freely of his varied trials, and he finally went to my house to sleep. I went directly to bed, but he was a long time making his preparations, and I at length suspected he was indulging his old craving. For the first and only time in my life I spoke harshly to him, and characterized his abuse of himself and of the confidence of his friends as shameful. He replied depreciatingly, and turning down the gas-light came around and crept into bed beside me. We both lay a moment in silence, and feeling reproved for my harshness, I said: "Think, Fitz, of your warnings on the subject, and of your effort, in behalf of other victims." In a tone and with a pathos I can never forget, he answered — "He saved others, himself he could not save." Ludlow left for Europe in June 1870 in an attempt to recover, both from his addictions and from tuberculosis. He travelled from New York with his sister Helen, who had been a constant source of support, and his wife, Maria, and one of her sons. They stayed for a month and a half in London, then left for Geneva, Switzerland when his health again took a downturn. He died the morning after his thirty-fourth birthday, and, perhaps as he meant to predict in this passage in What Shall They Do to Be Saved?: "Over the opium-eater’s coffin at least, thank God! a wife and a sister can stop weeping and say, ‘He’s free.’" See also Fitz Hugh Ludlow Memorial Library Notes Sources A Brief Biography of Fitz Hugh Ludlow (1995 David Gross) Further reading Appleton’s Cyclopedia of American Biography: Fitz Hugh Ludlow Pioneer of Inner Space: The Life of Fitz Hugh Ludlow, Hasheesh Eater by Donald P. Dulchinos The Annotated Hasheesh Eater () External links The Annotated Hasheesh Eater “Among the Mormons” by Fitz Hugh Ludlow, The Atlantic Monthly April 1864 1836 births 1870 deaths Cannabis culture Writers from New York City American autobiographers Union College (New York) alumni Cannabis in the United States American Swedenborgians 19th-century American writers American psychedelic drug advocates Cannabis writers