she stiffened very slightly and relaxed , stiffened and relaxed , he knew he was hurting her , did it again , he ought to stop , she lifted up against him , taking him , and there was a deep and bestial noise that he must have made , now , it had to be now , he had to ... shaking and gasping like a landed fish , he jerked free of her body and lay on her , feeling her br**sts crushed against him as he jerked and moaned .