and sometimes I rebelled against this obsession, called upon my will to help me against it, said to myself, "Are you worth no more than this, you make-believe great man?" And I forced myself to prolong my absence;
eta batzuetan nire nahimenaren laguntza eske, menpekotasun haren kontra asaldatzen nintzen, neure buruari esaten nion: "horra hire balioa, gizandi faltsu hori!", eta absentziak luzatzen ahalegintzen nintzen;