dear ni gh , i w anted y ou to hear i t from me , but don ' t k now how to s ay i t , s o i ' m j us t goi ng to w ri te i t. i ' m not c omi ng bac k to b row n. i tal k ed i t ov er w i th an a rmy rec rui ter and i feel that i t ' s the bes t pl ac e for me at thi s poi nt .