he came up behind him and hugged him around his knees and his father was surprised and stank from whiskey , and crying still and for a while he spoke tearfully to abel , sorry for himself and wanting abel to understand his loneliness , but then he remembered that abel had run from him and hidden himself and left him alone , and he got angry again and beat abel too , leaving bruises all over his arms and legs , and later when abel would look at the bruises , he couldnt understand how his father could be so sad and so angry at the same time .