying to fight my eyelids feel heavy my door is so far the whispered yells to far falling deep in to sleep deep..deep..deep..deep I'm laying on a bed I'm so confused where am i? my throat feels sore my body screams in pain I'm looking around I'm in a small white room i try to move, my hands are stuck i try to get up i feel restraints what happened to me? I'm laying on a bed trying to get up my head hurts a nurse is here a shot is administered i drift to sleep I'm in the psych ward why am i here? I'm lying on a bed laying so still my wrists hurts to no end I'm crying out loud screaming and cussing my body hurts i can't remember all i remember are my bloody wrists and a bottle of pills all i remember is the pain i was in.....
One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."
You made the mistake and now, your afraid to face this day. Your thoughts are racing through and through. You wonder if your family looks at you as a disgrace, but you'er mother takes you and reasures, your very much loved in grace. Even though your much to young for this breathing little thing this has become. You couldn't just throw it out like it was a peice of trash. So you grow up and take the path that led you to your best mistake for years to come.
I sit here shaking in this warm water The pain has come, for my life to barter. Should i do it, let everything go. I grab that razor and never let go. I tilt my head back and take a breath I soon feel the pain inside my chest. My heart is pounding faster and faster. I think in my head now I\'m the master. Cutting and cutting away that pain as the blood drips down, my life slowly fades. I drop the blade, and watch it fade, into the Bath of blood that i have made. Everythings gone, my life to. into that red liquid, that makes me and you. i am now free of all that pain, and all the suffering that never went away. So now i lay here in my Bath of blood, looking down in at the soapy suds. Was it a dream or was it a fantasy. I look at my wrists....and they still bleed.
Three Little Girls: That's what we were, Standing outside the school, You, me, and her. I remember how it felt When you began to cry, The weighted look of sadness Reflecting in your eyes. You missed the place you'd been before, Where you had built a life, And here among such harshness, You had met much strife. A year later, two little girls we were, The other off on her own. We were two in love with the same boy, And a great friendship had grown. You'd tease me and we'd laugh, For hours that seemed like days, And even though it was you he chose, Our friendship did not go away. Two little girls: that's what we were, Friends until the very end. As the years passed by, More & more time together we would spend. Though maybe not as close, Were we, as I wish we could have been, Our friendship was a strong one, Unlike any I had seen. You never pulled away, Or said you needed space. You'd greet me at the door, We'd link arms, a great smile upon your face. One little girl: that's what I am, Now that you left me. I needed you so much, But I suppose you never really did see. Two friends, we are, torn apart, However, our friendship will live on. For true friendship knows know limits, The barrier an invisible line that has been drawn. You're still with me, here, even today, But your smile I cannot see. Though you pulled away, We're closer now than I could have ever hoped to be. Two little girls: that's what we are, For no one could pull us apart. Just like those still with me, You'll be forever in my heart. If I had known you'd leave me here alone, I would have tied you to my side. I knew not of your intentions, For the truth you chose to hide. You haven't left me here alone, I just long to hear your voice. You wrote "The End" to your story, Without giving me a choice. If I could, I'd hug you now, The way I forgot to before. You're still here with me, But somehow I want more. I want your laughter to ring out, Your song to echo through the halls, To see again the look upon your face when We went exploring and found only horses' stalls. I don't want to be one little girl, Why did our fun have to end? I want to be two little girls, Not one who misses her friend.
Crying, Sobbing, Laying face down on my bed, My head drove into my pillow, Trying to drownout the sound of my own cries. Not wanting anyone to hear me, Not even myself, Waiting, Wondering, When shall the last tear fall, Hoping that this will be over soon, That I won't have to deal with this much longer. Red cheeked, Running nose, Light streams running down my face, Hoping for the best, Thinking of the worst, Why do I have to go through this? When shall it be over or shall I make it over.
(Chorus): Never thought I'd fall in love with my best friend Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything He knew everything about me He was there through my ups and downs But I found out he fooled around I'd never thought I'd fall in love with my best friend (Verse 1): Its sad how things change Seems like I want to put things back in reverse Now that I see I feel my love life is a curse So many times he say he'd stick by my side There wasn't anything I never had to hide I never thought I'd find myself in love with you Now what am I going to do (Bridge): I go back and look at the relationship you left me over someone you never met tell me how did you fall in love over the internet Why did you do this to me Boy it cost so much stress My heart is broken and I'm in so much mess Never thought I'd fall in love with my best friend (Chorus): Never thought I'd fall in love with my best friend Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything He knew everything about me He was there through my ups and downs But I found out he fooled around I'd never thought I'd fall in love with my best friend (Verse 2-Rap): Its crazy how you say its not me, its you so please don't take it the wrong way Then, I sit and I wonder how in the world you can say this to me Now wondering, asking myself how can I make you stay When you was leaving me for this other chick Now you don't even want to pick up the phone Boy I know you at, I'm here all alone So you sit there and ignore me baby I thought I was supposed to be your one and only lady Now I have to sit here and pretend like nothing ever happened Tell me how am I supposed to deal with this boo Im so in love with you you left me for who? The answer just hurt me so bad Now we doing another sad love song How are you to tell me who was wrong or right These words I write are quite contrite But since Im not the jealous type I'll let it fly Its sad how you did me baby boy
How can I be selfless without being used? How can I be demanding without being so rude? How can I open up without closing back down? How can I speak if you don't hear a sound? How can I trust without being betrayed? Yet how could I leave... even after you stayed? But how can you love me when I won't let you in? So many questions.... where do I begin? -------- Memories now blurred, flying through my mind…… Now, I'm trying to repress the days of being youthful and blind. Every morning I pull on my armor, right from within, Preparing for a war, that I intend, to win. If my heart is my comrade and my mind is the enemy, Then in the midst of this battlefield, Life is the remedy… --- Trying to stay sane, knowing that although this is temporary, nothing is vain… Learning that there is always a purpose and people will try to corrupt us, and bring you great shame… Being told that 'Victory isn't given to he who starts the race the strongest, but he who endures until the end.' Trying to suspend you from learning to depend... on yourself, instead making you depend on the wealth, Of someone who doesn't even know who he is, while you're grasping the stealth of your true identity, in your right hand, in your heart, the knowledge… Never been withheld … .. . Feeling the world come crashing down on you, compacting into a mist of air so cool, The breeze passing right through, right into the depths of your pores, to ensue, The burning and broken and fragile pieces of the inhabitants of the earth from your birth til' now.. Physically becoming everything that you breathe, touch, conceive, munch, perceive, every aroma... And every great or insignificant trauma, reflecting off your skin oh so temporarily, the mark so paper thin… Physically, THAT is what you are… Because we only see the physical, right? Yet, behind every movie is there not a director… a cast? And behind every painting is there not an artist, combining colors and lines so vast? And behind every child is there not a journey, a past? ... That you did not walk, yet you know that it's there, not by sight, scent, taste, touch, or hearing... But something inside you, that says it makes sense, KNOWS that all of that is there, KNOWING ... .. .
Ignite, The missing light, Forget, What's behind. Just believe, That love comes again... 'Cause, The skies, Are like a hard glide, In a shining rainbow's light... All dreams and fantasies, Can be reality, 'Cause fantasy, Is based on reality... But all histories aren't the same... 'Cause, Sometimes, we dive, In our lives... So, Don't judge, For what you see, Judge, For what it is..., 'Cause time passes, But, memories remain... And, Listen, To your heart, 'Cause, The body, does, The mind, thinks, And, the heart, feels..., While, the soul, lives... So, Always remember, To remember the past, To live the present, And to wait and pursue the future... Listen to your heart, Before you are telling goodbye, 'Cause destiny, Might lead to demise..., But, remember that destiny can be changed... Life is unpredictable, But space and time, Could be controlled... And even if some die, We may survive... Remember, That life, Might have an endless beginning... All that remains, Is to be reborn...
(please read "Her Masterpiece Is Her Story" before reading the second part. It'll make more sense and probably be more enjoyable!) The girl who has beautiful scars, And the boy with marks of strength, Are now separated by distance, And that is causing some teenage angst. The girl wonders how the boy is doing. Her paintbrush calls her name. The two can't talk right now, And she feels she's to blame. The girl's best friend is lonely, And she isn't much better. The only way honesty is revealed, is through a heart felt letter. Her scars are fading away, Everyone knows her secret, so she can't add to the art. She's wishing she could draw more cuts, At night the voices in her mind take over her heart. Her masterpiece is disappearing, Her artwork is going away. "What caused you to do this!??!" her family asks. "I...I hate myself." is all she can say. She's trying to be okay, If not for herself then for her friends, If there's one thing she can't take, It's their fatal ends. But she doesn't know how the boy is, She doesn't know his feeling, Her mind is going crazy, Her sanity is reeling. Since she doesn't know how the boy is doing, Her anxious mind is filled with worry, Her demons have told her something. They're telling her the worst horror story. Her masterpiece is fading, I've told you this before. Her scars are going away, She wants to make more. But she doesn't make any. For the sake of those she loves. She restrains from her paintbrush. Even though it fits like a glove. Her story is continuing, Her painting isn't dry. But her canvas is even more, down upon her thigh. Maybe she'll erase some drawings. She's trying to be okay. She actually doesn't want to get better. But what am I supposed to say? Be honest and say she doesn't want that? Be truthful and say she doesn't care? Because in her life right now, Having no motivation? She wouldn't dare! She misses the life she had before. She didn't mind hiding her own part of her life. She would just cope her own way. She'd cope by using a knife. Maybe one day she'll draw on an actual paper, Or paint with an actual paintbrush, But right now with her anxiety, She feels that there is no rush. Don't worry about the girl. She just cries every night. But she has to keep going, Her best friend is in near sight. It'll be alright everyone, I'll keep you up to date, The girl's painting will continue. If that's the artist's fate.
A soul cries yet nobody hears him They say he has neither a head nor limbs But he has a soul and a spirit Undesirable is the soul to be taken from the womb A soul cries yet nobody hears him His voice is so mild that no one can hear him He's damned for a crime he didn't commit No supplication and inspiration to share A soul still cries yet nobody hears him He has neither words nor songs to hymn He's languishing from a lashing whip A victim to hatred, dubiety and immorality A soul cries yet nobody seems to care He pleas for his precious life to be spared Yet with a mild voice no one will give an ear With despair he cries and screams into the night A soul cries yet this girl has turned a deaf ear A voice tells her "eliminate him from here" But a master fate will sometimes have it to be The Dame escorted him six feet underground The Poet Preacher © 2014
The voices grow louder, Intensifying with emotion, anger lining every aggressive word. My insides squeeze tighter as the vitriol poisons my mind, How does such hostility exist? As the sound of hatred deepens, The feelings strengthen their grip, like a vice, So tight, I can no longer breathe All the negative emotions I have ever felt, fill me, Threatening to overflow. So long have they been banished… Enough. No more! My mouth opens, An earsplitting scream of pain and suffering shatters the silence, Sobs of sorrow and grief wrack my body, Murderous shrieks of anger and hate, Wretched cries of self-pity and self-loathing, Poison the air. Now, free of these emotions. But the monster still exists Within the dark depths of my mind.
So much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to shout. It was like being trapped behind bars without a way to get out. My mind going wild with all these questions of why. The only way to escape was to fall asleep or to cry. What did I do so bad that made me have to pay? My friends, my dreams, and my life was swepped away. I know I can do it! I try and I try. Nothing seems to get better. I sometimes wish I would Die. Starved for attention. I wanna talk to the world. I just miss being loved. Miss the warmth of a girl. Snickers and stairs is what my life has become. I'm treated like I'm a kid, like I'm sick, or I'm dumb. One day to the next. Life becomes work just to be alive. I thank god for my blessings. I thank god I survived. I finally see some improvement. More hope tickles my brain. It was worth all the time, all the tears, all the pain. I awake with a smile and new hope to move on. I did it! I did it! All those hard times are gone!
This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me
Before you came along everything was going all wrong i didn't know what to do but that was before i knew i needed you i would walk down the streets all alone going every where but home before you came along i would turn my face to the sky wishing i could tell this world a quick goodbye before you came along i would fall down so far down i had to look up to see the ground but before i could shed another tear you were here holding me in your arms you had finally come along just in time to help me be strong i love u now u are ready to go i did something, what, i guess ill never know this has all played out like a bad song because now your going going going GONE :(
She was Rachel, beautiful as her name and in all ways. In innocence, caught up in "grown up, worldly things Folks who knew her laughed it off took is as if a joke At a loss to grasp the deeper meaning behind it all Her parents were alarmed and sought to reinforce their rules But it seemed it was too late to remedy this state It's so hard to understand how this change came about One moment she was their baby, the next, a stranger in their midst This tragedy could not have been any part of God's plan Lost, running away, leaving behind comfort and warmth She, instead would hitch-hike her way to live as a stray Rachel and her friends never envisioned the many dangers For lack of better judgment, with her life she would pay He seemed like an average "Joe", wearing a jacket of softest leather She thought, 'He's hot and dressed fine; no way could he be whack' Inexperience and temperament silently urged her on Repressed anger held fast as she played a game of dice She'd been waiting at the gas station just off Route Seventy Seven Many hours past, as she mulled over random thoughts Cold, tired and hungry, it was getting late as panic took a seat Contn'd Pg. 2
can you remember the time i let you in? the time i showed you my heart? the time i shared my soul with you? the moment i poured out my blood when you needed it? The second i saved your life? The hour i saved you from your darkest secret? The minute where you watched me bury myself alive? Remember the time when you almost made me cry? the time i made it a game to play your game? the day i had my own time and took advantage of myself? the hour it took to shut you out and let you go away for a long time? well your going to have to ask nicer than that
The man with the plastic bug in his head monopolized my dreams last night in the place that the horsefly of my dignity finally surrender to the impresario without a fight. Seven days and 7 hours transplanted in my memorabilia reminding the rustiness of the purple child flatterers danced beneath the clouds of melancholy and morality spreader the master plan inside my mind. The disinheritance of my immortality the final day discouraged my desire to see the forbidden love restored my will to escape manipulated the deep of the uncertainty above. Released from the plastic bug in my head try to cover my yellow child in the purple sky laughing,singing,whispering,playing seven days and seven hours before he dies.
Contn'd from Pg 1 So she called out to the stranger and asked for a ride Snow had fallen heavily and already piled three feet high When she climbed into the four-wheel truck never giving it another thought Before he headed down the highway, he went into a crowded bar Intuition nudged her, 'get out now, turn back!' But pride urged her, 'stay' He returned with a brown bag; appearing harmless as he turned to her 'Say, you're trembling!' He said and flashed a breathless smile 'Here, have a slug, of this, it'll warm you up, pretty girl!' Hesitation loomed for a minute then she accepted the bag from his hand Young Rachel, was now treading a path beyond thin, cracking ice As tears stung her beautiful eyes, she'd never had a drink this strong How her vacant tummy rebelled against the searing burn Nausea arose from deep within, and she began to have regrets Registering strong protest, her regurgitation would later accuse her killer Her faith was sealed as there were no open doors left for escape And before she realized he had made a reckless wide left turn Down the snow covered dirt path through tall pines and fir No longer were there sightings of sparsely lit farm houses Interspersed along the desolate, picturesque landscape The four-wheeler tackled with ease, snow drifts of fresh fallen snow Where the following spring young Rachel's body would be discovered That night Rachel laid buried under a few feet of snow She was at rest now to awaken to eternity in sunny fields Beautiful as daisies growing in heaven, carefree and endlessly in bloom! ~*~ For: Rachel..R.I.P.
Sleeping in sorrow If I don't wake tomorrow Then all will be well.
She cried, She died inside over and over again, She was trapped in herself and she had no way of escaping. Taking drugs to dull the mud that's been in her eyes for years. She's so far away from reality that it's like she is constantly sleeping. She has to remind herself what's fictional and what's fact because the hallucinations wouldn't let her breath, they'd lie to her every chance she gets. Turning her mom into a monster not butterflies suddenly this high becomes a nightmare. One she had been fighting for so long, 16 and still traveling the same rode as so many younger than her. She didn't listen to all the voices that tried to tell her what she was missing because truly reality is the thing that makes life worth living. To her reality was the guy who had raped her constantly when she was young, Why choose reality when you could live in a dream world where everything had excuses. Not only could she not recognize the girl who cried constantly in the mirror but she'd done so many things to herself that even her eyes were a different color. It hurt so bad not to remember so she continued to fade until soon it seemed better. In an idiotical world where there were always smiles, It wasn't until she got help that she realized the real world was never always pleasant. It was filled with hate and lies and pain but that's something real and something she needed to face. Something she needed to open her eyes to, life would never be cake and she couldn't have her victory without tasting poison at least once. So when the tears dried and the wounds healed she signed up for a special thing a thing called GED and she got it.
me: "you're the reason i have no freinds, the thing i try to hide, i lock you up inside my head, and keep you inside" jez: "i am you and you must see, the one you truly are, not always who they think, you still shine like a star," me: "i miss the life you took from me, the girl i was, please leave me be." jez: "......" me: "i miss your voice, within my head, come back and stay, don't leave instead" jez: "......" me: "ive lost you now, my heart will fade, you were my heart, a mistake i've made." somthing new for those who commented on all my other poems. ~hides and peeks out~ do you like it?
I knew it was risky to say what I thought but the heart is so tricky and I just couldn't stop my lips from saying the words that my mind was dying to say the words fluttered out like birds that I love you more each day. People say love is strong and shouldn't be said as a joke well forgive me if I'm wrong for the honest words I spoke. I know it was really selfish to assume that you felt the same I gave into my impulses and put myself to shame. But please don't feel that because I said the forbidden phrase anything will change in our lives as we meet every day I know you don't feel the same way and I accept that it's not going to change but i wonder if it is okay if we stay friends all the same I think that I can pretend that you never broke my heart as long as you keep up your end and play the friendly part. I'll take all the tears that I cried and hide them away from you and then maybe you and I can be friends, just like we used to.
I hold it in falling apart inside close my door walk up the familiar stairs reach for my only friend no questions asked not a doubt in my mind i tug at my wrist let my arms Cry Red Tears full of pain desire hate tape up the emotions put away the fears so i can hold it in and let my arms Cry Red Tears...
Deep down in my heart, I had seen from the start, That you were bad for me but... I could not resist your symphony. Everything happend for a reason. But now it is time to start a new season. From spring to summer to fall to winter. i can not wait to earn that new splinter Of hate,regret and depression Now that i have learned my lesson It is not time for him to move on to a different person.
People say that they know, Then she asks them is that so? Do you know how I feel? Do you measure every meal? What it's like to take a shot, At 7 o'clock on the dot? You don't know a single thing, Of the girl with a broken wing. She's limited on her food, Which puts her in a real foul mood. When her blood sugar suddenly drops, She all of a sudden flips and flops. She can't even stand up strait, She thinks that she might actually faint. You people think you understand, The most you can do is lend a hand. Diabetes is no joke, She can't even have a single coke. She and her mom worry every day, They wonder if she'll be okay. Her bloodsugar can drop really low, She can instantly become a real big foe. It can even go really high, She swears that it can reach the sky. So for the people that say they know, I ask them now, is that so?
I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You
Dry your tears, clear your eyes Ease your pain with mournful sighs Soon the grief will fade away, When you hear what i have to say. I don't mean to pry In your business or life, But i don't like it when you cry... I want to know what is wrong in your life! Don't shed away Tell me what's wrong And everything will be okay, No matter what you say. Everybody has problems, And everyone has pain, If you don't deal with them, You'll have nothing to gain. Dry your tears, clear your eyes Ease your pain with mournful sighs' Soon the grief will fade away...... When you hear what i have to say!
I am A shadow That lurks on The wall that has No Home None at all But to have no home a Shadow would say is worst way to live out each day. I am The shower cap covered in rust i do not work right but I am a must so you put up with me for the time being until you used me all for your need. I am an outcast who sits alone who is treated like I do not belong and goes off alone to cry plotting his end as others laugh at me and spin wicked lies about things I've done making me wish i ended it with a gun. I am the friend you once had that moved away and made you sad but said good by and turned away as you tried to stop me and make me stay but i smile and say the words you wished to hear all those years. I am me a young man with hope who ends his day trying to cope with the withdraws from drugs like dope and cry's as he chokes on his own words when he looks at you and you spit and curve away from me and all i did was say hi to ye but it wasn't you that made me cry it was the feeling of wanting to die to hide away from the world from those who say I Am a mess a nothing a no one.
In London, away in a terrace Half-hidden with elm trees and grime, Lived young Violet, in her parents' house, Left alone for near all of the time, As her mother had no patience to teach her And her father was working all day, Violet read to herself through her childhood Forgetting her seclusion in play, Any friends she made as a young woman Would laugh at her stitches and cloth, For they knew that Violet was quite useless And so showed their neat needlework off, Poor Violet kept trying her best, but Each time everyone ran her down, She retreated back into her mind's warmth Far away from that cold-blooded town, Then one night, as the raindrops were piercing Through the rueful, restricting twilight, Violet threw on her Sunday attire and Did at once in the darkness delight, So she ran through the alleys and gardens, Dancing down the pitch-black London streets, Her beautiful dress flew about her As she skipped past the other deceits, Violet's stories swam round in her memory As she flew through the night and the stars, And she bathed thoroughly and with relish Until Violet was cleansed of her scars, Now her heart was open and happy, So she laughed and fluttered her tail, Carelessly gliding free through the water And onwards to the ocean did sail. As the weary sun rose on the next day Her friends could be seen on the pier, Dabbing at their dry eyes with their hankies, Voices straining trying to sound sincere, "It has hurt us so indescribably, That because of her poorly-sewn hems, Violet felt she was inferior to us And has drowned herself in the Thames." Violet's parents had not yet noticed The absence of their only daughter, And they would understand even less How she came to be dead underwater, But Violet was now free to prosper, To swim and to dance and to glide, And with angels and mermaids to play with, She would always in her dreams reside.
Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?
I hate this life with a growing passion. Its my fault. I made it this way. Ive lost my compassion. But like that hardly matters now, with my face against the ground and a knife sticking out my back. Your betrayal. A quick slap to my already cut face. I feel so sorry that I hurt you. I told you that already. But you ignored me and decided to lash at my turned body. Inside out you broke and cut me. I still feel bad... and wish to apologize but im afraid to Im to frightened of the fact you can hurt me with any of your words. You could kill me if you wanted.
I remember the first time, You came to my house, All we did was sit on the couch. We sat and held hands and watched my little sister dance. I don't know about you, But I had fun, Welcome to my life, It's day number one! The second day you came, We sat and we talked, Then my little brother asked you to go play basketball. It was dark outside, And it had just finished raining, You fell in my pond, And spent most of the night complaining. I don't guess I can blame you, I'd probably feel the same, If I were soak 'n wet, On my second "date". You had to borrow my dad's pants, which of course were way too small, Quite frankly I think we both agree, That they didn't fit at all. I don't know if all of this you recall, But on "date" number two, I had a ball. Over the next couple of months, It seemed you had become, A BIG part of my family, For you were my first love. We have a lot of memories, We had a lot of fun, But once again I'm only one. Now that you're free again, I have one question I'd like to ask... Is your love for me held within?... Or do you wish to keep your freedom, which you finally have at last.
Sharp Pains in my chest a fire started in my throat the sting of torment inmy eyes a weary feeling in my heart those last few words that horrid look the bitter sound of your voice is torture to my ears a hammer to my heart a bullet to the brain can someone please stop him from causing me this pain? I promise to never do this again if I knew that this would happen it never would have started I never would have loved you. I can't hold up any longer I'm falling out of love. is this how heartbreak feels? it hurts... I'll never love again.
People ask me why I wear black And bitterly I shall snap back Lack of color helps me conceal How it is I truly feel A colorless life, harsh situations But no fear of implications There is no color, can be no blame I can hide in the dark, free from shame Colors only distract attention From the reality, the pure intention I am broken, I am insane I feel a never ending pain Now I ask you, go away So I can cry another day Another day of hurt and sorrow An endless day, awaits tomorrow
This isn't who i really am Across my face, there's a veil A veil that fool the world Never had it fool my heart so frail In the cruel world i live in I'm left alone in the cold I have to hide my within Just like a confined soul Living the cruel reality Where i'm held to the ground Where i must pretend who ain't me Just to fit in the world beyond I have a dream So beyond my reach and power Painful as it seems Life is a dragging hour! Doubt my fantasy would be reality Doubt the cruel world would have sanity Doubt they would have mercy On this poor little me...
Now my doubts are clear The thing i fear have arrived Though my sadness is contented in a silent tear I just wonder how i might survive Now that my heart feels pain And mixed emotions i tried to contain The solution to this seems so faint What should i do when i meet split lanes? I am afraid to make any decisions Nor would i want to believe my perception Am i going to face any deception? That is my heart frequent question I, suddenly feel so small Hiding myself under my veil I ignore my heart frequent calls I get love to no avail I want to give him a chance But it seems that it will lead to deception He won't realize it until everything is done He won't realize that this girl is one in a million Let it be what it has to be Though i know my heart needs to be free I am hurt by the future i am supposed to see I regretted ignoring my heart recent pleas....
If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word
The first tear falls... It beholds a vision Of two lovers dancing- A soldier and his Perfect lady. The following tears Fall like raindrops That grace her skin And invigorate her soul With poetic words, All slowly relieving her Of troubles that Weigh on her mind. She writes these words As the tears saturate The pages. I'd love to Read her words or Catch her tears, But I wish she would smile. Dedicated to my best friend, Amanda Straub ( 7/23 Happy Anniversary )
~The Light~ I remember the first time Voices in my head getting way too loud Just a little girl unable to enjoy the world around me I thought there was no way out Almost took the easy way out Then I saw something shining at the end of a long dark tunnel It gave me hope A reason to believe As long as I kept my focus on ~The Light~ Thirteen and so very young Afraid to tell a soul About the demons in my head I thought that I had to deal with them For myself by myself Until I slipped and told a friend Finding out she heard them sometimes too Helped me feel a little better It is just too bad she never had a chance to see Brightness at the end of her tunnel After she moved away She just gave up Walking away from ~The Light ~ I felt so bad Yet I managed to hide the pain I always felt inside Even in my darkest hours With many attempts behind me I kept hoping to see ~The Light~ It is beautiful to see how a family can rescue Their fallen Just not giving up Always feeling their unconditional love Knowing they were there It all helped me walk out of that dark tunnel Embracing ~The Light~ Now I firmly believe it is possible For the most troubled soul To find a way out Without taking the easy way With love and support I know you can do it too As you go through life's journey Wherever it may take you Always remember to look for and Embrace ~The Light ~ By: Jean Shular
I look in your eyes, the colors are changing your not the same person I met in the beginning of the season. Why all this jealousy I am only trying to love you and now you look at me like an enemy would a foe. Excuse me for thinking this but now your getting an attitude. I see the roll of the eyes and the whispers behind my back. It doesn't hurt me you know because I could really care less it just angers me that you are still pretending. Don't smile if your really mad. Because I am seriously getting annoyed with all this deceit. It's obvious that you don't want me around, constantly giving me the cold shoulder. Don't you know i'm better off I have people all over the world I don't need you. So if this is an attempt to drop me like a egg out of a window please warn me before I crack because then it will get brutal. I am mostly a nice quiet girl but that's only when i'm relaxed. You don't want to see the demons within me, take advantage for as long as you can but you know that as long as your picking i'm steaming. I am boiling slowly like water on the stove. Touch me after a while and boy I will get cold. Don't you think it's funny, don't you think it's sad. I'm shuffling my feet lonely but true fully I am not alone. I just wondering why i'm here... It used to be so much fun. You loved me then you loved me way back when. I guess everyone backs out when they find out the real me. Anger me go ahead, trouble me, but I've dealt with this before. It's nothing new, It's the same old same old and no matter what you do this time I won't fold. So i'm angry, just look beneath my brown eyes. Behind that softness lies a hard shell that's taken many blows.
I watch him clutch His silly staff, The way he looks Just makes me laugh. His glasses hide His hazel eyes, So no one knows How much he cries. I don't know why He looks that way, To be noticed, Some people say. He has no style, He isn't cool He doesn't fit in With the kids at school. I trip him up, Laugh when he falls, No one answers To his calls. He's so tiny, I'm so big, I could snap him Like a twig. I don't know what I'm going to say, When his mum Comes in today. He's moving away To another place, So that I'll Get off his case.
I keep hearing that you exist. People say they see you- They touch you. They say you help them when depressed, sad and lonely. They say you keep people together- forever. Some even say you do not work all the time; You have a tendency to fade away- Only for a short time, however, For you can return to set things back to norm. I'm curious- love. Do you really return?- Do you really fade away?- Do you really keep people together- forever?- Do you really console the depressed, sad and lonely?- For I am sad, lonely and depressed. Will not you help me? Why ignore me?- Or forget me? Why listen to what others have to say about me? I tried to reach for you too- You just could not see. For sadness, depression and loneliness kept you blind; Blind from watching my hands reach out to you... You fell- Long gone- Never came back. Do not worry- I keep hearing that you exist. Tis' true?- Do you really- Exist?
deprived of a father to tell her that her skirts to small she wore it to hug her hips and rise with every sway in her walk her mother, another statistic of having babies to young, was to whipped in her dip trying to be hip so she cheered her poor child on she's dying to survive in a broken home daddy not around to watch her spend a penny and mamas hardly home she's dying to survive and she's put her school on hold she's another undereducated black child with no priorities or goals she careers soliciting her body, making it hobby to walk up and down blocks waiting for the right brotha she can sweet talk and pick pocket at the honk of his horn, she stops hot trotting hopped in his car and found a quiet spot for lip locking her hand rises up his leg, she feels for his man he nods giving her consent she prices her body for those new Jordan and dolce & gabbani she'd rather rock the latest fashions then to feed her starving body she's hopelessly devoted to being the hottest at the parties she's dying to survive wanting attention to feel the space neglected by another who makes alcohol a hobby she's dying to survive rich living is her poverty she's deaf to her inner voice that yells to her it's wrong she confides in bad associates who cheer her on she doesn't know this is how she's dying she's dying to survive
I have no roof to shelter under When the sky begins to rain For an umbrella through the thunder I will always hope in vain.
Somewhere you are sitting Unaware of how I feel Then again maybe you know How I wish that you'd reveal Every now and then I like to close my eyes Pretend that you're with me The dreams I fantasize Honestly I wish you knew The things inside my heart Everytime I think of you I wish we weren't apart Never did I think That I would fall for you so hard Can't control the way I feel It all caught me off guard!
A crying child stands Alone Wet eyes and trembling hands Quietly turn to stone What is the cause? Who can be blamed? Time doesn't pause For a boy in the rain
In a smile it started In a second it grew In a minute we were light-hearted In an hour we knew In a day we tried In a week it came true In a month it died In that moment, I lost you.
Everything, stolen from her Every last defense, vanished inside of her She screams and moans into the rag But nothing she shrieks can escape the gag He pinned her down to the wall He held her there, and took it all She knew her innocence would never last But she never thought she would lose it so fast Her sweat-streaked body slid backwards and forwards He pushed her and slammed her against the boards The end drew near, and she writhed in pain Her tainted body dropped to the ground in shame Tears twist and wrench themselves from her eyes Back home and tired, she wishes she had died She was beaten and used, left alone, raped She feels unlucky, though she escaped Now suicide never removes itself from her brain The feeling of inadequacy drives her insane Nobody knows, and nobody cares It always seems like no one is there She wants relief, but it never comes She's stuck down inside her private slums She was abused and attacked by someone she held dear She was mistreated and raped, now she's no longer here 4/12/05
Silence and deaf ears. Sad times and many tears. Friends and family so relieving. Eyes and hearts in me believing. Times of trial hard to recover. No time or love from another. Welcoming arms and open hearts. Help and comfort and a new start. Take these things and piece me together. Take away the bad things and I'll feel better. Haven't you needed this yourself? Will you add to it or will you help? Hold me close and never leave. Keep the puzzle together and you'll be an important piece.
I started to write you this song The day that everything went wrong You think I have it all together And that I'm as light as a feather You can't see the pain from my past All I ever do is see you fast You want your life to be perfect It's not fair you excel in every subject It was fine when you were by yourself My life story is somewhere on a shelf Now you're taking someone else down with you We all used to be stuck together like glue I can see your pain I will always feel I'm the one to blame
Sometimes, life isn't always how It looks at first. It's all better now. I felt so overwhelmed by the world's demands, But I feel better knowing she understands. I no longer have to regret the things I've said. I know now that I can move on instead. I felt as if I was without that thing I could never find. Now I'm back in my body and back in my mind. I found that moment where my world was bright. I found that the sky's still blue and my world's alright. Loves are loves, traitors are traitors, but family is always there. Now I can look nearer for someone to care. I hope that everyone can be like me and find shelter from the rain. Love, family, friends, help, anything to help fight against your pain.
In the dark days, everything goes away. But the Pain will stay. If only I could cure the worlds sickest. Take the pain and make me the weakest. Out there somewhere MY dreams will be filled. Since I've changed, since I stopped taking those Pills. Everything revolved around me, but now I'm not so friendly. More pills to ease the pain, more pills to take me away into lightest days. The Lightest Days were we all roam and play, the sick and pain will go away. Better than ever. Nothing to Level, but still the bumpy road is in the past. My life was hard, my chances are far. But I've made it, last into the days of the past.
I'm dying in this slow decay of the senses. Senseless agony consumes my mind. Eating my soul until I'm gray. Gray like the leaves at your funeral. The day the color faded and beauty went away. The sky is falling, But, only on me. As the Heavens are calling, They tell me to leave. But don't put your faith, your faith in me. Don't trust fate, For nothing is meant to be. The slow silent squeezing of my petrified soul. I left my heart with the sugar, In the bottom of the bowl. The wounds of the mind, Based solely on the knife. Look for my flaws and you'll always find.... Welcome to my life.
Life can be beautiful and long. Or life could be short and depressing. Some people act happy when they are sad. Their anger will grow and only get mad. Fear to live can be so strong. Some people will cut life short before they're time. They feel the only way out is suicide. For death is a gift that God gave us. But love is a choice that some don't follow. The hatred rejection breathes can turn you hallow. Your eyes tell the truth of an unforgiving soul. The darkness you seek is out of control. One day at a time it consumes you. Then at last your finally threw. You are bitter and heartless, angered, and cold. Sooner or later your evil will unfold. You have gone into hiding and left the light. Any chance you get you try to fight. The pain you buried so many years ago. The scars and fears of an unforgiving soul. Your day will come and you will forgive. The child you saved was abandoned and hide. Your life is peaceful and calm. Your little baby will grow up happy and strong. You saved a life and got yours back. You had so much pain and rage filled attacks. You can sleep without the dreams of a viscous man. Everything is Better now you can finally think. You stop and wonder why he took that last drink? Why he abused your young body? Where he was when he hid? Why he did the things he did?
As I look back over my life, my heart was broken but I wasn't destroyed, Many people tried to take advantage of me like I was some kind of a toy. When I was a child, I had this fixation that I knew what love is all about, I cried a lot because that was the only way for me to get things out. As a teenager, I lost the dearest person to me, who was my mother, I was angry with God because the pain that I felt was like no other. My parents taught me how to be the best Christian all I can be, When I finally got to know God for myself, I was definitely set free. As I became older I carried around so much hurt and so much pain, I know I wasn't easy to deal with, but the family must have felt drained. At times I had to express my anger by fighting and hurting myself, The more I keep writing, one day I will see my book on the bookstore shelf The most devastating thing I remember was the time I was raped, At the time it was happening I didn't have the strength to escape. It also hurt when no one had faith enough to believe in me, I tried to deal with the rape by becoming rebellious as I can be. I thought by going to talk to a psychiatrist would have helped replace my anger, Instead of making things better, he just helped himself on me and putting me in danger. I didn't want to live after all these things that happened in my life, If I had killed myself, today I wouldn't have become a wife. A lot of people thought that I wouldn't make something of myself, They would look down on me like I was some kind of weird elf. Through all of this, God showed me what TRUE love was all about. I have to give him all the praise and honor with a loud shout. I was a type of person that was definitely misunderstood, I just wanted somebody to take the time out with me if they could. Well, the devil thought that I was destroyed but I was yet broken, I can truly say that I'm no longer his rebellious T-O-K-E-N
You say you put your trust in me Why am I not treated that way? you act as if Im cheating when you are the one that's deceiving of a mischievous heart When I turn my back you go off and cheat if I was to do you the same How would you feel? you might not even care If It Was Really Meant to Be Why am I treated the way I am? you sat and talked to me for hours more time I just a waist in my lifetime wondering will true love ever finds' me if it doesn't, I'm not alone If It Was Really Meant to Be As I can see with my eyes you let others walk in between us let them take what we have love is wrong, love is cheat, all that is left Can my feelings take the heat? If It Was Really Meant to Be
Falling down like rain Everything is falling down like rain My life, my love has fallen apart Taken a stake drove it into my heart Shattering it into a million pieces Still through this my love increases Seeping into my body so deep Is this love I desire to keep Falling down like rain Everything is falling down like rain Seeming so often to welt up in my eyes I fall down for a few more cries Tears stream down my flushed, red face My mind full of thoughts that won't erase Thoughts of wanting, So pure, So true Of this love I so need from you
Disappointment was never as lovely as she Hope caught in my heart fighting delicately She's always the dream that never fades upon waking The cause and the comfort for all of my shaking I like to glance over then turn carelessly Just to see if it makes her come over to me Her smile is infectious and wipes away fear If it fades then I show her that I'm always near Sometimes we are split by self-built barricades So I break through our silence of awkward blockades And no matter how often old times we recall We'll forever laugh and the false walls will fall They all think I'm crazy my truth to repress Do anything for her and never confess Yet silently love I continue to show her It's enough just to feel that I'm getting to know her But despite my devotion and adoration There still remains space for one complication The spark in my eyes grows colder and dim When I am reminded she's happy with him Surely love wants the best for the person it's for? Not selfishly trying their joy to ignore But however hard jealousy my heart will dent If my darling is happy, then I am content.
I walk with them I experience life but they only dismiss it I change my ways and they don't notice I fall and they walk on by I talk and they ignore I cry and they turn there backs I hope and they destroy I laugh and they make me angry I do well but they have to do better I feel myself falling and they only notice themselves I want to scream but they silence me I want to prove myself but they won't let me I want to do rise above but they chain me down I put on a pretty smile and no one is the wiser I have them fooled and they don't even know
There once was a girl who lived in a very small world she was 11 years old and thought she looked very pale and old. Until she went walking one day and was feeling very sad she met a boy they called Chad he started to boost up her head with all the good things he said. she believed every little word know she's about to have a little baby girl. She finally decided to tell the father about the child but when she went over what she saw was worth her wild. She seen him laying across his bed with a girl they called Lased. She ran out of his room but she wished she never believed anything he had said She told him about the child and everything he denied she was so depressed she went home and her bed she sat and cryed. Now she has to make a decision of having an abortion or to keep the child living, It takes a long time to make her decision because an abortion is not worth knowing that your mother gave you up the first day you were living. Would you give away an unborn soul one of God's creations a precious peice of gold. She had to decide what to do then she heard two songs that sang Can I live and I miss u. The song had a great toul for the song there is one of the most precious soul. She's decided to raise her child and not worry about the things he said that were so foul. Now she's wondering what's he going to say to her when he gets all of his child support papers .
Just when I thought my heart was mending, I realized that it wont mend the pain is never ending. I got my heart and soul warm with love again and slowly its all getting took back , back into that cold world of heartache. The world where you cant do anything but cry yourself to sleep at night , and when you love someone with all your heart it seems like there is nothing more to life. This love thing is a cruel and deceiving fight. A fight you possibly cant win because by the time you get to the end your heart is so torn you have to try to put the peices back together. Its so weak and so tired of the pain but you take the little bit of strenght you have left and get up and ready to fight, for it to get ripped out and torn up all over again. This is simply a fight I just cant win and I no longer have the strenght to proceed. So I forfeit, I quit, I throw in the towel and as many times as i've battle this battle and fought this fight i deserve the right to walk away! I cannot defeat this undefeated fighter for it has got the best of me!
I miss you mom, and I could tell you a million reasons why the way you use to take care of me when I was sick or in need at night or day. and sometimes when I wasn't happy maybe I'll be depressed,sad,or mad You would always come to comfort me and make me laugh and smile I miss u mom so very,very much i sometimes just miss u so much until,I'll curve your name in my arm,or just began to cry just thinking of u. I miss u mom, why did the man above have to take your life away? i only got to be with u for 9 years that's it that's not even enough time,for all of the year i got before me without u in my life I miss u mom. i sometimes see u in my dreams at night and in my mind all of the time i love and miss u a lot but i try not to think of u that much,because it hurts so bad when i cry a river of tears,just for u but i guess that's a good thing mom because I'm still loving u and will always love,miss and respect u even though your gone to a better place... I MISS U MOM.
This is the last time that I fall in love I'm gonna be free to fly above My hearts been broken and torn in two I wish I could fix it and make it feel new I'm taken my heart back, I'm not gonna cry I'm gonna be free, I'm gonna fly high I'm not gonna listen to anymore lies I'm keeping my heart and saying goodbye I sit in my room, and think about you I wonder what, I'm gonna do My friends say don't worry You'll find someone new but the only one I want is you
You see her smile, and she seems alright. But what you don't see is that she is crying inside You think if she is sad, why doesn't she shed a tear? Maybe showing emotion is her biggest fear. She doesn't want people to see something is wrong. All she wants is for people to think her heart is strong. She doesn't want to know what others might say, If she just broke out in tears one day. Just remember what goes up must come down And a smile can easily cover up a frown. This girl, if you cannot see, Is no one other than me.
This ends right now. Confided in me then threw it all away There can be no love left within me Angerfeardisappointmentdespair But you've lost it all now - I've given up on you. He's got you doing I don't know what And the rumours are rumours but the rumours are true And if I saw him I swear I'd smash his face in. Could do with another outlet after all These stabbing shrieks inside my chest Scraping at my flesh and bone Won't let them penetrate me See her; who is she? Wonder if you know her She's everything you pretended to be Emotionless beneath that metal Trusting no-one still being betrayed Who are they in the frame with her? These strangers who casually call themselves friends You're so stupid They couldn't care less Watch you stagger and fuel the habits they helped you start Mindless idiot. She's going to die and she's taking you with her Don'tpiercethatdon'tsmokethatdon'ttakethat What more can I do when you block me out? Sleep around black out come to me for comfort Crazy little girl, could slash you and let all the bad rush out But then of course we'd have nothing left And it grieves me that it's come to this Can't stand it anymore; you're on your own you've got a choice you'll make the wrong decision I can't be there to guide you Confided in you then threw it all away Can't keep these lame promises and I know I said I'd always be there But I was there for you and I'm talking to myself 'cause you're dead on the inside And it's spreading fast. Not one redeeming feature Could rip you apart wouldn't harm you for the world Save you from it all leave you there for them to get you And they won't find my girl, person worth protecting Her and you'll be there instead already gone already dead You all shall scream Won't turn my head And I'll remember you today For what you used to be Days that seem too far away You're ugly now in every way.
We lay side by side in the summer grass, I reached for the gingerbread man kit And lifted out a slightly crumbled biscuit, Taking the tube, I iced a shaky smile onto its face, Added big, hopeful chocolate drop eyes And wrote 'I love you' down its front, Then I handed it to her and said, "This is me, take care of her," And she grinned and bit off its head.
Walks around the lake are bittersweet memories that leave tears in my eyes tears in my eyes I remember the way your hand felt in mine how the world seemed fine yeah the world was mine I remember staring into your eyes knowing that you would always be there My mind is full of these bittersweet memories leaving tears in my eyes tears in my eyes I remember when I could make you smile yeah when I could make it all worthwhile I remember when I was all you needed yeah when no one else would do We used to waste nights away talking about anything and everything sometimes even nothing at all I'm choking up with every thought of you as these bittersweet memories are leaving tears in my eyes tears in my eyes
The nauseated feeling from knowing that I have thoughts to take my own life. Suicide not only being a feeling, a second thought, but a compromise. Now sick to my stomach with disbelief, how I imagine at the end of my life-the painful grief. And my funeral, what church would take me? The sinner who took her own life, in my casket the devil might as well be. And yet the thought constantly crosses my mind: Why not die? Death is simply the beginning of life. Although life is well and sometimes I'm happy. I can't help but wonder how death would be. People always say "at least their in a better place." So is death better than life? In death can I go my own pace? Once again nauseated with the thought of taking my own life. Myself I can no longer love, me I can only despise!!!
you ripped my heart out and threw it on the floor I don't know how to feel anymore You twisted me into your lies and deception I know I'm stronger then this,But i cant seem to get away your touch is so unforgettable but regrettable your kisses are breath taking but destructive I love the things you say to me, even though its all a lie some things feel so real, i don't know if i should believe you or leave you And for some reason I'm stuck you hurt me so much, but i keep coming back to you And i don't know why i cant ever seem to get you off my mind Your like a drug that i cant get off of Everyone tells me to get away from you, but i can't You got me bound to your heart and your heart only, I don't get why it cant be that way with you You tell me you love me, but i wonder do you tell the others the same My hearts tied in a knot, restricting me from feeling anything but numb I don't know what i want, the confusions growing deeper Digging its nails into my skin I sit and watch my tears fall to the floor, As i wonder if you hurt the same I need you, but i want to get rid or you I want you, but i don"t I love you, but i hate you I am confused
Why do I fall For everything you say When I know very well You won't call the next day Whay do I go with you When I know you'll go back to her I know there's no commitment But when you ask, I say sure I have no idea Why I even pick up the phone I guess I'm just afraid Of having to be alone When will I see the truth Maybe I already do But it's hard to remember the lies When I'm so blind to what you do
Have you thought of suicide? Have you ever thought of murder? Crazy as it may sound, I've thought of both. Is it okay for me to tell you I've felt this way? I dont know why, And sometimes I try to block out the thoughts. But they keep coming back. Telling me that they want more. They want me to go through. Do the things I feel that I should do. Take a gun to my head. Pull a knife on my husband in bed. I know too much, I know that. My husband cheats, and that is a fact. I say things I shouldnt say when others arent around. I curse out loud when my daughters are near. I say things that the two year olds just shouldnt hear. I cant help but think, what it would be like. What if I wasnt around, to feel these things inside. Who am I punishing, them or me? What do these things really mean? Am I crazy, am I insane? Are there really people running around in my head? I hear what they say, Telling me to stop being a baby, To just die alone in my bed. I dont want to think these things. I dont want to hear what they want to say. Please make them all go away. Do you understand what I write? Of course you dont. You dont know what its like.
I cried so hard I wanted to scream Your memory still brings bleeding tears to my cheeks The thoughts of you, me, and us are killing me Why cant the pain inside just be a bad dream. I want to wake up in your loving arms But my eyes are closed by the tears of my heart. Everything around me is crashing down There's nothing left for me to do but drown I want to call your name with my last breath But I'm screaming so loud that my breath is dead I was screaming so loud that I wanted to cry I knew everything was over the moment u left my side Hold me and tell me everything will be fine Otherwise, blow out the flame that burns for you And bury my heart in the deepest grave Let me drown in a sea of bloody tears With the sound of my screams ringing through your ears. Maybe then you'll know that my love was real. I'm screaming so loud that I'm crying And I'm crying so hard that I'm screaming There's nothing that can ever make this feeling subside.
She doesn't belong here and she doesn't belong there. She really doesn't belong anywhere. She has no dad but that's neither bad nor sad. He did not want a daughter and he really didn't want to be a father. People heard her cries up until his last good byes. He caused a girl to die And a young lady to try to make a place in this world, But she wishes looking in the mirror at a child's face That she could disappear without a trace. She has a cold heart with an untold sole tarring her apart. She's not a child nor woman, But between worlds caged with an unforgotten rage of hiding in a closet from a fear so undoubtedly clear. Every time she hears her brother's cries she tries to understand the smack of his hand. She wants to be a bird that would fly away Or maybe if she's good she will die and god will take her like she would always pray. She goes astray to starve herself hoping the good lord will make his play instead of making her stay. She has no fears because she was washed in god's tears. He hears her cry and holds out his hand so she can take a stand. He is all she has to believe in when she grieves. The pain follows him as he blesses the road she chose. The children laugh and mock, But it's his word she will always talk. She so desperately wants to belong But every place seems so wrong. She longs to be in heaven where she feels safe And where god deals with all her tears he hears. With what this entire world has pilled No matter where she goes She will always be a nowhere's child.
I believed in you When no one else would I never had a doubt I always knew you could I believed in us When no else could see How true our feelings were How we were meant to be I believed in faith When things started to fall I believed we'd overcome I thought we could do it all I believed I was dreaming When you said we were through But I believe what hurt the most Was I believed in you
Can I kill the pain today? Just make it all go away? Can I breathe again today? Just make it all seem so far away? Yesterday is over The past is dead Why is it so hard to get that through my head? All the sleepless nights spent thinking about you, and how you made me smile All the sleepless nights spent wishing that you could have stayed for just awhile
My life was once great My life was once bright and happy My life used to be so wonderful My life used to be so amazing My life was beautiful Then everything completely changed My whole life came crashing down, Like bullets in the sky It was all over before I knew it And now there's no going back in time
They've taken my knives, they've taken my pills, so I look at you and my pain refills; they can take the razors they can take the beer but as long as you live I'll have monster and pain adhere. Let them take what they want but they can't keep me alive because, while you hold her all the damage I do to myself, thrives. They can take away the glass, the mirrors from the walls, but while you are in my memory I will walk haunted halls. Let them take what they will, for no one here can see, as long as he lives I'll have something to hurt me.
It's no gain to waste all this pain. A disgrace to not always hide this face. My mind is lame, and it's a shame, to feel so numb and not be dumb. I hate to say life's not always been this way. It's an outrage that I ever lived outside this cage. Apathy works best for me. Cold-hearted to myself, the cheaply departed. Sadness makes me the happiest. My loneliness makes me feel so blessed. This bitter resentment fills me with contentment. My biggest folly ever was delaying this melancholy. However this ailment is reaching my fulfillment, Leaving me empty, sad, happy and whole. My bitterness is such bliss. A feeling that I would surely miss. I often lament evading this torment. This suffering is the greatest thing ever. I frequently regret never being upset. Now I daily look forward to the sorrow that's promised by tomorrow, and I pray it comes each and everyday. Without its displeasure I cannot carry on, for it is my greatest treasure.
105 105 I just hit 105 Am I alive? Am I alive? Driving in rage at 105 Run away Run away Leave behind this day 105 105 I can't escape going 105 A lonely heart still falls apart No matter how fast you go
Kisses can be powerful Kisses can change a little Girls heart to open and love the world once again. Because she now sees how important the world is to her and even though her daddy is no longer living he still wants her to know that he still loves her and that he thinks of her all the time and he watches out for her even when she's asleep. And he wants her to be happy and to be proud of herself and the world around her even though she thinks she can make it on her own in the back of her mind she knows she will need help and even though she may not agree with every thing there is to know about the world. but if there is one thing she can agree on it's that her daddy loves her with every kiss from the sky above. And every time the Wind blows it's her daddy talking to her. If she would only listen a little closer she would be able to understand.
We all have our good and bad days Because they depend on our ways Growing up around bad environments And a screwed up system by governments My family not loving me Discriminating against me Telling me that they regretted my birth And me not wanting to be on this earth I became depressed And dealt with a lot of stress Never taught me right from wrong Dealing with these memories for so long I always learned things the hard way From always wanting to do it my way My past always haunting me From when my half brother raped me And then abusing me When I got older I told my family But they didn't believe me Then going to school and being talked about And not cared about Because I was different And not belligerent My self esteem grew low And when it came to sex it was hard to say no Because I would do anything to feel loved Known as a jump-off around the neighborhood And no one really knew or understood That I was I struggling with my life Overcoming suicide attempts And anxiety attacks Coping with the way things are Because my hope grew far While days seemed to never get better I tried to change for the better I've learned to just cope with everything Because in my life it's a constant struggle
There was a boy I used to know. He never let his feelings show. Turns out he wanted suicide. When he died, I cried. Why did he have to go? Was that why he never let his feelings show? He hung himself like a criminal. That's not what he was like at all. He still had time to grow. Maybe he should've let his feelings show. There was a boy I used to know.
Your face, Made a fake smile, (you said) I love you, I need you, I want you just for a while, You told me, That I made you smile, All the things you said to me, Are just words now, How can we love, When you love me for yourself, (This Aint Love) Chorus: 2x What are we doin, If this love ain't real, What is this feeling, That I feel, I'm broken in emotion, I'm broken in love, (you said) I need you, I want you You're the only one, I'm thinkin of, (so tell me) How can we love, When there's always someone else, (This Aint Love) Chorus 2x Bridge: How can we love, When there's always someone else, How can we make up, When you only love me for yourself, verse #3: You got me imprisoned, Inside your heart, When kissed I felt, Like we, Would never be apart, chorus 2x
Dedicated to everyone at Freedom Middle School 06-07 I love you guys with all my heart The hallways are full of laughter, The friends are full of love The good friends are playful, Giving each other a little shove. The classes were a bit of a challenge, The tests more of a breeze Studying was the hard part But it put our minds at ease. The drama was overrated The fights were way too many But the make-ups and break-ups made a difference And made us think a plenty. The teachers were our light That got us to where we are Even connections, useless as they seem to be, Will help us go really far The hearts were full of words unsaid As we took our final steps Outside the doors, into a new life As we drew in our final, middle school breath. The eyes were full of spilling tears That cascaded down our cheeks The sun was shining, so how could we Be feeling so very bleak? All of it is now a blur I wish I could go back And change everything that I had done Just wipe it away to be packed. But we can't change our mistakes in the past And we can't relive our lives As much as we wish we could return To the place where our last tears together were cried. The middle school years were the best And we're sad to see them go Especially those who didn't say a lot Who didn't let their true love show. We were alive when we were at school Because we were with the people we loved Our memories are the best token of that year Even jokingly being shoved. But now that all my friends are gone Onto high school, seperate ones at that, I'm still here, silently hoping Wishing that I could go back. But our time there was for the best, And this has hit me with a hard SMACK! I love everyone there, and now I have to say I just want my life back.
All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)
Let the Deicide commence. You're a voyeur at best! Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest! And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence, And for you there is no forgiveness, On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies; The father of lies. I will never be enslaved in your superiority The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies. Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be Apollo and I will share our dreams, and you will be forced to see your failure! I know who you are... Readily the first to present your scars Chained by some despot or mental czar An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate! ...And you see me suffering Not caring of any casualties Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways Solipsist - Is there no one you can see? Even if she was presented burning? Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe? Even if Sophia was screaming? Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me Imprisoned in your own personal reality
All. Day. Long. I sit there, in my chair, All. Day. Long. Glaring at people I hate. The people who are but mere memories. Mere dust in the wind. All that I know has blown away, taken by my faulty actions. The dull replay of Meteora fills my room with lyrical insanity, tempting me with beat and anger. But I've realised it's not the music that's dull. It's myself. I am dull. Dull, empty, detached, dead. My actions have caused this, my mental instability. My arms and wrists, they're crisscrossed with faint pink patterns, the product of my attempts at reattachment and relief. Eternal smiles of violet beneath my eyes, wrinkles surround my lips. My skin, yellow from the drugs, reflects weakly the sunlight from outside. I blame everyone but myself, my personality rotten to the core. My lungs, as well, shredded by smoke that acted like needles. I couldn't help myself, I jest in my mind. I've been trying to shove the blame onto something but myself, only to find there is nothing to blame but myself. My body has been wracked to this state, a state well beyond my mere 29 years. My mind, hanging from a cliff. Threatening to free fall at any moment. As I sit there, in my chair, memories of an age long gone from my life flash before my eyes. A girl I loved, laughing. Her and I lying in the grass, at a lake's edge. A cat akin to night, eyes green as mine, purring softly in my lap. Flashes of guns, from a war forgotten by all but me. As I reminisce these memories, a spark of feeling—pain. Upwelling in my gut. Through my chest. Stabbing into the side of my head. The pain triggers a new wave of recollection. Again, the girl. My mind so foggy I can't remember her name. Dancing slowly to a song no longer heard of. Snow. A blush of the cheeks. Hands in mine, warming and comfortable. The pain in my head intensifies, blinding me. I fall from my chair, the first time I've moved all day. In 2 days. Shaking my head, I pull myself up. Standing, I look around. Another flash of pain, followed by a sensation I'd all but forgotten. Her lips. At dusk. The very first time. I stumble away from an unseen being, crashing into the wall. Blinking my eyes furiously, I right myself. Waiting a moment, I sit back down. And let the dullness take over, the pain ebb away, and the memories to replay. All. Day. Long.
You've been thrown left and right, Crying to yourself every night, Thinking all has gone wrong, & you won't be giving up after long.. You've been heartbroken One Two many times: From old boyfriends, To lies; Father walked out, Baby killed by mistake; Your mom has disowned you, But she still shows you lust… Everybody knows the truth, The pain that you do not choose; They see what you show, But see me… I, T'Keyah Wilder, I already know… You've raped and thrown from left to right; Crying to yourself every night; Everybody saying they understand, But you know you're the only One who knows your pain ; On this land… It's a matter of time, Before you kill yourself, Stressing yourself, Hurting you and everyone else; Blaming yourself for, Mistakes not purposely made; Crying every time you feel like you just got Laid, You want the true love, Love shown from the heart; Honestly, Coming from your big sister; I think you need a fresh start, Easing your pain with nicotine; I'm surprised you're not Sippin lean… I know it may be hard, To forget about the past, But there's one thing; I must ask from you and I Want this to last; Promise me, you'll try your best To stress less, & pray more… Listen to God; Put him above… All; We're not close like we used to be, But you know I'm just a phone call, Away… Not far from you.. But I wish you'd realize, This too… Stressing is not working, Cause death, the devil, lies, & fear are lurking.. Promise me; You'll try to be the best you can be… Dear Little Sister from another Mister! <3 RiP auntie bby ; djF .
An old man looking out his door, gaze fixed on a distant shore, reminiscing to a time, not of happiness, or, the prospect of a bright future, to when he was sick to his very core, to when as a youth, he went to war A time before infallibility had meaning, patriotism and bravado the craze, the future was still unknown, vigor for life at its all time high, a time for romance, partying, buying, no thought of pain, deformity, dying Too young to understand or question, ship to foreign shore, medals abound, will impress the girls next time in town, sacrifice not temporary, forever more, a legacy etched into a wall, few will remember, flesh shredded, burned, torn, families mourn A time, when he willingly went to war, will happen no more, all lost in youth, now unrelenting, no blind obedience, minimal risk, long life, his number one ambition As he turns back from the door, he thinks of the youth, here now, soon no more, lessons never learned, the call to war, to common the roar, complacency the mood, another generation removed The old man agonizes over what was originally not known, war is preventable, life too precious to waste, the solution simple, his vision, maybe too late Send old men to the front to fight, arthritis, heart disease, poor eyesight, let the youth enjoy their life, his near over, its only right Send old men, to the front, to fight ask them to give up their life, patriotism and bravado, still alive, will and desire would not last the night, old men do not rush to death in their twilight, failure inevitable, the old man smiles, knows he's right Wars not possible, if old men, are sent to fight
You You took away the confident person that I once knew I was Made me choose things that I wouldn't normally choose All because You wanted my soul But because of you My soul is empty and cold From people who have took from it pieces and bits But I'll willingly give you whats left of it You see I don't want to do this And everytime I do this, its not as beautiful as I meant it to be But its always as shameful as you meant it to be For me You had me Even as a child You should have finished it You used THEM to take away my innocence Let them scar me, and left me abused Only to get older and be misused By you in the same way The same crave You got me I'm your slave But no more No I'm not a pure virgin And yes I have been soiled And sometimes I see myself tying a rope around my neck and watching it coil Around my fingers as I slip in and out of conscience But this is your fault you made me like this You made me think I was ugly Thought I needed you to breathe Thought I wasn't good enough Forgot I was worthy But No More -Lyric-
They are bound to the Earth like trees Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen Hoping that one day someone will see: They can't escape with lacerated wings The ocean surrounds me, covering everything Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find I can't escape with lacerated wings. Swarms of nets, waves of screams Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams The mask has be seared - The truth now they see The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings There's reasons for your rejections: Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression The scars are too deep to pass the trials But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings
Ones who wage, Ones who rage, Ones who take, Ones who pay, Ones who craze, Ones who rave, Ones who crave… Ones who fear, Ones who breathe, Ones who give, Ones who need, Ones who will, Ones who weave… Ones who plead, Ones who beg, Ones who beseech, Ones who entreat, Ones who appeal, Ones who volunteer, Ones who disappear… The ones who follow, The ones that don't know about tomorrow, The ones who don't deserve the morrow… The ones who sleep, The ones who cry, The ones who live, The ones who die… The ones who proclaim, Those who say they create, The ones who ache, The ones who don't wait, The ones who hesitate, The ones who don't concentrate, The ones who fornicate, The ones who procrastinate… Those who fall in temptation, Those who get in frustration, Those who sometimes feel desperation, Those who keep going without caution, Those in motion, Those in tension, Those losing notion, Those being poisoned, Those getting in distortion, Those following the broken diction, Those dying like the billions, Those without unction, Those washed in the oceans… I might seem cold, But it is you who is bold. I might not express, But it is you who doesn't let me progress. I might not seem like I seek, But it is you who doesn't know me… I might seem like I need, But it is you who might always be begging on your knees. I might seem dull, But it is the one that is fool. I might not be alight, But it is you who isn't truly alive… I will remain neutral, I will remain silver, I will remain gray, I feel darkness, I feel light, I will remain hallowed…, After all, it is you who deserves no life… I am a metal hawk, I am a mountain goat, I am a silver bird, I am a gray wolf, I am a white tiger, I am a mystic rose…, I am I… I'm alive, And I survive, You are here, However, it is you who deserves no life… Being human does not imply that you have humanity…
So much yelling all around me. How much more can I take? I can act like nothing's wrong, but then my actions are fake. I always try to be the man and just look the other way. Their's no one to turn to, so I kneel down and pray. Thank the lord for the good things and the strength for the bad. Thank the lord for my blessings and all the good times I've had. All my worries then stop. Long enough just to see... Stop worrying about other lives, and start thinking about me. So, I lift up my head. Wipe the tears from my eyes. Hope to forget all the screams and try to look past the lies. Dress up my best. It's time to show em, I can. No more drama. No more games. This time I'll be the man.
I remember happiness, No more, No less, Only true love. I imagined, You beside me... I remember your eyes, I remember your lips, I feel your love, I know your life...
Packing bags and leaving home Running into the darkness of night like a criminal No destination Just an escape into freedom from the nightmare Just feeling the sunlight's breath on my cheek freely A winds whisper touching my ears Running away from dreams and wishes Setting an adventure of a lifetime Running away from the past where horror lies Running away from lullabies and thunder Forgetting everything for awhile And sit down and breathe in and out for awhile Smelling the freshness of life that will no longer exist
Christmas Rebels It was about a weak After that night walk The unknown dangers, Made known, turned me weak, I was managing myself, After my heart was pulled, From where it sank, I was yet in the oven, Of my haven, To dry up the coldness, And the wetness, Of that fearful night loneliness, Today is Christmas, The whole mass, Was joyous, Every home, glorious, Meat was plenteous, Rice and beans. Was every homes means, Children bouncing in, New goat skin jackets, Mother's dressed in costly Beads and all the way, Father leads. For Christmas had taking over, Taking over the African Shrine, It supplied a joyous sunshine. Our pockets were full of cowries, Like a goldmine, Happiness was mine, For the usual war seemed To be hidden, and our teethes where like, "Forever opened". Oh! Joyful, blissful, plentiful Christmas. Providing joy each time it surface, But joy has a slender waist that breaks so soon. Christmas night came, so we visited Our beds as night rang it's bell, (To be continued in the next, same Poem).
Define your lovely, soulless heart in death To take my heart would be a risk; a storm You licked your lips to taste what i had left And jumped from cliff to rocks, i was forlorn. Upon my lover; roses wilt in pain For I've lost the one whom has no soul, and Was all this give and take with us in vain? I loved your soul and heart, we joined by hand. The brewing storm that took a life, took two For deep within your heart was love, And deep within my heart was you I'll see you soon, i promise; heart above. For without you I cannot survive For without you I will not strive
She writes her songs and her poems, not one person know 'em. She listens to the sound of her music, she's stuck to it like a tick. If someone took the time to listen, her true colors would glisten. She's put on a mask, and hid everything when someone asked. She was the type of girl who would always laugh, making you wish it would last. She was the type of girl who would smile the day away, too bad it is no longer that way. She is now the girl who is depressed, I bet you're impressed. Since no one could tell that she was going through hell. Everyone thought she was happy, when really, she felt crappy. Everyone thought she was having the time of her life, who would have guess her best friend was a knife? She spent her days alone, she seemed to do everything on her own. Never once wanted help. Thought she could do everything herself. Then the day came, when she lost the game. She fell apart, and everyone saw her broken heart. They saw the way she overreacted. Oh, if only you saw the way she acted. She bruised herself, scratched herself, and made herself bleed, no one knew what it was that she needed. They saw her tears, and that was what she feared. They found out she wasn't okay, oh, she hated that day. Everyone found out about her secret, and she wish they'd just forget, but she knew they couldn't, and that they wouldn't. She left that town and started over, no one knew she went undercover. She said she got better, when really... something else occurred. She secretly hurt herself, and walked away from help. Everyone thought she recovered, when really, she was undercover. She secretly wanted to get worse, no one knew of course. No one cared to ask, if she was wearing her mask. Now it's too late, she locked the gate. Killed herself, everyone had forgotten she needed help. Goodbye cold world, this was a story of a girl who once loved everyone then feared who it was who won.
I am the face of misery My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring, The years are written in the same Lugubrious, nostalgic grey How can it be the author to blame? I cannot scream this all away… Burn nor Bleed this all away… To Death I am Ordained Lacuna ever growing With Velvet sheets of life flowing Aeons apart of my "royalty" Under the mask the cannot see... Can you dispel this tragedy: Antigone - Epiphany failing If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone No words of hope No words of hate Do I have Lenore to send to me: The sordid child of Thebes Caught In the longest nightmare life - the slowest way to die I know this is my life But I'm not under control under the mask the will see Just Another Human If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone If it must be… Then just kill me, (Antigone) sing me out of reality; I wear this dissonant crown of shame (Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane (Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame The sordid child of Thebes, This is me, Antigone Can you dispel my life; this tragedy? Can you control the storm in my mind? I'm asking you: can you rid me Of The Curse of Antigone?
She has so much pain inside of her, she doesn't know how to address it. So she turns the pain into anger, after she explodes, she becomes quiet. She goes up to her room, upset. Why does the world hate her so? She thinks to herself, "That's it!" But in reality, it isn't though. She lies on her bed, Pulls out her book and reads. As she turns the pages, she loses her head, In her mind, she thinks "This is what I need." A place to escape the world, Somewhere she can run. For it seems everyone hates this girl, And nothing she does is fun. She plays her cello And loses herself in the music She does this when she feels low Then she plays the song of her pick She listens to the beat she makes, Trying to make it sound perfect, But oh, she keeps making mistakes, She thinks that she will never get it. She leaves the cello alone And watches her shows She then grabs her phone And tells her best friend the show as it goes. She leaves the TV on, Then she enters her laptop. She stays on till dawn, She just can't seem to stop. She loves the idea of leaving the real world And entering an imaginary one. That's the story of the girl, Who is never done.
Love Deceitful, wicked Weeping, cringing, loathing Things children shouldn't feel Hate Intimacy Repulsive, severe Struggling, bleeding, collapsing My pain continues unheard Father Hope Abandoned, faulty Hiding, listening, praying Life is my suffering Justice Purpose Forbidden, fruitless Reeling, clutching, grinning The agony has ended Redemption For more poetry goodness visit www.checkmyflow.co.uk
I can act insane But DO NOT Make me feel worthless I belong in God's family He will bless my future generation Don't punish me for Being myself – Don't envy my glee I can act like an Adult, but I'd Prefer to have joy… Not stress… That piles upon us in our Everyday lives Being childlike is A rare beauty – No one prizes it… No one came across it… In this lifetime… I can laugh all day I can make you smile If you'd accept my Childlike dreams of mine Don't treat me like a sick swine Renew my young heart Give me the ability To kill the old man… I have my place in God's family He'll be adored and glorified We'll exchange prayers and hugs By my future generation I beg of you – Don't kill my childlike mentality I'll behave myself… I'm positively sure that I'll make you happy I'll still have pieces of a child in me And pass it on to my future generation…
You say you're ugly, You say you're fat, You say you hate reality, but it's not just that. You say there's nothing good, you say everyone hates you you say you can't eat food, I wish I could help you. Because in my eyes, you're beautiful. In my eyes, you are perfect. In my eyes, you are wonderful. Please take the time to reflect. You want to die, I want you to survive. You're trying to say goodbye, but I'm holding onto the knives.
Prologue: For whoever think story telling is that easy, Would properly from this hilarious incident, scene or whatever you might call it, would know is not. ***************** Just some couple of months ago, I was invited by a friend who knows me too well, back then in school as a funny guy and story teller and so he taught this night, that his grand pa (who is a famous story teller of his village) had fall sick, I would be in a better position to cover up for his father's so called responsibility to his people. "For he (my friend's father, Williams) is a good story teller. But what about me who has never faced the ample crowd with my 'cripple' tale unless sharing it with friends?" I mumbled. In the middle of this enigma, my friend, John called me to the hot seat to tell my tale to the unbearable crowd of adolescence. "God why am I here this day... But it shouldn't have been this day" I retorted. The barbarian noise from the seats infront of me showed that truly I was in the middle of something and not lost... "Uncle tell us a story!... Brother tell us a story!" the crowd shouted. This day, I needed a free moment but they couldn't let me be. "Once upon a time" they heard me said and they all resited. " I am sorry, I am sorry let me restart it all over again". Now in old man's voice, I told my tale before them: "Once upon a time, In our mothers' womb, when she Ate, we ate. Goodnight!" They all cannot but burst to laughter while I stood and walked to the room with my shame. ***************** Anything after good night means nothing more till the next day. Maybe I escaped the night by dissatisfying the emotions of those children, in that scene, what about my friend? "Have I not brought shame to John's family? Did I do the right thing that full moon night?". My heart beats! ***************** Epilogue: Not even do the audience remember or care to ask me: (In kid's voice) "What if my mother do not eat while in my pregnancy, what will happen to her?" or probably care to tell me: (Back to old man's voice) "What lesson they have derived from the tale before their departure... Oh! No sorry, my bashful departure from their sight." Note: The tale: "Once upon....Goodnight!" is a Haiku form of poetry.
Give me drink, rest, and solitude-- these are all the things I long for. Give me as well your finest food and I'll ask of you, lass, no more! My bonnie lass, what's the matter-- why are you all sorry and alone? Don't be sad because you're fatter than most, lass, for love loves its own. Sweet lass, I'll tell you a secret. If I were a young lad again, I'd pursue you without regret! But as I am three-score and ten years old, indeed, I can never be the youthful lad you most need. But your pain won't be for ever: for your heart will refuse to bleed.
My Sins – Zamreen Zarook Oh God you are so gracious, Am a guy who have done since in capacious, At times I have being as a carnivorous, But it charged ages to identify as dangerous. Since are being committed behind the screen, Even it started at my thirteen, Mirrors used to say that I am evergreen, Whereas my since were always unseen. In enormous number I have executed, But for every count, high privacy was aborted, Simply because of your blessings we are bracketed, If not, we are already being quoted. Oh God, I understood your kindness, Here after I won't commit since in others absence, However much chances I get to access, I will always have heaven as my address.
I have fallen victim so many times To nobody's fault except only mine. I will ask for forgiveness and have faith, Even though I feel like I am not saved.
Don't say it's all over (cause it's not) "Sorry" won't cover it…so don't go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness Oh baby…don't listen to the commotion…I'm done taking cover (it's all for naught) I'm plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I'm plummeting in my nightmare's abyss I want to carry you through the night… I'm swimming in the ocean of my tears… My sodden wings lost its ability of flight… You've been swimming in your distress for years… Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we're breaking bit by bit 'Cause there's more treasure to discover I want to remind you to fight the good fight… My misery pools are brewing inside of my head… I'm backing away from the light & exploring the night… You're giving in to sleep and I'm wide awake on my bed Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we're breaking bit by bit 'Cause there's more treasure to discover Please don't tell me…oh, don't tell me…darling! You're giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) I'm scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling! Someday, things will change for the better… (Don't turn the wrong lane) I'm waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay… I promise you a tranquil reality I want to stray with you tonight I still have hope that He'll set us free I was wondering if you could stay the night Maybe the Lord could grant us Pure, incredible delight Shut up! Don't say it... Don't even think of it (don't even ponder it) Hey! Don't say it's all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 'Cause there's more treasure to gather…
A smile moves across her lips She gazes at her crime A scar across her flesh and soul To haunt her for all time She'll waste away for all she cares Never stops to use her brain Doesn't care about the ones who are close All she cares about is pain She wants to be what the others expect of her Doesn't care about the self-respect for her A rose can't be a forget-me-not Can't she see what all she has got Already? Never to go back again She feels the world is at an end She will never show her grief Although she'll cry in empty streetS She'd sooner live like a desolate mole Living in fear in an empty hole Screaming silent wails alone Content to live in her mental home A final tear falls from her eye It hits the ground, it's followed by A beautiful body, mutated by hate A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late One two many bricks in the wall in her mind Molding her demise because her heart was blind This self conscious being could never have won For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones She wouldn't fight back, wouldn't respect herself In the end, she managed only to wreck herself A rose can't be a forget-me-not Little did she know, she had all she had sought Already
Your love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and i'm through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried by the dove of someone I use to know.
Why go to sleep? Why we are the ones that have missing things. Why take a breeze? When I am the one that needs zephyr. Why cry until you are satisfied? When you are always dissatisfied. Why go and feel contempt? When we only need respect. So, why do you expose yourself? When you haven't cleansed yourself. Why go and overreact? When you sometimes don't make a great impact. Why go and bite? When you know you cannot eat more than you can chew. Why give? When you only deserve. Why shed some tears? When they sometimes aren't clear. Why are you happy? When you know you are lying. Why are we bleeding? When we only need healing. So, why live? When we go and die. And why die? When we want life. We might fall down, But it is never too late, 'Cause life, Starts now...
Falling inside the black never made much sense to me Struggling for air Gasping for breath Can you hear me? I'm whispering your name No one's here to hear except gathered shadows and sillouttes of nobodies I've been let down again What am I supposed to beleive? How am I supposed to feel? Hearing the deafening roar of falling my thoguhts go back to you I'm falling in the black again What did you mean? How did you say what you mean? I need you If only for a time I need the light, even if dimmed Don't let me fall into the black I won't survive again I can't go on living like that I need the light Please don't push me back into the darkness.
Welcome to the planet Wake me when it's over The dreamer's always tempted To come around and show her And I just keep wastin my time On girls that won't love, me, like their wine And it's just too easy to blame The rock and the system for causing my pain And I just want you to know that I'm through With being alone, when I'm with you And when you mask the truth with your lies It just won't get any better for the rest of your guys And when you fall asleep The night covers your tears And the darkness sees you weeping Cause your conscious can't be cleared This year you're feeling colder Your heart's a little older You haven't found your soul mate And now you think you're too late But one look inside of my eyes Gives you the hope that there's a guy Who can make you feel happy and sad And it'll be worth it to feel that again
I'm sorry for the times I made you cry I'm sorry for the times I didn't take the time out to understand what you were feeling inside I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me I'm sorry i didn't care about anyone but me I'm sorry I didn't see how much you loved me I'm sorry I wasn't the girlfriend you wished I'll be I'm sorry I didn't listen when you said you'll always love me I'm sorry that my took me away from you I'm sorry I acted like a baby when things ain't go my way I'm sorry that I caused you pain I'm sorry that I didn't give you your way I'm sorry that I made a fool out of you I'm sorry that i didn't know you was suffering I'm sorry that I hurted you I'm sorry that I losted you I'm sorry that were through I'm sorry that I'm no longer apart of you I'm sorry that I've changed I'm sorry that i lefted you this way Only if you knew how I felt inside you'll know that I always wanted to apoligze
Anger consumed within me, Rage passed continually by. A mixture of blue and red, Blinding the dim light inside me. Once the light was like a flaming torch, Such a torch that can be compared to the sun. But even the sun rests, the flames can be vanquished Only the night was witnessed until the morning dawned. I was created to love you. This was the only purpose, But I chose to reject you. How foolish of me to compose. Given many chances to accept, Welcome the love higher than my mother, I was in an asylum locked by my choice. "No more!" I uttered. A glowing door suddenly appeared, "Who could it be?" I questioned. It opened; a figure so bright glanced at the corner, "My child, fear not," the figure mentioned. I took his offering hand. Richness of everlasting springs of water, The right hand of infinite life. We departed blissfully as He catered "Do not sow any longer, for you are here with your Father," I began to weep as a baby weeps for his mother. "My child, for you were once lost but now have been found." A final tear inching below, the Devil will no longer bother.
You'll only collapse and fall and tear your knees open, Shut your mouth, you cant even imagine what hell I've broken. Blood leaking from my head everyday only makes me lose my mind, You wouldn't even survive a minuet in my shoes if you were on my grind. You say you know everything about me and how to live your own life, but face it tho, every night your left alone sitting with a knife. I defeated that part in life where i have to do something for someone, walking around with my "Ex Wife" as if it were my gun. So please stop talking like you know what you got your self into, cause if i were you i would open my eyes and pray that I'm not true. So here it is, if you want to walk a bit in these shoes of mine, go ahead, But I can promise you only one thing, in the end you'll end up Dead.
Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim
I did it again; I need forgiven. Will He still forgive me even though I've fallen before? I've fallen into these same sins countless times before; I still haven't learned my lesson. I am an ignorant hypocrite. Am I still forgiven?
Why are you so devilishly addicting? I come back from you, It looks like I'm on drugs: High and drunk, Out of my mind. The demons inside us braid hairs Until we're peaceful meadows apart, Nuclear wars together.
Do you remember the times where we'd talk without saying a word? Where you'd sit there and read, when I'd lay there unheard? Or the times where you'd smile and sit there with glee, because you were proud of us, your loving family? We'd all look to you, respect you and loved when you'd sing, especially when it was Elvis, 'cause that was your thing. And yet we never spoke much, at least not as I got older. I don't know how we lost touch, or why we grew colder. And yet you are my Dad and I am your son, you are the reason I've done all I have done. But Dad, closing my eyes scares me on a night, I can't seem to get that same scene out of my sight. Memories are twenty-twenty, that's what people seem to find, well if that's the case Dad I'd rather be blind. What I saw that day cut into me far too early, and far too deep. That's why these memories won't stop haunting my sleep. I love you, I miss you Dad and I want you to come home. I'm tired of feeling sad all of the time; I'm tired of feeling alone. I don't know if you're happier now, or regretting your decision, all I do know dad is that I'm heading for a collision. I feel like I'm going crazy, like I don't know what's real or what's not, but I know that this feeling is the only sure one I've got. I'm angry that you left without even saying goodbye; because I thought I at least deserved more than that, did you even try? I want you here now just so I could punch you in the face, for you to pick me up and tell me I'm not a disgrace. I held up your dead body, swinging from that shed. I did my best to save you even though I knew you were dead. I clung onto you, hoping I could latch onto your soul, to stop you from leaving me with this unfillable hole. But you left dad, you're gone and there's nothing I can do, except to pretend to go on smiling forever, all because of you.
Everybody knows that it's against the law for grown men and grown women to date all of the underage boys and girls,. let alone a 14-year-old boy or a 15-year-old girl. The law also states that any adult who tries to have this so-called "intimate sexual relationship" with any of the underage boys and/or girls would likely go to jail for a period of time and upon release, they'll have to be register sex offenders for the rest of their lives. It seems that those teen girls would rather date men in their 20's or 30s than guys their age and those teen boys would rather date women twice their age than girls their age, as well. but luckily, their parents (the mothers and the fathers) are here to prevent these so-called "May-December" relationships from ever happening, especially when they're protecting their teenage offspring from dirt-bags like these would-be pedophiles. But no matter what the parents do, no matter how hard they try, their teen sons and/or daughters, they secretly continuing dating older men/older women, even at night (midnight, 2 am, or 3 in the morning, e.g.). And the next thing everybody knows, their parents, they will have found out about it; thereby finding them in bed with the adults; their parents should make multiple police reports and pud the cradle robbers behind bars for good. Boy this is starting to look like an episode of "Law & Order: Special Victims Unit" (Season 6-Episode 19-Intoxicated featuring Danielle Panabaker) and an episode of "Snapped," especially when Sarah Johnson killed her own parents in cold blood because she was afraid that the late Mr. and Mrs. Alan and Diane Johnson would send this guy name Bruno Santos to prison or have him deported back to Mexico for statutory rape (by way of dating a then-16-year-old girl). There's no way that those teen boys and teen girls are ever going to get into a bunch of serious, intimate relationships with a bunch of would-be cradle-robbing adults. They need to concentrate on their education and they need to be with guys and girls their age. I mean, one teen boy dating a n adult female? One teen girl dating an older man? My God, their parents will be seriously upset about this. Who on Earth would be dumb enough to fall for an older woman or an older man? And if these would-be pedophiles in the form of grown men and women even attempt to rob these teen boys and girls of their innocence and whatnot, the parents are going to have a problem up in here.
I've glanced at heaven. I've walked through hell. I wish on stars and dandelions I crave for fantasies reality cannot satiate At night I talk to the moon and sing to the stars I walk on clouds and speak to whispers I follow faeries to far off places Where a bleeding moon hangs from the sky Where I run along in meadows of black and white roses. Smiling as the thorns lacerate me. Dancing with red eyed creatures Listening to whispers in the wind. With this feeling of finally belonging. Being finally at peace... Safe inside, this world in my mind Lost between reality and time
Like an animal im locked away in this cage, Standing in the middle of this stage, With chains all over my soul trying to break free, The feeling is to painful like a feeling from a thorned tree. I scream out at the top of my lungs, Set me free, of the chains that are holding me with evil tongues. Living with my soul being captured, feels like im dead, Pulling and taring these chains from my soul only hurts my head. I finally fall to my knees and cry out, I reach my hand out to God, apologizing for getting caught. He forgives me like he always does and breaks these chains that im held by, Now I can walk with a smile on my face and not wanting to die.
We talked, But I wasn't heard, We walked, But you scattered, We built, But you destroyed, I thought, But you acted, We were determined, But you exterminated... You were blind, I was sighted, You were darkened, I was lightened, I was myself, You weren't yourself... I was lone, No one cared. I was ignored, No one cared, About my emotions...
I am a poet writing of my pain I am a person living a life of shame I am your daughter, hiding my depression I am your sister, striving to make a great impression I am your friend acting like I'm fine I am a dreamer, wishing this life, wasn't mine I am a girl who struggles with suicide I am a teenager, pushing her tears aside Side note: (Writing for other ladies out there, not so much myself, so don't worry about me)
poems of love poems of hate closing doors and clicking gates Gates of white Gates of blue all beg for something new something new something old something saying lets be bold i know you and i know something you would like to do so take my hand and lets leave behind the seas and the sand fly to a new beginning leave all these people we watch sinning
Words formed into such beauty Can so easily take my breath away Can so easily sweep me off my feet Can take this heart, break or make it, and bewitch this mind I'm falling apart to synthetic verse across a digital screen A poet after my own heart What I search, what I crave, what I may have found Knees buckling, teeth chattering Heart melting like a waxed candel So easily swept away with the tide of rythmic word I pour my heart out To this poet after my own heart Hiding my real self from everyone else Decrypting my form for no one else For this poet after my own heart to understand- maybe see Decrypting him I find myself reflected in him. Leaving myself out in the open For him to take or leave Still showing this heart in my wrist to no one, only informing the poet of it Amazed, and lulled to serenity by this poet I'm quite infactuated and he does not even know it I'm a simple stalker with her eye on a target Aiming to hit, shooting to miss Bone crushing lust for a poet after my own heart Lust, love Love, lust What's the difference at this age? Dependant on the poet, quiet around him Lulled into silence by his presceence, put to shyness Fighting down rolling waves of insecurity in the ocean of my gut Watching him, stalking him playfully Gives me the zest Hiding and trying to avoid from being seen- to avoid his dissapointment At such a homley form- nothing special, nothing beautiful, nothing divine Just simply sam, standing before him, before you Simpley Sam, the simple stalker I've found you, you've seen me. Which direction now? I would sew my lips shut before I ever uttered a word Of this poem, of my heart, of my feelings Because I simply cannot take one more let down
1 Billion Rising. For Men Everywhere. Stop! Listen! Think! Act! Stop! Stop the abuse! Of grand-daughters, colleagues, daughters, girlfriends, partners, mothers, sisters, nieces, wives, all women. Listen! Listen to the voices! Of grand-daughters, colleagues, daughters, girlfriends, partners, mothers, sisters, nieces, wives, all women. Think! Think of how you treat, grand-daughters, colleagues, daughters, girlfriends, partners, mothers, sisters, nieces, wives, all women. Act! Act now to change yourself! Stop! Listen! Think! Act! The violence, the abuse, the rape, stops when you stop, the violence, the abuse, the rape. Stop! Listen! Think! Act! The violence, the abuse, the rape, is perpetrated by, grand-fathers, colleagues, boyfriends, husbands, nephews, brothers, partners, fathers, uncles, men, all men. Stop! Listen! Think! Act! The violence, the abuse, the rape, stops when us men stop, The violence, the abuse, the rape, today, now. Stop! Listen! Think! Act!
After being shattered, torn apart inside, a hole was carved out of me and something in me died. Our dreams, desires and hopes, so young and plentiful, all too quickly melted away, both of us feeling dismal. The time that then came after; so dark, unhopeful and bleak. The Heart could see no light, the body soon became weak. A living, moving corpse, an empty, lonely shell. The Soul would drift, unheard from, locked in its gloomy shell. But life is so persistent, and always will pull through. Subtle, gentle rays of light will once again shine true. The pieces of Self are gone, and an emptiness remains, Yet the dark thoughts drip away, the Soul no longer in chains. So Self must be reborn, clay in a potter's hands. Piece by piece, the hole is filled, done so with multiple strands. Recreated little wonder, dance with Joy once more. Let your dreams regain their wings, and see what He has in store.
Life Less By: IzaDonna Such a lonely girl along the road No one helps her, no where to go Tears are falling from her face She wipes them away with disgrace Nothing but the clothes on her back Once standing in light now in black N I'm hoping she still has drive N keep pushing to stay alive Chorus: As the memories come flooding in She realizes shes lived in sin Can she change it, starting today Before her life fully slips away Can she finally fight her fight Cause if not she'll die tonight Can't u realize she isnt a soldier All she really wants is someone to hold her As she looks at the poison Her soul has finally chosen She lifts it up n throws it on the ground Thanking the strength thats deep inside Finally free again, dont have to hide Erase the slate, n take a stand This is it now, one last chance Chorus X2
Living amongst Hell's battles with little to gain aftermath brings stinging rain as beauty dwells in the blood of the stain
A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy
The Aphotic rays reach higher And shame, shade reigns over all Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave I'm living, the slowest way to die Elysia, rapture where are you now What will I do when the flame is extinguished What will I do when I drown in ash What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges How can this be all, one short organic vitality Scares to die, but afraid of a new day Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge My life so long - my suffering grows Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day In all of the ashes, a flame begins Once again, here I am Living, the slowest way to die
You came unexpectedly, and i was surprised, you smiled and placed your hand on the glass and cried. I leaned my head against the glass and told you i am sorry, i whisper through the phone line, ill start a new story. You knew i was innocent but you still didn't believe me, the only person i thought that would stay by my side but you couldn't be. Mom standing by your side and not wanting to talk, i got really upset that you came at all cause i didn't want to see you walk. I needed you, when i was in need, i was there for you when ever you didn't want to bleed. I loved you and i cherished you with all my heart, but before you left your words hit me like a really sharp dart. You said i failed you, you cried to me and i knew it was true. But i needed you to understand me, but you went your way and upset me. The glass is now empty and i cant find you even with the fact that I'm out, i tell you i love you but all you do is shout. I've lost you for good this time, so i think i have to do one more crime.
We may have had none, one, two, or more Intricate mistakes we quell to adore Unconsciously transcending perfidy from the heart Counterfeit penitent that epitomizes the start Remiss to the love that ensure no art Mad that it happened, we wish it never did We tried to intact the emotions that we hid Until we hackneyed three words for bid "I love you" manifest the aspersion for real When the heart cajoled its life to kill
If we never meet again, If I never get to see those eyes, Full of a land of laughs and lies, Then darling, I'd just like to say, Thank you for melting my troubles away, Even though you turned your back on me, Leaving me cold and shivery. You were a fascinating creature; My one redeeming feature, You gave me little satisfaction, But that was part of the attraction, And if it takes forever I will learn to leave you behind, Out of sight and out of mind, It's going to take a long long time To replace my partner in crime, Who else would dare to risk it all To intervene and break my fall? Just like I did for you before, But you won't let me anymore. So before we go our separate ways, Let me take one last look at your face, For whatever happens once we part, The world can't wash you from my heart.
The rebellious Teen loved all his friends. The only ones he listened to… were them. They wanted him to drink and smoke every night. They said experimenting with drugs was definitely all right. The rebellious teen's mom was beside herself… This was her child and this could finish his life. But he continued to listen to the Devil himself. What could she do in the end to save his life? The devilish friends held him closely in the palm of his hand… In the end she decided she had to move far away from them. Somewhere… where only new friends he could find. Those who loved life, sports, and learning: to draw him back in. Then every so often she let him, for a visit, to go back… Each time he went, fewer were left to contact, yes, some were even dead. Some had over dosed… Some didn't care who he was any more. What he found was rot and that they lacked the drive to live. The rebellious teen cried for what he saw they had become… He had changed and now could see, what was happening to them… These were no longer the friends that he remembered from before. He tried to save them with words and his love… but they didn't care. He didn't want to go back to that sadness, to live ever again… Now he looked to the future and that was a fact. The moral I tell you, all of my friends…if he won't listen to you… Then find him new friends. For if he is your life and if you want him to live… Find others to help steer him or else you can't win… Let his support group be new peers who enjoy life to the brim. Yes, those who will help lead him to walk in the light again. From a true experience…
Im gone, im leaving now, Taking one last breath I remember my vow. You holding my hand so gently, Your tears falling, and kissing my lips so greatly. I look into your eyes while my life flashes before my eyes, My hand on my heart feeling the way it dies. I manage to squeeze one last request out of my depth, I take you hand and tell you to take the next step.
Might this be a wonder, Might this be a sunder, Might this be the blocker, Might this be the warder, Might there be a plunder, Might it pass the border, Might there be a dweller, Might they be lodgers, Should they be squatters, Should they be trespassers... Might they squander, Might it scatter, Might this be a sputter, Might there be a clutter, Moght there be to many clusters, Might this be the controller Mightit get power...? Might these be handlers, Might these be forcers, Might these be the squashers, Might these be the breakers, Breaking some of the order... Might this be a night, Going to a wretched midnight, Coming from a raging twilight, Until these be ended, throughout nighttime, Later waking from our bedtime, Maybe dying to see the morning light, Might this be happening tonight...? Might there be a knight, Might there be a fight, Waiting for a shining might, Coming from some rainbow's light, coming slight from the nighttime, With some waiting for their fly... Might these fight the ghouls, Might they get to their goal, Might this vanish some ghosts, Whom want all of our souls... Might this be other things, Might these be the lives of life, With some asking, might these be I...?
It's the metal in my hand, Like biting into an apple The juice runs down my arm Its nectar is what I need To make me cede Wanting it to be shown What it feels like to be me In the moment, I'll give up hope This is the only way I know how to cope Will you just help me please? Wanting someone to see and just know what I mean, What its like to fall With no pit that compares to be this deep Just want to hear my voice Loud and clear But as long as I hang here I have no control But to watch myself tear This is what I've become What I've done Don't be surprised For once actually look with your eyes And you'll see the real me Showing all the signs Now I just ask you please Hear me and take me out of my misery Not asking to move a mountain over seas Just lay it over me to let me be Is it possible to think about anything but this? Will the thought ever quit? Pain over comes any thing Including this I want it to be seen It's how much it hurts Not the scar it leaves behind, But the stab that's not seen I will fall back into the hole Hold my breath and do not breathe Because today I wear my heart on my sleeve
The pain of change as it unfolds Is oft a tale that stays untold What is seen is a whole creature not deep holes in the feature nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt It all begins with a soft kiss He is walking with a false bliss Only following in paw prints But the nature of mom's lips Is to rob him of all innocence Trapped in warm spindles of fear A wrapped life form kindles in here Four years bound to shingles of moss Time to leave this life of sloths Break free like that of a moth and Rise again like Christ on the cross
Feeling cold, Lost in desperation, Remembering sadness, Getting in frustration... Trying to let go, Comprehended, By few of those. Losing comprehension, Restrained from myself, Being criticized, Feeling hollowed. Needing help, To bring me, Back to life...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_5j0uzlYfo&feature=plcp I'm tired of hearing that same song That same mournful and sad beat A slow tempo with a soft tone That causes your eyes to leak The sad moaning of the violin Mixing with the steady heartbeat of the drums Emotions that were forced to stay hidden Exploding like a number of silent bombs Feelings so strong heading to the climax The beat breaks with an emotional release The mental battle between the sword and ax Before you can attain an emotional peace Eyes red from painful tears As the mind and body slowly recover The sad song finally ends But then it is played over and over
Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.
Love is whispered and not forgotten If this be so I deaf to soft lipped invitations seek no thought of hope I of no past collection hold thought To forget is gruesome and beautiful My eyes, swift allies in my war of world tell no lies Silent in the 4 walled chalkboard blue Shakespearean mad men twist their tongues with words of bland hue I believe the concept of Ugliness is more profound than that of beauty Dreams of my bladed face fill up behind my eyes...scratching my mind Nothing goes SURPRISE! anymore To love and lose is not the exciting protagonist to never having lost love the optimists run in circles pretenders of despair hunt themselves Every street is Desolation row and my window is covered with blood Nothing comforts anything No advice ....just surprises
On a cold and bleak November day in a lonely Deserted place a child unborn in its sanctuary Lies asleep like a bud soon to bloom A sacred gift, priceless, unique For a world that is rapidly dying On a cold and bleak November day A mother's scent will it ever know No special bond with another soul No joyful offering of 'thanks', nor smiles, Nor welcome kisses that warm the heart On a cold and bleak November day, the sky Draped in blankets of gray, hung low Over the horizon marked by fresh-fallen snow An innocent life is taken in some unholy place As consciences lay bound and silenced On a cold and bleak November day, Freewill, once more misused, hovered In the shadows abused and clothed in shame Bore witness to one of many horrors The deliberate murder of the Innocents On a cold and bleak November day a hush falls over Heaven The Son of God pleads mercy as He alone dares to speak God looks upon His only Son, once again, His anger subsides A new day is ordained-another chance to choose A priceless gift to save the world some cold bleak day
It was right there, right past our grasps The playoffs gone just that fast The last year, it was our final chance We went hard, but it seems we never had a chance Tears leave eyes as we undress Removing our pads to make the burden less The coach comes in and his eyes are red Said he was proud of us, we worked until our hearts bled I just watched, a stoic face and a stoned heart I showed no emotions but i felt the loss I embraced the other seniors in my turn With dry eyes to soothe the burn The juniors watched us, not quite understanding But they felt it, the pain we was withstanding Leaving the locker room, we embraced the ones we loved Eyed blank as they tried to wipe away the blood What's past is past, there's nothing we can do Its just a game, a sport said a few But when you put that much effort and pain in And you lose, its hard.. so hard not to be blue
You hurt me but why do I still love you? You two timed me and it hurts to see you go. How do I trust you? How can I love you any more? You left when I gave up on us but then you came crawling back what do I do or say I love you or I hate you? What do you expect me to say to you that I'm gonna take back and say its ok? No I can't do that. You lied to me and cheated thank before you cheat next time.
I have the evil of you Caught in my hands, entangled Like the arabesques of Eden's vines Just like paradise, but why should shame remain Singeing like immolation of Peter's Inferno These reddish-purple chains convolute myself as the grapples shoot out from the clouds both below, above me The self-lovelust propelling You did this - these plagues You drag me down - to your cage Cadaver Vampire - I am your slave
Bad people come and go but this one wont leave him alone I wish she'd leave my man be because he's got someone like me That bad person won't leave my man be she hurt him before I was left to pick up the pieces which seeing him like this hurts me I just want him to be happy Not that I care if they were friends but she won't give it up she wants him back but I refuse to give him up he is everything to me why won't she just leave him be She says to him he's everything to her if that were true why does she hurt him if she truly loved him why would she cheat even hurting him again and again All the sudden he finds anew and she wants him back I believe it's because he's mine now I refuse to let him go he is everything to me I don't want to see him go down He deserves nothing but the best which to me shes nothing like that She should just let him go He is mine now. please leave my man be I'm sick of the games she plays with his heart I love him and he loves me So please leave my man be find anew and maybe next time think again before hurting a man or someone elses Thanks again.
I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky "It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…"
every day is a new beginning every night is a definite end every morning while the rooster's crowing every evening is waiting to send its dark to the sky to blind my eyes until light returns when the sun ascends
It's not easy being me At 16 the seniors life is far from heavenly I'm ranked as a minor and portrayed as a thug A young man just trying to make it in the world The social network has me on the low grid Just a "Wana Be" trying to come up and get big It's all good i shrug and laugh it off Constant pounding irons out the soft Small comments truly don't phase me But even steel bends when beat constantly The mask is cracking and dark is invented And i focus to make sure i don't vent it The anger bred from an under ranked master The rage fed to an underpaid senior It's all good i shrug and laugh it off Hiding the feelings with a quiet cough The past is past i move on and keep my head up Adjusting the mask and still trying to come up I live the life of an outcast Accepted in the area but hoped to move on fast I always look for a way to prove it But it seems that i can't quite do it It's all good i shrug and laugh it off I won't be remembered maybe I'll just "Get Lost"
Shadow of a butterfly reaching through the light shining Through transparent window panes. The shadow of me hiding in the shade casted By the wall beneath the sill. Sunlight of this evening lighting up my bedroom, Helping me to see my surrounding. Sunlight of this day, for me, it was brightly burning, All while bicycling home. Shadow of a bird symbolizing flying and basking In the sun, which soothes my pains. The shadow of me concealing itself and fasted Inside my head as I sit still. Rays of a sunset touching the glass, illuminating The colours and the wall. Rays of a sunrise waiting for night to pass, wishing To shine so I may finally roam. Shadow of a cage: this window the only thing Keeping me as solitary as I can be. The shadow of me welling up deep within, Descending into sorrow. Light of the sun embracing countries, forever travelling. Sunrise awaiting my horizon. Light of the sun reminding me how There will be a day of my dream coming true. Shadow of the blue twilight gently glowing Throughout this room where I am free. The shadow of me restlessly reflecting Upon thoughts of the days beyond tomorrow. Sunshine everyday warmly reassuring That it will always shine on through. Sunshine everyday piercing The gray clouds of any day. Shadow of thoughts filling My mind with a saddening realization. The shadow of me is suddenly being embraced, My Sun ensuring in time I will attain all I've dreamed.
Love is a rhyme, a countless dream a waited laughter, a taunting scream. A smile that glares, a smile that has thought Love and sadness unknown the forgot. Sitting there lonely and cold a way of my smile will be careless to mold. Shareing and gleaming the lights dim down grey Youre hair is so bright, but i stroke as i may. Youre touch leaves me breathless, and leaves my bones shaken down deep, its you i will keep, its you i will keep. Youre eyes are like sunshine, so bright and full of fun somtimes i get so in love that i feel almost done. a runaway storm, a long drive home. This moan of sadness, this love i long. i have waited to many years to let you stay here longer with me, its all of these loves that my heart shaped into me. Bare and lonely i scream in my self, the mirror of who iam the book on the shelf. Iam empty and cold and am sick without you That feeling inside that creats me, and sticks me like glue. I can not live another wakeing molment with this sight that i have once loved. This feeling i let go, a million cry's high above.
Alone is when reality doesn't exist anymore Alone is when the one person breathes for rebellion The speed of madness soaring through the human body at million miles per hour Taking a different road than the one intended Taking the high sprialing road No longer a person you know, but a stranger Instead of reality Fireworks covered the sky Everything was perfect, but only for awhile Then the crash of blackness encircles like a haunting cloak of death When the last breaths of life come too close The only thing left to do is replay memories of happier times Hoping not to die in this distorted state Then suddenly reality caves in And all thats left is to watch those particles of lights come back
I look out my window at the perfect sunset but see nothing as my heart is breaking. Everything that was once beautiful is now dreadfully repulsing as all the light in my world is gone, ripped from me in a horrid way. I look out my window at the kids playing and envy them. I'm only a kid, why can't I be happy and carefree like them?
Its sad to see someone you know and love in a hospital bed, Its sad to see them hanging on to there life by a thread. You begin to wonder, someday that's going to be me laying here, But than you noticed that you loved through so much you'll go away without fear. Seeing an old man on his death bed is a sore sight, Praying and wishing he comes out alive and ready to fight. You begin counting down your own days to live, Thinking about if there is anything else you would like to give. I been dying for a while now and still in counting of my short days, I know I can drop at any moment, but it only seems like I lived in a hais. Who's going to remember me when im gone, People will being saying look at what he has done, A monster in discise I will leave this retched planet, My body barried seven feet deep not six like everyone has done it. To be further away from everyone they will burry me this deep, Everyone will be free from this monsterish evil creep.
Arizona Heat, packing it hard Deeper then the deepest Chocolate Windows Framed by long lashes, ebony compassions Dying souls oppressed by more than the hotness of the night Mocha Skin in Summertime Let's Roll Impala, Hydro, wood grain and leather Hot, baby, Bump it louder Stolen speakers bump it best West Coast, East Coast, Southwest Greenback, wetback Brown on Brown Murder, it's a homicide Of the cruelest kind Dark Reactions Light is no longer required here One cannot see what isn't supposed to be seen Here on the borders of AZ, the grim reaper Reaps openly Fluctuating from victim to victim Cherry Red Silvery distain Drips from guns Bang, Bang, Bang Pull the Trigger Drugs are no longer sins but saviors Sell them, deal it Steal it all Survival Of The Fittest Mm, it's hot, so hot, hot Steamy sweaty Sin Sultry music, sexy women Tequila, Tecate, Paradise for some The Heat doesn't come from the sun But the struggle to stay alive To survive, and thrive Breathe Every Pancho Villa needs a Lady by their side Right? Dolled up, complexion perfect Hyna, Ruka, Sweet Vixen, Mami Sexy, hit it and quit it, baby He grabs my chin Blowing into my face, scent, full of toxic fumes Drunk off victory from this week's dealings "Money is my first love, not you, she made me RICH So get the hell away from me, trick" Plunges into my chest His heart, belongs, to no one But success Cold steel, cold hearts, cold money That's all he wants, honey The hottest thing is the tears burning down my cheeks Weak, suppressed, the insides of me Tearing down I need to find a way..out without..him Hustling my own using my own devices to succeed My soul, heedless, shall always belong To what shaped my tough skin Intimate Beginnings I belong To the Arizona Heat
Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we've become their prey They say you're addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? "My Decadence was just for you Though you'd never care what I've been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What's Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone" I call your name towards nightfall's reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden's heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre's gone?
She sleeps with a copy of Stephen King's The Shining under her pillow. The knife was left on the kitchen sink; the gun to her head out of ammo. She writes, but has no pen to stab with- just a finger to make herself sick Reflection screams "I want to be perfect!" and the mirror shut up! How can she? How can she? She will fight; she'll work for it, she's been working a new page; fresh - running out, wasted so much paper wasted already She writes in the margins, left there for someone to open the book and see
Branches and ivy lifted like A flimsy sort of solid shield, Wind whispers through the keyhole as My secret garden is unsealed, Petals tremble fearfully, Mistrustful of this open plain, Both buds lean in towards the light Whilst trying disinterest to maintain, Sun flares upon my frightened flowers, Blinking from their lifetime of night, 'Too much too soon', they seem to cry, Withering beneath the blinding light, The clouds arrive to comfort them, Too late; my garden's dying, As I soothe it with regretful rain, The satisfied sun is sighing.
I took a chance, and hope was duly murdered. Lovely dreams were scattered, a hopeless creature prowling. Anger replaced by sorrow, and then remains an emptiness. Yet even after such heartbreak there is a revived hope. Like a phoenix from the ashes shall rise with new life a reborn hope. I will try again, despite the hurt inside.
This is a tribute to TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms) You Are Loved... Put down the knife and listen to the song You can't keep going like this for long, Think of all the beauty inside, & not of why youre criticised. Know your better days are ahead, You are more loved then you'll ever know, This is not the end of your story, You still have much more to grow! You are not alone. Know someone smiles because youre alive, So think of them, & not of why you cry. June25,12
A fragile mind breaks Wake upon the rock laden shores A muffled heart begs to echo Whispers lost among a velvet chamber Dusk comes premature time and again Dropping the curtain on an optimistic sunrise If you never witness dawn There is no tomorrow Always the dreamer aches Never awake to make real what he desires The restless corpse walks blind Dead ends seem fitting for one of the kind Lost in the labyrinth of strangling vines Love is the motive and the weapon Taking root in throats dry from weeping Sprouts of amnesia in place of smiles A garden called heartbreak holds onlookers captive The comfort takes hold, sets in the bones weary of searching A plea for rest lands on deaf ears The hollow boy tires of himself The last request he will ever make "End me" Lost and tired He wishes to be weak no more
Why is life so hard? Problems coming like a pack of cards!! Family trouble, car trouble, the worse is boy trouble. Using their words as their swords. They call you, they text you, they say you're their babygirl? But that's not true. They say they love you, from their brains, not their hearts. Some boys are such a pain. Why won't they go away? They play with your heart, then throw you away like dirt, Why do we go through pain? Because good boys are rare, Bad boys cheat on you, they break your heart. But in the end, they want you back, Why can't they leave me alone? Because they think they're the best. Like if, give me a break, Boys are such a pain, it is best to abstain. xxx
Time is precious. Not much time; before . . . I leav home . . . and . . . I'm out on my own. My life has flown by my big open eyes. Only two years before . . . I leav home . . . and . . . I'm out on my own. Time is precious. Don't take it for granted; because . . . Before you know it . . . You're all alone. Away from home.
the chains and walls that where holding my heart steady are now compressing it, this feeling is unbearable, what in Gods green earth do you think your doing? Are you really that blind that i am lost without you, cant you see that im falling apart here without you? This is such bullshit, what your doing to me, what did i do to deserve this? All i did was give you a talk, i didnt go off on you or nothing, i was calm and just wanted to talk, but i see that you took it the wrong way. i dont know what to do with myself right now, this heart of mine went through way to much for me to be going through this again. and you know that, dont you? I dont deserve to be treated like this, i didnt do anything wrong, all i did was talk, so now i guess its your turn to talk. SPEAK.
Long love day's has past. My mind felt with howling storms, grasping to hold on to vanishing love. Rape and abandon my weary soul transpires, poring with instant fires. Oh this dark secret love does thy life destroy. Like amorous birds of pray, Once ways, and known devoured Your beauty no more to befound nor shall the sound of your voice. Love to dust, love to ashes. Our love has now gone to a private place. The grave yard of love.
I'm against teen pregnancy because it's a waste of time and energy. I'm against teen pregnancy because it'll alter the future of all teen boys and teen girls. So, every day, the parents had to tell their teen daughters to not get knocked up, and their teen sons to not get the girls pregnant. But no matter what the parents do to prevent their teen sons and teen daughters from ever being parents at an early age, let alone 15, no matter how hard they try, their teens just won't listen. It's bad enough that the moms and the dads have to just suffer, thereby being grandparents this early. Plus, it's a heartache for almost everybody. It seems that the backs of every mom and dad have been turned, even when their teens are going to an unsupervised party, filled with underage drinking. The next thing everybody knows, those teen boys and teen girls will have had unprotected sex and in less than 72 hours, those girls will have been either gotten STDs, or have gotten pregnant. After the babies are born, all teen boys and teen girls will have been stuck with their kids for life, which means no more going to parties, no more going to the movies, no more going to the mall, or any of that kind of stuff. Definitely no more hanging out with friends. Those teens will have to go to school, to work, and raise their children at the same time. And what's making everybody sick is that those teen guys are refusing to help their girlfriends raise their children. After all, those womanizing jerks, they got those underage girls pregnant. And the next thing everybody knows, all of the infants that those teen girls, who will have given birth to, will have taken over the planet by the year 2015. Those teen girls, they should've kept their legs closed and kept their clothes on. Those teen guys, they should've used condoms. And mostly, those teen couples, they should've waited until after their education was completed and they'd gotten married. This is starting to look like episodes of "Teen Mom" and "16 & Pregnant" on MTV and those paternity shows on "The Maury Povich Show." Now I know why I never became a father at an early age, let alone 13 or 17; it would've made both of my parents so devastated and seriously depressed. And if teen pregnancy continues to wreak havoc on every teen boy and teen girl in America, their parents and their futures, they're doomed. No children until after education is finished and marriage.
Happy Birthday to me, Another year of misery, Smiling too wide as I say Happy Birthday to me.
Once upon a starry night, the fairies came to play. No grown up knew they exist, no child could resist. The children went to play and have fun, but the fairies had a plan. For the children who see them must never return, or parents would hunt them down. When it came time to go home, the children couldn't go. "MOMMA!" "PAPPA!" they would cry to no avail, their voices lost in the night. Their hopeless parents looked and looked, the childeren were never found. All they found was a mushroom circle in the ground. Now late at night, the fairies dance, a dance of sorrow in the grass. For the children didn't know, that the fairies wouldn't let them go. Keep them innocent, it brings no harm. But to the parents, they'd taken their souls.
It starts out as a small attraction Builds up to an intense infatuation You become in tune to everything she do Trying to make her smile when she feeling blue Her laugh brings a small heat to your chest Go to sleep and she's in your mind as you rest You've been hit with the arrow of cupid Back up before you do something stupid You talk but you talk less and less She likes you but as a friend at best You fall off and make her a stranger Realizing that your heart is in danger The two of you no longer communicate You try hard to force your love to relocate Rumor hits and you find out she got a man Of this you're not a enthusiastic fan Anger steps in and you go off on anyone Body light but your heart weighs a ton The bars in the gym seem so much lighter You want to fight but your not a fighter You no longer care about many things One female reduced you to fighting Athletic ability improved 10 fold Then a breakdown as your heart turns cold Soon you become useless Friends know something wrong but they clueless You feel pain, and intense depression Nose and eyes run and you blame it on a cold infection At last your close friends realize whats going on Tell you what you already know, To move on You look at them but you say nothing back Waiting for your emotions to come back Pain is long but nothing last forever You come back like the sun in stormy weather You laugh and kick it with your friends Until the stages of love happen all over again
My distraught, the thought, has lost a battle unforgot. I take, I give, the very words I live. I've done, The sun, outrunning the only one. My actions are not my own, a story, I've stitched, I've sewn. I wait, I learn, my destiny turning to fate, I cannot see in my current state. The pain is neigh, a calder or a bite, my fatigue outweighs my might. Crowned, sound, the darkness reaks no havok. And atop I take the stand. Demand, reprimand, the status of your rendzevous. The story's conclusion, I cannot seem... to find the tragic end to...
After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again I'll See your face again I swear it No matter how far away they take you from me Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid Death is a Dream The Cross Will Be lighter Whisper the words so sacred, so somber After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone What Happened here must be true I must live this life without you Breaking the Silence She began to Weep The Epitaph ceasing to know We all must Return To Dust After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again After the Casket Falls After your soul is called After your final breathe is drawn I'll meet you again The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock Of argentine fears swallow the last soul Goodnight black rose of eternity Goodnight dearest gothic phantom Tonight The Earth consumes me **Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**
Through roaming hills, and blistering winds my spirit lay somewhere between. Oh someone point him out to me, I desire to hear my soul sing For at first he left, I did not notice my emotions to mangled in muck but I feel my heart fall short and my body just want to give up I call to him through the wind in the night but no reply is heard in the breeze. I shout his name from dawn to dusk But only a echo replies in the trees Forgive me! I cry, I desire you now that my heart is darken and numb. For I gladly give up this emotionless feast to live my life wondering the streets forsaking the world and all of its treats to live with my spirit as a bum
So what if i smoke, who does it hurt? Why do you care what plant i choose to grow from the dirt? I just want to laugh again, I i just want to smile again, Smile for something other then a family photo. This is my crutch, this is how i cope.. This is how i tell my self that there is still hope, It could be my only hope. My obi-wan-kanobi, the only one who knows me. I don't know if your my savior but do believe your close, you keep me laughing, you keep me off a rope. mother why can't you see! This is so much more then dope! It leaves a sour taste now because I know you don't approve, there is so much worse things that i could use and abuse, Don't you remember my friend Dillon? Don't you remember the news? I knew he was getting into bad Sh*t but i just ignored the clues.. but f*ck, i don't want to think about that.... F*CK! I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT! Maybe if i smoke this it will somehow bring him back..
My mother never knew what to do with me. I was an obligation that needed to be. But I wanted her to love me. Simply… love… me. I would do anything to please her. Wanting her to be proud, I worked hard at everything I did. But she viewed me as her competition, not wanting to be out done. Needless to say our relationship wasn't what I wanted it to be. I dreamed to have a family of my own to simply… love… me. I had a daughter who didn't live. And my mom said someone like me shouldn't have kids. Though she didn't know about my epilepsy and other problems with my health. Then my life fell apart with hard times everywhere. I didn't show it but hidden…my health wasn't all that good. My husband's diabetes affected his mind. And epilepsy was working on mine. I ignored that fact. I worked hard as my epilepsy kept tearing every thing apart. Finally with a hard earned job… Fourteen years later I had a son. The son I'd always wanted to have. I was so very proud but was attacked by both health and son, at every turn. He was wilder than most creating problems everywhere. He blamed me for everything and everywhere something went wrong. My health did it again at work as my relationship continued to crumble with my son. He hated a mother who had to work, had epilepsy, and just wasn't there for him. I was slowly dying when he was 12 and I was 52, when finally I was saved. That night… I met God and he said I had more to be done along the way. I came back and did every thing I could to help my wayward and unruly son. But way before I helped him go to college… I knew I had lost my son. But his best friend needed a mom so I was there for him. It seems so strange to tell, but as my son moved out… His best friend simply moved in. And it's even stranger to tell that… The son who will occasionally smile at me, is someone else's son. He's my heart-adopted son and has brought my first son closer again. Jesus was always here and… the tear in my heart is gone.
Can we make it in this world without athletic talent Can we make it in this world with sensitivity Can we make it in this world with a hot head Can we make it in this world without a nice girl Can we make it in this world with enemies Can we make it in this world with lost friends Can we make it in this world with pessimism Can we make it in this world without enthusiasm Can we make it in this world with scars of emotion Can we make it in this world with poetic ambitions I think we can I think I can Sore loser they call me But I wanna prove them wrong I wrote this poem because one of my classmates called me a sore loser (hence the title) and the one thing I wanted to do is prove him wrong (Written on 10.12.10)
How can I not love you When you flashes your pretty dimples? And how can I not love you When you make hard looks simple? How can I not love you When you exchanges your smiles? And how can I not love you When you looks so good a thousand miles? How can I not love you When you are always so neat? And how can I not love you When you are very sweet? How can I not love you When you shows the cleft in your chin? And how can I not love you When you do no sins? How can I not love you When you hold things tight? And how can I not love you When you make the wrongs right? How can I not love you Till the very end? And how can I love you When you love my best friend?
you know its wrong but you do it to overpower the pain not strong enough to stay away from it you would die without it in its presence your heart knows no shame even if you try to win the fight your heart will overrule your mind Theres nothing you can do its chained to you you cant get free look what this drug did to you
People think they have to say "i love you" in relationships.. but no not really... some times it makes me feel like i HAVE to say i love you if some one says it to me. " i love you is a very very special word" people have to understand that they have to be wise with the word "i love you" because if you say it to anyone... then when you really mean it.. it wont feel ture.... *comment on what you think* -Angel4eva23
What I wouldn't give To have a brain like yours, There isn't any topic On which you could ignore. It must be so exciting To be as smart as you, Wherever did you learn so much, I've never had a clue. I have often wondered How the rest of us get by In our daily living Not knowing how or why. I only wish I had The wisdom that you do So I could know it all And be as smart as you. No, I don't have the intelligence And don't have what it takes To be as smart as you, And Never Make Mistakes. Lynn Barany
I see my breathe. Night has fell upon a frost. Gods' chill lye now on my shoulders. Alone yet not. Silence now before the icey rain. Surrender as my nervous teeth chatter. For the warmth of a home is all that is desired. My empty haven. But,I am filled with a heart that is full. Want nor wait. Arms now cover me like a blanket. Gust of wind has carried your unwaivered heart. Candles lit a way to find what is left. Merely an image of what once was. Break down into a sob. Remains frozen solid as climate has taken its' vengence. I suffer no more,weak body. Now only in spirit. Shall I rest.
Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game
As a child, I had much to do Crushed it, when I tried to grew Participant of the Rat Race, I am Suddenly everything was scattered away Now when I try to think of you And calculate what went wrong Where was my mind that day? Why everything went so wrong? After endless struggle, when I dream Those equations , cry and scream My demand curve went wrong way And that was the end of everything The sweet little Tom & Jerry still playing with no worries Then my mind cries and says those days are so far away Every-time when I think of it I think as I'm a liar and cheat After this endless bargaining Life ends here.... Screaming
Once upon a time, Almost 6 years ago, A boy met a girl With his best friend in toe. This boy and this girl Became young love in its essence. His best friend became what some would call Her own personal hidden blessing. His devotion for his friend Couldn't quite bring him to confess, But he cared about that girl enough, To warn her of future distress. After 3 long years, Of the back and forth romance, Their young love finally ended, The girl was broken hearted and defenceless. She had given her all To someone who was only willing to take it. The best friend tried to warn her, But she couldn't see her lover fake it. A year would pass, Before the best friend would find, His best friend's ex, The one he longed to say was "mine". A birthday of hers Was his golden opportunity. When he missed her night out, He offered to take her to a movie. She wrestled with the thought: Do I open that door? She kept pushing it off, Until she couldn't avoid it anymore. Neither one of them expected, Or even could dream Of all that would come From one night, one movie. A love affair of sorts, Filled with constant ups and downs, But despite their best efforts, They couldn't help but stick around. A year and 2 months Of the greatest love that ever lived, Was shared between these two, Who were only just kids. Neither one of them was ready, They didn't know what to do, They loved so deeply, But this experience was so new. A girl with a broken heart, With no sense of true self worth, Met a boy with a broken heart, And the desire to move forth, With her by his side, Forever hand in hand, Yet she felt she didn't deserve him, And did what she could: she ran. Now her love for him consumes her, But his heart is in pieces. Now he's too afraid of her But his love he swears never ceases. And she cries herself to sleep at night, For the best friend she hurt foolishly. And she prays for their future together, The one he says can never be.
tell me why you know about the once icy cold that was in my heart
I know I shouldn't say this I keep my mouth shut But don't worry this time I promise not to cut For both of our sake I ruin it all with a snap But don't test me because you just caused a crack I do this every time It's the after party of hate I don't appreciate And I'm done with the negotiate It's the rate that I'm falling Let me take my time Trust me I'm not stalling Your weight's causing me to drown Why does it hurt? I should be like you Happy as a Jew It's a monster that's trying to escape And it's something I sure can't duct tape Don't rub it in the face Keep it low key Walk away with some pride Don't mention you're so happy without me
It hurts all the time This pain in me never stops I want to cry for you I want to scream for you I want to beg for you I want you to be here This cant be fair This cant be real But I smile and I laugh I get up every morning to go to work Throw on a happy face and make some jokes I come home and enjoy my day I have fun And I continue on But I'm so hurt I'm so lost Seeing you in there killed me I could never get the phone call out my head The screams from my mom The walk up there to see if it was true But most of all I wont forget you In the casket Touching your hand You were so cold You didn't belong there Seeing you go into the ground Seeing them fall apart Feeling my heart break into pieces When all I could do is scream I will never forget that day And every time I smile I want to cry Every time I laugh I want to cry Every time I think I want to cry Every breath I take takes a little bit out of me Because I want to cry I want this to not be real I want to had spend more time with you I want to hug you Laugh with you Tell you I love you That I was always there That I am still always here I am so broken But I continue on with life Because God took you and not me He wanted me here for a reason So ill continue on for You I will laugh And smile And pretend Anything to make it to the end To see you I miss you just isn't enough It doesn't mean enough What heals a broken heart? Time they say But time wont bring you back So my heart stays broken As I pretend to smile I miss you I miss you I miss you As I'm falling apart My mask then goes on RIP Bebo... 17 was to young
I'm not good for you. Broken and unworthy. You keep me around and I cannot figure out why. You are so amazing, so lively, and so different than I. I want to be loved by you. I want to hold you. But I see you there so happy and so care free... It will just hurt you to know the person hidden within. The real me. Not the smiles you see when we speak. Not the laughter we share... But me. A lonely child, with fear in her eyes. Scared of the world she was born into and scared of the future she might have if she loses you. Do you still want me, knowing the little I have said so far? I close my eyes wishing you were here... But we all know that is a wish that will never come true... And it is okay... It is nothing new. To me at least it is something I feel each day. Wanting what is not in reach... Wanting for you to be with me.
Hey dad, please talk to me. There's something I need to say. I've realized something. Just hear me out and you'll know I'm right. I'll never be good enough for you. I'll never meet your expectations. And we're growing apart so fast that I can barely tell what you want anymore. All the things that you've said hurt worse than you'll ever know. And now we can't go back. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. But I'm always at my worst when I'm with you. My mood so dark that I can't see. You'll never understand how hard it is and how bad it hurts to be me near you.
So you want to know me? The life you cannot see? The things in misery? All about me? I held the hand of a dying man, I bow before the great god Pan! You still want to know and take my hand? My life is no wonderland. I'm always judged for what I say, I'm always judged for being gay. You send me to go and lay, In piles of needles, to find false hay. You tie me up, burn me down, With smiles and laughter of evil clowns, You cover me in chains to drown, In oceans deep, down, down, down. I helped a cancer patient live! I taught the greedy how to give! Though I don't even get to live, I only just survive. I am a witch, a wiccan through, I love to lay in cold, wet dew I sing and dance the witches rune I believe in the bright full moon! All that is, and ever was, Of me is gone now like a dove, I still can't believe in one true love, For all of that is gone. I live in darkness, forevermore, For life has nothing deep in store, For light is just believed folklore, Washed up on the darkened shore. I don't exist, for I will fade, And you will ask "who's Andrew Jade?" You will forget the things I've made You won't know where I'm laid. For deep in my shallow grave, I remember all I did save, For everything that I gave. To die, a funeral, no one there, Lying there full of despair. For now you might actually care… Till you see me standing there
Wherever I go through out my whole life, I end up struggling with lots of strife. Thinking that my life is a total waste, Wanting it to be over in a haste. I can feel the pain inside my own heart, Like someone through at my a deadly dart. The wound is easing deeper and deeper, Will the pain ever stop getting bigger? Feeling emo is never a good thing, Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting. Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart, Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart. Drowning in all the lies and self pity, I live each day but always feel sh*tty. I have lots of thoughts about suicide, But then I think about those who have died. Those who have died not just from suicide, But also those who are really nice guys. ... ... ... ...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........
Why do people cheat?? because it makes them feel, or look good among their peers? No, they do it because they are stupid. They don't care for the promises they make. They are not faithful. My ex-boyfriend was like that. But the difference is, he cheated on me, with not just one girl, but three girls!!! Why would someone do, something like that? I cried for days when I found out. I stopped talking to him. It was hard, but i did it. Because i had to. No one deserves to be treated like that. This is a true story... I have had a broken heart once, he was my first boyfriend, and I don't intend to go through it again...
Sometimes I can't tell what is real, For nothing does darkness reveal, So 'til my vile veins will heal, The loneliness is all I feel.
Angel's are for you and only you. i think you can have many angels. i don't know. But anyways.... if you don't like to go home beacuase of the drama going on between your parents? just go to your room and just...talk! talk to your angel.... If your in a bad situation, and your scared with no one to comfort you? There IS someone to comfort you right now... with an arm around your shoulder saying everything is gona be all right in you ear..... THERE IS ALWAYS SOME ONE WHO WILL LISTEN AND COMFORT YOU WHEN NO ONE ELSE CAN!!!!!! *comment if you have a thought or fav poem)* -Angel4eva23
The warming flames of a fireplace Easing away the frost and the cold The warmth massaging my face As the sparks crack in the fires mold The flame stretches one inch too far Touching lightly the untempered wall It catches and burns all things inside Turning the walls as black as the night A sad desolation, caused by one little spark Chaos and destruction, by the once warm hearth Things can change without you knowing why Something you once loved, bringing tears from your eyes
I heard the sad news, just as the radio played our Jim Croce' song.... Did they know?.... ... It became our song,.... the spring we turned fifteen.... and gave us an excuse.... to be close... You were so patient sharing your guitar, and teaching me about frets strings, the bridge My fingertips sore, you took my hand in yours.. gently rubbed and, kissed them one by one Did we know young love only has one season? 'Time In A Bottle' was all we had
Open your wrists Let the blood leak out In a crimson river of tears Allow it to fall Upon tile grounds Making the color unclear Open your mouth Let a scream slip out And echo against lonely walls Allow it to linger, To fill quiet airs Then back in your ears, let it crawl Open your mind Let it cluelessly wander With nothing clouded in your brain Allow it to focus On life or on death And if scars will forever remain Open your heart Let it never forgive Those who've caused wounds so deep down Allow it to rage Against misunderstanding, Let it yell the loudest silent sound Open your wrists Let the pain leak out In a crimson river of sorrow Allow it to fall Upon off-white grounds And remember there's always tomorrow
Its a sad time for me. Covered from head to toe in insecurities. All I do is try and cover for my mistakes. My misjudgments. My displacement... But what about those times of joy? Gone within a blink of an eye. It seems that my world would be one of pity. but no its not pity more like a self hatred that runs deep. It covers my heart with hard lace and frosted glass. Covering me in something for show. I used to glow. Like a bright light. That was also just for show. A lie filled to the brink. dishonest and out of synch. Thats my story for now. Im just a show and a sad story. A sad time.
Mom, I'm pregnant Mom, I can't forget how i was born Came from a lovely couple as yours sixteen years ago, I was a love result every action marries with a reaction Now, I'm facing my reaction sadly Mom, I was blind by my love I listened to his mouth without tasting it I looked through his eyes but not his heart I believed in his words, his caresses I got caught in his sweet romantic lies Mom, I gave my sixteen years to him I wanted to enjoy the feeling of love I couldn't wait, he took my virginity Some mistakes can't be erase mom he left me with a nine month gift paper Mom, I'm pregnant, I'm losing my shape I'm losing personality, my sweet life is gone Now, all my time is stole by an innocent Can I be able envelop him by affection??? The word 'Ready' is totally out of my path
Tears that twinkle and glitter Flow through our cheeks that will twitter The sorrows our eyes carries And heart throbs with worries Altogether we dwell The day has come for our farewell bit by bit watered and grown by teacher are ready to step ahead to see the future. All alone standing at this junction Days gone by are not illusion Really we are going to miss each other have hope to meet again further.. We all walked together in one path Our ways are deluged at this spot Some strike the engineering bell yet others to make patients well. Every one has different aim Almighty will lead you to hall of fame... Wishing you all the very best. Never forget prime nest..
I once knew a little girl, She was innocent and pure, But pains of many bites and burns, Have changed that girl for sure, She always used to cry at night, Her pillow getting wetter, "It's alright I'm sure", she'd always say, "Things are bound to get better", But as she grew she learnt, That this was not the case, So she changed and built a mask, That would cover her true face, This mask did help protect her, From all emotional bruising, But never did she suspect, All the things that she was losing, One day a few years later, She took off that strong mask, But no longer knew the girl underneath, "Who is this girl?" she'd ask, She'd cried that night only wishing, She could go back to that day, When she'd made that mask of cold heart, And throw it far away, But by then it was too late, The damage had been done, She'd lost that girl from underneath, The one that was bright and fun, So she decided to do the next best thing, Get back what she had lost, And though troubled by the future, It was worth all that it cost, Though she'd tried so hard, Can I say they are the same? The new girl and the first one, No I think not, what a shame, Though I do say she is better off, Then those who still wear that mask, But how should I know such a thing, You probably do ask, For I was once that little girl, The one that made the choice, To lose the mask; begin again, And regain her old voice, The moral of this story is, That there is no worse pain, Then losing yourself and realising, That you have to start again, So just know one thing for sure, And take it all from me, That when you're at your purest, Then you should just leave it be...
I want to hear your voice But my savior is the dial tone. I pick it up this time hopeful But still no one on the phone. I really need to talk to you. I really wish you'd call. I stand on this cliff not wanting to jump But hoping to fall. I just don't understand. I know God can see. I find myself praying every night , "Lord, please just let him call me" My mom still insists I need to start moving on . It breaks her heart to tell me the truth, "You need to accept that he's gone". I just can't though, I never got to say good bye. I just need to get a hold of heaven, I have to at least try. I have to figure it out and then I'll be just fine. "Lord please just listen to me.... Heaven desperately needs a phone line."
Words have no more Meaning I find myself Deadlocked In an Ethiopian Night I Could go recklessly on But with what Hope? Will I Glide on? The Only thing I can find is woe only woe, only me, woe is me Voided since the start I'm contradictory in Armenia desert Mountains are more like rusty daggers pierced in my stomach; what else is there but pain? only pain, only me, pain is me
The love that kisses with a tasteless tear A pain that can't be painted on the soul A longing for a place without a fear Longing for a feeling that makes me whole Beloved, words can't heal my tattered heart. As thorns pass me by the pain cant compare That of the pain of being torn apart Even the wind howls about it I swear Tell me was falling in love my mistake I chose my own fate and decided to stay I will not let this love become forsaken Love can't just get up and spirit away Love is worth overcoming a mountain My love for you flows like a vast fountain
Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty
When you can longer run away from yourself When you thought there were no more tears to cry When you just want to die Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies So many years, so many days Waking up to people who no longer care you're there You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality Wasted with living; the slowest way to die The shadows of shame weigh you down Until you drown, filled with only their hate All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades The agony is all you know, thank you pain A self-sadist Is all you have become, j ust how they showed you, craving so much more Just to hide up all of the misery But under cloth it still bleeds This is the Escapist's Plea For the one who fall to their knees in misery Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see Stigmatized by their sadistic need Only if I could just fly away ...Fly Away
Aren't I pretty too? Aren't I pretty to you? Aren't I pretty enough for you?
There was no mention of your name, yet, it matters not Watching as your body laid broken, when they took you away Felt a stab in my heart; as tears rolled down my face And my mind ran to your Mom, probably making dinner plans As the story of your final moments began to unfold Another young life stolen in a most horrific way! Not through any fault of yours; nor by God's design This creature from the deep mistook you for prey So much faster and stronger, it simply overpowered you So sleep now, little one- nineteen years is what you had I'm sure your task was completed; your forever now begins Never again to be snatched away by man nor beast I pray your family finds comfort in one ultimate truth The light which was within you has returned to the Source! *Note: For the 19 Year old who lost his life today in CA...+RIP 10/22/10
She said that we were drifting apart. But I feel that we were close from the start My heart was torn out from deep within She said I had changed from what I had been I didn't know what to say We used to talk every day. Now that things had changed I felt that I had gone deranged Dear friend, the one who was the best Why have you left me alone with the rest?
It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation
The red beating land covered in constant storms The ground ravaged and torn apart The inner thumps struggling to continue Trying to survive the constant category F5 The sun rarely shines upon this red land Dark black clouds in the air Ground flooded with tears from the sky Roots revealed and torn on the surface Yet somehow the land continues There's no scientific reason why To thump and beat steadily So the land can stay alive
Im Sorry, Im Sorry for Not Loving you the same way you Loved me, Im Sorry i Can't give you what you Want, Im Sorry that i Can't grant your Wishes, Im Sorry for Leaving, Im Sorry for your Un-Fixed Heart. Im Sorry.. But, I Can't & Won't Fix It -Brittany- (thank you for reading and if you dont mind please comment and rate :) If you comment ill read and comment and rate some of your poems :) thank you)
i sit here on the tracks everything has changed i try to sort out these new facts i was his number two I didn't know But now i do and its time to look for someone new today my old teddy provided no comfort so im here instead one of the few times im truly hurt im looking back on the bad he was my number one And now I'm so sad i run my fingers through the gravel tears rolling down my cheeks my world is slowly starting to unravel im looking back on the bad but all i see is him i think of what i thought i had I remember his sweet kisses Tender moments I hope he Forever misses I guess I never truly showed how I felt How each time he warped me in his arms I would start to melt I'm looking back in the bad And I'm ready to die Ive wasted my trust And I'm wondering why
A Valentine's Day dedication for those who have lost a loved one. I know you're watching from far away. So I'll find the strength to kneel and pray, and send you our love this Valentine's Day. God gives me the power to understand, that we can no longer hold your hand. The sands of time pass graciously, until we meet for eternity. My unconditional emotion has no end. Like the flowers in the spring and your spirit in the wind. My hands are empty without you to hold. My soul cries out alone in the cold. My tears still fall and I wipe them away. God gave me the strength to kneel and pray, and send you our love this Valentine's Day.
Paper-thin, metallic blue deepening further, slicing down, across from bone to bone. Garnet rivers, pooling into oceans, staining... Screams, screams fade "CALL AN AMBU..l..a...." (gone). A single response, a tear, gliding down... swift, before fading to black.
You see her? Why don't go be like her? No one likes you, so this is what you must do. You must stop being yourself, get off of you shelf. You must please everyone, to do that, you must be number one. She's the perfect girl, you're the no one in the world. So go ahead, and give yourself away, since you're going the wrong way. You are no longer you, see what you can do. You are now her, that's better than what you ever were.
Kill me now, no one needs to know how. They don't care anyways, let me waste away. I'm so alone, I'm always on my own. I was happy one minute, now I want to cut. I'm trying to stay strong, but it's been too long. I'm giving up, since no one is helping me up. I'm falling down, and there's no one around to keep me sane, so all I want is pain.
Why should we live if we have nothing to live for? Why should we live if we have nothing to die for? Why should we live if no one cares? Why should we live if you're loved by no one? Why should we live if no one likes you? Why should we live if no one loves you? Each day is just a day Each day is a day closer to death. What's the point of living? Some may say none, Others may say why. Why should we live? Tell me and I will think about your answer.
Fear runs through her entire body, As she takes the dagger from her boyfriends case. She quietly walks through the kitchen, Writing a note telling him everything will be okay. The open door lets in a cold winter breeze, Her bare feet sinks deep into the snow. She kneels on the ground holding the dagger in her hand, And she thrusts it into her chest nice and slow. The pain is excruciating but she keeps on going, She feels the blood run down her fingers, As she fights blacking out, The dark begins to linger. Her mind was made up, But now she made the mistake, She left her love behind, She's fighting to say awake. She opened her eyes as wide as she could, To look up into the face of her love, He felt the warmth of her blood. He carried her to the car, And drove as fast as he possibly could, Arrived at the hospital, With thought he misunderstood. "Why would she take her life, She knows I love her so, I never thought this day would come, The day I had to let her go."
You use it every day. It is a basic part of life now. Maybe it's the flicker of the radio Or the buzz of a computer. It is used every day to make our lives simpler and less stressful. Is it really helping us though? It does make our life simpler But is this a downward spiral into emotionless and effortless life? A life where instead of real soldiers with real emotions are sent to fight, A drone controlled by someone at a computer is used to kill innocent civilians. The drone is emotionless. No compassion for other beings and no feeling of guilt or regret. This is the future, an emotionless drone controlled by someone at a computer.
Forgotten but here Remembered yet never there Why do you exist?
you're a silent person inside, that i know.. so a single insult or pain would pose a great blow.. When in pain close your eyes and drift.. think of of happiness and joy, that would give you a lift.. Anger and grieve, please don't let it rust.. In your heart don't let it last.. know that jokes come and go.. sometimes jokes go far beyond "tolerable" so when hit in the heart so hard, stay with your guard.. Maybe tomorrow's a better joke.. maybe tomorrow's your day.. Because every "tomorrow", we change, we grow, we love more and joke more.. Sorry for today.. We had to see those sad, sad, eyes..
These are my scars And I know they haven't gotten me far But it's complicated And this is who I am to be They say everything happens for a reason Well I have two cents worth a dime To say nothing good about that line This isn't really fair I didn't ask for you to take it this way I can't just walk away anymore Keeping my head from that door Your tricks don't keep it away anymore This is how I choose it to be It's the closest I am drowning to be free And just leave me and let me see Theres only one way to get it all away I will stop at nothing and think it all off Just play that beat and watch me hit the wall This isn't really fair I didn't ask for you to take it this way I can't just walk away anymore Keeping my head from that door Your tricks don't keep it away anymore I won't let you down And hit the floor There's apart of me thinking, I can't do this anymore I'm truly convinced That telling you this lie Will make it the truth in my life I wont let us down I'll keep my guard around And watch my head hit the door Am bound to fall down My tears hit the floor As I lay down I know I ain't coming back for more This isn't really fair I didn't ask for you to take it this way I can't just walk away anymore Keeping my head from that door Your tricks don't keep it away anymore
Iv been there for you everytime you needed me, Iv been there for you in case of an emergency. I held your head while you were weak, I whipped the tears off your cheeks while you were sick. I brought you medicine when you had the flu, I helped you out in any way I knew. I made you smile when everyone around you made you sad, I cheered you up when everything was going bad. But now when I need you the most you are not here, I'm down on my knees crying now and catching every single one of my tears. I know all your secrets because I wanted to know how to help you, But you don't even bother asking me how my day went, ain't that true? Iv done everything in my power to make you into the person you are today, But now I'm reaching out to you, but you give me a smirk and walk away. I guess this is what I get for being the person that I am, I might of raised my voice on you, but that that just to make you into a man. God created all men equally, why should I be any different from anyone else, I treated you like I treated everyone, with discipline, love, care, without a mess. I guess this is what I get for being raised by the streets, Everytime someone went off on you I was there to have your back like the streets. But now I feel alone and don't see anyone by my side, I thought you would help me, that's why I cried. Now that my heart is barely beating, I want to say I love you, Remember me as your teacher, care taker, soldier, your brother.
laying on my bed I'm going over everything my mind wonders to the day a week ago I tried to leave this world trying to understand my choice now as i see I'm being watched now I see my bedroom door is gone now I see I'm being treated as a crazy person now I see my life is changing now I see the aftermath of everything I'm staring at nothing my mind is blank my eyes are dead I'm trying to think I'm trying to live now as I see my live changed now I see I'll never be the same Now I see the life I lived the life I lived was a lie it's self the life I lived was so different now lying on my bed I looked at the window thinking about jumping I looked at the mirror and now I see the true me now as I see myself I see the pain I was in now as I see myself I see the hate I feel for myself now as I see myself I hate myself now I see everything I did now I see the aftermath now I see the pain I put my family in now I see the aftermath now I see the aftermath
Poet trees don't think we cry ink... eyes pink; face ta' face blink; then sink to brinks of Disgrace; lips trace mirrors whole selling fears we die here souls are sold this way today cut ties with lies here and Buy Here
Are we meant to be? Or is it just a dream? You & I Are we meant for love? Are we ready to say I do? You & I I'm just not sure If I'm ready. Are we ready to say I do? Or say good-bye? You & I I'm just not sure whether to go back? Or keep marching forward? Without you Don't know whether these are my directions. Give me time to think. If you can't wait, move on. Just you. Know I can't be without you.
its the end inside my head i must say goodbye my dear friend im entering the unknown im slowly starting to unravel and become unsewn you must not figure who i am for i am no one no one to be loved, no one forgotten, no one to grieved when the end is truly received i will not be one loved, i will not be one forgotten for there there there is nothing to forget but this mere note of uncertainty and confusion
Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.
I know your pain Although I don't know what's happening, I can still feel the vain. Seems like the beginning is the ending One moment there's bliss It feels much like a wet kiss. But out of nowhere you see a mirror, "It felt so real," as you stand there alone. You try to make sense of it all; Yet everything begins to fall. "AHHHH!" you scream to the top of your lungs. Your blue eyes are running waterfalls. It hurts me to see a single tear, You're not the only one to hide in the room. Swallow your tears, don't let it drop, A splash will only cause more bitter props. But like I say, Tomorrow will always bring another day. So Faith, throw away your thorns, anticipating a happy God-given next day.
Is it you ? is it me? Stuck in a world of a fantasy Heart beats, unceasingly Is this what they call ecstasy? Some say "the heart wants ,what the heart wants" Yet the fire is oh! So enticing! Tranquilizing! I adore it! I fear it! Chancy foot stands transfixed in front The petrified foot it taunts As it takes one step back, Chancy stands there and laughs Torn between the two…my heart weeps What path to take? My heart! Guidance it seeks The fear of falling Holds me back The want for love Pushes me back The shackles of scary bounds me tight Chancy is there, never to give up with out a fight Arising a hurricane is what they doo My poor feeble heart, knows not what to do The heart is pure. It seeks it strives to find who proves to be true The ultimate winner..is still unknown For here my heart still stand in the sea of unknown Cupid I beg you do guide me And dare not strike me and leave me With your arrows of blind love Guidance is what I need Give me that and I shall heed Leave me not in the dark of misery Leave me not in the sea of mystery But guide me to that ever shinning light Scary or chancy With what do I side? Shall forever remain a secrecy…. ~M.M.M
I'm sitting here in this room, thinking to myself about the past. How I had bloom... though, it didn't last. God, everyday I am lying. Everyday I put on my mask. I always end up crying since no one dares to ask. I stopped talking to my friends, cut them all loose. For this is the end, and we all knew I would lose. Everyone around me thinks I'm better. since all they see are lies. They should know better! Even though I'm in disguise. I put on my fake smile and laugh along with everyone around me. I think everyone is in denial since they can't obviously see They act like nothing happened. like... I faked the whole incident. They honestly don't know what happened, or why I caused that incident. They believe that I was never "broken" just that I wanted attention. I should have never spoken and give them my full attention. No one knows I've been skipping my pills, everyone thinks I take them. Maybe I'm saving them for the kill? Who knows what I plan to do with them. I throw up everyday, only because I've grown used to it. No one understands my ways or why I keep quiet. Sometimes, when I'm alone and I see something I could use to harm myself. I check to make sure I'm on my own and start to look at myself. First, I cry...because I oh so much hate my body. Then, I hurt myself. Proving that I am nobody. and since I'm alone, and with no one else I continue doing this until I see a drop of blood, then it feels like bliss. I continue sometimes, craving the blood. Then when it gets too much, I sit down thinking... no one knows I do such if they did...would they let me drown? I bet they would. Since everyone I have come to love, leaves me..just like they should. because I'm nothing from above. You might think I'm a blessing. ha, I'm a curse. I bet you were messing, and just tried to keep it from getting worse. but let me get this straight, nothing you say or do, will get me to leave this gate. For this gate is where I was left to be on my own. to forget about help. I was always alone, never having anyone's help. Just let me be, I don't need your sympathy. Can't you see? It doesn't matter to me! I'd rather have everyone hate me than have you all pretend because believe it or not, I can see through all your acts that should come to an end. You aren't my friend, so leave me now. This my end, you mustn't know how. I will write back soon, for this is my only comfort. I only shall come at the time of the moon, for that is my hour of comfort.
She loved the way the salty air kissed her rosy cheeks, She loved the way the warm blankets kept her safe, She loved the feeling of the soapy bubbles against her skin, She loved the sky just before sunset, The sound of the crickets as they chirped around her, The water rippling as she kicked her feet in the puddle, Her family, Her friends, The boy who would never know she existed. The boy who would never know what she loved Because even though she loved a lot of things, She couldn't love herself.
I am me; and I know there are going to be people who do not like me But I can not change the way the feel about me and I'm okay with that Why change them, when I wouldn't want them to change me? They are who they are, and I am who I am This is who I am: I am Emily, a person that tries very hard not to judge people This is who I am: I am Emily, I will be anyones friend; It does not matter what they did It matters that you take them in your arms and hold them and tell them your here for them Even if they walk away, it matterd that you showed them you cared
I love to send this sad thought of fate's unfairness into the depth of oblivion, forgetting as it had never occurred and troubled me in the tenderest years; could I really forget all the grief and wrath which I had to face holding back tears? A lost youth can't be replaced by realizing its dimension. Were others more deserving than I? My glances showed no envy, but desire was way too intense to find happiness or even a little joy; why did fate continuously deny me to exult love in its splendid ways with an amorous sentence?
Two scales must always be within an approximate range for an accurate weight, and the close relationship between the Humankind and God must withstand any change. Solutions must be found before catastrophe approaches, and if we were caught by surprise, we would regret the outcome; less trees should be cut down to make room for buildings. Thieves, murderers and rapists should be held in contempt and thrown into dungeons...instead of giving them cosy cells, the Law admits that's just to punish, but inhumane to torment. Nightly streets have been taken over by muggers, drug dealers and prostitutes, now called escorts, haven't changed their lewd attitude; even madams of the brothels open doors for the well-dressed sirs. Society has gone mad, and it has condoned both sexes of equal desires; never was Sodom and Gomorrah as iniquitous and lustful as this one; God forbid...I entered this city and be found guilty of their perversions! While on the outskirts, in run-down homes poverty duplicates its horrible woes, politicians' corrupt hands are not seen...pocketing money that Congress approved; and the suffering of the poor is plagued by famines that turn into deadly diseases. Crooked judges are manipulated by criminal defense lawyers who have handfuls of cash; justice can never be served when criminals are given their parole, and the innocent, humble men are detained and put behind bars, because of their limited wealth. Proud hearts see neither simplicity nor beauty in anything that evolves into splendid light; self-praise, greed, bluntness and invulnerability are the rules they live and swear by; humbleness is unacceptable and insignificant...it's a virtue which diminishes their pride. Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci
Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed With all your best friends from back in the day Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks I'm on the front line of battle Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples crack in Lauren's snapple Staddle Liz like mclovin But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle Its abominable, so unbelievable But its inevitable, the end is kissable I have rattled these kids psyches squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets as the creepy bells of the chapel ring I remain a mystery You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe And As you look the other way, I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy rex with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch Hang him from bunny man bridge Yo dude turn the lights on But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script Its bewitched with no miss to kiss Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit So the town clock strikes half past 3 There's one last gas before i must sleep Or i will crash fast if the light touches me Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe Run up on you with nine a knife, and the head of your wife Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears And as you look up in the mirror I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor But I hear a knock on the door Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy, just got a cold sore"
I won't let another single tear hit the ground You did nothing but letting me down Made me feel like love's nothing But a stupid feeling inside of some one I tore myself apart Just to have you by my side Do you know how hard I tried To be all you needed to have by your side? And you never gave a damn Never Heard a single thing I screamed at night Never cared about all of my tears hitting the ground How could u be so blind? You used to shine so bright But not anymore ... At least NOT tonight I'll be leaving all these feelings behind 'cause that's the only thing I learned from YOUR love ... !!! And I won't let another tear hit the ground Even though It's SO HARD ... !!!
A worthy sea in which to drown, A crowd to chase me out of town, A compromise that makes you frown, A solution as you push me down, The struggle as my organs roar, The shouting as they reach the shore, The one somehow I still adore That pushes me below once more, No panic at the numbing pain, No screaming though the crowd remain, No point my heavy lungs to strain, No chance of coming up again.
Those teen moms are and/or will have been up to no good, especially by going to unsupervised parties, doing drugs, and stuff. They had their babies not too long ago, but they continue their out of control ways, including by way of neglecting their own offspring? I mean, who in the world does that kind of stuff? It seems that the parents (thee mothers and/or the fathers) really should've kept their teen daughters locked up in their rooms and on top of all that, those underage girls, they never should've been teen mothers to begin with. On top of all that, those teen girls were supposed to concentrate on their education instead of messing around with those womanizing fiends. There's always a problem with teen girls-turned-teen mothers; they're always having unprotected sex with multiple guys, drinking alcoholic beverages (vodka, beer, and rum, e.g.), using illegal drugs, and stuff. All teen girls should be ashamed of themselves, not taking care of the ones who've brought them into God's green Earth. The only ones who're responsible for getting those teen girls pregnant, thereby bringing the infants to this world are those dead-beat teen fathers. It's their fault. They did this. They brought those kids into this world. What those teen girls should've done was to have told their loser boyfriends to use condoms, otherwise they never would've gotten pregnant. Not only have those out-of-control teen mothers put their own families at risk with their reckless behaviors, they also put their own children at risk, and it's got to stop right here, right now!Those teen girls, they shouldn't be mothers at an early age, let alone 13 or 17 and they definitely shouldn't be putting their own children in a dangerous environment, thereby being harmed by those cold-blooded gang bangers and/or drug-dealers. The reckless behaviors of all teen mothers will have gotten their own children killed or worse. The employees of Child Protective Services and the local police are going to hear this. Everybody's seeing multiple life sentences in the future and those teen mothers should not just be stripped of their parenting rights, they should also lose custody of their children. It's making everybody sick just thinking about it. And if this type of ordeal continues to go on, it'll lead straight to destruction. All teen guys, use condoms! All teen girls, keep your legs closed! And all teen lovebirds, keep your clothes on! No children until after education is completed and marriage!
She walks, she talks Pretends everything is fine So young, so sweet Yet everyone she'll try to please will turn their backs on her with ease She wants to belong She'll try to hold on to her fairytale world gone wrong She's losing her grip Reality slips her fairytale world gone wrong She wants you to stay She'll push you away Still can't decide Too much pain inside She runs, she hides as her world divides Can't keep it together Can't pretend forever She wants to belong She'll try to hold on to her fairytale world gone wrong She's losing her grip Reality slips her fairytale world gone wrong
Missing you Wishing hoping you would stay with me Love me Talk to me But it feels like your carefree I want you in my life Needing you I can't do this alone I need a man at home To teach me right from wrong I cant hear you your to far I wanna feel your every Feeling Cant believe your not here To protect me I need you to show me what a man is Why daddy don't you Love me Why don't you care The fear of you leaving I can't bare Losing breathe losing my mind Daddy why want you come Home talk to me Be here for me I needed you the most And you was like a ghost Gone without a story Nothing left to give Daddy how can't you hear My sweet sweet voice saying your name You didn't know i cry and hide all the sorrow and pain Wishing you could love me You won't love me I find love in all the wrong places I protect and hide all hurt faces Don't look at me than you will Probably see the pain From my daddy not loving me Its a hard feeling to Gain
Nothing is wrong Nothing is right I share my thoughts With people who only share my fight Puddle in the past Dare not to look back How easy it is to do with, than out Closed in Sealed tight I keep myselve in a bottle As I tick away Im loaded Not with vaule for I have none Im a bomb Waiting to be undone Floating in space Crack in the glass I can't breathe Its something that doesnt just pass A search to the end Put forth all my devotion Looking for some meaning Finding my way to the bottom of the ocean But this just happens to be me A sailor lost at sea
For now I ride out of darkness To your screaming calls To fight back your endless fears To throw them to their fall For I shall ride to you in white With a crown upon my head Riding of a horse of white For this is what is said! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! For they hurt you, killed you, burned you. For you were not ever them They came to bring the new good news For now this is their end! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! For the ancient wonders built Destroyed due to their cross Men, Women, Children felt The coldness of their loss For the cross with christians coming forth with swords and hatred raging killed children, women, men a'many The reign of Cross now ending! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! Rise up ye old and weary souls! Let the bells now ring! The Gods have arived at last! Oh hear the trumpets sing! Faries from the lakes and rivers Nymphs from oceans deep Angels from the other world Join us in their defiet! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave!
Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Who knows not what good to do You forget your manners Respectful to none but those with a gun And thus having broken all the rules Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Who in spite of a good mother's love Shows no kindness, sympathy, nor compassion You follow not the Golden Rule she taught But seek only ill-gotten crimes of passion Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Thy callused heart strings untuned What innocence is left with in your breast What values have you for those that adored you Having their hope replaced by your dope Is this the life you envisioned Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Your once good name now vulgar Your pants hang low so your butt can show And you believe it's sexy Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Death and violence amidst your comrades Will bring about your destruction Thy family of gang which kill, cheat, and steal You lay still in a red pool of clay as they mock you Inconsiderate Brazen Boy Stand before thy creator For your life for right you tossed for the left Only now do you weep for the Savior
If you believe I was born to fall in love with other men Then, you're not familiar with this life No one is ever born into this filthy sin If it's so, there's was no need for the one called "Jesus Christ" Make no bones about it, we deny Him, when we chose to chose this choice As it is, to hide our guilty conscience and pretend to make peace with it We begin by convincing ourselves that the wrong is merely right And you joined in…with the conspiracy, thinking you were being such a good friend but, instead you helped in making iniquity normal in the end I begged! I pleaded for months with my accomplices! "Please, please repent"! I wanted to embrace what's light and out all these lies! The propagandas of homosexuality! But, then ones who yelled out acceptance loudest were the ones who then, threatened … To shorten my life's and its own expectancies "No, the truth can't get out" they said. Oh! The evil of this society But, now we have to emulate the lie by teaching it to our very little kids Why must we take away their innocence? Why must also start putting confusion into teens? Guess what? If you're not born with it, you can now choose a gender in an elementary classroom quiz God, I am only twenty four years old… Why couldn't I understand what I was doing before it grew too late? I know you love me but, before I loved you, I so much more loved the world In my end, I am glad to have found a true friend and I'm sure he'll miss me as he relates my confession, of a young man who died from aids. This piece is a confession related to me, from a young man named "John" whom I spoke with for several months on Sundays after church. "The whole lifestyle is akin to a brainwashing by peers and one's self" said John. ©copyright 1996
My blind invisibility Helps me to feed your fear, For although you cannot see me, Still you know that I am near, Sometimes I will lash out at you, And drink your sobs sublime, But sometimes instead of chasing you, I'll wait and bide my time, Endless assault and then watching Your tears flow is fun, But once I've drunk them all away, I like to leave you numb, I'll screech at you and dig my claws Deep down into your depths, Then roar with laughter when you Can't remember if you've slept, When I've cornered you, I'll open wide, Engulf you totally, Munch you around my mouth before I choose to set you free, I'll chew you up and spit you out, But if my hunger's true, Sometimes I'll swallow all your sorrows, And so be done with you, If I decide to spare you, Then the best part of my plan Is that you'll wish that I had finished you, So perhaps next time I can. You'll lie alone and desperately Wish I would just drop dead, Well, good luck getting rid of me; I live inside your head.
I am afraid of what my eyes show me They show me violence instead of peace But true love is what i wish to see They trick me They deceive me In relationships they blind me They make my heart stone Because of them, to me real love is unknown I try not to love what my eyes see Because later i realize it's not what it use to be I try to follow my heart and what it feels But these deceiving eyes store feelings using a tight seal Tomorrow will be longer, but my heart will grow stronger And it'll someday be free, but until that day I am afraid of what my eyes show me
She lives with friends. She meets her loves. She starts her work. She sits as a dove. She runs her life. She's got all that. But then she's found Dead on the track.
Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life
Goodbye February 7th You died Leaving my broken heart behind I cried Darkness never looked so nice Depression never made me feel more alive When your birthday comes I will visit your grave Sit beside you and pray Talk to you Wishing I could see you face to face In heaven it won't be the same Cody died February 7th, 2011. He committed suicide. He was born October 16th, 1993. I miss u Cody and I love you forever. ~~
My feelings are so strong Yet I've always done something wrong I've fallen in love once again Yet forbidden from ever touching her skin There's no longer a point in moving on The lyrics will change but it'll still be the same song Another one sided mirror of emotions And no way to put love in motion I believe there's other fish in the sea Great and beautiful mermaids of the deep Yet, my rod must be broken So many years and yet to reel one in Love for me is a virus and i have no immunity It has me sitting and hoping for opportunities The chance to be that perfect one And until then i sit here, fishing under a burning sun
I see a girl who hurting, yet hides the tears she cries, I see a girl, who tries to be brave when 'ere she meets hard times, I see this girl ignore the taunts and jeers of all her "friends", She bears the scorn her own family shows every time that it happens, She has few friends who care for her, who understands her pain, But people try to break her heart by turning her friends to hate, This girl she hides behind a mask of expectance not dread, When deep inside her heart is tearing her dignity to shreds, I know this girl, she is my friend, and I understand her, you see, I feel the pain she feels inside, because that girl lives inside me.
Skies are Blue Trees are green I keep on walking round that redwood tree, I keep on walking around that redwood tree. I've been walking For days on end And I still can't see The light again. So I'll keep on walking round that redwood tree, I'll keep on walking round that redwood tree I've kept on walking till I met you With sea blue eyes A pretty smile, too. So no more walking Round that red wood tree No more walking down that redwood tree.
Dear, Friend I did not want to be your friend, i wanted to be more To laugh and smile with you at the front door I wanted to hold you close, and never let go As together you and i create our own flow I thought i had a chance, i knew i could make you smile Give you bursts of laughter, as your eyes drove me wild I thought i could wipe your tears away, if i ever saw you cry I wanted to learn more, willing to add you in my life Now i realize, that it was all just a dream A wish upon a star, there was nothing real it seems I told you how i felt, but i was labeled only as a friend Even told that if i wasn't cool, we'd never chill again I didn't realize that i was that far away from my goal But no I'm just a friend, once again left in the cold The funny thing is, the next day they had fun There was four of them, they got rid of one I don't know... I guess that I'm lacking Something must be missing, that's why this pain keeps on stacking All i know is it'll be awkward, don't know if I'll talk to her again I'm not sure if i can take, being only your "friend." Sincerely, William Hughes
I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.
Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself
I don't know what it is About you that i Love, I can't stop fighting for you. Even So many people have told me to Forget about you.. But i say I can't! I can't Forget about you, I can't Forget how much i Hurt you. I can't Forget the Fact that i Want you. -Brittany- (thank you for reading.. if you like please comment and rate :) thank you so much)
I am nothing more Than a simple blade of grass -- Walked on and wilting.
It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me
This is not good, my life is misunderstood. Running through a door that just wont open Celebrating a lie that wasnt even chosen. Climbing in a window with no entrance Trying to repent, struggling this instance.. Numbing the pain wont extract this mind game. Facing the publicity minus the fame. Paper to pen I dont know where to begin. Lost in this world Im forced to live in. Send me above or down below At this point it doesnt matter which way I go. Struck from the heart with things I could not come to part This misery excisting is tearing me appart.
Nobody Knows my real name 'Angel' Is what I go by I am freezing cold I don't have money Just, the clothes on my back I am a walking wardrobe I am lonely I smell like crap I am starving hungry I can't find any shelter My clothes are drenched I look like a drowned rat! Violence Upon women Is classed normal Around here! I wonder... If I will survive Another day? Only To wake up And Do this All over, again! "Protect me tonight As,I lay my head to rest" "I love you, dear God" "Goodnight"
I never am so filled with hate As when my best friends congregate, It's true I think they're cruel and dull, And I know the feeling's mutual, But we've stayed together since we met 'Cause we're the best we're going to get, Since then we've never been apart, So still I'm waiting for my life to start.
Sometimes i wish that i could be heartless Untouched by love and its affects To not worry about the pain love brings To never feel the pain of my heart breaking What joy it would bring to erase the pain To not feel love and ignore its harsh sting Covered in an armor impenetrable by love Heart never touched as often as it was But this armor i just don't have And with a broken heart i just can't laugh I have a heart but i wish i did not Then i would not feel all the pain it has brought
You see those girls, always, wearing bright colors all over and they have too much nonsense to chatter on about. The ready, pre-made smiles, and perfection shines from them. They have "so much" to offer. They are the cover of society, and everyone loves them dearly. I'm the girl with the scars. The girl who can't always smile, who sometimes can't be nice, and doesn't like wearing makeup. I have problems, and can't always paint over them with happiness. Which of us is more real? Someday your silly dreams will vanish without a trace. and you'll face reality. One day, I will face it too. Or perhaps I already have?
Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don't worry I'll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I'm just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me **Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**
Transformer... I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire. My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns... I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake... i deserve everything. But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... But then again what should I expect? Secret boyfriends? are you kidding me...? But then again what should i expect... I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
Jacob, im sorry, I'm sorry I've lied, I'm sorry Ive cause all the tears that you've cried. I know I am worthless, I'm not good enough, But even though so you show me truest love. I'lll work on my thinking, I'll work on my words, I'll work and I'll try until my heart just hurts. I swear I'll be good, I swear I'll do better, Cuz baby I want you until death and after.
I gave you my heart, whole and so loving, but you tore it up, then gave the pieces back. But you kept one, keeping me broken, incomplete.
Father, Do not let me be the demon I have created me to be. I am the product of myself and my negativity. I trust You. I love You. I thank You. In Your name, We pray, Amen.
I know you hurt - I know you work, You've never recognized your worth. I feel your pain - its every day, Please let your fears just wash away. I know your scared - it's never fair, Please realize I'm always there. Your hope is gone - this feels so wrong, Forever I shall sing our song. I see your cuts- were stuck in ruts, Please promise me you'll shed no blood. I love your heart - a brand new start, We never will be torn apart. We'll run away - that flawless day, I promise we will be okay.
This feeling, I hate it. How it claws at me, Like caged beasts in my chest. Roaring to life at random, Spontanious moments. Feels like my heart is hardening, Turning to stone. I cannot control these emotional outbursts! These rabid truculent internal fits, How they seem to come fast, Then agonizing me as it fades. With these thoughts I am a hapless soul, How the words eat me alive, Slowly drain me of my stability. How they manifest in my brain is of human instinct, A bare, raw, animalistic instinct. I want, crave for my flesh and blood, But i cannot have what I want, For society wouldn't accept it.
Don thoust not know Deidre's eode Don thoust not know Deidre's eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre's eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre's eode "My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan" I call thy name towards nightfall's reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden's Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre's eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre's eode Don thoust not know Deidre's eode Don thoust not know Deidre's eode
Sweet scents Fill my empty lungs I can hardly relent From singing the unsung Is as before These places I adore But the breath will be my death If my heart keeps racing And I keep embracing The sweet spring air The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then How Can I get back what's already been? Words trace down my throat Bittersweet after taste Gently afloat But becoming a waste It is the same here It is the same there But the sun is not here And the wind is not there Only clear blue tears And the silent dare The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then But please how Can I get back what's already been?
Maybe I was meant to be alone Just me and my saxophone Playing wasteful nights away Practicing all those notes everyday. Staying home and thinking About all the fun I'm missing Having to study for some useless knowledge All because I need to get into college. Why do I have to do this on my own? I hate being alone. My saxophone is my life, but a curse I can see it now: it will be me and my sax in a hearse The mourners there wondering why I died so young Saying I had it all and ended it with a gun. They don't know the life I was living The struggle I went through everyday just sitting Putting a knife to my wrists because I couldn't write Music that was to my delight. They never knew because it was never shown How I hated my life, how I hated being alone. So what should I do? Someone please help me I'm becoming depressed, insane, and just crazy I need someone here to help guide me Someone to motivate me and help me become free. Maybe I'll just say "F-it" and end my life right now But there are too many lives that I will ruin, please god tell me how? How do I get released from this stage of depression? I'm just a teen and I already have so much aggression. I'm so confused about what to do Maybe if I just think for a while, it will come through. Let's see, what about the sax is so appealing? Well, even though the sax is my curse, I love the feeling I love the sound, and how I can take my anger out From all the stress that is being brought about. If it wasn't for my sax, I would have already committed suicide In a grave somewhere next to some wasteful talents who have died So maybe it isn't all that bad Maybe I should be happy with my life and not sad. The sax is the only guide I need in my life So I don't really need this depressing knife. I have decided to keep playing until I am known As the greatest to ever play the saxophone And maybe one day when my sax has lost its tone I will no longer be so utterly alone.
My heart aches, my mind breaks. I am sorry I am not like you, I am sorry I am not like any one of you. For too long it's been too late. I'm sorry I am not unlike her, I'm sorry I am not unlike those who blur. My eye cries, my mouth sighs. For now I shall weep. For now I won't sleep. For so long it's not been so great. I am sorry I'm not any better, I am sorry I'm not any sweeter.
This vain wish to live longer, somewhere, makes me struggle with my vulnerability of having been born with the fear of dying... and before that is accomplished: let me live! I've been told, " It's not possible that time can freeze youth indefinitely," but that intricate illusion was too persistent and real; this boy always believed it would have never faded... now being sorrowful and old, I realize how untrue and contrived it was! Be convivial and consume your time wisely, don't hold the conviction that over-the-hill is the end; you've gathered all the knowledge to survive another year, and on your calendar mark every birthday and celebrate... I will do the same believing that I'd continue walking in eternity as when youth froze time to contradict an undeserved fate without connoting wrong, but being congrous and fair... oh, youth your concession has compensated me for that loss! I should be miserable as anybody else...lamenting and lashing, but what good it would do if not harm me and shorten these days? I enjoy every moment that life gives me...being hopeful for more to come; others cuss, slander and end life demolishing all they had built in their past! I denote my achievements as milestones that everyone will remember, and certainly I'll be sought after for the secrets my words will unfold; and their purpose and extent are very conceivable to the scholar and reader... not deploring the naive idea that time can freeze youth indefinitely.
She sits still... Can you feel the stares? Her eyes cry tears- They are the window to her soul. Inside she is hurting... The years have been unkind. She has not come to open arms-But to fear and closed minds. Fear that grips her every being... And keeps her from herself. Spiraling down, she's out of control. Will she ever stop? She feels the stains upon her. They are heavy and won't wipe away. Holding her down and keeping her alone... These stains have scarred her soul.
Your tear drop fell into my palm, I held it as if it were a jewel to my soul so calm. My thumbs whipped away your troubles and sorrows, You poured your heart out to me like never before, like it was stories. I listened very carefully and silent, Your voice sounded as if it was frightened. So understand when I say that you will not need anyone anymore, Anyone to listen to you, or even smile with you, and I say it from the core. Now a little refreshment for your thought, Tell me that this is what you sought. Did you see this coming, us being so close and in love like steal to steal, Now one more thing, please tell me what we have is real, tell me its real.
Warmth In my skin Fresh faced Embracing sin Gather Retract Sun bathed golden grains Richer Infract Life everlastingly changed Darkness Ahead Impending disaster Silently said Wind Bend Ache Break Slipping through Again Too late Ivory Showing Please Start slowing These savory moments within Gaps Inside Helplessly flowing In this tide Traps my hands in emptiness From the sun filled sky Wind Bend Ache Break Slipping through Again Too late
Gone far Drifting away Crying on one's shoulder. The tears touching the floor indoors. Far gone. Holding Back our sad tears. Moving onto a new Adventure to discover new Things. Gone.
She lies in a pile of bloody red roses She left a note to her folks saying " I cant go on im sorry" It didnt say why But still we cry We are all very sad some of us are mad none of us are glad She'll b greatly missed To me she was like a sis But when will the rumors stop Noone knows the truth not even the cops My pain is great I wish we hadnt been late But when we got there there she lay on her already made bed of Bloody red roses
He loves her. His love for her never ends. "Love is patient, love is kind." The good book says. Time.. It is your best friend if you think about it. It is also your worst enemy; It shows no mercy nor welcomes your white flag. The sinister disguise of Death and his pale green horse, Hung in offices, homes, and churches. 12:08 pm.. Tears paint his face and the rain befriends him. 12:35 pm.. Hugs, kisses, and condolences: "Love never dies." "Love lasts for eternity." "She will always live in you." I don't respond; I lack the strength. I have crafted up a bronze statue in my heart. Forever will my love be for her. Forever will I be her keepsake. The consequence of love is not a tragedy as I once believed. The tragedy is not understanding what love is. The tragedy is not being loved. My heart is now the way it should be.
an innocent child, a nineteen-month-old baby, was senselessly shot; cold drive-by shooter killed a cherished little boy-- with a heartless plot endless tears of pain-- as we remember the love of this lifeless tot *baby was not the intended target
Yesterday, I thought I seen the back of your head, I felt my mind shook as I started to dread, That you were there, But then I realized, It wasn't you. As I left the airport, I got into a truck, that was just like yours, Then all my emotional sores started hurting again. And later on, after seeing, That the friend I wanted to have all to myself in high school, Already had someone to be best friends with, I held back my tears, And fear that maybe I'll never recover From these emotional issues that seem to go on forever. And I feel like I can't keep myself together... Especially when I see two siblings who love one another, Wishing my siblings were close to my age, Then I wouldn't have ever felt like I was in a lonely cage, Envying those who get to have a younger sibling jump into their arms, Whenever I see them at school... She always felt like a little sister for me, I want to protect her, But nowadays, I don't like the way she is some times, And I feel confused, and lonelier when I see that she Likes her other friends more than me. Yet again, more envy, And I feel guilty realizing it's wrong for me to be jealous In friendship... I'll make sure our friendship never ends, But I know that my loneliness will never disappear, And I will never be able to reappear, In school with her again, it hurts, Especially when I don't have someone to share the suffering Of high school work and gym. I still feel hurt and sad, everything in elementary, That made me glad will be pushed away, And I'll probably feel alone everyday... Just like the old days, when I cried at night... And my alarm clock was my nightlight... Now I need Him, to keep me safe, And be my light, Because the hurt that I often feel Is an inner fight for life!
Is that all you care about is how to make your self happy, What about me, what about what I think and want, is it that crappy? You say im irresponsible and I don't know what im doing, You got this stubbornness stuck in your head like you know what your doing. When the fact of the matter is, you don't understand or even tried understanding me, You say im a bad human and very childish and foolish, but im just being free. You need to sometimes close your teeth and just accept what's coming to you, Cause if you keep living in your own little world like this, you'll face Gods truth.
Whenever you are apart from me, I dream of those beautiful moments; that were shared between us, Those closeness of yours, reminds me of you lingering towards me... When you are miles away from me, I close my eyes and see that cute smile on your cute face. Your words keep whispering into my ears when m alone, Somethings which went wrong between us; when you who came to convince me... When you go away from me;I dream of me being with you.. Let's both go into sky; You and Me, no one else.. Will it be like heaven...?? may be yes....... When I dreams of those lovely moments, Glad tears too get scared to roll down; 'Cz you have warned them not to flow down my cheeks.. They too get afraid and are honest to u too.. The moment you entered into my small world, My life changed... Learnt good-bad things from you,everything changed ... I remember the time when your labials were brushed with mine, Felt like that moment will never end... And when we were together in that dark room, I was safe with you. When you r away from me, I miss You and hope that even you do.....
What I feel inside is something I usually hide No one sees the tears behind my smile, the sadness behind the jokes or the pain behind my eyes What I think about is for me to know and for everyone else, just a question I don't show emotions, so everyone thinks I'm fine Even though there's so much more then the happy girl On the outside, everything is fine But once you look inside... You'll see where the pain comes from But you won't be able to tell, behind my angel smile
You open up your heart Paying attention to her every need Say you'll be there forever But she doesn't feel the same You know your the best for her Diffrent from other guys You'll never lie cheat or play her But she doesn't feel the same She's always on your mind Smart and beauty divine Everything about her is so fine But she doesn't feel the same She breaks your heart with every kiss She gives to her fake man YOU KNOW that you're better But she doesn't feel the same What do you do when you have that kind of love When her beauty is like an angel from above When you want to love her and take care of her But she doesn't feel the same
Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I don't want to think about you Please, just let me be. Goodbye, my heart of romance Goodbye, my missing piece Don't worry, hearts will heal with time and, Don't worry, cause you've set me free. Goodbye, my dreams of future Goodbye, my plans for life I'm sorry to forget about you Please, don't ask me why. Goodbye, my loving hero Goodbye, my army soldier I'm trying not to think about it Forget all that I've told you. Goodbye, my ruined soul Goodbye, my broken heart I never want to think about you I want us to be apart. Goodbye, my distant memory Goodbye, my aching love Don't worry, I'll be fine without you There's nothing left for you to hug. Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I don't want to think about you Why can't you just let me be?
It's a crying shame, When love cuts you deeply, When you don't want to hear my name, And when you pretend to have been over me. It's a crying shame, That I still love you, Especially after all the pain I've been through, That you've given me through and through. It's a crying shame, How we both know that we love each other, But don't want our appearance to falter, So we hate each other out of our love. It's a crying shame, That you lie about me, That you blame me, That you hate me. It's a crying shame, That hatred devours you from the love you once felt, Torturing you so, Just let it go. It's a crying shame, That I try to hurt you because you hurt me, That I am filled with anxiety, I have to try to just let it be. It's a crying shame, That you have me to blame. And I think about it everytime I hear your name. It's all a crying shame.
I thought it was 'butterflies in my stomach' I was so excited to be in a new place and try new things... Two minutes later I threw up on the side of the street. I thought I was shaking because you send shivers up and down my spine Your hair, your eyes and that smile... It was cold and I only had my T-shirt on that night I though it was destiny that we, in this place together Are bound by fate to be companions... It was a coincidence and two different agendas I thought I was having a picnic under the stars Laying on my back, with the moon pouring down... It was a street lamp and the concrete was cold and wet I thought that you were a friend You and I to the ends of the earth... You were just a passerby, who taught me a lesson that I'd have rather not learnt so early in life I hear they say that pain is growth turned inside out It better be true... My body hurts like hell this morning, I hope that my spirit will grow from this experience Drinking...a twisted mirage
I just looked at your face and seen no smile, It was so bright and so happy that you could see it from a mile. I can't believe this tragic thing had happened, I'll never see your precious face again cause of what happened. Your eyes are closed and you breath no more, You lay there like and angel, and your soul looking up at the heavens door. The box is cold and all so small, Your spirit begs for it to run away so far. So save me a seat up stairs little sister, cause im coming soon, Ask God for me to forgive my soul cause I have been such a fool. I couldn't protect you when you needed me most, But your protected for ever now by our Lord and our host. Dedication to: Olga Kuznetsova. R.I.P
Somewhere, right now, a child is crying. Somewhere, right now, a child is dying, at the hands of a monster that feels no shame. How could you hurt a child? The eyes of innocent souls marked with pain and fear, scarred forever with wound that will never heal. Somewhere, right now, a girl looks in the mirror and doesn't want to live with what she sees. They call her ugly. They call her stupid. They call her fat or useless or crazy. A child should live with love and kindness. She doesn't want to live at all. Somewhere, right now, a child is praying. She hopes that tonight will never come. When the lights go out the war begins. She'll fight. She'll cry. She'll try to run. But the battle is over. The enemy won. She lies there raw and cold and used with the knowledge that night will come again in her painful nightmare without an end.
When I look at him, It's like the warmest of summer days with the harshness of winter. He's plastic, it seems. He's like an immortal, free of all mortal blemish behind his gleaming screen or the camera lens. I wish to be closer, I feel it in my bones, But the sea parts us Unmercifully. The damned natural barrier. But when he sees me, he sees the gorgeous picture, Oh, blasted lucky picture that graces my image. The photo that looks nothing like me. The charming picture. I look thin and beautiful. The typical man's idea of beauty. The one that shows me with daring rebellion, But portrays what I see as vulnerability. So if he sees me, he won't know me. I'll just be a passing body in the crowd. Another sillhouette in the sea of Pretties.
we wander the streets searching for a place to call home chaos and misunderstanding is our calling card your fears have become our realities the nightmare we once called home has burnt to the ground theres no turning back, we've gone to far our halos are rusted, our wings are burnt and blackened ash and desolate haze covers everything there's no saving us now... we are just your suburban angels the law isn't on our side it hasn't been for some time they say we are a menace to society, trying to live our lives drugs and violence is all we have in common, as it calms our souls we're not as bad as some, we're not sick in the head one more day goes by, we'll barely make it through gunshots and car alarms shatter the midnight silence our halos are rusted, our wings are burnt and blackened ash and desolate haze covers everything there's no saving us now... we are just your suburban angels we challenge the rich, we comfort the broken we've damned ourselves for we lack sanity they say we are a lost cause, failures by there standards fire burns our hearts and yet our hearts are cold we're hardened by life and darkened by sorrow we'll never be like them and that's the way it is we won't go without a fight, we won't just fade away we are the suburban angels our halos are rusted, our wings are burnt and blackened ash and desolate haze covers everything there's no saving us we are a distant memory fading over time but we will still just be the suburban angels
Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views
The sound of fear bellowing from my soul, as I shake excessively The words are no longer words in the duel, I fear the reality I continue to scream, no longer in control My movements are quick, as I do not have rule This nightmare is a reality During the day the nightmare calms, until I arrive home I do not wish to hurt the ones I love, so I try to roam I roam around, until they arrive, trying to help to keep me calm Another night, another match only to continue This nightmare is still a reality My tantrums contain pain, held in from others I wish the day with no more pain,I have never wished to hurt another I continue to try day by day, to help keep this nightmare away The nightmares are a fading reality
No one is here No one is listening All you hear is crying And all I want is for the crying to cease You don't feel my pain You say you do I just want someone that I know will care
When a girl, hears something bad, She can hide it by... She laughs when, she's crying inside, She smiles when, She's genuinely hurt, She closes her eyes, to try to hide back the tears. A girl doesn't like, to show weakness. If she does its because, she trusts you more than, she trusts herself... Think about it...
I never wanted you to see this. The darkest part of me. Something filled with mystery and darkness. You havent seen all of me but you have seen just enough for me to have to leave. Im sorry but I cant let that part of me hurt you. Im starting to care about you and that scares me. I dont want to hurt you. But I dont want to leave. What should I do? What should I do?
The Addiction Of Pornogtaphy... . A Christian brother had a confession. Pornography in his life was an addiction . I couldn't believe the words I began to hear. As a message of hopelessness from his lips began to appear. I began to see tears running down his cheek. "I go to counseling once a week." This was a "man of God" as many believed. True joy and fulfillment were no longer achieved. As the lust in his heart began to burn. Jesus-his once true love-he longed to return. In the coming days and weeks ahead. So many ungodly thoughts entered his head. He began to lose his family and all he cherished. His life before him began to perish Then one night in deep agony, to God, he cried out; "Is this what life is really all about?" "Dear Jesus...in repentance I come to you." "I have sinned against God and my family too." He forsook the things he thought gave him pleasure. And lived according to God's word —his true treasure. Run from every evil temptation & lust of the flesh. Or your life will end up in a huge mess! Pornography in your life will destroy and decay. From it's appearance—you must run away! Enjoy Godly relationships as Christ meant them to be. Walk anew in God's love—Only HE can SET YOU FREE! By Jim Pemberton
A severe façade of loving tolerance Dipped in an argentine semblance The Consuls of The Cross Weaving a sweven of Welkin Where the checkered ones Are never allowed Their souls cast into the flames Of a greater decay The never ending pit Of eternal torment You turn the other cheek The one that wields the clandestine dagger The dreams of being free grow lighter and light The truth is shrouded by sister-Night Clinging onto existence Never eluding the resistance I will never adhere To your Sanguinary Lord Bestowing The Crusader's reign Against the sand and the desert's wane Barraging him over the frame In desperation to appease Screaming and shouting I will wash away your sins Decadence of the ones to throw the stones The ones to enforce the book Has left your lies dry and ready to die No more tears are left to cry No more screams are left to scream No More blood to be split No more graves to be dug
"Why have I awoken?" The thought when night was broken. I pinched myself and groaned, And sat there feeling doomed. Prepared, like the daily routine Rushed and ran to avoid being late "Eat," Dad said. "No father, I'm fine" Along the road, "today I leave all to fate".
From my youth, I knew no goodness Teach me His truth So that I will meet success I hope I'm making little progress From my youth, I knew very little at first Teach me Your truth Or I'll remain in thirst I thirst for His spirit - to renew my faithfulness I have a nourished heart But, evilness broke it apart I had an energetic soul But agony took its toll And now I pray To Him who mends us all To save my young heart From the fear of losing control... Do I still have an innocent, Young heart?
Once I've seen the sun fade, And the summertime die, Please tell me, where is it You are going to fly? I'm destined for the South, A mysterious town, So please take me with you On your journey down, My wings are long-fallen, But please fly me there, So at last I can feel Heaven's breath through my hair, For I know once I land, You will flutter away, And my freedom no longer My Fate can delay.
Brittney sweet Brittney why did you leave that day why would you ever want yourself to go away I know they said you weren't in love but I know what ya'll had was a love from above I guess maybe it was your time to be gods angel but Brittney you left us all mixed up and strangled you were only fifteen when you took your last breath I guess they really did put you and Sean to the test you said in a note your love was like Romeo and Juliet a love ones heart could never forget Sean said even death couldn't do your love apart This you meant because march 20th you stopped your hearts together you lay there in silence as I weep and ask god for his guidance Brittney sweet Brittney why did you have to go away..
Trapped. No where to hide.You scream at me through the door.Though your words still sting me. I sit on the ground alone.Blood drips down like tears. tears run down like rain.The room's spinning. My heart bursts out of my clothes.We got into a fight. Why is unclear. I tried to leave. You hit me. I fell.I started to cry. You kicked me.A sharp pain burst out of my chest. I could not breath. I have little energy,I kicked you. You fell. I ran to our bedroom. I am trapped. No where to hide.I'm weak. I stumble to your Night stand.I see a gun.You break down the door. I grab the gun.You start to choke me, squeezing my throat like you were trying to get some sort of juice out of me. I pull the trigger. BANG!Trapped. No where to hide.Your grip feels looser. Your face in pain. You fall down. i fall into darkness.Free. No need to hide.
You said you'd never walk away, All I wanted was for you to stay. I hold tight to my pain Why did you go I never felt the same. The sky is red You never had time for what I have said. All I wanted was for my parents to stay, But ever since I keep dreading that day. What did I do wrong, I listen to music and write songs. Why did I get left alone, That just means this was never my real home. You cut me open, Just with the words you have spoken. Call me names and bring me down, I promise you'll never see me frown. You won't come in the way of my dreams, You never knew what I really mean. You took my words and spun them around, I will never be that person left on the ground. This is for the day you make me dread, My birthday will be forever dead. I will succeed without you, My friends are all I need that's my crew.
I lost what I was looking for When love to an unschedule detour So bent upon the illusion of control That you mixed your lies with our love And concocted a remedy so toxic That now it hurts even you.. Irony Now you expect me to believe It took countless tears and the dust from my broken heart Just for you to realize that I was the best thing you ever had? hmph.. Well I hope you make friends with loneliness Because pain has already pushed me away
I couldn't go out to the pub with my friends Because she was there. Her and her boyfriend and Her new best friend. And it's just hit me; This isn't love. I'm no expert on what love is, but there's No way it's sitting miserably at home whilst Your sweetheart is out having fun with Other people and therefore Preventing you from being there. Maybe now that's sorted out, I can Finally forget about her, slowly But surely. How hard Can it be? She's just some Girl from the past, After all. Yet whilst I'm writing this, I'm wearing her old jacket.
I laugh at the pains of the heart The emotions replaced by something dark I focus only on staying alive Ignoring the rules that i use to abide by Never again touched by the coldness of the feminine The sad put downs inflicted by the women There denials of my love Now they're at the bottom of my world I laugh in the face of the enemy There words have a bad affect on me The uncontrollable anger that causes me to fight The feeling that another wrong would make this right It seems i was attacked because i was "soft" Embracing the enemy as he hits me But now in the enemies face i scoff I suggest you run if you offend me I laugh at the dark Filled with bliss as the ice embraces my heart A cold shiver runs down my spine And at the world my wrath unwinds My soul replaced by the likes of a tank The barrel pointed straight towards enemy ranks Armor repelling there flimsy guns Its my turn, you guys better run
Prolog: This poem is about how much you need to struggle to 'survive' as an accountable and matured man. Child demands what he desires and the man sacrifices his desire, to fulfill the child's. It's funny how you would be made a king for a day, and then a 'somebody', or even a 'nobody'? Moreover, as you grow up, linearly, the problems breed exponentially like bacteria. Yes, it is true that the assimilative power to bear the offsets increase as you grow up too and how we breathe with the mere hope that one's integrity pays back at some point in life. These verses symbolize the seldom hidden pain as adolescents in antithesis to the trouble-free life of a kid. Being a four year old playing with crayons, it's all about you and your own little world! The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising From learning to put on the bow-tie, To responsibly having the handkerchief in your pocket, From experiencing the toughest times And still standing upright like a ship in a storm Like never before, Manhood, here comes, like a raging warrior, Resilient in form, stronger than its former, And kills your innocence; darkens your heart. The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising Life slips by 'unlived' and under cut-throat competition Little merry-time, patchy hangovers and a far-fetched ambition In trying to enrich and reclassify his social status Life is yet adventurous, travelling rough miles Reshaping himself, constantly adopting new lifestyles, Every so often, he needs a little time, damn-it In the end, faith grows numb in breaking the habit It's flabbergasting dad, how you stood up on your feet Such burden of liability on the shoulders, how can one keep? Politics was detested, conspiracy unheard of. But now only has become an essential strategy for survival Pain only makes him stronger, Thanks Kelly Clarkson; that makes our belief finer And brings a hope of fresh revival How true Darwin sayeth! Fittest subsists, and the rest are extinct species. However, gratitude to such reformation The inception of adulthood, cognizance! Teaches him to be & believe himself; thus push his limits farther Only critical moments, binds his relationships sturdier The journey is tough, the journey is loathed, The journey is necessary, the journey is promising. Inspired by : friends, fam, eminem, linkin park, my fellow poets, my world
I can't get her off my mind, or my heart And second verse same as the first Chorus Lost in my head and the hooks won't come out Lodge so deep in my subconscious My heart beats to the melody of our favorite song You see.. I feel.. but heard, her voice so sweet, like an angels laluby able to slay the savage beast ive caged inside locked so far away but still got out then in she came, and I found out She could very well be the best thing thats ever happened in my crazy life But ive miss read the lyrics, for far too long looking for where i went wrong only to find love is just a sad song.. played by me And now i have a close friend, trying to fix how love met pain, this toxic mix rid my mind of all these tricks Now I cross my fingers hoping this isnt just a remix to my heart beak album
I'm galloping, Galloping through this storm, Rain pounding my cloak, A feeling of blindness coming over, Then again, I wasn't supposed to leave, My warm home, Until the suns wave of light, Comes through my curtains so bright, Anger I see, Will fill my fathers every word, But it is too late, I'm an adventurer, Not a daughter, I was never a good daughter, To thee, He gave me all, Yet all I see is entrapment, His every whim being fulfilled, For his lonesome greed, I will not be like her, Like the mother I loathe, No curiosity would hurt a girl like me, It would turn me to depression, Which would put me to death, So you see, I wish to be free, Free of everyone, But myself, And my greed.
I feel this vampire, destroying my happiness, sucking it away.
I don't know how long it has been since i heard your voice, I don't know why i left without a word, but it was not my choice. You wished me away, so i left without a word, you told me to lose you, that's all i ever heard. Tears ran down my face with every thought of you, not being able to see your smile, it would punch me though. My chest has a whole, that you put there, it hurts some times, but its not like i care. I been hurt to many times before to feel anything at the moment, I thought we had some thing special, but at the end you broke it. So now again i am all alone and I have no shoulder, my life is empty now i am beginning to feel allot colder. You showed me what people can be like, some thing like you, people that hurt others and than walk away like they had nothing to do. But they don't know that they just ripped some ones heart out, and your left alone, once again, bleeding on the ground.
What can you say to me that I haven't already heard? You haven't even said anything, but I know your every word. You'll tell me that you love me; you'll tell me that you care; You'll tell me that through anything, you will always be there. I believed it once, a long time ago, On a star filled night like this. You told me you loved me more then anything, But I never felt it in your kiss. Why is it I still dream of you? I can't get you off my mind, But the love you claimed so strongly before, I still cannot find. I think about you every moment, But you don't even see, The pain you caused so long ago, Still hasn't let me be. I need to leave this all behind, A life of pain and sorrow. So save all your wasted words, For the girl you'll love tomorrow.
You kept making promises And i kept believing How stupid of me Im sorry that I fell for you. I cry over you Its a daily thing Sad songs constantly on repeat Every one reminds me of us. I want to be happy again I want to love and be loved But you just had to enter my life And break my heart so I could only love you. Is this part of your little game Make me believe in you and our love Then break my heart and leave me here To suffer though this and ruin my love life? You have done all of this And so much more to me But thats not even the sad part The sad part is you don't even know..
Take your hand and put it out forward, Than swing out out to the side, c'mon don't be a coward. This is fun, now swing your hips from side to side, Remember all the times you couldnt express yourself and you cried. But now your can swing your legs and feet any way you want, Look for that new move that you looked for your whole life like a hunt. Grab someone by the hand and let them join you in that awesome moment, I promise you, you will love this feeling you are about to feel. Turn up the music and dance your heart out, Move to the beat and go wild and feel like your out of sight. This is your moment, don't let anyone take that away for you, This is not happening too slow and i tell you that that's the truth. Put some head phones on and go to your own world of greatness, Bust a move like you never did before, I promise it's harmless. Make your heart feel what I am feling right now and take my hand, I promise that I will make you smile and scream with joy and stand.
do u love me or do u care what would u do if i wasn't there? is this love or is it lust are u someone i can trust ? can u fix me when im broken using words still unspoken? if my heart was in your hand would you love me and understand, understand the words i speak and understand the things i seek? Do you Would you ?
My Dad Left Me... My Father Found Me! I remember dad tucking me into bed each night. I somehow knew "everything was going to be allright." I remember the Bible stories he had read. Each night before I went to bed. I remember the smile dad had on his face. It was like "love all over the place." Then one night. he left. I didn't know why. The many nights I'd lay awake and cry. How could this happen? I was so sad... I became very upset, angry and mad. How could God let this happen to our family? I thought dad loved us and was happy. He never returned... Never did explain... I began to curse even the mention of his name. Then one day, I read the Bible and began to see... How much Jesus really does love me! I asked him to be the father of my life today. I'll never forget the words he had to say; "I'll be with you each step that is taken." I love you so much... You're never forsaken!" Jesus... my heavenly father, has given me love so precious. I have a relationship with him... that's so nutritious! My dad left me. My (heavenly) father found me. And now each day... His love surrounds me! By JIm Pemberton
She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me
My inner demon tells me that I'm nothing A waste of a person, a male not worth loving This Demon influences me, infiltrates my thoughts Bringing up memories of what i have lost This Demon is a repeating voice in my head A constant reminder that turns my heart into lead He's a heavy burden, that i must carry with me everywhere Changing happy emotions into a stoic despair I watch peoples reactions to me, and he makes me think its disgust This Demon drives me to tears, a man with no guts He's in my quiet moments, when I'm alone by myself And intense emotions are realized and felt When i fight him, it results in an intense rage Anger at myself, and any other factors in my life's stage I'm a man, these sad emotions are beneath me Who are you demon, to try and control me I become angry at my fall downs, anger at my failures Angry at my crush and my failure to tell her This Demon makes me see red, thinking of the many rejections! The looks of disgust whenever i try and show affection! My head yells insults, including the crushes that i thought i once loved Including myself, for being affected by love I can't beat This Demon, he's just to strong But i'll never stop trying, striving for what i long
Wouldn't it be the perfect crime? If I stole your heart, and you stole mine? But instead you stole my heart and I never had yours to begin with, Somehow it took me until now to realize this, You got to know me and I got to know you, But you only got to know me and did what you had to do, You never said anything about you; I did all the talking, You basically read about me and at the end you started walking, To start sharing everything like we had the least, But you still didn't care you just took the last piece, I love you and you love me to, But all you can do is make a man blue, I hold your hand and you hold mine, Our love like a betrayal of two harmonious rhymes, I kept the love and you kept the hate, But you couldn't love you can probably only date. Forever I thought but you're a soul stealer, You don't feel love you're a hate feeler, You're doing all of the most conniving crimes, You shouldn't kill love because now you got to do all the time. ---------- Comment and/or Rate please ;p
Pill after pill The pain still remains, Night after night Glued to this haze thinking of you emotions spread love, hate, everything between covered in shade after slowly going insane this blade, allows emotions to escape through my veins.
Do i have the right to be jealous When other guys around you my thoughts get hellish When others make you laugh or smile I want to use my foot and boot them a mile Yet on you i have no claim Your not mine i have no game Who ever knew a dream could be so vivid When ever i see you, or hear your voice in it Lady i love you today And i will love you tomorrow In my heart you will stay But my claims on you are hollow Heart breaking has me shaking i can't stand the rain My love forsaken from your heart and i feel the pain The image is in my head i just wish i could live it Jealousy is my wound and i just pray i can heal it Just another girl who wasn't into me How many others? lost count around infinity Forgive me its just another bout of jealousy I have no claim because you don't even think of me
Can't stand this mediocre life, These mediocre friends, Mediocre skills which mean that Disappointment never ends, Mediocrity is like my house, Confidence is my door, People keep knocking at it Whilst I cower on the floor, My dreams are mediocre, For they never will occur, Being kept alive for entertainment Like a pet with thorns for fur, I love my keepers for upon me All their affection they bestow, But still they keep me on this leash of life And they will not let me go.
Break my silence Break my pain Fade my memories Stop the rain I feel as if I'm going insane I need my love to hold me again I feel so hurt and broken inside I don't know if I'm still on his mind Does he still think of me night Am I still his one and only light Does he still even love me I still love him I wish I could be in his arms And see him smile again
Stephen Lewis RIP. Murdered 24-01-2009 FALLEN ANGEL Fallen angel, free to roam, Your soul hath gone to play. God took you in his loving arms, To heavens gates that day. Fallen angel, shining star, A brother, son and friend. Harshly taken from this world, Tho' you're with us to the end. Fallen angel spread your wings, In our hearts, your love, we keep. Your memory will shine on through, As we lay you down to sleep. Stephen Lewis RIP A victim of the London culture of knife crime. 24-01-2009
Strain On my back This burden Will burst my veins The strength to hold on I lack Can't shield the attack I shake Under the weight Keep throwing the bricks Until my soul is sick Create my fate Laugh when I cry And dance when I die Venom filled words Burn through the porcelain Stabbing the sword Deeper in blood red skin The hiss Fills my ears Hit Miss One more sear More burning tears Death will come Victory for the meek Can't help but succumb To the power you seek We stand tall A power so great You've become so small No room for your hate Our scars erased By the one deserving The highest place
The day when first I saw her face Is vivid in my mind, For my heart flew up and took My spirits with it to the sky, And every time that she was near, My heart to the heavens was swept, And every time we shared a kiss, Up to the smiling stars it leapt, Until one day she cut the strings That held me to my troublesome tool, Then sharply down to Earth I smashed And wept just like a broken fool, And since my heart I gave away, I've learnt love's not a thing to waste, But now I have no heart to give; Merely teardrops in its place.
Lost in a hidden cave inside this little shell banging on the walls of glass creating these deep splintering cuts can't judge the person hiding when you haven't seen the tears that hide behind these eyes hiding inside the broken shell of a broken heart
I sit here in this room all afternoon Wondering about you If you're okay if you're alright If you're missing me yet Cause I am missing you My mind is racing all the time With thoughts of you and me I try to push them back But they won't leave me alone So I sit up late at night and watch The moon Knowing that you're looking At that same moon At the same time And wonder if you're missing me Cause I am missing you
Stroll through the Illest Empire So much heat feeling like we're living in the fire But we're living under fire Tell me how many shots must it take before my loved ones are crying at my own wake Its time for a break from sad eyes I've seen grown men cry It hurts to tell a loved one good-bye It's the same reason why they died Hearts just too full of pride Mothers praying their young'n wont be a victim of a homicide Too many drive-bys blood shed for a block you really can't call mine Wishing we could turn back time High off of nickels' and dimes Making moves to boost your grind looking for hope But the hustle got us in a head choke Don't blame me for acting crazy cause this how the streets made me and you To watch our back and throw bows and cuss Cause you got to be tough when times are rough I know your asking when will enough be enough And truth is I don't know but this is how it goes down But if I make it out will you smile for me now So many families struggling with poverty I don't judge cause that use to be me Watching mom come home late Barley any food on our plate So young and life we already hate Praying God bring us something great My clothes were cheap imitates and kids called you on them for being fake Knowing mom bust her ass to provide But all your knock offs you begin to hide Ashamed of what you own I know how you feel I been there too I see mothers walking there kids to school And the walk is far when you cant afford a car Mom hoping one day you'll be a star I know about being next to poor Your local neighborhood liquor market is your grocery store Wishing you didn't have to go through that living off of food stamps Cube the neighborhood is a trap but we'll all be free So smile for you and me Even 2pac said smile for me This isn't how its always going to be unless you let it be In our different way we're all a G Cause we're trying to make it straight legit Whatever your hustle never quit but don't lose yourself in it Cause you still got a long ways to go Still got a long time to grow Use what you know to get by or you wont survive Remember to always keep your dreams alive Whatever it is just do it and never try The limit is the sky so keep your heads held high And when you come to a hard road just always know nothing can keep you down You'll be able to come back around So give yourself a chance And I'll smile for you now JUNE '06 B.K.M.jr
Never Have I felt so hurt , Never have I wanted to leave so much, Never have I considered death as an option , All I ever asked for was a little compasion , A little sympathy , Have I asked for too much ? You misunderstood me, Thinking I was a waste of time, Good for nothing type of girl . I did my best , I gave it my all, I tried to explain , to apologize. , Yet, Here I am, misunderstood , once again .
everyday I wake to your face your soft skin set in a smile you make my heart pound and my pulse race and I blame you you make my knees weak when you smile that smile when stare at me like I'm a rare Jewel and I blame you my fingers tremble as they reach your arms pull me in it's cold outside I snuggle close to your warmth my knees shake harder I blame you Next time..... No music plays It's quiet and I read eyes swollen from the fight we had and from the tears that fell out of my eyes I blame you I think and think and remember the time we kissed the time we danced the times there was no music and we still danced the times when I was scared of the thunder and you held me I remember what I want to forget is Goodbye But I don't think I can say it My heart burns when I dare to I want to feel your arms wrap around me and your voice whispering in my ear your lips on mine I blame you that my heart is broken that it swells when I think of you that my legs still shake and quiver when I find you on the street tears spill from my eyes I pick up the phone, my fingers lingering over the buttons i can't dial want to can't.... I miss you My heart can't take it.... more tears my sobs breaking the quiet sobs broken by the phone it's you you say you're sorry I smile just at your voice I've missed it You sound like you've been crying we were always alike that way You say another thing I wait, wanting to hear, but scared you say.... you remember the time we kissed the time we danced the times there was no music and we still danced the times when I was scared of the thunder and you held me you've missed me we both laugh sadly I say that I've missed you we smile, we imagine it I love you.... but I don't say it out loud... at least, not yet. but, I love you forever and always forever and always
I'm Not What You Expected I'm not the kind of person you'd expect to be. I have a lot of faults and sin deep inside of me. I'm not the kind of "Christian" that you had expected. In many of the churches… I'd probably be rejected. I'm not someone you'd invite over for dinner. I'm pretty much a "loser." Never a "winner…" I'm not the kind of person that you would call a "friend." I have so many troubles. I don't know where to begin. I may not be any of these things. And so much more. Not the kind of person you'd allow through your door. I was told there is someone who is there for me… Someone who gives his love and mercy abundantly. I was told that if I come to him, and give him my heart. He'll change my life completely. And give a NEW start! I was told that no matter my faults in this life I live. The son of God has the power to FORGIVE! I may not be the kind of person you'd expect to see. Desiring to be in a place called heaven. For eternity! Jesus is the one that I really need right now! I confess my every sin to him. And humbly bow… I come to you my lord. And worship your name. I'm so glad you're here right now... I'm so glad you came! By Jim Pemberton 10/31/11
A bright Texas sun Beat down upon this day In the middle few should know A teenage soul should stray Stolen by a thief With no apparent motivation This man offered No explanation A mighty blast filled the air She had wronged none All of a sudden Her life was undone Now robbed of her life She shall carry on With the pull of a trigger She was forever gone Yet carry on she shall Carry on Shelly Cole For your passing was Out of your control Happy you shall be In the heavens above Wings you shall have Like that of a dove Your beauty lives on Long past your breath It was near devastating When informed of your death Shelly, O Shelly What has been done? For your eyes where brighter Than that of the sun Though your body lies motionless On that of the floor Your soul shall undoubtedly Live evermore Carry on Shelly Carry on
I hate to see the pain the young so often feel. I wish that I could help. My love for them is real. They need some understanding. They just want to be heard. Where are their parents when they cry? Don't they read their words? They say they hate their lives. They want to end it all. I wish that I could help them and save them from the fall. It hurts to hear their suffering. To know I can't be there. At least I want them all to know how very much I care. When you need understanding or even just a friend, Send a note and say hello. I'll be here till the end.
Sometimes some things just don't work out, And some people never get better, And whilst I'm learning to go without, You're writing me another letter, To keep your hold on me secure, In case he escapes from your cocoon, But worry not, for I am sure You won't need me anytime soon, For as I write this weary verse, He's lifting up your summer dress, And as the pain is getting worse, You're smiling with each soft caress, Lord knows it's going to be tough To purge you from under my skin, But sometimes words are not enough, You're on your own from here on in.
Who said that you could decide my life for me? Did i grant permission for you to choose? Who said that you could make my decisions? Did i let you decide what i lose? You came along and just thought, That i was easy, too raw, But I'm telling you now, I'm like nothing you've ever seen before... Who said that you could say those things for me? Did i give you any right? Who said that you could do that to me, And i wouldn't put up a fight? I'm telling you just one more time, Just making sure you know, Did i ever say you could bully me? I didn't think so...
My heart begins to fail, My feet race along the ground, My body is drenched in a chilled sweat, I scream but don't make a sound, I feel my body tremble, As I frantically try to run, I can hear him coming closer, I hope he doesn't have a gun, There's a warmth on my shoulder now, I can feel his quickened breath, His rough hand connects with my arm, I can feel the shadows of death, All of the light has disappeared, More darkness has taken its place, My body's limp, worn out and weak, Death has finally won this race, But my soul lives on in heaven, To bring justice to those who kill, Vulnerable teenagers like me, By selling them party pills, I got given those party pills, To try with a special friend, Being a fool, I took a few, But death caught me in the end. Copyright Kayla Yovich 2007
You lie down Your head hit the pillow You pull the warm blankets over your cold body Your eyes quickly grow heavy and you fall asleep. This is an escape from your life. Whenever life if hard and circumstances feel unbearable you can always escape to here. So this question arises What is more real? A life filled with anguish and hate Or one that only exists in our minds but gives us that release to a better place. So I ask again What is more real? The feeling of security in this dreamscape Or the hardships you suffer in reality?
The greatest joy I have ever known is knowing you are calling on Monday at five thirty in the morning before school. "Hello, how are you?" and "I'll talk to you later." Every word from hello to goodbye is cherished. Your smile makes me warm inside, and how much you mean to me puts tears in my eyes. I really think I love you. Actually, every fiber of my being is pretty sure I love you. Warmth and acceptance and peace and deep contentment... But there is a drawback. I fear to loose you. You are across the country, a thousand miles away, and I've let you down enough to encourage you to focus on your college work, because that's important to you. and because of that, it's important to me. Except I can't encourage you to leave. I can't encourage you to go. Reader, my dear friend, as selfish as it is, I can't loose you. I always thought that when you found the one you want to be with, the love would make everything work. I never expected it to hurt Because as much as I love you, it would destroy me if you were lost. And I think about loosing you a lot. It's crippling, and horrid, and with something as unrealistic as daydreams, I know what it feels like to burn. I can't imagine what it would do to me if it actually happened. I am afraid to love you. I'm afraid to pick up the phone sometimes when you call, but not for any amount of money in the world or any incentive would I ignore that phone. The reason for that is that i love your laugh. When I'm talking to you, you help clear my mind and I can think. And the biggest reason, Reader, is because I am happy when I talk to you. I love you. And you are precious beyond words and you are everything to me. I have a love that hurts and it scares the crap out of me And I wouldn't trade it for the world.
I wish to breathe my last breath in your arms You're the one to kill me with your charms Everybody coaxed me to avoid you but no You're that someone who I just can't let go This world is cruel it has always made me cry You take me to heaven and teach me to fly You taught me how to deal with my pain Without you barren would my life remain You take me to a different world as I hallucinate And all the pleasures of life you begin to recreate I'm losing my senses someone tell me who am I I know I need you but I don't know why Your absence makes me restless it's you I need I am an addict and you are marijuana my weed I got addicted to you that I intentionally chose Now that I'm addicted I don't mind an overdose -Collice Rodrigues 11/11/2010
Visible defect Variation Soothing effect As my fingertips Run over this formation Through hills and dips Passing pain Now a conversation piece These wash away with the rain These One day will Cease Internal rips And tears Shadowed Stitched with care Only to be shredded Again Slow to heal If only it was let alone And you wouldn't hammer In the sin Full of chagrin Confidence blown I'd rather Show you my scars My skin shattered Then you discover my wounds Ruined Can't keep the seal So slow to heal
Metal demons haunt me so. Towards my skin, their lust doth grow When violaceous ribbons line the sky, With saline crystals up so high, Their voices at night do I hear, Sweetly caressing my worthless ears. Metal demons haunt me so, Invading my thoughts, to and fro. When the violet hour has come for me, Echoing the words of a deep red sea, Pulling my heart into an endless abyss, They promise me that euphoric bliss. Metal demons haunt me so. With a shadowy complexion and metallic glow, With obsidian eyes and a silver tongue On its cold hard edge my heart is strung. Kissing away all the tears and pain, They numb my arm with every stain. Metal demons haunt me so, Demanding a nick or a crimson flow. A line across my alabaster skin, Establishing a bond of blood and kin, Drowning my sorrows in a sanguine pool, These hellish beasts begin their rule. Metal demons haunt me so. Taking control of all I know. Reality melts into an old familiar sting For darkness has taken me under its wing. My soul has finally floated away My body's prepped for them all to play.
The monster became a living, walking nightmare my dive into insanity, no longer perfect, containing a blank stare I should resist, the monster will find me, run away with me Pretend to hear my meager complaints, force me to see what I'm afraid to see Blame and guilt, volleying right and left, up and down It's crashing me closer, with every step, I'm falling to the ground It's all a game, just play along, play the game, play it well Brimming confidence, dissolved in thoughts, of what? I won't tell Demons, devil born souls, run quick, run fast, stand my ground No sense of fear, n sense of foreboding, not even a slight sound High speed, pursuit of hell, bent on going, bent on crashing Giving into the power, life's faster, lights flashing Crash and torment me again, my eyes close after all The beginning of the end for me, feeling numb after the fall Is there a way out? I'm different, distant and moved on Listen to the water, calling, coaxing into death, I'm gone Endless, empty cloud; dreamless oblivion; oxygen, exhalation Am I dead? Still alive? Broken into pieces, I need motivation Reality closes in, walls me in; until there's nothing there Death comes behind me, containing a blank stare.
The time's not yet come, But already it's through, To go where dreamers go, Do what dreamers do.
I wish To demolish my sorrow… I wish To forget the despair and gleefully grow… To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow… My downfalls and my failures… I wish To disappear I wish I had no fear… For God's near… I wish I could be a cheetah in the grassland I wish To store all of my energy for an evening run…I'd never give up in the process I wish My whole spirit could simply sponge in God's nature and make great progress And I truly wish I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God I wish I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships… My countless wishes Brings me down to my weakest point… My countless wishes Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run… I wish I could forgive My daily regrets and breakdowns I wish I could forget My despondency – embracing my frowns I wish To live a life without error Without a care I wish To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions And scare away The darkness that tries to make me give up I wish I had more time to overcome… These waves of emotions My countless wishes Brings me down to my disheartened state… My countless wishes Are like walls from every direction closing in on me… But it's a convenient tool in the future… I wish I could be live in someone else's shoes… But what good would it do? Would it lead me to the narrow pathway? Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away? Would it push away the blues? Could He give me any clues?
I feel Lost Lost in some type of goo.. Goo filled with Tears, Worries, Hate, Sadness. I cant get out. The more i try The more i sink -Brittany- (please comment and rate)
The Stress is too much The pain it causes me I don't know how I handle it I try and try but it just gets worse day by day I hurt from the pain Trips to the doctors Trips to the hospital It gets too hard for me How can I (a girl at 16), deal with something so stressfull It's too much
All of this education And yet no real Summer vacation. I recall all of my K-12 years 9-12 especially That was the essay Question that I often Hated. Where did you Go this summer? I didn't leave Monroe. Hearing that question Over and over again Each year filled my heart With drear and tears Wanted to fall But I had to be tough Hold those tears up Build my imagination And lie about the places That I wanted to see Across the nation. I write I went from Sea to shining sea To see historical beauty Of Washington, D.C. To view the presidential Library of JFK in Boston, Massachussetts, I was truthfully speaking When I was in downtown New Orleans eating po-boys And tasting bananas foster. I went back to a lie To the city of brotherly love, Philadelphia, Named by one of my favorite Scientific statesmen, Ben Franklin. I want to travel past The southern region From the East coast To the West coast For real instead of Telling a story. I've worked hard To gain an education I want to travel the Nation on a summer vacation. I will say today that I have all this education and no summmer vaction I want it to change Starting this year. My traveling from Sea to shining Sea is near. wrote 11-13-10
These days away from all I know Do well to feed my wailing woe, For all the dams for my despair The weight of worry cannot bear, And break my banks of bravery, But I know who is saving me; Each time they swim me to the shore, I stand up stronger than before.
She had a baby today. She's only sixteen. Long summer days soon.
i truly don't know what to do. I can honestly say that I'm attracted to you. Something tells me you feel the same. Whats confusing is that i didn't even try to talk game. I don't know if this is real. And truthfully, your not the only girl that i feel. My heart has been claimed by more then just you. So right now i don't know what to do. Something tells me i shouldn't pass this up. But the same voice is telling me to back up. you and her would have tons of fun. Naw im telling you Will, she's not the one. You are amazing i can't say your not Beleive me you never stray far from my thoughts Please forgive me i can't control how i feel. Your important to me but still....
I thought you'd want to play with me, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd let me sit on your knees and read the comics with you, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to color with me, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to take a walk, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd hug me when I was scared, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to go fishing, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to ride bikes, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to play ball, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to help me pick the new puppy out, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to catch fireflies with me, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to watch T.V. with me, so I asked But you didn't I thought you'd want to play checkers with me, so I asked But you didn't I got older, and I thought you'd want to attend my wedding, so I asked But you didn't You thought I knew you loved me, so you asked me to come home from Iraq safely But I didn't
Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain
The pretty flowers outside Will eventually withered Like my heart that once found happiness I thought it will last forever In the end, I am left alone I am left broken hearted Everything cannot be undone Still, I am hoping For you to be the one What have happened between us? Did I hurt you so badly? But did it ever occur to you That you are so dear to me Is it better to forget? But every time I've tried Tears welled up in my eyes We shared too much memories together I can't bring myself to forget you I can only wish for a miracle For I want to continue loving you Although it is wrong I am still living with our memories Written in this sad love song The pretty skies outside Will eventually darkened Like my heart that once found happiness I thought I will never be hurt In the end, I am left crying I am left with a deep wound Everything cannot be undone Still, I am hoping For you to be the one What have happened between us? Did I hurt you so badly? But did it ever occur to you That you are so dear to me Is it better to forget? But every time I've tried Tears welled up in my eyes We shared too much memories together I can't bring myself to forget you I can only wish for a miracle For I want to continue loving you Although it is wrong I am still living with our memories Written in this sad love song Hiding my trembling heart Pretending to smile at everyone What am I actually expecting? A happy or sad ending? Is it better to forget? But every time I've tried Tears welled up in my eyes We shared too much memories together I can't bring myself to forget you I can only wish for a miracle For I want to continue loving you Although it is wrong I am still living with our memories Written in this sad love song
i once had a mother and a sister and a brother her head was twisted she wished for death and barely missed it she hated her life all she wanted was true love and to become a wife she tried soo hard to end it but her spirit failed to split ************ they sent me away i can still remember grandma coming and helping me pack that day As i alone walked to the car i looked back not understanding the distance so far she shut the door and i knew in that moment she was my mother no more and in that moment let my mind know its time for all of us to just let go months later i got a strange call and i knew sometimes rehab cant fix em` all To: my real mom Whom has placed this horrible curse I call life upon me
Junior High right? YES. Stop feeding my fish. They are not hingry. I fed them the real stuff, Not the fish food u feed my fish. They don't like that fish food. It tasted bad, They dont like you, Stop feeding my fish that drama you like to call fish food. Its not food its drama and it needs to stop. It hurts my fish. It hurts me to see my fish like this. You make them cry. That fish food is expired so stop bringing it up nobody wants it. My fish are full to the rim. Drop it and stop feeding my fish, with your fish food i call drama.
For years I have always cried myself to sleep, But that started after those bullies' words Began to creep Into my mind, My optimism and happiness had become blind. Making me think that I was always alone. I seen how I was bratty and seemed to be happy, But inside, My inner sadness resides. The tears that I cried Were all about me wanting or needing Someone to be by my side. Every night I wished for a less lonelier life. Nobody could come over or sleep over sometimes And I would be doing nothing Except for thinking About my life's meaning. A close friend was all I've been asking for: Someone who would talk to me everyday, Even when the sky's grey. Someone who would listen to me carefully And comfort me later on in the day. All I wanted Was a true friend.
Sadness drained my hazel eyes As you reached out to help me through it all, Surely happiness will be found again. You held me tight through the night Although I didn't want to be around, You said you had to show me something Maybe it will bring a smile to my face. You walked me to your bedroom and locked the door behind you, I didn't think much of it Even though my heart began to race. You pushed me on the bed and ripped my shirt of my back, You said it wouldn't hurt Just to stay quiet. I battled against your strength Only to be found the weaker one, Pain forced its way inside my body, My innocence was taken By the one i called "friend". My back and neck became scratch by the metal bars That supported the bed, My legs were bent and stretched in ways that didn't seem possible. When it was all over I began to cry out to God, "Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. Take away all that I did wrong."
Feels like I'm drowning in my own tears, Is there no one in this world that can take away all my fears? I'm asking for your help, I'm asking for your hand, I know i cant do this with you with a band. Take me as I am and lift me high, I grown up way to fast, I think you can see why. You tell me you know everything before it even comes out of my mouth, but you cant see the fact that im from the south. That's where all the blood, sweat, and tears came from, to only survive, so please don't tell me that you know everything, especially how to dive. Cause if you would of known, you would of done something about it, instead of each time we get into this, you wouldn't throw a fit.
The day I die I'll be free Free from pain Free from hate Free from a broken heart The day I die I'll find peace Peace from my mind Peace from my soul Peace from emotions The day I die I'll find answers Answers of life Answers of death Answers of pain The day I die I will laugh Laugh at my mistakes Laugh at my falls Laugh at myself The day I die I'll remember Remember my family Remember my first love Remember my friends
The first big party of the year Right after the pre-season game A bunch of juniors and seniors take off Driving around down the highway. Pulling up to the designated house Where the parents aren't at home They don't know about the party Their "honor student" has thrown. Music is blasting from speakers all around As people shove away couches to dance Furniture's broken, but nobody cares The party's a once-in-a-lifetime chance. Things start to heat up As guys bring in kegs of beer Even freshmen took a drink, thinking, "Total freedom; there are no parents here!" Pretty soon, every thing's trashed, And the people leave to go home Late at night, right after that party, People pull out onto the road. Pandemonium wreaks havoc Twenty minutes after they leave As all across the small town, Cars begin to weave. Cars crash like dominoes In a simultaneous effect Parents are in a panic Wondering where their children have been left. Bodies are splayed out all over the road As metal tears and glass breaks All of this, because of one little party And because some students chose to drink. Their best friends are in body bags And their parents are engulfed in grief And all because of that one party And that stupid choice to drink. Honor students now lay dead Choir members in bags Band players are gone forever The other stories are just as bad. Alcohol checks are administered And even young ones are to blame "It's not my fault, I was drugged!" One sophmore dares to claim. "It was just a little alcohol," they say, As it rages through their system "I didn't mean to kill anybody, But now, I wish I were with them." The nickname for this awful crash And this tragic night Truly lives up to its name: "The Wicked has take flight." Drinking and driving don't mix And these students learned the hard way It was just a little fun, But their friends won't be back Monday. Some say it wasn't their fault And that everbody did it, But really, everyone's to blame For thinking, "Let's party with the Wicked."
i would be there for her if she cried My love for her still has not died but everytime its shown my heart gets broken Perhaps its time to keep love unspoken so my love for her she does not know My hearts to scarred up for my love to show Sometimes i wonder if we're ment to be Together forever just you and me As friends we've become close i can always tell when you're hiding some hurt i know i should probably show my feelings inside but from a replay of a broken heart i hide as i sit by her inside a cry So scared i let love pass me by.
Glide Slide Through the maze Fake For my sake To keep you distantly near Take This silent token Do not worry I am not broken I'm left with the sea green lake Tangled in my heart I am not sorry One Two Three Switch To keep you Close To keep you Far Hope That one day It will be the same But The two fold rope Tattered it lay Only playing the game Fear Taking over I beg please My dear Don't let it shatter Run Done For the sun I am the fool Who breaks the rules For a moment of fresh air Just to keep you close Just to keep you near So you can slip away
The hardest thing I've done, Is watch you walk away, with her. The hardest thing I've done, Is watch you kiss Her goodbye. The hardest thing I've ever done, Is watch you Love her, instead of me.
When the sun shines Ablaze and about to burst Flames touch the tips of trees Igniting them with shock Bursts of excruciating contentment descends Directing me with the courage for tomorrow Pools of depraved memories wane The lines of sorrow die out in the air When the sun shines When the sun hides Unexpected clouds tumble in to color the sky ashen Casting the shower of days gone by upon your appearance Puddles rematerialize with a commanding poise The reverberations of a virtuous day Days comparable to these are when I finish most dreadful Ambition wearing out of my body When the sun hides
This fortress is coming down; It's been a long time in the making. This bastion can't hold its own; All these walls are shaking.
Nobody told you life was going to be hard. All you have to do is live it and hope the moments you don't want to remember becomes blurs and the ones that stay with you make you who you are. Nothing comes easy, nothing is hard. It's what you make of it...and I just want to be me... I'm tired of how every moment we spend thinking of how different our lives would be turns into a sob fest and we all know how this feels; so what can we do differently? What can I do differently? I'm losing me, changing and I can't stop. No matter how hard I try. I feel like a fish out of water, gasping, trying to survive. Waiting for someone to save me! All I'm getting are flat lines showing that I am dying. The sun is going down now, and noting is left to be said. Slowly I wait for the day to end so that I can sleep and dream the dreams where I am me again. Where I feel alive and happy; instead of a mirrored image of myself… ...and tonight I sleep with the thought that I will wonder aimlessly through the shadows searching for what use to be me finding, a person who no longer exists...
Dustin, My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I'm still in love with. I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would. You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there's nothing we can do about it. I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more? The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had. We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world. The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes. You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear. Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather. I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again. Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn't just scared she's terrified. I do I love my boyfriend, but I don't know who I love more. Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes. So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful "J" necklace, the color of my birthstone. I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible. Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. So if I had the opportunity to tell you one thing that I regret not telling you. It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend. I'm sorry Dustin.
I hear of you crying- You ask of nothing- Just help. I can't be there- Offer a shoulder- Just help. I can't remove him- Make you forget- Just help. I can't Lock a box- Send it away- Make you strong- Confident inside- Just help. If I could, I would, Without a doubt, Kill your pain- Give you the world- Make it rain- Wash your fears away- Forever- My only pedestal Would belong to you- But I can't- I'm sorry- I can give you nothing- Just help. (dedicated to Amanda Straub)
Empty. Used up. Used full-stop. Much as this is true, there's more to say than ever, just Bursting to break through, Stuck in my head, my throat, Clogged up with guilt, I refuse to be a burden but I refuse to fall back down. Tripping round the corner, kick at the dried-up dirt, Scuffs my worn-out shoes, Doesn't make me feel stronger, in control, Washing, shower the shame away, Turn the spray up 'til the skin is burning, Nothing sinks in deep enough, Heart stays cold, unresponsive, Beyond repair, this one's a write-off, Reflection shows a pitiful display, Innocence? Surely must be some? Quickly smear the mask on, They'll never know the goodness has gone, True ugliness comes from within after all. Life's not a dance, mine's a dancefloor, Sorry, full now, you can't come in, The music's dull but they've paid the entrance fee, Stick around for a bit, no intention to stay. Sweet somebody, I need you so bad, It's not enough, never enough, tell me what to do, Take over my eyes, my ears, my mouth, Seize my senses and restore my sense, I think too much, never a good idea When your mind's a mess of melted guesses, Distressing to know so many right answers And lose all the points in the working-out, Still only scratching the surface, Marks so deep don't even show, Everything aches, lie down and exhale, So full of nothing that it can't escape, I'm scooped out like ice-cream when it's frozen solid, And really you should leave it to melt, Not force in the spoon and claw it out again, No wonder it hurts your head to eat, There were smiles and butterflies here, Gone now, The memories remain, prevent starting anew, It'd be half-empty but the rest has spilt, so I have Nothing in my cup, Stop it brain, just go to sleep and Please refrain from waking up.
I came face to face with a basket case and yet stayed in place despite wanting to step back a pace. His eyes glowed with a blue as cold as ice and i did not move for fear of the price. I stood my ground not making a sound as he did the same not looking around only staring me down. So i spoke,comming to a choke and as silence was broke his lips mocked mine as to joke. No more i stated as i assesed and contemplaited, nor did he as he patiently waited. Deciding this was a test,one to be graded, i set to do my best or leave more jaded. (so i spoke yet again to my odd but familiar friend) I don't know what your problem might be as you stand there and stare. Trying to look so frightening, i hope you're aware that i am not scared. (His lips yet again repeated the god awful sin) He mocked sankronizingly every word i had said. I shouted,don't patronize me and don't try to get in my head! Yet once again,he mouthed what i had sang. I sprang with a blow that landed in a bang. I began to weep at what i discovered through my tears, for the blood of my knuckles covered a broken mirror.
I am what I am Not for you to judge Regardless of what you say I'm proud to know I am what I am You may think your better And wanna put me down But in the end I'll stand up and say it proud I am what I am From the blue eyes and the blonde hair All the way to the Irish land I am what I am My ancestors are not all that I am Yes they play a part of me But they can never tell me who to be Cuz I am what I am I used to take it in Never sayin a word Taught to be polite Taught to ignore the feelings That were felt inside Taught to be like everyone around And never say whats on my mind But im sick and tired of bein plain old me I wanna be someone new I wanna be set free So I can stand up and say I'm different and unique And im proud of it to I'm here to stand up and shout I won't change for you Cuz I am what I am And that's the truth We went through many things But we had to overcome We couldn't show the pain and sorrow We had to look as though we were strong We couldn't break, we had to walk tall And couldn't risk the chance to let Someone see us fall Even though this is my past It will never be my future I have learned that it is ok to say I am what I am I will never be told different And if you don't like it That's up to you But just know that you can never change me For I am what I am
You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up
Sometimes when she is on my mind, I let her make my memories blind, And forget how she left me behind, How I would be undermined, My life lit up then thrown aside, The sanity I never did find, How after we would lay entwined, Where I stood would be defined, And she left me to myself remind, That nevermore would she be mine. This truth hurts, and that is why, I think about her all the time.
I talked to my sister today. It's been over eight years. The first word that she wrote began the flood of tears. I said to her simply ''Hey'' she answered simply ''Hey''. The saddest part through all of this was we didn't know what to say. I told her I was crying and I just couldn't stop. She said I shouldn't waste my tears... they continued still to drop. I saw my sister clearly as she was when we were teens. With only one year between us she doesn't know what this means. Nobody thought we were sisters. They knew we were best friends. We even shared a locker... who'd know that's where it ends? She fought to leave the horror of what our lives became. She thought she wanted freedom.... She never was the same. Her life became so twisted between foster homes and pain. I wish I could've helped her but, I was hurting just the same. I told her I was crying and I just couldn't stop. She said I shouldn't waste my tears... they continue still to drop.
A young homeless child Looking for a home but finds none. On my first day at school the mother's not around To comfort me when I'm down-right scared An innocent child of seventeen I find myself locked up in a placement An innocent child now afraid of time Will I forget my goals and dreams? I go to Maryhurst And meet people who care I learn about peer pressure and much more Now comes the time To break through..... The Fear
I wake up in the morning, The smell of your perfume lingering on my skin, I roll over to see if your body still lay there, & I realize everything I loved vanished. I just have these images and scents stuck in my head, I have everything you ever gave me packed away, I look through it again and again each day. Trying to piece the puzzle together, & figure out why we drifted apart. I want to know if you still think about me like I think about you, I want to know if you still have the things I made and gave to you. I just wish I could stop smelling you, Stop thinking about you, Just everything about you brings me to my knees, & I am begging you please, Please just let me forget you. I wake up the next morning and realize, Everything about you was lies.
She sees the pains, Which her native folk have gained. She changed from a little girl To someone who has always had the potential To change her own little personal inner world. As a child she never went through What some other children of her people Had went through themselves. She used to never knew how the roots Of all her people's issues Were and are so controversial. Blessed was she, as a very young child, For not knowing fully all the reasons why. Blessed that she is and will always be Full of feeling, and always quietly wondering "Why?", Now she is filled with new knowledge and a developing sense of wisdom Within her own individual mind. She is now what she had always Envisioned and imagined before, since her elementary days. She is ("I am...") not entirely that same little girl anymore. She is now one of the many of that particular kind. Within her imagination is a longed Wanting of finally revealing The truths she has discovered and How her people must change for the better. Throughout her whole life, which she's lived through so far, She maintains a heart filled with feelings, A mind filled with knowledge And a slight emotional immaturity as representation That her inner child self is still alive on the inside. Her inner and past child self (who was different from all the rest, But was also similar to them when at their best). Never truly knew how far she'd come in life. (As of right now and forever into the future) How she has grown and maintained herself Is how she had made that (her) inner voice in her head and Had also long ago already acknowledged her true self. She still stands in her own believing faith and faith in herself And her lack of prejudice is what makes her naive thinking Make her own days in her life far brighter than what others say As they discourage her from doing Or trying to pursue something grand and part of a divine plan. Even after times and tribulations involving doubting tremble. Blessed she is for being so whole in her own presumed thoughts, Blessed she is for logical thinking based on emotion and feelings. Blessed she will always be, for Christ himself said to a woman (who was suffering from something for more than 12 years), "Your faith is what made you whole." Now she thinks... "Grateful and blessed I am, to the point of tears of joy and sorrow of how I used to doubt. I now forever know what my life will be like beyond tomorrow."
She's locked in silence and fear, behind that cold glass wall. She tries with all her might to not give into her darkest temptations. And grab that stealy cold blade, and watch as her blood comes pouring out. She lays in desperation waiting... For nothing. For everything. Her desperation takes over, begins to control her. She cries out in anguish. Let's it all flow out. Tears, Blood, Love, Family, Her Life. It all comes out in one swift motion of her best friend. Her razor blade. She closes her eyes and clenches her teath. Wishes it would all go away, but she knows there's not such thing. Grew up wanting to die, it was so hard. Wishing she could be normal like everyone else. All she wanted is not to be locked in a box full of emotions. Blood flows down her arm and all she hears is her silent sobs. Watches her life pass infront of her. She fades in and out. Laying in her pool of desperate, worthless blood. One more breath, those last words. I love you mom and dad.
He is not lonely who does not have anyone He is lonely who is alone though he has someone Loneliness never took away my shine It only took the things that pretended to be mine I have been sitting there on that dark bench alone I have felt loneliness running like a shiver to my bone It's the most frightful feeling it's frozen, it's cold The worst of your memories will it unfold Loneliness is better when we choose it our self It's hard to accept when we get it by someone's help Loneliness can make you want to lie in your mothers arm It can make you the only chicken in the poultry farm Loneliness can make you desperate for a call It can make you mad enough to talk to a wall Loneliness can make you sick of living It can kill your faith till you stop believing Loneliness is like the night that slowly creeps upon you Its victim is everybody it doesn't even spare a few Loneliness can make you crave for attention It can steadily engulf you against your intention -Collice Rodrigues 25/09/2011
Her skin white, drained Her expression dark, pained Eyes staring out, completely blank Hair lifeless, dank Her fingers curled, still In her mouth, a cyanide pill
I know you're still doing dope Just by the way you mope You went to get clean You got really mean I've talked to Rick And now you make me sick You lied I cried You assume i can't tell I feel like you're trying to put me under your spell I'm done pretending It's time to come clean
I look into my rearview mirror and see a glimmer of my past I try to see through the eyes of the child that I once was Everything was black and white, every choice so easy to make Yet I wanted to grow up and belong to the world of grown ups They could so whatever they wanted, do whatever they felt like I remember wishing so hard to grow out of my clothes Maybe buy some other fashionable clothes from Gap And maybe then wear some mascara and lipstick, wear high heels Why, I would look just perfect, and that would be all that would matter So on that magical night with stars shining bright in the dark, I made a terrible wish- to be perfect without a single flaw And so I resolved to be the first and to be the best Everything must be perfect, from the start to the finish And bit by bit, I grew out of my childhood And entered my teen years, doomed to be hard and bad Oh, but I was perfect! I would say to myself And I resolved to be that way It was not surprising I had the perfect hair and the perfect looks The perfect figure eight and the most beautiful smile It felt wonderful at first, to be in all the attention, To smile so gaily and feel so wonderful It felt wonderful at first, to be invited To all the parties everyone held Yet, one day, when I looked in the mirror, And tried to find the little girl who had tried so hard to be perfect All I saw was the teenage girl laughing and having fun I realized there was really no me, I was no one Just the perfect girl who could laugh off any thing and every thing Yet, yet my laugh sounded so fake in my ears I wondered if anyone else could see that too I was straining to smile, I felt uncomfortable in my skimpy dress I wanted so bad to be that little girl again, with freedom to choose Whatever she wanted, whatever she liked I wanted to be that little girl whose only pain had been her skinned knees And she was true to herself, told herself the truth even when she was walking in a web of lies I looked for her in my mirror, trying frantically just to see a shadow of her But all I saw was many faces, all different. My mirror was crowded with all the different masks I wore everyday My smile was strained; my eyes had lost their twinkle And I just wanted to start all over again Be that little girl taking away that dreadful wish So before you make a wish to be perfect, think again To thine ownself be true, you can never turn back time To take back your wish to be perfect…
I can't pay attention, They have deprived me of my perception. My nose hurts, my eyes are sore and my frown is painful. In a room of people who never knew him. So sadly only I've seen him in eighth grade. I was the M.C. at his graduation. He ran up to the mic. He thanked for the award. "Thank you", he said. Everyday in my mixed grade class, He would sometimes make everyone laugh. I wasn't close to him, but knew enough From seeing him and his crew everyday.
I find, today, that I am WORTHLESS. Nothing more, Much less. I discover today that I am Useless. For no one will take The tear stained girl. I find all of my faults visible today. I'm tainted in every aspect. I find That I am NOTHING.
They always used to say "You're so lucky" If only they knew the truth What happens behind closed doors The kids who think I'm weird I shouldn't be so upset My life is perfect One sibling, two dogs, parents who are still together Lucky me Walking on eggshells Trying not to give him a reason to notice me Lucky me Hiding the bruises Always so hard to sit down Lucky me Trying to live up to impossible standards Trying not to let him see me cry, To see me weaken Feeling his hand across my face The sting of the slap lingering for hours it seems Lucky me Having to claim this man as my father The one who should love me the most All I want is for him to say he's proud Well I can't try any harder Why doesn't he love me? Why am I his personal punching bag? I just can't take it any longer The thoughts of suicide pulling me in More inviting every day Like a warm blanket engulfing me They always say "lucky you" Yeah. Lucky me.
A tune echoes from a room. Makes me think of them and I. Absence, my aggrieve. A tune plays from a room. Makes me think of him and I. Absence, my yearning is against. A tune heard from a room. Makes me think of me. Absence of my happiness.
Don't pity yourself As much anymore. No more being self-piteous. Because there's someone Always waiting around At every corner of your life. Don't feel sad As much anymore. No more feeling sadness. Because there's other times Always waiting around At every door there's more. Don't remain crestfallen As much anymore. No more painful frowns. Because there's hopes Always waiting around At every road of your life.
I'm always hearing about how they want love Looking for that man that was sent from above Someone to be with them from young to old Or hold them tight when their feeling cold. A man that thinks with only his brain and his heart A man to be with her when its sunny and when its dark But a good man is very hard to find That always seems to be their next line A good man is always closer then you believe Usually a friend who from your side he never leaves All he wants is for a chance to be with you To show you just once what real men do He's always there wiping away you tears Trying so hard to tell you how he feels You pass him by probably as just a friend And end up with a broken heart again.
What did she say when you told her you still loved me? Did she turn away or try to disagree Did you think about her or how she would be? No you were only thinking about me. She stands there now, all alone Facing her fears of the unknown Turning her head on what she's once known Realizing now, she's on her own With no one around to help her choose She stands her ground, not ready to lose Her head held high while hearing the news To accept her fate, she must refuse She tries and tires with all her might To win you back every night She has no plans to give up the fight Any hope is out of sight Her heart is now filled with hatred Will all the love that you desecrated With just that one sentence that you stated Her entire life is now dated Did you ever stop and try to think, Just how far she would sink? How close she was to the brink? Or how it could all end with just one drink? Just one drink to end all the pain Just one little sip to break the chain Just one to do the job, to her disdain Just one and she will die in vain. You don't even care to attend her funeral To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel How could you be such a fool? You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. You come to my door and ring the bell You send thousands of messages to my cell Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell But for all I care you can just go right on to hell I don't want you anymore you Silly boy I am no longer your stupid little toy As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. I am my own person without you I no longer rely on your every move I am no longer clueless on what to do I know now I can move on to someone new. As for the girl that you threw aside I hope you think of her every time you cry You're the whole reason that she died If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. She would have loved you the way you love me But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me I hope you drown in your misery Thank God that sad little girl is finally free Thank God I knew it was time to flee This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.
Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline
When will this stop, how much longer do I have to take all your bull, It seems like everything I do is not good enough for you. I'm tiered of falling asleep at night covered in my own tears, I'm tiered of being your doormat, your one and only that you take out all your anger. When will all this stop? I am running out of words to make it all better. Only if you can feel what I feel. You would die already if you walked through what I walked through. I'm not giving up cause that's just who I am. I'll fight, unlike you give up and throw it all away. So I'm fighting now, and there ain't *****you can do to stop me. The beast is released, get ready for a nightmare you only dreamt of. You won't see me the same ever again. I'm dead to you, you can't call means tour own anymore. If someone will ask me if I no you, I'll deny it with a passion.
It's funny how when you show some one so much love that you can't stand to be away from them. How showing them love makes you go loopy and you get high off it. Well trust me when I say don't give all of your love away cause if you do it might put you in vain and you will feel like no one cares. So trust me dont give all your love away or you'll be in vain for a long, long time.
She was there right in front of me Beauty with no comparison A smile fit for a queen Her body so feminine I glanced and she caught me and looked into my eyes She smiled and i felt as if i fell from the sky My friend asked me if it was her that i'm feeling I said yes she makes my heart hit the ceiling The next day i walk pass and i hear them two talk Again with a broken heart i continued to walk i see her smiling with a teddy bear in her hand Again my love has been captured by another man What she was saying i don't even know I stopped listening when i heard what they did on the floor i continued walking with a smile and dry eyes Numb from emotions and wishing i'd die.
At the beginning it was all so great, but now i am walking away from this state. I loved ever moment that we spent together, I thought we would go on like that forever. But i am sorry to say that you have torn my heart apart, I was praying on my hands and knees from the start. Praying so that this would not happen, but it happened and it ain't stopping. I beet my self in the chest now for letting this go so far, I wish i could just forget this all to remove this scar. The scar that you left on my soul is way too deep, everything poring out of it is nasty and smells so creep. I know that people say to "Forgive and Forget", but i can do only one thing, and its pore it out without a fit. So i am done with this hell people call life, i am on the edge of this earth waiting to survive. Dedicated to the one that broke my heart. No names will be spoken.
I stood in the room staring at that hard wooden floor. Thought of him and then closed the door. I looked back up and everything was black. Suddenly I knew the pain was back. But he loved me. I knew that much. Black and gray rags were scattered everywhere, And all I could do was stare. But he loved me . I knew that much. I sat on his bed and noticed that the tears started to shed. Then I saw a very dark closet. I heard our song and wanted to pause it. I felt my heart slowing with the rhythm. But he loved me. I knew that much. Light began to shine through the enormous window. I looked over, And there...was a shadow. The giant black drapes turned blue. I thought to myself:"This can't be true." Because I knew he loved me. The roses came back to life. And the bed turned white. The rags turned into his clothing. The music slowed and I didn't know what I was being shown. But I loved him. A light came from the closet. A light that was brighter than any of the stars in the sky. I saw a figure,and again,I started to cry. I saw his face,saw his smile, And knew that this was our special place. And he said I love you. Those three words meant the world to me and him . And I said, ...I love you a whole lot more.
All carefully constructed self worth is striped away As the laughing voices breach the wall and Tear away my identity. I am a gangly, awkward teenager— A giant in a fairy world. I am a depressed, needy cutter, Sucking the light out of all conversation. I am a dumb, useless klutz— A mountain troll in Hogwarts A blond tripping over her Chihuahua. I make you laugh in incredulity Then fade to the outskirts of your awareness. I am vulnerable until your casual glance. With no where to run from your half-hearted bullets I die a little more to myself.
Forever; is what you told me when we met, Forever; you told me that you'll be with me, Forever; you told me our love will be Forever is what you saw in me. But is it just a word with cause Or one without meaning? Is it one with great depth and sacrifice Or just an assumption? Forever; i know where my heart will lie Forever; My love will be with you, where ever u go, Forever, i'll await your return with an open heart, Forever; i'll wait till the day we both shall be one. Where ever you are and where ever i am, One thing i know is that we'll both be, Bound by our hearts in our love, forever
Ready. Set. Go! But wait I wasn't ready. Ready. Set. Go! Wait, i need to talk to you Ready. Set. Go! WAIT, I won't go with you Your running and running in one direction Not caring or even talking to me You lied through your teeth About how this was for you and me Ready. Set. Go! I'm not ready Ready. Set. Go! We really need to talk. Ready. Set. Go! WAIT, we really need to talk You wont even wait for me Your making plans all by yourself I cant bet a word in It you and you and only you! Ready. Set. Go! To bad. I'm done. You lost the race. While you ran ahead so far, Another came and took your place. He actually cares, he says the truth He says he loves me \And he means it to. But what about you? You self obsessed And say I'm weird You cuss me out and then propose a ring? I don't need it. I DON'T WANT IT!! When I needed you You ran forward When i DIDN'T need you You came back. So are you Ready? Are you Set? Then GO! and stay that way forever more. I'm Done!
The night has befallen me Rescue me, unchain me Sacred Lorelei Bleeding a passion of royalty Forever I'll follow your Argentine cloak with the most deadly pacts beautiful Witch Sacred Lorelei Tell me did the ravens Hear my cry My misery's plea Sacred Lorelei Was this all just upon a dream Lucidity becoming reality of my Sacred Lorelei A fiat of darkly desire from a most beautiful witch unchaining the burden of my misery All for my Sacred Lorelei
Forever in an ocean. An ocean made of tears, Traveling for a million years. The place of sad emotion.
I hear you calling my name. Why don't you just get out of my heart? I see you with another girl. Why can't you go away? Im trying so hard to vanish you out of my mind. But you keep showing up. Playing & Braking & Teasing my heart. Part of me is dying for you to leave. Part of me is Dying for you to stay. Can't you & me Just leave each other alone?? -Brittany (comment please if you dont mind; i like to hear what you think.... thank you for reading)
Part 1 I write and write, but nothing changes/ I scream and scream, but my voice is silent/ I feel my life is written in stone/ Carved and written by my blood and bones/ You laugh and laugh, I think silent suicide/ You become ashes and smoke, your my cyanide/ You feel your life is written in stone/ We try and try, and we continue to try and strive/ We learn and learn, but as arrogant as a primitive tribe/ Our future, destiny, and life is written in stone/ Part 2 I read the stone slowly/ To analyze the thoughts and process life as I get older/ I understand the written language/ Because it is my thoughts and my soul/ That make me the fish out of the bowl/ I gasp for life, each second becomes precious/ I cannot escape what makes me... me/ I bleed upon the stone, which is written by my own blood/ When will the scar heal/
Her eyes are like moonstones that glow with a faint light Her warmth envelopes me with a feeling that's so nice She trust me with her feelings and i trust her with mine Ignoring the haters as our hands entwine Chills spread through me with her every touch Her eyes look at mine as they fill up with lust We laugh as we walk in the moonlight When she is next to me everything feels so right My mind empties with each and every kiss Eyes mirror mine, she's drowning in bliss She's my angel sent to me from above Together forever enveloped in love All of a sudden everything goes black I open my eyes and realize where I'm at Sadly i get up and gather my school things The love that i felt was only a dream
So many times, I have trusted the Lord… Even though many things in life I couldn't afford. So many times, I would run to Jesus in times of despair. Looking for someone to listen. Someone to care… So many times, I would tell God, I'll live for him… Only to be "tripped up" by another sin. So many times I've grumbled and complained… Bitterness and unhappiness have been "substained…" So many times, I've tried to do my best. Only to find myself, once again in a mess! So many times, Jesus has been there to listen… His blessings in my life is what I've been missin'! So many times, I've read God's word throughout. And scripture tells me that God is what life is all about! So many times, I've refused to answer when Jesus calls… Yet my life seems to be "going over the waterfalls…" This time… I'm going to let Christ "heal my wounded spirit " And accept mercy and love… He's willing to give it! This time… I need so much more of him, and a lot less of me. For I once was so blind. But now… I can SEE! This time…. I'll allow Jesus to be the Lord of my life too… And honestly tell him; "Dear Jesus… I sure LOVE YOU!" This time… I will follow him and seek to do his will… His joy and peace… In my life… He shall fulfill! This time… I am so thankful for this decision I made. There's nothing in this world, for Christ… I would ever trade! By Jim Pemberton 01/06/11
After all this time, I still have pain inside. I'm trying to let it go, but it's so hard. All the lies are still hurting me. I can't get over how you hurt and betrayed me. I wish I could, I wonder why is it so hard? We had plans to be a family, but I guess they'll never come true. The best part of me I gave you, and you take it and left. I loved you from day one, now those days are gone because you decided to leave me. All you had to do was tell me you didn't want to be with me. Loving you was easy, now it's hard to stop. I'm trying to forgive and forget, but I can't. I'm glad it's over, but I miss you. I can't trust or believe anything you say now. Trying to forgive you is so hard, but I have to. So I can stop all this crying and live my life without you.
daydreams of you coming back make my heart tear and crack in these dreams you come to me you look me in the eye and say "im sorry" you say our love was somthing real somthing you truly still feel i start to wonder what this means but in my heart i know they are simply daydreams
Layers and layers of cloud Fill the sky to the brim Just as thoughts of you Fill my mind. The fact that no matter What I do, Or what I say, Nothing will change your feelings. Deep, heather gray clouds Blow in with the occasional gust. I smell the rain brewing, But do not care. Water falls In sheets, And I am soon blanketed In rain, and Grief. The drops hit my cheeks, And burn as they slide down. Forming behind my eye Is a different kind of drop. It escapes, Runs its course down my cheek, And trickles around the Ridges of my mouth, Leaving a salty taste. As the tear hits the ground, A blast of thunder sounds- Heartbreak.
So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?
Deleted the memories of what we had I am not going to lie i had a blast but now its time to end this at last forget about everything put it behind us leave it in our past where did the time go? It sure went fast Im sorry about everything it all even left me with a gasp. Deleting the memories of what we had... By: Raymond T Padilla
I'm turning stale; No feelings inside me. Can't drink me down; I burn like cold coffee.
Shame is what I felt when I've known you, 'Cause I thought I need to hate you But with a glance I dreamt of you, With just a smile I learned to love you. Broad shoulders with a good looking face. Eyes and lashes like those of a doll's face. But do I need to love how you look? Lucky I am you're not a crook. Sugar and spice and everything nice. Things that would describe you. Rebel but sweet and oh so neat, Hope that you could see me through. Fancy I am it's just a crush, For I don't want my heart to crash. Hurting is not what I meant, But to be hurt is need to be bent. Need not to look for a crystal ball, Or a lady with a Heart of gall. Deck of cards is not on the list, It's just you that I need, and boom! There It Is. My heart I hope that you'll accept. Feelings that are not easy to forget. It's just love that I need from you, To embrace me in your arms as you say I love you. So true as it is and wish it wouldn't stop, For I need someone like you to fill my heart up. Warmth of your caress is what I need, For I'm a needy of your love indeed. It's just your hands that would comfort me, Through rainy days of each morning. Of autumn and winter, of summer and fall There's nothing that would stop me to love and to fall. The caress I need would fade, For I do not forget that you're in a cage. Committed to someone else is what I Knew But do I have to wait for you? The sand fills the glass as days went by. Waiting for you makes it easy for me to die. I'll just lie again so that the pain will end. Cry again caused by lies that never ends. Lie to my lips is what I did. My heart broke again as what I said. Afraid to sleep again to dream of you. Afraid to love again because of you. Moving on now is my task For there's nothing much for you to ask. You just committed a sin with your deed. You hurt the both of us, of what you did. Now that you're in a cage, I won't trouble. Because maybe there is someone... like you were doubled. Wish I could find him and lead me away, But what's this? He's leading me to stay. I'm not here to stay because I wanted to. He led me here, because he knows that I love you. To set me free is what he wants. Now I have to start again and flip my wand. To wait for you now is my only choice. To love you secretly is not a poise. Don't worry I'll be quiet, for them not to hear, My feelings for you, for I love you so dear.
Time is slipping away, I just don't want to stay. Why can't you just let me stray, The world of Black and White, has so much Gray. Depressing days come and go, My heart is broken, I'm all alone. The world turns their backs and ignores nobody can know, My heart without it's very own. Days grow darker each minute, I never wanted to be so deep in it. I'm just stuck in this little pit, Just another blow, another hit. I lay in a ball on the dirt of my friend's grave, Rain falling on my skin the weight, how can i be saved. The mud that changes the dirt, stains my clothes, This depression in my cold heart, every second it grows.
How did you know Behind her bright blue eyes A sad girl cries Reaching out for help The mother just stares As the father just doesn't care She sits there in the dark Tears fill her bright blue eyes As the sad girl cries How did you know
Finally I can let you go, Why keep u? You don't deserve me, You never did. Always using me, Used me for what you want, Which was anything. You wasn't fair, but hey life isn't fair right? You was there for me in the beginning, but u grew from me, I was there for you, Through every problem we had, I comforted you, Gave you encouraging words, Everything I did was out of love, It was my duty as a spouse to you, But u hurted me, Forgetting about my pain, You always wanted things your way, Going through for three years, You wouldn't imagine the stress, The pain, The deceit i went through, Trying to forget my past, I was loving you, But u said It wasn't enough, And you sure didn't care to help, You always thought about your needs, Your life that included me as a comforter, Not a lover, So think about you now, Go with whoever, Forget our engagement, Forget we ever met, Because I am going places, Places that you would imagine. Woooooo! Finally I am free!!!
All stars could be brighter All hearts could be warmer If i could find a place in your heart youve written a sad song the one i found you were laying on the floor holding it close to your heart I dont think i deserved this My heart turned into ice Melted at the sight of your pictures I held your hand while you were sleeping in your casket I kissed your cheek While people passed your viewing Youve written a sad song the one i found you were laying on the floor Holding it close to your heart What would it take for things to be quiet? passing the sound of your voice While laying on the bed we once slept in Holding eachother for warmth youve written the saddest song No one can recover Our last memory of you Laying helpless on the floor I could have done better Finding my way into your heart
If it wasn't you, would I have to hide it? If it wasn't "wrong", would you try to fight it? Would it change anything on your part? Would you give me a deeper look? It drives me slowly crazy, My eyes always needing to look your way Just because its not the "normal" way, I'm afraid of you turning away. Would I still get wrapped up in your eyes? If I was allowed to really look? Would these stolen glances lose their touch? Would I lose these feelings of forbidden lust? Would I ever regret it? If i ever tried to forget it?
I cant even bear to tell the truth any more I love you so much but for some reason every time i see i start to think of what i just did i lied to you i cant figure out why? but every time i see you i want to cry but i try to make myself so strong. which i really know that in real life if you didn't know me i would not be put in this situation but i feel so bad cause i know you love me but every time you tell me you love me i end up going with some one else i know deep down that i just did something wrong. Every time i look at you i seem to get butterflies in my stomach and every time i walk away . I just seem to never get to tell you the truth and now i know that in real life that i cant ever bear to tell you the truth now that i know that i am sure that i really "love you." here is to the truth.
you were supposed to stay forever you were supposed to tell me of the war you were supposed to come to my wedding but you won't be... you left... I didn't want you to... but the cancer got you... and you left... they should have found it earlier... but they ran all the wrong tests and they couldn't find it... not til it was too late... so the cancer ate away at you... it ate and ate and ate... there was nothing to be done all there was to be done was to wait... so we did. we waited, and waited, and waited... we waited less than a month... the longest month of my life... until January 24, 2008, around 3 a.m. she woke up and found you dead... and now you're gone... no matter how bad I want you to be here... You're Gone...
When we started You had a girl But yall soon fall apart Yall were off and on And i was there to pick up the pieces Then when it looked like there could be a me and you My parents got in the way So then we began to drift apart And i was beginning to feel like there was another Another better than I Which is what i felt was in your eyes She gave it up And you were stuck I held back And you left me hang Like I was just another plake To add to your wall of females Another prize Another heart that was broken My Heart
Don't you wish you could fly? Don't you wish you could fly? Decisions are capable of control, Then you feel like a mole, Deep in the ground, Far away from sound. Things get you down, You can't fit into the crown, You lay in front of an ice cream shop, Your friends are playing ninja in the handicap spot. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Dreaming of a beautiful land, When you dug your feet into the sand, I get beaten, When your so smitten, Because you're not mine. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Fly, fly, fly. Fly like a butterfly, Away from troubles, That make you cry, When come in doubles. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Flap your wings and, Fly.
Cousin i think I've been looking a little longer Searching for love since i was way younger Take all your heartbreak and times it by two Then maybe you'll have a glimpse of what I've been through Because i have moved so often in my life I've had many more women to stab my heart with a knife And you know how there's always someone telling you you won't suffice? That's at every school, and I've moved more then thrice You know me cousin, i still have that armor But cracks in it have been started to show I don't know if I'll last that much longer Waiting for my heart's blacksmith to show
How can I forget you, your smile, your kind words? How can I stop dreaming, stop hoping and wishing? Your voice, your eyes, your hands always present, stirring memories, each sweet thing said in my mind like a broken love song. Memories burning, scalding and springing suddenly, violently. So many rotting promises and half lost wishes and yet... I can't let go.
If I had a picture of you, I would look at it every day. If I had an oppurtunity, I would go see you. If I had not been so daft, I would still have you. If I had any luck, I would get to talk to you. If I had any idea what to say, I would send you a letter. If I had a sprig of mistletoe, I would remember you. If I had any sense at all, I would let you go. If I had a song to sing, I would surround you in verse. If I had your heart still, I would hold it close to mine. If I had you at all, I would write a poem of a different kind.
This hurts to much i start to cry my life seems so help less you cant even imagine what i have been through i cry almost every every night my heart achs so much just take the knife and cut my wrists make the pain all go away. you dont understand i was raped once and it hurt like hell i had no support once so ever and i was used twice just please i ask you take that knife and take my life i cant bear to see another day. it hurts like hell telling you the truth i cant belive that i am still here but the only reason i stick around is cause i found my one true love that makes my heart fell all better again, he loves me so much he would kill for me i dont understand i love him so much but some reason i always end up hurting him in away thati thought was not possible.
Unsure I stand, Of how to feel, Distraught within, without, Although I planned, To be as steel, I'm soft without a doubt, A 'she' has come, To bend my mind, And claim my smitten soul, Stole my freedom, And so I find, I'm robbed of self-control, O siren maid, Such strong dark spells, You have cast on my heart, A heart that has strayed, From where it dwells, Will surely fall apart, Where can I go? What can I do? When will this madness end? If I feel so, Then so must you, Or do you just pretend? You give me pain, But take my peace, A poor exchange for pleasure, I struggle in vain, To earn your kiss, A fool beguiled by treasure.
Just like you I wanted to sing Just like you I wanted to bling I don't know why I wanted to be just like You Just like you I breezed Throigh life Just like you I picked up a knife Just like you I started fights And just like that me just like you was gone
Why do you keep me chained up? Why do you keep me here? All I wanted to do was roam, but You played a part in my fears Your sadistic and your cunning, well I think I know your name Aren't you called life? Shouldn't you be a game? Life...Just pass me by... Life...Just pass me by... If I take you seriously I think I'll choke If I take you lightly you'll leave me out Why do you do this to me? You're gonna suck me dry, no doubt I always thought you were a joker, but Now I see your true intentions You are just like one of us and Some of us are infections Life...Just pass me by... Life...It's all a lie...Just pass me...by...
It saddens me to know this is the way I felt at 19 yrs old.. Everybody keeps telling me ill be just fine But they aint tellling me when I can't sit here and pretend That I don't have a broken heart and there's nothing to mend Night after night prayer after prayer I always send Hold my head at the same time it feels so heavy Wanna be happy but its like the Lord won't let me Forgive me father I know I have sinned thank you for my blessings May I ask you one more thing?
For once I want the sun, but I'm denied it, Don't need to keep the rain out; I provide it, I know that people think I'm too compliant, The real trouble is, I'm too reliant, Simply can't stand this isolation, No-one else is struggling in this situation, They're all bowled over by their first freedom, No longer have the time to see that I need them, Even when I'm home, the tears keep streaming, All through the day and again when I'm dreaming, I cannot eat, yet I'm getting bigger, Food is my weapon and life is the trigger, But always, it's only my tears that I'm tasting, Six months and a grand's worth of therapy I'm wasting, Supposedly my chance to turn my life 'round, I shun it and grind my face into the ground, So sick of all these plastic smiles and pretences, Still wishing that car crash had had different consequences, Still kicking myself for my cowardice and doubt, Mere scratches, not deep enough to get me out, I've been ready for years now to tell you goodbye, So how many times do I have to die? I'll leave it 'til Christmas, see how I've contended, Although it feels my life has already ended.
No one does it better than I. Be they outgoing or a touch shy. And to sit and think about it now, And I tend to really wonder how I got in the business of stealing hearts. Whispers of a life draw them in. Sweet smiles and laughter keep them pinned. And in an instant, I think we could be. And then I remember we're dealing with me. Trapping souls forever is a tricky art. I've never set out to hurt a soul, But when I leave, they're never whole. And I sulk for two or three. And then I move, 'cause I'm me. In the end, I break them apart. Falling in love is never my plan. But then again, such a dashing man. And I guess I have a charming way. And I guess I make them want to stay. Is there ever an end to what I start? I've never asked for all these hearts. I was searching for the missing parts. And then I wake up one day and see. And then realize it's not meant to be. When composing love, I'm your Mozart. I'll come into your life, and make you fall. I'll take your heart, I'll take it all.
Never have I heard such a sweet voice. Never have I heard such beautiful words. You never ceased to find a way to amaze my ears, my eyes, and my heart. But now I realize how much more I am missing. You seem to understand my tears but yet you continue to cause them, because when I hear your voice I collapse on the floor, my eyes begin to pour. I lay there thinking of what I lost. You probably would sit there and laugh it off. I feel so wrong. You raped my heart and threw it on the ground. It doesn't matter what time of the day it is, it hurts the same to me. When I see your face I start to cry. Put my head inside my hands, Try and gain control back again. It has never worked once, but its the only hope I have. One day you will look back and see what you never saw before. I will still be here for you. But its when you rip out my heart and suck the love clean then shove it back inside and forget all about me that I cannot comprehend. I feel my arm reaching for the gun. Tears run down my face for the last time. I put the bullet in the clip. load the clip in the gun. Cock the pistol back and Whisper "wont this be fun". I put it to my forehead, Nothing told me to stop. That night you ripped out my heart you took my soul with it. I place my finger on the trigger and pull as hard as I can. but before the bullet hits my brain and my life comes to an end, one final thought runs through my head. "I wish you could love me the way I loved you. I wish I could show you all the things I did for you." But now that's not possible, there's a bullet in my head. I wish I could say I love you just one last time, but it doesn't matter now, for I am already dead...
I want the world to burn, I want to disappear. I want to stop the pain I feel, I don't want to be here. I feel overwhelmed, And wish to die. Just to feel a simple emotion, When I cannot cry. I dream of ending my suffering, Of slicing through every vein. But each time I try to escape, My efforts are in vain. I dream of emptiness, Because I cannot feel the joy. I dream, But feel no release. I live a life I destroy. And each time I cut, I come closer to what I fear. I wonder what would happen, If I let go and lie here. I've often thought of dying, So much better than crying. I dream of it, Like a fantasy. A dream I want, But cannot see. There are so many times I've had the chance, The chance to end it all. Yet I keep falling, Falling and failing just to stall. Maybe I'll finally make it, Kill myself and end the call. Then I'll find peace and end my endless fall. But don't cry for me, I feel nothing at all. I'm better off dead, Than enduring the pain of my brawl.
Murder of the innocent............. One door opens, as another door shuts, Drugs, knives, coppers, over dressed sluts. Colours worn, weapons in hand, Children dying in a blood tainted land. No more hatred, no weapons to yield, No more coffins in a mud sodden field. Hatred now gone, no more youngsters to die, No need for anger at the places they lie. When the door opens, the door opens wide, No more denying, no places to hide. No time for distance, no walking away, No children dying, no murders today......... In memory of the victims of the British culture of knife crime.
Anger lives inside of you REsiding in your heart Bitterness controls your actions lonliness consumes you whole chips on each shoulder using wrath to justify the past How long can that really last? using anger to show other emotions smothering any joy you have affecting those around you trying to use means to justify but who really gains anything? Your heart is crushed by the weight of vengeful thoughts and your fire consumes all you encounter leaving joy in a pile of ashes of what once was and what now can never be
God Brought A Healing To My Troubled Mind… I used to allow many thoughts to enter my mind. There were good and bad ones... Just about every kind. My family thought I was being a "good Christian." I never did anything that raised "a suspicion." I went to church every week and did the "Sunday thing." I had no idea the kind of life my thoughts would bring. I felt much "turmoil" of what was in my head. "How much longer can I take this?" Were the words I said. As there were many bad thoughts that seemed to "burn." Those around me didn't know or were concerned. I needed some help. And I needed it fast! I didn't know how much longer I would last! With no friend to help.., I decided to pray. This was my time with God! This was my day! I cried out to God with a voice of confession; "Dear Jesus rule over my mind and take possession!" As I read God's word... Philippians 4:8 was found. Virtue and wholeness in my life needed to abound! I asked and begged God to help me to obey it! I gave my commitment to him. And not just "say it." A love for him as a friend was found and did bring. His peace and love "washed away" the evil things. Christ restored my life and my mind was renewed. He set me free! Now, I'm BRAND NEW! Won't you allow God to bring his love to your soul? With him in your life... All darkness will GO! By Jim Pemberton
Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be
I got cut so deep Underneath that cut is blood The red liquid Inside me I feel pain Throughout my arm there is pain The pain knowing I did something I would regret Behind me I hear laughter Knowing those people are laughing at what I did to myself Since then nothing has been the same Around me is dirty looks and laughter They think I'm not human Within me there is a heart A heart that can never go back Against all odds Who would think I would have become like this As soon as I walk through the front door I run I run to my room and cry But not soon later I realize the red liquid dripping from my arm I have done it once again And now I am alone
Many many things anger me Things that sadden most When tears leave a womans eyes I'm prepared to do the worst I truly don't understand Why a womans tears can do that to a man Her face contorted in saddness Has the power to ignite the madness I feel as if i wasn't there for her Anger at the thing that made her sad Revenge runs deep in my heart Right after i try to make her glad Tears leave my eyes while i hit The solid white wall Dissapointed by the fact That i didn't hear her call
You talk about commitment, But I see infidelity. Where's that reality of Christian love and unity? People come to Church for identity search... Where's that serenity? Christ is our security. Broken hearts... Messed up lives... Grieving families... I heard the kid say, "I gotta go! My life's gonna blow!" I see sadness in family lives... There's a friction, Love is like ancient.
Dear Friend, I just had to write to tell you how much i love and care for you like a sister. The other day, i saw you walking and laughing with some of your other friends; i hoped you'd want me to walk along with you, too. So, I painted a picture of Hello Kitty and sent it to your house via mail. I waited; You never called. I just kept on loving and caring for you like a sister as best as I could. At home that night, I kept thinking about how lucky i was to have you as a friend. The next morning, I called you to see if maybe you wanted to come over but the line was busy. So, i waited a little bit and called again. Turns out you were at a friend's house. Again. So I went to my other friend for advice for how to get you to just talk to me. She said it sounded like you weren't my friend So I thought " Maybe if I unfriend her for a month, she'll notice!" You didn't. It's been almost two months. I just want to know the truth..... Because you are either my friend or you are not. I personally would like to know the truth. So much for going to heaven together, Callie R.
I refuse to sleep And prefer to cry, Yet I wish to rest forever. The truth is On some days I cannot keep myself together. Tears falling from my eyes Silently drowning me Throughout my mind... My soul's tomorrow Is full of sorrow. Hidden depressions Deeper than the seas. Waves have thrown me Into a cave of loneliness and regret, Leaving me with only a wish of death.
I lay in bed, Thinking of you. Of what could've been; What it should be now. You know I love you, And I know you love me back. So what's wrong with this picture?, Why arn't we together?
Blame. The very word creates acid on every tongue that speaks it. its dark and clumped, forming a giant ball of black sticky goo. It layers itself on the skin of every body that is blamed for a wrong they did not do. a crime that they did not commit. It's a song that impales those who play the keys on a piano. A morbid song that slays the hearts of lovers in the night. Its a siren who sings like the lark of the morning sun, shining her wings, revealing the diamond glow they bring upon themselves, she sings her out of tune lyrics luring men towards her grace. disguising her ugliness, with an appalling attractive face. She is blame. Luring men into her claws, caressing them sweetly, cursing and confusing and corrupting their minds; bringing shame upon them. Such trickery is a mask, a dark veil that covers the eyes and prevents the sight. blocking out any sort of light. she comes out of the dark and tortured night, bringing with her, her dark fame. For every human male knows her as strega; fulfilling her dark quest is a shame, yet, it is she who does not hold in her ;cold, raw claws; the blame.
I just can't keep "doing this" any longer! What am I doing? I began to wonder… This "sin" just keeps dragging me further down… What do I do? There's no one around??? This "thing" has got a hold on me… I cry every night… I want to be FREE! I've tried and tried… But to no avail… Just when I think I have victory… I fail! I've read in scripture of a power that I haven't seen. I read of a savior who can do ANYTHING! Why don't I give him a try? I've nothing to lose! I've been so hurt, worn out and abused..… To you, dear Jesus… I confess my every sin. And can feel your love from deep within! Thank you Jesus! For giving me a joy I never knew… I don't know where I'd be if not for YOU! You've brought to my life a peace I never had. For all you've done for me. I am so glad! Won't YOU give your burdens to this one… I call friend? And experience the joy of being born again? Please come to him now. Why not this hour? And experience his life-changing power! By Jim Pemberton 01/17/10
day and night i sit and wonder when is my dad coming home he writes to me about the war and the things that has happened "dear son soon I'll be home and i promise you won't recognize me today i killed at 5 japs and took under my wing a boy not much older than you and this makes me wish i was home with you." one day I'll see my dad and hope that he looks the same day after day after day yet no sign that my dad is okay then one day an army truck appears inside is a man and a young boy right about my age. they knock on my door and i open it they told that my dad was dead and the boy in front of me was my twin and he was the boy that my father took under his wing . i gave him a hug and cried for the lost of my father they told that is 15 japs and a missile that wiped my father out. day and night with a new brother by my side i wait to be with my lost father again
Hatred Spite,Disdain Hurting,Yelling,Breaking Crestfallen,Forlorn,Regretful,Dark Animosity
A fire in my heart Blazes brightly- for the entire world to see Caressing the wind Dancing on the wood Effortlessly glowing Feverishly hot
Tears of blood is dripping down form my eyes. My heart feels like a stampede of horse has just ran over it a hundred times. It feels so lifeless and weak. We used to be one. Now we are none. Our love was strong. We can fall off a plane and never hit rock bottom. A boat can sink, but we would not drown. I cannot figure out what I did wrong. I feel like a lyric of a love song. This feeling inside of me, is this how the rest of my life would be. I feel so abused. I feel so used. I feel like someone just threw hot acid all over my body. Though my love for you will never change, I know that you hear has been rearranged. I am still crying because I accepted being heart broken by the one and only that mistaken. My eyes are now 'awaken.'
I wrote you a letter- In it, everything I want you to know And how I feel After all this time. Not a single tear Is shed-you're not worth it. Not anymore. No hard feelings. I knew you couldn't get it. I erased Word By Word- Reading it over and Wondering if we'll Ever speak again and What would be said. Word after word, They disappear Along with the bottled up Emotions I had for you. Once the last word Is gone, All that's left Is a blank page- A new chance to start over, And my name That's signed at the bottom. All that you left Was a memory, And a sad, confused girl That grew and matured Into a more realistic, Aware young lady. I grew to love you, And I grew to let you go- All that's left is a memory.
I look out the window, Yet nothing is there, The darkness surrounds me, As i'm frozen in fear, Then all of a sudden, The night is ablaze, Fire and screaming, I'm stunned in a daze, Communities broken, Families torn apart, Who could have done this, And how did it start, They had no real reason, To set it alight, To cause so much chaos, In my town that night, My small little school, Was burnt to the ground, But the very next day, There was more to be found, Bodies lay broken, Ripped apart by a sword, This is now what happens, When our youth got bored. Copyright Kayla Yovich 2006
The stars aren't out tonight And I can't see the light in your eyes The new moon makes the night too dark It's getting harder and harder to find my way The light fades to even deeper shades of gray Lips grow colder and breathing gets slower I can't seem to bring you back to life Please don't leave me. I'm not strong enough The pieces you held are still too fragile Falling to the floor, glistening like new born stars We share the last breath and my eyes shut tight A single tear rolls down your cheek The last time I call you mine The last time you call me baby The black attire goes with the parents who bury their children Red rose falling against the mourning skies This is the end of a love story that never was
The world is clawing at the window, If it's unlocked then you've nothing to fear, Crawl round the corner and catch your breath, Won't be long before you start to disappear, It's too late, much too late, So surrender as they sleep, Retching as you release it, And dig it in deep, Over and over, scrape it all out, Everywhere's weeping, choke back a cry, It's too strong to stand and you're slipping away, Too exhausted to care and too hopeless to try, There'll be tears tonight, There'll be more tomorrow, If only survival Could be strengthened by sorrow, Say goodbye, say goodbye, Leave this sad scarlet mess, To find out that the next world's Unbearable at best, But nothing matters, no nothing at all, Don't worry about whether it's wrong or it's right, You'll welcome the silence when you fade away, For you won't hear the screams when they turn on the light, No-one can know why and no-one can listen, Given up hinting for help falling upon futile ears, Now you'll never explain how you're feeling and so Your frustration grows as the funeral nears, Then the flowers will fall over your remains, Nailed down in a box and patched up with tape, And so, even after you've been laid to rest, You'll still be alone with no means of escape.
Throughout the world's history, we read compelling stories of the defending soldiers of the tenderest age; and we can be moved to tears by the purity of their courage: they died on the battlefield, never breaking their promise or fall short of integrity... Defending soldiers of the tenderest age as handsome as the daffodils of the undulating fields, nothing scares you when it comes to protecting your motherland with that freedom: as intrepid as the eagles in the open skies... Defending soldiers as true as warriors, you push forward with the victorious thought of becoming nothing more than the boldest soldiers: seeing the smokey sky blast; rescuing the wounded and closing the eyes of the fallen ones bleeding on the burned grass... If I were younger, and I had the same resistance, I would fight with the indomitable spirit you own; but my contribution is merely sympathetic words on paper, which one of you will read on your return to the homeland when all wait on you united in fond prayer: with ribbons on trees and flags in their hands.... Defending soldiers of the tenderest age, all past heroes had one special trait: the persistance and will to prevail, and the final victory on their breath; when everything else seemed to fail, an indisputable faith prevented another threat... Copyright 2008 by Andrew Crisci
The light was too bright, So he hid from the sun, In his dark palace. He held the gun, Closed his eyes, And held his breath. Gripping the gun, Waiting for death. He placed his fingers In perfect position. The gun well loaded With ammunition, Raising the gun Up to his head. He ran from life. Choosing death instead, And pulled that trigger. And fired that shot. Dropping the gun, The barrel still hot, And in that split second, Before he died, I swear I saw it, My angel cried....
Wide eyes Panic lips hovering right below a scream hair pulled into a fist mouth covered panicked eyes wide heart rattling fear
One cut, One blade, One bloody line, One sad girl, One lie, One to many lies, One fake smile, One tears falls, One less days, One day I will die, soon One will miss me, One rose on my grave, One more reason to believe Im useless, One more lie to my face, One scar, One love, now hate One girl One lonely girl, One secert, One dead girl, One missunderstood
Don't struggle; this will calm you down, It's rather potent stuff, And then take these ones once a day, For they turn your teardrops off, Same for these ones, once a day, They numb all your emotions, And that headache's purely physical, Just try rubbing in these lotions, I'm not sure why you're having trouble Getting to sleep at night, No worries, I've got tablets for that, Just try them out tonight, Will that be all? I've got a lot Of patients to see today, Just pump yourself full of pills, Then get out and go away.
Hold on to yo struggle, Cause no matter what: Somebody got it worst; You goin through some Changes in your life, Crying and complaining every Night… Telling God the way Things Goin aint right, And how you deserve so much more; But girl I'm here to tell you; How you got the audacity To … Fix your mouth to, Question God, After all he pulled you thru.. How selfish are we… And I can't blame it All on you, Cause I've been in that place too.. But before you open your Mouth, Lemme straighten you out, It was days, When you didn't know what to do, With nobody to run to; But God gave you a friend, & he promised to place, Her in your life 'til the end; Remember that night when You really wanted to end Your life? God was watching over you, But girl I'm here to tell you; How you got the audacity To … Fix your mouth to, Question God, After all he pulled you thru.. How selfish are we… And I can't blame it All on you, Cause I've been in that place too.. But before you open your Mouth, Lemme straighten you out, Somebody somewhere, Living without a parent; Scared to take action, Baby girl; Don't even question, Don't fix your mouth To speak, Cause you had your chance all week; But girl, Please tell me How you got the audacity to Question God After all he pulled you through.. See, Its funny to me; Cause I've Had my problems too, But I took care of my business, So much better than you.. I smiled like nothing was Wrong, Honestly, Believe it or not, I still do! You think you got it bad, But girl; It coulda been worse.. Some people Don't got nothing to their name, And you sit up here and give God all the blame, But girl I'm here to tell you; How you got the audacity To … Fix your mouth to, Question God, After all he pulled you thru.. How selfish are we… And I can't blame it All on you, Cause I've been in that place too.. But before you open your Mouth, Lemme straighten you out, Its crazy how you talking; Like you'd switch places with Them any day.. But girl, Before you complain, Try saying "Thanks"; Cause it coulda been worse… Somebody somewhere got it Rough, Hmm.. I guess, me Talkin to you ain't enough But girl I'm here to tell you; How you got the audacity To … Fix your mouth to, Question God, After all he pulled you thru.. How selfish are we… And I can't blame it All on you, Cause I've been in that place too.. But before you open your Mouth, Reread this, so you can get Straightened out.. Inspired by Lyfe Jennings – it Coulda Been Worse
The windows pane upon my face, The door unlocks, I fall from grace. My friend he screams, a crunch of steel, Stabs of pain, then the blood I feel. The car we stole, a ride of joy, Treating it like a tonka toy. Speeding 'round the Mumbles mile, Off our heads for a little while. Pass the chippy, towards the pier, We hear the sirens, "The cops are near". Faster, faster, we approach the bend, This so called "joy" is about to end. Headlights shine from the road ahead, Then when I wake, my mates are dead. Broken limbs, a mangled wreck, The sense of warmth from my swollen neck. I try to move off the cold damp floor, My legs and arms I feel no more. The scents of fuel, blood and smoke, I try to breathe, but can only choke. I hear a voice coming close to me, I tried to look, but could not see. These words I tell about this night, From a darkened world, now I have no sight..... I was asked to write a piece about the crime of so called "joy riding"
In the light of day That's when you think everything is okay I'll tell you I'm fine And you won't cross that line Believing this overused lie Not daring to speak of how much I cry I'm tired of people telling me to be strong What a sick broken record of a song Be strong, be strong, be strong Save me from this suffocating silence Take away the pain of choking on my own words Show me the love we all so desperately seek Tell me it's okay to have feelings Break this statue you molded me into In the dark of the night That's when you find nothing is right That silent tear falls upon her face Her hollow breath quickening in pace She pulls at her hair and claws at her sheets Screaming and writhing, faster her heart beats I'm tired of people telling me to be strong What a sick broken record of a song Be strong, be strong, be strong Save me from this suffocating silence Take away the pain of choking on my own words Show me the love we all so desperately seek Tell me it's okay to have feelings Break this statue you molded me into Back to light You think its been alright Rosy cheeks are actually raw Wiping tears that no one else saw Shining eyes are the glistening tears A hopeless pain that only she bears I'm tired of people telling me to be strong What a sick broken record of a song Be strong, be strong, be strong Save me from this suffocating silence Take away the pain of choking on my own words Show me the love we all so desperately seek Tell me it's okay to have feelings Break this statue you molded me into
I look at my friends, they look, Away. I talk to my friends, they turn, Away. I walk up to my friends, they take a step, Away. This is all because of me... Because I do exactly the same... To myself I look at myself, I look... Away. I talk to myself, I turn... Away. I take a walk, A step... Away, From life. You get treated the way you treat yourself
No one knows what its like To be someone who is me Life is pretty much worthless Thats not how its suppose to be No one in this world loves me I am just hated by everything and everyone I just sit there thinking When my happy days are yet to come My parents constantly yell at me My friends do nothing but lie I cant trust no one anymore So I sit alone watching the days go by I want to escape from everything Run away to my own land Be free to do what I want to do Then my time would be grand One day I will be happy But who knows when that will come Maybe today or tomorrow We'll just have to wait and see what's yet to become
Marrryyy Jane! How I loved you so! Why'd you leave me here? Why'd you have to go? We were happy, why'd he take you away? You should've just stopped him, you should've just stayed! The feeling you gave me was too good to lose If I had a choice, I'd have to choose... Id love you forever. I'd hold you close. I'd love you forever, but I've received the dose. The dose was government, and the law. I don't agree with them, I think it's all flawed. But don't worry Mary Jane, this love is true. If you still love me...then I still love you...
It's been a month since I last saw you, But for the first time, I don't care, And I think that there's a reason I haven't met you unaware, I'll admit you took my breath away, But now I want it back, And whilst you're there, dig out my life So I can get it back on track, My heart's lovefire is fading For you've no time to kindle it, With the heat turning to warmth, each day It heals a little bit, I fell in love with you before But now I'm drifting out; I no longer feel for the girl I no longer dream about, You stand with your back to me, Blocking out my happiness, So I simply walk around you With no fear or distress, I can think about our kisses, See that they're just a memory, And though I never will forget them And hope that you'll remember me, I can put it all behind me, Let the tears fall then melt away, For eventually there'll be none left And I'll live to love another day.
The feelings that I try to hide, Inside they eat away at my flesh, The feelings of pain and isolation, From everyone in my past and present If only I could find that light, The one at the end of the tunnel, But I have reached the wrong end, The end of my life, Its happening I've replaced the pain with more And somehow its alright, Now I feel the release, I'm falling. I'm dying, I'm letting go.
To the one I see in a star The brightest of them all and the Closest to my heart. My Evening Star, sweet Ilion, How you've helped me so. You've healed me And you've guided me, But I'm afraid I must go. For that one day is coming So much sooner than I'd like. That one heart broken day where I will no longer see his Beautiful blue eyes. My Evening Star, so much loved, my Star of Ilion. I have but one request- Take care of him when I've gone. Ilion, he's my life. Precious Wolf Boy. Nicodu Blue. And when I move to that foreign place, Give my heart to him Because I leave it with you. Ilion, my heart is his, And it has been for awhile. I just wish I could hold him, To say I love him, See him smile. Take care of him, don't leave his side, Ilion listen to me! Please just do this one request. Please don't leave him. For me. Ilion, you take care. How I'll miss you so. And remember, dear Evening, I will ALWAYS be there when the night sky is cold. And when you miss me, let Nick know, And you both can send me smiles. I will always catch them, I promise, And return them ten fold. I love you, I'll miss you. Evening Star, sweet Ilion. Remember to take care of Nick, but for now, I have to go.
And it was there. Looking me in the eye, "I shall born you." I was overcome with sadness. Before I was born I died. I was one with everything. I was more alive then, then I am now. Children seem so simple. Children seem so free. Why is life so hard. Maybe the simple one is me. Deep cuts in my heart. A boy that I love with all of me. I might've been invisible because he always walked by. Enough of this! I hate it all. I gathered myself and left my heart behind. Falling down the tubes. Drifting though life. No friends, no family. I. Can't. Breath. Gaining momentum. Losing myself. Hot under my skin. It's getting tighter. Wanting to rip through it. I, am, not, real. Just between us. Just between us two. I used to be everything. Killing gives life. I want to give my life to you. Love exists only as water. My heart is dry. Maybe I'm your dream. Maybe you are mine. Maybe neither of us carry weight. Maybe both of us have died. No, you never gave me a drop. O I cry. I cry for you. I cry I cry I cry I cry for you. Plenty of times I wonder how long my sentence is. Quiere un vaso de dulce sangre. Dibuja un corazon dentro de mi cuerpo. Con esto corazon agujero, bebe mi vida. Run away from what you've heard. Leave and write your own truths. They say He. He does not exist. It tells me so. Say what's on my mind? Ultimate indulgences; eating meat and having sex. A man is meat. Chocolate is sex. A Chocolate man is the only heaven that will ever exist. Next to Him. Telling you about my life is wasting the time I have to live it. If you're meant for me you'll just know. Un knowledged people need to stop giving the gift of life and start giving the gift of life. Very little patience do I have for those with no words. I'll look for the person who stole them from you. Will you be the one that I can hold for now? Do you have a sweet heart, do you have soft soul?. Will you be the the love that my ego drinks? Xoxo hugs and kisses. Hugs and kisses. Let me touch your skin, help me miss your soul. You're looking inside me. Like it used to. Zero words writing in my head. Where do my thoughts go? They go on this page. This page of my life.
Tell me what you're feeling Since I have felt it once myself. I know how it hurts To have one you love Act as a prick- To puncture your delicate heart At a young age. I know the scare you get When you tremble at the thought Of losing an innocence you can't Gain back and then living it. I understand being lonely And being denied What you really desire and How it makes one Stay up and cry every night. To be forgotten- Neglected and dismissed- A total outcast- I know it well. Tell me what's wrong- I'll understand.
A river of tears poured down her face; Ocean softly lapping at her toes. Anxiety built up in her chest, While the silver dripped down from her nose. Curls a shade of chocolate milk Framed her fragile, milk-white face. The wind rustled through the willow trees, Her phobia giving quite the chase. The night was deep, the night was dark, Her independence hated now. Their weapons were the cruelly said, But to the wolves she wouldn't bow. Her ears a trashcan for their hate. No light bulb waited at the end, The tunnel would stay oh so dark. Hope did not wait around the bend. And then painted across the midnight sky, Made her peer up at the night. A rocket ship? A shooting star! She wished and found her will to fight. She grabbed her shoe from off the sand The other taken by the tide. She watched the inky purple sky, Hoping the paintbrush would abide She saw it coming from afar. A feather floating in the breeze. She made a wish, and let it go, With just a simple whisper, "Please." The silver ring that shone so bright, Guided her to her well-worn path. She unpacked her suitcase beyond the "swift". She feared no mortal's fearless wrath. Running would never be an answer, As the Hippopotamus would surely tell. When someone intrudes your territory, Defend it, and defend it well. For though he may seem gentle, And walk too slow a pace, The Hippo is one fierce beast, So she wore him on her necklace. The darkest is before dawn The mighty Polar Bear will say The gold medallion in the sky Will hide for six months and a day. Yet he stands on his icy shoal, Always awaiting the warming rays. The sun always returns to us. Yes, that's what the Polar Bear says.
My heart spills everything I try so hard to hide. Hiding the pain makes everything feel like a lie. When I speak to you You have no clue what my mind goes through. I can't find what to say. You make eveything feel okay. But still you're the only one that knows Everything I can't show. When I feel the pain I think I must be insane. To think that I am the only one. But then I think of the son.
Born in Fort Hood, Andy's life wasn't right Her momma and daddy would always fight Daddy was a drunk, momma was abusive Her goals and dreams were so elusive One day, Andy couldn't take it anymore Left without packing, walked out the door Got into a pickup with a good lookin' stranger She liked the feeling, the feeling of danger Arkansas was the first stop She found a place and set up shop Robbin' people and banks was her game All the money she could find she would claim Took her .45 into the nearest bank The clerk had noticed and his heart sank Andy was this gal's name Living life fast was her game Never wanted to be tame Near the end it would be a shame Took her money from the bank clerk Loved what she did, always wanted to work Got away from the scene in a icey blue truck Andy used skill, she didn't need luck Andy was this gal's name Living life fast was her game Never wanted to be tame Near the end it would be a shame Left the state of Arkansas, she'd become wanted But Andy was made of stone, she was never daunted Headed to Arizona to stake her claim Too bad here she would take her first aim Held up the bank, asked for the money But this young boy wouldn't give it, sonny She shot him dead center between the eyes Then suddenly she heard the screams and cries Andy was this gal's name Living life fast was her game Never wanted to be tame Near the end it would be a shame She jumped behind the desk and peeped over the top The cops had come and set up shop "Come out with your hands up or be shot down!" "Then come and shoot me." She said with a frown Stood up and blazed that .45 She had never felt so alive She took one to the chest No, two No, three She had met her end, she had begun to see Andy died that day But before she went, she had somethin' to say "To my father and my mother, I never needed you. Because deep in my heart I always knew that I'd amount to somethin', be it good or bad and that is why I'm dyin' but I'm glad." Andy was this gal's name Living life fast was her game Never wanted to be tame Near the end it would be a shame (For you, you know who you are)
Want to cut, Can't. Want to die, Can't. Not can't, Won't. Want to but won't. Why? They love me. So what? I love them. You suffer... I know. Life sucks.... I really, really does... Who knows, Maybe death is better... The dead know. I bet they do, They only way is to join them. But I won't. I have responsibilities. "The woods are lovely dark and deep" Now aren't they... "But I have promises to keep" So, so many... "And miles to go before I sleep" So many.... "And miles to go before I sleep" Too many?
if you wait, if i can, but if i can't whats your plan? if she won't will you stay? even though, ill throw you away? if i do, but then i go, when i come back, will you tell me no?
Walking through life all alone, I live my life in monotone. Watching the days go by, I sit and wonder, why? What purpose do I serve? What is it to just exist? Wandering blind in a veil of mist. If the sun were to shine on me, Could I open my mind and see? Would I use my heart and soul? Would I find what hatred once stole? Young in life, my innocence lost, taken, My mind frozen with fear, trust violently shaken. Unable to shed a tear, my paranoia blatantly real. Emotions unexpressed congeal. My eyes leave nothing unguarded, The real me checked and carded. Awaiting a person who possesses the key, To open the door and kill the pain inside me. Summer Gratias
A ballad for Hannah (In memory) I awoke this morning with a frightening chill, Hannah has been killed By a group of peers, There was never any violence Only immaturity from them all. Day by day was Hell She always felt like she was locked in a cell, The rumors grew closer Minutes got longer, Death was knocking at the door. No one noticed her sorrowful eyes Or even wondered if she wanted to die, All that mattered to them Is letting everyone know That she can not be trusted. She plotted a devious deed Who would notice this lead? Her fall would be quick and painless, No one would ever suspect it, Hannah has been killed.
I didn't know how good I had it, until I lost all that I owned. I lost my famly, all of my cars and even my home. I tried to live a life according to a "good principle." I let pride get in the way and felt rather "invincible." I once had money, wealth and a lot of fame. It seemed like everyone around me all knew my name. I feel empty now... afraid.... and "at my wit's end." Everyone. it seems, has left me. Even my "close friend. Jesus... You're the one I know that I can call upon. You make things "right" when all seems "wrong." What you can give to me, money could never buy. I humbly kneel before you Lord, with a desperate cry. PLease help me dear Jesus. I know that you can. I read in your word that you are; "I AM that I AM!" In YOU... Jesus... can I find life's meaning. Your life for mine, is what I'm now receiving. You're my best friend whom I love so much. I long for your mercy and peace... your "special touch." You alone can bring true joy that fortune could never give. You brought me hope and peace and a reason to live! By Jim Pemberton 2007
I complicated my life by falling for him Something so unexpected that turned into a whim And every time I think of it I'm swaddled by chills Because knowing that you'll never be mine Is a thought that kills So as I amble lost in myself My soul inside just simply burning I realize you wont be returning Within my eyes lies a story untold In my heart a memory I hold Slowly as my love and hope fade A cocoon surrounds me from all the pain that is made Therefore everyday since the wake of dawn My thoughts of joy are dead and gone.
Looking back at what I wrote, Why did I leave on such a bad note? I need to be grateful for what I've got, Forget what ever went wrong and what not, Because you don't ever appreciate things until they've gone. email@example.com
A willing trek through the thick blackness a willing regress into depression all for the sake of keeping sane the only thing known by the brain for so long a forced seclusion with a sorrowful inclusion of painful memories sitting there all alone in the darkness once called home rotting through flesh decaying bones soul seeking
Why did you lie to me I loved and trusted you What else are you lying to me about Dont lie because I'm not a foo Start telling the truth I ain't going to take this crap from you Just get out of my face Try and find someone new I ain't going to deal with your crap anymore So I'm no longer your boo This is the end now Just remember I really did love you
The little girl cries, alone in her room, holding her teddy bear as the dread sets and looms. Crying and shaking, scared to sleep at night, tired of the struggles, tired of the fight. With her mom gone all night, and her dad drunk all day, aching to tell but at what price must she pay? Needing a friend, someone to tell her secrets, someone to pick up all the broken pieces. To walk to school with, to complain when boys are yucky, but no one like her could ever be that lucky. As the tears fill her eyes, and the snot in her nose, her door opens slowly, and the moment there just froze. tiptoeing so quietly, into her room, fear starts to spread swept like a broom. He fondle her blankets, stops at her waist, she is kicking and screaming for that shell get a taste. The man be becomes when he doesn't get his way, she is bleeding so now she must lay. When all is done and finished, she cries on her bed, reliving the nothing that is all left unsaid. Closing her eyes, she hears him downstairs, as she squeezes her teddy out flow the tears. Eying the window perched on the wall, she pictures her life and lets herself fall.
You told me you loved me Yet even though it hurt me You took it away Now I am left alone while You live without consequence
Born into a life of wonder and exploring Her parents she looks up to Curious mind roaring her parent adoring What she doesn't know her faith she would soon lose Years grew old as the child grown And her father gives her these looks Her mother wonders but should have know In husband mind what cooks Mother works hard day by day Father sits and waits Father and child they play all day But by then it would be late "Daddy please don't hurt me, get off!" Her voice yells with fright "Only one time I swear" He doesn't really care Next morning comes she wants to die "Mommy why won't her breath Close her eyes and you believe me" "Oh, darling why would you lie?" Believe me "why?" cries Days go one and months go by No one believe her she can't go one She grabs her dad's gun, she begins to cry That father trust is beyond gone She cocks the gun and holds dreams Pulls the trigger and it bring death And the heaven light beams She was raped and it ended her life Because no one listened to her Her life cut short as if by a knife This happened all the time Just listen to the cry
These months have erased all his smiles and all hope is drained from his face He's fought for far too long and can't go on any further All the stress and all the pain is just too much to take His love is dying out as his heart is burning out like a dying candle's flame
** Summary: A high school boy finds happiness and love in a small, dreary town. Just when it seems like life can't get any better, he discovers that his new love interest may not be telling him everything about herself. As each of her secrets are unveiled, Destery finds himself in a difficult situation that he might not be able to pull himself out of. ** One: It all started on a bleak, dreary Monday as the hearse slowly made it's way down Weeping Willow Street. Cautiously, it came to a stop in front of Melancholy High. Yes, the school looks exactly as it sounds- Sad. With it's old, deteriorating brick walls and splintery wood desks, MHS looks to be the king of all things pitiful. But as Destery Maddox climbed out of that God-awful car he spotted the one thing that made every guy's time there a little more bearable- Juliette Anderson. She was a dream with long, silky black hair and ice blue eyes that seemed as though they could see straight to your heart. For as long as he could remember, Destery had longed to caress her porcelain-like skin and to feel those soft, rose colored lips against his. Just one glimpse of that girl was enough to make his heart ache like no other. Followed by a heavy sigh, Des started up the crumbling front staircase. Just as he reached the door handle a delicate, almost transparent hand brushed against his. Mesmerized, his gaze ran from that hand up to the smiling face of none other than Juliette. "Hello.", She greeted him. "H-Hi", Des stammered back. Something strange was happening to him. His mouth became dry, Sweat soaked his palms and for not being a man of many words..He was truly at a loss. It was official- His heart was captured. And nothing could break the strong spell of love that was unknowingly cast upon him by that black-haired beauty. Or so it seemed.
Are You Holding Back? Are you holding back the Love that Christ gave to you? Are you treating others the way HE would want you to? What message of the cross to others do you proclaim? Is it one of humility and honor to Jesus' name? Is there someone whom you've withheld Christ' love today? You avoid this person, and choose to "go the other way…" The Spirit of God has been tugging at your heart… This is where the essence of Christianity really starts! All of our sorrow, pain and sin… Christ bore on the cross. Without him... Every one of us would certainly be lost! So many times we tend to play these "games." "Choosing" whom we'll love and "avoid." We know their names… While reading 1 Corinthians chapter 13… Does this scripture really mean "anything?" If it did… We'd be more careful how we live. And learn the power there is in the words; "I forgive!" If this message has lost it's meaning in your daily walk. Then you and Jesus really need to talk! Total surrender to him and forgiveness is the key! In being his true follower… And set free! Bring everything to the cross and lay it at Jesus' feet. And experience a life of victory…. And not defeat! By Jim Pemberton 01/08/10
The ticking of my watch Invades my thoughts. The never ceasing ticking Of the seconds that Pass by Without looking back. The seconds of their Laughter, Tears, Smiles. The seconds of joy they are experiencing Without me, And of the sadness I cannot help them through. I fight back tears As my chest Begins to tighten. 'It's just a little longer,' I try to console myself, But still my watch is ticking.
* this poem has been inspired by Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony....* * and was written in memory of my grandmother Jeanne Gula * My name is Jeanne Gula, today i found out that i have cancer. Its in a tumor, that's very painful, its very rare, its 3 cancers into 1 they already took it out once... and it came back. The doctor said it was to late to take it out again. Its not the perfect end to my life, but its all i can have.. I don't really know how much more time i have. I used to be able to walk by myself, with out help. I can't believe this happened to me... of all people. It's be coming torture, they called in hospices. This cant be good... I'm in my own home, slowly dieing... I really don't want to leave, I will leave so many loved ones behind.. So I think i will stay a little longer... Its January, i now can't do anything by myself, i have to rely on family to help with everything, my organs are starting to slowly shut down, its very painful to go through. but my daughters birthday is coming soon... I'm not going to leave now... i don't want her to be sad, on such a happy day. I can't hold on much longer. I'm now out of this misery, its feb. 2nd, and I'm finally free. Free, of all this pain, and I'm healthy again, I can walk, with out hanging on to anything or anyone, I can finally be independent again... now no one cry for me, because i lived a full long life, and no longer in pain.. I love you all. Love Grammy
You pulled me close and kissed me I felt my heart give in You pulled me close and kissed me I felt happiness within You pulled me close and kissed me I felt safe and strong You pulled me close and kissed me It was a kiss so sweet and long You pulled me close and kissed me You saved my soul from dying You pulled me close and kissed me But I whish I wasn't crying You pulled me close and kissed me Tenderly clasped me to you You pulled me close and kissed me I felt like I broke through You pulled me close and kissed me With such passion flowing free You pulled me close and kissed me Sparks flew that we could see You pulled me close and kissed me It is a moment I will always remember You pulled me close and kissed me Your touch ardent and tender You pulled me close and kissed me I could not help but kiss u back You pulled me close and kissed me With a fire no kiss should lack You pulled me close and kissed me Got me addicted and wanting more You pulled me close and kissed me Got me onto the floor You pulled me close and kissed me Helped me get over him You pulled me close and kissed me Got me to the brim You pulled me close and kissed me I still remember every moment that passed You pulled me close and kissed me It was too great to last You pulled me close and kissed me Alleviated my heart by an inch from pain You pulled me close and kissed me My love wont you kiss me once again?
I sit here in the silence staring into nowhere, Finding it hard to remove myself from sadness' cold stare. Once again it's over, the bond has run its course, Pain attacks from all angles, like an unforgiving force. Why must inside me feel like hardened stone? Is it truly that hard to keep someone to call my own? Looked out for her interests, tried not to be a distraction, Yet I'm still unable to bestow total satisfaction. Now broken like a twig, what will be my next action? Incorrect assumptions led to wasted attraction. It seems incorrect to make a lady feel pampered, Or maybe with me, she simply felt hampered. The face of Despair, in the mirror is all I see, That selfsame look of a battered willow tree. Pondering on the possibility of the inability to think straight, As even when horribly wronged, my heart refuses to hate. My expression now over, I've stated how I feel, I'll rise once again with armoured nerves of steel. - Michael-Shane Brown
If only I could kiss u as many times as I shed a tear last night. I wish i were older. I wish people would realize we are just two lonely kids trying to find a way in this world. I hope when the time comes for us to meet again we don't regret a thing. We will work out perfect we won't have to make anyone happy but ourselves. But for now, goodbye. I hope your life is as fun and amazing as you have made my life these past few months. I hope your successful, and I hope you find someone who loves you as much as I do. I hope you are happy in everything you do. Anyone who is yours is really lucky. Just know that when you need me to keep our promise, to find and fall back in love with each other, I'm where I always said I would be, waiting on that call, and on that day my life will be complete.
Did you know I did like you? I just didn't realize what I was doing, And I was just so stupid to let you go. Now I just wish that you spend the rest of your life happy, And that you never again feel the pain I made you feel.
I am sorry For my misery. Yet now I feel that Inner hope is still real And I regret having all that sadness, But now I've let it out And without a doubt. I now release my inner gladness. For you all have been here Inside my heart And I now refuse to part From the world. Because no matter how Much pain I go through There's something left to gain And no I won't let my past Cause me anymore misery, Because you will always Be with me.
Is My Life A Failure??? Lately my life has been getting very stressful… It seems like everything I try is unsuccessful. It seems like no matter how hard I try… I fail again. And get upset and cry! No matter what I do or how hard I pray. I wake up and dread the next day! I know of so many who seem like they're blessed. But me? My life is just one big MESS! I often feel like a "blob" that fell to the ground. When I need someone. There's no one around! I feel worn out, discouraged and defeated. Any sense of self-worth has been depleted. Someone told me of a God who truly cares… If I need some help. He is always there! All of my trials and failures, to Jesus I've given! His love has totally changed how I am now livin'! He's brought me a hope I never had before! And brought love, peace, and so much more! He's taken away all of my pain and sorrow. And promised to be here today and tomorrow. He's taken the word "failure" from a life that's broken. His powerful words of hope have clearly been spoken. No matter what trials tomorrow may bring… I know that Jesus will take care of everything! I find comfort in his arms so loving and strong! He's welcomed me and told me that I BELONG! In Christ, I've found the meaning of SUCCESS! My life is no failure. But is abundantly blessed! By Jim Pemberton
I wanted to talk... My life has hit "rock bottom." You said; "No...we've nothing in common." I thought we did...we both go to the same church. For some fellowship, I'll begin a new search. Many Sundays... My voice goes unheard. While in your hand, you were carrying God's word. Are there others who'd spend a minute of their time? Or am I just a shadow whom they would leave behind? I thought the blood of Jesus was our common thread. What are we doing here? Are we spiritually dead? I hope that with me, you won't just "push aside." Wasn't it also for me--that our saviour died? You meet different people every day. How do you react to others whom God brings your way? May God's Holy spirit convict you to spend Your time with others-- not just those you call "friend." Being Christ' s example is truly a blessing indeed. Reaching out to the hurting--those in need. This is where Christianity really starts. When we reach out to the hurting and broken hearts. By Jim Pemberton 2007
It seems like we only speak when you want to criticize me And it puts tears in my eyes because I'm supposed to be your favorite guy I used to be handsome, cute My skinniness was pleasing to you My hair was so fun to brush and you had the biggest crush on me But now I am so easily cast aside It seems like you try to hide I am just ugly I'm just too skinny My hair just looks like crap and then that's a wrap The end of discussion
One falsely accusing grandmother, One misunderstanding brother. One tear upon the cheek, One heart that is very weak. One life that was sad from the start, One pair of lovers torn apart. One very chastising world, And one very sad, lonely girl.
before, I knew everything, who i was, who i wanted too be, knew what i was doing, what i wanted too do, knew where i was, where i was going, where i wanted too go, but now, it's different, i don't know what i want, who i am, where i'm going, what i want too do, i just don't know myself anymore. i'm changing so much, and i don't like it, it's out of my control, over my limits, doing things i would have never of done, and hurting people on the way, i just want the old me back, the nice one, the innocent looking girl, with a million dreams, the girl who once knew herself.
Shes got bruises on her skin And sorrow in her mind Told her fighting back was a sin Told her you were kind Lying to her was too fun She never doubted you She never even tried to run She even loved you, too You took her life and now shes gone Your signature for her death was signed How will you feel when you see that dawn When you have your daughter's death on your mind Lying to her was too fun She never doubted you She never even tried to run She even loved you, too You told your wife you'd hit her If she said a word What had happened to what you were Silence could not have cured Lying to her was too fun She never doubted you She never even tried to run She even loved you, too Hit your wife to death Now shes gone aswell She took her last breath While hearing you yell Lying to her was too fun She never doubted you She never even tried to run She even loved you, too
I'm so sick of the lies and the ties and the tears that I cry are drowning my mind I have to escape take a brake don't hesitate just go with the flow no more pain any more cause of you yes, it's true and I rue the day I believed all these lies that you heaved on my shoulders but no more I don't want to be taken innocently I'm seriously gonna leave. That's it I'll just go leave you alone with this reality that you've made yourself believe well, it's not for me any more cause you see behind these eyes there's a me that knows you lie and I fear how I'll feel when my mind starts to clear and I'm forced to see how you've lied to me so it's time to go find a better place where I'll have my own space so it might be a slap in the face for my family who left the rat race but they'll never know cause they're in your control well I'm not innocent anymore.
I can see that we were meant to be I no you see it to But my love for you has changed a bit And i know we'll see it through I love you with all my heart And never want to leave you I never want us to be apart Cause of my love I know we share a special thing We'll have to help it grow But never let your feelings die And never let them go Cause my life's about Me and You Never falling Never leaving I never want to lose you To another man Cause i love you And i want it to be Me and You
If strength is only How well you hide the pain. I must be truly strong spirited. If thinking you want death Is a matter of being gutsy enough, Then those who're gone Were even more strong Rest in peace, Yet what've they've done Shall forever haunt me...
Feels like the world is split into two; Everything that's happening is light and dark. In the day I conceal myself with a mask, Hoping to be seen among others. To be noticed just to not be alone, My second face shows no sadness. A face showing no emotions Only a smile to show the world. The eye sees that I am ordinary. But when the sun begins to fade, I return to where I belong while There is little daylight left. Darkness has finally set in, A moon its only weakness. My mask begins to fade By the dimness of the closing minutes. A tear drop of sadness, Anger soon to take control. I quickly turn on the lamp To save my dying smile. The stillness of the night triumphs Until the dark is awakened by brightness. Tonight, my only companion will be My secret shadow.
Hear this hear that Fear this and know the facts One is that you aint never coming back So lets try to get things back on track To make sure you got all the number one facts You play childish games And you expect me to do the same But you feel as though you're the best Well you didnt pass the test So let me tell you the rest Hush,Sit down,Take a seat Pen and paper out Cause my class is now in session And oh yeah You might want to pay attention And step yo game up Not a little But a lot Cause your lines are played out Plus I think I heard an old man use that Listen to me Not to her Cause she aint nothing Just another hoe Who spreaded her legs fa you And willing to give you some blow Talk what you know Not what you hear Cause Tedra is standing right here She speaks the truth And nothing but the truth When it comes to you And if you dont like this Then that means this was meant for you
Too many times I gave into the pain, Too many times i've forgotten my name. I dwelled on what was never found, I've burried my heartaches in the ground. One day I planned to take my life, but you guys made my life so bright. No one knows how much I hurt, And how much I just hate this world. Now I show my true colors, They're dark and they're depressing. I'm sorry that it took so long, but now i am adressing, Some of the things inside my head arent normal, but theyre real. My whole entire life it's been so hard for me to feel. I do not want you two to think my brain began to rot But I don't tell you lies when I say deaths a daily thought. It might seem quite confusing, might leave you in a stump, But you two were the only ones, begging me not to jump.
when the silence of night takes over when the being happy just seems like too much effort when everyone's back is turned when all hope ceases to exist when laughing becomes painful when you look at the stars and wonder why they are so small when music is the only way you speak when everything is just a shade of grey when you just can't run fast enough when the sky really is falling when secrets no longer exist when being pushed and pulled makes you break when the sting of being stabbed in the back turns numb when just being yourself seems like a foreign concept when you run out of tears when the spark in your eye dies when you reach to find nothing when love is a wish not an emotion when you can feel your heart detearierate when leaving your room is a chore when you wish you could just be good enough when reality takes over when the world is more cruel than ever when crying is how you communicate when you realize you have to lift yourself up when destruction turns into recontruction when you duct tape your life back together when you finally grow a smile on your face when you look up and see the sun smiling back at you when all your efforts pay off when you see the true you
Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?
A girl child is born given life brand new To a mother so proud and a daddy too Elsewhere mother gives a baby boy life Daddy's not there he's at home with his wife One day daddy's gone Baby girl wonders why Baby boy hides his hunger so mommy don't cry One mommy works from morning into the night The other works streets sleeping thru daylight Each mother making the best of her situation Children denied mothers love and appreciation Each child raise themselves all, alone Kids with no childhood forced to be grown A two parent love they'll never get to learn 15 years old to each others they will turn Not knowing true love thinking theirs real Only both parents love they sought to fulfill A mother gives a girl life as they do a son They're but babies, at 15 innocence gone Reality of broken homes, the cycle lives on
I look back on The past year. On the What could have been, The good times, The bad, On you. Your smile, Your laugh, The things I'll miss The most. Heartache- All I have to Remember you by.
Dangerous games misusing my name you always play these high school games giving you pleasure you giving me pain no wonder why women goes insane dont never come home staying away cheating on me day after day my head messed up thinking all men, all the same people get killed for playing this WHAT!!! dangerous game
All of those words and emotions Are tired of lingering in my throat and Mind I want to caress them onto you But how can I? Anon. there might be a time in our days I want to tell you-- I'm worthless, Broken, Diedre, Torned, Discarded, Abuse The past shouldn't control the present but it lingers in my spirit The words need to come out The Darkness with Them What if the truth couldn't set me free, save me from this candled day Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil Shrouded against our will too scared to show our bare Vulnerable Shadowself It was the ignorance's bliss that caught you The Knowledge creates a burden Too Difficult to Maintain or was it I? trying to be part of your soul The Decay of Your Heart Sadness can be cured by a few words Despair is a disease of the Knife The Eclipse stole the Sun's Sinlight Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart
I scream, at the top of my lungs No sound, comes out Silent, curdling screams Is, all I have left, now I wrestle; I fight, with all, my physical might While, being forced down By the mighty strength, of many men The pungent smells of dirt, sweat and grime Embed, in my senses Their ghastly hot breathes; making me, want to puke! Their hands, all over me Constantly grabbing and groping me Hollering and cheering each other on Then, someone punches me Someone, I cannot see A large man's hand, covers my nose and mouth Muffling my soulful cries, terrifying, my insides! I can't breathe, now! Many heavy handed blows, follow In a blurry haze I watch, my scarlet red blood splatter Upon the snow white sheets, that surround My sacred blood spilled My salty tears mixed in with sticky men's semen My body, a raging torrent of scorching hot lava Lulling into a translucent, entranced state Surrendering, to the primal, animalistic frenzy The men, taking what they want, anyway they want it Devouring every morsel left ,of my weak and weary body My body fighting, for its God given right To live, now! My life flashes before my eyes The sounds around me begin to fade My eyes glaze over, my body goes limp My body betraying me, when I need her the most! Silently, I pray for this is not my will, but their own "Have mercy upon these souls" "Please forgive these men, as I do, now "My love remains with you, heavenly Father" Blackened tears of jet black mascara Weave their way down Through the bloody crevasses, of my black & blued skin My body used up, a lifeless vessel, totally numb! My innocence and dignity stripped! No one, can save me, the worst is done! Bashed, beaten, worn I am nothing, no more...
Yes we've come to the end of this book It was great while it lasted But now your on to bigger and better things And I'm guessing that I didn't make the cut But I'm sure I'll still come out on top Cause you will never know what you missed out on I could have been the best thing for you I had all your best interest at heart I encouraged you to follow your dreams And to be all you wished to be I wasn't trying to change you And all I asked for in return Was your respect and love But in the end we both know That it wouldn't work Because I must not have been every thing you wanted And now I see You wasn't every thing i wanted neither Because if you were We would be happy and in love with one another But I have accepted that fact That we will never be And I hope the best for you in life Love you always and for ever Tee
I wish you would erase from my memory… But looking at you is just beautiful scenery…. But being wit you just cant be…. Cause you in love wit somebody that aint me…..Holding on to you is not good for my heart…. So I think its better for us to part… You wanna be my friend…. But I just want the pain to end… Knowing your in love wit her…..When I see you I get hurt…. My heart explodes….. My faith implodes… Tears hide behind my eyes…Cause there no need for me to try… Cause you moved on… So what left is a swan…. Without its loveliness… Lefts wit vagueness… not knowing what its worth… Because you caused me to dearth… And I feel empty… I no you only talk to me out of pity…and we all no that you need to be erased from my memory… but looking at you is such beautiful scenery…
As times have grown yet still unknown the boundaries of our excistance, we are all alone. From death to birth we remain on the earth to understand what our life is worth. Midlife crisis, cuts and gashes, midnight sky curs, and turns to ashes. Is it a dream? Or is it a lie? From what I have built up, Im going to die. Thinking grasps the loop of which reality sways, back and forth in our dreams confusing my days.
I said "I love you." And I stood there. You spoke not a word Just stopped there in shock And I watched you Waiting For a reaction of sorts What would I get? Anger? Sorrow? Love in return? You spoke not a word But your silence spoke volumes. I turned to hide the tear Rolling down my cheek I was a fool, I'm sorry I wasted your time, I'll go now. Don't worry, Don't say a thing now, Your silence spoke for you.
No one ever talks about it it hurts it throbs uncomfortable \No one knew what to say especially when it was no longer all about them but it was Who have i been with? who have you been with!!!? the tears pain throbbing thief of under under where? under there All my friends were busy Called mom yesterday we fought My brother bout fell off the wagon cause i want to move away if he moves near and they're all blaming my ex i know better psychological torment Im the slut Im the whore I blame myself as i should serves me right right? so who wants a piece of this pie? drug induced schitsoeffective mood disorder mentally ill diseased Lover Boy all for you Just give me more pills Two friends left I don't want to talk to the Angel whose ex stole my password to this site My ex girlfriend whose room i lit on fire owes me 240 dollars for her drug debt things are getting better happy birthday rip off merry Christmas debt high and dry Now Herpe New year and i wept again stronger this time to not go over the reasons to live versus those i should die and i laid in bed with no one to hold so young people are cruel I'm the joke dressed in suicide just make sure you wash your hands when you clean up after my mess you might get infected and then as the songs go sang by the artists that sing about how my names are songs I'll be the one responsible for killing all of my friends and myself after all For the love of latex and lesions practice safe sex know your partners well and remember life aint no merry go round it can happen to you it happened to me and I've only been out of the funny farm for three years before that i was clean before that was high school and the nightmare i will always remember and equate with the word DREAM
He keeps a very low profile, afraid of the the horrible secret he hides; hooked on a daily dosage of cocaine... seeking an instant relief from his acute pain! His cramped den is the stench of smoked substance bought on drug-infested streets, and filth is the undeniable evidence: one can surely tell that he lives in Hell... red devilish eyes and sunken cheeks; a wasted mind and body meeting their end! Restless young man without a name, wary of the destructible consequences that stunt your unremorseful conscience; and what price will you pay and whom will you blame? Restless young man without a name, you only existed to fulfill a destiny of shame! Day-time is so detestable to him, more than the viciousest enemy; night-time changes his personality... and he searches for dope down-town, where the houses are so run-down... occupied by the crack-heads of East Main! A limping kid, from nowhere, hands him a small bag and he exchanges it for some green; and what started the urge within... is a deep wound, which can never heal! Restless young man without a name, intoxicated by the poison that destroys your life and health; you can't be aware of what distorts your weak senses... until you are helpless and run out of breath! Restless young man without a name, guiltless and indulgent...you allow death to happily dance!
I like to ply things open Things like arms and legs and minds and hearts And baby, I need to oil your body so it would stop old floor, old door creaking every time I try to open up and find where loves been hiding Your heart is a time capsule holding on to the slave ship love life you've had And it seems I am allergic to loving you because the dust around you heart triggers my allergies Makes my skin itch---You are poison Ivy, you have grown too quick for me and I'm sorry if my heart is so smooth with loving that you didn't hear it swing open SMACK DAB IN YO' FACE HONEY! Love has been here. I shouldn't have to dig my fingers in different lobes for you to consider thinking about me I don't want to leave my finger prints while opening your mind Eyes burning---I am losing sight of you. And nose running because every part of me is try to get away from you now Can you hear the stiches ripping? My scars are resurrecting They are only a mirror image of you so they want to see what they look like Let me turn my back on you so I can show them I am gaping now You see, my heart isn't pumping right and I reckon yours doesn't either So do you love me now, Or am I too naked for you? Let me dismantle Ivy's box and see the jewels you've been hiding from me Show me how your mind works cause I wanna roller coaster through your insides Plummet to the bottom of your stomach to show you how sick you make me feel I can see your gaping now The tearing of your skin reminds me of the ripping of diary pages after someone has already read them Sounds like you're screaming, but your only saying help.
I wish to go back to that day where everything turned the other way I would not change a thing I would watch and listen As my heart starts to sings I wish to go back To when I was a little girl And everything was right When I never had to fight And I'd whisper to her never cry yourself to sleep at night I wish to go back To when I met my best friend When are memories had no end To remind myself No matter what heartache or strife Friends don't let you solve a problem with a knife I'd go back to the time I held her in my arms and cried Because it wasn't fair To watch her falling apart right there I wish to go back I want to go back Please take me back! But let me stay Because i want to look back on me at fourteen With my heart on fire And my eyes with a gleam
A teenage boy died after he sniffed glue. It was a really stupid thing for him to do. His parents rushed him to the hospital but it was too late. That poor boy was doomed, it was truly a horrible fate. His parents said goodbye to him and then he died. Sniffing glue is idiotic, that can't be denied. He sniffed it because he wanted to get high. Don't ever sniff glue or you may also die. (This is a true story.)
She is so sweet to me Her lovely lullabies are my fix An angel on earth she is With her voice she could break the lunar love She is my muse But where did she go My angelic-gothic queen A siren has fell What is left to take her place A wench from the south Such a terrible fate for her band of legends Tristania has surely died
Her consistancy finally persuaded you to stay, it still upsets me sometimes that she convinced you to treat your only daughter this way, i know her addiction must be very tough, and i know crystal is her name i used to look up to you, i used to tell my friends how lucky i was to have a dad like you, but, that was the past befoure, meth became your soul, befoure you spun out of control, i don't know if you ever think about the pain you have caused, my innocent soul shattered to pieces, my heart broken while, my eyes were wide open, no morphine can stop this uncontorolable pain, all the traumatizing memories consantly racking threw my insecure teenae brain, i thought you could fight the addiction, but, the truth is, you love her more than you love me, i never knew you would fail me like this, you looked me straight into my tear filled eyes and you and crystal told me a lie, crystal has took away your honor of being called dady now your just my biological father, she will follow you to your death bed, while your laying there alone and so filled with fear, you'r personality always filled with blame, its so sad to know she put you to shame and you can only blame yourself you will not let her go; so i must say good bye
Hurt overflows my heart to see another one my gender be hurt with the bruising and knots of punches her beautiful face. Blocking out all knowledge learned from the books to remember seeing her blood shot eyes straining back the tears of shame for all to see. Hoping and wondering with curiosity that she and her unborn seed are alright due to the drastic effects of life slamming into her face. Though we don't socialize nor have i tried, Nor am i gay or Bi cause of the curiosity of what emotion my soul feels for another woman battling a struggle,which whom I've never seen cry. telling myself to view HER as a good example of a woman suffering from what Hell on earth can offer, since a man bit the apple from the sacred tree of evil letting all to travel unto now with actions and experiences of devilish accusations. Wanting to speak or greet HER with noticeable tones saying "I am always her to rely on, and i too can feel your pain". But can't cause my tongue won't let me due to an unidentified fear....of what? " So shall it be the next time i see her to speak of a simple greeting that wasn't mentioned for so long, & hope that what ever tension or fear we have against each other to not speak , can be reconciled."
It's raining... In technicolor And at the same time The impossibilities Of reality are reflected in your eyes... But no matter what is not likely Or possible, I still love you And I can only hope that one day You'll love me back
If you don't love me I don't care It's not as simple as truth or dare I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for this My heart to you, sealed with a kiss
I only cry these tears because you lied. I only cry these tears because I miss you. I haven't got over how you hurt me, but I need to. I'm trying to forgive you, because I know you've changed. I was there for good and bad times, but why did you hurt me? Why did you lie? I loved you dearly. I guess you didn't care, I can't go on and say I don't miss you, but I really do. I've been crying to long, where did the strong girl I known, where did she go? She left when you did, and I want her back. I only give you a hard time, because you broke my heart. Now I have to see you with somebody new and it hurts, but I have to forget about you. I wish I could erase you from my mind, but I can't. Why did you lie?
Memories haunt and yet they lead. They help us to find our way. Memories bring choices with comparisons made. Memories lead to decisions as corners we turn. But memories are fluid and change as life goes on. We forget and discard what we don't want. Later we revisit and change images again. Resentments change to love and care long lost. Achievements verses what we gave up. Even wrong can become trying to do right. Other viewpoints open the older we become… Then we revisit and memories change again. Memories can be truth or lies, but they are always… As fluid as the life from which they come.
How can I do this Live without your good night kiss I have held your hand Watched you grow into a man Now you tell me you want to live with your dad Its okay mom don't be sad I will see you on the weekends I want to be here with my friends You tell me as you walk away How can I what do I say To make you see how much I still need you Even if your are a big boy steady and true I know its your choice to make But do you know how it makes my heart break You are my baby my little man I am your mommy do you understand I can't just let you go without a fight I want you to need me to tuck you in tight Please don't shut me out and push me away I can't just pretend I don't want you to stay You push and pull trying to get your freedom But my tears can't you see them
As she stands there and takes the blows He's wondering why that text doesn't show As she bites her lip to hold back her tears He waits without any thoughts of fear She's sent away with a shout of rage He's oblivious to the turning page She hears the door slam with a crash He doesn't expect her next painful lash Her tears spill and her pain gives hint He can't see how the razor blade glints Her mind blocked out, a few painless nicks He continues through, never getting the kick She drops the blade and watched the blood drip He thinks of holding her on his next trip "I PROMISED HIM!" a cry full of regret "I wonder how she is?" too simple to forget
Run Far away no one can hurt me there words can't reach me through these concrete walls Pain unbarable anxiety my heart is so heavy the weight on my shoulders is tearing me down. Maybe the way I act is misleading, just take the mask off and you will see the real me.
I still wonder your reply I've been waiting so patiently And yet you let me sit and cry I'm always so shy Yet I opened my heart for you And I still wonder your reply I have feelings for you, and I don't wonder why You know how I feel And yet you let me sit and cry I looked you in the eye And told you my secrete And I still wonder your reply My heart was so broken, I thought I might die You were there the whole time And yet you let me sit and cry I always wished that you were mine Until now you never knew And I still wonder your reply And yet you let me sit and cry
my heart is aching, my body's shaking, a tear rolls down my face, my heart starts to race. you are not around, to lift me off the ground. my eyes are glowing red, sad thoughts run through my head. do you think of me, cause thoughts of you won't let me be. how I miss you so much, your laugh, your smile, your touch. it was just a kiss on the cheek, that mad my knees feel weak. I moved far away, you still had to stay. I want to see you again, your smile, your eyes, your skin. your voice is fading away, the room is starting to sway. my head is getting light, I stand with all my might. time seems to slow, oh how I miss you so.
All I want to do right now is cry, But I try and hold it all inside. And all I want to do with my emotions, Is curl up in a corner and die. My life is so hard right now, People just don't understand. I just wish I could go, Off and hide in a deserted land. I don't want my feelings to show, Because I don't know what people would say. When people try to get me to open up to them, I simply just push them away. I wish that I could tell someone exactly how I feel, But all talking about my emotions does is bring me to tears. Telling someone about my life, Is one of my biggest fears. It feels as if nobody loves me, And as if nobody cares. And having these thoughts in my mind, Makes my heart tear. But hopefully, That's not at all real. But for right now, That's exactly how I feel.
anti-psychotics, dont you feel so exotic? nothing left in me but a few hypnotics. Life is fine, no need to define Nothing left in me, my memory is fine. Reality is wrong no need to live long Nothing left in me, I do not belong. My vision is real, I can not describe how I feel Nothing left in me, no room to heal. Everything the same, no need to complain Nothing left in me, my thoughts are like rain. Narcotics, Narcotics dont you feel so exotic? Nothing left in me but a few anti-psychotics. You can relate, I know its too late Nothing left in me, no need to hesitate. My scars describe how I feel on the inside Nothing left in me but suicide. Need I say more or can you adore Nothing left in me no where to explore. Anti-psychotics mixed with hypnotics are just the same as narcotics.
Outside your window a withard horse has no strength or ambition to finish its coarse but what shes accomplished is more then enough when it comes her time , shes had it to rough until her last breath she will do her best to impress or is it not enough that she's given her life to please you never once stepped on your toes always listen to your commands jumped the highest fences , applied herself to every demand stood in the pouring rain to prove she was strong enough worked in scortching heat just because you asked her to but maybe its time you set her free to stride in the sunset to her own fantasy relieve her of the reins you held down on her neck and insted of dirt let her run in the medows Give her a life she hasn't yet experienced let her no her work is done and that she has done well let her now run <3
At first when you asked me out I thought you was playing Or trying to be funny But one day something in your eyes Made me feel a little different about you It was something in your eyes that caught my attention When I look in your eyes I saw another part of you And what I saw made me want you And for you to want me too So that night you asked me out I said yes And I couldn't wait to see what was hiding behind Those pretty eyes of yours What I saw was great I saw a guy Who could tell me what he thought about us...me One night you put yourself on the line And it felt so right Simply because you looked in my eyes And said I love you without a thought And I saw what I had been waiting for The real you There was nothing interfering into what was being shown The true you And that's what I fell for.........the true you Not the thug you want everyone to believe you are The thug took over and I had to let you go So lets let everyone know It's okay for you to show That you was just another HOE!!!!!
I watch as you discriminate in this sad little nation I watch as you refuse to hire him or befriend he I watch as you fall into a sad habit as you keep him from moving up and act lie we're dumb I watch as you become like everyone else always discriminating without even a thought I watch as this becomes a discriminating Nation Well, you know it is DiscrimiNation.
If I could go back to that day You know in a heartbeat I would Now all the words you say Hurt me more than my blades ever could Like Fric and Frac or Tigger and Pooh We were together all the time Even though I never dated you It felt I was yours and you were mine I liked you and you liked me We'd think about it all night If only we saw what they could see Maybe things would've ended right All our feelings stayed in one self We didn't dare take the risk Story of us put away on a shelf What happened next… cooler than brisk The other girl; the one you found Made you happier than I ever did I should've known it was bound She won you over without a bid Bad intentions she let you down You started so high and fell to the ground Now all you can do is mope and frown Hope there is a next time around I guess I lost my chance Because you'll wait forever for her 'Til then I've lost my prance Should've said something before for sure Reading the way you feel Knowing it could've been changed It's hard to think all this is real Everything's been so deranged Now all the words you say Hurt me more than my blades ever could If I could go back to that day You know in a heartbeat I would
She was only 16, God what did she know . Today was hers .What a special day, Nobody knew . Nobody seemed to Care. He stole her day, That special feeling, when you turn 16. Nobody knew, Oh what a day. He bought her a ring, Made it special, Wow he loved her. Huh Oh so she Thought. It wasn't time, She wasn't ready, It was her choice, He stole that too. She said no, He didn't care, Nobody knew how he hurt her so . It was her special day, He took it away, He had no rite . He wouldn't stop, no matter what, She screamed and kick, Yet he carried on. He pinned her down, It hurt so much, Held on the floor, It was so sore, He stole her youth, He had no rite . Yet said he did. That ring, He said your mine, He helped himself, Didn't care . Silent tears behind those eyes, So hurt, Betrayed, Tears of fear . He didn't care, He took control, He had no rite, But didn't stop, Yet she yelled and screamed NO. How she trusted, Oh what he stole, Wasn't his to hold . He took it away Her stolen youth, Yet nobody knew . Battered and bruised, Bleeding too, There she lay on the floor. Nobody cared, The shame she carried, So dirty and let down. He stolen her youth, She wasn't to blame, He helped himself, She just never knew, What to do. He took her youth, She was only 16, So empty alone, He left her there, On the floor, In floods of tears Walked away with his dirty smirk. He took that away, He stole her youth, Nobody knew, Till this day. Of her stolen youth, At only 16. If only she had known what to do.
a teenage girl with so much pain. insane thoughts running through her brain. she reaches out but no one sees. this girl im describing is really me. no one listens, to numb to feel wondering if heartache can ever heal. will have to wait and hope it will. teardrops falling on my windowsill.
This is the end Don't try to pretend I won't let you lie this time Your habits trapped you There's nothing to do I won't let you cry this time You're stuck with your action Prepare for reaction I didn't think it would be this way Not yet, not today You've brought it all down To it you are bound I won't let you escape this time You're caught in it all Prepare to crawl I won't let you run this time You're stuck with your action Prepare for reaction I didn't think it would be this way Not yet, not today
Away from him, Away from them. I dread it Like a rose without a stem. There, I'm away From all my sad tears, Away from the cold, And even farther from the fear. Away from all the dark Memories of cruelty. When you're away from that, It can be hard to be merry. Still, trim the tree. Put up those stubborn lights. I'll wear my santa hat. Still try to make the season bright. Light up the place with smiles! Don't be overwhelmed with gloom! Decorate the house really pretty, Just please don't blame me if I'm in my room.
`Honor thy father and mother` ~Ten Commandments it is She who has given birth to me, it is He who has worked to raise me, it is They who have given me life and kept me alive. I should be expressing my eternal gratitude, My undying respect and sworn obedience, yet what do I do? Their kindness and love, I forsake, Their faces, weary from working to support me, I curse at, The loyalty, respect and gratitude they deserve, I forget. I bury myself with guilt, I don`t know how to ask forgiveness, I find it hard to express my feelings with honesty. I have at least filial piety, Obligated by nature and by God, to honor my parents. Yet till now I always curse them when I don`t mean to, I answer back before I stop my cursed mouth, and I don`t give them to honor they deserve. I am the worst daughter, I have the best parents, I cry myself to sleep.
Pay Attention and you shall see the light that shines inside of me. Look closer in my eyes where all emotion in me lies. But you were elsewhere and you were blind. You never saw the pain in me climb. Look at me now after all the pain. After all the clues I gave you, in vain. And now, see me as I say goodbye. It's too late now as I lay here and slowly die. Myrna Lizzeth Acevedo
I have a growing black cloud in my heart My soul inside is slowly falling apart The decay of my spirit can be seen in sad eyes There is a growing attraction of this spectacle in an immeasurable size A freak show circus has come to town in this black cloud The audience comes with the currency of ridicule and judgment oh so proud! They point and laugh and mock me oh so cleverly! I am great for business because I am such a sad sight to see! No one knows what is really behind the curtains of my dark eyes Some where in my mind I pray for a quick demise I care too much and willing show the vulnerable card The audience mistakes my compassion for stupidity and labels me a retard There will be a point in time when I am just gone one day Some one will have to tell them the show is cancelled and to go away No more freak boy with the enlarged heart No more sensitive weirdo who is not too smart No drowning fish who can not do anything right Sorry your freak show was cancelled which brought you all such personal delight The time has come to find a new human attraction Some other poor bastard to mock for personal satisfaction
every day i try to talk. but i just can't find the words to say. so all i can do is sit and watch. as you laugh joke and play. i know that i have no chance. i know that your out of my league. but i still seem to fantasize. about you being with me. I know i can be annoying. and at certain times a little weird. But really I'm just trying. to hide my feelings when you're near. So i rap my songs and say my jokes. so that you can't see my tears.
I sense something in her eyes that feels like tragedy She closed her heart but its dark pulse Wilts and stetchs against the wanes How many days will the passion bleed Till it subsides into the new pain We are the ones who will face the blame ''Don't you see what's infront of me, I have to face it all I know there's something wrong help is what I want but it's not what I find You're all filled with troubling lies and incoherent minds Cant you see you're strangling me with every last word There's something you don't know Lying in my heart is why you want to throw the stone'' Her raven eyes fill the silence Luciferia we cease to exist it's burning away-- all others' reliance Luciferia we cease to exist my darkly darling don't fade away Luciferia we cease to exist beware we've became their prey Luciferia we cease to exist
Lying in the cool grass, Looking up, Admiring the twinkling lanterns Hung randomly in the black sky. Are you looking at the same sky? And focusing on the same star? And thinking about me? My head shakes vigorously In an attempt to get you out, But it does no good. A star shoots across the sky, Momentarily disturbing the Tranquility. I close my eyes, Deep breath in, And wish for you. It's all I have, Wishes that dont come true, And tears.
"It's hard to see someone I love go through so much pain." Were the words I heard that night I called on Jesus' name. "This person whom I love, has gone through so much." "How I wish to bring my peace and healing touch." I cried and wept, as I heard the master's voice. His gift of love is for all of us... It's our choice! His body was broken... A sacrifice was made. His life for our sorrow and pain, is what he gave. His grace is more than sufficient for the pain we endure. His love and commitment to you, is true and secure. He loves you so much. He waits at your heart's door. He gives peace and comfort. And so much more! The pain and suffering you're going through today. Please listen to the words Christ has to say. "I am El-Shadaii." "Jehovah-Jireh." "Your very best friend." "My love and devotion to you will never, never end." By Jim Pemberton 2008
You were my knight And I thought I would be your lady I began to feel like I wouldn't be able to live with out you you were my rock you held me up you made me feel like someone at the end of the day you made me feel like I could do any and every thing you made me feel like I was being me.....the real me you helped me find myself within myself you were the cause of all those great things about me But what you didn't know is that you also sometimes made me feel like i wasn't good enough or that I couldn't give you all you needed But in the end you showed me something about me That no one else was able to do You showed me how to be me You let me be me.......with you!
It's dark and it's scary. I'm still alive and breathing, but just barely. You're sitting by my bed thinking your dreaming. You sit there and pray that I awake from sleeping. You start to cry about the scary thought. That I might not wake up and you think it's your fault. I want to wake and tell the truth. But I can't because the darkness is calm and to smooth. I've got to wake, I've got to tell. It wasn't your fault and I'm putting you through hell. I was hurt and wanted to die. I know you didn't mean it, I know what you said was a lie. We had a fight, a huge war. The war in which I walked out the door. I want to come back, imurge from the darkness. And give you my heart back and complete forgiveness. I finally awake and see you there. You start to cry and kiss my hair. I tell you I love you and I don't want to lose you. You pull me close and tell me you love me too. I start to cry and cover my head. With the shirt on your body while you sit on my bed. My chest hurts, my chest aches. Probably from the bullet I used or the life I tried to take. I love you so much so I have to say. Mend my heart again and I will stay...
the taste of air, dry on your tongue, the sounds of nothing, of songs unsung. the feeling of ghost bumps, prickling your neck, the smell of blood, bodies are wrecked. the view of darkness, the sky and stars these are what nightmares are. the smile of a friend, as they realize their fate. the tears on your face, 'cause you know its to late. the laugh of a murderer, cocking his gun, the scream of a kid, as he has his fun. street lights, abandoned cars, these are what nightmares are. the voices plotting inside your head, the monsters screaming under your bed. he feeling os someones eyes or your neck, the scrape of a blade as it puts you to death. your arms, the regretful scars these are what nightmares are.
Two young lovers had eloped Wandering through the grasses together they hoped That this time will be one lasting love A beautiful gift from up above Now the two young lovers got what they hoped for But never knew that someday hunger will knock at their for Love can destroy even the divinity Fate can turn into a one-sided animosity Both of them were tied in each other's strings They were not too curios what their action brings Too young to realize their real fate Too fast to be each other's mate Desperate to get out of the dark For they have already made their own mark The two young lovers decided to finally quit Before both of them will fall into a worse pit.
"My dark feelings" The darkness is magnificent, The light is nearly drowned. The feeling to go on in life, before the breaking sound. Tears always fall, From my face, And always there to stay, and how hard i try to move on. It seem to never go away, That all it take's four small words, And the tears forever stain. Laughing, crying, living, dying, They all come with pain. But i've survived it all the years gone by. And to me it remained... the same. In the world there is something "far" wore's, Then what i thought was pain.... One small cold look, One hurtful broken promise, And the world comes crazing down.
Young teenage girls Falling for these kinds of boys Giving up themselves All just for the taste of love Next thing you know They don't come back tomorrow Yesterday was today Today was another day When will they stop? And realize That these young boys Are just here to destroy What's really yours All they want is more and more If not they'll walk out of the door They just want to know you from head to toe Thiers nothing for you to hide Except the shame inside Sex isn't the answer All these young boys want is pleasure But love is much louder Than the pressure Of just wanting to be perfect Just for him When will they open their eyes? And realize That there's more to life Then falling in love At this young age right now And somehow They seem so blind It really makes me want to cry They use us as sex object Sex is their subject And we don't listen to our friends But just want to please him Young teenage girls Falling for these kinds of boys Giving up themselves All just for the taste of love Next thing you know They don't come back tomorrow Yesterday was today Today was another day When will they stop?
You came like lightening your brightness flashed my eye I don't know when you made it happen you took me by surprise You are my elegant rose; you blossomed with all your might I want you to bloom forever, let this be an endless night You are priceless to me I could never measure your worth If the secret to have you existed id toil all day to unearth It can't always be day the sun does have to go But as we go to sleep we hope for another tomorrow Wish life made it simpler then I wouldn't have to make a choice Now whenever I hear the word honey it will seem like your voice I'm walking away from you towards barren land I'm moving away but it's not possible to let go of your hand I remember all our kisses and all the overnight talk I know it's a world of vehicles but I love to hold your hand and walk Wherever you may go, in my heart you will dwell Even Cinderella had her limit till the clock ticked twelve - Collice Rodrigues 27/09/2011
She stole my promise The one you made to me You said we had forever And then you set me free You wanted to start over Find somebody new And she became the one You gave my promise to The little things we did And how we used to laugh Now when the day is over She is your better half I loved you through it all And Baby, I still do But it's her heart you're wanting To give my promise to
Our linguistic limbs sulk as the dreary day progresses. It begs and aches for more pain for it's grown accustomed. The longing and desire that lingers within the blood pulsating As each day marches forth, A feeling of hate submerges and dominates the emotion sulking back Toward the dark core we now possess.
I just want to run and disappear Far away from everyone and everything To get away from all my problems I just want to run far far away I will leave all my worries behind I can start all over with everything New mistakes, new friends, new life I just want to run far far away My whole life is a mistake Nothing good ever happens It is slowing going down the drain I just want to run far far away No one loves me No one even cares My life is pretty much hell Please I just want to run far far away
You said you love me I knew it was a lie But I played alone Just to see how far it would fly But now i'm beginning to wish We had never parted Because i'm missing you We weren't together long But so much happen in that short time Some of the things i do Seem to still remind me of you Maybe it's not the same for you But when it came from me it was true I do love you But not forever Boo And i do know I dont regret a day that we spent together But one And tha's the day I met you
I am here but alienated I exist but I am isolated. No one here really cares How my soul fares. Nothing here really matters I'm amidst a horrid clatter. I feel so very lost My spirit tempest-tossed. Do I have to go on? My heart is turned to stone. Can I still love? Can I still be loved? I never felt such hate Is destruction my fate? I no longer know myself, My life is on a shelf. I'm on the edge of a brink I can no longer think. No one hears my voice of woe, And I know not where to go... They all smile and say "It's all right" – and walk away. My strength is nearly gone, But somehow I go on. Soon I'll go no further I will ne'er again stir. I have no desire to survive No want to again be alive. What is life worth, Every minute here on Earth? Won't someone help me please - And give me some release? Or at least let me die And forever silence My Cry!
Today I couldn't think of anything but you, Cause your memory lingers in my mind. It's painful and makes me blue; A way out I try to find, Cause it's killing me that I cant be with you. Tonight I won't be able to sleep, Cause your voice will keep me awake. My life your memory will reap; All that has happened causes heartache, Cause my feelings for you were truly deep. Tomorrow my life will go on, Cause I don't want to live in the past. A reality now forgone; This pain will somehow be surpassed, And my feelings, someday, withdrawn.
You stood, the center of attention All eyes fixed upon you I stood unnoticed in the back My admiration exceeding all others You were with her, so happy They thought you were the perfect couple I was unnoticed, off to the side Wishing that I was her You fell behind, beaten and broken Ignored, disregarded, seemingly alone I was unnoticed, but catching you as you fell Crying, now knowing I'd never be seen All this time you've lived your life Full of both good and bad times All this time I've been unnoticed here Loving you more every day
While on patrol Down by the beach A shadow in the water Just out of my reach It's off a young girl About sixteen years old What would have troubled her For her life to fold We report it in And await the coroners van To unscramble this enigma As to why this all began Down at the morgue Through her belongings we look A bracelet we find And her diary book We check on the computer Under the missing persons file This girl so young Still a juvenile We sit and ponder At her watery stray This girl so young She's a runaway We head back to the patrol car For we have sad news to tell How do you tell her parents For inside me it dwells We knock on the door And her mother appears May we please come in As her smile disappears On the beach front tonight A young girl was found In the shallows by the pier I'm so very sorry, she drowned On the way back to the precinct I'm thinking of home Of my own young daughter Pray-fully, she'll never roam A week has passed Since they laid her to rest They said, look after your daughter I sure will mam, I'll do my best http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/loss-4.php
The suffocation, when did it take over? Why is it so hard to breath? 'Why' is such a common question with absolutly no answer. Why do we want it? Why do we need it? Why why why why why why why? I don't understand, understand this pressure, this suffocation. I can't breath, but maybe I dont want to. Maybe then all the suffocation, the pressure, the questions.... maybe they'll all go away... Maybe, Just maybe.
I was the one with words To comfort you I was the one who's Love was true I was the one with Open arms I was the one Who shielded you From harms I was the one was Dedicated It was you And your love that I appreciated I was the one Who expressed With silence in the air I am the one who Will always care But now that's changed You left me stranded I'm sitting here lost in Thoughts of you that Leave me enchanted I miss you everyday I watch my life around me Crumble and whish You never went away You'll never find the "second best" And if you do she'll love you less You left me here feeling dead You poisoned me It was your love to what I fled Overprotected by the blood relation Locked away and being reared Into what they think will be "The perfect creation" Rumors of you and me Flowing like rivers Without you here I'm brimming with shivers Blow a kiss and run through air Leave our past but find nowhere Tears that just fall You don't remember me at all How could this happen to me Every memory and every action Arises our passion our love and attraction But now that's gone into space Where the stars embrace it So that when it gets darker they will Show me the way bit by bit…
Zigzag Hearts and Pent-up Dreams No matter how perfect everything seemed I guess we had our faults Sitting here, I'm almost crying And I can't seem to stop. You made everything seem so right So perfectly fixing mistakes Nothing felt wrong, it was all correct But you've made my heart break. You said I was all you wanted And you were everything to me And yet, you say we don't belong I guess there was something I didn't see. And all at once, I'm alone A piece of me is gone Once again, I made the classic mistake I did what I knew was wrong. I opened myself up to you And make myself feel weak I should have known better than to hold your hand Or let you dazzle me when you speak. I suppose it was "just a crush" In your eyes, that's how it seemed And now, I'm broken once again With a zigzag heart and pent-up dreams.
Thats all she needs. She desperatly wants his strong, protective arms to wrap around her and sheild her from this cruel world, this world that has broken her. She desperatly needs him to whisper to her the words that would set her free. That everything will be ok, and that he won't ever leave, Like the many times before, where she would lie in his arms for hours just listening to him breath in and out. His steady heartbeat playing its beautiful composition in her ear. The most signifigant sound in her world. She drops to her knees, pulling her drentched hair from its roots, Screaming at the heavens. "WHY?!" The heavens respond with a loud bellow, shaking the earth beneath her. She knows the truth. Yet she refuses to accept it. The pouring rain continues to fall. She continues to break. He does not exist. Not anymore. He never did. She wanted it too much. She wanted to feel love. She wanted to feel human. She wanted to feel the unconditional need to be with another person, and have that feeling returned with equal amounts of passion. Was it too much to ask for? Is it too much to ask for? She can not move. The rain starts to freeze mid air, violently pelting her exposed body, leaving red marks as proof. She does not care. She can not feel. The heavens cry out to her, begging her to get up, To get help. She refuses. All she needs is him. Who ever He is... Where ever He is... She will wait. Wait for all of eternity if need be. She will wait for the unconditional love. For that unruly passion that burns in both of their souls. She waits for the man who was designed to love her, to need her the same way she needs him. Forever. She waits for the man who cannot live without her warmth, her touch. And with that, She slowly, unwillingly pushes herself off the muddy pavement, permitting herself one final glance at the angry sky, catching a glimpse at her diamond among coal Her only friend in the wake of night. The moon. "Save me, my angel...Save me." she whispers towards the sky, allowing a tiny smile to dance across her pale, desolate face Before returning back to her throne in her cold, abandon dungon, her in lonly, abandon castle. Feeling a new emotion she's never felt before. Hope. Hope shoots across her sky like a metor. Shinning so bright, filling her with warmth that blinds her. The heavens cry out, Relief. He will find her one day. And she will be waiting. [.Because Falling in love, Is giving someone the power to break you.]
When ever I meet you I think that my life is only for you There is a home in my heart Little but enough to love you There is autumn in my city So I gathered pale leafs for you And freshen them by my tears Might I can blossom them for you Leaves on road, and withered flowers But lo in my eyes, there is a heaven for you Life is colorful, it is the world of colors But all the colors are faint before you yesterday I catch a butterfly And put into a bottle for you Today it has die, and told me from sky Beauty is, to see, to amuse ,but not for you
Is your life running on empty fumes? Are the adversities and stress of life being consumed? Any zeal and passion for God may be in the past… You wonder; "How long is life going to last???" Perhaps you feel like your anchor's "been lost at sea…" And ask; "Lord… Why is this happening to me?" Things in life often catch us "unaware…" You may ask; "does anyone out there really care?" There is someone who can help you along! In Jesus' arms of mercy is where you belong! He walked this earth and calmed the sea of Galilee… He'll calm the storms of life for you and me! Won't you give him a chance... To calm your fears? And allow his love to wipe away any tears? He'll bring peace to a hopeless situation… All you need to do… Is to give him an invitation… The choice is yours… It's your decision to make! Won't you do it now? Before it's too late??? By Jim Pemberton 01/18/10
Transparent dresses Girls' summer legs They smile and meet Each other's eyes They think they're free And rule the world The first-come guy Could break them all
you see this tear stream down my face a lonely star that's been disgraced while mom and dad went out to play this girl sat with her thoughts all day a mom who felt the chill of a tear a father who ignored the fear a sister who felt insecure a brother who remained sincere a phony front for a casual life consumes her and her family time an exhausted gagging in her throat she's tired of this life she wrote.