`` and i got lost and went in the wrong direction and i could n't find the place and everyone knows i 'm really bad with directions but i kept looking because i knew you would think i was throwing the challenge but i was n't , and i do n't want brodie to get ahead at all , i just want us to get back to being cool and i would n't even let him see how i twisted my pretzels because i did n't want you to think i was helping him and- '' `` shhh , '' he told me .