An orphan to me is a person who doesn’t have a sister in his family . I always wonder: how do people make it through life without a sister? because I honestly can’t . When I look at my sister’s eyes, I always find my happiness. Her voice carries me back all my childhood’s memories and then move me forward to the bright future.
My dearest sister, Umamh, came to visit me in Portland during the month of Ramadan and this is why Ramadan this year is really different to me than the last four years. We sat together during Ramadan breakfast, we remembered all the family memories then we laughed together . When I got sick in the last two week, she didn’t let me walk out of my bed. She brings everything I want to my room by herself. She is so caring.
All I want to say from this post is: if you have a sister in your family, please know how blessed you are. If she asked you one day to give her a ride so that she can visit her friends especially in Saudi Arabia where women can’t drive, please know that is nothing compare what she has done for you. If one day you were undecided between spending your time with your sister or with your friends in Deywanyah (الديوانية), please know that all your friends no matter how good they are, are nothing compare to the smile of your sister.
What is your favorite philosopher? and why?
I was supposed to post this yesterday but because I got very ill and I couldn’t write anything about my birthday. I don’t celebrate my birthday very often, but I always like to look at myself again, to reevaluate and think of all my weakness and strengths. I have always tried to develop a friendship with myself. There were bad times when I felt that I don’t wanna be me. There were also good times when I felt that I am happy with who I am. The struggle to move from who I am to who I want to be isn’t easy and always painful.
However, I am happy with who I am, I am happy with all the struggles I have been through, I am happy with all the mistakes I made because it taught me a lot. I don’t want to be same person as last year. I want to be different. I want to have new experience, encounter new friends, make new mistakes, listen to new stories, think of life differently, read different books, and have new struggle and challenges.
At the end, I would like to thank all the people who come by my blog, Thank you for sharing your thoughts, your stories with me in the blog. I am always grateful for your help, your kindness, your understanding and your honesty with me.