Sounds like someone could use a weekend away, both to rest the mind and the tonsils.
that's the worst. i have dreams like this too sometimes. how do we make them stop?
I think you dreamed that Alice and Hal were gone because Alice disappeared for a few seconds at McDonalds and we didn't know where she was. Do you remember that? It was a bit scary. I think it made an impression on you and just popped in your head as a random dream. BUT, I do know what you mean and I am glad your sore throat went away. Hope it doesn't come back. Yes, I am up late. I think it's time for bed. Love you.
I am glad you're feeling better. Sweet sleep tonight.
That last picture is heartbreakingly wonderful. The loneliness inside your head can be so overwhelming sometimes. Loving you today.
While the nightmare about our kids can be so unbelievably hard to shake, it's those daily moments -- the ones you can't explain to anyone, not even your spouse, that seem to build up the most to me. Sometimes it feels like I live a completely separate life from my husband -- even as hard as we try to keep ourselves together, all the times even in exhaustion that we force ourselves to converse about the day -- you just can't communicate all of it. And it feels like that's what I want the most -- for him to understand ALL of it. The weight of every single second of it.
I think you just hit on the root of a mother's loneliness. That vague feeling that I've never been able to describe.
On a bright note...t's almost spring! Hopefully the sunshine and warmer air will help to lighten moods and hearts. I know I desperately need it and am looking forward to it.
I had strep throat this week. And I still can't swallow without wincing.
I hate those dreams. And I often feel both lonely and the need to be left alone. Weird.
Yeah for answered prayers, and boo to bad dreams! I have dreams where I wake up furious with my husband. It's always hard because the emotional response is so real, but he's done nothing. Haha! He just laughs at me.
I loathe the "nightmare sickness" and I know exactly what you are talking about.
i totally get the dream sickness. it's this vague unsettled feeling that's tethered to my thoughts the whole rest of the day, and I can't ever shake it. even if it's not that bad a dream, it just feels like being followed by something weird and shadowy.
thank you for always posting such thoughtful and REAL stories. it's really comforting to know other people think this way too.
I am lonely a lot. Not alone in the physical sense, I have many great friends.
But more alone in my thoughts that I think others might not understand, or I am too insecure to share.
I don't say this to butter you up, but your posts are some of my favorites reads, like...ever.
Can relate fully, 100% never knew how to write it or get it out but I think you did my mind justice.
Blech! I hate weird dreams and they ARE so isolating!! But, I think that saying them out loud helps so much, it diffuses their power. Anyway bummer. And glad you feel better!!
oh, for the understanding and validation. I'm trying more and more to turn inward but also elsewhere for that. like you did with the tonsils.
glad you're feeling better. miss you and our chats.
Oh, reading this I totally understand what you're saying. Some days I find the thought that we are all sort of alone in our thoughts, like the million little fleeting ones that pass us by, quite lonely.... but then I find a strange comfort that other people are having these little blips of thoughts too. Its a curious thing!
don't you love it when you pray for something, and your prayer is answered? in way that's noticeable and tangible and immediately evident? also, i hate those dreams, where you can't move when you wake up the fear is so paralyzing. i know those dreams and hate them, too. i wish i could come over and watch the kids and buy you and the hubs a night alone. just to be.
Yeah, I get it. Both the nightmare sickness and just wanting someone to know you feel crappy and tired. I wish you rest and health and sweet, sweet dreams.
So glad the sickness stayed away!