I'm sure everyone has wondered at one time or another how they would react to an unexpected diagnosis. I know I had wondered from time to time and never managed to answer that question. I now know.
I was given the diagnosis from a ct scan showing that it was indicative of ovarian cancer on a Friday evening. What??? I never saw anything like that coming. I had the scan done by my gastro! The surprise was I felt no fear! Where was the cold frozen fear? Where were the thoughts of this cannot be happening? All I can tell you, is I feel everyone is given a path and this one is mine to follow. The choice I have is how I will walk down it. My next thought (and this will come as a surprise to those who know me -not!) was I don't know what the future holds but I need to make a list! I have a lot of things to get done!!!
After I had shared the news with JB, my daughters, sister, brothers, parents, the rest of the family and dear friends the lesson phase began and continues. I cannot believe the positive thoughts and prayers that are surrounding me. I can feel them and it makes me strong in body and spirit. I am so blessed!!! Why? Have I been a good enough wife, mother, grandmother, sister, aunt, daughter, step-mother, cousin, niece, friend, person? Have I used God's gifts well? Whatever the answer, I am grateful for everything!!! Make no mistake, I am so much happier being on the giving end of things but I am thanking all of you for your incredible outpouring of prayers and support. I am learning that receiving is a precious part of life too.