stack screamed , tearing himself free as the ambulance pulled away , only to fall back as she stuck him expertly in a finely worked manoeuvre , feinting left , dropping to one knee and bringing the syringe up in a single fluid motion , sticking the long needle in his arse and depressing the plunger before he even knew he 'd missed with the rabbit punch he 'd aimed at her , collapsing face down on the stretcher , mouth agape and tears spilling , the pressure of fingers at his wrist the last thing he was to feel for a while you must be cra-zy , ba.by to feel the way you do ; i must be mad as hell to feel it as well , but i know this feeling is true .