I still want to cut. Sometimes I feel so awful and in pain that I just- want to do something to stop it. And to punish myself for having it in the first place. I have a hard time crying- it doesnt come naturally to me anymore... and Ive found that thoughts of self harm have taken its place.
So. Sometimes I want to cut or just- hurt myself extremely. Wont go into more details because I dont want to trigger anyone... but its been years and years since Ive self harmed and it just makes me a little sad that I still think about it sometimes. I feel broken.
I don't know how to cry instead of cut either. I'm sorry. HUGS. But we are here, listening and caring.