of his own. Sonny decides he must meet Jackson's inspiration and sends a private investigator to get him. The P.I. finds Billy and brings him to Sonny. It was Sonny who had tortured Billy previously. Billy tells Sonny that he tortured someone that morning and realized that he hated it and that he wants to enslave himself to Sonny. Sam visits his mother and surprises her with the news that he's paid off her mortgage. Jackson returns home and finds Jed handcuffed in the shower. Saturday night Sam, Jackson and Jed go on a bar crawl through the city. Jackson runs into Sonny and Billy in the restroom of one bar and beats Billy up for what he did to Jed. Sonny gets turned on by it. When Jackson leaves the bar, Sam and Jed are arguing over Sam's unrequited love for someone. Sam drops Jackson and Jed off at Jackson's and gives Jed a videotape to give to Jackson. Jed goes inside and he and Jackson have sex. Sunday morning Jackson takes Jed to the airport for his flight back to Iowa. Jed tells him about the tape. Jackson returns home to find Alyssa and her girlfriend Sandra, who tell him that Sam has killed himself. On the tape, Sam says he's in love with Jackson. He knows he'll never be able to be with Jackson the way he wants to and that he has a lot of pain because of that. Distraught, Jackson runs all the way to Derek's place before the tape even ends. He has Derek reassure him that Derek loves him. Jackson strips naked and tells Derek "I'm all yours." Jackson says he doesn't know if he loves Derek but he does think Derek's pretty special, and special is "pretty fuckin' good." Cast Justin Herwick as Jackson: a frustrated punk poet and zine writer Shane Powers as Sam: Owner of an alternative record store and Jackson's boss and friend B. Wyatt as Jed: Jackson's cousin from Iowa Pamela Gidley as Alyssa: a lesbian photographer who is inspired by Jed Susannah Melvoin as Sandra: Alyssa's girlfriend Willie Garson as Sonny Spike: a closeted gay rock star Jonah Blechman as Billy: a young man who becomes infatuated with Sonny Sean Thibodeau as Derek: a mainstream gay man who falls for Jackson Henriette Mantel as Sam's Mom Norman Reedus as Sextools Delivery Boy Chris Freeman as Kurt Domain