in that one moment where the beast waited for my reply , i flashed back to the four months of homosexual maleficence i had to read every day , and how disappointed i was to find that studies in modern american literature , was taken completely out of context by our teacher , who used it to raise awareness about his own agenda , and i came to a realization : my attendance was impeccable , my short papers were above average , my participation grade was through the roof , and there was no way my final paper was anything less than a c grade .