eleuthera felt like a second home now , a familiar place of heavenly sensation and rapture , the place where she had first felt sexual ecstasy for more than forty five minutes in a bed on her own without touching herself , in the heat of a tropical bahamas night , in total focus with her mind , in complete sexual union and harmony with herself , fantasizing about statues of serene women coming alive to please her and comfort her , taking her pleasure seriously , focused on pleasure .