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I preface this post by saying that it was a challenge by my dear friend Hannah, and I never turn down a challenge. You have been warned.
He made a list of what he was made of, down to the marrow, down the bone. He taped it up on his fridge like a love note.
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And each one had a story. Each one defined him and broke him. He slid against the white tile wall of the bathroom and tried to fight the waves of emotion that struck him over and over. He folded his hands together and tried to think of words he could string together to form a prayer but his mind buzzed with flies and he ground his teeth. Outside he could hear the gunshots and shouts of dying men. Slowly, he lifted the razor to his throat. Too slow. The men in suits kicked down the door, rifles in hand, teeth grinding. He didn’t feel a thing.