This album is for anyone struggling with what to believe in. This album is for me. This album is for my family. This album is for you.
Alexis Politz, Sam Sterk, and The X-Files.
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I started talking again. Started talking to old friends just to let them know how I've been.
And its sad how easily it slips away. It gets farther and farther with every passing day.
And some men fall apart. Some men slip into the dark.
We don't know why we cant read their hearts.
We don't know how or where it starts but some men fall apart. Some men slip into the dark.
Oh Father I fell again. Will you welcome me home even after this. Because its only a matter of time. I cannot continue sleeping in this bed of lies. I am walking in pastures but they are burning down. And as far as I can tell theres no way out.
Ive been running my head into the ground. A nose dive into an ocean that looks and sounds like an unholy mess. If I knew I was lost why did I stay on that path? Oh we all fall apart usually when we're young. Yeah we poison our livers and suffocate our lungs. And cut out our own tongues.
Do you believe me when I say I'm trying, I'm trying to change. But I cant do this on my own. I can feel my heart turning to stone.
I can only ignore the voices in my head for so long. But eventually they break me, they pick apart and hang me. I am weak they are strong. I know you think that Gods got plans for you but the devils always looking for new recruits.
what feelings could I prove? They're all the same to you.
I know exactly what lies to tell everyone I meet. To make myself seem normal and to make them believe it. It's enough o make my nose bleed. When these voices start talking to me. Like are you still in love with her and what do you think shes doing right now with him.
So is this something I should get used to?
Cause the longer we live the less we speak the truth.
Its all the same to you. Its all the same to you.
I am what you call good for nothing. A silent film thats not worth watching. A waste of time and a waste of breath. A melody to put your mind at rest. Did you find someone else to take your phone calls in the middle of the night? If you want to know if the nightmares stop as far as I know they don't. Theres a fine line between running away. And erasing yourself from everything we used to love. Did you burn off your fingerprints and burn all your photographs? Because I cant seem to find you anywhere except my dreams. Well the biggest lie you told me was try your best and everything will get better. Nothing got better. Time made everything worse. Is that what I get for putting myself first?
Found you with your face in your hands. Begged you to help me understand. Was it years of people telling you lies to your face to burn down your pride?
I wish I could cleanse your mind of memories you should've left behind. Instead I found you in your room. Buried in your childhood tomb.
I just want to turn back time. And convince you that everythings alright. Try to give you living hope that we are not forever broke.
Found you trapped inside your thoughts. No need to hang on your cross. No need to cry anymore. No need to bury yourself.
Sit down. Lets just talk. Don't drown in what you've lost. Think of me when you've lost your way. Im gone now but ill be back in may. We've all got our own gods but are they going to save us? I felt the dirt, I feel much safer in land. Most men they fear the seas for they know not what is in them. I see storms every day but I have no power to tame them. Men fear what they cannot control and you cant control salvation. No you cant control salvation.
So what do you find beautiful. What do you find beautiful.
Some men fall apart. Some men slip into the dark.
Oh father I fell again, will you welcome me home even after this.
I know you think that Gods got plans for you but the devils always looking for new recruits.
Is that what I get for putting myself first?
No need to hang on your cross. No need to hang on your cross.
Plant the flowers in the garden. Make them pretty and neat. And when you're all finished wash your hands of me. Im just the dirt that made your grow and I learned that you don't always reap what you sow. Im just the dirt that made you grow, I'm just the dirt. I know you had to leave but don't blame me. Im just the one who tried to give you everything. Im just the dirt that made you grow and I learned that you don't always reap what you sow. Im just the dirt that made you grow. Now I'm alone.