i could hear the colonel still screaming , and i could feel hands on my back as i hunched forward , but i could only see her lying nak*d on a metal table , a small trickle of blood falling out of her half-teardrop nose , her green eyes open , staring off into the distance , her mouth turned up just enough to suggest the idea of a smile , and she had felt so warm against me , her mouth soft and warm on mine .