in the weird way of dreams , she knew that as long as she stayed awake he would n't be able to do anything , but in spite of her best efforts to keep her eyes open she got sleepier and sleepier until finally she could n't resist and fell asleep-now , there was something she 'd never done before , dreaming about trying to stay awake and falling asleep instead-only to wake with him on top of her , inside her , and with his hands wrapped around her throat .