You might hate me and love me at the same time.
I am the one responsible for the body you have now, the once flat chested girl all grown up and now attract admiring stares from everyone. Most of the time, I am the one you wait for. The one you work hard for at the gym so you may get an incredible body, and take home a more incredible self-esteem.
You have always longed for me.
I am the one you pray for when you are single, and hope that the next person you go out on a date with will finally be “The One”. I am the first thing you think of when you are on an abusive relationship and wants to get out, and the last thing on your mind once you pray to have the courage to turn things around for the better.
Somehow, you also fear me.
All those visits to your doctor, all the facials and botox injections to stop me may work temporarily and may delay my onset, but in the end, I am the one who will always be beside you no matter how you deny my presence in your life. I am the one you think of when you want to have another career, another relationship, but you just could not find yourself to do so. Security and complacency, you will never find me wherever those two are.
However, I tell you this. Do not stop. Do not be afraid. If you are no longer happy with regards to where you are right now, make use of me. You have to take the first step and I will follow. It only takes one step after another, and I am yours. Let it be known that I am based purely on your decisions and once you make up your mind, you can conquer the world with me– because the world will never run out of people who will want to have me, be it for the good or for the worse of intentions. Know that from the day that you were born until the day you die, the decision to make full use of me has always been in your hands. Always have, always will be.
Most people will never have the courage to use me, as I can be pretty scary most of the time. So they grow old, never really having me. Humans think they have all the time in the world so they always set me aside. But if you are one of the few who knows that your time here is limited, that every minute you have is too precious to do something that you hate, or be with someone that puts you down, use me. Use me NOW. I cannot promise that you will make the right decision all the time, but I can promise that it will be worth it.
So, maybe I will see you soon?
Marissa Mojica is an Assistant to the President. She writes to silence the thoughts on her head and wake up the heart. To her, coffee is not optional but a must.