i was attracted to her , for a woman her age shes pretty attractive but then i found some strange notes in her room and i thought she was crazy , so i got scared and backed off but then later i realized she wasnt and then i regretted pulling away from her because i knew she liked me , i was rambling and whining but maria indulged me , i could feel her pity , so i continued , and then your dad let it be known hed slept with her , though not in so many words and i felt like an idiot , anyway im rambling thats ok , i just wanted to be sure that you didnt have a hand in this , that it was all my fathers doing .