anywhere but here trees wave and tease blown in the long free breeze urging me out and into the blue into the sunlit green spaces where no words trip over clumsy tongues where no tensions drip like rain from eaves i do n't even wish i was a bird i only wish i was out there walking in the grass or climbing in the trees heated by the sun or chilled by the wind or wet in the rain anywhere but here chained to this stagnant shore a prisoner of perfection an enemy of state for no more crime than being a teenaged girl in like with a teenaged boy for no more crime than driving in lazy dusty endless circles listening to country songs and my own nervous heartbeat my pulse pounding and my nerves twanging like the banjos on the radio i ca n't even shout my anger ca n't even scream my frustration ca n't even curse it would only come out a jumble `` fu-fu-fu-fuck you ! ''