Dan R. started to use pervitin thirteen years ago. Few years later he added kodein, brown, and at last heroin, which gained a predominant position. From 1997 to 1999 he fell back into deep heroin addiction. Concurrently he had to také antidepressants, due to psychological problems caused by pervitin abuse.
Initially Dan was rather sceptical about the idea, that there could be „something” able to help him in a radical way.He himself was surprised realizing, that withdrawal symptoms are missing and that no desire for heroin is on the way,day after day. He was supposed to be already in the middle of a fairly huge withdrawal crisis. Alcohol appeared to be tasteless. At last he tried some opiates ten days after ibogain administration and realized, that the „fulfillment”was much lower than expected and the mind remained clear.
Anyway, considering that the average period that addicts remain „clear” after ibogain is half a year, I wasn´t quite satisfied with the result. I came to the conclusion, that the process that was meant to také place during the session was not completed. After two weeks from the first session I repeated the ibogain administration and this time the result was complete.
Dan passed consciously through emotional and mental cleansing, was shown a variety of relations connected to his personality,drugs and traumas. Gained a clear feeling, that drugs belong to his past and that he´s not an addict anymore. Still few months from the second session his state of detoxification is quite stable. He´s not afraid of relapsing in the middle-time period.
Physically he feels much better, the relationships with people have improved, especially with his mother.
Dan considered pervitin the drug that hurt him most and represented his biggest problem in general. In fact pervitin causes serious long-term patological effects, possible serious physical damage and the psychological addiction is so strong, that usually gets somatized.
There are no datas concerning the effect of ibogaine on pervitin abuse, I was then rather curious of the result in this specific case. A very interesting fact is that right after the first session Dan had a dream in which he saw himself and a big stone that blocked him the way to pervitin. Two sessions with ibogain were sufficient to remove completely all psychological problems caused by pervitin and any possible desire he may have to try it again.
In the long run he feels the residual addictive mechanisms are softening and disappearing, which is great.
……Also I got aware of the power of the thoughts and realized what does it mean to think in a negative way. I acknoledged how I keep on complicating my life trying to cover something, closing myself, so that nobody would realize who I really am and wound me, making myself more voulnerable. I realized I cannot keep saying if I would have this and that than I would be happy. With the help of the ibogaine I realized I´m happy and as a confirmation of this all I experienced a wonderful meditation,which came spontaneously, in which I was like flying in the space and shouted „I´m happy”, space beings danced with me and everywhere I could hear „she´s happy”.Everything went out to be very positive, in some situations I couldn´t help and laughed loudly. In other moments I cried from happyness or from the joy from the wisdom.
Still that Sunday I wasn´t able to predict what influence shall it have on me when I get back into reality. I was a bit afraid everything would get back to the old way. Till now my feelings concerning this experience are great and I know it was very beneficial for me. I feel myself really “different”, I can see it also on other people, their approach to me changed. Now it´s clear to me I mustn´t “let it go”…..
Now,after getting back into the “normal world” I realize interesting changes in myself.Things don´t bother me much. They´re neutral to me. It´s not like losing the “reason to live” in a physical body. Just looking at things as an observer and it´s a very interesting feeling.
The sleep is deeper, more “nourishing”, dreams are more vivid , plastic and I can remember them more easily.
2.Female, age 23, methadon addiction 70 mg daily, received three IBO treatments within one month with doses respectively 15, 15, 22 mg/kg. After the third treatment the subject was one week without pains, able to sleep even without pills. Claims that after this week some physical problems started again and for this reason got back to heroin, but without any craving. One month later accepted in the methadon program again at the level of 35 mg/kg.
3. Male, age 27, heroin addiction 1,5 – 2 gr. , received 16 mg/kg of IBO. Prior to this was about 24 hours drug free and suffering from withdrawal. During the treatment IBO did not calm down the pain, wich began subjectively unbearable. Four and a half hours later got 150 mg of Diolan. Claimed no effect in pain reduction (legs and back). Three hours later he quit the treatment and smoked 0,2 gr. of heroin (8 hours after IBO intake). The next day stayed drug free without problems, even being in “downtown”. The day after he wondered what effects would haveon him now small amounts of heroin and this way slowly got back to the previous level of addiction.
Suddenly I got the feeling that not everything was in order with the things I was seeing and began to search for the reason. I saw a small comic figure, all in black and as it saw me began to run away. I hunted it for a while before I managed to catch it and throw it on the ground, which took away a piece of its black colour. So I started to také away the rest of the black colour and at once I saw that it was me – it was my ego with all its imperfections. I saw on myself all the aspect’s of my ego, including those I didn´t like at all. So I began to clean them from my ego (and bet he tried to difend itself!). I released him only when he looked completely differently.The ego shook like a wet dog and quickly ran away.