Tonight, in Celebrate Recovery, we learned about Victory. We looked at steps 6 and 7.
I’ve worked these steps. I’m not “done” working them. I have to choose each day to submit myself to the Will of God. God is constantly wanting to change us – to mold us – into a being more and more like Jesus. I have to be willing to be changed.
That’s hard for a stubborn, hard-headed, prideful woman like myself. I say that because “I’m not wrong, you are. I don’t need to change. You do.” That was me. I’m still stubborn, hard-headed and prideful. Now I realize that those are pieces of my that God is wanting to change. I have to be willing to give all of that to God though. What I can’t understand is why I want to keep holding on to that?
Right now, my family is getting ready to embark on a new adventure – and I’m afraid. I don’t know what will happen, what life will be like and I have little to no control. (Have I mentioned that I tend to be a control freak?). And yes, I’m afraid.
I guess that’s why I keep holding onto that other stuff. If I let go, what’s left? What will be left of me if I’m not all of those other things? I suppose that’s the point isn’t it? To have nothing of “me” left so that all there is, is Jesus.
That’s what the Victory lesson is really about. As I think about it, our Sunday morning sermon was about the same thing really, leaving all we know behind for Jesus. When we lose ourselves – OUR desires, OUR ways of doing things, OUR money, OUR strength, OUR… – we are open and able to fully receive what Jesus has to offer.
What Jesus has to offer is victory – a victory over life that is bigger than anything we could ever do. And my stupid fear is standing in the way.
So today, I choose to listen to the Voice of Truth. I will NOT be afraid of what is to come, because I know that it is for God’s glory, so that He can do great things in my family’s life and use us to glorify Him to others. When my Jesus was nailed to the cross, my fear was nailed to the cross with him. And when Jesus conquered death, he gave me victory too.