your memory wo n't leave my head haunting me , hunting me , driving me crazy , i wish i were dead every time i close my eyes , you 're there , ready to suck me into dark desires reality is where i no longer want to be , my dreams are my salvation i will cut you out , chop you up , break every bone in my body if only it meant peace from your dark melody i never played the songs when brax was home , but when it was just me and loneliness , words rained with heartache and need .