so she gets off campus , drunk and all pissed off , and she 's furious at herself over whatever it is , and she 's driving along and sees the cop car and then in a flash everything comes together and the end to her labyrinthine mystery is staring her right in the face and she just does it , straight and fast , just aims at the cop car and never swerves , not because she 's drunk but because she killed herself . ''