i didna think i should see ye again , for if ever i saw a man set to meet his death ... '' he shook his head , his eyes half-closed , as though he saw not the sober , stalwart man before him , not the fraser of fraser 's ridge-but red jamie , the young warrior who had not gone back from gallantry , but because he sought to throw his life away , feeling it a burden-because he had lost me .