nathaniel and i had gained some serious weight through not having to even leave the house to get our late night supply of kebabs with burger sauce , chips , clairs and soft drinks ; i had upset my brother michael because i couldnt hold down a part-time job ( he only wanted what was best for me ) ; my relationship with some of my friends had dissolved because i wouldnt keep to the appointments i had made with them and i had a pretty chesty cough .