stillbird tried to scream but no sound came out , and she wanted to cry but her throat and eyes were dry , and she wanted to move , get away from abel by the door but her legs wouldnt work , and thank god her arms were paralyzed around her baby , or she would have dropped him , she couldnt even feel him there in her arms , but she remained stuck around him in place , in front of the man who had come finally after all those days of waiting for someone to come and take her away from her loneliness .