I was cleaning out my closet and found some old journals. These particular entries show my mental state before I was diagnosed with Bipolar. I am amazed how I described bipolar as "it" without even knowing what it was. The pictures show my rage and depression. I now know that controlling my life and things around me were my way of trying to control the bipolar. I am grateful to the doctor who properly diagnosed me. He saved me!
I recently read a family member's writings from their Bipolar episodes. They would randomly scribble comments on sheets of paper. It was enlightening to see how they really felt during those manic moments. I am glad you were able to write about your feelings and keep the journals, too. It should bring you real clarity. Continued success in moving forward to a healthy tomorrow. take care.
So happy for you that brighter days are here!
that's kind of what I see when I look at my journals before I was diagnosed.