I don’t sleep well. I’m like some mutant hybrid of a night owl and an early bird – going to bed just before the stroke of midnight and waking up before the crack of dawn. Most of this stems from the fact that my mind NEVER SHUTS UP! Whenever I try to close my eyes, my brain keeps up a steady chatter of thoughts, moving from one subject to the next with no logical progression, usually deciding to focus on the one or two stressful things that have been lurking in the deep recesses, causing me worry and sometimes even physical discomfort with a knot in my stomach.
God forbid that I wake up to pee at 4am, because while I desperately try to go back to sleep afterwards, it rarely works. Part of the problem is that as soon as I throw back the covers and head to the bathroom, my mind starts playing the theme song for the day. I mean this in a very literal sense! Melody, lyrics, guitar solos – it’s all in there! I don’t know if it is from the years I worked in radio or my love of music in general – or just because I’m a little crazy – but every damn time I wake up, a song starts up in my head.
I’ve wondered if it is just random – maybe a song I heard the day before that has been waiting for a chance to burst out in a twisted kind of silent karaoke. I’ve also wondered if there is a particular reason my brain picks THAT particular song – is it trying to warn me about something? Help me solve a problem of some sort? To solve the riddle, I’ve decided track the songs of the day and document the soundtrack of my mind. The scientific community may thank me some day.
About a year ago, my doc put me on an anti-depressant, which not only helps with depression, but also helps with hot flashes and knocks me out for about five hours. Unfortunately, after five hours, I’m wide awake. I would LOVE to be able to get 8 hours of sleep a night or (gasp) sleep in on the weekends! Thanks for visiting my blog and commenting, Terri!