if truth , the whole truth , and nothing but the truth were to be told ( as i had once sworn to tell it and hadmy mothers gene at workat a captains mast , in which a seaman , a member of the watch i was in charge of , had been shamefully accused of insubordination , by a warrant officer , for whom in my presence hed refused to fetch a cup of coffee while we were at general quarters under kamikaze attack ) , i did have some compelling reasons for refusing to attend church .