​It can be difficult to maintain compassion for “normal” or “regular” people when it feels like they are purposely remaining ignorant within the matrix, almost as if they are blatantly refusing to lift the veil for themselves. This can be frustrating, to say the least, especially if you’re in the emotional purging process of awakening, which brings with it a need to clear your chakras, set boundaries, and fully express yourself from a soul level. However, you cannot force an awakening on anyone else—although you can help if you choose to and they are ready, which they may or may not even realize they are—and if you’re feeling frustrated with people in general, this is a good indicator that you may be trying too hard to “make” them see your newly awakened perspective. Unfortunately, this is more likely to drive wedges between you than bring you together, and when you first begin waking up, it’s pretty common to get angry about the state of the world and the humans within it, especially when you begin to learn about just how deep the corruption runs. Like everything else, though, it is your responsibility to move past this type of thinking and adjust your attitude toward your fellow human beings to understanding rather than judgment. This is one of your ego’s efforts to keep its hold on your consciousness, and unfortunately it can have you behaving in ways that can come across as arrogant and closed-minded, which is not what a spiritual awakening is about.
​Loneliness is a common emotional state when you’re going through a spiritual awakening, simply because you start feeling like all of the work you’re doing and breakthroughs you’re having are minimized by the still-unconscious people around you. It feels very alone, like no one cares about your progress, and like you’re facing this massive, uncertain shift all by yourself, without even so much as a friend to talk about it with in many cases. Small talk, conversations about money and the crap people buy, and pretty much all other everyday topics stop being interesting to you. You feel the need to dive much deeper, and the people in your immediate vicinity may or may not be capable of joining you at that depth. Even if they are capable, they may not want to simply because it forces them to take a closer look at their own lives, habits, and perceived flaws in an indirect way. Most unconscious people are not ready for this, which can make things very uncomfortable and further compound your sense of loneliness and abandonment.
When I was younger, I had an incredibly spiritual experience after consuming an entire bottle of Robitussin (I do NOT recommend this, btw... it was extremely overwhelming and strange and unbalanced overall). As I fell asleep, my dreams in my subconscious mind continued to be influenced by this substance, though most of it had worn off already. Here's what happened.